WEBVTT - Ep 268: Mushroom Shaped Cheaters 0:00:02.480 --> 0:00:07.960 Guess what decision We're about to make a horrible decisions. 0:00:08.240 --> 0:00:13.920 She's a hole. That's you, bitch, that is all you. Anyways, guys, 0:00:13.960 --> 0:00:18.560 welcome to another episode of horrible decisions. I'm your girl 0:00:18.600 --> 0:00:20.800 maybb a k pet to sidon ak F cor pumps 0:00:20.800 --> 0:00:23.200 ak A debt bitch a k A. I will fuck 0:00:23.280 --> 0:00:26.080 all your family members. What's up? It went from just 0:00:26.440 --> 0:00:29.560 your daddy and your brother today, and your daddy, your 0:00:29.560 --> 0:00:31.680 brother and your mama to now your whole family. My 0:00:31.760 --> 0:00:35.000 name is Wheezy, and she will also fuck your whole family. 0:00:35.240 --> 0:00:40.640 Hey what not your husband but everyone else? But no, 0:00:41.159 --> 0:00:43.000 I'm Weezy. The universe is on my dick, and so 0:00:43.120 --> 0:00:46.240 is these niggas. I said that yesterday and it was 0:00:46.280 --> 0:00:50.080 only because all of these niggas. I'm sitting at lunch 0:00:50.120 --> 0:00:53.360 with Alex talking about work back to back niggas on 0:00:53.360 --> 0:00:56.600 my phone. The funny part about it is a white 0:00:56.600 --> 0:00:58.600 bitch walked by me. They used to suck obey and 0:00:58.640 --> 0:01:01.240 I was like, yo it up, like look at this ship. 0:01:01.400 --> 0:01:02.680 I was like, I can't avoid it. I'm in New 0:01:02.760 --> 0:01:04.679 York for five days and I see hosts he used 0:01:04.720 --> 0:01:06.440 to fuck and literally in the middle of me. You 0:01:06.520 --> 0:01:09.520 talking ship back to back, all these niggas on my 0:01:09.560 --> 0:01:12.319 life face timing me where you at bom Bom bomp, 0:01:12.400 --> 0:01:14.720 I said, the universe on my digging so is the 0:01:14.840 --> 0:01:19.800 niggas they are they wont me theyment it on me, 0:01:19.959 --> 0:01:22.640 and I'm gonna tell you something else. When old Bay 0:01:22.640 --> 0:01:25.039 and I were going through issues, I would always like, 0:01:25.520 --> 0:01:27.319 not try to find someone else, but kind of like 0:01:27.319 --> 0:01:29.560 look around and look for other people or wonder why 0:01:29.600 --> 0:01:32.320 I wouldn't meet someone else, bitch. When you're really done 0:01:32.319 --> 0:01:37.240 with a nigga, if floodgates are open ship, at least 0:01:37.240 --> 0:01:41.200 for me, ship the niggas. The niggas stay around. The 0:01:41.280 --> 0:01:43.560 niggas are always on bitches, Dick. I'm talking about new 0:01:43.600 --> 0:01:46.080 niggas because I've sunk a lot of old niggas and see, 0:01:46.560 --> 0:01:49.200 maybe maybe that's the difference. Like I feel like you 0:01:49.240 --> 0:01:52.400 get excitement from meeting new people. I absolutely hate it 0:01:52.440 --> 0:01:54.960 and I always revert back to like my passing, I 0:01:54.960 --> 0:02:00.000 want a new nigga job jobs, bitch, Oh no, ain't. 0:02:00.000 --> 0:02:01.840 None of them are no broke boy ship. Now, I 0:02:01.840 --> 0:02:03.640 don't know what the dick talking about yet because I'm 0:02:03.640 --> 0:02:05.360 still in the process. But just you know, I think 0:02:05.360 --> 0:02:07.200 Broke Dick is the best you can get out there. 0:02:07.640 --> 0:02:10.680 But no, these diggers, it's sucking lit. I'm not eating 0:02:10.680 --> 0:02:14.160 a weak niggas like they're fucking lit. And I appreciate 0:02:14.200 --> 0:02:18.960 that because I don't really want to get in this 0:02:19.000 --> 0:02:22.200 conversation of any more of like you know, at thirty 0:02:22.240 --> 0:02:25.280 one years old and like what I'll settle for, like 0:02:25.360 --> 0:02:29.040 bro like I just I don't wanna hope for the 0:02:29.080 --> 0:02:31.440 best for you. I was okay with that and in 0:02:31.520 --> 0:02:33.480 my twenties, like, I kind of want you to bring 0:02:33.480 --> 0:02:35.399 some ship to the table. Nigga, I'm the table, So 0:02:35.919 --> 0:02:38.320 what do you what do you want them to bring? 0:02:38.880 --> 0:02:41.880 I want someone that doesn't feel like they're at this 0:02:41.960 --> 0:02:47.400 point of struggle whatever that bet. And this is not 0:02:47.440 --> 0:02:50.040 a monetary thing. There are a lot of people I meet, 0:02:50.080 --> 0:02:52.880 men and women that feel like they're not there and 0:02:52.919 --> 0:02:55.560 they're waiting for this moment. I don't like that feeling 0:02:56.280 --> 0:02:57.560 because I would have been there and it's not a 0:02:57.560 --> 0:03:00.600 good feeling to go through. And I'm on at that point. 0:03:00.639 --> 0:03:02.760 I'm learning how I can grow, how i can be better, 0:03:03.080 --> 0:03:06.120 but I'm not like feeling like down or like I'm 0:03:06.160 --> 0:03:08.480 not there and ship is hard. I can't go through 0:03:08.480 --> 0:03:10.799 no strife for I've been through a lot of things 0:03:10.840 --> 0:03:12.320 in my life and I'm not about to meet your 0:03:12.360 --> 0:03:13.840 as and help you through it because I don't know you. 0:03:14.000 --> 0:03:16.240 If I I was just with a nigga for three years, 0:03:16.320 --> 0:03:17.919 you know what I'm saying, I've been with other men 0:03:18.080 --> 0:03:20.600 like that. Maybe you have gone through ship, but I'm 0:03:20.600 --> 0:03:23.280 already like close to him now it's a clean slate 0:03:23.440 --> 0:03:26.560 and my slate looking good as fuck. Ho. So no, 0:03:27.280 --> 0:03:30.200 and again, I do want to make a point that 0:03:30.280 --> 0:03:33.040 this isn't a monetary thing, like if you're why do 0:03:33.080 --> 0:03:35.360 you keep making that a point? Because I think people 0:03:35.400 --> 0:03:38.800 confuse women wanting things as you gotta make X y 0:03:38.880 --> 0:03:41.360 Z money And I'm not that bit right, Like I'm 0:03:41.400 --> 0:03:43.040 really not. I want you to be able to, like, 0:03:43.320 --> 0:03:45.680 you know, go out with me and do fun things. 0:03:45.720 --> 0:03:47.760 But like, I'm really not looking for a negative trick 0:03:47.800 --> 0:03:49.320 on me. I'm looking for someone to just be able 0:03:49.360 --> 0:03:51.400 to keep up. If I say Friday night, yo, we 0:03:51.400 --> 0:03:52.840 gotta try this new restaurant. I want him to be 0:03:52.920 --> 0:03:55.360 like fuck, that's all. But I'm not dating niggas that 0:03:55.360 --> 0:03:57.320 are young, really, I'm dating niggas that are my age 0:03:57.400 --> 0:03:59.680 or older, So I kind of want something like that. 0:03:59.760 --> 0:04:01.480 You know, they graduated from college, they've been in their 0:04:01.520 --> 0:04:04.200 field for a while. You should be ill. And if 0:04:04.240 --> 0:04:06.240 they haven't graduated through college, they've been in the industry 0:04:06.280 --> 0:04:08.000 for a minute. When I meet young niggas, they go 0:04:08.040 --> 0:04:09.920 through ship like that. So now I realize young niggas 0:04:09.920 --> 0:04:11.640 ain't for me for real. You know what I'm saying. 0:04:12.000 --> 0:04:14.240 I think you you've been on that like you used 0:04:14.240 --> 0:04:16.080 the dog the dog shit out of me when I 0:04:16.080 --> 0:04:18.320 talked about my little tenderhonis. I like when I you've 0:04:18.400 --> 0:04:21.599 never really liked young men ever since the exception of 0:04:21.640 --> 0:04:25.400 this fucking show. That's not anything except the exception of 0:04:25.440 --> 0:04:27.880 this show. You do not like you guys younger than you. 0:04:28.040 --> 0:04:29.960 I don't think ever on this show if you even 0:04:30.120 --> 0:04:33.200 talk to anyone younger than you. So that's nothing new. Yeah, 0:04:33.200 --> 0:04:37.160 that's just not. I didn't want to start off, Oh 0:04:37.160 --> 0:04:40.719 he's younger than you. Whatever, it's young that's not. That's 0:04:40.839 --> 0:04:42.520 not younger than you. I want them to be. I 0:04:42.520 --> 0:04:44.120 want them to have back ache from time to time. 0:04:44.120 --> 0:04:46.240 I want them niggas to be a little you know 0:04:46.240 --> 0:04:48.320 what I'm saying. I wanted to be close to time 0:04:48.360 --> 0:04:52.680 for your exam. At the age, I like, all right, well, 0:04:52.720 --> 0:04:55.719 I wanted to start off the show with doing a 0:04:55.880 --> 0:05:00.200 mental health check and like where you've been with been 0:05:00.200 --> 0:05:04.440 going on? How you feeling about you? How how I 0:05:04.480 --> 0:05:06.279 asked the question to you, and then you just say, 0:05:06.320 --> 0:05:10.360 what about you? I was just talking a lot. Oh um. 0:05:10.440 --> 0:05:12.880 I mean I'm in a little I don't know. I'm 0:05:12.920 --> 0:05:15.440 just in a weird space. It's I don't know what 0:05:15.480 --> 0:05:16.920 it is, and I don't know if it's because of 0:05:17.000 --> 0:05:19.279 the breakup. I don't know if it's because of the 0:05:19.279 --> 0:05:22.480 new business venture. I don't know if it's I don't know. 0:05:22.520 --> 0:05:25.679 I don't know if it's because I'm working too hard 0:05:26.360 --> 0:05:29.920 or I don't know. I'm like in this weird space 0:05:30.000 --> 0:05:33.480 like with family, with friends, with work. I just don't know, 0:05:33.920 --> 0:05:35.840 and I don't even know what it is like, which 0:05:35.839 --> 0:05:37.560 is weird because I also just talked about and I 0:05:37.600 --> 0:05:42.720 think break up a big life change, yeah, yeah, possibly. 0:05:43.160 --> 0:05:47.000 And I haven't been having sex, so I just feel like, Okay, 0:05:47.040 --> 0:05:48.680 what do I do? But I also don't want to date, 0:05:48.880 --> 0:05:51.200 but I don't want casual sex. So the idea that 0:05:51.240 --> 0:05:53.599 I'm just like, I'm like, who the funk am I 0:05:53.720 --> 0:05:56.000 right now? Like I also don't have the time to 0:05:56.040 --> 0:06:00.080 get fluid out like I had this like artist, and 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:02.320 I ain't gonna say what country he popping in, but 0:06:02.400 --> 0:06:05.640 he popping in a different country. I'm just saying. I'm 0:06:05.680 --> 0:06:08.160 just saying, don't don't you give it no hit, not 0:06:08.400 --> 0:06:12.160 when you say country and the US the y'all say that, 0:06:12.800 --> 0:06:16.360 but h like, he's been in my ship heavy, and 0:06:16.440 --> 0:06:19.320 like I literally talked to my friends like, oh my god, 0:06:19.680 --> 0:06:21.360 I don't even know if I should start talking him 0:06:21.360 --> 0:06:23.320 because the anxiety of if this nigger wants to fly 0:06:23.400 --> 0:06:25.480 me to his country, I ain't got the time. So 0:06:25.520 --> 0:06:27.720 I'm like talking to my friends and I'm like, bro, 0:06:28.000 --> 0:06:30.120 I ain't even got the time to get fluid out, 0:06:30.680 --> 0:06:33.160 like I don't. And now I realized I just lied 0:06:33.200 --> 0:06:35.960 to you because in the last two months I did 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:39.880 get fluted out twice. But even when I got flewed out, bitch, 0:06:40.360 --> 0:06:42.240 tell me how I had to do the ship fucking 0:06:42.560 --> 0:06:44.440 both of you all my fucker's. I was mad as fuck. 0:06:44.920 --> 0:06:49.160 So first off, my schedule's busiest fuck. So I had 0:06:49.200 --> 0:06:52.960 to fly to both niggas at like ten, like the 0:06:53.040 --> 0:06:56.320 last flight out of New York, got to them at midnight. Yeah, 0:06:57.040 --> 0:07:00.680 left the next day at twelve. I was I literally 0:07:00.720 --> 0:07:04.599 flew to two different people for less than twelve hours. 0:07:05.040 --> 0:07:07.400 And I was like, see, this is why flying out 0:07:07.520 --> 0:07:10.520 is not made for me. Like I'm flying literally to 0:07:10.600 --> 0:07:12.200 get the dick to wake up the hot back on 0:07:12.240 --> 0:07:15.000 the flight, and I'm just like, I couldn't do breakfast. Mind, 0:07:15.000 --> 0:07:17.600 You're the one thing guy really fucked up because I 0:07:17.640 --> 0:07:20.720 clearly haven't been dealing with nobody for a mini flew out. 0:07:21.840 --> 0:07:25.080 Forgot that on Saturdays the games could be in at 0:07:25.080 --> 0:07:28.600 the time. It's not seven pm games. So for that, 0:07:28.640 --> 0:07:31.040 when I got there like twelve thirty, okay, that when 0:07:31.040 --> 0:07:33.880 I was there like thirteen hours because I left it 0:07:34.000 --> 0:07:36.360 four but I left No, my flight was at four, 0:07:36.360 --> 0:07:38.320 but yeah, I left the hotel it like one. But 0:07:39.520 --> 0:07:41.560 I was just already gonna do that so I could 0:07:41.560 --> 0:07:43.640 sleep in. I didn't realize Nigga had a noon game, 0:07:44.080 --> 0:07:46.240 so he went to invite me to the game, and 0:07:46.280 --> 0:07:50.160 I was like, no, I'm gonna I'd rather just sleep in. Actually, 0:07:50.560 --> 0:07:52.040 I don't have friends here. I didn't want to go 0:07:52.080 --> 0:07:53.960 to the game by myself. But I was like, damn, 0:07:54.280 --> 0:07:57.400 this is how trifling. I am to where A I 0:07:57.400 --> 0:07:59.120 didn't even give a funk about his schedule because I 0:07:59.160 --> 0:08:01.760 didn't want to go to the game. But B I've 0:08:01.760 --> 0:08:03.720 been so removed from being a whole of these athletes 0:08:03.760 --> 0:08:05.760 that I totally forgot the niggas could have noon games 0:08:05.800 --> 0:08:08.040 on Saturdays. I didn't know. So like he had to 0:08:08.040 --> 0:08:10.560 wake up at like eight for a team meeting, leave 0:08:10.600 --> 0:08:14.720 the hotel by nine. I was like, damn out, don't say, 0:08:15.480 --> 0:08:16.800 what do you mean? Why did I go to his house? 0:08:16.920 --> 0:08:20.920 He was away this game, said Mandy, you better have 0:08:21.080 --> 0:08:23.880 both of these niggas was away games. Yeah, no, both 0:08:23.920 --> 0:08:26.680 of them was away games. Um. Yeah, I don't know. 0:08:26.720 --> 0:08:30.000 I think if you're having a like kind of feeling unsure, 0:08:30.040 --> 0:08:32.120 even like you're saying, you know you still talk to us, right, 0:08:32.160 --> 0:08:35.000 Like that's a really um what's the feeling called? Um? 0:08:35.040 --> 0:08:38.520 In limbo? Yeah? But I felt like I've been I 0:08:38.600 --> 0:08:41.960 was in limbo. I call it an emotional roller coaster 0:08:42.280 --> 0:08:44.679 with him for like the last five months of our relationship, 0:08:44.960 --> 0:08:48.079 Like I felt like every six weeks we broke up. 0:08:48.559 --> 0:08:50.640 Every other month we broke up. And that's where I 0:08:50.720 --> 0:08:53.440 was just like, oh, I can't do this, not in two. 0:08:53.559 --> 0:08:55.800 I am not like it was too much. It was 0:08:55.880 --> 0:08:59.240 too it was emotionally draining. But I think in the breakup, 0:08:59.280 --> 0:09:03.040 I didn't realize just how much I was exalting in 0:09:03.440 --> 0:09:06.719 emotions and making time for him, And I think that 0:09:06.720 --> 0:09:09.360 that's where I'm just like now as I'm adding more 0:09:09.400 --> 0:09:12.520 work to my schedule, I'm like a relationship is a job, 0:09:13.160 --> 0:09:16.000 Like I don't have time to to fit somebody in 0:09:16.040 --> 0:09:18.280 that I really don't know or really don't like, Like 0:09:18.320 --> 0:09:20.719 the funk, I'm gonna be mad as fucking if I 0:09:20.840 --> 0:09:24.280 missed out on binge watching fucking Top Chef just because 0:09:24.320 --> 0:09:25.720 I'm out on a date with a nigga I don't 0:09:25.720 --> 0:09:28.199 even like, because now how to miss my show? I mean, 0:09:28.240 --> 0:09:29.840 if you're not interested in going on day some people, 0:09:29.880 --> 0:09:32.240 you do not at all. I'm not interested at all. 0:09:32.480 --> 0:09:33.960 I don't even want to be on the phone with 0:09:34.000 --> 0:09:36.000 motherfucker's though. I went through time a time like that 0:09:36.000 --> 0:09:39.080 where like I was complaining about not having sex, but 0:09:39.080 --> 0:09:40.559 then I was also not going out. But it's weird 0:09:40.559 --> 0:09:42.679 because I wouldn't say I'm not I wouldn't even say 0:09:42.679 --> 0:09:45.320 I'm complaining about not having sex. My desire to have 0:09:45.440 --> 0:09:48.400 it has been gone. I just feel weird because I 0:09:48.440 --> 0:09:52.360 just went the last two years having sex lost and 0:09:52.360 --> 0:09:54.599 then like, of course, even wanting to still go to 0:09:54.679 --> 0:09:56.880 the sex clubs, I would just go literally to fulfill 0:09:56.920 --> 0:09:59.880 myself visually because I'm good. I don't have to have 0:10:00.040 --> 0:10:01.880 sex at a sex club, but I still want to go. 0:10:01.920 --> 0:10:03.720 But it's gonna be weird to not go with my partner, 0:10:04.559 --> 0:10:08.319 So I don't know. I don't know. Its is weird. 0:10:08.880 --> 0:10:12.439 And the summer is coming though. That's good, isn't it. Yes, 0:10:12.920 --> 0:10:15.360 this is the best time to be single ever, Nicko. 0:10:15.400 --> 0:10:17.559 I'm gonna tell you right now. When I was fighting, 0:10:17.600 --> 0:10:22.400 we're okay and depressed and it was cold, nigga, Oh no, 0:10:24.080 --> 0:10:28.920 really what bro? Summertime you're sucking wearing slutty ship. You 0:10:28.960 --> 0:10:31.720 can walk around, you gotta be freezing and jump on 0:10:31.720 --> 0:10:33.880 the train and just like no see to me. But 0:10:33.960 --> 0:10:36.760 and then you're more things going on. I like on 0:10:36.800 --> 0:10:39.800 the wintertime because I don't feel foambo. I don't feel 0:10:39.800 --> 0:10:42.959 like I'm missing out on anything like I could, like 0:10:43.080 --> 0:10:45.160 I could literally just chill in my house. I don't 0:10:45.160 --> 0:10:47.720 feel like I'm missing out because not many people don't know. See, 0:10:47.760 --> 0:10:49.880 I think wintertime. I don't know how many people that 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:53.040 agree with that. Mandy. Really, you're in your house alone, right, 0:10:53.320 --> 0:10:55.720 I think I love but I think that's what they 0:10:55.720 --> 0:10:57.600 called a hot girl summer be But I think that's 0:10:57.600 --> 0:10:59.720 why I like really being alone now. Like I'm around 0:10:59.760 --> 0:11:03.720 people every day, like I love it. No, Like I 0:11:03.760 --> 0:11:05.840 feel like I work all day. I'm on zooms all day, 0:11:05.880 --> 0:11:08.520 I'm on calls all day, like literally, after six, I 0:11:08.520 --> 0:11:10.240 don't want to hear from nobody. Leave me alone. And 0:11:10.280 --> 0:11:14.080 it's like more single. It's difficult when you can't go 0:11:14.120 --> 0:11:16.120 out to do much because you really can't even go 0:11:16.120 --> 0:11:17.760 out to get air because you're so freaking cold in 0:11:17.760 --> 0:11:19.080 New York, you know what I'm saying. So it's like 0:11:19.480 --> 0:11:21.559 being single and being able to even spend time outside 0:11:21.559 --> 0:11:24.720 alone is enjoyable. I'm just I'm just trying to plant her, 0:11:24.800 --> 0:11:27.760 small girl. That's what I went to nast though. I 0:11:27.800 --> 0:11:30.200 think I'm gonna do London after we do uh I 0:11:30.200 --> 0:11:32.840 like to shove in the mall. Oh god, I'm gonna 0:11:32.840 --> 0:11:37.400 do that after what After Roots Picnic, I think I'm 0:11:37.440 --> 0:11:38.800 gonna go to London for a couple of days. I 0:11:38.800 --> 0:11:41.280 think I'm going to Milan I'm really yeah, Gabby, my 0:11:41.320 --> 0:11:43.040 home shout out to home, my girl Gabby. She's moving 0:11:43.040 --> 0:11:45.000 to Milan for some work for a few months. I 0:11:45.040 --> 0:11:47.520 haven't been in a minute. Um. I went to meet 0:11:47.880 --> 0:11:49.880 a guy years ago that I met with. We just 0:11:49.920 --> 0:11:51.800 got done here in about Paris. Now we got to 0:11:51.840 --> 0:11:55.400 hear about Milan for the rest of the year. What's 0:11:55.440 --> 0:11:57.559 a little um you know in Venice? How they got 0:11:57.559 --> 0:11:59.520 that little hats with the mime outfit on the boat. 0:11:59.520 --> 0:12:01.640 I'm gonna be this some ship like dude, I'm gonna 0:12:01.640 --> 0:12:05.440 be wearing it anyway. No, I might do that and 0:12:05.480 --> 0:12:10.560 then just London because it's easy. Um. Anyway, I was 0:12:10.600 --> 0:12:13.240 thinking travel. Oh yeah, I mean, I know we're doing 0:12:13.280 --> 0:12:16.600 Greece with our fucking listeners. That's or you'll make sure 0:12:16.600 --> 0:12:18.360 to click the link in the bio if you haven't, 0:12:18.400 --> 0:12:20.760 yea and get your motherfucking tickets to come vacation with 0:12:20.800 --> 0:12:24.640 Wheezy and I I do. Um wanna you know. All 0:12:24.679 --> 0:12:26.520 I do is go to Mexico. That's all I did 0:12:26.600 --> 0:12:28.400 last year because I really didn't have much time. But 0:12:28.520 --> 0:12:32.439 finally I feel like I'm good on time. I finished 0:12:32.440 --> 0:12:35.400 my season two of my TV show I suffered a 0:12:35.480 --> 0:12:38.640 law sport unfortunately with you know, my breakup and my 0:12:38.679 --> 0:12:41.719 grandmother and just some stressful stuff. So I think I'll 0:12:41.720 --> 0:12:43.319 take my mom on a trip, my dad on the trip, 0:12:43.480 --> 0:12:45.360 a little family ship, and then I'm out. I don't 0:12:45.400 --> 0:12:47.760 have to. Um, you know, I've a lot of you know, 0:12:47.760 --> 0:12:52.840 our work and is in a podcast division, and we 0:12:52.880 --> 0:12:55.480 don't really have to start recording them until August. Not 0:12:55.520 --> 0:12:58.800 saying I'm in charge of the production schedule, but I 0:12:58.840 --> 0:13:01.680 was like, you know, we've got to get a legal talks, 0:13:02.320 --> 0:13:04.480 We've got to make sure everything's in order. We've got 0:13:04.480 --> 0:13:07.240 to get the writers together. Let's do a good Let's 0:13:07.240 --> 0:13:10.680 have June and July to prap. Of course, Oh you 0:13:10.800 --> 0:13:13.000 just wanted to be a hot girl. Shout out to 0:13:13.200 --> 0:13:14.920 everybody I worked. I've been very clear. I was like, 0:13:14.920 --> 0:13:16.640 I'm probably gonna be on the East Coast all summer 0:13:16.720 --> 0:13:18.720 like which I love being in l A. I let 0:13:18.720 --> 0:13:21.080 my little test la. I love schilling, but um, somebody 0:13:21.080 --> 0:13:22.880 come get my apartment beat because I'm trying to be 0:13:22.880 --> 0:13:25.400 in the street. I'm not gonna lie. I feel like 0:13:25.559 --> 0:13:29.839 this is going to be one of the best summers 0:13:29.880 --> 0:13:32.480 like ever because New York has literally been shut down 0:13:32.520 --> 0:13:35.280 for fucking two summers, and we finally just got to 0:13:35.320 --> 0:13:38.760 a point where Argy and I asked you for the 0:13:38.840 --> 0:13:41.920 vaccine corp. No more, it a lifted the mask mandate. 0:13:42.000 --> 0:13:45.160 It's getting it's given normal, bro and giving. I've been 0:13:45.200 --> 0:13:47.400 getting a taste there for it because I've been in 0:13:47.559 --> 0:13:51.160 l A for like the wintertime, and I'll be shout 0:13:51.160 --> 0:13:52.760 out to andre Power. I'll be going to these parties 0:13:52.760 --> 0:13:54.360 called the link up where I see all our followers. 0:13:54.360 --> 0:13:56.160 I'll be going to sucking all the sole election parties 0:13:56.200 --> 0:13:58.079 all the daytime ship, and I'm like, damn, this is 0:13:58.120 --> 0:14:00.120 summertime in New York. Not saying all the funk l 0:14:00.160 --> 0:14:02.200 A niggas, but every time you Alex on that party, 0:14:02.200 --> 0:14:04.199 he would be like, y'a way. As we get to Brooklyn, 0:14:04.760 --> 0:14:07.360 That's what I've been thinking about because you missed being outside, 0:14:07.480 --> 0:14:09.560 and like it's crazy to be in a city so 0:14:09.640 --> 0:14:12.200 often now where like I can walk outside. So the 0:14:12.240 --> 0:14:15.760 fact that I can actually be in my ship, I'm ready, Bro. 0:14:15.880 --> 0:14:17.600 I think I just want to go out of like 0:14:17.640 --> 0:14:19.320 it's so weird because the last couple of dames I've 0:14:19.360 --> 0:14:22.520 even gone to, like Soho House, It's weird, because I 0:14:22.560 --> 0:14:25.600 know I'm not wanting to date. I just like I 0:14:26.600 --> 0:14:29.000 so like I'm excited just to people from across the room. 0:14:30.120 --> 0:14:32.400 I don't really want your number, don't talk to me. 0:14:32.440 --> 0:14:34.200 I don't like FaceTime and I don't like talking on 0:14:34.200 --> 0:14:36.080 the phone. I just really don't want to be bothering 0:14:36.080 --> 0:14:39.120 with actively. But oh see no, I just want to 0:14:39.160 --> 0:14:42.200 I fuck and be like you're cute, flirt, have a 0:14:42.200 --> 0:14:44.640 couple of drinks, get drunk, forget I met you, and 0:14:45.040 --> 0:14:47.040 wake up the next morning like last night was fun. 0:14:47.240 --> 0:14:50.000 I think for me like mental health check as far 0:14:50.040 --> 0:14:52.520 as like where I'm at. I feel like I spent 0:14:52.560 --> 0:14:56.520 all last year being depressed and you know, deleting Instagram 0:14:56.560 --> 0:14:59.560 and fucking having to take trips and just feeling really 0:14:59.600 --> 0:15:03.120 really bad intrusive thoughts, and now I feel really good 0:15:03.360 --> 0:15:05.480 and I'm not gonna front. I went through this thing 0:15:05.480 --> 0:15:07.440 of like, when you have the money, aren't you supposed 0:15:07.440 --> 0:15:11.120 to feel better? Oh yeah, no, no, no a little bit. 0:15:11.360 --> 0:15:13.480 But see, money does make you happy, because I mean, 0:15:13.480 --> 0:15:15.280 the only reason I'm happy because it's the fact that 0:15:15.280 --> 0:15:16.800 I ain't got to look at the price of groceries 0:15:16.840 --> 0:15:19.080 no more, because some things going up. I love that 0:15:19.120 --> 0:15:21.080 I could just order what I wanted, Like, m, I 0:15:21.120 --> 0:15:24.680 feel like auto paying groceries, auto paying groceries, that's like, 0:15:24.840 --> 0:15:29.120 that's are on auto pay. I'm like, it feels great. 0:15:29.160 --> 0:15:31.600 I don't even like And then if everything gets paid 0:15:31.640 --> 0:15:34.160 and my account doesn't look like it moves, I love it. 0:15:34.280 --> 0:15:37.520 That's great. The thing for me too, is like I 0:15:37.560 --> 0:15:40.400 think when you're because I've been broken to press dog 0:15:40.440 --> 0:15:42.760 and that's it sucks. And now for me to be 0:15:42.800 --> 0:15:44.800 in a good place in my life now what I 0:15:44.880 --> 0:15:47.200 want like my next goals that I really hope for 0:15:47.360 --> 0:15:49.640 like shout out to w TS Studios. We just gave 0:15:49.640 --> 0:15:52.400 you everyone raises and in an affordable way, and what 0:15:52.440 --> 0:15:54.680 we could do. And for me, I want to make 0:15:54.680 --> 0:15:57.200 sure that everybody I fuck with got was on auto 0:15:57.200 --> 0:16:00.680 pay too, Like that's something that's really like any be excited. 0:16:00.720 --> 0:16:03.680 I really love knowing that, Like you know what I'm saying, 0:16:03.720 --> 0:16:05.880 we could touch people's lives that like we can help people, 0:16:05.920 --> 0:16:08.200 we can employ people. Like that's a good feeling, you 0:16:08.200 --> 0:16:10.320 know what I'm saying. With horrible to like being able 0:16:10.360 --> 0:16:11.920 to go back on tour at some point and you know, 0:16:12.040 --> 0:16:15.080 Vinny's back with us, and like that like, I really 0:16:15.080 --> 0:16:16.720 think about those things, and these are the things that 0:16:16.760 --> 0:16:19.000 are becoming fulfilling to me. And maybe it is because 0:16:19.240 --> 0:16:21.160 you know, my grandma passed and I'm like, life is short. 0:16:21.200 --> 0:16:24.560 What am I here for? And at first when I 0:16:24.600 --> 0:16:26.840 had a partner, it was like, oh, to make babies 0:16:26.880 --> 0:16:28.800 and be a family. And now I'm just like, oh, wait, 0:16:28.840 --> 0:16:30.680 you don't want to be partnering no more? I mean, yeah, 0:16:30.680 --> 0:16:32.400 but I don't have anyone to be partner with, bitch. 0:16:32.720 --> 0:16:34.560 So I mean, as long as you someone, you have 0:16:34.560 --> 0:16:36.600 someone to be partnert. I mean, I want a good 0:16:36.920 --> 0:16:39.440 co parenting situation. I want to I would love to 0:16:39.440 --> 0:16:41.760 be married and and pregnant. I know that's not a 0:16:42.720 --> 0:16:44.360 thing to say, but that's just honestly, why do you 0:16:44.400 --> 0:16:47.040 think that's not things? I think that there's so much 0:16:47.240 --> 0:16:51.280 forced non monogamy and open relationship opinions on people, even 0:16:51.360 --> 0:16:53.440 from our end, from like we talked about, but you 0:16:53.480 --> 0:16:56.480 can be married and open and non monogamy. I think 0:16:56.480 --> 0:16:59.120 that people don't associate marriage because it's such a commitment 0:16:59.160 --> 0:17:01.640 with open relations ships anymore. And I don't even know. 0:17:01.680 --> 0:17:04.080 It's like I never hear about people talking about want 0:17:04.080 --> 0:17:05.520 to get married. I hear them all saying they want 0:17:05.520 --> 0:17:07.480 a million boyfoo. I don't want to get married because 0:17:07.960 --> 0:17:11.800 I'm not gonna end up like Mary J. Blige, Kelly Clarkson, Adele. 0:17:12.160 --> 0:17:13.800 I ain't paying none of these niggas. I make too 0:17:13.840 --> 0:17:16.160 much money now to get married, even like it's it's 0:17:16.160 --> 0:17:18.880 literally a financial thing. That's the only reason why women 0:17:18.920 --> 0:17:21.159 got married to men in the very beginning anyways, is 0:17:21.160 --> 0:17:23.280 because they couldn't even open their own vac accounts. They 0:17:23.280 --> 0:17:25.680 had to depend on men. To be quite honest with you, 0:17:26.160 --> 0:17:28.000 that's someone that's looking to buy a home right now. 0:17:28.240 --> 0:17:31.359 I think constantly about marriage. I feel how much more 0:17:31.359 --> 0:17:34.399 I could afford. Every single house I've tried to buy 0:17:34.520 --> 0:17:37.040 in l A. I've put in like three offers. They 0:17:37.080 --> 0:17:39.120 go over by two. And by the way, I don't 0:17:39.119 --> 0:17:44.919 want to move to it, I mean, but the wild Yeah, 0:17:45.280 --> 0:17:47.199 Like I'm that's really where I'm at. I want to 0:17:47.200 --> 0:17:49.600 buy something and I can't afford it. Like I didn't 0:17:49.600 --> 0:17:51.200 know you need two million dollars by home. I thought 0:17:51.200 --> 0:17:53.240 one million was cool. Not saying that, you know, I've 0:17:53.280 --> 0:17:56.399 got that million in liquid to spend. I'm just saying, 0:17:56.440 --> 0:18:00.520 like that's the mortgage I can afford and nigga no. 0:18:01.200 --> 0:18:04.760 So like literally, the agent I was talking to was 0:18:04.800 --> 0:18:07.320 like being that your budget is that we can start 0:18:07.320 --> 0:18:09.840 looking at stuff for six D seven thousand. I was like, no, 0:18:09.960 --> 0:18:11.359 but I can afford this, and he's like, well, they 0:18:11.359 --> 0:18:13.560 ain't going for that. Every time I go to a 0:18:13.640 --> 0:18:19.000 fucking Hollywood Hills, but like they, I've been looking at 0:18:19.359 --> 0:18:21.960 no there. I've been finding two twos in a million 0:18:21.960 --> 0:18:24.440 in a house and I want a two to with 0:18:24.480 --> 0:18:26.240 no h o A. I want a house because I 0:18:26.280 --> 0:18:28.359