WEBVTT - Your Mouth Better Match Your Hands 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:03.159 Welcome to Can't Flee Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio 0:00:03.279 --> 0:00:17.040 and the Black Effects, And just like that, we're back 0:00:17.079 --> 0:00:19.360 on the air. Welcome back to yet another carefully reckless 0:00:19.360 --> 0:00:22.000 episode with your girl. Just hilarious. And I think now 0:00:22.040 --> 0:00:24.840 we can say, doctor Jess, i'd be fixing people's mess 0:00:24.840 --> 0:00:28.880 and maybe updating me on the situations. And I haven't 0:00:28.920 --> 0:00:31.479 gotten a lot of people. I haven't even gotten a 0:00:31.520 --> 0:00:33.680 handful of people. And you only got five fingers. I'm 0:00:33.720 --> 0:00:36.920 sorry and shut out to people who have less. You 0:00:37.000 --> 0:00:39.120 only got five fingers. You're supposed to have five fingers 0:00:39.159 --> 0:00:43.080 on one hand, and I haven't even been able to 0:00:43.240 --> 0:00:46.839 count on one hand yet. Well, I'm only been there, 0:00:46.880 --> 0:00:49.240 I've only been here. What the point is. I haven't 0:00:49.280 --> 0:00:52.080 had more than five people that' said I couldn't help them, 0:00:52.320 --> 0:00:54.200 And that's what I love, you know, So we're gonna 0:00:54.240 --> 0:00:57.560 jump right in now. Somebody wrote this, y'all know, I 0:00:57.560 --> 0:00:59.480 hate it. I'm gonna tell y'all every episode. I hate 0:00:59.480 --> 0:01:03.080 when y'all right versus sending in voice notes because then 0:01:03.120 --> 0:01:05.720 y'all don't know how a failed job. But y'all, y'all 0:01:05.760 --> 0:01:07.440 stories be so good. So I'll be trying to help 0:01:07.520 --> 0:01:10.560 y'all piece it together. Anyway, here we go. Hey, Jess, 0:01:10.600 --> 0:01:12.480 I love your show. So happy they're not deleting your 0:01:12.520 --> 0:01:17.000 podcast like they used to do us when we first started. Damn, 0:01:17.760 --> 0:01:20.560 now it's time to fix my mess. I've known Mark 0:01:20.640 --> 0:01:23.760 for sixteen year. Damn, bitch, youre just gonna say his name? Okay, 0:01:24.200 --> 0:01:27.760 all right, you've known Mark for sixteen years. I've always 0:01:27.800 --> 0:01:30.360 loved this man. However, when we met sixteen years ago, 0:01:30.760 --> 0:01:33.160 I didn't think skinny dudes like thick girls like me, 0:01:33.400 --> 0:01:37.600 so I initiated a no strings attached relationship. Mm hmm, 0:01:38.080 --> 0:01:41.440 So you real quick, I'm going I'm gonna comment on that. 0:01:41.920 --> 0:01:44.360 You said, I didn't think skinny dudes like thick girls 0:01:44.680 --> 0:01:48.800 like me, so I initiated. I initiated a no strings 0:01:48.840 --> 0:01:52.480 attached relationship. How you gonna thank for another man? First 0:01:52.520 --> 0:01:55.480 of all, you're gonna thank for another person, And you 0:01:55.640 --> 0:01:58.240 let the fact that you thought so much into what 0:01:58.400 --> 0:02:01.800 this man preference is, who didn't even tell you what 0:02:01.880 --> 0:02:06.920 his preference was, That you initiated a no strings attached 0:02:06.960 --> 0:02:09.480 relationship and you knew that's not what you wanted. Don't 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:12.280 we bend over back with some stupidly foremen and don't 0:02:12.280 --> 0:02:14.040 even have to half the time because that nigga ain't 0:02:14.040 --> 0:02:17.080 never tell her that all right. Over the years, life 0:02:17.120 --> 0:02:19.680 took us different ways, but I love this man, so 0:02:19.800 --> 0:02:23.000 every holiday, every birthday, every year, I would text or 0:02:23.040 --> 0:02:25.920 call him. Four kids later, on my end with a 0:02:25.919 --> 0:02:30.000 failed relationship, Mark came back into my life. Twenty twenty one. 0:02:30.160 --> 0:02:33.120 I did my normal Thanksgiving text and I was shocked. 0:02:33.400 --> 0:02:35.799 I received a phone call and we spoke for about 0:02:35.840 --> 0:02:38.480 two or three hours. I was excited, but I didn't 0:02:38.520 --> 0:02:41.240 expect anything of it. A month later, he calls and 0:02:41.320 --> 0:02:45.160 asks if I could do his taxes. I'm sorry, that's 0:02:45.160 --> 0:02:50.080 funny as shit, girl. You first, can you do my taxes? 0:02:50.320 --> 0:02:50.639 Girl? 0:02:50.760 --> 0:02:53.440 Please? And now you notice that was his way back 0:02:53.440 --> 0:02:55.280 in if you really don't do taxes, if you ain't 0:02:55.280 --> 0:02:57.880 no damn accountant, and you don't work at Terble tax 0:02:58.000 --> 0:03:01.720 or for Turble text or nothing like that, that he 0:03:01.800 --> 0:03:05.040 only hit you. That was a segue into talking to you. 0:03:05.120 --> 0:03:06.560 He just wanted a reason to hit you, girl. I 0:03:06.600 --> 0:03:09.799 ain't axting nobody to do my damn Texas. Fuck that. 0:03:10.400 --> 0:03:12.760 I agreed, and next thing I know, he keeps coming 0:03:12.760 --> 0:03:16.360 around every week every off daylight clockwork. I got to 0:03:16.400 --> 0:03:18.680 know a little bit more about him and loved everything 0:03:18.720 --> 0:03:21.200 about him. He made me feel safe and bought out 0:03:21.200 --> 0:03:24.560 my feminine energy that my ex took away from me. No, 0:03:24.680 --> 0:03:27.160 that you allowed your ex to take away from you. 0:03:27.160 --> 0:03:30.320 Can't nobody take your feminine energy. And I made a mistake. 0:03:30.520 --> 0:03:33.040 You didn't allow him to take it. You gave it 0:03:33.080 --> 0:03:34.760 to me. He couldn't have took that shit from you. 0:03:35.280 --> 0:03:37.880 That's a mind thing. You gotta change that mindset, change 0:03:37.920 --> 0:03:40.440 up that narrative. Not that I need a man to 0:03:40.520 --> 0:03:43.200 get that out of me. Exactly. I'm glad you said that. 0:03:43.320 --> 0:03:46.120 Let me just read mama business. So after hanging for 0:03:46.200 --> 0:03:49.200 six months, he moved in. Oh all right, Yes, I 0:03:49.240 --> 0:03:51.840 opened my home to him, cause to live as high 0:03:51.880 --> 0:03:56.880 as hell, Okay, convenience and affordable. Now we have been 0:03:56.920 --> 0:03:58.960 living together for six months. So I asked him about 0:03:59.040 --> 0:04:01.920 us becoming official. Oh, y'all ain't even official a year 0:04:01.920 --> 0:04:04.640 where you just said y'all moved together because both of 0:04:04.680 --> 0:04:07.520 y'all were struggling. Basically, he said no because he just 0:04:07.600 --> 0:04:09.640 came out of a relationship and that he isn't ready 0:04:09.680 --> 0:04:12.560 to make us official. That hurt but I felt we 0:04:13.240 --> 0:04:15.760 just continue to be us because we are indeed doing 0:04:15.800 --> 0:04:18.440 everything a couple would do. We got a house together, 0:04:18.560 --> 0:04:22.279 planning businesses together, and planning to go on trips. Y'all 0:04:22.279 --> 0:04:25.640 planning to do all that together. But he's still hurt 0:04:25.839 --> 0:04:32.520 from his last relationship. Girl, these jokes right themselves, ain't 0:04:32.640 --> 0:04:35.160 no way all right. So he wants to treat you 0:04:35.160 --> 0:04:37.280 like a girlfriend, winding down you like a girlfriend, move 0:04:37.360 --> 0:04:41.320 in like a boyfriend, or a slash fiance husband or 0:04:41.400 --> 0:04:44.320 you know, full time father and all that. Y'all want 0:04:44.320 --> 0:04:46.520 a playhouse, but he don't want to give you the 0:04:46.560 --> 0:04:49.599 satisfaction of a title or making it official. Oh God, 0:04:49.680 --> 0:04:51.839 let me just finish. He helps with my kids and 0:04:51.880 --> 0:04:54.640 I love it. Just recently we spent Valentine's Jea together, 0:04:54.839 --> 0:04:58.039 had a blast five hour massages, a photo shoot, and 0:04:58.200 --> 0:05:00.960 an expensive dinner. I popped up, question if he thinks 0:05:00.960 --> 0:05:03.919 we can make us official. He said no, because he 0:05:04.040 --> 0:05:06.159 not ready, And I'm like, what's the difference in what 0:05:06.240 --> 0:05:09.480 we're doing now that we can't make us official? Now? 0:05:09.480 --> 0:05:12.240 I'm lost and confused and scared, not sure if I 0:05:12.279 --> 0:05:14.480 should walk away or stick with him, because other than 0:05:14.480 --> 0:05:17.480 that one thing, there is no red flags. That's the 0:05:17.520 --> 0:05:18.680 only red flag you need. 0:05:18.720 --> 0:05:18.840 Bo. 0:05:19.360 --> 0:05:21.520 He's committed to me in a way. I don't see 0:05:21.560 --> 0:05:25.240 him cheating. It's just me, work and the children. I'm 0:05:25.279 --> 0:05:27.640 not sure what to do. After listening to a few 0:05:27.680 --> 0:05:31.279 podcast I figured I should just consider us as dating. 0:05:33.440 --> 0:05:35.359 Neither one of us want to lose this friendship we 0:05:35.400 --> 0:05:38.159 have developed. A friend of mine told me to just 0:05:38.279 --> 0:05:40.560 allow things to go the way it's going. But I'm 0:05:40.560 --> 0:05:43.600 an overthinker and this makes me feel like I must 0:05:43.640 --> 0:05:45.800 not be good enough for him. Just please help me 0:05:45.839 --> 0:05:47.920 with this mess. I want you to stop it right 0:05:47.960 --> 0:05:51.599 now because you said something that I did not like. Girl. 0:05:51.640 --> 0:05:53.560 I want you to stop. I will pop your fingers 0:05:53.640 --> 0:05:56.280 like a little girl like I because you should never 0:05:56.400 --> 0:06:01.600 ever say but I'm an overthinker. No, you're not. Now 0:06:01.680 --> 0:06:05.200 there are such people as overthinkers, and yeah, but you're 0:06:05.240 --> 0:06:07.320 not overthinking in the situation. And I hate that we 0:06:07.360 --> 0:06:10.400 constantly try to tiptoe around As women, we try to 0:06:10.440 --> 0:06:15.320 tiptoe around what we feel because we're not used to 0:06:15.320 --> 0:06:17.719 getting it, so it seems unusual for us, or we 0:06:17.800 --> 0:06:21.080 may be seen as doing too much because we really 0:06:21.240 --> 0:06:23.800 over like a person when it's not over liking. I 0:06:23.880 --> 0:06:26.200 just really fuck with you, my nigga. I really like 0:06:26.279 --> 0:06:28.599 you like you, know what I'm saying. Now. If you 0:06:28.600 --> 0:06:30.320 don't like me the same, that's on you. I can't 0:06:30.360 --> 0:06:33.599 control that. That's only for you to know whether you 0:06:33.720 --> 0:06:35.640 like me back the same. That's only for you to show, 0:06:35.880 --> 0:06:38.240 and I'm gonna see it. I'm gonna feel it if 0:06:38.240 --> 0:06:40.440 you do. You feel when somebody fuck with you, You feel 0:06:40.440 --> 0:06:42.400 when somebody love you, and you feel when somebody don't. 0:06:42.600 --> 0:06:45.320 You feel when somebody is only fucking with you when 0:06:45.320 --> 0:06:49.200 it's convenient for them. Listen, As women, we feel everything, 0:06:49.720 --> 0:06:52.279 whether we want to or not. We feel it. We're 0:06:52.320 --> 0:06:55.120 forced to feel shit sometimes and it we're forced to 0:06:55.240 --> 0:06:57.640 just sweep it under the rugs sometimes, and then we're 0:06:57.680 --> 0:06:59.960 forced to just keep on going and act like nothing 0:07:00.040 --> 0:07:03.760 it never fucking happened. You are not an overthinker. You 0:07:03.880 --> 0:07:05.440 like a man. You want something out of a man, 0:07:05.440 --> 0:07:07.760 and y'all been dealing with each other, fought too fucking long, 0:07:08.080 --> 0:07:11.080 in my opinion, for him to still be talking about No, 0:07:11.440 --> 0:07:13.480 it's still I just got out of something and it 0:07:13.520 --> 0:07:16.360 will get the fuck out of my house. How about that? 0:07:16.520 --> 0:07:18.120 You can still be a friend from a distance. You 0:07:18.120 --> 0:07:20.240 ain't got to live with me. Get the fuck out 0:07:20.280 --> 0:07:22.600 of my house. I'm gonna say it like this, Well 0:07:22.640 --> 0:07:24.480 maybe you'll say it nicer, because that is your friend 0:07:24.480 --> 0:07:26.600 at the end of the day. Please remove yourself from 0:07:26.600 --> 0:07:30.160 my home. We cannot fuck like that, you know, unless 0:07:30.200 --> 0:07:31.720 you want to keep on fucking him or you know, 0:07:31.800 --> 0:07:34.120 having sex or whatever you want to do with this man. Yeah, 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:37.200 you know, because we have sexual needs as well. But 0:07:37.240 --> 0:07:40.040 he wouldn't have access to me like that. He wouldn't, 0:07:40.040 --> 0:07:42.040 I'm sorry. And then he didn't already been around your 0:07:42.120 --> 0:07:44.160 kids and all of that. I can only imagine what 0:07:44.200 --> 0:07:47.640 your kids think. This is my mom's boyfriend, right Because 0:07:47.680 --> 0:07:50.240 you said you don't see him cheating, you ain't need 0:07:50.280 --> 0:07:53.040 no relationship. So if you go cheat, that ain't cheating. 0:07:53.360 --> 0:07:55.120 And I think that's what he wants to be able 0:07:55.160 --> 0:07:57.000 to use. That's why he will not. He will not 0:07:57.120 --> 0:07:59.560 tie you down, you know. That's why he won't lock 0:07:59.600 --> 0:08:01.320 you down. You won't just give it an official you 0:08:01.400 --> 0:08:03.720 know what, Let's go ahead and make this happen. He 0:08:03.840 --> 0:08:05.320 still got something that he don't want to miss. He 0:08:05.360 --> 0:08:07.440 thinking he gonna miss something out there. I'm telling you 0:08:07.560 --> 0:08:09.320 I've seen this a lot, and you ain't the first 0:08:09.320 --> 0:08:11.760 person with this story. You brought him around your fucking 0:08:11.840 --> 0:08:14.240 kids already. I don't know how old your babies are, 0:08:14.360 --> 0:08:16.560 God bless them. You know what I'm saying. But I 0:08:16.960 --> 0:08:20.000 really feel like he too fucking close for comfort to 0:08:20.000 --> 0:08:23.000 not be your man. You understand, he's too built into 0:08:23.040 --> 0:08:25.760 your life. How the fuck you live with you? Is 0:08:25.800 --> 0:08:28.520 he paying bills? Is he going half on shit? You 0:08:28.600 --> 0:08:31.480 understand what I'm saying. Ain't none of this shit free? 0:08:31.560 --> 0:08:31.760 Man? 0:08:32.200 --> 0:08:35.079 If you ain't paying me with your love and some money, 0:08:35.120 --> 0:08:38.000 you better be giving me some fucking money. I don't 0:08:38.000 --> 0:08:39.920 give a fuck. Friends don't stay with friends for free 0:08:39.960 --> 0:08:42.200 all the time, especially if that what if my ass 0:08:42.320 --> 0:08:44.240 is struggling, If you're the friend that's struggling and I'm 0:08:44.240 --> 0:08:47.800 still trying to help you and I got my own kids, Nah, 0:08:47.800 --> 0:08:50.560 you want have to bounce, baby, so I do. Really, 0:08:51.200 --> 0:08:54.000 I advise you to don't walk, baby, run, put on 0:08:54.040 --> 0:08:56.920 them fucking skates, and roll a fuck on out. Because 0:08:56.920 --> 0:08:59.680 I don't agree with mister man over there, and that's 0:08:59.720 --> 0:09:01.440 just that. I don't want you to keep me updated, 0:09:01.600 --> 0:09:04.120 keep me updated, bab, because that just pissed me off. 0:09:04.679 --> 0:09:07.040 If you love me, you'll listen to this commercial and 0:09:07.080 --> 0:09:10.880 then we'll be right back and moving on. Oh we 0:09:10.920 --> 0:09:13.600 got an audio, very good. Here we go, yess. 0:09:13.760 --> 0:09:18.160 I'm trying to send like fifty eleven voice messages and 0:09:18.720 --> 0:09:21.560 I don't know if I'm just coming off too nervous, 0:09:21.640 --> 0:09:24.280 but I got to kick it to you, like I 0:09:24.320 --> 0:09:27.680 feel like how I know you, And that might sound crazy, 0:09:27.800 --> 0:09:30.720 but just let me go off of what I'm makes 0:09:30.720 --> 0:09:31.560 me feel comfortable. 0:09:31.840 --> 0:09:32.320 AnyWho. 0:09:33.400 --> 0:09:35.839 My name is, Like I said, I've been living a 0:09:35.920 --> 0:09:37.520 board to move for twenty six years now. 0:09:38.040 --> 0:09:38.520 I moved in. 0:09:38.559 --> 0:09:42.280 Conkysville and I was probably one of fifty to sixty 0:09:42.720 --> 0:09:48.640 black kids out there. And I met someone from Philly. 0:09:48.800 --> 0:09:52.600 Her name is David and she was seventeen. She's three 0:09:52.679 --> 0:09:56.160 years older than me, and me and her Insley became 0:09:56.320 --> 0:09:59.600 like sisters. And during that time I met her younger 0:09:59.760 --> 0:10:02.120 cut and who is three years younger than me. 0:10:02.440 --> 0:10:03.400 Her name is Brice. 0:10:04.440 --> 0:10:08.520 Me and Day are close, like, that's my bitch, my 0:10:08.679 --> 0:10:13.160 sister right now, her contact has a heart with a key. 0:10:13.360 --> 0:10:14.240 That's my bitch. 0:10:14.320 --> 0:10:17.320 I am in love with my friend, like as a 0:10:17.360 --> 0:10:21.280 friendship love. I would die for this woman. Her kids 0:10:21.320 --> 0:10:25.440 are my nieces and nephew. I love this woman, okay, 0:10:25.520 --> 0:10:27.160 So there was always like. 0:10:27.120 --> 0:10:30.439 A little cousin to me. I know the entire family. 0:10:30.679 --> 0:10:35.200 I call their family how they call and present their family. 0:10:35.600 --> 0:10:39.240 Grandma is grandma? You know, an't such and such? You 0:10:39.240 --> 0:10:42.880 know such and such anywhom. So we're very close. 0:10:43.520 --> 0:10:48.640 So for the past maybe eight years consecutively, every day 0:10:48.880 --> 0:10:51.520 we have a group chat, and I named the group chat. 0:10:51.840 --> 0:10:53.520 These holes are loyal. 0:10:53.880 --> 0:10:58.800 Those are my bitches, Like we'll go to war, lay 0:10:58.840 --> 0:11:02.120 down my life for these bitches, all right. So you know, 0:11:02.280 --> 0:11:06.000 life gets serious, and it was just tough that we will, 0:11:06.320 --> 0:11:09.840 you know, see each other at sad events, funerals, things 0:11:09.840 --> 0:11:12.040 of that nature. But we will always come around for 0:11:12.360 --> 0:11:14.920 you know, good events as well. 0:11:15.280 --> 0:11:17.559 You know baby Shad was graduations, such and such. We 0:11:17.880 --> 0:11:18.520 always saw. 0:11:18.400 --> 0:11:23.040 Each other, but we as a three never really got 0:11:23.040 --> 0:11:26.040 to be you know, together and go out. 0:11:26.080 --> 0:11:28.959 So we planned recently two weeks. 0:11:28.679 --> 0:11:31.360 Ago to go out and we was gonna have some 0:11:31.440 --> 0:11:32.600 drinks and white marsh. 0:11:32.640 --> 0:11:38.040 We up at the avenue. We spent two sixty three. 0:11:38.120 --> 0:11:40.679 I'll never forget two sixty three or some fucking women 0:11:40.760 --> 0:11:42.400 shots lemon drops. 0:11:42.600 --> 0:11:44.200 I'm a dark looking drinker. 0:11:44.360 --> 0:11:46.839 Thank God I didn't drink it that day, but I'm 0:11:46.920 --> 0:11:47.760 still fucked up. 0:11:47.880 --> 0:11:50.400 I took twenty one shots. I'll never forget. 0:11:50.679 --> 0:11:51.920 God damn bitch. 0:11:52.520 --> 0:11:55.240 In the midst of all of us were sitting there crying. 0:11:55.400 --> 0:11:57.120 We're talking about how much we love each. 0:11:56.920 --> 0:12:01.160 Other's telling me, you know, I'm so happy you've been 0:12:01.200 --> 0:12:02.080 involved in our. 0:12:02.000 --> 0:12:05.559 Family for so many years. You know, I love you 0:12:05.679 --> 0:12:06.240 like a cousin. 0:12:06.320 --> 0:12:12.520 Like we're really like embracing sisterhood, loving each other. Everybody's 0:12:12.559 --> 0:12:15.760 complimenting our relationship, and we're. 0:12:15.600 --> 0:12:20.920 Just having a wonderful fucking time. So and they backtracked 0:12:20.920 --> 0:12:21.440 for a second. 0:12:21.600 --> 0:12:26.880 I have also a cousin named Bri. Both of our cousins, 0:12:26.880 --> 0:12:30.200 me and Dad. Both of our cousins gorgeous. Both birds 0:12:30.320 --> 0:12:33.760 are fucking gorgeous. They're both the same age. They never 0:12:33.800 --> 0:12:36.880 were in the same friends. I never questioned it. I 0:12:37.000 --> 0:12:41.440 just assumed, you know, they have different friends. So maybe 0:12:41.559 --> 0:12:48.520 about four years ago, because a party, a nineties party, 0:12:49.080 --> 0:12:54.360 so Bri says to me, I don't know why your 0:12:54.440 --> 0:12:57.760 cousin Bri doesn't like me. I didn't think anything of it, 0:12:58.120 --> 0:13:01.400 but when I sold it up, I mentioned something to my. 0:13:01.360 --> 0:13:05.280 Breath about it, and my break is the sweetest person. 0:13:05.960 --> 0:13:06.960 She she don't. 0:13:06.800 --> 0:13:09.520 Usually, you know, get wild, but if need be necessary, 0:13:09.559 --> 0:13:13.360 she would, And she said she knows why I do 0:13:13.480 --> 0:13:14.199 not like her. 0:13:14.400 --> 0:13:17.520 She never cursed, never called out her name. She said. 0:13:17.559 --> 0:13:19.920 I stepped to her when we were in high school 0:13:19.960 --> 0:13:22.000 asked her if she slept with my boyfriend. 0:13:22.120 --> 0:13:25.320 She said no, and I left it alone and that 0:13:25.559 --> 0:13:25.760 was it. 0:13:26.520 --> 0:13:29.400 Okay, So I'm just about to be everywhere and I'm 0:13:29.440 --> 0:13:30.080 so sorry. 0:13:30.400 --> 0:13:32.080 You probably be like, you know what, fuck it shit 0:13:32.120 --> 0:13:33.720 ain't I ain't fucking miss Mitchell. 0:13:34.400 --> 0:13:34.840 Nah you. 0:13:36.720 --> 0:13:37.080 Okay? 0:13:37.200 --> 0:13:42.680 So Cousin last year, me and Bria go out bar hopping, 0:13:43.520 --> 0:13:47.200 and in the midst of us bar hopping, I'm so drunk, 0:13:47.280 --> 0:13:48.120 and I. 0:13:49.360 --> 0:13:52.240 I mean, I wouldn't okay, I'm so drunk. I look 0:13:52.280 --> 0:13:56.480 at birth. Damn, you look just like it's her aunt. 0:13:57.440 --> 0:14:00.640 And I said, damn, you don't even look like which 0:14:00.720 --> 0:14:03.079 is her mother. As I'm looking at you, you were 0:14:03.120 --> 0:14:05.040 just like I said, you know, i'd be funny. 0:14:05.480 --> 0:14:08.079 It would be so funny if it's a family secret 0:14:08.080 --> 0:14:10.240 that is actually your mother, and that it was not. 0:14:10.840 --> 0:14:14.720 I didn't notice that she had got uncomfortable as I 0:14:14.760 --> 0:14:15.080 said it. 0:14:15.120 --> 0:14:17.880 I did not. I was oblivious. I was drunk as hell. Wow. 0:14:18.520 --> 0:14:21.160 He caused me the next day and said, why did 0:14:21.240 --> 0:14:21.960 you say that? 0:14:22.320 --> 0:14:23.480 Although you didn't know. 0:14:24.720 --> 0:14:29.200 Always speculated that it's really her mother because she always 0:14:29.280 --> 0:14:31.400 asked about her birth father and she never got any 0:14:31.400 --> 0:14:36.400 answers from me. So now I'm feeling like shit, this 0:14:36.520 --> 0:14:40.040 is something that I never knew. She doesn't know who 0:14:40.120 --> 0:14:43.920 her biological father is. She senses that her aunt is 0:14:43.960 --> 0:14:47.360 actually her mother. Like, these are things I never knew. 0:14:47.360 --> 0:14:49.920 If I had known that, I would have never said 0:14:49.920 --> 0:14:51.120 that out of my mouth. 0:14:51.560 --> 0:14:55.760 And even he told me and she said, yeah, I've never. 0:14:55.600 --> 0:14:58.440 Seen pictures of them pregnant and there was never a 0:14:58.480 --> 0:15:02.240 baby shower of for so I speculate the same that 0:15:02.920 --> 0:15:03.760 she could. 0:15:03.560 --> 0:15:10.080 Be mother anyho. So after that happened, there was a shift. 0:15:11.040 --> 0:15:14.520 Did treat me a lot different. She was a little snappy. 0:15:14.640 --> 0:15:17.280 She would say little jabs here and there, but I 0:15:17.320 --> 0:15:19.200 know the bitch has a smart ass mouth, so I 0:15:19.240 --> 0:15:21.720 would let shit slide. And also I knew because I 0:15:21.720 --> 0:15:24.720 impacted her away where she cried so bad, so I 0:15:24.840 --> 0:15:29.080 let little shit slide here and there. Okay, Now fast 0:15:29.080 --> 0:15:31.920 forward to two weeks ago, so we're all out drinking. 0:15:32.600 --> 0:15:35.840 After we're leeve, we're leaving, we're heading out, and she. 0:15:35.880 --> 0:15:38.840 Said, you know what, it's just so crazy how that 0:15:38.920 --> 0:15:39.880 bitch doesn't like me. 0:15:39.960 --> 0:15:43.120 And I said, we're bitch. She said, your cousin. I said, 0:15:43.160 --> 0:15:48.520 we're cousin, she said, and then that's when the fumes started, 0:15:48.560 --> 0:15:50.440 because why are you bringing out my cousin. It was 0:15:50.480 --> 0:15:53.360 no need for her to bring up my cousin. Nobody 0:15:53.360 --> 0:15:56.920 said anything about anyone and my family, So where did 0:15:56.960 --> 0:15:59.120 this come from? And now she's drunk and shit, So 0:15:59.160 --> 0:16:02.400 I'm okay, let's talk about this. I said, why are 0:16:02.440 --> 0:16:04.600 you bringing out my family? She was like, I just 0:16:04.600 --> 0:16:06.520 want you to know that. I was just, you know, 0:16:06.600 --> 0:16:08.560 I was fing her in word. I don't say the 0:16:08.640 --> 0:16:11.120 N word. I was in word back then and I'm 0:16:11.160 --> 0:16:12.280 still fing him now. 0:16:13.720 --> 0:16:14.760 And that's when I lost it. 0:16:14.920 --> 0:16:17.120 Chest I mushed this bitch. 0:16:17.560 --> 0:16:20.000 I took my shit off. I said, let's fight. We 0:16:20.080 --> 0:16:22.320 in the middle of White Marsh. I'm trying to fight 0:16:22.440 --> 0:16:28.280 this bitch. Wrong story short. I was embarrassed by my 0:16:28.440 --> 0:16:32.480 actions because I could have waited, so we was away 0:16:32.480 --> 0:16:35.600 from fucking White Marsh and we was actually somewhere else, 0:16:35.640 --> 0:16:37.720 and I could have beat the shit out this bitch, 0:16:38.160 --> 0:16:42.520 but my brain is sacred to me. Ten years ago, 0:16:42.600 --> 0:16:46.040 she was in a coma. Like I don't know what happened. 0:16:46.080 --> 0:16:48.360 She was in a coma for six months. Out of 0:16:48.360 --> 0:16:50.520 the six months, I was at the hospital every night 0:16:50.600 --> 0:16:52.640 with her for five and a half months, and I 0:16:52.680 --> 0:16:54.160 had to go home because my girlfriend. 0:16:53.920 --> 0:16:58.640 Was missing me. But anyway, during that time I was suicidal. 0:17:00.000 --> 0:17:04.439 Saved my life just so when that situation happened with 0:17:04.520 --> 0:17:08.600 the other I was ready for war, and to this day. 0:17:08.480 --> 0:17:11.480 I'm still ready for war because I. 0:17:11.480 --> 0:17:16.000 Feel like I could never forgive for bringing up my cousin. 0:17:17.320 --> 0:17:18.960 Unless I liked the bitch. 0:17:19.240 --> 0:17:21.040 Yeah, so, as it was all. 0:17:20.920 --> 0:17:24.359 Said and done, contacts me the following day and with 0:17:24.440 --> 0:17:30.240 a lengthy text state and that she was embarrassed by 0:17:30.280 --> 0:17:34.679 my actions. That is not a threat to me that 0:17:34.760 --> 0:17:38.479 I could have easily whipped as any other time. That 0:17:38.560 --> 0:17:41.959 she is a state official. If someone would have recorded 0:17:42.040 --> 0:17:45.639 that and posted the online, she could have lost her job. 0:17:46.160 --> 0:17:48.760 I get that, I get it, and one day I 0:17:48.800 --> 0:17:51.919 will apologize to that bitch for that part right there. 0:17:52.560 --> 0:17:56.560 But are you checking your you know what? Okay? So 0:17:57.359 --> 0:18:00.240 just my question is what should I do now? What 0:18:00.440 --> 0:18:04.640 you savage, because I loved I love this, I love. 0:18:04.600 --> 0:18:09.359 You death and I'm actually hurt and the fact that 0:18:09.600 --> 0:18:11.000 I don't speak to her anymore. 0:18:11.440 --> 0:18:17.120 So would you, Savage? Like, what should I do? I'm everywhere, 0:18:17.320 --> 0:18:19.200 just I'm sorry. 0:18:19.359 --> 0:18:24.239 You know what, girl, It's fine, It's okay, man, hold up, 0:18:24.280 --> 0:18:26.200 hold up. I know the ship getting good. But listen 0:18:26.280 --> 0:18:28.239 to just a couple of seconds of a commercial. If 0:18:28.280 --> 0:18:32.479 you love me, you'll listen. Listen. I see this. You're 0:18:32.480 --> 0:18:35.240 a very passionate person about your friendsy and family and 0:18:35.240 --> 0:18:37.359 people that you do love. And you're a very loyal 0:18:37.760 --> 0:18:39.959 person too, you know what I'm saying. Sometimes we can 0:18:40.000 --> 0:18:41.880 be loyal to a fault, though, you get what I mean, 0:18:42.119 --> 0:18:45.240 because we're so loyal that we expect other people to 0:18:45.280 --> 0:18:47.480 be as loyal to us as we are to them. 0:18:47.760 --> 0:18:51.040 And I'm afraid that your friend she ain't like you. 0:18:51.119 --> 0:18:53.640 She cut from a different cloth. Obviously. Let me tell 0:18:53.640 --> 0:18:56.240 you something. What you did, you were not wrong for. 0:18:56.560 --> 0:18:59.200 Maybe you could have handled it another way, but you 0:18:59.320 --> 0:19:04.399 reacted not inhumanely. You reacted naturally. When somebody is coming 0:19:04.440 --> 0:19:07.720 at your family and you close with your family, whether 0:19:07.760 --> 0:19:10.639 that's a friend or not. Nigga, it's my family, and 0:19:10.680 --> 0:19:14.840 then liquor was involved. Nothing happened that day that I 0:19:14.880 --> 0:19:17.800 didn't expect to happen, or that don't need to be expected. 0:19:18.440 --> 0:19:21.560 She lied about fucking the nigga, Well, she lied to 0:19:21.600 --> 0:19:23.639 your cousin back in high school priorce so she wouldn't 0:19:23.680 --> 0:19:25.879 get ass beat back then, and then end up getting 0:19:25.920 --> 0:19:28.680 ass beat. Now, Yeah, that's what happened. When you lie 0:19:28.880 --> 0:19:31.360 and you be sneaky and you fuck somebody, you fuck 0:19:31.440 --> 0:19:33.880 on somebody's man, and when they come to you woman 0:19:33.960 --> 0:19:36.359 a woman, as cliche as that sounds, but when it 0:19:36.400 --> 0:19:38.560 comes to you and you lie about it, and then 0:19:38.640 --> 0:19:40.959 later on you want to get drunk and admit it. 0:19:41.440 --> 0:19:44.800 And I'm talking about brag about it. Bit you getting dragged, 0:19:45.440 --> 0:19:49.040 and you should not be dragged as the person who 0:19:49.119 --> 0:19:52.439 dragged her ass by your fucking friend, by nobody. You 0:19:52.480 --> 0:19:54.400 did well within your right what you thought was right 0:19:54.440 --> 0:19:57.159 for your people's you know what I'm saying now, Like 0:19:57.160 --> 0:19:58.720 I said, it could have been handled another way, and 0:19:58.720 --> 0:20:00.720