WEBVTT - S4/E6 | Defense 0:00:04.000 --> 0:00:08.280 Thirteen Days of Halloween Penance, a co production of iHeart 0:00:08.280 --> 0:00:11.879 three D Audio Blumhouse Television and Grim and Mild from 0:00:11.920 --> 0:00:16.160 Aaron Yankee. Headphones recommended. Listener discretion advised. 0:00:25.320 --> 0:00:30.160 Were there steps there before? Okay? 0:00:30.200 --> 0:00:33.440 So if the chapel's down there, I know I saw 0:00:34.720 --> 0:00:42.959 somewhere around here, not here, not there. 0:00:45.720 --> 0:00:56.080 Not there either, crazy, This place makes no sense. 0:00:57.640 --> 0:01:02.160 I know that's somewhere in this nonsense nightmare labyrinth. 0:01:02.600 --> 0:01:03.000 I saw a. 0:01:03.080 --> 0:01:07.240 Lovely, little, good for nothing goddamn library. 0:01:09.480 --> 0:01:10.840 It's so dark in here. 0:01:11.160 --> 0:01:19.480 I wonder if they're hello, hello, ship. 0:01:18.000 --> 0:01:23.240 Your voice down, but there's nobody in here? Are you 0:01:23.280 --> 0:01:23.920 the librarian? 0:01:24.800 --> 0:01:25.080 Mira? 0:01:25.720 --> 0:01:26.880 Mira? Hi? 0:01:27.680 --> 0:01:33.720 Do you have resources for UH residents? 0:01:34.520 --> 0:01:38.680 Be more specific, like legal. 0:01:38.360 --> 0:01:39.720 Guides, case law. 0:01:39.800 --> 0:01:43.440 It would be great to cross reference everything by false imprisonment. Also, 0:01:43.600 --> 0:01:44.920 anything you have about. 0:01:44.680 --> 0:01:47.240 This building, where it is and who's running it. Are 0:01:47.240 --> 0:01:48.600 we allowed to check out the books or do we 0:01:48.640 --> 0:01:50.280 have to read them here? This is just so dark. 0:01:50.320 --> 0:01:51.000 I'm not sure we. 0:01:51.000 --> 0:01:54.160 Don't have anything like that, which part none of it? 0:01:54.840 --> 0:01:56.000 Maybe in the law library. 0:01:56.920 --> 0:01:57.400 Where's that? 0:01:57.560 --> 0:01:59.960 Not here? What are you really looking for? 0:02:01.280 --> 0:02:01.920 UH? 0:02:01.960 --> 0:02:08.600 Answers answers about my case, your case, and what is 0:02:08.680 --> 0:02:12.680 your case? Well, I don't know exactly, but when they 0:02:12.680 --> 0:02:15.040 brought me in and read me my file, half the 0:02:15.080 --> 0:02:15.760 information was. 0:02:15.760 --> 0:02:19.120 Wrong, including my name. They arrested the wrong person. But 0:02:19.160 --> 0:02:21.440 I can't seem to convince anyone or even get them 0:02:21.480 --> 0:02:23.000 to tell me the reason. And I don't know how 0:02:23.040 --> 0:02:23.440 to prove it. 0:02:23.960 --> 0:02:27.720 Can't seem to convince anyone. You know, it doesn't matter 0:02:27.760 --> 0:02:32.120 if you prove it. Whatever it is you're trying to prove, no. 0:02:32.080 --> 0:02:35.680 One is going to believe you. No one. In the end. 0:02:35.720 --> 0:02:37.280 You're not even going to believe yourself. 0:02:37.960 --> 0:02:43.400 But I don't belong here, you and I both, So 0:02:43.440 --> 0:02:44.639 are you gonna help me or not. 0:02:46.760 --> 0:02:47.239 Follow me? 0:02:49.639 --> 0:02:51.799 Why is it so dark in here? 0:02:52.639 --> 0:02:52.760 Right? 0:02:52.840 --> 0:02:55.679 That is bad for old books? It degrades them? 0:02:56.919 --> 0:02:57.959 Is that really true? 0:02:58.760 --> 0:03:01.320 Also? I'm sensitive to light here? 0:03:02.440 --> 0:03:09.480 What does it say Those Without Shadow? Published eighteen eighty three. 0:03:10.560 --> 0:03:11.560 What's this got to do with me? 0:03:12.320 --> 0:03:12.959 Take these two? 0:03:14.400 --> 0:03:19.200 The other self as an omen of death? The mirrorers? 0:03:19.600 --> 0:03:20.280 What are these? 0:03:20.840 --> 0:03:23.440 You said there was another you, the one that really 0:03:23.440 --> 0:03:24.119 belongs here. 0:03:24.400 --> 0:03:26.600 No, that's not what I never said. 0:03:26.639 --> 0:03:29.320 The same thing happened to me. There's someone out there 0:03:29.360 --> 0:03:30.320 that looks just like me. 0:03:31.160 --> 0:03:36.320 Sounds just like me has my memories, lives, my life. 0:03:36.560 --> 0:03:37.760 She took everything from me. 0:03:39.680 --> 0:03:42.720 When I first got here, I looked up everything I 0:03:42.760 --> 0:03:43.680 could about my case. 0:03:44.880 --> 0:03:47.640 I can tell you your answers are here, but your 0:03:47.640 --> 0:03:50.800 solution is not. I understand. 0:03:51.640 --> 0:03:56.360 I understand everything now, but it doesn't change the fact that. 0:03:56.280 --> 0:03:58.280 I'm in here and she's out there. 0:04:00.240 --> 0:04:00.920 What happened? 0:04:01.800 --> 0:04:04.240 What does it matter? You won't believe me. 0:04:05.040 --> 0:04:07.200 Listen, If it's anything like what's happening to me, maybe 0:04:07.200 --> 0:04:09.240 we can help each other find a way to prove 0:04:09.240 --> 0:04:10.400 that neither of us should be here. 0:04:10.800 --> 0:04:15.520 Hah, you remind me of me in the early days, 0:04:16.480 --> 0:04:23.640 the differences. I had already met her, Ah, just like 0:04:23.720 --> 0:04:27.080 every other day. I was waiting on the train. It 0:04:27.160 --> 0:04:32.520 was cold, raining, the train was running late. I think 0:04:32.560 --> 0:04:35.479 about that a lot if it hadn't been running late. 0:04:36.800 --> 0:04:41.279 But no, it wouldn't have mattered. I was being hunted 0:04:43.680 --> 0:04:44.560 when I first saw. 0:04:44.400 --> 0:04:45.960 Her across the platform. 0:04:46.320 --> 0:04:48.200 For a moment, I thought it was my own reflection 0:04:49.279 --> 0:04:52.200 mirrored in the window glass, Only it. 0:04:52.120 --> 0:04:52.880 Wasn't quite right. 0:04:53.839 --> 0:04:57.800 Her eyes were shining like an animal in the darkness. 0:05:00.320 --> 0:05:03.520 We got on the same train car. I tried to 0:05:03.560 --> 0:05:07.440 stare without making it obvious, but there was something about 0:05:07.440 --> 0:05:10.640 her that I couldn't quite make out, like a mirage 0:05:10.680 --> 0:05:14.560 when you get too close. I tried to look at 0:05:14.560 --> 0:05:20.120 her straight on. My eyes slid off like water. Then 0:05:20.120 --> 0:05:23.960 she walked towards me. Her attention made my palm sweat, 0:05:24.640 --> 0:05:29.919 my heart race. I thought it was attraction. Now I 0:05:29.960 --> 0:05:32.400 wonder if it was some instinct picking up on a predator. 0:05:34.320 --> 0:05:37.480 I don't remember who spoke first, but when we started talking, 0:05:37.520 --> 0:05:38.960 it seemed like it would never stop. 0:05:40.080 --> 0:05:44.719 She said her name was Jade, Jade like her emerald eyes. 0:05:46.200 --> 0:05:53.200 Her voice was intriguing, strange, constantly making adjustment sleek. 0:05:53.920 --> 0:05:59.640 She'd say false, false, false, that's FA's what they say. 0:06:00.120 --> 0:06:06.160 But opposites attracting You and I are a lot alike may. 0:06:06.600 --> 0:06:10.840 I liked her voice, I liked her looked. 0:06:10.600 --> 0:06:12.039 Her so much. I missed my stuff. 0:06:13.560 --> 0:06:16.000 I thought it was a sweet story, the story of 0:06:16.040 --> 0:06:21.279 how we met, But it was fault. We decided to 0:06:21.279 --> 0:06:25.880 start dating on the spot. Maybe a little fast, definitely 0:06:25.960 --> 0:06:30.599 too fast. Things had started like a story book, I 0:06:30.600 --> 0:06:32.360 guess I got swept up in the idea of it. 0:06:34.960 --> 0:06:37.960 I didn't tell anyone at first. I didn't want to 0:06:37.960 --> 0:06:42.359 deal with their questions. They were always pushing. You know. 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:48.240 They never approved of anything I did. They they yes, 0:06:48.560 --> 0:06:59.720 my family, my mother. Especially At first, our relationship was perfect. 0:07:00.800 --> 0:07:05.719 We were so happy. Jade listened, you know. She wanted 0:07:05.720 --> 0:07:09.120 to know everything about me, wanted to share everything with me. 0:07:10.200 --> 0:07:14.840 Yeah, uh, tell me again again again. 0:07:16.200 --> 0:07:19.640 Other than pictures, she was shy about pictures. 0:07:19.920 --> 0:07:22.280 Hold on, let me just gee, No, you're going to 0:07:22.400 --> 0:07:23.000 ruin them. 0:07:23.960 --> 0:07:26.720 We never fought. We were always in the mood for 0:07:26.760 --> 0:07:30.800 the exact same thing. Whenever I was trying to remember something, 0:07:31.320 --> 0:07:32.560 she had the answer. 0:07:32.640 --> 0:07:33.960 That's what I was going to say. 0:07:34.400 --> 0:07:38.119 When we played games together, she always anticipated my next 0:07:38.120 --> 0:07:40.800 move as though she was reading my mind. 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:42.720 You she did. 0:07:45.720 --> 0:07:49.080 She devoted all of her attention to me, laughed when 0:07:49.120 --> 0:07:53.000 I laughed, smiled when I smiled, and she'd get this 0:07:53.080 --> 0:07:54.440 look in her eye when she touched me. 0:07:55.800 --> 0:07:58.080 I love you, I love you. 0:08:00.240 --> 0:08:03.200 Sometimes when you're in love with someone, it's easy to 0:08:03.240 --> 0:08:07.240 ignore the morning signs. But there were things with Jade 0:08:07.280 --> 0:08:11.400 I just couldn't overlook. I'd wake up and she'd be 0:08:11.440 --> 0:08:17.520 staring at me, good morning, good morning. She'd repeat things 0:08:17.560 --> 0:08:22.800 I'd say multiple times, changing the tenor and tone until 0:08:22.880 --> 0:08:23.840 she got it just right? 0:08:24.640 --> 0:08:25.239 Say it again? 0:08:26.120 --> 0:08:26.400 Why? 0:08:27.120 --> 0:08:30.920 Because I like your voice at them? 0:08:31.200 --> 0:08:34.559 Could you pass me that book? Eh? 0:08:35.040 --> 0:08:39.600 Could you pass me that book? Could you please pass 0:08:39.679 --> 0:08:44.679 me that book? Could you please pass me that book? 0:08:47.760 --> 0:08:49.160 Could you please pass me that book? 0:08:50.400 --> 0:08:50.640 What? 0:08:51.679 --> 0:08:52.120 Oh? 0:08:52.200 --> 0:08:52.480 Sure? 0:08:52.640 --> 0:08:53.439 Here? 0:08:55.880 --> 0:08:58.000 One of the only things we didn't agree on was food. 0:08:59.320 --> 0:09:01.680 She never seemed to think anything I could was rich enough. 0:09:02.640 --> 0:09:07.400 I doused salads and dressings, dredged vegetables and butter, drown 0:09:07.480 --> 0:09:11.559 her dinner in oil and melted cheese and gravy, and she'd. 0:09:11.320 --> 0:09:13.280 Just push it around her plate. 0:09:15.040 --> 0:09:21.040 The meat, though, she'd devour the tendons, the fat, cartilage, 0:09:21.080 --> 0:09:24.120 the marrow. She didn't care what kind of meat. Only 0:09:24.160 --> 0:09:27.520 the rarer the better, I'd joke. Her teeth were like 0:09:27.520 --> 0:09:32.120 a tiger's. By then she was practically living with me. 0:09:32.800 --> 0:09:37.079 Even scraps and leftovers weren't safe. Sometimes I'd wander into 0:09:37.080 --> 0:09:39.760 the kitchen at night to find Jade digging through the trash, 0:09:40.240 --> 0:09:43.480 or with the refrigerator door wide open, smiling at me 0:09:43.559 --> 0:09:46.439 with meat and her teeth, eyes shining like the day 0:09:46.480 --> 0:09:50.200 we met. It would be hard to say exactly when 0:09:50.280 --> 0:09:56.240 things escalated. Jade was like my shadow. When I would 0:09:56.240 --> 0:10:01.040 turn around there. She was always smiling. I had to 0:10:01.080 --> 0:10:02.640 fight to find any time alone. 0:10:02.880 --> 0:10:05.960 Ah ha, you scared me, you scared me. 0:10:07.080 --> 0:10:10.120 If I managed to catch her unawares, usually i'd find 0:10:10.160 --> 0:10:17.280 her practicing things that people don't normally practice, staring into space, 0:10:18.040 --> 0:10:22.440 shifting her face, trying on different types of smiles, using 0:10:22.440 --> 0:10:23.800 her fingers to adjust. 0:10:23.600 --> 0:10:26.719 The corners of her mouth, but never in front of 0:10:26.760 --> 0:10:27.200 the mirror. 0:10:28.320 --> 0:10:30.880 I'd hear her repeating things I'd said over and over, 0:10:31.600 --> 0:10:33.280 shifting intonation and cadence. 0:10:33.600 --> 0:10:38.280 You scared me, you scared me, You scared me, You 0:10:38.320 --> 0:10:41.120 scare me, You scared me. 0:10:41.240 --> 0:10:45.880 She'd audition different laughs, too small and polite, big and boisterous, 0:10:46.800 --> 0:10:51.040 others I don't know. Sometimes I would look at Jade 0:10:51.040 --> 0:10:54.640 and she would just be someone else, like there were 0:10:54.679 --> 0:10:58.839 pieces of her that changed. I swear when I met her, 0:10:58.960 --> 0:11:01.840 her eyes had been green, but now they were brown 0:11:02.679 --> 0:11:03.160 like mine. 0:11:04.480 --> 0:11:06.200 I felt like I was losing my mind. 0:11:07.800 --> 0:11:10.000 Your eyes aren't brown, they're green. 0:11:10.679 --> 0:11:14.920 Oh, yes, of course they are. I get it mixed up. 0:11:14.960 --> 0:11:15.480 Sometimes. 0:11:16.200 --> 0:11:18.720 Haven't been able to stomach seeing my reflection for a while. 0:11:21.120 --> 0:11:25.040 Around the same time my health started to deteriorate. I 0:11:25.080 --> 0:11:29.120 woke up one morning choking on my own tooth, another 0:11:29.120 --> 0:11:35.079 with clumps of hair, missing, nails ripped off, scratches and bruises. 0:11:34.720 --> 0:11:35.720 Appeared out of nowhere. 0:11:36.840 --> 0:11:40.559 I visited one doctor after another. No one could tell 0:11:40.600 --> 0:11:44.600 me what was wrong with me. But I'd have these dreams, 0:11:45.280 --> 0:11:49.200 dreams where I was staring at Jade, but she was 0:11:49.200 --> 0:11:52.280 wearing a mask, a mask to look like me. 0:11:53.640 --> 0:11:55.640 I'd reach up to pull the mask off, but it 0:11:55.679 --> 0:11:56.200 would tear. 0:11:57.360 --> 0:12:02.240 I dig my nails in, clawing it away in shreds, and. 0:12:02.240 --> 0:12:03.480 When the final piece. 0:12:03.200 --> 0:12:09.160 Came off, behind all of it, there was emptiness, a 0:12:09.200 --> 0:12:19.960 blank face, but it would smile Jade, smile my smile, and. 0:12:19.880 --> 0:12:23.160 There she'd be, blank, smiling. 0:12:27.600 --> 0:12:28.680 I was wasting away. 0:12:29.600 --> 0:12:33.080 I didn't even recognize myself in the mirror, and I 0:12:33.120 --> 0:12:36.760 was having trouble keeping things straight, like my memory was 0:12:36.800 --> 0:12:44.480 being drained Jade, though Jade was glowing coming into focus. 0:12:45.679 --> 0:12:47.680 One day, lying in bed, sick to my stomach, I 0:12:47.720 --> 0:12:54.079 heard this sound from the other room, chop, chop chop. 0:12:55.840 --> 0:12:57.840 I tried to ignore it, but it was insistent, giving 0:12:57.880 --> 0:12:59.280 me such a headache. 0:12:59.320 --> 0:13:02.960 This chop chop chop, Can you stop? 0:13:04.360 --> 0:13:06.200 Jade? 0:13:06.760 --> 0:13:09.840 Jade was in the kitchen cutting carrots are too many 0:13:09.840 --> 0:13:13.120 for any recipe, especially when she didn't even eat carrots 0:13:13.559 --> 0:13:18.560 and she was still cutting the knife slid through like butter, 0:13:19.120 --> 0:13:20.600 so close to her fingers. 0:13:20.720 --> 0:13:21.280 That's enough. 0:13:21.360 --> 0:13:29.040 Can you stop, Jade? Please stop? I swear, I swear. 0:13:29.080 --> 0:13:33.400 She chopped her finger clean off. I screamed and screamed, 0:13:33.400 --> 0:13:36.280 but she just smiled that damn smile. 0:13:37.880 --> 0:13:38.839 I must have passed out. 0:13:39.559 --> 0:13:41.120 When I woke up, she had laid me in bed, 0:13:41.640 --> 0:13:43.120 got a nice back on my head where I had 0:13:43.120 --> 0:13:48.760 bumped it, and her finger was back like it had 0:13:48.800 --> 0:13:49.439 never happened. 0:13:50.920 --> 0:13:52.520 But I know what I saw. 0:13:55.800 --> 0:13:57.760 Are you sure that wasn't also a dream? 0:13:57.840 --> 0:14:02.679 I know what I saw, all right. Then one day 0:14:02.720 --> 0:14:04.000 I overheard Jade on the phone. 0:14:05.360 --> 0:14:08.800 Sorry, it's been so long, I've just been so busy. 0:14:09.840 --> 0:14:13.520 She was talking to my mom, pretending to be me. 0:14:15.520 --> 0:14:18.680 I know I say that every time, but I'm trying 0:14:18.679 --> 0:14:19.240 to do better. 0:14:21.080 --> 0:14:25.480 She sounded just like me. But yes, happy. 0:14:26.400 --> 0:14:29.320 I was never happy talking to my mom. Mom was 0:14:29.360 --> 0:14:30.160 never happy. 0:14:29.840 --> 0:14:30.320 Talking to me. 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:32.600 Yes, I will, I love you. 0:14:33.600 --> 0:14:34.240 I miss you. 0:14:35.000 --> 0:14:36.880 Mom used to say in a thousand years, there would 0:14:36.920 --> 0:14:39.840 never be someone like me that she could never love 0:14:39.920 --> 0:14:44.200 anyone the way she loved me. But that was a lie, 0:14:44.600 --> 0:14:46.880 just like everything else I know. 0:14:47.760 --> 0:14:51.760 I remember, Oh, Mom, you always say that. 0:14:53.640 --> 0:14:56.560 She'd said things on that call that she couldn't have that. 0:14:56.680 --> 0:15:00.520 I never told her, I know what I you hadn't 0:15:01.040 --> 0:15:02.680 How how. 0:15:02.680 --> 0:15:03.920 Did she know me? 0:15:04.120 --> 0:15:05.320 Hey, let go on my arm. 0:15:05.400 --> 0:15:06.080 You're hurting me. 0:15:06.680 --> 0:15:08.160 The lights off? 0:15:08.200 --> 0:15:08.920 Turn them off? 0:15:12.320 --> 0:15:12.840 What was that? 0:15:14.200 --> 0:15:15.960 What was that? Yeah? 0:15:16.000 --> 0:15:16.920 What the hell was that? 0:15:19.760 --> 0:15:24.040 I guess I just got carried away, carried away. 0:15:25.480 --> 0:15:26.800 Since all this happened, I've. 0:15:28.360 --> 0:15:33.040 I've become unwell. I I don't like people seeing me 0:15:34.480 --> 0:15:39.560 clearly anymore. Now that something out there is wearing my face. 0:15:40.720 --> 0:15:42.200 My face feels. 0:15:43.640 --> 0:15:46.760 Wrong, like it's not mine anymore. 0:15:48.600 --> 0:15:50.680 I don't understand. How did you end up here? 0:15:52.600 --> 0:15:56.080 I killed my mother? Mmm? I don't look at me 0:15:56.160 --> 0:15:56.360 like that. 0:15:57.640 --> 0:16:04.560 It was that things. It eroded my trust in everyone. 0:16:04.760 --> 0:16:09.840 If she it could pretend to be me, convince everyone 0:16:09.840 --> 0:16:13.240 else it was me, maybe it could be other people too, 0:16:14.480 --> 0:16:17.920 isolating me more and more, wearing the mask of everyone 0:16:17.920 --> 0:16:18.400 in my life. 0:16:18.400 --> 0:16:21.240 That's what they do, what they do? 0:16:22.000 --> 0:16:22.800 Are you mocking me? 0:16:23.920 --> 0:16:31.400 So you thought your mother was Yeah, I heard this sound, thunk, dunk, dunk. 0:16:33.000 --> 0:16:34.000 I thought it was Jade. 0:16:35.080 --> 0:16:36.960 I went into the kitchen to get her to stop. 0:16:37.880 --> 0:16:41.000 But it was my mother. 0:16:42.480 --> 0:16:45.680 Standing at the counter as if she'd been invited, wearing 0:16:45.680 --> 0:16:51.680 an apron, using a meat tenderizer to pound these flank stakes. 0:16:51.400 --> 0:16:52.480 One of Jade's favorites. 0:16:53.840 --> 0:16:56.440 She seemed confused while I was there, almost like she 0:16:56.440 --> 0:16:59.960 didn't recognize me, and Jade was nowhere to be found. 0:17:01.240 --> 0:17:06.160 Nothing about that made sense, I thought, put this beech 0:17:06.200 --> 0:17:08.840 Shade masquerading as my mother. 0:17:10.960 --> 0:17:11.879 I confronted her. 0:17:12.600 --> 0:17:14.359 Tried to get her to show her true face. 0:17:14.960 --> 0:17:15.760 But she pushed. 0:17:16.880 --> 0:17:20.520 I told you how she always pushed, so I pushed 0:17:20.560 --> 0:17:26.840 back hard. I'll never forget the sounder's skull made when 0:17:26.840 --> 0:17:27.680 it cracked on the counter. 0:17:29.119 --> 0:17:29.760 I didn't move. 0:17:30.680 --> 0:17:33.320 I just stared at her body with a trickle of 0:17:33.320 --> 0:17:36.960 blood on the tile. And when I looked up, Jade 0:17:37.040 --> 0:17:41.520 was there, standing over my mother's dead body, smiling inhuman. 0:17:42.400 --> 0:17:45.840 For a moment, a horrible, sickening moment, I actually believed 0:17:45.840 --> 0:17:49.040 that she was me and I was the reflection the shadow. 0:17:50.720 --> 0:17:52.280 Then I grabbed the hammer from the counter and I 0:17:52.320 --> 0:17:56.040 swung it up her face. Blood spattered teeth skittered across 0:17:56.080 --> 0:17:58.400 the floor, skin hung from the hammer and shreds. 0:18:00.080 --> 0:18:04.639 Shade didn't move I just stared at me. 0:18:05.760 --> 0:18:08.880 I swung again and again, determined to unearth the true 0:18:08.880 --> 0:18:11.639 face beneath. I didn't stop until I saw the phone, 0:18:13.040 --> 0:18:15.879 But she didn't move, didn't react. 0:18:17.000 --> 0:18:20.440 The way she looked at me, I felt almost hypnotized. 0:18:22.040 --> 0:18:24.399 I dropped the hammer and she laughed. 0:18:25.760 --> 0:18:28.359 Under all the core I'd made of her face, of 0:18:28.520 --> 0:18:35.320 my face, it was still my laugh. I tried to 0:18:35.359 --> 0:18:39.240 ask her why, what had she wanted from all this 0:18:39.960 --> 0:18:43.960 from me? But she just smiled, and the words came 0:18:44.160 --> 0:18:47.920 spilling out of my mouth. Was it because I didn't 0:18:47.920 --> 0:18:51.959 appreciate my life, didn't deserve it? Was it because she 0:18:51.960 --> 0:18:56.320 could do it better, be a better version, or was 0:18:56.359 --> 0:18:58.480 it just a matter of survival or. 0:18:58.440 --> 0:18:59.320 That she was hungry? 0:19:01.320 --> 0:19:08.879 She didn't answer, only smiled that blank, empty smile. I 0:19:08.920 --> 0:19:11.280 think maybe she was just tired of being a shadow. 0:19:14.400 --> 0:19:17.840 She reached out tenderly to hold my hands, even though 0:19:17.840 --> 0:19:21.120 they were covered in blood. She leaned in as if 0:19:21.160 --> 0:19:27.000 to kiss them, and then bit my finger clean off. Suddenly, 0:19:27.000 --> 0:19:30.679 her whole face changed and kneaded back together, rippled and 0:19:30.760 --> 0:19:36.040 settled until it was mine and she lunched at me. 0:19:36.680 --> 0:19:39.359 I tried to run, to fight, but every move she 0:19:39.480 --> 0:19:42.840 mirrored as so she could anticipate my every thought, as 0:19:42.840 --> 0:19:43.200 though she. 0:19:43.400 --> 0:19:45.800 Was me, but so much stronger. 0:19:48.880 --> 0:19:52.760 She left me there, bleeding on the floor, not sure 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:55.640 how long I laid there, but when they finally arrived, 0:19:56.119 --> 0:19:57.480 they arrested me. 0:20:00.880 --> 0:20:03.359 I told them what happened, but they didn't believe me. 0:20:04.720 --> 0:20:07.640 A woman with my name had already reported my mother's murder, 0:20:07.800 --> 0:20:10.400 alleging a stalker had been plotting to take over her life. 0:20:11.200 --> 0:20:13.359 I tried to tell them, tell them that she was 0:20:13.400 --> 0:20:18.439 the impostor, that it wasn't even human, but they wouldn't listen. 0:20:19.520 --> 0:20:22.480 And then I was carted off here and they tell 0:20:22.520 --> 0:20:24.000 me I'm not me. 0:20:25.840 --> 0:20:28.960 But I know it's not true. I know what happened. 0:20:29.400 --> 0:20:32.200 She's out there living my life and I'm still me. 0:20:32.720 --> 0:20:35.600 I'm me, and she cannot take that away from me. 0:20:38.080 --> 0:20:41.920 She bit off your finger? What, just like you said? 0:20:41.920 --> 0:20:43.679 You saw her cut off her own finger, But then 0:20:43.720 --> 0:20:48.800 it was back like it never happened. Yes, but you 0:20:48.880 --> 0:20:49.680 still have. 0:20:50.359 --> 0:20:52.200 I tell you that some monster out there took my life, 0:20:52.200 --> 0:20:53.960 that one probably took yours too, And you want to. 0:20:53.960 --> 0:20:55.920 Know about my fingers? 0:20:56.600 --> 0:21:02.840 Yes, you don't believe me either. I knew you wouldn't 0:21:03.080 --> 0:21:04.080 I'm not saying that. 0:21:04.119 --> 0:21:07.399 At a certain point, what does it even matter? People 0:21:07.440 --> 0:21:12.280 seem perfectly content to accept the reflection. Maybe she has 0:21:12.320 --> 0:21:17.320 the better version. I killed my mother, and she would 0:21:17.440 --> 0:21:22.359 to the funeral. She has my looks, my voice, my memories. 0:21:22.400 --> 0:21:25.200 She may as well be me, and. 0:21:25.160 --> 0:21:25.920 I'm the shadow. 0:21:29.520 --> 0:21:32.720 I avoid my own reflection now because all I see 0:21:32.760 --> 0:21:37.520 is her fantasies about ripping off my skin and what 0:21:37.600 --> 0:21:43.520 I'll find underneath. I can't trust anyone anymore. I'll probably 0:21:43.560 --> 0:21:45.320 die here and no one will even know or care. 0:21:46.520 --> 0:21:49.360 While she thrives, I'll die a shadow. 0:21:50.960 --> 0:21:54.800 As for your double, I warn you, the more you 0:21:54.840 --> 0:21:58.639 look into this, the more your mistrust will grow in 0:21:58.720 --> 0:22:02.600 who you are what you are. So maybe it's in 0:22:02.640 --> 0:22:06.800 your best interest to let it go, or one day 0:22:06.960 --> 0:22:08.439 you won't recognize what you see. 0:22:08.320 --> 0:22:08.840 In the mirror. 0:22:21.320 --> 0:22:25.679 Well that's the last time I'll be visiting our local library. 0:22:27.400 --> 0:22:37.200 But wait, how do I TV room? Okay? 0:22:37.359 --> 0:22:43.600 Wait room, art room? 0:22:43.760 --> 0:22:44.000 Shit? 0:22:44.200 --> 0:22:44.800 Library? 0:22:45.680 --> 0:22:49.080 Okay? This should be the cell block, and of course 0:22:49.240 --> 0:22:49.960 it's not. 0:22:52.960 --> 0:22:55.840 A I hate this fucking place. 0:22:57.400 --> 0:22:57.760 Trouble. 0:22:58.200 --> 0:23:01.520 Oh hi, I was you know, just walking back to 0:23:01.560 --> 0:23:01.960 my room. 0:23:02.960 --> 0:23:04.960 I can show you if you don't mind waiting. 0:23:07.160 --> 0:23:08.159 What is this place? 0:23:09.200 --> 0:23:12.280 Space to get away? Cigarette? 0:23:13.000 --> 0:23:14.360 Wow? You can smoke in here? 0:23:15.720 --> 0:23:16.000 I do. 0:23:18.760 --> 0:23:20.520 Wow, that's so good. 0:23:21.400 --> 0:23:25.000 It's easier to enjoy life simple pleasures when they're few 0:23:25.040 --> 0:23:27.960 and far between. What's the book? 0:23:28.840 --> 0:23:33.919 Ah, something from the library? The mirrors? A secret History 0:23:34.440 --> 0:23:36.000 of the Life of Doubles. 0:23:36.480 --> 0:23:38.800 Let me guess Jade gave you that? 0:23:39.640 --> 0:23:40.280 You mean, Mirah? 0:23:41.080 --> 0:23:42.320 What's the difference. 0:23:43.520 --> 0:23:46.359 When they brought me in you know in my file 0:23:46.960 --> 0:23:48.320 they had me under the wrong name. 0:23:48.960 --> 0:23:50.960 Yeah, you've told me clerical era. 0:23:51.800 --> 0:23:53.879 Well that's what I thought. But I'm starting to wonder, 0:23:54.560 --> 0:24:00.199 wonder what if it could be more than that. I 0:24:00.240 --> 0:24:04.879 figured it was all some big mistake. It is a senseless, 0:24:05.080 --> 0:24:11.520 life destroying, devastating mistake. But why what's behind it? Could 0:24:11.520 --> 0:24:17.119 there really be someone out there impersonating me? 0:24:18.240 --> 0:24:20.840 Or I don't even know? 0:24:23.520 --> 0:24:27.960 Most people think the hottest part of a flame is blue, 0:24:28.240 --> 0:24:32.600 but it's not. There's a non luminous veil around the fire. 0:24:32.720 --> 0:24:37.439 That's all most invisible. Look right there, don't turn your 0:24:37.440 --> 0:24:43.880 eyes away, don't blink. What do you see? Nothing even 0:24:43.960 --> 0:24:45.639 though you know something's there? 0:24:47.240 --> 0:24:48.320 Uh? 0:24:48.400 --> 0:24:53.919 Yeah, sorry, Am I missing something I don't know? 0:24:54.240 --> 0:24:59.320 Probably not? Seems like your experience is consistent with most 0:24:59.359 --> 0:24:59.920 everyone else. 0:25:02.280 --> 0:25:04.000