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Speaker 1: This is the Ben and Ashley I Almost Famous podcast

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Speaker 1: with iHeartRadio.

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Speaker 2: It's almost famous podcast. We're here in San Francisco. Nancy

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Speaker 2: is with us. Nancy, you and I have a lot

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Speaker 2: of life in common, don't we.

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Speaker 3: Yes, we do. Funny, isn't it.

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Speaker 4: It's funny.

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Speaker 3: I told you there must be something in the water.

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Speaker 2: Explain to the audience how our lives have been interconnected.

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Speaker 3: Yes, when you were the Golden or the Bachelor. Sorry,

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Speaker 3: Golden everything is golden right now for me? When you

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Speaker 3: were the Bachelor, obviously, I grew up in Indiana and

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Speaker 3: more signed Deiana. You did too, and your parents lived

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Speaker 3: on the lake. My parents lived on the lake. And

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Speaker 3: my mom was like, I know Ben Higgins. I've known

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Speaker 3: him since he was little, and go to the same church.

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Speaker 3: And did she teach you kindergarten?

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Speaker 4: She did not, But we worked together.

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Speaker 3: You work together. And she was, I don't know if

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Speaker 3: I can say this. She said, when you started, you know,

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Speaker 3: when things were you know, everybody knew you. The show

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Speaker 3: was still going on. And she goes, you know, I

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Speaker 3: really I slept with Ben Higgins. I go, Mom, you

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Speaker 3: can't say that. She goes, no, no, no, But it

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Speaker 3: was a church camp and you guys help some of

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Speaker 3: the kids who had challenges, And she said, no, Ben

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Speaker 3: and I literally slept together in a tent bunkmates. But

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Speaker 3: she was saying it, of course, not meaning anything else,

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Speaker 3: but I was like, Mom, say it a different way.

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Speaker 4: Story.

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Speaker 3: So so, and then you know, I came when you

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Speaker 3: were the Bachelor, and I came to and I have

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Speaker 3: pictures of it when you did five K or ten K,

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Speaker 3: and then when you came to the Boys Club, and

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Speaker 3: I know you worked at the Boys Club and you

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Speaker 3: worked with my son one summer when he was struggling

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Speaker 3: and my mom had him come to Grandma Carol's Lord

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Speaker 3: knows what she made him do. But also he worked

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Speaker 3: with you then, and so it was just kind of

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Speaker 3: I'm so much older than you are, but it just

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Speaker 3: feels so nice to have that in common.

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Speaker 2: Well, and it was nice for me to watch the

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Speaker 2: show and to root and cheer for you. You know, it's

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Speaker 2: probably like Roles reverse there where I'm watching it going like,

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Speaker 2: you know, I want to know more about her, I

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Speaker 2: want to see her thrive. And you're right, your mom

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Speaker 2: and I had a lot of like alignment, and so,

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Speaker 2: you know, I some of the most impactful years of

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Speaker 2: my life and why I do what I do today,

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Speaker 2: was during that season where I was working with your

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Speaker 2: mom because we got to work with some incredible kids

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Speaker 2: at this camp, and I got to see and learn

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Speaker 2: from her, right because she was older than me. I

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Speaker 2: was like twenty years old at the time, right, But

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Speaker 2: we were both you know, helping push kids up the

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Speaker 2: then we were we were sharing this cabin together and

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Speaker 2: this like really powerful team, right that were that you know,

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Speaker 2: was helping cultivate this camp. Yes, and so your mom

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Speaker 2: and I have done a lot of life together, especially

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Speaker 4: We did grow up in the same area.

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Speaker 2: I just got to ask this, did watching The Bachelor

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Speaker 2: and seeing that whole thing go? Did it have any

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Speaker 2: influence on you then saying I want to go on

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Speaker 2: to the Golden Show?

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Speaker 3: Yes, definitely, because I remember you may not remember it,

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Speaker 3: but I remember when I was at the ten k

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Speaker 3: maybe three years before that, and so I was thinking

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Speaker 3: they should do something for widows, is what I was

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Speaker 4: Ben?

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Speaker 3: And you know you. Ben was surrounded by you know,

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Speaker 3: that and I thought, yeah, right, and that was it.

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Speaker 3: And then move forward and my niece applied me and

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Speaker 3: I thought, Okay, should I do this? Should I not

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Speaker 3: why wouldn't she do it? And it was an influence

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Speaker 3: because I'd seen you. I'd seen that, I watched the

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Speaker 3: this would be really great. So I went in eyes

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Speaker 3: wide open. Unlike some of my colleagues on the show

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Speaker 3: I wasn't there for that. I had been single for

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Speaker 4: It is helpful.

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Speaker 2: To know somebody who's gone through it before you, because

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Speaker 2: I do think there's a level two where going on

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Speaker 2: this show feels overwhelming. It feels like you like, how

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Speaker 2: in the world can I do this? And I felt

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Speaker 2: that way when I went on to the Bachelorette, and

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Speaker 2: then what helped me was meeting actually some other guys

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Speaker 2: that were bachelor's and going, wait, they're actually normal, like

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Speaker 2: they're humans still functioning in this world.

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Speaker 1: Right.

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Speaker 2: I feel like, if they can do it, I can

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Speaker 2: do it, just because they're good people. And so once

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Speaker 2: you know somebody who's gone through it does make it

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Speaker 2: a little easier. And so I did say that. I

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Speaker 2: remember saying that to Luke because I remember when I

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Speaker 2: was told that you were considering doing this show. Does

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Speaker 2: that advice of the why not or why wouldn't you?

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Speaker 2: Are you glad you did it? Did it work out?

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Speaker 3: Absolutely? I again went in blind but hopeful, and it

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Speaker 3: really didn't have a connection, and I self eliminated, as

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Speaker 3: you know, but I, as you've heard, made fabulous friends

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Speaker 3: and still have hope that you know, and with now

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Speaker 3: Joan on her season, you know, she's finding love hopefully,

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Speaker 3: and it gives us hope for the future.

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Speaker 2: I think that's a big question that people are having

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Speaker 2: though with the Golden Show. You know, we see it

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Speaker 2: with past contestants and past seasons where the friends come out.

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Speaker 2: You guys are obviously you have this built you know

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Speaker 4: But what is the hope after the show?

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Speaker 2: Because for the younger people, they come off and they

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Speaker 2: What are your friends excited for that have came off

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Speaker 3: I think many I was again, I didn't have an

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Speaker 3: And I literally said, we're on vacation, and they're like,

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Speaker 3: You've got to seize the moment. And I mean, this

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Speaker 3: I don't know what my role is. I'm you know,

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Speaker 3: I'm a great people person. I can hang out with anybody.

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Speaker 3: see who whoever? First? And I got his number? Oh yeah,

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Speaker 3: Ben texted me the other day. I'm using that as

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Speaker 3: an example. But and then I'm like, what are you?

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Speaker 3: And people are still talking to the producers and I

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Speaker 3: the other thing was it made me self reflect because

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Speaker 3: I'm not like many of my friends on the show.

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Speaker 3: There's big personalities. They're hilarious. Kathy and Susan are my

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Speaker 3: I are more alike, we're quieter. We but it makes

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Speaker 3: So it's just different.

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Speaker 2: It is, And it's unique to hear you say that

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Speaker 2: because it's the same struggle that I think I went

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Speaker 4: I struggle with so.

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Speaker 2: Much envy, and I think the envy is brought on

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Speaker 2: the anxiety, and the envy is brought on the you know, comparison.

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Speaker 2: And you're saying that, like your group of friends and yourself,

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Speaker 2: you love me definitely but you still struggle with that

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Speaker 2: envy coming off of this experience.

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Speaker 3: Absolutely. And I remember telling one of them they got

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Speaker 3: to meet a famous celebrity, Bradley Cooper, and I said

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Speaker 3: and all of that. And she said, you're just jealous, Nancy.

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Speaker 3: I said, I'm not jealous, I'm envious. And there's two

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Speaker 3: different you know what I mean. I envied that that

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Speaker 3: why wasn't I picked for fifty over fifty. I'm not bad.

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Speaker 3: I have things to offer, I know things I can do,

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Speaker 3: But because I'm not in that personality, those people get

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Speaker 3: seen more. And so that's what I also I think

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Speaker 4: Well yeah, and it can be.

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Speaker 2: It became that way because of some good advice I

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Speaker 2: got too. And I've said it before, but it's probably

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Speaker 2: the best advice I've ever been given, at least in

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Speaker 2: for something greater than yourself. And the less you focus

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Speaker 2: less burden filled it will become. And it has been

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Speaker 2: that way. There's a lot more joy for me because

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Speaker 2: now my new friends and these new opportunities, and just

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Speaker 3: Well before that, I made a promise to them. They're like, oh, Mom,

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Speaker 3: And I think also they see like I'm taking up golf.

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Speaker 2: I think it's a great piece of advice. Simple yet

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Speaker 2: you never know, Go be active. It's not too late.

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Speaker 2: Hey Nancy, it's awesome to have you here. I really

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