WEBVTT - Untraditionally: Panicking, Partying, and Prioritizing

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, gorgeous. It's La La Kent. Welcome to untraditionally Lala. Hey, babes,

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<v Speaker 1>it's La La Kent, Welcome to untraditionally Lala. Oh my gosh.

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<v Speaker 1>Last week, what a vibe. So I had Amber Childers

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<v Speaker 1>as my first guest on my Reinvented podcast, and I

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<v Speaker 1>was so nervous because I was coming in and I'm like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>even though the podcast is being reinvented, like I'm still

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<v Speaker 1>still lalla. But there was something that happened that day

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<v Speaker 1>where I don't want to say that I was in

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<v Speaker 1>my head because it was actually quite the opposite. It

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<v Speaker 1>was like, for the first time doing that episode with Amber,

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<v Speaker 1>I was not having an out of body experience, like

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<v Speaker 1>I felt very much in tune with myself the conversation,

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<v Speaker 1>and that is when I knew, like, Wow, this reinvented

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<v Speaker 1>podcast really is ringing true to who I am. And

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<v Speaker 1>that was the best feeling in the world. And now

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<v Speaker 1>you guys have been able to hear the episode and

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<v Speaker 1>you've seen the new photo and the new name, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm really into the fact that you guys are into it,

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<v Speaker 1>because that is always like nerve wracking. You're like Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>we're making a change, but like, is am I gonna

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<v Speaker 1>like cracker barrel my ass off with this whole? Like

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<v Speaker 1>is my stock gonna plummet? Am I gonna have to

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<v Speaker 1>go back anyway? We don't even have to worry about

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<v Speaker 1>it because it didn't end up that way. So thank

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<v Speaker 1>you guys for listening, thank you for sticking with me,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you for remembering me on our downtime. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to start with this is my first solo episode I've

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<v Speaker 1>ever done, and I'm tripping balls, Like I think the

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<v Speaker 1>only time I've done something solo solo is when I

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<v Speaker 1>do Amazon Live. But Easton's there so I can kind of,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, talk some shit, and I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not talking ad people, So just roll with me.

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<v Speaker 1>This is new. It's just all new experiences. I had

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<v Speaker 1>a really amazing and nerve racking experience last week. And

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<v Speaker 1>before I jump into that, because I'm really excited to

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<v Speaker 1>tell you guys about it, but today my daughter Ocean

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<v Speaker 1>is going to an eye doctor appointment. And what I've

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<v Speaker 1>noticed is she's got when she looks up, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>only when she looks up her eyes kind of go.

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<v Speaker 1>And I don't want this to come across as mean.

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<v Speaker 1>I love my daughter. She's stunning, but she starts looking

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<v Speaker 1>like a lizard. And so I'm kind of freaking out

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<v Speaker 1>because we went to one doctor and they were like, there's,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, nothing we can really do. You can do

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<v Speaker 1>surgery if it bothers you, but unless you know she's

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<v Speaker 1>got vision issues, then like, we wouldn't tell you to

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<v Speaker 1>go and do surgery. And I'm like, you know, I really,

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<v Speaker 1>at four and a half years old, don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>have surgery for my daughter. She's young. But at the

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<v Speaker 1>same time, if it's something that can't be fixed unless

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<v Speaker 1>we do surgery, do I rock it until she says, like, Mom,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to do the surgery. They said, doing it

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<v Speaker 1>younger is the way to go. Like, I don't know,

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<v Speaker 1>you guys, I know I'm probably being a nutjob, but

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<v Speaker 1>this is what I've been dealing with all morning. We'll

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<v Speaker 1>see what this second doctor says about her eyes. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what the actual medical term for the condition is.

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<v Speaker 1>I call it a lazy eye, which is like Layman's terms.

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<v Speaker 1>My mom has one. It's genetic less than like thirty

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<v Speaker 1>percent of people, which I guess seems like a lot.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe that's wrong. It's a very low percentage of people

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<v Speaker 1>who were born with a lazy eye actually have someone

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<v Speaker 1>a part of their family who inherits it. That's just

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<v Speaker 1>what I've been told. I don't know no doctor, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>no scientific science person. I'm just I'm just listening to

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<v Speaker 1>what I listened to and spewing it onto you. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>let's talk about my experience, because the past I want

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<v Speaker 1>to say, Well, since Ocean was born, it's you know,

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<v Speaker 1>four and a half years, my life has taken a

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<v Speaker 1>bit of a turn, and I have to think about

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<v Speaker 1>things that I normally wouldn't have to think about. And

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<v Speaker 1>I started realizing how the stakes were much higher when

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<v Speaker 1>my business manager called me and said, you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>have Ocean. We really need to get you life insurance.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, what the fuck is this? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I've seen twenty twenty where people kill people for life insurance, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>why do I need it? No one's trying to kill me.

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<v Speaker 1>It's much much broader than that. So we're going through

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<v Speaker 1>just all of these questions and the process of getting

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<v Speaker 1>life insurance for myself in case something happens to me.

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<v Speaker 1>And then Sos is born and we have to go

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<v Speaker 1>back and do the whole bit again of like doing

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<v Speaker 1>the blood tests, answering the questions. It's like a very

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<v Speaker 1>long process to get life insurance and then my eye

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<v Speaker 1>situation appears. Right. So, for those of you who don't know,

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<v Speaker 1>this was probably I think it was in May. I

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<v Speaker 1>noticed the slightest discolor on my eye and the color

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<v Speaker 1>was like very like a faint butter yellow. Butter yellow's

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<v Speaker 1>very in these days, right, But I'm not trying to

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<v Speaker 1>have it on my fucking eye. I don't need my

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<v Speaker 1>eye wearing butter yellow. Okay, body cool ie, not happening.

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<v Speaker 1>And I googled it and it said, you know, this

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<v Speaker 1>is basically the equivalent to a callus on your hand.

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<v Speaker 1>Your eye with just like the natural elements will start

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<v Speaker 1>forming what is called the pininguecula and it's like a

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<v Speaker 1>very slight yellowish discoloration. There's nothing you can do about it.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm like, all right, sexy, fine whatever. This was

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<v Speaker 1>probably a few months before I went to the optometrist

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<v Speaker 1>in May. They tell me, uh, you know, not to

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<v Speaker 1>worry about it at my initial appointment. But I'm starting

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<v Speaker 1>to notice that this faint yellow spot is now having

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<v Speaker 1>like these bright veins going right to it, and I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>that looks not right. I'm like, this looks like these

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<v Speaker 1>veins may be feeding this pinguacula. I hate that fucking name.

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<v Speaker 1>By the way, It's so every time I say it,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, ugh, it gives me like the ick, kind

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<v Speaker 1>of like moist. It's like pinguacula. Oh, vomit. So I'm

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<v Speaker 1>luminifying my ass off. That's working. But then it starts

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<v Speaker 1>to get raised and it almost looks like a blister

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<v Speaker 1>and it's bright red, but the actual pinguecula is like white.

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<v Speaker 1>I go back into the optometrist. They're like, hey, we

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<v Speaker 1>need to just give you a steroid. It's inflamed. I'm like, excellent.

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<v Speaker 1>So I at this point in time am set to

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<v Speaker 1>go to film a show overseas. I'm not gonna say

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<v Speaker 1>what the show is. You guys know it. I'm super excited,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'm like, holy fuck, I can't be on camera

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<v Speaker 1>with this shit on my eye. So I'm calling every

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<v Speaker 1>doctor i possibly can to like get myself into surgery

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<v Speaker 1>to remove it so I can go and film this show.

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<v Speaker 1>In the meantime, I have Lindsey Hubbs hitting me up

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<v Speaker 1>being like I had the surgery. My eyes still read.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm getting a lot of people in the DMS, and

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<v Speaker 1>I apologize if you've heard this story already, but it

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<v Speaker 1>leads to why I went and did what I did

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<v Speaker 1>a couple days ago. So I text my friend who's

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<v Speaker 1>like a grandfather to me, Robert Shapiro. I've known him

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<v Speaker 1>for many years. He has hooked me up with a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of people in the past. If it's you know

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<v Speaker 1>something that is urgent and I need it immediately, I

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<v Speaker 1>call Bob. I said, I have this thing on my eye.

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta get it taken care of. He sends me

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<v Speaker 1>to a specialist that he highly recommends. This guy is

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<v Speaker 1>super hard to get into. He gets me in the

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<v Speaker 1>next day, he takes one look at it, you guys,

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<v Speaker 1>and says, that's not a penguecula. That is pre cancer,

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<v Speaker 1>and I would like you to go to another specialist

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<v Speaker 1>who's also very difficult to get into, just to make sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe she does a biopsy. The next day they get

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<v Speaker 1>me in, she takes one look at it. She was like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, he wants me to buyopsy it, but I

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<v Speaker 1>don't need to biopsy it because I know what it is.

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<v Speaker 1>It's pre cancer, and we're going to be starting you

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<v Speaker 1>on five f you drops, which are chemotherapy drops in

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<v Speaker 1>the eye. And I told her, well, girl, I got

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<v Speaker 1>to be out of here in a few weeks. And

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<v Speaker 1>she laughed at me and she was like, you're not

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<v Speaker 1>going anywhere. You will be in this office every two

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<v Speaker 1>weeks for the next three months, and after that we're

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<v Speaker 1>going to reevaluate, and if all goes as planned, the

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<v Speaker 1>five f you will help, and then I'm going to

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<v Speaker 1>see you every four months for the rest of your life.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, excellent, Wow, this is really fucking weird.

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<v Speaker 1>I asked her, like, what causes this, and she was like, honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>it's bad luck. There are many people who are in

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<v Speaker 1>the sun all the time. There are many people who

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<v Speaker 1>are exposed to the natural elements of life and they

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<v Speaker 1>don't get pre cancer in their eyes. So cut to

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<v Speaker 1>where we are now, the pre cancer is gone. The

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<v Speaker 1>five FU drops worked beautifully. My body responded amazing. I

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<v Speaker 1>had little to no side effects at all. But now

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<v Speaker 1>I start tweaking out because I'm hearing about all of

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<v Speaker 1>these people who, you know, they had a headache or

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<v Speaker 1>they had something on their arm and then it turned

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<v Speaker 1>out to be something catastrophic. So for me, I was thinking,

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<v Speaker 1>where did this thing in my eye, this pre cancer

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<v Speaker 1>come from? Where did it start? Like I I'm all

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<v Speaker 1>about falling back when something makes sense the whole, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>just bad luck. There's no reason it doesn't work for me,

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<v Speaker 1>even though that could very well be the case. Right again,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm no doctor, so I reached out to Preneuvo. For

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<v Speaker 1>those of you who don't know what Preneuvo is, they

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<v Speaker 1>do MRI scans. They do it for your head. They

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<v Speaker 1>also do full body and because this thing in my eye,

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<v Speaker 1>I've been experiencing weird, tingling sensations that go from the

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<v Speaker 1>center of my head up to the top. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>get headaches often, but I do suffer from migraines on occasion,

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<v Speaker 1>which is why I also love botox. I love it

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<v Speaker 1>because it de wrinkles my forehead and makes my forehead

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<v Speaker 1>look like glass, but it also minimizes my migraines. So

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, I got to get in just for

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<v Speaker 1>peace of mind. And let's remember, I want to say

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<v Speaker 1>that I live a pretty healthy lifestyle now, like it's

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<v Speaker 1>well balanced. I exercise, I feel like I eat well

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<v Speaker 1>on occasional smack McDonald's, like who doesn't. But also I

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<v Speaker 1>have to remember what I did in my past. I

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<v Speaker 1>was a heavy drinker back in the day. I was

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<v Speaker 1>a vapor back in the day, And I just want

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<v Speaker 1>to make sure that all of those things, although I

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<v Speaker 1>don't do them now, have they followed me in too

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<v Speaker 1>thirty five And there's just so many things that we

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<v Speaker 1>talk about and hear about it. It's like the microplastics,

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<v Speaker 1>and then you hear about someone who lived such a

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<v Speaker 1>healthy lifestyle and like dropped dead from a heart attack.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to know what the fuck is going on

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<v Speaker 1>in my body period. I'm going to read this on here.

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<v Speaker 1>A preneuvo scan is whole body MRI scan that detects

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<v Speaker 1>over five hundred potential medical conditions, including cancers, cys aneurysms,

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<v Speaker 1>often before symptoms even appear. So this is what I

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<v Speaker 1>was told when I went in and they were walking

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<v Speaker 1>me through it. They said, the reason why cancer is

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<v Speaker 1>such a terrifying word is because there's no symptoms, and

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<v Speaker 1>by the time you catch it, you're in stage three

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<v Speaker 1>or four. So what if there was a machine that

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<v Speaker 1>you could do once a year that could catch it

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<v Speaker 1>before you hit those stages where the survival rate is

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<v Speaker 1>ninety percent plus. I like those odds. I'm not a gambler,

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<v Speaker 1>But if you're telling me that you can put me

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<v Speaker 1>in a machine once a year and look at every

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<v Speaker 1>single thing in my body and then send me off

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<v Speaker 1>to the races, knowing that my children will not have

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<v Speaker 1>to use the life insurance that I've gotten for them, like,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to do that. So I go in the

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<v Speaker 1>first question, though, you guys are like, so are you claustrophobic?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, well, I mean, I don't know what are

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<v Speaker 1>you putting me in here? I've never done this before,

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<v Speaker 1>Like I don't think I am, but like, no one's

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<v Speaker 1>putting me in small tubes on the rag, So I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>not really sure before we even start or if you

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<v Speaker 1>guys ever choose to do this, which I highly recommend

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<v Speaker 1>if you are claustrophobic, I most definitely take like a

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<v Speaker 1>beta blocker and on the form with prenuvo that they

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<v Speaker 1>send you that you fill out, like one of the

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<v Speaker 1>first questions is are you claustrophobic? If you are, they'll

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<v Speaker 1>prescribe something to you at your pharmacy and all will

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<v Speaker 1>be good. Let me tell you something. This place, this

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<v Speaker 1>is what I'm gonna rave about the most. They put

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<v Speaker 1>Netflix on for me. I literally walk in there like

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<v Speaker 1>are you claustrophobic? I said, we're gonna find out together,

0:13:27.000 --> 0:13:29.440
<v Speaker 1>and they said would you like Netflix? And I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>Seinfeld is on Netflix, so that's gonna be a fuck

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<v Speaker 1>yeah for me. And the way that they lay you

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<v Speaker 1>in there, I'm like, oh, this is totally fun and

0:13:38.760 --> 0:13:41.360
<v Speaker 1>like I'm vibing. Oh no, oh no, bitches, just see

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<v Speaker 1>you wait because I'm like, this is how it is.

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<v Speaker 1>They're gonna shoot me through the two I'm gonna have

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<v Speaker 1>a heyday. Oh my god. They're like patting my legs.

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<v Speaker 1>They've got something over my legs and I'm like, okay,

0:13:52.160 --> 0:13:54.360
<v Speaker 1>that's kind of nice. It moves to my size that

0:13:54.400 --> 0:13:57.079
<v Speaker 1>they pad and I'm like, right, it's like a way

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<v Speaker 1>to blink it. We're fine. Then my stomach and I

0:13:59.679 --> 0:14:02.080
<v Speaker 1>was like all right now, now I'm starting to feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm panicking. Then they put something over your face,

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<v Speaker 1>your head from here down to maybe like mid tit

0:14:13.200 --> 0:14:15.960
<v Speaker 1>maybe chest, I don't know, depending if you have fake

0:14:16.000 --> 0:14:20.600
<v Speaker 1>boobs or not. And there's the smallest little hole at

0:14:20.600 --> 0:14:22.680
<v Speaker 1>the top of you, guys, and I was like, okay,

0:14:22.760 --> 0:14:25.960
<v Speaker 1>law you know what, You're a fucking bad bitch. This

0:14:26.160 --> 0:14:29.040
<v Speaker 1>is where you're gonna sit and you're going to you

0:14:29.200 --> 0:14:31.800
<v Speaker 1>preach all the time about like if your mind is

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<v Speaker 1>powerful enough to talk you into something, it's most certainly

0:14:35.280 --> 0:14:38.120
<v Speaker 1>powerful enough to talk you out of something. So I'm

0:14:38.160 --> 0:14:41.840
<v Speaker 1>actively talking myself out of claustrophobia. It was the most

0:14:41.840 --> 0:14:44.720
<v Speaker 1>difficult thing I've ever fucking done, because like, too late, man,

0:14:44.760 --> 0:14:48.400
<v Speaker 1>they can't prescribe me something like at my pharmacy. We're here.

0:14:49.440 --> 0:14:52.240
<v Speaker 1>Then they put this like mirror on top of it,

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<v Speaker 1>so through the hole there's a big screen TV in

0:14:55.320 --> 0:14:57.920
<v Speaker 1>the back of you, and the mirror shows you Seinfeld

0:14:58.800 --> 0:15:01.160
<v Speaker 1>or whatever you want to watch. I highly recommend Seinfeld

0:15:01.920 --> 0:15:05.440
<v Speaker 1>because they put me into the thing and in the headphones,

0:15:05.480 --> 0:15:08.400
<v Speaker 1>you guys put me into the MRI machine. In the headphones,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like balls deep Overary's Deep and Seinfeld and just

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<v Speaker 1>living my best life. They're telling me what to do,

0:15:15.960 --> 0:15:19.080
<v Speaker 1>like breathe in, breathe out. If it's a woman like it,

0:15:19.320 --> 0:15:25.000
<v Speaker 1>like an AI character, breathe in, breathe out, hold your breath.

0:15:25.800 --> 0:15:27.840
<v Speaker 1>And there were a few times that I was so

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<v Speaker 1>so dout watching Seinfeld. I didn't fucking do it. I

0:15:30.960 --> 0:15:34.800
<v Speaker 1>was chilling. I'm sure they were looking at my brain activity,

0:15:34.880 --> 0:15:38.800
<v Speaker 1>being like this woman might be brainde because there's not

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<v Speaker 1>much happening, not much brain activity. He would come through

0:15:42.560 --> 0:15:44.400
<v Speaker 1>the guy like running the machine. He'd come through on

0:15:44.400 --> 0:15:46.520
<v Speaker 1>the speaker and be like, Hey, so we're just gonna

0:15:46.520 --> 0:15:48.800
<v Speaker 1>do that again. If you could just listen to the woman,

0:15:48.880 --> 0:15:50.920
<v Speaker 1>she's gonna tell you exactly what to do. When you

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<v Speaker 1>just have to follow exactly what she tells you to

0:15:53.040 --> 0:15:56.320
<v Speaker 1>do him like, you would think that's simple, right, You

0:15:56.360 --> 0:16:00.120
<v Speaker 1>would think that's a simple thing to do. So I

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<v Speaker 1>will say the overall of like if you're claustrophobic, totally easy.

0:16:05.080 --> 0:16:08.360
<v Speaker 1>If you get claustrophobic, take a beta blocker. They have

0:16:08.440 --> 0:16:12.440
<v Speaker 1>twenty two locations prenew Vo does, and they have said

0:16:12.560 --> 0:16:17.360
<v Speaker 1>that their goal is to have some They want it

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<v Speaker 1>in every major city so that no matter where you

0:16:19.680 --> 0:16:22.680
<v Speaker 1>are in the United States, there's one that you can

0:16:22.760 --> 0:16:26.800
<v Speaker 1>drive to. And I loved this because when I was

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<v Speaker 1>talking to I guess the tech she was so kind,

0:16:35.160 --> 0:16:38.560
<v Speaker 1>but she was like, if you think about it, when

0:16:38.600 --> 0:16:43.200
<v Speaker 1>you go into a doctor, you're allotted. Let's just say

0:16:43.200 --> 0:16:45.840
<v Speaker 1>an average, give or take of seven minutes. They have

0:16:45.920 --> 0:16:51.080
<v Speaker 1>seven minutes per patient, and you, in that moment, are

0:16:51.680 --> 0:16:54.840
<v Speaker 1>a statistic to them. No, doctors do great work. I

0:16:54.840 --> 0:16:57.720
<v Speaker 1>don't want to dismiss what doctors do for us, like

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<v Speaker 1>I'm all about science and all of the thing. But

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<v Speaker 1>she put it so perfectly. You at thirty five years old, La, La,

0:17:04.880 --> 0:17:07.520
<v Speaker 1>You go into a doctor and you say, I'm having

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<v Speaker 1>something going on in my head. I'm concerned. Tell me

0:17:11.800 --> 0:17:15.639
<v Speaker 1>what you're feeling. I'm feeling this. I'm concerned that I

0:17:15.720 --> 0:17:20.159
<v Speaker 1>may have something going on in my head, tumor whatever

0:17:20.240 --> 0:17:23.919
<v Speaker 1>word you want to place in there. They're immediately going

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<v Speaker 1>to say, from her chart, she's thirty five years old,

0:17:27.160 --> 0:17:30.359
<v Speaker 1>she doesn't drink, doesn't smoke. They're going to say, statistically,

0:17:30.400 --> 0:17:34.920
<v Speaker 1>this is a healthy human. The likelihood of her having

0:17:35.240 --> 0:17:38.520
<v Speaker 1>a brain tumor is very low. They're not going to

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<v Speaker 1>give you an MRI. It's basically like a prescription. A

0:17:42.400 --> 0:17:46.879
<v Speaker 1>doctor prescribes you a pill. A doctor prescribes you an MRI,

0:17:47.880 --> 0:17:51.480
<v Speaker 1>and those MRIs that you have done run upwards. And

0:17:51.520 --> 0:17:54.200
<v Speaker 1>this blew my mind when she told me this run

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<v Speaker 1>upwards of twenty thousand dollars and they take three to

0:17:58.640 --> 0:18:04.800
<v Speaker 1>four hours to do a full body MRI. Preneuvo has

0:18:06.000 --> 0:18:10.000
<v Speaker 1>the location I went to. They have five machines. The

0:18:10.160 --> 0:18:14.320
<v Speaker 1>overall appointment in total was seventy minutes. I was in

0:18:14.359 --> 0:18:18.240
<v Speaker 1>the machine for forty five So for context, I watched

0:18:19.119 --> 0:18:23.000
<v Speaker 1>two episodes of Seinfeld and then the beginning stand up

0:18:23.080 --> 0:18:26.240
<v Speaker 1>part of like Jerry Seinfeld. That's that's how long the

0:18:26.280 --> 0:18:32.040
<v Speaker 1>appointment while I was in the machine. And these full

0:18:32.080 --> 0:18:37.160
<v Speaker 1>body scans at Preneuvo are twenty five hundred dollars. Now,

0:18:37.160 --> 0:18:39.280
<v Speaker 1>I know that everyone is going to hear that. I

0:18:39.359 --> 0:18:42.240
<v Speaker 1>know that that is. That's a lot of money that

0:18:42.359 --> 0:18:45.160
<v Speaker 1>is not lost on me. If we're going to compare

0:18:46.359 --> 0:18:50.640
<v Speaker 1>twenty five hundred dollars, No one needs to say to you, yes,

0:18:51.160 --> 0:18:53.159
<v Speaker 1>this is what you need. I'm going to give you

0:18:53.200 --> 0:18:55.240
<v Speaker 1>a phone number. You're gonna call them, tell them that

0:18:55.320 --> 0:18:57.800
<v Speaker 1>this is your doctor. I'll send over your paperwork. You

0:18:57.880 --> 0:19:00.680
<v Speaker 1>literally pick up the phone, you call them, and you say,

0:19:00.760 --> 0:19:06.120
<v Speaker 1>I want a full body MRI. No questions asked, You're there, right,

0:19:06.359 --> 0:19:08.600
<v Speaker 1>you can get the sky on twenty five hundred dollars.

0:19:09.600 --> 0:19:11.880
<v Speaker 1>I know it's a lot of money, but that compared

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<v Speaker 1>to twenty thousand plus to see what's going on in

0:19:16.440 --> 0:19:21.119
<v Speaker 1>your body. There's nothing more important than your health. My

0:19:21.240 --> 0:19:24.600
<v Speaker 1>mom has always said, without your health, you have nothing.

0:19:25.000 --> 0:19:26.919
<v Speaker 1>You would have all the money in the world, you

0:19:26.960 --> 0:19:30.159
<v Speaker 1>could be doing all of the funniest, most fantastic things

0:19:30.200 --> 0:19:34.520
<v Speaker 1>on the planet. If you're not healthy, there's a really,

0:19:34.560 --> 0:19:37.720
<v Speaker 1>really big problem. Right, you can't live a happy life.

0:19:38.640 --> 0:19:42.760
<v Speaker 1>So I don't know when it switched for me. I

0:19:42.840 --> 0:19:46.280
<v Speaker 1>used to be in the mindset of keeping my blinders

0:19:46.320 --> 0:19:50.399
<v Speaker 1>on and not knowing something. I'm better off because then

0:19:50.400 --> 0:19:54.800
<v Speaker 1>I'll stress about it. But there's so many things that

0:19:55.160 --> 0:19:59.600
<v Speaker 1>you could be feeling in your legs, your arms, your back,

0:20:00.040 --> 0:20:03.240
<v Speaker 1>whatever it may be. And the tech was talking to

0:20:03.280 --> 0:20:05.520
<v Speaker 1>me saying, you know, you could be feeling something in

0:20:05.520 --> 0:20:07.359
<v Speaker 1>your head and it has nothing to do with your head,

0:20:07.440 --> 0:20:11.520
<v Speaker 1>because your body, it's all connected, it's all firing to

0:20:11.640 --> 0:20:13.480
<v Speaker 1>each other. And what this scan is going to do

0:20:13.560 --> 0:20:17.719
<v Speaker 1>is get to the root of the problem. And you know,

0:20:18.280 --> 0:20:21.800
<v Speaker 1>me thinking about my health. You know, I think most

0:20:21.840 --> 0:20:25.720
<v Speaker 1>people that listen to this podcast, you know, we have

0:20:25.840 --> 0:20:30.840
<v Speaker 1>loved ones, we're parents. We think about what life would

0:20:30.840 --> 0:20:34.760
<v Speaker 1>be like if we weren't here. Anymore, at least I

0:20:34.840 --> 0:20:38.320
<v Speaker 1>do since I had children and I have a very

0:20:38.440 --> 0:20:43.680
<v Speaker 1>as you guys know, untraditional households. I have a four

0:20:43.760 --> 0:20:47.800
<v Speaker 1>year old Ocean with somebody. She has a dad. It's

0:20:47.920 --> 0:20:51.200
<v Speaker 1>very not normal, but I had her the old fashioned way,

0:20:51.760 --> 0:20:56.119
<v Speaker 1>and then Sosa, who was conceived via donor. If something

0:20:56.160 --> 0:20:59.520
<v Speaker 1>were to happen to me, you guys, I'm not going

0:20:59.560 --> 0:21:01.280
<v Speaker 1>to get a mo I'm going to keep my head

0:21:01.280 --> 0:21:04.919
<v Speaker 1>on straight and breathe. Something were to happen to me,

0:21:06.600 --> 0:21:09.800
<v Speaker 1>And I thought about this while I was doing my

0:21:09.880 --> 0:21:14.240
<v Speaker 1>life insurance as well. Ocean has a dad, so we

0:21:14.359 --> 0:21:19.520
<v Speaker 1>know where where she would go. And there is a

0:21:19.680 --> 0:21:24.000
<v Speaker 1>very high possibility because I don't trust the other side

0:21:24.040 --> 0:21:26.800
<v Speaker 1>and the other side probably doesn't trust me, and that's fine.

0:21:26.840 --> 0:21:29.560
<v Speaker 1>It is what it is. There's a high possibility that

0:21:29.720 --> 0:21:37.080
<v Speaker 1>my brother, my mom, and Sosa, Ocean's sister would never

0:21:37.119 --> 0:21:42.280
<v Speaker 1>see Ocean again till you know, she was old enough

0:21:42.400 --> 0:21:47.680
<v Speaker 1>to reach out. That would be a possibility, and that's

0:21:47.720 --> 0:21:51.280
<v Speaker 1>something that has always weighed heavy on me, and I've

0:21:51.359 --> 0:21:55.320
<v Speaker 1>put in in paperwork. You know, if something happens to me,

0:21:56.600 --> 0:21:59.240
<v Speaker 1>there needs to be a significant amount of money that

0:21:59.359 --> 0:22:03.000
<v Speaker 1>goes to my family. Not just to take care of them,

0:22:03.160 --> 0:22:05.560
<v Speaker 1>but if they need to fight for ocean, they have

0:22:05.680 --> 0:22:10.840
<v Speaker 1>the means to do so. Sosa. I know this sounds horrible.

0:22:11.320 --> 0:22:13.359
<v Speaker 1>If I weren't here anymore, this is so morbid. I'm

0:22:13.400 --> 0:22:15.439
<v Speaker 1>sorry that I'm even going here, but I think it's

0:22:15.440 --> 0:22:17.919
<v Speaker 1>important to talk about because we all need to be

0:22:18.000 --> 0:22:20.440
<v Speaker 1>on our game and have a plan B. I live

0:22:20.560 --> 0:22:26.000
<v Speaker 1>by a plan B, Sosa, I worry less about because

0:22:26.000 --> 0:22:28.119
<v Speaker 1>if something were to happen to me, I know that

0:22:28.160 --> 0:22:30.960
<v Speaker 1>she is in the best of hands. She's got my mom,

0:22:31.040 --> 0:22:39.439
<v Speaker 1>she's got my brother. But the real reasoning for me

0:22:39.600 --> 0:22:46.159
<v Speaker 1>going into preneuvo was to know that God forbid, I

0:22:46.240 --> 0:22:48.600
<v Speaker 1>have something going on which I don't have the results

0:22:48.640 --> 0:22:52.680
<v Speaker 1>back yet I will be able to get a hold

0:22:52.680 --> 0:22:56.640
<v Speaker 1>of it before it's too late, and if everything goes

0:22:56.680 --> 0:22:59.840
<v Speaker 1>to shit for real, I just want to know what's

0:22:59.800 --> 0:23:02.119
<v Speaker 1>going going on so that my girls are going to

0:23:02.200 --> 0:23:05.000
<v Speaker 1>have each other. I know that sounds so dark, but

0:23:05.080 --> 0:23:08.560
<v Speaker 1>that's where my mind goes when I think about things

0:23:08.600 --> 0:23:12.640
<v Speaker 1>like this. So that's where my mind goes. And I'm

0:23:12.640 --> 0:23:16.040
<v Speaker 1>sorry that I got maybe a little too deep and

0:23:16.160 --> 0:23:20.560
<v Speaker 1>dark and a little morbid, but that's just the way

0:23:20.880 --> 0:23:26.480
<v Speaker 1>my perspective and life and outlook have shifted since since

0:23:26.520 --> 0:23:29.160
<v Speaker 1>having kids, and I know I'm not the only one

0:23:29.200 --> 0:23:34.439
<v Speaker 1>who who looks at life this way. I really really

0:23:34.520 --> 0:23:39.800
<v Speaker 1>do take I like to think great care of myself.

0:23:40.760 --> 0:23:43.880
<v Speaker 1>You know, my kids are my number one priority and

0:23:44.440 --> 0:23:48.280
<v Speaker 1>I live and breathe for them. They're the They're the

0:23:48.560 --> 0:23:51.800
<v Speaker 1>besides my sobriety, because without my sobriety, I wouldn't be

0:23:51.800 --> 0:23:53.960
<v Speaker 1>able to do any of the things I do. But

0:23:54.040 --> 0:23:57.199
<v Speaker 1>they're the proudest thing that I have ever done in

0:23:57.240 --> 0:24:04.520
<v Speaker 1>my life. And without me taking care of myself, everything

0:24:04.640 --> 0:24:08.439
<v Speaker 1>is just kind of gonna fall apart. And I do

0:24:08.600 --> 0:24:11.280
<v Speaker 1>when people ask me when they say, how do you balance?

0:24:11.280 --> 0:24:13.560
<v Speaker 1>How do you prioritize? And that's not always easy, and

0:24:13.600 --> 0:24:18.119
<v Speaker 1>I understand that. You know, it's hard when we're waking

0:24:18.200 --> 0:24:22.400
<v Speaker 1>up and taking care of kids, making lunches, doing drop off.

0:24:23.040 --> 0:24:26.359
<v Speaker 1>You know you could fit time before all of that

0:24:26.560 --> 0:24:29.719
<v Speaker 1>to go work out, But like, who wants to fucking

0:24:29.840 --> 0:24:33.920
<v Speaker 1>do that? Or this sounds like so much fun, you guys,

0:24:33.960 --> 0:24:37.080
<v Speaker 1>after the longest day of taking care of everybody else,

0:24:37.160 --> 0:24:39.639
<v Speaker 1>then you go work out. I'm not trying to fucking

0:24:39.680 --> 0:24:43.520
<v Speaker 1>do that either, Like it's a lot. The balancing act

0:24:43.720 --> 0:24:48.040
<v Speaker 1>you are seen, I am with you. There's got to

0:24:48.240 --> 0:24:52.720
<v Speaker 1>be a version of us being able to be present

0:24:52.760 --> 0:24:55.520
<v Speaker 1>for our families and also taking care of ourselves. So

0:24:55.640 --> 0:24:59.159
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to be totally honest. When the clock hits

0:24:59.200 --> 0:25:03.040
<v Speaker 1>a certain point at night and my daughter, Ocean, who

0:25:03.119 --> 0:25:05.800
<v Speaker 1>still sleeps with me, you guys, and you know, last

0:25:05.880 --> 0:25:08.280
<v Speaker 1>night she was moving all over the bed and I

0:25:08.320 --> 0:25:10.679
<v Speaker 1>was like, that's it. Tomorrow night, she's going in her

0:25:10.720 --> 0:25:12.880
<v Speaker 1>own bed. We're gonna start sleeping in our own bed.

0:25:12.880 --> 0:25:16.600
<v Speaker 1>And I had a moment of pause, going if I

0:25:16.680 --> 0:25:20.000
<v Speaker 1>put her in her own bed, that's another phase of

0:25:20.080 --> 0:25:22.480
<v Speaker 1>life that has just closed that will never come back.

0:25:23.720 --> 0:25:26.280
<v Speaker 1>And then of course I cry because that's just who

0:25:26.280 --> 0:25:29.159
<v Speaker 1>I am. And I'm like, okay, we're not putting her

0:25:29.160 --> 0:25:31.480
<v Speaker 1>in her own bed because I'm gonna miss the moving around.

0:25:31.520 --> 0:25:34.119
<v Speaker 1>I'm not ready for that phase to close. We'll just

0:25:34.160 --> 0:25:36.119
<v Speaker 1>wake up and look tired and puffy every day, like

0:25:36.119 --> 0:25:38.320
<v Speaker 1>I don't give a fuck, right, we'll look hot at

0:25:38.320 --> 0:25:41.240
<v Speaker 1>some point. Again, today's not the day. Tomorrow won't be either.

0:25:41.720 --> 0:25:55.720
<v Speaker 1>We've got makeup. Fuck it. So Ocean sleeps with me,

0:25:56.840 --> 0:25:58.920
<v Speaker 1>but there are times where she'll get out of bed

0:25:58.960 --> 0:26:00.720
<v Speaker 1>like I'm very I don't want to I say strict,

0:26:01.800 --> 0:26:05.720
<v Speaker 1>but I'm I like my routine. I am a virgo.

0:26:05.880 --> 0:26:09.280
<v Speaker 1>If the wind blows in a direction that I was

0:26:09.320 --> 0:26:14.040
<v Speaker 1>not planning, I panic, so I start. I remember saying

0:26:14.040 --> 0:26:15.560
<v Speaker 1>to my mom the other day, because she was like,

0:26:15.560 --> 0:26:19.280
<v Speaker 1>we're gonna bake cookies. I go, it's five thirty and

0:26:19.320 --> 0:26:23.560
<v Speaker 1>my mom goes, ooh. I was like, I'm such a

0:26:23.560 --> 0:26:27.040
<v Speaker 1>fucking square. But I said that because I'm like, you're

0:26:27.160 --> 0:26:29.000
<v Speaker 1>you're telling her you're gonna bake cookies. She still has

0:26:29.040 --> 0:26:31.480
<v Speaker 1>a plate of food. You're gonna spend the next hour

0:26:31.560 --> 0:26:33.720
<v Speaker 1>try and get her to eat that, and now you've

0:26:33.760 --> 0:26:36.880
<v Speaker 1>promised this is putting us at the seven o'clock hour.

0:26:37.080 --> 0:26:42.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm panicking because that's going to infringe on mom time.

0:26:43.240 --> 0:26:45.560
<v Speaker 1>I like to get my kids. Sosa's in bed by

0:26:45.680 --> 0:26:50.760
<v Speaker 1>six six thirty, okay, And I've taught her. She's a

0:26:50.840 --> 0:26:55.120
<v Speaker 1>year old. I've taught Sosa. I'm sure, Well, I'm gonna

0:26:55.160 --> 0:26:57.120
<v Speaker 1>say this and then she's gonna regress and it's gonna

0:26:57.119 --> 0:26:59.639
<v Speaker 1>be a fucking nightmare. But it's okay. We roll with

0:26:59.640 --> 0:27:04.520
<v Speaker 1>the punk. She will sit in her crib and talk

0:27:04.560 --> 0:27:07.920
<v Speaker 1>to herself for like twenty minutes before she goes to bed.

0:27:08.240 --> 0:27:10.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm cool with it. She needs her alone time, right,

0:27:10.880 --> 0:27:16.719
<v Speaker 1>that's Sosa's time. Ocean is obsessed with watching sharks murder things.

0:27:17.840 --> 0:27:20.360
<v Speaker 1>That's how she likes to go to bed. We get

0:27:20.440 --> 0:27:25.080
<v Speaker 1>in bed at seven, enjoy watch the shark fuck up

0:27:25.160 --> 0:27:28.600
<v Speaker 1>this person. I don't know, like if that's what puts

0:27:28.640 --> 0:27:32.639
<v Speaker 1>you to bed, This is Ocean time. And guess what

0:27:32.800 --> 0:27:34.879
<v Speaker 1>Once those two things are done, it is mommy time.

0:27:35.800 --> 0:27:38.480
<v Speaker 1>If Ocean gets out of that fucking bed and comes

0:27:38.520 --> 0:27:41.439
<v Speaker 1>in and asks me for anything, I tell her, Mom's

0:27:41.440 --> 0:27:44.720
<v Speaker 1>off the clock. My day's done. I'm no longer mom anymore.

0:27:45.200 --> 0:27:48.280
<v Speaker 1>I love you so much. I adore you. Get in

0:27:48.280 --> 0:27:54.160
<v Speaker 1>the bed, but I'm hungry. Kitchen's closed. Kitchens closed, Mom

0:27:54.280 --> 0:27:57.159
<v Speaker 1>is closed. Everything that you need right now is closed,

0:27:57.200 --> 0:28:00.560
<v Speaker 1>except for that fucking bed and the shark attacks you're watching.

0:28:00.680 --> 0:28:04.000
<v Speaker 1>Those are open. Go for it, have a hayday. I'm

0:28:04.040 --> 0:28:07.119
<v Speaker 1>trying to teach her to also take time for herself.

0:28:07.560 --> 0:28:09.720
<v Speaker 1>You know it's been a long day. She's in preschool.

0:28:09.840 --> 0:28:13.320
<v Speaker 1>You know that finger painting is no fucking joke. Take

0:28:13.359 --> 0:28:16.560
<v Speaker 1>time for yourself. Mom time is so important. I will

0:28:16.600 --> 0:28:21.240
<v Speaker 1>sit in the bath and literally stare into the oblivion

0:28:22.000 --> 0:28:25.960
<v Speaker 1>thinking about probably for me, thinking about a lot. I

0:28:26.040 --> 0:28:29.160
<v Speaker 1>need to work on meditation, clearing the mind, thinking about

0:28:29.240 --> 0:28:32.359
<v Speaker 1>everything I've ever done wrong in my life, saying the

0:28:32.400 --> 0:28:35.159
<v Speaker 1>Serenity prayer twenty seven times to get me out of

0:28:35.160 --> 0:28:40.920
<v Speaker 1>the funk. But I really do feel like we, as moms, especially,

0:28:41.000 --> 0:28:43.040
<v Speaker 1>we suffer from that mom guilt where we feel like

0:28:43.080 --> 0:28:45.600
<v Speaker 1>we have to be on for everybody. Twenty four to seven.

0:28:46.080 --> 0:28:48.080
<v Speaker 1>My kid's upset and doesn't want to go to bed,

0:28:48.440 --> 0:28:51.840
<v Speaker 1>Get the fuck to bed. It is mom time, And

0:28:51.920 --> 0:28:55.480
<v Speaker 1>I think if you start there, it always starts at home.

0:28:55.880 --> 0:28:58.720
<v Speaker 1>Home is your safe space. You're supposed to feel comfortable.

0:28:58.960 --> 0:29:01.280
<v Speaker 1>You're supposed to feel like you can take a load off.

0:29:01.680 --> 0:29:05.000
<v Speaker 1>The pressures of life are so high. You gotta worry

0:29:05.000 --> 0:29:07.600
<v Speaker 1>about the husband and feeding and doing whatever it is

0:29:07.640 --> 0:29:13.320
<v Speaker 1>that he fucking needs. We are put on the back burner. Stress,

0:29:13.400 --> 0:29:17.240
<v Speaker 1>you guys, is the number one killer of all of us.

0:29:17.560 --> 0:29:19.560
<v Speaker 1>I believe stress is what took my dad at the

0:29:19.600 --> 0:29:23.440
<v Speaker 1>age of sixty four. I believe that stress not. I

0:29:23.480 --> 0:29:27.200
<v Speaker 1>believe it's fact. It causes ulcers, It puts a tremendous

0:29:27.200 --> 0:29:29.960
<v Speaker 1>amount of stress on your heart, and I am a stressor.

0:29:30.760 --> 0:29:32.520
<v Speaker 1>So when people look at me and they're like, wow,

0:29:32.560 --> 0:29:34.440
<v Speaker 1>I's a square, she goes about it at like seven.

0:29:34.760 --> 0:29:39.560
<v Speaker 1>I have to my health is very very important to me.

0:29:39.720 --> 0:29:41.280
<v Speaker 1>I want to be present. I want to be on

0:29:41.320 --> 0:29:44.680
<v Speaker 1>my fucking game. I want to try to look my best.

0:29:44.880 --> 0:29:48.960
<v Speaker 1>Doesn't always happen, but who cares? And you have to

0:29:49.080 --> 0:29:52.000
<v Speaker 1>sit and prioritize yourself in moments that you feel like

0:29:52.080 --> 0:29:55.520
<v Speaker 1>it's just it's just too much. I used to watch

0:29:56.280 --> 0:29:58.840
<v Speaker 1>regular TV where you would have ads, and I remember

0:29:58.880 --> 0:30:01.320
<v Speaker 1>this woman, I think, like a Milano's cookie ad, and

0:30:01.360 --> 0:30:04.560
<v Speaker 1>she was sitting in the bathroom and she had the

0:30:04.600 --> 0:30:07.000
<v Speaker 1>door locked and there's kids banging on the door, and

0:30:07.040 --> 0:30:09.520
<v Speaker 1>I was like, this is like such a freaking weird ad,

0:30:09.560 --> 0:30:15.000
<v Speaker 1>Like who would ever eat Milanal cookies next to a toilet? Me? Now, me,

0:30:15.560 --> 0:30:18.080
<v Speaker 1>that's what I do. I eat Milano's next to the

0:30:18.120 --> 0:30:22.120
<v Speaker 1>fucking toilet just to get one little bit of just

0:30:23.520 --> 0:30:27.680
<v Speaker 1>WU saw time. And I hope with this scan, this

0:30:27.720 --> 0:30:31.080
<v Speaker 1>prenuva scan, when it comes back that we're in the clear. Right.

0:30:31.520 --> 0:30:35.480
<v Speaker 1>I think my biggest thing that I'm concerned about, which

0:30:35.520 --> 0:30:38.760
<v Speaker 1>is wild because I was talking to you guys for

0:30:38.760 --> 0:30:41.600
<v Speaker 1>those of you who watched The Valley Zach Wickham his

0:30:43.200 --> 0:30:46.400
<v Speaker 1>boyfriend is an optometrist, and I was talking to him

0:30:46.400 --> 0:30:49.400
<v Speaker 1>about the ice situation and I was like, I'm just worried,

0:30:49.440 --> 0:30:51.320
<v Speaker 1>Like where did it come from? Is something going on

0:30:51.360 --> 0:30:53.600
<v Speaker 1>in my head? He was like, I really don't think

0:30:53.640 --> 0:30:56.600
<v Speaker 1>one has anything to do with the other. So after

0:30:56.680 --> 0:30:59.520
<v Speaker 1>this prenuvo scan, I would say, my two biggest things

0:30:59.520 --> 0:31:04.480
<v Speaker 1>that I'm concerned about. One is my head. I don't

0:31:04.520 --> 0:31:08.760
<v Speaker 1>know why I would be having tingling sensations cooling sensations.

0:31:08.840 --> 0:31:11.360
<v Speaker 1>I want to know what's going on there. The next

0:31:11.400 --> 0:31:14.720
<v Speaker 1>would be I'm extremely concerned about the level of stress

0:31:14.720 --> 0:31:17.400
<v Speaker 1>and pressure that I put on myself and how it

0:31:17.520 --> 0:31:22.560
<v Speaker 1>has manifested itself inside of my body. That's the second

0:31:22.680 --> 0:31:26.600
<v Speaker 1>thing that I'm I'm really very much concerned about. And

0:31:27.000 --> 0:31:33.200
<v Speaker 1>the third I would say is the sea word because

0:31:33.440 --> 0:31:37.440
<v Speaker 1>cancer runs in my family, and the women in my

0:31:37.480 --> 0:31:41.960
<v Speaker 1>family have been older when they've gotten that diagnosis. But

0:31:42.120 --> 0:31:45.520
<v Speaker 1>my grandmother on my dad's side passed away from cancer,

0:31:45.520 --> 0:31:48.400
<v Speaker 1>and my grandmother on my mom's side passed away from cancer.

0:31:48.600 --> 0:31:51.360
<v Speaker 1>So those things scare me and keep in mind you guys,

0:31:51.680 --> 0:31:55.400
<v Speaker 1>I go and get my ultrasounds on my boobs. And

0:31:55.920 --> 0:32:00.760
<v Speaker 1>anybody who tells you we do mammograms after the age

0:32:00.760 --> 0:32:03.600
<v Speaker 1>of forty, I want you to fight for yourselves and

0:32:03.720 --> 0:32:07.160
<v Speaker 1>advocate for your health. Get in there. If you don't

0:32:07.160 --> 0:32:09.320
<v Speaker 1>do a mammogram, then what do you do For a

0:32:09.360 --> 0:32:13.320
<v Speaker 1>woman of my age, I want to say, they're gonna

0:32:13.360 --> 0:32:16.640
<v Speaker 1>give you an ultrasound. And I remember, at the age

0:32:16.680 --> 0:32:19.240
<v Speaker 1>of fourteen, my grandmother was diagnosed with caner or no.

0:32:19.280 --> 0:32:22.200
<v Speaker 1>My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer, and I was

0:32:22.360 --> 0:32:24.400
<v Speaker 1>terrified that I had breast cancer. You guys, I was

0:32:24.440 --> 0:32:26.200
<v Speaker 1>fourteen and I went in to get an ultrasound on

0:32:26.200 --> 0:32:30.640
<v Speaker 1>my boops. There was It wasn't a lump that I

0:32:30.680 --> 0:32:32.560
<v Speaker 1>was feeling. It was breast tissue because I was getting

0:32:32.600 --> 0:32:35.239
<v Speaker 1>my tig old bitties. Lucky for me, right, but I

0:32:35.320 --> 0:32:38.440
<v Speaker 1>was concerned. Advocate for your health. You don't have anyone

0:32:38.480 --> 0:32:41.080
<v Speaker 1>else to do it. I am going to have a

0:32:41.160 --> 0:32:46.840
<v Speaker 1>discount code that Prenuvo was nice enough to give to

0:32:46.920 --> 0:32:50.040
<v Speaker 1>my listeners and to my followers. I will post that

0:32:51.320 --> 0:32:53.360
<v Speaker 1>you can go onto their website and you can see

0:32:53.400 --> 0:32:56.880
<v Speaker 1>all of the locations that they have. I also didn't

0:32:56.880 --> 0:32:59.800
<v Speaker 1>realize that these machines, you guys, cost one point three

0:33:00.160 --> 0:33:07.240
<v Speaker 1>million dollars. They are insanely high tech, their state of

0:33:07.280 --> 0:33:10.120
<v Speaker 1>the art, their brand new. A lot of hospitals that

0:33:10.160 --> 0:33:12.960
<v Speaker 1>you go to, y'all that I just realized, they bring

0:33:13.000 --> 0:33:15.800
<v Speaker 1>in the machinery, the MRI machines, and they actually build

0:33:15.800 --> 0:33:19.040
<v Speaker 1>the hospital around those machines because you can't get them

0:33:19.040 --> 0:33:25.640
<v Speaker 1>through the fucking door. So these machines that other hospitals

0:33:25.680 --> 0:33:27.760
<v Speaker 1>are using, they could be twenty years old because you

0:33:27.920 --> 0:33:30.520
<v Speaker 1>just can't bring in new machines, you know, whenever you

0:33:30.560 --> 0:33:35.800
<v Speaker 1>want PRENEUVEO, I highly recommend. I'm very nervous. I should

0:33:35.800 --> 0:33:39.040
<v Speaker 1>have my results back in just a couple of days.

0:33:39.080 --> 0:33:42.960
<v Speaker 1>I'll keep you guys updated on what is said. But

0:33:43.040 --> 0:33:47.680
<v Speaker 1>I think my main thing with this podcast beyond just

0:33:47.760 --> 0:33:53.720
<v Speaker 1>prioritizing yourselves and making yourself someone who has a voice.

0:33:53.800 --> 0:33:55.800
<v Speaker 1>It's so easy to lose our voice in this world.

0:33:55.840 --> 0:33:57.760
<v Speaker 1>We find it so much easier to just shut up,

0:33:58.240 --> 0:34:00.160
<v Speaker 1>you know. We find it so much easier with all

0:34:00.160 --> 0:34:03.760
<v Speaker 1>of the information that's so accessible at all times, to

0:34:03.880 --> 0:34:05.640
<v Speaker 1>kind of shut down. I feel like we're all running

0:34:05.680 --> 0:34:11.640
<v Speaker 1>on autopilot, and I get it. It's a lot, but

0:34:12.280 --> 0:34:14.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm hoping with this podcast that we can take a

0:34:15.000 --> 0:34:17.680
<v Speaker 1>moment to say, you know what, I'm going to advocate

0:34:17.719 --> 0:34:20.640
<v Speaker 1>for myself when someone tells me no, and I think

0:34:20.680 --> 0:34:24.479
<v Speaker 1>something is wrong. You know you better than anybody else,

0:34:24.560 --> 0:34:29.200
<v Speaker 1>better than any doctor. You know when something is not right.

0:34:30.760 --> 0:34:33.760
<v Speaker 1>And if you go to a doctor and they're giving

0:34:33.800 --> 0:34:36.239
<v Speaker 1>you an answer that just does not sit right in

0:34:36.280 --> 0:34:43.080
<v Speaker 1>the tummy, Please make that known because I want everyone

0:34:43.160 --> 0:34:46.120
<v Speaker 1>to catch things before it's it's too late. We've seen,

0:34:47.080 --> 0:34:50.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, Teddy Mellencamp who has been advocating and she

0:34:50.640 --> 0:34:56.319
<v Speaker 1>single handedly changed the dermatologist game. I said that on

0:34:56.400 --> 0:34:59.840
<v Speaker 1>an episode. I want to say a few months back,

0:35:00.239 --> 0:35:02.400
<v Speaker 1>I went to the dermatologist because I've also been obsessing

0:35:02.440 --> 0:35:04.680
<v Speaker 1>over that where I'm like, there's a shreckle popped up,

0:35:04.719 --> 0:35:06.440
<v Speaker 1>what the fuck is this? And he's like, you're fine.

0:35:06.520 --> 0:35:09.600
<v Speaker 1>I just saw you last week, just saw you last week.

0:35:10.239 --> 0:35:12.680
<v Speaker 1>And I told him, I was like, you know, Teddy

0:35:12.760 --> 0:35:15.560
<v Speaker 1>is a friend of mine, and I'm just like, you know,

0:35:16.080 --> 0:35:18.160
<v Speaker 1>she's out here and she's being a voice. And he said,

0:35:18.239 --> 0:35:20.239
<v Speaker 1>let me tell you something about Teddy Mellencamp. She has

0:35:20.400 --> 0:35:26.400
<v Speaker 1>single handedly changed the dermatology game and beyond, and I

0:35:26.640 --> 0:35:28.600
<v Speaker 1>just found that. I sent her a text and I

0:35:28.640 --> 0:35:31.040
<v Speaker 1>was like, you don't have to respond to this, but

0:35:31.120 --> 0:35:37.120
<v Speaker 1>I find it important for you to know that while

0:35:37.160 --> 0:35:40.719
<v Speaker 1>you're in the fight for your own life, how many

0:35:40.800 --> 0:35:49.040
<v Speaker 1>lives that you're saving. I'm so sorry. So I found

0:35:49.080 --> 0:35:54.360
<v Speaker 1>it very important to talk about my experience with prenuvo.

0:35:54.560 --> 0:35:58.040
<v Speaker 1>I know that we hear the twenty five hundred dollars

0:35:58.080 --> 0:36:00.640
<v Speaker 1>and we lose our That is a lot fucking money.

0:36:00.640 --> 0:36:02.800
<v Speaker 1>And I know we all work so hard for our money.

0:36:03.760 --> 0:36:07.759
<v Speaker 1>I highly highly encourage you guys to make it a

0:36:07.800 --> 0:36:13.120
<v Speaker 1>priority prioritize yourselves. I know that we all get caught

0:36:13.200 --> 0:36:17.880
<v Speaker 1>up in life and it becomes very intense and sometimes

0:36:18.320 --> 0:36:23.279
<v Speaker 1>not not knowing we think is better than knowing. And

0:36:23.320 --> 0:36:26.120
<v Speaker 1>I really want to break that. You know, my mom

0:36:26.480 --> 0:36:31.280
<v Speaker 1>lives in this world of like everything's fine, mind over matter,

0:36:31.360 --> 0:36:33.960
<v Speaker 1>and I'm trying to break that cycle with my mom

0:36:34.000 --> 0:36:36.000
<v Speaker 1>as well. I don't know if that's a generational thing,

0:36:36.040 --> 0:36:41.000
<v Speaker 1>but I'm like, no, like we she hadn't had a mammogram,

0:36:41.040 --> 0:36:43.080
<v Speaker 1>I want to say, in ten years. And when I

0:36:43.120 --> 0:36:45.360
<v Speaker 1>heard that, my jaw dropped to the floor. I was like,

0:36:45.520 --> 0:36:49.200
<v Speaker 1>what what are you doing? So if you're not doing

0:36:49.239 --> 0:36:56.080
<v Speaker 1>it for yourselves, do it for the people who love you. Wow,

0:36:56.120 --> 0:37:00.719
<v Speaker 1>I did not expect that. I'm really sorry because we

0:37:00.920 --> 0:37:04.240
<v Speaker 1>like you around. So I'm gonna post the discount code,

0:37:05.000 --> 0:37:08.480
<v Speaker 1>use it, take advantage of it. Prenuvo is so excited

0:37:09.520 --> 0:37:12.480
<v Speaker 1>to be getting the word out. I am very hopeful

0:37:12.640 --> 0:37:17.400
<v Speaker 1>that they're going to have locations in every major city

0:37:17.440 --> 0:37:20.319
<v Speaker 1>so it's accessible to everybody. And I find that to

0:37:20.360 --> 0:37:24.840
<v Speaker 1>be a very, very beautiful thing. I'm very excited about

0:37:24.840 --> 0:37:28.600
<v Speaker 1>what they're doing. And isn't that crazy. Other things used

0:37:28.600 --> 0:37:32.480
<v Speaker 1>to excite me write like a new handbag, maybe like

0:37:32.560 --> 0:37:37.200
<v Speaker 1>some Cubic Zirconia's from Bloomingdale's. Now I'm like, oh my gosh,

0:37:37.280 --> 0:37:40.360
<v Speaker 1>pre Nuvo mri machines are going to be in every

0:37:40.440 --> 0:37:44.319
<v Speaker 1>major city. Oh I am a square and I'm only

0:37:44.360 --> 0:37:46.600
<v Speaker 1>thirty five, and I feel like I act like I'm ninety,

0:37:47.000 --> 0:37:50.040
<v Speaker 1>but mentally I feel twenty one. Anyway, you guys, I

0:37:50.120 --> 0:37:54.920
<v Speaker 1>hope that you enjoyed this episode. I love you. Prioritize yourselves,

0:37:54.960 --> 0:37:57.480
<v Speaker 1>go love on yourselves. If you ain't doing it for you,

0:37:57.960 --> 0:37:59.719
<v Speaker 1>do it for the people you love. I'm going to

0:37:59.800 --> 0:38:02.200
<v Speaker 1>catch you for a bonus on Monday and then again

0:38:02.560 --> 0:38:16.839
<v Speaker 1>next Wednesday. Love you guys. Bye,