Speaker 1: Guess what decision We're about to make a horrible decisions.
Speaker 1: She's a hole. That's you, bitch, that is all you. Anyways, guys,
Speaker 1: welcome to another episode of horrible decisions. I'm your girl
Speaker 1: maybb a k pet to sidon ak F cor pumps
Speaker 1: ak A debt bitch a k A. I will fuck
Speaker 1: all your family members. What's up? It went from just
Speaker 1: your daddy and your brother today, and your daddy, your
Speaker 1: brother and your mama to now your whole family. My
Speaker 1: name is Wheezy, and she will also fuck your whole family.
Speaker 1: Hey what not your husband but everyone else? But no,
Speaker 1: I'm Weezy. The universe is on my dick, and so
Speaker 1: is these niggas. I said that yesterday and it was
Speaker 1: only because all of these niggas. I'm sitting at lunch
Speaker 1: with Alex talking about work back to back niggas on
Speaker 1: my phone. The funny part about it is a white
Speaker 1: bitch walked by me. They used to suck obey and
Speaker 1: I was like, yo it up, like look at this ship.
Speaker 1: I was like, I can't avoid it. I'm in New
Speaker 1: York for five days and I see hosts he used
Speaker 1: to fuck and literally in the middle of me. You
Speaker 1: talking ship back to back, all these niggas on my
Speaker 1: life face timing me where you at bom Bom bomp,
Speaker 1: I said, the universe on my digging so is the
Speaker 1: niggas they are they wont me theyment it on me,
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna tell you something else. When old Bay
Speaker 1: and I were going through issues, I would always like,
Speaker 1: not try to find someone else, but kind of like
Speaker 1: look around and look for other people or wonder why
Speaker 1: I wouldn't meet someone else, bitch. When you're really done
Speaker 1: with a nigga, if floodgates are open ship, at least
Speaker 1: for me, ship the niggas. The niggas stay around. The
Speaker 1: niggas are always on bitches, Dick. I'm talking about new
Speaker 1: niggas because I've sunk a lot of old niggas and see,
Speaker 1: maybe maybe that's the difference. Like I feel like you
Speaker 1: get excitement from meeting new people. I absolutely hate it
Speaker 1: and I always revert back to like my passing, I
Speaker 1: want a new nigga job jobs, bitch, Oh no, ain't.
Speaker 1: None of them are no broke boy ship. Now, I
Speaker 1: don't know what the dick talking about yet because I'm
Speaker 1: still in the process. But just you know, I think
Speaker 1: Broke Dick is the best you can get out there.
Speaker 1: But no, these diggers, it's sucking lit. I'm not eating
Speaker 1: a weak niggas like they're fucking lit. And I appreciate
Speaker 1: that because I don't really want to get in this
Speaker 1: conversation of any more of like you know, at thirty
Speaker 1: one years old and like what I'll settle for, like
Speaker 1: bro like I just I don't wanna hope for the
Speaker 1: best for you. I was okay with that and in
Speaker 1: my twenties, like, I kind of want you to bring
Speaker 1: some ship to the table. Nigga, I'm the table, So
Speaker 1: what do you what do you want them to bring?
Speaker 1: I want someone that doesn't feel like they're at this
Speaker 1: point of struggle whatever that bet. And this is not
Speaker 1: a monetary thing. There are a lot of people I meet,
Speaker 1: men and women that feel like they're not there and
Speaker 1: they're waiting for this moment. I don't like that feeling
Speaker 1: because I would have been there and it's not a
Speaker 1: good feeling to go through. And I'm on at that point.
Speaker 1: I'm learning how I can grow, how i can be better,
Speaker 1: but I'm not like feeling like down or like I'm
Speaker 1: not there and ship is hard. I can't go through
Speaker 1: no strife for I've been through a lot of things
Speaker 1: in my life and I'm not about to meet your
Speaker 1: as and help you through it because I don't know you.
Speaker 1: If I I was just with a nigga for three years,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, I've been with other men
Speaker 1: like that. Maybe you have gone through ship, but I'm
Speaker 1: already like close to him now it's a clean slate
Speaker 1: and my slate looking good as fuck. Ho. So no,
Speaker 1: and again, I do want to make a point that
Speaker 1: this isn't a monetary thing, like if you're why do
Speaker 1: you keep making that a point? Because I think people
Speaker 1: confuse women wanting things as you gotta make X y
Speaker 1: Z money And I'm not that bit right, Like I'm
Speaker 1: really not. I want you to be able to, like,
Speaker 1: you know, go out with me and do fun things.
Speaker 1: But like, I'm really not looking for a negative trick
Speaker 1: on me. I'm looking for someone to just be able
Speaker 1: to keep up. If I say Friday night, yo, we
Speaker 1: gotta try this new restaurant. I want him to be
Speaker 1: like fuck, that's all. But I'm not dating niggas that
Speaker 1: are young, really, I'm dating niggas that are my age
Speaker 1: or older, So I kind of want something like that.
Speaker 1: You know, they graduated from college, they've been in their
Speaker 1: field for a while. You should be ill. And if
Speaker 1: they haven't graduated through college, they've been in the industry
Speaker 1: for a minute. When I meet young niggas, they go
Speaker 1: through ship like that. So now I realize young niggas
Speaker 1: ain't for me for real. You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I think you you've been on that like you used
Speaker 1: the dog the dog shit out of me when I
Speaker 1: talked about my little tenderhonis. I like when I you've
Speaker 1: never really liked young men ever since the exception of
Speaker 1: this fucking show. That's not anything except the exception of
Speaker 1: this show. You do not like you guys younger than you.
Speaker 1: I don't think ever on this show if you even
Speaker 1: talk to anyone younger than you. So that's nothing new. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's just not. I didn't want to start off, Oh
Speaker 1: he's younger than you. Whatever, it's young that's not. That's
Speaker 1: not younger than you. I want them to be. I
Speaker 1: want them to have back ache from time to time.
Speaker 1: I want them niggas to be a little you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I wanted to be close to time
Speaker 1: for your exam. At the age, I like, all right, well,
Speaker 1: I wanted to start off the show with doing a
Speaker 1: mental health check and like where you've been with been
Speaker 1: going on? How you feeling about you? How how I
Speaker 1: asked the question to you, and then you just say,
Speaker 1: what about you? I was just talking a lot. Oh um.
Speaker 1: I mean I'm in a little I don't know. I'm
Speaker 1: just in a weird space. It's I don't know what
Speaker 1: it is, and I don't know if it's because of
Speaker 1: the breakup. I don't know if it's because of the
Speaker 1: new business venture. I don't know if it's I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't know if it's because I'm working too hard
Speaker 1: or I don't know. I'm like in this weird space
Speaker 1: like with family, with friends, with work. I just don't know,
Speaker 1: and I don't even know what it is like, which
Speaker 1: is weird because I also just talked about and I
Speaker 1: think break up a big life change, yeah, yeah, possibly.
Speaker 1: And I haven't been having sex, so I just feel like, Okay,
Speaker 1: what do I do? But I also don't want to date,
Speaker 1: but I don't want casual sex. So the idea that
Speaker 1: I'm just like, I'm like, who the funk am I
Speaker 1: right now? Like I also don't have the time to
Speaker 1: get fluid out like I had this like artist, and
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna say what country he popping in, but
Speaker 1: he popping in a different country. I'm just saying. I'm
Speaker 1: just saying, don't don't you give it no hit, not
Speaker 1: when you say country and the US the y'all say that,
Speaker 1: but h like, he's been in my ship heavy, and
Speaker 1: like I literally talked to my friends like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I don't even know if I should start talking him
Speaker 1: because the anxiety of if this nigger wants to fly
Speaker 1: me to his country, I ain't got the time. So
Speaker 1: I'm like talking to my friends and I'm like, bro,
Speaker 1: I ain't even got the time to get fluid out,
Speaker 1: like I don't. And now I realized I just lied
Speaker 1: to you because in the last two months I did
Speaker 1: get fluted out twice. But even when I got flewed out, bitch,
Speaker 1: tell me how I had to do the ship fucking
Speaker 1: both of you all my fucker's. I was mad as fuck.
Speaker 1: So first off, my schedule's busiest fuck. So I had
Speaker 1: to fly to both niggas at like ten, like the
Speaker 1: last flight out of New York, got to them at midnight. Yeah,
Speaker 1: left the next day at twelve. I was I literally
Speaker 1: flew to two different people for less than twelve hours.
Speaker 1: And I was like, see, this is why flying out
Speaker 1: is not made for me. Like I'm flying literally to
Speaker 1: get the dick to wake up the hot back on
Speaker 1: the flight, and I'm just like, I couldn't do breakfast. Mind,
Speaker 1: You're the one thing guy really fucked up because I
Speaker 1: clearly haven't been dealing with nobody for a mini flew out.
Speaker 1: Forgot that on Saturdays the games could be in at
Speaker 1: the time. It's not seven pm games. So for that,
Speaker 1: when I got there like twelve thirty, okay, that when
Speaker 1: I was there like thirteen hours because I left it
Speaker 1: four but I left No, my flight was at four,
Speaker 1: but yeah, I left the hotel it like one. But
Speaker 1: I was just already gonna do that so I could
Speaker 1: sleep in. I didn't realize Nigga had a noon game,
Speaker 1: so he went to invite me to the game, and
Speaker 1: I was like, no, I'm gonna I'd rather just sleep in. Actually,
Speaker 1: I don't have friends here. I didn't want to go
Speaker 1: to the game by myself. But I was like, damn,
Speaker 1: this is how trifling. I am to where A I
Speaker 1: didn't even give a funk about his schedule because I
Speaker 1: didn't want to go to the game. But B I've
Speaker 1: been so removed from being a whole of these athletes
Speaker 1: that I totally forgot the niggas could have noon games
Speaker 1: on Saturdays. I didn't know. So like he had to
Speaker 1: wake up at like eight for a team meeting, leave
Speaker 1: the hotel by nine. I was like, damn out, don't say,
Speaker 1: what do you mean? Why did I go to his house?
Speaker 1: He was away this game, said Mandy, you better have
Speaker 1: both of these niggas was away games. Yeah, no, both
Speaker 1: of them was away games. Um. Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I think if you're having a like kind of feeling unsure,
Speaker 1: even like you're saying, you know you still talk to us, right,
Speaker 1: Like that's a really um what's the feeling called? Um?
Speaker 1: In limbo? Yeah? But I felt like I've been I
Speaker 1: was in limbo. I call it an emotional roller coaster
Speaker 1: with him for like the last five months of our relationship,
Speaker 1: Like I felt like every six weeks we broke up.
Speaker 1: Every other month we broke up. And that's where I
Speaker 1: was just like, oh, I can't do this, not in two.
Speaker 1: I am not like it was too much. It was
Speaker 1: too it was emotionally draining. But I think in the breakup,
Speaker 1: I didn't realize just how much I was exalting in
Speaker 1: emotions and making time for him, And I think that
Speaker 1: that's where I'm just like now as I'm adding more
Speaker 1: work to my schedule, I'm like a relationship is a job,
Speaker 1: Like I don't have time to to fit somebody in
Speaker 1: that I really don't know or really don't like, Like
Speaker 1: the funk, I'm gonna be mad as fucking if I
Speaker 1: missed out on binge watching fucking Top Chef just because
Speaker 1: I'm out on a date with a nigga I don't
Speaker 1: even like, because now how to miss my show? I mean,
Speaker 1: if you're not interested in going on day some people,
Speaker 1: you do not at all. I'm not interested at all.
Speaker 1: I don't even want to be on the phone with
Speaker 1: motherfucker's though. I went through time a time like that
Speaker 1: where like I was complaining about not having sex, but
Speaker 1: then I was also not going out. But it's weird
Speaker 1: because I wouldn't say I'm not I wouldn't even say
Speaker 1: I'm complaining about not having sex. My desire to have
Speaker 1: it has been gone. I just feel weird because I
Speaker 1: just went the last two years having sex lost and
Speaker 1: then like, of course, even wanting to still go to
Speaker 1: the sex clubs, I would just go literally to fulfill
Speaker 1: myself visually because I'm good. I don't have to have
Speaker 1: sex at a sex club, but I still want to go.
Speaker 1: But it's gonna be weird to not go with my partner,
Speaker 1: So I don't know. I don't know. Its is weird.
Speaker 1: And the summer is coming though. That's good, isn't it. Yes,
Speaker 1: this is the best time to be single ever, Nicko.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you right now. When I was fighting,
Speaker 1: we're okay and depressed and it was cold, nigga, Oh no,
Speaker 1: really what bro? Summertime you're sucking wearing slutty ship. You
Speaker 1: can walk around, you gotta be freezing and jump on
Speaker 1: the train and just like no see to me. But
Speaker 1: and then you're more things going on. I like on
Speaker 1: the wintertime because I don't feel foambo. I don't feel
Speaker 1: like I'm missing out on anything like I could, like
Speaker 1: I could literally just chill in my house. I don't
Speaker 1: feel like I'm missing out because not many people don't know. See,
Speaker 1: I think wintertime. I don't know how many people that
Speaker 1: agree with that. Mandy. Really, you're in your house alone, right,
Speaker 1: I think I love but I think that's what they
Speaker 1: called a hot girl summer be But I think that's
Speaker 1: why I like really being alone now. Like I'm around
Speaker 1: people every day, like I love it. No, Like I
Speaker 1: feel like I work all day. I'm on zooms all day,
Speaker 1: I'm on calls all day, like literally, after six, I
Speaker 1: don't want to hear from nobody. Leave me alone. And
Speaker 1: it's like more single. It's difficult when you can't go
Speaker 1: out to do much because you really can't even go
Speaker 1: out to get air because you're so freaking cold in
Speaker 1: New York, you know what I'm saying. So it's like
Speaker 1: being single and being able to even spend time outside
Speaker 1: alone is enjoyable. I'm just I'm just trying to plant her,
Speaker 1: small girl. That's what I went to nast though. I
Speaker 1: think I'm gonna do London after we do uh I
Speaker 1: like to shove in the mall. Oh god, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: do that after what After Roots Picnic, I think I'm
Speaker 1: gonna go to London for a couple of days. I
Speaker 1: think I'm going to Milan I'm really yeah, Gabby, my
Speaker 1: home shout out to home, my girl Gabby. She's moving
Speaker 1: to Milan for some work for a few months. I
Speaker 1: haven't been in a minute. Um. I went to meet
Speaker 1: a guy years ago that I met with. We just
Speaker 1: got done here in about Paris. Now we got to
Speaker 1: hear about Milan for the rest of the year. What's
Speaker 1: a little um you know in Venice? How they got
Speaker 1: that little hats with the mime outfit on the boat.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be this some ship like dude, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be wearing it anyway. No, I might do that and
Speaker 1: then just London because it's easy. Um. Anyway, I was
Speaker 1: thinking travel. Oh yeah, I mean, I know we're doing
Speaker 1: Greece with our fucking listeners. That's or you'll make sure
Speaker 1: to click the link in the bio if you haven't,
Speaker 1: yea and get your motherfucking tickets to come vacation with
Speaker 1: Wheezy and I I do. Um wanna you know. All
Speaker 1: I do is go to Mexico. That's all I did
Speaker 1: last year because I really didn't have much time. But
Speaker 1: finally I feel like I'm good on time. I finished
Speaker 1: my season two of my TV show I suffered a
Speaker 1: law sport unfortunately with you know, my breakup and my
Speaker 1: grandmother and just some stressful stuff. So I think I'll
Speaker 1: take my mom on a trip, my dad on the trip,
Speaker 1: a little family ship, and then I'm out. I don't
Speaker 1: have to. Um, you know, I've a lot of you know,
Speaker 1: our work and is in a podcast division, and we
Speaker 1: don't really have to start recording them until August. Not
Speaker 1: saying I'm in charge of the production schedule, but I
Speaker 1: was like, you know, we've got to get a legal talks,
Speaker 1: We've got to make sure everything's in order. We've got
Speaker 1: to get the writers together. Let's do a good Let's
Speaker 1: have June and July to prap. Of course, Oh you
Speaker 1: just wanted to be a hot girl. Shout out to
Speaker 1: everybody I worked. I've been very clear. I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm probably gonna be on the East Coast all summer
Speaker 1: like which I love being in l A. I let
Speaker 1: my little test la. I love schilling, but um, somebody
Speaker 1: come get my apartment beat because I'm trying to be
Speaker 1: in the street. I'm not gonna lie. I feel like
Speaker 1: this is going to be one of the best summers
Speaker 1: like ever because New York has literally been shut down
Speaker 1: for fucking two summers, and we finally just got to
Speaker 1: a point where Argy and I asked you for the
Speaker 1: vaccine corp. No more, it a lifted the mask mandate.
Speaker 1: It's getting it's given normal, bro and giving. I've been
Speaker 1: getting a taste there for it because I've been in
Speaker 1: l A for like the wintertime, and I'll be shout
Speaker 1: out to andre Power. I'll be going to these parties
Speaker 1: called the link up where I see all our followers.
Speaker 1: I'll be going to sucking all the sole election parties
Speaker 1: all the daytime ship, and I'm like, damn, this is
Speaker 1: summertime in New York. Not saying all the funk l
Speaker 1: A niggas, but every time you Alex on that party,
Speaker 1: he would be like, y'a way. As we get to Brooklyn,
Speaker 1: That's what I've been thinking about because you missed being outside,
Speaker 1: and like it's crazy to be in a city so
Speaker 1: often now where like I can walk outside. So the
Speaker 1: fact that I can actually be in my ship, I'm ready, Bro.
Speaker 1: I think I just want to go out of like
Speaker 1: it's so weird because the last couple of dames I've
Speaker 1: even gone to, like Soho House, It's weird, because I
Speaker 1: know I'm not wanting to date. I just like I
Speaker 1: so like I'm excited just to people from across the room.
Speaker 1: I don't really want your number, don't talk to me.
Speaker 1: I don't like FaceTime and I don't like talking on
Speaker 1: the phone. I just really don't want to be bothering
Speaker 1: with actively. But oh see no, I just want to
Speaker 1: I fuck and be like you're cute, flirt, have a
Speaker 1: couple of drinks, get drunk, forget I met you, and
Speaker 1: wake up the next morning like last night was fun.
Speaker 1: I think for me like mental health check as far
Speaker 1: as like where I'm at. I feel like I spent
Speaker 1: all last year being depressed and you know, deleting Instagram
Speaker 1: and fucking having to take trips and just feeling really
Speaker 1: really bad intrusive thoughts, and now I feel really good
Speaker 1: and I'm not gonna front. I went through this thing
Speaker 1: of like, when you have the money, aren't you supposed
Speaker 1: to feel better? Oh yeah, no, no, no a little bit.
Speaker 1: But see, money does make you happy, because I mean,
Speaker 1: the only reason I'm happy because it's the fact that
Speaker 1: I ain't got to look at the price of groceries
Speaker 1: no more, because some things going up. I love that
Speaker 1: I could just order what I wanted, Like, m, I
Speaker 1: feel like auto paying groceries, auto paying groceries, that's like,
Speaker 1: that's are on auto pay. I'm like, it feels great.
Speaker 1: I don't even like And then if everything gets paid
Speaker 1: and my account doesn't look like it moves, I love it.
Speaker 1: That's great. The thing for me too, is like I
Speaker 1: think when you're because I've been broken to press dog
Speaker 1: and that's it sucks. And now for me to be
Speaker 1: in a good place in my life now what I
Speaker 1: want like my next goals that I really hope for
Speaker 1: like shout out to w TS Studios. We just gave
Speaker 1: you everyone raises and in an affordable way, and what
Speaker 1: we could do. And for me, I want to make
Speaker 1: sure that everybody I fuck with got was on auto
Speaker 1: pay too, Like that's something that's really like any be excited.
Speaker 1: I really love knowing that, Like you know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: we could touch people's lives that like we can help people,
Speaker 1: we can employ people. Like that's a good feeling, you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. With horrible to like being able
Speaker 1: to go back on tour at some point and you know,
Speaker 1: Vinny's back with us, and like that like, I really
Speaker 1: think about those things, and these are the things that
Speaker 1: are becoming fulfilling to me. And maybe it is because
Speaker 1: you know, my grandma passed and I'm like, life is short.
Speaker 1: What am I here for? And at first when I
Speaker 1: had a partner, it was like, oh, to make babies
Speaker 1: and be a family. And now I'm just like, oh, wait,
Speaker 1: you don't want to be partnering no more? I mean, yeah,
Speaker 1: but I don't have anyone to be partner with, bitch.
Speaker 1: So I mean, as long as you someone, you have
Speaker 1: someone to be partnert. I mean, I want a good
Speaker 1: co parenting situation. I want to I would love to
Speaker 1: be married and and pregnant. I know that's not a
Speaker 1: thing to say, but that's just honestly, why do you
Speaker 1: think that's not things? I think that there's so much
Speaker 1: forced non monogamy and open relationship opinions on people, even
Speaker 1: from our end, from like we talked about, but you
Speaker 1: can be married and open and non monogamy. I think
Speaker 1: that people don't associate marriage because it's such a commitment
Speaker 1: with open relations ships anymore. And I don't even know.
Speaker 1: It's like I never hear about people talking about want
Speaker 1: to get married. I hear them all saying they want
Speaker 1: a million boyfoo. I don't want to get married because
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna end up like Mary J. Blige, Kelly Clarkson, Adele.
Speaker 1: I ain't paying none of these niggas. I make too
Speaker 1: much money now to get married, even like it's it's
Speaker 1: literally a financial thing. That's the only reason why women
Speaker 1: got married to men in the very beginning anyways, is
Speaker 1: because they couldn't even open their own vac accounts. They
Speaker 1: had to depend on men. To be quite honest with you,
Speaker 1: that's someone that's looking to buy a home right now.
Speaker 1: I think constantly about marriage. I feel how much more
Speaker 1: I could afford. Every single house I've tried to buy
Speaker 1: in l A. I've put in like three offers. They
Speaker 1: go over by two. And by the way, I don't
Speaker 1: want to move to it, I mean, but the wild Yeah,
Speaker 1: Like I'm that's really where I'm at. I want to
Speaker 1: buy something and I can't afford it. Like I didn't
Speaker 1: know you need two million dollars by home. I thought
Speaker 1: one million was cool. Not saying that, you know, I've
Speaker 1: got that million in liquid to spend. I'm just saying,
Speaker 1: like that's the mortgage I can afford and nigga no.
Speaker 1: So like literally, the agent I was talking to was
Speaker 1: like being that your budget is that we can start
Speaker 1: looking at stuff for six D seven thousand. I was like, no,
Speaker 1: but I can afford this, and he's like, well, they
Speaker 1: ain't going for that. Every time I go to a
Speaker 1: fucking Hollywood Hills, but like they, I've been looking at
Speaker 1: no there. I've been finding two twos in a million
Speaker 1: in a house and I want a two to with
Speaker 1: no h o A. I want a house because I
Speaker 1: can airbnb it when I'm in New York, because I
Speaker 1: want to be in New York half the time. But
Speaker 1: this ship is getting fucking difficult. So but I think
Speaker 1: about it like, wow, if I had a partner two million,
Speaker 1: that's how much the house. That's how my brain is
Speaker 1: starting to work. I think about just like improvements. But
Speaker 1: see that's what That's what I'm saying. Even so, you
Speaker 1: are looking at marriage as a business, right, partnership financial
Speaker 1: like financial game. Like to me, if I want to elevate,
Speaker 1: like marriage would enrich that part of my life love,
Speaker 1: money and baby. Okay, unless I mean say hello that
Speaker 1: we on the obviously end, because I don't want none
Speaker 1: of it. I'm just staying. When you said, what scares
Speaker 1: you because of money, it's the opposite for me. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it scared me because of money, but not only that.
Speaker 1: I don't want I don't want kids, so and I
Speaker 1: also I mean, I'm okay to be a step mom,
Speaker 1: but I don't want to be like a step mom
Speaker 1: for real. I'm probably gonna end up having Vinnie's kid
Speaker 1: at thirty eight. Does Nie one kids? Yeah? He wants,
Speaker 1: he said, he wants to be a dad. Um we
Speaker 1: have like drunken Lee and on Molly over the year
Speaker 1: has been like no, if we're like, come on, Vinnie going,
Speaker 1: we talked about like definitely insemination because I don't want
Speaker 1: to have the seat. Well him, no, okay, yeah, all right,
Speaker 1: well let's get to our vanilla ship this week. All right,
Speaker 1: So our vanilla ship. I have to do it. But
Speaker 1: Hot Baby Um because her father believes that she was
Speaker 1: groomed to become a porn star. Oh god, so this
Speaker 1: is what Um, the father of nineteen year old rapper
Speaker 1: turned only fans star but had Baby, had to say.
Speaker 1: He says that what she groomed absolutely, with the way
Speaker 1: she dressed, with the way she acted, everything was sex
Speaker 1: related and encouraged by people around her, who in their
Speaker 1: right mind thinks, oh, she just turned eighteen, so now
Speaker 1: it's time to make money on only fans. You don't
Speaker 1: think of that in a few days. There must have
Speaker 1: been some preparation when she was under eighteen. She doesn't
Speaker 1: rap anymore, she doesn't sing, she doesn't go on tour,
Speaker 1: she sits in her house, and she does her only fans.
Speaker 1: It's upsetting to me because she's young. How long will
Speaker 1: she do this for? Is she going to become a
Speaker 1: porn star or will she be on the billboard as
Speaker 1: a feature at the next strip club. I want to
Speaker 1: know if, especially because even like we see so many
Speaker 1: people even write us and that are like her dads,
Speaker 1: they're young. Her dad said this. So I want to
Speaker 1: know if you find any way or believe that younger
Speaker 1: teenage girls can be groomed into the lifestyle of sex.
Speaker 1: And if you also think that the way a woman dresses,
Speaker 1: the way she acts, and anything sex related can encourage
Speaker 1: a woman to become I'm able to say something that
Speaker 1: is very problematic, and I'm embarrassed to say it. Okay.
Speaker 1: On an episode of sex Cells about porn, I went
Speaker 1: to Evil Angel because your friend Liz helped me out.
Speaker 1: She was working there, and I talked to the owner
Speaker 1: of the company, who was very kind, very professional. I
Speaker 1: realized that was my most exciting episode because he was older,
Speaker 1: he was able to talk about the way that pornography
Speaker 1: has changed, and I was like, I've been watching like
Speaker 1: stuff like cat House and real Sex since I was
Speaker 1: a kid and learning about porn and sex, and I
Speaker 1: think I always wanted to work in this field, like
Speaker 1: I'm not confident enough or don't really feel like I'm
Speaker 1: the person that wants to perform. Like I told you
Speaker 1: I did the strip club episode of Sophia. Even when
Speaker 1: I was up there, I didn't like it. But in
Speaker 1: this world of it, oh, I love it. Like not
Speaker 1: even as a like I would say, like you deep
Speaker 1: do you think when I think about in terms of
Speaker 1: like how in the lifestyle we are, I think you're
Speaker 1: deeper in it because you participate and ship like that.
Speaker 1: And I don't, right, And I'm not saying that some
Speaker 1: shady ship that genuinely like, I feel like you're deeper
Speaker 1: in the lifestyle of working or being a sexpert because
Speaker 1: you actually go to sex clubs and do ship like that,
Speaker 1: whereas I'm just more interested but knowing, Like the reason
Speaker 1: I was excited to do that episode was because of
Speaker 1: what I've been looking at since I was a kid.
Speaker 1: Wasn't I only know the name of you kind of
Speaker 1: agree with him? Then you agree that that even groomed. Yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: I think that It's not like I was groomed and
Speaker 1: I was reading Zane books in fifth grade. I was
Speaker 1: watching Talk Sex with s Joe Hanson. I was watching
Speaker 1: Oh my God, what was that show called Her Life
Speaker 1: Is Different? I don't think I was. I think I
Speaker 1: was made. Were just interested the even the life choices
Speaker 1: I was making at sixteen with wanting to like explore
Speaker 1: with women, but like and even whether it be like
Speaker 1: popping an ecstasy pill like like that, there's not in
Speaker 1: a lot of sixteen year olds. I would that my
Speaker 1: mom would kill me if she knew. That was like
Speaker 1: where my head was at. But in terms of that guy,
Speaker 1: I feel like she may have been groomed because she
Speaker 1: was famous so early. I don't think we were groomed.
Speaker 1: My mom wasn't trying to raise me to be a
Speaker 1: whole happened on act But okay, yeah, what do you
Speaker 1: think um, I agree. Like, even thinking about how we
Speaker 1: ended up being hosts of a sex pod, I think
Speaker 1: a lot of that did have to do with the
Speaker 1: curiosity that came early from reading. I mean, no, no,
Speaker 1: just man, do you think about it for a second.
Speaker 1: We've been knowing each other since we were fifteen years
Speaker 1: old and we're thirty one in the sex podcast. That's
Speaker 1: fucking nuts, fucking wild. I mean, but it's sixteen. You
Speaker 1: had sex in front of me, So actually, like, god,
Speaker 1: you did. What do you want me to do? You
Speaker 1: want me to take away your past? It can't happen.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry I was there. It's bleeding into my fucking brain.
Speaker 1: Your fault. I literally actually just talked about this too.
Speaker 1: Which first off, we were sixteen in Miami for Memorial
Speaker 1: Day weekend. You met a nigga girl from Sucking at
Speaker 1: the club when we watched shop Boys performed party together.
Speaker 1: When y'all see the podcast, I'm just saying you did
Speaker 1: because you because And now we have a sex SPoD
Speaker 1: where you talk about having sex, and it's like, bitch,
Speaker 1: I saw you back in the day. I wasn't who
Speaker 1: I am today. I will say that, Okay, I would
Speaker 1: hope not you said inside. I didn't see you. I
Speaker 1: don't know how to wrap that's what I heard. I mean,
Speaker 1: I probably just at that all, but I don't remember.
Speaker 1: Now you bro, you were sucking dick at sixteen. No,
Speaker 1: I don't remember. Second dick in front of you? Are
Speaker 1: you just walked in front of me? You literally sucked
Speaker 1: on the bed and then I sat on the end
Speaker 1: of the bed facing the TV and so that I
Speaker 1: just don't look. Yeah, I didn't. Why Why were you
Speaker 1: in the room. Why couldn't you leave because he was
Speaker 1: a stranger. I think you wanted me to stay and
Speaker 1: felt safe for I don't remember, bitch, you literally just
Speaker 1: met this man in the club and we was in
Speaker 1: his room. Mitch, I wasn't gonna leave. You. Look at
Speaker 1: this on the safety first. If I could talk back
Speaker 1: to I would have killed If my daughter told me
Speaker 1: she went to the fucking club with her friend Memorial
Speaker 1: Day we came fox in a hotel room, I would
Speaker 1: be going crazy. Don't do what I do not follow
Speaker 1: This one is h horrible, absolutely absolutely so. When I
Speaker 1: read that, I was like, damn, but no, I do
Speaker 1: believe you can't be grooming. And you know what's crazy
Speaker 1: about that I think that that's what so many people's
Speaker 1: problem is with seeing little girls like with the crop
Speaker 1: tops and the tide shirts and the short shorts. And
Speaker 1: maybe it's the little store um men, Brandy Melvin whatever
Speaker 1: that was, Brandy Melville. They sell little teeny tiny horror clothes.
Speaker 1: I don't like the kids, but that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I will say I don't think Euphoria inspired horrors because
Speaker 1: I think it showed a great to be an inspired
Speaker 1: fucking drug addicts. I don't think it inspired drugs at all.
Speaker 1: I think literally every drug use took a downturn, like yeah,
Speaker 1: but they were having fun first. I think some people
Speaker 1: will accept a HA for low loo. I'm just saying.
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, well, that's you, all right, Uh, let's
Speaker 1: get into our hor derb um. If you have a
Speaker 1: sex tip, please share. I found this one though, and
Speaker 1: it's called eyes open wide. So for this one, trying
Speaker 1: not to switch off the light tonight, as you will
Speaker 1: be turned down by what you stop, absolutely not, are
Speaker 1: you kidding me? You gotta have the light song no,
Speaker 1: not off, but bitch, no turn on the light no,
Speaker 1: and like can do a candle, bitch, candle bitch, not
Speaker 1: the TV like, not the TV like, turn on the
Speaker 1: whole lights. So you say, you know you don't be
Speaker 1: like bro, this is why you be liking the energies.
Speaker 1: I'd be like in finance because I want to see him.
Speaker 1: I want to see you when I fuck you, because
Speaker 1: you find That's why I only like fine niggas. If
Speaker 1: you want to suck the lights off, ugly nigga with
Speaker 1: a big dick, I'm gonna tell you something right now.
Speaker 1: Can you not let me finish the sex? You must
Speaker 1: have confidence of Beyonce? First off, from the back. So
Speaker 1: ain't nobody seeing my stomach, bitch. It's facing the bed.
Speaker 1: The bad the only ones to see my stomach. He
Speaker 1: see my little time to waste my big old lads, bitch.
Speaker 1: That's all he says is I'm thinking because it's given
Speaker 1: from the back, and I don't ride, and if I
Speaker 1: do ride, it's from the bake everything from the back,
Speaker 1: and if it's missionary nigga, he covering my stomach way here.
Speaker 1: You don't get on time at all, bitch. No, now
Speaker 1: when you gotta ask like this, baby, now, let me
Speaker 1: finish and let me tell these people want to do Okay,
Speaker 1: don't don't be self caustious. It's literally the next fucking sentence,
Speaker 1: as both men and women are stimulated by erotic visuals.
Speaker 1: According to an Archives of a Sexual behavior study, try
Speaker 1: keeping the lights on and here's the other one. Your
Speaker 1: eyes open, because I know a lot of times like
Speaker 1: women like to close their eyes, men too. Eyes open.
Speaker 1: This also aids communication, as you can see what's pleasing
Speaker 1: your partner. Making love in front of mirrors or using
Speaker 1: video cameras is also a variation of the same theme,
Speaker 1: So see bitch you right there. The effort pays off
Speaker 1: once you begin to appreciate for play as an integral
Speaker 1: part of sexual satisfaction, and the stronger marriage that comes
Speaker 1: with it will always be just one short step away.
Speaker 1: So turn on the lights. I'm okay, and the Galaxy lights.
Speaker 1: Bitch shout out to all of y'all. At this point,
Speaker 1: I need to make my own I should have bought
Speaker 1: stock in Galaxy Lights because all you bitches got him
Speaker 1: now and you and you're welcome. No I gotta look
Speaker 1: through ali babo. I would really have to like ship
Speaker 1: from China and ship no um. So the reason I
Speaker 1: like candle light and ship it is because I feel
Speaker 1: like it gives a sex here shadow I like, now,
Speaker 1: depending on your view I got in New York, it's
Speaker 1: given nothing in l A League. Obviously, it lights Hollywood
Speaker 1: signed sucking building is and that ship is. I don't know.
Speaker 1: Even as I get all the New York shining, I
Speaker 1: need to light on. I'm gonna turn the light on.
Speaker 1: I want to see you in your that's kind of life,
Speaker 1: you know what. I think. That's why I like morning
Speaker 1: sex a little bit too, because like even when he
Speaker 1: gets up, Like I got a whole video in my phone,
Speaker 1: Oh my God of my ex standing up, and I
Speaker 1: was like, god, damn you fine, Like I was just
Speaker 1: snapping pictures of him standing up because he just looks
Speaker 1: so good in the Okay, not on some creepshit. Totally consensual.
Speaker 1: I have so many pictures and niggas standing up. Okay, yeah, no,
Speaker 1: this was consensual. I was like, oh, was standing like that?
Speaker 1: And then I sent it to my mama. I was like, damn,
Speaker 1: I'm looking at my nick. What I did is that weird.
Speaker 1: I sent the picture of my nigga right after we
Speaker 1: fucked to my mom and I was like, damn, look
Speaker 1: at him. He was covering his dick. Look at that.
Speaker 1: Oh you sent your mom that? Yeah, I said, mom,
Speaker 1: look at my nigga. What's I can't do that? He
Speaker 1: was covering his dick. His dick wasn't showing. He was
Speaker 1: holding his dick. I could see the dick hair is
Speaker 1: just now, it's okay. It wasn't the dick though, yo.
Speaker 1: And what there was no you picture? No, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: my mom a picture of you send up your mom
Speaker 1: a picture, yo, man holding his dick, but the dick
Speaker 1: was covered holding it. It's giving me. It's actually giving art.
Speaker 1: Mind you all said my mama a picture of us
Speaker 1: at the New Beach together. What's the difference? Like this
Speaker 1: was him at the New Beach to look that's just
Speaker 1: the chest I saw. Look there good? Did you mean anyways,
Speaker 1: Mandy is a wild? Why is that wild? It is
Speaker 1: a human being, like my mama ain't seen dick before.
Speaker 1: What is the problem. There was no dick and you
Speaker 1: literally just said he was covering his dick something he
Speaker 1: was holding it. Show me over time, because if I saw,
Speaker 1: she doesn't want to see that. Fine, nigger's fine. I
Speaker 1: feel like I saw the top is dick, but it
Speaker 1: wasn't the Dick speaking up, Dick, let's get too. Did
Speaker 1: I get the dick hairs because I knew it? Possibly,
Speaker 1: But dick hairs can go hot. Sometimes dick hairs can
Speaker 1: sometimes reach the belly. But I saw this literally. Sometimes
Speaker 1: you can see dick hairs from a nigga wearing basketball shorts.
Speaker 1: Bro maybe having a little happy trols on today. Belly
Speaker 1: button dem as dick hairs. If it's lead down to
Speaker 1: the dick is dick hairs. So you ain't never seen
Speaker 1: a happy trail. You saw Dick here. Probably stomach was
Speaker 1: connected to your pubs and Dick here. What's the problem?
Speaker 1: He was covering his dick broke come you were being
Speaker 1: really judging? What does she reply? That's what I want
Speaker 1: to know? She it was a lot. She was like, damn,
Speaker 1: but damn, I can't stay damn because that's your nigga.
Speaker 1: But it was it was giving what he looked good?
Speaker 1: What's the problem is not like I want to I
Speaker 1: wanted to share him. I was just like, mom, look
Speaker 1: how fine my nigg is. Anyways, what's this reminds me
Speaker 1: of that? What's the problem on TLC where she was like, no,
Speaker 1: you're doing a lot because they don't know. They don't
Speaker 1: put together. My mama recorded me. I showed my mama
Speaker 1: sex tape. I didn't show my mom's I didn't show
Speaker 1: my MoMA video me sucking dick. But I did just say,
Speaker 1: look how fine he looked in the light. I like
Speaker 1: the light, that's all. I just want to see people
Speaker 1: just because you want to be in the dog bit
Speaker 1: her ni ugly. I don't want to see none of
Speaker 1: him niggas that she know. You can't even brag about
Speaker 1: them ugly news what I was bragging about my fine
Speaker 1: fun what I would Yeah, her men be ugly, so
Speaker 1: there's nothing to show off. I think she likes their personalities.
Speaker 1: What well. Anyways, speaking of penis, I want to get
Speaker 1: into a hope fact you guys may find quite interesting.
Speaker 1: I want to explain why the penis is mushroom shape.
Speaker 1: Oh wow, you ready for some scientifical ship. So way
Speaker 1: back when experts believe the penis evolved to become a
Speaker 1: quote unquote tool with a rich to remove the seamen
Speaker 1: of love rivals. The theory behind this is quite simple. Basically,
Speaker 1: men wanted to ensure they are the one who carries
Speaker 1: on their lineage and wins out in pregnancy, survival of
Speaker 1: the fitness and all, and we kind of talked about
Speaker 1: this with how sharks actually being. Professor Gordon Gallup from
Speaker 1: the State University of New York led a team of
Speaker 1: scientists to investigate the anatomy of the human this and
Speaker 1: it's used back in two thousand three, and they found
Speaker 1: the thrust of the penis and the ridge that separates
Speaker 1: the head from the shaft could actually help clear a
Speaker 1: woman's vagina and reproductive system of previous lover's spermus, meaning
Speaker 1: a new partner would have removed meaning a new partner
Speaker 1: would remove any competition and replace his own semen. They
Speaker 1: tested their theory in the lab with latex penises and
Speaker 1: model vaginas. It's given that time that guy wanted to
Speaker 1: eat the come out of me. That's that is not
Speaker 1: and that's gross. It is gross. It's really gross. But
Speaker 1: when he said that best sounds just like this is
Speaker 1: why y'all need to be using condoms anyways. So anyways,
Speaker 1: a longer penis would not only have been an advantage
Speaker 1: for leaving semen in a less accessible part of the vagina,
Speaker 1: but by feeling and expanding the vagina, it also would
Speaker 1: aid in at the displacement of semen left by other
Speaker 1: males as a means of maximizing the likelihood of fraternity,
Speaker 1: and then it just says what other penis shapes are there? Um,
Speaker 1: And to be frank, there are actually many different kinds
Speaker 1: of penis shapes. However, fellas, if you're listening and you
Speaker 1: have that mushroom head that we love so much, just know,
Speaker 1: if you're sucking on ho that let's everybody not inside
Speaker 1: of her. If you have a bigger mushroom, that means
Speaker 1: your seamen may be able to beat all the lived seems.
Speaker 1: That's this is what the science said. Okay, that's it.
Speaker 1: And also there's a whole another article that I'll probably
Speaker 1: talk to you all about, but basically there's a reason
Speaker 1: the penis mushroom shape have left to the evolution of
Speaker 1: cheating as well. So just know there's a lot of
Speaker 1: research if you want to look up why men have
Speaker 1: mushroom shaped penises. And also, ladies, if your man has
Speaker 1: a mushroom shape penis, it may mean he's cheating on you. Literally,
Speaker 1: that's what the scientists said. And so since y'all motherfucking
Speaker 1: bitches believe in science so much, this is what they say.
Speaker 1: I love the mushroom talkers always the sound. I like
Speaker 1: it because I just like, like, I don't really like
Speaker 1: going all the way down the shaft. I just really
Speaker 1: like the mushroom ship, so I like, then I'll go
Speaker 1: down with my tone. Then I go to the balls
Speaker 1: and ask. You know, I just really like going to
Speaker 1: the balls and ask. But I like to be You
Speaker 1: think you have a butt fetish because you like wait,
Speaker 1: but I do. But it's weird because it's not like
Speaker 1: I like boy but but for real, for real, for real,
Speaker 1: I like it's like I like the boot all. I
Speaker 1: really just like the doll. I like to play with
Speaker 1: it and I like to just I think I just
Speaker 1: like penetrate it, which is crazy because now I'm in
Speaker 1: a skip real quick, we're gonna come back to the
Speaker 1: horrible decision because we're talking about it. But the whole
Speaker 1: mail is actually from a man and he actually just
Speaker 1: asked the Savings that question is you? He said, I'm
Speaker 1: a black man with a big booty, and I was wondering,
Speaker 1: do many women like a man to have a big butt?
Speaker 1: Signed jay Um and what's crazy? That's why I answered
Speaker 1: that way too ironic well, does anyone ever grabbed your butt?
Speaker 1: Do you think I like like, I like to grab it.
Speaker 1: But I don't need a man to have like a
Speaker 1: plump ass. I don't need a cut an arch. I
Speaker 1: don't like you to be saucy. I mean, I'm fine
Speaker 1: if you have a flat ass. I just like ass like,
Speaker 1: I don't care about the shape of a man as
Speaker 1: I only slap ask for fun me too. It's like
Speaker 1: a good game sport. But I all seems to be
Speaker 1: a basketball player, So it's like, maybe maybe that's why
Speaker 1: I grew up slapping ass? Like what many jobs? I
Speaker 1: was a basketball player. I played volleyball. I was gonna
Speaker 1: do this. I did tell how she used to be
Speaker 1: in the mission was it was a missionary. I did
Speaker 1: also play volleyball, basketball, shot put. I was on the
Speaker 1: step team. I played the violin. I worked at quiz nos.
Speaker 1: I was a bartender. I was an accountant. I had
Speaker 1: many lives. Anything else, wheezy, do you think you missed one? Oh?
Speaker 1: I missed the ton because I know which is when
Speaker 1: you missed. I worked at a call center. Wait what else? Wait,
Speaker 1: my dick sucking ass? What you was all? That was
Speaker 1: a job that isn't I mean slightly that was a
Speaker 1: job I account slightly. It was a job for leader sports.
Speaker 1: I was a cheerleader step team. He was not no
Speaker 1: cheerleader or step I do not believe it was Chain
Speaker 1: Lakes Middle school home middle school for cheerleader. Wait, what
Speaker 1: what do you do in high school? Team? I was
Speaker 1: step team? Me too. I still don't believe that. How
Speaker 1: could you not leader step team? You? First of all, bitch,
Speaker 1: because you was in white areas. I didn't know them
Speaker 1: schools even had step teams. You are bugging the funk out.
Speaker 1: I'm serious, Like, I'm just saying you went to more
Speaker 1: white schools they were was at them schools? Man? I
Speaker 1: didn't know saying the lake, I didn't know there was
Speaker 1: enough schools Johnson there was enough because they have a
Speaker 1: step team. My bad. Let's see a step debate. And
Speaker 1: then where was the other ship? And that was it?
Speaker 1: And I was in chess club? And I was in
Speaker 1: f c A and I was in f f A. Hm,
Speaker 1: I was your Farmers of America? Who was the thing
Speaker 1: that got me out early? I was in that that
Speaker 1: know that I was just a part of that was
Speaker 1: all there credit, That's what I well, know I had
Speaker 1: a job. I gotta leave school at twelve to go
Speaker 1: work ship. I didn't have a job. I had two jobs,
Speaker 1: my junior answering you this is a pizza place? Oh no,
Speaker 1: taking pictures. Then I was a sugar baby. Then I
Speaker 1: worked at that strip club for one day. Then I
Speaker 1: worked at white House black Market for a long time?
Speaker 1: What did you do at a strip club? For one?
Speaker 1: That was supposed to be a waitress at Rachel's and
Speaker 1: a popka and it wouldn't work out because I didn't
Speaker 1: like it. Why because they just were making me feel uncomfortable.
Speaker 1: They were or you just felt good the staff really
Speaker 1: like and that's why I named them like they just
Speaker 1: made me feel super weird, like I don't know, they
Speaker 1: were like doing some weird like the way they were
Speaker 1: talking to me, it was kind of pervy, like they
Speaker 1: just didn't treat it like a business. Okay, didn't like that?
Speaker 1: Then what else? Why has black market? That was a
Speaker 1: while because that's when I had the ankle bracelet and
Speaker 1: I had a hide that was terrible. And then I
Speaker 1: worked for company for damn York shoot seven years. I
Speaker 1: moved me to New York and then um, I was
Speaker 1: a hole at that time as well, Umo, your whole life. Yeah,
Speaker 1: really much, very all of it. Yeah, absolutely. Anyway, the
Speaker 1: horrible decision kind of adds on to what we were
Speaker 1: talking about in the beginning of this episode. So I
Speaker 1: wanted to really have the conversation with now that we
Speaker 1: are both single and out of a relationship, have been
Speaker 1: through our whole phase. I still think you in it,
Speaker 1: but nonetheless, um, I wanted to know if you kind
Speaker 1: of had a clear idea of what you want out
Speaker 1: of a partner and who you show up as, like
Speaker 1: what you bring to the table, what you want a
Speaker 1: man to bring to the table, and if you go
Speaker 1: on a first date, what are you looking for? Like,
Speaker 1: do you know? Because I mean, you've been talking about
Speaker 1: the one nigga you met from dream Bille. You talked
Speaker 1: about like about that was the hood nigga. You've been
Speaker 1: talking about scientists nigga. You want all these niggas, but
Speaker 1: they're also different. So do you even really know what
Speaker 1: you want? I don't think. Um. Let's start with the first.
Speaker 1: Lambo is definitely back with his baby. Mama had a
Speaker 1: problem for me. We do that was coming bitch. You
Speaker 1: were talking about he just moving to Atlanta to be closer. No,
Speaker 1: but they are. They are together, but still trying to
Speaker 1: get this pussy though that naked fucking because his baby
Speaker 1: mama listen to the fucking podcast. Bro, you trifling. I
Speaker 1: didn't you trifling? Oh you trifling bitch. Whatever, we're still
Speaker 1: giving the pussy now, Okay, this is a lot of
Speaker 1: interested Okay, over it all right, But like if he
Speaker 1: wants to take me hones stuff, so he gotta feed
Speaker 1: you first and then you'll give him a copy. We
Speaker 1: just have a lot of fun together, So you can
Speaker 1: just take me to the dealers table and I'll give
Speaker 1: you this pussy drug dealers. Just what you just said, Well,
Speaker 1: if you took me out first, bro, to be honest
Speaker 1: with you, I'll be buying tables now. So it really
Speaker 1: don't FaZe me. I mean take me out like making
Speaker 1: it a thing. I like when men like give me
Speaker 1: a nice plan night. You know what I'm saying, it's
Speaker 1: called dating either in the date too, if he would
Speaker 1: this baby mama, it's not called dating. I think I
Speaker 1: sto with my friends on sid Alright, alright, so I'm
Speaker 1: saying all of these things. I don't really know where
Speaker 1: it's going. Right, okay. But what I know is they're
Speaker 1: giving me enough to keep me interested and locked in, okay,
Speaker 1: And I feel like there are people that could be
Speaker 1: around which is keeping them around with Lambeau. I do
Speaker 1: think I maybe even said, like I kind of even
Speaker 1: talked about in the beginning, like you would have an
Speaker 1: expiration date, and I knew it it was fun, right.
Speaker 1: These other gentlemen not so much. I do find them
Speaker 1: to be someone that could be you know, oh boy
Speaker 1: from material or that are lifelong friendships. I don't know,
Speaker 1: do you have those conversations like like, first off, because
Speaker 1: you just got out of a relationship though in your
Speaker 1: thirty one and you also just talked about wanting marriage,
Speaker 1: wanting kids? Are you dating with intent? Are you dating
Speaker 1: like on a date? Like? Do you all have conversations
Speaker 1: about what you want out of partnership? So? Um? I
Speaker 1: think what the scientists do. We definitely talked about that
Speaker 1: a lot. Like know, we talked about like a lot
Speaker 1: of if this happened, dada da da da um. But
Speaker 1: he's just if he pro choice too. I'm just asking
Speaker 1: in case there's another plan B story. Yeah, okay, we
Speaker 1: all agree on that, all right, that's good. Good to
Speaker 1: hunt and now one plan of story and it was
Speaker 1: a new year, Like anyway, what a way to start
Speaker 1: out the year. But for real coming in with the
Speaker 1: bank um literally coming uh no. But he just is
Speaker 1: that type of person, whereas like the other person I'm
Speaker 1: talking to is just a little more slow and like,
Speaker 1: but if they ask you what do you want? Do
Speaker 1: you have an answer to that? Like, because all of
Speaker 1: them are so different, Yeah, I want a boyfriend. I
Speaker 1: just don't know if it's you, Okay, would you would
Speaker 1: you have a relationship? Like again, now that we just
Speaker 1: got out of both of us just got our relationships,
Speaker 1: what did you like about the last relationship? Like? What
Speaker 1: from your last relationship would you want to keep? In
Speaker 1: a eventu way, when I say I want a boyfriend,
Speaker 1: I know some people may think, like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: but you just got out of a relationship. I still
Speaker 1: am not the girl that's like, And I think it's
Speaker 1: just like I'm obviously like dumb emo, Like I've never
Speaker 1: ever not wanted a boyfriend. I'm a relationship girl, do
Speaker 1: I want to? Like? The only thing I'm changing this
Speaker 1: time around is I'm having less pressure and expectations and
Speaker 1: I'm just like letting things flow, but um, well not you.
Speaker 1: And also last year I had so much trouble with
Speaker 1: obey and depression that I kind of felt like I
Speaker 1: almost was preparing for this and I didn't even know
Speaker 1: it because things were just feeling off. Um, and my
Speaker 1: attraction to other people in a more intense way kind
Speaker 1: of was a hint. I don't saying, like even b
Speaker 1: d D, Like that's what That's what I was gonna
Speaker 1: ask too, because b d D was someone that you
Speaker 1: really had emotions for, but he wasn't open to the lifestyle.
Speaker 1: So because you in Old Bay were somewhat in the
Speaker 1: lifestyle with an open relationship, is that something you would
Speaker 1: do again seeing how it ended? Or like would you
Speaker 1: want to go back to mere? Like all I need
Speaker 1: is to be able to suck bitches with the next ni,
Speaker 1: which is what I was doing. The reason I think
Speaker 1: it was easier to date to like date two dudes
Speaker 1: was because I was truly bi coastal it like you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, like, and I was feeling really
Speaker 1: lonely and I didn't get it. Now I've got more friends, Like,
Speaker 1: would you do another throuble situation? Like based on how
Speaker 1: that no, you wouldn't do that again. I was in
Speaker 1: love with her. I'm never going to be in love
Speaker 1: with another woman like that. You can't say that. I'm
Speaker 1: probably not. You said you believe like you you told
Speaker 1: me you've had more than one soul mate already. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but like the feelings that I felt for her were very,
Speaker 1: very intense and different, and like I could just say,
Speaker 1: like even when I'm walking down the street now, I
Speaker 1: look at bitches for their body and like their attractivity
Speaker 1: more than I do thinking what they'd be. Like when
Speaker 1: I'm attracted to girls and I'm having conversations, it's never
Speaker 1: more than that. Like she was a one off of
Speaker 1: a partner. I don't see that happening again, but if
Speaker 1: it did, I would be down for a trouble. But
Speaker 1: I'm also very now I realized possessive. I was possessive
Speaker 1: of both of them. You just noticed that, like like
Speaker 1: just now, like I want you to have like this year.
Speaker 1: When I say you've been listening to our show the
Speaker 1: last six years that we've had, you're just really feeling
Speaker 1: change a lot. And it's also a very difficult thing
Speaker 1: to say, because I'm a possessive person that also doesn't
Speaker 1: care if you fux someone else. Okay, okay, hear me,
Speaker 1: that's wild to everyone listening. All I could say is
Speaker 1: I don't think that fucking other people necessarily means that
Speaker 1: you don't love me. When I say possession, like, I
Speaker 1: want your heart, I want all of that, right, And
Speaker 1: so I say that to say in the Throuble, I
Speaker 1: kind of think I would struggle the second time around
Speaker 1: if I did it in who I felt like that for? Right?
Speaker 1: And then do you truly believe that anyone like like
Speaker 1: in Throubles, you do like one person more than the other,
Speaker 1: Like because you've dated, like you've had the two boyfriends,
Speaker 1: you've had the girlfriend and the boyfriend. Have you ever
Speaker 1: felt like you truly had the same amount of love
Speaker 1: for both people or together? Really? But when you were
Speaker 1: a part, you knew you liked one more than I
Speaker 1: was just leaning on one more than the other, Like
Speaker 1: I would call one of them more than the other,
Speaker 1: I would like, maybe fantasize about one more than the other,
Speaker 1: But when we're together it was so even. What about
Speaker 1: what the guys that I'm dating right now? No? Yeah, no,
Speaker 1: Like when you had like old Bay and b D D.
Speaker 1: They both drove out a love for you, did you
Speaker 1: love one more than the other? They felt very like
Speaker 1: this would be my person forever and b d D
Speaker 1: felt new and exciting um, but also was showing me
Speaker 1: things that really helped me realize old Bay wasn't going
Speaker 1: to be the person for me. I made um like, honestly,
Speaker 1: they was a liar, you know, And I had talked
Speaker 1: about himlying we were together, and I would laugh about it,
Speaker 1: but like it was a very like ridiculous lie. You
Speaker 1: didn't you know what I'm saying. So knowing that it
Speaker 1: could be easy to tell the truth and I wouldn't
Speaker 1: have to drag it out of them, and knowing how
Speaker 1: much it was weighing on me, and it seems like,
Speaker 1: you know, I think people may listen to our show
Speaker 1: and think, oh, well, y'all let these things go out
Speaker 1: there and do these things, so you you should expect
Speaker 1: these things to happen. I feel like people believe that,
Speaker 1: I really do. I think they think when you're a
Speaker 1: liberal woman that's letting your man fucking have a good
Speaker 1: time in their life and like sexually explore that you
Speaker 1: should not deserve being cheated on. If they even understand
Speaker 1: what that means, but you should expect it and I don't.
Speaker 1: I still felt feel to this day. I feel like
Speaker 1: I was such a great girlfriend and gave you the
Speaker 1: space and gave you the openness and warmness to be
Speaker 1: honest with me, and you just never chose to do it.
Speaker 1: I don't think that I deserved lies. I don't think
Speaker 1: I made that confusing at all. So I'm tired of
Speaker 1: that narrative. And I believed until BBDD that it was
Speaker 1: just something I had to deal with, damn anything, Like
Speaker 1: you just thought you had to deal with being with
Speaker 1: a person that was a liar. I just was like,
Speaker 1: he just doesn't get how this open relationship works. He
Speaker 1: just doesn't know how to tell the truth with it.
Speaker 1: But I thought because he's doing it the right way, right,
Speaker 1: he wasn't falling for girls, he never put them over me,
Speaker 1: still made time for me over like family, ship, putting
Speaker 1: me first, doing everything he needed to do. He's just lying.
Speaker 1: That lie is so small when I allow him to
Speaker 1: do this. But he literally couldn't tell me when he
Speaker 1: was gonna do ship because of whatever was in his head.
Speaker 1: And that, to me was the baseline of why I
Speaker 1: made it open. Honestly, it's funny because I think my
Speaker 1: problems why I don't want to do that, And see,
Speaker 1: my problem wasn't even honesty or lies as much as
Speaker 1: it was to me. I think insecurity. And I know
Speaker 1: that we talked about like how are you able to
Speaker 1: deal with multiple people without jealousy? And I mean we
Speaker 1: talked about jealousy just being a natural thing. But I
Speaker 1: thought that mix was just so secure and I was
Speaker 1: just like, oh my god, this is perfect. I'm dealing
Speaker 1: with such a confident person and there's no issues. And
Speaker 1: the longer we were together, the more people we brought in.
Speaker 1: Even in terms of friendships, he started getting jealous of
Speaker 1: my friends. Like he literally text me and was like, yeah,
Speaker 1: like you know, I just started feeling like you were
Speaker 1: distancing yourself more and more, like how often you were
Speaker 1: with Assante And I was like my gay ass homeboy.
Speaker 1: But it was like, I don't I'm not seeking other
Speaker 1: men from you, but like NIGGI you don't like reality TV.
Speaker 1: I really like reality TV, and you're over my house
Speaker 1: so much that we don't watch it. I enjoy that
Speaker 1: with my friend Assante. It's not like an intimate thing.
Speaker 1: And I think maybe because he knows I'm just open
Speaker 1: to everybody. I think he viewed everyone, including my friends,
Speaker 1: as lovers even when there wasn't sex, And I think
Speaker 1: that that's where it was, Just like I think it's
Speaker 1: not lovers. I think it's more of like something they
Speaker 1: can't provide you like this. Yeah, but we all know
Speaker 1: that no one is perfect, no, I know, but I know,
Speaker 1: like I think there are people that want you to
Speaker 1: experience everything with them. You know what's interesting. I think
Speaker 1: about Alex a lot in this scenario. When I get
Speaker 1: a man understood who then it gets to me if
Speaker 1: I fell asleep in a at his house, he never
Speaker 1: thought I was working that nig like we we have
Speaker 1: both been very fortunate, Alex and I both to date
Speaker 1: people that understand our friendship. I've been thinking about, like
Speaker 1: how to funk would someone be jealous of a sante
Speaker 1: like And it took a long time, A long time
Speaker 1: for him to really believe Dustin wasn't on my team,
Speaker 1: Like he met Dustin Dustin party and came out with
Speaker 1: us so much. He really thought, in mind you, every
Speaker 1: time I post Dustin on my Instagram, everybody think me
Speaker 1: and Dustin fucking and I'm like, yes, he's a beautiful man,
Speaker 1: but god damn no, like that's not the same team.
Speaker 1: So like that's what I'm saying, Like that's only because
Speaker 1: he knows you're fucking you're the person you're with. I'm
Speaker 1: and y'all, I really believe this. The person you're with
Speaker 1: knows who you'd fuck, who you'd want to fuck. I
Speaker 1: would watch Old Bay with Niggas with Drezs and he
Speaker 1: was looking at me. He'd be like, Oh, it's so crazy,
Speaker 1: because yeah, it was so funny. He never thought anything
Speaker 1: like we would be in bed when when Joe would
Speaker 1: like be face time and me when like years ago
Speaker 1: when I was on uh the network. He never felt
Speaker 1: away about me being around Joe. He like dropped me
Speaker 1: off at Joe's house for his birthday party. Never anything
Speaker 1: about him. But I'm like, what you worried about my
Speaker 1: gas homeboys? Like he knows that's the nigger you'd be
Speaker 1: attracted to. Yeah, yeah, yeah, Dustin's fine, but like calm down,
Speaker 1: like that's my fucking friend. But it's it's just weird.
Speaker 1: So to me, it's the jealousy that I think going
Speaker 1: into another either swinging or open relationship. We would have
Speaker 1: to be very very clear on what things are you
Speaker 1: insecure about what things would bother you because also outside
Speaker 1: of maybe other lovers, my friends are priority. My friends
Speaker 1: come first. I'm not one of them bitches that get
Speaker 1: in a relationship and then just stop working with my friends.
Speaker 1: Not that way. Like my friends are. I make time
Speaker 1: in my life for them. You have to be accepting
Speaker 1: of that. So I think that that's a problem, like
Speaker 1: knowing that with like it's it's the same as if
Speaker 1: we date somebody with kids, right, kids come first, maybe
Speaker 1: family mom comes first. We're always gonna be three or
Speaker 1: four in in some man's life. A lot of men
Speaker 1: expect to come in and be number one because a
Speaker 1: lot of women make them that you are probably four
Speaker 1: or five in my life. You're after my work, You're
Speaker 1: after my friends, family after work, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: You're after working, you're after my friends. So a lot
Speaker 1: of men, probably niggas after my friends, mainly because I'm
Speaker 1: going and trickle my home girl. You gotta meet my
Speaker 1: home girl, because I think people do put a little
Speaker 1: too money for one, if you're spending so much time
Speaker 1: with your friends that your person can't find time to
Speaker 1: be with you alone, or you're constantly inviting friends out,
Speaker 1: and that was me. I. He literally started saying that.
Speaker 1: He was like, I just feel like every time we
Speaker 1: go out, someone pops up or I'm pulling up on
Speaker 1: you with your friends. And that was like, okay, you said,
Speaker 1: what did I like about my last relationship? Old Bay?
Speaker 1: And I were very good at that. You would literally
Speaker 1: call me and be like, Yo, we're going to dinner tonight.
Speaker 1: I was thinking we can go to the box or
Speaker 1: we'll go a party, like are we inviting niggas or not?
Speaker 1: Like is it me? And you like? He was very good,
Speaker 1: and then I started doing that later once I issue,
Speaker 1: I was like, we can proba be friends, like bro,
Speaker 1: I don't well, which is now a problem when a bitch.
Speaker 1: When when a bitch broke up with a nigga to
Speaker 1: let him know, all my friends are cut off too.
Speaker 1: I know you hung out with us and you thought
Speaker 1: they was your friends, but they was and they my
Speaker 1: friends and my friends they're not your gonna tell you
Speaker 1: right now, don't bring your niggas around me if you like,
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna be bored. My niggas not boring though,
Speaker 1: like all of my friend I'm saying, would ask yo,
Speaker 1: bring that nigga, bring that nigga around. I'm bored because
Speaker 1: I Bro, I don't engage to say I want to
Speaker 1: be alone. BRO. Like to be honest with you. I
Speaker 1: work a lot, and I live in two different places.
Speaker 1: I work a lot. It's too much going on, Like
Speaker 1: I want to fucking connect. I like that. Should we
Speaker 1: do that in the house. When I'm outside, we're drinking,
Speaker 1: We doing picklebacks everybody, anybody, let's do drugs? Oh, I'm
Speaker 1: sorry all the friends was about it to the sex club.
Speaker 1: I feel like all of my friends have now seen
Speaker 1: me fuck, including just a lot of people. I've invited
Speaker 1: a lot of people like that. I've been like, yea,
Speaker 1: I would have had a lot of layup time with niggas.
Speaker 1: I really don't. I'll be dating busy niggas too, so
Speaker 1: when we have time to go out together. That's why
Speaker 1: I was perfect. My niggle Mike was retired. That's I
Speaker 1: think I only need I might need to retirement home niggas.
Speaker 1: I need a nigga with nothing else going on, and
Speaker 1: he could be available with I mean, you have money,
Speaker 1: so trauvel, let's travel, Let's go out to eat like no,
Speaker 1: I that was That's literally what he started telling me.
Speaker 1: He was like, he thinks I needed somebody that was
Speaker 1: doing as much as me, And I was like, absolutely not.
Speaker 1: I don't want to, nigga it we both gotta work
Speaker 1: around our schedule. You might be thinking, like I think
Speaker 1: you'd be surprised if you met someone that was I
Speaker 1: don't know. That ship is a fucking turn on, bro,
Speaker 1: Like I love meeting. I'm busy enough for the two
Speaker 1: of us that I love that, and then it makes
Speaker 1: it all the more special. Well, he did all the
Speaker 1: ship he had to do when I was in middle
Speaker 1: school and high school still, and nigga was he wanted
Speaker 1: to be when you no, no, don't do that. It
Speaker 1: ain't gonna it ain't gonna be that old and it
Speaker 1: ain't ever gonna be white bitch, not never. All right,
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Speaker 1: Backslash Horrible Decisions. This has been yet another episode of
Speaker 1: horrible decisions. Like anyway, let's get into the horrible decision.
Speaker 1: The horrible decision this week is weird sex terms. And
Speaker 1: it's because I'm also trying to figure out a way
Speaker 1: to bring back fucking Kink of the Week or some
Speaker 1: other thing that we can do. But I'm trying to
Speaker 1: I know, well, I ended up coming across an article
Speaker 1: that had weird sex terms, and basically it would be
Speaker 1: terms that when said, you might have no fucking idea
Speaker 1: that it's even related to sex. So some of the
Speaker 1: notable mentions, um would be a pearl necklace. Pearl necklace.
Speaker 1: We had an episode where we talked about that you
Speaker 1: would know that that it even has to do with
Speaker 1: uh sex unless you trouble butter trouble. But I had
Speaker 1: to Urban Dictionary that one trouble burdle is another one
Speaker 1: scat play that's something Golden showers and of course peggy, um.
Speaker 1: But I wanted to get into. I found these other
Speaker 1: four terms that maybe we've talked about, But again these
Speaker 1: are terms that maybe you will hear and you would
Speaker 1: have no idea what the funk they're talking about. So
Speaker 1: one being felching. Felching, you'se spelching in a sentence like
Speaker 1: if you just would would think felching was a regular term,
Speaker 1: what do you think felching would mean? If it didn't
Speaker 1: mean me and my daughter we go up to the
Speaker 1: Hampton's location, we'd love to do a bunch of felching.
Speaker 1: You know, it's just an old Okay, So felching to
Speaker 1: youth sounds like a sport. Cool. Um felching. No, to
Speaker 1: felch is to suck up semen out of an orifice.
Speaker 1: For instance, sorry, guys, selch me that? Um nope. For instance,
Speaker 1: someone may ejaculate inside their partners anus and then suck
Speaker 1: their own semen out of the anus with their mouth.
Speaker 1: Then they may or may not swallow it. So it
Speaker 1: would be mayor give you an option. Yeah, it would
Speaker 1: be basically kind of like what are your cream pies?
Speaker 1: So felching is the act of what a cream pie is?
Speaker 1: Oh wait, no, that is you're coming in So felching
Speaker 1: would be eating the cream pie. That is the I
Speaker 1: did that. So that's the verb. That's what felching means that.
Speaker 1: So eating ejaculante out of an orifice is what felching is.
Speaker 1: Not ejaculate, girl, she said eating exactly. Do you watch
Speaker 1: Curb your Enthusiasm? No, well, we don't watch anything the same.
Speaker 1: Larry David, that's the best show of all time. Larry David.
Speaker 1: Davy Smooth is in his house and he basically found
Speaker 1: come on the sheet. He's like, we need to have
Speaker 1: a talk because there was ejaculate and he goes ejacutely
Speaker 1: it was exactly, and he's like like, come, we'll just
Speaker 1: say come Larry. Oh my goodness was so funny. Another
Speaker 1: term again, I would like for you to use it
Speaker 1: in a sentence without it being a sex term. Docking.
Speaker 1: That's I feel like, that's easy, the dick doc docking
Speaker 1: the boat. We're bullying. We're doing, right, Is it like
Speaker 1: Marny like when you docking in, I don't know, I'm lost? Yeah, right,
Speaker 1: you're super lost. So docking is also a sex term.
Speaker 1: Um Docking is when to uncircumcised eyes people with penises
Speaker 1: get together. Um. So the first pulls his foreskin back
Speaker 1: and holds it while the second stretches. There's open and
Speaker 1: outward as far as possible over the head and shaft
Speaker 1: of the other partner's penis um. This is frequently asked
Speaker 1: if this act is real impossible, and the response is um,
Speaker 1: with enough imagination and determination, most things are. It's like
Speaker 1: a Chinese finger trap, as bitch, but with a dick
Speaker 1: and and foreskin. Um. So yeah, docking. If that is
Speaker 1: ever something that you hear any of your gaze, uh reference,
Speaker 1: that is what they're talking about. I did hear some
Speaker 1: gays say some really funny ship as I was walking
Speaker 1: up on the call I had with you, And I've
Speaker 1: never heard someone say this before, and I just want
Speaker 1: to make it wasn't. As I was walking up to
Speaker 1: my apartment door, I tripped and these two gang niggas
Speaker 1: walking by, and he goes, oh the baby or the
Speaker 1: baby or or what was it they were? They were
Speaker 1: kicking bitch. I'm sorry. I'm watching Cabaret right now, so
Speaker 1: you know where she said double homicide. For Johnson's Cabaret,
Speaker 1: she went into They ended up fighting later on in
Speaker 1: the episode, and she went into the confessional was like