1
00:00:00,120 --> 00:00:02,840
Speaker 1: Native Land Pod is a production of iHeartRadio in partnership

2
00:00:02,880 --> 00:00:04,359
Speaker 1: with Resent Choice Media.

3
00:00:04,480 --> 00:00:07,560
Speaker 2: Welcome, Welcome, Welcome, Welcome, welcome, Welcome.

4
00:00:09,560 --> 00:00:14,040
Speaker 3: Home, y'all, this is this week. Okay, hello Andrew.

5
00:00:13,960 --> 00:00:17,120
Speaker 2: Your low energy, we welcome home, new episode.

6
00:00:18,760 --> 00:00:22,560
Speaker 3: All right, so, uh Max is back unfrozen and we

7
00:00:22,640 --> 00:00:24,759
Speaker 3: are all here to welcome you home. Tip would you

8
00:00:24,880 --> 00:00:26,800
Speaker 3: also like to give it a high energy? Said?

9
00:00:26,880 --> 00:00:28,840
Speaker 1: Welcome home, guys, welcome home.

10
00:00:29,440 --> 00:00:32,959
Speaker 3: Rasp it. I'm getting over to flu still. I'm sorry

11
00:00:33,040 --> 00:00:36,440
Speaker 3: you said you not make fun of my shortcomings and

12
00:00:36,520 --> 00:00:39,800
Speaker 3: my faults. I started printing a document. Hopefully you guys

13
00:00:39,840 --> 00:00:43,680
Speaker 3: can't hear that in the microphone. You can doll up

14
00:00:44,280 --> 00:00:50,280
Speaker 3: now you cannot hear anyway. So I'm welcoming you home.

15
00:00:50,320 --> 00:00:54,520
Speaker 3: To this week's mini pod. We are talking about health

16
00:00:54,640 --> 00:00:57,880
Speaker 3: and commitments in the new year. Andrew made a revelatory

17
00:00:58,480 --> 00:01:02,120
Speaker 3: reveal that was very duplicitous and not what I meant

18
00:01:02,160 --> 00:01:06,440
Speaker 3: to say, But he shared on our last podcast that

19
00:01:06,720 --> 00:01:09,160
Speaker 3: he has a change of heart about resolutions. I want

20
00:01:09,200 --> 00:01:11,000
Speaker 3: to hear all about it, and I want to tell

21
00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:14,240
Speaker 3: you about the ones that I made some by course,

22
00:01:14,480 --> 00:01:16,320
Speaker 3: so I want to hear I want.

23
00:01:16,120 --> 00:01:18,640
Speaker 2: To hear no I didn't know when you were in

24
00:01:18,760 --> 00:01:21,480
Speaker 2: La and we were talking about and I actually it

25
00:01:21,520 --> 00:01:23,040
Speaker 2: came to me as we were sitting there talking about,

26
00:01:23,080 --> 00:01:26,360
Speaker 2: like why don't I make these things anymore? And it

27
00:01:26,440 --> 00:01:29,120
Speaker 2: dawn on me like I'm not making resolutions anymore because

28
00:01:29,400 --> 00:01:33,639
Speaker 2: I end up disappointed at myself for not having accomplished something,

29
00:01:33,800 --> 00:01:37,720
Speaker 2: and it feels like it has the reverse effect of

30
00:01:37,760 --> 00:01:44,160
Speaker 2: what it should. And truth, I don't know if you've heard.

31
00:01:44,200 --> 00:01:45,800
Speaker 2: I'm not going to give a total shout out, but

32
00:01:45,800 --> 00:01:49,919
Speaker 2: but but my theme for the year is an adaptation

33
00:01:50,080 --> 00:01:54,640
Speaker 2: on this book that I completed called.

34
00:01:54,280 --> 00:01:55,639
Speaker 4: The Way Is Through.

35
00:01:56,920 --> 00:02:02,040
Speaker 2: And what that means for me, rather than resolution, is

36
00:02:02,080 --> 00:02:04,600
Speaker 2: that when it pops on my mind to and I've

37
00:02:04,640 --> 00:02:07,200
Speaker 2: done this three times now, they're all happened to be relatives,

38
00:02:07,240 --> 00:02:09,160
Speaker 2: my brother, my sister, and my uncle.

39
00:02:09,880 --> 00:02:11,679
Speaker 4: But it's to start with text messages.

40
00:02:12,360 --> 00:02:14,919
Speaker 2: But I didn't wait for them to be the ones

41
00:02:14,960 --> 00:02:17,840
Speaker 2: to reach out and wish me well in the new year,

42
00:02:18,560 --> 00:02:22,560
Speaker 2: which anybody on my phone knows. I am not initiating

43
00:02:22,600 --> 00:02:26,520
Speaker 2: any sexes because I hate the phone. And I did

44
00:02:26,840 --> 00:02:32,040
Speaker 2: and it led to some really good conversation. It almost immediately,

45
00:02:32,040 --> 00:02:34,600
Speaker 2: and each one went to a phone call because I

46
00:02:34,639 --> 00:02:41,200
Speaker 2: hate texting, and the conversations were so full. Even if

47
00:02:41,200 --> 00:02:45,160
Speaker 2: it was just light, it was it was the manner

48
00:02:45,440 --> 00:02:46,520
Speaker 2: that I needed at the time.

49
00:02:46,600 --> 00:02:46,919
Speaker 4: And so.

50
00:02:49,160 --> 00:02:51,400
Speaker 2: I am getting back on the wagon. I guess you

51
00:02:51,800 --> 00:02:56,359
Speaker 2: would say to if not a complete set of ten resolutions,

52
00:02:56,480 --> 00:03:01,160
Speaker 2: certainly to try and to put some intentionality with how

53
00:03:01,200 --> 00:03:04,639
Speaker 2: I am am supposed to be trying to experience each

54
00:03:04,720 --> 00:03:06,280
Speaker 2: day of these next three sixty five.

55
00:03:07,919 --> 00:03:10,800
Speaker 3: I love that super soul. Andrew tiff we were talking

56
00:03:10,840 --> 00:03:16,280
Speaker 3: a lot about isolation in the last podcast too, and

57
00:03:16,360 --> 00:03:20,639
Speaker 3: I wonder if you have had any thoughts about what

58
00:03:20,800 --> 00:03:23,680
Speaker 3: your real authentic connection, which is something else we said

59
00:03:23,720 --> 00:03:26,600
Speaker 3: together at the same time on the last podcast, what

60
00:03:26,639 --> 00:03:30,560
Speaker 3: does authentic connection look like for you this year, especially

61
00:03:30,600 --> 00:03:35,360
Speaker 3: as we challenge that isolation mentality that I think has

62
00:03:35,440 --> 00:03:38,680
Speaker 3: really been thrown a thrust upon us and we've kind

63
00:03:38,680 --> 00:03:40,600
Speaker 3: of just adapted. So what does that look like for

64
00:03:40,640 --> 00:03:43,000
Speaker 3: you in this steam? You know, I'm still.

65
00:03:42,720 --> 00:03:47,800
Speaker 1: Working on getting deeper connected to myself. I've talked a

66
00:03:47,800 --> 00:03:50,560
Speaker 1: lot with people about lessons we learned, and we tend

67
00:03:50,640 --> 00:03:53,360
Speaker 1: to say things like, you know, this really awful thing

68
00:03:53,480 --> 00:03:56,200
Speaker 1: happened to me, but here's the lesson I took from it,

69
00:03:56,320 --> 00:03:58,920
Speaker 1: or this really terrible person hurt my feelings deeply, but

70
00:03:59,000 --> 00:04:00,720
Speaker 1: here's what I took from it. And I have to

71
00:04:00,720 --> 00:04:04,960
Speaker 1: say I'm abandoning that way of thinking. I whatever lessons

72
00:04:05,000 --> 00:04:08,400
Speaker 1: the universe has for me going forward, I would like

73
00:04:08,480 --> 00:04:11,400
Speaker 1: it to be painless. I would like it to be joyful,

74
00:04:11,600 --> 00:04:14,440
Speaker 1: you know, because there good love can teach you lessons.

75
00:04:14,520 --> 00:04:17,800
Speaker 1: Friendship that times can teach you lessons. And I just

76
00:04:17,880 --> 00:04:20,760
Speaker 1: think I've had enough of the challenging times. And the

77
00:04:20,960 --> 00:04:23,719
Speaker 1: thing is, it's never really behind you, right like we

78
00:04:23,880 --> 00:04:27,159
Speaker 1: have I have. You know, I'm the child of one

79
00:04:27,200 --> 00:04:31,240
Speaker 1: surviving parent. My mother is with me, and you know,

80
00:04:31,320 --> 00:04:33,200
Speaker 1: watching our parents get older and it's like, oh, you're

81
00:04:33,200 --> 00:04:35,760
Speaker 1: gonna need more help and more responsibility. My brother's a

82
00:04:35,800 --> 00:04:38,360
Speaker 1: truck driver. I worry about it all the time. And

83
00:04:38,400 --> 00:04:42,440
Speaker 1: so you know, life is going to deliver you challenge

84
00:04:42,480 --> 00:04:45,840
Speaker 1: and struggle. But I want to be so deeply connected

85
00:04:45,839 --> 00:04:48,720
Speaker 1: with myself that I'm prepared for whatever that struggle is.

86
00:04:49,480 --> 00:04:53,559
Speaker 1: And I want to open my heart, my hands, my life,

87
00:04:53,680 --> 00:04:57,159
Speaker 1: and my spirit to lessons that can make me a

88
00:04:57,200 --> 00:04:59,720
Speaker 1: better person and teach me the things I need to know.

89
00:04:59,800 --> 00:05:04,720
Speaker 1: And a soft, kind, loving joyful, delicate way, no more

90
00:05:04,880 --> 00:05:09,960
Speaker 1: pain Like I have had my fill with emotional pain.

91
00:05:10,240 --> 00:05:12,919
Speaker 1: It is time for joy. And I dare say I

92
00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:16,240
Speaker 1: feel that way about my co host too, Like we've

93
00:05:16,320 --> 00:05:19,200
Speaker 1: had this tough lessons, Like I want for all of

94
00:05:19,279 --> 00:05:22,920
Speaker 1: us to have some loving lessons going into this next.

95
00:05:22,800 --> 00:05:27,000
Speaker 2: Week, Tiff, Can I just say something before Angela shares hers?

96
00:05:27,120 --> 00:05:30,120
Speaker 2: And that is a long time ago, No, not too

97
00:05:30,160 --> 00:05:32,320
Speaker 2: terribly long, but a couple of years ago you and

98
00:05:32,360 --> 00:05:34,680
Speaker 2: I had reconnected on the phone, and one of the

99
00:05:34,680 --> 00:05:37,279
Speaker 2: things I was saying, because I feel you on this whole, Oh,

100
00:05:37,320 --> 00:05:39,599
Speaker 2: what I took from that is and it's like, who

101
00:05:39,640 --> 00:05:40,760
Speaker 2: taught us that lesson?

102
00:05:40,880 --> 00:05:41,640
Speaker 4: And why can't we.

103
00:05:41,640 --> 00:05:47,360
Speaker 2: Throw off the yoke of every horrible, miserable, decent, kind,

104
00:05:47,720 --> 00:05:51,120
Speaker 2: or frankly non mentionable thing that's ever happened? It was

105
00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:56,039
Speaker 2: supposed to stand in this magnanimous place of gratitude for

106
00:05:56,040 --> 00:05:59,560
Speaker 2: having taught us a lesson. And I think one of

107
00:05:59,600 --> 00:06:01,279
Speaker 2: the things that I share with you that may have

108
00:06:01,320 --> 00:06:03,240
Speaker 2: helped at the time, and it could have also been,

109
00:06:03,320 --> 00:06:05,919
Speaker 2: like I love that for you when I'm still pressing,

110
00:06:06,920 --> 00:06:15,400
Speaker 2: was releasing yourself from acting with an outcome in mind,

111
00:06:16,520 --> 00:06:21,559
Speaker 2: because I've immediately stepped off of this terrible expectations game

112
00:06:22,240 --> 00:06:25,240
Speaker 2: of like everything when if I make the choice to

113
00:06:25,240 --> 00:06:28,440
Speaker 2: do it, this thing better be out of ten. Instead,

114
00:06:28,440 --> 00:06:30,039
Speaker 2: it's like, if I make the choice to do it,

115
00:06:30,080 --> 00:06:33,200
Speaker 2: I've made that choice for nobody else, for no other reason,

116
00:06:33,880 --> 00:06:36,120
Speaker 2: for nothing other than the fact that it was in

117
00:06:36,160 --> 00:06:39,320
Speaker 2: my pleasure to do it, and therefore what comes from

118
00:06:39,400 --> 00:06:44,040
Speaker 2: it comes from it because it's in my allowing it

119
00:06:44,080 --> 00:06:46,760
Speaker 2: to happen is with That's the moment, that's where we

120
00:06:46,839 --> 00:06:50,080
Speaker 2: meet it. And I just I'm with you on not

121
00:06:50,240 --> 00:06:53,560
Speaker 2: wanting to have to have to go through the worst

122
00:06:53,560 --> 00:06:58,000
Speaker 2: thing ever, the most unmentionable thing ever for me to

123
00:06:58,240 --> 00:07:02,919
Speaker 2: have a deeper appreciation for or the intimacy of our conversations,

124
00:07:03,279 --> 00:07:06,800
Speaker 2: or the intimacy of our time together, or however that

125
00:07:06,839 --> 00:07:09,120
Speaker 2: time gets, you know, chosen for any any one of

126
00:07:09,160 --> 00:07:12,320
Speaker 2: the three of us. But you know, it doesn't have

127
00:07:12,360 --> 00:07:14,560
Speaker 2: to be a start and to stop like, oh that

128
00:07:14,760 --> 00:07:18,920
Speaker 2: experience was that experience. No, we are living, breeding, human evolving,

129
00:07:19,280 --> 00:07:22,680
Speaker 2: and we've been that way for thousands of years. There

130
00:07:22,720 --> 00:07:27,000
Speaker 2: aren't supposed to be these starts and stops. Hopefully it's

131
00:07:27,040 --> 00:07:30,080
Speaker 2: a rolling ball and we're just building on the layers.

132
00:07:31,200 --> 00:07:35,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, speaking of the layers, mine are much more shallow.

133
00:07:36,680 --> 00:07:38,360
Speaker 3: I don't even know if i'll say shallow, but I

134
00:07:38,400 --> 00:07:41,320
Speaker 3: will say maybe you're safer in the shallow or the

135
00:07:41,840 --> 00:07:43,920
Speaker 3: I feel like I might be safer because this is

136
00:07:44,040 --> 00:07:48,120
Speaker 3: just about basic you're in the maybe not that this

137
00:07:48,280 --> 00:07:53,400
Speaker 3: is about basic livelihood. So you all know that we've

138
00:07:53,400 --> 00:07:56,720
Speaker 3: been dealing quite a bit with issues related to my

139
00:07:56,800 --> 00:08:00,960
Speaker 3: mom's health. Last year she was diagnosed twenty three diagnosed

140
00:08:00,960 --> 00:08:04,240
Speaker 3: with triple negative breast cancer, and it appears that that

141
00:08:04,400 --> 00:08:08,920
Speaker 3: cancer has returned to her liver and which is which

142
00:08:08,960 --> 00:08:13,520
Speaker 3: is considered a spread, and it has been so heart reching.

143
00:08:13,560 --> 00:08:15,320
Speaker 3: But the thing that has warmed me the most is

144
00:08:15,360 --> 00:08:19,120
Speaker 3: my mom's fight. And what it reminded me of is

145
00:08:19,120 --> 00:08:21,000
Speaker 3: there was a point in time where I felt like

146
00:08:21,280 --> 00:08:23,760
Speaker 3: I had a better balance, which is I think part

147
00:08:23,760 --> 00:08:27,080
Speaker 3: of what we're talking about today between you know, my

148
00:08:27,200 --> 00:08:30,000
Speaker 3: spiritual growth and the way that I tapped in there

149
00:08:30,160 --> 00:08:33,280
Speaker 3: and my physical health, because the reality of it is,

150
00:08:33,320 --> 00:08:35,280
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna be here to do any deep breaths

151
00:08:35,360 --> 00:08:38,280
Speaker 3: if I'm not taking care of my physical health. So

152
00:08:38,360 --> 00:08:41,320
Speaker 3: there was a time where I just completely let go

153
00:08:41,520 --> 00:08:43,800
Speaker 3: of working out or anything. So now and I want

154
00:08:43,840 --> 00:08:45,800
Speaker 3: I'm gonna put I want to put these pictures up,

155
00:08:46,320 --> 00:08:49,600
Speaker 3: but I took my before pictures. My godsister has a

156
00:08:49,640 --> 00:08:51,839
Speaker 3: gym called spoon Feed Training. They're doing a thirty one

157
00:08:51,880 --> 00:08:55,560
Speaker 3: day challenge. I am doing this challenge. I look crazy

158
00:08:55,679 --> 00:08:59,720
Speaker 3: in these before pictures. I am hoping for an amazing

159
00:09:00,040 --> 00:09:04,280
Speaker 3: after picture. I weigh one hundred and fifty four pounds.

160
00:09:04,360 --> 00:09:06,600
Speaker 3: I'm saying this for accountability. It's more than I've ever

161
00:09:06,679 --> 00:09:11,240
Speaker 3: weighed in my life. I one hundred and fifty four pounds. Well,

162
00:09:11,280 --> 00:09:14,640
Speaker 3: we pack at different, honey, we're our heights are different.

163
00:09:14,800 --> 00:09:17,600
Speaker 1: We would if I were taller, and that wouldn't be bad.

164
00:09:17,679 --> 00:09:23,520
Speaker 3: I don't know. My cellular analysis, which I also encourage

165
00:09:23,559 --> 00:09:26,840
Speaker 3: people to get. I'm serious because it measures each of

166
00:09:26,960 --> 00:09:30,040
Speaker 3: your your body parts. It tells you how much of

167
00:09:30,080 --> 00:09:32,960
Speaker 3: your body is fat, how much spoletal mass you have.

168
00:09:33,440 --> 00:09:36,120
Speaker 3: It's not just a BMI. It's a cellular analysis that

169
00:09:36,160 --> 00:09:40,080
Speaker 3: breaks down each part. It is amazing, and I'm gonna

170
00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:44,760
Speaker 3: do one of these cellular analysis analysis every week. I'm

171
00:09:44,800 --> 00:09:47,640
Speaker 3: going to I've been doing cardio, I've been working out.

172
00:09:47,800 --> 00:09:50,719
Speaker 3: I'm like I am hell bent on getting this done? Now?

173
00:09:50,720 --> 00:09:53,600
Speaker 3: Why am I sharing all this because this week I

174
00:09:53,679 --> 00:09:56,320
Speaker 3: weigh one fifty four and I have started the challenge.

175
00:09:56,400 --> 00:09:58,400
Speaker 3: Last week it was one fifty one. So I'm trying

176
00:09:58,440 --> 00:10:01,320
Speaker 3: to see what's going on. Some got to run off,

177
00:10:01,440 --> 00:10:03,240
Speaker 3: and so there's that. I wanted to share the other

178
00:10:03,280 --> 00:10:03,520
Speaker 3: things that.

179
00:10:04,040 --> 00:10:06,880
Speaker 2: Question about that ANGELA, Sure, how can we support you?

180
00:10:06,960 --> 00:10:07,160
Speaker 3: There?

181
00:10:07,400 --> 00:10:07,480
Speaker 2: Like?

182
00:10:07,520 --> 00:10:10,120
Speaker 4: What does support asking?

183
00:10:10,160 --> 00:10:11,160
Speaker 2: If I work out today?

184
00:10:11,360 --> 00:10:13,600
Speaker 3: I want to be working out every single day, and

185
00:10:13,640 --> 00:10:16,200
Speaker 3: I've been doing. My home gym is set up. I

186
00:10:16,200 --> 00:10:18,319
Speaker 3: have been in it. It is actually fun to me.

187
00:10:18,480 --> 00:10:21,760
Speaker 3: I've been bumping Kendrick as you know, like it has been.

188
00:10:21,840 --> 00:10:24,920
Speaker 3: It's been. It's actually been enjoyable, and so I'm grateful

189
00:10:24,920 --> 00:10:27,040
Speaker 3: for that because it's also been a point of connection

190
00:10:27,120 --> 00:10:29,440
Speaker 3: for my mom and I to talk about working out.

191
00:10:29,480 --> 00:10:31,320
Speaker 3: I've been going to the gym with my gods sisters

192
00:10:31,320 --> 00:10:35,040
Speaker 3: with her. I need to be held accountable around getting

193
00:10:35,040 --> 00:10:37,520
Speaker 3: my mammogram done. I am two years late. I'm just

194
00:10:37,520 --> 00:10:40,720
Speaker 3: being super honest about that. I have a colonoscopy scheduled.

195
00:10:40,720 --> 00:10:42,480
Speaker 3: They said I don't need one till I'm fifty. I'm

196
00:10:42,480 --> 00:10:45,559
Speaker 3: not buying it. People are getting colon cancer at younger ages.

197
00:10:45,640 --> 00:10:48,959
Speaker 3: I'm getting my colonosco be done this year. And then

198
00:10:49,040 --> 00:10:50,840
Speaker 3: finally I wanted to share this with you all too,

199
00:10:50,880 --> 00:10:53,080
Speaker 3: because I think it's very important given the amount of

200
00:10:53,120 --> 00:10:55,920
Speaker 3: stress we're carrying as we go towards an inauguration that

201
00:10:55,960 --> 00:10:59,520
Speaker 3: many of us don't really want to see stress levels.

202
00:10:59,679 --> 00:11:02,040
Speaker 3: I went to the cardiologist in New York. It's the

203
00:11:02,040 --> 00:11:04,840
Speaker 3: one Leonard goes to. It's a tremendous gentleman by the

204
00:11:04,880 --> 00:11:09,000
Speaker 3: name of doctor Puma, a sword medical. He is amazing.

205
00:11:09,360 --> 00:11:12,920
Speaker 3: I got a full cardiogram done. I got late a

206
00:11:13,040 --> 00:11:15,319
Speaker 3: vein mapping done in my leg. I have a Verico's

207
00:11:15,360 --> 00:11:17,280
Speaker 3: vein in my right leg. I need to be wearing

208
00:11:17,320 --> 00:11:23,360
Speaker 3: compression socks. This is serious every single day. I'm just saying,

209
00:11:23,440 --> 00:11:26,320
Speaker 3: I'm telling you this because these are things that we

210
00:11:26,480 --> 00:11:28,840
Speaker 3: normally would just br I know that my legs well

211
00:11:28,920 --> 00:11:31,520
Speaker 3: on the plane, but I didn't know that the water

212
00:11:31,640 --> 00:11:34,240
Speaker 3: retention is because of a lack of blood flow in

213
00:11:34,360 --> 00:11:37,640
Speaker 3: my legs and if it stifles enough, it can cause

214
00:11:38,000 --> 00:11:42,679
Speaker 3: cardiac arrest. I am pre hypertensive my blood pressure. I

215
00:11:42,760 --> 00:11:44,040
Speaker 3: was telling him. He was like, wee, you're blood perser.

216
00:11:44,080 --> 00:11:45,720
Speaker 3: I was like, oh, its high stimes. I stressed. He

217
00:11:45,800 --> 00:11:48,400
Speaker 3: was like, Okay, let's take it every day. I am

218
00:11:49,600 --> 00:11:52,439
Speaker 3: high blood pressure every single day, every single day that

219
00:11:52,480 --> 00:11:54,680
Speaker 3: I take my blood pressure. So I'm telling you this

220
00:11:54,800 --> 00:11:57,440
Speaker 3: because on the surface, people may look at me and

221
00:11:57,440 --> 00:12:01,480
Speaker 3: say you're small, it doesn't matter your way like all

222
00:12:01,520 --> 00:12:03,839
Speaker 3: of these things. But I knew I was unhealthy, and

223
00:12:03,880 --> 00:12:06,240
Speaker 3: I've been focusing more on not fitting my clothes. The

224
00:12:06,320 --> 00:12:10,800
Speaker 3: truth is, holistically, I am not as healthy. This was

225
00:12:10,840 --> 00:12:14,360
Speaker 3: a long PSA to say, you guys, please go to

226
00:12:14,400 --> 00:12:18,079
Speaker 3: the doctor. Please get these no matter what they tell

227
00:12:18,160 --> 00:12:21,920
Speaker 3: you about. If something isn't time yet, it's too soon

228
00:12:22,000 --> 00:12:24,840
Speaker 3: for you, you're too young. If something feels off in

229
00:12:24,920 --> 00:12:28,000
Speaker 3: your body, you know your body more than anybody else.

230
00:12:28,640 --> 00:12:31,960
Speaker 3: Check on those things. So my New Year's resolution is

231
00:12:32,000 --> 00:12:34,520
Speaker 3: to stay on top of my health, not for vanity,

232
00:12:34,840 --> 00:12:36,960
Speaker 3: but because the deep breasts that I enjoy in a

233
00:12:37,000 --> 00:12:39,720
Speaker 3: meditative state. I want to continue to be able to take.

234
00:12:40,000 --> 00:12:42,520
Speaker 3: And my mom in the condition that she's in right now,

235
00:12:42,679 --> 00:12:46,000
Speaker 3: still in the fight of her life, it hurts for

236
00:12:46,080 --> 00:12:49,160
Speaker 3: her to take a deep breath in her liver. Do

237
00:12:49,200 --> 00:12:53,000
Speaker 3: you understand. So while we have the privilege and the

238
00:12:53,040 --> 00:12:57,040
Speaker 3: ability to breathe, let us take advantage of the fact

239
00:12:57,040 --> 00:12:59,880
Speaker 3: that we can move our limbs. Everybody among us can

240
00:13:00,200 --> 00:13:03,080
Speaker 3: move all of their limbs with ease. Everybody among us

241
00:13:03,120 --> 00:13:06,720
Speaker 3: doesn't have ten fingers, ten toed. Let's take full advantage

242
00:13:06,760 --> 00:13:09,560
Speaker 3: of what God has given us and make sure that

243
00:13:09,600 --> 00:13:12,280
Speaker 3: we are in the best health of our lives. That's

244
00:13:12,320 --> 00:13:13,280
Speaker 3: my resolution problem.

245
00:13:14,240 --> 00:13:16,760
Speaker 1: I love all of that, and I hope our viewers

246
00:13:17,240 --> 00:13:19,360
Speaker 1: take note of that as well. I think that's such

247
00:13:19,480 --> 00:13:21,679
Speaker 1: sound advice, particularly.

248
00:13:21,679 --> 00:13:25,840
Speaker 3: For people of color, black people in particular, and the

249
00:13:25,880 --> 00:13:31,480
Speaker 3: predisposed it challenges that we have with our health in

250
00:13:31,520 --> 00:13:44,479
Speaker 3: this country. I would offer Angela that I would discourage

251
00:13:44,520 --> 00:13:48,319
Speaker 3: you from watching the scale and encourage you.

252
00:13:48,440 --> 00:13:51,439
Speaker 1: To watch the inches because muscles way more than fat.

253
00:13:51,640 --> 00:13:52,280
Speaker 2: So even that.

254
00:13:54,040 --> 00:13:58,320
Speaker 1: You know, and I know you've talked about changes. You

255
00:13:58,320 --> 00:14:00,520
Speaker 1: want to see your body for a long time, and

256
00:14:00,600 --> 00:14:02,520
Speaker 1: I think the main thing is you're trying to be healthy.

257
00:14:02,920 --> 00:14:06,880
Speaker 1: But I just say that you look amazing. Your body

258
00:14:06,880 --> 00:14:10,120
Speaker 1: looks amazing. I know you want to be healthy, and

259
00:14:10,160 --> 00:14:13,120
Speaker 1: I look forward to seeing the journey with you.

260
00:14:13,679 --> 00:14:18,040
Speaker 2: So I've been thinking, Tiffany about how the people who

261
00:14:18,080 --> 00:14:20,480
Speaker 2: are on the opposite end of our phones, who are

262
00:14:20,480 --> 00:14:23,560
Speaker 2: not getting responses and text messages and it's just loading up.

263
00:14:24,160 --> 00:14:32,160
Speaker 2: How we not communicate a lack of care toward them,

264
00:14:32,760 --> 00:14:36,400
Speaker 2: Because I'll tell you the folks, I love folks a

265
00:14:36,480 --> 00:14:40,080
Speaker 2: million times deep, right, and when I see and we're

266
00:14:40,080 --> 00:14:43,240
Speaker 2: in share come, it's just it's amazing by and large.

267
00:14:43,880 --> 00:14:46,640
Speaker 2: But I also know that you know, I've had friends said, look,

268
00:14:46,760 --> 00:14:49,120
Speaker 2: I had told myself this was going to be the

269
00:14:49,200 --> 00:14:52,080
Speaker 2: last time I called you, and the next time we

270
00:14:52,160 --> 00:14:54,320
Speaker 2: spoke was gonna be whenever you decided. I was thinking,

271
00:14:54,840 --> 00:14:57,440
Speaker 2: you know, that actually isn't what I wanted to communicate to.

272
00:14:57,360 --> 00:15:00,720
Speaker 4: You at all. And I'm so sorry that you know

273
00:15:00,760 --> 00:15:01,160
Speaker 4: that's true.

274
00:15:01,160 --> 00:15:03,520
Speaker 2: And then ahead of the friends who were like, bruh,

275
00:15:04,280 --> 00:15:07,520
Speaker 2: it's life, and I know that you know when we're

276
00:15:07,520 --> 00:15:09,280
Speaker 2: going through, we're going through. Just I just want you

277
00:15:09,320 --> 00:15:11,440
Speaker 2: to know that I'm still thinking about you, right, So

278
00:15:11,440 --> 00:15:13,880
Speaker 2: there's different people would bring different energies. But I'm just

279
00:15:13,960 --> 00:15:17,000
Speaker 2: wondering because because I'm I'm probably still at the bad

280
00:15:17,120 --> 00:15:19,040
Speaker 2: end of this spectrum. Is not even funny. And I

281
00:15:19,120 --> 00:15:23,720
Speaker 2: know how you are with yours as well. How do

282
00:15:23,840 --> 00:15:25,840
Speaker 2: you deal with that or is that a concern for you?

283
00:15:26,480 --> 00:15:29,680
Speaker 3: The care pab be honest, it sounds very selfish. But

284
00:15:29,880 --> 00:15:33,280
Speaker 3: typically I have so much shit on my mind and

285
00:15:33,320 --> 00:15:36,880
Speaker 3: my heart. I don't have space for other people's stuff,

286
00:15:37,120 --> 00:15:40,960
Speaker 3: you know, I just I don't. And me not being

287
00:15:40,960 --> 00:15:43,400
Speaker 3: on top of my phone is really a radical act

288
00:15:43,480 --> 00:15:46,000
Speaker 3: of self care because I will tell you guys, I

289
00:15:46,080 --> 00:15:48,800
Speaker 3: go to the brink of I'm about to lose my

290
00:15:49,080 --> 00:15:52,320
Speaker 3: fing mind, you know, Like there are things that are happening.

291
00:15:52,560 --> 00:15:54,440
Speaker 3: Sometimes it's like I got this big.

292
00:15:54,280 --> 00:15:56,280
Speaker 1: Ass tax bill that I have to I gotta figure

293
00:15:56,280 --> 00:15:58,600
Speaker 1: out how I'm gonna come up with seventy thousand dollars

294
00:15:58,600 --> 00:16:01,320
Speaker 1: that you know, I don't know. Or I'm having this

295
00:16:01,440 --> 00:16:04,200
Speaker 1: pain and I can't figure it out more. Somebody came

296
00:16:04,240 --> 00:16:06,200
Speaker 1: along and hurt my feelings and I'm in the you know,

297
00:16:06,280 --> 00:16:08,080
Speaker 1: deep thing about that. Or I had a big argument

298
00:16:08,120 --> 00:16:09,680
Speaker 1: with my mom and that's weighing on my mind. It

299
00:16:09,680 --> 00:16:11,600
Speaker 1: could be any of those things. It could be all

300
00:16:11,600 --> 00:16:14,440
Speaker 1: of those things, and I'm just full. I don't have

301
00:16:14,480 --> 00:16:16,640
Speaker 1: space to think, Oh, I didn't call you back, you know.

302
00:16:17,320 --> 00:16:20,200
Speaker 1: And typically people who I'm who will take it that way.

303
00:16:20,240 --> 00:16:23,320
Speaker 1: Who I'm not calling back. We're not that close, you know.

304
00:16:23,720 --> 00:16:25,880
Speaker 1: Angela is saying, like, you know I call you don't answer,

305
00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:28,760
Speaker 1: But the truth is yes. But but the truth is

306
00:16:28,760 --> 00:16:31,640
Speaker 1: with Angela, if we weren't, like if I knew it could,

307
00:16:31,720 --> 00:16:33,920
Speaker 1: I could go months without seeing Angela, I would feel

308
00:16:33,960 --> 00:16:36,680
Speaker 1: some a different sense of obligation, like oh fuck. But

309
00:16:36,760 --> 00:16:38,760
Speaker 1: the truth is we're in the chat where I know

310
00:16:39,000 --> 00:16:43,520
Speaker 1: we're gonna talk probably a hundred times, and I will say.

311
00:16:43,760 --> 00:16:45,880
Speaker 3: Call me back in that chat, which as soon as

312
00:16:45,880 --> 00:16:46,680
Speaker 3: she says something.

313
00:16:46,840 --> 00:16:48,840
Speaker 1: And usually and typically when I read that, I wake

314
00:16:48,880 --> 00:16:50,520
Speaker 1: up and read that chat like it's the New York Times.

315
00:16:50,560 --> 00:16:52,200
Speaker 1: So I'm reading that chat at like five point thirty

316
00:16:52,240 --> 00:16:54,400
Speaker 1: six in the morning. I'm responding to stuff everybody looked

317
00:16:54,400 --> 00:16:55,119
Speaker 1: at yes.

318
00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:57,840
Speaker 3: Like are you up? You know? Damn well, I do too.

319
00:16:58,840 --> 00:17:01,480
Speaker 1: But it also lets me know what's going on with you,

320
00:17:01,480 --> 00:17:05,000
Speaker 1: you know, like I you called me the other day.

321
00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:08,800
Speaker 1: I don't remember when, but I remember like my heart

322
00:17:08,920 --> 00:17:11,200
Speaker 1: sank when I saw your call. I don't know why,

323
00:17:11,240 --> 00:17:13,480
Speaker 1: but I just felt like, oh, I you know, I

324
00:17:13,520 --> 00:17:15,760
Speaker 1: wonder if something happened with your mom or something. I

325
00:17:15,760 --> 00:17:17,560
Speaker 1: think I was in Puerto Rico or something. I don't know,

326
00:17:17,760 --> 00:17:19,879
Speaker 1: but I remember, and I've looked in the chat and

327
00:17:19,880 --> 00:17:22,440
Speaker 1: it was all fine. But I do remember thinking oh,

328
00:17:22,480 --> 00:17:24,760
Speaker 1: I know, I was on the freaking runway. I was

329
00:17:24,840 --> 00:17:27,239
Speaker 1: on the runway. I could not answer my call. I

330
00:17:27,280 --> 00:17:29,000
Speaker 1: was stuck on the road. I literally couldn't even answer

331
00:17:29,000 --> 00:17:31,879
Speaker 1: to say hello. And I just had this anks and

332
00:17:31,920 --> 00:17:33,119
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, she's calling.

333
00:17:33,160 --> 00:17:33,680
Speaker 2: I know what time.

334
00:17:33,720 --> 00:17:35,480
Speaker 1: It was, was like sick something in Puerto Rico.

335
00:17:36,520 --> 00:17:39,080
Speaker 3: Anyway, when those things happen, though, Andrew, my point is

336
00:17:39,119 --> 00:17:42,320
Speaker 3: I'm too full. I want you guys to know, and

337
00:17:42,640 --> 00:17:44,879
Speaker 3: I hope you know this, and I'm not trying to

338
00:17:44,920 --> 00:17:47,080
Speaker 3: speak for your friends and family, but I am going

339
00:17:47,119 --> 00:17:50,960
Speaker 3: to say this generally, it is absolutely more than okay

340
00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:53,199
Speaker 3: to take the space you need. I do want you

341
00:17:53,280 --> 00:17:57,639
Speaker 3: to know that everybody calling isn't calling to extract something

342
00:17:57,680 --> 00:18:02,760
Speaker 3: from you. Sometimes people are calling, Natasha Brown called me yesterday,

343
00:18:02,920 --> 00:18:06,480
Speaker 3: like to just make sure they are good, to make

344
00:18:06,520 --> 00:18:10,000
Speaker 3: sure that everything is all right with you. You're on

345
00:18:10,160 --> 00:18:12,440
Speaker 3: my heart and I want to make sure you're straight.

346
00:18:12,480 --> 00:18:14,880
Speaker 3: And I have to punch nobody in a te sometimes

347
00:18:14,920 --> 00:18:17,359
Speaker 3: I'm calling for that. So like when you guys are

348
00:18:17,400 --> 00:18:18,920
Speaker 3: real heavy on my heart, i'd be like, you good,

349
00:18:19,119 --> 00:18:21,080
Speaker 3: you know, I just want to make sure and I'll pray.

350
00:18:21,119 --> 00:18:23,320
Speaker 3: I'll still pray, but I still want to know from you,

351
00:18:23,359 --> 00:18:25,600
Speaker 3: like I hear your voice. You're good and tip we

352
00:18:25,640 --> 00:18:28,200
Speaker 3: should talk about the tax bill because there are methods.

353
00:18:28,200 --> 00:18:30,359
Speaker 3: Oh my god, you know I got another one too.

354
00:18:30,800 --> 00:18:35,439
Speaker 3: I'm so stressed about all stress we call Randy. Yeah,

355
00:18:35,440 --> 00:18:39,399
Speaker 3: well we talk about that, but yeah, I know Randy before.

356
00:18:39,600 --> 00:18:41,919
Speaker 3: But the stresses of life Andrew, like you know how

357
00:18:41,960 --> 00:18:45,520
Speaker 3: that they get heavier growing up as bs.

358
00:18:45,800 --> 00:18:49,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, the heavier in you because of the load of

359
00:18:50,080 --> 00:18:52,320
Speaker 2: the one you used to be able to dark tan off.

360
00:18:52,600 --> 00:18:55,560
Speaker 2: You know in a few seconds. It's now the thing

361
00:18:55,680 --> 00:18:58,560
Speaker 2: when it comes. This thing has been rounding that block

362
00:18:58,680 --> 00:19:02,120
Speaker 2: for a minute, and when it gets you, it's going

363
00:19:02,160 --> 00:19:05,040
Speaker 2: to level you. And it's one I mean, I know

364
00:19:05,080 --> 00:19:07,199
Speaker 2: we talk sometimes in the show about like, you know,

365
00:19:07,280 --> 00:19:09,240
Speaker 2: I'm done with social media that kind of thing. It

366
00:19:09,440 --> 00:19:13,119
Speaker 2: so isn't that I'm not curious about what's happening in

367
00:19:13,160 --> 00:19:16,120
Speaker 2: folks lives. It's sort of what you hinted at, tear

368
00:19:16,160 --> 00:19:20,280
Speaker 2: Fat being at this level of because my care for

369
00:19:20,359 --> 00:19:23,520
Speaker 2: people generally who who I care and it could be

370
00:19:23,560 --> 00:19:25,920
Speaker 2: a year since I spoken to them, but I want

371
00:19:26,000 --> 00:19:28,000
Speaker 2: them to be well and I do want to wish

372
00:19:28,000 --> 00:19:31,600
Speaker 2: them well on important events and days, except that it

373
00:19:31,720 --> 00:19:36,159
Speaker 2: got to a place in twenty twenty where it was

374
00:19:38,520 --> 00:19:41,720
Speaker 2: it started to feel like I was in those spaces

375
00:19:41,760 --> 00:19:45,919
Speaker 2: to again perform for whoever is on the receiving end

376
00:19:45,920 --> 00:19:48,840
Speaker 2: of the like of the comment of the this. And

377
00:19:48,880 --> 00:19:51,120
Speaker 2: then when people would tell me, I saw you liked

378
00:19:51,160 --> 00:19:53,439
Speaker 2: my dada dada da, it added more and more and more.

379
00:19:53,520 --> 00:19:56,480
Speaker 2: I said yes, like you know what, it's not my pleasure.

380
00:19:57,280 --> 00:20:00,040
Speaker 2: And if there is something that you know that I

381
00:20:00,040 --> 00:20:02,240
Speaker 2: stumble upon, or if I feel like I have free time,

382
00:20:02,280 --> 00:20:04,320
Speaker 2: I want to open it. I ain't seeing Damn, I

383
00:20:04,680 --> 00:20:07,600
Speaker 2: what is it called? If if X in four year

384
00:20:07,680 --> 00:20:13,600
Speaker 2: five you four years don't Facebook ain't even on my phone? Right,

385
00:20:13,680 --> 00:20:16,600
Speaker 2: it doesn't even exist on my phone? And it isn't

386
00:20:16,600 --> 00:20:19,359
Speaker 2: that What I miss about it is I missed a

387
00:20:19,400 --> 00:20:25,000
Speaker 2: little curious like you know, Davis got baptized yesterday, and

388
00:20:25,359 --> 00:20:27,320
Speaker 2: like I want to sell I'd celebrate that if I

389
00:20:27,359 --> 00:20:31,080
Speaker 2: knew that. I just didn't know it, and I realized

390
00:20:31,119 --> 00:20:35,399
Speaker 2: that it didn't cost me anything being a you know,

391
00:20:35,480 --> 00:20:38,280
Speaker 2: aside from that those moments of like, oh I wish

392
00:20:38,280 --> 00:20:40,640
Speaker 2: I'd known that I would have aside from that.

393
00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:43,959
Speaker 4: It is like I don't want it. I don't seek it.

394
00:20:44,880 --> 00:20:47,920
Speaker 2: God, you have somehow continued to push me toward a

395
00:20:47,960 --> 00:20:53,640
Speaker 2: place where acting without expectation can be a good thing.

396
00:20:53,760 --> 00:20:55,480
Speaker 2: If I'm not posting this picture because I want to

397
00:20:55,480 --> 00:20:57,560
Speaker 2: see how many likes somebody to get or how many

398
00:20:57,560 --> 00:21:02,399
Speaker 2: comments people are going to make, then godly, what pressure

399
00:21:02,440 --> 00:21:05,560
Speaker 2: does that take off of a thing? Yeah, I don't

400
00:21:05,600 --> 00:21:08,280
Speaker 2: want those anymore. I remember in the campaign, people are like.

401
00:21:08,240 --> 00:21:09,200
Speaker 4: Oh, you got twenty thousand.

402
00:21:09,600 --> 00:21:11,520
Speaker 2: I don't even know what you tweeted on my behalf.

403
00:21:11,840 --> 00:21:14,760
Speaker 2: So I has about the twenty you know, you know

404
00:21:14,840 --> 00:21:15,600
Speaker 2: the twenty thousand.

405
00:21:16,560 --> 00:21:19,160
Speaker 3: We care about the twenty thousand, but we also care

406
00:21:19,240 --> 00:21:21,720
Speaker 3: about the time of our production team, and so our

407
00:21:21,800 --> 00:21:25,240
Speaker 3: time is up that one and quick, quick sick thing.

408
00:21:26,280 --> 00:21:28,840
Speaker 3: I did this conversation at home too. Yes, I just

409
00:21:28,880 --> 00:21:29,719
Speaker 3: want to say this quick thing.

410
00:21:29,760 --> 00:21:31,520
Speaker 1: As you talked about your mom, and I just want

411
00:21:31,600 --> 00:21:36,320
Speaker 1: to say I found do those those self exams. I

412
00:21:36,440 --> 00:21:40,280
Speaker 1: found a lump in my breast. I had to get

413
00:21:40,359 --> 00:21:44,280
Speaker 1: a biopsy. They inserted something in my breast.

414
00:21:44,320 --> 00:21:45,399
Speaker 3: It still feels like a.

415
00:21:45,280 --> 00:21:50,160
Speaker 1: Marble somewhere in there, but it's so doctors can track

416
00:21:50,240 --> 00:21:52,560
Speaker 1: it and see and it was fine.

417
00:21:52,760 --> 00:21:53,479
Speaker 3: It was fine.

418
00:21:53,680 --> 00:21:57,400
Speaker 1: So make everything we're talking about today is for your

419
00:21:57,440 --> 00:22:01,920
Speaker 1: physical and mental health and deal everything and spiritual help.

420
00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:03,960
Speaker 1: Angel was talking about what she's going through with her mom,

421
00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:07,159
Speaker 1: and it's just I want y'all to know if you

422
00:22:07,720 --> 00:22:10,400
Speaker 1: can't fight this fight, if your body ain't right, if

423
00:22:10,400 --> 00:22:12,439
Speaker 1: your mind ain't right. So I just when you were

424
00:22:12,440 --> 00:22:14,080
Speaker 1: talking about that, I just wanted to tell people about

425
00:22:14,080 --> 00:22:17,359
Speaker 1: my biopsy and go and get yourself checked out.

426
00:22:17,600 --> 00:22:19,679
Speaker 4: Thanks for sharing that, yes so much.

427
00:22:20,119 --> 00:22:22,200
Speaker 3: I just want you all to know we are still

428
00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:24,840
Speaker 3: in community with you all. You all know we call

429
00:22:25,000 --> 00:22:27,679
Speaker 3: Native Land Pod a pod for a reason. It is

430
00:22:27,720 --> 00:22:31,359
Speaker 3: a safe space for accountability, for your resolutions, a safe

431
00:22:31,400 --> 00:22:34,199
Speaker 3: space to talk about what other whatever fears you have,

432
00:22:34,280 --> 00:22:37,439
Speaker 3: whether it's a tax problem, a legal problem you know

433
00:22:38,080 --> 00:22:40,919
Speaker 3: you can't talk to God problem, an angry problem, you're

434
00:22:40,920 --> 00:22:43,280
Speaker 3: getting a divorce, your spouse cheated on you, you don't

435
00:22:43,320 --> 00:22:45,760
Speaker 3: like your baby daddy, you mad at your cousin, whatever

436
00:22:45,800 --> 00:22:48,720
Speaker 3: it is. We could probably relate to one or nine

437
00:22:48,720 --> 00:22:51,720
Speaker 3: of those, and so we are here, okay.

438
00:22:52,400 --> 00:22:52,760
Speaker 4: Angel.

439
00:22:53,080 --> 00:22:57,200
Speaker 2: Reparation is that we are indivisible. If it's happening here

440
00:22:57,240 --> 00:22:59,879
Speaker 2: on my health, it's gonna show up in my attitude.

441
00:23:00,200 --> 00:23:01,080
Speaker 4: Yeah.

442
00:23:01,560 --> 00:23:04,680
Speaker 2: Here there We're not divided between fifty different.

443
00:23:04,359 --> 00:23:05,800
Speaker 4: Tists and Andrews.

444
00:23:05,840 --> 00:23:06,280
Speaker 3: That's true.

445
00:23:06,359 --> 00:23:10,760
Speaker 2: We're indivisible, indivisible, everything is everything it is.

446
00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:13,640
Speaker 3: And on this indivisible moment, we are out.

447
00:23:13,720 --> 00:23:16,120
Speaker 4: Welcome home, y'all, Deuces, Welcome home.

448
00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:31,879
Speaker 1: Native Land Pod is a production of iHeart Radio and

449
00:23:32,000 --> 00:23:35,360
Speaker 1: partnership with Resent Choice Media. For more podcasts from iHeartRadio,

450
00:23:35,440 --> 00:23:38,680
Speaker 1: visit the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen

451
00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:39,639
Speaker 1: to your favorite shows.