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Speaker 2: All from Jake.

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Speaker 3: Jake, Oh, no way, is this real?

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Speaker 4: He here?

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Speaker 5: What do you think? Yes, he's really tonight. Can I

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Speaker 5: Do you typically have a hard time distinguishing reality from fantasy?

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Speaker 3: I would say, give me a stack.

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Speaker 4: Reality versus fantasy.

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Speaker 5: Then do you have a hard time distinguishing reality from fantasy?

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Speaker 4: No, I wouldn't say I do. But I would say

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Speaker 5: You fantasize about wealth primarily, oh.

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Speaker 4: A lot, even my friends, or like you're really financially

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Speaker 4: I do think that money can solve like most of

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Speaker 4: your problems, right, maybe not all of them? Oh yeah, interesting, Like.

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Speaker 4: I wouldn't right now. I would say I have almost

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Speaker 4: zero problems in my life. I just got back from

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Speaker 4: So my buddy works in Chicago. He he does like

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Speaker 5: Well, Jake listen. I wish you the best of luck.

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Speaker 4: Hey, man, I appreciate that a lot.

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Speaker 8: It was.

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Speaker 4: It was really nice talk.

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Speaker 5: Nice talking to you, Jake. You have a good rest of

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Speaker 5: that you too.

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Speaker 2: By all from Marcus.

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Speaker 5: Marcus.

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Speaker 3: Hey?

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Speaker 5: You doing Marcus?

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Speaker 9: I'm doing pretty all right.

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Speaker 5: You know, Marcus, I'm a gecko on the computer. Yeah,

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Speaker 5: it's so it's so hard for Marcus because I try

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Speaker 9: It's always I mean, what do you have to say?

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Speaker 5: And who cares what I have to say? Marcus? I

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Speaker 9: You know? Here Okay, here's what I got to convince

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Speaker 5: Okay, you don't have to convince me.

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Speaker 9: Oh well, I'm trying. I'm gonna try to either way,

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Speaker 9: So all right, So I grew up in Minnesota. I

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Speaker 9: and then I started working as I live in Alaska. Bro,

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Speaker 2: What do you do there, dude?

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Speaker 9: I'm a pet crematorium person, so I like I burn

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Speaker 5: That sounds insanely depressing, dude, it's.

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Speaker 3: Not even that bad.

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Speaker 9: Like I'm you know, people can say that they I

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Speaker 5: How did you come upon this job? I'm curious. Did

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Speaker 9: This is my calling right here. For some reason, it

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Speaker 5: Honestly, when you say it's your calling.

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Speaker 9: You know, honestly, what is it about pet.

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Speaker 5: Crematorium that jives so well with you as a person?

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Speaker 5: Yeah, like yourself.

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Speaker 5: Have you always been this uh desensitized to the idea

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Speaker 8: Mm.

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Speaker 9: Do you think you could dismember a horse?

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Speaker 5: Absolutely not tonally I could dismember a horse. I think

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Speaker 9: Absolutely they would not mind at all.

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Speaker 5: M Do you do you ever want to, like, would

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Speaker 9: I would I would do people, but it's a completely

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Speaker 9: my gig now, but who knows.

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Speaker 7: We'll see.

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Speaker 5: Hm, Well, what'd you say? Your name was?

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Speaker 9: Marcus?

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Speaker 5: Marcus? I'm I'm very happy that you found your calling

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Speaker 5: and I wish you good luck in the future.

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Speaker 9: All right, I appreciate it. Have a good night you.

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Speaker 2: Too, Okay, caw from d K.

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Speaker 5: Donkey Kong.

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Speaker 11: Hello, Oh no, it's not Donkey Kong. It's shortened from

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Speaker 5: M So, donkey Kong. What were you doing right before

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Speaker 5: you called in?

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Speaker 11: I was watching the stream. I'm concerned about your gloves.

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Speaker 5: You know, everything, it's all, everything is more trouble than

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Speaker 5: Well look okay, but here's the thing you've got got past.

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Speaker 5: Your voice is, oh right, because of the echo. But

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Speaker 11: I can't even do that. And I'm supposed to be

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Speaker 5: Thank you very much, Thank you very very much. Are

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Speaker 11: I don't think that I'm particularly interesting, but I think

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Speaker 11: Uh and uh, you know, I was just a chick

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Speaker 11: Straight, Winnie the poo in it.

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Speaker 6: If you will.

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Speaker 11: It was like there was a Russian poker game across

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Speaker 10: He had nothing left to bet. He literally just had

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Speaker 11: I almost served him.

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Speaker 5: Why why didn't you?

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Speaker 11: Because one of the bar regulars kicked him out for me.

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Speaker 11: I guess I don't know what to do in those

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Speaker 6: I freeze up. I mean, like they.

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Speaker 5: They really need They really do need to amend that.

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Speaker 5: After that, They really do need to include a pants

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Speaker 11: That pot they do is because you can't skip that.

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Speaker 11: That's the one part that. Honestly, I would like to wait.

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Speaker 5: So he wasn't wearing underwear either.

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Speaker 11: I mean, I don't think though, but I really wasn't

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Speaker 5: Was the shirt long enough to cover his penis?

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Speaker 11: Oh yeah, the I was poking out. Nothing was poking

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Speaker 6: But I looked like twice.

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Speaker 5: Okay, so there was a positive. I mean, maybe there

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Speaker 5: but we just didn't know, right, or you know, you.

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Speaker 11: Just instead of a slong dong.

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Speaker 6: It was a slurt.

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Speaker 3: What's a slurt, it's a slort dong, or it's a

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Speaker 5: Oh yeah, I.

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Speaker 10: Feel like.

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Speaker 5: Hmm, no, I've never heard the term slirt. Maybe that's

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Speaker 5: a gen Z millennial thing that you're talking about.

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Speaker 11: Yeah, pick it up. It's it's kind of fun. It

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Speaker 5: But there we go. You you you are a gen

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Speaker 3: I guess so.

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Speaker 8: I don't know.

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Speaker 10: I'm ninety seven.

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Speaker 6: I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I don't know where that puts me.

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Speaker 11: Everybody tells me, I'm millennial. People tell me I'm gen z.

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Speaker 10: I don't know.

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Speaker 11: I don't know where it ends.

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Speaker 5: Well, listen, I don't know how much time you have

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Speaker 5: I hope you make the best of it.

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Speaker 11: I'm must okay, Yeah, No, you're right, You're right. You

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Speaker 2: All from Tasha, Tasha, gag?

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Speaker 5: What's up? Tashasha? Have we ever spoken before?

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Speaker 6: Hello?

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Speaker 5: Tasha?

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Speaker 10: Can you hear me?

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Speaker 5: How are you doing? Tasha?

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Speaker 8: I'm saying good?

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Speaker 10: How are you doing?

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Speaker 5: Greg doing good? What's your life like?

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 10: No, I think that was pretty fun?

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Speaker 5: It's pretty fun?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 5: What interesting? A lot of you know, when people are

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Speaker 5: asked the question of what their life is like, sometimes

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Speaker 5: they'll get bad or good. But rarely do I find

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Speaker 10: It one hundred percent like I like to. I don't know.

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Speaker 10: I try to bring optimism in as much as I possibly.

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Speaker 5: Can't really, So what's I mean? So you say your

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Speaker 5: life is fun? What's the most fun thing going on

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Speaker 10: Most of I mean honestly just the end of the well,

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Speaker 10: not the end of the pandemic, because it's clearly still happening.

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Speaker 10: But you know, people getting vaccinated, people starting to get

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Speaker 5: M hmmm. What's the what's what's What's something that you

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Speaker 10: Oh my gosh. Concerts, concerts, getting to go to lives

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Speaker 10: music shows.

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Speaker 8: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 5: Do when you go to concert do you do you typically?

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Speaker 5: Do you like go to punk doumash? Do you have

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Speaker 5: punched people in the face and ship you go hard? Oh?

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Speaker 10: Yeah, Like this reminds me of going to Travis Scott Like.

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Speaker 10: I have a very efflective music taste, So I could

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Speaker 10: be like front row at Taylor Swift, so excited. I

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Speaker 10: could be like out like ouscro world.

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Speaker 5: M hm, Tasha, are you interesting?

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Speaker 10: I'm absolutely interested.

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Speaker 5: You're absolutely interested.

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Speaker 12: Yes.

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Speaker 5: Everything you've said to that you say with such conviction.

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Speaker 5: I'd love to hear why you believe you're interesting.

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Speaker 10: I mean, I guess I just get told that a lot,

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Speaker 10: you literally have a story for everything, like anything like

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Speaker 10: fun that you could like possibly even do, like you've

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Speaker 10: done it, or you try.

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Speaker 5: To see someone told you that you've done every fun

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Speaker 10: Could possibly not every fun thing, but like he just always,

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Speaker 10: like every single time we bring something up, you always

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Speaker 6: To do with that.

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Speaker 5: Oh things, Well, Tasha, hit us tell us what's what's

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Speaker 5: what's what's the number one thing you got in your pocket?

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Speaker 8: Here?

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Speaker 10: He said, what's the number one?

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Speaker 5: Was the number one story you have in your arsenal?

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Speaker 10: Number one story?

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Speaker 3: Oh man?

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Speaker 10: Oh man, Hey ask me Canna, what do you think

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Speaker 10: to ask her because she'll know what's the best story

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Speaker 2: I mean.

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Speaker 10: You when I got oh no, okay, oh man. My sister,

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Speaker 10: my sister cols and talks to you all the time. Journey,

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Speaker 10: she just goes my journey she talks to you all

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Speaker 10: the time. That's how I even got to her journey. Okay,

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Speaker 10: so journey, Okay, so cool. Then I probably honestly all

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Speaker 10: duy crazy. N Yeah, I hit an ambulance, A part ambulance,

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Speaker 10: I should say, But I wouldn't even hit it. I

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Speaker 5: M And and what did you do after? Would you

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Speaker 10: No, it wasn't even at a hospital we were we

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Speaker 5: To I'm trying to put myself in that situation. I'm

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Speaker 10: Okay, let me give you like the small rundown.

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Speaker 5: Why yeah, what's the right?

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Speaker 10: We'd my best friend at the time, she was working

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Speaker 10: Like I get there and there's an ambulance that's parked

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Speaker 13: Bar was like, oh my gosh, guys, Tasha is out here,

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Speaker 5: Good. Yeah, well, I'm glad that that happened to you.

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Speaker 10: Oh yeah, definitely learn my lesson about drinking and driving.

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Speaker 5: I hope, I hope you choose not to do that again.

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Speaker 10: You know, yeah, definitely not. The cars don't even really

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Speaker 5: Can you drink and bike? Is that a thing?

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Speaker 10: No? You know, you can actually get a public and

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Speaker 5: Gosha, I think I think you might you might benefit

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Speaker 5: from doing some research into the teachings of Jesus Christ.

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Speaker 10: Oh, I grew up Mormon. So have you ever menatice

454
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Speaker 10: to talk about our Lord and Savior.

455
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Speaker 5: I'll talk to you soon, Nasha thinks, so much for

456
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Speaker 5: a good one.

457
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Speaker 2: Greg call from Jackson, Jackson, Missouri.

458
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Speaker 8: Hello, Hello, Hey, Hey, what's what's so? I can't hear you?

459
00:23:09,560 --> 00:23:10,199
Speaker 5: You can't hear me?

460
00:23:10,960 --> 00:23:12,919
Speaker 8: Wait? No, I can't. Hey, I'm here. No.

461
00:23:12,960 --> 00:23:14,159
Speaker 5: I just wasn't saying anything.

462
00:23:15,000 --> 00:23:16,760
Speaker 8: Oh Dan, you got me?

463
00:23:16,800 --> 00:23:17,040
Speaker 3: Good.

464
00:23:19,320 --> 00:23:21,200
Speaker 5: I don't think I got you.

465
00:23:21,240 --> 00:23:22,399
Speaker 8: No, I think you got me.

466
00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:25,240
Speaker 5: I wasn't trying to get you. What do you what

467
00:23:25,280 --> 00:23:26,919
Speaker 5: do you do? What? People always say that They're like,

468
00:23:26,960 --> 00:23:29,320
Speaker 5: oh we got we got them. That's like a big thing,

469
00:23:29,359 --> 00:23:31,960
Speaker 5: like got them? Why? What? What does that even mean?

470
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Speaker 8: I don't know. I don't really understand that either. I

471
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Speaker 8: just kind of said it because it just felt right

472
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Speaker 8: to say.

473
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Speaker 5: Why is hostility? Jackson? Can you answer the question why

474
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Speaker 5: is hostility and conflict so deeply ingrained in our culture?

475
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Speaker 6: Why?

476
00:23:51,200 --> 00:23:53,080
Speaker 5: I mean, I mean every why why does it always

477
00:23:53,119 --> 00:23:54,840
Speaker 5: have to be Oh, I got you. You know, why

478
00:23:54,840 --> 00:23:56,879
Speaker 5: why can't we just live in peace with one another?

479
00:23:56,920 --> 00:23:57,240
Speaker 6: Why?

480
00:23:57,359 --> 00:23:59,840
Speaker 5: Why is everyone always trying to get each other, assuming

481
00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:03,000
Speaker 5: everyone's out to get them? You know, why do we

482
00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:04,360
Speaker 5: live in a world like this? Jackson?

483
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Speaker 8: I think that.

484
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Speaker 3: I don't know.

485
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Speaker 8: I feel like it's got something to do. It's just

486
00:24:11,280 --> 00:24:17,720
Speaker 8: like just like natural tendencies, you know, like monkey days,

487
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Speaker 8: like you have more bananas than me, and I want

488
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Speaker 8: your bananas, so I'm going to take.

489
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Speaker 5: Them right right. It comes from very animalistic, non human

490
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Speaker 5: tendencies like fear, greed, anxiety. No, yeah, I feel that

491
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Speaker 5: animals get jealous of each other? Is that true? Like

492
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Speaker 5: do monkeys If two monkeys have bananas and one monkey

493
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Speaker 5: has more bananas than the other, just do the monkeys

494
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Speaker 5: get jealous?

495
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Speaker 8: I think they do. I think they do. If I

496
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Speaker 8: was a monkey, I would be jealous of other people's bananas.

497
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Speaker 8: But maybe I just say that because I'm a human

498
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Speaker 8: and I know what jealous is, right, right.

499
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Speaker 5: I almost feel like monkeys are too like the animals.

500
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Speaker 5: They're very in the moment creatures. Unlike humans. Humans tend

501
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:14,159
Speaker 5: that we overanalyze everything. We worry if we said the

502
00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:17,119
Speaker 5: wrong thing to the wrong person ten years ago. The monkey,

503
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Speaker 5: I don't know if it's doing that. I think it's

504
00:25:18,800 --> 00:25:20,879
Speaker 5: just eating the banana. I think that's all it's I

505
00:25:20,880 --> 00:25:26,200
Speaker 5: think the at the moment it's engaged in is the

506
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Speaker 5: only thing that exists for it during the duration of

507
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Speaker 5: that moment. It's not eating a monkey thinking about what

508
00:25:34,200 --> 00:25:36,399
Speaker 5: it's not. It's not eating a banana thinking about what

509
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Speaker 5: it has to do for the rest of the day.

510
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Speaker 5: Like you know, when you're at lunch and you're in

511
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Speaker 5: your house and you're like, what else do I have

512
00:25:42,600 --> 00:25:44,960
Speaker 5: to do today? And you're eating a sandwich. I don't

513
00:25:44,960 --> 00:25:46,879
Speaker 5: think the monkey does that. I think the monkey just

514
00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:48,960
Speaker 5: eats the thing and ships it out.

515
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Speaker 8: Yeah, I mean, I definitely agree. I think monkeys just

516
00:25:52,359 --> 00:25:53,240
Speaker 8: kind of live in the moment.

517
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Speaker 7: You know.

518
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Speaker 8: That's weirdly that like weirdly ties into what I wanted

519
00:25:57,640 --> 00:25:59,240
Speaker 8: to talk to you about real quick.

520
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Speaker 5: Please please, I'm sor happy to hear you as something

521
00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:01,920
Speaker 5: you want talking about.

522
00:26:02,280 --> 00:26:07,840
Speaker 8: Yeah, you know, so, I uh, I'm a guy, you know,

523
00:26:07,920 --> 00:26:11,720
Speaker 8: I'm I'm living my life. But I've I've realized over

524
00:26:11,760 --> 00:26:15,240
Speaker 8: the past few years, more and more in the past,

525
00:26:15,359 --> 00:26:20,359
Speaker 8: like in the past year. Yeah, I two things. I

526
00:26:20,440 --> 00:26:23,639
Speaker 8: care way too much about what other people think about me,

527
00:26:23,720 --> 00:26:28,080
Speaker 8: you know what I mean, And like it comes and goes.

528
00:26:28,119 --> 00:26:30,120
Speaker 8: You know, some days I'll wake up and I mean like, oh, yeah,

529
00:26:30,160 --> 00:26:32,119
Speaker 8: you know, I'm just gonna I'm gonna go out and

530
00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:33,840
Speaker 8: I'm gonna do whatever. I'm gonna wear whatever. It doesn't

531
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Speaker 8: matter because I don't give a fuck. And the other

532
00:26:36,200 --> 00:26:39,639
Speaker 8: days it's like, damn, it's like I really like this shirt,

533
00:26:39,720 --> 00:26:43,320
Speaker 8: but you know what if other people don't like this shirt,

534
00:26:43,320 --> 00:26:45,920
Speaker 8: I can't. I can't wear it, and it's it's kind

535
00:26:45,920 --> 00:26:49,720
Speaker 8: of annoying, you know, like it's just it gets old.

536
00:26:49,720 --> 00:26:51,480
Speaker 8: And then there's the same thing where it's like that

537
00:26:51,680 --> 00:26:57,440
Speaker 8: leads into me overthinking things. You know, It's like, oh,

538
00:26:57,520 --> 00:27:00,800
Speaker 8: maybe people will like this shirt, but you know what

539
00:27:00,800 --> 00:27:02,200
Speaker 8: if someone comes up to me is like, hey man,

540
00:27:02,240 --> 00:27:05,240
Speaker 8: your shirt fucking sucks, then I'm like, then I'm upset,

541
00:27:05,440 --> 00:27:07,440
Speaker 8: and I don't want to be upset, So why would

542
00:27:07,440 --> 00:27:09,000
Speaker 8: I wear this shirt? You know? You know that's a

543
00:27:09,119 --> 00:27:14,000
Speaker 8: very stupid example. But some along those lines, and I

544
00:27:14,040 --> 00:27:15,520
Speaker 8: don't really know what to do. I don't know how

545
00:27:15,520 --> 00:27:18,240
Speaker 8: to beause like you can tell people every day to

546
00:27:18,359 --> 00:27:21,600
Speaker 8: just like gain confidence and just be like, hey man,

547
00:27:21,680 --> 00:27:24,560
Speaker 8: you know, just be confident. It's like, oh, yes, I

548
00:27:24,600 --> 00:27:30,520
Speaker 8: am just magically more confident now. But you know, it's

549
00:27:30,880 --> 00:27:34,440
Speaker 8: it's it's it's it's a hard situation to to, like face,

550
00:27:34,520 --> 00:27:42,280
Speaker 8: I feel like, what do you think. I'm nineteen, so yeah,

551
00:27:42,320 --> 00:27:45,480
Speaker 8: well just got it in my first year of college.

552
00:27:46,240 --> 00:27:48,760
Speaker 5: I think, Uh well, first of all, I do think,

553
00:27:50,359 --> 00:27:53,159
Speaker 5: and I'm not. I'm not you know, I'm really not

554
00:27:53,200 --> 00:27:56,679
Speaker 5: that much older than you. But uh, you know, I

555
00:27:56,720 --> 00:27:59,880
Speaker 5: do think that as i've guys, I get older, muh,

556
00:28:01,600 --> 00:28:06,080
Speaker 5: I find it easier to uh, I find that that

557
00:28:06,280 --> 00:28:13,520
Speaker 5: skill gets easier. Yeah, you know. I mean it's funny

558
00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:15,240
Speaker 5: you say that. It's funny you say that you can't

559
00:28:15,320 --> 00:28:19,640
Speaker 5: just magically become confident. I mean, it's it's I thought

560
00:28:19,800 --> 00:28:21,240
Speaker 5: I was thinking while you were saying that. I was like,

561
00:28:21,280 --> 00:28:23,840
Speaker 5: that's like telling someone to just you know, if someone's

562
00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:26,399
Speaker 5: like out of shape physically, it's like telling them just

563
00:28:26,480 --> 00:28:29,560
Speaker 5: go be fit. It's like, you can't do that. You

564
00:28:29,600 --> 00:28:32,760
Speaker 5: gotta you gotta put in the reps, you gotta lift

565
00:28:32,840 --> 00:28:35,760
Speaker 5: the weights one by one. It's a gradual process. You

566
00:28:35,760 --> 00:28:41,080
Speaker 5: don't just wake up confident, you know. Yeah, I mean,

567
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Speaker 5: I've started to, like I in my own personal journey

568
00:28:46,040 --> 00:28:49,440
Speaker 5: towards caring less what other people think of me. And

569
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Speaker 5: I by no means have any sort of master or

570
00:28:52,080 --> 00:28:54,880
Speaker 5: even like good at it. But it's something I think

571
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Speaker 5: about constantly. That's I mean, that's kind of just the

572
00:28:58,600 --> 00:29:01,600
Speaker 5: thing is I think about it constantly. It always is

573
00:29:01,880 --> 00:29:03,640
Speaker 5: is a big prevalent goal of mine to not care

574
00:29:03,680 --> 00:29:06,560
Speaker 5: what other people think with me, and I try to

575
00:29:06,600 --> 00:29:15,040
Speaker 5: do little things, uh where I can to assert myself

576
00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 5: over you know, uh, regardless of the opinions of others.

577
00:29:22,560 --> 00:29:26,000
Speaker 5: For example, I was I wanted to do a gek

578
00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:35,840
Speaker 5: walk thing in public at fucking at this like little park.

579
00:29:37,240 --> 00:29:39,040
Speaker 5: I was gonna I was gonna do it. The fucking

580
00:29:39,040 --> 00:29:41,160
Speaker 5: technology didn't work, but I was nervous to do it

581
00:29:41,160 --> 00:29:44,600
Speaker 5: because I was nervous about like attracting attention as a

582
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:48,840
Speaker 5: get go WI Yeah, yeah, because it's inevitable. But then

583
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:51,520
Speaker 5: once I once I started to, once I got out

584
00:29:51,560 --> 00:29:55,360
Speaker 5: there and I just like jumped in the pool, I

585
00:29:55,400 --> 00:30:00,640
Speaker 5: almost started to like get very excited by the the

586
00:30:00,640 --> 00:30:02,840
Speaker 5: fact that I was doing it, if that makes sense.

587
00:30:02,920 --> 00:30:05,560
Speaker 8: Yeah, yeah, it's like you're you're a get go in

588
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:06,000
Speaker 8: a pool.

589
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Speaker 5: And you don't care right, right, the more you can

590
00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:16,440
Speaker 5: really lean into that and get something good from these reps,

591
00:30:16,480 --> 00:30:18,280
Speaker 5: It's like it's like when you pick up a weight

592
00:30:18,320 --> 00:30:21,400
Speaker 5: and you lift it, you don't immediately get what keeps

593
00:30:21,400 --> 00:30:22,800
Speaker 5: you picking up the weights is you get those like

594
00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:26,240
Speaker 5: endorphins right when you're exercising, and that's what keeps you

595
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:29,080
Speaker 5: to want to keep working out and eating right. You

596
00:30:29,080 --> 00:30:31,520
Speaker 5: get the endorphins. So you know, I would chase those

597
00:30:31,520 --> 00:30:35,400
Speaker 5: little things that you can do to speak your mind

598
00:30:35,560 --> 00:30:37,760
Speaker 5: or do whatever the thing is and you and when

599
00:30:37,800 --> 00:30:39,920
Speaker 5: you do those little things, I do think you'll get

600
00:30:40,560 --> 00:30:45,800
Speaker 5: a sense of adrenaline at the fact that you're doing

601
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:50,440
Speaker 5: your own thing, and that'll help carry you. I think,

602
00:30:50,720 --> 00:30:52,520
Speaker 5: what's let me give me an example. Let's do something

603
00:30:52,560 --> 00:30:55,600
Speaker 5: before before we go. I mean, what's something can I get,

604
00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:58,200
Speaker 5: like a concrete example of something you could do to

605
00:30:58,280 --> 00:31:01,560
Speaker 5: kind of get yourself out of your comfort zone in

606
00:31:01,560 --> 00:31:03,760
Speaker 5: that sense. Is there anything you've been wanting to do

607
00:31:03,800 --> 00:31:05,360
Speaker 5: but you're like, man, I'm not gonna do that because

608
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:11,880
Speaker 5: I'm afraid of people making fun of me. Honestly.

609
00:31:12,160 --> 00:31:13,600
Speaker 8: Yeah, I mean there's a few that come to mind.

610
00:31:13,640 --> 00:31:15,240
Speaker 8: I think the one that I think about the most

611
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:18,440
Speaker 8: because it's something that I've just regretted not doing my

612
00:31:18,480 --> 00:31:19,600
Speaker 8: freshman year of college.

613
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Speaker 2: You know.

614
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Speaker 8: I mean, I'm I'm a I'm a I go to parties,

615
00:31:24,400 --> 00:31:27,280
Speaker 8: you know. So I'm a fairly popular guy. So one

616
00:31:27,280 --> 00:31:29,680
Speaker 8: of my issues is whenever I go to parties, I

617
00:31:29,400 --> 00:31:31,000
Speaker 8: got I go with my friends. I don't. I'm not

618
00:31:31,080 --> 00:31:33,080
Speaker 8: like the the one guy that just shows up and

619
00:31:33,120 --> 00:31:37,560
Speaker 8: definitely know anybody. But I find that going to parties

620
00:31:37,600 --> 00:31:40,480
Speaker 8: with like people that you know really well sort of

621
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:44,160
Speaker 8: restricts me in a way where like I like only

622
00:31:44,320 --> 00:31:47,040
Speaker 8: really talk to them, like we'll just like like it's

623
00:31:47,080 --> 00:31:48,480
Speaker 8: not like we're just like standing in a corner like

624
00:31:48,520 --> 00:31:51,040
Speaker 8: awkwardly by ourselves. Like we'll still talk to the new people.

625
00:31:51,600 --> 00:31:53,600
Speaker 8: But it's I see like some of my friends that

626
00:31:53,640 --> 00:31:56,120
Speaker 8: can just walk up to like like let's say a

627
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Speaker 8: group of like five girls and it's like two guys

628
00:31:58,480 --> 00:31:59,600
Speaker 8: and they just walk up and the like and then

629
00:31:59,640 --> 00:32:01,840
Speaker 8: they start talking to him, and like that's just not

630
00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:04,400
Speaker 8: something that I've found like I've been able to do,

631
00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:06,440
Speaker 8: you know, Like I see that, I'm like, ya, I

632
00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:08,160
Speaker 8: really wish I could do that. But then I just

633
00:32:08,400 --> 00:32:11,200
Speaker 8: I think about it and I'm like, well, what if

634
00:32:11,240 --> 00:32:15,000
Speaker 8: it doesn't go well? And thinking about it now, it's like, like,

635
00:32:15,040 --> 00:32:16,760
Speaker 8: why does it matter if it doesn't go well, I'll

636
00:32:16,800 --> 00:32:19,200
Speaker 8: just move on, just go talk to other new people.

637
00:32:19,640 --> 00:32:23,680
Speaker 8: But then I like, I take those like bad experiences

638
00:32:23,680 --> 00:32:26,120
Speaker 8: and then I kind of just like I think about

639
00:32:26,160 --> 00:32:28,280
Speaker 8: them like all the time, and I think like, oh,

640
00:32:28,320 --> 00:32:30,200
Speaker 8: what could have done better? Which is a good thing,

641
00:32:30,800 --> 00:32:33,640
Speaker 8: until like I just overthink it and I'm like, well,

642
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:35,240
Speaker 8: there's nothing I could have done better. That's just how

643
00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:38,040
Speaker 8: any anything like that is going to go. So I

644
00:32:38,120 --> 00:32:41,760
Speaker 8: might as well not even try. And I found that's

645
00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:45,880
Speaker 8: probably one thing that I could, you know, attempt a

646
00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:46,400
Speaker 8: bit more.

647
00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:49,920
Speaker 5: Yeah. Yeah, I By the way, I think that going

648
00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:55,120
Speaker 5: to social events alone terrifying, of course, but a great

649
00:32:55,680 --> 00:32:58,480
Speaker 5: I mean, if if you can do that, and then yeah,

650
00:32:59,520 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 5: if you can and if you can do that and

651
00:33:01,240 --> 00:33:05,640
Speaker 5: maneuver your way into a group of people and and

652
00:33:06,080 --> 00:33:09,400
Speaker 5: managed to have a good night, you'll feel amazing afterwards.

653
00:33:09,400 --> 00:33:12,440
Speaker 5: You'll you'll feel so like, you know, hell, yeah I

654
00:33:12,480 --> 00:33:14,400
Speaker 5: was able to do that and need my other friends,

655
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:19,200
Speaker 5: I was able to just find the fun on my own, right,

656
00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:21,400
Speaker 5: I tell you, it's super It's it's It's a super

657
00:33:21,480 --> 00:33:25,480
Speaker 5: rewarding feeling to be able to do that. Mm hmmm.

658
00:33:26,440 --> 00:33:29,360
Speaker 5: I think you should try it, man. I think jump

659
00:33:29,360 --> 00:33:29,920
Speaker 5: into the pool.

660
00:33:30,760 --> 00:33:32,960
Speaker 8: I think I need to just become a get go

661
00:33:33,040 --> 00:33:35,600
Speaker 8: in a pool and just that not care.

662
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:38,360
Speaker 5: When's when's the next when's the next big party?

663
00:33:39,320 --> 00:33:39,640
Speaker 11: Uh?

664
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Speaker 8: Actually on Friday, which is which is weird. Like I'm

665
00:33:43,720 --> 00:33:46,800
Speaker 8: home from college so like, and my college is like

666
00:33:46,800 --> 00:33:49,080
Speaker 8: four hours away from me, so I wasn't really expecting

667
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:51,280
Speaker 8: going down there to go to any parties. But one

668
00:33:51,280 --> 00:33:56,400
Speaker 8: of my friends is hosting a party at his aunt's

669
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Speaker 8: house on Friday, and it's like an hour and a

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Speaker 8: half away, and I was like, well as well go,

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Speaker 8: So I guess.

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Speaker 5: That's there like with all of her friends.

673
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Speaker 8: And she's in Hawaii. I don't know if she knows

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Speaker 8: that this is happening.

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Speaker 5: We'll go have fun, go buy your I mean go,

676
00:34:16,640 --> 00:34:18,399
Speaker 5: you know, I assume if it's your friend at home,

677
00:34:18,440 --> 00:34:19,759
Speaker 5: it lives half an hour away. I don't know if

678
00:34:19,760 --> 00:34:21,480
Speaker 5: there's other people that you would go with anyway, but

679
00:34:22,360 --> 00:34:24,239
Speaker 5: that sounds like a great opportunity to try this out.

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Speaker 8: Man. Yeah, I think I will just talk to random

681
00:34:28,120 --> 00:34:31,080
Speaker 8: people because why not, you know, what's the worst.

682
00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:34,920
Speaker 5: Could you gotta think about how fucking big the universe is?

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00:34:36,080 --> 00:34:36,279
Speaker 2: You know?

684
00:34:36,480 --> 00:34:40,359
Speaker 5: Yeah, it doesn't matter, right, We're all gonna do now

685
00:34:41,200 --> 00:34:43,680
Speaker 5: and by the way, and by the way and by

686
00:34:43,719 --> 00:34:47,400
Speaker 5: the way. Other I've had this sometimes sometimes I'm the

687
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Speaker 5: guy that I've been like at a bar, at a thing,

688
00:34:50,160 --> 00:34:52,239
Speaker 5: where like I'm the guy that like a person goes

689
00:34:52,239 --> 00:34:55,000
Speaker 5: out of their way to like talk to, like their

690
00:34:55,000 --> 00:34:58,200
Speaker 5: first guy. I always make one hundred percent sure that

691
00:34:58,320 --> 00:35:00,160
Speaker 5: I want to make sure if someone does that me,

692
00:35:00,200 --> 00:35:05,560
Speaker 5: I'm rewarding them by reciprocating the energy. And it's almost

693
00:35:05,600 --> 00:35:07,520
Speaker 5: a weeding thing because everyone that you go out and

694
00:35:07,560 --> 00:35:09,239
Speaker 5: try to talk to, if you've got to try to

695
00:35:09,239 --> 00:35:12,239
Speaker 5: talk to stranger and they're reciprocal in your energy, that's

696
00:35:12,239 --> 00:35:15,799
Speaker 5: a person worth talking to. And if you're not, then

697
00:35:15,840 --> 00:35:17,879
Speaker 5: maybe they're not a person worth talking to, in which

698
00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:19,960
Speaker 5: case who cares? When I we're talking to you know

699
00:35:20,000 --> 00:35:20,439
Speaker 5: what I'm saying.

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Speaker 8: Yeah, it's like it's like if you're not willing to

701
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Speaker 8: put in the same amount of energy as I am, especially,

702
00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:28,960
Speaker 8: it's like I'm initiating the conversation, Like why would I

703
00:35:29,000 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 8: even thought I even bother?

704
00:35:31,160 --> 00:35:32,879
Speaker 5: Well, listen, Jackson Man, I wish you good luck.

705
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Speaker 7: Thanks.

706
00:35:34,480 --> 00:35:36,680
Speaker 8: You know, I'll try and call in again soon and

707
00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:38,560
Speaker 8: give you an update hopefully.

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Speaker 5: Hit hit man luck, Go make a ton of friends,

709
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Speaker 5: Go talk to a dog. I'll see you soon in Jackson.

710
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Speaker 8: Thanks Lole, I appreciate it. We're gonna have a nice night.

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Speaker 5: back to the calls.

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Speaker 2: All from peanut Butter.

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Speaker 3: Peanut Butter, whoa, who whoa, whoa, Oh my god, yo, hello,

726
00:36:45,719 --> 00:36:50,839
Speaker 3: hi everything, I'm eating chicken tendies. My dude, Tyson style.

727
00:36:52,280 --> 00:36:53,600
Speaker 5: You're eating chicken tendies.

728
00:36:54,640 --> 00:36:56,759
Speaker 3: Yes, sir, you got me on to them.

729
00:36:56,800 --> 00:37:00,919
Speaker 5: Actually really, I feel yeah, I'm so sorry. Please don't

730
00:37:00,920 --> 00:37:03,120
Speaker 5: blame me for all the health issues that you're gonna face.

731
00:37:03,960 --> 00:37:06,839
Speaker 3: It's okay, dude, it's the best. I used to have

732
00:37:06,880 --> 00:37:10,840
Speaker 3: the dinosaur nuggets. Yeah, but these hits different.

733
00:37:12,320 --> 00:37:14,360
Speaker 5: I feel like I used to. I feel like I

734
00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:20,200
Speaker 5: had to start eating real food. Like what, I don't

735
00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:22,719
Speaker 5: know what a normal I'm not like a normal guy,

736
00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:26,239
Speaker 5: am I? What are like a normal you know, like

737
00:37:26,280 --> 00:37:31,960
Speaker 5: a like a Norman man with like who's like walking

738
00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:35,799
Speaker 5: around and goes to work and is has like you

739
00:37:35,840 --> 00:37:39,000
Speaker 5: know what dog? What does he eat?

740
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Speaker 8: Huh?

741
00:37:44,680 --> 00:37:46,600
Speaker 5: Salmon chick?

742
00:37:47,280 --> 00:37:47,680
Speaker 2: Yeah?

743
00:37:48,480 --> 00:37:52,520
Speaker 5: A normal human person eat brouh.

744
00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:56,000
Speaker 3: First thing I went to was meats. Yeah, you have

745
00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:59,719
Speaker 3: to have the meats. Go to Arby's. Arby sounds like

746
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:02,200
Speaker 3: a man. Replace people don't eat.

747
00:38:02,680 --> 00:38:07,560
Speaker 5: It's like normal people don't eat. I'm talking about like

748
00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:10,120
Speaker 5: like like my dad doesn't eat Arby's. You know, he's

749
00:38:10,160 --> 00:38:11,880
Speaker 5: like he'll like eat fish.

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Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, my dad doesn't go to fish too.

751
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Speaker 6: Uh.

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Speaker 3: I don't know, dude. My dad's from Pakistan he likes

753
00:38:24,040 --> 00:38:27,919
Speaker 3: that oily ship like that. They like they like their

754
00:38:28,200 --> 00:38:29,200
Speaker 3: soul food.

755
00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:34,279
Speaker 5: That what does Pakistani soul food like?

756
00:38:37,160 --> 00:38:40,360
Speaker 3: Rihanni is the main dish, my guy. That's like a

757
00:38:40,400 --> 00:38:43,560
Speaker 3: little bit of everything in there, and I fucking hate

758
00:38:43,600 --> 00:38:47,319
Speaker 3: it because there's these little peppercorns in there, little black

759
00:38:47,360 --> 00:38:49,840
Speaker 3: balls of destruction. You bite into one of those, that

760
00:38:49,960 --> 00:38:54,160
Speaker 3: runs the whole dish. I can't even drink water. It's

761
00:38:54,239 --> 00:38:58,239
Speaker 3: just like makes your mouth super spicy. Then again, that's

762
00:38:58,280 --> 00:39:00,880
Speaker 3: the whole thing, like the whole Yeah, I love spicy,

763
00:39:00,960 --> 00:39:03,600
Speaker 3: but this is a different thing, dude. Peppercorn spicy is

764
00:39:03,680 --> 00:39:07,440
Speaker 3: nothing to fuck with, nothing, just invade your mouth. No,

765
00:39:07,520 --> 00:39:09,080
Speaker 3: why on mm hmm?

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Speaker 6: What other food?

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Speaker 3: Let's see. My dad really likes this combo rice uh

768
00:39:19,840 --> 00:39:25,040
Speaker 3: and uh. It's called doll which is like entels and

769
00:39:25,040 --> 00:39:31,839
Speaker 3: and keema kima is ground beef. It's really nice. Put

770
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Speaker 3: that all together in one dish. It's the best. I think.

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Speaker 3: That's what you ever?

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Speaker 5: Have you ever been to Pakistan?

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Speaker 2: Bro?

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Speaker 3: I want to go. They all went without me last year,

775
00:39:41,200 --> 00:39:45,840
Speaker 3: like six months. I was by myself, that's u. Yeah,

776
00:39:45,960 --> 00:39:49,120
Speaker 3: for a wedding at school. No no, no, no, no, this

777
00:39:49,400 --> 00:39:50,759
Speaker 3: was it left me for six months.

778
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Speaker 8: It's like.

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Speaker 3: Two years ago.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, wait they oh, they wait two years ago. They

781
00:39:56,360 --> 00:39:58,600
Speaker 5: went to Pakistan for six months without you?

782
00:39:58,840 --> 00:39:59,920
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, yeah without me?

783
00:40:00,640 --> 00:40:02,120
Speaker 5: Why did why did they go? Why did they go

784
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Speaker 5: without you?

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00:40:04,360 --> 00:40:09,359
Speaker 3: My sister had a sitter, so they meant to go

786
00:40:09,640 --> 00:40:10,239
Speaker 3: check them out and.

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Speaker 5: Stuff for six months.

788
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Speaker 3: Yeah dude, I'm exaggerating. Its four months now that I

789
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Speaker 3: think about it. By the way, it's fucking fantastic to

790
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Speaker 3: talk to you. This is cool.

791
00:40:21,040 --> 00:40:23,040
Speaker 5: Oh yeah, dude, it's nice to talk to you too.

792
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Speaker 8: Man.

793
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Speaker 5: Yeah, I've always wanted to visit like the Middle East.

794
00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:33,640
Speaker 3: Mm hmm. I went to Saudi Arabia. Actually, yeah, I

795
00:40:33,680 --> 00:40:39,200
Speaker 3: went there. I went there for pilgrimage, not like the

796
00:40:39,239 --> 00:40:42,279
Speaker 3: official one. The official one is called hedge. But I

797
00:40:42,320 --> 00:40:45,640
Speaker 3: did Omrah, which is omrah. You could do any any

798
00:40:45,680 --> 00:40:50,440
Speaker 3: time of the year. And if you're talking about blessings, wise,

799
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Speaker 3: I get like half the blessings for doing so it's

800
00:40:53,080 --> 00:40:56,600
Speaker 3: still pretty good. That's pretty good, but it's not good

801
00:40:56,640 --> 00:40:57,279
Speaker 3: as the real deal.

802
00:40:57,600 --> 00:40:59,960
Speaker 5: So yeah, what's the real what's the real blessing?

803
00:41:01,040 --> 00:41:06,479
Speaker 3: Well, I got the blessing where supposedly if you do

804
00:41:06,560 --> 00:41:10,480
Speaker 3: all the things, because pilgrimage is you basically replicating some

805
00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:14,879
Speaker 3: biblical shit that happened right into five days, Like there's

806
00:41:15,080 --> 00:41:17,759
Speaker 3: different events that you do each day. So I did that.

807
00:41:18,320 --> 00:41:20,680
Speaker 3: At the end of it, you go to the big

808
00:41:20,719 --> 00:41:23,680
Speaker 3: black box, which is the Tabat, which is the message

809
00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:28,560
Speaker 3: that was built by Abraham, and so did that. And

810
00:41:28,600 --> 00:41:31,560
Speaker 3: then after you're done with everything, you have the option

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Speaker 3: to shave your head. And I had like hair down

812
00:41:34,760 --> 00:41:36,640
Speaker 3: to my shoulders and I wasn't going to cut it.

813
00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:40,480
Speaker 3: But then some shift, like last minute, while I was

814
00:41:40,520 --> 00:41:42,320
Speaker 3: about to finish my stuff, you like tap me on

815
00:41:42,360 --> 00:41:45,640
Speaker 3: the shoulder that you're going to compare, and I had

816
00:41:45,680 --> 00:41:48,120
Speaker 3: to at that point, so I just shaved my head.

817
00:41:48,600 --> 00:41:50,719
Speaker 3: And so anyways, the point is after you finish all

818
00:41:50,719 --> 00:41:52,640
Speaker 3: of that, supposed to be you're born with a new

819
00:41:52,680 --> 00:41:54,240
Speaker 3: heart or your heart is clean.

820
00:41:55,520 --> 00:41:58,440
Speaker 5: So you were symbolically born with a new heart.

821
00:41:58,680 --> 00:42:01,279
Speaker 3: Yeah, it felt weird coming back. I cried the second date.

822
00:42:02,920 --> 00:42:05,960
Speaker 3: It felt weird. Yeah, like just a realization because like

823
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:09,600
Speaker 3: I put on a little like Quran while I was

824
00:42:09,680 --> 00:42:13,000
Speaker 3: driving home and then it just felt like the real deal,

825
00:42:14,360 --> 00:42:15,879
Speaker 3: And I don't know, it kind of took me back

826
00:42:15,880 --> 00:42:20,640
Speaker 3: to uh, back into Saudi Arabia because like I was

827
00:42:20,680 --> 00:42:23,040
Speaker 3: at the I was at the place, you know, like

828
00:42:23,120 --> 00:42:26,600
Speaker 3: I even touched the cavern everything. It was a very

829
00:42:26,719 --> 00:42:29,360
Speaker 3: very cool experience because you know, you go there and

830
00:42:29,400 --> 00:42:33,880
Speaker 3: you just pour everything that you want in this world

831
00:42:34,200 --> 00:42:37,040
Speaker 3: and hope that hope for the best. And it was

832
00:42:37,080 --> 00:42:38,640
Speaker 3: really cool to put that energy out there.

833
00:42:39,640 --> 00:42:42,400
Speaker 5: You pour everything you want for this world. When you

834
00:42:42,440 --> 00:42:45,319
Speaker 5: say you said poor, did I get that word right?

835
00:42:46,320 --> 00:42:47,720
Speaker 3: Yeah?

836
00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:50,799
Speaker 5: Into into the this this process.

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00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:55,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, into the process, because well before you go even

838
00:42:55,520 --> 00:42:57,239
Speaker 3: there's a bunch of stuff that you're supposed to do,

839
00:42:57,280 --> 00:43:01,400
Speaker 3: like make amends with people that you had problems with

840
00:43:01,640 --> 00:43:04,760
Speaker 3: or anything, just so you're going in there with clear intentions.

841
00:43:05,040 --> 00:43:08,200
Speaker 3: I think that's what most of my Islam. By the way, guys,

842
00:43:08,200 --> 00:43:11,520
Speaker 3: I'm Muslim, so most of the religion is about your intention.

843
00:43:12,920 --> 00:43:17,640
Speaker 5: M what do you what do you feel like you

844
00:43:17,680 --> 00:43:21,000
Speaker 5: were putting in when you say you were pouring yourself

845
00:43:21,000 --> 00:43:21,920
Speaker 5: into the experience.

846
00:43:22,840 --> 00:43:26,080
Speaker 3: Uh, well, you know, I was twenty at the time,

847
00:43:26,239 --> 00:43:29,400
Speaker 3: so I felt kind of lost. I had like my

848
00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:33,160
Speaker 3: first quarter life crisis at that point. And it was

849
00:43:33,239 --> 00:43:35,040
Speaker 3: really weird the fact that I even got to go

850
00:43:35,080 --> 00:43:40,279
Speaker 3: because I was at a banquet dinner for something and

851
00:43:40,560 --> 00:43:45,080
Speaker 3: I got I bought a raffle ticket for the end,

852
00:43:45,200 --> 00:43:47,640
Speaker 3: and they raffled off a free trip to go make

853
00:43:47,640 --> 00:43:50,960
Speaker 3: Omrah and I won that. So that's how I ended

854
00:43:51,040 --> 00:43:52,320
Speaker 3: up going in the first place.

855
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Speaker 6: You know.

856
00:43:52,800 --> 00:43:55,200
Speaker 3: So I was like just a super depressed person, like

857
00:43:55,400 --> 00:43:57,440
Speaker 3: just looking around and I was like, why does everyone

858
00:43:57,480 --> 00:43:59,399
Speaker 3: always have to say how are you? Why is at

859
00:43:59,400 --> 00:44:02,239
Speaker 3: the first quest and people ask that question that you

860
00:44:02,280 --> 00:44:05,239
Speaker 3: can care And then next thing, I'm over there and

861
00:44:05,280 --> 00:44:10,040
Speaker 3: I'm all those questions that I had, those frustrations actually

862
00:44:10,160 --> 00:44:13,640
Speaker 3: is what I poured into it, you know, mm hm.

863
00:44:13,640 --> 00:44:16,279
Speaker 5: So you sort of poured in all of your pessimism

864
00:44:16,360 --> 00:44:17,600
Speaker 5: about the worlds.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, because I was something for a brother day a little.

866
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Speaker 5: Bit more about the way that you were pessimistic, Like

867
00:44:25,600 --> 00:44:30,760
Speaker 5: what do you mean by like just everyone going about

868
00:44:30,800 --> 00:44:31,319
Speaker 5: their day?

869
00:44:32,520 --> 00:44:37,360
Speaker 3: So, well, what happened to me was I lost someone. Yeah, okay,

870
00:44:37,400 --> 00:44:40,520
Speaker 3: so I lost someone close to me, my aunt, and

871
00:44:40,640 --> 00:44:41,400
Speaker 3: that's never.

872
00:44:41,480 --> 00:44:42,080
Speaker 2: Happened to me.

873
00:44:42,680 --> 00:44:45,600
Speaker 3: So then I went back to college and you know,

874
00:44:45,840 --> 00:44:49,880
Speaker 3: I had to do everything normal and I didn't feel normal.

875
00:44:50,520 --> 00:44:53,480
Speaker 3: And I'm not the type of person to reflect on

876
00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:55,840
Speaker 3: my emotions, you know, at that point in my life.

877
00:44:55,960 --> 00:44:57,360
Speaker 3: You know, I think I'm better at it now. I

878
00:44:57,400 --> 00:45:00,200
Speaker 3: write down things, but at that point, you know, just

879
00:45:00,280 --> 00:45:02,560
Speaker 3: ignore and move on. And next thing, you know, I

880
00:45:02,600 --> 00:45:05,640
Speaker 3: have like sweaty palms while I'm typing on my computer,

881
00:45:05,840 --> 00:45:08,520
Speaker 3: and there's all these signs that my body is physically

882
00:45:08,560 --> 00:45:11,200
Speaker 3: not okay. But I just kind of ignored those things

883
00:45:11,200 --> 00:45:14,960
Speaker 3: for a while. And you're asking why it's pessimistic about

884
00:45:16,239 --> 00:45:18,799
Speaker 3: other people asking me are you okay? And everything. It's

885
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:22,800
Speaker 3: because I couldn't be honest, you know, and people don't

886
00:45:22,840 --> 00:45:26,480
Speaker 3: want you to be honest in that situation sometimes, So

887
00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:30,560
Speaker 3: every single time it was like a reminder, click, you know,

888
00:45:30,840 --> 00:45:31,520
Speaker 3: I'm not okay.

889
00:45:32,200 --> 00:45:34,600
Speaker 5: So how did you feel at that point, the situation

890
00:45:34,680 --> 00:45:38,000
Speaker 5: that the the the ceremony.

891
00:45:38,800 --> 00:45:45,040
Speaker 3: That's just a ceremony. Well, after everything came back, you know,

892
00:45:45,440 --> 00:45:50,120
Speaker 3: like even driving down the street was like a new experience,

893
00:45:50,160 --> 00:45:52,840
Speaker 3: you know, like it was a bright day, nice colors

894
00:45:52,840 --> 00:46:00,560
Speaker 3: to look at. So you kind of, yes, you're right

895
00:46:00,560 --> 00:46:00,880
Speaker 3: about that.

896
00:46:01,080 --> 00:46:06,960
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's cool. It's always good to have experiences that

897
00:46:08,520 --> 00:46:11,640
Speaker 5: bring it back to what matters, which is really looking

898
00:46:11,640 --> 00:46:15,960
Speaker 5: at the things that you're seeing and breathing and hearing,

899
00:46:16,400 --> 00:46:18,640
Speaker 5: because you always have those things. I feel like, unless

900
00:46:18,640 --> 00:46:22,279
Speaker 5: if you're dead, you always have kind of your own

901
00:46:22,360 --> 00:46:28,400
Speaker 5: senses and your own experience of life. Even if you

902
00:46:28,400 --> 00:46:30,560
Speaker 5: don't always have all the people in your life or

903
00:46:31,239 --> 00:46:34,560
Speaker 5: all the things in your life, you always have life itself.

904
00:46:35,280 --> 00:46:35,680
Speaker 5: I guess.

905
00:46:35,960 --> 00:46:36,160
Speaker 14: Yeah.

906
00:46:37,960 --> 00:46:42,680
Speaker 3: You know what's weird is, you know, talking about my aunt.

907
00:46:43,719 --> 00:46:46,640
Speaker 3: I only think about her from time to time, and

908
00:46:46,680 --> 00:46:48,920
Speaker 3: that makes me sad, you know, because you wish that

909
00:46:49,239 --> 00:46:52,319
Speaker 3: you could think about people you lost more often, but

910
00:46:52,560 --> 00:46:54,160
Speaker 3: you know, they only come to your mind once in

911
00:46:54,200 --> 00:46:57,840
Speaker 3: a while, especially when you're moving on and doing other stuff.

912
00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:04,239
Speaker 3: And I cried because I had a stressful day the

913
00:47:04,280 --> 00:47:09,960
Speaker 3: other day and I wrote down a letter to her.

914
00:47:10,200 --> 00:47:13,360
Speaker 3: You know, it was just any thought that I thought

915
00:47:13,840 --> 00:47:16,120
Speaker 3: sounded like a good sentence went down on the paper,

916
00:47:16,719 --> 00:47:18,800
Speaker 3: and then I just put it away, and I felt

917
00:47:19,400 --> 00:47:19,920
Speaker 3: a time.

918
00:47:20,080 --> 00:47:22,319
Speaker 8: A lot better, like shit done better?

919
00:47:22,600 --> 00:47:23,600
Speaker 3: Was it was pretty good?

920
00:47:24,920 --> 00:47:27,719
Speaker 5: I like that? What do you and you know, looking

921
00:47:27,800 --> 00:47:31,080
Speaker 5: not to share anything uncomfortable sharing, but what what sorts

922
00:47:31,080 --> 00:47:32,760
Speaker 5: of things did you talk about in the letter?

923
00:47:34,880 --> 00:47:39,040
Speaker 3: I can pull it out? Shit, yeah, okay, I don't mind.

924
00:47:39,360 --> 00:47:42,160
Speaker 3: This is the first page in this letter or in

925
00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:46,320
Speaker 3: this journal that I've been looking at for like two years.

926
00:47:46,360 --> 00:47:51,359
Speaker 3: And then on Tuesday, June fifteenth, which was two days ago,

927
00:47:51,520 --> 00:47:56,440
Speaker 3: I wrote in it for the first time. Uh yeah, Aunty,

928
00:47:57,040 --> 00:48:01,759
Speaker 3: I miss you today, wasn't a I hate that I

929
00:48:01,800 --> 00:48:05,879
Speaker 3: need to wait to die to see you again. It's

930
00:48:05,920 --> 00:48:09,800
Speaker 3: cruel and it hurts to think about it. I rarely

931
00:48:10,120 --> 00:48:15,839
Speaker 3: cry about anything besides you. It's been almost three years.

932
00:48:16,440 --> 00:48:17,520
Speaker 4: The worst part about.

933
00:48:17,280 --> 00:48:21,160
Speaker 3: My birthday is that one week after I always think

934
00:48:21,200 --> 00:48:25,160
Speaker 3: about it, you passed away seven days after the day

935
00:48:25,239 --> 00:48:30,359
Speaker 3: I was born. It hurts. Today is one of those

936
00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:33,840
Speaker 3: rare days that I pray about you. I'm upset because

937
00:48:33,960 --> 00:48:38,520
Speaker 3: I lack control of chaos around me. I think it's

938
00:48:38,560 --> 00:48:43,160
Speaker 3: the same way I felt that day I said goodbye

939
00:48:43,160 --> 00:48:47,320
Speaker 3: to you, the day you passed away, and I remember

940
00:48:47,400 --> 00:48:50,600
Speaker 3: being angry that you let me do that. It's a

941
00:48:50,600 --> 00:48:54,520
Speaker 3: stupid thing to feel, I know, and I never want

942
00:48:54,520 --> 00:48:58,760
Speaker 3: to forget your face, your voice, your hair, your sunglasses.

943
00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:04,879
Speaker 3: Miss you very much. I miss you so much. Thank

944
00:49:04,920 --> 00:49:07,040
Speaker 3: you for loving me when I was ignorant and had

945
00:49:07,080 --> 00:49:10,640
Speaker 3: no feelings. I most definitely did not appreciate you enough,

946
00:49:11,239 --> 00:49:13,759
Speaker 3: and I'm sorry I never showed you how much you

947
00:49:13,840 --> 00:49:16,319
Speaker 3: mean to me. I wish I could cry about you

948
00:49:16,360 --> 00:49:19,560
Speaker 3: all the time. So you're always on my mind. You're

949
00:49:19,560 --> 00:49:21,279
Speaker 3: the first person I want to see when I get

950
00:49:21,280 --> 00:49:27,040
Speaker 3: to Heaven. Signed your favorite nephew because I'm my only nephew,

951
00:49:27,520 --> 00:49:28,960
Speaker 3: so kind of makes sense, right.

952
00:49:30,480 --> 00:49:34,960
Speaker 5: So yeah, the piction, Thank you for sharing that with us.

953
00:49:35,000 --> 00:49:39,880
Speaker 5: You mentioned you feel you feel more in control of

954
00:49:39,880 --> 00:49:43,600
Speaker 5: the chaos around you now, No, because.

955
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:46,000
Speaker 3: That day that I wrote that down was a bad day,

956
00:49:46,360 --> 00:49:49,480
Speaker 3: and specifically because I didn't have control of.

957
00:49:49,520 --> 00:49:50,200
Speaker 8: Everything around me.

958
00:49:50,280 --> 00:49:53,360
Speaker 3: I was working at my dad's liquor store, and I

959
00:49:53,360 --> 00:49:55,640
Speaker 3: should have read the situation right. The dude came in

960
00:49:55,680 --> 00:49:58,279
Speaker 3: with that purpole backwards backpack. I was like, I know,

961
00:49:58,400 --> 00:50:02,560
Speaker 3: hoodie on. He took like a bottle of wine and

962
00:50:02,920 --> 00:50:05,400
Speaker 3: beer and I even said hello to him. Make that

963
00:50:05,480 --> 00:50:09,360
Speaker 3: I in contact support it, you know. And dude was

964
00:50:09,400 --> 00:50:12,600
Speaker 3: walking down the aisle awkward and then did like a

965
00:50:12,600 --> 00:50:15,040
Speaker 3: little shuffle and then smiled at me and ran out

966
00:50:15,080 --> 00:50:17,799
Speaker 3: the door. So I have a plexico ass in front

967
00:50:17,840 --> 00:50:19,919
Speaker 3: of me. So I did like a dolphin dive through

968
00:50:19,920 --> 00:50:21,920
Speaker 3: the counter to get to the other side, grabbed my

969
00:50:22,000 --> 00:50:25,160
Speaker 3: phone and then thought the flash on and went after

970
00:50:25,239 --> 00:50:27,000
Speaker 3: him because I said, you know what's good Today is

971
00:50:27,040 --> 00:50:28,520
Speaker 3: the day where I'm going to go after one of

972
00:50:28,560 --> 00:50:30,719
Speaker 3: them today, and it's usually a dangerous thing because you

973
00:50:30,719 --> 00:50:34,600
Speaker 3: never want anything or show any aggression because then they

974
00:50:34,640 --> 00:50:36,920
Speaker 3: know where you are. So I said, you know, at

975
00:50:37,000 --> 00:50:39,160
Speaker 3: least I could give them a run for their money.

976
00:50:39,440 --> 00:50:41,640
Speaker 3: So I was running after them, yelling at him. And

977
00:50:41,680 --> 00:50:43,799
Speaker 3: I did track in high school, so these guys were

978
00:50:43,880 --> 00:50:45,880
Speaker 3: kind of slow, and so I told him that, and

979
00:50:45,920 --> 00:50:49,000
Speaker 3: then I told him run, run, run, and the reverse

980
00:50:49,000 --> 00:50:53,000
Speaker 3: psychology kicked in and they started turning around and I

981
00:50:53,040 --> 00:50:55,480
Speaker 3: was like, perfect, take your mask down, let me see

982
00:50:55,480 --> 00:50:58,120
Speaker 3: your face. Then they get a better picture of you.

983
00:50:58,800 --> 00:51:02,080
Speaker 3: And then they said, are running some more. But then

984
00:51:02,120 --> 00:51:04,600
Speaker 3: I ran back to the store because you know, there

985
00:51:04,600 --> 00:51:07,279
Speaker 3: could be more people because I'm not in attendance. So

986
00:51:08,239 --> 00:51:11,560
Speaker 3: I went back after I had that little fun thing happened,

987
00:51:11,800 --> 00:51:14,759
Speaker 3: and I don't know, I got really upset about that afterwards.

988
00:51:14,920 --> 00:51:17,600
Speaker 5: You know, dude, just I guess one thing I kind

989
00:51:17,600 --> 00:51:20,120
Speaker 5: of wanted to tell you was that, you know, when

990
00:51:20,160 --> 00:51:24,520
Speaker 5: you're trying to get control of the chaos, I think

991
00:51:24,560 --> 00:51:27,040
Speaker 5: it's I'm happy to hear that you have the drive

992
00:51:27,160 --> 00:51:29,359
Speaker 5: to do so, but if you're going to do so,

993
00:51:30,640 --> 00:51:33,240
Speaker 5: try to do it for things that are like truly

994
00:51:33,360 --> 00:51:36,640
Speaker 5: important to you, you know, because like a couple of

995
00:51:36,680 --> 00:51:40,920
Speaker 5: people like stealing from your store. You know, in the

996
00:51:41,000 --> 00:51:45,920
Speaker 5: long run, you were right, you'd probably be better off

997
00:51:46,000 --> 00:51:48,600
Speaker 5: not going after them in terms of your own safety.

998
00:51:49,160 --> 00:51:51,680
Speaker 5: You know. I think it's a power move to let

999
00:51:52,440 --> 00:51:56,680
Speaker 5: people win the small battles. But really try to figure

1000
00:51:56,680 --> 00:51:59,480
Speaker 5: out what is genuinely important to me that I need

1001
00:51:59,520 --> 00:52:02,680
Speaker 5: to exercise as control on, you know, because I feel

1002
00:52:02,719 --> 00:52:05,600
Speaker 5: like if you're going too hard on UH, I just

1003
00:52:05,640 --> 00:52:08,760
Speaker 5: need to I just need to stand up for myself

1004
00:52:08,800 --> 00:52:11,440
Speaker 5: for anything. I need to take control of any situation.

1005
00:52:12,000 --> 00:52:14,560
Speaker 5: Then you might bring yourself with some changer, you know.

1006
00:52:14,640 --> 00:52:17,600
Speaker 5: So if you're going to go after that, just make

1007
00:52:17,640 --> 00:52:21,440
Speaker 5: sure that you're exercising control in areas that you really

1008
00:52:22,160 --> 00:52:25,600
Speaker 5: care about, not just for the sake of doing it.

1009
00:52:25,800 --> 00:52:26,160
Speaker 5: If that.

1010
00:52:27,200 --> 00:52:30,640
Speaker 3: My sister gave me the same exact advice, But since

1011
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:33,320
Speaker 3: the GAG told me, I'm a here to it a

1012
00:52:33,360 --> 00:52:35,120
Speaker 3: little bit more carefully for sure.

1013
00:52:35,680 --> 00:52:37,759
Speaker 5: Beautiful man, dude, what what did you say? Your name was.

1014
00:52:39,400 --> 00:52:42,000
Speaker 3: Peanut Butter in the call, I had a question. You

1015
00:52:42,040 --> 00:52:46,759
Speaker 3: said that you were coming to la Uh for for

1016
00:52:46,880 --> 00:52:48,400
Speaker 3: Gag across America? Is that correct?

1017
00:52:49,160 --> 00:52:49,399
Speaker 8: Yeah?

1018
00:52:49,480 --> 00:52:52,000
Speaker 5: I don't know if I'm doing I don't know yet

1019
00:52:52,000 --> 00:52:54,360
Speaker 5: if I'm doing like a live show, I might not,

1020
00:52:54,680 --> 00:52:57,880
Speaker 5: I might, I have no doubt yet. But I'm coming

1021
00:52:57,960 --> 00:52:59,840
Speaker 5: for I think I might be doing like a street

1022
00:53:00,080 --> 00:53:04,280
Speaker 5: meet though, And actually I think might be open to people.

1023
00:53:05,000 --> 00:53:08,239
Speaker 5: All right, say that might be a thing if I.

1024
00:53:08,280 --> 00:53:11,440
Speaker 3: Put in an application to get across and then you

1025
00:53:11,440 --> 00:53:13,320
Speaker 3: think there would be a possibility.

1026
00:53:14,200 --> 00:53:16,799
Speaker 5: For la. It might be tough, but put something in.

1027
00:53:16,880 --> 00:53:18,440
Speaker 5: If if I can make some time.

1028
00:53:19,160 --> 00:53:20,400
Speaker 3: I'll put it in. I'll do it.

1029
00:53:20,400 --> 00:53:23,239
Speaker 5: I'll do rock and Wrong. Awesome. Thank you so much,

1030
00:53:23,280 --> 00:53:25,160
Speaker 5: peanut Butter Dude. I appreciate you shouting with us.

1031
00:53:25,960 --> 00:53:28,080
Speaker 3: I've been trying to reach you since December.

1032
00:53:28,200 --> 00:53:29,239
Speaker 8: This is a good day.

1033
00:53:29,400 --> 00:53:30,200
Speaker 3: Thank you so much.

1034
00:53:30,480 --> 00:53:32,640
Speaker 5: Hell yeah, man, you take care all right?

1035
00:53:32,680 --> 00:53:33,480
Speaker 3: You too? Bye?

1036
00:53:36,280 --> 00:53:38,960
Speaker 2: How from Hobbs.

1037
00:53:39,719 --> 00:53:41,479
Speaker 12: Pods Oh ship?

1038
00:53:41,560 --> 00:53:43,640
Speaker 5: Hello, Hey dude?

1039
00:53:45,440 --> 00:53:47,480
Speaker 7: Whoa, hey man?

1040
00:53:48,840 --> 00:53:50,560
Speaker 5: What's going on? Man? How you doing?

1041
00:53:53,239 --> 00:53:54,040
Speaker 6: Just go off of work?

1042
00:53:55,800 --> 00:53:57,840
Speaker 5: It's got off of work. Where do you work?

1043
00:53:59,280 --> 00:54:00,320
Speaker 7: I'll work at a far parmac.

1044
00:54:01,880 --> 00:54:06,120
Speaker 5: You work at a pharmacy. Yeah, what do you know

1045
00:54:06,239 --> 00:54:07,120
Speaker 5: at the pharmacy?

1046
00:54:08,560 --> 00:54:12,000
Speaker 8: I just bag stuff up your.

1047
00:54:11,800 --> 00:54:12,799
Speaker 5: Bags stuff up?

1048
00:54:14,200 --> 00:54:19,960
Speaker 7: Yeah, like pills, Yeah, pills, But that's I was calling

1049
00:54:20,000 --> 00:54:25,200
Speaker 7: in because I also do freelance pharmaceuticals, if you know

1050
00:54:25,200 --> 00:54:25,640
Speaker 7: what I mean.

1051
00:54:26,280 --> 00:54:30,280
Speaker 5: Wow, I don't know what you mean. I was actually

1052
00:54:30,320 --> 00:54:33,120
Speaker 5: just about to ask you what you mean like.

1053
00:54:35,160 --> 00:54:35,880
Speaker 7: Drug dealing?

1054
00:54:37,040 --> 00:54:39,680
Speaker 5: Oh, so you're gonna get your fucking license and all

1055
00:54:39,680 --> 00:54:41,399
Speaker 5: that shit removed? Right?

1056
00:54:42,400 --> 00:54:44,520
Speaker 7: No, I just I don't have a license. I'm just

1057
00:54:44,560 --> 00:54:45,800
Speaker 7: a little bit of the pharmacy.

1058
00:54:46,120 --> 00:54:49,520
Speaker 5: I just you need a license to be a pharmacist

1059
00:54:49,640 --> 00:54:52,239
Speaker 5: or are you? Are you just a drug dealer and

1060
00:54:52,280 --> 00:54:52,680
Speaker 5: that's it?

1061
00:54:54,040 --> 00:54:56,640
Speaker 7: Uh No, I like I bag stuff up there that's

1062
00:54:56,680 --> 00:54:59,719
Speaker 7: already packaged. But then on my free time, my side,

1063
00:55:00,040 --> 00:55:02,760
Speaker 7: so the will a little drug dealing here and there.

1064
00:55:03,360 --> 00:55:06,160
Speaker 5: But don't you need to do with the pharmacy. Don't

1065
00:55:06,200 --> 00:55:08,080
Speaker 5: you need to have you like a licensed pharmacist or

1066
00:55:08,080 --> 00:55:08,399
Speaker 5: some ship.

1067
00:55:08,880 --> 00:55:11,759
Speaker 7: Yeah, that's like for the people above me. I'm like

1068
00:55:11,880 --> 00:55:15,040
Speaker 7: right below them. So I just do like the dirty work.

1069
00:55:15,280 --> 00:55:16,799
Speaker 7: I don't really touch the thing.

1070
00:55:16,920 --> 00:55:18,880
Speaker 5: I thought you needed the I thought you needed the

1071
00:55:19,440 --> 00:55:21,239
Speaker 5: degree to get the bag ship.

1072
00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:23,799
Speaker 7: Nah. They try to get me to do that, but

1073
00:55:23,840 --> 00:55:26,400
Speaker 7: you have to sign a two year contract, and I

1074
00:55:26,440 --> 00:55:28,680
Speaker 7: don't want to really be stuck there for two years.

1075
00:55:28,960 --> 00:55:30,960
Speaker 5: What do you mean They tried to get you to

1076
00:55:31,040 --> 00:55:31,400
Speaker 5: do that.

1077
00:55:32,280 --> 00:55:34,640
Speaker 7: Yeah, they try to recruit me to be a farm tech.

1078
00:55:34,760 --> 00:55:35,359
Speaker 7: Is what it's called?

1079
00:55:36,040 --> 00:55:37,759
Speaker 5: What what are you? What's the name of your thing?

1080
00:55:38,520 --> 00:55:41,680
Speaker 7: A manifestor I don't. I package the bags and give

1081
00:55:41,719 --> 00:55:42,719
Speaker 7: them the drivers.

1082
00:55:43,080 --> 00:55:45,719
Speaker 5: Is that the real title of your job or do

1083
00:55:45,760 --> 00:55:46,279
Speaker 5: you make that up?

1084
00:55:47,280 --> 00:55:50,000
Speaker 7: Uh, there's no official title, but I would say that's

1085
00:55:50,000 --> 00:55:52,120
Speaker 7: like my real my real title.

1086
00:55:52,239 --> 00:55:54,000
Speaker 5: There's an official title.

1087
00:55:55,120 --> 00:55:57,920
Speaker 7: But it's funny because no one there knows that. I also,

1088
00:55:59,800 --> 00:56:02,160
Speaker 7: you know, dealing the just deal to some of my

1089
00:56:02,960 --> 00:56:04,560
Speaker 7: some people at my college and stuff.

1090
00:56:05,680 --> 00:56:06,120
Speaker 5: Mm hmm.

1091
00:56:07,600 --> 00:56:08,560
Speaker 7: But I want to get out of it.

1092
00:56:08,600 --> 00:56:08,719
Speaker 2: Man.

1093
00:56:08,760 --> 00:56:10,520
Speaker 5: You need to, like, don't they need to like have

1094
00:56:10,600 --> 00:56:13,160
Speaker 5: a degree to make sure that you don't like accidentally

1095
00:56:13,239 --> 00:56:16,560
Speaker 5: give some old ladies like some.

1096
00:56:16,719 --> 00:56:19,120
Speaker 7: No like I when I applied there, the lady took

1097
00:56:19,160 --> 00:56:21,160
Speaker 7: me into a closet and we sat on the floor

1098
00:56:21,280 --> 00:56:23,520
Speaker 7: and she was like, you want this job? And I

1099
00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:26,640
Speaker 7: was like, yeah, so I just and I just started

1100
00:56:26,640 --> 00:56:27,480
Speaker 7: working there that day.

1101
00:56:28,520 --> 00:56:30,960
Speaker 5: Dude, what are the Yelp reviews like on this pharmacy.

1102
00:56:34,080 --> 00:56:41,320
Speaker 7: I don't it's like a hospice pharmacy. Oh man, yeah,

1103
00:56:42,040 --> 00:56:45,320
Speaker 7: but I'm like, uh, I'm a secret. I'm a double agent.

1104
00:56:46,800 --> 00:56:49,440
Speaker 5: So what kind of what are you just selling? Weed?

1105
00:56:52,120 --> 00:57:01,760
Speaker 7: Weed, shrooms, acid? Whatever people need? Really, m it sucks.

1106
00:57:01,920 --> 00:57:04,880
Speaker 7: I feel like I've warped my perception of money a

1107
00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:08,759
Speaker 7: little bit because I could make like my whole paycheck. Yeah,

1108
00:57:08,760 --> 00:57:10,080
Speaker 7: I can make like my whole paycheck.

1109
00:57:11,080 --> 00:57:14,560
Speaker 5: Why do you still work at the pharmacy if you

1110
00:57:14,640 --> 00:57:17,720
Speaker 5: found a more lucrative business.

1111
00:57:18,960 --> 00:57:20,200
Speaker 7: I'm scared of the I R s.

1112
00:57:21,280 --> 00:57:22,720
Speaker 5: You're scared of the irs.

1113
00:57:23,600 --> 00:57:26,440
Speaker 7: I'm scared of getting in trouble, you know.

1114
00:57:26,600 --> 00:57:29,760
Speaker 5: You know what. That is a very legitimate fear to have.

1115
00:57:30,000 --> 00:57:33,360
Speaker 5: That is a very hands and.

1116
00:57:33,320 --> 00:57:35,200
Speaker 7: I'd really like to get out of it, man, because

1117
00:57:35,240 --> 00:57:38,000
Speaker 7: people only know me as that now, and I'm not

1118
00:57:38,040 --> 00:57:40,080
Speaker 7: really a big fan of that. I want people to

1119
00:57:40,160 --> 00:57:44,800
Speaker 7: know me as me, you know, not as.

1120
00:57:44,560 --> 00:57:47,440
Speaker 5: A deal with drugs. You know, is that they they

1121
00:57:47,520 --> 00:57:49,680
Speaker 5: take credit for your personality, you know, you want to

1122
00:57:49,680 --> 00:57:50,120
Speaker 5: be all you.

1123
00:57:52,200 --> 00:57:57,080
Speaker 7: Yeah, but people only know you as a get go now,

1124
00:57:57,200 --> 00:57:58,960
Speaker 7: you know. But maybe that's what you like.

1125
00:58:00,640 --> 00:58:03,240
Speaker 5: I mean, sure people will know me as a gecko,

1126
00:58:03,320 --> 00:58:07,280
Speaker 5: but all it takes is me doing non gecko things

1127
00:58:07,360 --> 00:58:10,160
Speaker 5: enough that people will leave me alone about it.

1128
00:58:11,000 --> 00:58:12,800
Speaker 7: Yeah, But for now.

1129
00:58:12,680 --> 00:58:13,800
Speaker 5: I like being a gecko.

1130
00:58:14,520 --> 00:58:16,040
Speaker 7: Yeah, I only know you as a get go and

1131
00:58:16,080 --> 00:58:18,120
Speaker 7: that's that's perfectly fine with me.

1132
00:58:18,680 --> 00:58:19,600
Speaker 5: Do you know my name.

1133
00:58:21,280 --> 00:58:21,680
Speaker 7: Lionel?

1134
00:58:23,360 --> 00:58:27,840
Speaker 5: Close enough? What would you do? Okay? So what do

1135
00:58:27,840 --> 00:58:30,160
Speaker 5: you want to do? All right, so you're gonna exit

1136
00:58:30,200 --> 00:58:32,400
Speaker 5: the illegal trades and go into something more legitimate. What

1137
00:58:32,400 --> 00:58:33,080
Speaker 5: would you like to do?

1138
00:58:34,880 --> 00:58:38,680
Speaker 7: I'm doing studying an entrepreneurship at my university.

1139
00:58:39,240 --> 00:58:39,600
Speaker 5: Okay.

1140
00:58:40,240 --> 00:58:41,800
Speaker 7: I'd really like to own a business and be my

1141
00:58:41,880 --> 00:58:44,640
Speaker 7: own boss. I feel like drug dealing has taught me

1142
00:58:44,680 --> 00:58:47,120
Speaker 7: a little bit about business. I know it sounds super

1143
00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:50,280
Speaker 7: privileged or like weird to say, but.

1144
00:58:50,680 --> 00:58:52,680
Speaker 5: It's just a different form of entrepreneurship.

1145
00:58:53,320 --> 00:58:57,440
Speaker 7: Yeah. I like business a lot, but I don't want

1146
00:58:57,440 --> 00:58:59,320
Speaker 7: to get stuck in some cubicle, you know.

1147
00:59:00,080 --> 00:59:02,959
Speaker 5: Yeah, well, what would your What would your business be?

1148
00:59:05,840 --> 00:59:09,280
Speaker 7: Definitely like fashion? I've got like I do, like I

1149
00:59:09,360 --> 00:59:16,040
Speaker 7: make like clothes and stuff, and I know that would

1150
00:59:16,080 --> 00:59:18,920
Speaker 7: be really cool. I'd be like a dream job. You know.

1151
00:59:19,080 --> 00:59:22,240
Speaker 5: I'm gonna tell you, dude, is you got to make tiktoks?

1152
00:59:23,480 --> 00:59:23,880
Speaker 7: Do you think?

1153
00:59:23,920 --> 00:59:29,320
Speaker 5: So?

1154
00:59:29,560 --> 00:59:31,640
Speaker 7: I tried. I tried to tap into that market, but

1155
00:59:32,040 --> 00:59:34,240
Speaker 7: it's such specific, you know, I gotta get it down

1156
00:59:34,320 --> 00:59:38,760
Speaker 7: like it's very you know, stuff catches there really quick.

1157
00:59:38,800 --> 00:59:40,800
Speaker 7: But also it can die super fast.

1158
00:59:41,560 --> 00:59:44,360
Speaker 5: You know how you've solved that in my opinion. In

1159
00:59:44,400 --> 00:59:50,240
Speaker 5: my opinion is all right, this is gonna sound really cheesy,

1160
00:59:50,800 --> 00:59:55,480
Speaker 5: but I'm learning more and more that it's true even

1161
00:59:55,520 --> 01:00:00,760
Speaker 5: though it's cheesy, is I genuine me? You only you

1162
01:00:00,800 --> 01:00:06,360
Speaker 5: can do you right? So you have to do yourself

1163
01:00:07,320 --> 01:00:11,320
Speaker 5: in your own fashion. I right, So like you can't

1164
01:00:11,320 --> 01:00:13,680
Speaker 5: really like I mean, I mean, I do think you

1165
01:00:13,680 --> 01:00:16,680
Speaker 5: should have a consideration of like what works as a

1166
01:00:16,760 --> 01:00:22,440
Speaker 5: thing that might catch people's attention as they're scrolling and

1167
01:00:22,680 --> 01:00:25,320
Speaker 5: hold it for thirty seconds. And the way that TikTok

1168
01:00:25,400 --> 01:00:29,240
Speaker 5: has this sort of like beginning middle end structure that

1169
01:00:29,320 --> 01:00:31,040
Speaker 5: you should think of it. So think about it in

1170
01:00:31,160 --> 01:00:36,040
Speaker 5: terms of how can I fit the mold of something

1171
01:00:36,080 --> 01:00:39,320
Speaker 5: that will gather a human being's attention. But other than that,

1172
01:00:39,520 --> 01:00:43,400
Speaker 5: try to do your own thing first and foremost, then

1173
01:00:43,480 --> 01:00:45,200
Speaker 5: you know copy of other people are doing all Because

1174
01:00:45,200 --> 01:00:50,360
Speaker 5: I'm sure fashion TikTok is like crazy.

1175
01:00:49,920 --> 01:00:52,600
Speaker 7: I've been really trying to get into it. There's so

1176
01:00:52,600 --> 01:00:55,160
Speaker 7: many fast fashion things on TikTok, like a lot of

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01:00:55,200 --> 01:00:58,960
Speaker 7: kids who live in the same areas I do like

1178
01:00:59,160 --> 01:01:01,720
Speaker 7: getn't go to call and are doing fashion and they're

1179
01:01:01,720 --> 01:01:05,880
Speaker 7: blowing up on TikTok. But it's like they're you know,

1180
01:01:06,000 --> 01:01:09,920
Speaker 7: they're like taking the Nike logo and embroidering it on

1181
01:01:10,000 --> 01:01:13,160
Speaker 7: like some T shirt. I don't know how they haven't

1182
01:01:13,200 --> 01:01:16,440
Speaker 7: gotten a seasoned assist yet, but they're blowing up on TikTok.

1183
01:01:19,000 --> 01:01:22,320
Speaker 7: I do like screen print, like digital print. I make

1184
01:01:22,360 --> 01:01:24,520
Speaker 7: my designs. I go to like thrift stores and like

1185
01:01:24,680 --> 01:01:29,160
Speaker 7: go through books and find like cool you know, diagrams

1186
01:01:29,160 --> 01:01:34,720
Speaker 7: and ship mm hmm. I got to yeah, I got

1187
01:01:34,720 --> 01:01:37,720
Speaker 7: this one of like a human dissection. It's like the

1188
01:01:37,960 --> 01:01:41,000
Speaker 7: diagram of a face and where to make the cuts.

1189
01:01:41,480 --> 01:01:43,520
Speaker 7: And I think that would look cool like screen printed

1190
01:01:43,560 --> 01:01:44,640
Speaker 7: on a shirt or something.

1191
01:01:45,680 --> 01:01:47,880
Speaker 5: Mm hmmm. Yeah, dude. I think it's just about like

1192
01:01:47,920 --> 01:01:50,000
Speaker 5: telling your own story. If it's not if you're not

1193
01:01:50,240 --> 01:01:54,200
Speaker 5: like the because at the end of the day, I

1194
01:01:54,320 --> 01:01:56,480
Speaker 5: do feel like if you can combine like you as

1195
01:01:56,520 --> 01:02:00,080
Speaker 5: a person and your own story with the thing that

1196
01:02:00,120 --> 01:02:02,920
Speaker 5: you're selling, and that's a winning strategy because you know,

1197
01:02:03,000 --> 01:02:07,640
Speaker 5: if you're just selling the thing, you know, there's a

1198
01:02:07,720 --> 01:02:10,480
Speaker 5: million things. But again getting cheesy here, but you know,

1199
01:02:10,560 --> 01:02:12,720
Speaker 5: if you add your own personality into it. It's like

1200
01:02:13,400 --> 01:02:14,560
Speaker 5: other people can't copy you.

1201
01:02:15,600 --> 01:02:18,640
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, I just got I don't know. I'm so

1202
01:02:18,760 --> 01:02:21,320
Speaker 7: caught up and releasing stuff like it has to be

1203
01:02:21,400 --> 01:02:23,600
Speaker 7: perfect and I'm scared that people aren't gonna like it.

1204
01:02:23,640 --> 01:02:25,480
Speaker 7: But I just have to do it for me, you know,

1205
01:02:25,600 --> 01:02:28,480
Speaker 7: post what I like and the people will follow.

1206
01:02:29,440 --> 01:02:31,720
Speaker 5: Yeah, dude, just keep posting shit, keep posting it. The

1207
01:02:31,760 --> 01:02:33,960
Speaker 5: way the TikTok works is I genuine believe if you

1208
01:02:34,040 --> 01:02:38,280
Speaker 5: keep hammering at it you understand it, Eventually something will happen.

1209
01:02:39,680 --> 01:02:42,760
Speaker 7: Yeah, I know, I totally agree. I got to like

1210
01:02:42,800 --> 01:02:45,600
Speaker 7: tap into that market. I really do.

1211
01:02:46,960 --> 01:02:52,240
Speaker 5: H Well, look, I wish you the best of luck.

1212
01:02:52,240 --> 01:02:56,000
Speaker 5: I hope that you make the switch. You have a

1213
01:02:56,040 --> 01:03:00,520
Speaker 5: good amount of starting capital to work with, so yeah,

1214
01:03:00,640 --> 01:03:01,320
Speaker 5: good for you.

1215
01:03:01,240 --> 01:03:03,840
Speaker 7: On that undocumented starting capital.

1216
01:03:04,840 --> 01:03:06,720
Speaker 5: I won't tell anyone. I don't know if anyone from

1217
01:03:06,760 --> 01:03:07,960
Speaker 5: the I R S is here.

1218
01:03:07,760 --> 01:03:08,000
Speaker 10: But.

1219
01:03:09,640 --> 01:03:10,720
Speaker 7: Yeah, thank you, thank you.

1220
01:03:10,760 --> 01:03:11,440
Speaker 8: I appreciate it.

1221
01:03:11,440 --> 01:03:12,200
Speaker 5: Shot in the face.

1222
01:03:13,440 --> 01:03:16,000
Speaker 7: Thank you. I hope you have a wonderful day you too.

1223
01:03:16,000 --> 01:03:16,640
Speaker 5: Many took care.

1224
01:03:17,720 --> 01:03:22,320
Speaker 2: Bye aw from mister J.

1225
01:03:24,320 --> 01:03:30,040
Speaker 5: Mister who mister J. Have we spoken before, mister J?

1226
01:03:30,760 --> 01:03:32,880
Speaker 6: No, we have not, Sir, it's my first time being

1227
01:03:32,920 --> 01:03:33,560
Speaker 6: on your channel.

1228
01:03:33,760 --> 01:03:37,320
Speaker 5: Thank you, man, Oh, thanks for having thanks for being here.

1229
01:03:37,320 --> 01:03:39,800
Speaker 5: How did you find us twitch?

1230
01:03:39,880 --> 01:03:41,880
Speaker 6: I'm a fellow streamer and I one of my friends

1231
01:03:41,920 --> 01:03:43,760
Speaker 6: suggested you were a channel, so I thought to check

1232
01:03:43,800 --> 01:03:44,080
Speaker 6: it out.

1233
01:03:44,880 --> 01:03:47,919
Speaker 5: Amazing that you're a fellow streamer. How's your stream going?

1234
01:03:48,760 --> 01:03:52,880
Speaker 6: Pretty good? Slowly growing a couple hundred followers, but you know,

1235
01:03:53,040 --> 01:03:53,560
Speaker 6: get there.

1236
01:03:54,240 --> 01:03:56,720
Speaker 5: So I love you. Already we're rating you. What's your thing?

1237
01:03:56,960 --> 01:03:57,520
Speaker 5: What's your thing?

1238
01:03:57,600 --> 01:04:01,120
Speaker 6: Oh, I'm already done for the night. It's mister m

1239
01:04:01,280 --> 01:04:05,680
Speaker 6: R Underscore j a y underscore Tarot. It's mister J's taro.

1240
01:04:05,760 --> 01:04:06,640
Speaker 6: I do Tarot streaming.

1241
01:04:06,960 --> 01:04:10,160
Speaker 5: It's terror streaming love. Yes, all right, I got it?

1242
01:04:11,440 --> 01:04:13,960
Speaker 5: Mis can we make it? I want to raid this guy.

1243
01:04:15,080 --> 01:04:17,640
Speaker 5: I love him. He seems nice.

1244
01:04:18,560 --> 01:04:23,960
Speaker 6: Yeah, thank you. By the way, I gotta say, I

1245
01:04:24,080 --> 01:04:27,520
Speaker 6: love your dynamic. I love the show, I love the

1246
01:04:27,520 --> 01:04:30,400
Speaker 6: therapy get go portion, I love your website. I just

1247
01:04:30,680 --> 01:04:32,120
Speaker 6: I love the character. It's amazing.

1248
01:04:32,680 --> 01:04:37,880
Speaker 5: Thank you. I appreciate that, man, that very much. I'm

1249
01:04:37,880 --> 01:04:39,040
Speaker 5: doing the best I can here.

1250
01:04:39,800 --> 01:04:42,600
Speaker 6: Well, you're amazing. Don't don't ever stop. It's just you

1251
01:04:42,680 --> 01:04:45,080
Speaker 6: are just amazing, sir.

1252
01:04:45,640 --> 01:04:47,640
Speaker 5: Thank you, mids. Read this guy's name down. We're riding.

1253
01:04:48,000 --> 01:04:49,560
Speaker 5: We're going to raid him next time. He's life.

1254
01:04:50,160 --> 01:04:56,240
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's mister Underscore. Jay's Tarot. It's mister underscore Jase. Yes,

1255
01:04:56,960 --> 01:04:59,080
Speaker 6: there's a picture of a cat. It's my profile picture.

1256
01:04:59,560 --> 01:05:01,560
Speaker 5: Are you a cat or are you a person?

1257
01:05:02,120 --> 01:05:04,160
Speaker 6: I'm a person, but I love my cat. My my

1258
01:05:04,160 --> 01:05:07,400
Speaker 6: wife and I decided to make an interesting character for

1259
01:05:07,480 --> 01:05:09,040
Speaker 6: their picture, so we used our cat.

1260
01:05:09,640 --> 01:05:11,200
Speaker 5: Does your wife stream with you as well?

1261
01:05:12,000 --> 01:05:14,480
Speaker 6: No, she does not. She just helps me take care

1262
01:05:14,520 --> 01:05:16,080
Speaker 6: of my lovely three year old baby girl.

1263
01:05:17,360 --> 01:05:18,880
Speaker 5: How did you and your wife meet each other?

1264
01:05:19,960 --> 01:05:20,360
Speaker 8: Oh?

1265
01:05:20,400 --> 01:05:22,880
Speaker 6: My Space? Actually you met.

1266
01:05:22,720 --> 01:05:27,240
Speaker 5: On my Space? Yeah, I know, right, I don't even

1267
01:05:27,320 --> 01:05:30,160
Speaker 5: know what that means. Like, how do people connect with

1268
01:05:30,160 --> 01:05:32,680
Speaker 5: each other on MySpace? Do they like direct a message?

1269
01:05:32,720 --> 01:05:34,160
Speaker 5: Do they write on their walls?

1270
01:05:34,200 --> 01:05:34,280
Speaker 3: Like?

1271
01:05:35,000 --> 01:05:37,880
Speaker 5: I don't even know what MySpace is anymore?

1272
01:05:39,160 --> 01:05:42,600
Speaker 6: Well, okay, so I was on my Space looking for

1273
01:05:42,720 --> 01:05:46,880
Speaker 6: somebody who was basically knew a little lot about terrot cards.

1274
01:05:46,880 --> 01:05:50,400
Speaker 6: I started to get into them, shout her profile and

1275
01:05:50,960 --> 01:05:53,720
Speaker 6: you know, messaged her. We messaged each other back and forth.

1276
01:05:54,200 --> 01:05:57,560
Speaker 6: Found out we actually lived one county away from each other.

1277
01:05:57,600 --> 01:05:59,920
Speaker 6: I was living in La County Shoes of George County

1278
01:06:00,120 --> 01:06:04,080
Speaker 6: met up and basically, yeah, back the year I believe

1279
01:06:04,200 --> 01:06:08,960
Speaker 6: it was had to be two thousand and God, it's

1280
01:06:09,000 --> 01:06:10,800
Speaker 6: a long time ago. It's like it was two thousand

1281
01:06:10,840 --> 01:06:11,880
Speaker 6: and two, two thousand and three.

1282
01:06:14,200 --> 01:06:16,960
Speaker 5: Mmm, she guys been married? You guys, you guys have

1283
01:06:17,000 --> 01:06:22,120
Speaker 5: been together for fucking like what eighteen years? Fourteen years?

1284
01:06:22,160 --> 01:06:22,440
Speaker 2: My math?

1285
01:06:22,560 --> 01:06:24,240
Speaker 5: I don't feel like doing math right now, but something

1286
01:06:24,280 --> 01:06:24,600
Speaker 5: like that.

1287
01:06:24,600 --> 01:06:28,200
Speaker 6: That's okay. We just celebrated our ched wedding anniversary last

1288
01:06:28,280 --> 01:06:29,560
Speaker 6: year in October.

1289
01:06:30,080 --> 01:06:32,680
Speaker 5: Wow, what's the secret? Why do you what do you

1290
01:06:32,800 --> 01:06:34,040
Speaker 5: like about her that much?

1291
01:06:35,560 --> 01:06:39,240
Speaker 6: She makes me laugh, She brings out a part of me.

1292
01:06:39,400 --> 01:06:41,720
Speaker 6: She allows me to be childish when I need to

1293
01:06:41,760 --> 01:06:44,920
Speaker 6: be childish and have fun. She helps me embrace my

1294
01:06:44,960 --> 01:06:47,560
Speaker 6: inner child a lot. She helps me. She allows me

1295
01:06:47,600 --> 01:06:48,600
Speaker 6: to be my silly self.

1296
01:06:50,160 --> 01:06:51,720
Speaker 5: What do you what do you think she likes about you?

1297
01:06:53,400 --> 01:06:53,920
Speaker 3: Uh?

1298
01:06:53,920 --> 01:06:56,680
Speaker 6: My humor? I make her laugh and I keep her

1299
01:06:56,800 --> 01:07:02,080
Speaker 6: entertained with telling long stories that have no point. M.

1300
01:07:02,720 --> 01:07:04,280
Speaker 5: Do you feel like the do you feel like when

1301
01:07:04,320 --> 01:07:07,560
Speaker 5: you stream like you treat your audience like you like

1302
01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:10,000
Speaker 5: they're your wife and you're trying to make them laugh.

1303
01:07:10,160 --> 01:07:11,920
Speaker 5: So that they love you more.

1304
01:07:11,960 --> 01:07:14,520
Speaker 6: A long the lines. I do it to help people.

1305
01:07:14,720 --> 01:07:18,360
Speaker 6: I do it to basically some people have questions and

1306
01:07:18,480 --> 01:07:21,840
Speaker 6: they they want a stranger to go to and we connect,

1307
01:07:21,960 --> 01:07:26,000
Speaker 6: we connect. I connect with them and they become followers,

1308
01:07:26,320 --> 01:07:29,880
Speaker 6: sometimes debscribers, whatnot. And we really we really grow from

1309
01:07:29,880 --> 01:07:33,280
Speaker 6: each other. All the people I've met off twitch, Uh,

1310
01:07:33,400 --> 01:07:37,480
Speaker 6: you know, it's been new connections. And actually started streaming

1311
01:07:37,600 --> 01:07:39,840
Speaker 6: because unfortunately my mother passed away.

1312
01:07:40,680 --> 01:07:43,040
Speaker 5: I'm sorry to hear that. That's okay to show you

1313
01:07:43,080 --> 01:07:43,880
Speaker 5: just start streaming.

1314
01:07:45,520 --> 01:07:48,480
Speaker 6: My mother told me before. One of the things the

1315
01:07:48,520 --> 01:07:50,560
Speaker 6: conversations we had a lot of time ago, was you know,

1316
01:07:50,880 --> 01:07:54,400
Speaker 6: sometimes you've got to find your audience. And I decided

1317
01:07:54,440 --> 01:07:57,000
Speaker 6: to stream as a form of therapy, and it really helped.

1318
01:07:58,080 --> 01:08:01,120
Speaker 5: And stream as a form of therapy.

1319
01:08:01,680 --> 01:08:02,800
Speaker 6: That's how it originally started.

1320
01:08:02,840 --> 01:08:05,360
Speaker 5: Yeah, and what do you what do you find therapeutic

1321
01:08:05,400 --> 01:08:05,760
Speaker 5: about it?

1322
01:08:07,400 --> 01:08:11,040
Speaker 6: To connect you with people, the relationships, the fact that

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01:08:11,080 --> 01:08:13,760
Speaker 6: I can confide in perfect strangers what I'm feeling and

1324
01:08:13,800 --> 01:08:16,839
Speaker 6: I won't be judged. I won't have anyone think badly

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Speaker 6: of me or anything like that. It's it's it's that,

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01:08:18,840 --> 01:08:23,240
Speaker 6: It's that, it's that emininity of you know, confiding in people.

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Speaker 5: Interesting?

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01:08:25,640 --> 01:08:26,160
Speaker 6: Yeah?

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01:08:26,720 --> 01:08:27,280
Speaker 5: Interesting?

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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01:08:28,520 --> 01:08:31,439
Speaker 5: Do you feel like you have people? I mean, you know,

1332
01:08:31,479 --> 01:08:33,160
Speaker 5: you have a whole family here. Do you feel like

1333
01:08:33,240 --> 01:08:35,959
Speaker 5: you have people in real life that you can confide

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Speaker 5: to as well?

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Speaker 6: I do. I do, But at the time I was,

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01:08:40,080 --> 01:08:43,320
Speaker 6: you know, it was I do have family and friends.

1337
01:08:43,360 --> 01:08:46,360
Speaker 6: But you know, family and friends are always going to

1338
01:08:46,400 --> 01:08:49,040
Speaker 6: say nice things to you, and they always want to

1339
01:08:49,040 --> 01:08:50,960
Speaker 6: be They always have your back. They're always there to

1340
01:08:51,000 --> 01:08:52,639
Speaker 6: care for you and take care of you and help

1341
01:08:52,640 --> 01:08:55,120
Speaker 6: you in your time and need. And at that time,

1342
01:08:55,240 --> 01:08:58,840
Speaker 6: I just I wanted to do something. I wanted to

1343
01:08:58,880 --> 01:09:03,400
Speaker 6: be active, not just sitting at home playing video games.

1344
01:09:03,439 --> 01:09:05,360
Speaker 6: I wanted to be active. I wanted to be around people.

1345
01:09:05,439 --> 01:09:08,280
Speaker 6: Because of the pandemic, I wasn't able to do so,

1346
01:09:08,280 --> 01:09:10,559
Speaker 6: so I thought, well, I just streaming, going to try

1347
01:09:10,600 --> 01:09:12,160
Speaker 6: because a couple of friends adjusting it and that's why

1348
01:09:12,160 --> 01:09:12,840
Speaker 6: I started.

1349
01:09:12,560 --> 01:09:18,720
Speaker 5: Doing That's awesome, Yeah, that's awesome. And how long you've

1350
01:09:18,760 --> 01:09:19,320
Speaker 5: been doing it for?

1351
01:09:20,760 --> 01:09:25,559
Speaker 6: I started streaming beginning of April.

1352
01:09:26,760 --> 01:09:29,880
Speaker 5: Only If you about you any do you do any

1353
01:09:29,920 --> 01:09:32,400
Speaker 5: TikTok or any other social media? Are you mainly just.

1354
01:09:34,000 --> 01:09:37,040
Speaker 6: Well mostly twitch? But I do TikTok? But my TikTok's

1355
01:09:37,040 --> 01:09:39,640
Speaker 6: more like just me being silly, random moments that I

1356
01:09:39,760 --> 01:09:41,880
Speaker 6: just sometimes in life, I just want to be silly

1357
01:09:41,920 --> 01:09:43,559
Speaker 6: and I do just do a call it a silly

1358
01:09:43,640 --> 01:09:44,240
Speaker 6: random moment.

1359
01:09:44,880 --> 01:09:47,200
Speaker 5: Tell me, tell me something silly you've done.

1360
01:09:48,040 --> 01:09:51,160
Speaker 6: Well, I meet a friend of mine. We created a

1361
01:09:51,240 --> 01:09:53,719
Speaker 6: Chooser and Adventure D and D series on TikTok.

1362
01:09:54,840 --> 01:09:55,679
Speaker 5: I like that idea.

1363
01:09:56,320 --> 01:09:59,439
Speaker 6: We had people commenting, making decisions for the character, and

1364
01:09:59,640 --> 01:10:02,160
Speaker 6: someth the character died and sometimes you got his head

1365
01:10:02,200 --> 01:10:02,920
Speaker 6: bashed in mine.

1366
01:10:02,800 --> 01:10:07,680
Speaker 5: Over all controlled by the audience, that is true, but.

1367
01:10:07,760 --> 01:10:10,839
Speaker 6: You know, I would post the video what the audience decided,

1368
01:10:10,880 --> 01:10:12,880
Speaker 6: and I would post the video to that move the

1369
01:10:12,880 --> 01:10:15,720
Speaker 6: story forward next a couple of days later, kind of

1370
01:10:15,880 --> 01:10:18,519
Speaker 6: keep people on their seats. And it was a good

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01:10:18,560 --> 01:10:22,559
Speaker 6: thing for a while. And then then I started streaming.

1372
01:10:23,080 --> 01:10:27,800
Speaker 6: Since I moved from TikTok to streaming, and I've been

1373
01:10:27,800 --> 01:10:30,040
Speaker 6: talking to a lot of people, making a lot of friends,

1374
01:10:30,240 --> 01:10:32,080
Speaker 6: and it's just it's been a lot of fun and

1375
01:10:32,160 --> 01:10:33,920
Speaker 6: I'm getting a bunch of followers. Thank you, guys. I

1376
01:10:33,960 --> 01:10:34,759
Speaker 6: appreciate the follows.

1377
01:10:34,760 --> 01:10:37,040
Speaker 5: By the way, Hell well you're gonna get a lot

1378
01:10:37,040 --> 01:10:39,120
Speaker 5: more because we're gonna fucking rad you next time your life.

1379
01:10:39,160 --> 01:10:45,280
Speaker 6: Dude, Yeah you're interested. I streamed about three point thirty

1380
01:10:45,360 --> 01:10:50,360
Speaker 6: till six pm Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays Pacific Standard time.

1381
01:10:50,840 --> 01:10:51,280
Speaker 2: Ah.

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01:10:51,880 --> 01:10:54,840
Speaker 5: Then we're never going to get to radio because you're

1383
01:10:54,840 --> 01:10:56,439
Speaker 5: always on before when I.

1384
01:10:56,360 --> 01:10:59,880
Speaker 6: Am, unfortunately that is. But actually did rad you tonight?

1385
01:11:00,160 --> 01:11:02,680
Speaker 6: I was like, I'm gonna rate Jet though. Yeah, but

1386
01:11:02,720 --> 01:11:05,240
Speaker 6: there was so much going on chat it was hilarious.

1387
01:11:05,240 --> 01:11:09,280
Speaker 6: Oh okay, thank you just a little pigeon for putting

1388
01:11:09,280 --> 01:11:11,479
Speaker 6: my name in there. I appreciate it. That's my twitch

1389
01:11:11,520 --> 01:11:13,000
Speaker 6: cadave you guys.

1390
01:11:13,479 --> 01:11:17,400
Speaker 5: Well, dude, listen, thank you so much for coming on

1391
01:11:17,439 --> 01:11:19,360
Speaker 5: our stream. Man, I'm happy to hear that you found

1392
01:11:19,360 --> 01:11:20,639
Speaker 5: something that you very much enjoy.

1393
01:11:21,720 --> 01:11:23,439
Speaker 6: I am very happy to be here, and I want

1394
01:11:23,479 --> 01:11:27,000
Speaker 6: to say again I'm really glad to find you. I've

1395
01:11:27,000 --> 01:11:31,200
Speaker 6: been watching your show since Monday, since last Friday, cool,

1396
01:11:31,240 --> 01:11:32,840
Speaker 6: and today I decided to call in.

1397
01:11:33,960 --> 01:11:35,679
Speaker 5: I'm happy, I guys, to talk to you. I'm always

1398
01:11:35,680 --> 01:11:38,559
Speaker 5: happy to talk to talk to new people finding the stream.

1399
01:11:39,080 --> 01:11:42,920
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, thank you, sir, and have a great stream, sir,

1400
01:11:43,479 --> 01:11:43,800
Speaker 6: you too.

1401
01:11:43,880 --> 01:11:45,720
Speaker 5: You have a good rest of the night, sir.

1402
01:11:45,840 --> 01:11:46,160
Speaker 7: Bye.

1403
01:11:48,200 --> 01:11:49,840
Speaker 5: What a nice. What a nice dude?

1404
01:11:50,120 --> 01:11:53,719
Speaker 2: All from?

1405
01:11:53,760 --> 01:11:54,080
Speaker 5: Hello?

1406
01:11:55,439 --> 01:11:57,360
Speaker 12: Oh shoot, I actually got on.

1407
01:11:58,880 --> 01:11:59,360
Speaker 5: How you doing?

1408
01:12:00,680 --> 01:12:01,880
Speaker 12: I'm doing good air? Are you doing?

1409
01:12:01,920 --> 01:12:03,519
Speaker 8: Ghek? You know.

1410
01:12:06,600 --> 01:12:08,439
Speaker 5: I'm all right, I'm a geck along the computer.

1411
01:12:09,920 --> 01:12:11,000
Speaker 8: H Yeah.

1412
01:12:11,040 --> 01:12:12,840
Speaker 12: Can I ask you a very important question?

1413
01:12:13,560 --> 01:12:13,920
Speaker 5: Sure?

1414
01:12:15,120 --> 01:12:19,720
Speaker 12: All right, Sorry, I'm a little stick right now. But

1415
01:12:21,120 --> 01:12:22,559
Speaker 12: have you ever set your hair on fire?

1416
01:12:23,439 --> 01:12:25,000
Speaker 5: Have I ever set my hair on fire?

1417
01:12:25,840 --> 01:12:26,040
Speaker 2: Yes?

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01:12:26,760 --> 01:12:28,960
Speaker 5: Do you mean like fully engulfed my hair into flames

1419
01:12:29,040 --> 01:12:30,240
Speaker 5: or like burn the piece of my hair?

1420
01:12:31,400 --> 01:12:31,639
Speaker 2: Uh?

1421
01:12:32,160 --> 01:12:33,840
Speaker 12: Whatever? Has fire?

1422
01:12:34,120 --> 01:12:34,400
Speaker 6: Have you?

1423
01:12:34,600 --> 01:12:37,559
Speaker 12: Has fire ever come in contact with your hair?

1424
01:12:40,000 --> 01:12:42,720
Speaker 5: Probably? Ask when you asked this fire come on contact?

1425
01:12:42,720 --> 01:12:44,680
Speaker 5: I'm sure my friend has like held a lighter off

1426
01:12:44,720 --> 01:12:46,120
Speaker 5: to my hair or something like that once.

1427
01:12:47,240 --> 01:12:50,120
Speaker 7: Really yeah? Yeah?

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01:12:50,200 --> 01:12:50,280
Speaker 8: No.

1429
01:12:50,400 --> 01:12:52,960
Speaker 12: So the reason why I ask that question is I'm

1430
01:12:53,080 --> 01:12:57,920
Speaker 12: trying to conduct a survey to see how often people

1431
01:12:57,960 --> 01:12:58,960
Speaker 12: set their hair on fire.

1432
01:13:00,200 --> 01:13:03,559
Speaker 5: Interesting to get a survey to see how often people

1433
01:13:03,600 --> 01:13:04,719
Speaker 5: set their hair on fire.

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01:13:05,640 --> 01:13:10,080
Speaker 12: Yes, and I'm categorizing it between male female, long hair

1435
01:13:10,120 --> 01:13:13,040
Speaker 12: and short hair, as well as on accident and on purpose.

1436
01:13:14,240 --> 01:13:20,679
Speaker 5: Interesting. Interesting, All right, I'll bite. What are you planning

1437
01:13:20,680 --> 01:13:21,720
Speaker 5: to do with the results of this?

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01:13:24,000 --> 01:13:30,840
Speaker 12: It's really more curiosity because I have set my hair

1439
01:13:30,840 --> 01:13:35,800
Speaker 12: on fire about three times, and you know, it almost

1440
01:13:35,840 --> 01:13:37,800
Speaker 12: happened a fourth time. And then that's when it really

1441
01:13:37,800 --> 01:13:42,000
Speaker 12: got me thinking, how often does this happen to people?

1442
01:13:42,400 --> 01:13:43,120
Speaker 2: You know? Like?

1443
01:13:43,880 --> 01:13:45,479
Speaker 12: Is this common? Is this rare?

1444
01:13:46,360 --> 01:13:46,559
Speaker 10: You know?

1445
01:13:47,640 --> 01:13:49,799
Speaker 12: Am I just unlucky? Or am I lucky?

1446
01:13:50,000 --> 01:13:50,200
Speaker 6: You know?

1447
01:13:50,280 --> 01:13:51,840
Speaker 12: Because you know I don't know?

1448
01:13:52,760 --> 01:13:52,880
Speaker 2: Uh?

1449
01:13:53,080 --> 01:13:56,760
Speaker 5: Well, I have a couple questions here. One, are you

1450
01:13:56,800 --> 01:13:58,439
Speaker 5: setting your hair on fire yourself?

1451
01:13:59,640 --> 01:14:03,800
Speaker 12: No accident? All the three times it happened accidents?

1452
01:14:05,640 --> 01:14:07,439
Speaker 5: Okay? And then when you say you feel like you've

1453
01:14:07,439 --> 01:14:09,840
Speaker 5: gotten lucky, do you once it actually happens, do you

1454
01:14:09,880 --> 01:14:11,479
Speaker 5: like enjoy the sensation or something?

1455
01:14:12,760 --> 01:14:15,360
Speaker 12: No? I mean I think of it as lucky, like

1456
01:14:16,439 --> 01:14:18,360
Speaker 12: you know, like when people say it's good luck when

1457
01:14:18,360 --> 01:14:22,080
Speaker 12: a bird poops in your hair or something like that.

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01:14:22,479 --> 01:14:24,479
Speaker 5: I've actually never heard anyone say that.

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01:14:25,360 --> 01:14:28,000
Speaker 12: Really. Well, I guess it's something my dad says. Well,

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01:14:28,120 --> 01:14:30,920
Speaker 12: my dad, you know, he he's told me a few times.

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01:14:30,920 --> 01:14:33,360
Speaker 12: You know, it's good luck when a bird poops.

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01:14:33,040 --> 01:14:33,439
Speaker 3: In your hair.

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01:14:33,560 --> 01:14:35,880
Speaker 12: So that's why I thought, you know, setting my hair

1464
01:14:35,880 --> 01:14:38,040
Speaker 12: on fire by accident? It is kind of like that.

1465
01:14:38,120 --> 01:14:40,240
Speaker 5: Basically, what's your relationship with your dad?

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01:14:40,400 --> 01:14:40,479
Speaker 3: Like?

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01:14:44,960 --> 01:14:52,280
Speaker 12: Interesting, it's not uh, I would I can't really put

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01:14:52,280 --> 01:14:56,240
Speaker 12: it into words exactly how the relationship is. It's very

1469
01:14:56,720 --> 01:14:58,320
Speaker 12: back and forth between good and bad.

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01:15:00,560 --> 01:15:04,160
Speaker 5: Mm hmm. What where do you feel like it is now?

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01:15:05,240 --> 01:15:12,360
Speaker 12: M Uh okay, I would say.

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01:15:11,520 --> 01:15:15,320
Speaker 5: It's okay, just okay. Mm hmmm.

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01:15:21,479 --> 01:15:23,800
Speaker 12: I don't know. A lot happened with my dad, so

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01:15:24,120 --> 01:15:25,720
Speaker 12: that's why it's really hard to put my finger how

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01:15:25,720 --> 01:15:27,559
Speaker 12: I would actually say how the relationship is.

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01:15:30,960 --> 01:15:36,160
Speaker 5: How many people have you surveyed for this so far?

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01:15:36,320 --> 01:15:41,760
Speaker 12: I only started to survey yesterday, and so far I

1478
01:15:41,880 --> 01:15:47,639
Speaker 12: have let me see one, two, three, four, five, six,

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01:15:47,760 --> 01:15:50,640
Speaker 12: seven people and then plus you, that's eight. So I

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01:15:50,640 --> 01:15:51,400
Speaker 12: guess eight people.

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01:15:52,600 --> 01:15:59,479
Speaker 5: M and uh, what's the word of the results of

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01:15:59,479 --> 01:16:00,200
Speaker 5: the survey so far?

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01:16:03,720 --> 01:16:08,120
Speaker 12: So far, it's actually tied right now. I've only found

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01:16:08,160 --> 01:16:10,599
Speaker 12: one guy in one female that both had set their

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01:16:10,600 --> 01:16:20,240
Speaker 12: hair on fire on purpose, one was or both of

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01:16:20,240 --> 01:16:21,240
Speaker 12: them were actually on purpose.

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01:16:24,040 --> 01:16:25,960
Speaker 5: Well, listen, I don't know what your motive is. I

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01:16:26,000 --> 01:16:28,760
Speaker 5: don't know if you're doing this for profit or curiosity,

1489
01:16:28,800 --> 01:16:32,120
Speaker 5: but either way, I hope that whatever is tickling your

1490
01:16:32,120 --> 01:16:34,360
Speaker 5: brain about the subject is ultimately scratched.

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01:16:36,880 --> 01:16:41,200
Speaker 12: I'm probably gonna actually decide to when I start feeling

1492
01:16:41,200 --> 01:16:43,360
Speaker 12: better to actually ask people in public so I can

1493
01:16:43,400 --> 01:16:45,120
Speaker 12: start getting better results.

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01:16:46,360 --> 01:16:48,320
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think that's a good idea. I think that

1495
01:16:48,360 --> 01:16:49,680
Speaker 5: you might make a lot of friends doing that.

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01:16:51,920 --> 01:16:52,720
Speaker 12: I think so too.

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01:16:54,560 --> 01:16:57,240
Speaker 5: Well, good luck. I hope that you find the answers

1498
01:16:57,240 --> 01:16:57,840
Speaker 5: you're looking for.

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01:16:58,439 --> 01:17:00,559
Speaker 12: Wait before you hit the call, do you mind if

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01:17:00,560 --> 01:17:03,120
Speaker 12: I give, like a really stupid message?

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01:17:05,040 --> 01:17:08,639
Speaker 5: Do I mind if you give a really stupid message? Sure?

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01:17:08,760 --> 01:17:11,679
Speaker 12: Well, okay, yeah, it comes from a TV show. People

1503
01:17:11,720 --> 01:17:14,439
Speaker 12: might be knowing what I'm talking about. I'm gonna probably

1504
01:17:14,439 --> 01:17:17,040
Speaker 12: be embarrassed for saying this, but you know, there's one

1505
01:17:17,040 --> 01:17:22,000
Speaker 12: thing in life. Geck, never be the cock. Always be

1506
01:17:22,080 --> 01:17:26,439
Speaker 12: the guy who fucks the wife consensually, of course. But yeah,

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01:17:26,439 --> 01:17:29,000
Speaker 12: that is my message to the world. It was good

1508
01:17:29,040 --> 01:17:29,600
Speaker 12: talking with you.

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01:17:30,520 --> 01:17:31,479
Speaker 5: Where is that from?

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01:17:31,960 --> 01:17:33,960
Speaker 12: Oh it's from a TV show called The Boys?

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01:17:34,920 --> 01:17:38,880
Speaker 5: Mm hmm? Is that is that? Is that the way

1512
01:17:38,920 --> 01:17:39,719
Speaker 5: that you live your life?

1513
01:17:41,760 --> 01:17:45,639
Speaker 12: Uh? I'm going to start living my life. My life

1514
01:17:45,680 --> 01:17:51,120
Speaker 12: that way got to be more confident, more optimistic.

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01:17:51,520 --> 01:17:54,320
Speaker 5: Well, look, and the you know, there's another There's lots

1516
01:17:54,320 --> 01:17:56,880
Speaker 5: of alternative viewpoints to this as well. I almost think

1517
01:17:57,439 --> 01:17:59,639
Speaker 5: the one one might be able to say the cock, right,

1518
01:18:02,120 --> 01:18:04,679
Speaker 5: the cock? Actually it might be the most confident person

1519
01:18:04,720 --> 01:18:06,880
Speaker 5: in the situation. Do you know why.

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01:18:08,360 --> 01:18:09,519
Speaker 12: Why?

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01:18:09,640 --> 01:18:14,599
Speaker 5: Because the cock is so comfortable with who he is,

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01:18:15,479 --> 01:18:21,920
Speaker 5: so comfortable in the security of his relationships that he's

1523
01:18:21,960 --> 01:18:26,760
Speaker 5: willing to put them at risk because he knows he'll

1524
01:18:26,760 --> 01:18:30,439
Speaker 5: be find no matter what, because he's so secure in them.

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01:18:30,560 --> 01:18:35,559
Speaker 5: And that, to me is the true way to live

1526
01:18:35,600 --> 01:18:38,920
Speaker 5: your life is to find security in your relationships and

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01:18:39,320 --> 01:18:42,280
Speaker 5: both with others and with yourself, that you're comfortable with

1528
01:18:42,360 --> 01:18:43,880
Speaker 5: things that other people traditionally aren't.

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01:18:45,800 --> 01:18:50,639
Speaker 12: Well, I must say, that's a very interesting perspective.

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01:18:51,040 --> 01:18:53,920
Speaker 5: Rather than you know, the guy fucking the cook's wife

1531
01:18:54,160 --> 01:19:02,880
Speaker 5: is on this never ending search for self esteem that

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01:19:02,920 --> 01:19:05,639
Speaker 5: they're trying to gain by you know, having sex with

1533
01:19:05,640 --> 01:19:09,680
Speaker 5: with you knows as many women as possible, which you

1534
01:19:09,720 --> 01:19:18,440
Speaker 5: know can be fun, but it's not as internally rewarding

1535
01:19:18,720 --> 01:19:23,320
Speaker 5: as having that security in your in your relationships and

1536
01:19:23,360 --> 01:19:27,280
Speaker 5: in yourself because that's something you can really really count on.

1537
01:19:27,360 --> 01:19:32,800
Speaker 5: That's a more sustainable way of living. So, you know,

1538
01:19:33,000 --> 01:19:36,720
Speaker 5: just think about that.

1539
01:19:36,720 --> 01:19:40,719
Speaker 12: That's a very interesting look at it. Personally, I didn't

1540
01:19:40,720 --> 01:19:42,880
Speaker 12: think too much about it, mainly because I just thought

1541
01:19:42,880 --> 01:19:44,360
Speaker 12: it was funny. It was one of the few things

1542
01:19:44,360 --> 01:19:45,679
Speaker 12: in life that actually made me laugh.

1543
01:19:47,640 --> 01:19:51,479
Speaker 5: So well, I'm happy to have ruined it for you.

1544
01:19:51,479 --> 01:19:53,439
Speaker 12: No, you didn't room it for me. I felt was

1545
01:19:53,439 --> 01:19:54,760
Speaker 12: a very interesting perspective.

1546
01:19:55,600 --> 01:19:56,800
Speaker 5: Well, thank you so much, man, You have a the

1547
01:19:56,840 --> 01:19:57,320
Speaker 5: rest of the night.

1548
01:19:58,040 --> 01:20:03,280
Speaker 12: Yeah, you too, get thanks for the the talk.

1549
01:20:04,400 --> 01:20:06,720
Speaker 2: Call from Margie.

1550
01:20:08,160 --> 01:20:08,760
Speaker 10: Margie.

1551
01:20:10,960 --> 01:20:15,080
Speaker 5: Hello, how are you doing? Margie? We were spoken before.

1552
01:20:15,840 --> 01:20:20,080
Speaker 14: I know, I don't think so. No, I actually I

1553
01:20:20,120 --> 01:20:20,599
Speaker 14: actually know.

1554
01:20:20,680 --> 01:20:21,599
Speaker 6: We haven't. I don't know why.

1555
01:20:21,560 --> 01:20:21,840
Speaker 7: I said.

1556
01:20:22,360 --> 01:20:24,439
Speaker 5: How did you find this? This this place?

1557
01:20:25,600 --> 01:20:25,920
Speaker 2: Oh?

1558
01:20:26,000 --> 01:20:27,639
Speaker 3: TikTok, dude pic?

1559
01:20:27,840 --> 01:20:31,360
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, this is your first time on the stream.

1560
01:20:32,400 --> 01:20:32,840
Speaker 2: It is.

1561
01:20:32,960 --> 01:20:34,760
Speaker 14: I'm actually surprised I got connected.

1562
01:20:36,800 --> 01:20:39,080
Speaker 5: What do you think so far? How's how's how's your

1563
01:20:39,080 --> 01:20:39,840
Speaker 5: experience been?

1564
01:20:40,960 --> 01:20:42,800
Speaker 10: Oh it's been rad I love it.

1565
01:20:42,840 --> 01:20:44,280
Speaker 9: I love hearing people's stories.

1566
01:20:44,960 --> 01:20:46,839
Speaker 2: Awesome and your advice.

1567
01:20:47,920 --> 01:20:50,479
Speaker 5: You've been hearing people's stories and you've been hearing my

1568
01:20:50,560 --> 01:20:53,240
Speaker 5: advice all damn night. But it's time. It's time for

1569
01:20:53,320 --> 01:20:56,120
Speaker 5: us to hear your story. Marge tell us. Are you interesting?

1570
01:20:57,280 --> 01:21:01,600
Speaker 14: Oh god, no, I'm actually uh. I'm twenty four and

1571
01:21:01,680 --> 01:21:03,680
Speaker 14: all my friends moved out of state. So I'm just

1572
01:21:03,680 --> 01:21:06,160
Speaker 14: trying to like figure myself out.

1573
01:21:06,000 --> 01:21:12,240
Speaker 5: Now, trying to figure yourself out. What is there to

1574
01:21:12,280 --> 01:21:12,760
Speaker 5: figure out?

1575
01:21:12,800 --> 01:21:16,840
Speaker 14: Margie, Oh, I don't know, like my self identity. It's

1576
01:21:16,920 --> 01:21:18,559
Speaker 14: it's weird. It's like I feel like I'm in a

1577
01:21:18,560 --> 01:21:22,600
Speaker 14: different chapter of my life. And yeah, I don't know.

1578
01:21:22,680 --> 01:21:25,439
Speaker 14: It's like, oh, I got to be myself now without

1579
01:21:25,439 --> 01:21:27,240
Speaker 14: people around to like kind of put on a show.

1580
01:21:28,720 --> 01:21:31,360
Speaker 5: Do you feel like you're putting on a show consistently?

1581
01:21:32,800 --> 01:21:35,000
Speaker 14: Oh god, yeah, definitely.

1582
01:21:34,960 --> 01:21:36,560
Speaker 5: Tell me about the show. Tell me I want to

1583
01:21:36,960 --> 01:21:39,800
Speaker 5: sort of figure out the difference between because I want

1584
01:21:39,800 --> 01:21:43,520
Speaker 5: to know the difference between the show and the reality.

1585
01:21:45,000 --> 01:21:47,400
Speaker 5: Oh okay, tell us first about the show.

1586
01:21:49,840 --> 01:21:52,000
Speaker 14: Show would be like, I don't know. I just I

1587
01:21:52,040 --> 01:21:54,760
Speaker 14: want to like, I don't know. I guess I want

1588
01:21:54,760 --> 01:21:56,880
Speaker 14: to try to impress people by being like, oh, yeah,

1589
01:21:56,920 --> 01:21:59,840
Speaker 14: I've been working out and I've been doing a daily

1590
01:22:00,520 --> 01:22:02,720
Speaker 14: with my skin, and I don't know, kind of like

1591
01:22:02,760 --> 01:22:06,040
Speaker 14: making it seem like I'm living this wonderful, care free

1592
01:22:06,240 --> 01:22:10,240
Speaker 14: life and in reality, I have horrible social anxiety and

1593
01:22:10,280 --> 01:22:10,719
Speaker 14: I just.

1594
01:22:10,680 --> 01:22:12,800
Speaker 9: Like want to disassociate all day.

1595
01:22:13,600 --> 01:22:19,280
Speaker 5: So, so the show is showing people that you are

1596
01:22:19,360 --> 01:22:22,479
Speaker 5: winning when really you feel like you're not.

1597
01:22:23,800 --> 01:22:24,920
Speaker 14: Oh yeah, definitely.

1598
01:22:25,560 --> 01:22:27,640
Speaker 5: Why do you feel the need for other people to

1599
01:22:27,680 --> 01:22:29,400
Speaker 5: see that you are winning.

1600
01:22:35,200 --> 01:22:35,559
Speaker 8: Shot.

1601
01:22:35,880 --> 01:22:40,120
Speaker 14: I've never been asked that. I don't know, like mommy issues.

1602
01:22:40,160 --> 01:22:45,160
Speaker 5: Maybe really you've never been asked that. No, well, I've

1603
01:22:45,880 --> 01:22:47,000
Speaker 5: at least like on your own.

1604
01:22:48,720 --> 01:22:50,559
Speaker 14: I think I've tried. And then as soon as I

1605
01:22:50,600 --> 01:22:52,920
Speaker 14: get to that point where I'm like, oh, maybe it's

1606
01:22:52,920 --> 01:22:55,200
Speaker 14: for this reason, I'm like, oh, that's a lot to

1607
01:22:55,240 --> 01:22:57,760
Speaker 14: deal with. Let's just put on some.

1608
01:22:57,760 --> 01:23:01,040
Speaker 5: TV us tell us this reason. And when you say,

1609
01:23:01,040 --> 01:23:02,720
Speaker 5: oh that that reasons a lot to deal with. What's

1610
01:23:02,760 --> 01:23:04,759
Speaker 5: the reason you say? You say it's mommy issues.

1611
01:23:05,760 --> 01:23:09,360
Speaker 14: Oh probably yeah, kind of like dealing with my past,

1612
01:23:09,520 --> 01:23:12,440
Speaker 14: my childhood trauma, if you will.

1613
01:23:13,000 --> 01:23:19,280
Speaker 5: Sure, sure, Yeah, Okay, So you say that this show

1614
01:23:19,400 --> 01:23:24,200
Speaker 5: is putting on that like you're whatever hashtag killing it

1615
01:23:24,240 --> 01:23:29,120
Speaker 5: your hashtag goals. Yeah, that's the actual what's going on

1616
01:23:29,240 --> 01:23:29,960
Speaker 5: in reality?

1617
01:23:33,680 --> 01:23:37,120
Speaker 14: Oh, just like I'm from like the Midwest, and we're

1618
01:23:37,200 --> 01:23:39,200
Speaker 14: kind of a boring bunch of people, and I think

1619
01:23:39,240 --> 01:23:42,920
Speaker 14: I just want to like try to be somebody i'm

1620
01:23:42,920 --> 01:23:45,600
Speaker 14: not sometimes and it's like it's okay to just be me.

1621
01:23:47,000 --> 01:23:47,840
Speaker 14: Does that make sense?

1622
01:23:48,280 --> 01:23:50,960
Speaker 5: Well, when you well, I'm trying to understand because when

1623
01:23:50,960 --> 01:23:54,519
Speaker 5: you say you're from because you're you're talking about First

1624
01:23:54,560 --> 01:23:57,439
Speaker 5: you were talking about where you're from and the people

1625
01:23:57,479 --> 01:23:59,360
Speaker 5: around you, and then you start talking about yourself.

1626
01:24:00,439 --> 01:24:02,479
Speaker 10: So which is it?

1627
01:24:02,600 --> 01:24:05,040
Speaker 5: Like you know the people around you are boring and

1628
01:24:05,080 --> 01:24:08,040
Speaker 5: you want to separate yourself from them, or you feel

1629
01:24:08,080 --> 01:24:10,479
Speaker 5: like you're boring and you want to make a new person.

1630
01:24:11,720 --> 01:24:13,240
Speaker 14: I feel like I'm boring and I want to make

1631
01:24:13,240 --> 01:24:15,800
Speaker 14: a new person. I'd say that that's the one.

1632
01:24:15,920 --> 01:24:19,479
Speaker 5: That's great, and I think that's that's a great thing

1633
01:24:19,520 --> 01:24:20,040
Speaker 5: to want to do.

1634
01:24:21,640 --> 01:24:23,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, you think, of course?

1635
01:24:25,320 --> 01:24:26,040
Speaker 5: Why do you feel like?

1636
01:24:26,040 --> 01:24:26,439
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1637
01:24:27,640 --> 01:24:29,960
Speaker 14: I feel like I get narcissistic when I think that way,

1638
01:24:30,000 --> 01:24:33,920
Speaker 14: and that's I don't know, I feel bad about myself

1639
01:24:34,080 --> 01:24:38,240
Speaker 14: if I want to make myself more than I don't know,

1640
01:24:38,280 --> 01:24:38,799
Speaker 14: it's weird.

1641
01:24:39,800 --> 01:24:41,600
Speaker 5: No, I get it. I get it, Like it's like,

1642
01:24:41,600 --> 01:24:44,599
Speaker 5: you know, who the fuck are you to like? Go

1643
01:24:44,680 --> 01:24:49,280
Speaker 5: do things right? Yeah, I agree, I agree. I get

1644
01:24:49,280 --> 01:24:51,240
Speaker 5: you on that. I get you on that. I have

1645
01:24:51,280 --> 01:24:55,800
Speaker 5: a little bit of that myself, you know. I mean,

1646
01:24:55,840 --> 01:25:01,080
Speaker 5: what's the alternative though? Don't do anything? And you know

1647
01:25:01,479 --> 01:25:06,280
Speaker 5: who cares? If you know? If I don't know, I'd

1648
01:25:06,360 --> 01:25:09,000
Speaker 5: rather you go live your life and have a few

1649
01:25:09,040 --> 01:25:13,599
Speaker 5: people think that you're full of yourself then consistently bend

1650
01:25:13,800 --> 01:25:17,000
Speaker 5: to the whims of other people. You know, it's just

1651
01:25:17,000 --> 01:25:18,240
Speaker 5: such a fucking prison.

1652
01:25:19,320 --> 01:25:23,720
Speaker 14: Yeah, yeah, you're You're definitely right. It's weird because it's

1653
01:25:23,720 --> 01:25:27,280
Speaker 14: just it's nice to hear somebody kind of give that affirmation.

1654
01:25:26,880 --> 01:25:30,839
Speaker 2: Back, versus people telling.

1655
01:25:30,640 --> 01:25:32,320
Speaker 14: Me like, nah, just say the way you.

1656
01:25:32,320 --> 01:25:36,280
Speaker 5: Are well, tell me, well, I mean the who who

1657
01:25:36,360 --> 01:25:38,559
Speaker 5: is it that you want to what is it that

1658
01:25:38,600 --> 01:25:39,559
Speaker 5: you want to change?

1659
01:25:41,520 --> 01:25:44,439
Speaker 14: I think I just want to feel more comfortable talking

1660
01:25:44,479 --> 01:25:47,479
Speaker 14: to people. I kind of I said earlier. I have

1661
01:25:47,560 --> 01:25:49,360
Speaker 14: social anxiety, and I think I just want to get

1662
01:25:49,360 --> 01:25:53,280
Speaker 14: better at, like, I don't know, like being okay to

1663
01:25:53,400 --> 01:25:58,160
Speaker 14: like ask people add ball questions and not feel weird

1664
01:25:58,200 --> 01:26:03,760
Speaker 14: about just asking them questions and having just fun conversations

1665
01:26:03,760 --> 01:26:05,400
Speaker 14: that really don't have a whole lot of meaning.

1666
01:26:05,520 --> 01:26:12,840
Speaker 5: And I don't know, it's tough, Yeah, to assert your

1667
01:26:13,000 --> 01:26:20,600
Speaker 5: frame of a conversation on to other people. Not necessarily,

1668
01:26:20,960 --> 01:26:23,360
Speaker 5: it's not an assertion. I said that wrong. It's not

1669
01:26:23,360 --> 01:26:26,880
Speaker 5: an assertion of your frame of the conversation on to

1670
01:26:26,920 --> 01:26:30,320
Speaker 5: other people. It's just like, if you want to ask

1671
01:26:30,360 --> 01:26:33,000
Speaker 5: a question or you want to take the conversation a

1672
01:26:33,040 --> 01:26:36,519
Speaker 5: certain way, just fucking doing it and not caring about it.

1673
01:26:36,640 --> 01:26:39,800
Speaker 5: The other people it's like you're it's like, no, fuck

1674
01:26:39,880 --> 01:26:43,680
Speaker 5: you, you're weird for not justing me. All right, I'm on

1675
01:26:43,880 --> 01:26:48,480
Speaker 5: the planet Earth. I am. We're two people. It's a cosmic,

1676
01:26:50,479 --> 01:26:54,120
Speaker 5: amazing thing that we're with each other right now. I'm

1677
01:26:54,200 --> 01:26:56,400
Speaker 5: trying to connect with you and be more of a

1678
01:26:56,720 --> 01:26:59,400
Speaker 5: you know, fucking answer the thing, and if you don't

1679
01:26:59,400 --> 01:27:01,360
Speaker 5: want to, then you're fucking weird.

1680
01:27:01,120 --> 01:27:01,439
Speaker 7: Not me.

1681
01:27:04,040 --> 01:27:06,680
Speaker 14: Yes, it's it's definitely that.

1682
01:27:06,680 --> 01:27:07,559
Speaker 2: That's that's it.

1683
01:27:08,320 --> 01:27:12,320
Speaker 5: Yes, you know, go for it, you know I I

1684
01:27:12,520 --> 01:27:19,800
Speaker 5: I think I think, yeah, yeah, I don't anything like

1685
01:27:20,120 --> 01:27:22,519
Speaker 5: do you want to move? Do you have a career

1686
01:27:22,640 --> 01:27:25,160
Speaker 5: aspirations or anything like that? Oh?

1687
01:27:25,240 --> 01:27:28,200
Speaker 14: Yeah, god oh that that's actually another thing is I

1688
01:27:28,200 --> 01:27:29,599
Speaker 14: have no idea what I want.

1689
01:27:29,479 --> 01:27:30,160
Speaker 2: To do with my life.

1690
01:27:30,160 --> 01:27:32,559
Speaker 14: And I think it's it's like I'm accepting that it's

1691
01:27:32,600 --> 01:27:35,000
Speaker 14: okay that I don't have Okay, I don't want to

1692
01:27:35,000 --> 01:27:39,880
Speaker 14: get like super deep, but I don't have this aspiration

1693
01:27:40,000 --> 01:27:43,559
Speaker 14: to contribute to, like I don't know a culture that

1694
01:27:43,800 --> 01:27:49,439
Speaker 14: just don't It's like you have to. I love doing art,

1695
01:27:49,680 --> 01:27:52,160
Speaker 14: I love making art. I love creating art. I love writing,

1696
01:27:52,240 --> 01:27:54,559
Speaker 14: and it's like I almost have to like beg people

1697
01:27:54,600 --> 01:27:56,559
Speaker 14: to even view it. And then it's like, do I

1698
01:27:56,600 --> 01:27:58,280
Speaker 14: really want to make money off of it? If it's

1699
01:27:58,360 --> 01:28:00,360
Speaker 14: just something I love doing and that I don't know.

1700
01:28:00,360 --> 01:28:01,519
Speaker 14: I get stuck in this cycle.

1701
01:28:01,640 --> 01:28:03,400
Speaker 2: If you if you couldn't tell M.

1702
01:28:05,120 --> 01:28:08,040
Speaker 14: I get in it, stuck into a cycle of self

1703
01:28:08,080 --> 01:28:10,120
Speaker 14: doubt and then I'm like, no, I can do this.

1704
01:28:10,640 --> 01:28:12,400
Speaker 14: I'm like, well, people got to pay me to do this.

1705
01:28:12,720 --> 01:28:14,200
Speaker 14: I'm like, well, that's root of me to ask them

1706
01:28:14,240 --> 01:28:14,840
Speaker 14: to just pay.

1707
01:28:15,360 --> 01:28:15,800
Speaker 6: I don't know.

1708
01:28:17,360 --> 01:28:20,479
Speaker 5: That's tough. It's tough to make money. How do you

1709
01:28:20,520 --> 01:28:21,960
Speaker 5: make money? Now? What do you do? Do you do?

1710
01:28:22,000 --> 01:28:22,360
Speaker 5: You work?

1711
01:28:23,640 --> 01:28:26,439
Speaker 14: Yeah, it's part time. I work at an animal hospital.

1712
01:28:26,479 --> 01:28:27,519
Speaker 14: Then I'm probably gonna quit.

1713
01:28:28,160 --> 01:28:29,439
Speaker 5: Why why are you gonna quit? You do not like

1714
01:28:29,439 --> 01:28:29,960
Speaker 5: working there?

1715
01:28:30,880 --> 01:28:33,080
Speaker 14: Oh no, it's It was my second day today and

1716
01:28:33,120 --> 01:28:35,200
Speaker 14: it was just chaos.

1717
01:28:37,800 --> 01:28:42,960
Speaker 5: You know what's funny is that we talked to someone,

1718
01:28:43,040 --> 01:28:46,840
Speaker 5: the very second caller, who would probably love working in

1719
01:28:46,880 --> 01:28:49,360
Speaker 5: a place where animals are dying all the time.

1720
01:28:50,400 --> 01:28:52,439
Speaker 8: Oh God, I don't know if.

1721
01:28:52,280 --> 01:28:54,760
Speaker 6: You were there for that, I don't. I wasn't.

1722
01:28:54,880 --> 01:28:57,360
Speaker 14: I got off not too long ago actually, so I

1723
01:28:57,400 --> 01:28:59,719
Speaker 14: hopped on assume I could, but I didn't hear that.

1724
01:29:02,680 --> 01:29:06,800
Speaker 5: Well anyway, So what are you gonna do after the

1725
01:29:06,840 --> 01:29:09,439
Speaker 5: animal hospital? Do you have any idea?

1726
01:29:10,600 --> 01:29:11,960
Speaker 13: No, not really, I don't know.

1727
01:29:12,000 --> 01:29:15,720
Speaker 14: I'm just kind of like vibing in the moment. As

1728
01:29:15,720 --> 01:29:17,920
Speaker 14: weird as that sounds, Oh.

1729
01:29:17,920 --> 01:29:19,519
Speaker 5: I think it sounds weird. I mean, would you ever

1730
01:29:19,560 --> 01:29:21,679
Speaker 5: do something fringe? Would you ever be like, I'm gonna

1731
01:29:21,720 --> 01:29:29,639
Speaker 5: go on a workaway to fucking a farm in Hawaii or.

1732
01:29:30,479 --> 01:29:31,759
Speaker 14: Oh that'd be sick.

1733
01:29:31,880 --> 01:29:32,080
Speaker 10: Now.

1734
01:29:32,200 --> 01:29:34,360
Speaker 14: I love to go work on a ranch. I love

1735
01:29:34,439 --> 01:29:36,640
Speaker 14: riding horses, so I would love to go work on

1736
01:29:36,720 --> 01:29:39,680
Speaker 14: like a ranch in Montana, if I'm being honest, that's like,

1737
01:29:39,840 --> 01:29:41,519
Speaker 14: oh my god, that's the dream baby.

1738
01:29:42,080 --> 01:29:45,439
Speaker 5: No, it's you know, I've looked at work away and

1739
01:29:45,520 --> 01:29:48,840
Speaker 5: like for young women, Like there's a lot of people

1740
01:29:48,920 --> 01:29:53,160
Speaker 5: who like want like an AWL pair or something like that.

1741
01:29:53,800 --> 01:29:55,720
Speaker 5: If you'd be interested in it's just like anything that

1742
01:29:55,760 --> 01:30:01,639
Speaker 5: can fucking like get you somewhere new, doing something new,

1743
01:30:01,960 --> 01:30:06,480
Speaker 5: just because you know, yolo, let's go crazy.

1744
01:30:07,000 --> 01:30:11,400
Speaker 14: Yeah, you only live one. Yeah that's true.

1745
01:30:12,439 --> 01:30:19,360
Speaker 5: What's your name's No, it's okay. I wasn't gonna I

1746
01:30:19,400 --> 01:30:21,840
Speaker 5: was I was gonna give up after trying to think

1747
01:30:21,840 --> 01:30:23,360
Speaker 5: of it for five seconds and failing.

1748
01:30:29,120 --> 01:30:30,240
Speaker 14: I know it's a NodD dude.

1749
01:30:31,000 --> 01:30:37,040
Speaker 5: No, no, no, see Margie. You know, God, there's just

1750
01:30:37,120 --> 01:30:39,679
Speaker 5: there's this concept I've been obsessed with lately called reading

1751
01:30:39,800 --> 01:30:46,160
Speaker 5: positive intent, which is, uh, just always assuming that people

1752
01:30:46,240 --> 01:30:49,080
Speaker 5: are trying to be nice. I feel a lot of

1753
01:30:49,080 --> 01:30:52,000
Speaker 5: people do the opposite. Like when I went like, I

1754
01:30:52,080 --> 01:30:55,240
Speaker 5: was just kind of I don't even know what I

1755
01:30:55,280 --> 01:30:59,000
Speaker 5: was doing. See, I'm weird. I'm weird, dude, and everyone's weird.

1756
01:30:59,320 --> 01:31:01,679
Speaker 5: You can't always I think that everyone's doing everything because

1757
01:31:01,680 --> 01:31:02,200
Speaker 5: they hate you.

1758
01:31:03,280 --> 01:31:05,160
Speaker 14: That's It's hard, dude, it's hard.

1759
01:31:09,920 --> 01:31:14,600
Speaker 5: I wish I had a better We've we've touched on

1760
01:31:14,640 --> 01:31:16,559
Speaker 5: this topic so many times, and it's a topic that

1761
01:31:16,600 --> 01:31:20,559
Speaker 5: I care about a lot. I wish I had like

1762
01:31:20,640 --> 01:31:28,680
Speaker 5: the Golden playbook for it. But god damn, you know,

1763
01:31:28,720 --> 01:31:31,879
Speaker 5: I'm glad that you're trying at least to not care.

1764
01:31:32,120 --> 01:31:34,760
Speaker 2: I think of you, because I appreciate that.

1765
01:31:35,080 --> 01:31:38,760
Speaker 5: Other than that, it's a it's a prison, it really is.

1766
01:31:39,160 --> 01:31:40,000
Speaker 9: Yeah, It's just like.

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01:31:40,479 --> 01:31:42,320
Speaker 14: I don't know, I'm twenty four now, and it's just weird.

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01:31:42,320 --> 01:31:44,080
Speaker 14: I didn't think I'd make it to this part of

1769
01:31:44,120 --> 01:31:48,479
Speaker 14: my life. If I'm being honest that it was just like, yeah,

1770
01:31:49,520 --> 01:31:50,320
Speaker 14: got to move forward.

1771
01:31:51,120 --> 01:31:52,680
Speaker 5: Check out that workaway website.

1772
01:31:53,920 --> 01:31:55,800
Speaker 2: I will, you know what I will do it?

1773
01:31:55,920 --> 01:31:56,160
Speaker 6: Do it?

1774
01:31:56,200 --> 01:31:58,360
Speaker 5: I always tell because if I were not doing this,

1775
01:31:58,439 --> 01:32:00,519
Speaker 5: that's probably what I would do. If I, like, I

1776
01:32:00,560 --> 01:32:05,599
Speaker 5: would just go somewhere random, because you know, if you're

1777
01:32:05,720 --> 01:32:09,759
Speaker 5: young and just haven't been places, go go be places,

1778
01:32:09,880 --> 01:32:11,559
Speaker 5: go do things.

1779
01:32:11,960 --> 01:32:12,360
Speaker 7: I will.

1780
01:32:12,439 --> 01:32:14,160
Speaker 14: Yeah, I'm gonna do that.

1781
01:32:14,320 --> 01:32:19,400
Speaker 5: Thank you, of course. Of course I'm so glad you

1782
01:32:19,439 --> 01:32:24,360
Speaker 5: decided to check out the stream and call them. Do

1783
01:32:24,400 --> 01:32:26,519
Speaker 5: you remember what TikTok it was? Was it one of

1784
01:32:26,560 --> 01:32:29,320
Speaker 5: the fucking new things?

1785
01:32:29,640 --> 01:32:31,519
Speaker 14: I think it was. I don't know if I see

1786
01:32:31,560 --> 01:32:33,639
Speaker 14: you come on my for your page like all the time,

1787
01:32:35,040 --> 01:32:37,559
Speaker 14: like I don't know. It was probably a girl talking

1788
01:32:37,600 --> 01:32:42,000
Speaker 14: about her experience in a restaurant and yeah I just

1789
01:32:42,040 --> 01:32:43,479
Speaker 14: watched it like earlier.

1790
01:32:44,120 --> 01:32:46,040
Speaker 5: Yeah, but I know I know what's talking about.

1791
01:32:46,920 --> 01:32:49,799
Speaker 14: Yeah. So I love your I love all your content.

1792
01:32:49,880 --> 01:32:50,240
Speaker 10: Good ship.

1793
01:32:50,360 --> 01:32:53,599
Speaker 5: Thank you, Margie, Thank you, Margie, Margie. I go being off,

1794
01:32:53,800 --> 01:32:57,320
Speaker 5: Go go go go help some people on a farm

1795
01:32:57,400 --> 01:32:58,840
Speaker 5: in Italy. See how that goes?

1796
01:32:58,880 --> 01:32:58,920
Speaker 8: That?

1797
01:32:59,000 --> 01:33:02,240
Speaker 5: If it's bad, else announce because you're twenty four and

1798
01:33:02,280 --> 01:33:03,200
Speaker 5: you're gonna live forever.

1799
01:33:04,280 --> 01:33:06,719
Speaker 14: I am, God, damn it, amazing.

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01:33:06,760 --> 01:33:08,320
Speaker 5: Well, you have a good rest to night, Margie. Thank

1801
01:33:08,320 --> 01:33:08,960
Speaker 5: you for calling in.

1802
01:33:09,040 --> 01:33:11,559
Speaker 14: Thank you you too, have a good night.

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01:33:12,360 --> 01:33:13,120
Speaker 2: You too Bye.

1804
01:33:15,800 --> 01:33:19,280
Speaker 1: Never Bet goes on the line taking your phone calls

1805
01:33:19,360 --> 01:33:22,479
Speaker 1: every night. Never Big goes to on his night. He's

1806
01:33:22,560 --> 01:33:25,240
Speaker 1: teaching you loud in the end of your life. Body's

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01:33:25,360 --> 01:33:27,799
Speaker 1: not ready. An expert