1
00:00:01,040 --> 00:00:04,000
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hey is this John?

2
00:00:05,840 --> 00:00:06,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, this is John.

3
00:00:07,720 --> 00:00:08,800
Speaker 1: What's going on with you? John?

4
00:00:11,039 --> 00:00:13,320
Speaker 2: You know, I, as I talked to the person earlier,

5
00:00:13,720 --> 00:00:15,240
Speaker 2: I think I have a problem.

6
00:00:15,760 --> 00:00:19,919
Speaker 1: My problem. You have a problem collect Yeah, you said

7
00:00:19,920 --> 00:00:20,680
Speaker 1: you collect hair?

8
00:00:22,040 --> 00:00:23,400
Speaker 3: That is correct.

9
00:00:24,160 --> 00:00:24,919
Speaker 1: What kind of hair?

10
00:00:27,200 --> 00:00:29,840
Speaker 2: I mean, just you know, human hair. Not really my own,

11
00:00:29,880 --> 00:00:31,680
Speaker 2: because you know I see that every day in the

12
00:00:31,680 --> 00:00:36,319
Speaker 2: mirror and whatnot. But other people, other people's hair. I mean,

13
00:00:36,360 --> 00:00:39,800
Speaker 2: I'm twenty years old, and I think it's starting to

14
00:00:39,840 --> 00:00:41,680
Speaker 2: get a problem. Considering how old I.

15
00:00:41,640 --> 00:00:44,800
Speaker 1: Am, how long have you been collecting other people's hair.

16
00:00:46,960 --> 00:00:50,760
Speaker 2: I'd probably say two to three years. But the problem

17
00:00:50,840 --> 00:00:54,560
Speaker 2: is hair disintegrates after a few weeks, because you know,

18
00:00:54,560 --> 00:00:59,480
Speaker 2: it's just dead skin cells that you know, disintegrate and whatnot.

19
00:00:59,560 --> 00:01:02,800
Speaker 2: But yeah, I definitely say it's a problem. I collect

20
00:01:02,800 --> 00:01:05,639
Speaker 2: other people's hair. You know, it's almost like a game

21
00:01:05,720 --> 00:01:07,959
Speaker 2: to me, and that is a big issue.

22
00:01:09,920 --> 00:01:12,959
Speaker 1: Tell me what you mean by it's a game to you.

23
00:01:15,000 --> 00:01:18,240
Speaker 2: So you know, if I find, if I'm at work

24
00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:20,400
Speaker 2: or at school or whatnot, if I find, you know,

25
00:01:20,440 --> 00:01:23,360
Speaker 2: a clump of someone's hair in the ground, that would,

26
00:01:23,600 --> 00:01:26,640
Speaker 2: you know, in my head, be like worth more than

27
00:01:26,720 --> 00:01:30,280
Speaker 2: just finding a singular strain of hair m and you know,

28
00:01:30,840 --> 00:01:33,360
Speaker 2: over time, when I bring them back to my house

29
00:01:33,440 --> 00:01:37,800
Speaker 2: or wherever I'm keeping them, I don't know, I kind

30
00:01:37,800 --> 00:01:39,000
Speaker 2: of see what I've done for today.

31
00:01:42,000 --> 00:01:45,880
Speaker 1: And so these these hairs are are like points to you.

32
00:01:47,680 --> 00:01:49,960
Speaker 2: Almost, yeah, like like a point system with hair.

33
00:01:51,720 --> 00:01:53,200
Speaker 1: Let me ask you a question really quick.

34
00:01:56,280 --> 00:01:57,080
Speaker 2: What would that be?

35
00:01:57,760 --> 00:01:58,600
Speaker 1: Are you fucking with me?

36
00:02:00,280 --> 00:02:03,000
Speaker 2: No, I'm not fucking with you.

37
00:02:03,000 --> 00:02:03,880
Speaker 1: You're not fucking with me.

38
00:02:05,120 --> 00:02:12,400
Speaker 2: I'm not. Over time, the disintegrate, but you know, after

39
00:02:12,480 --> 00:02:14,960
Speaker 2: a while, a couple of days, you know, I just

40
00:02:16,200 --> 00:02:20,040
Speaker 2: sometimes I throw them out, but sometimes I keep certain

41
00:02:20,080 --> 00:02:23,480
Speaker 2: ones that I like. I've also thought about. You know,

42
00:02:23,600 --> 00:02:26,240
Speaker 2: I've gotten really good at, you know, looking at other

43
00:02:26,240 --> 00:02:28,840
Speaker 2: people's hair, how long it is, what colored is, whatnot.

44
00:02:29,600 --> 00:02:30,400
Speaker 3: I wonder if, like.

45
00:02:31,840 --> 00:02:34,640
Speaker 2: I could become a pretty good crime scene investigator if

46
00:02:34,639 --> 00:02:36,040
Speaker 2: there was hair involved.

47
00:02:35,639 --> 00:02:39,720
Speaker 1: You know, I don't know, interesting. Interesting. So you're good

48
00:02:39,760 --> 00:02:46,280
Speaker 1: at taking little pieces of hair and matching them to

49
00:02:46,520 --> 00:02:47,440
Speaker 1: their source.

50
00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:49,600
Speaker 3: Exactly.

51
00:02:50,480 --> 00:02:54,560
Speaker 1: Now, tell me what is it in a particular strain

52
00:02:54,840 --> 00:02:59,360
Speaker 1: or clump of hair that makes you attracted to it?

53
00:03:02,880 --> 00:03:05,040
Speaker 2: I don't know. Hair is just very individual, and I

54
00:03:05,080 --> 00:03:08,440
Speaker 2: feel like, you know, it's a part of somebody. It's

55
00:03:08,440 --> 00:03:10,800
Speaker 2: a like, like, I don't know a very small sample

56
00:03:10,840 --> 00:03:13,280
Speaker 2: of what someone is, and I don't know, just seeing

57
00:03:13,280 --> 00:03:15,720
Speaker 2: what that could lead to, I feel like that's somewhat

58
00:03:15,720 --> 00:03:16,400
Speaker 2: interesting to me.

59
00:03:17,440 --> 00:03:21,880
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. So you like how the piece of hair

60
00:03:23,520 --> 00:03:29,520
Speaker 1: theoretically represents a small part of a much larger human being.

61
00:03:31,760 --> 00:03:31,959
Speaker 3: Yep.

62
00:03:32,040 --> 00:03:34,639
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm pretty pretty sure you just nailed it.

63
00:03:35,520 --> 00:03:39,760
Speaker 1: M So when you find clumps of hair just on

64
00:03:39,800 --> 00:03:43,120
Speaker 1: the floor, do you do you think about the people

65
00:03:43,200 --> 00:03:44,560
Speaker 1: to whom the hair once belonged?

66
00:03:46,000 --> 00:03:46,880
Speaker 3: Always?

67
00:03:47,840 --> 00:03:49,960
Speaker 1: And how does that work? Always imagine those people?

68
00:03:52,080 --> 00:03:55,640
Speaker 2: I mean, sometimes it's hard to you know, put a

69
00:03:55,720 --> 00:03:58,880
Speaker 2: face to you know, a singular piece of hair that

70
00:03:58,920 --> 00:04:01,640
Speaker 2: I found on the ground, you know, But I don't know.

71
00:04:01,720 --> 00:04:05,080
Speaker 2: Sometimes I just I create like a fictional person that

72
00:04:05,160 --> 00:04:08,000
Speaker 2: I think it could have belonged to. You know, if

73
00:04:08,000 --> 00:04:11,200
Speaker 2: I find a you know, a short piece of brown hair,

74
00:04:11,240 --> 00:04:14,560
Speaker 2: like some random guy, I don't know, just create some

75
00:04:14,560 --> 00:04:18,440
Speaker 2: fictitious guy. Or you know, if I find a long

76
00:04:18,480 --> 00:04:20,600
Speaker 2: piece of blonde hair, like what girl that could have

77
00:04:20,600 --> 00:04:21,039
Speaker 2: belonged to?

78
00:04:21,360 --> 00:04:21,880
Speaker 3: And whatnot?

79
00:04:23,520 --> 00:04:27,560
Speaker 1: And does uh do you think that just from a

80
00:04:27,600 --> 00:04:31,600
Speaker 1: clump of hair or strain of hair you can tell

81
00:04:31,720 --> 00:04:33,920
Speaker 1: anything about the person to whom it belonged.

82
00:04:36,000 --> 00:04:39,800
Speaker 2: I mean, if you if you had, like you know,

83
00:04:39,839 --> 00:04:43,200
Speaker 2: a lot of scientific objects and whatnot, and where you

84
00:04:43,200 --> 00:04:48,560
Speaker 2: know some sort of scientists probably, but just me, I

85
00:04:48,760 --> 00:04:51,159
Speaker 2: really don't think I can make an accurate depiction of

86
00:04:51,200 --> 00:04:52,359
Speaker 2: what the person would look like.

87
00:04:54,400 --> 00:05:01,200
Speaker 1: And do you only do you only find clumps of

88
00:05:01,279 --> 00:05:04,800
Speaker 1: hair that are kind of randomly laying about, or do

89
00:05:04,839 --> 00:05:07,160
Speaker 1: you ever go out of your way to procure a

90
00:05:07,200 --> 00:05:08,320
Speaker 1: certain person's hair?

91
00:05:11,040 --> 00:05:13,400
Speaker 2: You know, sometimes when I'm kind of getting into the game,

92
00:05:14,120 --> 00:05:17,440
Speaker 2: and I mean this kind of fictitious game, I do

93
00:05:17,520 --> 00:05:19,760
Speaker 2: go out of my way sometimes to get people's hair.

94
00:05:19,760 --> 00:05:23,280
Speaker 2: But most of the time it's just me randomly stumbling

95
00:05:23,320 --> 00:05:26,160
Speaker 2: upon hair on a random surface.

96
00:05:27,560 --> 00:05:29,880
Speaker 1: What are you doing when you're going after a certain

97
00:05:29,920 --> 00:05:32,120
Speaker 1: person's hair? How do you usually get their hair?

98
00:05:35,320 --> 00:05:36,880
Speaker 4: I mean, there's.

99
00:05:37,920 --> 00:05:41,560
Speaker 2: I don't really think I've gone after a specific person's hair,

100
00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:44,159
Speaker 2: but I've just kind of been trying to find where

101
00:05:44,200 --> 00:05:47,279
Speaker 2: hair would be in order to get more points.

102
00:05:47,760 --> 00:05:48,480
Speaker 3: So that's good.

103
00:05:48,560 --> 00:05:52,080
Speaker 2: I mean, it's good that I'm not trying to specifically

104
00:05:52,120 --> 00:05:59,160
Speaker 2: find one person's hair. But you know, commonplaces carpets, as

105
00:05:59,200 --> 00:06:03,599
Speaker 2: I said earlier, are pretty big other surfaces would be nice,

106
00:06:05,920 --> 00:06:09,960
Speaker 2: you know, countertops and whatnot. And you know, maybe I

107
00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:11,960
Speaker 2: know this might sound gross, but you know, if I

108
00:06:12,040 --> 00:06:15,360
Speaker 2: find a straight hair brush, you know, that's that's a

109
00:06:15,400 --> 00:06:16,600
Speaker 2: gold mine.

110
00:06:17,800 --> 00:06:19,640
Speaker 1: What do you do with these hairs? Where do you

111
00:06:19,880 --> 00:06:21,880
Speaker 1: where do you sort of keep them and put them?

112
00:06:23,800 --> 00:06:28,440
Speaker 2: You know, Like obviously, if I'm you know, walking around,

113
00:06:28,960 --> 00:06:32,320
Speaker 2: I would probably just keep them in my pocket or

114
00:06:33,680 --> 00:06:36,840
Speaker 2: sometimes maybe my wallet also, and then once I get

115
00:06:36,880 --> 00:06:39,800
Speaker 2: back home, you know, I just think about them, and

116
00:06:41,200 --> 00:06:43,520
Speaker 2: I have a little drawler actually for some of them.

117
00:06:44,200 --> 00:06:47,680
Speaker 2: Once they kind of start to wither, I kind of

118
00:06:47,720 --> 00:06:49,880
Speaker 2: sweep them up and dump them out, But you know,

119
00:06:49,920 --> 00:06:51,599
Speaker 2: I sometimes I keep them in there.

120
00:06:53,839 --> 00:06:58,080
Speaker 1: Now, it says here that you are worried that this

121
00:06:58,200 --> 00:07:01,640
Speaker 1: might be a weird habit. Is that a legitimate concern?

122
00:07:01,720 --> 00:07:01,800
Speaker 2: Ye?

123
00:07:04,240 --> 00:07:04,880
Speaker 3: I think it's.

124
00:07:05,560 --> 00:07:07,320
Speaker 2: I feel like I could be able to I think

125
00:07:07,360 --> 00:07:10,760
Speaker 2: it would be very easy to break this habit. But

126
00:07:12,280 --> 00:07:15,400
Speaker 2: it is definitely a problem because it is very strange

127
00:07:15,400 --> 00:07:18,680
Speaker 2: in my mind. But yet I like doing it.

128
00:07:22,480 --> 00:07:27,720
Speaker 1: Do you see yourself anytime soon ceasing your collection of hair?

129
00:07:32,520 --> 00:07:38,160
Speaker 2: I think so, and I really hope so, because just

130
00:07:38,240 --> 00:07:43,040
Speaker 2: this conversation alone has made me think, like Wow, this

131
00:07:43,080 --> 00:07:47,920
Speaker 2: is an issue, and I think talking about how weird

132
00:07:47,960 --> 00:07:49,920
Speaker 2: it is is probably enough for me to stop. But

133
00:07:50,760 --> 00:07:52,800
Speaker 2: you know, there's a chance, and I kind of like

134
00:07:52,920 --> 00:07:57,200
Speaker 2: the thrill of you know, finding you know, a pretty

135
00:07:57,200 --> 00:07:58,400
Speaker 2: decent sized clump of hair.

136
00:07:58,560 --> 00:08:01,840
Speaker 1: So I'm not sure. So so you say that that

137
00:08:02,080 --> 00:08:06,000
Speaker 1: having this conversation is causing you to realize that it

138
00:08:06,080 --> 00:08:07,640
Speaker 1: might be a problem. I have. I have a couple

139
00:08:07,600 --> 00:08:11,920
Speaker 1: of questions about that. First, before we before we move on,

140
00:08:13,880 --> 00:08:15,760
Speaker 1: have you talked to anyone else about this?

141
00:08:18,640 --> 00:08:18,880
Speaker 3: I have?

142
00:08:19,000 --> 00:08:22,480
Speaker 1: Not nobody, really, not a single person.

143
00:08:25,280 --> 00:08:28,920
Speaker 2: No, I don't. You know, sometimes I when I'm you know,

144
00:08:29,000 --> 00:08:32,000
Speaker 2: alone for a while and I kind of just get

145
00:08:32,320 --> 00:08:34,440
Speaker 2: wrapped up and doing my own thing. I don't really

146
00:08:34,440 --> 00:08:36,280
Speaker 2: think it's something I need to tell other people.

147
00:08:38,240 --> 00:08:38,440
Speaker 5: Uh.

148
00:08:38,480 --> 00:08:41,040
Speaker 1: And then, what about this conversation has made you realize

149
00:08:41,040 --> 00:08:42,520
Speaker 1: that this might be a weird habit.

150
00:08:44,400 --> 00:08:48,720
Speaker 2: Because I'm talking about it to somebody else and thinking

151
00:08:48,760 --> 00:08:52,320
Speaker 2: about what you might be thinking about this is probably

152
00:08:52,440 --> 00:08:55,360
Speaker 2: enough for me to realize that it's very weird. Considering

153
00:08:55,400 --> 00:08:57,960
Speaker 2: you might think that it is a strange habit.

154
00:09:02,160 --> 00:09:03,760
Speaker 1: Well, I'm not really thinking about whether or not it's

155
00:09:03,800 --> 00:09:07,400
Speaker 1: a strange habit. I'm just sort of picking apart your

156
00:09:07,520 --> 00:09:10,680
Speaker 1: feelings about it. But it sounds like your feelings about

157
00:09:10,720 --> 00:09:13,760
Speaker 1: it are evolving for you to believe that it is

158
00:09:13,800 --> 00:09:15,640
Speaker 1: a strange habit that you should stop doing.

159
00:09:18,240 --> 00:09:22,359
Speaker 3: You are correct.

160
00:09:22,760 --> 00:09:25,040
Speaker 1: Do you feel like it'll be easy for you to

161
00:09:25,040 --> 00:09:25,640
Speaker 1: stop doing this?

162
00:09:28,440 --> 00:09:30,640
Speaker 2: I mean, as I said, I think it should be

163
00:09:30,720 --> 00:09:33,440
Speaker 2: moderately easy. But you know, I haven't really tried to

164
00:09:33,520 --> 00:09:35,440
Speaker 2: stop it. You know, this has been going on for,

165
00:09:35,760 --> 00:09:37,880
Speaker 2: as I said, a couple of years, now, two years,

166
00:09:38,040 --> 00:09:43,000
Speaker 2: I'd say, maybe, So, I don't know. What do you

167
00:09:43,040 --> 00:09:45,040
Speaker 2: think I should do to stop this?

168
00:09:46,200 --> 00:09:46,400
Speaker 5: Well?

169
00:09:49,120 --> 00:09:50,680
Speaker 1: I think I think it would be better for you

170
00:09:50,760 --> 00:09:53,319
Speaker 1: to get a new hobby. Do you have any other

171
00:09:53,320 --> 00:09:55,320
Speaker 1: hobbies that you might be able to get more invested

172
00:09:55,360 --> 00:09:57,400
Speaker 1: in than than hair?

173
00:10:00,200 --> 00:10:05,040
Speaker 2: Collect something else that is probably probably not something that

174
00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:08,080
Speaker 2: belongs to other people's bodies, Just you know, some sort

175
00:10:08,120 --> 00:10:10,280
Speaker 2: of other collection might be at a start.

176
00:10:11,600 --> 00:10:15,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, well, what do you do? You do you have

177
00:10:15,320 --> 00:10:17,760
Speaker 1: any ideas of other things you might want to collect

178
00:10:17,760 --> 00:10:19,040
Speaker 1: that is not human hair.

179
00:10:22,600 --> 00:10:25,920
Speaker 2: I'm big into plants and animals. Maybe one of those too,

180
00:10:26,559 --> 00:10:27,920
Speaker 2: perhaps like plants.

181
00:10:28,160 --> 00:10:30,839
Speaker 1: Let's do plants? Should get into plants? To be a

182
00:10:30,880 --> 00:10:35,439
Speaker 1: plant guy, go learn about all the different types of Yeah,

183
00:10:35,480 --> 00:10:37,520
Speaker 1: may call like a botanist, and you know, and that's

184
00:10:37,559 --> 00:10:43,080
Speaker 1: that's that's a uh you're still sort of uh collecting.

185
00:10:43,520 --> 00:10:46,800
Speaker 1: I mean, I know, hair is not alive, but it

186
00:10:46,880 --> 00:10:49,199
Speaker 1: came from a living thing. You are still you are

187
00:10:49,840 --> 00:10:54,360
Speaker 1: satisfying whatever urge you have to collect living things. But

188
00:10:54,480 --> 00:10:56,000
Speaker 1: they are their plants.

189
00:10:57,880 --> 00:11:00,280
Speaker 2: And I suppose that's all those prepeaks that doesn't from

190
00:11:00,280 --> 00:11:00,880
Speaker 2: other people.

191
00:11:01,920 --> 00:11:03,480
Speaker 1: No, I think you can get away with the plants.

192
00:11:06,080 --> 00:11:08,240
Speaker 2: Could I eventually become a botanist after this?

193
00:11:09,679 --> 00:11:13,280
Speaker 1: I think so. It sounds like this collection, this collecting

194
00:11:13,320 --> 00:11:15,319
Speaker 1: thing has has opened up a lot of career paths

195
00:11:15,360 --> 00:11:15,640
Speaker 1: for you.

196
00:11:17,520 --> 00:11:18,200
Speaker 2: That is true.

197
00:11:20,720 --> 00:11:25,440
Speaker 1: You knowing that you want to say to the people

198
00:11:25,440 --> 00:11:26,320
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go.

199
00:11:29,880 --> 00:11:32,920
Speaker 2: I mean, I hope that people of the computer aren't

200
00:11:32,960 --> 00:11:37,200
Speaker 2: too embarrassed or embarrassed for me. So I hope they

201
00:11:37,280 --> 00:11:39,200
Speaker 2: know that I'm trying to make changes in my life.

202
00:11:41,160 --> 00:11:43,880
Speaker 1: I think they do, and I hope.

203
00:11:43,720 --> 00:11:45,480
Speaker 2: That people of the computer can support me.

204
00:11:48,160 --> 00:11:51,559
Speaker 1: Have a good hat John YouTube Geck Hello.

205
00:11:51,320 --> 00:11:54,360
Speaker 2: Hello, Hi, Hello, who's this?

206
00:11:55,880 --> 00:11:57,760
Speaker 1: Don't say? Who is this? You called me?

207
00:11:59,640 --> 00:12:02,720
Speaker 5: Oh my gosh, Oh sorry, okay, I look he's in

208
00:12:02,720 --> 00:12:03,079
Speaker 5: the stream.

209
00:12:03,160 --> 00:12:04,640
Speaker 6: I didn't realize I was talking to you.

210
00:12:05,480 --> 00:12:06,240
Speaker 1: What's your name?

211
00:12:07,720 --> 00:12:08,680
Speaker 5: My name is Esther.

212
00:12:09,960 --> 00:12:12,679
Speaker 1: Esther I loved her is one of the names of

213
00:12:13,360 --> 00:12:15,040
Speaker 1: have you ever? Are you Jewish at all?

214
00:12:16,200 --> 00:12:16,719
Speaker 6: Yeah? I am.

215
00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:18,320
Speaker 5: It's you talk about Queen Esther.

216
00:12:19,040 --> 00:12:21,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, Queen Esther from the Poorum Story. What did she do?

217
00:12:21,720 --> 00:12:23,120
Speaker 1: Do you remember what she actually did?

218
00:12:25,880 --> 00:12:28,199
Speaker 5: It's gonna be a bad Jew. I can't. I think

219
00:12:29,240 --> 00:12:30,800
Speaker 5: I know she had a girl boss moment.

220
00:12:32,160 --> 00:12:32,600
Speaker 6: Oh you know what?

221
00:12:32,679 --> 00:12:34,480
Speaker 1: You know what I remember? I remember she had her

222
00:12:34,520 --> 00:12:38,240
Speaker 1: girl boss moment. Was like, okay, all right, I'm gonna

223
00:12:38,559 --> 00:12:40,480
Speaker 1: hail Mary here. I don't remember this exactly, but I

224
00:12:40,520 --> 00:12:44,080
Speaker 1: think Hayman had a plan to like kill all of

225
00:12:44,120 --> 00:12:48,480
Speaker 1: the Jews, and and Queen Esther found out about the

226
00:12:48,480 --> 00:12:51,560
Speaker 1: plan and she was, wait, okay, now remembering this, this

227
00:12:51,640 --> 00:12:54,839
Speaker 1: was so dumb. She had a plan to tell King

228
00:12:55,000 --> 00:12:57,600
Speaker 1: a hash You remember King a Hash Faroche.

229
00:12:58,120 --> 00:12:58,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, yep.

230
00:12:58,960 --> 00:13:00,720
Speaker 1: She had a plan to tell the King of hot

231
00:13:00,760 --> 00:13:03,320
Speaker 1: to tell King Ahash Faroche. Hey, Hayman's gonna kill all

232
00:13:03,320 --> 00:13:05,960
Speaker 1: the Jews. But the thing about King Ahash Faroche is

233
00:13:06,200 --> 00:13:09,120
Speaker 1: you are not allowed to go even if you're his wife,

234
00:13:09,559 --> 00:13:12,959
Speaker 1: You're not allowed to go into King ahash Faroch's chamber

235
00:13:13,480 --> 00:13:16,360
Speaker 1: without being summoned. And if you do, if you go

236
00:13:16,440 --> 00:13:19,760
Speaker 1: to see King o Hajh Faroche when he didn't summon you,

237
00:13:19,800 --> 00:13:23,520
Speaker 1: if you just go without making an appointment, he kills you.

238
00:13:23,640 --> 00:13:25,920
Speaker 1: Like that's the Yeah, even for his wife. Do you

239
00:13:25,960 --> 00:13:26,360
Speaker 1: remember this?

240
00:13:27,600 --> 00:13:29,320
Speaker 5: Yeah, you had a whole bunch of wives and she

241
00:13:29,480 --> 00:13:31,680
Speaker 5: was like really young. I think she met been a

242
00:13:31,720 --> 00:13:32,720
Speaker 5: teenager or something.

243
00:13:33,360 --> 00:13:35,240
Speaker 1: Dude, Port was kind of fucked up, like that's stupid.

244
00:13:35,240 --> 00:13:36,640
Speaker 1: Why would you have that rule? Why would you kill

245
00:13:36,679 --> 00:13:38,880
Speaker 1: your wife just for saying hi to you or you know,

246
00:13:39,080 --> 00:13:39,720
Speaker 1: coming to see you.

247
00:13:41,280 --> 00:13:43,600
Speaker 5: It is I also love the holiday because it's like,

248
00:13:44,080 --> 00:13:47,200
Speaker 5: you know, it feels like it's for me almost. It's

249
00:13:47,200 --> 00:13:48,320
Speaker 5: like my time to shine.

250
00:13:50,320 --> 00:13:52,920
Speaker 1: What is going on with you today? Asked her?

251
00:13:53,520 --> 00:13:57,559
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, okay, cat Hupping. I wanted to talk about

252
00:13:57,600 --> 00:14:05,800
Speaker 5: Cat Hupping uh because yeah, like hu ff or like

253
00:14:05,960 --> 00:14:08,559
Speaker 5: yeah h u f f I n G I'm the

254
00:14:08,640 --> 00:14:09,320
Speaker 5: terrible feller.

255
00:14:10,080 --> 00:14:12,800
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, okay.

256
00:14:12,840 --> 00:14:15,319
Speaker 5: So I recently kind of found out about this, I

257
00:14:15,360 --> 00:14:18,120
Speaker 5: guess not recently, a couple of months ago, where like

258
00:14:18,240 --> 00:14:21,720
Speaker 5: if you deeply kind of like inhale your cat's fur

259
00:14:21,760 --> 00:14:24,480
Speaker 5: and like really get your nose in there. It's a

260
00:14:24,560 --> 00:14:28,840
Speaker 5: really calm smell and it's a really like nice smell.

261
00:14:28,840 --> 00:14:31,560
Speaker 5: It's a different smell for everyone, Like for me, it's

262
00:14:31,560 --> 00:14:35,640
Speaker 5: like a warm oatmeal kind of cinnamon cinnamon, Oh god,

263
00:14:35,640 --> 00:14:36,360
Speaker 5: I can't pronounce it.

264
00:14:36,400 --> 00:14:36,840
Speaker 4: Cinnamon.

265
00:14:36,880 --> 00:14:40,600
Speaker 5: You smell and like it turns out because like cats

266
00:14:40,600 --> 00:14:43,000
Speaker 5: smell at your house, so it's like you're smelling your house,

267
00:14:43,600 --> 00:14:46,760
Speaker 5: which is weird. Don only smell oatmeal, but my cat

268
00:14:46,840 --> 00:14:49,080
Speaker 5: smells like it. So I think it's a good sign.

269
00:14:50,320 --> 00:14:51,000
Speaker 5: So how does this.

270
00:14:51,480 --> 00:14:54,400
Speaker 1: Feel about being huffed?

271
00:14:56,320 --> 00:14:59,680
Speaker 5: One of them likes it because she likes attention and

272
00:14:59,720 --> 00:15:01,760
Speaker 5: she like being held, and I kind of just like

273
00:15:02,560 --> 00:15:05,480
Speaker 5: hold her and kind of like inhale for a few

274
00:15:05,560 --> 00:15:08,240
Speaker 5: minutes and just really you know, really good in there.

275
00:15:08,320 --> 00:15:10,520
Speaker 5: But the other one is not really a fan, so

276
00:15:10,560 --> 00:15:13,120
Speaker 5: I like I leave her alone. Sometimes if she's sleeping

277
00:15:13,200 --> 00:15:15,680
Speaker 5: and she's like dead asleep, I'll get a quick cup

278
00:15:15,720 --> 00:15:18,240
Speaker 5: in there, you know, But I don't try to bother

279
00:15:18,320 --> 00:15:21,400
Speaker 5: her when she's awakes. I know she's not staying. Now.

280
00:15:21,440 --> 00:15:22,840
Speaker 1: You say you are addicted to.

281
00:15:22,760 --> 00:15:26,200
Speaker 5: This, Yeah, but I don't want to stop, you know,

282
00:15:26,280 --> 00:15:30,000
Speaker 5: Like it's I think it's a good a good addiction.

283
00:15:30,960 --> 00:15:34,400
Speaker 1: A good addiction. Do you think, Okay, let's explore this.

284
00:15:35,000 --> 00:15:40,440
Speaker 1: Do you think there are any negative things about being

285
00:15:40,440 --> 00:15:42,400
Speaker 1: addicted to huffing cats?

286
00:15:44,040 --> 00:15:46,960
Speaker 5: You know, I guess with my other cat, it annoys her.

287
00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:51,480
Speaker 5: So the negative is, you know, an annoyed cat, which

288
00:15:51,520 --> 00:15:51,960
Speaker 5: is fair.

289
00:15:52,800 --> 00:15:55,680
Speaker 1: Well, here's the thing about cats is do you feed

290
00:15:55,720 --> 00:15:56,600
Speaker 1: this cat?

291
00:15:57,920 --> 00:15:59,800
Speaker 4: I do a pair rent.

292
00:16:00,400 --> 00:16:03,760
Speaker 1: Do you pay the rent for the cat as well? Yeah?

293
00:16:03,800 --> 00:16:04,880
Speaker 5: They both have pet rents.

294
00:16:08,040 --> 00:16:11,560
Speaker 1: What's the I don't know what this might be chauvinistic

295
00:16:12,680 --> 00:16:15,360
Speaker 1: for toward cats. I don't know if I'm using not

296
00:16:15,440 --> 00:16:18,080
Speaker 1: using that word right, but not to say that. You know,

297
00:16:18,280 --> 00:16:21,240
Speaker 1: the cats owe you anything, but they do. They do

298
00:16:21,320 --> 00:16:26,120
Speaker 1: a little bit. Hey, yeah, house them, you feed them,

299
00:16:26,600 --> 00:16:30,200
Speaker 1: you clean them, you take care of them. You get

300
00:16:30,240 --> 00:16:31,400
Speaker 1: away every once in a while.

301
00:16:32,760 --> 00:16:35,560
Speaker 5: Yeah, Like I literally tell that numb to their faces.

302
00:16:35,600 --> 00:16:37,920
Speaker 5: Like if I'm like a few minutes late for dinner

303
00:16:37,960 --> 00:16:40,120
Speaker 5: and I get yelled at, I'm like, listen, I am

304
00:16:40,160 --> 00:16:42,200
Speaker 5: paying for all these nice things. I got you an

305
00:16:42,200 --> 00:16:45,800
Speaker 5: individual fan to follow you around this summer to cool you.

306
00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:49,440
Speaker 1: I got her to follow her around? Like, how does

307
00:16:49,440 --> 00:16:50,800
Speaker 1: it follow her around?

308
00:16:51,640 --> 00:16:51,840
Speaker 6: Oh?

309
00:16:51,840 --> 00:16:54,320
Speaker 5: Well, I fall around the fan. It's horrible.

310
00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:58,400
Speaker 1: It's she's like you follow her around with a fan

311
00:16:58,560 --> 00:17:01,240
Speaker 1: when during the summer when she gets.

312
00:17:01,640 --> 00:17:05,040
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, but here's the thing, she makes me nervous.

313
00:17:05,119 --> 00:17:06,399
Speaker 1: Dude, you earned it.

314
00:17:08,000 --> 00:17:08,639
Speaker 6: That's true.

315
00:17:08,920 --> 00:17:11,960
Speaker 5: That's true because she likes to go into the hot

316
00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:14,840
Speaker 5: parts of my apartment I guess the apartment of house.

317
00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:17,520
Speaker 5: But she's a long haired cat, so you would think

318
00:17:17,560 --> 00:17:20,880
Speaker 5: she'd want to be closest to my ac unit, right,

319
00:17:21,800 --> 00:17:24,160
Speaker 5: But she like goes to the hottest part of my apartment,

320
00:17:24,359 --> 00:17:27,080
Speaker 5: just lazier, and it makes me so nervous. So I

321
00:17:27,119 --> 00:17:29,520
Speaker 5: just started to following her around the spand but I

322
00:17:29,520 --> 00:17:31,560
Speaker 5: don't think she likes a fan because she'll walk away

323
00:17:31,600 --> 00:17:31,960
Speaker 5: from it.

324
00:17:32,440 --> 00:17:34,360
Speaker 1: Listen esther. I think if you wanted to eat one

325
00:17:34,359 --> 00:17:36,040
Speaker 1: of those cats, you would be justified.

326
00:17:37,720 --> 00:17:40,280
Speaker 5: Oh I don't know if I could. I feel like

327
00:17:40,280 --> 00:17:42,720
Speaker 5: they could eat me if I, like die in this apartment,

328
00:17:42,800 --> 00:17:46,199
Speaker 5: I'd give them permission to eat my dead body. But

329
00:17:46,280 --> 00:17:49,800
Speaker 5: I don't know if I could do the same to them.

330
00:17:50,080 --> 00:17:50,520
Speaker 1: Hm hmm.

331
00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:51,200
Speaker 5: Yeah.

332
00:17:51,600 --> 00:17:56,760
Speaker 1: I feel like this is a new breaking point in

333
00:17:56,840 --> 00:17:59,480
Speaker 1: the relationship between you and your cats. But don't don't

334
00:17:59,480 --> 00:18:02,520
Speaker 1: get too about it, you know, don't don't go you know,

335
00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:08,520
Speaker 1: take take your minimum with quota. But don't you know,

336
00:18:08,640 --> 00:18:14,240
Speaker 1: don't go overboard for your sake. Not But we haven't

337
00:18:14,280 --> 00:18:17,359
Speaker 1: done enough scientific studies on the effect of cat for

338
00:18:17,560 --> 00:18:20,280
Speaker 1: on the human brain. So tread lak.

339
00:18:20,359 --> 00:18:22,760
Speaker 5: Yeah, I could be the first dogeest of that study.

340
00:18:23,720 --> 00:18:25,000
Speaker 1: Esther, is there anything else you want to say to

341
00:18:25,040 --> 00:18:26,400
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go?

342
00:18:27,960 --> 00:18:31,320
Speaker 5: Yes, everyone, huff your cats. If you don't have a cat,

343
00:18:31,480 --> 00:18:33,720
Speaker 5: you can find one outside pretty easily. They might not

344
00:18:33,880 --> 00:18:37,040
Speaker 5: like it, but with the shot, I just wanted to

345
00:18:37,040 --> 00:18:38,600
Speaker 5: get that out there, you know, spread the words.

346
00:18:38,600 --> 00:18:42,080
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Esther, thank you, and thank you

347
00:18:42,119 --> 00:18:42,800
Speaker 1: for talking to me.

348
00:18:42,960 --> 00:18:43,960
Speaker 5: It was an honor.

349
00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:50,720
Speaker 1: You heard it from Esther. If you see a stray

350
00:18:50,800 --> 00:18:54,439
Speaker 1: cat walking around, doesn't matter what street you found it on,

351
00:18:54,520 --> 00:18:57,320
Speaker 1: doesn't matter where you found it. Could have been the dumpster,

352
00:18:57,359 --> 00:19:01,560
Speaker 1: it could have been a pool. Give it with. See

353
00:19:01,600 --> 00:19:11,640
Speaker 1: what happens. You only live once, try new things. Hello there,

354
00:19:13,440 --> 00:19:15,280
Speaker 1: Hi is this moody?

355
00:19:15,600 --> 00:19:17,520
Speaker 6: H that's me?

356
00:19:18,720 --> 00:19:19,760
Speaker 1: What's going on? Moody?

357
00:19:21,840 --> 00:19:25,560
Speaker 4: Well, I just got in from male school and my

358
00:19:25,680 --> 00:19:28,280
Speaker 4: boyfriend was watching the show. So I was like, let

359
00:19:28,359 --> 00:19:31,080
Speaker 4: me try to call a number. And here I am.

360
00:19:31,119 --> 00:19:34,600
Speaker 1: Here we are. We are on the phone talking to

361
00:19:34,680 --> 00:19:40,200
Speaker 1: each other. Uh, what's going on with you moody?

362
00:19:41,320 --> 00:19:45,760
Speaker 4: Well, like I said, I just started mail school, so

363
00:19:45,800 --> 00:19:49,399
Speaker 4: that's kind of new and overwhelming, as I've kind of

364
00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:53,560
Speaker 4: catastrophically failed or quit every other sort of endeavor I've

365
00:19:53,560 --> 00:19:57,280
Speaker 4: ever taken on. So I'm still trying though.

366
00:20:01,480 --> 00:20:03,879
Speaker 1: Well, it says here that you are to nail school,

367
00:20:03,960 --> 00:20:07,639
Speaker 1: you have a movement disorder, and you feel nervous about

368
00:20:07,640 --> 00:20:14,960
Speaker 1: taking a new trajectory in life. Yes, it says here

369
00:20:15,000 --> 00:20:18,520
Speaker 1: you've constantly failed school and careers. Is that accurate?

370
00:20:20,359 --> 00:20:20,679
Speaker 3: Yes?

371
00:20:22,200 --> 00:20:24,679
Speaker 1: Would you just when you say you have failed school

372
00:20:24,720 --> 00:20:28,320
Speaker 1: and careers, tell me about the last career that you failed?

373
00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:33,879
Speaker 4: The last one? I was working front desk at a

374
00:20:33,880 --> 00:20:39,600
Speaker 4: pediatric c office and I was hired. They said that

375
00:20:39,800 --> 00:20:41,960
Speaker 4: I would be trained under this lady who had like

376
00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:45,320
Speaker 4: thirty plus years of experience, but then she quit because

377
00:20:45,359 --> 00:20:47,280
Speaker 4: she couldn't handle the stress of that place, and then

378
00:20:47,760 --> 00:20:49,639
Speaker 4: all of it, the entire front end.

379
00:20:49,560 --> 00:20:50,040
Speaker 2: Was just me.

380
00:20:51,119 --> 00:20:53,720
Speaker 1: Okay, And you said you failed? What is your definition

381
00:20:53,800 --> 00:20:55,680
Speaker 1: of failing? What do you mean you failed this job?

382
00:20:58,040 --> 00:21:00,600
Speaker 4: I had to quit. I was a living every day

383
00:21:00,640 --> 00:21:04,000
Speaker 4: where I was just constantly afraid. My anxiety was the

384
00:21:04,000 --> 00:21:07,639
Speaker 4: worst I've ever been, and I this is where we

385
00:21:07,720 --> 00:21:11,679
Speaker 4: get into personal hypothesis here, But I think that's the

386
00:21:12,000 --> 00:21:14,439
Speaker 4: straw that broke the camel's back in terms of giving

387
00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:16,480
Speaker 4: me that. Well, I shouldn't said movement disorder. I should

388
00:21:16,480 --> 00:21:21,280
Speaker 4: have said neurological disorder. But yeah, that I think that's

389
00:21:21,320 --> 00:21:24,280
Speaker 4: what broke. That was the final thing that made me

390
00:21:24,320 --> 00:21:25,640
Speaker 4: get the neurological disorder.

391
00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:30,160
Speaker 1: I'm gonna sling some of that corny, feel good bullshit

392
00:21:30,240 --> 00:21:38,560
Speaker 1: at you because I got a thought. Yeah, you know,

393
00:21:38,720 --> 00:21:43,280
Speaker 1: if a job is causing you an immense amount of

394
00:21:43,320 --> 00:21:49,439
Speaker 1: stress and pain and so you leave it, I do

395
00:21:49,560 --> 00:21:53,359
Speaker 1: not consider that a failure. I actually consider that a

396
00:21:53,520 --> 00:21:59,680
Speaker 1: strength because to me, if you have the self awareness

397
00:21:59,680 --> 00:22:05,080
Speaker 1: to go, Okay, this thing that I'm doing with my

398
00:22:05,160 --> 00:22:08,240
Speaker 1: short amount of time that I have on this earth

399
00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:14,680
Speaker 1: is causing me a great amount of distress, I'm going

400
00:22:14,760 --> 00:22:18,280
Speaker 1: to leave, It's not a failure. I don't look at

401
00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:22,320
Speaker 1: that as a failure. Why do you do you with

402
00:22:22,359 --> 00:22:24,120
Speaker 1: what I've just said, what do what do you think

403
00:22:24,160 --> 00:22:26,359
Speaker 1: about that perspective on it?

404
00:22:28,880 --> 00:22:31,480
Speaker 4: I hear you, and that's that's something I try to

405
00:22:31,520 --> 00:22:35,600
Speaker 4: tell myself. I think at the time I've really looked

406
00:22:35,640 --> 00:22:37,679
Speaker 4: at it as a failure because it was really my

407
00:22:37,760 --> 00:22:42,440
Speaker 4: only shot out of getting out of like retail sort

408
00:22:42,440 --> 00:22:45,600
Speaker 4: of sales type jobs, which had been eating me alive

409
00:22:45,720 --> 00:22:47,400
Speaker 4: up to that point. I was like, Okay, well, maybe

410
00:22:47,400 --> 00:22:49,960
Speaker 4: I don't have to do retail or sales anymore. I

411
00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:52,399
Speaker 4: can just be that I can be a medical and

412
00:22:52,960 --> 00:22:55,920
Speaker 4: that can I guess people could, or in my mind,

413
00:22:55,920 --> 00:22:58,600
Speaker 4: I would perceive that people would respect me more if

414
00:22:58,640 --> 00:23:00,439
Speaker 4: I said that I worked in a medical field as

415
00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:03,520
Speaker 4: opposed to you know, front desk at a gym or

416
00:23:03,520 --> 00:23:05,400
Speaker 4: something like that, when I don't even work out, So

417
00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:06,239
Speaker 4: can I can?

418
00:23:06,240 --> 00:23:09,119
Speaker 1: I ask you a question. You said that you're looking

419
00:23:09,160 --> 00:23:13,080
Speaker 1: at the front desk at the pediatric's office as the

420
00:23:13,359 --> 00:23:17,920
Speaker 1: only way that you can escape from doing retail. Why

421
00:23:17,960 --> 00:23:19,640
Speaker 1: do you look at it as the only way?

422
00:23:21,840 --> 00:23:24,879
Speaker 4: Well not anymore really. At the time I did. But

423
00:23:25,280 --> 00:23:28,320
Speaker 4: now I've kind of found nails for myself. I'm just

424
00:23:28,600 --> 00:23:32,160
Speaker 4: hoping that I can maintain that and that I guess

425
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:37,840
Speaker 4: my physical I guess what I struggle with physically won't

426
00:23:37,840 --> 00:23:40,000
Speaker 4: set me back from doing nails.

427
00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:47,440
Speaker 1: So you were in retail and now, okay, so you

428
00:23:47,480 --> 00:23:50,840
Speaker 1: went from pediatrics, did you go back for it? Doesn't matter.

429
00:23:51,000 --> 00:23:52,720
Speaker 1: So now you're in mail school. It's good. It's cuts

430
00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:54,199
Speaker 1: it out. We don't need to know what you did

431
00:23:54,280 --> 00:23:58,040
Speaker 1: after the pediatric's office. How is nail school going?

432
00:23:59,800 --> 00:24:02,679
Speaker 4: Well, well, I just finished day two, so we're still

433
00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:05,440
Speaker 4: on a bone set. We haven't even hit like theory

434
00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:09,200
Speaker 4: or how to sanitize or anything like that. It's strictly

435
00:24:09,320 --> 00:24:12,760
Speaker 4: just how to be professional is just like a I mean,

436
00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:13,640
Speaker 4: so far so good?

437
00:24:14,600 --> 00:24:17,560
Speaker 1: Okay? Great? Is this like a trade school? Like you

438
00:24:17,720 --> 00:24:21,240
Speaker 1: get some sort of license or some shit, and then

439
00:24:21,760 --> 00:24:24,600
Speaker 1: you preciate to a salon and then now you're able

440
00:24:24,640 --> 00:24:30,360
Speaker 1: to work there. Yes, okay, And you said so far

441
00:24:30,400 --> 00:24:31,080
Speaker 1: so good?

442
00:24:32,800 --> 00:24:34,720
Speaker 4: Yeah, so far so good.

443
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:39,480
Speaker 1: Okay. Let me ask you this. Do you what made

444
00:24:39,560 --> 00:24:42,000
Speaker 1: you choose to go to nails school?

445
00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:47,919
Speaker 4: I chose to go to nail school. Well, it was

446
00:24:48,080 --> 00:24:50,560
Speaker 4: kind of my I was telling a boyfriend that I

447
00:24:50,600 --> 00:24:53,199
Speaker 4: wanted to have my nails done because I never got

448
00:24:53,240 --> 00:24:55,440
Speaker 4: my nails done growing up because I always played the piano.

449
00:24:56,080 --> 00:24:59,040
Speaker 4: But I was always very scared of nail salons as well.

450
00:24:59,080 --> 00:25:01,640
Speaker 4: They always overwhelm me. I stay away from them. They

451
00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:08,560
Speaker 4: stress me out when I'm in school.

452
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:11,480
Speaker 6: I've had a headache both days that come home.

453
00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:12,920
Speaker 4: I'm like, oh God, I don't know I'm going to

454
00:25:12,960 --> 00:25:16,000
Speaker 4: do this. But I was like, I want to do

455
00:25:16,040 --> 00:25:20,000
Speaker 4: my nails. I'll tell him I want to do my nails,

456
00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:22,320
Speaker 4: but I can't ever wait for them to dry, like

457
00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:24,640
Speaker 4: I just managed to smudge them. It does not matter

458
00:25:24,680 --> 00:25:27,439
Speaker 4: what I do, I always sit on them or smudge

459
00:25:27,480 --> 00:25:29,560
Speaker 4: them somehow. So he was like, let me buy you

460
00:25:29,760 --> 00:25:32,240
Speaker 4: a fan dryer. That way I can dry my nails

461
00:25:32,280 --> 00:25:36,480
Speaker 4: in the dryer, but he bought me an led lamp instead,

462
00:25:36,600 --> 00:25:38,880
Speaker 4: thinking that it was a nail dryer. So I was like, well,

463
00:25:39,600 --> 00:25:42,239
Speaker 4: that's not what I need, but I guess I'll try it.

464
00:25:42,280 --> 00:25:44,480
Speaker 4: So I tried doing jail polishes and I ended up

465
00:25:44,520 --> 00:25:46,919
Speaker 4: really liking it, Like what if I do this as

466
00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:49,760
Speaker 4: a career. So I toyed with it for a little

467
00:25:49,800 --> 00:25:51,800
Speaker 4: bit and I was like, Okay, let let's let's do this.

468
00:25:51,840 --> 00:25:54,280
Speaker 4: I really don't know what else I'll be able to do,

469
00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:57,440
Speaker 4: because at this point in time, every I was now

470
00:25:57,520 --> 00:26:00,480
Speaker 4: getting to a point with my FND where it was

471
00:26:00,560 --> 00:26:04,240
Speaker 4: just getting hard to move and I didn't know how

472
00:26:04,359 --> 00:26:07,080
Speaker 4: I'd be able to have any sort of job at

473
00:26:07,080 --> 00:26:10,200
Speaker 4: all because it was just difficult getting around the house

474
00:26:10,600 --> 00:26:13,399
Speaker 4: before whatever reason, nails was the one thing I could do.

475
00:26:14,040 --> 00:26:16,240
Speaker 4: So I'm in nail school because right now it's the

476
00:26:16,280 --> 00:26:17,160
Speaker 4: only thing I can do.

477
00:26:17,920 --> 00:26:19,720
Speaker 1: Well, okay, you say it's the only thing you can do,

478
00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:23,520
Speaker 1: but you also said just now that you thought you

479
00:26:23,640 --> 00:26:24,480
Speaker 1: might like it.

480
00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:30,520
Speaker 4: Yeah, so I guess I feel blessed that I'm the

481
00:26:30,640 --> 00:26:33,359
Speaker 4: corner I've been backed into. Seems to be what I like.

482
00:26:34,200 --> 00:26:36,040
Speaker 1: I well, I want to get to the whole thing

483
00:26:36,040 --> 00:26:37,840
Speaker 1: about you being back in a corner in just a second,

484
00:26:37,880 --> 00:26:41,320
Speaker 1: but I want to point something out here. You you're

485
00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:45,639
Speaker 1: telling me that you have this thing where you're looking

486
00:26:45,680 --> 00:26:48,119
Speaker 1: at your life as like a series of failures, like

487
00:26:48,160 --> 00:26:51,960
Speaker 1: failing out of school, failing out of the pediatric's office.

488
00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:54,040
Speaker 1: And I want to ask you, in the series of

489
00:26:54,080 --> 00:26:57,879
Speaker 1: what you perceived to be failures, at any point, actually

490
00:26:57,960 --> 00:27:00,600
Speaker 1: have you ever actually gone in like you actually gone

491
00:27:00,600 --> 00:27:03,760
Speaker 1: into any of these endeavors thinking you might like it,

492
00:27:04,280 --> 00:27:06,320
Speaker 1: like when you went into being a pediat, like when

493
00:27:06,320 --> 00:27:08,959
Speaker 1: you've been into being a p at the fucking the

494
00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:14,479
Speaker 1: pediatric's office. You mentioned to me about wanting respect, and

495
00:27:14,520 --> 00:27:17,120
Speaker 1: you mentioned to me about wanting to get out of retail,

496
00:27:17,320 --> 00:27:20,360
Speaker 1: but you didn't mention to me that you might actually

497
00:27:20,440 --> 00:27:26,000
Speaker 1: want to do it, and so and you're right, And

498
00:27:26,000 --> 00:27:27,919
Speaker 1: then so I got what I'm bringing up is of

499
00:27:27,960 --> 00:27:32,280
Speaker 1: all these these these uh as you claim to view

500
00:27:32,320 --> 00:27:37,159
Speaker 1: them failures, they're all from things that you didn't really

501
00:27:37,200 --> 00:27:39,400
Speaker 1: actually want to do. I don't know how you felt

502
00:27:39,440 --> 00:27:44,639
Speaker 1: about school. I assume you weren't super stoked on it.

503
00:27:44,680 --> 00:27:45,720
Speaker 1: Is that the case?

504
00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:51,919
Speaker 4: Yeah, I tried college four times, and I mean the

505
00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:54,440
Speaker 4: first time, I guess you have that sort of oh,

506
00:27:54,480 --> 00:27:57,000
Speaker 4: I'm going to go have the class, the classic college

507
00:27:57,040 --> 00:27:59,600
Speaker 4: experience and live in the dorms and all that excitement

508
00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:01,600
Speaker 4: that you have. And then you actually get to college

509
00:28:01,600 --> 00:28:04,320
Speaker 4: and you realize none of that, none of that, how

510
00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:07,800
Speaker 4: any of this works. But then I kept trying because

511
00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:11,480
Speaker 4: who what am I without a college degree? And then

512
00:28:11,520 --> 00:28:14,959
Speaker 4: I realized that college and I just do not get along.

513
00:28:15,320 --> 00:28:17,239
Speaker 1: Okay, So that I'm going to stop you right there.

514
00:28:17,240 --> 00:28:19,240
Speaker 1: I'm going to stop you right there. You when you

515
00:28:19,320 --> 00:28:21,280
Speaker 1: just now you said what am I with a college degree?

516
00:28:21,280 --> 00:28:24,359
Speaker 1: There's a recurring pattern I'm seeing and I'm playing pretend

517
00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:29,520
Speaker 1: therapists here, but I'm gonna do this anyway. You when

518
00:28:29,560 --> 00:28:32,360
Speaker 1: you say I wanted to go into being a pediatrician

519
00:28:32,680 --> 00:28:36,800
Speaker 1: assistant office whatever, for respect. I wanted to go to

520
00:28:36,920 --> 00:28:40,880
Speaker 1: college for respect. You know, those are they're not there's

521
00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:44,600
Speaker 1: not good reasons to be pursuing something, and they're unstable

522
00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:49,200
Speaker 1: reasons to be pursuing something. So, like, you know, in kind,

523
00:28:49,360 --> 00:28:51,840
Speaker 1: I can see why you failed at those things because

524
00:28:51,840 --> 00:28:54,760
Speaker 1: you went into them for the wrong reasons. Whereas with this,

525
00:28:55,280 --> 00:28:58,520
Speaker 1: the nail tech thing, you seem like you might actually like.

526
00:28:58,560 --> 00:29:00,719
Speaker 1: It seems like it's something that can appeal to you.

527
00:29:01,000 --> 00:29:04,480
Speaker 1: So I wouldn't base your experience. I wouldn't go into

528
00:29:04,520 --> 00:29:06,680
Speaker 1: this thinking you're going to fail because you failed at

529
00:29:06,680 --> 00:29:08,440
Speaker 1: a bunch of stuff that you didn't actually even want

530
00:29:08,440 --> 00:29:09,960
Speaker 1: to do in the first place. Because if you don't

531
00:29:09,960 --> 00:29:11,880
Speaker 1: want to do it in the first place, then yeah,

532
00:29:11,880 --> 00:29:13,920
Speaker 1: there's a pretty there's a pretty good chance you're not

533
00:29:13,920 --> 00:29:16,000
Speaker 1: going to be successful in doing it, which is fine.

534
00:29:16,040 --> 00:29:18,760
Speaker 1: That's how things should work. You know, you should go

535
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 1: out and find something you actually want to do, because

536
00:29:21,200 --> 00:29:24,800
Speaker 1: then you might actually you almost have no hope in

537
00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:27,640
Speaker 1: being good at something that you don't actually want to do,

538
00:29:28,400 --> 00:29:31,880
Speaker 1: you know, So I would look at this differently than

539
00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:36,280
Speaker 1: all those other things.

540
00:29:35,760 --> 00:29:37,880
Speaker 4: And that's I'm trying to hold out that hope too.

541
00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:41,240
Speaker 4: But I guess now the case is, you know, within

542
00:29:41,320 --> 00:29:45,920
Speaker 4: the past year, I've gotten this this neurological condition that

543
00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:48,920
Speaker 4: I didn't have for the vast majority of my life.

544
00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:51,600
Speaker 4: Now I'm afraid that I've fallen into something that I

545
00:29:51,720 --> 00:29:54,680
Speaker 4: like doing and I might physically not be able to

546
00:29:54,760 --> 00:29:56,280
Speaker 4: do it, and I'm not going to know until I

547
00:29:56,320 --> 00:29:58,840
Speaker 4: actually test myself and try it.

548
00:29:59,360 --> 00:30:02,680
Speaker 1: Tell me a little bit more about what this disorder is.

549
00:30:04,960 --> 00:30:10,000
Speaker 4: So I have functional neurological disorder, and the I guess

550
00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:12,000
Speaker 4: the real easy way to say it is that doctors

551
00:30:12,040 --> 00:30:15,160
Speaker 4: have no idea what causes it or why it happens

552
00:30:15,720 --> 00:30:20,880
Speaker 4: or But essentially, for me, I guess the easiest way

553
00:30:20,920 --> 00:30:22,840
Speaker 4: to say is that the way that my brain talks

554
00:30:22,840 --> 00:30:27,160
Speaker 4: to my body doesn't line up correctly. So there's a

555
00:30:27,320 --> 00:30:30,280
Speaker 4: bunch of different symptoms for different people, but for me specifically,

556
00:30:31,960 --> 00:30:34,440
Speaker 4: I tend to scrunch my face without meaning too. My

557
00:30:34,960 --> 00:30:38,080
Speaker 4: head tends to whip back and forth pretty hard, and

558
00:30:38,440 --> 00:30:42,640
Speaker 4: it's trying to hurt. Sometimes my arms cross across my body,

559
00:30:42,680 --> 00:30:45,880
Speaker 4: and then sometimes it's like spontaneous paralysis and I can't

560
00:30:45,880 --> 00:30:48,880
Speaker 4: move or I start walking backwards. It's just funny and

561
00:30:48,920 --> 00:30:55,160
Speaker 4: it's not predictable. I'm getting I'm getting better at managing

562
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,560
Speaker 4: with it. That there was a point in time where

563
00:30:57,600 --> 00:31:00,160
Speaker 4: I thought I wouldn't I was just degenerating to the

564
00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:01,400
Speaker 4: point where I wouldn't be able to get out of

565
00:31:01,440 --> 00:31:01,840
Speaker 4: bed again.

566
00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:08,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, you have involuntary movements. Yes, uh, you know,

567
00:31:10,080 --> 00:31:14,800
Speaker 1: what's your name? Moody? Moody, I I I I empathize

568
00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:17,440
Speaker 1: with you, and I understand why you feel that way.

569
00:31:19,640 --> 00:31:27,640
Speaker 1: I really want you not because you're painting this narrative

570
00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:30,760
Speaker 1: of like this is this is the only thing so

571
00:31:30,760 --> 00:31:33,040
Speaker 1: the one that you're painting, this like narrative of you

572
00:31:33,720 --> 00:31:38,280
Speaker 1: against a brick wall. And I'm sure that there are

573
00:31:38,320 --> 00:31:43,280
Speaker 1: like genuine, honest to God physical limitations for like things

574
00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:46,000
Speaker 1: you cannot and cannot you can and cannot do. But

575
00:31:46,200 --> 00:31:48,840
Speaker 1: just because there are certain things, even if there are

576
00:31:48,920 --> 00:31:52,720
Speaker 1: a lot of things that you cannot do, I I

577
00:31:52,800 --> 00:31:57,600
Speaker 1: it helps you in no way to paint a picture

578
00:31:57,680 --> 00:32:02,360
Speaker 1: of your life is limited because I mean there's so

579
00:32:02,360 --> 00:32:04,880
Speaker 1: many things you can You can talk. We're talking right now,

580
00:32:05,480 --> 00:32:08,680
Speaker 1: so okay, you can do anything in this world that

581
00:32:08,760 --> 00:32:14,560
Speaker 1: involves talking. You can think you can do anything in

582
00:32:14,600 --> 00:32:21,120
Speaker 1: this world that involves thinking, so like just if you

583
00:32:21,320 --> 00:32:24,800
Speaker 1: can and I feel bad, you know, saying this because

584
00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:26,200
Speaker 1: it's easy for me to say because I don't have

585
00:32:26,240 --> 00:32:28,680
Speaker 1: the thing and you have the thing, But I just

586
00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:35,920
Speaker 1: for your sake, try and not think of yourself as

587
00:32:36,080 --> 00:32:38,400
Speaker 1: as limited is it sounds like you are thinking of

588
00:32:38,440 --> 00:32:43,360
Speaker 1: yourself as what do you think about that?

589
00:32:43,360 --> 00:32:46,600
Speaker 4: That's a hard one. It's hard because I live so

590
00:32:46,760 --> 00:32:48,960
Speaker 4: much of my life without this, so be able to

591
00:32:49,000 --> 00:32:51,240
Speaker 4: compare where I used to be and just kind of

592
00:32:51,320 --> 00:32:53,520
Speaker 4: kick myself. Well, why didn't I do X, Y and

593
00:32:53,600 --> 00:32:55,680
Speaker 4: Z and I didn't have to worry about whether I'd

594
00:32:55,680 --> 00:32:57,280
Speaker 4: be fully functional or not today?

595
00:32:57,640 --> 00:33:03,280
Speaker 1: Sure, but just keep keep keep moving man, like, keep

596
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:08,520
Speaker 1: being open minded, you know, because if you're you're kicking

597
00:33:08,560 --> 00:33:12,720
Speaker 1: yourself now. But like when you're kicking yourself, you're not

598
00:33:12,800 --> 00:33:15,280
Speaker 1: looking at other things that you might be able to do.

599
00:33:19,720 --> 00:33:24,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, I've got I've got a backup plan, uh right now.

600
00:33:24,240 --> 00:33:26,440
Speaker 4: The backup plan is to sell press on if I

601
00:33:26,440 --> 00:33:29,320
Speaker 4: if I'm I can't work in a salon environment, like

602
00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:32,160
Speaker 4: if it's too stressful, it's setting me off too much.

603
00:33:32,200 --> 00:33:34,400
Speaker 4: If I can't hold my hand still enough to actually

604
00:33:34,440 --> 00:33:36,760
Speaker 4: work with clients, and I'll go to press on. But

605
00:33:36,760 --> 00:33:38,880
Speaker 4: then there's a fear of, oh, is it is the

606
00:33:38,920 --> 00:33:43,680
Speaker 4: field too oversaturated? Do people really want more plastic nails?

607
00:33:43,760 --> 00:33:45,360
Speaker 4: I don't. I don't know.

608
00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:50,600
Speaker 1: You know, I think as long as you keep your

609
00:33:50,920 --> 00:33:57,800
Speaker 1: mind open, you'll find stuff to do. The world is

610
00:33:58,040 --> 00:34:04,000
Speaker 1: pretty infinite, and a lot of people will will kind

611
00:34:04,040 --> 00:34:06,280
Speaker 1: of combat this by saying like, oh, it was easy

612
00:34:06,280 --> 00:34:08,080
Speaker 1: to say because of this and that and the third thing,

613
00:34:08,200 --> 00:34:11,040
Speaker 1: but but god damn, wouldn't you take a maybe over

614
00:34:11,080 --> 00:34:11,399
Speaker 1: a now?

615
00:34:13,719 --> 00:34:13,919
Speaker 5: Yeah?

616
00:34:14,040 --> 00:34:15,840
Speaker 4: I'll take maybe for sure?

617
00:34:16,640 --> 00:34:24,920
Speaker 1: Good? What is your name again? Moody? Ready, Moody, listen?

618
00:34:25,400 --> 00:34:28,600
Speaker 1: Good luck in nails school. I'm rooting for you, and

619
00:34:28,680 --> 00:34:30,839
Speaker 1: I think even if that doesn't work out, I think

620
00:34:30,840 --> 00:34:32,640
Speaker 1: it will. But even if it doesn't, I think that

621
00:34:32,680 --> 00:34:37,239
Speaker 1: there are infinite things for you to do. But I

622
00:34:37,239 --> 00:34:40,759
Speaker 1: think there are infinite positive uses of your time in

623
00:34:40,800 --> 00:34:43,600
Speaker 1: this universe, and I hope you continue to think like

624
00:34:43,640 --> 00:34:46,719
Speaker 1: that as well. Is there anything else you would like

625
00:34:46,760 --> 00:34:49,920
Speaker 1: to say to the people of the computer before we go?

626
00:34:54,400 --> 00:34:57,400
Speaker 4: Thanks for hearing me out. Don't do anything I wouldn't do.

627
00:34:58,880 --> 00:35:00,359
Speaker 1: Gak bless you, Moody.

628
00:35:02,320 --> 00:35:03,040
Speaker 4: Thanks jek.

629
00:35:12,040 --> 00:35:17,120
Speaker 1: Okay, we did it. We did a motivational thing. We

630
00:35:17,239 --> 00:35:24,440
Speaker 1: said words that were positive, we gave thoughts. I felt

631
00:35:24,440 --> 00:35:27,200
Speaker 1: bad for Moody because she was she's being so hard

632
00:35:27,200 --> 00:35:31,400
Speaker 1: on herself, like out of the gate, and I kind

633
00:35:31,400 --> 00:35:33,480
Speaker 1: of wish I wish I would have asked her how

634
00:35:33,520 --> 00:35:35,960
Speaker 1: she this. A lot of the times when I go

635
00:35:36,040 --> 00:35:39,160
Speaker 1: on these little rants or whatever, I forget to be like, Okay,

636
00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:43,640
Speaker 1: but how did you actually feel about all that ranting?

637
00:35:44,840 --> 00:35:47,080
Speaker 1: I wish I had said that, because I kind of

638
00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:50,759
Speaker 1: maybe heard her come around to it a little bit,

639
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:52,440
Speaker 1: because at the beginning of the cause she was just like,

640
00:35:52,920 --> 00:35:54,320
Speaker 1: this is the only thing I can do. This is

641
00:35:54,360 --> 00:35:58,520
Speaker 1: the corner I backed myself into. And I'm like, why,

642
00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:05,000
Speaker 1: Oh I wish uh. I wish good luck upon Moody,

643
00:36:05,360 --> 00:36:09,200
Speaker 1: and I hope that she's able to uh do some

644
00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:11,319
Speaker 1: good work in the nail salon. Maybe I'll go to her.

645
00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:13,399
Speaker 1: My nails are fucked up because I keep chewing on them,

646
00:36:14,560 --> 00:36:18,320
Speaker 1: and uh, I'm gonna do I'm addicted to chewing my nails.

647
00:36:19,600 --> 00:36:22,320
Speaker 1: All right. That's that's the end of this this post

648
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:25,560
Speaker 1: call banter. I have nothing else to say. I am

649
00:36:25,600 --> 00:36:30,880
Speaker 1: a gecko. Hello, hey, uh Eli, what's going on with you,

650
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:31,960
Speaker 1: how can I get you to lem?

651
00:36:32,719 --> 00:36:39,520
Speaker 6: Okay, So I've a few years ago, back in high school,

652
00:36:40,680 --> 00:36:46,879
Speaker 6: I was dating this girl and before I started dating her,

653
00:36:47,920 --> 00:36:50,359
Speaker 6: she was like, yeah, I have this like I'm really

654
00:36:50,360 --> 00:36:56,839
Speaker 6: close with my dad and I like I want him

655
00:36:56,840 --> 00:36:58,359
Speaker 6: to like you. So I said, okay, but I could

656
00:36:58,400 --> 00:37:01,960
Speaker 6: give you his number and then like he can like

657
00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:03,520
Speaker 6: talk to you and then you guys can like set

658
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:06,560
Speaker 6: up an interview, which was weird.

659
00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:08,760
Speaker 1: It super weird.

660
00:37:10,160 --> 00:37:11,680
Speaker 6: Yeah, so he.

661
00:37:12,040 --> 00:37:16,359
Speaker 1: Tell me first? She did? She did? She use the

662
00:37:16,400 --> 00:37:17,440
Speaker 1: word interview?

663
00:37:19,640 --> 00:37:23,400
Speaker 6: Well, she was like, he wants to talk to you first,

664
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:25,840
Speaker 6: and I was like, you mean like an interview, and

665
00:37:25,920 --> 00:37:29,800
Speaker 6: she said, yeah.

666
00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:28,799
Speaker 5: All right.

667
00:37:28,880 --> 00:37:30,560
Speaker 1: I mean look, I guess if you're in high school,

668
00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:32,239
Speaker 1: all right, maybe I spoke too soon. I guess if

669
00:37:32,239 --> 00:37:36,440
Speaker 1: you're in high school, that's not that weird.

670
00:37:36,640 --> 00:37:44,120
Speaker 6: But continue, I guess the idea of the interview itself

671
00:37:44,200 --> 00:37:49,840
Speaker 6: isn't weird, But the interview itself was so basically it

672
00:37:49,920 --> 00:37:54,480
Speaker 6: was like I go to her house, talk to her

673
00:37:54,560 --> 00:38:00,680
Speaker 6: dad and he starts like he starts off talking about

674
00:38:00,719 --> 00:38:07,920
Speaker 6: like how he like wouldn't be afraid to shoot a

675
00:38:07,960 --> 00:38:11,160
Speaker 6: home intruder and how he wouldn't be afraid to shoot

676
00:38:11,200 --> 00:38:16,240
Speaker 6: me either, and then later asked if I was okay,

677
00:38:16,440 --> 00:38:20,800
Speaker 6: like what I thought about like guns, and I didn't

678
00:38:20,920 --> 00:38:23,520
Speaker 6: know how to answer because clearly you don't want to

679
00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:25,759
Speaker 6: answer saying you don't like them if someone just said

680
00:38:25,760 --> 00:38:27,040
Speaker 6: they're not afraid of shooting you.

681
00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:36,919
Speaker 1: Okay, So what did you do in response to all

682
00:38:36,960 --> 00:38:37,200
Speaker 1: of this?

683
00:38:41,120 --> 00:38:46,359
Speaker 6: So basically, in the end the interview, the biggest, the

684
00:38:46,400 --> 00:38:50,960
Speaker 6: weirdest question he asked me in the end was are

685
00:38:51,000 --> 00:38:55,400
Speaker 6: you a virgin? Which at the time I was, but

686
00:38:55,800 --> 00:38:59,520
Speaker 6: like that it was just a really weird question for

687
00:38:59,560 --> 00:39:00,319
Speaker 6: an adult.

688
00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:00,560
Speaker 3: To ask me.

689
00:39:01,320 --> 00:39:04,759
Speaker 6: Super weird question but at the but at the time

690
00:39:04,760 --> 00:39:06,719
Speaker 6: I didn't think it was weird because I grew up

691
00:39:06,760 --> 00:39:10,960
Speaker 6: Mormon and in like bishop interviews and stuff like that,

692
00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:12,400
Speaker 6: that's the kind of stuff they ask you.

693
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:21,440
Speaker 1: Hm, okay, so you had this very strange interaction with

694
00:39:21,560 --> 00:39:26,239
Speaker 1: your girlfriend's dad, and what did you do in response

695
00:39:26,280 --> 00:39:28,960
Speaker 1: to that? I?

696
00:39:29,120 --> 00:39:34,680
Speaker 6: Well, I didn't really know what to do. So we

697
00:39:34,800 --> 00:39:40,000
Speaker 6: kept dating afterwards, like you kept dating, and he would

698
00:39:40,080 --> 00:39:42,000
Speaker 6: text me and stuff.

699
00:39:45,360 --> 00:39:46,560
Speaker 1: What kinds of things would he end?

700
00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:49,560
Speaker 6: I never was doing sure what to do. He would

701
00:39:49,600 --> 00:39:52,239
Speaker 6: just like text me like, hey, maybe you should do this,

702
00:39:52,800 --> 00:39:55,040
Speaker 6: Like I don't know he did. He'd asked me more

703
00:39:55,120 --> 00:39:59,200
Speaker 6: really weird questions, and he'd like sometimes he'd just ask

704
00:39:59,280 --> 00:40:02,240
Speaker 6: him my day was, which, like I know, isn't that weird,

705
00:40:02,280 --> 00:40:05,040
Speaker 6: but like it's still was really invasive.

706
00:40:06,160 --> 00:40:12,279
Speaker 1: Totally. How long did you continue to date this girl afterwards?

707
00:40:14,360 --> 00:40:15,760
Speaker 6: Like three months?

708
00:40:17,280 --> 00:40:17,600
Speaker 5: Okay?

709
00:40:17,600 --> 00:40:19,560
Speaker 1: What was it like when you broke up with her?

710
00:40:21,320 --> 00:40:23,719
Speaker 6: It was pretty funny because I broke up with her

711
00:40:23,760 --> 00:40:30,279
Speaker 6: because of her dad completely, and so after we broke up,

712
00:40:30,280 --> 00:40:32,680
Speaker 6: she would tell people that we broke up because I

713
00:40:32,760 --> 00:40:35,480
Speaker 6: wanted her to kiss me and she wouldn't, and so

714
00:40:35,640 --> 00:40:36,319
Speaker 6: we broke up.

715
00:40:42,560 --> 00:40:46,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, Well, how did the dad react when you broke up?

716
00:40:46,120 --> 00:40:49,520
Speaker 1: Would he continue to text you afterwards?

717
00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:50,799
Speaker 5: So?

718
00:40:51,239 --> 00:40:54,919
Speaker 6: I eventually, like around the time I broke up with her,

719
00:40:55,440 --> 00:41:02,440
Speaker 6: told my parents what had been going on, which led

720
00:41:02,680 --> 00:41:08,840
Speaker 6: to my dad calling him and I never I didn't

721
00:41:08,880 --> 00:41:11,720
Speaker 6: hear this call. I was not in the room or anything.

722
00:41:12,560 --> 00:41:17,560
Speaker 6: But when he left the room from the call, I

723
00:41:17,680 --> 00:41:23,960
Speaker 6: was told to. I was told that I shouldn't have

724
00:41:24,000 --> 00:41:27,319
Speaker 6: to worry about it, and that he said that no

725
00:41:27,360 --> 00:41:31,040
Speaker 6: one in that my girlfriend ex his dad said that

726
00:41:31,160 --> 00:41:33,640
Speaker 6: no one in her family will ever be talking to

727
00:41:33,680 --> 00:41:37,440
Speaker 6: anyone in my family. Ever again. And that's about as

728
00:41:37,520 --> 00:41:39,920
Speaker 6: much information as I know about how that call went.

729
00:41:43,080 --> 00:41:46,839
Speaker 1: Well, it sounds like your dad set some pretty strong boundaries.

730
00:41:49,360 --> 00:41:52,279
Speaker 6: Yeah, my dad is a social worker at a at

731
00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:55,880
Speaker 6: a halfway house, and he was picking up on a

732
00:41:55,960 --> 00:41:59,040
Speaker 6: lot of like really criminal behavior that he sees from

733
00:41:59,080 --> 00:42:02,319
Speaker 6: like his job every day from this guy and was like, yeah,

734
00:42:02,360 --> 00:42:04,759
Speaker 6: I'm not letting this continue.

735
00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:09,439
Speaker 1: Yeah. Man, what a lucky thing to have a dad

736
00:42:09,480 --> 00:42:13,880
Speaker 1: who's good at sort of spying that stuff out to

737
00:42:13,960 --> 00:42:17,000
Speaker 1: come in and deal with that situation. Because that that guy,

738
00:42:17,160 --> 00:42:19,719
Speaker 1: he did not sound like he was good news at all.

739
00:42:20,560 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 1: I feel bad for you know, I feel bad for

740
00:42:25,000 --> 00:42:27,200
Speaker 1: whoever your girlfriend was at the time. I feel bad

741
00:42:27,239 --> 00:42:28,759
Speaker 1: for her. I don't know what her life was like

742
00:42:28,840 --> 00:42:29,440
Speaker 1: in that house.

743
00:42:32,320 --> 00:42:35,960
Speaker 6: From my understanding, it wasn't great. But she really liked

744
00:42:36,000 --> 00:42:38,920
Speaker 6: her dad and really didn't like her mom, and it

745
00:42:39,040 --> 00:42:46,080
Speaker 6: was weird, and I don't know her. I didn't it

746
00:42:46,120 --> 00:42:48,399
Speaker 6: was very much. Uh, I'm going to date this person

747
00:42:48,440 --> 00:42:50,799
Speaker 6: because I'm in high school. Like neither of us really

748
00:42:50,840 --> 00:42:53,319
Speaker 6: clicked with each other that well, it wasn't that good

749
00:42:53,320 --> 00:43:03,120
Speaker 6: of a relationship, like even without that, and like, yeah.

750
00:43:01,239 --> 00:43:03,440
Speaker 1: So Eli, it says here that you're struggling to connect.

751
00:43:03,640 --> 00:43:06,600
Speaker 1: It says you have a new girlfriend and you're struggling

752
00:43:06,640 --> 00:43:08,920
Speaker 1: to connect with her dad. What's going on with this

753
00:43:08,960 --> 00:43:09,719
Speaker 1: new girlfriend?

754
00:43:12,160 --> 00:43:15,320
Speaker 6: Yeah, so me and my new girlfriend we've been dating

755
00:43:15,400 --> 00:43:21,719
Speaker 6: for u six months as of yesterday, and I get

756
00:43:22,000 --> 00:43:26,680
Speaker 6: really really bad anxiety around her dad, and like, I

757
00:43:26,719 --> 00:43:29,480
Speaker 6: have really bad trust issues with a lot of adults

758
00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:34,160
Speaker 6: because of this experience where it's like really like because yeah,

759
00:43:34,200 --> 00:43:36,640
Speaker 6: and it's like really hard for me to like connect

760
00:43:37,160 --> 00:43:39,640
Speaker 6: with him, even though like he's genuinely a nice guy,

761
00:43:39,880 --> 00:43:43,560
Speaker 6: Like he's kind of a nerd, He's really just nice.

762
00:43:43,719 --> 00:43:46,680
Speaker 6: He makes jokes and I think they're pretty funny. Like

763
00:43:46,680 --> 00:43:48,840
Speaker 6: he's just a nice guy. And I just but like

764
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:51,120
Speaker 6: whenever I'm like around him or like we're hanging out

765
00:43:51,120 --> 00:43:52,640
Speaker 6: at her house or something and he's there, like I

766
00:43:52,719 --> 00:43:56,920
Speaker 6: just like kind of like free, like I start like

767
00:43:56,960 --> 00:43:58,759
Speaker 6: having a mini panic attack about it.

768
00:43:59,600 --> 00:44:01,319
Speaker 1: Really, let me ask you this, have you talked to

769
00:44:01,320 --> 00:44:03,120
Speaker 1: a real therapist about any of this stuff?

770
00:44:05,760 --> 00:44:08,880
Speaker 6: So I have a real therapist. I have talked to

771
00:44:08,920 --> 00:44:12,359
Speaker 6: her very briefly about this, but it's really hard to

772
00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:17,319
Speaker 6: get in right now to therapy. I haven't gone in

773
00:44:17,360 --> 00:44:19,640
Speaker 6: like two months. And we're trying to get me in,

774
00:44:19,719 --> 00:44:20,839
Speaker 6: but it's not working out.

775
00:44:21,680 --> 00:44:23,680
Speaker 1: Interesting because I do wonder what they would say. Because

776
00:44:23,880 --> 00:44:25,400
Speaker 1: you talked to her briefly about it, did she have

777
00:44:25,400 --> 00:44:27,080
Speaker 1: any brief responses?

778
00:44:29,280 --> 00:44:31,719
Speaker 6: I mean, it was kind of like I talked about

779
00:44:31,719 --> 00:44:33,800
Speaker 6: it while talking about something else, and so she probably

780
00:44:33,880 --> 00:44:36,479
Speaker 6: just wrote it down in her notes because she asked

781
00:44:36,520 --> 00:44:39,040
Speaker 6: me a follow up question about something else. But with

782
00:44:39,080 --> 00:44:43,359
Speaker 6: my dad as a therapist, which is a whole it's

783
00:44:43,360 --> 00:44:45,319
Speaker 6: a weird dynamic because sometimes I just want to be

784
00:44:45,360 --> 00:44:47,560
Speaker 6: my dad and sometimes it's nice to have him as

785
00:44:47,560 --> 00:44:52,560
Speaker 6: a therapist. But it's like he has said some interesting

786
00:44:52,680 --> 00:44:53,440
Speaker 6: things about it.

787
00:44:55,280 --> 00:44:56,640
Speaker 1: Tell me what he said about it.

788
00:44:59,080 --> 00:45:04,080
Speaker 6: So him being like, you know, like a witness in this,

789
00:45:05,680 --> 00:45:11,640
Speaker 6: he was very like he understood very clearly, like what

790
00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:13,560
Speaker 6: had happened to me, because he had seen it happen

791
00:45:13,600 --> 00:45:16,319
Speaker 6: to other people. I haven't talked to him about it

792
00:45:16,320 --> 00:45:23,239
Speaker 6: in a bit, but it's like I just need to

793
00:45:23,320 --> 00:45:27,800
Speaker 6: learn to dissociate. I guess where it's like this person

794
00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:32,120
Speaker 6: isn't the same person, and just it's okay that my

795
00:45:32,160 --> 00:45:35,359
Speaker 6: brain doesn't know that, because like it takes time for

796
00:45:35,880 --> 00:45:39,000
Speaker 6: people to like oftentimes your brain will process only before

797
00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:41,200
Speaker 6: your heart does and then get to like, wait a

798
00:45:41,239 --> 00:45:46,440
Speaker 6: minute till you actually like process it. I guess.

799
00:45:50,160 --> 00:45:53,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, this is a difficult thing because you don't want

800
00:45:53,800 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 1: your relationships with anyone else to kind of like define

801
00:46:01,040 --> 00:46:04,799
Speaker 1: how you view relationships with other people as you move

802
00:46:04,880 --> 00:46:08,040
Speaker 1: on with your life. But it would make sense that

803
00:46:08,120 --> 00:46:14,600
Speaker 1: your brain just does it anyway. Yeah, what else has

804
00:46:14,640 --> 00:46:17,919
Speaker 1: your dad sort of told you that's helped you out

805
00:46:17,960 --> 00:46:21,239
Speaker 1: with this as you've continued on. I don't know if

806
00:46:21,280 --> 00:46:23,719
Speaker 1: you've talked to them about this particular situation you're having

807
00:46:23,719 --> 00:46:25,359
Speaker 1: with your current girlfriends.

808
00:46:26,920 --> 00:46:30,040
Speaker 6: I have not talked about them with this current situation,

809
00:46:32,920 --> 00:46:37,640
Speaker 6: but in general, a big thing that my dad and

810
00:46:37,640 --> 00:46:40,040
Speaker 6: I have talked about is like picking up on things

811
00:46:40,040 --> 00:46:42,520
Speaker 6: that like trigger off anxiety and trigger off depression and

812
00:46:42,560 --> 00:46:45,759
Speaker 6: stuff like that and dealing with them quickly before it

813
00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 6: like eats you away.

814
00:46:50,640 --> 00:46:52,319
Speaker 1: Well, I'll say this much. It sounds like you got

815
00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:55,279
Speaker 1: a good uh, You've got a good resource and your

816
00:46:55,360 --> 00:46:58,000
Speaker 1: dad to help you out with all this shit. Yes,

817
00:46:58,080 --> 00:47:03,359
Speaker 1: I do you know? Maybe have you spent a lot

818
00:47:03,400 --> 00:47:05,279
Speaker 1: and I tell this to everyone, but have you spent

819
00:47:05,520 --> 00:47:09,319
Speaker 1: a lot of time not in a relationship like how

820
00:47:09,400 --> 00:47:15,640
Speaker 1: recently was this new girlfriend after the old one.

821
00:47:15,680 --> 00:47:19,640
Speaker 6: This new girlfriend was in January of this year, and

822
00:47:19,680 --> 00:47:23,120
Speaker 6: that girlfriend was in February or March of last year.

823
00:47:25,320 --> 00:47:26,759
Speaker 1: All right, so it was at least a year.

824
00:47:28,960 --> 00:47:29,880
Speaker 6: Yeah, it was a minute.

825
00:47:30,760 --> 00:47:36,359
Speaker 1: All right. Well I kind of needed it. You kind

826
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:37,880
Speaker 1: of needed it. I don't like hearing that. What do

827
00:47:37,880 --> 00:47:38,719
Speaker 1: you mean by you needed it?

828
00:47:41,880 --> 00:47:42,040
Speaker 2: Oh?

829
00:47:42,120 --> 00:47:43,880
Speaker 6: I needed to not be in a relationship because that

830
00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:48,200
Speaker 6: time my life was really dark, like really dark. Like

831
00:47:48,320 --> 00:47:50,799
Speaker 6: even after that, that definitely didn't help. And then like

832
00:47:51,320 --> 00:47:54,399
Speaker 6: I was really through, I really depressed, really anxious all

833
00:47:54,400 --> 00:48:01,720
Speaker 6: the time, Like several like incidents, incident things happened.

834
00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:08,239
Speaker 1: What is your life like now? What is the sort

835
00:48:08,280 --> 00:48:11,719
Speaker 1: of general feelings going on currently?

836
00:48:14,800 --> 00:48:19,080
Speaker 6: I feel? So it's been over a year since I've

837
00:48:19,080 --> 00:48:21,640
Speaker 6: done any sort of self harm or anything like that.

838
00:48:22,360 --> 00:48:27,759
Speaker 6: I am genuinely just happier to be around people. I

839
00:48:28,520 --> 00:48:32,400
Speaker 6: am very quick to pick up when things are going

840
00:48:32,480 --> 00:48:34,120
Speaker 6: bad for me. And I'm starting to be able to

841
00:48:34,160 --> 00:48:36,600
Speaker 6: talk about things that have happened to me now because

842
00:48:37,120 --> 00:48:39,279
Speaker 6: like all that stuff happened last year and I kind

843
00:48:39,280 --> 00:48:42,000
Speaker 6: of wouldn't talk about it, And now like I'm finally

844
00:48:42,040 --> 00:48:45,720
Speaker 6: comfortable enough where I'm feeling good, and I'm feeling ready

845
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:50,080
Speaker 6: to start telling people about it and start focusing not

846
00:48:50,120 --> 00:48:52,600
Speaker 6: onlike getting past it, because I feel like I am

847
00:48:52,680 --> 00:48:55,720
Speaker 6: past most of it, but like on how it happened

848
00:48:55,719 --> 00:48:56,880
Speaker 6: to me, but it doesn't define me.

849
00:48:58,280 --> 00:48:59,759
Speaker 1: I like that. It seems like you have a healthy,

850
00:48:59,800 --> 00:49:02,280
Speaker 1: real relationship with everything that's going on with you, especially

851
00:49:02,640 --> 00:49:05,359
Speaker 1: even though especially with it going on with you so young,

852
00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:07,239
Speaker 1: you have a very mature mindset about it.

853
00:49:09,239 --> 00:49:09,800
Speaker 6: Thank you.

854
00:49:11,640 --> 00:49:13,000
Speaker 1: Well, you know, I thanks for sharing. Is there anything

855
00:49:13,040 --> 00:49:14,040
Speaker 1: else you want to say to the people of the

856
00:49:14,080 --> 00:49:15,040
Speaker 1: computer before we go.

857
00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:22,160
Speaker 6: I so I've been listening to your stuff on Spotify

858
00:49:22,360 --> 00:49:24,920
Speaker 6: all week at work, and I was listening to it

859
00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:26,799
Speaker 6: today and then I got the twitch and so I

860
00:49:26,840 --> 00:49:29,320
Speaker 6: followed you on Twitch and then I got the notification

861
00:49:29,440 --> 00:49:30,680
Speaker 6: at work. It was like, you know what, I'll just

862
00:49:30,760 --> 00:49:32,319
Speaker 6: call today. But I've been listening to it all week

863
00:49:32,360 --> 00:49:33,359
Speaker 6: and here we are.

864
00:49:34,480 --> 00:49:39,040
Speaker 1: Well, thank you for listening. I'm glad you brought all

865
00:49:39,040 --> 00:49:41,480
Speaker 1: this stuff up. I'm like totally not a real therapist

866
00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:44,280
Speaker 1: or equipped to talk about a lot of the issues. Yeah,

867
00:49:44,360 --> 00:49:47,160
Speaker 1: you're bringing up on on on this here thing, but

868
00:49:48,080 --> 00:49:51,600
Speaker 1: you know, thanks for sharing anyway, and good look for it.

869
00:49:51,640 --> 00:49:53,080
Speaker 1: I meant, I did mean what I know. I said

870
00:49:53,120 --> 00:49:55,080
Speaker 1: all that spiel about how I don't you know, know

871
00:49:55,080 --> 00:49:56,680
Speaker 1: how to talk about all this ship, but I do.

872
00:49:56,800 --> 00:49:58,719
Speaker 1: I do mean what I said when I said that,

873
00:49:58,760 --> 00:50:00,640
Speaker 1: I think you have a mature mindset about it, because

874
00:50:01,440 --> 00:50:03,360
Speaker 1: you're you're not. You don't sound like you're letting a

875
00:50:03,360 --> 00:50:05,719
Speaker 1: lot of this stuff defind you. When you said that,

876
00:50:05,760 --> 00:50:08,160
Speaker 1: you're allowing yourself to move on from it. And I

877
00:50:08,200 --> 00:50:14,160
Speaker 1: think that that's, in my unprofessional lizard opinion, the most

878
00:50:14,160 --> 00:50:16,520
Speaker 1: important thing. So good, Good for you, man, keep going

879
00:50:16,560 --> 00:50:16,759
Speaker 1: on that.

880
00:50:19,400 --> 00:50:19,839
Speaker 6: Thank you.

881
00:50:19,960 --> 00:50:21,920
Speaker 4: I am trying my best.

882
00:50:22,880 --> 00:50:23,480
Speaker 1: Take care of el.

883
00:50:25,640 --> 00:50:26,439
Speaker 6: Yeah, you're too well.

884
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:28,600
Speaker 1: Hello?

885
00:50:30,120 --> 00:50:30,440
Speaker 3: Hello?

886
00:50:31,760 --> 00:50:33,040
Speaker 1: Is this Anthony?

887
00:50:35,200 --> 00:50:37,799
Speaker 5: Yeah?

888
00:50:37,880 --> 00:50:41,040
Speaker 1: You sound uh sounds like you're chilling right now.

889
00:50:44,239 --> 00:50:47,600
Speaker 3: I uh yeah, how do you know?

890
00:50:48,360 --> 00:50:50,040
Speaker 1: How do you feel right now in this moment?

891
00:50:53,800 --> 00:50:58,600
Speaker 3: I feel I feel chilled.

892
00:51:01,160 --> 00:51:04,799
Speaker 1: Sous. Hear that you are on mushrooms right now and

893
00:51:04,880 --> 00:51:07,320
Speaker 1: you wanted to share your experience with us.

894
00:51:10,520 --> 00:51:16,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, first, I don't know where I am.

895
00:51:17,360 --> 00:51:21,040
Speaker 1: All right, let's talk about that. Where do you Where

896
00:51:21,040 --> 00:51:24,520
Speaker 1: do you think you are? Do you have any idea?

897
00:51:26,320 --> 00:51:34,160
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, so I started this morning in New York.

898
00:51:34,960 --> 00:51:41,799
Speaker 3: But I think I think I I I don't think

899
00:51:41,840 --> 00:51:43,080
Speaker 3: I'm in New York anymore.

900
00:51:45,239 --> 00:51:49,239
Speaker 1: Okay, where do you think you are? Well?

901
00:51:50,520 --> 00:52:00,520
Speaker 3: I see a tree, two trees, three actually, and grass,

902
00:52:00,560 --> 00:52:01,400
Speaker 3: a lot of grass.

903
00:52:02,360 --> 00:52:05,320
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Are you outside?

904
00:52:09,320 --> 00:52:18,680
Speaker 3: Uh m hm hm hmm, yeah, that could be.

905
00:52:20,760 --> 00:52:22,799
Speaker 1: I'd be curious where you would be if you were

906
00:52:22,920 --> 00:52:26,600
Speaker 1: inside and you were seeing trees and grass.

907
00:52:30,520 --> 00:52:34,120
Speaker 3: Yeah. I mean, how do you know this?

908
00:52:36,800 --> 00:52:40,040
Speaker 1: What have you been thinking about lately?

909
00:52:44,160 --> 00:52:44,279
Speaker 4: Uh?

910
00:52:45,880 --> 00:52:50,040
Speaker 3: I've been thinking a lot, a lot about life.

911
00:52:51,120 --> 00:52:52,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, what about life?

912
00:52:56,400 --> 00:53:04,239
Speaker 3: It's uh, I don't know. Actually it's great, really, uh

913
00:53:04,280 --> 00:53:06,279
Speaker 3: it's really good. Yeah.

914
00:53:07,000 --> 00:53:08,040
Speaker 1: What's so? What's good about it?

915
00:53:08,600 --> 00:53:15,080
Speaker 3: I'm going well, a lot of things, the air, the sky,

916
00:53:16,760 --> 00:53:21,120
Speaker 3: the sun or the moon. It's could be daytime or nighttime.

917
00:53:23,400 --> 00:53:26,720
Speaker 1: What is your general what is your general life? Like, Anthony?

918
00:53:26,840 --> 00:53:28,600
Speaker 1: What do you sort of do with your days?

919
00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:34,160
Speaker 3: Yeah? I like to uh, I like to meditate.

920
00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:40,600
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you do?

921
00:53:41,120 --> 00:53:41,239
Speaker 5: Uh?

922
00:53:45,960 --> 00:53:46,359
Speaker 3: I walk?

923
00:53:48,360 --> 00:53:52,480
Speaker 1: Okay. Do you have a job yeah?

924
00:53:54,560 --> 00:53:55,120
Speaker 5: Uh no.

925
00:53:58,760 --> 00:54:00,839
Speaker 1: Do you have a partner? I mean I have a job,

926
00:54:02,440 --> 00:54:04,759
Speaker 1: like a relationship of any kind of a partner? Yeah?

927
00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:11,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, sure I have a friend.

928
00:54:12,400 --> 00:54:15,640
Speaker 1: You have a relationship and you just now, just now,

929
00:54:15,680 --> 00:54:17,960
Speaker 1: you just said that you have a job. You do

930
00:54:18,080 --> 00:54:18,480
Speaker 1: have a job.

931
00:54:20,440 --> 00:54:21,879
Speaker 5: I do. I do have a job.

932
00:54:22,440 --> 00:54:23,239
Speaker 1: What is your job?

933
00:54:26,960 --> 00:54:27,080
Speaker 5: Uh?

934
00:54:29,200 --> 00:54:34,640
Speaker 3: I forgot I knew this morning, and but I forgot

935
00:54:34,719 --> 00:54:41,360
Speaker 3: what I do. I've lost my I've lost my purpose,

936
00:54:41,520 --> 00:54:41,839
Speaker 3: I think.

937
00:54:43,520 --> 00:54:47,920
Speaker 1: Okay, do are you looking for a new purpose?

938
00:54:51,440 --> 00:54:54,160
Speaker 3: Yes, as a matter of fact, I am.

939
00:54:55,560 --> 00:54:57,600
Speaker 1: What are you thinking might be your new purpose?

940
00:55:01,400 --> 00:55:01,960
Speaker 3: I think.

941
00:55:03,600 --> 00:55:04,040
Speaker 2: Research?

942
00:55:06,080 --> 00:55:09,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'd like to like to research.

943
00:55:11,440 --> 00:55:17,279
Speaker 3: I would like to research the study of peanut butter

944
00:55:17,400 --> 00:55:22,919
Speaker 3: and why it tastes so damn good.

945
00:55:25,719 --> 00:55:29,319
Speaker 1: Okay, you want to be a peanut butter researcher. That's

946
00:55:29,320 --> 00:55:29,840
Speaker 1: a good purpose.

947
00:55:30,800 --> 00:55:31,000
Speaker 3: Yeah.

948
00:55:31,600 --> 00:55:32,960
Speaker 1: All right, So we have a new purpose for you,

949
00:55:33,320 --> 00:55:35,600
Speaker 1: and let's get back into the personal life. You said

950
00:55:35,600 --> 00:55:40,000
Speaker 1: you have three different girlfriends or well you didn't. You

951
00:55:40,040 --> 00:55:41,960
Speaker 1: said you have three different I.

952
00:55:41,960 --> 00:55:46,040
Speaker 3: Wouldn't say I wouldn't say that. Just no, just friends,

953
00:55:47,160 --> 00:55:47,680
Speaker 3: just friends.

954
00:55:48,040 --> 00:55:56,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, I see you have three friends. Yeah, you're happy

955
00:55:56,080 --> 00:55:57,520
Speaker 1: with Are you happy with the amount of friends that

956
00:55:57,600 --> 00:55:59,880
Speaker 1: you have right now? Do you want more friends? Or

957
00:56:00,120 --> 00:56:01,280
Speaker 1: are you content?

958
00:56:02,600 --> 00:56:03,839
Speaker 3: I could I could go for four?

959
00:56:03,960 --> 00:56:04,320
Speaker 2: Could you be?

960
00:56:04,520 --> 00:56:09,200
Speaker 3: I mean, would you would you like to? I mean,

961
00:56:09,239 --> 00:56:12,080
Speaker 3: would you be my fourth? My fourth friend?

962
00:56:13,040 --> 00:56:17,560
Speaker 1: I think, realistically, the chance of us genuinely becoming friends

963
00:56:17,640 --> 00:56:18,120
Speaker 1: is very low.

964
00:56:21,800 --> 00:56:22,239
Speaker 3: Well some.

965
00:56:23,960 --> 00:56:30,200
Speaker 1: Uh not because like I could tell you the premises

966
00:56:30,320 --> 00:56:37,359
Speaker 1: you live in, uh New York, which I don't live there.

967
00:56:39,480 --> 00:56:41,360
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't see how we would get in

968
00:56:41,480 --> 00:56:49,600
Speaker 1: touch after this. And then also, friendship is sort of

969
00:56:49,640 --> 00:56:53,600
Speaker 1: based on like a recurring instances of us seeing each other,

970
00:56:54,239 --> 00:56:56,280
Speaker 1: and I don't know how we would be recurrently seeing

971
00:56:56,320 --> 00:56:58,120
Speaker 1: each other. We would have to make a lot of

972
00:56:58,280 --> 00:57:00,879
Speaker 1: active efforts towards seeing each other that I don't see

973
00:57:00,920 --> 00:57:01,520
Speaker 1: either of us.

974
00:57:01,680 --> 00:57:06,480
Speaker 3: Make it okay, Well, I would put the effort in.

975
00:57:07,840 --> 00:57:09,920
Speaker 1: I realistically probably would not put the efford in.

976
00:57:13,040 --> 00:57:14,200
Speaker 3: Well, I appreciate your honesty.

977
00:57:14,800 --> 00:57:17,720
Speaker 1: Of course we have right now, we have at least

978
00:57:17,760 --> 00:57:21,160
Speaker 1: the next minute on the phone together. What would you

979
00:57:21,240 --> 00:57:22,400
Speaker 1: like to do with that final minute?

980
00:57:22,600 --> 00:57:26,680
Speaker 3: Okay? Well, what would you like to talk about?

981
00:57:30,120 --> 00:57:33,000
Speaker 1: Nothing in particular. I feel like we've gotten everything that

982
00:57:33,080 --> 00:57:33,760
Speaker 1: we needed out of this.

983
00:57:36,360 --> 00:57:44,720
Speaker 3: Okay, Well, I am outside and you help. I would

984
00:57:44,720 --> 00:57:46,600
Speaker 3: clear that up with that where I.

985
00:57:46,600 --> 00:57:48,320
Speaker 1: Am happy to help. Yeah, I'm happy to help. I'm

986
00:57:48,320 --> 00:57:49,280
Speaker 1: glad that you know where you are now.

987
00:57:51,720 --> 00:57:56,040
Speaker 3: And I'm going to uh, I'm going to research peanut butter.

988
00:57:57,440 --> 00:57:58,200
Speaker 1: Let us know what you find.

989
00:58:00,760 --> 00:58:02,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, oh I will.

990
00:58:04,320 --> 00:58:05,960
Speaker 1: Anything else you want to say before we go, Anthony,

991
00:58:08,640 --> 00:58:09,200
Speaker 1: I'll be back.

992
00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:14,440
Speaker 3: Thank you for calling, Thank you.

993
00:58:15,160 --> 00:58:19,280
Speaker 1: Never goes on the line thinking your phone calls every night.

994
00:58:19,640 --> 00:58:22,320
Speaker 1: Never Pacon goes to on his night. He's teaching you

995
00:58:22,360 --> 00:58:26,320
Speaker 1: aloud in the of your life. Money's not really an expert.

996
00:58:32,320 --> 00:58:32,360
Speaker 2: H