WEBVTT - Manifesting A Revolutionary Partner Feat. Lizzy Jeff 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:03.520 Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife. 0:00:03.680 --> 0:00:06.440 She couldn't She cleaned and cared for her children and 0:00:06.480 --> 0:00:08.840 the man of the house, and of course she didn't 0:00:08.960 --> 0:00:12.240 talk back. She was both obedient and soft by nature. 0:00:12.360 --> 0:00:15.600 She was a good woman who always made good choices. 0:00:17.440 --> 0:00:18.759 We're good Mom's bad choices. 0:00:18.800 --> 0:00:21.520 Who's single mom who said fuck the patriarchy? Shared all 0:00:21.520 --> 0:00:22.640 their bad choices. 0:00:22.320 --> 0:00:23.600 And sound out they were so bad. 0:00:23.640 --> 0:00:26.600 After all, we're experts, overshares and your new besties. 0:00:26.720 --> 0:00:32.919 Sit back and enjoy the ride. I can welcome back 0:00:32.960 --> 0:00:34.199 to good Mom's bad Choices. 0:00:34.400 --> 0:00:39.080 I'm Erica, and I'm Nila, and it's Wednesday, bitches, Happy 0:00:39.120 --> 0:00:42.960 motherfucking hump Day. Now, if you're watching this on YouTube 0:00:43.080 --> 0:00:45.519 right now, then you can see what I have in 0:00:45.520 --> 0:00:48.080 my hand. And if you could see what I have 0:00:48.200 --> 0:00:52.640 in my hand, and you are real good mom's bad choices, fam, 0:00:53.080 --> 0:00:55.080 then you might be able to guess who are special 0:00:55.120 --> 0:00:58.720 guest is today? Because this thing that I. 0:00:58.680 --> 0:01:01.920 Have in my hand long stand long things. 0:01:02.040 --> 0:01:08.120 It's very long, long, skinny thing, a little bit thick 0:01:08.200 --> 0:01:08.880 at the end. 0:01:12.360 --> 0:01:13.320 Is a staple. 0:01:13.400 --> 0:01:16.840 Whenever this guest comes through the good Mom's cave. 0:01:18.240 --> 0:01:21.920 Can you guess the people listening don't know what you're 0:01:21.920 --> 0:01:24.800 talking about? Can you guess that? Laugh? 0:01:25.680 --> 0:01:25.760 No? 0:01:26.680 --> 0:01:31.240 Okay, Well, we're just gonna get straight into it because 0:01:31.319 --> 0:01:35.520 I'm always always so excited when this queen comes on 0:01:35.560 --> 0:01:38.240 our show, because she always drops the knowledge. 0:01:38.280 --> 0:01:41.160 She always brings that organic wine. 0:01:42.240 --> 0:01:48.120 She blesses us with rosy. 0:01:48.720 --> 0:01:51.800 She just brings essensual energy, the goddess energy. She's always 0:01:51.840 --> 0:01:54.760 bringing offerings and love, even at eleven am. 0:01:54.800 --> 0:01:58.120 And we love it. 0:01:58.160 --> 0:02:06.040 The flower Goddess herself, the wrapping chantress, the rap priestess, 0:02:06.920 --> 0:02:10.960 the one, the sensual, the wild, the free, the. 0:02:10.840 --> 0:02:19.280 One and only Lizzie, motherfucking Jack Cheer. What an intro? 0:02:21.760 --> 0:02:24.720 Oh my goodness, and the last time we were here. 0:02:26.240 --> 0:02:27.040 Part two. 0:02:28.600 --> 0:02:31.040 We're gonna have we have a lot of y'all are 0:02:31.120 --> 0:02:32.080 too funny. Thank you. 0:02:32.160 --> 0:02:37.080 That was a beautiful intro. I appreciate that. The wine 0:02:37.160 --> 0:02:38.799 is the vibe. It's always a vibe. One I pull 0:02:38.880 --> 0:02:40.919 up and I appreciate y'all inviting me back. 0:02:41.000 --> 0:02:43.840 Thank you, Yes, thank you for joining us. That wine 0:02:43.919 --> 0:02:47.200 is good. Let me try it. That's really nice. 0:02:47.760 --> 0:02:51.360 A petite Sarah is a very daytime red wine. 0:02:52.760 --> 0:02:53.280 Is it good? 0:02:53.600 --> 0:02:57.880 Usually organic wine? Either it's either very organic. I literally 0:02:57.960 --> 0:02:58.920 never heard of organic. 0:02:58.919 --> 0:03:01.560 Again, I've never heard of organic wine. 0:03:01.960 --> 0:03:05.320 I don't even know the thing's granitic. 0:03:05.360 --> 0:03:08.399 And there's also natural wines. There's a different Ye, what's 0:03:08.400 --> 0:03:12.040 the difference. I forgot, she explained, got ahead of our 0:03:12.400 --> 0:03:16.720 So what are the other wines organic? GMO? Ye? Yeah, 0:03:16.880 --> 0:03:20.440 they're not all of them, they're not filtered. Some have 0:03:20.560 --> 0:03:21.480 fishing fish. 0:03:21.680 --> 0:03:21.880 Yeah. 0:03:21.880 --> 0:03:22.440 Well here's the. 0:03:22.440 --> 0:03:26.000 Thing about fish. Why do they put fishing whites. 0:03:26.040 --> 0:03:29.160 It's like, so the process because then they say, if 0:03:29.160 --> 0:03:32.040 you get organic, it's got to be vegan. Because from 0:03:32.040 --> 0:03:36.720 what I'm learning, the like the filtrations, the system is 0:03:36.760 --> 0:03:38.000 like made of bone marrow. 0:03:38.600 --> 0:03:41.080 So the wine being filtered. 0:03:41.080 --> 0:03:44.000 Oh, I'm sending love to all my Somalier homegirls out 0:03:44.000 --> 0:03:45.839 there that I know what they're talking about and home 0:03:45.880 --> 0:03:48.680 boys because I have no clue. But it's like that 0:03:48.720 --> 0:03:52.880 filtration process. Where as the grapes are being pressed, they 0:03:52.920 --> 0:03:57.560 go through certain like non vegan filters and so the 0:03:57.680 --> 0:03:58.600 soul fights. 0:03:58.960 --> 0:04:00.680 Yeah, it's interesting the process. 0:04:00.720 --> 0:04:03.560 So you gotta ask. I try to find those organic. 0:04:03.320 --> 0:04:08.880 Or biodynamic, biodynamic, vegan natural organic one. 0:04:09.120 --> 0:04:12.960 I mean, you got the Goverment's trying to kill us. 0:04:13.000 --> 0:04:15.640 So They're like, yeah, we can get them in the alcohol. 0:04:15.960 --> 0:04:17.480 We can get them in the panties. We can get 0:04:18.120 --> 0:04:22.960 the bras. I'm like to check the panties. Yeah, I 0:04:23.040 --> 0:04:23.760 gotta you. 0:04:23.800 --> 0:04:24.320 Gotta check it. 0:04:24.480 --> 0:04:24.680 Yeah. 0:04:24.720 --> 0:04:27.880 Yeah, stretchy ass skims panties you're buying, bitch. 0:04:27.960 --> 0:04:30.080 Uh uh, I don't think skims organic. 0:04:30.240 --> 0:04:32.599 Also, for the men to the balls, we need the 0:04:32.800 --> 0:04:37.800 we need the jewel filled alix lix or filled jewels cotton. Yeah, 0:04:38.160 --> 0:04:41.240 apparently the balls are lost cause at this point, well, 0:04:41.240 --> 0:04:44.120 don't put your phone in my plastics have infiltrated all 0:04:44.120 --> 0:04:45.200 of our future kings. 0:04:45.360 --> 0:04:47.640 Well, think about think about how thin that skin is 0:04:47.680 --> 0:04:49.880 where the balls are. Think of how sensitive that skin is. 0:04:49.880 --> 0:04:51.760 It's probably easy to detox. 0:04:51.880 --> 0:04:52.080 Man. 0:04:52.880 --> 0:04:56.719 Yeah, the the Internet that is reading our minds and 0:04:56.760 --> 0:05:01.320 also our conversations has been targeting me heavily about how 0:05:01.360 --> 0:05:02.760 to prepare your body for pregnancy. 0:05:03.080 --> 0:05:05.800 And I'm like, did I think it? Did I say? 0:05:06.600 --> 0:05:08.080 And now it's like you said, get in the car 0:05:08.120 --> 0:05:10.360 with me. So now it's for sure targeting. 0:05:10.200 --> 0:05:12.440 Other reels like send this to your man because he 0:05:12.480 --> 0:05:13.359 didn't prepare his body. 0:05:14.040 --> 0:05:15.920 I was like, that's too much. 0:05:16.560 --> 0:05:18.640 I like the fact that I really do believe the 0:05:18.640 --> 0:05:22.200 phone can't read your mind is definitely reading right, because. 0:05:22.640 --> 0:05:25.520 Earlier about herbs you can eat to prepare for herbs 0:05:25.520 --> 0:05:27.560 you can use to prepare for pregnant, and you were. 0:05:27.400 --> 0:05:28.679 Just thinking it you weren't even needing. 0:05:29.000 --> 0:05:30.719 Well, I think there just like I think just like 0:05:30.800 --> 0:05:34.800 any energy force, including man made technology, can attune to 0:05:34.880 --> 0:05:38.360 something like even as even as a reiki practitioner, like 0:05:38.440 --> 0:05:41.800 they talk we talk a lot about how taking reiki online, 0:05:41.800 --> 0:05:43.400 people like how do you do raky online? It's like 0:05:43.440 --> 0:05:46.240 the energy has a tune to the current state of 0:05:46.279 --> 0:05:48.520 where we're at in the world, and so I would 0:05:48.680 --> 0:05:50.280 I know, we talked about this on another episode, but 0:05:50.320 --> 0:05:51.920 I was actually thinking about this the other day when 0:05:52.200 --> 0:05:56.400 because you had mentioned this before and it seemed like 0:05:56.400 --> 0:05:57.160 like a like. 0:05:57.080 --> 0:05:58.040 It couldn't be true. 0:05:58.160 --> 0:06:00.159 But the more I think about it, I'm like, Oh, 0:06:00.400 --> 0:06:03.520 the technology, whether it's man made or not, it's still energy. 0:06:03.560 --> 0:06:08.720 It's still frequency and can definitely be attuned to whoever 0:06:08.720 --> 0:06:09.120 it's near. 0:06:09.240 --> 0:06:11.839 Well, there's electric amongnetic brain waves. 0:06:11.920 --> 0:06:13.560 Like where do you think the technology comes from? 0:06:13.600 --> 0:06:13.880 First? 0:06:13.920 --> 0:06:16.680 It comes from the example, which is us talk about it. 0:06:16.760 --> 0:06:18.559 You know, the energy is like where are you thinking 0:06:18.560 --> 0:06:21.840 they're replicating. Everything they replicate, even in medicine, is of 0:06:21.880 --> 0:06:22.679 something natural. 0:06:22.960 --> 0:06:23.800 I love when you talk. 0:06:23.880 --> 0:06:26.080 You'll talk like you like that because the last time 0:06:26.120 --> 0:06:27.880 I was here, you were talking about the science and 0:06:27.920 --> 0:06:29.520 the technology of the nipple. 0:06:29.640 --> 0:06:37.040 You know me, you know, medically, docturally, philosophically, what I 0:06:37.080 --> 0:06:37.920 think is true. 0:06:37.920 --> 0:06:41.680 Brother, No, but it's true I feel. 0:06:42.040 --> 0:06:44.600 And there's been times where I've literally just sought something 0:06:44.640 --> 0:06:46.440 and I know I haven't said it, and then it 0:06:46.480 --> 0:06:48.120 comes up and I'm like, you're fucking with me. 0:06:48.200 --> 0:06:49.880 Now now you're trying to fuck with me. 0:06:50.760 --> 0:06:53.440 So yeah, But didn't y'all see that one movie or 0:06:53.480 --> 0:06:56.919 was it a documentary about like people holding their phone 0:06:56.960 --> 0:06:59.560 and how they're constantly being surveiled and how there's these 0:07:00.040 --> 0:07:03.479 information data centers that are collecting your movements, how you 0:07:03.480 --> 0:07:05.840 bring your eyes when you feel sad, when you feel depressed, 0:07:05.960 --> 0:07:07.560 so they know what to sin you. It was like 0:07:07.600 --> 0:07:10.440 a real deep documentary. Because I can't handle. 0:07:10.120 --> 0:07:12.920 That right it is, no, Lizzie, I have not seen 0:07:12.920 --> 0:07:16.800 that documentary because I will already know and I'm already paranoid. Okay, 0:07:16.880 --> 0:07:19.840 got you, I'm already a conspiracy theorist. That's not conspiracy 0:07:19.840 --> 0:07:23.200 because it's the truth. And I can't watch that because 0:07:23.200 --> 0:07:25.320 then I'm gonna make my whole family. But you know 0:07:25.720 --> 0:07:27.520 they have those bags from Amazon. You drop all your 0:07:27.560 --> 0:07:29.080 shit in. I'm the person like we need to buy 0:07:29.080 --> 0:07:31.119 ten gallons of water and tide it into the friger 0:07:31.360 --> 0:07:34.640 Like I'm that bitch, And every six months I'm like, 0:07:34.680 --> 0:07:37.239 we're not prepared, and I'm still not prepared. 0:07:38.200 --> 0:07:42.480 Spoil the water. Boil the water if you have, if 0:07:42.480 --> 0:07:47.040 you have access right, boil the water. Flames. Speaking of flames, 0:07:47.400 --> 0:07:51.560 can I like this candle? Candle that bring it? 0:07:51.600 --> 0:07:55.960 Because my homegirl made this candle. Her name is Melanin 0:07:56.080 --> 0:07:58.800 d and she'd be pulling up to Zenn and cush. 0:07:58.840 --> 0:08:01.200 This is one of her original ones that I had 0:08:01.480 --> 0:08:03.320 that I had at the house. I was saving it 0:08:03.400 --> 0:08:06.520 for a good moment, and I'm like, what better good 0:08:06.600 --> 0:08:09.880 moment than good moms, And so I just wanted to 0:08:10.000 --> 0:08:14.200 just bless up the space. It smells so delightful. And 0:08:14.280 --> 0:08:16.840 you said flame and then oh yeah that you asked 0:08:16.840 --> 0:08:17.760 for a lighter earlier. 0:08:17.880 --> 0:08:19.840 So this one is for you. Thank you. 0:08:19.960 --> 0:08:22.560 Yeah, more love, more love, you know, I love when 0:08:22.600 --> 0:08:26.520 you come and bless us with things and gifts and 0:08:26.560 --> 0:08:29.440 you know you. My friend was saying something and I 0:08:29.480 --> 0:08:32.080 was like, always bring the goddess and offering, like. 0:08:36.440 --> 0:08:37.600 I brought one for both of you. 0:08:37.960 --> 0:08:41.640 Yes, you also brought us the cutest ashtray last time. 0:08:42.880 --> 0:08:43.080 Yeah. 0:08:43.200 --> 0:08:46.679 Remember it's like hold my ship or something, and it matches. 0:08:46.720 --> 0:08:49.600 You see, it matches the Madam Jeff pre roll. So 0:08:49.640 --> 0:08:52.080 I brought one of these for us to smoke together. 0:08:52.520 --> 0:08:55.160 Even it's the glass tip. You can check it out 0:08:56.640 --> 0:08:59.640 hair uh huh, that's cute. You see the black you 0:08:59.640 --> 0:09:03.319 see the fan, I see the panther. She's an activist 0:09:03.320 --> 0:09:04.359 and a vixens. 0:09:04.480 --> 0:09:07.640 I like, you know, this is really sexy. 0:09:07.840 --> 0:09:11.000 Madam Jeff, this is this one is the Madam Grape 0:09:11.000 --> 0:09:15.360 that we smoke in. That's beautiful, gorgeous Granddaddy purple. 0:09:15.600 --> 0:09:18.000 Before we get into this episode, let's just put some 0:09:18.040 --> 0:09:22.280 intention into the medicine here. Thank you most hi, Thank 0:09:22.320 --> 0:09:25.719 you Goddess for this beautiful feminine medicine that we get 0:09:25.760 --> 0:09:29.200 to ingest. May our brains be clear and our vibes 0:09:29.240 --> 0:09:32.320 be high. May you continue to just walk with us 0:09:32.360 --> 0:09:36.800 through the day and inspiration and creativity and connectedness and 0:09:36.840 --> 0:09:40.240 more love and more empathy and more compassion. 0:09:41.040 --> 0:09:52.040 We love you, we love you. Amen Shay Shay Milis bacherette. 0:09:52.320 --> 0:09:53.920 That was my job. I was like, everyone, pick up 0:09:53.960 --> 0:09:59.960 the money I was pouring on. We're gonna make some 0:10:00.120 --> 0:10:02.280 much money. There's so much pleasure, it's gonna be great. 0:10:04.600 --> 0:10:06.520 The Shiver was like, what is happening? And then just 0:10:06.559 --> 0:10:10.480 go to chet is beautiful thing. 0:10:10.800 --> 0:10:13.680 I just it just caught my eye and I'm like, wow, 0:10:13.720 --> 0:10:16.599 that's gorgeous. Husband God, okay. 0:10:16.400 --> 0:10:19.880 Orlando big oh not the little one. 0:10:21.920 --> 0:10:25.520 Gorgeous on your beautiful, petite, feminine hand. 0:10:25.600 --> 0:10:26.080 Thank you. 0:10:27.120 --> 0:10:27.920 I love that for you. 0:10:28.000 --> 0:10:30.760 I appreciate that. I feel like a grown up. Oh wait, 0:10:30.840 --> 0:10:32.600 I'm like, why is this not hitting? 0:10:34.000 --> 0:10:38.400 Yeah? You know, Lizzie, for those who are just you know, 0:10:38.440 --> 0:10:40.280 we have new listeners, we have people that may have 0:10:40.360 --> 0:10:42.760 missed all the amazing episodes you've done with us. 0:10:42.920 --> 0:10:44.160 Lizzie's done two episodes with us. 0:10:44.200 --> 0:10:46.839 We she did four twenty episode and then she did 0:10:46.880 --> 0:10:48.280 one last I think it was last year Uary. 0:10:48.400 --> 0:10:51.240 Yeah, oh yeah, last January. Oh you need the lighter? 0:10:53.400 --> 0:10:55.360 Can you just I would love to. I would love 0:10:55.400 --> 0:10:57.319 for the people that are new here to get a 0:10:57.400 --> 0:11:00.040 little taste of who is Lizzie Jeff, Right, what's the. 0:11:00.440 --> 0:11:03.080 Who is you before us? 0:11:03.480 --> 0:11:08.400 That's a good question, especially because I feel like, at 0:11:08.480 --> 0:11:11.480 the root of it all, I'm me. But I'm always evolving, 0:11:11.720 --> 0:11:14.840 you know, I'm on a journey. And so to answer 0:11:14.840 --> 0:11:23.720 your question, Lizzie, Jeff, I mean, wow, I'm just you 0:11:23.760 --> 0:11:35.400 know me, I'm an artist, you know, a woman, you know, 0:11:35.720 --> 0:11:42.760 a philosopher, creative. You know, I'm sensual, I'm learning, I'm exploring. 0:11:42.840 --> 0:11:47.360 I'm multi dimensional. Af Some days I'm on my rachet shit. 0:11:47.600 --> 0:11:50.720 Some days I'm on my extravagance. 0:11:50.920 --> 0:11:53.040 Some days I'm reading a book. 0:11:53.360 --> 0:11:58.839 You know. Some days I'm topless on the beach, sunbathing, 0:11:58.960 --> 0:12:05.079 sipping a fresh coconut water that this handsome lad might 0:12:05.120 --> 0:12:08.160 have climbed up that tree and picked for me. 0:12:09.800 --> 0:12:12.320 You know, I'm just every day is a new day. 0:12:12.480 --> 0:12:16.200 But at this point in my life, you know, I'm 0:12:16.240 --> 0:12:19.400 actually stepping into my fortieth It's potent, huh. 0:12:25.160 --> 0:12:26.920 But I'm stepping into my fortieth. 0:12:26.920 --> 0:12:30.440 This year, I'm stepping into the ten year anniversary of 0:12:31.120 --> 0:12:33.560 Zen and Cush, which is my brand, and so I 0:12:33.559 --> 0:12:34.800 feel like this year is a. 0:12:34.840 --> 0:12:36.440 Very monumental year. 0:12:36.600 --> 0:12:40.640 So between running a business which is in a cush 0:12:40.800 --> 0:12:45.120 my own record label and event series, you know, making 0:12:45.160 --> 0:12:45.720 the music. 0:12:47.240 --> 0:12:50.240 I love cooking. I told y'all that last time. I wait, 0:12:50.280 --> 0:12:53.040 wait next week, I need to pull up, come over. 0:12:53.600 --> 0:12:54.880 We know what we need to do. I just thought 0:12:54.920 --> 0:12:55.160 of it. 0:12:55.600 --> 0:12:59.120 We need to do a vegan cooking series and we 0:12:59.160 --> 0:13:03.240 need to do an as to our episode Eating the 0:13:03.520 --> 0:13:06.480 Vegan Food, Take me somewhere. 0:13:08.840 --> 0:13:10.800 I would love for you to expand more on what 0:13:10.920 --> 0:13:13.479 Zen and Cush is because I think it's so incredible 0:13:13.520 --> 0:13:18.160 what you've created there, and more women everywhere need to 0:13:18.200 --> 0:13:19.840 know about Zen and Cush. It's about time that we 0:13:19.880 --> 0:13:22.200 collaborate on h cush. I know we've been talking about 0:13:22.240 --> 0:13:23.720 it forever, but this I think this is the year. 0:13:23.880 --> 0:13:24.640 Yeah, it has to be. 0:13:24.760 --> 0:13:28.800 Yeah, this is the year. Hello. Oh wait, we'll be 0:13:28.840 --> 0:13:36.080 in Jamaica. Oh yeah, mother's side. 0:13:36.679 --> 0:13:39.480 We're around in March, around in March. Yes, let's do 0:13:39.520 --> 0:13:42.720 something in March. Okay, I got some really special March fifteenth. 0:13:43.080 --> 0:13:44.439 Maybe we'll see in spring. 0:13:44.520 --> 0:13:47.480 Right, Well, that's you know, it's International Women's Month then, 0:13:47.800 --> 0:13:53.040 and our podcast was launched on International Women's Day March eighth, 0:13:53.559 --> 0:13:58.000 So we're nearing our eight years is big. 0:13:58.440 --> 0:14:01.760 Eight years. That is major we have over four hundred 0:14:02.000 --> 0:14:03.480 motherfucking episode. 0:14:03.679 --> 0:14:04.400 God is good. 0:14:04.600 --> 0:14:07.360 So if you're listening to this and you're like tenth, bitch, 0:14:07.440 --> 0:14:10.559 you got it. You got a lot of four hundred content. 0:14:10.720 --> 0:14:12.959 Not quite four hundred and twenty yet I think it's 0:14:12.960 --> 0:14:13.520 for twenty. 0:14:13.640 --> 0:14:15.920 I think we have like four hundred and something else. 0:14:15.960 --> 0:14:19.880 Okay, don't let this be the four hundred episode. 0:14:20.080 --> 0:14:21.600 That'd be perfect. 0:14:21.640 --> 0:14:24.800 But Zen and Cush. So basically, Zen and Cush is 0:14:24.840 --> 0:14:31.920 a vibe, it's a movement. It's uh, it's something that 0:14:32.000 --> 0:14:36.080 I created, you know, exactly ten years ago in my mind, 0:14:36.800 --> 0:14:39.920 and I was working in the cannabis industry. I was 0:14:39.960 --> 0:14:43.040 a bud tender, you know, I was doing my music. 0:14:43.200 --> 0:14:46.520 I was, you know, hosting QT events and sessions throughout 0:14:46.560 --> 0:14:49.120 the city. And I'm like, you know what it's time 0:14:49.160 --> 0:14:52.600 to like really put this all under one umbrella and 0:14:52.760 --> 0:14:56.320 give it a name, but also just create a space 0:14:56.840 --> 0:15:02.160 for us to enjoy the RB, to sip on some 0:15:02.360 --> 0:15:05.240 Damiana tea, to listen to some good music. Got a 0:15:05.400 --> 0:15:09.520 sexy saxophone player, you know, wearing a silk robe and 0:15:09.600 --> 0:15:13.360 some linger ryer, some fishnets with rose petals flying in 0:15:13.360 --> 0:15:15.360 the air. I'm like, we need that type of vibe 0:15:15.800 --> 0:15:20.560 that's just for us, you know, that's inspiring, that's creative, 0:15:20.720 --> 0:15:24.760 that talks about real shit, that highlights dope music and 0:15:24.880 --> 0:15:28.720 artists in the community, but like on the independent level, 0:15:28.800 --> 0:15:32.200 you know. And so I was sitting there, I was journaling, 0:15:32.320 --> 0:15:37.680 and I was thinking about like thee iconic, iconic movements, 0:15:38.360 --> 0:15:40.320 and the first thing that came to mind was Jen 0:15:40.440 --> 0:15:41.240 and Juice. 0:15:42.120 --> 0:15:42.360 You know. 0:15:42.560 --> 0:15:44.560 It's like you think of Snoop, you think of Dre, 0:15:44.720 --> 0:15:47.520 you think of that era. I mean, Jen and Juice 0:15:47.760 --> 0:15:50.120 is a is a drink, but it's also a movement. 0:15:50.200 --> 0:15:54.280 It's also a cultural like moment era, a vibe I feel, 0:15:54.840 --> 0:15:58.920 so Zen and Cush just hit me, and so I'm like, 0:15:59.040 --> 0:16:04.480 that's it. And so Zen represents like, you know, that 0:16:05.160 --> 0:16:09.440 lifestyle that those practices that come with like having a 0:16:09.640 --> 0:16:14.920 balanced nervous system, that comes with that intention moving mindfully, 0:16:15.200 --> 0:16:20.560 you know, just rituals, practices infused with cush, you know, 0:16:21.480 --> 0:16:25.080 not just what we smoke on, not just that good good, 0:16:25.240 --> 0:16:27.760 not just what we you know, when we think of 0:16:27.840 --> 0:16:30.680 Snoop or with like it is deeper than that. It 0:16:30.720 --> 0:16:34.840 is when you think about the Great Lands of Kush, 0:16:34.960 --> 0:16:38.280 when you think about the great kings and queens that 0:16:38.360 --> 0:16:41.080 ruled the land of Cush. It's taking us all the 0:16:41.080 --> 0:16:44.840 way back to the motherland. It's bringing that ground inness, 0:16:44.840 --> 0:16:48.440 but it's bringing it right now. And so from that 0:16:48.480 --> 0:16:52.440 the events were born. I was able to perform my music. 0:16:52.960 --> 0:16:55.800 I was able to book other artists that I'm inspired by. 0:16:56.720 --> 0:16:59.840 Bringing the farmers in. But like the farmers that wasn't 0:16:59.840 --> 0:17:04.080 always represented at the standard bud tender cannabis events that 0:17:04.200 --> 0:17:07.440 was happening. You know, talk about real shit, talk about 0:17:07.480 --> 0:17:11.400 the people that's locked up because of cannabis being weaponized. 0:17:11.480 --> 0:17:17.520 You know, bring awareness and attention, bring equity, you know, 0:17:17.640 --> 0:17:22.280 bring justice, bring restoration. But make it sexy and be 0:17:22.359 --> 0:17:25.199 around elders, be around people that I really do this, 0:17:25.520 --> 0:17:30.879 that are really in the movement, revolutionaries, practitioners, alchemists, like 0:17:30.960 --> 0:17:34.280 people that make good food floor It's just I'm like, 0:17:34.440 --> 0:17:37.639 we need a place to like exist and thrive and 0:17:37.680 --> 0:17:38.960 look good while doing it. 0:17:39.160 --> 0:17:41.399 So Zenny Kush was born. 0:17:41.520 --> 0:17:45.520 Of course it has become something even far beyond what 0:17:45.560 --> 0:17:49.720 I imagine, but is everything you know that I was 0:17:49.800 --> 0:17:53.280 intentional about and more. And so to be here now 0:17:53.400 --> 0:17:54.440 ten years is like. 0:17:55.960 --> 0:17:56.840 I'm just really. 0:17:56.680 --> 0:17:59.320 Proud of myself and I'm proud of us. I'm proud 0:17:59.359 --> 0:18:02.760 of the community, the people that's been showing up, and 0:18:02.920 --> 0:18:06.399 I'm just feeling very thankful and I appreciate y'all. You know, 0:18:06.480 --> 0:18:09.239 y'all said this is the third time, Like, okay, they 0:18:09.400 --> 0:18:14.600 they fuck with your girl, y'all. So it's this is 0:18:14.600 --> 0:18:16.600 a good place to like, it's the top of the 0:18:16.720 --> 0:18:20.359 year to be even presenting it for the first time 0:18:20.520 --> 0:18:23.960 like that, letting people know, Okay, this is the ten year, 0:18:24.200 --> 0:18:29.520 like pull up all year we're doing beautiful, luxurious, organic experiences. 0:18:31.119 --> 0:18:34.840 I'm so proud of you. Thank you, thank you. Is 0:18:35.720 --> 0:18:38.240 it only for women? I'm so glad you asked me 0:18:38.320 --> 0:18:44.520 that this is some good that's you got the light. 0:18:46.200 --> 0:18:49.640 It's not about it's sparking it so many times. I'm 0:18:49.640 --> 0:18:55.080 so happy that you asked me that. Because it's giving feminine, 0:18:55.119 --> 0:18:59.959 it's giving woman forward, it's giving black girl greatness, is 0:19:00.119 --> 0:19:05.280 giving multicultural. It's given indigenous, it's given ass it's given hips, 0:19:05.280 --> 0:19:10.720 it's given breasts, it's given energy, is given you feel me, sisterhood. 0:19:10.880 --> 0:19:16.520 It's giving afroids, giving locks. It's just and so although 0:19:16.560 --> 0:19:21.639 it is very rooted in celebrating the feminine energy, just 0:19:21.680 --> 0:19:23.920 because I feel like as a society we don't. 0:19:23.680 --> 0:19:24.320 Do it enough. 0:19:25.760 --> 0:19:31.960 It's also a beautiful, safe, sensual place for the brothers 0:19:32.119 --> 0:19:35.320 to pull up to be part of to learn. You know, 0:19:35.400 --> 0:19:37.280 there's a lot of dope brothers over the years that 0:19:37.320 --> 0:19:40.080 I've worked with, you know, that have been part of 0:19:40.119 --> 0:19:44.159 the experience, including my own brother Slim Jeff, and you know, 0:19:44.680 --> 0:19:48.160 there's so many dope artists long drill, you know, tone 0:19:48.440 --> 0:19:55.440 like aj snow Nutty Sunrise, just so many dope artists 0:19:55.480 --> 0:19:56.400 that have come in that. 0:19:56.359 --> 0:19:57.359 Have shared their music. 0:19:57.920 --> 0:20:02.600 A lot of healers, massage, the therapists, you know, Honors 0:20:02.680 --> 0:20:05.879 yoga he does y'all got to y'all probably know Honors. 0:20:05.560 --> 0:20:09.480 Huh is Atlanta? Yes, that boy know what he's doing. 0:20:09.520 --> 0:20:11.760 Okay, I followed him and I was looking at his 0:20:11.880 --> 0:20:13.919 retreat I was looking into his retreats because he goes 0:20:13.960 --> 0:20:14.640 to Egypt a lot. 0:20:14.840 --> 0:20:18.160 Go Okay, that's what. And then when you decide to go, 0:20:18.280 --> 0:20:21.000 let me know because I might pull up on but 0:20:21.119 --> 0:20:23.480 that man, you know what he's doing. So you know, 0:20:23.520 --> 0:20:26.440 it's important to like have a space for the brothers 0:20:26.480 --> 0:20:28.560 that's doing the work to pull up and share their 0:20:28.600 --> 0:20:32.960 gifts too, but it's still woman forward. It's especially black 0:20:33.000 --> 0:20:38.159 woman melanated woman forward, because we need a space to 0:20:38.280 --> 0:20:41.840 grow and be in our freedom being, our sensuality, share 0:20:41.880 --> 0:20:45.159 our gifts, our artistry. But also the brothers need to 0:20:45.200 --> 0:20:46.760 see it. They need to be a part of it. 0:20:46.800 --> 0:20:48.880 They need to know learn how to respect it. They 0:20:48.880 --> 0:20:52.359 need to understand how to have reverence. And you know 0:20:52.480 --> 0:20:55.200 it is Yeah, it's that type of vibe. So it's 0:20:55.240 --> 0:21:00.400 it's open to everybody. Although we use keywords like tea 0:21:00.400 --> 0:21:04.399 and luxurious and sensual and enchanting and vegan plant based 0:21:04.400 --> 0:21:07.119 and delectable and damiana. 0:21:06.480 --> 0:21:09.880 Te and the like. Are we welcome and yes you. 0:21:09.880 --> 0:21:13.800 Are, brother It's like from our security and the DJs 0:21:13.840 --> 0:21:17.240 to the chefs, like you know, the men are a 0:21:17.240 --> 0:21:19.800 big part of Zen and cush as well. You know 0:21:20.400 --> 0:21:23.119 who if somebody got to help me carry the ship 0:21:23.119 --> 0:21:24.960 to the car unloaded. 0:21:24.560 --> 0:21:27.480 You know what I mean. The goddesses need the guy. Yeah, 0:21:27.520 --> 0:21:29.600 we do, we do. It's yeah. 0:21:29.800 --> 0:21:32.040 You know I was when when when you were talking, 0:21:32.080 --> 0:21:34.359 I was wondering the same thing, and then I was thinking, like, 0:21:34.800 --> 0:21:37.200 I know a lot of your your events are toptional 0:21:37.359 --> 0:21:41.120 and like you know, encouraged to dress centrally, and I 0:21:41.160 --> 0:21:44.159 was just like, you know, not every man can handle 0:21:44.680 --> 0:21:47.040 the exposure. 0:21:46.560 --> 0:21:47.159 That's what I was. 0:21:47.359 --> 0:21:50.399 I was thinking that, and I was thinking even the 0:21:50.600 --> 0:21:54.239 even the man that views himself as the divine. I mean, 0:21:54.240 --> 0:21:55.600 I think a lot of men most probably are like 0:21:55.600 --> 0:21:57.680 I'm gonna find masculine. But the ones that are really 0:21:57.720 --> 0:22:00.720 in the work and really in the process us of 0:22:01.480 --> 0:22:05.719 really stepping into that, I think even them, and this 0:22:05.760 --> 0:22:07.440 is not a fault to them, because men are just men, 0:22:07.640 --> 0:22:11.440 their visual creatures. They have to come into these spaces 0:22:11.480 --> 0:22:14.679 and test their their divinity. They need to like it 0:22:14.720 --> 0:22:15.800 needs to be in practice. 0:22:16.320 --> 0:22:18.399 They got to be checked. And this goes both ways. 0:22:18.480 --> 0:22:20.680 I believe that for the goddess as well, coming into 0:22:20.720 --> 0:22:22.679 a masculine space like sometimes we don't. 0:22:22.560 --> 0:22:26.600 Know how to act either, and okay, like we don't. 0:22:27.960 --> 0:22:31.600 So I think that as as the divine feminine and 0:22:31.640 --> 0:22:34.160 the divine mass and don't just show up ready and perfect. 0:22:34.440 --> 0:22:37.040 They actually have to enter into these spaces where their 0:22:37.040 --> 0:22:43.119 divinity is tested and they're able to learn and reassess. 0:22:43.640 --> 0:22:45.239 And apply, you know. 0:22:45.440 --> 0:22:48.960 So I'm curious, have you ever had you ever had 0:22:48.960 --> 0:22:50.560 a check? Have you ever had a check in driven 0:22:55.000 --> 0:22:57.240 because we have we had to check some niggas that 0:22:57.280 --> 0:22:57.920 are retreats. 0:22:58.040 --> 0:23:00.320 Okay, see you do, you do, you do. 0:23:00.760 --> 0:23:04.639 And there's been time where I've seen it myself. A 0:23:04.760 --> 0:23:08.200 man will come in looking so good, looking, so handsome, 0:23:08.280 --> 0:23:13.520 looking so ready, like, and then he'll stand there, he'll 0:23:13.560 --> 0:23:16.360 like take it in, and then he'll turn around and leave, 0:23:16.440 --> 0:23:17.440 never to be seen again. 0:23:18.119 --> 0:23:19.720 I've seen it. It's happened. 0:23:19.840 --> 0:23:24.000 But I appreciate that energy versus you're doing something. 0:23:24.359 --> 0:23:27.800 Oh thyself, brother, you ain't ready. Yeah, let me let 0:23:27.840 --> 0:23:28.680 me come back to this. 0:23:29.119 --> 0:23:31.160 And one of my go go, you go. 0:23:31.280 --> 0:23:36.600 And it's also interesting to see that men haven't really experienced, 0:23:37.160 --> 0:23:41.080 especially like a volume women who are like actualized in 0:23:41.119 --> 0:23:45.640 their sensuality. And I feel like enough so that sometimes 0:23:45.720 --> 0:23:48.760 like the wild woman, the central woman is intimidating. Even 0:23:48.760 --> 0:23:51.240 at the bachelorette party, I feel like one of the 0:23:51.520 --> 0:23:53.919 guy who didn't know us was like a little taken 0:23:53.920 --> 0:23:57.159 aback and like you're the performer, like you can't be scared. 0:23:58.000 --> 0:24:00.920 He's usually the well he yeah, but he's usually probably 0:24:01.000 --> 0:24:03.280 used to being the most fully expressed person in the room. 0:24:03.720 --> 0:24:05.399 So being in a room with a bunch of women 0:24:05.440 --> 0:24:08.040 that are like ready and open and free and like 0:24:08.119 --> 0:24:12.240 we've made agreements already. You heard the agreements, niggas he 0:24:12.400 --> 0:24:14.520 was there not a lot of times that's a lot 0:24:14.640 --> 0:24:15.640 for someone to take. 0:24:15.520 --> 0:24:18.720 On, especially the especially the man who has been set 0:24:18.800 --> 0:24:22.400 up in patriarchy, Like you haven't really been you men 0:24:22.520 --> 0:24:26.080 haven't really been conditioned to like to see that and 0:24:26.080 --> 0:24:28.920 to and to accept it and to like also see 0:24:28.960 --> 0:24:33.159 women who accept it about themselves and are Yeah. 0:24:33.000 --> 0:24:35.720 And it's not even for you, literally enjoying herself just 0:24:35.720 --> 0:24:39.120 because that's just who she is, naturally has nothing to do, and. 0:24:39.080 --> 0:24:41.439 She wore this outfit for herself because she was. 0:24:41.400 --> 0:24:43.600 Going to see you tonight, And that doesn't mean she's 0:24:43.640 --> 0:24:44.760 ready to fuck instantly. 0:24:44.880 --> 0:24:47.120 Yeah, But there was a man once. 0:24:47.160 --> 0:24:51.920 He told me he left because within seconds of being there, 0:24:52.960 --> 0:24:55.600 one of the ladies came up to him with a 0:24:55.640 --> 0:25:03.359 crystal glass of organic strawberries drizzled and CBD and offered 0:25:03.440 --> 0:25:06.240 him one, and he just was like too overwhelmed. 0:25:06.320 --> 0:25:07.120 He had to leave. 0:25:08.400 --> 0:25:10.440 It never came back, And it was just like, that's 0:25:10.440 --> 0:25:15.040 so funny because people sometimes think, oh, Zen and Cush 0:25:15.160 --> 0:25:18.360 is a orgy or like just because it's lingerie friendly 0:25:18.600 --> 0:25:24.280 or toptional people have these interesting viewpoints of it until 0:25:24.280 --> 0:25:25.760 they get there and they're like, oh. 0:25:25.680 --> 0:25:28.159 This is actually just a fucking vibe. 0:25:28.280 --> 0:25:32.120 Yeah, you know what I mean, especially in certain cities 0:25:32.240 --> 0:25:34.600 like now that I've you know, we started off in that. 0:25:36.240 --> 0:25:37.440 I take us on a journey. 0:25:37.520 --> 0:25:41.280 Girl. Thank you for asking, because I actually just got 0:25:41.320 --> 0:25:46.320 back to la not even a week ago from New York. 0:25:47.080 --> 0:25:49.760 But that was the tail end of what was a 0:25:49.800 --> 0:25:55.320 six month journey. Yeah, since we're really a nine month 0:25:55.400 --> 0:25:58.760 journey since Zen and Cush for twenty last year. But anyways, 0:25:58.800 --> 0:26:03.000 I went to Atlanta, New Orleans. I was actually based 0:26:03.040 --> 0:26:05.560 in New Orleans for six months. That's where I grew up, 0:26:05.680 --> 0:26:08.800 so I go back often. But this is the longest 0:26:08.840 --> 0:26:11.920 I had stayed since I lived there as a kid, 0:26:12.680 --> 0:26:14.919 and so that was really nice to be based in 0:26:14.960 --> 0:26:18.960 New Orleans. But I had shows in Houston, Atlanta, North Carolina. 0:26:19.880 --> 0:26:21.920 I went up to d C, New York. 0:26:22.320 --> 0:26:24.960 You know, it was a vibe just living that life, 0:26:25.080 --> 0:26:28.280 like that that Auntie, that rich Auntie life. But also 0:26:28.359 --> 0:26:32.800 I'm a real independent artist out here just doing it. 0:26:32.960 --> 0:26:36.240 And so I'm back, you know, I'm back on the 0:26:36.280 --> 0:26:38.680 West coast, the West Coast Wave. God is I just 0:26:38.760 --> 0:26:42.000 dropped my albums in and cushed volume one and so 0:26:42.800 --> 0:26:44.480 you know what was your question? 0:26:44.920 --> 0:26:46.640 Oh, I was just asking where. I was saying, where 0:26:46.840 --> 0:26:48.000 where has that in cushions? 0:26:48.080 --> 0:26:50.320 Okay, what cities have you gone to? Okay? 0:26:50.400 --> 0:26:52.600 We did spend some time in Costa Rica too, not 0:26:52.760 --> 0:26:55.240 last year, but in the past we have. I did 0:26:55.240 --> 0:26:58.720 three months out there, but I'm happy to circle back 0:26:58.760 --> 0:27:01.960 to la will be hosting you know, the Zenn and 0:27:02.040 --> 0:27:08.200 cush Fest does zenn and cush Fest m H for 0:27:08.800 --> 0:27:10.480 weekend in la O. 0:27:11.080 --> 0:27:14.240 Yeah, so I'm like, you know, miss that, that's okay. 0:27:14.280 --> 0:27:17.719 But I'm having a cute little one two pre party 0:27:17.800 --> 0:27:21.240 on March fifteenth. You know, I'm collaborating shout out my 0:27:21.240 --> 0:27:24.960 girl Destiny, who y'all met earlier. She runs our house 0:27:25.040 --> 0:27:29.640 and so actually my next big project in la is 0:27:29.720 --> 0:27:35.679 an artist residency with our house, where I'll be the 0:27:35.800 --> 0:27:41.119 artist and resident for sixty days, and throughout that time 0:27:41.280 --> 0:27:47.760 I'll be hosting you know, these late night coworks on Thursdays. 0:27:47.440 --> 0:27:48.400 I'll. 0:27:49.520 --> 0:27:53.399 Do like my sensual Pilates class. Last year, I became 0:27:53.440 --> 0:27:58.360 certified to teach plate my homegirl Miami Jungle Johannah. 0:27:58.400 --> 0:28:03.600 I was hoping she were say her name. Wait, did 0:28:03.600 --> 0:28:06.000 you get certified through her? Yeah? 0:28:08.880 --> 0:28:11.879 I just have to shout out Jungle Johanna because because 0:28:11.880 --> 0:28:13.640 she's like, we've been following each other for a really 0:28:13.720 --> 0:28:15.280 long time, my girl and Nice could put me onto 0:28:15.280 --> 0:28:17.159 her because she was she would take her classes in 0:28:17.200 --> 0:28:23.199 Miami and she recently got this amazing partnership. She's one 0:28:23.200 --> 0:28:26.520 of the instructors for Peloton. Now she's a pilates instructor 0:28:26.560 --> 0:28:28.360 and that's like a it's that's a big ass deal. 0:28:28.920 --> 0:28:29.560 Shout out to her. 0:28:31.600 --> 0:28:33.560 A major play for the culture. 0:28:33.320 --> 0:28:34.920 And her classes are. 0:28:35.000 --> 0:28:38.920 She's just always been such a real bitch all through, 0:28:39.080 --> 0:28:42.440 no matter what she is, and that's what I love 0:28:42.480 --> 0:28:45.040 about her classes too, and just just how she shows up. 0:28:45.080 --> 0:28:46.920 You would have thought I knew her. I've never met 0:28:46.960 --> 0:28:50.240 this woman, but I know we do. We fuck with 0:28:50.280 --> 0:28:51.840 each other in our d ms all the time. 0:28:51.960 --> 0:28:55.000 Let's do something in Miami. But that's amazing. 0:28:56.160 --> 0:29:01.560 Sorry, just because you know, like, shout out to Jungle Joe. 0:29:01.640 --> 0:29:03.760 I did a two week class with her. She has 0:29:03.800 --> 0:29:06.640 her next certification coming up. I'm pretty sure it's sold out, 0:29:06.680 --> 0:29:09.320 but it's at the end of March. And then she's 0:29:09.360 --> 0:29:13.920 doing a teacher like like a reup, like a continuation 0:29:15.040 --> 0:29:18.320 learning continue learning in April, so I'm planning to pull 0:29:18.440 --> 0:29:21.760 up on her again very soon. But just being in 0:29:21.800 --> 0:29:26.960 that program with her, learning from her, it. 0:29:26.960 --> 0:29:27.600 Was top tier. 0:29:27.760 --> 0:29:32.280 I'm gonna tell you, like you know, she's her and 0:29:32.360 --> 0:29:35.200 I fuck with it, and she embraces it. She say 0:29:35.240 --> 0:29:37.760 what she wants, she don't. She really don't give no 0:29:37.920 --> 0:29:42.200 fucks ever, and she know what she talking about. She 0:29:42.360 --> 0:29:44.800 know what she doing, like you could tell she really 0:29:44.840 --> 0:29:45.440 been in a game. 0:29:45.520 --> 0:29:46.400 She really a og. 0:29:46.720 --> 0:29:49.680 So I'm very thankful that if I was gonna do it, 0:29:50.400 --> 0:29:52.280 that I did it with her. And I do plan 0:29:52.360 --> 0:29:55.440 on doing another training with her too, just because she's 0:29:55.440 --> 0:29:55.880 that good. 0:29:56.000 --> 0:29:56.800 I fuck with her. 0:29:57.200 --> 0:30:01.200 So yeah, anyways, So yeah, Miami. I spent some time 0:30:01.240 --> 0:30:05.440 out there a few months. Actually, I love Miami, That's 0:30:05.440 --> 0:30:09.080 my climate. But I'm back, I'm on the West coast, 0:30:09.960 --> 0:30:13.720 and then I know y'all are high, so I'm not 0:30:13.760 --> 0:30:15.760 even gonna really make a big deal of this. 0:30:18.560 --> 0:30:20.680 Save that way, whatever I got it, I'm a O 0:30:20.880 --> 0:30:32.480 g N goddamn. 0:30:33.680 --> 0:30:35.760 This is the mystical cush right here. 0:30:36.120 --> 0:30:38.520 So show I spoke that that way so I went 0:30:38.640 --> 0:30:40.080 to our girl, Robin. 0:30:41.080 --> 0:30:41.320 Yeah. 0:30:41.640 --> 0:30:45.600 Shout out to Robin in Asia from Dope Sugar l 0:30:45.640 --> 0:30:52.200 A to official black woman own dispensaries, making history every 0:30:52.280 --> 0:30:57.840 single day just by existing, making plays, being intentional, leading 0:30:57.880 --> 0:31:01.240 with integrity, and really putting on for the city, for 0:31:01.280 --> 0:31:04.080 the community, for the whole cannabis industry. I really fun 0:31:04.200 --> 0:31:07.520 with them, They really respect y'all introduced me to them, 0:31:07.880 --> 0:31:09.920 and ever since it's been up Robin. 0:31:10.280 --> 0:31:12.720 I met Robin so randomly through one of my best friends, Jared, 0:31:12.720 --> 0:31:13.560 who lives in Germany. 0:31:14.120 --> 0:31:16.600 She she I think they served tables together. 0:31:16.880 --> 0:31:19.720 But anyway, Robin, yes, like you said, has taken over 0:31:19.720 --> 0:31:21.400 the cannas industry. Then she came on one of our 0:31:21.440 --> 0:31:22.920 retreats with her mom, who I don't know if you've 0:31:22.920 --> 0:31:23.400 met her mom. 0:31:23.440 --> 0:31:27.680 Her mom is equally lit, actually more lit. Wait, she 0:31:27.680 --> 0:31:30.880 actually invited me to Robin's birthday. Was actually like like 0:31:30.920 --> 0:31:33.320 a week ago. She invited me to. 0:31:33.080 --> 0:31:36.760 A karaoke a karaoke party, and I couldn't help but 0:31:36.840 --> 0:31:38.960 think of her mom, because her mom was always like baby, 0:31:39.040 --> 0:31:42.680 say say to you no, just. 0:31:42.640 --> 0:31:44.080 Like anytime it was someone's birthday. 0:31:44.560 --> 0:31:47.120 It was as a retreat, she was like she's about 0:31:47.280 --> 0:31:49.600 she didn't get too drunk. She should ever sing now. 0:31:49.880 --> 0:31:50.880 Like she's her manager. 0:31:51.320 --> 0:31:53.400 She was like, oh, it's her birthday, No problem, Robin's 0:31:53.400 --> 0:31:54.440 gonna sing Happy birthday to you. 0:31:57.760 --> 0:31:58.920 But anyway, I smoked her. 0:31:59.160 --> 0:32:01.600 Okay, so you're it's a dope sugar, La to pick 0:32:01.680 --> 0:32:04.160 up the Lizen shirt mystical cush pre roll. 0:32:04.280 --> 0:32:04.920 I sure did. 0:32:04.960 --> 0:32:08.480 They also carried them on choices, sweatshirts. Okay, I've seen it. 0:32:08.560 --> 0:32:10.360 I was gonna say, like, they really do put on 0:32:10.480 --> 0:32:13.080 for I think she really does put on for her 0:32:13.120 --> 0:32:14.280 friends and people in. 0:32:14.320 --> 0:32:16.200 La shout out to her other black women. 0:32:16.320 --> 0:32:18.800 Yeah, I got a showering rose petals next time I 0:32:18.840 --> 0:32:21.160 see her. And I'm gonna be here for four twenty, 0:32:21.240 --> 0:32:24.480 so let's do something really special, dope, sugar, I love y'all. 0:32:25.240 --> 0:32:27.360 That's all right, I mean to drub you. No, we'll 0:32:27.520 --> 0:32:29.400 oh yeah, this will pull out the mystical curve. 0:32:29.520 --> 0:32:31.920 So this is a gift for y'all, like for later, 0:32:32.080 --> 0:32:34.840 because unless you was, we might as well just think 0:32:34.880 --> 0:32:35.200 your love. 0:32:35.800 --> 0:32:36.080 Okay. 0:32:36.120 --> 0:32:38.320 So there's one for us now and one for later. 0:32:38.400 --> 0:32:39.520 You see what I do there? 0:32:39.520 --> 0:32:42.560 Maybe half for now. A couple of times like. 0:32:42.640 --> 0:32:43.320 This A Puff. 0:32:43.640 --> 0:32:45.720 But this is the Mystical Cush that you just told 0:32:45.760 --> 0:32:48.720 the story about, and you know what, I do think 0:32:48.760 --> 0:32:51.600 it's important to share because I've been in the industry 0:32:51.680 --> 0:32:55.960 for almost ten years and I'm gonna tell you, like 0:32:56.600 --> 0:32:59.960 just wanting to be a part of the legal mark, 0:33:00.120 --> 0:33:01.959 it's a process, it's a journey. 0:33:01.960 --> 0:33:02.920 You gotta put work in. 0:33:03.040 --> 0:33:06.720 It's about it's about diligence, it's about making shit happen 0:33:06.800 --> 0:33:10.520 because it's not easy. And so this whole experience is 0:33:10.560 --> 0:33:16.120 really ten years into making because I originally dropped the 0:33:16.160 --> 0:33:18.560 Lizzie's Love but a few years ago and four twenty 0:33:18.600 --> 0:33:21.440 at a woman owned dispensary in LA And then when 0:33:21.440 --> 0:33:24.560 I came back, we did the Mystical Cush pre rolls 0:33:24.680 --> 0:33:27.400 at a black woman owned dispensary in LA at two 0:33:27.960 --> 0:33:31.120 matter of fact, and twelve shops in a excuse me 0:33:31.160 --> 0:33:34.080 in the Bay Area. So this was the first time 0:33:34.120 --> 0:33:38.040 shout out to my homegirl, Camille Sophia. She's the lead 0:33:38.120 --> 0:33:41.480 singer of a twelve piece I'm pretty sure it's a 0:33:41.520 --> 0:33:44.959 twelve piece like funk funk band, Okay, and she's the 0:33:45.000 --> 0:33:47.320 only woman wow, And anyway. 0:33:47.080 --> 0:33:48.080 She's a dope artist. 0:33:48.160 --> 0:33:51.160 We go way back in the cannabis industry, and we 0:33:51.280 --> 0:33:54.840 both used to work for a pre roll company, and 0:33:54.960 --> 0:33:58.400 she took the northern California region. I took the southern 0:33:58.400 --> 0:34:01.640 California region, and we just took that pre roll company 0:34:01.680 --> 0:34:07.200 to a whole new level on both coats. And we realize, 0:34:07.280 --> 0:34:11.000 you know what, we're undervalued and underappreciated, So let's do 0:34:11.080 --> 0:34:13.480 our own shit. And one day we're gonna really do 0:34:13.520 --> 0:34:17.320 our own shit together. So she went and built a family. 0:34:17.760 --> 0:34:19.680 I was still building those in a cush and then 0:34:19.719 --> 0:34:23.360 we came together for the Mystical Cush. She brought me 0:34:23.640 --> 0:34:29.080 and SF Roots together. That's a black owned equity company 0:34:29.080 --> 0:34:31.080 in the Bay Area. They make sure black people are 0:34:31.120 --> 0:34:34.760 getting equity in the industry. She actually created this design, 0:34:35.000 --> 0:34:38.400 so she told me to tell her all my keywords. 0:34:38.440 --> 0:34:45.680 So I told her, you know, luxury, Pearls, you know Africa, Motherland, 0:34:45.760 --> 0:34:50.759 indigenous gold, you feel me, medicine, plant earth, and she 0:34:50.880 --> 0:34:55.120 put it together. And so she actually designed the label. 0:34:55.760 --> 0:34:58.400 And then right here that QR code lead you to 0:34:59.040 --> 0:35:01.560 the album that I had dropped when these first dropped. 0:35:01.680 --> 0:35:05.040 You know, my new album is on the way, Cush 0:35:05.200 --> 0:35:09.719 Love and Domiana it's an EP that's coming soon. 0:35:10.440 --> 0:35:12.359 But that's what this was about. And it was the 0:35:12.400 --> 0:35:13.600 first time that they. 0:35:13.480 --> 0:35:15.799 Had done something like this and the dispensary with the 0:35:15.880 --> 0:35:19.879 music and the herb, you know, being together, and it's 0:35:19.880 --> 0:35:21.319 two pre rolls in one pack. 0:35:21.560 --> 0:35:24.880 Right, it's an experience. 0:35:24.360 --> 0:35:29.480 And it's black women, black on cultivation, the printing, the design, everything. 0:35:29.560 --> 0:35:32.840 So I was really proud, just and blessed to be 0:35:32.880 --> 0:35:36.279 a part of that Dope opportunity and to collaborate with 0:35:36.480 --> 0:35:39.399 both Dope Sugar locations. So that's this one. 0:35:39.840 --> 0:35:43.200 This is beautiful. Thank you, thank thank you for blessings. 0:35:43.280 --> 0:35:45.640 I appreciate y'all for let me speak on that. 0:35:45.880 --> 0:35:49.399 Speaking of blessings, I was curious listening if you don't 0:35:49.480 --> 0:35:51.799 have an affirmation for the. 0:35:51.800 --> 0:35:54.000 Try, I love that. Thank you. It feels like a 0:35:54.040 --> 0:35:56.120 beautiful time, you know what. 0:35:56.120 --> 0:36:17.919 Especially before I sparked this one. HM, I am activated, 0:36:18.800 --> 0:36:26.840 I am recharged and fully restored. I am at peace. 0:36:28.280 --> 0:36:33.080 My nervous system is balanced. I'm eating good, I'm feeling good, 0:36:33.160 --> 0:36:36.200 I'm breathing good, I'm relaxing. 0:36:36.320 --> 0:36:37.440 I'm taking breaks. 0:36:38.040 --> 0:36:41.240 I rest when I want to and when I feel 0:36:41.280 --> 0:36:43.880 like it, because I know that when I rest that 0:36:44.000 --> 0:36:49.000 in itself is a radical revolutionary act. My existence in 0:36:49.080 --> 0:36:52.400 itself is revolutionary, So why not take a fucking break. 0:36:52.480 --> 0:36:53.160 Sometimes. 0:36:53.880 --> 0:36:57.640 I am peaceful, I am sensual, I am soft, I 0:36:57.680 --> 0:37:00.680 am feminine. I am a bad bitch, I am a warrior. 0:37:02.600 --> 0:37:05.840 But I understand the balance of living my soft life 0:37:06.760 --> 0:37:10.880 and allowing the universe to bless me with all of 0:37:10.920 --> 0:37:16.759 my deepest desires. Mm hm, I am activated, shad. 0:37:17.120 --> 0:37:23.920 Shame activated activated. 0:37:27.040 --> 0:37:29.759 I need all that. I need to call all that 0:37:29.800 --> 0:37:38.160 in what activates you? Lizzie? In this era of Lizzie, Jeff, you'll. 0:37:37.960 --> 0:37:46.680 Be asking the questions now, You'll be asking them. 0:37:44.760 --> 0:37:51.120 What activates me? Sisterhood? 0:37:52.000 --> 0:37:53.920 And I need to text my sister Amina. 0:37:54.000 --> 0:37:57.919 I love you. You know, I'll be seeing our kids 0:37:57.920 --> 0:38:00.560 go to school together. That is so I've seeing a 0:38:00.600 --> 0:38:03.680 little like another version of Lizzie. I'm like that is 0:38:03.880 --> 0:38:08.040 she's like the conservative Lizzie, the Banana Republic Lizzy. 0:38:11.000 --> 0:38:11.319 I like. 0:38:13.000 --> 0:38:15.960 Her. Let me let me not have been in a 0:38:16.000 --> 0:38:17.360 republic her. It's Sarah. 0:38:17.719 --> 0:38:23.719 Okay, let's get my private school education processed. 0:38:24.239 --> 0:38:29.040 I'm just becuse I went to me the house and 0:38:29.040 --> 0:38:30.440 I said, oh, you're doing just. 0:38:30.440 --> 0:38:33.640 Mine And I'm really proud of her. What shout out 0:38:33.680 --> 0:38:36.719 to my sister. I love her so much. That's my 0:38:36.880 --> 0:38:41.680 big sister. That girl didn't really like ooh she she 0:38:41.719 --> 0:38:43.920 didn't kick some doors in, she didn't been through it. 0:38:44.120 --> 0:38:50.480 She's so powerful, like so resilient, just bold, brave, brilliant, brilliant, 0:38:50.520 --> 0:38:53.640 remarkable woman who just like got the biggest heart, the 0:38:53.719 --> 0:38:58.440 kindest heart, beautiful mother and wife and just her husband, 0:38:58.600 --> 0:39:01.479 like the fact that she holds him. They chose each other. 0:39:01.640 --> 0:39:07.280 It's just it's really it's powerful. It's powerful, revolutionary black woman, 0:39:07.480 --> 0:39:09.719 just an iconic woman who I love so much and 0:39:09.760 --> 0:39:13.160 I'm so thankful for. So I'm so happy. And I 0:39:13.520 --> 0:39:15.839 did text you Amena about a spot date, So hit 0:39:15.880 --> 0:39:18.920 me backgirl, Let's go to the spot you real be 0:39:19.360 --> 0:39:21.200 in any way. So I'm glad you know her too. 0:39:21.280 --> 0:39:23.160 That's super cute. Yeah, I love that. 0:39:24.040 --> 0:39:26.319 Yeah, she runs the black group, the Black parent group. 0:39:27.520 --> 0:39:33.279 She was getting gathering us together all the blacks need 0:39:33.360 --> 0:39:33.880 to raise. 0:39:33.760 --> 0:39:36.759 Money for black children. Yeah, she's good. We're having our 0:39:36.800 --> 0:39:43.400 own black nutcracker to white parents, put something together, you know, 0:39:43.440 --> 0:39:45.200 and it's always and it's always wonderful. 0:39:45.680 --> 0:39:47.680 So yeah, I love that you said that, and I'm glad. 0:39:47.719 --> 0:39:50.239 That's the first thing I said. That's what activates me, 0:39:50.920 --> 0:39:57.200 you know, that sisterhood, being inspired by the women around me, cannabis, 0:39:57.239 --> 0:40:01.279 you know, like taking luxurious bad as, you know, just 0:40:02.000 --> 0:40:09.720 taking deep breaths, like if I just take a second. 0:40:07.719 --> 0:40:16.560 Mm no, that's I'm ready. But life just being here 0:40:16.719 --> 0:40:19.520 being a black woman at this time? Are you kidding me? 0:40:19.719 --> 0:40:23.480 Are y' all kidding me? Not going on at this time? 0:40:24.680 --> 0:40:27.239 I feel like, Okay, we I think we did choose this, 0:40:27.400 --> 0:40:30.479 and like we're showing up like we write on time 0:40:30.520 --> 0:40:34.640 in our ministries. And so I'm I'm just inspired af 0:40:34.840 --> 0:40:36.799 you know, the new album this is E and k 0:40:36.920 --> 0:40:40.440 ten that girl gonna be the big forty. 0:40:40.560 --> 0:40:46.680 That's big. I can't even know what does forty mean 0:40:46.760 --> 0:40:48.600 to me? Let me take a ship, take a sip. 0:40:49.680 --> 0:40:52.759 I'm just curious because I'm nearing I'll be nearing there 0:40:52.840 --> 0:40:59.280 soon enough. And and like if I for me personally, 0:40:59.320 --> 0:41:02.880 like my age, I've let it haunt me at times, 0:41:02.960 --> 0:41:04.840 but for the most part, I kind of let it roll, 0:41:05.200 --> 0:41:08.560 just roll off my back. You know. I just like 0:41:08.600 --> 0:41:10.920 I am the age that I feel that I am, 0:41:11.080 --> 0:41:14.320 you know, instead of like I am that age right, which. 0:41:14.160 --> 0:41:15.520 Sometimes I am sometimes bitch. 0:41:15.680 --> 0:41:18.640 Sometimes I'm one hundred and four years old, okay, and 0:41:18.680 --> 0:41:21.160 sometimes I'm twenty one yeah. 0:41:21.160 --> 0:41:24.120 Then sometimes I'm seven yeah in that, and then sometimes 0:41:24.160 --> 0:41:28.200 I'm in my thirties exactly. It just depends. It's all okay, 0:41:28.600 --> 0:41:28.839 you know. 0:41:29.120 --> 0:41:33.160 And so I'm just always curious people's relationship with age 0:41:33.200 --> 0:41:36.360 because I feel like, you know, when we're in our twenties, 0:41:36.800 --> 0:41:39.120 our thirties feels like the year like those are the 0:41:39.200 --> 0:41:41.320 years like we we finally get our shit together, like 0:41:41.360 --> 0:41:42.000 we're supposed to have. 0:41:42.000 --> 0:41:42.479 It all together. 0:41:42.560 --> 0:41:45.359 And then the gag is that you get to your 0:41:45.360 --> 0:41:47.879 thirties and you be like, damn, nobody got their shit together. 0:41:47.920 --> 0:41:49.200 They're all figuring it out. 0:41:49.640 --> 0:41:51.520 And you get to your forties and there's like it 0:41:51.600 --> 0:41:54.239 seems like there's a sort of surrender, but there is 0:41:54.280 --> 0:41:56.279 sort of still like this underlining of. 0:41:56.280 --> 0:41:58.080 Like then you really get your shit together. 0:41:58.640 --> 0:42:00.520 There's still like that. I feel like there's still that 0:42:00.760 --> 0:42:03.239 energy there, but then probably I'm going to get there 0:42:03.239 --> 0:42:05.000 and be like, oh no. And then the gag is 0:42:05.040 --> 0:42:08.840 that in life, like we're just constantly in process. 0:42:08.920 --> 0:42:09.520 In process. 0:42:10.200 --> 0:42:13.400 Yeah, there is no like destiny, no final destination. 0:42:14.680 --> 0:42:16.080 You have to find. 0:42:15.800 --> 0:42:19.160 Peace and happiness exactly where you're at. Yeah, yeah, I 0:42:19.200 --> 0:42:25.719 was thinking that too, first time high, let's at this 0:42:25.760 --> 0:42:29.600 moment we needed there. But I was just thinking about, 0:42:30.000 --> 0:42:33.360 uh wait, we were talking about age eight, and you 0:42:33.400 --> 0:42:36.759 were talking about earlier how you grew up in New 0:42:36.840 --> 0:42:38.759 Orleans and this is the longest time you've been back 0:42:38.800 --> 0:42:39.360 as an adult. 0:42:39.680 --> 0:42:40.600 And one time I was high. 0:42:40.600 --> 0:42:42.560 I think I was talking to Orlando and I was high, 0:42:42.560 --> 0:42:44.759 and I was like, you know what talking about how 0:42:44.800 --> 0:42:48.799 people always think about like growth and a linear like 0:42:48.800 --> 0:42:50.839 a linear space, and I was like, we really need 0:42:50.840 --> 0:42:53.799 to think about it like a map. So like sometimes 0:42:53.880 --> 0:42:57.000 you'll go back to Pennsylvania twice. Sometimes you need that 0:42:57.080 --> 0:42:59.800 lesson twice Connecticut. You may not ever go back to 0:43:00.080 --> 0:43:03.640 fucking but like it's this like and then sometimes you 0:43:03.640 --> 0:43:05.480 need to journey back to New Orleans to see, like 0:43:05.480 --> 0:43:07.799 what was I doing as a kid, because there's something there, 0:43:07.880 --> 0:43:09.680 Like there's something open there that I still need to 0:43:09.719 --> 0:43:13.759 dig into. But like this relationship is like age and 0:43:13.800 --> 0:43:18.239 where we're supposed to be an expectation. It's like like 0:43:18.920 --> 0:43:22.920 we're there's still like the mind of the I mean 0:43:22.960 --> 0:43:27.480 the developed baby, but like there's this expectation. And that's 0:43:27.480 --> 0:43:29.480 what like breads a lot of anxiety, you know for me, 0:43:29.560 --> 0:43:32.040 like this expectation or like you've had some success and 0:43:32.120 --> 0:43:33.640 I had more success, and then you have to have 0:43:33.760 --> 0:43:36.520 this and like and like and like we talked about 0:43:36.560 --> 0:43:39.560 last week, like your identity to certain things, a certain 0:43:39.760 --> 0:43:42.440 like even as I'm like getting married and I just 0:43:42.520 --> 0:43:44.760 keep saying it out loud because I'm like, damn, I'm married. 0:43:44.840 --> 0:43:47.239 Like I'm married. We were like in bed, like you're 0:43:47.320 --> 0:43:51.399 my husband. But it's like, you know, like maybe because 0:43:51.400 --> 0:43:52.480 I didn't really expect. 0:43:52.160 --> 0:43:54.520 It to happen. Now I'm now I'm relating age. Now 0:43:54.520 --> 0:43:55.600 I'm like, well, bitch, what did you think it was 0:43:55.600 --> 0:43:57.399 gonna happen? Like or like you know what I mean. 0:43:57.520 --> 0:44:01.360 Remember when we had to practicing boyfriends, Like I have 0:44:01.400 --> 0:44:05.759 a boys maybe keep practicing the hut. 0:44:05.920 --> 0:44:08.200 That was hard for you to do, Yeah, because we 0:44:08.239 --> 0:44:10.479 were so we were just not we were not looking 0:44:10.480 --> 0:44:11.640 for relationship girl. 0:44:11.719 --> 0:44:11.879 Yeah. 0:44:12.000 --> 0:44:14.799 I had a fiance from before that, so having a 0:44:14.800 --> 0:44:17.440 boyfriend was like I had to go back to that world. 0:44:17.800 --> 0:44:19.879 And also I was just I was just I had 0:44:20.200 --> 0:44:22.040 shed so much skin. I was in a new space, 0:44:22.680 --> 0:44:25.359 but I was gonna say something you. 0:44:25.320 --> 0:44:31.279 Were going to say something you were talking about, Hi, 0:44:31.760 --> 0:44:32.879 It's gonna come back for you. 0:44:33.239 --> 0:44:35.280 Like that the journey is not linear. 0:44:35.960 --> 0:44:38.239 What I was saying when you were talking about that, 0:44:38.280 --> 0:44:42.200 I was also thinking about how so much of it, too, 0:44:42.239 --> 0:44:46.719 for for women especially, is about our bodies, because like 0:44:47.200 --> 0:44:51.840 when we're young, we're like, oh, our bodies are always monitored. 0:44:51.840 --> 0:44:54.799 Our bodies are always monitored throughout history. Right when we're young, 0:44:54.840 --> 0:44:58.680 it's like, oh, my god, start a period, she's a 0:44:58.719 --> 0:45:01.400 spring chicken. Okay, now oh she's entering her whole face. 0:45:01.600 --> 0:45:01.759 Oh. 0:45:04.040 --> 0:45:06.239 Then it's like thirties like, oh, now she's gonna start 0:45:06.239 --> 0:45:08.960 making babies. The womb is for the baby. Where the baby? 0:45:09.920 --> 0:45:12.040 And then the forties like, oh sh she ain't gonna 0:45:12.040 --> 0:45:16.440 make no babies. Oh my god, way is that a 0:45:16.440 --> 0:45:16.759 great hair? 0:45:18.960 --> 0:45:21.279 It's I just feel like we are such in like 0:45:21.400 --> 0:45:24.560 not just aware of just the aging process of like 0:45:24.840 --> 0:45:28.160 oh time is moving and like a success, but also 0:45:28.480 --> 0:45:32.479 there's a physical experience that we as women deal with 0:45:32.760 --> 0:45:35.839 that adds to that stress that I think a lot 0:45:35.880 --> 0:45:38.600 of I think most people don't consider, not even women 0:45:38.680 --> 0:45:40.800 that like why am I so stressed about my age? 0:45:40.840 --> 0:45:41.120 Why? 0:45:41.800 --> 0:45:44.839 And so there's like a there's a loving that has 0:45:44.880 --> 0:45:48.040 to happen in your body too for you to feel 0:45:48.080 --> 0:45:50.920 safe in aging. I think as a woman, maybe not 0:45:51.000 --> 0:45:53.959 all women, but I would say like, because we're there's 0:45:53.960 --> 0:45:55.840 so many layers to heart to what it means to 0:45:55.920 --> 0:45:58.960 age as a woman that I think men don't have 0:45:59.000 --> 0:45:59.600 to experience. 0:46:00.120 --> 0:46:01.120 That's true, that's real. 0:46:01.280 --> 0:46:03.160 So that was my That's why I was curious, Like, 0:46:03.160 --> 0:46:07.120 what is your relationship with just aging, Not that you're aging, 0:46:07.120 --> 0:46:08.279 your beautiful queen, but just like. 0:46:08.200 --> 0:46:11.040 Moving forward in your in your age and your number 0:46:11.080 --> 0:46:15.960 and your journey. Right, y'all are just so beautiful and brilliant. 0:46:16.080 --> 0:46:19.719 I love your mindsets and I really love the conversation 0:46:19.800 --> 0:46:23.319 we always have and just you say some real shit. 0:46:23.600 --> 0:46:25.960 I like how you put it in perspective with the map, 0:46:26.040 --> 0:46:26.600 and I like. 0:46:27.719 --> 0:46:33.200 Everything you see that it's beautiful. Yeah, and these conversations 0:46:33.239 --> 0:46:33.920 are important. 0:46:34.120 --> 0:46:36.239 And I mean, shit. 0:46:36.560 --> 0:46:40.279 Forty, I mean it's like, wold, girl, you really made 0:46:40.320 --> 0:46:44.880 it this far. And there's been a lot of self reflection. 0:46:45.280 --> 0:46:46.440 It's been a lot of. 0:46:48.719 --> 0:46:53.440 You know, just celebrating, like certain accomplishments that maybe I 0:46:53.640 --> 0:46:58.000 just might have overlooked or didn't spend enough time, you know, 0:46:59.040 --> 0:47:02.640 just taking more time in between not giving a fuck 0:47:03.920 --> 0:47:07.799 saying no, this is my rate and this is what 0:47:07.920 --> 0:47:19.160 I'm standing on, you know, just doing me and just 0:47:19.320 --> 0:47:24.960 being intentional about me. Because you mentioned the physical evolution 0:47:25.120 --> 0:47:28.239 of it all, I mean, yeah, that's why it just 0:47:28.360 --> 0:47:32.240 really be driving me when I see how little reverence 0:47:32.520 --> 0:47:36.719 society has for women, especially Black women, with all of 0:47:36.760 --> 0:47:41.759 the just multi dimensional like spiritual things that were constantly 0:47:41.840 --> 0:47:43.000 like moving through. 0:47:42.920 --> 0:47:45.400 You know what I mean, like constantly. 0:47:45.480 --> 0:47:49.000 And just coming out still looking good, still fucking it up, 0:47:49.040 --> 0:47:53.480 still getting to the bag, still building families and empires. 0:47:54.120 --> 0:47:57.560 You feel me, still showing up beautifully as the number 0:47:57.560 --> 0:48:00.200 one inspiration for the entire plan it. 0:48:02.360 --> 0:48:03.960 Speak on Speak on It. 0:48:04.719 --> 0:48:08.640 I say all of that to say, I'm just at 0:48:08.680 --> 0:48:13.759 a place now where you know, all these things are 0:48:14.440 --> 0:48:18.960 coming like becoming more clear in regards to do I 0:48:19.040 --> 0:48:21.480 really want to work this hard? Do I really want 0:48:21.520 --> 0:48:25.160 to be this much of my masculine energy? Do you know? 0:48:25.440 --> 0:48:29.480 Like how many motherfucking cities and airplanes and luggages? 0:48:29.560 --> 0:48:32.879 Do I got a path? Like you know, like. 0:48:34.360 --> 0:48:37.040 You just come to that and then you're like, you know, 0:48:37.160 --> 0:48:42.120 I am contemplating motherhood. That's something I've said your song, yeah, 0:48:42.200 --> 0:48:46.919 and so I'm a woman, I'm I'm like, I'm like, dang, girl, 0:48:46.920 --> 0:48:50.719 you really was locked in on your career. Wow, look 0:48:50.760 --> 0:48:52.960 at what you've built. It's a movement. You could go 0:48:53.040 --> 0:49:00.720 to any city and it's a vibe is up, like wow, community, femininity, balance, feeling, health, 0:49:00.760 --> 0:49:07.040 holistic like whoa. But at the same time, like you know, 0:49:08.160 --> 0:49:11.279 Zen and Cush is ten, So what does it look 0:49:11.400 --> 0:49:14.319 like at twenty? You feel me? And so it's just 0:49:14.680 --> 0:49:18.640 all these questions. More journaling, more meditation. I've been in 0:49:18.640 --> 0:49:21.319 the studio, you know, working on the next album, and 0:49:21.360 --> 0:49:26.280 it's definitely much deeper, much more introspective, much less fucks given, 0:49:26.480 --> 0:49:31.520 you know, more pilates classes, my Homegirl, shout out Aquadeva, 0:49:32.040 --> 0:49:36.880 shout out Pretty Girl's Pole two black Woman Dancer, Goddess 0:49:36.880 --> 0:49:38.680 Pole Goddesses in La. 0:49:39.200 --> 0:49:41.000 Running it up, running up the bag. 0:49:41.440 --> 0:49:44.399 I'm gonna just be taking my classes, you know, just 0:49:45.000 --> 0:49:48.920 leaning more into embodiment, just being becoming more comfortable in 0:49:48.920 --> 0:49:53.160 my body and my feminine energy, just like exploring that 0:49:53.200 --> 0:49:55.359 because for me, that's where the magic is, that's where 0:49:55.360 --> 0:49:57.200 the bag is, that's where the money is, that's. 0:49:57.040 --> 0:49:57.839 Where the health is. 0:49:58.360 --> 0:50:01.520 That's where the opportunities are. That's where everything like peace 0:50:01.560 --> 0:50:05.520 and healing in my family is. Like that's just where 0:50:05.520 --> 0:50:10.880 it is. And like, so health is a priority. Maybe 0:50:10.880 --> 0:50:13.759 this is answering your question. Maybe it's not. 0:50:15.080 --> 0:50:18.279 It is, but that's just where I'm at. You feel me. 0:50:18.520 --> 0:50:21.920 I'm just on some Lizzie four point zero. Like I've 0:50:21.920 --> 0:50:24.680 been feeling that way great, Yeah, like a lot. 0:50:24.880 --> 0:50:29.479 Yeah, I've been feeling Yeah, Like the somatic healing needs 0:50:29.520 --> 0:50:32.680 to happen. Like you can do so much logical analyzing 0:50:32.719 --> 0:50:36.200 and thinking, but on the cellular level, if the trauma 0:50:36.320 --> 0:50:39.160 or whatever it is is living in your body, it 0:50:39.200 --> 0:50:40.040 doesn't matter. 0:50:40.080 --> 0:50:41.200 You have to like move it out. 0:50:42.160 --> 0:50:42.720 That's deep. 0:50:43.320 --> 0:50:45.160 Move it out, Okay, And then let me say this, 0:50:45.160 --> 0:50:46.360 because you made me think it is. I want to 0:50:46.360 --> 0:50:50.840 shout out my homegirl with my girl, Sharan Sharon Nicole. 0:50:51.760 --> 0:50:56.160 She in the Bay, not far from Napa Valley. But 0:50:56.760 --> 0:51:01.360 when I tell you, she gives the most unbelievably mind 0:51:01.440 --> 0:51:04.560 blowing scalp massages, herbal rinses. 0:51:05.120 --> 0:51:11.200 She's a natural hairstylist, and she just it's like a 0:51:11.280 --> 0:51:12.719 birthday gift to yourself. 0:51:13.560 --> 0:51:19.760 The herbs is natural and my homegirl in Atlanta, Gabrielle Gabby. 0:51:19.880 --> 0:51:23.880 She has a hair company called in Love. But you 0:51:24.000 --> 0:51:25.759 know how we look at a lot of these hair 0:51:25.800 --> 0:51:29.759 products on the shelves. Her packaging is just as beautiful 0:51:30.000 --> 0:51:33.440 and as black woman owned. And so I say that 0:51:33.640 --> 0:51:37.640 I think about those women because the power of loving 0:51:37.719 --> 0:51:41.600 on our hair, the power of massage and body work 0:51:41.640 --> 0:51:46.640 and releasing tension. We overthink shit. We're constantly like coloring 0:51:46.680 --> 0:51:49.680 our hair or doing different things, cutting it, sleeping on it, 0:51:49.760 --> 0:51:52.600 falling asleep without the scarf, like you feel me like, 0:51:53.480 --> 0:51:55.880 And so that's an important ritual and that's something that 0:51:55.920 --> 0:51:59.400 I'm getting back more into just loving my natural hair 0:51:59.600 --> 0:52:04.400 more and allowing my sisters that are like gifted in 0:52:04.440 --> 0:52:09.000 that department to bless me, to activate me, to like 0:52:09.120 --> 0:52:12.480 make that time. So I've just been leaning more into 0:52:12.680 --> 0:52:17.520 my homegirls that do massage, that do reiki, the pole dancing, 0:52:17.680 --> 0:52:20.880 Like we have a community of women and brothers that 0:52:21.520 --> 0:52:25.200 are doing this work. And so yeah, that's that's what 0:52:25.320 --> 0:52:28.120 forty is for me, just like allowing myself to like 0:52:28.280 --> 0:52:31.879 kind of fall back and surrender into the love, into 0:52:31.960 --> 0:52:34.759 the healing, into everything that I've been cultivating for the 0:52:34.840 --> 0:52:38.840 last ten years, for the last twenty years and everything 0:52:38.880 --> 0:52:43.160 that I've been pouring into the people, just allowing it 0:52:43.200 --> 0:52:44.160 to kind. 0:52:43.920 --> 0:52:49.600 Of follow on you bless you. Yeah, I know. Yeah. 0:52:49.640 --> 0:52:54.280 Anyway, well, happy almost birthday. 0:52:54.360 --> 0:52:56.880 It's not until July, very end of July. 0:52:57.200 --> 0:52:57.759 I'm a Leah. 0:52:58.200 --> 0:53:02.200 I love Aleah. Y'all celebrate already is January. 0:53:02.239 --> 0:53:04.920 My birthday is coming, guys, just the case I need 0:53:04.920 --> 0:53:07.000 to let you know the way. 0:53:07.920 --> 0:53:11.160 But it shut out to at least turning forty. It's like, no, 0:53:11.280 --> 0:53:12.360 I was on three as. 0:53:12.200 --> 0:53:15.200 It's a whole like movement because like, yeah, you have 0:53:15.320 --> 0:53:17.880 all year to reflect on it too, Like it's just 0:53:17.920 --> 0:53:21.359 like after how you want to feel. Yeah, it's a 0:53:21.680 --> 0:53:24.080 it's a pivotal Maybe that's what I need to do 0:53:24.120 --> 0:53:25.959 more of because you know, I get so anxious around 0:53:26.000 --> 0:53:29.120 my birthday. I turn into like a fucking psychopath. Maybe 0:53:29.160 --> 0:53:32.239 I need to start thinking about my birthday earlier so 0:53:32.280 --> 0:53:36.160 that when it comes it's not so overwhelming because you 0:53:36.239 --> 0:53:37.000 start processing. 0:53:38.440 --> 0:53:40.440 Yeah, maybe the process this. 0:53:40.680 --> 0:53:45.160 Year now it's more vital than you right, you know, 0:53:45.280 --> 0:53:48.600 your celebration of life, because like look around, there's a 0:53:48.640 --> 0:53:51.160 lot going on out here, and so it's like, yeah, 0:53:51.280 --> 0:53:55.000 we let's take advantage of these opportunities to celebrate our lives, 0:53:55.320 --> 0:53:58.719 celebrate the small winds, but also like your birthday, like 0:53:58.880 --> 0:54:01.759 that's deserving of a little bit more time, a little 0:54:01.800 --> 0:54:05.080 bit more plan and execution and running it out. 0:54:05.160 --> 0:54:08.400 This is a great high thought. This is the weed 0:54:08.680 --> 0:54:14.680 spoke to me. Thank you looking for early. Yeah, it's 0:54:14.680 --> 0:54:16.840 gonna be better. You're gonna like it more. You're not 0:54:16.840 --> 0:54:20.919 gonna to go in a dark hole. Okay, I love that. Well. 0:54:21.160 --> 0:54:24.839 As Lizzie Jeff was discussing and possible like the motherhood 0:54:24.960 --> 0:54:25.760 and what's next? 0:54:27.000 --> 0:54:30.439 Like are you dating? What is your what are you doing? 0:54:30.680 --> 0:54:31.440 What are you doing over there? 0:54:31.640 --> 0:54:35.880 What you're doing theious issue you're dating? 0:54:35.880 --> 0:54:39.920 Are you gonna at? What is your ideal relationship with? 0:54:40.040 --> 0:54:43.520 Like what does your ideal lover look? Like, I'm just curious. 0:54:43.960 --> 0:54:46.120 What is it that you know that you got over there? 0:54:46.280 --> 0:54:47.640 Are you manifesting? 0:54:47.800 --> 0:54:51.520 I wanted to love that. 0:54:52.400 --> 0:54:53.560 Thank you. That's really sweet. 0:54:53.640 --> 0:54:57.719 That's a good question, especially now like I feel like 0:54:57.800 --> 0:54:58.520 getting back to. 0:54:58.680 --> 0:55:00.640 L A and being on my journey. 0:55:00.680 --> 0:55:05.320 I've been I've been processing everything you know, and like, okay, 0:55:05.360 --> 0:55:10.880 so what's next? And yeah, love, like I'm open to it. 0:55:11.680 --> 0:55:17.239 I'm I'm not currently in a serious situation. I may 0:55:17.360 --> 0:55:19.719 have been in the past, but right now I'm just 0:55:20.120 --> 0:55:21.240 I've been on a journey. 0:55:22.360 --> 0:55:25.360 I've just been like exploring. 0:55:24.760 --> 0:55:27.440 Me more, just seeing what I like, you feel me, 0:55:27.560 --> 0:55:30.719 seeing what kind of things I love, how I. 0:55:30.680 --> 0:55:31.520 Want to be treated. 0:55:31.560 --> 0:55:32.879 So I can get very clear in. 0:55:32.880 --> 0:55:34.640 That you have a physical type. 0:55:34.760 --> 0:55:38.040 But it's okay, a physical type. You know what I 0:55:38.160 --> 0:55:40.360 like my strong I like my strong brothers. 0:55:40.400 --> 0:55:44.520 What white man not the drink. 0:55:46.760 --> 0:55:54.160 European, not of America white. 0:55:56.680 --> 0:56:00.520 You're recking, Lizzie Blush. I want to know you know 0:56:00.600 --> 0:56:01.040 what my. 0:56:01.120 --> 0:56:04.200 Type is, the strong brother. 0:56:06.040 --> 0:56:08.200 Black? Revolutionary. 0:56:08.680 --> 0:56:12.520 Wait, speaking of revolutionary, have y'all seen Battle after Battle? 0:56:12.800 --> 0:56:15.600 Bad? One battle after another? No, finally watched the other night. 0:56:15.719 --> 0:56:20.200 Sorry, evolutionists, that's why. 0:56:19.880 --> 0:56:22.960 We watched Battle after Battle. Yeah, with Tianna Taylor. She's 0:56:23.000 --> 0:56:27.120 not mad for an Oscar to any Leonardo DiCaprio. Yeah, 0:56:27.680 --> 0:56:32.040 amazing channels it on I think I watched it on. 0:56:33.680 --> 0:56:38.799 That Amazon. I bought it on Amazon. But anyway, sorry, 0:56:38.800 --> 0:56:40.680 I didn't mean to know. I was just thinking. I 0:56:40.719 --> 0:56:43.759 was just thinking about revolutionary and because she was a 0:56:43.800 --> 0:56:47.320 black woman dating Leonardo DiCaprio, who was this like abolitionist 0:56:47.400 --> 0:56:50.440 and just like down for the cause. Like he was 0:56:50.480 --> 0:56:52.640 a white man down for the cause. So are we 0:56:52.680 --> 0:56:54.000 dating white men down for the cause? 0:56:54.080 --> 0:56:55.319 Is that is he considered a brother? 0:56:55.719 --> 0:56:57.360 You are such a good question. 0:56:57.480 --> 0:57:02.399 As weltrator, we always need one Leonardo. 0:57:02.520 --> 0:57:05.239 I mean not because Leonardo is very disappointing at this 0:57:05.239 --> 0:57:06.960 point in the world. I thought he was for the 0:57:07.080 --> 0:57:09.360 environment and the people, but actually he's for Jeff Bezos. 0:57:09.760 --> 0:57:11.960 Really, what are you talking about? 0:57:12.520 --> 0:57:14.800 Leonardo is like hanging out with Jeff Bezos all the 0:57:14.800 --> 0:57:17.840 time on his boats and ship, and he was like 0:57:18.000 --> 0:57:22.520 he was like an environmentalist. He was like his whole 0:57:22.560 --> 0:57:24.040 young life isn't just all fake. 0:57:24.160 --> 0:57:27.919 He's infiltrating consciousness. 0:57:27.960 --> 0:57:31.240 I'm hoping no, he's drunk and hanging out with models. 0:57:31.480 --> 0:57:34.760 That's deep, that's deep his faces. Leonard, I love him, 0:57:35.360 --> 0:57:37.800 was environmentalist. He was even in that movie recently that 0:57:37.920 --> 0:57:39.560 was about the government being stupid. 0:57:39.840 --> 0:57:42.680 This movie right now is about that the government being stupid. 0:57:42.880 --> 0:57:45.400 So he's inflictating guys. He's just trying to get into 0:57:46.000 --> 0:57:49.000 Bezos mind. I like the Yin Yang. There was some 0:57:49.040 --> 0:57:50.760 weird ship going on. I mean not weird ship. 0:57:50.760 --> 0:57:52.880 There was like this like the under like the good 0:57:52.920 --> 0:57:55.640 old boy Club, like they explore, like the weird white 0:57:56.400 --> 0:57:59.640 fucking members only club. It was called like the Christmas 0:57:59.680 --> 0:58:03.400 Clan or some ship like that, you know, Christmas Adventure Club. 0:58:03.720 --> 0:58:04.040 It was the. 0:58:04.120 --> 0:58:06.680 Christmas Adventure Club, that's what they called it. And they 0:58:06.720 --> 0:58:10.160 each had had like Christmas names like Patrick Kringle. 0:58:10.360 --> 0:58:13.760 That's crazy. And at the end in the movie it's 0:58:13.840 --> 0:58:15.320 white anyway, it's dark. 0:58:16.160 --> 0:58:17.840 I mean, I don't want to know the secret they have. 0:58:18.480 --> 0:58:20.760 I'm like, wow, you know, I knew they had those, 0:58:20.840 --> 0:58:23.200 but seeing it play out with these old white men 0:58:23.280 --> 0:58:25.720 on screen that they were doing really good acting, I 0:58:25.760 --> 0:58:28.560 was like, this is too close to real. No, it is, 0:58:28.720 --> 0:58:32.480 it's happening. They actually might be in it. They're playing themselves. 0:58:32.560 --> 0:58:40.479 I don't know anyway, Oh my goodness, it's so deep revolutionary. 0:58:37.360 --> 0:58:43.160 Revolution handsome strong, you know, in his masculine energy, loves 0:58:43.160 --> 0:58:46.120 taking care of shit, loves making things happen, love seeing 0:58:46.160 --> 0:58:49.720 me win. Oh, his favorite pastime is putting me in 0:58:49.800 --> 0:58:54.400 position to thrive. Get to a bag strong, beautiful healing 0:58:54.480 --> 0:58:58.680 medicinal hands who doesn't mind getting being up at three 0:58:58.720 --> 0:59:03.120 a m brewing some Herbaldmiana maka t with a little 0:59:03.120 --> 0:59:06.160 bit of blue lotus you feel me and a dash 0:59:06.200 --> 0:59:10.480 of manooka, honey, somebody that just understands my work and 0:59:10.640 --> 0:59:14.200 who I am and can hold space for me, just 0:59:14.240 --> 0:59:16.640 like I'm able to hold space for whatever I hold 0:59:16.640 --> 0:59:20.040 space for. But somebody that's just going to match that energy. 0:59:20.240 --> 0:59:26.160 And you know, just you know, all of that ship, 0:59:26.240 --> 0:59:28.480 all that fly ship, that's what I'm calling in. I mean, 0:59:30.240 --> 0:59:32.600 you know, I just like it a certain way. My 0:59:32.720 --> 0:59:35.040 venus is in virgo. So I think that's like a 0:59:35.880 --> 0:59:36.320 So does. 0:59:36.160 --> 0:59:42.560 That mean like you are you know what well you general? 0:59:43.000 --> 0:59:44.640 I sounded like that sounded. 0:59:45.040 --> 0:59:48.600 I feel like it's exactly exactly exactly. 0:59:49.280 --> 0:59:49.760 Yeah. 0:59:50.880 --> 0:59:53.960 See, I'm open, I'm believing I'm putting all that energy 0:59:54.000 --> 0:59:54.440 towards you. 0:59:54.640 --> 0:59:57.120 Thank you the way I feel good about it, I'm like, 0:59:57.320 --> 0:59:59.240 I'm doing me and I'm loving. 0:59:58.920 --> 1:00:01.600 It, and there's no way I'm not going to attract it. 1:00:01.880 --> 1:00:05.760 Like yeah, that's how I feel exactly, And thank y'all 1:00:05.760 --> 1:00:06.320 for asking. 1:00:06.480 --> 1:00:08.880 Of course, sometimes you have to say it out loud 1:00:08.880 --> 1:00:13.480 on them airways to your homegirls. Since you remind the universe, heytant, 1:00:13.560 --> 1:00:14.480 this is what I was asked. 1:00:14.520 --> 1:00:18.000 Remember me, Hey, hey, remember that moment it's here. Yeah, 1:00:18.040 --> 1:00:18.280 thank you. 1:00:18.520 --> 1:00:20.640 When you meet that king, you don't be acting stupid, because, 1:00:20.680 --> 1:00:23.600 let me tell you, even a queen be tripping when 1:00:23.600 --> 1:00:26.160 she meets her king, trying to run away, and like 1:00:26.320 --> 1:00:29.600 we do let our traumas ruin relationships after all the 1:00:29.600 --> 1:00:32.600 work we've done and all these things, and you know, 1:00:32.680 --> 1:00:35.280 like there's sometimes like even That's why I said, like 1:00:35.280 --> 1:00:37.120 even the divine feminine needs to go sit in a 1:00:37.160 --> 1:00:40.280 masculine space and observe themselves and see how they show 1:00:40.360 --> 1:00:41.960 up there and see the things that they can learn, 1:00:41.960 --> 1:00:44.480 because we need to learn. Also, we don't just automatically 1:00:44.480 --> 1:00:46.240 know what niggasn't want. 1:00:46.520 --> 1:00:48.360 So where's a masculine space we can go? 1:00:48.480 --> 1:00:50.240 Like what comes to mind when you say that? 1:00:50.760 --> 1:00:53.280 You know what? Okay, let me tell you guys, Okay something. 1:00:54.280 --> 1:00:56.840 So yesterday I was were looking at reels and you know, 1:00:56.840 --> 1:00:58.680 they're always feeding a shit that doesn't belong to you. 1:00:59.320 --> 1:01:02.040 And there's this black eye and he's like on camera 1:01:02.080 --> 1:01:04.720 and he's like, yo, I want to show you what 1:01:04.800 --> 1:01:06.560 happens when I cut my nails in front of my 1:01:06.640 --> 1:01:09.920 TI girlfriend. And like the caption is like I have 1:01:09.960 --> 1:01:11.200 a TI girlfriend or something. 1:01:11.280 --> 1:01:11.960 It's a black guy. 1:01:12.120 --> 1:01:16.440 Okay, So like generally, you know, like I just like 1:01:16.560 --> 1:01:21.560 I really dislike self hating black man who like just 1:01:21.640 --> 1:01:25.840 have to like be just you know. So he starts 1:01:25.840 --> 1:01:26.880 cutting his nails and. 1:01:26.760 --> 1:01:29.800 She's like, babe, what are you doing. 1:01:29.840 --> 1:01:35.360 And he's like nothing, and she's like, babe, stop. So 1:01:35.400 --> 1:01:37.000 then she comes up, this little TI girl and she 1:01:37.040 --> 1:01:40.160 looks brown. She almost like I don't know if she's blackfishing, 1:01:40.320 --> 1:01:42.840 if she's a brown tie and she's looking like or 1:01:42.840 --> 1:01:44.480 maybe she gets black in her I don't. 1:01:44.360 --> 1:01:47.360 Know, but she's tie. And she's like, stop, that is 1:01:47.440 --> 1:01:51.040 my job. I stop. That is my job. I cut 1:01:51.080 --> 1:01:52.840 your nails or whatever. 1:01:52.920 --> 1:01:56.880 And then he's like shows her the camera and she's like, oh, will. 1:01:56.800 --> 1:02:07.480 You do that? And he's like, I'm gonna start video. 1:02:08.960 --> 1:02:11.760 So then he comes to the camera like guys come 1:02:11.800 --> 1:02:13.680 to Thailand like they take care of you. 1:02:13.760 --> 1:02:16.600 So then I'm like he's in Thailand, Like he's not. 1:02:16.720 --> 1:02:18.840 He's not in America with the TI girl. He's actually 1:02:19.360 --> 1:02:20.040 broadcast and. 1:02:20.040 --> 1:02:22.920 You want to Soway started looking through his content and 1:02:22.960 --> 1:02:27.280 saw like girls, it's Carter Nows and that's traveling. And 1:02:27.280 --> 1:02:29.440 then it's like I found that you probably this like 1:02:29.520 --> 1:02:31.600 I saw the tie halle Berry and she has like 1:02:31.640 --> 1:02:32.520 a short haircut. 1:02:32.600 --> 1:02:34.920 She's like sick. So you know, he got like the 1:02:34.960 --> 1:02:39.080 blackest TI whatever. So I was reading they Berry, Yeah, 1:02:39.080 --> 1:02:39.480 that's it. 1:02:39.880 --> 1:02:42.560 He's like his whole page. She's got a viral over there. 1:02:42.600 --> 1:02:45.240 It looks like he's trying to get on. He's like 1:02:45.320 --> 1:02:47.160 kind of corny in America. So he went over there. 1:02:47.240 --> 1:02:50.720 She is followers. She's like, I'm gonna like so you know. 1:02:50.880 --> 1:02:53.640 But after like getting past the fact that that was 1:02:53.760 --> 1:02:55.880 super annoying, and I was reading the comments and they're like, 1:02:56.240 --> 1:02:58.520 you don't have you could just play your partner without 1:02:58.560 --> 1:03:01.280 having a fetish size and the hiring right, and he 1:03:01.400 --> 1:03:02.560 was like I can see him in the going back 1:03:02.600 --> 1:03:04.520 and forth, like a lot of nice guys wouldn't say that, 1:03:04.640 --> 1:03:06.640 Like she's like, I'm black and I do this. But then, 1:03:06.880 --> 1:03:09.040 like when I got past my annoyance of the whole thing, 1:03:09.600 --> 1:03:14.240 I was like, I don't be cutting nobody's fucking nails. 1:03:15.560 --> 1:03:21.640 I don't know does Orlando cut you? 1:03:22.000 --> 1:03:24.400 And then I went to this whole internal battle about 1:03:24.440 --> 1:03:30.040 like my femininity and like, no, baby is another bits 1:03:30.040 --> 1:03:32.600 gonna go suit my man? Because not for I haven't 1:03:32.640 --> 1:03:35.440 been trained to be like as subservient as because I 1:03:35.760 --> 1:03:38.880 know that there's other cultures that if Orlando leaves you 1:03:38.920 --> 1:03:41.480 for a bitch clipping toenails, then he was never your man. 1:03:41.600 --> 1:03:44.520 Okay, let me tell you right now. I literally had 1:03:44.680 --> 1:03:47.640 like I was just like, no, am I trigger? 1:03:48.120 --> 1:03:50.440 But I think it's I think observing your relationship with 1:03:51.600 --> 1:03:54.680 uh submission, what you view a submission or what you 1:03:54.760 --> 1:03:58.240 view as like servitude to your partner has been something 1:03:58.280 --> 1:04:00.200 that has come up for you, right because it's not 1:04:00.200 --> 1:04:01.880 something that necessarily you witnessed. 1:04:02.320 --> 1:04:03.520 So it's it's good. 1:04:03.760 --> 1:04:06.440 You're gonna be triggered by ship that is not something 1:04:06.440 --> 1:04:07.760 that you should be triggered by as your friend. 1:04:07.800 --> 1:04:10.240 I'm not gonna allow that. I was like, I gotta 1:04:10.320 --> 1:04:13.600 try to be softer. I gotta be like that was good. 1:04:13.640 --> 1:04:14.840 You're such a good friend. 1:04:17.120 --> 1:04:20.880 Don't do that. I love it. 1:04:21.000 --> 1:04:24.520 I mean what I clipped MS have, I I think 1:04:24.640 --> 1:04:26.720 I have I have cliped Chem's tone. I was only 1:04:26.760 --> 1:04:30.880 because they were growing over his toes with toe so 1:04:30.960 --> 1:04:31.720 it was more of. 1:04:31.720 --> 1:04:35.960 Like what the fuck? Then, like I love my man's toenails. 1:04:35.960 --> 1:04:38.680 It was like, you know, you come in sometimes Nigga's 1:04:38.680 --> 1:04:41.439 been on the market for too long and the woman 1:04:41.480 --> 1:04:43.280 has to come in and just you know, get them 1:04:43.280 --> 1:04:54.480 together up a little bit, just details, but the levels. 1:04:54.640 --> 1:04:57.320 But there's like this, there's this role right, Like there's 1:04:57.360 --> 1:04:59.480 this just like in motherhood, when we came into motherhood, 1:04:59.480 --> 1:05:03.080 there's this is that like this this under this like 1:05:03.360 --> 1:05:05.680 quiet understanding, like suddenly you have to turn into this 1:05:05.720 --> 1:05:08.200 type of person because now the baby, right, and then 1:05:08.240 --> 1:05:10.000 like now I'm a wife, and then like I'm triggered 1:05:10.000 --> 1:05:13.240 because it's bitches cutting tone, He's like kind of tent. 1:05:13.960 --> 1:05:15.840 What could you do? What could you do? That's your 1:05:15.960 --> 1:05:16.919 version of cutting tone? 1:05:17.240 --> 1:05:17.360 Right? 1:05:17.600 --> 1:05:18.120 Exactly? 1:05:18.320 --> 1:05:21.120 What is like exactly like I, you know, I'm loving 1:05:21.200 --> 1:05:23.160 like you know, but maybe I can try harder, but 1:05:23.440 --> 1:05:25.320 like it, what's something that you could do consistently? Do 1:05:25.320 --> 1:05:27.000 you think that you would like you would actually like 1:05:27.080 --> 1:05:33.440 to do because you need to like to okay, perfect mango, 1:05:35.200 --> 1:05:41.800 you know. But I was just like contemplating my servitude 1:05:41.840 --> 1:05:45.480 and my my femininity. And then like now I'm married, 1:05:45.520 --> 1:05:46.760 I'm like, and I do have a really good man. 1:05:46.840 --> 1:05:48.360 He does should be really good and he does like 1:05:48.520 --> 1:05:50.680 baby me sometimes that I need that, And I'm like. 1:05:51.600 --> 1:05:54.080 Do I do that? Like do I have to how 1:05:54.080 --> 1:05:54.760 do I do that? 1:05:55.840 --> 1:05:58.240 Did he come to you and say like, oh, you're 1:05:58.280 --> 1:06:02.160 not being subservient enough they look on the internet. Okay, 1:06:02.160 --> 1:06:04.400 so it doesn't have nothing to do with him or 1:06:04.440 --> 1:06:07.080 what he thought. It was just how it was impacting 1:06:07.120 --> 1:06:08.040 you from seeing it. 1:06:08.680 --> 1:06:11.600 And then I was like so interesting, Like I think 1:06:11.720 --> 1:06:14.440 as black women too, I am so used to seeing 1:06:15.240 --> 1:06:18.720 like anti black rhetoric on the internet from black men, 1:06:19.000 --> 1:06:21.800 and I would like to say that I'm bothered by it, 1:06:21.960 --> 1:06:25.200 but like, obviously I'm bothered by it, and it does 1:06:25.360 --> 1:06:29.400 like it's always really really like deeply hurt my heart 1:06:29.440 --> 1:06:33.040 to see so many and obviously there's black men that 1:06:33.160 --> 1:06:35.480 love black women, but like so many black men who 1:06:35.520 --> 1:06:38.000 are so willing to toss us in the trash like 1:06:38.400 --> 1:06:39.920 they can't do this or like or just like I 1:06:40.000 --> 1:06:42.560 just even reading the comments or just I guess growing 1:06:42.640 --> 1:06:46.400 up in a predominantly white space too, just seeing black 1:06:46.440 --> 1:06:49.800 men experience such deep self hate and not even recognize 1:06:49.800 --> 1:06:53.280 that that's what it is. It like it does it 1:06:53.320 --> 1:06:56.320 annoys the shit out of me, like like upping every. 1:06:56.200 --> 1:06:59.920 You know, it's just I see it the hashtag mixed. 1:06:59.760 --> 1:07:03.560 Kids and like this fucking weird thing that it's like, 1:07:03.600 --> 1:07:07.200 why are like my black husband does is my white 1:07:07.240 --> 1:07:10.640 wife and like it just loved the bitch silently. 1:07:10.240 --> 1:07:11.920 Like you don't have to why you should get a 1:07:11.920 --> 1:07:18.280 white husband. There's a lot of those she knows husband. 1:07:20.320 --> 1:07:23.760 We're saying this out our mouth. It's one thing to think. 1:07:23.640 --> 1:07:26.240 It's the whole other thing to write it in a 1:07:26.320 --> 1:07:30.920 caption because because there's a that's the product of black 1:07:31.040 --> 1:07:33.520 women that haven't felt appreciated and. 1:07:34.080 --> 1:07:36.680 Listen that that's what it is. I get it. There's 1:07:36.680 --> 1:07:41.040 a deficit, literally, girls, you see the. 1:07:41.000 --> 1:07:43.680 Poison that well, my white husband loves my force hair. 1:07:43.960 --> 1:07:46.600 That's a real realize she doesn't or she just like 1:07:46.600 --> 1:07:47.200 I don't know what. 1:07:47.080 --> 1:07:49.040 Forcing hair is because I'm a blonde. 1:07:49.400 --> 1:07:51.000 Oh that's that's too deep. 1:07:51.080 --> 1:07:52.160 But I've seen it. 1:07:52.160 --> 1:07:55.760 You know, and it's I think it's just self hate 1:07:55.800 --> 1:08:00.160 in general, you know, poses like love who you want, know, 1:08:00.360 --> 1:08:01.360 like mantin Luther. 1:08:01.160 --> 1:08:03.480 King said, like, you know, I get it, you know, 1:08:03.560 --> 1:08:05.320 but I'm just like, there's a level of. 1:08:06.920 --> 1:08:08.040 Self accountability. 1:08:08.160 --> 1:08:09.920 Yeah, you don't need to say this to say to 1:08:10.080 --> 1:08:10.880 love your person. 1:08:11.800 --> 1:08:14.760 I see what you mean, But it sounds like you're 1:08:14.800 --> 1:08:20.280 calling You're just calling people back to like loving themselves. 1:08:20.479 --> 1:08:23.840 Yeah, yeah, pretty much, and also just questioning my my, 1:08:25.080 --> 1:08:27.400 my softness and my femininity. 1:08:27.040 --> 1:08:29.960 And girl, you are so soft and beautiful and feminine 1:08:29.960 --> 1:08:34.240 and sexy in confident and you be dancing and swirling 1:08:34.280 --> 1:08:37.040 and you've been jumping on young man and you kissing, 1:08:37.640 --> 1:08:40.280 and you be going to Vegas and doing like surprise 1:08:40.400 --> 1:08:45.759 weddings and wearing sexy ass cancers can be hardcore in Vegas. 1:08:45.920 --> 1:08:48.439 Two people were like, you're assertive, and I was like. 1:08:51.240 --> 1:08:53.600 I would call that just being a woman, being a 1:08:53.720 --> 1:08:57.800 multi dimensional woman, because there's times where you can be 1:08:57.880 --> 1:09:00.680 in your soft feminine sex sees. 1:09:01.040 --> 1:09:03.280 You're why are we not allowed to do percentages? Yes, 1:09:03.400 --> 1:09:05.800 I have to be it though you're not one of 1:09:05.840 --> 1:09:10.880 the times. I'm a bit. I'm a bitma love. It 1:09:10.960 --> 1:09:22.240 was all just about it between okay, any other way. 1:09:22.680 --> 1:09:27.680 See, I wouldn't so take me as I am. Yeah, 1:09:28.000 --> 1:09:30.000 we're allowed to do y'all are hilarious. 1:09:30.479 --> 1:09:32.720 Sorry, I was thinking that too. 1:09:32.840 --> 1:09:33.760 Multi dimensional. 1:09:33.920 --> 1:09:37.200 What would be the percentage of the masculine versus the. 1:09:37.080 --> 1:09:38.400 Fifty fifty group? 1:09:38.760 --> 1:09:42.120 And I think everybody's twenty five percent strong, twenty five 1:09:42.280 --> 1:09:44.000 to masculine. 1:09:44.280 --> 1:09:47.639 Yeah, in different ways that's not bad though. I think 1:09:47.680 --> 1:09:51.120 everybody has a strong twenty five to it's not. 1:09:51.280 --> 1:09:53.880 I think we're all just very driven to either do 1:09:53.960 --> 1:09:58.400 something or share something. 1:09:58.600 --> 1:10:01.599 Sharing it's true or acting. 1:10:01.680 --> 1:10:03.559 Yeah, I mean that's doing, not acting, but like acting 1:10:03.600 --> 1:10:06.000 upon it. But yeah, no, I would agree. 1:10:06.880 --> 1:10:07.200 Okay. 1:10:07.240 --> 1:10:09.760 So I was just telling you. I was like, I 1:10:09.800 --> 1:10:13.799 am an alpha female. Okay, in the feminine space. 1:10:14.080 --> 1:10:14.879 I am alpha. 1:10:15.120 --> 1:10:18.640 Not necessarily in the world as a holistic person, but 1:10:18.720 --> 1:10:21.960 like in alpha space spaces, I I mean, in spaces 1:10:22.120 --> 1:10:25.880 amongst women, I can feel very much like an O. Yes, 1:10:26.560 --> 1:10:28.439 and it's just like natural, it just comes to me. 1:10:28.520 --> 1:10:30.760 It's not about whether it's better or not. It's just 1:10:30.800 --> 1:10:32.840 like I want to make sure what are we doing. 1:10:33.479 --> 1:10:38.639 It's more about like, okay, because everyone has their position period, 1:10:38.880 --> 1:10:40.719 you know what I mean and like, and there needs 1:10:40.720 --> 1:10:41.519 to be more than one leader. 1:10:41.520 --> 1:10:43.000 I don't want it to all be on me, right 1:10:43.080 --> 1:10:47.599 of course for that absolutely, So. 1:10:47.680 --> 1:10:51.360 Your solution base, I am, You're a leader. 1:10:51.160 --> 1:10:53.439 Solution based like, Okay, how are we going to solve 1:10:53.479 --> 1:10:54.080 this problem? 1:10:54.200 --> 1:10:56.840 I'm yes, there's a solution, but there's I can I 1:10:56.880 --> 1:10:59.920 feel like I have this I can just delegate. 1:10:59.720 --> 1:11:04.680 Right, That's good. To know you knows a delegator. Hit 1:11:04.720 --> 1:11:08.640 me up. I'm the projector accordingly to the human Design. 1:11:09.160 --> 1:11:11.680 The person who does my human design readings, who I 1:11:11.760 --> 1:11:15.080 think is like literal like purpose on Earth was to 1:11:15.120 --> 1:11:18.280 come here and specifically read human design. 1:11:18.640 --> 1:11:20.040 For black women's. 1:11:22.320 --> 1:11:24.280 He goes by the name of Infinite Vibes. 1:11:24.320 --> 1:11:27.120 But he's like yo. 1:11:27.479 --> 1:11:28.960 I'm like yo, this is your purpose. 1:11:29.000 --> 1:11:33.120 But anyways, he always tells me like based on my sign, 1:11:33.160 --> 1:11:36.280 he breaks it down and he's like, you need a projector, 1:11:36.360 --> 1:11:38.280 Like the projector is going to come in and they're 1:11:38.280 --> 1:11:39.920 going to take your ideas and they're going to be 1:11:39.920 --> 1:11:41.479 able to execute. 1:11:41.240 --> 1:11:44.160 And like da da da da. And I'm like okay, yeah, projector. 1:11:44.200 --> 1:11:48.240 So I always have I'm always intrigued by projectors because 1:11:48.360 --> 1:11:52.160 it's like, like you said, everybody has a position and 1:11:53.439 --> 1:11:58.479 there's a very it's important that we understand our role 1:11:59.280 --> 1:12:03.320 so that we can all played a position properly, especially 1:12:03.920 --> 1:12:06.080 in revolutionary times like this. 1:12:06.520 --> 1:12:10.479 Everybody has a role. Everyone everyone has a role. Everyone 1:12:10.520 --> 1:12:13.200 has leadership. Like when I say leader, I don't mean 1:12:13.240 --> 1:12:15.320 like I'm the leader, like I know. 1:12:15.200 --> 1:12:15.639 How to lead. 1:12:15.680 --> 1:12:18.960 In the leadership, everyone has different ways that they can 1:12:19.040 --> 1:12:21.160 lead and Yeah, it's just. 1:12:21.880 --> 1:12:28.080 I love that. Yeah, do you hear? I don't know. Sorry, 1:12:28.479 --> 1:12:30.519 you know what I tell you. How we got here. 1:12:31.080 --> 1:12:36.840 It started with a bundle of organic grapes and another bundle. 1:12:36.560 --> 1:12:43.120 Of bone marymer for six. 1:12:43.400 --> 1:12:48.200 Okay, my gosh, so Erica, I think it's time. 1:12:57.520 --> 1:12:59.840 First day two of one you spell out of the 1:12:59.880 --> 1:13:04.200 day fell out? Reversed? Oh wait, no, this one fell out? Okay, whatever, 1:13:04.200 --> 1:13:04.720 it doesn't matter. 1:13:05.240 --> 1:13:08.000 Future planning. Okay, upright, two one's I thought this was 1:13:08.040 --> 1:13:08.559 reversed the. 1:13:08.560 --> 1:13:10.599 Other one this one dropped first, doesn't matter. 1:13:11.360 --> 1:13:17.639 Future planning, progress, decisions, discovery, we were just talking about this. 1:13:18.439 --> 1:13:20.840 The two ones takes the spark of inspiration from the 1:13:20.880 --> 1:13:23.439 Ace of Wands and turns into a clear action plan. 1:13:23.840 --> 1:13:26.080 You went through the discovery phase and know what you 1:13:26.120 --> 1:13:28.360 want to manifest. Now you need to figure out how 1:13:28.840 --> 1:13:32.719 you're exploring your options and carefully plotting out the path ahead, 1:13:32.760 --> 1:13:36.599 accounting accounting for all possibilities and potential challenges. You're open 1:13:36.640 --> 1:13:39.280 to growth and exploring new territories, so long as you 1:13:39.360 --> 1:13:42.320 maintain a level of certainty that your efforts. 1:13:42.240 --> 1:13:43.439 Will work out in the end. 1:13:43.560 --> 1:13:45.639 When the Two of WANs appears in a child reading 1:13:45.960 --> 1:13:48.120 you're not ready to make your move. It is more 1:13:48.160 --> 1:13:51.720 important that you establish a clear plan before preceding. 1:13:51.760 --> 1:13:52.200 The two of. 1:13:52.240 --> 1:13:56.080 Wands is also about discovery, particularly as you step outside 1:13:56.120 --> 1:14:00.160 your comfort zone and explore new worlds and experiences. May 1:14:00.200 --> 1:14:02.439 take courage to set out, but this card gives you 1:14:02.479 --> 1:14:05.080 the confidence of self knowledge. You know what your goal 1:14:05.160 --> 1:14:08.080 is and you're sure if it's an eventful fulfillment. Let 1:14:08.120 --> 1:14:10.479 your intuition and passion guide you as you confirm your 1:14:10.520 --> 1:14:11.480 next steps. 1:14:11.720 --> 1:14:22.759 M that's powerful that there's. 1:14:20.600 --> 1:14:23.160 Been alignment after alignment after alignment. 1:14:24.080 --> 1:14:27.599 I just see, I know, I see how the spark 1:14:27.640 --> 1:14:31.760 of alignment really fucking works because I just see like 1:14:31.840 --> 1:14:35.240 when it's when you've been in alignment with an energy 1:14:35.360 --> 1:14:37.200 or someone for a really long time and then there's 1:14:37.200 --> 1:14:39.559 like a break in the alignment. I can I can 1:14:39.720 --> 1:14:44.720 literally see how shit sways and changes, and then when 1:14:44.760 --> 1:14:48.280 you respark that alignment, how things like it literally it 1:14:48.400 --> 1:14:49.480 just keeps moving. 1:14:49.200 --> 1:14:54.120 Forward and forward or or recedes. So we have more 1:14:54.160 --> 1:14:56.200 power than we think we do. We do. 1:14:56.760 --> 1:14:59.200 And they would say, like where you know energy goes 1:14:59.360 --> 1:15:02.599 or energy flows those where energy goes, And of course, 1:15:02.640 --> 1:15:04.360 I mean, like that's such a basic saying, but this, 1:15:04.800 --> 1:15:05.400 that's the truth? 1:15:05.439 --> 1:15:07.800 Period? Is it really so? 1:15:08.360 --> 1:15:08.599 Okay? 1:15:08.640 --> 1:15:11.639 You be listening to Abraham Higgs and Louisa I listened 1:15:11.640 --> 1:15:12.559 to on my walks. 1:15:12.840 --> 1:15:16.960 That's cute. I rock with her to Oh that's so funny. 1:15:17.560 --> 1:15:22.600 Okay, Yeah, anyways, I fuck with them white girls. 1:15:23.200 --> 1:15:27.200 Sometimes I got to tap into the whites. There's some 1:15:28.040 --> 1:15:30.800 sh yeah, for sure. Intelligent. 1:15:33.280 --> 1:15:35.960 The nine of wands reverse suggests that you're struggling to 1:15:36.040 --> 1:15:38.360 keep working towards your goal. The challenges on your path 1:15:38.400 --> 1:15:42.680 are relentless, pummeling you, and with setback after setback, you 1:15:42.720 --> 1:15:44.839 don't know if you can cope with it anymore. Maybe 1:15:44.960 --> 1:15:47.120 ready to give up. Just know that you are so 1:15:47.160 --> 1:15:51.000 close to completing this challenge. Draw upon your internal resources, 1:15:51.040 --> 1:15:54.559 your resilience, inner courage, positive self talk, and mindset to 1:15:54.640 --> 1:15:57.439 keep you going. You have it in turn this challenging 1:15:57.479 --> 1:16:01.200 situation into a fantastic success, and to help others facing 1:16:01.280 --> 1:16:02.120 similar hurdles. 1:16:02.240 --> 1:16:06.880 Keep fighting. You got this, mm, so keep going. Yeah. 1:16:06.920 --> 1:16:08.599 It could also come up when you feel overcome by 1:16:08.600 --> 1:16:12.360 your responsibilities or lack of support of those around you. 1:16:13.040 --> 1:16:15.760 It seems if life is work and no play, all 1:16:15.760 --> 1:16:16.519 work and no play. 1:16:16.600 --> 1:16:16.840 Hmm. 1:16:17.439 --> 1:16:19.439 If you know this is a temporary setback. Then you 1:16:19.479 --> 1:16:22.080 may just need to push through for now so you 1:16:22.120 --> 1:16:23.240 can get to the finish line. 1:16:23.960 --> 1:16:25.400 Yeah, I appreciate you saying that. 1:16:25.560 --> 1:16:29.240 I was really going hard, like for many years, non 1:16:29.320 --> 1:16:32.920 stop touring, doing shows, traveling. I mean, I was making 1:16:33.080 --> 1:16:35.879 everything I saw in my mind. It was coming to fruition. 1:16:36.680 --> 1:16:38.479 And that's when I was like, I took aim in 1:16:38.560 --> 1:16:41.640 and I was like, Okay, Like, dang, girl, You've accomplished 1:16:41.640 --> 1:16:45.519 so many historical things. Yay, go girl, go, But like, 1:16:46.680 --> 1:16:48.880 is that where we're gonna do another ten years? Like 1:16:48.960 --> 1:16:51.519 what does the next ten years look like? How can 1:16:51.560 --> 1:16:54.519 we refine it? You know, like refinement is a theme 1:16:54.520 --> 1:16:57.200 word of mine. This year just doesn't always have to 1:16:57.200 --> 1:17:01.360 be so much about expansion and just be about Yeah, 1:17:01.400 --> 1:17:04.320 it could just be about like, you know, making it 1:17:04.400 --> 1:17:08.640 even more delectable and just like impactful and intentional. 1:17:08.720 --> 1:17:10.280 And so I love that. 1:17:11.000 --> 1:17:15.000 And I've been more mindful of like the team and 1:17:15.160 --> 1:17:19.360 certain people, you know, putting in a position you mentioned delegating, 1:17:19.520 --> 1:17:22.120 Like that's very important, like just to be able to 1:17:22.200 --> 1:17:27.920 delegate and release, like lighten the burden and be more 1:17:28.120 --> 1:17:32.280 organized and strategic. So even with you know, some of 1:17:32.320 --> 1:17:35.720 my events and stuff like that, just giving myself like 1:17:35.920 --> 1:17:40.240 nine months a year to really prepare, you know, and plan, 1:17:40.439 --> 1:17:43.840 and some things will happen spontaneously. And I'm always open 1:17:43.840 --> 1:17:49.120 to the blessings, the unexpected blessings. But I appreciate that 1:17:49.280 --> 1:17:54.920 card because I've been giving myself more space to just relax, 1:17:55.040 --> 1:17:57.559 to chill, to make some tea, to just listen to 1:17:57.600 --> 1:17:59.760 some music, to like shake my ass, to do some 1:18:00.080 --> 1:18:03.400 her work, to you know, just smoke a little something, listen, 1:18:03.600 --> 1:18:06.920 you know, and it's been working out for me. So 1:18:07.040 --> 1:18:10.559 I'm just calling in more of that, and I'm gonna 1:18:10.600 --> 1:18:16.519 still have get my work done. But you know, Tricia Hersey, 1:18:16.560 --> 1:18:18.599 I'm sure you guys know about the girl, the lady 1:18:18.640 --> 1:18:22.679 who does in that ministry. Like she's always talking about 1:18:22.720 --> 1:18:26.320 how black women taking a nap is such a revolutionary act, 1:18:26.479 --> 1:18:28.559 and I really agree with that. So every time I 1:18:28.640 --> 1:18:30.920 lay down, I'm like, yeah, like fucking I'm gonna take 1:18:30.960 --> 1:18:33.479 this twenty minute nap or I'm gonna just turn my 1:18:33.520 --> 1:18:38.040 phone off for a day. So anyway, yeah, if you 1:18:38.080 --> 1:18:38.680 feel me, you. 1:18:38.640 --> 1:18:42.200 Feel me, I feel you to. 1:18:44.280 --> 1:18:48.280 Y'all are moms on top of that, But what were 1:18:48.280 --> 1:18:51.120 you gonna say, just releasing the need to do all 1:18:51.160 --> 1:18:54.960 the time right to produce, just just like valuing also 1:18:55.040 --> 1:18:58.400 when you're resting and just observing that time too, and 1:18:58.600 --> 1:19:00.840 like without or guilt. 1:19:01.760 --> 1:19:04.120 I want to trust the output and not put so 1:19:04.200 --> 1:19:07.480 much like emphasis on the intensity. 1:19:07.920 --> 1:19:08.559 You know what I mean? 1:19:08.800 --> 1:19:11.000 Like, is the output? Enough is what I'm creating and 1:19:11.000 --> 1:19:14.440 putting out in the world. Enough is using my platform 1:19:14.640 --> 1:19:19.200 to share for good and for love and for education. Enough, 1:19:19.439 --> 1:19:21.559 Like or do I have to do a thousand things 1:19:21.600 --> 1:19:25.400 in order to to create value in my life? And 1:19:25.439 --> 1:19:28.240 what I'm finding is that no, it is enough. Like actually, 1:19:28.280 --> 1:19:31.799 the frequency of love is very powerful in all ways, 1:19:32.360 --> 1:19:36.160 especially in your finances, especially when you're genuine. You see 1:19:36.200 --> 1:19:39.640 people winning because they're leading with that. Like whenever I 1:19:39.640 --> 1:19:42.640 see people coming up that are like damn, how does 1:19:42.680 --> 1:19:46.000 she come up like that? Like that's so crazy. It's like, no, 1:19:46.120 --> 1:19:48.879 it's not. Actually, like you see the shifts and what happened. 1:19:49.560 --> 1:19:54.440 So yeah, I think, like you said, rest is revolutionary 1:19:54.560 --> 1:19:58.240 for black women, and I'm. 1:19:58.120 --> 1:20:02.080 All about it. Let's go back. 1:20:04.479 --> 1:20:06.720 We can do both, okay, but I need to come 1:20:06.720 --> 1:20:09.160 over and just make something really nice. 1:20:09.200 --> 1:20:10.280 What do y'all like to eat? 1:20:10.560 --> 1:20:13.160 Like, what's your if you're like, dang, this is my 1:20:13.520 --> 1:20:15.679 just a meal that I could just have on any 1:20:15.720 --> 1:20:16.439 given day. 1:20:16.920 --> 1:20:20.120 Just I mean, I like myself happy, okay, but I 1:20:20.160 --> 1:20:20.439 love it. 1:20:20.520 --> 1:20:22.360 I do like Italian food, although it doesn't love me. 1:20:22.720 --> 1:20:23.439 Okay, it doesn't. 1:20:24.880 --> 1:20:32.680 Okay, like chicken, okay, I do okay, okay, okay. 1:20:35.160 --> 1:20:38.360 Okay, but I might have to hit a bomb ass steak. 1:20:38.400 --> 1:20:40.519 The other day. I was like, wow, okay steak. 1:20:41.120 --> 1:20:44.599 Okay, But y'all are open to a fully prepared plant based. 1:20:46.280 --> 1:20:46.960 That ain't nothing. 1:20:47.040 --> 1:20:48.599 I was a vegan win. 1:20:48.680 --> 1:20:50.920 Okay, but that's good to just get a feel for, 1:20:51.240 --> 1:20:52.400 like what you like your. 1:20:52.280 --> 1:20:55.320 Palate, I can, I am very much. I love a grain, 1:20:55.479 --> 1:20:57.040 I love some beans, I. 1:20:57.000 --> 1:21:00.800 Love a vegetables. I love it. I don't really love 1:21:01.040 --> 1:21:04.679 fake meat. I'm not with the satans and the tofu. 1:21:06.040 --> 1:21:07.640 But you go with like chickpeas. 1:21:08.600 --> 1:21:11.520 We can patty them up, we can't combine them forces 1:21:12.520 --> 1:21:15.920 a little. Well, as long as my niggas not around, 1:21:15.920 --> 1:21:17.840 because he's definitely allergic to thats okay. 1:21:17.840 --> 1:21:19.679 I'm not even gonna bring nuts into the pictures. 1:21:19.720 --> 1:21:23.040 I mean, if he's not there, then like we don't 1:21:23.040 --> 1:21:28.439 have to buy almost was there one time when I 1:21:28.560 --> 1:21:31.280 when when he almost died. Oh no, yeah, the nuts 1:21:31.320 --> 1:21:34.360 is I didn't realize. I don't I don't have a 1:21:34.400 --> 1:21:36.200 net allergy. I guess I don't know that many people 1:21:36.200 --> 1:21:36.919 with net allergies. 1:21:37.120 --> 1:21:37.719 So when you're. 1:21:37.600 --> 1:21:41.160 Around like it's a constant thing, I'm like, oh yeah, fuck. 1:21:40.960 --> 1:21:41.439 I forgot. 1:21:42.120 --> 1:21:43.720 Okay, you got to think about it. 1:21:43.720 --> 1:21:44.280 Oh I got. 1:21:44.320 --> 1:21:49.200 I was like I got speaking ice cream babe, Like fuck, yeah, 1:21:49.240 --> 1:21:50.080 that's a big one. 1:21:50.200 --> 1:21:52.799 That's a big one in the vegan world because everything 1:21:53.760 --> 1:21:56.800 all the flower but there's there's you know. 1:21:56.920 --> 1:22:01.240 There's a lot, there's yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Anyway, 1:22:01.560 --> 1:22:02.240 thank you. 1:22:03.200 --> 1:22:08.880 This has been oh you know what you know Christopher 1:22:08.920 --> 1:22:13.400 Jones Jones effects, Okay, yeah, we went to erawon last night. 1:22:14.120 --> 1:22:16.479 We went to erawon last night because the one in 1:22:16.520 --> 1:22:18.639 Beverly Hills is open till eleven pm. 1:22:19.000 --> 1:22:23.000 Anyways, night too, you were. 1:22:29.040 --> 1:22:30.639 I was in two as yesterday and I just wanted 1:22:30.640 --> 1:22:32.560 to say the one in Citio City doesn't have the 1:22:32.680 --> 1:22:33.000 Erica Abo. 1:22:34.240 --> 1:22:38.880 What they don't have Did they have the one? I 1:22:38.880 --> 1:22:39.719 don't know, but they. 1:22:41.680 --> 1:22:41.880 West. 1:22:42.840 --> 1:22:43.639 Oh it's a vibe. 1:22:43.920 --> 1:22:46.679 I didn't know it's a vibe. I didn't even offer 1:22:46.760 --> 1:22:49.320 that one. Of course, that's City. 1:22:49.160 --> 1:22:50.800 And that's the name of her new album, so I 1:22:50.800 --> 1:22:54.400 thought that was the genius play the West Side Whimsy. Yeah, 1:22:54.439 --> 1:22:56.439 and you know what, I was very excited when I 1:22:56.479 --> 1:22:59.640 saw Erica do it, like that's mother and I was 1:22:59.640 --> 1:23:02.599 like why, And then when Janey did it, it was 1:23:02.640 --> 1:23:06.920 like yeah, and Janey like she really she from l A. Like, 1:23:07.560 --> 1:23:09.800 so I just see like and Arolinea is a place 1:23:09.840 --> 1:23:12.080 that I do put up to more than I probably should. 1:23:12.120 --> 1:23:18.639 But but I hear people walking by hearing like talking 1:23:18.680 --> 1:23:22.160 about the Jane Smoothie and trying it, like I'm like 1:23:22.400 --> 1:23:24.400 in it, and I be hearing people talk about it 1:23:24.400 --> 1:23:27.559 and like the general consensus has been really popular. So 1:23:27.600 --> 1:23:30.160 I love that for her. But I brought up Aline 1:23:30.200 --> 1:23:33.120 because I was there with Jones and he gave me 1:23:33.520 --> 1:23:36.840 a gift for you. He signed it. He just dropped 1:23:36.840 --> 1:23:39.800 his new book and so it's like a book about 1:23:39.840 --> 1:23:44.479 networking and stuff like that. And I met him Jones, yeah, 1:23:44.520 --> 1:23:45.320 the Jones Effect. 1:23:45.439 --> 1:23:48.960 And I met him randomly. You probably. 1:23:50.400 --> 1:23:55.000 You met him once at Yes, that's a place you 1:23:55.000 --> 1:23:55.679 would meet him. 1:23:56.200 --> 1:23:57.120 But he was. 1:23:57.120 --> 1:24:00.000 So happy when I told him I was coming here, 1:24:00.240 --> 1:24:02.479 and he was like, we go way back, like and 1:24:02.520 --> 1:24:04.200 he signed the book, so I thought that was cute. 1:24:04.200 --> 1:24:07.679 I brought one for you, but he's he's like, Lizzie 1:24:07.720 --> 1:24:08.439 has a book for you. 1:24:08.960 --> 1:24:09.880 Okay, you already know. 1:24:10.280 --> 1:24:13.920 Okay, I thought I was surprising small world. 1:24:14.000 --> 1:24:18.719 AnyWho, Well, thank you for coming through the Good Mom's Cave. 1:24:18.960 --> 1:24:21.120 We always love having you. Thank you. 1:24:21.120 --> 1:24:23.360 You got to do our we have to do our 1:24:23.600 --> 1:24:25.760 vegan dinner night, and we just got to hang and 1:24:25.840 --> 1:24:27.520 do dinner cush collaboration. 1:24:27.720 --> 1:24:28.360 I would love that. 1:24:29.200 --> 1:24:33.599 I would love to, yes, and we can revisit some 1:24:33.680 --> 1:24:37.919 of the stuff we spoke about. But you know, as always, 1:24:38.120 --> 1:24:41.360 I just love y'all and appreciate y'all. And every time 1:24:41.360 --> 1:24:46.280 I look up, you're always becoming more iconic, you know, 1:24:46.680 --> 1:24:50.840 and I love seeing all the different women and men 1:24:51.200 --> 1:24:55.719 that are inspired by you and just your consistency, your growth, 1:24:57.120 --> 1:24:58.040 how free you are. 1:24:58.120 --> 1:24:59.000 It's just beautiful. 1:24:59.280 --> 1:25:03.080 It is like powerful and revolutionary, you know, especially now, 1:25:03.160 --> 1:25:07.720 like just having a platform two beautiful black women that 1:25:07.920 --> 1:25:11.960 love each other, that are family essentially, and you say 1:25:12.000 --> 1:25:13.920 what you want and you bring on the guests that 1:25:13.960 --> 1:25:14.800 you want to bring on. 1:25:15.600 --> 1:25:17.679 It's just I'm just so blessed. 1:25:17.720 --> 1:25:20.439 To be here at this time to witness it because 1:25:20.520 --> 1:25:24.120 y'all are iconic as fuck and I love you, and 1:25:24.240 --> 1:25:26.360 every time I mentioned you, people are just like. 1:25:26.280 --> 1:25:26.840 I love them. 1:25:26.840 --> 1:25:29.719 I love them, I know about them. So it's like, damn, 1:25:29.760 --> 1:25:32.080 you're doing a damn good job. So like, keep up 1:25:32.120 --> 1:25:34.080 the good work. And you know it's only right that 1:25:34.160 --> 1:25:41.920 I just drizzle you in some roads and congratulations on 1:25:41.960 --> 1:25:46.679 your wedding than the pictures iconic. Your man iconic, he's 1:25:46.720 --> 1:25:47.639 I told him earlier. 1:25:47.720 --> 1:25:49.920 He's an example because he is. 1:25:50.520 --> 1:25:53.120 And shout out to you and your relationship and all 1:25:53.160 --> 1:25:55.880 your new content as fire as fuck. I love the 1:25:55.920 --> 1:25:59.000 intention everything you've been doing with that, and I love 1:25:59.080 --> 1:26:02.719 seeing you and your boot online as well. It's very strong, 1:26:02.760 --> 1:26:06.479 as giving black love is giving creativity is. It's just 1:26:06.600 --> 1:26:10.280 giving it all and I love it and I'm so 1:26:10.320 --> 1:26:12.120 happy y'all hit me up and brought me back. 1:26:12.160 --> 1:26:18.040 This is a vibe. Think think any push, well, thank you. 1:26:19.200 --> 1:26:22.479 Where can the people find you? Right? They can find me? 1:26:23.479 --> 1:26:28.679 Where do they find you? In Los Angeles? Right now? 1:26:28.760 --> 1:26:31.360 But I'm at Lizzie Jeff l I z z y 1:26:31.560 --> 1:26:35.879 j E f F on all the platforms and the 1:26:36.000 --> 1:26:39.160 albums in and Cush Volume one is now streaming on 1:26:39.280 --> 1:26:46.120 most platforms. Most platforms A whole nother conversation for another day, 1:26:46.640 --> 1:26:49.920 but it's on most platforms, including band camp, where you 1:26:49.960 --> 1:26:53.280 can support the artistry directly, or you can just hit 1:26:53.360 --> 1:26:56.439 me up email or d M and get a signed 1:26:56.479 --> 1:26:59.160 c D. I know it's so old school, but there 1:26:59.160 --> 1:27:03.719 are people out there that just genuinely love supporting the music, 1:27:03.880 --> 1:27:07.120 and so I do have the CDs available as well. 1:27:07.560 --> 1:27:12.320 New merch coming soon as well. The feminine snapback caps 1:27:12.479 --> 1:27:15.920 are available as well in the Red but Zen and 1:27:16.000 --> 1:27:21.240 Cush for twenty weekend in LA. That's really what we're 1:27:21.240 --> 1:27:24.720 building up to, and so I just appreciate y'all being here. 1:27:24.800 --> 1:27:26.880 We're gonna figure it out. 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That's until I find a well. 1:28:44.840 --> 1:28:47.040 Madem have been known. Art that used to be broken 1:28:47.160 --> 1:28:49.960 tail now got the blues dance and might Beyonce Jisell, 1:28:50.280 --> 1:28:53.480 throat shot Pop and it's coy wearing our voices. Patriarch 1:28:53.560 --> 1:28:54.840 and caut it in the box. 1:28:54.600 --> 1:28:57.280 To what's foils? Women put the pi and powers, So 1:28:57.320 --> 1:28:58.000 what's pointless? 1:28:58.000 --> 1:29:00.479 They want me to be good? So I made bad noise. 1:29:00.760 --> 1:29:03.240 Bad mom, not a bad mom, but a bad mom. 1:29:03.360 --> 1:29:06.360 Ititter's in on for cannabus in her bath, bon walked 1:29:06.360 --> 1:29:09.160 in boscels cap and I blew his cat boss hot dog. 1:29:09.280 --> 1:29:11.760 Now I'm immune to the cat called Herbie and the 1:29:11.840 --> 1:29:13.760 waisted straight to it like a dollar sign. 1:29:13.840 --> 1:29:15.160 Mother, rent the louver when to it. 1:29:15.280 --> 1:29:17.839 It's like a water sign where you're rent the winter essential, 1:29:17.880 --> 1:29:20.240 but when the summertime, I do what doll ain't know 1:29:20.280 --> 1:29:21.479 one that needs to run it by