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Speaker 1: Hey, everyone, welcome back to Batcheler Happy Hour. I'm Joey

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Speaker 1: nic Serena. We are here today with Kat Izzel from

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Speaker 1: SAX season of Bachelor, Bachelor and Paradise season nine. Season

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Speaker 1: is that right?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: I think season nine and you just got released, well,

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Speaker 1: the cast got released and you're part of the cast

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Speaker 1: of the new up and coming season of Bachelor in Paradise.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, season ten.

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Speaker 2: Back to back seasons, eh, because I guess they took

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Speaker 2: the year off. I didn't even think about that. You

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Speaker 2: are technically going to be on back to back seasons.

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Speaker 4: Technically on back to back season So it's happy to

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Speaker 4: be here. Thanks for having me.

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Speaker 1: Guys, why why did you Why did you do it? Why? Why?

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Speaker 1: Why did you do this to yourself? Cat?

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Speaker 4: You know, I just really needed to have some emotional

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Speaker 4: aggression on TV again.

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Speaker 3: It just sounded, you know, a feeling solusions powerful.

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Speaker 4: But no, I really when asked me to do it,

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Speaker 4: I was obviously hesitant because it's not been the best experiences,

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Speaker 4: you know, first couple of rounds, but I've grown a

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Speaker 4: lot over the last two years. It sounded like it

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Speaker 4: was going to be a very different experience than previous

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Speaker 4: ones and I think when I thought about it, if

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Speaker 4: I were to have said no, you know, and just

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Speaker 4: you can't say no to things, you know, you have

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Speaker 4: to at least try it out and see what happens

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Speaker 4: and see what comes out of it. And I was

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Speaker 4: going in with a very different mentality than I think prior,

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Speaker 4: so just want to see what was going to come

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Speaker 4: from it.

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Speaker 1: Okay, let's do a little bit of a ketchup, because

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Speaker 1: I do remember like you for the most part, from

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Speaker 1: what I remember, you kind of carried this season the

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Speaker 1: last paradise you were bringing. You were bringing the entertainment

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Speaker 1: for sure.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, definitely the case.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, at the end of that paradise you get engaged

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Speaker 1: to John Henry, which is a which was kind of

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Speaker 1: out of left like it seemed like you guys you

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Speaker 1: got together near the end, you got engaged. After the show,

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Speaker 1: you call the engagement off. What have you been doing

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Speaker 1: since then? Have you been dating? I think you were

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Speaker 1: in a relationship prior to this, correct.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, So me and John Henry broke up pretty close

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Speaker 4: to when it was done airing, So that was I

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Speaker 4: want to say, like around December, end of November of

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Speaker 4: twenty twenty three. So I always had plans to move

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Speaker 4: to San Diego once I finished my M Keyboards. That's

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Speaker 4: what I was kind of studying for during airing.

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Speaker 3: So we broke up.

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Speaker 4: I passed my m keyboards and I moved to California

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Speaker 4: two days later, and then kind of just like got

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Speaker 4: settled in San Diego, took a really long break when

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Speaker 4: it came to keeping up with the show. I just

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Speaker 4: kind of wanted to focus on myself and like start

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Speaker 4: my career out here and meet new friends. I did

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Speaker 4: stickt into relationship around six months after that, and then

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Speaker 4: that also ended six months after that, so literally like

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Speaker 4: to back year my I had a relationship end on

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Speaker 4: like the same week, so wild you don't like the

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Speaker 4: holidays because literally was when that they both happened. But

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Speaker 4: it's been really amazing, like moving to California, the people

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Speaker 4: here are incredible.

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Speaker 3: I love my job.

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Speaker 4: I've been working as an inspectation now for about a

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Speaker 4: year and a half, working in my dream field of aesthetics,

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Speaker 4: and kind of just been like living my best life,

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Speaker 4: if you can say. It's definitely come with some ups

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Speaker 4: and downs, but overall, it's been a pretty good year

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Speaker 4: and a half since I've been here.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, because I remember you were studying for your MP

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Speaker 2: boards when you came on last time, which was kind

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Speaker 2: of right before Paradise ended. I think, did you write

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Speaker 2: those before or after the breakup?

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Speaker 3: Did I take them?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: I took it.

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Speaker 4: I had to push back the testing date because my

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Speaker 4: mental health was so compromised, so I ended up taking

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Speaker 4: it in Florida, like right after the breakup.

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Speaker 2: Okay, and a big pocket of life for you. Emotionally,

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Speaker 2: oh everything, mentally, yeah, everything.

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Speaker 4: It was a lot, but it was kind of like

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Speaker 4: a way to be like, you're not gonna like nothing

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Speaker 4: is going to bring me down, Like I'm still gonna

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Speaker 4: keep doing what I was put on a serte to do.

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Speaker 3: So yeah, it's been great.

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Speaker 1: Can you all feel free to say no if you

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Speaker 1: don't want to talk about any of these things. But

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Speaker 1: why did you and John Henry break up?

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Speaker 3: You know, nothing like serious that happened.

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Speaker 4: I think through the airing of the show, we started

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Speaker 4: to learn more about how we each I think, handle

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Speaker 4: conflict and adversity, and we just were not gonna I mean,

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Speaker 4: it wasn't my choice, and but it ultimately ended up

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Speaker 4: being something probably for the best. It was under the

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Speaker 4: umbrella of incompatibility, but we didn't really have like any

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Speaker 4: major like fights or anything like that. I just think

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Speaker 4: it just got too much and he wanted to go

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Speaker 4: into a different career path than originally we both thought

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Speaker 4: he would want to do, which ultimately led him to Hawaii.

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Speaker 4: And it just happened at a really hard time emotionally

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Speaker 4: with everything else that was going on. But overall, it

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Speaker 4: just we're not We're two good people, but we're definitely

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Speaker 4: not each other's people. And I think moments like how

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Speaker 4: the show aired and how everything went down with a

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Speaker 4: relationship really shows us what you can handle and if

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Speaker 4: you're going to be compactful in long term.

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Speaker 1: When you guys got engaged, didn't you was there was

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Speaker 1: there a part of you that was like, Oh, I

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Speaker 1: don't know, I don't know no, so you you believe no?

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Speaker 4: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: I believed all. I will believe everything. No. I literally

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Speaker 3: was like, this is my person.

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Speaker 4: Now looking back, I'm like, I don't think so, but

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Speaker 4: I would just like a very different person. Like I

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Speaker 4: think that I just was such like a like I

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Speaker 4: wanted a relationship so badly. I saw that for myself,

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Speaker 4: and like I was willing to believe anything even though

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Speaker 4: there was signs in front of me that was saying,

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Speaker 4: this is not going to make sense. And I think

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Speaker 4: it took something as extreme as that for me to

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Speaker 4: like really sit back and evaluate like how I see

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Speaker 4: people and see the world. And now I tried a

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Speaker 4: little bit lighter. But yeah, no, I fully believed that

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm going to marry this man, this is my husband.

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Speaker 1: Wow, Okay, that's good.

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Speaker 4: Watching him watching it back and seeing what he was saying.

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Speaker 4: I didn't know he said any of that. He didn't

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Speaker 4: tell me that, So I.

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Speaker 3: Was like, you just broke up with me and you

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Speaker 3: already had doubts, like I should have known.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, well it was wild. That's good information for the

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Speaker 1: upcoming season of Paradise. Your your past relationship, the one

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Speaker 1: that was six months and end it? Can you tell

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Speaker 1: us why that ended?

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Speaker 4: Like?

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Speaker 2: How do you know it?

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Speaker 3: Even we just met through mutual friends.

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Speaker 4: It was one of those relationships that I think is

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Speaker 4: going to probably help me learn the most about myself

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Speaker 4: that I've ever experienced. I have nothing negative to say

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Speaker 4: about it. It was it had its ups and downs.

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Speaker 4: It just you know, again, I don't think that we

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Speaker 4: healthiest I think you could agree. I think we just

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Speaker 4: triggered a lot of each other's wounds. But in that

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Speaker 4: you learn about yourself in your twenties, that's what it's about.

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Speaker 4: So I used that to really be like a catalyst

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Speaker 4: and to some deep therapies. That was really helpful.

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Speaker 2: You seem to have done a lot of work on yourself.

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Speaker 2: I know you've referenced therapy a few times. What specifically

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Speaker 2: is that work, Like, what have you been focusing on

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Speaker 2: and what do you hope to do differently going into

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Speaker 4: I think just being curious and like truly like doing

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Speaker 4: an internal assessment of your triggers, who you are, and

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Speaker 4: like things are going to come up that you're not

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Speaker 4: like compassion and self love. I really did like deep

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Speaker 4: therapy with MDR recently in last six months, and that's

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Speaker 4: But I think just learning how to like ground myself

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Speaker 4: that's I think was just my default state and learning

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Speaker 4: to like take that pause, and that's I.

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Speaker 3: Think what really helped in talking through and understanding yourself.

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Speaker 1: Are you do you have any who do you hang

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Speaker 1: out with and you're in San Diego? Do you have

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Speaker 4: I'm still friends with Kylie see here pretty often. Some

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Speaker 4: of the other girls we grew apart, but still like

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Speaker 4: San Diego's like such a community based area. Everybody like

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Speaker 3: So I've I have such amazing friends here.

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Speaker 4: I actually like met Jess Edwards like a month before

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Speaker 4: we went on Paradise together, and we're like kind of

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Speaker 2: Love San Diego. Do you think you'll stay there for now?

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Speaker 3: Yeah? For sure.

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Speaker 4: It's a really good I would say place for where

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Speaker 4: I just love the community aspect of it. Everyone's very welcoming.

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Speaker 4: I mean it's still California, so they're still like fake energy,

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Speaker 4: but the real ones stick together.

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Speaker 1: So nice friend. Okay, so you are how your relationship ends? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: and you get a phone call for paradise. What's the

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Speaker 1: would you be interested in coming on Paradise?

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Speaker 4: I don't remember when they called me. It was this year.

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Speaker 4: I mean at first I was like, I'm not going

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Speaker 4: on Paradise. Me and my most relationship we broke up

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Speaker 4: around November, kind of lived in limbo until maybe.

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Speaker 3: Like January, February, I can't remember. Sometime it was.

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Speaker 4: It's all a blur, but they called me, I want

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Speaker 4: to say, like around March or April, I can't remember,

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Speaker 4: somewhere around like springtime. But I was like I needed

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Speaker 4: a lot of convincing, like I didn't. I was not

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Speaker 4: just like yeah, I'll do it, Like I needed them

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Speaker 4: to like really make me feel comfortable about putting myself

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Speaker 4: back in that environment. And it was definitely something that

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Speaker 4: I decided to do very last than it because I

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Speaker 4: I can't do that again, like I'm scared.

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Speaker 1: Was it? What was the deal breaker?

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Speaker 3: I think I really was just like if I say

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Speaker 4: Regret it, like it's not something I want to like regret,

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Speaker 4: Like what if there was someone there actually that I

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Speaker 3: But it was mostly convincing me. With the air conditioning.

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Speaker 4: Some of them were like, absolutely not, please don't because

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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Speaker 4: Biggest fear so many Well, I just learned that people

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Speaker 4: I was mostly just like scared I was going to

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Speaker 3: You know, I knew there was bugs, so I can't

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Speaker 4: But it was mostly just like the trusting someone again

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Speaker 1: It's definitely one of those things where once you're like,

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Speaker 2: You're probably I'm more likely going to regret not doing

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it's just I think I was so scared that,

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Speaker 4: And the subject to.

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Speaker 1: Keep judgement. Yeah, do you have a plan going into

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Speaker 4: It's not I think also I understand it more like

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Speaker 4: I have a really good support team and system in place,

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Speaker 3: Don't care like I don't.

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Speaker 4: I don't feel the desire to look at it or

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Speaker 1: Yeah? And it goes away?

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Speaker 3: I mean it does now I know that it is temporary.

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Speaker 4: Like at the time, you feel like it's never going

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Speaker 1: You're the first. You're the first contestant. You're the first

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Speaker 1: contestant that we are interviewing that's been on Paradise before. Okay,

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Speaker 1: living living conditions, what's like much better because I've heard

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Speaker 4: Oh my god, Like its incredible, like really different. Yeah,

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Speaker 4: I'm not sure how much I could share, but it

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Speaker 4: it's It really just shows like how much your mental

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Speaker 3: Not in humanity. It really brings.

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Speaker 4: The different it's like or just to be able to

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Speaker 3: It was so much better.

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Speaker 4: You had just a bed to sleep in that you

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Speaker 4: you just feel more like you're better self. Like I

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Speaker 1: Yeah you know, yeah, yeah, we just saw I just

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Speaker 3: There was no mirrors.

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Speaker 4: I used like the small compact like thing in my

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you just love life like that.

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Speaker 4: I'm like, I need to actually take it second to

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Speaker 2: Well, you also would just feel sexier to to like

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yes, you could self tan and not start sweating

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Speaker 3: It was so much better.

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Speaker 4: It was like during the wedding episode of Marine kind

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Speaker 2: And it was almost in the sun, Like I don't

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Speaker 4: So there's like you're consistent breeze and I kind of

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Speaker 2: You're an inside girl, you really are.

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Speaker 4: I'm an outside girl in the right positions, Like I'm

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Speaker 1: Nice but it's.

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Speaker 4: So yeah, the summer here is unreal, but yeah, no

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Speaker 3: I prefer the indoors no more.

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Speaker 2: Evy, we see that the cast is obviously dropped. We know,

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Speaker 4: I didn't know anybody like going, and I didn't know

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Speaker 4: So I guess I was just nervous because like, I

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Speaker 1: But when you saw them, did you know who they?

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Speaker 4: Knew who Jonathan Wise because I've seen him in San Diego,

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Speaker 1: How about the Goldens? Did you Did you have any

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Speaker 4: So weirdly enough, the weekend before was Stagecoach. I like,

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Speaker 4: You're so cool, and like I can't wait to be

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Speaker 3: We love Keith, But that's it. I didn't know anyone else.

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Speaker 2: Were you more excited about that or were you kind

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Speaker 4: Well I did, I had Jeff, I had Jeff Edwards,

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Speaker 1: What you got, you got something?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I got something.

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Speaker 1: I got something too, So.

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Speaker 2: All right, in terms of a relationship, what were you

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Speaker 1: God damn it, that was literally that was that was

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Speaker 1: where I was. I was going to say, qualities, Okay,

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Speaker 4: Same graveling. I was like, really just looking for an

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Speaker 3: But that's true.

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Speaker 4: I really just wanted somebody that has lived enough life

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Speaker 4: I think, to be able to be like a good

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Speaker 4: I would not want to like go out every weekend

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00:21:48,400 --> 00:21:50,720
Speaker 4: like take you know, just has their priorities intact and

446
00:21:50,760 --> 00:21:52,920
Speaker 4: nothing to say, like I'm not like throwing shade. It's

447
00:21:52,920 --> 00:21:55,800
Speaker 4: just like I think I've learned through my relationships that

448
00:21:56,400 --> 00:21:58,240
Speaker 4: I that's where I'm at and like that's how I

449
00:21:58,320 --> 00:22:00,360
Speaker 4: value my life and my priorities. And it's so much

450
00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:02,639
Speaker 4: better when your person matches that because then you're not

451
00:22:02,760 --> 00:22:05,560
Speaker 4: like conflicting with each other on what how you want to.

452
00:22:06,280 --> 00:22:08,600
Speaker 2: Do, like to get vend your Saturday, right.

453
00:22:08,560 --> 00:22:10,879
Speaker 4: So I really just wanted that. And then someone that

454
00:22:11,320 --> 00:22:13,240
Speaker 4: thinks so funny it's about.

455
00:22:13,040 --> 00:22:15,719
Speaker 1: It, was there anyone that was there? Anyone that you

456
00:22:15,720 --> 00:22:17,919
Speaker 1: were worried about potentially being there that you were like,

457
00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:20,600
Speaker 1: I really hope I don't see this person on the

458
00:22:20,600 --> 00:22:25,320
Speaker 1: beach guys anyway, like like did you? Yeah, who were you?

459
00:22:26,040 --> 00:22:28,760
Speaker 1: Who were you beefing with on your on your season

460
00:22:28,800 --> 00:22:29,400
Speaker 1: of Paradise.

461
00:22:30,119 --> 00:22:32,359
Speaker 3: I think it's just well, Olivia didn't really, it.

462
00:22:32,280 --> 00:22:37,639
Speaker 4: Wasn't very I just like I didn't want anything or

463
00:22:37,680 --> 00:22:43,240
Speaker 4: anyone that was there to create some like I guess

464
00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:46,159
Speaker 4: just like chaos and drama because when that happens, it

465
00:22:46,240 --> 00:22:51,320
Speaker 4: really takes away from building a relationship with like your

466
00:22:51,320 --> 00:22:54,200
Speaker 4: potential partner. So I just didn't want anyone that could

467
00:22:54,280 --> 00:22:56,000
Speaker 4: potentially do that. I don't know if that would have

468
00:22:56,040 --> 00:22:59,240
Speaker 4: been her m, but there's still not worry if any

469
00:22:59,280 --> 00:23:03,240
Speaker 4: of that. I called John Henry the moment I got

470
00:23:03,240 --> 00:23:05,240
Speaker 4: my call, so I was like, are you gonna be

471
00:23:05,320 --> 00:23:07,760
Speaker 4: on this page with me? I need to know yeah,

472
00:23:08,320 --> 00:23:10,399
Speaker 4: And he told me he couldn't because of work and stuff,

473
00:23:10,400 --> 00:23:11,920
Speaker 4: and then we caught up so we're in a good place.

474
00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:13,600
Speaker 3: But even if he was, it would have been fine.

475
00:23:13,640 --> 00:23:15,919
Speaker 4: I was like, you should like this, you know whatever

476
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:20,160
Speaker 4: we'll see, but uh.

477
00:23:19,680 --> 00:23:20,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, no, I don't.

478
00:23:20,880 --> 00:23:24,960
Speaker 4: I think that I have a little bit more confidence

479
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:27,760
Speaker 4: in how I handle things now where I could weather

480
00:23:27,960 --> 00:23:29,800
Speaker 4: a lot more than I could before.

481
00:23:31,040 --> 00:23:39,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, going into this season, did you have any like,

482
00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:41,000
Speaker 2: like I know you said you feel like you're going

483
00:23:41,040 --> 00:23:43,239
Speaker 2: to handle thing blood differently this time. Did you have

484
00:23:43,280 --> 00:23:45,840
Speaker 2: like any grounding techniques or specific things that you were

485
00:23:45,880 --> 00:23:49,320
Speaker 2: like bringing in with you and your their meditations?

486
00:23:50,359 --> 00:23:52,120
Speaker 1: Well, I meditate. I meditate.

487
00:23:52,720 --> 00:23:54,200
Speaker 3: I was journaling every day.

488
00:23:54,320 --> 00:23:57,000
Speaker 4: I did not do that last time, just to you know,

489
00:23:57,080 --> 00:23:59,200
Speaker 4: you can get lost track of time. Day's London to

490
00:23:59,280 --> 00:24:02,639
Speaker 4: each other and just like keeping every day like like

491
00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:04,480
Speaker 4: I had to like go back and read where my

492
00:24:04,480 --> 00:24:08,119
Speaker 4: thoughts are at. I checked in with the therapists like

493
00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:11,560
Speaker 4: almost every three days while on set, just to ground myself,

494
00:24:11,640 --> 00:24:15,040
Speaker 4: talk about how I'm feeling, make sure that everything seems

495
00:24:15,040 --> 00:24:19,640
Speaker 4: like okay, some eft's happening online, your spots. Whenever you're

496
00:24:19,640 --> 00:24:22,040
Speaker 4: feeling stressed, like you hit that and it's like supposed

497
00:24:22,040 --> 00:24:23,159
Speaker 4: to colm down your nervous system.

498
00:24:24,480 --> 00:24:25,920
Speaker 3: Beta blockers are really great.

499
00:24:25,960 --> 00:24:29,440
Speaker 4: It was taking that a few times just like you know,

500
00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:32,000
Speaker 4: I don't know, I just but also like not taking

501
00:24:32,040 --> 00:24:35,200
Speaker 4: it too seriously, like just having fun and like understanding

502
00:24:35,280 --> 00:24:39,480
Speaker 4: that this is it's I took it so seriously before.

503
00:24:39,880 --> 00:24:42,920
Speaker 3: And I think just like the new mindset can be

504
00:24:43,080 --> 00:24:44,680
Speaker 3: new wonders for what can happen.

505
00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:50,040
Speaker 1: Were you open to an engagement this time or were

506
00:24:50,119 --> 00:24:52,120
Speaker 1: you more just like I'm gonna take my time see

507
00:24:52,119 --> 00:24:53,680
Speaker 1: where this goes, and I kind of want to just

508
00:24:53,760 --> 00:24:55,760
Speaker 1: like leave in a relationship.

509
00:24:56,800 --> 00:24:59,480
Speaker 3: I did not go in saying I was going to

510
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:04,480
Speaker 3: leave engage that is it. I didn't. I definitely was

511
00:25:04,600 --> 00:25:06,240
Speaker 3: not going in and say I was going to be

512
00:25:06,320 --> 00:25:07,400
Speaker 3: engaged to any capacity.

513
00:25:08,119 --> 00:25:10,879
Speaker 1: Well, I will say like my my second time around,

514
00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:18,000
Speaker 1: I was more prepared to have the core the right

515
00:25:18,119 --> 00:25:22,280
Speaker 1: conversations with Serena as far as just like how how

516
00:25:22,560 --> 00:25:27,720
Speaker 1: actually do we see this working after this showing and

517
00:25:27,840 --> 00:25:30,200
Speaker 1: did you did you do that? Like are were you

518
00:25:30,400 --> 00:25:32,520
Speaker 1: open to are you open to moving?

519
00:25:32,680 --> 00:25:35,960
Speaker 3: If that's the case, If am I open to one?

520
00:25:36,560 --> 00:25:39,800
Speaker 1: Like if you meet someone, are you open to potentially moving?

521
00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:43,640
Speaker 4: Like oh yeah, I was asking I knew way more

522
00:25:44,280 --> 00:25:46,360
Speaker 4: about or I yeah, I went in with a lot

523
00:25:46,440 --> 00:25:48,560
Speaker 4: more awareness on like what I needed to ask and

524
00:25:48,720 --> 00:25:50,960
Speaker 4: things I needed to like assess, and how I needed

525
00:25:50,960 --> 00:25:54,440
Speaker 4: to see how people handled situations than I did in

526
00:25:54,680 --> 00:25:57,280
Speaker 4: the past, just from but you can only really do

527
00:25:57,400 --> 00:26:00,480
Speaker 4: that if you've already lived in and so that's pretty

528
00:26:00,560 --> 00:26:02,440
Speaker 4: much how I approached it. So it wasn't just like

529
00:26:02,560 --> 00:26:05,760
Speaker 4: blindly like oh, you're cute and like you're funny, and

530
00:26:05,880 --> 00:26:08,200
Speaker 4: like this is gonna be great, we'll see what happens.

531
00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:12,679
Speaker 2: Like No, it was very very like thought out without

532
00:26:12,840 --> 00:26:15,720
Speaker 2: giving too much away obviously, how do you feel like

533
00:26:16,520 --> 00:26:19,680
Speaker 2: this experience on Bachelom Paradise for you was different from

534
00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:20,720
Speaker 2: your first experience?

535
00:26:22,359 --> 00:26:24,240
Speaker 3: I mean was a laundry list.

536
00:26:24,880 --> 00:26:28,280
Speaker 4: There's like oh, from the environment, from the people, from

537
00:26:28,760 --> 00:26:32,359
Speaker 4: like how I showed up, from just every like the

538
00:26:33,720 --> 00:26:36,920
Speaker 4: the beach, the creative, like the it was just fun

539
00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:39,480
Speaker 4: like it was I had a lot of good I

540
00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:42,120
Speaker 4: had a really good time. I would say, we don't

541
00:26:42,119 --> 00:26:44,159
Speaker 4: want to give everything away. It definitely came still with

542
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:48,040
Speaker 4: ups and downs, like it's still you know, an environment

543
00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:51,480
Speaker 4: where you're putting yourself out there to potentially be heard,

544
00:26:51,720 --> 00:26:53,840
Speaker 4: and like you don't know how it's gonna end. And

545
00:26:54,800 --> 00:26:57,760
Speaker 4: but that's with everything, that's with life, So I just

546
00:26:57,960 --> 00:27:00,399
Speaker 4: approached it from that perspective, but it was just so

547
00:27:00,600 --> 00:27:03,199
Speaker 4: much more like and I.

548
00:27:05,640 --> 00:27:07,879
Speaker 3: Who knows, So I'm delusional, Like I think I said that.

549
00:27:11,200 --> 00:27:13,560
Speaker 1: You're freaking out already. You're freaking out already.

550
00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:16,080
Speaker 4: Like you know what, I'm freaking out because I'm saying

551
00:27:16,119 --> 00:27:17,920
Speaker 4: it's positive, and like I did that before and it

552
00:27:18,080 --> 00:27:20,240
Speaker 4: was not so scared enough.

553
00:27:21,080 --> 00:27:22,359
Speaker 2: I get that, but you know, I want it to

554
00:27:22,440 --> 00:27:25,160
Speaker 2: air and then be like, wait, this is what went down,

555
00:27:25,600 --> 00:27:26,760
Speaker 2: this is how it came across.

556
00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:29,200
Speaker 3: You know, wh I rather live life the rose colored glasses.

557
00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:31,600
Speaker 3: I don't care. I love being delusional. It's not me

558
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:32,000
Speaker 3: be very far.

559
00:27:32,960 --> 00:27:35,760
Speaker 1: So I think I think it's gonna go I mean,

560
00:27:35,960 --> 00:27:38,040
Speaker 1: if I were to guess, I think it's gonna go

561
00:27:39,880 --> 00:27:42,440
Speaker 1: good for you. But like then again, like I've been wrong,

562
00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:43,679
Speaker 1: so I don't know.

563
00:27:43,680 --> 00:27:47,320
Speaker 4: If it all comes down to like how it's I mean,

564
00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:50,600
Speaker 4: I think I also like was not I remember so

565
00:27:50,880 --> 00:27:53,480
Speaker 4: much of it, maybe just because I was journaling as

566
00:27:53,520 --> 00:27:56,359
Speaker 4: often as I was, but like before I remember like

567
00:27:56,480 --> 00:27:59,600
Speaker 4: how it wasn't just like Boston the sauce I think I.

568
00:27:59,720 --> 00:28:02,359
Speaker 3: Was or you like I know what's going on present?

569
00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:04,280
Speaker 2: How was having the Golden Sale there?

570
00:28:04,640 --> 00:28:04,720
Speaker 4: Oh?

571
00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:05,879
Speaker 3: It was so fun.

572
00:28:06,680 --> 00:28:10,440
Speaker 4: It was a great, great choice, Like good job Produceriously,

573
00:28:10,600 --> 00:28:11,720
Speaker 4: it was incredible.

574
00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:14,840
Speaker 3: They were they just like when I guess when you're

575
00:28:14,840 --> 00:28:16,639
Speaker 3: at that age, you just don't care. So it was

576
00:28:16,760 --> 00:28:17,359
Speaker 3: like they're not.

577
00:28:17,480 --> 00:28:20,160
Speaker 4: Worried about Instagram followers or how they're like gonna look

578
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:22,640
Speaker 4: for their brand. Like they're just actually like so authentic

579
00:28:22,720 --> 00:28:25,000
Speaker 4: and who they are. And they gave us a lot

580
00:28:25,080 --> 00:28:27,560
Speaker 4: of insight to just like life, and I got to

581
00:28:27,680 --> 00:28:29,480
Speaker 4: learn about so many of their different stories and things

582
00:28:29,520 --> 00:28:32,000
Speaker 4: that they've experienced, and I feel like that put into

583
00:28:32,040 --> 00:28:35,000
Speaker 4: perspective like where we're all at now and kind of

584
00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:36,640
Speaker 4: just take things a little less like intensely.

585
00:28:37,040 --> 00:28:39,560
Speaker 3: But they were just so fun. They were hilarious. They

586
00:28:39,600 --> 00:28:42,360
Speaker 3: did not care. They had a great time. They made

587
00:28:42,440 --> 00:28:43,080
Speaker 3: us loose enough.

588
00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:46,400
Speaker 1: Actually, how was how was having Hannah Brown there?

589
00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:49,080
Speaker 3: It was really fun too. She was like kind of

590
00:28:49,160 --> 00:28:50,040
Speaker 3: like a girly.

591
00:28:51,280 --> 00:28:53,920
Speaker 4: She was there mostly during Rose ceremony nights and stuff

592
00:28:53,920 --> 00:28:55,840
Speaker 4: and just kind of someone to like tell the tea

593
00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:59,040
Speaker 4: too and see how she experienced stuff. It was also

594
00:28:59,160 --> 00:29:01,400
Speaker 4: for me like she's lived a lot of she's done

595
00:29:01,440 --> 00:29:03,560
Speaker 4: the show in different ways and been part of it,

596
00:29:03,680 --> 00:29:05,120
Speaker 4: so I felt like I could connect with her in

597
00:29:05,160 --> 00:29:09,800
Speaker 4: that way and understand like if I'm having a if

598
00:29:09,840 --> 00:29:11,640
Speaker 4: I'm on the verge of having a cash out, like

599
00:29:11,880 --> 00:29:15,680
Speaker 4: you know, it's this valid to be brought back down

600
00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:17,200
Speaker 4: to earth and she was there for that.

601
00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:24,040
Speaker 1: If after watching this current season, what do you want

602
00:29:25,360 --> 00:29:29,600
Speaker 1: the viewers to learn about who you are as a person?

603
00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:34,480
Speaker 3: Oh, I don't know. That's scary. I guess just like.

604
00:29:36,360 --> 00:29:39,680
Speaker 4: That I am human, Like we're just I'm a very

605
00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:45,160
Speaker 4: like normal girl living a very normal life. And you

606
00:29:45,240 --> 00:29:48,960
Speaker 4: can also see where like whatever happens in your life

607
00:29:49,400 --> 00:29:51,680
Speaker 4: like stages and seasons does not have to define you

608
00:29:51,800 --> 00:29:55,080
Speaker 4: in any carasting like you have that autonomy to change

609
00:29:55,120 --> 00:29:58,360
Speaker 4: how you go through life. And I think that that's

610
00:29:58,440 --> 00:30:01,200
Speaker 4: going to be shown. And that's also just something I've

611
00:30:01,680 --> 00:30:05,120
Speaker 4: kind of done my entire life. So maybe just that

612
00:30:05,520 --> 00:30:07,520
Speaker 4: and like that I'm just like a normal girly and

613
00:30:07,600 --> 00:30:10,000
Speaker 4: like live more delusional. It's a lot easier that way.

614
00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:15,600
Speaker 4: This is true yourself, like like just I'm I'm accidentally

615
00:30:15,640 --> 00:30:19,000
Speaker 4: authentic to a bon't and nobody should ever be ashamed

616
00:30:19,040 --> 00:30:19,760
Speaker 4: of that, like own it.

617
00:30:20,840 --> 00:30:25,360
Speaker 2: If you could tease this upcoming season of Paradise.

618
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:28,480
Speaker 3: In a few words, Oh gosh, what would you do?

619
00:30:28,920 --> 00:30:29,640
Speaker 2: What would you say?

620
00:30:30,400 --> 00:30:44,480
Speaker 4: Oh? It is different, fun and more aesthetically pleasing. I

621
00:30:44,520 --> 00:30:46,520
Speaker 4: would say, for sure, Yeah.

622
00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:46,959
Speaker 1: It looks that way.

623
00:30:47,040 --> 00:30:47,160
Speaker 4: Yew.

624
00:30:47,200 --> 00:30:48,520
Speaker 2: The teasers are looking really good.

625
00:30:48,880 --> 00:30:51,000
Speaker 3: It's much more aesthetically even.

626
00:30:50,920 --> 00:30:55,840
Speaker 2: Like the headshot, everything is elevated and I'm.

627
00:30:55,720 --> 00:30:57,280
Speaker 1: Actually not for that part.

628
00:30:58,280 --> 00:30:59,040
Speaker 3: Joe's jealous.

629
00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:01,200
Speaker 4: I knew there was going to be someone that like

630
00:31:01,400 --> 00:31:03,320
Speaker 4: wanted us to still look like like a little wrap

631
00:31:03,480 --> 00:31:06,440
Speaker 4: on the beach, like they're like fise like of.

632
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:10,640
Speaker 3: Them like dying and like, no, no, this was really good.

633
00:31:10,920 --> 00:31:14,720
Speaker 3: Never to go back. No, I'm excited to see it.

634
00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:18,760
Speaker 1: Well, Kat, we are really looking forward to watching you

635
00:31:19,200 --> 00:31:22,600
Speaker 1: on this upcoming season of Paradise. We wish you the best.

636
00:31:22,640 --> 00:31:25,200
Speaker 1: I'm sure we'll hear from you again. Thank you so

637
00:31:25,360 --> 00:31:30,160
Speaker 1: much for hopping on. Thank you fun, and to all

638
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:32,000
Speaker 1: our listeners, thank you for tuning in the bet You're

639
00:31:32,040 --> 00:31:34,640
Speaker 1: Happy Hour. Make sure you download and subscribe to the podcast.

640
00:31:34,800 --> 00:31:37,800
Speaker 2: We have new exclusive interviews coming every single week as

641
00:31:37,880 --> 00:31:40,720
Speaker 2: we tea up for the new season of Bachelor Paradise

642
00:31:40,760 --> 00:31:42,720
Speaker 2: airing very soon. Thanks for listening.

643
00:31:42,840 --> 00:31:43,040
Speaker 4: Bye