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Speaker 1: Hi everyone, and welcome back to Unfiltered, the JBL podcast

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Speaker 1: and I heart Radio production and partnership with jb L.

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Speaker 1: I am your host, Betty who. I am so excited

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Speaker 1: about today's guest in today's episode because something I have

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Speaker 1: been thinking a ton about recently is how you can

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Speaker 1: share and set an example for people without putting yourself

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Speaker 1: too much on blast. You know, how do you come

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Speaker 1: to reconcile the balance between giving yourself to the people

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Speaker 1: who follow you and see you and want to know

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Speaker 1: more about you, while still holding onto a little bit

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Speaker 1: of it for yourself. Balance is actually a very big

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Speaker 1: theme of our episode today. So I could not be

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Speaker 1: more excited to introduce the one and only ms Carry Colby.

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Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, you guys, seriously talented drag performer. As

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Speaker 1: you already know, she is as fine as she is fierce.

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Speaker 1: You may know her from season fourteen and Rupulse drag Race.

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Speaker 1: Oh my God. Carrie is also an open book, which

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Speaker 1: is one of my favorite pots about her. She has

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Speaker 1: used her platforms like drag Race to share her life

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Speaker 1: story and by others with her visibility, whether friends or

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Speaker 1: fans from the legendary House of Colby. Yes, Carrie is

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Speaker 1: a trans queen trail blazer and a lip sync legend

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Speaker 1: and now one of my new best friends. So let's

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Speaker 1: just get right into it, shall we. Carrie Colby, I

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Speaker 1: can't believe you're here with me today and we're doing

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Speaker 1: this together. We are metavers and connected, and I feel

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Speaker 1: like it's in our destiny to be connected often and

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Speaker 1: I like it. I'm here for it. I know. We

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Speaker 1: got to tell the people we would literally just together

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Speaker 1: a couple of days ago playing a show in Dallas,

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Speaker 1: just you know, holding it down for the people and

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Speaker 1: the heat, sweating it out for the South. Honey, that

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Speaker 1: is exactly what we really did. I remember seeing you

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Speaker 1: come off stage and you were like, please don't hug me.

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Speaker 1: I'm disgusting, and I was like, I feel you. I'm

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Speaker 1: about to be that way trenched. We call it the

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Speaker 1: splash zone on tour when we get really hot. If

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Speaker 1: you're in the first four rows, we're doing turns where

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Speaker 1: it's moving and just it'll come off of our bodies

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Speaker 1: and it will hit you in the splash zone. So

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Speaker 1: you're welcome. I've been so excited to I'm like, you know,

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Speaker 1: of course, now we're besties because we played a show together,

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Speaker 1: and we go with so far back now. But I

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Speaker 1: genuinely believe that you were the perfect person to be

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Speaker 1: here with us doing this together because you This entire

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Speaker 1: podcast is supposed to be about being authentic and trying

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Speaker 1: to find yourself and living out loud. If you will

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Speaker 1: let me show you my true colors, honey, please, So

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Speaker 1: I guess let's like start at the very beginning, which is,

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Speaker 1: how did you? I know this is the obvious question,

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Speaker 1: but how did you start doing drag? I want to

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Speaker 1: know sort of where we all began here? Oh my gosh,

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Speaker 1: it's a long, long journey. But I feel like any

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Speaker 1: feminine spirited individual that resides in good old Texas, specifically

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Speaker 1: the Dallas metro Plex, there shall be some cross dressing,

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Speaker 1: I understand, And I feel like that's kind of like,

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Speaker 1: in a really funny way, how everything started for me.

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Speaker 1: I feel like I always knew that there was a

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Speaker 1: very feminine energy and entity, and in my story and

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Speaker 1: my journey, I think my biggest story arc, or my

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Speaker 1: biggest antagonist, really was my trauma. Because I always felt

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Speaker 1: to do one thing, I always felt to be one way,

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Speaker 1: I always felt to explore something and I was never

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Speaker 1: allowed to. I was never encouraged to. In fact, I

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Speaker 1: was punished oftentimes for that. And so my journey into

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Speaker 1: drag and everything really started to take hold of itself

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Speaker 1: when I was a little under age. But we were

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Speaker 1: in Dallas around fifteen to eighteen, and I was finally

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Speaker 1: in a place where I was in my own zone.

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Speaker 1: I was thankfully living with a roommate who saved my

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Speaker 1: life literally, but I was not looking over my back, like,

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Speaker 1: am I gonna get beat by my parents for playing

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Speaker 1: with this Barbie doll? Am I gonna have to write

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Speaker 1: a whole Psalms nineteen fifty two verse? Because I wanted

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Speaker 1: to play with some girls hair and like see what

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Speaker 1: it feels like, because I like that ship. But I

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Speaker 1: started to like finally tiptoe out, and it took baby steps.

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Speaker 1: It took putting a beautiful acrylic piece of plastic hair

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Speaker 1: getting the most glamorous handmade gown from somewhere in Asia

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Speaker 1: at a BCBG boutique. Honey, hello, you know that was

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Speaker 1: my first dress ever. So there was a lot of

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Speaker 1: stages to that. But I think drag really started from

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Speaker 1: my mind, and it started from me stepping out and

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Speaker 1: experimenting and exploring with my feminine side and building on that. Now,

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Speaker 1: there was a lot to build because it was definitely

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Speaker 1: a little humorous at first. Well it's so special. I mean, like,

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Speaker 1: look at where you are now, especially coming from a

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Speaker 1: place where your ought, your drag has come from this

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Speaker 1: like place of repression, in place of I cannot be myself.

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Speaker 1: I'm so proud and happy and so glad that you

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Speaker 1: put yourself in a position to be able to succeed

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Speaker 1: and be yourself. And hello, Victory, it's me. Hello, We're here. Yes.

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Speaker 1: I love hearing, especially queer, trans people of color, all

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Speaker 1: the beautiful layers and spectrums of our rainbow. I love

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Speaker 1: hearing about those success stories of someone having a moment

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Speaker 1: where they find themselves at a very early age. But

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Speaker 1: I think the one very important part of my story

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Speaker 1: is especially coming from a person of colors perspective. Unfortunately,

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Speaker 1: my story is so common, and that is the problem.

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Speaker 1: I think that there's suppression in a lot of the

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Speaker 1: umbrella of people that come from a repressive background and

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Speaker 1: very religiously structured. You know, that's our story, and I

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Speaker 1: love that I'm able to give that story a little

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Speaker 1: extra layer of life. Thank you for sharing that. Thank you.

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Speaker 1: This is the generation now where we get to break

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Speaker 1: the cycle. Will you like paint me a picture? As

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Speaker 1: far as how it started, like you know, you said,

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Speaker 1: there's a little piece of a cruelic care here and

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Speaker 1: maybe a little lips, Like where do you learn to

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Speaker 1: do makeup? Are you a YouTube makeup queen? Like how

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Speaker 1: did you sort of grow starting from like the piece

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Speaker 1: of aquilic care that you were putting on to being

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Speaker 1: this like completely evolved, Like you know your look, you

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Speaker 1: know your shape, you know what you're thing. So we're

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Speaker 1: talking like fourteen. This was the era of like the

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Speaker 1: very like made up super tan, gaudy Barbie dolls. This

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Speaker 1: was very like Kim Kardashian's like glam Lashes era. This

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Speaker 1: all the girls were entering their like glammy Barbie emulated era.

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Speaker 1: And I was obsessed with that because it was the

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Speaker 1: take inspiration from that to hopefully utilize that. I got

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Speaker 1: into working in makeup as soon as I turned eighteen.

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Speaker 1: So that was where I started kind of like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I know I like being pretty. I know I like

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Speaker 1: a better skill set around it? So I started doing

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Speaker 1: cosmetics as soon as I turned eighteen. I worked for clinique.

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Speaker 1: When I tell you, I had the most beat bitches

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Speaker 1: of got me in trouble at the time, but you know,

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Speaker 1: I made it my own thing. I was like, we're

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Speaker 1: gonna make you fabulous. You were being authentically you, no

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Speaker 1: matter where you were going, authentically be in good old

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Speaker 1: learning the aesthetic that I'm obsessed with. So I went

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Speaker 1: Silbury and just started shaping my artistry skill set more

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Speaker 1: and more and more cleaner cleaner, cleaner, and eventually the

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Speaker 1: my brother passing and me being like I need to

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Speaker 1: get myself together because he's not here no more. That's

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Speaker 1: an extension of my family's gone and what what am I?

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Speaker 1: Where am I? What am I doing? But to that point,

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Speaker 1: point it went from acrylic hare too. If it's not

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Speaker 1: you know, no more shaking goes. No more, this ain't

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Speaker 1: My focus on the fantasy that I liked never ever changed,

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Speaker 1: And at that point I was like taking more reference

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Speaker 1: from YouTube and beauty influencers because that was like, I think,

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Speaker 1: it's beautiful to see that That's something that I remember

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Speaker 1: between when that internet sensation to be who you are

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Speaker 1: it was like, no, we got some rules for you

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Speaker 1: be what you're supposed to be, and if you're not

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Speaker 1: what you're supposed to be, then now you're a problem.

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Speaker 1: So I'm so curious about how it feels for you now.

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Speaker 1: The show we just played in dollars together, like talk

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Speaker 1: go back to Texas when you're there, do you feel

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Speaker 1: like this push and pull between like, oh my god,

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Speaker 1: I had so much trauma here, but also look at

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Speaker 1: how beautiful this queer community is, Like, what's your experience

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Speaker 1: life experience you've had where you really do get to

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Speaker 1: be yourself when you've come to terms with who you are.

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Speaker 1: You explained it perfectly, you know, like you hit it

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Speaker 1: right on the spot about that there's there is a

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Speaker 1: lot of trauma, so it's almost like I'm on the

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Speaker 1: a familiar street. I remember what happened. And even some

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Speaker 1: of my trauma came from my queer community because you know,

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Speaker 1: going back a few years ago, there was a lot

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Speaker 1: less evolving. People were projecting and they were masking, especially

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Speaker 1: about trans people. I feel like that has been a

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Speaker 1: really new space. Work of the queer community has had

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Speaker 1: to be like, we have to make room for the

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Speaker 1: trans community here, because like that's the whole point exactly.

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Speaker 1: And education is key. I've like a lot of times,

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Speaker 1: especially in southern queer communities, people love to learn about themselves,

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Speaker 1: you know, like I don't want to put nobody on

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Speaker 1: the spot, but like the white twinks, like whatever, they

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Speaker 1: would learn specifically things that applied to being a twink

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Speaker 1: and being Caucasian, and that was their ministry. That was

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Speaker 1: their struggle, and that was their thing. Everyone's the main

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Speaker 1: character in their own life. They were all yeah. And

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Speaker 1: I think that that's something that really has changed in

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Speaker 1: Texas since I was there, where I think there's been

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Speaker 1: enough people coming in from other places it has reshaped

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Speaker 1: it a little bit. The people do seem to be

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Speaker 1: in a much better headspace. What's the balance for you

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Speaker 1: between like living by example and having sort of it's

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Speaker 1: definitely a bud and to Bolt, I'm always trying to

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Speaker 1: find my balance for that. So I wonder how you

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Speaker 1: working on alone, and that's really exciting. It's really really exciting.

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Speaker 1: It's a passion that I've had for a long time,

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Speaker 1: I'm so excited to see what that world is going

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Speaker 1: to be like because it's unscharted territory. The sky is

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Speaker 1: literally the limit for you. And if you just tell

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Speaker 1: will happen. There is no doubt in my mind. Sisters

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Speaker 1: Sis just thriving. Honey. I'm so grateful for your time

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Speaker 1: enjoyed our time together. Thank you, Miss Betty, thank you,

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Speaker 1: thank you very much. All Right, that's it. I want

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Speaker 1: least my absolute gorgeous, gorgeous girl. We love to see

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Speaker 1: this incredible, living, out loud person that I think should

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Speaker 1: inspire us. All. So, that's it for today's episode, But

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Speaker 1: join me again next week when we talk about being

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Speaker 1: an elite athlete while staying authentic won. The game is over,

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Speaker 1: and don't forget to join in on the conversation. Share

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Speaker 1: YouTube at Betty Who Music. Until next Time Unfiltered. The

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Speaker 1: Betty Who. Our executive producer is Molly Sosha. Ep of

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