WEBVTT - “I’M AN ESCORT” 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:01.080 Hello, Who is this. 0:00:01.760 --> 0:00:02.719 My name's Violet. 0:00:03.560 --> 0:00:07.000 Violet. What's going on? Violet? How's life? 0:00:08.000 --> 0:00:10.520 It's been pretty good? Hold on, I'm a little nervous. 0:00:10.560 --> 0:00:13.960 I didn't think you'd call me. I've seen your like 0:00:14.160 --> 0:00:16.360 your YouTube shorts. 0:00:17.560 --> 0:00:21.759 I am honored to hear that you have seen the 0:00:21.840 --> 0:00:24.600 YouTube shorts. I've been trying to upload more of them. 0:00:25.079 --> 0:00:26.840 I said, yeah, there's super funny. 0:00:27.360 --> 0:00:30.680 I sit alone on a computer and I and I 0:00:30.800 --> 0:00:33.520 edit videos. It's a good life. It's a good life. 0:00:33.560 --> 0:00:38.440 But enough about my life, Violet, what's going on you? 0:00:38.440 --> 0:00:42.600 You messaged, you sent a text and you said, I 0:00:42.680 --> 0:00:45.720 want to come on the show and talk about my 0:00:45.960 --> 0:00:48.440 new job as an escort. 0:00:50.159 --> 0:00:54.120 Yeah. Well that's something I just recently started, like maybe 0:00:54.120 --> 0:00:56.080 two months ago. It's been going pretty good. 0:00:57.320 --> 0:00:58.200 How did you get into that? 0:00:59.720 --> 0:01:03.160 Well, I'm a stripper and I got really burnt out. 0:01:03.280 --> 0:01:05.280 So I was like, okay, let me try something else. 0:01:06.480 --> 0:01:08.280 Well, I guess I have a few questions. Why did 0:01:08.280 --> 0:01:10.400 you get burnt out from being a stripper? 0:01:13.319 --> 0:01:17.720 I think it's just a lot of competition and I 0:01:17.760 --> 0:01:23.200 feel like a little self conscious maybe so now like 0:01:23.280 --> 0:01:25.520 it's like I don't get rejected at all. You know, 0:01:26.680 --> 0:01:32.120 when guys call me because they're choosing me because as 0:01:32.160 --> 0:01:35.640 a stripper, like you could walk up to like tony 0:01:35.720 --> 0:01:39.000 dudes tonight and only five of them will be like, Okay, yeah, 0:01:39.040 --> 0:01:41.520 we could go for a dance even though I made 0:01:41.600 --> 0:01:42.360 really good money. 0:01:43.520 --> 0:01:45.480 Mm hm m hm? 0:01:46.120 --> 0:01:46.360 Did that? 0:01:46.560 --> 0:01:46.880 Was that? 0:01:47.000 --> 0:01:47.320 Did that? 0:01:49.040 --> 0:01:49.200 Now? 0:01:49.200 --> 0:01:51.640 When that happens, are you at a point where you're like, 0:01:51.840 --> 0:01:54.560 that's just the game, or does do you feel like 0:01:54.600 --> 0:01:56.960 a form of like personal. 0:01:56.520 --> 0:02:00.559 Rejection the kind of the day? 0:02:00.600 --> 0:02:04.120 Really? Because I used to be really self conscious, and 0:02:04.160 --> 0:02:07.160 then when I started stripping, like I felt way better 0:02:07.200 --> 0:02:14.320 about myself. But I guess since like sometimes i'll tie 0:02:15.360 --> 0:02:17.880 how much money I'm making to like my self worth. 0:02:18.440 --> 0:02:19.320 Does that make sense? 0:02:21.000 --> 0:02:26.880 Yeah? So it's less of the like the like rejection 0:02:29.000 --> 0:02:31.040 of the guy of the guy of you than it 0:02:31.120 --> 0:02:34.200 is like about like the self self worth of the money. 0:02:36.200 --> 0:02:37.000 Yeah. I don't know. 0:02:41.160 --> 0:02:46.079 So you said that, how did stripping help your self esteem? 0:02:47.960 --> 0:02:48.160 Less? 0:02:48.240 --> 0:02:49.800 A whole bit of way. I mean, now I have 0:02:49.880 --> 0:02:54.320 money to like do whatever, Like I could get hair extensions, 0:02:54.440 --> 0:02:56.960 I always have like my lassies done, and I feel 0:02:57.400 --> 0:02:58.560 just good about myself. 0:02:59.160 --> 0:02:59.440 Mh. 0:03:01.280 --> 0:03:03.680 So I love that and I don't think I'll ever 0:03:03.720 --> 0:03:06.359 be able to do anything else, even though I guess 0:03:06.400 --> 0:03:10.280 I'll get old eventually, but I'm only twenty one. 0:03:11.400 --> 0:03:13.480 Why do you think you won't be able to do 0:03:13.520 --> 0:03:14.240 anything else? 0:03:16.200 --> 0:03:20.400 Well, I don't know. I mean I have goals, I 0:03:20.600 --> 0:03:23.600 just I don't know. I feel a little last like 0:03:23.680 --> 0:03:26.760 I'm supposed to start college soon and I have been 0:03:26.760 --> 0:03:30.359 I've just been really dizzy working and all that. 0:03:33.080 --> 0:03:35.480 But I don't understand because you say you have goals 0:03:35.560 --> 0:03:37.360 and you say you start in college soon, but then 0:03:37.400 --> 0:03:41.360 you also say you won't be able to do anything else. 0:03:41.400 --> 0:03:43.080 I mean you said that pretty confidently. 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:47.720 I well, you know, I have to do something else. 0:03:48.480 --> 0:03:49.200 I guess. 0:03:49.640 --> 0:03:53.200 I don't know. I have to like depression, and sometimes 0:03:53.320 --> 0:03:56.240 that'll like not like flare up. But it's just a 0:03:56.280 --> 0:03:59.240 part of life, you know. But sometimes I just feel 0:03:59.240 --> 0:04:01.520 a little down about it, and I feel like I 0:04:01.520 --> 0:04:08.320 should be farther ahead than I am. 0:04:05.960 --> 0:04:07.000 Uh farther farther ahead? 0:04:07.000 --> 0:04:09.120 And what in what sense in life? 0:04:12.280 --> 0:04:15.200 Like I compare myself, like, okay, I could have like 0:04:15.400 --> 0:04:21.719 finished school or gotten this done, but I've just been 0:04:21.760 --> 0:04:25.440 like working, which has been good. 0:04:27.040 --> 0:04:32.160 Well, I mean, well is a trade off, right, because 0:04:32.480 --> 0:04:37.359 like you, you probably I assume if you were. I 0:04:37.360 --> 0:04:40.400 don't know how much you save or how much you 0:04:40.440 --> 0:04:43.839 spend or whatever, but uh, because listen, right, Like, the 0:04:43.920 --> 0:04:48.520 decision to work right out of school instead of going 0:04:48.520 --> 0:04:50.560 to school has its pros and cons. And you know, 0:04:50.600 --> 0:04:53.240 one of the pros is like, yeah, maybe you finished 0:04:53.240 --> 0:04:55.800 school a little bit later, but you know, you have 0:04:55.839 --> 0:04:58.400 some some money under your belt, whereas a lot of 0:04:58.440 --> 0:05:01.559 people they get out of school and they're in debt, 0:05:01.839 --> 0:05:05.560 you know, so, and whatever decision you make will put 0:05:05.600 --> 0:05:08.720 you ahead in one way and behind and the other way. 0:05:08.839 --> 0:05:10.960 But you know, you want to focus on the ways 0:05:11.000 --> 0:05:14.360 in which you are ahead. 0:05:16.920 --> 0:05:20.440 Definitely. Yeah, you know, I've had time to save money. 0:05:22.360 --> 0:05:24.640 But I love like being a stripper. I love being 0:05:24.680 --> 0:05:28.560 an escort. I think it's fun. I get some crazy 0:05:28.600 --> 0:05:29.920 people from time to time. 0:05:34.760 --> 0:05:36.960 I have well, I have questions about the escorting thing. 0:05:37.000 --> 0:05:39.440 But also you said, what are your goals that you 0:05:39.520 --> 0:05:40.000 said you have? 0:05:40.800 --> 0:05:43.760 Yeah, I really want to go into criminal justice. That's 0:05:43.800 --> 0:05:45.640 my goal. I want to be able to help people. 0:05:45.800 --> 0:05:46.880 I think that would be cool. 0:05:47.520 --> 0:05:47.640 Mm. 0:05:50.000 --> 0:05:52.880 So what do you what is it that you like about? Well, so, 0:05:52.960 --> 0:05:58.760 what exactly are you doing like as as an escort? 0:05:59.760 --> 0:06:03.359 Well, like I have an ad on a website and 0:06:03.400 --> 0:06:06.840 then these guys call me and then I take their information, 0:06:07.080 --> 0:06:13.400 like their ID and like their like business websites, and 0:06:13.480 --> 0:06:15.880 I looked through I try to make sure they're not 0:06:16.000 --> 0:06:18.720 like a serial killer, and then I'll go hang out 0:06:18.760 --> 0:06:21.799 with them. And it's not always like sexual. 0:06:24.040 --> 0:06:24.440 Mm hmm. 0:06:26.600 --> 0:06:28.640 Have you met interesting people doing this? 0:06:30.600 --> 0:06:30.800 Yeah? 0:06:30.880 --> 0:06:36.440 I mean at District Club, we're escorting people with like 0:06:36.520 --> 0:06:48.440 maybe weird kings and characters. I had a guy that like, Yeah, 0:06:48.560 --> 0:06:50.479 I had a guy that really wanted me to pee 0:06:50.520 --> 0:06:52.880 on him, but I haven't done it yet. 0:06:54.839 --> 0:06:58.120 Is that something you're interested in doing is peeing on someone? 0:06:58.440 --> 0:07:02.120 I mean some money, I might mm hmm. 0:07:03.920 --> 0:07:07.040 Have you ever have you ever like, like, who's the 0:07:07.080 --> 0:07:14.160 most memorable character you've come across in this line of work? Mmmm? 0:07:15.840 --> 0:07:18.440 I had a guy that really liked and I would 0:07:18.480 --> 0:07:22.200 like step on him. I've had guys like me in 0:07:22.240 --> 0:07:27.040 a fart in her face, should I don't know, shout. 0:07:26.880 --> 0:07:28.240 Out, shout out to our boy, Hank. 0:07:32.120 --> 0:07:33.080 Yeah that's pretty cool. 0:07:34.120 --> 0:07:37.160 Mm hmm. Okay, so this is something that you're enjoying 0:07:37.240 --> 0:07:40.880 doing and you want to you would like to continue 0:07:40.920 --> 0:07:41.360 doing it? 0:07:42.240 --> 0:07:44.600 Yeah, for like maybe like another tenure. 0:07:45.440 --> 0:07:48.280 M hm, So I have a question, but this is 0:07:48.320 --> 0:07:50.880 so this I swear in my life this really isn't 0:07:50.920 --> 0:07:55.040 a like a form of judgment. Is a genuine question 0:07:55.120 --> 0:07:57.040 that I want to get your perspective on, because you 0:07:57.080 --> 0:08:00.200 seem like you really like this line of war work. 0:08:01.960 --> 0:08:02.920 Does it like. 0:08:04.520 --> 0:08:11.360 How does it affect your personal view and experience like 0:08:11.440 --> 0:08:12.320 of intimacy? 0:08:14.160 --> 0:08:18.680 I'd say it's pretty skewed. I think my sometimes my 0:08:19.600 --> 0:08:22.840 judgment of like men can be like pretty skewed because 0:08:22.840 --> 0:08:24.360 I don't know a lot of guys that the guys 0:08:24.360 --> 0:08:28.160 that I meet are like married or I don't know. 0:08:28.200 --> 0:08:29.120 I kind of feel. 0:08:28.840 --> 0:08:29.480 Bad about that. 0:08:30.840 --> 0:08:36.120 Mm hmm, go ahead, go ahead. 0:08:36.960 --> 0:08:38.840 Yeah, I don't know. I don't date or anything. 0:08:38.960 --> 0:08:46.000 So how how in what other ways do you think 0:08:46.000 --> 0:08:49.199 it's uh skewed your perception of men. 0:08:53.880 --> 0:08:57.360 Otherwise? I don't know. I mean, I tend to really 0:08:57.440 --> 0:08:59.800 like the guys that I meet, Like, I think a 0:08:59.800 --> 0:09:03.520 lot of people think they're like creepy, like maybe old guys, 0:09:03.679 --> 0:09:07.560 but like I don't know, like look really scary, but 0:09:07.760 --> 0:09:12.800 a lot of them are really handsome and I like them. 0:09:13.080 --> 0:09:14.880 The money is just a plastic. 0:09:15.440 --> 0:09:23.360 M What what made you first get into this line 0:09:23.400 --> 0:09:25.079 of work in general. 0:09:26.520 --> 0:09:30.360 Well, the stripping, I don't know. I was like eighteen 0:09:31.160 --> 0:09:35.199 and I really hated my job and I didn't want 0:09:35.200 --> 0:09:38.280 to work forty hours a week for what seemed to 0:09:38.320 --> 0:09:40.520 be like not a whole lot of money. So I 0:09:40.640 --> 0:09:43.200 quit my job. One day when I went into a 0:09:43.240 --> 0:09:47.520 strip club. I got started there and that's been really 0:09:47.520 --> 0:09:53.439 good for me. Dascorting, I don't know. I just did 0:09:53.520 --> 0:09:57.720 some research and I try not to like get murdered 0:09:57.840 --> 0:10:01.840 or anything, but just you post an ad online and 0:10:02.720 --> 0:10:08.240 there's that. I mean, you could get like arrested or 0:10:08.240 --> 0:10:10.000 something that that has happen to me. 0:10:11.200 --> 0:10:13.760 Does your do you like, do you talk to your 0:10:13.760 --> 0:10:14.440 friends about it? 0:10:15.600 --> 0:10:16.280 Yeah? 0:10:16.600 --> 0:10:22.360 My friends, No, my mom knows what what do they 0:10:23.320 --> 0:10:24.480 do they what do they have to say? 0:10:26.880 --> 0:10:28.319 They just want me to be safe? 0:10:30.200 --> 0:10:31.439 Yeah, mm hmm. 0:10:32.960 --> 0:10:42.319 That's good. Yeah, that's good. I I well, I'm I'm 0:10:42.360 --> 0:10:44.720 glad you're enjoying. I'm still hung up on the fact 0:10:44.880 --> 0:10:49.080 not because you like, like, why do you say that, 0:10:49.240 --> 0:10:57.000 like you can't do anything else? I'm not not I'm 0:10:57.000 --> 0:11:00.160 not not even like not even like being objected to, 0:11:01.280 --> 0:11:03.960 Like if you if you're like, oh, if you're saying 0:11:04.000 --> 0:11:06.160 like I don't want to do anything else. That's one thing. 0:11:06.200 --> 0:11:08.959 But I like the fact that you're saying I can't 0:11:09.000 --> 0:11:09.760 do anything else. 0:11:10.720 --> 0:11:13.400 I think it's a mix of both. Like I really 0:11:13.480 --> 0:11:17.040 like my jobs and I don't want to do anything else. 0:11:17.640 --> 0:11:20.520 I just make a good amount of money and I 0:11:20.559 --> 0:11:23.040 don't have to work super hard for it. I mean, 0:11:23.080 --> 0:11:27.400 it is hard work, but not like labor, like I 0:11:27.400 --> 0:11:33.439 don't know, like construction or something. And I know that 0:11:33.559 --> 0:11:36.200 I want to go into criminal justice eventually. It'll just 0:11:36.240 --> 0:11:36.760 take time. 0:11:37.320 --> 0:11:41.360 M hm, Well you know, well I don't. Yeah, that's 0:11:41.360 --> 0:11:44.360 the thing, right because even if even if it's not 0:11:44.400 --> 0:11:49.880 a lot of hours, it's like you're rewarded for I think, 0:11:49.920 --> 0:11:54.200 like in general, with like money and shit, you're never 0:11:54.520 --> 0:11:59.480 you're never like you're never compensated for your time. You're 0:11:59.480 --> 0:12:05.120 compensated for like a variety of things, you know, And 0:12:05.160 --> 0:12:08.000 so you're well because you're getting you're getting compensated not 0:12:08.040 --> 0:12:09.520 just for your time, but you're also getting you know, 0:12:09.520 --> 0:12:12.560 you're getting rewarded by nature of the fact that you're really, 0:12:12.679 --> 0:12:13.920 you know, putting yourself out there. 0:12:15.480 --> 0:12:18.640 Yeah, you mean like sexually, well, just I mean just. 0:12:18.559 --> 0:12:24.440 In general, like you know, whether sexually or just the 0:12:24.440 --> 0:12:29.120 fact that you're like willing to go meet a stranger 0:12:30.000 --> 0:12:32.599 and hang out with them and you know, be be 0:12:32.760 --> 0:12:38.600 cool to them and you know, make them feel you know, 0:12:38.760 --> 0:12:40.400 like they have some company. 0:12:41.360 --> 0:12:44.120 Yeah. I like. I like being able to meet people 0:12:44.200 --> 0:12:45.160 feel sen. 0:12:47.360 --> 0:12:48.120 M hm Yeah. 0:12:48.760 --> 0:12:50.640 And I think you know again, you know, whether or 0:12:50.679 --> 0:12:52.960 not like you're being, that's that's what you're being. 0:12:53.320 --> 0:12:53.440 Uh. 0:12:54.600 --> 0:12:56.800 I think rewarded for is your ability to you know, 0:12:56.880 --> 0:13:04.679 make people feel seen and uh, you know, accompanied more 0:13:04.760 --> 0:13:07.040 so than like, you know, I put an X amount 0:13:07.080 --> 0:13:09.800 of time into X amount of why thing and I 0:13:09.840 --> 0:13:10.840 get Z dollars. 0:13:13.679 --> 0:13:19.600 Right. Yeah, it's really cool talking to you. I don't 0:13:19.640 --> 0:13:21.719 know if you want to keep talking to me. This 0:13:21.800 --> 0:13:23.079 is being pretty cool. 0:13:24.559 --> 0:13:26.760 Was there? I guess Is there any other aspect of 0:13:26.800 --> 0:13:29.839 this that you wanted to talk about? 0:13:31.679 --> 0:13:31.760 No? 0:13:31.880 --> 0:13:36.559 I just wanted to share take a roll. 0:13:37.880 --> 0:13:39.000 Is there anything else you want to say to the 0:13:39.000 --> 0:13:40.280 people of the computer before we go? 0:13:41.320 --> 0:13:45.239 Mmm? No, but thanks for chatting with me. 0:13:45.960 --> 0:13:48.400 Bye, Gek, goodbye bye. Let have a good rest of 0:13:48.520 --> 0:13:49.319 your entire life. 0:13:55.920 --> 0:13:57.360 Hi is this Gek? 0:13:58.200 --> 0:14:00.800 This is who is this? This is Dev? 0:14:01.080 --> 0:14:03.600 What's up? Dev? Has life? Oh? 0:14:03.640 --> 0:14:04.040 My god? 0:14:05.400 --> 0:14:06.280 Uh? 0:14:06.480 --> 0:14:07.200 Life's good? 0:14:07.320 --> 0:14:07.560 Man? 0:14:07.679 --> 0:14:08.600 What's up with you. 0:14:11.160 --> 0:14:14.240 I'm doing okay. Actually I have a little bit of 0:14:14.240 --> 0:14:19.960 a headache, but who cares, you know, who cares about Madville? 0:14:19.960 --> 0:14:21.040 You'll you'll work through hell. 0:14:21.080 --> 0:14:26.800 Yeah, exactly, exactly, exactly exactly. Did you tell me your 0:14:26.840 --> 0:14:27.480 name yet? 0:14:28.680 --> 0:14:29.280 Yeah? Dev? 0:14:29.400 --> 0:14:33.040 D E V D E V Okay, all right, Dev? 0:14:33.280 --> 0:14:35.080 What's up? Dev? How's life? What's going on with you? 0:14:36.080 --> 0:14:36.640 Oh? Man? 0:14:36.840 --> 0:14:40.440 So I've I've recently come to a realization and I 0:14:40.760 --> 0:14:43.080 feel like you're a professional and I wanted to talk 0:14:43.120 --> 0:14:45.400 to you about it. You know, I've seen your videos. 0:14:45.440 --> 0:14:46.520 You see you really help people. 0:14:47.280 --> 0:14:50.480 Okay, I'm gonna I'm not a professional anything, but I'll 0:14:50.760 --> 0:14:54.080 I guess. I guess by the definition of professional, I'm 0:14:54.080 --> 0:15:00.120 a professional therapy gecko, so I can do that. 0:15:00.120 --> 0:15:01.520 That's professional enough for me. 0:15:02.280 --> 0:15:05.000 What's up, ma'am? Tell me? Tell me everything. 0:15:05.920 --> 0:15:10.840 So, like, I've recently gone into a new relationship and 0:15:11.640 --> 0:15:17.920 I love my boyfriend very dearly. However, he's forklifts certified 0:15:18.680 --> 0:15:20.920 and it's like a ha ha ha people also funny, 0:15:20.960 --> 0:15:24.360 funny meme forkless certified. But I've recently come to the 0:15:24.360 --> 0:15:27.800 realization that I it kind of turns me on, and 0:15:27.840 --> 0:15:31.720 I don't know why. Like he'll call me while he's 0:15:31.760 --> 0:15:34.360 at work and he'll be like, hey, guess what, babe. 0:15:34.360 --> 0:15:36.320 I'm like what, And he's like, I'm going on the forklift, 0:15:36.360 --> 0:15:40.040 and I'm just like, god damn sexiest thing ever. I 0:15:40.040 --> 0:15:42.600 don't even know. I don't even know. 0:15:44.920 --> 0:15:47.120 Why is this a Why is this a problem? This 0:15:47.160 --> 0:15:47.720 is a good thing. 0:15:47.840 --> 0:15:50.880 I don't even I guess it's not a problem. I guess. 0:15:51.960 --> 0:15:52.320 I don't know. 0:15:52.400 --> 0:15:56.160 Typically it's like midday, I'm like either at work or 0:15:56.200 --> 0:15:59.680 at school, and he'll just do it randomly, and I 0:15:59.800 --> 0:16:01.320 just call me up like I'm just gonna go on 0:16:01.360 --> 0:16:03.720 the forklift. Sometimes he'll honk the horn on the forklift, 0:16:04.000 --> 0:16:06.800 and I find that really funny too. I guess it's 0:16:06.800 --> 0:16:07.480 not a problem. 0:16:07.480 --> 0:16:07.760 I guess. 0:16:07.840 --> 0:16:11.640 I'm just confused as to why it turns me on. 0:16:13.480 --> 0:16:14.880 Why do you think it turns you on? 0:16:15.840 --> 0:16:19.360 Okay, that's a good question. I don't know. 0:16:19.400 --> 0:16:22.480 Maybe it stems from the fact that for a while 0:16:22.800 --> 0:16:26.160 there was like that like forklift certified meme going around. 0:16:26.240 --> 0:16:29.560 Maybe it's not I'm very much like kind of brain rodded. 0:16:29.600 --> 0:16:32.760 I'm twenty years old. I'm not I'm not you know, 0:16:33.160 --> 0:16:34.840 I don't know. Maybe it's just the fact that it 0:16:34.880 --> 0:16:36.680 stems from the fact that it was a meme at 0:16:36.720 --> 0:16:39.720 one point. But maybe it's also the fact that I 0:16:39.760 --> 0:16:43.320 know my boyfriend's accomplished. You know, I don't have my 0:16:43.320 --> 0:16:47.880 forklift certified license, my coworkers aren't forklift certified. But my 0:16:48.040 --> 0:16:49.360 man is that's pretty cool. 0:16:50.680 --> 0:16:57.840 Mhm. Have you ever like seen him in the forklift 0:16:58.240 --> 0:16:59.440 or have you only have not? 0:17:00.320 --> 0:17:05.720 I I've only heard about it. We're doing long distance 0:17:05.800 --> 0:17:08.560 right now to its south. But ever and I've talked 0:17:08.600 --> 0:17:10.560 to him about it too, and ever since I've like 0:17:10.960 --> 0:17:13.480 brought it up with him. Anytime he's in the forklift 0:17:13.560 --> 0:17:16.359 and remembers, he makes an effort to call me, And 0:17:16.560 --> 0:17:18.160 I wish I could see him the forklist. I think 0:17:18.160 --> 0:17:20.600 that would like turn me on even more. But like 0:17:21.560 --> 0:17:22.800 I don't know what to be too much. 0:17:22.920 --> 0:17:23.640 I don't even. 0:17:25.040 --> 0:17:25.879 God, I don't even know. 0:17:25.960 --> 0:17:27.600 But like I picture him in the like if he 0:17:27.640 --> 0:17:29.800 goes in the forklift, I picture him in the forklift, 0:17:29.800 --> 0:17:34.600 and I'm like, damn, Like I could totally just watch 0:17:34.680 --> 0:17:37.320 you for hours drive around and use a forklift and 0:17:37.359 --> 0:17:39.240 move stuff. I don't even know what stuff he's moving 0:17:39.359 --> 0:17:41.960 with it. I have no clue, But I just know 0:17:42.040 --> 0:17:46.520 he drives the forklift. 0:17:46.160 --> 0:17:50.800 What exactly is the picture you have in your mind 0:17:51.600 --> 0:17:54.239 when you picture him in the forklift? 0:17:54.600 --> 0:17:58.760 Okay, I know he has to wear a hard hat 0:17:58.800 --> 0:18:00.920 because he's sent me selfie and he has to wear 0:18:01.080 --> 0:18:05.280 like seventh grade like think middle school science class, like 0:18:05.440 --> 0:18:08.000 clear goggle kind of things, like he has to wear 0:18:08.080 --> 0:18:10.560 those for like his eye protection. 0:18:11.160 --> 0:18:11.480 I don't know. 0:18:11.520 --> 0:18:14.240 I see the forklift like maybe a gray color, I 0:18:14.280 --> 0:18:17.160 don't know, maybe it's blue, and I know he has 0:18:17.200 --> 0:18:22.040 to wear these like greenish maybe blue overalls, overalls, I 0:18:22.080 --> 0:18:25.040 can use what he calls them. So like picturing him 0:18:25.240 --> 0:18:29.080 in a hard hat with middle school clear glasses and 0:18:29.960 --> 0:18:33.719 overalls on in a forklift, like driving it around and 0:18:33.720 --> 0:18:35.440 like honking the horn and the horn is like pretty 0:18:35.480 --> 0:18:38.960 high pitch. I just like I could genuinely if I 0:18:39.000 --> 0:18:40.600 was there in person, I could sit down and I 0:18:40.640 --> 0:18:43.879 could watch him like, yeah, that is my man, that 0:18:44.359 --> 0:18:49.080 is my man, Stay away, he's mine. I can picture 0:18:49.080 --> 0:19:05.679 it clear as day. 0:18:58.840 --> 0:19:05.560 And mm hmmm hmmm. Then you don't know what you 0:19:05.560 --> 0:19:07.280 don't know why this is? I mean, I think, I mean, 0:19:07.640 --> 0:19:10.199 I think, uh, you know, some people are attracted to 0:19:10.240 --> 0:19:14.560 a man in uniform. I think, uh, you know, being 0:19:14.680 --> 0:19:18.320 forklift certified. I think women in general attracted to competence, 0:19:19.240 --> 0:19:24.160 and I think being for forklift certified is a strong 0:19:24.280 --> 0:19:32.119 indicator of competence. Yes, so I think it makes total 0:19:32.160 --> 0:19:37.760 sense to me that you would be attracted to him 0:19:37.840 --> 0:19:42.679 when you were a kid. Did you have a crush 0:19:42.720 --> 0:19:43.639 on Bob the Builder? 0:19:46.280 --> 0:19:50.639 Yeah, don't do that to me. Oh man, No, I 0:19:50.760 --> 0:19:56.520 loved Bob the Builder actually thinking back, Yeah, no, I 0:19:56.520 --> 0:19:59.760 I watched that ship so often. Oh my god, Oh 0:19:59.800 --> 0:20:03.199 my god, odd, oh my god. My boyfriend's kind of 0:20:03.240 --> 0:20:06.720 like Bob the Builder. Oh no, wait, I shouldn't do sad. 0:20:06.760 --> 0:20:09.760 That's not a no, no, that's just a huge wow. 0:20:10.320 --> 0:20:11.479 See this is why I called you. 0:20:12.400 --> 0:20:14.800 Is Bob that? Would you put Bob the Builder on 0:20:14.840 --> 0:20:17.240 your like hear me out list? 0:20:18.520 --> 0:20:22.320 Yes? Mm hmm. 0:20:24.560 --> 0:20:26.359 Does he? Does your boyfriend look like Bob the Builder? 0:20:28.080 --> 0:20:31.600 No, he has more hair. My dad looks like Bob 0:20:31.600 --> 0:20:32.080 the Builder. 0:20:32.520 --> 0:20:34.480 Oh holy shit, your boyfriend probably looks like your dad, 0:20:34.520 --> 0:20:36.760 and that's probably why my. 0:20:36.720 --> 0:20:38.800 Boyfriend does not look with my dad. My dad is 0:20:38.800 --> 0:20:40.960 as bald as a cucumber. My boyfriend has hair. 0:20:43.840 --> 0:20:46.680 No offense, it's not a bad thing. I think that's No, 0:20:47.240 --> 0:20:49.760 it's like a documented phenomenon as people want to date 0:20:50.560 --> 0:20:52.639 people that look like the parents for some reason. 0:20:53.800 --> 0:20:55.040 No, I've seen that happen. 0:21:01.480 --> 0:21:03.800 Damn, I don't know. That's pretty cool. I guess yeah, 0:21:03.880 --> 0:21:06.280 hopefully maybe when this drops, more guys are going to 0:21:06.320 --> 0:21:08.000 be like, I got to get forklift certified. 0:21:08.880 --> 0:21:12.680 I hope so like it definitely, you know, I think 0:21:12.720 --> 0:21:14.919 about like, Wow, at some point in his life before 0:21:14.960 --> 0:21:18.920 he met me, he set aside time to get forkless certified. 0:21:19.240 --> 0:21:20.840 And I just find that really attractive and like, you 0:21:20.880 --> 0:21:23.600 actually took time out of your day to become forkless certified, 0:21:23.600 --> 0:21:25.800 and now you're forklift certified and I get to hear 0:21:25.800 --> 0:21:29.680 about it and you get to be mine. But no, man, 0:21:29.720 --> 0:21:33.440 if you're listening, get forklift certified. Like easiest pickup line 0:21:33.440 --> 0:21:35.760 at bars too, Like if you're in a bar. I 0:21:35.760 --> 0:21:37.200 could totally picture it. Like if you're in a bar 0:21:37.760 --> 0:21:39.520 and you want to go talk to this girl and 0:21:39.560 --> 0:21:41.280 you don't know what to say, you can just go 0:21:41.400 --> 0:21:44.560 up to her and be like, hey, I'm Workliss certified 0:21:45.240 --> 0:21:47.080 and I think you're really cute. 0:21:47.200 --> 0:21:48.440 I would be hooked. 0:21:48.960 --> 0:21:50.679 I know I would be hooked. Like, oh my god, well, 0:21:50.720 --> 0:21:55.040 you're forkliff certified. Tell me more, you know, so, I 0:21:55.080 --> 0:21:56.800 don't know, maybe more men should do that. 0:21:57.200 --> 0:21:58.920 You guys are a long distance he. 0:21:58.880 --> 0:22:01.280 Said, yeah, we're long distance right now. 0:22:01.280 --> 0:22:02.600 Where's he at? 0:22:03.240 --> 0:22:04.399 He's in Louisiana. 0:22:04.560 --> 0:22:05.920 Do you guys, where'd you guys meet? 0:22:07.400 --> 0:22:08.280 We met online? 0:22:08.359 --> 0:22:08.600 I do. 0:22:08.880 --> 0:22:11.399 I'm in Kelly. I'm in Los Angeles and I do 0:22:11.560 --> 0:22:14.639 like art stuff online and he found my profile and 0:22:14.680 --> 0:22:17.240 we just kind of started talking to each other casually 0:22:17.280 --> 0:22:19.960 and it just kind of went from there. He's flown 0:22:20.040 --> 0:22:24.399 here before. I just actually recently flew out there. But 0:22:24.520 --> 0:22:27.520 he's playing with California next year actually. 0:22:29.080 --> 0:22:31.879 And on his like, like, what you guys connected on Instagram? 0:22:32.800 --> 0:22:33.520 Yeah? 0:22:33.600 --> 0:22:35.520 Does he have a lot of pictures on his Instagram 0:22:35.520 --> 0:22:37.000 of him in the forklift? 0:22:37.400 --> 0:22:38.840 He doesn't. 0:22:38.880 --> 0:22:41.240 Oh my, he does not, actually, And I'm going to 0:22:41.280 --> 0:22:44.280 get on his ass about that, because I need to 0:22:44.359 --> 0:22:47.400 flex that my boyfriend is worklift certified. I need more 0:22:47.440 --> 0:22:50.280 pictures of him in the forklift. Matter of fact, I 0:22:50.280 --> 0:22:52.560 need more pictures of him. I need more pictures of 0:22:52.600 --> 0:22:55.800 the forklift so that when he calls me and he's like, hey, babe, 0:22:55.800 --> 0:22:58.480 I'm in the forklift. I can picture the forklift. I 0:22:58.480 --> 0:23:00.919 can have a better image, right, I think that's. 0:23:00.760 --> 0:23:01.280 A good idea. 0:23:02.000 --> 0:23:05.600 Yeah, maybe you don't want to see the forklift, right 0:23:05.600 --> 0:23:08.440 because I almost think I actually, you know it would 0:23:08.440 --> 0:23:12.119 be so tragic. Is if you see him in the 0:23:12.160 --> 0:23:15.840 forklift and it's like it's icky to you that it's 0:23:16.000 --> 0:23:21.080 that it's so different from how you imagined it in 0:23:21.119 --> 0:23:24.840 your head, right, Like I think when it cuts in 0:23:24.960 --> 0:23:29.880 like right, and like sexual and romantic fantasies, they're always 0:23:30.000 --> 0:23:33.240 they're always going to be better in your head than 0:23:33.240 --> 0:23:35.199 they are in real life. So I almost hope you 0:23:35.280 --> 0:23:38.320 never see or what you you're like your boyfriend in 0:23:38.320 --> 0:23:40.639 the forklift, only like stays in your imagination because that's 0:23:40.640 --> 0:23:44.720 where it's that's where it's gonna have the highest quality. 0:23:45.400 --> 0:23:48.000 That's where every one of your dreams and fantasies will 0:23:48.000 --> 0:23:53.000 have their highest amounts of pleasure to you. Is is 0:23:53.080 --> 0:23:55.199 in the form of dreams and fantasies. 0:23:57.720 --> 0:24:00.760 I have never thought of it that way. See, and 0:24:00.800 --> 0:24:03.240 this is I don't understand why you don't call yourself 0:24:03.440 --> 0:24:08.560 a professional, because that that makes a lot of sense. Actually, 0:24:08.560 --> 0:24:09.920 I don't want to see a picture of him. I 0:24:09.960 --> 0:24:11.879 don't mind as selfie if he's in the forklift. I 0:24:11.880 --> 0:24:14.240 don't want to see outside the forklift. Let's I'm gonna 0:24:14.280 --> 0:24:15.159 let my imagination or. 0:24:15.119 --> 0:24:17.720 In wild with that devastat anything else you want to 0:24:17.720 --> 0:24:19.320 say to the people of the computer before. 0:24:19.080 --> 0:24:27.040 We go, man, get forklifts certified. You know, maybe you 0:24:27.560 --> 0:24:29.439 double check your hear me out list. Maybe Bob the 0:24:29.440 --> 0:24:34.159 Builder can be added to it. And God bless this 0:24:34.400 --> 0:24:37.040 country and God bless America. And I love my boyfriend 0:24:37.119 --> 0:24:41.480 so much. I love you and uh he messaged me 0:24:41.520 --> 0:24:43.639 and he told me to say if I got on 0:24:43.800 --> 0:24:45.640 phone with Ghek, and he has no idea that I'm 0:24:45.640 --> 0:24:47.520 talking about this. He just knows that I tried to 0:24:47.560 --> 0:24:50.119 call you. So Hi, babe. I love you so much 0:24:50.240 --> 0:24:52.040 and I hope you were able to write the Forklift 0:24:52.040 --> 0:24:53.280 tonight because I miss you. 0:24:54.040 --> 0:24:55.560 But thank you so much, Gek. 0:24:55.720 --> 0:24:57.120 Thank you dev You have a good rest of the night. 0:24:57.359 --> 0:24:58.840 Yeah you too. 0:25:01.000 --> 0:25:01.720 Hey, what's up? 0:25:02.480 --> 0:25:03.600 Oh? Dang this the Gek? 0:25:04.080 --> 0:25:04.760 Yeah? Who is this? 0:25:06.200 --> 0:25:08.080 Oh? This is Sean Sean. 0:25:09.080 --> 0:25:14.119 Sean you texted me and you said I did mushrooms 0:25:14.240 --> 0:25:17.439 at your Edmonton show. It was a blast, but I 0:25:17.520 --> 0:25:21.520 had a revelation about my life, and it's been bothering 0:25:21.560 --> 0:25:24.520 me since I just got back. I just got back 0:25:24.560 --> 0:25:29.159 from Yeah, from Canada. I was in Edmonton over the 0:25:29.200 --> 0:25:36.800 weekend at McEwan University. That was a fun time. Thanks man, 0:25:36.840 --> 0:25:40.560 thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it. So were you 0:25:40.640 --> 0:25:43.000 on when were you on mushrooms during the show or 0:25:43.040 --> 0:25:43.879 was it after the show? 0:25:44.600 --> 0:25:47.639 Yeah? I was on mushrooms during the show. I I 0:25:47.680 --> 0:25:50.159 took a couple of mushroom chocolates with the girl I brought, 0:25:50.200 --> 0:25:52.879 and yeah, it was. It was a good time, but 0:25:53.760 --> 0:25:55.919 kind of at the end of the show, I started 0:25:55.920 --> 0:25:59.760 having this revelation about my life and what I'm looking 0:25:59.800 --> 0:26:03.800 out of it. It's been weird, man, I don't can 0:26:03.840 --> 0:26:04.920 want me to explain more. 0:26:06.320 --> 0:26:08.760 Did we meet? Did we talk? Did I talk to you? 0:26:08.800 --> 0:26:12.320 No? No, I see. I tried to get meet and 0:26:12.400 --> 0:26:15.440 greet tickets prior to the show, but it said you 0:26:15.560 --> 0:26:17.480 had to be a me Quan student. 0:26:19.640 --> 0:26:21.959 So people not just so people know for the record, 0:26:22.040 --> 0:26:24.280 the school did that. I don't. I don't do like 0:26:24.359 --> 0:26:29.040 meet and greet tickets. I just usually I just stand 0:26:29.040 --> 0:26:33.480 around and meet everyone for free, usually just so people 0:26:33.680 --> 0:26:34.359 sucking you know. 0:26:34.400 --> 0:26:38.040 Anyway, Yeah, so I and then they were saying, you know, 0:26:38.119 --> 0:26:40.320 you can wait in a line and meet him if 0:26:40.080 --> 0:26:42.280 you hang out. And then I was kind of tripping 0:26:42.320 --> 0:26:44.200 ball a bit, and I looked at the girl I 0:26:44.280 --> 0:26:46.800 was with and I was like, we gotta go. She 0:26:46.920 --> 0:26:50.600 also she was yeah, and she was having a little 0:26:50.600 --> 0:26:52.760 bit better of a time I was, I think, and 0:26:52.800 --> 0:26:56.280 that was kind of helpful. But yeah, we went out 0:26:56.320 --> 0:26:59.680 in the town. We had some cocktails. But the whole 0:26:59.680 --> 0:27:02.280 time I was having kind of this Uh. I hate 0:27:02.320 --> 0:27:04.840 to bring up the topic because it's been beaten like 0:27:04.880 --> 0:27:11.119 a dead horse, but existential dread just thinking about you know, 0:27:11.359 --> 0:27:13.920 I had this idea of, you know, what I wanted 0:27:13.960 --> 0:27:18.840 in my life, the relationship to settle down and you know, 0:27:19.280 --> 0:27:21.320 have a life kid, so all that fun stuff. But 0:27:22.200 --> 0:27:24.280 in all that streamship I kind of will see your 0:27:24.840 --> 0:27:27.600 your trip to Iraq and just the experience and stuff 0:27:27.600 --> 0:27:29.920 you talked about. I kind of had this like flooding 0:27:29.960 --> 0:27:33.240 emotion of I haven't done enough or I haven't seen enough, 0:27:33.280 --> 0:27:36.919 and it was it was weird. And now it's you know, Monday, 0:27:36.960 --> 0:27:40.320 I'm back to my regular job and I'm thinking, what's 0:27:40.359 --> 0:27:44.760 the plan, what to do? Yeah, and it. 0:27:45.400 --> 0:27:49.360 Did the show gave you an existential crisis. 0:27:49.920 --> 0:27:53.000 Not the show, but just like I think my internal 0:27:53.040 --> 0:27:57.399 thoughts of you know, like just seeing how I was 0:27:57.440 --> 0:27:59.320 so happy, like listening to your show and go about 0:27:59.320 --> 0:28:01.840 you go go and Iraq and You're doing mushrooms and 0:28:02.240 --> 0:28:04.520 the forest and stuff, and I was like, man, all 0:28:04.560 --> 0:28:07.520 these experiences and I started thinking back to like, you know, 0:28:07.600 --> 0:28:10.119 some of the experiences that I've had in me not 0:28:10.200 --> 0:28:12.119 to compare anything, but it was more long, and I 0:28:12.119 --> 0:28:16.480 felt like I I owe myself more. It was just yeah, 0:28:16.520 --> 0:28:17.720 it was but. 0:28:18.080 --> 0:28:21.320 Well, yeah, I have a lot of thoughts about this. 0:28:21.600 --> 0:28:24.760 One is well, how are you? Were you a student? 0:28:25.320 --> 0:28:25.960 Are you? 0:28:26.000 --> 0:28:29.560 No? No? I drove, I drove like two hours away 0:28:30.480 --> 0:28:33.800 in different in a different city. Yeah, yeah, it was. 0:28:33.920 --> 0:28:35.560 It was sweet. Man. I wasn't gonna miss it. I 0:28:35.640 --> 0:28:38.520 fucking signed up for your text to say when you 0:28:38.520 --> 0:28:40.680 were coming in because I heard you briefly on one 0:28:40.680 --> 0:28:42.400 of your streams being like I'm coming to Emson and 0:28:42.400 --> 0:28:44.400 I was like, when so I walked in. 0:28:45.120 --> 0:28:51.240 So okay, the girl that you were with, like was it? 0:28:52.240 --> 0:28:54.240 Because sometimes because one of the tough things about like 0:28:54.280 --> 0:28:56.080 being on mushroom has been a lot of drug is 0:28:56.080 --> 0:29:00.200 like if you're with somebody and you're having an existential crisis, 0:29:00.400 --> 0:29:03.040 especially someone you're like fucking like you're intimate with, you know, 0:29:03.200 --> 0:29:06.560 like your girlfriend. Like was it like were you staring 0:29:06.600 --> 0:29:09.760 at her being like and she's just like enjoying the 0:29:09.800 --> 0:29:11.880 cocktails and You're like, Yo, what the fuck is this? 0:29:11.960 --> 0:29:12.640 What's going on? 0:29:12.800 --> 0:29:14.800 Honestly, man, when I think back to it now, I'm 0:29:14.840 --> 0:29:17.520 pretty sure I was like I was quite withdrawn. Like 0:29:17.560 --> 0:29:20.840 I noticed like during the night she was kind of 0:29:21.000 --> 0:29:22.720 just asking me like, hey, how you doing and stuff, 0:29:22.720 --> 0:29:26.080 and I wasn't giving any space to say shit going 0:29:26.120 --> 0:29:27.320 on in my head. I was like, oh, I'm good, 0:29:27.360 --> 0:29:30.160 I'm just you know, tripping, But in reality, I was 0:29:30.160 --> 0:29:33.640 fucking stinking one thousand miles an hour about my license. Shit. 0:29:34.200 --> 0:29:35.960 I had some drinks and it kind of chilled out. 0:29:35.960 --> 0:29:39.720 But then, like the residual effects of this later days 0:29:39.720 --> 0:29:43.760 has kind of been hit me. Yeah, just was like, 0:29:44.240 --> 0:29:47.120 I don't know if I'm ready to settle down. I'm 0:29:47.160 --> 0:29:50.680 twenty nine, you know. Current I had to move back 0:29:50.680 --> 0:29:54.080 in with my parents right after COVID, so I've had 0:29:54.120 --> 0:29:56.920 a lot of time to kind of just sit and 0:29:57.440 --> 0:29:58.760 save a little bit of money, not as much A. 0:29:58.760 --> 0:30:00.959 I probably wanted to, but I don't know. It's just 0:30:01.120 --> 0:30:04.080 by being back in my parents' place and you know, 0:30:04.160 --> 0:30:06.320 kind of just working my job money to Friday is 0:30:06.400 --> 0:30:07.840 kind of get I don't know. I think it's starting 0:30:07.840 --> 0:30:09.720 to get to me. And I didn't think it was 0:30:09.720 --> 0:30:12.040 getting to me as much as it has after that 0:30:12.120 --> 0:30:16.640 mushroom trip. But sorry to the Bible, no no, no. 0:30:16.720 --> 0:30:21.880 So before the mushroom trip, were you having these thoughts? 0:30:23.200 --> 0:30:26.560 You know sometimes but they would like they would fade 0:30:26.560 --> 0:30:30.720 away with you know, just like distracting myself. I guess 0:30:30.720 --> 0:30:33.960 with my everyday life like going to work and going 0:30:33.960 --> 0:30:38.040 to do my things outside of work, like my hobbies 0:30:38.040 --> 0:30:40.080 and things like that. And then I think it would 0:30:40.120 --> 0:30:42.200 just kind of settle in when you got of got 0:30:42.200 --> 0:30:45.560 time to yourself and you're thinking about life and kind 0:30:45.560 --> 0:30:47.640 of like you know, when you're not distracted, it kind 0:30:47.640 --> 0:30:51.080 of start to have a little more introspective thoughts. And yeah, 0:30:51.120 --> 0:30:53.080 but the streams just amplified it, I feel like, and 0:30:53.880 --> 0:30:56.080 I think a lot of it comes from like this 0:30:56.200 --> 0:31:00.560 current relationship I'm in. It's pretty new you and like 0:31:01.360 --> 0:31:04.840 in four months in she's super into me, really nice 0:31:04.840 --> 0:31:08.760 and everything. But I feel like part of me doesn't 0:31:08.800 --> 0:31:11.160 want to settle down with her, and I don't know 0:31:11.200 --> 0:31:14.440 the particular reason why. And then the mushrooms kind of 0:31:14.440 --> 0:31:17.600 made me realize, like, oh, it's because you haven't really 0:31:17.640 --> 0:31:20.000 like lived much of a life, Like why are you 0:31:20.000 --> 0:31:22.680 thinking about selling down? You know, you haven't done much? 0:31:22.720 --> 0:31:24.680 And that's kind of where I'm at. 0:31:24.880 --> 0:31:27.240 Wells, I have a lot of thoughts about that because 0:31:31.520 --> 0:31:33.040 and I don't know. You know, here's the thing. I 0:31:33.040 --> 0:31:36.120 don't have a kid, and I don't have a wife 0:31:36.240 --> 0:31:41.000 for a girlfriend. So I'm not a good authority on that, 0:31:41.160 --> 0:31:44.680 but I think in my head, I don't I'm not 0:31:44.720 --> 0:31:46.400 a good authority to talk about this. But like in 0:31:46.400 --> 0:31:53.640 my head, it's like ideally, whatever relationship you do get 0:31:53.680 --> 0:31:57.400 into or whatever, or you know, whatever life you kind 0:31:57.400 --> 0:32:04.120 of do build is one that like amplifies the lifestyle 0:32:04.240 --> 0:32:06.960 that you want to have, you know, I think there's 0:32:07.000 --> 0:32:09.640 this and that's and again I'm like I'm a bad 0:32:09.840 --> 0:32:14.000 authority on it, but that's how it feels like in 0:32:14.000 --> 0:32:16.360 my head, like this idea that like, oh, I have 0:32:16.440 --> 0:32:18.560 this kind of life I want to live, let me 0:32:18.600 --> 0:32:21.560 live as much of it as possible until I'm bored. 0:32:21.760 --> 0:32:26.040 And then let me quote unquote settle down and like 0:32:27.120 --> 0:32:29.560 sh I don't think that that works. Like, I don't 0:32:29.560 --> 0:32:32.120 think that happens, you know. I think it's like you will. 0:32:32.240 --> 0:32:35.840 I think you're always gonna wanna. If you're the kind 0:32:35.840 --> 0:32:40.240 of person that wants to do things and is ambitious 0:32:40.360 --> 0:32:44.400 or whatever, you're kind of always gonna I think that 0:32:44.520 --> 0:32:46.480 you're that's not I don't think that goes away. I 0:32:46.480 --> 0:32:48.480 don't think that there is just a moment where you're like, 0:32:48.840 --> 0:32:52.960 all right, I had my fill and now a time 0:32:53.440 --> 0:32:55.440 because I mean, yeah, I at that show. I talked 0:32:55.480 --> 0:32:58.920 about going Iraq, and I talked about my little adventures 0:32:58.920 --> 0:33:02.880 and stuff. And you know, it's funny to hear that 0:33:03.080 --> 0:33:05.560 you saw that and were like, oh, I don't like, 0:33:05.560 --> 0:33:07.600 what have I done with my life? Because I I'm 0:33:07.640 --> 0:33:12.320 on insta fucking I'm on fucking Instagram all the time, dude, 0:33:12.440 --> 0:33:14.440 And I'm I and I'm on Instagram all the time, 0:33:14.440 --> 0:33:19.440 and I'm seeing people doing things and I'm always like, fuck, 0:33:19.480 --> 0:33:22.600 I want to be doing things. You know, there's never 0:33:22.680 --> 0:33:25.720 a It's like food. You never you don't eat a 0:33:25.760 --> 0:33:28.400 sandwich and you go, you eat a sandwich and you go, 0:33:28.480 --> 0:33:30.240 that was a good sandwich. I feel satisfied, but you 0:33:30.280 --> 0:33:32.160 don't eat a sandwich and you're like, I think, I 0:33:32.160 --> 0:33:35.240 I think I've eaten. You know, I don't. I don't. 0:33:35.600 --> 0:33:38.400 I don't need to eat anymore. 0:33:39.600 --> 0:33:40.040 Sandwich. 0:33:40.280 --> 0:33:42.680 Yeah, you're gonna want to keep eating sandwiches and drinking. 0:33:42.840 --> 0:33:48.760 It's like becomes these things, they become part of your homeostasis. 0:33:48.800 --> 0:33:53.480 I think. And again I'm a I'm a pad authority 0:33:53.520 --> 0:33:56.080 because they don't have a girlfriend and kids. But uh, 0:33:56.160 --> 0:34:00.440 I see, but I see people who you know, have 0:34:00.560 --> 0:34:04.920 kids and you know, have a significant other, and they 0:34:04.800 --> 0:34:08.680 they they're able to still kind of live life in 0:34:08.760 --> 0:34:13.560 some way. And you know, obviously, I think I think 0:34:13.560 --> 0:34:15.880 for people like that, I think having money is is 0:34:15.960 --> 0:34:21.400 a you know, a factor I think, you know, but 0:34:21.480 --> 0:34:25.640 also I don't know. But also I think, uh, some 0:34:25.680 --> 0:34:28.240 people just fucking figure out how to make it work 0:34:28.320 --> 0:34:33.799 and then they do. But so let's I mean you specifically, right, like, 0:34:33.880 --> 0:34:35.759 what what do you want to do? What are the 0:34:35.800 --> 0:34:38.440 things like when you when you're on your when you're 0:34:38.480 --> 0:34:40.360 tripping and you're like I want to do this, and 0:34:40.360 --> 0:34:41.880 then the other thing like what is it that you 0:34:41.920 --> 0:34:42.359 want to do? 0:34:45.320 --> 0:34:48.239 I think, honestly, man, it's like travel really, like really 0:34:48.280 --> 0:34:51.839 I really wanted to go to Thailand for most of 0:34:51.880 --> 0:34:56.200 my young adult life teenage life, and they traveled to 0:34:56.320 --> 0:34:59.759 eastern South East Asia and stuff. I don't know, it's 0:34:59.800 --> 0:35:01.799 just a experience like meet more people, you know, go 0:35:01.840 --> 0:35:04.680 to different places, and part of me. I don't know, 0:35:05.920 --> 0:35:08.400 maybe this is like a whole different thing, but I 0:35:08.400 --> 0:35:10.440 feel like I have to be single to do that. 0:35:10.520 --> 0:35:14.239 Like my brain goes like in this direction of like 0:35:14.360 --> 0:35:16.359 you can't you have to do this on your own, 0:35:16.440 --> 0:35:18.279 like and I don't know if it's because I don't 0:35:18.320 --> 0:35:20.600 feel strongly enough about a partner that I want to 0:35:20.640 --> 0:35:24.000 like experience that with them, or if I'm just like 0:35:24.840 --> 0:35:28.920 pigeonholing myself of like you know, get it being wellnely. 0:35:29.040 --> 0:35:31.360 I don't know, it's just been the whole thing. Like 0:35:32.280 --> 0:35:33.840 I have this feeling that I just need to like 0:35:34.360 --> 0:35:36.960 not have any super strong connections with anybody so that 0:35:37.000 --> 0:35:40.360 I can like you know, make these like do this 0:35:40.440 --> 0:35:43.239 traveling and see different parts of life and meet new people. 0:35:43.280 --> 0:35:46.160 Because like I just have this anxious feeling that by 0:35:46.320 --> 0:35:51.279 like accepting current situation even now, I won't maybe meet 0:35:51.320 --> 0:35:54.520 like someone else along the lines or experience certain things 0:35:54.560 --> 0:35:56.719 because I've settled down, I get keep going back to 0:35:56.880 --> 0:35:57.600 settled down things. 0:35:57.680 --> 0:36:00.600 But sure, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know you man, I 0:36:00.600 --> 0:36:00.800 know you. 0:36:00.840 --> 0:36:01.040 Man. 0:36:03.120 --> 0:36:04.719 We'll tell you about this girl. What's her deal? 0:36:07.360 --> 0:36:11.640 She's chill, man. She I met her online Facebook dating. 0:36:11.480 --> 0:36:14.960 Spars Facebook dating, Well, hold on, I want to get 0:36:15.080 --> 0:36:17.680 hold on. We're gonna go on a tangento. We got 0:36:17.680 --> 0:36:20.040 to go on this day? What the fuck is going 0:36:20.080 --> 0:36:21.440 on on Facebook dating? 0:36:22.200 --> 0:36:24.920 Honestly? Man? So I did to play Xbox with this 0:36:25.000 --> 0:36:28.040 guy and I was kind was on the apps Tinder hinge, 0:36:28.080 --> 0:36:31.280 you know, and wasn't having the best time. I deleted 0:36:31.280 --> 0:36:34.279 them without really like meeting anyone. I was just kind 0:36:34.280 --> 0:36:37.520 of like random matches, shys about conversations with that whole stuff. 0:36:37.600 --> 0:36:42.399 And my friend that was playing Xbox this, I'll get 0:36:42.440 --> 0:36:44.040 to that. He told me. He's like, man, I met 0:36:44.040 --> 0:36:46.120 my girlfriend on Facebook dating and she check it out 0:36:46.120 --> 0:36:48.080 and I was like, oh, I don't know, man, Like 0:36:48.160 --> 0:36:49.920 Facebook dating seems like it's kind of just full of 0:36:49.920 --> 0:36:52.440 single moms. And he's like, it is, I'm dating a 0:36:52.480 --> 0:36:55.680 single mom and I laugh. So but anyway, in my 0:36:56.440 --> 0:36:59.920 desperation of loneliness, I downloaded Facebook Dating and starts whip. 0:37:00.120 --> 0:37:03.280 And I met this girl and she didn't have any kids, 0:37:03.600 --> 0:37:07.360 but she's near the area. We had similar music taste. 0:37:07.719 --> 0:37:12.719 Her profile was kind of like, it wasn't super getting like, 0:37:12.719 --> 0:37:15.640 I didn't tell much about her. We met out, we 0:37:15.719 --> 0:37:18.800 met up, hung out a few times, a pretty casual 0:37:18.840 --> 0:37:20.480 on me. I ended up figuring out we had pretty 0:37:20.520 --> 0:37:23.839 much the same taste in music. She's not from around here, 0:37:23.920 --> 0:37:26.440 so she's kind of like knew to the area. She 0:37:26.560 --> 0:37:30.759 grew up really Jehovah's witness family and that kind of 0:37:30.760 --> 0:37:33.799 had a lot of her life was held back from 0:37:33.800 --> 0:37:37.320 her from that culty like religion. So now as an adult, 0:37:37.400 --> 0:37:40.640 she moved away to Alberta when she was like twenty 0:37:40.719 --> 0:37:42.640 or something, and now he's been trying to just like 0:37:42.640 --> 0:37:47.319 live life and gain her own experiences. So she's she's chilling, man, 0:37:47.320 --> 0:37:49.920 she's down into anything, and like that whole therapy get 0:37:50.000 --> 0:37:51.160 go thing. I kind of just hit her like, I 0:37:51.239 --> 0:37:53.160 seen you were coming. I didn't want to go alone, 0:37:53.160 --> 0:37:54.799 although I probably live And I was like, Hey, do 0:37:54.800 --> 0:37:56.719 you want to go to therapy get coo? And she 0:37:56.760 --> 0:37:59.000 was like, what the fuck is therapy? GOTO showed her 0:37:59.000 --> 0:38:01.200 a few clips and she was like down, and so 0:38:02.160 --> 0:38:03.960 I asked her if you want to do mushrooms chocolates 0:38:03.960 --> 0:38:06.239 over there? And yeah, like it's been chill and there 0:38:06.280 --> 0:38:09.520 hasn't really been any like like major red flags and anything 0:38:09.480 --> 0:38:10.880 to make me not want to be in a relationship 0:38:10.960 --> 0:38:16.200 except my own internal thoughts of this uh, settling down 0:38:16.239 --> 0:38:17.719 type of mindset. Yeah. 0:38:17.840 --> 0:38:20.000 Yeah, you have this like thing in your head of 0:38:20.040 --> 0:38:22.000 like I want to I want to fuck the world, 0:38:22.120 --> 0:38:23.920 not even like in a sexual way, just you know, 0:38:24.000 --> 0:38:24.560 like no. 0:38:24.640 --> 0:38:26.960 That's literally the best way to explain it, honestly, like 0:38:27.560 --> 0:38:29.759 I just want to take life. Yeah. Yeah, man, it's 0:38:29.760 --> 0:38:32.640 a lot of like this pent up And then it's 0:38:32.680 --> 0:38:35.319 stupid because I hear so many of your callers talk 0:38:35.360 --> 0:38:37.719 about like, you know, like the experiences they had, like 0:38:38.719 --> 0:38:41.520 anyone ranging from that one older lady that called I 0:38:41.600 --> 0:38:43.520 think she was a close to like fifty something to 0:38:43.719 --> 0:38:47.120 like even the train guy who fucking was like a 0:38:47.120 --> 0:38:49.359 young kid and traveling Like I had fallen into this 0:38:50.080 --> 0:38:52.000 thing where I'm like I'm getting too old and I 0:38:52.040 --> 0:38:54.320 need to make a choice when it's like dude, I 0:38:54.360 --> 0:38:56.520 don't know, I'm not that old, like come twenty nine, 0:38:57.680 --> 0:38:58.120 I don't. 0:38:57.960 --> 0:39:00.680 Know, Well, I mean, well aa not that I'll m 0:39:00.719 --> 0:39:04.720 be this idea that you have to make a choice 0:39:05.080 --> 0:39:08.560 is like, well, I don't know, I don't It's hard 0:39:08.560 --> 0:39:09.840 because I don't know. I don't know what you do 0:39:09.920 --> 0:39:10.799 for a living. 0:39:12.200 --> 0:39:15.560 Or what like you're I work at I work at 0:39:15.600 --> 0:39:19.040 a homeless shelter as like a like a support worker there. 0:39:20.040 --> 0:39:22.640 Do you get uh do you get time off? 0:39:23.840 --> 0:39:25.879 Yeah? Yeah, I get a pretty decent amount of time off, 0:39:26.840 --> 0:39:29.200 like two weeks paid vacation a year, and then they're 0:39:29.200 --> 0:39:31.439 really good at just giving you like unpaid time off. 0:39:31.520 --> 0:39:33.759 Like it's not a huge deal if you take time 0:39:33.760 --> 0:39:36.080 off in there. But I usually spend my summers going 0:39:36.080 --> 0:39:37.960 to visit my brother who lives in British Columbia. But 0:39:38.920 --> 0:39:42.000 I've been thinking about even just like taking a temporary 0:39:42.040 --> 0:39:44.160 highus from work. 0:39:44.880 --> 0:39:46.920 Well yeah, because like look, if they give you I mean, 0:39:46.920 --> 0:39:50.520 I'll tell you a little bit about my experience with 0:39:50.560 --> 0:39:53.160 this kind of stuff. Is like, so your job, like 0:39:53.160 --> 0:39:55.880 if they give you like unpaid time off, and like 0:39:56.040 --> 0:40:00.239 you're able to kind of like, you know, I don't know 0:40:00.280 --> 0:40:02.279 if the job gives you you know, I know it's 0:40:02.320 --> 0:40:04.799 a tough economy, is there can you save money? Doing 0:40:04.840 --> 0:40:05.279 this gig. 0:40:05.400 --> 0:40:07.520 Yeah, I mean, yeah, I'm living with my parents right now. 0:40:07.560 --> 0:40:10.120 I could definitely save enough money. That's one thing too. 0:40:10.320 --> 0:40:12.239 I have no excuse on that, and like I've just 0:40:12.320 --> 0:40:15.920 been kind of living like I pay some rent here, 0:40:15.920 --> 0:40:19.200 but not enough that I should be like not having 0:40:19.160 --> 0:40:20.360 as much saved as I do, know. 0:40:20.680 --> 0:40:23.360 Because like, look I went I yeah, I went to Iraq. 0:40:23.440 --> 0:40:26.759 I was there for five days, you know, like I was. 0:40:26.840 --> 0:40:28.360 I was only there for five fucking days, and it 0:40:28.400 --> 0:40:31.880 felt like a lifetime. It's five fucking days. And so 0:40:32.200 --> 0:40:35.560 I mean, if you time things right and you save 0:40:35.719 --> 0:40:39.799 up and whatever, if you're you know, if you're like 0:40:39.840 --> 0:40:43.080 you want to go to Thailand, right, like yeah, like 0:40:43.800 --> 0:40:49.440 you know, you save up some money, you take you 0:40:49.520 --> 0:40:58.200 take off fucking whatever, Thursday, Friday, Monday, Tuesday, four unpaid days. 0:40:58.239 --> 0:41:00.680 If they're cool with that, right, then you got you 0:41:01.000 --> 0:41:04.600 got's enough time for you to, you know, run away, 0:41:04.880 --> 0:41:06.680 do you know, do a trip and feel like you 0:41:06.760 --> 0:41:08.600 got away with something. It doesn't always have to be. 0:41:08.920 --> 0:41:12.160 People are really stoked on the like like you go 0:41:12.239 --> 0:41:14.960 to hostels and stuff and everyone's like, yeah, man, I've 0:41:15.000 --> 0:41:18.399 been on the road for six months, nine months. I'm 0:41:18.480 --> 0:41:20.239 like I don't want to like fuck that. I don't 0:41:20.239 --> 0:41:20.719 want to do that. 0:41:22.080 --> 0:41:23.120 Yeah, it sounds like a lot. 0:41:23.880 --> 0:41:27.240 It's a lot. So you can actually, I think, especially 0:41:27.239 --> 0:41:30.520 because you said it's if they're cool with if you 0:41:30.560 --> 0:41:34.160 can find a job, that's like cool, it sounds like, yeah, 0:41:34.200 --> 0:41:38.040 that's cool with you, like you know, giving you some 0:41:38.120 --> 0:41:42.160 unpaid time off, and then like you know, you're living 0:41:42.200 --> 0:41:43.759 with your parents, you can save up some money, like 0:41:44.040 --> 0:41:46.279 you can do a little bit of both. You know, 0:41:46.800 --> 0:41:49.040 you can be with this girl but also be like, hey, listen, 0:41:49.080 --> 0:41:54.560 I gotta go to Frankfurt for four days just because 0:41:54.600 --> 0:41:57.359 I'm crazy. And if she's cool, she'll be like all right, yeah, 0:41:57.400 --> 0:41:58.840 I get you. Yeah that's cool. 0:41:59.320 --> 0:42:01.560 You know I have to go to afghanis Dan. 0:42:02.000 --> 0:42:08.360 Yeah right, exactly exactly. So there's like ways to do 0:42:08.520 --> 0:42:11.239 have you done so this? But this bug, this is like, yeah, 0:42:11.280 --> 0:42:12.600 I want to fuck the world. I want to do 0:42:12.640 --> 0:42:15.359 all this crazy crap. I get you, I have that thing. 0:42:15.680 --> 0:42:19.600 I have that thing too. What is like have you 0:42:20.400 --> 0:42:23.640 have you done anything like that before? Because also you 0:42:23.719 --> 0:42:28.720 also will build up in your brain uh an idea 0:42:28.760 --> 0:42:31.680 of what fucking the world looks like, and it's always 0:42:32.000 --> 0:42:33.239 different from what it actually is. 0:42:34.280 --> 0:42:36.160 Yeah. I did a bit of traveling when I was 0:42:36.760 --> 0:42:39.280 younger with my parents, but nothing nowhere like super crazy, 0:42:39.200 --> 0:42:42.840 and went to Mexico and Hawaii and then Las Vegas 0:42:42.920 --> 0:42:45.879 a couple of times. But the only thing a place 0:42:45.880 --> 0:42:47.239 I've been doing is a doll I went on like 0:42:47.239 --> 0:42:50.160 a groad trip to Cuba, which is pretty fun. But 0:42:50.480 --> 0:42:52.360 other than that, man, I've just been kind of fucking Like. 0:42:52.840 --> 0:42:56.399 I went to school and like switch degrees fucking three 0:42:56.440 --> 0:42:59.080 different times, and spent like a solid like six years 0:42:59.080 --> 0:43:00.560 in college trying to figure out what I want to do, 0:43:01.480 --> 0:43:03.840 and was working full time during that period. So I 0:43:03.840 --> 0:43:05.719 felt like a lot of my early twenties where I 0:43:05.719 --> 0:43:08.759 should have just not went to school and you know, 0:43:08.840 --> 0:43:11.000 worked some shitty job and traveled that I was kind 0:43:11.040 --> 0:43:14.000 of having that idea in the back of my head, 0:43:14.040 --> 0:43:16.720 like you need to, you know, get a job now 0:43:16.760 --> 0:43:19.120 and get an education so that when you're twenty nine 0:43:19.120 --> 0:43:23.239 you can settle down just that whole trap. That's why 0:43:23.239 --> 0:43:26.480 I really like hearing you tell people. I'm sorry to 0:43:26.480 --> 0:43:29.000 go off in tangent, but tell people that they should 0:43:29.040 --> 0:43:32.279 really like reconsider university or must they want to be 0:43:32.320 --> 0:43:34.840 like a doctor or lawyer or something, but you know, 0:43:34.920 --> 0:43:37.960 experience life. Because I had that idea that I had 0:43:37.960 --> 0:43:40.440 to jump into school and I had to get a 0:43:40.520 --> 0:43:42.600 job in order to have some sort of life. But 0:43:43.320 --> 0:43:46.400 in reality, I kind of just wasted my early twenties 0:43:46.480 --> 0:43:48.760 chasing something. I didn't really know what I was chasing. 0:43:51.840 --> 0:43:55.480 Well, do I do work in a field that has 0:43:55.480 --> 0:43:56.000 that degree? 0:43:57.560 --> 0:44:00.600 Yeah, so I ended up leaving cool. I ended up 0:44:00.640 --> 0:44:05.440 leaving school to diploma in social work. But I'm not 0:44:05.480 --> 0:44:07.239 going back to school to get the degree. It's just 0:44:07.800 --> 0:44:10.319 in the field of social work. It's kind of get 0:44:10.360 --> 0:44:12.080 a degree if you're masters, if you want to work 0:44:12.080 --> 0:44:14.239 for the government, but other than that, it's kind of 0:44:14.280 --> 0:44:19.799 an experience based work kind of employment. So like, it's 0:44:19.800 --> 0:44:21.720 just the longer you, you know, le are in the field, 0:44:21.719 --> 0:44:25.040 the better opportunities are getting stuff. And I'm really good 0:44:25.080 --> 0:44:26.840 where I'm at right now. I make a decent amount 0:44:26.880 --> 0:44:32.560 and enough that I can live. Yeah, that's the thing 0:44:32.560 --> 0:44:33.080 I struggled. 0:44:33.400 --> 0:44:35.399 Yeah, go on, what are you gonna say? 0:44:36.040 --> 0:44:39.560 Oh, just the whole early twenties thing, Like I bounced 0:44:39.600 --> 0:44:42.080 between different jobs and stuff like this job I have 0:44:42.160 --> 0:44:43.440 right now, I've been there for the last two and 0:44:43.480 --> 0:44:46.040 a half years. It's like the first job I've actually 0:44:46.120 --> 0:44:49.520 not wanted to I'm alive myself after my work, you know, 0:44:49.560 --> 0:44:53.040 like I really enjoy what I do. So it's it's 0:44:53.080 --> 0:44:55.240 really cool. This whole last two and a half years, 0:44:55.320 --> 0:44:58.040 three years of working there and just being in the 0:44:58.040 --> 0:45:00.279 social work field has been giving me a lot of 0:45:00.280 --> 0:45:02.120 breathing room just think about other things in my life. 0:45:04.120 --> 0:45:06.400 I think, well, I think my ultimate take on this, 0:45:06.680 --> 0:45:09.359 and it is like, if it's something you even kind 0:45:09.400 --> 0:45:12.919 of feel like you want to do and you have 0:45:13.040 --> 0:45:15.360 the the resources to do it, which it sounds like 0:45:15.400 --> 0:45:17.040 you're set up in a way that you can do it, 0:45:17.760 --> 0:45:19.839 you know you should do it. But I don't think 0:45:19.840 --> 0:45:21.560 it has to be this. But I don't think it 0:45:21.560 --> 0:45:23.400 has to be the way you're talking about it is 0:45:23.480 --> 0:45:28.400 like it's like you're calling off a wedding or something 0:45:28.400 --> 0:45:32.120 for four months, like you can like you can, you 0:45:32.160 --> 0:45:34.200 can go on vacation, you know what. 0:45:34.200 --> 0:45:37.200 I habit of just doing that like an all or 0:45:37.239 --> 0:45:41.480 nothing kind of thing. Yeah, exactly, like just not taking 0:45:41.480 --> 0:45:43.560 it day by day sort of thing. It's always been 0:45:43.600 --> 0:45:46.480 an issue, but yeah, I think it's just talking it out. 0:45:46.640 --> 0:45:48.680 Is talking to out helps for sure? 0:45:49.120 --> 0:45:51.640 Yeah, I have this. I have the same thing where 0:45:52.280 --> 0:45:54.360 a part of me goes like should I need to 0:45:54.440 --> 0:45:57.279 go to like I just have I just always have 0:45:57.400 --> 0:46:00.520 this fucking thing in my head that makes the I 0:46:00.560 --> 0:46:05.040 saw some TikTok that was like there's people who kind 0:46:05.040 --> 0:46:09.000 of like settle into whatever it is they're doing out 0:46:09.000 --> 0:46:10.960 of college and they're like, Okay, you know, I'll just 0:46:11.040 --> 0:46:13.600 do this, and they do it for thirty years and 0:46:13.640 --> 0:46:16.839 then that's it. And then there's people who like every 0:46:16.840 --> 0:46:19.480 five years they just get this urged they're like seekers, 0:46:19.880 --> 0:46:21.800 Like every five years they just get this urge to 0:46:21.960 --> 0:46:26.480 like destroy their life and start in there. And I'm 0:46:26.600 --> 0:46:29.680 like that that's me. That's me. That's me to a 0:46:29.760 --> 0:46:33.719 tea and you and I've I've done that, and then 0:46:33.760 --> 0:46:36.440 I've come back and I've been like, wait, I shouldn't 0:46:36.520 --> 0:46:40.719 destroy my life. I got a good life. And I've 0:46:40.840 --> 0:46:44.640 over time figured out like, Okay, how do I do 0:46:44.719 --> 0:46:47.080 a little bit of both? How do I have make 0:46:47.200 --> 0:46:50.440 room for you know, how do I make room to 0:46:50.800 --> 0:46:56.200 like have bananas and you know, uh like a workout 0:46:56.280 --> 0:46:58.480 routine and like just live like a normal person. But 0:46:58.560 --> 0:47:02.560 then also you know, do random ship. And I've kind 0:47:02.600 --> 0:47:07.120 of tried to like overtime build something that really intentionally 0:47:07.120 --> 0:47:11.920 looked like that, And it's possible. So I don't think 0:47:11.960 --> 0:47:14.960 you have to be either. I don't think you have 0:47:15.000 --> 0:47:17.799 to either be a vagabond or a office worker. I 0:47:17.800 --> 0:47:20.719 think there's something in between. A lot of people do it. 0:47:21.920 --> 0:47:23.480 Yeah, no, you're right. 0:47:25.200 --> 0:47:27.960 Yeah did your did your girlfriend like the show? 0:47:29.320 --> 0:47:33.480 Yeah? Dude, it was fucking awesome. That girl, that girl 0:47:33.520 --> 0:47:35.600 Shane that came up on stage first and I know, yeah, 0:47:35.800 --> 0:47:38.960 that was wild. Yeah there, and then the other guy 0:47:39.000 --> 0:47:44.400 that got Yeah, I liked to him. I felt like 0:47:44.440 --> 0:47:45.960 we could be homies. Yeah. 0:47:46.000 --> 0:47:47.839 There was a girl that came on stage and talked 0:47:47.880 --> 0:47:51.080 about uh all of her. 0:47:51.080 --> 0:47:56.400 Like thinks that she's like I'm a something who Yeah. 0:47:56.239 --> 0:47:58.520 She said. She said that she was like addicted to 0:48:00.239 --> 0:48:03.160 like look it up with straight guys. And then like 0:48:03.480 --> 0:48:07.000 she told she talked about this like guy who was like, 0:48:09.200 --> 0:48:12.479 you know, gave he's he said, he like he gave 0:48:12.520 --> 0:48:17.480 her his home address and was like I'm gonna leave 0:48:17.480 --> 0:48:20.839 the door open, I'm gonna be blindfolded, face down, ass up, 0:48:21.239 --> 0:48:22.759 you come in and you do whatever you want. 0:48:24.080 --> 0:48:28.160 Yeah, that's it. I like his like his bravery and 0:48:29.280 --> 0:48:31.959 that guy's that guy's take on just taking the world 0:48:32.400 --> 0:48:32.919 face down. 0:48:33.440 --> 0:48:35.359 Yeah, no, that guy does. 0:48:35.440 --> 0:48:39.480 That guy is uh, he doesn't stress about where to travel. 0:48:39.560 --> 0:48:40.959 I bet I don't think he does. 0:48:41.200 --> 0:48:43.239 I agree with you, man, I don't think that's a 0:48:43.520 --> 0:48:46.480 really good take. Yeah, that's not a very neurotic guy. 0:48:47.560 --> 0:48:50.160 That's not an anxious person. The guy who just just 0:48:50.200 --> 0:48:53.360 like the door is unlocked, steal all my stuff? Who cares? 0:48:54.000 --> 0:48:57.040 Yeah, respect to him? Mm hmm. 0:48:57.320 --> 0:48:58.080 What's your name again? 0:48:58.120 --> 0:49:04.080 Man? I think Sean other Sean? Yeah, Sean Sean. 0:49:04.600 --> 0:49:08.040 Sean was good talking. I'm I'm glad I got to 0:49:08.080 --> 0:49:09.799 catch up with someone who was at that show because 0:49:09.800 --> 0:49:12.840 that was a fun time. And also, yeah, I I 0:49:13.320 --> 0:49:17.080 empathize with you on a lot of your thoughts and feelings. 0:49:17.120 --> 0:49:20.719 But I do. I hope that because it's totally the 0:49:20.800 --> 0:49:22.840 kind of thing that when you talk about it aloud, 0:49:22.920 --> 0:49:25.719 you're like, oh, I'm I'm, I'm. I was building it 0:49:25.800 --> 0:49:26.399 up in my head. 0:49:26.840 --> 0:49:29.680 So yeah, pretty much, pretty much. It was really helpful. 0:49:29.680 --> 0:49:30.399 I appreciate it. 0:49:30.600 --> 0:49:34.120 Good man. Is there anything else you want to say 0:49:34.160 --> 0:49:36.480 to the people of the computer before we go? 0:49:38.120 --> 0:49:41.120 Yeah? Would you mind if I possibly shouted out my Instagram. 0:49:41.280 --> 0:49:44.560 I'm an amateur mixed march, life, flighter and more following 0:49:44.680 --> 0:49:48.719 I have the the better it is for me. Yeah sure, 0:49:48.760 --> 0:49:53.160 go ahead, Yeah you follow me on Instagram STC four 0:49:53.280 --> 0:49:56.520 zero three Underscore. Really appreciate you guys, Love you guy. 0:49:56.560 --> 0:49:57.200 Thanks for everything you do. 0:49:57.280 --> 0:50:00.120 Whether have a good way real quick? Where Canada you 0:50:00.160 --> 0:50:02.359 actually from? Because I'm gonna I think next time I 0:50:02.360 --> 0:50:03.840 told where. I want to do more of the like 0:50:03.880 --> 0:50:06.560 I've done, like Vancouver and Toronto and ship, but I 0:50:06.560 --> 0:50:06.840 want to do. 0:50:07.120 --> 0:50:10.279 I'm in Alberta in Edmonton. You came to like you 0:50:10.280 --> 0:50:12.799 came to Edmonton. I live like two hours south of there. 0:50:13.120 --> 0:50:15.440 You should do like Red Deer or Calgary. I live 0:50:15.480 --> 0:50:17.200 in red Deer. It's between Edmonton and Calgary. But you 0:50:17.200 --> 0:50:20.080 should definitely do Calgary. Man, it's a beautiful city. You 0:50:20.280 --> 0:50:22.239 like it a lot more of Edmonton's offense Edmonton but 0:50:22.760 --> 0:50:23.319 sick sick. 0:50:23.400 --> 0:50:25.399 Yeah, Edmonton was a little depressed. I mean the show 0:50:25.520 --> 0:50:27.720 was great, but the city itself was a little depressing. 0:50:28.200 --> 0:50:29.560 Yeah, we call it Gotham City. 0:50:31.000 --> 0:50:39.279 But take care Sean, Thank you man, you too, bye, Bud. Now, 0:50:39.440 --> 0:50:47.719 Edmonton was cool. We went to the mall, the Edmonton mall. Oh, 0:50:47.800 --> 0:50:50.880 here's my favorite part of Edmonton for uh the A 0:50:51.000 --> 0:50:55.360 and W. We went to a fucking A and W 0:50:55.360 --> 0:50:59.840 where they put the mug like they put like a 0:50:59.840 --> 0:51:04.400 glass mug in the freezer and then they take it 0:51:04.440 --> 0:51:07.200 out and they pour the roopier in it. That's the 0:51:07.200 --> 0:51:09.800 best thing about the whole city is they got anw's everywhere. 0:51:09.960 --> 0:51:16.600 Tim Horton's Tim Hortons destroys, destroys the shit ass Starbucks. 0:51:16.640 --> 0:51:20.080 Fuck Starbuck. I haven't talked enough on this podcast about 0:51:20.080 --> 0:51:23.600 how much I hate Starbucks. And they give you the 0:51:23.640 --> 0:51:26.240 little They give you like a teeny little, eaty bitty 0:51:27.160 --> 0:51:30.200 like their idea of like a bacon, egg and cheese 0:51:30.200 --> 0:51:33.799 sandwich is like an eaty bitty English muffin with a 0:51:33.920 --> 0:51:37.000 little bit of cheese and sausage and whatever. It's like 0:51:37.040 --> 0:51:38.880 a tiny little circle. You can make it with your 0:51:38.920 --> 0:51:43.840 pointer finger and your thumb. Seven dollars, go fuck yourself, 0:51:43.880 --> 0:51:49.840 Tim Hortons. They'll give you diabetes for three Canadian dollars. 0:51:49.880 --> 0:51:57.719 That's like one American penny. It's great. Hey, what's up? 0:51:57.760 --> 0:52:02.120 Everybody has a going It's Lyle and I'm here to 0:52:02.719 --> 0:52:05.640 end the episode by reading some viewer mail. But before 0:52:05.680 --> 0:52:08.200 I do that, I want to do a little thing. 0:52:08.239 --> 0:52:09.520 I want to let you guys know that I am 0:52:09.600 --> 0:52:14.240 currently in the process of planning another tour for twenty 0:52:14.560 --> 0:52:18.960 twenty six. This would be my fourth time taking Therapy 0:52:19.000 --> 0:52:22.480 Gecko on the road. I'm really excited to get back 0:52:22.520 --> 0:52:25.760 out there. I took a long break from doing shows 0:52:26.040 --> 0:52:30.000 and I feel like I've had adequate time to rest 0:52:30.040 --> 0:52:32.399 and chill and now I'm ready to get back out 0:52:32.440 --> 0:52:36.840 there and hit you guys with some stories from my 0:52:36.960 --> 0:52:40.480 life and combine that with some stories from the audience's 0:52:40.560 --> 0:52:43.840 life and you have a good time and do some shows. 0:52:43.880 --> 0:52:47.480 So if the idea of coming to a live show 0:52:47.640 --> 0:52:53.120 interests you, you can click the link in the episode description. 0:52:53.360 --> 0:52:56.000 I have a link that allows you to sign up 0:52:56.040 --> 0:52:59.239 for a text alert. It's very helpful to get the 0:52:59.280 --> 0:53:01.200 word out to people about the shows. If you sign 0:53:01.280 --> 0:53:04.239 up for a text alert, that will let you know 0:53:04.760 --> 0:53:08.200 when I am coming to your city, and it will 0:53:08.239 --> 0:53:10.920 let you know when I drop the tour dates. So 0:53:11.920 --> 0:53:14.800 go in the link of the go into the episode 0:53:14.800 --> 0:53:17.720 description of the podcast. I don't know why I'm stumbling 0:53:17.719 --> 0:53:19.600 over my words today, but go into the episode description 0:53:19.719 --> 0:53:22.680 of the podcast. Put your phone number or email in 0:53:22.719 --> 0:53:25.000 there so that I can let you know when I'm 0:53:25.040 --> 0:53:28.600 coming to your city in twenty twenty six, and especially 0:53:28.640 --> 0:53:30.640 if you live in New York City, because I'm going 0:53:30.719 --> 0:53:33.920 to try to start up a kind of a regular 0:53:34.040 --> 0:53:37.040 recurring show between now and that tour to kind of 0:53:37.080 --> 0:53:42.800 get some material together and practice being back on stage. 0:53:42.840 --> 0:53:49.799 But anyway, let's get into some GEK mails. This is 0:53:51.200 --> 0:53:57.480 from Marcos. Subject line, I ran my first marathon with 0:53:57.560 --> 0:54:02.640 my sixty two year old day. Hello, GHEK, I hope 0:54:02.640 --> 0:54:05.520 you were doing all right. We had talked before. I 0:54:05.600 --> 0:54:10.120 was the caller who destroyed your optimism with the metaglasses convo. 0:54:10.520 --> 0:54:13.520 I think I remember that. I think there was a 0:54:13.560 --> 0:54:17.040 conversation where I was being optimistic about the rejection of 0:54:17.080 --> 0:54:20.920 new technology, and then you told me about the metaglasses 0:54:20.920 --> 0:54:23.839 and I was like, Okay, well we're fucked anyway. On 0:54:23.880 --> 0:54:26.759 October fifth, I ran the Twin Cities Marathon with my 0:54:26.840 --> 0:54:30.440 father and two brothers. My father has ran many before 0:54:30.480 --> 0:54:32.719 in his prime, and he's always wanted to run one 0:54:32.800 --> 0:54:35.680 with his three sons. That was my main motivation to 0:54:35.719 --> 0:54:38.719 sign up. Oh that's cute. So I start training in 0:54:38.800 --> 0:54:41.239 January and I was very impressed with how far I 0:54:41.280 --> 0:54:44.520 can run. I felt limitless, as if I awoke a 0:54:44.600 --> 0:54:47.920 new potential within me. Race day came and I felt 0:54:47.920 --> 0:54:52.640 hella nervous. Everything was going fine until mile nineteen. I 0:54:52.680 --> 0:54:55.080 was lagging behind and they had started taking down the 0:54:55.120 --> 0:54:58.120 mile markers. So for the next six miles I had 0:54:58.200 --> 0:55:01.200 no idea how much further go, and I was in 0:55:01.239 --> 0:55:04.440 all sorts of pain. My mom decided to join me 0:55:04.640 --> 0:55:06.920 and my dad on the last portion of the race 0:55:07.120 --> 0:55:09.520 to motivate us. Thankfully, I made it to the finish 0:55:09.600 --> 0:55:12.880 line with one last sprint. I finished in seven hours 0:55:12.880 --> 0:55:15.600 and thirty minutes, and I would do it again. Oh shit, man, 0:55:15.800 --> 0:55:20.600 seven hours of running. That's cray AT's crazy. Shout out 0:55:20.600 --> 0:55:22.200 to my wife for supporting me the whole time. Shout 0:55:22.200 --> 0:55:23.560 out to my family for being there at the end 0:55:23.560 --> 0:55:28.040 of the finish line. Congratulations Marcos, that's cool. I don't 0:55:28.080 --> 0:55:31.360 know why I'm making everything about me, but I'd like 0:55:31.400 --> 0:55:33.520 to run a marathon one day. I don't know. I 0:55:33.560 --> 0:55:35.080 don't know if I'm ever gonna do that. I don't 0:55:35.120 --> 0:55:39.120 like running. I like walking like I would I could easily. 0:55:39.600 --> 0:55:42.440 I mean, I don't know about easily. But like if 0:55:42.440 --> 0:55:44.319 you were like, hey, you want to go on a 0:55:44.360 --> 0:55:47.640 fifty mile walk, I'd be like, sure, that sounds like 0:55:47.760 --> 0:55:48.439 it could be fun. 0:55:48.920 --> 0:55:49.120 You know. 0:55:49.239 --> 0:55:52.239 I like a nice pace, but a run is like 0:55:52.320 --> 0:55:55.960 if I don't have anything to run from, I don't 0:55:55.960 --> 0:55:58.960 really want to run, but I'm glad that you did it. 0:55:58.960 --> 0:56:01.920 Someone's got to do it. Think. You know what always 0:56:01.920 --> 0:56:07.560 confused me is the like like the breast cancer awareness 0:56:07.880 --> 0:56:10.440 walks and like not specifically breast cancer, but you know 0:56:10.480 --> 0:56:14.000 what I mean, where it's like walk for diabetes, walk 0:56:14.120 --> 0:56:17.759 for cancer type of stuff, like when we were growing up. 0:56:17.840 --> 0:56:20.120 I'm sure they still do it, but because I always 0:56:20.120 --> 0:56:22.200 thought I was like when I was a kid, I 0:56:22.200 --> 0:56:29.160 thought that somehow the walking itself cured the cancer. And 0:56:29.200 --> 0:56:31.360 now I realized, no, you pay. I think this is 0:56:31.360 --> 0:56:33.200 how it works. You pay. I've never ran one of 0:56:33.239 --> 0:56:36.839 these things, but you pay money and then you do 0:56:36.880 --> 0:56:40.480 the walk, and then they donate the money to like 0:56:40.520 --> 0:56:43.759 a cancer research place. But don't wouldn't You don't have 0:56:43.840 --> 0:56:46.399 to do the walk, You can just do the give 0:56:46.440 --> 0:56:52.920 the money. It should be called money for should be 0:56:52.960 --> 0:56:57.120 called money for cancer, folks. I'm going on tour. It's 0:56:57.120 --> 0:57:01.040 gonna be great now. I'm yeah, that sounds uh, sounds good. 0:57:01.080 --> 0:57:08.560 I'm glad you did that. Okay. Interesting. This is from Shade, 0:57:09.520 --> 0:57:15.040 subject line unhappiness while happy. Hey, Lyle, I've been wanting 0:57:15.080 --> 0:57:17.840 to message you forever. You can read my silly email 0:57:17.920 --> 0:57:22.000 name if you'd like. But I'll go by Timothy. Okay, 0:57:22.040 --> 0:57:24.240 I'll call you Timothy. I have everything a man could 0:57:24.320 --> 0:57:28.480 say they want, but I'm pretty chronically unhappy. I have 0:57:28.520 --> 0:57:32.480 a fiance and we had a baby recently. She's a 0:57:32.560 --> 0:57:34.960 year and a half old and the light of my life. 0:57:35.120 --> 0:57:38.200 And we have two cats and a dog. The worst 0:57:38.200 --> 0:57:41.840 thing about my living situation is living with my fiance's mom, 0:57:42.160 --> 0:57:45.680 who is seventy and always talks in a baby voice 0:57:45.800 --> 0:57:49.160 and pushes boundaries by always just being in our grill 0:57:49.480 --> 0:57:53.760 and being Hella overbearing. I live in Texas, where weed 0:57:54.120 --> 0:57:57.360 is illegal. I got in trouble twice consecutively for the 0:57:57.400 --> 0:58:01.040 Penjamin and Bud after that six year to all I 0:58:01.080 --> 0:58:03.640 wanted to do when I was twenty six and done 0:58:03.640 --> 0:58:08.000 with that was travel. Wait, hold on, after that six 0:58:08.120 --> 0:58:11.800 year debacle, did you get did you get thrown in jail? 0:58:13.200 --> 0:58:15.160 What is the six year debacle? I'm gonna assume you 0:58:15.160 --> 0:58:18.040 got thrown in jail, but I don't. Okay, anyway, all 0:58:18.040 --> 0:58:19.360 I wanted to do when I was twenty six and 0:58:19.400 --> 0:58:21.600 done with that was travel. I've already traveled a lot 0:58:21.640 --> 0:58:23.560 as a kid to New York and London, but not 0:58:23.720 --> 0:58:26.120 nearly as much as I wanted to. But almost right 0:58:26.160 --> 0:58:28.920 after I got off probation, Okay, there it is, I 0:58:28.920 --> 0:58:31.720 got with my fiance and we made our baby. Who 0:58:31.800 --> 0:58:35.600 is my mini me. That's cute. I have a chronic 0:58:35.720 --> 0:58:39.720 case of wanderlust, and I'm diagnosed to bipolar, depressive and 0:58:39.760 --> 0:58:44.000 an insomniac. I deal with this by smoking and drinking constantly. 0:58:44.440 --> 0:58:46.440 I know it's a terrible way to self medicate, and 0:58:46.480 --> 0:58:49.400 I need to probably just get on meds like you 0:58:49.920 --> 0:58:55.640 instead of killing my liver faster with alcohol. I'm not 0:58:55.680 --> 0:59:02.560 on any SSRIs. I take stimulants and they're fucking great. 0:59:02.720 --> 0:59:07.720 But anyway, but I've also had a plenty of times 0:59:07.760 --> 0:59:12.120 where I was trying to where I also self medicate, 0:59:12.360 --> 0:59:17.680 uh severely with you know, weed and alcohol and masturbation. 0:59:17.960 --> 0:59:22.200 So you know, I mean we can we can kind 0:59:22.200 --> 0:59:25.200 of go eye to eye on this. Uh, I probably 0:59:25.240 --> 0:59:27.280 need to get on meds, like you instead of killing 0:59:27.280 --> 0:59:29.880 my liver faster with alcohol. But it's a remedy that's 0:59:30.040 --> 0:59:33.320 right there, and it's become habitual. That's the dude. That's 0:59:33.360 --> 0:59:35.440 one of the hardest things about like taking fucking meds 0:59:35.480 --> 0:59:37.240 is you go to the doctor and the doctor's like, Okay, 0:59:37.320 --> 0:59:42.560 we have a thing and it might make your situation 0:59:42.760 --> 0:59:47.560 a little bit better or it might make it way worse, 0:59:47.960 --> 0:59:50.320 and you have to take it for three months to 0:59:50.360 --> 0:59:53.840 find out. That's what getting on SSRIs is like. And 0:59:53.880 --> 0:59:57.560 then and then alcohol is like, hey, you want to 0:59:57.600 --> 0:59:59.720 make that you want to make that ship stop right 1:00:00.080 --> 1:00:03.120 fucking now. Obviously you know it's not a good idea 1:00:03.160 --> 1:00:06.479 you go into, you go into a form of emotional debt. 1:00:06.560 --> 1:00:08.120 But again I'm not gonna say I don't get it. 1:00:10.120 --> 1:00:12.640 I yearn for the empty roads, for the sites, for 1:00:12.680 --> 1:00:14.880 the feeling of living something I should have at a 1:00:14.920 --> 1:00:19.200 younger age. I'm only twenty nine now, but in eighteen years, 1:00:19.240 --> 1:00:21.760 when my baby is bigger, I'll be damned near fifty. 1:00:22.240 --> 1:00:24.640 My life as a kid was pretty traumatic, so substance 1:00:24.640 --> 1:00:27.440 abuse issues when I was a kid were prevalent. But 1:00:27.480 --> 1:00:30.200 now it's just the beer. My dad died drinking and 1:00:30.280 --> 1:00:32.960 driving when I was eight, and my dad's dad was 1:00:33.000 --> 1:00:36.760 a Vietnam vet who had PTSD and hardcore depression. He 1:00:36.880 --> 1:00:40.560 drank himself to cirrhosis of the liver. I can't follow 1:00:40.600 --> 1:00:43.680 these assholes to a young grave, mostly for my daughter, 1:00:43.920 --> 1:00:46.320 but also I always told myself i'd break the cycle, 1:00:46.600 --> 1:00:48.920 and here I am looking my daughter in the face, 1:00:49.360 --> 1:00:52.000 debating when to take the first drink of the night, 1:00:52.360 --> 1:00:54.800 closer to bedtime. I have a lot more to talk about, 1:00:54.800 --> 1:00:56.680 and this isn't laid out the best, but Thanksghek for 1:00:56.680 --> 1:00:58.920 everything you do. I've been listening for five years and 1:00:58.960 --> 1:01:07.440 any advice would be great. Hmmm, you know, well a 1:01:07.440 --> 1:01:10.760 few things. I mean, this is definitely real therapist stuff. 1:01:10.760 --> 1:01:17.000 But I do have thoughts, you know, I will have 1:01:17.000 --> 1:01:19.000 a lot of I have a lot of thoughts. Why. 1:01:19.240 --> 1:01:23.360 I want to know, why are you unhappy? Because I'm 1:01:23.400 --> 1:01:25.240 thinking about times in my life where I've like self 1:01:25.280 --> 1:01:29.560 medicated with alcohol or weed er whatever it is, and 1:01:29.600 --> 1:01:32.040 it's because I was unhappier because I was really stressed, 1:01:33.000 --> 1:01:37.080 and you know, like you said, it's right fucking there, 1:01:38.080 --> 1:01:43.880 you know, and then all these like external the mere 1:01:44.280 --> 1:01:47.520 presence of external things in your life, like your fiance 1:01:47.680 --> 1:01:51.440 and your baby and your your job and whatever. It like, 1:01:51.480 --> 1:01:56.320 the mere presence of positive external things in your life 1:01:56.720 --> 1:02:04.440 is useless if you can't if you don't have the 1:02:04.560 --> 1:02:10.240 internal shit figured out to like appreciate them and like 1:02:10.480 --> 1:02:16.440 dive into them, you know. I mean it also sounds 1:02:16.440 --> 1:02:18.960 like you. I mean, yeah, you definitely have some kind 1:02:19.040 --> 1:02:25.400 of like biological issue going on that you've got to 1:02:25.440 --> 1:02:31.000 talk to a professional about. And I'm trying to think 1:02:31.040 --> 1:02:34.800 of like advice just from my own experience of like 1:02:36.120 --> 1:02:44.160 depression and substance shit. I mean, you're definitely you're doing 1:02:44.160 --> 1:02:46.120 way better than your dad and your dad's dad did, 1:02:46.320 --> 1:02:49.320 doing way better, doing way better than your dad and 1:02:49.360 --> 1:02:52.680 your dad's dad did a because you're not I hope 1:02:52.680 --> 1:02:59.000 you're not drinking and driving. You're not dead, and you see, 1:02:59.040 --> 1:03:00.680 I don't know something about I don't know your dad. 1:03:00.720 --> 1:03:02.440 I don't know your dad's dad. But I don't know 1:03:02.480 --> 1:03:05.120 if your dad and your dad's dad ever had the 1:03:05.160 --> 1:03:08.600 self awareness to, you know, send an email to a 1:03:08.720 --> 1:03:11.560 lizard asking for advice, you know. I mean, that's a 1:03:11.560 --> 1:03:14.560 bare minimum amount of self awareness that it seems like 1:03:14.600 --> 1:03:16.880 you have. And I and that's the whole thing, right. 1:03:16.920 --> 1:03:18.760 It's like knowing you have a problem as part of 1:03:19.680 --> 1:03:23.520 solving the problem. So that's good. You seem to know 1:03:23.760 --> 1:03:28.280 a lot about yourself, Timothy. You seem to know a 1:03:28.320 --> 1:03:32.720 lot about yourself, which is great because some people they're 1:03:32.760 --> 1:03:35.280 just floating right, Like, you know, you're just getting drunk 1:03:35.320 --> 1:03:37.880 just because there's nothing else to do, and you're fucking 1:03:37.960 --> 1:03:40.560 floating and you're you know, just feel like you're drowning. 1:03:40.720 --> 1:03:44.520 But you got a lot of good information. You know, 1:03:45.680 --> 1:03:48.480 you know that what you're experiencing is part of a 1:03:48.520 --> 1:03:52.640 cycle from your family. You know that you love your daughter. 1:03:52.800 --> 1:03:55.440 Some people don't know that. Some people don't Some people 1:03:55.760 --> 1:03:57.120 like look at their kid and they're like, I don't 1:03:57.120 --> 1:03:59.680 know if I like if I love this kid, or 1:03:59.720 --> 1:04:02.080 some people look at their significant other and they're like, 1:04:02.120 --> 1:04:04.040 I don't know about this person. But you see, you know, 1:04:04.240 --> 1:04:08.040 I could tell that. You know, you know that you 1:04:08.160 --> 1:04:16.720 like to travel. That's great. You know what you don't want? 1:04:16.880 --> 1:04:20.160 You know you want to be a good dad. You 1:04:20.200 --> 1:04:22.440 know you want to be a good husband. You know 1:04:22.520 --> 1:04:24.880 you want to you know, you want to get better. 1:04:25.160 --> 1:04:28.320 That's the thing. Some people don't want to get better. 1:04:28.600 --> 1:04:30.160 Or they don't even know what to f they don't 1:04:30.160 --> 1:04:34.120 even have like rolls to slip in, Like that's a 1:04:34.120 --> 1:04:37.160 big thing that people get the just people get lost 1:04:37.240 --> 1:04:42.160 to you know, they don't have a they don't have 1:04:42.320 --> 1:04:44.320 somebody to be a good father to or to be 1:04:44.360 --> 1:04:49.320 a good husband to, or they don't have a thing 1:04:49.400 --> 1:04:54.439 in life to even like show up to. But you've 1:04:54.440 --> 1:04:57.320 got some stuff that you know in your gut is 1:04:57.560 --> 1:05:03.280 worth showing up to. And so if I had to 1:05:03.280 --> 1:05:06.880 give any advice to this email, I would say like, well, okay, 1:05:07.040 --> 1:05:11.320 you know, make a list or at least a mental 1:05:11.320 --> 1:05:14.160 note of these things that you want to be and 1:05:14.200 --> 1:05:20.560 you want to show up to and go from there, 1:05:21.720 --> 1:05:23.640 because I don't think I don't know if you can 1:05:23.880 --> 1:05:27.320 just I'm not a life coach or anything like that, 1:05:27.360 --> 1:05:28.960 but I'm just like talking out of my ass here. 1:05:28.960 --> 1:05:32.040 But I don't know if you can just like stop 1:05:33.920 --> 1:05:38.840 drinking or stop whatever your negative behavior is. I think, 1:05:39.200 --> 1:05:43.040 at least in my case, I've always had to replace 1:05:43.080 --> 1:05:46.560 it with something else. Like if I'm like, for example, 1:05:46.560 --> 1:05:51.840 if I'm addicted to porn, I'm addicted to like whatever 1:05:51.840 --> 1:05:54.560 it is, and I'll notice if I'm in the if 1:05:54.600 --> 1:05:59.040 I'm doing something that's positive, or I'm like fulfilling one 1:05:59.080 --> 1:06:02.400 of my positive values or whatnot. I'll be like, oh shit, 1:06:02.480 --> 1:06:07.760 it's been two days since I've jacked off and I 1:06:07.800 --> 1:06:12.160 didn't even have to try, you know, because you're busy 1:06:12.200 --> 1:06:16.560 on something else. I think that wander lust shit, because 1:06:16.560 --> 1:06:18.480 I have that too. I think that comes from like 1:06:18.560 --> 1:06:21.600 a we talked about it early in your episode, like 1:06:21.640 --> 1:06:28.840 you want to fuck the world, you know, and sometimes 1:06:30.080 --> 1:06:32.440 sometimes they just want you need a change of state, 1:06:32.560 --> 1:06:35.440 or you're just like, dude, I'm trying to verbally express 1:06:35.480 --> 1:06:37.320 a feeling I have in my gut right now, and 1:06:37.360 --> 1:06:41.960 maybe some people understand it. But like, yeah, sometimes that 1:06:42.040 --> 1:06:44.000 manifests in like beautiful stuff and the other times that 1:06:44.040 --> 1:06:53.160 manifests in fucking drinking yourself to death. But shit, that 1:06:53.240 --> 1:06:55.520 was a whole rant and ponder. I don't know if 1:06:55.520 --> 1:06:57.320 those I don't know if this was helpful to you 1:06:57.400 --> 1:07:05.920 in any way, Timothy, but hmmm, that's my takeaway. I 1:07:05.960 --> 1:07:07.520 don't know if this is helpful for you just having 1:07:07.520 --> 1:07:10.800 somebody else read this, But my main takeaway from this 1:07:11.000 --> 1:07:14.680 is that in your email, you have lined, you have 1:07:14.720 --> 1:07:18.360 outlined things that you care about, and so you have 1:07:18.400 --> 1:07:24.960 a direction. I can't give you advice on I I 1:07:24.960 --> 1:07:27.400 can't give you advice on how to move in that direction, 1:07:27.920 --> 1:07:30.160 but I can just tell you my perspective reading this 1:07:30.240 --> 1:07:33.080 email is that you have a direction, which is more 1:07:33.120 --> 1:07:37.400 than most people have. So you know, take a look 1:07:37.400 --> 1:07:43.000 at that. I hope that was helpful. Okay, Oh, here's this. 1:07:43.120 --> 1:07:49.160 Oh I read this one off off the mic, just 1:07:49.200 --> 1:07:50.440 like when I was I was just look at the 1:07:50.480 --> 1:07:52.880 get mail on my phone and I thought it was 1:07:52.920 --> 1:07:54.760 really funny. I took a screenshot of this and I 1:07:54.800 --> 1:07:58.120 sent it to my group chat with my friends. That 1:07:58.200 --> 1:08:05.000 got nine laugh reacts. Okay, this is from Tom subject 1:08:05.240 --> 1:08:07.720 and this is from Tom. It just says, Hey, GEK, 1:08:08.280 --> 1:08:11.920 just wondering why every episode is about sex lately everyone 1:08:11.960 --> 1:08:15.120 just talks about sex. There isn't any therapy happening here. 1:08:15.680 --> 1:08:19.000 Just talking about sex. Used to be really cool and 1:08:19.120 --> 1:08:23.160 interesting stories told. Now it's just sex. Hope it gets 1:08:23.240 --> 1:08:30.519 interesting soon. Exclamation points. I don't know what to tell you, Tom. 1:08:30.600 --> 1:08:33.160 People really, people really like having sex. It's one of 1:08:33.200 --> 1:08:40.920 the main things. It's it's it's real. Sex is really 1:08:40.960 --> 1:08:46.360 our only it's the only like logistical meaning of life. 1:08:47.760 --> 1:08:51.320 I think because we're humans. We try to kind of 1:08:51.320 --> 1:08:53.800 come up with other things and they always end up 1:08:53.880 --> 1:08:58.760 leading back to sex. But yeah, that's what that's like. 1:08:58.800 --> 1:09:05.160 Our biological function, stay alive, reproduce. Humans are interesting. We 1:09:05.200 --> 1:09:08.519 figured out a way to reproduce without the baby part. 1:09:09.439 --> 1:09:12.760 Isn't that interesting? We were like, wait, this just feels good. 1:09:12.840 --> 1:09:18.000 Let's just do it without the whole having a baby part. 1:09:18.920 --> 1:09:23.880 Isn't that crazy? Like biologically we're supposed to reproduce once. Well, 1:09:23.880 --> 1:09:27.360 I guess I don't like biologically, every time you have sex, 1:09:29.120 --> 1:09:33.479 the purpose is to make a baby, cald You imagine 1:09:33.520 --> 1:09:36.160 if every time you had sex you made a baby. 1:09:37.280 --> 1:09:40.280 That's what they used to do. But we're geniuses. We 1:09:40.400 --> 1:09:45.559 meant to condoms, we meant to contraceptives, and we were like, 1:09:45.600 --> 1:09:48.840 let's just do it just for fun. And so people 1:09:48.880 --> 1:09:52.000 are having fun. Now it's fun to you should try 1:09:52.000 --> 1:09:58.640 having sex, Thomas. It's nice. I'm not even I'm not 1:09:58.680 --> 1:10:01.640 saying that as like a diss too. You you might have 1:10:01.680 --> 1:10:04.000 a lot of se you might have. I actually think 1:10:04.200 --> 1:10:10.360 this this emailer has so much sex that the reason 1:10:10.400 --> 1:10:12.600 they're tired of hearing about people talk about sex in 1:10:12.640 --> 1:10:15.840 the podcast is because they're like, I have sex so 1:10:15.960 --> 1:10:18.800 much in my regular life. I listen to the Therapy Gecko 1:10:18.840 --> 1:10:22.840 podcast to get away from sex. And in that case, Tom, 1:10:22.880 --> 1:10:25.479 I'm I'm sorry, but you know, out of control what 1:10:25.479 --> 1:10:28.559 people say on here. I mean, I kind of do 1:10:29.760 --> 1:10:33.880 a little bit. I you know, I'll edit out calls 1:10:33.880 --> 1:10:35.519 that I don't want to put in the podcast. But 1:10:37.360 --> 1:10:43.120 you know, sex is a universal concept. It's not even 1:10:43.240 --> 1:10:47.559 like a human universal concept. It's like a biological universal concept. 1:10:47.680 --> 1:10:50.120 So you know it's going to come up. That's all 1:10:50.120 --> 1:10:55.479 I'm saying. This is from Rolin subject line twenty six 1:10:55.600 --> 1:10:59.960 years old without social media, high Gecko. I'm a twenty 1:11:00.080 --> 1:11:02.320 six year old male and I'm lit, and I no 1:11:02.400 --> 1:11:06.000 longer have social media or scroll away hours of my 1:11:06.120 --> 1:11:09.320 life on my phone. It's come with its drawbacks, but 1:11:09.439 --> 1:11:12.400 not really the ones you'd think. I've gotten a lot 1:11:12.400 --> 1:11:14.320 of my friends and family telling me to get off 1:11:14.320 --> 1:11:16.639 my high horse, and I'm just trying to be different 1:11:16.680 --> 1:11:20.639 and better than all of them. What that's crazy, By 1:11:20.680 --> 1:11:22.920 the way, you are better than all of them. I 1:11:22.920 --> 1:11:24.920 want you to know something. If you and this goes 1:11:24.960 --> 1:11:29.240 to everyone, if you don't have social media, you you 1:11:29.320 --> 1:11:32.920 are better than everyone else. If you don't have social 1:11:32.960 --> 1:11:38.720 media and you don't eat meat, and you run five 1:11:38.760 --> 1:11:40.200 miles a day and you. 1:11:43.479 --> 1:11:44.360 Like eat. 1:11:45.840 --> 1:11:49.080 Like fruits and vegetables, you are You're better than everyone else. 1:11:49.160 --> 1:11:54.120 You are objectively much better of a human being. If 1:11:54.160 --> 1:11:56.240 you like, if you give to charity, like you just 1:11:56.360 --> 1:11:58.320 you just are you're better human being than everyone else. 1:11:59.320 --> 1:12:02.160 And I think, I think you get to be. I 1:12:02.160 --> 1:12:04.519 think the reward because it's a lot of work being 1:12:04.600 --> 1:12:10.000 better than everyone else. And you know, it's a lot 1:12:10.040 --> 1:12:15.200 of work to remove yourself from your vices and like 1:12:15.320 --> 1:12:17.800 try to do the things you're supposed to do. And 1:12:17.880 --> 1:12:19.680 part of the reward of that is that you just 1:12:19.680 --> 1:12:21.519 get you get to be better than everyone else. It's 1:12:21.560 --> 1:12:26.040 a it's a totally totally fair system. That's why I 1:12:26.080 --> 1:12:28.760 don't care. I don't care if someone is pretentious to 1:12:28.840 --> 1:12:33.439 me about their achievements or about like like if you 1:12:33.560 --> 1:12:35.599 if we're talking and you're acting like you're better than 1:12:35.600 --> 1:12:37.479 me because you don't eat meatia, you don't have social 1:12:37.520 --> 1:12:41.479 media or whatever virtual or you read whatever virtue thing is. 1:12:41.560 --> 1:12:43.840 I don't get offended at all. I think you're right 1:12:44.760 --> 1:12:48.080 and you deserve to be able to do that. But 1:12:48.120 --> 1:12:50.080 I also also, Rolin, I don't know you, but I 1:12:50.120 --> 1:12:51.680 think you're a good guy. I don't even think you're 1:12:51.680 --> 1:12:56.599 being a dick about it, which fucking makes you even better. 1:12:57.640 --> 1:12:58.080 That makes you. 1:12:58.160 --> 1:13:00.439 Oh my god, Roland, you're so much better than everyone 1:13:00.439 --> 1:13:02.439 else because I can tell you're not being a dick 1:13:02.479 --> 1:13:05.400 about it when you are well within your right to 1:13:05.400 --> 1:13:11.320 be a dick about it. I'm impressed by you, Rolin. Okay, 1:13:11.360 --> 1:13:13.320 let me finish reading, then email. I don't think that's 1:13:13.320 --> 1:13:15.960 the case. I'm not like the annoying, overbearing preacher telling 1:13:15.960 --> 1:13:18.439 people they must stop scrolling or they were perish in 1:13:18.439 --> 1:13:20.840 the depths of hell. They can do what they want. 1:13:20.880 --> 1:13:22.840 I just don't want to waste any more of my time. 1:13:23.200 --> 1:13:25.000 I guess what really bothers me is that whenever someone 1:13:25.040 --> 1:13:27.240 asks for my social media, I say I don't have 1:13:27.320 --> 1:13:31.679 social media, and apparently that's a red flag. Hold on, Okay, 1:13:31.760 --> 1:13:34.400 you don't know this because you don't have social media rollin, 1:13:34.720 --> 1:13:38.439 But like, dude, there's a phenomenon going on. I've both 1:13:38.520 --> 1:13:41.280 seen it on TikTok and I've like talked to people 1:13:41.320 --> 1:13:51.840 about it, where like women want a man with no 1:13:52.800 --> 1:13:57.040 social media, and I've some people have. I don't think 1:13:57.080 --> 1:14:00.599 this is true. I don't think this is like in general, 1:14:00.600 --> 1:14:03.240 but I've talked to a lot of people lately who 1:14:03.280 --> 1:14:06.920 are like, I want a boyfriend with no friends who 1:14:06.960 --> 1:14:11.160 plays sudoku in his room alone. I think there's a 1:14:11.200 --> 1:14:12.720 lot of people who don't want that, but there's a 1:14:12.760 --> 1:14:15.679 certain but like, actually, I think a lot of people 1:14:15.760 --> 1:14:18.080 find that attractive, or like I'll see some TikTok where 1:14:18.080 --> 1:14:22.400 it's like manifesting this and it's like an Instagram account 1:14:22.439 --> 1:14:26.240 with no posts, no followers, and no one they're following. 1:14:27.000 --> 1:14:30.360 So I don't think it's a red flag necessarily. Also 1:14:30.400 --> 1:14:32.559 when I'm also like, I mean that whatever I gave 1:14:32.600 --> 1:14:34.680 the dating aspect of it, but also like, if I 1:14:34.760 --> 1:14:37.080 meet someone and they say they don't have any social media, 1:14:37.320 --> 1:14:42.479 I immediately find them. I immediately am like, oh, you 1:14:42.720 --> 1:14:44.960 actually genuinely are di from for everyone else. You're way 1:14:44.960 --> 1:14:47.760 more interesting. I want to talk to you. You have 1:14:47.840 --> 1:14:53.519 more interesting thoughts. I just believe that, So it's a 1:14:53.560 --> 1:14:58.680 green flag. The follow up question is why don't you 1:14:58.720 --> 1:15:00.320 have it? It bothers me because if I don't have 1:15:00.320 --> 1:15:02.280 a real answer that makes any sense, Yes, you do, 1:15:04.000 --> 1:15:05.960 you totally have a real answer that makes sense as 1:15:06.000 --> 1:15:07.120 to why you don't have it. You don't have it 1:15:07.120 --> 1:15:11.840 because it's a waste of your life. You don't have 1:15:11.840 --> 1:15:15.320 it because it makes you It increases depression, and it 1:15:15.360 --> 1:15:18.000 makes you compare your life to everyone else instead of 1:15:18.040 --> 1:15:21.320 living your own life. It wastes a ton of time. 1:15:21.360 --> 1:15:24.519 It makes you fucking anxious. Dude. The most calm I 1:15:24.680 --> 1:15:27.519 fucking feel is if I go like a few days 1:15:27.520 --> 1:15:29.720 without looking at my phone. My phone makes me so 1:15:29.880 --> 1:15:33.559 fucking anxious. And we know it too, and we just 1:15:33.680 --> 1:15:40.600 keep doing it. Sincerely, a social digital ghoes somewhere in 1:15:40.600 --> 1:15:44.120 the middle of Canada. That would be depressing to me. 1:15:45.040 --> 1:15:46.840 I was just in the middle of Canada at a 1:15:46.840 --> 1:15:52.600 fun time. But it's too isolated from other people. I 1:15:52.600 --> 1:15:55.360 think the Yeah, if you can just be around real 1:15:55.439 --> 1:16:00.160 human beings, then you're good. I mean, have a phone, 1:16:00.640 --> 1:16:06.280 have like a phone number, have a notes app. But 1:16:06.520 --> 1:16:09.479 you're not missing anything, man, You're not missing an It's like, 1:16:11.120 --> 1:16:12.439 I mean, whatever, I don't want to be the eight 1:16:12.560 --> 1:16:14.559 hundredth person to go on this ramp. But it's like 1:16:15.200 --> 1:16:20.400 we're just getting programmed, dude, We're just getting programmed. You 1:16:20.840 --> 1:16:24.200 have a fresh, interesting mind. You're not programmed by anything. 1:16:26.120 --> 1:16:32.400 Oh rollin. Your friends and family suck, dude. No, they 1:16:32.760 --> 1:16:33.960 I don't know. I don't know them. I don't want 1:16:33.960 --> 1:16:37.160 to say that, but I will say that you're better 1:16:37.160 --> 1:16:43.599 than all of them. I'll say that with confidence. All right, 1:16:43.720 --> 1:16:48.519 let's do a couple more emails. Subject line I did 1:16:48.600 --> 1:16:51.719 copious amounts of Molly that I was meant to sell. 1:16:52.640 --> 1:16:55.800 What's up? Ghek reezi Here, I'll get into it. My 1:16:56.040 --> 1:16:59.280 friend got married in September of twenty twenty two. That 1:16:59.400 --> 1:17:03.160 same night was first introduced to Molly. I remember my 1:17:03.240 --> 1:17:06.680 friend telling me, whatever I do, do not take it 1:17:06.760 --> 1:17:11.439 alone in my bedroom. Why so I did, and soon 1:17:11.520 --> 1:17:15.680 regretted it after I began overthinking and hyperventilating because I 1:17:15.720 --> 1:17:18.840 had zero knowledge on what the substance would do to me. Okay, 1:17:18.840 --> 1:17:21.559 that makes sense. After a few minutes, I managed to 1:17:21.600 --> 1:17:24.759 calm down by listening to music. I left my house 1:17:24.840 --> 1:17:27.559 and crashed at a friend's place. He was pretty chill 1:17:27.600 --> 1:17:32.000 about the situation. October was rolling around, No pun intended. 1:17:32.040 --> 1:17:33.720 That was me saying that no pun intended. He did 1:17:33.800 --> 1:17:38.680 not write no pun intended. October was rolling around, and 1:17:38.720 --> 1:17:40.479 it was time for me to go back to college. 1:17:40.720 --> 1:17:43.640 Here's where things get messy. I asked my friend for 1:17:43.720 --> 1:17:45.400 another one to take with me to college, and then 1:17:45.400 --> 1:17:46.920 he asked if I would be interested in taking a 1:17:46.920 --> 1:17:52.360 whole bunch to sell, maybe young entrepreneur here. I agreed, 1:17:52.479 --> 1:17:55.120 and there I was in my dorm with more Molly 1:17:55.160 --> 1:17:57.040 than I know what to do with. For the next 1:17:57.080 --> 1:18:00.519 series of days, I began just popping them will playing 1:18:00.600 --> 1:18:04.000 niche custom games and Overwatch, and listening to music until 1:18:04.000 --> 1:18:08.240 one night I realized nothing was happening anymore, no buzz 1:18:08.360 --> 1:18:12.080 or restless feeling. I managed to sell only one pill 1:18:12.200 --> 1:18:17.240 and completely used the rest safe to say, after paying 1:18:17.240 --> 1:18:20.080 for the whole batch, I'm done with drugs altogether. The 1:18:20.080 --> 1:18:22.920 next year felt odd. I was slightly less connected to everything, 1:18:23.240 --> 1:18:27.599 slightly slower and more stoic, Even with the probable irreversible damage. 1:18:27.720 --> 1:18:31.800 It was a somewhat profound experience. Easy thank you for sharing, Reezy. 1:18:34.000 --> 1:18:36.439 I'm gonna say it, Molly is the best drug that 1:18:36.640 --> 1:18:40.280 is invented. It's the best drug I've done. I haven't 1:18:40.320 --> 1:18:44.439 done a full, full, full dose of molly in like 1:18:44.479 --> 1:18:48.000 three and a half years, but I've done like a 1:18:48.040 --> 1:18:52.800 teensy bit between now and then, And I mean, yeah, 1:18:52.840 --> 1:18:55.720 it's the best, like a full and that's the way 1:18:55.760 --> 1:18:58.920 to do Molly. You can't like do it every day. 1:18:58.920 --> 1:19:02.760 It's not you can't do it every day because they'll 1:19:02.800 --> 1:19:05.840 just fuck your ship up. And the first time you 1:19:05.920 --> 1:19:09.960 ever do it is like as like nothing else, it's 1:19:09.960 --> 1:19:14.800 the goddamn best. But yeah, I mean I've been to 1:19:14.920 --> 1:19:17.200 music festivals before where people are like, yeah, we're gonna 1:19:17.200 --> 1:19:22.040 do it every day of this four day festival and 1:19:22.080 --> 1:19:24.639 they have a good time. But it's too much. It's 1:19:24.680 --> 1:19:29.480 too much. How much was that whole thing of Molly 1:19:30.680 --> 1:19:34.520 also doing it a lot? Also there's people who do it. 1:19:34.520 --> 1:19:38.360 It's fun to do with. For I it's great to 1:19:38.479 --> 1:19:40.680 do like like I don't go to the club. I 1:19:40.720 --> 1:19:43.160 don't like the club, Like I don't have a good 1:19:43.200 --> 1:19:49.880 time there. I think too much, I can. I can 1:19:49.880 --> 1:19:52.840 only really say this as like an anxious overthinker on 1:19:52.960 --> 1:19:56.040 drugs guy, is that there's there's certain drugs that like 1:19:56.120 --> 1:19:58.719 take you put you, take you in, and then drugs 1:19:58.720 --> 1:20:01.800 that take you out. And I'm a very in guy. 1:20:01.840 --> 1:20:04.160 I'm always thinking, always in my head. I'm like, you 1:20:04.200 --> 1:20:07.400 know whatever, Molly's fucking great because it just it like removed, 1:20:08.040 --> 1:20:12.360 it like removes your ability to not be in the present. 1:20:13.400 --> 1:20:16.840 Like I just, oh, I'm just so fucking present when 1:20:17.080 --> 1:20:20.599 I'm on it, and and I don't even because and 1:20:20.640 --> 1:20:22.120 when I'm there, I don't even give a shit with 1:20:22.240 --> 1:20:25.400 what's around me. You know, if I'm like in these 1:20:25.400 --> 1:20:28.800 if I'm like high in the club, I'm like, none 1:20:28.840 --> 1:20:30.679 of these people would give a shit if I died. 1:20:30.800 --> 1:20:33.240 And you know, I said that was trying to be 1:20:33.280 --> 1:20:35.320 funny when I said that, but it came out depressing. 1:20:38.000 --> 1:20:43.799 Sh I'm having a good time talking into this microphone. 1:20:43.800 --> 1:20:49.519 I hope you guys are here with me, but yeah, 1:20:49.560 --> 1:20:52.320 like acid or shrooms and stuff. I don't know why 1:20:52.360 --> 1:20:54.639 people do that shit at music festivals, because it takes 1:20:54.640 --> 1:20:57.840 you in where Molly just brings you out. So like 1:20:57.960 --> 1:21:00.760 I've been like the last time I took Molly, I 1:21:00.800 --> 1:21:05.800 was at some music festival like three years ago, and uh, 1:21:07.320 --> 1:21:09.960 and then I got separated for the people I was with, 1:21:10.040 --> 1:21:13.960 And then I just went back to the hotel and 1:21:14.000 --> 1:21:18.439 I sat on the toilet and I had a fucking 1:21:18.720 --> 1:21:23.000 I was just thinking about how much I love my life, 1:21:23.160 --> 1:21:25.280 and I just had a great time alone on the 1:21:25.320 --> 1:21:28.639 toilet doing molly, So you can do it on the toilet, 1:21:28.720 --> 1:21:32.519 or you can do it with friends. What else can 1:21:32.560 --> 1:21:36.360 you do on the It's one of the few things 1:21:37.760 --> 1:21:39.719 that you can have a lot of fun doing both 1:21:39.960 --> 1:21:43.479 alone on the toilet and with friends. Pooping only fun 1:21:43.520 --> 1:21:49.439 alone on the toilet. There's a wider range of things 1:21:49.560 --> 1:21:52.400 that are funner that are more fun to do alone 1:21:52.560 --> 1:21:59.040 on the toilet than with friends. Pretty Much anything that 1:21:59.200 --> 1:22:01.640 is fun to do with friends is also fun to 1:22:01.680 --> 1:22:05.800 do alone on the toilet. Shitting and pissing is not 1:22:06.120 --> 1:22:08.400 fun to do with Actually, I mean if you each 1:22:08.400 --> 1:22:11.760 have your own toilet, I feel like, yeah, if you 1:22:12.000 --> 1:22:13.680 if I mean yeah, if you're like out with your 1:22:13.720 --> 1:22:16.400 friends and you're sitting at a bar and you take 1:22:16.439 --> 1:22:19.840 a big shit and your friends all actually that sounds 1:22:19.840 --> 1:22:21.559 fun too. If like, you're we're all out at a 1:22:21.560 --> 1:22:24.640 sports bar and one guy's let and there's six of 1:22:24.680 --> 1:22:26.080 you and one guy's like, hey, you guys, I want 1:22:26.080 --> 1:22:30.160 to take shits together, and you do and you smell 1:22:30.240 --> 1:22:33.840 bad and you're laughing and you're diarry ing and you're connecting. 1:22:34.600 --> 1:22:36.559 They actually does that? Actually does sound more fun than 1:22:36.560 --> 1:22:39.800 doing it alone. So never mind, I think there's I 1:22:39.800 --> 1:22:42.960 think you'll have more fun. I think most things are 1:22:42.960 --> 1:22:46.759 more fun to do with friends than alone on the toilet, 1:22:46.840 --> 1:22:51.759 including pissing and shitting. All right, that was the Therapy 1:22:51.840 --> 1:22:53.880 Eco podcast. I felt good about this one. I thought 1:22:53.920 --> 1:22:57.920 it was fun. I hope you guys enjoyed it. 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So go check it out. 1:23:44.520 --> 1:23:49.759 There be gecko tour dot com. I'm Lyle. I appreciate 1:23:49.760 --> 1:23:52.760 you listening to the show. Thank you guys very much 1:23:52.760 --> 1:23:57.120 for being here. I read all the Spotify comments alone 1:23:57.120 --> 1:24:01.160 on the toilet because I'm insane. So oh, if you 1:24:01.200 --> 1:24:03.680 want to so, if you want to say, if you 1:24:03.720 --> 1:24:06.479 want to write something that you know for sure I 1:24:06.560 --> 1:24:11.080 will see, that's the place to do it. Anyway, Thank 1:24:11.120 --> 1:24:14.600 you guys, See you on the next. One goes on 1:24:14.720 --> 1:24:18.560 the line, taking your phone calls every night, the bed 1:24:18.600 --> 1:24:19.599 goes to his ride. 1:24:19.720 --> 1:24:20.400 He's teaching you 1:24:20.400 --> 1:24:22.840 A loud in them of your life, but he's not 1:24:23.040 --> 1:24:24.440 really an expert.