WEBVTT - Kendall Jenner ON: Setting Boundaries to Increase Happiness & Healing Your Inner Child 0:00:00.120 --> 0:00:05.520 If your happiness depends on the actions of others, you know, 0:00:05.680 --> 0:00:15.040 you're at mercy of things that you can't control. Yeah, 0:00:15.080 --> 0:00:17.919 I'm not even just saying this. I literally think I 0:00:18.079 --> 0:00:21.800 manifested this, Like it's the after I saw you at 0:00:21.800 --> 0:00:24.480 Simmy and Hayes's house. So that was a couple months ago. 0:00:24.480 --> 0:00:27.040 And then a few weeks ago, my I was talking 0:00:27.040 --> 0:00:28.920 to my social media go randomly. We were just talking 0:00:28.920 --> 0:00:31.680 about a bunch of stuff and just kind of what 0:00:32.560 --> 0:00:34.720 I would love to represent, just talking about a new 0:00:34.960 --> 0:00:37.320 chapter for me and whatever, and I was she was like, 0:00:38.000 --> 0:00:40.040 who would you really want to like talk to or whatever? 0:00:40.080 --> 0:00:41.280 And I was like, it would be so cool to 0:00:41.320 --> 0:00:43.519 talk to Jay and she was like that would be 0:00:43.560 --> 0:00:45.280 really cool. And then we kind of just that was 0:00:45.360 --> 0:00:47.400 kind of the thought and whatever, and then you hit 0:00:47.479 --> 0:00:49.920 me and I was like, no, frickin' way, he's hitting 0:00:49.960 --> 0:00:52.479 me right now. So I was like, absolutely, this is 0:00:52.560 --> 0:00:55.280 like perfect, It's the universe just putting it in perfect timing, 0:00:55.320 --> 0:00:56.360 because that makes me. 0:00:56.320 --> 0:00:59.560 So happy because it was exactly the opposite way. So 0:00:59.800 --> 0:01:02.640 I've for a long time had people that I'd love 0:01:02.680 --> 0:01:04.280 to sit down with, and every time I saw you 0:01:04.319 --> 0:01:06.840 do something with mental Health and Vogue or any of 0:01:06.880 --> 0:01:08.679 the segments that you ever did. I was just like, 0:01:08.959 --> 0:01:11.600 she's amazing, Like, you know, it's incredible to the way 0:01:11.600 --> 0:01:13.440 you were talking about it. When you'd post about it, 0:01:13.760 --> 0:01:16.120 I'd be like, Oh, this is incredible, like to see 0:01:16.160 --> 0:01:18.920 you speaking so openly about it, vulnerably about it. And 0:01:18.959 --> 0:01:21.680 so I've always wanted to do this and then, but 0:01:21.760 --> 0:01:24.440 we've never really crossed paths, and so I'm always just 0:01:24.440 --> 0:01:26.440 a bit like, and I don't like asking friends of 0:01:26.480 --> 0:01:29.440 friends when I haven't met someone. And so I was 0:01:29.440 --> 0:01:30.959 like that day, i had to like pluck up the current, 0:01:31.040 --> 0:01:33.280 but I'm just going to ask for myself, no, because 0:01:33.319 --> 0:01:35.440 it's easier when I asked her, and I know Christy, 0:01:35.640 --> 0:01:38.200 so yeah, yeah. But I was like, it's nicer when 0:01:38.240 --> 0:01:39.759 there's I told my team too. I was like, it's 0:01:39.760 --> 0:01:42.240 so much nicer when there's like a personal connection and 0:01:42.280 --> 0:01:45.360 someone really feels comfortable rather than it's like a pr No. 0:01:45.560 --> 0:01:45.880 It was. 0:01:46.200 --> 0:01:48.120 It was so perfect. Like when I think back to it, 0:01:48.160 --> 0:01:51.240 I'm like, that was me just trusting the universe and 0:01:51.280 --> 0:01:53.400 not pushing for anything. And I knew it was going 0:01:53.440 --> 0:01:55.320 to kind of happen when I was supposed to do 0:01:55.320 --> 0:01:57.160 and it literally Yeah you. 0:01:57.160 --> 0:01:58.440 Felt it too, Yeah I did. 0:01:59.520 --> 0:02:01.880 Yeah, And I hope that there is the set of spending. 0:02:01.640 --> 0:02:04.120 More time to you Jenny too. 0:02:04.640 --> 0:02:07.520 I would love that because, like I think, also, I 0:02:07.520 --> 0:02:10.600 don't know, like I admire people like you. I admire like, 0:02:11.400 --> 0:02:14.920 you know, the the Michael Poland's and Michael Singers and 0:02:14.960 --> 0:02:17.079 whim Hoffs of the world. And I feel like you've 0:02:17.120 --> 0:02:19.280 fin that category for me of just people that are 0:02:19.680 --> 0:02:21.400 because you know, I know a little bit about your story. 0:02:21.440 --> 0:02:23.399 I'd like to actually know more, which would be really 0:02:23.440 --> 0:02:26.240 cool to actually, I know we're obviously not here for 0:02:26.320 --> 0:02:29.400 that exactly, but for me just personally, like, i'd love 0:02:29.440 --> 0:02:32.440 to know more of your story. I know that you've 0:02:32.480 --> 0:02:35.560 had quite the experiences, and I think that's so cool. 0:02:35.680 --> 0:02:38.079 I'm like so intrigued by people with just that amount 0:02:38.120 --> 0:02:42.560 of curiosity and like determination, determination and patience, Like that 0:02:42.639 --> 0:02:46.080 takes so much patience to be like you or like 0:02:46.160 --> 0:02:47.800 any of those people that I just listed. It's so 0:02:47.880 --> 0:02:50.280 cool to me, and I just I wish I wish 0:02:50.320 --> 0:02:54.919 for myself, but I'm working on it, i am. It's 0:02:55.000 --> 0:02:57.520 just you know that that level of like I said, 0:02:57.520 --> 0:03:01.720 patience and determination is like it's a gift like that 0:03:01.880 --> 0:03:05.800 is like a really really amazing gift, and like I said, 0:03:05.800 --> 0:03:07.560 like I'm just working on it all the time, and 0:03:07.960 --> 0:03:09.120 that's my goal in life. 0:03:09.200 --> 0:03:11.400 I guess. Well, I think I feel the same way 0:03:11.760 --> 0:03:14.080 about you again that and by the way, I love 0:03:14.120 --> 0:03:16.440 all those people you just mentioned too, Yeah, so feel 0:03:16.480 --> 0:03:18.240 very honored to be put into that group of people. 0:03:18.280 --> 0:03:20.160 And we've had Whim on the podcast before too, so 0:03:20.160 --> 0:03:22.800 he's been a guest. But with you, I feel the 0:03:22.800 --> 0:03:25.120 same way back when it's like when you see someone 0:03:25.120 --> 0:03:28.360 who is so curious, who could get away with not 0:03:28.440 --> 0:03:30.200 worrying about these things if you don't want to, but 0:03:30.240 --> 0:03:32.600 then still being courageous enough to talk about these things, 0:03:32.639 --> 0:03:34.760 and then using your platform as a space to open 0:03:34.840 --> 0:03:39.160 up these dialogues, that is as if not more important. 0:03:39.160 --> 0:03:42.320 As well as doing the work and doing the path. Yeah, 0:03:42.440 --> 0:03:44.000 I mean I can see you doing the way. It's 0:03:44.000 --> 0:03:46.000 fun watching you do the work and figuring it out. 0:03:46.080 --> 0:03:49.240 I love working on myself, like it is actually like 0:03:49.320 --> 0:03:53.080 a passion of mine and like I just I find 0:03:53.120 --> 0:03:57.119 so much comfort and joy and like actually finding where 0:03:57.160 --> 0:03:59.600 I think I could better myself and being like even 0:03:59.600 --> 0:04:02.040 if it's physical, like physical as in like my physical 0:04:02.080 --> 0:04:05.080 health or working out or I just started doing speaking 0:04:05.120 --> 0:04:07.200 of whim Hoff, I just started doing like cold plunges 0:04:07.240 --> 0:04:09.200 and ice baths and like even if I don't have 0:04:09.200 --> 0:04:11.120 the time to go outside, I just got a cold plunge. 0:04:11.120 --> 0:04:12.680 I did it right before I got here. It's the 0:04:12.720 --> 0:04:15.760 best thing ever. It's also so again, it takes so 0:04:15.880 --> 0:04:18.760 much mental. The whole thing of it is all mental. 0:04:18.880 --> 0:04:21.680 So I don't know, just stuff like that I really love. 0:04:21.880 --> 0:04:25.160 So I'm always I'm always trying to just be the 0:04:25.200 --> 0:04:27.880 best version of me, and so I just love that 0:04:27.960 --> 0:04:30.120 it like actually makes me feel really good. I love 0:04:30.160 --> 0:04:32.000 self care and I just love stuff like that. So 0:04:32.440 --> 0:04:35.120 it's been really cool. But it's cool for you to 0:04:35.240 --> 0:04:38.200 say that you enjoy seeing that from me, because there's 0:04:38.240 --> 0:04:40.960 always been kind of this weird part of it for 0:04:41.000 --> 0:04:43.440 me where I'm like, is this a pity party? Because 0:04:43.440 --> 0:04:45.160 I don't want it to be like. I want this 0:04:45.279 --> 0:04:48.839 to feel very positive. I want to connect with people, 0:04:48.880 --> 0:04:51.039 and I guess that's that is my goal there is 0:04:51.120 --> 0:04:52.760 to be like, there actually is this side of me 0:04:52.839 --> 0:04:56.360 that you might may not know of, But the goal 0:04:56.440 --> 0:05:00.560 here is to connect and also not feel like I'm 0:05:01.000 --> 0:05:03.480 throwing some pity party for myself, because I want this 0:05:03.520 --> 0:05:05.680 to be a learning experience for everyone. I want this 0:05:05.760 --> 0:05:08.200 to be really positive and will really well received. I 0:05:08.200 --> 0:05:10.080 want you to look at it and actually have a 0:05:10.120 --> 0:05:12.839 positive feeling towards it. So I don't know, you'll find 0:05:12.880 --> 0:05:14.719 like if I you know, when I do kind of 0:05:14.760 --> 0:05:17.240 post about something or when I want to talk about something, 0:05:17.560 --> 0:05:20.359 I'm usually sharing a tip or like sharing kind of 0:05:20.400 --> 0:05:22.880 like a little technique, even if it's something so simple 0:05:22.920 --> 0:05:26.240 as like walking outside, taking a few de breaths and journaling, Like, yeah, 0:05:26.279 --> 0:05:28.800 it's just that kind of stuff that I really like 0:05:29.720 --> 0:05:32.680 to share because I feel like I want to be helpful, Yeah, 0:05:32.680 --> 0:05:33.480 more than anything. 0:05:33.279 --> 0:05:35.560 Absolutely, And that's how that's at least how I see it. Yeah, 0:05:35.600 --> 0:05:38.359 I see it not not completely, not as a pity 0:05:38.400 --> 0:05:40.800 party at all, but so much more as just hey, 0:05:40.800 --> 0:05:43.080 here's a reminder, yeah, something that I did, And yeah, 0:05:43.120 --> 0:05:46.160 I feel like that positivity shines through too in the 0:05:46.200 --> 0:05:48.320 way you do it, so at least if that helps 0:05:48.320 --> 0:05:51.839 whatever that's worth from the outside, it definitely comes across 0:05:51.920 --> 0:05:52.240 that way. 0:05:52.320 --> 0:05:52.520 Cool. 0:05:52.640 --> 0:05:55.400 And this is easily been the warmest introduction to a 0:05:55.880 --> 0:05:58.239 conversation I've ever experiencing my entire. 0:05:58.080 --> 0:06:00.680 Life going to say it was actually was actually really 0:06:00.720 --> 0:06:03.719 nervous coming in here because this means so much to me, Like, 0:06:04.040 --> 0:06:06.320 and I'm serious, because you know, I've done a lot 0:06:06.360 --> 0:06:09.479 of interviews in my life and when when thinking about 0:06:09.480 --> 0:06:11.279 this one or thinking about that I even wanted to 0:06:11.320 --> 0:06:14.240 do something like this, it just it means a lot 0:06:14.279 --> 0:06:16.480 to me, and so it made me a little nervous, 0:06:16.480 --> 0:06:18.040 and I was like, I just want to get this right. 0:06:18.120 --> 0:06:20.360 This isn't like you know, me going out and promoting 0:06:20.360 --> 0:06:23.480 something or talking about something. This is, you know, something 0:06:23.560 --> 0:06:26.800 very real that we all experience, which is just you know, 0:06:27.440 --> 0:06:30.600 ourselves and our well being and just everything. 0:06:30.720 --> 0:06:33.000 So yeah, and this is this is a you know 0:06:33.080 --> 0:06:35.440 for me genuinely, and I really do mean this, like 0:06:35.520 --> 0:06:40.120 the podcast has been a great excuse or really from 0:06:40.160 --> 0:06:42.160 my side and intention to get to know people, and 0:06:42.320 --> 0:06:44.880 I really admire and so for me, it's been a 0:06:44.920 --> 0:06:47.680 great way of building new friendships and relationships because if 0:06:47.680 --> 0:06:49.040 you can sit and talk to someone and really get 0:06:49.040 --> 0:06:50.960 along with each other, you're like, oh, we should do 0:06:50.960 --> 0:06:51.559 this more often. 0:06:51.800 --> 0:06:52.760 So well I'm honored. 0:06:52.880 --> 0:06:55.839 Yeah, So for me, it's definitely been that and to me, 0:06:56.160 --> 0:06:59.000 you know you saying that, and you know taking it 0:06:59.040 --> 0:07:01.760 as intentionally as you it's you know, for me, it's 0:07:01.760 --> 0:07:05.040 as important. I always share this before we start recording usually, 0:07:05.080 --> 0:07:09.160 but we just flowed. Hey everyone, welcome back to On Purpose, 0:07:09.240 --> 0:07:11.760 the number one health podcast in the world. Thanks to 0:07:11.840 --> 0:07:13.760 each and every single one of you that come back 0:07:13.840 --> 0:07:17.200 every week to listen, learn, and grow. Now it's very 0:07:17.280 --> 0:07:18.760 rare that I get to sit down with someone that 0:07:18.800 --> 0:07:21.120 I have admired for a very long time from Afar, 0:07:21.600 --> 0:07:24.240 someone that I believe has inspired me through the sharing 0:07:24.280 --> 0:07:27.600 of their story, someone who speaks so vulnerably and openly 0:07:27.640 --> 0:07:30.600 about the things that I most care about mental health, purpose, 0:07:31.320 --> 0:07:35.640 the journey of life, and discovery and curiosity. And what 0:07:35.720 --> 0:07:37.080 I want to share about this person is when I 0:07:37.080 --> 0:07:39.280 bumped into them at a mutual friends' birthday party. And 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:40.760 I just want to give a big, big shout out 0:07:40.760 --> 0:07:43.000 to Sam and Hayes because it wouldn't happen without them. 0:07:43.000 --> 0:07:44.640 I love you, Simy and Aes. You've been amazing guests 0:07:44.640 --> 0:07:47.880 on the podcast before as well. I would have bumped 0:07:47.880 --> 0:07:50.200 into this individual and had this opportunity to reach out 0:07:50.200 --> 0:07:52.360 to them, and as soon as I reached out, this 0:07:52.440 --> 0:07:55.840 has been the most flowing conversation and connection that it 0:07:55.920 --> 0:07:58.280 possibly had on the podcast, to be honest, So I 0:07:58.320 --> 0:07:59.800 just want to put that out. I'm speaking about the 0:07:59.800 --> 0:08:03.640 one only someone who needs no introduction, but successful business founder, 0:08:04.080 --> 0:08:08.239 international supermodel, a founder of the incredibly successful tequila brand 0:08:08.280 --> 0:08:11.600 eight one eight, and star on the Hulus The Kardashians, 0:08:11.840 --> 0:08:15.120 which premier is in second season on September twenty second. 0:08:15.400 --> 0:08:18.520 The one and Only Kendall Jenna Kendell, thank you so 0:08:18.640 --> 0:08:19.520 much for doing this. 0:08:19.560 --> 0:08:21.520 For having me. That was a wonderful introduction. 0:08:22.000 --> 0:08:24.840 Oh well, it's it's honestly, in such an honor getting 0:08:24.880 --> 0:08:28.239 to know someone who it's very rare that I find 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:32.680 someone who functions with very similar values in a personal 0:08:32.679 --> 0:08:36.079 connection sense. So when I reached out to you, I 0:08:36.440 --> 0:08:38.200 really meant everything I said, and I could have written 0:08:38.200 --> 0:08:39.800 you an essay, but I was like, let's spare the 0:08:39.840 --> 0:08:43.400 details and then to get your response and then for 0:08:43.520 --> 0:08:45.000 us to be here within a couple of weeks of 0:08:45.040 --> 0:08:47.640 connecting and even your message this morning, I just want 0:08:47.640 --> 0:08:50.040 people to know I was like the text you said 0:08:50.040 --> 0:08:52.760 me this morning, I was like, this never happens. I 0:08:52.840 --> 0:08:54.959 was amazing, And I was like and I was literally 0:08:55.000 --> 0:08:56.680 going to do the same thing, and so to me, 0:08:56.760 --> 0:08:58.679 I was like, this is very rare, and so I 0:08:58.720 --> 0:09:01.040 love the synergy and the flow that we're experiencing. And 0:09:01.200 --> 0:09:03.240 me too, I'm excited to get it now. 0:09:03.559 --> 0:09:06.719 It's funny because I I called Hayes before the other 0:09:06.800 --> 0:09:08.280 day and I was just like, oh my god, I'm 0:09:08.320 --> 0:09:10.840 going on your friend's show and whatever, and she was like, 0:09:11.360 --> 0:09:13.400 he's the best. It's gonna You're just going to flow 0:09:13.440 --> 0:09:15.280 right into it. He's so easy to talk to. And 0:09:15.280 --> 0:09:17.840 that's literally what happened. And like I told you, I 0:09:17.880 --> 0:09:20.640 just feel like I manifested this moment for both of 0:09:20.720 --> 0:09:23.200 us and for this just this whole experience. And so 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:26.200 I am really happy to be here and I'm honestly honored. 0:09:26.320 --> 0:09:28.840 Like I said, I admire you, and I there's so 0:09:28.920 --> 0:09:30.679 many people like you that I admire. So I think 0:09:30.679 --> 0:09:33.439 sitting down here with you is just so cool for 0:09:33.480 --> 0:09:36.040 me and I get to talk about fun things with you. 0:09:36.720 --> 0:09:39.320 Amazing first of many, and I wanted to start with 0:09:39.400 --> 0:09:41.199 because I always liked to start with just things that 0:09:41.240 --> 0:09:43.000 I've seen more recently. A couple of days ago, I 0:09:43.000 --> 0:09:45.439 think you posted a beautiful picture of you hugging your horse, 0:09:46.240 --> 0:09:47.920 and you were like, you know, like snuggle time or 0:09:47.960 --> 0:09:49.800 something like that, and I was just like, when when 0:09:49.800 --> 0:09:53.160 did horses become a part of your life? And how 0:09:53.200 --> 0:09:54.400 did you get so close to them? 0:09:54.520 --> 0:09:57.640 I think I've spent many lifetimes with horses. I think 0:09:57.640 --> 0:10:00.800 this is very one of many lifetime that I've had. 0:10:01.200 --> 0:10:03.240 I grew up in a horse community, so where we 0:10:03.280 --> 0:10:07.360 grew up horses everywhere, more trails than there were homes, really, 0:10:07.880 --> 0:10:10.280 and so I was always around horses and I just 0:10:10.559 --> 0:10:13.239 was deeply in love with them. And I have no explanation, 0:10:13.280 --> 0:10:15.080 and that's why I say I feel like in past lives, 0:10:15.080 --> 0:10:17.920 I have just been around horses. Yeah, So since I 0:10:17.960 --> 0:10:21.920 was a really young kid, loved them and continue to 0:10:21.960 --> 0:10:24.400 love them my whole life. They're just the best. They're 0:10:24.440 --> 0:10:30.439 the most majestic and gorgeous and spiritual. They feel everything. 0:10:30.640 --> 0:10:32.960 I just like it's such an honor to be in 0:10:33.000 --> 0:10:35.640 their presence and to be able to do what I 0:10:35.640 --> 0:10:38.840 can do with my horse. I find so magical that 0:10:38.880 --> 0:10:40.640 I can stand in her stall with her and just 0:10:40.679 --> 0:10:43.560 like vibe out with her. I like sometimes come to 0:10:43.679 --> 0:10:45.800 like a little get a little tear eyed when I'm 0:10:45.800 --> 0:10:47.360 standing in my stall with her because I'm like, this 0:10:47.440 --> 0:10:49.080 is so cool that you allow me to do this 0:10:49.120 --> 0:10:51.640 and we have this connection without any words. It's just 0:10:52.320 --> 0:10:54.040 the best thing ever. So I love them. 0:10:54.160 --> 0:10:56.520 Yeah, that's so special. I have a different tear eyed 0:10:56.559 --> 0:10:59.800 story with horses, but I'll tell you the short version. 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:02.160 So when I proposed to my wife, I can't wait 0:11:02.160 --> 0:11:03.800 to introduce you to do. When I proposed to her, which 0:11:03.840 --> 0:11:06.280 was eight years ago or something like that, when I 0:11:06.280 --> 0:11:09.560 proposed to her, I organized a very what I would 0:11:09.559 --> 0:11:12.200 consider like a very a very Hollywood proposal. It was 0:11:12.240 --> 0:11:14.520 it was too over the top, and I would do 0:11:14.559 --> 0:11:17.920 it totally different today with all everything I've learned. But yeah, 0:11:17.960 --> 0:11:20.839 it happens. It happens. And so we were walking by 0:11:20.880 --> 0:11:22.439 the Thames in London, which is where we were both 0:11:22.440 --> 0:11:24.920 born and raised, and this a cappella group jumps out 0:11:24.920 --> 0:11:27.559 and they're singing Bruno Mars and then like they give 0:11:27.600 --> 0:11:29.920 her a bouquet of flowers, and then I get on 0:11:29.920 --> 0:11:32.000 one knee. I propose we have dinner by the river, 0:11:32.080 --> 0:11:35.200 and then we walk around the corner and there's a 0:11:35.200 --> 0:11:38.360 horse room and carriage to take us around, to take 0:11:38.440 --> 0:11:40.560 us around London, and so we're on this carriage, we 0:11:40.600 --> 0:11:43.240 have this beautiful, you know, path through London, and then 0:11:43.280 --> 0:11:44.840 we get into the train to get back home to 0:11:44.920 --> 0:11:48.000 her parents to tell them, and they already knew. She's 0:11:48.000 --> 0:11:50.160 got hives all over her face. 0:11:50.320 --> 0:11:55.000 And she's allergic to and I found out that day 0:11:55.040 --> 0:11:55.640 I proposed to her. 0:11:55.720 --> 0:11:57.040 I was like, all right, So then she was like 0:11:57.120 --> 0:11:58.640 she had tears And when we got back, our parents 0:11:58.679 --> 0:11:59.600 were like, what did you do to her? 0:11:59.640 --> 0:12:00.920 At least got to enjoy the moment. 0:12:02.000 --> 0:12:06.640 Yeah, But I no, I love horses the same way 0:12:06.679 --> 0:12:08.079 you do. Like I used to go to India a 0:12:08.080 --> 0:12:10.400 lot when I was a kid, and that's where I 0:12:10.440 --> 0:12:12.400 first learned to be with horses. 0:12:12.960 --> 0:12:15.080 And I mean they're so therapeutic. 0:12:15.320 --> 0:12:16.400 Absolutely, Yeah, there's a. 0:12:16.440 --> 0:12:17.840 Reason there's a coine therapy. 0:12:17.880 --> 0:12:19.800 It's the best exactly. Yeah. 0:12:19.800 --> 0:12:23.040 They make me. They make me when I'm with her. 0:12:23.200 --> 0:12:25.720 I have a few, but I'm most mostly with one 0:12:25.720 --> 0:12:28.120 of my horses right now because her name is Delandra. 0:12:28.360 --> 0:12:30.640 I didn't name her. She came with her name, but 0:12:30.760 --> 0:12:34.040 I call her Dylan or dyl. I love her so much, 0:12:34.080 --> 0:12:36.640 But when I'm with her, I genuinely I speak of 0:12:36.679 --> 0:12:38.880 like I spoke about how I've just loved horses my 0:12:38.920 --> 0:12:41.320 whole life. I feel like a kid around her, Like 0:12:41.360 --> 0:12:44.080 I feel like my twelve year old self that would 0:12:44.080 --> 0:12:47.280 get up every morning throughout the entire summer at eight 0:12:47.320 --> 0:12:50.559 am to go just be at my trainer's facility. And 0:12:50.559 --> 0:12:52.439 I would stay there from eight am to eight pm. 0:12:52.720 --> 0:12:55.320 I'd ride all her horses, I'd groom all her horses. 0:12:55.360 --> 0:12:57.160 I would just sit in the stalls with all the horses. 0:12:57.200 --> 0:12:57.640 Like it. 0:12:57.840 --> 0:12:59.800 Just anytime I'm with her, I just have that sense 0:12:59.840 --> 0:13:02.240 of like being a child again. And it's a really 0:13:02.280 --> 0:13:02.920 really good feeling. 0:13:02.960 --> 0:13:06.679 Yeah, animals have that special ability, don't they like whichever 0:13:06.720 --> 0:13:10.200 animal you're attracted to. And yeah, I never thought I would, 0:13:10.240 --> 0:13:12.600 but when I lived as a monk. The animal that's 0:13:12.640 --> 0:13:15.840 revered in india's cows. And you would never think of 0:13:16.280 --> 0:13:19.720 cows being like majestic or you know, in that way, 0:13:19.880 --> 0:13:21.440 especially when you're not in India. But the cows in 0:13:21.440 --> 0:13:24.040 India have these like lotus like eyes, Like the eyes 0:13:24.080 --> 0:13:27.520 are just like a stunning Yeah, and they's so special 0:13:27.520 --> 0:13:30.480 and there's such gentle animals yea. And recently Ruddy and 0:13:30.520 --> 0:13:34.640 I went trekking with gorillas in Rwanda and gorillas are 0:13:34.679 --> 0:13:35.719 the we have to go. 0:13:36.200 --> 0:13:38.400 That sounds unreal. 0:13:38.000 --> 0:13:41.800 It was unbelievable, and the animal that's revered in Rwanda. 0:13:41.920 --> 0:13:44.440 So whenever they have a new gorilla that's born, they 0:13:44.440 --> 0:13:47.960 have a naming ceremony with the community. It's so beautiful. 0:13:48.000 --> 0:13:50.400 But and then I heard somewhere that you your first 0:13:50.440 --> 0:13:52.720 job was you were a dog walker, and so I 0:13:52.760 --> 0:13:55.240 was taking, like, do you have any lessons or anything 0:13:55.280 --> 0:13:57.400 you learned by being a dog walker? I think first 0:13:57.480 --> 0:13:58.520 jobs are so interesting. 0:13:58.679 --> 0:14:03.440 Yeah, No, I mean I was always a super disciplined child, 0:14:03.600 --> 0:14:06.120 like meaning to my like I just loved I would 0:14:06.200 --> 0:14:09.040 put myself to bed at seven PM, be like my 0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:10.880 mom would be like playing with me and my little 0:14:10.880 --> 0:14:12.840 sister and be like, mom, it's seven I gotta go 0:14:12.880 --> 0:14:15.000 to sleep, like it's time for my bedtime. She'd be like, 0:14:15.040 --> 0:14:18.360 are you okay? And so I was always that kid, 0:14:18.360 --> 0:14:20.560 And so I think I just was always really eager 0:14:20.600 --> 0:14:22.720 to like work. I don't know why. I just like 0:14:22.800 --> 0:14:25.040 wanted to always have something to do, something that I 0:14:25.080 --> 0:14:28.080 felt passionate about that I really enjoyed. And so yeah, 0:14:28.160 --> 0:14:30.760 when I was young, I put some flyers around our 0:14:30.760 --> 0:14:33.040 community and said I would walk dogs and I ended 0:14:33.120 --> 0:14:35.920 up getting people that would get let me have their 0:14:35.960 --> 0:14:37.880 dog for a few hours and take it for a walk. 0:14:37.960 --> 0:14:41.280 So I loved animals and I liked having something to do, 0:14:41.440 --> 0:14:43.120 so I spent I was a kid that liked to 0:14:43.160 --> 0:14:47.160 be by myself with animals, So like, I think that 0:14:47.160 --> 0:14:50.080 that was a cool, very fitting thing for me because 0:14:50.080 --> 0:14:52.360 I got to be by myself walking, but then also 0:14:52.440 --> 0:14:54.360 experience all these little dogs with me. 0:14:54.720 --> 0:14:57.080 Yeah, I wish I did that. I used to deliver newspapers. 0:14:57.440 --> 0:14:59.320 So that was my first job and it's not as 0:14:59.360 --> 0:15:01.120 glamorous in life London because it's raining. 0:15:01.520 --> 0:15:04.960 Was that what you were desiring or was that and 0:15:05.000 --> 0:15:06.640 wanted to make some money just like I need it. 0:15:06.800 --> 0:15:08.520 I was like I need to make some money. Yeah, 0:15:08.560 --> 0:15:10.160 and so I was like, I'm going to start doing 0:15:10.160 --> 0:15:11.800 this and you don't get to you know, you'd see 0:15:11.800 --> 0:15:14.800 it in the movies where the paperboy just like chucks 0:15:14.840 --> 0:15:16.520 the paper at the door, but I'd like to actually 0:15:16.520 --> 0:15:18.760 go and put it inside. So my only interaction with 0:15:18.800 --> 0:15:21.440 dogs is they were on the inside grabbing the paper, right, 0:15:21.520 --> 0:15:25.560 and so yeah, barking, yeah and stuff. But I always 0:15:25.560 --> 0:15:28.120 love knowing about people's first jobs and how things started. 0:15:28.160 --> 0:15:30.560 For them because of you know obviously where you are today. 0:15:30.640 --> 0:15:33.320 But what do you think it was in those early 0:15:33.400 --> 0:15:36.760 years where you just said you were very disciplined, Like 0:15:36.800 --> 0:15:39.080 it sounds like you were you were aware of certain 0:15:39.080 --> 0:15:41.360 habits that you built. Then what were some of the 0:15:41.400 --> 0:15:44.720 things that you feel confident about or how how did 0:15:44.760 --> 0:15:46.960 you look for validation in those early years and where 0:15:46.960 --> 0:15:47.960 did it come from for you? 0:15:48.440 --> 0:15:50.960 I mean, it's interesting. So Kylie and my little sister, 0:15:51.080 --> 0:15:54.840 she was always the social butterfly. I was always I 0:15:54.920 --> 0:15:57.760 just liked being to myself. I don't know if that's 0:15:57.800 --> 0:16:00.400 the scorpio in me, so it just came naturally or 0:16:00.760 --> 0:16:02.880 whatever I had. I had a group of friends who 0:16:02.960 --> 0:16:06.560 I loved, but I just I like convividly remember just 0:16:06.640 --> 0:16:08.520 on the weekends, not running to go be with my 0:16:08.560 --> 0:16:10.520 friends all the time during the summer I was with them, 0:16:10.560 --> 0:16:13.600 but on the weekends in between school, I would I 0:16:13.640 --> 0:16:16.240 was really just by myself. I would love to like 0:16:16.280 --> 0:16:18.800 hang out in my room. I like was kind of 0:16:18.840 --> 0:16:21.440 a nerd. I loved video games and like sitting on 0:16:21.480 --> 0:16:23.440 the computer and playing sims all day. Like I just 0:16:23.560 --> 0:16:26.320 kind of liked being to myself and then all day 0:16:26.320 --> 0:16:29.600 long during the summer was with my horses, and yeah, 0:16:29.600 --> 0:16:31.800 I don't know, I just it just brought me joy. 0:16:31.880 --> 0:16:35.040 I don't think I have, like, you know, a super 0:16:35.120 --> 0:16:37.960 long explanation for that. It was so simple for me 0:16:38.000 --> 0:16:40.240 as a kid, Like it was just as simple as 0:16:40.280 --> 0:16:42.720 that made me happy, and that's just what I wanted, 0:16:43.240 --> 0:16:46.400 and it explains I guess a lot of me now. 0:16:47.240 --> 0:16:49.200 I went through like a phase where I felt like 0:16:49.240 --> 0:16:51.120 I had to be around people. I think I live 0:16:51.200 --> 0:16:53.960 a very social life and my job is very social, 0:16:54.640 --> 0:16:58.360 so I was, you know, kind of conditioned to want 0:16:58.400 --> 0:17:01.440 to be around people a lot. And then as you know, 0:17:01.480 --> 0:17:05.040 the pandemic came around, You're not around as many people anymore. 0:17:05.119 --> 0:17:07.760 Now I'm just re enjoying being by myself, which is 0:17:07.760 --> 0:17:11.000 really cool. Yeah, and I had the most I had 0:17:11.000 --> 0:17:13.399 the best day on Sunday, all by myself. I got up, 0:17:13.440 --> 0:17:16.919 I went and rode my horses. I like, took my 0:17:17.040 --> 0:17:20.679 niece to ride her pony, just me and her was 0:17:20.720 --> 0:17:23.080 so nice. Brought her back home, went to my house, 0:17:23.119 --> 0:17:25.359 got in my cold plunge, went in my pool, laid 0:17:25.359 --> 0:17:28.320 out journals, like I was having the best day, and 0:17:28.359 --> 0:17:30.200