Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio
Speaker 1: and the Black Effects. And just like that, we're back
Speaker 1: with yet another Carefully Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious.
Speaker 1: Now listen, I know I have a lot of guests
Speaker 1: from time to time. I got my sister, I got
Speaker 1: my son, my little baby father, my best friend, my brother.
Speaker 1: But y'all ain't ever had this girl on here yet.
Speaker 1: But y'all do see her every Wednesday at seven pm
Speaker 1: on Reckless Discussions. It's my favorite cousin London, say with yeah, bitch,
Speaker 1: Now listen, we're not gonna get away like miss Perfect
Speaker 1: Patty Pussy and ship ready doing this and what's up you?
Speaker 1: What's up your per But I have a new slogan
Speaker 1: from this perfect right, what's miss perfect girl? What's the
Speaker 1: new slogan? Bitch? Hashtag? It's the guard in me? Hash
Speaker 1: things to God to me. I keep telling you don't
Speaker 1: have to lean into the mic like niggas can't hear
Speaker 1: you die? And a ross we heat you. Okay, it's
Speaker 1: a garden you. But you're drunk currently? Is that correct? Um?
Speaker 1: A wow, I don't snitch, excuse me, Yeah, she's drunk.
Speaker 1: She's drunk. We're gonna that's funny, but no, I'm happy
Speaker 1: to have you on girl. You finally came on the
Speaker 1: podcast now listen. London has been saying forever, Oh, I
Speaker 1: want to do a podcast with you. I want to
Speaker 1: do a podcast with you. But when she actually gets
Speaker 1: around me and it's time to do it, she's like,
Speaker 1: nowhere to be found. No, I have to be a
Speaker 1: mom because I have a five year old hate when
Speaker 1: a bit saved one kid and be like, uh, if
Speaker 1: you have a kid, you would understand. Bitch, I have
Speaker 1: a kid and she got money, so she had a
Speaker 1: babysit his nail. Excuse mad didn't always have money. I
Speaker 1: didn't know I was you have money. Now you have
Speaker 1: a babysitter nail. Because it's like me, be like, does
Speaker 1: anybody wanna watch him? One for twenty two forty let's
Speaker 1: let's start here. You don't know you don't let anyone
Speaker 1: watch your son. You don't because you just swear he's
Speaker 1: not no one can care for him like you do,
Speaker 1: and rightfully so no one can care for him like
Speaker 1: his mother. But bitch, you don't even trust people to
Speaker 1: watch him. So since I got you here, I want
Speaker 1: to name this episode how close is too close? I
Speaker 1: want to name it that because we're very close. We
Speaker 1: are very close being closed since we was fucking little.
Speaker 1: But the thing about it is, sometimes we can be
Speaker 1: overbearing to each other. Yes, and I say each other
Speaker 1: because not only are you overbearing to me, sometimes as
Speaker 1: a protective big cousin who just knows it all, I'm
Speaker 1: overbearing to you as what what would you say and
Speaker 1: tread lightly? Is the hood investigator? Hold on? Why the
Speaker 1: first word had to be fucking hood? Bright? Alright, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm from the suburbs, you're not. You're from definitely from
Speaker 1: Sound right yea? Yeah? So we wreaked together and we're
Speaker 1: cousins and we nosy. So it's like, how do you
Speaker 1: mix the three without being like, I'm gonna let her
Speaker 1: live her life and still be here for her a
Speaker 1: lot of the times, Like I could be nosy. We
Speaker 1: already know I'm sorrying about she don't order a thirty
Speaker 1: dollar pansy from Fanshanov and I'd be like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I gotta get that, or or or if I order
Speaker 1: a three hundred dollar pants suit from the dig in fotail,
Speaker 1: She'll be like, um, why you do that? What you
Speaker 1: could have got the same one on this You could
Speaker 1: have got the same one on shame dot com. You
Speaker 1: could have got the same one. Like so she's very
Speaker 1: or if she ordered Oh yeah, I acused me. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, but I had to be real with the people.
Speaker 1: You know, I see a lot of things that's going on,
Speaker 1: and you know, I'm like ship she getting up one
Speaker 1: point and sick. Yeah, basically yeah, that's when it's too close.
Speaker 1: I swear to guard and then look the location bation
Speaker 1: when I'm somewhere. I tried out to check it. I
Speaker 1: promise you, I really it would have to be like
Speaker 1: you bleft me for five hours street and five check it.
Speaker 1: And that's something you have a friends, I can't say,
Speaker 1: but me personally, it gotta be like, okay, now, bitch,
Speaker 1: what a funk you with? Like the day, last ten minutes,
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm checking the ship now, and and
Speaker 1: I pulled up and then and then I was like,
Speaker 1: let minutes be here, but I wasn't nowhere. I had
Speaker 1: to get gas. But I don't know me mind of
Speaker 1: your business, I swear, like so recently Josica was like
Speaker 1: I had taxed her something and she was like, well,
Speaker 1: you should know you got my location. I said no,
Speaker 1: like I didn't, and I was like I hope that
Speaker 1: she really don't think I'm checking her ship because I
Speaker 1: ain't know clown the streets, like yeah, it's not you know,
Speaker 1: like I'm my business. Until it was like, okay, this
Speaker 1: is in you know more specifically towards beating me. I
Speaker 1: don't really have patience like that. Yea. She hates waiting
Speaker 1: for someone because if Jessica had a way too, I
Speaker 1: was with someone, she relieved I would I have to
Speaker 1: try this on you as a prank one day to
Speaker 1: be like I'm gonna be there too, and it's like
Speaker 1: actually before you could be like I'm fucking gone, like
Speaker 1: I would never talk to you again. Johnson over hated.
Speaker 1: But long story shows I don't invade your privacy unless
Speaker 1: it's like destriment. Like the last time I did it
Speaker 1: and I felt bad was like Robbin showed up on you,
Speaker 1: oh ship, because I was like, you know, that was
Speaker 1: like crossing like cousin boundaries because I knew when you
Speaker 1: was there bond Robin didn't. But it still was a
Speaker 1: point where it was like in my betraying my cousin
Speaker 1: like a little bit. I felt bad for that for
Speaker 1: a long time. I don't think I've told you, because
Speaker 1: she pulled up some arms, spread over, doors, spread over
Speaker 1: in the back, and I was like, I hope she'll
Speaker 1: say it was me. And then she was like, because
Speaker 1: I don't know how you found out, but I definitely
Speaker 1: told the okay ship And it was only because she
Speaker 1: was so stressed out. But I felt bad and I
Speaker 1: was like, this is crazy, Like me and my cousin
Speaker 1: are such because like before favorite Joss, like I got
Speaker 1: your back, you know you want to do something, let
Speaker 1: me know. Hey, yo, don't you ever slide your fucking
Speaker 1: pointy finger crushed the bottom of your nose like you
Speaker 1: just had some crack on it. But for real, like
Speaker 1: when I started working for you, it's like it's a
Speaker 1: difference between like what I completely can't say, but what
Speaker 1: I can just certain people like your mother, your son, myself,
Speaker 1: Like I have to know who you are. So it
Speaker 1: is hard sometimes because we're like savorite cousins even though
Speaker 1: we're so different, we're favorite cousins. But it's hard sometimes
Speaker 1: like being your worker b or your executive I guess,
Speaker 1: but also still respecting that we're cousins and we still
Speaker 1: want to be like go to slide to me, like
Speaker 1: wisions where I hang out? So five a m. Don't
Speaker 1: tell where I'm at because you know I don't look
Speaker 1: out for you a few times, but sometimes I can't,
Speaker 1: especially to Aunt Rob and said, you know how ideas
Speaker 1: and you mother, and you just want to fucking have fun.
Speaker 1: All you do is work and you just want to
Speaker 1: go ahead fun. But you're supposed to get your kids
Speaker 1: soon as you get off, or get your kids, in
Speaker 1: my case, as soon as you're laying. I'd be like, yo,
Speaker 1: I was supposed to be back on Monday, all right,
Speaker 1: So if she hits you, be like, she's back on
Speaker 1: my day, bitch. I flew on Sunday. I'm partying all
Speaker 1: Sunday funk that. So yeah, give me extra day, bitch,
Speaker 1: let me get my life, you know, saying you know, yeah,
Speaker 1: I know she pleasen't want to listen to this because
Speaker 1: she listens every week, so she's gonna hear. You know
Speaker 1: it's on you, So hold up, hold up. I know
Speaker 1: the ship getting good, but listen to just a couple
Speaker 1: of seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen,
Speaker 1: have you ever felt like I did anything that made
Speaker 1: you say like, she's too in my business, So she's
Speaker 1: too close, So she's too comfortable, you know how close
Speaker 1: it's too close? And in my case for you, I
Speaker 1: don't think that you I would maybe feel like that
Speaker 1: because you issue issue your energy. You are very much
Speaker 1: like I got you big if you need. But I'm
Speaker 1: gonna let you experience what you go through like you
Speaker 1: never was over. I'm over b like who you're talking to?
Speaker 1: What's saying? Dress? We live like case search, case search,
Speaker 1: my cousin will kay search any fucking body in my
Speaker 1: round that's not even only niggers. Y all. If you
Speaker 1: ever get to meet me and I ever want to
Speaker 1: befriends you, she's going to k such you and tell
Speaker 1: me all about your history and be like, bitch, this
Speaker 1: person used to do scams, hide your fucking credit cards,
Speaker 1: like and like, honestly, I don't know if it's a
Speaker 1: bost Moore thing, but like I will go to the
Speaker 1: motherfucking county Federal Mexico and also come motherfucking search perer.
Speaker 1: So yeah, basically, I'm the one that does too much
Speaker 1: and you chill, And that's a problem. But Jessica does
Speaker 1: get to a point where she has tell you what
Speaker 1: it is and you don't want to hear it what
Speaker 1: you mean? I would like, so I think it was me?
Speaker 1: She like it was very much you. I'm like, okay, bitch, fuck,
Speaker 1: so what do you mean? Like if I if I
Speaker 1: was saying, like if I was talking to a guy
Speaker 1: and he cut me off, and I'm like, yeah, I'm vnding,
Speaker 1: And she'd be so emotionless, like she's been wanting to
Speaker 1: say it for happen in her life. She'd be like,
Speaker 1: he probably don't like you. I'm like, alright, bitch, I
Speaker 1: got money fucked. Oh my god. See one thing about her,
Speaker 1: though she's very prideful, she does not like to hear
Speaker 1: that someone may not like her. And and in life
Speaker 1: that's going to happen, Cousin, Like, motherfucker's ain't gonna funk
Speaker 1: with you. You ain't everybody type, just like everybody ain't
Speaker 1: your fucking type. And remember one day we had somebody
Speaker 1: tell us that maybe it's a scept guys that you're
Speaker 1: attracting and the people that you're attracting, it's you intimidate
Speaker 1: a lot of people because you're very headstrong, You're very
Speaker 1: like you're sure of yourself. That's intimidating to a lot
Speaker 1: of people. When you know a lot of people, they
Speaker 1: honestly Kyle or because they're like they don't know ship
Speaker 1: and it's just horrible. Sometimes nobody want to be around
Speaker 1: to know at all. You know what I mean, I
Speaker 1: feel you, and honestly I hate you don't know it all?
Speaker 1: I know I do, I really do. Like sometimes I
Speaker 1: just want to be like um busted by you always
Speaker 1: like that anyway, Yeah for sure, but like like I
Speaker 1: don't know, people must understand me. But you, like I said,
Speaker 1: you have a good way of like not being in
Speaker 1: too much in my business and I'm all the way
Speaker 1: in your business. But I know how to relax, right,
Speaker 1: you know that? Like I just know you. So I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 1: now I'm crossing the line if I didn't mention this
Speaker 1: seven seven eight times and shame you're trying to talk
Speaker 1: about it. I got to back up. But I might
Speaker 1: still mentioning it because I'm a knownion like that. I'm like,
Speaker 1: she can be like this just talking about that ship
Speaker 1: I don't even want to talk about because that's a
Speaker 1: good y'all. She's like, you want to everything, want the
Speaker 1: hush hush tip. But I know are so I respect it,
Speaker 1: but I'm nosy, so I'm like, tell me. But she's
Speaker 1: very much nosey. And I know out of you all there,
Speaker 1: I got nosy as cousins. I know y'all do, and
Speaker 1: they happen to be your favorite cousin and their nowsy
Speaker 1: because this is my favorite cousin. But she's very nosy,
Speaker 1: Like it's actually obsessive a little bit, because it's like
Speaker 1: a tripping that I always one of her business, maybe
Speaker 1: because I don't have enough business or something. Well do
Speaker 1: you feel like you don't have enough business? Well, listen,
Speaker 1: let's just say London moved into her own house, bought
Speaker 1: her own house as a goal for thirty. She actually
Speaker 1: didn't when she was twenty nine, but she bought her
Speaker 1: her first house. She moved away from Baltimore, right, So
Speaker 1: she moved away from all her family and all the
Speaker 1: little bit of friends that she is. And I'm sorry,
Speaker 1: I'm sorry she moved away. She moved away from her
Speaker 1: family and friends and to another state. Although it's not far,
Speaker 1: it's not right there either. It's not like down the
Speaker 1: street it's not you know, you can't throw a rock
Speaker 1: from Baltimore to her house. You know, she lives in
Speaker 1: Pennsylvania and it's a neighborly state. However, she still feels
Speaker 1: alone up there because it's just her my little cousin,
Speaker 1: which is her son. She has a five year old
Speaker 1: baby and a dog. Actually she gave away the dog.
Speaker 1: I didn't give her away. I got her. I just
Speaker 1: can't take her. So she gave away the dog and
Speaker 1: so it's just hering her son and he moved in
Speaker 1: a big ass house in Pennsylvania where they have no
Speaker 1: friends and no one to call on, and every time
Speaker 1: they turn around there lonely. So you know what I'm saying. No,
Speaker 1: So she moved all the way up there, and her
Speaker 1: social life depleted. And it was the one weakest COVID
Speaker 1: It was during weak ast COVID, so her ass really,
Speaker 1: you know, she shut herself out from everybody. She isolated
Speaker 1: herself and she literally was just like, I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: catch this ship. If it's the last thing I do,
Speaker 1: I'm never going to. She was just and she spent
Speaker 1: a whole two years building her and her son's immune
Speaker 1: system up and their house slash bunker because they never
Speaker 1: exited the home. And yeah, that drove her fucking crazy,
Speaker 1: and it drove her son crazy because she was driving
Speaker 1: him crazy. They were driving each other crazy, and and
Speaker 1: it's just like you never know how bad you really
Speaker 1: do need a social life, like you know the people
Speaker 1: that's always like, oh, I don't have friends. I don't
Speaker 1: have people. I don't I don't want friends. I don't.
Speaker 1: I used to say that ice Fla, I don't got
Speaker 1: friends because I don't want friends, like I don't want
Speaker 1: It's really not cool all the time, because being lonely
Speaker 1: is really not a you know what I mean, I
Speaker 1: feel like um. In the COVID situation, it was kind
Speaker 1: of it like because I was finding myself. I just
Speaker 1: turned three, I left relationship, and it was like it
Speaker 1: was cute for a second, but then it was like, okay,
Speaker 1: now this two years later, life opening back up, times
Speaker 1: becoming back lit. I don't want to be home, you know.
Speaker 1: And I just had to realize like that it was
Speaker 1: waking ship what I was doing, but it was worth
Speaker 1: it in the moment. But at the same time, very
Speaker 1: much was watching my cousins her best life because she
Speaker 1: only quarantined like two times in life, right, Okay, So
Speaker 1: moving on because no, but and then I did catch COVID.
Speaker 1: I know, I couldn't believe in London never was like
Speaker 1: she finally yeah, excuse me, So how about when I
Speaker 1: called it? And mind you, London never caught the ship.
Speaker 1: My mother never called the ship. Nobody but me caught
Speaker 1: the ship. I swear not. No nobody around us called COVID. No,
Speaker 1: that's never had quote Prince had the flu. Now, my god,
Speaker 1: you was so and I didn't even call you know,
Speaker 1: you didn't end She wasn't trying to be closed then, No,
Speaker 1: it was only because I was like and I was like,
Speaker 1: damn this over the phone. What if it goes to
Speaker 1: the phone like say, no, honestly, I just Jessica so
Speaker 1: private once ago, it goes back to our conversation that
Speaker 1: I was not probably COVID. You're the one that diagnosed
Speaker 1: me with COVID. Do you not remember you dropped all
Speaker 1: the way down from your house in Pennsylvania to COVID
Speaker 1: test me just to tell me just to throw my face. Yeah,
Speaker 1: just this because you ain't quarantine Jazz. But that was loyalty.
Speaker 1: I really sat in the call with Jessica, and I
Speaker 1: took her class, like miss non covid. I took her time,
Speaker 1: stayed everything, stayed in the call off. Yeah times, people,
Speaker 1: we're gonna sit. I ain't going with you know how
Speaker 1: she did she did, She stayed in the car room
Speaker 1: and all the time she tested me. And that ship
Speaker 1: popped up in two seconds. And look we was about
Speaker 1: to go out to eat. What we were about to
Speaker 1: meet up without want and go out to eat? Was
Speaker 1: I was out? Some bitch was really go eat and
Speaker 1: not your mom? And I still went because I was like,
Speaker 1: she still went and listen if it was a different guys, now,
Speaker 1: I'm like, dude, when I was still gonna go, yeah,
Speaker 1: I had to think like responsibly, like responsibly. You were
Speaker 1: very much in the motherfucking' tagious stage. So I had Remember,
Speaker 1: I thought I gave it to my boyfriend. I really thought,
Speaker 1: because I didn't, I'm sorry. He was in the club,
Speaker 1: big music and everywody. You can't even smell a hooka
Speaker 1: tastes hooka taste a food taste of drinks, okay, and
Speaker 1: thought it was the a leergies that first don't try
Speaker 1: to have a year later. Bit now we got a
Speaker 1: commercial and if you click off of this podcast, I
Speaker 1: swear I'm gonna beat your ass. Listen. Okay, So back
Speaker 1: to how close is too close? Well, I actually have
Speaker 1: a question for you. So you know how sometimes you
Speaker 1: have your friends or cousins who do you think it
Speaker 1: is more like basically secret confidential that you'll tell your
Speaker 1: secrets to you like your friends or your cousin, because
Speaker 1: sometimes cousins can be like the cousin has been a
Speaker 1: little sneaky bitches, right, you'd be like, I tell her everything,
Speaker 1: still our home girls, But then you have cousins who
Speaker 1: to everything too. So I mean, do you feel comfortable
Speaker 1: talking to your cousins about things that you like? Mm?
Speaker 1: I don't want to want motherfucker's tone about Okay, Okay,
Speaker 1: so I I think I know where this is going. Okay, So,
Speaker 1: more recently, London and I have not been as close
Speaker 1: as we used to be. I used to tell her everything.
Speaker 1: There was a time that there was anything about me
Speaker 1: she didn't know. And I do want understand. I understand
Speaker 1: how it it looks to you, but I feel like
Speaker 1: the older that we have gotten, let me let me
Speaker 1: finish the older. Because you looked like she wants to
Speaker 1: say something. Y'all, London is master of cutting people off.
Speaker 1: Just take a deep breath and listen. I feel like
Speaker 1: you've become so much more judgmental than you used to be.
Speaker 1: Or maybe you've always been judgmental. It's just that I
Speaker 1: took the blinders off because you've always been the same
Speaker 1: way that you are. Now it's like you got better,
Speaker 1: but then you got a little worse, like back, you know,
Speaker 1: and it could be your own ship that you're going through,
Speaker 1: because people go through things that trigger other things. You
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, so you know. But it's like
Speaker 1: little things like I used to always involve you in
Speaker 1: my personal life, my love life, like you would know
Speaker 1: everything about the guy I'm dating. You would know everything
Speaker 1: about bitch I'm talking about, even down to sex positions.
Speaker 1: How many times I came on a nigger dick and
Speaker 1: don't anything anything. I know that was Tama. But this
Speaker 1: is carefully reckless and bit whatever. But it's like I've
Speaker 1: noticed or recently, you'll look at me a certain way.
Speaker 1: You'll you'll share a comment that's very judgmental. After I
Speaker 1: tell you what I feel, what I'm going through, or
Speaker 1: about a situation any situation whatever. You always kind of
Speaker 1: seem like you find a negative in something. Even going
Speaker 1: back to my birthday. You missed my third or birthday
Speaker 1: because you didn't like my boyfriend. You still don't like
Speaker 1: my boyfriend, said the day, Well, look, she does not
Speaker 1: dislike my boyfriend. She just doesn't know him, which are
Speaker 1: her words. Because I caught a Mike off, she was
Speaker 1: gonna definitely be over talking me, so I had to
Speaker 1: cut her day and Mike off shut her down because
Speaker 1: she needs to hear me. That's also her problem. London's
Speaker 1: problem is she does not like to listen. You don't
Speaker 1: like to listen, and when you are listening, you're only
Speaker 1: listening to respond. It's like you really, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't know, So I kind of fell back from
Speaker 1: telling you things about my other friends, things about my relationship,
Speaker 1: things that I'm feeling, just things that I'm going through
Speaker 1: the motions on the day to day. We do talk
Speaker 1: every day. You are my favorite cousin. Y'all want you
Speaker 1: all to know she is. But sometimes you know, I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna say outgrow because outgrow is the wrong word
Speaker 1: for us for this situation. But when you kind of
Speaker 1: evolve and you kind of feel like the other person
Speaker 1: didn't like us being close. And I'm evolving where I
Speaker 1: used to love to be messy, I used to love
Speaker 1: to talk a certain way I used to love to
Speaker 1: and I feel like I'm kind of growing from that,
Speaker 1: and I feel like you're not in It upsets you
Speaker 1: because I'm not the same way that I used to be,
Speaker 1: which is still good for me, because I'm evolving. Change
Speaker 1: is not always bad. That's just what I want you
Speaker 1: to know and to keep in the back of your mind.
Speaker 1: You know, when you feel like I'm acting different, when
Speaker 1: you feel like you know, it's really not that. It's
Speaker 1: just I feel like I can't talk to you about
Speaker 1: certain things until you kind of mature a little bit
Speaker 1: in those areas. I don't know. I don't know a
Speaker 1: lot of I'm very sorry. I love you to death.
Speaker 1: You are my baby. Not only are you my baby,
Speaker 1: you work for me. You're my executive assistant. You help
Speaker 1: me run my company, you help me run multiple businesses,
Speaker 1: you know, day one, but personally, and I know that
Speaker 1: you have felt the distance. I have created a distance
Speaker 1: between us, you know, And like I said, it started
Speaker 1: back on my birthday. Like you make a lot of
Speaker 1: selfish decisions. You can be very selfish, and I just
Speaker 1: want to tell you this, Like you know, I wouldn't
Speaker 1: sit there and tell you this on Reckless with you
Speaker 1: know us for but carefully Reckless with us too. I'm
Speaker 1: letting you know, Yeah, you can be very very selfish
Speaker 1: and judgment too. And I'm glad that we're actually here
Speaker 1: having us talk and I can tell you this ship
Speaker 1: because you need to hear it. And right now you're
Speaker 1: looking like you want to shed a tear and I'm
Speaker 1: not about to do that on the episode. Let me
Speaker 1: comfort my cousin. Y'all, we've come to the end of
Speaker 1: yet another Carefully Reckless episode. What's your girl? Just hilarious?
Speaker 1: You want to say? Byeline? Look, I ain't even gonna
Speaker 1: make her say bye. She's over there tears shedding, and
Speaker 1: she probably gonna fight me. But sometimes the truth hurts.
Speaker 1: And just like debt tuning every week next week, hump
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