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Speaker 1: Yallo. Hello, Hello, hey guys, it's Marie and Sydney. Welcome

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Speaker 1: to the Unofficial Expert.

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Speaker 2: Podcast, brought to you by Comedy Hype and you know,

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Speaker 2: you know me want to you buy? Also me and

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Speaker 2: me as well, Sidney. I'm saying me because this is

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Speaker 2: my house.

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Speaker 1: Oh well, you know, brought to you by me because

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Speaker 1: this is me as well. Yes, yeah, you can get

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Speaker 1: all your comedy news through Comedy Hype, so please check

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Speaker 1: the website Comedy Hype dot com. Boom, Sidney, how the

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Speaker 1: hell are you doing? It's too freaking hot. I'm not

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Speaker 1: really feeling it. I don't feel comfortable. I'm like sweaty

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Speaker 1: in places that I didn't even know you could sweat,

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Speaker 1: like between your toes, yep, like right behind my ears.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, that's like it's like dripping behind the ears.

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Speaker 1: So I'm not really feeling that at all. And I

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Speaker 1: don't have AC so there's like every twenty fans in

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Speaker 1: the apartment. You can't I can't even talk on the

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Speaker 1: phone because it sounds like I'm in a wind tunnel. Yeah.

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Speaker 3: I spoke to you, and you sound real far. It

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Speaker 3: was real loud. It sounds like you were running and

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Speaker 3: I was like, I know you're not running.

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Speaker 4: I know you.

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Speaker 1: It's crazy. It's like we have window fans, we have

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Speaker 1: the regular like floor fans for floor fans, we have

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Speaker 1: like ceiling It's like too many damn fans in there.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, just get an AC you will play for

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Speaker 1: this extra electricity that is being spent or not. I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna say zero for NA exactly, I'm not. An air

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Speaker 1: conditioner is expensive.

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Speaker 2: You gotta plug it in and then you want to

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Speaker 2: run it like for a couple of hours. You can't

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Speaker 2: just run it for like ten minutes, no, because as

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Speaker 2: soon as you turn it off, it gets hot again.

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Speaker 2: Actually it feels worse.

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Speaker 1: And then if you really want your apartment to get

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Speaker 1: really cold, you got to get enough be to use.

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Speaker 1: And you know what, be to uth costs too much

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Speaker 1: money to stand for. Okay, all right, I just wanted

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Speaker 1: to make sure that I was sure that you didn't

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Speaker 1: know what it meant Brenzino transitional customary. I don't know, No,

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Speaker 1: that's a c anyway. Okay, Yeah, so I don't like that.

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Speaker 1: What about you? What's going on with you? Uh?

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Speaker 3: Well, this week it's just really really hot in New York.

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Speaker 2: It is ninety two degrees today, And the worst part

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Speaker 2: to me is when it's hot like that and it rains,

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Speaker 2: because you want to cover yourself, but you also don't

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Speaker 2: want to cover yourself.

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Speaker 1: I don't feel like herring a jacket, and I can't

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Speaker 1: with this weather because then you it's hot outside, then

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Speaker 1: you get on the train, your nipples are hard and

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Speaker 1: to your train freeze. You're giving niggas the mixed signals.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I had a homeless man asked me for

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Speaker 1: my number because he's like, you know what, that's a

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Speaker 1: I was like, how you gonna call me homeless man?

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Speaker 1: How you gonna do that? I have a metro cricket wireless,

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Speaker 1: so I got a veracin phone. I gave him my

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Speaker 1: number because I didn't want to look like a bad person.

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Speaker 1: And you know you never called you know that? So

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Speaker 1: who's the bad person in the situation? Him? Probably be homeless.

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Speaker 1: Niggas feel like they can't like ghosted by a poor

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Speaker 1: man who has nowhere to disappear to dagh who can

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Speaker 1: I run to?

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Speaker 3: Not fair?

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Speaker 2: This week, I was an expert at a couple of things.

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Speaker 2: One of them was murdering mosquitoes. The other thing was

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Speaker 2: getting torn up by mosquitoes. I sat outside yesterday and

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Speaker 2: got seven mosquito bites, and I feel like it was

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Speaker 2: the same fat ass, greedy mosquito that was like.

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Speaker 1: Oh this is this Haitian. Oh she got down West

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Speaker 1: Indian Caribbean blood. So he got me like three times

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Speaker 1: on one leg, on two arms, two arms, three or

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Speaker 1: more than nine mosquito bites.

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Speaker 2: But then I was also an expert at killing mosquitos

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Speaker 2: because I was just you know, they say you're not

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Speaker 2: supposed to like smash switch them on your skin because

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Speaker 2: it's the blood, and that's that's all. That's the only

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Speaker 2: thing I know how to do. She just smack and

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Speaker 2: then maybe get AIDS, but I don't know. Oh my god,

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Speaker 2: I feel like most of the blood in the mosquito

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Speaker 1: Don't have aids. Oh my god. Hashtag magic Johnson so foolish.

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Speaker 2: And then the other thing that I was an expert

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Speaker 2: at is either not wearing a bra or taking my

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Speaker 2: bra off in public.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I discreetly stay taking my bra off. Oh when

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Speaker 1: I'm in the uberpool and nobody's in it up I've

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Speaker 1: done it on the bus. I've done it on the train.

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Speaker 1: I did it at a comedy show a couple of

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Speaker 1: weeks ago. I feel like you were sitting right behind me.

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Speaker 1: You didn't even see me do it.

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Speaker 3: Dude.

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Speaker 2: I was like, ooop, and then you slide it out

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Speaker 2: an arm and slide out the other arm.

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Speaker 1: I'm good for just not wearing one. I just want

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Speaker 1: wear one.

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Speaker 3: I'm all about one right now, but you have one

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Speaker 3: to shredless romp him.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, but my shits look like triangles right now, so

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Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, I need a little bra, dude. I'm

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Speaker 1: all about the natural shape of a boob though, Like

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Speaker 1: I'm not here for like a like a round boob

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Speaker 1: under my chin. Oh. I love me some top titty.

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Speaker 1: Oh like high top titty, like where you feel like

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Speaker 1: you're like getting suffocated cleavage. I love that. I'm not

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Speaker 1: here for that. I'm beautiful that. I like, like, let

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Speaker 1: your boobs hang a little bit, let the shape be

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Speaker 1: like a weird like, what is this shape here? Like

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Speaker 1: an upside down questions? Shit look like like a mountain slope.

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Speaker 1: Fucking it's sloping right now, dude, I'm not here for that.

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Speaker 1: The skis are skiing right now, you know, like skiing

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Speaker 1: white men, and I'm not here to attract men.

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Speaker 3: To my boobs.

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Speaker 1: I know. That's why I need like a little band

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Speaker 1: top or something bando or whatever.

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Speaker 2: You fucking Sidney, what the hell are you an expert

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Speaker 2: at this week?

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Speaker 1: You know, I don't know, man. I feel like I've

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Speaker 1: been holding back. I feel like I'm the expert in

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Speaker 1: holding back because there's a lot of things that I

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Speaker 1: want to say and I just don't do it because

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Speaker 1: that's how you start fucking trouble. I've been trying a

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Speaker 1: whole back. I'll be seeing things.

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Speaker 3: On the city.

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Speaker 1: This is a safe space on social media, off the record.

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Speaker 3: Just say everything that you've been holding back.

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Speaker 1: I just see things on social media and I'm like, Yo,

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Speaker 1: who is this for? Like what do you like? What

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Speaker 1: are you talking about? Like this one person was talking

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Speaker 1: about not dating female comedians, and I was like, when

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Speaker 1: you say date, are you saying like go out with them?

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Speaker 1: Because I know that you fuck them. So like when

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Speaker 1: you're saying don't date a comedian, You're like, oh, just

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Speaker 1: don't do it in public so people don't know that

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Speaker 1: you guys are together. But definitely fuck them, definitely bring

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Speaker 1: them back to the crib.

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Speaker 2: Back to the crib and wear it. I mean not

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Speaker 1: I sleepony and I get back. Yeah. I just feel

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Speaker 1: like I don't understand people who just say retarded things

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Speaker 1: just back them up, and I'm like, oh, well that's

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Speaker 1: what celebrity, that's what I wish you get your little minions,

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Speaker 1: you know what I mean, like and you can say

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Speaker 1: whatever you want and people will be like absolute, yes,

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Speaker 1: you better tell them.

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Speaker 2: And then it's like, I mean everybody has fans, Banks

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Speaker 2: has fans, and she's a recharge.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, everybody has fans.

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Speaker 2: You say something dumb, the catch me outside have my dad,

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Speaker 2: girl has fans.

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Speaker 1: My friends keep me in check. They're like, they will

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Speaker 1: write me and like, you know, let me tell you.

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Speaker 1: I saw where you were trying to do something funny,

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Speaker 1: but you should just take that whole thing down, take

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Speaker 1: that whole post down. Yeah.

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Speaker 2: Oh, I'll message people or I'll comment underneath what they

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Speaker 2: post and be like you should just delete this.

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Speaker 1: Didn't somebody write like a fake ass joke saying nigga

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Speaker 3: What some white woman. Okay, so this was the status.

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Speaker 2: A white girl was like, Uh, me and my boyfriend

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Speaker 2: would joke and call each other babe all the time,

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Speaker 2: making fun of the couples that do it, and now

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Speaker 2: we actually really do it. We call each other bib bib.

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Speaker 2: And then this white comic put that's so funny. My

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Speaker 2: and now we really do it.

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Speaker 1: And I was like, you should just delete this, like

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Speaker 1: what y'all do when your freaky ass house is your business?

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Speaker 2: And she was like, are you implying that we do

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Speaker 2: this in bed? Now I'm offended, and I'm like, you

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Speaker 1: That's what I don't get. I'm like, we can all

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Speaker 1: see this. You know that I don't post a lot

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Speaker 1: on Facebook or Instagram like that because I'm like, you

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Speaker 1: don't need to be all in my business.

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Speaker 3: You don't like people to know what I'm doing.

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Speaker 2: I like them to see me and be like I

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Speaker 2: feel like you, yes, that's what I do. And then

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Speaker 2: I'd be like no, you know, my answer stories.

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Speaker 1: Be lit and then my actual post would be like

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Speaker 1: I haven't posted in like twelve weeks.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, my ass is always on your Insta stories.

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Speaker 2: Yes, I like to post my butt on Sydney's instant

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Speaker 2: stories so that people don't screenshot it on my page.

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Speaker 3: But but I just.

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Speaker 1: Want, I just want to say this one thing about

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Speaker 1: this person who was talking about female female comics. It's like,

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Speaker 1: first of all, we don't really dress that bad. We

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Speaker 1: dressed comfortable because we don't who is we? Who you

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Speaker 1: don't about I'm talking about female comics. No, no, no, no,

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Speaker 1: some female comedian's just terrible. Yes, So I will agree

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Speaker 1: with this person about that, But I feel like when

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Speaker 1: I'm I'm at a show that I need to show up,

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Speaker 1: I will show up and show out. But for the

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Speaker 1: rest part, I'm gonna show up with no bra in

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Speaker 1: a wife beater. But if we in a dusty ass basement, legit,

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Speaker 1: they're pouring amrita sour in a by tap tap, Like,

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Speaker 1: why would I come dressed up for that?

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Speaker 3: Now?

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Speaker 1: If it's like Gotham or like a nice comp yes,

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Speaker 1: dressed nice, But most of these dudes, come on, y'all

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Speaker 1: all look like y'all just rolled in a whole pile

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Speaker 1: of dust bunnies. Like, stop it. I haven't named one

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Speaker 1: male comedian that you're like, he dresses really nice.

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Speaker 2: Hold on time, hold on, let me see if I

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Speaker 2: can think of somebody. I can't think of anybody. I mean,

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Speaker 2: there are a lot of male comics that like they'll

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Speaker 2: show up like straight from the little finance job and

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Speaker 2: you'd be like, what are you wantiting the show?

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Speaker 1: And then I'm her for the show, or I'm like,

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Speaker 1: are you trying to get a job at the comedy club?

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Speaker 1: Like why do you have a sports code on the

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Speaker 1: and uptight? No, even when they even when they dress nice,

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Speaker 2: A lot of these feel comments with the one, some

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Speaker 1: Stop it exactly. Anyway, whatever, we'll get over this. I'm

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Speaker 2: If you're listening to this and you feel like we're

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Speaker 1: But that's why I'm glad that we have our guests

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Speaker 1: here today. This guess is here to put better energy

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Speaker 1: and spirits.

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Speaker 3: One say spirits, don't say spirits.

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Speaker 1: Can't hear for spirits devilish like? Uh as a feather?

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Speaker 1: What's that board called? Uh? The board?

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Speaker 3: No, I'm not here for that unless there's one here,

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Speaker 1: Okay, So she's here to lay hands on the podcast.

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Speaker 1: She's here to give us a uplifting, a healing session.

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Speaker 1: Yes it is. Oh, she's so funny. She's a great comedian.

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Speaker 1: She has an awesome podcast, which we will let her plug.

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Speaker 2: Yes, I don't remember the name forgot City's terrible, but

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Speaker 2: there too as well. It's the very funny, the very lovely,

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Speaker 3: What's the word.

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Speaker 1: I'm positively filled with light? Yes, Kate Wolf Hi you guys. Oh,

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Speaker 1: hello Kate, Hi, thanks for having me. Oh my god,

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Speaker 1: We're so happy to have you here as our healing

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Speaker 4: Yeah, Well, first of all, I got to hang with

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Speaker 4: you guys. How long ago was that that we went

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Speaker 2: We went down to d C for Amina's thirtieth birthday

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, we definitely thought we were were away. Yea

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Speaker 1: we had an awesome time. It was so fun. Not

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Speaker 1: she did the damn thing. She got her money's worth.

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Speaker 1: I'll tell you that she lost her shoes on that

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Speaker 1: They both did. Everybody looked. It was a beautiful boat party.

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Speaker 4: I felt cool getting pictures with the two of you.

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Speaker 4: Look at me, guys, I have cool friends. I know

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Speaker 4: you got like man likes the photos.

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Speaker 1: Kate, I got a lot of likes.

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Speaker 3: I was like, yes, kay, I was like, is that.

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Speaker 4: I was trying to look sex. I was trying to

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you do well.

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Speaker 4: Rihanna's like, for real, one of my inspiring women that

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Speaker 4: I for real look up to, and I'm always like,

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Speaker 1: Would wear nothing exactly in the Nipple Show, and I'm like,

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Speaker 4: You guys help me get confidence to show my titties.

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Speaker 3: We were like, take your panties off.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you had your shape. You had your no scrubs

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Speaker 1: the cord. I think we need to switch the corlough.

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Speaker 1: We switched the mics with you. Yeah, you might have

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Speaker 1: there It is Hi boom there were back is your baby? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I'm just you know what, I'm really good with my hands.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna pop that mic. I've got like this upper

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Speaker 3: Actually did not know about it.

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Speaker 4: Like how you know you made me feel good and

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Speaker 1: I'll take this. I know what I'm doing.

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Speaker 3: No, I don't.

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Speaker 1: But also you can't hear yourself. We can hear you.

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Speaker 1: That's why we took it not I mean also because

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Speaker 1: your fingers. Thank it's terrible my fingers stray. Can't I

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Speaker 1: see you took your shoes off. You got comfortable.

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Speaker 4: That's all we want city to talk about my feet

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Speaker 4: because I know she does that. The bottoms doing real soft.

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Speaker 1: Okay, they look like they look like toddler hands.

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Speaker 4: Like they look like flat young feet.

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Speaker 1: Yeah they do. They look like you're like a little

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Speaker 3: Is that because you always have shoes on it? Never

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Speaker 3: wear sandals? No?

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Speaker 1: I do wear sandals a lot. You don't have corns

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Speaker 1: like they no bunions, no hammertoe.

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Speaker 2: Like you just got a pedicure. Your feet look real.

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Speaker 2: You got a pet egg or something at home.

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Speaker 4: Guys, thank you. You have a nice love that I've

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Speaker 1: You have nice nail beds too. Oh my god, I

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Speaker 3: Can't you had a pummice stone in the bathroom.

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Speaker 1: No, I do very little upkeep of my body. Bitch.

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Speaker 1: Do you be haling your feet because they just look

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Speaker 1: so rescue you lay hands on your feet to a

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Speaker 1: cucumber lemon coconut mask. You No, I don't yo.

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Speaker 3: We wanted to use the hotel pool for the day.

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Speaker 2: Mean also like it was our toe nails were growing out.

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Speaker 2: We were like paying too much money to take the

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Speaker 1: I'm letting the rock caused me to cinema woolmarine toes exactly. Yes,

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Speaker 1: I didn't want to trim nothing anyway. So you're here

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Speaker 2: So how did you get into that? Like, are you

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Speaker 2: somebody who's like always been super calm or do you

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Speaker 2: get crazy?

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Speaker 1: Oh?

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Speaker 4: I definitely get crazy. I mean I literally just started

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Speaker 4: a fight for reall with the mayor Woodbridge.

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Speaker 1: Well you should save that because we need to talk

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Speaker 1: about the healing first.

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Speaker 4: Okay, only a white woman will mayor. Okay, okay, mayor,

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Speaker 4: I will fight whoever. I had a bad fucking childhood.

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Speaker 4: I got a lot of rage in this body.

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Speaker 3: Childhood. That's hold, let me lay down. I said that.

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Speaker 4: Both of you got real comfortable. All right, let's talk

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Speaker 4: about the Yeah, totally, so who touched you? No one

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Speaker 4: molested me, And I'm going to try to share as

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Speaker 4: much as i can while respecting my parents. Yes, that podcast,

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Speaker 4: I'd be talking back, starting young like fuck you, you

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Speaker 1: Whoa whoa.

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Speaker 3: Podcast?

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Speaker 1: But the fact that you are alive. Like if I

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Speaker 1: six feet under. I've never said that ever. You've cursed

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Speaker 1: at your mother twice? Yeah, oh I well we did

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Speaker 1: a lot of We did a lot of back and

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Speaker 4: If that were the case for me. You learned, you know,

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Speaker 4: it's defense mechanisms. You learn what you can do, and

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Speaker 4: you shut up when you have to survive. There were

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Speaker 2: Up with her trull this is in your survivor, Like

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Speaker 2: She smack me so fast, like she didn't even she

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Speaker 1: That's how my mother was like neo, it was like

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Speaker 2: I started like watering and I was like, what just

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Speaker 3: And I was like, oh, I want you.

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Speaker 4: Well, yeah, she did try to push me down the

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Speaker 4: she would hit me on the butt sometimes but nothing

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Speaker 3: Like how old were you when she tried to throw

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Speaker 1: That was sixteen? I actually moved down.

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Speaker 4: I like, quote unquote ran away that day, but ran away.

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Speaker 4: He's like, no, no, no, do a light jag away, bro. Well,

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Speaker 4: I just called my day on the pay phone, do you.

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Speaker 1: Know what I mean?

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Speaker 4: Like she tried to make it like she's running away,

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Speaker 4: I was already old. There wasn't going to be a

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Speaker 4: able to just go. But my dad's house wasn't great either,

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Speaker 4: So it's not like I left and went into Esta.

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Speaker 1: Say it was better.

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Speaker 3: So your dad had like a studio or something house,

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Speaker 3: you do, No.

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Speaker 4: My dad at that point had a decent house, but

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 4: With my stepmom, there was a lot going on in

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Speaker 4: both houses different ways, do you know what I mean?

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Speaker 4: Like my mom's house felt like fire and my dad's

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Speaker 4: house felt like ice. Ooh, always trying to decide I see.

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Speaker 3: Hot, Yeah that's cute.

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Speaker 1: Yeah yeah. Sometimes my childhood yain set Sidney. Did you

439
00:19:54,680 --> 00:19:57,440
Speaker 1: ever try to run away from home? What is that?

440
00:19:57,720 --> 00:20:00,200
Speaker 1: What is it? Running away? I thought about it as

441
00:20:00,480 --> 00:20:03,600
Speaker 1: I watch I would be hungry, so I watched the

442
00:20:03,800 --> 00:20:06,119
Speaker 1: Lifetime channel a lot, and I would see the kids

443
00:20:06,200 --> 00:20:09,200
Speaker 1: like getting there like a little backpack together and taking

444
00:20:09,240 --> 00:20:11,639
Speaker 1: a few items, and I was like, well, I need everything.

445
00:20:11,760 --> 00:20:14,240
Speaker 1: I can't just take a few I need all my

446
00:20:14,400 --> 00:20:16,399
Speaker 1: shirts and all my jeans. And then I was like

447
00:20:17,080 --> 00:20:18,560
Speaker 1: and every time I would see them, they would go

448
00:20:18,560 --> 00:20:21,040
Speaker 1: to a gas station and then they just looked it

449
00:20:21,119 --> 00:20:23,600
Speaker 1: looked the situation looked worse than what it was at home.

450
00:20:23,680 --> 00:20:26,000
Speaker 1: So I'm just gonna stay here. It's not that bad.

451
00:20:26,359 --> 00:20:27,200
Speaker 1: I get lunchable.

452
00:20:27,240 --> 00:20:29,160
Speaker 3: It's like, come on, oh, you had lunchibles in your home.

453
00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:31,800
Speaker 1: You came from a lunchibles home. They would that was no,

454
00:20:32,000 --> 00:20:33,680
Speaker 1: that was a treat I would get. That would be

455
00:20:33,840 --> 00:20:36,280
Speaker 1: like my one treat a week, a lunchible.

456
00:20:36,520 --> 00:20:37,119
Speaker 3: That's crazy.

457
00:20:37,480 --> 00:20:40,879
Speaker 1: I've never seen a lunchable life, you know, real lavish.

458
00:20:40,880 --> 00:20:41,720
Speaker 3: I didn't know you were rich.

459
00:20:41,840 --> 00:20:45,439
Speaker 1: Anyway, Let's go back to Kate Fire and Ice Skiren Desire.

460
00:20:48,720 --> 00:20:51,200
Speaker 2: So you're at your dad's house and but you but

461
00:20:51,359 --> 00:20:56,800
Speaker 2: you made it through all of that, Like it sounds

462
00:20:56,920 --> 00:20:59,320
Speaker 2: like because you seem like somebody who is in like

463
00:20:59,359 --> 00:21:00,000
Speaker 2: a good headspace.

464
00:21:00,320 --> 00:21:02,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, you do. Well, I've been through a lot, you know.

465
00:21:03,119 --> 00:21:07,160
Speaker 4: Like I ended up getting married to someone, I got pregnant,

466
00:21:07,240 --> 00:21:11,920
Speaker 4: first married, six months pregnant. It was quite an intense

467
00:21:12,160 --> 00:21:14,160
Speaker 4: did your fear? Like I called off the wedding, put

468
00:21:14,200 --> 00:21:16,399
Speaker 4: it back on a week later. My family would no

469
00:21:16,480 --> 00:21:17,280
Speaker 4: longer pay for it.

470
00:21:17,520 --> 00:21:19,960
Speaker 1: Okay, And they would like make up, girl, make up

471
00:21:20,040 --> 00:21:20,400
Speaker 1: your mind.

472
00:21:20,440 --> 00:21:22,760
Speaker 4: I had to hold them stuff about the relationship that

473
00:21:22,800 --> 00:21:25,920
Speaker 4: they couldn't support anymore. So like he liked to put

474
00:21:25,920 --> 00:21:29,680
Speaker 4: it in your ears, I don't want to go it's

475
00:21:29,760 --> 00:21:32,600
Speaker 4: my it's my it's Shane's dad. So I always tried

476
00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:35,199
Speaker 4: there to respect him as well. Right, I'm not going

477
00:21:35,280 --> 00:21:38,920
Speaker 4: to bash. Plus, he has his own perspective, and that's fair.

478
00:21:39,080 --> 00:21:41,920
Speaker 1: There's always three sides to the story. Three sides, your side,

479
00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:43,639
Speaker 1: his side, and then the person who was trying to

480
00:21:43,680 --> 00:21:44,720
Speaker 1: have put it in your other.

481
00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:47,600
Speaker 4: Ear to put it no one ever tried to put

482
00:21:47,600 --> 00:21:48,159
Speaker 4: in my ear, but.

483
00:21:49,640 --> 00:21:52,600
Speaker 1: They couldn't support it. So then you so, did you

484
00:21:52,640 --> 00:21:55,080
Speaker 1: get married or you didn't? I did get married. Did

485
00:21:55,119 --> 00:21:57,159
Speaker 1: your family tell you had to get married because you

486
00:21:57,200 --> 00:21:57,719
Speaker 1: were pregnant?

487
00:21:57,760 --> 00:21:58,240
Speaker 3: Or were they go?

488
00:21:58,400 --> 00:21:58,720
Speaker 1: That was me?

489
00:21:59,000 --> 00:21:59,600
Speaker 3: Two uses?

490
00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:02,440
Speaker 1: That was me. They thought I shouldn't. They were like,

491
00:22:02,520 --> 00:22:03,240
Speaker 1: you don't have to do this.

492
00:22:04,240 --> 00:22:06,159
Speaker 4: I felt like I did. I was like, I just

493
00:22:06,240 --> 00:22:08,040
Speaker 4: got pregnant. I wanted to get married. I wanted to

494
00:22:08,119 --> 00:22:11,480
Speaker 4: still try to attempt to have that more typical life

495
00:22:11,600 --> 00:22:14,240
Speaker 4: where I have a husband. I wasn't ready to be

496
00:22:14,320 --> 00:22:17,280
Speaker 4: a single mom at that point, so I really wanted.

497
00:22:17,080 --> 00:22:17,879
Speaker 1: To do everything.

498
00:22:17,920 --> 00:22:19,600
Speaker 3: How cool when you guys got married.

499
00:22:19,720 --> 00:22:21,760
Speaker 1: I was twenty four when I got knocked up, did

500
00:22:21,840 --> 00:22:24,639
Speaker 1: you guys alad? Yes, it seems like you were like

501
00:22:24,880 --> 00:22:31,440
Speaker 1: twel Yeah, you don't twelve, Like, no, that's right away.

502
00:22:31,480 --> 00:22:33,960
Speaker 1: At sixteen with my baby would have been a different story. Yeah,

503
00:22:34,080 --> 00:22:35,600
Speaker 1: twenty four is a decent age.

504
00:22:35,640 --> 00:22:37,959
Speaker 4: I mean, you're out of college. It's like me right now.

505
00:22:38,080 --> 00:22:41,760
Speaker 4: I mean, I mean, I clearly Shane's alive. I had him, yeah,

506
00:22:42,560 --> 00:22:45,359
Speaker 4: and I love my life. I'm so happy he changed

507
00:22:45,359 --> 00:22:48,879
Speaker 4: my life. But when you are pregnant and something that

508
00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:53,040
Speaker 4: you feel is abusive and growing a baby in something

509
00:22:53,680 --> 00:22:55,960
Speaker 4: that was pretty quick, like I'd been engaged to someone

510
00:22:56,040 --> 00:22:59,880
Speaker 4: else before with them five years, called off that way,

511
00:23:00,320 --> 00:23:03,040
Speaker 4: then got in another fucking situation. Suddenly I'm pregnant. It's

512
00:23:03,119 --> 00:23:04,639
Speaker 4: kind of like, what the fuck is happening?

513
00:23:04,880 --> 00:23:05,880
Speaker 1: So what should be doing? Kay?

514
00:23:05,920 --> 00:23:07,840
Speaker 3: You are runaway bride? Why did you call up the

515
00:23:07,920 --> 00:23:08,280
Speaker 3: other one?

516
00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:09,600
Speaker 1: Well?

517
00:23:09,760 --> 00:23:11,640
Speaker 4: I kind of like forced the engagement, and then once

518
00:23:11,720 --> 00:23:13,399
Speaker 4: we got engaged, I was like having panic attacks.

519
00:23:13,400 --> 00:23:15,520
Speaker 1: You're like, I would really want this. I just want

520
00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:16,480
Speaker 1: to see if you were going to do it.

521
00:23:16,560 --> 00:23:19,080
Speaker 4: I mean we were together five years and I just thought, oh,

522
00:23:19,080 --> 00:23:20,560
Speaker 4: I'm gonna be with him for the rest of my life.

523
00:23:20,560 --> 00:23:22,480
Speaker 4: He was amazing, but I'd fallen out of love and

524
00:23:22,480 --> 00:23:25,960
Speaker 4: didn't realize like we were not fucking that much. And

525
00:23:26,040 --> 00:23:28,200
Speaker 4: then once I got the right First of all, I

526
00:23:28,359 --> 00:23:30,679
Speaker 4: wasn't a comedian, like I was living in Maryland as

527
00:23:30,720 --> 00:23:32,520
Speaker 4: a teacher, and like I had a whole life ahead

528
00:23:32,520 --> 00:23:34,720
Speaker 4: of me. And I think there was a deeper soul

529
00:23:34,960 --> 00:23:36,760
Speaker 4: level thing being like, this isn't your life.

530
00:23:36,800 --> 00:23:37,439
Speaker 1: You're not meant to.

531
00:23:38,119 --> 00:23:40,600
Speaker 4: Get married, have the two kids, be a teacher, Like

532
00:23:40,760 --> 00:23:41,520
Speaker 4: I was numb.

533
00:23:41,720 --> 00:23:43,720
Speaker 1: You didn't want to bet, you didn't want to be

534
00:23:43,760 --> 00:23:45,240
Speaker 1: bored the rest of the year. I get it. You

535
00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:49,879
Speaker 1: were like you live auto pilot. Basically, yeah, yeah, all right,

536
00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:52,400
Speaker 1: so five years you leave him, come to New York.

537
00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:54,520
Speaker 1: First of all, Kate, you and must got some good

538
00:23:54,640 --> 00:23:56,760
Speaker 1: stuff if you get engaged twice.

539
00:23:56,880 --> 00:24:00,800
Speaker 4: I've got a really good pussy, I did tell the children.

540
00:24:04,680 --> 00:24:07,440
Speaker 1: So you laid hands on your vagina as well, Okay,

541
00:24:07,680 --> 00:24:09,439
Speaker 1: I'll get some good energy and spirit.

542
00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:12,439
Speaker 4: It's not just the physical. It's I got some strong

543
00:24:12,560 --> 00:24:13,520
Speaker 4: fire coming.

544
00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:16,119
Speaker 1: Fired.

545
00:24:16,119 --> 00:24:17,760
Speaker 3: And I see you hot vagina.

546
00:24:17,920 --> 00:24:18,600
Speaker 1: That's what you got.

547
00:24:18,680 --> 00:24:19,080
Speaker 3: I see that.

548
00:24:19,240 --> 00:24:22,679
Speaker 1: Dudes are like whoa, it burned. But also it's very chilling.

549
00:24:22,880 --> 00:24:26,800
Speaker 1: Yo yo, that's crazy.

550
00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:28,720
Speaker 3: Okay, let's get to this healing situation.

551
00:24:28,840 --> 00:24:32,880
Speaker 1: Yes please. So you, uh, how do you fall into

552
00:24:32,920 --> 00:24:35,320
Speaker 1: that because you do like tarot readings and stuff like that.

553
00:24:36,040 --> 00:24:38,639
Speaker 4: So basically, when I got divorced, when I left my

554
00:24:38,720 --> 00:24:43,000
Speaker 4: ex husband, things crashed the fuck down, because that's what

555
00:24:43,280 --> 00:24:45,640
Speaker 4: when I was really young and in my messed up childhood,

556
00:24:46,160 --> 00:24:47,520
Speaker 4: I kept being like, well, one day I'm going to

557
00:24:47,560 --> 00:24:49,440
Speaker 4: have the family I always wanted because I didn't feel

558
00:24:49,440 --> 00:24:51,000
Speaker 4: like I had famed like I had my brother, but

559
00:24:51,040 --> 00:24:52,760
Speaker 4: I always felt like I didn't have a home. So

560
00:24:52,840 --> 00:24:54,200
Speaker 4: I was like, one day, one day, I'm gonna have

561
00:24:54,200 --> 00:24:55,879
Speaker 4: a home. I'm gonna have a home. I'm gonna be safe.

562
00:24:56,040 --> 00:24:58,280
Speaker 4: And that was the thing I like obsessed about as

563
00:24:58,280 --> 00:25:02,440
Speaker 4: when I survive the horror A really rowls is And

564
00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:06,240
Speaker 4: then when that crashed down, I was lost. Like I

565
00:25:06,359 --> 00:25:08,520
Speaker 4: ended up in the hospital for about three days for real.

566
00:25:08,600 --> 00:25:10,959
Speaker 4: My body broke down. I couldn't stop throwing up. They

567
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:13,960
Speaker 4: tested my levels my Billy Reuben count whatever that means.

568
00:25:14,000 --> 00:25:16,520
Speaker 1: I don't know. Bow like my body was for I

569
00:25:16,680 --> 00:25:17,439
Speaker 1: was done so.

570
00:25:17,520 --> 00:25:22,680
Speaker 4: That your body was like, yes, yes, I was severely

571
00:25:22,920 --> 00:25:24,719
Speaker 4: depressed and like didn't even want to live anymore.

572
00:25:24,760 --> 00:25:25,760
Speaker 3: I wasn't going to.

573
00:25:25,840 --> 00:25:27,960
Speaker 1: Do it, but I had no will. But you knew

574
00:25:28,119 --> 00:25:31,960
Speaker 1: you needed to get out of the marriage pretty bad.

575
00:25:32,040 --> 00:25:35,640
Speaker 1: But even after leaving a situation that you needed to leave,

576
00:25:35,640 --> 00:25:38,920
Speaker 1: your body was still like, damn, your mind was saying yes,

577
00:25:39,040 --> 00:25:42,879
Speaker 1: but your buddy was like, it wasn't upset. I loved

578
00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:49,600
Speaker 1: emotional blue balls.

579
00:25:49,640 --> 00:25:55,159
Speaker 4: I was like, well, it was like it's called a

580
00:25:55,240 --> 00:25:58,399
Speaker 4: shattering in my spiritual school, where literally all these defense

581
00:25:58,480 --> 00:26:00,960
Speaker 4: mechanisms and these hopes shattered. I was like, oh, I'm

582
00:26:00,960 --> 00:26:03,440
Speaker 4: a single mom now, and now I'm cool with that.

583
00:26:03,680 --> 00:26:06,159
Speaker 4: But then I was like, I'm a single mom, Like

584
00:26:06,600 --> 00:26:08,680
Speaker 4: this is not what I dreamed of, This is not

585
00:26:08,840 --> 00:26:11,040
Speaker 4: what a little girl's like. I can't wait till i'm older,

586
00:26:11,280 --> 00:26:12,800
Speaker 4: you know what I mean. Like I was like, and

587
00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:17,040
Speaker 4: I just everything was crashed. And I was teaching at

588
00:26:17,080 --> 00:26:18,960
Speaker 4: the time, but I didn't even love that. So I

589
00:26:19,160 --> 00:26:21,680
Speaker 4: just I had my son was I barely had the

590
00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:23,960
Speaker 4: energy to fully be present with him.

591
00:26:24,160 --> 00:26:26,159
Speaker 3: I was just like, what the fuck old was he?

592
00:26:26,240 --> 00:26:27,600
Speaker 3: When you guys got a divorce.

593
00:26:27,359 --> 00:26:30,719
Speaker 1: Too, and you weren't in comedy yet, no, I got

594
00:26:30,800 --> 00:26:33,679
Speaker 1: in comedy future after what were you teaching? Like? What art?

595
00:26:33,800 --> 00:26:35,200
Speaker 1: I was an art teacher to middle school.

596
00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:36,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, you look at that comedy.

597
00:26:37,640 --> 00:26:39,800
Speaker 1: He was a comedian. He was a comedian with paint.

598
00:26:41,960 --> 00:26:43,879
Speaker 1: You were a funny art teacher. I'm sure you were.

599
00:26:44,080 --> 00:26:47,119
Speaker 1: I definitely was, definitely was. You were sandals and like

600
00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:49,760
Speaker 1: paint splattered smocks and stuff.

601
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:53,280
Speaker 4: I definitely had some some paint splattered smocks, yeah for sure.

602
00:26:54,040 --> 00:26:56,359
Speaker 1: Smock yeah no, it's not like making me want to

603
00:26:56,400 --> 00:26:59,440
Speaker 1: wear a smock, like the word smock, okay, trting me on?

604
00:26:59,480 --> 00:27:02,399
Speaker 1: I don't know why. I'm like, you're smoking, put it

605
00:27:02,480 --> 00:27:05,040
Speaker 1: on before you fuck, you know, like, let's get let's

606
00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:07,880
Speaker 1: leave your smock on it and pull it to the send.

607
00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:15,080
Speaker 1: There I go, Oh my god, so great engaged.

608
00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:16,840
Speaker 4: I see what you see?

609
00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:20,320
Speaker 1: How freak you are? Smock on bitch, You're like, I

610
00:27:20,359 --> 00:27:26,919
Speaker 1: got nothing but a smock and heels on? All right?

611
00:27:26,960 --> 00:27:29,080
Speaker 1: So the heels are just dildos that you're walking, you

612
00:27:29,119 --> 00:27:29,479
Speaker 1: know what I mean?

613
00:27:29,520 --> 00:27:31,240
Speaker 4: Oh, dildo shoes? Can you imagine?

614
00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:32,680
Speaker 1: Too far? Too far?

615
00:27:32,960 --> 00:27:35,560
Speaker 4: I'm an artist and I'm creatives right for my vision.

616
00:27:36,160 --> 00:27:39,960
Speaker 4: I am not here that you had the shattering what

617
00:27:42,840 --> 00:27:45,680
Speaker 4: got into comedy changed my life, right, because that's what

618
00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:47,600
Speaker 4: comedy does for a lot of us, like suddenly we

619
00:27:47,720 --> 00:27:49,879
Speaker 4: have a voice, we get to go on stage and

620
00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:50,879
Speaker 4: find out who we are.

621
00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:52,200
Speaker 1: So that was definitely huge.

622
00:27:52,280 --> 00:27:55,320
Speaker 4: And then I lived with my friend Elizabeth, who was

623
00:27:55,400 --> 00:27:57,480
Speaker 4: into taro pretty much her whole life but was getting

624
00:27:57,520 --> 00:28:00,399
Speaker 4: back into it. She was practicing on me, and I

625
00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:00,880
Speaker 4: was like, let.

626
00:28:00,840 --> 00:28:03,119
Speaker 1: Me practice on you. And I just loved it just

627
00:28:03,200 --> 00:28:06,080
Speaker 1: as much as she did practice sterow meanings.

628
00:28:06,320 --> 00:28:08,280
Speaker 4: So I would take her car, she'd give me a reading.

629
00:28:08,640 --> 00:28:10,200
Speaker 4: She had a great book on it, so she gave

630
00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:11,440
Speaker 4: me a reading. She'd be like, oh, let me look

631
00:28:11,520 --> 00:28:13,119
Speaker 4: this one up, just to you know. So then I

632
00:28:13,200 --> 00:28:15,640
Speaker 4: give her reading and go into the book see the meaning,

633
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:17,920
Speaker 4: but then feel into it myself too. So if the

634
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:19,639
Speaker 4: card was about letting go, I'd be like oh, And

635
00:28:19,680 --> 00:28:21,720
Speaker 4: then I'd look at her feel her own energy and

636
00:28:21,800 --> 00:28:24,119
Speaker 4: be like, oh, well, this is what's going on. And

637
00:28:25,000 --> 00:28:26,879
Speaker 4: after like a year or two of doing that and

638
00:28:27,040 --> 00:28:30,320
Speaker 4: just you know, not needing the book anymore and memorizing

639
00:28:30,440 --> 00:28:33,399
Speaker 4: the cards or their basic principles, and I've always been

640
00:28:33,440 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 4: in path like and I'm sure you both are too,

641
00:28:35,280 --> 00:28:38,080
Speaker 4: where you can just feel into a person's energy, So

642
00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:40,480
Speaker 4: I kind of combine who I feel.

643
00:28:40,520 --> 00:28:42,080
Speaker 1: Like the energy that I have a good sense of

644
00:28:42,320 --> 00:28:44,920
Speaker 1: is whether or not you're poor. I'd be like, you know,

645
00:28:45,040 --> 00:28:49,440
Speaker 1: like you got a real poor energy. Your shoes look clean,

646
00:28:49,640 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 1: but I know you ain't got no money. That could

647
00:28:52,400 --> 00:28:54,760
Speaker 1: be a damaging heeler. I know that you live at

648
00:28:54,760 --> 00:28:57,880
Speaker 1: home with your my energy, like I'm able to tell,

649
00:28:58,000 --> 00:29:00,360
Speaker 1: like if you were that woman who killed Selene, I'm like,

650
00:29:00,440 --> 00:29:03,720
Speaker 1: if I feel the bitty bitty bumba the like como

651
00:29:03,840 --> 00:29:06,000
Speaker 1: la fleur, Like, if I feel that, I'm like, yeah,

652
00:29:06,000 --> 00:29:08,160
Speaker 1: I don't trust at home. Don't trust her, you don't

653
00:29:08,160 --> 00:29:12,600
Speaker 1: pick up on like yeah, trust stuff. I'm good with Devian.

654
00:29:13,280 --> 00:29:13,840
Speaker 3: I'm good with that.

655
00:29:14,200 --> 00:29:15,960
Speaker 2: I was out a couple of weeks ago and this

656
00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:18,880
Speaker 2: girl just stopped and she was like, oh my god,

657
00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:19,400
Speaker 2: I love you.

658
00:29:19,560 --> 00:29:21,880
Speaker 1: And I was like, does she know me? Because she

659
00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:24,920
Speaker 1: should not be saying that. And she was like, she's like,

660
00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:28,400
Speaker 1: your energy is amazing, like you've got and no, your

661
00:29:28,480 --> 00:29:30,520
Speaker 1: aura is amazing. And I was like, well, what color

662
00:29:30,600 --> 00:29:32,440
Speaker 1: is it? Because whenever people talk to me about I'm like,

663
00:29:32,520 --> 00:29:34,560
Speaker 1: what color is my aura? She was like, it's like

664
00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:38,240
Speaker 1: a bluish green, like purplely color. I was like, that's

665
00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:40,120
Speaker 1: three different colors. But I hate what you said. She

666
00:29:40,240 --> 00:29:43,360
Speaker 1: was on mile She was on mileage and then she

667
00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:45,360
Speaker 1: pulled a little bit. I'm feeling it. She pulled a

668
00:29:45,360 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 1: little stone, a little rock out of her bag and

669
00:29:47,880 --> 00:29:50,320
Speaker 1: was like just hold that. And I was like okay,

670
00:29:50,560 --> 00:29:55,480
Speaker 1: and she was like, yeah, man, it's amazing right there,

671
00:29:55,560 --> 00:29:59,560
Speaker 1: hold this rock. Well, I take your person take your

672
00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:03,720
Speaker 1: demit card in your back podcast I was. I was

673
00:30:03,760 --> 00:30:06,120
Speaker 1: with Carolina, my friend, and she didn't even look at

674
00:30:06,160 --> 00:30:06,960
Speaker 1: Carolina's energy.

675
00:30:07,040 --> 00:30:08,320
Speaker 3: She was like, excuse me.

676
00:30:08,800 --> 00:30:12,800
Speaker 1: It's so insulting. Actually, that's not cool. Really, I would

677
00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:14,040
Speaker 1: never if there were two people.

678
00:30:14,080 --> 00:30:15,960
Speaker 4: I try to be very mindful of that because sometimes

679
00:30:16,000 --> 00:30:18,160
Speaker 4: you can pick up on, you know, in the group

680
00:30:18,200 --> 00:30:20,440
Speaker 4: of people there's one person where we're like, yo, like

681
00:30:21,320 --> 00:30:23,280
Speaker 4: you see aliens or ghosts or something.

682
00:30:23,520 --> 00:30:25,200
Speaker 3: Can you really see people's energies.

683
00:30:25,840 --> 00:30:27,800
Speaker 4: I can't see what she necessarily saw.

684
00:30:28,040 --> 00:30:30,440
Speaker 1: I can almost like, yeah, she ain't a mess though,

685
00:30:30,480 --> 00:30:34,400
Speaker 1: that's what that was. That was mess I could probably see.

686
00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:35,480
Speaker 1: I can't. I.

687
00:30:36,000 --> 00:30:38,120
Speaker 4: I definitely have experiences like I also, when I was

688
00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:40,200
Speaker 4: talking to you before, I didn't tell you you have

689
00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:43,080
Speaker 4: a blue sparkle right here that was going boo boo boop.

690
00:30:43,120 --> 00:30:48,240
Speaker 4: So like, sometimes I can see So I can see

691
00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:51,640
Speaker 4: things like sparkles, and I think most of us can.

692
00:30:51,760 --> 00:30:54,280
Speaker 4: We just go, oh, that's just nothing, you know, we

693
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:57,200
Speaker 4: tune it out. That's why little kids are so awesome

694
00:30:57,240 --> 00:30:59,760
Speaker 4: because they haven't tuned it out yet, so they're able

695
00:31:00,080 --> 00:31:02,960
Speaker 4: to see. Some kids can literally see people who've passed,

696
00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:06,120
Speaker 4: like there are one of my friend's kid. She'll be

697
00:31:06,280 --> 00:31:07,760
Speaker 4: they'll be like, who are you talking to? And the

698
00:31:07,840 --> 00:31:09,959
Speaker 4: kids like too, and she'll be like, oh, Grandpa's here,

699
00:31:10,600 --> 00:31:13,120
Speaker 4: like and she never met him, you know. So kids

700
00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:16,520
Speaker 4: are very much able to see pass the veil of illusion.

701
00:31:16,600 --> 00:31:18,920
Speaker 4: But most of us, because we've been through the system,

702
00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:24,920
Speaker 4: we can form and shut it down up scared well

703
00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:27,120
Speaker 4: some people, you know. I tried with Shane to really

704
00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:29,160
Speaker 4: foster it and keep him as open as I could,

705
00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:32,640
Speaker 4: but also let him create defenses that he needs to

706
00:31:32,720 --> 00:31:36,040
Speaker 4: get through the school system and life right, because I

707
00:31:36,080 --> 00:31:38,720
Speaker 4: don't want him walking around in school being like, oh

708
00:31:38,840 --> 00:31:40,600
Speaker 4: your energy is this if if kids are going to

709
00:31:40,640 --> 00:31:41,240
Speaker 4: make fun of him.

710
00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:43,560
Speaker 1: He needs to feel out how open he can be.

711
00:31:44,160 --> 00:31:47,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, in middle school, so wo but no, kids are

712
00:31:48,120 --> 00:31:50,240
Speaker 4: very That's why I love hanging out with kids, though,

713
00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:53,120
Speaker 4: is they're so free. We're all weirdos and they just

714
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:55,960
Speaker 4: I was actually talking to I ran into Christa Stefano

715
00:31:56,320 --> 00:31:59,520
Speaker 4: at New York Comedy Club last night. He has a kid,

716
00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:01,040
Speaker 4: and I hadn't seen him in a long time, and

717
00:32:01,400 --> 00:32:03,720
Speaker 4: I was like, how's Delilah, you know? And he was

718
00:32:03,800 --> 00:32:05,400
Speaker 4: telling me. I don't know if I'm supposed to sare,

719
00:32:05,480 --> 00:32:07,040
Speaker 4: but he was telling me some of the cutest, weirdest

720
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:10,120
Speaker 4: things she does, like she makes him sing Happy Birthday

721
00:32:10,160 --> 00:32:11,800
Speaker 4: to her every day.

722
00:32:12,720 --> 00:32:15,720
Speaker 1: That made me so happy, cause I get it a

723
00:32:15,960 --> 00:32:19,640
Speaker 1: whole lot of woman. When she's gonna be very demanding,

724
00:32:19,800 --> 00:32:20,320
Speaker 1: She's going on.

725
00:32:20,400 --> 00:32:21,840
Speaker 3: How is how old is his daughter?

726
00:32:22,160 --> 00:32:25,960
Speaker 1: I think she's like two? Maybe yea. Is she gonna

727
00:32:25,960 --> 00:32:27,520
Speaker 1: be a problem, but do you know what I mean,

728
00:32:27,560 --> 00:32:31,440
Speaker 1: she's gonna make him poor. He's gonna be spending his money. Yeah.

729
00:32:31,520 --> 00:32:31,719
Speaker 3: I mean.

730
00:32:31,800 --> 00:32:35,080
Speaker 2: That's the thing about kids is they like and they

731
00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:37,000
Speaker 2: can kind of send sometimes when someone's like a good

732
00:32:37,040 --> 00:32:40,080
Speaker 2: person or a bad person too, write like they'll like

733
00:32:40,240 --> 00:32:40,720
Speaker 2: a kiddle.

734
00:32:41,360 --> 00:32:43,320
Speaker 3: Sometimes somebody will be holding.

735
00:32:43,120 --> 00:32:44,720
Speaker 1: A baby and the baby will be real happy and

736
00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:46,400
Speaker 1: then They'll try to slade their baby to me and

737
00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:48,160
Speaker 1: the baby will start crying and I'm like, yeah, they

738
00:32:48,280 --> 00:32:51,520
Speaker 1: noted it. I'm not here for that. And animals too.

739
00:32:51,640 --> 00:32:55,600
Speaker 1: Animals definitely know when you have like bad energy, you're

740
00:32:55,680 --> 00:32:58,360
Speaker 1: just like you're having a bad day. Yeah, they said, definitely.

741
00:32:58,520 --> 00:33:00,720
Speaker 1: Even if they don't know you that well, they can tell. Like,

742
00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:02,680
Speaker 1: I mean, a cat don't give a damn about if

743
00:33:02,720 --> 00:33:04,840
Speaker 1: you haven't a bad day, but a dog will come.

744
00:33:04,840 --> 00:33:07,680
Speaker 4: Lay next to you. I think cats do. Dogs are

745
00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:11,480
Speaker 4: a little bit more woke, but just by their like

746
00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:15,040
Speaker 4: their design. A dog's design is meant to be more awake,

747
00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:16,960
Speaker 4: for like, because I was never a dog person because

748
00:33:16,960 --> 00:33:19,840
Speaker 4: I got attacked when I was young, and then my

749
00:33:20,320 --> 00:33:22,240
Speaker 4: son has one, so it really has helped me to

750
00:33:22,320 --> 00:33:24,640
Speaker 4: like bond with a dog for the first time. And

751
00:33:24,720 --> 00:33:26,680
Speaker 4: one time I had a pot brownie and had a

752
00:33:26,760 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 4: real experience with a dog. I know that sounded weird,

753
00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:34,640
Speaker 4: you dog, I literally talked to the Definitely, the dog

754
00:33:34,720 --> 00:33:35,600
Speaker 4: kind of made me its bitch.

755
00:33:35,760 --> 00:33:38,440
Speaker 1: I started like freaking out. I got too high and

756
00:33:38,800 --> 00:33:42,400
Speaker 1: UH was like, ah, what is this? It's a hologram?

757
00:33:42,600 --> 00:33:44,719
Speaker 4: Like I was like, and the dog I was kind

758
00:33:44,760 --> 00:33:46,160
Speaker 4: of scared of the dog too, because it brought up

759
00:33:46,200 --> 00:33:48,920
Speaker 4: my fear around dogs. It literally like put its paws

760
00:33:48,960 --> 00:33:51,600
Speaker 4: on my chest, stood up on me, almost like in

761
00:33:51,680 --> 00:33:53,560
Speaker 4: a loving yet dominant way. Like think about if you

762
00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:55,200
Speaker 4: we were in a pack and one of the people

763
00:33:55,360 --> 00:33:57,400
Speaker 4: was freaking out and the person had to be like, yo,

764
00:33:57,520 --> 00:33:58,160
Speaker 4: fucking chill.

765
00:33:58,800 --> 00:34:02,680
Speaker 1: The dog like dominated me with love, like yo, you're

766
00:34:02,720 --> 00:34:03,560
Speaker 1: gonna have to you.

767
00:34:05,280 --> 00:34:07,280
Speaker 4: And do you put hands on me, on my chest,

768
00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:09,640
Speaker 4: on my heart, and was like talking to me like

769
00:34:09,760 --> 00:34:11,000
Speaker 4: you need to get your ship together?

770
00:34:11,160 --> 00:34:12,040
Speaker 3: What kind of dog is this?

771
00:34:12,600 --> 00:34:14,160
Speaker 4: Oh my god, it's such a beautiful dog. It's a

772
00:34:14,640 --> 00:34:18,160
Speaker 4: half I think greyhound half terrier. We adopted it, like

773
00:34:18,200 --> 00:34:19,440
Speaker 4: we don't know exactly.

774
00:34:19,200 --> 00:34:21,520
Speaker 1: But I feel high just by this whole conversation.

775
00:34:22,000 --> 00:34:25,279
Speaker 3: I feel like I also just took that's what we

776
00:34:25,880 --> 00:34:28,040
Speaker 3: want to We should have taken it edible before we

777
00:34:28,160 --> 00:34:28,920
Speaker 3: did this episode.

778
00:34:29,560 --> 00:34:31,480
Speaker 1: If you ever want to do that with me, we'll

779
00:34:31,520 --> 00:34:36,120
Speaker 1: have a fucking trip. Man. I see angel dos Okay,

780
00:34:36,280 --> 00:34:38,000
Speaker 1: all right, I don't need let me know when you're ready.

781
00:34:38,040 --> 00:34:40,360
Speaker 1: I don't need a dog to mount me. Yeah it

782
00:34:40,480 --> 00:34:41,320
Speaker 1: didn't mount me.

783
00:34:41,560 --> 00:34:44,040
Speaker 3: Love, it sounds like it was top of you. It's

784
00:34:44,280 --> 00:34:45,799
Speaker 3: like I got on top of you and then like, no.

785
00:34:45,960 --> 00:34:48,560
Speaker 4: It's look, I don't fucking soul and was like and

786
00:34:48,680 --> 00:34:51,239
Speaker 4: I realized dog spelled backwards as God.

787
00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:56,600
Speaker 1: You see, God is crazy right now, crazy.

788
00:34:56,920 --> 00:35:00,160
Speaker 4: Crazy else in Wonderland. It's like we're all mad down here,

789
00:35:00,239 --> 00:35:01,280
Speaker 4: We're all fucking nuts.

790
00:35:02,080 --> 00:35:05,800
Speaker 1: Just you the only way did she totally take acid

791
00:35:05,880 --> 00:35:08,280
Speaker 1: before you got here? You I took acid, I probably

792
00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:10,920
Speaker 1: would leave my body behind. My spirit would just be

793
00:35:11,080 --> 00:35:14,920
Speaker 1: like boo, look over this dimension, going back to my alien.

794
00:35:15,080 --> 00:35:16,160
Speaker 1: Have you ever taken acid?

795
00:35:16,440 --> 00:35:20,400
Speaker 4: No? I, uh, there was one I did, uh shop

796
00:35:21,000 --> 00:35:23,800
Speaker 4: you know my cannon. I did his podcast with my

797
00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:26,480
Speaker 4: ex boyfriend Tim and took an edible. They had to

798
00:35:26,520 --> 00:35:29,000
Speaker 4: stop the podcast fifteen minutes in. I got so high

799
00:35:29,080 --> 00:35:31,680
Speaker 4: that literally that night I saw an angel, but not

800
00:35:31,760 --> 00:35:34,160
Speaker 4: even in a fun way, like I was like experiencing

801
00:35:34,239 --> 00:35:34,920
Speaker 4: a time loop.

802
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:38,680
Speaker 1: It was a lot, dude edibles from If you should

803
00:35:38,719 --> 00:35:41,120
Speaker 1: maybe not do the whole edible, maybe do like I did,

804
00:35:41,880 --> 00:35:44,560
Speaker 1: maybe do half of half half. Yeah, half of it

805
00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:45,759
Speaker 1: was a strong one. I didn't know.

806
00:35:46,000 --> 00:35:47,880
Speaker 2: I thought, I yeah, well, because I want to do

807
00:35:48,080 --> 00:35:51,480
Speaker 2: like shrooms and I would like to try mushrooms. But

808
00:35:51,719 --> 00:35:54,400
Speaker 2: like also I don't really need to try mushrooms.

809
00:35:54,760 --> 00:35:57,400
Speaker 1: Want I want you to try shrooms. I do mushrooms

810
00:35:57,480 --> 00:35:59,000
Speaker 1: is not go heel yo. I want to get into

811
00:35:59,040 --> 00:36:00,680
Speaker 1: this healing. I want to know I can get to

812
00:36:00,760 --> 00:36:01,319
Speaker 1: where I need.

813
00:36:01,239 --> 00:36:03,239
Speaker 3: To be something, Sidney, where do you need us to

814
00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:03,840
Speaker 3: lay hands?

815
00:36:03,960 --> 00:36:06,440
Speaker 1: I need like the energy that Kate like, I need

816
00:36:06,520 --> 00:36:08,680
Speaker 1: some bluish, purplish green show girl.

817
00:36:08,680 --> 00:36:09,360
Speaker 3: I got that.

818
00:36:10,400 --> 00:36:13,080
Speaker 4: Okay, Well, you definitely already we all have the colors

819
00:36:13,120 --> 00:36:13,680
Speaker 4: and the auras.

820
00:36:13,719 --> 00:36:16,560
Speaker 1: You know what I mean. She just had someone see hers. Uh.

821
00:36:16,800 --> 00:36:18,719
Speaker 4: First of all, I did do shrooms once and it

822
00:36:18,800 --> 00:36:20,759
Speaker 4: did help me awaken to where I am at. It

823
00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:24,920
Speaker 4: was a horrific experience. But needed you're not really sellingrooms? Yeah, well,

824
00:36:24,960 --> 00:36:27,279
Speaker 4: I feel many defenses and blocks at that point that

825
00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:29,480
Speaker 4: I needed that to like let me see them.

826
00:36:29,840 --> 00:36:31,520
Speaker 1: But I saw all of them at once and I

827
00:36:31,920 --> 00:36:32,520
Speaker 1: wanted to die.

828
00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:36,200
Speaker 4: So I'm not saying that that's the way, but for me,

829
00:36:36,600 --> 00:36:39,400
Speaker 4: and I haven't done it since because it was fucking brutal.

830
00:36:39,440 --> 00:36:40,640
Speaker 4: Plus I did it with the dude that I had

831
00:36:40,680 --> 00:36:42,120
Speaker 4: only dated for like a month and a half.

832
00:36:42,239 --> 00:36:46,320
Speaker 1: And did y'all have sex? Not on shrooms?

833
00:36:46,520 --> 00:36:49,560
Speaker 4: I hated him on trooms That's when I realized it

834
00:36:49,640 --> 00:36:50,160
Speaker 4: wasn't about it.

835
00:36:52,360 --> 00:36:54,160
Speaker 1: You did shrooms, so you were like, yeah, we got it.

836
00:36:54,239 --> 00:36:55,040
Speaker 1: We got to end this. Oh.

837
00:36:55,080 --> 00:36:56,960
Speaker 4: He almost had to leave, but he couldn't leave me

838
00:36:57,000 --> 00:36:58,919
Speaker 4: because I was like wanting to die. But I looked

839
00:36:59,120 --> 00:37:01,400
Speaker 4: he had a he had foundation, like a stick of

840
00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:02,600
Speaker 4: foundation that fell out his pocket.

841
00:37:02,640 --> 00:37:04,080
Speaker 1: I was on trooms. I thought it was lipstick. It

842
00:37:04,160 --> 00:37:06,279
Speaker 1: was just like cover up for pimples fell out, And

843
00:37:06,320 --> 00:37:08,680
Speaker 1: I was like, you're a trade Like. I was like

844
00:37:08,800 --> 00:37:10,719
Speaker 1: you're rich, Like I like, I lost it. I was like,

845
00:37:10,800 --> 00:37:13,080
Speaker 1: you're lying to me, you're a really.

846
00:37:13,120 --> 00:37:14,640
Speaker 3: Wait, first of all he was wearing a foundation.

847
00:37:15,120 --> 00:37:16,520
Speaker 1: Well, well, I mean I would have left.

848
00:37:17,960 --> 00:37:19,160
Speaker 4: Was a subconscious nugget.

849
00:37:20,080 --> 00:37:24,720
Speaker 1: I would foundations in my shade. No, he's no guys,

850
00:37:24,800 --> 00:37:28,560
Speaker 1: get pimple. Pimple cover up. Yeah, you put toothpaste on it,

851
00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:30,640
Speaker 1: lit it drat and then you watch your p He

852
00:37:30,640 --> 00:37:31,080
Speaker 1: didn't know you.

853
00:37:31,239 --> 00:37:33,279
Speaker 4: He didn't know to get the best advice from the

854
00:37:33,400 --> 00:37:34,400
Speaker 4: unofficial expert.

855
00:37:34,480 --> 00:37:38,720
Speaker 1: Wait was his face? Did he have a good face already?

856
00:37:38,800 --> 00:37:41,600
Speaker 1: Because then like people get so conscious about the pimples.

857
00:37:41,640 --> 00:37:43,480
Speaker 1: But if you already ugly, then it don't really matter.

858
00:37:43,480 --> 00:37:46,320
Speaker 1: If you guys he looking, he has looking, he had excused.

859
00:37:46,640 --> 00:37:48,600
Speaker 1: He's such a he's such a cutie. He had issues

860
00:37:48,680 --> 00:37:49,279
Speaker 1: just like I did.

861
00:37:49,840 --> 00:37:50,800
Speaker 3: But uh, I was.

862
00:37:50,920 --> 00:37:51,200
Speaker 1: I was.

863
00:37:51,719 --> 00:37:53,839
Speaker 4: I was a super love addict at the time, trying

864
00:37:53,840 --> 00:37:56,080
Speaker 4: to use relationships to fill the void. And I think

865
00:37:56,120 --> 00:37:59,080
Speaker 4: that's what the shrooms, ultimately, with many other things showed me,

866
00:37:59,200 --> 00:38:02,120
Speaker 4: like yo, girl, super fucking issue like I was using

867
00:38:02,160 --> 00:38:04,239
Speaker 4: men like heroin. Do you get what I'm saying? Like,

868
00:38:04,320 --> 00:38:06,840
Speaker 4: does that mean one relationship after the other? You know,

869
00:38:07,239 --> 00:38:10,880
Speaker 4: just so you were a serial dator? Yeah, serial monogamous?

870
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:12,000
Speaker 1: Okay for sure.

871
00:38:12,239 --> 00:38:15,200
Speaker 2: Okay, yeahship to relationship.

872
00:38:15,680 --> 00:38:17,480
Speaker 1: Wait, so let's talk about these cards, because you did

873
00:38:17,520 --> 00:38:19,480
Speaker 1: a reading for us when we were in DC, and

874
00:38:20,200 --> 00:38:22,319
Speaker 1: I'm somebody who's like, this ain't real.

875
00:38:22,560 --> 00:38:23,520
Speaker 3: I don't care about none of this.

876
00:38:23,560 --> 00:38:25,480
Speaker 2: I don't care about horoscopes or nothing like that, or

877
00:38:25,840 --> 00:38:28,160
Speaker 2: cards or whatever. But I sat because I wanted to

878
00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:30,919
Speaker 2: see what you would see or what you would say.

879
00:38:31,080 --> 00:38:33,520
Speaker 2: And the first card that Kate pulled was the Devil,

880
00:38:33,600 --> 00:38:37,480
Speaker 2: and I was like, Wow, this ain't nothing but the Devil.

881
00:38:38,400 --> 00:38:40,160
Speaker 1: And it really was the Devil. It was the Devil

882
00:38:40,200 --> 00:38:42,160
Speaker 1: that was the card was called the Devil, and I

883
00:38:42,239 --> 00:38:45,000
Speaker 1: was like all right, well, I think I gotta go pray.

884
00:38:46,320 --> 00:38:48,800
Speaker 4: It was a good reading, though it wasn't. The reading

885
00:38:48,920 --> 00:38:51,520
Speaker 4: wasn't about you being the devil, right, It's about you

886
00:38:52,280 --> 00:38:55,240
Speaker 4: have locked away a lot of pain and a hard

887
00:38:55,400 --> 00:38:58,480
Speaker 4: way that you're not ready to fully like you're obviously

888
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:00,360
Speaker 4: starting to just by wanting to even have me on

889
00:39:00,400 --> 00:39:02,680
Speaker 4: the podcast. I think it's talking about the aura and like,

890
00:39:03,120 --> 00:39:04,759
Speaker 4: I think you're wanting to go there.

891
00:39:04,960 --> 00:39:10,160
Speaker 1: What pain? Okay, likes what I've been through. Maybe something

892
00:39:10,520 --> 00:39:13,719
Speaker 1: she had her period that weekend. Maybe that was pain.

893
00:39:13,760 --> 00:39:15,719
Speaker 1: I don't think that's what it was. I don't think

894
00:39:15,960 --> 00:39:18,200
Speaker 1: cram cramps.

895
00:39:18,880 --> 00:39:20,600
Speaker 3: Pause. I was like, man, I gotta take the bus

896
00:39:20,640 --> 00:39:21,320
Speaker 3: all the way back to you.

897
00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:25,120
Speaker 4: Okay, I'm sorry I didn't drive your asses home. Here's

898
00:39:25,160 --> 00:39:25,719
Speaker 4: what I had to go.

899
00:39:25,960 --> 00:39:28,080
Speaker 1: You had to go, Okay, you left right away.

900
00:39:28,160 --> 00:39:30,520
Speaker 4: You were like, so, let me tell you something just

901
00:39:30,719 --> 00:39:34,960
Speaker 4: doing I have social anxiety and I don't normally take

902
00:39:35,000 --> 00:39:37,080
Speaker 4: trips like that unless it's like to my brothers, you know,

903
00:39:38,080 --> 00:39:40,120
Speaker 4: like so already, the fact that I did that was

904
00:39:40,120 --> 00:39:42,200
Speaker 4: because I love the shit out of Amina and I

905
00:39:42,320 --> 00:39:43,840
Speaker 4: wanted to be there for her. But that kind of

906
00:39:43,840 --> 00:39:45,839
Speaker 4: ship already, like it's a lot on me. I'm very

907
00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:48,600
Speaker 4: sensitive being around a ton of people, my energy starts

908
00:39:48,640 --> 00:39:51,120
Speaker 4: to get like like I can feel it. Okay, so

909
00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:54,279
Speaker 4: I knew and plus I had I had gotten crazy news.

910
00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:56,680
Speaker 4: Yeah you know remember, and I was like trying not

911
00:39:56,760 --> 00:39:58,800
Speaker 4: to cry, and like the moment I left, I like,

912
00:39:59,640 --> 00:40:02,239
Speaker 4: you know, so it was just a I did feel

913
00:40:02,280 --> 00:40:04,160
Speaker 4: bad leaving you too, But you could have come. You

914
00:40:04,200 --> 00:40:05,400
Speaker 4: could have left early too with me.

915
00:40:05,520 --> 00:40:06,680
Speaker 1: I mean we had a good time. I know. I

916
00:40:06,840 --> 00:40:08,400
Speaker 1: was like, no, no, no, I paid for the brunch,

917
00:40:08,560 --> 00:40:13,040
Speaker 1: so I would want there at the brunch you run. Definitely, yes,

918
00:40:13,200 --> 00:40:15,240
Speaker 1: I put my money in for the brunch of bitches

919
00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:17,879
Speaker 1: going through the brunch. It was like a forty dollars brunch.

920
00:40:17,960 --> 00:40:21,560
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm going bo. We were definitely not

921
00:40:21,640 --> 00:40:26,279
Speaker 1: leaving before that. Oh to talk about Marie's pain, Okay,

922
00:40:26,280 --> 00:40:28,759
Speaker 1: I would have been in pain brunch. This is the thing.

923
00:40:28,960 --> 00:40:30,879
Speaker 4: A lot of people who are in pain. This isn't

924
00:40:30,960 --> 00:40:33,800
Speaker 4: just about you do not know. That's a defense mechanism

925
00:40:34,280 --> 00:40:35,759
Speaker 4: because I didn't know how much pain I was in

926
00:40:35,840 --> 00:40:39,160
Speaker 4: when I got engaged the first time to that guy.

927
00:40:39,320 --> 00:40:41,640
Speaker 4: Do you get what I'm saying? Because we can't know.

928
00:40:41,880 --> 00:40:44,480
Speaker 4: That's the point of the defense mechanism. So I think

929
00:40:44,520 --> 00:40:46,360
Speaker 4: that's what it's saying, is starting to look at what

930
00:40:46,520 --> 00:40:49,279
Speaker 4: might be possible. Like most comics use humor as a

931
00:40:49,320 --> 00:40:50,840
Speaker 4: way to deflect, deflect, deflect.

932
00:40:51,239 --> 00:40:51,960
Speaker 1: Most of us do.

933
00:40:52,360 --> 00:40:55,000
Speaker 4: That's why we're in comedy. We got good at that defense.

934
00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:55,480
Speaker 1: Yeah.

935
00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:58,399
Speaker 4: So I think the card is saying like, it's gonna

936
00:40:58,440 --> 00:41:00,880
Speaker 4: make you happier if you decide to go there. Healing

937
00:41:00,960 --> 00:41:04,400
Speaker 4: work isn't about hurting you. It's fucking brutal. I've been

938
00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:06,680
Speaker 4: in the fetal position a lot on this journey because

939
00:41:06,680 --> 00:41:09,359
Speaker 4: I have to integrate the pain that I locked away

940
00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:12,759
Speaker 4: years ago. But it makes you free to actually feel it.

941
00:41:13,200 --> 00:41:15,600
Speaker 4: Most of us keep pushing away these uncomfortable feelings.

942
00:41:15,640 --> 00:41:17,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I don't think that, like I've never been

943
00:41:17,360 --> 00:41:20,440
Speaker 1: through no crazy trauma, you know, Like I don't mean

944
00:41:20,480 --> 00:41:22,759
Speaker 1: about getting slapped. It's pretty fucking I mean, yeah, but

945
00:41:22,840 --> 00:41:27,120
Speaker 1: that's just like the Black Way. Yeah, that is literally

946
00:41:32,800 --> 00:41:39,400
Speaker 1: a dialysis bostick. Yeah, Okay, nothing.

947
00:41:39,520 --> 00:41:41,400
Speaker 4: You're not going to agree. Most people don't. And this

948
00:41:41,560 --> 00:41:43,759
Speaker 4: is the problem with that police academy situation I had.

949
00:41:44,200 --> 00:41:47,680
Speaker 4: We have become so accustomed to violence in the home,

950
00:41:47,760 --> 00:41:50,480
Speaker 4: whether it's emotional or physical, and we because it's our parents,

951
00:41:50,520 --> 00:41:52,800
Speaker 4: and because we love them, we want to justify it.

952
00:41:52,880 --> 00:41:55,160
Speaker 1: That's part of the defense. Well, they love me. I

953
00:41:55,280 --> 00:41:57,800
Speaker 1: had to I was acting up. We should not be.

954
00:41:58,800 --> 00:41:59,719
Speaker 1: There is discipline.

955
00:42:00,080 --> 00:42:02,840
Speaker 4: Be a teacher. I know about compassionate discipline. I'm not

956
00:42:02,920 --> 00:42:06,040
Speaker 4: saying kids are supposed to run wild, but physical abuse

957
00:42:06,160 --> 00:42:09,520
Speaker 4: and emotional abuse is not okay. Have I at times

958
00:42:09,680 --> 00:42:14,239
Speaker 4: emotionally abused Shane unconsciously? Never hit your son, No, I

959
00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:15,960
Speaker 4: don't have. You've never hit him in the butt when

960
00:42:16,000 --> 00:42:17,400
Speaker 4: he acted. If you never hit him on the back end,

961
00:42:17,400 --> 00:42:19,200
Speaker 4: I'm sure there were times when he was like younger,

962
00:42:19,239 --> 00:42:20,719
Speaker 4: if you went to do like running the road, that

963
00:42:20,760 --> 00:42:22,239
Speaker 4: I would do like a quick slap on the hand

964
00:42:22,239 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 4: and then immediately be like, I'm so sorry. I should

965
00:42:24,080 --> 00:42:28,560
Speaker 4: never put my hand down, apologizing to I'm very aware.

966
00:42:28,640 --> 00:42:29,840
Speaker 1: I'm surprised that he listened to you.

967
00:42:30,360 --> 00:42:31,239
Speaker 3: I'm afraid of your son.

968
00:42:31,760 --> 00:42:32,120
Speaker 1: I had.

969
00:42:32,360 --> 00:42:34,239
Speaker 4: First of all, I have a lot of anger, so

970
00:42:34,640 --> 00:42:36,680
Speaker 4: there were times where I yelled in a way that

971
00:42:36,760 --> 00:42:38,239
Speaker 4: was almost like hitting, and I had to do a

972
00:42:38,320 --> 00:42:40,960
Speaker 4: lot of work to not take out my rage on

973
00:42:41,160 --> 00:42:42,680
Speaker 4: my baby, on my child.

974
00:42:43,000 --> 00:42:44,840
Speaker 1: They've been taking people kids away, So I see you,

975
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:45,719
Speaker 1: I see what you're doing.

976
00:42:45,760 --> 00:42:48,319
Speaker 4: But this is what I'm saying, is that we look

977
00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:51,480
Speaker 4: at issues with the police or anywhere and we go, oh,

978
00:42:51,719 --> 00:42:54,120
Speaker 4: fuck them. This is the It starts in the home.

979
00:42:54,239 --> 00:42:55,680
Speaker 1: We are all guilty of this.

980
00:42:55,960 --> 00:42:59,160
Speaker 4: We all hold this violence within us, right and until

981
00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:01,200
Speaker 4: we all start looking at it within ourselves and in

982
00:43:01,320 --> 00:43:04,320
Speaker 4: our homes and start facing it instead of justifying it.

983
00:43:04,480 --> 00:43:07,320
Speaker 4: Until we do that, things cannot heal. So all this

984
00:43:07,480 --> 00:43:10,040
Speaker 4: external shit we're seeing is a reflection of us in

985
00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:13,520
Speaker 4: our inner worlds collectively, okay, And when we blame all

986
00:43:13,600 --> 00:43:15,720
Speaker 4: these external things, nothing changes.

987
00:43:16,200 --> 00:43:18,840
Speaker 1: Well, I think with the police, not only is it racism,

988
00:43:18,920 --> 00:43:20,920
Speaker 1: but it could be from the home. Like they're learning,

989
00:43:21,600 --> 00:43:25,239
Speaker 1: like to be scared of people of color from the home,

990
00:43:25,360 --> 00:43:27,359
Speaker 1: and we're additioned.

991
00:43:27,680 --> 00:43:30,399
Speaker 2: We are conditioned to be afraid of black people because

992
00:43:30,440 --> 00:43:31,960
Speaker 2: you know, all the movies and all the TV shows

993
00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:34,040
Speaker 2: that we watch, the black people are the criminals and

994
00:43:34,080 --> 00:43:36,440
Speaker 2: the rapists and the monsters, and like.

995
00:43:37,239 --> 00:43:38,440
Speaker 1: Like we see it.

996
00:43:38,880 --> 00:43:41,360
Speaker 2: Like my brother is an actor and he gets roles

997
00:43:41,440 --> 00:43:44,120
Speaker 2: for things, and he's always a criminal or a dude

998
00:43:44,200 --> 00:43:47,160
Speaker 2: selling a bag the on Canal Street. And he had

999
00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:51,200
Speaker 2: an African accent like and like it's crazy. And even

1000
00:43:51,239 --> 00:43:53,160
Speaker 2: when Langsting was here, our light skin expert, we were

1001
00:43:53,200 --> 00:43:55,680
Speaker 2: talking about it like the darker your skin is, the

1002
00:43:55,800 --> 00:43:58,280
Speaker 2: more terrifying you are, the worst you are as a person.

1003
00:43:58,520 --> 00:44:01,200
Speaker 1: And even if you or you don't think that you're

1004
00:44:01,280 --> 00:44:04,560
Speaker 1: racist in your mind, think, yeah it is. This person

1005
00:44:04,640 --> 00:44:06,280
Speaker 1: might have a gun or oh this person is dangerous.

1006
00:44:06,480 --> 00:44:09,680
Speaker 1: But that's in certain movies. Every movie that I watch,

1007
00:44:09,880 --> 00:44:12,600
Speaker 1: there's always the music in the beginning where it sounds

1008
00:44:12,640 --> 00:44:15,239
Speaker 1: sounds snow white and like the family's so happy, but

1009
00:44:15,320 --> 00:44:18,760
Speaker 1: then then the white husband is beating his white woman's

1010
00:44:18,880 --> 00:44:19,359
Speaker 1: as well.

1011
00:44:19,360 --> 00:44:20,839
Speaker 3: That's why I'm terrified of white men.

1012
00:44:21,120 --> 00:44:25,920
Speaker 1: All the white uncle is molesting everybody, trust men with beards. So, yes,

1013
00:44:26,440 --> 00:44:27,399
Speaker 1: you're exactly right.

1014
00:44:27,520 --> 00:44:29,200
Speaker 4: But this is the thing, because we're talking about two

1015
00:44:29,239 --> 00:44:31,719
Speaker 4: separate things now that are connected. So they're separate but

1016
00:44:31,880 --> 00:44:36,640
Speaker 4: connected because racism, these are all lineage old wounds, historical right,

1017
00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:40,400
Speaker 4: So this connects to slavery, and it connects to things

1018
00:44:41,000 --> 00:44:43,319
Speaker 4: back back back right with the Holocaust, same with things

1019
00:44:43,320 --> 00:44:44,640
Speaker 4: that happened way before all of it.

1020
00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:45,439
Speaker 1: Do you get what I'm saying?

1021
00:44:45,520 --> 00:44:51,719
Speaker 4: So these are historical wounds, racism, violence, rape that we

1022
00:44:51,880 --> 00:44:55,160
Speaker 4: all hold. And it's not just about racism though, it's

1023
00:44:55,200 --> 00:44:58,719
Speaker 4: about our parents also hitting us, and their parents hitting

1024
00:44:58,760 --> 00:45:01,279
Speaker 4: them and they're you don't even So it's this collective

1025
00:45:01,440 --> 00:45:05,719
Speaker 4: pain that until we see it in ourselves and say

1026
00:45:05,880 --> 00:45:09,279
Speaker 4: no more for others treating us that way, and for

1027
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:11,759
Speaker 4: us treating other people, you know, and not just making

1028
00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:14,040
Speaker 4: us the victim, but you know, kind of claiming your

1029
00:45:14,080 --> 00:45:16,440
Speaker 4: power with it. Until we do that, all the stuff,

1030
00:45:16,680 --> 00:45:19,160
Speaker 4: the racism stuff is bullshit, you know what I mean.

1031
00:45:19,280 --> 00:45:21,359
Speaker 4: But until we all wake up to our own pain,

1032
00:45:21,840 --> 00:45:24,880
Speaker 4: we can't change these things that are running and running

1033
00:45:24,880 --> 00:45:25,320
Speaker 4: and running.

1034
00:45:25,760 --> 00:45:29,480
Speaker 1: I have to work within ourselves before we can change society.

1035
00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:36,239
Speaker 1: I mean, I just saw that bluish greenish shut up,

1036
00:45:37,560 --> 00:45:40,759
Speaker 1: thank you damn bluish. Yeah.

1037
00:45:41,320 --> 00:45:42,880
Speaker 3: Wait, Sidney, do you remember any of the cars that

1038
00:45:43,719 --> 00:45:44,440
Speaker 3: Kate pulled for you?

1039
00:45:45,040 --> 00:45:48,960
Speaker 1: Uh? I had the same cards that Matt Richards got,

1040
00:45:49,760 --> 00:45:53,239
Speaker 1: five of WANs five ones. It was something about like

1041
00:45:53,440 --> 00:45:58,480
Speaker 1: me seeing my light or opening up so that I

1042
00:45:58,560 --> 00:46:03,480
Speaker 1: can really row and be successful within myself.

1043
00:46:03,480 --> 00:46:05,439
Speaker 4: It's the thing you were talking about before, holding back,

1044
00:46:05,680 --> 00:46:09,279
Speaker 4: not holding yes, letting this energy flow through you, even

1045
00:46:09,280 --> 00:46:12,279
Speaker 4: if it means having confrontation when we're holding back, when

1046
00:46:12,320 --> 00:46:15,200
Speaker 4: we're putting so much energy into holding back our true nature,

1047
00:46:15,560 --> 00:46:18,960
Speaker 4: we get like we're all off. So this was asking

1048
00:46:19,040 --> 00:46:22,280
Speaker 4: you to start really letting yourself flow and speak your truth.

1049
00:46:22,560 --> 00:46:26,400
Speaker 4: Because you're already compassionate, so learning how to speak it

1050
00:46:26,560 --> 00:46:28,200
Speaker 4: with compassion but with power.

1051
00:46:29,239 --> 00:46:32,640
Speaker 1: I don't know what the hell that means. Do I

1052
00:46:32,680 --> 00:46:35,160
Speaker 1: need to sound like do you know who my father is?

1053
00:46:35,360 --> 00:46:39,359
Speaker 1: That kind of compassion? No, that's not compassionate. I mean

1054
00:46:39,480 --> 00:46:43,120
Speaker 1: they need just google compassion for you, because it's about

1055
00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:44,719
Speaker 1: when you suppose it.

1056
00:46:44,800 --> 00:46:47,719
Speaker 4: Even in a friendship, if something is rubbing you the

1057
00:46:47,760 --> 00:46:52,040
Speaker 4: wrong way, it's about saying like, hey, I want to

1058
00:46:52,080 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 4: tell you about this without being like you know. It's

1059
00:46:55,200 --> 00:46:56,759
Speaker 4: not being like fuck you, I need to tell you.

1060
00:46:56,880 --> 00:46:58,520
Speaker 4: And it's not about holding it in and just being like, oh,

1061
00:46:58,560 --> 00:46:59,360
Speaker 4: I let it go, I'll let it go.

1062
00:46:59,400 --> 00:46:59,800
Speaker 1: I'll let it go.

1063
00:47:00,080 --> 00:47:02,040
Speaker 4: It's finding that middle ground of I'm going to speak

1064
00:47:02,120 --> 00:47:05,320
Speaker 4: up and if I lose the person because I'm being me,

1065
00:47:05,560 --> 00:47:07,359
Speaker 4: then that person needs to fall off. But the right

1066
00:47:07,480 --> 00:47:11,200
Speaker 4: people will find a way to have positive conflict with you.

1067
00:47:11,360 --> 00:47:13,759
Speaker 1: I just googled the meaning of the word compassion, and

1068
00:47:13,880 --> 00:47:15,800
Speaker 1: I don't think I have ever felt that. Tell me

1069
00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:16,560
Speaker 1: what's compassion?

1070
00:47:17,040 --> 00:47:19,960
Speaker 2: A feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who

1071
00:47:20,080 --> 00:47:23,440
Speaker 2: is stricken by misfortune? You know what, though accompanied by

1072
00:47:23,480 --> 00:47:25,440
Speaker 2: a stan desire to alleviate the suffering.

1073
00:47:25,719 --> 00:47:28,440
Speaker 4: Let me say, let me have my own definition, because

1074
00:47:28,480 --> 00:47:31,320
Speaker 4: that is going outward. Still, compassion has to start with

1075
00:47:31,400 --> 00:47:34,160
Speaker 4: yourself first. If it doesn't start with yourself, you cannot

1076
00:47:34,200 --> 00:47:37,640
Speaker 4: actually have it for others. Wow, So compassion first is

1077
00:47:37,719 --> 00:47:40,840
Speaker 4: seeing your own ugly parts and saying that's okay.

1078
00:47:41,280 --> 00:47:43,920
Speaker 1: I hold this collectively with everyone. Sydney sees her ugly

1079
00:47:43,960 --> 00:47:45,520
Speaker 1: parts of the time. She looks at her her feet

1080
00:47:45,560 --> 00:47:51,880
Speaker 1: every day. Bitch, you've got a lot have ugly. I

1081
00:47:52,000 --> 00:47:54,120
Speaker 1: saw them before. You don't have ugly? What energy is?

1082
00:47:55,080 --> 00:47:56,439
Speaker 3: What color is her toes?

1083
00:47:57,040 --> 00:47:59,479
Speaker 4: I feel, honestly, you want me to read your feet's energy.

1084
00:47:59,640 --> 00:48:00,160
Speaker 1: Let's do this.

1085
00:48:00,360 --> 00:48:03,440
Speaker 4: I see someone very beautiful who's been through a lot.

1086
00:48:07,280 --> 00:48:10,120
Speaker 1: These are Harriet tevin To's. I did not say that.

1087
00:48:10,560 --> 00:48:11,240
Speaker 3: She's called.

1088
00:48:14,360 --> 00:48:18,800
Speaker 4: Soft warriors. You have so much femininity to you, but

1089
00:48:18,920 --> 00:48:21,320
Speaker 4: you also have this is your whole energy. You have

1090
00:48:21,400 --> 00:48:23,640
Speaker 4: such a feminine thing, but you're also a tough.

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Speaker 1: Bitch like but you're actually not your feet are not ugly.

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Speaker 1: I my my corn with some castor oil, so that's

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00:48:31,200 --> 00:48:35,120
Speaker 1: probably why it's like soft hard it's I see it.

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00:48:35,320 --> 00:48:37,520
Speaker 1: I had it with some motive oil corns before. Like

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00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:40,359
Speaker 1: how do corns go away? You go wear?

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00:48:41,280 --> 00:48:43,120
Speaker 4: I had to go buy one of those doctor shoals.

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00:48:43,520 --> 00:48:44,279
Speaker 1: Is that how you heal?

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Speaker 4: It's a whole world. You gotta deal with it. I

1099
00:48:50,280 --> 00:48:54,800
Speaker 4: didn't just ur in, you bitch. I got one of

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00:48:54,840 --> 00:48:57,359
Speaker 4: the corn things and put it on and took care

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00:48:57,400 --> 00:49:02,120
Speaker 4: of my ship. Okay, well yeast infection. I don't you know,

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00:49:02,360 --> 00:49:05,040
Speaker 4: raykey heal the yeast. I go and get whatever I

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00:49:05,160 --> 00:49:05,640
Speaker 4: need to get.

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Speaker 1: You can't lay hands on the yeast. Take care of

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Speaker 1: my soul? You know?

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00:49:11,680 --> 00:49:13,360
Speaker 4: It's all it's mind body spirit connection.

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Speaker 1: Can you can you?

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Speaker 2: Because people listening to this might be wondering how they

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00:49:20,360 --> 00:49:22,160
Speaker 2: can take care of their mind, body and soul.

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Speaker 1: Also, like, can you give us a couple of things

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00:49:25,000 --> 00:49:28,799
Speaker 1: that you do for your soul or to like check

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00:49:28,880 --> 00:49:32,080
Speaker 1: in with your your own body besides meditating?

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Speaker 4: Question or besides well that could be one of them sitting.

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00:49:35,160 --> 00:49:37,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I mean I feel like there's more to

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00:49:38,160 --> 00:49:39,319
Speaker 1: just like meditating.

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00:49:39,760 --> 00:49:42,439
Speaker 4: Okay, so let me explain. That's a great question for real.

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00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:45,320
Speaker 4: For me, the biggest thing is listening to your body.

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00:49:45,800 --> 00:49:48,400
Speaker 4: Most people do not rest when they need rest because

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00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:51,239
Speaker 4: they feel guilty and call themselves lazy and beat themselves up.

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Speaker 4: So I'd say the first step is really listening to

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00:49:54,320 --> 00:49:57,680
Speaker 4: your body. Our emotions, our feelings are our guidance system,

1122
00:49:58,160 --> 00:50:00,320
Speaker 4: and we have shut them down and we've stoppedless. So

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00:50:00,360 --> 00:50:03,160
Speaker 4: if your body saying I need to lay down, I

1124
00:50:03,280 --> 00:50:06,200
Speaker 4: can't do this, actually listening to it. Maybe not every

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00:50:06,239 --> 00:50:07,880
Speaker 4: time because sometimes you're like I can't. I need to

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00:50:07,920 --> 00:50:11,920
Speaker 4: make money, of course, but really starting to listen, taking

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00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:15,560
Speaker 4: care of yourself, give like dating yourself, like, oh today

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Speaker 4: I need to go.

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00:50:16,160 --> 00:50:17,800
Speaker 1: I feel like I need a massage. I do.

1130
00:50:18,000 --> 00:50:19,600
Speaker 4: I don't even have the money for it, but I

1131
00:50:19,840 --> 00:50:22,399
Speaker 4: need to feel good in my body to okay, okay,

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Speaker 4: I say, starting.

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00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:26,480
Speaker 1: There, Starting there, and then what's the next level to like,

1134
00:50:26,840 --> 00:50:27,040
Speaker 1: you know.

1135
00:50:27,560 --> 00:50:32,720
Speaker 4: Getting a healer, whether it's someone who does tarot reiki, acupuncture,

1136
00:50:33,080 --> 00:50:37,160
Speaker 4: a therapist, but getting someone who can really support your journey.

1137
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:41,239
Speaker 1: And we can't heal alone. You have to get Can

1138
00:50:41,280 --> 00:50:43,319
Speaker 1: you get a healer on groupon? That's what I want

1139
00:50:43,360 --> 00:50:45,880
Speaker 1: to know. Problem you can get acupuncturists on Somebody was

1140
00:50:45,920 --> 00:50:49,320
Speaker 1: telling me about an acupuncturists on Bedford Avenue here in Brooklyn.

1141
00:50:49,400 --> 00:50:51,640
Speaker 1: I want to try. It's like it's like twenty five

1142
00:50:51,719 --> 00:50:53,320
Speaker 1: bucks or something for your first visit or something. And

1143
00:50:53,400 --> 00:50:55,120
Speaker 1: what exactly does acupuncture do.

1144
00:50:56,239 --> 00:50:58,120
Speaker 4: I've actually never had acupuncture.

1145
00:50:58,160 --> 00:50:59,920
Speaker 1: I know that it it the needle.

1146
00:51:00,400 --> 00:51:03,640
Speaker 4: When they go into your pressure points, they kind of

1147
00:51:03,719 --> 00:51:06,359
Speaker 4: help the flow. I believe it's chea energy. I think

1148
00:51:06,400 --> 00:51:09,200
Speaker 4: it helps to flow more. I'm not an expert on that,

1149
00:51:09,440 --> 00:51:10,480
Speaker 4: so we should do it.

1150
00:51:11,160 --> 00:51:11,680
Speaker 3: I don't remember.

1151
00:51:11,719 --> 00:51:12,760
Speaker 1: But then I do healings.

1152
00:51:12,800 --> 00:51:15,520
Speaker 4: I do a kind of healing. I do terror card readings,

1153
00:51:15,560 --> 00:51:17,839
Speaker 4: and I'm in a school for non dual cabalistic healing,

1154
00:51:17,880 --> 00:51:21,560
Speaker 4: which is fucking rado. But there's so many different things

1155
00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:24,960
Speaker 4: out there. People can either contact me if they have

1156
00:51:25,160 --> 00:51:28,320
Speaker 4: questions and absolutely, or you could just go online and

1157
00:51:28,480 --> 00:51:30,080
Speaker 4: kind of see what feels right to you. There are

1158
00:51:30,120 --> 00:51:32,520
Speaker 4: these sound healings. Oh my god, there's one place, Shofty

1159
00:51:32,600 --> 00:51:35,360
Speaker 4: Bar that has sound healings where there are these like

1160
00:51:35,440 --> 00:51:40,200
Speaker 4: crystal chakra bowls and they Oh my friend, her name's

1161
00:51:40,280 --> 00:51:42,520
Speaker 4: rock Star Sham and she has sound healings too. But

1162
00:51:42,680 --> 00:51:46,879
Speaker 4: basically the bowls. There's this amazing woman and she yeah,

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00:51:47,160 --> 00:51:47,760
Speaker 4: I can't.

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00:51:47,760 --> 00:51:49,840
Speaker 1: An it makes like a certain sound.

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00:51:50,040 --> 00:51:53,239
Speaker 4: You lay down and it's insane, like the frequency because

1166
00:51:53,280 --> 00:51:55,360
Speaker 4: we're all energy, and the frequency kind of like tunes.

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00:51:55,440 --> 00:51:57,720
Speaker 1: You. Oh, I want to try that too. I started.

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00:51:58,040 --> 00:52:00,440
Speaker 4: I went to one near me and Westfield, and I

1169
00:52:00,600 --> 00:52:02,279
Speaker 4: was holding in so much pain. You were talking about

1170
00:52:02,280 --> 00:52:03,600
Speaker 4: holding back and I didn't realize it.

1171
00:52:04,160 --> 00:52:05,960
Speaker 1: I went and laid down. She started doing the stuff.

1172
00:52:06,200 --> 00:52:08,920
Speaker 4: Halfway in, I couldn't hold it back anymore and tears

1173
00:52:09,080 --> 00:52:12,839
Speaker 4: just started running down. Afterwards, I felt like I could

1174
00:52:12,880 --> 00:52:15,080
Speaker 4: talk again, because I've been holding back so much I

1175
00:52:15,120 --> 00:52:17,360
Speaker 4: couldn't even really talk. Yeah, yeah, yeah, and then it

1176
00:52:18,000 --> 00:52:20,839
Speaker 4: sound feel good again. Sound healing, sound healing. And there's

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Speaker 4: a place called Opera Bowl sound Healing.

1178
00:52:23,239 --> 00:52:26,480
Speaker 1: That's there's a place called sound Bar Shockedy Bar, shockedy

1179
00:52:26,560 --> 00:52:28,160
Speaker 1: Bars in Brooklyn. There go to that.

1180
00:52:28,320 --> 00:52:28,480
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1181
00:52:28,640 --> 00:52:31,680
Speaker 4: There's a place in Manhattan called the Doing Living Marketplace

1182
00:52:31,760 --> 00:52:34,000
Speaker 4: that just opened and it's like basically a mall. Oh

1183
00:52:34,080 --> 00:52:35,239
Speaker 4: my god, you guys need to I'm going to go

1184
00:52:35,239 --> 00:52:38,840
Speaker 4: there later tonight. It's this mall now with like crystals

1185
00:52:38,920 --> 00:52:40,840
Speaker 4: and healers and it's a whole place you can go

1186
00:52:41,000 --> 00:52:42,320
Speaker 4: if you're interested in this stuff.

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Speaker 1: I'd really recommend checking that out. Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah,

1188
00:52:44,920 --> 00:52:47,160
Speaker 1: I might start. I might want to even do some

1189
00:52:47,239 --> 00:52:50,560
Speaker 1: events there. Talk to her. I'm like just listening to

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00:52:50,640 --> 00:52:52,719
Speaker 1: you joke about the sound healing. I'm like, way, hold on,

1191
00:52:53,080 --> 00:52:53,520
Speaker 1: start there.

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00:52:53,640 --> 00:52:57,520
Speaker 4: It literally you're we're energy, so like you feel it,

1193
00:52:57,640 --> 00:52:59,880
Speaker 4: just like you feel music and who it tunes you up?

1194
00:53:00,320 --> 00:53:03,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, I need I need to tune up to need

1195
00:53:03,400 --> 00:53:04,239
Speaker 1: a smug chick.

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00:53:04,360 --> 00:53:07,759
Speaker 4: Okay, you guys should definitely go together and check my

1197
00:53:07,920 --> 00:53:08,799
Speaker 4: oil right now.

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00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:16,799
Speaker 1: Yeah, yo, Kate, this has been outstanding. Like I want

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Speaker 1: to give you a test, but I feel like you're

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00:53:20,960 --> 00:53:23,919
Speaker 1: the most in tune with your mind, body and soul.

1201
00:53:24,040 --> 00:53:26,719
Speaker 1: It's very educated, very educated. Thank you. Yeah.

1202
00:53:26,760 --> 00:53:28,640
Speaker 3: We like to give our guess quizzes at the end

1203
00:53:28,640 --> 00:53:29,719
Speaker 3: to see if they really are the ex.

1204
00:53:29,960 --> 00:53:31,719
Speaker 1: But I feel like you are. You got it girl.

1205
00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:36,800
Speaker 2: There is there any other type of healing that you

1206
00:53:36,880 --> 00:53:38,919
Speaker 2: could Like what if somebody doesn't have a lot of money,

1207
00:53:38,960 --> 00:53:39,960
Speaker 2: but they really just want to.

1208
00:53:40,320 --> 00:53:43,320
Speaker 3: Like, yeah, heal themselves, like deal with some stuff.

1209
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:46,720
Speaker 4: Even yoga is a good place to start. My friend

1210
00:53:47,400 --> 00:53:49,799
Speaker 4: Ali Mason, she also is at Shokti Bar and does

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00:53:49,840 --> 00:53:53,600
Speaker 4: other places. She her and her boyfriend Aj they have

1212
00:53:53,760 --> 00:53:56,439
Speaker 4: this class where he does it like live drumming, which

1213
00:53:56,560 --> 00:53:58,480
Speaker 4: the music once again infuses it, and I think it's

1214
00:53:58,520 --> 00:54:00,200
Speaker 4: like ten or twenty dollars. I think she has a

1215
00:54:00,239 --> 00:54:02,879
Speaker 4: sliding scale for people who can't afford the twenty. She's

1216
00:54:02,920 --> 00:54:06,759
Speaker 4: a lovely human and starting there with a great yoga teacher.

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00:54:06,840 --> 00:54:08,640
Speaker 4: Some yoga teachers are not great. I've been to a

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00:54:08,760 --> 00:54:11,560
Speaker 4: yoga class where the woman was like angry and she

1219
00:54:11,680 --> 00:54:14,040
Speaker 4: was like fixing my posture with angry hands.

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00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:15,640
Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, not like she just got

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00:54:15,680 --> 00:54:17,839
Speaker 1: broken up with so you know something right? Yeah?

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00:54:17,920 --> 00:54:21,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, But yoga's a great place that's pretty affordable to

1223
00:54:21,160 --> 00:54:23,000
Speaker 4: start if you're kind of starting out.

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00:54:23,760 --> 00:54:23,960
Speaker 1: Yeah.

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00:54:24,640 --> 00:54:26,400
Speaker 3: Wow, did you have any questions for.

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00:54:28,000 --> 00:54:30,840
Speaker 1: No? I feel like you gave that reading in DC

1227
00:54:31,360 --> 00:54:34,759
Speaker 1: and I was thinking about it. But at the same time,

1228
00:54:35,120 --> 00:54:37,839
Speaker 1: I do be like, I don't know what Kate talking about.

1229
00:54:37,920 --> 00:54:41,279
Speaker 1: So it felt good when I was listening to it,

1230
00:54:41,400 --> 00:54:43,959
Speaker 1: but I was like, is this could this be real?

1231
00:54:44,160 --> 00:54:46,560
Speaker 1: Is this possible? So I feel like maybe we could

1232
00:54:46,560 --> 00:54:48,680
Speaker 1: do another reading and see how that go.

1233
00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:52,200
Speaker 4: Now on the podcast, No No, No Oh, I was

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00:54:52,480 --> 00:54:52,680
Speaker 4: I was.

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00:54:54,920 --> 00:54:57,120
Speaker 1: I was like, there's some personal things these people don't

1236
00:54:57,120 --> 00:54:59,160
Speaker 1: need to know about it. So you know, I'd rather

1237
00:54:59,239 --> 00:55:02,759
Speaker 1: just a one on off the record on one, you know,

1238
00:55:03,120 --> 00:55:05,799
Speaker 1: on one you're gonna turn a podcast off and let

1239
00:55:05,840 --> 00:55:07,759
Speaker 1: you go go to town with me, Kate.

1240
00:55:07,920 --> 00:55:11,320
Speaker 2: Right, okay, So Kate, where can people listening catch you?

1241
00:55:11,640 --> 00:55:14,480
Speaker 2: Do you have a website or someplace where they can

1242
00:55:15,000 --> 00:55:18,680
Speaker 2: you know, talk to you about healing or like where where?

1243
00:55:18,840 --> 00:55:22,239
Speaker 1: Where? Yes, I have a website, The Katewolf two f's

1244
00:55:22,320 --> 00:55:22,759
Speaker 1: dot com.

1245
00:55:23,800 --> 00:55:28,360
Speaker 4: My podcast, Invasion of Privacy almost always combines spirituality with comedy.

1246
00:55:28,800 --> 00:55:32,040
Speaker 4: So yeah, that's a good place to check out my stuff.

1247
00:55:32,200 --> 00:55:35,960
Speaker 4: I now run these uh break free hip hop conscious

1248
00:55:36,040 --> 00:55:37,040
Speaker 4: dance parties.

1249
00:55:37,320 --> 00:55:40,400
Speaker 1: That's right to talk about that. You have to come sometime.

1250
00:55:40,480 --> 00:55:42,520
Speaker 4: I the next one, I think it's going to be

1251
00:55:42,800 --> 00:55:45,680
Speaker 4: August sixteenth on a Wednesday eight to ten. And the

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00:55:45,760 --> 00:55:49,000
Speaker 4: v Spot so which should be Spot, the one in

1253
00:55:50,120 --> 00:55:54,400
Speaker 4: Marks there's a big back room. Okay, So yeah, so

1254
00:55:54,480 --> 00:55:56,759
Speaker 4: I'm doing those anyway. Just go to the website. You

1255
00:55:56,800 --> 00:55:58,919
Speaker 4: can see all my stuff there. But I'm really trying

1256
00:55:58,960 --> 00:56:01,320
Speaker 4: to create all these events at are about healing.

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00:56:01,480 --> 00:56:05,240
Speaker 1: Okay, The Katewolf with two f's dot com beautiful. It's

1258
00:56:05,320 --> 00:56:08,879
Speaker 1: on Instagram and Twitter, oh yeah. And then on Instagram Twitter,

1259
00:56:08,920 --> 00:56:10,640
Speaker 1: it's that Kate Wolf. Yeah, that Kate Wolf. Yeah. Okay,

1260
00:56:10,760 --> 00:56:15,759
Speaker 1: great Kate, this is blessed. Definitely catch us on our

1261
00:56:15,880 --> 00:56:21,120
Speaker 1: Instagram at Unofficial Expert. Catch me on my Instagram at

1262
00:56:21,600 --> 00:56:27,720
Speaker 1: just sid BW and Twitter just sid n YC okay.

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00:56:27,920 --> 00:56:30,600
Speaker 2: And then on Instagram I'm Reezy r e e e

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00:56:31,000 --> 00:56:33,359
Speaker 2: z y. Twitter, you don't really be tweeting, but it's

1265
00:56:33,440 --> 00:56:36,120
Speaker 2: miss Rezy now, but tweet us that, like people need

1266
00:56:36,160 --> 00:56:38,279
Speaker 2: to tweet out things that they might want to ask.

1267
00:56:38,640 --> 00:56:41,520
Speaker 3: If you have a question for me or Sid or Kate.

1268
00:56:42,320 --> 00:56:45,680
Speaker 3: My Twitter is miss Reez m s r e e

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Speaker 3: e z y.

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Speaker 2: Maybe we'll do like a meet up like an event

1271
00:56:49,800 --> 00:56:52,320
Speaker 2: at like one of these healing places or something like,

1272
00:56:52,360 --> 00:56:55,160
Speaker 2: and as many people who are listening as possible, who

1273
00:56:55,160 --> 00:56:56,960
Speaker 2: are in the Tristate area who want to show up.

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00:56:57,080 --> 00:57:00,279
Speaker 1: This would be outstanding, and just even like readings or something.

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00:57:00,320 --> 00:57:02,759
Speaker 1: I mean, we're going to do another Unofficial Expert live,

1276
00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:05,600
Speaker 1: so I think this would be amazing. We can bring

1277
00:57:05,719 --> 00:57:07,920
Speaker 1: up an audience member and you can like do a reading,

1278
00:57:08,080 --> 00:57:10,640
Speaker 1: like yeah, that'd be done. Yo, look at us.

1279
00:57:10,920 --> 00:57:12,480
Speaker 4: You can try to get weird. We could try to

1280
00:57:12,480 --> 00:57:13,880
Speaker 4: get the sound healing involved in it.

1281
00:57:14,760 --> 00:57:19,440
Speaker 2: My friends your friends of Shaman. Yeah, yeah, we can

1282
00:57:19,480 --> 00:57:23,480
Speaker 2: make it your friends of Shiman. I'm actually a librover ago,

1283
00:57:23,720 --> 00:57:28,560
Speaker 2: so's so cool. Anyway, we are going to go amazing

1284
00:57:29,440 --> 00:57:33,320
Speaker 2: to leave the people listening with one final thing about

1285
00:57:33,400 --> 00:57:34,960
Speaker 2: spirituality or healing or anything.

1286
00:57:35,000 --> 00:57:35,480
Speaker 3: What would that be?

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00:57:36,040 --> 00:57:39,160
Speaker 4: I would say the point of this human existence is

1288
00:57:39,200 --> 00:57:41,800
Speaker 4: to actually have fun, but to have fun while including

1289
00:57:41,840 --> 00:57:43,840
Speaker 4: your suffering, which is hard for a lot of people.

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00:57:43,960 --> 00:57:46,520
Speaker 4: And it's to be yourself. So I would just say,

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00:57:46,680 --> 00:57:50,160
Speaker 4: you know, break free life isn't easy. But as my

1292
00:57:50,280 --> 00:57:53,600
Speaker 4: spiritual teacher Jeff from my school says, in order to

1293
00:57:53,640 --> 00:57:54,960
Speaker 4: have a whole heart, you need to make friends with

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00:57:55,000 --> 00:57:55,600
Speaker 4: a broken heart.

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00:57:56,920 --> 00:57:58,160
Speaker 2: I think the one thing that I took away from

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00:57:58,200 --> 00:57:59,919
Speaker 2: that is that your spiritual teacher's name is Jeff.

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00:58:03,440 --> 00:58:03,720
Speaker 1: Jeff.

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00:58:04,880 --> 00:58:07,360
Speaker 4: We gotta give something else, Jeff, Elias Frankel.

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00:58:07,520 --> 00:58:10,080
Speaker 1: He needs to just go by Elias because or stuff

1300
00:58:10,200 --> 00:58:14,520
Speaker 1: on something beautiful Jewish man.

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00:58:15,120 --> 00:58:17,360
Speaker 3: See, he'd be wearing them little hats. We just we're

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Speaker 3: gonna go.

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00:58:18,000 --> 00:58:19,080
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for listening.

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Speaker 3: Thank you so much.

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Speaker 1: Kate, thanks, thank you guys. Bye,