WEBVTT - “THINGS KEEP FIZZLING OUT”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, and welcome to the Therapy Gecko Podcast. I am Lyle,

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<v Speaker 1>I am a gecko. I am a man. As every

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<v Speaker 1>day inches forward, I lose sight of who I am

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<v Speaker 1>if I'm a man, if I'm a gecko, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know what the hell it is that is piloting my

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<v Speaker 1>eyes or my body. I don't know if it's a soul.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if consciousness is individualized. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>what this thing is that incepted and I control whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even know what I mean when I say

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<v Speaker 1>I I'm getting too existential. I get existential a lot,

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, being existential is nice and all, but

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes you just want to be in the real world

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<v Speaker 1>with everyone else. What's the matrix thing? The red pill

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<v Speaker 1>of the blue pill. I'll take the blue pill every time.

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<v Speaker 1>I will take the blue pill every time. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to know the truth. What's the other one? The

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<v Speaker 1>allegory of the cave? What's the cave guy? The cave thing?

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<v Speaker 1>Plato's cave. Who's the cave? Yeah, Plato, it's the Plato, Yeah, Plato.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want to know what's outside the cave. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna just enjoy what life has to offer, and life's

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<v Speaker 1>got a lot to offer. It's got people that you

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<v Speaker 1>can talk to. It's got videos that you can look

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<v Speaker 1>at on the internet. It's got food you can eat,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's got things you can do. It's got places

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<v Speaker 1>you can go, It's got people you can talk to.

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<v Speaker 1>I think I said that already, and today on the

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<v Speaker 1>Therapy Echo podcast, we are going to talk to some

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<v Speaker 1>of those people. It is nine to thirty pm at

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<v Speaker 1>night at the time I'm recording this. I drank an

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<v Speaker 1>entire diet mountain Dew, which has about ninety one milligrams

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<v Speaker 1>of caffeine, and I'm ready to party. So let's talk

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<v Speaker 1>to some people on the phone. Hi, Hey, what's up man?

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<v Speaker 1>How are you?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm good, I'm good. How are you?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm okay man. Where are you calling from? I notice

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<v Speaker 1>you have a bizarre area code. Bizarre to me, it's

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<v Speaker 1>normal for you. I don't know why.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I didn't even know how to call in. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>from Denmark, so.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, ooh where in Denmark?

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<v Speaker 2>I live in a town called Ovus. It's the second

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<v Speaker 2>biggest city in Denmark.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro. I love Denmark. So I've been there two or

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<v Speaker 1>three times. I went there first when I was like eighteen,

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<v Speaker 1>I went to Copenhagen. I took a trip to this

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<v Speaker 1>place called Christiania. You know Christiania.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, sure, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Like the free too. And this was when I was eighteen,

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<v Speaker 1>and like I was, you know, weed was still illegal

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<v Speaker 1>and hurt, and we heard rumors like, yo, there's this

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<v Speaker 1>place in Denmark where everyone fucking smokes weed and it's

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<v Speaker 1>like a little village and it's like an anarchist fucking place.

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<v Speaker 1>And I remember going there and you know, you got

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<v Speaker 1>to like push a street and there's all this like

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<v Speaker 1>street art, and there's all these people like hanging around

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<v Speaker 1>this big lake getting high and hanging out and it's

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<v Speaker 1>just like, damn, this is the coolest motherfucking place ever.

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<v Speaker 1>And then not just the drugs and stuff, but like

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<v Speaker 1>Copenhagen too, what a beautiful, beautiful place. Everyone's riding their

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<v Speaker 1>bikes around, everyone's happy, and yeah it's cool. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I know you don't live there, and yeah, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>none of this. I'm just I'm just gassing up Denmark.

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<v Speaker 1>I love that place.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, Denmark is kind of nice, yeah, like compared to

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<v Speaker 2>like a lot of the other places on Earth, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>so yeah, I feel like.

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<v Speaker 1>You feel like what I feel like.

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<v Speaker 2>We have it good, you know, like, yeah, pretty sick.

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<v Speaker 1>You sound like you don't have as much of a

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<v Speaker 1>boner for it as I do.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, it's because when you live in Denmark from like,

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<v Speaker 2>if you're from do you know what Jetlin is, it's

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<v Speaker 2>the main out of Denmark which connects to Germany. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so when you're from Jutland like me, then you find

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<v Speaker 2>people from Copenhagen, like even the Danish ones, to be

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<v Speaker 2>quite arrogant, if that make sense.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, oh now I feel like a dick.

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<v Speaker 2>No, No, it's it's it's kind of like an it's

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<v Speaker 2>an internal thing in Denmark because like in Jutland where

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<v Speaker 2>I'm from, like everyone is going to greet you even

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<v Speaker 2>though you don't know him. And that's a very very

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<v Speaker 2>bizarre thing in Denmark. I know, in like United States

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<v Speaker 2>and stuff, people talk a lot like even though you

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<v Speaker 2>don't know him. But in Denmark it's like kind of

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<v Speaker 2>seen as rude to be talking to people, especially in Copenhagen.

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<v Speaker 2>But in Jutland where I'm from, we just say hi

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<v Speaker 2>and greet each other and but there's not much of

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<v Speaker 2>that in Copenhagen. Like people just mind their own business.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. Interesting, Yeah, why is it considered rude to talk

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<v Speaker 1>to people?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if it's considered rude, but it's just

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<v Speaker 2>like in Denmark, like Danish people, we have our own

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<v Speaker 2>thing going on, like our own agenda, and we know

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<v Speaker 2>where we're going. So a lot of the time if

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<v Speaker 2>we get interrupted in that, it's kind of seen as

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<v Speaker 2>not particularly rude, but just kind of a disruption in

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<v Speaker 2>one stay.

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<v Speaker 1>One might think, yeah, so let's say that we're at

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<v Speaker 1>the grocery store and the line is long, and I

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<v Speaker 1>turn around and I'm like, this line is pretty long.

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<v Speaker 1>Huh would that be rude? In Denmark.

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<v Speaker 2>It wouldn't be rude, but the person behind you would

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<v Speaker 2>definitely think, huh, why do you need to point that

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<v Speaker 2>out to me?

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<v Speaker 1>So, yeah, do you make conversation with strangers ever? Or well?

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<v Speaker 1>Where where do you live again? Joplin in alos, it's.

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<v Speaker 2>The main part of Denmark connected to Germany is called Jutlin,

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<v Speaker 2>so it's like the main city there.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, cool? And so you and you guys think that

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<v Speaker 1>people from Copenhagen are douchebags.

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<v Speaker 2>Kind of you can you can uh look at a

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<v Speaker 2>little bit like we're the farmers in Jutland and then

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<v Speaker 2>the business people in Copenhagen. So in Jutlin we're farmers

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<v Speaker 2>and we're like greeting each other and you know, our

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<v Speaker 2>good at partner. But in Copenhagen there's not really time

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<v Speaker 2>for that. I imagine it would be like kind of

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<v Speaker 2>the same rush as New York, but not with that

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<v Speaker 2>many people of course.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmmm. Well what's your name again? My name is

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<v Speaker 1>Simon Simon. Well, Simon, I assumed that you called in

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<v Speaker 1>for more than just to hear me gosh about the

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<v Speaker 1>city people, So what's up man? How you doing?

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<v Speaker 2>The past like half a year has been kind of

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<v Speaker 2>hectic for me? I think I lost my girlfriend. I

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<v Speaker 2>had a very hectic move out of an apartment because

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<v Speaker 2>the guy I was rending it from was doing some

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<v Speaker 2>illegal shit. And I came home late one night and

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<v Speaker 2>could see like I could see my window and like

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<v Speaker 2>the rest of the apartment was stark, but like he

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<v Speaker 2>was in my stuff looking with the flashlight. And my

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<v Speaker 2>theory is he was looking for the contract, like where

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<v Speaker 2>we had sided that I could live there and if

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<v Speaker 2>he found that, because it wasn't digitized, So if you

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<v Speaker 2>find the physical copy. Then I wouldn't have proved that

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<v Speaker 2>I could live there, so he can kick me out

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<v Speaker 2>like right away. So yeah, it's been kind of hectic,

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<v Speaker 2>but I've moved to a new place where I live alone,

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<v Speaker 2>which is so nice, and yeah, things are kind of

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<v Speaker 2>quiet now, but it's kind of eerie because you know,

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<v Speaker 2>so much stuff happened and now it's just like back

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<v Speaker 2>to the baseline.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, how is baseline for you?

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<v Speaker 2>And that's that's the thing. It's kind of baseline is nice,

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<v Speaker 2>but I have to make a like a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>effort to make something happened. Like if I have hobbies,

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<v Speaker 2>I painted warhamm if Warhammer miniatures, but I have to

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<v Speaker 2>make quite an effort to like kickstart that hobby again.

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you feel like it's taking you such an

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<v Speaker 1>effort to kick start your hobbies again?

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<v Speaker 2>I feel I'm probably My idea is that I have

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<v Speaker 2>a ADHD, so I have like my focus and my

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<v Speaker 2>interest is shifting a lot, and I find it very

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<v Speaker 2>hard to like delve into something where that my interest

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<v Speaker 2>isn't in it. So, for example, then I have like

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<v Speaker 2>this period of two months where I paint a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of Warhammer and spend a lot of money on it

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<v Speaker 2>and then it just like fizzles out. And yeah, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>kind of just waiting for it naturally to return because

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<v Speaker 2>it should be fun doing your hobby. It shouldn't be

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<v Speaker 2>an obligation or like its.

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<v Speaker 1>Are right, right? Is it like a like a brain

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<v Speaker 1>chemistry thing.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, if you get really specifically, it is, because it's

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<v Speaker 2>kind of like being dopamine addicted. But I just need

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<v Speaker 2>and want more dopamine than normal people.

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<v Speaker 1>In quotations, why, yes, I'm I'm I'm familiar with that.

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<v Speaker 1>What are your what are your current sources of dopamine?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? So I take a medicine for my ADHD, and

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<v Speaker 2>whenever I do it's not kind of a problem. But

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<v Speaker 2>when I don't, I eat a lot to like just

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<v Speaker 2>keep not because I'm hungry, but just to keep like

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<v Speaker 2>the dopamine flowing. The Oh I know you've talked about

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<v Speaker 2>like eating a pint of you know, ban and Jerry's,

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<v Speaker 2>and that would be like the kick. So yeah, when

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<v Speaker 2>I don't take my medicine, which is during the weekends

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<v Speaker 2>and when I'm hungover, then I eat a lot.

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<v Speaker 1>W what medicine do you take? I'm curious.

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<v Speaker 2>It's something called advance it's like amphetamine, but it just

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<v Speaker 2>releases very slowly.

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<v Speaker 3>Wait wait say it again, Advance advance or vivants l

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<v Speaker 3>vance ell vance Okay, is it is like a stimulant?

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<v Speaker 2>I think so. Like the way I I kind of

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<v Speaker 2>know how it works is that it's just like amphetamine,

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<v Speaker 2>but then released over the course of like the whole day,

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<v Speaker 2>in very small doses. So whenever the ADHD brain would

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<v Speaker 2>lose focus or anything, then instead of losing focus, it

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<v Speaker 2>will give like a kick of amphetamine or something, and

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<v Speaker 2>then you would keep your focus.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. Yeah. I actually just started taking I took

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<v Speaker 1>a Vivance for the first time in a while yesterday,

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<v Speaker 1>and it made me feel like it gave me so

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<v Speaker 1>much like dopamine, and it was great. It is so

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<v Speaker 1>interesting to think about how much of this shit is

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<v Speaker 1>like just yet chasing, chasing brain chemicals.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, well the fucking pill. Can you know? You think

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<v Speaker 1>it's all these external things, but you take a pill

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<v Speaker 1>and everything changes and your external is the same, but

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<v Speaker 1>the way you view it is different.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I actually had when I started at the medicine when

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<v Speaker 2>I first got diagnosed, I started on a different kind

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<v Speaker 2>of medication and I felt like I would get this

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<v Speaker 2>filter on my feelings. So beforehand, when we would like

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<v Speaker 2>when my parents would make my favorite dish for dinner,

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<v Speaker 2>I would be like really happy, and then when they

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<v Speaker 2>told me after dinner I had to do the dishes,

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<v Speaker 2>and then I would be really pissed. But then when

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<v Speaker 2>I got the medication, it just sort of turned off

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<v Speaker 2>my feeling things, so everything was kind of great.

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<v Speaker 4>So I feel like for some people.

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<v Speaker 2>Some medications like really just the trick, but for me,

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<v Speaker 2>like most of the medications just make me feel like bland

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<v Speaker 2>and great.

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<v Speaker 4>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>How it might It might just be because it like

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<v Speaker 2>turns off that dopamine hit.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, how is how is the one you're taking

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<v Speaker 1>now making you feel.

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<v Speaker 2>It's it's it's the medicine that least affected my mood,

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<v Speaker 2>I think. But I view myself as two different people.

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<v Speaker 2>Like when I take my medicine and when I don't, like,

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<v Speaker 2>I feel vastly different.

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<v Speaker 1>Whoa two different people? Tell me what the two different

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<v Speaker 1>people are?

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<v Speaker 2>It's not it's not really two different people, but it's

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<v Speaker 2>just like two two different mindsets, I think. So the

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<v Speaker 2>way my unmedicatedself would view and tackle it situation is

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<v Speaker 2>just one thing and then when I'm medicated, I would

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<v Speaker 2>tackle it another way.

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<v Speaker 5>MM.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like it's better when you're medicated.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, for sure, for like different things and like studying, working,

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<v Speaker 2>getting stuff done around the house, all those kind of

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<v Speaker 2>all those things kind of get easier. And also, M

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<v Speaker 2>I think if people were too like be with me socially,

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<v Speaker 2>then if I'm medicated, I'm much more they could be

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<v Speaker 2>with me for a longer period period of time and

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<v Speaker 2>not get irritated with me. But if I'm off my medicine,

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<v Speaker 2>then I can be kind.

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<v Speaker 1>Of intense, interesting, intense, intense in what way?

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<v Speaker 2>Intense in just like the emotions, Like if I feel joy,

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<v Speaker 2>I feel a lot of joy. I'm like jump around.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like an energetic like like a kid maybe yeah. M.

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<v Speaker 1>And so you feel like that your emotions are too

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<v Speaker 1>intense that like people other people can't handle it.

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<v Speaker 2>Some people can. I feel myself like kind of weirdly

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<v Speaker 2>magnetized to other people with ADHD, and they have a

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<v Speaker 2>much higher tolerance because they can like they kind of

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<v Speaker 2>get it, you know, m M.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah I feel that way too. I also kind of

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<v Speaker 1>feel myself magnetized to people with ADHD, you know, like

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<v Speaker 1>other people people who also like have like weird struggles

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<v Speaker 1>or like feel life very intensely. You know, as a

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<v Speaker 1>person who feels life very intensely, it is bizarre to

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<v Speaker 1>even like fathom the mind of somebody who like isn't

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<v Speaker 1>feeling life very intensely. It sounds sick. I'd like to

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<v Speaker 1>not feel life very intensely, make more of a.

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<v Speaker 2>Mellow experience in life. I think if you if you don't,

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<v Speaker 2>then you won't spike as much.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a it's a it's a it's a blessing and

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<v Speaker 1>a curse. It's a blessing and a curse, and it

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<v Speaker 1>kind of, I guess depends on how you want to

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<v Speaker 1>look at it, because I don't know. Some people like

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<v Speaker 1>don't ever think about any of this ship or feel

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<v Speaker 1>very intensely, which is a more uh uh certainly a

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<v Speaker 1>more comfortable way to go through life. But I don't.

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<v Speaker 1>These aren't things that I think you choose. I think

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<v Speaker 1>some people, Yeah, these aren't things you choose. These are

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<v Speaker 1>just things you're fucking born with and deal with and whatnot.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I've always used like the analogy of like Jim Carrey

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<v Speaker 2>because he has ADHD and you can clearly like you

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<v Speaker 2>can clearly tell by most of his roles in films

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<v Speaker 2>that he's just like a bomb of energy, and I

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<v Speaker 2>think that's his ADHD, like him challenging channeling his ADHD

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<v Speaker 2>into something positive and making a career out of it.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, that's that. I've always said, that's a good

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<v Speaker 2>analogy of someone using their diety, like their diagnosed to

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<v Speaker 2>do good. M hm.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you what are your hopes and dreams for like,

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<v Speaker 1>mister Simon.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't fucking know, niall, And that's the that's the

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<v Speaker 2>worst part because right now I work. I'm at work

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<v Speaker 2>right now, and I work for the Danish Railway company

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<v Speaker 2>and there's like one one doing all of the trains

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<v Speaker 2>in Denmark, and it's kind of a dead end job,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. I can't move up in the ranks, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm kind of disposable because it's just a service. I

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<v Speaker 2>sell stuff from seven to eleven in a train.

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<v Speaker 5>And.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, it's kind of it's comfortable right now. It

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<v Speaker 2>tastes the bills and I can live and it's fine.

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<v Speaker 2>But as for my dreams and hopes, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I would really like to do something with animals, like

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<v Speaker 2>and sanctuary in like I'm preferably exotic animals.

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<v Speaker 1>Where does one go to work with exotic animals in Denmark?

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<v Speaker 2>They go to the zookeepers school. But the problem is

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<v Speaker 2>that Denmark is so small that when you're looking for

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<v Speaker 2>and I don't know what it's called in English, but

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<v Speaker 2>kind of an internship in Denmark, you have and you

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<v Speaker 2>contact the the business or the zoo and then but

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<v Speaker 2>Denmark is so small that we don't have sus enough

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<v Speaker 2>sus for everyone to get an internship. So you might

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<v Speaker 2>get put on a waiting list for like a year

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<v Speaker 2>or two, just right in the middle of your education

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<v Speaker 2>to be a Jesuit.

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<v Speaker 1>M okay, so you in order for you to get

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<v Speaker 1>this internship, there's a long wait list.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, that might be. That's the kind of thing

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<v Speaker 2>you don't really know before you apply.

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<v Speaker 1>What about just get can you just get a parrot?

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<v Speaker 1>Just get a pet parrot?

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<v Speaker 2>I actually had a good dragon once. M.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, couldn't you be like you could be like the

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<v Speaker 1>tiger king of Denmark and just start your own fucking

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<v Speaker 1>illegal zoo.

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<v Speaker 2>Have you seen Common Side Effects the show on HBO? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I love that show.

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<v Speaker 2>I would love to be the brother to that guy.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, I don't remember his name, but like seth.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, yeah, actually no, I know, yeah, yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>know exactly the scene that you're talking about, that guy

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<v Speaker 1>who just owns a bunch of like exotic pets and ship.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeahs to be that guy though.

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<v Speaker 1>That's very funny that you reference to that, and yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>yeah I couldn't you Could you just open a fucking

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<v Speaker 1>pet shop in Denmark? How easy is that?

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<v Speaker 2>In Denmark? There's like so many regulations, and I believe

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<v Speaker 2>there are animals as well, and especially exotic animals, and

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<v Speaker 2>if they're venomous, it gets kind of like it gets

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<v Speaker 2>even more difficult. But I know the peole in Denmark

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<v Speaker 2>who have like snakes and drain their venom and stuff

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<v Speaker 2>like that, they need to like have kind of a

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<v Speaker 2>military grade permission to do so, I believe. Don't quote

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<v Speaker 2>me on that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, the Tiger King does feel like a kind of

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<v Speaker 1>uniquely American thing. It just so then requires very little regulations.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, have you ever seen there's like this one streamer girl,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't remember her name, but she's friends with Judy

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<v Speaker 2>Cinderella and Ludwick has been over there, and she has

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<v Speaker 2>this kind of sanctuary out in the middle of nowhere

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<v Speaker 2>and invites streamers over to like participate in peak the animals.

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<v Speaker 1>No, who is it?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't remember her name at all, but I just

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<v Speaker 2>like a bunch of my favorite dreamers has visited the sanctuary,

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<v Speaker 2>and that would be like the ultimate, like the ultimate

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<v Speaker 2>dream just to like take care of twenty or twenty

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<v Speaker 2>five animals.

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<v Speaker 1>What's what animal would be the crown jewel of your

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<v Speaker 1>exotic animal zoo.

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<v Speaker 2>Mister Lyle, you know this. It would be a gecko.

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<v Speaker 1>Listen, let me all right here, let me tell you something.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me tell you all right, I'm gonna make a

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<v Speaker 1>pact with you, all right in thirty In thirty years,

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<v Speaker 1>if both of us still don't know what to do

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<v Speaker 1>with our lives, I'll fucking I'll dress I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>where my gecko suits will be at that age, but

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<v Speaker 1>I'll dress up as a lizard and move to Denmark

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<v Speaker 1>and I'll just be in a cage and you can

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<v Speaker 1>you can drive me around and we'll do like a

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<v Speaker 1>little exotic animal freak show around Denmark.

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<v Speaker 2>Hell, yeah, that would be so cool. I would feed

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<v Speaker 2>you well too. I'm a good caretaker.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, what what kind of what what do we got?

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<v Speaker 2>What's the prind Jesus, he's kind of kind of tempting.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, he's very tempting. I got I actually last night,

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<v Speaker 1>I yeah, did I feel you on the dopamine? Last night?

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<v Speaker 1>I go puffed. God man, last night, I fucking go

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<v Speaker 1>puffed a pine of Ben and Jerries, some hot pockets

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<v Speaker 1>and some party mix. And I actually only I only

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<v Speaker 1>ate half the pine of Ben Jerri's, but the other

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<v Speaker 1>half is in the freezer right now, and I'm thinking

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<v Speaker 1>about thinking about eating it, thinking about eating it. It's

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<v Speaker 1>too much, man, It's too much. I've been. I've been.

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<v Speaker 1>I've also yeah, dude, I've also been having like a

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<v Speaker 1>crazy dopamine deficiency. I'm eating like a pint of Ben

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<v Speaker 1>and Jerry's a day. It's it's crazy, man.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's even when you like feel full, like when

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<v Speaker 2>you don't need to eat more food because your body

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<v Speaker 2>is full and you feel that, but you still keep

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<v Speaker 2>eating because it tastes so good.

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<v Speaker 1>Well yeah, of course, of course, by the way, Ben

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<v Speaker 1>Ben and Jerry's ice cream is not you know, it's

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<v Speaker 1>not for satiation purposes. No, it's not for you don't

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<v Speaker 1>get you don't get full. On ice cream.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, I've actually worked in an ice cream for

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<v Speaker 2>one time.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, did you get Did you get to eat a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of ice cream?

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<v Speaker 2>I did it, but I very very quickly got tired

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<v Speaker 2>of ice cream and I didn't want to eat it.

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<v Speaker 1>That's sad, man, Well, how do you how do you

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<v Speaker 1>know that's not going to happen with these exotic animals?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, like you're just spending so much time around

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<v Speaker 1>bearded dragons that it doesn't even excite you anymore.

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<v Speaker 2>It's actually kind of kind of crazy, im engine it

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<v Speaker 2>because I got pretty tired of the beard of dragon

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<v Speaker 2>when I had it. But I think like it would

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<v Speaker 2>be kind of I was a kid then, and I

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<v Speaker 2>would really like like the responsibility of taking care of

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<v Speaker 2>not just one, but like multiple animals and like kind

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<v Speaker 2>of have a feeling that I'm helping doing good because

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<v Speaker 2>I always see these animals like kind of going extinct

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<v Speaker 2>and getting hunted everywhere. So yeah, I feel like I

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<v Speaker 2>would be different. And also with like me being more.

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<v Speaker 1>Mature, Simon. Uh, this was a good conversation, man. I

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<v Speaker 1>enjoyed talking to you. Yeah, I hope, I you know,

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<v Speaker 1>look man, we're uh, I hope we figure out our

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<v Speaker 1>whatever the fuck's going on in the brain that makes us,

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<v Speaker 1>uh eat shit and go crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I can probably tell you already that we probably

0:24:24.800 --> 0:24:26.720
<v Speaker 2>won't because the brain is so weird.

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<v Speaker 1>No, don't say that. Fuck fuck you, Simon, Fuck you Simon.

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<v Speaker 1>I believe. I believe that both of us will figure

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<v Speaker 1>it out. Okay, we're both gonna figure it out. You

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<v Speaker 1>can't say that. You can't say that we won't, Simon.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, I believe as well?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you really? I hope that's the pro The first

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<v Speaker 1>step to believing is to just say it, even if

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<v Speaker 1>you don't.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, I do believe. I do believe that people

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<v Speaker 2>figure it out some day.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you, man, I'm curious.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm twenty five.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool, we're about the same age. Yeah, ah man, yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh do you ever? Do you ever go to Copenhagen

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<v Speaker 1>or are you like it's all everyone there is too douche?

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<v Speaker 2>No? I do, And the girlfriend I broke up with

0:25:15.800 --> 0:25:18.440
<v Speaker 2>actually lived there, so I was there quite a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>And because I worked for the railway company, I have

0:25:20.840 --> 0:25:23.399
<v Speaker 2>three travel like free trouble across all of them, so

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<v Speaker 2>I could just go there. When I'm a r I want.

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<v Speaker 1>How's your love life been since the gift?

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<v Speaker 2>The gift, it's been kind of crazy. Like the first

0:25:34.600 --> 0:25:36.879
<v Speaker 2>girl I dated after her was like a Satanist, but

0:25:36.960 --> 0:25:39.880
<v Speaker 2>she was kind of sweet but a Satanist nonetheless, and

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<v Speaker 2>kind of intense.

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<v Speaker 1>How so.

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<v Speaker 2>Just like and everything like in emotions. I remember, like

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<v Speaker 2>when I met her at the night that I met her,

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<v Speaker 2>like this other girl came in which I have with

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<v Speaker 2>which I have seen like in the past of my life,

0:26:00.200 --> 0:26:03.360
<v Speaker 2>and she came to say hi and just like put

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<v Speaker 2>a hand on my shoulder and said hey, Sammon, and

0:26:05.119 --> 0:26:07.680
<v Speaker 2>I was like hey, and then they go to sickness go.

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<v Speaker 2>She was just gone instantly because she feld the vice.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. But I am you are you? Are you

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<v Speaker 1>gonna try to like go on more dates and stuff?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm kind of trying to practice practice practice ethical dating.

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<v Speaker 2>So no ghosting, no being a dick, being clear about

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<v Speaker 2>boundaries and what you're looking for and like dating interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, Wait, tell me more about this ethical dating, Like

0:26:38.640 --> 0:26:42.320
<v Speaker 1>you're like no ghosting, no like letting things trail off,

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<v Speaker 1>like firmly ending and being like like, tell me, tell

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<v Speaker 1>me more about this philosophy.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if I have the time. Then I

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<v Speaker 2>have to put you down for a minute because I

0:26:53.800 --> 0:26:55.800
<v Speaker 2>have to get some urum and then I can pick them.

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<v Speaker 2>Can you hang away?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh?

0:26:57.080 --> 0:26:58.160
<v Speaker 1>You have you have to go. You have to get

0:26:58.160 --> 0:26:58.600
<v Speaker 1>out of here.

0:26:59.800 --> 0:27:01.639
<v Speaker 2>Now I'm not to get out of here, but I

0:27:01.680 --> 0:27:04.080
<v Speaker 2>have to go to where the train is. So I

0:27:04.160 --> 0:27:05.720
<v Speaker 2>just have to get like a gear on. It's going

0:27:05.760 --> 0:27:07.359
<v Speaker 2>to take five seconds and then I can tell you

0:27:07.359 --> 0:27:07.760
<v Speaker 2>on the wather.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, right, I'm back, all right, Yeah, tell

0:27:15.800 --> 0:27:20.200
<v Speaker 1>me more about tell me more about your ethical dating philosophy.

0:27:21.119 --> 0:27:23.959
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. So in a world where like like in the

0:27:23.960 --> 0:27:27.080
<v Speaker 2>modern world, where there's so much ghosting, there's so much

0:27:27.400 --> 0:27:31.159
<v Speaker 2>non responsive I just kind of got tired of it

0:27:31.200 --> 0:27:36.800
<v Speaker 2>and decided that change starts with yourself. And I've actually

0:27:37.800 --> 0:27:41.639
<v Speaker 2>gotten a lot of positive feedback on it, and like

0:27:41.680 --> 0:27:45.200
<v Speaker 2>this one girl when I was dating the sickness. Then

0:27:44.760 --> 0:27:47.800
<v Speaker 2>then there was this other girl I met with on

0:27:47.960 --> 0:27:50.800
<v Speaker 2>Kinder and I just told her that I was seeing

0:27:50.840 --> 0:27:54.400
<v Speaker 2>someone else and that I wanted to know where that went.

0:27:54.920 --> 0:27:57.639
<v Speaker 2>And she was like, cool, text me it ever goes

0:27:58.160 --> 0:28:02.080
<v Speaker 2>the head or you're ever not being again, And that

0:28:02.160 --> 0:28:05.240
<v Speaker 2>worked out fine, and I texted her afterwards and we

0:28:05.320 --> 0:28:07.040
<v Speaker 2>kind of met up after that.

0:28:09.280 --> 0:28:12.000
<v Speaker 1>M how was how was that meeting?

0:28:13.400 --> 0:28:17.040
<v Speaker 2>It was good, like we didn't really click in a

0:28:17.040 --> 0:28:18.920
<v Speaker 2>lot of ways. If you had a good conversation, that

0:28:19.760 --> 0:28:23.080
<v Speaker 2>was it, but not really leading to anything further.

0:28:24.400 --> 0:28:27.240
<v Speaker 1>Mh yeah, I yeah. I think it can be hard

0:28:27.920 --> 0:28:32.680
<v Speaker 1>emotionally to always be like I don't know, it can

0:28:32.680 --> 0:28:37.560
<v Speaker 1>be hard for some people to like communicate everything all

0:28:37.600 --> 0:28:40.520
<v Speaker 1>the time because it's like, well is this too much

0:28:40.560 --> 0:28:44.320
<v Speaker 1>after having just you know, met once, and you know

0:28:44.360 --> 0:28:46.959
<v Speaker 1>a lot of people I think kind of struggle with

0:28:46.960 --> 0:28:49.240
<v Speaker 1>with that. Yeah.

0:28:49.480 --> 0:28:54.120
<v Speaker 2>I feel like in then in Denmark, people just avoid

0:28:54.160 --> 0:28:59.400
<v Speaker 2>the confrontation of it, and but it's not that bad.

0:28:59.560 --> 0:29:01.680
<v Speaker 2>Like now, I've tried it a couple of times, just

0:29:01.720 --> 0:29:03.640
<v Speaker 2>being honest and being like, hey, I don't think we

0:29:04.720 --> 0:29:10.120
<v Speaker 2>should see each other anymore, and people actually do take it.

0:29:10.720 --> 0:29:13.160
<v Speaker 2>I mean women do. I don't know about men. I've

0:29:13.160 --> 0:29:15.440
<v Speaker 2>heard a lot of scary stories about men who can

0:29:16.120 --> 0:29:22.360
<v Speaker 2>celebrate being predicted, but I've had a lot of good

0:29:22.360 --> 0:29:29.760
<v Speaker 2>experiences with women like open and upfront about it.

0:29:31.880 --> 0:29:35.360
<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like it is a European thing to

0:29:35.480 --> 0:29:38.960
<v Speaker 1>be like direct? I know, I know, like in Ant,

0:29:39.080 --> 0:29:42.080
<v Speaker 1>like in in the Netherlands, there's a whole thing of

0:29:42.160 --> 0:29:46.680
<v Speaker 1>like like Dutch directness, like people are very like good

0:29:46.680 --> 0:29:51.280
<v Speaker 1>at communicating. Yeah, do you think it's a European thing.

0:29:52.480 --> 0:29:56.040
<v Speaker 2>It might be. I don't think we're good at it

0:29:56.080 --> 0:30:01.520
<v Speaker 2>in Denmark. Like I hear stories from like my like

0:30:01.600 --> 0:30:05.840
<v Speaker 2>platonic girlfriend, like my friends friends who are women that

0:30:06.200 --> 0:30:08.040
<v Speaker 2>and there's a lot of bad acts out there.

0:30:08.480 --> 0:30:10.960
<v Speaker 1>So are you what's your what's your like dating goal?

0:30:11.040 --> 0:30:12.479
<v Speaker 1>You're trying to get married and all that.

0:30:14.000 --> 0:30:17.680
<v Speaker 2>Well, I don't know about marriage. I'm not like that's

0:30:17.720 --> 0:30:20.000
<v Speaker 2>not kind of my main focus. But my main focus

0:30:20.040 --> 0:30:24.400
<v Speaker 2>is definitely a family and kids. Nice, Like I really

0:30:24.400 --> 0:30:26.920
<v Speaker 2>want to be a dad, like a lot nice.

0:30:26.960 --> 0:30:29.840
<v Speaker 1>Are you trying to be a dad like like like

0:30:29.960 --> 0:30:31.880
<v Speaker 1>soon you're trying to be like a young dad.

0:30:32.960 --> 0:30:35.200
<v Speaker 2>No, No, I'm trying to be a dad like with

0:30:35.280 --> 0:30:38.800
<v Speaker 2>the right woman. So that like my goal as a

0:30:38.840 --> 0:30:41.520
<v Speaker 2>dad is to be the best dad possible. So that

0:30:41.560 --> 0:30:44.240
<v Speaker 2>will only make sense if I have the best wife possible,

0:30:44.440 --> 0:30:45.800
<v Speaker 2>like the best mother as well.

0:30:46.440 --> 0:30:49.360
<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah, I mean, yeah, man, that's the most fucking

0:30:49.440 --> 0:30:51.280
<v Speaker 1>important decision you can make in your life.

0:30:52.360 --> 0:30:54.000
<v Speaker 2>Yeah it is.

0:30:55.360 --> 0:30:55.840
<v Speaker 1>That's cool.

0:30:56.080 --> 0:31:02.320
<v Speaker 2>That's like my end, but nothing like yeah.

0:31:01.320 --> 0:31:04.320
<v Speaker 1>We're gonna figure We're gonna figure out the brains. We're

0:31:04.320 --> 0:31:09.160
<v Speaker 1>gonna figure out the brain. Both, Simon, I'm gonna fucking

0:31:09.280 --> 0:31:11.880
<v Speaker 1>manifest I don't know if I believe in manifestation, but

0:31:12.760 --> 0:31:15.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna manifest for us. Okay, all right, We're both

0:31:15.920 --> 0:31:19.560
<v Speaker 1>gonna figure out the brain. We're both gonna have beautiful

0:31:19.800 --> 0:31:25.560
<v Speaker 1>wives and children and yeah, and you're gonna have a

0:31:25.800 --> 0:31:29.880
<v Speaker 1>You're gonna have an animal sanctuary, and I'm gonna have a.

0:31:31.360 --> 0:31:33.640
<v Speaker 2>Uh like that like a lot on my plate though,

0:31:33.680 --> 0:31:35.880
<v Speaker 2>to both have a family and an animal shelter.

0:31:37.760 --> 0:31:40.080
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, maybe that is a lot. Maybe that is a lot,

0:31:40.240 --> 0:31:43.040
<v Speaker 1>not all at once, not all at once. Maybe when

0:31:43.040 --> 0:31:45.640
<v Speaker 1>you're like seventy or some shit. Maybe when you're seventy.

0:31:46.960 --> 0:31:49.080
<v Speaker 2>I'm just gonna smoke weed when I'm seventeen and so

0:31:49.200 --> 0:31:50.600
<v Speaker 2>the rest of my life.

0:31:51.560 --> 0:31:53.600
<v Speaker 1>You can fuck man, you can do that now.

0:31:55.280 --> 0:31:59.560
<v Speaker 2>I am doing that now. But like, I'm definitely gonna

0:31:59.600 --> 0:32:02.920
<v Speaker 2>increase in amount of wheat smoking when I get older.

0:32:02.960 --> 0:32:06.960
<v Speaker 1>I think. I mean at that point, just do you

0:32:07.000 --> 0:32:09.520
<v Speaker 1>know heroin or something. Well, by the time you're seventy,

0:32:09.520 --> 0:32:11.440
<v Speaker 1>there's gonna be some I mean, there's new drugs all

0:32:11.480 --> 0:32:15.040
<v Speaker 1>the time, like ketamine has become popular and what is it?

0:32:15.560 --> 0:32:18.560
<v Speaker 1>Two C too sweet, the pink one. So by the

0:32:18.600 --> 0:32:21.560
<v Speaker 1>time you're seventy, there's gonna be some you know, there's

0:32:21.560 --> 0:32:24.600
<v Speaker 1>gonna be super weed or some new thing to snort

0:32:24.720 --> 0:32:27.440
<v Speaker 1>or inject or put up your ass, and you know

0:32:27.520 --> 0:32:28.560
<v Speaker 1>you'd probably be doing that.

0:32:29.560 --> 0:32:34.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you might be able to smoke your ADHD medsine.

0:32:36.600 --> 0:32:38.520
<v Speaker 1>Smoking adderall sounds nuts, So.

0:32:41.640 --> 0:32:42.920
<v Speaker 2>That could be crazy though.

0:32:44.840 --> 0:32:48.640
<v Speaker 1>Simon, Uh, all right, I'm gonna I'm gonna end this

0:32:48.720 --> 0:32:54.440
<v Speaker 1>phone call so that I can go eat Ben and Jerry's.

0:32:54.120 --> 0:32:58.160
<v Speaker 2>That sounds really nice, brother, is.

0:32:58.200 --> 0:32:59.600
<v Speaker 1>Nice talking to you. I really hope that you do

0:32:59.640 --> 0:33:03.680
<v Speaker 1>figure the things out. And uh, yeah, I'm gonna I'm

0:33:03.720 --> 0:33:06.280
<v Speaker 1>gonna come to Denmark at some point. I don't know

0:33:06.280 --> 0:33:06.880
<v Speaker 1>what you do.

0:33:07.080 --> 0:33:10.800
<v Speaker 2>I problemise I'm gonna be at your show. You're not

0:33:10.840 --> 0:33:13.240
<v Speaker 2>gonna do a show, then hit me up. We'll go

0:33:13.280 --> 0:33:13.840
<v Speaker 2>to Christina.

0:33:14.440 --> 0:33:16.960
<v Speaker 1>Oh, actually sounds nice. Yeah. I did a show in

0:33:16.960 --> 0:33:19.360
<v Speaker 1>Copenhagen a couple of years ago. Maybe I'll do another one.

0:33:19.360 --> 0:33:24.040
<v Speaker 1>Who knows, who knows, who knows, who knows? Yeah, Simon,

0:33:24.080 --> 0:33:25.120
<v Speaker 1>is there anything else I want to say to the

0:33:25.160 --> 0:33:26.280
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go.

0:33:27.480 --> 0:33:31.080
<v Speaker 2>Mmm, I guess just kind of stay fresh, stay.

0:33:30.880 --> 0:33:38.520
<v Speaker 1>Positive, beautiful, believe, take care of Simon, take care of live.

0:33:39.440 --> 0:33:42.680
<v Speaker 1>Maybe I'll start an animal sanctuary. No, all those animals

0:33:42.680 --> 0:33:46.000
<v Speaker 1>will be fucked if I had an animal sanctuary. If

0:33:46.000 --> 0:33:47.680
<v Speaker 1>you're an animal out there, you better pray you don't

0:33:47.720 --> 0:33:49.880
<v Speaker 1>end up in my sanctuary. Because I can't even take

0:33:49.880 --> 0:33:57.480
<v Speaker 1>care of a plant. Maybe I'll have a diet coke sanctuary. Yeah,

0:33:57.480 --> 0:33:59.960
<v Speaker 1>that sounds more. That sounds like more of a thing

0:34:00.080 --> 0:34:05.080
<v Speaker 1>I can take care of. Hello, Yes, Hi, what is

0:34:05.120 --> 0:34:05.520
<v Speaker 1>your name?

0:34:06.080 --> 0:34:07.000
<v Speaker 4>My name is Calvin.

0:34:08.000 --> 0:34:09.320
<v Speaker 1>Calvin, like Calvin Klein.

0:34:11.320 --> 0:34:11.640
<v Speaker 2>Yes.

0:34:12.239 --> 0:34:13.600
<v Speaker 1>Do you get that a lot to people say that

0:34:13.600 --> 0:34:14.760
<v Speaker 1>to you a lot?

0:34:15.120 --> 0:34:15.319
<v Speaker 2>Oh?

0:34:15.400 --> 0:34:16.320
<v Speaker 4>Yes, definitely.

0:34:16.960 --> 0:34:20.000
<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like Calvin Klein?

0:34:21.440 --> 0:34:23.640
<v Speaker 4>Not really? I wish I was rich like Calvin Klein.

0:34:25.120 --> 0:34:27.960
<v Speaker 1>Is he rich or dead? Or I guess you could.

0:34:28.040 --> 0:34:31.000
<v Speaker 1>I guess you can't be. Can you be rich and dead?

0:34:31.160 --> 0:34:33.360
<v Speaker 1>I guess when you're dead, you no longer own things.

0:34:33.600 --> 0:34:40.759
<v Speaker 1>So he's either whatever. I mean, he cares about him.

0:34:40.800 --> 0:34:47.000
<v Speaker 1>Let's talk about you. Let's talk about you. Calvin. I'm

0:34:47.480 --> 0:34:50.480
<v Speaker 1>so in the mood to talk to you right now.

0:34:50.520 --> 0:34:54.040
<v Speaker 1>I really am I I You're I'm really going to

0:34:54.120 --> 0:34:57.680
<v Speaker 1>treat this conversation like you and me are the only

0:34:57.719 --> 0:35:01.360
<v Speaker 1>two people on the planet Earth for the rest of eternity.

0:35:01.520 --> 0:35:05.960
<v Speaker 1>So I'm here, I'm ready. Whatever you got to throw out,

0:35:06.160 --> 0:35:09.120
<v Speaker 1>I will I will catch it. You could if now,

0:35:09.320 --> 0:35:12.200
<v Speaker 1>if you want to say something crazy and insane and horrible,

0:35:12.239 --> 0:35:15.840
<v Speaker 1>I now's the time to do it, because I'm ready

0:35:15.880 --> 0:35:18.439
<v Speaker 1>for whatever you got to go on right now.

0:35:18.480 --> 0:35:21.480
<v Speaker 4>Well, to be quite honest, man, I've been going through

0:35:21.560 --> 0:35:24.520
<v Speaker 4>a lot, Like I'm trying to go through a breakup.

0:35:24.560 --> 0:35:26.480
<v Speaker 4>At the same time, my ex girlfriend wants to get

0:35:26.520 --> 0:35:29.239
<v Speaker 4>back with me, but she's playing my games. Yet she

0:35:29.280 --> 0:35:30.840
<v Speaker 4>wants to get back with me, but she's talking to

0:35:30.840 --> 0:35:32.960
<v Speaker 4>other guys, and I'm not sure what to do about that.

0:35:33.600 --> 0:35:35.520
<v Speaker 1>Okay, So you're going through When you say you're going

0:35:35.520 --> 0:35:37.799
<v Speaker 1>through a breakup, this is and the ex that wants

0:35:37.800 --> 0:35:40.520
<v Speaker 1>to get back to you. There's one woman in this story.

0:35:40.520 --> 0:35:43.160
<v Speaker 4>There's not multiple Yeah, there's only one woman.

0:35:43.680 --> 0:35:45.960
<v Speaker 1>Okay, And how old are you? I just want to

0:35:46.000 --> 0:35:50.520
<v Speaker 1>know I am twenty four, twenty four, and tell me

0:35:50.520 --> 0:35:52.879
<v Speaker 1>about this woman. Tell me about the relationship you had

0:35:52.880 --> 0:35:53.279
<v Speaker 1>with her.

0:35:54.200 --> 0:35:56.680
<v Speaker 4>Well, to be honest with us, with her, she kept

0:35:56.680 --> 0:35:59.480
<v Speaker 4>always yelling at me and kept trying to gaslight me

0:35:59.600 --> 0:36:01.799
<v Speaker 4>when she kept trying to say I never listened to her.

0:36:01.880 --> 0:36:04.040
<v Speaker 4>I never did anything she wanted me to do. Yet

0:36:04.040 --> 0:36:06.279
<v Speaker 4>I did everything before I've been over backwards, and I

0:36:06.320 --> 0:36:08.600
<v Speaker 4>loved her. She meant everything to me, and I didn't.

0:36:08.680 --> 0:36:11.239
<v Speaker 4>I just did everything she wanted me to do. Like

0:36:11.560 --> 0:36:14.319
<v Speaker 4>I thought what she did what she did was love.

0:36:14.360 --> 0:36:18.560
<v Speaker 1>And I'm not sure you thought what she did was love?

0:36:19.680 --> 0:36:21.360
<v Speaker 1>What do you mean by what she did?

0:36:22.239 --> 0:36:26.040
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I'm used to being gaslet and I thought

0:36:26.040 --> 0:36:28.239
<v Speaker 4>when I got with her, things will be different. But

0:36:28.400 --> 0:36:32.879
<v Speaker 4>apparently she told me lies and I just fed into it,

0:36:32.920 --> 0:36:36.000
<v Speaker 4>and I, you know, I just wanted to believe her,

0:36:36.000 --> 0:36:38.759
<v Speaker 4>you know, like I I just wanted to be with her.

0:36:38.800 --> 0:36:42.200
<v Speaker 4>And I don't know, like dude, like I've I've been

0:36:42.200 --> 0:36:44.239
<v Speaker 4>with her for off and on for two years, and

0:36:44.440 --> 0:36:45.040
<v Speaker 4>I loved her.

0:36:45.120 --> 0:36:47.719
<v Speaker 1>Dude, why do you love her?

0:36:49.200 --> 0:36:53.319
<v Speaker 4>Because truth be told? Like her and I connected more.

0:36:53.560 --> 0:36:55.920
<v Speaker 4>Her and I had a lot of comment but at

0:36:55.960 --> 0:36:58.279
<v Speaker 4>the same time, I had a lot of trauma for

0:36:58.440 --> 0:37:01.080
<v Speaker 4>my exes in the past. And after her and I

0:37:01.160 --> 0:37:04.600
<v Speaker 4>broke up, and I felt, you know, my eyes open up,

0:37:04.640 --> 0:37:07.200
<v Speaker 4>and I thought, you know, she told me, she loved me.

0:37:07.480 --> 0:37:09.680
<v Speaker 4>She did all these things for me. She bought me gibs,

0:37:10.120 --> 0:37:12.040
<v Speaker 4>and you know, she was trying to depraise me, and

0:37:12.080 --> 0:37:14.640
<v Speaker 4>I thought that was love. But apparently that's not love

0:37:14.680 --> 0:37:16.840
<v Speaker 4>at all. That's well, my friends would try to tell me, m.

0:37:18.000 --> 0:37:20.120
<v Speaker 1>Oh, what are your friends? What are your friends telling you?

0:37:21.960 --> 0:37:23.680
<v Speaker 4>My friends are trying to tell me she's being a

0:37:23.760 --> 0:37:26.200
<v Speaker 4>narcissist by telling me lies and trying to gastle. I

0:37:26.239 --> 0:37:28.560
<v Speaker 4>mean to try to get back with her, and what

0:37:28.600 --> 0:37:32.840
<v Speaker 4>she did was not love because she was trying to

0:37:32.920 --> 0:37:35.320
<v Speaker 4>yell at me, trying to tell me that I didn't

0:37:35.360 --> 0:37:38.200
<v Speaker 4>listen to her. I like, I didn't do anything around

0:37:38.239 --> 0:37:40.719
<v Speaker 4>the house, but I did everything for I cleaned for her,

0:37:40.800 --> 0:37:43.280
<v Speaker 4>I cooked for her, I thought her things, I paid

0:37:43.320 --> 0:37:46.000
<v Speaker 4>her rents and everything. But yet apparently things are not

0:37:46.080 --> 0:37:46.839
<v Speaker 4>going her way.

0:37:48.320 --> 0:37:53.680
<v Speaker 1>Mmmmmm mmmmmm. How long has it been since she talked

0:37:53.719 --> 0:37:56.480
<v Speaker 1>to this lady?

0:37:56.680 --> 0:37:57.040
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

0:37:57.440 --> 0:38:01.600
<v Speaker 4>To be honest, this morning, this.

0:38:01.760 --> 0:38:05.280
<v Speaker 1>Morning, are you going on dates? Are you seeing anyone else?

0:38:06.600 --> 0:38:06.680
<v Speaker 5>Not?

0:38:06.880 --> 0:38:07.439
<v Speaker 4>Right now?

0:38:07.960 --> 0:38:08.680
<v Speaker 2>Not at all?

0:38:09.640 --> 0:38:11.320
<v Speaker 1>What else is going on in your life?

0:38:13.120 --> 0:38:13.480
<v Speaker 2>Well?

0:38:13.800 --> 0:38:16.160
<v Speaker 4>You know, to be honest, I've been trying to go

0:38:16.280 --> 0:38:18.480
<v Speaker 4>out more of my friends try to try to get

0:38:18.520 --> 0:38:20.760
<v Speaker 4>my mind off of things. Tried to get me into

0:38:21.160 --> 0:38:25.640
<v Speaker 4>an environment where I feel like I'm accepted and where

0:38:25.719 --> 0:38:30.959
<v Speaker 4>my friends want me to, you know, feel like I'm okay.

0:38:31.040 --> 0:38:33.719
<v Speaker 1>That sounds great. You sound like you have good friends,

0:38:34.320 --> 0:38:36.080
<v Speaker 1>you have you been hanging out with them a lot?

0:38:37.080 --> 0:38:39.600
<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, of course. Like the other day, my friends

0:38:39.680 --> 0:38:41.319
<v Speaker 4>took me to get a couple of drinks at the bar,

0:38:41.480 --> 0:38:43.920
<v Speaker 4>and my my eggs kept trying to blow my and

0:38:43.960 --> 0:38:45.919
<v Speaker 4>my phone up. She's like, where are you at?

0:38:46.040 --> 0:38:46.719
<v Speaker 2>What are you doing.

0:38:46.840 --> 0:38:49.239
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, I'm just hanging out with my friends. She's like, oh,

0:38:49.320 --> 0:38:52.680
<v Speaker 4>my friends already good friends. And she's like, are you

0:38:52.680 --> 0:38:54.480
<v Speaker 4>trying to talk to any woman? I'm like, no, I'm

0:38:54.480 --> 0:38:56.240
<v Speaker 4>just hanging out my friends having a few beers.

0:38:57.560 --> 0:38:57.880
<v Speaker 2>Mmm.

0:39:00.440 --> 0:39:04.160
<v Speaker 1>You know, look, I'm gonna you know, I'll say this,

0:39:04.280 --> 0:39:11.120
<v Speaker 1>Ma Calvin. I'm really no expert on these things, but

0:39:11.200 --> 0:39:16.960
<v Speaker 1>I have these kind of amorphous thoughts and feelings about

0:39:17.560 --> 0:39:21.400
<v Speaker 1>love and relationships and how to handle it. And you know,

0:39:22.280 --> 0:39:24.279
<v Speaker 1>I mean, at the end of the day, right like,

0:39:24.360 --> 0:39:29.360
<v Speaker 1>you want to be in a relationship with someone that

0:39:29.480 --> 0:39:38.400
<v Speaker 1>you feel safe and comfortable and secure around. And I

0:39:38.400 --> 0:39:40.200
<v Speaker 1>don't know, I don't know you, but you said this

0:39:40.360 --> 0:39:44.480
<v Speaker 1>lady is like yelling at you and and you know

0:39:44.520 --> 0:39:47.880
<v Speaker 1>you guys broke up, but she's being jealous, and it's like,

0:39:47.960 --> 0:39:51.600
<v Speaker 1>do you do you feel secure and safe around this lady?

0:39:54.360 --> 0:39:56.759
<v Speaker 4>Well, I moved away from her, and I feel a

0:39:56.800 --> 0:39:59.719
<v Speaker 4>lot safe for being away from her. Like no, I'm

0:40:00.320 --> 0:40:03.239
<v Speaker 4>seven hours away from her, and ever since I moved away,

0:40:03.320 --> 0:40:05.120
<v Speaker 4>I feel a lot more safer. But yet she was

0:40:05.120 --> 0:40:06.560
<v Speaker 4>trying to get me come back to her.

0:40:06.680 --> 0:40:11.440
<v Speaker 1>You know, what do you want to do with your life? Man? What?

0:40:11.480 --> 0:40:14.160
<v Speaker 1>Because where you're at now, you got all these friends.

0:40:15.160 --> 0:40:17.600
<v Speaker 4>I'm in North Dakota with all my friends and Tripa

0:40:17.680 --> 0:40:19.879
<v Speaker 4>told them I want to become a streamer. Like when

0:40:19.920 --> 0:40:21.480
<v Speaker 4>I was with her, I had to put on my

0:40:21.600 --> 0:40:23.400
<v Speaker 4>pause because she got mad at me for trying to

0:40:23.800 --> 0:40:26.319
<v Speaker 4>you know, trying to make trying to make content. And

0:40:26.400 --> 0:40:28.319
<v Speaker 4>now with my free time, I'm trying to put more

0:40:28.360 --> 0:40:29.440
<v Speaker 4>content out for people.

0:40:29.560 --> 0:40:32.120
<v Speaker 1>You know, wait a minute, she got mad. Why was

0:40:32.160 --> 0:40:33.880
<v Speaker 1>she mad at you for trying to make content?

0:40:35.000 --> 0:40:40.040
<v Speaker 4>She said that she thought content, more content was more

0:40:40.080 --> 0:40:43.600
<v Speaker 4>important than her, which I told her she was more

0:40:43.600 --> 0:40:46.839
<v Speaker 4>important content, But yet her mind, she thought that trying

0:40:46.840 --> 0:40:49.480
<v Speaker 4>to make content come come up.

0:40:49.560 --> 0:41:00.760
<v Speaker 1>Calvin Calvin. Oh god, man, Calvin, listen, brother, my friend, Calvin.

0:41:02.360 --> 0:41:07.280
<v Speaker 1>You just from my perspective, you got a nice setup

0:41:07.360 --> 0:41:10.640
<v Speaker 1>going on. You got you got you really, you got

0:41:10.640 --> 0:41:12.360
<v Speaker 1>a nice setup going on. You got a thing you

0:41:12.400 --> 0:41:16.760
<v Speaker 1>want to do. You got good ass friends who, uh

0:41:17.000 --> 0:41:19.759
<v Speaker 1>you know, it's it's a god what a gift it

0:41:19.800 --> 0:41:21.480
<v Speaker 1>is to have like other people in your life who

0:41:21.520 --> 0:41:27.280
<v Speaker 1>give a fuck about you enough to offer you genuine

0:41:27.360 --> 0:41:31.440
<v Speaker 1>perspective on your situation and try to knock yourself out

0:41:31.520 --> 0:41:34.919
<v Speaker 1>of yourself when you're going insane. You know, that's that's lucky.

0:41:34.960 --> 0:41:36.880
<v Speaker 1>You're blessed to have that. You you want to stay

0:41:37.560 --> 0:41:40.520
<v Speaker 1>around those people. Those are good people that you got

0:41:40.560 --> 0:41:43.279
<v Speaker 1>around you, you know, and then you do and if

0:41:43.280 --> 0:41:45.560
<v Speaker 1>you if if you go back to this lady who

0:41:45.680 --> 0:41:49.920
<v Speaker 1>doesn't want you to uh pursue your your hobbies and

0:41:49.960 --> 0:41:55.120
<v Speaker 1>ambitions and who's driving you crazy? You know, crazy man?

0:41:55.239 --> 0:41:59.560
<v Speaker 1>You see young for that, I'm not telling I'm not

0:41:59.600 --> 0:42:03.239
<v Speaker 1>telling you anything. Calvin. I'm sorry I talked over you,

0:42:03.320 --> 0:42:05.919
<v Speaker 1>But Calvin, I'm not telling you anything. I'm not telling

0:42:05.960 --> 0:42:09.279
<v Speaker 1>you anything. You don't fucking know you We're just going

0:42:09.320 --> 0:42:11.480
<v Speaker 1>around in circus because I'm not the first person to

0:42:11.520 --> 0:42:13.439
<v Speaker 1>tell you this. I can I can tell that by

0:42:13.440 --> 0:42:21.880
<v Speaker 1>your friends. Oh yeah, the problem is that the problem

0:42:21.920 --> 0:42:23.840
<v Speaker 1>is that it's hard, right because you form a fucking

0:42:24.440 --> 0:42:26.560
<v Speaker 1>that that's the thing. That's what I think, And I

0:42:26.600 --> 0:42:28.080
<v Speaker 1>want to I want you to know I empathize with

0:42:28.120 --> 0:42:31.399
<v Speaker 1>you on this because somebody can be like you can

0:42:31.560 --> 0:42:39.479
<v Speaker 1>like logically, somebody can be very toxic and you can

0:42:39.560 --> 0:42:42.279
<v Speaker 1>know that, and you can know they're not right for you,

0:42:42.360 --> 0:42:44.960
<v Speaker 1>and you can know in your heart and in your

0:42:45.120 --> 0:42:51.439
<v Speaker 1>gut that that you know, yeah, they're not right for you.

0:42:51.920 --> 0:42:54.719
<v Speaker 1>But what sucks is that I mean not what sucks,

0:42:54.719 --> 0:42:56.760
<v Speaker 1>it just it just is what it is. It's fucking life.

0:42:56.800 --> 0:43:00.839
<v Speaker 1>It's like you form a strong connection with them, and

0:43:00.880 --> 0:43:04.240
<v Speaker 1>that connection it's a one of one thing. And after

0:43:04.360 --> 0:43:06.840
<v Speaker 1>a lot of time and a lot of affection and

0:43:06.880 --> 0:43:09.000
<v Speaker 1>a lot of energy and a lot of love, you

0:43:09.040 --> 0:43:12.839
<v Speaker 1>build a connection with someone on like an emotional, spiritual,

0:43:12.840 --> 0:43:20.360
<v Speaker 1>physical level, and your logic and this connection they don't

0:43:20.440 --> 0:43:25.040
<v Speaker 1>compute with each other. Your friends are only operating off

0:43:25.080 --> 0:43:27.759
<v Speaker 1>of logic. That's why they're able to be like, hey,

0:43:28.320 --> 0:43:31.359
<v Speaker 1>you know this lady is not is not good for

0:43:31.400 --> 0:43:35.719
<v Speaker 1>you because they're not blinded by the connection and the

0:43:35.760 --> 0:43:42.720
<v Speaker 1>connection is a real thing, and it's painful to let

0:43:42.760 --> 0:43:47.200
<v Speaker 1>go of that connection. And I empathize with you on that.

0:43:48.200 --> 0:43:58.640
<v Speaker 1>But the logic logic usually wins you know so, and

0:43:58.640 --> 0:44:00.960
<v Speaker 1>and if it helped, makes you feel about better. Over time,

0:44:02.040 --> 0:44:07.439
<v Speaker 1>as you do move yourself in the direction of where

0:44:07.480 --> 0:44:10.040
<v Speaker 1>you actually want to be, and shit, you'll you'll naturally

0:44:10.200 --> 0:44:14.160
<v Speaker 1>develop more connections. But I understand, I understand the pain.

0:44:14.719 --> 0:44:16.840
<v Speaker 1>But listen to your friends. Man, God damn, your friends

0:44:16.840 --> 0:44:17.560
<v Speaker 1>sound cool.

0:44:18.840 --> 0:44:19.279
<v Speaker 5>I will.

0:44:19.560 --> 0:44:20.680
<v Speaker 4>I appreciate you, Lyle.

0:44:21.640 --> 0:44:26.520
<v Speaker 1>All right? Calvin, Calvin, Calvin? Is there anything else I

0:44:26.520 --> 0:44:31.320
<v Speaker 1>can do for you at all? Do you want five dollars?

0:44:35.160 --> 0:44:38.839
<v Speaker 4>I mean, I wish I'll vemo you.

0:44:38.840 --> 0:44:39.959
<v Speaker 1>Five dollars right now?

0:44:41.880 --> 0:44:42.120
<v Speaker 3>Shiit?

0:44:44.560 --> 0:44:46.440
<v Speaker 1>What's your what's your what's your venom? And vemo? You

0:44:46.520 --> 0:44:52.800
<v Speaker 1>five dollars? Calvin? What's your Veandmo? And Vemo? And you

0:44:52.920 --> 0:44:54.759
<v Speaker 1>five dollars? I have no idea why I'm doing this

0:44:54.880 --> 0:44:57.239
<v Speaker 1>right now. I just said I I said I would,

0:44:57.960 --> 0:45:00.160
<v Speaker 1>and now I have to do it. What's your Vemo? Calvin?

0:45:01.280 --> 0:45:03.799
<v Speaker 4>Hold on, brother, I need to go on my cow

0:45:03.920 --> 0:45:04.279
<v Speaker 4>real click?

0:45:04.560 --> 0:45:07.680
<v Speaker 1>Okay? Why am I sending you five dollars? I don't

0:45:07.680 --> 0:45:09.279
<v Speaker 1>know why it feels like the right thing to do

0:45:10.160 --> 0:45:14.200
<v Speaker 1>to send you five. I've never nobody, no callers on

0:45:14.239 --> 0:45:16.120
<v Speaker 1>this show. I've ever You're the first caller on this

0:45:16.200 --> 0:45:22.360
<v Speaker 1>show to ever get paid. No, no, no, no, no, this

0:45:22.840 --> 0:45:24.920
<v Speaker 1>is not, this is not. This is I want you

0:45:25.000 --> 0:45:26.800
<v Speaker 1>to know. I want you to know. First of all, Calvin,

0:45:26.920 --> 0:45:32.640
<v Speaker 1>I I I I love you. I'll help you succeed

0:45:32.680 --> 0:45:36.200
<v Speaker 1>in life. And I don't know and and this is not.

0:45:36.640 --> 0:45:39.719
<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna take credit as this be be. This

0:45:39.800 --> 0:45:42.200
<v Speaker 1>is more me being manic than me being a good person.

0:45:42.239 --> 0:45:45.279
<v Speaker 1>But it makes me feel good to give you five.

0:45:45.480 --> 0:45:47.759
<v Speaker 1>What's your vemo? I'm sending you five dollars right now.

0:45:48.040 --> 0:45:51.840
<v Speaker 4>My venmo is Emo E M O B O I

0:45:52.239 --> 0:45:54.560
<v Speaker 4>zero zero is Emo Boys zero zero.

0:45:54.680 --> 0:46:02.120
<v Speaker 1>Emo Boy zero zero. Okay, Calvin, all right, all right, Calvin,

0:46:02.160 --> 0:46:04.120
<v Speaker 1>I sent you. All right, Calvin, I sent you five dollars.

0:46:05.200 --> 0:46:05.960
<v Speaker 4>I appreciate it.

0:46:06.040 --> 0:46:07.680
<v Speaker 1>Brother, all right, what are you gonna do with it?

0:46:09.160 --> 0:46:11.879
<v Speaker 4>Well, for me, I'm just gonna I'm just gonna try

0:46:11.880 --> 0:46:14.440
<v Speaker 4>to get a meal since with the person I've been

0:46:14.480 --> 0:46:17.560
<v Speaker 4>living with for the past couple of days, I've been

0:46:17.600 --> 0:46:20.080
<v Speaker 4>starving and I'm trying to get trying to figure out

0:46:20.080 --> 0:46:22.120
<v Speaker 4>what to do. And my friend he doesn't do anything

0:46:22.120 --> 0:46:24.440
<v Speaker 4>about it. Yet he works and he doesn't give me

0:46:24.480 --> 0:46:27.640
<v Speaker 4>anything at all. And I've been trying to clean his apartment,

0:46:27.719 --> 0:46:29.400
<v Speaker 4>trying to bend over backwards, froom everything.

0:46:30.440 --> 0:46:32.160
<v Speaker 1>Wait a minute, wait you start. Do you have a

0:46:32.239 --> 0:46:32.919
<v Speaker 1>Do you have a job.

0:46:35.200 --> 0:46:37.120
<v Speaker 4>I've been trying to get a job, but every job

0:46:37.200 --> 0:46:39.480
<v Speaker 4>I applied to has never got back to me at all.

0:46:39.560 --> 0:46:42.480
<v Speaker 4>And I put a good resume, like I have a

0:46:42.480 --> 0:46:45.880
<v Speaker 4>good resume, and nobody wants to hire me. And I

0:46:46.040 --> 0:46:49.080
<v Speaker 4>worked at home depot, I've worked at Walmart everywhere, and

0:46:49.239 --> 0:46:52.040
<v Speaker 4>I have good cover, I have good customer service. Yet

0:46:53.000 --> 0:46:55.200
<v Speaker 4>I don't let my autist mean in the way of anything.

0:46:57.440 --> 0:47:07.480
<v Speaker 1>Hmmm mmmm okay, okay, okay, Well listen, don't don't uh,

0:47:07.840 --> 0:47:12.080
<v Speaker 1>let's listen to your friends. Don't let this lady drive

0:47:12.120 --> 0:47:14.799
<v Speaker 1>you crazy. And I wish I had something more cool

0:47:14.880 --> 0:47:16.759
<v Speaker 1>and awesome. I wish I had something cooler to say

0:47:16.760 --> 0:47:21.600
<v Speaker 1>to you than just keep trying. But just keep trying, man.

0:47:23.440 --> 0:47:27.080
<v Speaker 4>I appreciate you and everybody. Yeah, just I'm trying. I'm

0:47:27.160 --> 0:47:29.239
<v Speaker 4>trying to keep keep myself on my feet. It's just

0:47:29.800 --> 0:47:31.880
<v Speaker 4>my mental health has been draining me, and I'm not

0:47:31.880 --> 0:47:33.120
<v Speaker 4>trying to let that get in a way.

0:47:34.400 --> 0:47:36.279
<v Speaker 1>Covin, Covin, is anything else us say to the people

0:47:36.280 --> 0:47:37.319
<v Speaker 1>of the computer before we go?

0:47:39.640 --> 0:47:43.520
<v Speaker 4>All I can say is find the woman who means

0:47:44.040 --> 0:47:46.720
<v Speaker 4>the most of you, and find the woman who treats

0:47:46.760 --> 0:47:49.120
<v Speaker 4>you how you want to be treated. Don't let her

0:47:49.440 --> 0:47:54.560
<v Speaker 4>treat you any other way you want to be loved.

0:47:54.719 --> 0:47:58.400
<v Speaker 4>And if a woman gaslights you or treats you like

0:47:58.560 --> 0:48:02.120
<v Speaker 4>any sort of way, that is not love. You need

0:48:02.160 --> 0:48:05.000
<v Speaker 4>to find the one person who means the world to

0:48:05.040 --> 0:48:07.480
<v Speaker 4>you and you truly know she would be the one

0:48:07.480 --> 0:48:12.800
<v Speaker 4>for you. She deserves to know that you You deserve

0:48:13.160 --> 0:48:17.840
<v Speaker 4>everything in the war like love, honesty, loyalty, communication, You

0:48:17.960 --> 0:48:22.200
<v Speaker 4>deserve everything from that. As from my perspective, as I've

0:48:22.239 --> 0:48:25.680
<v Speaker 4>been through many relationships and for right now, I'm thinking

0:48:25.719 --> 0:48:29.480
<v Speaker 4>to myself and you know, I just want everybody to

0:48:29.520 --> 0:48:32.120
<v Speaker 4>find true love, and I just I want everybody to

0:48:32.120 --> 0:48:34.399
<v Speaker 4>deserve what they want, you know, in life, I want

0:48:34.440 --> 0:48:35.480
<v Speaker 4>everyone to be happy.

0:48:36.600 --> 0:48:39.759
<v Speaker 1>Your sweet boy, Calvin, You're a sweet boy. Thank you

0:48:39.760 --> 0:48:42.040
<v Speaker 1>for calling my show, Calvin. Okay, good luck.

0:48:41.920 --> 0:48:44.400
<v Speaker 4>Of course, thank you, and I hope everyone has a

0:48:44.440 --> 0:48:47.520
<v Speaker 4>good night. Okay, good luck, Calvin, thank you, have a

0:48:47.520 --> 0:48:48.400
<v Speaker 4>good night. Get girls.

0:48:48.600 --> 0:48:52.680
<v Speaker 1>Calvin's a sweet boy. Calvin's a sweet guy. I have

0:48:52.920 --> 0:48:56.680
<v Speaker 1>zero regrets sending him five dollars. Nobody else call me

0:48:56.800 --> 0:48:59.279
<v Speaker 1>and asked me for five dollars. That was the only

0:48:59.360 --> 0:49:01.520
<v Speaker 1>time I ever going to do that. When that's what

0:49:01.600 --> 0:49:05.200
<v Speaker 1>happens when I get uh, that's what happens when I

0:49:05.239 --> 0:49:07.799
<v Speaker 1>when I get really hopped hopped up on caffeine and

0:49:07.880 --> 0:49:10.440
<v Speaker 1>vibe ances, I tell people I love them, and I

0:49:10.480 --> 0:49:12.719
<v Speaker 1>send them five dollars and I'm by the way, oh eyes.

0:49:13.000 --> 0:49:18.400
<v Speaker 1>Just so you know, in my uh soul, I actually

0:49:18.440 --> 0:49:22.640
<v Speaker 1>do love Calvin. In this moment, I feel I feel

0:49:22.680 --> 0:49:26.080
<v Speaker 1>like a lot of uh, I guess the case like

0:49:26.239 --> 0:49:30.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm some like, but in my gut is like it's

0:49:30.719 --> 0:49:35.719
<v Speaker 1>just though, uh, there's love and maybe and I think

0:49:35.840 --> 0:49:38.920
<v Speaker 1>diamount and do it brings it to the surface. It

0:49:38.960 --> 0:49:40.520
<v Speaker 1>makes me want to give It just makes me want

0:49:40.560 --> 0:49:44.640
<v Speaker 1>to give that guy five dollars. I might wake up

0:49:44.680 --> 0:49:46.319
<v Speaker 1>in the morning and be like, I'm not gonna regret

0:49:46.360 --> 0:49:49.759
<v Speaker 1>him even five dollars. But I'm like, I don't know,

0:49:49.840 --> 0:49:51.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm crazy, I don't know I'm acting like I'm acting

0:49:51.760 --> 0:49:54.120
<v Speaker 1>like a crazy person. I feel for Calvin, I really do.

0:49:54.320 --> 0:49:58.440
<v Speaker 1>I feel for Calvin. Again. That's the thing, right is

0:49:58.480 --> 0:50:04.279
<v Speaker 1>you you can have you can again logically know that

0:50:04.400 --> 0:50:08.560
<v Speaker 1>there are problems. Well, so much of life is just

0:50:08.719 --> 0:50:13.600
<v Speaker 1>the fucking uh battle that you, as a human being

0:50:14.080 --> 0:50:23.000
<v Speaker 1>have with what you logically know to be good and bad. Right,

0:50:23.080 --> 0:50:25.040
<v Speaker 1>There's like, what is a part of your brain that

0:50:25.160 --> 0:50:30.520
<v Speaker 1>logically knows how you should be treated and what is

0:50:30.560 --> 0:50:32.840
<v Speaker 1>good and what is bad and blah blah blah, And

0:50:32.880 --> 0:50:35.560
<v Speaker 1>then you have the emotional part of your brain that

0:50:37.640 --> 0:50:43.240
<v Speaker 1>it again it doesn't want to lose things or people,

0:50:45.040 --> 0:50:49.960
<v Speaker 1>is horny that that that fucks you up. So so

0:50:50.239 --> 0:50:52.799
<v Speaker 1>I I I feel for Calvin in his battle within

0:50:52.840 --> 0:51:00.680
<v Speaker 1>his own brain. Hello. Hello, Hi, what is your name?

0:51:00.920 --> 0:51:02.680
<v Speaker 5>Rachel?

0:51:02.840 --> 0:51:04.080
<v Speaker 1>What's up? Rachel? Has life?

0:51:04.160 --> 0:51:07.680
<v Speaker 5>It's going well. I just graduated college, so it's great, exciting.

0:51:07.960 --> 0:51:15.000
<v Speaker 1>Congratulations you, Rachel. Is there anything in particular that you

0:51:15.000 --> 0:51:16.160
<v Speaker 1>wanted to talk about today?

0:51:17.680 --> 0:51:21.120
<v Speaker 5>I wanted to tell you the story of my uncle's disappearance.

0:51:21.440 --> 0:51:22.879
<v Speaker 1>Your uncle's disappearance?

0:51:23.000 --> 0:51:30.080
<v Speaker 5>Sure, okay, So we have to start from the very beginning.

0:51:30.400 --> 0:51:34.759
<v Speaker 5>Before I was born. My uncle was disowned by my

0:51:34.840 --> 0:51:42.000
<v Speaker 5>grandfather and moved to a Native American reservation. That's the beginning.

0:51:43.200 --> 0:51:45.840
<v Speaker 5>We are not Native Americans, so I don't know like

0:51:45.920 --> 0:51:50.560
<v Speaker 5>what the rules are with that, but I don't know.

0:51:51.560 --> 0:51:54.600
<v Speaker 5>And then my grandfather passed away, and then he moved

0:51:54.600 --> 0:51:58.839
<v Speaker 5>back home when he was hit by a bus and

0:51:58.880 --> 0:52:02.759
<v Speaker 5>he became disabled. The bus was a government vehicle, so

0:52:02.840 --> 0:52:06.000
<v Speaker 5>he got a lot of money in a lawsuit, so

0:52:06.040 --> 0:52:11.839
<v Speaker 5>he became a millionaire. Do you have any questions so far?

0:52:12.440 --> 0:52:12.600
<v Speaker 1>Uh?

0:52:12.840 --> 0:52:18.600
<v Speaker 5>No, Okay, So let's fast forward. I'm in eighth grade.

0:52:18.760 --> 0:52:20.759
<v Speaker 5>Not right now, but back in the day. I was

0:52:20.800 --> 0:52:25.080
<v Speaker 5>in eighth grade and he wanted to move with like

0:52:25.120 --> 0:52:28.360
<v Speaker 5>all this money that he had, and he was like

0:52:28.440 --> 0:52:32.239
<v Speaker 5>struggling a little bit, and so my mom was like, Okay, yeah,

0:52:32.280 --> 0:52:34.359
<v Speaker 5>you can stay with us. We can help you find

0:52:34.360 --> 0:52:38.399
<v Speaker 5>a place to live. YadA, YadA, YadA. So my mom

0:52:38.440 --> 0:52:41.959
<v Speaker 5>has six siblings and she's like very known to help

0:52:42.040 --> 0:52:44.640
<v Speaker 5>them out when they're in need. So he lived with

0:52:44.719 --> 0:52:46.319
<v Speaker 5>us for like a month, like came to my eighth

0:52:46.360 --> 0:52:49.480
<v Speaker 5>grade soccer games. Everything was fine, and like he was

0:52:49.520 --> 0:52:51.960
<v Speaker 5>my favorite uncle, and like I just thought he was

0:52:52.000 --> 0:52:55.120
<v Speaker 5>so funny. He was always super outgoing. Turns out he

0:52:55.239 --> 0:53:00.200
<v Speaker 5>was deep in alcoholism, which I know that now, but

0:53:00.239 --> 0:53:02.640
<v Speaker 5>at the time I was just like this, this guy's awesome.

0:53:04.920 --> 0:53:07.640
<v Speaker 5>And then he moved to like a beach and I

0:53:07.680 --> 0:53:11.319
<v Speaker 5>want to say, like Delaware. Eventually he lived with us

0:53:11.320 --> 0:53:14.000
<v Speaker 5>for like two months, and then after that we didn't

0:53:14.000 --> 0:53:16.240
<v Speaker 5>really hear from him, Like I saw pictures of the house,

0:53:16.400 --> 0:53:19.200
<v Speaker 5>like he was like living his life, like he was peaceful.

0:53:20.080 --> 0:53:23.600
<v Speaker 5>And then like a few months later, my mom's like,

0:53:25.480 --> 0:53:29.480
<v Speaker 5>I haven't heard from your uncle, and we're all like, okay, well,

0:53:29.480 --> 0:53:31.799
<v Speaker 5>he's probably just like living his best life on a

0:53:31.840 --> 0:53:36.239
<v Speaker 5>beach somewhere, drinking a thirty racketbush light, just like having

0:53:36.239 --> 0:53:40.400
<v Speaker 5>a great time. And then another month passes, my mom's

0:53:40.440 --> 0:53:45.400
<v Speaker 5>like okay, like something's going on, and turns out my

0:53:45.600 --> 0:53:48.680
<v Speaker 5>uncle had met this woman who claimed to have been

0:53:48.719 --> 0:53:52.880
<v Speaker 5>in love with him, and she said that she was

0:53:52.920 --> 0:53:56.560
<v Speaker 5>like a gem dealer and like sold diamonds and like

0:53:56.680 --> 0:54:02.600
<v Speaker 5>different precious gems, and allegedly that wasn't true at all,

0:54:02.800 --> 0:54:05.359
<v Speaker 5>and she just like took all of his money, like

0:54:05.480 --> 0:54:10.480
<v Speaker 5>from that big lawsuit back in the day. And then

0:54:10.520 --> 0:54:14.000
<v Speaker 5>after that, like we didn't hear from him at all

0:54:14.080 --> 0:54:18.280
<v Speaker 5>for like months, So my mom was like in contact

0:54:18.280 --> 0:54:21.160
<v Speaker 5>with like a private investigator and like all these police

0:54:21.200 --> 0:54:24.080
<v Speaker 5>departments and like no one knew where he was, but

0:54:24.120 --> 0:54:31.839
<v Speaker 5>he had like a car. So eventually my mom gets

0:54:31.840 --> 0:54:33.840
<v Speaker 5>a call. I want to say, this is like another

0:54:34.040 --> 0:54:36.960
<v Speaker 5>like three months later. So at this point, I'm like

0:54:36.960 --> 0:54:38.960
<v Speaker 5>a sophomore in high school. My mom gets a call

0:54:39.000 --> 0:54:41.960
<v Speaker 5>and they're like, we found him. We found him. So

0:54:42.040 --> 0:54:43.640
<v Speaker 5>this is great news to me because this is my

0:54:43.680 --> 0:54:47.400
<v Speaker 5>favorite uncle. And I'm like, we need the laughs back.

0:54:49.800 --> 0:54:52.160
<v Speaker 5>And my mom's like, well, he's in Florida, and so

0:54:52.280 --> 0:54:54.560
<v Speaker 5>I'm not from Florida. I did go to college there,

0:54:55.360 --> 0:54:59.600
<v Speaker 5>but like he got from Delaware to Florida and turns

0:54:59.600 --> 0:55:02.720
<v Speaker 5>out he is now homeless. So he has this car

0:55:03.120 --> 0:55:06.520
<v Speaker 5>and he has these two homeless accomplices who he lives

0:55:06.560 --> 0:55:12.880
<v Speaker 5>with out of the car, and there's some sort of

0:55:13.920 --> 0:55:16.440
<v Speaker 5>I don't know, ruck is going down in Florida, but

0:55:16.640 --> 0:55:18.840
<v Speaker 5>like there's always a ruck is going down in Florida,

0:55:20.280 --> 0:55:22.839
<v Speaker 5>and so like we're like okay without him. But then

0:55:24.000 --> 0:55:28.000
<v Speaker 5>but then a few months later, my mom gets a

0:55:28.040 --> 0:55:33.760
<v Speaker 5>Facebook message from a random woman in like the most

0:55:34.120 --> 0:55:38.759
<v Speaker 5>western part of Virginia possible and like this place, this

0:55:38.880 --> 0:55:40.480
<v Speaker 5>is not a place that you want to be at

0:55:41.880 --> 0:55:47.440
<v Speaker 5>it's like Confederate flags everywhere, like very scary shacks in

0:55:47.560 --> 0:55:52.799
<v Speaker 5>like on top of the hills type shit. And this

0:55:52.880 --> 0:55:58.920
<v Speaker 5>Facebook message is like are you my uncle's sister? And

0:55:58.960 --> 0:56:05.920
<v Speaker 5>she's like yes, and it's like he's dead. But this

0:56:06.040 --> 0:56:10.880
<v Speaker 5>was horrible. This was a big, big, horrible things happening

0:56:10.880 --> 0:56:12.880
<v Speaker 5>to me when I was a sophomore because I was like,

0:56:12.920 --> 0:56:14.840
<v Speaker 5>I'm never gonna get to hang out with my alcoholic

0:56:14.920 --> 0:56:20.399
<v Speaker 5>uncle who harasses waitresses at restaurants while I'm six years old.

0:56:20.480 --> 0:56:24.640
<v Speaker 5>Like yeah, yes, chat, rest and power, rest and power.

0:56:26.040 --> 0:56:27.840
<v Speaker 5>So I'm fifteen years old at this point, and my

0:56:27.920 --> 0:56:29.760
<v Speaker 5>mother is like, you know, what would be a great

0:56:29.840 --> 0:56:34.480
<v Speaker 5>family bonding experience if you used your learner's permit to

0:56:34.560 --> 0:56:41.440
<v Speaker 5>drive with me five hours to but fuck Egypt and

0:56:41.760 --> 0:56:45.640
<v Speaker 5>retrieve our uncle's body.

0:56:46.160 --> 0:56:48.840
<v Speaker 1>So I'm like, you're living in Egypt?

0:56:50.520 --> 0:56:54.239
<v Speaker 5>No, no, no, Like it's just like me saying butt

0:56:54.239 --> 0:56:56.399
<v Speaker 5>fuck nowhere, but saying butt fuck Egypt.

0:56:57.280 --> 0:56:59.600
<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, so this is it's in America. It's not

0:56:59.680 --> 0:57:00.400
<v Speaker 1>in Egypt.

0:57:00.719 --> 0:57:02.720
<v Speaker 5>Yeah no, no, no, we're no, We're in Virginia.

0:57:02.960 --> 0:57:04.480
<v Speaker 2>Sorry, okay, all right, Yeah.

0:57:04.320 --> 0:57:08.840
<v Speaker 1>That was that was very confusing to say that, to

0:57:08.960 --> 0:57:10.520
<v Speaker 1>say that you're driving to Egypt.

0:57:11.600 --> 0:57:13.400
<v Speaker 5>Someone just said, hey, daughter, you know what would be

0:57:13.440 --> 0:57:14.360
<v Speaker 5>super drum?

0:57:14.560 --> 0:57:15.960
<v Speaker 1>Can you not? Can you not? Can you not look

0:57:15.960 --> 0:57:16.400
<v Speaker 1>at the chat?

0:57:17.360 --> 0:57:21.480
<v Speaker 5>Okay, okay, well look, okay, go ahead.

0:57:21.520 --> 0:57:24.120
<v Speaker 1>And so you're driving to not Egypt.

0:57:24.360 --> 0:57:27.960
<v Speaker 5>So I'm driving to like the western part of Virginia,

0:57:28.080 --> 0:57:30.880
<v Speaker 5>not West Virginia, but like the westernmost part of Virginia.

0:57:31.360 --> 0:57:35.840
<v Speaker 5>So it's like very much farmland. So I'm fifteen, I

0:57:35.880 --> 0:57:38.400
<v Speaker 5>have my learners permit, like I need a trusted adult

0:57:38.440 --> 0:57:42.840
<v Speaker 5>in the car, and me and my mom and my

0:57:43.000 --> 0:57:48.800
<v Speaker 5>sister drive out to like this random like woman's house,

0:57:48.880 --> 0:57:53.720
<v Speaker 5>the woman who Facebook messaged my mom. And we get

0:57:53.720 --> 0:57:57.480
<v Speaker 5>there like five hours later, and it's like just the

0:57:57.480 --> 0:58:00.480
<v Speaker 5>most random lady we've ever met. And she's like, yeah,

0:58:00.520 --> 0:58:02.680
<v Speaker 5>he's dead. Like you got to go to like the morgue.

0:58:02.840 --> 0:58:05.480
<v Speaker 5>So there was like three buildings in this town. One

0:58:05.480 --> 0:58:09.200
<v Speaker 5>of them was like a place to have replace tires

0:58:09.200 --> 0:58:12.040
<v Speaker 5>on your car, another one was I don't even remember,

0:58:12.080 --> 0:58:14.320
<v Speaker 5>and then the third one was a more like a

0:58:14.400 --> 0:58:20.640
<v Speaker 5>funeral home. So we are there and we go down

0:58:20.720 --> 0:58:22.800
<v Speaker 5>in the basement. I'm fifteen years old at this point,

0:58:22.840 --> 0:58:25.400
<v Speaker 5>Like let me just say that we go down in

0:58:25.440 --> 0:58:27.479
<v Speaker 5>the basement of this funeral home, which is like where

0:58:27.480 --> 0:58:30.080
<v Speaker 5>they keep bodies, which is like so crazy because I

0:58:30.080 --> 0:58:32.240
<v Speaker 5>would have never known that otherwise. So I'd like to

0:58:32.240 --> 0:58:40.040
<v Speaker 5>thank my mother for this learning experience. And it's my uncle. Okay,

0:58:40.120 --> 0:58:43.640
<v Speaker 5>so obviously I'm like laughing right now, but you have

0:58:43.680 --> 0:58:47.240
<v Speaker 5>to understand, like I knew he was dead for a while,

0:58:47.280 --> 0:58:49.440
<v Speaker 5>and like it's not funny, but he did look like

0:58:49.440 --> 0:58:53.120
<v Speaker 5>he was sleeping. But like upon his body there was

0:58:53.160 --> 0:58:55.680
<v Speaker 5>like the white sheet, like just how you would think

0:58:56.640 --> 0:59:02.120
<v Speaker 5>in a movie, but like but the sheet draped like

0:59:03.560 --> 0:59:08.200
<v Speaker 5>ever so slightly over his right leg. And then we're like,

0:59:08.280 --> 0:59:11.200
<v Speaker 5>what is that? And the guy in the morgue is like, oh, yeah,

0:59:11.560 --> 0:59:15.840
<v Speaker 5>his leg is missing, like his leg was amputated. So

0:59:16.000 --> 0:59:18.480
<v Speaker 5>I'm here, I'm fifteen. I'm like, did someone cut off

0:59:18.520 --> 0:59:22.360
<v Speaker 5>his leg? And like he died at this point, I'm

0:59:22.360 --> 0:59:25.760
<v Speaker 5>like I need to go home. But apparently because he

0:59:25.840 --> 0:59:27.560
<v Speaker 5>was an alcohol like he got a blood clot in

0:59:27.600 --> 0:59:29.320
<v Speaker 5>his leg and they had to amputate it because he

0:59:29.360 --> 0:59:35.120
<v Speaker 5>was homeless and he never got it checked out. So anyways,

0:59:35.160 --> 0:59:37.560
<v Speaker 5>that literally is not an important part of the story. Anyways,

0:59:38.040 --> 0:59:41.680
<v Speaker 5>beating up the story, we correctly id in my uncle's body,

0:59:41.680 --> 0:59:44.160
<v Speaker 5>May he rest in power. And then we're like, we

0:59:44.200 --> 0:59:47.080
<v Speaker 5>need to go retrieve his belongings out of his car,

0:59:47.480 --> 0:59:50.360
<v Speaker 5>because like he had like mail in his car, and

0:59:50.400 --> 0:59:55.080
<v Speaker 5>like his important documents were in his car, and my

0:59:55.200 --> 0:59:59.200
<v Speaker 5>uncle had a son, my cousin, and he might be

0:59:59.240 --> 1:00:02.480
<v Speaker 5>wondering where it is is my uncle's son. He was

1:00:02.520 --> 1:00:05.760
<v Speaker 5>too busy to come because he was playing Larry the

1:00:05.800 --> 1:00:09.760
<v Speaker 5>Lobster in a free edition of SpongeBob the Musical in

1:00:09.840 --> 1:00:16.600
<v Speaker 5>like New Jersey. So we decided to handle it. So

1:00:16.680 --> 1:00:18.920
<v Speaker 5>we get to where his car was and there's like

1:00:18.960 --> 1:00:21.480
<v Speaker 5>a shack and the two other homeless people were there,

1:00:22.040 --> 1:00:24.920
<v Speaker 5>but like they didn't know what was going on because

1:00:24.960 --> 1:00:31.439
<v Speaker 5>they were, you know, victims of substance abuse. And we

1:00:31.560 --> 1:00:34.560
<v Speaker 5>like get his stuff out of his car, and they're like,

1:00:34.600 --> 1:00:36.960
<v Speaker 5>who are you, Like a man just died here. We're

1:00:37.000 --> 1:00:41.120
<v Speaker 5>like yeah, we're his family, and they're like what and

1:00:41.120 --> 1:00:43.840
<v Speaker 5>we're like yeah. So we get his stuff out of

1:00:43.880 --> 1:00:46.800
<v Speaker 5>his car, and then I found five kittens under the

1:00:47.080 --> 1:00:49.720
<v Speaker 5>like the deck of a shack that he was living in,

1:00:50.000 --> 1:00:52.320
<v Speaker 5>and I rescued them actually, and I adopted them out

1:00:52.400 --> 1:00:54.160
<v Speaker 5>to people. So that was something good that came out

1:00:54.160 --> 1:00:58.200
<v Speaker 5>of it. But eventually we did come to find out

1:00:58.240 --> 1:01:02.280
<v Speaker 5>that they were in possession of some of his belongings

1:01:02.320 --> 1:01:05.960
<v Speaker 5>and they were using his credit cards after his death

1:01:06.080 --> 1:01:09.720
<v Speaker 5>for many months. But we figured that out. And that's

1:01:09.760 --> 1:01:12.439
<v Speaker 5>the story. So there's a lot of unpack like how

1:01:12.440 --> 1:01:15.920
<v Speaker 5>did he live on a Native American reservation? Why was

1:01:15.960 --> 1:01:21.120
<v Speaker 5>he in Florida? The leg thing happened? And then did

1:01:21.120 --> 1:01:21.439
<v Speaker 5>you ever.

1:01:21.400 --> 1:01:24.000
<v Speaker 1>Find did you ever find his leg? Did you ever

1:01:24.040 --> 1:01:24.880
<v Speaker 1>find his leg?

1:01:26.120 --> 1:01:28.880
<v Speaker 5>Right? Where was it? Where was his leg?

1:01:30.360 --> 1:01:31.800
<v Speaker 1>Okay? So you never found a leg?

1:01:33.520 --> 1:01:38.480
<v Speaker 5>No, it was like amputated in like a medical procedure.

1:01:39.120 --> 1:01:45.280
<v Speaker 1>Do you still talk to your aunt my aunts or

1:01:45.520 --> 1:01:48.320
<v Speaker 1>like your uncle? Your uncle had like a lady friend?

1:01:49.480 --> 1:01:52.520
<v Speaker 5>Well he didn't though. It was a woman who scammed

1:01:52.560 --> 1:01:54.560
<v Speaker 5>him out of like a million dollars and said that

1:01:54.600 --> 1:01:56.560
<v Speaker 5>she like sold gems.

1:01:57.840 --> 1:01:58.480
<v Speaker 4>No one does that.

1:02:00.600 --> 1:02:02.680
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I know. So we never figured it out. What happens?

1:02:02.720 --> 1:02:05.040
<v Speaker 1>There has there been any updates on this?

1:02:06.320 --> 1:02:09.960
<v Speaker 5>No? Every time I bring it up, like my mom

1:02:10.040 --> 1:02:10.720
<v Speaker 5>is just like yeah.

1:02:10.640 --> 1:02:15.600
<v Speaker 1>Whatever, okay, okay.

1:02:15.200 --> 1:02:17.000
<v Speaker 5>And realistically, this wasn't that long.

1:02:16.880 --> 1:02:19.600
<v Speaker 1>Ago, Like wait, how old are you now?

1:02:20.640 --> 1:02:21.400
<v Speaker 5>I'm twenty one?

1:02:22.000 --> 1:02:25.800
<v Speaker 1>Okay, So I guess you'll you'll just never have the

1:02:25.880 --> 1:02:27.800
<v Speaker 1>answers to this right.

1:02:27.960 --> 1:02:31.960
<v Speaker 5>It's like very mysterious and I wish that I could

1:02:32.080 --> 1:02:34.880
<v Speaker 5>have been there after we left the shack to hear

1:02:34.920 --> 1:02:39.760
<v Speaker 5>the homeless people converse. Well, uh, they have something to

1:02:39.800 --> 1:02:40.640
<v Speaker 5>do with it, Like.

1:02:42.600 --> 1:02:44.360
<v Speaker 1>You know, rest in peace to your uncle.

1:02:45.960 --> 1:02:48.400
<v Speaker 5>Yeah he was great. He died doing what he looked.

1:02:49.280 --> 1:02:51.640
<v Speaker 5>What did he love drinking?

1:02:53.040 --> 1:02:54.160
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

1:02:54.160 --> 1:02:55.360
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go.

1:02:56.920 --> 1:02:59.280
<v Speaker 5>I love you guys. Look out for your uncles.

1:03:00.040 --> 1:03:05.760
<v Speaker 1>Obay, the repeat can't goes on the line taking your

1:03:05.840 --> 1:03:09.400
<v Speaker 1>phone calls every night. The repeat can't goes doing his ride.

1:03:09.520 --> 1:03:12.600
<v Speaker 1>He's teaching you about live your life, but he's not

1:03:12.840 --> 1:03:14.200
<v Speaker 1>really an expert.