WEBVTT - “I WILL NEVER LOVE AGAIN” 

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, Can I say something in advance? I'm so sorry

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<v Speaker 1>for my accent if it's hard for listeners to understand

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 2>No, not at all. Where are you calling from.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm calling from London, but I'm originally from Russian as

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<v Speaker 1>you can tell, but I leaks here. I've been living here.

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<v Speaker 2>Why how long have you been living in London for?

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<v Speaker 1>I actually just moved in September, but before that, I've

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<v Speaker 1>been going to American International School in Greece for two years,

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<v Speaker 1>so I've been around Europe.

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<v Speaker 2>Definitely, very nice, very nice. Why did you? Maybe I

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<v Speaker 2>know the answer to this question, but why did you

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<v Speaker 2>leave Russia?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? Yeah, you know the answer to this question.

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<v Speaker 2>Obviously, there you go.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not good there, and my family is definitely not

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<v Speaker 1>welcome there because of our political views. But anyways, I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to talk about something else, actually.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh sure, please, Yeah, I was.

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<v Speaker 1>I wanted to talk about falling in love for the

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<v Speaker 1>first time, because I'm only nineteen, but I'm pretty sure

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<v Speaker 1>that I won't ever love anybody else.

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<v Speaker 3>But my first love.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but if you go ahead.

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<v Speaker 1>What I wanted to say is that I'm the kind

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<v Speaker 1>of person who you know when I'm pretty self aware.

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<v Speaker 1>So if I'm delusional, I know I am, and I

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<v Speaker 1>know i'm young. I know I'm wrong about most things.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm fine with that. And when my parents tell me

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<v Speaker 1>something like, oh, you're too young, it's all going to

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<v Speaker 1>be fine, I believe them. But in this specific case,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think I'll ever love anybody else, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>completely serious about that. The most important thing, too, is

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<v Speaker 1>that I'm fine with that, like I'm not. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>feel bad about it. I'm okay with that. I just

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<v Speaker 1>know I'll never of anybody else as much.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, Okay, why tell me? Why don't you tell

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<v Speaker 2>me the story? Who had you meet this person? Who

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<v Speaker 2>are they? What happened?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Well, you see, when I was fifteen, I was

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<v Speaker 1>really into punk rock. I was really I had a short,

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<v Speaker 1>black mullet like haircut. I'm hopefully I'll pronounced that right.

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<v Speaker 1>I was really into all tho punk music. I had

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<v Speaker 1>a really big friend group with people who were into

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<v Speaker 1>the same stuff as I was. And this guy was

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<v Speaker 1>one year younger than me, and we became really good

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<v Speaker 1>friends and we dated for a little bit. He basically

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<v Speaker 1>he stopped liking me in about half a year, but

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<v Speaker 1>then we moved to Greece together, you see what happened.

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<v Speaker 1>And in Greece, like I said, been there for two

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<v Speaker 1>years in an American school and we went together, so

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<v Speaker 1>I knew I know him for four years and the

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<v Speaker 1>entire time. Basically, if the story is not that interesting,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just deeply, deeply in love with this guy. And

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<v Speaker 1>uh it's I don't really want to talk specifically specifically

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<v Speaker 1>about this story because I've a fact it's not interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>But I was wondering if anybody else is in love

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<v Speaker 1>the same way I am where I don't feel pain

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<v Speaker 1>about it, Like I'm not upset that it's not mutual,

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<v Speaker 1>and it isn't mutual, and I'm not upset at the

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<v Speaker 1>fact that it happened, and I'm totally okay with living

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<v Speaker 1>the rest of my life without this person but loving them.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh oh, I have a lot of questions, so, well,

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<v Speaker 2>what is it? Well, what is it that made you

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<v Speaker 2>so in love with this person in the first place?

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<v Speaker 2>Or or or or or actually what is it that

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<v Speaker 2>can continues to make you in love with this person?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, you know, it's really not as important to have

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<v Speaker 1>similar interests of having similar views on life and most

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<v Speaker 1>people know that if they have some experience in romance

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<v Speaker 1>and everything, and we basically have all the same you know,

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<v Speaker 1>values in life. But we're very different people, so it

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<v Speaker 1>makes it really interesting to be with him and to

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<v Speaker 1>talk with him. We agree on the things that do matter,

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<v Speaker 1>but like small stuff, we're completely different people. He's very

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<v Speaker 1>He's the calmest, kindest, most genuine and honest person I've

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<v Speaker 1>ever met, And in the worst times of my life,

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<v Speaker 1>he would always, you know, save me in a way.

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<v Speaker 1>And I don't like if was the reason I'm in

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<v Speaker 1>love with him. I just don't think there's anybody, anybody

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<v Speaker 1>for me who would just make me so, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>make me respect them as much, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>So you say the way you're talking to me about this,

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<v Speaker 2>you're like, okay, I've I'm completely okay. I have resigned.

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<v Speaker 2>You're not like coming in here, You're not like head

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<v Speaker 2>and hands, Oh no, boo, who I'm not gonna fall

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<v Speaker 2>in love with anyone else. You have calmly, quietly decided

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<v Speaker 2>you will never find love again, and you're not bummed

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<v Speaker 2>out about it. Tell me about that feeling. Why do

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<v Speaker 2>you feel like, why are you not? Why have you

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<v Speaker 2>decided that? And then why are you not bummed out

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<v Speaker 2>about it?

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<v Speaker 1>See, that's exactly what I wanted to talk about, because

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<v Speaker 1>obviously when I tell people that, the reaction, the instant

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<v Speaker 1>reaction is, oh, no, it's gonna be fine, You're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>But I'm fine already. I'm fine with that. And what

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<v Speaker 1>I feel is I'm definitely going to find someone else,

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<v Speaker 1>And I mean, I'm attracted to other men, not going

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<v Speaker 1>to lie. But it's just not the same as with

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<v Speaker 1>that one person. I can't even call him a guy

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<v Speaker 1>because he's a person in my brain, in my heart,

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<v Speaker 1>he's something beyond other people to me, like and I know,

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<v Speaker 1>you know a lot of people tell me that if

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<v Speaker 1>he really was her soulmate, then it would be mutual,

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<v Speaker 1>and I understand where they're coming from, but I just

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<v Speaker 1>don't think. I just don't think that. Because we met

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<v Speaker 1>when we were very young. Maybe if the time and

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<v Speaker 1>place was wrong, maybe there was something wrong in my behavior,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't really think about that. What I feel

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<v Speaker 1>is that it's always in the back of my mind.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to come back to the main topic because

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<v Speaker 1>I keep for trailing off, but yeah, it's always in

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<v Speaker 1>the back of my mind. I am. I'm I'm a

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<v Speaker 1>happy person. I'm first year in university. I've met so

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<v Speaker 1>many new people here in London. It's amazing. It's very fun.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, I don't think it will ever pass. And

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't been talking to him for half a year now,

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<v Speaker 1>not a single word, And I'm fine with that because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not even attached to him. You know, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>have any attachments, not emotional, not anything. I just love

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<v Speaker 1>this person and I will forever love him more than

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<v Speaker 1>anybody else.

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<v Speaker 2>That I mean, everything you just described is like a

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<v Speaker 2>that's a very that's like a it's like a very

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<v Speaker 2>mature way to view your relationships and your love life.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know why, Like that's kind of the ideal

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<v Speaker 2>thing as you you recognize, like when you fall in

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<v Speaker 2>love with someone and when it doesn't work out, you

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<v Speaker 2>kind of reckon. You can still kind of recognize the

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<v Speaker 2>uniqueness of that individual, and and yeah, you can say, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if I'll ever meet somebody like them

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<v Speaker 2>for the rest of my life, which is probably true

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<v Speaker 2>when it comes to yeah individuals, but ye uh, and

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<v Speaker 2>then and then just be like I think it's oh yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>to be like I loved them I still love them.

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<v Speaker 2>I have no attachment to them. I'm moving on with

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<v Speaker 2>my life. I wish them well, they're moving on with

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<v Speaker 2>their life. But I still love them, and I carry

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<v Speaker 2>that love with me as I in kind of a

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<v Speaker 2>fucking hippie way. I carry all the love that I've

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<v Speaker 2>ever had for anyone and that anyone's ever had with

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<v Speaker 2>me throughout my whole life. Blah blah blah yah yah yuck.

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<v Speaker 2>But uh, but what I don't understand is you've come

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<v Speaker 2>to this is when you said I'll never love someone

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<v Speaker 2>ever again. That makes no sense to me because being like, sure,

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<v Speaker 2>if you want to be like, I'm not going to

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<v Speaker 2>meet someone like them ever again, and I'm okay with that,

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<v Speaker 2>but you can. But you are you going You're obviously

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<v Speaker 2>going to throughout your life meet especially because you're only nineteen,

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<v Speaker 2>You're gonna meet other people who you'll will unlock new

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<v Speaker 2>things about yourself. You're gonna, you know, develop as a person,

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<v Speaker 2>and you're the kinds of people that you're attracted to develops,

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<v Speaker 2>and the kinds of people who are attracted to you develops,

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<v Speaker 2>and you become a different person. Everyone arounds you becomes

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<v Speaker 2>a different person. So I don't understand. I guess why

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<v Speaker 2>you're saying, Oh, I'm never gonna fall in love with anyone.

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<v Speaker 2>What I meant that's the thing that I don't understand.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, what I meant by that, it's I'm sorry. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>also stuttering because I'm so nervous, but yeah, what I

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<v Speaker 1>meant by that if it's not going to be the same,

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<v Speaker 1>which is obviously true. And also, you know, you have

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<v Speaker 1>you seen on TikTok like videos of older people who

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<v Speaker 1>are like, I still think about my first girlfriend or

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<v Speaker 1>my first boyfriend, and people in the comments are like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so scared, but I don't. I don't understand. Why

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<v Speaker 1>would you be scared of that? Because I don't think

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<v Speaker 1>I will be unhappy in my life. Feel like, I

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<v Speaker 1>think I will love somebody else, but it won't be

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<v Speaker 1>ever the same. And I'm not trying to compare love

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<v Speaker 1>because it's a very unhealthy thing to do, but I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think it will ever be the same. And I

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<v Speaker 1>also think that I will forever remember him. It doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>mean I won't be happy, but I will forever have

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<v Speaker 1>a you know, a part of my heart given to

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<v Speaker 1>that specific person, even though I will probably meet a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of different people, and I will love again, but

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<v Speaker 1>it won't be the same. And I'm convinced I will

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<v Speaker 1>never forget him because what people think about Let me

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<v Speaker 1>stop for a second. When you are in a new relationship,

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<v Speaker 1>it's almost like you should forget about your previous ones

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<v Speaker 1>and like fall in love and it's the one, and

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<v Speaker 1>you're saying, no, the person who was for me is

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<v Speaker 1>in my past, And why is that not the scenarios

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<v Speaker 1>that people talk about? Why is it always the one

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<v Speaker 1>for me? We're together?

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<v Speaker 2>Hold on, hold on? What is the one for you?

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<v Speaker 3>Man?

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<v Speaker 1>The person that, in my humble opinion, is perfect for me,

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<v Speaker 1>somebody that will never be replaced by anybody else in

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<v Speaker 1>any way, shape or form emotionally. Uh cannot create the

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<v Speaker 1>same connection as the person. Nobody can create this connection.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, sure, you know, yes, you're never gonna have the

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<v Speaker 2>same connection with somebody that you had with somebody else,

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<v Speaker 2>because those connections are all unique. But this kind of

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<v Speaker 2>like it's the word monolithic applicable here. I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if that means like God, but it's

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<v Speaker 2>kind of like thing of there is one finite connection

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<v Speaker 2>for me, and it has passed and it's gone, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'll have other connections, sure, but the one that was

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<v Speaker 2>really meant for me is in the past. That I

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<v Speaker 2>don't agree with everything else that you've said. I think

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<v Speaker 2>is very explain why actually a pretty a pretty mature

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<v Speaker 2>way to kind of move through your romantic life and

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<v Speaker 2>a healthy way to do it. But explain why, well,

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<v Speaker 2>because you have no fucking idea, because you're only also

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<v Speaker 2>also the you're gonna like you at nineteen and you

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<v Speaker 2>at thirty are going to be two completely different people.

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<v Speaker 2>And the your eighteen year old boyfriend who was perfect

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<v Speaker 2>for you at that time is not going to be

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<v Speaker 2>the same. It's not going to be perfect for you

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<v Speaker 2>at another time in your life. So that the idea

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<v Speaker 2>that doesn't add up to me, This idea that there

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<v Speaker 2>was one perfect person for you for all of the

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<v Speaker 2>time that you will ever be alive and they're gone,

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<v Speaker 2>that doesn't add up to me.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, but you know what you said before, where you

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<v Speaker 5>were like that, I really appreciated what that person did

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<v Speaker 5>for me at the time that they were in my life,

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<v Speaker 5>and I have a deep love for them, and I

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<v Speaker 5>have a deep appreciation for the connection that we shared,

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<v Speaker 5>and blah blah, blah yah, yak yak, that all made sense.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I know, it's just that, you know, it's when

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<v Speaker 1>you're so in love. Honestly, it's I understand because obviously

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<v Speaker 1>I hope, I really hope I won't be the same

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<v Speaker 1>as I am now when I'm thirty. But yeah, it's

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<v Speaker 1>just the thought that I would spend the rest of

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<v Speaker 1>my life with him, you know, Happily, I'm okay with

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<v Speaker 1>not spending the rest of my life with him, but

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<v Speaker 1>I would just spend the rest of my life with

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<v Speaker 1>this one person because you know, we grew up together too,

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<v Speaker 1>and I know that in a healthy relationship you change

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<v Speaker 1>and grow together. And because after we broke up.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but I'm I'm sorry to interrupt you, but but

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<v Speaker 2>you're yeah, but you're gonna you're you you You literally

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<v Speaker 2>can't see it because you haven't experienced it. But you'll

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<v Speaker 2>develop and change and meet new people and all this stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm not worried about you because you seem like

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<v Speaker 2>you have a pretty healthy perspective on it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, thank you. Have you ever been in love yourself?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Sure, Yeah, I've been in love myself, and I I

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<v Speaker 2>kind of take a similar approach to it. As as

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<v Speaker 2>you do. That's like, oh, you know, I really really

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<v Speaker 2>loved this person and I really uh was was fond

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<v Speaker 2>of the connection that I shared with them, and I

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<v Speaker 2>I feel really positively about them and I have I'm

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<v Speaker 2>really hopeful for them in their in their life, but

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<v Speaker 2>I understand at the same time why things didn't work out,

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<v Speaker 2>and I have faith that I will, you know, continue

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<v Speaker 2>to love again.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. So do you think you'll ever experience the same,

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<v Speaker 1>like the same I would say, a feeling as strong

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<v Speaker 1>as that one ever again? Do you think it will happen?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh? Yeah, I have faith that I will find someone

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<v Speaker 2>that you know well, because when I think about those feelings,

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<v Speaker 2>I think about like, you know, trust and comfortability and

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<v Speaker 2>connection and all those things, and I'm like, yeah, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm about to turn twenty seven, but I still

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<v Speaker 2>have a strong faith that I'll find all those things

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<v Speaker 2>in my life. I mean, my parents are in there.

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<v Speaker 2>My parents are divorced and they both got re married,

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<v Speaker 2>and they both the people that they got both of

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<v Speaker 2>their remarriages are are going really well. I think they're

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<v Speaker 2>both both of the relationships that my parents are in

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<v Speaker 2>now are way better than the relationship that they had

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<v Speaker 2>with each other, and both of them they met their

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<v Speaker 2>spouses on fucking jay date in when they were both

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<v Speaker 2>in their like late forties or something like that. So

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<v Speaker 2>it took both of my parents until they're late forties

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<v Speaker 2>to find the person that they're with now that they're

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<v Speaker 2>they're really happy with. And I think I think about

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<v Speaker 2>that a lot, and I think that's that's really nice.

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<v Speaker 2>And so yeah and so and so my dad, I think,

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<v Speaker 2>started dating his current wife and my mom started they

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<v Speaker 2>started dating her current husband. I want to say, around

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<v Speaker 2>like fucking forty nine years old maybe, so that's about

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<v Speaker 2>thirty years older than you are, and that's three years

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<v Speaker 2>longer than I have been alive. So that's kind of

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<v Speaker 2>the perspective that I have on it. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Why I said I can relate to that is that, see,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not stubborn. You're actually changing my perspective. Maybe just

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<v Speaker 1>this one talk is what I needed, because obviously I

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<v Speaker 1>can talk about my healthy perspective all I want, but

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<v Speaker 1>I do have feelings and I am like not going

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<v Speaker 1>out and seeing other people, other men, specifically romantically too much.

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<v Speaker 1>What I wanted to say is my parents are getting

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<v Speaker 1>the right now, because what happened was my mom is

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<v Speaker 1>forty two and she's suddenly, at forty two, just fell

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<v Speaker 1>in love with this one guy from her her work,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's like they're so perfect for each other. I've

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<v Speaker 1>met this person and my my dad is the complete

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<v Speaker 1>opposite of my mother. She's very she's a very happy, outgoing,

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<v Speaker 1>like active person, and he's like grumpy, horrible, scary Russian man,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. And and she just and she just met

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<v Speaker 1>this one guy who is, you know, seems perfect for her.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe he's not, but she did kind of fall in

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<v Speaker 1>love with him, and you can see her blooming at

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<v Speaker 1>this age. So maybe you're right. Maybe it's not that.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe you can't even you can't predict anything.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess, Yeah, what so what's that? What's up with

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<v Speaker 2>your dad? Is he is he like are you do

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<v Speaker 2>you have a good relationship with him? Or is he

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<v Speaker 2>kind of wild?

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<v Speaker 1>He's he's not too wild, but uh, he's basically this

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<v Speaker 1>guy that I felt fell in love with. He's like

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<v Speaker 1>a carbon copy emotionally as my dad, and like he.

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<v Speaker 2>Has this the guy, the guy that this guy who's

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<v Speaker 2>this guy who you are talking about that you were

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<v Speaker 2>in love with is a carbon copy of your father.

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<v Speaker 1>Not physically, but I mean like he reminds everyone of

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<v Speaker 1>my dad, and everyone has been saying that he's like

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<v Speaker 1>a little little Dmitri, you know, which is weird a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit. It weirds me out, but it is true.

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<v Speaker 1>And my father is very emotionally absent. He isn't I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>I hope.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not saying. He lost his parents when he was

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<v Speaker 1>a child, so he's obviously very emotionally damaged. But he's

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<v Speaker 1>one of those people who say, ah, let me put

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<v Speaker 1>on a really really hard rational therapy. Is not true

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<v Speaker 1>it it doesn't help, or I have to go to

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<v Speaker 1>work and then it will be okay. This is what

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<v Speaker 1>it tells all the time. And basically, yeah, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>really have a good relationship with him. I would say

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<v Speaker 1>I don't have a relationship with him at all because

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<v Speaker 1>there's just nothing very emotionally. Obviously, he sent me to London.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm very grateful he gave me a lot of money,

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<v Speaker 1>but money doesn't buy an emotional bones, I guess. And

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<v Speaker 1>he's the same way with my mother and everybody else

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<v Speaker 1>because obviously he had a really rough childhood. And I

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<v Speaker 1>don't blame him. I love him still, but I guess

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<v Speaker 1>I don't really have a healthy really show with him.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna play utter armchair therapist, which I guess is

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<v Speaker 2>kind of my job. You should This is, by the way,

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<v Speaker 2>something to talk to a real therapist about it, but

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<v Speaker 2>like anecdotally as a as a outside observer, as or

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<v Speaker 2>just a random guy, not a real therapist, not a

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<v Speaker 2>real psychologist. But are you like do you are you

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<v Speaker 2>like looking like are you trying to like get what

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<v Speaker 2>you couldn't get from your dad from this guy because

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<v Speaker 2>he reminds you of your dad?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, it's you know, it's very in a way. In

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<v Speaker 1>a way, yes, but what I think of it myself

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<v Speaker 1>because obviously I've thought about that, just so you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I am. I was in therapy and like I know

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<v Speaker 1>a thing or two. So it's fine, there's nothing wrong

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<v Speaker 1>you can say to me. But yeah, because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I couldn't ever get my dad to have something emotional

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<v Speaker 1>with me like to He doesn't show emotions in general,

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<v Speaker 1>and he's never It's very funny. Me and my sister

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<v Speaker 1>are always like we you know, sitting there together and like,

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<v Speaker 1>have have our dad ever hugged us? And she's like, no,

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<v Speaker 1>has he ever told you he loved you. I'm like, no,

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<v Speaker 1>but yeah, but he clearly does. He just doesn't say that.

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<v Speaker 1>And I guess when a person is similar to my dad,

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<v Speaker 1>like this guy, and he how some emotion, it's almost like,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, it's weird. I'm sorry for the sounds.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me close the window. But yeah, there is some connection,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess. But it weird me out to think about that,

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<v Speaker 1>because what does my dad have to do with my

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<v Speaker 1>romantic life?

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<v Speaker 3>You know?

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<v Speaker 2>Hmmm, yeah, yeah, what's your When you said you were

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<v Speaker 2>seeing a therapist, what they say about all this?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh? You know, I'm That's why I have a really

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<v Speaker 1>healthy perspective because I know what is writes, what's the

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<v Speaker 1>right way of thinking. But I don't really talk about

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<v Speaker 1>that because it doesn't make me feel better. There's a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of different things in my life that I need

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<v Speaker 1>therapy for, but this in particular, I don't really care about.

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<v Speaker 1>I just wanted to talk about that because I think

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<v Speaker 1>I was wondering if people in general experience the same

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<v Speaker 1>amount of not caring that seemingly a lot of you

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<v Speaker 1>life will ever be with you, And I guess, well,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm scared to open the well hold on, hold hold on,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean the this let me understand what you just said.

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<v Speaker 2>Do other people similarly not care that they will never

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<v Speaker 2>find love again? But there's there's but there's like no fallacy,

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<v Speaker 2>but there's at is that? What is that what you're saying.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying, are there other people who are in love

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<v Speaker 1>but they also don't care about the feelings, so they

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<v Speaker 1>continue on with their life, they don't talk to the person.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, hold on, there's a lot of there's a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of fallacies. I think of what you said, because you

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<v Speaker 2>don't I don't you don't not care, do I? I

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<v Speaker 2>don't From from Mianda, from talking to you, don't seem

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<v Speaker 2>like you don't care. You clear, you've stated that you

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<v Speaker 2>care about this person. You've stated that you love them,

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<v Speaker 2>You've stated a lot of things that show that you care.

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<v Speaker 2>You're just not as you're saying, like are You're just

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<v Speaker 2>saying you're not emotionally attached or invested, which is not

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<v Speaker 2>the same as not caring. It's just you're like, from

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<v Speaker 2>my understanding, it sounds like a healthy way of moving

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<v Speaker 2>on from a relationship and continuing on with your life.

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<v Speaker 2>That's not the same as like not caring.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess you're right. I've never thought of it like that,

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<v Speaker 1>but I guess you are right. I just because when

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<v Speaker 1>people are in love and it's not mutual, I they

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<v Speaker 1>seem to you know, they seem to be crying.

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<v Speaker 2>Every day, like, yeah, they.

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<v Speaker 1>Seem insane, but I'm not insane.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, they good. Good. You shouldn't be insane. You should

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<v Speaker 2>you're You're shouldn't be insane. I think you should absolutely

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<v Speaker 2>not be going insane that your high school boyfriend doesn't

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<v Speaker 2>like you back. I think that's that's a good thing

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<v Speaker 2>to not be going insane over. I don't think that.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think that you should be going insane over

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<v Speaker 2>the fact that you're not going insane either, So you don't.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not concerned in this scenario. What do you what

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<v Speaker 2>do you so? What are you in school? Are you

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<v Speaker 2>like in college now? Or what do you what are

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<v Speaker 2>you in school for?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I'm I am in a business school, which

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<v Speaker 1>is embarrassing to say. I see Instagram reels all the

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<v Speaker 1>time about computer science majors and people attending business school

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<v Speaker 1>not having a job in ten years, and I partially agree,

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<v Speaker 1>but partially I will have a job.

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<v Speaker 2>Hopefully it's okay. Nobody's going to have a job in

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<v Speaker 2>ten years, so we can yeah the tunnels together.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, well, it's really fund out here.

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<v Speaker 2>What's your name again?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? My name is Sasha.

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<v Speaker 2>Sasha, Sasha is well. I guess I can take a

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<v Speaker 2>couple of questions from the chat. If they have any,

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<v Speaker 2>let me. I'll read them out to you. You don't have

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<v Speaker 2>to read the chat. If the chat has any questions,

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<v Speaker 2>I will I will give I got to give them

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<v Speaker 2>a second.

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<v Speaker 3>Two.

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<v Speaker 2>Someone said, is borts going? Who the hell is that?

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<v Speaker 1>It's like it's a Russian. It's not a Russian soup.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a Ukrainian So I just want people to know that.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, it's I couldn't hear the question. But the

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<v Speaker 1>soup is amazing. You should definitely do it to try

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<v Speaker 1>to brew it at home. It's very easy thing to cook.

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<v Speaker 2>Someone said, what's your favorite pizza topping? I don't know

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<v Speaker 2>if that's that's not? Yeah, go ahead, you can answer that.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think it's a both question or a real person? Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>My favorite. I might get hate for that, but I

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<v Speaker 1>don't like any topics.

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<v Speaker 6>I just love Margarita that it's like Oh, sorry, go ahead, well,

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<v Speaker 6>someone said, someone said, did she just called borch Ukrainian?

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<v Speaker 2>Is it Ukrainian or is it Russian?

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<v Speaker 1>It's it's a Ukrainian soup, and I'm Russian. I'm as

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<v Speaker 1>a Russian. I would love to claim Borsche, but it's not.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not Russian, it's she's Ukrainian.

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<v Speaker 2>Someone said, is your dad, how's your dad doing with

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<v Speaker 2>the divorce?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, he's uh, he's going insane. He's uh, he started drinking.

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<v Speaker 1>He's he's pretty much. Yeah, he's going insane, completely insane.

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<v Speaker 1>He's been ignoring my mom for the past twenty years

0:28:02.760 --> 0:28:08.280
<v Speaker 1>of their marriage, and now when she's finally free, obviously

0:28:08.520 --> 0:28:12.320
<v Speaker 1>he remembered that he had a wife and now she's gone.

0:28:12.359 --> 0:28:15.439
<v Speaker 1>So he's gone insane, and I do feel bad for him,

0:28:15.520 --> 0:28:20.680
<v Speaker 1>but yeah, he's been neglecting this marriage this entire time.

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<v Speaker 2>Someone said, how's your relationship with your mom?

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<v Speaker 1>With my mom, it's good. I mean, it's very trusting.

0:28:34.600 --> 0:28:36.639
<v Speaker 1>I trust her a lot. My mom is you know,

0:28:37.119 --> 0:28:42.000
<v Speaker 1>she's a very loving person. But I don't know. I

0:28:42.000 --> 0:28:47.320
<v Speaker 1>don't think I have a strong emotional, necessarily emotional bond

0:28:47.480 --> 0:28:48.400
<v Speaker 1>with both my parents.

0:28:48.880 --> 0:28:57.040
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, Someone asked, what do you do for fun?

0:28:58.840 --> 0:29:04.400
<v Speaker 1>For fun? I like that light hearted questions. Well, for fun,

0:29:04.520 --> 0:29:10.320
<v Speaker 1>I draw a lot. I'm an artist. And I also

0:29:10.360 --> 0:29:14.280
<v Speaker 1>I am trying to learn Python and like coating, any

0:29:14.320 --> 0:29:17.440
<v Speaker 1>type of coating, honestly, because I think it's very It's

0:29:17.440 --> 0:29:19.560
<v Speaker 1>a thing that everybody has to know how to do

0:29:20.320 --> 0:29:23.240
<v Speaker 1>who wants to get a good job. So I'm trying

0:29:23.280 --> 0:29:27.440
<v Speaker 1>to learn code, and it's it's very bad. It's very bad.

0:29:28.800 --> 0:29:30.160
<v Speaker 2>Well, what's your what's your name again?

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<v Speaker 1>My name is Sasha.

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<v Speaker 2>Sasha, Well, Sasha, good luck to you. I think I

0:29:37.120 --> 0:29:40.080
<v Speaker 2>think you're gonna be fine, but I I don't know.

0:29:40.120 --> 0:29:41.680
<v Speaker 2>I don't know if any I don't know if anything

0:29:41.680 --> 0:29:44.240
<v Speaker 2>will ever be fine, or if I'm gonna be fine,

0:29:44.320 --> 0:29:46.719
<v Speaker 2>or if you're gonna be I don't know anything, but

0:29:46.760 --> 0:29:49.280
<v Speaker 2>I have I don't know anything, but I'm optimistic. I'm

0:29:49.320 --> 0:29:52.280
<v Speaker 2>optimistic that you and I will both be doing and

0:29:52.360 --> 0:29:58.080
<v Speaker 2>so everything. The sun will rise again, and yeah, whatever

0:29:58.120 --> 0:29:59.560
<v Speaker 2>all that stuff. Is there anything else you want to

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<v Speaker 2>say to the pe the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, guys, all of you will be fine, me Lyle

0:30:06.160 --> 0:30:09.400
<v Speaker 1>and everybody else, we all will be fine and loved.

0:30:09.480 --> 0:30:10.000
<v Speaker 2>Here's hoping.

0:30:10.120 --> 0:30:11.120
<v Speaker 1>Thank you for having me.

0:30:11.600 --> 0:30:14.160
<v Speaker 2>Here's hoping. All right, take care, Sasha, thanks for calling.

0:30:14.400 --> 0:30:21.000
<v Speaker 2>Bye bye, m I gotta try me some of this

0:30:21.160 --> 0:30:25.320
<v Speaker 2>porch Porsche Bork. What's in it? I should have asked

0:30:25.360 --> 0:30:28.520
<v Speaker 2>her what was in it? I really like soup. Soup's good.

0:30:28.600 --> 0:30:31.880
<v Speaker 2>It's a hearty meal. I'm gonna do an advertisement for

0:30:31.960 --> 0:30:34.760
<v Speaker 2>soup right now. Not not. This is a free advertisement

0:30:35.800 --> 0:30:38.960
<v Speaker 2>for soup. Right before we get into the real advertisements.

0:30:38.960 --> 0:30:43.400
<v Speaker 2>This is this is just a general advertisement for soup.

0:30:43.480 --> 0:30:52.680
<v Speaker 2>I think soup is really good. That's my ad for soup. Hello, Hey,

0:30:52.720 --> 0:30:53.080
<v Speaker 2>what's up?

0:30:53.120 --> 0:30:53.239
<v Speaker 1>Man?

0:30:53.280 --> 0:30:53.840
<v Speaker 2>What's your name?

0:30:54.200 --> 0:30:54.680
<v Speaker 1>Uh?

0:30:55.600 --> 0:30:58.080
<v Speaker 4>Walker or Jesse Walker?

0:30:58.120 --> 0:31:00.240
<v Speaker 2>What's up? Walker? What do you have to What are

0:31:00.240 --> 0:31:00.600
<v Speaker 2>you doing?

0:31:02.640 --> 0:31:03.400
<v Speaker 3>Just got off work?

0:31:03.480 --> 0:31:05.280
<v Speaker 4>Man? Yeah?

0:31:05.400 --> 0:31:06.640
<v Speaker 2>What what do you do for work?

0:31:09.360 --> 0:31:10.520
<v Speaker 4>I'm in the military.

0:31:11.840 --> 0:31:15.040
<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, what what branch of the military?

0:31:17.000 --> 0:31:18.720
<v Speaker 3>Army?

0:31:18.760 --> 0:31:21.720
<v Speaker 2>So how's that going for you? Because on this show,

0:31:21.800 --> 0:31:23.280
<v Speaker 2>I don't know if you listened to the show, but

0:31:23.800 --> 0:31:26.560
<v Speaker 2>I've had a lot of people call in who are like,

0:31:28.480 --> 0:31:31.840
<v Speaker 2>they're like debating if they should join the military, and like,

0:31:31.920 --> 0:31:34.360
<v Speaker 2>I've talked to people who have and they they enjoyed

0:31:34.920 --> 0:31:37.040
<v Speaker 2>the results of their decision. And I've talked to people

0:31:37.200 --> 0:31:41.360
<v Speaker 2>who are not enjoying the results of their decision. So

0:31:41.400 --> 0:31:43.680
<v Speaker 2>I'm curious where where you're at with that.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, I mean I've been in for like, uh, it's

0:31:49.040 --> 0:31:51.960
<v Speaker 3>like a year and a half now, roughly. I think

0:31:52.000 --> 0:31:53.840
<v Speaker 3>I texted you about it, like just being like a

0:31:53.880 --> 0:31:59.120
<v Speaker 3>new new like private, new soldier in the army. I

0:31:59.120 --> 0:32:02.880
<v Speaker 3>think it's a great vision. The military is probably better

0:32:02.920 --> 0:32:05.800
<v Speaker 3>decision that I made compared to you know, how I

0:32:05.840 --> 0:32:06.960
<v Speaker 3>was living my life prior.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, yeah, what tell me about that?

0:32:12.800 --> 0:32:14.959
<v Speaker 3>I lived on my own. You know, I moved out

0:32:15.000 --> 0:32:17.120
<v Speaker 3>of my folks house when I was like twenty and

0:32:18.640 --> 0:32:21.320
<v Speaker 3>my mom didn't really want me to leave, you know,

0:32:21.480 --> 0:32:25.720
<v Speaker 3>she was. She was super worried, super worried about me

0:32:27.080 --> 0:32:29.480
<v Speaker 3>wanting to move out. I'm sorry, dude, I'm like, I'm

0:32:29.520 --> 0:32:33.240
<v Speaker 3>really excited. My roommates like try to look at look

0:32:33.320 --> 0:32:35.400
<v Speaker 3>up your screen because we didn't think we would make

0:32:35.440 --> 0:32:40.960
<v Speaker 3>it on But oh yeah, I lived on my own

0:32:41.000 --> 0:32:43.120
<v Speaker 3>for a little bit at twenty years old, by myself,

0:32:43.160 --> 0:32:47.040
<v Speaker 3>no roommates. It was great. I was a supervisor at

0:32:47.040 --> 0:32:50.080
<v Speaker 3>an arcade like prior to joining the military, and that

0:32:50.160 --> 0:32:57.000
<v Speaker 3>was really fun. But people at arcades are kind of, uh,

0:32:57.520 --> 0:32:59.680
<v Speaker 3>they're not the best people to work around all the time.

0:33:02.160 --> 0:33:04.320
<v Speaker 2>So what you said that this was better than the

0:33:04.320 --> 0:33:07.120
<v Speaker 2>life you were living before. So why was the life

0:33:07.160 --> 0:33:11.200
<v Speaker 2>you were living before, Uh not satisfactory to you?

0:33:12.960 --> 0:33:14.880
<v Speaker 3>Well, I felt like I didn't have like I didn't

0:33:14.880 --> 0:33:17.240
<v Speaker 3>have any roommates, right, So, like I just I was

0:33:17.320 --> 0:33:21.320
<v Speaker 3>by myself. Man, I have like a girlfriend or anything.

0:33:21.520 --> 0:33:23.640
<v Speaker 3>And I spent a lot of time alone. Like I

0:33:23.800 --> 0:33:25.840
<v Speaker 3>come home from work.

0:33:26.800 --> 0:33:26.960
<v Speaker 4>Uh.

0:33:26.960 --> 0:33:29.840
<v Speaker 3>And I loved my job. I loved interacting with people arcades.

0:33:30.040 --> 0:33:31.440
<v Speaker 3>I like to think I was pretty good at what

0:33:31.480 --> 0:33:34.680
<v Speaker 3>I do since I made it up the supervisor. But

0:33:35.520 --> 0:33:37.280
<v Speaker 3>I love my job. But I'd come home and I'd

0:33:37.280 --> 0:33:40.440
<v Speaker 3>be around all these people and customers and and I

0:33:40.560 --> 0:33:42.280
<v Speaker 3>come home and I'd just be upset, you know that

0:33:42.360 --> 0:33:45.000
<v Speaker 3>I'm alone. And I would have on like online friends

0:33:45.040 --> 0:33:47.680
<v Speaker 3>to play games with us, but like they wouldn't you know,

0:33:47.720 --> 0:33:51.160
<v Speaker 3>they wouldn't always be on. So I'd just be sitting

0:33:51.160 --> 0:33:55.800
<v Speaker 3>there by myself and and god, god, I'll say, don't

0:33:56.160 --> 0:33:59.040
<v Speaker 3>see this, but like, dude, like I got into like edibles,

0:33:59.120 --> 0:34:02.840
<v Speaker 3>and I like start make edibles. Just like I could

0:34:02.840 --> 0:34:06.120
<v Speaker 3>feel something, you know, when I was there by myself,

0:34:06.120 --> 0:34:08.600
<v Speaker 3>and I was really lonely, I quit, you know, since

0:34:08.600 --> 0:34:12.160
<v Speaker 3>I joined the military because I can't do that in

0:34:12.200 --> 0:34:12.840
<v Speaker 3>the military.

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<v Speaker 2>Interesting. Interesting, yeah, I I I. I it's funny listening

0:34:22.760 --> 0:34:27.399
<v Speaker 2>to uh you say this because I'm I'm not exactly uh,

0:34:27.640 --> 0:34:31.800
<v Speaker 2>I don't exactly find the concept of getting high alone

0:34:31.840 --> 0:34:35.600
<v Speaker 2>in your apartment to feel something to be foreign. So

0:34:35.680 --> 0:34:39.400
<v Speaker 2>I get what you're saying. And then so how long

0:34:40.040 --> 0:34:41.759
<v Speaker 2>when did you join the military, and then what made

0:34:41.800 --> 0:34:43.640
<v Speaker 2>you ultimately decide that you wanted.

0:34:43.440 --> 0:34:43.759
<v Speaker 7>To do that?

0:34:45.680 --> 0:34:48.560
<v Speaker 3>Oh, like I joined, like said man, I joined like

0:34:48.560 --> 0:34:51.600
<v Speaker 3>twenty twenty three, Like I'm brand new, dude.

0:34:51.520 --> 0:34:56.719
<v Speaker 2>Like, so, so why why the military? What made you

0:34:56.719 --> 0:34:57.520
<v Speaker 2>want to join?

0:34:59.000 --> 0:35:00.600
<v Speaker 3>Dude? Because I feel it there was like no other

0:35:00.680 --> 0:35:06.799
<v Speaker 3>options I did, like, like I quit my job, and like,

0:35:07.440 --> 0:35:09.759
<v Speaker 3>you probably shouldn't cut your job before you move out

0:35:09.800 --> 0:35:11.440
<v Speaker 3>of your apartment because I didn't know I had to

0:35:11.480 --> 0:35:14.160
<v Speaker 3>pay for rent, so after work it is like moving place.

0:35:14.200 --> 0:35:17.040
<v Speaker 3>And I thought other jobs could feel the spot. But

0:35:17.440 --> 0:35:20.000
<v Speaker 3>I was really out of shape at the time too,

0:35:20.719 --> 0:35:22.640
<v Speaker 3>and I was just really just upset on my life.

0:35:22.640 --> 0:35:26.560
<v Speaker 3>I was happy that I had moved out, but like,

0:35:27.680 --> 0:35:30.759
<v Speaker 3>I don't know, man, I guess I just didn't feel

0:35:30.760 --> 0:35:33.360
<v Speaker 3>like I had achieved enough, and bro, I was not

0:35:33.480 --> 0:35:35.360
<v Speaker 3>going back to school, Like I went to school for

0:35:35.400 --> 0:35:40.000
<v Speaker 3>two years. I basically have an associate's degree. I'm not

0:35:40.120 --> 0:35:43.080
<v Speaker 3>going back. So I thought it'd be a great choice.

0:35:43.120 --> 0:35:45.480
<v Speaker 3>It can get me in shape, get me some discipline.

0:35:45.600 --> 0:35:49.719
<v Speaker 3>You know, it was worth it, you know, basically can

0:35:50.040 --> 0:35:54.640
<v Speaker 3>ai t weren't fun. Don't let don't believe what people

0:35:54.680 --> 0:35:57.640
<v Speaker 3>tell you when they say, oh, these new soldiers don't

0:35:57.640 --> 0:36:01.480
<v Speaker 3>have a hard time. Basically, no, they kicked They kick

0:36:01.560 --> 0:36:01.919
<v Speaker 3>our ass.

0:36:02.200 --> 0:36:05.640
<v Speaker 2>I have I have never ever ever heard somebody say

0:36:05.760 --> 0:36:08.840
<v Speaker 2>that basic training for the army is not that hard.

0:36:10.520 --> 0:36:12.919
<v Speaker 3>Oh dude, No, it's the old it's the older guys.

0:36:12.960 --> 0:36:14.759
<v Speaker 3>This is the guys that like already been in for

0:36:14.800 --> 0:36:17.239
<v Speaker 3>like ten twelve years. They're like, yeah, they don't, they

0:36:17.239 --> 0:36:19.440
<v Speaker 3>don't beat the shit out of you guys like they should.

0:36:19.560 --> 0:36:22.520
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, well, because for them, for them, but they

0:36:22.600 --> 0:36:25.640
<v Speaker 2>actually got the They literally the guy would beat the

0:36:25.719 --> 0:36:28.120
<v Speaker 2>ship out of them. You know, they weren't just making

0:36:28.160 --> 0:36:30.239
<v Speaker 2>you do push ups and stuff back then.

0:36:31.360 --> 0:36:33.360
<v Speaker 3>I mean that's fair, but I have seen some people

0:36:33.400 --> 0:36:35.600
<v Speaker 3>get like tossed and thrown around to the ground, and

0:36:35.640 --> 0:36:38.399
<v Speaker 3>I thought it was pretty funny. I mean, I ended

0:36:38.480 --> 0:36:42.160
<v Speaker 3>up being on. I ended up getting my collar choked

0:36:42.200 --> 0:36:44.319
<v Speaker 3>to the wall. And you know, people don't believe that

0:36:44.400 --> 0:36:45.680
<v Speaker 3>this happens because.

0:36:45.400 --> 0:36:49.080
<v Speaker 2>Wait, wait wait wait, wait wait wait somebody somebody choked

0:36:49.120 --> 0:36:50.320
<v Speaker 2>you out.

0:36:50.640 --> 0:36:52.600
<v Speaker 3>No they didn't. So they grabbed me by the collar.

0:36:52.640 --> 0:36:55.040
<v Speaker 3>They like pushed me up against a locker because like

0:36:55.280 --> 0:36:58.320
<v Speaker 3>there was like a case going on in our Basic

0:36:58.400 --> 0:37:00.560
<v Speaker 3>and I wasn't I had some information and I wasn't

0:37:00.600 --> 0:37:03.879
<v Speaker 3>gonna reveal uh, and my Jill surn just had enough

0:37:03.920 --> 0:37:05.319
<v Speaker 3>and he grabbed me about a collar and he just

0:37:05.360 --> 0:37:07.759
<v Speaker 3>took me to my locker and he's just like, what

0:37:07.880 --> 0:37:10.600
<v Speaker 3>do you fucking know? And I'm like, I don't know

0:37:10.840 --> 0:37:12.920
<v Speaker 3>any take please unhand me.

0:37:14.680 --> 0:37:17.239
<v Speaker 2>So so there was a case going on and you

0:37:17.280 --> 0:37:19.799
<v Speaker 2>were like, I'm not, but did you know? Like did

0:37:19.840 --> 0:37:21.960
<v Speaker 2>you did you have this information? But you just didn't

0:37:21.960 --> 0:37:22.560
<v Speaker 2>want to snitch?

0:37:24.120 --> 0:37:24.319
<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

0:37:24.800 --> 0:37:26.839
<v Speaker 3>Like do you snitch? Yeah? It's kind of like, Jill,

0:37:26.920 --> 0:37:27.960
<v Speaker 3>do you snitch in there?

0:37:28.040 --> 0:37:28.320
<v Speaker 4>Dude?

0:37:28.400 --> 0:37:31.600
<v Speaker 3>You snitching Basic or something? Your your your rep is gone? Man,

0:37:31.719 --> 0:37:35.480
<v Speaker 3>Like no one, no one's gonna tell you ever, damn.

0:37:35.719 --> 0:37:38.520
<v Speaker 2>So what can I ask what the case was? Or

0:37:38.640 --> 0:37:41.279
<v Speaker 2>or is the statue of limitations up on that or

0:37:41.480 --> 0:37:42.839
<v Speaker 2>are you gonna get I don't want you to get

0:37:42.880 --> 0:37:45.960
<v Speaker 2>beaten up for uh snitching to the gecko. But I

0:37:45.960 --> 0:37:51.320
<v Speaker 2>don't know if I don't know if this is old news.

0:37:49.440 --> 0:37:55.000
<v Speaker 3>It's pretty old. It was probably some petty stuff, you know. Uh,

0:37:56.480 --> 0:37:58.520
<v Speaker 3>I don't know if you know what SHARP is. But

0:37:58.560 --> 0:38:01.520
<v Speaker 3>it's like our program to prevent like sexual assault and stuff.

0:38:01.560 --> 0:38:04.280
<v Speaker 3>I think it's pretty effective, but it's not as effective

0:38:04.280 --> 0:38:06.399
<v Speaker 3>as it should be because it still goes. The stuff

0:38:06.440 --> 0:38:11.040
<v Speaker 3>still happens in the military, sadly. But it was a

0:38:11.080 --> 0:38:16.200
<v Speaker 3>SHARP case, like a sexual harassment case. Yeah, not assault,

0:38:16.480 --> 0:38:18.600
<v Speaker 3>of course, but like one there was a girl there

0:38:18.640 --> 0:38:20.799
<v Speaker 3>that felt like uncomfortable with one of the guys and

0:38:21.360 --> 0:38:25.399
<v Speaker 3>our platoon and apparently he had stole some of her

0:38:25.600 --> 0:38:27.960
<v Speaker 3>clothes or something, and it was like stashing them in

0:38:28.000 --> 0:38:28.480
<v Speaker 3>his locker.

0:38:29.000 --> 0:38:29.080
<v Speaker 1>It.

0:38:30.000 --> 0:38:33.279
<v Speaker 3>Man, you'll do You'll meet the weirdest people and basically changed,

0:38:33.480 --> 0:38:37.560
<v Speaker 3>I mean, the most immature, like dumbest idiots ever. And

0:38:37.560 --> 0:38:43.320
<v Speaker 3>then you'll meet like these pep performing officer ready guys

0:38:43.480 --> 0:38:45.839
<v Speaker 3>that come in like as a specialist and they're just

0:38:45.920 --> 0:38:48.520
<v Speaker 3>like the best of the best. And then he just

0:38:48.560 --> 0:38:53.080
<v Speaker 3>got like the dumbit there's dude, it's anyone can join,

0:38:53.400 --> 0:38:58.720
<v Speaker 3>Like there's no range, like you can all ranges of people.

0:38:59.680 --> 0:39:00.160
<v Speaker 3>You'll me.

0:39:01.160 --> 0:39:08.520
<v Speaker 2>So where So after a year and a half. After

0:39:08.560 --> 0:39:14.000
<v Speaker 2>a year and a half, how has it been for you?

0:39:14.080 --> 0:39:16.440
<v Speaker 2>Are you still enjoying it? Was it a good decision?

0:39:17.840 --> 0:39:18.040
<v Speaker 4>Oh?

0:39:18.160 --> 0:39:22.520
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I I you know, I'm an older guy. Most

0:39:22.520 --> 0:39:24.480
<v Speaker 3>of the guys joined like right out of high school,

0:39:24.719 --> 0:39:30.440
<v Speaker 3>so they're like eighteen nineteen. I'm twenty two, but they

0:39:30.560 --> 0:39:33.080
<v Speaker 3>like joined right out of high school. But I joined

0:39:33.080 --> 0:39:35.160
<v Speaker 3>when I was like twenty one, so I was a

0:39:35.200 --> 0:39:38.440
<v Speaker 3>fairly older guy. I was older than all the new guys.

0:39:39.200 --> 0:39:45.719
<v Speaker 3>So it sucks being like, I guess, treated like I'm

0:39:45.760 --> 0:39:47.840
<v Speaker 3>a kid again, even though like you know, I lived,

0:39:48.320 --> 0:39:51.440
<v Speaker 3>you know, on my own, I took care of myself.

0:39:51.680 --> 0:39:54.160
<v Speaker 3>I'm not a kid. But I understand they do it

0:39:54.200 --> 0:39:57.760
<v Speaker 3>for discipline. I understood why they do it. It's for respect,

0:39:57.920 --> 0:40:02.719
<v Speaker 3>because discipline will either be demise of you or it'll

0:40:02.760 --> 0:40:05.319
<v Speaker 3>save your life. You know, I understand that now. But

0:40:05.520 --> 0:40:08.920
<v Speaker 3>you know, when I first got in, I didn't understand.

0:40:08.920 --> 0:40:10.840
<v Speaker 3>I didn't like being taught down to like I was

0:40:10.880 --> 0:40:15.920
<v Speaker 3>some kid, because you know, I'm a pretty functioning adult.

0:40:16.040 --> 0:40:17.320
<v Speaker 3>You know, for the most part.

0:40:19.239 --> 0:40:22.040
<v Speaker 2>Did you sign a contract where you have to like

0:40:22.160 --> 0:40:24.600
<v Speaker 2>be there for a certain amount of years.

0:40:25.040 --> 0:40:29.480
<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, man, I'm in for six years.

0:40:30.000 --> 0:40:31.399
<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Or how do you feel about that?

0:40:31.760 --> 0:40:31.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

0:40:33.120 --> 0:40:35.480
<v Speaker 2>Because that's because that's the main thing, right, Like when

0:40:35.520 --> 0:40:39.360
<v Speaker 2>people we had another caller very recently, it might have

0:40:39.480 --> 0:40:42.279
<v Speaker 2>even been on the most recent episode or or two

0:40:42.320 --> 0:40:45.480
<v Speaker 2>episodes ago or whatever, who called in to debate whether

0:40:45.640 --> 0:40:49.319
<v Speaker 2>he wanted to join the military, and he was like, yeah,

0:40:49.560 --> 0:40:51.759
<v Speaker 2>you know, it's a six year contract. And that was

0:40:51.800 --> 0:40:54.640
<v Speaker 2>the thing. That's the thing that I think am like

0:40:54.760 --> 0:40:57.959
<v Speaker 2>the most hung up on is like pledging so much

0:40:58.000 --> 0:41:00.920
<v Speaker 2>of your life to this thing at a young age,

0:41:01.520 --> 0:41:03.799
<v Speaker 2>is it's kind of crazy to me, Like, how do

0:41:03.840 --> 0:41:05.759
<v Speaker 2>you feel about the fact that you have all this

0:41:06.000 --> 0:41:09.799
<v Speaker 2>uh time that you have to be a military guy

0:41:10.239 --> 0:41:11.960
<v Speaker 2>or else? I guess they do they do they kill

0:41:12.000 --> 0:41:12.719
<v Speaker 2>you if you leave.

0:41:14.320 --> 0:41:16.719
<v Speaker 3>No, if you don't serve your time, you'll just go

0:41:16.760 --> 0:41:23.520
<v Speaker 3>to jail. But like guaranteed, yeah if you don't, if

0:41:23.520 --> 0:41:25.160
<v Speaker 3>you don't serve your time, you're going to jail.

0:41:25.640 --> 0:41:28.799
<v Speaker 2>Jesus, they will find you.

0:41:30.719 --> 0:41:34.800
<v Speaker 7>How do you how do you feel about that? I,

0:41:34.880 --> 0:41:37.680
<v Speaker 7>you know, keep my head down and I served my time,

0:41:38.040 --> 0:41:41.759
<v Speaker 7>and I it's it's not hard, like you literally have

0:41:41.840 --> 0:41:44.319
<v Speaker 7>to go a wall, like you have to just be

0:41:44.560 --> 0:41:48.160
<v Speaker 7>lose contact with anyone you knew in the military, uh,

0:41:48.440 --> 0:41:51.080
<v Speaker 7>with your leadership, with your n c O.

0:41:51.400 --> 0:41:54.319
<v Speaker 3>Like you gotta lose you gotta go a wall. Like

0:41:54.400 --> 0:42:01.560
<v Speaker 3>it's really hard to just not do your service. All

0:42:01.640 --> 0:42:03.759
<v Speaker 3>yeaha do show up. That that's like the main if

0:42:03.800 --> 0:42:06.000
<v Speaker 3>you're lower enlisted, like for me, I don't.

0:42:05.800 --> 0:42:08.279
<v Speaker 2>Know, well oh yeah, but but like what if you

0:42:08.320 --> 0:42:10.600
<v Speaker 2>what if you decide you want to do something else?

0:42:12.600 --> 0:42:15.000
<v Speaker 3>Uh you can, oh god, I hope I don't get

0:42:15.000 --> 0:42:17.480
<v Speaker 3>in told you can hurt yourself.

0:42:17.719 --> 0:42:18.120
<v Speaker 4>You can.

0:42:20.000 --> 0:42:25.680
<v Speaker 3>Uh, that's another thing you can if you have like

0:42:25.920 --> 0:42:28.240
<v Speaker 3>a case, like a sharp case against you, you can easily

0:42:28.280 --> 0:42:33.520
<v Speaker 3>get kicked out. You can just like not participate in

0:42:33.719 --> 0:42:36.319
<v Speaker 3>work and just be a horrible soldier. And you know

0:42:36.880 --> 0:42:38.600
<v Speaker 3>that can get your article to a team. You can

0:42:38.640 --> 0:42:39.279
<v Speaker 3>get kicked out.

0:42:39.360 --> 0:42:41.719
<v Speaker 2>Really wait, so you can you well so like if

0:42:41.840 --> 0:42:44.120
<v Speaker 2>so like if you if you decide you don't want to,

0:42:44.360 --> 0:42:46.520
<v Speaker 2>you can just like do it. Like what if you

0:42:46.640 --> 0:42:48.800
<v Speaker 2>just you show up or you just do a shitty

0:42:48.920 --> 0:42:51.920
<v Speaker 2>job and you don't do what you're told and you

0:42:52.040 --> 0:42:56.480
<v Speaker 2>fuck off and like private pile from fucking that fucking movie,

0:42:56.880 --> 0:42:59.160
<v Speaker 2>you know, like like if you just do that, well

0:42:59.200 --> 0:43:00.000
<v Speaker 2>they just kick you out.

0:43:01.520 --> 0:43:04.239
<v Speaker 3>Well, that's that's going against like the code, right, Like

0:43:04.320 --> 0:43:07.279
<v Speaker 3>that's going against the discipline like they try to install. Right,

0:43:07.360 --> 0:43:10.759
<v Speaker 3>So you're gonna catch hell, like one hundred percent, you're

0:43:10.760 --> 0:43:13.200
<v Speaker 3>gonna catch the most hell you ever caught. But if

0:43:13.239 --> 0:43:15.640
<v Speaker 3>you're willing to go through all that just to get

0:43:15.680 --> 0:43:19.040
<v Speaker 3>out of the military, by all means, I wouldn't recommend it.

0:43:19.120 --> 0:43:20.960
<v Speaker 3>I just do the time, and you know, not be

0:43:21.000 --> 0:43:24.759
<v Speaker 3>a bitch, you know, Uh, just do the time. You know, Oh,

0:43:24.840 --> 0:43:28.160
<v Speaker 3>I'm wasting all my years of youth. Like most people

0:43:28.160 --> 0:43:29.680
<v Speaker 3>that say that, they don't they don't know what they

0:43:29.719 --> 0:43:32.080
<v Speaker 3>want to do anyway, and they think they're just gonna

0:43:32.080 --> 0:43:35.759
<v Speaker 3>magically far figure it out. And I'm like, if military

0:43:35.840 --> 0:43:38.240
<v Speaker 3>is already on your mind, you might as well just join.

0:43:38.280 --> 0:43:38.480
<v Speaker 4>You know.

0:43:38.520 --> 0:43:41.319
<v Speaker 3>I wish I joined earlier when I was younger, but

0:43:41.400 --> 0:43:45.240
<v Speaker 3>most most young guys, young females, young guys, young.

0:43:45.120 --> 0:43:46.760
<v Speaker 4>Everyone doesn't know what they're doing.

0:43:47.680 --> 0:43:51.000
<v Speaker 3>I think military is great. Like not all moses have

0:43:51.040 --> 0:43:52.799
<v Speaker 3>to do six years either, Like you can do like

0:43:52.840 --> 0:43:56.320
<v Speaker 3>three four years, Like it's not that bad. Just don't

0:43:56.440 --> 0:43:57.200
<v Speaker 3>do infantry.

0:43:57.920 --> 0:44:00.359
<v Speaker 2>Well, so tell me about So that's it, because look,

0:44:00.400 --> 0:44:03.720
<v Speaker 2>here's the thing from my brain, because this is clearly

0:44:03.800 --> 0:44:07.360
<v Speaker 2>this is a one shoe does not fit all sizes

0:44:07.760 --> 0:44:10.080
<v Speaker 2>situation because I look at your I look at what

0:44:10.120 --> 0:44:12.200
<v Speaker 2>you've everything you've told me, and I'm like, well, that

0:44:12.320 --> 0:44:16.920
<v Speaker 2>sounds like it fucking sucks. But again, I mean that's

0:44:16.960 --> 0:44:21.080
<v Speaker 2>because I don't know. I can't see like pledging like

0:44:21.160 --> 0:44:26.160
<v Speaker 2>six years of my life to the military. But I definitely, definitely,

0:44:26.200 --> 0:44:29.600
<v Speaker 2>definitely can see how for a certain kind of person

0:44:29.600 --> 0:44:32.760
<v Speaker 2>who likes that rigid kind of structure and who likes

0:44:33.560 --> 0:44:35.840
<v Speaker 2>the things that the military does provide, I can see

0:44:36.160 --> 0:44:38.560
<v Speaker 2>how that can be beneficial. But tell me more, Like

0:44:38.640 --> 0:44:43.080
<v Speaker 2>you said that, the people who say, like, oh, I'm

0:44:43.080 --> 0:44:46.759
<v Speaker 2>wasting my youth, you push back against that, Tell me

0:44:46.800 --> 0:44:48.360
<v Speaker 2>more why you push back against that.

0:44:50.239 --> 0:44:52.759
<v Speaker 3>I think people that say the wasting the use just

0:44:52.760 --> 0:44:55.080
<v Speaker 3>because like you're preparing yourself for like the real role,

0:44:55.200 --> 0:44:58.560
<v Speaker 3>Like you don't have to stay in like ten twelve

0:44:58.680 --> 0:45:00.960
<v Speaker 3>years at least from my respect this, you know, I

0:45:00.960 --> 0:45:03.480
<v Speaker 3>haven't been in that long. You know, it's like a

0:45:03.600 --> 0:45:06.120
<v Speaker 3>year and a half. And I'm pretty sure any any

0:45:06.200 --> 0:45:08.520
<v Speaker 3>military guy out there can figure out what my rank is.

0:45:08.520 --> 0:45:10.040
<v Speaker 3>I'm not even gonna say what my rank is, but

0:45:10.120 --> 0:45:11.880
<v Speaker 3>just by saying how long I've been it, they probably

0:45:11.880 --> 0:45:12.880
<v Speaker 3>already know what my rank is.

0:45:12.920 --> 0:45:13.920
<v Speaker 4>So I'm not even gonna say it.

0:45:13.960 --> 0:45:20.360
<v Speaker 3>But uh, from my current experience, I don't think it

0:45:20.440 --> 0:45:23.040
<v Speaker 3>was that bad. I think you need to get something

0:45:23.080 --> 0:45:26.959
<v Speaker 3>out of it, you know, Like there's so many things

0:45:26.960 --> 0:45:30.319
<v Speaker 3>that the military offers. Like my goal is to like

0:45:30.680 --> 0:45:32.799
<v Speaker 3>get the military to pay for my school, Like that's

0:45:32.840 --> 0:45:35.319
<v Speaker 3>the main thing most people doing for Like, most people

0:45:35.320 --> 0:45:38.120
<v Speaker 3>aren't fortunate, man, and if you're not, you're not fortunate.

0:45:38.400 --> 0:45:41.359
<v Speaker 3>Your parents aren't rich or anything like that. Like join

0:45:41.400 --> 0:45:46.600
<v Speaker 3>the military, bro, Like free it basic sucks a t guarantee,

0:45:46.640 --> 0:45:53.080
<v Speaker 3>it's gonna suck. It's gonna suck at first, but once

0:45:53.080 --> 0:45:55.799
<v Speaker 3>you once you embrace enjoying the suck, it's really not

0:45:55.840 --> 0:45:58.000
<v Speaker 3>that bad. You get free room and board, a place

0:45:58.040 --> 0:46:01.080
<v Speaker 3>where you can go eat, like any time that's usually

0:46:01.200 --> 0:46:03.560
<v Speaker 3>you know, certain times of the day morning like Grex

0:46:03.640 --> 0:46:06.960
<v Speaker 3>with lunch and dinner for a young person that doesn't

0:46:07.000 --> 0:46:10.879
<v Speaker 3>have ship. Dude, that's like, dude, that's you got a meal. Yes,

0:46:10.920 --> 0:46:14.560
<v Speaker 3>I want to live, you got work, choose an mos

0:46:14.560 --> 0:46:18.320
<v Speaker 3>that like you want to you want to do something

0:46:18.360 --> 0:46:21.120
<v Speaker 3>maybe that you want to do in the future or

0:46:21.160 --> 0:46:24.400
<v Speaker 3>something you just like in the you know, don't be

0:46:24.440 --> 0:46:26.879
<v Speaker 3>a bitch, you know, and you'll be fine.

0:46:27.360 --> 0:46:27.720
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:46:27.840 --> 0:46:28.719
<v Speaker 1>I uh.

0:46:30.239 --> 0:46:32.040
<v Speaker 2>Well, uh should I was gonna ask you so oh yeah.

0:46:32.120 --> 0:46:38.000
<v Speaker 2>So so you were saying that you want the military

0:46:38.000 --> 0:46:39.239
<v Speaker 2>to pay for school. What do you want to go

0:46:39.320 --> 0:46:42.399
<v Speaker 2>to school for, like.

0:46:42.600 --> 0:46:44.920
<v Speaker 3>For flight school? I want to be a politile.

0:46:45.719 --> 0:46:49.399
<v Speaker 2>That's cool. Well, I don't know, I don't know, man,

0:46:49.480 --> 0:46:54.520
<v Speaker 2>I feel like again, I just can't get over the

0:46:54.520 --> 0:46:59.040
<v Speaker 2>fact of like signing such a well here, you know

0:46:59.080 --> 0:47:03.200
<v Speaker 2>what sucks about being like eighteen is that like all

0:47:03.239 --> 0:47:05.000
<v Speaker 2>these people are trying to get you to sign your

0:47:05.000 --> 0:47:08.239
<v Speaker 2>life away, like because the military, right, They're like, Okay,

0:47:08.320 --> 0:47:11.279
<v Speaker 2>if you give us six years of your life, we'll

0:47:11.320 --> 0:47:13.560
<v Speaker 2>give you this stuff. And if you say I don't

0:47:13.560 --> 0:47:15.640
<v Speaker 2>really want to do that, yeah you can go to college.

0:47:15.840 --> 0:47:17.839
<v Speaker 2>But then college is like, hey, if you give us

0:47:18.160 --> 0:47:22.760
<v Speaker 2>one hundred thousand fucking dollars and take out this huge loan,

0:47:23.480 --> 0:47:26.400
<v Speaker 2>then you know, we'll give you this stuff. And so

0:47:26.640 --> 0:47:29.640
<v Speaker 2>it's pretty easy as an eighteen year old, especially if

0:47:29.640 --> 0:47:33.720
<v Speaker 2>you don't have a lot, to just get like sign

0:47:34.080 --> 0:47:36.919
<v Speaker 2>there's all like as soon as you graduate college, there's

0:47:37.000 --> 0:47:39.359
<v Speaker 2>all these deals with the devil that you can sign.

0:47:40.440 --> 0:47:43.840
<v Speaker 2>And you know what, God bless the people for whom

0:47:44.360 --> 0:47:48.799
<v Speaker 2>it's worked out. But it is a little spooky to

0:47:48.840 --> 0:47:53.560
<v Speaker 2>me that all these really fucking young people are they're

0:47:53.640 --> 0:47:58.279
<v Speaker 2>just they're being offered all these kind of intense options

0:47:58.400 --> 0:47:59.200
<v Speaker 2>straight out the gate.

0:48:00.920 --> 0:48:03.799
<v Speaker 3>I mean, I can't understand that, you know, I can't

0:48:03.880 --> 0:48:06.359
<v Speaker 3>understand that, like being eighteen, like, you know, that's why

0:48:06.360 --> 0:48:08.120
<v Speaker 3>I'm kind of glad, you know, I got a chance.

0:48:08.239 --> 0:48:10.160
<v Speaker 3>You know, when I turned eighteen, I was still working

0:48:10.200 --> 0:48:12.120
<v Speaker 3>at the same job. I worked at that arcade for

0:48:12.160 --> 0:48:17.640
<v Speaker 3>six years since I was fifteen. That's a they hired

0:48:17.680 --> 0:48:19.799
<v Speaker 3>me when I was really young. They did not know

0:48:19.800 --> 0:48:24.440
<v Speaker 3>how old I was. That's sorry, sidetrack, But I was

0:48:24.480 --> 0:48:27.040
<v Speaker 3>working there when I turned eighteen, and I was thinking

0:48:27.040 --> 0:48:30.319
<v Speaker 3>about joining the military, and you know, I just canted it,

0:48:30.400 --> 0:48:32.239
<v Speaker 3>you know, and I lived my life a little bit

0:48:32.360 --> 0:48:34.120
<v Speaker 3>up until the age of twenty where I was like,

0:48:34.160 --> 0:48:36.359
<v Speaker 3>you know, okay, I need to do something in my life,

0:48:36.360 --> 0:48:39.080
<v Speaker 3>so I can understand like joining like right at eighteen

0:48:39.120 --> 0:48:41.799
<v Speaker 3>can be kind of scary, and I you know, I'm

0:48:41.880 --> 0:48:43.680
<v Speaker 3>kind of glad. I say, I wish I would have

0:48:43.719 --> 0:48:45.480
<v Speaker 3>joined earlier, But I'm kind of glad I lived a

0:48:45.520 --> 0:48:49.960
<v Speaker 3>little bit of my own life before I joined, right,

0:48:52.360 --> 0:48:55.160
<v Speaker 3>And I don't think it's like signing a contract with

0:48:55.200 --> 0:48:57.279
<v Speaker 3>the devil. You know, I won't say that that's a

0:48:57.960 --> 0:49:00.919
<v Speaker 3>that's the league street, but well.

0:49:00.880 --> 0:49:04.080
<v Speaker 2>I well, I don't know, I don't know. But let

0:49:04.080 --> 0:49:06.239
<v Speaker 2>me look look, well, let me say this. When you

0:49:06.280 --> 0:49:10.920
<v Speaker 2>say you wanted to uh uh by the way, I'm

0:49:11.000 --> 0:49:13.520
<v Speaker 2>I'm a I'm a crazy person at Gecko Suit. So

0:49:13.520 --> 0:49:17.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm not here to have a hell dude, I'm not

0:49:17.280 --> 0:49:20.560
<v Speaker 2>here to have a discussion about the military industrial complex

0:49:21.000 --> 0:49:25.200
<v Speaker 2>with you. I'm curious when you when you say, when

0:49:25.239 --> 0:49:27.720
<v Speaker 2>you say I wish I'd lived my life a little

0:49:27.719 --> 0:49:29.839
<v Speaker 2>bit more before joining, what is that?

0:49:30.080 --> 0:49:30.319
<v Speaker 3>What?

0:49:30.320 --> 0:49:32.200
<v Speaker 2>What is you living your life a little bit more?

0:49:32.239 --> 0:49:35.600
<v Speaker 3>Look like, Well, for me, like I said, I already did,

0:49:35.719 --> 0:49:40.440
<v Speaker 3>like I accomplished. I had a job, I was paying

0:49:40.440 --> 0:49:43.160
<v Speaker 3>on the car, and I moved out successfully on my own.

0:49:43.200 --> 0:49:45.600
<v Speaker 3>Those are goals that I just had, like get out

0:49:45.640 --> 0:49:48.560
<v Speaker 3>of my parents' house, you know, continue to pay on

0:49:48.600 --> 0:49:52.600
<v Speaker 3>my car, see you pay on assurance? See how I

0:49:52.640 --> 0:49:57.200
<v Speaker 3>handle living life on my own, no roommates, no nothing.

0:49:57.280 --> 0:50:00.120
<v Speaker 3>It was rough sometimes, but I liked the challe and

0:50:00.280 --> 0:50:02.320
<v Speaker 3>just like figuring out how to take care of myself,

0:50:02.400 --> 0:50:05.200
<v Speaker 3>you know, I thought it was great, especially having your

0:50:05.200 --> 0:50:09.360
<v Speaker 3>own peace of mind. Like, man, my mom, dude, she

0:50:09.480 --> 0:50:11.440
<v Speaker 3>had me right. I love my mom, don't get twisted.

0:50:11.560 --> 0:50:14.759
<v Speaker 3>I do anything my moms need to do. But man,

0:50:14.880 --> 0:50:16.920
<v Speaker 3>she had me running all over the place like I

0:50:16.960 --> 0:50:19.719
<v Speaker 3>had all the time in the world, and I just

0:50:19.800 --> 0:50:21.640
<v Speaker 3>kind of wanted a little piece of my mind. You know.

0:50:22.080 --> 0:50:24.560
<v Speaker 3>It was but that was That's what I mean by

0:50:24.600 --> 0:50:26.440
<v Speaker 3>living my life. You know, I lived a little bit

0:50:26.480 --> 0:50:28.800
<v Speaker 3>of life. You know. I moved out, got what the experience.

0:50:28.880 --> 0:50:32.040
<v Speaker 3>I worked at a job, I went places around Texas.

0:50:32.080 --> 0:50:38.319
<v Speaker 3>I'm from Texas. I went places all around Texas. Uh. Yeah.

0:50:38.360 --> 0:50:40.719
<v Speaker 3>I just think you need to like accomplish something before

0:50:40.719 --> 0:50:42.799
<v Speaker 3>you join a military, because if you consider joining the

0:50:42.800 --> 0:50:45.279
<v Speaker 3>military your only accomplishment, I can see how that can

0:50:45.320 --> 0:50:48.960
<v Speaker 3>be a little that can you know, make you feel like, well,

0:50:49.000 --> 0:50:50.960
<v Speaker 3>I didn't I didn't do ship with my life other

0:50:51.000 --> 0:50:51.600
<v Speaker 3>than joint.

0:50:53.480 --> 0:50:56.759
<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean you were like, well, I mean, how

0:50:56.840 --> 0:50:58.759
<v Speaker 2>much how accomplished are you supposed to be?

0:50:59.600 --> 0:50:59.719
<v Speaker 4>Uh?

0:51:00.280 --> 0:51:03.600
<v Speaker 2>At twenty you know, hey.

0:51:03.440 --> 0:51:07.279
<v Speaker 3>Man, in this economy, dude, twenty twenty three, living on

0:51:07.320 --> 0:51:09.920
<v Speaker 3>my own twenty as a as a twenty year old,

0:51:09.960 --> 0:51:13.880
<v Speaker 3>I think that's a great accomplishment. I hold that up

0:51:13.920 --> 0:51:14.840
<v Speaker 3>to myself.

0:51:14.440 --> 0:51:14.960
<v Speaker 4>To this day.

0:51:15.040 --> 0:51:18.759
<v Speaker 3>I don't know how I managed to make it, as Like, dude,

0:51:18.760 --> 0:51:21.759
<v Speaker 3>my rent was like twelve Like, no, it wasn't that day.

0:51:21.800 --> 0:51:26.040
<v Speaker 3>It was like twelve hundred for everything, thirteen hundred roughly

0:51:26.120 --> 0:51:28.799
<v Speaker 3>for everything. Then I had, like my car. No, dude,

0:51:28.800 --> 0:51:31.399
<v Speaker 3>I don't know how I made it. Sometimes God is God.

0:51:31.719 --> 0:51:32.360
<v Speaker 3>God helped me.

0:51:32.440 --> 0:51:32.600
<v Speaker 4>Bro.

0:51:33.239 --> 0:51:35.200
<v Speaker 2>Well, look I'm gonna I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna

0:51:35.239 --> 0:51:36.880
<v Speaker 2>take a call if I don't know if the chat

0:51:36.960 --> 0:51:40.279
<v Speaker 2>has any twitch chat that I'm recording these on, I

0:51:40.320 --> 0:51:42.880
<v Speaker 2>don't know if they have any questions. You don't have

0:51:42.920 --> 0:51:45.759
<v Speaker 2>to look at the chat. I'll read the questions for you.

0:51:45.800 --> 0:51:49.200
<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, I know somebody's gonna do.

0:51:52.040 --> 0:51:53.359
<v Speaker 2>What do you think someone's gonna be.

0:51:53.400 --> 0:51:58.000
<v Speaker 3>Like, uh, someone's definitely gonna ask some crazy questions. I

0:51:58.000 --> 0:52:00.680
<v Speaker 3>was also gonna say, like, my experience in military is

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<v Speaker 3>like not done. So my perspective may change, but thus

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<v Speaker 3>far is not that bag of a gig. I've heard

0:52:07.960 --> 0:52:10.399
<v Speaker 3>some people experience as bad. Some people do the full

0:52:10.480 --> 0:52:14.719
<v Speaker 3>twenty you know, I don't know. Somebody said, we're going

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<v Speaker 3>to take any questions.

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<v Speaker 2>This was the question I was gonna ask. Somebody said,

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<v Speaker 2>what are your plans after you get out?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh dude, That's why I'm like trying to get my

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<v Speaker 3>pilot flight, my commercial and my private spiler's license. While

0:52:28.600 --> 0:52:32.000
<v Speaker 3>I'm in they give me like kind of like I

0:52:32.000 --> 0:52:35.319
<v Speaker 3>think I have to use leave time, but I had

0:52:35.320 --> 0:52:37.400
<v Speaker 3>to use like leave time and stuff to work on

0:52:37.480 --> 0:52:39.799
<v Speaker 3>that stuff. I'm gonna try to do all that and

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<v Speaker 3>get the military to say for that so I can

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<v Speaker 3>be a pilot when I get out of the military.

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<v Speaker 2>Hopefully Ryan's rewind asks are you afraid of war?

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<v Speaker 3>It's a scary thought, you know. But when they asked

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<v Speaker 3>me if I want to be like reserve or National

0:53:01.600 --> 0:53:04.920
<v Speaker 3>Guard or no, those are like the part time people.

0:53:05.000 --> 0:53:10.560
<v Speaker 3>I'm I'm active duty. Those are like I'm not gonna say,

0:53:10.560 --> 0:53:12.359
<v Speaker 3>those are bitch made people. They probably have like their

0:53:12.360 --> 0:53:14.799
<v Speaker 3>own life. They have like kids and stuff. They got

0:53:14.880 --> 0:53:17.239
<v Speaker 3>college and stuff going on. I don't have anything going on.

0:53:17.280 --> 0:53:22.719
<v Speaker 3>That's why I chose actives. But am I afraid of war? Nah?

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<v Speaker 3>But I know I'm not gonna be the same after it.

0:53:25.239 --> 0:53:28.000
<v Speaker 3>I'm not gonna lie to you. It's I would not

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<v Speaker 3>be the same after.

0:53:29.000 --> 0:53:33.000
<v Speaker 2>It's Someone said, I don't know what this means. But

0:53:33.040 --> 0:53:37.600
<v Speaker 2>someone said, what what was your ASVAB score? What does

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<v Speaker 2>that mean?

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<v Speaker 4>As that?

0:53:40.000 --> 0:53:45.239
<v Speaker 3>Oh, it was a sixty eight?

0:53:46.160 --> 0:53:49.040
<v Speaker 4>What is my GT? The as that?

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<v Speaker 3>I just like the test you take before you join

0:53:51.520 --> 0:53:54.480
<v Speaker 3>the military is like you go to a military recruiting office,

0:53:54.640 --> 0:53:56.480
<v Speaker 3>they'll have you at you take this test so you

0:53:56.520 --> 0:53:59.239
<v Speaker 3>can determine what job you are. You don't have to

0:53:59.320 --> 0:54:01.600
<v Speaker 3>study for it, especially if you're like you just got

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<v Speaker 3>out of high school, you definitely don't have to study

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<v Speaker 3>for it, or you're like in college like me. I

0:54:05.800 --> 0:54:08.239
<v Speaker 3>had just quit community college and I took the test.

0:54:08.760 --> 0:54:16.359
<v Speaker 3>It's basically like math, science, English, technical mechanics. I think

0:54:16.400 --> 0:54:19.240
<v Speaker 3>there's some other stuff. It's really easy. In my opinion,

0:54:19.280 --> 0:54:21.480
<v Speaker 3>I didn't think it was that hard. But some people

0:54:21.640 --> 0:54:24.400
<v Speaker 3>don't think it's that easy, and they have to go

0:54:24.480 --> 0:54:27.600
<v Speaker 3>to programs to help them be able to take it

0:54:27.640 --> 0:54:31.440
<v Speaker 3>and pass, and then they'll join the military. That's fun. Fact,

0:54:31.880 --> 0:54:33.920
<v Speaker 3>I was too fat to join the military, so I

0:54:33.920 --> 0:54:37.759
<v Speaker 3>had to send me to fat camp and that was horrible. Yeah,

0:54:37.800 --> 0:54:40.040
<v Speaker 3>that was that was not fun.

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<v Speaker 2>Someone asked, do you think the American Army is on

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<v Speaker 2>the right side of history.

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<v Speaker 3>Uh, that's a great question. That's a great question. It depends, man,

0:55:00.760 --> 0:55:05.239
<v Speaker 3>because like the American military and army specifically has done

0:55:05.320 --> 0:55:09.280
<v Speaker 3>some pretty heinous stuff. Like they tell us about the history,

0:55:09.360 --> 0:55:12.759
<v Speaker 3>like they encourage us to look up the history. Uh,

0:55:12.800 --> 0:55:16.799
<v Speaker 3>and they use like previous military accidents and things that

0:55:16.880 --> 0:55:20.080
<v Speaker 3>we did as like examples of what not to do,

0:55:20.520 --> 0:55:26.080
<v Speaker 3>uh with our current military. But yeah, I don't think

0:55:26.480 --> 0:55:28.920
<v Speaker 3>the military was the best back in the day. Like

0:55:30.840 --> 0:55:34.960
<v Speaker 3>the reasoning sort of military's use, even in peace times

0:55:34.960 --> 0:55:38.280
<v Speaker 3>weren't the best, especially in like when when the military

0:55:38.360 --> 0:55:41.000
<v Speaker 3>was like first made round like eighteen O god, I'm

0:55:41.000 --> 0:55:46.279
<v Speaker 3>supposed to notice eighteen shit what seventeen seventy six? Holy shit,

0:55:46.440 --> 0:55:49.480
<v Speaker 3>seventy seventy five. Oh my god, I almost forgot that

0:55:49.560 --> 0:55:52.040
<v Speaker 3>I was what kind of fucking soldier in mind?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you feel like, yeah, yeah, well, I guess it's

0:55:58.800 --> 0:56:02.680
<v Speaker 2>good that they're like, it's good that they're like, Yo,

0:56:02.800 --> 0:56:05.800
<v Speaker 2>we did all this fucked up crazy stuff in the past,

0:56:05.840 --> 0:56:08.160
<v Speaker 2>so here like learn about it so that we don't

0:56:08.160 --> 0:56:11.200
<v Speaker 2>do it again. Do you feel like, uh, do you

0:56:11.239 --> 0:56:13.719
<v Speaker 2>feel like the military is on a better track now?

0:56:15.520 --> 0:56:18.600
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I mean I think it is. Yeah, I sound

0:56:18.640 --> 0:56:21.319
<v Speaker 3>like I'm a recruiter. That's what I sound like, trying

0:56:21.320 --> 0:56:23.400
<v Speaker 3>to tell people to join. And I don't want to

0:56:23.520 --> 0:56:26.280
<v Speaker 3>sound like I'm atruder. I just I'm having a good time.

0:56:26.719 --> 0:56:29.960
<v Speaker 3>I'm traveling. I'm getting free travel, free room and board.

0:56:29.960 --> 0:56:32.120
<v Speaker 3>All I gotta do is go to work, do my job,

0:56:32.280 --> 0:56:37.160
<v Speaker 3>which sucks. Sometimes go to stupid formations, which also sucks.

0:56:37.239 --> 0:56:43.040
<v Speaker 3>Sometimes I get smoked sometimes too. Any Getting smoked means

0:56:43.080 --> 0:56:47.920
<v Speaker 3>like you get punished usually push ups one just it sucks.

0:56:48.400 --> 0:56:51.000
<v Speaker 3>But other than that, man like, I don't know. I'm

0:56:51.040 --> 0:56:54.040
<v Speaker 3>just I think it's great. I don't think everybody's gonna

0:56:54.040 --> 0:56:54.800
<v Speaker 3>have the same experience.

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<v Speaker 2>What's your name again, Sir, H Walk Walker?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Right right, Well thanks for chatting with me.

0:57:05.160 --> 0:57:05.399
<v Speaker 4>Walker.

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<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:57:06.560 --> 0:57:08.000
<v Speaker 2>people of the computer before we go?

0:57:10.520 --> 0:57:14.239
<v Speaker 3>Even though I cursed during this, you know, during this call,

0:57:16.040 --> 0:57:18.000
<v Speaker 3>I love I love God, I love to use I

0:57:18.040 --> 0:57:21.520
<v Speaker 3>love your shown. I listened to it.

0:57:21.480 --> 0:57:22.000
<v Speaker 4>All the time.

0:57:22.640 --> 0:57:25.520
<v Speaker 3>Thank you, Walker, But yeah, I want to waste your time.

0:57:26.320 --> 0:57:27.040
<v Speaker 2>Oh you're all good?

0:57:27.680 --> 0:57:27.800
<v Speaker 3>Uh?

0:57:27.960 --> 0:57:36.600
<v Speaker 2>Take care Walker, good luck you too. You know that

0:57:36.720 --> 0:57:39.360
<v Speaker 2>was that was an interesting call. I like, I truly

0:57:39.440 --> 0:57:44.760
<v Speaker 2>I really enjoy uh listening to like alternative perspectives on

0:57:45.040 --> 0:57:48.240
<v Speaker 2>things because it's like, uh, I don't know if you

0:57:48.320 --> 0:57:52.320
<v Speaker 2>guys remember that phone call that we had on the show,

0:57:52.640 --> 0:57:57.080
<v Speaker 2>like however many podcasts ago. It was where there was

0:57:57.080 --> 0:58:00.960
<v Speaker 2>a guy who was like debating whether or not to

0:58:01.040 --> 0:58:06.040
<v Speaker 2>join the military, and I was like, I've had conversations

0:58:06.040 --> 0:58:09.360
<v Speaker 2>like this on the show with people like the guy

0:58:09.360 --> 0:58:12.440
<v Speaker 2>we just talked to a bunch of times, and it's like,

0:58:12.960 --> 0:58:15.880
<v Speaker 2>not everything's gonna work for every person, because there's some

0:58:15.920 --> 0:58:18.280
<v Speaker 2>people we've talked to who have been like, oh, I

0:58:18.440 --> 0:58:21.640
<v Speaker 2>signed away six years of my life and I'm fucking terrified.

0:58:22.160 --> 0:58:24.400
<v Speaker 2>But I don't know, it just goes I think it

0:58:24.400 --> 0:58:29.360
<v Speaker 2>goes to show in general, in general, that there's a

0:58:29.560 --> 0:58:37.480
<v Speaker 2>wide range of lives available two people, and some are

0:58:37.520 --> 0:58:43.360
<v Speaker 2>gonna be a better fit for others than others. It

0:58:43.480 --> 0:58:45.760
<v Speaker 2>just it sucks that like when you're again, like I

0:58:45.880 --> 0:58:48.560
<v Speaker 2>just when when you're eighteen, it's like, well, you can

0:58:48.640 --> 0:58:50.919
<v Speaker 2>join the military and sign away six years of your life,

0:58:51.200 --> 0:58:54.320
<v Speaker 2>or you can take out a gigantic fucking loan or

0:58:55.280 --> 0:58:57.800
<v Speaker 2>you know who I liked is On a previous podcast,

0:58:57.880 --> 0:59:01.320
<v Speaker 2>we talked to this guy who fucking like he was

0:59:01.960 --> 0:59:06.760
<v Speaker 2>graduated from high school and he went and went to

0:59:06.920 --> 0:59:10.160
<v Speaker 2>Yellowstone and just started working there and he had a

0:59:10.160 --> 0:59:12.760
<v Speaker 2>pretty he's been having a pretty good time with that.

0:59:12.760 --> 0:59:16.120
<v Speaker 2>I don't know if you folks remember that guy, but

0:59:16.200 --> 0:59:18.640
<v Speaker 2>I really like that, So I don't know. I guess

0:59:18.640 --> 0:59:21.080
<v Speaker 2>I would say, if you're eighteen and you're just now

0:59:21.240 --> 0:59:25.760
<v Speaker 2>graduating and stuff, there's there's a wide there seems to

0:59:25.800 --> 0:59:30.560
<v Speaker 2>be a wide breadth of options of things to do.

0:59:30.640 --> 0:59:34.640
<v Speaker 2>You can go to fucking volunteer somewhere, take a gap year,

0:59:34.800 --> 0:59:36.760
<v Speaker 2>do something I didn't know. I didn't know. There seems

0:59:36.760 --> 0:59:39.880
<v Speaker 2>to be a wide breadth of options if maybe, if

0:59:39.920 --> 0:59:43.600
<v Speaker 2>you're gung ho on joining the military, it could work

0:59:43.600 --> 0:59:45.400
<v Speaker 2>out for you like it did for this guy. But

0:59:45.440 --> 0:59:49.160
<v Speaker 2>I don't know. I'm weary about signing away that much

0:59:49.240 --> 0:59:53.560
<v Speaker 2>time of yourself. But I don't know. I don't know anything.

0:59:53.600 --> 0:59:56.160
<v Speaker 2>I'm a crazy gecko guy. I'm glad it worked out

0:59:56.160 --> 0:59:57.040
<v Speaker 2>for Walker.

0:59:57.400 --> 0:59:58.080
<v Speaker 4>And h.

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<v Speaker 2>Tits. Hello. Hello, what's your name? My name's Jacob, Jacob,

1:00:08.440 --> 1:00:11.680
<v Speaker 2>what's going on with you? Has life How's how's everything?

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<v Speaker 4>It's all right. I'm nineteen and a little lost in life.

1:00:17.000 --> 1:00:20.280
<v Speaker 4>I guess, like a lot of your listeners, sounds.

1:00:19.960 --> 1:00:27.280
<v Speaker 2>Like, yeah, well it's funny. If I'm just gonna level

1:00:27.320 --> 1:00:32.320
<v Speaker 2>with you real quick, Jacob is it's it's been I

1:00:32.360 --> 1:00:36.000
<v Speaker 2>think over the years, it's, uh, well, I'm just whatever.

1:00:36.160 --> 1:00:38.280
<v Speaker 2>I don't think I ever set out to. I guess

1:00:38.280 --> 1:00:46.280
<v Speaker 2>start like an advice podcast because I'm almost twenty seven

1:00:46.600 --> 1:00:50.760
<v Speaker 2>and and I've been able to be lucky enough to

1:00:50.760 --> 1:00:53.440
<v Speaker 2>do a lot of stuff. And I'm also actually feeling

1:00:53.480 --> 1:00:57.760
<v Speaker 2>pretty lost in life, eight years older, older than you.

1:00:59.120 --> 1:01:02.800
<v Speaker 2>So it's it's it's, uh, it's tough. It's why are

1:01:02.800 --> 1:01:03.959
<v Speaker 2>you feeling life?

1:01:05.120 --> 1:01:10.800
<v Speaker 4>Uh? Dropped out of college, just stalking shells, not really

1:01:10.880 --> 1:01:13.760
<v Speaker 4>knowing what I want to do. I'll work overnight. It's

1:01:13.800 --> 1:01:14.520
<v Speaker 4>been tiresome.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, you don't know, do you have inklings of an

1:01:19.320 --> 1:01:20.840
<v Speaker 2>idea of anything you'd want to do?

1:01:22.360 --> 1:01:26.240
<v Speaker 4>No? I just want to like live and try to

1:01:26.400 --> 1:01:27.800
<v Speaker 4>have hobbies and ship.

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<v Speaker 2>Hobbies.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know. I just smoke weed and collect records.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if smoking weed is a hobby.

1:01:40.440 --> 1:01:42.040
<v Speaker 4>If you do as much as I do, I think

1:01:42.040 --> 1:01:42.560
<v Speaker 4>it is.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well what how often you smoking weed? I'm also

1:01:47.040 --> 1:01:48.479
<v Speaker 2>a daily weed guy.

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<v Speaker 4>I've been trying to slow down for a while, but

1:01:52.600 --> 1:01:53.760
<v Speaker 4>I felt a joint in day.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, well, so tell you want to have hobbies

1:01:57.800 --> 1:02:01.240
<v Speaker 2>and live like okay, Well, tell me more about why

1:02:01.280 --> 1:02:03.840
<v Speaker 2>you're feeling lost, like what, like, where's your What do

1:02:03.920 --> 1:02:04.600
<v Speaker 2>you long for?

1:02:05.640 --> 1:02:10.520
<v Speaker 4>I long for motivation. That's that's what's been my struggle. Motivation.

1:02:10.680 --> 1:02:12.400
<v Speaker 4>I have goals. I know what I want to do

1:02:12.560 --> 1:02:15.000
<v Speaker 4>kind of not really, but like I want to do it.

1:02:15.120 --> 1:02:15.320
<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait a minute, so you what you said? You have

1:02:18.120 --> 1:02:19.280
<v Speaker 2>your goals and you know what you want to do.

1:02:19.320 --> 1:02:22.440
<v Speaker 2>What do you want to do? Uh?

1:02:23.040 --> 1:02:23.680
<v Speaker 4>Ship? Like?

1:02:23.880 --> 1:02:24.160
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

1:02:24.480 --> 1:02:33.920
<v Speaker 4>Fuck? I want to make money and save money and

1:02:34.200 --> 1:02:38.480
<v Speaker 4>be an adult and mostly relationships in life. I want

1:02:38.480 --> 1:02:40.000
<v Speaker 4>to have good relationships and ship.

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<v Speaker 2>Those are good goals. Yeah, man, do you have do

1:02:48.560 --> 1:02:49.200
<v Speaker 2>your friends?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah? I have a good few good friends. You know,

1:02:54.680 --> 1:02:58.480
<v Speaker 4>high school ended last year. You lose a lot of

1:02:58.480 --> 1:03:01.880
<v Speaker 4>friends after that, the various social persons, so that sucked.

1:03:02.720 --> 1:03:05.880
<v Speaker 4>But I got my good ones and I think that's

1:03:05.920 --> 1:03:07.840
<v Speaker 4>what matters.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's see, you want to make money. How do you

1:03:13.040 --> 1:03:15.320
<v Speaker 2>want to make money?

1:03:15.560 --> 1:03:18.439
<v Speaker 4>I don't know. I've been stocking shelves and that kind

1:03:18.440 --> 1:03:23.240
<v Speaker 4>of makes money. I really have no plan on it.

1:03:23.640 --> 1:03:28.160
<v Speaker 4>I just kind of want to like figure out life.

1:03:28.440 --> 1:03:30.439
<v Speaker 4>I don't know. This shit's all confusing, you know.

1:03:32.120 --> 1:03:38.720
<v Speaker 2>Interesting? Have you like have you tried to like okay,

1:03:38.760 --> 1:03:43.080
<v Speaker 2>so you're like sitting here like, Okay, I know what

1:03:43.120 --> 1:03:44.520
<v Speaker 2>I want to do, I just have to do it.

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<v Speaker 2>So what would what would you what would you just

1:03:47.240 --> 1:03:49.520
<v Speaker 2>doing it look like? Even because you can't just do

1:03:49.600 --> 1:03:51.080
<v Speaker 2>a thing that you don't even know what the thing

1:03:51.120 --> 1:03:52.520
<v Speaker 2>is that you're doing. That's impossible.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, yeah, I think too, Like sitting at the end

1:04:01.120 --> 1:04:04.720
<v Speaker 4>of every day, satisfied that I actually try.

1:04:04.520 --> 1:04:09.240
<v Speaker 2>That's that's That's not a thing though, Okay, sitting at

1:04:09.240 --> 1:04:12.360
<v Speaker 2>the end, that's a feeling. I'm like you I'm talking

1:04:12.400 --> 1:04:16.400
<v Speaker 2>about Like, huh, that's not it. You didn't describe an action,

1:04:16.680 --> 1:04:20.800
<v Speaker 2>Just now describe it, Okay. What is when you say

1:04:20.840 --> 1:04:22.040
<v Speaker 2>I know what I want to do, I just have

1:04:22.080 --> 1:04:23.960
<v Speaker 2>to do it. What is doing it look like?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, for example, I used to love biking a lot,

1:04:28.400 --> 1:04:30.560
<v Speaker 4>and that's something that made me really happy. I have

1:04:30.600 --> 1:04:33.640
<v Speaker 4>a bike. I just don't get on it anymore. And

1:04:35.680 --> 1:04:39.880
<v Speaker 4>simple stuff, I think, Okay, what's stopping anymore?

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<v Speaker 2>What's stopping you from riding your bike?

1:04:44.200 --> 1:04:44.520
<v Speaker 6>Uh?

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<v Speaker 4>Myself? I just lay in bed. I don't know. I

1:04:51.480 --> 1:04:54.400
<v Speaker 4>just I don't have the motivation to really go out

1:04:54.440 --> 1:04:58.920
<v Speaker 4>and do it. I could be I don't know.

1:05:00.360 --> 1:05:02.840
<v Speaker 2>Have you ever talked to a real therapist about any

1:05:02.840 --> 1:05:03.400
<v Speaker 2>of this stuff.

1:05:04.160 --> 1:05:06.320
<v Speaker 4>It's been something that's been on my list. I just

1:05:06.640 --> 1:05:08.800
<v Speaker 4>only have online therapy that's free to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, scary.

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<v Speaker 4>I haven't touched it yet. I'm scared to touch it.

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<v Speaker 3>You have?

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<v Speaker 2>You have free online therapy? Who through what?

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<v Speaker 4>Through? Uh my mom's insurance.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh okay, so you're through your mom's insurance. You get

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<v Speaker 2>free online therapy?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah? I just I have the app. I just have

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<v Speaker 4>to press the button and then the conversation starts.

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<v Speaker 2>Ah, man, you should do that.

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<v Speaker 4>Ship I've been able to do it for like two

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<v Speaker 4>months and I haven't touched it.

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<v Speaker 2>Ah, you should do it.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, you're telling me I'll do it.

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<v Speaker 2>There we go, Okay, there we go. We got a thing,

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<v Speaker 2>perfect day done.

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<v Speaker 4>See.

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<v Speaker 2>Here's the thing, right, is like, because I guess what

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<v Speaker 2>I said, like just now when you were like I

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<v Speaker 2>want to be satisfied, and I was like, that's not

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<v Speaker 2>an action. It's like, we got to think of like

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<v Speaker 2>some actual action thing to fucking do make and that's

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<v Speaker 2>I think that's a great that's a great that's a

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<v Speaker 2>great first action to start fucking Oh my god, especially

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<v Speaker 2>if it's free.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, dude, this ship's crazy. I've been listening to you

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<v Speaker 4>since COVID.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's what's when I started doing this.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, man, the big.

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<v Speaker 2>The big. So what are you going to talk to

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<v Speaker 2>your online therapist about.

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<v Speaker 4>All the motivation? Yeah, it's just been motivation. I haven't

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<v Speaker 4>had the motivation in so long. I didn't have the

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<v Speaker 4>motivation my senior year of high school.

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<v Speaker 2>You've seen year of high school. Wasn't that far away,

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<v Speaker 2>was it?

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<v Speaker 1>No?

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<v Speaker 4>No, it's twenty twenty two to twenty twenty three.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm.

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<v Speaker 4>That's what's U.

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<v Speaker 3>M hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>What would a real therapist say, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, you're not one.

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<v Speaker 2>I know, I'm yeah, well, I I uh well, I

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<v Speaker 2>guess it's so hard because sometimes you know, like you know,

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<v Speaker 2>the Nike just do it thing. Yeah, it's so funny

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<v Speaker 2>because you can I think there's a lot of things

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<v Speaker 2>where you can kind of get into thought loops about

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<v Speaker 2>and go over and over and over about the motivation

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<v Speaker 2>and so that, and like, I think some of this

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<v Speaker 2>ship is chemical, right, and sometimes your brain chemistry is

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<v Speaker 2>just fucked. But other times I am kind of like,

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<v Speaker 2>I think there is a little bit of Nike just

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<v Speaker 2>do it in there of like you just gotta just

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<v Speaker 2>do something, but don't don't overload yourself. I mean, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know. These are like topics that people have studied

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<v Speaker 2>and written extensively about and come to some forms of conclusion,

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<v Speaker 2>and hopefully, hopefully your online therapist has good conclusions for you. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>but that's a good place to start, I mean, especially

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<v Speaker 2>especially especially if it's free and you have the opportunity

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<v Speaker 2>to do it without spending a bunch of money.

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<v Speaker 4>So just do it.

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<v Speaker 2>Just do it.

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<v Speaker 4>That's the advice I'm getting.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Sorry, it's shitty, but I think it's it's uh,

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<v Speaker 2>that's that's that's all. I that's all. I it's the

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<v Speaker 2>only conclusion I think I have in this moment.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, that probably helps. I'll press the button on.

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<v Speaker 2>My phone and good, please dear God, do that. Oh will,

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<v Speaker 2>what kind of bike do you have?

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<v Speaker 4>Ah? Fuck? I don't know. Uh, Older, that might be

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<v Speaker 4>please really me making it up. It's a cool bike. Fuck,

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<v Speaker 4>I don't even know. I got it from the bike

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<v Speaker 4>shop they sold it to me because.

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<v Speaker 2>My last sounds that sounds like a place where people

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<v Speaker 2>get bikes from.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah. Yeah, it was a vintage bike from the eighties

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<v Speaker 4>or something.

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<v Speaker 2>Really that sounds kind of cool.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah. It has two wheels and it goes.

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<v Speaker 2>Ride your ride your fucking bike. Man, that sounds fun.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, I'll ride my bike just so you know.

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<v Speaker 2>When you just so you know, when you're riding your bike,

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<v Speaker 2>where what state do you live in?

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<v Speaker 4>Texas?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay? So is it is it cold?

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<v Speaker 4>It's forty degrees right.

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<v Speaker 2>Now celsius or fahrenheit. That's the dumbest thing I've ever

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<v Speaker 2>asked anyone in my.

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<v Speaker 1>Entire last.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's cold. Yeah, yeah, all right, Well ride your bike.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm still gonna do.

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<v Speaker 2>No, go ride your bike. And I just just so

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<v Speaker 2>you know. I when you're riding your bike in the

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<v Speaker 2>coals and you're outside and you're looking at stuff and people,

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<v Speaker 2>and you're you're out and you're moving your body through space,

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<v Speaker 2>you're really living the height of human experience. I mean

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<v Speaker 2>that you're really doing the most anyone's ever done. When

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<v Speaker 2>you're doing that, it's like that's everything. There's every everything

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<v Speaker 2>is in that you're you're living. I just really understand

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<v Speaker 2>how intensely psychedelic and amazing of an experience that is.

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<v Speaker 2>The just ride your bike down the street. Really like

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<v Speaker 2>soak up all there is to soak in that when

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<v Speaker 2>you're doing it, and you'll be like, huh my life's

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<v Speaker 2>pretty crazy right now.

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<v Speaker 4>Have you riden your electric bike much? I remember you

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<v Speaker 4>talking about that.

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<v Speaker 2>I did. I there was a period. I had a

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<v Speaker 2>period of time where I was obsessed with the idea

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<v Speaker 2>of getting an electric bike and being like an electric

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<v Speaker 2>bike guy. Now, I I don't like I used to

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<v Speaker 2>ride the city bike, but I don't like every every

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<v Speaker 2>single time. It's probably different for you because you're in Texas,

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<v Speaker 2>but in New York City, every single time I try

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<v Speaker 2>to ride a bike, I almost die. I almost get

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<v Speaker 2>hit by a car. Are you in a big city

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<v Speaker 2>or are you in like a like.

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<v Speaker 4>A I'm in like a suburb next to Dallas.

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<v Speaker 2>So okay, perfect, okay, perfect, perfect, So you won't almost die?

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah I didn't. I didn't end up buying the

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<v Speaker 2>e bike because I I just like walking. Okay, walker,

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<v Speaker 2>like that guy, Walker?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, Walker, This is cool, Jacob.

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<v Speaker 2>Jacob, Jacob, is there any well before we go? Is

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<v Speaker 2>there anything else that you wanted out of this experience

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<v Speaker 2>that I could provide for you, or any other questions

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<v Speaker 2>for you before we go?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Please?

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<v Speaker 4>Do you know what a fantasia is?

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<v Speaker 2>Say that again?

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<v Speaker 4>A fantasia?

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<v Speaker 2>A santasia?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, like p h fan A fantasia?

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<v Speaker 2>Is that? That's that Disney movie?

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<v Speaker 4>No, it sounds like it's the inability to picture things

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<v Speaker 4>in your head.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh okay, I actually have Okay, I actually do kind

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<v Speaker 2>of know. Yeah, okay, I actually do know what this is.

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<v Speaker 3>I do know.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I got that. Yeah, oh you do. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 4>can't picture huh.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay. So I guess everything I say to you about

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<v Speaker 2>picturing yourself. Yeah, I guess that meant nothing to you.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Well I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>I'll go do it and I'll and I'll write it down.

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<v Speaker 2>So I remember, Okay, good, good, yeah good. I'm honestly

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<v Speaker 2>I'm picturing you doing it, and I'm like that nice.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm picturing you. I'm literally picturing you right now riding

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<v Speaker 2>your bike through a suburb of Dallas, looking breathing fresh air,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm like that sounds really nice. So it's I'm

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<v Speaker 2>doing I'll do it for you right now in this moment.

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<v Speaker 4>Wow, I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 2>people of the computer before we go.

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<v Speaker 4>Jacob, other than just do it? I guess that'd be it.

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<v Speaker 2>They have a good one.

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<v Speaker 4>Get bless you.

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<v Speaker 2>I go enjoy your bike ride. Man, I'm living vicariously

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<v Speaker 2>through you on your back. Well, I guess I don't

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<v Speaker 2>have to. I'm gonna after this, I'm gonna probably I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna walk outside of my apartments and I'm gonna walk

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<v Speaker 2>around and I'm gonna do the thing that I just

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<v Speaker 2>told you to do, because I just told you to

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<v Speaker 2>do a very hippie bullshit thing. And so I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>when I'm walking outside of my apartment today, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>be I'm gonna be like, Okay, i gotta do the

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<v Speaker 2>hippi bullshit thing that I just told that guy on

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<v Speaker 2>the phone to do, where I'm gonna be like soaking

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<v Speaker 2>up the psychedelic experience of walking outside. So I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>do this. You've inspired me today, Jacob.

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<v Speaker 4>Great sounds like a plan. We both got something to

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<v Speaker 4>do today.

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<v Speaker 2>I liked it all right, I'll talk. I'll talk to you, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>maybe never again, and maybe in the astral realm.

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<v Speaker 4>If you come back to Dallas, I'll talk to you.

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<v Speaker 4>Have a good one, Jacob, all right bye, thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm doing it. I'm taking a walk. I'm gonna walk

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<v Speaker 2>right now. This is the end of the podcast. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna I'm gonna go outside and take a walk. If

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<v Speaker 2>you're listening to this, maybe you can go outside and

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<v Speaker 2>take a walk. Uh, and we can all walk around together.

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<v Speaker 2>And then Die goes on the line taking your phone

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<v Speaker 2>calls every night.

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<v Speaker 7>Deacon goes doing his eye's teaching you a loud in

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<v Speaker 7>the memory line, but he's not an expert.