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Speaker 1: Hello, gorgeous. It's La La Kent. Welcome to Untraditionally Laala.

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Speaker 1: Hey babe, Welcome to the.

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Speaker 2: Bonus episode of Untraditionally Lala. I had a listener call

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Speaker 2: in and leave a message that I think a lot

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Speaker 2: of parents who have gone through a separation, divorce, custody situation.

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Speaker 2: I'm going to insert it and then we're going to

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Speaker 2: discuss and I can't wait.

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Speaker 3: Hey Lala, my name is Jessica, and I just wanted

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Speaker 3: to leave a message because your podcast has truly helped

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Speaker 3: me through some of the hardest years of my life.

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Speaker 3: I've been divorced for homost four years now, and so

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Speaker 3: much of what you talk about resonates with me. Like you,

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Speaker 3: I feel I'm not really co parenting. I'm parenting alongside

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Speaker 3: someone who is completely apps and emotionally and impossible to

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Speaker 3: communicate with. Every concern to bring up has immediately turned

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Speaker 3: into me attacking him instead of us working together for

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Speaker 3: the kids. I have an eight year old son and

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Speaker 3: a five year old daughter. My daughter is finally at

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Speaker 3: the age where she's able to express her feelings and

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Speaker 3: it's heartbreaking. Exchanges are often full of tears, so I'm

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Speaker 3: usually one comforting her, redirecting her, and helping her process

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Speaker 3: or emotions. Our dad just sits there and says nothing.

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Speaker 3: Shortly after we filed for divorce, he got another woman

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Speaker 3: pregnant within a month. Since then, there has been so

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Speaker 3: many cross boundaries. His girlfriend has inserted herself into situations

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Speaker 3: at school, and my daughter often comes home telling me

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Speaker 3: how mean she is to her. But when I try

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Speaker 3: to address it, I'm told I'm causing problems or attacking him.

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Speaker 3: Then suddenly my daughter comes back with new toys or

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Speaker 3: gifts the next week, and it feels like they're trying

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Speaker 3: to buy her affection instead of addressing the actual issues.

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Speaker 3: There's so many days that I feel completely alone in

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Speaker 3: this experience. Listening to you talk honestly about navigating narcissic behavior, heartbreak,

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Speaker 3: motherhood boundaries, and finding yourself again as they you feel

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Speaker 3: seen in a way that very few things have. Your

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Speaker 3: podcast reminds me that I'm not crazy, I'm not alone,

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Speaker 3: and there are so many other women walking through this too.

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Speaker 3: I could ask you one question, it would be this,

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Speaker 3: that's the biggest one of self care or self preservation

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Speaker 3: you found that helps you keep you sane while dealing

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Speaker 3: with high conflict coparent situation. Yeause some things, I feel

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Speaker 3: like I'm carrying this emotional weight of everything and I'm

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Speaker 3: still trying to figure out how to protect my peace.

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Speaker 3: Thank you so much for being vulnerable, honest, and creating

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Speaker 3: a space where women like me needs You'll understand. I

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Speaker 3: appreciate you so much. Thanks.

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Speaker 2: So this has so many different layers because at the

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Speaker 2: very beginning, remember I'm five years out, so I have

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Speaker 2: a thirty thousand foot view.

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Speaker 1: I've had a lot of time.

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Speaker 2: To process and discover what works what doesn't work. I've

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Speaker 2: been in contact with many different family lawyers who have

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Speaker 2: kind of given me the lay of the land, what's acceptable,

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Speaker 2: what isn't. And it is one of the toughest roads

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Speaker 2: to navigate co parenting. And there is a point in

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Speaker 2: time where you have to throw your hands up and

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Speaker 2: say this person is impossible to co parent with, and

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Speaker 2: in order to protect my peace, I will parallel parent

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Speaker 2: with them. Now, parallel parenting versus co parenting means that

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Speaker 2: you do not necessarily work together. It's two very separate households.

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Speaker 2: There's very little communication unless it's necessary. MYX and I

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Speaker 2: pay for an app that we communicate through If you

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Speaker 2: don't want to do that, you can you stick to

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Speaker 2: just email because I know what's acceptable in court, right

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Speaker 2: Like text messages don't really hold up. So that's why

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Speaker 2: I went for the route of ofw which is our

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Speaker 2: family wizard.

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Speaker 1: I think the biggest thing is your piece.

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Speaker 2: If you can learn to disconnect from this person and

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Speaker 2: know that you are simply an energy source when you

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Speaker 2: pop off, when you engage, when he gets you riled up,

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Speaker 2: it's not when you read his messages and he wants

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Speaker 2: to call you a liar or you're causing problems, only

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Speaker 2: acknowledge the things that are absolutely necessary. It's not your

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Speaker 2: job to go back to I'm not a liar, I'm

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Speaker 2: not just trying to cause problems. Stick to the facts

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Speaker 2: them personally this person, and it's easier said than done.

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Speaker 2: Like I remember, my entire household, including my mom and brother,

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Speaker 2: peace is really being able to look at messages or

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Speaker 2: things that actually matter, right, because I remember going back

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Speaker 2: and forth on ofw just insanely and it was just

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Speaker 2: more productive conversation with a brick wall. So leaving it

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Speaker 2: just very simple, don't give him a lot, because again,

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Speaker 2: With the girlfriend's situation. Oh, you're gonna.

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Speaker 1: Remember this mom.

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Speaker 2: When Ocean was little, she had really bad ezema and

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Speaker 2: we were taking her off of like formula and things

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Speaker 2: like that and implementing the whole milk. And I had

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Speaker 2: sent him an ofw letting him know, like what we

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Speaker 2: and all of these things. Well, the nanny reaches out

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Speaker 2: basically saying, Ocean doesn't need those things, like this is

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Speaker 2: what we're having and Ocean will get used to it.

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Speaker 1: Ocean was very little when the nanny told me this.

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Speaker 1: I did go buck wild, but I think you have.

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Speaker 2: To really lay down the law of this is what

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Speaker 2: because if you go to court, you don't want to threaten.

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Speaker 2: I mean, I've learned a lot since the beginning of

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Speaker 2: my custody situation, but really, chat GBT can to definitely

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Speaker 2: help you out, Like this is what I want to say.

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Speaker 2: Put it in legal terms, and just make sure that

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Speaker 1: Know that like you're safe at this house.

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Speaker 2: She's gonna get older and kids clock when someone's trying

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Speaker 2: to buy their love, like you don't have to tell

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Speaker 1: She's going to get used to that.

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Speaker 2: So when I was dealing at the very beginning with

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Speaker 2: people by nature, especially when it comes to the most

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Speaker 2: full control. So I would say the Serenity prayer over

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Speaker 2: know what it is, it's God, grant me the serenity

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Speaker 2: to accept the things I cannot change. And then I

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Speaker 2: would list the things I couldn't change, the courage to

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Speaker 2: would list them off, and the wisdom to know the difference,

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Speaker 2: what is the difference between the two, and I would

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Speaker 2: just loop on that over and over again. Then I

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Speaker 2: would take sage and listen to this song by Lauren Daegel,

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Speaker 2: which is trust in You, and it would talk about

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Speaker 2: when you're not moving the mountain, that I need you

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Speaker 2: to move, when you won't part the waters, and basically

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Speaker 2: saying like I'm going to trust in your plan.

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Speaker 1: So I would do that.

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Speaker 2: I staged and then I light my Palo Santo and

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Speaker 2: I would do it in the apartment bathroom and I

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Speaker 2: would be sobbing during the Laurendego one, and then I'd

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Speaker 2: turn on Break My Soul by Beyonce and Palo Santo.

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Speaker 1: And I'm just look in the mirror and aren't.

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Speaker 4: You will not bring my.

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Speaker 3: Can?

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Speaker 5: I also bring up one song that I feel like

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Speaker 5: gave you a shitload of power.

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Speaker 4: What one?

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Speaker 5: I think it's Taylor Swift, but it's strong enough to

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Speaker 5: kill a man. That when you were going through your

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Speaker 5: worst times. I remember being in the range Rover. That's

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Speaker 5: how long ago this was, yeah, and you turning that

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Speaker 5: like you felt like you were you were on your back,

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Speaker 5: and right when that song came on, you would just

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Speaker 5: is up, she's ready to fight that. So that song,

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Speaker 5: I will say, just for me, turned you around to

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Speaker 5: cat ice, sharp enough to kill a man. Whatever that

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Speaker 5: one is that I feel like turned you into a beast.

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Speaker 1: Oh and then when they talk about the egg wife.

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Speaker 4: That you're thickest thieves.

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Speaker 2: Now the thieves, she looks so pretty, Oh so good.

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Speaker 4: No, I remember that really being a turnaround song for you.

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Speaker 2: Yes, I think having a really good, like nighttime routine

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Speaker 2: and before you go to bed, I highly recommend too

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Speaker 2: magnesium to Hilarian root, baby yourself, give yourself a facial.

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Speaker 2: Remember this is not your forever. Remember that you are powerful.

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Speaker 2: And I know that this sounds so cheesy and so corny,

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Speaker 1: Babies, like I will fuck your shit out.

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Speaker 2: And you have to get into that mindset and find

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Speaker 2: I don't care if it's a tree outside, you find

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Speaker 2: it and you go. You're gonna be my saving grace

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Speaker 2: when I'm feeling weak, I'm gonna need you to take

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Speaker 2: everything I'm telling you without and I would recommend on

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Speaker 2: hard days, don't drink. I'm not telling anyone to get sober.

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Speaker 2: You're having a hard time and you're like, I need

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Speaker 2: a cocktail. It makes everything so much worse. It heightens

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Speaker 2: every emotion and then the next day get ready to

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Speaker 2: want to drive your car off a cliff.

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Speaker 4: YEA highly recommend.

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Speaker 2: On the days that are good, crack open the wine,

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Speaker 2: have a good time.

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Speaker 5: The bad days alcohol, yes, get the placebo if you need.

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Speaker 1: That is my advice.

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Speaker 2: I think remembering nothing is forever. The bad times pass,

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Speaker 2: but the good times also passed. So when you have

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Speaker 2: the good days, I just relish in them and be grateful.

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Speaker 1: Practice gratitude.

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Speaker 2: When when you're in the gutter and you're like I am,

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Speaker 2: the biggest one is focusing on health with everything that

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Speaker 2: my mom's been going through.

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Speaker 1: Knowing that when everyone around you is healthy, you have

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Speaker 1: life by the balls. Everything else is going to work

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Speaker 2: And then I think the most one of the most

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Speaker 2: important things too is finding your support system. I was

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Speaker 2: fortunate enough to have my mom quit her job, leave

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Speaker 4: About my shit, okay, And it just helps. Yeah.

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Speaker 2: And you're just gonna find who you are. But it

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Speaker 5: Yeah, and then you when you get into court, you can't. Okay, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: No, not only that best for my child.

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Speaker 4: They don't know you, they don't know the dad, they

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Speaker 1: I wasn't willing to take the risk.

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Speaker 2: Again.

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Speaker 1: I was way too fucking scared.

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Speaker 1: I'm just joking. But she's a lot.

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Speaker 2: Well, Cynthia's consent, but I think for Ocean or Sosa's

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Speaker 5: She can't wait, and then she look at you and

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Speaker 2: In Spanish and English, she counts to five. In Spanish,

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Speaker 4: In Spanish, she points to her head and it.

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Speaker 5: I'm so proud that I might start learning. No, I

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Speaker 4: Here we come.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's over your head. You you shoot yourself in

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Speaker 2: I'm just realizing that, yeah, you anything that's hard.

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Speaker 4: It's not told.

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Speaker 1: Failure to decorate the doors? Oh, it wouldn't have looked

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Speaker 2: Your uh, mid year resolution should be I can do

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Speaker 1: You need to start saying that I do it. You

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Speaker 5: Yeah, peanut, Butter, I do it.

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Speaker 1: I do it.

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Speaker 2: Tying your shoe, I do it.

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Speaker 4: She did do it. I did it.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm not opening.

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Speaker 4: That can for you, Lisa. No one's watching you.

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Speaker 2: I almost killed Lisa at the airport yesterday. Let me

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Speaker 2: tell you something, Mom, it's going to be hard to hear.

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Speaker 2: You're not that important. You're important to us. No one's

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Speaker 2: No one gives a shit about what you're doing, what

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Speaker 2: Like when I'm belting on the freeway, I'm like, people

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Speaker 3: Law.

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Speaker 4: No, I know, when's the last time you're looking in

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Speaker 4: for you? Never? I'm just driving.

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Speaker 1: Ever, no one's watching you, Mama, you do you boo.

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Speaker 2: Thank you guys for listening to the bonus episode of

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Speaker 2: Untraditionally La La. I'm going to catch you on Tuesday

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Speaker 2: for my new podcast with Sally Carson called Sex Unlocked,

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Speaker 2: Don't Listen with your Children, Wednesday for a regular old

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Speaker 2: episode of Untraditionally Lala, and Thursdays at nine pm an

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Speaker 4: Don't Listen with your children or any of these Yeah,

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Speaker 1: Love you guys.

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Speaker 2: Bye,