WEBVTT - How Close Is Too Close? 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:03.119 Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 0:00:03.240 --> 0:00:18.120 and the Black Effects. And just like that, we're back 0:00:18.120 --> 0:00:21.400 with yet another Carefully Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious. 0:00:21.640 --> 0:00:23.479 Now listen, I know I have a lot of guests 0:00:23.520 --> 0:00:25.599 from time to time. I got my sister, I got 0:00:25.640 --> 0:00:28.400 my son, my little baby father, my best friend, my brother. 0:00:28.720 --> 0:00:31.800 But y'all ain't ever had this girl on here yet. 0:00:31.920 --> 0:00:34.599 But y'all do see her every Wednesday at seven pm 0:00:34.640 --> 0:00:40.960 on Reckless Discussions. It's my favorite cousin London, say with yeah, bitch, 0:00:41.000 --> 0:00:43.440 Now listen, we're not gonna get away like miss Perfect 0:00:43.440 --> 0:00:46.239 Patty Pussy and ship ready doing this and what's up you? 0:00:46.800 --> 0:00:49.320 What's up your per But I have a new slogan 0:00:49.400 --> 0:00:51.839 from this perfect right, what's miss perfect girl? What's the 0:00:51.840 --> 0:00:56.120 new slogan? Bitch? Hashtag? It's the guard in me? Hash 0:00:56.160 --> 0:00:57.680 things to God to me. I keep telling you don't 0:00:57.680 --> 0:00:59.600 have to lean into the mic like niggas can't hear 0:00:59.640 --> 0:01:03.040 you die? And a ross we heat you. Okay, it's 0:01:03.040 --> 0:01:07.440 a garden you. But you're drunk currently? Is that correct? Um? 0:01:07.440 --> 0:01:12.280 A wow, I don't snitch, excuse me, Yeah, she's drunk. 0:01:12.360 --> 0:01:15.440 She's drunk. We're gonna that's funny, but no, I'm happy 0:01:15.480 --> 0:01:18.080 to have you on girl. You finally came on the 0:01:18.080 --> 0:01:22.200 podcast now listen. London has been saying forever, Oh, I 0:01:22.200 --> 0:01:23.600 want to do a podcast with you. I want to 0:01:23.600 --> 0:01:25.560 do a podcast with you. But when she actually gets 0:01:25.600 --> 0:01:27.720 around me and it's time to do it, she's like, 0:01:27.880 --> 0:01:29.840 nowhere to be found. No, I have to be a 0:01:29.880 --> 0:01:32.760 mom because I have a five year old hate when 0:01:32.840 --> 0:01:35.959 a bit saved one kid and be like, uh, if 0:01:36.000 --> 0:01:38.400 you have a kid, you would understand. Bitch, I have 0:01:38.800 --> 0:01:40.360 a kid and she got money, so she had a 0:01:40.360 --> 0:01:43.039 babysit his nail. Excuse mad didn't always have money. I 0:01:43.040 --> 0:01:45.720 didn't know I was you have money. Now you have 0:01:45.760 --> 0:01:48.440 a babysitter nail. Because it's like me, be like, does 0:01:48.480 --> 0:01:52.120 anybody wanna watch him? One for twenty two forty let's 0:01:52.160 --> 0:01:54.520 let's start here. You don't know you don't let anyone 0:01:54.600 --> 0:01:58.360 watch your son. You don't because you just swear he's 0:01:58.400 --> 0:02:00.440 not no one can care for him like you do, 0:02:00.640 --> 0:02:03.440 and rightfully so no one can care for him like 0:02:03.880 --> 0:02:06.520 his mother. But bitch, you don't even trust people to 0:02:06.600 --> 0:02:13.799 watch him. So since I got you here, I want 0:02:13.840 --> 0:02:17.040 to name this episode how close is too close? I 0:02:17.040 --> 0:02:19.720 want to name it that because we're very close. We 0:02:19.840 --> 0:02:22.520 are very close being closed since we was fucking little. 0:02:22.840 --> 0:02:26.800 But the thing about it is, sometimes we can be 0:02:26.840 --> 0:02:30.959 overbearing to each other. Yes, and I say each other 0:02:31.000 --> 0:02:35.120 because not only are you overbearing to me, sometimes as 0:02:35.160 --> 0:02:38.280 a protective big cousin who just knows it all, I'm 0:02:38.320 --> 0:02:41.840 overbearing to you as what what would you say and 0:02:42.280 --> 0:02:49.160 tread lightly? Is the hood investigator? Hold on? Why the 0:02:49.240 --> 0:02:53.840 first word had to be fucking hood? Bright? Alright, Okay, 0:02:53.880 --> 0:02:59.160 I'm from the suburbs, you're not. You're from definitely from 0:02:59.720 --> 0:03:04.239 Sound right yea? Yeah? So we wreaked together and we're 0:03:04.360 --> 0:03:08.160 cousins and we nosy. So it's like, how do you 0:03:08.240 --> 0:03:11.400 mix the three without being like, I'm gonna let her 0:03:11.440 --> 0:03:14.440 live her life and still be here for her a 0:03:14.440 --> 0:03:17.680 lot of the times, Like I could be nosy. We 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:20.519 already know I'm sorrying about she don't order a thirty 0:03:20.520 --> 0:03:24.840 dollar pansy from Fanshanov and I'd be like, oh my god, 0:03:25.480 --> 0:03:30.239 I gotta get that, or or or if I order 0:03:30.560 --> 0:03:34.120 a three hundred dollar pants suit from the dig in fotail, 0:03:34.280 --> 0:03:37.320 She'll be like, um, why you do that? What you 0:03:37.320 --> 0:03:39.200 could have got the same one on this You could 0:03:39.200 --> 0:03:40.960 have got the same one on shame dot com. You 0:03:40.960 --> 0:03:43.600 could have got the same one. Like so she's very 0:03:43.720 --> 0:03:49.200 or if she ordered Oh yeah, I acused me. I mean, 0:03:49.240 --> 0:03:51.960 I'm sorry, but I had to be real with the people. 0:03:52.560 --> 0:03:54.560 You know, I see a lot of things that's going on, 0:03:55.600 --> 0:03:58.120 and you know, I'm like ship she getting up one 0:03:58.640 --> 0:04:05.080 point and sick. Yeah, basically yeah, that's when it's too close. 0:04:05.280 --> 0:04:09.080 I swear to guard and then look the location bation 0:04:09.520 --> 0:04:11.920 when I'm somewhere. I tried out to check it. I 0:04:11.920 --> 0:04:14.280 promise you, I really it would have to be like 0:04:14.320 --> 0:04:16.360 you bleft me for five hours street and five check it. 0:04:16.480 --> 0:04:18.799 And that's something you have a friends, I can't say, 0:04:18.920 --> 0:04:21.720 but me personally, it gotta be like, okay, now, bitch, 0:04:21.720 --> 0:04:24.400 what a funk you with? Like the day, last ten minutes, 0:04:24.440 --> 0:04:28.279 I was like, I'm checking the ship now, and and 0:04:28.320 --> 0:04:31.280 I pulled up and then and then I was like, 0:04:31.640 --> 0:04:34.880 let minutes be here, but I wasn't nowhere. I had 0:04:34.880 --> 0:04:36.360 to get gas. But I don't know me mind of 0:04:36.400 --> 0:04:39.480 your business, I swear, like so recently Josica was like 0:04:39.800 --> 0:04:42.479 I had taxed her something and she was like, well, 0:04:42.600 --> 0:04:45.000 you should know you got my location. I said no, 0:04:45.160 --> 0:04:47.080 like I didn't, and I was like I hope that 0:04:47.200 --> 0:04:49.000 she really don't think I'm checking her ship because I 0:04:49.000 --> 0:04:54.680 ain't know clown the streets, like yeah, it's not you know, 0:04:54.800 --> 0:04:57.360 like I'm my business. Until it was like, okay, this 0:04:57.400 --> 0:05:03.560 is in you know more specifically towards beating me. I 0:05:03.600 --> 0:05:06.640 don't really have patience like that. Yea. She hates waiting 0:05:06.640 --> 0:05:08.480 for someone because if Jessica had a way too, I 0:05:08.480 --> 0:05:12.479 was with someone, she relieved I would I have to 0:05:12.520 --> 0:05:14.640 try this on you as a prank one day to 0:05:14.720 --> 0:05:16.520 be like I'm gonna be there too, and it's like 0:05:16.880 --> 0:05:22.000 actually before you could be like I'm fucking gone, like 0:05:22.600 --> 0:05:25.200 I would never talk to you again. Johnson over hated. 0:05:25.360 --> 0:05:27.640 But long story shows I don't invade your privacy unless 0:05:27.640 --> 0:05:31.159 it's like destriment. Like the last time I did it 0:05:31.200 --> 0:05:33.359 and I felt bad was like Robbin showed up on you, 0:05:33.880 --> 0:05:35.919 oh ship, because I was like, you know, that was 0:05:35.960 --> 0:05:39.040 like crossing like cousin boundaries because I knew when you 0:05:39.160 --> 0:05:41.840 was there bond Robin didn't. But it still was a 0:05:41.920 --> 0:05:44.800 point where it was like in my betraying my cousin 0:05:44.960 --> 0:05:47.359 like a little bit. I felt bad for that for 0:05:47.400 --> 0:05:50.120 a long time. I don't think I've told you, because 0:05:50.120 --> 0:05:54.480 she pulled up some arms, spread over, doors, spread over 0:05:54.880 --> 0:05:58.080 in the back, and I was like, I hope she'll 0:05:58.080 --> 0:06:00.240 say it was me. And then she was like, because 0:06:00.240 --> 0:06:02.720 I don't know how you found out, but I definitely 0:06:02.720 --> 0:06:05.200 told the okay ship And it was only because she 0:06:05.360 --> 0:06:07.760 was so stressed out. But I felt bad and I 0:06:07.839 --> 0:06:09.880 was like, this is crazy, Like me and my cousin 0:06:09.920 --> 0:06:13.320 are such because like before favorite Joss, like I got 0:06:13.320 --> 0:06:16.560 your back, you know you want to do something, let 0:06:16.560 --> 0:06:21.359 me know. Hey, yo, don't you ever slide your fucking 0:06:21.600 --> 0:06:24.120 pointy finger crushed the bottom of your nose like you 0:06:24.279 --> 0:06:27.040 just had some crack on it. But for real, like 0:06:27.400 --> 0:06:29.479 when I started working for you, it's like it's a 0:06:29.520 --> 0:06:31.880 difference between like what I completely can't say, but what 0:06:32.040 --> 0:06:35.160 I can just certain people like your mother, your son, myself, 0:06:35.320 --> 0:06:37.800 Like I have to know who you are. So it 0:06:38.040 --> 0:06:41.200 is hard sometimes because we're like savorite cousins even though 0:06:41.200 --> 0:06:44.280 we're so different, we're favorite cousins. But it's hard sometimes 0:06:44.400 --> 0:06:48.400 like being your worker b or your executive I guess, 0:06:48.480 --> 0:06:51.000 but also still respecting that we're cousins and we still 0:06:51.040 --> 0:06:52.640 want to be like go to slide to me, like 0:06:53.160 --> 0:06:54.960 wisions where I hang out? So five a m. Don't 0:06:54.960 --> 0:06:56.560 tell where I'm at because you know I don't look 0:06:56.600 --> 0:06:59.080 out for you a few times, but sometimes I can't, 0:06:59.240 --> 0:07:01.440 especially to Aunt Rob and said, you know how ideas 0:07:01.440 --> 0:07:04.280 and you mother, and you just want to fucking have fun. 0:07:04.320 --> 0:07:05.880 All you do is work and you just want to 0:07:05.920 --> 0:07:08.080 go ahead fun. But you're supposed to get your kids 0:07:08.080 --> 0:07:09.960 soon as you get off, or get your kids, in 0:07:09.960 --> 0:07:12.600 my case, as soon as you're laying. I'd be like, yo, 0:07:13.040 --> 0:07:15.280 I was supposed to be back on Monday, all right, 0:07:15.360 --> 0:07:17.480 So if she hits you, be like, she's back on 0:07:17.520 --> 0:07:20.160 my day, bitch. I flew on Sunday. I'm partying all 0:07:20.240 --> 0:07:25.680 Sunday funk that. So yeah, give me extra day, bitch, 0:07:25.760 --> 0:07:30.720 let me get my life, you know, saying you know, yeah, 0:07:30.720 --> 0:07:33.080 I know she pleasen't want to listen to this because 0:07:33.120 --> 0:07:37.000 she listens every week, so she's gonna hear. You know 0:07:37.040 --> 0:07:43.920 it's on you, So hold up, hold up. I know 0:07:44.000 --> 0:07:46.120 the ship getting good, but listen to just a couple 0:07:46.160 --> 0:07:48.360 of seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen, 0:07:49.600 --> 0:07:52.280 have you ever felt like I did anything that made 0:07:52.320 --> 0:07:55.320 you say like, she's too in my business, So she's 0:07:55.360 --> 0:07:58.520 too close, So she's too comfortable, you know how close 0:07:58.520 --> 0:08:01.280 it's too close? And in my case for you, I 0:08:01.320 --> 0:08:03.040 don't think that you I would maybe feel like that 0:08:03.120 --> 0:08:07.400 because you issue issue your energy. You are very much 0:08:07.480 --> 0:08:10.080 like I got you big if you need. But I'm 0:08:10.120 --> 0:08:12.120 gonna let you experience what you go through like you 0:08:12.240 --> 0:08:15.400 never was over. I'm over b like who you're talking to? 0:08:15.520 --> 0:08:19.440 What's saying? Dress? We live like case search, case search, 0:08:20.200 --> 0:08:22.440 my cousin will kay search any fucking body in my 0:08:22.520 --> 0:08:24.560 round that's not even only niggers. Y all. If you 0:08:24.600 --> 0:08:26.280 ever get to meet me and I ever want to 0:08:26.360 --> 0:08:29.040 befriends you, she's going to k such you and tell 0:08:29.440 --> 0:08:32.880 me all about your history and be like, bitch, this 0:08:32.920 --> 0:08:36.440 person used to do scams, hide your fucking credit cards, 0:08:36.480 --> 0:08:38.760 like and like, honestly, I don't know if it's a 0:08:38.800 --> 0:08:41.120 bost Moore thing, but like I will go to the 0:08:41.160 --> 0:08:47.280 motherfucking county Federal Mexico and also come motherfucking search perer. 0:08:48.120 --> 0:08:50.280 So yeah, basically, I'm the one that does too much 0:08:50.280 --> 0:08:54.600 and you chill, And that's a problem. But Jessica does 0:08:54.760 --> 0:08:56.160 get to a point where she has tell you what 0:08:56.440 --> 0:08:58.000 it is and you don't want to hear it what 0:08:58.120 --> 0:09:00.480 you mean? I would like, so I think it was me? 0:09:00.559 --> 0:09:04.000 She like it was very much you. I'm like, okay, bitch, fuck, 0:09:04.559 --> 0:09:06.679 so what do you mean? Like if I if I 0:09:06.720 --> 0:09:08.840 was saying, like if I was talking to a guy 0:09:08.880 --> 0:09:11.600 and he cut me off, and I'm like, yeah, I'm vnding, 0:09:11.679 --> 0:09:14.280 And she'd be so emotionless, like she's been wanting to 0:09:14.280 --> 0:09:16.719 say it for happen in her life. She'd be like, 0:09:17.360 --> 0:09:22.000 he probably don't like you. I'm like, alright, bitch, I 0:09:22.000 --> 0:09:26.400 got money fucked. Oh my god. See one thing about her, 0:09:26.440 --> 0:09:29.000 though she's very prideful, she does not like to hear 0:09:29.040 --> 0:09:32.400 that someone may not like her. And and in life 0:09:32.520 --> 0:09:35.960 that's going to happen, Cousin, Like, motherfucker's ain't gonna funk 0:09:35.960 --> 0:09:38.920 with you. You ain't everybody type, just like everybody ain't 0:09:38.920 --> 0:09:42.080 your fucking type. And remember one day we had somebody 0:09:42.160 --> 0:09:45.199 tell us that maybe it's a scept guys that you're 0:09:45.240 --> 0:09:50.400 attracting and the people that you're attracting, it's you intimidate 0:09:50.440 --> 0:09:53.320 a lot of people because you're very headstrong, You're very 0:09:53.360 --> 0:09:56.199 like you're sure of yourself. That's intimidating to a lot 0:09:56.200 --> 0:09:59.240 of people. When you know a lot of people, they 0:09:59.280 --> 0:10:01.760 honestly Kyle or because they're like they don't know ship 0:10:02.160 --> 0:10:05.880 and it's just horrible. Sometimes nobody want to be around 0:10:05.880 --> 0:10:07.600 to know at all. You know what I mean, I 0:10:07.640 --> 0:10:10.040 feel you, and honestly I hate you don't know it all? 0:10:10.240 --> 0:10:14.080 I know I do, I really do. Like sometimes I 0:10:14.080 --> 0:10:18.960 just want to be like um busted by you always 0:10:18.960 --> 0:10:21.839 like that anyway, Yeah for sure, but like like I 0:10:21.880 --> 0:10:24.920 don't know, people must understand me. But you, like I said, 0:10:24.960 --> 0:10:26.640 you have a good way of like not being in 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:29.800 too much in my business and I'm all the way 0:10:29.800 --> 0:10:32.080 in your business. But I know how to relax, right, 0:10:32.480 --> 0:10:35.520 you know that? Like I just know you. So I'm like, Okay, 0:10:35.559 --> 0:10:37.480 now I'm crossing the line if I didn't mention this 0:10:37.559 --> 0:10:39.559 seven seven eight times and shame you're trying to talk 0:10:39.559 --> 0:10:41.480 about it. I got to back up. But I might 0:10:41.480 --> 0:10:43.920 still mentioning it because I'm a knownion like that. I'm like, 0:10:45.320 --> 0:10:47.559 she can be like this just talking about that ship 0:10:47.640 --> 0:10:49.240 I don't even want to talk about because that's a 0:10:49.280 --> 0:10:51.520 good y'all. She's like, you want to everything, want the 0:10:51.600 --> 0:10:55.080 hush hush tip. But I know are so I respect it, 0:10:55.559 --> 0:10:58.240 but I'm nosy, so I'm like, tell me. But she's 0:10:58.320 --> 0:11:00.679 very much nosey. And I know out of you all there, 0:11:00.679 --> 0:11:03.680 I got nosy as cousins. I know y'all do, and 0:11:04.000 --> 0:11:06.280 they happen to be your favorite cousin and their nowsy 0:11:06.360 --> 0:11:09.840 because this is my favorite cousin. But she's very nosy, 0:11:09.920 --> 0:11:12.240 Like it's actually obsessive a little bit, because it's like 0:11:12.480 --> 0:11:15.120 a tripping that I always one of her business, maybe 0:11:15.160 --> 0:11:17.560 because I don't have enough business or something. Well do 0:11:17.559 --> 0:11:19.840 you feel like you don't have enough business? Well, listen, 0:11:19.920 --> 0:11:23.640 let's just say London moved into her own house, bought 0:11:23.679 --> 0:11:26.160 her own house as a goal for thirty. She actually 0:11:26.160 --> 0:11:28.280 didn't when she was twenty nine, but she bought her 0:11:28.440 --> 0:11:32.800 her first house. She moved away from Baltimore, right, So 0:11:33.080 --> 0:11:34.880 she moved away from all her family and all the 0:11:34.960 --> 0:11:37.600 little bit of friends that she is. And I'm sorry, 0:11:37.800 --> 0:11:42.040 I'm sorry she moved away. She moved away from her 0:11:42.080 --> 0:11:46.320 family and friends and to another state. Although it's not far, 0:11:46.600 --> 0:11:49.560 it's not right there either. It's not like down the 0:11:49.600 --> 0:11:52.480 street it's not you know, you can't throw a rock 0:11:52.640 --> 0:11:54.839 from Baltimore to her house. You know, she lives in 0:11:54.880 --> 0:12:01.000 Pennsylvania and it's a neighborly state. However, she still feels 0:12:01.000 --> 0:12:02.800 alone up there because it's just her my little cousin, 0:12:02.800 --> 0:12:04.800 which is her son. She has a five year old 0:12:04.840 --> 0:12:09.280 baby and a dog. Actually she gave away the dog. 0:12:09.520 --> 0:12:11.560 I didn't give her away. I got her. I just 0:12:11.760 --> 0:12:15.800 can't take her. So she gave away the dog and 0:12:16.240 --> 0:12:17.760 so it's just hering her son and he moved in 0:12:17.840 --> 0:12:20.080 a big ass house in Pennsylvania where they have no 0:12:20.200 --> 0:12:22.600 friends and no one to call on, and every time 0:12:22.600 --> 0:12:28.440 they turn around there lonely. So you know what I'm saying. No, 0:12:30.920 --> 0:12:34.120 So she moved all the way up there, and her 0:12:34.200 --> 0:12:39.160 social life depleted. And it was the one weakest COVID 0:12:39.360 --> 0:12:42.360 It was during weak ast COVID, so her ass really, 0:12:42.920 --> 0:12:46.280 you know, she shut herself out from everybody. She isolated 0:12:46.320 --> 0:12:49.360 herself and she literally was just like, I'm not gonna 0:12:49.360 --> 0:12:50.760 catch this ship. If it's the last thing I do, 0:12:50.880 --> 0:12:53.439 I'm never going to. She was just and she spent 0:12:53.559 --> 0:12:57.160 a whole two years building her and her son's immune 0:12:57.160 --> 0:13:01.120 system up and their house slash bunker because they never 0:13:01.960 --> 0:13:06.880 exited the home. And yeah, that drove her fucking crazy, 0:13:08.320 --> 0:13:10.480 and it drove her son crazy because she was driving 0:13:10.559 --> 0:13:14.440 him crazy. They were driving each other crazy, and and 0:13:14.480 --> 0:13:17.880 it's just like you never know how bad you really 0:13:17.960 --> 0:13:20.880 do need a social life, like you know the people 0:13:20.920 --> 0:13:22.439 that's always like, oh, I don't have friends. I don't 0:13:22.480 --> 0:13:24.040 have people. I don't I don't want friends. I don't. 0:13:24.200 --> 0:13:25.560 I used to say that ice Fla, I don't got 0:13:25.559 --> 0:13:27.360 friends because I don't want friends, like I don't want 0:13:27.880 --> 0:13:30.800 It's really not cool all the time, because being lonely 0:13:30.920 --> 0:13:32.880 is really not a you know what I mean, I 0:13:32.920 --> 0:13:36.200 feel like um. In the COVID situation, it was kind 0:13:36.240 --> 0:13:39.560 of it like because I was finding myself. I just 0:13:39.600 --> 0:13:42.840 turned three, I left relationship, and it was like it 0:13:42.920 --> 0:13:45.040 was cute for a second, but then it was like, okay, 0:13:45.040 --> 0:13:47.760 now this two years later, life opening back up, times 0:13:47.880 --> 0:13:51.520 becoming back lit. I don't want to be home, you know. 0:13:51.880 --> 0:13:55.160 And I just had to realize like that it was 0:13:55.200 --> 0:13:57.120 waking ship what I was doing, but it was worth 0:13:57.160 --> 0:14:00.480 it in the moment. But at the same time, very 0:14:00.559 --> 0:14:02.920 much was watching my cousins her best life because she 0:14:02.960 --> 0:14:06.080 only quarantined like two times in life, right, Okay, So 0:14:06.440 --> 0:14:11.000 moving on because no, but and then I did catch COVID. 0:14:11.360 --> 0:14:15.040 I know, I couldn't believe in London never was like 0:14:15.120 --> 0:14:18.760 she finally yeah, excuse me, So how about when I 0:14:18.760 --> 0:14:20.920 called it? And mind you, London never caught the ship. 0:14:21.800 --> 0:14:24.280 My mother never called the ship. Nobody but me caught 0:14:24.320 --> 0:14:30.040 the ship. I swear not. No nobody around us called COVID. No, 0:14:30.280 --> 0:14:33.600 that's never had quote Prince had the flu. Now, my god, 0:14:33.680 --> 0:14:35.920 you was so and I didn't even call you know, 0:14:36.120 --> 0:14:40.480 you didn't end She wasn't trying to be closed then, No, 0:14:40.600 --> 0:14:42.120 it was only because I was like and I was like, 0:14:42.200 --> 0:14:43.800 damn this over the phone. What if it goes to 0:14:43.840 --> 0:14:47.080 the phone like say, no, honestly, I just Jessica so 0:14:47.200 --> 0:14:49.720 private once ago, it goes back to our conversation that 0:14:50.200 --> 0:14:52.240 I was not probably COVID. You're the one that diagnosed 0:14:52.240 --> 0:14:53.880 me with COVID. Do you not remember you dropped all 0:14:53.920 --> 0:14:56.320 the way down from your house in Pennsylvania to COVID 0:14:56.360 --> 0:15:00.960 test me just to tell me just to throw my face. Yeah, 0:15:01.160 --> 0:15:04.760 just this because you ain't quarantine Jazz. But that was loyalty. 0:15:04.880 --> 0:15:07.560 I really sat in the call with Jessica, and I 0:15:07.600 --> 0:15:10.400 took her class, like miss non covid. I took her time, 0:15:10.760 --> 0:15:15.920 stayed everything, stayed in the call off. Yeah times, people, 0:15:16.000 --> 0:15:17.840 we're gonna sit. I ain't going with you know how 0:15:17.920 --> 0:15:19.840 she did she did, She stayed in the car room 0:15:19.880 --> 0:15:21.760 and all the time she tested me. And that ship 0:15:21.840 --> 0:15:24.040 popped up in two seconds. And look we was about 0:15:24.040 --> 0:15:26.120 to go out to eat. What we were about to 0:15:26.120 --> 0:15:28.240 meet up without want and go out to eat? Was 0:15:28.320 --> 0:15:30.080 I was out? Some bitch was really go eat and 0:15:30.120 --> 0:15:32.320 not your mom? And I still went because I was like, 0:15:32.400 --> 0:15:34.840 she still went and listen if it was a different guys, now, 0:15:34.960 --> 0:15:38.840 I'm like, dude, when I was still gonna go, yeah, 0:15:38.840 --> 0:15:42.440 I had to think like responsibly, like responsibly. You were 0:15:42.600 --> 0:15:46.320 very much in the motherfucking' tagious stage. So I had Remember, 0:15:46.360 --> 0:15:48.360 I thought I gave it to my boyfriend. I really thought, 0:15:48.640 --> 0:15:53.720 because I didn't, I'm sorry. He was in the club, 0:15:54.280 --> 0:15:56.680 big music and everywody. You can't even smell a hooka 0:15:56.720 --> 0:15:59.800 tastes hooka taste a food taste of drinks, okay, and 0:16:00.000 --> 0:16:01.440 thought it was the a leergies that first don't try 0:16:01.440 --> 0:16:04.520 to have a year later. Bit now we got a 0:16:04.560 --> 0:16:06.600 commercial and if you click off of this podcast, I 0:16:06.680 --> 0:16:12.200 swear I'm gonna beat your ass. Listen. Okay, So back 0:16:12.240 --> 0:16:15.400 to how close is too close? Well, I actually have 0:16:15.440 --> 0:16:17.840 a question for you. So you know how sometimes you 0:16:17.880 --> 0:16:20.920 have your friends or cousins who do you think it 0:16:21.000 --> 0:16:24.600 is more like basically secret confidential that you'll tell your 0:16:24.600 --> 0:16:26.680 secrets to you like your friends or your cousin, because 0:16:26.720 --> 0:16:30.480 sometimes cousins can be like the cousin has been a 0:16:30.480 --> 0:16:33.040 little sneaky bitches, right, you'd be like, I tell her everything, 0:16:33.240 --> 0:16:35.440 still our home girls, But then you have cousins who 0:16:35.560 --> 0:16:38.480 to everything too. So I mean, do you feel comfortable 0:16:38.560 --> 0:16:41.600 talking to your cousins about things that you like? Mm? 0:16:41.800 --> 0:16:44.240 I don't want to want motherfucker's tone about Okay, Okay, 0:16:44.280 --> 0:16:46.880 so I I think I know where this is going. Okay, So, 0:16:47.360 --> 0:16:51.800 more recently, London and I have not been as close 0:16:51.960 --> 0:16:54.280 as we used to be. I used to tell her everything. 0:16:54.960 --> 0:16:57.240 There was a time that there was anything about me 0:16:57.640 --> 0:17:01.880 she didn't know. And I do want understand. I understand 0:17:02.600 --> 0:17:05.200 how it it looks to you, but I feel like 0:17:05.240 --> 0:17:08.240 the older that we have gotten, let me let me 0:17:08.280 --> 0:17:09.920 finish the older. Because you looked like she wants to 0:17:09.920 --> 0:17:12.560 say something. Y'all, London is master of cutting people off. 0:17:12.560 --> 0:17:15.320 Just take a deep breath and listen. I feel like 0:17:16.040 --> 0:17:18.840 you've become so much more judgmental than you used to be. 0:17:18.960 --> 0:17:22.199 Or maybe you've always been judgmental. It's just that I 0:17:22.240 --> 0:17:24.400 took the blinders off because you've always been the same 0:17:24.400 --> 0:17:26.680 way that you are. Now it's like you got better, 0:17:27.160 --> 0:17:29.560 but then you got a little worse, like back, you know, 0:17:29.600 --> 0:17:31.960 and it could be your own ship that you're going through, 0:17:31.960 --> 0:17:35.720 because people go through things that trigger other things. You 0:17:35.760 --> 0:17:38.600 know what I'm saying, so you know. But it's like 0:17:38.680 --> 0:17:41.920 little things like I used to always involve you in 0:17:42.040 --> 0:17:44.760 my personal life, my love life, like you would know 0:17:45.040 --> 0:17:47.119 everything about the guy I'm dating. You would know everything 0:17:47.160 --> 0:17:50.159 about bitch I'm talking about, even down to sex positions. 0:17:50.359 --> 0:17:52.920 How many times I came on a nigger dick and 0:17:52.960 --> 0:17:56.320 don't anything anything. I know that was Tama. But this 0:17:56.400 --> 0:17:59.560 is carefully reckless and bit whatever. But it's like I've 0:17:59.600 --> 0:18:01.720 noticed or recently, you'll look at me a certain way. 0:18:01.800 --> 0:18:04.919 You'll you'll share a comment that's very judgmental. After I 0:18:05.000 --> 0:18:07.320 tell you what I feel, what I'm going through, or 0:18:07.359 --> 0:18:10.679 about a situation any situation whatever. You always kind of 0:18:10.680 --> 0:18:13.320 seem like you find a negative in something. Even going 0:18:13.359 --> 0:18:15.200 back to my birthday. You missed my third or birthday 0:18:15.240 --> 0:18:17.359 because you didn't like my boyfriend. You still don't like 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:20.880 my boyfriend, said the day, Well, look, she does not 0:18:21.080 --> 0:18:24.840 dislike my boyfriend. She just doesn't know him, which are 0:18:24.880 --> 0:18:26.720 her words. Because I caught a Mike off, she was 0:18:26.760 --> 0:18:28.800 gonna definitely be over talking me, so I had to 0:18:28.800 --> 0:18:30.720 cut her day and Mike off shut her down because 0:18:30.720 --> 0:18:33.520 she needs to hear me. That's also her problem. London's 0:18:33.520 --> 0:18:35.280 problem is she does not like to listen. You don't 0:18:35.320 --> 0:18:38.040 like to listen, and when you are listening, you're only 0:18:38.080 --> 0:18:42.439 listening to respond. It's like you really, I don't know. 0:18:42.480 --> 0:18:43.880 I don't know, So I kind of fell back from 0:18:43.920 --> 0:18:49.280 telling you things about my other friends, things about my relationship, 0:18:49.480 --> 0:18:52.040 things that I'm feeling, just things that I'm going through 0:18:52.040 --> 0:18:54.720 the motions on the day to day. We do talk 0:18:54.760 --> 0:18:57.159 every day. You are my favorite cousin. Y'all want you 0:18:57.160 --> 0:19:00.160 all to know she is. But sometimes you know, I'm 0:19:00.160 --> 0:19:02.879 not gonna say outgrow because outgrow is the wrong word 0:19:02.960 --> 0:19:06.680 for us for this situation. But when you kind of 0:19:06.720 --> 0:19:10.359 evolve and you kind of feel like the other person 0:19:10.520 --> 0:19:14.679 didn't like us being close. And I'm evolving where I 0:19:14.760 --> 0:19:16.640 used to love to be messy, I used to love 0:19:16.680 --> 0:19:18.359 to talk a certain way I used to love to 0:19:18.880 --> 0:19:21.239 and I feel like I'm kind of growing from that, 0:19:21.320 --> 0:19:23.240 and I feel like you're not in It upsets you 0:19:23.600 --> 0:19:25.600 because I'm not the same way that I used to be, 0:19:25.640 --> 0:19:29.719 which is still good for me, because I'm evolving. Change 0:19:29.760 --> 0:19:32.600 is not always bad. That's just what I want you 0:19:33.280 --> 0:19:35.640 to know and to keep in the back of your mind. 0:19:35.680 --> 0:19:37.280 You know, when you feel like I'm acting different, when 0:19:37.320 --> 0:19:39.960 you feel like you know, it's really not that. It's 0:19:40.000 --> 0:19:41.920 just I feel like I can't talk to you about 0:19:41.920 --> 0:19:44.320 certain things until you kind of mature a little bit 0:19:44.320 --> 0:19:46.199 in those areas. I don't know. I don't know a 0:19:46.200 --> 0:19:48.520 lot of I'm very sorry. I love you to death. 0:19:48.600 --> 0:19:50.879 You are my baby. Not only are you my baby, 0:19:50.920 --> 0:19:53.600 you work for me. You're my executive assistant. You help 0:19:53.680 --> 0:19:56.359 me run my company, you help me run multiple businesses, 0:19:56.440 --> 0:19:59.560 you know, day one, but personally, and I know that 0:19:59.640 --> 0:20:02.520 you have felt the distance. I have created a distance 0:20:02.720 --> 0:20:04.800 between us, you know, And like I said, it started 0:20:04.840 --> 0:20:06.320 back on my birthday. Like you make a lot of 0:20:06.320 --> 0:20:09.080 selfish decisions. You can be very selfish, and I just 0:20:09.119 --> 0:20:11.400 want to tell you this, Like you know, I wouldn't 0:20:11.680 --> 0:20:13.960 sit there and tell you this on Reckless with you 0:20:13.960 --> 0:20:17.800 know us for but carefully Reckless with us too. I'm 0:20:17.880 --> 0:20:20.640 letting you know, Yeah, you can be very very selfish 0:20:20.720 --> 0:20:23.639 and judgment too. And I'm glad that we're actually here 0:20:24.160 --> 0:20:25.800 having us talk and I can tell you this ship 0:20:25.880 --> 0:20:28.000 because you need to hear it. And right now you're 0:20:28.040 --> 0:20:29.800 looking like you want to shed a tear and I'm 0:20:29.840 --> 0:20:32.159