WEBVTT - Beauty standards episode 0:00:05.320 --> 0:00:17.280 Wait, we need to drop the Kai file. 0:00:18.120 --> 0:00:20.760 They wait, we're starting with this. 0:00:22.440 --> 0:00:24.840 The Kai files would just be a double text of 0:00:25.000 --> 0:00:27.320 hello to everybody who hasn't this. 0:00:27.960 --> 0:00:32.960 This is the Dru and Kai files napped out. 0:00:33.560 --> 0:00:35.760 Kai is bitch made because he didn't even stay the night. 0:00:35.880 --> 0:00:38.080 He couldn't handle it. He couldn't handle the pressure of 0:00:38.080 --> 0:00:39.639 sleeping next the two bodies. 0:00:39.840 --> 0:00:42.239 But the thing is is in this picture, me and 0:00:42.400 --> 0:00:44.520 Kai look fucked up. 0:00:44.640 --> 0:00:47.760 We look so ugly looking. And I actually will say 0:00:48.000 --> 0:00:49.760 ten percent of the reason why I left was up 0:00:49.800 --> 0:00:53.840 because of that picture. You're dude. It really fucked with me. 0:00:53.880 --> 0:00:55.200 And I said, I need to get a haircut. I 0:00:55.280 --> 0:00:56.160 got a haircut today. 0:00:56.440 --> 0:00:59.040 Oh so you booked it right in the middle of 0:00:59.120 --> 0:01:02.480 our fucking podcast session. So you lie. 0:01:03.160 --> 0:01:09.280 So I make my appointments a month ahead of time. 0:01:09.959 --> 0:01:13.800 But yeah, I looked really bad and I felt really weird. 0:01:13.840 --> 0:01:15.960 When I drove back home, I was like, oh no, 0:01:16.040 --> 0:01:18.360 what do I look like in my even sexy? 0:01:18.760 --> 0:01:21.440 It's so odd how men, because so much later in 0:01:21.440 --> 0:01:23.319 their life, and especially because of right now, for the 0:01:23.319 --> 0:01:26.039 first time, men are being held to beauty standards, even 0:01:26.240 --> 0:01:30.679 like the slightest above what they've ever had. Which was 0:01:30.760 --> 0:01:32.760 none and women have just had that for so long. 0:01:32.880 --> 0:01:35.520 Like whatever you were thinking last night is what I 0:01:35.560 --> 0:01:38.640 had to go through. I will never forget. I love 0:01:38.760 --> 0:01:43.480 Josh so much because he was the person Josh without 0:01:43.520 --> 0:01:47.600 realizing it helped me break free from like beauty standards 0:01:47.640 --> 0:01:51.160 and like my idea of what I was supposed to 0:01:51.160 --> 0:01:53.080 look like on camera, because before I was ever in 0:01:53.160 --> 0:01:56.040 Josh's videos, I would only ever on camera like obviously 0:01:56.080 --> 0:01:59.440 on a set or something, but usually like if it's 0:01:59.480 --> 0:02:01.200 like a photo shoot or something, they want you to 0:02:01.240 --> 0:02:03.240 look good. That's the whole point. They're trying to get 0:02:03.240 --> 0:02:08.600 a photo of you where you look good. And everything 0:02:08.600 --> 0:02:11.000 else was just videos I had recorded on myself and 0:02:11.120 --> 0:02:13.320 edited so I could always take out when I didn't 0:02:13.320 --> 0:02:15.320 find myself flattering, which like if you look at my 0:02:15.320 --> 0:02:18.880 old YouTube videos, it's very like Ariana Grande esque, where 0:02:18.919 --> 0:02:21.920 it's like there's an angle, there's there's yeah, there's there's 0:02:22.040 --> 0:02:23.440 like showing. 0:02:23.200 --> 0:02:25.400 The single dimple, showing simple dimple. 0:02:25.600 --> 0:02:29.040 Yeah, like there's a whole vibe there. Josh has a video, 0:02:29.080 --> 0:02:32.880 it's the Big Bear video for my birthday when my 0:02:32.919 --> 0:02:36.919 eyebrows were bleached, my hair was bleached, and like they 0:02:36.960 --> 0:02:39.239 surprised me when I had just woken up, and I 0:02:39.680 --> 0:02:42.440 look like in that to me, I look like the worst. 0:02:42.440 --> 0:02:46.160 I remember when he showed that video to me. I also, 0:02:46.240 --> 0:02:47.720 I'm not the kind of person also to be like 0:02:47.720 --> 0:02:49.720 take that out. I look bad. But I was like, whoa, 0:02:49.840 --> 0:02:51.760 I I had whatever you were feeling last night. That's 0:02:51.760 --> 0:02:55.839 where my brain was at. And I was so disgusted 0:02:55.880 --> 0:02:58.359 with myself. And then like I finished watching the video 0:02:58.639 --> 0:03:00.840 and then I was like, this video was so funny 0:03:00.880 --> 0:03:04.400 and fun and sweet, and honestly, there was something freeing 0:03:04.440 --> 0:03:06.640 about knowing that there would be something of me that 0:03:06.720 --> 0:03:09.920 I found that ugly public, because I'm like, if I 0:03:09.960 --> 0:03:13.200 can live with myself looking like that, it's only up 0:03:13.200 --> 0:03:14.880 from here, Like I don't know, I live on. Like 0:03:14.919 --> 0:03:16.880 even the picture of me in the car like like 0:03:16.960 --> 0:03:20.840 all squished like that, to me is like so funny 0:03:20.880 --> 0:03:23.440 because I'm like, there's something magical about the fact that 0:03:23.480 --> 0:03:25.239 I can look like that, but I can also. 0:03:27.760 --> 0:03:29.840 Surf look terrible like this. 0:03:30.160 --> 0:03:33.399 Yeah, yeah, whoa, whoa dude, she looks gorge. 0:03:33.240 --> 0:03:35.360 Well, no, she looks better in the picture when she's 0:03:35.440 --> 0:03:38.520 all scrunched up. That is Drew's favorite version. 0:03:38.600 --> 0:03:40.320 I mean no, that and then the other picture you 0:03:40.360 --> 0:03:43.080 took of me in the UK. 0:03:45.040 --> 0:03:46.080 And then post. 0:03:47.760 --> 0:03:49.160 Have we explained the lore of that? 0:03:49.400 --> 0:03:53.600 I don't think so, so, uh, Enya like did this 0:03:53.680 --> 0:04:02.120 like shoot in the UK and it was to be polite, horrible. 0:04:03.600 --> 0:04:07.920 And the experience was literally. 0:04:13.200 --> 0:04:17.120 That's what that exactly like exactly and so and you 0:04:17.160 --> 0:04:19.840 had a really rough day on set and she came 0:04:19.880 --> 0:04:22.520 home and I've only ever seen her crash out like 0:04:22.560 --> 0:04:26.440 this like maybe once or twice before, and like it 0:04:26.520 --> 0:04:30.240 was it was a rage in an upset and an 0:04:30.320 --> 0:04:35.320 anger and a sadness that like, uh, can only be 0:04:35.400 --> 0:04:37.920 achieved like a couple times of life, like a couple 0:04:37.960 --> 0:04:38.279 of times. 0:04:38.279 --> 0:04:40.760 It was definitely like you have five crash outs like 0:04:40.800 --> 0:04:42.400 that in your whole life and then the six to 0:04:42.440 --> 0:04:43.799 one will result in heart attack. 0:04:43.920 --> 0:04:46.599 Yeah, it takes you, It takes it takes years off 0:04:46.640 --> 0:04:49.919 of your life. Yeah, crash out like that. And she 0:04:50.080 --> 0:04:51.800 finally like calmed down and it was like me and 0:04:51.880 --> 0:04:54.159 you and Josiah and that, and. 0:04:54.279 --> 0:04:59.280 I was just like okay, like I was just hair tied, sweatpants, 0:04:59.360 --> 0:05:02.640 chilling with no makeup on ass vibes like just. 0:05:02.680 --> 0:05:05.560 Keep in mind. Enya had just like self regulated. She 0:05:05.600 --> 0:05:07.920 had just calmed down, and then it was me and 0:05:08.000 --> 0:05:10.320 Ya and Josiah and the Wizard's that's just like chilling 0:05:10.360 --> 0:05:15.880 on the bed. And I took a picture of Enya 0:05:14.200 --> 0:05:20.039 and it was it wasn't a flattering photo, and so 0:05:20.320 --> 0:05:21.640 she said, mind you. 0:05:21.800 --> 0:05:24.000 I like cried like I was already in such a 0:05:24.040 --> 0:05:26.920 bad state that like I literally saw and I did 0:05:26.920 --> 0:05:28.880 the thing like it was the kind of cry that 0:05:28.960 --> 0:05:30.760 I laughed so hard and then I started crying because 0:05:30.760 --> 0:05:32.279 I was like, I can't believe I can look like that, 0:05:32.480 --> 0:05:35.640 like in my worst moment, I do look my worst. 0:05:35.560 --> 0:05:37.600 Like actually yeah, And it was. 0:05:37.560 --> 0:05:40.960 An awful side profile photo of me, and I just 0:05:41.000 --> 0:05:43.240 looked so bad and I was like, Drew, please fucking 0:05:43.279 --> 0:05:44.880 delete that, delete that right now. 0:05:45.000 --> 0:05:49.599 No, So I deleted it, but I also edited a 0:05:49.720 --> 0:05:52.279 version and kept that one on my phone forever and 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:56.120 then put it on Instick and I just sent it 0:05:56.160 --> 0:05:56.359 to you. 0:05:59.040 --> 0:06:01.560 He loves showing me this picture. 0:06:02.360 --> 0:06:04.039 Just I will just like pull his phone out and 0:06:04.080 --> 0:06:05.200 it'll be his background. 0:06:08.160 --> 0:06:11.799 Mind you, my worst moment, like my lovely. 0:06:13.120 --> 0:06:13.640 Yeah, it was. 0:06:13.600 --> 0:06:16.479 Literally that trip for me because I was also going 0:06:16.520 --> 0:06:20.560 through like that was the year my family was crashing 0:06:20.600 --> 0:06:24.000 out too. So I was going through like family spiritual psychosis, 0:06:24.040 --> 0:06:28.160 relationship psychosis, and now work psychosis, and like why am 0:06:28.160 --> 0:06:30.960 I alive? And am I nothing but a fool for 0:06:31.080 --> 0:06:32.760 people to play with and put their hands up my 0:06:32.839 --> 0:06:37.160 butt and play with me like a fucking puppet. And 0:06:37.400 --> 0:06:39.640 then you took that picture of me and it just made. 0:06:40.480 --> 0:06:41.839 The trip forever. You were happy. 0:06:41.839 --> 0:06:44.360 I know, I know it was so perfect. But yeah, 0:06:44.400 --> 0:06:47.200 I've like whatever you're experiencing about, like feeling ugly, I've 0:06:47.279 --> 0:06:50.680 just you're also kind of nude. I feel like seeing 0:06:50.720 --> 0:06:52.320 yourself on camera so often. 0:06:52.880 --> 0:06:57.480 Yeah, I also do have like clinical levels of dysmorphia. 0:06:58.160 --> 0:07:02.680 I really do. It's it's so insane. We were talking 0:07:02.680 --> 0:07:04.080 about this before. I think we talked about this on 0:07:04.120 --> 0:07:07.200 the podcast, but taking photos in the moment being like 0:07:08.040 --> 0:07:10.160 I can't even I physically can't even look at that photo. 0:07:10.240 --> 0:07:13.760 And then within two years you look back and Apple 0:07:13.800 --> 0:07:16.960 shows you like on this day or whatever, and you're like, oh, 0:07:17.040 --> 0:07:19.160 I have no problem actually. 0:07:18.760 --> 0:07:20.040 With Yeah, Like I was. 0:07:21.720 --> 0:07:27.240 Like, I literally edit my I edited myself in funny 0:07:27.240 --> 0:07:29.840 ways for a decade because I literally was like I'm 0:07:29.840 --> 0:07:32.160 so ugly, like I can't be seen on the internet. 0:07:32.160 --> 0:07:34.200 But I have to post on the internet, so I'm 0:07:34.200 --> 0:07:36.640 going to make myself super fucking ugly. And it was 0:07:36.640 --> 0:07:41.480 like a defense mechanism obviously. But now I think I'm hot. 0:07:42.040 --> 0:07:43.840 Actually no, I don't even think i'm hot. I know 0:07:43.880 --> 0:07:46.720 I'm hot. Like the first thing that Quinn said to 0:07:46.800 --> 0:07:49.000 us yesterday when she was talking to us, she looked 0:07:49.000 --> 0:07:51.720 at me and was like, what's it like being hot now? 0:07:51.800 --> 0:07:57.080 And I was like, Ah, is it different? It's different? 0:07:58.800 --> 0:08:02.239 What is the what's the difference between your experience now 0:08:02.440 --> 0:08:06.040 and then when you were at like Peek, like you 0:08:06.080 --> 0:08:08.560 had the beer, your hair was you look like you 0:08:08.600 --> 0:08:12.320 got hit by lightning, your hair was bleached. You were 0:08:12.400 --> 0:08:14.760 wearing like shirts that said like I just came in 0:08:14.880 --> 0:08:15.960 my f or something. 0:08:17.520 --> 0:08:19.040 I mean, I'm sure you can imagine. 0:08:19.480 --> 0:08:20.120 Is it different. 0:08:20.480 --> 0:08:23.200 Yeah, it's really different. I get like a hit on 0:08:23.440 --> 0:08:27.760 all the time. Now. I get people coming up to 0:08:27.880 --> 0:08:30.800 talk to me all the time, just randomly because I 0:08:30.800 --> 0:08:33.880 think I have very kind nice They trust me. I 0:08:33.880 --> 0:08:35.480 have a chiseled jaw. 0:08:35.679 --> 0:08:37.360 You do, Yeah, it is really nice. 0:08:37.360 --> 0:08:41.040 I have a perfect nose. I have negative canthal tilt. 0:08:41.080 --> 0:08:41.839 But it kind of plays. 0:08:41.880 --> 0:08:44.440 I'm not saying shit, don't put don't fucking say shit 0:08:44.559 --> 0:08:46.760 like that here, because like there's girls listening and we 0:08:46.800 --> 0:08:49.840 don't hear that. Shiit we Hey, I'm taking. 0:08:49.600 --> 0:08:53.800 That your your maxilla is no. 0:08:53.960 --> 0:08:58.080 Actually, actually I am being dead serious because one time 0:08:58.120 --> 0:09:00.760 you said a word like that, Like I I begged 0:09:00.760 --> 0:09:03.080 you to say something like that to me, and you 0:09:03.160 --> 0:09:05.200 said a word to me. And I've now forgotten it, 0:09:05.280 --> 0:09:07.959 but I remember I was like, oh my god, I've 0:09:08.080 --> 0:09:11.040 never looked at my face like that, Like I've literally never. 0:09:11.040 --> 0:09:13.640 Like when I first like went down the rabbit hole. 0:09:13.760 --> 0:09:18.199 Like maybe it completely I mean that's serious. It completely 0:09:18.280 --> 0:09:22.000 like changed the way I like would observe like human beings. 0:09:22.040 --> 0:09:25.600 Like for like two years straight, I would literally look 0:09:25.640 --> 0:09:27.720 at someone's face and like be able to, like na 0:09:27.920 --> 0:09:30.520 name the flaws and the bones and like if you 0:09:30.559 --> 0:09:32.920 had a couple of millimeters of growth there, you would 0:09:32.960 --> 0:09:35.040 be better and like all of this ship. 0:09:35.240 --> 0:09:37.400 I remember when you and Josh were both that's when 0:09:37.440 --> 0:09:40.560 I realized like boys were starting to be affected by 0:09:40.640 --> 0:09:42.439 the internet, like by media. 0:09:42.720 --> 0:09:45.160 I think they always have been. I think it's just 0:09:45.280 --> 0:09:47.640 been publicized. 0:09:46.800 --> 0:09:48.600 Now it's definitely gotten worse. 0:09:48.800 --> 0:09:51.160 Yeah, yeah, I know, but that's what I'm saying, is 0:09:51.160 --> 0:09:53.840 it's become like what it is for women, Like it's 0:09:53.960 --> 0:09:55.120 always this. 0:09:55.559 --> 0:09:58.560 It's not even close the women. But I know you're saying, 0:09:58.600 --> 0:09:59.400 I know you're I. 0:09:59.400 --> 0:10:01.280 Will say I I think that it's been a thing 0:10:01.320 --> 0:10:04.360 for longer than people realize. I think it's I could 0:10:04.400 --> 0:10:05.440 probably point to. 0:10:05.840 --> 0:10:09.440 In my head, it's like twenty tenrombi models. Oh yeah, 0:10:09.559 --> 0:10:11.720 like post that eras when I feel like it got 0:10:11.800 --> 0:10:12.120 I think. 0:10:12.080 --> 0:10:14.720 Most people are like, oh, the looksmaxing thing is men 0:10:15.640 --> 0:10:19.720 feeling like they, you know, are like experiencing some sort 0:10:19.760 --> 0:10:22.319 of percentage of what women feel. And I'm like, no, 0:10:22.520 --> 0:10:25.400 that's I think that's actually been going on. You're right 0:10:25.400 --> 0:10:28.040 since like twenty tens. Yeah, because I remember there was 0:10:28.040 --> 0:10:31.760 like a Glee Like I remember watching a Glee episode 0:10:31.840 --> 0:10:32.960 like twenty years ago. 0:10:33.240 --> 0:10:36.080 Maybe you ever looked into the beauty industry, I. 0:10:36.040 --> 0:10:41.080 Like in the eighteen hundreds, like literally before before we 0:10:41.200 --> 0:10:43.320 had fucking SD cards. 0:10:43.080 --> 0:10:44.400 And who set that system up? 0:10:45.400 --> 0:10:49.680 By bye? That's like I don't know, but y'all know 0:10:49.720 --> 0:10:51.480 how I get. When it comes to empathy for men, 0:10:51.520 --> 0:10:53.360 I have a hard time. I'm trying to think of 0:10:53.400 --> 0:10:56.240 like an equivalent of like I don't know, you know what, 0:10:56.240 --> 0:10:58.720 what's a good equivalent is like, imagine going to school 0:10:58.720 --> 0:11:00.240 and then a teacher is kind of mean to you 0:11:00.280 --> 0:11:02.320 because you're not as pretty as the other girl. It's 0:11:02.400 --> 0:11:06.760 just the whole thing. The whole thing feels very like yeah, 0:11:06.920 --> 0:11:10.679 and I just want to blow it up with bombs. 0:11:11.760 --> 0:11:20.320 And speaking of bombs, Trump's address to the Nation tonight, guys. 0:11:18.960 --> 0:11:20.560 I was thinking about that this morning. I was like, 0:11:20.600 --> 0:11:23.040 this is going to go up on Friday, and the 0:11:23.120 --> 0:11:26.640 amount of conversations and things that are going to happen 0:11:26.679 --> 0:11:31.839 in the next two days. This video, this video somehow 0:11:31.920 --> 0:11:34.680 is like eight years ago. This is the whole video already. 0:11:34.720 --> 0:11:37.080 Everything we've spoken about, is it happened eight years ago? 0:11:37.800 --> 0:11:40.880 Why do snores fall asleep? First? 0:11:41.360 --> 0:11:43.800 Why are you gonna talk about me like this? Why? 0:11:45.040 --> 0:11:48.920 I've been completely ganged up on? And it started with 0:11:49.040 --> 0:11:53.200 Josiah after years, after years of this being my close 0:11:53.240 --> 0:11:55.680 friend group who loves me, and it's like, oh my god, 0:11:55.760 --> 0:11:57.160 let's all do sleepovers all the time. 0:11:57.200 --> 0:11:59.560 That's our whole baby, baby, baby, hold on, before you 0:11:59.600 --> 0:12:02.640 get was I always like this? I love your snory? Wait? 0:12:02.679 --> 0:12:05.320 But was I always snoring this bad? No, it's gotten 0:12:05.480 --> 0:12:08.840 it's gotten worse. Hold me definitely because I smoke so 0:12:08.920 --> 0:12:13.400 much now too. I love your snoring, like I really 0:12:13.480 --> 0:12:17.120 enjoy it. I know other people don't, but it's just 0:12:17.160 --> 0:12:19.120 like a it's just a question I have why the 0:12:19.240 --> 0:12:20.760 snorers like always fall asleep. 0:12:20.800 --> 0:12:24.840 First, y'all can discuss, because you know what. 0:12:24.800 --> 0:12:27.920 Because they need the sleep because they getting percent of 0:12:28.000 --> 0:12:29.920 the air that a normal person gets. 0:12:30.080 --> 0:12:33.440 There's something from the night before, and yeah, there's been 0:12:33.640 --> 0:12:37.160 There was a moment last night I thought you were 0:12:37.240 --> 0:12:38.000 dying next to me. 0:12:38.240 --> 0:12:40.600 I've heard any of sleep, and I genuinely was like, 0:12:41.640 --> 0:12:43.200 I think I need to wake this person up because 0:12:43.200 --> 0:12:44.720 they're not going to be with us in the morning. 0:12:46.000 --> 0:12:48.320 But then you wake up and you're so refreshed. You 0:12:48.320 --> 0:12:50.760 wake up at like eight am. Actually today you slept 0:12:50.800 --> 0:12:52.720 in crazy. Yeah it's because I took that edible. So 0:12:52.880 --> 0:12:54.120 also my bed too. 0:12:54.520 --> 0:12:56.760 Yeah, your bed is so so comfy. 0:12:56.880 --> 0:12:58.040 Your bed is so comfying. Bitch. 0:12:58.080 --> 0:13:01.120 I started bleeding. I was like, really, really. 0:13:01.360 --> 0:13:05.240 You have bled all over my white bedding. But you know, 0:13:05.840 --> 0:13:07.280 I don't care. Accidents happen. 0:13:07.360 --> 0:13:08.880 It's kind of a blessing, you know, because this is 0:13:08.920 --> 0:13:10.840 the second time it's happened in your bed. And what's 0:13:10.880 --> 0:13:15.000 crazy is I think I've only woken up like that 0:13:15.120 --> 0:13:19.440 to my period, like once in my own bed, not 0:13:19.559 --> 0:13:20.719 on the mattress I have right now. 0:13:20.720 --> 0:13:21.920 That was on my old mattress. 0:13:22.120 --> 0:13:23.600 So I've done it more on your bed than my 0:13:23.600 --> 0:13:25.719 own bed because you because my body feels so sick. 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:27.920 I was about to say that you feel safe with me, 0:13:28.559 --> 0:13:31.319 you feel like protected, and that. 0:13:31.320 --> 0:13:33.839 Damn bed is so comforted because it wasn't on your 0:13:33.840 --> 0:13:34.480 other mattresses. 0:13:34.480 --> 0:13:37.600 It's your really nice mattress. Pissed in it though no 0:13:37.640 --> 0:13:40.120 one's pissed in it. No, I'm saying, I'm surprised no 0:13:40.160 --> 0:13:43.199 one's pissed in it. I haven't pissed all over it. 0:13:43.280 --> 0:13:45.439 And I heard what you said. I was repeating it 0:13:45.480 --> 0:13:48.240 because I'm like, why are you surprised none of your 0:13:48.760 --> 0:13:53.120 grown friends and like partners Because. 0:13:52.880 --> 0:13:54.520 I pissed y'all's bed all the time. 0:13:54.800 --> 0:13:55.559 You pissed in my bed. 0:13:55.840 --> 0:13:58.320 That's like the point of sharing beds? Do I just 0:13:58.360 --> 0:13:59.720 not notice? Because of my nice sweats? 0:14:00.920 --> 0:14:01.880 I thought that was squirt? 0:14:02.600 --> 0:14:03.120 What it is? 0:14:03.840 --> 0:14:04.760 Boys don't squirt? 0:14:05.040 --> 0:14:06.000 Yeah? Male squirting? 0:14:07.360 --> 0:14:10.439 Yeah, it's cream on it's it's creama out of the hole. 0:14:11.520 --> 0:14:13.880 It's it's prostate fluid exactly. 0:14:14.679 --> 0:14:21.080 Let's educate the listeners on male square square. Yeah, I 0:14:21.400 --> 0:14:24.280 feel like maybe you actually did feel safest because I was. 0:14:24.440 --> 0:14:27.080 I was there, you left, and then I felt very safe. 0:14:27.200 --> 0:14:31.480 Probably, No, you felt safe because you were like, oh, 0:14:31.640 --> 0:14:36.360 I'm used to there being this masculine I want to say, 0:14:36.680 --> 0:14:40.680 like a role model, role model like soldier. I'm just 0:14:40.720 --> 0:14:43.800 imagining like me running through like a beach and there's 0:14:43.800 --> 0:14:47.600 ship exploding behind me. I feel like that's maybe what you. 0:14:47.640 --> 0:14:51.200 Felt was like, why the fuck would that imagery put 0:14:51.240 --> 0:14:54.680 me at ease? Like you running for your life? 0:14:54.880 --> 0:14:56.640 This is literally this is just what the vibe that 0:14:56.680 --> 0:15:00.240 I got from you, so like, I don't shoot the messenger. 0:15:00.240 --> 0:15:03.880 You're walking annoying. Okay, Well I fell asleep very quickly, 0:15:03.920 --> 0:15:06.080 because I always fall sep quickly. I will say I've 0:15:06.120 --> 0:15:09.560 also just naturally been somebody that once my body hits 0:15:09.600 --> 0:15:11.200 a bed, I'm going to make. 0:15:11.240 --> 0:15:13.480 Yeah you you knock a d funk out? 0:15:13.920 --> 0:15:22.360 Wait hold on rain space, I mean, oh ooh, is 0:15:22.400 --> 0:15:23.640 that why you're laughing at my singing? 0:15:23.840 --> 0:15:27.080 No, Drew's the facial expression you were making was how 0:15:27.120 --> 0:15:30.120 people looked in like Tenna types the first photos where 0:15:30.120 --> 0:15:34.880 people didn't know you're supposed to smile are You're just 0:15:34.920 --> 0:15:36.720 seeing you in this moment of introspection. 0:15:38.240 --> 0:15:40.240 That's how I always feel. I don't know if I'm 0:15:40.280 --> 0:15:41.160 supposed to smile. 0:15:43.080 --> 0:15:44.920 Well, wow, it was really sad. 0:15:44.960 --> 0:15:50.600 Screw what screwtinow. I can't believe y'all don't remember screwed 0:15:50.640 --> 0:15:53.360 new No. I brought it up to ya today. There's 0:15:53.480 --> 0:15:56.920 like that song don't tell my boyfriend he stole my? 0:15:57.080 --> 0:16:00.280 She stole my screwtinu and it was like people thought 0:16:00.440 --> 0:16:01.600 she said scrutinou. 0:16:02.080 --> 0:16:05.400 Well, you know what I think it is is a 0:16:05.600 --> 0:16:10.080 normal person like myself listens to music and I hear 0:16:10.120 --> 0:16:12.360 the words. Then there's the people like you who kind 0:16:12.360 --> 0:16:14.920 of can't read, and that translates. 0:16:15.040 --> 0:16:16.760 Should I show them that I can read? 0:16:18.480 --> 0:16:20.920 Okay, you can read, you can't read out loud? 0:16:21.120 --> 0:16:25.360 Yeah, aloud, which I'm sorry for being loud. Will be 0:16:25.360 --> 0:16:27.400 a little more quiet, dude. 0:16:27.480 --> 0:16:29.840 Last night that was like the funniest thing I'd heard 0:16:29.840 --> 0:16:30.720 in eighteen years. 0:16:30.960 --> 0:16:32.080 I'm sorry for being loud. 0:16:32.760 --> 0:16:34.760 I'm sorry for being loud. I'll be a little more quiet. 0:16:34.800 --> 0:16:39.920 We'll be a little more quiet, dude. I am so loud. 0:16:40.080 --> 0:16:43.280 I think it's I don't know, but it's because my 0:16:43.320 --> 0:16:46.320 family is loud, Like my dad is and mom are 0:16:46.360 --> 0:16:50.000 really loud. My little sister talks about it all the time. Likely, Yeah, 0:16:50.080 --> 0:16:53.280 Nathalie will literally be like, bro, y'all are the loudest people. Yeah, 0:16:53.320 --> 0:16:57.680 her and low are mad quiet And it's just like me, Sophia, 0:16:57.920 --> 0:17:00.800 my mom and dad who are like sorry for. 0:17:00.800 --> 0:17:09.480 I, well, I'm quiet to be loud you, I'm a 0:17:09.560 --> 0:17:10.200 quiet person. 0:17:10.200 --> 0:17:14.639 I actually would argue that you are relatively quiet. Mind you, 0:17:14.760 --> 0:17:16.960 I am partially. 0:17:16.480 --> 0:17:20.480 Deaf the amount. It's not just you. I think it's 0:17:20.520 --> 0:17:25.479 like the frequency of my voice or something like people 0:17:25.960 --> 0:17:28.800 literally can't hear me. Like I'll be like talking in 0:17:28.840 --> 0:17:31.760 a circle of people and I'll like chime in and 0:17:32.520 --> 0:17:37.000 no one will bat and you always hear and I've 0:17:37.000 --> 0:17:40.280 always you always hear. We need to seriously, like, I 0:17:40.600 --> 0:17:42.360 need to talk about it. 0:17:43.200 --> 0:17:45.200 I have the bitch with my little gay friend being 0:17:45.240 --> 0:17:48.479 like you said something, you said something. Wait, wait, Drew 0:17:48.520 --> 0:17:49.040 said something. 0:17:50.320 --> 0:17:53.119 You'll hear me when no one else hears me, and 0:17:53.200 --> 0:17:56.560 that's a beautiful thing. But yeah, can you always hear me? 0:17:56.600 --> 0:18:01.320 Because because there's a all out and that's okay. 0:18:01.560 --> 0:18:07.560 That's like, oh, her nub is falling off. Oh ew wait, no, 0:18:07.680 --> 0:18:09.240 leave it. It's a penetrative nub. 0:18:10.000 --> 0:18:13.120 No, it's like when turkey teeth fall off and there's 0:18:13.160 --> 0:18:16.800 those nubs, like that's what that's No, we're. 0:18:16.680 --> 0:18:19.040 Finding out that you've been fucking this year the whole time. 0:18:19.119 --> 0:18:21.360 I haven't. I have not been doing that. My ear 0:18:21.440 --> 0:18:23.520 is ringing, and I think someone's talking shit about me. 0:18:24.200 --> 0:18:25.440 No, someone's talking good. 0:18:26.160 --> 0:18:28.520 Which air is it? It's this one, my right ear. 0:18:28.600 --> 0:18:31.080 I think that's good. Is right? You're good. 0:18:31.960 --> 0:18:34.320 I don't know you got comp I don't know much 0:18:34.359 --> 0:18:35.400 about magic. 0:18:35.880 --> 0:18:38.080 Both of us. Yes, I love you, I love you. 0:18:38.200 --> 0:18:43.760 I love you. Yeah. So I beg kaya spend the 0:18:43.840 --> 0:18:46.440 night like probably twice a week, just to hang out 0:18:46.440 --> 0:18:48.199 and have a spind the night as grown men and 0:18:48.240 --> 0:18:50.000 sleep in the same bed. And he won't do it. 0:18:50.600 --> 0:18:53.680 We have done that, we slept together recently. 0:18:53.480 --> 0:18:56.040 But like it? Did it? Did it not feel good? 0:18:56.040 --> 0:18:57.959 Do you not want to replicate that experience? 0:18:58.800 --> 0:19:00.800 Sorry? I was trying to make a face and point 0:19:00.800 --> 0:19:03.840 that true for audio listeners who are also even visual 0:19:03.840 --> 0:19:06.160 listeners because there's no camera for me. But I think 0:19:06.160 --> 0:19:08.440 that's coming in the in the mail, right, like, that's 0:19:08.440 --> 0:19:09.760 what we have that order. 0:19:09.800 --> 0:19:11.880 It's on the way, it's it's on the way. 0:19:12.200 --> 0:19:15.800 I made a funny face to and she laughed for 0:19:16.080 --> 0:19:20.000 audio listeners. But we we slept together and then we 0:19:20.040 --> 0:19:22.199 pillow talked at like two am. 0:19:22.440 --> 0:19:24.360 We did, and then we couldn't sleep. 0:19:25.359 --> 0:19:29.800 We were both showered one after another. Yes, yeah, ah 0:19:29.920 --> 0:19:31.560 so polite. 0:19:31.640 --> 0:19:35.199 It was really nice. I think me. 0:19:35.440 --> 0:19:40.000 Actually, I the snore you snore, I think so No, 0:19:40.080 --> 0:19:42.359 it's like a cute snore. It's like a wholesome snore. 0:19:42.640 --> 0:19:43.120 Tiny one. 0:19:43.160 --> 0:19:43.840 Then what's mine? 0:19:44.119 --> 0:19:46.520 Well, when you sleep, when you sleep in my boat, 0:19:46.640 --> 0:19:49.800 there's like two hours where you have the like cutest 0:19:49.880 --> 0:19:54.399 little like dainty, sweet, like like little baby snore, and 0:19:54.440 --> 0:19:58.760 then when you enter ram baby like it's louder than 0:19:58.760 --> 0:20:02.320 my dad's. Yeah, like I can hear it from my 0:20:02.520 --> 0:20:04.960 room from your room. 0:20:05.200 --> 0:20:09.040 There are so many articles debunking the question if my 0:20:09.160 --> 0:20:12.560