Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and
Speaker 1: I'm Meila. Happy Wednesday.
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Speaker 1: True, it does so.
Speaker 2: Easily.
Speaker 1: I'm tired. I don't even know why I'm tired. I've
Speaker 1: been tired for like, I just I feel like my
Speaker 1: energy has kind of been just a little bit low.
Speaker 1: I don't know if it's because I'm in love and
Speaker 1: I'm just like I want to be tired and lazy,
Speaker 1: laid up, or if I just haven't been eating. I've
Speaker 1: been eating more meat than ever and I don't really
Speaker 1: eat meat like that, and I've been having tons of
Speaker 1: bacon and beef, I know, and so I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'm just not feeling well. I just feel lazy as fuck.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I've been kind of feeling the fuck is.
Speaker 1: Happening, honestly, my neighbor and the trash.
Speaker 2: I feel like I have.
Speaker 4: I've been not drinking enough water, not like I eat.
Speaker 2: My eating habits they're so fucked up that I usually
Speaker 2: don't eat until like five pm. I fast all day
Speaker 2: and then eat at night, and then I'm like, my
Speaker 2: stomach hurts. Oh, no, shit, bitch, you haven't eaten all day? Right, Yeah,
Speaker 2: a lot of things that need to be done to
Speaker 2: have higher energy.
Speaker 1: I know. I went on a trip to like Tahoe
Speaker 1: this weekend, and uh, it was beautiful, so beautiful, But
Speaker 1: like when I got back, I felt like I needed
Speaker 1: a transitional day between the trip and life. Like I
Speaker 1: felt like I needed like another day to like decompress
Speaker 1: from the trip.
Speaker 4: Yesterday, I just felt so anxious.
Speaker 2: Everything was giving me fucking anxiety everything, and I just
Speaker 2: felt like.
Speaker 4: I was just stressed and I don't even know why.
Speaker 1: Well, your birthday's coming up, do you know? His birthdays
Speaker 1: on Monday? Guys, My birthday's on Monday.
Speaker 2: I will be thirty two. And yeah, I think I
Speaker 2: do get a little anxious before my birthday's just because
Speaker 2: it's another year.
Speaker 1: You every year, you do, I do.
Speaker 2: Yeah, what's the wrong with me?
Speaker 1: Oh?
Speaker 2: Yes, my birthday is coming, and I just feel like
Speaker 2: it's such a weird time because like there's so much
Speaker 2: going on.
Speaker 4: It's draining. Also, I feel like we have a lot
Speaker 4: of stuff going on.
Speaker 2: It's really hard to focus on those things. It's really
Speaker 2: hard to fucking focus. Also, I don't have a million
Speaker 2: dollars yet. It's just I'm like, what the fuck?
Speaker 1: Okay?
Speaker 2: And when I was twenty three, I planned on being
Speaker 2: rich by thirty, own a house, supposed to be married,
Speaker 2: I supposed to be have my second child.
Speaker 1: I know about this.
Speaker 2: Every year I made what I was supposed to do.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, I think for people listening, if you're
Speaker 1: in your early twenties and you have all these anxieties,
Speaker 1: as I did when I was in my twenties, I
Speaker 1: was like, for sure, like when I'm thirty, all these
Speaker 1: I'm supposed to hit all these milestones, guess what, you
Speaker 1: probably won't. And that's okay. I'm not saying like don't
Speaker 1: try or don't like have aspirations or goals, but I
Speaker 1: feel like we put so much pressure on ourselves and
Speaker 1: then we hit these ages and then we're like, why
Speaker 1: am I not a millionaire? Why am I not married? Why?
Speaker 1: Like my life isn't what I thought? And we were
Speaker 1: talking about that before we started recording, Like how it's
Speaker 1: a it's a time. I mean, I think that it's
Speaker 1: all you You never really know how shit's gonna play out.
Speaker 1: But like we're in a time right now where I
Speaker 1: feel like those feelings are even more highlighted because we
Speaker 1: really there's really a lot of question marks in the air,
Speaker 1: Like am I gonna get sick? Is the one? Is
Speaker 1: the pandemic? Ending? Why do black people keep dying? I'm
Speaker 1: scared to be black? Will I die when I walk
Speaker 1: out the house?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 1: Will will school ever be the same again? Is my kid? Okay?
Speaker 1: Like all these things that there's just there's just like
Speaker 1: not a lot of answers, just.
Speaker 2: A huge fear of the own, the unknown. As I
Speaker 2: get older, I become more I have I hate to
Speaker 2: say this, but I have.
Speaker 4: More fear of the unknown.
Speaker 2: I'm more aware that there's I have very little control
Speaker 2: over everything, and fear of the unknown. It's amost gives
Speaker 2: me anxiety, you know, like even like am I gonna
Speaker 2: have a lifelong partner?
Speaker 4: Am I gonna have another kid?
Speaker 2: Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Like if there's
Speaker 2: just so much shit like happening all the time, and
Speaker 2: there's we're so like I feel like I always say,
Speaker 2: like our brains are only supposed to have so many channels.
Speaker 2: Like remember back in the day, it's only like thirty channels.
Speaker 2: Now with social media, there's like six hundred channels, and
Speaker 2: so our brains are not programmed to be able to
Speaker 2: switch channels that quickly and on so on so fast levels.
Speaker 2: So it's almost like our brains and our bodies are
Speaker 2: over exposed and jumping from feelings and thoughts so quickly
Speaker 2: that I think that's the leading cause and anxiety, like
Speaker 2: really and truly, because we're not programmed to be paying
Speaker 2: attention to everybody's fucking life on Instagram plus our own,
Speaker 2: plus all these other factors. You know, there's just like
Speaker 2: an over and over charge of information, and I think
Speaker 2: it's making us like function wrong.
Speaker 1: But I agree, I think though I will say I
Speaker 1: think the channels in the last few months have decreased.
Speaker 1: I mean, I think social media is obviously you know,
Speaker 1: not going anywhere, and it's been a tool for you know,
Speaker 1: the movement that's happening and you know, keeping people socially aware.
Speaker 1: But I think staying at home has eliminated some of
Speaker 1: those channels. And I think that probably was some of
Speaker 1: the source of my anxiety when the pandemic first started,
Speaker 1: because like I didn't know how what, Like I had
Speaker 1: all these channels and I didn't know I was sitting
Speaker 1: with them, and like, I feel like they slowly started
Speaker 1: because I feel like people are doing less now, like
Speaker 1: they're more conscious about doing less because if you're doing
Speaker 1: too much, you look stupid. And now I know, like
Speaker 1: things are starting to open back up and like people,
Speaker 1: you know, are you going out and like traveling more
Speaker 1: and doing all those things. But I don't know. I
Speaker 1: think that I hope that there's I feel like there's
Speaker 1: a shift in consciousness happening for sure, definitely for the better,
Speaker 1: I think, I hope. But with that comes like a deprogramming,
Speaker 1: and that can feel weird, exhausting even, and like like
Speaker 1: you're losing something but you're not well.
Speaker 4: It's probe right, you don't have a lot of energy.
Speaker 1: Maybe, I think, I don't know, because I think it's
Speaker 1: my diet diet, to be honest, I think that.
Speaker 2: As all these things are happening, it is obviously a
Speaker 2: pivotal and transitional time. And I think it, you know,
Speaker 2: when shit is shifting and changing, it takes energy from me,
Speaker 2: just like when you're growing, you got to sleep more.
Speaker 2: And I think because we're doing less, I think now
Speaker 2: is really a time to self reflect on your own
Speaker 2: energy and what lessons are being taught and what's right,
Speaker 2: you know, And I think that's my lesson right now.
Speaker 2: Like you can't control everything, and that means that you
Speaker 2: definitely can't be afraid of the unknown because everything is unknown.
Speaker 2: Finding peace in the unknown and being able to be
Speaker 2: like chill, accept what it is right now and that's it,
Speaker 2: you know, like focus on the ship that you do. Know,
Speaker 2: you know, how you're conducting yourself now and making better
Speaker 2: decisions than I've made, and being like aware of why
Speaker 2: I'm making certain decisions or like why I'm afraid of
Speaker 2: certain things?
Speaker 1: Right, Yeah, I mean I when I so when I
Speaker 1: went to Tahoe this weekend, I went with like a
Speaker 1: group of friends including Poetry Bay and Irie and all
Speaker 1: those things. And we we were up there and at night,
Speaker 1: like we ended up taking some mushrooms and at some
Speaker 1: point in my trip it was it was a really
Speaker 1: it was cool. It was very light and it was quick.
Speaker 1: Like I don't know, you have these chocolatemushrooms. They lasted
Speaker 1: like three hours or something. Yeah, it was like three hours,
Speaker 1: and it was cool. They were visual, not like overly intense,
Speaker 1: but like yeah, for sure, like saw breathe, like the
Speaker 1: room breathing and stuff. But there was a time at
Speaker 1: at some point I like was looking at my hands
Speaker 1: and like it was like almost like I was looking
Speaker 1: at them from outside of myself, and like I was
Speaker 1: looking at my body from outside of myself, and like
Speaker 1: suddenly like my mortality became so real, like to look
Speaker 1: at me from like an outsider looking in and like
Speaker 1: how like none of this all this is like gonna
Speaker 1: disappear one day, you know what I mean? And like
Speaker 1: I think, I don't know. I just became super aware
Speaker 1: of my mortality and then like oh I started. I
Speaker 1: wasn't like I was kind of going dark, but I
Speaker 1: wasn't like sad, but I was just like damn, like
Speaker 1: does any of the shit matter? Like like we're here,
Speaker 1: then we're not, and it's happened so fast, and like
Speaker 1: you know, we we've been told that. We're like I
Speaker 1: don't know, like what were we talking about. We're saying
Speaker 1: that like basically we are reflect like saying like dust
Speaker 1: particles and like the sand like not the sand, like
Speaker 1: the light reflects upon us and that's what kind of
Speaker 1: creates like these bodies. And I was like, is this
Speaker 1: even real?
Speaker 2: Are you even here?
Speaker 1: Like does love even.
Speaker 2: For how long?
Speaker 1: Like what's the point?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 1: And I wasn't like like to kill myself or anything,
Speaker 1: but I was just like it just made everything seem
Speaker 1: everything so important not seem so important, so temporary. Yeah,
Speaker 1: And I was like shit, like all these things were chasing,
Speaker 1: like trying to make money, trying to do all these things,
Speaker 1: all these things that we feel like we need while
Speaker 1: we're here, while we're here, we're here, and then it
Speaker 1: doesn't matter anymore.
Speaker 4: It's like literally what actually matters.
Speaker 1: And then part of me was like, well that's why,
Speaker 1: like I have to do everything that I want, I
Speaker 1: have to earn everything that I want because it doesn't
Speaker 1: matter and it's quick. Yeah. But then the other party
Speaker 1: is like, well does it even fucking matter? Like should
Speaker 1: I even do it? It was like I know, I
Speaker 1: feel I feel you. Yeah, literally I feel, and I
Speaker 1: just kept looking at my hands and I was like, fuck,
Speaker 1: these are hands, These are my these are Erica's hands,
Speaker 1: and like one day they won't be here anymore, and
Speaker 1: one day they'll age and they'll look weird. And I remember,
Speaker 1: like when my grandfather died, like I was in the
Speaker 1: hospital with him, and I was holding his hand as
Speaker 1: he was dying, and like I was there like the
Speaker 1: while he took his last while he took his last breath,
Speaker 1: and I remember looking at his hands and they were
Speaker 1: so aged and they looked like they'd been through so
Speaker 1: many things, and I couldn't I couldn't stop thinking about
Speaker 1: his hands when I was on my mushroom trip and
Speaker 1: thinking like one day someone's gonna be holding my old
Speaker 1: ass hand and it's like then I leave and then
Speaker 1: it's it's done. I mean, of course, like I don't know,
Speaker 1: like and even like the most iconic people, Oh shit, why.
Speaker 4: Is that an alarm?
Speaker 2: I'm alarm and I don't know. I don't know why
Speaker 2: that's happening. One o'clock it stopped video.
Speaker 1: That's really fucking.
Speaker 2: I think that's where it was. Is a airplane anyway.
Speaker 1: Sorry about that alarm? Like even the most, like even
Speaker 1: the most iconic people, the people that have left their
Speaker 1: mark here, Like when the world ends, does it matter?
Speaker 1: Because the world is gonna end one day. This ship
Speaker 1: is not gonna be here forever, and as.
Speaker 2: We know absolutely, I mean even I think for me, like, yeah,
Speaker 2: all these things that we're chasing, how important are they?
Speaker 2: Even in these spaces that we're like finding new new
Speaker 2: ventures and love and that I get so much anxiety
Speaker 2: over that, like is this gonna be? It? Is this forever?
Speaker 2: Is this gonna be my partner? Can I do this?
Speaker 2: Like there's all these like intense questions, but it's also like, bitch,
Speaker 2: just enjoy it and shut the fuck up, you know,
Speaker 2: like why does why, even in goodness that we have
Speaker 2: to ruin it with expectation and like final like what's
Speaker 2: the what's gonna be the final thing?
Speaker 1: You know?
Speaker 4: Like why do I have to ruin what I'm enjoying?
Speaker 2: Right?
Speaker 1: It's being present essentially.
Speaker 2: Yeah, without the without the fear pouring in you know,
Speaker 2: like what if this doesn't last as long as I
Speaker 2: wanted to? You know, like what's after that? You know what,
Speaker 2: It's just a bunch of bullshit that doesn't matter.
Speaker 1: None of this should matters, I know, I know, and
Speaker 1: that I just became so aware of my body and
Speaker 1: the fact that I don't like really analyze it like
Speaker 1: I like I should. Yeah, Like, I mean, obviously it
Speaker 1: was some drugs. But I was looking at my hands
Speaker 1: and I was like, well, I've never really taken them
Speaker 1: in and like really looked at every part of me,
Speaker 1: and like one day, every all this it'll start changing
Speaker 1: and it'll start looking different and then it just will disappear,
Speaker 1: you know. Yeah. So I don't know. I was so
Speaker 1: that my trip I was kind of I was really
Speaker 1: quiet on it. I didn't really I laughed a lot though.
Speaker 1: I cried laughing. I cried laughing. It's fun and funny.
Speaker 1: Nisha came out at one point. This airplane is so loud. Wow,
Speaker 1: it's like the loudest one I've ever heard. What is
Speaker 1: it a jet? Is it a fighter jet?
Speaker 4: It's a big one.
Speaker 1: Nisha came out at one point and she had a
Speaker 1: sheet mask on her face. Girl, I almost passed out.
Speaker 1: She came out and she.
Speaker 2: Looked like, oh, like a mask face.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I'm like tripping and I was like, oh
Speaker 1: my god. And then she was like, do you want
Speaker 1: me to pull it off, and then she like slowly
Speaker 1: peeled her face off, and me and art my Bay
Speaker 1: were like, oh my god. I was like, I love drugs.
Speaker 1: I was like, just for these moments, you know, and
Speaker 1: then it's over and it's fine. And you know, I've
Speaker 1: had like I've had a life awakening moments. I've had
Speaker 1: moments where I've cried and lapped, i had moments of
Speaker 1: self reflection, and that's all I could ask for. I
Speaker 1: don't understand why people have these such negative, like you
Speaker 1: know what rules and experiences, and like I'll tell you why.
Speaker 4: Because people take drugs like.
Speaker 2: Hallucinogens like mushrooms, and then they try to fight what's
Speaker 2: happening and you can't fight it. If you fight it,
Speaker 2: you're going against God. Honestly, it's like it's like the
Speaker 2: peel away of what we of the fakeness, like of
Speaker 2: these like layers that we've essentially created. And so when
Speaker 2: you take drug like the peel that shit off, and
Speaker 2: if you hold on to those those layers instead of
Speaker 2: just letting him slide off, it's gonna hurt.
Speaker 4: It's gonna be hard.
Speaker 2: Like even that time when I'm totally like I'm emotional,
Speaker 2: but I cry by myself. That's my thing. I'll do
Speaker 2: it in the car, I'll do it alone, maybe in
Speaker 2: front of Lon because I'm I'm emotional bitch. But like
Speaker 2: that time I took mushrooms with Adventure Bay and literally
Speaker 2: he was just sitting there and I just nestled up
Speaker 2: to the side of his neck like this, and I
Speaker 2: was like, I just cried.
Speaker 4: I just let that shot out, and that is not
Speaker 4: my style.
Speaker 2: Like essentially, I didn't really know him it at all
Speaker 2: at this point, and I just cried for like five
Speaker 2: straight minutes, and I didn't try and stop it.
Speaker 4: I didn't even understand why. I knew I could feel
Speaker 4: that it was coming.
Speaker 2: I was just feeling in like an immense, intense energy
Speaker 2: pour over me, and I decided to not fight it,
Speaker 2: even though I don't know what to expe like he
Speaker 2: would expect. You know, it's not ideal. It was our
Speaker 2: third okay, it wasn't ideal to be just in front
Speaker 2: of the nigga I met on him, yeah, for no reason.
Speaker 4: And I just sat there and cried for like.
Speaker 2: Seven minutes, and then I was like.
Speaker 4: Hmm, that was weird.
Speaker 2: That's all I said that that was weird, that's never
Speaker 2: happened before, and he just held me like really tight,
Speaker 2: and I felt it wasn't a release for me.
Speaker 4: I felt safe.
Speaker 2: I felt like like I just felt safe and like
Speaker 2: I could just peel off and let go, and that's
Speaker 2: what I did. But I think if you're being like
Speaker 2: vulnerable with someone you're not comfortable with, or even with
Speaker 2: yourself alone, if you're not comfortable with being vulnerable.
Speaker 1: And you can't no, it'll come up. Then it will
Speaker 1: come up.
Speaker 2: And sometimes, like I said, I didn't really know why
Speaker 2: I was crying except for the fact that I felt
Speaker 2: like I was letting somebody in. I knew that was
Speaker 2: happening low key and my subconscious, But if I had
Speaker 2: any if I was trying to say face and be cool,
Speaker 2: it would have been a terrible time because it's hard.
Speaker 2: It's difficult because those drugs like that really take away
Speaker 2: like your perception, like the masks that people put on
Speaker 2: or that you put on, and it really makes you
Speaker 2: just see like time, space, distance.
Speaker 4: None of that shit matters, right, I know. That's why
Speaker 4: we advocate for mushroom so hard.
Speaker 2: Me and Erica had a side conversation one time that
Speaker 2: maybe like if like in Good Moms, We're just gonna
Speaker 2: have a side hustle. Then we're gonna we're gonna put
Speaker 2: out our own mushroom, Good Mom's Mushroom. We don't know
Speaker 2: how we're gonna start that side business.
Speaker 1: But oh actually we did. We did have we did
Speaker 1: have a plan. We said we're gonna start out a
Speaker 1: fans only page and just sell mushrooms on there.
Speaker 2: So look up for that.
Speaker 1: We won't be shaking ass. Well, maybe they'll be ass
Speaker 1: towerks and and well, I think because people have reached
Speaker 1: out to us asking where to get them in the
Speaker 1: different cities, and I'm like, I don't know, So I.
Speaker 4: Like, I'm in San Diego, where can I find out?
Speaker 2: My girl?
Speaker 4: When you find and let me know because if I
Speaker 4: come out there, I might need to know.
Speaker 1: But we're gonna start creating like you know that Lonely
Speaker 1: Planet how like you know Lonely Planet is the website,
Speaker 1: Like it's like a it's like a guide throughout the
Speaker 1: plan in it like tell you different places. Yeah, so
Speaker 1: like we'll be like the Craigslist of mushrooms. Like any
Speaker 1: city you go, just go to Good Mom's Good Mushrooms.
Speaker 1: It's like it's like it's like the Green Book for mushrooms.
Speaker 1: If you're black, you can buy mushrooms safely in this
Speaker 1: part of town.
Speaker 2: Make it right. There's gonna meet Jojo and the Brick
Speaker 2: at the Brick House. Tell them good moms.
Speaker 1: Oh my god.
Speaker 2: Now I do I do advocate for it. It's been great.
Speaker 1: I mean I think I don't. I think you have to.
Speaker 1: I don't think everyone needs to do them, honestly, I
Speaker 1: think you have to know yourself, be careful. You know
Speaker 1: some people you need to be ready.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel like we take them for fun.
Speaker 4: But mostly for their spiritual purpose.
Speaker 2: You know, I think even though you do it for fun,
Speaker 2: but we I think we've learned that to consume certain drugs,
Speaker 2: it's important to have an intention.
Speaker 1: That's really important. I feel like, obviously there's times where
Speaker 1: I don't, and but I find that it's when you
Speaker 1: do though, like you might forget it too along the way.
Speaker 1: You might forget what that intention was at some point
Speaker 1: in your journey. But like and.
Speaker 2: Also sometimes just be opening, just be open to what comes.
Speaker 2: You know, it doesn't have to be necessarily an intention
Speaker 2: that's nice too, but like whatever comes and visits you, whatever,
Speaker 2: resonates while you're on your trip.
Speaker 4: I think you have to be open to receiving that.
Speaker 2: If it's tears, if it's releasing you know, it's just
Speaker 2: like because I'm.
Speaker 1: Also doing it with someone that you feel safe with.
Speaker 1: I think is really important. Like, don't do mushrooms at
Speaker 1: like a house party because also unless it's all your friends,
Speaker 1: unless it's a homie, a house full of homies.
Speaker 2: Have you ever not? There's some times the mushrooms and
Speaker 2: I can't talk. Yeah, a lot of times you can't talk,
Speaker 2: like you have deep intense thoughts, don't try to express
Speaker 2: them anywhere. They don't make sense for me and Adventure,
Speaker 2: we have conversations that I'm what the fuck are we
Speaker 2: talking about? Like, yeah, you know, oh it doesn't.
Speaker 1: Matter, Well, I yeah, I don't really. I find that
Speaker 1: when I do do them, I rarely want to talk,
Speaker 1: and that I'm constantly mind blown on other people can't
Speaker 1: like when I when we did them in Taho, like
Speaker 1: they were having full conversations. I was sitting there just
Speaker 1: in silence, and I literally was I was like, I
Speaker 1: don't know how you guys were talking. What are you
Speaker 1: talking about? Why are we talking about TV shows? Talking
Speaker 1: there's nothing. There's more work to be done here. We
Speaker 1: don't care what happened on Insecure. I want to talk
Speaker 1: about my hands.
Speaker 2: Look at them, just sharing my hands, you'll feel that.
Speaker 2: I do you see these hands?
Speaker 1: Do you look at that?
Speaker 2: This is the answer to life?
Speaker 1: Wait?
Speaker 2: Did I tell you that?
Speaker 4: Speaking of answers to life and mushrooms?
Speaker 2: And did I tell you?
Speaker 1: I can't.
Speaker 2: I can't remember what I sat on the podcast and
Speaker 2: what I said to my friends, because all the same ship.
Speaker 2: When we went when we went camping last weekend with
Speaker 2: adventure Bay to Petrona Pannacles, we mean Adventuree took mushrooms
Speaker 2: and got in the tent. I don't know how again,
Speaker 2: met very little talking, but at some point he was
Speaker 2: like eating my pussy in the tent and I like
Speaker 2: looked up and I was just I had this epiphany.
Speaker 4: And my epiphany was like I am mother Earth.
Speaker 2: This is the beginning of life under the stars, in
Speaker 2: the dirt with the black man, black woman under this
Speaker 2: is my womb. Like I was feeling myself. I was
Speaker 2: fucking like mother Earth in that bitch. Suddenly I was
Speaker 2: like I was reaching up in the tent and I
Speaker 2: was like this is how life was created. In my belly.
Speaker 2: I was like feeling my belly was the stars. He
Speaker 2: was like, your vagina is always so high. He's like
Speaker 2: that that makes sense because you're like the you're that's
Speaker 2: where creation starts. And I was like, oh, he's right,
Speaker 2: eat my pussy, because this is.
Speaker 4: How life starts.
Speaker 2: I was getting real deep. Yeah you didn't. You did?
Speaker 1: You mentioned that part, but you didn't you mentioned the
Speaker 1: creation story. I did not know you were getting your
Speaker 1: pussy eight at that time. You failed to mention that part.
Speaker 4: Sitting on his face, feel like I was fucking mother Earth,
Speaker 4: that bitch.
Speaker 2: I was like, in this darkness under the stars dirt
Speaker 2: because there's only like fucking dirt out there, like dirt stars.
Speaker 4: I'm like, this is how everything started.
Speaker 2: Like the wind was blowing really hard. I was like, yeah,
Speaker 2: this is how we started to create.
Speaker 1: You're like, I'm in Africa.
Speaker 2: It's literally in my mind.
Speaker 1: So yeah, yeah.
Speaker 4: I also even though we've both had very.
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Speaker 1: Sixty days Oh yeah.
Speaker 2: A step by step guide. First, get my first, join hine.
Speaker 1: Second, take my shirts with the stranger, so.
Speaker 2: You cry if you want to. Well, I wanted to
Speaker 2: say Erica because she asked me this, because we also
Speaker 2: took We had a nice Molly run too. But we're
Speaker 2: not always doing drugs, so I know that it's even. So,
Speaker 2: just in case you guys were all wondering if we
Speaker 2: were in love or we were on drugs, we're both.
Speaker 2: We've done our fair share of sober hanging.
Speaker 1: It's confirmed. I still like him sober.
Speaker 2: No, honestly because asking that in the beginning, I was like,
Speaker 2: I'll get back to you on Monday. But now I'm like,
Speaker 2: so we went to the beach all day, no drugs.
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, this is good to know. We've hang
Speaker 2: out lots of times drugs.
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, you sound like you sound like a crackhe
Speaker 1: it sound like a crack up.
Speaker 4: No, but it's not.
Speaker 2: No sober and not sober. It's great.
Speaker 4: So that was just making that.
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm so glad. I'm so glad. We've got an update.
Speaker 1: You guys, you've heard it here first breaking news.
Speaker 2: Well, I think a part of me, myself sabotage and
Speaker 2: my fear of everything, like I'll leave him on Monday
Speaker 2: or Tuesday, and then I was like do I like,
Speaker 2: I don't know. I'm fine, I'm pretty cool, like I
Speaker 2: got this maybe not. Then on a Friday I see
Speaker 2: him again, I'm like, fuck, I'm in long.
Speaker 1: I thought I was, Oh my god.
Speaker 4: So much fear, but yeah, it's actually ridiculous.
Speaker 2: Do you have those well? Never mind what say it?
Speaker 1: But we haven't left each other's side.
Speaker 2: I don't want to put your business out there everything
Speaker 2: which I put.
Speaker 1: Your business out here all the time. Don't be shy.
Speaker 2: Now, Kay has been with this niggative for an approximately
Speaker 2: fifteen days straight, like literally approximately fifteen day straight. I
Speaker 2: was gonna say, do you feel like you try to
Speaker 2: convince yourself otherwise? But she doesn't know because she hasn't.
Speaker 1: I'm not denying. I'm not denying it.
Speaker 2: I know you can't.
Speaker 1: I've seen you. Yeah.
Speaker 2: Also, I didn't tell you this, but since we're talking,
Speaker 2: I don't care if you get a boyfriend. Bitch, don't
Speaker 2: you ever keep texting me back when I've called you?
Speaker 2: When did you call me two times this week? I've
Speaker 2: called you?
Speaker 1: My service is terrible. There ye ask everyone, I don't
Speaker 1: know any I got no miscalls.
Speaker 2: I think the phones have been fucking Look.
Speaker 1: At my Look at my boyfriend getting pissed, look at
Speaker 1: my husband. She's jealous.
Speaker 2: I'm like, is she text me back? When I just
Speaker 2: called her? I was like, I know that she got
Speaker 2: my misscall because I called. That's how the cellular's work.
Speaker 1: She saw, well, not when you're in the mountain.
Speaker 2: This is when you're back when she's just when I
Speaker 2: was back here. Then I told him tell her to
Speaker 2: call me when she's done. She did not call me.
Speaker 2: I said, is he not telling her the messages I'm
Speaker 2: sending her. I don't slap everybody. I'm a real boyfriend.
Speaker 2: When I realized, I was like, why is she text me?
Speaker 2: And I just called her?
Speaker 1: Was like, we go together? We we go together. Yeah.
Speaker 1: So backing up on my scorpio obsession, Actually today we
Speaker 1: had a conversation because I got something in the pattern
Speaker 1: app that said basically, when I'm in when i'm in
Speaker 1: love or i'm with someone, I can be obsessive And
Speaker 1: oh no, you don't say obsessive and impulsive or something.
Speaker 1: I don't know. It was another if, like a if impulsive,
Speaker 1: So I don't know, and so I was like, oh
Speaker 1: my god, I am being obsessive and I was like, wait,
Speaker 1: this is why I know this is And I had
Speaker 1: this conversation with him too afterwards because I sent it
Speaker 1: to him and I was like, look, I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm obsessive and he was like, no, you're not. I
Speaker 1: was like, well, you haven't left. You haven't left. I
Speaker 1: was like, well, you're a cancer too, so you're also
Speaker 1: a little bit obsessive as well, Like you will you'll
Speaker 1: just do you'll be You'll feed into the obsession with
Speaker 1: me because it's comfy and shit.
Speaker 2: I'm actually really lucky that adventure Prase is not feeding
Speaker 2: into any type of this shit.
Speaker 4: I would be.
Speaker 2: I would be I would do the same thing.
Speaker 1: So I realized that I he left today and I
Speaker 1: was like, you know, I just feel like fifteen. Yeah.
Speaker 1: He was like, I don't feel He's like, I don't
Speaker 1: feel like I'm not getting shit done, like I'm working.
Speaker 1: Like when you do you do your thing, you do
Speaker 1: your thing. I do my thing. I was like, it is, yes,
Speaker 1: that's true, but also I do feel distracted. I have
Speaker 1: been somewhat distracted. And also there's a difference between like
Speaker 1: you being here and me working versus you not being
Speaker 1: here and me working, like I want to get back
Speaker 1: to you, so I'm gonna like try to like hurry up,
Speaker 1: or like maybe I'll cut something short that like I
Speaker 1: could have probably finished had you not been here. So
Speaker 1: I think those things are like I've had to. I'm
Speaker 1: checking back in with myself because I know myself and
Speaker 1: I know that that has been detrimental for me in
Speaker 1: the past. Like it doesn't seem that way at first,
Speaker 1: but then suddenly I'm like, wait, why I'm not fulfilling
Speaker 1: my dreams because I'm just here with you, And also
Speaker 1: like you're fulfilling yours and I'm here to support yours,
Speaker 1: and I don't really feel like doing mine, so I
Speaker 1: don't I have to like be conscious of that and
Speaker 1: he and he kept saying, no, you're not, No, you're not,
Speaker 1: and I was like, listen, I know myself, Like you
Speaker 1: may not feel this way, but I know who I've
Speaker 1: been in previous relationships, and like, I know how it
Speaker 1: starts to show up in my life. It's it doesn't
Speaker 1: immediately feel that way, and it starts to slowly chip away,
Speaker 1: and then suddenly I'm doing nothing but fucking like one
Speaker 1: thing I.
Speaker 2: Will I appreciate about our friendship is that we're honest
Speaker 2: with each other and like I like, and I know,
Speaker 2: like we can both be digmatized dumb bitches.
Speaker 4: You know, the records have shown.
Speaker 2: But I also know that like you're not, so you're
Speaker 2: there's no point that you're not. You're not gonna check
Speaker 2: yourself and be like like, you're not gonna be like
Speaker 2: choosing dick dick dick, dick dick dick over like day
Speaker 2: to day, day to day just is not. I know,
Speaker 2: eventually You're gonna be like, Okay, well this I gotta
Speaker 2: shift my ship because that's how we check ourselves for
Speaker 2: the most part.
Speaker 4: And if not, you know, I'll check you and then
Speaker 4: you'll have to listen, right.
Speaker 1: I mean, And that might even be the reason that
Speaker 1: you know what that's probably is the reason why I'm
Speaker 1: in tired because I've been putting I've been putting a
Speaker 1: lot of energy into this new relationship that I've been
Speaker 1: in and also trying to balance this new relationship and
Speaker 1: motherhood and like trying to like the new opportun tunities
Speaker 1: and figuring out, like am I doing this the right way?
Speaker 1: Is she okay? Am I okay? Is he okay? Are
Speaker 1: we okay, like you know, and.
Speaker 2: Now it's it's it's like and then I and then
Speaker 2: I've even asked myself like do I have time to
Speaker 2: be liking someone? Like why did I do?
Speaker 1: Like why was I on hand?
Speaker 2: This is crazy?
Speaker 4: Like I want to be over here, I want to
Speaker 4: do work.
Speaker 2: I have to do that I want to like It's
Speaker 2: the answer I was feeling like I was getting overly
Speaker 2: anxious about just like there's so many things that we
Speaker 2: need to do that work behind on. And then you know,
Speaker 2: my like my personal shit, you know, Corona, my business,
Speaker 2: My baby is she is she learned, gonna go to
Speaker 2: kindergarten and know all this shit she's supposed to know.
Speaker 4: Plus I'm in love, like it's it's crazy.
Speaker 2: And then like adventure Bay is like a real adventure bae,
Speaker 2: and people not stup sending me links to stuff and
Speaker 2: I love it, my spear, but so many links, so
Speaker 2: many trips, so much reason, so many outdoor trips, so
Speaker 2: many outdoor and I'm so excited about them. But also
Speaker 2: I'm like, just tell tell me the day, send the calendar,
Speaker 2: invite and I will tell me what to bring. What's
Speaker 2: the weather going to be? Like I don't need the links,
Speaker 2: but it's so intense, and I think also we're in
Speaker 2: this like we're growing as women, we're growing as mothers,
Speaker 2: our children are growing and.
Speaker 4: It's like these it's like they are so hyper.
Speaker 2: Aware and now we're in these spaces where we've never
Speaker 2: done this before.
Speaker 4: Our kids are aware of what we're doing.
Speaker 2: I took Lona to the drive in movie with Adventure
Speaker 2: Bay and we'd hung out all three of us together before,
Speaker 2: but I was feeling like a little nervous because she's
Speaker 2: looking at me. I'm a certain way with him generally
Speaker 2: without her, and I kind of was like enjoying our
Speaker 2: separate lives. But now I'm like, that's not realistic. And
Speaker 2: then because it's not realistic, I'm like, am I Like
Speaker 2: what kind of mom thinks that way? It's a guilty thought,
Speaker 2: but like eventually, like it's just something that has to happen.
Speaker 2: They have to have a chemistry, they have to get
Speaker 2: to know each other, and it's just like a very
Speaker 2: strange place to be right now.
Speaker 4: I feel like with like these five year olds going
Speaker 4: on twenty.
Speaker 1: Five, I know, I mean, I know Ari is over
Speaker 1: here asking me is can't is blah blah, blah spending.
Speaker 1: Is he gonna spend the night? And I'm like what?
Speaker 1: And then I don't know, Like I was like on
Speaker 1: my trip, I was I was trying to be aware
Speaker 1: of our interactions in front of her. You know, I
Speaker 1: have to admit though, like I was affectionate towards him.
Speaker 1: I don't how can you not be? I mean, like
Speaker 1: he didn't. I don't know if she ever saw us kiss,
Speaker 1: but she definitely saw us hugging alive, like I don't
Speaker 1: think she did. I don't think she did, but there
Speaker 1: was definitely enough that it was like, this is not
Speaker 1: Uncle Sebastian, right, this is something else. And you know,
Speaker 1: at one point he asked her, He was like, Iri, like,
Speaker 1: how would you feel if I took your mom on
Speaker 1: a date? Can I take her on a date? And
Speaker 1: she was like yeah, And then she was like, but
Speaker 1: you have to get her a ring. I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, fucking Adrian, Adrian, fucking Ladybug, Miraculous. I
Speaker 1: don't know if anyone else's kids watch Miraculous Ladybug. Don't
Speaker 1: let them watch that show.
Speaker 2: They're girls. Don't let any kids watch it because it's
Speaker 2: it's brainwashed.
Speaker 1: Honestly, Like I don't, and that's another thing I feel
Speaker 1: bad that I don't. I haven't really sat down and
Speaker 1: watched the ship. I have my kid watching because I'm like, wait,
Speaker 1: what the fuck are they talking about over here?
Speaker 5: But just like yeah, just when there's a third person
Speaker 5: in the relationship, it's a huge dynamic. Even I realized,
Speaker 5: like this is this is mean, and this is actually
Speaker 5: I haven't discussed this with him, so I shouldn't.
Speaker 1: Say it, but I'm going to.
Speaker 2: He doesn't have kids, and he's not around well I
Speaker 2: mean it's probably his ex had a kid, but he
Speaker 2: fucking and I'm my parenting skills are adultish. But he
Speaker 2: talks to Luna like he's goddamn like Barney and mister Rogers.
Speaker 2: And it drives me crazy. And I know he's really trying.
Speaker 2: He is really trying, and she likes it, and she
Speaker 2: really likes him. And maybe I'm just a bad mom
Speaker 2: because I refuse to talk any regular than this. That's
Speaker 2: fucking up, what are you doing? Whatever, let's go. So
Speaker 2: he's like really animated and his talking and it was
Speaker 2: just like making me like a little.
Speaker 1: Tense, not tense, How dare you talk about a kid
Speaker 1: like a child.
Speaker 2: But also I I've come to the conclusion this week,
Speaker 2: probably yesterday, I think that I'm so cool and so
Speaker 2: relaxed and so go up the flow.
Speaker 4: But that's not true.
Speaker 2: I'm actually very rigid, and I actually get annoyed very quickly.
Speaker 2: And Erica will tell you my number one thing I
Speaker 2: say is so fucking annoyed. It's a fucking annoyed I
Speaker 2: say it probably four hundred times a day.
Speaker 1: I say it too, though, and then.
Speaker 2: But then I'm like, what are you really annoyed about?
Speaker 2: This nice man? Is being nice to your Child's wrong
Speaker 2: with me? Everything bothers me. I'm like, don't like it.
Speaker 1: That's not how we parent. Well that's why I said
Speaker 1: to you, Like I say, think it's a simple conversation.
Speaker 1: I think these men are show but are showing up
Speaker 1: in our lives, and we have to talk to them
Speaker 1: about how we have gotten to this place so far
Speaker 1: with our kids, you know, like how where they're at,
Speaker 1: like in their emotional development, Like Iris really sassy right
Speaker 1: now and like doing ship that like there's low key embarrassing,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, yo is I'm like, is this a
Speaker 1: reflection of me? And then like I'll realize that she
Speaker 1: says ship that I say, and I didn't even realize.
Speaker 1: I say, like she always like, she goes like what
Speaker 1: does she say? Like what do you mean?
Speaker 2: Like they're in this stage where that they can't curse,
Speaker 2: so they try to what the heck?
Speaker 1: What do you mean?
Speaker 2: What do you mean?
Speaker 1: What the heck?
Speaker 2: She's like, what the heck? What do you mean? What
Speaker 2: the he.
Speaker 1: And then the other day I was like, what do
Speaker 1: you mean? And he was like, that's where she gets
Speaker 1: it from. And I was like, fuck, he's right.
Speaker 2: But you have the correct because I realize what they're
Speaker 2: doing is they're trying to say what the hell, like
Speaker 2: trying to emulate a grown person talking, but they know
Speaker 2: they can't say that.
Speaker 1: So I, yeah, what the heck?
Speaker 2: I literally tell Lena, I said, I don't know why
Speaker 2: you keep doing that, and you're attempting to curse, but
Speaker 2: you're not al So stop inserting it in a way
Speaker 2: that you think that you're cursing, because it's annoying. You're
Speaker 2: not grown. Don't talk to me like that. Even if
Speaker 2: you say heck, I'll still slap you.
Speaker 1: I think it's also she doesn't she doesn't realize, like
Speaker 1: she's still trying to understand the boundaries of adults and kids,
Speaker 1: like what's acceptable to say to adults and what's acceptable
Speaker 1: to say to her little friends, and so those lines
Speaker 1: get blurred often. And for me, like, I know, I
Speaker 1: know what's happening because I'm in her life every day,
Speaker 1: but for someone else coming in who's just being exposed
Speaker 1: to these little nuances that she's going through, like they
Speaker 1: don't know that. And so it's I think it's important
Speaker 1: for us as parents that are dating people and know
Speaker 1: are going to be in our kids' lives to kind
Speaker 1: of have these conversations with them about where our kids
Speaker 1: are at, and this is how I'm dealing with it,
Speaker 1: and like I need you to get on board with it.
Speaker 1: Do you have any other opinions, Like I'll be open
Speaker 1: to hearing them, because I don't know what the fuck
Speaker 1: I'm really doing, But for the most part, like this
Speaker 1: is I have some sort of like blueprint as to
Speaker 1: like how I'm doing dealing with certain things, you know, and.
Speaker 2: So and also I think it's the first time in
Speaker 2: our like really in our parents, like that first time
Speaker 2: that it's actually I realized. It's also like we're also
Speaker 2: kind of concerned because there's someone judging our parenting.
Speaker 1: That's too. I feel me too. I felt I thought,
Speaker 1: I thought, I kind of felt I'm barras. I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, he thinks that she's a brat. My fault.
Speaker 1: It's my fault. She's a brat because of me.
Speaker 2: She keeps calling him a poopy head.
Speaker 1: I'm a bad parent. I'm a bad parent.
Speaker 2: Her, Like, I feel like a fucking angel.
Speaker 1: You are proud.
Speaker 2: We're trying to we're trying to get wet and how
Speaker 2: I like a good child.
Speaker 1: When I was even telling Jamila, like there was a
Speaker 1: there was a point where on the on the road
Speaker 1: trip there, it was a really long ride, and like
Speaker 1: she said something to him or like wanted a pillow,
Speaker 1: but like wasn't going about it in a good way.
Speaker 1: Like she was just not going about it in a
Speaker 1: good way and he wasn't giving into it. And then
Speaker 1: like she was being a brade. And then he got
Speaker 1: your id and was like, no, I'm not giving you
Speaker 1: the pillow. And then I'm hearing what's happening backseat, I'm
Speaker 1: immediately triggered. I'm like, what give her the fucking pillow?
Speaker 1: What the fuck? Like, what do you mean?
Speaker 2: What do you mean, What do you mean.
Speaker 1: Why are you giving her the pillow? I don't And
Speaker 1: then I was like, she is being a little bitch,
Speaker 1: but like only I can do that. And then I
Speaker 1: was like, oh god, but this is what I asked for.
Speaker 1: I wanted someone that was like going to, like, you know,
Speaker 1: help me obviously, like he he has to have boundaries
Speaker 1: and like this is my child, and like, but that's
Speaker 1: why it's important. That's when I realized on this trip,
Speaker 1: I realized it is important for us to me to
Speaker 1: have conversations with him. And he even said it. He
Speaker 1: was like, you know what, I realized that, like I
Speaker 1: should probably ask you how you're you know, disciplining her,
Speaker 1: and like if you want me to help you in
Speaker 1: that way, what you feel comfortable with? And like, because
Speaker 1: I didn't know, I didn't fel uncomfortable until it happened,
Speaker 1: and I was immediately triggered and I wanted to curse
Speaker 1: him out even though she was wrong.
Speaker 2: I think it also requires for us, because I've had
Speaker 2: to do this a lot in this process, is remind myself.
Speaker 4: What is it that you actually want? Jamila?
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying, Because we ask for these
Speaker 2: things we write this manifestation list, we love my baby
Speaker 2: like it's your own, you know, and then it happens
Speaker 2: We're like, ah, how'd you know? And then like or
Speaker 2: we're taking her with us to places and I'm like,
Speaker 2: this feels weird. Yeah, should I have left your home?
Speaker 2: You know what I mean? And I'm like and it's
Speaker 2: like I have to check myself all the time, because no, actually,
Speaker 2: I do want this. I do want us to be
Speaker 2: able to blend. I do want this to feel comfortable.
Speaker 2: I don't know why I'm sweating so hard while this
Speaker 2: is happening, Like I'm gonna like this is It's just
Speaker 2: we've lived our single mom lives so so, you know,
Speaker 2: so long. At this point, it's just like it is
Speaker 2: a shift, and it does require us to kind of
Speaker 2: check ourselves in the process, because we do want partners
Speaker 2: that are not going to be like, well, it's not
Speaker 2: my baby my problem. And it's also it's early and
Speaker 2: so you have to establish those boundaries. But also, you know,
Speaker 2: like even having the conversation to say, like, what is
Speaker 2: you know, I think that's cool because I don't want
Speaker 2: a guy who wants to be in my life but
Speaker 2: also doesn't think you know what I mean. This isn't
Speaker 2: like you're not gonna be beaten my cad or no
Speaker 2: shit like that. But you know, I just want, I think,
Speaker 2: if we want to have more kids, I need to
Speaker 2: know where you're out on parenting, Like, these are.
Speaker 4: Things that are important to understand about one another. That
Speaker 4: is your kid voice.
Speaker 2: Why why if you have to talk in that voice?
Speaker 2: I don't understand. But it's just like it's a very
Speaker 2: interesting dating dynamic with children and having to have chemistry abroad.
Speaker 2: You know, it's not just you and this person. It's you,
Speaker 2: this person and your child. So oh Lord Jesus said help.
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, it's definitely been Really I don't even want
Speaker 1: to say the word. It's the word triggered comes up.
Speaker 1: But it's not that, it's just like it's just pulling
Speaker 1: things open that I'm I'm like, oh, even things that
Speaker 1: I thought, like I think I talked about this in
Speaker 1: the last episode that like things I thought I had
Speaker 1: worked on that it were done. I haven't really had
Speaker 1: the chance to work on them because there hasn't been
Speaker 1: someone to like force me to have to actively address them.
Speaker 1: It's just like I've been addressing them by myself. You know,
Speaker 1: and now and now I have someone here challenging me,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, oh, yeah, I'm still not I'm still
Speaker 1: not healed from that all the way, even this whole
Speaker 1: like we've been together for like two weeks straight, you know,
Speaker 1: like I thought like, oh, yeah, I'm good.
Speaker 2: I don't do that.
Speaker 1: I'm really good at not doing that. No I'm not.
Speaker 1: I'm not good at not doing that.
Speaker 2: I realized, like because like poetry, Bay is a cancer,
Speaker 2: and so I have we have. I think there's traits
Speaker 2: that I see, like because I need a lot. I
Speaker 2: if you don't give me a lot of reassurance, like
Speaker 2: tell me you want me to come, tell me you
Speaker 2: want me to stay, I've immediately in my mind, I'm like,
Speaker 2: they don't really like me. Do they want me to
Speaker 2: sit here? Should I leave? Are you trying to tell
Speaker 2: me to leave? I can get high, I know if
Speaker 2: they make up some whole shit in my head. He
Speaker 2: told me believe is he tired of me? Does he's
Speaker 2: looking at me funny? He's tapping his pen. I think
Speaker 2: he's annoyed, you know, like the ridiculous things. But also
Speaker 2: like I have to train myself out of that, like
Speaker 2: like thinking that I'm a burden, like, no, I'm here,
Speaker 2: Like I could stay if I want. If he didn't
Speaker 2: want me to be here, tell me. If he does
Speaker 2: say leave give me space, then I'm okay with that too.
Speaker 2: And actually, one of our four hundred links that he
Speaker 2: sent me, but one of our four hundred trips that
Speaker 2: were planning, he basically said, I want to do these,
Speaker 2: this and this, but if you don't want to do it,
Speaker 2: I'm totally cool with you staying behind and doing something else.
Speaker 2: In fact, I really encourage you to do some travel,
Speaker 2: like we can go to blah blah blah together, but
Speaker 2: I really encourage you to do some traveling alone and
Speaker 2: do some things on your own. I think it's important,
Speaker 2: as you know, as a female, to just travel alone.
Speaker 4: And initially my first instinct was.
Speaker 2: Like, why are you trying to get rid of me
Speaker 2: on a trip that we've planned, we're planning together. And
Speaker 2: then after I had to really sit and sit with
Speaker 2: it and think, I'm like, actually, that's really nice of
Speaker 2: you to even like give me the option.
Speaker 4: It's really nice that there's someone who.
Speaker 2: Like, first of all, you're not like women are gonna
Speaker 2: get raped and killed in a foreign country. You know,
Speaker 2: like that propaganda that everybody gives and then that you
Speaker 2: want to give me freedom to go explore and do
Speaker 2: my own thing. I've never had that really in a relationship.
Speaker 2: And so I've realized I've developed this understanding of relationships
Speaker 2: that if you don't want to be up under me
Speaker 2: and love me and need me all the time, you
Speaker 2: don't love me, which is sick in psycho, but I
Speaker 2: see as the dynamics. I thought of my parents codependence
Speaker 2: like a motherfucker till this day, you know, like very
Speaker 2: like my mom. I love my mom, She's amazing, but
Speaker 2: like her, my dad is her fucking kryptonite. She can
Speaker 2: call him from the aisle six to ask what beans
Speaker 2: shoes shit buy? He could be in a different country.
Speaker 2: It's just like this thing. But like I've realized that
Speaker 2: I because I probably have some sort of abandonment issues
Speaker 2: and other shit that if someone's not constantly reinsuring me
Speaker 2: or be like please come with me, please come stay,
Speaker 2: be with me, stay, I love you, then I'm like,
Speaker 2: maybe they don't want me here, maybe I shouldn't be here,
Speaker 2: And how fuck that you know of a mindset that is?
Speaker 2: And so I'm having to really like address those things
Speaker 2: in this relationship with someone who's obviously like enjoys his
Speaker 2: his boundaries and his space, and I actually do too.
Speaker 2: So I don't know why I've come to believe this,
Speaker 2: that relationship should work that way or else.
Speaker 4: It doesn't mean shit, right right, No, it's true.
Speaker 1: I mean, I think there's all the other ways for you,
Speaker 1: for it seems like he does that, like there's other
Speaker 1: ways to make you feel secure in it when you
Speaker 1: are when you guys are apart, you know. So I
Speaker 1: don't know. I don't know if poetry Bay is exactly
Speaker 1: like that, But I don't know. I mean I think,
Speaker 1: I think, I think I'm like that too. I think
Speaker 1: that's why I have had I think it's not so
Speaker 1: much about like I, if you're not with me, you
Speaker 1: don't love me. It's more so like I don't know,
Speaker 1: I don't know what it is part of me is
Speaker 1: like in the past, it was me avoiding myself. That's
Speaker 1: why I did it because I didn't know what I
Speaker 1: wanted to do with my life. I didn't know. I
Speaker 1: didn't know if I was good at anything, and like
Speaker 1: he was good at at something, and like I knew
Speaker 1: I could empower that and I could support that and
Speaker 1: that was good enough for me at the time, which
Speaker 1: is really weird and sad to say, No, it's honest.
Speaker 2: I think we all go through questioning if we're adequate,
Speaker 2: if we're doing enough.
Speaker 1: It was it was just so much easier to avoid
Speaker 1: doing anything if I was just with him all the time,
Speaker 1: and like I was going with him everywhere.
Speaker 2: And he wasn't the.
Speaker 4: Type of guy tod be like, what did you want
Speaker 4: to do?
Speaker 2: No, of course, not fostering those dreams.
Speaker 1: You know, he wanted someone to join him. He didn't.
Speaker 1: He didn't like to be alone either, So it was
Speaker 1: like the perfect codependency, Like he doesn't have to really
Speaker 1: ask me what the fuck I'm doing, and I'm still
Speaker 1: going to come on the long for the ride with him.
Speaker 2: I've been in that relationship where the codependency was equal,
Speaker 2: and I've seen where that's taken me, and it's not
Speaker 2: good because I know I can get comfortable like that
Speaker 2: and then I'll get resentful, but and I'm still doing it.
Speaker 2: And then, and I've said this before, I think in
Speaker 2: new relationships in general, and even though you guys have
Speaker 2: been together for forty seven days and nights, I think
Speaker 2: part of the problem is when we do that, it's
Speaker 2: like not only like you can eat burns hot and
Speaker 2: then it can sizzle. I'm not saying that at all,
Speaker 2: but I think what happens is there becomes this routine.
Speaker 2: I'm being together all the time, routine, routine, routine, and
Speaker 2: it feels good and it feels nice. And as soon
Speaker 2: as some break steps out of that routine, you're like, hmmm,
Speaker 2: this feels different. Where are you going? Why are you
Speaker 2: doing that? And so because you've become accustomed to being
Speaker 2: with someone, so it's not so much that you're really
Speaker 2: jealous or offended or feel really any probably there's real
Speaker 2: no deeper reasons except that, wow, it's changed from the
Speaker 2: routine that we've been in, and so now it feels
Speaker 2: it feels uncomfortable and it feels awkward.
Speaker 4: Like well, why didn't you invite me?
Speaker 2: Why why can't I come?
Speaker 1: Or you know, like that's not and that's it's something
Speaker 1: I definitely don't I don't want.
Speaker 2: I think we do that as women in it and
Speaker 2: like and when that happens, because I've done that, I've
Speaker 2: done that, like to the point where I would fucking
Speaker 2: take a shower without would be like, why are you
Speaker 2: taking shower right now? I'm like, because I want to
Speaker 2: wash my ask He thought we were supposed to take
Speaker 2: showers every single day together, you know what I mean,
Speaker 2: because it was our routine. It felt weird for him
Speaker 2: when I did it, and then I was like, this
Speaker 2: is getting too much, so that this is my first
Speaker 2: time like being an adult and like liking someone and not.
Speaker 4: And actually being able to come.
Speaker 2: Up for air. I think we've switched, you know, it's
Speaker 2: I don't even know who I am.
Speaker 1: I think we've switched. I think that was me before.
Speaker 1: That's that's been me in my dating situations, even with
Speaker 1: Happy Bay, like we had we were together a lot,
Speaker 1: but we also like had a lot of boundaries just
Speaker 1: just different boundaries or whatever. But like I know, for me,
Speaker 1: I do need space period, like I do, and like
Speaker 1: I don't want to ever be in the position where
Speaker 1: like I'm like I'm gonna go on a trip with
Speaker 1: my friends and like someone is like, what, like it
Speaker 1: feels weird because that's gonna make me feel triggered. I'd
Speaker 1: be like, Nigga, what fuck exactly? Like because I know
Speaker 1: I'm not like, no, I need time. I need my girl,
Speaker 1: like I need my girl time and that's it, you know.
Speaker 1: But I think I've been moving really fast in the
Speaker 1: last obviously like month and a half, and for me,
Speaker 1: like if it has felt natural, I'm not. And That's
Speaker 1: why I've been going with it because before I was
Speaker 1: navigating and set in a space of such fear that
Speaker 1: I was like, let me just explore this and like
Speaker 1: walk into something not feeling scared, and see where it goes.
Speaker 1: But now I think I think today too was like
Speaker 1: a big realization for me, not realization, it was just
Speaker 1: like a reminder like hey, bitch, like okay, y'all secure,
Speaker 1: you did it. Now let's let's break it up a
Speaker 1: little bit, do what you gotta do. And but like
Speaker 1: still like there's it doesn't mean anything is wrong, anything
Speaker 1: negative has happened, but I need to find the balance again.
Speaker 2: Well, we're not you know, we're thirty something year old women.
Speaker 2: You know, we're not like in high school. Like we've said,
Speaker 2: we have other things going on. We have children, we
Speaker 2: have friendships, we have businesses, and those things need tending
Speaker 2: to too. So it's just like you know, doing relationships
Speaker 2: with the adult style, attempting to be adults again. Anyway,
Speaker 2: I feel thirty two.
Speaker 4: Okay, I'm thirty two. I've seen my boyfriend on the weekend.
Speaker 2: Ooh, oh my god.
Speaker 4: So stupid. Not my boyfriend, Just.
Speaker 1: Kidding, m hm.
Speaker 4: Anyway, anyway, do you have any horries?
Speaker 2: Somebody asked, are horries done because Erica has a boyfriend?
Speaker 2: I said, bitch, so, oh my god, speaking of horries,
Speaker 2: you guys, if you haven't listened, you should go back
Speaker 2: and listen to Paid.
Speaker 1: Sex, Strange Sex, Paid Sex with Wheezy for hormal Decisions.
Speaker 2: Because I don't know what came up. I don't think
Speaker 2: my adventure Bay has listened to the podcast yet, but
Speaker 2: I was like, let me do. I was like, it's
Speaker 2: only a matter of time, right, So, like, I don't
Speaker 2: know what came up. He admitted to some shit he
Speaker 2: had paid for some pussy or something. He had made
Speaker 2: a ground tender or something and.
Speaker 1: Paid for it off tender.
Speaker 2: Well, he thought it was a date, and then in
Speaker 2: the date she was basically like, okay, well you know
Speaker 2: this is my intention. Okay. First of all, I meture
Speaker 2: Bay is a fucking he's a fucking angel. He was like,
Speaker 2: he's like, you know, we were on Monday and then
Speaker 2: went again. She kind of laid down and tell me
Speaker 2: what she you know, what heard what the game was,
Speaker 2: and you know, I thought she was a really cool girl.
Speaker 2: And it's a hard time. It was hard times, and
Speaker 2: people have different ways of making, you know, different hustles,
Speaker 2: and you know, so I gave her the money.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, shut up.
Speaker 2: I said, you were a fucking angel. And he's like,
Speaker 2: she was nice. I tried to date her. I was like,
Speaker 2: you were an angel, He's like, But then I realized
Speaker 2: she was kind of get.
Speaker 4: Out what anyway?
Speaker 2: So I felt that I should tell him about my
Speaker 2: paid sex. Oh you told it?
Speaker 1: Yeah, Oh my god.
Speaker 2: I was like, well, I just don't want I'm like,
Speaker 2: let me tell you the story.
Speaker 4: Once upon a time episode pa change sex.
Speaker 2: I told him about this, you know, incident where I
Speaker 2: accepted money for sex and very many many moons ago,
Speaker 2: and that it was actually a really nice experience. And
Speaker 2: he was just like, yeah, whatever, like you know, laughed
Speaker 2: it off, like whatever. But I just like, I don't
Speaker 2: ever want you to be in a position where someone
Speaker 2: else has listened and tells you some shit about me
Speaker 2: and you have no fucking clue.
Speaker 1: You know. It's so funny that you did that because
Speaker 1: I shared something with Poetry Bay yesterday that was like
Speaker 1: really personal because when I've talked about it on another episode,
Speaker 1: which I think was like which one was it? Like
Speaker 1: I said, no, motherfucker.
Speaker 4: Oh yeah.
Speaker 1: And we drove by this hotel that I always get
Speaker 1: triggered by in the valley every time I drive by it,
Speaker 1: like I get flashbacks. And we had driven by it
Speaker 1: yesterday and it was like out then the outside it
Speaker 1: so like the best fried chicken in town, and I
Speaker 1: was like at the best Western Oh yeah, I saw that,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm talking about. Yeah, And like I
Speaker 1: thought about telling him and I was like embarrassed, and
Speaker 1: I was like I don't want to tell him about this.
Speaker 1: And then like he told me. We were we were
Speaker 1: on a walk and he's like, man, I really want
Speaker 1: I do want some fried chicken. And then I like
Speaker 1: started talking.
Speaker 2: Not there, no, he was just saying in general.
Speaker 1: And I was we go back to that place and
Speaker 1: then he was like huh, and I was like, actually,
Speaker 1: that place is really holds a lot of like when
Speaker 1: I drive by that place, I it takes me back
Speaker 1: to a really fucked up time. And he and I
Speaker 1: almost didn't tell Like, he was like, we're gonna tell me,
Speaker 1: and I was like, no, I'm not.
Speaker 2: And it's so weird that.
Speaker 4: Really not it's not even your doing.
Speaker 1: I know it's not my doing, but it's embarrassing. It's
Speaker 1: more so like I I feel embarrassed that I allowed
Speaker 1: it to happen. Because I allowed it to happen, you know,
Speaker 1: yeah whatever, you go listen to the episode. You don't
Speaker 1: know what I'm talking about. But but sharing that with him,
Speaker 1: like I felt like, oh my god, Like I know
Speaker 1: he wasn't gonna judge me. But I've never told a
Speaker 1: man that i've dated that. I've never told anyone that
Speaker 1: because I felt like it makes me look weak. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean I but inevitably everyone who's listened to our
Speaker 1: pod know that story about me, and so I'm like,
Speaker 1: I might as well just tell him because he does listen,
Speaker 1: and you know, it's just I don't know.
Speaker 2: I yeah, I think I even I also mentioned my
Speaker 2: two three way kisses in New York, and I was
Speaker 2: just like that was hell it out.
Speaker 1: I mean that was fun that I love watching it.
Speaker 4: I mean, yeah, I just.
Speaker 2: I've been really okay. I've had a bad habit being
Speaker 2: super blatantly hardcore honest in a dating situation, because I
Speaker 2: feel like that was my defense mechanism. Like if I'm
Speaker 2: blatantly honest to people, then like I don't have to
Speaker 2: worry about taking it there because then they won't really
Speaker 2: like see me that way. But also, like I realized
Speaker 2: what I do is when I really start developing feeling
Speaker 2: for someone, I start to like pull the back well
Speaker 2: in honesty because it's too honest and it's too crazy
Speaker 2: because I'm crazy. And then I'm like, I.
Speaker 4: Don't want to do that in this relationship.
Speaker 2: I don't want to like start really getting feelings for
Speaker 2: someone and then start like altering the truth or not
Speaker 2: being completely honest because I'm scared of what that how
Speaker 2: you're gonna look at me. I want to feel safe
Speaker 2: in telling you, and I want to continue to do
Speaker 2: that even if it's uncomfortable, because what's the worst you're
Speaker 2: gonna do? Like I've had a life before you, and again.
Speaker 1: Right right, I'm not perfect, you know? So right?
Speaker 5: This is it?
Speaker 1: So do we have horries? Did we ever? Even? People
Speaker 1: have submitted some.
Speaker 2: Where is our hories file? So many? Here? You guys,
Speaker 2: I just want to give a shout out to May Tarini,
Speaker 2: to our team for holding us down because we got help, y'all,
Speaker 2: and we're so fucking lucky because yeah, honestly, we can't
Speaker 2: do it alone. Okay, So now it's time for horror stories, stories,
Speaker 2: horse story, hashtag, three a kiss hashtag, Mama unicorn O
Speaker 2: Mama Unicorn. Okay, so I'm going to make this as
Speaker 2: short and sweet as possible. So I'm in this mom
Speaker 2: group on Facebook. It's already good for cannabis positive melan
Speaker 2: and mothers in this group. Okay, can you add us?
Speaker 2: There are several other side group chats to promote other
Speaker 2: causes as well. Every Friday and Saturday, there's a group
Speaker 2: chat where we members of the secret group post nudes, selfies, stories,
Speaker 2: and whatever else we feel sexy we feel sexy about
Speaker 2: in order to get maybe approval before we need it,
Speaker 2: to need it, to send to Bay or maybe to
Speaker 2: just because we are proud of the photo. So never
Speaker 2: in my life have I been with a woman before,
Speaker 2: but I could definitely say I've always appreciated the woman's body. Well,
Speaker 2: there is this one girl in the group who happens
Speaker 2: to be my friend from my hometown, but we both
Speaker 2: now live here in Atlanta, whom I've found myself constantly
Speaker 2: flirting with, and I can just definitely tell she was
Speaker 2: feeling me. Long story short, After like a year of
Speaker 2: online flirting, we finally link up. I went over to
Speaker 2: her house and she had cooked her man and I dinner. Ok.
Speaker 2: M sexing delicious by the way. After we ate, we
Speaker 2: went to the living room to play Dranka Jinga with
Speaker 2: a bottle of tequila and Hella blunts of course fun.
Speaker 2: Finally the bottle is finished, finished, conversation between the three
Speaker 2: of us was flowing, just vibing perfectly. Finally, her man
Speaker 2: gets up and runs to the bathroom for a moment.
Speaker 2: As he leaves, she looked to me, looked me at
Speaker 2: dead in the eyes with the look of desire, and says, hey,
Speaker 2: can we talk about that picture you posted earlier in
Speaker 2: the chat blushing and flirting? I say, what about it?
Speaker 2: She then just straight up asked if she could taste it?
Speaker 2: Matter of fact, she said she wants to taste it.
Speaker 2: I told her I had never been with the woman before,
Speaker 2: but fuck it. She then proceeded to say that her
Speaker 2: man doesn't mind, he could just watch It doesn't matter
Speaker 2: to her. As long as she can taste it, he
Speaker 2: kind of get tasty. Honestly, I need to get to
Speaker 2: this Facebook group. When tequila is involved. I am very
Speaker 2: open to suggestions, and since she this is the most.
Speaker 1: Only went to kill me too.
Speaker 2: All the suggestions, all the suggestions on tequila. Absolutely tequila
Speaker 2: will open that mind. And since she suggested to let
Speaker 2: me let her eat me out, I said sure, because Tequila.
Speaker 2: So we moved to the room and her man puts
Speaker 2: on a movie as background noise. She wastes no time
Speaker 2: and began to start making out with me. That wasn't
Speaker 2: the first time I kissed a girl, so that wasn't
Speaker 2: new territory. However, the kissing definitely turned her man on,
Speaker 2: so he began to start touching us both and hell
Speaker 2: I was turned on, so I thought to myself, I
Speaker 2: was just gonna let it go where it goes. The
Speaker 2: two person make out then turned into three. As she's
Speaker 2: eating me out, he gets he starts giving her backshots. Ooh,
Speaker 2: and I look at this man is hung Helena. Can
Speaker 2: you put some Hellelia Now? I'm Hella excited because I
Speaker 2: know I'm next winky face. This goes on for hours
Speaker 2: of just endless orgasms for everyone. Needless to say, I
Speaker 2: will be going over there again now the Facebook meeting
Speaker 2: side note, I have since spoken with her as she
Speaker 2: and him have checked up checked up on me every day,
Speaker 2: making sure I didn't need anything sweet. Oh, that's really nice.
Speaker 2: We were talking about our previous dick life, our previous
Speaker 2: dick life, and she explained her theory on how all
Speaker 2: how all uncircumcised men were extremely big. I don't know
Speaker 2: if that's true. I scoffed up my nose and told
Speaker 2: her i'd take her word as I had never been
Speaker 2: with an uncircumcised man before. She laughed so hard and said, bitch,
Speaker 2: you were last night I died.
Speaker 1: She didn't even know she did. Well, that's the thing.
Speaker 1: When it's hard, it looks the same.
Speaker 2: That was amazing. That was a beautiful story.
Speaker 1: So send the link to the Facebook group. Me and
Speaker 1: Miela are joining asap because me and my man are
Speaker 1: trying to have fun too.
Speaker 2: Are you guys trying to find it?
Speaker 1: Wait?
Speaker 2: Okay, I have a question the unicorns a third person. Okay,
Speaker 2: so you guys trying I've only.
Speaker 1: Ever been a unicorn. I've never been in a relationship
Speaker 1: and had someone come.
Speaker 2: I'm generally I've generally been in you know, I've only
Speaker 2: ever been in Unicorn. I've attempted to not be the
Speaker 2: unicorn once and that didn't work out. Yeah, I've been
Speaker 2: discussing opening up the bedroom doors myself, but it's just
Speaker 2: some pickens because we can't go anywhere. And I told
Speaker 2: them I actually said I need to join field. Is
Speaker 2: that for three ways? Oh my god, I can't wait.
Speaker 2: She he I told him. Actually he was like, oh, so,
Speaker 2: like he wanted you really want to do that. I
Speaker 2: was like, yeah, I'd be open to it. I'm not
Speaker 2: like trying to have a relationship with a girl, but
Speaker 2: I don't mind like, you know, playing, And he was like,
Speaker 2: so should I find someone? I was like, okay, first
Speaker 2: but you need to do is go and listen to episode.
Speaker 1: Successful Ways to have a free experience, And rule number
Speaker 1: one is let the woman choose.
Speaker 2: I said, you cannot choose. Shit, Okay, you don't even
Speaker 2: make a suggestion. It's like, actually, I kind of want
Speaker 2: to see you would choose, just because I'm curious. But yeah,
Speaker 2: so I'm always here for a fun, loving, respectful threesome.
Speaker 2: I just think it's you know, it could be it
Speaker 2: could be a fun night tequila.
Speaker 1: It's like it's like a it's like an enhancement. It's
Speaker 1: like a human sexd on, like an add on, like
Speaker 1: we add on something in a car wash or a spa.
Speaker 2: Right, Like, just do at the wax, wax those tires.
Speaker 1: You don't anything else is fine. Everything you can do.
Speaker 2: The regular maintenance, but sometimes you need a little extra.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I know, we've been talking about it, and I'm
Speaker 1: ready to not be the unicorn. And actually I don't
Speaker 1: know what the other I don't know what I'm called now, what's.
Speaker 2: Like the mom, the mama, corn head, honcho, horse and charge.
Speaker 2: I'm curious. I'm curious to see how a man can
Speaker 2: handle two women.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it needs a lot of work. It's a special
Speaker 1: gift and talent as.
Speaker 2: So me alone is a lot of work. Like I
Speaker 2: can have a lot of sex. I can be like
Speaker 2: five days, five to seven days a week easily and
Speaker 2: be totally happy about it.
Speaker 1: You too.
Speaker 2: So I'm just like, can you handle me plus another bitch?
Speaker 2: Because my pussy stays wet, stays ready, stays ready, And
Speaker 2: if I bring another bitch in, is that going to
Speaker 2: take away from me?
Speaker 1: I don't know, Well, that's what you need to check
Speaker 1: in with yourself.
Speaker 2: You dissect I'm not tired. I'm not tired yet when
Speaker 2: I get tired on my tax ah.
Speaker 1: I think it's a matter of safety and how secure
Speaker 1: you feel in the relationship. Don't obviously we've already done
Speaker 1: this episode, and like, don't do it. If you don't,
Speaker 1: don't do it unless you feel really secure and in
Speaker 1: where you're going in it. And you guys, are a
Speaker 1: boyfriend or girlfriend yet but technically whatever the fuck that means.
Speaker 1: But like, I mean, I just feel like just if
Speaker 1: you have any sort of anxieties around the status of
Speaker 1: your relationship, then probably don't you know.
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't I know. I mean, I think
Speaker 2: it will just happen when it happens. I'm not going
Speaker 2: to go fucking out my way and go assign a
Speaker 2: friend to this task or now she's like, I don't
Speaker 2: have any friends, though.
Speaker 1: I mean, I feel like at this point in the game,
Speaker 1: in the world we live in, we might have to
Speaker 1: go out of our way.
Speaker 2: Oh oh my god, I know he did say I
Speaker 2: don't want to offend anyone, but I said that I've
Speaker 2: only eaten one white pussy.
Speaker 1: All the white people don't be offended.
Speaker 2: But and he's and he was like, I've never you haven't.
Speaker 2: He was like, well, that that's where I come in.
Speaker 2: I was like, okay, that could work. Kay of sounds
Speaker 2: like that could work.
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 2: I mean, I'm not saying I'm apposed to it, just
Speaker 2: you know, you know, I've only done it once. Yeah
Speaker 2: for me. Yeah, but the sex is good. This is
Speaker 2: just a very new place for me. I'm so happy
Speaker 2: that I put girthy big penis on my manifestation list.
Speaker 2: It was I put it twice, so important. I was like, Wow,
Speaker 2: I wasn't kidding.
Speaker 1: Hut manifestations are we well anyway, you guys, that's enough
Speaker 1: of our anting. That's enough of our ranting. Make that
Speaker 1: man infestation list. Whether it's for a man, career, life,
Speaker 1: your kids, whatever, do that shit because it really fucking works.
Speaker 1: Me and Jamila have done it in so many realms
Speaker 1: of our worlds, whether it's with love or even with
Speaker 1: good moms. And it's a beautiful thing once once you
Speaker 1: watch it unfold. So I really encourage you guys to
Speaker 1: do it. Just take the time. Takes ten minutes, maybe longer,
Speaker 1: because then once you.
Speaker 2: Start writing, you're like, oh goshit, keep going back.
Speaker 1: I haven't really thought about this.
Speaker 2: And even cross reference with your friends because some of
Speaker 2: the things I didn't think about Erica had and that's
Speaker 2: always nice, Like, oh, you're right, I forgot about that.
Speaker 2: Actually it should be you should do a party if
Speaker 2: you have like five friends, that would be best. No, sure,
Speaker 2: you don't forget shit. Also, my birthday is on Monday.
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