1 00:00:03,760 --> 00:00:08,039 Speaker 1: Losing my mom, sexual abuse, my divorce, so many things. 2 00:00:10,039 --> 00:00:11,879 Speaker 1: I talk about the divorce. I talk about the separation, 3 00:00:12,000 --> 00:00:17,639 Speaker 1: what happened, why it happened. This book is not just 4 00:00:17,720 --> 00:00:21,320 Speaker 1: about talking about others and clarifying things. It's also about 5 00:00:21,880 --> 00:00:29,040 Speaker 1: how I have grown. Writing helps me just I don't know, heal. 6 00:00:29,320 --> 00:00:31,080 Speaker 1: You know, it's a form of therapy. I've said it 7 00:00:31,120 --> 00:00:40,640 Speaker 1: so many times. What up, guys, and welcome to another 8 00:00:40,680 --> 00:00:44,520 Speaker 1: episode of Cheeky's and Chill. I am your host Cheeky's 9 00:00:44,520 --> 00:00:47,279 Speaker 1: and today is a really exciting episode for me. It's 10 00:00:47,320 --> 00:00:49,520 Speaker 1: going to be all about my new book. It's called 11 00:00:49,640 --> 00:00:53,920 Speaker 1: Unstoppable Invenzieblet in Spanish. It's how I found my strength 12 00:00:54,080 --> 00:00:57,200 Speaker 1: through love and loss. We have tons to cover today, 13 00:00:57,200 --> 00:01:05,400 Speaker 1: so without further ado, let's get into Cheeky's and Chill. Alrighty, guys, 14 00:01:05,640 --> 00:01:09,760 Speaker 1: let's talk about Unstoppable. This is actually the second memoir 15 00:01:09,800 --> 00:01:13,399 Speaker 1: I've written. It follows my first book, Forgiveness, which is 16 00:01:13,400 --> 00:01:17,360 Speaker 1: about my journey to forgiveness after suffering sexual abuse at 17 00:01:17,400 --> 00:01:21,720 Speaker 1: the hands of my father. Also, it touches on things 18 00:01:21,760 --> 00:01:24,160 Speaker 1: that happen after my mom's passing, people that I had 19 00:01:24,160 --> 00:01:26,039 Speaker 1: to forgive, I had to forgive myself as well. I 20 00:01:26,080 --> 00:01:30,720 Speaker 1: had to ask for forgiveness. So basically, Unstoppable starts where 21 00:01:30,760 --> 00:01:35,920 Speaker 1: forgiveness ended. And now Unstoppable will be available for purchase 22 00:01:36,040 --> 00:01:40,120 Speaker 1: starting tomorrow, you guys, February eighth. It's about how I 23 00:01:40,240 --> 00:01:43,560 Speaker 1: found my strength through love and loss, how you find 24 00:01:43,600 --> 00:01:46,479 Speaker 1: love and then you lose it, And not only that, 25 00:01:46,640 --> 00:01:50,279 Speaker 1: but also my strength after my mom's passing and everything 26 00:01:50,320 --> 00:01:54,040 Speaker 1: that's happened throughout these years since her passing, and not 27 00:01:54,160 --> 00:01:56,720 Speaker 1: only loss of a relationship and loss of my mother, 28 00:01:56,760 --> 00:02:00,280 Speaker 1: but loss of a few Flammily members. So the book 29 00:02:00,320 --> 00:02:03,640 Speaker 1: covers a little bit of everything, even certain things and 30 00:02:03,680 --> 00:02:06,760 Speaker 1: she's miss Cassiandi cho that aren't necessarily true, and I 31 00:02:06,760 --> 00:02:09,359 Speaker 1: wanted to clear up in this book all to help 32 00:02:09,400 --> 00:02:13,200 Speaker 1: inspire and empower others to hopefully not make the same 33 00:02:13,240 --> 00:02:16,200 Speaker 1: mistakes I've made and to learn from my mistakes more 34 00:02:16,240 --> 00:02:18,960 Speaker 1: than anything. So that's what Unstoppable is all about, you guys. 35 00:02:19,400 --> 00:02:22,200 Speaker 1: But before I get into some of the book's takeaways, 36 00:02:22,400 --> 00:02:24,280 Speaker 1: I want to take a moment to set the stage 37 00:02:24,280 --> 00:02:27,320 Speaker 1: a little bit. I started writing this book almost three 38 00:02:27,400 --> 00:02:29,960 Speaker 1: years ago. I always knew I wanted to write a 39 00:02:30,000 --> 00:02:31,880 Speaker 1: second book and a third book and a fourth book. 40 00:02:31,960 --> 00:02:35,680 Speaker 1: I've had this dream of being an author because writing 41 00:02:35,720 --> 00:02:38,799 Speaker 1: helps me just, I don't know, heal. You know, it's 42 00:02:38,800 --> 00:02:40,920 Speaker 1: a form of therapy. I've said it so many times 43 00:02:40,919 --> 00:02:43,360 Speaker 1: that and music are just a way of expressing, and 44 00:02:43,400 --> 00:02:46,880 Speaker 1: it helps me deal with everything that I'm going through, 45 00:02:46,960 --> 00:02:48,840 Speaker 1: you know. So I think writing it on a sheet 46 00:02:48,880 --> 00:02:51,800 Speaker 1: of paper and being able to just let it stay 47 00:02:51,800 --> 00:02:54,519 Speaker 1: there and close the book and just move on has 48 00:02:54,560 --> 00:02:57,800 Speaker 1: been a way of getting through everything I've been through. 49 00:02:57,880 --> 00:02:59,520 Speaker 1: I think a lot of people think, Okay, this book 50 00:02:59,520 --> 00:03:02,239 Speaker 1: is about her divorce, and that's what she decided to 51 00:03:02,240 --> 00:03:05,000 Speaker 1: write a book that's absolutely fault you guys. I started 52 00:03:05,000 --> 00:03:08,160 Speaker 1: writing this book and was negotiating everything while him and 53 00:03:08,200 --> 00:03:11,280 Speaker 1: I actually even before we got married, to be honest, 54 00:03:11,280 --> 00:03:13,880 Speaker 1: we started negotiating, and then while him and I after 55 00:03:13,880 --> 00:03:16,920 Speaker 1: we got we got married, then I started writing the book. 56 00:03:17,240 --> 00:03:19,320 Speaker 1: And the thing is, I was supposed to be done 57 00:03:19,320 --> 00:03:22,720 Speaker 1: with this book a long time ago, but so many 58 00:03:22,800 --> 00:03:27,800 Speaker 1: things happened throughout these years that I would just be 59 00:03:27,880 --> 00:03:31,320 Speaker 1: honestly too sad to write, and then I wanted to write, 60 00:03:31,320 --> 00:03:33,079 Speaker 1: and I would write too much, and I'm like, okay, wait, 61 00:03:33,120 --> 00:03:36,360 Speaker 1: I have to just really reread this and sit with 62 00:03:36,400 --> 00:03:39,280 Speaker 1: this and really talk about or think about mus be 63 00:03:39,400 --> 00:03:43,600 Speaker 1: in what I really want to express. Before it was 64 00:03:43,640 --> 00:03:46,840 Speaker 1: called Unstoppable, it was going to be hashtag how to 65 00:03:46,880 --> 00:03:50,560 Speaker 1: be a Boss be, so it was so different. We 66 00:03:50,640 --> 00:03:52,880 Speaker 1: had two other titles for the book as well, and 67 00:03:52,880 --> 00:03:55,480 Speaker 1: then it became Unstoppable. So it's been a journey. This 68 00:03:55,560 --> 00:04:01,080 Speaker 1: book has really helped me just cleanse my soul, bring 69 00:04:01,280 --> 00:04:04,920 Speaker 1: peace to my life. And even though the title has changed, 70 00:04:04,920 --> 00:04:07,720 Speaker 1: and maybe even the concept, the like full on concept 71 00:04:07,760 --> 00:04:10,360 Speaker 1: of the book has changed a little bit, it all 72 00:04:10,920 --> 00:04:15,000 Speaker 1: was always meant to inspire and empower because since Forgiveness, 73 00:04:15,040 --> 00:04:18,680 Speaker 1: so much has happened. I have really stepped into my 74 00:04:18,760 --> 00:04:22,040 Speaker 1: own I have matured, I have become a different woman. 75 00:04:22,960 --> 00:04:26,240 Speaker 1: And now Johnny's older and so much has happened, even 76 00:04:26,320 --> 00:04:29,159 Speaker 1: with him. So I explain a little bit about everything, 77 00:04:29,279 --> 00:04:33,560 Speaker 1: literally what has happened since my book Forgiveness twenty fifteen 78 00:04:33,720 --> 00:04:36,000 Speaker 1: till now. And I think there's going to be more 79 00:04:36,000 --> 00:04:38,960 Speaker 1: books because that's just how life works. I want to 80 00:04:38,960 --> 00:04:40,880 Speaker 1: write and I want to help and this is my 81 00:04:40,920 --> 00:04:44,720 Speaker 1: way of doing so. Also, why Unstoppable, I actually want 82 00:04:44,760 --> 00:04:47,000 Speaker 1: to talk about the title because you know, you hear 83 00:04:47,000 --> 00:04:49,960 Speaker 1: and stop when you're like, ah sekremucho, And it's not that. 84 00:04:50,200 --> 00:04:53,200 Speaker 1: It's actually all the things that were meant to stop me, 85 00:04:53,800 --> 00:04:55,839 Speaker 1: that were meant to drop me to my knees to 86 00:04:55,880 --> 00:04:58,360 Speaker 1: the point where I was never supposed to get back up, 87 00:04:59,000 --> 00:05:03,880 Speaker 1: actually help me become stronger and keep going. And you're 88 00:05:03,880 --> 00:05:06,600 Speaker 1: gonna be able to learn what my quote unquote secret is, 89 00:05:06,640 --> 00:05:08,720 Speaker 1: which isn't really a secret because I share it kind 90 00:05:08,760 --> 00:05:11,120 Speaker 1: of every single day on social media, which is my 91 00:05:11,320 --> 00:05:15,200 Speaker 1: belief in God and the faith that I have and 92 00:05:15,240 --> 00:05:18,120 Speaker 1: that my spirituality, how important it is to me. So 93 00:05:18,520 --> 00:05:20,240 Speaker 1: in a lot of interviews they asked me, what's your secret, 94 00:05:20,320 --> 00:05:22,919 Speaker 1: Cheeky's and I'm like, well, this has been my secret, 95 00:05:23,000 --> 00:05:29,400 Speaker 1: like really just learning to embrace the pain and knowing 96 00:05:29,680 --> 00:05:32,120 Speaker 1: that through these things that I have had to face, 97 00:05:32,160 --> 00:05:34,719 Speaker 1: through this pain, I'm going to come out on the 98 00:05:34,760 --> 00:05:38,360 Speaker 1: other side stronger, and that's what is Honestly, It's made 99 00:05:38,400 --> 00:05:41,839 Speaker 1: me feel unstoppable to the point where it's like I've 100 00:05:41,839 --> 00:05:45,280 Speaker 1: been through some crazy shit, you guys, some crazy as shit, 101 00:05:46,040 --> 00:05:50,320 Speaker 1: losing my mom, sexual abuse, my divorce, so many things 102 00:05:51,080 --> 00:05:55,560 Speaker 1: and public scrutiny, and I'm still here and I still 103 00:05:55,640 --> 00:06:00,760 Speaker 1: manage to come out with a smile and not be bitter, 104 00:06:01,480 --> 00:06:04,040 Speaker 1: because I feel like when you've gone through so much, 105 00:06:04,120 --> 00:06:07,120 Speaker 1: if you're not intentional in keeping your eye and your 106 00:06:07,120 --> 00:06:09,599 Speaker 1: faith in God or whatever it is that you believe in, 107 00:06:10,480 --> 00:06:13,880 Speaker 1: you become bitter little by little, like your essence, that 108 00:06:13,920 --> 00:06:17,240 Speaker 1: true essence of you, starts fading away. And I have 109 00:06:17,400 --> 00:06:19,320 Speaker 1: always been so intentional of like, Okay, I'm not going 110 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:21,640 Speaker 1: to be bitter. I'm not going to be a maga. Yes, 111 00:06:21,680 --> 00:06:23,080 Speaker 1: this happened to me, but it's not going to be 112 00:06:23,120 --> 00:06:25,719 Speaker 1: like why does this always happen to me? Oh my goodness, why? Why? Why? No? 113 00:06:26,600 --> 00:06:29,120 Speaker 1: I f that I need to just shake it off 114 00:06:29,160 --> 00:06:31,440 Speaker 1: and say, Okay, what in am I going to learn 115 00:06:32,080 --> 00:06:35,120 Speaker 1: from this situation? This thing is not going to defeat me. 116 00:06:35,600 --> 00:06:39,080 Speaker 1: I challenge myself to be even better than I was 117 00:06:39,160 --> 00:06:42,040 Speaker 1: before I went through this. And it's been a game changer, 118 00:06:42,040 --> 00:06:43,760 Speaker 1: you guys, which is why I'm like, I want to 119 00:06:43,839 --> 00:06:47,240 Speaker 1: name it unstoppable and in Spanish in benzile, because I 120 00:06:47,279 --> 00:06:50,480 Speaker 1: have felt in a way like protected by this crazy 121 00:06:50,520 --> 00:06:53,560 Speaker 1: force that I like to call God because I put 122 00:06:53,640 --> 00:06:56,840 Speaker 1: him first. And you're going to learn about this in 123 00:06:56,880 --> 00:06:59,600 Speaker 1: my book Faith and spirituality is a huge thing in 124 00:06:59,640 --> 00:07:02,560 Speaker 1: the book. That's one of the takeaways. It's key. It's 125 00:07:02,640 --> 00:07:06,039 Speaker 1: number one in my life. I don't like to try 126 00:07:06,080 --> 00:07:08,480 Speaker 1: to see how I can fit in my spirituality or 127 00:07:08,520 --> 00:07:12,520 Speaker 1: God in my schedule. No, everything else works around my spirituality. 128 00:07:12,560 --> 00:07:15,559 Speaker 1: Everything else works around God. It's God is in the center, 129 00:07:15,640 --> 00:07:19,560 Speaker 1: and then everything else comes secondary, everything everything. Once you 130 00:07:19,680 --> 00:07:22,560 Speaker 1: learn that, guys, it changes your life when you put 131 00:07:22,560 --> 00:07:25,720 Speaker 1: God before your significant other, before your children, before yourself, 132 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:28,200 Speaker 1: and then your self comes and then your children and 133 00:07:28,240 --> 00:07:30,720 Speaker 1: then your your significant other or however. But for me, 134 00:07:30,840 --> 00:07:34,680 Speaker 1: it's God, then myself. Then everything comes after. Because if 135 00:07:34,680 --> 00:07:36,960 Speaker 1: I'm not okay and I'm not okay with God, then 136 00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:39,040 Speaker 1: I'm not going to be able to be okay to 137 00:07:39,120 --> 00:07:41,360 Speaker 1: do what I do and write my books and be 138 00:07:41,480 --> 00:07:44,520 Speaker 1: inspirational Instagram and all these things that I do and 139 00:07:44,560 --> 00:07:46,680 Speaker 1: get on stage. All of that is super important. So 140 00:07:46,880 --> 00:07:48,920 Speaker 1: that's one of the takeaways, okay from this book, you guys, 141 00:07:49,120 --> 00:07:54,560 Speaker 1: Faith and spirituality key. Another takeaway is my struggles, the 142 00:07:54,600 --> 00:07:59,040 Speaker 1: struggles with media and paparazzi and how that can really 143 00:07:59,080 --> 00:08:03,320 Speaker 1: affect you as a human being. You'll also learn in 144 00:08:03,320 --> 00:08:05,400 Speaker 1: this book that that has a lot to do with 145 00:08:05,520 --> 00:08:07,880 Speaker 1: why I moved, and I felt that I needed to 146 00:08:07,880 --> 00:08:12,640 Speaker 1: be somewhere a little safer where I could feel safe 147 00:08:12,720 --> 00:08:15,000 Speaker 1: driving into my driveway and not having to worry about 148 00:08:15,040 --> 00:08:17,800 Speaker 1: someone following me. And it was a big decision because 149 00:08:17,840 --> 00:08:19,960 Speaker 1: I really thought that the first home I had bought 150 00:08:19,960 --> 00:08:21,040 Speaker 1: and I was going to be there for the rest 151 00:08:21,080 --> 00:08:23,200 Speaker 1: of my life, and I had invested so much in it, 152 00:08:23,800 --> 00:08:25,120 Speaker 1: and you guys are going to be able to learn 153 00:08:25,200 --> 00:08:27,960 Speaker 1: as to what happened and why and what really drove 154 00:08:28,040 --> 00:08:29,880 Speaker 1: me to say this is it. I have to move. 155 00:08:30,400 --> 00:08:34,000 Speaker 1: I felt that talking about the struggles that I've had 156 00:08:34,000 --> 00:08:37,880 Speaker 1: to face with the media and paparazzi were necessary because sometimes, 157 00:08:38,040 --> 00:08:41,000 Speaker 1: well a lot of times, they say things that are cruel, 158 00:08:41,360 --> 00:08:44,880 Speaker 1: things that are not true, and you have a huge 159 00:08:44,920 --> 00:08:48,840 Speaker 1: responsibility when you have access to a microphone, when you 160 00:08:48,920 --> 00:08:54,200 Speaker 1: have access to being on television, that's a huge responsibility. 161 00:08:54,240 --> 00:08:56,160 Speaker 1: And I feel like you have to be really careful 162 00:08:56,160 --> 00:08:58,600 Speaker 1: with the things that you say about people's lives because 163 00:08:58,640 --> 00:09:01,280 Speaker 1: you can really hurt them, only that exposed them to 164 00:09:01,360 --> 00:09:03,840 Speaker 1: other people hurting them. And I just felt like this 165 00:09:03,880 --> 00:09:05,480 Speaker 1: is something that I've had to deal with for a 166 00:09:05,640 --> 00:09:09,719 Speaker 1: very long time, and it's not necessarily fair. I mean, 167 00:09:09,760 --> 00:09:12,079 Speaker 1: so many people are like, okay, well, you know this 168 00:09:12,120 --> 00:09:14,760 Speaker 1: is the life you decided to have, you know, you 169 00:09:14,840 --> 00:09:17,400 Speaker 1: wanted to be famous, And I'm like, no, that that 170 00:09:17,440 --> 00:09:19,560 Speaker 1: doesn't make it right though. That doesn't make it okay 171 00:09:19,600 --> 00:09:21,960 Speaker 1: for you to say what you want and try to 172 00:09:22,600 --> 00:09:27,520 Speaker 1: cause me harm not only emotionally but potentially physically, because 173 00:09:27,880 --> 00:09:30,360 Speaker 1: what you're saying is not true. And what if someone 174 00:09:30,760 --> 00:09:33,360 Speaker 1: thinks it like the whole thing with my mom, you know, 175 00:09:33,480 --> 00:09:36,800 Speaker 1: that whole situation that was horrible back in twenty twelve 176 00:09:37,320 --> 00:09:39,520 Speaker 1: and twenty thirteen, where it's like they say things and 177 00:09:39,559 --> 00:09:41,320 Speaker 1: I'm like, wait a second, get the full story and 178 00:09:41,320 --> 00:09:42,800 Speaker 1: get both sides of the story if you're going to 179 00:09:42,880 --> 00:09:45,480 Speaker 1: tell a story, first of all, because that was scary. 180 00:09:45,520 --> 00:09:48,240 Speaker 1: It was a scary time for me. And for instance, 181 00:09:48,280 --> 00:09:50,560 Speaker 1: one of the things that they said recently and that 182 00:09:50,600 --> 00:09:52,920 Speaker 1: I talk about in the book is is me being unfaithful? 183 00:09:53,240 --> 00:09:57,760 Speaker 1: Trying to you know, Tacharmesnier, and I said, absolutely not. 184 00:09:58,000 --> 00:10:01,320 Speaker 1: I'm not going to allow anyone, especially if it's not true, 185 00:10:01,640 --> 00:10:03,360 Speaker 1: to say that I was being unfaithful and that that's 186 00:10:03,400 --> 00:10:05,280 Speaker 1: why I decided to get separated. I was like, oh, 187 00:10:05,320 --> 00:10:07,640 Speaker 1: hell no. So I talk about that in the book 188 00:10:07,800 --> 00:10:11,040 Speaker 1: because there is a situation that happened in twenty twenty 189 00:10:11,080 --> 00:10:15,199 Speaker 1: October of twenty twenty after my separation with my ex. 190 00:10:16,080 --> 00:10:19,040 Speaker 1: That happened and someone came into my life and I 191 00:10:19,040 --> 00:10:21,880 Speaker 1: don't want to name him because ugh, anyways, that's a 192 00:10:21,880 --> 00:10:23,319 Speaker 1: whole other story, but I talk about it in the 193 00:10:23,320 --> 00:10:25,480 Speaker 1: book because I'm like, wait a second, no, I'm not. 194 00:10:25,559 --> 00:10:28,239 Speaker 1: I was not unfaithful. If anything, I was very faithful, 195 00:10:28,600 --> 00:10:31,680 Speaker 1: and if there was any signs or any doubts or 196 00:10:31,720 --> 00:10:35,280 Speaker 1: concerns of infidelity, it for sure was not from my side. 197 00:10:35,400 --> 00:10:36,959 Speaker 1: So I talk about all of that in the book. 198 00:10:37,080 --> 00:10:39,160 Speaker 1: So I thought it was necessary to talk about all 199 00:10:39,160 --> 00:10:42,240 Speaker 1: these things with the media because it sucks, dude. I mean, 200 00:10:42,280 --> 00:10:44,840 Speaker 1: they have a great exposure, and yes, it's their job 201 00:10:44,880 --> 00:10:46,880 Speaker 1: and this and that, but it's like, really, you can 202 00:10:46,920 --> 00:10:50,199 Speaker 1: give your story with leaving certain comments out that aren't 203 00:10:50,240 --> 00:10:53,120 Speaker 1: going to affect the person and their image that they've 204 00:10:53,120 --> 00:10:56,600 Speaker 1: worked so hard for. So it's just something that has 205 00:10:56,600 --> 00:10:58,800 Speaker 1: been a huge part of my life since I can remember. 206 00:10:59,000 --> 00:11:01,560 Speaker 1: The media, and like, I'm grateful for them because of 207 00:11:01,559 --> 00:11:04,160 Speaker 1: course they have covered a lot of my things. A 208 00:11:04,160 --> 00:11:05,920 Speaker 1: lot of what I do, and I'm grateful for them, 209 00:11:05,960 --> 00:11:08,360 Speaker 1: but also they hurt my feelings. You know. I feel 210 00:11:08,360 --> 00:11:10,640 Speaker 1: like I have been there and I've given you guys interviews, 211 00:11:10,640 --> 00:11:12,160 Speaker 1: and I've done this, and I've done that, and I've 212 00:11:12,160 --> 00:11:14,880 Speaker 1: been available and then you just get a slap in 213 00:11:14,880 --> 00:11:17,040 Speaker 1: the face one day and you're like, what, but I've 214 00:11:17,040 --> 00:11:19,640 Speaker 1: been so cool. Like it's just they're so quick to 215 00:11:19,720 --> 00:11:23,840 Speaker 1: turn on you, and it's so freaking sad and it's 216 00:11:23,880 --> 00:11:25,720 Speaker 1: not okay that, Oh, just because you decide to be 217 00:11:25,760 --> 00:11:28,560 Speaker 1: famous gives you the right to talk about this or 218 00:11:28,640 --> 00:11:33,080 Speaker 1: put my address on national television. That's freaking absurd. It's crazy, 219 00:11:33,120 --> 00:11:35,160 Speaker 1: you guys, So I talk about that. Sorry, I just 220 00:11:35,200 --> 00:11:38,160 Speaker 1: get really passionate about this subject. But you guys will 221 00:11:38,200 --> 00:11:40,160 Speaker 1: be able to understand a little bit more about that 222 00:11:40,280 --> 00:11:41,960 Speaker 1: and what we've had to face it, not only me, 223 00:11:42,120 --> 00:11:45,200 Speaker 1: but a lot of my friends in the industry, a 224 00:11:45,240 --> 00:11:47,480 Speaker 1: lot of other artists that I speak to, and how 225 00:11:47,480 --> 00:11:50,520 Speaker 1: hard it is for us. So hopefully you guys can 226 00:11:50,640 --> 00:11:52,440 Speaker 1: read it and understand a little bit more about that, 227 00:11:52,559 --> 00:12:03,640 Speaker 1: for sure. Another takeaway is my divorce. Yes, guys, again, 228 00:12:04,360 --> 00:12:07,320 Speaker 1: I was writing this book before the divorce. Happened. Okay, 229 00:12:07,360 --> 00:12:09,160 Speaker 1: that is something I've been wanting to clear up from 230 00:12:09,200 --> 00:12:13,240 Speaker 1: like forever and well, while I was writing the book, 231 00:12:13,280 --> 00:12:16,760 Speaker 1: this happened. We got separated, and to be honest, we're 232 00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:19,800 Speaker 1: not even divorced yet. I talk about it in the 233 00:12:19,800 --> 00:12:23,560 Speaker 1: book as well. But the reason I'm not divorced, you guys, 234 00:12:23,600 --> 00:12:26,240 Speaker 1: just I want to clear that up here. I've heard 235 00:12:26,280 --> 00:12:30,800 Speaker 1: so many different things, but it's not because I'm asking 236 00:12:30,840 --> 00:12:34,960 Speaker 1: for anything that isn't the process. Isn't part of the 237 00:12:35,000 --> 00:12:39,120 Speaker 1: process of a divorce. Some people have taken out of context, 238 00:12:39,200 --> 00:12:41,440 Speaker 1: like I'm trying to get into his finances and all 239 00:12:41,480 --> 00:12:43,280 Speaker 1: this evident. It's not like that, you guys. Anyone that 240 00:12:43,320 --> 00:12:45,960 Speaker 1: has gotten divorce knows that it is part of the process. 241 00:12:46,000 --> 00:12:48,240 Speaker 1: You have to show your finances while you were married. 242 00:12:48,640 --> 00:12:52,400 Speaker 1: I did. He has not been compliant, so I'm waiting. 243 00:12:52,960 --> 00:12:55,880 Speaker 1: I had to set a court date. They gave me 244 00:12:55,880 --> 00:12:58,960 Speaker 1: the court date actually for January nineteenth. They canceled that 245 00:12:59,120 --> 00:13:01,600 Speaker 1: and moved it all the way till April of this year, 246 00:13:01,640 --> 00:13:04,240 Speaker 1: you guys. I cried that day. I was like, dude, 247 00:13:04,240 --> 00:13:06,720 Speaker 1: one is this going to be over? I want to 248 00:13:06,760 --> 00:13:09,839 Speaker 1: be completely free and I want him to be free, 249 00:13:09,840 --> 00:13:11,960 Speaker 1: and I want him to live his life and I 250 00:13:12,000 --> 00:13:14,000 Speaker 1: just want to really close that chapter in my life 251 00:13:14,000 --> 00:13:17,160 Speaker 1: and just be done with it. Divorce is hard, whether 252 00:13:17,200 --> 00:13:21,120 Speaker 1: you're famous or not. It's just a very difficult, long, 253 00:13:21,559 --> 00:13:24,559 Speaker 1: sad process. Like you have to go through a divorce, 254 00:13:24,640 --> 00:13:28,520 Speaker 1: especially in California at least six months, no less. So 255 00:13:29,040 --> 00:13:31,480 Speaker 1: during that time, it's just so much back and forth. 256 00:13:31,559 --> 00:13:37,760 Speaker 1: It's so emotionally draining. And in my position, I am 257 00:13:37,800 --> 00:13:39,880 Speaker 1: a public figure and so is he. And again, our 258 00:13:39,920 --> 00:13:43,360 Speaker 1: relationship was so public that it was a first relationship 259 00:13:43,400 --> 00:13:46,960 Speaker 1: I had really had really been public about. My relationship 260 00:13:46,960 --> 00:13:48,840 Speaker 1: with Angel was very private. He was a very private 261 00:13:48,840 --> 00:13:51,560 Speaker 1: and reserved person. He's a little bit more out there now, 262 00:13:51,600 --> 00:13:54,520 Speaker 1: but in his relationship he's just likes to keep it 263 00:13:54,559 --> 00:13:58,280 Speaker 1: that way. And when I was with my ex husband, 264 00:13:58,679 --> 00:14:00,560 Speaker 1: I don't know, we were both public figure, and it 265 00:14:00,720 --> 00:14:02,560 Speaker 1: just I don't know. I think we were one of 266 00:14:02,559 --> 00:14:05,640 Speaker 1: the first to be honest, if not the first to 267 00:14:05,760 --> 00:14:08,360 Speaker 1: really come out and be on social media and share 268 00:14:08,400 --> 00:14:11,559 Speaker 1: our relationship, and so many people were drawn to us, 269 00:14:12,120 --> 00:14:14,080 Speaker 1: and I felt like it wasn't like I was just 270 00:14:14,120 --> 00:14:16,720 Speaker 1: in a relationship with him. It became I'm in a 271 00:14:16,760 --> 00:14:20,400 Speaker 1: relationship with him, with his family, and with all of 272 00:14:20,560 --> 00:14:23,400 Speaker 1: our fans put together, so it was there was a 273 00:14:23,400 --> 00:14:26,600 Speaker 1: lot of pressure. So when we got separated, of course 274 00:14:26,640 --> 00:14:29,440 Speaker 1: it was scary, but a lot of people didn't know 275 00:14:29,760 --> 00:14:33,480 Speaker 1: in reality what was really happening behind closed doors, behind 276 00:14:33,520 --> 00:14:36,440 Speaker 1: the cameras, behind social media, as it should be, you know, 277 00:14:36,560 --> 00:14:39,080 Speaker 1: that's our private life. But when we decided to get 278 00:14:39,080 --> 00:14:41,600 Speaker 1: separated and I tried to be very respectful about it 279 00:14:42,120 --> 00:14:43,960 Speaker 1: and did a post and it was very nice and said, 280 00:14:44,000 --> 00:14:47,240 Speaker 1: you know, this is what's happening, it became this fiasco 281 00:14:47,440 --> 00:14:50,880 Speaker 1: and this whole thing. And then when he came out 282 00:14:50,880 --> 00:14:54,400 Speaker 1: and started giving interviews and saying things that weren't true, 283 00:14:55,040 --> 00:14:57,720 Speaker 1: that's when I was like, oh wait a second, hold on. 284 00:14:58,240 --> 00:15:01,160 Speaker 1: You are not about to try to turn this on 285 00:15:01,280 --> 00:15:03,960 Speaker 1: me and make it seem like all of this is 286 00:15:03,960 --> 00:15:06,680 Speaker 1: my fault because I'm not perfect and I could have 287 00:15:06,720 --> 00:15:11,080 Speaker 1: done things a little different. But ninety eight percent of 288 00:15:11,120 --> 00:15:14,600 Speaker 1: the reason that we're not together is because of your actions, 289 00:15:14,640 --> 00:15:17,600 Speaker 1: and you're out there trying to do interviews, uh uh, 290 00:15:17,640 --> 00:15:21,040 Speaker 1: which is probably why now I've decided to go more 291 00:15:21,080 --> 00:15:25,680 Speaker 1: private with my relationships again, because it's too much. Guys, 292 00:15:25,840 --> 00:15:28,400 Speaker 1: it's like, of course, I would love to share this 293 00:15:28,480 --> 00:15:30,920 Speaker 1: and share that, but I'm like, wait a second, this relationship, 294 00:15:30,920 --> 00:15:32,760 Speaker 1: my relationships from here and now, I want them to 295 00:15:32,800 --> 00:15:35,880 Speaker 1: be a little bit more sacred. A relationship is already difficult. 296 00:15:36,000 --> 00:15:37,920 Speaker 1: It could be difficult. It doesn't have to be difficult, 297 00:15:37,920 --> 00:15:39,360 Speaker 1: but it has its things, you know what I mean. 298 00:15:39,400 --> 00:15:42,080 Speaker 1: And I just don't need other people to make it 299 00:15:42,160 --> 00:15:44,960 Speaker 1: difficult and their opinions and their judgments, you know. So 300 00:15:45,280 --> 00:15:47,680 Speaker 1: I don't share that much anymore. Because of that situation, 301 00:15:47,760 --> 00:15:50,080 Speaker 1: I kind of left a sour taste in my mouth 302 00:15:50,480 --> 00:15:52,880 Speaker 1: because it was way too public. It was crazy. It 303 00:15:52,920 --> 00:15:55,840 Speaker 1: was like literally l no noveela, lnoela de la la 304 00:15:55,880 --> 00:15:59,400 Speaker 1: the Cheeky's. It was just too much. I was just 305 00:15:59,480 --> 00:16:02,440 Speaker 1: like it was. It was devastating because at that time 306 00:16:02,520 --> 00:16:04,720 Speaker 1: I was still in love with him and I was 307 00:16:04,760 --> 00:16:07,920 Speaker 1: going through my healing process, and it was hurting me 308 00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:10,560 Speaker 1: that we had to come to this decision or I 309 00:16:10,640 --> 00:16:13,680 Speaker 1: had to come to this decision of separating, also having 310 00:16:13,720 --> 00:16:15,560 Speaker 1: to deal with my pain and deal with all these 311 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:17,960 Speaker 1: things that were being set on social media that he 312 00:16:18,080 --> 00:16:22,320 Speaker 1: was enticing by doing interviews and saying things that weren't 313 00:16:22,360 --> 00:16:25,920 Speaker 1: necessarily true or giving half truths, or going around the 314 00:16:25,920 --> 00:16:30,280 Speaker 1: bush and not answering the answer correctly or with the truth. 315 00:16:30,520 --> 00:16:35,560 Speaker 1: Really just kept left things in the air and doubts 316 00:16:35,600 --> 00:16:37,520 Speaker 1: started coming out. And that's where I was like, oh, 317 00:16:37,520 --> 00:16:39,200 Speaker 1: wait a second, this is too much. But I decided 318 00:16:39,200 --> 00:16:42,480 Speaker 1: to stay quiet, and I decided to just put my 319 00:16:42,680 --> 00:16:46,320 Speaker 1: heart first and heal that and really deal with my 320 00:16:46,400 --> 00:16:50,080 Speaker 1: heart and write. And that's but it was hard, guys, 321 00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:52,280 Speaker 1: having to stay quiet for so long. It was really 322 00:16:52,280 --> 00:16:56,080 Speaker 1: hard because I never wanted to affect him. I never 323 00:16:56,160 --> 00:17:01,120 Speaker 1: wanted to say certain things to make him look bad. 324 00:17:01,680 --> 00:17:04,680 Speaker 1: I wanted him to have the opportunity to go after 325 00:17:04,720 --> 00:17:07,040 Speaker 1: his dreams, to do what he wanted to do. And 326 00:17:07,080 --> 00:17:09,800 Speaker 1: I didn't want to be a reason for someone to say, oh, 327 00:17:09,880 --> 00:17:11,560 Speaker 1: he didn't make it or he wasn't able to do 328 00:17:11,600 --> 00:17:15,520 Speaker 1: this or accomplish this because you affected him his image. 329 00:17:15,840 --> 00:17:19,000 Speaker 1: So I, even through my pain, thought about him. But 330 00:17:19,119 --> 00:17:21,080 Speaker 1: now it's gotten to a point where this is part 331 00:17:21,119 --> 00:17:23,480 Speaker 1: of my story. This book is part of my story, 332 00:17:23,480 --> 00:17:24,959 Speaker 1: and what I write in it is part of what 333 00:17:25,040 --> 00:17:28,320 Speaker 1: has happened. And I am here to inspire and empower 334 00:17:28,440 --> 00:17:30,919 Speaker 1: and help others. And the only way I can do 335 00:17:30,960 --> 00:17:34,480 Speaker 1: that is by being truthful. But going back to the book, 336 00:17:35,119 --> 00:17:36,960 Speaker 1: I talk about the divorce. I talk about the separation, 337 00:17:37,080 --> 00:17:41,960 Speaker 1: what happened, why it happened, how our relationship started, everything 338 00:17:42,000 --> 00:17:45,000 Speaker 1: that happened throughout the time. Why do I talk about it? 339 00:17:45,040 --> 00:17:48,919 Speaker 1: Because my relationship was so public. I shared it. It 340 00:17:48,960 --> 00:17:51,640 Speaker 1: was on my reality show, him and I on our 341 00:17:51,680 --> 00:17:53,840 Speaker 1: social media. As we taught, we were just a very 342 00:17:54,160 --> 00:17:58,000 Speaker 1: public relationship, a very public couple, and a lot of 343 00:17:58,040 --> 00:18:01,840 Speaker 1: things were said, here's the thing. If you stay quiet 344 00:18:02,440 --> 00:18:05,960 Speaker 1: and not talk about things that you don't really need 345 00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:08,280 Speaker 1: to talk about in public, then I don't have the 346 00:18:08,359 --> 00:18:13,600 Speaker 1: need to come out and express and also no necessity 347 00:18:13,600 --> 00:18:17,679 Speaker 1: a menteen there or defend my name. But I have 348 00:18:17,800 --> 00:18:21,040 Speaker 1: the right to come out and speak my truth because 349 00:18:21,080 --> 00:18:23,800 Speaker 1: I've worked really hard to get to this point. I 350 00:18:23,840 --> 00:18:28,720 Speaker 1: have worked really hard to get that stigma of all 351 00:18:28,760 --> 00:18:32,000 Speaker 1: these labels and things that people have tried to put 352 00:18:32,040 --> 00:18:35,520 Speaker 1: on me since the issue with my mom happened. That 353 00:18:35,640 --> 00:18:38,720 Speaker 1: I'm like, wait a second, No, it has been fucking hard, 354 00:18:38,760 --> 00:18:40,639 Speaker 1: you guys to get to this point, and I'm not 355 00:18:40,640 --> 00:18:44,000 Speaker 1: gonna let anybody just come and there's certain things again 356 00:18:44,040 --> 00:18:46,199 Speaker 1: I'm I can't go after everyone that talks crap about me. 357 00:18:46,280 --> 00:18:48,200 Speaker 1: But there are certain things that I'm just like, wait, 358 00:18:48,560 --> 00:18:54,199 Speaker 1: yommeries coo clarristo, yommeresco de lascosas. And I decided to 359 00:18:54,200 --> 00:18:55,680 Speaker 1: do it in a book, to write it because there 360 00:18:55,680 --> 00:19:00,680 Speaker 1: are any interruptions. There isn't that worry about them editing 361 00:19:01,000 --> 00:19:03,760 Speaker 1: something in their own way. This is my way of healing, 362 00:19:04,440 --> 00:19:08,040 Speaker 1: of again, writing it down, expressing it and letting it go, 363 00:19:08,520 --> 00:19:10,960 Speaker 1: closing that book, that chapter of my life and letting 364 00:19:11,000 --> 00:19:13,600 Speaker 1: it go. And that's why I decided to talk about 365 00:19:13,640 --> 00:19:15,600 Speaker 1: it here. And I wanted to be in detail. I 366 00:19:15,640 --> 00:19:19,320 Speaker 1: wanted to explain even where I went wrong. There's two sides, guys. 367 00:19:19,320 --> 00:19:22,120 Speaker 1: So I also did certain things that I'm not very 368 00:19:22,160 --> 00:19:24,520 Speaker 1: proud of. I will go into this a little more 369 00:19:24,520 --> 00:19:27,640 Speaker 1: in detail in the book. But this book is not 370 00:19:27,760 --> 00:19:31,000 Speaker 1: just about talking about others and clarifying things. It's also 371 00:19:31,080 --> 00:19:35,639 Speaker 1: about how I have grown, how I have matured, what 372 00:19:35,680 --> 00:19:39,720 Speaker 1: I have learned, especially in my relationship, you know, or 373 00:19:39,960 --> 00:19:43,520 Speaker 1: my relationship now, but in my relationship then, what I 374 00:19:43,640 --> 00:19:46,639 Speaker 1: learned and what I could have done differently maybe you know. 375 00:19:47,720 --> 00:19:51,520 Speaker 1: For instance, I mean when things got a little heated, 376 00:19:52,320 --> 00:19:59,280 Speaker 1: I was one to defend myself, even if that meant physically. 377 00:20:00,000 --> 00:20:02,159 Speaker 1: And I'll talk about that in the book, and you 378 00:20:02,160 --> 00:20:04,400 Speaker 1: guys will understand that a little more once you read 379 00:20:04,400 --> 00:20:08,560 Speaker 1: it and what happened. And I've told myself, I don't 380 00:20:08,560 --> 00:20:10,760 Speaker 1: want to be in that type of relationship. I should 381 00:20:10,760 --> 00:20:13,040 Speaker 1: not have to get to that point. Anybody that brings 382 00:20:13,080 --> 00:20:15,840 Speaker 1: that side out of me probably shouldn't be in my life. 383 00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:18,720 Speaker 1: So I'm not very proud of that, you know, having 384 00:20:18,760 --> 00:20:22,160 Speaker 1: to get physical in a relationship, or even not only physical, 385 00:20:22,240 --> 00:20:26,240 Speaker 1: but also say things that are not nice, and so 386 00:20:26,320 --> 00:20:30,200 Speaker 1: I talk about that. I also talk about other things 387 00:20:30,240 --> 00:20:32,520 Speaker 1: that I feel I did I could have done differently. 388 00:20:32,600 --> 00:20:39,399 Speaker 1: Is my way of expressing my insecurities. That's a huge one, guys. 389 00:20:39,680 --> 00:20:43,160 Speaker 1: I sometimes we feel insecure about something and then we 390 00:20:43,720 --> 00:20:47,199 Speaker 1: lash out at the person because we're insecure about it. 391 00:20:47,560 --> 00:20:49,440 Speaker 1: So I know this sounds very vague, but I just 392 00:20:49,480 --> 00:20:51,639 Speaker 1: don't want to say too much because I want you 393 00:20:51,640 --> 00:20:54,160 Speaker 1: guys to read the book. But I do talk about 394 00:20:54,560 --> 00:20:56,320 Speaker 1: things that I could have done different that I'm doing 395 00:20:56,400 --> 00:21:00,320 Speaker 1: different now in my present relationship, and it's it's made 396 00:21:00,640 --> 00:21:04,359 Speaker 1: a huge difference, you guys, when you make small changes 397 00:21:04,400 --> 00:21:05,879 Speaker 1: and when you both are on the same page, and 398 00:21:05,880 --> 00:21:10,320 Speaker 1: you're very vocal, and you communicate from the very beginning 399 00:21:10,440 --> 00:21:13,480 Speaker 1: what you expect from your partner and also listen to 400 00:21:13,520 --> 00:21:15,320 Speaker 1: them as to what they expect and what they like 401 00:21:15,400 --> 00:21:17,560 Speaker 1: and don't like. It makes a huge difference. So I 402 00:21:17,600 --> 00:21:27,919 Speaker 1: feel like I've definitely learned my lesson. Another takeaway is 403 00:21:28,640 --> 00:21:32,480 Speaker 1: the loss of my mom. I speak about that heavily 404 00:21:32,680 --> 00:21:36,199 Speaker 1: in my book Forgiveness, but now it's different. Now I 405 00:21:36,240 --> 00:21:38,359 Speaker 1: speak about it in a different way, like I have 406 00:21:38,600 --> 00:21:43,600 Speaker 1: matured emotionally, mentally and in every way that it's helped 407 00:21:43,600 --> 00:21:47,880 Speaker 1: me see my mom's passing in a different light, and 408 00:21:47,920 --> 00:21:51,040 Speaker 1: how I can also help others because loss is huge, 409 00:21:51,040 --> 00:21:53,879 Speaker 1: and loss can really definitely and it does change your 410 00:21:53,920 --> 00:21:58,560 Speaker 1: life forever. But how you can flip that to make 411 00:21:58,560 --> 00:22:02,600 Speaker 1: it something sounds weird, but bring something positive out of it. 412 00:22:03,640 --> 00:22:06,960 Speaker 1: And of course I talk about my siblings and Johnny, 413 00:22:07,000 --> 00:22:10,520 Speaker 1: who's about to be twenty one years old. I've had 414 00:22:10,520 --> 00:22:12,640 Speaker 1: to raise him and what it's been like to raise 415 00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:15,200 Speaker 1: him and everything that I've had to deal with. I've 416 00:22:15,240 --> 00:22:17,639 Speaker 1: been a mom, you guys, like a real mother I have. 417 00:22:17,720 --> 00:22:20,040 Speaker 1: I can say I have a twenty one year old man, 418 00:22:20,840 --> 00:22:23,000 Speaker 1: because he's a young man, you know. So I talk 419 00:22:23,080 --> 00:22:25,280 Speaker 1: about that, I talk about the situation with Jenica and 420 00:22:25,400 --> 00:22:28,280 Speaker 1: she decided to move out and everything that that taught me, 421 00:22:28,720 --> 00:22:31,720 Speaker 1: because obviously things have changed since my mom's passing. So 422 00:22:31,720 --> 00:22:33,919 Speaker 1: I've had to step in and really be that parent 423 00:22:34,000 --> 00:22:36,359 Speaker 1: for them, and it hasn't been easy. I've had to 424 00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:38,639 Speaker 1: face a lot of things with Johnny, even with his 425 00:22:38,680 --> 00:22:41,560 Speaker 1: sexuality and stuff. Like he was one time reading. I 426 00:22:41,600 --> 00:22:43,040 Speaker 1: had it on the table and he was I'm like, 427 00:22:43,240 --> 00:22:45,639 Speaker 1: you know, I was writing and editing and stuff, and 428 00:22:45,680 --> 00:22:47,560 Speaker 1: he said, can I read this? And I said yeah, 429 00:22:47,720 --> 00:22:49,879 Speaker 1: So I let him read it. And I had forgot 430 00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:51,639 Speaker 1: everything that I had written. Of course, is I just 431 00:22:51,680 --> 00:22:53,119 Speaker 1: write and I'm just like boom, boom boom, you know. 432 00:22:53,720 --> 00:22:55,720 Speaker 1: And it was one of the first chapters and he's 433 00:22:55,760 --> 00:22:58,320 Speaker 1: like wow, and his eyes got watery and I'm like 434 00:22:58,400 --> 00:23:01,080 Speaker 1: what happened? And he's I just can't believe that I 435 00:23:01,119 --> 00:23:04,399 Speaker 1: put you through all of this. And I'm like, I'm sorry, 436 00:23:04,680 --> 00:23:06,520 Speaker 1: and I'm like and I'm like, does it make you 437 00:23:06,560 --> 00:23:08,359 Speaker 1: feel bad? Like do you want me to remove anything? 438 00:23:08,400 --> 00:23:11,240 Speaker 1: He's like no, because it's the truth. I did. I 439 00:23:11,280 --> 00:23:13,719 Speaker 1: did struggle with this I did do that, and he 440 00:23:13,760 --> 00:23:16,159 Speaker 1: was eleven years old doing some crazy shit, you guys, 441 00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:18,560 Speaker 1: that you guys will learn in this book that I'm like, 442 00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:20,919 Speaker 1: what am I gonna do? And you guys will learn 443 00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:23,399 Speaker 1: who was there to help me and why Johnny is 444 00:23:23,440 --> 00:23:25,639 Speaker 1: so close to my ex It has to do with 445 00:23:25,680 --> 00:23:28,119 Speaker 1: everything that we had to deal with with Johnny. You know, 446 00:23:28,480 --> 00:23:33,480 Speaker 1: it was tough. Eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, all 447 00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:37,720 Speaker 1: those years were freaking hard with him, and I'm like, 448 00:23:37,760 --> 00:23:40,080 Speaker 1: what am I gonna do? And you guys will learn 449 00:23:40,160 --> 00:23:43,400 Speaker 1: everything that I did to try and raise this kid, 450 00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:46,159 Speaker 1: and I can say that I am so proud of 451 00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:49,080 Speaker 1: the job that I've done. I never say I did 452 00:23:49,080 --> 00:23:51,840 Speaker 1: it alone, because I always say my mom and I 453 00:23:51,880 --> 00:23:55,040 Speaker 1: did it. But dude, there were times when I thought 454 00:23:55,320 --> 00:23:57,800 Speaker 1: Johnny might not make it to his twenty first birthday 455 00:23:57,920 --> 00:24:00,520 Speaker 1: because he had a lot of suicidal thought. You guys. 456 00:24:00,520 --> 00:24:03,080 Speaker 1: There were times when I had to have him sleep 457 00:24:03,160 --> 00:24:05,679 Speaker 1: right next to me, and it was just it was 458 00:24:06,440 --> 00:24:09,800 Speaker 1: really tough times, and I felt the need to share 459 00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:13,040 Speaker 1: that with you guys as well. Anyways, it's getting crazy. 460 00:24:13,080 --> 00:24:16,880 Speaker 1: But another takeaway before I forget is my family, as 461 00:24:16,920 --> 00:24:19,600 Speaker 1: you guys know there has been a huge balling out, 462 00:24:20,400 --> 00:24:23,879 Speaker 1: and I'll be able to explain in my book as 463 00:24:23,920 --> 00:24:26,880 Speaker 1: well certain things that have been said by certain people 464 00:24:26,920 --> 00:24:29,960 Speaker 1: in my life, in my family and my extended family 465 00:24:30,520 --> 00:24:35,280 Speaker 1: that have caused this separation. Like the beginning of the 466 00:24:35,440 --> 00:24:38,960 Speaker 1: end is said and spoken about in this book written 467 00:24:39,000 --> 00:24:41,520 Speaker 1: about should I say so? I think it's important as 468 00:24:41,560 --> 00:24:44,560 Speaker 1: well because we are a public family, and again, a 469 00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:47,120 Speaker 1: lot has been said, and a lot has been misinterpreted 470 00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:50,800 Speaker 1: and miscommunicated, and there's been a lot of misunderstanding around 471 00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:54,240 Speaker 1: our family, and I wanted to take this opportunity to 472 00:24:54,280 --> 00:24:56,359 Speaker 1: also talk about it because it did play a huge 473 00:24:56,359 --> 00:24:59,760 Speaker 1: part in twenty twenty for me when I was we 474 00:24:59,760 --> 00:25:02,840 Speaker 1: were all going through the pandemic and when I suffered 475 00:25:02,840 --> 00:25:05,040 Speaker 1: through depression and anxiety and other topic that I talk 476 00:25:05,080 --> 00:25:07,280 Speaker 1: about in the book. Not only was I going through 477 00:25:07,320 --> 00:25:09,240 Speaker 1: all of that, we were all going through that as 478 00:25:09,240 --> 00:25:12,600 Speaker 1: a whole worldwide, but I was going through my separation. 479 00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:16,119 Speaker 1: And then that's when shit got really sour with my 480 00:25:16,160 --> 00:25:18,960 Speaker 1: family was in twenty twenty. Actually it started in twenty 481 00:25:19,040 --> 00:25:21,760 Speaker 1: nineteen and then it just was really bad for twenty twenty. 482 00:25:21,840 --> 00:25:23,720 Speaker 1: So anyways, I explained all of that in the book, 483 00:25:24,200 --> 00:25:26,600 Speaker 1: But another takeaway of the book is dealing with my 484 00:25:26,640 --> 00:25:30,200 Speaker 1: body image and learning to embrace my curves and my body. 485 00:25:30,240 --> 00:25:32,360 Speaker 1: And it's something that I've said this before. I said 486 00:25:32,359 --> 00:25:34,200 Speaker 1: it in my Keto book as well and in Forgiveness. 487 00:25:34,560 --> 00:25:38,240 Speaker 1: I never really thought that I was big or fat. 488 00:25:38,359 --> 00:25:41,760 Speaker 1: It's when I stepped into being on a reality show 489 00:25:41,880 --> 00:25:45,159 Speaker 1: and then singing. Because of the comments of other people, 490 00:25:45,520 --> 00:25:47,640 Speaker 1: it was like this issue, like I always knew because 491 00:25:47,640 --> 00:25:50,960 Speaker 1: that WA a little bit thicker than the girls my 492 00:25:51,520 --> 00:25:55,159 Speaker 1: age that you know at school and stuff. But really 493 00:25:55,200 --> 00:25:57,720 Speaker 1: when I felt like, oh, shoot, am I really that fat? 494 00:25:57,960 --> 00:26:01,360 Speaker 1: Was when I started following my dream and the singing 495 00:26:01,400 --> 00:26:04,680 Speaker 1: and the reality shows and stuff. Because when you're on TV, 496 00:26:05,359 --> 00:26:07,879 Speaker 1: especially when I started, you're supposed to be a certain 497 00:26:07,920 --> 00:26:12,080 Speaker 1: size supposedly, so I really think, and I take pride 498 00:26:12,160 --> 00:26:14,280 Speaker 1: in I think I was one of the first ones 499 00:26:14,320 --> 00:26:16,480 Speaker 1: to say, hey, I love my body. I embrace it, 500 00:26:16,520 --> 00:26:18,600 Speaker 1: I am cute, I'm gonna be sexy whether it makes 501 00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:21,720 Speaker 1: you uncomfortable or not. But it has not been that easy. 502 00:26:21,760 --> 00:26:24,320 Speaker 1: You guys. It can come off as easy, but there 503 00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:26,119 Speaker 1: are days when I have been sad and I'm like, 504 00:26:26,160 --> 00:26:28,359 Speaker 1: why are people so mean? I would never say that 505 00:26:28,400 --> 00:26:30,960 Speaker 1: about someone. So I talk about that in the book 506 00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:32,720 Speaker 1: because I know there are a lot of women like 507 00:26:32,840 --> 00:26:36,600 Speaker 1: me that maybe are not in my position and don't 508 00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:39,840 Speaker 1: expose themselves the way I expose myself, like through everything 509 00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:43,120 Speaker 1: that I do. But I know that you guys may 510 00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:45,400 Speaker 1: feel the way I have felt at times, and when 511 00:26:45,400 --> 00:26:47,560 Speaker 1: you look in the mirror and you're not as happy 512 00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:51,679 Speaker 1: as you'd like to be, and how to embrace that 513 00:26:51,840 --> 00:26:55,080 Speaker 1: and learn to love yourself and really just focus on 514 00:26:55,119 --> 00:26:59,320 Speaker 1: yourself and how you can better yourself without comparing yourself 515 00:26:59,320 --> 00:27:02,119 Speaker 1: to others. When I first started writing the book, I 516 00:27:02,119 --> 00:27:05,280 Speaker 1: wrote everything and anything that came to mind. I was like, boom, boom, boom, 517 00:27:05,280 --> 00:27:07,480 Speaker 1: I'm wma talk about all of it, the good, the bad, 518 00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:09,800 Speaker 1: or the ugly, the hairy, all of it. I didn't 519 00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:14,800 Speaker 1: really care if anyone's feelings got hurt, if anyone got 520 00:27:15,080 --> 00:27:19,159 Speaker 1: bothered or upset. I was just writing because I was 521 00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:21,280 Speaker 1: trying to heal and just you know, let it out. 522 00:27:22,040 --> 00:27:25,359 Speaker 1: And then when I revisited everything like a year and 523 00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:27,480 Speaker 1: a half later, and we started a little bit of 524 00:27:27,480 --> 00:27:30,960 Speaker 1: the editing process, then that's when I said, okay, wait 525 00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:33,359 Speaker 1: a second, because again, you always have to check in 526 00:27:33,400 --> 00:27:35,359 Speaker 1: with your heart because things change. You know, you can 527 00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:37,199 Speaker 1: be in a moment of angering you're just writing and 528 00:27:37,240 --> 00:27:39,600 Speaker 1: expressing yourself, which is why is another reason I like 529 00:27:39,600 --> 00:27:42,040 Speaker 1: to write, because you just go You have that opportunity 530 00:27:42,040 --> 00:27:44,400 Speaker 1: to let it out and then reread it and say, okay, 531 00:27:44,400 --> 00:27:46,879 Speaker 1: well that's not very nice. So that's kind of what 532 00:27:46,920 --> 00:27:49,359 Speaker 1: I did. I didn't want to change a lot or 533 00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:51,680 Speaker 1: remove a lot of things, but there are certain little 534 00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:54,040 Speaker 1: things that I decided to just leave out for the 535 00:27:54,080 --> 00:27:57,520 Speaker 1: sake of the person that it would it might affect them. 536 00:27:57,800 --> 00:28:00,760 Speaker 1: I'm a huge believer and firm believer in treat people 537 00:28:00,760 --> 00:28:03,840 Speaker 1: the way you want to be treated and act in 538 00:28:03,880 --> 00:28:07,080 Speaker 1: a way throughout your entire life, whether people can see 539 00:28:07,119 --> 00:28:09,439 Speaker 1: you or not. That's where the word integrity comes in. 540 00:28:09,520 --> 00:28:13,560 Speaker 1: I'm a huge word for me, integrity, whether people can 541 00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:15,199 Speaker 1: see how you act with them or not, or what 542 00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:19,040 Speaker 1: you say behind their back. Always speak about people the 543 00:28:19,080 --> 00:28:21,479 Speaker 1: way you would want to be spoken about. So if 544 00:28:21,480 --> 00:28:23,359 Speaker 1: there's something that you've done and you're not proud of, 545 00:28:23,800 --> 00:28:25,720 Speaker 1: then maybe you shouldn't do it. That's why for me, 546 00:28:25,760 --> 00:28:28,560 Speaker 1: it's like, wait a second, is someone ever going to 547 00:28:28,600 --> 00:28:31,439 Speaker 1: be able to say that I treated them bad, that 548 00:28:31,520 --> 00:28:34,160 Speaker 1: I did this. Maybe maybe I'm not saying I'm perfect, 549 00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:36,480 Speaker 1: but I try to live my life in the way 550 00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:39,600 Speaker 1: of not ever letting people have that on me, to 551 00:28:39,680 --> 00:28:42,880 Speaker 1: have something negative to say about me. So I said 552 00:28:42,880 --> 00:28:45,040 Speaker 1: that in my first book Forgiveness, like I'm sorry, I'm 553 00:28:45,040 --> 00:28:47,200 Speaker 1: not trying to hurt anybody, but this is what happened, 554 00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:49,440 Speaker 1: and this is what you did, and maybe you should 555 00:28:49,480 --> 00:28:52,000 Speaker 1: think twice about doing it again so that someone doesn't 556 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:54,960 Speaker 1: write a book about it. So anyways, that's kind of 557 00:28:55,000 --> 00:28:57,600 Speaker 1: what I did with this book. I didn't necessarily leave 558 00:28:57,640 --> 00:28:59,920 Speaker 1: a big chunk of things out. It was just little, 559 00:29:00,080 --> 00:29:02,640 Speaker 1: minor things that I said, Okay, well, maybe I shouldn't 560 00:29:02,640 --> 00:29:05,840 Speaker 1: say that because it can get that person into trouble. Like, 561 00:29:05,920 --> 00:29:09,920 Speaker 1: for instance, something having to do with my aunt Rosie 562 00:29:10,360 --> 00:29:14,720 Speaker 1: when I won the Latin Grammy, I decided to leave 563 00:29:14,760 --> 00:29:18,840 Speaker 1: out exactly what she had said word for word, because 564 00:29:19,120 --> 00:29:22,120 Speaker 1: it was said in a group message and we have it. 565 00:29:22,760 --> 00:29:25,320 Speaker 1: But I decided to leave it out because it wasn't 566 00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:28,720 Speaker 1: necessarily something that was going to be good for her, 567 00:29:29,120 --> 00:29:32,560 Speaker 1: because it wasn't nice, you know, And I decided to 568 00:29:32,600 --> 00:29:35,360 Speaker 1: just leave out what she said and left it just 569 00:29:35,400 --> 00:29:38,280 Speaker 1: pretty vague. So it's little things like that that I 570 00:29:38,360 --> 00:29:42,800 Speaker 1: decided throughout the editing process to say, Okay, maybe we 571 00:29:42,840 --> 00:29:45,840 Speaker 1: shouldn't leave this in. But other than that, guys, it's 572 00:29:45,880 --> 00:29:49,080 Speaker 1: pretty straight to the point. It's pretty raw, very raw. Actually, 573 00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:51,720 Speaker 1: I think that again. I always say this, the only 574 00:29:51,760 --> 00:29:54,520 Speaker 1: way to change people's lives is to be brutally honest. 575 00:29:54,640 --> 00:29:57,640 Speaker 1: And this book, well, I'm brutally honest, even about things 576 00:29:57,640 --> 00:30:00,760 Speaker 1: that I'm not necessarily too proud of that I've done. 577 00:30:01,080 --> 00:30:03,480 Speaker 1: So as I look at my book because I have 578 00:30:03,520 --> 00:30:05,760 Speaker 1: it in my hand right now, it's a hard copy. 579 00:30:05,800 --> 00:30:09,240 Speaker 1: Unstoppable was a hard copy in Venzile, is a paperback. 580 00:30:09,520 --> 00:30:12,560 Speaker 1: But anyways, it just makes me feel so proud. I 581 00:30:12,640 --> 00:30:16,720 Speaker 1: remember every single step of writing this book, the moment 582 00:30:16,760 --> 00:30:18,640 Speaker 1: that I spoke to my agent and said I want 583 00:30:18,680 --> 00:30:20,040 Speaker 1: to write a book and this is what it's going 584 00:30:20,080 --> 00:30:23,320 Speaker 1: to be named again, completely different from Unstoppable, but anyways, 585 00:30:24,280 --> 00:30:27,560 Speaker 1: just to have it done here after all the edits 586 00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:30,840 Speaker 1: all the moments of crying, because as you write and 587 00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:33,600 Speaker 1: you're remembering all these things, you're living it again. So 588 00:30:34,360 --> 00:30:36,160 Speaker 1: it was tough. There were certain things that I'm like, 589 00:30:36,160 --> 00:30:37,560 Speaker 1: I don't even want to talk about that, but I'm like, no, 590 00:30:37,680 --> 00:30:40,360 Speaker 1: I have to. It helped me healed. After I would 591 00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:42,520 Speaker 1: write and I would cry for four or five hours. 592 00:30:43,040 --> 00:30:46,200 Speaker 1: I then felt lighter. I felt like, wow, I feel better. 593 00:30:46,240 --> 00:30:48,600 Speaker 1: Everything's going to be okay. It gave me hope and 594 00:30:48,720 --> 00:30:51,800 Speaker 1: to have it here now in my hands and it's 595 00:30:51,800 --> 00:30:53,600 Speaker 1: going to be available for all of you to read 596 00:30:54,080 --> 00:30:58,440 Speaker 1: as of tomorrow, I am just I'm just grateful. I'm 597 00:30:58,480 --> 00:31:02,880 Speaker 1: grateful and I'm happy that I was able to do this. 598 00:31:03,080 --> 00:31:06,640 Speaker 1: And it's crazy because Emilio was already in my life 599 00:31:06,840 --> 00:31:09,960 Speaker 1: when the book was done, and he's actually the person 600 00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:12,920 Speaker 1: that shot the cover of Unstoppable. A lot of people 601 00:31:13,000 --> 00:31:15,480 Speaker 1: don't know that, but that is the truth. I told 602 00:31:15,560 --> 00:31:17,959 Speaker 1: him what I wanted and what I envisioned. I'm very 603 00:31:18,040 --> 00:31:19,840 Speaker 1: particular about the things that I want, and dude, he 604 00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:22,600 Speaker 1: got it right on and we did it so fast. 605 00:31:23,080 --> 00:31:25,600 Speaker 1: So he took that picture, the cover picture, and also 606 00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:27,600 Speaker 1: my new author picture, so you guys will be able 607 00:31:27,680 --> 00:31:30,520 Speaker 1: to see that. The funny thing is Emilio took the 608 00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:33,200 Speaker 1: cover picture, but he has not read the book. I 609 00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:35,120 Speaker 1: asked him if he wanted to read it. He's like, no, 610 00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:37,800 Speaker 1: I'll just wait. He actually bought a few, he said, 611 00:31:38,240 --> 00:31:40,520 Speaker 1: so he should be getting them delivered tomorrow. So I 612 00:31:40,560 --> 00:31:43,120 Speaker 1: asked him. He's like, yeah, I'll read it when I'm 613 00:31:43,160 --> 00:31:45,320 Speaker 1: on tour, because he goes on to re Becky Gee 614 00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:46,760 Speaker 1: and a few artists, so like when he's on tour, 615 00:31:46,800 --> 00:31:48,760 Speaker 1: he's like, I'm going to read it. He started reading 616 00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:51,520 Speaker 1: Forgiveness and he said he couldn't finish it because it 617 00:31:51,600 --> 00:31:53,000 Speaker 1: was just too much. He's like, I can't believe you 618 00:31:53,040 --> 00:31:55,080 Speaker 1: went through all of that. So he said he's really 619 00:31:55,120 --> 00:31:57,840 Speaker 1: interested in reading Unstoppable. So I'm going to I'll keep 620 00:31:57,880 --> 00:31:59,560 Speaker 1: you guys updated on that to see if he really 621 00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:03,760 Speaker 1: did read it. I'm just excited. I'm excited. I feel accomplished. 622 00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:06,120 Speaker 1: I feel like a huge part of my heart and 623 00:32:06,160 --> 00:32:08,920 Speaker 1: pain that I went through in twenty nineteen, twenty twenty 624 00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:10,960 Speaker 1: and a little bit of twenty twenty one, well a 625 00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:14,960 Speaker 1: lot of twenty twenty one, anyways, I feel like it's 626 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:17,880 Speaker 1: healed a huge chunk of it thanks to this book. 627 00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:20,600 Speaker 1: And mainly, what I want you guys to learn while 628 00:32:20,640 --> 00:32:23,760 Speaker 1: you read this book is how you can also find 629 00:32:23,800 --> 00:32:27,400 Speaker 1: your strength. If I did it, if I have been 630 00:32:27,440 --> 00:32:30,560 Speaker 1: able to do it with everything that I've gone through 631 00:32:31,280 --> 00:32:34,880 Speaker 1: with my mom, with my dad, with the family, within 632 00:32:34,960 --> 00:32:37,960 Speaker 1: my love life, and I've been able to come out 633 00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:41,600 Speaker 1: on the other side stronger. I'm not saying I don't 634 00:32:41,600 --> 00:32:44,200 Speaker 1: have weak moments, because I do. There are times when 635 00:32:44,440 --> 00:32:45,880 Speaker 1: I just want to lay in bed and just cry, 636 00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:49,960 Speaker 1: and I allow myself to do that. But I haven't 637 00:32:50,280 --> 00:32:52,920 Speaker 1: let those moments define who I'm going to be in 638 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:56,880 Speaker 1: my future. I have not let those moments define my destiny. 639 00:32:57,400 --> 00:33:01,520 Speaker 1: I am a huge believer in we control. We create 640 00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:03,680 Speaker 1: our destiny with the decisions that we make on a 641 00:33:03,760 --> 00:33:09,280 Speaker 1: daily basis. So every day you find yourself making choices. Today, 642 00:33:09,480 --> 00:33:11,920 Speaker 1: I'm either going to go down this road or that road, 643 00:33:12,480 --> 00:33:16,040 Speaker 1: and whatever road I choose is definitely playing a part 644 00:33:16,120 --> 00:33:20,360 Speaker 1: in my destiny. So it's being very intentional every single 645 00:33:20,480 --> 00:33:23,680 Speaker 1: day about the decisions that we make, how we're going 646 00:33:23,720 --> 00:33:26,440 Speaker 1: to deal with things, and how we have to understand 647 00:33:27,040 --> 00:33:30,400 Speaker 1: that loss, whether it be love or a loved one 648 00:33:30,440 --> 00:33:33,360 Speaker 1: where they leave, where they graduate to heaven, a loss 649 00:33:33,400 --> 00:33:36,320 Speaker 1: of a job, any type of loss, any type of heartbreak, 650 00:33:36,360 --> 00:33:40,160 Speaker 1: any type of anxiety, abuse, any of it. No matter 651 00:33:40,200 --> 00:33:42,640 Speaker 1: what we've gone through, are we going to choose to 652 00:33:42,760 --> 00:33:46,480 Speaker 1: stay there and feel sorry for ourselves and dig deeper 653 00:33:46,560 --> 00:33:49,200 Speaker 1: into a black, dark hole, or are we going to 654 00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:52,600 Speaker 1: dig ourselves out, focus on the light at the end 655 00:33:52,640 --> 00:33:55,520 Speaker 1: of the tunnel, and really figure out how we're going 656 00:33:55,560 --> 00:33:58,040 Speaker 1: to be better. It may sound like my brother Mike, 657 00:33:58,080 --> 00:34:01,400 Speaker 1: you would say, dude, you are so like I'm always 658 00:34:01,440 --> 00:34:04,880 Speaker 1: just so optimistic, but I am. I feel like if 659 00:34:04,960 --> 00:34:06,640 Speaker 1: I'm not, how in the heck am I going to 660 00:34:06,680 --> 00:34:10,520 Speaker 1: get through this life? Like I have to be annoyingly optimistic, 661 00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:14,600 Speaker 1: annoyingly like you know, positive quotes, and also when I'm 662 00:34:14,640 --> 00:34:17,080 Speaker 1: having a bad day, efit say it too, you know, 663 00:34:17,200 --> 00:34:21,200 Speaker 1: But that's my choice. I want to be happy. I 664 00:34:21,320 --> 00:34:24,239 Speaker 1: want to inspire others, and this book is just that. 665 00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:28,280 Speaker 1: I want you, guys to also feel unstoppable, to also 666 00:34:29,040 --> 00:34:33,200 Speaker 1: feel invincible immensively. And this is that book that's going 667 00:34:33,239 --> 00:34:35,600 Speaker 1: to basically give you all the things that I've done 668 00:34:36,080 --> 00:34:38,080 Speaker 1: and that I do on a daily basis, my routine, 669 00:34:38,120 --> 00:34:40,640 Speaker 1: because it's important to have a routine. That's another thing 670 00:34:40,680 --> 00:34:44,239 Speaker 1: we talk about in the book, having routines, being consistent, 671 00:34:44,640 --> 00:34:47,560 Speaker 1: being determined, disciplined. All of those things play a part 672 00:34:48,080 --> 00:34:51,439 Speaker 1: in being successful in anything that you do. So that's 673 00:34:51,440 --> 00:34:53,560 Speaker 1: what I want you, guys, to get from this book. 674 00:34:53,640 --> 00:34:56,279 Speaker 1: And I really hope and pray because even if it's 675 00:34:56,320 --> 00:34:58,600 Speaker 1: one person that reads the book and feels this way 676 00:34:58,640 --> 00:35:02,000 Speaker 1: and feels inspired and empowered to become the person you 677 00:35:02,040 --> 00:35:05,279 Speaker 1: are meant to be, that to me is just it's 678 00:35:05,360 --> 00:35:12,880 Speaker 1: like I am taking a step, a big step actually 679 00:35:12,920 --> 00:35:16,240 Speaker 1: towards my godly purpose, my mission in life. So yeah, guys, 680 00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:19,200 Speaker 1: that's unstoppable. I hope you all pick it up. I'm 681 00:35:19,239 --> 00:35:21,960 Speaker 1: also going on a book tour. Will have details of 682 00:35:22,040 --> 00:35:24,239 Speaker 1: all of that in my show notes, so don't forget 683 00:35:24,239 --> 00:35:27,480 Speaker 1: to look. And today's motivational Monday quote is straight from 684 00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:31,040 Speaker 1: my book, Okay, straight from Unstoppable. It is get up, 685 00:35:31,160 --> 00:35:34,560 Speaker 1: get out and do something because if you don't, someone 686 00:35:34,600 --> 00:35:38,040 Speaker 1: else will. That's what makes you unstoppable. Guys, thank you 687 00:35:38,160 --> 00:35:40,200 Speaker 1: so much from the bottom of my heart for listening 688 00:35:40,480 --> 00:35:44,239 Speaker 1: to all my episodes here on Cheeky's and Chill and yes, 689 00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:47,120 Speaker 1: pick up my book. Have a great week, guys, let's 690 00:35:47,160 --> 00:35:53,600 Speaker 1: get on. This is a production of iHeartRadio and Mike 691 00:35:53,640 --> 00:35:57,760 Speaker 1: wa podcast Network. Follow us on Instagram at mike Utura 692 00:35:57,880 --> 00:36:01,799 Speaker 1: Podcasts and follow me Cheeky's That's c h I q 693 00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:06,040 Speaker 1: U y s. For more podcasts from iHeart, visit the 694 00:36:06,160 --> 00:36:09,880 Speaker 1: iHeartRadio app, Apple podcasts, or wherever you listen to your 695 00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:10,640 Speaker 1: favorite shows.