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Speaker 2: no matter what happens moving forward. Hey everyone, Emily body here.

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Speaker 2: You are listening to a special episode of Hurdle. This

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Speaker 2: is the New York City Marathon recap episode. Oh my goodness,

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Speaker 2: it feels kind of surreal as I sit here thinking

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Speaker 2: not the last time that I will train for and

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Speaker 2: in this reetcap today, I'm going to talk you through

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Speaker 2: Talk to you about how the training went, the highs,

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Speaker 2: the way that I felt, to the present now how

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Speaker 2: everybody loves to ask, the moment you finish something exciting,

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Speaker 2: Why did I want to run the New York City

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Speaker 1: The year to be a New Yorker.

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Speaker 2: You could be on the sideline spectating, you could be running,

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Speaker 2: What an opportunity it is to see so many people,

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Speaker 2: For me, and I've talked about this openly on the show.

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Speaker 2: Between twenty twenty one and twenty twenty two, I really

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Speaker 2: And I feel very lucky that I had the opportunity

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Speaker 2: future app. I'm going to link special code in the

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Speaker 2: do both, Like I was capable of running a certain

441
00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:48,840
Speaker 2: effort or pace, and I was capable of having fun,

442
00:25:49,280 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 2: and having fun was the why, and that was that.

443
00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:57,080
Speaker 2: And it was a little scary to put out my

444
00:25:57,160 --> 00:26:01,240
Speaker 2: big goal into the world and share like where I

445
00:26:01,320 --> 00:26:05,240
Speaker 2: was at, but it felt so right. And I remember

446
00:26:06,000 --> 00:26:09,480
Speaker 2: a long time ago that Ash Welking, who was a

447
00:26:09,640 --> 00:26:12,480
Speaker 2: trainer for Tonal, said to me on the show that

448
00:26:12,560 --> 00:26:14,360
Speaker 2: be careful, that the sword that you use to help

449
00:26:14,400 --> 00:26:17,800
Speaker 2: others isn't the one that you fall on. And so

450
00:26:18,880 --> 00:26:23,040
Speaker 2: I didn't want my vulnerability to be something that could

451
00:26:23,119 --> 00:26:25,119
Speaker 2: hurt me. But I think when you know, you know,

452
00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:28,480
Speaker 2: and it felt right for me to share that big,

453
00:26:28,520 --> 00:26:30,879
Speaker 2: scary goal. It felt right for me to get outside

454
00:26:30,880 --> 00:26:33,640
Speaker 2: of my comfort zone. And candidly, I didn't think that

455
00:26:33,640 --> 00:26:35,640
Speaker 2: that was too far out of the comfort zone at all.

456
00:26:37,880 --> 00:26:41,480
Speaker 2: Dakota Pompey and otherwise known formerly known as Dakota Lynworm

457
00:26:41,480 --> 00:26:43,040
Speaker 2: said to me when we sat down, and I'll link

458
00:26:43,080 --> 00:26:44,679
Speaker 2: this episode in the show notes, but she said to

459
00:26:44,720 --> 00:26:48,000
Speaker 2: me that sometimes being delusional is exactly what you need.

460
00:26:48,359 --> 00:26:50,160
Speaker 2: And I don't think I was really being that delusional

461
00:26:50,200 --> 00:26:52,199
Speaker 2: at all to think that that was within my wheelhouse.

462
00:26:53,600 --> 00:26:57,240
Speaker 2: And so a week leading up to the marathon, super

463
00:26:57,280 --> 00:26:59,840
Speaker 2: crazy here in New York, being someone that works within well,

464
00:26:59,880 --> 00:27:02,720
Speaker 2: no that works within running. I had events, and I

465
00:27:02,760 --> 00:27:06,000
Speaker 2: think the best thing that I have learned in my

466
00:27:06,160 --> 00:27:09,480
Speaker 2: marathoning journey, and something that really worked against me in

467
00:27:09,520 --> 00:27:12,359
Speaker 2: twenty twenty one, was that it's okay to say no.

468
00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:15,120
Speaker 2: In fact, saying no to one thing is saying yes

469
00:27:15,200 --> 00:27:18,480
Speaker 2: to something else. And that week, specifically, saying no was

470
00:27:18,480 --> 00:27:21,360
Speaker 2: saying yes to myself. And so there were so many

471
00:27:21,400 --> 00:27:23,280
Speaker 2: events and I did the best to see so many

472
00:27:23,280 --> 00:27:27,560
Speaker 2: people in town and then also work and I did

473
00:27:27,560 --> 00:27:29,600
Speaker 2: what I needed to do for myself. And I think

474
00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:31,840
Speaker 2: it's challenging sometimes when you have to own your no

475
00:27:32,000 --> 00:27:36,520
Speaker 2: because you feel like you're letting someone else down. But candidly,

476
00:27:36,680 --> 00:27:39,600
Speaker 2: there's nothing worse than letting yourself down. And I wasn't

477
00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:42,760
Speaker 2: willing to do twenty twenty one again. Of course, the

478
00:27:42,800 --> 00:27:45,119
Speaker 2: two events that I hosted were both on Saturday. So

479
00:27:45,160 --> 00:27:47,720
Speaker 2: I did a live show with Shalaine Flanagan on behalf

480
00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:50,399
Speaker 2: of MasterCard at the Expo, and then I had a

481
00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:53,280
Speaker 2: live show at the Brooks Hyperion House with Josh Kerr

482
00:27:53,600 --> 00:27:58,159
Speaker 2: and Shari Hawkins, and that was at five PM. And

483
00:27:58,240 --> 00:28:01,240
Speaker 2: I had an entire strategy for how the day would

484
00:28:01,280 --> 00:28:05,160
Speaker 2: go and how I could minimize stress. And it involved

485
00:28:05,200 --> 00:28:07,080
Speaker 2: like taking a car from one place to the other

486
00:28:07,119 --> 00:28:10,560
Speaker 2: instead of the subway so I didn't have to be overstimulated.

487
00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:14,360
Speaker 2: It involved planning ahead and having friends support me at

488
00:28:14,400 --> 00:28:16,480
Speaker 2: my shows because their support meant a lot to me,

489
00:28:16,520 --> 00:28:19,359
Speaker 2: and it helped me show up and making an effort

490
00:28:19,359 --> 00:28:20,800
Speaker 2: to tell them what I needed.

491
00:28:21,160 --> 00:28:23,040
Speaker 1: So often it is.

492
00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:25,960
Speaker 2: I get into this place where I don't want to

493
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:28,919
Speaker 2: inconvenience anyone, but I know now that the people that

494
00:28:29,000 --> 00:28:31,560
Speaker 2: care about me, asking them to help you or show

495
00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:33,760
Speaker 2: up for you is anything but an inconvenience. In fact,

496
00:28:33,800 --> 00:28:37,240
Speaker 2: you're allowing them to love you. And so I allowed

497
00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:40,640
Speaker 2: my people, the people that I asked were not running

498
00:28:40,640 --> 00:28:43,719
Speaker 2: the marathon on Sunday to show up for me at

499
00:28:43,720 --> 00:28:47,320
Speaker 2: that five pm live show. And then we a few

500
00:28:47,360 --> 00:28:49,120
Speaker 2: of us came back to my place and we ordered

501
00:28:49,200 --> 00:28:51,720
Speaker 2: Uber Eats for dinner, and it was so lovely to

502
00:28:51,880 --> 00:28:57,000
Speaker 2: like feel so seen and heard and supported by my

503
00:28:57,120 --> 00:29:00,719
Speaker 2: friends and like, within the best of my ability do

504
00:29:00,800 --> 00:29:02,800
Speaker 2: the things that I needed to do to show up

505
00:29:02,840 --> 00:29:06,080
Speaker 2: for myself. I got to bed that night maybe by

506
00:29:06,160 --> 00:29:07,680
Speaker 2: like nine fifteen, woke up.

507
00:29:07,640 --> 00:29:08,479
Speaker 1: The following morning.

508
00:29:08,760 --> 00:29:11,400
Speaker 2: It was a little unnerved because it was daylight saving,

509
00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:13,880
Speaker 2: so I woke up at like what would have been

510
00:29:14,160 --> 00:29:16,320
Speaker 2: four fifteen but was three fifteen, and was able to

511
00:29:16,320 --> 00:29:19,080
Speaker 2: get back to sleep for an hour. And then at

512
00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:22,000
Speaker 2: the last minute, the day before the marathon, I was

513
00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:25,400
Speaker 2: originally supposed to take the Midtown bus, but I didn't

514
00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:27,440
Speaker 2: have anyone that I knew that was in the Brooklyn

515
00:29:27,480 --> 00:29:29,680
Speaker 2: area that was also taking the Midtown bus, and I'd

516
00:29:29,680 --> 00:29:32,040
Speaker 2: never taken the Staten Island Ferry, so I made the

517
00:29:32,160 --> 00:29:35,200
Speaker 2: choice to take the Staten Island Ferry. I made the

518
00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:42,080
Speaker 2: biggest novice mistake and maybe of my entire marathon in career,

519
00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:44,600
Speaker 2: and that was that I didn't look into anything and

520
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:46,800
Speaker 2: I brought my checked bag with me on the ferry.

521
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:49,560
Speaker 2: For those of you that may not know, there is

522
00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:52,400
Speaker 2: no bag check at the actual New York City Marathon.

523
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:56,040
Speaker 2: I have run this race five times in person, one

524
00:29:56,440 --> 00:29:59,400
Speaker 2: time virtually. This was my seventh time, and I didn't

525
00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:01,600
Speaker 2: even I I was so busy last that week that

526
00:30:01,640 --> 00:30:03,800
Speaker 2: I didn't even think to look at it. And I

527
00:30:03,840 --> 00:30:05,880
Speaker 2: got there, and the funniest thing was I was writing

528
00:30:05,920 --> 00:30:10,120
Speaker 2: to the race with my best friend Ashley and my

529
00:30:10,160 --> 00:30:15,000
Speaker 2: friend Manny, who congratulations to Manny and his new fiance,

530
00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:19,160
Speaker 2: Manny proposed at mile twenty one of the marathon. Absolutely

531
00:30:19,720 --> 00:30:22,720
Speaker 2: amazing and so happy for them. Manny says to me,

532
00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:25,240
Speaker 2: I'm going to the race and I'm wearing Birkenstocks, and

533
00:30:25,240 --> 00:30:29,560
Speaker 2: he says, are those throwaway Birkenstocks soft flexm And I

534
00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:30,040
Speaker 2: was like, no.

535
00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:33,040
Speaker 1: Like they're going in my checked bag. They were not.

536
00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:34,600
Speaker 1: They were not. No.

537
00:30:35,000 --> 00:30:37,480
Speaker 2: I get to the area and I go to the

538
00:30:37,480 --> 00:30:40,040
Speaker 2: tent and I'm like, hey, where's the checked baggage area.

539
00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:41,680
Speaker 1: This woman looks at me.

540
00:30:42,440 --> 00:30:46,680
Speaker 2: Like I am so foolish, which I was. Again, this

541
00:30:46,760 --> 00:30:50,320
Speaker 2: is all my fault, like I just did not do

542
00:30:50,360 --> 00:30:53,360
Speaker 2: the legwork. And I even volunteered at the expo and

543
00:30:53,760 --> 00:30:57,959
Speaker 2: for NYRR on the day on the Thursday before the marathon,

544
00:30:58,000 --> 00:31:02,240
Speaker 2: on Halloween, and I don't remember anyone saying anything about that.

545
00:31:02,360 --> 00:31:03,120
Speaker 1: Oh my god.

546
00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:05,000
Speaker 2: I felt like such a rookie, like I felt like

547
00:31:05,040 --> 00:31:10,440
Speaker 2: I had made such a mistake, and so I get

548
00:31:10,440 --> 00:31:13,280
Speaker 2: worked up, which I shouldn't be because everything in the

549
00:31:13,280 --> 00:31:15,480
Speaker 2: bag is replaceable. But I had showed up to the

550
00:31:15,480 --> 00:31:19,320
Speaker 2: starting line with two pairs of headphones because I am silly,

551
00:31:19,360 --> 00:31:20,640
Speaker 2: and I was like, well, you're gonna run with one

552
00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:22,520
Speaker 2: pair of headphones, so if you're going to take the

553
00:31:22,520 --> 00:31:24,480
Speaker 2: subway home after, you might want to listen to something

554
00:31:24,480 --> 00:31:27,280
Speaker 2: else and decompress a little bit, so two pairs of headphones.

555
00:31:27,320 --> 00:31:30,200
Speaker 2: I brought a phone charger that just like plugs directly

556
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:31,920
Speaker 2: into your phone, So it was small, but it was

557
00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:35,880
Speaker 2: still like something I brought the birkenstocks. I brought a

558
00:31:35,960 --> 00:31:38,760
Speaker 2: hurdle sweatshirt, a change of leggings, and a new sports bra.

559
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:44,520
Speaker 2: And I walk into the MasterCard tent. I have a

560
00:31:44,560 --> 00:31:47,360
Speaker 2: sticker on my bib. When you work with different sponsors

561
00:31:47,440 --> 00:31:49,080
Speaker 2: or charities, you can get a sticker. Because I did

562
00:31:49,120 --> 00:31:52,400
Speaker 2: the hosting at the expo the day before for a MasterCard,

563
00:31:52,560 --> 00:31:54,440
Speaker 2: I had a master Card sticker on my bib, which

564
00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:56,360
Speaker 2: enabled me to go into a tent that they had

565
00:31:56,400 --> 00:31:59,000
Speaker 2: at the starting village. And it's like a little warmer

566
00:31:59,040 --> 00:32:01,200
Speaker 2: in there. They had their own por to potties and

567
00:32:01,280 --> 00:32:04,239
Speaker 2: some food. And I'm in the MasterCard tent and I

568
00:32:04,280 --> 00:32:06,960
Speaker 2: like feel the tears and I'm like thinking to myself,

569
00:32:07,120 --> 00:32:09,640
Speaker 2: control the controllable, Like this is so not a big deal,

570
00:32:09,640 --> 00:32:12,400
Speaker 2: Like yes, it's a bummer, but it's okay, Like just

571
00:32:12,480 --> 00:32:14,760
Speaker 2: let it go. These are just material things. You have

572
00:32:14,880 --> 00:32:16,880
Speaker 2: your body, you have your heart. You're okay.

573
00:32:17,640 --> 00:32:21,160
Speaker 1: I'm texting with one of the women that works at MasterCard.

574
00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:24,680
Speaker 2: And I had mentioned like, I'm so foolish I came here.

575
00:32:24,800 --> 00:32:27,360
Speaker 2: I just put my birk Stocks in the donation bin.

576
00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:31,720
Speaker 2: Someone's gonna be really lucky. And there's if you've never

577
00:32:31,800 --> 00:32:33,720
Speaker 2: run the New York City Marathon, as you can imagine,

578
00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:36,280
Speaker 2: like having fifty thousand people plus volunteers in one area.

579
00:32:36,680 --> 00:32:39,280
Speaker 2: It is a lot of people, and so the cell

580
00:32:39,280 --> 00:32:44,080
Speaker 2: phone service is not reliable. And I hear back from

581
00:32:44,160 --> 00:32:47,040
Speaker 2: her like moments before we're walking up to the start

582
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:48,560
Speaker 2: and she says, oh my god, where did you put

583
00:32:48,640 --> 00:32:50,960
Speaker 2: the bag? Like I'm so sorry, I'm not there. I'm like,

584
00:32:51,040 --> 00:32:53,280
Speaker 2: it's okay again, I put an d donoation bin, Like

585
00:32:53,320 --> 00:32:56,680
Speaker 2: this is entirely my fault. Moments and I Am not

586
00:32:56,720 --> 00:33:00,480
Speaker 2: even exaggerating. Moments before we begin, she texts me and says,

587
00:33:00,720 --> 00:33:04,120
Speaker 2: we found the bag. I am going to bring it

588
00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:08,960
Speaker 2: to the finish literally, my guardian angel.

589
00:33:09,280 --> 00:33:12,480
Speaker 1: My guardian angel, because I it.

590
00:33:14,120 --> 00:33:17,520
Speaker 2: I one of the things and like why I got

591
00:33:17,560 --> 00:33:22,480
Speaker 2: emotional thinking about this was that I didn't have anyone

592
00:33:22,560 --> 00:33:26,240
Speaker 2: to meet me at the finish Like I didn't plan

593
00:33:26,520 --> 00:33:27,800
Speaker 2: to meet friends there.

594
00:33:28,360 --> 00:33:31,800
Speaker 1: I was just like doing this as a solo mission.

595
00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:34,239
Speaker 2: Like my family didn't come in for the race, and

596
00:33:34,280 --> 00:33:35,560
Speaker 2: I didn't ask any of them too.

597
00:33:35,720 --> 00:33:38,680
Speaker 1: Like this is also on me. But when I thought.

598
00:33:38,440 --> 00:33:41,920
Speaker 2: About the fact that, like I was alone and I

599
00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:43,520
Speaker 2: was going to go to the finish line and I

600
00:33:43,560 --> 00:33:46,080
Speaker 2: was gonna, like have just done this thing, and like

601
00:33:46,120 --> 00:33:48,360
Speaker 2: I needed to rely on myself and I had let

602
00:33:48,440 --> 00:33:52,240
Speaker 2: myself down, and like I just thought about what do

603
00:33:52,360 --> 00:33:54,360
Speaker 2: single people do? What do you expect them to do

604
00:33:54,400 --> 00:33:56,760
Speaker 2: when they can't get their belongings? And I even think

605
00:33:56,800 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 2: that the bag check for this race, since I've done

606
00:33:59,680 --> 00:34:01,520
Speaker 2: like a little bit of trying to understand where I

607
00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:02,560
Speaker 2: went wrong, I.

608
00:34:02,560 --> 00:34:03,600
Speaker 1: Think it's the day before.

609
00:34:04,680 --> 00:34:06,280
Speaker 2: So what if you're someone that doesn't want to run

610
00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:09,279
Speaker 2: with your phone or you need keys or and you

611
00:34:09,320 --> 00:34:11,399
Speaker 2: just have to It just doesn't it doesn't make sense

612
00:34:11,400 --> 00:34:13,600
Speaker 2: to me. And this isn't like I'm not trying to,

613
00:34:13,719 --> 00:34:17,120
Speaker 2: you know, bad mouth anyone. Again, I'm very grateful for

614
00:34:17,160 --> 00:34:20,280
Speaker 2: the opportunity to even run this marathon, but as someone

615
00:34:20,600 --> 00:34:24,399
Speaker 2: who was doing it on her own to then mess

616
00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:30,040
Speaker 2: up and like feel in the moment, like, very this disadvantage.

617
00:34:30,400 --> 00:34:33,520
Speaker 2: It sounds so silly. I know it sounds it sounds silly,

618
00:34:33,560 --> 00:34:36,879
Speaker 2: but yeah. So basically I went to the start line

619
00:34:37,000 --> 00:34:40,960
Speaker 2: wearing my hurdle sweatshirt. I definitely donated that, but I

620
00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:42,320
Speaker 2: was like, if I'm going to donate this anyway, I

621
00:34:42,360 --> 00:34:44,480
Speaker 2: might as well feel a little swaggy and excited as

622
00:34:44,520 --> 00:34:46,839
Speaker 2: I roll up. And then I carried with me two

623
00:34:46,880 --> 00:34:49,040
Speaker 2: pairs of air pods and the phone charger and all

624
00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:52,480
Speaker 2: of my fuel fast forward. The only chafe line I

625
00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:54,360
Speaker 2: had on my entire body was a little bit on

626
00:34:54,400 --> 00:34:56,839
Speaker 2: my lower back because I had so much in the

627
00:34:56,880 --> 00:34:59,279
Speaker 2: back pocket of my shorts that there was like a

628
00:34:59,280 --> 00:35:01,160
Speaker 2: lot of movement it happening there.

629
00:35:02,080 --> 00:35:03,720
Speaker 1: I get that text right before I start.

630
00:35:03,920 --> 00:35:06,000
Speaker 2: I am like so happy that I'm going to at

631
00:35:06,080 --> 00:35:09,759
Speaker 2: least have a change of bottoms and my shoes to

632
00:35:09,800 --> 00:35:13,880
Speaker 2: go home in. And then I'm off like within minutes,

633
00:35:14,440 --> 00:35:17,439
Speaker 2: and I keep telling myself like, don't go out too fast,

634
00:35:17,480 --> 00:35:19,160
Speaker 2: don't go out too fast, don't go out too fast.

635
00:35:19,719 --> 00:35:20,239
Speaker 1: And I'm just.

636
00:35:20,239 --> 00:35:24,239
Speaker 2: Jogging and I see a hurdler on the bridge, Leah,

637
00:35:24,280 --> 00:35:26,640
Speaker 2: and she is looking great, and she had also come

638
00:35:26,680 --> 00:35:29,520
Speaker 2: off of a certain amount of injury this year that

639
00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:31,680
Speaker 2: I was able to talk with her about, and so

640
00:35:31,760 --> 00:35:34,760
Speaker 2: it was so great to see her. And the vibes

641
00:35:34,800 --> 00:35:37,680
Speaker 2: are high and it's good. It's chilly, but it's good.

642
00:35:37,719 --> 00:35:39,799
Speaker 2: The forecast on the race day, I think the high

643
00:35:39,960 --> 00:35:43,400
Speaker 2: was maybe forty eight and sunny or fifty and sunny,

644
00:35:43,440 --> 00:35:48,360
Speaker 2: so perfect, perfect marathoning weather. And I'm running along and

645
00:35:48,400 --> 00:35:51,840
Speaker 2: I get off the bridge and I finally get to

646
00:35:51,920 --> 00:35:55,360
Speaker 2: mile three and a half and I'm running across Fourth Avenue,

647
00:35:55,360 --> 00:35:57,600
Speaker 2: which you're on for quite some time in Brooklyn, and

648
00:35:57,680 --> 00:36:01,440
Speaker 2: I do text Ashley friend that I had rode the

649
00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:04,000
Speaker 2: Staten Island Ferry with her boyfriend, who I know is

650
00:36:04,040 --> 00:36:05,720
Speaker 2: one of the first people that I'm going to see,

651
00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:08,319
Speaker 2: and I don't remember exactly where he's going to be.

652
00:36:08,360 --> 00:36:10,120
Speaker 1: So I text him and I say, hey, what will

653
00:36:10,160 --> 00:36:11,080
Speaker 1: your cross streets be?

654
00:36:11,160 --> 00:36:13,400
Speaker 2: And I'm running and doing this because this is a

655
00:36:13,400 --> 00:36:16,719
Speaker 2: normal way that I run marathons, and he tells me,

656
00:36:17,160 --> 00:36:19,360
Speaker 2: and I'm like, okay, I'm going to drop some things

657
00:36:19,360 --> 00:36:24,320
Speaker 2: with you. So I dropped him ultimately two AirPods cases

658
00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:28,560
Speaker 2: or two headphones cases and a my phone charger.

659
00:36:29,560 --> 00:36:31,560
Speaker 1: But I get to mile four, right after.

660
00:36:31,360 --> 00:36:36,120
Speaker 2: I texted Ashley's boyfriend Greg, and I'm on one side

661
00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:38,319
Speaker 2: of the median and I look to my right and

662
00:36:38,400 --> 00:36:41,680
Speaker 2: there is Ashley and I see her little like ponytail

663
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:46,040
Speaker 2: balancing and I yell ash and she sees me, and

664
00:36:46,080 --> 00:36:47,839
Speaker 2: she's so excited, and I run up to her.

665
00:36:48,200 --> 00:36:51,200
Speaker 1: And little did I know, little it would have been

666
00:36:51,239 --> 00:36:52,520
Speaker 1: so we should.

667
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:55,919
Speaker 2: Have planned this candidly, but I think that I didn't

668
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:58,920
Speaker 2: want to hold her back. And ash is such a

669
00:36:59,080 --> 00:37:01,640
Speaker 2: remarkable ath and I didn't want to hold her back.

670
00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:03,480
Speaker 2: And I wanted to run my race, she wanted to

671
00:37:03,560 --> 00:37:06,280
Speaker 2: run her race. That we took the theory there together,

672
00:37:06,280 --> 00:37:08,120
Speaker 2: but we were in different starting corrals, and so we

673
00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:10,439
Speaker 2: just didn't plan to.

674
00:37:10,400 --> 00:37:11,160
Speaker 1: Do this together.

675
00:37:12,040 --> 00:37:19,479
Speaker 2: And what a gift it was to find her out

676
00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:24,399
Speaker 2: of fifty thousand runners, Because I find her and we

677
00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:28,400
Speaker 2: end up running almost fourteen miles of this marathon together.

678
00:37:28,640 --> 00:37:30,960
Speaker 1: And when I tell you that the agle was to

679
00:37:31,040 --> 00:37:31,759
Speaker 1: find the fun.

680
00:37:32,239 --> 00:37:36,479
Speaker 2: What a better opportunity to have the best damn day

681
00:37:36,960 --> 00:37:37,880
Speaker 2: than to go out.

682
00:37:37,719 --> 00:37:40,120
Speaker 1: There and to do it with one of your best friends.

683
00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:46,120
Speaker 2: And so from mile four to mile like just after sixteen,

684
00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:50,719
Speaker 2: we are living our best lives. We like saw her

685
00:37:50,760 --> 00:37:54,840
Speaker 2: boyfriend and their CrossFit friends and then dropped over stuff

686
00:37:55,480 --> 00:37:58,600
Speaker 2: and then made our way through my neighborhood and saw

687
00:37:58,680 --> 00:38:01,680
Speaker 2: two of my best friends and Holland and their husbands

688
00:38:01,719 --> 00:38:05,000
Speaker 2: and their kids, and I cried, and there were confetti cannons,

689
00:38:05,280 --> 00:38:08,400
Speaker 2: and then so many run crews along the way, like

690
00:38:08,520 --> 00:38:11,040
Speaker 2: that is part of what makes New York so great

691
00:38:11,719 --> 00:38:18,040
Speaker 2: is there are people everywhere and they are so happy.

692
00:38:19,360 --> 00:38:22,040
Speaker 2: And what a true gift, considering like the state of

693
00:38:22,080 --> 00:38:22,799
Speaker 2: our world to.

694
00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:25,160
Speaker 1: Have that.

695
00:38:25,920 --> 00:38:29,640
Speaker 2: Right, we run through Brooklyn and Fort Green and Bedford.

696
00:38:29,800 --> 00:38:32,640
Speaker 2: Oh my god, Bedford was unlike anything I had ever

697
00:38:32,760 --> 00:38:35,080
Speaker 2: experienced in any other time that I've run the New

698
00:38:35,160 --> 00:38:36,040
Speaker 2: York City Marathon.

699
00:38:36,560 --> 00:38:37,759
Speaker 1: And we see the.

700
00:38:37,719 --> 00:38:40,839
Speaker 2: Motive cheerstation and the Dirty Bird cheer station, and the

701
00:38:40,880 --> 00:38:44,160
Speaker 2: Brooklyn Track Club cheer station and the Bandit cheer station.

702
00:38:44,520 --> 00:38:46,560
Speaker 2: I give like the best high five of my life

703
00:38:46,560 --> 00:38:50,319
Speaker 2: to my friend Cecilia, and there's confetti everywhere and it

704
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:53,400
Speaker 2: is just the best. And Ash and I are working

705
00:38:53,400 --> 00:38:54,920
Speaker 2: with each other and at one point she's like, I

706
00:38:55,000 --> 00:38:56,120
Speaker 2: am not trying to run this fast.

707
00:38:56,160 --> 00:38:57,640
Speaker 1: I'm like, I am not trying to run this fast,

708
00:38:57,640 --> 00:38:58,279
Speaker 1: Like I didn't want to.

709
00:38:58,280 --> 00:39:00,439
Speaker 2: Hold you back, and so we slow down a little

710
00:39:00,440 --> 00:39:02,160
Speaker 2: bit and we make our way through Long Island City,

711
00:39:02,880 --> 00:39:05,480
Speaker 2: starting to feel a little bit hard. And if you

712
00:39:05,480 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 2: know anything about the New York City Marathon, you know

713
00:39:07,120 --> 00:39:09,920
Speaker 2: that the Queensborough is kind of the game changer for

714
00:39:09,960 --> 00:39:12,080
Speaker 2: a lot of people in that it's a big bridge

715
00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:15,600
Speaker 2: that goes from Queens into Manhattan and it is one

716
00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:18,280
Speaker 2: of the only quiet places on the entire marathon course,

717
00:39:18,960 --> 00:39:22,240
Speaker 2: and it's just runners working through it, getting over that hill,

718
00:39:22,280 --> 00:39:25,080
Speaker 2: getting over that hurdle, and when you come down to

719
00:39:25,120 --> 00:39:28,239
Speaker 2: the other side, there's just this massive roar from the

720
00:39:28,239 --> 00:39:32,320
Speaker 2: crowds in Manhattan. And as ash and I are coming

721
00:39:32,480 --> 00:39:36,080
Speaker 2: up and over the bridge and turning onto First Avenue,

722
00:39:36,640 --> 00:39:42,120
Speaker 2: we get swallowed by the eight minute pace group, the

723
00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:46,080
Speaker 2: three thirty pace group. I didn't want the anxiety of

724
00:39:46,160 --> 00:39:48,880
Speaker 2: running with this pace group. I wanted to focus on

725
00:39:49,000 --> 00:39:50,960
Speaker 2: Plan A, even though I was on track for a

726
00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:53,280
Speaker 2: Plan B for the most part, just because it didn't

727
00:39:53,320 --> 00:39:58,040
Speaker 2: feel right for me. And there were so many of them,

728
00:39:58,360 --> 00:40:00,959
Speaker 2: and they were all like kind of with each other

729
00:40:01,040 --> 00:40:04,759
Speaker 2: and working together, and so I lost Ashley and the

730
00:40:04,760 --> 00:40:07,560
Speaker 2: sea of all these people, and that was when we drifted.

731
00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:11,160
Speaker 2: And so at this point I'm in what is now

732
00:40:11,200 --> 00:40:13,000
Speaker 2: my old neighborhood. I lived on the Upper east Side

733
00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:15,560
Speaker 2: for about ten years in a few different apartments, and

734
00:40:15,680 --> 00:40:17,560
Speaker 2: I knew that some of the people that I was

735
00:40:17,560 --> 00:40:20,640
Speaker 2: really excited to see were in the miles ahead. I

736
00:40:20,840 --> 00:40:24,080
Speaker 2: had friends and run coaches, Lindsay and Amber, and then

737
00:40:24,120 --> 00:40:27,279
Speaker 2: I knew that I would get up to Endorphins and

738
00:40:27,320 --> 00:40:30,240
Speaker 2: I would get up to specifically Old Man Run Club,

739
00:40:30,280 --> 00:40:33,240
Speaker 2: my run club, and see some of my favorite people,

740
00:40:33,400 --> 00:40:36,439
Speaker 2: and there would be confetti there and it was so

741
00:40:36,520 --> 00:40:39,160
Speaker 2: special to like lock eyes and feel so supported by

742
00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:41,640
Speaker 2: so many people who didn't have to be there, but

743
00:40:41,680 --> 00:40:46,279
Speaker 2: they chose to be there right and after I went

744
00:40:46,320 --> 00:40:49,080
Speaker 2: by Ol Marcy and saw so many amazing humans, I

745
00:40:49,880 --> 00:40:52,200
Speaker 2: kept running and it gets hard in the Bronx, and

746
00:40:52,239 --> 00:40:55,320
Speaker 2: I made my way through the Bronx and then it's

747
00:40:55,719 --> 00:41:00,560
Speaker 2: at Marcus Garvey Park where I see my friend Kim,

748
00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:03,719
Speaker 2: who literally went to this specific corner, and she is

749
00:41:03,760 --> 00:41:08,480
Speaker 2: wearing this like bright orange fleece from Nike, and she

750
00:41:08,520 --> 00:41:11,279
Speaker 2: looks like, isn't there like a character in Monsters Inc.

751
00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:13,600
Speaker 2: That's like a big orange monster. She looks like the

752
00:41:13,600 --> 00:41:17,120
Speaker 2: big orange monster. And even though she's pint size, and

753
00:41:17,440 --> 00:41:21,880
Speaker 2: Kim picks me up and for four blocks he just

754
00:41:21,880 --> 00:41:23,760
Speaker 2: like jogs with me and does an inventory and asks

755
00:41:23,760 --> 00:41:25,680
Speaker 2: me how I'm feeling. And she's so excited to see me,

756
00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:26,960
Speaker 2: and I'm so excited to see her.

757
00:41:27,680 --> 00:41:28,880
Speaker 1: She's like, she's such.

758
00:41:28,719 --> 00:41:31,000
Speaker 2: A beautiful and loving and amazing human and I'm so

759
00:41:31,120 --> 00:41:35,080
Speaker 2: lucky for her. And I felt a little bit rejuvenated

760
00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:37,040
Speaker 2: after I saw her, and she's like, how are you feeling?

761
00:41:37,040 --> 00:41:38,759
Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, you know, it's really hard now,

762
00:41:39,440 --> 00:41:41,399
Speaker 1: but I'm still having a good time. And she's like, well,

763
00:41:41,440 --> 00:41:41,960
Speaker 1: you look.

764
00:41:41,840 --> 00:41:44,160
Speaker 2: Great, and I just like, you know, when you need

765
00:41:44,200 --> 00:41:45,920
Speaker 2: someone to validate that, like you're okay.

766
00:41:46,440 --> 00:41:47,240
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm okay.

767
00:41:48,160 --> 00:41:51,440
Speaker 2: But the funniest part is that Kim leaves me and

768
00:41:51,480 --> 00:41:54,480
Speaker 2: I'm about to be at mile like maybe twenty three

769
00:41:54,480 --> 00:41:58,880
Speaker 2: and a half before the hill up to Central Park,

770
00:41:59,600 --> 00:42:01,719
Speaker 2: and I I had run this entire race up to

771
00:42:01,800 --> 00:42:04,520
Speaker 2: mile twenty three and a half with a closed safety

772
00:42:04,520 --> 00:42:06,759
Speaker 2: pin in my shoe. I felt it bouncing around. It

773
00:42:06,800 --> 00:42:10,440
Speaker 2: was an extra from my bag check, lol, and it

774
00:42:10,520 --> 00:42:13,000
Speaker 2: wasn't doing anything bad, but it was annoying, but I

775
00:42:13,080 --> 00:42:15,920
Speaker 2: just didn't want to stop. And finally like I'm about

776
00:42:15,960 --> 00:42:18,319
Speaker 2: to go up this hill, and I'm like, hell no, Like,

777
00:42:18,680 --> 00:42:20,680
Speaker 2: if there's one thing I'm gonna do, it's not gonna

778
00:42:20,680 --> 00:42:23,200
Speaker 2: I'm not finishing this thing with this thing in my shoe.

779
00:42:23,320 --> 00:42:25,440
Speaker 2: So I finally pull over and stop running for the

780
00:42:25,480 --> 00:42:29,080
Speaker 2: first time in twenty three miles and coincidentally pull into

781
00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:34,080
Speaker 2: my friend Thomas Laredo. I don't realize that there's a

782
00:42:34,120 --> 00:42:36,360
Speaker 2: huge cheer station that's about to be ahead of me,

783
00:42:36,640 --> 00:42:38,799
Speaker 2: but it's right at the base of this hill, and

784
00:42:38,960 --> 00:42:39,479
Speaker 2: he's like.

785
00:42:39,440 --> 00:42:41,279
Speaker 1: Are you okay, And I'm like, I'm okay, but I

786
00:42:41,320 --> 00:42:43,080
Speaker 1: need to get the safety pin out of my shoe.

787
00:42:43,480 --> 00:42:46,279
Speaker 2: And if you've ever run a marathon, you realize that

788
00:42:46,280 --> 00:42:48,960
Speaker 2: you start to lose like dexterity and like I couldn't

789
00:42:49,040 --> 00:42:51,440
Speaker 2: use my hands right. And so Thomas like helps me

790
00:42:51,480 --> 00:42:54,320
Speaker 2: take the sneaker off and I get this. I literally

791
00:42:54,360 --> 00:42:56,600
Speaker 2: turn it upside down and put this safety pin on

792
00:42:56,640 --> 00:42:59,200
Speaker 2: the ground, and then he helps me put it back

793
00:42:59,239 --> 00:43:01,160
Speaker 2: on and he knows it and I get up like

794
00:43:01,200 --> 00:43:04,160
Speaker 2: I'm about to go. He goes one more not he

795
00:43:04,320 --> 00:43:07,920
Speaker 2: double nuts the shoe and I take off and again,

796
00:43:08,000 --> 00:43:10,960
Speaker 2: little did I know that literally ten feet ahead of

797
00:43:11,000 --> 00:43:14,799
Speaker 2: me is the massive ag, one cheer station and like

798
00:43:14,920 --> 00:43:19,360
Speaker 2: more people that I know, and it was so special,

799
00:43:19,480 --> 00:43:22,839
Speaker 2: like more confetti. My friend Sasha is holding a sign

800
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:25,000
Speaker 2: that I do not see in the moment, but it's

801
00:43:25,040 --> 00:43:27,840
Speaker 2: literally says my mantra, and it says all it takes

802
00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:30,680
Speaker 2: is all You've got, and it has go Emily on it,

803
00:43:30,719 --> 00:43:33,920
Speaker 2: and it is so special to see that photo in retrospect.

804
00:43:33,960 --> 00:43:39,200
Speaker 1: It's so special. And then I'm just like plugging away.

805
00:43:39,280 --> 00:43:43,160
Speaker 2: And it really felt like between that moment and the

806
00:43:43,400 --> 00:43:46,520
Speaker 2: end was when I heard the most people cheering for

807
00:43:46,640 --> 00:43:50,720
Speaker 2: me that I didn't know, and just Emily Emily everywhere

808
00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:53,600
Speaker 2: that I was going. And I haven't run every marathon

809
00:43:53,680 --> 00:43:56,600
Speaker 2: of the past fourteen with my name on my chest,

810
00:43:56,640 --> 00:43:58,719
Speaker 2: but I could not have been more proud to do

811
00:43:58,800 --> 00:44:00,719
Speaker 2: that and more happy be that I did.

812
00:44:00,719 --> 00:44:03,040
Speaker 1: That is such a It's definitely.

813
00:44:02,680 --> 00:44:05,480
Speaker 2: A bigger thing, I think in New York than other marathons.

814
00:44:05,719 --> 00:44:08,239
Speaker 2: But I would say it is the best thing you

815
00:44:08,280 --> 00:44:10,839
Speaker 2: can do for yourself, that you empower people that want

816
00:44:10,880 --> 00:44:13,040
Speaker 2: to show up for you to show up for you

817
00:44:13,080 --> 00:44:15,239
Speaker 2: and cheer you on. And so I get into the

818
00:44:15,239 --> 00:44:18,120
Speaker 2: park and one woman taps me on the shoulder. She's

819
00:44:18,120 --> 00:44:20,640
Speaker 2: like Emily a body, and I'm like, hi, and we

820
00:44:20,680 --> 00:44:24,600
Speaker 2: have mutual friends. Shout out Tyler, shout out Stow, and she's.

821
00:44:24,400 --> 00:44:27,600
Speaker 1: Like, I'm friends with Tyler and Rebecca, and you're doing great.

822
00:44:27,640 --> 00:44:29,840
Speaker 1: We're right around that three point thirty, like keep going.

823
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:32,920
Speaker 2: And then there's this other guy that I've been kind

824
00:44:32,920 --> 00:44:35,439
Speaker 2: of pacing with and he's really hurting, and so I

825
00:44:35,520 --> 00:44:38,120
Speaker 2: like run up behind him when he's like kind of walking,

826
00:44:38,160 --> 00:44:40,000
Speaker 2: and I'm like, guy, we didn't come this far to

827
00:44:40,080 --> 00:44:42,719
Speaker 2: only come this far, Like, you gotta come with. I'm

828
00:44:43,160 --> 00:44:46,040
Speaker 2: you're coming with. And there was another woman that literally

829
00:44:46,080 --> 00:44:48,200
Speaker 2: I ran like almost the whole marathon kind of in

830
00:44:48,239 --> 00:44:50,640
Speaker 2: tandem with, and she's struggling and we're going down that

831
00:44:50,760 --> 00:44:53,680
Speaker 2: last back hill before you leave Central Park and come

832
00:44:53,719 --> 00:44:56,759
Speaker 2: back in, and I'm like, we ran this whole thing together, girl,

833
00:44:56,760 --> 00:44:59,560
Speaker 2: you gotta come with. Like I was just all about, like,

834
00:45:00,080 --> 00:45:02,759
Speaker 2: We've got to do this together. And the last thing

835
00:45:02,800 --> 00:45:04,920
Speaker 2: that I was looking forward to was I knew that

836
00:45:05,000 --> 00:45:07,360
Speaker 2: my friends Lauren and Sean. I mentioned Lauren at the

837
00:45:07,400 --> 00:45:11,040
Speaker 2: top of this episode We're gonna be with camera crews

838
00:45:11,120 --> 00:45:13,640
Speaker 2: on Central Park South, and I was so excited to

839
00:45:13,640 --> 00:45:18,359
Speaker 2: see them and so pumped, so pumped, and Sean got

840
00:45:18,400 --> 00:45:19,719
Speaker 2: a great photo of me, and then we gave a

841
00:45:19,760 --> 00:45:21,880
Speaker 2: great high five, and then I caught Lauren out of

842
00:45:21,920 --> 00:45:24,640
Speaker 2: the corner of my eye. And then I made that

843
00:45:24,800 --> 00:45:28,200
Speaker 2: round into Central Park, and the man at the announcing

844
00:45:28,239 --> 00:45:31,279
Speaker 2: station was like cheering me on and telling everyone to

845
00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:39,080
Speaker 2: listen to hurdle, and I crossed the finish line. I

846
00:45:39,160 --> 00:45:42,160
Speaker 2: was so proud of myself. I am so proud of myself.

847
00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:46,799
Speaker 2: Three thirty eight thirty three. You know, it's funny, right,

848
00:45:46,880 --> 00:45:48,680
Speaker 2: Like I said that I had this goal of doing

849
00:45:48,680 --> 00:45:54,000
Speaker 2: three thirty, But like, not even for a second, not

850
00:45:54,160 --> 00:45:58,720
Speaker 2: even for a second, did I feel like I.

851
00:45:58,320 --> 00:46:00,080
Speaker 1: Had missed the mark.

852
00:46:00,120 --> 00:46:05,160
Speaker 2: I had missed the goal because on November three, I

853
00:46:05,400 --> 00:46:09,120
Speaker 2: entirely showed up for myself and I did something that

854
00:46:09,200 --> 00:46:14,080
Speaker 2: I wanted to do so bad. I showed myself that

855
00:46:14,160 --> 00:46:16,879
Speaker 2: I could find the fun, that I could allow other

856
00:46:16,920 --> 00:46:21,160
Speaker 2: people to show up for me right, that they want

857
00:46:21,160 --> 00:46:23,359
Speaker 2: to show up for me, they want to show up

858
00:46:23,360 --> 00:46:30,360
Speaker 2: for you too. It's understandable, as someone who considers herself

859
00:46:30,400 --> 00:46:37,719
Speaker 2: independent that I want to hold on right, But there

860
00:46:37,760 --> 00:46:42,319
Speaker 2: is so much magic in letting go. There is so

861
00:46:42,520 --> 00:46:48,520
Speaker 2: much opportunity to come together in community and to support

862
00:46:48,560 --> 00:46:53,120
Speaker 2: one another, and I was so lucky and am so

863
00:46:53,280 --> 00:46:55,839
Speaker 2: grateful to have been on the receiving end of that

864
00:46:56,239 --> 00:47:02,600
Speaker 2: at this year's New York Period. To come full circle

865
00:47:02,640 --> 00:47:06,080
Speaker 2: on the bag moment, I am still in the coughing phase,

866
00:47:06,760 --> 00:47:10,880
Speaker 2: like not well. I don't even think it had been

867
00:47:10,880 --> 00:47:14,680
Speaker 2: a minute since I crossed the finish line, and I

868
00:47:14,800 --> 00:47:19,839
Speaker 2: get a tap on my shoulder and it is this

869
00:47:20,120 --> 00:47:24,440
Speaker 2: amazing human from MasterCard with my medal and my bag,

870
00:47:24,880 --> 00:47:27,399
Speaker 2: and I cried and I hugged her and I said

871
00:47:27,680 --> 00:47:32,880
Speaker 2: thank you so much. And seconds later I get a

872
00:47:32,920 --> 00:47:36,240
Speaker 2: text from Ashley, who finished I think in three thirty

873
00:47:36,280 --> 00:47:39,839
Speaker 2: two apologies if that's wrong. I'm pretty sure right around

874
00:47:39,880 --> 00:47:43,720
Speaker 2: three thirty as well. And it just says I'm waiting

875
00:47:43,719 --> 00:47:46,480
Speaker 2: for you. It's not we did it, I'm waiting for you.

876
00:47:46,560 --> 00:47:48,520
Speaker 2: And I look and she's the only person I share

877
00:47:48,560 --> 00:47:50,799
Speaker 2: my location with and she's like right down right, you know,

878
00:47:50,840 --> 00:47:53,280
Speaker 2: a five minute walk ahead of me. And I find

879
00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:56,680
Speaker 2: her and we hug and I am just like so

880
00:47:56,920 --> 00:47:59,880
Speaker 2: grateful for how the entire day went down.

881
00:48:00,880 --> 00:48:02,080
Speaker 1: I'm so grateful for it.

882
00:48:03,160 --> 00:48:05,960
Speaker 2: And you know, when I look back on this training block,

883
00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:09,520
Speaker 2: there's so much that I am proud of myself for

884
00:48:09,840 --> 00:48:13,200
Speaker 2: and grateful for. But I think one of the biggest

885
00:48:13,200 --> 00:48:15,719
Speaker 2: growth moments also for me as a runner, is that

886
00:48:16,160 --> 00:48:20,239
Speaker 2: I have the sixth World Marathon Majors posters from Tracksmith

887
00:48:20,280 --> 00:48:22,319
Speaker 2: that you can get at their pop up after each

888
00:48:22,360 --> 00:48:25,560
Speaker 2: marathon major. I have them hanging in my office. I

889
00:48:25,600 --> 00:48:27,560
Speaker 2: have more than six posters, but I have one from

890
00:48:27,600 --> 00:48:30,480
Speaker 2: each of the World Marathon Majors on display. And the

891
00:48:30,560 --> 00:48:33,279
Speaker 2: last New York Marathon poster that was on display was

892
00:48:33,360 --> 00:48:37,640
Speaker 2: my virtual New York Marathon, which I'd never stopped running,

893
00:48:38,680 --> 00:48:40,759
Speaker 2: but it was virtual and it was only tracked by

894
00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:44,400
Speaker 2: my garment, and that marathon is my fastest marathon to

895
00:48:44,480 --> 00:48:47,680
Speaker 2: date in three twenty three fifty six. And when I

896
00:48:47,680 --> 00:48:50,760
Speaker 2: got home with my new poster from Tracksmith, Shout Out Massimo,

897
00:48:52,840 --> 00:48:55,360
Speaker 2: I sat there for a second and I thought to myself, like,

898
00:48:55,400 --> 00:48:57,520
Speaker 2: do you want to cover up the fastest time on

899
00:48:57,560 --> 00:49:01,960
Speaker 2: the wall? And I realized, I was like, you know what,

900
00:49:03,840 --> 00:49:07,000
Speaker 2: It's never about the time for me. It wasn't even

901
00:49:07,080 --> 00:49:08,799
Speaker 2: like when I started running. It wasn't about the time

902
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:11,360
Speaker 2: for me. And have I become more competitive with myself

903
00:49:11,400 --> 00:49:15,400
Speaker 2: over time, for sure? But I never really aspire to

904
00:49:15,440 --> 00:49:17,759
Speaker 2: be who I was five years ago. All I want

905
00:49:17,800 --> 00:49:19,640
Speaker 2: to do is meet myself with where I am at

906
00:49:19,880 --> 00:49:22,600
Speaker 2: right now, to be honest about where I'm at, and

907
00:49:22,600 --> 00:49:25,239
Speaker 2: to chase my own potential, whatever that looks like in

908
00:49:25,320 --> 00:49:28,360
Speaker 2: any stage of life. Right, I'm not trying to be

909
00:49:30,000 --> 00:49:33,640
Speaker 2: my twenty nine thirty year old self. Does that mean

910
00:49:33,640 --> 00:49:37,120
Speaker 2: that I'll never run like a three thirty marathon three

911
00:49:37,200 --> 00:49:40,319
Speaker 2: twenty three fifty six, I don't know, but if it does,

912
00:49:40,440 --> 00:49:45,720
Speaker 2: like I'm so okay with that, because it's about the journey, right,

913
00:49:46,680 --> 00:49:48,080
Speaker 2: And so yeah, I'm sitting on the floor and I'm

914
00:49:48,120 --> 00:49:50,720
Speaker 2: looking at these posters, and I put the new poster

915
00:49:50,960 --> 00:49:54,640
Speaker 2: over the old poster, and I think to myself, like,

916
00:49:55,280 --> 00:49:58,120
Speaker 2: this is a journey that I am so proud of

917
00:49:58,880 --> 00:50:03,239
Speaker 2: and so happy to look at that poster every day

918
00:50:03,239 --> 00:50:07,080
Speaker 2: when I walk into this studio. All it takes is

919
00:50:07,120 --> 00:50:09,879
Speaker 2: all you've got, right, And I really gave this all

920
00:50:09,920 --> 00:50:15,800
Speaker 2: I had this year. This really just being life. Honestly,

921
00:50:19,600 --> 00:50:24,120
Speaker 2: it's not easy. It is not easy to continually show

922
00:50:24,239 --> 00:50:26,279
Speaker 2: up for yourself, to show up for the people that

923
00:50:26,320 --> 00:50:29,200
Speaker 2: you care about. But you are the only person who

924
00:50:29,239 --> 00:50:32,879
Speaker 2: knows your intentions and knows your heart, and this year

925
00:50:33,600 --> 00:50:38,160
Speaker 2: I have done it in every way possible. I've tried

926
00:50:38,280 --> 00:50:42,240
Speaker 2: so hard to listen to what feels good for Emily,

927
00:50:42,880 --> 00:50:45,439
Speaker 2: be a good person, and do the best I can

928
00:50:45,480 --> 00:50:49,960
Speaker 2: with what I have. And so this New York symbolized

929
00:50:50,040 --> 00:50:55,080
Speaker 2: so much growth for me. It symbolized a really beautiful

930
00:50:55,160 --> 00:50:58,360
Speaker 2: chapter for me, and.

931
00:51:00,080 --> 00:51:02,839
Speaker 1: I couldn't be prouder of what I came out with.

932
00:51:04,400 --> 00:51:12,319
Speaker 2: What's next Southport, Fairfield Peakquad Roadrunners, five miler, Turkey Draw.

933
00:51:13,520 --> 00:51:15,439
Speaker 1: I don't know what's going to happen in twenty twenty five.

934
00:51:15,760 --> 00:51:18,640
Speaker 2: I kind of am thinking I could run the London

935
00:51:18,640 --> 00:51:21,279
Speaker 2: Marathon if that somehow came together for me.

936
00:51:21,640 --> 00:51:25,640
Speaker 1: I would love to run the Sydney Marathon. I have

937
00:51:25,760 --> 00:51:26,799
Speaker 1: never been to Australia.

938
00:51:28,480 --> 00:51:30,880
Speaker 2: I think I'm a little intimidated by this thought of

939
00:51:30,960 --> 00:51:34,440
Speaker 2: going all of the way to Sydney and doing it alone.

940
00:51:35,719 --> 00:51:39,560
Speaker 2: Whereas I did technically go to Tokyo alone. I went

941
00:51:39,680 --> 00:51:42,000
Speaker 2: with a brand and knew other people that were going

942
00:51:42,040 --> 00:51:43,640
Speaker 2: to be there, not that I wouldn't know that they're

943
00:51:43,640 --> 00:51:45,359
Speaker 2: going to be people in I don't know. I'm kind

944
00:51:45,360 --> 00:51:50,200
Speaker 2: of rambling now, but yeah, Sydney Marathon is definitely in

945
00:51:50,239 --> 00:51:55,640
Speaker 2: my sights, But in the meantime, I'm just so grateful

946
00:51:55,680 --> 00:52:01,680
Speaker 2: to be here, just happy to be nominated, and thankful

947
00:52:01,840 --> 00:52:12,360
Speaker 2: for the community that empowers me and my body. I really, really,

948
00:52:12,560 --> 00:52:17,680
Speaker 2: really am so proud of my body and anyone who's

949
00:52:17,719 --> 00:52:20,799
Speaker 2: gone through anything, but specifically a dramatic weight loss and

950
00:52:20,840 --> 00:52:23,760
Speaker 2: then a dramatic weight gain and then a dramatic weight loss.

951
00:52:24,000 --> 00:52:25,880
Speaker 1: There are so many feelings and.

952
00:52:28,160 --> 00:52:35,160
Speaker 2: Intricracies to that, and I have so much compassion for

953
00:52:35,440 --> 00:52:38,640
Speaker 2: myself and my body and gratitude for what it is

954
00:52:38,719 --> 00:52:41,799
Speaker 2: capable of. And that really is where I sit right

955
00:52:41,800 --> 00:52:44,680
Speaker 2: now when I think about what's next. I just want

956
00:52:44,719 --> 00:52:48,400
Speaker 2: to keep this feeling. I want to hold on to

957
00:52:48,520 --> 00:52:51,080
Speaker 2: this level of compassion. I want to talk to myself

958
00:52:51,360 --> 00:52:53,360
Speaker 2: like I would a loved one, and I want to

959
00:52:53,360 --> 00:52:57,320
Speaker 2: be proud of me no matter what happens moving forward.

960
00:52:58,440 --> 00:52:59,200
Speaker 1: That's what I want.

961
00:53:00,120 --> 00:53:04,080
Speaker 2: That's what's next. Maybe three pull ups in a row also,

962
00:53:06,040 --> 00:53:10,880
Speaker 2: but definitely a resounding yes to self love and compassion

963
00:53:11,040 --> 00:53:16,359
Speaker 2: for my body and what it's capable of. Man New

964
00:53:16,440 --> 00:53:17,759
Speaker 2: York Marathon twenty twenty four.

965
00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:20,480
Speaker 1: We did it. We did it.

966
00:53:21,120 --> 00:53:23,960
Speaker 2: As always, I'm always here to answer your questions. Oh

967
00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:26,680
Speaker 2: my goodness, this is ending. And I didn't even talk

968
00:53:26,719 --> 00:53:29,120
Speaker 2: about fueling. I feel like I've done this in a

969
00:53:29,120 --> 00:53:34,560
Speaker 2: marathon recap before. Please do not take my advice. I

970
00:53:34,600 --> 00:53:37,600
Speaker 2: want to start by saying that over the marathon, I

971
00:53:37,680 --> 00:53:41,799
Speaker 2: had three more In gels and two bags of Sour

972
00:53:41,840 --> 00:53:45,600
Speaker 2: Patch watermelons, and we're talking about finding the fun. I

973
00:53:45,640 --> 00:53:48,759
Speaker 2: spoke with a friend who's a registered dietitian and we

974
00:53:48,880 --> 00:53:51,359
Speaker 2: kind of did some math on the carbs. There are

975
00:53:51,560 --> 00:53:54,520
Speaker 2: fifty five grams of carbs in each bag of Sour

976
00:53:54,560 --> 00:53:58,080
Speaker 2: Patch watermelons. I think moret in gels have something like thirty.

977
00:53:58,239 --> 00:54:01,360
Speaker 2: And so I was on the few every three miles

978
00:54:01,400 --> 00:54:06,359
Speaker 2: plan and that was rotating between a Morton gel and

979
00:54:06,440 --> 00:54:10,440
Speaker 2: then like four different Sara patchwatermelons, and then a Morton

980
00:54:10,480 --> 00:54:13,400
Speaker 2: gel and then four different Stara patchwatermelons and so on

981
00:54:13,480 --> 00:54:17,200
Speaker 2: and so forth, and I just was having fun with it. Again,

982
00:54:17,400 --> 00:54:20,760
Speaker 2: it wasn't that scientific, and please do not take my advice,

983
00:54:20,880 --> 00:54:24,440
Speaker 2: but it worked for me, and that's really with my

984
00:54:24,560 --> 00:54:31,760
Speaker 2: nutrition clearly not my top priority. But it was good.

985
00:54:32,160 --> 00:54:36,120
Speaker 2: It was so good. I'm so grateful what I was saying.

986
00:54:37,320 --> 00:54:39,439
Speaker 2: If you have any questions, I'm all ears. Feel free

987
00:54:39,440 --> 00:54:41,400
Speaker 2: to email me with a listener question over at Hello

988
00:54:41,440 --> 00:54:44,760
Speaker 2: at hurdle dot us. Believe in yourselves and your delusion

989
00:54:44,800 --> 00:54:47,879
Speaker 2: and your big dreams. It's worth chasing them because what's

990
00:54:47,880 --> 00:54:50,600
Speaker 2: the worst that can happen. I'm over at Emily Body

991
00:54:51,080 --> 00:54:56,719
Speaker 2: and at Hurdle Podcast. Another hurdle conquered. Catch you guys

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Speaker 2: next time. Thank you, Y