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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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Speaker 1: I'm Mila. Happy hump Day, Happy hump Day. How are

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Speaker 1: you great? I don't believe you because I'm lying.

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Speaker 2: Oh my god, oh my god. This is the first

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Speaker 2: week ever. And people were like, how are you? And

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Speaker 2: I'm like terrible. Actually, I'm actually doing fucking terrible.

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Speaker 1: I was in a bar the other night and this

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Speaker 1: girl walked in and she sat next to me, and

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Speaker 1: she had like a cookie gift bag and she's like,

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Speaker 1: do you want that? I'm a bar. She was like,

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Speaker 1: you know, Christmas time, so she's like, do you have kids?

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Speaker 1: I was like, actually I do. She's like, do you

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Speaker 1: want this cookie?

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Speaker 2: I'm like thanks, this is so nice of you because

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Speaker 2: I'm having a really shitty day.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god.

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Speaker 3: I cried at the bar for like two hours.

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Speaker 1: Oh you know, but you know, I.

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Speaker 2: Never cried at the bar. I never tell people I'm

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Speaker 2: having a shitty day.

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Speaker 1: So you know, it's fine. And maybe that's what you

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Speaker 1: need to start doing in twenty twenty, admitting when I'm

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Speaker 1: having a shitty stop internalizing your shittiness well, because then

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Speaker 1: it displays in other ways. I mean, I'm not saying

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Speaker 1: I witnessed it, but I'm just saying it's inevitable. Wolf Moon,

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Speaker 1: apoet Apothecary, Apothecary, Brandon. Brandon told me that, yeah, I

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Speaker 1: hold a lot in and I hold a lot of

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Speaker 1: them with certain people. You stop whispering, please, Okay. So

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Speaker 1: I'm just listening to Brandon and I'm speaking my mind.

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Speaker 1: And when I'm having a shitty day, I'm telling folks

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Speaker 1: I'm not doing great, even if they're strangers at the bar. Good.

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Speaker 1: Do you have a hard time telling people when you're

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Speaker 1: having a shitty do? No? What you do you think

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Speaker 1: I do? No? I mean, I know I'm pretty I

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Speaker 1: think I'm pretty vocal about my feelings constantly, which is

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Speaker 1: why I'm annoying. I wouldn't say I wasn't vocal about

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Speaker 1: my feelings. Well, I wouldn't. I didn't think I didn't really.

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Speaker 2: I guess I didn't analyze it, really, I guess not

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Speaker 2: all my feelings.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you guys, we're drinking tea.

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Speaker 1: And yeah, my spoon keeps hitting the thing and it's

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Speaker 1: gonna be annoying. And I'm also like, ah sturbing. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: we're literally double fisting tea and wine because also I

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Speaker 1: need to drink. Also, I feel like I shouldn't smoke

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Speaker 1: because last night I felt like I was wheezing and

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Speaker 1: like so much so that I was like, do I

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Speaker 1: need to go put on IRI's nebulizer? Do you have

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Speaker 1: the puppy dog nebulized? Is that thing helping for her?

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Speaker 1: I think so? Well, I haven't been using it lately?

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Speaker 1: Do you need want to borrow it? Yeah, but I

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Speaker 1: need to put some shit in it though, I just

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Speaker 1: I have this stuff.

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Speaker 2: I feel scared because Luna has also been like coughing

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Speaker 2: for in the mornings for.

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Speaker 1: Like a while. Yeah. Yeah, no, so it was iration

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Speaker 1: coughing for a while. It's getting better though, so the nebulizer.

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Speaker 1: And then she got she had antibiotics, which the doctor

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Speaker 1: like didn't want to give me for like months and

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Speaker 1: finally they're like, fine, why wouldn't they give it to you?

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Speaker 1: Because they were like, it's just a common cold. She's

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Speaker 1: for a month at school, but it up. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: all right, last my one, I was like, she needs

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Speaker 1: fucking antibiotics. I'm gonna give her these antiotics I got

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Speaker 1: in Mexico. Okay, Well, like I found some money in

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Speaker 1: my pockets, looks see look at the seventeen dollars. I

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Speaker 1: needed every fucking penny. Sweet, you are blessed. I am blessed.

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Speaker 1: You are. You know every time I'm feeling away, God's like,

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Speaker 1: here you go, bitch, shut the fuck up. So grateful.

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Speaker 1: I do believe in God. I do believe in the

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Speaker 1: power of prayer. And in twenty twenty, I'm going, I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna go. I've like actually been researching places to go

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Speaker 1: to explore my spirituality weekly. Some of them could be

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Speaker 1: called churches. I hate saying that institutions institutions, but they

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Speaker 1: seemed they seem like a little more like progressive. And

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Speaker 1: I was thinking about a gope and then like someone

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Speaker 1: explained a gobe love to me and it threw me off.

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Speaker 1: I know, could you explained it to me? And it

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Speaker 1: like really a red flag for my like intersectional feminism.

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Speaker 1: I was like, what the fuck are you talking about? That?

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Speaker 1: We just love these niggas no matter what we did.

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Speaker 1: I say that or is that what that particular person is.

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Speaker 1: is like, I'm not gonna sit here and wait for

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Speaker 1: guess the girl is like, I'll wait because she believes

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Speaker 1: in a godbe love and a godbe love. Wait. Quote

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Speaker 1: me if I'm wrong, because I don't know who's listening.

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Speaker 1: That goes to a gobe or whatever. But what I

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Speaker 1: was told is basically that like it's for the bigger purpose.

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Speaker 1: Like if you're in love with someone a godbe love

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Speaker 1: die with them no matter what, because you see the

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Speaker 1: bigger picture and your heart is filled with a godbe love.

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Speaker 1: I don't know, okay, what I'm looking at it? Well,

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Speaker 1: there you go. What is the godbe love?

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Speaker 2: Okay? Is A is a Greco Christian term referring to love,

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Speaker 2: the highest form of love, charity, and the love.

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Speaker 1: Of God for man and man for God. Wait, that's

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Speaker 1: not charity. I don't like that word already.

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Speaker 2: It's the same thing, okay, an unditional love, which means

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Speaker 2: that you love someone without expecting anything in return.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean okay, there's like okay, yes, okay, I

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Speaker 1: have a lot to say. Okay, yes, but like also no,

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Speaker 2: I'm happy that this. I'm happy I looked this up. Expectation.

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Speaker 2: I know we talked about this all the time, all

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Speaker 2: the time, but this is a question I have, and

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Speaker 2: this is just a friendship in relationship expectation.

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Speaker 1: Now, I know we're not supposed to have any expectation

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Speaker 1: of anything, right, that's not healthy. However, also not realistic.

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Speaker 1: Do not have any like I mean, not not realistic,

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Speaker 1: but the world we live in, that's you have to

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Speaker 2: I need a deeper I need a better understanding with

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Speaker 2: better standards of expectation.

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Speaker 1: Because it's true, like.

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Speaker 2: We could love this tree without expecting anything of it.

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Speaker 2: We know it's gonna however it grows, it's leaning to

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Speaker 2: and we love it as is.

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Speaker 1: Okay, it doesn't have to do anything.

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Speaker 2: For us now, Erica, if I'm your best friend, and

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Speaker 2: I love you, I'm conditionally agape.

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Speaker 3: How realistic is it? Like, of course I want to.

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Speaker 2: Just love you as you are, but like aren't there

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Speaker 2: friend terms? And at some point, like like front expectations,

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Speaker 2: I've well I've got all friends with just being crazy.

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Speaker 1: But like maybe it's like even like if they're crazy,

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Speaker 1: you just love them from Afar, but you still love them.

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Speaker 1: Maybe there doesn't mean you have them in your life,

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Speaker 1: but you still love them. Well, yeah that's true. I

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Speaker 1: I'm just I'm just wondering if that's what agape love

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Speaker 1: is like from Afar. It can't be that, like you

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Speaker 1: just endure fucking abuse forever because you're in a gope love.

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Speaker 2: And not even abuse if in a relationship and whatever

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Speaker 2: kind of relationship it is. What you're giving is not

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Speaker 2: being returned. But I know you can't expect you from

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Speaker 2: you can't expect you from other people. So at what point, like,

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Speaker 2: at what point do you draw the line and expect

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Speaker 2: something and maybe not just like you or look just

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Speaker 2: like you would present your friendship or your relationshipness, But

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Speaker 2: at what point is it like Okay, you're not doing

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Speaker 2: for me what I would do for you, So I'm

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I have to ask a god, the minister,

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Speaker 1: I mean to I'll get back to you on that one.

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Speaker 1: Maybe I'll find out in my church journey, my my

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Speaker 2: I mean, this is a big lesson. I think this

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Speaker 2: is a huge lesson that like it's probably a lifelong

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Speaker 1: But how do you figure it out with that like

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Speaker 1: punching someone? I don't know. I mean I feel like, uh,

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Speaker 1: have you had.

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Speaker 2: A friendship that you feel like your friendship style is

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Speaker 2: one way and that friendship style is a different way.

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Speaker 1: Like their friendship style is different than mine. Yeah, of

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Speaker 1: course I think we all have that. Yeah, there's no

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Speaker 1: show their love it's like it's like the love language loge.

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Speaker 1: So I guess love languages tran quality time or you know,

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Speaker 1: And then I think your love languages, yeah, I can

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Speaker 1: because your love languages are different. M you know, just

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Speaker 1: like in relationshipeah. I mean it's still a relationship.

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Speaker 2: But do you feel like maybe in relationships because it's

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Speaker 2: more intimate, but do you feel like, uh, like, I

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Speaker 2: never read that book. So if your love language is

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Speaker 2: I need to not expect your love language to be

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Speaker 2: the same as mine. But then we're just speaking fucking

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Speaker 1: friendships work out. But I also think that expectations sometimes

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Speaker 1: where I expect my friends to show up for me,

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Speaker 1: you know, and more so like when a nig especially

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Speaker 1: when a nigga's betraying me, Like, you better show up, right,

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Speaker 1: you know, pick a side. This hasn't happened to me before,

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Speaker 1: so I don't know.

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Speaker 2: It's interesting because I feel like I have different love

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Speaker 1: Older it is not an issue, but it just makes

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Speaker 1: there be less understanding. Well, I think also, like you're

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Speaker 1: you grow out of people, just like you grew out

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Speaker 1: of relationships, like with men, you go out of friendships

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Speaker 1: that are platonic as well, you know, like you have

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Speaker 1: breakups with friends too, they're not like mutually exclusive. And

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Speaker 1: I think sometimes we feel like unless a friend has

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Speaker 1: done something terrible to us, and like there's no there's

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Speaker 1: no reason to end the friends.

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Speaker 2: Friends for ten years, been friends for fifteen years, we're

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Speaker 1: But sometimes yeah, yeah, I mean, and I have friends

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Speaker 1: for example, my girlfriend Natalita, like she just moved back

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Speaker 2: But I realize that's my own shit that I have

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Speaker 1: That's something I need to better delegate well that and

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Speaker 1: You're now just wait. Did you see that meme someone

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Speaker 2: Have you guys heard are bonus episode for All Moms

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's Fam Fam Fam. Yeah, we dropped a bonus

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Speaker 2: Basically, our girls over at FAM have started a podcast,

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Speaker 1: I'm still auditioning to be a wife, bitch. Okay, yeah,

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Speaker 1: For two hours? I know, I know. So go check

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Speaker 2: She doesn't really take new clients, but for you, I

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Speaker 3: Oh yeah, well if she comes to you. It's what

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Speaker 2: I feel like we are like remember remember on, Remember

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Speaker 1: kind of reaching out to me a lot, and I

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00:22:33,119 --> 00:22:35,760
Speaker 1: was kind of like stand offish because he's I call

432
00:22:35,840 --> 00:22:38,200
Speaker 1: him Forbidden Bay. This is a New Bay guy's Forbidden Bay.

433
00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:41,160
Speaker 1: And I was like Forbidden Bay, like I don't know,

434
00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:43,919
Speaker 1: like I probably shouldn't hang out with him because it's

435
00:22:44,000 --> 00:22:45,680
Speaker 1: kind of forbidden. Like he used to fuck around with

436
00:22:45,720 --> 00:22:49,080
Speaker 1: one of my friends and like, eh, not a good look.

437
00:22:49,119 --> 00:22:50,560
Speaker 1: I don't want to be that type of girl. I

438
00:22:50,600 --> 00:22:53,040
Speaker 1: know their shit wasn't serious and she's moved on and

439
00:22:53,080 --> 00:22:55,800
Speaker 1: she probably wouldn't care, but like there probably needs to

440
00:22:55,800 --> 00:22:59,960
Speaker 1: be a conversation blah blah blah. So I was kind

441
00:22:59,960 --> 00:23:02,159
Speaker 1: of hesitant, and then like I was like we started

442
00:23:02,160 --> 00:23:03,600
Speaker 1: talking more and I was like, I kind of like

443
00:23:03,640 --> 00:23:05,359
Speaker 1: he's kind of cool. I kind of want to know

444
00:23:05,400 --> 00:23:09,600
Speaker 1: what's going on over there. And then I don't know

445
00:23:09,600 --> 00:23:15,040
Speaker 1: when the roles got reversed, but forbidden, Bay is now

446
00:23:15,680 --> 00:23:18,439
Speaker 1: being courted by me and like you took him on

447
00:23:18,520 --> 00:23:21,280
Speaker 1: to dinner. No, but I just feel like I'm like,

448
00:23:21,320 --> 00:23:23,239
Speaker 1: he'll he'll make plans with me, won't hit me up,

449
00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:25,439
Speaker 1: and then I'll hit him. Oh, he made plans with me,

450
00:23:26,160 --> 00:23:28,840
Speaker 1: hit me up like four hours, like two three hours

451
00:23:28,840 --> 00:23:31,199
Speaker 1: after the plans were supposed to happen, and was like

452
00:23:31,240 --> 00:23:32,840
Speaker 1: my bad, da da da, And I was like, yeah,

453
00:23:32,920 --> 00:23:34,840
Speaker 1: you're late, and he was like, what about what are

454
00:23:34,840 --> 00:23:37,040
Speaker 1: you doing this weekend? I said, I'm busy, and then

455
00:23:37,119 --> 00:23:39,280
Speaker 1: like he texted me this week that weekend and I

456
00:23:39,320 --> 00:23:41,280
Speaker 1: was like coming out and he came and hung out

457
00:23:41,600 --> 00:23:46,719
Speaker 1: at our thing. Oh, at our Vision party and I

458
00:23:46,840 --> 00:23:52,639
Speaker 1: was not in a good place party she was. I

459
00:23:52,760 --> 00:23:59,359
Speaker 1: was super anxious, stressed out, and possibly on drugs that

460
00:23:59,440 --> 00:24:03,320
Speaker 1: were not assisting in any of those problems. Yeah, pretty intense.

461
00:24:03,480 --> 00:24:06,720
Speaker 1: She's like, we're not doing any more events. Ever. I

462
00:24:06,760 --> 00:24:14,200
Speaker 1: was like, okay, you're right anyway. So then I want

463
00:24:14,240 --> 00:24:16,160
Speaker 1: to hang out with him again. I try to make plans.

464
00:24:16,760 --> 00:24:18,800
Speaker 1: He was like unavailable, told me it was gonna hit.

465
00:24:18,840 --> 00:24:20,000
Speaker 1: Then he said he was gonna hit me up to

466
00:24:20,040 --> 00:24:23,480
Speaker 1: make the plan on Sunday, said he didn't hit me

467
00:24:23,520 --> 00:24:26,560
Speaker 1: up on Saturday, didn't hit me up Saturday. Sunday rolls around.

468
00:24:26,680 --> 00:24:29,240
Speaker 1: I told him I'm free after four, After four happens,

469
00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:31,720
Speaker 1: still haven't heard from him. So I text him like

470
00:24:31,760 --> 00:24:35,199
Speaker 1: what's up? And he's like what up? I'm like, are

471
00:24:35,240 --> 00:24:37,160
Speaker 1: we still hanging out? And he's like, yeah, I'm down.

472
00:24:37,440 --> 00:24:40,040
Speaker 1: I'm down, nigga, the fuck what you mean? You're down?

473
00:24:41,040 --> 00:24:43,960
Speaker 1: What you need to be like obsessed with? So then

474
00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:45,399
Speaker 1: I was like, he was like, well, what do you

475
00:24:45,440 --> 00:24:47,000
Speaker 1: want to do? And I was like, I don't know.

476
00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:48,840
Speaker 1: What do you mean? What do I want to do?

477
00:24:48,960 --> 00:24:51,680
Speaker 1: Figure it out? Do you want to lay up? Do

478
00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:53,440
Speaker 1: you want to like watch TV? Do you want to chill?

479
00:24:53,480 --> 00:24:54,720
Speaker 1: Do you want to go in a movie? You want

480
00:24:54,720 --> 00:24:57,280
Speaker 1: to eat? I'm like, do you want to smoke? I said, chill?

481
00:24:57,359 --> 00:25:03,120
Speaker 1: Smoke sounds good? So anyway, I went over there and she.

482
00:25:03,160 --> 00:25:06,400
Speaker 2: Called me crying, not crying, like I don't know, I'm

483
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:08,000
Speaker 2: just I feel like I'm courting these niggas, but I'm

484
00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:09,520
Speaker 2: still going and it's raining.

485
00:25:09,560 --> 00:25:12,639
Speaker 1: Oh god, it's raining so hard. Why are you going

486
00:25:12,680 --> 00:25:15,360
Speaker 1: over here? This is crazy? What kind of bitch goes

487
00:25:15,400 --> 00:25:19,440
Speaker 1: to see a guy in the rain, literally like so

488
00:25:20,160 --> 00:25:24,120
Speaker 1: mad at myself, but still going. It was literally pouring.

489
00:25:24,680 --> 00:25:27,240
Speaker 1: I was on the freeway and scared for my life,

490
00:25:27,240 --> 00:25:29,639
Speaker 1: but I was like, I gotta see what's going on

491
00:25:29,680 --> 00:25:30,040
Speaker 1: over here.

492
00:25:30,040 --> 00:25:31,800
Speaker 3: I gotta see forbidden because it's forbidden.

493
00:25:31,960 --> 00:25:34,320
Speaker 1: Keep in mind, I told you forbidden days are always

494
00:25:34,359 --> 00:25:38,199
Speaker 1: going to be more appealing because it's forbidden. It's like

495
00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:40,440
Speaker 1: Adam and even the fruit and shit. He also talks

496
00:25:40,440 --> 00:25:43,200
Speaker 1: about himself a lot. Wait, maybe a bad sign? Wait,

497
00:25:43,320 --> 00:25:45,679
Speaker 1: like that he's so bombed. No, just like he just

498
00:25:45,720 --> 00:25:49,440
Speaker 1: talks a lot about himself, Like like I was just yeah, yeah,

499
00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:54,119
Speaker 1: what's his sign? Uh? They literally into my crystal bomb.

500
00:25:54,320 --> 00:26:01,119
Speaker 1: He is a sad hm adventurous. I don't really know

501
00:26:01,200 --> 00:26:05,239
Speaker 1: much else, but yeah, I don't know. I'm just like

502
00:26:05,320 --> 00:26:07,560
Speaker 1: I just feel like Also, like even on Hinge, it's

503
00:26:07,640 --> 00:26:10,119
Speaker 1: like talking to these guys, I'm like, are we going

504
00:26:10,200 --> 00:26:13,159
Speaker 1: to meet up? Or yeah, I'm like what are we doing?

505
00:26:13,320 --> 00:26:14,520
Speaker 1: I ate up? A guy was like do you want

506
00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:16,560
Speaker 1: to meet for coffee? Never like he was talking to

507
00:26:16,560 --> 00:26:18,320
Speaker 1: me all the time, like the whole time, And then

508
00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:21,800
Speaker 1: I made the initiation of like, hey, let's hang out

509
00:26:22,440 --> 00:26:24,880
Speaker 1: haven't heard crickets. I'm talking to this guy who said

510
00:26:24,880 --> 00:26:27,640
Speaker 1: he was into like what is it? Yeah?

511
00:26:27,840 --> 00:26:30,119
Speaker 2: And you know that sounds fun. So I was like

512
00:26:30,200 --> 00:26:31,760
Speaker 2: he's like, I'm like, so, what are you into? And

513
00:26:31,800 --> 00:26:35,679
Speaker 2: you know, and he's like choking and spitting and just

514
00:26:35,800 --> 00:26:39,280
Speaker 2: I'm into everything except like shit in blood. I was like, yeah,

515
00:26:39,359 --> 00:26:43,200
Speaker 2: me too, Yeah, that's where I drove around. And then

516
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:45,399
Speaker 2: he's like, well, are you gonna do something for me?

517
00:26:45,560 --> 00:26:47,080
Speaker 2: Like and I was like yeah. I was like, well,

518
00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:48,840
Speaker 2: I don't know, we'll see. He's like, yeah, we'll see.

519
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:51,719
Speaker 1: Never heard from him again. Like what, niggah?

520
00:26:51,920 --> 00:26:54,520
Speaker 2: What what is all this fucking word for play? For

521
00:26:54,600 --> 00:26:57,680
Speaker 2: no goddamn reason do you want to meet up right now?

522
00:26:58,080 --> 00:26:59,880
Speaker 2: It's sushie, That's exactly what it is.

523
00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:04,639
Speaker 1: Just internet flirting. It's just internet attention real quick. You

524
00:27:04,800 --> 00:27:06,679
Speaker 1: just like want to like start a combo because it's

525
00:27:06,720 --> 00:27:09,800
Speaker 1: interesting and then he goes back to his wife. Is

526
00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:11,960
Speaker 1: that it probably because you know I don't trust these

527
00:27:12,040 --> 00:27:12,760
Speaker 1: niggas anymore.

528
00:27:13,520 --> 00:27:20,280
Speaker 2: I don't trust myself because I make bad decisions over people.

529
00:27:23,760 --> 00:27:30,600
Speaker 1: Damn. I just want to know, like, is it like

530
00:27:30,640 --> 00:27:32,320
Speaker 1: I had a friend, like one of my best friends,

531
00:27:32,320 --> 00:27:35,320
Speaker 1: actually my like my high school sweetheart. He's not married,

532
00:27:35,800 --> 00:27:38,920
Speaker 1: about to have a baby, and his wife proposed to him. Oh,

533
00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:41,240
Speaker 1: oh my god, I just saw that online.

534
00:27:41,560 --> 00:27:43,960
Speaker 2: That was actually popped in my head when we talked

535
00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:47,080
Speaker 2: about courting niggas, like on one knee.

536
00:27:47,440 --> 00:27:49,479
Speaker 1: I don't know how it happened. No, I think they

537
00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:51,920
Speaker 1: were on the couch and she just like pulled a

538
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:54,320
Speaker 1: ring out and was like, marry me or something. Would

539
00:27:54,320 --> 00:27:58,600
Speaker 1: you do that? You don't pink? No, No, I wouldn't either.

540
00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:05,480
Speaker 4: Fuck no, there's no fucking way. There's no fucking that's

541
00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:09,360
Speaker 4: where the double standard should live for me personally, there's

542
00:28:09,359 --> 00:28:14,320
Speaker 4: no fucking way. And but the way I'm going driving

543
00:28:14,400 --> 00:28:16,880
Speaker 4: in the rain, who knows. Who fucking knows?

544
00:28:16,960 --> 00:28:20,320
Speaker 1: So what happened when he got over there? We talked

545
00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:22,439
Speaker 1: a lot about He talked a lot. I felt like

546
00:28:22,440 --> 00:28:24,959
Speaker 1: I didn't share one story that bothers me when I'm

547
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:27,480
Speaker 1: on a date. I also didn't really feel like talking. Yeah,

548
00:28:27,560 --> 00:28:29,119
Speaker 1: so I'm just like all right, and I was he

549
00:28:29,520 --> 00:28:31,040
Speaker 1: kind of makes me a little nervous, so like I

550
00:28:31,080 --> 00:28:35,159
Speaker 1: didn't really I was like, Okay, I don't want no niggas.

551
00:28:35,160 --> 00:28:36,679
Speaker 1: That makes me nervous. I don't have time for that.

552
00:28:37,480 --> 00:28:40,680
Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't I'm too confident to be nervous.

553
00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:42,280
Speaker 2: I don't have time if you make me nervous if

554
00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:45,560
Speaker 2: not gonna work, I kind of not nervous.

555
00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:47,480
Speaker 1: Like okay, well I like to make a nigga nervous.

556
00:28:47,720 --> 00:28:52,520
Speaker 1: I like that. No, you know what I'm yeah, but

557
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:54,760
Speaker 1: you know, like I've done that and it doesn't end well,

558
00:28:55,400 --> 00:28:57,200
Speaker 1: Like I have to kind of obsessed with you because

559
00:28:57,200 --> 00:28:59,880
Speaker 1: it's at some point the roles switch. Wait, I know

560
00:29:00,080 --> 00:29:03,880
Speaker 1: you can't smoke, but is there a weed here somewhere? Yeah,

561
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:05,960
Speaker 1: we can't simp of it. We can't summit up in it.

562
00:29:07,840 --> 00:29:09,720
Speaker 1: You want some for this? No, I don't want that

563
00:29:09,760 --> 00:29:13,000
Speaker 1: goddamn canoe caneen. We could still supposed to was I

564
00:29:13,040 --> 00:29:18,080
Speaker 1: supposed to refrigerate it? We have this canoeen that King

565
00:29:18,160 --> 00:29:24,680
Speaker 1: Noir gave us and I've had it since forever, since

566
00:29:24,760 --> 00:29:27,040
Speaker 1: last year. You think it's okay. Should take a little sip,

567
00:29:27,040 --> 00:29:31,719
Speaker 1: he said, Let me smell it. Oh still potent. Oh god,

568
00:29:32,040 --> 00:29:33,480
Speaker 1: I'm ready to take a sip too. I'm not going

569
00:29:33,480 --> 00:29:36,840
Speaker 1: through my back hurts. You're having a lot of anxiety

570
00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:50,880
Speaker 1: this week. Oh my god, Oh my god. Why anyway, Yeah,

571
00:29:50,920 --> 00:29:53,880
Speaker 1: we we we hung out, we talked, blah blah blah,

572
00:29:53,920 --> 00:29:57,520
Speaker 1: and then like oh then he yeah, then we smoked.

573
00:29:58,520 --> 00:30:01,240
Speaker 1: We smoked like this new weed that it's like patent pending.

574
00:30:01,720 --> 00:30:05,600
Speaker 1: It's called like caviar, calve gold or some shit, which

575
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:09,880
Speaker 1: I was like, how is weed patent pending? So whatever,

576
00:30:09,960 --> 00:30:13,479
Speaker 1: I smoked it because you know whatever, because I accept

577
00:30:13,480 --> 00:30:16,640
Speaker 1: all drugs. And then we just were sitting and talking.

578
00:30:16,680 --> 00:30:18,280
Speaker 1: And then at some point, like I don't know, I

579
00:30:18,320 --> 00:30:20,600
Speaker 1: got really awkward and I was like gonna leave. I

580
00:30:20,680 --> 00:30:22,240
Speaker 1: was like I think I'm gonna go because you're not

581
00:30:22,280 --> 00:30:25,120
Speaker 1: too high. Yeah, I was like, way you said I'm

582
00:30:25,120 --> 00:30:26,760
Speaker 1: gonna go. I was like, I'm gonna go. It's like

583
00:30:26,760 --> 00:30:29,120
Speaker 1: I think I should go. I'm getting tired. The rain

584
00:30:29,200 --> 00:30:32,360
Speaker 1: is pouring. What point, how long had you been there?

585
00:30:33,280 --> 00:30:36,360
Speaker 1: Like two hours? MILLI an hour and a half, two

586
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:39,479
Speaker 1: hours maybe not even maybe not even two hours. And

587
00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:41,040
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm so high. I I need to

588
00:30:41,080 --> 00:30:42,520
Speaker 1: get out of here. Like and I kind of felt

589
00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:45,320
Speaker 1: like he does he want me to leave because like

590
00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:47,920
Speaker 1: I couldn't tell, like he was yawning, I've done that.

591
00:30:48,000 --> 00:30:50,240
Speaker 2: I have gotten so high that I'm like, what does

592
00:30:50,280 --> 00:30:53,400
Speaker 2: he like me, is that this other bridge that's here?

593
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:54,800
Speaker 1: Does he want me here? Does he get me to

594
00:30:54,840 --> 00:30:57,000
Speaker 1: get out? And then I'm like, must leave, right, That's

595
00:30:57,000 --> 00:30:58,520
Speaker 1: how I felt. I felt like, and you know, this

596
00:30:58,560 --> 00:31:01,000
Speaker 1: happened one other time when what's happened a few times,

597
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:02,640
Speaker 1: but there was one specific time when I was hanging

598
00:31:02,640 --> 00:31:05,880
Speaker 1: out with Reese and she gave me an edible edible

599
00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:08,360
Speaker 1: and like, I immediately got super paranoid and I was like,

600
00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:10,800
Speaker 1: she wants me to leave. I gotta go. She's ready

601
00:31:10,800 --> 00:31:12,560
Speaker 1: for me to go. I'm imposing, Oh my god, I

602
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:14,480
Speaker 1: gotta go. And then I couldn't drive, so it was

603
00:31:14,720 --> 00:31:18,240
Speaker 1: nice bashed how to come pick me up? Blah blah blah.

604
00:31:18,280 --> 00:31:20,720
Speaker 1: But anyway, so yeah, I felt like I should leave.

605
00:31:20,760 --> 00:31:21,960
Speaker 1: And then he was like are you what are you?

606
00:31:22,160 --> 00:31:23,840
Speaker 1: Where are you going going? And I was like, I

607
00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:26,320
Speaker 1: don't know, I'm tired. He's like, I'm like I'm hungry.

608
00:31:26,360 --> 00:31:28,400
Speaker 1: He's like, are you hungry? Let's order some food. I

609
00:31:28,440 --> 00:31:32,480
Speaker 1: was like, okay, he wants me to say psycho, but

610
00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:37,600
Speaker 1: good answer. That's why sometimes weed for real, like yeah, yeah,

611
00:31:37,600 --> 00:31:39,880
Speaker 1: weed on the first day could be not a good look.

612
00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:41,440
Speaker 1: And I was in his space too, like I was

613
00:31:41,480 --> 00:31:46,240
Speaker 1: in his environment. I just felt uneven, you know what

614
00:31:46,320 --> 00:31:48,000
Speaker 1: I mean. I need not be under the influence the

615
00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:50,800
Speaker 1: next time we see him at all. You're getting all

616
00:31:50,880 --> 00:31:54,520
Speaker 1: types of mixed messages. So we ordered the food, we

617
00:31:54,760 --> 00:31:58,680
Speaker 1: ate the food, and then we went to what we

618
00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:01,360
Speaker 1: went and started watching this doc this documentary. I don't

619
00:32:01,360 --> 00:32:02,720
Speaker 1: know if you guys have seen it. It's called Don't

620
00:32:02,720 --> 00:32:03,440
Speaker 1: Fuck with Cats.

621
00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:07,720
Speaker 2: You gotta watch this crazy shit, so crazy, so crazy?

622
00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:09,960
Speaker 2: Can I give me nightmares and murderous thoughts?

623
00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:15,160
Speaker 1: Oh my god? Lucas such a strange She looked like

624
00:32:15,160 --> 00:32:18,640
Speaker 1: a murderer, like a beautiful, a beautiful murderer, but not

625
00:32:18,720 --> 00:32:22,440
Speaker 1: like like a beautiful gay twink twink tink what are

626
00:32:22,440 --> 00:32:27,000
Speaker 1: they called a tink twink? Narcissist gay murder? So why

627
00:32:27,040 --> 00:32:30,680
Speaker 1: this would be, like, you know, first date, so material?

628
00:32:31,200 --> 00:32:33,400
Speaker 1: I don't know, Probably because he knew we weren't gonna

629
00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:37,000
Speaker 1: watch it. So we're sitting on the couch and then

630
00:32:37,480 --> 00:32:39,600
Speaker 1: I'm sitting there because I'm like, oh, God, like and

631
00:32:39,760 --> 00:32:42,400
Speaker 1: this is forbidden bay, like I shouldn't be doing this anyway,

632
00:32:43,800 --> 00:32:45,520
Speaker 1: should I? And that's another reason why I thought maybe

633
00:32:45,520 --> 00:32:46,680
Speaker 1: I should leave. I was like, I don't know if

634
00:32:46,680 --> 00:32:47,720
Speaker 1: I should be here. This is weird.

635
00:32:47,720 --> 00:32:51,680
Speaker 2: I started getting paranoid about your trifle and this call

636
00:32:51,760 --> 00:32:52,360
Speaker 2: him trifling.

637
00:32:52,520 --> 00:32:55,920
Speaker 1: I'm already here, ready to go. Fuck. I was like,

638
00:32:56,040 --> 00:32:58,400
Speaker 1: and I took a shower before I went. I was like,

639
00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:01,560
Speaker 1: should I shave my pussy or should I not? Because

640
00:33:01,640 --> 00:33:04,880
Speaker 1: literally that could be the determining factor what or not

641
00:33:05,200 --> 00:33:08,080
Speaker 1: you know or not because that if you know, like

642
00:33:08,320 --> 00:33:11,280
Speaker 1: sometimes bitches do not shave the pussy because they need

643
00:33:11,320 --> 00:33:15,640
Speaker 1: to stop themselves. That's never. That's never stopped me. Never,

644
00:33:15,840 --> 00:33:18,040
Speaker 1: not one time. I don't think it's really stopped me,

645
00:33:18,160 --> 00:33:19,880
Speaker 1: but sometime or like, don't take a shower?

646
00:33:20,040 --> 00:33:22,440
Speaker 2: That stopped me not taking a shower maybe, but then

647
00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:23,640
Speaker 2: I'll be like, do you have a shower?

648
00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:25,880
Speaker 3: Is there hot water?

649
00:33:26,680 --> 00:33:30,920
Speaker 1: Right? Paper towels, And I'm like, why don't you just

650
00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:34,240
Speaker 1: take a real shower? This retired off you right now in.

651
00:33:34,160 --> 00:33:36,960
Speaker 3: The fucking bathroom, wedding paper, towels and toilet paper.

652
00:33:36,760 --> 00:33:39,960
Speaker 1: Trying to be quiet, turn the cheek on very quietly

653
00:33:40,040 --> 00:33:44,360
Speaker 1: so you can't hear the water run. I'm also trying

654
00:33:44,360 --> 00:33:45,920
Speaker 1: to like, go do it quickly.

655
00:33:45,760 --> 00:33:49,680
Speaker 2: Right because you know then he knows then your pussy

656
00:33:49,720 --> 00:33:52,120
Speaker 2: say smells straight like hands the dial.

657
00:33:55,440 --> 00:33:57,840
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I mean this.

658
00:33:57,600 --> 00:34:01,920
Speaker 2: This conversation confirms my theory that women are honestly more

659
00:34:01,960 --> 00:34:05,520
Speaker 2: mannish than men. And a lot of times our I, damn,

660
00:34:05,520 --> 00:34:07,000
Speaker 2: what the fuck is about to go down? The guy

661
00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:10,799
Speaker 2: is not even thinking about it. We're like, hmm, that

662
00:34:10,960 --> 00:34:12,120
Speaker 2: dick might be big.

663
00:34:12,880 --> 00:34:18,200
Speaker 1: Well let me tell you. Yeah. So we started watching

664
00:34:18,239 --> 00:34:23,040
Speaker 1: the documentary and at some point, like I was, I

665
00:34:23,040 --> 00:34:24,840
Speaker 1: was sitting on the edge of the couch and he

666
00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:28,040
Speaker 1: was like, he like moved a far away from me.

667
00:34:28,160 --> 00:34:29,799
Speaker 1: And I was like, okay, like maybe he doesn't want

668
00:34:29,800 --> 00:34:34,359
Speaker 1: me to leave. And I just sat there, like you know,

669
00:34:34,560 --> 00:34:37,960
Speaker 1: and he was like, are you a cuddler? And I

670
00:34:38,000 --> 00:34:40,680
Speaker 1: was like yeah. And so I went over there and

671
00:34:40,760 --> 00:34:42,040
Speaker 1: laid on him, and I was like, okay, I guess

672
00:34:42,040 --> 00:34:45,160
Speaker 1: this is I didn't make the first move. This is him,

673
00:34:45,200 --> 00:34:48,799
Speaker 1: not my phone, do anything. I'm just here. I went

674
00:34:48,840 --> 00:34:51,000
Speaker 1: over there and I laid on him, and I could

675
00:34:51,040 --> 00:34:52,800
Speaker 1: feel his dick in my back and it was I

676
00:34:52,800 --> 00:34:55,280
Speaker 1: could feel it. And wait, but you were laying on him?

677
00:34:55,440 --> 00:35:00,319
Speaker 1: Was it hard? No? Oh damn? And we I watched

678
00:35:00,360 --> 00:35:02,440
Speaker 1: the Doctor marry for like a good thirty minutes and

679
00:35:02,480 --> 00:35:05,319
Speaker 1: then at some point like he started kind of like

680
00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:09,439
Speaker 1: grabbing around my neck and then like kind of like

681
00:35:09,600 --> 00:35:12,319
Speaker 1: choking me a little bit, and you know, I don't

682
00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:15,799
Speaker 1: know me. I love a good choking me. I was

683
00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:18,120
Speaker 1: like choking the jou. I was like, is this happening?

684
00:35:18,160 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 1: What's he doing? Forbidden? Like before even kiss he was

685
00:35:21,640 --> 00:35:24,520
Speaker 1: joking because I was like on like he was laying

686
00:35:24,560 --> 00:35:29,719
Speaker 1: back and I was laying on top of him, and

687
00:35:29,760 --> 00:35:32,719
Speaker 1: then we like then you know, you start kissing making out.

688
00:35:32,760 --> 00:35:34,399
Speaker 1: We made out for like I don't know an hour,

689
00:35:34,680 --> 00:35:36,520
Speaker 1: which is crazy. I haven't done that in a long time.

690
00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:40,279
Speaker 1: And then you know it suck in the titties rubbing thing,

691
00:35:40,600 --> 00:35:45,560
Speaker 1: and then what were your thoughts? Like, please share your thoughts? Wait?

692
00:35:45,560 --> 00:35:47,640
Speaker 1: What are my thoughts? Like? Should I do more? Like

693
00:35:47,719 --> 00:35:49,879
Speaker 1: is this dumb that I'm just making out? Oh yeah?

694
00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:52,960
Speaker 1: Oh yeah? Then we're just making out? And then I

695
00:35:53,000 --> 00:35:55,759
Speaker 1: started like guilting myself, like I started being like am

696
00:35:55,760 --> 00:35:57,880
Speaker 1: I mature for just one? Like? Should I just make

697
00:35:57,920 --> 00:35:58,960
Speaker 1: out with it? I don't only want to make out,

698
00:35:59,040 --> 00:36:01,560
Speaker 1: Let's just make out? And I was like is that stupid?

699
00:36:01,640 --> 00:36:03,319
Speaker 1: Like what a record? What the fuck I want to do?

700
00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:06,640
Speaker 1: I'm a grown ass? Woman, I can fucking slip his

701
00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:08,359
Speaker 1: hand on my pants if I want to. You only

702
00:36:08,360 --> 00:36:12,320
Speaker 1: live once. And I was like, but also chill because

703
00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:14,840
Speaker 1: you know have like you know, you want to have

704
00:36:14,880 --> 00:36:16,600
Speaker 1: a second date, Like, don't do too much? What if

705
00:36:16,640 --> 00:36:18,400
Speaker 1: he doesn't call you back? Do you think niggas have

706
00:36:18,480 --> 00:36:20,960
Speaker 1: this conversation ever? Like like will she call me if

707
00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:23,640
Speaker 1: we do too much? No? I'm like is it too much?

708
00:36:23,680 --> 00:36:25,200
Speaker 1: And then I was like, well, also like I know

709
00:36:25,239 --> 00:36:26,960
Speaker 1: what the fuck I want. I'm like, I'm growing, I

710
00:36:26,960 --> 00:36:29,200
Speaker 1: got a kid. The fuck I don't give a fuck.

711
00:36:29,680 --> 00:36:31,640
Speaker 1: And then it was like literally going back and forth

712
00:36:31,640 --> 00:36:33,640
Speaker 1: in my head like should I touch his stick? Should

713
00:36:33,640 --> 00:36:34,959
Speaker 1: I not touch stick? Should I touch his stick? Should

714
00:36:34,960 --> 00:36:36,480
Speaker 1: not touch it? Okay, I'm touching his stick. Okay, we're

715
00:36:36,480 --> 00:36:38,399
Speaker 1: over the wharf the sweatpants. We're safe, We're safe for safe.

716
00:36:38,440 --> 00:36:40,200
Speaker 1: We're just gonna stay here. This is it, okay. And

717
00:36:40,200 --> 00:36:42,279
Speaker 1: then at some point I like pulled away and I

718
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:44,120
Speaker 1: was like, okay, let's just like watch the movie. And

719
00:36:44,160 --> 00:36:45,880
Speaker 1: I was like okay. I was like, I need a break.

720
00:36:45,960 --> 00:36:49,360
Speaker 1: You said that I need a break, and like we

721
00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:51,000
Speaker 1: just watched the movie. And then I was like I

722
00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:54,040
Speaker 1: don't want to break. How long did you watch the movie?

723
00:36:54,160 --> 00:36:56,640
Speaker 1: Like two minutes? And then like I got back on top.

724
00:36:56,719 --> 00:37:00,040
Speaker 1: Then I was like, just went for it, just traveled it.

725
00:37:01,560 --> 00:37:05,000
Speaker 1: And we definitely have a lot of chemistry. Uh, probably

726
00:37:05,000 --> 00:37:09,279
Speaker 1: because it's written. And then at some point, like I

727
00:37:09,320 --> 00:37:13,640
Speaker 1: took my shirt off and like we were just I

728
00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:15,600
Speaker 1: don't know, like I was lifting up his shirt. I

729
00:37:15,640 --> 00:37:19,120
Speaker 1: was kissing his stomach, and then like then I pulled

730
00:37:19,120 --> 00:37:21,160
Speaker 1: his dick out, and then I was like, okay, like

731
00:37:22,680 --> 00:37:25,160
Speaker 1: fuck it, I'm gonna suck it. And then I did

732
00:37:25,239 --> 00:37:25,879
Speaker 1: you pull it out?

733
00:37:26,360 --> 00:37:27,920
Speaker 3: I know there's this weird thing like how long we're

734
00:37:27,920 --> 00:37:29,080
Speaker 3: gonna make out for what's gonna come?

735
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:31,160
Speaker 1: We had been making out. We had been going at

736
00:37:31,200 --> 00:37:33,160
Speaker 1: it for like an hour and a half. At this point,

737
00:37:33,520 --> 00:37:36,960
Speaker 1: we were in like episode two of fuck Don't Fuck

738
00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:40,600
Speaker 1: with Cats okay first, but not fucking each other. Don't

739
00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:43,120
Speaker 1: episode of Don't Fuck with Cats but not fucking We

740
00:37:43,120 --> 00:37:45,440
Speaker 1: were episode two and you know, each episode's an hour.

741
00:37:45,480 --> 00:37:48,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say those episodes are long, so I'm like

742
00:37:48,320 --> 00:37:50,840
Speaker 1: so then I'm like I do it, and like, wow,

743
00:37:52,800 --> 00:37:56,839
Speaker 1: bomb beautiful. Penis really nice, really really wanted to sit

744
00:37:56,920 --> 00:37:57,160
Speaker 1: on it.

745
00:37:57,200 --> 00:37:59,160
Speaker 2: But I was like Okay, you're better than me, so

746
00:37:59,160 --> 00:38:01,040
Speaker 2: I'd be like, this is SIT's over come on.

747
00:38:01,320 --> 00:38:05,000
Speaker 1: No, that was like the only amount of strength I had.

748
00:38:05,040 --> 00:38:09,000
Speaker 1: I could control that. But then after I was done,

749
00:38:09,400 --> 00:38:11,640
Speaker 1: I felt bad I did not I was like, why

750
00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:14,160
Speaker 1: did I do that? Because you want to know? But

751
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:17,880
Speaker 1: I did? But also like I just felt like I

752
00:38:18,000 --> 00:38:20,360
Speaker 1: just made it too easy, especially for a nigga I'm courting,

753
00:38:21,120 --> 00:38:23,960
Speaker 1: Especially for a nigga who has made no fucking effort

754
00:38:24,160 --> 00:38:27,919
Speaker 1: at all. You know, we've all done it. I feel

755
00:38:27,960 --> 00:38:29,799
Speaker 1: like I'm supposed to be past this by now. We

756
00:38:29,840 --> 00:38:32,839
Speaker 1: talk about this shit all the time. Why am Why

757
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,279
Speaker 1: did I do that? When I drove home, I was

758
00:38:35,320 --> 00:38:39,879
Speaker 1: like talking to myself, you dumb bitch. Not only did

759
00:38:39,920 --> 00:38:44,799
Speaker 1: you do that, it's still raining, bitch, You're driving home

760
00:38:44,880 --> 00:38:48,400
Speaker 1: at three am in the fucking rain, got a nigga's house,

761
00:38:48,640 --> 00:38:52,839
Speaker 1: who didn't make plans, who's forbidden, who made no effort

762
00:38:52,840 --> 00:38:57,120
Speaker 1: eat you That part too, that part two, That part

763
00:38:57,120 --> 00:39:01,319
Speaker 1: two made me feel like, why didn't you return a favor? Yeah?

764
00:39:01,360 --> 00:39:05,239
Speaker 1: Well yeah, but also like I.

765
00:39:05,200 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 3: Know it wasn't that you're posting. It's a rapper sitting

766
00:39:07,120 --> 00:39:07,319
Speaker 3: on it.

767
00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:10,160
Speaker 1: Yeah that's yeah. But also that too, Yeah, but I

768
00:39:10,320 --> 00:39:13,160
Speaker 1: just just like it's he gonna call me? Like do

769
00:39:13,239 --> 00:39:14,160
Speaker 1: I want him to call me?

770
00:39:14,719 --> 00:39:16,760
Speaker 2: There's something there's some weird thing about if a woman

771
00:39:17,000 --> 00:39:18,560
Speaker 2: just gives the guy head and it's.

772
00:39:21,719 --> 00:39:23,920
Speaker 1: More hope. I felt like I felt like a hoe.

773
00:39:24,160 --> 00:39:24,840
Speaker 1: I felt hoey.

774
00:39:25,080 --> 00:39:27,880
Speaker 2: I feel like I sucked dick and just suck dick recently.

775
00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:28,839
Speaker 2: But I can't think it was dick.

776
00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:30,879
Speaker 1: It was I felt holley. And then there was also

777
00:39:30,920 --> 00:39:34,040
Speaker 1: a point in time while I can't talk, where I

778
00:39:34,080 --> 00:39:35,640
Speaker 1: was trying to make eye contact with him and I

779
00:39:35,680 --> 00:39:37,960
Speaker 1: wasn't sure if he was like making it with me.

780
00:39:38,080 --> 00:39:42,040
Speaker 1: And then I feel was like, what's going on? You

781
00:39:42,080 --> 00:39:44,600
Speaker 1: have your fucking eye contact and lets me know you're

782
00:39:44,600 --> 00:39:46,239
Speaker 1: in it? Or and like I'm not being a hoe,

783
00:39:46,480 --> 00:39:50,680
Speaker 1: like we're being hosed together. We're contact with me, Make

784
00:39:50,680 --> 00:39:52,520
Speaker 1: I contact me? Do you love me? Not love me?

785
00:39:52,719 --> 00:39:56,359
Speaker 1: But you know? But anyway, my god, that Candleen, I'm high.

786
00:39:56,520 --> 00:39:59,080
Speaker 1: I haven't mean all day back doesn't hurt anymore. It's great.

787
00:39:59,160 --> 00:40:01,760
Speaker 1: I'm feeling a little loopy. How much did you drink?

788
00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:04,520
Speaker 1: Just a sip? But I haven't eaten all day and

789
00:40:04,560 --> 00:40:11,080
Speaker 1: it's six o'clock. Ate one piece of toes. Anyway, I

790
00:40:11,160 --> 00:40:13,600
Speaker 1: text him and I said, got home, made it home,

791
00:40:14,200 --> 00:40:17,000
Speaker 1: good night, and he wrote, glad you made it home.

792
00:40:17,280 --> 00:40:20,080
Speaker 1: Call me tomorrow, and that irritated the fuck out of me.

793
00:40:20,200 --> 00:40:25,479
Speaker 1: Why call me tomorrow? You call me nigga? I mean, okay.

794
00:40:25,520 --> 00:40:27,399
Speaker 1: The call me tomorrow also made me feel okay, good

795
00:40:27,440 --> 00:40:29,080
Speaker 1: that okay he wants me to call him, but then

796
00:40:29,080 --> 00:40:31,400
Speaker 1: it also made me feel like, so I have to

797
00:40:31,440 --> 00:40:34,239
Speaker 1: call you okay, you're crazy okay, And then I did

798
00:40:34,560 --> 00:40:38,280
Speaker 1: even crazier. Oh no, what did you do? I didn't

799
00:40:38,320 --> 00:40:43,080
Speaker 1: hear about this? Please? So I wanted to call him tomorrow.

800
00:40:43,600 --> 00:40:46,439
Speaker 1: So it's tomorrow, right, and I want to call him right.

801
00:40:47,360 --> 00:40:50,200
Speaker 1: I'm not ready, but I don't know what I'm gonna say.

802
00:40:50,760 --> 00:40:52,840
Speaker 1: I don't have anything to talk about with him, so

803
00:40:52,880 --> 00:40:55,680
Speaker 1: I made up something to talk about. What the fuck

804
00:40:55,880 --> 00:41:07,560
Speaker 1: did you make up? Crazy? Oh my god? Sorry? I

805
00:41:07,560 --> 00:41:09,960
Speaker 1: called him and I was like hey, He was like,

806
00:41:10,640 --> 00:41:14,920
Speaker 1: what's up? And I was like so, I was like,

807
00:41:15,120 --> 00:41:17,920
Speaker 1: so that food you ordered me last night? Oh my god?

808
00:41:18,440 --> 00:41:20,719
Speaker 1: Just lying I said would you order me last night?

809
00:41:20,760 --> 00:41:23,360
Speaker 1: Made me sick. This was a lie totally. I was

810
00:41:23,360 --> 00:41:25,719
Speaker 1: like I threw up and he was like, I told

811
00:41:25,760 --> 00:41:27,560
Speaker 1: you that food wasn't good, and I was like, wait,

812
00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:29,200
Speaker 1: why did why why did he order your food he

813
00:41:29,239 --> 00:41:31,239
Speaker 1: told you wasn't good. Well, he ordered it because he

814
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:32,440
Speaker 1: thought it was good. And then we got it and

815
00:41:32,480 --> 00:41:33,799
Speaker 1: he didn't think it was good. He didn't even need

816
00:41:33,840 --> 00:41:38,120
Speaker 1: his food. But I was stoned starving tie of course,

817
00:41:38,160 --> 00:41:40,160
Speaker 1: because welcome to Elan and it was fine. It didn't

818
00:41:40,160 --> 00:41:43,319
Speaker 1: make me sick. I I just needed an excuse to

819
00:41:43,360 --> 00:41:45,560
Speaker 1: call it. I just wanted to blame him for something,

820
00:41:45,960 --> 00:41:48,760
Speaker 1: because that's what we do everybody. I think you're crazy,

821
00:41:48,760 --> 00:41:51,000
Speaker 1: I don't care because you know what, because someone who's

822
00:41:51,000 --> 00:41:52,640
Speaker 1: listening has done some dumb shit like this just to

823
00:41:52,680 --> 00:41:56,560
Speaker 1: have a reason to call someone. Guaranteed, I'm just admitting it.

824
00:41:56,880 --> 00:42:00,120
Speaker 2: You know what's funny about this conversation is like if

825
00:42:00,120 --> 00:42:01,680
Speaker 2: you have if you like a guy or you're like

826
00:42:01,760 --> 00:42:04,680
Speaker 2: into him, these are all the feelings you had. But literally,

827
00:42:04,760 --> 00:42:06,400
Speaker 2: as I was driving over here, I thought about this

828
00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:08,600
Speaker 2: guy whose house I went over. He was like totally

829
00:42:08,920 --> 00:42:10,680
Speaker 2: reaching out to me a lot of times, and I

830
00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:11,960
Speaker 2: was just like laowing him off. I went over his

831
00:42:12,040 --> 00:42:14,200
Speaker 2: house like three times, but this one time I had

832
00:42:14,200 --> 00:42:17,319
Speaker 2: taken Mollie, like in the daytime for no reason, and

833
00:42:17,360 --> 00:42:19,160
Speaker 2: it was just rolling over into the evening, and so

834
00:42:19,200 --> 00:42:19,759
Speaker 2: I called him.

835
00:42:19,800 --> 00:42:21,160
Speaker 1: I ever told this story.

836
00:42:21,480 --> 00:42:23,360
Speaker 2: And cause I was like, he's kind of short, but

837
00:42:23,440 --> 00:42:28,440
Speaker 2: he's a big So I went over there, had sex,

838
00:42:28,640 --> 00:42:31,439
Speaker 2: it was great, gave me head, left in the middle

839
00:42:31,440 --> 00:42:34,200
Speaker 2: of the night, never reached out to him again.

840
00:42:35,680 --> 00:42:37,759
Speaker 1: And today I was like, wonder how like, oh, no,

841
00:42:37,920 --> 00:42:41,000
Speaker 1: it's terrible. What are the guy's doing? Which I wish

842
00:42:41,040 --> 00:42:43,000
Speaker 1: himul merry Christmas? No, I should just leave it. But

843
00:42:43,040 --> 00:42:44,759
Speaker 1: I'm like, I didn't even think twice about it. I

844
00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:47,520
Speaker 1: just was like, thanks by. But like when you like

845
00:42:47,520 --> 00:42:49,480
Speaker 1: an a little bit, You're like, how can I call him?

846
00:42:49,520 --> 00:42:49,960
Speaker 3: Should I say?

847
00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:50,200
Speaker 1: Hello?

848
00:42:50,400 --> 00:42:50,600
Speaker 2: Yeah?

849
00:42:51,719 --> 00:42:54,959
Speaker 1: You got me, made me sick, I'm make me feel better,

850
00:42:55,239 --> 00:42:55,959
Speaker 1: Come at me. Hello.

851
00:42:57,719 --> 00:43:00,400
Speaker 2: So it's like, it's crazy, how like our women, like

852
00:43:00,560 --> 00:43:04,239
Speaker 2: our whole shaming women is like it.

853
00:43:04,160 --> 00:43:05,280
Speaker 1: All depends on.

854
00:43:06,680 --> 00:43:08,440
Speaker 2: How much we like the guy and how much we

855
00:43:08,440 --> 00:43:09,560
Speaker 2: feel like he's into us.

856
00:43:10,040 --> 00:43:11,439
Speaker 1: I don't even know if he's into me. I mean,

857
00:43:11,960 --> 00:43:14,040
Speaker 1: I'm so confused by him. I think it's just there's

858
00:43:14,040 --> 00:43:17,160
Speaker 1: an allure around about him, around him, it's the forbiddenness.

859
00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:20,520
Speaker 1: It's like I went to his home, it's beautiful. You know,

860
00:43:20,760 --> 00:43:23,880
Speaker 1: he is a dad and like he cares a lot

861
00:43:23,920 --> 00:43:26,319
Speaker 1: about his kids, and that's obviously a turn on for me.

862
00:43:28,080 --> 00:43:33,640
Speaker 1: You know, he's adventurous. Uh, he's kind of suck He's sexy.

863
00:43:33,719 --> 00:43:36,640
Speaker 1: He's also good looking. His body's bombed. He was cute.

864
00:43:36,640 --> 00:43:39,520
Speaker 1: He has a big penis, Like you know, I have

865
00:43:39,640 --> 00:43:47,799
Speaker 1: never seen that penis. That's gonna suck you up. So anyway,

866
00:43:48,000 --> 00:43:52,280
Speaker 1: I don't know, the point is I needs to do better.

867
00:43:52,640 --> 00:43:54,480
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna reach out any Oh. I also text

868
00:43:54,560 --> 00:43:56,959
Speaker 1: him today too because I'm crazy and said what because

869
00:43:56,960 --> 00:43:58,919
Speaker 1: I told him I was building this thing for Iri,

870
00:43:59,200 --> 00:44:01,400
Speaker 1: and like I sent him a picture of it, like

871
00:44:01,400 --> 00:44:03,479
Speaker 1: I did it. Look what I did? Well, I didn't

872
00:44:03,520 --> 00:44:07,160
Speaker 1: do it, but MISSION accomplished what he said. He hasn't responded.

873
00:44:07,200 --> 00:44:09,160
Speaker 1: I think he's well. I know that he's busy. He's

874
00:44:09,160 --> 00:44:16,600
Speaker 1: out of town right now with family. So I am

875
00:44:16,680 --> 00:44:19,000
Speaker 1: I think, Oh God, I don't want to say it.

876
00:44:19,239 --> 00:44:21,120
Speaker 1: I think I've just been spiraling too. I also saw

877
00:44:21,120 --> 00:44:26,920
Speaker 1: a happy bay recently. No did you when like three

878
00:44:27,000 --> 00:44:29,200
Speaker 1: days ago? And did you make up?

879
00:44:29,360 --> 00:44:29,480
Speaker 2: No?

880
00:44:30,160 --> 00:44:34,600
Speaker 1: No, we're over that, right, mm. I don't know. I

881
00:44:34,680 --> 00:44:36,960
Speaker 1: kind of like love him a little bit still, but

882
00:44:37,040 --> 00:44:38,600
Speaker 1: like I don't want to like do that.

883
00:44:39,480 --> 00:44:40,040
Speaker 4: No, I don't.

884
00:44:40,280 --> 00:44:44,719
Speaker 1: I'm not saw okay, you know what you are so beautiful,

885
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:50,520
Speaker 1: you are amazing. I too. I just I don't know.

886
00:44:51,760 --> 00:44:53,239
Speaker 1: I don't I don't want to. I'm not gonna like

887
00:44:53,239 --> 00:44:54,960
Speaker 1: I haven't called him since I'm not pursuing it. I

888
00:44:55,000 --> 00:44:57,239
Speaker 1: haven't even really been thinking about him. It's just when

889
00:44:57,239 --> 00:44:59,600
Speaker 1: I'm in his presence, I get like rap, I like

890
00:44:59,680 --> 00:45:01,520
Speaker 1: it's he does you know, he does a lot of

891
00:45:01,760 --> 00:45:04,719
Speaker 1: deep deep deep sir, and you love a deep stair

892
00:45:04,840 --> 00:45:06,600
Speaker 1: but also makes me but I don't his just like

893
00:45:06,640 --> 00:45:09,759
Speaker 1: it's really intense and I get nervous. He's another one

894
00:45:09,760 --> 00:45:13,680
Speaker 1: that makes me nervous. And also I'm closed off too

895
00:45:13,760 --> 00:45:15,680
Speaker 1: because I'm like, oh, we've done this, Like, don't try

896
00:45:15,719 --> 00:45:18,040
Speaker 1: to like get me, don't try to deep stare me now, nigga.

897
00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:22,240
Speaker 1: But I don't know. I've just been like revisiting old things.

898
00:45:22,280 --> 00:45:24,480
Speaker 1: I don't know, not revisiting. That's the only old thing

899
00:45:24,520 --> 00:45:29,640
Speaker 1: I've I've been I've visited. But I just need support.

900
00:45:29,760 --> 00:45:33,000
Speaker 1: I need I need, I need to do better. I

901
00:45:33,040 --> 00:45:36,319
Speaker 1: need to not message for bidd and Bay anymore and

902
00:45:36,480 --> 00:45:38,879
Speaker 1: make him make an effort, and if he doesn't, then

903
00:45:39,040 --> 00:45:40,960
Speaker 1: there's no more Forbidden Bay. And really there shouldn't be

904
00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:43,840
Speaker 1: any forbidden Bay, to be honest, because there's more bays

905
00:45:43,880 --> 00:45:46,120
Speaker 1: out here. I think there are so many bays and

906
00:45:46,320 --> 00:45:51,440
Speaker 1: our bay will come and be amazing. I need to

907
00:45:51,520 --> 00:45:52,360
Speaker 1: I think I need a break.

908
00:45:52,400 --> 00:45:54,920
Speaker 2: I I know I need a break because I make

909
00:45:56,200 --> 00:45:59,479
Speaker 2: I make the decisions with my vagina a lot.

910
00:46:00,360 --> 00:46:03,399
Speaker 1: I just not like a guy, and I just.

911
00:46:03,560 --> 00:46:05,759
Speaker 2: I just I need to do better for myself, for

912
00:46:05,880 --> 00:46:09,719
Speaker 2: my energy, for my healing, for my trauma, whatever that is.

913
00:46:09,760 --> 00:46:11,359
Speaker 1: Whenever I feel figure the shit out.

914
00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:14,640
Speaker 4: So I'm just are you doing a detox again?

915
00:46:15,280 --> 00:46:18,400
Speaker 1: I'm doing Dick talks? You are? I have to? Okay?

916
00:46:18,560 --> 00:46:19,840
Speaker 1: Starting one today? No?

917
00:46:20,360 --> 00:46:22,920
Speaker 3: Well yes, well wait I don't know when this comes out.

918
00:46:22,960 --> 00:46:24,440
Speaker 1: What twenty twenty?

919
00:46:24,480 --> 00:46:28,359
Speaker 3: Okay, Yeah, I'm gonna try and go a year.

920
00:46:29,239 --> 00:46:31,480
Speaker 1: Really, I think you could do it because you were

921
00:46:31,520 --> 00:46:33,799
Speaker 1: really in it. I know you went like six months.

922
00:46:33,880 --> 00:46:35,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know I can do it. I just don't

923
00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:36,799
Speaker 3: want to have but.

924
00:46:36,840 --> 00:46:39,200
Speaker 1: Once you start like you were feeling it, you were

925
00:46:39,200 --> 00:46:39,560
Speaker 1: like not.

926
00:46:40,160 --> 00:46:45,280
Speaker 2: But for me, like escapism for me is like people sex, drinking.

927
00:46:47,200 --> 00:46:49,360
Speaker 1: What problems though, Dick.

928
00:46:50,360 --> 00:46:53,040
Speaker 2: Like that's my way of like getting high, like going away,

929
00:46:53,280 --> 00:46:54,560
Speaker 2: I mean, like not like weed.

930
00:46:54,680 --> 00:46:58,480
Speaker 1: But you know what I mean, that's my escapism. So

931
00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:00,439
Speaker 1: I just need to do better. I need to want

932
00:47:00,480 --> 00:47:08,040
Speaker 1: more for myself. So that's my goal. Yeah, that's it.

933
00:47:08,560 --> 00:47:10,160
Speaker 1: And that is mean I can't date it. Just I'm

934
00:47:10,160 --> 00:47:14,040
Speaker 1: not fucking well, don't give don't give head because I

935
00:47:14,080 --> 00:47:18,319
Speaker 1: don't feel like how afterwards? For sure, I'm never giving

936
00:47:18,320 --> 00:47:22,279
Speaker 1: ahead again, like just just like that was the first

937
00:47:22,280 --> 00:47:23,800
Speaker 1: time I've ever given not the first time. That was

938
00:47:23,840 --> 00:47:25,839
Speaker 1: the first time in a very long time that I've

939
00:47:25,880 --> 00:47:28,879
Speaker 1: given head. And that was it. Sometimes I feel good

940
00:47:28,880 --> 00:47:30,719
Speaker 1: about myself. Sometimes I'm like, thank god, I can go

941
00:47:30,760 --> 00:47:33,880
Speaker 1: all the way. Well, I mean I I that was

942
00:47:33,880 --> 00:47:35,560
Speaker 1: a given because I knew I wasn't going to do that,

943
00:47:35,800 --> 00:47:38,040
Speaker 1: you know. But like the fact that that's all that,

944
00:47:38,280 --> 00:47:41,000
Speaker 1: I don't know, it just it wasn't returned. It does

945
00:47:41,080 --> 00:47:44,640
Speaker 1: it makes me feel like I did everything for you.

946
00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:46,040
Speaker 1: I drove in the rain.

947
00:47:46,160 --> 00:47:48,640
Speaker 2: It's very high school, you know, it's roots back to

948
00:47:48,719 --> 00:47:49,160
Speaker 2: high school.

949
00:47:49,160 --> 00:47:50,479
Speaker 1: You know what I thought about you too. I thought

950
00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:52,399
Speaker 1: I kind of thought about you too. Oh my god,

951
00:47:52,400 --> 00:47:53,879
Speaker 1: I really did think about you when I was giving

952
00:47:53,920 --> 00:47:59,040
Speaker 1: himpet because you told you told me this, You told

953
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:01,200
Speaker 1: me and you shared on the podcas Hass that there

954
00:48:01,280 --> 00:48:03,080
Speaker 1: was a time where you would give head, turned around

955
00:48:03,120 --> 00:48:04,879
Speaker 1: like you wouldn't look at the guy, like you would

956
00:48:04,880 --> 00:48:07,480
Speaker 1: turn the other way. And at first I started that

957
00:48:07,520 --> 00:48:09,560
Speaker 1: way and I wasn't even conscious that I was doing it,

958
00:48:09,640 --> 00:48:11,840
Speaker 1: and I was like, wait, no, we need to turn

959
00:48:12,040 --> 00:48:16,279
Speaker 1: around here, like we need to turn around here because

960
00:48:16,280 --> 00:48:19,439
Speaker 1: I need to make sure like we're in this together, right,

961
00:48:19,600 --> 00:48:25,680
Speaker 1: This isn't like a one man's situation. Lord Jesus, save me,

962
00:48:26,200 --> 00:48:26,759
Speaker 1: Save me.

963
00:48:27,960 --> 00:48:29,759
Speaker 2: You know, we all need to be saved. But at

964
00:48:29,840 --> 00:48:32,120
Speaker 2: least we know we need some saving. We need some

965
00:48:32,800 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 2: you know, there's some fine tuning that needs to happen.

966
00:48:35,600 --> 00:48:35,759
Speaker 1: You know.

967
00:48:35,800 --> 00:48:38,239
Speaker 2: I also wonder how many years on the podcast we're

968
00:48:38,280 --> 00:48:42,080
Speaker 2: gonna be talking. It's like here too, We're like we're

969
00:48:42,080 --> 00:48:45,160
Speaker 2: gonna be better, gonna be healing, dick toxing. I'm not

970
00:48:45,200 --> 00:48:47,160
Speaker 2: gonna be given any head. I'm not gonna go to

971
00:48:47,200 --> 00:48:49,759
Speaker 2: any random's house and get some dick at night. It's

972
00:48:49,880 --> 00:48:51,800
Speaker 2: gonna happen five years.

973
00:48:52,040 --> 00:49:00,160
Speaker 1: Look, Buddha didn't become Buddha in two years. Okay, it's

974
00:49:00,160 --> 00:49:02,759
Speaker 1: a new year. New you. There's like some girl who's

975
00:49:02,760 --> 00:49:11,280
Speaker 1: sent to horries. Okay, it's time for horse stories. Whose stories?

976
00:49:14,920 --> 00:49:20,200
Speaker 1: Do we need to update our horse or horse sounds? Okay? Okay.

977
00:49:20,280 --> 00:49:22,279
Speaker 1: It's spring twenty ten and I'm in eleventh grade and

978
00:49:22,280 --> 00:49:25,120
Speaker 1: in Panama City Beach, Florida. Me and Mike. Oh, it's Florida.

979
00:49:25,120 --> 00:49:27,120
Speaker 1: That's why me and my girlfriends had been in Panama

980
00:49:27,160 --> 00:49:28,880
Speaker 1: for about two days. At this point, we got dressed

981
00:49:28,880 --> 00:49:31,480
Speaker 1: and headed to the beach like we did daily after breakfast.

982
00:49:31,800 --> 00:49:34,560
Speaker 1: We get there and of course it's packed. It's packed

983
00:49:34,560 --> 00:49:38,800
Speaker 1: of people like sardines, packed with people like sardines. Bitches

984
00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:42,160
Speaker 1: are butt naked and these niggas have all their guns out,

985
00:49:43,200 --> 00:49:46,880
Speaker 1: so exciting. The drinks start rolling in and the blunts

986
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:49,279
Speaker 1: start lighting. I'm drinking and mixing everything under the sun.

987
00:49:49,360 --> 00:49:51,640
Speaker 1: We didn't care. Fast forward a few hours and we

988
00:49:51,640 --> 00:49:53,359
Speaker 1: meet a group of guys. It was five of us

989
00:49:53,360 --> 00:49:56,080
Speaker 1: and six of them. One of them takes interest in

990
00:49:56,080 --> 00:49:58,400
Speaker 1: me and we walk off from the crowd to some

991
00:49:58,520 --> 00:50:01,800
Speaker 1: chairs in the distance up and then he comes out

992
00:50:01,920 --> 00:50:04,200
Speaker 1: of left field and tells me he wants to taste me.

993
00:50:04,880 --> 00:50:07,160
Speaker 1: And this. At this point, we are both faded and

994
00:50:07,200 --> 00:50:09,799
Speaker 1: he's fine as fuck, so I say, bet I'm down.

995
00:50:10,520 --> 00:50:12,080
Speaker 1: We walk a little further down the beach and he

996
00:50:12,120 --> 00:50:15,160
Speaker 1: eats me out in broad daylight on the beach. Reckless

997
00:50:15,200 --> 00:50:17,759
Speaker 1: as fuck, but this isn't the kicker. We go and

998
00:50:17,800 --> 00:50:19,960
Speaker 1: meet back up with our friends. All boot up. We

999
00:50:20,080 --> 00:50:23,319
Speaker 1: ended up eating dinner around six pm with them and

1000
00:50:23,360 --> 00:50:25,719
Speaker 1: me and my dude exchange numbers. He texted me later

1001
00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:28,520
Speaker 1: on the later on that night, around like nine or

1002
00:50:28,560 --> 00:50:30,680
Speaker 1: ten pm and asked me what we were getting into

1003
00:50:30,719 --> 00:50:33,239
Speaker 1: that night. I told him we were going to a

1004
00:50:33,280 --> 00:50:35,600
Speaker 1: foam party and he said they may come through, but

1005
00:50:35,600 --> 00:50:38,120
Speaker 1: didn't end up seeing them. Once the night of partying

1006
00:50:38,160 --> 00:50:40,239
Speaker 1: was over, of course, around two am, I got the

1007
00:50:40,400 --> 00:50:42,799
Speaker 1: what you do in text? I knew he wanted to fuck,

1008
00:50:43,080 --> 00:50:45,400
Speaker 1: and so did I, so I replied something kinky and

1009
00:50:45,440 --> 00:50:48,800
Speaker 1: he told me to come over. I know I shouldn't

1010
00:50:48,800 --> 00:50:50,759
Speaker 1: have gone by myself, but bucket I did. Took a

1011
00:50:50,800 --> 00:50:54,719
Speaker 1: taxi to his condo for hours from hours, about a

1012
00:50:54,760 --> 00:50:57,520
Speaker 1: seven minute ride, and met up with the dude. Him

1013
00:50:57,560 --> 00:50:59,640
Speaker 1: and all six of his friends shared the condo. There

1014
00:50:59,680 --> 00:51:01,880
Speaker 1: were two girls already there with two of the guys

1015
00:51:01,880 --> 00:51:04,040
Speaker 1: that I didn't know, but I sat down and was social.

1016
00:51:04,400 --> 00:51:06,200
Speaker 1: After we smoked and chilled for a bit, he invites

1017
00:51:06,239 --> 00:51:07,680
Speaker 1: me into his room and I knew it was about

1018
00:51:07,719 --> 00:51:10,200
Speaker 1: to go down. He wasted no time. Once he's closed

1019
00:51:10,239 --> 00:51:12,400
Speaker 1: the door, he started kissing my neck and climbing on me,

1020
00:51:12,440 --> 00:51:15,200
Speaker 1: and I was so down. Fast forward about forty minutes

1021
00:51:15,400 --> 00:51:18,799
Speaker 1: were and we're all full on fucking, and we are

1022
00:51:18,840 --> 00:51:22,640
Speaker 1: full on fucking. It's great. Next next thing I know,

1023
00:51:22,719 --> 00:51:25,040
Speaker 1: I hear the door open and I jump to cover myself,

1024
00:51:25,080 --> 00:51:27,520
Speaker 1: but he doesn't. I was like, uh, who the fuck

1025
00:51:27,600 --> 00:51:30,000
Speaker 1: is that one of the niggas walked in and closed

1026
00:51:30,040 --> 00:51:34,400
Speaker 1: the door. Bitch, oh bit, he was fine as fine.

1027
00:51:36,600 --> 00:51:39,200
Speaker 1: I was looking like, what the fuck were about to do?

1028
00:51:39,640 --> 00:51:43,719
Speaker 1: Oh my god? Pause, we need some names. The main dude,

1029
00:51:43,840 --> 00:51:46,200
Speaker 1: let's call him Tie. The nigga that I walked in,

1030
00:51:46,400 --> 00:51:50,000
Speaker 1: let's call him Kyle. So after Kyle closes the door,

1031
00:51:50,120 --> 00:51:54,440
Speaker 1: I'm looking crazy as hell butt naked, and so is Tay. Okay.

1032
00:51:54,800 --> 00:51:57,080
Speaker 1: Tay looks at me and asks if I'm comfortable if

1033
00:51:57,160 --> 00:52:01,400
Speaker 1: Kyle watched us. I was like, oh, sure, this is

1034
00:52:01,480 --> 00:52:05,520
Speaker 1: kinky and I don't know. Oh my god, y'all. Two

1035
00:52:05,560 --> 00:52:10,680
Speaker 1: more niggas, one at a time, closing the door behind

1036
00:52:10,719 --> 00:52:13,640
Speaker 1: them about five minutes ago. Oh my god, girl in

1037
00:52:13,680 --> 00:52:16,440
Speaker 1: eleventh grade, I was scared, and every time Kyle was

1038
00:52:17,160 --> 00:52:20,840
Speaker 1: contact with me, like asking if I was comfortable, Kyle's

1039
00:52:20,840 --> 00:52:24,160
Speaker 1: the guy closed the door. The initial guy, No, Kyle.

1040
00:52:24,280 --> 00:52:27,080
Speaker 1: The other guy was asking her if she was comfortable,

1041
00:52:27,239 --> 00:52:29,480
Speaker 1: which I appreciate and kind of turned me on more

1042
00:52:29,520 --> 00:52:35,319
Speaker 1: that he cared that I felt safe. I'm like, oh

1043
00:52:35,360 --> 00:52:37,759
Speaker 1: my god, he cares about me. Let's make sure I

1044
00:52:37,800 --> 00:52:42,400
Speaker 1: don't feel rapey. Okay. After a while of fucking with

1045
00:52:42,480 --> 00:52:46,080
Speaker 1: the three other guys watching what I knew was about

1046
00:52:46,120 --> 00:52:49,959
Speaker 1: to happen happened. One of them walked up and took

1047
00:52:49,960 --> 00:52:52,040
Speaker 1: his dick out and then asked me to lock it.

1048
00:52:52,320 --> 00:52:56,360
Speaker 1: I said, absolutely, girl, I was in it at this point,

1049
00:52:56,520 --> 00:52:58,879
Speaker 1: so hot and ready. He started eating me out while

1050
00:52:58,920 --> 00:53:01,920
Speaker 1: Tay beat his meat and made out with me. At

1051
00:53:01,920 --> 00:53:04,000
Speaker 1: this point, the other two guys had their dicks out,

1052
00:53:04,120 --> 00:53:08,000
Speaker 1: beating it in opposite sides of the room. Within twenty minutes,

1053
00:53:08,120 --> 00:53:10,360
Speaker 1: we all were naked and they were running a train

1054
00:53:10,480 --> 00:53:15,120
Speaker 1: on me. Yup, the whole ass train, and I loved it.

1055
00:53:15,520 --> 00:53:18,040
Speaker 1: They were all dark and sexy and had big dicks.

1056
00:53:19,160 --> 00:53:23,239
Speaker 1: I was in I love this band. I was in

1057
00:53:23,320 --> 00:53:25,960
Speaker 1: a dream one would be in me and the other

1058
00:53:26,000 --> 00:53:29,040
Speaker 1: one would be beating their meats and meats. I gave

1059
00:53:29,080 --> 00:53:31,719
Speaker 1: Tay head once. Well, one of the guys was behind me,

1060
00:53:31,800 --> 00:53:36,000
Speaker 1: and that was different. This was my first multiples encounter. Well, girl,

1061
00:53:36,040 --> 00:53:41,080
Speaker 1: you jumped in. Let's just go, let's just go cam base.

1062
00:53:41,160 --> 00:53:46,560
Speaker 1: It had a few threesomes after this, but this was new. Afterwards, afterwards,

1063
00:53:46,600 --> 00:53:49,960
Speaker 1: I was worn out. Everyone left the room but me

1064
00:53:50,440 --> 00:53:52,719
Speaker 1: and Tay. But me and Tay, and we knocked out.

1065
00:53:52,800 --> 00:53:54,719
Speaker 1: I woke up in a few hours later and went

1066
00:53:54,760 --> 00:53:57,560
Speaker 1: back to my condo. Told my friends I fucked Ay

1067
00:53:57,680 --> 00:54:01,319
Speaker 1: and that's it. Aren't you happy? We're your friends now.

1068
00:54:02,280 --> 00:54:05,240
Speaker 1: After that trip, Kyle started dating one of my friend's

1069
00:54:05,320 --> 00:54:07,759
Speaker 1: friends who was on that trip with me, and I

1070
00:54:07,840 --> 00:54:09,879
Speaker 1: never to this day told her he was a part

1071
00:54:09,920 --> 00:54:12,480
Speaker 1: of the training with me. Oh my god. They are

1072
00:54:12,560 --> 00:54:15,200
Speaker 1: married with two kids, and I was at the wedding

1073
00:54:15,680 --> 00:54:21,440
Speaker 1: laughing my ass off. Yolo, whoa, that was really good.

1074
00:54:21,920 --> 00:54:25,600
Speaker 2: I mean, that's actually a bomb hoary. Finally someone comes

1075
00:54:25,600 --> 00:54:28,879
Speaker 2: with the fucking shits. Oh, and you know what I'm

1076
00:54:28,960 --> 00:54:29,600
Speaker 2: all about.

1077
00:54:29,600 --> 00:54:31,680
Speaker 1: It like, if you feel comfortable, if you don't feel

1078
00:54:31,680 --> 00:54:34,680
Speaker 1: like it's rape. Live your mother fucking life.

1079
00:54:34,719 --> 00:54:36,799
Speaker 2: If it's safe, if it's not rape, if you trust,

1080
00:54:36,800 --> 00:54:39,040
Speaker 2: if you feel like there's trust in the room and respect, Like,

1081
00:54:39,640 --> 00:54:43,960
Speaker 2: I feel like it sucks that women like women have

1082
00:54:44,040 --> 00:54:46,560
Speaker 2: been have been labeled if you have sex with multiple

1083
00:54:46,560 --> 00:54:49,360
Speaker 2: guys at the same time, you're you're automatically like a

1084
00:54:49,440 --> 00:54:53,360
Speaker 2: slug but nigga Like, but nigga's be requesting threesomes and

1085
00:54:53,480 --> 00:54:56,400
Speaker 2: all types of shit on a regular basis, and there

1086
00:54:56,440 --> 00:54:57,880
Speaker 2: are no one thinks twice about it.

1087
00:54:59,080 --> 00:55:01,719
Speaker 1: So I I feel like we should. I mean, I'm

1088
00:55:02,320 --> 00:55:05,680
Speaker 1: she fucking loved it. She felt empowered, she was in it,

1089
00:55:05,760 --> 00:55:10,200
Speaker 1: she felt comfortable, she was comfortable, like and you know what,

1090
00:55:10,239 --> 00:55:11,920
Speaker 1: I kind of love about the stories that she didn't

1091
00:55:11,920 --> 00:55:14,000
Speaker 1: tell me about it. I love that she told no

1092
00:55:14,040 --> 00:55:17,600
Speaker 1: one except now Toll. The twist is that she went

1093
00:55:17,640 --> 00:55:20,280
Speaker 1: to the wedding, Oh my god.

1094
00:55:21,239 --> 00:55:25,120
Speaker 2: And I think women are sometimes afraid to admit that

1095
00:55:25,120 --> 00:55:27,640
Speaker 2: that's their fantasy. And for a long time for me,

1096
00:55:27,840 --> 00:55:30,520
Speaker 2: I wouldn't even let the fantasy come into my head,

1097
00:55:30,600 --> 00:55:32,799
Speaker 2: Like it was automatically shut off.

1098
00:55:32,840 --> 00:55:35,880
Speaker 1: As as Raypie, any type of like any type of

1099
00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:37,279
Speaker 1: multiple men. I was like, oh, that's rape.

1100
00:55:37,760 --> 00:55:41,040
Speaker 2: But until I saw savages, as you all know, and

1101
00:55:41,120 --> 00:55:44,160
Speaker 2: until like I really had to like remove the stigmas

1102
00:55:44,200 --> 00:55:46,319
Speaker 2: around what that meant because but.

1103
00:55:49,080 --> 00:55:50,520
Speaker 1: I feel like I lived through you a little bit.

1104
00:55:50,600 --> 00:55:53,719
Speaker 1: I mean I was a little jealous. I know, like

1105
00:55:54,239 --> 00:55:56,399
Speaker 1: you're all chocolate, this sounds like my type of dude,

1106
00:55:56,440 --> 00:55:58,839
Speaker 1: and then all haspic dicks I mean ideal and you're

1107
00:55:58,880 --> 00:56:03,759
Speaker 1: the main event. That's actually it's pretty king bitch. Yeah.

1108
00:56:03,800 --> 00:56:05,760
Speaker 1: And then he let any you guys fell asleep together

1109
00:56:05,880 --> 00:56:09,040
Speaker 1: and you decided when you wanted to leave, right bye

1110
00:56:09,080 --> 00:56:12,839
Speaker 1: bye bye. Well that put me in a better mood,

1111
00:56:13,000 --> 00:56:13,319
Speaker 1: it did.

1112
00:56:13,440 --> 00:56:17,239
Speaker 3: Actually, thanks, you're right, I'm actually kind of happy now.

1113
00:56:19,800 --> 00:56:25,520
Speaker 1: It's not wonderful how liberating, like like sharing honesty and freedom,

1114
00:56:25,640 --> 00:56:28,880
Speaker 1: sexual freedom can be. And then that's so great, I mean,

1115
00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:31,440
Speaker 1: not that you absolutely have to indulge about, just to

1116
00:56:31,480 --> 00:56:33,719
Speaker 1: know like people are out here doing it, enjoying it.

1117
00:56:33,840 --> 00:56:35,880
Speaker 1: You may want to be out here enjoying it and

1118
00:56:35,920 --> 00:56:39,000
Speaker 1: doing it under good terms too, and knowing that like

1119
00:56:39,040 --> 00:56:41,280
Speaker 1: you're not, like you said, like you're not alone, and that.

1120
00:56:43,360 --> 00:56:45,800
Speaker 2: People be fucking, people be fucking and people have all

1121
00:56:45,840 --> 00:56:46,839
Speaker 2: types of kings, all.

1122
00:56:46,760 --> 00:56:48,960
Speaker 1: Types of sex. We literally just found a guy in

1123
00:56:49,000 --> 00:56:53,400
Speaker 1: a diaper from Horrible Decisions. Yeah, horrible Wheezy posted or

1124
00:56:53,400 --> 00:56:55,799
Speaker 1: that they both put they interviewed him right, yeah, and

1125
00:56:56,080 --> 00:57:00,360
Speaker 1: he his kink is that he likes to be treated

1126
00:57:00,360 --> 00:57:03,640
Speaker 1: like a baby and diaper. And then and then I

1127
00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:06,319
Speaker 1: saw someone comment and I clicked on her and she

1128
00:57:06,480 --> 00:57:08,239
Speaker 1: likes to be treated like a baby too. She has

1129
00:57:08,239 --> 00:57:11,600
Speaker 1: a pacifier though. He was even posted he's like, sometimes

1130
00:57:11,640 --> 00:57:13,920
Speaker 1: I work. He posted a photo and he was like,

1131
00:57:14,080 --> 00:57:16,240
Speaker 1: sometimes I wear my diaper depending on how hard the

1132
00:57:16,280 --> 00:57:17,360
Speaker 1: workout is, but not.

1133
00:57:17,320 --> 00:57:20,640
Speaker 2: Today it was too hard or something I read into. Yeah,

1134
00:57:20,800 --> 00:57:22,360
Speaker 2: I saw it. I did, I saw it.

1135
00:57:22,360 --> 00:57:24,400
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't, I can't. That's not for me.

1136
00:57:24,560 --> 00:57:28,720
Speaker 1: I'm sorry that did you. I respect for your Absolutely,

1137
00:57:28,760 --> 00:57:30,680
Speaker 1: he's peeing in there. That's part of the whole fantasy.

1138
00:57:31,760 --> 00:57:32,760
Speaker 1: It's the whole he's.

1139
00:57:32,600 --> 00:57:35,880
Speaker 2: A baby, Like I don't want to really change her.

1140
00:57:35,840 --> 00:57:37,280
Speaker 1: No, they want And that's like the guy with the

1141
00:57:37,320 --> 00:57:38,760
Speaker 1: hinge date I went on and he told me that

1142
00:57:38,880 --> 00:57:40,400
Speaker 1: he dated a girl that wanted to be treated like

1143
00:57:40,480 --> 00:57:42,680
Speaker 1: a baby too, or a baby girl, a baby doll

1144
00:57:42,800 --> 00:57:45,240
Speaker 1: or some shit, and like she would want him to

1145
00:57:45,320 --> 00:57:47,360
Speaker 1: tuck him her in at night, and then she like

1146
00:57:47,440 --> 00:57:49,800
Speaker 1: kicked the covers off like like a little kid and

1147
00:57:49,880 --> 00:57:52,920
Speaker 1: be like ooh sorry, and then he'd have to come

1148
00:57:52,960 --> 00:57:54,840
Speaker 1: back and fix them again, and then she'd do it again,

1149
00:57:54,880 --> 00:57:57,840
Speaker 1: and then he got really pissed and I'm not doing this.

1150
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:00,200
Speaker 1: And then there was one time where she like came over,

1151
00:58:00,680 --> 00:58:02,520
Speaker 1: not probably not one time, probably all the time, but

1152
00:58:03,200 --> 00:58:05,760
Speaker 1: she laid on him and he wanted she wanted him

1153
00:58:05,800 --> 00:58:09,400
Speaker 1: to like brush her hair, and she kept talking.

1154
00:58:09,160 --> 00:58:10,120
Speaker 4: To him like a little bean.

1155
00:58:10,400 --> 00:58:17,120
Speaker 1: Stop baby, I mean I do like I like, how

1156
00:58:17,160 --> 00:58:20,920
Speaker 1: do you call it? Like play? Like role play. But

1157
00:58:20,960 --> 00:58:22,960
Speaker 1: I don't want to be a baby. No, I want

1158
00:58:23,000 --> 00:58:25,040
Speaker 1: to be like a realtor or like a lawyer.

1159
00:58:25,320 --> 00:58:28,200
Speaker 2: I'll do like high school age, like babysitter, Like I'm

1160
00:58:28,280 --> 00:58:30,560
Speaker 2: babysitting your kids like seventeen.

1161
00:58:30,920 --> 00:58:32,760
Speaker 1: I don't even have that fantasy. I don't want to

1162
00:58:32,760 --> 00:58:37,120
Speaker 1: be like too. Mine are all like occupational. I'm a lawyer,

1163
00:58:37,200 --> 00:58:40,120
Speaker 1: I'm a doctor, I'm like a therapist, I am a realtor.

1164
00:58:40,360 --> 00:58:45,040
Speaker 1: I work at a coffee shop. Why are all of

1165
00:58:45,120 --> 00:58:50,360
Speaker 1: mine like have to do right? Oh my god? Well,

1166
00:58:50,400 --> 00:58:53,200
Speaker 1: you know what this all means for everyone. There's just

1167
00:58:53,240 --> 00:58:55,280
Speaker 1: so much more of life to explore your kinks.

1168
00:58:55,320 --> 00:58:57,120
Speaker 2: You don't really know what you're into until you try it,

1169
00:58:57,240 --> 00:58:59,120
Speaker 2: or until you think about it and give it some thought,

1170
00:58:59,200 --> 00:59:01,520
Speaker 2: or until you come upon someone you're attracted to who

1171
00:59:01,560 --> 00:59:02,160
Speaker 2: does it and.

1172
00:59:02,040 --> 00:59:05,560
Speaker 1: Then you're like, hum, yeah, it's really it's bad a

1173
00:59:05,560 --> 00:59:06,160
Speaker 1: lot of times.

1174
00:59:06,280 --> 00:59:10,160
Speaker 2: And also from the men listening, I don't know if

1175
00:59:10,160 --> 00:59:13,280
Speaker 2: this is how that anonymous Susie whatever you call her.

1176
00:59:14,200 --> 00:59:16,200
Speaker 1: I don't know if that was like the perfect.

1177
00:59:15,800 --> 00:59:19,240
Speaker 2: Way to go about it, five way or whatever that was,

1178
00:59:19,640 --> 00:59:20,400
Speaker 2: But I feel like.

1179
00:59:20,480 --> 00:59:22,880
Speaker 1: What's the perfect way though, Well, I don't know.

1180
00:59:22,920 --> 00:59:24,680
Speaker 2: Maybe should we have discussed this before we all got

1181
00:59:24,720 --> 00:59:26,120
Speaker 2: in the room or before she was naked?

1182
00:59:26,200 --> 00:59:28,000
Speaker 1: Oh you mean like that wasn't Yeah.

1183
00:59:27,800 --> 00:59:29,600
Speaker 2: But at least there was no forcefulness. At least there

1184
00:59:29,600 --> 00:59:32,160
Speaker 2: was permission being asked. I think this is so important

1185
00:59:32,160 --> 00:59:33,760
Speaker 2: for men, Like that could be a fantasy, but you

1186
00:59:33,840 --> 00:59:36,240
Speaker 2: have to really be delicate with the like, you know,

1187
00:59:36,400 --> 00:59:39,120
Speaker 2: consent again is a big deal, and not making someone

1188
00:59:39,120 --> 00:59:39,840
Speaker 2: you can ruin.

1189
00:59:39,640 --> 00:59:42,960
Speaker 1: I like, talking about it before would not have been

1190
00:59:42,960 --> 00:59:46,200
Speaker 1: it wouldn't have gone by well, it wouldn't have happened maybe,

1191
00:59:46,240 --> 00:59:49,160
Speaker 1: and also it also would have just been to everyone.

1192
00:59:49,200 --> 00:59:51,280
Speaker 1: She would have been to in her head, I have

1193
00:59:51,360 --> 00:59:53,800
Speaker 1: to make a decision right now. Like she was already hot,

1194
00:59:53,840 --> 00:59:56,080
Speaker 1: she was already like ready, she would have been fucking

1195
00:59:56,360 --> 00:59:58,600
Speaker 1: you know, like well, I feel like and she felt

1196
00:59:58,600 --> 01:00:00,800
Speaker 1: like a connection with him, like they probably he was

1197
01:00:00,840 --> 01:00:04,880
Speaker 1: probably really into her, and like she felt safe. Safe. Essentially,

1198
01:00:04,880 --> 01:00:07,320
Speaker 1: that's what it comes down is important. I feel like

1199
01:00:07,360 --> 01:00:09,520
Speaker 1: it's really that's that's what it comes down to. A

1200
01:00:09,560 --> 01:00:11,280
Speaker 1: lot of times, for the most part, at least for me,

1201
01:00:13,200 --> 01:00:15,120
Speaker 1: we're not I don't know why I selected Dick. I

1202
01:00:15,120 --> 01:00:18,920
Speaker 1: did I feel safe? I'm not sure, or you've just

1203
01:00:18,920 --> 01:00:21,880
Speaker 1: felt forny. I just felt like it was forbidden. I

1204
01:00:21,880 --> 01:00:25,880
Speaker 1: don't know. Okay, I really have to pee. I have

1205
01:00:25,920 --> 01:00:29,440
Speaker 1: to go between tea and mine. Well in the handle, guys,

1206
01:00:30,080 --> 01:00:31,680
Speaker 1: Thank you, guys, thanking them.

1207
01:00:31,720 --> 01:00:33,760
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Speaker 1: see you there, Bye bye, I go