WEBVTT - Talking Ball with Allen Robinson 0:00:00.360 --> 0:00:02.600 This is cut to It with Steve Smith Senior at 0:00:02.640 --> 0:00:08.879 production of The Black Effect and I Heart Radio. I'm 0:00:08.920 --> 0:00:11.880 Steve Smith Senior and I'm Little John, And this is 0:00:11.920 --> 0:00:16.279 cut to it. Good do it? Good do what they're 0:00:16.320 --> 0:00:19.880 getting down to? Do it? Good do it. We asked 0:00:19.880 --> 0:00:23.120 the questions you always want to know, but no one 0:00:23.280 --> 0:00:29.200 ever asked, let's cut to it. You ain't heard am 0:00:29.200 --> 0:00:34.680 about it? Then we're about to let you know. It's 0:00:34.800 --> 0:00:40.879 all man, we got a great episode. We got one. 0:00:41.280 --> 0:00:47.600 We have one of the premier, premier route runners, right, 0:00:47.680 --> 0:00:50.800 he can run some routes. He was in Jacksonville. Uh, 0:00:50.960 --> 0:00:55.240 took a nice, pretty good contract, great leadership. In Chicago, 0:00:55.760 --> 0:00:57.440 things didn't go well, as you know if you're a 0:00:57.480 --> 0:01:02.000 Chicago fan. You saw very quickly. Uh. They went from 0:01:02.040 --> 0:01:05.040 sugar to blue cheese really fast. And we're talking about 0:01:05.080 --> 0:01:08.200 Allen Robinson and we've got him for a less hopball 0:01:08.280 --> 0:01:11.640 episode that I know for sure, really excited about being 0:01:11.680 --> 0:01:15.360 able to dig into. You mentioned his tenue with the Jaguars, 0:01:15.400 --> 0:01:18.160 more recently his tenue with the Chicago Bears. It's gonna 0:01:18.200 --> 0:01:20.280 be a good one. Man. Did you think I was 0:01:20.280 --> 0:01:24.440 a little bit hard on him? Na? You never really wow. 0:01:25.480 --> 0:01:27.200 But I did have to hold his feet to the 0:01:27.200 --> 0:01:30.280 fire on some of these things because I know personally 0:01:30.880 --> 0:01:35.400 when you make some professional mistakes how much they can 0:01:35.440 --> 0:01:39.560 stick with you. And I love how he owned his 0:01:39.680 --> 0:01:42.720 professional mistakes. It's the name of his podcast. Right to It. 0:01:42.760 --> 0:01:45.039 We're gonna cut to it. We're getting the right information. 0:01:45.120 --> 0:01:46.320 A matter of fact, we're gonna cut to it and 0:01:46.360 --> 0:01:54.200 get straight into this anything. How are you doing? Brother? 0:01:54.280 --> 0:01:59.240 Welcome to the Cut to It Podcast. I am your 0:01:59.360 --> 0:02:03.120 resident Mr nort All, Steve Smith Singer, and then I 0:02:03.160 --> 0:02:09.640 got backstage Joe and then my accomplished co host and 0:02:09.720 --> 0:02:12.480 one of my best friends, Gerard Little John. Let's talk 0:02:12.560 --> 0:02:18.320 ball man. I'm really I'm intrigued to talk ball um. 0:02:18.360 --> 0:02:24.080 But I'm also uh, I'm also excited because I can 0:02:24.200 --> 0:02:27.040 remember when you were with a long when you're with 0:02:27.120 --> 0:02:30.559 an organization and you transition, right you with the Jaguars, 0:02:31.160 --> 0:02:32.760 man that was that was your squad, bro. You were 0:02:32.880 --> 0:02:37.080 you were putting up big numbers. You know you uh, 0:02:37.320 --> 0:02:41.919 you guys were doing well. You took a team that 0:02:42.040 --> 0:02:45.600 was doing well. They faltered and then they got two. 0:02:45.840 --> 0:02:48.840 They got you, and all of a sudden things changed 0:02:48.880 --> 0:02:51.680 and you gave them hope. I knew you crushed their 0:02:51.760 --> 0:02:58.880 dreams and you chase that bag? How dare you you 0:02:58.919 --> 0:03:06.400 go to Chicago? So I mean, we're gonna why did you? 0:03:07.600 --> 0:03:13.040 Why did you sign with the Chicago Bears? Coming out 0:03:13.040 --> 0:03:17.920 of coming out of free agency? So coming out of 0:03:17.960 --> 0:03:22.400 free agency, Um, for me, personally, I feel like I 0:03:22.440 --> 0:03:24.880 got a lot of I thought I had great force 0:03:24.960 --> 0:03:28.079 life into my career and kind of you know, the 0:03:28.120 --> 0:03:30.720 direction that I wanted to go and things like that. 0:03:30.760 --> 0:03:34.080 And seeing who the Bears were bringing in at the time, 0:03:34.320 --> 0:03:37.120 you know, to to coach at the quarterback position, and 0:03:37.200 --> 0:03:40.000 kind of the culture and the team and style of 0:03:40.120 --> 0:03:42.960 play that they were trying to build. I personally saw 0:03:43.000 --> 0:03:46.040 that I was a perfect scheme fit for that, you know, 0:03:46.200 --> 0:03:48.800 and being able to be moved around, being able to 0:03:48.880 --> 0:03:51.280 run different routes, you know. Um, I didn't want to 0:03:51.280 --> 0:03:54.240 just be a person who was just running uh go 0:03:54.440 --> 0:03:58.320 balls and stops. You don't want to just do that, 0:03:58.480 --> 0:04:01.200 huh Nah. I wanted to play in the slide a 0:04:01.240 --> 0:04:02.880 little bit, you know. I wanted to get into some 0:04:03.320 --> 0:04:06.160 one by three formations and be number three, the number two, 0:04:06.280 --> 0:04:08.160 you know, playing the outside a little bit. And I 0:04:08.160 --> 0:04:11.800 wanted to be able to to showcase and and and 0:04:11.840 --> 0:04:21.839 put my entire skill set to the test. So what 0:04:21.839 --> 0:04:24.360 what was what was your thought? And free agency? Are 0:04:24.360 --> 0:04:26.719 you coming out? You're going into free agency? You got 0:04:27.279 --> 0:04:29.560 We don't. I'm not concerned about it, and we don't 0:04:29.600 --> 0:04:32.080 want to mention all the other teams. But you have 0:04:32.200 --> 0:04:37.720 some teams and you picked Chicago. But why did you 0:04:37.800 --> 0:04:45.320 believe a scheme was important? One? I believe that I 0:04:45.320 --> 0:04:50.320 could fit into many different schemes, but to be specific, 0:04:50.720 --> 0:04:55.200 from the concepts and from different things that was being ran. 0:04:56.000 --> 0:05:00.279 Also with the with with the culture that her other 0:05:00.320 --> 0:05:03.400 players even from Kansas City that was being brought in, 0:05:03.839 --> 0:05:06.120 I thought that that would be that would be perfect 0:05:06.240 --> 0:05:07.960 for me to kind of because at that time I 0:05:08.000 --> 0:05:10.240 was coming out for injury as well, so it was 0:05:10.400 --> 0:05:14.800 it was me kind of like reiterating who I was 0:05:14.839 --> 0:05:17.400 as a player was big and I wanted to and 0:05:17.440 --> 0:05:19.360 I wanted to make sure that, you know, I had 0:05:19.400 --> 0:05:22.640 the perfect situation for me to be able to do that, 0:05:22.760 --> 0:05:24.280 you know, for me to kind of be able to 0:05:24.920 --> 0:05:27.479 not reintroduce myself. But when you sit out for a 0:05:27.520 --> 0:05:30.360 whole season because of the injury, you know, people tend 0:05:30.400 --> 0:05:32.080 to forget, you know, and there's a lot of different 0:05:32.080 --> 0:05:34.960 things that kind of you know, go olden people's head. 0:05:35.000 --> 0:05:37.240 And for me, I wanted to get into a situation 0:05:37.240 --> 0:05:39.520 where I could show it exactly who I was. And 0:05:39.520 --> 0:05:41.279 again I could put my skill set and I could 0:05:41.320 --> 0:05:43.960 put who I was as a player on display. So 0:05:44.160 --> 0:05:47.120 scheme culture. What else was it about the organization that 0:05:47.240 --> 0:05:52.360 drew you in to take that trip? Also, Chicago is 0:05:52.400 --> 0:05:55.960 close to home. Um, that was another fact that I had. 0:05:55.960 --> 0:05:58.200 I had played. I had played far away from home, 0:05:59.160 --> 0:06:01.359 not far, but recently far away from home for a 0:06:01.400 --> 0:06:04.159 good little while. I think prior to me being in Chicago, 0:06:04.720 --> 0:06:07.719 the closest I had played from the driving standpoint was 0:06:07.760 --> 0:06:09.400 about seven and a half hours and I was in 0:06:09.440 --> 0:06:12.800 college at Penn State, you know. And even even over 0:06:12.839 --> 0:06:15.200 the past years for me, this is the most that 0:06:15.240 --> 0:06:16.839 my family has been able to come and see me 0:06:16.880 --> 0:06:22.200 places high school. So how important has that been now 0:06:22.240 --> 0:06:29.280 that you've lived that? Extremely important? Um, extremely important, Um, 0:06:29.400 --> 0:06:31.919 especially not to not to fast forward, but especially you 0:06:31.960 --> 0:06:35.720 know this past year, you know, being able to you know, 0:06:35.800 --> 0:06:38.640 have my family and being able for them to you know, 0:06:38.720 --> 0:06:40.920 be be close to me, you know, and being able 0:06:40.920 --> 0:06:42.800 to come to games and things like that. You know, 0:06:43.080 --> 0:06:45.000 it's a great feeling. You know. Again, I mean it's 0:06:45.080 --> 0:06:47.400 it's one thing where you kind of just playing and 0:06:47.520 --> 0:06:51.440 kind of you know, experiencing and trying to embrace everything, 0:06:51.600 --> 0:06:53.920 you know, by yourself. When you have you know, when 0:06:53.920 --> 0:06:56.960 I had my parents and my sister you know, and 0:06:57.080 --> 0:06:59.520 some of my friends come into games and things like that. 0:06:59.560 --> 0:07:01.920 You know, it's just a different feeling. Man. It's just 0:07:03.560 --> 0:07:05.680 it asked a lot more because again, I mean for 0:07:05.800 --> 0:07:09.120 me personally, you know, my career and how I look 0:07:09.200 --> 0:07:11.000 at my career, I've never looked at it as far 0:07:11.040 --> 0:07:14.600 as you know, just me, you know, like like like 0:07:14.680 --> 0:07:16.720 every time I put on my jersey, every time I 0:07:16.760 --> 0:07:18.760 think about my family, I think about the people who 0:07:18.800 --> 0:07:20.760 have been watching me and who've been coming to the 0:07:20.800 --> 0:07:22.720 games and in the stand since I was seven years old, 0:07:23.720 --> 0:07:25.680 you know, and being able to being able to have that, 0:07:25.800 --> 0:07:28.240 be able to have them there, you know a lot, 0:07:28.480 --> 0:07:31.560 you know, from my entire time in Chicago, you know, 0:07:31.920 --> 0:07:33.760 meant a lot to me, you know, and I think 0:07:33.800 --> 0:07:36.040 that we all as a as a family and everything 0:07:36.120 --> 0:07:38.840 like that truly embraced that, and and and it was 0:07:39.000 --> 0:07:46.280 it's been a great experience. I like it. I'm I'm 0:07:46.320 --> 0:07:52.560 impressed on the y take us through. Did you take 0:07:52.640 --> 0:07:55.560 any other visits then Chicago? Or you just fell in 0:07:55.600 --> 0:07:58.040 love with Chicago like you was a cheap day, cheap date. 0:07:59.200 --> 0:08:06.360 I'm not. I didn't take no business. That boy got 0:08:06.400 --> 0:08:08.600 that They told you how much money there is gonna pay? 0:08:08.600 --> 0:08:13.880 You say, you know it's close to home. It's a 0:08:13.920 --> 0:08:20.480 pretty good bag. I'm looking at his backdrop like, you 0:08:20.520 --> 0:08:24.520 know what, Shoot, this ain't too bad. I can see 0:08:24.560 --> 0:08:27.080 myself here, kick my feet up. I can see myself here. 0:08:28.520 --> 0:08:30.280 He took his hat off his he he's like, let 0:08:30.320 --> 0:08:32.880 me see if the wind blows him my hair. Right, 0:08:33.040 --> 0:08:35.520 just when I went to Baltimore, I did. I just 0:08:35.600 --> 0:08:38.360 took my I just see if the wind blowing my scout. 0:08:41.600 --> 0:08:48.200 I had lost all my hair by then, so I 0:08:48.200 --> 0:08:51.959 ain't think of my business business. Um why my first 0:08:51.960 --> 0:08:55.960 time experiencing for it? Well, I didn't know this, but 0:08:56.120 --> 0:08:59.200 I mean free agency had it just was going so 0:08:59.280 --> 0:09:03.320 fast you start depending not how you expect, like just 0:09:03.360 --> 0:09:05.280 kind of sit back and she'll like, you know, let 0:09:05.280 --> 0:09:08.000 me like yeah, I'm like, let me see what's over 0:09:08.120 --> 0:09:12.040 is now? It's going fast like much fat much faster 0:09:12.120 --> 0:09:14.800 than I expected for that being my first time in 0:09:14.880 --> 0:09:19.439 free agency. Did you get anti A nervous little bit? 0:09:21.520 --> 0:09:23.800 A little bittle bit for sure, A little bit and 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:26.840 more so for me um, more so because again me 0:09:26.960 --> 0:09:31.280 coming off my injury going into free agency personally, I mean, 0:09:31.280 --> 0:09:34.040 everybody you know tells you, you know, the things you 0:09:34.080 --> 0:09:36.319 have people around you, you know, we have a lot 0:09:36.360 --> 0:09:39.360 of knowledge of the situation. But you know, deep down 0:09:40.040 --> 0:09:42.760 you know you obviously are hoping for the best situation 0:09:42.800 --> 0:09:45.439 and best scenario. But I tell everybody when you when 0:09:45.480 --> 0:09:48.520 you're sitting up there in a in a knee brace, 0:09:48.640 --> 0:09:51.480 and as the season is progressing about the end, you know, 0:09:51.679 --> 0:09:54.240 you don't have no idea what's gonna be there. You know, 0:09:54.400 --> 0:09:58.560 you have no idea the situation and circumstances, no idea. 0:09:58.800 --> 0:10:00.560 So for me, Um, I definite it was a little 0:10:00.559 --> 0:10:02.480 empty when it kind of came down to it. But 0:10:02.800 --> 0:10:04.960 you know, as as it as it progressed, you know, 0:10:05.120 --> 0:10:08.120 um Um definitely definitely calmed down a little bit. So 0:10:08.920 --> 0:10:10.720 you you were sitting in a knee brace, You're sitting 0:10:10.760 --> 0:10:16.560 around m M psychologically what we're what was going on 0:10:16.640 --> 0:10:21.040 internally for you as you sustained the major injury to 0:10:21.160 --> 0:10:24.080 some degree. There's there's probably some question of what I 0:10:24.160 --> 0:10:28.280 returned back to me. Then you gotta inswer free agency. 0:10:28.440 --> 0:10:32.760 Then you gotta enter free agency. What was going on inside? 0:10:33.120 --> 0:10:35.080 Give us the real don't give it. Don't don't don't 0:10:35.080 --> 0:10:38.559 give us the agent. Uh you know. I'm just You're 0:10:38.559 --> 0:10:41.040 gonna get the best version of Alan Robinson after this 0:10:41.120 --> 0:10:43.400 injury that you possibly can. Like, I want to know 0:10:43.400 --> 0:10:45.920 how you did your interviews. No, you just I just 0:10:46.000 --> 0:10:47.800 hear the guys. I see I hear some of the 0:10:47.800 --> 0:10:49.800 guys now and they that's what they're saying. I'm going 0:10:51.000 --> 0:10:53.360 that that ain't the real answer when you're sitting there 0:10:53.360 --> 0:10:57.360 in a knee brace with you know, eighteen six months 0:10:57.760 --> 0:11:02.400 into the injury, and you get up in the early 0:11:02.679 --> 0:11:04.640 morning because you got a pee and you take a 0:11:04.720 --> 0:11:09.120 step and something goes your negos. Boy, you ain't ready yet. 0:11:11.760 --> 0:11:15.480 I said this the day because I got injured. The 0:11:15.520 --> 0:11:17.760 third play of the season. I had one catch for 0:11:17.800 --> 0:11:21.400 I think eighteen yards and it was my contract year 0:11:22.000 --> 0:11:24.559 and I was in the locker room and I specifically 0:11:24.640 --> 0:11:27.160 room this. I'm sitting at my locker and mind you, 0:11:27.240 --> 0:11:30.319 the game is still going on, and I looked up 0:11:30.360 --> 0:11:35.000 and I SAILF. I said, I'm gonna get myself five 0:11:35.080 --> 0:11:38.960 minutes to grief. And after that five minutes, I said, 0:11:39.000 --> 0:11:42.920 I'm putting that past everything From this point forward, it's 0:11:42.960 --> 0:11:47.000 gonna be it's gonna be getting myself back to who 0:11:47.040 --> 0:11:48.920 and what I need to be, because I knew I 0:11:48.920 --> 0:11:53.200 couldn't let myself go this go to the left, you know, 0:11:53.280 --> 0:11:56.559 and also I didn't want and I and I specifically 0:11:56.720 --> 0:12:01.160 remember this as well, right after my mom called on me, um, 0:12:01.240 --> 0:12:03.440 and then my mom asked me like, how are you? 0:12:03.480 --> 0:12:06.920 And I can hear the pain in her voice, you know, 0:12:07.200 --> 0:12:10.560 and when she heard me say like I'm good, like 0:12:10.640 --> 0:12:13.880 I'm good, I'm gonna be good. I could tell that 0:12:13.880 --> 0:12:17.800 that like took any kind of anxiety or anything off 0:12:17.800 --> 0:12:19.880 of her as well, which is something like I said before, Man, 0:12:19.920 --> 0:12:22.760 my family is very very close to me, you know, 0:12:22.920 --> 0:12:25.280 And and even in those times, if you kind of 0:12:25.280 --> 0:12:27.840 got to be the strength of everybody you know around you, 0:12:27.920 --> 0:12:30.360 because again people people are living the same thing like 0:12:30.480 --> 0:12:32.840 through you, you know, from my mom, my dad, my sister. 0:12:33.240 --> 0:12:35.400 So for me, it was I couldn't let myself be 0:12:35.480 --> 0:12:37.760 down for the people around me to just see me down, 0:12:37.800 --> 0:12:39.440 you know, because that wasn't gonna do nothing for me. 0:12:40.000 --> 0:12:42.520 So when that so in that I put that past. Man. 0:12:42.559 --> 0:12:44.880 From then on, it was just kind of getting to work, 0:12:45.000 --> 0:12:46.800 you know. And even as you're kind of progressing that, 0:12:47.320 --> 0:12:51.000 you know, you still don't know exactly what and how 0:12:51.160 --> 0:12:54.200 you'll be when that time comes. And I've been watching 0:12:54.240 --> 0:12:56.439 games and seeing dudes make cuts. You know, I'm still 0:12:56.480 --> 0:12:58.720 mind you like I'm fresh off of crutches, you know, 0:12:58.760 --> 0:13:01.079 and I'm like, damn, that's that's a hell of a cutting. Then, 0:13:01.640 --> 0:13:04.480 you know what I'm saying, You have that in your heads, 0:13:04.559 --> 0:13:06.480 and it's like but once you kind of, you know, 0:13:06.559 --> 0:13:09.320 start to get back on the field and you still progress. 0:13:09.720 --> 0:13:11.720 You know sometimes when injuries like that, you know, the 0:13:11.800 --> 0:13:14.400 small winds are the ones that you gotta take, you know, 0:13:14.480 --> 0:13:23.640 until you back. Yeah, when you talk about injuries, you know, 0:13:24.480 --> 0:13:29.040 it's so hard because each individual guy, the significance of 0:13:29.160 --> 0:13:33.840 his injury is is it's worse or or easier better 0:13:33.880 --> 0:13:36.600 than the next. Right, And here you say you gave 0:13:36.640 --> 0:13:42.280 yourself five minutes, man. I mean I remember if I 0:13:42.280 --> 0:13:44.120 would have said, man, I give myself five man, when 0:13:44.160 --> 0:13:47.680 I tore my Achilles in Baltimore, bro I woke up 0:13:47.679 --> 0:13:51.840 the next day like it must have been a dream, 0:13:51.960 --> 0:13:54.560 and I took that step and I in the floor 0:13:54.679 --> 0:14:00.679 felt like flat with arch in it. No, that wasn't 0:14:00.679 --> 0:14:03.480 a dream, that that thing't really happened, right, And so 0:14:03.559 --> 0:14:08.600 I had a whole like that. I toured, I felt it, 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:13.720 I went to sleep, woke up, I was like, yeah, no, 0:14:14.120 --> 0:14:16.880 it was real, and so for me it started all 0:14:16.920 --> 0:14:19.520 over again. And then when I was rehabbing, I had 0:14:19.560 --> 0:14:22.760 those you know, I had those guy moments where Lord, 0:14:22.800 --> 0:14:26.240 I need your help because I don't think I'm strong 0:14:26.360 --> 0:14:29.520 enough to do this right. That's just me, right, I 0:14:29.880 --> 0:14:33.160 I had accomplished so many things and I played well enough, 0:14:35.040 --> 0:14:39.840 but I had that doubt in my head and I struggled. 0:14:40.760 --> 0:14:43.800 I worked as hard as I could, and that still 0:14:44.000 --> 0:14:47.760 was not gonna fix my achilles. And that was new 0:14:47.760 --> 0:14:50.640 to me. That was a different that was a that's 0:14:50.680 --> 0:14:54.800 a different place. I've never been in that place. So 0:14:55.320 --> 0:15:00.280 it's y I'll say this honestly, and again not the 0:15:00.320 --> 0:15:03.840 fast forward too much, but it's you, it's your story. 0:15:04.200 --> 0:15:10.800 I actually I probably would say this year tough room 0:15:11.000 --> 0:15:17.560 than that year. Why that year I felt like once I, 0:15:17.760 --> 0:15:20.640 once I got hurt, it was about me kind of 0:15:20.720 --> 0:15:28.320 controlling everything that I could control. It was I said, 0:15:28.360 --> 0:15:32.400 you were in the driver's seat, and it was just 0:15:32.440 --> 0:15:34.280 more so like you know, like I said before, once 0:15:34.320 --> 0:15:36.360 I got hurt, it said, okay, like well this is 0:15:36.400 --> 0:15:38.360 what I could do when these is kind of steps. 0:15:38.360 --> 0:15:40.520 So it's like not that I don't have a choice, 0:15:40.560 --> 0:15:42.400 but it's like this is this is where I'm at, 0:15:42.440 --> 0:15:45.360 this is word's going as opposed to this year, I 0:15:45.400 --> 0:15:48.200 felt it was so much out of my control. And 0:15:48.240 --> 0:15:50.560 for me as a person, anybody who knows me knows 0:15:50.640 --> 0:15:53.720 anything that bothers me the most, frustrates me the most, 0:15:54.200 --> 0:15:58.360 causes me to be most angry or anything is things 0:15:58.400 --> 0:16:01.520 that I cannot control. Oh that's life. If I can't 0:16:01.520 --> 0:16:04.800 control it. If I can control it, I'm good. If 0:16:04.840 --> 0:16:06.880 I drop a ball, I'm good. I can control that. 0:16:06.920 --> 0:16:09.440 I could, I can make another play, I can improve fear, 0:16:09.520 --> 0:16:11.320 I can do this, I can do that. But now 0:16:11.400 --> 0:16:13.840 once you start factoring in things that's out of my control, 0:16:14.720 --> 0:16:16.880 now you really start missing you know what I'm saying. 0:16:16.880 --> 0:16:19.640 Now it's now it's frustration. So how is that? How's 0:16:19.680 --> 0:16:22.200 that working out for you? Right now. Then if if 0:16:22.560 --> 0:16:26.400 you are good with control, but you are struggling with 0:16:26.440 --> 0:16:30.960 not control things, because I mean, I know you're you're 0:16:30.960 --> 0:16:37.200 a fantastic football player, but I mean outside of that, 0:16:37.240 --> 0:16:41.200 there's pretty much nothing else, Like there's a let's say, 0:16:41.360 --> 0:16:44.960 if if the list is a thousand, there's probably twenty things. 0:16:45.920 --> 0:16:48.480 I'll give you eighty. Hell, I give you a hundred 0:16:49.200 --> 0:16:53.560 things you can control. Then there's about what about some things? 0:16:53.560 --> 0:16:56.280 You got the illusion of control? Yes? So how are 0:16:56.320 --> 0:16:59.080 you You know you don't have control over everything? Like 0:16:59.160 --> 0:17:03.400 that's life? Are you? Are you a parent yet? Yes? Oh? 0:17:03.440 --> 0:17:08.560 How many kids you guys? Okay? How how old is 0:17:08.640 --> 0:17:15.920 your boy? Girl? Three? Three? He's three, she's just Oh 0:17:15.960 --> 0:17:19.760 she's a girl. Brother. Let me tell you something. Buckle up. 0:17:19.840 --> 0:17:23.600 If you she's controlling you, yeah, she not. Not Again, 0:17:24.160 --> 0:17:29.560 I'm speaking in terms of more so specifically football. I 0:17:29.640 --> 0:17:33.000 understand what you're conceptually, I understand what you're attempting to 0:17:33.040 --> 0:17:36.680 talk about, but I'm telling you we're talking about life. 0:17:36.920 --> 0:17:40.600 Who you are beyond the football player. You can control 0:17:41.160 --> 0:17:44.119 the route you're gonna run after they tell you what 0:17:44.240 --> 0:17:48.480 route you're running. Isn't that fair to say? All right? 0:17:48.520 --> 0:17:51.280 So you you're trying to control after you get on 0:17:51.320 --> 0:17:56.840 the bus, right, and so that's so, would you say 0:17:56.960 --> 0:18:02.920 that type of that thought process soured the relationship with 0:18:03.000 --> 0:18:08.320 you being in Chicago, because here's what I and before 0:18:08.320 --> 0:18:11.680 you answer, I'll let you steal on that. It was 0:18:11.720 --> 0:18:16.320 a report after losing the playoff game that you didn't 0:18:16.320 --> 0:18:24.520 speak to your head coach from January until July. How 0:18:24.840 --> 0:18:28.320 is that possible and why do you why did you 0:18:28.520 --> 0:18:31.440 believe that that was appropriate? Now this old g talking 0:18:31.480 --> 0:18:34.320 to you, this ain't. I know you feel like it's 0:18:34.359 --> 0:18:36.680 okay to do that, but I'm telling you as a 0:18:37.520 --> 0:18:39.760 people that are listening to this, and people that see 0:18:39.800 --> 0:18:45.040 football players, bro, they don't care about your feelings. You're 0:18:45.080 --> 0:18:50.400 getting paid a king's ransom. With the bag you've received 0:18:50.440 --> 0:18:54.560 and the bags that I received. We both have lived 0:18:56.400 --> 0:19:01.000 a thousand lifestyles of kings. And you've got people that 0:19:01.040 --> 0:19:05.360 are paying from Flint, Michigan, to Los Angeles to Charlotte 0:19:05.920 --> 0:19:08.520 that are to go to one game in a whole year, 0:19:08.560 --> 0:19:11.440 they may have to save up six months of their 0:19:11.480 --> 0:19:17.160 salaries or six months off the hourly wage SALD payments 0:19:17.200 --> 0:19:20.880 of jobs. How many burgers they've had to flip, how 0:19:20.880 --> 0:19:24.080 many investments they've had to do, how many cars they've 0:19:24.119 --> 0:19:26.399 had to park, whatever it is that they had to do. 0:19:26.640 --> 0:19:29.639 And you over here ain't talking to your supervisor, a 0:19:29.760 --> 0:19:33.040 person that God has put in your life as as 0:19:33.080 --> 0:19:36.120 someone that you're supposed to report to. You ain't talked 0:19:36.119 --> 0:19:43.680 to him for six, seven, eight months. Why now, if 0:19:43.680 --> 0:19:47.920 I could correct you a little bit, I wasn't there. 0:19:48.119 --> 0:19:51.480 I would sleep actually that I didn't talk to him. 0:19:51.800 --> 0:19:55.360 We didn't talk, I like I'm gonna say, I'm gonna say, 0:19:55.440 --> 0:19:59.320 we didn't talk. Because from the time the season ended 0:19:59.440 --> 0:20:02.760 on the plane after the Saints game, right the following 0:20:04.000 --> 0:20:06.240 or four day hours of some form of exit meetings 0:20:08.840 --> 0:20:12.399 for us because of COVID that was supposed to be 0:20:12.440 --> 0:20:15.480 scheduled with the with the head coach and management or 0:20:15.480 --> 0:20:19.520 however they were coordinating that with that via zoom. Talk 0:20:19.600 --> 0:20:23.680 to the receiver, coach, talk to equipment, everybody else. A 0:20:23.720 --> 0:20:28.440 few days go by, no zoom link, we go by zoom. 0:20:28.640 --> 0:20:32.199 So let me ask you hold on now, let me 0:20:32.240 --> 0:20:37.640 see hold up your right here go like this. He's oh, 0:20:37.720 --> 0:20:41.240 they work, I know you know the text, So you 0:20:41.280 --> 0:20:47.240 couldn't You couldn't text them now honestly, No, you couldn't 0:20:47.280 --> 0:20:52.280 text nahel like you couldn't know why didn't you? No, 0:20:52.440 --> 0:20:55.000 it wasn't not feel like I couldn't. It's just at 0:20:55.040 --> 0:20:59.560 that Okay, we're having exit meetings where you normally talk 0:20:59.640 --> 0:21:04.040 about yeah, just just just to put hold on before 0:21:04.080 --> 0:21:06.880 you answer, just to put my cell on. Frustrate man, 0:21:06.880 --> 0:21:08.760 I didn't do no damn max and meet. I wouldn't 0:21:10.160 --> 0:21:11.639 for what I need to excu met for. I know 0:21:11.680 --> 0:21:13.560 I'll be back next year. Y'all get your ship together. 0:21:14.480 --> 0:21:16.440 So I'm just telling you what I did. So I'm 0:21:16.760 --> 0:21:20.080 not I'm not coming from a how dare you I'm 0:21:20.119 --> 0:21:21.960 coming from I never did exit meeting. I didn't need 0:21:22.000 --> 0:21:23.560 to do on the exit meet y'all know what y'all 0:21:23.600 --> 0:21:26.080 need to do. Agent A not run his route, y'all 0:21:26.119 --> 0:21:27.399 give me some guys that I can play with, and 0:21:27.440 --> 0:21:29.960 y'all blocking. Hey, we're good. So I didn't need no 0:21:30.040 --> 0:21:33.640 excit meeting. I didn't even clean out my lockers. Hell, 0:21:33.680 --> 0:21:35.120 I'll need to clean up my locker. I'll be here 0:21:35.160 --> 0:21:40.760 next week. So so so I'm saying all that to 0:21:40.760 --> 0:21:45.720 to to tell you, one man, you're help. You don't 0:21:45.800 --> 0:21:49.440 have the reputation I have. You have a stellar reputation. 0:21:49.480 --> 0:21:52.359 Your reputation is you're even killed due that. You're a 0:21:52.359 --> 0:21:57.040 hard worker like me, you're a grinder. But the difference 0:21:57.080 --> 0:21:59.800 that I don't have that the luxury you have is 0:22:00.760 --> 0:22:06.360 you don't have a reputation of being a distraction. I do, 0:22:07.119 --> 0:22:09.560 and I'm willing to own it. But when you don't 0:22:09.600 --> 0:22:13.280 talk to your coach, when you don't when you don't 0:22:14.240 --> 0:22:18.600 take the initial step and your daddy, your leader, when 0:22:18.600 --> 0:22:21.760 you don't take that initial step, you can't expect other 0:22:21.880 --> 0:22:24.920 men who may be lacking in something to take that 0:22:24.960 --> 0:22:27.960 step in which is made for you to be responsible, 0:22:28.119 --> 0:22:30.639 to take that step. Because that wide receiver's room, who's 0:22:30.640 --> 0:22:34.280 the leader in that wide receiver's room? Okay, because I 0:22:34.400 --> 0:22:36.320 want to call Mike and ask him now because I 0:22:36.359 --> 0:22:41.040 know what he's gonna tell me, right you, So why 0:22:41.240 --> 0:22:45.040 did you not take that step to show them? Yeah 0:22:45.119 --> 0:22:53.040 you're upset, Yeah you're disappointed, but also also, squad, let's 0:22:53.080 --> 0:22:54.720 get on the same page so we could be better, 0:22:54.760 --> 0:22:59.960 so this doesn't happen next year. And at that point 0:23:00.040 --> 0:23:03.320 it was, I mean, I was, I was a opinion 0:23:03.359 --> 0:23:05.960 and free agent. At that point, I didn't know which 0:23:06.000 --> 0:23:11.720 direction they were wanting to go in either way or not. 0:23:11.840 --> 0:23:14.680 So for me, I'm waiting for the exit meetings. So okay, 0:23:14.720 --> 0:23:17.159 so we could talk about this thing. What's what's you 0:23:17.200 --> 0:23:19.320 know what I'm saying, like, like what do y'all see 0:23:19.520 --> 0:23:23.560 or thinking the foreseeable future? Just to give me an idea. 0:23:23.680 --> 0:23:26.200 So for me, if it's supposed to be a zoom 0:23:26.280 --> 0:23:29.000 link sent out to me, cool, all right, I'm waiting 0:23:29.000 --> 0:23:31.119 for that zoom link. So now we can chop it 0:23:31.200 --> 0:23:33.600 up and see, you know, see what's up even from 0:23:33.720 --> 0:23:36.080 even from a football side, from how do we improve 0:23:36.119 --> 0:23:40.560 on next year? And I'm we go by no zoom 0:23:40.600 --> 0:23:48.879 link two weeks, no zoom January? Now weary and no 0:23:49.200 --> 0:23:51.480 did you show me? Ask you this? Then let me 0:23:51.680 --> 0:23:54.840 reverse it. You and a lot of you ain't for 0:23:54.880 --> 0:23:56.600 a lot of folks to call. You're gonna let them 0:23:56.600 --> 0:24:00.760 know that you got this lot of ticket. You're gonnat Okay. 0:24:01.080 --> 0:24:02.760 I just want to make sure. I just want to 0:24:02.800 --> 0:24:05.679 make sure. And the reason I'm saying that is I 0:24:05.680 --> 0:24:08.680