Speaker 1: Ah ah, hello, oh hello, ah ah.
Speaker 2: I just want to welcome to listen and say no
Speaker 2: hundred thousand ills on.
Speaker 3: The front and the plunks.
Speaker 4: I just want to look up at the only Yay,
Speaker 4: welcome back. It's good Mom's bad choices. I'm Erica and
Speaker 4: I'm Mela. Happy Wednesday. Hope everyone's having a good week
Speaker 4: so far. That you are setting goals making them happen.
Speaker 3: I'm getting high, you're smoking.
Speaker 5: That's best.
Speaker 3: Wat It's always way, Yeah, it is, really, you know.
Speaker 4: It's a good way to reward yourself for hard, hard, hard,
Speaker 4: hard day.
Speaker 3: Had, especially being mom's. Yeah. Wow, that was really sad. Anyway,
Speaker 3: we're joining by a special guest.
Speaker 4: We're joined by a special guest, my friend Natasha. I've
Speaker 4: known her. Yes, thank you for coming you.
Speaker 3: I've known you for a long time now, actually like
Speaker 3: four years, no, as long as I has been born
Speaker 3: number four yea, Oh my god. So Natasha hit me
Speaker 3: up on and was like, or did you go through Nisha?
Speaker 5: No?
Speaker 3: I think I just said to you damn. And I
Speaker 3: was like, can I just be like Henda your belly?
Speaker 3: Can we collab? I was like nine months pregnant, Am
Speaker 3: I having your belly? Was like sure, fuck it.
Speaker 5: Yeah, and then she feels like. I was like, do
Speaker 5: we do you have a photographer in mind? And she's like, yeah,
Speaker 5: I have one nishe you like? And then you is
Speaker 5: that hot?
Speaker 3: Did I introduce you that?
Speaker 5: You guys? Yeah? It was you for god, Yeah, it
Speaker 5: wasn't my choice and photographer was yours because now.
Speaker 3: Right right right, speaking of Hannah, she does Hannah. She
Speaker 3: does a lot of things. She's going to Hannah and smoke.
Speaker 6: And interview all that's the same time because she's fucking amazing.
Speaker 3: Just regular life. But and she's also a mama. She's
Speaker 3: a mom.
Speaker 4: She's an advocate for marijuana, an advocate for PTSD, and
Speaker 4: a business owner, entrepreneur, small business owner.
Speaker 5: Let me beautiful, all things. Thank you, thank you, thank
Speaker 5: you for having me. I'm really excited to be here.
Speaker 2: Thank you.
Speaker 3: We're excited to have you.
Speaker 6: We are.
Speaker 4: So you you're not You're originally from Seattle, right, born yeah,
Speaker 4: bod In actually California. Oh you are, Okay, born to
Speaker 4: Seattle when I was four, pretty much lived there in
Speaker 4: my whole life, and then I moved here when I
Speaker 4: was like twenty four, twenty five, twenty fifteen, and then
Speaker 4: I just started working at a lash bar, but at
Speaker 4: the same time, I was actually working at twenty four
Speaker 4: Fitness from I always like to share this because women are.
Speaker 5: Like, how do you get where you did? And just
Speaker 5: to encourage people because it's not just all about social media.
Speaker 5: I used to work really hard, so I was actually
Speaker 5: working at twenty four Fitness after eleven PM to six am,
Speaker 5: and then I went to a lash bar in the daytime,
Speaker 5: and so I can still network in all of that.
Speaker 3: And I was doing like part time modeling and acting
Speaker 3: and I still do like when I can.
Speaker 5: But I feel like Lashes and Henna is like my
Speaker 5: love before.
Speaker 3: Actually, yeah, I sometimes do commercials. It's fun.
Speaker 5: When I have to have time for it, I'll do it.
Speaker 5: But that's kind of how it all started. And it
Speaker 5: was twenty fifteen and four years later Rewind I had
Speaker 5: a baby girl. Her name's Amrita, and after having a
Speaker 5: good amount of clientele, I didn't want to leave my
Speaker 5: Shanti bar behind and I left it with a great technician.
Speaker 5: And I'm living in Seattle currently for the past year
Speaker 5: and a half and it's been good pretty much traveling
Speaker 5: between both sides, both worlds, both worlds meaning Seattle and
Speaker 5: lay for me and then just being a mom and
Speaker 5: advocating for PTSD like you just mentioned for the last
Speaker 5: year because it's really important to my heart due to
Speaker 5: life incidences that has literally been thrown in front of me.
Speaker 3: And then yeah it would work and all that.
Speaker 6: Yeah. Sure, I just want to say that I really really,
Speaker 6: really really love connecting and meeting with women.
Speaker 3: That first one high so I'm like very in tune
Speaker 3: with my inner woman. But it just centers using so
Speaker 3: many ways my energy. I'm really into with my feelings
Speaker 3: right now, and I need to say this. I need
Speaker 3: to say that.
Speaker 5: I do say it bites let not flow flow you know.
Speaker 3: It makes you be like super honest, and.
Speaker 5: Isn't it's nice organic California sungrown.
Speaker 3: Yes, it makes again well yeah, and then it comes
Speaker 3: in to sexy like packaging. It's a box.
Speaker 5: I mean they have a few things and tubes too,
Speaker 5: but I really like that it comes in a box.
Speaker 5: And it's like saving said you see life earlier because
Speaker 5: I was smoking these or yeah, he was smoking these and.
Speaker 3: You can give that up happy day with smoking these,
Speaker 3: and I was just telling him, I'm like this, this
Speaker 3: is so detailed.
Speaker 4: It has a little compartment for these matches, matches and
Speaker 4: a little like what is that a ram or something?
Speaker 3: A goat with a bull It looks like a bull
Speaker 3: with it's a bull in a suit and shovel and
Speaker 3: then a beautiful pre rolled joint.
Speaker 5: And it's like they use all organic fertilizers and they
Speaker 5: they sethentic like pesticide. Said there, it's so they're very
Speaker 5: they're like very fair well paid their employees as well.
Speaker 5: So yeah, it's a cool thing.
Speaker 3: Back to my feelings. I'm sorry, Oh.
Speaker 5: Yeah, sorry, but we went back to you.
Speaker 3: Back here. I'm here with you.
Speaker 6: You're saying, I like to be around women who like
Speaker 6: hustle and are true to themselves and do what they
Speaker 6: want to do, and that there's no limit where limitless.
Speaker 6: As women, I think we so often feel like we
Speaker 6: have to stay in one lane and we can only
Speaker 6: do one thing, and it's like tabooed and be like
Speaker 6: I'm doing this and this and I did this.
Speaker 3: And I also do that, and I'm by coastal and
Speaker 3: I'm going to do this because we can do it
Speaker 3: all and you actually think it's not possible and actually.
Speaker 6: Yeah, and you know there's a process and it's just
Speaker 6: it's wonderful to be around hard working, successful women that
Speaker 6: you know dwells into all aspects of their passions and
Speaker 6: their creatives.
Speaker 5: And I love that.
Speaker 3: Thank you, and I love you and I love you too.
Speaker 6: I love you.
Speaker 3: You're one of those women. I love it.
Speaker 5: Reflections all moms do. Like I said before, it's awesome
Speaker 5: with moms together.
Speaker 2: Moms.
Speaker 4: I think it's real important that the company you keep
Speaker 4: is so important to like mind you. Yeah, yeah, I'm
Speaker 4: like the moment that I started being more conscious of
Speaker 4: the people that I surrounded myself with, my things started
Speaker 4: to change automatically for me.
Speaker 3: You know, you're around people that aren't doing shit, but
Speaker 3: you're doing ship. There's something there's that Oh my god,
Speaker 3: did you think it was a ghost? Who is coming
Speaker 3: in my fucking house? Erica, I forgot to tell you that.
Speaker 4: I thought it.
Speaker 3: I thought about it, very paranoid.
Speaker 4: No, because Jamila doesn't he even knocking, And sometimes she'll
Speaker 4: just bust in through my door and.
Speaker 3: I'm just chilling. Imagine you can only bust in if
Speaker 3: it's open. But still that's not the point.
Speaker 4: You not.
Speaker 3: You know I'm coming. I'm like, I'm serious. Someone I
Speaker 3: know someone out there feeling. But it's not a burglar.
Speaker 3: It's fairy safe. Look it is eight oh two nine
Speaker 3: o two p. There we go high.
Speaker 6: This is well, this is the thing about getting high.
Speaker 6: I was saying stuff out loud in my head. You
Speaker 6: just didn't hear me. Okay, okay, okay did we did?
Speaker 5: We talk about feelings before interrupted to.
Speaker 3: The feelings got out. They were out.
Speaker 5: Well, you were Your cannabis is greats.
Speaker 3: We can't remember saying at the moment.
Speaker 5: Once it settles in, it's gonna.
Speaker 3: We're talking about our feelings and talking about your feeling.
Speaker 3: It's always good. It's a good combos. Arter, it's a
Speaker 3: good combos I'm speaking of feelings. So you have a
Speaker 3: how old is your daughter? She's too.
Speaker 4: She has doesn't thinking. I'm thinking feelings tantrum. She hasn't
Speaker 4: had she got into the tantrum phase yet because we
Speaker 4: live and like this crazy like my head deep.
Speaker 5: Yeah, she's definitely like memorized logos now. So we've gone
Speaker 5: into the grocery store and she's like pulled out oreos
Speaker 5: and threw them on the floor when I said no
Speaker 5: oreos and then laid on the floor and and then
Speaker 5: I said, you know, let me know when you're going.
Speaker 3: Oh, so that's how you deal with them. Yeah, so
Speaker 3: you're like, do you like just ignore her when she
Speaker 3: goes through.
Speaker 5: I'll stand there with her. I can't just walk away. No, no,
Speaker 5: But I'm just saying, like everyone has totally some people,
Speaker 5: you know. I mean sometimes depending on how bad it is,
Speaker 5: and if like it's more than five minutes or three minutes, yeah,
Speaker 5: I'll put away the oreos and just pick her up
Speaker 5: and say, you know later, or you have to eat
Speaker 5: dinner or pizza, and then you get cookie and she'll
Speaker 5: agree to it.
Speaker 3: So it's nice. She's still in that cute like, yeah,
Speaker 3: small phase. You know, they don't know. And she's like
Speaker 3: the more bigger they get, the more annoying.
Speaker 5: Yeah. The older they get, they know that they can't know.
Speaker 5: They don't have to negotiate. When they're two, they're like,
Speaker 5: all right, I'll eat my dinner.
Speaker 4: And then you're performing full sentences and screaming at you
Speaker 4: and that's important and it's like you know better, and
Speaker 4: that's why I'm more angry.
Speaker 3: And they're absorbing things just at a much faster past
Speaker 3: in our generation.
Speaker 6: It's the scariest part. It's all the absorption of information
Speaker 6: so quickly, the memory, you know what? Speaking of that,
Speaker 6: we're spoking weed right now.
Speaker 5: And I actually was talking to my twelve year old
Speaker 5: niece and she she actually just had surgery on scolia,
Speaker 5: so so she's just sitting at home for the past
Speaker 5: six weeks. But she actually told me that in school,
Speaker 5: and these are twelve year olds, they're bringing vape pins
Speaker 5: to school and it shocks me, and I feel like
Speaker 5: it's very important to talk about these things. Where are
Speaker 5: they getting them from? Why aren't parents checking in on them?
Speaker 5: Like I'm thirty years old and I'm not. First, I
Speaker 5: was annoyed obviously before it became a mom but I'm
Speaker 5: very happy that my parents actually FaceTime me and look
Speaker 5: behind my walls to see where.
Speaker 3: I am every day growing up. You know, I was like, why, oh,
Speaker 3: do you guys care so much? But I'm glad that
Speaker 3: they do.
Speaker 5: But I feel like they people should have controlled like
Speaker 5: that about their on their kids right now too. I
Speaker 5: know it sounds like too much, but if they're already smoky.
Speaker 4: I just think that there's just it's hard to keep
Speaker 4: it under control at this point because of social media.
Speaker 5: But where are they getting fake pens from where do
Speaker 5: we get out fake pens? But at twelve years old
Speaker 5: in sochol now and well, and they're they're hitting it
Speaker 5: in school like they're hitting the vakee pens and elementary
Speaker 5: and going into they're selling in school like and she's like,
Speaker 5: I've never.
Speaker 3: You know, I've never done it, but.
Speaker 6: I know I don't know.
Speaker 5: Even actually right, you know, they sell them on Amazon
Speaker 5: and kids are picking it up thinking that it's something
Speaker 5: good for them.
Speaker 3: It's really not really kids you're.
Speaker 7: Listening but a you're talking about vapens as in like
Speaker 7: THC they fake cell I pretty maybe it's like and
Speaker 7: they were like, I'm pretty sure someone says that they
Speaker 7: bought something because said it was tea with THHC but
Speaker 7: obviously probably got removed later.
Speaker 5: It's like, literally, by I remember that, you cannot you
Speaker 5: can pick that out if it wasn't really you can
Speaker 5: literally maybe it was on you know, on eBay or
Speaker 5: something like that. But I think one of a cousin
Speaker 5: of mine and I had to educate him too. He's
Speaker 5: fifteen offline.
Speaker 3: And you don't do that. You can't speaking of this topic.
Speaker 5: Can't.
Speaker 6: What was your introductory to marijuana as a teenager for you,
Speaker 6: or a teenager or a child. And then also, how
Speaker 6: do you intend or if you already have introduced your
Speaker 6: daughter to I do smoke around her? What's your parenting like?
Speaker 6: How do you what do you call our episode Moms
Speaker 6: to Medicaid? We're moms in Medicaid? So yeah, and I
Speaker 6: always want to know how what was your introductory and
Speaker 6: how do you how do you plan on introducing it
Speaker 6: to your daughter?
Speaker 5: Well, she's two, so she doesn't really know what it
Speaker 5: is right now, but she definitely sees mongo outside and
Speaker 5: come back inside.
Speaker 3: She doesn't know what she's doing.
Speaker 5: She just knows that she's colaughing on the other side
Speaker 5: of the door, and she sometimes mocks me when I
Speaker 5: get back. But of course when she gets older, I'll
Speaker 5: educate her that it's my medicine. And she's already knows
Speaker 5: the scent of it. That's what I've smelt like for
Speaker 5: the past year, you know, so's I don't think it's
Speaker 5: going to be anything new to her. And thankfully in
Speaker 5: our generation, it is something that talked about more, and
Speaker 5: there's more education coming back, there's coming out by coming back,
Speaker 5: and more research coming out, and so I think it's
Speaker 5: going to be better for us. And I started. Yeah,
Speaker 5: I think you asked me when did I started? It
Speaker 5: wasn't my teenage years. It was actually age of like
Speaker 5: twenty one, twenty two. It was later in my adult life,
Speaker 5: and it was actually after trying pharmacutical drugs first.
Speaker 3: Okay, And I did at least four years of counseling.
Speaker 5: I again, something I like to always share because it's
Speaker 5: not all about smoking weed. Definitely get like mental health
Speaker 5: and talk about it and share what's actually happening in
Speaker 5: your life so you don't think you're going crazy. But
Speaker 5: it's nice to know that my psychiatrist is okay with
Speaker 5: micro do siting on weed and letting me walk away
Speaker 5: after four years knowing that I was going to be
Speaker 5: okay and right, Yeah, it's been like a journey.
Speaker 4: Can can you share like what you're like, what what
Speaker 4: specifically in your life? You know put you onto this
Speaker 4: journey of trying to I guess medicate or trying to
Speaker 4: deal with the PTSD that you've experienced.
Speaker 3: In your life.
Speaker 5: So when when I was younger, I the four years
Speaker 5: of counseling that I originally just mentioned to you. I
Speaker 5: did that because I was actually sexually abused when I
Speaker 5: was younger, and I for the longest time, I never
Speaker 5: obviously wanted to share it with anyone, But I finally
Speaker 5: shared it with my parents at the age of twenty five, and.
Speaker 3: I worked through it with a psychiatrist. But it was
Speaker 3: like it was just weird.
Speaker 5: After my second appointment, it was a it was a
Speaker 5: talk and a prescription handed to me. It was lithium,
Speaker 5: it was addirll, it was curcher lean, it was limicked,
Speaker 5: all all of these different things that they think that
Speaker 5: was going to magically clear me. But it was really
Speaker 5: just experiences that I needed to talk about and understand,
Speaker 5: like what happened to me that was most important. At
Speaker 5: least that's what I I thought it was. And after
Speaker 5: taking it for a few years, I just didn't feel
Speaker 5: like myself, Like I definitely had thoughts of suicide and
Speaker 5: attempted almost once even and I knew that it wasn't.
Speaker 3: Right for me, and slowly I, oh, while you're on
Speaker 3: those medicines. Yeah, while I was on them. And this
Speaker 3: was at the age of like twenty one, twenty two.
Speaker 5: Mind you, I'm really happy that I went into a
Speaker 5: psychiatrist to begin with, because I was I was in
Speaker 5: college at the time, and I was like working a
Speaker 5: full time job. As soon as I got out of college,
Speaker 5: I went right into Make of America, trying to follow
Speaker 5: my mom's footsteps and working a very full time adult job.
Speaker 5: And I thought I was losing my mind. But it
Speaker 5: was really all the things that I didn't deal with
Speaker 5: when I was younger, and I was questioning, like why
Speaker 5: did this happen to me? These things are not normal.
Speaker 5: It's affecting my sex life even like and you know,
Speaker 5: as an adult, and like why is this happening?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 5: So I went in for help, and I'm glad I went.
Speaker 5: But the experience with medications did not work for me.
Speaker 5: So I slowly went off and drift, like drifted off
Speaker 5: of it and tried cannabis because of one of my
Speaker 5: cousins said it was working for her, and if it
Speaker 5: worked for her, I thought, maybe it will work for me.
Speaker 5: And I feel like it changed my life, like all
Speaker 5: of a sudden, I was doing better in school. I
Speaker 5: went through cosmetology school, got my license with flying Colors.
Speaker 3: I mean, I started a business like just from scratch
Speaker 3: and it's doing.
Speaker 5: Great, and I mean, I feel like it's what you
Speaker 5: want to make of it, And it's not always a
Speaker 5: bad thing if you don't abuse it, or if you
Speaker 5: can actually get shit done, it can be for you.
Speaker 3: I mean, if you smoked me pass out, it's not
Speaker 3: for you, you know, or if you're not doing things
Speaker 3: or you you know.
Speaker 5: And a lot of people turn off from weed because
Speaker 5: they smoke one strain and it doesn't help them, it's
Speaker 5: not for their body.
Speaker 3: Like how long did it take to find the strain?
Speaker 5: A while? Like, I mean a few months. And I
Speaker 5: describe it to women as looking for the right birth control.
Speaker 5: How many times have you tried several different birth controls?
Speaker 5: So what makes you think just one strain of cannabis
Speaker 5: is going to work for you? And I'm not saying
Speaker 5: with mental health these pills don't work for people, but
Speaker 5: for me it did it. For some people, they also
Speaker 5: have to go through a bunch of different times, so
Speaker 5: why do you not do that with cannabis too? So
Speaker 5: I mean, over time, I've learned like sativa is for
Speaker 5: days that I'm just like really really low and I need,
Speaker 5: you know, an energetic lift for days that I need
Speaker 5: to still create and show up to work and be happy.
Speaker 3: But if I have like anxiety or I'm stressed out.
Speaker 5: I don't do that. I'll choose like a hybrid or
Speaker 5: an indica to just calm my energy. Or I do
Speaker 5: very low dosages of edibles. Now. I started off with
Speaker 5: like two point five milligrams and like five milligrams and
Speaker 5: the highest I can personally go with ten milligrams. And
Speaker 5: I did that just personally on my own and trying it.
Speaker 5: But some people just have a ten milligram and they're
Speaker 5: like throwing up and they're seeing shit and okay, and
Speaker 5: it's not in its processes differently through your link.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I was telling her into edibles when I eat
Speaker 4: edibles as no matter what does Yeah, it's not an
Speaker 4: oblind I feel like.
Speaker 3: I was direct quote was first time that she would try.
Speaker 3: I felt like my eyes are shaking. It was like,
Speaker 3: what was your first experience of cannabis? Both of yours cannabis.
Speaker 3: My first experience with cannibal smoking or smoking.
Speaker 6: I was.
Speaker 4: Thirteen, and I'm pretty sure it was like I don't
Speaker 4: even know if it was really weird. Honestly, looking back
Speaker 4: on it, it's quite questionable, but I know I didn't
Speaker 4: get high, and I bought it and then I got
Speaker 4: I was in my friend's backyard, or I was by
Speaker 4: an abandoned pool of the house.
Speaker 3: Now that I'm thinking about it, that's very strange. Then
Speaker 3: we went back and smoked in her guest house.
Speaker 4: Shout out to Dylan Octagon. Then I left the weed
Speaker 4: of my pocket. My mom found it the next day.
Speaker 4: So the first time I smoked, I also got caught,
Speaker 4: yelled at, cried, she cried, I got yelled at.
Speaker 5: My dad.
Speaker 4: Maybe I was even younger. Actually I thought I was
Speaker 4: like twelve, actually around twelve. But I knew that she
Speaker 4: was smoking. I knew like I or I would see
Speaker 4: like things I thought I had.
Speaker 3: Your mom smokes, Yes, I love, I need to meet
Speaker 3: your mom.
Speaker 1: Love.
Speaker 3: Yes, I mean she's not like a heavy smoker by
Speaker 3: any means. Like she she's like she takes one hit
Speaker 3: and she's like, ooh, you know good though that she's
Speaker 3: open to it. Yeah, but she wasn't open to her
Speaker 3: daughter doing it, you know.
Speaker 4: And I get it because I have a kid now too,
Speaker 4: and I'm like, but I have a different perspective now
Speaker 4: just because I think because it just doesn't seem fair.
Speaker 4: It doesn't seem fair that I can smoke and then
Speaker 4: I have an issue when you smoke. Let's talk about it.
Speaker 4: Let's talk about why you feel like you want to smoke.
Speaker 4: Is it because you think because I smoke, that's why
Speaker 4: you want to smoke?
Speaker 3: Yeah? So yeah, that's my story. What's your story?
Speaker 6: Bol I honestly can't really remember, probably because I smoked
Speaker 6: too much. I don't really remember. I remember being like twelve.
Speaker 6: I remember I'm thirteen. I did a lot of such
Speaker 6: shit as is preteen and a teenager, so I was
Speaker 6: always experience life. Yeah, like I was drinking and like eleven,
Speaker 6: I think twelve, we went to like tried to sneak
Speaker 6: across the street from this YMC a dance and smoke weed.
Speaker 3: But I don't even know if I really got high.
Speaker 6: I wasn't really like a pot smoker, even like in
Speaker 6: high school, I was super happy. I can remember like
Speaker 6: a couple of times I got really high in high school.
Speaker 6: But I started really like smoking smoking in college when
Speaker 6: I moved to Atlanta, which is the most dumbest shit ever,
Speaker 6: because I was smoking fucking stress like called Reggie in Atlantic.
Speaker 5: Oh.
Speaker 3: I was literally about to say when she said she
Speaker 3: wasn't sure what it was.
Speaker 5: Have you heard her. Have you heard or seen the
Speaker 5: video Reggie?
Speaker 3: Though? The video you know what I'm talking about.
Speaker 5: It's called Reggie. Oh, you can YouTube it. Okay.
Speaker 3: What are you talking about except actual weed?
Speaker 5: Oh? Oh my gosh. Actually there's a type of weed
Speaker 5: that's called Reggie. It's supposed to be horrific. It's called
Speaker 5: it's short for like regular. Okay, yes for us, Yes, yes,
Speaker 5: that's exactly what it dressed stress. Remember that there's a
Speaker 5: funny YouTube video that's clowning on weed that's sposed to
Speaker 5: be called Reggie. Was supposed to be the worst weed
Speaker 5: on the market because it's like, okay, because I don't
Speaker 5: have access.
Speaker 3: So it's like.
Speaker 6: I went to college to smoke fuck ass weed for
Speaker 6: like a year and then I started getting smoking better weed,
Speaker 6: and then later and I was just like dead forever.
Speaker 6: And then I started to realize, like, oh, I need
Speaker 6: to pay attention to what I'm smoking or else I
Speaker 6: can be totally paranoid, totally useless, or I could be
Speaker 6: functioning now as a mom. Now is like as I've
Speaker 6: moved back, and there's like education. I worked at dispensary
Speaker 6: for a little while, like you know, on the side,
Speaker 6: and shit like oh, you know, this is what I
Speaker 6: need to be smoking.
Speaker 3: This is what I need ups. But yeah, that's pretty
Speaker 3: much it.
Speaker 6: But you know, when my parents always smoked with they
Speaker 6: weren't open with me about it until high school. My
Speaker 6: grandmother smokes weed, but I didn't know that until I
Speaker 6: became an adult. But it comes from a long weed
Speaker 6: smoking background. And now I can smoke with like my dad.
Speaker 3: And my grandma together and it's great. It's amazing, you know,
Speaker 3: and it's my love. I almost got along with my grandmother.
Speaker 6: You better.
Speaker 3: How old is your grandma? During Christmas or Thanksgiving? Jimmila
Speaker 3: was on her. It's the story like smoking a blut
Speaker 3: with her grandma in the background. I love dancing. My
Speaker 3: grandma was so cool.
Speaker 5: Yeah, oh my, I'm still trying to get my grandma
Speaker 5: to smoke me. So she's been smoking cigarettes since she
Speaker 5: was fifteen years old. And I've taken her to her
Speaker 5: like doctor's appointments and things like that. Her lungs it's
Speaker 5: like untouched. What it's She's in such good health. The
Speaker 5: doctor has like come back every six months. And for
Speaker 5: some people, yes, it works this way, but most people
Speaker 5: tobacco kills, right, yeah, obviously, so I sometimes sit outside
Speaker 5: and she's eighty and now she's okay with me sparking.
Speaker 3: Up my joint and she's smoking her oh my god cigarettes,
Speaker 3: and it's it just took it like a nine months,
Speaker 3: you know.
Speaker 5: And of course I cried about it afterwards the first
Speaker 5: time it happens, because it's just't oh my god. I
Speaker 5: never thought about it, honestly, being like an Indian woman too, Honestly,
Speaker 5: I never thought the first time I did it, though,
Speaker 5: she was like, oh hi did, like oh my god.
Speaker 3: In Hindi like what are you doing? And like how
Speaker 3: do your feed How did you introduce your like this
Speaker 3: to my parents?
Speaker 5: So when we moved back to California, like I was mentioning,
Speaker 5: after starting my shantyore, I took off because I had
Speaker 5: a baby and I moved back and I was hiding
Speaker 5: it for the first month. And I feel like, if
Speaker 5: you have anxiety and if you have PTSD and you're
Speaker 5: using this, you're not going to help yourself. If you're
Speaker 5: hiding it, you're actually creating more anxiety. And it's so
Speaker 5: bad because I as soon as I would walk out
Speaker 5: of my house after I would smoke weed, I would
Speaker 5: be paranoid about my smell parentoid to talk to my
Speaker 5: mom and I just got so like in my head
Speaker 5: about it, and I'm like, why are you even overthinking
Speaker 5: what you're doing? Even smoking for how many years? And
Speaker 5: then I also didn't want to her to think that
Speaker 5: it was my younger brother doing it. Come, you know,
Speaker 5: being blamed for something. So a month later, oh, girl,
Speaker 5: this was a year ago. Oh I've only been shit
Speaker 5: a public cannabis evigate since November two thousand of last year.
Speaker 5: Oh okay, it's gone the year. And as soon as
Speaker 5: I became open to my parents, and my mom and
Speaker 5: dadd accepted, there's no fear behind it anymore. And it
Speaker 5: was the best feeling in the world. And so after
Speaker 5: a month, I walked down at seven block in the
Speaker 5: morning and I looked at my mom and I said,
Speaker 5: I was you know, you know I have PTSD through
Speaker 5: what I've been through, and I'm going to be super
Speaker 5: honest with you, and I use cannabis for medication and
Speaker 5: I'm going to bring it out of my trunk and
Speaker 5: show you what I do.
Speaker 3: And e't seven o'clock in the morning.
Speaker 5: I just woke up and I'm like, I need you know,
Speaker 5: I have my coffee and I have two hits of
Speaker 5: weed and that's how I start my day and it's
Speaker 5: okay and it works for me. And so I brought
Speaker 5: in the weed and I grinded it in front of
Speaker 5: her and it was this tiny nug and obviously it's
Speaker 5: a plant, so I'm hoping that it's not something she's
Speaker 5: going to freak out about. And she didn't freak out.
Speaker 5: I walked outside and there's like a glass in between
Speaker 5: us now because I shut the screen door behind us,
Speaker 5: and I smoked twice in front of her and blew
Speaker 5: it out and it was this tiny pipe that I used.
Speaker 3: And I came back inside and.
Speaker 5: The first thing she said in Hindi was the mykonzi
Speaker 5: kais and that means who taught you, who talks to
Speaker 5: you for your mom, like who influenced you to do this?
Speaker 5: And I was just I started laughing, obviously, thinking.
Speaker 3: That's what every mother says. I say, who targeting that?
Speaker 4: And no.
Speaker 5: One day, remember when I was doing counseling, and you know,
Speaker 5: I told them, you know, I opened up about what
Speaker 5: happened to me when I was younger. I've been doing
Speaker 5: this too, to just help me live better. And it
Speaker 5: makes me feel like myself again and just helps me.
Speaker 5: And after that, it's like a week later. I told
Speaker 5: my dad and that was hard because I cried through.
Speaker 3: The whole thing for some reason. I don't know why,
Speaker 3: but like being the only daughter, I thought I was
Speaker 3: going to disappoint him.
Speaker 5: But I came to a point in my life being
Speaker 5: a mom that I wasn't going to hide myself anymore,
Speaker 5: not for anyone, not for Amrita, not for my parents.
Speaker 5: And I can't live like that anymore, especially, like I said,
Speaker 5: after the incidences that I've gone through, it's too much
Speaker 5: for me to do anything more. And I I was
Speaker 5: very honest with him. I said, you know, Dad, if
Speaker 5: you don't want this under your roof, that's okay. You know,
Speaker 5: me and Rutha can live somewhere else. I'm not going
Speaker 5: to take a Rutha away from you, but I don't
Speaker 5: want to like disrespect you. But if you're okay with it,
Speaker 5: you know, this is why I do it, and you
Speaker 5: know why. And I just just like bawling through the
Speaker 5: whole thing. And he said, if it helps you, and
Speaker 5: if it's your medicine, it's okay. And that's what he said,
Speaker 5: and I think he understands like where I'm coming from,
Speaker 5: and like I said, as long as I'm getting my
Speaker 5: shit done.
Speaker 3: I think they're okay with it. And it took a
Speaker 3: year afterwards.
Speaker 5: You know, they had to see me all year long
Speaker 5: after that, and sometimes they would like come in and
Speaker 5: smell me and they're like, Natasha, and why are you
Speaker 5: you know, are you sure you want to keep doing this?
Speaker 5: You're a mom now. And you know, after a year later,
Speaker 5: they're they're proud and they're they're get what I'm doing.
Speaker 5: I think it was six months in my mom's bank manager.
Speaker 5: One of them walked up to her and she follows
Speaker 5: me on Instagram, and she saw what I was doing
Speaker 5: and read a few of my articles and she was like, you.
Speaker 3: Should be so proud of your daughter.
Speaker 5: And she, you know, she was like, she's.
Speaker 3: Doing so much. And my mom, I guess, didn't realize
Speaker 3: what I was doing. She just like, why are you
Speaker 3: smoking weed? Natasha?
Speaker 5: No more smoking photos. I'm okay with you smoking cannabis.
Speaker 5: It's not that, but why do you have to post
Speaker 5: it on the internet. But I wasn't just posting it
Speaker 5: on the internet. I'm trying to tell her that I'm
Speaker 5: trying to break the stigma behind her culture and trying
Speaker 5: to tell you that I can still be a regular
Speaker 5: person and I'm still a mom. I could still work.
Speaker 5: Yeah I'm not perfect. Yeah i still have severe symptoms
Speaker 5: through PTSD, but I'm trying to use plants with repeals period.
Speaker 3: Right And after hearing her bank manager story and what.
Speaker 5: She said, I was literally bawling, like because like she
Speaker 5: finally started to believe slowly.
Speaker 3: What I was doing.
Speaker 5: And now like a year later, she's like picking out
Speaker 5: my Saudis for me. She's taking out my outfits for me,
Speaker 5: and she's supporting me.
Speaker 3: And so it was my dad too, but beautiful. So Mom,
Speaker 3: you know, she's like, you know, parents' approval. As much
Speaker 3: as we don't want it to be important, it's the
Speaker 3: best gift it is. It's a gift, and if you
Speaker 3: can give.
Speaker 4: That to your kids, it's like one of the biggest
Speaker 4: gifts you can give them because it's something they'll they're there.
Speaker 3: They might not ask you for, you know what I mean, or.
Speaker 5: Even if they killed someone, you know what I mean, Honestly,
Speaker 5: like if they know you first or whatever it might be,
Speaker 5: they just be okay with them coming to you create
Speaker 5: that space that they're okay with having this conversation with you.
Speaker 6: Right, Just that transparency and that honesty is important and
Speaker 6: for the misty, you do it. And so they could
Speaker 6: also do the same.
Speaker 4: M hm.
Speaker 3: So do they ever? Were they ever?
Speaker 4: Were they concerned you said you had a little brother.
Speaker 4: Were they concerned that you were going to pass on
Speaker 4: this Reggie?
Speaker 3: And does he smoke? Yes, his name's Reggie, and yes,
Speaker 3: he totally names Reggie.
Speaker 5: What Yes, And I'm like, he was actually one of
Speaker 5: the articles that I've talked about before because he he's
Speaker 5: one of the most traumatic incidents as I have and had,
Speaker 5: and he did attempt to take his life. And he
Speaker 5: definitely has been smoking in the evening. He said it
Speaker 5: calms him down and stuff. But he didn't want to
Speaker 5: do it in front of our parents because of respect.
Speaker 5: And he was so happy after I did it because
Speaker 5: everyone gets smoking at our house. Now it just doesn't matter.
Speaker 5: And like a year later, honestly, none of my unties
Speaker 5: care at this point. And of course at the beginning,
Speaker 5: they're wondering, Natasha, why do you smell like this? Are
Speaker 5: you high?
Speaker 4: Right?
Speaker 5: What's happening? But I had literally had to sit down
Speaker 5: and tell them. People have fallen dead in front of me.
Speaker 5: I can't explain to you why or how, but I
Speaker 5: have severe PTSD and I can't control it, and I
Speaker 5: do this instead of taking pills. And now that there's
Speaker 5: more research, thank god, and there's so many men from
Speaker 5: the military after coming back from war that are using it,
Speaker 5: and again more and more research and doctors even vouching
Speaker 5: for it. They're okay with it, but they wouldn't be
Speaker 5: okay with it if they didn't hear it from like
Speaker 5: a medical professional.
Speaker 3: Honestly, I feel like.
Speaker 4: I mean, I think, I mean just I remember looking
Speaker 4: your Instagram multiple times and seeing like that you had
Speaker 4: experienced one death after another and they were all like suicides,
Speaker 4: and that is just like.
Speaker 3: At some point for me, I'm like, I don't even
Speaker 3: know what to say. I'm just like destroyed over again.
Speaker 3: But like also I'm like, how does that?
Speaker 5: Why?
Speaker 3: What does it mean?
Speaker 5: You asked me this on Instagram once and you said, like,
Speaker 5: I hope you come to terms of it. I hope
Speaker 5: it makes sense to you once And truthfully, I love
Speaker 5: that you both are like spiritual women.
Speaker 3: I probably I feel like I committed to a side
Speaker 3: of my last life.
Speaker 5: Hmmm, that's what it came down to, because I don't
Speaker 5: understand how so many people can just literally fall dead
Speaker 5: around me or in front of me, and it doesn't
Speaker 5: make any sense, Like how many of my neighbors have
Speaker 5: to like kill themselves?
Speaker 6: How many neighbors? Hasn't really been three three neighbors. I'm
Speaker 6: still in the same building different. I'm so happy that
Speaker 6: you are like that, we're not. I'm not crazy when
Speaker 6: I'm like, there has I think that's that's probably true.
Speaker 5: That makes I don't saying anything else makes more sense
Speaker 5: in my life. I after, like after it happened over
Speaker 5: and over again, like the last one was nuts. Like
Speaker 5: I'll do a short I'll do a short piece of
Speaker 5: all of them, what has happened in a row. There
Speaker 5: was an immediate family member that I'm not going to
Speaker 5: share their story yet because they haven't been they haven't
Speaker 5: given me permission to. But another immediate family member besides
Speaker 5: my brother, attempted their life when I was younger and
Speaker 5: it was like eight or nine, and that traumatized me
Speaker 5: quite a bit.
Speaker 3: Then it was my brother an uncle of mine did
Speaker 3: pass away, and after that.
Speaker 5: It became like really just weird, and I wanted to
Speaker 5: get my brother out of Seattle, and so I moved
Speaker 5: him out to Long Beach just to like help him
Speaker 5: and just start over. And one day I was going
Speaker 5: to work and I literally saw something fall from a
Speaker 5: bridge in front of me. And I always joked around
Speaker 5: with my friends living in California after a year and
Speaker 5: I was like, oh, it's another luggage bag that someone
Speaker 5: broke up with their boyfriend, you know, And it was
Speaker 5: not as when I drove closer, it was a woman
Speaker 5: laying there, and it sucked seeing her in that position.
Speaker 5: She was actually alive, saying kill me. When I got
Speaker 5: her and there was blood and bones everywhere. Oh yeah,
Speaker 5: I got I parked my car immediately. Like I said
Speaker 5: before I mentioned it. Actually working at twenty four Fitness,
Speaker 5: I knew, I knew CPR, I knew I could help
Speaker 5: this woman. So I ran up to her and try
Speaker 5: to help her, and I stayed with her until the
Speaker 5: paramedics alived. And I can't even recall all the things
Speaker 5: that happened because it was so fucked and like, excuse
Speaker 5: my language, it was just so traumatic. Like all I
Speaker 5: remember is a police officer asking me for my ID
Speaker 5: and I brought him my fucking passport and he was like,
Speaker 5: I just want you to get off the freeway. I'm
Speaker 5: going to stop these cars. I just want you to
Speaker 5: get off the freeway. Cause I was like, so shicken up.
Speaker 5: And after that happened, of course, I moved out a
Speaker 5: long beach and I went to downtown LA and we
Speaker 5: lived there for two years. And our first Father's Day
Speaker 5: after having Amrita, I went to the grocery store to
Speaker 5: get sweet potatoes. Came back and as soon as my
Speaker 5: elevator door opened to the floor or my neighbors doorf
Speaker 5: blasted over open and she lives like two doors down
Speaker 5: and she's screaming, help me, help me. Of course, I
Speaker 5: dropped my groceries and I ran in and she was
Speaker 5: screaming like, oh my god, oh my god. And of
Speaker 5: course I look over and I just see legs laying
Speaker 5: on the floor. And I look over to her and
Speaker 5: she says, I I think my my roommate committed suicide.
Speaker 5: And I like, literally I couldn't explain to you how
Speaker 5: mad I was that day. I literally took a second
Speaker 5: from myself and I like looked up at the sky
Speaker 5: and I was like, fuck you, again. Literally, okay, this
Speaker 5: is another This is an assitement, really and I know
Speaker 5: people are gonna think this is crazy, but I don't
Speaker 5: think it's like a coincident in any way. So of
Speaker 5: course I took the phone from her and I was like,
Speaker 5: it's okay, just try to breathe through it. And the
Speaker 5: you know, the guy on the phone is like is
Speaker 5: he alive? As he did he was totally gone, and
Speaker 5: you know, he was like, can you try to give
Speaker 5: him CPR? And we you know, I ran and got
Speaker 5: Amritha's father at the time, I mean not to time
Speaker 5: over his father with his dad, and he came and
Speaker 5: tried to give me CPR, like tried to help me
Speaker 5: give him sleeper.
Speaker 3: I'm getting like weird just talking about it. But that
Speaker 3: was another incident.
Speaker 5: And so moving out of there, by the way, what
Speaker 5: California law does not allow you to move out because
Speaker 5: of mental health if you're yeah, And I want to
Speaker 5: mention that because it was so hard to move out
Speaker 5: of there. And I told them over and over again,
Speaker 5: like I cannot walk past the story anymore. But they
Speaker 5: didn't want to break your lease. They will not let
Speaker 5: you break your lease like that. It was the right
Speaker 5: and proper way I said it, But yes they will.
Speaker 5: They won't allow it. It's it's against the law to
Speaker 5: do that. And the and we got out of there
Speaker 5: the way that we got out of there, thankfully. But
Speaker 5: I just want to say that, like California needs to
Speaker 5: think about this, and all of them all across the board,
Speaker 5: they think about mental health because it is serious. You
Speaker 5: can't make someone do that every day and to experience that.
Speaker 5: So I moved out of there and currently I'm living
Speaker 5: with my parents in Seattle. And last Mother's Day, two
Speaker 5: days before Mother's Day, our neighbor of seventeen years took.
Speaker 3: Her life two days before Mother's Day and on Father's Day. Wow,
Speaker 3: that's crazy, tell me about it.
Speaker 5: I'm still living there right now and she's not there,
Speaker 5: and like some mom of two daughters, and it doesn't
Speaker 5: I don't know. You see them all every day and
Speaker 5: you're like look at them straight in the face, and
Speaker 5: you don't know what happened? Like, what what happened? And
Speaker 5: then you hear it over and over again now in
Speaker 5: our generation, because people are just not satisfied with life
Speaker 5: where they're like their mental health is so disabled because
Speaker 5: things are not as fast as they could order it
Speaker 5: as on fucking Amazon.
Speaker 3: You know, they think everything in life is supposed to
Speaker 3: be that way, but it's not. It's it's really hard
Speaker 3: to it's a journey.
Speaker 5: Yes, thank you for turning on the heater.
Speaker 3: I'm getting caught to you. I know you are, damn.
Speaker 3: That's yeah. And it just it just keeps on going
Speaker 3: on and on like in between that.
Speaker 5: Honestly, I've seen a few other debts just laying in
Speaker 5: the road covered with a blanket, yes, just under bridges,
Speaker 5: and it didn't make sense to me why I kept
Speaker 5: crossing it. But like you said in the beginning, why
Speaker 5: do you think it happened? I honestly think I committed
Speaker 5: suicide in my past life, and I'm just here to help.
Speaker 3: And then this is your this is your role, this
Speaker 3: is your doing.
Speaker 5: All I'm supposed to do is just trying to help
Speaker 5: people live longer and just let them know it's going
Speaker 5: to be okay.
Speaker 3: And that's and that's.
Speaker 6: Amazing that you're like that you're aligning with your calling
Speaker 6: and that you're recognizing that.
Speaker 5: And I don't know what else to do, right the fuck,
Speaker 5: I don't even know what else to do besides like
Speaker 5: smokeyed and try to help. And again, it's not weed
Speaker 5: that's going to solve all your problems. Go get counseling, right,
Speaker 5: it's not all about smoking cannabis.
Speaker 3: But are you I don't know what else to do? Right? Right?
Speaker 5: Right?
Speaker 3: Are you still currently in therapy?
Speaker 5: I actually had like a good talk with one of
Speaker 5: my clients and psychiatry, like just a few days ago actually,
Speaker 5: and I'm going to go back to therapy. But she's
Speaker 5: she gave me like really great feedback, and it's been
Speaker 5: it's been nice to hear it from someone that's professional.
Speaker 5: She works with a lot of trauma cases. And she
Speaker 5: told me, I'm definitely half severe BTSD. Obviously, she doesn't
Speaker 5: even know how I'm walking around, she doesn't know how
Speaker 5: I'm functional sometimes because of it happening over and over again.
Speaker 5: And she said, you're definitely at like a consistent state
Speaker 5: of hyper vigilance. Is it fled and you're just that
Speaker 5: means like you're at that shock stage of when it
Speaker 5: happened all the time. And it's true, because I mean
Speaker 5: I can't even take a nap without like my night guard.
Speaker 5: I mean, I feel like I'm clutching my teeth Throughout
Speaker 5: the day, I've broken like all of the teeth in
Speaker 5: the back left side of my teeth because just you know,
Speaker 5: at night, just grinding my teeth and my body still
Speaker 5: is holding onto that. So, yes, cannabis is helping me.
Speaker 5: But did it like take away everything for the rest
Speaker 5: of my life?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 5: Is it how helping me through my day to day yes?
Speaker 5: And having me a good mom yes, helping me work, yes.
Speaker 3: But do you think that you'll ever be totally like free, No.
Speaker 5: Because I can't even like have a normal dream at night,
Speaker 5: I mean without smoking cannabis. Like, once I have no
Speaker 5: nightmares at night, then I'm probably gonna have hope again.
Speaker 5: But until that happens, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I hope I do.
Speaker 5: I don't feel like it's like the end of the
Speaker 5: world either if I do have a nightmare, because I
Speaker 5: know when I wake up as a nightmare. But of
Speaker 5: course who wants to like the rest of Yeah, so slowly,
Speaker 5: you know, as I'm sharing all of this, I'm hoping
Speaker 5: I can learn and like share my process.
Speaker 4: I was like, oh, I think talking about it too,
Speaker 4: is I mean, for me, even just having a podcast,
Speaker 4: it is therapeutic for me just talking about it, yes,
Speaker 4: talking to other people that can relate to you too,
Speaker 4: so you know you feel like you know, oh wow,
Speaker 4: I'm not crazy because.
Speaker 5: When you're in just talking about it on Instagram, it's
Speaker 5: so cathartic, it's so amazing just talking about it, just
Speaker 5: writing about it.
Speaker 3: Okay, she's like she wanted to say something. I was like,
Speaker 3: is it just a coffee?
Speaker 6: Okay?
Speaker 3: Did you guys just smoke too much food? No? No, no, no,
Speaker 3: I can like this one up again though. Can you
Speaker 3: ever be too high when when you're babyless?
Speaker 5: And I mean I don't. Yeah, after a while you've
Speaker 5: been smoking for a while too, do you feel like
Speaker 5: you get high? Like you like effect you?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 5: I think it does.
Speaker 3: It affects me because again I don't. I don't chief
Speaker 3: all day, Like sometimes I can puff that wake up.
Speaker 3: Sometimes I'll have to, you know, sometimes midday's time. Sometimes
Speaker 3: I just wat to the end of the day.
Speaker 6: Sometimes the whole day will go by and I haven't smiled,
Speaker 6: or two days will go by. I don't need it, Awesome,
Speaker 6: sometimes I do need it, you know, so you know.
Speaker 5: When you do?
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I mean I think sometimes I overdo it.
Speaker 4: Really no, but I mean Obviously, I do not smoke
Speaker 4: nearly as much as I used to before I had
Speaker 4: a kid. And actually I think it's only been more
Speaker 4: recently that I've smoked more because sometimes I go like
Speaker 4: a week without smoking, two weeks without smoking.
Speaker 5: Not two weeks, but a week maybe not too I
Speaker 5: see you every week, and I love my Cannabis makes
Speaker 5: me a better parent, honestly, you know.
Speaker 3: Like I'm more engaged. And it's not that I not
Speaker 3: be engaged without smoking, it's just when I'm not, and
Speaker 3: I spell certainly I am, you know, more present, more present,
Speaker 3: and exactly that's really what it is, being present. Yeah,
Speaker 3: I seem I.
Speaker 5: Feel like whenever I, you know, smoke and I'll go
Speaker 5: back inside, Like I feel like I'm more of a
Speaker 5: child with her.
Speaker 3: You're down to play all the games.
Speaker 5: Yes we can be like I read that and Natasha
Speaker 5: with these dolls for the next four hours. It's gonna
Speaker 5: be okay, you know what I mean, until you fall
Speaker 5: asleep for your death whatever you want about four hours,
Speaker 5: but like or you know, whatever are you. Sativa is
Speaker 5: usually throughout the day, but my daughter doesn't not much,
Speaker 5: So stay awake with her.
Speaker 6: Because before we started recording, we were we were researching,
Speaker 6: and we were saying, like, how in Hindu culture, wheat
Speaker 6: is actually a sacred plant and that you're saying like
Speaker 6: one that they say like and I always say this student,
Speaker 6: I think alsoin Mastafian religion, if it's even religion. But
Speaker 6: it opens like your third eye, and it connects you
Speaker 6: in a different way, and you and I feel that
Speaker 6: way when I.
Speaker 3: When I get high. Have you ever this is for
Speaker 3: everybody too.
Speaker 6: Have you ever like gotten high with someone you're dating
Speaker 6: and suddenly you don't like them anymore?
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm like, oh, who they are? I've done that
Speaker 3: and it's so dumb. That's what she really looked like.
Speaker 5: Yeah, literally, and I know I'm not great like their
Speaker 5: your mask, you know, was off, yours came on and
Speaker 5: you get see your.
Speaker 6: Goggles are completely gone, Like You're feelings suddenly are too clear.
Speaker 5: You're like, fuck you suck. But I think it's actually
Speaker 5: not a bad thing because you probably can't hide what
Speaker 5: you're really feeling with your words either. It's so hard
Speaker 5: to hide, so you're looking at you can't be fake
Speaker 5: when you smoke wheed.
Speaker 3: I think most people can't, like you just can't can't.
Speaker 3: In fact, you say too much. Sometimes said you're too
Speaker 3: said too much. You can't feel too fake.
Speaker 5: Smoke weed before they take a light detective disk like
Speaker 5: they really should. They really no faking it.
Speaker 3: One time I was like, when I first started in
Speaker 3: Young Bay, we were high.
Speaker 5: I think we're high?
Speaker 3: Was I just guilty?
Speaker 6: He asked me a question and I lied and I
Speaker 6: didn't even know him, and I was like, it was
Speaker 6: just I thought my heart was like pumping in my
Speaker 6: chest and I was like, like, ten minutes later, was like, well, how.
Speaker 3: About that question?
Speaker 5: You asked me?
Speaker 3: Technically, but I'm like, can you feel me sweatings? He
Speaker 3: can hear me talking? You know, I'm mine. I'm I'm like, bitch,
Speaker 3: don't ever get high again and lie.
Speaker 5: That's what I like about weed, though honestly it doesn't
Speaker 5: like it makes you think. It makes you be your
Speaker 5: authentic self. It does like one thing with weed and
Speaker 5: one thing I feel like that it also helps me
Speaker 5: just be calm. If you go into a room, especially
Speaker 5: after you smoke weed, and you just imagine that everyone
Speaker 5: can actually hear your thoughts, you're gonna stop thinking negative
Speaker 5: thoughts period. You're just gonna stop, and it calms you
Speaker 5: and it really helps me do that. You just go
Speaker 5: in and you're gonna be like, well, shit, she's gonna
Speaker 5: know if she doesn't like me, because it's the truth.
Speaker 5: And if it's not the truth, then it's not the truth.
Speaker 5: But if you just think, like, well, that person can
Speaker 5: already hear my thoughts, so it doesn't even matter. Sure,
Speaker 5: it's just makes you your authentic self. And at least
Speaker 5: that's what it does for me.
Speaker 3: Just like tricks with Natasha. I don't know for everyone,
Speaker 3: but maybe it will help people.
Speaker 4: Know that's hamaractly because I think sometimes people they shy
Speaker 4: away from weed because they haven't figured out how to,
Speaker 4: you know, adjust to it and relax into it or
Speaker 4: decide or like research and find the much of it.
Speaker 4: Most of the time the right strain, know the right dosage.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 4: It's just like any medicine that you take. You're not
Speaker 4: going to take like ten mls of Nike will like
Speaker 4: I speaking of.
Speaker 5: Medicine, And obviously this is wine that I have right here.
Speaker 5: For the first three years that I've had cannabis. You
Speaker 5: can ask any of my friends. They could not get
Speaker 5: me to drink. I just could not handle drinking and
Speaker 5: that together I just it was like drinking vicodin and
Speaker 5: wine together. If you wouldn't do that, don't do that
Speaker 5: with cannabis. And some girls parties come up to me
Speaker 5: and they're like, oh my god, so what is the
Speaker 5: strain going to do to me? And the first thing
Speaker 5: I say is, have you been drinking shit? I don't
Speaker 5: know what it's going to you know what I mean,
Speaker 5: because you've already changed the chemical balance in your in
Speaker 5: your brain and your body. Like, who doesn't matter what
Speaker 5: you're smoking at this point, And so you have to
Speaker 5: really do it the right way and do micro dosing.
Speaker 3: And I'll say that over and over again. One puff
Speaker 3: is enough for most people.
Speaker 5: Most people panic and get into their heads and overeat
Speaker 5: and throw up because they have too much and not
Speaker 5: the right throw up.
Speaker 6: Well, one time I get someone and I can yeah,
Speaker 6: or like if someone takes to bong hit and do
Speaker 6: until they throw.
Speaker 5: You have, I don't like.
Speaker 3: I don't like. Do you like to dab? Honestly?
Speaker 5: I will dad like twice a year something like you
Speaker 5: want to just let actually club clubbing or something like that.
Speaker 3: Club. I know it's probably not the right strain, Like
Speaker 3: I said, it's not not something I remember I thought
Speaker 3: to explode. Yeah, and it's my breast.
Speaker 6: Yeah, it was too much.
Speaker 3: It hurts.
Speaker 5: And going back to a lower tolerance after that it's
Speaker 5: not awesome. Like smoking a dab and then trying to
Speaker 5: go back to Flower.
Speaker 4: It's like.
Speaker 3: Flower, it's not even Yeah, I couldn't, I can't. I
Speaker 3: won't you. Yeah, Flower, I know my limb is good,
Speaker 3: edible and dapping. No, yeah, and vake pins also, I
Speaker 3: mean they're okay here. I like good old flower, good old.
Speaker 5: Flower is the best. Things are okay here and there.
Speaker 5: But now you know they have lead in them, so
Speaker 5: really be careful. We got your really a lot of
Speaker 5: vake pans No, no, no, I know I don't really
Speaker 5: smoke a lot of them, but they're being tested positive.
Speaker 3: If we're going to Disneyland, yeah, take it, take the
Speaker 3: bake pen. Yes, yeah, okay, I can't join a Disneyland pen.
Speaker 5: Yes, of course, Yes, I agree.
Speaker 3: I call it my m yes, my panic pen. Actually, yes, Hanny,
Speaker 3: while you internet, Oh why god, I'd love to the
Speaker 3: High Hannah service, the Highness. I will Hannah tattoo out
Speaker 3: of this, Yes.
Speaker 4: I do.
Speaker 3: I love Hannah.
Speaker 5: I Also I think it's cool to show you that
Speaker 5: I could still draw while smoking weed.
Speaker 3: I might have been Indian in my last life because
Speaker 3: I do love Hannah. I've always loved Hannahs and some
Speaker 3: speaking you loved, and I love Bendy's.
Speaker 6: I really do.
Speaker 3: You were about to light an incense like a second ago.
Speaker 3: I feel like I did.
Speaker 6: I love goats, Yeah, you love what gold, ghosts, gold, gold,
Speaker 6: everything I.
Speaker 3: Look better and gold to just look better. So can
Speaker 3: you share, as a mama your birth story. I don't
Speaker 3: want to ask. We always like to ask mama. Is
Speaker 3: a birth story is not always great?
Speaker 5: It was definitely a very long one, a very very
Speaker 5: long one. And so when I went into labor actually
Speaker 5: did know it, and I I was at Target actually
Speaker 5: the day that I was very excited to pack my
Speaker 5: goddamn bag to take and of course I went into
Speaker 5: labor that day, right, it always happened. I was thirty
Speaker 5: seven weeks pregnant and I'm at Target getting the last
Speaker 5: thing that I need. Some fucking excuse my language, but
Speaker 5: I swear a lot, but like breastfeeding pads and like
Speaker 5: you don't need that shit by the way, kind of
Speaker 5: a pad, and like just put it in your boob,
Speaker 5: do not buy breastfeeding pads. Okay, So I bought it,
Speaker 5: and I'm sitting in Target and I'm like, shit, there's
Speaker 5: like stuff coming out of me, and like your third trimester,
Speaker 5: you all know, it's like your hit period. Okay, you
Speaker 5: don't know what the fuck is coming out of time.
Speaker 5: I'm just wearing a pantliner.
Speaker 3: I'm like, it's just normal.
Speaker 5: But then it was a little bit more than usual.
Speaker 5: But I'm like, yeah, whatever, And honestly, it was leaking
Speaker 5: like that for a few days.
Speaker 3: At that point. I probably didn't know, but it was
Speaker 3: fluid that was coming out of me.
Speaker 5: My water broke a while ago.
Speaker 3: Oh, I didn't know it until I got to the hospital.
Speaker 5: But before that, I left Target and I went back
Speaker 5: to work and I did like three more clients. Didn't
Speaker 5: think anything was wrong actually until I saw blood because
Speaker 5: I didn't have contractions, and so I finally called Joseph
Speaker 5: Aretha's dad and I was like, all right, I'm bleeding.
Speaker 5: I should go in. My doctor said, I can't pack
Speaker 5: my bag, but I'm going to FaceTime you to do it.
Speaker 3: Okay.
Speaker 5: So he picks me up, and of course I'm doing
Speaker 5: my makeup the entire way there because I feel no
Speaker 5: pain right now, I'm chillin.
Speaker 3: All I know is I need to get to the hospital.
Speaker 5: And my mom said, you know, you need to eat
Speaker 5: before you go into the hospital because they're not going
Speaker 5: to feed you. So I made him stop at Taco
Speaker 5: Bell before that. Still nothing is happening. But as soon
Speaker 5: as we walked in, I was definitely in labor. But
Speaker 5: Amrita didn't come until two days later. And I was
Speaker 5: very like against the epidural. I was very against any
Speaker 5: sort of medication. And what was the other one that
Speaker 5: they put into your body too? Yes, potosain. I was
Speaker 5: very again, especially after watching the documentary Business Born.
Speaker 3: Yes, Business is being born. I was like nah.
Speaker 5: So after like twelve thirteen hours, I finally said give
Speaker 5: it to me because I wasn't having contractions. After that,
Speaker 5: I sat there and I like to share this because
Speaker 5: they gave me an epidural almost twenty four hours later,
Speaker 5: and my epidural actually came out of my back.
Speaker 6: Isn't that too late to give it to you? I
Speaker 6: I two days with me too, and I got mine
Speaker 6: the second see, oh my god, it was a very
Speaker 6: long time.
Speaker 3: I went to liber two, I got potosin.
Speaker 6: I mean potosin on Tuesday, and I didn't get an
Speaker 6: epidural and give birth till Thursday.
Speaker 3: Thanks good.
Speaker 5: Yeah see yeah, when on on Wednesday and she came
Speaker 5: in on Friday, and by the time, like you know,
Speaker 5: twelve hours went by, I actually can feel everything down there,
Speaker 5: and I started screaming to the nurse. I was like,
Speaker 5: can you get this Catherine out of me? Like, get
Speaker 5: it out? It was just hurting and it was true.
Speaker 5: The oh yeah, IV actually came out of our back.
Speaker 5: And a lot of people don't know an epidural is
Speaker 5: not a shot. It's an IV obviously. Yeah, people don't
Speaker 5: know that until I have a baby.
Speaker 3: I think it's a shot. Yeah, No, it's not. You
Speaker 3: press this button and things. Yeah, oh my god.
Speaker 5: And so they finally gave me the shot. But by
Speaker 5: the time I started pushing, it can definitely feel everything.
Speaker 5: Pushed for three hours. Definitely had a high fever by
Speaker 5: the time she came because I was in labor for
Speaker 5: so long. But by the end we ended up doing
Speaker 5: a vacuum on her head, not an emergency six section,
Speaker 5: but it would have been that.
Speaker 3: If she didn't come out.
Speaker 5: And Aria was born two days later, but it was
Speaker 5: a really long process, and everyone's birth story, like you said,
Speaker 5: is different. But I didn't have any contractions, and the
Speaker 5: beginning was fun.
Speaker 3: Did you start having constractions just as I gave you
Speaker 3: that fucking potosin? Not right away?
Speaker 5: It was very light.
Speaker 3: I have videos of me dancing with my nurse.
Speaker 4: And it was full contraction, hurting, yes, because I never
Speaker 4: I was late and so they induced me and then
Speaker 4: getting a see section.
Speaker 3: But and that epidural, Oh my god, I'm never at
Speaker 3: The doctor had his like assistant chewing it.
Speaker 4: They kept missing like my spine, so they just kept
Speaker 4: poking me and I was, oh my god, you try
Speaker 4: to be so tense contractions.
Speaker 5: It was the world and they want you to be
Speaker 5: in in this position while you have this huge belly
Speaker 5: right oh yeah, and then like if you could be
Speaker 5: paralyzed and you.
Speaker 3: Have your contraction. Yes, it's it's it's quite serious in there.
Speaker 3: What is the vacuum? Like I've only ever seen like
Speaker 3: videotube videos.
Speaker 5: Okay, so the vacuum really does sound like a vacuum,
Speaker 5: but it's seen it But like the size of a quarter,
Speaker 5: does it feel.
Speaker 3: Like a pulling out?
Speaker 4: Like do you fit it?
Speaker 3: It feels like they're pulling Amrantha out. Did you feel it?
Speaker 5: I just felt pain just because the epidural really didn't
Speaker 5: get you know. I just felt like burning the entire time.
Speaker 5: And yeah, she did. I just felt like a pop,
Speaker 5: like a you know, it just come out in a
Speaker 5: relief afterwards, and and it was just it was very small,
Speaker 5: was like the size of a quarter.
Speaker 3: What was the vacuum the top of it.
Speaker 5: It's a flat and it's a wire that comes out
Speaker 5: of it and there just it sits on their crown
Speaker 5: and it helps them. And it left a very small
Speaker 5: round mark on Aretha's head, which lasted like just a
Speaker 5: few days. But Amretha popped right out. I wish they
Speaker 5: did it sooner. I did have a third degree tear,
Speaker 5: which was a a lot of stitches. Oh girl, yes,
Speaker 5: And a lot of women don't do. I don't know
Speaker 5: if this is going to help you anyone listening, but
Speaker 5: buy squirt bottles and have it in every single bathroom
Speaker 5: and take it with you to the hospital and have
Speaker 5: warm water when you pee. The ammonia hitting all of
Speaker 5: those open wounds just make it burn. So if you
Speaker 5: just have warm water squirting in that area, every pea
Speaker 5: is painless. At least from my experience it was. It
Speaker 5: helped a lot.
Speaker 6: I mean because nobody talks about no one was dying
Speaker 6: after and having a heating pad, like, although that helped
Speaker 6: when you're breastfeeding, because you're contracting, that's contractions that you're
Speaker 6: having going back.
Speaker 5: Your uter is going back to it's actual size, and
Speaker 5: no one wants to talk about that. So I always say,
Speaker 5: take a squirre bottle, take a heating pad, like, just
Speaker 5: take anything that's going to make you feel comfortable, because
Speaker 5: no one wants to talk about the after you know
Speaker 5: care of it, and fourth trimester is actually.
Speaker 3: Worse Appeying on yourself, oh for the rest of your
Speaker 3: life after.
Speaker 5: I mean I feel like I put on myself when
Speaker 5: I call, it will dribble out, like if I don't
Speaker 5: pay immediately. There's like a slow drizzler one time, I
Speaker 5: were like a full.
Speaker 3: Piece, like gray one piece the other day and I
Speaker 3: like didn't go right when I needed to go, and
Speaker 3: I'm like, I look, there's like a little drizzle darky.
Speaker 5: I'm like, this is fucking ridiculous. It was a drizzle.
Speaker 5: Gary Pennyliner's Moms After You give Birth.
Speaker 6: Okay, well, I also wanted to ask you because I
Speaker 6: know Msa, I'm Rita's dad isn't like from the same
Speaker 6: background as you, And I know that's a big thing
Speaker 6: in your culture and Hindu culture, and like what was
Speaker 6: your experience with that or on his side and how
Speaker 6: did you get past that and what is it like now.
Speaker 3: So I don't think actually it's just in Hindu culture.
Speaker 5: I think it's just Indian East Indian culture, like or
Speaker 5: really only any culture all across the board. They just
Speaker 5: think black people are bad people for some reason. And
Speaker 5: that's just just being straightforward and honest because a lot
Speaker 5: of people say Hindu and it's not himdu I always
Speaker 5: like to crackt them because it's freaking everyone and they
Speaker 5: think they're not intelligent or they're not educated, and it's
Speaker 5: it's not true. And Joseph, honestly, like when we met,
Speaker 5: we were really good friends at first, and I honestly
Speaker 5: thought he was gay the first year because he never
Speaker 5: made a move on me. We were just really good
Speaker 5: friends and he was like, you're Indian. I just didn't
Speaker 5: think I could do anything anyways with you, you know.
Speaker 5: So after a year of dating, like I just I
Speaker 5: kind of just brought him over as a friend. And
Speaker 5: I knew that my parents growing up, they did want
Speaker 5: an Indian man, you know. They It's not like they
Speaker 5: don't want the cultural wedding, you know, like whatever religion
Speaker 5: you know, they are, they continuing to say they still
Speaker 5: want a wedding. They still want a wedding, and like
Speaker 5: totally yeah, and I'm sure you don't even know about
Speaker 5: it because they act like it doesn't exist all the time.
Speaker 5: You know, Indian parents are like not in a bad way,
Speaker 5: but they're very smart with their money. They're very like bargainers.
Speaker 5: You It's but they have a secret account for that wedding. Yeah,
Speaker 5: I'm sure they do. They I don't know where it
Speaker 5: comes from sometimes, but like I'm glad that they do.
Speaker 5: I'm grateful for that, you know. It's it's very important
Speaker 5: to them. They live for their children's wedding day. But
Speaker 5: you can still have that wedding, right, I mean, look
Speaker 5: at Prianka and I don't even think it's all about
Speaker 5: weddings anymore. Our generation is just so different. It's not
Speaker 5: about a wedding. It's not about people don't even want
Speaker 5: a relationship, you know what I mean, They don't want
Speaker 5: they don't want that, and that's okay if they don't
Speaker 5: want to get married, And it's okay if they don't
Speaker 5: want to get married until they're forty.
Speaker 3: I think that's like our culture. They just that's what
Speaker 3: they know, and that's what they think, and that's all
Speaker 3: they know. Well, I think they know. Like they're like
Speaker 3: people were realizing we we live long lives. We have
Speaker 3: we don't have to figure it out early, Like you
Speaker 3: don't have to figure it out.
Speaker 5: When we're twenty no, you know, and we live in
Speaker 5: a very living different generation, Like we're living long.
Speaker 3: People are just living longer in general.
Speaker 4: Yeah, they're like having their thinking more about how they
Speaker 4: want to spend their life and.
Speaker 6: Just challenging the like the social norms that we've been previously,
Speaker 6: you know we've adopted. That doesn't always have to look
Speaker 6: just like this, Yeah, you know, being flexible what that
Speaker 6: looks like, and you know, reforming it for our own
Speaker 6: redefining it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, totally.
Speaker 5: Like so after that, bringing justph and I just brought
Speaker 5: him in as a friend and my parents pretty much
Speaker 5: knew after he kept coming around a lot.
Speaker 3: But I'm glad my parents so also, was it at
Speaker 3: that point when he when he did bring around, he
Speaker 3: was just a friend. He he was just a friend.
Speaker 5: But we were actually like hanging out for a year
Speaker 5: and I think my mom understood who he was. And
Speaker 5: they were very because they always said, as long as
Speaker 5: you are happy, we are happy. And as long as
Speaker 5: he keeps you happy, that's okay. Whatever you guys want.
Speaker 5: And my dad's very like hardcore with just supporting what
Speaker 5: he kids, what his kids do, and he was like,
Speaker 5: if anyone says anything, I'll deal with them, you know
Speaker 5: what I mean, forget them, you know, as long as you're.
Speaker 3: Happy or my children, you know, we got your back,
Speaker 3: you know.
Speaker 5: And it's so good to again have that platform, not
Speaker 5: I mean that openness with your family, because that's another
Speaker 5: reason why I can advocate obviously, because my dad allowed.
Speaker 4: This, you know.
Speaker 5: So dating Joseph, yeah, it was very weird because you
Speaker 5: get asked the dumbest questions.
Speaker 3: Like, oh my god, what is it like dating a
Speaker 3: black man?
Speaker 5: And I'm like, from your family members, from just people
Speaker 5: people in general, and it's just superpod especially like Indian
Speaker 5: women too.
Speaker 3: And I don't I'm not upset that they asked me
Speaker 3: this because they.
Speaker 5: Want to know, they want to know, and they want
Speaker 5: to know how.
Speaker 3: My parents adjusted to this.
Speaker 5: Maybe because they didn't want to tell me that they
Speaker 5: were dating someone or had a crush on someone, or
Speaker 5: maybe they wanted to know how they could you're giving
Speaker 5: it up to yeah, or how they can open it
Speaker 5: up to their family. Whatever the reason it was, they
Speaker 5: were asking me. But what I saw was he's a human,
Speaker 5: Like what do you mean when is it like dating
Speaker 5: a black person?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 5: That's one thing I actually hate a lot with our culture.
Speaker 5: Is the second thing that they feel like they need
Speaker 5: to say is their race. I don't feel like any
Speaker 5: person needs to say the race of what they're dating.
Speaker 5: Is why is it even necessary?
Speaker 6: Like?
Speaker 3: Does he keep you happy? What does he like do? Even?
Speaker 3: What do you guys do? How do you mean you know?
Speaker 4: And you know?
Speaker 3: How long have you guys been seeing each other? What
Speaker 3: kind of things do you do before? His race? All
Speaker 3: of these things are important.
Speaker 5: And I actually got offended over time when people started
Speaker 5: asking me over and over again what is it like
Speaker 5: being a black guy?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 5: And like and I'm like all right, and and when
Speaker 5: someone wants to ask even like, oh my god, how
Speaker 5: is he in bed? Okay? First off, does he have
Speaker 5: a big dick, Like seriously, when people want to ask it,
Speaker 5: I don't answer that question.
Speaker 3: I'm just saying that to me.
Speaker 5: That's like they I mean, I understand, Like when we're younger,
Speaker 5: I guess you say things like that, But as you
Speaker 5: get older, I think talking about your sex life is
Speaker 5: freaking immature. Like I don't think anyone else needs to know.
Speaker 5: And again it is everyone else's opinions. I'm not saying
Speaker 5: my way is the right way, but when you're in
Speaker 5: a relationship with someone, that sex life is just between
Speaker 5: you two, and I would not want to go to
Speaker 5: my friends and be like, yes, that was so amazing lesson,
Speaker 5: like for.
Speaker 3: What for what do I need to give you that for?
Speaker 3: You know what I mean? Like, and you know what,
Speaker 3: I don't think you're immature.
Speaker 5: But I've also had experiences where I've had girlfriends.
Speaker 3: That have gone over gone after. Have you ever had
Speaker 3: a friend of yours gone after someone that you abordating?
Speaker 6: A friend like close She's saying, like, were you talking
Speaker 6: too much about someone's sex a friend like was trying
Speaker 6: to creep down I'm sure.
Speaker 3: Probably maybe I don't know about it.
Speaker 5: I have so over experiences in life That's another reason
Speaker 5: why I don't keep speak and I've learned not to
Speaker 5: over back to that experience. I've learned never to do.
Speaker 5: I don't.
Speaker 3: I'm just being honest, you know, like over experiences.
Speaker 5: Now I'm just like not But it's it's a question
Speaker 5: that I'm like, it's you shouldn't even ask. But really
Speaker 5: what they're asking is is this peenis bigger than everyone else?
Speaker 3: Is that I've seen?
Speaker 5: Why don't you just ask me that question? Is what
Speaker 5: the end of this story was supposed to me?
Speaker 3: You know what I mean?
Speaker 5: Because people are ridiculous about these things. And then obviously
Speaker 5: like is.
Speaker 3: He the smart you know what I mean? Like, what
Speaker 3: does he do? It is true?
Speaker 5: It is not true?
Speaker 3: Thank god.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I have two beautiful women here of this culture saying.
Speaker 3: It not true. Not always.
Speaker 5: Thank you.
Speaker 3: Guys, don't have the next period point blank are if
Speaker 3: you guys want to.
Speaker 5: Talk about this like, but for me, after a while,
Speaker 5: I guess it just got annoying with my group of people.
Speaker 3: And then it went on to like because you're already like, Okay,
Speaker 3: why does that hatters raised?
Speaker 4: Why does that?
Speaker 5: You know?
Speaker 3: It's like all these things.
Speaker 5: If one person asked me about is dick And if
Speaker 5: it's really once you go black, you don't go about it?
Speaker 3: Is that it's curious, it's curiosity. Totally try it. Then yeah,
Speaker 3: they don't know what else to say. My experience is
Speaker 3: not gonna be your experience.
Speaker 5: To begin with with any category in life.
Speaker 3: Wait, is it the first black I ever dated? Have
Speaker 3: you have you did first? Yeah? I feel like people
Speaker 3: would ask the same thing if I was dating an
Speaker 3: Indian man, like what's what's it like dating an Indian guy?
Speaker 1: Oh?
Speaker 3: My god?
Speaker 4: Or like.
Speaker 3: Ask you Yeah.
Speaker 4: I feel like I don't feel like it's I don't
Speaker 4: feel like it's exclusive to black people.
Speaker 3: I think it's probably asked more like maybe dated an
Speaker 3: Asian guy?
Speaker 5: Yeah, but they I feel like in my culture, I
Speaker 5: guess or with my experience, people think it's like okay
Speaker 5: things to say, but like things like, oh my gosh,
Speaker 5: he doesn't have he doesn't sound hood.
Speaker 3: I hate that.
Speaker 5: Yeah, not all sound hood. And it's not that they
Speaker 5: sound hood. That's where they're from. That's they're yelized. That's
Speaker 5: the exactly what I say. That's her dialect. It's true,
Speaker 5: it's and it pisces me off. And obviously being in
Speaker 5: that culture, you just realize.
Speaker 3: Like, but you know, it's also good that you can it.
Speaker 3: You just correct it.
Speaker 5: And that's what I do now, especially being a mom
Speaker 5: of a mixed baby. Oh yes, it means so much
Speaker 5: more for me to correct these people. And I correct
Speaker 5: it very quickly now, and sometimes it you know, I
Speaker 5: might sound like I'm coming off rude, but I try
Speaker 5: to be very nice while saying it, because I hear
Speaker 5: things like, oh, I'm with this hair's curly, Yeah, bitch, she's.
Speaker 3: And Indian women have curly hair too. Why are we
Speaker 3: commenting like.
Speaker 4: Hair?
Speaker 3: It's stupid.
Speaker 5: It's just stupid. And over time I just stopped even
Speaker 5: hanging around women that even like want to say comments
Speaker 5: like oh my god, how do you lose so much weight?
Speaker 5: Like I hate you you're skinny, And if you're a
Speaker 5: good friend of mine and you want to say that,
Speaker 5: you're really saying that to me, And after you smoke,
Speaker 5: we you're like, why are you so fat?
Speaker 3: How are you not a mom?
Speaker 5: Don't have nothing else going on your life and can't
Speaker 5: make it to the gym? Why are you even commenting
Speaker 5: on my one's appearance? Or why someone's wearing this?
Speaker 3: Mind you?
Speaker 5: And maybe I did that, and maybe I had these
Speaker 5: friends in the past, but now that I'm a mom,
Speaker 5: I just don't want to make even pick up these tendencies.
Speaker 5: That's true, and think we will make you be like
Speaker 5: what the awareness after you spoke go back around to
Speaker 5: friends and you valuate them again. I'm like, they want
Speaker 5: to say, like, why are you wearing that? And like
Speaker 5: because they liked it, it's happening, you know what I mean?
Speaker 3: And I can maybe I asked like that before, but
Speaker 3: now I'm like.
Speaker 5: It's about growth exactly and change being okay and you
Speaker 5: being consistent with it afterwards and.
Speaker 6: Realizing that it does matter the people you're around, and
Speaker 6: that the energy that you're absorbing.
Speaker 5: Yeah, because your people say about not just like I guess,
Speaker 5: not just people. Women are culture thinks it's okay to
Speaker 5: say about just anyone.
Speaker 3: It's not okay. They have like no filter in our culture.
Speaker 4: You know, Natasha's here doing this Hannah on Jamila and
Speaker 4: it is gorgeous.
Speaker 5: People can actually still draw after and where's your phone?
Speaker 3: I took a picture, so let her finish, but I
Speaker 3: just want to take what sure doing it too?
Speaker 5: Okay? You take a video a video of a video I.
Speaker 3: Mean, this video is too far. I know you can
Speaker 3: cut off.
Speaker 4: I have a question, do you think what do you
Speaker 4: think your daughter will identify as? Do you think she'll
Speaker 4: be I'm Birachel, I'm like Harris.
Speaker 5: Huh, Kamala Harrisamala harrismala ha. Yeah, she's a mix.
Speaker 3: I just want to because, like you know, as a society,
Speaker 3: we love to put labels on things.
Speaker 5: You know, I feel like the world, first off, not
Speaker 5: just Kamala Harris, like the world. I feel like it
Speaker 5: is going to be brown already and it's so beautiful
Speaker 5: and I do feel like it's going to be easier.
Speaker 3: But I also do worry about our generation too.
Speaker 5: To make sure my people are not going to tease
Speaker 5: her being of Indian descent and of African American descent,
Speaker 5: Like are they going to say, like, you're not really Indian?
Speaker 3: You know, to her? Is she going to be teased?
Speaker 3: And of what culture? What side is it going to be?
Speaker 5: And because bullying still does happen, it still exists, how
Speaker 5: are you going to deal with that? How are we
Speaker 5: going to deal with it? And how am I going
Speaker 5: to make this woman a strong woman? And all I'm
Speaker 5: trying to do is talk about everything that I said today,
Speaker 5: like surrounding myself by good women, standing by what I
Speaker 5: believe in and things that I want them to be around.
Speaker 5: And again, if we are around people that I still
Speaker 5: love very much and they say something that I don't like,
Speaker 5: doesn't mean they're a bad person. It just means I
Speaker 5: don't stand for that, and we don't have to be
Speaker 5: around them all the time. But she'll know, like the
Speaker 5: difference in this core group of people that is a
Speaker 5: reflection of me, and hopefully that rips off on her.
Speaker 5: And that's the best that I can do, because I
Speaker 5: can't control what she's going to see as soon as
Speaker 5: she walks out my door, right And and I also
Speaker 5: know you can't really tell your kids what to do.
Speaker 3: You have to show them.
Speaker 5: Like I get asked all the time, like how are
Speaker 5: you awake three hours a day? I mean just sleeping
Speaker 5: three hours a day and work all the time. It's
Speaker 5: because I saw my mom and dad work all day long.
Speaker 5: It's because I saw my dad barely sleep and work
Speaker 5: and it being normal and that's all they do. And
Speaker 5: so I feel like that's my normal and that's what
Speaker 5: I should be doing. But if I didn't see that, honestly,
Speaker 5: I wouldn't be the way that I am. I had
Speaker 5: to go to him, like work with him in the
Speaker 5: day job and when he was a janitor at night
Speaker 5: and sit in the cafeteria until he was done and
Speaker 5: actually help him physically. And that was engraved into my body.
Speaker 5: And that's what you should do with your children, like
Speaker 5: take them into work with you. I s already started
Speaker 5: taking am to work with me, and she sees Mama
Speaker 5: working all day long, and she sees Mama doing like
Speaker 5: aunties at home and threading their face and stuff. Mama's working,
Speaker 5: and I hope it rubs off on her. And that's
Speaker 5: that's all I'm trying to do.
Speaker 3: I know, And that's wonderful, that's so hoo.
Speaker 6: And like, yeah, mom, more was hard, and that's why
Speaker 6: sometimes I feel bad taking Luna with me too.
Speaker 3: But I also like, I like, she knows what's going on,
Speaker 3: and so I have to go to work. So do
Speaker 3: you want to do this? You want to do that,
Speaker 3: you want to come with me?
Speaker 6: I give her the option, but she knows, you know,
Speaker 6: that's I never thought about it that way. But the
Speaker 6: fact that you saw your parents and you went to
Speaker 6: work with them and you know what I mean, Like
Speaker 6: it's so deeply instilled in you from.
Speaker 5: Another country too, seeing that too, like making it over,
Speaker 5: just surviving and yeah, it's just very inspiring.
Speaker 3: Yeah, thank god.
Speaker 4: More so, we're heading towards towards a place and I
Speaker 4: think we are in a place where women are working more.
Speaker 4: I mean when we're having babies later because they're putting
Speaker 4: their careers first, because they're taking their time.
Speaker 3: And like, you know, all those things are changing, and
Speaker 3: like so kids can see their their mom working, you
Speaker 3: know what I mean.
Speaker 5: I like that too. You know a lot of people
Speaker 5: ask me that I don't know if this is like
Speaker 5: a question that you guys want to talk about, but
Speaker 5: I can also ask all the time. They're like, you know,
Speaker 5: or is it an issue that you guys are not
Speaker 5: like together, you know, me and Joseph, And is it
Speaker 5: hard being a single pitter? And I'm like, we're not
Speaker 5: single parent we're co parenting. You know, it's really great.
Speaker 5: But I'm really glad that I did have a baby.
Speaker 5: No matter if this works out or not, I'm really
Speaker 5: glad that I did. And there's not wrong, nothing wrong
Speaker 5: by having it later. But hearing women that are elder
Speaker 5: that are struggling and having a baby and putting their
Speaker 5: eggs aside, and they're spending thousands and thousands of dollars,
Speaker 5: like emptying out their bank account to have another baby.
Speaker 3: Is that worth it later?
Speaker 5: And then your child doesn't even see you build your
Speaker 5: career better, and then they're suffering mentally because everything's just
Speaker 5: kind of handed down to them, but not handed down
Speaker 5: to it.
Speaker 3: But yes, it really is versus. I'm actually glad that
Speaker 3: I had a baby now at a young age.
Speaker 5: I'm probably wouldn't think this until I had her, and
Speaker 5: it is very hard at this age, but I'm glad.
Speaker 5: I'm that can see me working. I'm glad she can
Speaker 5: see this process and I can. It's something that she
Speaker 5: needs to learn that mom's going to be around and
Speaker 5: she's not going.
Speaker 3: To be around.
Speaker 5: Like all of these things are very important to install
Speaker 5: into her right now because of separation, anxiety, and just
Speaker 5: surviving in this world alone. Like so, I don't know,
Speaker 5: I don't feel like there's no right or wrong, but
Speaker 5: observing it from two different persons, I didn't.
Speaker 3: Think about it that way.
Speaker 4: That's such an interesting perspective, and now that I'm thinking
Speaker 4: about it, I feel.
Speaker 5: Like you're right, Like, I don't know, I don't know
Speaker 5: what's right or wrong. I just after I have my
Speaker 5: mom's one of fifteen siblings, and my dad's when I'm eight.
Speaker 5: So I'm just listening to my family and just sharing,
Speaker 5: just sharing.
Speaker 3: So but no, I think it's.
Speaker 4: Important to see her, for your kids to see, to
Speaker 4: see their parents working, especially moms, you know, and especially girls.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 3: I think it's really it's crucial.
Speaker 4: It definitely shaped me, for sure, and I've seen how
Speaker 4: it's shaped other people, like the opposite, like like friends
Speaker 4: whose parents like didn't work very hard or kind of
Speaker 4: always figuring shit out, like.
Speaker 3: You know what I mean, and like it's just it's
Speaker 3: just it's just different.
Speaker 4: It doesn't matter matter like what kind of job your
Speaker 4: parent had, as long as you saw that working hard.
Speaker 5: You know, totally, it's worth that thing that you're installing
Speaker 5: into that very Yeah, yeah, exactly.
Speaker 3: Should we do a question? Should we read a question
Speaker 3: and then we wrap it up?
Speaker 4: Yeah, so we get one you get, we get people
Speaker 4: that submit questions to us, and should we do the
Speaker 4: one the one that we just got in our email?
Speaker 3: Okay, so this is a question that came through for Yeah.
Speaker 4: This is the This is the question that came through
Speaker 4: from one of our listeners. Okay, Anonymous, I'm thirty turning
Speaker 4: thirty one in May, but I still feel so childlike
Speaker 4: when it comes to managing my life. Crazy since I'm
Speaker 4: a mom of two. How do you, ladies, own your
Speaker 4: shit but also feel confident in your decisions. Do you
Speaker 4: ever feel that the scrutiny and opinions of those closest
Speaker 4: to you affect how you decide to move or make
Speaker 4: decisions in your life. I'm absolutely working on embracing long question,
Speaker 4: embracing well, I'm definitely working on embrace seeing the fuck
Speaker 4: what people think.
Speaker 3: But it's mentality, but it's hard as fuck.
Speaker 5: Again.
Speaker 3: Love you guys so much. We love you too. We
Speaker 3: love you. Oh yeah, now I remember discussion because were
Speaker 3: writing the car. We read this and I said, have
Speaker 3: you gotten there yet?
Speaker 5: I also feel childlike?
Speaker 6: I also we were just talking about before we started,
Speaker 6: like I can't believe about someone's mom and I'm completerly
Speaker 6: in control of someone's whole life being for the rest.
Speaker 3: Of my life. It's like I feel inadequate, Saily.
Speaker 6: I struggle with this because I'm a wild card, a
Speaker 6: little I'm very free spirited, and I've had very I mean,
Speaker 6: I don't know, like most people are probably more conservative
Speaker 6: than me in general, but I've also.
Speaker 5: Always kind of been like, I don't give a fuck.
Speaker 3: This is who I am, because mostly I can't help it,
Speaker 3: and I just think, come. I mean, there's always oh yeah,
Speaker 3: I had of time for oh.
Speaker 5: Sorry, okay now, miss.
Speaker 3: Yay. I just feel like.
Speaker 6: There's comes a point in your adulthood where you have
Speaker 6: to stop. You can't please everyone, so you have to
Speaker 6: please your fucking self, and you'll find your like the
Speaker 6: most peace and the most happiness when you realize you
Speaker 6: cannot please everyone else and you just have to be
Speaker 6: confident and okay with whatever it is that you decide
Speaker 6: to do and know that people are gonna judge you
Speaker 6: either way.
Speaker 3: Erica, Yes, I agree. I think I struggle with this
Speaker 3: right now all the time.
Speaker 4: Actually, in some ways, some ways I'm really good at
Speaker 4: not giving a fuck, and then in other ways I
Speaker 4: give a fuck.
Speaker 3: So I feel you, I understand.
Speaker 4: I think you kind of have to like have those
Speaker 4: talks with you yourself and be like, what am I
Speaker 4: losing for if by not giving a fuck?
Speaker 3: You know what I mean? Nothing.
Speaker 4: For the most part, most people would say, you know,
Speaker 4: maybe maybe they're family, maybe like you. Maybe like for example,
Speaker 4: like you, like you know, you're come from a background
Speaker 4: that's you.
Speaker 3: Know, pretty conservative.
Speaker 4: I would yeah, right, And I know a lot of
Speaker 4: times in your culture and many cultures, if you go
Speaker 4: against what is considered normal or appropriate, you can be
Speaker 4: disowned in some capacity. Absolutely, And that's that's really hard.
Speaker 4: Like I can't imagine like having to make that, having
Speaker 4: to make that decision. But most of the time that's
Speaker 4: not the case. So what do you have to lose?
Speaker 3: You know, what do you really have to lose? I
Speaker 3: don't know if there's an actual concert like step one, no,
Speaker 3: you know, you just got to decide. Oh my goodness,
Speaker 3: I'm gonna live for myself. I'm going to live too.
Speaker 6: And once you decide, just like that day where you
Speaker 6: decided you're going to wake up and show your mom
Speaker 6: the weed, Yeah, you were going to like step out
Speaker 6: of your comfort.
Speaker 5: I just couldn't handle anymore, like any more. Anxiety it's
Speaker 5: a feeling, it's a it's energy, it's I couldn't do
Speaker 5: it anymore. And after being a mom, you you girls
Speaker 5: can probably relate to this you just can't make room
Speaker 5: for there's no room, there's a room coming out and
Speaker 5: like being you know, one of the first Indian women
Speaker 5: in the world actually to talk about cannabis and be
Speaker 5: an advocate for it. I heard and still do here
Speaker 5: some crazy things like that you get like a bad mom.
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, there's dms like you're saying that you're a
Speaker 5: bad mom and Amritha's going to be retarded when she
Speaker 5: grows up, but is of you smoking around her and
Speaker 5: she's smelling it all day and like you're a disgrace
Speaker 5: to our culture. I've heard, Oh my gosh, you're not
Speaker 5: You're not a sing? Are you really a sing?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 5: Are you Indian?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 5: They it's just the lack of my last name. Am
Speaker 5: I really it's a very. It's like a smith, you
Speaker 5: know for American in the American world, but it's a
Speaker 5: very in the cast system. I guess it's very high up.
Speaker 5: It's a very croud name.
Speaker 3: I was going to say.
Speaker 5: And so you know, they're like, you're know your disgrace
Speaker 5: and things like that, and it's terrible.
Speaker 4: I was when I was researching, you know, suicide and everything,
Speaker 4: it was saying that like so many of the world's
Speaker 4: suicides come from India.
Speaker 5: There's a lot in the world's high suicidal, right.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And I think it's probably a lack of like
Speaker 4: talking about mental health and shame and not being.
Speaker 3: Able to express that.
Speaker 4: And I mean and also I found out a lot
Speaker 4: of that and the cast system playing into that too,
Speaker 4: like you know, like you going outside of your cast system,
Speaker 4: you know, could get you disown killed or disown you're
Speaker 4: not killed, right or Yeah, like arranged marriage and arranged marriages.
Speaker 3: I mean the little girls are you know India, Yes,
Speaker 3: ending their lives.
Speaker 4: Because they don't want to marry old men or whatever,
Speaker 4: you know, or the man they they're in love with
Speaker 4: someone else.
Speaker 3: I think it has to do with like arranged marriage.
Speaker 5: Yeah. Period.
Speaker 4: I feel like I've ranged some arranged marriages work really well,
Speaker 4: Like I've heard them being like really working really well.
Speaker 5: And then you know, some of them don't.
Speaker 4: Know.
Speaker 5: It's just like every relationship, it's very hit and miss.
Speaker 5: But I mean, after even hearing all of this stuff,
Speaker 5: I had to do. What made me happy at the
Speaker 5: end of it, and honestly is after having the acceptance
Speaker 5: of my parents.
Speaker 3: They were Yeah, they only knew.
Speaker 5: Each other for actually three days, wow.
Speaker 3: And then they got married.
Speaker 5: And then my dad came from Beachy and like so
Speaker 5: they started dating and they fell love. So she was
Speaker 5: in India and he was in Fiji or the other
Speaker 5: way around. Did I say India Fiji?
Speaker 3: Fiji?
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, Fiji island. No, No, you said Fiji.
Speaker 3: Okay, good, So you're both your parents are from Fiji. Yeah,
Speaker 3: they're from Fiji islands.
Speaker 5: There's actually a huge, huge East Indian population in Fiji
Speaker 5: from all of because British tik Us over with the
Speaker 5: agreement agreement and that's.
Speaker 3: Like, was that like growing up on the island of Fiji,
Speaker 3: and I mean for them beautiful.
Speaker 5: I mean they were working on the sugar plantation that
Speaker 5: a lot of workers came from Fiji for that reason.
Speaker 3: So that's kind of like how it all started. And
Speaker 3: I think I think this is correct.
Speaker 5: Like the Fiji Hindi language, that's what we speak, a dialect,
Speaker 5: but it's like a mix of all different kinds of languages.
Speaker 5: It's like if you know the Punjabi language and then
Speaker 5: you have Urdu, and then you have Arabic and then
Speaker 5: you have Demil and like Hindi and the Fiji and
Speaker 5: Indian languages of that because we came from all different
Speaker 5: parts of India. And my last name is Singh because
Speaker 5: my dad is from My dad's dad was born and
Speaker 5: raised in fun Job and so it's very cool to
Speaker 5: like educate people that half of the island or almost
Speaker 5: half of it is actually Indian and you get Indian
Speaker 5: food and clothes and there's so many you know there.
Speaker 5: So yes, that's where both my parents were born. And
Speaker 5: they knew of each other before, and you know, but
Speaker 5: they met face to face only for a few days.
Speaker 3: But they're still.
Speaker 5: Happily married today and there's still flirt and stuff and
Speaker 5: sometimes I'm like ew, but you know, they went through
Speaker 5: their ups and downs too, and we did see that
Speaker 5: and it wasn't like picture perfect, but they're still married
Speaker 5: and together and happy.
Speaker 3: Were they disappointed that you were pregnant before.
Speaker 5: You great question. No, I don't think I've ever heard
Speaker 5: my mom so happy because me and a Martha dad
Speaker 5: were together like for a very long time after that,
Speaker 5: I mean before that, like five years almost, so she
Speaker 5: was very happy with it. And she's again it was
Speaker 5: all about me being happy and being okay, and they
Speaker 5: were okay. My parents are a very different breed. Sounds like, well,
Speaker 5: like they're very understanding. I mean they do come around
Speaker 5: and you know half fear of judgment and things like that,
Speaker 5: or you know, say like don't smoke here or things
Speaker 5: like that, but.
Speaker 3: They're very accepting or trying to be.
Speaker 5: And I think after just seeing the experiences that I've
Speaker 5: gone through with so many debts, and I even explained
Speaker 5: to my mom, you know, the man that I found
Speaker 5: on Father's Day, he was an Indian man, he was
Speaker 5: the only child, and it broke my heart that he
Speaker 5: took his life on Father's Day, and I you know,
Speaker 5: explained to him like that. I'm just thankful for them
Speaker 5: being such open parents, and I think reminding them of
Speaker 5: that helps them do that because it really helps us live,
Speaker 5: like truthfully live another day. And even if we do
Speaker 5: have dark moments, we know that our parents are going
Speaker 5: to be there and we can like go go to
Speaker 5: them for that. And I hope one day all Indian
Speaker 5: parents create this platform for their kids because it's super important.
Speaker 5: Like it's not about going to school to be a
Speaker 5: doctor or a lawyer all the time. They might not
Speaker 5: be happy doing that, or if your son or daughter
Speaker 5: is gay, like you're going to have to come to
Speaker 5: terms of that. Like actually, two weeks ago there was
Speaker 5: the first Indian a girl to girl Bollywood movie, and
Speaker 5: I thought it was so amazing to see that because
Speaker 5: there's so many women that are just trapped and that's
Speaker 5: what they want and that's what's going to keep them happy,
Speaker 5: like they need. People need to talk about it more
Speaker 5: in our culture especially, so I think it's just a
Speaker 5: very slow thing and with everything and cannabis is definitely
Speaker 5: going to be a very slow process. But the more research,
Speaker 5: the more results we have, the faster this process is
Speaker 5: going to go.
Speaker 6: Oh, being authentic is liberating and can in some ways
Speaker 6: be revolutionary, and in any ways, in every way, in
Speaker 6: every way, in everywhere, being authentic is revolutionary.
Speaker 5: Just share your story, is what I keep saying to people.
Speaker 5: Everyone always asks like, how are you doing? How are
Speaker 5: you getting to the cannabis industry. I'm literally just sharing
Speaker 5: my experience. That's all I do this whole time. And
Speaker 5: that's why it's so easy to just talk about it
Speaker 5: really because it's my life. I can't make this ship
Speaker 5: up like it's just what I've done to help my
Speaker 5: mental health. It's literally what it's helping me live another day.
Speaker 5: And so yeah, when I say story every fucking time
Speaker 5: you ask me, okay, but yeah, it's it's it's nuts,
Speaker 5: and there's no roadmap to answer your question, really no
Speaker 5: roadmap to this. And there's most times where I'm just like,
Speaker 5: the fuck am I even doing? You know, like what
Speaker 5: is this an entrepreneur? Or every day that you wake
Speaker 5: up and you're like, how am I going to get
Speaker 5: through this day?
Speaker 4: You know?
Speaker 5: And that's it's really just you get through day by
Speaker 5: day because anything can happen to you any day.
Speaker 3: So one day at a time, people's one day at
Speaker 3: a time. Working on your confidence, yeah.
Speaker 5: And knowing that who you are is the right person
Speaker 5: and being yourself is the most freeing thing in the world.
Speaker 5: Like you just stop having that feeling of anxiety, honestly, right,
Speaker 5: because even if a cover up who you are anymore,
Speaker 5: it doesn't matter if someone likes you or not, and
Speaker 5: you're gonna be okay, You're gonna be fine. Yeah, I
Speaker 5: say I always say this. If you're not paying my bills,
Speaker 5: I don't care really what you think. I mean, even
Speaker 5: if you do, I don't care, but like I don't
Speaker 5: especially that reason, you know, if you're not putting a
Speaker 5: roof over my head and friends don't pay your bills.
Speaker 5: I say that too, just keeping it real, Like that's true.
Speaker 3: At the end of the day, we when we go,
Speaker 3: we go alone.
Speaker 6: We come with them absolutely, And that's even because even
Speaker 6: like what you said, like I can't it's not for her,
Speaker 6: for my mom, for my dad, and for my daughter,
Speaker 6: for myself, Like we of course we do this network,
Speaker 6: but we come and alone, we leave alone, and we
Speaker 6: have to make children that are okay with ultimately who
Speaker 6: they are and.
Speaker 5: Just share what's helping you if you can growing up now,
Speaker 5: it's I guess these social influencers that are doing big
Speaker 5: things in the world, all are really doing is sharing
Speaker 5: common sense. They're they're sharing life and how to get
Speaker 5: through life. And that's all it's about. Because this new generation,
Speaker 5: they don't know common sense. They don't even know how
Speaker 5: to do the simplest things in life, and that's what
Speaker 5: gives them fear and anxiety. And like there's kids in
Speaker 5: high school and in middle school that are committing suicide
Speaker 5: right now and that's not okay. And so the more
Speaker 5: you talk about it, the more you give them things
Speaker 5: and tools that will help them, like simple things like
Speaker 5: changing attire.
Speaker 3: You know, Like I always feel like they know too
Speaker 3: much and it's too much, too overwhelming, over at once, over.
Speaker 4: Too much to download and understand, and it's like high,
Speaker 4: too much sensory, elite keep as much as your accessibility,
Speaker 4: the many many options that you know everything, you have
Speaker 4: a choice of everything.
Speaker 3: There's always a choice, there's all you know.
Speaker 4: It's like it makes everyone doubt and question themselves because there's,
Speaker 4: you know, so many options.
Speaker 3: It's a blessing and a churus.
Speaker 5: I would say, I agree, you know, and Instagram people
Speaker 5: use it for all the wrong reasons. Instagram should be
Speaker 5: a bonus in their life. It shouldn't be their main
Speaker 5: source of income. They should create a business and then
Speaker 5: get onto Instagram because your business card is really in person.
Speaker 5: I say this all the time to people, like if
Speaker 5: you if you lose your Instagram account and you're losing
Speaker 5: all of your business or something wrong, you already fucked up.
Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, Like, I think after going
Speaker 5: through so many traumatic incidents, and I say this because
Speaker 5: it's not Instagram that will pay your bills.
Speaker 3: People need to realize that.
Speaker 5: I went onto that after I started a job and
Speaker 5: after having client tell, after having things to actually share
Speaker 5: on there, but I had to like practice my skill too,
Speaker 5: and then it was a great tool to share my
Speaker 5: work on. But if you if you lose that tool,
Speaker 5: I will still have my clients that know exactly where
Speaker 5: to find me because they found me before that app,
Speaker 5: right right right, they know where to find me.
Speaker 3: And no matter what life circumstances throws at.
Speaker 5: You, and even if you can't go to work, even
Speaker 5: if you can't post anymore because you're mentally not okay,
Speaker 5: your business and your bread and butter is still okay
Speaker 5: for sure, you know what I mean, because you have
Speaker 5: nothing to talk about if you're going through something mentally,
Speaker 5: but you're gonna still have to have some sort of stability.
Speaker 5: So I hope all kids do that, Like make your
Speaker 5: damn bed before you log into that app, did you
Speaker 5: this morning? Like yeah, no, I really really try consciously
Speaker 5: not to like open Instagram.
Speaker 3: That'd be my first thing I open. Or it's not
Speaker 3: it's toxic.
Speaker 5: It is.
Speaker 3: It's a disease. It's an addiction toxic. Yeah, oh my god,
Speaker 3: look this has been fun. This is really wonderful. We
Speaker 3: have wonderful Hannah Oh my god, we're gonna take this.
Speaker 3: Oh my god, it was so beautiful.
Speaker 4: It was really cool.
Speaker 3: This is thank you I've ever had in my life.
Speaker 5: And your nails both did you do that the pink?
Speaker 3: No, don't look at this nail. This is Erica has
Speaker 3: like Kin Saniara.
Speaker 4: I had a photo shoot for Beauty Leather and it
Speaker 4: was like doing this campaign and so I put a crown.
Speaker 4: They wanted me to not get some nail art and
Speaker 4: this is not my steel and I feel very I
Speaker 4: don't know, just it's just.
Speaker 3: Very bulky, bulky, and I need to get it removed.
Speaker 3: Beamed nails. This is wonderful. You need to do like Hannah,
Speaker 3: they have like they have nail art.
Speaker 5: Can you do that? Have you done that?
Speaker 3: I haven't done that yet on your nails. I've done
Speaker 3: like kinds of others.
Speaker 5: Yeah yeah, yeah, and like on clothes and like fabric paste,
Speaker 5: fabric paint you can actually roll it up in this
Speaker 5: sucker and like do Hannah, I did this, like Onesie
Speaker 5: and things like that, just fun stuff.
Speaker 3: Yeah, but from cake, you know, yes, piss everyone off.
Speaker 3: I'm not kidding. I'm just I know, I know. Wait,
Speaker 3: so tell our sell our listeners where they can find you. Yeah, Instagram,
Speaker 3: Natasha is what I want. Yes, and yeah check her out.
Speaker 3: Check out Natasha and thank you Natasha. Happy for coming
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