WEBVTT - ARE YOU INTERESTING? 0:00:00.640 --> 0:00:04.760 Really goes on the line, make your own calls every night, 0:00:06.040 --> 0:00:17.200 goes to his teaching you. 0:00:16.440 --> 0:00:18.640 All from Jake. 0:00:20.280 --> 0:00:26.160 Jake, Oh, no way, is this real? 0:00:29.880 --> 0:00:30.200 He here? 0:00:30.320 --> 0:00:35.000 What do you think? Yes, he's really tonight. Can I 0:00:35.000 --> 0:00:35.640 answer your question? 0:00:36.479 --> 0:00:37.400 Yeah, go ahead. 0:00:37.680 --> 0:00:42.680 Do you typically have a hard time distinguishing reality from fantasy? 0:00:44.760 --> 0:00:48.040 I would say, give me a stack. 0:00:49.920 --> 0:00:53.239 Reality versus fantasy. 0:00:53.479 --> 0:00:57.440 Then do you have a hard time distinguishing reality from fantasy? 0:00:59.240 --> 0:01:01.640 No, I wouldn't say I do. But I would say 0:01:01.800 --> 0:01:05.520 I fantasize a lot. But I would say, like a 0:01:05.600 --> 0:01:09.760 good way, right, Like I fantasized about being rich or 0:01:09.800 --> 0:01:12.480 you know, having a certain car. But I wouldn't say 0:01:12.600 --> 0:01:15.959 over fantasized where it's the point it's not achievable, if 0:01:16.000 --> 0:01:16.640 that makes sense. 0:01:17.360 --> 0:01:21.400 You fantasize about wealth primarily, oh. 0:01:21.840 --> 0:01:25.840 A lot, even my friends, or like you're really financially 0:01:27.120 --> 0:01:30.280 you know, driven, and you know I agree with them. 0:01:30.920 --> 0:01:33.640 I do think that money can solve like most of 0:01:33.680 --> 0:01:38.399 your problems, right, maybe not all of them? Oh yeah, interesting, Like. 0:01:39.319 --> 0:01:41.360 Tell me, tell me tell me about some of the 0:01:41.440 --> 0:01:45.000 problems that you currently have that you believe money would solve. 0:01:48.200 --> 0:01:51.600 I wouldn't right now. I would say I have almost 0:01:51.680 --> 0:01:55.880 zero problems in my life. I just got back from 0:01:55.880 --> 0:01:59.720 like a deployment overseas, right and being home. I got 0:01:59.720 --> 0:02:02.600 home probably a month and a half ago, and right 0:02:02.640 --> 0:02:06.480 now I'm just chilling right, not doing anything unemployed, which 0:02:06.520 --> 0:02:11.600 is really nice. But money, right, got this new place 0:02:11.720 --> 0:02:14.120 down at school, me and my buddy's got to gout 0:02:14.120 --> 0:02:18.480 with We got it with the GI bill, right, super nice, 0:02:18.480 --> 0:02:23.360 thousand dollars a month each person, two pools of Yeah, 0:02:23.480 --> 0:02:26.920 it's an apartment complex, but super nice and money. You know, 0:02:27.160 --> 0:02:29.799 Without it, I wouldn't I wouldn't be able to have that, right, 0:02:30.040 --> 0:02:33.040 and it just made me a lot happier like being there. 0:02:34.400 --> 0:02:34.839 M hmm. 0:02:35.600 --> 0:02:37.000 But you told me just now that you feel like 0:02:37.000 --> 0:02:38.320 you don't have any problems. 0:02:40.120 --> 0:02:42.920 Yeah, I wouldn't say I have any like huge problems. 0:02:45.080 --> 0:02:50.560 M Well, at place? Is it in a high Is 0:02:50.600 --> 0:02:52.440 it in like New York? Or is it in like 0:02:52.520 --> 0:02:53.240 the Midwest? 0:02:53.320 --> 0:02:53.400 Like? 0:02:53.520 --> 0:02:58.000 Is it in a how it's it's in Illinois. It's 0:02:58.000 --> 0:03:02.399 at Illinois State University, right kind of a shape. Yeah, 0:03:02.440 --> 0:03:08.760 I know, right by government's paying for it super easy. 0:03:10.600 --> 0:03:12.880 So you you're not talking about you know, because I 0:03:12.960 --> 0:03:15.200 understand you. I when I say, well, when I think 0:03:15.240 --> 0:03:17.679 about wealth for me personally, I like to have enough 0:03:17.680 --> 0:03:20.560 money that I don't have to, like do things that 0:03:20.600 --> 0:03:22.520 I don't want to do. I don't think about money 0:03:22.520 --> 0:03:25.120 in terms of like I want to have. I actually 0:03:25.120 --> 0:03:28.640 I kind of hate luxury, you know, big pools and 0:03:28.840 --> 0:03:30.519 nice cars and oh. 0:03:30.480 --> 0:03:34.000 Sure, I kind of like that. I think that money 0:03:34.040 --> 0:03:38.240 gives you opportunities though, right, So if I don't want 0:03:38.280 --> 0:03:40.880 to do them, like you said, like I can pay 0:03:40.920 --> 0:03:43.760 someone to do it, like I would like if your 0:03:43.760 --> 0:03:45.880 house is dirty, right, if my car is dirty or 0:03:46.440 --> 0:03:49.520 my house, sure, I'm not going to myself. I'd rather 0:03:49.680 --> 0:03:51.720 pay someone to do it because I think my time's 0:03:51.760 --> 0:03:54.040 more valuable than cleaning house. 0:03:54.920 --> 0:03:58.760 Well here's the thing though, Uh Still, if you pay 0:03:58.800 --> 0:04:00.800 other people to do all the things that you don't 0:04:00.840 --> 0:04:03.360 want to do and you free up your time, you 0:04:03.400 --> 0:04:06.240 are still going to have to have something that is 0:04:06.320 --> 0:04:10.880 worth your time or else you're just gonna be bored 0:04:10.920 --> 0:04:12.120 and floating. 0:04:11.800 --> 0:04:14.880 Bold No, I agree. I you know, I work out 0:04:14.920 --> 0:04:17.880 a lot, we party a lot. Right now, what we're 0:04:17.920 --> 0:04:19.719 trying to do, we're trying to start this business. 0:04:19.800 --> 0:04:19.960 Right. 0:04:20.080 --> 0:04:22.560 Me and my my buddy from high school, known him 0:04:22.680 --> 0:04:25.960 eight years and we're trying to start this business, so 0:04:26.000 --> 0:04:27.960 we got we kind of have that going for us. 0:04:28.000 --> 0:04:31.800 We haven't launched it yet, but we're you know, it's 0:04:31.800 --> 0:04:34.400 in the works, i'd say, So I've been using that 0:04:34.480 --> 0:04:35.800 to kind of occupy my time. 0:04:38.240 --> 0:04:40.280 M what's the business? 0:04:40.960 --> 0:04:44.039 So my buddy works in Chicago. He he does like 0:04:44.120 --> 0:04:47.400 it consultant, right, so he goes to companies and does 0:04:47.440 --> 0:04:50.320 it and stuff for them. So he wants to he 0:04:50.360 --> 0:04:52.800 wants to do something that's kind of like the Geek Squad, right, 0:04:53.120 --> 0:04:57.080 but for like personal personal it t help. So you know, 0:04:57.120 --> 0:04:59.440 we'd go to our house and we we'd help them 0:04:59.440 --> 0:05:03.840 out with you know, wire management, and he's more the 0:05:03.880 --> 0:05:07.400 tech side of it. I personally don't know really anything 0:05:07.440 --> 0:05:09.960 about it, but you know, we do all that stuff 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:13.680 for people, and there's not really anything like it, i'd 0:05:13.680 --> 0:05:16.320 say right now. I mean Geek Squad, but they're more 0:05:16.320 --> 0:05:18.679 of like a huge chain. You know, I would assume 0:05:18.720 --> 0:05:22.960 their marketing is not it's good because they're best buy, 0:05:23.080 --> 0:05:24.800 but you know, someone who's going to start their own 0:05:24.800 --> 0:05:27.320 business is going to reach out more to people, So 0:05:27.480 --> 0:05:29.560 I think that would be That's kind of what's going 0:05:29.600 --> 0:05:30.200 on right now. 0:05:30.720 --> 0:05:32.880 Well, Jake listen. I wish you the best of luck. 0:05:32.920 --> 0:05:36.520 I wish you all of your dreams come true. And 0:05:36.839 --> 0:05:39.760 more importantly than wishing your dreams come true, I wish 0:05:39.760 --> 0:05:43.040 that your dreams align with what's genuinely important to you. 0:05:44.560 --> 0:05:46.080 Hey, man, I appreciate that a lot. 0:05:46.200 --> 0:05:46.880 It was. 0:05:46.760 --> 0:05:47.640 It was really nice talk. 0:05:48.520 --> 0:05:50.040 Nice talking to you, Jake. You have a good rest of 0:05:50.080 --> 0:05:51.279 that you too. 0:05:51.440 --> 0:05:56.080 By all from Marcus. 0:05:57.279 --> 0:05:58.559 Marcus. 0:05:59.400 --> 0:05:59.960 Hey, what's up? 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:00.200 Uh? 0:06:00.760 --> 0:06:00.880 Hey? 0:06:00.920 --> 0:06:01.679 You doing Marcus? 0:06:02.520 --> 0:06:03.520 I'm doing pretty all right. 0:06:03.560 --> 0:06:04.240 How are you doing? 0:06:04.880 --> 0:06:11.280 You know, Marcus, I'm a gecko on the computer. Yeah, 0:06:11.320 --> 0:06:13.560 it's so it's so hard for Marcus because I try 0:06:13.680 --> 0:06:19.760 not to. I don't I don't like to say things. 0:06:19.800 --> 0:06:23.000 I don't like to be preachy, but I I I 0:06:23.120 --> 0:06:29.040 do believe that. I really do that, you know. I 0:06:29.200 --> 0:06:31.839 don't know why everyone on everyone's always seeking to like 0:06:31.920 --> 0:06:34.240 get each other and be like, here's why you suck. Yeah, 0:06:34.240 --> 0:06:36.600 here's why you suck, instead of like trying to just 0:06:36.600 --> 0:06:39.560 listen to whatever the fucking person has to say. 0:06:39.720 --> 0:06:43.080 It's always I mean, what do you have to say? 0:06:44.279 --> 0:06:45.680 And who cares what I have to say? Marcus? I 0:06:45.720 --> 0:06:49.200 have a question for you. Yeah, are you interesting? 0:06:50.640 --> 0:06:53.080 You know? Here Okay, here's what I got to convince 0:06:53.120 --> 0:06:53.880 you that I'm interesting. 0:06:53.920 --> 0:06:55.840 Okay, you don't have to convince me. 0:06:56.760 --> 0:06:59.560 Oh well, I'm trying. I'm gonna try to either way, 0:07:00.120 --> 0:07:00.400 do it. 0:07:01.240 --> 0:07:01.560 Okay? 0:07:01.720 --> 0:07:05.400 So all right, So I grew up in Minnesota. I 0:07:05.480 --> 0:07:08.400 turned eighteen and I was like, fuck Minnesota. So then 0:07:08.880 --> 0:07:11.360 I moved to Alaska and now I live in Alaska, 0:07:11.400 --> 0:07:14.680 and then I started working as I live in Alaska. Bro, 0:07:15.320 --> 0:07:16.760 it's pretty it's pretty lit up here. 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:19.200 What do you do there, dude? 0:07:19.240 --> 0:07:23.520 I'm a pet crematorium person, so I like I burn 0:07:23.560 --> 0:07:25.160 animals for fun for a living. 0:07:28.040 --> 0:07:31.600 That sounds insanely depressing, dude, it's. 0:07:31.400 --> 0:07:32.360 Not even that bad. 0:07:32.480 --> 0:07:36.120 Like I'm you know, people can say that they I 0:07:36.240 --> 0:07:39.360 do it to give them last moments of dignity, but 0:07:39.400 --> 0:07:40.080 it's really. 0:07:39.880 --> 0:07:40.480 Not that bad. 0:07:43.000 --> 0:07:46.600 How did you come upon this job? I'm curious. Did 0:07:46.640 --> 0:07:49.800 you happen upon when you moved to Alaska. Did you 0:07:49.920 --> 0:07:55.080 happen upon an appealing job ad for a pet crematorium 0:07:55.160 --> 0:08:00.200 or did you go out in search no it or 0:08:01.640 --> 0:08:02.280 burning pets? 0:08:03.360 --> 0:08:03.520 No. 0:08:04.040 --> 0:08:06.280 I was just on indeed, and it just popped up 0:08:06.320 --> 0:08:07.160 and I was like, you know. 0:08:07.120 --> 0:08:08.200 What this is? 0:08:08.400 --> 0:08:11.280 This is my calling right here. For some reason, it 0:08:11.440 --> 0:08:15.160 just made sense. I work like three twelve hour shifts. 0:08:15.280 --> 0:08:17.520 It's like four days off a week. It's pretty it's 0:08:17.560 --> 0:08:18.080 pretty great. 0:08:18.240 --> 0:08:21.240 Honestly, when you say it's your calling. 0:08:22.280 --> 0:08:25.680 You know, honestly, what is it about pet. 0:08:25.440 --> 0:08:29.120 Crematorium that jives so well with you as a person? 0:08:31.480 --> 0:08:31.680 You know? 0:08:32.760 --> 0:08:34.680 I mean I love that I get to work alone 0:08:35.120 --> 0:08:39.360 all the time. So I'm just alone that animals aware 0:08:39.400 --> 0:08:42.360 of and it works great. I like I get to 0:08:42.400 --> 0:08:45.560 listen to music, I get to listen to podcasts, you know, 0:08:46.520 --> 0:08:48.079 I just get to contemplate life. 0:08:49.320 --> 0:08:51.680 I'm cus I'm very curious what music you listen to 0:08:51.720 --> 0:08:55.560 while you're burning pets, and how and how badly it 0:08:55.640 --> 0:08:59.880 contrasts with the situation like if you're listening to you, 0:09:00.040 --> 0:09:04.600 I know, I got I I can't name I can't 0:09:04.679 --> 0:09:06.760 name a single musical artist, but like some sort of 0:09:06.840 --> 0:09:09.200 upbeat pop song. 0:09:10.200 --> 0:09:16.959 Yeah, I mean like Crystal Castles the Stereo lab Yeah right. 0:09:17.160 --> 0:09:20.640 He does get pretty uh pretty dirty also, which is 0:09:21.040 --> 0:09:23.760 not what I was expecting. But also we we have 0:09:23.800 --> 0:09:27.480 to like do horses sometimes too, and that's like you 0:09:27.520 --> 0:09:31.160 have to like dismember them. Yeah, it's crazymember them. 0:09:31.920 --> 0:09:34.520 Yeah, like yourself. 0:09:35.520 --> 0:09:40.200 Yeah, dude, Yeah, we have tool for each layer. I 0:09:40.240 --> 0:09:42.280 don't I don't know how gory you're trying to get, 0:09:42.320 --> 0:09:46.960 but it's it's pretty uh, you know, just you know, 0:09:47.000 --> 0:09:49.560 you have to associate a little bit because it's pretty 0:09:49.600 --> 0:09:50.520 it's pretty intense. 0:09:51.280 --> 0:09:58.720 Have you always been this uh desensitized to the idea 0:09:58.840 --> 0:10:05.280 of dismembering a whole or did this something you developed recently? 0:10:06.520 --> 0:10:06.720 You know? 0:10:06.800 --> 0:10:07.080 I would. 0:10:07.120 --> 0:10:10.880 I would say that I'm pretty good at, like, you know, 0:10:11.720 --> 0:10:17.000 dissociating from situations, but specifically the horses, just because I 0:10:17.120 --> 0:10:19.080 like the job in general, so you kind of have 0:10:19.200 --> 0:10:25.240 to sacrifice some things, you know, to get the job done. 0:10:24.240 --> 0:10:24.360 Mm. 0:10:26.360 --> 0:10:27.800 Do you think you could dismember a horse? 0:10:28.440 --> 0:10:31.719 Absolutely not tonally I could dismember a horse. I think 0:10:31.760 --> 0:10:34.120 a horse could dismember me, though I don't think they 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:35.120 would have problems doing that. 0:10:35.960 --> 0:10:37.960 Absolutely they would not mind at all. 0:10:39.120 --> 0:10:42.960 M Do you do you ever want to, like, would 0:10:42.960 --> 0:10:45.079 you ever do people or are you sticking to animals 0:10:45.080 --> 0:10:45.360 for now? 0:10:46.440 --> 0:10:50.160 I would I would do people, but it's a completely 0:10:50.160 --> 0:10:54.480 different process from animals. Like with animals you put multiple 0:10:54.520 --> 0:10:59.280 in one giant like ovens, and with humans it's like 0:10:59.320 --> 0:11:02.440 a lot small are a little more delicate of a process, 0:11:03.040 --> 0:11:05.200 so you know, it would just depend again, like I 0:11:05.240 --> 0:11:07.720 really enjoy working alone, so I would have to work 0:11:07.720 --> 0:11:11.960 with a lot more people or with people dead analyze 0:11:12.080 --> 0:11:14.280 if I was doing people. So I kind of like 0:11:14.320 --> 0:11:15.880 my gig now, but who knows. 0:11:15.920 --> 0:11:16.440 We'll see. 0:11:17.640 --> 0:11:20.480 Hm, Well, what'd you say? Your name was? 0:11:21.360 --> 0:11:22.520 Marcus? 0:11:22.520 --> 0:11:24.839 Marcus? I'm I'm very happy that you found your calling 0:11:25.679 --> 0:11:28.160 and I wish you good luck in the future. 0:11:29.080 --> 0:11:31.439 All right, I appreciate it. Have a good night you. 0:11:31.440 --> 0:11:37.680 Too, Okay, caw from d K. 0:11:39.559 --> 0:11:40.319 Donkey Kong. 0:11:41.720 --> 0:11:45.080 Hello, Oh no, it's not Donkey Kong. It's shortened from 0:11:45.120 --> 0:11:45.960 my actual name. 0:11:46.960 --> 0:11:52.400 M So, donkey Kong. What were you doing right before 0:11:52.400 --> 0:11:52.920 you called in? 0:11:54.000 --> 0:11:57.440 I was watching the stream. I'm concerned about your gloves. 0:11:57.480 --> 0:11:59.840 They look like they're kind of coming apart on the right. 0:12:01.480 --> 0:12:01.680 You know. 0:12:01.760 --> 0:12:09.319 Look, I appreciate the concern. The the gloves are modified 0:12:09.440 --> 0:12:14.000 intentionally to make it easier for me to uh use 0:12:14.080 --> 0:12:17.120 the scroll. I don't know if you've ever tried to 0:12:17.200 --> 0:12:23.000 use the track pad of your mind, but it's not 0:12:23.080 --> 0:12:24.360 a winning strategy. 0:12:24.880 --> 0:12:25.240 So I have. 0:12:27.440 --> 0:12:34.480 Admittedly a very small I believe part of the illusion. 0:12:35.520 --> 0:12:41.240 Why not put on a pair for practicality, the thin 0:12:41.360 --> 0:12:42.240 latex gloves. 0:12:42.280 --> 0:12:47.560 You know, everything, it's all, everything is more trouble than 0:12:47.600 --> 0:12:51.200 it's worth. I would rather have the weird holes. 0:12:51.679 --> 0:12:53.640 Well, you know what, It's okay, it's not that noticeable 0:12:53.640 --> 0:12:54.640 except for it was the first. 0:12:54.520 --> 0:12:55.079 Thing I noticed. 0:12:55.080 --> 0:12:56.280 But other than that, it's all good. 0:12:57.920 --> 0:12:59.960 Well look okay, but here's the thing you've got got past. 0:13:00.000 --> 0:13:00.800 I stood eventually. 0:13:02.320 --> 0:13:04.920 Yeah, no, I did for sure. But that we're my 0:13:05.000 --> 0:13:06.600 calling through and I walked away from the stream. Now 0:13:06.640 --> 0:13:08.480 I can't see you because my voice was messing me up. 0:13:09.840 --> 0:13:11.840 Your voice is, oh right, because of the echo. But 0:13:11.920 --> 0:13:15.199 now we're here. But now we're here, and the two 0:13:15.280 --> 0:13:18.480 holes things. The objective that I had of doing the 0:13:18.520 --> 0:13:20.960 stream is to get people into the stream, and that 0:13:21.000 --> 0:13:26.200 objective has been complete, regardless of the holes in the 0:13:26.280 --> 0:13:27.920 And I also have an objective of being able to 0:13:28.000 --> 0:13:30.880 use my computer to take calls, so that objective has 0:13:30.880 --> 0:13:31.720 been fulfilled as well. 0:13:32.559 --> 0:13:34.360 I can't even do that. And I'm supposed to be 0:13:34.440 --> 0:13:36.600 like a gen Z millennial. Fuck I don't. I don't 0:13:36.600 --> 0:13:38.439 know how to do that. I can't take calls from 0:13:38.440 --> 0:13:41.080 my computer. I've tried, so good for you. More power 0:13:41.080 --> 0:13:41.559 to you man. 0:13:41.840 --> 0:13:43.760 Thank you very much, Thank you very very much. Are 0:13:43.760 --> 0:13:47.240 you interesting? Here's my gig. 0:13:47.280 --> 0:13:49.760 I don't think that I'm particularly interesting, but I think 0:13:49.800 --> 0:13:53.960 that I have interesting stories. Tell me, I used to 0:13:53.960 --> 0:13:56.679 be a bartender at this crazy little dive bar literally 0:13:56.720 --> 0:14:01.040 tiny right, cash only and weird ship would happened there. 0:14:01.280 --> 0:14:03.160 Uh and uh, you know, I was just a chick 0:14:03.200 --> 0:14:05.160 behind the bars, just me. One time we had a 0:14:05.240 --> 0:14:09.640 dude come in. I kid you not shirt only white shirt? 0:14:10.360 --> 0:14:10.480 Uh? 0:14:10.600 --> 0:14:11.920 Straight, Winnie the poo in it. 0:14:11.800 --> 0:14:12.360 If you will. 0:14:12.960 --> 0:14:13.320 Uh. 0:14:14.040 --> 0:14:15.880 It was like there was a Russian poker game across 0:14:15.880 --> 0:14:16.280 the street and. 0:14:16.240 --> 0:14:17.920 He had nothing left to bet. He literally just had 0:14:17.960 --> 0:14:18.439 a shirt one. 0:14:18.679 --> 0:14:19.400 I didn't know what to do. 0:14:19.480 --> 0:14:20.400 I almost served him. 0:14:21.880 --> 0:14:22.760 Why why didn't you? 0:14:24.480 --> 0:14:27.480 Because one of the bar regulars kicked him out for me. 0:14:27.560 --> 0:14:28.880 I guess I don't know what to do in those 0:14:28.920 --> 0:14:29.720 types of situations. 0:14:29.760 --> 0:14:31.720 I freeze up. I mean, like they. 0:14:31.680 --> 0:14:33.920 Say no shoes, no shirt, but he had a shirt 0:14:34.440 --> 0:14:36.040 and he had socks, which I count. 0:14:36.480 --> 0:14:38.640 They really need They really do need to amend that. 0:14:39.240 --> 0:14:41.680 After that, They really do need to include a pants 0:14:43.000 --> 0:14:44.680 segment of that. 0:14:44.680 --> 0:14:46.920 That pot they do is because you can't skip that. 0:14:46.920 --> 0:14:48.840 That's the one part that. Honestly, I would like to wait. 0:14:48.920 --> 0:14:50.520 So he wasn't wearing underwear either. 0:14:51.800 --> 0:14:53.840 I mean, I don't think though, but I really wasn't 0:14:54.120 --> 0:14:55.400 work least. 0:14:55.880 --> 0:14:59.120 Was the shirt long enough to cover his penis? 0:14:59.400 --> 0:15:01.400 Oh yeah, the I was poking out. Nothing was poking 0:15:01.480 --> 0:15:03.200 out at least when I looked. 0:15:03.200 --> 0:15:04.200 But I looked like twice. 0:15:04.560 --> 0:15:06.160 Okay, so there was a positive. I mean, maybe there 0:15:06.240 --> 0:15:09.400 was a possibility that he was wearing like, you know, 0:15:09.560 --> 0:15:14.360 a song or like, uh, you know, a speedo or something, 0:15:14.400 --> 0:15:16.840 but we just didn't know, right, or you know, you. 0:15:16.920 --> 0:15:18.480 Just instead of a slong dong. 0:15:18.400 --> 0:15:20.080 It was a slurt. 0:15:20.440 --> 0:15:23.640 What's a slurt, it's a slort dong, or it's a 0:15:23.680 --> 0:15:24.200 short dong. 0:15:25.640 --> 0:15:28.240 Oh yeah, I. 0:15:28.120 --> 0:15:28.480 Feel like. 0:15:30.320 --> 0:15:32.640 Hmm, no, I've never heard the term slirt. Maybe that's 0:15:32.680 --> 0:15:34.640 a gen Z millennial thing that you're talking about. 0:15:34.960 --> 0:15:36.600 Yeah, pick it up. It's it's kind of fun. It 0:15:36.680 --> 0:15:37.760 rolls off the tongue a little bit. 0:15:38.320 --> 0:15:39.920 But there we go. You you you are a gen 0:15:40.000 --> 0:15:41.600 Z millennial. You le you've proved yourself wrong. 0:15:43.800 --> 0:15:44.280 I guess so. 0:15:44.440 --> 0:15:44.760 I don't know. 0:15:44.800 --> 0:15:45.520 I'm ninety seven. 0:15:45.560 --> 0:15:45.960 I don't know. 0:15:46.000 --> 0:15:48.120 I don't know where that puts me. 0:15:48.240 --> 0:15:50.560 Everybody tells me, I'm millennial. People tell me I'm gen z. 0:15:50.640 --> 0:15:51.040 I don't know. 0:15:51.280 --> 0:15:52.640 I don't know where it ends. 0:15:52.960 --> 0:15:56.640 Well, listen, I don't know how much time you have 0:15:56.720 --> 0:15:58.600 left on this earth at ninety seven years old, but 0:15:58.600 --> 0:16:00.160 I hope you make the best of it. 0:16:01.480 --> 0:16:06.680 I'm must okay, Yeah, No, you're right, You're right. You 0:16:06.720 --> 0:16:12.640 have one for us. 0:16:12.240 --> 0:16:17.680 All from Tasha, Tasha, gag? 0:16:19.560 --> 0:16:22.640 What's up? Tashasha? Have we ever spoken before? 0:16:26.040 --> 0:16:26.360 Hello? 0:16:26.640 --> 0:16:27.080 Tasha? 0:16:28.080 --> 0:16:28.600 Can you hear me? 0:16:29.400 --> 0:16:30.400 How are you doing? Tasha? 0:16:30.880 --> 0:16:31.560 I'm saying good? 0:16:31.560 --> 0:16:32.120 How are you doing? 0:16:32.160 --> 0:16:34.920 Greg doing good? What's your life like? 0:16:36.280 --> 0:16:36.480 Oh? 0:16:36.600 --> 0:16:38.680 No, I think that was pretty fun? 0:16:40.360 --> 0:16:41.320 It's pretty fun? 0:16:42.040 --> 0:16:42.280 Yeah? 0:16:43.600 --> 0:16:47.360 What interesting? A lot of you know, when people are 0:16:47.400 --> 0:16:50.520 asked the question of what their life is like, sometimes 0:16:50.560 --> 0:16:54.280 they'll get bad or good. But rarely do I find 0:16:54.320 --> 0:16:56.600 people who get more specific than that. But I find 0:16:56.600 --> 0:16:58.640 that the more specific people do get, the more it 0:16:58.720 --> 0:17:01.400 is that they mean when they're saying. 0:17:01.040 --> 0:17:05.560 It one hundred percent like I like to. I don't know. 0:17:05.560 --> 0:17:09.320 I try to bring optimism in as much as I possibly. 0:17:08.920 --> 0:17:13.119 Can't really, So what's I mean? So you say your 0:17:13.160 --> 0:17:15.000 life is fun? What's the most fun thing going on 0:17:15.080 --> 0:17:15.440 in there? 0:17:16.720 --> 0:17:19.720 Most of I mean honestly just the end of the well, 0:17:19.760 --> 0:17:22.639 not the end of the pandemic, because it's clearly still happening. 0:17:22.680 --> 0:17:26.360 But you know, people getting vaccinated, people starting to get 0:17:26.560 --> 0:17:29.840 freed up, you know, like getting out of the house 0:17:29.880 --> 0:17:31.359 and stuff. So I feel like that's fun and you're 0:17:31.359 --> 0:17:34.040 getting to socialized with my friends again. You need to 0:17:34.040 --> 0:17:35.600 be out in the summertime in the pool. 0:17:37.080 --> 0:17:40.679 M hmmm. What's the what's what's What's something that you 0:17:40.840 --> 0:17:46.440 really really wanted to do? Uh before while the pandemic 0:17:46.520 --> 0:17:47.959 was going on, that you couldn't do that you can 0:17:48.000 --> 0:17:48.320 do now. 0:17:48.520 --> 0:17:51.879 Oh my gosh. Concerts, concerts, getting to go to lives 0:17:52.040 --> 0:17:53.359 music shows. 0:17:54.040 --> 0:17:54.440 Mm hmm. 0:17:57.000 --> 0:18:00.000 Do when you go to concert do you do you typically? 0:18:00.040 --> 0:18:02.800 Do you like go to punk doumash? Do you have 0:18:03.200 --> 0:18:06.000 punched people in the face and ship you go hard? Oh? 0:18:06.080 --> 0:18:13.240 Yeah, Like this reminds me of going to Travis Scott Like. 0:18:14.320 --> 0:18:16.800 I have a very efflective music taste, So I could 0:18:16.800 --> 0:18:19.879 be like front row at Taylor Swift, so excited. I 0:18:19.920 --> 0:18:22.639 could be like out like ouscro world. 0:18:23.800 --> 0:18:26.199 M hm, Tasha, are you interesting? 0:18:27.600 --> 0:18:29.080 I'm absolutely interested. 0:18:29.920 --> 0:18:31.360 You're absolutely interested. 0:18:31.960 --> 0:18:32.320 Yes. 0:18:32.920 --> 0:18:34.960 Everything you've said to that you say with such conviction. 0:18:35.040 --> 0:18:38.199 I'd love to hear why you believe you're interesting. 0:18:39.200 --> 0:18:42.840 I mean, I guess I just get told that a lot, 0:18:42.960 --> 0:18:45.600 and like I had somebody told me the other day, Tash, 0:18:45.680 --> 0:18:48.960 you literally have a story for everything, like anything like 0:18:49.040 --> 0:18:51.920 fun that you could like possibly even do, like you've 0:18:51.960 --> 0:18:53.880 done it, or you try. 0:18:53.680 --> 0:18:57.040 To see someone told you that you've done every fun 0:18:57.119 --> 0:18:57.520 thing you. 0:18:57.480 --> 0:19:01.600 Could possibly not every fun thing, but like he just always, 0:19:01.640 --> 0:19:03.840 like every single time we bring something up, you always 0:19:03.840 --> 0:19:06.400 have a story that like correlates with something that you've 0:19:06.440 --> 0:19:08.879 done or like you know, like a funny story like 0:19:09.200 --> 0:19:09.960 you know that has. 0:19:09.800 --> 0:19:10.200 To do with that. 0:19:11.000 --> 0:19:14.080 Oh things, Well, Tasha, hit us tell us what's what's 0:19:14.160 --> 0:19:17.000 what's what's the number one thing you got in your pocket? 0:19:17.040 --> 0:19:17.200 Here? 0:19:18.560 --> 0:19:19.600 He said, what's the number one? 0:19:19.720 --> 0:19:23.640 Was the number one story you have in your arsenal? 0:19:24.880 --> 0:19:25.920 Number one story? 0:19:26.040 --> 0:19:27.800 Oh man? 0:19:27.880 --> 0:19:33.200 Oh man, Hey ask me Canna, what do you think 0:19:33.280 --> 0:19:35.879 to ask her because she'll know what's the best story 0:19:35.880 --> 0:19:41.919 that I have of whole time? We love bunch. 0:19:42.080 --> 0:19:42.520 I mean. 0:19:43.960 --> 0:19:49.760 You when I got oh no, okay, oh man. My sister, 0:19:49.920 --> 0:19:52.040 my sister cols and talks to you all the time. Journey, 0:19:52.840 --> 0:19:54.880 she just goes my journey she talks to you all 0:19:54.880 --> 0:19:57.480 the time. That's how I even got to her journey. Okay, 0:19:57.520 --> 0:20:01.479 so journey, Okay, so cool. Then I probably honestly all 0:20:01.520 --> 0:20:04.080 this is embarrassing, but probably even night I got my 0:20:04.160 --> 0:20:13.720 duy crazy. N Yeah, I hit an ambulance, A part ambulance, 0:20:13.760 --> 0:20:17.439 I should say, But I wouldn't even hit it. I 0:20:17.560 --> 0:20:24.280 like love topped it. Okay, Like yeah, it was not 0:20:24.280 --> 0:20:25.760 not not much the best moment. 0:20:27.280 --> 0:20:31.520 M And and what did you do after? Would you 0:20:31.560 --> 0:20:35.320 like go back into the hospital to see Oh? 0:20:35.400 --> 0:20:37.240 No, it wasn't even at a hospital we were we 0:20:37.280 --> 0:20:37.760 were going. 0:20:37.640 --> 0:20:40.560 To I'm trying to put myself in that situation. I'm 0:20:40.600 --> 0:20:43.800 trying to put myself in a situation where I slightly 0:20:44.000 --> 0:20:46.959 hit the back of an ambulance. 0:20:47.280 --> 0:20:49.720 Okay, let me give you like the small rundown. 0:20:51.680 --> 0:20:53.000 Why yeah, what's the right? 0:20:54.600 --> 0:20:57.720 We'd my best friend at the time, she was working 0:20:57.720 --> 0:20:58.960 at a bar, and we wanted to go to the 0:20:59.000 --> 0:21:01.880 karaoke bar. We end up going to the karaoke bar. 0:21:02.080 --> 0:21:04.359 Like I get there and there's an ambulance that's parked 0:21:04.440 --> 0:21:08.600 like in the entrance and the exit way, and I'd 0:21:08.640 --> 0:21:10.479 like already kind of pulled into the drive which kind 0:21:10.480 --> 0:21:13.840 of sits at an incline, and whenever I went to 0:21:13.880 --> 0:21:15.840 turn in, I thought I had enough room between the 0:21:15.920 --> 0:21:19.240 curbs to get kind of by it, and I didn't 0:21:19.600 --> 0:21:21.600 off the curb a tiny bit, but ended up, like 0:21:22.119 --> 0:21:26.240 you know, screeping against the side of the ambulance, to 0:21:26.320 --> 0:21:28.439 which they had somebody inside that they were trying to 0:21:28.480 --> 0:21:30.879 revive that I guess was like passed out in the 0:21:30.920 --> 0:21:33.680 bathroom of the bar, and that's why the ambulance was 0:21:33.680 --> 0:21:37.440 there in the first place. So here I am like outside, 0:21:37.600 --> 0:21:39.760 like having been pulling me out of the car, you know, 0:21:39.920 --> 0:21:43.560 doing a skilled sobriety test, which I was clearly failed, 0:21:44.400 --> 0:21:45.240 and everyone from the. 0:21:45.200 --> 0:21:47.720 Bar was like, oh my gosh, guys, Tasha is out here, 0:21:48.000 --> 0:21:51.439 and like the entire bar comes outside to watch me 0:21:52.600 --> 0:21:55.400 stealed sobriety tests and stale. 0:21:55.840 --> 0:22:01.040 Good. Yeah, well, I'm glad that that happened to you. 0:22:01.840 --> 0:22:04.840 Oh yeah, definitely learn my lesson about drinking and driving. 0:22:05.480 --> 0:22:08.679 I hope, I hope you choose not to do that again. 0:22:09.600 --> 0:22:14.640 You know, yeah, definitely not. The cars don't even really 0:22:14.720 --> 0:22:15.960 drink anymore time. 0:22:16.880 --> 0:22:18.600 Can you drink and bike? Is that a thing? 0:22:20.000 --> 0:22:22.240 No? You know, you can actually get a public and 0:22:22.280 --> 0:22:26.200 talk for at least where I'm from in Oklahoma. 0:22:25.880 --> 0:22:29.760 Gosha, I think I think you might you might benefit 0:22:29.800 --> 0:22:32.639 from doing some research into the teachings of Jesus Christ. 0:22:33.520 --> 0:22:37.240 Oh, I grew up Mormon. So have you ever menatice 0:22:37.240 --> 0:22:38.439 to talk about our Lord and Savior. 0:22:40.760 --> 0:22:42.240 I'll talk to you soon, Nasha thinks, so much for 0:22:43.320 --> 0:22:43.800 a good one. 0:22:43.880 --> 0:22:52.080 Greg call from Jackson, Jackson, Missouri. 0:22:54.080 --> 0:23:09.560 Hello, Hello, Hey, Hey, what's what's so? I can't hear you? 0:23:09.560 --> 0:23:10.199 You can't hear me? 0:23:10.960 --> 0:23:12.919 Wait? No, I can't. Hey, I'm here. No. 0:23:12.960 --> 0:23:14.159 I just wasn't saying anything. 0:23:15.000 --> 0:23:16.760 Oh Dan, you got me? 0:23:16.800 --> 0:23:17.040 Good. 0:23:19.320 --> 0:23:21.200 I don't think I got you. 0:23:21.240 --> 0:23:22.399 No, I think you got me. 0:23:23.400 --> 0:23:25.240 I wasn't trying to get you. What do you what 0:23:25.280 --> 0:23:26.919 do you do? What? People always say that They're like, 0:23:26.960 --> 0:23:29.320 oh we got we got them. That's like a big thing, 0:23:29.359 --> 0:23:31.960 like got them? Why? What? What does that even mean? 0:23:32.920 --> 0:23:35.479 I don't know. I don't really understand that either. I 0:23:35.520 --> 0:23:38.880 just kind of said it because it just felt right 0:23:39.160 --> 0:23:39.520 to say. 0:23:40.080 --> 0:23:43.520 Why is hostility? Jackson? Can you answer the question why 0:23:43.600 --> 0:23:49.800 is hostility and conflict so deeply ingrained in our culture? 0:23:50.760 --> 0:23:50.960 Why? 0:23:51.200 --> 0:23:53.080 I mean, I mean every why why does it always 0:23:53.119 --> 0:23:54.840 have to be Oh, I got you. You know, why 0:23:54.840 --> 0:23:56.879 why can't we just live in peace with one another? 0:23:56.920 --> 0:23:57.240 Why? 0:23:57.359 --> 0:23:59.840 Why is everyone always trying to get each other, assuming 0:24:00.400 --> 0:24:03.000 everyone's out to get them? You know, why do we 0:24:03.040 --> 0:24:04.360 live in a world like this? Jackson? 0:24:05.520 --> 0:24:07.600 I think that. 0:24:09.520 --> 0:24:09.840 I don't know. 0:24:09.840 --> 0:24:11.199 I feel like it's got something to do. It's just 0:24:11.280 --> 0:24:17.720 like just like natural tendencies, you know, like monkey days, 0:24:18.760 --> 0:24:20.480 like you have more bananas than me, and I want 0:24:20.680 --> 0:24:21.960 your bananas, so I'm going to take. 0:24:21.880 --> 0:24:29.719 Them right right. It comes from very animalistic, non human 0:24:30.160 --> 0:24:41.720 tendencies like fear, greed, anxiety. No, yeah, I feel that 0:24:41.840 --> 0:24:44.280 animals get jealous of each other? Is that true? Like 0:24:44.320 --> 0:24:49.000 do monkeys If two monkeys have bananas and one monkey 0:24:49.000 --> 0:24:50.760 has more bananas than the other, just do the monkeys 0:24:50.760 --> 0:24:51.440 get jealous? 0:24:52.440 --> 0:24:54.600 I think they do. I think they do. If I 0:24:54.600 --> 0:24:57.200 was a monkey, I would be jealous of other people's bananas. 0:24:57.480 --> 0:24:59.120 But maybe I just say that because I'm a human 0:24:59.119 --> 0:25:01.600 and I know what jealous is, right, right. 0:25:02.400 --> 0:25:07.040 I almost feel like monkeys are too like the animals. 0:25:07.080 --> 0:25:11.080 They're very in the moment creatures. Unlike humans. Humans tend 0:25:11.080 --> 0:25:14.159 that we overanalyze everything. We worry if we said the 0:25:14.160 --> 0:25:17.119 wrong thing to the wrong person ten years ago. The monkey, 0:25:17.160 --> 0:25:18.720 I don't know if it's doing that. I think it's 0:25:18.800 --> 0:25:20.879 just eating the banana. I think that's all it's I 0:25:20.880 --> 0:25:26.200 think the at the moment it's engaged in is the 0:25:26.240 --> 0:25:31.280 only thing that exists for it during the duration of 0:25:31.320 --> 0:25:34.119 that moment. It's not eating a monkey thinking about what 0:25:34.200 --> 0:25:36.399 it's not. It's not eating a banana thinking about what 0:25:36.480 --> 0:25:38.840 it has to do for the rest of the day. 0:25:39.040 --> 0:25:40.840 Like you know, when you're at lunch and you're in 0:25:40.920 --> 0:25:42.520 your house and you're like, what else do I have 0:25:42.600 --> 0:25:44.960 to do today? And you're eating a sandwich. I don't 0:25:44.960 --> 0:25:46.879 think the monkey does that. I think the monkey just 0:25:47.560 --> 0:25:48.960 eats the thing and ships it out. 0:25:49.760 --> 0:25:52.320 Yeah, I mean, I definitely agree. I think monkeys just 0:25:52.359 --> 0:25:53.240 kind of live in the moment. 0:25:53.840 --> 0:25:54.040 You know. 0:25:54.119 --> 0:25:57.639 That's weirdly that like weirdly ties into what I wanted 0:25:57.640 --> 0:25:59.240 to talk to you about real quick. 0:25:59.080 --> 0:26:01.080 Please please, I'm sor happy to hear you as something 0:26:01.080 --> 0:26:01.920 you want talking about. 0:26:02.280 --> 0:26:07.840 Yeah, you know, so, I uh, I'm a guy, you know, 0:26:07.920 --> 0:26:11.720 I'm I'm living my life. But I've I've realized over 0:26:11.760 --> 0:26:15.240 the past few years, more and more in the past, 0:26:15.359 --> 0:26:20.359 like in the past year. Yeah, I two things. I 0:26:20.440 --> 0:26:23.639 care way too much about what other people think about me, 0:26:23.720 --> 0:26:28.080 you know what I mean, And like it comes and goes. 0:26:28.119 --> 0:26:30.120 You know, some days I'll wake up and I mean like, oh, yeah, 0:26:30.160 --> 0:26:32.119 you know, I'm just gonna I'm gonna go out and 0:26:32.119 --> 0:26:33.840 I'm gonna do whatever. I'm gonna wear whatever. It doesn't 0:26:33.840 --> 0:26:36.119 matter because I don't give a fuck. And the other 0:26:36.200 --> 0:26:39.639 days it's like, damn, it's like I really like this shirt, 0:26:39.720 --> 0:26:43.320 but you know what if other people don't like this shirt, 0:26:43.320 --> 0:26:45.920 I can't. I can't wear it, and it's it's kind 0:26:45.920 --> 0:26:49.720 of annoying, you know, like it's just it gets old. 0:26:49.720 --> 0:26:51.480 And then there's the same thing where it's like that 0:26:51.680 --> 0:26:57.440 leads into me overthinking things. You know, It's like, oh, 0:26:57.520 --> 0:27:00.800 maybe people will like this shirt, but you know what 0:27:00.800 --> 0:27:02.200 if someone comes up to me is like, hey man, 0:27:02.240 --> 0:27:05.240 your shirt fucking sucks, then I'm like, then I'm upset, 0:27:05.440 --> 0:27:07.440 and I don't want to be upset, So why would 0:27:07.440 --> 0:27:09.000 I wear this shirt? You know? You know that's a 0:27:09.119 --> 0:27:14.000 very stupid example. But some along those lines, and I 0:27:14.040 --> 0:27:15.520 don't really know what to do. I don't know how 0:27:15.520 --> 0:27:18.240 to beause like you can tell people every day to 0:27:18.359 --> 0:27:21.600 just like gain confidence and just be like, hey man, 0:27:21.680 --> 0:27:24.560 you know, just be confident. It's like, oh, yes, I 0:27:24.600 --> 0:27:30.520 am just magically more confident now. But you know, it's 0:27:30.880 --> 0:27:34.440 it's it's it's it's a hard situation to to, like face, 0:27:34.520 --> 0:27:42.280 I feel like, what do you think. I'm nineteen, so yeah, 0:27:42.320 --> 0:27:45.480 well just got it in my first year of college. 0:27:46.240 --> 0:27:48.760 I think, Uh well, first of all, I do think, 0:27:50.359 --> 0:27:53.159 and I'm not. I'm not you know, I'm really not 0:27:53.200 --> 0:27:56.679 that much older than you. But uh, you know, I 0:27:56.720 --> 0:27:59.880 do think that as i've guys, I get older, muh, 0:28:01.600 --> 0:28:06.080 I find it easier to uh, I find that that 0:28:06.280 --> 0:28:13.520 skill gets easier. Yeah, you know. I mean it's funny 0:28:13.560 --> 0:28:15.240 you say that. It's funny you say that you can't 0:28:15.320 --> 0:28:19.640 just magically become confident. I mean, it's it's I thought 0:28:19.800 --> 0:28:21.240 I was thinking while you were saying that. I was like, 0:28:21.280 --> 0:28:23.840 that's like telling someone to just you know, if someone's 0:28:23.880 --> 0:28:26.399 like out of shape physically, it's like telling them just 0:28:26.480 --> 0:28:29.560 go be fit. It's like, you can't do that. You 0:28:29.600 --> 0:28:32.760 gotta you gotta put in the reps, you gotta lift 0:28:32.840 --> 0:28:35.760 the weights one by one. It's a gradual process. You 0:28:35.760 --> 0:28:41.080 don't just wake up confident, you know. Yeah, I mean, 0:28:41.120 --> 0:28:46.000 I've started to, like I in my own personal journey 0:28:46.040 --> 0:28:49.440 towards caring less what other people think of me. And 0:28:49.520 --> 0:28:52.040 I by no means have any sort of master or 0:28:52.080 --> 0:28:54.880 even like good at it. But it's something I think 0:28:54.880 --> 0:28:58.600 about constantly. That's I mean, that's kind of just the 0:28:58.600 --> 0:29:01.600 thing is I think about it constantly. It always is 0:29:01.880 --> 0:29:03.640 is a big prevalent goal of mine to not care 0:29:03.680 --> 0:29:06.560 what other people think with me, and I try to 0:29:06.600 --> 0:29:15.040 do little things, uh where I can to assert myself 0:29:15.920 --> 0:29:21.200 over you know, uh, regardless of the opinions of others. 0:29:22.560 --> 0:29:26.000 For example, I was I wanted to do a gek 0:29:26.040 --> 0:29:35.840 walk thing in public at fucking at this like little park. 0:29:37.240 --> 0:29:39.040 I was gonna I was gonna do it. The fucking 0:29:39.040 --> 0:29:41.160 technology didn't work, but I was nervous to do it 0:29:41.160 --> 0:29:44.600 because I was nervous about like attracting attention as a 0:29:44.640 --> 0:29:48.840 get go WI Yeah, yeah, because it's inevitable. But then 0:29:48.880 --> 0:29:51.520 once I once I started to, once I got out 0:29:51.560 --> 0:29:55.360 there and I just like jumped in the pool, I 0:29:55.400 --> 0:30:00.640 almost started to like get very excited by the the 0:30:00.640 --> 0:30:02.840 fact that I was doing it, if that makes sense. 0:30:02.920 --> 0:30:05.560 Yeah, yeah, it's like you're you're a get go in 0:30:05.600 --> 0:30:06.000 a pool. 0:30:06.040 --> 0:30:11.680 And you don't care right, right, the more you can 0:30:11.960 --> 0:30:16.440 really lean into that and get something good from these reps, 0:30:16.480 --> 0:30:18.280 It's like it's like when you pick up a weight 0:30:18.320 --> 0:30:21.400 and you lift it, you don't immediately get what keeps 0:30:21.400 --> 0:30:22.800 you picking up the weights is you get those like 0:30:22.920 --> 0:30:26.240 endorphins right when you're exercising, and that's what keeps you 0:30:26.320 --> 0:30:29.080 to want to keep working out and eating right. You 0:30:29.080 --> 0:30:31.520 get the endorphins. So you know, I would chase those 0:30:31.520 --> 0:30:35.400 little things that you can do to speak your mind 0:30:35.560 --> 0:30:37.760 or do whatever the thing is and you and when 0:30:37.800 --> 0:30:39.920 you do those little things, I do think you'll get 0:30:40.560 --> 0:30:45.800 a sense of adrenaline at the fact that you're doing 0:30:45.800 --> 0:30:50.440 your own thing, and that'll help carry you. I think, 0:30:50.720 --> 0:30:52.520 what's let me give me an example. Let's do something 0:30:52.560 --> 0:30:55.600 before before we go. I mean, what's something can I get, 0:30:55.600 --> 0:30:58.200 like a concrete example of something you could do to 0:30:58.280 --> 0:31:01.560 kind of get yourself out of your comfort zone in 0:31:01.560 --> 0:31:03.760 that sense. Is there anything you've been wanting to do 0:31:03.800 --> 0:31:05.360 but you're like, man, I'm not gonna do that because 0:31:05.440 --> 0:31:11.880 I'm afraid of people making fun of me. Honestly. 0:31:12.160 --> 0:31:13.600 Yeah, I mean there's a few that come to mind. 0:31:13.640 --> 0:31:15.240 I think the one that I think about the most 0:31:15.800 --> 0:31:18.440 because it's something that I've just regretted not doing my 0:31:18.480 --> 0:31:19.600 freshman year of college. 0:31:20.880 --> 0:31:21.040 You know. 0:31:21.080 --> 0:31:24.320 I mean, I'm I'm a I'm a I go to parties, 0:31:24.400 --> 0:31:27.280 you know. So I'm a fairly popular guy. So one 0:31:27.280 --> 0:31:29.680 of my issues is whenever I go to parties, I 0:31:29.400 --> 0:31:31.000 got I go with my friends. I don't. I'm not 0:31:31.080 --> 0:31:33.080 like the the one guy that just shows up and 0:31:33.120 --> 0:31:37.560 definitely know anybody. But I find that going to parties 0:31:37.600 --> 0:31:40.480 with like people that you know really well sort of 0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:44.160 restricts me in a way where like I like only 0:31:44.320 --> 0:31:47.040 really talk to them, like we'll just like like it's 0:31:47.080 --> 0:31:48.480 not like we're just like standing in a corner like 0:31:48.520 --> 0:31:51.040 awkwardly by ourselves. Like we'll still talk to the new people. 0:31:51.600 --> 0:31:53.600 But it's I see like some of my friends that 0:31:53.640 --> 0:31:56.120 can just walk up to like like let's say a 0:31:56.120 --> 0:31:58.440 group of like five girls and it's like two guys 0:31:58.480 --> 0:31:59.600 and they just walk up and the like and then 0:31:59.640 --> 0:32:01.840 they start talking to him, and like that's just not 0:32:01.920 --> 0:32:04.400 something that I've found like I've been able to do, 0:32:04.480 --> 0:32:06.440 you know, Like I see that, I'm like, ya, I 0:32:06.480 --> 0:32:08.160 really wish I could do that. But then I just 0:32:08.400 --> 0:32:11.200 I think about it and I'm like, well, what if 0:32:11.240 --> 0:32:15.000 it doesn't go well? And thinking about it now, it's like, like, 0:32:15.040 --> 0:32:16.760 why does it matter if it doesn't go well, I'll 0:32:16.800 --> 0:32:19.200 just move on, just go talk to other new people. 0:32:19.640 --> 0:32:23.680 But then I like, I take those like bad experiences 0:32:23.680 --> 0:32:26.120 and then I kind of just like I think about 0:32:26.160 --> 0:32:28.280 them like all the time, and I think like, oh, 0:32:28.320 --> 0:32:30.200 what could have done better? Which is a good thing, 0:32:30.800 --> 0:32:33.640 until like I just overthink it and I'm like, well, 0:32:33.680 --> 0:32:35.240 there's nothing I could have done better. That's just how 0:32:35.320 --> 0:32:38.040 any anything like that is going to go. So I 0:32:38.120 --> 0:32:41.760 might as well not even try. And I found that's 0:32:42.000 --> 0:32:45.880 probably one thing that I could, you know, attempt a 0:32:46.000 --> 0:32:46.400 bit more. 0:32:46.600 --> 0:32:49.920 Yeah. Yeah, I By the way, I think that going 0:32:49.960 --> 0:32:55.120 to social events alone terrifying, of course, but a great 0:32:55.680 --> 0:32:58.480 I mean, if if you can do that, and then yeah, 0:32:59.520 --> 0:33:01.200 if you can and if you can do that and 0:33:01.240 --> 0:33:05.640 maneuver your way into a group of people and and 0:33:06.080 --> 0:33:09.400 managed to have a good night, you'll feel amazing afterwards. 0:33:09.400 --> 0:33:12.440 You'll you'll feel so like, you know, hell, yeah I 0:33:12.480 --> 0:33:14.400 was able to do that and need my other friends, 0:33:14.440 --> 0:33:19.200 I was able to just find the fun on my own, right, 0:33:19.360 --> 0:33:21.400 I tell you, it's super It's it's It's a super 0:33:21.480 --> 0:33:25.480 rewarding feeling to be able to do that. Mm hmmm. 0:33:26.440 --> 0:33:29.360 I think you should try it, man. I think jump 0:33:29.360 --> 0:33:29.920 into the pool. 0:33:30.760 --> 0:33:32.960 I think I need to just become a get go 0:33:33.040 --> 0:33:35.600 in a pool and just that not care. 0:33:36.120 --> 0:33:38.360 When's when's the next when's the next big party? 0:33:39.320 --> 0:33:39.640 Uh? 0:33:39.760 --> 0:33:43.680 Actually on Friday, which is which is weird. Like I'm 0:33:43.720 --> 0:33:46.800 home from college so like, and my college is like 0:33:46.800 --> 0:33:49.080 four hours away from me, so I wasn't really expecting 0:33:49.240 --> 0:33:51.280 going down there to go to any parties. But one 0:33:51.280 --> 0:33:56.400 of my friends is hosting a party at his aunt's 0:33:56.440 --> 0:33:59.600 house on Friday, and it's like an hour and a 0:33:59.600 --> 0:34:02.120 half away, and I was like, well as well go, 0:34:02.560 --> 0:34:03.280 So I guess. 0:34:03.040 --> 0:34:06.880 That's there like with all of her friends. 0:34:06.600 --> 0:34:11.200 And she's in Hawaii. I don't know if she knows 0:34:11.200 --> 0:34:11.960 that this is happening. 0:34:13.000 --> 0:34:16.279 We'll go have fun, go buy your I mean go, 0:34:16.640 --> 0:34:18.399 you know, I assume if it's your friend at home, 0:34:18.440 --> 0:34:19.759 it lives half an hour away. I don't know if 0:34:19.760 --> 0:34:21.480 there's other people that you would go with anyway, but 0:34:22.360 --> 0:34:24.239 that sounds like a great opportunity to try this out. 0:34:24.280 --> 0:34:28.080 Man. Yeah, I think I will just talk to random 0:34:28.120 --> 0:34:31.080 people because why not, you know, what's the worst. 0:34:30.200 --> 0:34:34.920 Could you gotta think about how fucking big the universe is? 0:34:36.080 --> 0:34:36.279 You know? 0:34:36.480 --> 0:34:40.359 Yeah, it doesn't matter, right, We're all gonna do now 0:34:41.200 --> 0:34:43.680 and by the way, and by the way and by 0:34:43.719 --> 0:34:47.400 the way. Other I've had this sometimes sometimes I'm the 0:34:47.480 --> 0:34:50.160 guy that I've been like at a bar, at a thing, 0:34:50.160 --> 0:34:52.239 where like I'm the guy that like a person goes 0:34:52.239 --> 0:34:55.000 out of their way to like talk to, like their 0:34:55.000 --> 0:34:58.200 first guy. I always make one hundred percent sure that 0:34:58.320 --> 0:35:00.160 I want to make sure if someone does that me, 0:35:00.200 --> 0:35:05.560 I'm rewarding them by reciprocating the energy. And it's almost 0:35:05.600 --> 0:35:07.520 a weeding thing because everyone that you go out and 0:35:07.560 --> 0:35:09.239 try to talk to, if you've got to try to 0:35:09.239 --> 0:35:12.239 talk to stranger and they're reciprocal in your energy, that's 0:35:12.239 --> 0:35:15.799 a person worth talking to. And if you're not, then 0:35:15.840 --> 0:35:17.879 maybe they're not a person worth talking to, in which 0:35:17.920 --> 0:35:19.960 case who cares? When I we're talking to you know 0:35:20.000 --> 0:35:20.439 what I'm saying. 0:35:21.320 --> 0:35:23.920 Yeah, it's like it's like if you're not willing to 0:35:23.920 --> 0:35:26.240 put in the same amount of energy as I am, especially, 0:35:26.280 --> 0:35:28.960 it's like I'm initiating the conversation, Like why would I 0:35:29.000 --> 0:35:30.080 even thought I even bother? 0:35:31.160 --> 0:35:32.879 Well, listen, Jackson Man, I wish you good luck. 0:35:33.880 --> 0:35:34.200 Thanks. 0:35:34.480 --> 0:35:36.680 You know, I'll try and call in again soon and 0:35:36.960 --> 0:35:38.560 give you an update hopefully. 0:35:38.400 --> 0:35:41.520 Hit hit man luck, Go make a ton of friends, 0:35:42.239 --> 0:35:45.080 Go talk to a dog. I'll see you soon in Jackson. 0:35:45.760 --> 0:35:48.080 Thanks Lole, I appreciate it. 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All right, 0:36:31.560 --> 0:36:33.560 back to the calls. 0:36:33.160 --> 0:36:35.279 All from peanut Butter. 0:36:36.840 --> 0:36:44.200 Peanut Butter, whoa, who whoa, whoa, Oh my god, yo, hello, 0:36:45.719 --> 0:36:50.839 hi everything, I'm eating chicken tendies. My dude, Tyson style. 0:36:52.280 --> 0:36:53.600 You're eating chicken tendies. 0:36:54.640 --> 0:36:56.759 Yes, sir, you got me on to them. 0:36:56.800 --> 0:37:00.919 Actually really, I feel yeah, I'm so sorry. Please don't 0:37:00.920 --> 0:37:03.120 blame me for all the health issues that you're gonna face. 0:37:03.960 --> 0:37:06.839 It's okay, dude, it's the best. I used to have 0:37:06.880 --> 0:37:10.840 the dinosaur nuggets. Yeah, but these hits different. 0:37:12.320 --> 0:37:14.360 I feel like I used to. I feel like I 0:37:14.360 --> 0:37:20.200 had to start eating real food. Like what, I don't 0:37:20.200 --> 0:37:22.719 know what a normal I'm not like a normal guy, 0:37:23.040 --> 0:37:26.239 am I? What are like a normal you know, like 0:37:26.280 --> 0:37:31.960 a like a Norman man with like who's like walking 0:37:32.000 --> 0:37:35.799 around and goes to work and is has like you 0:37:35.840 --> 0:37:39.000 know what dog? What does he eat? 0:37:40.520 --> 0:37:41.759 Huh? 0:37:44.680 --> 0:37:46.600 Salmon chick? 0:37:47.280 --> 0:37:47.680 Yeah? 0:37:48.480 --> 0:37:52.520 A normal human person eat brouh. 0:37:52.680 --> 0:37:56.000 First thing I went to was meats. Yeah, you have 0:37:56.040 --> 0:37:59.719 to have the meats. Go to Arby's. Arby sounds like 0:37:59.719 --> 0:38:02.200 a man. Replace people don't eat. 0:38:02.680 --> 0:38:07.560 It's like normal people don't eat. I'm talking about like 0:38:07.560 --> 0:38:10.120 like like my dad doesn't eat Arby's. You know, he's 0:38:10.160 --> 0:38:11.880 like he'll like eat fish. 0:38:13.080 --> 0:38:15.960 Okay, yeah, my dad doesn't go to fish too. 0:38:17.320 --> 0:38:20.680 Uh. 0:38:21.360 --> 0:38:24.000 I don't know, dude. My dad's from Pakistan he likes 0:38:24.040 --> 0:38:27.919 that oily ship like that. They like they like their 0:38:28.200 --> 0:38:29.200 soul food. 0:38:32.200 --> 0:38:34.279 That what does Pakistani soul food like? 0:38:37.160 --> 0:38:40.360 Rihanni is the main dish, my guy. That's like a 0:38:40.400 --> 0:38:43.560 little bit of everything in there, and I fucking hate 0:38:43.600 --> 0:38:47.319 it because there's these little peppercorns in there, little black 0:38:47.360 --> 0:38:49.840 balls of destruction. You bite into one of those, that 0:38:49.960 --> 0:38:54.160 runs the whole dish. I can't even drink water. It's 0:38:54.239 --> 0:38:58.239 just like makes your mouth super spicy. Then again, that's 0:38:58.280 --> 0:39:00.880 the whole thing, like the whole Yeah, I love spicy, 0:39:00.960 --> 0:39:03.600 but this is a different thing, dude. Peppercorn spicy is 0:39:03.680 --> 0:39:07.440 nothing to fuck with, nothing, just invade your mouth. No, 0:39:07.520 --> 0:39:09.080 why on mm hmm? 0:39:12.239 --> 0:39:13.040 What other food? 0:39:13.120 --> 0:39:19.359 Let's see. My dad really likes this combo rice uh 0:39:19.840 --> 0:39:25.040 and uh. It's called doll which is like entels and 0:39:25.040 --> 0:39:31.839 and keema kima is ground beef. It's really nice. Put 0:39:31.880 --> 0:39:35.440 that all together in one dish. It's the best. I think. 0:39:35.440 --> 0:39:36.040 That's what you ever? 0:39:36.120 --> 0:39:37.360 Have you ever been to Pakistan? 0:39:38.480 --> 0:39:38.640 Bro? 0:39:38.680 --> 0:39:40.960 I want to go. They all went without me last year, 0:39:41.200 --> 0:39:45.840 like six months. I was by myself, that's u. Yeah, 0:39:45.960 --> 0:39:49.120 for a wedding at school. No no, no, no, no, this 0:39:49.400 --> 0:39:50.759 was it left me for six months. 0:39:50.800 --> 0:39:51.239 It's like. 0:39:52.719 --> 0:39:53.399 Two years ago. 0:39:53.719 --> 0:39:56.319 Yeah, wait they oh, they wait two years ago. They 0:39:56.360 --> 0:39:58.600 went to Pakistan for six months without you? 0:39:58.840 --> 0:39:59.920 Yeah yeah, yeah without me? 0:40:00.640 --> 0:40:02.120 Why did why did they go? Why did they go 0:40:02.200 --> 0:40:02.600 without you? 0:40:04.360 --> 0:40:09.359 My sister had a sitter, so they meant to go 0:40:09.640 --> 0:40:10.239 check them out and. 0:40:10.239 --> 0:40:12.080 Stuff for six months. 0:40:13.320 --> 0:40:17.080 Yeah dude, I'm exaggerating. Its four months now that I 0:40:17.080 --> 0:40:19.200 think about it. By the way, it's fucking fantastic to 0:40:19.280 --> 0:40:20.320 talk to you. This is cool. 0:40:21.040 --> 0:40:23.040 Oh yeah, dude, it's nice to talk to you too. 0:40:23.080 --> 0:40:23.279 Man. 0:40:24.040 --> 0:40:29.480 Yeah, I've always wanted to visit like the Middle East. 0:40:30.440 --> 0:40:33.640 Mm hmm. I went to Saudi Arabia. Actually, yeah, I 0:40:33.680 --> 0:40:39.200 went there. I went there for pilgrimage, not like the 0:40:39.239 --> 0:40:42.279 official one. The official one is called hedge. But I 0:40:42.320 --> 0:40:45.640 did Omrah, which is omrah. You could do any any 0:40:45.680 --> 0:40:50.440 time of the year. And if you're talking about blessings, wise, 0:40:50.520 --> 0:40:53.080 I get like half the blessings for doing so it's 0:40:53.080 --> 0:40:56.600 still pretty good. That's pretty good, but it's not good 0:40:56.640 --> 0:40:57.279 as the real deal. 0:40:57.600 --> 0:40:59.960 So yeah, what's the real what's the real blessing? 0:41:01.040 --> 0:41:06.479 Well, I got the blessing where supposedly if you do 0:41:06.560 --> 0:41:10.480 all the things, because pilgrimage is you basically replicating some 0:41:10.560 --> 0:41:14.879 biblical shit that happened right into five days, Like there's 0:41:15.080 --> 0:41:17.759 different events that you do each day. So I did that. 0:41:18.320 --> 0:41:20.680 At the end of it, you go to the big 0:41:20.719 --> 0:41:23.680 black box, which is the Tabat, which is the message 0:41:23.800 --> 0:41:28.560 that was built by Abraham, and so did that. And 0:41:28.600 --> 0:41:31.560 then after you're done with everything, you have the option 0:41:31.719 --> 0:41:34.719 to shave your head. And I had like hair down 0:41:34.760 --> 0:41:36.640 to my shoulders and I wasn't going to cut it. 0:41:37.000 --> 0:41:40.480 But then some shift, like last minute, while I was 0:41:40.520 --> 0:41:42.320 about to finish my stuff, you like tap me on 0:41:42.360 --> 0:41:45.640 the shoulder that you're going to compare, and I had 0:41:45.680 --> 0:41:48.120 to at that point, so I just shaved my head. 0:41:48.600 --> 0:41:50.719 And so anyways, the point is after you finish all 0:41:50.719 --> 0:41:52.640 of that, supposed to be you're born with a new 0:41:52.680 --> 0:41:54.240 heart or your heart is clean. 0:41:55.520 --> 0:41:58.440 So you were symbolically born with a new heart. 0:41:58.680 --> 0:42:01.279 Yeah, it felt weird coming back. I cried the second date. 0:42:02.920 --> 0:42:05.960 It felt weird. Yeah, like just a realization because like 0:42:06.400 --> 0:42:09.600 I put on a little like Quran while I was 0:42:09.680 --> 0:42:13.000 driving home and then it just felt like the real deal, 0:42:14.360 --> 0:42:15.879 And I don't know, it kind of took me back 0:42:15.880 --> 0:42:20.640 to uh, back into Saudi Arabia because like I was 0:42:20.680 --> 0:42:23.040 at the I was at the place, you know, like 0:42:23.120 --> 0:42:26.600 I even touched the cavern everything. It was a very 0:42:26.719 --> 0:42:29.360 very cool experience because you know, you go there and 0:42:29.400 --> 0:42:33.880 you just pour everything that you want in this world 0:42:34.200 --> 0:42:37.040 and hope that hope for the best. And it was 0:42:37.080 --> 0:42:38.640 really cool to put that energy out there. 0:42:39.640 --> 0:42:42.400 You pour everything you want for this world. When you 0:42:42.440 --> 0:42:45.319 say you said poor, did I get that word right? 0:42:46.320 --> 0:42:47.720 Yeah? 0:42:47.760 --> 0:42:50.799 Into into the this this process. 0:42:51.960 --> 0:42:55.480 Yeah, into the process, because well before you go even 0:42:55.520 --> 0:42:57.239 there's a bunch of stuff that you're supposed to do, 0:42:57.280 --> 0:43:01.400 like make amends with people that you had problems with 0:43:01.640 --> 0:43:04.760 or anything, just so you're going in there with clear intentions. 0:43:05.040 --> 0:43:08.200 I think that's what most of my Islam. By the way, guys, 0:43:08.200 --> 0:43:11.520 I'm Muslim, so most of the religion is about your intention. 0:43:12.920 --> 0:43:17.640 M what do you what do you feel like you 0:43:17.680 --> 0:43:21.000 were putting in when you say you were pouring yourself 0:43:21.000 --> 0:43:21.920 into the experience. 0:43:22.840 --> 0:43:26.080 Uh, well, you know, I was twenty at the time, 0:43:26.239 --> 0:43:29.400 so I felt kind of lost. I had like my 0:43:29.480 --> 0:43:33.160 first quarter life crisis at that point. And it was 0:43:33.239 --> 0:43:35.040 really weird the fact that I even got to go 0:43:35.080 --> 0:43:40.279 because I was at a banquet dinner for something and 0:43:40.560 --> 0:43:45.080 I got I bought a raffle ticket for the end, 0:43:45.200 --> 0:43:47.640 and they raffled off a free trip to go make 0:43:47.640 --> 0:43:50.960 Omrah and I won that. So that's how I ended 0:43:51.040 --> 0:43:52.320 up going in the first place. 0:43:52.480 --> 0:43:52.680 You know. 0:43:52.800 --> 0:43:55.200 So I was like just a super depressed person, like 0:43:55.400 --> 0:43:57.440 just looking around and I was like, why does everyone 0:43:57.480 --> 0:43:59.399 always have to say how are you? Why is at 0:43:59.400 --> 0:44:02.239 the first quest and people ask that question that you 0:44:02.280 --> 0:44:05.239 can care And then next thing, I'm over there and 0:44:05.280 --> 0:44:10.040 I'm all those questions that I had, those frustrations actually 0:44:10.160 --> 0:44:13.640 is what I poured into it, you know, mm hm. 0:44:13.640 --> 0:44:16.279 So you sort of poured in all of your pessimism 0:44:16.360 --> 0:44:17.600 about the worlds. 0:44:18.080 --> 0:44:20.560 Yeah, because I was something for a brother day a little. 0:44:20.400 --> 0:44:25.560 Bit more about the way that you were pessimistic, Like 0:44:25.600 --> 0:44:30.760 what do you mean by like just everyone going about 0:44:30.800 --> 0:44:31.319 their day? 0:44:32.520 --> 0:44:37.360 So, well, what happened to me was I lost someone. Yeah, okay, 0:44:37.400 --> 0:44:40.520 so I lost someone close to me, my aunt, and 0:44:40.640 --> 0:44:41.400 that's never. 0:44:41.480 --> 0:44:42.080 Happened to me. 0:44:42.680 --> 0:44:45.600 So then I went back to college and you know, 0:44:45.840 --> 0:44:49.880 I had to do everything normal and I didn't feel normal. 0:44:50.520 --> 0:44:53.480 And I'm not the type of person to reflect on 0:44:53.520 --> 0:44:55.840 my emotions, you know, at that point in my life. 0:44:55.960 --> 0:44:57.360 You know, I think I'm better at it now. I 0:44:57.400 --> 0:45:00.200 write down things, but at that point, you know, just 0:45:00.280 --> 0:45:02.560 ignore and move on. And next thing, you know, I 0:45:02.600 --> 0:45:05.640 have like sweaty palms while I'm typing on my computer, 0:45:05.840 --> 0:45:08.520 and there's all these signs that my body is physically 0:45:08.560 --> 0:45:11.200 not okay. But I just kind of ignored those things 0:45:11.200 --> 0:45:14.960 for a while. And you're asking why it's pessimistic about 0:45:16.239 --> 0:45:18.799 other people asking me are you okay? And everything. It's 0:45:18.880 --> 0:45:22.800 because I couldn't be honest, you know, and people don't 0:45:22.840 --> 0:45:26.480 want you to be honest in that situation sometimes, So 0:45:27.920 --> 0:45:30.560 every single time it was like a reminder, click, you know, 0:45:30.840 --> 0:45:31.520 I'm not okay. 0:45:32.200 --> 0:45:34.600 So how did you feel at that point, the situation 0:45:34.680 --> 0:45:38.000 that the the the ceremony. 0:45:38.800 --> 0:45:45.040 That's just a ceremony. Well, after everything came back, you know, 0:45:45.440 --> 0:45:50.120 like even driving down the street was like a new experience, 0:45:50.160 --> 0:45:52.840 you know, like it was a bright day, nice colors 0:45:52.840 --> 0:46:00.560 to look at. So you kind of, yes, you're right 0:46:00.560 --> 0:46:00.880 about that. 0:46:01.080 --> 0:46:06.960 Yeah, that's cool. It's always good to have experiences that 0:46:08.520 --> 0:46:11.640 bring it back to what matters, which is really looking 0:46:11.640 --> 0:46:15.960 at the things that you're seeing and breathing and hearing, 0:46:16.400 --> 0:46:18.640 because you always have those things. I feel like, unless 0:46:18.640 --> 0:46:22.279 if you're dead, you always have kind of your own 0:46:22.360 --> 0:46:28.400 senses and your own experience of life. Even if you 0:46:28.400 --> 0:46:30.560 don't always have all the people in your life or 0:46:31.239 --> 0:46:34.560 all the things in your life, you always have life itself. 0:46:35.280 --> 0:46:35.680 I guess. 0:46:35.960 --> 0:46:36.160 Yeah. 0:46:37.960 --> 0:46:42.680 You know what's weird is, you know, talking about my aunt. 0:46:43.719 --> 0:46:46.640 I only think about her from time to time, and 0:46:46.680 --> 0:46:48.920 that makes me sad, you know, because you wish that 0:46:49.239 --> 0:46:52.319 you could think about people you lost more often, but 0:46:52.560 --> 0:46:54.160 you know, they only come to your mind once in 0:46:54.200 --> 0:46:57.840 a while, especially when you're moving on and doing other stuff. 0:46:59.000 --> 0:47:04.239 And I cried because I had a stressful day the 0:47:04.280 --> 0:47:09.960 other day and I wrote down a letter to her. 0:47:10.200 --> 0:47:13.360 You know, it was just any thought that I thought 0:47:13.840 --> 0:47:16.120 sounded like a good sentence went down on the paper, 0:47:16.719 --> 0:47:18.800 and then I just put it away, and I felt 0:47:19.400 --> 0:47:19.920 a time. 0:47:20.080 --> 0:47:22.319 A lot better, like shit done better? 0:47:22.600 --> 0:47:23.600 Was it was pretty good? 0:47:24.920 --> 0:47:27.719 I like that? What do you and you know, looking 0:47:27.800 --> 0:47:31.080 not to share anything uncomfortable sharing, but what what sorts 0:47:31.080 --> 0:47:32.760 of things did you talk about in the letter? 0:47:34.880 --> 0:47:39.040 I can pull it out? Shit, yeah, okay, I don't mind. 0:47:39.360 --> 0:47:42.160 This is the first page in this letter or in 0:47:42.200 --> 0:47:46.320 this journal that I've been looking at for like two years. 0:47:46.360 --> 0:47:51.359 And then on Tuesday, June fifteenth, which was two days ago, 0:47:51.520 --> 0:47:56.440 I wrote in it for the first time. Uh yeah, Aunty, 0:47:57.040 --> 0:48:01.759 I miss you today, wasn't a I hate that I 0:48:01.800 --> 0:48:05.879 need to wait to die to see you again. It's 0:48:05.920 --> 0:48:09.800 cruel and it hurts to think about it. I rarely 0:48:10.120 --> 0:48:15.839 cry about anything besides you. It's been almost three years. 0:48:16.440 --> 0:48:17.520 The worst part about. 0:48:17.280 --> 0:48:21.160 My birthday is that one week after I always think 0:48:21.200 --> 0:48:25.160 about it, you passed away seven days after the day 0:48:25.239 --> 0:48:30.359 I was born. It hurts. Today is one of those 0:48:30.440 --> 0:48:33.840 rare days that I pray about you. I'm upset because 0:48:33.960 --> 0:48:38.520 I lack control of chaos around me. I think it's 0:48:38.560 --> 0:48:43.160 the same way I felt that day I said goodbye 0:48:43.160 --> 0:48:47.320 to you, the day you passed away, and I remember 0:48:47.400 --> 0:48:50.600 being angry that you let me do that. It's a 0:48:50.600 --> 0:48:54.520 stupid thing to feel, I know, and I never want 0:48:54.520 --> 0:48:58.760 to forget your face, your voice, your hair, your sunglasses. 0:49:00.080 --> 0:49:04.879 Miss you very much. I miss you so much. Thank 0:49:04.920 --> 0:49:07.040 you for loving me when I was ignorant and had 0:49:07.080 --> 0:49:10.640 no feelings. I most definitely did not appreciate you enough, 0:49:11.239 --> 0:49:13.759 and I'm sorry I never showed you how much you 0:49:13.840 --> 0:49:16.319 mean to me. I wish I could cry about you 0:49:16.360 --> 0:49:19.560 all the time. So you're always on my mind. You're 0:49:19.560 --> 0:49:21.279 the first person I want to see when I get 0:49:21.280 --> 0:49:27.040 to Heaven. Signed your favorite nephew because I'm my only nephew, 0:49:27.520 --> 0:49:28.960 so kind of makes sense, right. 0:49:30.480 --> 0:49:34.960 So yeah, the piction, Thank you for sharing that with us. 0:49:35.000 --> 0:49:39.880 You mentioned you feel you feel more in control of 0:49:39.880 --> 0:49:43.600 the chaos around you now, No, because. 0:49:43.320 --> 0:49:46.000 That day that I wrote that down was a bad day, 0:49:46.360 --> 0:49:49.480 and specifically because I didn't have control of. 0:49:49.520 --> 0:49:50.200 Everything around me. 0:49:50.280 --> 0:49:53.360 I was working at my dad's liquor store, and I 0:49:53.360 --> 0:49:55.640 should have read the situation right. The dude came in 0:49:55.680 --> 0:49:58.279 with that purpole backwards backpack. I was like, I know, 0:49:58.400 --> 0:50:02.560 hoodie on. He took like a bottle of wine and 0:50:02.920 --> 0:50:05.400 beer and I even said hello to him. Make that 0:50:05.480 --> 0:50:09.360 I in contact support it, you know. And dude was 0:50:09.400 --> 0:50:12.600 walking down the aisle awkward and then did like a 0:50:12.600 --> 0:50:15.040 little shuffle and then smiled at me and ran out 0:50:15.080 --> 0:50:17.799 the door. So I have a plexico ass in front 0:50:17.840 --> 0:50:19.919 of me. So I did like a dolphin dive through 0:50:19.920 --> 0:50:21.920 the counter to get to the other side, grabbed my 0:50:22.000 --> 0:50:25.160 phone and then thought the flash on and went after 0:50:25.239 --> 0:50:27.000 him because I said, you know what's good Today is 0:50:27.040 --> 0:50:28.520 the day where I'm going to go after one of 0:50:28.560 --> 0:50:30.719 them today, and it's usually a dangerous thing because you 0:50:30.719 --> 0:50:34.600 never want anything or show any aggression because then they 0:50:34.640 --> 0:50:36.920 know where you are. So I said, you know, at 0:50:37.000 --> 0:50:39.160 least I could give them a run for their money. 0:50:39.440 --> 0:50:41.640 So I was running after them, yelling at him. And 0:50:41.680 --> 0:50:43.799 I did track in high school, so these guys were 0:50:43.880 --> 0:50:45.880 kind of slow, and so I told him that, and 0:50:45.920 --> 0:50:49.000 then I told him run, run, run, and the reverse 0:50:49.000 --> 0:50:53.000 psychology kicked in and they started turning around and I 0:50:53.040 --> 0:50:55.480 was like, perfect, take your mask down, let me see 0:50:55.480 --> 0:50:58.120 your face. Then they get a better picture of you. 0:50:58.800 --> 0:51:02.080 And then they said, are running some more. But then 0:51:02.120 --> 0:51:04.600 I ran back to the store because you know, there 0:51:04.600 --> 0:51:07.279 could be more people because I'm not in attendance. So 0:51:08.239 --> 0:51:11.560 I went back after I had that little fun thing happened, 0:51:11.800 --> 0:51:14.759 and I don't know, I got really upset about that afterwards. 0:51:14.920 --> 0:51:17.600 You know, dude, just I guess one thing I kind 0:51:17.600 --> 0:51:20.120 of wanted to tell you was that, you know, when 0:51:20.160 --> 0:51:24.520 you're trying to get control of the chaos, I think 0:51:24.560 --> 0:51:27.040 it's I'm happy to hear that you have the drive 0:51:27.160 --> 0:51:29.359 to do so, but if you're going to do so, 0:51:30.640 --> 0:51:33.240 try to do it for things that are like truly 0:51:33.360 --> 0:51:36.640 important to you, you know, because like a couple of 0:51:36.680 --> 0:51:40.920 people like stealing from your store. You know, in the 0:51:41.000 --> 0:51:45.920 long run, you were right, you'd probably be better off 0:51:46.000 --> 0:51:48.600 not going after them in terms of your own safety. 0:51:49.160 --> 0:51:51.680 You know. I think it's a power move to let 0:51:52.440 --> 0:51:56.680 people win the small battles. But really try to figure 0:51:56.680 --> 0:51:59.480 out what is genuinely important to me that I need 0:51:59.520 --> 0:52:02.680 to exercise as control on, you know, because I feel 0:52:02.719 --> 0:52:05.600 like if you're going too hard on UH, I just 0:52:05.640 --> 0:52:08.760 need to I just need to stand up for myself 0:52:08.800 --> 0:52:11.440 for anything. I need to take control of any situation. 0:52:12.000 --> 0:52:14.560 Then you might bring yourself with some changer, you know. 0:52:14.640 --> 0:52:17.600 So if you're going to go after that, just make 0:52:17.640 --> 0:52:21.440 sure that you're exercising control in areas that you really 0:52:22.160 --> 0:52:25.600 care about, not just for the sake of doing it. 0:52:25.800 --> 0:52:26.160 If that. 0:52:27.200 --> 0:52:30.640 My sister gave me the same exact advice, But since 0:52:30.960 --> 0:52:33.320 the GAG told me, I'm a here to it a 0:52:33.360 --> 0:52:35.120 little bit more carefully for sure. 0:52:35.680 --> 0:52:37.759 Beautiful man, dude, what what did you say? Your name was. 0:52:39.400 --> 0:52:42.000 Peanut Butter in the call, I had a question. You 0:52:42.040 --> 0:52:46.759 said that you were coming to la Uh for for 0:52:46.880 --> 0:52:48.400 Gag across America? Is that correct? 0:52:49.160 --> 0:52:49.399 Yeah? 0:52:49.480 --> 0:52:52.000 I don't know if I'm doing I don't know yet 0:52:52.000 --> 0:52:54.360 if I'm doing like a live show, I might not, 0:52:54.680 --> 0:52:57.880 I might, I have no doubt yet. But I'm coming 0:52:57.960 --> 0:52:59.840 for I think I might be doing like a street 0:53:00.080 --> 0:53:04.280 meet though, And actually I think might be open to people. 0:53:05.000 --> 0:53:08.239 All right, say that might be a thing if I. 0:53:08.280 --> 0:53:11.440 Put in an application to get across and then you 0:53:11.440 --> 0:53:13.320 think there would be a possibility. 0:53:14.200 --> 0:53:16.799 For la. It might be tough, but put something in. 0:53:16.880 --> 0:53:18.440 If if I can make some time. 0:53:19.160 --> 0:53:20.400 I'll put it in. I'll do it. 0:53:20.400 --> 0:53:23.239 I'll do rock and Wrong. Awesome. Thank you so much, 0:53:23.280 --> 0:53:25.160 peanut Butter Dude. I appreciate you shouting with us. 0:53:25.960 --> 0:53:28.080 I've been trying to reach you since December. 0:53:28.200 --> 0:53:29.239 This is a good day. 0:53:29.400 --> 0:53:30.200 Thank you so much. 0:53:30.480 --> 0:53:32.640 Hell yeah, man, you take care all right? 0:53:32.680 --> 0:53:33.480 You too? Bye? 0:53:36.280 --> 0:53:38.960 How from Hobbs. 0:53:39.719 --> 0:53:41.479 Pods Oh ship? 0:53:41.560 --> 0:53:43.640 Hello, Hey dude? 0:53:45.440 --> 0:53:47.480 Whoa, hey man? 0:53:48.840 --> 0:53:50.560 What's going on? Man? How you doing? 0:53:53.239 --> 0:53:54.040 Just go off of work? 0:53:55.800 --> 0:53:57.840 It's got off of work. Where do you work? 0:53:59.280 --> 0:54:00.320 I'll work at a far parmac. 0:54:01.880 --> 0:54:06.120 You work at a pharmacy. Yeah, what do you know 0:54:06.239 --> 0:54:07.120 at the pharmacy? 0:54:08.560 --> 0:54:12.000 I just bag stuff up your. 0:54:11.800 --> 0:54:12.799 Bags stuff up? 0:54:14.200 --> 0:54:19.960 Yeah, like pills, Yeah, pills, But that's I was calling 0:54:20.000 --> 0:54:25.200 in because I also do freelance pharmaceuticals, if you know 0:54:25.200 --> 0:54:25.640 what I mean. 0:54:26.280 --> 0:54:30.280 Wow, I don't know what you mean. I was actually 0:54:30.320 --> 0:54:33.120 just about to ask you what you mean like. 0:54:35.160 --> 0:54:35.880 Drug dealing? 0:54:37.040 --> 0:54:39.680 Oh, so you're gonna get your fucking license and all 0:54:39.680 --> 0:54:41.399 that shit removed? Right? 0:54:42.400 --> 0:54:44.520 No, I just I don't have a license. I'm just 0:54:44.560 --> 0:54:45.800 a little bit of the pharmacy. 0:54:46.120 --> 0:54:49.520 I just you need a license to be a pharmacist 0:54:49.640 --> 0:54:52.239 or are you? Are you just a drug dealer and 0:54:52.280 --> 0:54:52.680 that's it? 0:54:54.040 --> 0:54:56.640 Uh No, I like I bag stuff up there that's 0:54:56.680 --> 0:54:59.719 already packaged. But then on my free time, my side, 0:55:00.040 --> 0:55:02.760 so the will a little drug dealing here and there. 0:55:03.360 --> 0:55:06.160 But don't you need to do with the pharmacy. Don't 0:55:06.200 --> 0:55:08.080 you need to have you like a licensed pharmacist or 0:55:08.080 --> 0:55:08.399 some ship. 0:55:08.880 --> 0:55:11.759 Yeah, that's like for the people above me. I'm like 0:55:11.880 --> 0:55:15.040 right below them. So I just do like the dirty work. 0:55:15.280 --> 0:55:16.799 I don't really touch the thing. 0:55:16.920 --> 0:55:18.880 I thought you needed the I thought you needed the 0:55:19.440 --> 0:55:21.239 degree to get the bag ship. 0:55:22.200 --> 0:55:23.799 Nah. They try to get me to do that, but 0:55:23.840 --> 0:55:26.400 you have to sign a two year contract, and I 0:55:26.440 --> 0:55:28.680 don't want to really be stuck there for two years. 0:55:28.960 --> 0:55:30.960 What do you mean They tried to get you to 0:55:31.040 --> 0:55:31.400 do that. 0:55:32.280 --> 0:55:34.640 Yeah, they try to recruit me to be a farm tech. 0:55:34.760 --> 0:55:35.359 Is what it's called? 0:55:36.040 --> 0:55:37.759 What what are you? What's the name of your thing? 0:55:38.520 --> 0:55:41.680 A manifestor I don't. I package the bags and give 0:55:41.719 --> 0:55:42.719 them the drivers. 0:55:43.080 --> 0:55:45.719 Is that the real title of your job or do 0:55:45.760 --> 0:55:46.279 you make that up? 0:55:47.280 --> 0:55:50.000 Uh, there's no official title, but I would say that's 0:55:50.000 --> 0:55:52.120 like my real my real title. 0:55:52.239 --> 0:55:54.000 There's an official title. 0:55:55.120 --> 0:55:57.920 But it's funny because no one there knows that. I also, 0:55:59.800 --> 0:56:02.160 you know, dealing the just deal to some of my 0:56:02.960 --> 0:56:04.560 some people at my college and stuff. 0:56:05.680 --> 0:56:06.120 Mm hmm. 0:56:07.600 --> 0:56:08.560 But I want to get out of it. 0:56:08.600 --> 0:56:08.719 Man. 0:56:08.760 --> 0:56:10.520 You need to, like, don't they need to like have 0:56:10.600 --> 0:56:13.160 a degree to make sure that you don't like accidentally 0:56:13.239 --> 0:56:16.560 give some old ladies like some. 0:56:16.719 --> 0:56:19.120 No like I when I applied there, the lady took 0:56:19.160 --> 0:56:21.160 me into a closet and we sat on the floor 0:56:21.280 --> 0:56:23.520 and she was like, you want this job? And I 0:56:23.560 --> 0:56:26.640 was like, yeah, so I just and I just started 0:56:26.640 --> 0:56:27.480 working there that day. 0:56:28.520 --> 0:56:30.960 Dude, what are the Yelp reviews like on this pharmacy. 0:56:34.080 --> 0:56:41.320 I don't it's like a hospice pharmacy. Oh man, yeah, 0:56:42.040 --> 0:56:45.320 but I'm like, uh, I'm a secret. I'm a double agent. 0:56:46.800 --> 0:56:49.440 So what kind of what are you just selling? Weed? 0:56:52.120 --> 0:57:01.760 Weed, shrooms, acid? Whatever people need? Really, m it sucks. 0:57:01.920 --> 0:57:04.880 I feel like I've warped my perception of money a 0:57:04.880 --> 0:57:08.759 little bit because I could make like my whole paycheck. Yeah, 0:57:08.760 --> 0:57:10.080 I can make like my whole paycheck. 0:57:11.080 --> 0:57:14.560 Why do you still work at the pharmacy if you 0:57:14.640 --> 0:57:17.720 found a more lucrative business. 0:57:18.960 --> 0:57:20.200 I'm scared of the I R s. 0:57:21.280 --> 0:57:22.720 You're scared of the irs. 0:57:23.600 --> 0:57:26.440 I'm scared of getting in trouble, you know. 0:57:26.600 --> 0:57:29.760 You know what. That is a very legitimate fear to have. 0:57:30.000 --> 0:57:33.360 That is a very hands and. 0:57:33.320 --> 0:57:35.200 I'd really like to get out of it, man, because 0:57:35.240 --> 0:57:38.000 people only know me as that now, and I'm not 0:57:38.040 --> 0:57:40.080 really a big fan of that. I want people to 0:57:40.160 --> 0:57:44.800 know me as me, you know, not as. 0:57:44.560 --> 0:57:47.440 A deal with drugs. You know, is that they they 0:57:47.520 --> 0:57:49.680 take credit for your personality, you know, you want to 0:57:49.680 --> 0:57:50.120 be all you. 0:57:52.200 --> 0:57:57.080 Yeah, but people only know you as a get go now, 0:57:57.200 --> 0:57:58.960 you know. But maybe that's what you like. 0:58:00.640 --> 0:58:03.240 I mean, sure people will know me as a gecko, 0:58:03.320 --> 0:58:07.280 but all it takes is me doing non gecko things 0:58:07.360 --> 0:58:10.160 enough that people will leave me alone about it. 0:58:11.000 --> 0:58:12.800 Yeah, But for now. 0:58:12.680 --> 0:58:13.800 I like being a gecko. 0:58:14.520 --> 0:58:16.040 Yeah, I only know you as a get go and 0:58:16.080 --> 0:58:18.120 that's that's perfectly fine with me. 0:58:18.680 --> 0:58:19.600 Do you know my name. 0:58:21.280 --> 0:58:21.680 Lionel? 0:58:23.360 --> 0:58:27.840 Close enough? What would you do? Okay? So what do 0:58:27.840 --> 0:58:30.160 you want to do? All right, so you're gonna exit 0:58:30.200 --> 0:58:32.400 the illegal trades and go into something more legitimate. What 0:58:32.400 --> 0:58:33.080 would you like to do? 0:58:34.880 --> 0:58:38.680 I'm doing studying an entrepreneurship at my university. 0:58:39.240 --> 0:58:39.600 Okay. 0:58:40.240 --> 0:58:41.800 I'd really like to own a business and be my 0:58:41.880 --> 0:58:44.640 own boss. I feel like drug dealing has taught me 0:58:44.680 --> 0:58:47.120 a little bit about business. I know it sounds super 0:58:48.000 --> 0:58:50.280 privileged or like weird to say, but. 0:58:50.680 --> 0:58:52.680 It's just a different form of entrepreneurship. 0:58:53.320 --> 0:58:57.440 Yeah. I like business a lot, but I don't want 0:58:57.440 --> 0:58:59.320 to get stuck in some cubicle, you know. 0:59:00.080 --> 0:59:02.959 Yeah, well, what would your What would your business be? 0:59:05.840 --> 0:59:09.280 Definitely like fashion? I've got like I do, like I 0:59:09.360 --> 0:59:16.040 make like clothes and stuff, and I know that would 0:59:16.080 --> 0:59:18.920 be really cool. I'd be like a dream job. You know. 0:59:19.080 --> 0:59:22.240 I'm gonna tell you, dude, is you got to make tiktoks? 0:59:23.480 --> 0:59:23.880 Do you think? 0:59:23.920 --> 0:59:29.320 So? 0:59:29.560 --> 0:59:31.640 I tried. I tried to tap into that market, but 0:59:32.040 --> 0:59:34.240 it's such specific, you know, I gotta get it down 0:59:34.320 --> 0:59:38.760 like it's very you know, stuff catches there really quick. 0:59:38.800 --> 0:59:40.800 But also it can die super fast. 0:59:41.560 --> 0:59:44.360 You know how you've solved that in my opinion. In 0:59:44.400 --> 0:59:50.240 my opinion is all right, this is gonna sound really cheesy, 0:59:50.800 --> 0:59:55.480 but I'm learning more and more that it's true even 0:59:55.520 --> 1:00:00.760 though it's cheesy, is I genuine me? You only you 1:00:00.800 --> 1:00:06.360 can do you right? So you have to do yourself 1:00:07.320 --> 1:00:11.320 in your own fashion. I right, So like you can't 1:00:11.320 --> 1:00:13.680 really like I mean, I mean, I do think you 1:00:13.680 --> 1:00:16.680 should have a consideration of like what works as a 1:00:16.760 --> 1:00:22.440 thing that might catch people's attention as they're scrolling and 1:00:22.680 --> 1:00:25.320 hold it for thirty seconds. And the way that TikTok 1:00:25.400 --> 1:00:29.240 has this sort of like beginning middle end structure that 1:00:29.320 --> 1:00:31.040 you should think of it. So think about it in 1:00:31.160 --> 1:00:36.040 terms of how can I fit the mold of something 1:00:36.080 --> 1:00:39.320 that will gather a human being's attention. But other than that, 1:00:39.520 --> 1:00:43.400 try to do your own thing first and foremost, then 1:00:43.480 --> 1:00:45.200 you know copy of other people are doing all Because 1:00:45.200 --> 1:00:50.360 I'm sure fashion TikTok is like crazy. 1:00:49.920 --> 1:00:52.600 I've been really trying to get into it. There's so 1:00:52.600 --> 1:00:55.160 many fast fashion things on TikTok, like a lot of 1:00:55.200 --> 1:00:58.960 kids who live in the same areas I do like 1:00:59.160 --> 1:01:01.720 getn't go to call and are doing fashion and they're 1:01:01.720 --> 1:01:05.880 blowing up on TikTok. But it's like they're you know, 1:01:06.000 --> 1:01:09.920 they're like taking the Nike logo and embroidering it on 1:01:10.000 --> 1:01:13.160 like some T shirt. I don't know how they haven't 1:01:13.200 --> 1:01:16.440 gotten a seasoned assist yet, but they're blowing up on TikTok. 1:01:19.000 --> 1:01:22.320 I do like screen print, like digital print. I make 1:01:22.360 --> 1:01:24.520 my designs. I go to like thrift stores and like 1:01:24.680 --> 1:01:29.160 go through books and find like cool you know, diagrams 1:01:29.160 --> 1:01:34.720 and ship mm hmm. I got to yeah, I got 1:01:34.720 --> 1:01:37.720 this one of like a human dissection. It's like the 1:01:37.960 --> 1:01:41.000 diagram of a face and where to make the cuts. 1:01:41.480 --> 1:01:43.520 And I think that would look cool like screen printed 1:01:43.560 --> 1:01:44.640 on a shirt or something. 1:01:45.680 --> 1:01:47.880 Mm hmmm. Yeah, dude. I think it's just about like 1:01:47.920 --> 1:01:50.000 telling your own story. If it's not if you're not 1:01:50.240 --> 1:01:54.200 like the because at the end of the day, I 1:01:54.320 --> 1:01:56.480 do feel like if you can combine like you as 1:01:56.520 --> 1:02:00.080 a person and your own story with the thing that 1:02:00.120 --> 1:02:02.920 you're selling, and that's a winning strategy because you know, 1:02:03.000 --> 1:02:07.640 if you're just selling the thing, you know, there's a 1:02:07.720 --> 1:02:10.480 million things. But again getting cheesy here, but you know, 1:02:10.560 --> 1:02:12.720 if you add your own personality into it. It's like 1:02:13.400 --> 1:02:14.560 other people can't copy you. 1:02:15.600 --> 1:02:18.640 Yeah, yeah, I just got I don't know. I'm so 1:02:18.760 --> 1:02:21.320 caught up and releasing stuff like it has to be 1:02:21.400 --> 1:02:23.600 perfect and I'm scared that people aren't gonna like it. 1:02:23.640 --> 1:02:25.480 But I just have to do it for me, you know, 1:02:25.600 --> 1:02:28.480 post what I like and the people will follow. 1:02:29.440 --> 1:02:31.720 Yeah, dude, just keep posting shit, keep posting it. The 1:02:31.760 --> 1:02:33.960 way the TikTok works is I genuine believe if you 1:02:34.040 --> 1:02:38.280 keep hammering at it you understand it, Eventually something will happen. 1:02:39.680 --> 1:02:42.760 Yeah, I know, I totally agree. I got to like 1:02:42.800 --> 1:02:45.600 tap into that market. I really do. 1:02:46.960 --> 1:02:52.240 H Well, look, I wish you the best of luck. 1:02:52.240 --> 1:02:56.000 I hope that you make the switch. You have a 1:02:56.040 --> 1:03:00.520 good amount of starting capital to work with, so yeah, 1:03:00.640 --> 1:03:01.320 good for you. 1:03:01.240 --> 1:03:03.840 On that undocumented starting capital. 1:03:04.840 --> 1:03:06.720 I won't tell anyone. I don't know if anyone from 1:03:06.760 --> 1:03:07.960 the I R S is here. 1:03:07.760 --> 1:03:08.000 But. 1:03:09.640 --> 1:03:10.720 Yeah, thank you, thank you. 1:03:10.760 --> 1:03:11.440 I appreciate it. 1:03:11.440 --> 1:03:12.200 Shot in the face. 1:03:13.440 --> 1:03:16.000 Thank you. I hope you have a wonderful day you too. 1:03:16.000 --> 1:03:16.640 Many took care. 1:03:17.720 --> 1:03:22.320 Bye aw from mister J. 1:03:24.320 --> 1:03:30.040 Mister who mister J. Have we spoken before, mister J? 1:03:30.760 --> 1:03:32.880 No, we have not, Sir, it's my first time being 1:03:32.920 --> 1:03:33.560 on your channel. 1:03:33.760 --> 1:03:37.320 Thank you, man, Oh, thanks for having thanks for being here. 1:03:37.320 --> 1:03:39.800 How did you find us twitch? 1:03:39.880 --> 1:03:41.880 I'm a fellow streamer and I one of my friends 1:03:41.920 --> 1:03:43.760 suggested you were a channel, so I thought to check 1:03:43.800 --> 1:03:44.080 it out. 1:03:44.880 --> 1:03:47.919 Amazing that you're a fellow streamer. How's your stream going? 1:03:48.760 --> 1:03:52.880 Pretty good? Slowly growing a couple hundred followers, but you know, 1:03:53.040 --> 1:03:53.560 get there. 1:03:54.240 --> 1:03:56.720 So I love you. Already we're rating you. What's your thing? 1:03:56.960 --> 1:03:57.520 What's your thing? 1:03:57.600 --> 1:04:01.120 Oh, I'm already done for the night. It's mister m 1:04:01.280 --> 1:04:05.680 R Underscore j a y underscore Tarot. It's mister J's taro. 1:04:05.760 --> 1:04:06.640 I do Tarot streaming. 1:04:06.960 --> 1:04:10.160 It's terror streaming love. Yes, all right, I got it? 1:04:11.440 --> 1:04:13.960 Mis can we make it? I want to raid this guy. 1:04:15.080 --> 1:04:17.640 I love him. He seems nice. 1:04:18.560 --> 1:04:23.960 Yeah, thank you. By the way, I gotta say, I 1:04:24.080 --> 1:04:27.520 love your dynamic. I love the show, I love the 1:04:27.520 --> 1:04:30.400 therapy get go portion, I love your website. I just 1:04:30.680 --> 1:04:32.120 I love the character. It's amazing. 1:04:32.680 --> 1:04:37.880 Thank you. I appreciate that, man, that very much. I'm 1:04:37.880 --> 1:04:39.040 doing the best I can here. 1:04:39.800 --> 1:04:42.600 Well, you're amazing. Don't don't ever stop. It's just you 1:04:42.680 --> 1:04:45.080 are just amazing, sir. 1:04:45.640 --> 1:04:47.640 Thank you, mids. Read this guy's name down. We're riding. 1:04:48.000 --> 1:04:49.560 We're going to raid him next time. He's life. 1:04:50.160 --> 1:04:56.240 Yeah, it's mister Underscore. Jay's Tarot. It's mister underscore Jase. Yes, 1:04:56.960 --> 1:04:59.080 there's a picture of a cat. It's my profile picture. 1:04:59.560 --> 1:05:01.560 Are you a cat or are you a person? 1:05:02.120 --> 1:05:04.160 I'm a person, but I love my cat. My my 1:05:04.160 --> 1:05:07.400 wife and I decided to make an interesting character for 1:05:07.480 --> 1:05:09.040 their picture, so we used our cat. 1:05:09.640 --> 1:05:11.200 Does your wife stream with you as well? 1:05:12.000 --> 1:05:14.480 No, she does not. She just helps me take care 1:05:14.520 --> 1:05:16.080 of my lovely three year old baby girl. 1:05:17.360 --> 1:05:18.880 How did you and your wife meet each other? 1:05:19.960 --> 1:05:20.360 Oh? 1:05:20.400 --> 1:05:22.880 My Space? Actually you met. 1:05:22.720 --> 1:05:27.240 On my Space? Yeah, I know, right, I don't even 1:05:27.320 --> 1:05:30.160 know what that means. Like, how do people connect with 1:05:30.160 --> 1:05:32.680 each other on MySpace? Do they like direct a message? 1:05:32.720 --> 1:05:34.160 Do they write on their walls? 1:05:34.200 --> 1:05:34.280 Like? 1:05:35.000 --> 1:05:37.880 I don't even know what MySpace is anymore? 1:05:39.160 --> 1:05:42.600 Well, okay, so I was on my Space looking for 1:05:42.720 --> 1:05:46.880 somebody who was basically knew a little lot about terrot cards. 1:05:46.880 --> 1:05:50.400 I started to get into them, shout her profile and 1:05:50.960 --> 1:05:53.720 you know, messaged her. We messaged each other back and forth. 1:05:54.200 --> 1:05:57.560 Found out we actually lived one county away from each other. 1:05:57.600 --> 1:05:59.920 I was living in La County Shoes of George County 1:06:00.120 --> 1:06:04.080 met up and basically, yeah, back the year I believe 1:06:04.200 --> 1:06:08.960 it was had to be two thousand and God, it's 1:06:09.000 --> 1:06:10.800 a long time ago. It's like it was two thousand 1:06:10.840 --> 1:06:11.880 and two, two thousand and three. 1:06:14.200 --> 1:06:16.960 Mmm, she guys been married? You guys, you guys have 1:06:17.000 --> 1:06:22.120 been together for fucking like what eighteen years? Fourteen years? 1:06:22.160 --> 1:06:22.440 My math? 1:06:22.560 --> 1:06:24.240 I don't feel like doing math right now, but something 1:06:24.280 --> 1:06:24.600 like that. 1:06:24.600 --> 1:06:28.200 That's okay. We just celebrated our ched wedding anniversary last 1:06:28.280 --> 1:06:29.560 year in October. 1:06:30.080 --> 1:06:32.680 Wow, what's the secret? Why do you what do you 1:06:32.800 --> 1:06:34.040 like about her that much? 1:06:35.560 --> 1:06:39.240 She makes me laugh, She brings out a part of me. 1:06:39.400 --> 1:06:41.720 She allows me to be childish when I need to 1:06:41.760 --> 1:06:44.920 be childish and have fun. She helps me embrace my 1:06:44.960 --> 1:06:47.560 inner child a lot. She helps me. She allows me 1:06:47.600 --> 1:06:48.600 to be my silly self. 1:06:50.160 --> 1:06:51.720 What do you what do you think she likes about you? 1:06:53.400 --> 1:06:53.920 Uh? 1:06:53.920 --> 1:06:56.680 My humor? I make her laugh and I keep her 1:06:56.800 --> 1:07:02.080 entertained with telling long stories that have no point. M. 1:07:02.720 --> 1:07:04.280 Do you feel like the do you feel like when 1:07:04.320 --> 1:07:07.560 you stream like you treat your audience like you like 1:07:07.800 --> 1:07:10.000 they're your wife and you're trying to make them laugh. 1:07:10.160 --> 1:07:11.920 So that they love you more. 1:07:11.960 --> 1:07:14.520 A long the lines. I do it to help people. 1:07:14.720 --> 1:07:18.360 I do it to basically some people have questions and 1:07:18.480 --> 1:07:21.840 they they want a stranger to go to and we connect, 1:07:21.960 --> 1:07:26.000 we connect. I connect with them and they become followers, 1:07:26.320 --> 1:07:29.880 sometimes debscribers, whatnot. And we really we really grow from 1:07:29.880 --> 1:07:33.280 each other. All the people I've met off twitch, Uh, 1:07:33.400 --> 1:07:37.480 you know, it's been new connections. And actually started streaming 1:07:37.600 --> 1:07:39.840 because unfortunately my mother passed away. 1:07:40.680 --> 1:07:43.040 I'm sorry to hear that. That's okay to show you 1:07:43.080 --> 1:07:43.880 just start streaming. 1:07:45.520 --> 1:07:48.480 My mother told me before. One of the things the 1:07:48.520 --> 1:07:50.560 conversations we had a lot of time ago, was you know, 1:07:50.880 --> 1:07:54.400 sometimes you've got to find your audience. And I decided 1:07:54.440 --> 1:07:57.000 to stream as a form of therapy, and it really helped. 1:07:58.080 --> 1:08:01.120 And stream as a form of therapy. 1:08:01.680 --> 1:08:02.800 That's how it originally started. 1:08:02.840 --> 1:08:05.360 Yeah, and what do you what do you find therapeutic 1:08:05.400 --> 1:08:05.760 about it? 1:08:07.400 --> 1:08:11.040 To connect you with people, the relationships, the fact that 1:08:11.080 --> 1:08:13.760 I can confide in perfect strangers what I'm feeling and 1:08:13.800 --> 1:08:16.839 I won't be judged. I won't have anyone think badly 1:08:16.840 --> 1:08:19.040 of me or anything like that. It's it's it's that, 1:08:18.840 --> 1:08:23.240 It's that, it's that emininity of you know, confiding in people. 1:08:24.160 --> 1:08:24.840 Interesting? 1:08:25.640 --> 1:08:26.160 Yeah? 1:08:26.720 --> 1:08:27.280 Interesting? 1:08:28.080 --> 1:08:28.439 Yeah. 1:08:28.520 --> 1:08:31.439 Do you feel like you have people? I mean, you know, 1:08:31.479 --> 1:08:33.160 you have a whole family here. Do you feel like 1:08:33.240 --> 1:08:35.959 you have people in real life that you can confide 1:08:35.960 --> 1:08:36.559 to as well? 1:08:37.160 --> 1:08:39.760 I do. I do, But at the time I was, 1:08:40.080 --> 1:08:43.320 you know, it was I do have family and friends. 1:08:43.360 --> 1:08:46.360 But you know, family and friends are always going to 1:08:46.400 --> 1:08:49.040 say nice things to you, and they always want to 1:08:49.040 --> 1:08:50.960 be They always have your back. They're always there to 1:08:51.000 --> 1:08:52.639 care for you and take care of you and help 1:08:52.640 --> 1:08:55.120 you in your time and need. And at that time, 1:08:55.240 --> 1:08:58.840 I just I wanted to do something. I wanted to 1:08:58.880 --> 1:09:03.400 be active, not just sitting at home playing video games. 1:09:03.439 --> 1:09:05.360 I wanted to be active. I wanted to be around people. 1:09:05.439 --> 1:09:08.280 Because of the pandemic, I wasn't able to do so, 1:09:08.280 --> 1:09:10.559 so I thought, well, I just streaming, going to try 1:09:10.600 --> 1:09:12.160 because a couple of friends adjusting it and that's why 1:09:12.160 --> 1:09:12.840 I started. 1:09:12.560 --> 1:09:18.720 Doing That's awesome, Yeah, that's awesome. And how long you've 1:09:18.760 --> 1:09:19.320 been doing it for? 1:09:20.760 --> 1:09:25.559 I started streaming beginning of April. 1:09:26.760 --> 1:09:29.880 Only If you about you any do you do any 1:09:29.920 --> 1:09:32.400 TikTok or any other social media? Are you mainly just. 1:09:34.000 --> 1:09:37.040 Well mostly twitch? But I do TikTok? But my TikTok's 1:09:37.040 --> 1:09:39.640 more like just me being silly, random moments that I 1:09:39.760 --> 1:09:41.880 just sometimes in life, I just want to be silly 1:09:41.920 --> 1:09:43.559 and I do just do a call it a silly 1:09:43.640 --> 1:09:44.240 random moment. 1:09:44.880 --> 1:09:47.200 Tell me, tell me something silly you've done. 1:09:48.040 --> 1:09:51.160 Well, I meet a friend of mine. We created a 1:09:51.240 --> 1:09:53.719 Chooser and Adventure D and D series on TikTok. 1:09:54.840 --> 1:09:55.679 I like that idea. 1:09:56.320 --> 1:09:59.439 We had people commenting, making decisions for the character, and 1:09:59.640 --> 1:10:02.160 someth the character died and sometimes you got his head 1:10:02.200 --> 1:10:02.920 bashed in mine. 1:10:02.800 --> 1:10:07.680 Over all controlled by the audience, that is true, but. 1:10:07.760 --> 1:10:10.839 You know, I would post the video what the audience decided, 1:10:10.880 --> 1:10:12.880 and I would post the video to that move the 1:10:12.880 --> 1:10:15.720 story forward next a couple of days later, kind of 1:10:15.880 --> 1:10:18.519 keep people on their seats. And it was a good 1:10:18.560 --> 1:10:22.559 thing for a while. And then then I started streaming. 1:10:23.080 --> 1:10:27.800 Since I moved from TikTok to streaming, and I've been 1:10:27.800 --> 1:10:30.040 talking to a lot of people, making a lot of friends, 1:10:30.240 --> 1:10:32.080 and it's just it's been a lot of fun and 1:10:32.160 --> 1:10:33.920 I'm getting a bunch of followers. Thank you, guys. I 1:10:33.960 --> 1:10:34.759 appreciate the follows. 1:10:34.760 --> 1:10:37.040 By the way, Hell well you're gonna get a lot 1:10:37.040 --> 1:10:39.120 more because we're gonna fucking rad you next time your life. 1:10:39.160 --> 1:10:45.280 Dude, Yeah you're interested. I streamed about three point thirty 1:10:45.360 --> 1:10:50.360 till six pm Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays Pacific Standard time. 1:10:50.840 --> 1:10:51.280 Ah. 1:10:51.880 --> 1:10:54.840 Then we're never going to get to radio because you're 1:10:54.840 --> 1:10:56.439 always on before when I. 1:10:56.360 --> 1:10:59.880 Am, unfortunately that is. But actually did rad you tonight? 1:11:00.160 --> 1:11:02.680 I was like, I'm gonna rate Jet though. Yeah, but 1:11:02.720 --> 1:11:05.240 there was so much going on chat it was hilarious. 1:11:05.240 --> 1:11:09.280 Oh okay, thank you just a little pigeon for putting 1:11:09.280 --> 1:11:11.479 my name in there. I appreciate it. That's my twitch 1:11:11.520 --> 1:11:13.000 cadave you guys. 1:11:13.479 --> 1:11:17.400 Well, dude, listen, thank you so much for coming on 1:11:17.439 --> 1:11:19.360 our stream. Man, I'm happy to hear that you found 1:11:19.360 --> 1:11:20.639 something that you very much enjoy. 1:11:21.720 --> 1:11:23.439 I am very happy to be here, and I want 1:11:23.479 --> 1:11:27.000 to say again I'm really glad to find you. I've 1:11:27.000 --> 1:11:31.200 been watching your show since Monday, since last Friday, cool, 1:11:31.240 --> 1:11:32.840 and today I decided to call in. 1:11:33.960 --> 1:11:35.679 I'm happy, I guys, to talk to you. I'm always 1:11:35.680 --> 1:11:38.559 happy to talk to talk to new people finding the stream. 1:11:39.080 --> 1:11:42.920 Oh yeah, thank you, sir, and have a great stream, sir, 1:11:43.479 --> 1:11:43.800 you too. 1:11:43.880 --> 1:11:45.720 You have a good rest of the night, sir. 1:11:45.840 --> 1:11:46.160 Bye. 1:11:48.200 --> 1:11:49.840 What a nice. What a nice dude? 1:11:50.120 --> 1:11:53.719 All from? 1:11:53.760 --> 1:11:54.080 Hello? 1:11:55.439 --> 1:11:57.360 Oh shoot, I actually got on. 1:11:58.880 --> 1:11:59.360 How you doing? 1:12:00.680 --> 1:12:01.880 I'm doing good air? Are you doing? 1:12:01.920 --> 1:12:03.519 Ghek? You know. 1:12:06.600 --> 1:12:08.439 I'm all right, I'm a geck along the computer. 1:12:09.920 --> 1:12:11.000 H Yeah. 1:12:11.040 --> 1:12:12.840 Can I ask you a very important question? 1:12:13.560 --> 1:12:13.920 Sure? 1:12:15.120 --> 1:12:19.720 All right, Sorry, I'm a little stick right now. But 1:12:21.120 --> 1:12:22.559 have you ever set your hair on fire? 1:12:23.439 --> 1:12:25.000 Have I ever set my hair on fire? 1:12:25.840 --> 1:12:26.040 Yes? 1:12:26.760 --> 1:12:28.960 Do you mean like fully engulfed my hair into flames 1:12:29.040 --> 1:12:30.240 or like burn the piece of my hair? 1:12:31.400 --> 1:12:31.639 Uh? 1:12:32.160 --> 1:12:33.840 Whatever? Has fire? 1:12:34.120 --> 1:12:34.400 Have you? 1:12:34.600 --> 1:12:37.559 Has fire ever come in contact with your hair? 1:12:40.000 --> 1:12:42.720 Probably? Ask when you asked this fire come on contact? 1:12:42.720 --> 1:12:44.680 I'm sure my friend has like held a lighter off 1:12:44.720 --> 1:12:46.120 to my hair or something like that once. 1:12:47.240 --> 1:12:50.120 Really yeah? Yeah? 1:12:50.200 --> 1:12:50.280 No. 1:12:50.400 --> 1:12:52.960 So the reason why I ask that question is I'm 1:12:53.080 --> 1:12:57.920 trying to conduct a survey to see how often people 1:12:57.960 --> 1:12:58.960 set their hair on fire. 1:13:00.200 --> 1:13:03.559 Interesting to get a survey to see how often people 1:13:03.600 --> 1:13:04.719 set their hair on fire. 1:13:05.640 --> 1:13:10.080 Yes, and I'm categorizing it between male female, long hair 1:13:10.120 --> 1:13:13.040 and short hair, as well as on accident and on purpose. 1:13:14.240 --> 1:13:20.679 Interesting. Interesting, All right, I'll bite. What are you planning 1:13:20.680 --> 1:13:21.720 to do with the results of this? 1:13:24.000 --> 1:13:30.840 It's really more curiosity because I have set my hair 1:13:30.840 --> 1:13:35.800 on fire about three times, and you know, it almost 1:13:35.840 --> 1:13:37.800 happened a fourth time. And then that's when it really 1:13:37.800 --> 1:13:42.000 got me thinking, how often does this happen to people? 1:13:42.400 --> 1:13:43.120 You know? Like? 1:13:43.880 --> 1:13:45.479 Is this common? Is this rare? 1:13:46.360 --> 1:13:46.559 You know? 1:13:47.640 --> 1:13:49.799 Am I just unlucky? Or am I lucky? 1:13:50.000 --> 1:13:50.200 You know? 1:13:50.280 --> 1:13:51.840 Because you know I don't know? 1:13:52.760 --> 1:13:52.880 Uh? 1:13:53.080 --> 1:13:56.760 Well, I have a couple questions here. One, are you 1:13:56.800 --> 1:13:58.439 setting your hair on fire yourself? 1:13:59.640 --> 1:14:03.800 No accident? All the three times it happened accidents? 1:14:05.640 --> 1:14:07.439 Okay? And then when you say you feel like you've 1:14:07.439 --> 1:14:09.840 gotten lucky, do you once it actually happens, do you 1:14:09.880 --> 1:14:11.479 like enjoy the sensation or something? 1:14:12.760 --> 1:14:15.360 No? I mean I think of it as lucky, like 1:14:16.439 --> 1:14:18.360 you know, like when people say it's good luck when 1:14:18.360 --> 1:14:22.080 a bird poops in your hair or something like that. 1:14:22.479 --> 1:14:24.479 I've actually never heard anyone say that. 1:14:25.360 --> 1:14:28.000 Really. Well, I guess it's something my dad says. Well, 1:14:28.120 --> 1:14:30.920 my dad, you know, he he's told me a few times. 1:14:30.920 --> 1:14:33.360 You know, it's good luck when a bird poops. 1:14:33.040 --> 1:14:33.439 In your hair. 1:14:33.560 --> 1:14:35.880 So that's why I thought, you know, setting my hair 1:14:35.880 --> 1:14:38.040 on fire by accident? It is kind of like that. 1:14:38.120 --> 1:14:40.240 Basically, what's your relationship with your dad? 1:14:40.400 --> 1:14:40.479 Like? 1:14:44.960 --> 1:14:52.280 Interesting, it's not uh, I would I can't really put 1:14:52.280 --> 1:14:56.240 it into words exactly how the relationship is. It's very 1:14:56.720 --> 1:14:58.320 back and forth between good and bad. 1:15:00.560 --> 1:15:04.160 Mm hmm. What where do you feel like it is now? 1:15:05.240 --> 1:15:12.360 M Uh okay, I would say. 1:15:11.520 --> 1:15:15.320 It's okay, just okay. Mm hmmm. 1:15:21.479 --> 1:15:23.800 I don't know. A lot happened with my dad, so 1:15:24.120 --> 1:15:25.720 that's why it's really hard to put my finger how 1:15:25.720 --> 1:15:27.559 I would actually say how the relationship is. 1:15:30.960 --> 1:15:36.160 How many people have you surveyed for this so far? 1:15:36.320 --> 1:15:41.760 I only started to survey yesterday, and so far I 1:15:41.880 --> 1:15:47.639 have let me see one, two, three, four, five, six, 1:15:47.760 --> 1:15:50.640 seven people and then plus you, that's eight. So I 1:15:50.640 --> 1:15:51.400 guess eight people. 1:15:52.600 --> 1:15:59.479 M and uh, what's the word of the results of 1:15:59.479 --> 1:16:00.200 the survey so far? 1:16:03.720 --> 1:16:08.120 So far, it's actually tied right now. I've only found 1:16:08.160 --> 1:16:10.599 one guy in one female that both had set their 1:16:10.600 --> 1:16:20.240 hair on fire on purpose, one was or both of 1:16:20.240 --> 1:16:21.240 them were actually on purpose. 1:16:24.040 --> 1:16:25.960 Well, listen, I don't know what your motive is. I 1:16:26.000 --> 1:16:28.760 don't know if you're doing this for profit or curiosity, 1:16:28.800 --> 1:16:32.120 but either way, I hope that whatever is tickling your 1:16:32.120 --> 1:16:34.360 brain about the subject is ultimately scratched. 1:16:36.880 --> 1:16:41.200 I'm probably gonna actually decide to when I start feeling 1:16:41.200 --> 1:16:43.360 better to actually ask people in public so I can 1:16:43.400 --> 1:16:45.120 start getting better results. 1:16:46.360 --> 1:16:48.320 Yeah, I think that's a good idea. I think that 1:16:48.360 --> 1:16:49.680 you might make a lot of friends doing that. 1:16:51.920 --> 1:16:52.720 I think so too. 1:16:54.560 --> 1:16:57.240 Well, good luck. I hope that you find the answers 1:16:57.240 --> 1:16:57.840 you're looking for. 1:16:58.439 --> 1:17:00.559 Wait before you hit the call, do you mind if 1:17:00.560 --> 1:17:03.120 I give, like a really stupid message? 1:17:05.040 --> 1:17:08.639 Do I mind if you give a really stupid message? Sure? 1:17:08.760 --> 1:17:11.679 Well, okay, yeah, it comes from a TV show. People 1:17:11.720 --> 1:17:14.439 might be knowing what I'm talking about. I'm gonna probably 1:17:14.439 --> 1:17:17.040 be embarrassed for saying this, but you know, there's one 1:17:17.040 --> 1:17:22.000 thing in life. Geck, never be the cock. Always be 1:17:22.080 --> 1:17:26.439 the guy who fucks the wife consensually, of course. But yeah, 1:17:26.439 --> 1:17:29.000 that is my message to the world. It was good 1:17:29.040 --> 1:17:29.600 talking with you. 1:17:30.520 --> 1:17:31.479 Where is that from? 1:17:31.960 --> 1:17:33.960 Oh it's from a TV show called The Boys? 1:17:34.920 --> 1:17:38.880 Mm hmm? Is that is that? Is that the way 1:17:38.920 --> 1:17:39.719 that you live your life? 1:17:41.760 --> 1:17:45.639 Uh? I'm going to start living my life. My life 1:17:45.680 --> 1:17:51.120 that way got to be more confident, more optimistic. 1:17:51.520 --> 1:17:54.320 Well, look, and the you know, there's another There's lots 1:17:54.320 --> 1:17:56.880 of alternative viewpoints to this as well. I almost think 1:17:57.439 --> 1:17:59.639 the one one might be able to say the cock, right, 1:18:02.120 --> 1:18:04.679 the cock? Actually it might be the most confident person 1:18:04.720 --> 1:18:06.880 in the situation. Do you know why. 1:18:08.360 --> 1:18:09.519 Why? 1:18:09.640 --> 1:18:14.599 Because the cock is so comfortable with who he is, 1:18:15.479 --> 1:18:21.920 so comfortable in the security of his relationships that he's 1:18:21.960 --> 1:18:26.760 willing to put them at risk because he knows he'll 1:18:26.760 --> 1:18:30.439 be find no matter what, because he's so secure in them. 1:18:30.560 --> 1:18:35.559 And that, to me is the true way to live 1:18:35.600 --> 1:18:38.920 your life is to find security in your relationships and 1:18:39.320 --> 1:18:42.280 both with others and with yourself, that you're comfortable with 1:18:42.360 --> 1:18:43.880 things that other people traditionally aren't. 1:18:45.800 --> 1:18:50.639 Well, I must say, that's a very interesting perspective. 1:18:51.040 --> 1:18:53.920 Rather than you know, the guy fucking the cook's wife 1:18:54.160 --> 1:19:02.880 is on this never ending search for self esteem that 1:19:02.920 --> 1:19:05.639 they're trying to gain by you know, having sex with 1:19:05.640 --> 1:19:09.680 with you knows as many women as possible, which you 1:19:09.720 --> 1:19:18.440 know can be fun, but it's not as internally rewarding 1:19:18.720 --> 1:19:23.320 as having that security in your in your relationships and 1:19:23.360 --> 1:19:27.280 in yourself because that's something you can really really count on. 1:19:27.360 --> 1:19:32.800 That's a more sustainable way of living. So, you know, 1:19:33.000 --> 1:19:36.720 just think about that. 1:19:36.720 --> 1:19:40.719 That's a very interesting look at it. Personally, I didn't 1:19:40.720 --> 1:19:42.880 think too much about it, mainly because I just thought 1:19:42.880 --> 1:19:44.360 it was funny. It was one of the few things 1:19:44.360 --> 1:19:45.679 in life that actually made me laugh. 1:19:47.640 --> 1:19:51.479 So well, I'm happy to have ruined it for you. 1:19:51.479 --> 1:19:53.439 No, you didn't room it for me. I felt was 1:19:53.439 --> 1:19:54.760 a very interesting perspective. 1:19:55.600 --> 1:19:56.800 Well, thank you so much, man, You have a the 1:19:56.840 --> 1:19:57.320 rest of the night. 1:19:58.040 --> 1:20:03.280 Yeah, you too, get thanks for the the talk. 1:20:04.400 --> 1:20:06.720 Call from Margie. 1:20:08.160 --> 1:20:08.760 Margie. 1:20:10.960 --> 1:20:15.080 Hello, how are you doing? Margie? We were spoken before. 1:20:15.840 --> 1:20:20.080 I know, I don't think so. No, I actually I 1:20:20.120 --> 1:20:20.599 actually know. 1:20:20.680 --> 1:20:21.599 We haven't. I don't know why. 1:20:21.560 --> 1:20:21.840 I said. 1:20:22.360 --> 1:20:24.439 How did you find this? This this place? 1:20:25.600 --> 1:20:25.920 Oh? 1:20:26.000 --> 1:20:27.639 TikTok, dude pic? 1:20:27.840 --> 1:20:31.360 Yeah, yeah, this is your first time on the stream. 1:20:32.400 --> 1:20:32.840 It is. 1:20:32.960 --> 1:20:34.760 I'm actually surprised I got connected. 1:20:36.800 --> 1:20:39.080 What do you think so far? How's how's how's your 1:20:39.080 --> 1:20:39.840 experience been? 1:20:40.960 --> 1:20:42.800 Oh it's been rad I love it. 1:20:42.840 --> 1:20:44.280 I love hearing people's stories. 1:20:44.960 --> 1:20:46.839 Awesome and your advice. 1:20:47.920 --> 1:20:50.479 You've been hearing people's stories and you've been hearing my 1:20:50.560 --> 1:20:53.240 advice all damn night. But it's time. It's time for 1:20:53.320 --> 1:20:56.120 us to hear your story. Marge tell us. Are you interesting? 1:20:57.280 --> 1:21:01.600 Oh god, no, I'm actually uh. I'm twenty four and 1:21:01.680 --> 1:21:03.680 all my friends moved out of state. So I'm just 1:21:03.680 --> 1:21:06.160 trying to like figure myself out. 1:21:06.000 --> 1:21:12.240 Now, trying to figure yourself out. What is there to 1:21:12.280 --> 1:21:12.760 figure out? 1:21:12.800 --> 1:21:16.840 Margie, Oh, I don't know, like my self identity. It's 1:21:16.920 --> 1:21:18.559 it's weird. It's like I feel like I'm in a 1:21:18.560 --> 1:21:22.600 different chapter of my life. And yeah, I don't know. 1:21:22.680 --> 1:21:25.439 It's like, oh, I got to be myself now without 1:21:25.439 --> 1:21:27.240 people around to like kind of put on a show. 1:21:28.720 --> 1:21:31.360 Do you feel like you're putting on a show consistently? 1:21:32.800 --> 1:21:35.000 Oh god, yeah, definitely. 1:21:34.960 --> 1:21:36.560 Tell me about the show. Tell me I want to 1:21:36.960 --> 1:21:39.800 sort of figure out the difference between because I want 1:21:39.800 --> 1:21:43.520 to know the difference between the show and the reality. 1:21:45.000 --> 1:21:47.400 Oh okay, tell us first about the show. 1:21:49.840 --> 1:21:52.000 Show would be like, I don't know. I just I 1:21:52.040 --> 1:21:54.760 want to like, I don't know. I guess I want 1:21:54.760 --> 1:21:56.880 to try to impress people by being like, oh, yeah, 1:21:56.920 --> 1:21:59.840 I've been working out and I've been doing a daily 1:22:00.520 --> 1:22:02.720 with my skin, and I don't know, kind of like 1:22:02.760 --> 1:22:06.040 making it seem like I'm living this wonderful, care free 1:22:06.240 --> 1:22:10.240 life and in reality, I have horrible social anxiety and 1:22:10.280 --> 1:22:10.719 I just. 1:22:10.680 --> 1:22:12.800 Like want to disassociate all day. 1:22:13.600 --> 1:22:19.280 So, so the show is showing people that you are 1:22:19.360 --> 1:22:22.479 winning when really you feel like you're not. 1:22:23.800 --> 1:22:24.920 Oh yeah, definitely. 1:22:25.560 --> 1:22:27.640 Why do you feel the need for other people to 1:22:27.680 --> 1:22:29.400 see that you are winning. 1:22:35.200 --> 1:22:35.559 Shot. 1:22:35.880 --> 1:22:40.120 I've never been asked that. I don't know, like mommy issues. 1:22:40.160 --> 1:22:45.160 Maybe really you've never been asked that. No, well, I've 1:22:45.880 --> 1:22:47.000 at least like on your own. 1:22:48.720 --> 1:22:50.559 I think I've tried. And then as soon as I 1:22:50.600 --> 1:22:52.920 get to that point where I'm like, oh, maybe it's 1:22:52.920 --> 1:22:55.200 for this reason, I'm like, oh, that's a lot to 1:22:55.240 --> 1:22:57.760 deal with. Let's just put on some. 1:22:57.760 --> 1:23:01.040 TV us tell us this reason. And when you say, 1:23:01.040 --> 1:23:02.720 oh that that reasons a lot to deal with. What's 1:23:02.760 --> 1:23:04.759 the reason you say? You say it's mommy issues. 1:23:05.760 --> 1:23:09.360 Oh probably yeah, kind of like dealing with my past, 1:23:09.520 --> 1:23:12.440 my childhood trauma, if you will. 1:23:13.000 --> 1:23:19.280 Sure, sure, Yeah, Okay, So you say that this show 1:23:19.400 --> 1:23:24.200 is putting on that like you're whatever hashtag killing it 1:23:24.240 --> 1:23:29.120 your hashtag goals. Yeah, that's the actual what's going on 1:23:29.240 --> 1:23:29.960 in reality? 1:23:33.680 --> 1:23:37.120 Oh, just like I'm from like the Midwest, and we're 1:23:37.200 --> 1:23:39.200 kind of a boring bunch of people, and I think 1:23:39.240 --> 1:23:42.920 I just want to like try to be somebody i'm 1:23:42.920 --> 1:23:45.600 not sometimes and it's like it's okay to just be me. 1:23:47.000 --> 1:23:47.840 Does that make sense? 1:23:48.280 --> 1:23:50.960 Well, when you well, I'm trying to understand because when 1:23:50.960 --> 1:23:54.519 you say you're from because you're you're talking about First 1:23:54.560 --> 1:23:57.439 you were talking about where you're from and the people 1:23:57.479 --> 1:23:59.360 around you, and then you start talking about yourself. 1:24:00.439 --> 1:24:02.479 So which is it? 1:24:02.600 --> 1:24:05.040 Like you know the people around you are boring and 1:24:05.080 --> 1:24:08.040 you want to separate yourself from them, or you feel 1:24:08.080 --> 1:24:10.479 like you're boring and you want to make a new person. 1:24:11.720 --> 1:24:13.240 I feel like I'm boring and I want to make 1:24:13.240 --> 1:24:15.800 a new person. I'd say that that's the one. 1:24:15.920 --> 1:24:19.479 That's great, and I think that's that's a great thing 1:24:19.520 --> 1:24:20.040 to want to do. 1:24:21.640 --> 1:24:23.920 Yeah, you think, of course? 1:24:25.320 --> 1:24:26.040 Why do you feel like? 1:24:26.040 --> 1:24:26.439 I don't know. 1:24:27.640 --> 1:24:29.960 I feel like I get narcissistic when I think that way, 1:24:30.000 --> 1:24:33.920 and that's I don't know, I feel bad about myself 1:24:34.080 --> 1:24:38.240 if I want to make myself more than I don't know, 1:24:38.280 --> 1:24:38.799 it's weird. 1:24:39.800 --> 1:24:41.600 No, I get it. I get it, Like it's like, 1:24:41.600 --> 1:24:44.599 you know, who the fuck are you to like? Go 1:24:44.680 --> 1:24:49.280 do things right? Yeah, I agree, I agree. I get 1:24:49.280 --> 1:24:51.240 you on that. I get you on that. I have 1:24:51.280 --> 1:24:55.800 a little bit of that myself, you know. I mean, 1:24:55.840 --> 1:25:01.080 what's the alternative though? Don't do anything? And you know 1:25:01.479 --> 1:25:06.280 who cares? If you know? If I don't know, I'd 1:25:06.360 --> 1:25:09.000 rather you go live your life and have a few 1:25:09.040 --> 1:25:13.599 people think that you're full of yourself then consistently bend 1:25:13.800 --> 1:25:17.000 to the whims of other people. You know, it's just 1:25:17.000 --> 1:25:18.240 such a fucking prison. 1:25:19.320 --> 1:25:23.720 Yeah, yeah, you're You're definitely right. It's weird because it's 1:25:23.720 --> 1:25:27.280 just it's nice to hear somebody kind of give that affirmation. 1:25:26.880 --> 1:25:30.839 Back, versus people telling. 1:25:30.640 --> 1:25:32.320 Me like, nah, just say the way you. 1:25:32.320 --> 1:25:36.280 Are well, tell me, well, I mean the who who 1:25:36.360 --> 1:25:38.559 is it that you want to what is it that 1:25:38.600 --> 1:25:39.559 you want to change? 1:25:41.520 --> 1:25:44.439 I think I just want to feel more comfortable talking 1:25:44.479 --> 1:25:47.479 to people. I kind of I said earlier. I have 1:25:47.560 --> 1:25:49.360 social anxiety, and I think I just want to get 1:25:49.360 --> 1:25:53.280 better at, like, I don't know, like being okay to 1:25:53.400 --> 1:25:58.160 like ask people add ball questions and not feel weird 1:25:58.200 --> 1:26:03.760 about just asking them questions and having just fun conversations 1:26:03.760 --> 1:26:05.400 that really don't have a whole lot of meaning. 1:26:05.520 --> 1:26:12.840 And I don't know, it's tough, Yeah, to assert your 1:26:13.000 --> 1:26:20.600 frame of a conversation on to other people. Not necessarily, 1:26:20.960 --> 1:26:23.360 it's not an assertion. I said that wrong. It's not 1:26:23.360 --> 1:26:26.880 an assertion of your frame of the conversation on to 1:26:26.920 --> 1:26:30.320 other people. It's just like, if you want to ask 1:26:30.360 --> 1:26:33.000 a question or you want to take the conversation a 1:26:33.040 --> 1:26:36.519 certain way, just fucking doing it and not caring about it. 1:26:36.640 --> 1:26:39.800 The other people it's like you're it's like, no, fuck 1:26:39.880 --> 1:26:43.680 you, you're weird for not justing me. All right, I'm on 1:26:43.880 --> 1:26:48.480 the planet Earth. I am. We're two people. It's a cosmic, 1:26:50.479 --> 1:26:54.120 amazing thing that we're with each other right now. I'm 1:26:54.200 --> 1:26:56.400 trying to connect with you and be more of a 1:26:56.720 --> 1:26:59.400 you know, fucking answer the thing, and if you don't 1:26:59.400 --> 1:27:01.360 want to, then you're fucking weird. 1:27:01.120 --> 1:27:01.439 Not me. 1:27:04.040 --> 1:27:06.680 Yes, it's it's definitely that. 1:27:06.680 --> 1:27:07.559 That's that's it. 1:27:08.320 --> 1:27:12.320 Yes, you know, go for it, you know I I 1:27:12.520 --> 1:27:19.800 I think I think, yeah, yeah, I don't anything like 1:27:20.120 --> 1:27:22.519 do you want to move? Do you have a career 1:27:22.640 --> 1:27:25.160 aspirations or anything like that? Oh? 1:27:25.240 --> 1:27:28.200 Yeah, god oh that that's actually another thing is I 1:27:28.200 --> 1:27:29.599 have no idea what I want. 1:27:29.479 --> 1:27:30.160 To do with my life. 1:27:30.160 --> 1:27:32.559 And I think it's it's like I'm accepting that it's 1:27:32.600 --> 1:27:35.000 okay that I don't have Okay, I don't want to 1:27:35.000 --> 1:27:39.880 get like super deep, but I don't have this aspiration 1:27:40.000 --> 1:27:43.559 to contribute to, like I don't know a culture that 1:27:43.800 --> 1:27:49.439 just don't It's like you have to. I love doing art, 1:27:49.680 --> 1:27:52.160 I love making art. I love creating art. I love writing, 1:27:52.240 --> 1:27:54.559 and it's like I almost have to like beg people 1:27:54.600 --> 1:27:56.559 to even view it. And then it's like, do I 1:27:56.600 --> 1:27:58.280 really want to make money off of it? If it's 1:27:58.360 --> 1:28:00.360 just something I love doing and that I don't know. 1:28:00.360 --> 1:28:01.519 I get stuck in this cycle. 1:28:01.640 --> 1:28:03.400 If you if you couldn't tell M. 1:28:05.120 --> 1:28:08.040 I get in it, stuck into a cycle of self 1:28:08.080 --> 1:28:10.120 doubt and then I'm like, no, I can do this. 1:28:10.640 --> 1:28:12.400 I'm like, well, people got to pay me to do this. 1:28:12.720 --> 1:28:14.200 I'm like, well, that's root of me to ask them 1:28:14.240 --> 1:28:14.840 to just pay. 1:28:15.360 --> 1:28:15.800 I don't know. 1:28:17.360 --> 1:28:20.479 That's tough. It's tough to make money. How do you 1:28:20.520 --> 1:28:21.960 make money? Now? What do you do? Do you do? 1:28:22.000 --> 1:28:22.360 You work? 1:28:23.640 --> 1:28:26.439 Yeah, it's part time. I work at an animal hospital. 1:28:26.479 --> 1:28:27.519 Then I'm probably gonna quit. 1:28:28.160 --> 1:28:29.439 Why why are you gonna quit? You do not like 1:28:29.439 --> 1:28:29.960 working there? 1:28:30.880 --> 1:28:33.080 Oh no, it's It was my second day today and 1:28:33.120 --> 1:28:35.200 it was just chaos. 1:28:37.800 --> 1:28:42.960 You know what's funny is that we talked to someone, 1:28:43.040 --> 1:28:46.840 the very second caller, who would probably love working in 1:28:46.880 --> 1:28:49.360 a place where animals are dying all the time. 1:28:50.400 --> 1:28:52.439 Oh God, I don't know if. 1:28:52.280 --> 1:28:54.760 You were there for that, I don't. I wasn't. 1:28:54.880 --> 1:28:57.360 I got off not too long ago actually, so I 1:28:57.400 --> 1:28:59.719 hopped on assume I could, but I didn't hear that. 1:29:02.680 --> 1:29:06.800 Well anyway, So what are you gonna do after the 1:29:06.840 --> 1:29:09.439 animal hospital? Do you have any idea? 1:29:10.600 --> 1:29:11.960 No, not really, I don't know. 1:29:12.000 --> 1:29:15.720 I'm just kind of like vibing in the moment. As 1:29:15.720 --> 1:29:17.920 weird as that sounds, Oh. 1:29:17.920 --> 1:29:19.519 I think it sounds weird. I mean, would you ever 1:29:19.560 --> 1:29:21.679 do something fringe? Would you ever be like, I'm gonna 1:29:21.720 --> 1:29:29.639 go on a workaway to fucking a farm in Hawaii or. 1:29:30.479 --> 1:29:31.759 Oh that'd be sick. 1:29:31.880 --> 1:29:32.080 Now. 1:29:32.200 --> 1:29:34.360 I love to go work on a ranch. I love 1:29:34.439 --> 1:29:36.640 riding horses, so I would love to go work on 1:29:36.720 --> 1:29:39.680 like a ranch in Montana, if I'm being honest, that's like, 1:29:39.840 --> 1:29:41.519 oh my god, that's the dream baby. 1:29:42.080 --> 1:29:45.439 No, it's you know, I've looked at work away and 1:29:45.520 --> 1:29:48.840 like for young women, Like there's a lot of people 1:29:48.920 --> 1:29:53.160 who like want like an AWL pair or something like that. 1:29:53.800 --> 1:29:55.720 If you'd be interested in it's just like anything that 1:29:55.760 --> 1:30:01.639 can fucking like get you somewhere new, doing something new, 1:30:01.960 --> 1:30:06.480 just because you know, yolo, let's go crazy. 1:30:07.000 --> 1:30:11.400 Yeah, you only live one. Yeah that's true. 1:30:12.439 --> 1:30:19.360 What's your name's No, it's okay. I wasn't gonna I 1:30:19.400 --> 1:30:21.840 was I was gonna give up after trying to think 1:30:21.840 --> 1:30:23.360 of it for five seconds and failing. 1:30:29.120 --> 1:30:30.240 I know it's a NodD dude. 1:30:31.000 --> 1:30:37.040 No, no, no, see Margie. You know, God, there's just 1:30:37.120 --> 1:30:39.679 there's this concept I've been obsessed with lately called reading 1:30:39.800 --> 1:30:46.160 positive intent, which is, uh, just always assuming that people 1:30:46.240 --> 1:30:49.080 are trying to be nice. I feel a lot of 1:30:49.080 --> 1:30:52.000 people do the opposite. Like when I went like, I 1:30:52.080 --> 1:30:55.240 was just kind of I don't even know what I 1:30:55.280 --> 1:30:59.000 was doing. See, I'm weird. I'm weird, dude, and everyone's weird. 1:30:59.320 --> 1:31:01.679 You can't always I think that everyone's doing everything because 1:31:01.680 --> 1:31:02.200 they hate you. 1:31:03.280 --> 1:31:05.160 That's It's hard, dude, it's hard. 1:31:09.920 --> 1:31:14.600 I wish I had a better We've we've touched on 1:31:14.640 --> 1:31:16.559 this topic so many times, and it's a topic that 1:31:16.600 --> 1:31:20.559 I care about a lot. I wish I had like 1:31:20.640 --> 1:31:28.680 the Golden playbook for it. But god damn, you know, 1:31:28.720 --> 1:31:31.879 I'm glad that you're trying at least to not care. 1:31:32.120 --> 1:31:34.760 I think of you, because I appreciate that. 1:31:35.080 --> 1:31:38.760 Other than that, it's a it's a prison, it really is. 1:31:39.160 --> 1:31:40.000 Yeah, It's just like. 1:31:40.479 --> 1:31:42.320 I don't know, I'm twenty four now, and it's just weird. 1:31:42.320 --> 1:31:44.080 I didn't think I'd make it to this part of 1:31:44.120 --> 1:31:48.479 my life. If I'm being honest that it was just like, yeah, 1:31:49.520 --> 1:31:50.320 got to move forward. 1:31:51.120 --> 1:31:52.680 Check out that workaway website. 1:31:53.920 --> 1:31:55.800 I will, you know what I will do it? 1:31:55.920 --> 1:31:56.160 Do it? 1:31:56.200 --> 1:31:58.360 I always tell because if I were not doing this, 1:31:58.439 --> 1:32:00.519 that's probably what I would do. If I, like, I 1:32:00.560 --> 1:32:05.599 would just go somewhere random, because you know, if you're 1:32:05.720 --> 1:32:09.759 young and just haven't been places, go go be places, 1:32:09.880 --> 1:32:11.559 go do things. 1:32:11.960 --> 1:32:12.360 I will. 1:32:12.439 --> 1:32:14.160 Yeah, I'm gonna do that. 1:32:14.320 --> 1:32:19.400 Thank you, of course. Of course I'm so glad you 1:32:19.439 --> 1:32:24.360 decided to check out the stream and call them. Do 1:32:24.400 --> 1:32:26.519 you remember what TikTok it was? Was it one of 1:32:26.560 --> 1:32:29.320 the fucking new things? 1:32:29.640 --> 1:32:31.519 I think it was. I don't know if I see 1:32:31.560 --> 1:32:33.639 you come on my for your page like all the time, 1:32:35.040 --> 1:32:37.559 like I don't know. It was probably a girl talking 1:32:37.600 --> 1:32:42.000 about her experience in a restaurant and yeah I just 1:32:42.040 --> 1:32:43.479 watched it like earlier. 1:32:44.120 --> 1:32:46.040 Yeah, but I know I know what's talking about. 1:32:46.920 --> 1:32:49.799 Yeah. So I love your I love all your content. 1:32:49.880 --> 1:32:50.240 Good ship. 1:32:50.360 --> 1:32:53.599 Thank you, Margie, Thank you, Margie, Margie. I go being off, 1:32:53.800 --> 1:32:57.320 Go go go go help some people on a farm 1:32:57.400 --> 1:32:58.840 in Italy. See how that goes? 1:32:58.880 --> 1:32:58.920 That? 1:32:59.000 --> 1:33:02.240 If it's bad, else announce because you're twenty four and 1:33:02.280 --> 1:33:03.200 you're gonna live forever. 1:33:04.280 --> 1:33:06.719 I am, God, damn it, amazing. 1:33:06.760 --> 1:33:08.320 Well, you have a good rest to night, Margie. Thank 1:33:08.320 --> 1:33:08.960 you for calling in. 1:33:09.040 --> 1:33:11.559 Thank you you too, have a good night. 1:33:12.360 --> 1:33:13.120 You too Bye. 1:33:15.800 --> 1:33:19.280 Never Bet goes on the line taking your phone calls 1:33:19.360 --> 1:33:22.479 every night. Never Big goes to on his night. He's 1:33:22.560 --> 1:33:25.240 teaching you loud in the end of your life. Body's 1:33:25.360 --> 1:33:27.799 not ready. An expert