WEBVTT - Kat Izzo's Paradise Comeback! 0:00:02.080 --> 0:00:04.480 Hey, everyone, welcome back to Batcheler Happy Hour. I'm Joey 0:00:04.559 --> 0:00:07.720 nic Serena. We are here today with Kat Izzel from 0:00:08.360 --> 0:00:15.800 SAX season of Bachelor, Bachelor and Paradise season nine. Season 0:00:15.960 --> 0:00:16.439 is that right? 0:00:16.560 --> 0:00:16.759 Yeah? 0:00:16.800 --> 0:00:21.680 I think season nine and you just got released, well, 0:00:21.720 --> 0:00:23.600 the cast got released and you're part of the cast 0:00:23.640 --> 0:00:27.040 of the new up and coming season of Bachelor in Paradise. 0:00:27.120 --> 0:00:27.880 Yeah, season ten. 0:00:28.320 --> 0:00:30.840 Back to back seasons, eh, because I guess they took 0:00:30.840 --> 0:00:32.600 the year off. I didn't even think about that. You 0:00:33.200 --> 0:00:35.680 are technically going to be on back to back seasons. 0:00:35.800 --> 0:00:38.559 Technically on back to back season So it's happy to 0:00:38.600 --> 0:00:39.760 be here. Thanks for having me. 0:00:39.840 --> 0:00:45.680 Guys, why why did you Why did you do it? Why? Why? 0:00:45.800 --> 0:00:47.440 Why did you do this to yourself? Cat? 0:00:48.320 --> 0:00:50.640 You know, I just really needed to have some emotional 0:00:50.720 --> 0:00:52.040 aggression on TV again. 0:00:52.360 --> 0:00:56.639 It just sounded, you know, a feeling solusions powerful. 0:00:56.920 --> 0:01:00.760 But no, I really when asked me to do it, 0:01:00.800 --> 0:01:04.600 I was obviously hesitant because it's not been the best experiences, 0:01:05.319 --> 0:01:09.280 you know, first couple of rounds, but I've grown a 0:01:09.319 --> 0:01:12.200 lot over the last two years. It sounded like it 0:01:12.280 --> 0:01:15.000 was going to be a very different experience than previous 0:01:15.040 --> 0:01:18.160 ones and I think when I thought about it, if 0:01:18.200 --> 0:01:22.080 I were to have said no, you know, and just 0:01:22.160 --> 0:01:24.120 you can't say no to things, you know, you have 0:01:24.120 --> 0:01:25.800 to at least try it out and see what happens 0:01:25.840 --> 0:01:29.160 and see what comes out of it. And I was 0:01:29.200 --> 0:01:32.559 going in with a very different mentality than I think prior, 0:01:32.680 --> 0:01:34.440 so just want to see what was going to come 0:01:34.440 --> 0:01:34.720 from it. 0:01:35.520 --> 0:01:37.880 Okay, let's do a little bit of a ketchup, because 0:01:37.920 --> 0:01:41.960 I do remember like you for the most part, from 0:01:41.959 --> 0:01:45.600 what I remember, you kind of carried this season the 0:01:45.680 --> 0:01:48.600 last paradise you were bringing. You were bringing the entertainment 0:01:48.680 --> 0:01:49.080 for sure. 0:01:49.640 --> 0:01:51.320 Yeah, definitely the case. 0:01:51.400 --> 0:01:56.040 Yeah, at the end of that paradise you get engaged 0:01:56.760 --> 0:01:59.440 to John Henry, which is a which was kind of 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:02.640 out of left like it seemed like you guys you 0:02:02.680 --> 0:02:05.600 got together near the end, you got engaged. After the show, 0:02:06.560 --> 0:02:09.800 you call the engagement off. What have you been doing 0:02:10.040 --> 0:02:12.200 since then? Have you been dating? I think you were 0:02:12.240 --> 0:02:15.000 in a relationship prior to this, correct. 0:02:15.560 --> 0:02:18.840 Yeah, So me and John Henry broke up pretty close 0:02:18.880 --> 0:02:22.520 to when it was done airing, So that was I 0:02:22.560 --> 0:02:26.000 want to say, like around December, end of November of 0:02:26.040 --> 0:02:30.400 twenty twenty three. So I always had plans to move 0:02:30.480 --> 0:02:34.000 to San Diego once I finished my M Keyboards. That's 0:02:34.000 --> 0:02:35.919 what I was kind of studying for during airing. 0:02:36.440 --> 0:02:37.120 So we broke up. 0:02:37.160 --> 0:02:39.480 I passed my m keyboards and I moved to California 0:02:39.520 --> 0:02:43.080 two days later, and then kind of just like got 0:02:43.160 --> 0:02:46.040 settled in San Diego, took a really long break when 0:02:46.080 --> 0:02:47.920 it came to keeping up with the show. I just 0:02:48.000 --> 0:02:50.840 kind of wanted to focus on myself and like start 0:02:50.880 --> 0:02:53.799 my career out here and meet new friends. I did 0:02:53.840 --> 0:02:57.000 stickt into relationship around six months after that, and then 0:02:57.080 --> 0:02:59.800 that also ended six months after that, so literally like 0:03:00.240 --> 0:03:02.840 to back year my I had a relationship end on 0:03:03.000 --> 0:03:06.160 like the same week, so wild you don't like the 0:03:06.200 --> 0:03:10.960 holidays because literally was when that they both happened. But 0:03:11.560 --> 0:03:15.520 it's been really amazing, like moving to California, the people 0:03:15.600 --> 0:03:16.440 here are incredible. 0:03:16.560 --> 0:03:17.520 I love my job. 0:03:17.720 --> 0:03:19.679 I've been working as an inspectation now for about a 0:03:19.760 --> 0:03:24.279 year and a half, working in my dream field of aesthetics, 0:03:24.320 --> 0:03:29.040 and kind of just been like living my best life, 0:03:29.160 --> 0:03:31.720 if you can say. It's definitely come with some ups 0:03:31.720 --> 0:03:35.120 and downs, but overall, it's been a pretty good year 0:03:35.160 --> 0:03:36.440 and a half since I've been here. 0:03:37.200 --> 0:03:39.600 Yeah, because I remember you were studying for your MP 0:03:39.800 --> 0:03:43.800 boards when you came on last time, which was kind 0:03:43.800 --> 0:03:47.560 of right before Paradise ended. I think, did you write 0:03:47.560 --> 0:03:49.440 those before or after the breakup? 0:03:50.560 --> 0:03:52.200 Did I take them? 0:03:52.520 --> 0:03:52.840 Yeah? 0:03:53.520 --> 0:03:54.560 I took it. 0:03:55.320 --> 0:03:57.840 I had to push back the testing date because my 0:03:57.880 --> 0:04:00.680 mental health was so compromised, so I ended up taking 0:04:00.720 --> 0:04:03.280 it in Florida, like right after the breakup. 0:04:04.280 --> 0:04:07.360 Okay, and a big pocket of life for you. Emotionally, 0:04:07.800 --> 0:04:10.320 oh everything, mentally, yeah, everything. 0:04:10.480 --> 0:04:12.600 It was a lot, but it was kind of like 0:04:12.640 --> 0:04:14.600 a way to be like, you're not gonna like nothing 0:04:14.680 --> 0:04:16.159 is going to bring me down, Like I'm still gonna 0:04:16.240 --> 0:04:19.039 keep doing what I was put on a serte to do. 0:04:19.279 --> 0:04:20.960 So yeah, it's been great. 0:04:21.720 --> 0:04:25.200 Can you all feel free to say no if you 0:04:25.240 --> 0:04:27.039 don't want to talk about any of these things. But 0:04:27.160 --> 0:04:29.680 why did you and John Henry break up? 0:04:31.120 --> 0:04:35.040 You know, nothing like serious that happened. 0:04:35.320 --> 0:04:39.279 I think through the airing of the show, we started 0:04:39.320 --> 0:04:44.320 to learn more about how we each I think, handle 0:04:44.400 --> 0:04:50.600 conflict and adversity, and we just were not gonna I mean, 0:04:50.640 --> 0:04:53.640 it wasn't my choice, and but it ultimately ended up 0:04:53.680 --> 0:04:57.360 being something probably for the best. It was under the 0:04:57.520 --> 0:05:01.520 umbrella of incompatibility, but we didn't really have like any 0:05:01.839 --> 0:05:04.039 major like fights or anything like that. I just think 0:05:04.040 --> 0:05:06.840 it just got too much and he wanted to go 0:05:06.880 --> 0:05:09.680 into a different career path than originally we both thought 0:05:09.720 --> 0:05:12.840 he would want to do, which ultimately led him to Hawaii. 0:05:14.440 --> 0:05:17.359 And it just happened at a really hard time emotionally 0:05:17.440 --> 0:05:19.920 with everything else that was going on. But overall, it 0:05:20.240 --> 0:05:23.039 just we're not We're two good people, but we're definitely 0:05:23.040 --> 0:05:26.720 not each other's people. And I think moments like how 0:05:26.760 --> 0:05:29.200 the show aired and how everything went down with a 0:05:29.320 --> 0:05:33.000 relationship really shows us what you can handle and if 0:05:33.000 --> 0:05:34.559 you're going to be compactful in long term. 0:05:35.480 --> 0:05:39.080 When you guys got engaged, didn't you was there was 0:05:39.120 --> 0:05:43.039 there a part of you that was like, Oh, I 0:05:43.080 --> 0:05:47.000 don't know, I don't know no, so you you believe no? 0:05:47.200 --> 0:05:47.400 Yeah? 0:05:47.400 --> 0:05:50.760 I believed all. I will believe everything. No. I literally 0:05:50.839 --> 0:05:51.760 was like, this is my person. 0:05:51.880 --> 0:05:55.480 Now looking back, I'm like, I don't think so, but 0:05:55.600 --> 0:05:57.839 I would just like a very different person. Like I 0:05:57.880 --> 0:06:00.320 think that I just was such like a like I 0:06:00.400 --> 0:06:03.320 wanted a relationship so badly. I saw that for myself, 0:06:03.360 --> 0:06:05.360 and like I was willing to believe anything even though 0:06:05.360 --> 0:06:07.000 there was signs in front of me that was saying, 0:06:07.040 --> 0:06:09.240 this is not going to make sense. And I think 0:06:09.240 --> 0:06:11.919 it took something as extreme as that for me to 0:06:12.000 --> 0:06:14.480 like really sit back and evaluate like how I see 0:06:14.480 --> 0:06:16.560 people and see the world. And now I tried a 0:06:16.600 --> 0:06:20.279 little bit lighter. But yeah, no, I fully believed that 0:06:20.360 --> 0:06:21.000 we were like. 0:06:23.160 --> 0:06:25.960 Yeah, I'm going to marry this man, this is my husband. 0:06:27.279 --> 0:06:28.560 Wow, Okay, that's good. 0:06:28.640 --> 0:06:31.880 Watching him watching it back and seeing what he was saying. 0:06:31.920 --> 0:06:33.800 I didn't know he said any of that. He didn't 0:06:33.800 --> 0:06:34.760 tell me that, So I. 0:06:34.720 --> 0:06:36.520 Was like, you just broke up with me and you 0:06:36.520 --> 0:06:38.159 already had doubts, like I should have known. 0:06:39.560 --> 0:06:43.120 Yeah, well it was wild. That's good information for the 0:06:43.200 --> 0:06:50.160 upcoming season of Paradise. Your your past relationship, the one 0:06:50.160 --> 0:06:53.080 that was six months and end it? Can you tell 0:06:53.160 --> 0:06:53.920 us why that ended? 0:06:54.680 --> 0:06:54.720 Like? 0:06:54.720 --> 0:06:55.440 How do you know it? 0:06:55.440 --> 0:06:57.839 Even we just met through mutual friends. 0:06:58.480 --> 0:07:00.359 It was one of those relationships that I think is 0:07:00.360 --> 0:07:03.440 going to probably help me learn the most about myself 0:07:03.440 --> 0:07:06.160 that I've ever experienced. I have nothing negative to say 0:07:06.200 --> 0:07:09.120 about it. It was it had its ups and downs. 0:07:09.360 --> 0:07:11.840 It just you know, again, I don't think that we 0:07:11.840 --> 0:07:14.560 were in the place of each other's lives where it 0:07:14.640 --> 0:07:17.360 was going to be sustainable, but it was not the 0:07:17.360 --> 0:07:21.480 healthiest I think you could agree. I think we just 0:07:21.480 --> 0:07:24.600 triggered a lot of each other's wounds. But in that 0:07:25.000 --> 0:07:27.800 you learn about yourself in your twenties, that's what it's about. 0:07:28.400 --> 0:07:30.440 So I used that to really be like a catalyst 0:07:30.480 --> 0:07:32.960 and to some deep therapies. That was really helpful. 0:07:33.320 --> 0:07:36.160 You seem to have done a lot of work on yourself. 0:07:36.200 --> 0:07:39.520 I know you've referenced therapy a few times. What specifically 0:07:39.640 --> 0:07:41.760 is that work, Like, what have you been focusing on 0:07:42.640 --> 0:07:46.720 and what do you hope to do differently going into 0:07:47.000 --> 0:07:47.800 paradise this time. 0:07:48.760 --> 0:07:52.480 I think just being curious and like truly like doing 0:07:52.480 --> 0:07:56.400 an internal assessment of your triggers, who you are, and 0:07:56.480 --> 0:07:58.640 like things are going to come up that you're not 0:07:58.680 --> 0:08:00.960 gonna like, but not using that to like not to 0:08:01.040 --> 0:08:04.520 cheer you from people, learning more and just showing up 0:08:04.560 --> 0:08:06.480 in the world with a little bit more awareness and 0:08:06.560 --> 0:08:11.880 like compassion and self love. I really did like deep 0:08:11.960 --> 0:08:14.640 therapy with MDR recently in last six months, and that's 0:08:14.680 --> 0:08:17.920 been the most beneficial. It's you know, supposed to help 0:08:17.960 --> 0:08:20.560 with all my things, and it really has helped a lot, 0:08:20.600 --> 0:08:23.280 But I think just learning how to like ground myself 0:08:23.560 --> 0:08:27.920 in moments of high stress, being less reactive, because ultimately 0:08:27.960 --> 0:08:30.720 that's I think was just my default state and learning 0:08:30.760 --> 0:08:32.880 to like take that pause, and that's I. 0:08:32.840 --> 0:08:36.600 Think what really helped in talking through and understanding yourself. 0:08:38.320 --> 0:08:40.880 Are you do you have any who do you hang 0:08:40.920 --> 0:08:44.120 out with and you're in San Diego? Do you have 0:08:44.160 --> 0:08:46.440 any like bachelor friends or anything like that. 0:08:46.840 --> 0:08:50.760 I'm still friends with Kylie see here pretty often. Some 0:08:50.800 --> 0:08:53.959 of the other girls we grew apart, but still like 0:08:54.040 --> 0:08:56.000 see each other and like do different things. It's just 0:08:56.000 --> 0:08:59.600 San Diego's like such a community based area. Everybody like 0:08:59.679 --> 0:09:02.480 becomes friends so easily, and people here are really welcoming. 0:09:02.480 --> 0:09:05.400 So I've I have such amazing friends here. 0:09:05.440 --> 0:09:08.400 I actually like met Jess Edwards like a month before 0:09:09.000 --> 0:09:11.360 we went on Paradise together, and we're like kind of 0:09:11.360 --> 0:09:14.200 have the same beautiful friends, and so she's been one 0:09:14.240 --> 0:09:16.319 of my good friends and good friends throughout. So it's 0:09:16.360 --> 0:09:19.360 been it's pretty much like everybody that's like in the 0:09:19.400 --> 0:09:22.960 wellness like space, I would say, kind of all hang 0:09:23.000 --> 0:09:23.960 out and they're same. 0:09:24.040 --> 0:09:26.760 Love San Diego. Do you think you'll stay there for now? 0:09:26.920 --> 0:09:27.600 Yeah? For sure. 0:09:27.720 --> 0:09:30.400 It's a really good I would say place for where 0:09:30.440 --> 0:09:32.320 I was at when it came to career. And then 0:09:32.800 --> 0:09:36.720 I just love the community aspect of it. Everyone's very welcoming. 0:09:36.760 --> 0:09:40.200 I mean it's still California, so they're still like fake energy, 0:09:40.320 --> 0:09:41.680 but the real ones stick together. 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:57.720 So nice friend. Okay, so you are how your relationship ends? Yeah, 0:09:57.760 --> 0:10:01.199 and you get a phone call for paradise. What's the 0:10:01.240 --> 0:10:06.440 timeline from the relationship ending to the phone call of hey, 0:10:06.640 --> 0:10:08.720 would you be interested in coming on Paradise? 0:10:09.640 --> 0:10:12.120 I don't remember when they called me. It was this year. 0:10:14.800 --> 0:10:16.560 I mean at first I was like, I'm not going 0:10:16.600 --> 0:10:19.720 on Paradise. Me and my most relationship we broke up 0:10:19.760 --> 0:10:24.480 around November, kind of lived in limbo until maybe. 0:10:24.120 --> 0:10:29.880 Like January, February, I can't remember. Sometime it was. 0:10:30.000 --> 0:10:33.200 It's all a blur, but they called me, I want 0:10:33.240 --> 0:10:35.880 to say, like around March or April, I can't remember, 0:10:35.960 --> 0:10:39.160 somewhere around like springtime. But I was like I needed 0:10:39.200 --> 0:10:41.840 a lot of convincing, like I didn't. I was not 0:10:41.960 --> 0:10:43.760 just like yeah, I'll do it, Like I needed them 0:10:43.800 --> 0:10:46.360 to like really make me feel comfortable about putting myself 0:10:46.360 --> 0:10:51.560 back in that environment. And it was definitely something that 0:10:51.640 --> 0:10:55.320 I decided to do very last than it because I 0:10:55.360 --> 0:10:57.320 was still every time I say yes, I'd be like, no, 0:10:57.400 --> 0:10:58.840 I can't do that again, like I'm scared. 0:11:00.280 --> 0:11:02.320 Was it? What was the deal breaker? 0:11:02.920 --> 0:11:05.280 I think I really was just like if I say 0:11:05.320 --> 0:11:05.640 no and. 0:11:07.520 --> 0:11:10.360 Regret it, like it's not something I want to like regret, 0:11:10.640 --> 0:11:12.320 Like what if there was someone there actually that I 0:11:12.320 --> 0:11:15.640 could meet or an experience that could be helpful for 0:11:15.720 --> 0:11:18.280 me to understand myself again, you know, It's just it's 0:11:18.280 --> 0:11:19.600 not something you really say no too. 0:11:19.600 --> 0:11:21.960 But it was mostly convincing me. With the air conditioning. 0:11:22.000 --> 0:11:23.640 I was like, you have to promise that there is 0:11:23.679 --> 0:11:27.320 air conditioning otherwise I'm not going like I'm not doing it, 0:11:27.679 --> 0:11:30.600 and they every time I asked was always started the 0:11:30.600 --> 0:11:36.120 conversation and not up for it, you know, like you know, 0:11:36.280 --> 0:11:37.959 I didn't know it was true or not. But I 0:11:38.000 --> 0:11:41.439 also said I have the ability to literally like it's 0:11:41.520 --> 0:11:43.600 not what I want, I'm I could just leap, like 0:11:43.640 --> 0:11:46.520 I don't have to stay. And I was going in 0:11:46.640 --> 0:11:49.280 knowing literally no one, knowing nothing about the shows I 0:11:49.320 --> 0:11:52.080 haven't been watching, so like it was just a completely 0:11:52.120 --> 0:11:55.640 different mindset versus like knowing every single thing about every 0:11:55.640 --> 0:11:58.400 guy on Paradise last time and being friends with the girls, 0:11:59.040 --> 0:12:00.480 so I wanted to kind of just like see how 0:12:00.480 --> 0:12:01.280 that was going to play out. 0:12:02.080 --> 0:12:04.560 What did your friends and family say when you were like, 0:12:04.600 --> 0:12:06.400 I think I'm going to go back on Paradise this year. 0:12:07.400 --> 0:12:10.440 Some of them were like, absolutely not, please don't because 0:12:10.480 --> 0:12:13.720 we can't handle it again. But some were like, you 0:12:13.720 --> 0:12:15.679 should just go for it, and you have a lot 0:12:15.720 --> 0:12:18.480 more like you're different person and I think you'd handle 0:12:18.480 --> 0:12:21.240 it differently and why would you say no to something 0:12:21.320 --> 0:12:25.400 like that? But yeah, I immediately texted my little group 0:12:25.440 --> 0:12:27.800 chat and it was like help SOS. 0:12:27.840 --> 0:12:28.280 I don't know. 0:12:30.000 --> 0:12:32.960 What was your base fear going back on my. 0:12:33.000 --> 0:12:37.160 Biggest fear so many Well, I just learned that people 0:12:37.480 --> 0:12:41.560 are very different outside of the show, and I think 0:12:41.720 --> 0:12:43.360 I was mostly just like scared I was going to 0:12:43.400 --> 0:12:45.040 get wrapped up in it again and then ended up 0:12:45.120 --> 0:12:49.559 leaving getting hurt when I came off it. 0:12:49.800 --> 0:12:51.520 You know, I knew there was bugs, so I can't 0:12:51.520 --> 0:12:52.120 be afraid of that. 0:12:53.160 --> 0:12:56.199 But it was mostly just like the trusting someone again 0:12:56.360 --> 0:13:00.440 and it be to my detriment and make sure that 0:13:00.480 --> 0:13:03.280 I don't get wrapped up in it. All the things 0:13:03.320 --> 0:13:05.040 and just making sure I can like stay grounded. 0:13:06.000 --> 0:13:07.920 It's definitely one of those things where once you're like, 0:13:09.320 --> 0:13:13.200 once you're in this world and you are single, it 0:13:13.240 --> 0:13:17.040 really is like it's kind it's hard to say no 0:13:17.280 --> 0:13:20.960 because it's just like yeah, it's it's just easier to 0:13:21.000 --> 0:13:25.600 say yes, you know, yes I will. Just it's one 0:13:25.600 --> 0:13:27.520 of those things where it's like, you don't I agree 0:13:27.520 --> 0:13:30.360 with you, And that's probably why I've always said yes 0:13:30.520 --> 0:13:33.200 as well. It's just like I don't want to live 0:13:33.240 --> 0:13:33.840 with the regrets. 0:13:33.920 --> 0:13:36.480 You're probably I'm more likely going to regret not doing 0:13:36.520 --> 0:13:38.840 this doing it when it comes down to it. 0:13:39.679 --> 0:13:41.959 Yeah, it's just I think I was so scared that, 0:13:42.240 --> 0:13:46.800 you know, if you're putting yourself out there to be analyzed, criticized, 0:13:47.640 --> 0:13:51.680 puts apart just like overall judged, Like that was really 0:13:51.679 --> 0:13:53.800 really hard on my mental health, and it was hard 0:13:53.880 --> 0:13:57.480 to feel my character being misunderstood. So I think I 0:13:57.559 --> 0:14:00.360 just like didn't know if I was willing to, like, 0:14:00.400 --> 0:14:02.120 I'm very happy with where I'm at in life, and 0:14:02.160 --> 0:14:03.720 I didn't know if I wanted to kind of like 0:14:05.080 --> 0:14:09.640 you know, uproot, you know, put that under a microscope again. 0:14:09.800 --> 0:14:11.240 And the subject to. 0:14:12.960 --> 0:14:17.480 Keep judgement. Yeah, do you have a plan going into 0:14:17.520 --> 0:14:23.600 this season of how you'll handle being judged negatively by people? 0:14:24.280 --> 0:14:26.280 Because I agree with me, it's not easy. 0:14:26.600 --> 0:14:29.200 It's not I think also I understand it more like 0:14:29.240 --> 0:14:33.240 the first time around, I didn't understand the way that 0:14:33.400 --> 0:14:36.400 public response is or how people like like. It's just 0:14:36.440 --> 0:14:38.960 like I didn't know that this was something that people 0:14:39.000 --> 0:14:43.080 face to this extent and not taking it so personally, 0:14:43.240 --> 0:14:46.560 keeping your people close and knowing that that's what matters. 0:14:46.960 --> 0:14:49.880 I have a really good support team and system in place, 0:14:50.480 --> 0:14:52.760 so and I just. 0:14:52.720 --> 0:14:54.160 Don't care like I don't. 0:14:54.280 --> 0:14:55.960 I don't feel the desire to look at it or 0:14:56.000 --> 0:14:57.920 see it and use that to determine my work the 0:14:57.960 --> 0:14:59.680 way I think I did before because I was just 0:14:59.720 --> 0:15:00.960 so like, what's happening? 0:15:01.600 --> 0:15:03.280 Yeah? And it goes away? 0:15:03.480 --> 0:15:06.560 I mean it does now I know that it is temporary. 0:15:06.680 --> 0:15:08.440 Like at the time, you feel like it's never going 0:15:08.520 --> 0:15:09.720 to end, and this time you're going to deal with 0:15:09.760 --> 0:15:12.320 the rest of your life. But now that I know 0:15:12.400 --> 0:15:15.520 that it comes in waves, you can handle a wave 0:15:15.720 --> 0:15:17.160 I can handle anyways. 0:15:18.360 --> 0:15:23.400 You're the first. You're the first contestant. You're the first 0:15:23.400 --> 0:15:29.600 contestant that we are interviewing that's been on Paradise before. Okay, 0:15:29.640 --> 0:15:34.920 living living conditions, what's like much better because I've heard 0:15:35.240 --> 0:15:36.240 we're hearing much better. 0:15:37.040 --> 0:15:42.920 Oh my god, Like its incredible, like really different. Yeah, 0:15:42.920 --> 0:15:44.560 I'm not sure how much I could share, but it 0:15:44.640 --> 0:15:49.440 was it is nothing like previous paradise absolutely not like 0:15:50.160 --> 0:15:53.040 it's It really just shows like how much your mental 0:15:53.040 --> 0:15:55.120 health can be, like so much better when you can 0:15:55.200 --> 0:15:57.000 do your hair and your makeup. 0:15:57.200 --> 0:15:59.840 Not in humanity. It really brings. 0:15:59.640 --> 0:16:01.880 The different it's like or just to be able to 0:16:01.920 --> 0:16:04.040 have somewhere to escape to to like take a breath 0:16:04.440 --> 0:16:06.120 and like pull down. 0:16:06.840 --> 0:16:08.360 It was so much better. 0:16:08.760 --> 0:16:11.640 You had just a bed to sleep in that you 0:16:11.640 --> 0:16:13.200 didn't have to step outside your bed and there was 0:16:13.280 --> 0:16:15.240 sand on the ground. Or you shower and you feel clean, 0:16:15.480 --> 0:16:17.640 like truly it was like little things like that, like 0:16:17.720 --> 0:16:20.800 you actually can like feel clean and refreshed, and then 0:16:20.880 --> 0:16:23.080 you just feel more like you're better self. Like I 0:16:23.120 --> 0:16:26.240 didn't shower without I showered like three times a day 0:16:26.360 --> 0:16:28.040 just to cool off, and then you would step outside 0:16:28.080 --> 0:16:29.960 the shower and their sand like on the floor. 0:16:30.080 --> 0:16:32.600 Yeah you know, yeah, yeah, we just saw I just 0:16:32.600 --> 0:16:35.000 saw a clip. We just saw a clip of each other, 0:16:35.600 --> 0:16:38.080 and I was like, my face is so fucking oily. 0:16:38.160 --> 0:16:40.880 It looks like I haven't seen a shower. Like I 0:16:40.920 --> 0:16:43.720 got engaged. I got engaged. I wasn't even matching, like 0:16:43.880 --> 0:16:47.400 nothing matched. Like I was like I we the mirrors. 0:16:47.440 --> 0:16:50.120 You couldn't even really see yourself because they were always folded. 0:16:50.680 --> 0:16:51.680 There was no mirrors. 0:16:51.720 --> 0:16:54.080 I used like the small compact like thing in my 0:16:54.200 --> 0:16:57.600 like eye shadow palate, like just see and like just 0:16:57.640 --> 0:16:59.680 sitting there trying not to like I didn't do my 0:16:59.720 --> 0:17:02.360 hair previous paradise, I couldn't do my makeup like it was. 0:17:06.119 --> 0:17:07.439 Yeah, you just love life like that. 0:17:07.480 --> 0:17:09.639 I'm like, I need to actually take it second to 0:17:09.640 --> 0:17:11.400 take care of myself this time because last time people 0:17:11.400 --> 0:17:13.000 saw me, I was like a frat. 0:17:14.160 --> 0:17:17.119 Well, you also would just feel sexier to to like 0:17:17.240 --> 0:17:19.399 go out and flirt with boys when you're like I 0:17:19.680 --> 0:17:21.720 feel cute. 0:17:22.200 --> 0:17:26.160 Yeah, yes, you could self tan and not start sweating 0:17:26.160 --> 0:17:27.919 off like I was like actually able to do my 0:17:27.960 --> 0:17:29.600 self tan routine like it was amazing. 0:17:29.720 --> 0:17:30.760 It was so much better. 0:17:30.960 --> 0:17:34.560 It was like during the wedding episode of Marine kind 0:17:34.560 --> 0:17:36.879 of getting married, like I had self tanner sitting like 0:17:36.880 --> 0:17:39.960 on me like fresh because I'm like, I'm pale right 0:17:39.960 --> 0:17:41.560 now and I can't do anything about it. 0:17:41.600 --> 0:17:44.920 And it was almost in the sun, Like I don't 0:17:45.000 --> 0:17:47.800 really get that tan on Paradise because I don't. 0:17:48.080 --> 0:17:51.600 Yeah, no, I don't sun, but I wouldn't be able 0:17:51.640 --> 0:17:53.840 to because it's just too hot. But also the weather 0:17:53.880 --> 0:17:56.320 in Coastrica was different, like I think because it rained 0:17:56.359 --> 0:17:57.880 more that there was so much more of a cool 0:17:57.880 --> 0:18:00.639 breeze than like ours, and we high no rain, so 0:18:00.680 --> 0:18:04.000 it was like just constantly like fought and humid the 0:18:04.160 --> 0:18:04.880 entire time, like. 0:18:04.880 --> 0:18:07.160 There was no breeze. 0:18:07.200 --> 0:18:09.840 So there's like you're consistent breeze and I kind of 0:18:09.880 --> 0:18:13.320 love doing it rains because then we could go inside and. 0:18:13.240 --> 0:18:14.920 You're an inside girl, you really are. 0:18:15.400 --> 0:18:18.160 I'm an outside girl in the right positions, Like I'm 0:18:18.160 --> 0:18:20.159 outside all the time in San Diego because it's like 0:18:20.200 --> 0:18:21.159 six or seven right now. 0:18:21.440 --> 0:18:24.879 Nice but it's. 0:18:24.760 --> 0:18:28.560 So yeah, the summer here is unreal, but yeah, no 0:18:28.600 --> 0:18:29.840 anywhere else, Yeah, I'm inside. 0:18:30.080 --> 0:18:31.439 I prefer the indoors no more. 0:18:31.480 --> 0:18:35.960 Evy, we see that the cast is obviously dropped. We know, 0:18:36.320 --> 0:18:37.680 you know, we don't know who's coming, but we know 0:18:37.720 --> 0:18:40.159 who's down there. Day one was there anyone that you 0:18:40.200 --> 0:18:42.560 were nervous or excited to see. 0:18:43.160 --> 0:18:45.359 I didn't know anybody like going, and I didn't know 0:18:45.359 --> 0:18:48.160 who was going. I didn't know who could potentially be there, 0:18:48.840 --> 0:18:51.119 So I guess I was just nervous because like, I 0:18:51.119 --> 0:18:54.400 didn't know what to expect, but there wasn't I really 0:18:54.400 --> 0:18:56.520 didn't know anyone that was going to be there, or 0:18:56.800 --> 0:18:58.119 one they would be there anything. 0:18:58.680 --> 0:19:00.560 But when you saw them, did you know who they? 0:19:00.680 --> 0:19:00.760 Like? 0:19:00.840 --> 0:19:03.080 Some of them were like that first day, like did 0:19:03.080 --> 0:19:03.359 you I. 0:19:03.359 --> 0:19:05.959 Knew who Jonathan Wise because I've seen him in San Diego, 0:19:06.080 --> 0:19:08.960 didn't know Jeremy, didn't know Spencer, Like I had no 0:19:08.960 --> 0:19:09.800 idea whose people were. 0:19:10.440 --> 0:19:12.680 How about the Goldens? Did you Did you have any 0:19:12.880 --> 0:19:14.359 clue who any of them would be? 0:19:14.720 --> 0:19:18.040 So weirdly enough, the weekend before was Stagecoach. I like, 0:19:18.080 --> 0:19:21.000 finished Stage Coach and gone on a plane. I met 0:19:21.080 --> 0:19:25.840 Keith in the middle of Tea Payne like front row pain. 0:19:25.920 --> 0:19:28.920 That was like wait what and then he's like, I'm 0:19:28.920 --> 0:19:31.199 going too, and I was like, wait, this is so funny. 0:19:31.280 --> 0:19:33.679