Speaker 1: Hello, Who is this.
Speaker 2: My name's Violet.
Speaker 1: Violet. What's going on? Violet? How's life?
Speaker 2: It's been pretty good? Hold on, I'm a little nervous.
Speaker 2: I didn't think you'd call me. I've seen your like
Speaker 2: your YouTube shorts.
Speaker 1: I am honored to hear that you have seen the
Speaker 1: YouTube shorts. I've been trying to upload more of them.
Speaker 2: I said, yeah, there's super funny.
Speaker 1: I sit alone on a computer and I and I
Speaker 1: edit videos. It's a good life. It's a good life.
Speaker 1: But enough about my life, Violet, what's going on you?
Speaker 1: You messaged, you sent a text and you said, I
Speaker 1: want to come on the show and talk about my
Speaker 1: new job as an escort.
Speaker 2: Yeah. Well that's something I just recently started, like maybe
Speaker 2: two months ago. It's been going pretty good.
Speaker 1: How did you get into that?
Speaker 2: Well, I'm a stripper and I got really burnt out.
Speaker 2: So I was like, okay, let me try something else.
Speaker 1: Well, I guess I have a few questions. Why did
Speaker 1: you get burnt out from being a stripper?
Speaker 2: I think it's just a lot of competition and I
Speaker 2: feel like a little self conscious maybe so now like
Speaker 2: it's like I don't get rejected at all. You know,
Speaker 2: when guys call me because they're choosing me because as
Speaker 2: a stripper, like you could walk up to like tony
Speaker 2: dudes tonight and only five of them will be like, Okay, yeah,
Speaker 2: we could go for a dance even though I made
Speaker 2: really good money.
Speaker 3: Mm hm m hm?
Speaker 1: Did that?
Speaker 3: Was that?
Speaker 1: Did that?
Speaker 3: Now?
Speaker 1: When that happens, are you at a point where you're like,
Speaker 1: that's just the game, or does do you feel like
Speaker 1: a form of like personal.
Speaker 3: Rejection the kind of the day?
Speaker 2: Really? Because I used to be really self conscious, and
Speaker 2: then when I started stripping, like I felt way better
Speaker 2: about myself. But I guess since like sometimes i'll tie
Speaker 2: how much money I'm making to like my self worth.
Speaker 2: Does that make sense?
Speaker 1: Yeah? So it's less of the like the like rejection
Speaker 1: of the guy of the guy of you than it
Speaker 1: is like about like the self self worth of the money.
Speaker 2: Yeah. I don't know.
Speaker 1: So you said that, how did stripping help your self esteem?
Speaker 3: Less?
Speaker 2: A whole bit of way. I mean, now I have
Speaker 2: money to like do whatever, Like I could get hair extensions,
Speaker 2: I always have like my lassies done, and I feel
Speaker 2: just good about myself.
Speaker 3: Mh.
Speaker 2: So I love that and I don't think I'll ever
Speaker 2: be able to do anything else, even though I guess
Speaker 2: I'll get old eventually, but I'm only twenty one.
Speaker 1: Why do you think you won't be able to do
Speaker 1: anything else?
Speaker 2: Well, I don't know. I mean I have goals, I
Speaker 2: just I don't know. I feel a little last like
Speaker 2: I'm supposed to start college soon and I have been
Speaker 2: I've just been really dizzy working and all that.
Speaker 1: But I don't understand because you say you have goals
Speaker 1: and you say you start in college soon, but then
Speaker 1: you also say you won't be able to do anything else.
Speaker 1: I mean you said that pretty confidently.
Speaker 2: I well, you know, I have to do something else.
Speaker 3: I guess.
Speaker 2: I don't know. I have to like depression, and sometimes
Speaker 2: that'll like not like flare up. But it's just a
Speaker 2: part of life, you know. But sometimes I just feel
Speaker 2: a little down about it, and I feel like I
Speaker 2: should be farther ahead than I am.
Speaker 1: Uh farther farther ahead?
Speaker 3: And what in what sense in life?
Speaker 2: Like I compare myself, like, okay, I could have like
Speaker 2: finished school or gotten this done, but I've just been
Speaker 2: like working, which has been good.
Speaker 1: Well, I mean, well is a trade off, right, because
Speaker 1: like you, you probably I assume if you were. I
Speaker 1: don't know how much you save or how much you
Speaker 1: spend or whatever, but uh, because listen, right, Like, the
Speaker 1: decision to work right out of school instead of going
Speaker 1: to school has its pros and cons. And you know,
Speaker 1: one of the pros is like, yeah, maybe you finished
Speaker 1: school a little bit later, but you know, you have
Speaker 1: some some money under your belt, whereas a lot of
Speaker 1: people they get out of school and they're in debt,
Speaker 1: you know, so, and whatever decision you make will put
Speaker 1: you ahead in one way and behind and the other way.
Speaker 1: But you know, you want to focus on the ways
Speaker 1: in which you are ahead.
Speaker 2: Definitely. Yeah, you know, I've had time to save money.
Speaker 2: But I love like being a stripper. I love being
Speaker 2: an escort. I think it's fun. I get some crazy
Speaker 2: people from time to time.
Speaker 1: I have well, I have questions about the escorting thing.
Speaker 1: But also you said, what are your goals that you
Speaker 1: said you have?
Speaker 2: Yeah, I really want to go into criminal justice. That's
Speaker 2: my goal. I want to be able to help people.
Speaker 2: I think that would be cool.
Speaker 3: Mm.
Speaker 1: So what do you what is it that you like about? Well, so,
Speaker 1: what exactly are you doing like as as an escort?
Speaker 2: Well, like I have an ad on a website and
Speaker 2: then these guys call me and then I take their information,
Speaker 2: like their ID and like their like business websites, and
Speaker 2: I looked through I try to make sure they're not
Speaker 2: like a serial killer, and then I'll go hang out
Speaker 2: with them. And it's not always like sexual.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: Have you met interesting people doing this?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 2: I mean at District Club, we're escorting people with like
Speaker 2: maybe weird kings and characters. I had a guy that like, Yeah,
Speaker 2: I had a guy that really wanted me to pee
Speaker 2: on him, but I haven't done it yet.
Speaker 1: Is that something you're interested in doing is peeing on someone?
Speaker 2: I mean some money, I might mm hmm.
Speaker 1: Have you ever have you ever like, like, who's the
Speaker 1: most memorable character you've come across in this line of work? Mmmm?
Speaker 2: I had a guy that really liked and I would
Speaker 2: like step on him. I've had guys like me in
Speaker 2: a fart in her face, should I don't know, shout.
Speaker 1: Out, shout out to our boy, Hank.
Speaker 2: Yeah that's pretty cool.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Okay, so this is something that you're enjoying
Speaker 1: doing and you want to you would like to continue
Speaker 1: doing it?
Speaker 2: Yeah, for like maybe like another tenure.
Speaker 1: M hm, So I have a question, but this is
Speaker 1: so this I swear in my life this really isn't
Speaker 1: a like a form of judgment. Is a genuine question
Speaker 1: that I want to get your perspective on, because you
Speaker 1: seem like you really like this line of war work.
Speaker 3: Does it like.
Speaker 1: How does it affect your personal view and experience like
Speaker 1: of intimacy?
Speaker 2: I'd say it's pretty skewed. I think my sometimes my
Speaker 2: judgment of like men can be like pretty skewed because
Speaker 2: I don't know a lot of guys that the guys
Speaker 2: that I meet are like married or I don't know.
Speaker 2: I kind of feel.
Speaker 3: Bad about that.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, go ahead, go ahead.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know. I don't date or anything.
Speaker 1: So how how in what other ways do you think
Speaker 1: it's uh skewed your perception of men.
Speaker 2: Otherwise? I don't know. I mean, I tend to really
Speaker 2: like the guys that I meet, Like, I think a
Speaker 2: lot of people think they're like creepy, like maybe old guys,
Speaker 2: but like I don't know, like look really scary, but
Speaker 2: a lot of them are really handsome and I like them.
Speaker 2: The money is just a plastic.
Speaker 1: M What what made you first get into this line
Speaker 1: of work in general.
Speaker 2: Well, the stripping, I don't know. I was like eighteen
Speaker 2: and I really hated my job and I didn't want
Speaker 2: to work forty hours a week for what seemed to
Speaker 2: be like not a whole lot of money. So I
Speaker 2: quit my job. One day when I went into a
Speaker 2: strip club. I got started there and that's been really
Speaker 2: good for me. Dascorting, I don't know. I just did
Speaker 2: some research and I try not to like get murdered
Speaker 2: or anything, but just you post an ad online and
Speaker 2: there's that. I mean, you could get like arrested or
Speaker 2: something that that has happen to me.
Speaker 1: Does your do you like, do you talk to your
Speaker 1: friends about it?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 1: My friends, No, my mom knows what what do they
Speaker 1: do they what do they have to say?
Speaker 2: They just want me to be safe?
Speaker 4: Yeah, mm hmm.
Speaker 1: That's good. Yeah, that's good. I I well, I'm I'm
Speaker 1: glad you're enjoying. I'm still hung up on the fact
Speaker 1: not because you like, like, why do you say that,
Speaker 1: like you can't do anything else? I'm not not I'm
Speaker 1: not not even like not even like being objected to,
Speaker 1: Like if you if you're like, oh, if you're saying
Speaker 1: like I don't want to do anything else. That's one thing.
Speaker 1: But I like the fact that you're saying I can't
Speaker 1: do anything else.
Speaker 2: I think it's a mix of both. Like I really
Speaker 2: like my jobs and I don't want to do anything else.
Speaker 2: I just make a good amount of money and I
Speaker 2: don't have to work super hard for it. I mean,
Speaker 2: it is hard work, but not like labor, like I
Speaker 2: don't know, like construction or something. And I know that
Speaker 2: I want to go into criminal justice eventually. It'll just
Speaker 2: take time.
Speaker 1: M hm, Well you know, well I don't. Yeah, that's
Speaker 1: the thing, right because even if even if it's not
Speaker 1: a lot of hours, it's like you're rewarded for I think,
Speaker 1: like in general, with like money and shit, you're never
Speaker 1: you're never like you're never compensated for your time. You're
Speaker 1: compensated for like a variety of things, you know, And
Speaker 1: so you're well because you're getting you're getting compensated not
Speaker 1: just for your time, but you're also getting you know,
Speaker 1: you're getting rewarded by nature of the fact that you're really,
Speaker 1: you know, putting yourself out there.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you mean like sexually, well, just I mean just.
Speaker 1: In general, like you know, whether sexually or just the
Speaker 1: fact that you're like willing to go meet a stranger
Speaker 1: and hang out with them and you know, be be
Speaker 1: cool to them and you know, make them feel you know,
Speaker 1: like they have some company.
Speaker 2: Yeah. I like. I like being able to meet people
Speaker 2: feel sen.
Speaker 3: M hm Yeah.
Speaker 1: And I think you know again, you know, whether or
Speaker 1: not like you're being, that's that's what you're being.
Speaker 3: Uh.
Speaker 1: I think rewarded for is your ability to you know,
Speaker 1: make people feel seen and uh, you know, accompanied more
Speaker 1: so than like, you know, I put an X amount
Speaker 1: of time into X amount of why thing and I
Speaker 1: get Z dollars.
Speaker 2: Right. Yeah, it's really cool talking to you. I don't
Speaker 2: know if you want to keep talking to me. This
Speaker 2: is being pretty cool.
Speaker 1: Was there? I guess Is there any other aspect of
Speaker 1: this that you wanted to talk about?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 2: I just wanted to share take a roll.
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 2: Mmm? No, but thanks for chatting with me.
Speaker 1: Bye, Gek, goodbye bye. Let have a good rest of
Speaker 1: your entire life.
Speaker 3: Hi is this Gek?
Speaker 1: This is who is this? This is Dev?
Speaker 3: What's up? Dev? Has life? Oh?
Speaker 2: My god?
Speaker 4: Uh?
Speaker 3: Life's good?
Speaker 1: Man?
Speaker 3: What's up with you.
Speaker 1: I'm doing okay. Actually I have a little bit of
Speaker 1: a headache, but who cares, you know, who cares about Madville?
Speaker 4: You'll you'll work through hell.
Speaker 1: Yeah, exactly, exactly, exactly exactly. Did you tell me your
Speaker 1: name yet?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Dev?
Speaker 1: D E V D E V Okay, all right, Dev?
Speaker 1: What's up? Dev? How's life? What's going on with you?
Speaker 2: Oh? Man?
Speaker 4: So I've I've recently come to a realization and I
Speaker 4: feel like you're a professional and I wanted to talk
Speaker 4: to you about it. You know, I've seen your videos.
Speaker 4: You see you really help people.
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm gonna I'm not a professional anything, but I'll
Speaker 1: I guess. I guess by the definition of professional, I'm
Speaker 1: a professional therapy gecko, so I can do that.
Speaker 4: That's professional enough for me.
Speaker 1: What's up, ma'am? Tell me? Tell me everything.
Speaker 4: So, like, I've recently gone into a new relationship and
Speaker 4: I love my boyfriend very dearly. However, he's forklifts certified
Speaker 4: and it's like a ha ha ha people also funny,
Speaker 4: funny meme forkless certified. But I've recently come to the
Speaker 4: realization that I it kind of turns me on, and
Speaker 4: I don't know why. Like he'll call me while he's
Speaker 4: at work and he'll be like, hey, guess what, babe.
Speaker 4: I'm like what, And he's like, I'm going on the forklift,
Speaker 4: and I'm just like, god damn sexiest thing ever. I
Speaker 4: don't even know. I don't even know.
Speaker 1: Why is this a Why is this a problem? This
Speaker 1: is a good thing.
Speaker 4: I don't even I guess it's not a problem. I guess.
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 4: Typically it's like midday, I'm like either at work or
Speaker 4: at school, and he'll just do it randomly, and I
Speaker 4: just call me up like I'm just gonna go on
Speaker 4: the forklift. Sometimes he'll honk the horn on the forklift,
Speaker 4: and I find that really funny too. I guess it's
Speaker 4: not a problem.
Speaker 3: I guess.
Speaker 4: I'm just confused as to why it turns me on.
Speaker 1: Why do you think it turns you on?
Speaker 3: Okay, that's a good question. I don't know.
Speaker 4: Maybe it stems from the fact that for a while
Speaker 4: there was like that like forklift certified meme going around.
Speaker 4: Maybe it's not I'm very much like kind of brain rodded.
Speaker 4: I'm twenty years old. I'm not I'm not you know,
Speaker 4: I don't know. Maybe it's just the fact that it
Speaker 4: stems from the fact that it was a meme at
Speaker 4: one point. But maybe it's also the fact that I
Speaker 4: know my boyfriend's accomplished. You know, I don't have my
Speaker 4: forklift certified license, my coworkers aren't forklift certified. But my
Speaker 4: man is that's pretty cool.
Speaker 1: Mhm. Have you ever like seen him in the forklift
Speaker 1: or have you only have not?
Speaker 4: I I've only heard about it. We're doing long distance
Speaker 4: right now to its south. But ever and I've talked
Speaker 4: to him about it too, and ever since I've like
Speaker 4: brought it up with him. Anytime he's in the forklift
Speaker 4: and remembers, he makes an effort to call me, And
Speaker 4: I wish I could see him the forklist. I think
Speaker 4: that would like turn me on even more. But like
Speaker 4: I don't know what to be too much.
Speaker 2: I don't even.
Speaker 3: God, I don't even know.
Speaker 4: But like I picture him in the like if he
Speaker 4: goes in the forklift, I picture him in the forklift,
Speaker 4: and I'm like, damn, Like I could totally just watch
Speaker 4: you for hours drive around and use a forklift and
Speaker 4: move stuff. I don't even know what stuff he's moving
Speaker 4: with it. I have no clue, But I just know
Speaker 4: he drives the forklift.
Speaker 1: What exactly is the picture you have in your mind
Speaker 1: when you picture him in the forklift?
Speaker 4: Okay, I know he has to wear a hard hat
Speaker 4: because he's sent me selfie and he has to wear
Speaker 4: like seventh grade like think middle school science class, like
Speaker 4: clear goggle kind of things, like he has to wear
Speaker 4: those for like his eye protection.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 4: I see the forklift like maybe a gray color, I
Speaker 4: don't know, maybe it's blue, and I know he has
Speaker 4: to wear these like greenish maybe blue overalls, overalls, I
Speaker 4: can use what he calls them. So like picturing him
Speaker 4: in a hard hat with middle school clear glasses and
Speaker 4: overalls on in a forklift, like driving it around and
Speaker 4: like honking the horn and the horn is like pretty
Speaker 4: high pitch. I just like I could genuinely if I
Speaker 4: was there in person, I could sit down and I
Speaker 4: could watch him like, yeah, that is my man, that
Speaker 4: is my man, Stay away, he's mine. I can picture
Speaker 4: it clear as day.
Speaker 1: And mm hmmm hmmm. Then you don't know what you
Speaker 1: don't know why this is? I mean, I think, I mean,
Speaker 1: I think, uh, you know, some people are attracted to
Speaker 1: a man in uniform. I think, uh, you know, being
Speaker 1: forklift certified. I think women in general attracted to competence,
Speaker 1: and I think being for forklift certified is a strong
Speaker 1: indicator of competence. Yes, so I think it makes total
Speaker 1: sense to me that you would be attracted to him
Speaker 1: when you were a kid. Did you have a crush
Speaker 1: on Bob the Builder?
Speaker 4: Yeah, don't do that to me. Oh man, No, I
Speaker 4: loved Bob the Builder actually thinking back, Yeah, no, I
Speaker 4: I watched that ship so often. Oh my god, Oh
Speaker 4: my god, odd, oh my god. My boyfriend's kind of
Speaker 4: like Bob the Builder. Oh no, wait, I shouldn't do sad.
Speaker 4: That's not a no, no, that's just a huge wow.
Speaker 4: See this is why I called you.
Speaker 1: Is Bob that? Would you put Bob the Builder on
Speaker 1: your like hear me out list?
Speaker 3: Yes? Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: Does he? Does your boyfriend look like Bob the Builder?
Speaker 4: No, he has more hair. My dad looks like Bob
Speaker 4: the Builder.
Speaker 1: Oh holy shit, your boyfriend probably looks like your dad,
Speaker 1: and that's probably why my.
Speaker 4: Boyfriend does not look with my dad. My dad is
Speaker 4: as bald as a cucumber. My boyfriend has hair.
Speaker 1: No offense, it's not a bad thing. I think that's No,
Speaker 1: it's like a documented phenomenon as people want to date
Speaker 1: people that look like the parents for some reason.
Speaker 4: No, I've seen that happen.
Speaker 1: Damn, I don't know. That's pretty cool. I guess yeah,
Speaker 1: hopefully maybe when this drops, more guys are going to
Speaker 1: be like, I got to get forklift certified.
Speaker 4: I hope so like it definitely, you know, I think
Speaker 4: about like, Wow, at some point in his life before
Speaker 4: he met me, he set aside time to get forkless certified.
Speaker 4: And I just find that really attractive and like, you
Speaker 4: actually took time out of your day to become forkless certified,
Speaker 4: and now you're forklift certified and I get to hear
Speaker 4: about it and you get to be mine. But no, man,
Speaker 4: if you're listening, get forklift certified. Like easiest pickup line
Speaker 4: at bars too, Like if you're in a bar. I
Speaker 4: could totally picture it. Like if you're in a bar
Speaker 4: and you want to go talk to this girl and
Speaker 4: you don't know what to say, you can just go
Speaker 4: up to her and be like, hey, I'm Workliss certified
Speaker 4: and I think you're really cute.
Speaker 3: I would be hooked.
Speaker 4: I know I would be hooked. Like, oh my god, well,
Speaker 4: you're forkliff certified. Tell me more, you know, so, I
Speaker 4: don't know, maybe more men should do that.
Speaker 1: You guys are a long distance he.
Speaker 3: Said, yeah, we're long distance right now.
Speaker 1: Where's he at?
Speaker 4: He's in Louisiana.
Speaker 1: Do you guys, where'd you guys meet?
Speaker 4: We met online?
Speaker 3: I do.
Speaker 4: I'm in Kelly. I'm in Los Angeles and I do
Speaker 4: like art stuff online and he found my profile and
Speaker 4: we just kind of started talking to each other casually
Speaker 4: and it just kind of went from there. He's flown
Speaker 4: here before. I just actually recently flew out there. But
Speaker 4: he's playing with California next year actually.
Speaker 1: And on his like, like, what you guys connected on Instagram?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Does he have a lot of pictures on his Instagram
Speaker 1: of him in the forklift?
Speaker 3: He doesn't.
Speaker 4: Oh my, he does not, actually, And I'm going to
Speaker 4: get on his ass about that, because I need to
Speaker 4: flex that my boyfriend is worklift certified. I need more
Speaker 4: pictures of him in the forklift. Matter of fact, I
Speaker 4: need more pictures of him. I need more pictures of
Speaker 4: the forklift so that when he calls me and he's like, hey, babe,
Speaker 4: I'm in the forklift. I can picture the forklift. I
Speaker 4: can have a better image, right, I think that's.
Speaker 3: A good idea.
Speaker 1: Yeah, maybe you don't want to see the forklift, right
Speaker 1: because I almost think I actually, you know it would
Speaker 1: be so tragic. Is if you see him in the
Speaker 1: forklift and it's like it's icky to you that it's
Speaker 1: that it's so different from how you imagined it in
Speaker 1: your head, right, Like I think when it cuts in
Speaker 1: like right, and like sexual and romantic fantasies, they're always
Speaker 1: they're always going to be better in your head than
Speaker 1: they are in real life. So I almost hope you
Speaker 1: never see or what you you're like your boyfriend in
Speaker 1: the forklift, only like stays in your imagination because that's
Speaker 1: where it's that's where it's gonna have the highest quality.
Speaker 1: That's where every one of your dreams and fantasies will
Speaker 1: have their highest amounts of pleasure to you. Is is
Speaker 1: in the form of dreams and fantasies.
Speaker 4: I have never thought of it that way. See, and
Speaker 4: this is I don't understand why you don't call yourself
Speaker 4: a professional, because that that makes a lot of sense. Actually,
Speaker 4: I don't want to see a picture of him. I
Speaker 4: don't mind as selfie if he's in the forklift. I
Speaker 4: don't want to see outside the forklift. Let's I'm gonna
Speaker 4: let my imagination or.
Speaker 1: In wild with that devastat anything else you want to
Speaker 1: say to the people of the computer before.
Speaker 4: We go, man, get forklifts certified. You know, maybe you
Speaker 4: double check your hear me out list. Maybe Bob the
Speaker 4: Builder can be added to it. And God bless this
Speaker 4: country and God bless America. And I love my boyfriend
Speaker 4: so much. I love you and uh he messaged me
Speaker 4: and he told me to say if I got on
Speaker 4: phone with Ghek, and he has no idea that I'm
Speaker 4: talking about this. He just knows that I tried to
Speaker 4: call you. So Hi, babe. I love you so much
Speaker 4: and I hope you were able to write the Forklift
Speaker 4: tonight because I miss you.
Speaker 3: But thank you so much, Gek.
Speaker 1: Thank you dev You have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 4: Yeah you too.
Speaker 1: Hey, what's up?
Speaker 3: Oh? Dang this the Gek?
Speaker 1: Yeah? Who is this?
Speaker 3: Oh? This is Sean Sean.
Speaker 1: Sean you texted me and you said I did mushrooms
Speaker 1: at your Edmonton show. It was a blast, but I
Speaker 1: had a revelation about my life, and it's been bothering
Speaker 1: me since I just got back. I just got back
Speaker 1: from Yeah, from Canada. I was in Edmonton over the
Speaker 1: weekend at McEwan University. That was a fun time. Thanks man,
Speaker 1: thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it. So were you
Speaker 1: on when were you on mushrooms during the show or
Speaker 1: was it after the show?
Speaker 3: Yeah? I was on mushrooms during the show. I I
Speaker 3: took a couple of mushroom chocolates with the girl I brought,
Speaker 3: and yeah, it was. It was a good time, but
Speaker 3: kind of at the end of the show, I started
Speaker 3: having this revelation about my life and what I'm looking
Speaker 3: out of it. It's been weird, man, I don't can
Speaker 3: want me to explain more.
Speaker 1: Did we meet? Did we talk? Did I talk to you?
Speaker 3: No? No, I see. I tried to get meet and
Speaker 3: greet tickets prior to the show, but it said you
Speaker 3: had to be a me Quan student.
Speaker 1: So people not just so people know for the record,
Speaker 1: the school did that. I don't. I don't do like
Speaker 1: meet and greet tickets. I just usually I just stand
Speaker 1: around and meet everyone for free, usually just so people
Speaker 1: sucking you know.
Speaker 3: Anyway, Yeah, so I and then they were saying, you know,
Speaker 3: you can wait in a line and meet him if
Speaker 3: you hang out. And then I was kind of tripping
Speaker 3: ball a bit, and I looked at the girl I
Speaker 3: was with and I was like, we gotta go. She
Speaker 3: also she was yeah, and she was having a little
Speaker 3: bit better of a time I was, I think, and
Speaker 3: that was kind of helpful. But yeah, we went out
Speaker 3: in the town. We had some cocktails. But the whole
Speaker 3: time I was having kind of this Uh. I hate
Speaker 3: to bring up the topic because it's been beaten like
Speaker 3: a dead horse, but existential dread just thinking about you know,
Speaker 3: I had this idea of, you know, what I wanted
Speaker 3: in my life, the relationship to settle down and you know,
Speaker 3: have a life kid, so all that fun stuff. But
Speaker 3: in all that streamship I kind of will see your
Speaker 3: your trip to Iraq and just the experience and stuff
Speaker 3: you talked about. I kind of had this like flooding
Speaker 3: emotion of I haven't done enough or I haven't seen enough,
Speaker 3: and it was it was weird. And now it's you know, Monday,
Speaker 3: I'm back to my regular job and I'm thinking, what's
Speaker 3: the plan, what to do? Yeah, and it.
Speaker 1: Did the show gave you an existential crisis.
Speaker 3: Not the show, but just like I think my internal
Speaker 3: thoughts of you know, like just seeing how I was
Speaker 3: so happy, like listening to your show and go about
Speaker 3: you go go and Iraq and You're doing mushrooms and
Speaker 3: the forest and stuff, and I was like, man, all
Speaker 3: these experiences and I started thinking back to like, you know,
Speaker 3: some of the experiences that I've had in me not
Speaker 3: to compare anything, but it was more long, and I
Speaker 3: felt like I I owe myself more. It was just yeah,
Speaker 3: it was but.
Speaker 1: Well, yeah, I have a lot of thoughts about this.
Speaker 1: One is well, how are you? Were you a student?
Speaker 1: Are you?
Speaker 3: No? No? I drove, I drove like two hours away
Speaker 3: in different in a different city. Yeah, yeah, it was.
Speaker 3: It was sweet. Man. I wasn't gonna miss it. I
Speaker 3: fucking signed up for your text to say when you
Speaker 3: were coming in because I heard you briefly on one
Speaker 3: of your streams being like I'm coming to Emson and
Speaker 3: I was like, when so I walked in.
Speaker 1: So okay, the girl that you were with, like was it?
Speaker 1: Because sometimes because one of the tough things about like
Speaker 1: being on mushroom has been a lot of drug is
Speaker 1: like if you're with somebody and you're having an existential crisis,
Speaker 1: especially someone you're like fucking like you're intimate with, you know,
Speaker 1: like your girlfriend. Like was it like were you staring
Speaker 1: at her being like and she's just like enjoying the
Speaker 1: cocktails and You're like, Yo, what the fuck is this?
Speaker 1: What's going on?
Speaker 3: Honestly, man, when I think back to it now, I'm
Speaker 3: pretty sure I was like I was quite withdrawn. Like
Speaker 3: I noticed like during the night she was kind of
Speaker 3: just asking me like, hey, how you doing and stuff,
Speaker 3: and I wasn't giving any space to say shit going
Speaker 3: on in my head. I was like, oh, I'm good,
Speaker 3: I'm just you know, tripping, But in reality, I was
Speaker 3: fucking stinking one thousand miles an hour about my license. Shit.
Speaker 3: I had some drinks and it kind of chilled out.
Speaker 3: But then, like the residual effects of this later days
Speaker 3: has kind of been hit me. Yeah, just was like,
Speaker 3: I don't know if I'm ready to settle down. I'm
Speaker 3: twenty nine, you know. Current I had to move back
Speaker 3: in with my parents right after COVID, so I've had
Speaker 3: a lot of time to kind of just sit and
Speaker 3: save a little bit of money, not as much A.
Speaker 3: I probably wanted to, but I don't know. It's just
Speaker 3: by being back in my parents' place and you know,
Speaker 3: kind of just working my job money to Friday is
Speaker 3: kind of get I don't know. I think it's starting
Speaker 3: to get to me. And I didn't think it was
Speaker 3: getting to me as much as it has after that
Speaker 3: mushroom trip. But sorry to the Bible, no no, no.
Speaker 1: So before the mushroom trip, were you having these thoughts?
Speaker 3: You know sometimes but they would like they would fade
Speaker 3: away with you know, just like distracting myself. I guess
Speaker 3: with my everyday life like going to work and going
Speaker 3: to do my things outside of work, like my hobbies
Speaker 3: and things like that. And then I think it would
Speaker 3: just kind of settle in when you got of got
Speaker 3: time to yourself and you're thinking about life and kind
Speaker 3: of like you know, when you're not distracted, it kind
Speaker 3: of start to have a little more introspective thoughts. And yeah,
Speaker 3: but the streams just amplified it, I feel like, and
Speaker 3: I think a lot of it comes from like this
Speaker 3: current relationship I'm in. It's pretty new you and like
Speaker 3: in four months in she's super into me, really nice
Speaker 3: and everything. But I feel like part of me doesn't
Speaker 3: want to settle down with her, and I don't know
Speaker 3: the particular reason why. And then the mushrooms kind of
Speaker 3: made me realize, like, oh, it's because you haven't really
Speaker 3: like lived much of a life, Like why are you
Speaker 3: thinking about selling down? You know, you haven't done much?
Speaker 3: And that's kind of where I'm at.
Speaker 1: Wells, I have a lot of thoughts about that because
Speaker 1: and I don't know. You know, here's the thing. I
Speaker 1: don't have a kid, and I don't have a wife
Speaker 1: for a girlfriend. So I'm not a good authority on that,
Speaker 1: but I think in my head, I don't I'm not
Speaker 1: a good authority to talk about this. But like in
Speaker 1: my head, it's like ideally, whatever relationship you do get
Speaker 1: into or whatever, or you know, whatever life you kind
Speaker 1: of do build is one that like amplifies the lifestyle
Speaker 1: that you want to have, you know, I think there's
Speaker 1: this and that's and again I'm like I'm a bad
Speaker 1: authority on it, but that's how it feels like in
Speaker 1: my head, like this idea that like, oh, I have
Speaker 1: this kind of life I want to live, let me
Speaker 1: live as much of it as possible until I'm bored.
Speaker 1: And then let me quote unquote settle down and like
Speaker 1: sh I don't think that that works. Like, I don't
Speaker 1: think that happens, you know. I think it's like you will.
Speaker 1: I think you're always gonna wanna. If you're the kind
Speaker 1: of person that wants to do things and is ambitious
Speaker 1: or whatever, you're kind of always gonna I think that
Speaker 1: you're that's not I don't think that goes away. I
Speaker 1: don't think that there is just a moment where you're like,
Speaker 1: all right, I had my fill and now a time
Speaker 1: because I mean, yeah, I at that show. I talked
Speaker 1: about going Iraq, and I talked about my little adventures
Speaker 1: and stuff. And you know, it's funny to hear that
Speaker 1: you saw that and were like, oh, I don't like,
Speaker 1: what have I done with my life? Because I I'm
Speaker 1: on insta fucking I'm on fucking Instagram all the time, dude,
Speaker 1: And I'm I and I'm on Instagram all the time,
Speaker 1: and I'm seeing people doing things and I'm always like, fuck,
Speaker 1: I want to be doing things. You know, there's never
Speaker 1: a It's like food. You never you don't eat a
Speaker 1: sandwich and you go, you eat a sandwich and you go,
Speaker 1: that was a good sandwich. I feel satisfied, but you
Speaker 1: don't eat a sandwich and you're like, I think, I
Speaker 1: I think I've eaten. You know, I don't. I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't need to eat anymore.
Speaker 3: Sandwich.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're gonna want to keep eating sandwiches and drinking.
Speaker 1: It's like becomes these things, they become part of your homeostasis.
Speaker 1: I think. And again I'm a I'm a pad authority
Speaker 1: because they don't have a girlfriend and kids. But uh,
Speaker 1: I see, but I see people who you know, have
Speaker 1: kids and you know, have a significant other, and they
Speaker 1: they they're able to still kind of live life in
Speaker 1: some way. And you know, obviously, I think I think
Speaker 1: for people like that, I think having money is is
Speaker 1: a you know, a factor I think, you know, but
Speaker 1: also I don't know. But also I think, uh, some
Speaker 1: people just fucking figure out how to make it work
Speaker 1: and then they do. But so let's I mean you specifically, right, like,
Speaker 1: what what do you want to do? What are the
Speaker 1: things like when you when you're on your when you're
Speaker 1: tripping and you're like I want to do this, and
Speaker 1: then the other thing like what is it that you
Speaker 1: want to do?
Speaker 3: I think, honestly, man, it's like travel really, like really
Speaker 3: I really wanted to go to Thailand for most of
Speaker 3: my young adult life teenage life, and they traveled to
Speaker 3: eastern South East Asia and stuff. I don't know, it's
Speaker 3: just a experience like meet more people, you know, go
Speaker 3: to different places, and part of me. I don't know,
Speaker 3: maybe this is like a whole different thing, but I
Speaker 3: feel like I have to be single to do that.
Speaker 3: Like my brain goes like in this direction of like
Speaker 3: you can't you have to do this on your own,
Speaker 3: like and I don't know if it's because I don't
Speaker 3: feel strongly enough about a partner that I want to
Speaker 3: like experience that with them, or if I'm just like
Speaker 3: pigeonholing myself of like you know, get it being wellnely.
Speaker 3: I don't know, it's just been the whole thing. Like
Speaker 3: I have this feeling that I just need to like
Speaker 3: not have any super strong connections with anybody so that
Speaker 3: I can like you know, make these like do this
Speaker 3: traveling and see different parts of life and meet new people.
Speaker 3: Because like I just have this anxious feeling that by
Speaker 3: like accepting current situation even now, I won't maybe meet
Speaker 3: like someone else along the lines or experience certain things
Speaker 3: because I've settled down, I get keep going back to
Speaker 3: settled down things.
Speaker 1: But sure, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know you man, I
Speaker 1: know you.
Speaker 3: Man.
Speaker 1: We'll tell you about this girl. What's her deal?
Speaker 3: She's chill, man. She I met her online Facebook dating.
Speaker 1: Spars Facebook dating, Well, hold on, I want to get
Speaker 1: hold on. We're gonna go on a tangento. We got
Speaker 1: to go on this day? What the fuck is going
Speaker 1: on on Facebook dating?
Speaker 3: Honestly? Man? So I did to play Xbox with this
Speaker 3: guy and I was kind was on the apps Tinder hinge,
Speaker 3: you know, and wasn't having the best time. I deleted
Speaker 3: them without really like meeting anyone. I was just kind
Speaker 3: of like random matches, shys about conversations with that whole stuff.
Speaker 3: And my friend that was playing Xbox this, I'll get
Speaker 3: to that. He told me. He's like, man, I met
Speaker 3: my girlfriend on Facebook dating and she check it out
Speaker 3: and I was like, oh, I don't know, man, Like
Speaker 3: Facebook dating seems like it's kind of just full of
Speaker 3: single moms. And he's like, it is, I'm dating a
Speaker 3: single mom and I laugh. So but anyway, in my
Speaker 3: desperation of loneliness, I downloaded Facebook Dating and starts whip.
Speaker 3: And I met this girl and she didn't have any kids,
Speaker 3: but she's near the area. We had similar music taste.
Speaker 3: Her profile was kind of like, it wasn't super getting like,
Speaker 3: I didn't tell much about her. We met out, we
Speaker 3: met up, hung out a few times, a pretty casual
Speaker 3: on me. I ended up figuring out we had pretty
Speaker 3: much the same taste in music. She's not from around here,
Speaker 3: so she's kind of like knew to the area. She
Speaker 3: grew up really Jehovah's witness family and that kind of
Speaker 3: had a lot of her life was held back from
Speaker 3: her from that culty like religion. So now as an adult,
Speaker 3: she moved away to Alberta when she was like twenty
Speaker 3: or something, and now he's been trying to just like
Speaker 3: live life and gain her own experiences. So she's she's chilling, man,
Speaker 3: she's down into anything, and like that whole therapy get
Speaker 3: go thing. I kind of just hit her like, I
Speaker 3: seen you were coming. I didn't want to go alone,
Speaker 3: although I probably live And I was like, Hey, do
Speaker 3: you want to go to therapy get coo? And she
Speaker 3: was like, what the fuck is therapy? GOTO showed her
Speaker 3: a few clips and she was like down, and so
Speaker 3: I asked her if you want to do mushrooms chocolates
Speaker 3: over there? And yeah, like it's been chill and there
Speaker 3: hasn't really been any like like major red flags and anything
Speaker 3: to make me not want to be in a relationship
Speaker 3: except my own internal thoughts of this uh, settling down
Speaker 3: type of mindset. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you have this like thing in your head of
Speaker 1: like I want to I want to fuck the world,
Speaker 1: not even like in a sexual way, just you know,
Speaker 1: like no.
Speaker 3: That's literally the best way to explain it, honestly, like
Speaker 3: I just want to take life. Yeah. Yeah, man, it's
Speaker 3: a lot of like this pent up And then it's
Speaker 3: stupid because I hear so many of your callers talk
Speaker 3: about like, you know, like the experiences they had, like
Speaker 3: anyone ranging from that one older lady that called I
Speaker 3: think she was a close to like fifty something to
Speaker 3: like even the train guy who fucking was like a
Speaker 3: young kid and traveling Like I had fallen into this
Speaker 3: thing where I'm like I'm getting too old and I
Speaker 3: need to make a choice when it's like dude, I
Speaker 3: don't know, I'm not that old, like come twenty nine,
Speaker 3: I don't.
Speaker 1: Know, Well, I mean, well aa not that I'll m
Speaker 1: be this idea that you have to make a choice
Speaker 1: is like, well, I don't know, I don't It's hard
Speaker 1: because I don't know. I don't know what you do
Speaker 1: for a living.
Speaker 3: Or what like you're I work at I work at
Speaker 3: a homeless shelter as like a like a support worker there.
Speaker 1: Do you get uh do you get time off?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, I get a pretty decent amount of time off,
Speaker 3: like two weeks paid vacation a year, and then they're
Speaker 3: really good at just giving you like unpaid time off.
Speaker 3: Like it's not a huge deal if you take time
Speaker 3: off in there. But I usually spend my summers going
Speaker 3: to visit my brother who lives in British Columbia. But
Speaker 3: I've been thinking about even just like taking a temporary
Speaker 3: highus from work.
Speaker 1: Well yeah, because like look, if they give you I mean,
Speaker 1: I'll tell you a little bit about my experience with
Speaker 1: this kind of stuff. Is like, so your job, like
Speaker 1: if they give you like unpaid time off, and like
Speaker 1: you're able to kind of like, you know, I don't know
Speaker 1: if the job gives you you know, I know it's
Speaker 1: a tough economy, is there can you save money? Doing
Speaker 1: this gig.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, yeah, I'm living with my parents right now.
Speaker 3: I could definitely save enough money. That's one thing too.
Speaker 3: I have no excuse on that, and like I've just
Speaker 3: been kind of living like I pay some rent here,
Speaker 3: but not enough that I should be like not having
Speaker 3: as much saved as I do, know.
Speaker 1: Because like, look I went I yeah, I went to Iraq.
Speaker 1: I was there for five days, you know, like I was.
Speaker 1: I was only there for five fucking days, and it
Speaker 1: felt like a lifetime. It's five fucking days. And so
Speaker 1: I mean, if you time things right and you save
Speaker 1: up and whatever, if you're you know, if you're like
Speaker 1: you want to go to Thailand, right, like yeah, like
Speaker 1: you know, you save up some money, you take you
Speaker 1: take off fucking whatever, Thursday, Friday, Monday, Tuesday, four unpaid days.
Speaker 1: If they're cool with that, right, then you got you
Speaker 1: got's enough time for you to, you know, run away,
Speaker 1: do you know, do a trip and feel like you
Speaker 1: got away with something. It doesn't always have to be.
Speaker 1: People are really stoked on the like like you go
Speaker 1: to hostels and stuff and everyone's like, yeah, man, I've
Speaker 1: been on the road for six months, nine months. I'm
Speaker 1: like I don't want to like fuck that. I don't
Speaker 1: want to do that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it sounds like a lot.
Speaker 1: It's a lot. So you can actually, I think, especially
Speaker 1: because you said it's if they're cool with if you
Speaker 1: can find a job, that's like cool, it sounds like, yeah,
Speaker 1: that's cool with you, like you know, giving you some
Speaker 1: unpaid time off, and then like you know, you're living
Speaker 1: with your parents, you can save up some money, like
Speaker 1: you can do a little bit of both. You know,
Speaker 1: you can be with this girl but also be like, hey, listen,
Speaker 1: I gotta go to Frankfurt for four days just because
Speaker 1: I'm crazy. And if she's cool, she'll be like all right, yeah,
Speaker 1: I get you. Yeah that's cool.
Speaker 3: You know I have to go to afghanis Dan.
Speaker 1: Yeah right, exactly exactly. So there's like ways to do
Speaker 1: have you done so this? But this bug, this is like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I want to fuck the world. I want to do
Speaker 1: all this crazy crap. I get you, I have that thing.
Speaker 1: I have that thing too. What is like have you
Speaker 1: have you done anything like that before? Because also you
Speaker 1: also will build up in your brain uh an idea
Speaker 1: of what fucking the world looks like, and it's always
Speaker 1: different from what it actually is.
Speaker 3: Yeah. I did a bit of traveling when I was
Speaker 3: younger with my parents, but nothing nowhere like super crazy,
Speaker 3: and went to Mexico and Hawaii and then Las Vegas
Speaker 3: a couple of times. But the only thing a place
Speaker 3: I've been doing is a doll I went on like
Speaker 3: a groad trip to Cuba, which is pretty fun. But
Speaker 3: other than that, man, I've just been kind of fucking Like.
Speaker 3: I went to school and like switch degrees fucking three
Speaker 3: different times, and spent like a solid like six years
Speaker 3: in college trying to figure out what I want to do,
Speaker 3: and was working full time during that period. So I
Speaker 3: felt like a lot of my early twenties where I
Speaker 3: should have just not went to school and you know,
Speaker 3: worked some shitty job and traveled that I was kind
Speaker 3: of having that idea in the back of my head,
Speaker 3: like you need to, you know, get a job now
Speaker 3: and get an education so that when you're twenty nine
Speaker 3: you can settle down just that whole trap. That's why
Speaker 3: I really like hearing you tell people. I'm sorry to
Speaker 3: go off in tangent, but tell people that they should
Speaker 3: really like reconsider university or must they want to be
Speaker 3: like a doctor or lawyer or something, but you know,
Speaker 3: experience life. Because I had that idea that I had
Speaker 3: to jump into school and I had to get a
Speaker 3: job in order to have some sort of life. But
Speaker 3: in reality, I kind of just wasted my early twenties
Speaker 3: chasing something. I didn't really know what I was chasing.
Speaker 1: Well, do I do work in a field that has
Speaker 1: that degree?
Speaker 3: Yeah, so I ended up leaving cool. I ended up
Speaker 3: leaving school to diploma in social work. But I'm not
Speaker 3: going back to school to get the degree. It's just
Speaker 3: in the field of social work. It's kind of get
Speaker 3: a degree if you're masters, if you want to work
Speaker 3: for the government, but other than that, it's kind of
Speaker 3: an experience based work kind of employment. So like, it's
Speaker 3: just the longer you, you know, le are in the field,
Speaker 3: the better opportunities are getting stuff. And I'm really good
Speaker 3: where I'm at right now. I make a decent amount
Speaker 3: and enough that I can live. Yeah, that's the thing
Speaker 3: I struggled.
Speaker 1: Yeah, go on, what are you gonna say?
Speaker 3: Oh, just the whole early twenties thing, Like I bounced
Speaker 3: between different jobs and stuff like this job I have
Speaker 3: right now, I've been there for the last two and
Speaker 3: a half years. It's like the first job I've actually
Speaker 3: not wanted to I'm alive myself after my work, you know,
Speaker 3: like I really enjoy what I do. So it's it's
Speaker 3: really cool. This whole last two and a half years,
Speaker 3: three years of working there and just being in the
Speaker 3: social work field has been giving me a lot of
Speaker 3: breathing room just think about other things in my life.
Speaker 1: I think, well, I think my ultimate take on this,
Speaker 1: and it is like, if it's something you even kind
Speaker 1: of feel like you want to do and you have
Speaker 1: the the resources to do it, which it sounds like
Speaker 1: you're set up in a way that you can do it,
Speaker 1: you know you should do it. But I don't think
Speaker 1: it has to be this. But I don't think it
Speaker 1: has to be the way you're talking about it is
Speaker 1: like it's like you're calling off a wedding or something
Speaker 1: for four months, like you can like you can, you
Speaker 1: can go on vacation, you know what.
Speaker 3: I habit of just doing that like an all or
Speaker 3: nothing kind of thing. Yeah, exactly, like just not taking
Speaker 3: it day by day sort of thing. It's always been
Speaker 3: an issue, but yeah, I think it's just talking it out.
Speaker 3: Is talking to out helps for sure?
Speaker 1: Yeah, I have this. I have the same thing where
Speaker 1: a part of me goes like should I need to
Speaker 1: go to like I just have I just always have
Speaker 1: this fucking thing in my head that makes the I
Speaker 1: saw some TikTok that was like there's people who kind
Speaker 1: of like settle into whatever it is they're doing out
Speaker 1: of college and they're like, Okay, you know, I'll just
Speaker 1: do this, and they do it for thirty years and
Speaker 1: then that's it. And then there's people who like every
Speaker 1: five years they just get this urged they're like seekers,
Speaker 1: Like every five years they just get this urge to
Speaker 1: like destroy their life and start in there. And I'm
Speaker 1: like that that's me. That's me. That's me to a
Speaker 1: tea and you and I've I've done that, and then
Speaker 1: I've come back and I've been like, wait, I shouldn't
Speaker 1: destroy my life. I got a good life. And I've
Speaker 1: over time figured out like, Okay, how do I do
Speaker 1: a little bit of both? How do I have make
Speaker 1: room for you know, how do I make room to
Speaker 1: like have bananas and you know, uh like a workout
Speaker 1: routine and like just live like a normal person. But
Speaker 1: then also you know, do random ship. And I've kind
Speaker 1: of tried to like overtime build something that really intentionally
Speaker 1: looked like that, And it's possible. So I don't think
Speaker 1: you have to be either. I don't think you have
Speaker 1: to either be a vagabond or a office worker. I
Speaker 1: think there's something in between. A lot of people do it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, you're right.
Speaker 1: Yeah did your did your girlfriend like the show?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Dude, it was fucking awesome. That girl, that girl
Speaker 3: Shane that came up on stage first and I know, yeah,
Speaker 3: that was wild. Yeah there, and then the other guy
Speaker 3: that got Yeah, I liked to him. I felt like
Speaker 3: we could be homies. Yeah.
Speaker 1: There was a girl that came on stage and talked
Speaker 1: about uh all of her.
Speaker 3: Like thinks that she's like I'm a something who Yeah.
Speaker 1: She said. She said that she was like addicted to
Speaker 1: like look it up with straight guys. And then like
Speaker 1: she told she talked about this like guy who was like,
Speaker 1: you know, gave he's he said, he like he gave
Speaker 1: her his home address and was like I'm gonna leave
Speaker 1: the door open, I'm gonna be blindfolded, face down, ass up,
Speaker 1: you come in and you do whatever you want.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's it. I like his like his bravery and
Speaker 3: that guy's that guy's take on just taking the world
Speaker 3: face down.
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, that guy does.
Speaker 3: That guy is uh, he doesn't stress about where to travel.
Speaker 3: I bet I don't think he does.
Speaker 1: I agree with you, man, I don't think that's a
Speaker 1: really good take. Yeah, that's not a very neurotic guy.
Speaker 1: That's not an anxious person. The guy who just just
Speaker 1: like the door is unlocked, steal all my stuff? Who cares?
Speaker 3: Yeah, respect to him? Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: What's your name again?
Speaker 3: Man? I think Sean other Sean? Yeah, Sean Sean.
Speaker 1: Sean was good talking. I'm I'm glad I got to
Speaker 1: catch up with someone who was at that show because
Speaker 1: that was a fun time. And also, yeah, I I
Speaker 1: empathize with you on a lot of your thoughts and feelings.
Speaker 1: But I do. I hope that because it's totally the
Speaker 1: kind of thing that when you talk about it aloud,
Speaker 1: you're like, oh, I'm I'm, I'm. I was building it
Speaker 1: up in my head.
Speaker 3: So yeah, pretty much, pretty much. It was really helpful.
Speaker 3: I appreciate it.
Speaker 1: Good man. Is there anything else you want to say
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go?
Speaker 3: Yeah? Would you mind if I possibly shouted out my Instagram.
Speaker 3: I'm an amateur mixed march, life, flighter and more following
Speaker 3: I have the the better it is for me. Yeah sure,
Speaker 3: go ahead, Yeah you follow me on Instagram STC four
Speaker 3: zero three Underscore. Really appreciate you guys, Love you guy.
Speaker 3: Thanks for everything you do.
Speaker 1: Whether have a good way real quick? Where Canada you
Speaker 1: actually from? Because I'm gonna I think next time I
Speaker 1: told where. I want to do more of the like
Speaker 1: I've done, like Vancouver and Toronto and ship, but I
Speaker 1: want to do.
Speaker 3: I'm in Alberta in Edmonton. You came to like you
Speaker 3: came to Edmonton. I live like two hours south of there.
Speaker 3: You should do like Red Deer or Calgary. I live
Speaker 3: in red Deer. It's between Edmonton and Calgary. But you
Speaker 3: should definitely do Calgary. Man, it's a beautiful city. You
Speaker 3: like it a lot more of Edmonton's offense Edmonton but
Speaker 3: sick sick.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Edmonton was a little depressed. I mean the show
Speaker 1: was great, but the city itself was a little depressing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we call it Gotham City.
Speaker 1: But take care Sean, Thank you man, you too, bye, Bud. Now,
Speaker 1: Edmonton was cool. We went to the mall, the Edmonton mall. Oh,
Speaker 1: here's my favorite part of Edmonton for uh the A
Speaker 1: and W. We went to a fucking A and W
Speaker 1: where they put the mug like they put like a
Speaker 1: glass mug in the freezer and then they take it
Speaker 1: out and they pour the roopier in it. That's the
Speaker 1: best thing about the whole city is they got anw's everywhere.
Speaker 1: Tim Horton's Tim Hortons destroys, destroys the shit ass Starbucks.
Speaker 1: Fuck Starbuck. I haven't talked enough on this podcast about
Speaker 1: how much I hate Starbucks. And they give you the
Speaker 1: little They give you like a teeny little, eaty bitty
Speaker 1: like their idea of like a bacon, egg and cheese
Speaker 1: sandwich is like an eaty bitty English muffin with a
Speaker 1: little bit of cheese and sausage and whatever. It's like
Speaker 1: a tiny little circle. You can make it with your
Speaker 1: pointer finger and your thumb. Seven dollars, go fuck yourself,
Speaker 1: Tim Hortons. They'll give you diabetes for three Canadian dollars.
Speaker 1: That's like one American penny. It's great. Hey, what's up?
Speaker 1: Everybody has a going It's Lyle and I'm here to
Speaker 1: end the episode by reading some viewer mail. But before
Speaker 1: I do that, I want to do a little thing.
Speaker 1: I want to let you guys know that I am
Speaker 1: currently in the process of planning another tour for twenty
Speaker 1: twenty six. This would be my fourth time taking Therapy
Speaker 1: Gecko on the road. I'm really excited to get back
Speaker 1: out there. I took a long break from doing shows
Speaker 1: and I feel like I've had adequate time to rest
Speaker 1: and chill and now I'm ready to get back out
Speaker 1: there and hit you guys with some stories from my
Speaker 1: life and combine that with some stories from the audience's
Speaker 1: life and you have a good time and do some shows.
Speaker 1: So if the idea of coming to a live show
Speaker 1: interests you, you can click the link in the episode description.
Speaker 1: I have a link that allows you to sign up
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Speaker 1: when I am coming to your city, and it will
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Speaker 1: over my words today, but go into the episode description
Speaker 1: of the podcast. Put your phone number or email in
Speaker 1: there so that I can let you know when I'm
Speaker 1: coming to your city in twenty twenty six, and especially
Speaker 1: if you live in New York City, because I'm going
Speaker 1: to try to start up a kind of a regular
Speaker 1: recurring show between now and that tour to kind of
Speaker 1: get some material together and practice being back on stage.
Speaker 1: But anyway, let's get into some GEK mails. This is
Speaker 1: from Marcos. Subject line, I ran my first marathon with
Speaker 1: my sixty two year old day. Hello, GHEK, I hope
Speaker 1: you were doing all right. We had talked before. I
Speaker 1: was the caller who destroyed your optimism with the metaglasses convo.
Speaker 1: I think I remember that. I think there was a
Speaker 1: conversation where I was being optimistic about the rejection of
Speaker 1: new technology, and then you told me about the metaglasses
Speaker 1: and I was like, Okay, well we're fucked anyway. On
Speaker 1: October fifth, I ran the Twin Cities Marathon with my
Speaker 1: father and two brothers. My father has ran many before
Speaker 1: in his prime, and he's always wanted to run one
Speaker 1: with his three sons. That was my main motivation to
Speaker 1: sign up. Oh that's cute. So I start training in
Speaker 1: January and I was very impressed with how far I
Speaker 1: can run. I felt limitless, as if I awoke a
Speaker 1: new potential within me. Race day came and I felt
Speaker 1: hella nervous. Everything was going fine until mile nineteen. I
Speaker 1: was lagging behind and they had started taking down the
Speaker 1: mile markers. So for the next six miles I had
Speaker 1: no idea how much further go, and I was in
Speaker 1: all sorts of pain. My mom decided to join me
Speaker 1: and my dad on the last portion of the race
Speaker 1: to motivate us. Thankfully, I made it to the finish
Speaker 1: line with one last sprint. I finished in seven hours
Speaker 1: and thirty minutes, and I would do it again. Oh shit, man,
Speaker 1: seven hours of running. That's cray AT's crazy. Shout out
Speaker 1: to my wife for supporting me the whole time. Shout
Speaker 1: out to my family for being there at the end
Speaker 1: of the finish line. Congratulations Marcos, that's cool. I don't
Speaker 1: know why I'm making everything about me, but I'd like
Speaker 1: to run a marathon one day. I don't know. I
Speaker 1: don't know if I'm ever gonna do that. I don't
Speaker 1: like running. I like walking like I would I could easily.
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know about easily. But like if
Speaker 1: you were like, hey, you want to go on a
Speaker 1: fifty mile walk, I'd be like, sure, that sounds like
Speaker 1: it could be fun.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 1: I like a nice pace, but a run is like
Speaker 1: if I don't have anything to run from, I don't
Speaker 1: really want to run, but I'm glad that you did it.
Speaker 1: Someone's got to do it. Think. You know what always
Speaker 1: confused me is the like like the breast cancer awareness
Speaker 1: walks and like not specifically breast cancer, but you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, where it's like walk for diabetes, walk
Speaker 1: for cancer type of stuff, like when we were growing up.
Speaker 1: I'm sure they still do it, but because I always
Speaker 1: thought I was like when I was a kid, I
Speaker 1: thought that somehow the walking itself cured the cancer. And
Speaker 1: now I realized, no, you pay. I think this is
Speaker 1: how it works. You pay. I've never ran one of
Speaker 1: these things, but you pay money and then you do
Speaker 1: the walk, and then they donate the money to like
Speaker 1: a cancer research place. But don't wouldn't You don't have
Speaker 1: to do the walk, You can just do the give
Speaker 1: the money. It should be called money for should be
Speaker 1: called money for cancer, folks. I'm going on tour. It's
Speaker 1: gonna be great now. I'm yeah, that sounds uh, sounds good.
Speaker 1: I'm glad you did that. Okay. Interesting. This is from Shade,
Speaker 1: subject line unhappiness while happy. Hey, Lyle, I've been wanting
Speaker 1: to message you forever. You can read my silly email
Speaker 1: name if you'd like. But I'll go by Timothy. Okay,
Speaker 1: I'll call you Timothy. I have everything a man could
Speaker 1: say they want, but I'm pretty chronically unhappy. I have
Speaker 1: a fiance and we had a baby recently. She's a
Speaker 1: year and a half old and the light of my life.
Speaker 1: And we have two cats and a dog. The worst
Speaker 1: thing about my living situation is living with my fiance's mom,
Speaker 1: who is seventy and always talks in a baby voice
Speaker 1: and pushes boundaries by always just being in our grill
Speaker 1: and being Hella overbearing. I live in Texas, where weed
Speaker 1: is illegal. I got in trouble twice consecutively for the
Speaker 1: Penjamin and Bud after that six year to all I
Speaker 1: wanted to do when I was twenty six and done
Speaker 1: with that was travel. Wait, hold on, after that six
Speaker 1: year debacle, did you get did you get thrown in jail?
Speaker 1: What is the six year debacle? I'm gonna assume you
Speaker 1: got thrown in jail, but I don't. Okay, anyway, all
Speaker 1: I wanted to do when I was twenty six and
Speaker 1: done with that was travel. I've already traveled a lot
Speaker 1: as a kid to New York and London, but not
Speaker 1: nearly as much as I wanted to. But almost right
Speaker 1: after I got off probation, Okay, there it is, I
Speaker 1: got with my fiance and we made our baby. Who
Speaker 1: is my mini me. That's cute. I have a chronic
Speaker 1: case of wanderlust, and I'm diagnosed to bipolar, depressive and
Speaker 1: an insomniac. I deal with this by smoking and drinking constantly.
Speaker 1: I know it's a terrible way to self medicate, and
Speaker 1: I need to probably just get on meds like you
Speaker 1: instead of killing my liver faster with alcohol. I'm not
Speaker 1: on any SSRIs. I take stimulants and they're fucking great.
Speaker 1: But anyway, but I've also had a plenty of times
Speaker 1: where I was trying to where I also self medicate,
Speaker 1: uh severely with you know, weed and alcohol and masturbation.
Speaker 1: So you know, I mean we can we can kind
Speaker 1: of go eye to eye on this. Uh, I probably
Speaker 1: need to get on meds, like you instead of killing
Speaker 1: my liver faster with alcohol. But it's a remedy that's
Speaker 1: right there, and it's become habitual. That's the dude. That's
Speaker 1: one of the hardest things about like taking fucking meds
Speaker 1: is you go to the doctor and the doctor's like, Okay,
Speaker 1: we have a thing and it might make your situation
Speaker 1: a little bit better or it might make it way worse,
Speaker 1: and you have to take it for three months to
Speaker 1: find out. That's what getting on SSRIs is like. And
Speaker 1: then and then alcohol is like, hey, you want to
Speaker 1: make that you want to make that ship stop right
Speaker 1: fucking now. Obviously you know it's not a good idea
Speaker 1: you go into, you go into a form of emotional debt.
Speaker 1: But again I'm not gonna say I don't get it.
Speaker 1: I yearn for the empty roads, for the sites, for
Speaker 1: the feeling of living something I should have at a
Speaker 1: younger age. I'm only twenty nine now, but in eighteen years,
Speaker 1: when my baby is bigger, I'll be damned near fifty.
Speaker 1: My life as a kid was pretty traumatic, so substance
Speaker 1: abuse issues when I was a kid were prevalent. But
Speaker 1: now it's just the beer. My dad died drinking and
Speaker 1: driving when I was eight, and my dad's dad was
Speaker 1: a Vietnam vet who had PTSD and hardcore depression. He
Speaker 1: drank himself to cirrhosis of the liver. I can't follow
Speaker 1: these assholes to a young grave, mostly for my daughter,
Speaker 1: but also I always told myself i'd break the cycle,
Speaker 1: and here I am looking my daughter in the face,
Speaker 1: debating when to take the first drink of the night,
Speaker 1: closer to bedtime. I have a lot more to talk about,
Speaker 1: and this isn't laid out the best, but Thanksghek for
Speaker 1: everything you do. I've been listening for five years and
Speaker 1: any advice would be great. Hmmm, you know, well a
Speaker 1: few things. I mean, this is definitely real therapist stuff.
Speaker 1: But I do have thoughts, you know, I will have
Speaker 1: a lot of I have a lot of thoughts. Why.
Speaker 1: I want to know, why are you unhappy? Because I'm
Speaker 1: thinking about times in my life where I've like self
Speaker 1: medicated with alcohol or weed er whatever it is, and
Speaker 1: it's because I was unhappier because I was really stressed,
Speaker 1: and you know, like you said, it's right fucking there,
Speaker 1: you know, and then all these like external the mere
Speaker 1: presence of external things in your life, like your fiance
Speaker 1: and your baby and your your job and whatever. It like,
Speaker 1: the mere presence of positive external things in your life
Speaker 1: is useless if you can't if you don't have the
Speaker 1: internal shit figured out to like appreciate them and like
Speaker 1: dive into them, you know. I mean it also sounds
Speaker 1: like you. I mean, yeah, you definitely have some kind
Speaker 1: of like biological issue going on that you've got to
Speaker 1: talk to a professional about. And I'm trying to think
Speaker 1: of like advice just from my own experience of like
Speaker 1: depression and substance shit. I mean, you're definitely you're doing
Speaker 1: way better than your dad and your dad's dad did,
Speaker 1: doing way better, doing way better than your dad and
Speaker 1: your dad's dad did a because you're not I hope
Speaker 1: you're not drinking and driving. You're not dead, and you see,
Speaker 1: I don't know something about I don't know your dad.
Speaker 1: I don't know your dad's dad. But I don't know
Speaker 1: if your dad and your dad's dad ever had the
Speaker 1: self awareness to, you know, send an email to a
Speaker 1: lizard asking for advice, you know. I mean, that's a
Speaker 1: bare minimum amount of self awareness that it seems like
Speaker 1: you have. And I and that's the whole thing, right.
Speaker 1: It's like knowing you have a problem as part of
Speaker 1: solving the problem. So that's good. You seem to know
Speaker 1: a lot about yourself, Timothy. You seem to know a
Speaker 1: lot about yourself, which is great because some people they're
Speaker 1: just floating right, Like, you know, you're just getting drunk
Speaker 1: just because there's nothing else to do, and you're fucking
Speaker 1: floating and you're you know, just feel like you're drowning.
Speaker 1: But you got a lot of good information. You know,
Speaker 1: you know that what you're experiencing is part of a
Speaker 1: cycle from your family. You know that you love your daughter.
Speaker 1: Some people don't know that. Some people don't Some people
Speaker 1: like look at their kid and they're like, I don't
Speaker 1: know if I like if I love this kid, or
Speaker 1: some people look at their significant other and they're like,
Speaker 1: I don't know about this person. But you see, you know,
Speaker 1: I could tell that. You know, you know that you
Speaker 1: like to travel. That's great. You know what you don't want?
Speaker 1: You know you want to be a good dad. You
Speaker 1: know you want to be a good husband. You know
Speaker 1: you want to you know, you want to get better.
Speaker 1: That's the thing. Some people don't want to get better.
Speaker 1: Or they don't even know what to f they don't
Speaker 1: even have like rolls to slip in, Like that's a
Speaker 1: big thing that people get the just people get lost
Speaker 1: to you know, they don't have a they don't have
Speaker 1: somebody to be a good father to or to be
Speaker 1: a good husband to, or they don't have a thing
Speaker 1: in life to even like show up to. But you've
Speaker 1: got some stuff that you know in your gut is
Speaker 1: worth showing up to. And so if I had to
Speaker 1: give any advice to this email, I would say like, well, okay,
Speaker 1: you know, make a list or at least a mental
Speaker 1: note of these things that you want to be and
Speaker 1: you want to show up to and go from there,
Speaker 1: because I don't think I don't know if you can
Speaker 1: just I'm not a life coach or anything like that,
Speaker 1: but I'm just like talking out of my ass here.
Speaker 1: But I don't know if you can just like stop
Speaker 1: drinking or stop whatever your negative behavior is. I think,
Speaker 1: at least in my case, I've always had to replace
Speaker 1: it with something else. Like if I'm like, for example,
Speaker 1: if I'm addicted to porn, I'm addicted to like whatever
Speaker 1: it is, and I'll notice if I'm in the if
Speaker 1: I'm doing something that's positive, or I'm like fulfilling one
Speaker 1: of my positive values or whatnot. I'll be like, oh shit,
Speaker 1: it's been two days since I've jacked off and I
Speaker 1: didn't even have to try, you know, because you're busy
Speaker 1: on something else. I think that wander lust shit, because
Speaker 1: I have that too. I think that comes from like
Speaker 1: a we talked about it early in your episode, like
Speaker 1: you want to fuck the world, you know, and sometimes
Speaker 1: sometimes they just want you need a change of state,
Speaker 1: or you're just like, dude, I'm trying to verbally express
Speaker 1: a feeling I have in my gut right now, and
Speaker 1: maybe some people understand it. But like, yeah, sometimes that
Speaker 1: manifests in like beautiful stuff and the other times that
Speaker 1: manifests in fucking drinking yourself to death. But shit, that
Speaker 1: was a whole rant and ponder. I don't know if
Speaker 1: those I don't know if this was helpful to you
Speaker 1: in any way, Timothy, but hmmm, that's my takeaway. I
Speaker 1: don't know if this is helpful for you just having
Speaker 1: somebody else read this, But my main takeaway from this
Speaker 1: is that in your email, you have lined, you have
Speaker 1: outlined things that you care about, and so you have
Speaker 1: a direction. I can't give you advice on I I
Speaker 1: can't give you advice on how to move in that direction,
Speaker 1: but I can just tell you my perspective reading this
Speaker 1: email is that you have a direction, which is more
Speaker 1: than most people have. So you know, take a look
Speaker 1: at that. I hope that was helpful. Okay, Oh, here's this.
Speaker 1: Oh I read this one off off the mic, just
Speaker 1: like when I was I was just look at the
Speaker 1: get mail on my phone and I thought it was
Speaker 1: really funny. I took a screenshot of this and I
Speaker 1: sent it to my group chat with my friends. That
Speaker 1: got nine laugh reacts. Okay, this is from Tom subject
Speaker 1: and this is from Tom. It just says, Hey, GEK,
Speaker 1: just wondering why every episode is about sex lately everyone
Speaker 1: just talks about sex. There isn't any therapy happening here.
Speaker 1: Just talking about sex. Used to be really cool and
Speaker 1: interesting stories told. Now it's just sex. Hope it gets
Speaker 1: interesting soon. Exclamation points. I don't know what to tell you, Tom.
Speaker 1: People really, people really like having sex. It's one of
Speaker 1: the main things. It's it's it's real. Sex is really
Speaker 1: our only it's the only like logistical meaning of life.
Speaker 1: I think because we're humans. We try to kind of
Speaker 1: come up with other things and they always end up
Speaker 1: leading back to sex. But yeah, that's what that's like.
Speaker 1: Our biological function, stay alive, reproduce. Humans are interesting. We
Speaker 1: figured out a way to reproduce without the baby part.
Speaker 1: Isn't that interesting? We were like, wait, this just feels good.
Speaker 1: Let's just do it without the whole having a baby part.
Speaker 1: Isn't that crazy? Like biologically we're supposed to reproduce once. Well,
Speaker 1: I guess I don't like biologically, every time you have sex,
Speaker 1: the purpose is to make a baby, cald You imagine
Speaker 1: if every time you had sex you made a baby.
Speaker 1: That's what they used to do. But we're geniuses. We
Speaker 1: meant to condoms, we meant to contraceptives, and we were like,
Speaker 1: let's just do it just for fun. And so people
Speaker 1: are having fun. Now it's fun to you should try
Speaker 1: having sex, Thomas. It's nice. I'm not even I'm not
Speaker 1: saying that as like a diss too. You you might have
Speaker 1: a lot of se you might have. I actually think
Speaker 1: this this emailer has so much sex that the reason
Speaker 1: they're tired of hearing about people talk about sex in
Speaker 1: the podcast is because they're like, I have sex so
Speaker 1: much in my regular life. I listen to the Therapy Gecko
Speaker 1: podcast to get away from sex. And in that case, Tom,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm sorry, but you know, out of control what
Speaker 1: people say on here. I mean, I kind of do
Speaker 1: a little bit. I you know, I'll edit out calls
Speaker 1: that I don't want to put in the podcast. But
Speaker 1: you know, sex is a universal concept. It's not even
Speaker 1: like a human universal concept. It's like a biological universal concept.
Speaker 1: So you know it's going to come up. That's all
Speaker 1: I'm saying. This is from Rolin subject line twenty six
Speaker 1: years old without social media, high Gecko. I'm a twenty
Speaker 1: six year old male and I'm lit, and I no
Speaker 1: longer have social media or scroll away hours of my
Speaker 1: life on my phone. It's come with its drawbacks, but
Speaker 1: not really the ones you'd think. I've gotten a lot
Speaker 1: of my friends and family telling me to get off
Speaker 1: my high horse, and I'm just trying to be different
Speaker 1: and better than all of them. What that's crazy, By
Speaker 1: the way, you are better than all of them. I
Speaker 1: want you to know something. If you and this goes
Speaker 1: to everyone, if you don't have social media, you you
Speaker 1: are better than everyone else. If you don't have social
Speaker 1: media and you don't eat meat, and you run five
Speaker 1: miles a day and you.
Speaker 3: Like eat.
Speaker 1: Like fruits and vegetables, you are You're better than everyone else.
Speaker 1: You are objectively much better of a human being. If
Speaker 1: you like, if you give to charity, like you just
Speaker 1: you just are you're better human being than everyone else.
Speaker 1: And I think, I think you get to be. I
Speaker 1: think the reward because it's a lot of work being
Speaker 1: better than everyone else. And you know, it's a lot
Speaker 1: of work to remove yourself from your vices and like
Speaker 1: try to do the things you're supposed to do. And
Speaker 1: part of the reward of that is that you just
Speaker 1: get you get to be better than everyone else. It's
Speaker 1: a it's a totally totally fair system. That's why I
Speaker 1: don't care. I don't care if someone is pretentious to
Speaker 1: me about their achievements or about like like if you
Speaker 1: if we're talking and you're acting like you're better than
Speaker 1: me because you don't eat meatia, you don't have social
Speaker 1: media or whatever virtual or you read whatever virtue thing is.
Speaker 1: I don't get offended at all. I think you're right
Speaker 1: and you deserve to be able to do that. But
Speaker 1: I also also, Rolin, I don't know you, but I
Speaker 1: think you're a good guy. I don't even think you're
Speaker 1: being a dick about it, which fucking makes you even better.
Speaker 3: That makes you.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, Roland, you're so much better than everyone
Speaker 1: else because I can tell you're not being a dick
Speaker 1: about it when you are well within your right to
Speaker 1: be a dick about it. I'm impressed by you, Rolin. Okay,
Speaker 1: let me finish reading, then email. I don't think that's
Speaker 1: the case. I'm not like the annoying, overbearing preacher telling
Speaker 1: people they must stop scrolling or they were perish in
Speaker 1: the depths of hell. They can do what they want.
Speaker 1: I just don't want to waste any more of my time.
Speaker 1: I guess what really bothers me is that whenever someone
Speaker 1: asks for my social media, I say I don't have
Speaker 1: social media, and apparently that's a red flag. Hold on, Okay,
Speaker 1: you don't know this because you don't have social media rollin,
Speaker 1: But like, dude, there's a phenomenon going on. I've both
Speaker 1: seen it on TikTok and I've like talked to people
Speaker 1: about it, where like women want a man with no
Speaker 1: social media, and I've some people have. I don't think
Speaker 1: this is true. I don't think this is like in general,
Speaker 1: but I've talked to a lot of people lately who
Speaker 1: are like, I want a boyfriend with no friends who
Speaker 1: plays sudoku in his room alone. I think there's a
Speaker 1: lot of people who don't want that, but there's a
Speaker 1: certain but like, actually, I think a lot of people
Speaker 1: find that attractive, or like I'll see some TikTok where
Speaker 1: it's like manifesting this and it's like an Instagram account
Speaker 1: with no posts, no followers, and no one they're following.
Speaker 1: So I don't think it's a red flag necessarily. Also
Speaker 1: when I'm also like, I mean that whatever I gave
Speaker 1: the dating aspect of it, but also like, if I
Speaker 1: meet someone and they say they don't have any social media,
Speaker 1: I immediately find them. I immediately am like, oh, you
Speaker 1: actually genuinely are di from for everyone else. You're way
Speaker 1: more interesting. I want to talk to you. You have
Speaker 1: more interesting thoughts. I just believe that, So it's a
Speaker 1: green flag. The follow up question is why don't you
Speaker 1: have it? It bothers me because if I don't have
Speaker 1: a real answer that makes any sense, Yes, you do,
Speaker 1: you totally have a real answer that makes sense as
Speaker 1: to why you don't have it. You don't have it
Speaker 1: because it's a waste of your life. You don't have
Speaker 1: it because it makes you It increases depression, and it
Speaker 1: makes you compare your life to everyone else instead of
Speaker 1: living your own life. It wastes a ton of time.
Speaker 1: It makes you fucking anxious. Dude. The most calm I
Speaker 1: fucking feel is if I go like a few days
Speaker 1: without looking at my phone. My phone makes me so
Speaker 1: fucking anxious. And we know it too, and we just
Speaker 1: keep doing it. Sincerely, a social digital ghoes somewhere in
Speaker 1: the middle of Canada. That would be depressing to me.
Speaker 1: I was just in the middle of Canada at a
Speaker 1: fun time. But it's too isolated from other people. I
Speaker 1: think the Yeah, if you can just be around real
Speaker 1: human beings, then you're good. I mean, have a phone,
Speaker 1: have like a phone number, have a notes app. But
Speaker 1: you're not missing anything, man, You're not missing an It's like,
Speaker 1: I mean, whatever, I don't want to be the eight
Speaker 1: hundredth person to go on this ramp. But it's like
Speaker 1: we're just getting programmed, dude, We're just getting programmed. You
Speaker 1: have a fresh, interesting mind. You're not programmed by anything.
Speaker 1: Oh rollin. Your friends and family suck, dude. No, they
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know them. I don't want
Speaker 1: to say that, but I will say that you're better
Speaker 1: than all of them. I'll say that with confidence. All right,
Speaker 1: let's do a couple more emails. Subject line I did
Speaker 1: copious amounts of Molly that I was meant to sell.
Speaker 1: What's up? Ghek reezi Here, I'll get into it. My
Speaker 1: friend got married in September of twenty twenty two. That
Speaker 1: same night was first introduced to Molly. I remember my
Speaker 1: friend telling me, whatever I do, do not take it
Speaker 1: alone in my bedroom. Why so I did, and soon
Speaker 1: regretted it after I began overthinking and hyperventilating because I
Speaker 1: had zero knowledge on what the substance would do to me. Okay,
Speaker 1: that makes sense. After a few minutes, I managed to
Speaker 1: calm down by listening to music. I left my house
Speaker 1: and crashed at a friend's place. He was pretty chill
Speaker 1: about the situation. October was rolling around, No pun intended.
Speaker 1: That was me saying that no pun intended. He did
Speaker 1: not write no pun intended. October was rolling around, and
Speaker 1: it was time for me to go back to college.
Speaker 1: Here's where things get messy. I asked my friend for
Speaker 1: another one to take with me to college, and then
Speaker 1: he asked if I would be interested in taking a
Speaker 1: whole bunch to sell, maybe young entrepreneur here. I agreed,
Speaker 1: and there I was in my dorm with more Molly
Speaker 1: than I know what to do with. For the next
Speaker 1: series of days, I began just popping them will playing
Speaker 1: niche custom games and Overwatch, and listening to music until
Speaker 1: one night I realized nothing was happening anymore, no buzz
Speaker 1: or restless feeling. I managed to sell only one pill
Speaker 1: and completely used the rest safe to say, after paying
Speaker 1: for the whole batch, I'm done with drugs altogether. The
Speaker 1: next year felt odd. I was slightly less connected to everything,
Speaker 1: slightly slower and more stoic, Even with the probable irreversible damage.
Speaker 1: It was a somewhat profound experience. Easy thank you for sharing, Reezy.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say it, Molly is the best drug that
Speaker 1: is invented. It's the best drug I've done. I haven't
Speaker 1: done a full, full, full dose of molly in like
Speaker 1: three and a half years, but I've done like a
Speaker 1: teensy bit between now and then, And I mean, yeah,
Speaker 1: it's the best, like a full and that's the way
Speaker 1: to do Molly. You can't like do it every day.
Speaker 1: It's not you can't do it every day because they'll
Speaker 1: just fuck your ship up. And the first time you
Speaker 1: ever do it is like as like nothing else, it's
Speaker 1: the goddamn best. But yeah, I mean I've been to
Speaker 1: music festivals before where people are like, yeah, we're gonna
Speaker 1: do it every day of this four day festival and
Speaker 1: they have a good time. But it's too much. It's
Speaker 1: too much. How much was that whole thing of Molly
Speaker 1: also doing it a lot? Also there's people who do it.
Speaker 1: It's fun to do with. For I it's great to
Speaker 1: do like like I don't go to the club. I
Speaker 1: don't like the club, Like I don't have a good
Speaker 1: time there. I think too much, I can. I can
Speaker 1: only really say this as like an anxious overthinker on
Speaker 1: drugs guy, is that there's there's certain drugs that like
Speaker 1: take you put you, take you in, and then drugs
Speaker 1: that take you out. And I'm a very in guy.
Speaker 1: I'm always thinking, always in my head. I'm like, you
Speaker 1: know whatever, Molly's fucking great because it just it like removed,
Speaker 1: it like removes your ability to not be in the present.
Speaker 1: Like I just, oh, I'm just so fucking present when
Speaker 1: I'm on it, and and I don't even because and
Speaker 1: when I'm there, I don't even give a shit with
Speaker 1: what's around me. You know, if I'm like in these
Speaker 1: if I'm like high in the club, I'm like, none
Speaker 1: of these people would give a shit if I died.
Speaker 1: And you know, I said that was trying to be
Speaker 1: funny when I said that, but it came out depressing.
Speaker 1: Sh I'm having a good time talking into this microphone.
Speaker 1: I hope you guys are here with me, but yeah,
Speaker 1: like acid or shrooms and stuff. I don't know why
Speaker 1: people do that shit at music festivals, because it takes
Speaker 1: you in where Molly just brings you out. So like
Speaker 1: I've been like the last time I took Molly, I
Speaker 1: was at some music festival like three years ago, and uh,
Speaker 1: and then I got separated for the people I was with,
Speaker 1: And then I just went back to the hotel and
Speaker 1: I sat on the toilet and I had a fucking
Speaker 1: I was just thinking about how much I love my life,
Speaker 1: and I just had a great time alone on the
Speaker 1: toilet doing molly, So you can do it on the toilet,
Speaker 1: or you can do it with friends. What else can
Speaker 1: you do on the It's one of the few things
Speaker 1: that you can have a lot of fun doing both
Speaker 1: alone on the toilet and with friends. Pooping only fun
Speaker 1: alone on the toilet. There's a wider range of things
Speaker 1: that are funner that are more fun to do alone
Speaker 1: on the toilet than with friends. Pretty Much anything that
Speaker 1: is fun to do with friends is also fun to
Speaker 1: do alone on the toilet. Shitting and pissing is not
Speaker 1: fun to do with Actually, I mean if you each
Speaker 1: have your own toilet, I feel like, yeah, if you
Speaker 1: if I mean yeah, if you're like out with your
Speaker 1: friends and you're sitting at a bar and you take
Speaker 1: a big shit and your friends all actually that sounds
Speaker 1: fun too. If like, you're we're all out at a
Speaker 1: sports bar and one guy's let and there's six of
Speaker 1: you and one guy's like, hey, you guys, I want
Speaker 1: to take shits together, and you do and you smell
Speaker 1: bad and you're laughing and you're diarry ing and you're connecting.
Speaker 1: They actually does that? Actually does sound more fun than
Speaker 1: doing it alone. So never mind, I think there's I
Speaker 1: think you'll have more fun. I think most things are
Speaker 1: more fun to do with friends than alone on the toilet,
Speaker 1: including pissing and shitting. All right, that was the Therapy
Speaker 1: Eco podcast. I felt good about this one. I thought
Speaker 1: it was fun. I hope you guys enjoyed it. Please
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Speaker 1: tell some stories that are not in the video, and
Speaker 1: I also have some other stories from my life and
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Speaker 1: for being here. I read all the Spotify comments alone
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Speaker 3: He's teaching you
Speaker 1: A loud in them of your life, but he's not
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