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Speaker 1: time for another episode of Big Facts Friday. What's up? Everybody?
Speaker 1: Everybody feeling? What's what's on everybody mind? This beautiful day,
Speaker 1: feeling good? Everybody's blessed? Right? Anything on anybody's mind or heart?
Speaker 1: I ask you all that every week, and y'all be
Speaker 1: really do do you have anything? I'm good? Are you good?
Speaker 1: I'm good? Your shockers on line? My shockers are anything's
Speaker 1: good because I worked them. I worked on them. You meditate, yes,
Speaker 1: make do too? Know why why we can't? Oh no,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say that for them, So go ahead, all right,
Speaker 1: thinking of some ship. But this big thing come, we
Speaker 1: just I just can't be a dream and we go
Speaker 1: to sleep? Is reality? That's a great question. Hit them?
Speaker 1: You feel that? Mean? I feel with my dream? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Because you have you know that, No, you haven't been
Speaker 1: working in your dream? You feel it have a wet dream,
Speaker 1: bro it ain't this ain't that type of shows PTSD,
Speaker 1: I keep telling even made it a minute then now
Speaker 1: the kids can't watch God damn. Thought about that though,
Speaker 1: Like what if right now is not really happening and
Speaker 1: we're dreaming? You know, you have a dream and you
Speaker 1: what up and you had a miss called from the
Speaker 1: person your dream? But yeah, that has not happened to
Speaker 1: Have you ever thought about somebody and they start calling
Speaker 1: you happen till Yeah, that's kind of that could be coincidental.
Speaker 1: How does this happened too often? People? But people calling
Speaker 1: me that I ain't talked to a year? That's what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. That mean your third eyes open? Yeah, I'm
Speaker 1: tapping say less. Yeah, I don't think that happens to
Speaker 1: people as much unexplained because I keep seeing ship that
Speaker 1: I say that same scenario, same conversation with the same people.
Speaker 1: How m you ever smell some ship and took you
Speaker 1: back to the place you guess that's sensory. But like
Speaker 1: if you hear a song, it'll bring you back all
Speaker 1: the way years ago and make you think of a
Speaker 1: certain I mean that ain't really but that's that's really
Speaker 1: like nothing memory, yeah, make you Yeah, actually I'll do,
Speaker 1: but I'll be thinking, like I jumped to myself, like
Speaker 1: what I don't know, it's some scary ship. You don't
Speaker 1: gotta be scary, like this ship be so much the
Speaker 1: thought be so crazy to be like no, Okay, I
Speaker 1: see what you're saying, because I've seen some ship like
Speaker 1: it's gonna will but you know, like we're cooking this
Speaker 1: ship like and and drank it cloged up. I've seen
Speaker 1: some ship online to say, would you send this ship
Speaker 1: for five million dollars? And now the picture of the
Speaker 1: straw within the water you're talking abo junk. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: get what you're saying. Make you jump, so I enter
Speaker 1: my thing about the others start that's so fucking nasty. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's what I'm saying. That like like something to make
Speaker 1: your make your skin skin cross the baby like ship.
Speaker 1: You get what I'm saying. Like it could be a
Speaker 1: thought too though, Yeah, I mean I do that if
Speaker 1: I like, well, that's not really a thought. If I
Speaker 1: see somebody throwing up, it makes me naturally do that.
Speaker 1: So is that like do you think of ship and
Speaker 1: you have to reject it like bad thoughts you don't
Speaker 1: want to think about there's anything like stupid ship. It
Speaker 1: could be tripping fucking thinking about that dumbash like if
Speaker 1: I see like uh, if I'm driving, I see like
Speaker 1: a hearsing song that my mind did not have to
Speaker 1: snap out of it. Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I don't even want to think about all that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: here on this plan. Yes, so all that multiverse ship
Speaker 1: coming from from go ahead, go ahead. They're trying to
Speaker 1: slowly transition us into that world. We don't say everything
Speaker 1: that we have seen in movies, come come, come to
Speaker 1: pay right, Yeah, like all the endemic all ship it
Speaker 1: has been one where the aliens it really as us
Speaker 1: in disguise. Yeah, what if it's like really like, it's
Speaker 1: not gonna be like like the aliens you see in
Speaker 1: the movies with the fucking and the fucking, So that
Speaker 1: ud be on us. Could be that could be an Indian,
Speaker 1: It could be a fact I think I am, m hmm. Thank,
Speaker 1: could be the eliot. I hope, I am. Let's go
Speaker 1: j what we're doing today. Okay, So the word of
Speaker 1: the day is trauma, and trauma is any serious injury
Speaker 1: to the body, often resulting from violence or an accident
Speaker 1: or an emotional wound leading to psychological injury. It could
Speaker 1: also possibly be an event that causes great distress. Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: That's so are we talking about well, obviously we're not
Speaker 1: talking about like physical trauma, so we're talking about life well,
Speaker 1: but primarily you're both of them. But life trauma emotional trauma.
Speaker 1: Have you ever been like in the car accident and
Speaker 1: after the accident you kind of start playing like finishing up,
Speaker 1: like anytime you know you think she's going wrong. I've
Speaker 1: been in too many accidents. I've been in shootouts and
Speaker 1: ship and I'm like traumatized from that ship. Like any
Speaker 1: time I hear a loud noise or I'm looking around
Speaker 1: like that should be that should be like shoo close.
Speaker 1: And I've been in too many situations where I escaped
Speaker 1: by hair. You'mpa Yes, yeah, absolutely, especially when you think
Speaker 1: about like life circumstances, like you know, if you're boring
Speaker 1: into like parents that's like drug addicts or that type
Speaker 1: of nature, you're definitely born into trauma because in that way,
Speaker 1: you're not gonna have like the standard loving care and family.
Speaker 1: You're gonna be dealing with bs Off the dribble so
Speaker 1: you're definitely boring into drama, I mean trauma, but exactly
Speaker 1: trauma make your make you numb to trauma. I guess
Speaker 1: that maybe that's a conundrum. Desensitize, Yeah, yeah, you can
Speaker 1: see you can see so many some so many times
Speaker 1: that the first time I saw someone shot, I was like,
Speaker 1: oh ship. Then about the fourth time, like that, It's normal.
Speaker 1: I feel like as as black people, we kind of
Speaker 1: are decent, you get desensitized to it because either you
Speaker 1: live in you live in through it, or you gotta
Speaker 1: see it on TV. You see it on television. But
Speaker 1: I tried not to watch any of these police killers
Speaker 1: that happen on TV, but I've seen it already so
Speaker 1: many times. It's like damn, It's like I should we
Speaker 1: should really shouldn't be exposed to this much trauma. Like
Speaker 1: people that are living in some of these urban neighborhoods
Speaker 1: are seeing more depth and and and and near war
Speaker 1: than people that are actually going off to these other
Speaker 1: countries and fight. But I don't even think I don't
Speaker 1: think it's the trauma that we're exposed to. I think
Speaker 1: it's the the violence and the it's I can't think
Speaker 1: of the word I'm looking for right now. But the
Speaker 1: ship that we're being exposed to is causing the trauma.
Speaker 1: But what we're actually being exposed to is I can't
Speaker 1: think of the word, but it's like it's the it's
Speaker 1: the violence and the and the like the negative ship,
Speaker 1: all the ship that goes along with yeah, the killings
Speaker 1: and the fucking shootings and you know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: all that kind of ship, like that's what causes the
Speaker 1: trauma that we're experiencing. So how do you or can
Speaker 1: you alleviate trauma? Like can you get past their traumatic
Speaker 1: expiration in therapy? Therapy? What's some other ways? Though? I
Speaker 1: think we all kind of know, like therapy, but what
Speaker 1: what what if you personally want to start to alleviate
Speaker 1: and heal your trauma, which ship that then y'all might
Speaker 1: have done? Or I feel like the only way that
Speaker 1: you can maybe start to alleviate the traumas if you
Speaker 1: disconnect from the world. That's the only way, m or
Speaker 1: find an outlet, find an outlet, disconnect. You gotta read
Speaker 1: yourself up to me, you know what I'm saying. What
Speaker 1: you mean like, you gotta literally make yourself not give
Speaker 1: a funk about certain ship, but are leaving with you
Speaker 1: through your thoughts in triggers. But it's like a recorded
Speaker 1: like your mind records your life, right, so it's like recorded,
Speaker 1: it's recorded right here, So I see what you're saying.
Speaker 1: You gotta program youah man, They're just like but if
Speaker 1: you if you see some ship and it's traumatic, then
Speaker 1: but I feel like if you program yourself not to
Speaker 1: give a funk about anything, then it's like the ship
Speaker 1: that you Paul give a funk about, you're not gonna
Speaker 1: get say, don't give a funk about that. I'm saying,
Speaker 1: don't give a funk about what's already gone happened. You
Speaker 1: can't put two page back in the goddamn too, you're saying,
Speaker 1: I'm going to paste, don't crime spill. I think it's
Speaker 1: more so just being real with yourself, like when you
Speaker 1: go through certain things, like at least for me, like
Speaker 1: I feel like I've dealt with childhood trauma right and
Speaker 1: move into Georgia. I felt like it was kind of
Speaker 1: like with Jay was saying, you disconnect, like move yourself
Speaker 1: out the situation. But when I first initially did that,
Speaker 1: I felt like it didn't solve any of those problems.
Speaker 1: I had to start being real with myself or why
Speaker 1: does this, why do you act like this? What makes
Speaker 1: you chick? Because and then you'd be real with yourself.
Speaker 1: You realize like, oh, this came from back in the
Speaker 1: day when Auntie and blah blah blah and all that accountability.
Speaker 1: So when you have those triggers happen, you realize like, damn,
Speaker 1: Bank just said that, But that ain't really why I'm
Speaker 1: chicking like this. It's because of back in the day.
Speaker 1: It's why I'm kicking like, yes, that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: So you've got programs said not even give a funk
Speaker 1: about what happened because it already happened to me. People,
Speaker 1: you the trauma is excused to be some bullshit. I agree,
Speaker 1: I went through this. What do that means? Look all
Speaker 1: the ship do you folks go through the with the
Speaker 1: miracle stories that ship he's gonna make you a stronger week. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's a powder taking accountability to because it's easy to
Speaker 1: blame your failures on other people. But when you got
Speaker 1: looking at me and said, damn, I'm really not ship
Speaker 1: because I'm not ship, you know a lot of people
Speaker 1: can't face that monsters and people be trolling besides about
Speaker 1: different ship like the ship. I'll be hearing people like
Speaker 1: they can't go on because of this. I'll be like,
Speaker 1: duck ain't ship. Yeah, I wish dold with my problems
Speaker 1: because my mom wouldn't know what that means. You grown now.
Speaker 1: But some people deal with like some people deal with
Speaker 1: different some people internally different, different people different ships. But
Speaker 1: somebody like for like all of us, like, if you
Speaker 1: have your parents there, you're not gonna be able to
Speaker 1: relate to somebody that ain't never had a parent there.
Speaker 1: No matter how we try to ship in shape it,
Speaker 1: the form it, you're not gonna be able to relate.
Speaker 1: So if somebody would be like, I ain't ship because
Speaker 1: my mom wasn't there, but we all had our mom,
Speaker 1: we can't really relate into somebody that didn't have their mom.
Speaker 1: Can say well, you you probably had this, this and this.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, like, if you ain't had
Speaker 1: those same experiences nine times at the ten is kind
Speaker 1: of sucked up to tell somebody like that, ain't really
Speaker 1: just saying like, but you, but from your perspective, that's perspective, Like, Okay,
Speaker 1: some niggers could have a mama that they wish one there.
Speaker 1: That's true to me. Yeah, that's at the end of
Speaker 1: the day, like he could have got abused by it.
Speaker 1: Like you just gotta I feel like when you get
Speaker 1: when you get in a certain position and and it's
Speaker 1: gonna sound crazy, when you get become an adult, you
Speaker 1: gotta them to try to forget certain ship or leo
Speaker 1: past what you're gonna do. You're gonna be stuck right now.
Speaker 1: Don't hold onto it forever. Don't hold on to it
Speaker 1: that causes you what what it caused you? More? Trump
Speaker 1: you thinking about that though? What I was saying, like,
Speaker 1: you gotta reprogram your mind. You gotta think that, Okay,
Speaker 1: that ship was putting that that ship was on a test.
Speaker 1: You gotta look at everything ain't bad that you went
Speaker 1: through as a test because if you're still standing on
Speaker 1: your same two feet, that ship ain't break you. But
Speaker 1: if you look at if you're the type of person
Speaker 1: that looks for an easy out, and you say, well damn,
Speaker 1: I get to say I'm feeling because of this, of
Speaker 1: this something that somebody else did this excuse that's why it.
Speaker 1: But I don't I don't necessarily agree with that because
Speaker 1: it's like people that people that express their trauma, I
Speaker 1: don't necessarily always feel like it's always a situation where
Speaker 1: they're looking for an easy out or they're trying to
Speaker 1: use it as an excuse. A lot of people are
Speaker 1: so deeply affected by certain things that I don't want
Speaker 1: to say it's almost impossible for them to get past it.
Speaker 1: But it's it's harder than most and because of other
Speaker 1: factors and other like certain situations, like their mental is
Speaker 1: affected in different ways and they might not be as
Speaker 1: strong as such and such a soul and tol over
Speaker 1: there to be able to be able to move that.
Speaker 1: Did you see that this ship is affecting you to
Speaker 1: the point where you can't move on? That's when you
Speaker 1: seek help. If you're just seeing him telling me I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna help you, or you're telling I need this
Speaker 1: because I went through this, that means that's to me,
Speaker 1: that becomes an excuse. So what about the people who
Speaker 1: don't know how to get help? And I'm speaking of
Speaker 1: like younger people. I feel on grown ups, But what
Speaker 1: if a younger person just don't speak. But if you're
Speaker 1: a child ship, then it's your parents or whoever around
Speaker 1: you to get you help because I'm wrong. People don't
Speaker 1: know how to get help. Dog being real like safe.
Speaker 1: Some abuse women is getting abuse like all the time,
Speaker 1: and they don't know how to I don't know explain
Speaker 1: them because you know what I'm saying. But that well
Speaker 1: I said, it ain't that simple. Black. Some women that
Speaker 1: has gotten to try to call the police and then
Speaker 1: it doesn't go the way that they wanted to go,
Speaker 1: and then they have to go because you didn't call
Speaker 1: the police and you don't have nowhere to go. You
Speaker 1: don't have nothing going on. You can't leave and believe
Speaker 1: whatever whatever. But what is all that doing when you're
Speaker 1: saying all this, you can't do this, you can't do this? What? What?
Speaker 1: What's that? That's all it is to me? No, that's
Speaker 1: definitely an excuse. Like anything, you make up something reason
Speaker 1: why you can't do what you need to do. That's
Speaker 1: an excuse, no matter what you're trying to say. Because
Speaker 1: you can't call them, you can run away and be
Speaker 1: and sleep up under the bridge. Forere you gonna get
Speaker 1: your head? Whoops? You can you're gonna sett them and
Speaker 1: make an excuse because you gotta water shape. No, it's
Speaker 1: not it ain't even but it's deepers. It's necessarily about
Speaker 1: I can say all that ship leaves back to an
Speaker 1: excuse to me, and everybody might not agree, but to me,
Speaker 1: it's an excuse because how many women is? How many
Speaker 1: women that you have you seen? Kill that niggle? But
Speaker 1: what are they gonna do? Burn it bad or whatever.
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna make an excuse while gonna let you
Speaker 1: just do me any kind of way. Yeah, I see
Speaker 1: what you're saying, because there's an out in every situation.
Speaker 1: May not be comfortable out exactly, That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: It may not be, it may be a conumpt Yeah
Speaker 1: it maybe somewhere you have to do, you have to struggle,
Speaker 1: but are you gonna choose this? But it's not even
Speaker 1: about when when you're speaking on domestic violence and like
Speaker 1: abuse and ship like that, it's not even about it
Speaker 1: being comfortable. It's not I when I said not having
Speaker 1: an where to say, I didn't even mean to throw
Speaker 1: that in there. It's about it's more mental than anything.
Speaker 1: And the abuser has basically broken the abused down so
Speaker 1: low and so far so they feel like they don't
Speaker 1: have anything but else or anywhere else to go, or
Speaker 1: they can't call anybody, or it's nothing else to do it.
Speaker 1: So it's not about them just being able to like
Speaker 1: leave or you know what I'm saying. Whatever, it's like, Okay,
Speaker 1: They in their mind believe that whatever this abus or
Speaker 1: nigger or the abuser or whatever is telling them is
Speaker 1: the gospel, is the God on his truth, and they
Speaker 1: don't have any other alternative. But sometimes that the person
Speaker 1: that's being abused didn't even have to be broke down
Speaker 1: by the abuses. Sometimes they came up in these negatives.
Speaker 1: Easy to say that, that's easy to say they came
Speaker 1: I'm saying, they came up in these negative situations where
Speaker 1: they mistake that abuse as love. That's the whole point. Circumstances. Yeah,
Speaker 1: he just I don't know, but I see, I see
Speaker 1: what you're saying. We could never you know, we can.
Speaker 1: So I don't even know what I was. If a
Speaker 1: situation is uncomfortable, you have a choice to make it comfortable.
Speaker 1: You have a human As a human, you do have
Speaker 1: a choice when you start. That's called settlement. How do
Speaker 1: you feel like you must feel like you can't. I
Speaker 1: can understand, motherfucking man. Fuck you, that's true, But what
Speaker 1: are your friends telling you before they give up on
Speaker 1: where your parents, whoever, whoever in your life. I'm pretty
Speaker 1: sure they don't say it, you can come over here
Speaker 1: or whatever. But a lot of times, just so you know,
Speaker 1: a lot of times people that's being abused, those people
Speaker 1: around them don't even know all that ship. They don't
Speaker 1: even know all that ship they isolating And if they
Speaker 1: do know, you already then went to back with them
Speaker 1: a few times to where it's like you don't even
Speaker 1: want to go back and let them know, like, damn
Speaker 1: what you said was right. So you're in the situations
Speaker 1: like being stuck between the rock and heart. So what
Speaker 1: you did when you do that, what you mean if
Speaker 1: you don't want to go back and tell your friends that,
Speaker 1: damn you was right, what are you doing? But if
Speaker 1: you're making an excuse for this. But most of the
Speaker 1: time that's how it starts. It's like trauma, that's not abuse. Relationships.
Speaker 1: It don't really just be like here, it'd be like
Speaker 1: more of a yea yeah, it don't be like necessarily
Speaker 1: that you don't want to go back, like it's like
Speaker 1: a pride thing where you don't want to go back
Speaker 1: and tell them that they were right, it's already like
Speaker 1: you're already like in a deep state of depression. So
Speaker 1: it's like you just feel like it's just it's just
Speaker 1: too much all the way together to even try to
Speaker 1: like deal with them and then deal with this and
Speaker 1: they over here that's like abusing you or whatever. It's
Speaker 1: just like that ship, just like from because I have
Speaker 1: people that are close to me that have gone through
Speaker 1: this ship and it's it's like it's not it's not
Speaker 1: as clean cut as it seems you did. Some people
Speaker 1: are so subconsciously kind of like addicted the trauma, like
Speaker 1: they just like some people are people like they just
Speaker 1: they think this is how it's supposed to be. Like
Speaker 1: I'm supposed to be traumatized my whole life. I've been
Speaker 1: traumatized this way that way. So if you don't love
Speaker 1: me that type of ship, I don't think women really
Speaker 1: go into the whole. Some some people do. I'm not
Speaker 1: saying majority, but some people do have their mindset or
Speaker 1: even if if he not if he don't give me
Speaker 1: strict restrictions, then he don't love me. If you let
Speaker 1: me do whatever I want. But I think when women
Speaker 1: are like that, it all starts with like childhood trauma,
Speaker 1: Like they have some ship that they've been through as
Speaker 1: a child that's never been rectified, you feel, I'm saying,
Speaker 1: so now it just goes up with them. We're not
Speaker 1: get big When do trumpall become an excuse? Though? Um,
Speaker 1: if I think, if it's consistently I'm becoming an excuse
Speaker 1: the situational. I think if you just consistently like never
Speaker 1: try to do anything about it, Like okay, was you
Speaker 1: was in the trauma, you got trauma in your twenties,
Speaker 1: Now in your forties going through the same trauma. You
Speaker 1: ain't trying to do nothing about it. It ain't gonna
Speaker 1: be that long, but you've accepted it. So now you're
Speaker 1: using it as an excuse for my career never worked,
Speaker 1: because that's talking to about the people like we're gonna
Speaker 1: take the mess advices out because that's a touch touch
Speaker 1: a situation. But still I still feel like, if you
Speaker 1: want to leave your ass to leave, that's just how
Speaker 1: I feel. Yeah, that's just how I feel. If you
Speaker 1: wanna leave, you wanna leave. Ain't thathing else. At the
Speaker 1: end of the day, you're traumatizing yourself by letting yourself
Speaker 1: make an uncomfortable situation, make you comfortable. They're just to me.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, You gotta be, gotta really
Speaker 1: be gonna sucked you up for you think if you've been,
Speaker 1: because some people don't be, you could what you think
Speaker 1: it's trauma to them, may not be. They couldn't like
Speaker 1: you said, they could enjoy that ship. Yeah, but you've
Speaker 1: got some people that like they stay in situations it
Speaker 1: ain't even for them, it's for something. It's for like
Speaker 1: their family and ship. You got niggas that are like
Speaker 1: bring the whole family. So it's like, look but you
Speaker 1: know that. But you see people I didn't get shot
Speaker 1: and killed on Domestivius every day sometimes you gotto that's
Speaker 1: true still, but some people rather them die slowly than
Speaker 1: me going to go put my family in this ship
Speaker 1: and you go go do some ship to my family
Speaker 1: and protect the cuss of something A college well that
Speaker 1: whatnot want that would pay tax call them for I mean,
Speaker 1: I agree what you're saying like this is just sounds
Speaker 1: like excuse to me, but it is what it is.
Speaker 1: Because I guess the way I think is nobody can
Speaker 1: force me to do nothing that I don't want to do.
Speaker 1: Nobody can force me to think the way that I
Speaker 1: don't want to think, so I would never understand that
Speaker 1: it don't don't matter. I know women that feel the
Speaker 1: same way. I mean, I mean, I don't like women
Speaker 1: that there's one shot Charlotte, but you you can't even
Speaker 1: scream at me what fuck you? Because I've been traumatized
Speaker 1: streamed that by my mom and dad and like, but
Speaker 1: and they don't turn around. Yeah, you know what's saying.
Speaker 1: So it's all a choice. Yeah, Yeah, you can let
Speaker 1: trauma make you weak or stronger. I agree with that.
Speaker 1: Supposed to make you stronger, for sure. I think that's
Speaker 1: the purpose of it. Me personally, I think it's supposed
Speaker 1: to make you stronger because, like you said, you hear
Speaker 1: all these great stories of people who came from trauma.
Speaker 1: More times than none of these people came from trauma.
Speaker 1: The best artist, the best actors, producers, whatever, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, had come from trauma. Yeah. But you know,
Speaker 1: like like she said, everybody don't have strong enough man,
Speaker 1: so that's what you gotta seek help. Yeah. Do you
Speaker 1: think that people acting out in kind of the world
Speaker 1: wind and day and a lot of the stuff that's
Speaker 1: happening to so many different things that's happening is a
Speaker 1: result of trauma. Yeah, mass shootings, shootings, getting shot over,
Speaker 1: a packet of Mannames, getting shot over some cold French fries.
Speaker 1: I don't really think that that's trauma though, But it
Speaker 1: can go both ways because there's a lot of sick
Speaker 1: people out here without help. There's a lot of sick
Speaker 1: people out here that's untreated. How did they get how
Speaker 1: did they get there? Was it trauma that led them there?
Speaker 1: That's what I'm getting that was it trauma that led
Speaker 1: them to be that sick a little because like like
Speaker 1: she's saying, is you can't be broken. You know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. Somebody can break you to the point that
Speaker 1: you don't know what you're doing, you don't know what
Speaker 1: you're thinking. That's true, that's that's absolutely true. But I
Speaker 1: don't me. You can't got them continuously go through something
Speaker 1: and and not just check out of it. That's just
Speaker 1: my opinion on that. I can go through some ship
Speaker 1: that affects me forever in my life, but not even
Speaker 1: that keep doing it. It's like, fool me once, I
Speaker 1: got a choice, right, Yeah, fool me once. Shame on me,
Speaker 1: fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice. Same
Speaker 1: re rewire yourself. Like if you knowing this woman beat
Speaker 1: on you, bro or whatever she doing, you're gonna keep
Speaker 1: going back that when you do it because you're leaving
Speaker 1: the house. I just seeing that the folk got you
Speaker 1: chained to the bed. They're different. That's different when having
Speaker 1: the folks and dungeons and all that ship. That different.
Speaker 1: But but you're going around people, but I'm missing you.
Speaker 1: Gotta find me. If that's truma, I gotta go there,
Speaker 1: going to right, that's just you and your strong minds.
Speaker 1: You know, what are you saying? What are you saying?
Speaker 1: You and let him keep doing what you what he's
Speaker 1: speaking of life and choices like everybody isn't able to
Speaker 1: say everybody can make their own choices, not saying that
Speaker 1: there are not people that's not strong will that don't
Speaker 1: make the right choices. But he's saying that at the
Speaker 1: end of the day, you can't take your kids and
Speaker 1: go to Wyoming if you want to, how you gonna
Speaker 1: get there? Well, what money you're saying, you're saying you're
Speaker 1: speaking of somebody that's just depending on the abuser. You're
Speaker 1: saying that if they aren't that nor menally in the
Speaker 1: place to be able to leave, one of the reasons,
Speaker 1: and one of the factors that they aren't able to
Speaker 1: leave is because this person is their supports depending on
Speaker 1: That is a different situation if they're financially dependent on
Speaker 1: this because nine times out of tend if you're not
Speaker 1: financially or whatever dependent on this person, you have a
Speaker 1: strong enough mind to be able to try to lift
Speaker 1: yourself out of that situation. But if you don't, then
Speaker 1: you can't. Do you think that's some type of that
Speaker 1: put you in the wrong too, for giving somebody that
Speaker 1: much power. I would just kind of try to say that,
Speaker 1: like that is there a weird comfort in this situation?
Speaker 1: Like are you Are you comfortable in this situation in
Speaker 1: a weird way? Like kind of like, well, this bad
Speaker 1: is happening, but at least I know you see what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. But I think I think that comfortability comes
Speaker 1: from a place of kind of being stuck and stagnant
Speaker 1: in this situation, Like it's not it's not there's no
Speaker 1: excuse for it, for allowing someone to have that much
Speaker 1: power over you. But whatever caused you to be in
Speaker 1: that situation, like you know, certain different things happened like
Speaker 1: that caused people to get in situations like that. But
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, it's like if you're
Speaker 1: a victim in a situation, true enough, like there's no
Speaker 1: excuse for again you're allowing to have that much power
Speaker 1: over you. But at the end of the day, like
Speaker 1: we don't know what the factor's words that let up
Speaker 1: or that caused that situation, or that caused that person
Speaker 1: to be in a situation where that person had to
Speaker 1: have that much power over them. It's unique situations. He's time,
Speaker 1: but that's still you still coming from an excuse place
Speaker 1: to me. If you're gonna allow if you're gonna put
Speaker 1: yourself in a situation that you're uncomfortable with for your game,
Speaker 1: you're wrong too. You're just as wrong as the abusing
Speaker 1: for receiving it and accepted it, just as wrong you're
Speaker 1: using them. You funk with them because there aren't times
Speaker 1: where they're There are times that I'm experience from the
Speaker 1: people that I know that have been in domestic situations,
Speaker 1: and it's not about that they didn't funk with the
Speaker 1: person like the nigga or whatever. They really loved this
Speaker 1: nigg and they really care for this nig and they
Speaker 1: really like really gave their life up for this, for
Speaker 1: this nigga or whatever. And he in turn chipped away,
Speaker 1: chipped away, chipped away, chipped away, broke it down, isolated them,
Speaker 1: got him away from everybody, whatever, whatever, and then made
Speaker 1: them feel like, okay, like you're nothing without me. And
Speaker 1: then once he started, you're feeling like nothing without me
Speaker 1: or whatever whatever. That's when, okay, like the depression set in.
Speaker 1: Like when they got isolated from everybody, they didn't feel
Speaker 1: like being around people because it was just so much
Speaker 1: ship going on. Then when they started getting like beat
Speaker 1: on and ship, they didn't want to go around anybody,
Speaker 1: let them see like the bruises and you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, all that s it's just is the ship
Speaker 1: is just like it's just fucked up. It's fucked up,
Speaker 1: it's funked up. But you're still make an excuse for
Speaker 1: this person to beat on you. Regardless of what you're saying,
Speaker 1: You're still making any excuse. If you got hid the
Speaker 1: fact that somebody is abusing you, what are you doing?
Speaker 1: So what you're saying is and when this ship happened,
Speaker 1: it should just be out there. And that's like, just
Speaker 1: put it out there women, because a lot of women
Speaker 1: don't put it out there. Worse happening. Yeah, Okay, he
Speaker 1: just he just smacked me this time. But if I
Speaker 1: go out there and let somebody see it and then
Speaker 1: I have to explain to somebody what's going on, and
Speaker 1: then I have to tell him that this nigga smacked me,
Speaker 1: then this nigga might stop me out the next time,
Speaker 1: where this nigga might kill me next time, or like
Speaker 1: anything next time. If you want what was always a
Speaker 1: threat of him killing you? It don't matter what what
Speaker 1: was it? But again, like I said, it's easier to
Speaker 1: say when you're not in that situation. What was it?
Speaker 1: What was it? What Tina? Do you think if for
Speaker 1: Tina it was like for Tina Turning? I'm just speaking
Speaker 1: because we saw the documentary in the movie, like, do
Speaker 1: you think that that was her not being strong? Will?
Speaker 1: Do you think that was her comfortability with this is
Speaker 1: my record producer of the person that kind of moves
Speaker 1: my career and I need his career. I feel like
Speaker 1: her trying to say face for both of them. Yeah,
Speaker 1: But at the same time, I mean, I give you that.
Speaker 1: Most of the time, when women are in a situations
Speaker 1: like you don't want to admit that, like, yo, the
Speaker 1: person that I said I'm in love with is now
Speaker 1: beating my back. It's embarrassing. And on top of that,
Speaker 1: you don't want to go and say, like, let's say
Speaker 1: you did hit me right and you're telling me you
Speaker 1: ain't gonna never do that again. You don't want to
Speaker 1: go and tell screaming and now scream gotta beat for
Speaker 1: this man because I didn't told a scream that he
Speaker 1: didn't woop my ask this one time, and it may have.
Speaker 1: I'm believing that it was just that one time. A
Speaker 1: lot of times women don't know that they're gonna get
Speaker 1: their as beat again, but then again and again and again.
Speaker 1: Look at speaking even goes back to that's still an excuse.
Speaker 1: You know what you got, you know you in your face,
Speaker 1: so you gotta nip that in the bud right there.
Speaker 1: If you don't like that, I mean, I agree, and
Speaker 1: I'm saying that no, no, it's gonna happen. Great, let
Speaker 1: me get the funk I'm around you. But no woman
Speaker 1: knows that it's gonna happen when that when that first
Speaker 1: time from somebody that you feel like I'm gonna know
Speaker 1: how to deal with. But when it happened the first time,
Speaker 1: should that should that not be a deal? Breakup? That
Speaker 1: should that shouldn't be That's what I'm saying. So that
Speaker 1: after that, after that, any time after that, what are
Speaker 1: you doing? But some people manuse but he don't matter,
Speaker 1: It don't matter what the underlying excuses. It's dealing excuse. Okay,
Speaker 1: let me let me say this for him, just taking
Speaker 1: the icon Tina situation for instance, Like I got Tina
Speaker 1: when she was what sixteen? He took her, He changed
Speaker 1: her life. In the beginning, he wasn't ending her. He's
Speaker 1: all she knew. He wasn't beating on her. None of
Speaker 1: that ship they did, all of this ship, they made
Speaker 1: a career, they had kids. Then slowly but surely, it
Speaker 1: started turning for the worst. It wasn't like, Okay, he
Speaker 1: just beat the funk out of her the first time,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. It started with a smack,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Then he like grabbed her
Speaker 1: hair or whatever, and but every time he apologized. So
Speaker 1: it's like she was into this situation so deep. So
Speaker 1: every time this nig apologized. Okay, there was a piece
Speaker 1: of hope there. Okay, maybe he was like serious and
Speaker 1: he's not gonna do this anymore. Whatever, but come out
Speaker 1: of tea you're dealing with and drink Bill, drink. Look
Speaker 1: he's snapping on everybody, be beating on their being, on
Speaker 1: all the bad members and everything. How the fun's gonna
Speaker 1: believe this ain't him tonight because I'm bleeding, ain't know
Speaker 1: something making her making skills Like if I'm with a chicken.
Speaker 1: She stabbed me once, I'm not gonna get stay around
Speaker 1: and get stabbed again. I don't care how much I
Speaker 1: think I'm parting the hit home Girl through goddamn it
Speaker 1: all of leader who along the whole crazy She stopped
Speaker 1: him when you said that, I mean leaving alone with
Speaker 1: crazy and that's don't shot at me on a wheelchair
Speaker 1: for the rest of the life. That bitch ain't know
Speaker 1: where to be found. M He was making excuses. She
Speaker 1: was just mad. Bro throw don'gree something. No, this bitch crazy,
Speaker 1: bro right a wrong. You can love the motherfucker so much,
Speaker 1: do you traumatize your damn self as all I'm saying. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I agree, I agree, but you're making excuses. At the
Speaker 1: same time, if you ain't coming up like the other
Speaker 1: women you see a lot of women, it would be
Speaker 1: deal break up. But this nigga raised his voice in me.
Speaker 1: I'm not doing that. I'm not I'm not playing like
Speaker 1: that and won't call you no more. Yeah, I'm serious
Speaker 1: that that's a person that's not making excuses for you.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna how mad you get, don't do that, hopefully
Speaker 1: I say I. Hopefully I say it another one because
Speaker 1: you don't been the hell let me no more. I'm not.
Speaker 1: That's that's still that. That's like, that's that's a and
Speaker 1: level minded person, any any level minded person that like
Speaker 1: that's a deal breaker for me, Like I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: do my fuck you, I'm not gonna do that, but somebody.
Speaker 1: But there are people out there that aren't able to
Speaker 1: process that like that, and it and it may be
Speaker 1: an excuse, it may not be whatever whatever, based upon
Speaker 1: whatever they've been through in their life. I can't say.
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, it's like it's
Speaker 1: it's once you're in that situation, and once you're in
Speaker 1: it so deep, it's not that easy to just say
Speaker 1: fuck it. Yeah, And then you never know. She already
Speaker 1: dealt with previous trauma, so whatever he bringing is almost normalized.
Speaker 1: I get exactly what y'are saying, trust me, and I
Speaker 1: don't disagree. But what I'm saying is I don't understand
Speaker 1: it because everybody has a choice at the end of
Speaker 1: the day. You're saying, if a nigga take care of you, okay,
Speaker 1: then go broke it for even sleep up butting the
Speaker 1: motherfucking bridge with them and then beat on't you? So
Speaker 1: what are you doing? There are some people that sleep
Speaker 1: in the bridges that get abused, and I'm just saying
Speaker 1: the normal They ain't doing that, bro. If this is
Speaker 1: my brain is working. So if a hustler in the
Speaker 1: streets hustling, can they code? They can cold turkey leave
Speaker 1: the game. But it's gonna come. It's gonna be difficult,
Speaker 1: it's gonna be a process. You can you can wait up, bro,
Speaker 1: if you want to quit that ship, you can quit it, right,
Speaker 1: But will it come with something? What you don't say
Speaker 1: you're gonna do something, you can do it and just
Speaker 1: the bottom line, you can't make it. You Well, I
Speaker 1: gotta do this because I gotta pay my bill here
Speaker 1: and I gotta figure out how gonna pay my bill.
Speaker 1: I ain't suck streets no more. It's just what it is, bro.
Speaker 1: No matter what you're doing, you have a choice. We
Speaker 1: make We make choices out of being comfortable. Bro, you
Speaker 1: got to understanding sometimes that comfort Now I said earlier,
Speaker 1: comfort put you get comfortable and kind of fucked up
Speaker 1: situation sometimes like they're comfortable, and the situations like that
Speaker 1: could be the case in the streets, that could be
Speaker 1: the case in the abusers relate. That's all I'm saying.
Speaker 1: So at the end of the day, if you really
Speaker 1: want to get the funk away around me, no matter
Speaker 1: how entirely threing you, no matter because he's already abusing you.
Speaker 1: What's worst and getting the funk on what? Wait? What
Speaker 1: I'm going? What? What? What? Um? What? Partners fear playing
Speaker 1: it though, people because some people that might be abuse
Speaker 1: watching this. So if they're if they're in fear, what
Speaker 1: we tell them. And it's not that we're counselors, are professional,
Speaker 1: You're just talking to me. I feel like anytime I'm scared,
Speaker 1: if I'm scared, what I'm gonna do? Yes, I see
Speaker 1: your motherfucking bad In the words I'm an run even
Speaker 1: though they're talking about ste back and heyy baron, No,
Speaker 1: I'm that's just what you know, what I'm saying, that's
Speaker 1: just yeah, like if you see motherfucker's shoot, what's your
Speaker 1: first nime you're gonna do? Get low and rung. But
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, whatever it is, nigga, stop dropping road
Speaker 1: either yeah it's on fire, they tell you stop dropping road,
Speaker 1: didn't get up in wrong whatever. Usually defense mechanism, like yeah,
Speaker 1: you know you're like you said, defense mess kicking m
Speaker 1: So what you're doing, you're finding something about that ship
Speaker 1: you like and making a nigger skills. I don't think
Speaker 1: it's that. What is nothing Nobody wants to Nobody likes
Speaker 1: being abused. Let's just put that out. I said, you'll
Speaker 1: find something about the situation. Nobody like the sation. Some
Speaker 1: people are like for real, like everybody don't have the
Speaker 1: mindset that you have. Everybody had a mindset Jade and
Speaker 1: I have, Like everybody don't have that, so like and
Speaker 1: everybody don't deal with they're like trauma the same type
Speaker 1: of ways neither. So what I'm saying is some people
Speaker 1: are really, really really at their lowest point, especially like,
Speaker 1: if you're not, you know what I'm saying. Hold on,
Speaker 1: let me let me say this shot. You're not you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Trust me, I know everybody is
Speaker 1: not having strong wheel. Strong minded people are in certain
Speaker 1: situations because they feel like their forced to be, not
Speaker 1: because they are for they feel that way. They feel like.
Speaker 1: So when you're feeling a certain type of way because
Speaker 1: you're when you're feeling weak, what are you're doing? You're
Speaker 1: making an excuse for yourself to stay in that situation.
Speaker 1: I ain't saying this right or wrong. I ain't saying it.
Speaker 1: I ain't been a situation that I don't want to
Speaker 1: be in. I ain't saying I don't do things that
Speaker 1: I don't want to do. I'm not saying that. I'm
Speaker 1: not saying that I don't make excuse of What I'm
Speaker 1: saying is when you're standing up abutiful situation or or
Speaker 1: the streets because I need to pay my bills, that's
Speaker 1: an excuse. With other options options, and you're doing something
Speaker 1: that's that you don't want to do, you're making an excuse.
Speaker 1: But even taking, even taking like a person that's in
Speaker 1: a deep depression, when you're down in that hole. You
Speaker 1: don't see those other options. Those other options aren't visible
Speaker 1: to you. And it takes a lot to pull yourself
Speaker 1: out of that hole. It's not, it's not it takes
Speaker 1: more than a lot. It takes more than a little
Speaker 1: bit to pull yourself out of that hole. And when
Speaker 1: you're when you're in that hole of depression or abuse,
Speaker 1: or you know what I'm saying, whatever it is, it's
Speaker 1: like you're down there and you're looking up, but there's
Speaker 1: no light there because whatever reason. You know what I'm
Speaker 1: saying that, like you said, it may be an excuse
Speaker 1: or whatever, but it's not always that's simple. Did I
Speaker 1: just said it. I ain't saying that it's simple or easy.
Speaker 1: I'm saying at the end of the day, the bottom
Speaker 1: line to it, the what you call it, the diagnosis
Speaker 1: of it is an excuse. You always can change your mind,
Speaker 1: come on, trip it can you? Even if you're depressed,
Speaker 1: can't you change your mind to be not? Have you
Speaker 1: seen people come come out of depressure? Yeah? Why did
Speaker 1: they come out of depressure? Help? Even if I'm saying
Speaker 1: niggas that don't that don't don't get help, how they
Speaker 1: come out of depression? It's not just a clicker to
Speaker 1: change your mind? Banks what else is it? Then? Shot?
Speaker 1: Sometimes they diagnosis teen years. I don't know, but you're
Speaker 1: still at ain't your mind? You have to make a
Speaker 1: choice that I'm not going You gotta making the choice
Speaker 1: to get help is a big part of that, because
Speaker 1: some people just will be stuck in this ship. Yeah.
Speaker 1: I understand that it's an illness, right, Yes, definitely a
Speaker 1: drug drug addition is an illness to us. But can't
Speaker 1: you make up your mind? And ain't smoking crack normal?
Speaker 1: You got to change your life, people, That's all I'm saying. People,
Speaker 1: and they who say, God, damn, bro, the don't got me.
Speaker 1: I just can't shake it, Okay, But that's not an
Speaker 1: excuse because you can't, cause we have seen people do it,
Speaker 1: That's all I'm saying. We've seen people come out of
Speaker 1: all these situations that everybody helped been in. Are you
Speaker 1: also seen a whole bunch of people not be able
Speaker 1: to come out those true? Because they're still making excuses. No,
Speaker 1: some people tried to leave and still got killed and
Speaker 1: all that other stuff. So now like w even domestic violence,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? And how many people tried
Speaker 1: to leave and end up getting killed because they left,
Speaker 1: they tried to leave. I'm just saying like, that's with
Speaker 1: a lot of people fear. Like when you when you're
Speaker 1: in no situations, you're not fearing that, oh, if I leave,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna be able to make it without this person.
Speaker 1: You're more fear. You're in fear of what this person
Speaker 1: may do by me attempting to leave. But that's most
Speaker 1: people when they're in these domestic violence. But is like,
Speaker 1: if if it comes to that, let's say your life
Speaker 1: comes to it end or whatever, something extreme, would you
Speaker 1: rather that be kind of like honorably makings or kind
Speaker 1: of going outside like then we wish, right? But also
Speaker 1: I feel like in a lot of those situations, like
Speaker 1: I said, if that was that's how it ended, I
Speaker 1: feel like it was all it was always you was
Speaker 1: with a killer. If you're gonna kill you, if you
Speaker 1: if you try to leave regardlessly you could have made
Speaker 1: this Bologney sound was wrong. He was he was gonna
Speaker 1: do that. That That's how it was gonna end you
Speaker 1: living dead? Right, Yeah, I don't know, And that's fun.
Speaker 1: It's think about the ship. That's how it was. Either
Speaker 1: you're gonna live. You're gonna die living with this thig
Speaker 1: or you gonn that running. I don't know. I think
Speaker 1: anybody that's dealing with them as violence and trauma disc
Speaker 1: please see that. That's the first weapons that is sending
Speaker 1: the house saying okay, because I'm in it comes this way.
Speaker 1: They ain't got nowhere else to go. I ain't did
Speaker 1: some I'm scared and they're gonna kill me. Go get
Speaker 1: you some help, and they hopefully go get some help.
Speaker 1: They show you how that you are, They show you
Speaker 1: that it can be okay. Yes, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: You can make a different choice. You don't have to
Speaker 1: make any excuse for this, nigga. You don't have to
Speaker 1: be scheduled nigga, and you don't have to be comfortment
Speaker 1: in okay just because you gotta leave this house. So what,
Speaker 1: I'm not being abused no more? Yeah? How many women'
Speaker 1: all the scenes up and leave everything? I don't care about, No,
Speaker 1: don't give a damn about then. I want the voice.
Speaker 1: You can have everything. I many women you don't see
Speaker 1: you do that? Could they choosing them? Yeah? Yeah, but
Speaker 1: there was a process. That's that's that's all I'm saying
Speaker 1: there was a long process to get to that point,
Speaker 1: to choose themselves facts them facts. That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, when you you
Speaker 1: gotta start it, and starting it is a decision, right,
Speaker 1: I agree you start the process is a decision once
Speaker 1: you ultimately make a decision. I give what y'all saying.
Speaker 1: When you get down and not in depression, will you
Speaker 1: really can't even think clearly? True? But before but while
Speaker 1: you're down, you're still thinking. I promise you it's coming
Speaker 1: up in your head how I can get away. And
Speaker 1: I guarantee you don't thought of a good way to
Speaker 1: get away. You just didn't do it. M hm, right wrong,
Speaker 1: right now? Yeah, yeah, you may have a big fact
Speaker 1: right there, Like the nigga locked themselves twenty four hour day,
Speaker 1: all you're doing thinking about how you can squeeze out
Speaker 1: the balls. You might can't get out that mothercker, but
Speaker 1: you're still thinking about how you're gonna get out of there, bitch, Yeah,
Speaker 1: right right. I ain't like, I ain't trying to sound
Speaker 1: like the nigga who's saying like, okay, up in leave.
Speaker 1: I understand it because I don't see all this you're
Speaker 1: talking about too. I don't think that. But at the
Speaker 1: end of the day, it all board out to choices.
Speaker 1: Though regardless how small, how weak you here, what made
Speaker 1: you that week trauma, but you're gonna continue to go
Speaker 1: through and make yourself work. That's the choice. That's the choice.
Speaker 1: Some people make the right choices, like just at the
Speaker 1: right time. You know, certain people that was gonna crash
Speaker 1: out or be fucked up if they didn't make that
Speaker 1: choice like that. It's like a light bulb. We've all
Speaker 1: done it, but y'all take it to another level with
Speaker 1: the mists of violar ship. I was basically to my
Speaker 1: people making excuses why they can't come up, or they
Speaker 1: ain't got no job, or ain't this or every time
Speaker 1: like niggas don't want to work, don't want to keep
Speaker 1: their job, is because of this. I don't think that's trauma.
Speaker 1: I think that that's what people that use that as
Speaker 1: an excuse, they always got an excuse trauma. Nobody taught
Speaker 1: me how to be man, Nobody taught me how to
Speaker 1: treat women. Nobody taught me. Bro You use an excuse,
Speaker 1: you know, that's definitely nobody. Something something is used to
Speaker 1: a line nobody taught me how to love, Like niggers
Speaker 1: really be telling women like nobody taught me how to love,
Speaker 1: and that's why I can't love. But that's that's a
Speaker 1: real thing. It's excused. But this households without love. Yeah, definitely,
Speaker 1: they don't know nothing about that. It didn't come up
Speaker 1: like that. All they saw was domestic. But how long
Speaker 1: are you going to use that as your excuse them
Speaker 1: use your trauma? I think because whenever, like when if
Speaker 1: you're saying, like, nobody taught me how love, but you
Speaker 1: know how you would want to be loved, so you
Speaker 1: would know the feeling of love. So when you get
Speaker 1: it like, it's still you might not know how. Yeah,
Speaker 1: how you want to be loved, The way you might
Speaker 1: want to be loved might be the trauma that's causing
Speaker 1: you to fucking not know. There you go, Okay, yeah,
Speaker 1: I didn't think of it like that. There. I feel
Speaker 1: like that's like a like a like a dude that
Speaker 1: grew up without a father telling his kid with it.
Speaker 1: I ain't hand no father. You know, I don't know
Speaker 1: what I'm doing. I mean, you gotta learn how to
Speaker 1: do that ship. Yeah, my niggas that I know they
Speaker 1: grew up without fathers to have sons and have daughters
Speaker 1: and children overcompensate for the fact that they didn't have fathers,
Speaker 1: to try to make sure that their kids are in
Speaker 1: a better situation and a better predict will not predicament,
Speaker 1: but are way off better than Yeah, they kind of
Speaker 1: give them what they didn't have. I think making an
Speaker 1: excuse and being embarrassed about your trauma or or being
Speaker 1: traumatized ultimately leads to suicide and depression. That's why I
Speaker 1: feel like suicide. I feel like suicide comes from being
Speaker 1: embarrassed about your trauma, like trying to like that you're saying,
Speaker 1: trying to keep a secret, trying to do this, and
Speaker 1: trying to make everything perfect in fear, in fear. Other
Speaker 1: people may think it's basically opinion. Yeah, exactly, it's basically
Speaker 1: be an opinionate. Okay, if you didn't give a funk,
Speaker 1: then what you do I mean, if you didn't give
Speaker 1: a funk about what people thought, what would you do?
Speaker 1: You always be happy, traumatized, You didn't give a funk
Speaker 1: about everybody knowing, and you weren't trying to keep this
Speaker 1: nigger face looking good or whatever, keep the relationship making
Speaker 1: seem like it or not making excuse you? What would
Speaker 1: you do if you didn't want to be traumatized? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Mhm so who really? So who really harming you? Is
Speaker 1: what I'm axing yourself? You're mental? Who really harming you? You? Yeah?
Speaker 1: I think that's going because people only do to you
Speaker 1: what you're allowed them to do. You're the control of
Speaker 1: your destiny for sure. When those choices are deep. There
Speaker 1: are circumstances, just like we always say, they are a circle.
Speaker 1: There's there's exceptions to every rule, right, But you're ultimately
Speaker 1: responsible for your destiny and your choices. That's all I'm saying.
Speaker 1: If you won't leave your lead, If you don't, won't
Speaker 1: you feel stuck? You're making any exhues because you never stuck.
Speaker 1: You just gotta let your pride down, go work in it, well,
Speaker 1: go live in it. Well yeah, but again, like I said,
Speaker 1: like a lot of the times, it's not necessarily it
Speaker 1: doesn't necessarily have anything to do with pride. It's like
Speaker 1: a mental thing here. Like they've been I don't know,
Speaker 1: as they've been broken. She's saying, they've been broken a processes.
Speaker 1: I know, want to see a pussy, I don't know
Speaker 1: what you're telling, man, Niggas ain't copssing because they they
Speaker 1: want to do. I'm gonna say, this ship without a pimp,
Speaker 1: I just need you for protection. Let's be realm, every
Speaker 1: hole that's a whole wanted to be a hope. No,
Speaker 1: unless they got raped of someone. There was kids and
Speaker 1: a lot of their minds. Okay, but I'm saying the
Speaker 1: one that jumped off the porch signed up. I want
Speaker 1: to be a hope. How what a nigga said, Ain't
Speaker 1: nobody told them to do that? Yeah? Too, sure, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I can think some of them because you think some
Speaker 1: of the prostitutes want to leave their pimp. That's the
Speaker 1: part that I'm talking about. They might want to leave
Speaker 1: them the internet, Oh yeah, oh yeah, down said something.
Speaker 1: But the fact that they're jumping from pimp to pimp
Speaker 1: isn't that. Oh this is my job, manager of the manager.
Speaker 1: I want. I want to I wonder statistically, and we can't.
Speaker 1: We can't can't prove I wonder statistically. We can't prove
Speaker 1: this fact if a woman, women who leave abusive relationships
Speaker 1: end up in other ones. We can't prove this fact.
Speaker 1: We don't have stats in front of us. But I
Speaker 1: just wondered, curious women more do than not? More do
Speaker 1: than not? Yeah, oh no, because they I believe they
Speaker 1: do until they find something different. Because a lot of
Speaker 1: times she's been to go from a one nigga who
Speaker 1: did it like this to the same nigga. So no,
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, we're gonna tell you what it is.
Speaker 1: I don't mean to cut you off. What it is is, okay,
Speaker 1: if she does get enough strength to leave this nigga,
Speaker 1: this is I'm and I'm just speaking from personal experience
Speaker 1: from the people that I know that have gotten into
Speaker 1: other bad situations. When they find enough strength to leave
Speaker 1: the first initial nigga, they still have things that they
Speaker 1: need to work on and things that they need to
Speaker 1: fix within themselves, and they still have those broken traits
Speaker 1: and another I don't want to say abuse are nigga,
Speaker 1: but another nigga that's sim alert to her last nigg
Speaker 1: is gonna pick up on those traits and you know,
Speaker 1: bet her in for lack of a better way to
Speaker 1: put it, in the beginning with the you know, the
Speaker 1: caring and that, you know what I'm saying, all that
Speaker 1: ship and then slowly but surely again the whole cycling,
Speaker 1: the whole process is gonna start over. But if she's
Speaker 1: able to but here here's the conundrum. Here's the conundrum
Speaker 1: and the dilemma. If she's able to find somebody that's
Speaker 1: not an abuser and that really wants to try to
Speaker 1: love her for real and try to help fix her,
Speaker 1: that's also gonna be an uphill battle because she's not
Speaker 1: gonna believe that this nick is really trying to love her.
Speaker 1: So it's just gonna be it's it's fucked up all
Speaker 1: the way around, because it's like it's just sucked up
Speaker 1: all the way around. This is sucked up all the
Speaker 1: way around. But shout out to the people that you know,
Speaker 1: try to love people that have been or try to
Speaker 1: love people that have been traumatized and really like love
Speaker 1: them and try to, I don't want to say, nurse
Speaker 1: them back to health, but try to, you know, try
Speaker 1: to help them become bad people, because that's a full
Speaker 1: time jobs. We're not get big. So in real life,
Speaker 1: you think, do you think do y'all think when you
Speaker 1: have been traumatized it's smart to get into another relationship
Speaker 1: without seeking help? No, No, not at all. No, But
Speaker 1: people do it all day. I understand people do it
Speaker 1: all day. So because a lot of times calling causing
Speaker 1: this trauma to you yourself, but a lot of times
Speaker 1: they think that that them. Okay, if you if you've
Speaker 1: been get into another abuse relationship, right, they don't know,
Speaker 1: they don't know from the beginning. But okay, you're saying,
Speaker 1: y'all don't know it's abusive. We okay, cool, But when
Speaker 1: I meet it's the quicks like a duct. It's a
Speaker 1: duck when I meet that. It don't matter when I
Speaker 1: see it the first time I see it. What you said,
Speaker 1: Oh I'm in love now, I'm too far in saying yeah.
Speaker 1: That's how they go. That's only how that goes when
Speaker 1: the trump Okay, so how people get the voice being
Speaker 1: long too? Right? Yeah, when the nigga do some simple ship.
Speaker 1: You can find a number some women. You can find
Speaker 1: a number in the nigga phone. She is out of
Speaker 1: there some women women, Okay, some women. And that comes
Speaker 1: from what she had been cheated on. She's seen the signal. Okay.
Speaker 1: So so if I'm in a relationships, said she could
Speaker 1: just that could just be hurt. She knows what she's
Speaker 1: not going. It might not have been anything she's been
Speaker 1: through prior to Okay, so but just when I'm trying,
Speaker 1: I'm trying. I'm just trying to understand a person has
Speaker 1: already been traumatized. That was the worst experience for them,
Speaker 1: right in relationship, they go to another relationship and starts
Speaker 1: seeing the same signs, not even seeing the same size.
Speaker 1: When this dude raised his voice or do any type
Speaker 1: of thing. I'm gonna give a beginning middle in. You're
Speaker 1: gonna see those tracks. You're gonna see even if it's
Speaker 1: not with me. I can see that. Bro, you gotta
Speaker 1: fund up temple mm hmm. While I'm dating you, I can.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna gelling to see some of this ship. Right.
Speaker 1: That's not gonna trigger it is, that's that's exactly what
Speaker 1: But what it what it could possibly trigger is the
Speaker 1: familiarity of what you're used to. And even though again
Speaker 1: it might not be right, that might be like something
Speaker 1: like if he raises his voice and then apologizes, Okay,
Speaker 1: but that's what you did. Yeah. But what I'm saying
Speaker 1: to you is that even though that's what the last
Speaker 1: nigger did, and you know that you got out of
Speaker 1: that situation because you didn't like that. Some people fall
Speaker 1: back into the same pattern. It's just like a crackhead
Speaker 1: and start. I'm not trying to talk about but what
Speaker 1: you're doing that? What are you doing them? You can
Speaker 1: back saying from the beginning, you're still gonna make excuse
Speaker 1: for this nigga, but this is a new nigga. He't
Speaker 1: hit me yet. He just called me a bit or
Speaker 1: even beyond that, like say, you're dealing with some emotional right,
Speaker 1: like you know somebody they give me you ghost in tendencies,
Speaker 1: but I'm tired of this ghost to me and ship. Well,
Speaker 1: if you're going this PTSD, y'all, can we go talking
Speaker 1: about you got the man just stopped drinking. Whatever the fun?
Speaker 1: That's ghost the passport. You know we're gonna have. I
Speaker 1: got goes to the passport. So if I see a
Speaker 1: woman that I'm talking to in the future that's giving
Speaker 1: me the same signs, why the funk I'm gonna stick around.
Speaker 1: I know how that ship made me feel, so I'm
Speaker 1: gonna leave you before you're trying to leave me. But
Speaker 1: let me ask you this. In situations like that on
Speaker 1: this side, because I always played devil, do y'all think
Speaker 1: that PTSD from previous situations can sometimes cause people to
Speaker 1: jump the gun and miss out, and you can make
Speaker 1: choice that way too. What you no, No, that's just
Speaker 1: like me. I don't like crowds unless it's my crowd,
Speaker 1: unless unless it's my event. So ain't you You better
Speaker 1: to see me at my friendship because I don't like
Speaker 1: crowd because I got pts D. What can happen in
Speaker 1: the crowd out of my control. I'm not gonna go
Speaker 1: to no ship just because Nicholas want me to go,
Speaker 1: because I'm gonna be uncouple of my own anxiety's gonna
Speaker 1: be way up. Why the fun are going to put
Speaker 1: myself in a situation where my anxiety gonna be high.
Speaker 1: That's the same thing with a relationship, right If I
Speaker 1: see this bitch do things that I don't like the
Speaker 1: signs yeah if yeah, it don't matter. I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: try to look over to see what people be thinking anything,
Speaker 1: and they can love you out of being you, love
Speaker 1: you out of your trauma. Yeah, love you out of
Speaker 1: being who you are. That's who you is. I need
Speaker 1: to get the fun wait around you because I ain't
Speaker 1: doing them and put myself in a situation and I
Speaker 1: can't handle mhm, right from the point trauma can't be avoided.
Speaker 1: It's all I'm saying. Some people sometimes people like somebody
Speaker 1: so much that they like damn and you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, and they think they could change a little bit.
Speaker 1: Everybody ain't gonna be perfect. Maybe this is this is
Speaker 1: the but then becomes some ship. But I get but
Speaker 1: eight twenty is goddamn this nigga, goddamn come home late,
Speaker 1: not traumatize me. Yeah, she is supposed to be deal breakup. Okay,
Speaker 1: they didn't even take care of me, but he beat
Speaker 1: the funk out of me. Don't even matter that, don't
Speaker 1: even match, don't matter, don't you don't weigh up? Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's all I'm saying. Like sir, ship don't even go together. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I concur I get what y'all say. And like some
Speaker 1: people be broken down to their core. That's true. That's true.
Speaker 1: We haven't see any movies, we don't see any real life.
Speaker 1: That's true. But ultimately, if you're not locked in, how
Speaker 1: don't folk be locking them folks in them houses and
Speaker 1: and what you call the coas and all that ship
Speaker 1: You can get away, you can get a knife in
Speaker 1: and so let me let me throw one last curve ball. So,
Speaker 1: but what what if and there are circumstances, what if
Speaker 1: that trauma or those actions come so much deeper into
Speaker 1: the situation, like what if? What if? What if that
Speaker 1: abuse don't come to ten fifteen years later? What if
Speaker 1: that trait from that woman or the man or whatever
Speaker 1: don't come to years later. You got a lot of kids,
Speaker 1: You got a lot of synergy going on, and then
Speaker 1: you start to see the because sometimes the bullshit don't
Speaker 1: be one or year one and be ten fifteen years
Speaker 1: down the instagram the ninety ninety what ninety six year
Speaker 1: old man found that founds a little letter from his
Speaker 1: wife from sixty years ago? Bitch by it's been my
Speaker 1: lad ten days by myself. Wait what happened? The husband
Speaker 1: was ninety six, the wife was like ninety three or something,
Speaker 1: that was moving in apartment. He thought some love that
Speaker 1: was from sixty years ago when she cheated on him
Speaker 1: and he kicked her out. And she didn't necessarily cheat.
Speaker 1: I don't think I think she just relationship from a relationship.
Speaker 1: It was love of love from a prior relationship which
Speaker 1: she was shamed sixty years ago and he kicked her out.
Speaker 1: He got he made a real divorce at ninety six.
Speaker 1: Again where it depends with your morals and the same ship,
Speaker 1: and I did the same ship. At the end of
Speaker 1: the day, I ain't gonna be able to I don't
Speaker 1: give it to the damn from in the little third
Speaker 1: of momentutes, I ain't been using a note. Fuck you said, no,
Speaker 1: that's not bullshit, because because if you're die, you're married.
Speaker 1: She to get your ship, but that ain't you're married.
Speaker 1: I'm saying marriage paperwork, Yes, marriage paperwork. So if this
Speaker 1: nigga died and why he hate her, she's you did so.
Speaker 1: She don't even want you to have my name rights
Speaker 1: you at the funeral. I don't even want you. Never
Speaker 1: move up. Eve, you no more test because you know
Speaker 1: what you're standing on is what you're standing on. Some
Speaker 1: people might have thought about that. That might be the
Speaker 1: wrong choice. He comes game, but he could have gave
Speaker 1: a game six years ago. You were good, but you
Speaker 1: were good, You were good. Yeah you got but I
Speaker 1: ain't fin it. I can see where he's coming from though,
Speaker 1: because he probably questioned her about this nigga. She's got over.
Speaker 1: But it's the fact of how you look in my
Speaker 1: eyes for sixty years lying, But you want to asking
Speaker 1: her she was cheating? Yeah, shut up, it's like what
Speaker 1: else about? Yes, yeah, he's maybe not all that ship
Speaker 1: come into play. Well that's the answer to my ten
Speaker 1: fifteen years. Did you see the one on Instagram where
Speaker 1: the guy was getting married and at his wedding he
Speaker 1: showed the sex tape with the wife and his brother,
Speaker 1: Like at their wedding walking down the out the tape
Speaker 1: start playing with five minutes of the wife having sex
Speaker 1: with his brother. I'm not saying that just because a
Speaker 1: woman has been broken down and she is she appeared
Speaker 1: to be weak. I'm saying you can always find strength.
Speaker 1: That's all I'm saying to any woman out up, being
Speaker 1: mistreated anything, If you want to leave, you can. It's
Speaker 1: your choice. He's your choice right to anybody women, anybody
Speaker 1: in a in a situation unless you locked up now
Speaker 1: you you can't really change that. All you can do
Speaker 1: is change your mind set. Start reading like a lot
Speaker 1: of things say when I go to jail, it's the
Speaker 1: best thing happened to me. I came free. But what
Speaker 1: I'm saying is if you're not confined and it's in
Speaker 1: your control, you can fix it. You always can fix it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: to me, well, make sure final words you say you're
Speaker 1: gonna let the mother fucker break you to the point
Speaker 1: to well you accepting it. That's basical what you are saying, right,
Speaker 1: you can never live your best life because you're broken.
Speaker 1: You're accepting it because you make an excuse it for
Speaker 1: this nigga or this woman who that's all him? Are you?
Speaker 1: M h? I think the key word is speared, and
Speaker 1: you know, fear guides a lot of people. The thing
Speaker 1: about it is you would fear every day if you're
Speaker 1: being traumatized. You don't know when this nick don't for them,
Speaker 1: so you're already in fair every day. Like captivity. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: that's worse. It's like somebody kidnapping you like ship. They're
Speaker 1: gonna eventually kill you. It might be what they want
Speaker 1: to do, and they're gonna kill if you try to
Speaker 1: run away. What you're gonna do, What decsion you're gonna make,
Speaker 1: You're gonna stay in captivity. You're gonna try to do slavery.
Speaker 1: It's kind of what is it? Slavery? The neigas who
Speaker 1: got damn slavery was a choice. I can't say it was.
Speaker 1: I can't say it with a choice, but I get
Speaker 1: what he was saying. Do you want to live or die? Yeah? Basically,
Speaker 1: is this situation working enough that you got them? Are
Speaker 1: you gonna be trying to get away? Yeah, that's all
Speaker 1: I'm saying. I feel like, if you're to me, if
Speaker 1: you're being traumatized, it's worth risking everything to try to
Speaker 1: get away from it. Yeah. That's that's only what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: And when people do saying the choice, not all the choices,
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. No matter what depression, where you
Speaker 1: you if this ship because trauma. I looked that ship up.
Speaker 1: That ship got every negative word you can think, go
Speaker 1: with go with trauma. So what's worse than that? Right?
Speaker 1: Is the bottom? You are you already at the bottom.
Speaker 1: What's what you're fearing to get away from it? To
Speaker 1: get away from it? What are you fearing? There should
Speaker 1: be no fear though, mm hmm. If you if, if
Speaker 1: you want to get it, if you want to leave
Speaker 1: that situation, and you don't leave that situation, what are
Speaker 1: you doing? You're making an excuse. M you gotta be
Speaker 1: it don't matter because when you say cause, that's an
Speaker 1: excuse right. I can't leave cause because you can't leave right,
Speaker 1: you're just not prepared to stand on what come with leaving?
Speaker 1: Thank you Big Facts Friday, the words from Bank. Everybody
Speaker 1: a nigger jet laying in his mama house at forty
Speaker 1: years old. Bro, you're making every excuse in the world
Speaker 1: why you broke Damn My mama got me the bike.
Speaker 1: When I was in middle school, I would have It's
Speaker 1: just like a nigga having a rich homeboy, but he broke.
Speaker 1: His excuse is thish nigga ain't putting me on. That
Speaker 1: should happened a lot. That's an excuse because you feel
Speaker 1: like a nigga owe you something? How nigga ow you something?
Speaker 1: I got it, you can get it. What's stopping you?
Speaker 1: You would to me? Even the niggas out up with
Speaker 1: the signs so you have ani their shirt all cut
Speaker 1: up into every plane we're working food dude, Poe, give
Speaker 1: me something. Bro there, that's an excuse you doing. I've
Speaker 1: been thinking that you can go. You can gonna do anything. Now.
Speaker 1: The people with you can tell they got a mental
Speaker 1: illness or like the older or some ship. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: I look out for them. But when they were nigga,
Speaker 1: my agg begging at the games' getting the funk out
Speaker 1: of my face? You make an excuses, Yeah, like I
Speaker 1: ain't know. But now if you got an illness, that's different.
Speaker 1: Now we're talking about able body women, that's something I
Speaker 1: ain't somebody female with a with an illness like a
Speaker 1: meltal illness, that's different. I'm somebody female that's doing all
Speaker 1: the same ship that everybody else is doing. She still
Speaker 1: go to the club, she still do this, she still
Speaker 1: do that, she still get ahelp? Does she still do
Speaker 1: all this? How the fund is you that down or
Speaker 1: not that you can't get the funk away from this? Nigga?
Speaker 1: Everything us working right here. I'm gonna just keep saying
Speaker 1: final words. J what's your final words? We don't have
Speaker 1: to agree that. I don't have no final words. I
Speaker 1: just my final word, just like that ship is. Don't
Speaker 1: you say? You say circumstances Sometimes it don't be that simple.
Speaker 1: But you do agree that. Hey man, you're gonna but
Speaker 1: you do agree that choices every individuals based their own choices.
Speaker 1: Yeah so, but yeah, but I guess y'all think I
Speaker 1: need comes from a negative place. This ship. Somebody to
Speaker 1: get up about in the house and be like, man,
Speaker 1: they go quick, making excuse for the hopefully the end
Speaker 1: of the day. That's the way you gotta look at it.
Speaker 1: If you look at it, like, if everybody look at
Speaker 1: it the way I'm saying, you're making an excuse, what
Speaker 1: would they would they be in a bettle to situation
Speaker 1: or worse. But if they're looking at it the way
Speaker 1: you're saying, like, Okay, she's broken down, that means you're
Speaker 1: not gonna try to physically you're good, right, good? I
Speaker 1: say they're they're not good, like they feel like they're
Speaker 1: not good enough. They've been beaten into submission by and
Speaker 1: they're morality so so. But I understand what you understand
Speaker 1: what you're saying, and understand what she's saying circumstances, But
Speaker 1: the core of it, outside of just the mystic abuse
Speaker 1: and everything, the core of your life and your direction
Speaker 1: comes from your choices. Yes, we all have choices, Yeah
Speaker 1: for sure, shout out forty. Yeah. I just know the
Speaker 1: niggas be making excuses why they ain't got no money
Speaker 1: or why I don't know that that funk with me
Speaker 1: don't know about it? What the funk are you doing? Yeah?
Speaker 1: And women make excuses because of their niggas, like my
Speaker 1: nigga not giving me money and blah blah blash. So
Speaker 1: I ain't where I need to be the same ship, Damn.
Speaker 1: I can see you saying I got a glitch from
Speaker 1: the ship I've been through. That's a difference. But you
Speaker 1: still gotta pay your bills. I wake up every day,
Speaker 1: still didn't pass trouble, but I still gotta come in
Speaker 1: and do my job. M So I'm laying around every
Speaker 1: day into and just be life. Ship. Man, I ain't
Speaker 1: My grandma rayed me, my dad and went to prison.
Speaker 1: My mom wasn't there. How long that she's gonna land?
Speaker 1: Oh god, I agree, how long that she ain't gonna land.
Speaker 1: But a lot of people just gotta looking themselves in
Speaker 1: the mirror and made that decision like that. You know what,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna make a decision for me to make myself better,
Speaker 1: make my life better. Women, period, trust me, because I
Speaker 1: don't know how they love whatever, but I can speak
Speaker 1: to them and tell them, baby girl, you're making excuse
Speaker 1: for this nigga. If that you ain't right, get out
Speaker 1: of that whatever it takes. But do you think sometimes
Speaker 1: people need a friend that's gonna help tell them that, hey, man,
Speaker 1: you get off your hands. Come stop making excuses like
Speaker 1: are you a real friend? Are you a real friend
Speaker 1: if you let your friend make excuses for themselves. No, No,
Speaker 1: that's why. That's why I lose a lot of friends
Speaker 1: because I tell the nigga, Bro, my son, you just
Speaker 1: called me the other day on some music about the
Speaker 1: music show. Like, Bro, that's excuse not calling my phone.
Speaker 1: You're saying you gotta go to the mall, todel your
Speaker 1: video shoot. That's excuse you been all the video shoot
Speaker 1: for two weeks. Right, You're just being lazy. Just say
Speaker 1: you're being lazy. Don't say God damn, I'm gonna be
Speaker 1: late because it is you. That's your excuse for being late,
Speaker 1: and you were bullshit. That's the that's the answer, Big,
Speaker 1: I've been a bullshit. I gotta go to the mall.
Speaker 1: That's just what it is. I can accept that. I
Speaker 1: can't step reading what man. I had to go to
Speaker 1: the mom Bro, you know you've been know about this
Speaker 1: ship two or three weeks. But that's a level of
Speaker 1: accountability and other people, like a lot of people have
Speaker 1: a reached it. I'll be telling myself like, damn, instead
Speaker 1: of waiting too the morning to do some ship. If
Speaker 1: I got time now, I need to take care of
Speaker 1: this ship because if I if I went into the morning,
Speaker 1: I'm probably gonna be able to do it. It's gonna
Speaker 1: set me set my whole day back. If y'all send
Speaker 1: me a time and say we gotta be here eleven o'clock, right,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be here ten third. I'm gonna leave the
Speaker 1: house the full time. I'm not gonna set the time
Speaker 1: at eleven o'clock because I know it's gonna make me late.
Speaker 1: I like to bullsh it around. I like to come
Speaker 1: look at my leptop Calma while you do whatever I
Speaker 1: need to do properly prep myself to do this ship fact,
Speaker 1: instead of trying to get him on time. That's gonna
Speaker 1: make me late. See, I'm like that too. But I'm
Speaker 1: I'll be I'll be the top of neigger. I'll be
Speaker 1: scrolling twittering, scrolling Instagram. And if I tell if we
Speaker 1: got to be somewhere in eleven o'clock, I'm in my mind,
Speaker 1: I'm saying, damn, I gotta be there at eleven o'clock. Mind,
Speaker 1: I'm trying to be that leven clock. I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: that eleven thirty, So I need to be there. I
Speaker 1: need to tell myself, I need to be that tense
Speaker 1: every time you're trying to get some well and you
Speaker 1: pressed it for a time, but you're gonna get caught
Speaker 1: it every read you're gonna forget something. I forgot my
Speaker 1: boo bad in my head, turned everybody around and get
Speaker 1: my bull back. Like it's just that's just how it goes, bro.
Speaker 1: Proper preparation is everything right performance? No, that's that's what
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like real p pep, the real Picky. I
Speaker 1: don't know, man, I just I hope it ain't come off.
Speaker 1: And this ship, like god damn, it's something you need
Speaker 1: to hear that dude, But that ship. Excuse to me,
Speaker 1: I don't give a funk what you're saying, Snap out
Speaker 1: that ship. How much ship people go through? Man, you
Speaker 1: need to go go to one and come back with
Speaker 1: real ptn D and gotta goddamn a jest back to
Speaker 1: this world. Imagined he would go to prison seeing all
Speaker 1: that bullshit come in. Still has the jested the world
Speaker 1: and they ain't got make no excuses when you get
Speaker 1: right out, when you get out. You got a whole family.
Speaker 1: You gotta goddamn feet. Thank me for when of them excuses.
Speaker 1: I've been to jail for sixteen year, What do that mean?
Speaker 1: You get out? You know you're trying to get back
Speaker 1: to the responsibilities. I'm trying to make no mother fucking excuses.
Speaker 1: You've been in the wall. You shouldn't have win. He right,
Speaker 1: just saying that's just what it is. Man. The streets
Speaker 1: fun me or you shouldn't win in the streets, then
Speaker 1: the streets facts. She got Snap out that ship. I
Speaker 1: know it's hard about this ship or not whatever, But
Speaker 1: when you don't, don't blame nobody else. And know when
Speaker 1: the nigga tell you, But that's excuse. Don't get in
Speaker 1: your feeling because that's where it is. Everybody in the
Speaker 1: situation because they putting themselves in a situation. I can
Speaker 1: see because at the end of the day, if you
Speaker 1: was trying to make it better, it would be it
Speaker 1: wouldn't be as bad as it is. M hm. Neither
Speaker 1: go steal something, do something, oh love man, do anything, bro.
Speaker 1: They're too much way to get money, too many way
Speaker 1: to do whatever. But do something now. S making excuse
Speaker 1: to be up be be to beat some bullshit, then
Speaker 1: why do this and make myself some bullshit? That's that's
Speaker 1: how niggas go to the streets too, like being punked up,
Speaker 1: being broke, see the easy way and still with a choice. Right,
Speaker 1: this is an easy way, So I'm gonna go. I
Speaker 1: didn't get it because I need it right now. But
Speaker 1: you gotta think you're a kid. You still didn't gonna
Speaker 1: shoot the butch that shoe. You just gotta you can't
Speaker 1: give a funk about what they come out with these
Speaker 1: shoes because this niggas that stayed down, same niggas that
Speaker 1: we looked at, like where you laying here, Nerd in school. Whatever,
Speaker 1: the niggas stayed down, their path went right for them.
Speaker 1: So that little trauma we're putting them through. But I
Speaker 1: got damn clouding on their shoes. And now they ain't
Speaker 1: nenna laughing. Y'all gonna be in the jail, Like y'all
Speaker 1: got different kind of trauma. I don't look at my shoe,
Speaker 1: now look at you. It was a choice that they made.
Speaker 1: I ain't going out there. I got plenty friend, Like bro,
Speaker 1: that ship, look out the rip the ship we were doing,
Speaker 1: thought that that was lane. That's lane, but we're looking
Speaker 1: at you. You a square. No, he just knew, he
Speaker 1: knew what he wanted. I know it's gonna take to
Speaker 1: I got more patient than y'all nickels, y'all going to
Speaker 1: rush to do that, So we cause our own trauma.
Speaker 1: Big Facts, if who weren't born into it? Yeah, something
Speaker 1: I ain't got ptft from gunshots. Something I ain't never
Speaker 1: heard gunshots in person. Yeah right, Yeah, we put ourselves
Speaker 1: right there and then didn't want to blame ship after that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm not nigga. You choked. That was your choice, bro,
Speaker 1: deal with it. I concur facts on the Friday, Banks
Speaker 1: on the Friday. I just always said I ain't gonna
Speaker 1: sign up for then. I can't deal with the consequences
Speaker 1: up as I signed up for it, whatever come way
Speaker 1: that came with it, I should be everybody, whatever comeny
Speaker 1: came with it, and then I could take that ship
Speaker 1: with a smile, just what it is, bro, They do
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