WEBVTT - Gratitude Is Everything 0:00:00.880 --> 0:00:04.640 Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. You are tuned into 0:00:04.680 --> 0:00:07.000 the Vitamin D with Dawn Day podcast and I am 0:00:07.040 --> 0:00:09.640 your host, Dawn Day, here to get you excited about 0:00:09.640 --> 0:00:11.600 your life so that you can live life on purpose 0:00:11.640 --> 0:00:13.680 and for a purpose. And this is your first time 0:00:13.760 --> 0:00:17.040 tuning in and welcome Vitamin D. It's upon of my name. 0:00:17.280 --> 0:00:19.240 My name is Dawn, and you get Vitamin D from 0:00:19.280 --> 0:00:21.440 the sun. So I'm here to shed light into your life. 0:00:21.600 --> 0:00:25.000 And I do this with inspirational insights and conversations with 0:00:25.000 --> 0:00:28.040 celebrities and everyday people like you and me, Because if 0:00:28.040 --> 0:00:29.960 you want to be better and you want to do better, 0:00:30.520 --> 0:00:32.720 then you're going to have to be able to see better. 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:35.720 So join me on this journey of living our best 0:00:35.760 --> 0:00:40.159 lives and understanding and realizing how you are your greatest assad. 0:00:40.920 --> 0:00:44.320 I met up within old improv friend the other day. 0:00:44.600 --> 0:00:47.960 His name is Christian. We took in a minute together 0:00:48.040 --> 0:00:50.760 over at the Groundlings and I immediately told him, I said, 0:00:51.560 --> 0:00:54.080 your genius, I have a lot to learn from you. 0:00:55.000 --> 0:00:57.240 Fast forward a couple of years later, I learned that 0:00:57.280 --> 0:01:00.800 he has taught all over the world and prov has 0:01:00.880 --> 0:01:05.600 went through several programs schooling for it and I always said, 0:01:06.280 --> 0:01:08.600 I got a lot to learn from you. Well, we 0:01:08.680 --> 0:01:11.280 probably haven't seen each other for a couple of years now, 0:01:11.360 --> 0:01:14.720 we know, with everything going on with the pandemic. And 0:01:14.840 --> 0:01:17.679 we sat down the other day and just yesterday in fact, 0:01:18.600 --> 0:01:22.040 and we had a conversation about where we are in 0:01:22.080 --> 0:01:26.200 life and what we're doing. And you know, on this podcast, 0:01:27.080 --> 0:01:31.600 I've been constantly talking about how I'm working on our vulnerability. Well, 0:01:32.480 --> 0:01:35.920 they say vulnerability is your source of power, it's our 0:01:35.920 --> 0:01:39.399 way of connecting, it's our way to saying I'm just 0:01:39.959 --> 0:01:44.480 like you. But in this conversation with Christian, we talked 0:01:44.480 --> 0:01:47.360 about how important it is to have vulnerability when it 0:01:47.360 --> 0:01:50.200 comes down to your characters, because there's an emotion that 0:01:50.240 --> 0:01:53.840 you're conveying, there's a point of view. But what he 0:01:54.040 --> 0:01:55.880 broke down something and I want to share with you, 0:01:56.000 --> 0:02:00.600 is he talked about the difference between being vulnerable and authentic. 0:02:01.480 --> 0:02:04.840 And immediately I was like what, And he said, well, 0:02:05.680 --> 0:02:09.280 if you think about it, vulnerability is more than likely 0:02:09.360 --> 0:02:14.480 lead by ego. I'm lane Dan, he said, because you're 0:02:14.560 --> 0:02:16.680 kind of in the way of telling the story, you're 0:02:16.680 --> 0:02:20.000 instructing it the way to go, almost as if you 0:02:20.080 --> 0:02:25.080 are giving it a direction versus Authentic is just whatever 0:02:25.120 --> 0:02:28.200 you feel in that moment. Whatever you feel that is 0:02:28.240 --> 0:02:33.320 what you are expressing. Now, I don't believe neither are wrong, 0:02:34.120 --> 0:02:36.600 but I do think how it is important to really 0:02:36.639 --> 0:02:40.400 tap into our authentic selves because it's in our authentic 0:02:40.440 --> 0:02:44.079 selves that we give ourselves permission to exist. We give 0:02:44.120 --> 0:02:49.280 ourselves permission to breathe. Oftentimes we have a trouble with 0:02:49.400 --> 0:02:53.800 vulnerability and opening up is because we can't control the 0:02:53.880 --> 0:02:56.840 narrative after we've shared a part of us. So now 0:02:56.960 --> 0:02:59.840 I share something with you. I can't control your thoughts. 0:03:00.560 --> 0:03:03.280 But what freedom is that being concerned with that rather 0:03:03.320 --> 0:03:05.760 than feeling or being authentic of whatever it is in 0:03:05.840 --> 0:03:08.120 that moment. And as I say, you grow from that moment. 0:03:08.960 --> 0:03:13.120 Be that moment, exists in that moment. It's kind of 0:03:13.160 --> 0:03:15.800 like when things are led by your ego. It causes 0:03:15.840 --> 0:03:18.560 a lot of strength, causes you to hold onto things, 0:03:18.639 --> 0:03:23.880 can't breathe, choked up, Relax and just work on being 0:03:23.880 --> 0:03:28.000 You give yourself permission to feel whatever it is that 0:03:28.040 --> 0:03:31.040 you need to feel in that moment. Be in that 0:03:31.120 --> 0:03:38.320 moment and grow from that moment. Just be authentic, right 0:03:38.840 --> 0:03:47.480 with me and get excited about. So the day after 0:03:49.200 --> 0:03:51.880 I walked outside, my car was gone. Thank God. Shout 0:03:51.880 --> 0:03:54.960 out to my neighbor Jackie. She's been looking out. Jackie 0:03:55.120 --> 0:04:00.240 is a real one. But anywhere. I said, well, we've 0:04:00.280 --> 0:04:02.080 haven't been here before. But what do I need to 0:04:02.120 --> 0:04:04.200 get done? While I still got the car? So I said, 0:04:04.240 --> 0:04:06.240 all right, let me go ahead and get all my 0:04:06.360 --> 0:04:09.280 groceries together. I was thinking of the heaviest things. Let 0:04:09.280 --> 0:04:11.440 me get gallons of water on water because those are 0:04:11.440 --> 0:04:13.080 things that you know, my bike that would be more 0:04:13.080 --> 0:04:18.040 of a challenge to carry um. And also along with 0:04:18.560 --> 0:04:21.359 getting the groceries together, I said, oh, I gotta do 0:04:21.440 --> 0:04:26.760 my laundry. Now, I'm just so grateful. Sidebar, let me 0:04:26.839 --> 0:04:29.640 just say, I've noticed how much I've been saying grateful 0:04:29.680 --> 0:04:32.159 now that I don't have that car, because I said 0:04:32.279 --> 0:04:34.640 that I was not grateful for that car. And I 0:04:34.720 --> 0:04:37.240 know you're like, Dona, can you still say that even 0:04:37.360 --> 0:04:40.800 right now? I can't even say that there's a testament 0:04:40.839 --> 0:04:42.800 how grateful I was for the car when I had it, 0:04:42.800 --> 0:04:45.560 because I can't even I never even gave the car nade. 0:04:46.279 --> 0:04:48.640 And you know, when you're grateful for something you treasure 0:04:48.680 --> 0:04:51.080 read you honor read you show it off not to 0:04:51.400 --> 0:04:54.320 uh provoke somebody else. It's not about that. You just 0:04:54.360 --> 0:04:57.320 embrace it. I was sometimes that bears to pull up 0:04:57.360 --> 0:05:00.960 places with the car. I know, I no, and look 0:05:01.279 --> 0:05:03.920 we out here on two wheels anyway, catch it? So 0:05:04.000 --> 0:05:07.000 fast forward back to what I was saying. So I 0:05:07.040 --> 0:05:09.640 had got a dumb early because Jackie was like, okay, Dawn, 0:05:09.720 --> 0:05:12.640 I got some errands to do in the morning. Um, 0:05:12.680 --> 0:05:14.560 you know, so what as long as you know I 0:05:14.560 --> 0:05:16.240 have the car back like nine or something like that. 0:05:16.279 --> 0:05:20.320 And I'm infamous. Infamous that's a negative thing. I am 0:05:20.400 --> 0:05:23.040 well known as a person or I've always been the 0:05:23.080 --> 0:05:25.359 type of person that I functioned better in the morning, 0:05:25.440 --> 0:05:28.839 like my brains on. I prefer to even go to 0:05:28.880 --> 0:05:31.760 sleep from like ten to three. I remember high school 0:05:31.760 --> 0:05:33.080 going to sleep in like ten and three, or in 0:05:33.200 --> 0:05:35.000 college and a way about four or five, and I 0:05:35.040 --> 0:05:36.720 can get that paper and I can get whatever done 0:05:36.720 --> 0:05:38.320 because I'm fresh and ripe. I say all that to 0:05:38.360 --> 0:05:41.119 say I accidentally fell asleep trying to get everything together. 0:05:41.200 --> 0:05:43.200 My body was probably going through shock. Mentally, I'm going 0:05:43.240 --> 0:05:45.640 through shock. Emotionally, I'm going to through shock. Hell, I 0:05:45.760 --> 0:05:48.120 just told you today before I walked outside and my 0:05:48.240 --> 0:05:51.360 damn car was go, can you imagine? And you don't 0:05:51.360 --> 0:05:55.320 even know what's going on anyway, I'm still trying to 0:05:55.360 --> 0:05:56.760 come to two. But what do I say? Just like 0:05:56.839 --> 0:05:59.120 with anything, and just like I was telling Jeremiah when 0:05:59.120 --> 0:06:01.960 I first came to video, like she's gonna come your wife, 0:06:01.960 --> 0:06:03.520 but you just gotta put one ft in front of 0:06:03.520 --> 0:06:06.120 the other. I gotta think about what is it? How 0:06:06.160 --> 0:06:08.160 do I keep moving? Not saying I'm not feeling, but 0:06:08.240 --> 0:06:11.800 moving anyway? Fast forward. I'm outside at the laundry match. 0:06:11.880 --> 0:06:14.040 It's about what four thirty five o'clock in the warning 0:06:14.120 --> 0:06:17.560 doing laundry. I'm outside and um, how to put the 0:06:17.560 --> 0:06:19.120 clothes in there? So I'm gonna say I'm about to 0:06:19.120 --> 0:06:23.200 hear I'm hit my j So I met the holy 0:06:23.320 --> 0:06:25.240 I like to. I want to call him Homie Harry, 0:06:25.839 --> 0:06:29.440 his his homeless man. His name is Harry. So he 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:31.400 pulled up. One thing I learned about in New York 0:06:31.520 --> 0:06:34.760 is that And I don't know, Maybe it's just a 0:06:34.800 --> 0:06:37.000 gangster in me because you know, always sound from Detroit. 0:06:37.040 --> 0:06:39.479 What up though? And I think it's important too, is 0:06:39.520 --> 0:06:42.160 that people want to be seen. I think and and 0:06:42.160 --> 0:06:44.800 and that could be in safe situations and even in 0:06:44.880 --> 0:06:48.719 situations that you may not feel safe, Uh see somebody, 0:06:49.160 --> 0:06:50.960 And even when you want to know somebody, you gotta 0:06:51.120 --> 0:06:54.000 see somebody. So one thing I learned about in New York. 0:06:54.000 --> 0:06:55.400 When I'm walking to the street, and I feel like, 0:06:55.480 --> 0:06:57.880 if I wasn't unsure, let me let you know that 0:06:57.920 --> 0:07:00.640 I see you, and I'm going to acknowledge. So if 0:07:00.680 --> 0:07:05.279 you decide to pull up me, let's believe I see 0:07:05.320 --> 0:07:08.120 you anyway, So here go Harry outside. Harry is a 0:07:09.720 --> 0:07:12.160 older Caucasian guy. I think at the time, I think 0:07:12.160 --> 0:07:14.000 he said he's about fifty. So, like I even wrote 0:07:14.000 --> 0:07:15.440 it in my dang old notes because I said I 0:07:15.440 --> 0:07:18.160 was gonna talk about this. And he was on a 0:07:19.600 --> 0:07:21.400 kind of like a walker, but one of those walkers 0:07:21.400 --> 0:07:23.120 that you can sit down and it becomes a cheer 0:07:23.120 --> 0:07:27.920 as well. So he um he asked me. He said, uh, 0:07:28.560 --> 0:07:30.960 some I'm like, you got a cigarette or something like that. 0:07:31.000 --> 0:07:33.320 I was like no, and he was like, oh, that's 0:07:33.320 --> 0:07:34.880 such a just like can I hit that? I was like, 0:07:34.920 --> 0:07:36.720 it's COVID out here, But you know, I had another 0:07:36.800 --> 0:07:38.400 jay on deck, so I was like, let me give 0:07:38.440 --> 0:07:40.520 it to him. You know. And at this point I said, 0:07:40.600 --> 0:07:43.440 let's have a little conversation. Who was Harry. So we 0:07:43.440 --> 0:07:45.360 were talking and I said, I said, where were you 0:07:45.400 --> 0:07:49.160 sleeping at He said, oh, I slept a couple of hours, um, 0:07:49.320 --> 0:07:51.360 by the bus stop. Now one thing, let me just 0:07:51.360 --> 0:07:53.600 put as a sidebar, and I'm so grateful for Janice Hill. 0:07:54.440 --> 0:07:57.120 My mother was big on speaking. I may have said 0:07:57.160 --> 0:07:58.880 you now, I may have. I know I said it. 0:07:58.920 --> 0:08:01.200 You've heard me say this before, or how we would 0:08:01.200 --> 0:08:03.040 be riding around in the car and my mother would 0:08:03.040 --> 0:08:06.480 be playing phonics the phone alphabet about how to pronounce, 0:08:06.480 --> 0:08:08.080 how to speak, how to do anything and what. That 0:08:08.120 --> 0:08:10.280 has allowed me the confidence to talk to people that 0:08:10.320 --> 0:08:12.920 could be the CEO down to a homeless man on 0:08:12.960 --> 0:08:15.160 the street. And here it's proof of that. So back 0:08:15.200 --> 0:08:19.040 to Harry. So we began to talk and he was 0:08:19.120 --> 0:08:22.600 telling me about just traveling when he's lived and he 0:08:22.640 --> 0:08:26.440 said he's from Michigan. I looked at him. I sit 0:08:26.480 --> 0:08:30.960 on from Michigan too, And he went on to tell me, um, 0:08:31.000 --> 0:08:33.560 how he was from, you know, Traverse City, I believe. 0:08:33.600 --> 0:08:35.679 And I didn't know that that was like the capital 0:08:35.800 --> 0:08:38.640 for like cherry picking or something like that. But I 0:08:38.640 --> 0:08:40.680 thought that was amazing. So in that about he was 0:08:40.720 --> 0:08:42.960 telling you all the places he had lived, and I 0:08:43.000 --> 0:08:45.040 two had shared with him. I was like, you know, yeah, 0:08:45.080 --> 0:08:48.480 after Detroit, you know, I went to Howard and Washington, 0:08:48.559 --> 0:08:50.240 d C. Then lived in New York and came out 0:08:50.280 --> 0:08:53.000 here and he said, man, I had me some ball. 0:08:53.040 --> 0:08:55.200 I had a ball. I said, you did, And you 0:08:55.240 --> 0:08:57.599 know I looked at us here here, I am. I 0:08:57.640 --> 0:08:59.880 didn't graduated college. I may not be on the street. 0:08:59.880 --> 0:09:02.839 But it remember, like I said before, like everything is 0:09:02.840 --> 0:09:04.600 always on the flip of the side of a coin. 0:09:04.720 --> 0:09:06.360 It's always on the other side of the coin. So 0:09:06.559 --> 0:09:08.680 don't think it's you in one situation that you didn't 0:09:08.679 --> 0:09:11.199 top somebody else so that you can't be there. Everybody 0:09:11.360 --> 0:09:14.599 has a story. Um, so he said, I saw. I 0:09:14.640 --> 0:09:18.520 asked him. I said, um, do you regret any other 0:09:18.559 --> 0:09:20.360 things that you've done or how you lived your life? 0:09:21.280 --> 0:09:24.520 And I can't even listening back and even saying this 0:09:24.600 --> 0:09:26.520 to you right now, I can hear how that was 0:09:26.559 --> 0:09:29.880 a tinge of judgment because it was like, oh my gosh, 0:09:29.880 --> 0:09:31.760 you have so much fun at the time. I don't 0:09:31.760 --> 0:09:34.520 feel like it was, but I feel like it could 0:09:34.520 --> 0:09:37.040 have been or maybe this is me overthinking because it's like, Dawn, Well, 0:09:37.120 --> 0:09:41.120 what did you mean by that? I don't know, But anyway, 0:09:41.720 --> 0:09:43.720 he said he had had some funny a living. I said, well, 0:09:43.760 --> 0:09:45.920 do you regret anything? I said, looking at all the 0:09:45.960 --> 0:09:47.600 things that you've been able to do, all the things 0:09:47.600 --> 0:09:51.719 that you've done, did you regret um where you are 0:09:51.840 --> 0:09:54.800 right now? And he looked at him. He said, well, 0:09:55.600 --> 0:09:59.680 I've been on my own since I was fifteen. Yeah, 0:09:59.880 --> 0:10:02.280 I I don't know. For some reason, that just hit 0:10:02.320 --> 0:10:06.800 me a little different because I think oftentimes we walked 0:10:06.840 --> 0:10:09.360 these streets, and especially if you live in l A 0:10:09.400 --> 0:10:11.520 and you've been down to Skid Road, there are so 0:10:12.000 --> 0:10:18.160 many like the homelessness epidemic is just insane. In fact, 0:10:18.400 --> 0:10:21.080 you have heard me mentioned before. You know, I had 0:10:21.160 --> 0:10:23.720 Marian on the show, and Marian when I first moved 0:10:23.720 --> 0:10:26.559 out here, Marian stayed downtown and I stayed with him. 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:28.360 I thought it was the whole stale hell, it could 0:10:28.360 --> 0:10:31.120 have been hostile, and how many homeless people that we 0:10:31.200 --> 0:10:33.520 walked around the streets and says my god. But anyway, 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:37.240 I say all that to say is that everybody has 0:10:37.280 --> 0:10:40.360 a story, and I think oftentimes we are so quick 0:10:40.400 --> 0:10:43.199 to judge somebody and not realizing that they were to 0:10:43.360 --> 0:10:47.120 somebody's baby, They were to somebody's person, They too had 0:10:47.160 --> 0:10:49.960 its love and aspiration and dream. They too had a 0:10:50.000 --> 0:10:54.200 life that was beyond what you see right now. And 0:10:54.280 --> 0:10:57.800 remember I said how I feel like there was a 0:10:57.920 --> 0:11:01.760 layer attend to judgment. Perhaps that's what Harry felt as well, 0:11:01.800 --> 0:11:04.840 because it was interesting that his response was, I've been 0:11:04.880 --> 0:11:08.520 on my own since I was fifteen. He said, his mother, 0:11:09.320 --> 0:11:11.200 I think he believed. I believe she said that she 0:11:11.320 --> 0:11:14.200 died of a stroke in her sleep. Then two years 0:11:14.200 --> 0:11:16.880 after that, when he was seventeen, his dad died. So 0:11:17.000 --> 0:11:19.440 his whole time and figure it out. And then another 0:11:19.480 --> 0:11:22.520 thing hit me to the core. He was talking about drinking. 0:11:22.520 --> 0:11:24.319 I don't know how we got on drinking, and I 0:11:24.360 --> 0:11:27.079 don't know if we had talked about other drugs he 0:11:27.120 --> 0:11:29.840 had done. I'm not sure about that, but he said 0:11:29.880 --> 0:11:31.679 that he had started out with drinking. I guess that's 0:11:31.679 --> 0:11:34.280 how he started out, you know, dippling, dabbling, having his fun, 0:11:34.360 --> 0:11:37.960 and he started because he was so shy. And they 0:11:38.040 --> 0:11:40.360 hit me to my core because I have uncled us 0:11:40.360 --> 0:11:46.720 a severe alcoholic. When I say alcoholic, I'm talking about 0:11:46.920 --> 0:11:52.000 if he doesn't have a drink, he would have a seizure. Everyone. 0:11:52.040 --> 0:11:55.880 I'm outique and we are investors in tenoral Seller's wine company, 0:11:56.520 --> 0:12:01.280 like sharing, subscribed to Parkers available wherever you get your 0:12:01.280 --> 0:12:04.720 favorite podcasts. And you know, that's only be a whole 0:12:04.760 --> 0:12:06.800 other story that we are going to explore one day. 0:12:06.840 --> 0:12:11.680 Because um, uncle Derrek got a big impact in life. 0:12:11.679 --> 0:12:13.480 It wasn't until my mom was on her deathbed that 0:12:13.520 --> 0:12:16.840 I said that I forgive him. So there's some layers 0:12:16.840 --> 0:12:20.000 on layers on that. But what it reminded me of 0:12:20.000 --> 0:12:21.960 the story my mom used to say about my uncle 0:12:22.040 --> 0:12:26.600 Derek is that he was incredibly shy and how he 0:12:26.640 --> 0:12:29.400 would loosen up has had a few drinks. And you know, 0:12:29.440 --> 0:12:32.439 whether the narrative is right or wrong back in the day, 0:12:32.440 --> 0:12:34.240 and I say, back in the day, Harry about fifty something. 0:12:34.240 --> 0:12:36.400 Growing up in the fifties, sixties, seventies, it was something 0:12:36.440 --> 0:12:41.439 about being a man, being strong, being confident, and if 0:12:41.440 --> 0:12:43.600 you didn't have that and just like some people used today, 0:12:43.600 --> 0:12:47.160 whether we want to get things or drugs or hair makeup, 0:12:48.080 --> 0:12:50.400 I don't know, to make us feel good, to be 0:12:50.559 --> 0:12:52.800 more confident, to what so that we can be seen 0:12:52.880 --> 0:12:56.200 in her. So anyway, he goes on to tell me 0:12:56.280 --> 0:12:58.560 how his parents had done and basically how he had 0:12:58.640 --> 0:13:02.280 raised himself by himself. And I thought to myself, I said, man, 0:13:03.040 --> 0:13:07.479 how many of us are just getting by raising ourselves 0:13:07.520 --> 0:13:10.240 with ourselves, doing the best that we know how. And 0:13:10.280 --> 0:13:13.920 it just made me think that perhaps slow down on judgment, 0:13:14.440 --> 0:13:17.079 slow down, because that could be you one day. In fact, 0:13:17.200 --> 0:13:19.559 even on my ride today now. So I ran into 0:13:19.640 --> 0:13:22.320 Hero Area a couple of weeks back, right, and I 0:13:22.400 --> 0:13:24.520 was grateful because that was a great conversation of hell. 0:13:24.600 --> 0:13:26.720 He taught me something because I didn't know Travors City 0:13:26.960 --> 0:13:31.240 was like the cherry capital of whatever. But I was 0:13:31.280 --> 0:13:34.040 reminded about what it is to be a person and 0:13:34.080 --> 0:13:36.280 how everybody we're doing the best that we know how, 0:13:36.720 --> 0:13:39.080 and sometimes you slip and fall, but sometimes you just 0:13:39.120 --> 0:13:41.240 gotta give somebody a moment to let them know that 0:13:41.240 --> 0:13:43.800 EY seen and they heard because they got a story 0:13:44.320 --> 0:13:46.440 so fast for today. On my way here this morning, 0:13:47.760 --> 0:13:54.000 I'm at Nova. His name Josh Nova fly is hell. 0:13:55.520 --> 0:14:00.720 Nova had on He had on his flip flops, white pants, 0:14:00.920 --> 0:14:04.240 black shre flias glasses. He had a bag in the 0:14:04.360 --> 0:14:07.560 bag he got all types of treats and snacks. He 0:14:07.640 --> 0:14:10.280 got this bag that you could probably put on for 0:14:10.440 --> 0:14:14.040 your for your bike. Let you can zip up and 0:14:14.040 --> 0:14:16.200 put compartments in there and it latches onto the bar. 0:14:17.280 --> 0:14:20.440 He had honey buns, he had I think he even 0:14:20.480 --> 0:14:23.160 had some whoppers in there. Hell, he was even trying 0:14:23.200 --> 0:14:25.200 to sell me some air raids. I looked at him. 0:14:25.280 --> 0:14:27.840 There was some pearl areas. I said, I'm not even 0:14:27.880 --> 0:14:29.440 that girl, like I said, do I look like I 0:14:29.440 --> 0:14:34.920 would wear something like that? And he left, But I said, 0:14:35.080 --> 0:14:37.560 I said, where are you from? He say, I'm from 0:14:37.560 --> 0:14:41.160 Santa Monica, And immediately I thought about cat Dog, Cat Dog. 0:14:41.240 --> 0:14:44.160 He runs the board over very Harvey. And we remember 0:14:44.200 --> 0:14:46.000 at the time that because even now when I think 0:14:46.040 --> 0:14:47.520 of Santa Monica, I don't think like a lot of 0:14:47.520 --> 0:14:49.600 black people or whatever. And a lot of things have 0:14:49.760 --> 0:14:53.320 changed because at one point it was a predominantly black 0:14:53.360 --> 0:14:57.320 neighborhood area. But this was my invitation because I wanted 0:14:57.320 --> 0:15:00.000 to get to know Nova, because he was very artist 0:15:00.080 --> 0:15:03.160 kill it how he stood up. There was a story 0:15:03.360 --> 0:15:07.080 of Nova. His birth name is Josh Before this Nova 0:15:07.240 --> 0:15:08.840 that I was there and I was hoping to talk 0:15:08.880 --> 0:15:11.160 to him more and furthermore, let me just say that's 0:15:11.160 --> 0:15:13.360 the reason why I had to go talk to Nova, 0:15:13.480 --> 0:15:16.440 because he pulled up a little close. And what I 0:15:16.520 --> 0:15:19.680 mean by that, like I say, I need to let 0:15:19.680 --> 0:15:22.120 you know that I see you. And I wasn't about 0:15:22.120 --> 0:15:23.560 the budge because I'm sitting on the bench and he 0:15:23.600 --> 0:15:26.240 came up close, and I'm like, all right, I said, 0:15:26.240 --> 0:15:29.360 what's up? I got my bag a little closer, got 0:15:29.400 --> 0:15:31.840 everything closer, just so you know. But he happened to 0:15:31.880 --> 0:15:35.160 be a cool person. So anyway, he said he was 0:15:35.280 --> 0:15:37.080 um from Santa Monica and I said, oh, did you 0:15:37.120 --> 0:15:38.680 go to school? He said, he went to Santa Monica 0:15:38.720 --> 0:15:40.880 College a couple of years and in his route he 0:15:40.920 --> 0:15:43.120 had lived in Michigan, he had lived in Ohio. I 0:15:43.200 --> 0:15:45.760 think even said he enjoyed Vegas. I didn't get a 0:15:45.840 --> 0:15:48.160 chance to really see the story. But then again, I'm 0:15:48.160 --> 0:15:50.560 grateful because I had a chance to see a person. 0:15:52.000 --> 0:15:54.640 I had a chance to also have a realization about 0:15:54.840 --> 0:15:58.040 just life in general. How there's so many stories to 0:15:58.160 --> 0:16:01.080 our lives and at the job, but the dime, it 0:16:01.120 --> 0:16:03.600 could just be you because here I am in this 0:16:03.720 --> 0:16:07.240 studio in Charmanov's California. But how my dream were people 0:16:07.720 --> 0:16:10.200 that I aspired to be making millions on millions of 0:16:10.240 --> 0:16:13.200 dollars use the same equipment. But yeah, guess what, me 0:16:13.280 --> 0:16:20.840 and Novo on the same damn bush. Huh huh. And 0:16:20.880 --> 0:16:23.920 again I was just reminded of gratitude that I'm able 0:16:24.120 --> 0:16:27.320 to keep going, that I'm able to move forward also, 0:16:27.320 --> 0:16:29.560 and that I'm able to see people as a person 0:16:30.160 --> 0:16:31.920 because I don't know what it was. It was something 0:16:31.920 --> 0:16:34.160 about that exchange, but it just felt felt so real 0:16:34.240 --> 0:16:37.000 and authentic. And Nova here came up to me because 0:16:37.040 --> 0:16:38.520 he asked if I had two dollars. I was like, no, 0:16:38.600 --> 0:16:41.120 I don't have any cash, because you know not Now 0:16:41.160 --> 0:16:43.240 in the Metro, they got this thing where you use 0:16:43.280 --> 0:16:45.640 the tap card and you can use in your Apple walless, 0:16:45.640 --> 0:16:47.680 so you just load up their tap just a sidebar 0:16:47.880 --> 0:16:50.920 if you ever had to check public transportation. But um, 0:16:50.960 --> 0:16:53.160 I guess the blessing not, I guess the blessing was 0:16:53.200 --> 0:16:56.640 from him. They didn't even uh the machine wasn't even 0:16:56.640 --> 0:16:57.960 work on the bus. So he got on there. So 0:16:58.000 --> 0:16:59.880 we wrote a couple of stops, and I think, I 0:17:00.000 --> 0:17:01.480 I'm glad I called him in that moment. I don't 0:17:01.480 --> 0:17:04.080 even know why I'm getting emotional. I'm glad I called 0:17:04.119 --> 0:17:06.960 him at that moment before we got on the bus, because, UM, 0:17:07.240 --> 0:17:10.399 I guess, like with anything, I don't, I don't really know. UM, 0:17:10.400 --> 0:17:12.800 you know, I guess if people are higher under the influenced. 0:17:13.160 --> 0:17:14.720 I guess you can go with abouts where you're in 0:17:14.840 --> 0:17:17.159 and out like you can be too, but then you 0:17:17.240 --> 0:17:20.560 might get high for a second. And I'm grateful because 0:17:20.560 --> 0:17:22.439 I think I got a window where he wasn't in 0:17:22.600 --> 0:17:25.359 his whole high moment, because it wasn't until after we 0:17:25.440 --> 0:17:28.040 got on the bus that he sat down. I can 0:17:28.119 --> 0:17:30.120 tell he was rocking, he was trying to move, no weather, 0:17:30.720 --> 0:17:33.359 and I'm assuming that it can be how. Who knows 0:17:33.760 --> 0:17:36.520 he could have been dealing whatever mental disorder and mental 0:17:36.560 --> 0:17:38.399 illness if he had one. I don't even want to 0:17:38.400 --> 0:17:41.040 put that on him, but I knew that there was 0:17:41.080 --> 0:17:44.120 something all going on. But I'm grateful that I had 0:17:44.359 --> 0:17:47.320 to know how. I'm grateful that I'm human enough to 0:17:47.400 --> 0:17:52.400 talk to him. I'm grateful that, UM, I can get 0:17:52.440 --> 0:17:57.680 these real life experiences because what I tell you, when 0:17:57.720 --> 0:18:00.240 I got gonna come out on the other end, it's 0:18:00.280 --> 0:18:02.800 gonna be crazy. I don't even like the way I 0:18:02.840 --> 0:18:05.240 just use that term right there. It's gonna be amazing. 0:18:07.080 --> 0:18:09.919 It's gonna be out of this world. And I just 0:18:09.960 --> 0:18:12.960 want to keep on collecting stories and keep on collecting 0:18:13.000 --> 0:18:16.960 memories of people so that I can share, because sometimes 0:18:16.960 --> 0:18:21.479 you think things are impossible. You know, it's very naked 0:18:21.480 --> 0:18:23.480 and me sharing this process of me going to get 0:18:23.520 --> 0:18:26.080 my dream. But I'm grateful for it because oftentimes I 0:18:26.080 --> 0:18:28.120 think people are like, oh, don you don't go through nothing, 0:18:28.200 --> 0:18:30.359 or oh no, naked. I just had a little grace. 0:18:33.080 --> 0:18:35.520 You know. You you may have heard, but I heard 0:18:35.520 --> 0:18:37.760 this thing on social media. You never heard a tree growing. 0:18:38.840 --> 0:18:41.159 And you just gotta keep going. You just thought the 0:18:41.200 --> 0:18:45.480 team just got that tall, without stretching, without expanding, without 0:18:45.480 --> 0:18:48.719 going deeper, We're going further, but I'll being more than 0:18:48.760 --> 0:18:50.280 it's gonna be. Well. Hell, that's what you gotta do 0:18:50.280 --> 0:18:52.199 for yourself. And that's going to take getting out your 0:18:52.200 --> 0:18:55.159 comfort zone. And damn, and I'm so damn uncomfortable. I 0:18:55.160 --> 0:18:57.680 came to the studio today. I was just like jeremiahstic, 0:18:57.760 --> 0:19:00.880 I just feel so dirty. I was like, don't even 0:19:00.960 --> 0:19:05.760 touch anything. And it's no judgment, it's just what I felt. 0:19:05.800 --> 0:19:07.920 It was too much and I guess it even started 0:19:07.920 --> 0:19:10.399 out when I sat down on the damn up. But 0:19:10.800 --> 0:19:12.600 first of all, I said, Dawn, do we want to 0:19:12.640 --> 0:19:17.440 even sit on this bitch? I don't know, but I'm 0:19:17.440 --> 0:19:20.399 still working out the schedule of the time, and you know, 0:19:21.240 --> 0:19:23.560 it's like you'd better be early than late. And so 0:19:23.720 --> 0:19:25.959 because I'm coming super early. The second bus, I'm here 0:19:26.000 --> 0:19:28.200 and it's like a twenty minute stop, you know, a moment. 0:19:28.240 --> 0:19:30.600 But the next time I'm gonna come later. But anyway, say, 0:19:30.600 --> 0:19:33.479 I'm sit down and this is one actually all hell 0:19:33.560 --> 0:19:35.600 kind of broke alongs because I'm not really with just 0:19:36.119 --> 0:19:39.760 uh um. I'm sitting there and I put my bad 0:19:39.840 --> 0:19:41.960 because I got the ring light with me too in 0:19:42.080 --> 0:19:44.920 my backpack, and I put the ring light on the 0:19:45.040 --> 0:19:46.840 lab to put my bag on top of that. The 0:19:46.880 --> 0:19:49.400 next thing I know, water just gushes out. I said, 0:19:49.440 --> 0:19:52.520 oh hell. So I don't know, you know how like 0:19:52.640 --> 0:19:54.520 U you can have some have a slighting dust on there, 0:19:54.520 --> 0:19:56.560 but if you wet it, it can dirty up something. 0:19:56.600 --> 0:19:58.600 So I noticed, like my shirt got dirty. I was like, 0:19:58.600 --> 0:20:00.840 oh hell. And then I I was sitting there and 0:20:00.880 --> 0:20:04.320 I was like, oh my god, is this ship I'm smelling? 0:20:04.640 --> 0:20:07.160