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Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effects. And just like that, we're back

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Speaker 1: with yet another Carefully Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious.

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Speaker 1: Now listen, I know I have a lot of guests

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Speaker 1: from time to time. I got my sister, I got

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Speaker 1: my son, my little baby father, my best friend, my brother.

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Speaker 1: But y'all ain't ever had this girl on here yet.

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Speaker 1: But y'all do see her every Wednesday at seven pm

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Speaker 1: on Reckless Discussions. It's my favorite cousin London, say with yeah, bitch,

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Speaker 1: Now listen, we're not gonna get away like miss Perfect

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Speaker 1: Patty Pussy and ship ready doing this and what's up you?

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Speaker 1: What's up your per But I have a new slogan

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Speaker 1: from this perfect right, what's miss perfect girl? What's the

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Speaker 1: new slogan? Bitch? Hashtag? It's the guard in me? Hash

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Speaker 1: things to God to me. I keep telling you don't

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Speaker 1: have to lean into the mic like niggas can't hear

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Speaker 1: you die? And a ross we heat you. Okay, it's

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Speaker 1: a garden you. But you're drunk currently? Is that correct? Um?

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Speaker 1: A wow, I don't snitch, excuse me, Yeah, she's drunk.

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Speaker 1: She's drunk. We're gonna that's funny, but no, I'm happy

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Speaker 1: to have you on girl. You finally came on the

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Speaker 1: podcast now listen. London has been saying forever, Oh, I

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Speaker 1: want to do a podcast with you. I want to

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Speaker 1: do a podcast with you. But when she actually gets

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Speaker 1: around me and it's time to do it, she's like,

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Speaker 1: nowhere to be found. No, I have to be a

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Speaker 1: mom because I have a five year old hate when

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Speaker 1: a bit saved one kid and be like, uh, if

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Speaker 1: you have a kid, you would understand. Bitch, I have

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Speaker 1: a kid and she got money, so she had a

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Speaker 1: babysit his nail. Excuse mad didn't always have money. I

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Speaker 1: didn't know I was you have money. Now you have

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Speaker 1: a babysitter nail. Because it's like me, be like, does

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Speaker 1: anybody wanna watch him? One for twenty two forty let's

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Speaker 1: let's start here. You don't know you don't let anyone

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Speaker 1: watch your son. You don't because you just swear he's

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Speaker 1: not no one can care for him like you do,

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Speaker 1: and rightfully so no one can care for him like

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Speaker 1: his mother. But bitch, you don't even trust people to

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Speaker 1: watch him. So since I got you here, I want

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Speaker 1: to name this episode how close is too close? I

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Speaker 1: want to name it that because we're very close. We

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Speaker 1: are very close being closed since we was fucking little.

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Speaker 1: But the thing about it is, sometimes we can be

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Speaker 1: overbearing to each other. Yes, and I say each other

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Speaker 1: because not only are you overbearing to me, sometimes as

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Speaker 1: a protective big cousin who just knows it all, I'm

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Speaker 1: overbearing to you as what what would you say and

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Speaker 1: tread lightly? Is the hood investigator? Hold on? Why the

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Speaker 1: first word had to be fucking hood? Bright? Alright, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I'm from the suburbs, you're not. You're from definitely from

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Speaker 1: Sound right yea? Yeah? So we wreaked together and we're

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Speaker 1: cousins and we nosy. So it's like, how do you

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Speaker 1: mix the three without being like, I'm gonna let her

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Speaker 1: live her life and still be here for her a

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Speaker 1: lot of the times, Like I could be nosy. We

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Speaker 1: already know I'm sorrying about she don't order a thirty

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Speaker 1: dollar pansy from Fanshanov and I'd be like, oh my god,

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Speaker 1: I gotta get that, or or or if I order

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Speaker 1: a three hundred dollar pants suit from the dig in fotail,

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Speaker 1: She'll be like, um, why you do that? What you

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Speaker 1: could have got the same one on this You could

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Speaker 1: have got the same one on shame dot com. You

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Speaker 1: could have got the same one. Like so she's very

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Speaker 1: or if she ordered Oh yeah, I acused me. I mean,

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry, but I had to be real with the people.

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Speaker 1: You know, I see a lot of things that's going on,

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Speaker 1: and you know, I'm like ship she getting up one

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Speaker 1: point and sick. Yeah, basically yeah, that's when it's too close.

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Speaker 1: I swear to guard and then look the location bation

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Speaker 1: when I'm somewhere. I tried out to check it. I

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Speaker 1: promise you, I really it would have to be like

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Speaker 1: you bleft me for five hours street and five check it.

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Speaker 1: And that's something you have a friends, I can't say,

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Speaker 1: but me personally, it gotta be like, okay, now, bitch,

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Speaker 1: what a funk you with? Like the day, last ten minutes,

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Speaker 1: I was like, I'm checking the ship now, and and

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Speaker 1: to get gas. But I don't know me mind of

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Speaker 1: your business, I swear, like so recently Josica was like

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Speaker 1: I had taxed her something and she was like, well,

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Speaker 1: you should know you got my location. I said no,

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Speaker 1: like I'm my business. Until it was like, okay, this

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Speaker 1: don't really have patience like that. Yea. She hates waiting

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Speaker 1: for someone because if Jessica had a way too, I

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Speaker 1: was with someone, she relieved I would I have to

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Speaker 1: try this on you as a prank one day to

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Speaker 1: be like I'm gonna be there too, and it's like

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Speaker 1: actually before you could be like I'm fucking gone, like

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Speaker 1: I would never talk to you again. Johnson over hated.

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Speaker 1: But long story shows I don't invade your privacy unless

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Speaker 1: it's like destriment. Like the last time I did it

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Speaker 1: and I felt bad was like Robbin showed up on you,

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Speaker 1: oh ship, because I was like, you know, that was

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Speaker 1: like crossing like cousin boundaries because I knew when you

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Speaker 1: was there bond Robin didn't. But it still was a

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Speaker 1: point where it was like in my betraying my cousin

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Speaker 1: like a little bit. I felt bad for that for

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Speaker 1: a long time. I don't think I've told you, because

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Speaker 1: she pulled up some arms, spread over, doors, spread over

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Speaker 1: say it was me. And then she was like, because

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Speaker 1: I don't know how you found out, but I definitely

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Speaker 1: told the okay ship And it was only because she

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Speaker 1: was so stressed out. But I felt bad and I

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Speaker 1: was like, this is crazy, Like me and my cousin

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Speaker 1: are such because like before favorite Joss, like I got

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Speaker 1: your back, you know you want to do something, let

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Speaker 1: me know. Hey, yo, don't you ever slide your fucking

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Speaker 1: pointy finger crushed the bottom of your nose like you

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Speaker 1: just had some crack on it. But for real, like

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Speaker 1: when I started working for you, it's like it's a

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Speaker 1: difference between like what I completely can't say, but what

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Speaker 1: I can just certain people like your mother, your son, myself,

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Speaker 1: Like I have to know who you are. So it

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Speaker 1: is hard sometimes because we're like savorite cousins even though

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Speaker 1: we're so different, we're favorite cousins. But it's hard sometimes

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Speaker 1: like being your worker b or your executive I guess,

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Speaker 1: but also still respecting that we're cousins and we still

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Speaker 1: want to be like go to slide to me, like

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Speaker 1: wisions where I hang out? So five a m. Don't

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Speaker 1: tell where I'm at because you know I don't look

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Speaker 1: out for you a few times, but sometimes I can't,

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Speaker 1: especially to Aunt Rob and said, you know how ideas

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Speaker 1: and you mother, and you just want to fucking have fun.

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Speaker 1: All you do is work and you just want to

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Speaker 1: go ahead fun. But you're supposed to get your kids

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Speaker 1: soon as you get off, or get your kids, in

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Speaker 1: my case, as soon as you're laying. I'd be like, yo,

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Speaker 1: I was supposed to be back on Monday, all right,

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Speaker 1: So if she hits you, be like, she's back on

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Speaker 1: my day, bitch. I flew on Sunday. I'm partying all

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Speaker 1: Sunday funk that. So yeah, give me extra day, bitch,

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Speaker 1: let me get my life, you know, saying you know, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I know she pleasen't want to listen to this because

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Speaker 1: she listens every week, so she's gonna hear. You know

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Speaker 1: it's on you, So hold up, hold up. I know

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Speaker 1: the ship getting good, but listen to just a couple

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Speaker 1: of seconds of a commercial. If you love me, you'll listen,

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Speaker 1: have you ever felt like I did anything that made

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Speaker 1: you say like, she's too in my business, So she's

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Speaker 1: too close, So she's too comfortable, you know how close

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Speaker 1: it's too close? And in my case for you, I

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Speaker 1: don't think that you I would maybe feel like that

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Speaker 1: because you issue issue your energy. You are very much

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Speaker 1: like I got you big if you need. But I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna let you experience what you go through like you

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Speaker 1: never was over. I'm over b like who you're talking to?

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Speaker 1: What's saying? Dress? We live like case search, case search,

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Speaker 1: my cousin will kay search any fucking body in my

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Speaker 1: round that's not even only niggers. Y all. If you

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Speaker 1: ever get to meet me and I ever want to

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Speaker 1: befriends you, she's going to k such you and tell

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Speaker 1: me all about your history and be like, bitch, this

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Speaker 1: person used to do scams, hide your fucking credit cards,

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Speaker 1: like and like, honestly, I don't know if it's a

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Speaker 1: bost Moore thing, but like I will go to the

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Speaker 1: motherfucking county Federal Mexico and also come motherfucking search perer.

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Speaker 1: So yeah, basically, I'm the one that does too much

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Speaker 1: and you chill, And that's a problem. But Jessica does

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Speaker 1: get to a point where she has tell you what

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Speaker 1: it is and you don't want to hear it what

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Speaker 1: you mean? I would like, so I think it was me?

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Speaker 1: She like it was very much you. I'm like, okay, bitch, fuck,

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Speaker 1: so what do you mean? Like if I if I

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Speaker 1: and he cut me off, and I'm like, yeah, I'm vnding,

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Speaker 1: And she'd be so emotionless, like she's been wanting to

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Speaker 1: say it for happen in her life. She'd be like,

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Speaker 1: he probably don't like you. I'm like, alright, bitch, I

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Speaker 1: got money fucked. Oh my god. See one thing about her,

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Speaker 1: though she's very prideful, she does not like to hear

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Speaker 1: that someone may not like her. And and in life

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Speaker 1: that's going to happen, Cousin, Like, motherfucker's ain't gonna funk

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Speaker 1: with you. You ain't everybody type, just like everybody ain't

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Speaker 1: your fucking type. And remember one day we had somebody

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Speaker 1: tell us that maybe it's a scept guys that you're

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Speaker 1: attracting and the people that you're attracting, it's you intimidate

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Speaker 1: a lot of people because you're very headstrong, You're very

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Speaker 1: like you're sure of yourself. That's intimidating to a lot

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Speaker 1: of people. When you know a lot of people, they

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Speaker 1: honestly Kyle or because they're like they don't know ship

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Speaker 1: and it's just horrible. Sometimes nobody want to be around

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Speaker 1: to know at all. You know what I mean, I

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Speaker 1: feel you, and honestly I hate you don't know it all?

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Speaker 1: I know I do, I really do. Like sometimes I

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Speaker 1: just want to be like um busted by you always

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Speaker 1: like that anyway, Yeah for sure, but like like I

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Speaker 1: don't know, people must understand me. But you, like I said,

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Speaker 1: you have a good way of like not being in

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Speaker 1: too much in my business and I'm all the way

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Speaker 1: in your business. But I know how to relax, right,

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Speaker 1: you know that? Like I just know you. So I'm like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: now I'm crossing the line if I didn't mention this

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Speaker 1: seven seven eight times and shame you're trying to talk

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Speaker 1: about it. I got to back up. But I might

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Speaker 1: still mentioning it because I'm a knownion like that. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: she can be like this just talking about that ship

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Speaker 1: I don't even want to talk about because that's a

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Speaker 1: good y'all. She's like, you want to everything, want the

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Speaker 1: hush hush tip. But I know are so I respect it,

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Speaker 1: but I'm nosy, so I'm like, tell me. But she's

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Speaker 1: very much nosey. And I know out of you all there,

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Speaker 1: I got nosy as cousins. I know y'all do, and

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Speaker 1: you know, day one, but personally, and I know that

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Speaker 1: comfort my cousin. Y'all, we've come to the end of

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Speaker 1: yet another Carefully Reckless episode. What's your girl? Just hilarious?

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Speaker 1: You want to say? Byeline? Look, I ain't even gonna

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Speaker 1: make her say bye. She's over there tears shedding, and

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Speaker 1: she probably gonna fight me. But sometimes the truth hurts.

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Speaker 1: And just like debt tuning every week next week, hump

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