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Speaker 1: Hello, Who is this.

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Speaker 2: My name's Violet.

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Speaker 1: Violet. What's going on? Violet? How's life?

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Speaker 2: It's been pretty good? Hold on, I'm a little nervous.

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Speaker 2: I didn't think you'd call me. I've seen your like

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Speaker 2: your YouTube shorts.

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Speaker 1: I am honored to hear that you have seen the

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Speaker 1: YouTube shorts. I've been trying to upload more of them.

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Speaker 2: I said, yeah, there's super funny.

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Speaker 1: I sit alone on a computer and I and I

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Speaker 1: edit videos. It's a good life. It's a good life.

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Speaker 1: But enough about my life, Violet, what's going on you?

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Speaker 1: You messaged, you sent a text and you said, I

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Speaker 1: want to come on the show and talk about my

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Speaker 1: new job as an escort.

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Speaker 2: Yeah. Well that's something I just recently started, like maybe

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Speaker 2: two months ago. It's been going pretty good.

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Speaker 1: How did you get into that?

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Speaker 2: Well, I'm a stripper and I got really burnt out.

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Speaker 2: So I was like, okay, let me try something else.

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Speaker 1: Well, I guess I have a few questions. Why did

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Speaker 1: you get burnt out from being a stripper?

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Speaker 2: I think it's just a lot of competition and I

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Speaker 2: feel like a little self conscious maybe so now like

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Speaker 2: it's like I don't get rejected at all. You know,

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Speaker 2: when guys call me because they're choosing me because as

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Speaker 2: a stripper, like you could walk up to like tony

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Speaker 2: dudes tonight and only five of them will be like, Okay, yeah,

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Speaker 2: we could go for a dance even though I made

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Speaker 2: really good money.

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Speaker 3: Mm hm m hm?

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Speaker 1: Did that?

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Speaker 3: Was that?

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Speaker 1: Did that?

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Speaker 3: Now?

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Speaker 1: When that happens, are you at a point where you're like,

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Speaker 1: that's just the game, or does do you feel like

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Speaker 1: a form of like personal.

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Speaker 3: Rejection the kind of the day?

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Speaker 2: Really? Because I used to be really self conscious, and

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Speaker 2: then when I started stripping, like I felt way better

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Speaker 2: about myself. But I guess since like sometimes i'll tie

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Speaker 2: how much money I'm making to like my self worth.

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Speaker 2: Does that make sense?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? So it's less of the like the like rejection

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Speaker 1: of the guy of the guy of you than it

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Speaker 1: is like about like the self self worth of the money.

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Speaker 2: Yeah. I don't know.

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Speaker 1: So you said that, how did stripping help your self esteem?

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Speaker 3: Less?

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Speaker 2: A whole bit of way. I mean, now I have

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Speaker 2: money to like do whatever, Like I could get hair extensions,

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Speaker 2: I always have like my lassies done, and I feel

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Speaker 2: just good about myself.

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Speaker 3: Mh.

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Speaker 2: So I love that and I don't think I'll ever

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Speaker 2: be able to do anything else, even though I guess

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Speaker 2: I'll get old eventually, but I'm only twenty one.

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Speaker 1: Why do you think you won't be able to do

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Speaker 2: Well, I don't know. I mean I have goals, I

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Speaker 2: just I don't know. I feel a little last like

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Speaker 2: I'm supposed to start college soon and I have been

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Speaker 2: I've just been really dizzy working and all that.

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Speaker 1: But I don't understand because you say you have goals

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Speaker 1: and you say you start in college soon, but then

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Speaker 1: you also say you won't be able to do anything else.

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Speaker 1: I mean you said that pretty confidently.

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Speaker 2: I well, you know, I have to do something else.

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Speaker 3: I guess.

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I have to like depression, and sometimes

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Speaker 2: that'll like not like flare up. But it's just a

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Speaker 2: part of life, you know. But sometimes I just feel

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Speaker 1: Uh farther farther ahead?

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Speaker 3: And what in what sense in life?

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Speaker 2: Like I compare myself, like, okay, I could have like

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Speaker 1: Well, I mean, well is a trade off, right, because

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Speaker 1: like you, you probably I assume if you were. I

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Speaker 1: don't know how much you save or how much you

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Speaker 1: you know, so, and whatever decision you make will put

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Speaker 1: you ahead in one way and behind and the other way.

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Speaker 1: But you know, you want to focus on the ways

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Speaker 1: in which you are ahead.

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Speaker 2: Definitely. Yeah, you know, I've had time to save money.

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Speaker 2: But I love like being a stripper. I love being

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Speaker 2: an escort. I think it's fun. I get some crazy

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Speaker 1: I have well, I have questions about the escorting thing.

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Speaker 1: But also you said, what are your goals that you

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I really want to go into criminal justice. That's

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Speaker 2: my goal. I want to be able to help people.

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Speaker 2: I think that would be cool.

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Speaker 3: Mm.

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Speaker 1: So what do you what is it that you like about? Well, so,

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Speaker 1: what exactly are you doing like as as an escort?

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Speaker 2: Well, like I have an ad on a website and

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Speaker 2: then these guys call me and then I take their information,

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Speaker 2: like their ID and like their like business websites, and

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Speaker 2: I looked through I try to make sure they're not

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Speaker 2: like a serial killer, and then I'll go hang out

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Speaker 2: with them. And it's not always like sexual.

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Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 1: Have you met interesting people doing this?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: I mean at District Club, we're escorting people with like

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Speaker 2: maybe weird kings and characters. I had a guy that like, Yeah,

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Speaker 2: I had a guy that really wanted me to pee

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Speaker 1: Is that something you're interested in doing is peeing on someone?

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Speaker 2: I mean some money, I might mm hmm.

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Speaker 1: Have you ever have you ever like, like, who's the

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Speaker 1: most memorable character you've come across in this line of work? Mmmm?

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Speaker 2: I had a guy that really liked and I would

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Speaker 2: like step on him. I've had guys like me in

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Speaker 2: a fart in her face, should I don't know, shout.

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Speaker 1: Out, shout out to our boy, Hank.

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Speaker 2: Yeah that's pretty cool.

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Speaker 1: Mm hmm. Okay, so this is something that you're enjoying

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Speaker 1: doing and you want to you would like to continue

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Speaker 2: Yeah, for like maybe like another tenure.

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Speaker 1: M hm, So I have a question, but this is

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Speaker 1: a like a form of judgment. Is a genuine question

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Speaker 3: Does it like.

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Speaker 1: How does it affect your personal view and experience like

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Speaker 2: I'd say it's pretty skewed. I think my sometimes my

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Speaker 2: I don't know a lot of guys that the guys

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Speaker 2: I kind of feel.

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Speaker 3: Bad about that.

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Speaker 1: Mm hmm, go ahead, go ahead.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know. I don't date or anything.

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Speaker 1: So how how in what other ways do you think

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Speaker 1: it's uh skewed your perception of men.

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Speaker 2: Otherwise? I don't know. I mean, I tend to really

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Speaker 2: a lot of them are really handsome and I like them.

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Speaker 2: The money is just a plastic.

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Speaker 1: M What what made you first get into this line

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Speaker 2: Well, the stripping, I don't know. I was like eighteen

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Speaker 2: and I really hated my job and I didn't want

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Speaker 2: quit my job. One day when I went into a

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Speaker 2: good for me. Dascorting, I don't know. I just did

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Speaker 1: Does your do you like, do you talk to your

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: My friends, No, my mom knows what what do they

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Speaker 2: They just want me to be safe?

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Speaker 4: Yeah, mm hmm.

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Speaker 1: That's good. Yeah, that's good. I I well, I'm I'm

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Speaker 1: Like if you if you're like, oh, if you're saying

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Speaker 1: But I like the fact that you're saying I can't

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Speaker 2: I think it's a mix of both. Like I really

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Speaker 2: I just make a good amount of money and I

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Speaker 2: it is hard work, but not like labor, like I

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Speaker 2: I want to go into criminal justice eventually. It'll just

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Speaker 1: M hm, Well you know, well I don't. Yeah, that's

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Speaker 2: Yeah, you mean like sexually, well, just I mean just.

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Speaker 1: In general, like you know, whether sexually or just the

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Speaker 2: Yeah. I like. I like being able to meet people

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Speaker 3: M hm Yeah.

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Speaker 1: And I think you know again, you know, whether or

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Speaker 3: Uh.

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Speaker 1: I think rewarded for is your ability to you know,

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Speaker 2: Right. Yeah, it's really cool talking to you. I don't

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Speaker 2: Mmm? No, but thanks for chatting with me.

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Speaker 1: Bye, Gek, goodbye bye. Let have a good rest of

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Speaker 3: Hi is this Gek?

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Speaker 1: This is who is this? This is Dev?

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Speaker 3: What's up? Dev? Has life? Oh?

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Speaker 1: D E V D E V Okay, all right, Dev?

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Speaker 4: So I've I've recently come to a realization and I

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Speaker 4: So, like, I've recently gone into a new relationship and

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Speaker 4: I I've only heard about it. We're doing long distance

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Speaker 4: But like I picture him in the like if he

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Speaker 4: Okay, I know he has to wear a hard hat

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Speaker 1: And mm hmmm hmmm. Then you don't know what you

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Speaker 1: on Bob the Builder?

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Speaker 4: Yeah, don't do that to me. Oh man, No, I

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Speaker 4: I watched that ship so often. Oh my god, Oh

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Speaker 4: my god, odd, oh my god. My boyfriend's kind of

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Speaker 4: That's not a no, no, that's just a huge wow.

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Speaker 4: See this is why I called you.

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Speaker 1: Is Bob that? Would you put Bob the Builder on

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Speaker 1: your like hear me out list?

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Speaker 3: Yes? Mm hmm.

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Speaker 1: Does he? Does your boyfriend look like Bob the Builder?

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Speaker 4: No, he has more hair. My dad looks like Bob

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Speaker 1: Oh holy shit, your boyfriend probably looks like your dad,

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Speaker 1: and that's probably why my.

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Speaker 4: Boyfriend does not look with my dad. My dad is

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Speaker 1: No offense, it's not a bad thing. I think that's No,

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Speaker 1: it's like a documented phenomenon as people want to date

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Speaker 4: No, I've seen that happen.

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Speaker 1: Damn, I don't know. That's pretty cool. I guess yeah,

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Speaker 4: I hope so like it definitely, you know, I think

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Speaker 4: And I just find that really attractive and like, you

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Speaker 4: if you're listening, get forklift certified. Like easiest pickup line

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Speaker 4: at bars too, Like if you're in a bar. I

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Speaker 3: I would be hooked.

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Speaker 4: I know I would be hooked. Like, oh my god, well,

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Speaker 4: you're forkliff certified. Tell me more, you know, so, I

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Speaker 1: You guys are a long distance he.

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Speaker 3: Said, yeah, we're long distance right now.

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Speaker 1: Where's he at?

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Speaker 4: He's in Louisiana.

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Speaker 1: Do you guys, where'd you guys meet?

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Speaker 4: We met online?

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Speaker 3: I do.

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Speaker 4: I'm in Kelly. I'm in Los Angeles and I do

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Speaker 4: we just kind of started talking to each other casually

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Speaker 1: And on his like, like, what you guys connected on Instagram?

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Speaker 1: Does he have a lot of pictures on his Instagram

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Speaker 3: He doesn't.

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Speaker 4: Oh my, he does not, actually, And I'm going to

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Speaker 4: I'm in the forklift. I can picture the forklift. I

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Speaker 3: A good idea.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, maybe you don't want to see the forklift, right

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Speaker 1: never see or what you you're like your boyfriend in

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Speaker 1: That's where every one of your dreams and fantasies will

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Speaker 4: I have never thought of it that way. See, and

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Speaker 4: this is I don't understand why you don't call yourself

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Speaker 4: I don't want to see a picture of him. I

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Speaker 4: don't want to see outside the forklift. Let's I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: In wild with that devastat anything else you want to

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Speaker 4: We go, man, get forklifts certified. You know, maybe you

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Speaker 4: double check your hear me out list. Maybe Bob the

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Speaker 4: Builder can be added to it. And God bless this

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Speaker 4: country and God bless America. And I love my boyfriend

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Speaker 4: so much. I love you and uh he messaged me

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Speaker 4: call you. So Hi, babe. I love you so much

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Speaker 4: and I hope you were able to write the Forklift

446
00:24:52,040 --> 00:24:53,280
Speaker 4: tonight because I miss you.

447
00:24:54,040 --> 00:24:55,560
Speaker 3: But thank you so much, Gek.

448
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Speaker 1: Thank you dev You have a good rest of the night.

449
00:24:57,359 --> 00:24:58,840
Speaker 4: Yeah you too.

450
00:25:01,000 --> 00:25:01,720
Speaker 1: Hey, what's up?

451
00:25:02,480 --> 00:25:03,600
Speaker 3: Oh? Dang this the Gek?

452
00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:04,760
Speaker 1: Yeah? Who is this?

453
00:25:06,200 --> 00:25:08,080
Speaker 3: Oh? This is Sean Sean.

454
00:25:09,080 --> 00:25:14,119
Speaker 1: Sean you texted me and you said I did mushrooms

455
00:25:14,240 --> 00:25:17,439
Speaker 1: at your Edmonton show. It was a blast, but I

456
00:25:17,520 --> 00:25:21,520
Speaker 1: had a revelation about my life, and it's been bothering

457
00:25:21,560 --> 00:25:24,520
Speaker 1: me since I just got back. I just got back

458
00:25:24,560 --> 00:25:29,159
Speaker 1: from Yeah, from Canada. I was in Edmonton over the

459
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:36,800
Speaker 1: weekend at McEwan University. That was a fun time. Thanks man,

460
00:25:36,840 --> 00:25:40,560
Speaker 1: thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it. So were you

461
00:25:40,640 --> 00:25:43,000
Speaker 1: on when were you on mushrooms during the show or

462
00:25:43,040 --> 00:25:43,879
Speaker 1: was it after the show?

463
00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:47,639
Speaker 3: Yeah? I was on mushrooms during the show. I I

464
00:25:47,680 --> 00:25:50,159
Speaker 3: took a couple of mushroom chocolates with the girl I brought,

465
00:25:50,200 --> 00:25:52,879
Speaker 3: and yeah, it was. It was a good time, but

466
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:55,919
Speaker 3: kind of at the end of the show, I started

467
00:25:55,920 --> 00:25:59,760
Speaker 3: having this revelation about my life and what I'm looking

468
00:25:59,800 --> 00:26:03,800
Speaker 3: out of it. It's been weird, man, I don't can

469
00:26:03,840 --> 00:26:04,920
Speaker 3: want me to explain more.

470
00:26:06,320 --> 00:26:08,760
Speaker 1: Did we meet? Did we talk? Did I talk to you?

471
00:26:08,800 --> 00:26:12,320
Speaker 3: No? No, I see. I tried to get meet and

472
00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:15,440
Speaker 3: greet tickets prior to the show, but it said you

473
00:26:15,560 --> 00:26:17,480
Speaker 3: had to be a me Quan student.

474
00:26:19,640 --> 00:26:21,959
Speaker 1: So people not just so people know for the record,

475
00:26:22,040 --> 00:26:24,280
Speaker 1: the school did that. I don't. I don't do like

476
00:26:24,359 --> 00:26:29,040
Speaker 1: meet and greet tickets. I just usually I just stand

477
00:26:29,040 --> 00:26:33,480
Speaker 1: around and meet everyone for free, usually just so people

478
00:26:33,680 --> 00:26:34,359
Speaker 1: sucking you know.

479
00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:38,040
Speaker 3: Anyway, Yeah, so I and then they were saying, you know,

480
00:26:38,119 --> 00:26:40,320
Speaker 3: you can wait in a line and meet him if

481
00:26:40,080 --> 00:26:42,280
Speaker 3: you hang out. And then I was kind of tripping

482
00:26:42,320 --> 00:26:44,200
Speaker 3: ball a bit, and I looked at the girl I

483
00:26:44,280 --> 00:26:46,800
Speaker 3: was with and I was like, we gotta go. She

484
00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:50,600
Speaker 3: also she was yeah, and she was having a little

485
00:26:50,600 --> 00:26:52,760
Speaker 3: bit better of a time I was, I think, and

486
00:26:52,800 --> 00:26:56,280
Speaker 3: that was kind of helpful. But yeah, we went out

487
00:26:56,320 --> 00:26:59,680
Speaker 3: in the town. We had some cocktails. But the whole

488
00:26:59,680 --> 00:27:02,280
Speaker 3: time I was having kind of this Uh. I hate

489
00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:04,840
Speaker 3: to bring up the topic because it's been beaten like

490
00:27:04,880 --> 00:27:11,119
Speaker 3: a dead horse, but existential dread just thinking about you know,

491
00:27:11,359 --> 00:27:13,920
Speaker 3: I had this idea of, you know, what I wanted

492
00:27:13,960 --> 00:27:18,840
Speaker 3: in my life, the relationship to settle down and you know,

493
00:27:19,280 --> 00:27:21,320
Speaker 3: have a life kid, so all that fun stuff. But

494
00:27:22,200 --> 00:27:24,280
Speaker 3: in all that streamship I kind of will see your

495
00:27:24,840 --> 00:27:27,600
Speaker 3: your trip to Iraq and just the experience and stuff

496
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:29,920
Speaker 3: you talked about. I kind of had this like flooding

497
00:27:29,960 --> 00:27:33,240
Speaker 3: emotion of I haven't done enough or I haven't seen enough,

498
00:27:33,280 --> 00:27:36,919
Speaker 3: and it was it was weird. And now it's you know, Monday,

499
00:27:36,960 --> 00:27:40,320
Speaker 3: I'm back to my regular job and I'm thinking, what's

500
00:27:40,359 --> 00:27:44,760
Speaker 3: the plan, what to do? Yeah, and it.

501
00:27:45,400 --> 00:27:49,360
Speaker 1: Did the show gave you an existential crisis.

502
00:27:49,920 --> 00:27:53,000
Speaker 3: Not the show, but just like I think my internal

503
00:27:53,040 --> 00:27:57,399
Speaker 3: thoughts of you know, like just seeing how I was

504
00:27:57,440 --> 00:27:59,320
Speaker 3: so happy, like listening to your show and go about

505
00:27:59,320 --> 00:28:01,840
Speaker 3: you go go and Iraq and You're doing mushrooms and

506
00:28:02,240 --> 00:28:04,520
Speaker 3: the forest and stuff, and I was like, man, all

507
00:28:04,560 --> 00:28:07,520
Speaker 3: these experiences and I started thinking back to like, you know,

508
00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:10,119
Speaker 3: some of the experiences that I've had in me not

509
00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:12,119
Speaker 3: to compare anything, but it was more long, and I

510
00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:16,480
Speaker 3: felt like I I owe myself more. It was just yeah,

511
00:28:16,520 --> 00:28:17,720
Speaker 3: it was but.

512
00:28:18,080 --> 00:28:21,320
Speaker 1: Well, yeah, I have a lot of thoughts about this.

513
00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:24,760
Speaker 1: One is well, how are you? Were you a student?

514
00:28:25,320 --> 00:28:25,960
Speaker 1: Are you?

515
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:29,560
Speaker 3: No? No? I drove, I drove like two hours away

516
00:28:30,480 --> 00:28:33,800
Speaker 3: in different in a different city. Yeah, yeah, it was.

517
00:28:33,920 --> 00:28:35,560
Speaker 3: It was sweet. Man. I wasn't gonna miss it. I

518
00:28:35,640 --> 00:28:38,520
Speaker 3: fucking signed up for your text to say when you

519
00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:40,680
Speaker 3: were coming in because I heard you briefly on one

520
00:28:40,680 --> 00:28:42,400
Speaker 3: of your streams being like I'm coming to Emson and

521
00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:44,400
Speaker 3: I was like, when so I walked in.

522
00:28:45,120 --> 00:28:51,240
Speaker 1: So okay, the girl that you were with, like was it?

523
00:28:52,240 --> 00:28:54,240
Speaker 1: Because sometimes because one of the tough things about like

524
00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:56,080
Speaker 1: being on mushroom has been a lot of drug is

525
00:28:56,080 --> 00:29:00,200
Speaker 1: like if you're with somebody and you're having an existential crisis,

526
00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:03,040
Speaker 1: especially someone you're like fucking like you're intimate with, you know,

527
00:29:03,200 --> 00:29:06,560
Speaker 1: like your girlfriend. Like was it like were you staring

528
00:29:06,600 --> 00:29:09,760
Speaker 1: at her being like and she's just like enjoying the

529
00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:11,880
Speaker 1: cocktails and You're like, Yo, what the fuck is this?

530
00:29:11,960 --> 00:29:12,640
Speaker 1: What's going on?

531
00:29:12,800 --> 00:29:14,800
Speaker 3: Honestly, man, when I think back to it now, I'm

532
00:29:14,840 --> 00:29:17,520
Speaker 3: pretty sure I was like I was quite withdrawn. Like

533
00:29:17,560 --> 00:29:20,840
Speaker 3: I noticed like during the night she was kind of

534
00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:22,720
Speaker 3: just asking me like, hey, how you doing and stuff,

535
00:29:22,720 --> 00:29:26,080
Speaker 3: and I wasn't giving any space to say shit going

536
00:29:26,120 --> 00:29:27,320
Speaker 3: on in my head. I was like, oh, I'm good,

537
00:29:27,360 --> 00:29:30,160
Speaker 3: I'm just you know, tripping, But in reality, I was

538
00:29:30,160 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 3: fucking stinking one thousand miles an hour about my license. Shit.

539
00:29:34,200 --> 00:29:35,960
Speaker 3: I had some drinks and it kind of chilled out.

540
00:29:35,960 --> 00:29:39,720
Speaker 3: But then, like the residual effects of this later days

541
00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:43,760
Speaker 3: has kind of been hit me. Yeah, just was like,

542
00:29:44,240 --> 00:29:47,120
Speaker 3: I don't know if I'm ready to settle down. I'm

543
00:29:47,160 --> 00:29:50,680
Speaker 3: twenty nine, you know. Current I had to move back

544
00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:54,080
Speaker 3: in with my parents right after COVID, so I've had

545
00:29:54,120 --> 00:29:56,920
Speaker 3: a lot of time to kind of just sit and

546
00:29:57,440 --> 00:29:58,760
Speaker 3: save a little bit of money, not as much A.

547
00:29:58,760 --> 00:30:00,959
Speaker 3: I probably wanted to, but I don't know. It's just

548
00:30:01,120 --> 00:30:04,080
Speaker 3: by being back in my parents' place and you know,

549
00:30:04,160 --> 00:30:06,320
Speaker 3: kind of just working my job money to Friday is

550
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:07,840
Speaker 3: kind of get I don't know. I think it's starting

551
00:30:07,840 --> 00:30:09,720
Speaker 3: to get to me. And I didn't think it was

552
00:30:09,720 --> 00:30:12,040
Speaker 3: getting to me as much as it has after that

553
00:30:12,120 --> 00:30:16,640
Speaker 3: mushroom trip. But sorry to the Bible, no no, no.

554
00:30:16,720 --> 00:30:21,880
Speaker 1: So before the mushroom trip, were you having these thoughts?

555
00:30:23,200 --> 00:30:26,560
Speaker 3: You know sometimes but they would like they would fade

556
00:30:26,560 --> 00:30:30,720
Speaker 3: away with you know, just like distracting myself. I guess

557
00:30:30,720 --> 00:30:33,960
Speaker 3: with my everyday life like going to work and going

558
00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:38,040
Speaker 3: to do my things outside of work, like my hobbies

559
00:30:38,040 --> 00:30:40,080
Speaker 3: and things like that. And then I think it would

560
00:30:40,120 --> 00:30:42,200
Speaker 3: just kind of settle in when you got of got

561
00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:45,560
Speaker 3: time to yourself and you're thinking about life and kind

562
00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:47,640
Speaker 3: of like you know, when you're not distracted, it kind

563
00:30:47,640 --> 00:30:51,080
Speaker 3: of start to have a little more introspective thoughts. And yeah,

564
00:30:51,120 --> 00:30:53,080
Speaker 3: but the streams just amplified it, I feel like, and

565
00:30:53,880 --> 00:30:56,080
Speaker 3: I think a lot of it comes from like this

566
00:30:56,200 --> 00:31:00,560
Speaker 3: current relationship I'm in. It's pretty new you and like

567
00:31:01,360 --> 00:31:04,840
Speaker 3: in four months in she's super into me, really nice

568
00:31:04,840 --> 00:31:08,760
Speaker 3: and everything. But I feel like part of me doesn't

569
00:31:08,800 --> 00:31:11,160
Speaker 3: want to settle down with her, and I don't know

570
00:31:11,200 --> 00:31:14,440
Speaker 3: the particular reason why. And then the mushrooms kind of

571
00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,600
Speaker 3: made me realize, like, oh, it's because you haven't really

572
00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:20,000
Speaker 3: like lived much of a life, Like why are you

573
00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:22,680
Speaker 3: thinking about selling down? You know, you haven't done much?

574
00:31:22,720 --> 00:31:24,680
Speaker 3: And that's kind of where I'm at.

575
00:31:24,880 --> 00:31:27,240
Speaker 1: Wells, I have a lot of thoughts about that because

576
00:31:31,520 --> 00:31:33,040
Speaker 1: and I don't know. You know, here's the thing. I

577
00:31:33,040 --> 00:31:36,120
Speaker 1: don't have a kid, and I don't have a wife

578
00:31:36,240 --> 00:31:41,000
Speaker 1: for a girlfriend. So I'm not a good authority on that,

579
00:31:41,160 --> 00:31:44,680
Speaker 1: but I think in my head, I don't I'm not

580
00:31:44,720 --> 00:31:46,400
Speaker 1: a good authority to talk about this. But like in

581
00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:53,640
Speaker 1: my head, it's like ideally, whatever relationship you do get

582
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:57,400
Speaker 1: into or whatever, or you know, whatever life you kind

583
00:31:57,400 --> 00:32:04,120
Speaker 1: of do build is one that like amplifies the lifestyle

584
00:32:04,240 --> 00:32:06,960
Speaker 1: that you want to have, you know, I think there's

585
00:32:07,000 --> 00:32:09,640
Speaker 1: this and that's and again I'm like I'm a bad

586
00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:14,000
Speaker 1: authority on it, but that's how it feels like in

587
00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:16,360
Speaker 1: my head, like this idea that like, oh, I have

588
00:32:16,440 --> 00:32:18,560
Speaker 1: this kind of life I want to live, let me

589
00:32:18,600 --> 00:32:21,560
Speaker 1: live as much of it as possible until I'm bored.

590
00:32:21,760 --> 00:32:26,040
Speaker 1: And then let me quote unquote settle down and like

591
00:32:27,120 --> 00:32:29,560
Speaker 1: sh I don't think that that works. Like, I don't

592
00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:32,120
Speaker 1: think that happens, you know. I think it's like you will.

593
00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:35,840
Speaker 1: I think you're always gonna wanna. If you're the kind

594
00:32:35,840 --> 00:32:40,240
Speaker 1: of person that wants to do things and is ambitious

595
00:32:40,360 --> 00:32:44,400
Speaker 1: or whatever, you're kind of always gonna I think that

596
00:32:44,520 --> 00:32:46,480
Speaker 1: you're that's not I don't think that goes away. I

597
00:32:46,480 --> 00:32:48,480
Speaker 1: don't think that there is just a moment where you're like,

598
00:32:48,840 --> 00:32:52,960
Speaker 1: all right, I had my fill and now a time

599
00:32:53,440 --> 00:32:55,440
Speaker 1: because I mean, yeah, I at that show. I talked

600
00:32:55,480 --> 00:32:58,920
Speaker 1: about going Iraq, and I talked about my little adventures

601
00:32:58,920 --> 00:33:02,880
Speaker 1: and stuff. And you know, it's funny to hear that

602
00:33:03,080 --> 00:33:05,560
Speaker 1: you saw that and were like, oh, I don't like,

603
00:33:05,560 --> 00:33:07,600
Speaker 1: what have I done with my life? Because I I'm

604
00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:12,320
Speaker 1: on insta fucking I'm on fucking Instagram all the time, dude,

605
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,440
Speaker 1: And I'm I and I'm on Instagram all the time,

606
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:19,440
Speaker 1: and I'm seeing people doing things and I'm always like, fuck,

607
00:33:19,480 --> 00:33:22,600
Speaker 1: I want to be doing things. You know, there's never

608
00:33:22,680 --> 00:33:25,720
Speaker 1: a It's like food. You never you don't eat a

609
00:33:25,760 --> 00:33:28,400
Speaker 1: sandwich and you go, you eat a sandwich and you go,

610
00:33:28,480 --> 00:33:30,240
Speaker 1: that was a good sandwich. I feel satisfied, but you

611
00:33:30,280 --> 00:33:32,160
Speaker 1: don't eat a sandwich and you're like, I think, I

612
00:33:32,160 --> 00:33:35,240
Speaker 1: I think I've eaten. You know, I don't. I don't.

613
00:33:35,600 --> 00:33:38,400
Speaker 1: I don't need to eat anymore.

614
00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:40,040
Speaker 3: Sandwich.

615
00:33:40,280 --> 00:33:42,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're gonna want to keep eating sandwiches and drinking.

616
00:33:42,840 --> 00:33:48,760
Speaker 1: It's like becomes these things, they become part of your homeostasis.

617
00:33:48,800 --> 00:33:53,480
Speaker 1: I think. And again I'm a I'm a pad authority

618
00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:56,080
Speaker 1: because they don't have a girlfriend and kids. But uh,

619
00:33:56,160 --> 00:34:00,440
Speaker 1: I see, but I see people who you know, have

620
00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:04,920
Speaker 1: kids and you know, have a significant other, and they

621
00:34:04,800 --> 00:34:08,680
Speaker 1: they they're able to still kind of live life in

622
00:34:08,760 --> 00:34:13,560
Speaker 1: some way. And you know, obviously, I think I think

623
00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:15,880
Speaker 1: for people like that, I think having money is is

624
00:34:15,960 --> 00:34:21,400
Speaker 1: a you know, a factor I think, you know, but

625
00:34:21,480 --> 00:34:25,640
Speaker 1: also I don't know. But also I think, uh, some

626
00:34:25,680 --> 00:34:28,240
Speaker 1: people just fucking figure out how to make it work

627
00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:33,799
Speaker 1: and then they do. But so let's I mean you specifically, right, like,

628
00:34:33,880 --> 00:34:35,759
Speaker 1: what what do you want to do? What are the

629
00:34:35,800 --> 00:34:38,440
Speaker 1: things like when you when you're on your when you're

630
00:34:38,480 --> 00:34:40,360
Speaker 1: tripping and you're like I want to do this, and

631
00:34:40,360 --> 00:34:41,880
Speaker 1: then the other thing like what is it that you

632
00:34:41,920 --> 00:34:42,359
Speaker 1: want to do?

633
00:34:45,320 --> 00:34:48,239
Speaker 3: I think, honestly, man, it's like travel really, like really

634
00:34:48,280 --> 00:34:51,839
Speaker 3: I really wanted to go to Thailand for most of

635
00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:56,200
Speaker 3: my young adult life teenage life, and they traveled to

636
00:34:56,320 --> 00:34:59,759
Speaker 3: eastern South East Asia and stuff. I don't know, it's

637
00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:01,799
Speaker 3: just a experience like meet more people, you know, go

638
00:35:01,840 --> 00:35:04,680
Speaker 3: to different places, and part of me. I don't know,

639
00:35:05,920 --> 00:35:08,400
Speaker 3: maybe this is like a whole different thing, but I

640
00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:10,440
Speaker 3: feel like I have to be single to do that.

641
00:35:10,520 --> 00:35:14,239
Speaker 3: Like my brain goes like in this direction of like

642
00:35:14,360 --> 00:35:16,359
Speaker 3: you can't you have to do this on your own,

643
00:35:16,440 --> 00:35:18,279
Speaker 3: like and I don't know if it's because I don't

644
00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:20,600
Speaker 3: feel strongly enough about a partner that I want to

645
00:35:20,640 --> 00:35:24,000
Speaker 3: like experience that with them, or if I'm just like

646
00:35:24,840 --> 00:35:28,920
Speaker 3: pigeonholing myself of like you know, get it being wellnely.

647
00:35:29,040 --> 00:35:31,360
Speaker 3: I don't know, it's just been the whole thing. Like

648
00:35:32,280 --> 00:35:33,840
Speaker 3: I have this feeling that I just need to like

649
00:35:34,360 --> 00:35:36,960
Speaker 3: not have any super strong connections with anybody so that

650
00:35:37,000 --> 00:35:40,360
Speaker 3: I can like you know, make these like do this

651
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:43,239
Speaker 3: traveling and see different parts of life and meet new people.

652
00:35:43,280 --> 00:35:46,160
Speaker 3: Because like I just have this anxious feeling that by

653
00:35:46,320 --> 00:35:51,279
Speaker 3: like accepting current situation even now, I won't maybe meet

654
00:35:51,320 --> 00:35:54,520
Speaker 3: like someone else along the lines or experience certain things

655
00:35:54,560 --> 00:35:56,719
Speaker 3: because I've settled down, I get keep going back to

656
00:35:56,880 --> 00:35:57,600
Speaker 3: settled down things.

657
00:35:57,680 --> 00:36:00,600
Speaker 1: But sure, yeah, yeah, yeah, I know you man, I

658
00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:00,800
Speaker 1: know you.

659
00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:01,040
Speaker 3: Man.

660
00:36:03,120 --> 00:36:04,719
Speaker 1: We'll tell you about this girl. What's her deal?

661
00:36:07,360 --> 00:36:11,640
Speaker 3: She's chill, man. She I met her online Facebook dating.

662
00:36:11,480 --> 00:36:14,960
Speaker 1: Spars Facebook dating, Well, hold on, I want to get

663
00:36:15,080 --> 00:36:17,680
Speaker 1: hold on. We're gonna go on a tangento. We got

664
00:36:17,680 --> 00:36:20,040
Speaker 1: to go on this day? What the fuck is going

665
00:36:20,080 --> 00:36:21,440
Speaker 1: on on Facebook dating?

666
00:36:22,200 --> 00:36:24,920
Speaker 3: Honestly? Man? So I did to play Xbox with this

667
00:36:25,000 --> 00:36:28,040
Speaker 3: guy and I was kind was on the apps Tinder hinge,

668
00:36:28,080 --> 00:36:31,280
Speaker 3: you know, and wasn't having the best time. I deleted

669
00:36:31,280 --> 00:36:34,279
Speaker 3: them without really like meeting anyone. I was just kind

670
00:36:34,280 --> 00:36:37,520
Speaker 3: of like random matches, shys about conversations with that whole stuff.

671
00:36:37,600 --> 00:36:42,399
Speaker 3: And my friend that was playing Xbox this, I'll get

672
00:36:42,440 --> 00:36:44,040
Speaker 3: to that. He told me. He's like, man, I met

673
00:36:44,040 --> 00:36:46,120
Speaker 3: my girlfriend on Facebook dating and she check it out

674
00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:48,080
Speaker 3: and I was like, oh, I don't know, man, Like

675
00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:49,920
Speaker 3: Facebook dating seems like it's kind of just full of

676
00:36:49,920 --> 00:36:52,440
Speaker 3: single moms. And he's like, it is, I'm dating a

677
00:36:52,480 --> 00:36:55,680
Speaker 3: single mom and I laugh. So but anyway, in my

678
00:36:56,440 --> 00:36:59,920
Speaker 3: desperation of loneliness, I downloaded Facebook Dating and starts whip.

679
00:37:00,120 --> 00:37:03,280
Speaker 3: And I met this girl and she didn't have any kids,

680
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:07,360
Speaker 3: but she's near the area. We had similar music taste.

681
00:37:07,719 --> 00:37:12,719
Speaker 3: Her profile was kind of like, it wasn't super getting like,

682
00:37:12,719 --> 00:37:15,640
Speaker 3: I didn't tell much about her. We met out, we

683
00:37:15,719 --> 00:37:18,800
Speaker 3: met up, hung out a few times, a pretty casual

684
00:37:18,840 --> 00:37:20,480
Speaker 3: on me. I ended up figuring out we had pretty

685
00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:23,839
Speaker 3: much the same taste in music. She's not from around here,

686
00:37:23,920 --> 00:37:26,440
Speaker 3: so she's kind of like knew to the area. She

687
00:37:26,560 --> 00:37:30,759
Speaker 3: grew up really Jehovah's witness family and that kind of

688
00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:33,799
Speaker 3: had a lot of her life was held back from

689
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:37,320
Speaker 3: her from that culty like religion. So now as an adult,

690
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:40,640
Speaker 3: she moved away to Alberta when she was like twenty

691
00:37:40,719 --> 00:37:42,640
Speaker 3: or something, and now he's been trying to just like

692
00:37:42,640 --> 00:37:47,319
Speaker 3: live life and gain her own experiences. So she's she's chilling, man,

693
00:37:47,320 --> 00:37:49,920
Speaker 3: she's down into anything, and like that whole therapy get

694
00:37:50,000 --> 00:37:51,160
Speaker 3: go thing. I kind of just hit her like, I

695
00:37:51,239 --> 00:37:53,160
Speaker 3: seen you were coming. I didn't want to go alone,

696
00:37:53,160 --> 00:37:54,799
Speaker 3: although I probably live And I was like, Hey, do

697
00:37:54,800 --> 00:37:56,719
Speaker 3: you want to go to therapy get coo? And she

698
00:37:56,760 --> 00:37:59,000
Speaker 3: was like, what the fuck is therapy? GOTO showed her

699
00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:01,200
Speaker 3: a few clips and she was like down, and so

700
00:38:02,160 --> 00:38:03,960
Speaker 3: I asked her if you want to do mushrooms chocolates

701
00:38:03,960 --> 00:38:06,239
Speaker 3: over there? And yeah, like it's been chill and there

702
00:38:06,280 --> 00:38:09,520
Speaker 3: hasn't really been any like like major red flags and anything

703
00:38:09,480 --> 00:38:10,880
Speaker 3: to make me not want to be in a relationship

704
00:38:10,960 --> 00:38:16,200
Speaker 3: except my own internal thoughts of this uh, settling down

705
00:38:16,239 --> 00:38:17,719
Speaker 3: type of mindset. Yeah.

706
00:38:17,840 --> 00:38:20,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, you have this like thing in your head of

707
00:38:20,040 --> 00:38:22,000
Speaker 1: like I want to I want to fuck the world,

708
00:38:22,120 --> 00:38:23,920
Speaker 1: not even like in a sexual way, just you know,

709
00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:24,560
Speaker 1: like no.

710
00:38:24,640 --> 00:38:26,960
Speaker 3: That's literally the best way to explain it, honestly, like

711
00:38:27,560 --> 00:38:29,759
Speaker 3: I just want to take life. Yeah. Yeah, man, it's

712
00:38:29,760 --> 00:38:32,640
Speaker 3: a lot of like this pent up And then it's

713
00:38:32,680 --> 00:38:35,319
Speaker 3: stupid because I hear so many of your callers talk

714
00:38:35,360 --> 00:38:37,719
Speaker 3: about like, you know, like the experiences they had, like

715
00:38:38,719 --> 00:38:41,520
Speaker 3: anyone ranging from that one older lady that called I

716
00:38:41,600 --> 00:38:43,520
Speaker 3: think she was a close to like fifty something to

717
00:38:43,719 --> 00:38:47,120
Speaker 3: like even the train guy who fucking was like a

718
00:38:47,120 --> 00:38:49,359
Speaker 3: young kid and traveling Like I had fallen into this

719
00:38:50,080 --> 00:38:52,000
Speaker 3: thing where I'm like I'm getting too old and I

720
00:38:52,040 --> 00:38:54,320
Speaker 3: need to make a choice when it's like dude, I

721
00:38:54,360 --> 00:38:56,520
Speaker 3: don't know, I'm not that old, like come twenty nine,

722
00:38:57,680 --> 00:38:58,120
Speaker 3: I don't.

723
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Speaker 1: Know, Well, I mean, well aa not that I'll m

724
00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:04,720
Speaker 1: be this idea that you have to make a choice

725
00:39:05,080 --> 00:39:08,560
Speaker 1: is like, well, I don't know, I don't It's hard

726
00:39:08,560 --> 00:39:09,840
Speaker 1: because I don't know. I don't know what you do

727
00:39:09,920 --> 00:39:10,799
Speaker 1: for a living.

728
00:39:12,200 --> 00:39:15,560
Speaker 3: Or what like you're I work at I work at

729
00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:19,040
Speaker 3: a homeless shelter as like a like a support worker there.

730
00:39:20,040 --> 00:39:22,640
Speaker 1: Do you get uh do you get time off?

731
00:39:23,840 --> 00:39:25,879
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, I get a pretty decent amount of time off,

732
00:39:26,840 --> 00:39:29,200
Speaker 3: like two weeks paid vacation a year, and then they're

733
00:39:29,200 --> 00:39:31,439
Speaker 3: really good at just giving you like unpaid time off.

734
00:39:31,520 --> 00:39:33,759
Speaker 3: Like it's not a huge deal if you take time

735
00:39:33,760 --> 00:39:36,080
Speaker 3: off in there. But I usually spend my summers going

736
00:39:36,080 --> 00:39:37,960
Speaker 3: to visit my brother who lives in British Columbia. But

737
00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:42,000
Speaker 3: I've been thinking about even just like taking a temporary

738
00:39:42,040 --> 00:39:44,160
Speaker 3: highus from work.

739
00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:46,920
Speaker 1: Well yeah, because like look, if they give you I mean,

740
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:50,520
Speaker 1: I'll tell you a little bit about my experience with

741
00:39:50,560 --> 00:39:53,160
Speaker 1: this kind of stuff. Is like, so your job, like

742
00:39:53,160 --> 00:39:55,880
Speaker 1: if they give you like unpaid time off, and like

743
00:39:56,040 --> 00:40:00,239
Speaker 1: you're able to kind of like, you know, I don't know

744
00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:02,279
Speaker 1: if the job gives you you know, I know it's

745
00:40:02,320 --> 00:40:04,799
Speaker 1: a tough economy, is there can you save money? Doing

746
00:40:04,840 --> 00:40:05,279
Speaker 1: this gig.

747
00:40:05,400 --> 00:40:07,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, yeah, I'm living with my parents right now.

748
00:40:07,560 --> 00:40:10,120
Speaker 3: I could definitely save enough money. That's one thing too.

749
00:40:10,320 --> 00:40:12,239
Speaker 3: I have no excuse on that, and like I've just

750
00:40:12,320 --> 00:40:15,920
Speaker 3: been kind of living like I pay some rent here,

751
00:40:15,920 --> 00:40:19,200
Speaker 3: but not enough that I should be like not having

752
00:40:19,160 --> 00:40:20,360
Speaker 3: as much saved as I do, know.

753
00:40:20,680 --> 00:40:23,360
Speaker 1: Because like, look I went I yeah, I went to Iraq.

754
00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:26,759
Speaker 1: I was there for five days, you know, like I was.

755
00:40:26,840 --> 00:40:28,360
Speaker 1: I was only there for five fucking days, and it

756
00:40:28,400 --> 00:40:31,880
Speaker 1: felt like a lifetime. It's five fucking days. And so

757
00:40:32,200 --> 00:40:35,560
Speaker 1: I mean, if you time things right and you save

758
00:40:35,719 --> 00:40:39,799
Speaker 1: up and whatever, if you're you know, if you're like

759
00:40:39,840 --> 00:40:43,080
Speaker 1: you want to go to Thailand, right, like yeah, like

760
00:40:43,800 --> 00:40:49,440
Speaker 1: you know, you save up some money, you take you

761
00:40:49,520 --> 00:40:58,200
Speaker 1: take off fucking whatever, Thursday, Friday, Monday, Tuesday, four unpaid days.

762
00:40:58,239 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 1: If they're cool with that, right, then you got you

763
00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:04,600
Speaker 1: got's enough time for you to, you know, run away,

764
00:41:04,880 --> 00:41:06,680
Speaker 1: do you know, do a trip and feel like you

765
00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:08,600
Speaker 1: got away with something. It doesn't always have to be.

766
00:41:08,920 --> 00:41:12,160
Speaker 1: People are really stoked on the like like you go

767
00:41:12,239 --> 00:41:14,960
Speaker 1: to hostels and stuff and everyone's like, yeah, man, I've

768
00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:18,399
Speaker 1: been on the road for six months, nine months. I'm

769
00:41:18,480 --> 00:41:20,239
Speaker 1: like I don't want to like fuck that. I don't

770
00:41:20,239 --> 00:41:20,719
Speaker 1: want to do that.

771
00:41:22,080 --> 00:41:23,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, it sounds like a lot.

772
00:41:23,880 --> 00:41:27,240
Speaker 1: It's a lot. So you can actually, I think, especially

773
00:41:27,239 --> 00:41:30,520
Speaker 1: because you said it's if they're cool with if you

774
00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:34,160
Speaker 1: can find a job, that's like cool, it sounds like, yeah,

775
00:41:34,200 --> 00:41:38,040
Speaker 1: that's cool with you, like you know, giving you some

776
00:41:38,120 --> 00:41:42,160
Speaker 1: unpaid time off, and then like you know, you're living

777
00:41:42,200 --> 00:41:43,759
Speaker 1: with your parents, you can save up some money, like

778
00:41:44,040 --> 00:41:46,279
Speaker 1: you can do a little bit of both. You know,

779
00:41:46,800 --> 00:41:49,040
Speaker 1: you can be with this girl but also be like, hey, listen,

780
00:41:49,080 --> 00:41:54,560
Speaker 1: I gotta go to Frankfurt for four days just because

781
00:41:54,600 --> 00:41:57,359
Speaker 1: I'm crazy. And if she's cool, she'll be like all right, yeah,

782
00:41:57,400 --> 00:41:58,840
Speaker 1: I get you. Yeah that's cool.

783
00:41:59,320 --> 00:42:01,560
Speaker 3: You know I have to go to afghanis Dan.

784
00:42:02,000 --> 00:42:08,360
Speaker 1: Yeah right, exactly exactly. So there's like ways to do

785
00:42:08,520 --> 00:42:11,239
Speaker 1: have you done so this? But this bug, this is like, yeah,

786
00:42:11,280 --> 00:42:12,600
Speaker 1: I want to fuck the world. I want to do

787
00:42:12,640 --> 00:42:15,359
Speaker 1: all this crazy crap. I get you, I have that thing.

788
00:42:15,680 --> 00:42:19,600
Speaker 1: I have that thing too. What is like have you

789
00:42:20,400 --> 00:42:23,640
Speaker 1: have you done anything like that before? Because also you

790
00:42:23,719 --> 00:42:28,720
Speaker 1: also will build up in your brain uh an idea

791
00:42:28,760 --> 00:42:31,680
Speaker 1: of what fucking the world looks like, and it's always

792
00:42:32,000 --> 00:42:33,239
Speaker 1: different from what it actually is.

793
00:42:34,280 --> 00:42:36,160
Speaker 3: Yeah. I did a bit of traveling when I was

794
00:42:36,760 --> 00:42:39,280
Speaker 3: younger with my parents, but nothing nowhere like super crazy,

795
00:42:39,200 --> 00:42:42,840
Speaker 3: and went to Mexico and Hawaii and then Las Vegas

796
00:42:42,920 --> 00:42:45,879
Speaker 3: a couple of times. But the only thing a place

797
00:42:45,880 --> 00:42:47,239
Speaker 3: I've been doing is a doll I went on like

798
00:42:47,239 --> 00:42:50,160
Speaker 3: a groad trip to Cuba, which is pretty fun. But

799
00:42:50,480 --> 00:42:52,360
Speaker 3: other than that, man, I've just been kind of fucking Like.

800
00:42:52,840 --> 00:42:56,399
Speaker 3: I went to school and like switch degrees fucking three

801
00:42:56,440 --> 00:42:59,080
Speaker 3: different times, and spent like a solid like six years

802
00:42:59,080 --> 00:43:00,560
Speaker 3: in college trying to figure out what I want to do,

803
00:43:01,480 --> 00:43:03,840
Speaker 3: and was working full time during that period. So I

804
00:43:03,840 --> 00:43:05,719
Speaker 3: felt like a lot of my early twenties where I

805
00:43:05,719 --> 00:43:08,759
Speaker 3: should have just not went to school and you know,

806
00:43:08,840 --> 00:43:11,000
Speaker 3: worked some shitty job and traveled that I was kind

807
00:43:11,040 --> 00:43:14,000
Speaker 3: of having that idea in the back of my head,

808
00:43:14,040 --> 00:43:16,720
Speaker 3: like you need to, you know, get a job now

809
00:43:16,760 --> 00:43:19,120
Speaker 3: and get an education so that when you're twenty nine

810
00:43:19,120 --> 00:43:23,239
Speaker 3: you can settle down just that whole trap. That's why

811
00:43:23,239 --> 00:43:26,480
Speaker 3: I really like hearing you tell people. I'm sorry to

812
00:43:26,480 --> 00:43:29,000
Speaker 3: go off in tangent, but tell people that they should

813
00:43:29,040 --> 00:43:32,279
Speaker 3: really like reconsider university or must they want to be

814
00:43:32,320 --> 00:43:34,840
Speaker 3: like a doctor or lawyer or something, but you know,

815
00:43:34,920 --> 00:43:37,960
Speaker 3: experience life. Because I had that idea that I had

816
00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:40,440
Speaker 3: to jump into school and I had to get a

817
00:43:40,520 --> 00:43:42,600
Speaker 3: job in order to have some sort of life. But

818
00:43:43,320 --> 00:43:46,400
Speaker 3: in reality, I kind of just wasted my early twenties

819
00:43:46,480 --> 00:43:48,760
Speaker 3: chasing something. I didn't really know what I was chasing.

820
00:43:51,840 --> 00:43:55,480
Speaker 1: Well, do I do work in a field that has

821
00:43:55,480 --> 00:43:56,000
Speaker 1: that degree?

822
00:43:57,560 --> 00:44:00,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, so I ended up leaving cool. I ended up

823
00:44:00,640 --> 00:44:05,440
Speaker 3: leaving school to diploma in social work. But I'm not

824
00:44:05,480 --> 00:44:07,239
Speaker 3: going back to school to get the degree. It's just

825
00:44:07,800 --> 00:44:10,319
Speaker 3: in the field of social work. It's kind of get

826
00:44:10,360 --> 00:44:12,080
Speaker 3: a degree if you're masters, if you want to work

827
00:44:12,080 --> 00:44:14,239
Speaker 3: for the government, but other than that, it's kind of

828
00:44:14,280 --> 00:44:19,799
Speaker 3: an experience based work kind of employment. So like, it's

829
00:44:19,800 --> 00:44:21,720
Speaker 3: just the longer you, you know, le are in the field,

830
00:44:21,719 --> 00:44:25,040
Speaker 3: the better opportunities are getting stuff. And I'm really good

831
00:44:25,080 --> 00:44:26,840
Speaker 3: where I'm at right now. I make a decent amount

832
00:44:26,880 --> 00:44:32,560
Speaker 3: and enough that I can live. Yeah, that's the thing

833
00:44:32,560 --> 00:44:33,080
Speaker 3: I struggled.

834
00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:35,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, go on, what are you gonna say?

835
00:44:36,040 --> 00:44:39,560
Speaker 3: Oh, just the whole early twenties thing, Like I bounced

836
00:44:39,600 --> 00:44:42,080
Speaker 3: between different jobs and stuff like this job I have

837
00:44:42,160 --> 00:44:43,440
Speaker 3: right now, I've been there for the last two and

838
00:44:43,480 --> 00:44:46,040
Speaker 3: a half years. It's like the first job I've actually

839
00:44:46,120 --> 00:44:49,520
Speaker 3: not wanted to I'm alive myself after my work, you know,

840
00:44:49,560 --> 00:44:53,040
Speaker 3: like I really enjoy what I do. So it's it's

841
00:44:53,080 --> 00:44:55,240
Speaker 3: really cool. This whole last two and a half years,

842
00:44:55,320 --> 00:44:58,040
Speaker 3: three years of working there and just being in the

843
00:44:58,040 --> 00:45:00,279
Speaker 3: social work field has been giving me a lot of

844
00:45:00,280 --> 00:45:02,120
Speaker 3: breathing room just think about other things in my life.

845
00:45:04,120 --> 00:45:06,400
Speaker 1: I think, well, I think my ultimate take on this,

846
00:45:06,680 --> 00:45:09,359
Speaker 1: and it is like, if it's something you even kind

847
00:45:09,400 --> 00:45:12,919
Speaker 1: of feel like you want to do and you have

848
00:45:13,040 --> 00:45:15,360
Speaker 1: the the resources to do it, which it sounds like

849
00:45:15,400 --> 00:45:17,040
Speaker 1: you're set up in a way that you can do it,

850
00:45:17,760 --> 00:45:19,839
Speaker 1: you know you should do it. But I don't think

851
00:45:19,840 --> 00:45:21,560
Speaker 1: it has to be this. But I don't think it

852
00:45:21,560 --> 00:45:23,400
Speaker 1: has to be the way you're talking about it is

853
00:45:23,480 --> 00:45:28,400
Speaker 1: like it's like you're calling off a wedding or something

854
00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:32,120
Speaker 1: for four months, like you can like you can, you

855
00:45:32,160 --> 00:45:34,200
Speaker 1: can go on vacation, you know what.

856
00:45:34,200 --> 00:45:37,200
Speaker 3: I habit of just doing that like an all or

857
00:45:37,239 --> 00:45:41,480
Speaker 3: nothing kind of thing. Yeah, exactly, like just not taking

858
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:43,560
Speaker 3: it day by day sort of thing. It's always been

859
00:45:43,600 --> 00:45:46,480
Speaker 3: an issue, but yeah, I think it's just talking it out.

860
00:45:46,640 --> 00:45:48,680
Speaker 3: Is talking to out helps for sure?

861
00:45:49,120 --> 00:45:51,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, I have this. I have the same thing where

862
00:45:52,280 --> 00:45:54,360
Speaker 1: a part of me goes like should I need to

863
00:45:54,440 --> 00:45:57,279
Speaker 1: go to like I just have I just always have

864
00:45:57,400 --> 00:46:00,520
Speaker 1: this fucking thing in my head that makes the I

865
00:46:00,560 --> 00:46:05,040
Speaker 1: saw some TikTok that was like there's people who kind

866
00:46:05,040 --> 00:46:09,000
Speaker 1: of like settle into whatever it is they're doing out

867
00:46:09,000 --> 00:46:10,960
Speaker 1: of college and they're like, Okay, you know, I'll just

868
00:46:11,040 --> 00:46:13,600
Speaker 1: do this, and they do it for thirty years and

869
00:46:13,640 --> 00:46:16,839
Speaker 1: then that's it. And then there's people who like every

870
00:46:16,840 --> 00:46:19,480
Speaker 1: five years they just get this urged they're like seekers,

871
00:46:19,880 --> 00:46:21,800
Speaker 1: Like every five years they just get this urge to

872
00:46:21,960 --> 00:46:26,480
Speaker 1: like destroy their life and start in there. And I'm

873
00:46:26,600 --> 00:46:29,680
Speaker 1: like that that's me. That's me. That's me to a

874
00:46:29,760 --> 00:46:33,719
Speaker 1: tea and you and I've I've done that, and then

875
00:46:33,760 --> 00:46:36,440
Speaker 1: I've come back and I've been like, wait, I shouldn't

876
00:46:36,520 --> 00:46:40,719
Speaker 1: destroy my life. I got a good life. And I've

877
00:46:40,840 --> 00:46:44,640
Speaker 1: over time figured out like, Okay, how do I do

878
00:46:44,719 --> 00:46:47,080
Speaker 1: a little bit of both? How do I have make

879
00:46:47,200 --> 00:46:50,440
Speaker 1: room for you know, how do I make room to

880
00:46:50,800 --> 00:46:56,200
Speaker 1: like have bananas and you know, uh like a workout

881
00:46:56,280 --> 00:46:58,480
Speaker 1: routine and like just live like a normal person. But

882
00:46:58,560 --> 00:47:02,560
Speaker 1: then also you know, do random ship. And I've kind

883
00:47:02,600 --> 00:47:07,120
Speaker 1: of tried to like overtime build something that really intentionally

884
00:47:07,120 --> 00:47:11,920
Speaker 1: looked like that, And it's possible. So I don't think

885
00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:14,960
Speaker 1: you have to be either. I don't think you have

886
00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:17,799
Speaker 1: to either be a vagabond or a office worker. I

887
00:47:17,800 --> 00:47:20,719
Speaker 1: think there's something in between. A lot of people do it.

888
00:47:21,920 --> 00:47:23,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, you're right.

889
00:47:25,200 --> 00:47:27,960
Speaker 1: Yeah did your did your girlfriend like the show?

890
00:47:29,320 --> 00:47:33,480
Speaker 3: Yeah? Dude, it was fucking awesome. That girl, that girl

891
00:47:33,520 --> 00:47:35,600
Speaker 3: Shane that came up on stage first and I know, yeah,

892
00:47:35,800 --> 00:47:38,960
Speaker 3: that was wild. Yeah there, and then the other guy

893
00:47:39,000 --> 00:47:44,400
Speaker 3: that got Yeah, I liked to him. I felt like

894
00:47:44,440 --> 00:47:45,960
Speaker 3: we could be homies. Yeah.

895
00:47:46,000 --> 00:47:47,839
Speaker 1: There was a girl that came on stage and talked

896
00:47:47,880 --> 00:47:51,080
Speaker 1: about uh all of her.

897
00:47:51,080 --> 00:47:56,400
Speaker 3: Like thinks that she's like I'm a something who Yeah.

898
00:47:56,239 --> 00:47:58,520
Speaker 1: She said. She said that she was like addicted to

899
00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:03,160
Speaker 1: like look it up with straight guys. And then like

900
00:48:03,480 --> 00:48:07,000
Speaker 1: she told she talked about this like guy who was like,

901
00:48:09,200 --> 00:48:12,479
Speaker 1: you know, gave he's he said, he like he gave

902
00:48:12,520 --> 00:48:17,480
Speaker 1: her his home address and was like I'm gonna leave

903
00:48:17,480 --> 00:48:20,839
Speaker 1: the door open, I'm gonna be blindfolded, face down, ass up,

904
00:48:21,239 --> 00:48:22,759
Speaker 1: you come in and you do whatever you want.

905
00:48:24,080 --> 00:48:28,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's it. I like his like his bravery and

906
00:48:29,280 --> 00:48:31,959
Speaker 3: that guy's that guy's take on just taking the world

907
00:48:32,400 --> 00:48:32,919
Speaker 3: face down.

908
00:48:33,440 --> 00:48:35,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, that guy does.

909
00:48:35,440 --> 00:48:39,480
Speaker 3: That guy is uh, he doesn't stress about where to travel.

910
00:48:39,560 --> 00:48:40,959
Speaker 3: I bet I don't think he does.

911
00:48:41,200 --> 00:48:43,239
Speaker 1: I agree with you, man, I don't think that's a

912
00:48:43,520 --> 00:48:46,480
Speaker 1: really good take. Yeah, that's not a very neurotic guy.

913
00:48:47,560 --> 00:48:50,160
Speaker 1: That's not an anxious person. The guy who just just

914
00:48:50,200 --> 00:48:53,360
Speaker 1: like the door is unlocked, steal all my stuff? Who cares?

915
00:48:54,000 --> 00:48:57,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, respect to him? Mm hmm.

916
00:48:57,320 --> 00:48:58,080
Speaker 1: What's your name again?

917
00:48:58,120 --> 00:49:04,080
Speaker 3: Man? I think Sean other Sean? Yeah, Sean Sean.

918
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:08,040
Speaker 1: Sean was good talking. I'm I'm glad I got to

919
00:49:08,080 --> 00:49:09,799
Speaker 1: catch up with someone who was at that show because

920
00:49:09,800 --> 00:49:12,840
Speaker 1: that was a fun time. And also, yeah, I I

921
00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:17,080
Speaker 1: empathize with you on a lot of your thoughts and feelings.

922
00:49:17,120 --> 00:49:20,719
Speaker 1: But I do. I hope that because it's totally the

923
00:49:20,800 --> 00:49:22,840
Speaker 1: kind of thing that when you talk about it aloud,

924
00:49:22,920 --> 00:49:25,719
Speaker 1: you're like, oh, I'm I'm, I'm. I was building it

925
00:49:25,800 --> 00:49:26,399
Speaker 1: up in my head.

926
00:49:26,840 --> 00:49:29,680
Speaker 3: So yeah, pretty much, pretty much. It was really helpful.

927
00:49:29,680 --> 00:49:30,399
Speaker 3: I appreciate it.

928
00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:34,120
Speaker 1: Good man. Is there anything else you want to say

929
00:49:34,160 --> 00:49:36,480
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go?

930
00:49:38,120 --> 00:49:41,120
Speaker 3: Yeah? Would you mind if I possibly shouted out my Instagram.

931
00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:44,560
Speaker 3: I'm an amateur mixed march, life, flighter and more following

932
00:49:44,680 --> 00:49:48,719
Speaker 3: I have the the better it is for me. Yeah sure,

933
00:49:48,760 --> 00:49:53,160
Speaker 3: go ahead, Yeah you follow me on Instagram STC four

934
00:49:53,280 --> 00:49:56,520
Speaker 3: zero three Underscore. Really appreciate you guys, Love you guy.

935
00:49:56,560 --> 00:49:57,200
Speaker 3: Thanks for everything you do.

936
00:49:57,280 --> 00:50:00,120
Speaker 1: Whether have a good way real quick? Where Canada you

937
00:50:00,160 --> 00:50:02,359
Speaker 1: actually from? Because I'm gonna I think next time I

938
00:50:02,360 --> 00:50:03,840
Speaker 1: told where. I want to do more of the like

939
00:50:03,880 --> 00:50:06,560
Speaker 1: I've done, like Vancouver and Toronto and ship, but I

940
00:50:06,560 --> 00:50:06,840
Speaker 1: want to do.

941
00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:10,279
Speaker 3: I'm in Alberta in Edmonton. You came to like you

942
00:50:10,280 --> 00:50:12,799
Speaker 3: came to Edmonton. I live like two hours south of there.

943
00:50:13,120 --> 00:50:15,440
Speaker 3: You should do like Red Deer or Calgary. I live

944
00:50:15,480 --> 00:50:17,200
Speaker 3: in red Deer. It's between Edmonton and Calgary. But you

945
00:50:17,200 --> 00:50:20,080
Speaker 3: should definitely do Calgary. Man, it's a beautiful city. You

946
00:50:20,280 --> 00:50:22,239
Speaker 3: like it a lot more of Edmonton's offense Edmonton but

947
00:50:22,760 --> 00:50:23,319
Speaker 3: sick sick.

948
00:50:23,400 --> 00:50:25,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, Edmonton was a little depressed. I mean the show

949
00:50:25,520 --> 00:50:27,720
Speaker 1: was great, but the city itself was a little depressing.

950
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:29,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, we call it Gotham City.

951
00:50:31,000 --> 00:50:39,279
Speaker 1: But take care Sean, Thank you man, you too, bye, Bud. Now,

952
00:50:39,440 --> 00:50:47,719
Speaker 1: Edmonton was cool. We went to the mall, the Edmonton mall. Oh,

953
00:50:47,800 --> 00:50:50,880
Speaker 1: here's my favorite part of Edmonton for uh the A

954
00:50:51,000 --> 00:50:55,360
Speaker 1: and W. We went to a fucking A and W

955
00:50:55,360 --> 00:50:59,840
Speaker 1: where they put the mug like they put like a

956
00:50:59,840 --> 00:51:04,400
Speaker 1: glass mug in the freezer and then they take it

957
00:51:04,440 --> 00:51:07,200
Speaker 1: out and they pour the roopier in it. That's the

958
00:51:07,200 --> 00:51:09,800
Speaker 1: best thing about the whole city is they got anw's everywhere.

959
00:51:09,960 --> 00:51:16,600
Speaker 1: Tim Horton's Tim Hortons destroys, destroys the shit ass Starbucks.

960
00:51:16,640 --> 00:51:20,080
Speaker 1: Fuck Starbuck. I haven't talked enough on this podcast about

961
00:51:20,080 --> 00:51:23,600
Speaker 1: how much I hate Starbucks. And they give you the

962
00:51:23,640 --> 00:51:26,240
Speaker 1: little They give you like a teeny little, eaty bitty

963
00:51:27,160 --> 00:51:30,200
Speaker 1: like their idea of like a bacon, egg and cheese

964
00:51:30,200 --> 00:51:33,799
Speaker 1: sandwich is like an eaty bitty English muffin with a

965
00:51:33,920 --> 00:51:37,000
Speaker 1: little bit of cheese and sausage and whatever. It's like

966
00:51:37,040 --> 00:51:38,880
Speaker 1: a tiny little circle. You can make it with your

967
00:51:38,920 --> 00:51:43,840
Speaker 1: pointer finger and your thumb. Seven dollars, go fuck yourself,

968
00:51:43,880 --> 00:51:49,840
Speaker 1: Tim Hortons. They'll give you diabetes for three Canadian dollars.

969
00:51:49,880 --> 00:51:57,719
Speaker 1: That's like one American penny. It's great. Hey, what's up?

970
00:51:57,760 --> 00:52:02,120
Speaker 1: Everybody has a going It's Lyle and I'm here to

971
00:52:02,719 --> 00:52:05,640
Speaker 1: end the episode by reading some viewer mail. But before

972
00:52:05,680 --> 00:52:08,200
Speaker 1: I do that, I want to do a little thing.

973
00:52:08,239 --> 00:52:09,520
Speaker 1: I want to let you guys know that I am

974
00:52:09,600 --> 00:52:14,240
Speaker 1: currently in the process of planning another tour for twenty

975
00:52:14,560 --> 00:52:18,960
Speaker 1: twenty six. This would be my fourth time taking Therapy

976
00:52:19,000 --> 00:52:22,480
Speaker 1: Gecko on the road. I'm really excited to get back

977
00:52:22,520 --> 00:52:25,760
Speaker 1: out there. I took a long break from doing shows

978
00:52:26,040 --> 00:52:30,000
Speaker 1: and I feel like I've had adequate time to rest

979
00:52:30,040 --> 00:52:32,399
Speaker 1: and chill and now I'm ready to get back out

980
00:52:32,440 --> 00:52:36,840
Speaker 1: there and hit you guys with some stories from my

981
00:52:36,960 --> 00:52:40,480
Speaker 1: life and combine that with some stories from the audience's

982
00:52:40,560 --> 00:52:43,840
Speaker 1: life and you have a good time and do some shows.

983
00:52:43,880 --> 00:52:47,480
Speaker 1: So if the idea of coming to a live show

984
00:52:47,640 --> 00:52:53,120
Speaker 1: interests you, you can click the link in the episode description.

985
00:52:53,360 --> 00:52:56,000
Speaker 1: I have a link that allows you to sign up

986
00:52:56,040 --> 00:52:59,239
Speaker 1: for a text alert. It's very helpful to get the

987
00:52:59,280 --> 00:53:01,200
Speaker 1: word out to people about the shows. If you sign

988
00:53:01,280 --> 00:53:04,239
Speaker 1: up for a text alert, that will let you know

989
00:53:04,760 --> 00:53:08,200
Speaker 1: when I am coming to your city, and it will

990
00:53:08,239 --> 00:53:10,920
Speaker 1: let you know when I drop the tour dates. So

991
00:53:11,920 --> 00:53:14,800
Speaker 1: go in the link of the go into the episode

992
00:53:14,800 --> 00:53:17,720
Speaker 1: description of the podcast. I don't know why I'm stumbling

993
00:53:17,719 --> 00:53:19,600
Speaker 1: over my words today, but go into the episode description

994
00:53:19,719 --> 00:53:22,680
Speaker 1: of the podcast. Put your phone number or email in

995
00:53:22,719 --> 00:53:25,000
Speaker 1: there so that I can let you know when I'm

996
00:53:25,040 --> 00:53:28,600
Speaker 1: coming to your city in twenty twenty six, and especially

997
00:53:28,640 --> 00:53:30,640
Speaker 1: if you live in New York City, because I'm going

998
00:53:30,719 --> 00:53:33,920
Speaker 1: to try to start up a kind of a regular

999
00:53:34,040 --> 00:53:37,040
Speaker 1: recurring show between now and that tour to kind of

1000
00:53:37,080 --> 00:53:42,800
Speaker 1: get some material together and practice being back on stage.

1001
00:53:42,840 --> 00:53:49,799
Speaker 1: But anyway, let's get into some GEK mails. This is

1002
00:53:51,200 --> 00:53:57,480
Speaker 1: from Marcos. Subject line, I ran my first marathon with

1003
00:53:57,560 --> 00:54:02,640
Speaker 1: my sixty two year old day. Hello, GHEK, I hope

1004
00:54:02,640 --> 00:54:05,520
Speaker 1: you were doing all right. We had talked before. I

1005
00:54:05,600 --> 00:54:10,120
Speaker 1: was the caller who destroyed your optimism with the metaglasses convo.

1006
00:54:10,520 --> 00:54:13,520
Speaker 1: I think I remember that. I think there was a

1007
00:54:13,560 --> 00:54:17,040
Speaker 1: conversation where I was being optimistic about the rejection of

1008
00:54:17,080 --> 00:54:20,920
Speaker 1: new technology, and then you told me about the metaglasses

1009
00:54:20,920 --> 00:54:23,839
Speaker 1: and I was like, Okay, well we're fucked anyway. On

1010
00:54:23,880 --> 00:54:26,759
Speaker 1: October fifth, I ran the Twin Cities Marathon with my

1011
00:54:26,840 --> 00:54:30,440
Speaker 1: father and two brothers. My father has ran many before

1012
00:54:30,480 --> 00:54:32,719
Speaker 1: in his prime, and he's always wanted to run one

1013
00:54:32,800 --> 00:54:35,680
Speaker 1: with his three sons. That was my main motivation to

1014
00:54:35,719 --> 00:54:38,719
Speaker 1: sign up. Oh that's cute. So I start training in

1015
00:54:38,800 --> 00:54:41,239
Speaker 1: January and I was very impressed with how far I

1016
00:54:41,280 --> 00:54:44,520
Speaker 1: can run. I felt limitless, as if I awoke a

1017
00:54:44,600 --> 00:54:47,920
Speaker 1: new potential within me. Race day came and I felt

1018
00:54:47,920 --> 00:54:52,640
Speaker 1: hella nervous. Everything was going fine until mile nineteen. I

1019
00:54:52,680 --> 00:54:55,080
Speaker 1: was lagging behind and they had started taking down the

1020
00:54:55,120 --> 00:54:58,120
Speaker 1: mile markers. So for the next six miles I had

1021
00:54:58,200 --> 00:55:01,200
Speaker 1: no idea how much further go, and I was in

1022
00:55:01,239 --> 00:55:04,440
Speaker 1: all sorts of pain. My mom decided to join me

1023
00:55:04,640 --> 00:55:06,920
Speaker 1: and my dad on the last portion of the race

1024
00:55:07,120 --> 00:55:09,520
Speaker 1: to motivate us. Thankfully, I made it to the finish

1025
00:55:09,600 --> 00:55:12,880
Speaker 1: line with one last sprint. I finished in seven hours

1026
00:55:12,880 --> 00:55:15,600
Speaker 1: and thirty minutes, and I would do it again. Oh shit, man,

1027
00:55:15,800 --> 00:55:20,600
Speaker 1: seven hours of running. That's cray AT's crazy. Shout out

1028
00:55:20,600 --> 00:55:22,200
Speaker 1: to my wife for supporting me the whole time. Shout

1029
00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:23,560
Speaker 1: out to my family for being there at the end

1030
00:55:23,560 --> 00:55:28,040
Speaker 1: of the finish line. Congratulations Marcos, that's cool. I don't

1031
00:55:28,080 --> 00:55:31,360
Speaker 1: know why I'm making everything about me, but I'd like

1032
00:55:31,400 --> 00:55:33,520
Speaker 1: to run a marathon one day. I don't know. I

1033
00:55:33,560 --> 00:55:35,080
Speaker 1: don't know if I'm ever gonna do that. I don't

1034
00:55:35,120 --> 00:55:39,120
Speaker 1: like running. I like walking like I would I could easily.

1035
00:55:39,600 --> 00:55:42,440
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know about easily. But like if

1036
00:55:42,440 --> 00:55:44,319
Speaker 1: you were like, hey, you want to go on a

1037
00:55:44,360 --> 00:55:47,640
Speaker 1: fifty mile walk, I'd be like, sure, that sounds like

1038
00:55:47,760 --> 00:55:48,439
Speaker 1: it could be fun.

1039
00:55:48,920 --> 00:55:49,120
Speaker 3: You know.

1040
00:55:49,239 --> 00:55:52,239
Speaker 1: I like a nice pace, but a run is like

1041
00:55:52,320 --> 00:55:55,960
Speaker 1: if I don't have anything to run from, I don't

1042
00:55:55,960 --> 00:55:58,960
Speaker 1: really want to run, but I'm glad that you did it.

1043
00:55:58,960 --> 00:56:01,920
Speaker 1: Someone's got to do it. Think. You know what always

1044
00:56:01,920 --> 00:56:07,560
Speaker 1: confused me is the like like the breast cancer awareness

1045
00:56:07,880 --> 00:56:10,440
Speaker 1: walks and like not specifically breast cancer, but you know

1046
00:56:10,480 --> 00:56:14,000
Speaker 1: what I mean, where it's like walk for diabetes, walk

1047
00:56:14,120 --> 00:56:17,759
Speaker 1: for cancer type of stuff, like when we were growing up.

1048
00:56:17,840 --> 00:56:20,120
Speaker 1: I'm sure they still do it, but because I always

1049
00:56:20,120 --> 00:56:22,200
Speaker 1: thought I was like when I was a kid, I

1050
00:56:22,200 --> 00:56:29,160
Speaker 1: thought that somehow the walking itself cured the cancer. And

1051
00:56:29,200 --> 00:56:31,360
Speaker 1: now I realized, no, you pay. I think this is

1052
00:56:31,360 --> 00:56:33,200
Speaker 1: how it works. You pay. I've never ran one of

1053
00:56:33,239 --> 00:56:36,839
Speaker 1: these things, but you pay money and then you do

1054
00:56:36,880 --> 00:56:40,480
Speaker 1: the walk, and then they donate the money to like

1055
00:56:40,520 --> 00:56:43,759
Speaker 1: a cancer research place. But don't wouldn't You don't have

1056
00:56:43,840 --> 00:56:46,399
Speaker 1: to do the walk, You can just do the give

1057
00:56:46,440 --> 00:56:52,920
Speaker 1: the money. It should be called money for should be

1058
00:56:52,960 --> 00:56:57,120
Speaker 1: called money for cancer, folks. I'm going on tour. It's

1059
00:56:57,120 --> 00:57:01,040
Speaker 1: gonna be great now. I'm yeah, that sounds uh, sounds good.

1060
00:57:01,080 --> 00:57:08,560
Speaker 1: I'm glad you did that. Okay. Interesting. This is from Shade,

1061
00:57:09,520 --> 00:57:15,040
Speaker 1: subject line unhappiness while happy. Hey, Lyle, I've been wanting

1062
00:57:15,080 --> 00:57:17,840
Speaker 1: to message you forever. You can read my silly email

1063
00:57:17,920 --> 00:57:22,000
Speaker 1: name if you'd like. But I'll go by Timothy. Okay,

1064
00:57:22,040 --> 00:57:24,240
Speaker 1: I'll call you Timothy. I have everything a man could

1065
00:57:24,320 --> 00:57:28,480
Speaker 1: say they want, but I'm pretty chronically unhappy. I have

1066
00:57:28,520 --> 00:57:32,480
Speaker 1: a fiance and we had a baby recently. She's a

1067
00:57:32,560 --> 00:57:34,960
Speaker 1: year and a half old and the light of my life.

1068
00:57:35,120 --> 00:57:38,200
Speaker 1: And we have two cats and a dog. The worst

1069
00:57:38,200 --> 00:57:41,840
Speaker 1: thing about my living situation is living with my fiance's mom,

1070
00:57:42,160 --> 00:57:45,680
Speaker 1: who is seventy and always talks in a baby voice

1071
00:57:45,800 --> 00:57:49,160
Speaker 1: and pushes boundaries by always just being in our grill

1072
00:57:49,480 --> 00:57:53,760
Speaker 1: and being Hella overbearing. I live in Texas, where weed

1073
00:57:54,120 --> 00:57:57,360
Speaker 1: is illegal. I got in trouble twice consecutively for the

1074
00:57:57,400 --> 00:58:01,040
Speaker 1: Penjamin and Bud after that six year to all I

1075
00:58:01,080 --> 00:58:03,640
Speaker 1: wanted to do when I was twenty six and done

1076
00:58:03,640 --> 00:58:08,000
Speaker 1: with that was travel. Wait, hold on, after that six

1077
00:58:08,120 --> 00:58:11,800
Speaker 1: year debacle, did you get did you get thrown in jail?

1078
00:58:13,200 --> 00:58:15,160
Speaker 1: What is the six year debacle? I'm gonna assume you

1079
00:58:15,160 --> 00:58:18,040
Speaker 1: got thrown in jail, but I don't. Okay, anyway, all

1080
00:58:18,040 --> 00:58:19,360
Speaker 1: I wanted to do when I was twenty six and

1081
00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:21,600
Speaker 1: done with that was travel. I've already traveled a lot

1082
00:58:21,640 --> 00:58:23,560
Speaker 1: as a kid to New York and London, but not

1083
00:58:23,720 --> 00:58:26,120
Speaker 1: nearly as much as I wanted to. But almost right

1084
00:58:26,160 --> 00:58:28,920
Speaker 1: after I got off probation, Okay, there it is, I

1085
00:58:28,920 --> 00:58:31,720
Speaker 1: got with my fiance and we made our baby. Who

1086
00:58:31,800 --> 00:58:35,600
Speaker 1: is my mini me. That's cute. I have a chronic

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00:58:35,720 --> 00:58:39,720
Speaker 1: case of wanderlust, and I'm diagnosed to bipolar, depressive and

1088
00:58:39,760 --> 00:58:44,000
Speaker 1: an insomniac. I deal with this by smoking and drinking constantly.

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00:58:44,440 --> 00:58:46,440
Speaker 1: I know it's a terrible way to self medicate, and

1090
00:58:46,480 --> 00:58:49,400
Speaker 1: I need to probably just get on meds like you

1091
00:58:49,920 --> 00:58:55,640
Speaker 1: instead of killing my liver faster with alcohol. I'm not

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00:58:55,680 --> 00:59:02,560
Speaker 1: on any SSRIs. I take stimulants and they're fucking great.

1093
00:59:02,720 --> 00:59:07,720
Speaker 1: But anyway, but I've also had a plenty of times

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00:59:07,760 --> 00:59:12,120
Speaker 1: where I was trying to where I also self medicate,

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00:59:12,360 --> 00:59:17,680
Speaker 1: uh severely with you know, weed and alcohol and masturbation.

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00:59:17,960 --> 00:59:22,200
Speaker 1: So you know, I mean we can we can kind

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00:59:22,200 --> 00:59:25,200
Speaker 1: of go eye to eye on this. Uh, I probably

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00:59:25,240 --> 00:59:27,280
Speaker 1: need to get on meds, like you instead of killing

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00:59:27,280 --> 00:59:29,880
Speaker 1: my liver faster with alcohol. But it's a remedy that's

1100
00:59:30,040 --> 00:59:33,320
Speaker 1: right there, and it's become habitual. That's the dude. That's

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00:59:33,360 --> 00:59:35,440
Speaker 1: one of the hardest things about like taking fucking meds

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00:59:35,480 --> 00:59:37,240
Speaker 1: is you go to the doctor and the doctor's like, Okay,

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00:59:37,320 --> 00:59:42,560
Speaker 1: we have a thing and it might make your situation

1104
00:59:42,760 --> 00:59:47,560
Speaker 1: a little bit better or it might make it way worse,

1105
00:59:47,960 --> 00:59:50,320
Speaker 1: and you have to take it for three months to

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00:59:50,360 --> 00:59:53,840
Speaker 1: find out. That's what getting on SSRIs is like. And

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00:59:53,880 --> 00:59:57,560
Speaker 1: then and then alcohol is like, hey, you want to

1108
00:59:57,600 --> 00:59:59,720
Speaker 1: make that you want to make that ship stop right

1109
01:00:00,080 --> 01:00:03,120
Speaker 1: fucking now. Obviously you know it's not a good idea

1110
01:00:03,160 --> 01:00:06,479
Speaker 1: you go into, you go into a form of emotional debt.

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01:00:06,560 --> 01:00:08,120
Speaker 1: But again I'm not gonna say I don't get it.

1112
01:00:10,120 --> 01:00:12,640
Speaker 1: I yearn for the empty roads, for the sites, for

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01:00:12,680 --> 01:00:14,880
Speaker 1: the feeling of living something I should have at a

1114
01:00:14,920 --> 01:00:19,200
Speaker 1: younger age. I'm only twenty nine now, but in eighteen years,

1115
01:00:19,240 --> 01:00:21,760
Speaker 1: when my baby is bigger, I'll be damned near fifty.

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01:00:22,240 --> 01:00:24,640
Speaker 1: My life as a kid was pretty traumatic, so substance

1117
01:00:24,640 --> 01:00:27,440
Speaker 1: abuse issues when I was a kid were prevalent. But

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01:00:27,480 --> 01:00:30,200
Speaker 1: now it's just the beer. My dad died drinking and

1119
01:00:30,280 --> 01:00:32,960
Speaker 1: driving when I was eight, and my dad's dad was

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01:00:33,000 --> 01:00:36,760
Speaker 1: a Vietnam vet who had PTSD and hardcore depression. He

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01:00:36,880 --> 01:00:40,560
Speaker 1: drank himself to cirrhosis of the liver. I can't follow

1122
01:00:40,600 --> 01:00:43,680
Speaker 1: these assholes to a young grave, mostly for my daughter,

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01:00:43,920 --> 01:00:46,320
Speaker 1: but also I always told myself i'd break the cycle,

1124
01:00:46,600 --> 01:00:48,920
Speaker 1: and here I am looking my daughter in the face,

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01:00:49,360 --> 01:00:52,000
Speaker 1: debating when to take the first drink of the night,

1126
01:00:52,360 --> 01:00:54,800
Speaker 1: closer to bedtime. I have a lot more to talk about,

1127
01:00:54,800 --> 01:00:56,680
Speaker 1: and this isn't laid out the best, but Thanksghek for

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01:00:56,680 --> 01:00:58,920
Speaker 1: everything you do. I've been listening for five years and

1129
01:00:58,960 --> 01:01:07,440
Speaker 1: any advice would be great. Hmmm, you know, well a

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01:01:07,440 --> 01:01:10,760
Speaker 1: few things. I mean, this is definitely real therapist stuff.

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01:01:10,760 --> 01:01:17,000
Speaker 1: But I do have thoughts, you know, I will have

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01:01:17,000 --> 01:01:19,000
Speaker 1: a lot of I have a lot of thoughts. Why.

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01:01:19,240 --> 01:01:23,360
Speaker 1: I want to know, why are you unhappy? Because I'm

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01:01:23,400 --> 01:01:25,240
Speaker 1: thinking about times in my life where I've like self

1135
01:01:25,280 --> 01:01:29,560
Speaker 1: medicated with alcohol or weed er whatever it is, and

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01:01:29,600 --> 01:01:32,040
Speaker 1: it's because I was unhappier because I was really stressed,

1137
01:01:33,000 --> 01:01:37,080
Speaker 1: and you know, like you said, it's right fucking there,

1138
01:01:38,080 --> 01:01:43,880
Speaker 1: you know, and then all these like external the mere

1139
01:01:44,280 --> 01:01:47,520
Speaker 1: presence of external things in your life, like your fiance

1140
01:01:47,680 --> 01:01:51,440
Speaker 1: and your baby and your your job and whatever. It like,

1141
01:01:51,480 --> 01:01:56,320
Speaker 1: the mere presence of positive external things in your life

1142
01:01:56,720 --> 01:02:04,440
Speaker 1: is useless if you can't if you don't have the

1143
01:02:04,560 --> 01:02:10,240
Speaker 1: internal shit figured out to like appreciate them and like

1144
01:02:10,480 --> 01:02:16,440
Speaker 1: dive into them, you know. I mean it also sounds

1145
01:02:16,440 --> 01:02:18,960
Speaker 1: like you. I mean, yeah, you definitely have some kind

1146
01:02:19,040 --> 01:02:25,400
Speaker 1: of like biological issue going on that you've got to

1147
01:02:25,440 --> 01:02:31,000
Speaker 1: talk to a professional about. And I'm trying to think

1148
01:02:31,040 --> 01:02:34,800
Speaker 1: of like advice just from my own experience of like

1149
01:02:36,120 --> 01:02:44,160
Speaker 1: depression and substance shit. I mean, you're definitely you're doing

1150
01:02:44,160 --> 01:02:46,120
Speaker 1: way better than your dad and your dad's dad did,

1151
01:02:46,320 --> 01:02:49,320
Speaker 1: doing way better, doing way better than your dad and

1152
01:02:49,360 --> 01:02:52,680
Speaker 1: your dad's dad did a because you're not I hope

1153
01:02:52,680 --> 01:02:59,000
Speaker 1: you're not drinking and driving. You're not dead, and you see,

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01:02:59,040 --> 01:03:00,680
Speaker 1: I don't know something about I don't know your dad.

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01:03:00,720 --> 01:03:02,440
Speaker 1: I don't know your dad's dad. But I don't know

1156
01:03:02,480 --> 01:03:05,120
Speaker 1: if your dad and your dad's dad ever had the

1157
01:03:05,160 --> 01:03:08,600
Speaker 1: self awareness to, you know, send an email to a

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01:03:08,720 --> 01:03:11,560
Speaker 1: lizard asking for advice, you know. I mean, that's a

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01:03:11,560 --> 01:03:14,560
Speaker 1: bare minimum amount of self awareness that it seems like

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01:03:14,600 --> 01:03:16,880
Speaker 1: you have. And I and that's the whole thing, right.

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01:03:16,920 --> 01:03:18,760
Speaker 1: It's like knowing you have a problem as part of

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01:03:19,680 --> 01:03:23,520
Speaker 1: solving the problem. So that's good. You seem to know

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01:03:23,760 --> 01:03:28,280
Speaker 1: a lot about yourself, Timothy. You seem to know a

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01:03:28,320 --> 01:03:32,720
Speaker 1: lot about yourself, which is great because some people they're

1165
01:03:32,760 --> 01:03:35,280
Speaker 1: just floating right, Like, you know, you're just getting drunk

1166
01:03:35,320 --> 01:03:37,880
Speaker 1: just because there's nothing else to do, and you're fucking

1167
01:03:37,960 --> 01:03:40,560
Speaker 1: floating and you're you know, just feel like you're drowning.

1168
01:03:40,720 --> 01:03:44,520
Speaker 1: But you got a lot of good information. You know,

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01:03:45,680 --> 01:03:48,480
Speaker 1: you know that what you're experiencing is part of a

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01:03:48,520 --> 01:03:52,640
Speaker 1: cycle from your family. You know that you love your daughter.

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01:03:52,800 --> 01:03:55,440
Speaker 1: Some people don't know that. Some people don't Some people

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01:03:55,760 --> 01:03:57,120
Speaker 1: like look at their kid and they're like, I don't

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01:03:57,120 --> 01:03:59,680
Speaker 1: know if I like if I love this kid, or

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01:03:59,720 --> 01:04:02,080
Speaker 1: some people look at their significant other and they're like,

1175
01:04:02,120 --> 01:04:04,040
Speaker 1: I don't know about this person. But you see, you know,

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01:04:04,240 --> 01:04:08,040
Speaker 1: I could tell that. You know, you know that you

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01:04:08,160 --> 01:04:16,720
Speaker 1: like to travel. That's great. You know what you don't want?

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01:04:16,880 --> 01:04:20,160
Speaker 1: You know you want to be a good dad. You

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01:04:20,200 --> 01:04:22,440
Speaker 1: know you want to be a good husband. You know

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01:04:22,520 --> 01:04:24,880
Speaker 1: you want to you know, you want to get better.

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01:04:25,160 --> 01:04:28,320
Speaker 1: That's the thing. Some people don't want to get better.

1182
01:04:28,600 --> 01:04:30,160
Speaker 1: Or they don't even know what to f they don't

1183
01:04:30,160 --> 01:04:34,120
Speaker 1: even have like rolls to slip in, Like that's a

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01:04:34,120 --> 01:04:37,160
Speaker 1: big thing that people get the just people get lost

1185
01:04:37,240 --> 01:04:42,160
Speaker 1: to you know, they don't have a they don't have

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01:04:42,320 --> 01:04:44,320
Speaker 1: somebody to be a good father to or to be

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01:04:44,360 --> 01:04:49,320
Speaker 1: a good husband to, or they don't have a thing

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01:04:49,400 --> 01:04:54,439
Speaker 1: in life to even like show up to. But you've

1189
01:04:54,440 --> 01:04:57,320
Speaker 1: got some stuff that you know in your gut is

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01:04:57,560 --> 01:05:03,280
Speaker 1: worth showing up to. And so if I had to

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01:05:03,280 --> 01:05:06,880
Speaker 1: give any advice to this email, I would say like, well, okay,

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01:05:07,040 --> 01:05:11,320
Speaker 1: you know, make a list or at least a mental

1193
01:05:11,320 --> 01:05:14,160
Speaker 1: note of these things that you want to be and

1194
01:05:14,200 --> 01:05:20,560
Speaker 1: you want to show up to and go from there,

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01:05:21,720 --> 01:05:23,640
Speaker 1: because I don't think I don't know if you can

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01:05:23,880 --> 01:05:27,320
Speaker 1: just I'm not a life coach or anything like that,

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01:05:27,360 --> 01:05:28,960
Speaker 1: but I'm just like talking out of my ass here.

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01:05:28,960 --> 01:05:32,040
Speaker 1: But I don't know if you can just like stop

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Speaker 1: drinking or stop whatever your negative behavior is. I think,

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01:05:39,200 --> 01:05:43,040
Speaker 1: at least in my case, I've always had to replace

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01:05:43,080 --> 01:05:46,560
Speaker 1: it with something else. Like if I'm like, for example,

1202
01:05:46,560 --> 01:05:51,840
Speaker 1: if I'm addicted to porn, I'm addicted to like whatever

1203
01:05:51,840 --> 01:05:54,560
Speaker 1: it is, and I'll notice if I'm in the if

1204
01:05:54,600 --> 01:05:59,040
Speaker 1: I'm doing something that's positive, or I'm like fulfilling one

1205
01:05:59,080 --> 01:06:02,400
Speaker 1: of my positive values or whatnot. I'll be like, oh shit,

1206
01:06:02,480 --> 01:06:07,760
Speaker 1: it's been two days since I've jacked off and I

1207
01:06:07,800 --> 01:06:12,160
Speaker 1: didn't even have to try, you know, because you're busy

1208
01:06:12,200 --> 01:06:16,560
Speaker 1: on something else. I think that wander lust shit, because

1209
01:06:16,560 --> 01:06:18,480
Speaker 1: I have that too. I think that comes from like

1210
01:06:18,560 --> 01:06:21,600
Speaker 1: a we talked about it early in your episode, like

1211
01:06:21,640 --> 01:06:28,840
Speaker 1: you want to fuck the world, you know, and sometimes

1212
01:06:30,080 --> 01:06:32,440
Speaker 1: sometimes they just want you need a change of state,

1213
01:06:32,560 --> 01:06:35,440
Speaker 1: or you're just like, dude, I'm trying to verbally express

1214
01:06:35,480 --> 01:06:37,320
Speaker 1: a feeling I have in my gut right now, and

1215
01:06:37,360 --> 01:06:41,960
Speaker 1: maybe some people understand it. But like, yeah, sometimes that

1216
01:06:42,040 --> 01:06:44,000
Speaker 1: manifests in like beautiful stuff and the other times that

1217
01:06:44,040 --> 01:06:53,160
Speaker 1: manifests in fucking drinking yourself to death. But shit, that

1218
01:06:53,240 --> 01:06:55,520
Speaker 1: was a whole rant and ponder. I don't know if

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01:06:55,520 --> 01:06:57,320
Speaker 1: those I don't know if this was helpful to you

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01:06:57,400 --> 01:07:05,920
Speaker 1: in any way, Timothy, but hmmm, that's my takeaway. I

1221
01:07:05,960 --> 01:07:07,520
Speaker 1: don't know if this is helpful for you just having

1222
01:07:07,520 --> 01:07:10,800
Speaker 1: somebody else read this, But my main takeaway from this

1223
01:07:11,000 --> 01:07:14,680
Speaker 1: is that in your email, you have lined, you have

1224
01:07:14,720 --> 01:07:18,360
Speaker 1: outlined things that you care about, and so you have

1225
01:07:18,400 --> 01:07:24,960
Speaker 1: a direction. I can't give you advice on I I

1226
01:07:24,960 --> 01:07:27,400
Speaker 1: can't give you advice on how to move in that direction,

1227
01:07:27,920 --> 01:07:30,160
Speaker 1: but I can just tell you my perspective reading this

1228
01:07:30,240 --> 01:07:33,080
Speaker 1: email is that you have a direction, which is more

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01:07:33,120 --> 01:07:37,400
Speaker 1: than most people have. So you know, take a look

1230
01:07:37,400 --> 01:07:43,000
Speaker 1: at that. I hope that was helpful. Okay, Oh, here's this.

1231
01:07:43,120 --> 01:07:49,160
Speaker 1: Oh I read this one off off the mic, just

1232
01:07:49,200 --> 01:07:50,440
Speaker 1: like when I was I was just look at the

1233
01:07:50,480 --> 01:07:52,880
Speaker 1: get mail on my phone and I thought it was

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01:07:52,920 --> 01:07:54,760
Speaker 1: really funny. I took a screenshot of this and I

1235
01:07:54,800 --> 01:07:58,120
Speaker 1: sent it to my group chat with my friends. That

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01:07:58,200 --> 01:08:05,000
Speaker 1: got nine laugh reacts. Okay, this is from Tom subject

1237
01:08:05,240 --> 01:08:07,720
Speaker 1: and this is from Tom. It just says, Hey, GEK,

1238
01:08:08,280 --> 01:08:11,920
Speaker 1: just wondering why every episode is about sex lately everyone

1239
01:08:11,960 --> 01:08:15,120
Speaker 1: just talks about sex. There isn't any therapy happening here.

1240
01:08:15,680 --> 01:08:19,000
Speaker 1: Just talking about sex. Used to be really cool and

1241
01:08:19,120 --> 01:08:23,160
Speaker 1: interesting stories told. Now it's just sex. Hope it gets

1242
01:08:23,240 --> 01:08:30,519
Speaker 1: interesting soon. Exclamation points. I don't know what to tell you, Tom.

1243
01:08:30,600 --> 01:08:33,160
Speaker 1: People really, people really like having sex. It's one of

1244
01:08:33,200 --> 01:08:40,920
Speaker 1: the main things. It's it's it's real. Sex is really

1245
01:08:40,960 --> 01:08:46,360
Speaker 1: our only it's the only like logistical meaning of life.

1246
01:08:47,760 --> 01:08:51,320
Speaker 1: I think because we're humans. We try to kind of

1247
01:08:51,320 --> 01:08:53,800
Speaker 1: come up with other things and they always end up

1248
01:08:53,880 --> 01:08:58,760
Speaker 1: leading back to sex. But yeah, that's what that's like.

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01:08:58,800 --> 01:09:05,160
Speaker 1: Our biological function, stay alive, reproduce. Humans are interesting. We

1250
01:09:05,200 --> 01:09:08,519
Speaker 1: figured out a way to reproduce without the baby part.

1251
01:09:09,439 --> 01:09:12,760
Speaker 1: Isn't that interesting? We were like, wait, this just feels good.

1252
01:09:12,840 --> 01:09:18,000
Speaker 1: Let's just do it without the whole having a baby part.

1253
01:09:18,920 --> 01:09:23,880
Speaker 1: Isn't that crazy? Like biologically we're supposed to reproduce once. Well,

1254
01:09:23,880 --> 01:09:27,360
Speaker 1: I guess I don't like biologically, every time you have sex,

1255
01:09:29,120 --> 01:09:33,479
Speaker 1: the purpose is to make a baby, cald You imagine

1256
01:09:33,520 --> 01:09:36,160
Speaker 1: if every time you had sex you made a baby.

1257
01:09:37,280 --> 01:09:40,280
Speaker 1: That's what they used to do. But we're geniuses. We

1258
01:09:40,400 --> 01:09:45,559
Speaker 1: meant to condoms, we meant to contraceptives, and we were like,

1259
01:09:45,600 --> 01:09:48,840
Speaker 1: let's just do it just for fun. And so people

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01:09:48,880 --> 01:09:52,000
Speaker 1: are having fun. Now it's fun to you should try

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01:09:52,000 --> 01:09:58,640
Speaker 1: having sex, Thomas. It's nice. I'm not even I'm not

1262
01:09:58,680 --> 01:10:01,640
Speaker 1: saying that as like a diss too. You you might have

1263
01:10:01,680 --> 01:10:04,000
Speaker 1: a lot of se you might have. I actually think

1264
01:10:04,200 --> 01:10:10,360
Speaker 1: this this emailer has so much sex that the reason

1265
01:10:10,400 --> 01:10:12,600
Speaker 1: they're tired of hearing about people talk about sex in

1266
01:10:12,640 --> 01:10:15,840
Speaker 1: the podcast is because they're like, I have sex so

1267
01:10:15,960 --> 01:10:18,800
Speaker 1: much in my regular life. I listen to the Therapy Gecko

1268
01:10:18,840 --> 01:10:22,840
Speaker 1: podcast to get away from sex. And in that case, Tom,

1269
01:10:22,880 --> 01:10:25,479
Speaker 1: I'm I'm sorry, but you know, out of control what

1270
01:10:25,479 --> 01:10:28,559
Speaker 1: people say on here. I mean, I kind of do

1271
01:10:29,760 --> 01:10:33,880
Speaker 1: a little bit. I you know, I'll edit out calls

1272
01:10:33,880 --> 01:10:35,519
Speaker 1: that I don't want to put in the podcast. But

1273
01:10:37,360 --> 01:10:43,120
Speaker 1: you know, sex is a universal concept. It's not even

1274
01:10:43,240 --> 01:10:47,559
Speaker 1: like a human universal concept. It's like a biological universal concept.

1275
01:10:47,680 --> 01:10:50,120
Speaker 1: So you know it's going to come up. That's all

1276
01:10:50,120 --> 01:10:55,479
Speaker 1: I'm saying. This is from Rolin subject line twenty six

1277
01:10:55,600 --> 01:10:59,960
Speaker 1: years old without social media, high Gecko. I'm a twenty

1278
01:11:00,080 --> 01:11:02,320
Speaker 1: six year old male and I'm lit, and I no

1279
01:11:02,400 --> 01:11:06,000
Speaker 1: longer have social media or scroll away hours of my

1280
01:11:06,120 --> 01:11:09,320
Speaker 1: life on my phone. It's come with its drawbacks, but

1281
01:11:09,439 --> 01:11:12,400
Speaker 1: not really the ones you'd think. I've gotten a lot

1282
01:11:12,400 --> 01:11:14,320
Speaker 1: of my friends and family telling me to get off

1283
01:11:14,320 --> 01:11:16,639
Speaker 1: my high horse, and I'm just trying to be different

1284
01:11:16,680 --> 01:11:20,639
Speaker 1: and better than all of them. What that's crazy, By

1285
01:11:20,680 --> 01:11:22,920
Speaker 1: the way, you are better than all of them. I

1286
01:11:22,920 --> 01:11:24,920
Speaker 1: want you to know something. If you and this goes

1287
01:11:24,960 --> 01:11:29,240
Speaker 1: to everyone, if you don't have social media, you you

1288
01:11:29,320 --> 01:11:32,920
Speaker 1: are better than everyone else. If you don't have social

1289
01:11:32,960 --> 01:11:38,720
Speaker 1: media and you don't eat meat, and you run five

1290
01:11:38,760 --> 01:11:40,200
Speaker 1: miles a day and you.

1291
01:11:43,479 --> 01:11:44,360
Speaker 3: Like eat.

1292
01:11:45,840 --> 01:11:49,080
Speaker 1: Like fruits and vegetables, you are You're better than everyone else.

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Speaker 1: You are objectively much better of a human being. If

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01:11:54,160 --> 01:11:56,240
Speaker 1: you like, if you give to charity, like you just

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01:11:56,360 --> 01:11:58,320
Speaker 1: you just are you're better human being than everyone else.

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01:11:59,320 --> 01:12:02,160
Speaker 1: And I think, I think you get to be. I

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01:12:02,160 --> 01:12:04,519
Speaker 1: think the reward because it's a lot of work being

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01:12:04,600 --> 01:12:10,000
Speaker 1: better than everyone else. And you know, it's a lot

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01:12:10,040 --> 01:12:15,200
Speaker 1: of work to remove yourself from your vices and like

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01:12:15,320 --> 01:12:17,800
Speaker 1: try to do the things you're supposed to do. And

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01:12:17,880 --> 01:12:19,680
Speaker 1: part of the reward of that is that you just

1302
01:12:19,680 --> 01:12:21,519
Speaker 1: get you get to be better than everyone else. It's

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01:12:21,560 --> 01:12:26,040
Speaker 1: a it's a totally totally fair system. That's why I

1304
01:12:26,080 --> 01:12:28,760
Speaker 1: don't care. I don't care if someone is pretentious to

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01:12:28,840 --> 01:12:33,439
Speaker 1: me about their achievements or about like like if you

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01:12:33,560 --> 01:12:35,599
Speaker 1: if we're talking and you're acting like you're better than

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01:12:35,600 --> 01:12:37,479
Speaker 1: me because you don't eat meatia, you don't have social

1308
01:12:37,520 --> 01:12:41,479
Speaker 1: media or whatever virtual or you read whatever virtue thing is.

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01:12:41,560 --> 01:12:43,840
Speaker 1: I don't get offended at all. I think you're right

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01:12:44,760 --> 01:12:48,080
Speaker 1: and you deserve to be able to do that. But

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01:12:48,120 --> 01:12:50,080
Speaker 1: I also also, Rolin, I don't know you, but I

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01:12:50,120 --> 01:12:51,680
Speaker 1: think you're a good guy. I don't even think you're

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01:12:51,680 --> 01:12:56,599
Speaker 1: being a dick about it, which fucking makes you even better.

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Speaker 3: That makes you.

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01:12:58,160 --> 01:13:00,439
Speaker 1: Oh my god, Roland, you're so much better than everyone

1316
01:13:00,439 --> 01:13:02,439
Speaker 1: else because I can tell you're not being a dick

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01:13:02,479 --> 01:13:05,400
Speaker 1: about it when you are well within your right to

1318
01:13:05,400 --> 01:13:11,320
Speaker 1: be a dick about it. I'm impressed by you, Rolin. Okay,

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01:13:11,360 --> 01:13:13,320
Speaker 1: let me finish reading, then email. I don't think that's

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Speaker 1: the case. I'm not like the annoying, overbearing preacher telling

1321
01:13:15,960 --> 01:13:18,439
Speaker 1: people they must stop scrolling or they were perish in

1322
01:13:18,439 --> 01:13:20,840
Speaker 1: the depths of hell. They can do what they want.

1323
01:13:20,880 --> 01:13:22,840
Speaker 1: I just don't want to waste any more of my time.

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01:13:23,200 --> 01:13:25,000
Speaker 1: I guess what really bothers me is that whenever someone

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01:13:25,040 --> 01:13:27,240
Speaker 1: asks for my social media, I say I don't have

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Speaker 1: social media, and apparently that's a red flag. Hold on, Okay,

1327
01:13:31,760 --> 01:13:34,400
Speaker 1: you don't know this because you don't have social media rollin,

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01:13:34,720 --> 01:13:38,439
Speaker 1: But like, dude, there's a phenomenon going on. I've both

1329
01:13:38,520 --> 01:13:41,280
Speaker 1: seen it on TikTok and I've like talked to people

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01:13:41,320 --> 01:13:51,840
Speaker 1: about it, where like women want a man with no

1331
01:13:52,800 --> 01:13:57,040
Speaker 1: social media, and I've some people have. I don't think

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01:13:57,080 --> 01:14:00,599
Speaker 1: this is true. I don't think this is like in general,

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01:14:00,600 --> 01:14:03,240
Speaker 1: but I've talked to a lot of people lately who

1334
01:14:03,280 --> 01:14:06,920
Speaker 1: are like, I want a boyfriend with no friends who

1335
01:14:06,960 --> 01:14:11,160
Speaker 1: plays sudoku in his room alone. I think there's a

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01:14:11,200 --> 01:14:12,720
Speaker 1: lot of people who don't want that, but there's a

1337
01:14:12,760 --> 01:14:15,679
Speaker 1: certain but like, actually, I think a lot of people

1338
01:14:15,760 --> 01:14:18,080
Speaker 1: find that attractive, or like I'll see some TikTok where

1339
01:14:18,080 --> 01:14:22,400
Speaker 1: it's like manifesting this and it's like an Instagram account

1340
01:14:22,439 --> 01:14:26,240
Speaker 1: with no posts, no followers, and no one they're following.

1341
01:14:27,000 --> 01:14:30,360
Speaker 1: So I don't think it's a red flag necessarily. Also

1342
01:14:30,400 --> 01:14:32,559
Speaker 1: when I'm also like, I mean that whatever I gave

1343
01:14:32,600 --> 01:14:34,680
Speaker 1: the dating aspect of it, but also like, if I

1344
01:14:34,760 --> 01:14:37,080
Speaker 1: meet someone and they say they don't have any social media,

1345
01:14:37,320 --> 01:14:42,479
Speaker 1: I immediately find them. I immediately am like, oh, you

1346
01:14:42,720 --> 01:14:44,960
Speaker 1: actually genuinely are di from for everyone else. You're way

1347
01:14:44,960 --> 01:14:47,760
Speaker 1: more interesting. I want to talk to you. You have

1348
01:14:47,840 --> 01:14:53,519
Speaker 1: more interesting thoughts. I just believe that, So it's a

1349
01:14:53,560 --> 01:14:58,680
Speaker 1: green flag. The follow up question is why don't you

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01:14:58,720 --> 01:15:00,320
Speaker 1: have it? It bothers me because if I don't have

1351
01:15:00,320 --> 01:15:02,280
Speaker 1: a real answer that makes any sense, Yes, you do,

1352
01:15:04,000 --> 01:15:05,960
Speaker 1: you totally have a real answer that makes sense as

1353
01:15:06,000 --> 01:15:07,120
Speaker 1: to why you don't have it. You don't have it

1354
01:15:07,120 --> 01:15:11,840
Speaker 1: because it's a waste of your life. You don't have

1355
01:15:11,840 --> 01:15:15,320
Speaker 1: it because it makes you It increases depression, and it

1356
01:15:15,360 --> 01:15:18,000
Speaker 1: makes you compare your life to everyone else instead of

1357
01:15:18,040 --> 01:15:21,320
Speaker 1: living your own life. It wastes a ton of time.

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01:15:21,360 --> 01:15:24,519
Speaker 1: It makes you fucking anxious. Dude. The most calm I

1359
01:15:24,680 --> 01:15:27,519
Speaker 1: fucking feel is if I go like a few days

1360
01:15:27,520 --> 01:15:29,720
Speaker 1: without looking at my phone. My phone makes me so

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01:15:29,880 --> 01:15:33,559
Speaker 1: fucking anxious. And we know it too, and we just

1362
01:15:33,680 --> 01:15:40,600
Speaker 1: keep doing it. Sincerely, a social digital ghoes somewhere in

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01:15:40,600 --> 01:15:44,120
Speaker 1: the middle of Canada. That would be depressing to me.

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01:15:45,040 --> 01:15:46,840
Speaker 1: I was just in the middle of Canada at a

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01:15:46,840 --> 01:15:52,600
Speaker 1: fun time. But it's too isolated from other people. I

1366
01:15:52,600 --> 01:15:55,360
Speaker 1: think the Yeah, if you can just be around real

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01:15:55,439 --> 01:16:00,160
Speaker 1: human beings, then you're good. I mean, have a phone,

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01:16:00,640 --> 01:16:06,280
Speaker 1: have like a phone number, have a notes app. But

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01:16:06,520 --> 01:16:09,479
Speaker 1: you're not missing anything, man, You're not missing an It's like,

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Speaker 1: I mean, whatever, I don't want to be the eight

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Speaker 1: hundredth person to go on this ramp. But it's like

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01:16:15,200 --> 01:16:20,400
Speaker 1: we're just getting programmed, dude, We're just getting programmed. You

1373
01:16:20,840 --> 01:16:24,200
Speaker 1: have a fresh, interesting mind. You're not programmed by anything.

1374
01:16:26,120 --> 01:16:32,400
Speaker 1: Oh rollin. Your friends and family suck, dude. No, they

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01:16:32,760 --> 01:16:33,960
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know them. I don't want

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01:16:33,960 --> 01:16:37,160
Speaker 1: to say that, but I will say that you're better

1377
01:16:37,160 --> 01:16:43,599
Speaker 1: than all of them. I'll say that with confidence. All right,

1378
01:16:43,720 --> 01:16:48,519
Speaker 1: let's do a couple more emails. Subject line I did

1379
01:16:48,600 --> 01:16:51,719
Speaker 1: copious amounts of Molly that I was meant to sell.

1380
01:16:52,640 --> 01:16:55,800
Speaker 1: What's up? Ghek reezi Here, I'll get into it. My

1381
01:16:56,040 --> 01:16:59,280
Speaker 1: friend got married in September of twenty twenty two. That

1382
01:16:59,400 --> 01:17:03,160
Speaker 1: same night was first introduced to Molly. I remember my

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01:17:03,240 --> 01:17:06,680
Speaker 1: friend telling me, whatever I do, do not take it

1384
01:17:06,760 --> 01:17:11,439
Speaker 1: alone in my bedroom. Why so I did, and soon

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01:17:11,520 --> 01:17:15,680
Speaker 1: regretted it after I began overthinking and hyperventilating because I

1386
01:17:15,720 --> 01:17:18,840
Speaker 1: had zero knowledge on what the substance would do to me. Okay,

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01:17:18,840 --> 01:17:21,559
Speaker 1: that makes sense. After a few minutes, I managed to

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01:17:21,600 --> 01:17:24,759
Speaker 1: calm down by listening to music. I left my house

1389
01:17:24,840 --> 01:17:27,559
Speaker 1: and crashed at a friend's place. He was pretty chill

1390
01:17:27,600 --> 01:17:32,000
Speaker 1: about the situation. October was rolling around, No pun intended.

1391
01:17:32,040 --> 01:17:33,720
Speaker 1: That was me saying that no pun intended. He did

1392
01:17:33,800 --> 01:17:38,680
Speaker 1: not write no pun intended. October was rolling around, and

1393
01:17:38,720 --> 01:17:40,479
Speaker 1: it was time for me to go back to college.

1394
01:17:40,720 --> 01:17:43,640
Speaker 1: Here's where things get messy. I asked my friend for

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01:17:43,720 --> 01:17:45,400
Speaker 1: another one to take with me to college, and then

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01:17:45,400 --> 01:17:46,920
Speaker 1: he asked if I would be interested in taking a

1397
01:17:46,920 --> 01:17:52,360
Speaker 1: whole bunch to sell, maybe young entrepreneur here. I agreed,

1398
01:17:52,479 --> 01:17:55,120
Speaker 1: and there I was in my dorm with more Molly

1399
01:17:55,160 --> 01:17:57,040
Speaker 1: than I know what to do with. For the next

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01:17:57,080 --> 01:18:00,519
Speaker 1: series of days, I began just popping them will playing

1401
01:18:00,600 --> 01:18:04,000
Speaker 1: niche custom games and Overwatch, and listening to music until

1402
01:18:04,000 --> 01:18:08,240
Speaker 1: one night I realized nothing was happening anymore, no buzz

1403
01:18:08,360 --> 01:18:12,080
Speaker 1: or restless feeling. I managed to sell only one pill

1404
01:18:12,200 --> 01:18:17,240
Speaker 1: and completely used the rest safe to say, after paying

1405
01:18:17,240 --> 01:18:20,080
Speaker 1: for the whole batch, I'm done with drugs altogether. The

1406
01:18:20,080 --> 01:18:22,920
Speaker 1: next year felt odd. I was slightly less connected to everything,

1407
01:18:23,240 --> 01:18:27,599
Speaker 1: slightly slower and more stoic, Even with the probable irreversible damage.

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01:18:27,720 --> 01:18:31,800
Speaker 1: It was a somewhat profound experience. Easy thank you for sharing, Reezy.

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01:18:34,000 --> 01:18:36,439
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say it, Molly is the best drug that

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01:18:36,640 --> 01:18:40,280
Speaker 1: is invented. It's the best drug I've done. I haven't

1411
01:18:40,320 --> 01:18:44,439
Speaker 1: done a full, full, full dose of molly in like

1412
01:18:44,479 --> 01:18:48,000
Speaker 1: three and a half years, but I've done like a

1413
01:18:48,040 --> 01:18:52,800
Speaker 1: teensy bit between now and then, And I mean, yeah,

1414
01:18:52,840 --> 01:18:55,720
Speaker 1: it's the best, like a full and that's the way

1415
01:18:55,760 --> 01:18:58,920
Speaker 1: to do Molly. You can't like do it every day.

1416
01:18:58,920 --> 01:19:02,760
Speaker 1: It's not you can't do it every day because they'll

1417
01:19:02,800 --> 01:19:05,840
Speaker 1: just fuck your ship up. And the first time you

1418
01:19:05,920 --> 01:19:09,960
Speaker 1: ever do it is like as like nothing else, it's

1419
01:19:09,960 --> 01:19:14,800
Speaker 1: the goddamn best. But yeah, I mean I've been to

1420
01:19:14,920 --> 01:19:17,200
Speaker 1: music festivals before where people are like, yeah, we're gonna

1421
01:19:17,200 --> 01:19:22,040
Speaker 1: do it every day of this four day festival and

1422
01:19:22,080 --> 01:19:24,639
Speaker 1: they have a good time. But it's too much. It's

1423
01:19:24,680 --> 01:19:29,480
Speaker 1: too much. How much was that whole thing of Molly

1424
01:19:30,680 --> 01:19:34,520
Speaker 1: also doing it a lot? Also there's people who do it.

1425
01:19:34,520 --> 01:19:38,360
Speaker 1: It's fun to do with. For I it's great to

1426
01:19:38,479 --> 01:19:40,680
Speaker 1: do like like I don't go to the club. I

1427
01:19:40,720 --> 01:19:43,160
Speaker 1: don't like the club, Like I don't have a good

1428
01:19:43,200 --> 01:19:49,880
Speaker 1: time there. I think too much, I can. I can

1429
01:19:49,880 --> 01:19:52,840
Speaker 1: only really say this as like an anxious overthinker on

1430
01:19:52,960 --> 01:19:56,040
Speaker 1: drugs guy, is that there's there's certain drugs that like

1431
01:19:56,120 --> 01:19:58,719
Speaker 1: take you put you, take you in, and then drugs

1432
01:19:58,720 --> 01:20:01,800
Speaker 1: that take you out. And I'm a very in guy.

1433
01:20:01,840 --> 01:20:04,160
Speaker 1: I'm always thinking, always in my head. I'm like, you

1434
01:20:04,200 --> 01:20:07,400
Speaker 1: know whatever, Molly's fucking great because it just it like removed,

1435
01:20:08,040 --> 01:20:12,360
Speaker 1: it like removes your ability to not be in the present.

1436
01:20:13,400 --> 01:20:16,840
Speaker 1: Like I just, oh, I'm just so fucking present when

1437
01:20:17,080 --> 01:20:20,599
Speaker 1: I'm on it, and and I don't even because and

1438
01:20:20,640 --> 01:20:22,120
Speaker 1: when I'm there, I don't even give a shit with

1439
01:20:22,240 --> 01:20:25,400
Speaker 1: what's around me. You know, if I'm like in these

1440
01:20:25,400 --> 01:20:28,800
Speaker 1: if I'm like high in the club, I'm like, none

1441
01:20:28,840 --> 01:20:30,679
Speaker 1: of these people would give a shit if I died.

1442
01:20:30,800 --> 01:20:33,240
Speaker 1: And you know, I said that was trying to be

1443
01:20:33,280 --> 01:20:35,320
Speaker 1: funny when I said that, but it came out depressing.

1444
01:20:38,000 --> 01:20:43,799
Speaker 1: Sh I'm having a good time talking into this microphone.

1445
01:20:43,800 --> 01:20:49,519
Speaker 1: I hope you guys are here with me, but yeah,

1446
01:20:49,560 --> 01:20:52,320
Speaker 1: like acid or shrooms and stuff. I don't know why

1447
01:20:52,360 --> 01:20:54,639
Speaker 1: people do that shit at music festivals, because it takes

1448
01:20:54,640 --> 01:20:57,840
Speaker 1: you in where Molly just brings you out. So like

1449
01:20:57,960 --> 01:21:00,760
Speaker 1: I've been like the last time I took Molly, I

1450
01:21:00,800 --> 01:21:05,800
Speaker 1: was at some music festival like three years ago, and uh,

1451
01:21:07,320 --> 01:21:09,960
Speaker 1: and then I got separated for the people I was with,

1452
01:21:10,040 --> 01:21:13,960
Speaker 1: And then I just went back to the hotel and

1453
01:21:14,000 --> 01:21:18,439
Speaker 1: I sat on the toilet and I had a fucking

1454
01:21:18,720 --> 01:21:23,000
Speaker 1: I was just thinking about how much I love my life,

1455
01:21:23,160 --> 01:21:25,280
Speaker 1: and I just had a great time alone on the

1456
01:21:25,320 --> 01:21:28,639
Speaker 1: toilet doing molly, So you can do it on the toilet,

1457
01:21:28,720 --> 01:21:32,519
Speaker 1: or you can do it with friends. What else can

1458
01:21:32,560 --> 01:21:36,360
Speaker 1: you do on the It's one of the few things

1459
01:21:37,760 --> 01:21:39,719
Speaker 1: that you can have a lot of fun doing both

1460
01:21:39,960 --> 01:21:43,479
Speaker 1: alone on the toilet and with friends. Pooping only fun

1461
01:21:43,520 --> 01:21:49,439
Speaker 1: alone on the toilet. There's a wider range of things

1462
01:21:49,560 --> 01:21:52,400
Speaker 1: that are funner that are more fun to do alone

1463
01:21:52,560 --> 01:21:59,040
Speaker 1: on the toilet than with friends. Pretty Much anything that

1464
01:21:59,200 --> 01:22:01,640
Speaker 1: is fun to do with friends is also fun to

1465
01:22:01,680 --> 01:22:05,800
Speaker 1: do alone on the toilet. Shitting and pissing is not

1466
01:22:06,120 --> 01:22:08,400
Speaker 1: fun to do with Actually, I mean if you each

1467
01:22:08,400 --> 01:22:11,760
Speaker 1: have your own toilet, I feel like, yeah, if you

1468
01:22:12,000 --> 01:22:13,680
Speaker 1: if I mean yeah, if you're like out with your

1469
01:22:13,720 --> 01:22:16,400
Speaker 1: friends and you're sitting at a bar and you take

1470
01:22:16,439 --> 01:22:19,840
Speaker 1: a big shit and your friends all actually that sounds

1471
01:22:19,840 --> 01:22:21,559
Speaker 1: fun too. If like, you're we're all out at a

1472
01:22:21,560 --> 01:22:24,640
Speaker 1: sports bar and one guy's let and there's six of

1473
01:22:24,680 --> 01:22:26,080
Speaker 1: you and one guy's like, hey, you guys, I want

1474
01:22:26,080 --> 01:22:30,160
Speaker 1: to take shits together, and you do and you smell

1475
01:22:30,240 --> 01:22:33,840
Speaker 1: bad and you're laughing and you're diarry ing and you're connecting.

1476
01:22:34,600 --> 01:22:36,559
Speaker 1: They actually does that? Actually does sound more fun than

1477
01:22:36,560 --> 01:22:39,800
Speaker 1: doing it alone. So never mind, I think there's I

1478
01:22:39,800 --> 01:22:42,960
Speaker 1: think you'll have more fun. I think most things are

1479
01:22:42,960 --> 01:22:46,759
Speaker 1: more fun to do with friends than alone on the toilet,

1480
01:22:46,840 --> 01:22:51,759
Speaker 1: including pissing and shitting. All right, that was the Therapy

1481
01:22:51,840 --> 01:22:53,880
Speaker 1: Eco podcast. I felt good about this one. I thought

1482
01:22:53,920 --> 01:22:57,920
Speaker 1: it was fun. I hope you guys enjoyed it. Please

1483
01:22:57,960 --> 01:23:03,240
Speaker 1: go to Therapy Gecko Tour and also check the link

1484
01:23:03,280 --> 01:23:07,160
Speaker 1: in the episode description so that you can get notified

1485
01:23:07,160 --> 01:23:09,439
Speaker 1: when I come to your city in twenty twenty six

1486
01:23:10,240 --> 01:23:15,360
Speaker 1: or when I do my little quick New York shows.

1487
01:23:16,320 --> 01:23:20,479
Speaker 1: I'm I'm telling some I'm coming out with my Iraq

1488
01:23:20,600 --> 01:23:23,240
Speaker 1: videos soon, but you know, in the show, I'm gonna

1489
01:23:23,240 --> 01:23:27,920
Speaker 1: tell some stories that are not in the video, and

1490
01:23:28,280 --> 01:23:31,479
Speaker 1: I also have some other stories from my life and

1491
01:23:31,880 --> 01:23:34,880
Speaker 1: travels and whatnot that I'm gonna tell. So you know,

1492
01:23:34,920 --> 01:23:37,400
Speaker 1: I'm putting together a show that's gonna be like fifty

1493
01:23:37,439 --> 01:23:41,479
Speaker 1: percent chatting with the audience, fifty percent doing comedy and

1494
01:23:41,520 --> 01:23:44,519
Speaker 1: storytelling and stuff like that. So go check it out.

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01:23:44,520 --> 01:23:49,759
Speaker 1: There be gecko tour dot com. I'm Lyle. I appreciate

1496
01:23:49,760 --> 01:23:52,760
Speaker 1: you listening to the show. Thank you guys very much

1497
01:23:52,760 --> 01:23:57,120
Speaker 1: for being here. I read all the Spotify comments alone

1498
01:23:57,120 --> 01:24:01,160
Speaker 1: on the toilet because I'm insane. So oh, if you

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01:24:01,200 --> 01:24:03,680
Speaker 1: want to so, if you want to say, if you

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Speaker 1: want to write something that you know for sure I

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Speaker 1: will see, that's the place to do it. Anyway, Thank

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Speaker 1: you guys, See you on the next. One goes on

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Speaker 1: the line, taking your phone calls every night, the bed

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Speaker 1: goes to his ride.

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Speaker 3: He's teaching you

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Speaker 1: A loud in them of your life, but he's not

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Speaker 1: really an expert.