Speaker 1: Really goes on the line, make your own calls every night,
Speaker 1: goes to his teaching you.
Speaker 2: All from Jake.
Speaker 3: Jake, Oh, no way, is this real?
Speaker 4: He here?
Speaker 5: What do you think? Yes, he's really tonight. Can I
Speaker 5: answer your question?
Speaker 4: Yeah, go ahead.
Speaker 5: Do you typically have a hard time distinguishing reality from fantasy?
Speaker 3: I would say, give me a stack.
Speaker 4: Reality versus fantasy.
Speaker 5: Then do you have a hard time distinguishing reality from fantasy?
Speaker 4: No, I wouldn't say I do. But I would say
Speaker 4: I fantasize a lot. But I would say, like a
Speaker 4: good way, right, Like I fantasized about being rich or
Speaker 4: you know, having a certain car. But I wouldn't say
Speaker 4: over fantasized where it's the point it's not achievable, if
Speaker 4: that makes sense.
Speaker 5: You fantasize about wealth primarily, oh.
Speaker 4: A lot, even my friends, or like you're really financially
Speaker 4: you know, driven, and you know I agree with them.
Speaker 4: I do think that money can solve like most of
Speaker 4: your problems, right, maybe not all of them? Oh yeah, interesting, Like.
Speaker 5: Tell me, tell me tell me about some of the
Speaker 5: problems that you currently have that you believe money would solve.
Speaker 4: I wouldn't right now. I would say I have almost
Speaker 4: zero problems in my life. I just got back from
Speaker 4: like a deployment overseas, right and being home. I got
Speaker 4: home probably a month and a half ago, and right
Speaker 4: now I'm just chilling right, not doing anything unemployed, which
Speaker 4: is really nice. But money, right, got this new place
Speaker 4: down at school, me and my buddy's got to gout
Speaker 4: with We got it with the GI bill, right, super nice,
Speaker 4: thousand dollars a month each person, two pools of Yeah,
Speaker 4: it's an apartment complex, but super nice and money. You know,
Speaker 4: Without it, I wouldn't I wouldn't be able to have that, right,
Speaker 4: and it just made me a lot happier like being there.
Speaker 6: M hmm.
Speaker 5: But you told me just now that you feel like
Speaker 5: you don't have any problems.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I wouldn't say I have any like huge problems.
Speaker 5: M Well, at place? Is it in a high Is
Speaker 5: it in like New York? Or is it in like
Speaker 5: the Midwest?
Speaker 7: Like?
Speaker 4: Is it in a how it's it's in Illinois. It's
Speaker 4: at Illinois State University, right kind of a shape. Yeah,
Speaker 4: I know, right by government's paying for it super easy.
Speaker 5: So you you're not talking about you know, because I
Speaker 5: understand you. I when I say, well, when I think
Speaker 5: about wealth for me personally, I like to have enough
Speaker 5: money that I don't have to, like do things that
Speaker 5: I don't want to do. I don't think about money
Speaker 5: in terms of like I want to have. I actually
Speaker 5: I kind of hate luxury, you know, big pools and
Speaker 5: nice cars and oh.
Speaker 4: Sure, I kind of like that. I think that money
Speaker 4: gives you opportunities though, right, So if I don't want
Speaker 4: to do them, like you said, like I can pay
Speaker 4: someone to do it, like I would like if your
Speaker 4: house is dirty, right, if my car is dirty or
Speaker 4: my house, sure, I'm not going to myself. I'd rather
Speaker 4: pay someone to do it because I think my time's
Speaker 4: more valuable than cleaning house.
Speaker 5: Well here's the thing though, Uh Still, if you pay
Speaker 5: other people to do all the things that you don't
Speaker 5: want to do and you free up your time, you
Speaker 5: are still going to have to have something that is
Speaker 5: worth your time or else you're just gonna be bored
Speaker 5: and floating.
Speaker 4: Bold No, I agree. I you know, I work out
Speaker 4: a lot, we party a lot. Right now, what we're
Speaker 4: trying to do, we're trying to start this business.
Speaker 2: Right.
Speaker 4: Me and my my buddy from high school, known him
Speaker 4: eight years and we're trying to start this business, so
Speaker 4: we got we kind of have that going for us.
Speaker 4: We haven't launched it yet, but we're you know, it's
Speaker 4: in the works, i'd say, So I've been using that
Speaker 4: to kind of occupy my time.
Speaker 5: M what's the business?
Speaker 4: So my buddy works in Chicago. He he does like
Speaker 4: it consultant, right, so he goes to companies and does
Speaker 4: it and stuff for them. So he wants to he
Speaker 4: wants to do something that's kind of like the Geek Squad, right,
Speaker 4: but for like personal personal it t help. So you know,
Speaker 4: we'd go to our house and we we'd help them
Speaker 4: out with you know, wire management, and he's more the
Speaker 4: tech side of it. I personally don't know really anything
Speaker 4: about it, but you know, we do all that stuff
Speaker 4: for people, and there's not really anything like it, i'd
Speaker 4: say right now. I mean Geek Squad, but they're more
Speaker 4: of like a huge chain. You know, I would assume
Speaker 4: their marketing is not it's good because they're best buy,
Speaker 4: but you know, someone who's going to start their own
Speaker 4: business is going to reach out more to people, So
Speaker 4: I think that would be That's kind of what's going
Speaker 4: on right now.
Speaker 5: Well, Jake listen. I wish you the best of luck.
Speaker 5: I wish you all of your dreams come true. And
Speaker 5: more importantly than wishing your dreams come true, I wish
Speaker 5: that your dreams align with what's genuinely important to you.
Speaker 4: Hey, man, I appreciate that a lot.
Speaker 8: It was.
Speaker 4: It was really nice talk.
Speaker 5: Nice talking to you, Jake. You have a good rest of
Speaker 5: that you too.
Speaker 2: By all from Marcus.
Speaker 5: Marcus.
Speaker 7: Hey, what's up?
Speaker 5: Uh?
Speaker 3: Hey?
Speaker 5: You doing Marcus?
Speaker 9: I'm doing pretty all right.
Speaker 10: How are you doing?
Speaker 5: You know, Marcus, I'm a gecko on the computer. Yeah,
Speaker 5: it's so it's so hard for Marcus because I try
Speaker 5: not to. I don't I don't like to say things.
Speaker 5: I don't like to be preachy, but I I I
Speaker 5: do believe that. I really do that, you know. I
Speaker 5: don't know why everyone on everyone's always seeking to like
Speaker 5: get each other and be like, here's why you suck. Yeah,
Speaker 5: here's why you suck, instead of like trying to just
Speaker 5: listen to whatever the fucking person has to say.
Speaker 9: It's always I mean, what do you have to say?
Speaker 5: And who cares what I have to say? Marcus? I
Speaker 5: have a question for you. Yeah, are you interesting?
Speaker 9: You know? Here Okay, here's what I got to convince
Speaker 9: you that I'm interesting.
Speaker 5: Okay, you don't have to convince me.
Speaker 9: Oh well, I'm trying. I'm gonna try to either way,
Speaker 9: do it.
Speaker 2: Okay?
Speaker 9: So all right, So I grew up in Minnesota. I
Speaker 9: turned eighteen and I was like, fuck Minnesota. So then
Speaker 9: I moved to Alaska and now I live in Alaska,
Speaker 9: and then I started working as I live in Alaska. Bro,
Speaker 9: it's pretty it's pretty lit up here.
Speaker 2: What do you do there, dude?
Speaker 9: I'm a pet crematorium person, so I like I burn
Speaker 9: animals for fun for a living.
Speaker 5: That sounds insanely depressing, dude, it's.
Speaker 3: Not even that bad.
Speaker 9: Like I'm you know, people can say that they I
Speaker 9: do it to give them last moments of dignity, but
Speaker 9: it's really.
Speaker 2: Not that bad.
Speaker 5: How did you come upon this job? I'm curious. Did
Speaker 5: you happen upon when you moved to Alaska. Did you
Speaker 5: happen upon an appealing job ad for a pet crematorium
Speaker 5: or did you go out in search no it or
Speaker 5: burning pets?
Speaker 3: No.
Speaker 9: I was just on indeed, and it just popped up
Speaker 9: and I was like, you know.
Speaker 7: What this is?
Speaker 9: This is my calling right here. For some reason, it
Speaker 9: just made sense. I work like three twelve hour shifts.
Speaker 9: It's like four days off a week. It's pretty it's
Speaker 9: pretty great.
Speaker 5: Honestly, when you say it's your calling.
Speaker 9: You know, honestly, what is it about pet.
Speaker 5: Crematorium that jives so well with you as a person?
Speaker 2: You know?
Speaker 9: I mean I love that I get to work alone
Speaker 9: all the time. So I'm just alone that animals aware
Speaker 9: of and it works great. I like I get to
Speaker 9: listen to music, I get to listen to podcasts, you know,
Speaker 9: I just get to contemplate life.
Speaker 5: I'm cus I'm very curious what music you listen to
Speaker 5: while you're burning pets, and how and how badly it
Speaker 5: contrasts with the situation like if you're listening to you,
Speaker 5: I know, I got I I can't name I can't
Speaker 5: name a single musical artist, but like some sort of
Speaker 5: upbeat pop song.
Speaker 9: Yeah, I mean like Crystal Castles the Stereo lab Yeah right.
Speaker 9: He does get pretty uh pretty dirty also, which is
Speaker 9: not what I was expecting. But also we we have
Speaker 9: to like do horses sometimes too, and that's like you
Speaker 9: have to like dismember them. Yeah, it's crazymember them.
Speaker 5: Yeah, like yourself.
Speaker 9: Yeah, dude, Yeah, we have tool for each layer. I
Speaker 9: don't I don't know how gory you're trying to get,
Speaker 9: but it's it's pretty uh, you know, just you know,
Speaker 9: you have to associate a little bit because it's pretty
Speaker 9: it's pretty intense.
Speaker 5: Have you always been this uh desensitized to the idea
Speaker 5: of dismembering a whole or did this something you developed recently?
Speaker 2: You know?
Speaker 6: I would.
Speaker 9: I would say that I'm pretty good at, like, you know,
Speaker 9: dissociating from situations, but specifically the horses, just because I
Speaker 9: like the job in general, so you kind of have
Speaker 9: to sacrifice some things, you know, to get the job done.
Speaker 8: Mm.
Speaker 9: Do you think you could dismember a horse?
Speaker 5: Absolutely not tonally I could dismember a horse. I think
Speaker 5: a horse could dismember me, though I don't think they
Speaker 5: would have problems doing that.
Speaker 9: Absolutely they would not mind at all.
Speaker 5: M Do you do you ever want to, like, would
Speaker 5: you ever do people or are you sticking to animals
Speaker 5: for now?
Speaker 9: I would I would do people, but it's a completely
Speaker 9: different process from animals. Like with animals you put multiple
Speaker 9: in one giant like ovens, and with humans it's like
Speaker 9: a lot small are a little more delicate of a process,
Speaker 9: so you know, it would just depend again, like I
Speaker 9: really enjoy working alone, so I would have to work
Speaker 9: with a lot more people or with people dead analyze
Speaker 9: if I was doing people. So I kind of like
Speaker 9: my gig now, but who knows.
Speaker 7: We'll see.
Speaker 5: Hm, Well, what'd you say? Your name was?
Speaker 9: Marcus?
Speaker 5: Marcus? I'm I'm very happy that you found your calling
Speaker 5: and I wish you good luck in the future.
Speaker 9: All right, I appreciate it. Have a good night you.
Speaker 2: Too, Okay, caw from d K.
Speaker 5: Donkey Kong.
Speaker 11: Hello, Oh no, it's not Donkey Kong. It's shortened from
Speaker 11: my actual name.
Speaker 5: M So, donkey Kong. What were you doing right before
Speaker 5: you called in?
Speaker 11: I was watching the stream. I'm concerned about your gloves.
Speaker 11: They look like they're kind of coming apart on the right.
Speaker 9: You know.
Speaker 5: Look, I appreciate the concern. The the gloves are modified
Speaker 5: intentionally to make it easier for me to uh use
Speaker 5: the scroll. I don't know if you've ever tried to
Speaker 5: use the track pad of your mind, but it's not
Speaker 5: a winning strategy.
Speaker 6: So I have.
Speaker 5: Admittedly a very small I believe part of the illusion.
Speaker 11: Why not put on a pair for practicality, the thin
Speaker 11: latex gloves.
Speaker 5: You know, everything, it's all, everything is more trouble than
Speaker 5: it's worth. I would rather have the weird holes.
Speaker 11: Well, you know what, It's okay, it's not that noticeable
Speaker 11: except for it was the first.
Speaker 9: Thing I noticed.
Speaker 11: But other than that, it's all good.
Speaker 5: Well look okay, but here's the thing you've got got past.
Speaker 5: I stood eventually.
Speaker 11: Yeah, no, I did for sure. But that we're my
Speaker 11: calling through and I walked away from the stream. Now
Speaker 11: I can't see you because my voice was messing me up.
Speaker 5: Your voice is, oh right, because of the echo. But
Speaker 5: now we're here. But now we're here, and the two
Speaker 5: holes things. The objective that I had of doing the
Speaker 5: stream is to get people into the stream, and that
Speaker 5: objective has been complete, regardless of the holes in the
Speaker 5: And I also have an objective of being able to
Speaker 5: use my computer to take calls, so that objective has
Speaker 5: been fulfilled as well.
Speaker 11: I can't even do that. And I'm supposed to be
Speaker 11: like a gen Z millennial. Fuck I don't. I don't
Speaker 11: know how to do that. I can't take calls from
Speaker 11: my computer. I've tried, so good for you. More power
Speaker 11: to you man.
Speaker 5: Thank you very much, Thank you very very much. Are
Speaker 5: you interesting? Here's my gig.
Speaker 11: I don't think that I'm particularly interesting, but I think
Speaker 11: that I have interesting stories. Tell me, I used to
Speaker 11: be a bartender at this crazy little dive bar literally
Speaker 11: tiny right, cash only and weird ship would happened there.
Speaker 11: Uh and uh, you know, I was just a chick
Speaker 11: behind the bars, just me. One time we had a
Speaker 11: dude come in. I kid you not shirt only white shirt?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 11: Straight, Winnie the poo in it.
Speaker 6: If you will.
Speaker 3: Uh.
Speaker 11: It was like there was a Russian poker game across
Speaker 11: the street and.
Speaker 10: He had nothing left to bet. He literally just had
Speaker 10: a shirt one.
Speaker 6: I didn't know what to do.
Speaker 11: I almost served him.
Speaker 5: Why why didn't you?
Speaker 11: Because one of the bar regulars kicked him out for me.
Speaker 11: I guess I don't know what to do in those
Speaker 11: types of situations.
Speaker 6: I freeze up. I mean, like they.
Speaker 11: Say no shoes, no shirt, but he had a shirt
Speaker 11: and he had socks, which I count.
Speaker 5: They really need They really do need to amend that.
Speaker 5: After that, They really do need to include a pants
Speaker 5: segment of that.
Speaker 11: That pot they do is because you can't skip that.
Speaker 11: That's the one part that. Honestly, I would like to wait.
Speaker 5: So he wasn't wearing underwear either.
Speaker 11: I mean, I don't think though, but I really wasn't
Speaker 11: work least.
Speaker 5: Was the shirt long enough to cover his penis?
Speaker 11: Oh yeah, the I was poking out. Nothing was poking
Speaker 11: out at least when I looked.
Speaker 6: But I looked like twice.
Speaker 5: Okay, so there was a positive. I mean, maybe there
Speaker 5: was a possibility that he was wearing like, you know,
Speaker 5: a song or like, uh, you know, a speedo or something,
Speaker 5: but we just didn't know, right, or you know, you.
Speaker 11: Just instead of a slong dong.
Speaker 6: It was a slurt.
Speaker 3: What's a slurt, it's a slort dong, or it's a
Speaker 3: short dong.
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, I.
Speaker 10: Feel like.
Speaker 5: Hmm, no, I've never heard the term slirt. Maybe that's
Speaker 5: a gen Z millennial thing that you're talking about.
Speaker 11: Yeah, pick it up. It's it's kind of fun. It
Speaker 11: rolls off the tongue a little bit.
Speaker 5: But there we go. You you you are a gen
Speaker 5: Z millennial. You le you've proved yourself wrong.
Speaker 3: I guess so.
Speaker 8: I don't know.
Speaker 10: I'm ninety seven.
Speaker 6: I don't know.
Speaker 3: I don't know where that puts me.
Speaker 11: Everybody tells me, I'm millennial. People tell me I'm gen z.
Speaker 10: I don't know.
Speaker 11: I don't know where it ends.
Speaker 5: Well, listen, I don't know how much time you have
Speaker 5: left on this earth at ninety seven years old, but
Speaker 5: I hope you make the best of it.
Speaker 11: I'm must okay, Yeah, No, you're right, You're right. You
Speaker 11: have one for us.
Speaker 2: All from Tasha, Tasha, gag?
Speaker 5: What's up? Tashasha? Have we ever spoken before?
Speaker 6: Hello?
Speaker 5: Tasha?
Speaker 10: Can you hear me?
Speaker 5: How are you doing? Tasha?
Speaker 8: I'm saying good?
Speaker 10: How are you doing?
Speaker 5: Greg doing good? What's your life like?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 10: No, I think that was pretty fun?
Speaker 5: It's pretty fun?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 5: What interesting? A lot of you know, when people are
Speaker 5: asked the question of what their life is like, sometimes
Speaker 5: they'll get bad or good. But rarely do I find
Speaker 5: people who get more specific than that. But I find
Speaker 5: that the more specific people do get, the more it
Speaker 5: is that they mean when they're saying.
Speaker 10: It one hundred percent like I like to. I don't know.
Speaker 10: I try to bring optimism in as much as I possibly.
Speaker 5: Can't really, So what's I mean? So you say your
Speaker 5: life is fun? What's the most fun thing going on
Speaker 5: in there?
Speaker 10: Most of I mean honestly just the end of the well,
Speaker 10: not the end of the pandemic, because it's clearly still happening.
Speaker 10: But you know, people getting vaccinated, people starting to get
Speaker 10: freed up, you know, like getting out of the house
Speaker 10: and stuff. So I feel like that's fun and you're
Speaker 10: getting to socialized with my friends again. You need to
Speaker 10: be out in the summertime in the pool.
Speaker 5: M hmmm. What's the what's what's What's something that you
Speaker 5: really really wanted to do? Uh before while the pandemic
Speaker 5: was going on, that you couldn't do that you can
Speaker 5: do now.
Speaker 10: Oh my gosh. Concerts, concerts, getting to go to lives
Speaker 10: music shows.
Speaker 8: Mm hmm.
Speaker 5: Do when you go to concert do you do you typically?
Speaker 5: Do you like go to punk doumash? Do you have
Speaker 5: punched people in the face and ship you go hard? Oh?
Speaker 10: Yeah, Like this reminds me of going to Travis Scott Like.
Speaker 10: I have a very efflective music taste, So I could
Speaker 10: be like front row at Taylor Swift, so excited. I
Speaker 10: could be like out like ouscro world.
Speaker 5: M hm, Tasha, are you interesting?
Speaker 10: I'm absolutely interested.
Speaker 5: You're absolutely interested.
Speaker 12: Yes.
Speaker 5: Everything you've said to that you say with such conviction.
Speaker 5: I'd love to hear why you believe you're interesting.
Speaker 10: I mean, I guess I just get told that a lot,
Speaker 10: and like I had somebody told me the other day, Tash,
Speaker 10: you literally have a story for everything, like anything like
Speaker 10: fun that you could like possibly even do, like you've
Speaker 10: done it, or you try.
Speaker 5: To see someone told you that you've done every fun
Speaker 5: thing you.
Speaker 10: Could possibly not every fun thing, but like he just always,
Speaker 10: like every single time we bring something up, you always
Speaker 10: have a story that like correlates with something that you've
Speaker 10: done or like you know, like a funny story like
Speaker 10: you know that has.
Speaker 6: To do with that.
Speaker 5: Oh things, Well, Tasha, hit us tell us what's what's
Speaker 5: what's what's the number one thing you got in your pocket?
Speaker 8: Here?
Speaker 10: He said, what's the number one?
Speaker 5: Was the number one story you have in your arsenal?
Speaker 10: Number one story?
Speaker 3: Oh man?
Speaker 10: Oh man, Hey ask me Canna, what do you think
Speaker 10: to ask her because she'll know what's the best story
Speaker 10: that I have of whole time? We love bunch.
Speaker 2: I mean.
Speaker 10: You when I got oh no, okay, oh man. My sister,
Speaker 10: my sister cols and talks to you all the time. Journey,
Speaker 10: she just goes my journey she talks to you all
Speaker 10: the time. That's how I even got to her journey. Okay,
Speaker 10: so journey, Okay, so cool. Then I probably honestly all
Speaker 10: this is embarrassing, but probably even night I got my
Speaker 10: duy crazy. N Yeah, I hit an ambulance, A part ambulance,
Speaker 10: I should say, But I wouldn't even hit it. I
Speaker 10: like love topped it. Okay, Like yeah, it was not
Speaker 10: not not much the best moment.
Speaker 5: M And and what did you do after? Would you
Speaker 5: like go back into the hospital to see Oh?
Speaker 10: No, it wasn't even at a hospital we were we
Speaker 10: were going.
Speaker 5: To I'm trying to put myself in that situation. I'm
Speaker 5: trying to put myself in a situation where I slightly
Speaker 5: hit the back of an ambulance.
Speaker 10: Okay, let me give you like the small rundown.
Speaker 5: Why yeah, what's the right?
Speaker 10: We'd my best friend at the time, she was working
Speaker 10: at a bar, and we wanted to go to the
Speaker 10: karaoke bar. We end up going to the karaoke bar.
Speaker 10: Like I get there and there's an ambulance that's parked
Speaker 10: like in the entrance and the exit way, and I'd
Speaker 10: like already kind of pulled into the drive which kind
Speaker 10: of sits at an incline, and whenever I went to
Speaker 10: turn in, I thought I had enough room between the
Speaker 10: curbs to get kind of by it, and I didn't
Speaker 10: off the curb a tiny bit, but ended up, like
Speaker 10: you know, screeping against the side of the ambulance, to
Speaker 10: which they had somebody inside that they were trying to
Speaker 10: revive that I guess was like passed out in the
Speaker 10: bathroom of the bar, and that's why the ambulance was
Speaker 10: there in the first place. So here I am like outside,
Speaker 10: like having been pulling me out of the car, you know,
Speaker 10: doing a skilled sobriety test, which I was clearly failed,
Speaker 10: and everyone from the.
Speaker 13: Bar was like, oh my gosh, guys, Tasha is out here,
Speaker 13: and like the entire bar comes outside to watch me
Speaker 13: stealed sobriety tests and stale.
Speaker 5: Good. Yeah, well, I'm glad that that happened to you.
Speaker 10: Oh yeah, definitely learn my lesson about drinking and driving.
Speaker 5: I hope, I hope you choose not to do that again.
Speaker 10: You know, yeah, definitely not. The cars don't even really
Speaker 10: drink anymore time.
Speaker 5: Can you drink and bike? Is that a thing?
Speaker 10: No? You know, you can actually get a public and
Speaker 10: talk for at least where I'm from in Oklahoma.
Speaker 5: Gosha, I think I think you might you might benefit
Speaker 5: from doing some research into the teachings of Jesus Christ.
Speaker 10: Oh, I grew up Mormon. So have you ever menatice
Speaker 10: to talk about our Lord and Savior.
Speaker 5: I'll talk to you soon, Nasha thinks, so much for
Speaker 5: a good one.
Speaker 2: Greg call from Jackson, Jackson, Missouri.
Speaker 8: Hello, Hello, Hey, Hey, what's what's so? I can't hear you?
Speaker 5: You can't hear me?
Speaker 8: Wait? No, I can't. Hey, I'm here. No.
Speaker 5: I just wasn't saying anything.
Speaker 8: Oh Dan, you got me?
Speaker 3: Good.
Speaker 5: I don't think I got you.
Speaker 8: No, I think you got me.
Speaker 5: I wasn't trying to get you. What do you what
Speaker 5: do you do? What? People always say that They're like,
Speaker 5: oh we got we got them. That's like a big thing,
Speaker 5: like got them? Why? What? What does that even mean?
Speaker 8: I don't know. I don't really understand that either. I
Speaker 8: just kind of said it because it just felt right
Speaker 8: to say.
Speaker 5: Why is hostility? Jackson? Can you answer the question why
Speaker 5: is hostility and conflict so deeply ingrained in our culture?
Speaker 6: Why?
Speaker 5: I mean, I mean every why why does it always
Speaker 5: have to be Oh, I got you. You know, why
Speaker 5: why can't we just live in peace with one another?
Speaker 6: Why?
Speaker 5: Why is everyone always trying to get each other, assuming
Speaker 5: everyone's out to get them? You know, why do we
Speaker 5: live in a world like this? Jackson?
Speaker 8: I think that.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 8: I feel like it's got something to do. It's just
Speaker 8: like just like natural tendencies, you know, like monkey days,
Speaker 8: like you have more bananas than me, and I want
Speaker 8: your bananas, so I'm going to take.
Speaker 5: Them right right. It comes from very animalistic, non human
Speaker 5: tendencies like fear, greed, anxiety. No, yeah, I feel that
Speaker 5: animals get jealous of each other? Is that true? Like
Speaker 5: do monkeys If two monkeys have bananas and one monkey
Speaker 5: has more bananas than the other, just do the monkeys
Speaker 5: get jealous?
Speaker 8: I think they do. I think they do. If I
Speaker 8: was a monkey, I would be jealous of other people's bananas.
Speaker 8: But maybe I just say that because I'm a human
Speaker 8: and I know what jealous is, right, right.
Speaker 5: I almost feel like monkeys are too like the animals.
Speaker 5: They're very in the moment creatures. Unlike humans. Humans tend
Speaker 5: that we overanalyze everything. We worry if we said the
Speaker 5: wrong thing to the wrong person ten years ago. The monkey,
Speaker 5: I don't know if it's doing that. I think it's
Speaker 5: just eating the banana. I think that's all it's I
Speaker 5: think the at the moment it's engaged in is the
Speaker 5: only thing that exists for it during the duration of
Speaker 5: that moment. It's not eating a monkey thinking about what
Speaker 5: it's not. It's not eating a banana thinking about what
Speaker 5: it has to do for the rest of the day.
Speaker 5: Like you know, when you're at lunch and you're in
Speaker 5: your house and you're like, what else do I have
Speaker 5: to do today? And you're eating a sandwich. I don't
Speaker 5: think the monkey does that. I think the monkey just
Speaker 5: eats the thing and ships it out.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I mean, I definitely agree. I think monkeys just
Speaker 8: kind of live in the moment.
Speaker 7: You know.
Speaker 8: That's weirdly that like weirdly ties into what I wanted
Speaker 8: to talk to you about real quick.
Speaker 5: Please please, I'm sor happy to hear you as something
Speaker 5: you want talking about.
Speaker 8: Yeah, you know, so, I uh, I'm a guy, you know,
Speaker 8: I'm I'm living my life. But I've I've realized over
Speaker 8: the past few years, more and more in the past,
Speaker 8: like in the past year. Yeah, I two things. I
Speaker 8: care way too much about what other people think about me,
Speaker 8: you know what I mean, And like it comes and goes.
Speaker 8: You know, some days I'll wake up and I mean like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 8: you know, I'm just gonna I'm gonna go out and
Speaker 8: I'm gonna do whatever. I'm gonna wear whatever. It doesn't
Speaker 8: matter because I don't give a fuck. And the other
Speaker 8: days it's like, damn, it's like I really like this shirt,
Speaker 8: but you know what if other people don't like this shirt,
Speaker 8: I can't. I can't wear it, and it's it's kind
Speaker 8: of annoying, you know, like it's just it gets old.
Speaker 8: And then there's the same thing where it's like that
Speaker 8: leads into me overthinking things. You know, It's like, oh,
Speaker 8: maybe people will like this shirt, but you know what
Speaker 8: if someone comes up to me is like, hey man,
Speaker 8: your shirt fucking sucks, then I'm like, then I'm upset,
Speaker 8: and I don't want to be upset, So why would
Speaker 8: I wear this shirt? You know? You know that's a
Speaker 8: very stupid example. But some along those lines, and I
Speaker 8: don't really know what to do. I don't know how
Speaker 8: to beause like you can tell people every day to
Speaker 8: just like gain confidence and just be like, hey man,
Speaker 8: you know, just be confident. It's like, oh, yes, I
Speaker 8: am just magically more confident now. But you know, it's
Speaker 8: it's it's it's it's a hard situation to to, like face,
Speaker 8: I feel like, what do you think. I'm nineteen, so yeah,
Speaker 8: well just got it in my first year of college.
Speaker 5: I think, Uh well, first of all, I do think,
Speaker 5: and I'm not. I'm not you know, I'm really not
Speaker 5: that much older than you. But uh, you know, I
Speaker 5: do think that as i've guys, I get older, muh,
Speaker 5: I find it easier to uh, I find that that
Speaker 5: skill gets easier. Yeah, you know. I mean it's funny
Speaker 5: you say that. It's funny you say that you can't
Speaker 5: just magically become confident. I mean, it's it's I thought
Speaker 5: I was thinking while you were saying that. I was like,
Speaker 5: that's like telling someone to just you know, if someone's
Speaker 5: like out of shape physically, it's like telling them just
Speaker 5: go be fit. It's like, you can't do that. You
Speaker 5: gotta you gotta put in the reps, you gotta lift
Speaker 5: the weights one by one. It's a gradual process. You
Speaker 5: don't just wake up confident, you know. Yeah, I mean,
Speaker 5: I've started to, like I in my own personal journey
Speaker 5: towards caring less what other people think of me. And
Speaker 5: I by no means have any sort of master or
Speaker 5: even like good at it. But it's something I think
Speaker 5: about constantly. That's I mean, that's kind of just the
Speaker 5: thing is I think about it constantly. It always is
Speaker 5: is a big prevalent goal of mine to not care
Speaker 5: what other people think with me, and I try to
Speaker 5: do little things, uh where I can to assert myself
Speaker 5: over you know, uh, regardless of the opinions of others.
Speaker 5: For example, I was I wanted to do a gek
Speaker 5: walk thing in public at fucking at this like little park.
Speaker 5: I was gonna I was gonna do it. The fucking
Speaker 5: technology didn't work, but I was nervous to do it
Speaker 5: because I was nervous about like attracting attention as a
Speaker 5: get go WI Yeah, yeah, because it's inevitable. But then
Speaker 5: once I once I started to, once I got out
Speaker 5: there and I just like jumped in the pool, I
Speaker 5: almost started to like get very excited by the the
Speaker 5: fact that I was doing it, if that makes sense.
Speaker 8: Yeah, yeah, it's like you're you're a get go in
Speaker 8: a pool.
Speaker 5: And you don't care right, right, the more you can
Speaker 5: really lean into that and get something good from these reps,
Speaker 5: It's like it's like when you pick up a weight
Speaker 5: and you lift it, you don't immediately get what keeps
Speaker 5: you picking up the weights is you get those like
Speaker 5: endorphins right when you're exercising, and that's what keeps you
Speaker 5: to want to keep working out and eating right. You
Speaker 5: get the endorphins. So you know, I would chase those
Speaker 5: little things that you can do to speak your mind
Speaker 5: or do whatever the thing is and you and when
Speaker 5: you do those little things, I do think you'll get
Speaker 5: a sense of adrenaline at the fact that you're doing
Speaker 5: your own thing, and that'll help carry you. I think,
Speaker 5: what's let me give me an example. Let's do something
Speaker 5: before before we go. I mean, what's something can I get,
Speaker 5: like a concrete example of something you could do to
Speaker 5: kind of get yourself out of your comfort zone in
Speaker 5: that sense. Is there anything you've been wanting to do
Speaker 5: but you're like, man, I'm not gonna do that because
Speaker 5: I'm afraid of people making fun of me. Honestly.
Speaker 8: Yeah, I mean there's a few that come to mind.
Speaker 8: I think the one that I think about the most
Speaker 8: because it's something that I've just regretted not doing my
Speaker 8: freshman year of college.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 8: I mean, I'm I'm a I'm a I go to parties,
Speaker 8: you know. So I'm a fairly popular guy. So one
Speaker 8: of my issues is whenever I go to parties, I
Speaker 8: got I go with my friends. I don't. I'm not
Speaker 8: like the the one guy that just shows up and
Speaker 8: definitely know anybody. But I find that going to parties
Speaker 8: with like people that you know really well sort of
Speaker 8: restricts me in a way where like I like only
Speaker 8: really talk to them, like we'll just like like it's
Speaker 8: not like we're just like standing in a corner like
Speaker 8: awkwardly by ourselves. Like we'll still talk to the new people.
Speaker 8: But it's I see like some of my friends that
Speaker 8: can just walk up to like like let's say a
Speaker 8: group of like five girls and it's like two guys
Speaker 8: and they just walk up and the like and then
Speaker 8: they start talking to him, and like that's just not
Speaker 8: something that I've found like I've been able to do,
Speaker 8: you know, Like I see that, I'm like, ya, I
Speaker 8: really wish I could do that. But then I just
Speaker 8: I think about it and I'm like, well, what if
Speaker 8: it doesn't go well? And thinking about it now, it's like, like,
Speaker 8: why does it matter if it doesn't go well, I'll
Speaker 8: just move on, just go talk to other new people.
Speaker 8: But then I like, I take those like bad experiences
Speaker 8: and then I kind of just like I think about
Speaker 8: them like all the time, and I think like, oh,
Speaker 8: what could have done better? Which is a good thing,
Speaker 8: until like I just overthink it and I'm like, well,
Speaker 8: there's nothing I could have done better. That's just how
Speaker 8: any anything like that is going to go. So I
Speaker 8: might as well not even try. And I found that's
Speaker 8: probably one thing that I could, you know, attempt a
Speaker 8: bit more.
Speaker 5: Yeah. Yeah, I By the way, I think that going
Speaker 5: to social events alone terrifying, of course, but a great
Speaker 5: I mean, if if you can do that, and then yeah,
Speaker 5: if you can and if you can do that and
Speaker 5: maneuver your way into a group of people and and
Speaker 5: managed to have a good night, you'll feel amazing afterwards.
Speaker 5: You'll you'll feel so like, you know, hell, yeah I
Speaker 5: was able to do that and need my other friends,
Speaker 5: I was able to just find the fun on my own, right,
Speaker 5: I tell you, it's super It's it's It's a super
Speaker 5: rewarding feeling to be able to do that. Mm hmmm.
Speaker 5: I think you should try it, man. I think jump
Speaker 5: into the pool.
Speaker 8: I think I need to just become a get go
Speaker 8: in a pool and just that not care.
Speaker 5: When's when's the next when's the next big party?
Speaker 11: Uh?
Speaker 8: Actually on Friday, which is which is weird. Like I'm
Speaker 8: home from college so like, and my college is like
Speaker 8: four hours away from me, so I wasn't really expecting
Speaker 8: going down there to go to any parties. But one
Speaker 8: of my friends is hosting a party at his aunt's
Speaker 8: house on Friday, and it's like an hour and a
Speaker 8: half away, and I was like, well as well go,
Speaker 8: So I guess.
Speaker 5: That's there like with all of her friends.
Speaker 8: And she's in Hawaii. I don't know if she knows
Speaker 8: that this is happening.
Speaker 5: We'll go have fun, go buy your I mean go,
Speaker 5: you know, I assume if it's your friend at home,
Speaker 5: it lives half an hour away. I don't know if
Speaker 5: there's other people that you would go with anyway, but
Speaker 5: that sounds like a great opportunity to try this out.
Speaker 8: Man. Yeah, I think I will just talk to random
Speaker 8: people because why not, you know, what's the worst.
Speaker 5: Could you gotta think about how fucking big the universe is?
Speaker 2: You know?
Speaker 5: Yeah, it doesn't matter, right, We're all gonna do now
Speaker 5: and by the way, and by the way and by
Speaker 5: the way. Other I've had this sometimes sometimes I'm the
Speaker 5: guy that I've been like at a bar, at a thing,
Speaker 5: where like I'm the guy that like a person goes
Speaker 5: out of their way to like talk to, like their
Speaker 5: first guy. I always make one hundred percent sure that
Speaker 5: I want to make sure if someone does that me,
Speaker 5: I'm rewarding them by reciprocating the energy. And it's almost
Speaker 5: a weeding thing because everyone that you go out and
Speaker 5: try to talk to, if you've got to try to
Speaker 5: talk to stranger and they're reciprocal in your energy, that's
Speaker 5: a person worth talking to. And if you're not, then
Speaker 5: maybe they're not a person worth talking to, in which
Speaker 5: case who cares? When I we're talking to you know
Speaker 5: what I'm saying.
Speaker 8: Yeah, it's like it's like if you're not willing to
Speaker 8: put in the same amount of energy as I am, especially,
Speaker 8: it's like I'm initiating the conversation, Like why would I
Speaker 8: even thought I even bother?
Speaker 5: Well, listen, Jackson Man, I wish you good luck.
Speaker 7: Thanks.
Speaker 8: You know, I'll try and call in again soon and
Speaker 8: give you an update hopefully.
Speaker 5: Hit hit man luck, Go make a ton of friends,
Speaker 5: Go talk to a dog. I'll see you soon in Jackson.
Speaker 8: Thanks Lole, I appreciate it. We're gonna have a nice night.
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Speaker 2: All from peanut Butter.
Speaker 3: Peanut Butter, whoa, who whoa, whoa, Oh my god, yo, hello,
Speaker 3: hi everything, I'm eating chicken tendies. My dude, Tyson style.
Speaker 5: You're eating chicken tendies.
Speaker 3: Yes, sir, you got me on to them.
Speaker 5: Actually really, I feel yeah, I'm so sorry. Please don't
Speaker 5: blame me for all the health issues that you're gonna face.
Speaker 3: It's okay, dude, it's the best. I used to have
Speaker 3: the dinosaur nuggets. Yeah, but these hits different.
Speaker 5: I feel like I used to. I feel like I
Speaker 5: had to start eating real food. Like what, I don't
Speaker 5: know what a normal I'm not like a normal guy,
Speaker 5: am I? What are like a normal you know, like
Speaker 5: a like a Norman man with like who's like walking
Speaker 5: around and goes to work and is has like you
Speaker 5: know what dog? What does he eat?
Speaker 8: Huh?
Speaker 5: Salmon chick?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 5: A normal human person eat brouh.
Speaker 3: First thing I went to was meats. Yeah, you have
Speaker 3: to have the meats. Go to Arby's. Arby sounds like
Speaker 3: a man. Replace people don't eat.
Speaker 5: It's like normal people don't eat. I'm talking about like
Speaker 5: like like my dad doesn't eat Arby's. You know, he's
Speaker 5: like he'll like eat fish.
Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, my dad doesn't go to fish too.
Speaker 6: Uh.
Speaker 3: I don't know, dude. My dad's from Pakistan he likes
Speaker 3: that oily ship like that. They like they like their
Speaker 3: soul food.
Speaker 5: That what does Pakistani soul food like?
Speaker 3: Rihanni is the main dish, my guy. That's like a
Speaker 3: little bit of everything in there, and I fucking hate
Speaker 3: it because there's these little peppercorns in there, little black
Speaker 3: balls of destruction. You bite into one of those, that
Speaker 3: runs the whole dish. I can't even drink water. It's
Speaker 3: just like makes your mouth super spicy. Then again, that's
Speaker 3: the whole thing, like the whole Yeah, I love spicy,
Speaker 3: but this is a different thing, dude. Peppercorn spicy is
Speaker 3: nothing to fuck with, nothing, just invade your mouth. No,
Speaker 3: why on mm hmm?
Speaker 6: What other food?
Speaker 3: Let's see. My dad really likes this combo rice uh
Speaker 3: and uh. It's called doll which is like entels and
Speaker 3: and keema kima is ground beef. It's really nice. Put
Speaker 3: that all together in one dish. It's the best. I think.
Speaker 3: That's what you ever?
Speaker 5: Have you ever been to Pakistan?
Speaker 2: Bro?
Speaker 3: I want to go. They all went without me last year,
Speaker 3: like six months. I was by myself, that's u. Yeah,
Speaker 3: for a wedding at school. No no, no, no, no, this
Speaker 3: was it left me for six months.
Speaker 8: It's like.
Speaker 3: Two years ago.
Speaker 5: Yeah, wait they oh, they wait two years ago. They
Speaker 5: went to Pakistan for six months without you?
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, yeah without me?
Speaker 5: Why did why did they go? Why did they go
Speaker 5: without you?
Speaker 3: My sister had a sitter, so they meant to go
Speaker 3: check them out and.
Speaker 5: Stuff for six months.
Speaker 3: Yeah dude, I'm exaggerating. Its four months now that I
Speaker 3: think about it. By the way, it's fucking fantastic to
Speaker 3: talk to you. This is cool.
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, dude, it's nice to talk to you too.
Speaker 8: Man.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I've always wanted to visit like the Middle East.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm. I went to Saudi Arabia. Actually, yeah, I
Speaker 3: went there. I went there for pilgrimage, not like the
Speaker 3: official one. The official one is called hedge. But I
Speaker 3: did Omrah, which is omrah. You could do any any
Speaker 3: time of the year. And if you're talking about blessings, wise,
Speaker 3: I get like half the blessings for doing so it's
Speaker 3: still pretty good. That's pretty good, but it's not good
Speaker 3: as the real deal.
Speaker 5: So yeah, what's the real what's the real blessing?
Speaker 3: Well, I got the blessing where supposedly if you do
Speaker 3: all the things, because pilgrimage is you basically replicating some
Speaker 3: biblical shit that happened right into five days, Like there's
Speaker 3: different events that you do each day. So I did that.
Speaker 3: At the end of it, you go to the big
Speaker 3: black box, which is the Tabat, which is the message
Speaker 3: that was built by Abraham, and so did that. And
Speaker 3: then after you're done with everything, you have the option
Speaker 3: to shave your head. And I had like hair down
Speaker 3: to my shoulders and I wasn't going to cut it.
Speaker 3: But then some shift, like last minute, while I was
Speaker 3: about to finish my stuff, you like tap me on
Speaker 3: the shoulder that you're going to compare, and I had
Speaker 3: to at that point, so I just shaved my head.
Speaker 3: And so anyways, the point is after you finish all
Speaker 3: of that, supposed to be you're born with a new
Speaker 3: heart or your heart is clean.
Speaker 5: So you were symbolically born with a new heart.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it felt weird coming back. I cried the second date.
Speaker 3: It felt weird. Yeah, like just a realization because like
Speaker 3: I put on a little like Quran while I was
Speaker 3: driving home and then it just felt like the real deal,
Speaker 3: And I don't know, it kind of took me back
Speaker 3: to uh, back into Saudi Arabia because like I was
Speaker 3: at the I was at the place, you know, like
Speaker 3: I even touched the cavern everything. It was a very
Speaker 3: very cool experience because you know, you go there and
Speaker 3: you just pour everything that you want in this world
Speaker 3: and hope that hope for the best. And it was
Speaker 3: really cool to put that energy out there.
Speaker 5: You pour everything you want for this world. When you
Speaker 5: say you said poor, did I get that word right?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 5: Into into the this this process.
Speaker 3: Yeah, into the process, because well before you go even
Speaker 3: there's a bunch of stuff that you're supposed to do,
Speaker 3: like make amends with people that you had problems with
Speaker 3: or anything, just so you're going in there with clear intentions.
Speaker 3: I think that's what most of my Islam. By the way, guys,
Speaker 3: I'm Muslim, so most of the religion is about your intention.
Speaker 5: M what do you what do you feel like you
Speaker 5: were putting in when you say you were pouring yourself
Speaker 5: into the experience.
Speaker 3: Uh, well, you know, I was twenty at the time,
Speaker 3: so I felt kind of lost. I had like my
Speaker 3: first quarter life crisis at that point. And it was
Speaker 3: really weird the fact that I even got to go
Speaker 3: because I was at a banquet dinner for something and
Speaker 3: I got I bought a raffle ticket for the end,
Speaker 3: and they raffled off a free trip to go make
Speaker 3: Omrah and I won that. So that's how I ended
Speaker 3: up going in the first place.
Speaker 6: You know.
Speaker 3: So I was like just a super depressed person, like
Speaker 3: just looking around and I was like, why does everyone
Speaker 3: always have to say how are you? Why is at
Speaker 3: the first quest and people ask that question that you
Speaker 3: can care And then next thing, I'm over there and
Speaker 3: I'm all those questions that I had, those frustrations actually
Speaker 3: is what I poured into it, you know, mm hm.
Speaker 5: So you sort of poured in all of your pessimism
Speaker 5: about the worlds.
Speaker 3: Yeah, because I was something for a brother day a little.
Speaker 5: Bit more about the way that you were pessimistic, Like
Speaker 5: what do you mean by like just everyone going about
Speaker 5: their day?
Speaker 3: So, well, what happened to me was I lost someone. Yeah, okay,
Speaker 3: so I lost someone close to me, my aunt, and
Speaker 3: that's never.
Speaker 2: Happened to me.
Speaker 3: So then I went back to college and you know,
Speaker 3: I had to do everything normal and I didn't feel normal.
Speaker 3: And I'm not the type of person to reflect on
Speaker 3: my emotions, you know, at that point in my life.
Speaker 3: You know, I think I'm better at it now. I
Speaker 3: write down things, but at that point, you know, just
Speaker 3: ignore and move on. And next thing, you know, I
Speaker 3: have like sweaty palms while I'm typing on my computer,
Speaker 3: and there's all these signs that my body is physically
Speaker 3: not okay. But I just kind of ignored those things
Speaker 3: for a while. And you're asking why it's pessimistic about
Speaker 3: other people asking me are you okay? And everything. It's
Speaker 3: because I couldn't be honest, you know, and people don't
Speaker 3: want you to be honest in that situation sometimes, So
Speaker 3: every single time it was like a reminder, click, you know,
Speaker 3: I'm not okay.
Speaker 5: So how did you feel at that point, the situation
Speaker 5: that the the the ceremony.
Speaker 3: That's just a ceremony. Well, after everything came back, you know,
Speaker 3: like even driving down the street was like a new experience,
Speaker 3: you know, like it was a bright day, nice colors
Speaker 3: to look at. So you kind of, yes, you're right
Speaker 3: about that.
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's cool. It's always good to have experiences that
Speaker 5: bring it back to what matters, which is really looking
Speaker 5: at the things that you're seeing and breathing and hearing,
Speaker 5: because you always have those things. I feel like, unless
Speaker 5: if you're dead, you always have kind of your own
Speaker 5: senses and your own experience of life. Even if you
Speaker 5: don't always have all the people in your life or
Speaker 5: all the things in your life, you always have life itself.
Speaker 5: I guess.
Speaker 14: Yeah.
Speaker 3: You know what's weird is, you know, talking about my aunt.
Speaker 3: I only think about her from time to time, and
Speaker 3: that makes me sad, you know, because you wish that
Speaker 3: you could think about people you lost more often, but
Speaker 3: you know, they only come to your mind once in
Speaker 3: a while, especially when you're moving on and doing other stuff.
Speaker 3: And I cried because I had a stressful day the
Speaker 3: other day and I wrote down a letter to her.
Speaker 3: You know, it was just any thought that I thought
Speaker 3: sounded like a good sentence went down on the paper,
Speaker 3: and then I just put it away, and I felt
Speaker 3: a time.
Speaker 8: A lot better, like shit done better?
Speaker 3: Was it was pretty good?
Speaker 5: I like that? What do you and you know, looking
Speaker 5: not to share anything uncomfortable sharing, but what what sorts
Speaker 5: of things did you talk about in the letter?
Speaker 3: I can pull it out? Shit, yeah, okay, I don't mind.
Speaker 3: This is the first page in this letter or in
Speaker 3: this journal that I've been looking at for like two years.
Speaker 3: And then on Tuesday, June fifteenth, which was two days ago,
Speaker 3: I wrote in it for the first time. Uh yeah, Aunty,
Speaker 3: I miss you today, wasn't a I hate that I
Speaker 3: need to wait to die to see you again. It's
Speaker 3: cruel and it hurts to think about it. I rarely
Speaker 3: cry about anything besides you. It's been almost three years.
Speaker 4: The worst part about.
Speaker 3: My birthday is that one week after I always think
Speaker 3: about it, you passed away seven days after the day
Speaker 3: I was born. It hurts. Today is one of those
Speaker 3: rare days that I pray about you. I'm upset because
Speaker 3: I lack control of chaos around me. I think it's
Speaker 3: the same way I felt that day I said goodbye
Speaker 3: to you, the day you passed away, and I remember
Speaker 3: being angry that you let me do that. It's a
Speaker 3: stupid thing to feel, I know, and I never want
Speaker 3: to forget your face, your voice, your hair, your sunglasses.
Speaker 3: Miss you very much. I miss you so much. Thank
Speaker 3: you for loving me when I was ignorant and had
Speaker 3: no feelings. I most definitely did not appreciate you enough,
Speaker 3: and I'm sorry I never showed you how much you
Speaker 3: mean to me. I wish I could cry about you
Speaker 3: all the time. So you're always on my mind. You're
Speaker 3: the first person I want to see when I get
Speaker 3: to Heaven. Signed your favorite nephew because I'm my only nephew,
Speaker 3: so kind of makes sense, right.
Speaker 5: So yeah, the piction, Thank you for sharing that with us.
Speaker 5: You mentioned you feel you feel more in control of
Speaker 5: the chaos around you now, No, because.
Speaker 3: That day that I wrote that down was a bad day,
Speaker 3: and specifically because I didn't have control of.
Speaker 8: Everything around me.
Speaker 3: I was working at my dad's liquor store, and I
Speaker 3: should have read the situation right. The dude came in
Speaker 3: with that purpole backwards backpack. I was like, I know,
Speaker 3: hoodie on. He took like a bottle of wine and
Speaker 3: beer and I even said hello to him. Make that
Speaker 3: I in contact support it, you know. And dude was
Speaker 3: walking down the aisle awkward and then did like a
Speaker 3: little shuffle and then smiled at me and ran out
Speaker 3: the door. So I have a plexico ass in front
Speaker 3: of me. So I did like a dolphin dive through
Speaker 3: the counter to get to the other side, grabbed my
Speaker 3: phone and then thought the flash on and went after
Speaker 3: him because I said, you know what's good Today is
Speaker 3: the day where I'm going to go after one of
Speaker 3: them today, and it's usually a dangerous thing because you
Speaker 3: never want anything or show any aggression because then they
Speaker 3: know where you are. So I said, you know, at
Speaker 3: least I could give them a run for their money.
Speaker 3: So I was running after them, yelling at him. And
Speaker 3: I did track in high school, so these guys were
Speaker 3: kind of slow, and so I told him that, and
Speaker 3: then I told him run, run, run, and the reverse
Speaker 3: psychology kicked in and they started turning around and I
Speaker 3: was like, perfect, take your mask down, let me see
Speaker 3: your face. Then they get a better picture of you.
Speaker 3: And then they said, are running some more. But then
Speaker 3: I ran back to the store because you know, there
Speaker 3: could be more people because I'm not in attendance. So
Speaker 3: I went back after I had that little fun thing happened,
Speaker 3: and I don't know, I got really upset about that afterwards.
Speaker 5: You know, dude, just I guess one thing I kind
Speaker 5: of wanted to tell you was that, you know, when
Speaker 5: you're trying to get control of the chaos, I think
Speaker 5: it's I'm happy to hear that you have the drive
Speaker 5: to do so, but if you're going to do so,
Speaker 5: try to do it for things that are like truly
Speaker 5: important to you, you know, because like a couple of
Speaker 5: people like stealing from your store. You know, in the
Speaker 5: long run, you were right, you'd probably be better off
Speaker 5: not going after them in terms of your own safety.
Speaker 5: You know. I think it's a power move to let
Speaker 5: people win the small battles. But really try to figure
Speaker 5: out what is genuinely important to me that I need
Speaker 5: to exercise as control on, you know, because I feel
Speaker 5: like if you're going too hard on UH, I just
Speaker 5: need to I just need to stand up for myself
Speaker 5: for anything. I need to take control of any situation.
Speaker 5: Then you might bring yourself with some changer, you know.
Speaker 5: So if you're going to go after that, just make
Speaker 5: sure that you're exercising control in areas that you really
Speaker 5: care about, not just for the sake of doing it.
Speaker 5: If that.
Speaker 3: My sister gave me the same exact advice, But since
Speaker 3: the GAG told me, I'm a here to it a
Speaker 3: little bit more carefully for sure.
Speaker 5: Beautiful man, dude, what what did you say? Your name was.
Speaker 3: Peanut Butter in the call, I had a question. You
Speaker 3: said that you were coming to la Uh for for
Speaker 3: Gag across America? Is that correct?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 5: I don't know if I'm doing I don't know yet
Speaker 5: if I'm doing like a live show, I might not,
Speaker 5: I might, I have no doubt yet. But I'm coming
Speaker 5: for I think I might be doing like a street
Speaker 5: meet though, And actually I think might be open to people.
Speaker 5: All right, say that might be a thing if I.
Speaker 3: Put in an application to get across and then you
Speaker 3: think there would be a possibility.
Speaker 5: For la. It might be tough, but put something in.
Speaker 5: If if I can make some time.
Speaker 3: I'll put it in. I'll do it.
Speaker 5: I'll do rock and Wrong. Awesome. Thank you so much,
Speaker 5: peanut Butter Dude. I appreciate you shouting with us.
Speaker 3: I've been trying to reach you since December.
Speaker 8: This is a good day.
Speaker 3: Thank you so much.
Speaker 5: Hell yeah, man, you take care all right?
Speaker 3: You too? Bye?
Speaker 2: How from Hobbs.
Speaker 12: Pods Oh ship?
Speaker 5: Hello, Hey dude?
Speaker 7: Whoa, hey man?
Speaker 5: What's going on? Man? How you doing?
Speaker 6: Just go off of work?
Speaker 5: It's got off of work. Where do you work?
Speaker 7: I'll work at a far parmac.
Speaker 5: You work at a pharmacy. Yeah, what do you know
Speaker 5: at the pharmacy?
Speaker 8: I just bag stuff up your.
Speaker 5: Bags stuff up?
Speaker 7: Yeah, like pills, Yeah, pills, But that's I was calling
Speaker 7: in because I also do freelance pharmaceuticals, if you know
Speaker 7: what I mean.
Speaker 5: Wow, I don't know what you mean. I was actually
Speaker 5: just about to ask you what you mean like.
Speaker 7: Drug dealing?
Speaker 5: Oh, so you're gonna get your fucking license and all
Speaker 5: that shit removed? Right?
Speaker 7: No, I just I don't have a license. I'm just
Speaker 7: a little bit of the pharmacy.
Speaker 5: I just you need a license to be a pharmacist
Speaker 5: or are you? Are you just a drug dealer and
Speaker 5: that's it?
Speaker 7: Uh No, I like I bag stuff up there that's
Speaker 7: already packaged. But then on my free time, my side,
Speaker 7: so the will a little drug dealing here and there.
Speaker 5: But don't you need to do with the pharmacy. Don't
Speaker 5: you need to have you like a licensed pharmacist or
Speaker 5: some ship.
Speaker 7: Yeah, that's like for the people above me. I'm like
Speaker 7: right below them. So I just do like the dirty work.
Speaker 7: I don't really touch the thing.
Speaker 5: I thought you needed the I thought you needed the
Speaker 5: degree to get the bag ship.
Speaker 7: Nah. They try to get me to do that, but
Speaker 7: you have to sign a two year contract, and I
Speaker 7: don't want to really be stuck there for two years.
Speaker 5: What do you mean They tried to get you to
Speaker 5: do that.
Speaker 7: Yeah, they try to recruit me to be a farm tech.
Speaker 7: Is what it's called?
Speaker 5: What what are you? What's the name of your thing?
Speaker 7: A manifestor I don't. I package the bags and give
Speaker 7: them the drivers.
Speaker 5: Is that the real title of your job or do
Speaker 5: you make that up?
Speaker 7: Uh, there's no official title, but I would say that's
Speaker 7: like my real my real title.
Speaker 5: There's an official title.
Speaker 7: But it's funny because no one there knows that. I also,
Speaker 7: you know, dealing the just deal to some of my
Speaker 7: some people at my college and stuff.
Speaker 5: Mm hmm.
Speaker 7: But I want to get out of it.
Speaker 2: Man.
Speaker 5: You need to, like, don't they need to like have
Speaker 5: a degree to make sure that you don't like accidentally
Speaker 5: give some old ladies like some.
Speaker 7: No like I when I applied there, the lady took
Speaker 7: me into a closet and we sat on the floor
Speaker 7: and she was like, you want this job? And I
Speaker 7: was like, yeah, so I just and I just started
Speaker 7: working there that day.
Speaker 5: Dude, what are the Yelp reviews like on this pharmacy.
Speaker 7: I don't it's like a hospice pharmacy. Oh man, yeah,
Speaker 7: but I'm like, uh, I'm a secret. I'm a double agent.
Speaker 5: So what kind of what are you just selling? Weed?
Speaker 7: Weed, shrooms, acid? Whatever people need? Really, m it sucks.
Speaker 7: I feel like I've warped my perception of money a
Speaker 7: little bit because I could make like my whole paycheck. Yeah,
Speaker 7: I can make like my whole paycheck.
Speaker 5: Why do you still work at the pharmacy if you
Speaker 5: found a more lucrative business.
Speaker 7: I'm scared of the I R s.
Speaker 5: You're scared of the irs.
Speaker 7: I'm scared of getting in trouble, you know.
Speaker 5: You know what. That is a very legitimate fear to have.
Speaker 5: That is a very hands and.
Speaker 7: I'd really like to get out of it, man, because
Speaker 7: people only know me as that now, and I'm not
Speaker 7: really a big fan of that. I want people to
Speaker 7: know me as me, you know, not as.
Speaker 5: A deal with drugs. You know, is that they they
Speaker 5: take credit for your personality, you know, you want to
Speaker 5: be all you.
Speaker 7: Yeah, but people only know you as a get go now,
Speaker 7: you know. But maybe that's what you like.
Speaker 5: I mean, sure people will know me as a gecko,
Speaker 5: but all it takes is me doing non gecko things
Speaker 5: enough that people will leave me alone about it.
Speaker 7: Yeah, But for now.
Speaker 5: I like being a gecko.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I only know you as a get go and
Speaker 7: that's that's perfectly fine with me.
Speaker 5: Do you know my name.
Speaker 7: Lionel?
Speaker 5: Close enough? What would you do? Okay? So what do
Speaker 5: you want to do? All right, so you're gonna exit
Speaker 5: the illegal trades and go into something more legitimate. What
Speaker 5: would you like to do?
Speaker 7: I'm doing studying an entrepreneurship at my university.
Speaker 5: Okay.
Speaker 7: I'd really like to own a business and be my
Speaker 7: own boss. I feel like drug dealing has taught me
Speaker 7: a little bit about business. I know it sounds super
Speaker 7: privileged or like weird to say, but.
Speaker 5: It's just a different form of entrepreneurship.
Speaker 7: Yeah. I like business a lot, but I don't want
Speaker 7: to get stuck in some cubicle, you know.
Speaker 5: Yeah, well, what would your What would your business be?
Speaker 7: Definitely like fashion? I've got like I do, like I
Speaker 7: make like clothes and stuff, and I know that would
Speaker 7: be really cool. I'd be like a dream job. You know.
Speaker 5: I'm gonna tell you, dude, is you got to make tiktoks?
Speaker 7: Do you think?
Speaker 5: So?
Speaker 7: I tried. I tried to tap into that market, but
Speaker 7: it's such specific, you know, I gotta get it down
Speaker 7: like it's very you know, stuff catches there really quick.
Speaker 7: But also it can die super fast.
Speaker 5: You know how you've solved that in my opinion. In
Speaker 5: my opinion is all right, this is gonna sound really cheesy,
Speaker 5: but I'm learning more and more that it's true even
Speaker 5: though it's cheesy, is I genuine me? You only you
Speaker 5: can do you right? So you have to do yourself
Speaker 5: in your own fashion. I right, So like you can't
Speaker 5: really like I mean, I mean, I do think you
Speaker 5: should have a consideration of like what works as a
Speaker 5: thing that might catch people's attention as they're scrolling and
Speaker 5: hold it for thirty seconds. And the way that TikTok
Speaker 5: has this sort of like beginning middle end structure that
Speaker 5: you should think of it. So think about it in
Speaker 5: terms of how can I fit the mold of something
Speaker 5: that will gather a human being's attention. But other than that,
Speaker 5: try to do your own thing first and foremost, then
Speaker 5: you know copy of other people are doing all Because
Speaker 5: I'm sure fashion TikTok is like crazy.
Speaker 7: I've been really trying to get into it. There's so
Speaker 7: many fast fashion things on TikTok, like a lot of
Speaker 7: kids who live in the same areas I do like
Speaker 7: getn't go to call and are doing fashion and they're
Speaker 7: blowing up on TikTok. But it's like they're you know,
Speaker 7: they're like taking the Nike logo and embroidering it on
Speaker 7: like some T shirt. I don't know how they haven't
Speaker 7: gotten a seasoned assist yet, but they're blowing up on TikTok.
Speaker 7: I do like screen print, like digital print. I make
Speaker 7: my designs. I go to like thrift stores and like
Speaker 7: go through books and find like cool you know, diagrams
Speaker 7: and ship mm hmm. I got to yeah, I got
Speaker 7: this one of like a human dissection. It's like the
Speaker 7: diagram of a face and where to make the cuts.
Speaker 7: And I think that would look cool like screen printed
Speaker 7: on a shirt or something.
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm. Yeah, dude. I think it's just about like
Speaker 5: telling your own story. If it's not if you're not
Speaker 5: like the because at the end of the day, I
Speaker 5: do feel like if you can combine like you as
Speaker 5: a person and your own story with the thing that
Speaker 5: you're selling, and that's a winning strategy because you know,
Speaker 5: if you're just selling the thing, you know, there's a
Speaker 5: million things. But again getting cheesy here, but you know,
Speaker 5: if you add your own personality into it. It's like
Speaker 5: other people can't copy you.
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, I just got I don't know. I'm so
Speaker 7: caught up and releasing stuff like it has to be
Speaker 7: perfect and I'm scared that people aren't gonna like it.
Speaker 7: But I just have to do it for me, you know,
Speaker 7: post what I like and the people will follow.
Speaker 5: Yeah, dude, just keep posting shit, keep posting it. The
Speaker 5: way the TikTok works is I genuine believe if you
Speaker 5: keep hammering at it you understand it, Eventually something will happen.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I know, I totally agree. I got to like
Speaker 7: tap into that market. I really do.
Speaker 5: H Well, look, I wish you the best of luck.
Speaker 5: I hope that you make the switch. You have a
Speaker 5: good amount of starting capital to work with, so yeah,
Speaker 5: good for you.
Speaker 7: On that undocumented starting capital.
Speaker 5: I won't tell anyone. I don't know if anyone from
Speaker 5: the I R S is here.
Speaker 10: But.
Speaker 7: Yeah, thank you, thank you.
Speaker 8: I appreciate it.
Speaker 5: Shot in the face.
Speaker 7: Thank you. I hope you have a wonderful day you too.
Speaker 5: Many took care.
Speaker 2: Bye aw from mister J.
Speaker 5: Mister who mister J. Have we spoken before, mister J?
Speaker 6: No, we have not, Sir, it's my first time being
Speaker 6: on your channel.
Speaker 5: Thank you, man, Oh, thanks for having thanks for being here.
Speaker 5: How did you find us twitch?
Speaker 6: I'm a fellow streamer and I one of my friends
Speaker 6: suggested you were a channel, so I thought to check
Speaker 6: it out.
Speaker 5: Amazing that you're a fellow streamer. How's your stream going?
Speaker 6: Pretty good? Slowly growing a couple hundred followers, but you know,
Speaker 6: get there.
Speaker 5: So I love you. Already we're rating you. What's your thing?
Speaker 5: What's your thing?
Speaker 6: Oh, I'm already done for the night. It's mister m
Speaker 6: R Underscore j a y underscore Tarot. It's mister J's taro.
Speaker 6: I do Tarot streaming.
Speaker 5: It's terror streaming love. Yes, all right, I got it?
Speaker 5: Mis can we make it? I want to raid this guy.
Speaker 5: I love him. He seems nice.
Speaker 6: Yeah, thank you. By the way, I gotta say, I
Speaker 6: love your dynamic. I love the show, I love the
Speaker 6: therapy get go portion, I love your website. I just
Speaker 6: I love the character. It's amazing.
Speaker 5: Thank you. I appreciate that, man, that very much. I'm
Speaker 5: doing the best I can here.
Speaker 6: Well, you're amazing. Don't don't ever stop. It's just you
Speaker 6: are just amazing, sir.
Speaker 5: Thank you, mids. Read this guy's name down. We're riding.
Speaker 5: We're going to raid him next time. He's life.
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's mister Underscore. Jay's Tarot. It's mister underscore Jase. Yes,
Speaker 6: there's a picture of a cat. It's my profile picture.
Speaker 5: Are you a cat or are you a person?
Speaker 6: I'm a person, but I love my cat. My my
Speaker 6: wife and I decided to make an interesting character for
Speaker 6: their picture, so we used our cat.
Speaker 5: Does your wife stream with you as well?
Speaker 6: No, she does not. She just helps me take care
Speaker 6: of my lovely three year old baby girl.
Speaker 5: How did you and your wife meet each other?
Speaker 8: Oh?
Speaker 6: My Space? Actually you met.
Speaker 5: On my Space? Yeah, I know, right, I don't even
Speaker 5: know what that means. Like, how do people connect with
Speaker 5: each other on MySpace? Do they like direct a message?
Speaker 5: Do they write on their walls?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 5: I don't even know what MySpace is anymore?
Speaker 6: Well, okay, so I was on my Space looking for
Speaker 6: somebody who was basically knew a little lot about terrot cards.
Speaker 6: I started to get into them, shout her profile and
Speaker 6: you know, messaged her. We messaged each other back and forth.
Speaker 6: Found out we actually lived one county away from each other.
Speaker 6: I was living in La County Shoes of George County
Speaker 6: met up and basically, yeah, back the year I believe
Speaker 6: it was had to be two thousand and God, it's
Speaker 6: a long time ago. It's like it was two thousand
Speaker 6: and two, two thousand and three.
Speaker 5: Mmm, she guys been married? You guys, you guys have
Speaker 5: been together for fucking like what eighteen years? Fourteen years?
Speaker 2: My math?
Speaker 5: I don't feel like doing math right now, but something
Speaker 5: like that.
Speaker 6: That's okay. We just celebrated our ched wedding anniversary last
Speaker 6: year in October.
Speaker 5: Wow, what's the secret? Why do you what do you
Speaker 5: like about her that much?
Speaker 6: She makes me laugh, She brings out a part of me.
Speaker 6: She allows me to be childish when I need to
Speaker 6: be childish and have fun. She helps me embrace my
Speaker 6: inner child a lot. She helps me. She allows me
Speaker 6: to be my silly self.
Speaker 5: What do you what do you think she likes about you?
Speaker 3: Uh?
Speaker 6: My humor? I make her laugh and I keep her
Speaker 6: entertained with telling long stories that have no point. M.
Speaker 5: Do you feel like the do you feel like when
Speaker 5: you stream like you treat your audience like you like
Speaker 5: they're your wife and you're trying to make them laugh.
Speaker 5: So that they love you more.
Speaker 6: A long the lines. I do it to help people.
Speaker 6: I do it to basically some people have questions and
Speaker 6: they they want a stranger to go to and we connect,
Speaker 6: we connect. I connect with them and they become followers,
Speaker 6: sometimes debscribers, whatnot. And we really we really grow from
Speaker 6: each other. All the people I've met off twitch, Uh,
Speaker 6: you know, it's been new connections. And actually started streaming
Speaker 6: because unfortunately my mother passed away.
Speaker 5: I'm sorry to hear that. That's okay to show you
Speaker 5: just start streaming.
Speaker 6: My mother told me before. One of the things the
Speaker 6: conversations we had a lot of time ago, was you know,
Speaker 6: sometimes you've got to find your audience. And I decided
Speaker 6: to stream as a form of therapy, and it really helped.
Speaker 5: And stream as a form of therapy.
Speaker 6: That's how it originally started.
Speaker 5: Yeah, and what do you what do you find therapeutic
Speaker 5: about it?
Speaker 6: To connect you with people, the relationships, the fact that
Speaker 6: I can confide in perfect strangers what I'm feeling and
Speaker 6: I won't be judged. I won't have anyone think badly
Speaker 6: of me or anything like that. It's it's it's that,
Speaker 6: It's that, it's that emininity of you know, confiding in people.
Speaker 5: Interesting?
Speaker 6: Yeah?
Speaker 5: Interesting?
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 5: Do you feel like you have people? I mean, you know,
Speaker 5: you have a whole family here. Do you feel like
Speaker 5: you have people in real life that you can confide
Speaker 5: to as well?
Speaker 6: I do. I do, But at the time I was,
Speaker 6: you know, it was I do have family and friends.
Speaker 6: But you know, family and friends are always going to
Speaker 6: say nice things to you, and they always want to
Speaker 6: be They always have your back. They're always there to
Speaker 6: care for you and take care of you and help
Speaker 6: you in your time and need. And at that time,
Speaker 6: I just I wanted to do something. I wanted to
Speaker 6: be active, not just sitting at home playing video games.
Speaker 6: I wanted to be active. I wanted to be around people.
Speaker 6: Because of the pandemic, I wasn't able to do so,
Speaker 6: so I thought, well, I just streaming, going to try
Speaker 6: because a couple of friends adjusting it and that's why
Speaker 6: I started.
Speaker 5: Doing That's awesome, Yeah, that's awesome. And how long you've
Speaker 5: been doing it for?
Speaker 6: I started streaming beginning of April.
Speaker 5: Only If you about you any do you do any
Speaker 5: TikTok or any other social media? Are you mainly just.
Speaker 6: Well mostly twitch? But I do TikTok? But my TikTok's
Speaker 6: more like just me being silly, random moments that I
Speaker 6: just sometimes in life, I just want to be silly
Speaker 6: and I do just do a call it a silly
Speaker 6: random moment.
Speaker 5: Tell me, tell me something silly you've done.
Speaker 6: Well, I meet a friend of mine. We created a
Speaker 6: Chooser and Adventure D and D series on TikTok.
Speaker 5: I like that idea.
Speaker 6: We had people commenting, making decisions for the character, and
Speaker 6: someth the character died and sometimes you got his head
Speaker 6: bashed in mine.
Speaker 5: Over all controlled by the audience, that is true, but.
Speaker 6: You know, I would post the video what the audience decided,
Speaker 6: and I would post the video to that move the
Speaker 6: story forward next a couple of days later, kind of
Speaker 6: keep people on their seats. And it was a good
Speaker 6: thing for a while. And then then I started streaming.
Speaker 6: Since I moved from TikTok to streaming, and I've been
Speaker 6: talking to a lot of people, making a lot of friends,
Speaker 6: and it's just it's been a lot of fun and
Speaker 6: I'm getting a bunch of followers. Thank you, guys. I
Speaker 6: appreciate the follows.
Speaker 5: By the way, Hell well you're gonna get a lot
Speaker 5: more because we're gonna fucking rad you next time your life.
Speaker 6: Dude, Yeah you're interested. I streamed about three point thirty
Speaker 6: till six pm Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays Pacific Standard time.
Speaker 2: Ah.
Speaker 5: Then we're never going to get to radio because you're
Speaker 5: always on before when I.
Speaker 6: Am, unfortunately that is. But actually did rad you tonight?
Speaker 6: I was like, I'm gonna rate Jet though. Yeah, but
Speaker 6: there was so much going on chat it was hilarious.
Speaker 6: Oh okay, thank you just a little pigeon for putting
Speaker 6: my name in there. I appreciate it. That's my twitch
Speaker 6: cadave you guys.
Speaker 5: Well, dude, listen, thank you so much for coming on
Speaker 5: our stream. Man, I'm happy to hear that you found
Speaker 5: something that you very much enjoy.
Speaker 6: I am very happy to be here, and I want
Speaker 6: to say again I'm really glad to find you. I've
Speaker 6: been watching your show since Monday, since last Friday, cool,
Speaker 6: and today I decided to call in.
Speaker 5: I'm happy, I guys, to talk to you. I'm always
Speaker 5: happy to talk to talk to new people finding the stream.
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, thank you, sir, and have a great stream, sir,
Speaker 6: you too.
Speaker 5: You have a good rest of the night, sir.
Speaker 7: Bye.
Speaker 5: What a nice. What a nice dude?
Speaker 2: All from?
Speaker 5: Hello?
Speaker 12: Oh shoot, I actually got on.
Speaker 5: How you doing?
Speaker 12: I'm doing good air? Are you doing?
Speaker 8: Ghek? You know.
Speaker 5: I'm all right, I'm a geck along the computer.
Speaker 8: H Yeah.
Speaker 12: Can I ask you a very important question?
Speaker 5: Sure?
Speaker 12: All right, Sorry, I'm a little stick right now. But
Speaker 12: have you ever set your hair on fire?
Speaker 5: Have I ever set my hair on fire?
Speaker 2: Yes?
Speaker 5: Do you mean like fully engulfed my hair into flames
Speaker 5: or like burn the piece of my hair?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 12: Whatever? Has fire?
Speaker 6: Have you?
Speaker 12: Has fire ever come in contact with your hair?
Speaker 5: Probably? Ask when you asked this fire come on contact?
Speaker 5: I'm sure my friend has like held a lighter off
Speaker 5: to my hair or something like that once.
Speaker 7: Really yeah? Yeah?
Speaker 8: No.
Speaker 12: So the reason why I ask that question is I'm
Speaker 12: trying to conduct a survey to see how often people
Speaker 12: set their hair on fire.
Speaker 5: Interesting to get a survey to see how often people
Speaker 5: set their hair on fire.
Speaker 12: Yes, and I'm categorizing it between male female, long hair
Speaker 12: and short hair, as well as on accident and on purpose.
Speaker 5: Interesting. Interesting, All right, I'll bite. What are you planning
Speaker 5: to do with the results of this?
Speaker 12: It's really more curiosity because I have set my hair
Speaker 12: on fire about three times, and you know, it almost
Speaker 12: happened a fourth time. And then that's when it really
Speaker 12: got me thinking, how often does this happen to people?
Speaker 2: You know? Like?
Speaker 12: Is this common? Is this rare?
Speaker 10: You know?
Speaker 12: Am I just unlucky? Or am I lucky?
Speaker 6: You know?
Speaker 12: Because you know I don't know?
Speaker 2: Uh?
Speaker 5: Well, I have a couple questions here. One, are you
Speaker 5: setting your hair on fire yourself?
Speaker 12: No accident? All the three times it happened accidents?
Speaker 5: Okay? And then when you say you feel like you've
Speaker 5: gotten lucky, do you once it actually happens, do you
Speaker 5: like enjoy the sensation or something?
Speaker 12: No? I mean I think of it as lucky, like
Speaker 12: you know, like when people say it's good luck when
Speaker 12: a bird poops in your hair or something like that.
Speaker 5: I've actually never heard anyone say that.
Speaker 12: Really. Well, I guess it's something my dad says. Well,
Speaker 12: my dad, you know, he he's told me a few times.
Speaker 12: You know, it's good luck when a bird poops.
Speaker 3: In your hair.
Speaker 12: So that's why I thought, you know, setting my hair
Speaker 12: on fire by accident? It is kind of like that.
Speaker 5: Basically, what's your relationship with your dad?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 12: Interesting, it's not uh, I would I can't really put
Speaker 12: it into words exactly how the relationship is. It's very
Speaker 12: back and forth between good and bad.
Speaker 5: Mm hmm. What where do you feel like it is now?
Speaker 12: M Uh okay, I would say.
Speaker 5: It's okay, just okay. Mm hmmm.
Speaker 12: I don't know. A lot happened with my dad, so
Speaker 12: that's why it's really hard to put my finger how
Speaker 12: I would actually say how the relationship is.
Speaker 5: How many people have you surveyed for this so far?
Speaker 12: I only started to survey yesterday, and so far I
Speaker 12: have let me see one, two, three, four, five, six,
Speaker 12: seven people and then plus you, that's eight. So I
Speaker 12: guess eight people.
Speaker 5: M and uh, what's the word of the results of
Speaker 5: the survey so far?
Speaker 12: So far, it's actually tied right now. I've only found
Speaker 12: one guy in one female that both had set their
Speaker 12: hair on fire on purpose, one was or both of
Speaker 12: them were actually on purpose.
Speaker 5: Well, listen, I don't know what your motive is. I
Speaker 5: don't know if you're doing this for profit or curiosity,
Speaker 5: but either way, I hope that whatever is tickling your
Speaker 5: brain about the subject is ultimately scratched.
Speaker 12: I'm probably gonna actually decide to when I start feeling
Speaker 12: better to actually ask people in public so I can
Speaker 12: start getting better results.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think that's a good idea. I think that
Speaker 5: you might make a lot of friends doing that.
Speaker 12: I think so too.
Speaker 5: Well, good luck. I hope that you find the answers
Speaker 5: you're looking for.
Speaker 12: Wait before you hit the call, do you mind if
Speaker 12: I give, like a really stupid message?
Speaker 5: Do I mind if you give a really stupid message? Sure?
Speaker 12: Well, okay, yeah, it comes from a TV show. People
Speaker 12: might be knowing what I'm talking about. I'm gonna probably
Speaker 12: be embarrassed for saying this, but you know, there's one
Speaker 12: thing in life. Geck, never be the cock. Always be
Speaker 12: the guy who fucks the wife consensually, of course. But yeah,
Speaker 12: that is my message to the world. It was good
Speaker 12: talking with you.
Speaker 5: Where is that from?
Speaker 12: Oh it's from a TV show called The Boys?
Speaker 5: Mm hmm? Is that is that? Is that the way
Speaker 5: that you live your life?
Speaker 12: Uh? I'm going to start living my life. My life
Speaker 12: that way got to be more confident, more optimistic.
Speaker 5: Well, look, and the you know, there's another There's lots
Speaker 5: of alternative viewpoints to this as well. I almost think
Speaker 5: the one one might be able to say the cock, right,
Speaker 5: the cock? Actually it might be the most confident person
Speaker 5: in the situation. Do you know why.
Speaker 12: Why?
Speaker 5: Because the cock is so comfortable with who he is,
Speaker 5: so comfortable in the security of his relationships that he's
Speaker 5: willing to put them at risk because he knows he'll
Speaker 5: be find no matter what, because he's so secure in them.
Speaker 5: And that, to me is the true way to live
Speaker 5: your life is to find security in your relationships and
Speaker 5: both with others and with yourself, that you're comfortable with
Speaker 5: things that other people traditionally aren't.
Speaker 12: Well, I must say, that's a very interesting perspective.
Speaker 5: Rather than you know, the guy fucking the cook's wife
Speaker 5: is on this never ending search for self esteem that
Speaker 5: they're trying to gain by you know, having sex with
Speaker 5: with you knows as many women as possible, which you
Speaker 5: know can be fun, but it's not as internally rewarding
Speaker 5: as having that security in your in your relationships and
Speaker 5: in yourself because that's something you can really really count on.
Speaker 5: That's a more sustainable way of living. So, you know,
Speaker 5: just think about that.
Speaker 12: That's a very interesting look at it. Personally, I didn't
Speaker 12: think too much about it, mainly because I just thought
Speaker 12: it was funny. It was one of the few things
Speaker 12: in life that actually made me laugh.
Speaker 5: So well, I'm happy to have ruined it for you.
Speaker 12: No, you didn't room it for me. I felt was
Speaker 12: a very interesting perspective.
Speaker 5: Well, thank you so much, man, You have a the
Speaker 5: rest of the night.
Speaker 12: Yeah, you too, get thanks for the the talk.
Speaker 2: Call from Margie.
Speaker 10: Margie.
Speaker 5: Hello, how are you doing? Margie? We were spoken before.
Speaker 14: I know, I don't think so. No, I actually I
Speaker 14: actually know.
Speaker 6: We haven't. I don't know why.
Speaker 7: I said.
Speaker 5: How did you find this? This this place?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 3: TikTok, dude pic?
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, this is your first time on the stream.
Speaker 2: It is.
Speaker 14: I'm actually surprised I got connected.
Speaker 5: What do you think so far? How's how's how's your
Speaker 5: experience been?
Speaker 10: Oh it's been rad I love it.
Speaker 9: I love hearing people's stories.
Speaker 2: Awesome and your advice.
Speaker 5: You've been hearing people's stories and you've been hearing my
Speaker 5: advice all damn night. But it's time. It's time for
Speaker 5: us to hear your story. Marge tell us. Are you interesting?
Speaker 14: Oh god, no, I'm actually uh. I'm twenty four and
Speaker 14: all my friends moved out of state. So I'm just
Speaker 14: trying to like figure myself out.
Speaker 5: Now, trying to figure yourself out. What is there to
Speaker 5: figure out?
Speaker 14: Margie, Oh, I don't know, like my self identity. It's
Speaker 14: it's weird. It's like I feel like I'm in a
Speaker 14: different chapter of my life. And yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 14: It's like, oh, I got to be myself now without
Speaker 14: people around to like kind of put on a show.
Speaker 5: Do you feel like you're putting on a show consistently?
Speaker 14: Oh god, yeah, definitely.
Speaker 5: Tell me about the show. Tell me I want to
Speaker 5: sort of figure out the difference between because I want
Speaker 5: to know the difference between the show and the reality.
Speaker 5: Oh okay, tell us first about the show.
Speaker 14: Show would be like, I don't know. I just I
Speaker 14: want to like, I don't know. I guess I want
Speaker 14: to try to impress people by being like, oh, yeah,
Speaker 14: I've been working out and I've been doing a daily
Speaker 14: with my skin, and I don't know, kind of like
Speaker 14: making it seem like I'm living this wonderful, care free
Speaker 14: life and in reality, I have horrible social anxiety and
Speaker 14: I just.
Speaker 9: Like want to disassociate all day.
Speaker 5: So, so the show is showing people that you are
Speaker 5: winning when really you feel like you're not.
Speaker 14: Oh yeah, definitely.
Speaker 5: Why do you feel the need for other people to
Speaker 5: see that you are winning.
Speaker 8: Shot.
Speaker 14: I've never been asked that. I don't know, like mommy issues.
Speaker 5: Maybe really you've never been asked that. No, well, I've
Speaker 5: at least like on your own.
Speaker 14: I think I've tried. And then as soon as I
Speaker 14: get to that point where I'm like, oh, maybe it's
Speaker 14: for this reason, I'm like, oh, that's a lot to
Speaker 14: deal with. Let's just put on some.
Speaker 5: TV us tell us this reason. And when you say,
Speaker 5: oh that that reasons a lot to deal with. What's
Speaker 5: the reason you say? You say it's mommy issues.
Speaker 14: Oh probably yeah, kind of like dealing with my past,
Speaker 14: my childhood trauma, if you will.
Speaker 5: Sure, sure, Yeah, Okay, So you say that this show
Speaker 5: is putting on that like you're whatever hashtag killing it
Speaker 5: your hashtag goals. Yeah, that's the actual what's going on
Speaker 5: in reality?
Speaker 14: Oh, just like I'm from like the Midwest, and we're
Speaker 14: kind of a boring bunch of people, and I think
Speaker 14: I just want to like try to be somebody i'm
Speaker 14: not sometimes and it's like it's okay to just be me.
Speaker 14: Does that make sense?
Speaker 5: Well, when you well, I'm trying to understand because when
Speaker 5: you say you're from because you're you're talking about First
Speaker 5: you were talking about where you're from and the people
Speaker 5: around you, and then you start talking about yourself.
Speaker 10: So which is it?
Speaker 5: Like you know the people around you are boring and
Speaker 5: you want to separate yourself from them, or you feel
Speaker 5: like you're boring and you want to make a new person.
Speaker 14: I feel like I'm boring and I want to make
Speaker 14: a new person. I'd say that that's the one.
Speaker 5: That's great, and I think that's that's a great thing
Speaker 5: to want to do.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you think, of course?
Speaker 5: Why do you feel like?
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 14: I feel like I get narcissistic when I think that way,
Speaker 14: and that's I don't know, I feel bad about myself
Speaker 14: if I want to make myself more than I don't know,
Speaker 14: it's weird.
Speaker 5: No, I get it. I get it, Like it's like,
Speaker 5: you know, who the fuck are you to like? Go
Speaker 5: do things right? Yeah, I agree, I agree. I get
Speaker 5: you on that. I get you on that. I have
Speaker 5: a little bit of that myself, you know. I mean,
Speaker 5: what's the alternative though? Don't do anything? And you know
Speaker 5: who cares? If you know? If I don't know, I'd
Speaker 5: rather you go live your life and have a few
Speaker 5: people think that you're full of yourself then consistently bend
Speaker 5: to the whims of other people. You know, it's just
Speaker 5: such a fucking prison.
Speaker 14: Yeah, yeah, you're You're definitely right. It's weird because it's
Speaker 14: just it's nice to hear somebody kind of give that affirmation.
Speaker 2: Back, versus people telling.
Speaker 14: Me like, nah, just say the way you.
Speaker 5: Are well, tell me, well, I mean the who who
Speaker 5: is it that you want to what is it that
Speaker 5: you want to change?
Speaker 14: I think I just want to feel more comfortable talking
Speaker 14: to people. I kind of I said earlier. I have
Speaker 14: social anxiety, and I think I just want to get
Speaker 14: better at, like, I don't know, like being okay to
Speaker 14: like ask people add ball questions and not feel weird
Speaker 14: about just asking them questions and having just fun conversations
Speaker 14: that really don't have a whole lot of meaning.
Speaker 5: And I don't know, it's tough, Yeah, to assert your
Speaker 5: frame of a conversation on to other people. Not necessarily,
Speaker 5: it's not an assertion. I said that wrong. It's not
Speaker 5: an assertion of your frame of the conversation on to
Speaker 5: other people. It's just like, if you want to ask
Speaker 5: a question or you want to take the conversation a
Speaker 5: certain way, just fucking doing it and not caring about it.
Speaker 5: The other people it's like you're it's like, no, fuck
Speaker 5: you, you're weird for not justing me. All right, I'm on
Speaker 5: the planet Earth. I am. We're two people. It's a cosmic,
Speaker 5: amazing thing that we're with each other right now. I'm
Speaker 5: trying to connect with you and be more of a
Speaker 5: you know, fucking answer the thing, and if you don't
Speaker 5: want to, then you're fucking weird.
Speaker 7: Not me.
Speaker 14: Yes, it's it's definitely that.
Speaker 2: That's that's it.
Speaker 5: Yes, you know, go for it, you know I I
Speaker 5: I think I think, yeah, yeah, I don't anything like
Speaker 5: do you want to move? Do you have a career
Speaker 5: aspirations or anything like that? Oh?
Speaker 14: Yeah, god oh that that's actually another thing is I
Speaker 14: have no idea what I want.
Speaker 2: To do with my life.
Speaker 14: And I think it's it's like I'm accepting that it's
Speaker 14: okay that I don't have Okay, I don't want to
Speaker 14: get like super deep, but I don't have this aspiration
Speaker 14: to contribute to, like I don't know a culture that
Speaker 14: just don't It's like you have to. I love doing art,
Speaker 14: I love making art. I love creating art. I love writing,
Speaker 14: and it's like I almost have to like beg people
Speaker 14: to even view it. And then it's like, do I
Speaker 14: really want to make money off of it? If it's
Speaker 14: just something I love doing and that I don't know.
Speaker 14: I get stuck in this cycle.
Speaker 2: If you if you couldn't tell M.
Speaker 14: I get in it, stuck into a cycle of self
Speaker 14: doubt and then I'm like, no, I can do this.
Speaker 14: I'm like, well, people got to pay me to do this.
Speaker 14: I'm like, well, that's root of me to ask them
Speaker 14: to just pay.
Speaker 6: I don't know.
Speaker 5: That's tough. It's tough to make money. How do you
Speaker 5: make money? Now? What do you do? Do you do?
Speaker 5: You work?
Speaker 14: Yeah, it's part time. I work at an animal hospital.
Speaker 14: Then I'm probably gonna quit.
Speaker 5: Why why are you gonna quit? You do not like
Speaker 5: working there?
Speaker 14: Oh no, it's It was my second day today and
Speaker 14: it was just chaos.
Speaker 5: You know what's funny is that we talked to someone,
Speaker 5: the very second caller, who would probably love working in
Speaker 5: a place where animals are dying all the time.
Speaker 8: Oh God, I don't know if.
Speaker 6: You were there for that, I don't. I wasn't.
Speaker 14: I got off not too long ago actually, so I
Speaker 14: hopped on assume I could, but I didn't hear that.
Speaker 5: Well anyway, So what are you gonna do after the
Speaker 5: animal hospital? Do you have any idea?
Speaker 13: No, not really, I don't know.
Speaker 14: I'm just kind of like vibing in the moment. As
Speaker 14: weird as that sounds, Oh.
Speaker 5: I think it sounds weird. I mean, would you ever
Speaker 5: do something fringe? Would you ever be like, I'm gonna
Speaker 5: go on a workaway to fucking a farm in Hawaii or.
Speaker 14: Oh that'd be sick.
Speaker 10: Now.
Speaker 14: I love to go work on a ranch. I love
Speaker 14: riding horses, so I would love to go work on
Speaker 14: like a ranch in Montana, if I'm being honest, that's like,
Speaker 14: oh my god, that's the dream baby.
Speaker 5: No, it's you know, I've looked at work away and
Speaker 5: like for young women, Like there's a lot of people
Speaker 5: who like want like an AWL pair or something like that.
Speaker 5: If you'd be interested in it's just like anything that
Speaker 5: can fucking like get you somewhere new, doing something new,
Speaker 5: just because you know, yolo, let's go crazy.
Speaker 14: Yeah, you only live one. Yeah that's true.
Speaker 5: What's your name's No, it's okay. I wasn't gonna I
Speaker 5: was I was gonna give up after trying to think
Speaker 5: of it for five seconds and failing.
Speaker 14: I know it's a NodD dude.
Speaker 5: No, no, no, see Margie. You know, God, there's just
Speaker 5: there's this concept I've been obsessed with lately called reading
Speaker 5: positive intent, which is, uh, just always assuming that people
Speaker 5: are trying to be nice. I feel a lot of
Speaker 5: people do the opposite. Like when I went like, I
Speaker 5: was just kind of I don't even know what I
Speaker 5: was doing. See, I'm weird. I'm weird, dude, and everyone's weird.
Speaker 5: You can't always I think that everyone's doing everything because
Speaker 5: they hate you.
Speaker 14: That's It's hard, dude, it's hard.
Speaker 5: I wish I had a better We've we've touched on
Speaker 5: this topic so many times, and it's a topic that
Speaker 5: I care about a lot. I wish I had like
Speaker 5: the Golden playbook for it. But god damn, you know,
Speaker 5: I'm glad that you're trying at least to not care.
Speaker 2: I think of you, because I appreciate that.
Speaker 5: Other than that, it's a it's a prison, it really is.
Speaker 9: Yeah, It's just like.
Speaker 14: I don't know, I'm twenty four now, and it's just weird.
Speaker 14: I didn't think I'd make it to this part of
Speaker 14: my life. If I'm being honest that it was just like, yeah,
Speaker 14: got to move forward.
Speaker 5: Check out that workaway website.
Speaker 2: I will, you know what I will do it?
Speaker 6: Do it?
Speaker 5: I always tell because if I were not doing this,
Speaker 5: that's probably what I would do. If I, like, I
Speaker 5: would just go somewhere random, because you know, if you're
Speaker 5: young and just haven't been places, go go be places,
Speaker 5: go do things.
Speaker 7: I will.
Speaker 14: Yeah, I'm gonna do that.
Speaker 5: Thank you, of course. Of course I'm so glad you
Speaker 5: decided to check out the stream and call them. Do
Speaker 5: you remember what TikTok it was? Was it one of
Speaker 5: the fucking new things?
Speaker 14: I think it was. I don't know if I see
Speaker 14: you come on my for your page like all the time,
Speaker 14: like I don't know. It was probably a girl talking
Speaker 14: about her experience in a restaurant and yeah I just
Speaker 14: watched it like earlier.
Speaker 5: Yeah, but I know I know what's talking about.
Speaker 14: Yeah. So I love your I love all your content.
Speaker 10: Good ship.
Speaker 5: Thank you, Margie, Thank you, Margie, Margie. I go being off,
Speaker 5: Go go go go help some people on a farm
Speaker 5: in Italy. See how that goes?
Speaker 8: That?
Speaker 5: If it's bad, else announce because you're twenty four and
Speaker 5: you're gonna live forever.
Speaker 14: I am, God, damn it, amazing.
Speaker 5: Well, you have a good rest to night, Margie. Thank
Speaker 5: you for calling in.
Speaker 14: Thank you you too, have a good night.
Speaker 2: You too Bye.
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