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Speaker 1: our bonus episode that's only available to our patriots. Our

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Speaker 1: and make sure you enjoyed this week's episode as it

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Speaker 1: is pure ships and giggles. Y'all, y'all be safe and

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Speaker 1: until next time later. M Um, what is some advice

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Speaker 1: you would give to those that are having a hard

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Speaker 1: time navigating through I have not been able to grasp

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Speaker 1: the fact that Kobe is no longer with us. Now

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Speaker 1: we are in a pandemic, the Mardin day lynching of

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Speaker 1: black people and now Chadwick. What do you recommend because

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Speaker 1: at this point I am afraid of us to come in.

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Speaker 1: I think one focusing on like what has already happened, um,

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Speaker 1: instead of like looking for you know, and I'm not

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Speaker 1: preparing yourself for what's gonna calm Um. Definitely like being

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Speaker 1: around people that are um like minded, right like you

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Speaker 1: guys share very similar beliefs. You all are trying to

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Speaker 1: help each other through this process. So whether that be

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Speaker 1: you know, you guys hang out with each other, you

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Speaker 1: do a lot of talks, you know, having panels that

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Speaker 1: you know, visit through zoom because that's what everybody's doing

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Speaker 1: talking about what's happening. I think getting involved in some

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Speaker 1: you know, helping yourself to be around positive energy and

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Speaker 1: But it's kind of like that old thaying that our

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Speaker 1: I don't want to keep saying to myself every morning, like, Oh,

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Speaker 1: You some of these tools that I already know that

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Speaker 1: Like all of this, you know, is very inevitable in

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Speaker 1: let's begin this week's episode. So it's been a year

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Speaker 1: I am a BBW point star. Welcome back. How are

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Speaker 1: you doing. I'm good, just relaxing and I'm trying to

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Speaker 1: get dinner together, life on life's terms, and I want

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Speaker 1: to make a steak y'all? Do you make a steak

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Speaker 1: That's pretty much the only time that I drink. So

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Speaker 1: the mask. I've been trying to figure that one out.

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Speaker 1: gonna go together though we ain't going again. Well wait,

426
00:24:12,320 --> 00:24:14,080
Speaker 1: so have you ever been within a nigger in your

427
00:24:14,119 --> 00:24:17,320
Speaker 1: personal life that try to reenact certain moves from one

428
00:24:17,320 --> 00:24:22,600
Speaker 1: of your scenes? This one? This one tries to he

429
00:24:22,720 --> 00:24:24,680
Speaker 1: did you know? He said he wanted me to record

430
00:24:24,720 --> 00:24:26,919
Speaker 1: as soon as I brought it up, and I was ready.

431
00:24:26,920 --> 00:24:28,760
Speaker 1: But let me sind this telling you first about him

432
00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:32,960
Speaker 1: snatching my soul. When I got on that face, baby,

433
00:24:33,160 --> 00:24:36,640
Speaker 1: I was getting frustrated because I already told him I'm

434
00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:39,439
Speaker 1: someone who likes it a certain type of way. And

435
00:24:39,480 --> 00:24:43,560
Speaker 1: I don't think that men understand like a woman will

436
00:24:43,680 --> 00:24:49,440
Speaker 1: understand once we tell her we don't have no But yeah,

437
00:24:49,440 --> 00:24:51,520
Speaker 1: a woman, it's easy to explain why. I just like

438
00:24:51,600 --> 00:24:53,720
Speaker 1: my clip lip, don't put it in, don't put your

439
00:24:53,760 --> 00:24:55,959
Speaker 1: tongue in my hole or whatever. Don't be looking at

440
00:24:56,000 --> 00:24:58,040
Speaker 1: my ask this is whatever. You floats your bon you

441
00:24:58,040 --> 00:25:00,159
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And a woman understand, is it

442
00:25:00,400 --> 00:25:02,680
Speaker 1: should get right to it. It is what it is.

443
00:25:02,800 --> 00:25:05,960
Speaker 1: But a fucking man will try to do everything. But

444
00:25:06,040 --> 00:25:10,840
Speaker 1: what the girl you stopped doing all of that ship

445
00:25:12,080 --> 00:25:15,080
Speaker 1: My foot had a cramp in it. He doing bitch

446
00:25:15,119 --> 00:25:17,720
Speaker 1: Out'm told you. I was getting really upset because I'll

447
00:25:17,720 --> 00:25:19,960
Speaker 1: get mad at be like funk this. You know what

448
00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:23,000
Speaker 1: I'm saying. All I wanna do is come. I don't

449
00:25:23,040 --> 00:25:24,960
Speaker 1: care about nothing else. But I don't even here for you.

450
00:25:25,040 --> 00:25:30,679
Speaker 1: Come at that point because this was the one time

451
00:25:30,720 --> 00:25:33,679
Speaker 1: that I didn't charge him m so he wanted to

452
00:25:33,680 --> 00:25:37,440
Speaker 1: show out he's doing all of this. If you don't,

453
00:25:37,560 --> 00:25:40,199
Speaker 1: just he want me to sit on his face. You

454
00:25:40,200 --> 00:25:42,119
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Now, I'm like, nigga, you just

455
00:25:42,119 --> 00:25:43,960
Speaker 1: don't not be the funk around and clamp down and

456
00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:49,399
Speaker 1: funk your ass up, your little puny motherfucker up. I

457
00:25:49,400 --> 00:25:53,800
Speaker 1: don't even after I get my nut. I'm sorry. I

458
00:25:53,840 --> 00:25:56,240
Speaker 1: thought I was gonna have. I was scared because it's

459
00:25:56,280 --> 00:25:58,840
Speaker 1: been so long. You know what I'm saying, I have

460
00:25:58,960 --> 00:26:00,960
Speaker 1: not been playing with my so if I haven't been

461
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:03,720
Speaker 1: doing any of those lately, i'd be tired and i'd

462
00:26:03,720 --> 00:26:06,800
Speaker 1: be busy, you know what I'm saying. So I haven't

463
00:26:06,840 --> 00:26:08,679
Speaker 1: been doing it. I'd be thinking about it, but then

464
00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:10,960
Speaker 1: I fucking roll over and go to sleep, you know

465
00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,440
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But this motherfucker like this this This

466
00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:16,159
Speaker 1: is the second time he spent the night, but the

467
00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:21,840
Speaker 1: first time that I yes, girl, this is the first

468
00:26:21,880 --> 00:26:23,400
Speaker 1: for me. Because Nick is gonna sleep in my house.

469
00:26:23,440 --> 00:26:25,400
Speaker 1: Only man is sleep in my house. Is my motherfucking

470
00:26:25,440 --> 00:26:28,080
Speaker 1: grabs his designer and my ex and that bitch is

471
00:26:28,280 --> 00:26:31,480
Speaker 1: my My ex is locked up, you know what I'm saying.

472
00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:34,000
Speaker 1: And I ain't working with him when he come home either.

473
00:26:34,280 --> 00:26:38,479
Speaker 1: I wasn't sucking when when he left, so um yeah.

474
00:26:38,640 --> 00:26:41,520
Speaker 1: But when he did what, I liked it and I couldn't.

475
00:26:41,560 --> 00:26:45,160
Speaker 1: He was holding a bit down and I kept trying

476
00:26:45,160 --> 00:26:47,680
Speaker 1: to get after I try to get up, like okay, okay,

477
00:26:47,680 --> 00:26:50,639
Speaker 1: hey stopping, I'm laughing. But my heart I thought it

478
00:26:50,680 --> 00:26:54,320
Speaker 1: was gonna come out my chest. I thought I was

479
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:56,240
Speaker 1: having a heart attack. I swear to God, in my

480
00:26:56,280 --> 00:26:58,479
Speaker 1: head started hurting. So, you know, for me, because of

481
00:26:58,480 --> 00:27:03,840
Speaker 1: my condition, I instantly my health condition, I instantly thought

482
00:27:04,119 --> 00:27:09,399
Speaker 1: I'm gonna die. Girl. This nigga snatched every piece he

483
00:27:09,560 --> 00:27:14,160
Speaker 1: took the little bit of you for I gut when

484
00:27:14,200 --> 00:27:16,840
Speaker 1: I tell you, I just rolled over to the left

485
00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:21,480
Speaker 1: side and I couldn't move, and he just laid there

486
00:27:21,760 --> 00:27:25,480
Speaker 1: on his back. I could not move. I was trying

487
00:27:25,480 --> 00:27:27,879
Speaker 1: to reach from my chest, but my whole entire body

488
00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:33,679
Speaker 1: was trembling. And normally when when I do get oral

489
00:27:33,760 --> 00:27:36,159
Speaker 1: or whatever, I'm on my back, so I kind of like,

490
00:27:36,400 --> 00:27:39,120
Speaker 1: lift up. I'm not I'm very loud when I called

491
00:27:39,880 --> 00:27:46,080
Speaker 1: if I'm coming right, I'm very loud. I'm not, I am,

492
00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:50,160
Speaker 1: but it's with the right person. I'm talking about are

493
00:27:50,200 --> 00:27:54,159
Speaker 1: you doing it right? You know? And I kind of

494
00:27:54,200 --> 00:27:57,440
Speaker 1: got annoyed because like my foot was going numb. I'm

495
00:27:57,440 --> 00:27:59,880
Speaker 1: telling him to move the pillow. He got the sting

496
00:28:00,080 --> 00:28:02,040
Speaker 1: about the pillows, talking about in my bed. He feels

497
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:04,160
Speaker 1: like a king. I said, see this, this young boy shit.

498
00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:07,400
Speaker 1: But I'm still gonna ride his face because I gotta

499
00:28:07,440 --> 00:28:12,560
Speaker 1: get this. Wait. Do you think porn gives people unrealistic

500
00:28:12,640 --> 00:28:18,639
Speaker 1: views of sex? Yeah? It does us. It does. It

501
00:28:18,720 --> 00:28:23,560
Speaker 1: does because they don't understand that it ain't just bam bam, bam,

502
00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:26,320
Speaker 1: bam bam. You know that's not what we're actually doing.

503
00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:29,800
Speaker 1: That's what it is edited to make you think we're doing.

504
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:34,320
Speaker 1: But it's not just slap slap side you know, the

505
00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:38,040
Speaker 1: amateur porn, that's what it is, but mainstream that is

506
00:28:38,080 --> 00:28:41,960
Speaker 1: not what it is. It's not at all. You know

507
00:28:42,000 --> 00:28:44,560
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. It's a couple of pumps. It's a couple.

508
00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:47,800
Speaker 1: It's a lot of be still hold it, hold that position.

509
00:28:48,120 --> 00:28:50,000
Speaker 1: Then a couple of pumps, you know what I'm saying.

510
00:28:50,000 --> 00:28:54,800
Speaker 1: And they're stiffing hard, long pumps. But it's not consistent.

511
00:28:54,840 --> 00:28:57,640
Speaker 1: We ain't sucking for five hours. They just make you

512
00:28:57,640 --> 00:29:02,000
Speaker 1: all think that. They make y'all think that. I'm sorry

513
00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:04,800
Speaker 1: to bust a lot of people bubbles I got. I

514
00:29:04,840 --> 00:29:07,520
Speaker 1: got people who tell me I'll be sucking up the

515
00:29:07,520 --> 00:29:11,720
Speaker 1: the the idea of poor. But it is true. A

516
00:29:11,800 --> 00:29:13,200
Speaker 1: lot of people won't tell you all the truth. And

517
00:29:13,200 --> 00:29:15,600
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you what it really is. I don't

518
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:19,120
Speaker 1: give fun. It ain't gonna change. Ain't gonna change my money.

519
00:29:19,760 --> 00:29:23,160
Speaker 1: We know you don't play about your money. Ain't gonna

520
00:29:23,200 --> 00:29:25,280
Speaker 1: change the money. I need all that. But what you've

521
00:29:25,320 --> 00:29:28,320
Speaker 1: been in the industry for almost eight years, knowing what

522
00:29:28,440 --> 00:29:31,200
Speaker 1: you know now good and bad, would you encourage others

523
00:29:31,240 --> 00:29:36,080
Speaker 1: to join if they ask you for your opinion. It

524
00:29:36,120 --> 00:29:38,959
Speaker 1: takes a lot because you have to be headstrong and

525
00:29:39,040 --> 00:29:43,000
Speaker 1: now with all the extra ship that's going on, Like

526
00:29:43,600 --> 00:29:47,640
Speaker 1: anybody can get a phone now and record. You understand

527
00:29:47,680 --> 00:29:50,360
Speaker 1: I'm saying, But that does not make you in the industry.

528
00:29:50,480 --> 00:29:53,800
Speaker 1: Y'all look down on somebody who does that. No, I

529
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:55,840
Speaker 1: don't get your money. How you live. You know what

530
00:29:55,840 --> 00:29:59,120
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Because like in only Fans, they're using those

531
00:29:59,160 --> 00:30:03,040
Speaker 1: our phones, you're using those are phones with only things.

532
00:30:03,080 --> 00:30:07,440
Speaker 1: They're all using phones. But I'm talking about that still

533
00:30:07,600 --> 00:30:11,000
Speaker 1: isn't just the industry. You understand what I'm saying. Being

534
00:30:11,080 --> 00:30:15,160
Speaker 1: in the industry is really truly writing with these people.

535
00:30:15,200 --> 00:30:17,280
Speaker 1: And I say writing, you're a part of it. You've

536
00:30:17,320 --> 00:30:20,480
Speaker 1: been nominated for awards, even if you're not nominated for wards.

537
00:30:20,520 --> 00:30:24,520
Speaker 1: You're mingling with these type of people, the mainstream people,

538
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:29,120
Speaker 1: mainstream companies. You have to make a name for yourself.

539
00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:33,000
Speaker 1: Just saying oh I just shot with my boyfriend and

540
00:30:33,040 --> 00:30:36,680
Speaker 1: I put this up on whatever whatever. That still does

541
00:30:36,760 --> 00:30:40,760
Speaker 1: not make you an industry mm hmm. You know what

542
00:30:40,840 --> 00:30:44,720
Speaker 1: I mean. You really have to be working with mainstream

543
00:30:44,840 --> 00:30:49,200
Speaker 1: people or some way or another. And I've done that.

544
00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:52,640
Speaker 1: I did that kind of early on. You know, I

545
00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 1: don't care. It's crazy to me, but I can shoot

546
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,320
Speaker 1: one movie a year. I'm at this point where I

547
00:30:57,360 --> 00:31:00,400
Speaker 1: can shoot one scene, not even a whole movie, one

548
00:31:00,440 --> 00:31:05,560
Speaker 1: senior year, and I still get nominated mm hmm, which

549
00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:09,640
Speaker 1: is crazy to me. But that's my saying base. I'm

550
00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:13,080
Speaker 1: very appreciative to them. I still have been a nominee,

551
00:31:13,080 --> 00:31:19,560
Speaker 1: a nominee every year for the path six years, seven years,

552
00:31:20,800 --> 00:31:27,800
Speaker 1: seven years I've been a nominee for something. But for

553
00:31:27,880 --> 00:31:32,040
Speaker 1: the past seven years. I started out very going hird.

554
00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:34,920
Speaker 1: I went hired, and it was all my money because

555
00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:37,560
Speaker 1: it cost money to get to this level. You know,

556
00:31:37,800 --> 00:31:40,920
Speaker 1: women have to understand is it's traveling. You know what

557
00:31:41,000 --> 00:31:43,400
Speaker 1: I'm saying, You got to put get your name out there.

558
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:46,240
Speaker 1: I just happen to get lucky from a photo. And

559
00:31:46,240 --> 00:31:48,680
Speaker 1: it was right at the end of the time when

560
00:31:48,680 --> 00:31:51,680
Speaker 1: Evase of Angels was, you know what I'm saying, popping,

561
00:31:52,920 --> 00:31:55,440
Speaker 1: you know, and I was, I just happen to get noticed.

562
00:31:55,480 --> 00:31:57,760
Speaker 1: I was. I did. I googled and I did. I

563
00:31:57,840 --> 00:32:01,959
Speaker 1: did the paperwork, like you know, I worked hard. People

564
00:32:02,400 --> 00:32:04,400
Speaker 1: come to me and they just want me to give

565
00:32:04,440 --> 00:32:07,400
Speaker 1: them the tools. And why would I get just do that.

566
00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:11,880
Speaker 1: It cost me money to get to where I am. Literally,

567
00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:19,320
Speaker 1: I kid you not, you wouldn't mentor somebody. I gotta

568
00:32:19,360 --> 00:32:21,200
Speaker 1: be able to trust him because I've been caught up

569
00:32:21,200 --> 00:32:23,200
Speaker 1: in the mentoring thing and the motherfucker think they no

570
00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:27,840
Speaker 1: more than me. And I give you the tools and

571
00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:30,160
Speaker 1: then if you just give me your ask to kiss

572
00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:35,000
Speaker 1: mm hmm. So I kind of fall back and away

573
00:32:35,040 --> 00:32:38,120
Speaker 1: from that. It takes a lot. And it was a mail,

574
00:32:39,560 --> 00:32:44,200
Speaker 1: you know, and you know well I actually shot with

575
00:32:44,240 --> 00:32:47,640
Speaker 1: this mail when a producer that came from New York

576
00:32:47,680 --> 00:32:53,120
Speaker 1: actually up here and to shoot it. And I thought

577
00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:54,880
Speaker 1: that the dude was gonna be all right. I worked

578
00:32:54,880 --> 00:32:59,600
Speaker 1: on him for three years, preparing him because he had

579
00:32:59,640 --> 00:33:01,480
Speaker 1: too much mouth, you know what I'm saying. Prepared and

580
00:33:01,520 --> 00:33:03,520
Speaker 1: shut the funk up and just follow my suit. I'm

581
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:05,440
Speaker 1: gonna get you where you gotta go. I'm gonna get

582
00:33:05,440 --> 00:33:07,040
Speaker 1: you to shoot with this person. I don't get you

583
00:33:07,080 --> 00:33:10,760
Speaker 1: in the door. I had the ability in the connections,

584
00:33:10,840 --> 00:33:12,120
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, to get him where I

585
00:33:12,160 --> 00:33:14,719
Speaker 1: needed to get them too. And that mouth was just

586
00:33:14,760 --> 00:33:18,280
Speaker 1: to motherfucking flying, you know, and it just things got

587
00:33:18,640 --> 00:33:20,640
Speaker 1: you know where I ain't got time for that. I'm

588
00:33:20,640 --> 00:33:22,680
Speaker 1: not about to be out here fighting the motherfucking going

589
00:33:22,720 --> 00:33:25,280
Speaker 1: through all that to protect my image in my name,

590
00:33:25,520 --> 00:33:30,680
Speaker 1: because if I'm mentoring you, you're putting my name things,

591
00:33:31,200 --> 00:33:33,920
Speaker 1: and that's what we're not gonna do, because I don't

592
00:33:33,920 --> 00:33:38,040
Speaker 1: have anything but my name to stand on. You understand

593
00:33:38,080 --> 00:33:41,960
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. My name is everything for me. And

594
00:33:42,160 --> 00:33:48,240
Speaker 1: you grin. He was granted for a minute. I was

595
00:33:48,280 --> 00:33:51,719
Speaker 1: grinding hard. And people don't understand. This is not just

596
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:55,200
Speaker 1: something you give away. You know what I'm saying, ship,

597
00:33:55,360 --> 00:33:57,360
Speaker 1: You got to pay for this. I paid for it

598
00:33:57,480 --> 00:34:02,200
Speaker 1: a hard hard. When I first got started, it was

599
00:34:02,360 --> 00:34:08,240
Speaker 1: I was now. I started Google Google, I started sending pictures.

600
00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:11,440
Speaker 1: I had a stripper mail stripper because I used to

601
00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:13,160
Speaker 1: go to all the strip shows here above all the

602
00:34:13,200 --> 00:34:17,480
Speaker 1: male strippers. Everybody knew me. I had a mail stripper

603
00:34:17,800 --> 00:34:19,839
Speaker 1: that I that was kind of new in in my

604
00:34:19,880 --> 00:34:22,279
Speaker 1: city and to me and him was talking and he

605
00:34:22,360 --> 00:34:25,319
Speaker 1: was talking about doing webcam and I was like, well,

606
00:34:25,360 --> 00:34:28,120
Speaker 1: I just want to do some photos at that time,

607
00:34:28,160 --> 00:34:29,719
Speaker 1: That's what I was telling him. He told me he

608
00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:32,000
Speaker 1: had a camera. You know, I had a different look.

609
00:34:32,280 --> 00:34:35,680
Speaker 1: He started taking pictures of me. I used those pictures.

610
00:34:36,000 --> 00:34:38,319
Speaker 1: I started posting a few of them on Facebook, and

611
00:34:38,320 --> 00:34:41,360
Speaker 1: I posted them on was it b b W model

612
00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:43,040
Speaker 1: Search that used it used to be out It's not.

613
00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:45,200
Speaker 1: It's no the website it's gone now, but it was

614
00:34:45,200 --> 00:34:47,799
Speaker 1: called BBW Model Search or something like that, and I

615
00:34:47,840 --> 00:34:51,080
Speaker 1: posted them on near I started getting, you know, people

616
00:34:51,200 --> 00:34:53,040
Speaker 1: coming to me and telling me this, that and the other.

617
00:34:53,120 --> 00:34:55,279
Speaker 1: You know, they liked my pictures or whatever. That I

618
00:34:55,320 --> 00:34:58,680
Speaker 1: had people asking the me to shoot or whatever. And

619
00:34:58,719 --> 00:35:01,080
Speaker 1: I still was kind of leary. I wanted to do,

620
00:35:01,160 --> 00:35:02,759
Speaker 1: was do some modeling. You know what I'm saying that

621
00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:06,920
Speaker 1: everybody sucked me, you know. But eventually I ended up

622
00:35:06,960 --> 00:35:11,320
Speaker 1: getting another photo show, another foodo photoshoot by my old

623
00:35:11,360 --> 00:35:15,319
Speaker 1: manager out of d C. Little did I know that him,

624
00:35:15,480 --> 00:35:17,600
Speaker 1: his wife, who I didn't know was his wife at

625
00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:20,440
Speaker 1: the time. Him, his wife, and his cousin, his cousins

626
00:35:20,440 --> 00:35:23,000
Speaker 1: from Buffalo and he's from d C. They came up

627
00:35:23,040 --> 00:35:25,799
Speaker 1: here to Buffalo. They got a hotel, they took some

628
00:35:25,880 --> 00:35:31,799
Speaker 1: of the most These were the prettiest pictures. Yeah, yeah,

629
00:35:31,880 --> 00:35:34,480
Speaker 1: that was were the best pictures. And I have not

630
00:35:34,719 --> 00:35:40,160
Speaker 1: had a photographer to match their ship since then. You

631
00:35:40,200 --> 00:35:43,640
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. They my pictures were never photo shocked.

632
00:35:44,920 --> 00:35:47,959
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Nothing, they you know, I asked,

633
00:35:47,960 --> 00:35:49,960
Speaker 1: took some uglier ones. Now I ain't never put them

634
00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:55,480
Speaker 1: ones out, but those were I never put them ones out,

635
00:35:55,480 --> 00:35:58,520
Speaker 1: but majority of them were beautiful. And those are a

636
00:35:58,560 --> 00:36:00,640
Speaker 1: lot of the ones that people see, the ones that

637
00:36:00,680 --> 00:36:03,719
Speaker 1: are all in everything. That's like in red, you know

638
00:36:03,719 --> 00:36:09,399
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Because red matches my skin best. Yeah,

639
00:36:09,600 --> 00:36:12,560
Speaker 1: that it matches me. But they did the best work.

640
00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:15,759
Speaker 1: And that's how I began. I used when he gave me.

641
00:36:16,080 --> 00:36:18,839
Speaker 1: I didn't know at that time. I was dumbfounded, and

642
00:36:18,880 --> 00:36:20,719
Speaker 1: I just you know, I didn't know that I was

643
00:36:20,760 --> 00:36:24,399
Speaker 1: going to be the face of their club. So from

644
00:36:24,440 --> 00:36:27,399
Speaker 1: that point on it took off. I used those newer

645
00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:31,239
Speaker 1: pictures from them, I took those. I started sending them

646
00:36:31,239 --> 00:36:33,239
Speaker 1: to those companies that I was googling. I had a

647
00:36:33,320 --> 00:36:35,719
Speaker 1: whole notebook full of stuff. I didn't even know if

648
00:36:35,719 --> 00:36:37,960
Speaker 1: these companies were still in business or not. I started

649
00:36:38,000 --> 00:36:41,279
Speaker 1: sending them to him, ended up reaching T T Boy

650
00:36:41,480 --> 00:36:45,120
Speaker 1: and I got that phone call and I still was skinnier.

651
00:36:45,239 --> 00:36:47,399
Speaker 1: But with that being said, do you think that black

652
00:36:47,440 --> 00:36:50,040
Speaker 1: BBW porn stars have a hard time getting in the

653
00:36:50,080 --> 00:36:54,720
Speaker 1: industry co stars because when I was on my research,

654
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:57,520
Speaker 1: and I don't see no black girls on there, Like

655
00:36:57,560 --> 00:36:59,719
Speaker 1: I see just a half full and it's the same

656
00:36:59,719 --> 00:37:04,320
Speaker 1: black girls. It's a who it's the same black girls,

657
00:37:04,360 --> 00:37:06,160
Speaker 1: Like I don't see if I don't see a lot

658
00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:11,680
Speaker 1: of black babbs in the industry. Yeah, there there, but

659
00:37:11,719 --> 00:37:15,560
Speaker 1: there they stay. A lot of girls stay with together,

660
00:37:16,280 --> 00:37:18,319
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. They I'll stay in a

661
00:37:18,400 --> 00:37:21,560
Speaker 1: in a cluster. A lot of them don't branch out

662
00:37:21,600 --> 00:37:23,920
Speaker 1: because a lot of people don't want to work with him.

663
00:37:24,000 --> 00:37:26,560
Speaker 1: I am lucky to have a manager who keeps me

664
00:37:26,680 --> 00:37:32,319
Speaker 1: involved with major, mainstream you know, mainstream people, you know

665
00:37:32,320 --> 00:37:37,400
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So I'm always around these people. You know,

666
00:37:37,440 --> 00:37:41,319
Speaker 1: a lot of the girls aren't around them, you know.

667
00:37:41,640 --> 00:37:44,520
Speaker 1: So I've been lucky, you know, to have a manager.

668
00:37:44,560 --> 00:37:49,320
Speaker 1: I am his only BBW. Oh that's good too. Yeah,

669
00:37:49,520 --> 00:37:53,040
Speaker 1: I'm the only BBW that he deals with. UM when

670
00:37:53,040 --> 00:37:59,279
Speaker 1: it comes like we have uh union, and I was

671
00:37:59,360 --> 00:38:03,080
Speaker 1: actually the first black BBW to be part of that union,

672
00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:05,680
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. We have this new union

673
00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:09,080
Speaker 1: and I've been one of the people that they asked

674
00:38:09,120 --> 00:38:12,480
Speaker 1: for my advice on what my feelings is for the

675
00:38:12,520 --> 00:38:17,319
Speaker 1: big girls held it down. Oh you I talked too much?

676
00:38:17,360 --> 00:38:22,680
Speaker 1: You know this smile from here. I'd be by myself

677
00:38:22,719 --> 00:38:24,480
Speaker 1: too much. I can't be talking to the dog. I

678
00:38:24,520 --> 00:38:26,120
Speaker 1: get tired of talking to her. So when I get

679
00:38:26,160 --> 00:38:28,040
Speaker 1: a time a chance to talk to adults, I go

680
00:38:28,160 --> 00:38:33,400
Speaker 1: all in. Child. I got the right representative child. But

681
00:38:33,480 --> 00:38:34,800
Speaker 1: a lot of this and a lot of the b

682
00:38:34,880 --> 00:38:36,560
Speaker 1: b ws are I hate to say it, but a

683
00:38:36,600 --> 00:38:39,240
Speaker 1: lot of on my patty. You know what I'm saying.

684
00:38:39,280 --> 00:38:42,479
Speaker 1: It's a lot of arguing. I am accepted more from

685
00:38:42,560 --> 00:38:46,640
Speaker 1: the white girls. You know what I'm saying. I um

686
00:38:46,920 --> 00:38:49,680
Speaker 1: went to a convention and the girl, one of the

687
00:38:49,680 --> 00:38:51,279
Speaker 1: white girls, was like, what she thinks she said what

688
00:38:51,320 --> 00:38:53,640
Speaker 1: she said on the Tupac of the industry or some ship.

689
00:38:53,760 --> 00:39:01,320
Speaker 1: I was like, well ship, he did, oh kind of star.

690
00:39:02,280 --> 00:39:04,399
Speaker 1: What you're trying to say, y'all gonna kill me a son?

691
00:39:04,560 --> 00:39:07,440
Speaker 1: And but I didn't know that that was how the

692
00:39:07,480 --> 00:39:12,000
Speaker 1: white bb you know, their perception of I think what

693
00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:13,719
Speaker 1: they're saying like I was one of the first to

694
00:39:13,840 --> 00:39:16,920
Speaker 1: do you know, which I wasn't though I guess I

695
00:39:16,960 --> 00:39:21,080
Speaker 1: brought it back. I brought back the sexiness, the difference

696
00:39:21,120 --> 00:39:23,759
Speaker 1: because I don't feel like when I shoot, I'm not

697
00:39:23,880 --> 00:39:27,520
Speaker 1: dressed like everybody else. I refused to shooting. Um, something

698
00:39:27,560 --> 00:39:30,520
Speaker 1: that the next bitch gonna have on. Everything you've ever

699
00:39:30,520 --> 00:39:33,720
Speaker 1: seen me on is something totally different, down to the shoes.

700
00:39:34,400 --> 00:39:39,759
Speaker 1: My shoe game is fly. You know. Um, it's just

701
00:39:39,840 --> 00:39:42,920
Speaker 1: a difference. It's a it's a difference. And I'm glad

702
00:39:42,960 --> 00:39:46,120
Speaker 1: to be accepted by the white BBWs. You know, had

703
00:39:46,200 --> 00:39:49,640
Speaker 1: we not had Corona, I had a lot of shoots

704
00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:52,400
Speaker 1: from white girls on the white girls in the industry

705
00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:56,040
Speaker 1: that I was supposed to do. You know. So hopefully

706
00:39:56,200 --> 00:39:58,319
Speaker 1: if the world I don't know how they we're gonna

707
00:39:58,360 --> 00:40:01,359
Speaker 1: do any fucking thing. I don't know how that's gonna

708
00:40:01,400 --> 00:40:04,239
Speaker 1: work with a mask. Well you find out, you let

709
00:40:04,280 --> 00:40:09,640
Speaker 1: us know. Because I'm scared of everybody. I'm scared to everybody. Um,

710
00:40:09,680 --> 00:40:13,080
Speaker 1: do you feel like a lot of people do you

711
00:40:13,120 --> 00:40:14,719
Speaker 1: feel like a lot of people think they could be

712
00:40:14,719 --> 00:40:16,600
Speaker 1: a point star? And the reason why I asked us

713
00:40:16,640 --> 00:40:21,600
Speaker 1: because everybody thinks it's not a job, it's just sex. Yeah,

714
00:40:21,719 --> 00:40:25,480
Speaker 1: everybody thinks they're quick to say ship. I suck good

715
00:40:25,480 --> 00:40:29,200
Speaker 1: I sucked ship out my girl. I suck good dick.

716
00:40:29,320 --> 00:40:31,680
Speaker 1: I'm sure you do. You know I would say more

717
00:40:31,760 --> 00:40:34,640
Speaker 1: women suck good dick than niggas fucking and ship out there. Girl,

718
00:40:34,840 --> 00:40:38,480
Speaker 1: that's your girl, but she telling you that, you know,

719
00:40:39,280 --> 00:40:41,840
Speaker 1: telling you that. But the next bitch niggas men not

720
00:40:42,120 --> 00:40:44,359
Speaker 1: lying on all races, lying on their dick and her

721
00:40:46,160 --> 00:40:49,360
Speaker 1: Because listen, one thing for sure, two things certain women

722
00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:55,040
Speaker 1: can fake like a motherfucker and being in the real industry,

723
00:40:55,520 --> 00:40:57,520
Speaker 1: so a lot of times you could be shooting in

724
00:40:57,560 --> 00:41:01,279
Speaker 1: there be only you and you whoever you're working with

725
00:41:01,440 --> 00:41:04,279
Speaker 1: in the cameraman, or you can have you, you know,

726
00:41:04,320 --> 00:41:06,560
Speaker 1: when you just y'all, y'all can put your phones up

727
00:41:06,600 --> 00:41:08,960
Speaker 1: on what I'm seeing now everybody using the phone. But

728
00:41:09,000 --> 00:41:13,200
Speaker 1: when you talk about mainstream, you have like, couldn't be

729
00:41:13,239 --> 00:41:16,759
Speaker 1: anywhere from five to ten people in that room. Can

730
00:41:16,800 --> 00:41:19,520
Speaker 1: you keep your dick hard with a man between your

731
00:41:19,600 --> 00:41:22,680
Speaker 1: days rubbing up against your balls? Guess what that's that's

732
00:41:22,840 --> 00:41:28,960
Speaker 1: seen or that position or whatever must must be taken. Now,

733
00:41:29,080 --> 00:41:31,320
Speaker 1: if you can't keep it up, they're gonna give you

734
00:41:31,360 --> 00:41:33,160
Speaker 1: a few minutes to get it together. And if you

735
00:41:33,160 --> 00:41:35,360
Speaker 1: don't get if nobody's gonna keep sucking your dack and

736
00:41:35,400 --> 00:41:38,319
Speaker 1: nobody's gonna leave the room. You know what I'm saying,

737
00:41:38,360 --> 00:41:42,040
Speaker 1: nobody's gonna leave the swimming pool area wherever the shoot

738
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:45,600
Speaker 1: is being going on, because shoots can be anywhere outside

739
00:41:46,040 --> 00:41:48,360
Speaker 1: in the yard. You know what I'm saying, around the

740
00:41:48,400 --> 00:41:51,560
Speaker 1: pool in the house. Well, can you explain the process

741
00:41:51,560 --> 00:41:53,840
Speaker 1: of creating these things? I don't think people understand, like

742
00:41:53,880 --> 00:41:58,839
Speaker 1: the magnitude of work that goes into it. A lot

743
00:41:58,880 --> 00:42:01,719
Speaker 1: of times in the on, Like if you're working for

744
00:42:01,800 --> 00:42:04,640
Speaker 1: a company, a lot of times they already have these

745
00:42:04,680 --> 00:42:07,880
Speaker 1: things written out and already or they're they're already able

746
00:42:07,920 --> 00:42:10,640
Speaker 1: to tell you what they want. You don't get a choice.

747
00:42:11,239 --> 00:42:14,160
Speaker 1: You don't get to decide what you're gonna do. If

748
00:42:14,200 --> 00:42:17,040
Speaker 1: you're working for a company, you know what I'm saying,

749
00:42:17,080 --> 00:42:19,520
Speaker 1: you do what the company wants you to do. It's there,

750
00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:24,120
Speaker 1: it's there. They're paying Yeah, if they're paying you, you

751
00:42:24,200 --> 00:42:26,200
Speaker 1: gotta do what they want you to do. You know

752
00:42:26,360 --> 00:42:28,399
Speaker 1: a lot of times when major companies, you don't get

753
00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:30,200
Speaker 1: a done get a choice on who you're working with.

754
00:42:31,000 --> 00:42:34,839
Speaker 1: So what you don't like them? You know, now, amateur

755
00:42:35,200 --> 00:42:38,160
Speaker 1: you can be it's negotiable. You know what I'm saying,

756
00:42:38,160 --> 00:42:40,719
Speaker 1: a lot of things are negotiable. You can't allow don't

757
00:42:40,760 --> 00:42:43,880
Speaker 1: like him, you know what I'm saying. Just like this

758
00:42:43,920 --> 00:42:47,360
Speaker 1: company right here, I I don't know to do, but

759
00:42:47,520 --> 00:42:50,000
Speaker 1: I see he working with everybody, But I want to check.

760
00:42:50,320 --> 00:42:53,399
Speaker 1: He want content, you know what I'm saying. He want

761
00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:57,279
Speaker 1: to do content exchange, but I want to check. You know.

762
00:42:57,440 --> 00:42:59,680
Speaker 1: And when I said something about testing, I haven't got

763
00:42:59,680 --> 00:43:02,720
Speaker 1: to respond wants from that. So you see what I'm saying.

764
00:43:03,000 --> 00:43:06,040
Speaker 1: I believe with major companies, you will be testing. It

765
00:43:06,080 --> 00:43:10,040
Speaker 1: is not your doctor. You will not be tested by

766
00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:15,719
Speaker 1: your family practitioner. It is two hundred and fifty dollars

767
00:43:15,800 --> 00:43:20,399
Speaker 1: on the East Coast to get this test. Yes, it's

768
00:43:20,400 --> 00:43:25,080
Speaker 1: through Talent Testing Services on the West Coast. Depending where

769
00:43:25,080 --> 00:43:28,399
Speaker 1: you're going, it can be one fifty or not. But

770
00:43:28,560 --> 00:43:33,040
Speaker 1: it is the full panel, four panel. They're not taking

771
00:43:33,080 --> 00:43:36,160
Speaker 1: your doctors. And guess what they're gonna check it. It's

772
00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:38,719
Speaker 1: been so much fraud and so much ship going on

773
00:43:38,800 --> 00:43:42,800
Speaker 1: in the industry throughout the years, and especially now with Corona,

774
00:43:43,080 --> 00:43:45,200
Speaker 1: they double checking. Oh yeah, you gotta get tested for

775
00:43:45,280 --> 00:43:48,879
Speaker 1: Corona too. You know what I'm saying I want all that.

776
00:43:48,960 --> 00:43:51,680
Speaker 1: I don't want your doctors, so don't even gain no

777
00:43:51,760 --> 00:43:53,880
Speaker 1: sense in contacting me. If you can't spend that money

778
00:43:54,040 --> 00:43:57,839
Speaker 1: to get the test done, don't even bother their contacting

779
00:43:57,880 --> 00:44:00,520
Speaker 1: me because I need to make or that I have

780
00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:03,799
Speaker 1: a clean paper trail as well. So if you burn me,

781
00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:07,319
Speaker 1: then we're gonna have an issue that means you would

782
00:44:07,400 --> 00:44:10,879
Speaker 1: have had to do something within that two to three

783
00:44:10,960 --> 00:44:14,120
Speaker 1: day last You understand what I'm saying. I prefer you

784
00:44:14,160 --> 00:44:16,680
Speaker 1: to because I'm gonna watch everything you do. You wanna

785
00:44:16,719 --> 00:44:19,200
Speaker 1: watch your social media? You wanna watch if you want

786
00:44:19,280 --> 00:44:21,399
Speaker 1: these motherfucker's you I don't even want. I don't even

787
00:44:21,400 --> 00:44:23,239
Speaker 1: want you to suck your girl, okay, because I don't

788
00:44:23,239 --> 00:44:24,920
Speaker 1: know who the funk she fun When you leave to

789
00:44:24,960 --> 00:44:29,440
Speaker 1: go to work, I'm that fucking scary. You know what

790
00:44:29,480 --> 00:44:32,160
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Air is somebody in the industry that I

791
00:44:32,239 --> 00:44:35,080
Speaker 1: actually been wanting to work with an eight. Every time

792
00:44:35,120 --> 00:44:38,239
Speaker 1: I think it's okay to work with this person, I

793
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:41,920
Speaker 1: find out something new and then keep asking me and

794
00:44:41,920 --> 00:44:44,560
Speaker 1: he this person works with multiple companies. But I have

795
00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:48,120
Speaker 1: a friend that's in the industry who actually was supposed

796
00:44:48,160 --> 00:44:51,200
Speaker 1: to work with I'm gonna say, Sarah Jay. She supposed to,

797
00:44:51,239 --> 00:44:53,120
Speaker 1: he was, she was supposed to work with Sarah Jay,

798
00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:57,080
Speaker 1: and she came up dirty. Sarah pay for the Sarah

799
00:44:57,120 --> 00:45:01,479
Speaker 1: pay for the testing. She came up dirty. This particular now,

800
00:45:01,760 --> 00:45:05,799
Speaker 1: this particular guy he shot with her. She is my

801
00:45:05,960 --> 00:45:08,560
Speaker 1: friends and I love her dearly, but her pussy is

802
00:45:08,600 --> 00:45:14,920
Speaker 1: not my friend. You understand what I'm saying. What she

803
00:45:15,080 --> 00:45:18,080
Speaker 1: may have I don't want, but she's still my friend.

804
00:45:18,440 --> 00:45:21,919
Speaker 1: And this is nothing. This is a personal thing right here,

805
00:45:22,239 --> 00:45:26,839
Speaker 1: because it's my health, you know what I'm saying. I

806
00:45:26,920 --> 00:45:33,400
Speaker 1: know when we were in uh Jersey last year, she

807
00:45:33,560 --> 00:45:36,439
Speaker 1: shot with this particular guy with a six month old test.

808
00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:40,439
Speaker 1: I didn't know that till we were in the car

809
00:45:40,600 --> 00:45:43,399
Speaker 1: and she made a statement about it. She said, well,

810
00:45:43,600 --> 00:45:45,239
Speaker 1: I said, well, you ain't gonna work with nobody else.

811
00:45:45,440 --> 00:45:46,880
Speaker 1: She was like, oh, well, he's the only one that

812
00:45:46,920 --> 00:45:49,120
Speaker 1: to worked with me, she said, because my test is

813
00:45:49,160 --> 00:45:52,680
Speaker 1: like six months old. I looked at her almost, you know, like,

814
00:45:53,000 --> 00:45:54,719
Speaker 1: you know back in the day, how little girls be

815
00:45:54,760 --> 00:46:01,360
Speaker 1: doing their hei. Yeah, we don't do that. So I yeah,

816
00:46:01,440 --> 00:46:03,960
Speaker 1: we don't do that. We don't do those you know

817
00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:06,399
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So now I won't work with him

818
00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:09,440
Speaker 1: at all because he knew I. He brought me his

819
00:46:09,560 --> 00:46:11,920
Speaker 1: tested you're gonna get it on this scene. I'm not

820
00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:13,560
Speaker 1: here for that. I'm just here to be you know,

821
00:46:13,960 --> 00:46:16,640
Speaker 1: I'm just here watching. I'm in the corner, sitting in

822
00:46:16,640 --> 00:46:18,239
Speaker 1: the corner. I never told you I was gonna work

823
00:46:18,239 --> 00:46:20,239
Speaker 1: with you, but this is what I'm talking about. I

824
00:46:20,440 --> 00:46:22,759
Speaker 1: watched to see what a motherfucker got going on and

825
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:26,000
Speaker 1: what they do. M h. And if I know that

826
00:46:26,040 --> 00:46:33,440
Speaker 1: you're not doing right in this situation, you are putting

827
00:46:33,520 --> 00:46:36,120
Speaker 1: your life at risk. And the next bitch that you're

828
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:38,800
Speaker 1: gonna shoot within an hour, you're putting Because most people

829
00:46:38,960 --> 00:46:40,880
Speaker 1: when we go to conventions, we should we go to

830
00:46:40,920 --> 00:46:43,040
Speaker 1: the convention, but it's a lot of fucking going on.

831
00:46:43,640 --> 00:46:47,080
Speaker 1: You shoot, we're going to convention floor. We've greet our customers.

832
00:46:47,160 --> 00:46:50,680
Speaker 1: Our customers are our fans, take to your fans, hug,

833
00:46:50,800 --> 00:46:54,239
Speaker 1: you know, sell your merchandise or whatever. But after that's over,

834
00:46:54,760 --> 00:46:58,480
Speaker 1: you're in the rooms getting content. You're in those rooms

835
00:46:58,480 --> 00:47:01,359
Speaker 1: working for companies or we're you for your own website

836
00:47:01,760 --> 00:47:05,359
Speaker 1: and making you know, trading content, whatever you whatever, you're

837
00:47:05,480 --> 00:47:09,279
Speaker 1: whatever fits works for you. You're in there fucking to

838
00:47:09,440 --> 00:47:12,880
Speaker 1: make money in the long run, you know what I'm saying.

839
00:47:13,160 --> 00:47:16,400
Speaker 1: So if he's if this guy is, he shot with

840
00:47:16,480 --> 00:47:18,800
Speaker 1: her and he's gonna shoot with the next bitch after

841
00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:22,920
Speaker 1: you take the shower. You understand what I'm saying. If

842
00:47:22,960 --> 00:47:27,200
Speaker 1: you test was six months old. I know she has clients,

843
00:47:27,239 --> 00:47:30,279
Speaker 1: She sees a lots of clients. But for me, it

844
00:47:30,360 --> 00:47:34,200
Speaker 1: scares me because I've talked to her repeatedly about using condoms.

845
00:47:36,080 --> 00:47:40,960
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. So that old stuff, that's

846
00:47:41,000 --> 00:47:44,160
Speaker 1: what could be happening right now. But again, she's my friend.

847
00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:48,000
Speaker 1: But her pussy isn't, her mouth isn't. I want she

848
00:47:48,040 --> 00:47:50,120
Speaker 1: asked me to do a scene with her, I can't.

849
00:47:50,400 --> 00:47:53,680
Speaker 1: The only way I can it can't be no exchange

850
00:47:53,680 --> 00:47:56,120
Speaker 1: of body fluids. You understand what I'm saying. I'm a

851
00:47:56,120 --> 00:47:59,319
Speaker 1: sucker with a with a strap one period. She can

852
00:47:59,360 --> 00:48:01,520
Speaker 1: suck on the street rap one and I'm gonna suck

853
00:48:01,560 --> 00:48:03,719
Speaker 1: her with a strap one. But I'm not going to win.

854
00:48:03,880 --> 00:48:06,120
Speaker 1: But but you're not gonna do that. You're not gonna

855
00:48:06,120 --> 00:48:12,120
Speaker 1: do that. Yes, No, I was kind of a strap one,

856
00:48:12,160 --> 00:48:16,160
Speaker 1: a toy for her, I know, but I use it.

857
00:48:16,480 --> 00:48:19,879
Speaker 1: I'll you know what, I'll use that because it's not

858
00:48:20,560 --> 00:48:22,839
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. We ain't. We're not exchanging

859
00:48:22,880 --> 00:48:26,239
Speaker 1: body fluids. You know what I'm saying. She's gonna suck

860
00:48:26,280 --> 00:48:28,640
Speaker 1: on it. She ain't the first one. She's gonna suck

861
00:48:28,680 --> 00:48:32,239
Speaker 1: on the strap one, and then I'm gonna put a

862
00:48:32,280 --> 00:48:38,360
Speaker 1: condom on the strap on. And I'm a girl. I

863
00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:43,359
Speaker 1: shot with Beverly Blue like that, Oh child, she's a

864
00:48:43,360 --> 00:48:47,920
Speaker 1: plus size. We do have pictures where because I shot

865
00:48:47,960 --> 00:48:50,279
Speaker 1: with her like that, and I didn't want to go down.

866
00:48:50,400 --> 00:48:52,200
Speaker 1: You know what, I love her, she's a sweetheart or

867
00:48:52,200 --> 00:48:54,799
Speaker 1: I love her. Um, I didn't really at that time.

868
00:48:54,840 --> 00:48:58,719
Speaker 1: I wasn't really into down on women and stuff. But

869
00:48:58,800 --> 00:49:01,439
Speaker 1: Beverly kind that made it. You know what I'm saying,

870
00:49:01,480 --> 00:49:03,839
Speaker 1: she's real, You're you could be really comfortable with her.

871
00:49:04,080 --> 00:49:06,399
Speaker 1: But there was some other little situations with that too,

872
00:49:06,520 --> 00:49:15,000
Speaker 1: some odors and stuff, so I couldn't business. But that's

873
00:49:15,040 --> 00:49:20,360
Speaker 1: my girl. But I'm gonna tell you she was sucking

874
00:49:20,360 --> 00:49:23,919
Speaker 1: the ship out, the motherfucker' strap on sucking the ship

875
00:49:24,040 --> 00:49:25,880
Speaker 1: out that motherfucker. I was like, damn, if this was

876
00:49:25,880 --> 00:49:30,640
Speaker 1: a real dick, a nigger be in heaven and when

877
00:49:30,680 --> 00:49:32,760
Speaker 1: I went to funk her. Here I go think, Okay,

878
00:49:32,800 --> 00:49:38,320
Speaker 1: I'm cool, I'm tough. Sprung my right arm. What sprung?

879
00:49:38,400 --> 00:49:42,400
Speaker 1: I sprung my right arm? But guess what, I couldn't stop.

880
00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:46,200
Speaker 1: I had to continue with the scene. Arm fucked up

881
00:49:46,280 --> 00:49:49,400
Speaker 1: or not? Because I was trying. I told her she

882
00:49:49,400 --> 00:49:52,600
Speaker 1: ain't got to hold her legs. I could lift them.

883
00:49:52,600 --> 00:49:55,080
Speaker 1: That was the wrong thing to say. That motherfucker thigh

884
00:49:55,160 --> 00:50:02,759
Speaker 1: was heavy as hell. That thigh I was killed me. Um,

885
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:05,040
Speaker 1: So how often do your co stars trying to have

886
00:50:05,080 --> 00:50:07,080
Speaker 1: sex with you before the actual scene? Because I read

887
00:50:07,080 --> 00:50:09,200
Speaker 1: a lot of dickles do that? Look at the first

888
00:50:09,280 --> 00:50:13,920
Speaker 1: nut out the way, man, Yeah, they always do. Um,

889
00:50:14,040 --> 00:50:17,839
Speaker 1: they really not after? For me, it's before before I've

890
00:50:17,840 --> 00:50:22,560
Speaker 1: had mainstream Only one mainstream actor tried to do it beforehand.

891
00:50:22,800 --> 00:50:25,960
Speaker 1: Actually too one is dead now, d Wise, you know

892
00:50:25,960 --> 00:50:29,320
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. He's dead now. But um, I actually

893
00:50:29,360 --> 00:50:32,440
Speaker 1: recently posted up a picture of him and me, him

894
00:50:32,440 --> 00:50:38,279
Speaker 1: and myself on Instagram. Um, there's content on my website

895
00:50:38,440 --> 00:50:41,520
Speaker 1: and my clips for sale of me and d Wise.

896
00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:44,959
Speaker 1: It's funny, you know, God rest is So we've had

897
00:50:45,120 --> 00:50:48,520
Speaker 1: clashes and arguments and everything else. I don't do that

898
00:50:48,560 --> 00:50:51,200
Speaker 1: fucking before because a lot of times, if you suck

899
00:50:51,440 --> 00:50:55,720
Speaker 1: a person before you do the scene, they're not going

900
00:50:55,800 --> 00:50:58,560
Speaker 1: to a lot of them won't end up shooting with

901
00:50:58,600 --> 00:51:04,800
Speaker 1: you mm hmmm times I don't know, but especially ones

902
00:51:04,840 --> 00:51:08,120
Speaker 1: who normally get seven eight nine dollars like you talk

903
00:51:08,200 --> 00:51:10,920
Speaker 1: about mainstream once you get money like that, if they

904
00:51:10,960 --> 00:51:13,640
Speaker 1: fuck you before it, they're not going to unless you're

905
00:51:13,719 --> 00:51:15,640
Speaker 1: unless you're paying them that kind of money. And I

906
00:51:15,640 --> 00:51:19,279
Speaker 1: ain't no trick, So I'm rock like that. I'm you

907
00:51:19,360 --> 00:51:22,160
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. At this point, I only know

908
00:51:22,280 --> 00:51:26,399
Speaker 1: of one minute extreme person that I would actually if

909
00:51:26,440 --> 00:51:28,960
Speaker 1: I if I wanted to, I would pay. But then

910
00:51:29,000 --> 00:51:32,399
Speaker 1: again I don't know, you know, because he's because he's

911
00:51:32,440 --> 00:51:37,000
Speaker 1: a diva. When I say that just so specific, I

912
00:51:37,040 --> 00:51:39,480
Speaker 1: mean I thought I was specific, But I'm just safe,

913
00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:42,239
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. We're talking about a person

914
00:51:42,400 --> 00:51:47,680
Speaker 1: just picky five, you know, But um I there's a

915
00:51:47,719 --> 00:51:51,960
Speaker 1: lot of them, even not just them, the producers that

916
00:51:52,080 --> 00:51:56,120
Speaker 1: will try to fuck you afterwards. That I got into

917
00:51:56,120 --> 00:52:00,759
Speaker 1: a relationship with a producer for those reasons, exactly exact

918
00:52:00,840 --> 00:52:04,680
Speaker 1: reasons I ended up in a long term years of

919
00:52:04,719 --> 00:52:09,040
Speaker 1: a relationship of in this industry. Uh, every time I

920
00:52:09,160 --> 00:52:14,279
Speaker 1: finished shooting when up sucking, mm hmm. You know what

921
00:52:14,320 --> 00:52:21,759
Speaker 1: I'm saying. It was every time. Like instantly, I regretted

922
00:52:22,760 --> 00:52:26,280
Speaker 1: now because I feel like I played myself too easy

923
00:52:27,160 --> 00:52:29,719
Speaker 1: because he was. He used to be like crazy about me.

924
00:52:29,760 --> 00:52:31,520
Speaker 1: Like if I every time I come out of town,

925
00:52:31,600 --> 00:52:34,120
Speaker 1: I come to New York, he'd be hunting me down,

926
00:52:34,400 --> 00:52:35,960
Speaker 1: I guess, so he's hunt me down for the cat.

927
00:52:36,120 --> 00:52:39,240
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. You know, he wanted this pussy.

928
00:52:39,320 --> 00:52:41,960
Speaker 1: That's what it was all about to me, you know

929
00:52:41,960 --> 00:52:45,600
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And my ex came home from jail,

930
00:52:45,640 --> 00:52:47,759
Speaker 1: and I had told him, don't you know because my

931
00:52:47,800 --> 00:52:50,120
Speaker 1: ex and his brother were friends. I didn't know that

932
00:52:50,160 --> 00:52:52,520
Speaker 1: at the time. They both were locked up together. And

933
00:52:52,560 --> 00:52:55,400
Speaker 1: I had told him, don't say nothing about our relationship

934
00:52:55,480 --> 00:52:58,839
Speaker 1: or whatever because it was over anyways. The only way

935
00:52:58,840 --> 00:53:00,800
Speaker 1: my ex wouldn knew about that relationship he ain't in

936
00:53:00,840 --> 00:53:03,520
Speaker 1: the industry, so he never would have knew. You know

937
00:53:03,600 --> 00:53:05,840
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. He never would have knew, you know.

938
00:53:06,040 --> 00:53:08,520
Speaker 1: So it was what it was. And he ended up

939
00:53:08,520 --> 00:53:13,520
Speaker 1: getting married anyway. Yeah, he ended up marrying some bitch

940
00:53:13,520 --> 00:53:15,520
Speaker 1: in Texas. Now, I ain't gonna lie. I was hurt

941
00:53:15,560 --> 00:53:18,719
Speaker 1: by that. I was hurt by that because Nica was

942
00:53:18,760 --> 00:53:26,239
Speaker 1: still on my phone. You're still on my phone just

943
00:53:26,400 --> 00:53:28,360
Speaker 1: before he got married. He even said this day, he

944
00:53:28,440 --> 00:53:30,880
Speaker 1: never even told me he got married. I've seen it

945
00:53:30,920 --> 00:53:35,640
Speaker 1: on social media, this old ass looking lady like I

946
00:53:35,680 --> 00:53:38,560
Speaker 1: was really you know what I'm saying, Me and him,

947
00:53:38,560 --> 00:53:40,400
Speaker 1: he like a little bit older than me. But a

948
00:53:40,400 --> 00:53:42,360
Speaker 1: lot of people don't even knew his age. You know

949
00:53:42,360 --> 00:53:44,480
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like people don't know my age. You know.

950
00:53:44,880 --> 00:53:47,839
Speaker 1: It's just really strange to me. Where did this come from?

951
00:53:47,840 --> 00:53:49,919
Speaker 1: Where did it happen that? But I was hurt by it.

952
00:53:50,280 --> 00:53:53,279
Speaker 1: I was, but it was like, okay, so be it now.

953
00:53:53,360 --> 00:53:56,080
Speaker 1: I know, you know what I'm saying. Now, I know

954
00:53:56,280 --> 00:53:59,040
Speaker 1: I'm happy for him. He seems to be happy, you know.

955
00:53:59,160 --> 00:54:00,880
Speaker 1: But my thing is like, Dann, was you working with

956
00:54:00,960 --> 00:54:03,880
Speaker 1: her the whole time? That's like any other relationship, you

957
00:54:03,880 --> 00:54:06,200
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying with motherfucker's fucking with somebody. But

958
00:54:06,239 --> 00:54:08,560
Speaker 1: what it is I used to have questions like, is

959
00:54:08,600 --> 00:54:11,200
Speaker 1: you're sucking the next bitch too? I finished shooting him,

960
00:54:12,560 --> 00:54:15,239
Speaker 1: I had, you know, all I started having those questions

961
00:54:15,280 --> 00:54:17,400
Speaker 1: and wondering. But at the end of the day, it

962
00:54:17,440 --> 00:54:19,640
Speaker 1: is what it is. You know, I learned my lesson

963
00:54:19,920 --> 00:54:22,920
Speaker 1: and I never did that again. I never did that

964
00:54:23,000 --> 00:54:26,200
Speaker 1: again my first manager. I ended up in a relationship,

965
00:54:26,200 --> 00:54:31,080
Speaker 1: sexual relationship with my first manager. Mm hmm. And I

966
00:54:31,120 --> 00:54:34,560
Speaker 1: don't even understand why, because I mean, like I was

967
00:54:34,600 --> 00:54:36,759
Speaker 1: crazy about him. He'd been something. Of course, he's been

968
00:54:36,800 --> 00:54:38,600
Speaker 1: a buffalo. Like I said, he came to shoot me

969
00:54:38,680 --> 00:54:40,400
Speaker 1: or whatever. It got to the point, like my kids

970
00:54:40,480 --> 00:54:42,759
Speaker 1: was crazy about him. Him and my kids used to

971
00:54:42,800 --> 00:54:44,520
Speaker 1: come up here and do things with the kids, you

972
00:54:44,560 --> 00:54:46,840
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, taking shopping, do this, do that.

973
00:54:47,080 --> 00:54:51,239
Speaker 1: You know, we had a serious relationship. You know, I

974
00:54:51,280 --> 00:54:54,400
Speaker 1: was going to Washington because I had to work on

975
00:54:54,440 --> 00:54:56,720
Speaker 1: my career. I was the face of his fucking club.

976
00:54:57,000 --> 00:54:58,719
Speaker 1: I didn't like I didn't know his wife was his

977
00:54:58,760 --> 00:55:01,520
Speaker 1: wife because the way he you know, I'm a flirt

978
00:55:01,800 --> 00:55:04,640
Speaker 1: I flirt with everybody. You know what I'm saying. I mean,

979
00:55:04,680 --> 00:55:07,640
Speaker 1: there's a time to time, not for but I'm doing this.

980
00:55:07,800 --> 00:55:10,440
Speaker 1: I need to be comfortable doing this scene, and I

981
00:55:10,480 --> 00:55:12,960
Speaker 1: don't need to feel uncomfortable, So I like overlooked her.

982
00:55:13,040 --> 00:55:16,200
Speaker 1: She didn't seem like nobody white. She's taking pictures too.

983
00:55:17,800 --> 00:55:21,960
Speaker 1: But then she slid funk up and said something you

984
00:55:22,000 --> 00:55:24,080
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, And I was like, what the funk?

985
00:55:25,840 --> 00:55:28,080
Speaker 1: And I was like, why he ain't tell me? He

986
00:55:28,160 --> 00:55:29,799
Speaker 1: just letting me go on and on and on and

987
00:55:29,840 --> 00:55:33,520
Speaker 1: on and on and on and on. Niggas don't care.

988
00:55:34,719 --> 00:55:37,759
Speaker 1: And even look, I didn't even know until like maybe

989
00:55:37,760 --> 00:55:39,239
Speaker 1: the third or fourth time that I came to d

990
00:55:39,280 --> 00:55:40,839
Speaker 1: C that it was his wife, because I was like,

991
00:55:40,880 --> 00:55:43,840
Speaker 1: why he so protective of his bitch? You know what

992
00:55:43,840 --> 00:55:46,279
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like, I'm telling him, well, he's staying with

993
00:55:46,400 --> 00:55:48,520
Speaker 1: me at the hotel, and he's gonna talk about what

994
00:55:48,600 --> 00:55:52,120
Speaker 1: she's gonna come back up here for? What did she

995
00:55:52,239 --> 00:55:56,319
Speaker 1: come back up? Yeah? But wait a minute, bitch, this

996
00:55:56,400 --> 00:55:58,239
Speaker 1: is on a particular day. Now. I paid for this

997
00:55:58,320 --> 00:56:00,760
Speaker 1: room because I ended up. You know, I was early

998
00:56:00,840 --> 00:56:04,719
Speaker 1: in my career and I'm staying out there longer. So

999
00:56:04,800 --> 00:56:06,879
Speaker 1: I'm still trying to push my ship. Whether I got

1000
00:56:06,880 --> 00:56:09,200
Speaker 1: a manager or not. I'm all for me. You know

1001
00:56:09,239 --> 00:56:11,600
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, You're my manager and stuff. Okay, I

1002
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:13,680
Speaker 1: don't shot and did this that and the other? We know,

1003
00:56:13,840 --> 00:56:16,160
Speaker 1: did scenes you know did photos. You didn't. He didn't

1004
00:56:16,200 --> 00:56:18,520
Speaker 1: have other photographers time and do photos. You know what

1005
00:56:18,560 --> 00:56:20,759
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So on and so forth. But at the

1006
00:56:20,840 --> 00:56:22,960
Speaker 1: end of the day, I'm still trying to get my money.

1007
00:56:23,239 --> 00:56:26,759
Speaker 1: I'm gonna hustle. I'm getting my bread. Fuck it, I

1008
00:56:26,800 --> 00:56:30,160
Speaker 1: got fetish clients. I got you know, motherfucker's I got

1009
00:56:30,200 --> 00:56:33,880
Speaker 1: all of that. You know, I'm still seeing customers. You

1010
00:56:33,920 --> 00:56:37,120
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Clients, you know. Fuck it, I'm helling,

1011
00:56:37,520 --> 00:56:44,359
Speaker 1: bitch and get the money. You know. I fuck I'm

1012
00:56:44,400 --> 00:56:46,440
Speaker 1: trying to get mine. You know what I'm saying. But

1013
00:56:46,480 --> 00:56:48,200
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, what I was doing

1014
00:56:48,600 --> 00:56:51,840
Speaker 1: was building my name because my customers are my number

1015
00:56:51,840 --> 00:56:54,200
Speaker 1: one fans. They were my number one fans at the time.

1016
00:56:54,600 --> 00:56:57,520
Speaker 1: I had nothing to stand on. You understand what I'm saying.

1017
00:56:57,760 --> 00:57:02,040
Speaker 1: You I'm coming into this blind sight. It's hard to

1018
00:57:02,280 --> 00:57:06,440
Speaker 1: take on beauty. You know what I'm saying. I'm a

1019
00:57:06,480 --> 00:57:08,759
Speaker 1: big girl. I didn't know that things. I came into

1020
00:57:08,760 --> 00:57:12,760
Speaker 1: the industry when the industry was changing and that social

1021
00:57:12,800 --> 00:57:17,320
Speaker 1: media and internet, the Internet was taking over. I came

1022
00:57:17,560 --> 00:57:20,600
Speaker 1: right at the tail end when a lot of major

1023
00:57:20,640 --> 00:57:23,520
Speaker 1: companies didn't want to work with big girls. But I

1024
00:57:23,560 --> 00:57:26,280
Speaker 1: didn't know that. I came dumbfound it and I had

1025
00:57:26,400 --> 00:57:29,040
Speaker 1: no one. And this is why I tell people that

1026
00:57:29,080 --> 00:57:31,640
Speaker 1: you can't expect people come to me and oh, tell

1027
00:57:31,640 --> 00:57:33,560
Speaker 1: me who I gotta see and let me get an industry.

1028
00:57:33,800 --> 00:57:38,640
Speaker 1: That's what it was not easy. I did what I

1029
00:57:38,720 --> 00:57:42,960
Speaker 1: had to do. You gotta do it too. This too

1030
00:57:43,200 --> 00:57:45,360
Speaker 1: for me to trust the motherfucker to just give it

1031
00:57:45,400 --> 00:57:49,680
Speaker 1: to him, it's hard. It's hard. You look better right now,

1032
00:57:49,840 --> 00:57:51,600
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. I'm I was thinking of

1033
00:57:51,680 --> 00:57:53,680
Speaker 1: doing like a class and different stuff like that, but

1034
00:57:53,680 --> 00:57:56,640
Speaker 1: you're going at the baby getting that class. I ain't finning,

1035
00:57:56,720 --> 00:57:59,880
Speaker 1: you know. I had people what you want to do?

1036
00:57:59,920 --> 00:58:03,080
Speaker 1: A class on telling you what you have to do

1037
00:58:03,160 --> 00:58:06,200
Speaker 1: to get into the real industry. I'm not gonna give

1038
00:58:06,240 --> 00:58:10,080
Speaker 1: you everybody's name, but I was gonna have a panel there.

1039
00:58:10,560 --> 00:58:12,360
Speaker 1: I was gonna give you an opportunity that would have

1040
00:58:12,400 --> 00:58:14,200
Speaker 1: the panel would have been an opportunity to work with

1041
00:58:14,280 --> 00:58:17,840
Speaker 1: people that's already other talents that's already in the industry.

1042
00:58:18,360 --> 00:58:20,880
Speaker 1: You got to build your name. You gotta funk your

1043
00:58:20,880 --> 00:58:28,480
Speaker 1: way to the top. But it is when I when

1044
00:58:28,520 --> 00:58:33,160
Speaker 1: I meant you have to not to say you just

1045
00:58:33,200 --> 00:58:35,800
Speaker 1: fucking times can hear? You? Know what I'm saying is

1046
00:58:37,040 --> 00:58:40,640
Speaker 1: got to come to the motherfucking ship tested with the

1047
00:58:40,720 --> 00:58:44,720
Speaker 1: paid test, which right there, people don't want to pay.

1048
00:58:44,960 --> 00:58:47,600
Speaker 1: You are going to have women and men that are

1049
00:58:47,800 --> 00:58:54,040
Speaker 1: already in the mainstream industry. You have people who have

1050
00:58:54,440 --> 00:58:59,120
Speaker 1: done both mainstream and amateur and they do their own stuff.

1051
00:58:59,160 --> 00:59:01,080
Speaker 1: They have their own side ice, they have their whatever,

1052
00:59:01,080 --> 00:59:03,080
Speaker 1: the only fans now, so that's the new thing. But

1053
00:59:03,160 --> 00:59:05,240
Speaker 1: most of them having that now you know, they have

1054
00:59:05,400 --> 00:59:08,280
Speaker 1: all their their clips, stores, many this, you know what

1055
00:59:08,320 --> 00:59:10,680
Speaker 1: I mean, all those different things. You can continue to

1056
00:59:10,800 --> 00:59:13,720
Speaker 1: fuck your girlfriend and a bit in your neighborhood around

1057
00:59:13,720 --> 00:59:17,680
Speaker 1: the corner, but it means nothing if don't nobody know you, right,

1058
00:59:19,120 --> 00:59:21,040
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So when you funk with

1059
00:59:21,640 --> 00:59:25,360
Speaker 1: you fuck because they always it's only fucking. It's only sets,

1060
00:59:25,680 --> 00:59:28,440
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. It ain't the science rocket science,

1061
00:59:28,600 --> 00:59:31,720
Speaker 1: but it's that person's name that you need to build

1062
00:59:31,800 --> 00:59:35,000
Speaker 1: your name, you know what I'm saying. So for me,

1063
00:59:35,160 --> 00:59:37,480
Speaker 1: I get plenty of motherfucker's would be like, well, cannot

1064
00:59:37,760 --> 00:59:40,280
Speaker 1: be messaging me? Well, um, I was wondering I can

1065
00:59:40,320 --> 00:59:43,080
Speaker 1: give you such such thousand dollars. Can I record it? Hell? No,

1066
00:59:43,280 --> 00:59:48,360
Speaker 1: you can't record it, but you can give me that money. No,

1067
00:59:48,600 --> 00:59:52,240
Speaker 1: you can't record it because the value of you putting

1068
00:59:52,320 --> 00:59:55,320
Speaker 1: something up on a free site of me when you

1069
00:59:55,400 --> 00:59:57,080
Speaker 1: was gonna pay me that money to fuck me any

1070
00:59:57,080 --> 00:59:59,520
Speaker 1: goddamn what? You know what I said, what I'm saying for,

1071
00:59:59,640 --> 01:00:03,280
Speaker 1: why would allow you? I'm losing out? Mm hmm. You

1072
01:00:03,320 --> 01:00:05,680
Speaker 1: don't get me two or three thousand dollars to fuck me.

1073
01:00:06,400 --> 01:00:08,480
Speaker 1: You was gonna give me that in me motherfucker way,

1074
01:00:10,360 --> 01:00:11,720
Speaker 1: you might as well just give it to me. Do

1075
01:00:11,800 --> 01:00:13,160
Speaker 1: what we're gonna do. You go your way, I go

1076
01:00:13,240 --> 01:00:15,400
Speaker 1: my way. But if I allow you to record that

1077
01:00:15,440 --> 01:00:20,560
Speaker 1: ship that you got your money back? Mm hmm. You

1078
01:00:20,600 --> 01:00:22,520
Speaker 1: see what I'm saying. You took you got your money

1079
01:00:22,560 --> 01:00:25,200
Speaker 1: back because now you're gonna make I don't care how

1080
01:00:25,280 --> 01:00:27,000
Speaker 1: many times have you put it up for twenty dollars,

1081
01:00:27,040 --> 01:00:29,800
Speaker 1: twenty dollars, twenty dollars, twenty dollars every time they hit

1082
01:00:29,840 --> 01:00:33,320
Speaker 1: you with that twenty You know what I'm saying, You're

1083
01:00:33,320 --> 01:00:35,960
Speaker 1: gonna get your money right back. Now. You're using my

1084
01:00:36,040 --> 01:00:38,720
Speaker 1: name to build Joe your You know I'm your catalog

1085
01:00:40,160 --> 01:00:43,000
Speaker 1: because you got that out of me. You played me

1086
01:00:43,040 --> 01:00:47,520
Speaker 1: then yeah, fatty mouth and no, so you might as

1087
01:00:47,560 --> 01:00:50,040
Speaker 1: well you better drop way more than that two thousand.

1088
01:00:50,520 --> 01:00:52,760
Speaker 1: You better come up, you know what I'm saying. So

1089
01:00:53,040 --> 01:00:54,720
Speaker 1: isn't it You know, you have to look at it

1090
01:00:54,800 --> 01:00:57,200
Speaker 1: in a in a business aspect. What's more worth it

1091
01:00:57,360 --> 01:00:59,520
Speaker 1: if I give that, if I do a class on that,

1092
01:00:59,640 --> 01:01:02,919
Speaker 1: and I'll bring these people, which in turn is costing

1093
01:01:02,960 --> 01:01:05,240
Speaker 1: me money because I gotta pay for their hotels. I

1094
01:01:05,280 --> 01:01:07,240
Speaker 1: gotta pay you know what I'm saying. I gotta pay

1095
01:01:07,240 --> 01:01:10,360
Speaker 1: for something to bring these people. But they're also willing

1096
01:01:10,400 --> 01:01:13,720
Speaker 1: to come to whatever city or state that I decided

1097
01:01:13,760 --> 01:01:16,040
Speaker 1: to do it in, whether it be my own, because

1098
01:01:16,120 --> 01:01:19,240
Speaker 1: guess what, they're going to see fresh faces and fresh talent,

1099
01:01:19,680 --> 01:01:22,840
Speaker 1: fresh needs, you know, especially the men that's in the industry.

1100
01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:28,120
Speaker 1: These as bitches who they would never otherwise see. So

1101
01:01:28,680 --> 01:01:31,120
Speaker 1: they're gonna get the content off of you. So now

1102
01:01:31,320 --> 01:01:34,200
Speaker 1: that person who is in the industry is going to

1103
01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:37,040
Speaker 1: post that ship on whatever they need to post it on,

1104
01:01:37,280 --> 01:01:40,960
Speaker 1: and they're going to tag you mm hmm. So there

1105
01:01:41,040 --> 01:01:43,600
Speaker 1: you go. Now they're getting the name out. Of course,

1106
01:01:43,600 --> 01:01:47,400
Speaker 1: you're sucking for free right, because you gotta suck your

1107
01:01:47,400 --> 01:01:50,520
Speaker 1: way to the top. It is what it is. But

1108
01:01:50,640 --> 01:01:54,840
Speaker 1: you have to funk with the mainstream people or the

1109
01:01:54,840 --> 01:02:00,160
Speaker 1: amateurs who have hit close to mainstream, who have have

1110
01:02:00,280 --> 01:02:10,280
Speaker 1: that opportunity. A random person can contact um Beverly or

1111
01:02:10,440 --> 01:02:13,360
Speaker 1: whoever whatever I'm just coming up with, any name. A

1112
01:02:13,480 --> 01:02:18,160
Speaker 1: random person can contact Mr Nutts. He's not gonna funk

1113
01:02:18,200 --> 01:02:20,840
Speaker 1: with you. He's not gonna funk with you. Who what

1114
01:02:20,880 --> 01:02:24,440
Speaker 1: do you do all for him? How can he benefit

1115
01:02:24,440 --> 01:02:27,880
Speaker 1: from you? Yeah, that's what I'm saying. He's not gonna

1116
01:02:27,880 --> 01:02:30,000
Speaker 1: fuck with you. First of all, you haven't built anything.

1117
01:02:30,400 --> 01:02:33,680
Speaker 1: You haven't there's no reason for him to fuck with you.

1118
01:02:33,720 --> 01:02:36,960
Speaker 1: He's gonna need someone who knows, someone who can say, oh,

1119
01:02:37,040 --> 01:02:39,960
Speaker 1: she's good, or she's good to work with, or he's good.

1120
01:02:40,000 --> 01:02:41,880
Speaker 1: For you to ring him in and you know what

1121
01:02:41,960 --> 01:02:44,240
Speaker 1: I'm saying, and for you to travel to where he's

1122
01:02:44,280 --> 01:02:46,400
Speaker 1: at and go from this place, because now he's going

1123
01:02:46,480 --> 01:02:50,080
Speaker 1: to help you build your name because he always needs fresh,

1124
01:02:50,200 --> 01:02:53,880
Speaker 1: fresh guys. But he's not gonna just take a fresh

1125
01:02:53,960 --> 01:02:58,720
Speaker 1: niggle off the corner the corner of my street. You

1126
01:02:58,760 --> 01:03:01,200
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Just because it's me and send

1127
01:03:01,240 --> 01:03:04,720
Speaker 1: him an email. No, he's going to need to see

1128
01:03:04,880 --> 01:03:09,480
Speaker 1: that you can shut the funk up. That is the

1129
01:03:09,560 --> 01:03:15,880
Speaker 1: biggest problem. Follow directions, be about your work ethic when

1130
01:03:15,920 --> 01:03:18,480
Speaker 1: you go. He's a type of man who he does

1131
01:03:18,600 --> 01:03:23,920
Speaker 1: weekend um uh shoots where they shoot the entire weekend

1132
01:03:24,000 --> 01:03:26,800
Speaker 1: or the entire week. Can you keep it up? Can

1133
01:03:26,840 --> 01:03:31,320
Speaker 1: your dick stay? Can you keep going that low? You

1134
01:03:31,360 --> 01:03:34,320
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Seriously, they will have like five

1135
01:03:34,400 --> 01:03:38,960
Speaker 1: or six girls and it'll be maybe three or four guys.

1136
01:03:40,080 --> 01:03:41,960
Speaker 1: Do you know how much fucking for a week that is.

1137
01:03:44,640 --> 01:03:46,920
Speaker 1: That's a lot. So you really people have to and

1138
01:03:46,920 --> 01:03:49,240
Speaker 1: shut the funk up and just do the job for him.

1139
01:03:49,480 --> 01:03:52,800
Speaker 1: He is very much on your work ethic. He don't

1140
01:03:52,840 --> 01:03:56,040
Speaker 1: mean he don't play no fucking gangs. I am supposed

1141
01:03:56,080 --> 01:03:59,720
Speaker 1: to be working with his company as well. You know

1142
01:03:59,760 --> 01:04:02,120
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I want to work with him. I

1143
01:04:02,120 --> 01:04:03,840
Speaker 1: ain't really read about the rest of them. I want

1144
01:04:03,840 --> 01:04:06,520
Speaker 1: to work with him. You know what I'm saying. I'm

1145
01:04:06,560 --> 01:04:10,680
Speaker 1: always about getting to the head. You know, the tail

1146
01:04:10,800 --> 01:04:13,560
Speaker 1: is fine, but I'd rather be at the head. Yeah

1147
01:04:14,440 --> 01:04:17,520
Speaker 1: it um, yeah, I want to get with the right people.

1148
01:04:19,040 --> 01:04:22,200
Speaker 1: Why of my mail listeners want to know if size matters,

1149
01:04:22,240 --> 01:04:28,360
Speaker 1: and if so, what do you prefer personally? M h

1150
01:04:29,200 --> 01:04:36,920
Speaker 1: side the I don't giant dicks. I ain't crazy about that.

1151
01:04:36,960 --> 01:04:39,320
Speaker 1: I mean, I like a pretty dick. It's a big difference.

1152
01:04:39,360 --> 01:04:43,600
Speaker 1: But some dicks is just good to look at. Mm hmmm.

1153
01:04:44,560 --> 01:04:50,680
Speaker 1: They ain't good to go in. Yeah, some dicks hurt

1154
01:04:50,840 --> 01:04:52,919
Speaker 1: like I want to. I wanna hurt, but I'm wanna

1155
01:04:53,000 --> 01:04:56,320
Speaker 1: hurt good. And it isn't just like if your dick

1156
01:04:56,400 --> 01:04:58,160
Speaker 1: is two inches, I don't know what. That's the same

1157
01:04:58,200 --> 01:05:00,440
Speaker 1: size as my clip about an inch, you know what

1158
01:05:00,440 --> 01:05:01,920
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So we ain't gonna be able to do

1159
01:05:02,040 --> 01:05:04,880
Speaker 1: much together. You know what I'm saying. I have a

1160
01:05:04,920 --> 01:05:07,920
Speaker 1: small pussy. So the pain that people here when I

1161
01:05:07,960 --> 01:05:10,240
Speaker 1: act when I'm not even acting, that's the true thing.

1162
01:05:11,440 --> 01:05:14,840
Speaker 1: I am small, and I'm sure you know what I'm saying.

1163
01:05:14,880 --> 01:05:17,080
Speaker 1: I'm not dee. So you definitely hit the back quick,

1164
01:05:17,120 --> 01:05:21,400
Speaker 1: so it doesn't have to be like, yeah you you

1165
01:05:21,680 --> 01:05:25,960
Speaker 1: definitely My doctor. Recently I went to g y N

1166
01:05:25,960 --> 01:05:27,840
Speaker 1: and he said, what the fux get the shit out

1167
01:05:27,880 --> 01:05:34,160
Speaker 1: of me. So, but I'm not into you. Gotta please

1168
01:05:34,280 --> 01:05:39,280
Speaker 1: at least six at least six. I mean, but you

1169
01:05:39,360 --> 01:05:42,120
Speaker 1: know what, it's not always the length, it's you know,

1170
01:05:42,280 --> 01:05:45,120
Speaker 1: the motion. What can the dude do because if your

1171
01:05:45,160 --> 01:05:46,920
Speaker 1: dick ain't if you know that your dick game and

1172
01:05:46,960 --> 01:05:51,080
Speaker 1: all that, please be a master chef with that tongue.

1173
01:05:53,040 --> 01:05:55,560
Speaker 1: When I tell you, I don't even care about the dick.

1174
01:05:55,600 --> 01:05:59,160
Speaker 1: If that motherfucking tongue listen, I just said I almost

1175
01:05:59,160 --> 01:06:04,280
Speaker 1: had a stroke. If you can do that with that

1176
01:06:04,440 --> 01:06:07,760
Speaker 1: mouth and you take directions, directions is everything for me.

1177
01:06:08,080 --> 01:06:10,000
Speaker 1: I just need you to work on this clip, funk

1178
01:06:10,040 --> 01:06:12,120
Speaker 1: all that stick in your tongue in the hole and

1179
01:06:12,200 --> 01:06:18,720
Speaker 1: doing not just work on the clip right, follow directions.

1180
01:06:19,000 --> 01:06:23,560
Speaker 1: Every woman don't like the tongue in thee. For me,

1181
01:06:23,640 --> 01:06:26,600
Speaker 1: it doesn't do anything for me. Some women enjoy it,

1182
01:06:26,640 --> 01:06:29,480
Speaker 1: but for me, you don't have to have no damn

1183
01:06:29,520 --> 01:06:32,440
Speaker 1: ten dick. For me, that's not attractive. A lot of

1184
01:06:32,480 --> 01:06:34,040
Speaker 1: people who got big this don't even know what to

1185
01:06:34,040 --> 01:06:41,120
Speaker 1: do with it. Thank you, my ex child. You used

1186
01:06:41,160 --> 01:06:43,280
Speaker 1: to know. I don't know what happened. That's why I

1187
01:06:43,400 --> 01:06:45,280
Speaker 1: left that bench alone. I don't know what happened that

1188
01:06:45,360 --> 01:06:48,280
Speaker 1: nigga came home and didn't know what to do and

1189
01:06:48,440 --> 01:06:51,400
Speaker 1: I'm single, y'all heard that. But I don't have to

1190
01:06:51,400 --> 01:06:54,520
Speaker 1: pay her because she ain't cheat. I don't know, you

1191
01:06:54,640 --> 01:06:58,160
Speaker 1: know what I have gotten to this this thing where yeah,

1192
01:06:58,200 --> 01:07:02,840
Speaker 1: I want my money, but I feel like right now

1193
01:07:04,880 --> 01:07:07,400
Speaker 1: I want I kind of like want a relationship. I

1194
01:07:07,400 --> 01:07:09,320
Speaker 1: don't know why, but I want some money too. You

1195
01:07:09,400 --> 01:07:12,160
Speaker 1: can't be a broke motherfucker, you know what I'm saying.

1196
01:07:12,600 --> 01:07:15,080
Speaker 1: I like, I want to be courted and stuff. I

1197
01:07:15,120 --> 01:07:18,320
Speaker 1: agree asked that question on social media about the courting

1198
01:07:18,920 --> 01:07:22,920
Speaker 1: due men court anymore? You know what I'm saying. I

1199
01:07:22,960 --> 01:07:25,000
Speaker 1: don't know. And you have to be an understanding man

1200
01:07:25,080 --> 01:07:29,200
Speaker 1: to who I am. You know, if you take me out,

1201
01:07:30,240 --> 01:07:31,920
Speaker 1: you want me to dress up. You don't want me

1202
01:07:31,960 --> 01:07:33,960
Speaker 1: to wear that scarff in the long T shirt and

1203
01:07:33,960 --> 01:07:37,720
Speaker 1: the younger ends right. So if I'm a coming there

1204
01:07:38,600 --> 01:07:40,600
Speaker 1: and I don't put the makeup on, you never know

1205
01:07:40,640 --> 01:07:43,840
Speaker 1: who may see me or be looking right, you know

1206
01:07:43,920 --> 01:07:47,720
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But in my city, they're just gonna

1207
01:07:47,720 --> 01:07:50,120
Speaker 1: look in mind their business, you know what I'm saying.

1208
01:07:50,120 --> 01:07:53,080
Speaker 1: But in other cities they may look and say something.

1209
01:07:53,240 --> 01:07:55,880
Speaker 1: You mean, you have to be understanding man to who

1210
01:07:55,960 --> 01:07:58,120
Speaker 1: I am. And then in some places people don't say

1211
01:07:58,120 --> 01:08:02,880
Speaker 1: absolutely nothing, you know, so, I mean you gotta be

1212
01:08:02,920 --> 01:08:04,920
Speaker 1: half some money. You can't be broken. I'm When I

1213
01:08:04,920 --> 01:08:07,600
Speaker 1: say broke, I mean I'm sorry. If all you do

1214
01:08:07,640 --> 01:08:11,120
Speaker 1: is collect bottles, eat your song, that's your hustle. But

1215
01:08:11,200 --> 01:08:13,400
Speaker 1: you better collect a whole lot of the motherfucker's if

1216
01:08:13,400 --> 01:08:16,120
Speaker 1: you want to take me out. I don't expect I need,

1217
01:08:16,240 --> 01:08:19,479
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying to to to to only

1218
01:08:19,520 --> 01:08:21,960
Speaker 1: be able to get a quarter of a piece of chicken.

1219
01:08:22,439 --> 01:08:24,719
Speaker 1: You understand, I'm a big girl. I mean, I ain't

1220
01:08:24,720 --> 01:08:27,280
Speaker 1: greedy all the time, but I might be greedy that day.

1221
01:08:27,720 --> 01:08:30,040
Speaker 1: You know. I want. I want a man who want

1222
01:08:30,080 --> 01:08:32,280
Speaker 1: to court me, who want to do things. You know

1223
01:08:32,280 --> 01:08:35,680
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, not just be I'm not coming to

1224
01:08:35,800 --> 01:08:38,920
Speaker 1: your house to netflix and chill, take care of you,

1225
01:08:39,160 --> 01:08:43,280
Speaker 1: and I want to be treated like any other woman,

1226
01:08:43,479 --> 01:08:47,280
Speaker 1: not because in the industry. I want to be wined

1227
01:08:47,360 --> 01:08:49,519
Speaker 1: and dying. Your damn right now. I ain't talking about

1228
01:08:49,520 --> 01:08:51,280
Speaker 1: sitting my ass up on your plate so you can

1229
01:08:51,320 --> 01:08:53,960
Speaker 1: eat me out. You just might not get no sex

1230
01:08:54,080 --> 01:08:59,519
Speaker 1: that day because I'm not. I'm not as easy as

1231
01:09:00,160 --> 01:09:02,719
Speaker 1: on the fucking thing. I'm not as easy as people

1232
01:09:03,000 --> 01:09:07,240
Speaker 1: be the misconception once again, I ain't I ain't horny

1233
01:09:07,800 --> 01:09:10,680
Speaker 1: mm hmm. Just because you're cute don't mean I want

1234
01:09:10,680 --> 01:09:14,040
Speaker 1: to fuck you right, And I don't want to see

1235
01:09:14,040 --> 01:09:16,080
Speaker 1: that at the table talking about the length of your

1236
01:09:16,120 --> 01:09:19,360
Speaker 1: dick because the niggas and I men, you men lie

1237
01:09:19,439 --> 01:09:23,280
Speaker 1: on your dick all time, you know what I'm saying.

1238
01:09:23,320 --> 01:09:25,559
Speaker 1: And then again, you just might be a motherfucker who

1239
01:09:25,600 --> 01:09:28,479
Speaker 1: I just want to funk. But I'm gonna tell you

1240
01:09:28,520 --> 01:09:31,600
Speaker 1: I'm hired to get bitch. I'm serious, and there's a

1241
01:09:31,640 --> 01:09:33,960
Speaker 1: lot of my fucker's who You can say, you have

1242
01:09:34,240 --> 01:09:37,000
Speaker 1: all this money and I still won't suck you. I

1243
01:09:37,160 --> 01:09:38,840
Speaker 1: have a lot of issues with a lot of people

1244
01:09:39,040 --> 01:09:42,679
Speaker 1: that I don't know that because I won't just money

1245
01:09:42,720 --> 01:09:47,719
Speaker 1: Like money is nice, that's it. Money is a plus.

1246
01:09:47,920 --> 01:09:51,080
Speaker 1: But if you're courting me money, you're definitely gonna have

1247
01:09:51,120 --> 01:09:53,320
Speaker 1: to have something going for yourself. I don't mind you

1248
01:09:53,360 --> 01:09:55,960
Speaker 1: being a working man. Hell I work. You know what

1249
01:09:56,000 --> 01:09:59,160
Speaker 1: I'm saying. How can I judge? But you gonna need

1250
01:09:59,320 --> 01:10:02,479
Speaker 1: to have something going for yourself. I don't like men

1251
01:10:02,520 --> 01:10:04,600
Speaker 1: with a bunch of kids. Sorry, it is what it is.

1252
01:10:04,640 --> 01:10:06,760
Speaker 1: I got three of my own, but they're grown, you

1253
01:10:06,800 --> 01:10:10,080
Speaker 1: know what, just about grown. So at the end of

1254
01:10:10,120 --> 01:10:11,960
Speaker 1: the day, I don't like if you got a baby

1255
01:10:11,960 --> 01:10:14,559
Speaker 1: one years old, No sinse to contact me and think

1256
01:10:14,560 --> 01:10:16,799
Speaker 1: that I'm gonna be in any type of anything serious

1257
01:10:16,800 --> 01:10:18,479
Speaker 1: with you because you've got baby mama drama and I'm

1258
01:10:18,520 --> 01:10:23,160
Speaker 1: not going for it. I don't need any more. I

1259
01:10:23,200 --> 01:10:26,559
Speaker 1: don't need to have a uh be fucking your bitch up.

1260
01:10:27,040 --> 01:10:28,880
Speaker 1: I don't need to touch a bitch and you too,

1261
01:10:29,960 --> 01:10:34,920
Speaker 1: I don't want to. Yeah, I don't want to be

1262
01:10:34,960 --> 01:10:37,679
Speaker 1: involved with stuff like that. If you got five kids

1263
01:10:37,720 --> 01:10:43,880
Speaker 1: and sorry, I'm not that one, but they're gonna have

1264
01:10:43,960 --> 01:10:50,840
Speaker 1: to that not sixteen, not because it's gonna be a

1265
01:10:50,840 --> 01:10:52,880
Speaker 1: problem when I want to spend time. You see what

1266
01:10:52,920 --> 01:10:57,560
Speaker 1: I'm saying, You ain't able to you know what I'm

1267
01:10:57,600 --> 01:10:59,839
Speaker 1: It's just you gotta go take them to the football

1268
01:11:00,080 --> 01:11:03,439
Speaker 1: game and the basketball. You gotta pick him up from school.

1269
01:11:03,760 --> 01:11:06,439
Speaker 1: Let that motherfuck listen. If your kid, you better have

1270
01:11:06,479 --> 01:11:14,559
Speaker 1: a year old. If that's the case, I don't want

1271
01:11:14,560 --> 01:11:16,839
Speaker 1: to have to be fighting with a person for attention

1272
01:11:17,120 --> 01:11:20,400
Speaker 1: from you. You know what I'm saying. Everyone has a past,

1273
01:11:20,800 --> 01:11:22,680
Speaker 1: but I don't want to have to fight with you

1274
01:11:22,760 --> 01:11:24,880
Speaker 1: for that. I don't want to fight and argue with

1275
01:11:24,960 --> 01:11:27,559
Speaker 1: your baby mother because she's jealous. And then she starts

1276
01:11:27,640 --> 01:11:30,479
Speaker 1: bringing up, oh, you funk with a porn star. You

1277
01:11:30,520 --> 01:11:34,000
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, because somebody told her, because somebody's

1278
01:11:34,000 --> 01:11:37,000
Speaker 1: gonna tell her. I don't want to have the issue

1279
01:11:37,560 --> 01:11:41,200
Speaker 1: with your parents because I'm gonna be me. I can't

1280
01:11:41,200 --> 01:11:44,400
Speaker 1: get rid of who I am. But that's just part

1281
01:11:44,479 --> 01:11:51,920
Speaker 1: of me. That's about my future relationship. Like I need

1282
01:11:51,960 --> 01:11:55,240
Speaker 1: to be with somebody that accepts me for who I am. Like,

1283
01:11:55,560 --> 01:11:57,960
Speaker 1: let me be in my space. Don't expect me to

1284
01:11:58,000 --> 01:12:00,679
Speaker 1: be one way because I'm not one way. Like that's

1285
01:12:00,720 --> 01:12:03,439
Speaker 1: a really big thing for me. Yeah, and that's what

1286
01:12:03,479 --> 01:12:06,360
Speaker 1: I try to explain me this. It's not everything, It's

1287
01:12:06,400 --> 01:12:09,360
Speaker 1: not all I am. I have a regular little bullshit jobs.

1288
01:12:09,400 --> 01:12:11,320
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I still work. I don't

1289
01:12:11,320 --> 01:12:13,519
Speaker 1: go to work talking about telling my my boss don't

1290
01:12:13,560 --> 01:12:15,880
Speaker 1: know I'm in the industry, you know what I'm saying.

1291
01:12:15,920 --> 01:12:21,240
Speaker 1: They have no ideas. I have to two people, two

1292
01:12:21,280 --> 01:12:26,120
Speaker 1: co workers that know, and they're actually they're gay. M hmm.

1293
01:12:26,760 --> 01:12:31,200
Speaker 1: But you're saying one is um he dressed up you

1294
01:12:31,240 --> 01:12:34,960
Speaker 1: know what you call it? Um, he do the you know,

1295
01:12:35,120 --> 01:12:40,280
Speaker 1: the the show, Yeah, drag shows he does. Don't you know?

1296
01:12:40,479 --> 01:12:43,280
Speaker 1: Nobody would never know that. I wouldn't have never knew

1297
01:12:43,320 --> 01:12:45,439
Speaker 1: that if we didn't have that conversation and he showed

1298
01:12:45,479 --> 01:12:48,960
Speaker 1: me his starts showing me pictures. I was like, oh,

1299
01:12:49,040 --> 01:12:51,280
Speaker 1: so that's what made me want to clean. You know

1300
01:12:51,280 --> 01:12:54,439
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, any other one is actually YouTube famous,

1301
01:12:55,760 --> 01:13:01,040
Speaker 1: but supervisors doesn't know that. You know what I mean? Yo,

1302
01:13:01,200 --> 01:13:05,080
Speaker 1: that's what I'm saying. My business my business, But because

1303
01:13:06,040 --> 01:13:09,120
Speaker 1: trust me, for motherfucker's see me fucking on porn. They've

1304
01:13:09,120 --> 01:13:12,519
Speaker 1: been watching me. If they could come up and tell

1305
01:13:12,600 --> 01:13:17,560
Speaker 1: you this, I'm sorry, my dog playing with her toys. Um,

1306
01:13:17,600 --> 01:13:22,400
Speaker 1: if if they can come up and see and tell you, oh,

1307
01:13:22,520 --> 01:13:24,960
Speaker 1: she's a porn star, trust me, that bitch or that man,

1308
01:13:25,200 --> 01:13:27,720
Speaker 1: Donna sat there and watched every fucking watched it to

1309
01:13:27,840 --> 01:13:30,840
Speaker 1: the end. Mm hmm. You know what I'm saying. And

1310
01:13:30,880 --> 01:13:35,040
Speaker 1: they're going to practice some positions too. Well. I know

1311
01:13:35,080 --> 01:13:37,280
Speaker 1: that you k is a lot of fetishes. Why do

1312
01:13:37,320 --> 01:13:40,680
Speaker 1: you think that's the stigma with that? What do you

1313
01:13:40,680 --> 01:13:43,920
Speaker 1: mean every it's being a big girl? No stigma with

1314
01:13:43,960 --> 01:13:46,120
Speaker 1: this fashions. Like a lot of people are not accepting

1315
01:13:46,160 --> 01:13:53,519
Speaker 1: of people having fetishes. Everybody has a fetish. Everybody has

1316
01:13:53,520 --> 01:13:56,040
Speaker 1: a fetish. A fetish can be from calling your hair

1317
01:13:56,200 --> 01:14:03,760
Speaker 1: to um, it's a lot of fire. See see this

1318
01:14:03,800 --> 01:14:05,920
Speaker 1: one is chasing me around the room. I had to

1319
01:14:05,960 --> 01:14:10,280
Speaker 1: get up. Uh. Fetish is coming so many different forms,

1320
01:14:10,439 --> 01:14:12,919
Speaker 1: you know. And people can say they don't have fetishes,

1321
01:14:13,000 --> 01:14:15,360
Speaker 1: but they do. You got motherfucker's dudes who like to

1322
01:14:15,360 --> 01:14:18,160
Speaker 1: watch the bitches with big booties walk through the grocery store.

1323
01:14:18,280 --> 01:14:23,240
Speaker 1: That's a fetish. Monfucker's who like women calves the back

1324
01:14:23,280 --> 01:14:25,920
Speaker 1: of their legs, their calves. They like to see a

1325
01:14:26,000 --> 01:14:30,280
Speaker 1: woman in heels. That's a fetish. Motherfucker who like to

1326
01:14:30,320 --> 01:14:34,280
Speaker 1: see bitches smoked cigarettes. I'm not into smoking, but I'll

1327
01:14:34,280 --> 01:14:42,559
Speaker 1: do it if you pay me. Um. Don't even know how,

1328
01:14:42,680 --> 01:14:46,280
Speaker 1: but I'll do it if you pay me. Um. You know,

1329
01:14:46,479 --> 01:14:48,880
Speaker 1: people like to like I said, run their hands stood.

1330
01:14:49,040 --> 01:14:52,759
Speaker 1: And here you've got people who got a thing for um,

1331
01:14:52,800 --> 01:14:58,559
Speaker 1: what do you call it? Balloons? The balloons. People who

1332
01:14:58,600 --> 01:15:01,720
Speaker 1: have a thing for balloon They like to see a

1333
01:15:01,880 --> 01:15:05,559
Speaker 1: woman bust balloons. It's crazy, but it happens, Like sit

1334
01:15:05,600 --> 01:15:08,679
Speaker 1: on balloons you got, people like to watch you put lipstick.

1335
01:15:08,720 --> 01:15:11,559
Speaker 1: But I mean, everybody has something that turns them on.

1336
01:15:12,160 --> 01:15:15,840
Speaker 1: You know, shit, I like pretty dicks. If you're dick

1337
01:15:15,960 --> 01:15:18,200
Speaker 1: is pretty, I like to look at it. But that

1338
01:15:18,280 --> 01:15:19,960
Speaker 1: don't mean don't start sending me a bunch of dick

1339
01:15:20,000 --> 01:15:26,479
Speaker 1: pictures pretty dick, yes, ain't too many. I don't like

1340
01:15:26,479 --> 01:15:28,960
Speaker 1: like dicks with a bunch of veins, and I do

1341
01:15:29,080 --> 01:15:32,599
Speaker 1: appreciate a pretty dick. I even hold you up. Yeah,

1342
01:15:33,000 --> 01:15:36,960
Speaker 1: especially a right because some of y'all dicks is not cute.

1343
01:15:37,000 --> 01:15:39,519
Speaker 1: That motherfucker's is ugly as hell. They just might feel

1344
01:15:39,840 --> 01:15:43,679
Speaker 1: it's like nice and smooth, and that's what I'm talking about.

1345
01:15:44,160 --> 01:15:46,640
Speaker 1: I know only I only know one man with a

1346
01:15:46,640 --> 01:15:50,479
Speaker 1: pretty dick. Now. I dropped my drawers from him whenever

1347
01:15:51,120 --> 01:15:52,680
Speaker 1: I had to turn some pretty dicks down because it

1348
01:15:52,800 --> 01:15:55,840
Speaker 1: pretty discolor headache. This is only pretty only no one

1349
01:15:55,840 --> 01:15:58,400
Speaker 1: man with a pretty dick. A lot of this motherfucker's

1350
01:15:58,439 --> 01:16:02,120
Speaker 1: look and he sucks. He sucks. That's in my personal life.

1351
01:16:02,120 --> 01:16:04,360
Speaker 1: But I haven't been seeing him, lady. We always missing

1352
01:16:04,360 --> 01:16:06,960
Speaker 1: each other when he'd be sending me messages. You know

1353
01:16:07,000 --> 01:16:10,040
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Text messages but when I get a chance,

1354
01:16:10,080 --> 01:16:19,240
Speaker 1: I'll be on that day. What are your thoughts on pagging? Oh,

1355
01:16:19,320 --> 01:16:21,960
Speaker 1: strap one girl, I got some of those two because

1356
01:16:21,960 --> 01:16:24,840
Speaker 1: I know a lot of niggas like to get paged. Now, Yeah,

1357
01:16:24,880 --> 01:16:29,240
Speaker 1: it's a whole bunch, Yes it is. I started thinking

1358
01:16:29,240 --> 01:16:31,479
Speaker 1: that about the little boy who I was riding his

1359
01:16:31,560 --> 01:16:35,920
Speaker 1: fage child. I started thinking that because but I'm going

1360
01:16:36,000 --> 01:16:38,360
Speaker 1: to go give him some oral he's doing sixty nine.

1361
01:16:38,400 --> 01:16:40,840
Speaker 1: Of course, I was on that face and he put

1362
01:16:40,960 --> 01:16:44,360
Speaker 1: his legs up like you know, I was licking on

1363
01:16:44,400 --> 01:16:47,040
Speaker 1: the balls or whatever he put his leg He's like, oh,

1364
01:16:47,080 --> 01:16:55,639
Speaker 1: I like, nigga, ain't going no feather than the balls.

1365
01:16:55,760 --> 01:16:59,320
Speaker 1: I don't lick assholes. I just not mind thing. No,

1366
01:16:59,600 --> 01:17:03,040
Speaker 1: men ain't. Men ain't that clean? You know what I'm saying.

1367
01:17:03,080 --> 01:17:05,600
Speaker 1: They don't. They don't wipe right, I'm not. I'm just

1368
01:17:05,840 --> 01:17:08,040
Speaker 1: I don't. Even I'm a woman, I wouldn't. That's just

1369
01:17:08,160 --> 01:17:11,080
Speaker 1: not my forte. But if you want to do it

1370
01:17:11,120 --> 01:17:13,080
Speaker 1: to me, that's fine, because I know I'm washing like

1371
01:17:13,080 --> 01:17:14,800
Speaker 1: a motherfucker. I washed so hard I'm be trying to

1372
01:17:14,800 --> 01:17:16,880
Speaker 1: take the skin off, you know what I'm saying. So

1373
01:17:18,560 --> 01:17:22,000
Speaker 1: but there, I know a lot of guys. I have

1374
01:17:22,120 --> 01:17:24,360
Speaker 1: a client's. Yeah, I got a couple of a couple

1375
01:17:24,360 --> 01:17:26,280
Speaker 1: of different types of clients. But I have a client

1376
01:17:26,360 --> 01:17:28,720
Speaker 1: who I foxed the ship out of his. As a

1377
01:17:28,760 --> 01:17:32,200
Speaker 1: matter of fact, he bought this strap on is so

1378
01:17:32,400 --> 01:17:37,000
Speaker 1: fucking bad because the one, the one that I had

1379
01:17:37,040 --> 01:17:39,400
Speaker 1: already and I was using on him, was like eight inches.

1380
01:17:39,720 --> 01:17:42,120
Speaker 1: And he came pick me up and was like, let's

1381
01:17:42,160 --> 01:17:44,880
Speaker 1: go to the toy store. He had been saying because

1382
01:17:44,880 --> 01:17:48,679
Speaker 1: he was since he was swallowing up his ass swallowing there.

1383
01:17:51,160 --> 01:17:54,240
Speaker 1: And I said, well, somebody must be going up, you know,

1384
01:17:55,400 --> 01:17:58,640
Speaker 1: to see me. It wasn't it was too loose. And

1385
01:17:58,640 --> 01:18:01,080
Speaker 1: then he gets to the point that I stop, even

1386
01:18:01,160 --> 01:18:03,280
Speaker 1: with the strap. I just take the belt, take it

1387
01:18:03,360 --> 01:18:05,800
Speaker 1: off the strap, you know, off the belt, and just

1388
01:18:05,920 --> 01:18:08,040
Speaker 1: leave it. And he'd be like sitting on the motherfucker

1389
01:18:08,040 --> 01:18:13,080
Speaker 1: on the floor, you know, he'd be sitting on it

1390
01:18:13,200 --> 01:18:15,160
Speaker 1: like that. So and then we went and we bought

1391
01:18:15,160 --> 01:18:17,639
Speaker 1: a bigger one, and he about taking that to them.

1392
01:18:17,840 --> 01:18:20,960
Speaker 1: So I don't know what else I can get. But

1393
01:18:21,240 --> 01:18:23,840
Speaker 1: you know, if there's a lot of men and I

1394
01:18:23,920 --> 01:18:27,439
Speaker 1: don't feel like they're gay, you know, you can tell

1395
01:18:27,560 --> 01:18:32,080
Speaker 1: if they're fucking with men. Some guys just like you know,

1396
01:18:32,240 --> 01:18:35,120
Speaker 1: it's also depending on Now, if this a man who

1397
01:18:35,120 --> 01:18:37,679
Speaker 1: wants to do that ship all the time, that's what

1398
01:18:37,720 --> 01:18:39,920
Speaker 1: it is. I can't meet myself. I can't fuck you

1399
01:18:40,640 --> 01:18:44,479
Speaker 1: like regular fuck beg they success after I use the

1400
01:18:44,520 --> 01:18:48,040
Speaker 1: strap on it. I can't. I'm not comfortable with it.

1401
01:18:48,840 --> 01:18:50,880
Speaker 1: I'm not because I'm thinking all types of ship. You

1402
01:18:50,920 --> 01:18:53,360
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But that's just me. Some women

1403
01:18:53,760 --> 01:18:57,160
Speaker 1: can do that, you know, fuck you afterwords or whatever.

1404
01:18:57,640 --> 01:19:00,200
Speaker 1: I can't. I let you eat my pussy baby. But

1405
01:19:00,280 --> 01:19:03,760
Speaker 1: then again, I still be thinking. You don't know. I'll

1406
01:19:03,760 --> 01:19:06,680
Speaker 1: be through my mind gets to wondering, and you know,

1407
01:19:07,000 --> 01:19:10,920
Speaker 1: if that's all he wanted, he just wanna fuck me

1408
01:19:10,960 --> 01:19:14,400
Speaker 1: in my ask first. Now you know what, Sometimes some

1409
01:19:14,520 --> 01:19:20,240
Speaker 1: guys look at the fact of um when you stick

1410
01:19:20,280 --> 01:19:24,599
Speaker 1: your finger in there and you give them a prostate massage. Now,

1411
01:19:25,120 --> 01:19:28,280
Speaker 1: I know a lot a lot of men who like that,

1412
01:19:28,439 --> 01:19:30,240
Speaker 1: but they don't go all the way like a strap

1413
01:19:30,280 --> 01:19:32,560
Speaker 1: on or anything. And I'll break a nail off in

1414
01:19:32,600 --> 01:19:34,280
Speaker 1: the heart beat, put them gloves on, and give your

1415
01:19:34,280 --> 01:19:36,400
Speaker 1: prostate a prostate massage as long as you gave me

1416
01:19:36,439 --> 01:19:38,160
Speaker 1: enough money. Way more than enough to go get the

1417
01:19:38,200 --> 01:19:40,640
Speaker 1: whole you know, all my ships done correctly, you know

1418
01:19:40,680 --> 01:19:45,800
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Because I'm gonna need all these fingers done.

1419
01:19:46,120 --> 01:19:48,120
Speaker 1: We ain't talking about fitted out, Lizzie. I'm gonna need

1420
01:19:48,200 --> 01:19:50,240
Speaker 1: all this ship done. If he got to get I'm

1421
01:19:50,240 --> 01:19:53,639
Speaker 1: going for I'm not gonna finger you know what I'm saying.

1422
01:19:53,680 --> 01:19:58,640
Speaker 1: But I break this nail off in the heart. But

1423
01:19:58,720 --> 01:20:03,320
Speaker 1: there's men who like prostate massages. And I've talked to

1424
01:20:03,880 --> 01:20:06,559
Speaker 1: other men who aren't into any of those type of things,

1425
01:20:06,560 --> 01:20:08,559
Speaker 1: you know, friends, and they'd be like, oh, that's gay.

1426
01:20:08,960 --> 01:20:12,679
Speaker 1: It's not gay because doctors do the prostate massage. Why

1427
01:20:12,680 --> 01:20:15,040
Speaker 1: I didn't do it? You know what I'm saying. I

1428
01:20:15,120 --> 01:20:18,519
Speaker 1: am there. It's men who I know who have came

1429
01:20:18,560 --> 01:20:22,960
Speaker 1: to me and thought they had a sexual disfunction, But

1430
01:20:23,240 --> 01:20:26,040
Speaker 1: they always get a goddamn nut when they come around me.

1431
01:20:26,200 --> 01:20:27,840
Speaker 1: They go to the doctors. They're getting a nutge to

1432
01:20:30,200 --> 01:20:33,519
Speaker 1: the doctors sticking a finger in your ass and he

1433
01:20:33,680 --> 01:20:37,160
Speaker 1: rubbing your prostate, and the doctors also jerking your dick

1434
01:20:37,240 --> 01:20:42,240
Speaker 1: to see if you will come you get an you know,

1435
01:20:42,400 --> 01:20:47,120
Speaker 1: an erection onto that. So what is the difference, you know?

1436
01:20:47,720 --> 01:20:51,160
Speaker 1: And some men, especially older men. A lot of older men,

1437
01:20:51,280 --> 01:20:55,760
Speaker 1: like you know, I've had older men who wanted the

1438
01:20:55,800 --> 01:21:02,840
Speaker 1: prostate massage but wanted oral at the thing. I didn't

1439
01:21:02,880 --> 01:21:04,719
Speaker 1: have problem with it. You know, we got a condom

1440
01:21:04,720 --> 01:21:08,400
Speaker 1: on that motherfucker is nothing. I don't give a fuck. Well,

1441
01:21:08,640 --> 01:21:10,880
Speaker 1: well last least, And I feel like I know the

1442
01:21:10,920 --> 01:21:13,120
Speaker 1: answer to this. Are you still having fun with this?

1443
01:21:13,360 --> 01:21:15,919
Speaker 1: Because I feel like you're still enjoying yourself in the industry.

1444
01:21:18,880 --> 01:21:23,559
Speaker 1: I am if I could right now. It's Corona not playing.

1445
01:21:23,800 --> 01:21:26,040
Speaker 1: I still you know what, I love my friends in

1446
01:21:26,040 --> 01:21:29,519
Speaker 1: the industry, I really were the people who I work with,

1447
01:21:29,800 --> 01:21:32,280
Speaker 1: the people I'm around in the industry. I mean, I

1448
01:21:32,280 --> 01:21:34,680
Speaker 1: got a couple of motherfucker's I don't like, but you

1449
01:21:34,720 --> 01:21:36,519
Speaker 1: know what I mean, they noticed state of distance away

1450
01:21:36,560 --> 01:21:39,000
Speaker 1: from me. We don't present that in front of everyone,

1451
01:21:39,400 --> 01:21:43,280
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But for the most part,

1452
01:21:43,560 --> 01:21:46,360
Speaker 1: I don't have I don't feel like I have a

1453
01:21:46,400 --> 01:21:51,240
Speaker 1: lot in common with regular people, you know what I'm saying,

1454
01:21:51,240 --> 01:21:58,479
Speaker 1: because I can't share everything with you know, I at work, Yeah,

1455
01:21:58,520 --> 01:22:01,800
Speaker 1: I can't share that. On part, the fun things that

1456
01:22:02,120 --> 01:22:07,320
Speaker 1: I do, I can't share those, you know, with people

1457
01:22:07,360 --> 01:22:11,960
Speaker 1: to understand. Yeah, and it's only certain certain people who

1458
01:22:12,240 --> 01:22:14,680
Speaker 1: accept it. You know, you have to be a lot

1459
01:22:14,720 --> 01:22:17,719
Speaker 1: of times a sexual person to be able to understand.

1460
01:22:17,760 --> 01:22:20,320
Speaker 1: And I'm I'm always flirting, you know what I'm saying,

1461
01:22:20,360 --> 01:22:22,080
Speaker 1: But at work, I don't do that, you know what

1462
01:22:22,080 --> 01:22:25,000
Speaker 1: I'm saying. I'm like the mother at work, you know,

1463
01:22:26,240 --> 01:22:29,880
Speaker 1: like everybody's MoMA. So it's kind of different. That's my life.

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01:22:29,920 --> 01:22:32,519
Speaker 1: I go to work and I come home. That's my life.

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01:22:32,880 --> 01:22:36,720
Speaker 1: Especially right now. You know, I'm getting to do I

1466
01:22:36,760 --> 01:22:39,120
Speaker 1: don't know exactly what date, but if we will, there

1467
01:22:39,120 --> 01:22:42,080
Speaker 1: will be a lot of behind the scenes stuff going on,

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01:22:42,400 --> 01:22:46,080
Speaker 1: you know. So it's gonna first the photo shoot. I

1469
01:22:46,080 --> 01:22:48,040
Speaker 1: don't know where it will lead to after that, probably

1470
01:22:48,080 --> 01:22:50,880
Speaker 1: some solo stuff or whatever, you know. But this is

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01:22:51,040 --> 01:22:54,080
Speaker 1: a photographer in my city who has been asking me

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01:22:54,200 --> 01:22:58,200
Speaker 1: to shoot for him for a while. He's another one

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01:22:58,240 --> 01:23:02,120
Speaker 1: who has recently asked me if I would um do

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01:23:02,200 --> 01:23:04,880
Speaker 1: some porn, could he shoot some of my porn? And

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01:23:04,880 --> 01:23:07,000
Speaker 1: I kind of got turned away from it because I

1476
01:23:07,040 --> 01:23:08,479
Speaker 1: felt like he was just trying to, you know what

1477
01:23:08,479 --> 01:23:11,679
Speaker 1: I mean, use me at the time. You know, Let's

1478
01:23:11,680 --> 01:23:13,880
Speaker 1: first do this photo shoot and see where it goes.

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01:23:13,920 --> 01:23:16,519
Speaker 1: I want to see King you filel directions, motherfucker, and

1480
01:23:16,600 --> 01:23:23,200
Speaker 1: you the photographer. I get offended because all I want

1481
01:23:23,240 --> 01:23:25,240
Speaker 1: you to do is do this, that and the other

1482
01:23:25,760 --> 01:23:28,440
Speaker 1: and then let's build our You got to build a relationship.

1483
01:23:29,920 --> 01:23:33,160
Speaker 1: So but back to what you asked, Yes, I still

1484
01:23:33,320 --> 01:23:37,400
Speaker 1: enjoy the industry. There are times after the sex that

1485
01:23:37,479 --> 01:23:42,519
Speaker 1: we have some of the best fun. Our parties, you

1486
01:23:42,520 --> 01:23:45,519
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, especially us colored, US black and

1487
01:23:45,600 --> 01:23:48,160
Speaker 1: brown people. You know what I'm saying, our parties be

1488
01:23:48,640 --> 01:23:53,879
Speaker 1: live and be live. It isn't no beef and no arguing,

1489
01:23:53,960 --> 01:23:56,840
Speaker 1: no fighting. Like you can't go to a bar, club

1490
01:23:56,920 --> 01:24:00,840
Speaker 1: or even uh something with your family without uncle, uncle,

1491
01:24:01,160 --> 01:24:04,160
Speaker 1: Uncle Levy or Uncle Lonnie getting drunk falling out. You

1492
01:24:04,160 --> 01:24:07,560
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Like everybody pretty much handling a liquor.

1493
01:24:07,800 --> 01:24:11,320
Speaker 1: You know, even one incident, Yeah, only even one incident

1494
01:24:11,320 --> 01:24:15,800
Speaker 1: that I know of, same person who had that test situation.

1495
01:24:16,200 --> 01:24:20,920
Speaker 1: They my friend did that, right, you know what I'm saying.

1496
01:24:20,960 --> 01:24:23,120
Speaker 1: But other than that, we don't have none of that.

1497
01:24:23,160 --> 01:24:25,639
Speaker 1: Everybody look out for each other, you know what I'm saying.

1498
01:24:25,640 --> 01:24:29,320
Speaker 1: You ain't gotta worry about you know. It's more we're family,

1499
01:24:31,080 --> 01:24:35,519
Speaker 1: and I'm closer to them than I am to the

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01:24:35,600 --> 01:24:39,360
Speaker 1: random people in the city. And not for nothing. I

1501
01:24:39,400 --> 01:24:42,879
Speaker 1: mean I I even build a better relationship with fans,

1502
01:24:44,560 --> 01:24:47,160
Speaker 1: the respectable ones, you know what I'm saying, not the

1503
01:24:47,200 --> 01:24:49,479
Speaker 1: ones who want to you know, be grabbing on ship,

1504
01:24:50,040 --> 01:24:51,840
Speaker 1: you know, body part as soon as they see me.

1505
01:24:52,000 --> 01:24:54,000
Speaker 1: And you know what I'm saying, you gotta be you know,

1506
01:24:54,800 --> 01:24:57,160
Speaker 1: ushered out the building and because you can't do those

1507
01:24:57,240 --> 01:25:00,120
Speaker 1: you know what, do that kind of stuff. You know. Um,

1508
01:25:00,680 --> 01:25:04,680
Speaker 1: But I enjoy the industry. I'm still know maybe one

1509
01:25:04,720 --> 01:25:07,120
Speaker 1: day I'll be looking for love. I don't know. Until then,

1510
01:25:07,160 --> 01:25:09,519
Speaker 1: I need a check. Well, guys, because I have a

1511
01:25:09,520 --> 01:25:12,360
Speaker 1: lot of niggas listening to this, listening to the podcast period,

1512
01:25:12,360 --> 01:25:14,080
Speaker 1: So if you'll want to reach out to my guests,

1513
01:25:14,439 --> 01:25:17,320
Speaker 1: don't be broke, come correct and have that check. Let

1514
01:25:22,200 --> 01:25:24,519
Speaker 1: or ladies, if you want to reach out to my guests,

1515
01:25:26,000 --> 01:25:28,120
Speaker 1: because I got a lot of balls and women following

1516
01:25:28,120 --> 01:25:31,160
Speaker 1: me and listening to that podcast. So if you have

1517
01:25:31,200 --> 01:25:33,799
Speaker 1: any questions coming to the concerns, it's always a pleasure

1518
01:25:33,880 --> 01:25:35,840
Speaker 1: talking to my guests. I have so much fun when

1519
01:25:35,840 --> 01:25:38,439
Speaker 1: I talked to her and literally be ships and goggles

1520
01:25:38,439 --> 01:25:44,040
Speaker 1: that y'all can tell if you have any questions. No, no,

1521
01:25:44,160 --> 01:25:47,160
Speaker 1: we're not life, but I'm gonna let you know. I'm i'

1522
01:25:47,160 --> 01:25:49,040
Speaker 1: gonna hitt you up and texting your episode come out.

1523
01:25:49,040 --> 01:25:51,680
Speaker 1: So it should come out, uh not tomorrow but the

1524
01:25:51,720 --> 01:25:54,800
Speaker 1: following week. Okay, So I got you. You know what

1525
01:25:54,800 --> 01:25:57,200
Speaker 1: I'm going nowhere, I'm around. So if you have any

1526
01:25:57,280 --> 01:25:59,640
Speaker 1: questions coming to the concerns, email me and hello at

1527
01:25:59,680 --> 01:26:03,439
Speaker 1: the p keep podcast dot com And until next time later,

1528
01:26:05,280 --> 01:26:12,439
Speaker 1: thank you, thank you. Get that money. He's broke. Motherfucker's here. Ship.

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01:26:12,560 --> 01:26:18,160
Speaker 1: I need me some new ones. Bye bye o