1 00:00:01,520 --> 00:00:02,800 Speaker 1: Hey, this is Stephen Ferdick. 2 00:00:02,840 --> 00:00:05,280 Speaker 2: I'm the pastor of Elevation Church and this is our 3 00:00:05,280 --> 00:00:07,760 Speaker 2: podcast and I wanted to thank you for joining us today. 4 00:00:08,080 --> 00:00:10,680 Speaker 1: Hope this inspires you. Hope it builds your faith. 5 00:00:10,760 --> 00:00:12,840 Speaker 2: Hope it gives you perspective to see God is moving 6 00:00:12,920 --> 00:00:13,560 Speaker 2: in your life. 7 00:00:13,880 --> 00:00:14,680 Speaker 1: Enjoy the message. 8 00:00:17,000 --> 00:00:19,239 Speaker 2: Just to hit it real quick from first Speeder five 9 00:00:19,320 --> 00:00:21,840 Speaker 2: eight and nine, which serves as a theme. We won't 10 00:00:21,880 --> 00:00:24,279 Speaker 2: preach from it today, but be alert and of sober mind. 11 00:00:24,320 --> 00:00:24,920 Speaker 1: Your enemy. 12 00:00:25,440 --> 00:00:30,280 Speaker 2: The devil prows around like a roaring lion. See I 13 00:00:30,320 --> 00:00:32,479 Speaker 2: always read it wrong. I thought he was a lion. 14 00:00:33,040 --> 00:00:35,320 Speaker 2: I thought he was bigger than me and stronger than me. 15 00:00:36,080 --> 00:00:38,800 Speaker 2: But I found out that he's just loud like a lion. 16 00:00:39,440 --> 00:00:43,640 Speaker 2: And the place where he roars is in my mind. 17 00:00:44,640 --> 00:00:47,239 Speaker 2: That's where he's the loudest, in the thoughts that I have. 18 00:00:48,200 --> 00:00:52,159 Speaker 2: And so he's looking for someone to devour. Did you 19 00:00:52,200 --> 00:00:57,040 Speaker 2: ever wonder why all those Twitter feeds and Instagram feeds 20 00:00:57,080 --> 00:01:00,240 Speaker 2: and Facebook feeds, why they call him feeds. It's because us. 21 00:01:00,920 --> 00:01:05,720 Speaker 2: They're eating your mind alive. Did you know that? And 22 00:01:05,800 --> 00:01:09,640 Speaker 2: so he devours people in any way that he can. 23 00:01:09,720 --> 00:01:14,480 Speaker 2: He's looking for someone the command is resist him. But 24 00:01:15,640 --> 00:01:20,520 Speaker 2: how many know it's hard to resist what you don't recognize. 25 00:01:21,280 --> 00:01:23,440 Speaker 1: And if we're to resist. 26 00:01:22,920 --> 00:01:25,800 Speaker 2: The enemy, because I don't know about you, but I 27 00:01:25,800 --> 00:01:28,600 Speaker 2: don't intend to live the rest of my life as 28 00:01:28,600 --> 00:01:33,160 Speaker 2: a Christian and be a slave to my own imagination. 29 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:37,600 Speaker 1: Amen. I don't intend to. 30 00:01:37,520 --> 00:01:40,959 Speaker 2: Live the rest of my life forgiven by Christ as 31 00:01:41,000 --> 00:01:46,039 Speaker 2: a prisoner to my past and replaying memories of moments 32 00:01:46,080 --> 00:01:48,560 Speaker 2: that have come and gone, but I can't escape them 33 00:01:48,560 --> 00:01:52,120 Speaker 2: in my mind. And so I really intend if it 34 00:01:52,120 --> 00:01:53,800 Speaker 2: takes me the rest of my life, and it might, 35 00:01:53,840 --> 00:01:56,520 Speaker 2: because it seems like sometimes I take two steps forward 36 00:01:56,560 --> 00:01:59,440 Speaker 2: and three steps back. But I'm trying to get free. 37 00:01:59,480 --> 00:02:02,440 Speaker 2: I'm trying to take my mind back so I can 38 00:02:02,520 --> 00:02:05,360 Speaker 2: serve God with my mind and love the Lord my 39 00:02:05,400 --> 00:02:07,240 Speaker 2: God with all my heart, with all my soul, with. 40 00:02:07,240 --> 00:02:10,280 Speaker 1: All my mind, with all my strength. 41 00:02:10,919 --> 00:02:13,480 Speaker 2: And I don't want to be drained, so I go 42 00:02:13,560 --> 00:02:18,280 Speaker 2: into each day with no energy and broken focus. I 43 00:02:18,360 --> 00:02:20,880 Speaker 2: really want to be able to see clear the way 44 00:02:20,880 --> 00:02:23,280 Speaker 2: ahead so I can follow Christ into my future. 45 00:02:23,880 --> 00:02:25,480 Speaker 1: And that's the intention of this series. 46 00:02:26,639 --> 00:02:30,400 Speaker 2: But in order to resist the enemy, we've got to 47 00:02:30,400 --> 00:02:34,600 Speaker 2: recognize him, or we'll spend our whole life, resisting all 48 00:02:34,639 --> 00:02:40,000 Speaker 2: the wrong things, resisting silence when sometimes that's where God 49 00:02:40,040 --> 00:02:45,960 Speaker 2: speaks the loudest, resisting or trying to avoid awkward situations. 50 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:47,520 Speaker 1: And God's middle name is awkward. 51 00:02:48,919 --> 00:02:50,880 Speaker 2: He'll run out of food on purpose to see what 52 00:02:50,919 --> 00:02:54,280 Speaker 2: you're going to do in an awkward situation. He'll sit 53 00:02:54,360 --> 00:02:57,640 Speaker 2: down next to a disreputable woman. It'll well and make 54 00:02:57,680 --> 00:03:00,320 Speaker 2: it awkward. So the disciples have to decide if they 55 00:03:00,320 --> 00:03:02,799 Speaker 2: really believe that this message is for everyone. 56 00:03:04,360 --> 00:03:07,120 Speaker 1: And so let's take a look today. 57 00:03:07,680 --> 00:03:14,840 Speaker 2: At this idea of recognizing the enemy so we can 58 00:03:14,880 --> 00:03:17,360 Speaker 2: see how he's at work in our lives. And this 59 00:03:17,400 --> 00:03:19,839 Speaker 2: may be a weird title, but I want to call 60 00:03:19,880 --> 00:03:25,280 Speaker 2: this message the devil in three D? What does he 61 00:03:25,320 --> 00:03:29,320 Speaker 2: look like in real life, not our cartoon image of him, 62 00:03:29,440 --> 00:03:33,040 Speaker 2: our coloring book devil. Once we get the cape off 63 00:03:33,080 --> 00:03:37,640 Speaker 2: of him and try to understand how he really operates 64 00:03:38,400 --> 00:03:42,440 Speaker 2: to try to master our minds and set up a 65 00:03:42,520 --> 00:03:45,840 Speaker 2: seed of influence and our souls. Through controlling our emotions, 66 00:03:45,880 --> 00:03:47,080 Speaker 2: we can start to do battle. 67 00:03:47,120 --> 00:03:49,000 Speaker 1: And you know, Paul said. 68 00:03:48,840 --> 00:03:56,200 Speaker 2: One time, we are not ignorant of Satan's devices, devices, 69 00:03:56,240 --> 00:04:01,560 Speaker 2: Satan's devices, and of course I don't think this is 70 00:04:01,600 --> 00:04:03,880 Speaker 2: the devil, but I wanted to give you three things 71 00:04:03,920 --> 00:04:04,200 Speaker 2: just to. 72 00:04:04,160 --> 00:04:07,160 Speaker 1: Make it memorable that start with the letter D. 73 00:04:08,040 --> 00:04:11,360 Speaker 2: And rather than continue on talking about Peter this week, 74 00:04:11,400 --> 00:04:14,000 Speaker 2: I want to move into the Old Testament for a 75 00:04:14,000 --> 00:04:17,320 Speaker 2: few moments and tell you a story about a Bible 76 00:04:17,440 --> 00:04:21,200 Speaker 2: character that I know you've heard of, named Moses, and 77 00:04:21,240 --> 00:04:24,240 Speaker 2: I want to use this one example from his life 78 00:04:24,360 --> 00:04:26,279 Speaker 2: is probably not the one that he would choose for 79 00:04:26,400 --> 00:04:29,599 Speaker 2: us to evaluate, because he made a great mistake and 80 00:04:29,640 --> 00:04:33,560 Speaker 2: it cost him dearly. But hopefully, like First Corinthians ten says, 81 00:04:33,640 --> 00:04:36,800 Speaker 2: we can use him as an example so the same 82 00:04:36,839 --> 00:04:38,760 Speaker 2: thing doesn't happen to us. How many of you want 83 00:04:38,800 --> 00:04:42,080 Speaker 2: your kids to learn some stuff from your experience that 84 00:04:42,080 --> 00:04:46,159 Speaker 2: they don't have to learn through their own pain. And 85 00:04:46,240 --> 00:04:48,360 Speaker 2: so let's look at this. I'll read it to you. 86 00:04:48,440 --> 00:04:50,000 Speaker 2: I'll be honest with you. I never appreached on this 87 00:04:50,040 --> 00:04:54,280 Speaker 2: passage before because I was intimidated by it. And really 88 00:04:54,279 --> 00:04:57,480 Speaker 2: it's a little confusing. You'll see that it seems a 89 00:04:57,520 --> 00:04:59,680 Speaker 2: little harsh what happens in this passage. 90 00:05:00,480 --> 00:05:02,400 Speaker 1: And honestly, I knew that if I. 91 00:05:02,400 --> 00:05:05,760 Speaker 2: Ever preached it, that God would probably speak something to 92 00:05:05,800 --> 00:05:09,040 Speaker 2: me that I wouldn't want to hear because I relate 93 00:05:09,080 --> 00:05:11,680 Speaker 2: to a little thing that happens in this Bible story. 94 00:05:11,720 --> 00:05:14,760 Speaker 2: But I want to share it with you now as 95 00:05:14,800 --> 00:05:16,920 Speaker 2: we lean into this message. The devil in three D 96 00:05:17,720 --> 00:05:21,560 Speaker 2: and of course Moses's devil was a little. 97 00:05:21,360 --> 00:05:22,320 Speaker 1: Different than ours. 98 00:05:22,960 --> 00:05:26,800 Speaker 2: He would have said Pharaoh, who was the ruler of Egypt, 99 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:29,440 Speaker 2: the one that he had to demand emancipation for the 100 00:05:29,440 --> 00:05:32,600 Speaker 2: people of God from. He never really asked for that assignment. 101 00:05:32,839 --> 00:05:36,719 Speaker 2: He didn't seek that assignment. He wasn't looking for a 102 00:05:36,760 --> 00:05:40,600 Speaker 2: life purpose. God just interrupted what he thought was his 103 00:05:42,240 --> 00:05:45,080 Speaker 2: second half of life and gave him something different to 104 00:05:45,120 --> 00:05:48,760 Speaker 2: do and wasn't terribly convenient. But now we're looking at 105 00:05:48,800 --> 00:05:51,680 Speaker 2: Moses at the end of his life, and this is 106 00:05:51,680 --> 00:05:54,599 Speaker 2: what the Bible says Numbers chapter twenty, verse one. In 107 00:05:54,640 --> 00:05:57,520 Speaker 2: the first month, the whole Israelite community arrived at the 108 00:05:57,560 --> 00:06:01,960 Speaker 2: desert of Zenn and they stayed at Kadesh. Their Miriam 109 00:06:02,000 --> 00:06:05,520 Speaker 2: died and was buried. Their Miriam died and was buried. 110 00:06:05,560 --> 00:06:08,240 Speaker 2: Now there was no water for the community, and the 111 00:06:08,279 --> 00:06:12,120 Speaker 2: people gathered in opposition to Moses and Aaron, and they 112 00:06:12,200 --> 00:06:15,560 Speaker 2: quarreled with Moses and said, if only we had died 113 00:06:15,880 --> 00:06:19,760 Speaker 2: when our brothers fell dead before the Lord. Why did 114 00:06:19,800 --> 00:06:23,520 Speaker 2: you bring the Lord's community into this wilderness that we 115 00:06:23,600 --> 00:06:25,520 Speaker 2: and our livestock should die here? 116 00:06:26,560 --> 00:06:27,120 Speaker 1: Why did you. 117 00:06:27,080 --> 00:06:29,159 Speaker 2: Bring us up out of Egypt. 118 00:06:28,880 --> 00:06:30,280 Speaker 1: To this terrible place? 119 00:06:31,000 --> 00:06:36,599 Speaker 2: It has no grain or figs, grape vines or pomegranates, 120 00:06:37,480 --> 00:06:42,440 Speaker 2: Wi Fi or Starbucks. It's trying to bring you into 121 00:06:42,480 --> 00:06:44,760 Speaker 2: the text. I don't want you bored trying to listen 122 00:06:44,760 --> 00:06:49,480 Speaker 2: to this Bible story. And there is no water to drink. 123 00:06:50,640 --> 00:06:53,320 Speaker 2: Moses and Aaron went from the assembly to the entrance 124 00:06:53,360 --> 00:06:57,280 Speaker 2: to the tent of meeting and fell face down, and 125 00:06:57,320 --> 00:06:59,880 Speaker 2: the glory of the Lord appeared to them. That's when 126 00:07:00,000 --> 00:07:03,360 Speaker 2: God's glory shows up when you've run out of answers. 127 00:07:04,320 --> 00:07:07,320 Speaker 2: That's when God's glory shows up when you admit God, 128 00:07:07,360 --> 00:07:09,960 Speaker 2: I'm powerless to do this on my own. 129 00:07:10,400 --> 00:07:11,640 Speaker 1: I need you God. 130 00:07:12,160 --> 00:07:16,480 Speaker 2: I've tried everything, and still these people are driving me crazy. 131 00:07:16,520 --> 00:07:19,480 Speaker 2: But I'm here at the entrance to the tent and I. 132 00:07:19,480 --> 00:07:20,360 Speaker 1: Need you to speak. 133 00:07:20,440 --> 00:07:22,880 Speaker 2: So for everybody who came into church with a cocky 134 00:07:22,920 --> 00:07:25,920 Speaker 2: attitude today talking about I wonder what this sermon is 135 00:07:25,920 --> 00:07:26,520 Speaker 2: gonna be about. 136 00:07:26,600 --> 00:07:27,600 Speaker 1: And he better hurry up and. 137 00:07:27,560 --> 00:07:29,440 Speaker 2: Get to it, because I don't really even want to 138 00:07:29,480 --> 00:07:32,600 Speaker 2: be here, up here in that karate kid shirt looking 139 00:07:32,800 --> 00:07:36,000 Speaker 2: like a Halloween costume, say something, won't you. You're not 140 00:07:36,080 --> 00:07:38,000 Speaker 2: gonna get it. But those of you who came in 141 00:07:38,040 --> 00:07:41,320 Speaker 2: here humbled under the mighty hand of God, he might 142 00:07:41,480 --> 00:07:49,440 Speaker 2: just speak because you're listening now. Then the Lord said 143 00:07:49,440 --> 00:07:54,720 Speaker 2: to Moses verse seven, take the staff, that same staff 144 00:07:54,840 --> 00:07:57,720 Speaker 2: that you raised over the Red Sea, and it parted, 145 00:07:57,800 --> 00:07:59,760 Speaker 2: that same staff that you. 146 00:07:59,720 --> 00:08:01,000 Speaker 1: And threw on the ground. 147 00:08:01,040 --> 00:08:03,440 Speaker 2: And I proved who I was to you because I 148 00:08:03,520 --> 00:08:06,960 Speaker 2: turned the staff into a snake, and you picked it 149 00:08:07,000 --> 00:08:09,280 Speaker 2: back up and it became a staff again. 150 00:08:09,320 --> 00:08:10,600 Speaker 1: That same staff that. 151 00:08:10,880 --> 00:08:14,560 Speaker 2: Turned the Nile River into blood until your enemy had 152 00:08:14,600 --> 00:08:17,000 Speaker 2: no choice but to release you from bondage. 153 00:08:17,040 --> 00:08:19,120 Speaker 1: That same staff that when you. 154 00:08:19,200 --> 00:08:21,920 Speaker 2: Raised it up, the Amalekites. 155 00:08:21,160 --> 00:08:23,520 Speaker 1: Were no match for the Israelites. 156 00:08:23,600 --> 00:08:28,400 Speaker 2: That same staff. Take it now. I want you to 157 00:08:28,440 --> 00:08:34,400 Speaker 2: get erin and get everybody together and speak to the 158 00:08:34,480 --> 00:08:37,920 Speaker 2: rock before their eyes, and it will pour out its water, 159 00:08:38,880 --> 00:08:40,440 Speaker 2: and you will bring water out of the rock for 160 00:08:40,480 --> 00:08:42,720 Speaker 2: the community, so they in their livestock and drink. So 161 00:08:42,760 --> 00:08:45,880 Speaker 2: Moses took the staff from the Lord's presence, just as 162 00:08:45,920 --> 00:08:49,880 Speaker 2: he had commanded him. He and Aaron gathered the assembly 163 00:08:50,000 --> 00:08:53,760 Speaker 2: together in front of the rock, and Moses said to them, listen, 164 00:08:53,800 --> 00:08:54,440 Speaker 2: you rebels. 165 00:08:55,320 --> 00:08:57,360 Speaker 1: I'm gonna start saying that around my house. More to 166 00:08:57,400 --> 00:08:59,760 Speaker 1: the kids. 167 00:09:00,120 --> 00:09:04,680 Speaker 2: We bring you water out of this rock. Isn't anything 168 00:09:05,160 --> 00:09:08,480 Speaker 2: I do enough for you. I've been leading you through 169 00:09:08,480 --> 00:09:14,200 Speaker 2: this wilderness for thirty eight years, and it's never enough. 170 00:09:14,240 --> 00:09:18,440 Speaker 2: It never stops. It never stops. Somebody shout, it never stops. 171 00:09:19,640 --> 00:09:23,080 Speaker 2: I screamed that one day on vacation, top of my lungs. 172 00:09:23,320 --> 00:09:25,800 Speaker 2: I'd been such a good dad all day. I took 173 00:09:25,840 --> 00:09:28,320 Speaker 2: my kids swimming, I went on a bike ride with 174 00:09:28,360 --> 00:09:31,720 Speaker 2: the kids. We went and ate Japanese food, and we 175 00:09:31,760 --> 00:09:34,400 Speaker 2: sat with people we didn't know, and I pretended to 176 00:09:34,440 --> 00:09:36,360 Speaker 2: think it was funny when he flipped the bowl into 177 00:09:36,400 --> 00:09:39,160 Speaker 2: his hat, like I never saw it before. I was 178 00:09:39,160 --> 00:09:41,600 Speaker 2: a good dad that day. I was a great dad 179 00:09:41,640 --> 00:09:44,480 Speaker 2: that day. I read to him at bedtime, and still 180 00:09:44,520 --> 00:09:47,000 Speaker 2: at the end of the day, they were fighting, and 181 00:09:47,080 --> 00:09:50,200 Speaker 2: all of a sudden, I heard myself screaming at my kids. 182 00:09:50,400 --> 00:09:52,960 Speaker 1: Have you ever had an out of body experience. 183 00:09:52,440 --> 00:09:55,200 Speaker 2: Screaming at your kids and you were surprised? What you 184 00:09:55,320 --> 00:09:57,440 Speaker 2: said next? And you were thinking I might have to 185 00:09:57,480 --> 00:09:59,320 Speaker 2: bleep myself at it myself. 186 00:09:59,360 --> 00:10:02,079 Speaker 1: I don't know what's coming out next. The Holy Ghost just. 187 00:10:02,080 --> 00:10:03,960 Speaker 2: Left and something else took over. 188 00:10:04,280 --> 00:10:05,640 Speaker 1: And now I'm watching. 189 00:10:05,280 --> 00:10:08,440 Speaker 2: Myself and I'm scaring of myself, and I shouted at 190 00:10:08,440 --> 00:10:09,360 Speaker 2: the top of my lungs. 191 00:10:09,640 --> 00:10:16,880 Speaker 1: It never stops. Now we can laugh about it. It wasn't 192 00:10:16,920 --> 00:10:17,760 Speaker 1: funny at the time. 193 00:10:20,840 --> 00:10:24,600 Speaker 2: Listen, your rebels, must we bring you water out of 194 00:10:24,600 --> 00:10:27,880 Speaker 2: this rock. We already did this one time, thirty eight 195 00:10:27,920 --> 00:10:33,000 Speaker 2: years ago. This has happened before. God kept your shoes 196 00:10:33,000 --> 00:10:37,120 Speaker 2: from wearing out. Then Moses raised his arm and struck 197 00:10:37,160 --> 00:10:40,679 Speaker 2: the rock, which God did not instruct him to do, 198 00:10:42,040 --> 00:10:47,240 Speaker 2: twice with his staff, and water gushed out, and the 199 00:10:47,240 --> 00:10:51,280 Speaker 2: community and their livestock drank. So on the surface what 200 00:10:51,360 --> 00:10:56,800 Speaker 2: Moses did worked, But just because it worked on the 201 00:10:56,880 --> 00:11:01,760 Speaker 2: surface doesn't mean it was wise and does not mean 202 00:11:01,760 --> 00:11:05,280 Speaker 2: it will have a sustainable effect. And this is why 203 00:11:05,280 --> 00:11:09,400 Speaker 2: when you control people with your anger, or your pouting. 204 00:11:10,040 --> 00:11:11,480 Speaker 1: Or your manipulat. 205 00:11:14,360 --> 00:11:16,880 Speaker 2: See I can't even say the words a foreign concept. 206 00:11:16,440 --> 00:11:21,520 Speaker 1: To me, manipulation, You end up very lonely. 207 00:11:23,240 --> 00:11:26,080 Speaker 2: Because the cost of controlling people is to end up 208 00:11:26,080 --> 00:11:29,680 Speaker 2: alone and I know I got you pinned up against 209 00:11:29,720 --> 00:11:32,040 Speaker 2: your chair right now talking about this sermons, so look 210 00:11:32,040 --> 00:11:35,880 Speaker 2: confused and you get through this. But some of the 211 00:11:35,920 --> 00:11:42,120 Speaker 2: stuff that works on the surface costs us in the end. 212 00:11:43,160 --> 00:11:45,400 Speaker 2: And that's why it's so important that we understand this. 213 00:11:45,559 --> 00:11:51,600 Speaker 2: Because what everybody got water, but it cost Moses what 214 00:11:51,679 --> 00:11:56,160 Speaker 2: God had promised. And if the passage ended at verse eleven, 215 00:11:56,320 --> 00:12:01,280 Speaker 2: you'd say, well, what's so hard about that scripture? Unfortunately, 216 00:12:02,720 --> 00:12:05,480 Speaker 2: Verse twelve tell us that even though the water came 217 00:12:05,520 --> 00:12:09,160 Speaker 2: out of the rock, what came out of Moses's heart 218 00:12:09,320 --> 00:12:13,480 Speaker 2: in that moment prevented him from going further into God's promise. 219 00:12:14,600 --> 00:12:17,400 Speaker 2: And even though all the people were happy and the 220 00:12:17,440 --> 00:12:20,680 Speaker 2: people were impressed, and the people might not have even 221 00:12:20,760 --> 00:12:23,600 Speaker 2: known anything was wrong because they were all too busy drinking, 222 00:12:24,480 --> 00:12:28,800 Speaker 2: the people got hydrated. The people got what they wanted, 223 00:12:28,840 --> 00:12:33,360 Speaker 2: but Moses lost what God had promised. Verse twelve, the 224 00:12:33,440 --> 00:12:36,600 Speaker 2: Lord said to Moses and Aaron, because you did not 225 00:12:36,800 --> 00:12:41,280 Speaker 2: trust in me enough to honor me as holy in 226 00:12:41,360 --> 00:12:46,360 Speaker 2: the sight of the Israelites, you will not bring this 227 00:12:46,520 --> 00:12:52,920 Speaker 2: community into the land I give them. These were the 228 00:12:52,960 --> 00:12:57,520 Speaker 2: waters of Mirabah, where the Israelites quarreled with the Lord, 229 00:12:58,200 --> 00:13:02,240 Speaker 2: and where he was proved holy among them. 230 00:13:02,480 --> 00:13:03,480 Speaker 1: Makes me wish I would have. 231 00:13:03,440 --> 00:13:07,679 Speaker 2: Paid more attention in my Hebrew class, because if I 232 00:13:07,760 --> 00:13:12,320 Speaker 2: knew that miraba means quarreling, I would understand that God 233 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:18,040 Speaker 2: does some great miracles in places of great conflict. You know, 234 00:13:18,080 --> 00:13:19,840 Speaker 2: it's funny all the little things we miss if we 235 00:13:19,880 --> 00:13:24,640 Speaker 2: read the Bible in English because the interpretation. Sometimes the 236 00:13:24,679 --> 00:13:27,959 Speaker 2: writers will put little humorous things in there that I 237 00:13:28,000 --> 00:13:32,360 Speaker 2: wouldn't know to look for. But this particular word play, 238 00:13:32,400 --> 00:13:34,040 Speaker 2: if you go back to verse two and I told you, 239 00:13:34,080 --> 00:13:35,679 Speaker 2: I'm gonna give you three d's and I am the 240 00:13:35,720 --> 00:13:39,720 Speaker 2: first one is deficit because he is describing a deficit 241 00:13:39,800 --> 00:13:42,000 Speaker 2: that the people of God are in. It says in 242 00:13:42,080 --> 00:13:45,199 Speaker 2: verse two there was no water for the community, and 243 00:13:45,240 --> 00:13:48,200 Speaker 2: the people gathered. Now the Hebrew word for gathered here 244 00:13:48,679 --> 00:13:51,880 Speaker 2: that he uses is a word that means to come 245 00:13:51,920 --> 00:13:56,200 Speaker 2: together for the purpose of conflict. And see, I didn't 246 00:13:56,200 --> 00:13:59,599 Speaker 2: even know Facebook was in the Bible. Talk to me, 247 00:14:00,880 --> 00:14:05,360 Speaker 2: they call it a community. But the community came together to. 248 00:14:05,520 --> 00:14:08,880 Speaker 1: Quarrel in that a nice word to quarrel. 249 00:14:09,440 --> 00:14:11,960 Speaker 2: Not to not to fight, not to argue, but to 250 00:14:12,440 --> 00:14:16,960 Speaker 2: quarrel and so they're they're fighting with each other and they. 251 00:14:16,840 --> 00:14:18,720 Speaker 1: Don't have patience. But they don't have patience because they 252 00:14:18,760 --> 00:14:19,360 Speaker 1: don't have water. 253 00:14:20,200 --> 00:14:23,440 Speaker 2: And before we're too hard on them, these complaining Israelites, 254 00:14:24,240 --> 00:14:26,640 Speaker 2: we need to consider that this was a matter of 255 00:14:26,680 --> 00:14:31,080 Speaker 2: life and death. This is not the barista messed up 256 00:14:31,160 --> 00:14:34,160 Speaker 2: your order and forgot that you prefer almond milk. 257 00:14:34,240 --> 00:14:35,320 Speaker 1: This is something different. 258 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:39,960 Speaker 2: We can't live but a few days without water, and 259 00:14:40,000 --> 00:14:44,000 Speaker 2: so we're desperate. And I've noticed that when people get desperate, 260 00:14:44,840 --> 00:14:47,120 Speaker 2: they start doing things they wouldn't normally do. 261 00:14:48,040 --> 00:14:51,520 Speaker 1: Have you noticed this about yourself, that when you get desperate, 262 00:14:51,560 --> 00:14:52,000 Speaker 1: you get. 263 00:14:51,960 --> 00:14:56,760 Speaker 2: Edgy, you get touchy, and sometimes you're lashing out at people. 264 00:14:56,880 --> 00:14:58,240 Speaker 1: And it's not about the people. 265 00:14:59,040 --> 00:15:00,880 Speaker 2: Like I had to explain to the kids about my 266 00:15:00,960 --> 00:15:03,200 Speaker 2: road rage, it's not really about the driving. 267 00:15:04,000 --> 00:15:05,760 Speaker 1: It has nothing to do with the driving. 268 00:15:05,840 --> 00:15:09,240 Speaker 2: It's just that Dad finds this a convenient place to 269 00:15:09,320 --> 00:15:11,600 Speaker 2: be shielded and an anonymous where I can let some 270 00:15:11,640 --> 00:15:13,360 Speaker 2: stuff lie that's been building up. 271 00:15:15,200 --> 00:15:17,560 Speaker 1: God, I don't want a real preacher, JJ. You preached 272 00:15:17,640 --> 00:15:19,040 Speaker 1: next week. Thank them out. 273 00:15:21,360 --> 00:15:24,200 Speaker 2: It's a whole thing because they came together to quarrel, 274 00:15:24,600 --> 00:15:26,800 Speaker 2: and what they didn't no couldn't know, is that they 275 00:15:26,800 --> 00:15:30,280 Speaker 2: were on the border of Canaan. The land that God 276 00:15:30,360 --> 00:15:34,520 Speaker 2: had promised them was just a few short months away. 277 00:15:35,600 --> 00:15:37,640 Speaker 2: But in a time when they should have been preparing 278 00:15:37,680 --> 00:15:41,440 Speaker 2: to conquer, the enemy had them in a state of conflict. 279 00:15:42,520 --> 00:15:46,240 Speaker 2: Don't you understand that the reason that you've been fighting 280 00:15:46,320 --> 00:15:49,800 Speaker 2: like you've been fighting, and even the reason sometimes that 281 00:15:49,840 --> 00:15:52,640 Speaker 2: the devil will get you focused on fighting against people, 282 00:15:53,320 --> 00:15:56,600 Speaker 2: is because God is trying to bring you into what 283 00:15:56,720 --> 00:16:00,160 Speaker 2: He spoke over your life and the promise of his 284 00:16:00,240 --> 00:16:03,680 Speaker 2: inheritance in the Saints. And now the closer you get 285 00:16:03,680 --> 00:16:06,520 Speaker 2: to that promise, the greater the conflict is going to be. 286 00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:09,840 Speaker 2: I think one of the reasons that our church gets 287 00:16:09,880 --> 00:16:12,760 Speaker 2: so divided is because the enemy knows that if we 288 00:16:12,800 --> 00:16:16,160 Speaker 2: would ever stop fighting and focus on the mission that 289 00:16:16,200 --> 00:16:19,040 Speaker 2: we were given by our captain and the savior of 290 00:16:19,080 --> 00:16:22,600 Speaker 2: our souls, we would be dangerous to the kingdom of darkness. 291 00:16:23,240 --> 00:16:26,000 Speaker 2: But we can't come together because we quarrel too much. 292 00:16:26,440 --> 00:16:29,920 Speaker 2: It never stops, we never quit finding new things to 293 00:16:30,000 --> 00:16:34,120 Speaker 2: fight about. It's not only that Christians fight against other religions. 294 00:16:34,400 --> 00:16:39,400 Speaker 2: We can subdivide on a multiplicity of different levels. Of Christianity, 295 00:16:39,920 --> 00:16:41,960 Speaker 2: and we can get into little groups so that we 296 00:16:42,040 --> 00:16:44,600 Speaker 2: no longer come together to lift up the name of 297 00:16:44,680 --> 00:16:47,160 Speaker 2: the Lord and to take this message to the ends 298 00:16:47,160 --> 00:16:47,680 Speaker 2: of the earth. 299 00:16:48,000 --> 00:16:50,440 Speaker 1: But now we're fighting over a translation of. 300 00:16:50,400 --> 00:16:53,600 Speaker 2: The Bible, or we're fighting over what you wear to worship, 301 00:16:54,000 --> 00:16:57,080 Speaker 2: or we're fighting over what specific nuance you believe about 302 00:16:57,080 --> 00:17:00,240 Speaker 2: the Holy Spirit. But I didn't come to quarrel, so 303 00:17:00,280 --> 00:17:03,040 Speaker 2: I don't need to fight with you. I came to conquer, 304 00:17:03,280 --> 00:17:05,520 Speaker 2: and I need you in my corner. And I don't 305 00:17:05,560 --> 00:17:08,879 Speaker 2: have the energy to spend fighting against the people God 306 00:17:08,920 --> 00:17:10,000 Speaker 2: called me to fight with. 307 00:17:10,520 --> 00:17:13,360 Speaker 1: So if you're black, fight with me. If you're a Hispanic, 308 00:17:13,400 --> 00:17:15,840 Speaker 1: fight with me. If you're a woman, fight with me. 309 00:17:16,160 --> 00:17:17,480 Speaker 1: If you're young, fight with me. 310 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:21,360 Speaker 2: Let's get together, old heads, young people, let's fight this 311 00:17:21,440 --> 00:17:38,119 Speaker 2: fight together. And there's no water in the wilderness, and 312 00:17:38,160 --> 00:17:41,840 Speaker 2: when there is no water, when there is a deficit, 313 00:17:42,920 --> 00:17:45,359 Speaker 2: you start reacting. 314 00:17:46,560 --> 00:17:47,560 Speaker 1: Instead of responding. 315 00:17:49,160 --> 00:17:54,159 Speaker 2: I'm appreciate this message, Hollie. I feel it happening right now, 316 00:17:55,840 --> 00:17:57,720 Speaker 2: because what I want to say is forget about the 317 00:17:57,720 --> 00:18:01,720 Speaker 2: budget deficit. A whole lot more than a budget deficit 318 00:18:01,840 --> 00:18:05,479 Speaker 2: in our nation today, and it's a different deficit than 319 00:18:05,520 --> 00:18:06,000 Speaker 2: they faced. 320 00:18:06,040 --> 00:18:07,280 Speaker 1: It's not a lack of water. 321 00:18:07,440 --> 00:18:11,400 Speaker 2: I feel like in our world today we are severely 322 00:18:11,480 --> 00:18:13,960 Speaker 2: lacking in our ability. 323 00:18:13,680 --> 00:18:15,359 Speaker 1: To empathize with others. 324 00:18:16,720 --> 00:18:21,400 Speaker 2: Because we've got a surplus of opinions and a deficit 325 00:18:21,440 --> 00:18:23,200 Speaker 2: of empathy. 326 00:18:24,160 --> 00:18:27,119 Speaker 1: Let me try another one. They didn't like that very much. 327 00:18:29,200 --> 00:18:39,160 Speaker 2: We have a surplus of information and a deficit of wisdom, 328 00:18:39,520 --> 00:18:42,400 Speaker 2: because if we don't have insight into information, we will 329 00:18:42,400 --> 00:18:45,800 Speaker 2: get caught up in highlights and headlines and highlights and 330 00:18:46,119 --> 00:18:51,800 Speaker 2: headlines and highlights and headlines and highlights and headlines, clicking 331 00:18:51,840 --> 00:18:54,560 Speaker 2: on crazy stuff and not even bothering to read anything 332 00:18:54,640 --> 00:18:57,040 Speaker 2: but the first sentence. And then somebody wants to ask me, 333 00:18:57,359 --> 00:18:59,480 Speaker 2: do you really have a water slide on your stage 334 00:18:59,480 --> 00:19:00,240 Speaker 2: in the church. 335 00:19:00,520 --> 00:19:01,760 Speaker 1: Because you don't want to come. 336 00:19:09,000 --> 00:19:11,440 Speaker 2: I almost lost my faith in the human race over 337 00:19:11,480 --> 00:19:18,520 Speaker 2: that water slide. It's a deficit, and I've been noticing 338 00:19:18,560 --> 00:19:21,399 Speaker 2: about myself. Maybe this is why I wanted to preach 339 00:19:21,440 --> 00:19:25,879 Speaker 2: the series that I'm having a hard time focusing because 340 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:32,120 Speaker 2: you know, the Devil's devices. I think it's I think 341 00:19:32,240 --> 00:19:35,800 Speaker 2: I'm no neurologist, but I think when it's getting hard for. 342 00:19:35,760 --> 00:19:38,800 Speaker 1: Me to read three sentences in a book and now 343 00:19:38,800 --> 00:19:42,840 Speaker 1: I'm trying to swipe paper. When I reached up to 344 00:19:42,920 --> 00:19:44,159 Speaker 1: swipe a book the other. 345 00:19:44,080 --> 00:19:52,280 Speaker 2: Day, I thought, I got to take my mind back. Actually, 346 00:19:52,280 --> 00:19:54,639 Speaker 2: next week, if the Lord will enable me and help me, 347 00:19:54,680 --> 00:19:57,120 Speaker 2: I'm gonna try to preach on that very subject of focus, 348 00:19:58,760 --> 00:20:01,000 Speaker 2: because I'm talking to more and more people who feel. 349 00:20:00,800 --> 00:20:03,720 Speaker 1: Like their mind is fragmented and can't hold a thought. 350 00:20:04,400 --> 00:20:06,560 Speaker 2: And it's not just because you're getting old and fish 351 00:20:06,640 --> 00:20:09,400 Speaker 2: oil won't help it. There's some principles in the Word 352 00:20:09,400 --> 00:20:12,440 Speaker 2: of God about distraction that we need to look at. 353 00:20:13,640 --> 00:20:19,360 Speaker 2: It's a deficit, a deficit where we have more ways 354 00:20:19,480 --> 00:20:27,200 Speaker 2: to communicate and we're connecting less than ever. I think 355 00:20:27,240 --> 00:20:29,960 Speaker 2: that's what the skyrocketing porn rates are about. I think 356 00:20:29,960 --> 00:20:33,080 Speaker 2: that's what the skyrocketing sleep deprivation rates are about. We 357 00:20:33,119 --> 00:20:38,919 Speaker 2: are desperate to connect, and we call ourselves connected and 358 00:20:38,960 --> 00:20:40,560 Speaker 2: nothing could be further from the truth. 359 00:20:42,440 --> 00:20:43,680 Speaker 1: And it's too much. 360 00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:48,800 Speaker 2: Costa called it too much to live with, too little 361 00:20:48,800 --> 00:20:54,240 Speaker 2: to live for. It's a deficit, a deficit of meaning, 362 00:20:56,000 --> 00:21:02,520 Speaker 2: a deficit of insight. And when the deficit is left unaddressed, 363 00:21:02,640 --> 00:21:07,560 Speaker 2: you know what happens next. Disappointment, sets in. And that's 364 00:21:07,560 --> 00:21:12,080 Speaker 2: the second D is disappointment because I'm looking at how 365 00:21:12,080 --> 00:21:14,560 Speaker 2: the Israelites are talking to Moses, right, and I get it. 366 00:21:15,600 --> 00:21:17,639 Speaker 2: I get it because when you don't have what you 367 00:21:17,680 --> 00:21:20,720 Speaker 2: need to live, you start doing things that you would 368 00:21:20,720 --> 00:21:23,560 Speaker 2: not normally do and it's not even you. And you 369 00:21:23,640 --> 00:21:25,520 Speaker 2: also want to explain to people. Sometimes I don't even 370 00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:27,520 Speaker 2: know who that was. I'm so sorry. Can we take 371 00:21:27,560 --> 00:21:31,320 Speaker 2: back the last five minutes? And sometimes you can't. Sometimes 372 00:21:31,359 --> 00:21:34,760 Speaker 2: you can undo it. And what the Israelites said to 373 00:21:34,800 --> 00:21:39,040 Speaker 2: Moses here apparently hit that button. Now everybody has a button. 374 00:21:40,560 --> 00:21:42,399 Speaker 2: All of you who are calm, we just haven't found 375 00:21:42,400 --> 00:21:48,560 Speaker 2: yours yet. Really, everybody has a boiling point. Everybody has 376 00:21:49,080 --> 00:21:52,720 Speaker 2: something that if you hit that, you will see a 377 00:21:52,760 --> 00:21:58,560 Speaker 2: different version of them, and you will completely change their 378 00:21:58,640 --> 00:22:01,680 Speaker 2: Enneagram number. If you hit the button, they go from 379 00:22:01,720 --> 00:22:04,960 Speaker 2: a seven to a two, a peacemaker to a shooter. 380 00:22:05,040 --> 00:22:07,240 Speaker 1: And it can happen so quick. 381 00:22:08,800 --> 00:22:13,240 Speaker 2: Most is the man of God is violently striking a 382 00:22:13,359 --> 00:22:15,640 Speaker 2: rock when God is trying. 383 00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:16,480 Speaker 1: To show his people grace. 384 00:22:16,520 --> 00:22:18,760 Speaker 2: But the reason he did it, and this is why 385 00:22:18,800 --> 00:22:22,240 Speaker 2: I can't figure out sometimes in my own life where 386 00:22:22,240 --> 00:22:24,480 Speaker 2: it comes from, because I find things coming out of me, 387 00:22:24,560 --> 00:22:27,359 Speaker 2: and I'm confused about where it came from, because i 388 00:22:27,400 --> 00:22:29,800 Speaker 2: know I'm not mad about what I'm mad about, because 389 00:22:29,840 --> 00:22:31,159 Speaker 2: it's not a big enough deal to make me as 390 00:22:31,240 --> 00:22:33,959 Speaker 2: mad as I am about what I'm mad about. Please 391 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:39,679 Speaker 2: help me preach to you in this together. And they 392 00:22:39,800 --> 00:22:43,040 Speaker 2: just got done telling him they wanted to die. And 393 00:22:43,080 --> 00:22:48,480 Speaker 2: it's his fault, because anytime you are facing a deficit 394 00:22:48,520 --> 00:22:52,399 Speaker 2: in your own life, you start looking for someone to blame. 395 00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:57,800 Speaker 2: Anytime you are confronted with your own barrenness or brokenness, 396 00:22:58,520 --> 00:23:01,440 Speaker 2: you want to find somebody else or something else whose 397 00:23:01,480 --> 00:23:02,360 Speaker 2: fault it can be. 398 00:23:03,600 --> 00:23:05,720 Speaker 1: And the first thing we do when we run out of. 399 00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:09,280 Speaker 2: Resource is to look for someone else to take responsibility. 400 00:23:10,200 --> 00:23:12,200 Speaker 2: If only we had died when our brothers fell dead 401 00:23:12,240 --> 00:23:16,240 Speaker 2: before the Lord. Why did you bring the Lord's community? 402 00:23:16,280 --> 00:23:19,080 Speaker 1: Why didn't my mom? Why wasn't my dad around? 403 00:23:19,119 --> 00:23:22,000 Speaker 2: All these or reasonable things to say, but they don't 404 00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:23,080 Speaker 2: really help the situation. 405 00:23:23,200 --> 00:23:24,200 Speaker 1: They only make it worse. 406 00:23:25,480 --> 00:23:27,960 Speaker 2: Why did you bring us out here into this wilderness 407 00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:31,520 Speaker 2: that we should die here? They weren't actually about to die. 408 00:23:32,200 --> 00:23:34,760 Speaker 2: God wasn't going to let him die. They were on 409 00:23:35,280 --> 00:23:39,439 Speaker 2: the edge of destiny, about to take the land that 410 00:23:39,520 --> 00:23:43,119 Speaker 2: God had promised for generations, and they want to die 411 00:23:43,560 --> 00:23:45,520 Speaker 2: at the edge of destiny. 412 00:23:46,840 --> 00:23:47,919 Speaker 1: Why'd you bring us. 413 00:23:48,280 --> 00:23:52,439 Speaker 2: Up out of Egypt to this terrible place? There we 414 00:23:52,480 --> 00:23:57,639 Speaker 2: had figs. There, we had grape funds. There, we had pomegranates. 415 00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:03,560 Speaker 2: There we had grain. I forget to mention the whips. 416 00:24:06,359 --> 00:24:11,600 Speaker 2: They forget to mention the mud and the straw, and 417 00:24:11,600 --> 00:24:20,320 Speaker 2: they begin to glamorize a past that really didn't even exist, well, 418 00:24:20,359 --> 00:24:29,959 Speaker 2: the good old days. I get it, man, it's tempting 419 00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:31,160 Speaker 2: to go back there in your mind. 420 00:24:31,280 --> 00:24:32,520 Speaker 1: Just as long as you know is. 421 00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:36,080 Speaker 2: Your version of the past is just as imaginary as 422 00:24:36,080 --> 00:24:44,800 Speaker 2: your version of the future back in Egypt, the place 423 00:24:44,840 --> 00:24:48,040 Speaker 2: that you were praying God to get you out of. Oh, 424 00:24:48,040 --> 00:24:49,960 Speaker 2: I'll never forget this. One time a lady came to me. 425 00:24:50,040 --> 00:24:52,920 Speaker 2: She said, you need to change some things in the church, 426 00:24:53,040 --> 00:24:53,680 Speaker 2: very early. 427 00:24:53,440 --> 00:24:53,960 Speaker 1: In the church. 428 00:24:54,880 --> 00:24:57,680 Speaker 2: And I was woo, I was cocky. I was twenty eight. 429 00:24:58,600 --> 00:25:00,040 Speaker 2: So what I said next to home, you respond. So 430 00:25:00,200 --> 00:25:04,520 Speaker 2: there's statute of limitations. She listed everything she wanted me 431 00:25:04,520 --> 00:25:05,320 Speaker 2: to change in the church. 432 00:25:05,520 --> 00:25:07,960 Speaker 1: Change this, and change that, and change this and change that. 433 00:25:08,280 --> 00:25:10,040 Speaker 2: And either the Lord or the Devil prompted me to 434 00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:12,600 Speaker 2: say what follows. I said, so you want me to 435 00:25:12,640 --> 00:25:17,240 Speaker 2: recreate the church that you left to come to this one. 436 00:25:18,080 --> 00:25:20,960 Speaker 2: I didn't mean it how it came out. I meant 437 00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:23,240 Speaker 2: to say, I'll pray about it. I am, but a 438 00:25:23,280 --> 00:25:28,800 Speaker 2: servant and a vessel just gushed out came out frustration. 439 00:25:29,520 --> 00:25:35,320 Speaker 2: So you understand that frustration operates when your experience is 440 00:25:35,359 --> 00:25:41,600 Speaker 2: different than your expectation. So when you are frustrated, it 441 00:25:41,720 --> 00:25:46,760 Speaker 2: is not your life that you're frustrated with. It's your 442 00:25:46,800 --> 00:25:50,399 Speaker 2: life compared to your expectation of your life. 443 00:25:51,280 --> 00:25:52,720 Speaker 1: That's what makes you frustrated. 444 00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:57,680 Speaker 2: It's that it normally takes me thirteen minutes to get there, 445 00:25:58,119 --> 00:26:01,000 Speaker 2: and today it took me thirty and I didn't plan 446 00:26:01,119 --> 00:26:03,960 Speaker 2: for that. And so since I was already at a 447 00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:07,880 Speaker 2: time deficit and a sleep deficit, and I didn't put 448 00:26:08,040 --> 00:26:11,920 Speaker 2: margin on this trip, now I find myself frustrated. I'm 449 00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:15,560 Speaker 2: not really frustrated and how long it's taking. I'm frustrated 450 00:26:15,600 --> 00:26:19,000 Speaker 2: about how long it's taken compared to how long I 451 00:26:19,040 --> 00:26:20,120 Speaker 2: thought it was gonna take. 452 00:26:20,720 --> 00:26:22,400 Speaker 1: And one of the best things we can do. 453 00:26:22,480 --> 00:26:26,400 Speaker 2: For our peace of mind is to crucify our expectations. 454 00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:26,960 Speaker 1: Of others. 455 00:26:28,520 --> 00:26:31,560 Speaker 2: I mean, really, just put it up there on the 456 00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:33,880 Speaker 2: cross and get to the place. 457 00:26:33,920 --> 00:26:35,480 Speaker 1: Where we no longer have. 458 00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:39,800 Speaker 2: An expectation of people to meet our needs, because we 459 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:44,679 Speaker 2: understand that our water flows from a different rock, that 460 00:26:44,800 --> 00:26:45,720 Speaker 2: our joy. 461 00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:47,240 Speaker 1: Flows from a different place. 462 00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:52,119 Speaker 2: Come on, Epham shout at the phone that I don't 463 00:26:52,200 --> 00:26:58,560 Speaker 2: depend on people to provide for me. Well, God has promised, 464 00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:03,520 Speaker 2: It's already mine. And so they got really upset man. 465 00:27:03,560 --> 00:27:06,200 Speaker 2: And then Moses got upset and he went to God 466 00:27:06,200 --> 00:27:08,520 Speaker 2: and he wanted God to be upset like he was upset. 467 00:27:09,280 --> 00:27:13,359 Speaker 2: And Moses was mad because God wasn't mad. That's what 468 00:27:13,520 --> 00:27:16,159 Speaker 2: happened here. He was disappointed. 469 00:27:17,480 --> 00:27:24,880 Speaker 1: It never stops, after all I've done for you. I've 470 00:27:24,880 --> 00:27:28,320 Speaker 1: been here before. I have been here. 471 00:27:28,880 --> 00:27:37,840 Speaker 2: Before, even even in high school when I was the 472 00:27:37,920 --> 00:27:45,119 Speaker 2: athletic trainer water boy for the football team. Coach Meyer 473 00:27:45,280 --> 00:27:47,320 Speaker 2: recruited me to be the athletic trainer. 474 00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:54,639 Speaker 1: Said you could get a scholarship. And one day I 475 00:27:54,720 --> 00:27:58,520 Speaker 1: was mixing that gatorade so sweet, and I thought, I don't. 476 00:27:58,280 --> 00:28:02,439 Speaker 2: Think they give scholarships for that. I think he tricked 477 00:28:02,440 --> 00:28:05,919 Speaker 2: me into this. You know, I kind of didn't like 478 00:28:05,960 --> 00:28:07,840 Speaker 2: it anyway. It wasn't like I really cared too much 479 00:28:07,840 --> 00:28:11,119 Speaker 2: about football. Football's fine, I'll turn it on. I'm not 480 00:28:11,240 --> 00:28:13,440 Speaker 2: like some of y'all fantasy lineups and stuff. 481 00:28:13,480 --> 00:28:15,800 Speaker 1: I got a real life. I'm skidding, I'm skinning. I'm 482 00:28:15,800 --> 00:28:17,639 Speaker 1: skarting this fine as fine as fine, finem skarting. 483 00:28:17,640 --> 00:28:23,280 Speaker 2: I'm scarting this fine as fine as fine. But man, 484 00:28:24,480 --> 00:28:26,639 Speaker 2: it was a relatively simple job. I did it for 485 00:28:26,680 --> 00:28:29,600 Speaker 2: over a year, and the main part of the job, 486 00:28:29,640 --> 00:28:31,000 Speaker 2: you know, every once in a while, they would let 487 00:28:31,040 --> 00:28:32,359 Speaker 2: me tape a wrist or an ankle. 488 00:28:33,680 --> 00:28:35,560 Speaker 1: I think it wasn't even really people that was hurt. 489 00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:36,600 Speaker 1: I think they just sent. 490 00:28:38,000 --> 00:28:42,040 Speaker 2: Cast members over because if anybody was really hurt, doctor 491 00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:42,840 Speaker 2: Bowens came in. 492 00:28:42,920 --> 00:28:45,000 Speaker 1: So I don't even think I was really taping anybody. 493 00:28:45,200 --> 00:28:46,160 Speaker 1: I don't even think it was. 494 00:28:46,400 --> 00:28:49,760 Speaker 2: But I did have one one job, and every time 495 00:28:49,760 --> 00:28:52,480 Speaker 2: they would have a water break, it was my job 496 00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:54,640 Speaker 2: to turn on the water. 497 00:28:56,760 --> 00:29:05,120 Speaker 1: That's right, Bobby Bousche got nothing on me. Well, I 498 00:29:05,160 --> 00:29:07,160 Speaker 1: did it like clockwork. They blow the whistle. 499 00:29:07,560 --> 00:29:10,600 Speaker 2: I was positioned close enough to the spickett, which was 500 00:29:10,640 --> 00:29:13,960 Speaker 2: connected to the hose which went to the PVC pipe 501 00:29:14,320 --> 00:29:17,480 Speaker 2: in Monk's Corner. It was fancy with a PVC pipe 502 00:29:17,800 --> 00:29:21,200 Speaker 2: with the holes in it, trough of sorts with the 503 00:29:21,240 --> 00:29:23,320 Speaker 2: water would come out of the pipe. But I was 504 00:29:23,360 --> 00:29:25,440 Speaker 2: the man who turned it on, and I turned it 505 00:29:25,480 --> 00:29:29,280 Speaker 2: on about three or four times every practice. And one 506 00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:31,560 Speaker 2: day I went over there to turn it on and 507 00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:35,080 Speaker 2: nothing came out. I don't know who forgot to pay 508 00:29:35,080 --> 00:29:41,160 Speaker 2: the bill, but nothing came out. And those football players 509 00:29:41,240 --> 00:29:43,480 Speaker 2: went to drink and they lined up. 510 00:29:43,400 --> 00:29:46,320 Speaker 1: At the PVC pipe and nothing happened. 511 00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:52,040 Speaker 2: And they started yelling at me, like these rebellious Israelites 512 00:29:52,800 --> 00:29:57,000 Speaker 2: started yelling at Moses, started yelling at me, calling me Steve. 513 00:29:57,080 --> 00:29:59,000 Speaker 2: I don't even go by Steve. There's an inn on 514 00:29:59,080 --> 00:30:06,000 Speaker 2: my name pronounced consonant. This ain't will of fortune. Oh, 515 00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:09,800 Speaker 2: I was mad yelling at me for the one time 516 00:30:09,880 --> 00:30:13,120 Speaker 2: the water didn't come on. Hundreds of times the water 517 00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:14,440 Speaker 2: came on. 518 00:30:14,440 --> 00:30:17,920 Speaker 1: One time it didn't come on. And guess what, I'm 519 00:30:17,960 --> 00:30:21,320 Speaker 1: not controlling the water. I'm just the one turning it on. 520 00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:26,360 Speaker 1: So they were yelling at me. So I wasn't saved yet. 521 00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:27,440 Speaker 1: Let me get that in. 522 00:30:27,960 --> 00:30:31,520 Speaker 2: So I turned around and said God bless ah, y'all. 523 00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:32,640 Speaker 1: Only instead of. 524 00:30:32,600 --> 00:30:36,800 Speaker 2: God bless I've said some different BCE vocabulary that it 525 00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:40,240 Speaker 2: is not appropriate for this church setting and holy people 526 00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:43,560 Speaker 2: such as yourself, And in that moment, I forgot they 527 00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:45,200 Speaker 2: were bigger than me, because. 528 00:30:44,960 --> 00:30:46,920 Speaker 1: I do have a level of crazy. 529 00:30:46,720 --> 00:30:49,480 Speaker 2: That if it kicks in, I will stop caring how 530 00:30:49,560 --> 00:30:52,080 Speaker 2: much bigger you are. And I would rather die than 531 00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:55,040 Speaker 2: have you cussed me out. I got in my Toyota 532 00:30:55,160 --> 00:30:56,560 Speaker 2: church cell and I drove off. 533 00:31:00,760 --> 00:31:07,560 Speaker 3: So oh just kind of came back to me. Man, 534 00:31:08,160 --> 00:31:17,520 Speaker 3: I'm sorry. 535 00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:18,480 Speaker 2: Because all these times I get Moses's disappointment. I really do, 536 00:31:18,960 --> 00:31:24,960 Speaker 2: all these times, and this one time, all I've done 537 00:31:25,000 --> 00:31:29,960 Speaker 2: for you, all the meals I've cooked, all the prayers 538 00:31:30,040 --> 00:31:35,480 Speaker 2: I've prayed, all the compliments I gave, all the Christmas 539 00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:40,600 Speaker 2: presents I bought, all the sacrifices I made, and you 540 00:31:40,720 --> 00:31:44,520 Speaker 2: mean this one thing, this one time, and now you 541 00:31:44,560 --> 00:31:48,520 Speaker 2: want to yell at me and disrespect me and ignore me. 542 00:31:49,760 --> 00:31:51,720 Speaker 1: I figure Moses is tired. 543 00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:57,720 Speaker 2: Of being taken for granted, tired of people just assuming 544 00:31:58,080 --> 00:32:00,040 Speaker 2: that you're always gonna do it. 545 00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:01,360 Speaker 1: It's just easy for you. 546 00:32:03,120 --> 00:32:06,320 Speaker 2: Until I realized that Moses wasn't really disappointed with the people. 547 00:32:09,080 --> 00:32:10,040 Speaker 1: Moses was. 548 00:32:11,720 --> 00:32:16,880 Speaker 2: Still dealing with a fear that he had carried with 549 00:32:17,000 --> 00:32:21,400 Speaker 2: him since the time God met him at the Burning Bush, 550 00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:25,840 Speaker 2: impossibly before that, forty years earlier, when he killed an 551 00:32:25,840 --> 00:32:30,760 Speaker 2: Egyptian to try to rescue one of his fellow Hebrews. 552 00:32:31,320 --> 00:32:33,840 Speaker 2: And he never really fit in because he was raised 553 00:32:33,880 --> 00:32:36,720 Speaker 2: as an Egyptian, but he was. 554 00:32:36,720 --> 00:32:37,760 Speaker 1: By birth a Hebrew. 555 00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:41,360 Speaker 2: And when he tried to defend the people that he 556 00:32:41,480 --> 00:32:44,480 Speaker 2: was one of from the people that he had had 557 00:32:44,480 --> 00:32:48,480 Speaker 2: to live with, Moses ended up having to run. That's 558 00:32:48,480 --> 00:32:50,440 Speaker 2: why he ended up in the wilderness with the shepherds 559 00:32:50,440 --> 00:32:53,160 Speaker 2: staff to begin with. And that's why when God met 560 00:32:53,240 --> 00:32:55,400 Speaker 2: him at the bush, Moses said, you got the wrong one. 561 00:32:57,640 --> 00:33:04,920 Speaker 2: Picked somebody stronger, Pick somebody more capable, Pick somebody with 562 00:33:05,240 --> 00:33:08,440 Speaker 2: more experience. Pick somebody who doesn't struggle with what I 563 00:33:08,480 --> 00:33:13,360 Speaker 2: struggle with, because I'll let you down, God, and I'll 564 00:33:13,400 --> 00:33:19,160 Speaker 2: let them down. And not only not only is Moses 565 00:33:19,200 --> 00:33:23,240 Speaker 2: dealing with this moment, but he's dealing with forty years 566 00:33:23,280 --> 00:33:28,520 Speaker 2: of frustration, forty years of frustration that you could argue 567 00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:30,200 Speaker 2: were the result of his lack of faith when he 568 00:33:30,240 --> 00:33:33,720 Speaker 2: didn't go in and fight and take the land God 569 00:33:33,720 --> 00:33:38,440 Speaker 2: had promised. In a sense, what they're saying about Moses 570 00:33:38,520 --> 00:33:42,400 Speaker 2: is true and he knows it. It's not him, it's 571 00:33:42,440 --> 00:33:44,360 Speaker 2: not them that he is disappointed in. 572 00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:54,600 Speaker 1: So like for me realizing in my adult life that my. 573 00:33:56,240 --> 00:33:59,280 Speaker 2: Core fear and a lot of the reasons that I 574 00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:02,600 Speaker 2: withdraw and a lot of the reasons. 575 00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:04,440 Speaker 1: That I lash out. 576 00:34:04,800 --> 00:34:07,360 Speaker 2: It really came to me one time early in my 577 00:34:07,400 --> 00:34:10,880 Speaker 2: marriage to Holly, and it was a low key argument, 578 00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:12,640 Speaker 2: but all of a sudden it just kind of erupted 579 00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:17,279 Speaker 2: and I yelled at her, I'm not stupid, I'm not stupid. 580 00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:23,080 Speaker 1: It never stops. I'm not stupid, she said. 581 00:34:23,080 --> 00:34:26,040 Speaker 2: I didn't say you were stupid, But I wasn't responding 582 00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:26,640 Speaker 2: to what she said. 583 00:34:26,640 --> 00:34:32,120 Speaker 1: I was responding to what I felt somewhere in me 584 00:34:33,400 --> 00:34:35,480 Speaker 1: was something that told me that. 585 00:34:35,480 --> 00:34:40,120 Speaker 2: I didn't know enough. Probably back to my dad in 586 00:34:40,160 --> 00:34:42,520 Speaker 2: some ways he loved me. Wasn't that he didn't love me, 587 00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:45,520 Speaker 2: but he kind of felt like it was him against 588 00:34:45,520 --> 00:34:47,239 Speaker 2: the world and he didn't have a full deck to 589 00:34:47,280 --> 00:34:48,040 Speaker 2: play with because of. 590 00:34:48,040 --> 00:34:49,000 Speaker 1: The way he was raised. 591 00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:54,560 Speaker 2: And somewhere I probably started thinking that I was operating 592 00:34:54,640 --> 00:34:58,400 Speaker 2: in life out of a deficit of intelligence. And so 593 00:34:58,480 --> 00:35:01,400 Speaker 2: my first instinct when some makes me feel stupid. What 594 00:35:01,480 --> 00:35:06,640 Speaker 2: a phrase when they make me feel stupid. How much 595 00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:11,680 Speaker 2: power are you giving away to other people when someone 596 00:35:11,800 --> 00:35:13,600 Speaker 2: can make you feel stupid. 597 00:35:13,760 --> 00:35:14,840 Speaker 1: That's a weak mind. 598 00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:18,520 Speaker 2: But that's where that's where I find myself sometimes in 599 00:35:18,600 --> 00:35:22,320 Speaker 2: that mental wilderness, that mental wilderness, do you know what 600 00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:22,959 Speaker 2: I'm talking about? 601 00:35:23,000 --> 00:35:25,280 Speaker 1: And I'm afraid. 602 00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:30,640 Speaker 2: I'm afraid sometimes up here, not that I'm going to 603 00:35:30,680 --> 00:35:32,959 Speaker 2: get the Bible wrong or that I'm going to dishonor God, 604 00:35:32,960 --> 00:35:41,160 Speaker 2: but unfortunately that I will disappoint you. And every time 605 00:35:41,200 --> 00:35:42,920 Speaker 2: we start a new series, I feel it, you know, 606 00:35:44,280 --> 00:35:47,480 Speaker 2: because I try to create expectation this is going to 607 00:35:47,520 --> 00:35:51,960 Speaker 2: be the best series ever. And then I hope Baby 608 00:35:52,080 --> 00:35:56,960 Speaker 2: Jesus and Mother Mary and the Holy Ghost will somehow 609 00:35:57,000 --> 00:36:02,400 Speaker 2: help us, because I don't want to disappoint you. And 610 00:36:02,480 --> 00:36:07,360 Speaker 2: I'm sharing this altho biographically, but I'm wonderings like do 611 00:36:07,440 --> 00:36:09,680 Speaker 2: a lot of us function in this place that I 612 00:36:09,719 --> 00:36:13,839 Speaker 2: don't want to disappoint you? And that's why I hide. 613 00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:15,600 Speaker 2: And now I find myself I don't even want to 614 00:36:15,600 --> 00:36:19,319 Speaker 2: pick up the phone when people call, because now if 615 00:36:19,360 --> 00:36:23,080 Speaker 2: I can text them back, I can carefully craft my response. 616 00:36:25,120 --> 00:36:28,279 Speaker 2: Even in the smallest ways. I see this fear, I 617 00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:34,560 Speaker 2: see myself withdrawing. I see myself wanting to isolate, and 618 00:36:34,600 --> 00:36:37,800 Speaker 2: it's a tendency that I don't fully understand. 619 00:36:37,440 --> 00:36:40,600 Speaker 1: Because I do love people. I really do love people. 620 00:36:40,600 --> 00:36:41,640 Speaker 1: I've always loved people. 621 00:36:41,680 --> 00:36:44,960 Speaker 2: I was the dude that hugged everybody in his graduating 622 00:36:45,040 --> 00:36:48,400 Speaker 2: high school class, the whole two one hundred and thirty. 623 00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:49,759 Speaker 1: Of them, hug them all. 624 00:36:50,880 --> 00:36:55,760 Speaker 2: But I find myself sometimes wanting to withdraw, find myself 625 00:36:55,760 --> 00:36:58,479 Speaker 2: wanting to walk out, find myself wanting to get out. 626 00:37:00,000 --> 00:37:03,080 Speaker 2: I wonder why, you know, like, am I losing my 627 00:37:03,120 --> 00:37:06,520 Speaker 2: love for people? It is all this getting to me, 628 00:37:06,680 --> 00:37:09,360 Speaker 2: like lights and cameras and all that. But I realized 629 00:37:09,920 --> 00:37:12,920 Speaker 2: I realized in the weirdest way one day what it 630 00:37:13,040 --> 00:37:16,560 Speaker 2: was when a lady said to me, I've I've been 631 00:37:16,560 --> 00:37:18,520 Speaker 2: going to your church seven years and I've never met you. 632 00:37:18,640 --> 00:37:21,799 Speaker 2: And I said, I'm so sorry. I took it like 633 00:37:21,840 --> 00:37:23,719 Speaker 2: an accusation, you know. She said, no, no, it's a 634 00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:24,280 Speaker 2: big church. 635 00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:26,640 Speaker 1: We love. The minister said, okay, good, I'm sorry. 636 00:37:26,719 --> 00:37:29,600 Speaker 2: That's I'm really sorry, though, that's bad. 637 00:37:29,760 --> 00:37:31,520 Speaker 1: I met your pastor in seven years. I'm sorry. She say, 638 00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:32,800 Speaker 1: it's fine, it's fine. 639 00:37:33,160 --> 00:37:36,600 Speaker 2: Stop apologizing now. It's awkward because I'm making it awkward. 640 00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:39,480 Speaker 2: Then she made it awkward. She said, you're much taller 641 00:37:39,520 --> 00:37:40,120 Speaker 2: on the screen. 642 00:37:40,560 --> 00:37:43,480 Speaker 1: Well that helped you already. 643 00:37:43,480 --> 00:37:52,239 Speaker 2: See I'm insecure woman, but I don't want to let 644 00:37:52,280 --> 00:37:58,160 Speaker 2: you down, you know. So, So when Moses has this 645 00:37:58,280 --> 00:38:00,520 Speaker 2: moment and I'm calling in a moment, but it's really 646 00:38:00,520 --> 00:38:05,680 Speaker 2: not a moment because anytime something comes bursting to the surface, 647 00:38:05,840 --> 00:38:10,880 Speaker 2: like Moses hitting that rock twice when God specifically spoke 648 00:38:10,960 --> 00:38:13,960 Speaker 2: to him to speak to the rock, not to strike it. 649 00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:17,399 Speaker 1: And I know why he struck the rock because this 650 00:38:17,480 --> 00:38:23,360 Speaker 1: is the third issue. It's the issue of dependence. You know. 651 00:38:23,440 --> 00:38:27,600 Speaker 2: This staff was the thing that he carried with him. 652 00:38:27,680 --> 00:38:32,120 Speaker 2: Like Tom Hanks had a volleyball, Moses had a stick. 653 00:38:33,960 --> 00:38:37,640 Speaker 2: And now in this moment where the community needs water 654 00:38:37,680 --> 00:38:39,640 Speaker 2: and this is to be their last test, but they 655 00:38:39,680 --> 00:38:42,720 Speaker 2: don't know it. This is to be their last test 656 00:38:42,800 --> 00:38:46,560 Speaker 2: to see if they really trust God, and Moses fails 657 00:38:46,640 --> 00:38:51,440 Speaker 2: the test. What I could not understand is why did 658 00:38:51,480 --> 00:38:54,680 Speaker 2: God tell him to take the stick if he didn't 659 00:38:54,680 --> 00:39:00,240 Speaker 2: want him to use it. Why did God tell Moses 660 00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:06,240 Speaker 2: take the staff and then don't use it, just hold 661 00:39:06,280 --> 00:39:13,799 Speaker 2: it and speak to the rock. Until I remember what 662 00:39:13,920 --> 00:39:18,640 Speaker 2: Moses said to God when God first called Moses, I'm 663 00:39:18,680 --> 00:39:30,360 Speaker 2: not good at speaking. And before God could let Moses 664 00:39:31,320 --> 00:39:36,000 Speaker 2: lead his people into the promise, he had to know 665 00:39:37,040 --> 00:39:42,840 Speaker 2: do you trust me enough? When God said Moses, you 666 00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:45,960 Speaker 2: can't lead the people, it wasn't for punishment, it was 667 00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:52,400 Speaker 2: for protection. If Moses would have led them in in 668 00:39:52,440 --> 00:39:55,400 Speaker 2: the condition that his heart was in, with years and 669 00:39:55,560 --> 00:39:59,440 Speaker 2: years and years and years of resentment building up, they 670 00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:01,960 Speaker 2: would have all all got killed the first time God. 671 00:40:01,880 --> 00:40:03,759 Speaker 1: Spoken, they didn't do what he said. 672 00:40:05,120 --> 00:40:09,000 Speaker 2: Because God needs someone who is not dependent on their staff. 673 00:40:12,120 --> 00:40:15,160 Speaker 2: I know you struck the Red the Nile River, and 674 00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:18,279 Speaker 2: the Red Sea, and I know that this staff has 675 00:40:18,320 --> 00:40:20,880 Speaker 2: been used to perform great miracles, and I want you 676 00:40:20,920 --> 00:40:22,800 Speaker 2: to hold it in your hand, but have the faith 677 00:40:22,880 --> 00:40:26,640 Speaker 2: not to use it. I want you to speak to 678 00:40:27,600 --> 00:40:33,040 Speaker 2: the rock, and he struck it instead. And God said, 679 00:40:33,080 --> 00:40:38,080 Speaker 2: you don't trust me enough. You've allowed this resentment to 680 00:40:38,200 --> 00:40:38,680 Speaker 2: build to. 681 00:40:38,680 --> 00:40:41,480 Speaker 1: A point that it has killed your potential. 682 00:40:43,440 --> 00:40:47,960 Speaker 2: When we allow resentment to build and build and build 683 00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:51,839 Speaker 2: and build, when we never really believe that we are 684 00:40:52,000 --> 00:40:55,600 Speaker 2: what God said we are, when we are constantly taking 685 00:40:55,880 --> 00:41:01,440 Speaker 2: people's assessment of us as the ultimate reality, it limits. 686 00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:03,920 Speaker 1: Our participation in the promise of God. 687 00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:08,200 Speaker 2: It doesn't keep God from loving you, but it keeps 688 00:41:08,239 --> 00:41:11,720 Speaker 2: God from being able to lead you into the great 689 00:41:11,800 --> 00:41:16,600 Speaker 2: and precious promises that have your name on them. God said, 690 00:41:16,840 --> 00:41:21,120 Speaker 2: I just need you to trust me. I know you stutter, 691 00:41:21,719 --> 00:41:25,040 Speaker 2: I know you stammer. I know you're afraid of letting 692 00:41:25,080 --> 00:41:28,960 Speaker 2: me down. But it's never been about you, Moses. It 693 00:41:29,040 --> 00:41:32,480 Speaker 2: was never about your mouth. It was about my mighty 694 00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:37,719 Speaker 2: hand and my outstretched arm. It was never about your rod. 695 00:41:38,680 --> 00:41:40,560 Speaker 2: It was about the rock. 696 00:41:44,320 --> 00:41:48,719 Speaker 1: So what are you trusting in today, my friend, the 697 00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:51,000 Speaker 1: rod or the rock? 698 00:41:53,560 --> 00:41:57,800 Speaker 2: Because First Corinthians ten tells us plainly that this happened 699 00:41:57,840 --> 00:42:02,240 Speaker 2: as an example for us, that the Israelites who wandered 700 00:42:02,280 --> 00:42:05,120 Speaker 2: in the wilderness were an example for us, for you 701 00:42:05,160 --> 00:42:08,560 Speaker 2: and me in our daily lives, in our efforts to. 702 00:42:11,239 --> 00:42:16,439 Speaker 1: Trust God in the face of our own frailty, he said. 703 00:42:16,480 --> 00:42:23,240 Speaker 2: The apostle Paul said verse four. They drank the same 704 00:42:23,360 --> 00:42:27,520 Speaker 2: spiritual drink. They drank from the spiritual rock that accompanied them. 705 00:42:27,640 --> 00:42:36,640 Speaker 2: Here's the revelation, and that rock was Christ. It wasn't 706 00:42:36,680 --> 00:42:42,439 Speaker 2: about Moses. It's not about me. It's not about you. Yes, 707 00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:45,719 Speaker 2: I will let you down. Yes, I will disappoint you, 708 00:42:46,160 --> 00:42:49,279 Speaker 2: But I'm not the rock. You know how good that 709 00:42:49,400 --> 00:42:53,120 Speaker 2: makes me feel to know I'm not the rock. I 710 00:42:53,160 --> 00:42:56,239 Speaker 2: don't have to force it, I don't have to fight it. 711 00:42:56,560 --> 00:42:59,600 Speaker 2: I don't have to explode in anger when it doesn't 712 00:42:59,640 --> 00:43:03,680 Speaker 2: go my way. I'm not the He is my stable place. 713 00:43:04,239 --> 00:43:07,759 Speaker 2: He is my solid ground on Christ, the. 714 00:43:07,920 --> 00:43:12,480 Speaker 1: Solid rock I stand. All other ground is sinking sand. 715 00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:20,760 Speaker 1: Please stand, I'm closing. Please stand, I'm. 716 00:43:20,560 --> 00:43:26,960 Speaker 4: Closing these Verse thirteen, where the waters of Miraba, where 717 00:43:27,000 --> 00:43:33,920 Speaker 4: the Israelites quarreled with the Lord, they quarreled with the Lord. 718 00:43:37,520 --> 00:43:42,200 Speaker 4: And verse two it said they quarreled with Moses, but 719 00:43:42,280 --> 00:43:44,960 Speaker 4: really they were quarreling with the Lord. 720 00:43:47,560 --> 00:43:51,360 Speaker 2: It wasn't even about Moses. It's not even about you. 721 00:43:52,640 --> 00:43:57,920 Speaker 2: It's not even about me. We've been taking things personally, 722 00:43:58,000 --> 00:44:03,080 Speaker 2: you know, and we let it build and then it explodes. 723 00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:07,600 Speaker 2: Not in church, Oh you look so fancy in here, 724 00:44:08,560 --> 00:44:10,919 Speaker 2: your little boozie blessed self, come up in the House 725 00:44:10,960 --> 00:44:12,080 Speaker 2: of God carrying. 726 00:44:11,719 --> 00:44:16,560 Speaker 1: A big, old thick Bible explodes when you get home. 727 00:44:16,600 --> 00:44:19,719 Speaker 1: It explodes when you're all alone, and. 728 00:44:19,719 --> 00:44:25,879 Speaker 2: You find yourself crying out, desperate for connection and disappointed 729 00:44:26,360 --> 00:44:32,640 Speaker 2: with your life, so you start striking rocks and you 730 00:44:32,680 --> 00:44:35,799 Speaker 2: start trying to get You know, the water came out 731 00:44:35,800 --> 00:44:40,560 Speaker 2: of the rock, and it worked on the surface, but 732 00:44:40,600 --> 00:44:43,520 Speaker 2: Moses did not get to enter into the promise of God. 733 00:44:43,880 --> 00:44:47,920 Speaker 2: Did God still love Moses? Absolutely? He is Ei, the 734 00:44:47,920 --> 00:44:49,120 Speaker 2: God of second chances. 735 00:44:49,239 --> 00:44:55,040 Speaker 1: I sure hope, so I know he is. I know 736 00:44:55,160 --> 00:44:56,960 Speaker 1: He's not going to punish me for one mistake. 737 00:44:57,160 --> 00:44:58,879 Speaker 2: I can prove it. I can prove it to you. 738 00:44:58,880 --> 00:45:01,439 Speaker 2: Give him that verse I sent you earlier someone fourteen eight. 739 00:45:02,880 --> 00:45:06,279 Speaker 2: When the psalmist reflected on this event, he said, you 740 00:45:06,360 --> 00:45:09,120 Speaker 2: got it one fourteen eight, the one I sent you 741 00:45:09,360 --> 00:45:15,960 Speaker 2: earlier today No is Psalm one fourteen verse e. What 742 00:45:16,040 --> 00:45:18,040 Speaker 2: if I started yelling at the people on the screens 743 00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:25,200 Speaker 2: to demonstrate Moses's frustration, But it said that God turned 744 00:45:25,880 --> 00:45:30,840 Speaker 2: the rock into a pool, the hard rock into springs 745 00:45:30,840 --> 00:45:31,240 Speaker 2: of water. 746 00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:33,160 Speaker 1: And God spoke to me through that verse. 747 00:45:34,640 --> 00:45:37,960 Speaker 2: And said, if they'll let me, the place of their 748 00:45:37,960 --> 00:45:42,520 Speaker 2: greatest mistake will become the place of my mercy and 749 00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:43,640 Speaker 2: their greatest miracle. 750 00:45:48,480 --> 00:45:53,600 Speaker 1: But for this to happen, we can't keep. 751 00:45:53,440 --> 00:45:59,320 Speaker 2: It all up inside and keep exploding in situations and exploding. 752 00:45:59,360 --> 00:46:03,160 Speaker 2: It's not anger for everybody. Sometimes it's much more subtle 753 00:46:03,200 --> 00:46:07,280 Speaker 2: than that. It's the little waste that you withdraw yourself 754 00:46:07,360 --> 00:46:11,759 Speaker 2: from those that you love because I don't want to 755 00:46:11,760 --> 00:46:14,720 Speaker 2: be disappointed again. I don't want to be a disappointment 756 00:46:15,960 --> 00:46:18,560 Speaker 2: some living my whole life trying to avoid disappointment. 757 00:46:19,840 --> 00:46:22,400 Speaker 1: I'm bringing my expectations. 758 00:46:21,560 --> 00:46:26,040 Speaker 2: Down, down, down, down, down, down down, because now no 759 00:46:26,040 --> 00:46:27,000 Speaker 2: one can disappoint me. 760 00:46:27,880 --> 00:46:29,400 Speaker 1: And I'm bringing myself. 761 00:46:29,000 --> 00:46:32,719 Speaker 2: Back back back back, because I don't want to disappoint you. 762 00:46:34,680 --> 00:46:39,160 Speaker 1: It's not about you. This is the test. This is 763 00:46:39,200 --> 00:46:39,640 Speaker 1: the test. 764 00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:44,960 Speaker 2: With your rod in your hand, to remember all that 765 00:46:45,000 --> 00:46:48,080 Speaker 2: God has done for you, and the rock in front 766 00:46:48,080 --> 00:46:53,600 Speaker 2: of you, the presence of God. Speak to it, don't 767 00:46:53,640 --> 00:46:59,480 Speaker 2: strike it, Speak to it, confess it before God. Speak 768 00:46:59,480 --> 00:47:09,359 Speaker 2: to your weekness, own your inadequacy. God said, I'm. 769 00:47:07,080 --> 00:47:10,200 Speaker 1: Not looking for you to be what I need you 770 00:47:10,280 --> 00:47:12,359 Speaker 1: to be. I'm looking for. 771 00:47:12,280 --> 00:47:17,040 Speaker 2: You to trust in what I already am. And so 772 00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:22,719 Speaker 2: when Moses said i'm not, God said I am. When 773 00:47:22,760 --> 00:47:26,680 Speaker 2: Moses said I'm not, God said I am. When Moses 774 00:47:26,719 --> 00:47:31,319 Speaker 2: said I'm not, God said I am. When Moses said not, 775 00:47:31,560 --> 00:47:36,799 Speaker 2: God said I am. 776 00:47:36,800 --> 00:47:40,799 Speaker 1: Do you trust him enough to let him handle those 777 00:47:40,800 --> 00:47:41,400 Speaker 1: who have hurt you. 778 00:47:41,960 --> 00:47:45,000 Speaker 2: Do you trust him enough to allow him to use 779 00:47:45,040 --> 00:47:48,040 Speaker 2: everything that's happened for your good and his glory? 780 00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:51,160 Speaker 1: Lift your hands if you do. The rock is in 781 00:47:51,200 --> 00:47:51,760 Speaker 1: this place. 782 00:47:54,880 --> 00:47:57,480 Speaker 2: When my heart is overwhelmed, Lead me to the rock 783 00:47:57,600 --> 00:47:58,640 Speaker 2: that is higher than I. 784 00:48:00,080 --> 00:48:04,240 Speaker 1: Meet us in this moment. God, pour out your spirit 785 00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:05,760 Speaker 1: in a fresh way for your people. 786 00:48:05,800 --> 00:48:10,800 Speaker 2: Now. I asked that you would speak to that weak place, 787 00:48:10,920 --> 00:48:16,840 Speaker 2: broken place, discouraged place. Make that heart beat again for 788 00:48:16,920 --> 00:48:26,160 Speaker 2: real water from a rock, so you are beauty from brokenness. 789 00:48:30,040 --> 00:48:35,399 Speaker 2: Call to him, Call to him, speak to the rock. 790 00:48:36,320 --> 00:48:40,799 Speaker 2: Unless you asking, you need me. 791 00:48:42,640 --> 00:48:45,160 Speaker 1: Enter my decision making process. God, I need you. 792 00:48:47,560 --> 00:48:50,080 Speaker 2: Thank you for joining us. Special thanks to those of 793 00:48:50,120 --> 00:48:53,120 Speaker 2: you who give generously to this ministry. Is because of 794 00:48:53,160 --> 00:48:56,080 Speaker 2: you that this ministry is possible. 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