Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hey is this John?
Speaker 2: Yeah, this is John.
Speaker 1: What's going on with you? John?
Speaker 2: You know, I, as I talked to the person earlier,
Speaker 2: I think I have a problem.
Speaker 1: My problem. You have a problem collect Yeah, you said
Speaker 1: you collect hair?
Speaker 3: That is correct.
Speaker 1: What kind of hair?
Speaker 2: I mean, just you know, human hair. Not really my own,
Speaker 2: because you know I see that every day in the
Speaker 2: mirror and whatnot. But other people, other people's hair. I mean,
Speaker 2: I'm twenty years old, and I think it's starting to
Speaker 2: get a problem. Considering how old I.
Speaker 1: Am, how long have you been collecting other people's hair.
Speaker 2: I'd probably say two to three years. But the problem
Speaker 2: is hair disintegrates after a few weeks, because you know,
Speaker 2: it's just dead skin cells that you know, disintegrate and whatnot.
Speaker 2: But yeah, I definitely say it's a problem. I collect
Speaker 2: other people's hair. You know, it's almost like a game
Speaker 2: to me, and that is a big issue.
Speaker 1: Tell me what you mean by it's a game to you.
Speaker 2: So you know, if I find, if I'm at work
Speaker 2: or at school or whatnot, if I find, you know,
Speaker 2: a clump of someone's hair in the ground, that would,
Speaker 2: you know, in my head, be like worth more than
Speaker 2: just finding a singular strain of hair m and you know,
Speaker 2: over time, when I bring them back to my house
Speaker 2: or wherever I'm keeping them, I don't know, I kind
Speaker 2: of see what I've done for today.
Speaker 1: And so these these hairs are are like points to you.
Speaker 2: Almost, yeah, like like a point system with hair.
Speaker 1: Let me ask you a question really quick.
Speaker 2: What would that be?
Speaker 1: Are you fucking with me?
Speaker 2: No, I'm not fucking with you.
Speaker 1: You're not fucking with me.
Speaker 2: I'm not. Over time, the disintegrate, but you know, after
Speaker 2: a while, a couple of days, you know, I just
Speaker 2: sometimes I throw them out, but sometimes I keep certain
Speaker 2: ones that I like. I've also thought about. You know,
Speaker 2: I've gotten really good at, you know, looking at other
Speaker 2: people's hair, how long it is, what colored is, whatnot.
Speaker 3: I wonder if, like.
Speaker 2: I could become a pretty good crime scene investigator if
Speaker 2: there was hair involved.
Speaker 1: You know, I don't know, interesting. Interesting. So you're good
Speaker 1: at taking little pieces of hair and matching them to
Speaker 1: their source.
Speaker 3: Exactly.
Speaker 1: Now, tell me what is it in a particular strain
Speaker 1: or clump of hair that makes you attracted to it?
Speaker 2: I don't know. Hair is just very individual, and I
Speaker 2: feel like, you know, it's a part of somebody. It's
Speaker 2: a like, like, I don't know a very small sample
Speaker 2: of what someone is, and I don't know, just seeing
Speaker 2: what that could lead to, I feel like that's somewhat
Speaker 2: interesting to me.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. So you like how the piece of hair
Speaker 1: theoretically represents a small part of a much larger human being.
Speaker 3: Yep.
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm pretty pretty sure you just nailed it.
Speaker 1: M So when you find clumps of hair just on
Speaker 1: the floor, do you do you think about the people
Speaker 1: to whom the hair once belonged?
Speaker 3: Always?
Speaker 1: And how does that work? Always imagine those people?
Speaker 2: I mean, sometimes it's hard to you know, put a
Speaker 2: face to you know, a singular piece of hair that
Speaker 2: I found on the ground, you know, But I don't know.
Speaker 2: Sometimes I just I create like a fictional person that
Speaker 2: I think it could have belonged to. You know, if
Speaker 2: I find a you know, a short piece of brown hair,
Speaker 2: like some random guy, I don't know, just create some
Speaker 2: fictitious guy. Or you know, if I find a long
Speaker 2: piece of blonde hair, like what girl that could have
Speaker 2: belonged to?
Speaker 3: And whatnot?
Speaker 1: And does uh do you think that just from a
Speaker 1: clump of hair or strain of hair you can tell
Speaker 1: anything about the person to whom it belonged.
Speaker 2: I mean, if you if you had, like you know,
Speaker 2: a lot of scientific objects and whatnot, and where you
Speaker 2: know some sort of scientists probably, but just me, I
Speaker 2: really don't think I can make an accurate depiction of
Speaker 2: what the person would look like.
Speaker 1: And do you only do you only find clumps of
Speaker 1: hair that are kind of randomly laying about, or do
Speaker 1: you ever go out of your way to procure a
Speaker 1: certain person's hair?
Speaker 2: You know, sometimes when I'm kind of getting into the game,
Speaker 2: and I mean this kind of fictitious game, I do
Speaker 2: go out of my way sometimes to get people's hair.
Speaker 2: But most of the time it's just me randomly stumbling
Speaker 2: upon hair on a random surface.
Speaker 1: What are you doing when you're going after a certain
Speaker 1: person's hair? How do you usually get their hair?
Speaker 4: I mean, there's.
Speaker 2: I don't really think I've gone after a specific person's hair,
Speaker 2: but I've just kind of been trying to find where
Speaker 2: hair would be in order to get more points.
Speaker 3: So that's good.
Speaker 2: I mean, it's good that I'm not trying to specifically
Speaker 2: find one person's hair. But you know, commonplaces carpets, as
Speaker 2: I said earlier, are pretty big other surfaces would be nice,
Speaker 2: you know, countertops and whatnot. And you know, maybe I
Speaker 2: know this might sound gross, but you know, if I
Speaker 2: find a straight hair brush, you know, that's that's a
Speaker 2: gold mine.
Speaker 1: What do you do with these hairs? Where do you
Speaker 1: where do you sort of keep them and put them?
Speaker 2: You know, Like obviously, if I'm you know, walking around,
Speaker 2: I would probably just keep them in my pocket or
Speaker 2: sometimes maybe my wallet also, and then once I get
Speaker 2: back home, you know, I just think about them, and
Speaker 2: I have a little drawler actually for some of them.
Speaker 2: Once they kind of start to wither, I kind of
Speaker 2: sweep them up and dump them out, But you know,
Speaker 2: I sometimes I keep them in there.
Speaker 1: Now, it says here that you are worried that this
Speaker 1: might be a weird habit. Is that a legitimate concern?
Speaker 2: Ye?
Speaker 3: I think it's.
Speaker 2: I feel like I could be able to I think
Speaker 2: it would be very easy to break this habit. But
Speaker 2: it is definitely a problem because it is very strange
Speaker 2: in my mind. But yet I like doing it.
Speaker 1: Do you see yourself anytime soon ceasing your collection of hair?
Speaker 2: I think so, and I really hope so, because just
Speaker 2: this conversation alone has made me think, like Wow, this
Speaker 2: is an issue, and I think talking about how weird
Speaker 2: it is is probably enough for me to stop. But
Speaker 2: you know, there's a chance, and I kind of like
Speaker 2: the thrill of you know, finding you know, a pretty
Speaker 2: decent sized clump of hair.
Speaker 1: So I'm not sure. So so you say that that
Speaker 1: having this conversation is causing you to realize that it
Speaker 1: might be a problem. I have. I have a couple
Speaker 1: of questions about that. First, before we before we move on,
Speaker 1: have you talked to anyone else about this?
Speaker 3: I have?
Speaker 1: Not nobody, really, not a single person.
Speaker 2: No, I don't. You know, sometimes I when I'm you know,
Speaker 2: alone for a while and I kind of just get
Speaker 2: wrapped up and doing my own thing. I don't really
Speaker 2: think it's something I need to tell other people.
Speaker 5: Uh.
Speaker 1: And then, what about this conversation has made you realize
Speaker 1: that this might be a weird habit.
Speaker 2: Because I'm talking about it to somebody else and thinking
Speaker 2: about what you might be thinking about this is probably
Speaker 2: enough for me to realize that it's very weird. Considering
Speaker 2: you might think that it is a strange habit.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm not really thinking about whether or not it's
Speaker 1: a strange habit. I'm just sort of picking apart your
Speaker 1: feelings about it. But it sounds like your feelings about
Speaker 1: it are evolving for you to believe that it is
Speaker 1: a strange habit that you should stop doing.
Speaker 3: You are correct.
Speaker 1: Do you feel like it'll be easy for you to
Speaker 1: stop doing this?
Speaker 2: I mean, as I said, I think it should be
Speaker 2: moderately easy. But you know, I haven't really tried to
Speaker 2: stop it. You know, this has been going on for,
Speaker 2: as I said, a couple of years, now, two years,
Speaker 2: I'd say, maybe, So, I don't know. What do you
Speaker 2: think I should do to stop this?
Speaker 5: Well?
Speaker 1: I think I think it would be better for you
Speaker 1: to get a new hobby. Do you have any other
Speaker 1: hobbies that you might be able to get more invested
Speaker 1: in than than hair?
Speaker 2: Collect something else that is probably probably not something that
Speaker 2: belongs to other people's bodies, Just you know, some sort
Speaker 2: of other collection might be at a start.
Speaker 1: Yeah, well, what do you do? You do you have
Speaker 1: any ideas of other things you might want to collect
Speaker 1: that is not human hair.
Speaker 2: I'm big into plants and animals. Maybe one of those too,
Speaker 2: perhaps like plants.
Speaker 1: Let's do plants? Should get into plants? To be a
Speaker 1: plant guy, go learn about all the different types of Yeah,
Speaker 1: may call like a botanist, and you know, and that's
Speaker 1: that's that's a uh you're still sort of uh collecting.
Speaker 1: I mean, I know, hair is not alive, but it
Speaker 1: came from a living thing. You are still you are
Speaker 1: satisfying whatever urge you have to collect living things. But
Speaker 1: they are their plants.
Speaker 2: And I suppose that's all those prepeaks that doesn't from
Speaker 2: other people.
Speaker 1: No, I think you can get away with the plants.
Speaker 2: Could I eventually become a botanist after this?
Speaker 1: I think so. It sounds like this collection, this collecting
Speaker 1: thing has has opened up a lot of career paths
Speaker 1: for you.
Speaker 2: That is true.
Speaker 1: You knowing that you want to say to the people
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go.
Speaker 2: I mean, I hope that people of the computer aren't
Speaker 2: too embarrassed or embarrassed for me. So I hope they
Speaker 2: know that I'm trying to make changes in my life.
Speaker 1: I think they do, and I hope.
Speaker 2: That people of the computer can support me.
Speaker 1: Have a good hat John YouTube Geck Hello.
Speaker 2: Hello, Hi, Hello, who's this?
Speaker 1: Don't say? Who is this? You called me?
Speaker 5: Oh my gosh, Oh sorry, okay, I look he's in
Speaker 5: the stream.
Speaker 6: I didn't realize I was talking to you.
Speaker 1: What's your name?
Speaker 5: My name is Esther.
Speaker 1: Esther I loved her is one of the names of
Speaker 1: have you ever? Are you Jewish at all?
Speaker 6: Yeah? I am.
Speaker 5: It's you talk about Queen Esther.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Queen Esther from the Poorum Story. What did she do?
Speaker 1: Do you remember what she actually did?
Speaker 5: It's gonna be a bad Jew. I can't. I think
Speaker 5: I know she had a girl boss moment.
Speaker 6: Oh you know what?
Speaker 1: You know what I remember? I remember she had her
Speaker 1: girl boss moment. Was like, okay, all right, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: hail Mary here. I don't remember this exactly, but I
Speaker 1: think Hayman had a plan to like kill all of
Speaker 1: the Jews, and and Queen Esther found out about the
Speaker 1: plan and she was, wait, okay, now remembering this, this
Speaker 1: was so dumb. She had a plan to tell King
Speaker 1: a hash You remember King a Hash Faroche.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yep.
Speaker 1: She had a plan to tell the King of hot
Speaker 1: to tell King Ahash Faroche. Hey, Hayman's gonna kill all
Speaker 1: the Jews. But the thing about King Ahash Faroche is
Speaker 1: you are not allowed to go even if you're his wife,
Speaker 1: You're not allowed to go into King ahash Faroch's chamber
Speaker 1: without being summoned. And if you do, if you go
Speaker 1: to see King o Hajh Faroche when he didn't summon you,
Speaker 1: if you just go without making an appointment, he kills you.
Speaker 1: Like that's the Yeah, even for his wife. Do you
Speaker 1: remember this?
Speaker 5: Yeah, you had a whole bunch of wives and she
Speaker 5: was like really young. I think she met been a
Speaker 5: teenager or something.
Speaker 1: Dude, Port was kind of fucked up, like that's stupid.
Speaker 1: Why would you have that rule? Why would you kill
Speaker 1: your wife just for saying hi to you or you know,
Speaker 1: coming to see you.
Speaker 5: It is I also love the holiday because it's like,
Speaker 5: you know, it feels like it's for me almost. It's
Speaker 5: like my time to shine.
Speaker 1: What is going on with you today? Asked her?
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, okay, cat Hupping. I wanted to talk about
Speaker 5: Cat Hupping uh because yeah, like hu ff or like
Speaker 5: yeah h u f f I n G I'm the
Speaker 5: terrible feller.
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, okay.
Speaker 5: So I recently kind of found out about this, I
Speaker 5: guess not recently, a couple of months ago, where like
Speaker 5: if you deeply kind of like inhale your cat's fur
Speaker 5: and like really get your nose in there. It's a
Speaker 5: really calm smell and it's a really like nice smell.
Speaker 5: It's a different smell for everyone, Like for me, it's
Speaker 5: like a warm oatmeal kind of cinnamon cinnamon, Oh god,
Speaker 5: I can't pronounce it.
Speaker 4: Cinnamon.
Speaker 5: You smell and like it turns out because like cats
Speaker 5: smell at your house, so it's like you're smelling your house,
Speaker 5: which is weird. Don only smell oatmeal, but my cat
Speaker 5: smells like it. So I think it's a good sign.
Speaker 5: So how does this.
Speaker 1: Feel about being huffed?
Speaker 5: One of them likes it because she likes attention and
Speaker 5: she like being held, and I kind of just like
Speaker 5: hold her and kind of like inhale for a few
Speaker 5: minutes and just really you know, really good in there.
Speaker 5: But the other one is not really a fan, so
Speaker 5: I like I leave her alone. Sometimes if she's sleeping
Speaker 5: and she's like dead asleep, I'll get a quick cup
Speaker 5: in there, you know, But I don't try to bother
Speaker 5: her when she's awakes. I know she's not staying. Now.
Speaker 1: You say you are addicted to.
Speaker 5: This, Yeah, but I don't want to stop, you know,
Speaker 5: Like it's I think it's a good a good addiction.
Speaker 1: A good addiction. Do you think, Okay, let's explore this.
Speaker 1: Do you think there are any negative things about being
Speaker 1: addicted to huffing cats?
Speaker 5: You know, I guess with my other cat, it annoys her.
Speaker 5: So the negative is, you know, an annoyed cat, which
Speaker 5: is fair.
Speaker 1: Well, here's the thing about cats is do you feed
Speaker 1: this cat?
Speaker 4: I do a pair rent.
Speaker 1: Do you pay the rent for the cat as well? Yeah?
Speaker 5: They both have pet rents.
Speaker 1: What's the I don't know what this might be chauvinistic
Speaker 1: for toward cats. I don't know if I'm using not
Speaker 1: using that word right, but not to say that. You know,
Speaker 1: the cats owe you anything, but they do. They do
Speaker 1: a little bit. Hey, yeah, house them, you feed them,
Speaker 1: you clean them, you take care of them. You get
Speaker 1: away every once in a while.
Speaker 5: Yeah, Like I literally tell that numb to their faces.
Speaker 5: Like if I'm like a few minutes late for dinner
Speaker 5: and I get yelled at, I'm like, listen, I am
Speaker 5: paying for all these nice things. I got you an
Speaker 5: individual fan to follow you around this summer to cool you.
Speaker 1: I got her to follow her around? Like, how does
Speaker 1: it follow her around?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 5: Well, I fall around the fan. It's horrible.
Speaker 1: It's she's like you follow her around with a fan
Speaker 1: when during the summer when she gets.
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, but here's the thing, she makes me nervous.
Speaker 1: Dude, you earned it.
Speaker 6: That's true.
Speaker 5: That's true because she likes to go into the hot
Speaker 5: parts of my apartment I guess the apartment of house.
Speaker 5: But she's a long haired cat, so you would think
Speaker 5: she'd want to be closest to my ac unit, right,
Speaker 5: But she like goes to the hottest part of my apartment,
Speaker 5: just lazier, and it makes me so nervous. So I
Speaker 5: just started to following her around the spand but I
Speaker 5: don't think she likes a fan because she'll walk away
Speaker 5: from it.
Speaker 1: Listen esther. I think if you wanted to eat one
Speaker 1: of those cats, you would be justified.
Speaker 5: Oh I don't know if I could. I feel like
Speaker 5: they could eat me if I, like die in this apartment,
Speaker 5: I'd give them permission to eat my dead body. But
Speaker 5: I don't know if I could do the same to them.
Speaker 1: Hm hmm.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I feel like this is a new breaking point in
Speaker 1: the relationship between you and your cats. But don't don't
Speaker 1: get too about it, you know, don't don't go you know,
Speaker 1: take take your minimum with quota. But don't you know,
Speaker 1: don't go overboard for your sake. Not But we haven't
Speaker 1: done enough scientific studies on the effect of cat for
Speaker 1: on the human brain. So tread lak.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I could be the first dogeest of that study.
Speaker 1: Esther, is there anything else you want to say to
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 5: Yes, everyone, huff your cats. If you don't have a cat,
Speaker 5: you can find one outside pretty easily. They might not
Speaker 5: like it, but with the shot, I just wanted to
Speaker 5: get that out there, you know, spread the words.
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Esther, thank you, and thank you
Speaker 1: for talking to me.
Speaker 5: It was an honor.
Speaker 1: You heard it from Esther. If you see a stray
Speaker 1: cat walking around, doesn't matter what street you found it on,
Speaker 1: doesn't matter where you found it. Could have been the dumpster,
Speaker 1: it could have been a pool. Give it with. See
Speaker 1: what happens. You only live once, try new things. Hello there,
Speaker 1: Hi is this moody?
Speaker 6: H that's me?
Speaker 1: What's going on? Moody?
Speaker 4: Well, I just got in from male school and my
Speaker 4: boyfriend was watching the show. So I was like, let
Speaker 4: me try to call a number. And here I am.
Speaker 1: Here we are. We are on the phone talking to
Speaker 1: each other. Uh, what's going on with you moody?
Speaker 4: Well, like I said, I just started mail school, so
Speaker 4: that's kind of new and overwhelming, as I've kind of
Speaker 4: catastrophically failed or quit every other sort of endeavor I've
Speaker 4: ever taken on. So I'm still trying though.
Speaker 1: Well, it says here that you are to nail school,
Speaker 1: you have a movement disorder, and you feel nervous about
Speaker 1: taking a new trajectory in life. Yes, it says here
Speaker 1: you've constantly failed school and careers. Is that accurate?
Speaker 3: Yes?
Speaker 1: Would you just when you say you have failed school
Speaker 1: and careers, tell me about the last career that you failed?
Speaker 4: The last one? I was working front desk at a
Speaker 4: pediatric c office and I was hired. They said that
Speaker 4: I would be trained under this lady who had like
Speaker 4: thirty plus years of experience, but then she quit because
Speaker 4: she couldn't handle the stress of that place, and then
Speaker 4: all of it, the entire front end.
Speaker 2: Was just me.
Speaker 1: Okay, And you said you failed? What is your definition
Speaker 1: of failing? What do you mean you failed this job?
Speaker 4: I had to quit. I was a living every day
Speaker 4: where I was just constantly afraid. My anxiety was the
Speaker 4: worst I've ever been, and I this is where we
Speaker 4: get into personal hypothesis here, But I think that's the
Speaker 4: straw that broke the camel's back in terms of giving
Speaker 4: me that. Well, I shouldn't said movement disorder. I should
Speaker 4: have said neurological disorder. But yeah, that I think that's
Speaker 4: what broke. That was the final thing that made me
Speaker 4: get the neurological disorder.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna sling some of that corny, feel good bullshit
Speaker 1: at you because I got a thought. Yeah, you know,
Speaker 1: if a job is causing you an immense amount of
Speaker 1: stress and pain and so you leave it, I do
Speaker 1: not consider that a failure. I actually consider that a
Speaker 1: strength because to me, if you have the self awareness
Speaker 1: to go, Okay, this thing that I'm doing with my
Speaker 1: short amount of time that I have on this earth
Speaker 1: is causing me a great amount of distress, I'm going
Speaker 1: to leave, It's not a failure. I don't look at
Speaker 1: that as a failure. Why do you do you with
Speaker 1: what I've just said, what do what do you think
Speaker 1: about that perspective on it?
Speaker 4: I hear you, and that's that's something I try to
Speaker 4: tell myself. I think at the time I've really looked
Speaker 4: at it as a failure because it was really my
Speaker 4: only shot out of getting out of like retail sort
Speaker 4: of sales type jobs, which had been eating me alive
Speaker 4: up to that point. I was like, Okay, well, maybe
Speaker 4: I don't have to do retail or sales anymore. I
Speaker 4: can just be that I can be a medical and
Speaker 4: that can I guess people could, or in my mind,
Speaker 4: I would perceive that people would respect me more if
Speaker 4: I said that I worked in a medical field as
Speaker 4: opposed to you know, front desk at a gym or
Speaker 4: something like that, when I don't even work out, So
Speaker 4: can I can?
Speaker 1: I ask you a question. You said that you're looking
Speaker 1: at the front desk at the pediatric's office as the
Speaker 1: only way that you can escape from doing retail. Why
Speaker 1: do you look at it as the only way?
Speaker 4: Well not anymore really. At the time I did. But
Speaker 4: now I've kind of found nails for myself. I'm just
Speaker 4: hoping that I can maintain that and that I guess
Speaker 4: my physical I guess what I struggle with physically won't
Speaker 4: set me back from doing nails.
Speaker 1: So you were in retail and now, okay, so you
Speaker 1: went from pediatrics, did you go back for it? Doesn't matter.
Speaker 1: So now you're in mail school. It's good. It's cuts
Speaker 1: it out. We don't need to know what you did
Speaker 1: after the pediatric's office. How is nail school going?
Speaker 4: Well, well, I just finished day two, so we're still
Speaker 4: on a bone set. We haven't even hit like theory
Speaker 4: or how to sanitize or anything like that. It's strictly
Speaker 4: just how to be professional is just like a I mean,
Speaker 4: so far so good?
Speaker 1: Okay? Great? Is this like a trade school? Like you
Speaker 1: get some sort of license or some shit, and then
Speaker 1: you preciate to a salon and then now you're able
Speaker 1: to work there. Yes, okay, And you said so far
Speaker 1: so good?
Speaker 4: Yeah, so far so good.
Speaker 1: Okay. Let me ask you this. Do you what made
Speaker 1: you choose to go to nails school?
Speaker 4: I chose to go to nail school. Well, it was
Speaker 4: kind of my I was telling a boyfriend that I
Speaker 4: wanted to have my nails done because I never got
Speaker 4: my nails done growing up because I always played the piano.
Speaker 4: But I was always very scared of nail salons as well.
Speaker 4: They always overwhelm me. I stay away from them. They
Speaker 4: stress me out when I'm in school.
Speaker 6: I've had a headache both days that come home.
Speaker 4: I'm like, oh God, I don't know I'm going to
Speaker 4: do this. But I was like, I want to do
Speaker 4: my nails. I'll tell him I want to do my nails,
Speaker 4: but I can't ever wait for them to dry, like
Speaker 4: I just managed to smudge them. It does not matter
Speaker 4: what I do, I always sit on them or smudge
Speaker 4: them somehow. So he was like, let me buy you
Speaker 4: a fan dryer. That way I can dry my nails
Speaker 4: in the dryer, but he bought me an led lamp instead,
Speaker 4: thinking that it was a nail dryer. So I was like, well,
Speaker 4: that's not what I need, but I guess I'll try it.
Speaker 4: So I tried doing jail polishes and I ended up
Speaker 4: really liking it, Like what if I do this as
Speaker 4: a career. So I toyed with it for a little
Speaker 4: bit and I was like, Okay, let let's let's do this.
Speaker 4: I really don't know what else I'll be able to do,
Speaker 4: because at this point in time, every I was now
Speaker 4: getting to a point with my FND where it was
Speaker 4: just getting hard to move and I didn't know how
Speaker 4: I'd be able to have any sort of job at
Speaker 4: all because it was just difficult getting around the house
Speaker 4: before whatever reason, nails was the one thing I could do.
Speaker 4: So I'm in nail school because right now it's the
Speaker 4: only thing I can do.
Speaker 1: Well, okay, you say it's the only thing you can do,
Speaker 1: but you also said just now that you thought you
Speaker 1: might like it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so I guess I feel blessed that I'm the
Speaker 4: corner I've been backed into. Seems to be what I like.
Speaker 1: I well, I want to get to the whole thing
Speaker 1: about you being back in a corner in just a second,
Speaker 1: but I want to point something out here. You you're
Speaker 1: telling me that you have this thing where you're looking
Speaker 1: at your life as like a series of failures, like
Speaker 1: failing out of school, failing out of the pediatric's office.
Speaker 1: And I want to ask you, in the series of
Speaker 1: what you perceived to be failures, at any point, actually
Speaker 1: have you ever actually gone in like you actually gone
Speaker 1: into any of these endeavors thinking you might like it,
Speaker 1: like when you went into being a pediat, like when
Speaker 1: you've been into being a p at the fucking the
Speaker 1: pediatric's office. You mentioned to me about wanting respect, and
Speaker 1: you mentioned to me about wanting to get out of retail,
Speaker 1: but you didn't mention to me that you might actually
Speaker 1: want to do it, and so and you're right, And
Speaker 1: then so I got what I'm bringing up is of
Speaker 1: all these these these uh as you claim to view
Speaker 1: them failures, they're all from things that you didn't really
Speaker 1: actually want to do. I don't know how you felt
Speaker 1: about school. I assume you weren't super stoked on it.
Speaker 1: Is that the case?
Speaker 4: Yeah, I tried college four times, and I mean the
Speaker 4: first time, I guess you have that sort of oh,
Speaker 4: I'm going to go have the class, the classic college
Speaker 4: experience and live in the dorms and all that excitement
Speaker 4: that you have. And then you actually get to college
Speaker 4: and you realize none of that, none of that, how
Speaker 4: any of this works. But then I kept trying because
Speaker 4: who what am I without a college degree? And then
Speaker 4: I realized that college and I just do not get along.
Speaker 1: Okay, So that I'm going to stop you right there.
Speaker 1: I'm going to stop you right there. You when you
Speaker 1: just now you said what am I with a college degree?
Speaker 1: There's a recurring pattern I'm seeing and I'm playing pretend
Speaker 1: therapists here, but I'm gonna do this anyway. You when
Speaker 1: you say I wanted to go into being a pediatrician
Speaker 1: assistant office whatever, for respect. I wanted to go to
Speaker 1: college for respect. You know, those are they're not there's
Speaker 1: not good reasons to be pursuing something, and they're unstable
Speaker 1: reasons to be pursuing something. So, like, you know, in kind,
Speaker 1: I can see why you failed at those things because
Speaker 1: you went into them for the wrong reasons. Whereas with this,
Speaker 1: the nail tech thing, you seem like you might actually like.
Speaker 1: It seems like it's something that can appeal to you.
Speaker 1: So I wouldn't base your experience. I wouldn't go into
Speaker 1: this thinking you're going to fail because you failed at
Speaker 1: a bunch of stuff that you didn't actually even want
Speaker 1: to do in the first place. Because if you don't
Speaker 1: want to do it in the first place, then yeah,
Speaker 1: there's a pretty there's a pretty good chance you're not
Speaker 1: going to be successful in doing it, which is fine.
Speaker 1: That's how things should work. You know, you should go
Speaker 1: out and find something you actually want to do, because
Speaker 1: then you might actually you almost have no hope in
Speaker 1: being good at something that you don't actually want to do,
Speaker 1: you know, So I would look at this differently than
Speaker 1: all those other things.
Speaker 4: And that's I'm trying to hold out that hope too.
Speaker 4: But I guess now the case is, you know, within
Speaker 4: the past year, I've gotten this this neurological condition that
Speaker 4: I didn't have for the vast majority of my life.
Speaker 4: Now I'm afraid that I've fallen into something that I
Speaker 4: like doing and I might physically not be able to
Speaker 4: do it, and I'm not going to know until I
Speaker 4: actually test myself and try it.
Speaker 1: Tell me a little bit more about what this disorder is.
Speaker 4: So I have functional neurological disorder, and the I guess
Speaker 4: the real easy way to say it is that doctors
Speaker 4: have no idea what causes it or why it happens
Speaker 4: or But essentially, for me, I guess the easiest way
Speaker 4: to say is that the way that my brain talks
Speaker 4: to my body doesn't line up correctly. So there's a
Speaker 4: bunch of different symptoms for different people, but for me specifically,
Speaker 4: I tend to scrunch my face without meaning too. My
Speaker 4: head tends to whip back and forth pretty hard, and
Speaker 4: it's trying to hurt. Sometimes my arms cross across my body,
Speaker 4: and then sometimes it's like spontaneous paralysis and I can't
Speaker 4: move or I start walking backwards. It's just funny and
Speaker 4: it's not predictable. I'm getting I'm getting better at managing
Speaker 4: with it. That there was a point in time where
Speaker 4: I thought I wouldn't I was just degenerating to the
Speaker 4: point where I wouldn't be able to get out of
Speaker 4: bed again.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, you have involuntary movements. Yes, uh, you know,
Speaker 1: what's your name? Moody? Moody, I I I I empathize
Speaker 1: with you, and I understand why you feel that way.
Speaker 1: I really want you not because you're painting this narrative
Speaker 1: of like this is this is the only thing so
Speaker 1: the one that you're painting, this like narrative of you
Speaker 1: against a brick wall. And I'm sure that there are
Speaker 1: like genuine, honest to God physical limitations for like things
Speaker 1: you cannot and cannot you can and cannot do. But
Speaker 1: just because there are certain things, even if there are
Speaker 1: a lot of things that you cannot do, I I
Speaker 1: it helps you in no way to paint a picture
Speaker 1: of your life is limited because I mean there's so
Speaker 1: many things you can You can talk. We're talking right now,
Speaker 1: so okay, you can do anything in this world that
Speaker 1: involves talking. You can think you can do anything in
Speaker 1: this world that involves thinking, so like just if you
Speaker 1: can and I feel bad, you know, saying this because
Speaker 1: it's easy for me to say because I don't have
Speaker 1: the thing and you have the thing, But I just
Speaker 1: for your sake, try and not think of yourself as
Speaker 1: as limited is it sounds like you are thinking of
Speaker 1: yourself as what do you think about that?
Speaker 4: That's a hard one. It's hard because I live so
Speaker 4: much of my life without this, so be able to
Speaker 4: compare where I used to be and just kind of
Speaker 4: kick myself. Well, why didn't I do X, Y and
Speaker 4: Z and I didn't have to worry about whether I'd
Speaker 4: be fully functional or not today?
Speaker 1: Sure, but just keep keep keep moving man, like, keep
Speaker 1: being open minded, you know, because if you're you're kicking
Speaker 1: yourself now. But like when you're kicking yourself, you're not
Speaker 1: looking at other things that you might be able to do.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I've got I've got a backup plan, uh right now.
Speaker 4: The backup plan is to sell press on if I
Speaker 4: if I'm I can't work in a salon environment, like
Speaker 4: if it's too stressful, it's setting me off too much.
Speaker 4: If I can't hold my hand still enough to actually
Speaker 4: work with clients, and I'll go to press on. But
Speaker 4: then there's a fear of, oh, is it is the
Speaker 4: field too oversaturated? Do people really want more plastic nails?
Speaker 4: I don't. I don't know.
Speaker 1: You know, I think as long as you keep your
Speaker 1: mind open, you'll find stuff to do. The world is
Speaker 1: pretty infinite, and a lot of people will will kind
Speaker 1: of combat this by saying like, oh, it was easy
Speaker 1: to say because of this and that and the third thing,
Speaker 1: but but god damn, wouldn't you take a maybe over
Speaker 1: a now?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 4: I'll take maybe for sure?
Speaker 1: Good? What is your name again? Moody? Ready, Moody, listen?
Speaker 1: Good luck in nails school. I'm rooting for you, and
Speaker 1: I think even if that doesn't work out, I think
Speaker 1: it will. But even if it doesn't, I think that
Speaker 1: there are infinite things for you to do. But I
Speaker 1: think there are infinite positive uses of your time in
Speaker 1: this universe, and I hope you continue to think like
Speaker 1: that as well. Is there anything else you would like
Speaker 1: to say to the people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 4: Thanks for hearing me out. Don't do anything I wouldn't do.
Speaker 1: Gak bless you, Moody.
Speaker 4: Thanks jek.
Speaker 1: Okay, we did it. We did a motivational thing. We
Speaker 1: said words that were positive, we gave thoughts. I felt
Speaker 1: bad for Moody because she was she's being so hard
Speaker 1: on herself, like out of the gate, and I kind
Speaker 1: of wish I wish I would have asked her how
Speaker 1: she this. A lot of the times when I go
Speaker 1: on these little rants or whatever, I forget to be like, Okay,
Speaker 1: but how did you actually feel about all that ranting?
Speaker 1: I wish I had said that, because I kind of
Speaker 1: maybe heard her come around to it a little bit,
Speaker 1: because at the beginning of the cause she was just like,
Speaker 1: this is the only thing I can do. This is
Speaker 1: the corner I backed myself into. And I'm like, why,
Speaker 1: Oh I wish uh. I wish good luck upon Moody,
Speaker 1: and I hope that she's able to uh do some
Speaker 1: good work in the nail salon. Maybe I'll go to her.
Speaker 1: My nails are fucked up because I keep chewing on them,
Speaker 1: and uh, I'm gonna do I'm addicted to chewing my nails.
Speaker 1: All right. That's that's the end of this this post
Speaker 1: call banter. I have nothing else to say. I am
Speaker 1: a gecko. Hello, hey, uh Eli, what's going on with you,
Speaker 1: how can I get you to lem?
Speaker 6: Okay, So I've a few years ago, back in high school,
Speaker 6: I was dating this girl and before I started dating her,
Speaker 6: she was like, yeah, I have this like I'm really
Speaker 6: close with my dad and I like I want him
Speaker 6: to like you. So I said, okay, but I could
Speaker 6: give you his number and then like he can like
Speaker 6: talk to you and then you guys can like set
Speaker 6: up an interview, which was weird.
Speaker 1: It super weird.
Speaker 6: Yeah, so he.
Speaker 1: Tell me first? She did? She did? She use the
Speaker 1: word interview?
Speaker 6: Well, she was like, he wants to talk to you first,
Speaker 6: and I was like, you mean like an interview, and
Speaker 6: she said, yeah.
Speaker 5: All right.
Speaker 1: I mean look, I guess if you're in high school,
Speaker 1: all right, maybe I spoke too soon. I guess if
Speaker 1: you're in high school, that's not that weird.
Speaker 6: But continue, I guess the idea of the interview itself
Speaker 6: isn't weird, But the interview itself was so basically it
Speaker 6: was like I go to her house, talk to her
Speaker 6: dad and he starts like he starts off talking about
Speaker 6: like how he like wouldn't be afraid to shoot a
Speaker 6: home intruder and how he wouldn't be afraid to shoot
Speaker 6: me either, and then later asked if I was okay,
Speaker 6: like what I thought about like guns, and I didn't
Speaker 6: know how to answer because clearly you don't want to
Speaker 6: answer saying you don't like them if someone just said
Speaker 6: they're not afraid of shooting you.
Speaker 1: Okay, So what did you do in response to all
Speaker 1: of this?
Speaker 6: So basically, in the end the interview, the biggest, the
Speaker 6: weirdest question he asked me in the end was are
Speaker 6: you a virgin? Which at the time I was, but
Speaker 6: like that it was just a really weird question for
Speaker 6: an adult.
Speaker 3: To ask me.
Speaker 6: Super weird question but at the but at the time
Speaker 6: I didn't think it was weird because I grew up
Speaker 6: Mormon and in like bishop interviews and stuff like that,
Speaker 6: that's the kind of stuff they ask you.
Speaker 1: Hm, okay, so you had this very strange interaction with
Speaker 1: your girlfriend's dad, and what did you do in response
Speaker 1: to that? I?
Speaker 6: Well, I didn't really know what to do. So we
Speaker 6: kept dating afterwards, like you kept dating, and he would
Speaker 6: text me and stuff.
Speaker 1: What kinds of things would he end?
Speaker 6: I never was doing sure what to do. He would
Speaker 6: just like text me like, hey, maybe you should do this,
Speaker 6: Like I don't know he did. He'd asked me more
Speaker 6: really weird questions, and he'd like sometimes he'd just ask
Speaker 6: him my day was, which, like I know, isn't that weird,
Speaker 6: but like it's still was really invasive.
Speaker 1: Totally. How long did you continue to date this girl afterwards?
Speaker 6: Like three months?
Speaker 5: Okay?
Speaker 1: What was it like when you broke up with her?
Speaker 6: It was pretty funny because I broke up with her
Speaker 6: because of her dad completely, and so after we broke up,
Speaker 6: she would tell people that we broke up because I
Speaker 6: wanted her to kiss me and she wouldn't, and so
Speaker 6: we broke up.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Well, how did the dad react when you broke up?
Speaker 1: Would he continue to text you afterwards?
Speaker 5: So?
Speaker 6: I eventually, like around the time I broke up with her,
Speaker 6: told my parents what had been going on, which led
Speaker 6: to my dad calling him and I never I didn't
Speaker 6: hear this call. I was not in the room or anything.
Speaker 6: But when he left the room from the call, I
Speaker 6: was told to. I was told that I shouldn't have
Speaker 6: to worry about it, and that he said that no
Speaker 6: one in that my girlfriend ex his dad said that
Speaker 6: no one in her family will ever be talking to
Speaker 6: anyone in my family. Ever again. And that's about as
Speaker 6: much information as I know about how that call went.
Speaker 1: Well, it sounds like your dad set some pretty strong boundaries.
Speaker 6: Yeah, my dad is a social worker at a at
Speaker 6: a halfway house, and he was picking up on a
Speaker 6: lot of like really criminal behavior that he sees from
Speaker 6: like his job every day from this guy and was like, yeah,
Speaker 6: I'm not letting this continue.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Man, what a lucky thing to have a dad
Speaker 1: who's good at sort of spying that stuff out to
Speaker 1: come in and deal with that situation. Because that that guy,
Speaker 1: he did not sound like he was good news at all.
Speaker 1: I feel bad for you know, I feel bad for
Speaker 1: whoever your girlfriend was at the time. I feel bad
Speaker 1: for her. I don't know what her life was like
Speaker 1: in that house.
Speaker 6: From my understanding, it wasn't great. But she really liked
Speaker 6: her dad and really didn't like her mom, and it
Speaker 6: was weird, and I don't know her. I didn't it
Speaker 6: was very much. Uh, I'm going to date this person
Speaker 6: because I'm in high school. Like neither of us really
Speaker 6: clicked with each other that well, it wasn't that good
Speaker 6: of a relationship, like even without that, and like, yeah.
Speaker 1: So Eli, it says here that you're struggling to connect.
Speaker 1: It says you have a new girlfriend and you're struggling
Speaker 1: to connect with her dad. What's going on with this
Speaker 1: new girlfriend?
Speaker 6: Yeah, so me and my new girlfriend we've been dating
Speaker 6: for u six months as of yesterday, and I get
Speaker 6: really really bad anxiety around her dad, and like, I
Speaker 6: have really bad trust issues with a lot of adults
Speaker 6: because of this experience where it's like really like because yeah,
Speaker 6: and it's like really hard for me to like connect
Speaker 6: with him, even though like he's genuinely a nice guy,
Speaker 6: Like he's kind of a nerd, He's really just nice.
Speaker 6: He makes jokes and I think they're pretty funny. Like
Speaker 6: he's just a nice guy. And I just but like
Speaker 6: whenever I'm like around him or like we're hanging out
Speaker 6: at her house or something and he's there, like I
Speaker 6: just like kind of like free, like I start like
Speaker 6: having a mini panic attack about it.
Speaker 1: Really, let me ask you this, have you talked to
Speaker 1: a real therapist about any of this stuff?
Speaker 6: So I have a real therapist. I have talked to
Speaker 6: her very briefly about this, but it's really hard to
Speaker 6: get in right now to therapy. I haven't gone in
Speaker 6: like two months. And we're trying to get me in,
Speaker 6: but it's not working out.
Speaker 1: Interesting because I do wonder what they would say. Because
Speaker 1: you talked to her briefly about it, did she have
Speaker 1: any brief responses?
Speaker 6: I mean, it was kind of like I talked about
Speaker 6: it while talking about something else, and so she probably
Speaker 6: just wrote it down in her notes because she asked
Speaker 6: me a follow up question about something else. But with
Speaker 6: my dad as a therapist, which is a whole it's
Speaker 6: a weird dynamic because sometimes I just want to be
Speaker 6: my dad and sometimes it's nice to have him as
Speaker 6: a therapist. But it's like he has said some interesting
Speaker 6: things about it.
Speaker 1: Tell me what he said about it.
Speaker 6: So him being like, you know, like a witness in this,
Speaker 6: he was very like he understood very clearly, like what
Speaker 6: had happened to me, because he had seen it happen
Speaker 6: to other people. I haven't talked to him about it
Speaker 6: in a bit, but it's like I just need to
Speaker 6: learn to dissociate. I guess where it's like this person
Speaker 6: isn't the same person, and just it's okay that my
Speaker 6: brain doesn't know that, because like it takes time for
Speaker 6: people to like oftentimes your brain will process only before
Speaker 6: your heart does and then get to like, wait a
Speaker 6: minute till you actually like process it. I guess.
Speaker 1: Yeah, this is a difficult thing because you don't want
Speaker 1: your relationships with anyone else to kind of like define
Speaker 1: how you view relationships with other people as you move
Speaker 1: on with your life. But it would make sense that
Speaker 1: your brain just does it anyway. Yeah, what else has
Speaker 1: your dad sort of told you that's helped you out
Speaker 1: with this as you've continued on. I don't know if
Speaker 1: you've talked to them about this particular situation you're having
Speaker 1: with your current girlfriends.
Speaker 6: I have not talked about them with this current situation,
Speaker 6: but in general, a big thing that my dad and
Speaker 6: I have talked about is like picking up on things
Speaker 6: that like trigger off anxiety and trigger off depression and
Speaker 6: stuff like that and dealing with them quickly before it
Speaker 6: like eats you away.
Speaker 1: Well, I'll say this much. It sounds like you got
Speaker 1: a good uh, You've got a good resource and your
Speaker 1: dad to help you out with all this shit. Yes,
Speaker 1: I do you know? Maybe have you spent a lot
Speaker 1: and I tell this to everyone, but have you spent
Speaker 1: a lot of time not in a relationship like how
Speaker 1: recently was this new girlfriend after the old one.
Speaker 6: This new girlfriend was in January of this year, and
Speaker 6: that girlfriend was in February or March of last year.
Speaker 1: All right, so it was at least a year.
Speaker 6: Yeah, it was a minute.
Speaker 1: All right. Well I kind of needed it. You kind
Speaker 1: of needed it. I don't like hearing that. What do
Speaker 1: you mean by you needed it?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 6: I needed to not be in a relationship because that
Speaker 6: time my life was really dark, like really dark. Like
Speaker 6: even after that, that definitely didn't help. And then like
Speaker 6: I was really through, I really depressed, really anxious all
Speaker 6: the time, Like several like incidents, incident things happened.
Speaker 1: What is your life like now? What is the sort
Speaker 1: of general feelings going on currently?
Speaker 6: I feel? So it's been over a year since I've
Speaker 6: done any sort of self harm or anything like that.
Speaker 6: I am genuinely just happier to be around people. I
Speaker 6: am very quick to pick up when things are going
Speaker 6: bad for me. And I'm starting to be able to
Speaker 6: talk about things that have happened to me now because
Speaker 6: like all that stuff happened last year and I kind
Speaker 6: of wouldn't talk about it, And now like I'm finally
Speaker 6: comfortable enough where I'm feeling good, and I'm feeling ready
Speaker 6: to start telling people about it and start focusing not
Speaker 6: onlike getting past it, because I feel like I am
Speaker 6: past most of it, but like on how it happened
Speaker 6: to me, but it doesn't define me.
Speaker 1: I like that. It seems like you have a healthy,
Speaker 1: real relationship with everything that's going on with you, especially
Speaker 1: even though especially with it going on with you so young,
Speaker 1: you have a very mature mindset about it.
Speaker 6: Thank you.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, I thanks for sharing. Is there anything
Speaker 1: else you want to say to the people of the
Speaker 1: computer before we go.
Speaker 6: I so I've been listening to your stuff on Spotify
Speaker 6: all week at work, and I was listening to it
Speaker 6: today and then I got the twitch and so I
Speaker 6: followed you on Twitch and then I got the notification
Speaker 6: at work. It was like, you know what, I'll just
Speaker 6: call today. But I've been listening to it all week
Speaker 6: and here we are.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you for listening. I'm glad you brought all
Speaker 1: this stuff up. I'm like totally not a real therapist
Speaker 1: or equipped to talk about a lot of the issues. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you're bringing up on on on this here thing, but
Speaker 1: you know, thanks for sharing anyway, and good look for it.
Speaker 1: I meant, I did mean what I know. I said
Speaker 1: all that spiel about how I don't you know, know
Speaker 1: how to talk about all this ship, but I do.
Speaker 1: I do mean what I said when I said that,
Speaker 1: I think you have a mature mindset about it, because
Speaker 1: you're you're not. You don't sound like you're letting a
Speaker 1: lot of this stuff defind you. When you said that,
Speaker 1: you're allowing yourself to move on from it. And I
Speaker 1: think that that's, in my unprofessional lizard opinion, the most
Speaker 1: important thing. So good, Good for you, man, keep going
Speaker 1: on that.
Speaker 6: Thank you.
Speaker 4: I am trying my best.
Speaker 1: Take care of el.
Speaker 6: Yeah, you're too well.
Speaker 1: Hello?
Speaker 3: Hello?
Speaker 1: Is this Anthony?
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 1: You sound uh sounds like you're chilling right now.
Speaker 3: I uh yeah, how do you know?
Speaker 1: How do you feel right now in this moment?
Speaker 3: I feel I feel chilled.
Speaker 1: Sous. Hear that you are on mushrooms right now and
Speaker 1: you wanted to share your experience with us.
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, first, I don't know where I am.
Speaker 1: All right, let's talk about that. Where do you Where
Speaker 1: do you think you are? Do you have any idea?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, so I started this morning in New York.
Speaker 3: But I think I think I I I don't think
Speaker 3: I'm in New York anymore.
Speaker 1: Okay, where do you think you are? Well?
Speaker 3: I see a tree, two trees, three actually, and grass,
Speaker 3: a lot of grass.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Are you outside?
Speaker 3: Uh m hm hm hmm, yeah, that could be.
Speaker 1: I'd be curious where you would be if you were
Speaker 1: inside and you were seeing trees and grass.
Speaker 3: Yeah. I mean, how do you know this?
Speaker 1: What have you been thinking about lately?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 3: I've been thinking a lot, a lot about life.
Speaker 1: Yeah, what about life?
Speaker 3: It's uh, I don't know. Actually it's great, really, uh
Speaker 3: it's really good. Yeah.
Speaker 1: What's so? What's good about it?
Speaker 3: I'm going well, a lot of things, the air, the sky,
Speaker 3: the sun or the moon. It's could be daytime or nighttime.
Speaker 1: What is your general what is your general life? Like, Anthony?
Speaker 1: What do you sort of do with your days?
Speaker 3: Yeah? I like to uh, I like to meditate.
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you do?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 3: I walk?
Speaker 1: Okay. Do you have a job yeah?
Speaker 5: Uh no.
Speaker 1: Do you have a partner? I mean I have a job,
Speaker 1: like a relationship of any kind of a partner? Yeah?
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, sure I have a friend.
Speaker 1: You have a relationship and you just now, just now,
Speaker 1: you just said that you have a job. You do
Speaker 1: have a job.
Speaker 5: I do. I do have a job.
Speaker 1: What is your job?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 3: I forgot I knew this morning, and but I forgot
Speaker 3: what I do. I've lost my I've lost my purpose,
Speaker 3: I think.
Speaker 1: Okay, do are you looking for a new purpose?
Speaker 3: Yes, as a matter of fact, I am.
Speaker 1: What are you thinking might be your new purpose?
Speaker 3: I think.
Speaker 2: Research?
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'd like to like to research.
Speaker 3: I would like to research the study of peanut butter
Speaker 3: and why it tastes so damn good.
Speaker 1: Okay, you want to be a peanut butter researcher. That's
Speaker 1: a good purpose.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: All right, So we have a new purpose for you,
Speaker 1: and let's get back into the personal life. You said
Speaker 1: you have three different girlfriends or well you didn't. You
Speaker 1: said you have three different I.
Speaker 3: Wouldn't say I wouldn't say that. Just no, just friends,
Speaker 3: just friends.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I see you have three friends. Yeah, you're happy
Speaker 1: with Are you happy with the amount of friends that
Speaker 1: you have right now? Do you want more friends? Or
Speaker 1: are you content?
Speaker 3: I could I could go for four?
Speaker 2: Could you be?
Speaker 3: I mean, would you would you like to? I mean,
Speaker 3: would you be my fourth? My fourth friend?
Speaker 1: I think, realistically, the chance of us genuinely becoming friends
Speaker 1: is very low.
Speaker 3: Well some.
Speaker 1: Uh not because like I could tell you the premises
Speaker 1: you live in, uh New York, which I don't live there.
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't see how we would get in
Speaker 1: touch after this. And then also, friendship is sort of
Speaker 1: based on like a recurring instances of us seeing each other,
Speaker 1: and I don't know how we would be recurrently seeing
Speaker 1: each other. We would have to make a lot of
Speaker 1: active efforts towards seeing each other that I don't see
Speaker 1: either of us.
Speaker 3: Make it okay, Well, I would put the effort in.
Speaker 1: I realistically probably would not put the efford in.
Speaker 3: Well, I appreciate your honesty.
Speaker 1: Of course we have right now, we have at least
Speaker 1: the next minute on the phone together. What would you
Speaker 1: like to do with that final minute?
Speaker 3: Okay? Well, what would you like to talk about?
Speaker 1: Nothing in particular. I feel like we've gotten everything that
Speaker 1: we needed out of this.
Speaker 3: Okay, Well, I am outside and you help. I would
Speaker 3: clear that up with that where I.
Speaker 1: Am happy to help. Yeah, I'm happy to help. I'm
Speaker 1: glad that you know where you are now.
Speaker 3: And I'm going to uh, I'm going to research peanut butter.
Speaker 1: Let us know what you find.
Speaker 3: Yeah, oh I will.
Speaker 1: Anything else you want to say before we go, Anthony,
Speaker 1: I'll be back.
Speaker 3: Thank you for calling, Thank you.
Speaker 1: Never goes on the line thinking your phone calls every night.
Speaker 1: Never Pacon goes to on his night. He's teaching you
Speaker 1: aloud in the of your life. Money's not really an expert.
Speaker 2: H