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Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, can you hear me? I?

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Speaker 2: Ken? What's your name?

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Speaker 1: My name is Karen, Karen.

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Speaker 2: What's up? Karen? How can I get you today?

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Speaker 3: What brings you to speak with with a gecko on

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Speaker 3: the phone?

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Speaker 1: Well, I don't know, man, But every day I think

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Speaker 1: about the possibility of having telekinesis powers. M like it's

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Speaker 1: an everyday thing. And I feel like I've had this

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Speaker 1: same thought process for the last like six years now.

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Speaker 3: When you imagine, when you imagine yourself having telekinetic powers,

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Speaker 3: what would you do with those powers?

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Speaker 2: And what would those powers look like?

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Speaker 1: Have you ever seen see I feel like it's a

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Speaker 1: combination between like the Phoenix from X Men and then

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Speaker 1: also from a I don't know that show. It's on

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Speaker 1: a Prime I don't know. It's Adam Girl, but she's

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Speaker 1: more into like she does the atoms or whatever, and

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Speaker 1: she like mixes stuff. But every time I'm out with

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Speaker 1: friends or I'm at work, school, whatever, I just feel

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Speaker 1: like I can move something like you'll just start off

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Speaker 1: like that. And there are times where I space out.

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Speaker 1: I'm like I can do it. I can do it.

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Speaker 1: I can do it, like it's gonna move. And I've

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Speaker 1: been like thrown off where people are like, hey, are

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Speaker 1: you okay, and I'm like, no, I'm good, dude, I'm good.

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Speaker 1: And it's gone to the point where people are like, hey,

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Speaker 1: you've been facing out way too much, and I'm just

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Speaker 1: like no, sorry, I'm just in a thought process. But

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Speaker 1: I feel like I can move something, like I know,

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Speaker 1: I can move it to the point where I could

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Speaker 1: control it and then it could like go, I could

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Speaker 1: like have it in front of me, and to the

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Speaker 1: point also where I think one day I could do

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Speaker 1: it with like the earth, Like not the earth itself,

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Speaker 1: but you know, like the ground.

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Speaker 2: And you felt this way for about how long?

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Speaker 1: I think about like six years now. I just yeah,

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Speaker 1: about six years. Like I just had a crazy dream

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Speaker 1: one day that I was able to do this, like

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Speaker 1: I was able to lift the floor. And at first

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Speaker 1: I thought, nah, it's just it's just a dream. But

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Speaker 1: those dreams kept like recurring, and then I thought, well,

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Speaker 1: maybe maybe it will happen. And now it's just every day.

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Speaker 1: It's an everyday thought process that I have.

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Speaker 3: Is it a distracting you from daily life? The this

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Speaker 3: like strong feeling that you might have powers, No.

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Speaker 1: Like I can I can have a normal day like

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Speaker 1: I can get up like I work over night, so

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Speaker 1: I'll sleep in the day, I'll get up, shower, I'll go,

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Speaker 1: but I'll do my normal activities. But I feel like

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Speaker 1: no matter what, Like if I if I go to

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Speaker 1: a shower, like, hey, maybe I can move that foot fresh.

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Speaker 1: If I'm in the car, I'm like, hey, maybe, like

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Speaker 1: I can move that tree. If I'm like at a

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Speaker 1: red light or something, or from at work, I'm like,

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Speaker 1: let me, let me see if I can move the

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Speaker 1: I don't know. Yah.

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Speaker 3: So this is like this is like a constant every day.

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Speaker 3: This is like a not not just like an every

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Speaker 3: day This is like an every day throughout the day

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Speaker 3: feeling that you have.

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Speaker 1: Yes, but doesn't.

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Speaker 2: It get and how long? Okay?

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Speaker 3: And so it's been six years, But for how long

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Speaker 3: has it been like this constant like every day throughout

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Speaker 1: Maybe like maybe like five times five times, It's not

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Speaker 1: like every hour every day maybe once in the morning,

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Speaker 3: Okay, how long How long has it have the thoughts

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Speaker 3: occurred with that much frequency?

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Speaker 1: Like how long does it last with that thought?

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Speaker 2: Now? How long have you been thinking five times a

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Speaker 2: day that you might be able to move stuff?

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Speaker 1: Hmm, I don't know, like does it I'm a little confused.

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Speaker 3: It's okay, so well, I guess what I'm curious about

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Speaker 3: is like, does it ever get like, does it ever

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Speaker 3: get exhausting to be thinking this much that you might

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Speaker 1: Yes, it's frustrating. It's it's gone to the point where

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Speaker 1: I'm almost about to tell my therapist about it, but

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Speaker 1: I'm like, you know what, I'm just going to keep

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Speaker 1: the funny socks.

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Speaker 3: All right, all right, all right, let's hold on, hold on,

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Speaker 3: hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on. Okay, okay,

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Speaker 3: I have several questions for you, and by the way,

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Speaker 3: as lightly as you desire. But okay, Question number one,

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Speaker 3: what the hell are the funny socks?

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Speaker 1: You know? The funny socks? Like you know, you're not

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Speaker 1: supposed to say certain things a therapy, and then they'll

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Speaker 1: just do the big check mark of like, all right,

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Speaker 1: gotta give them the grippy socks, the grippy socks to

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Speaker 3: Okay, all right, yeah, sure, you don't want to get

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Speaker 3: the funny socks?

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Speaker 2: Are those? Hold on what I know what?

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Speaker 3: Okay, I now I'm just being a dick, but I

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Speaker 3: know what you're trying to say when you say funny socks.

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Speaker 3: But the article of clothing that you're referring to doesn't

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Speaker 3: look like socks, Like hold on, like a straight jacket,

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Speaker 3: it doesn't look like socks. Oh wait, it kind of does.

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Speaker 3: It kind of looks like funny socks. Okay, sorry, sorry, sorry,

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Speaker 3: I just googled it. It does, it does. It does

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Speaker 3: kind of look like funny socks. So why so why

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Speaker 3: do you? Okay, so why or are are you? Are

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Speaker 3: you just being funny or do you actually think that?

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Speaker 3: Like if you tell therapist, she'll put you in a

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Speaker 1: You know, like I feel I feel like I'm in

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Speaker 1: a good point in my life mentally, and she and

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Speaker 1: she'll tell me like, oh, you're in a you know,

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Speaker 1: you've made so much progress, and I'm like cool, but

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Speaker 1: and then imagine me telling her out of nor Hey

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Speaker 1: at me like what the hell, Like we just went

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Speaker 1: through all this progress and now you're telling me you

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Speaker 1: feel like I one day it's going to happen. Like

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Speaker 1: done the whole chakra thing. I've done a whole like

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Speaker 1: I feel like i've felt I've been in the state

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Speaker 1: like you know how people say, oh, humans only use

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Speaker 1: I'm going to use twenty percent. And I'm going to

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Speaker 1: I'm going to give myself years. And I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I'm twenty no, oops, I'm not twenty nine

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Speaker 1: and I'm thinking maybe by the time i'm sixty, it'll happen.

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Speaker 3: It'll happen, Okay, So so all right, I'm not a

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Speaker 3: real therapist, but I ask you some kind of no

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Speaker 3: I know, I'll ask you some questions. Here's I guess,

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Speaker 3: Here's where I land with it.

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Speaker 2: Is because like this, this is something you think about

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Speaker 2: throughout the day every day.

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Speaker 3: And I asked, I asked you already a little bit,

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Speaker 3: but I'll ask you again, like, does does the idea

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Speaker 3: that you might be telekinetic and your could we call

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Speaker 3: it an obsession?

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Speaker 2: Do you think you know what?

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Speaker 4: Yes?

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Speaker 1: I have felt like it is an obsession?

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Speaker 2: Now does god? You go ahead? Sorry?

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Speaker 1: Oh no, no, Like at one point I thought, you

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Speaker 1: know what, you're just obsessing, Like maybe I'm I'm watching

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Speaker 1: too much stuff. Maybe I'm I'm reading into it. Maybe

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Speaker 1: I'm just I don't know, I'm just overthinking it. But

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Speaker 1: I don't know, there's this part of me that feels

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Speaker 1: to be able to do that. And I'm thinking, you know,

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Speaker 1: like I get it. It sounds crazy, it sounds wacko,

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Speaker 1: But I don't know, It's just I have this gut feeling,

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Speaker 3: I guess my main question is does this obsession or

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Speaker 3: gut feeling. Does this does this like negatively impact your

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Speaker 3: a negative way or cause you to like, oh no,

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Speaker 3: I feel like you should be doing like any anything

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Speaker 1: Oh heck no, like no way. That's That's where I

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Speaker 1: I feel like I'm great where I'm at right now.

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Speaker 1: It's just I only told two people, like my best

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Speaker 1: It doesn't affect my everyday life. It's just there. It's

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Speaker 1: something's wrong, but I don't know. At the same time,

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Speaker 1: I'm thinking maybe maybe it's just a phase. Maybe it's

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Speaker 3: Man, Well, I guess I was asking because I mean, look,

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Speaker 3: I'm not gonna like I'm not. Look, here's the thing.

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Speaker 3: I don't like to poop on other people's parties. I mean,

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Speaker 3: I actually know I do something. I'm not gonna say that.

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Speaker 3: I sometimes actually take great joy in pooping on other

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Speaker 3: people's parties. It can be pooping on other people's parties

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Speaker 3: can be a lot of fun sometimes, but you're at

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Speaker 3: you seem like a nice person, and so I don't

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Speaker 3: I don't want to sit here and poop on your party.

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Speaker 1: No, go ahead, no you, but you can go ahead

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Speaker 1: and tell me I'm nuts, I'm crazy, or hey, maybe

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm not.

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Speaker 2: Well, No, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't.

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Speaker 2: Hold on, I don't. I don't want to tell you

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Speaker 3: Right to tell you that you're crazy. But that's why

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Speaker 3: I phrase it in a way of if this is

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Speaker 3: if you believe this is negatively impacting your life, then

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Speaker 3: you know it's something to be examined. But I'm not

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Speaker 3: going to just tell you that you're crazy?

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Speaker 1: Okay, okay, oh yeah, and I.

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Speaker 3: Think that's a good but I just I think like

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Speaker 3: moving and again I'm like fucking sitting here pretending to

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Speaker 3: be a therapist. But like if I if that's the

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Speaker 3: kind of overarching question I would continue to ask myself

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Speaker 3: if I were you, is like you know what you know?

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Speaker 3: Whether or not you're crazy, I don't think is the

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Speaker 3: So I'm gonna I have I'm gonna this is probably

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Speaker 2: There's a movie. There's a movie that you need to watch.

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Speaker 2: Okay, so you know this movie movie the Three Guys.

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Speaker 1: Yes, I know, and you see that's what I'm scared of. Yeah, Okay,

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Speaker 3: Do you believe you could, you know, withstand that corruption

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Speaker 1: It would be a fight between myself and I've thought

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Speaker 3: You know, well like like here like because look if

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Speaker 2: I actually used to I actually this kind of fucked up.

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Speaker 2: Army because they they can't be killed, you know what

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Speaker 3: And so like that, and so that's the kind of Yeah,

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Speaker 2: But like, but like is that what you really want?

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Speaker 2: Do you really want that much power? You know that?

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Speaker 2: I don't think that's the thing. It's like, look, because

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Speaker 3: You're not gonna be satisfy just picking up pencils and

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Speaker 3: putting them down. I'm just letting you know that if

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Speaker 3: as I'm talking about it. Like this power that you seek,

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Speaker 3: You You're gonna start by picking up pencils and putting

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Speaker 3: People are gonna be knocking down your door being like, yo,

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Speaker 3: what the fuck are you doing? You have telekinetic powers,

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Speaker 3: Go liberate North Korea, Go save my cat from a tree,

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Speaker 3: you know, go help me move, you know, And people

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Speaker 2: It's to you.

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Speaker 3: I just I'm let you will be so much happier

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Speaker 3: I'm just that food for thought, food for thought, right,

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Speaker 3: I think I think being human is pretty sweet. Okay, Yes,

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Speaker 3: you die, but that's good. You don't want to not die.

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Speaker 3: That's uncharted territory. Nobody's ever not died, and it would

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Speaker 2: You don't want. You don't really want.

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Speaker 2: I just don't think that you will enjoy your life

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Speaker 3: If I were you I just I would really look

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Speaker 2: And I don't need to liberate North Korea.

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Speaker 1: You know what, You're right, because I do enjoy my

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Speaker 2: Right? Why do you? I mean, why do you?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean why do you want you Why do

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Speaker 3: But I actually I ask you that as a genuine question.

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Speaker 3: Why do you want these telekinetic powers? Like why why

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Speaker 1: Maybe because if I mean, it wouldn't it would be

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Speaker 1: That sounds so lame, like a superhero. I wouldn't want to.

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Speaker 3: It's like it's it's like it's like it's like it's

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Speaker 3: but nobody ever can really do it.

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Speaker 2: It's it's a lot, it's a lot. It's a lot.

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Speaker 3: I mean, I think I respect your desire to make

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Speaker 1: Oh shit, you're right, damn that hit deep.

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Speaker 3: But look it's look look, look picking up a pencil

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Speaker 2: And you're like, I don't know.

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Speaker 3: That's fun, that's good, that's okay, But it leads to

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Speaker 3: And I don't think it's just it sucks, It just

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Speaker 3: say all this an alternative perspective as to why maybe

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00:23:17,960 --> 00:23:20,359
Speaker 3: having superpowers would be.

436
00:23:20,480 --> 00:23:26,520
Speaker 1: Hella lamme, No, you're right. I mean, as I have

437
00:23:26,640 --> 00:23:29,680
Speaker 1: like really bad ADHD so much, Oh my.

438
00:23:29,680 --> 00:23:37,080
Speaker 3: God, ADHD and superpowers sounds like a horrible combination. Horrible

439
00:23:37,200 --> 00:23:41,200
Speaker 3: combination you'll be you know, I mean, if your brain

440
00:23:41,320 --> 00:23:44,879
Speaker 3: can barely handle uh, you know, doing.

441
00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:47,760
Speaker 1: Math, imagine I get it for a month, and then

442
00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:50,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, you know what, I don't even like this.

443
00:23:51,480 --> 00:23:54,119
Speaker 3: Adderall and superpowers.

444
00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:55,920
Speaker 2: That's too much. That's too much.

445
00:23:57,840 --> 00:24:00,439
Speaker 1: Oh man Hill, I'm already on too many engine persons.

446
00:24:00,480 --> 00:24:03,159
Speaker 1: I can't I can't do this. I can't. No, you

447
00:24:03,240 --> 00:24:05,160
Speaker 1: know what you make it? Yeah, you make it sound

448
00:24:05,400 --> 00:24:06,960
Speaker 1: like this could be exhausting.

449
00:24:07,600 --> 00:24:12,520
Speaker 3: Yes, sounds like a terrible life, like being Batman. Like, okay,

450
00:24:12,640 --> 00:24:15,000
Speaker 3: just next time you look, next time you watch Batman. Well,

451
00:24:15,080 --> 00:24:17,280
Speaker 3: Batman doesn't have superpowers. Let me that's a bad one.

452
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:18,200
Speaker 5: Uh.

453
00:24:18,600 --> 00:24:22,800
Speaker 3: Like Superman is definitely not happy. Spider Man's not happy.

454
00:24:22,840 --> 00:24:24,960
Speaker 3: None of these guys are happy. They have horrible lives.

455
00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:26,159
Speaker 1: Spider Man is not happy.

456
00:24:26,600 --> 00:24:30,000
Speaker 3: No, he hates life. I don't know why I said that.

457
00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:32,400
Speaker 3: It's probably not I mean, he's not He's not real.

458
00:24:32,440 --> 00:24:33,440
Speaker 3: None of these people are real.

459
00:24:33,680 --> 00:24:37,720
Speaker 2: But you're real and you can do things without superpowers.

460
00:24:38,880 --> 00:24:39,720
Speaker 2: What's your name again?

461
00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:42,159
Speaker 1: My name's Karen.

462
00:24:42,800 --> 00:24:44,359
Speaker 2: Karen. Is there anything else you want to say to

463
00:24:44,359 --> 00:24:45,639
Speaker 2: the people of the computer before we go?

464
00:24:51,119 --> 00:24:53,280
Speaker 1: I promise when you turn thirty, it's not as bad

465
00:24:53,320 --> 00:24:56,959
Speaker 1: as they say it is. Uh, follow your dreams and

466
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:03,919
Speaker 1: don't take two things. Don't take things serious like just

467
00:25:03,920 --> 00:25:05,399
Speaker 1: just chill out.

468
00:25:07,240 --> 00:25:09,520
Speaker 2: Is it Carol or Caroline?

469
00:25:10,320 --> 00:25:12,560
Speaker 1: No, well, my name is got In, but you know,

470
00:25:12,680 --> 00:25:18,760
Speaker 1: in American words, Karen. Fuck, yeah, yeah, I know, you're good.

471
00:25:18,960 --> 00:25:20,440
Speaker 1: You know, I don't want to tell people my name

472
00:25:20,480 --> 00:25:23,240
Speaker 1: is Karen, but it's it's got In. But either way,

473
00:25:23,320 --> 00:25:28,040
Speaker 1: Karen's fine, It's fine. Have a good night, Karen, Thank

474
00:25:28,119 --> 00:25:28,680
Speaker 1: you you too.

475
00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:34,080
Speaker 2: Bye bye? Oh fuck, I hung up. Well we got

476
00:25:34,080 --> 00:25:38,280
Speaker 2: to just yeah, turning thirty. I mean, look, here's the thing.

477
00:25:38,320 --> 00:25:41,640
Speaker 3: If you ever are upset about the fact that you're

478
00:25:41,640 --> 00:25:45,800
Speaker 3: getting older, uh, just take solace in the fact that

479
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:51,560
Speaker 3: it's better than the alternative, which is being dead forever.

480
00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:56,200
Speaker 2: Hello, Hello, Hey, what's your name?

481
00:25:56,600 --> 00:25:58,359
Speaker 5: My name is Owen, Owen.

482
00:25:58,440 --> 00:26:00,160
Speaker 2: What's up, Owen? How can I get you today?

483
00:26:02,840 --> 00:26:06,520
Speaker 5: First of all, big fan, kind of excited. I'm talking

484
00:26:06,520 --> 00:26:06,760
Speaker 5: to you.

485
00:26:07,200 --> 00:26:07,720
Speaker 2: Thanks, brother.

486
00:26:09,680 --> 00:26:13,720
Speaker 5: Okay, what I wanted to talk about is just a

487
00:26:13,720 --> 00:26:18,160
Speaker 5: little bit of a rant about my last relationship. If

488
00:26:18,200 --> 00:26:20,080
Speaker 5: that's okay, Well.

489
00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:23,679
Speaker 3: Let's have a conversation about your last relationship rather than

490
00:26:23,720 --> 00:26:24,160
Speaker 3: a rant.

491
00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:25,639
Speaker 2: What is it?

492
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:25,320
Speaker 4: What?

493
00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:31,920
Speaker 2: Well? Okay, what is the emotion that is powering this rant?

494
00:26:34,359 --> 00:26:42,240
Speaker 5: Uh? Well, whenever I talk about it, it makes me

495
00:26:42,280 --> 00:26:44,000
Speaker 5: a little bit anxious. It's not gonna lie.

496
00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:45,120
Speaker 1: Uh.

497
00:26:45,960 --> 00:26:49,600
Speaker 5: It's just one of those things where you're like, dang, like,

498
00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:52,000
Speaker 5: how could am I that bad that someone could do

499
00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:54,840
Speaker 5: that to me? Like that's how I feel.

500
00:26:55,320 --> 00:26:58,160
Speaker 2: Okay, what do you want to talk about? What happens?

501
00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:00,760
Speaker 5: Yeah?

502
00:27:00,880 --> 00:27:03,480
Speaker 2: Okay? What? What did? What happens?

503
00:27:04,359 --> 00:27:08,120
Speaker 5: It is a little bit of a longish story, if

504
00:27:08,160 --> 00:27:10,640
Speaker 5: that's okay? Or would you like me to dumb it down?

505
00:27:11,720 --> 00:27:12,640
Speaker 2: Once you dumb it down?

506
00:27:14,760 --> 00:27:18,640
Speaker 5: Okay? So me and this girl I won't say her name.

507
00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:23,840
Speaker 5: We were both pretty I still am. But we were

508
00:27:23,840 --> 00:27:26,879
Speaker 5: both religious. I don't know if you are, but that's okay.

509
00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:33,119
Speaker 5: We're both celibate, and we are both wanting to marry.

510
00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:38,200
Speaker 5: Knew her for a while. We uh, we loved each other.

511
00:27:39,119 --> 00:27:43,760
Speaker 5: Everything was going good. At one point she acted weird

512
00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:47,400
Speaker 5: and the next day she told me that she believed

513
00:27:47,400 --> 00:27:49,240
Speaker 5: that God was telling her we weren't meant to be

514
00:27:49,400 --> 00:27:52,119
Speaker 5: together and that we should break up. I was like,

515
00:27:52,200 --> 00:27:56,639
Speaker 5: that's strange, but how can I say that that's that

516
00:27:56,680 --> 00:27:58,919
Speaker 5: goes against what God wants? So I just kind of

517
00:27:59,000 --> 00:28:01,159
Speaker 5: like try to talk her out of it, try to

518
00:28:01,160 --> 00:28:03,320
Speaker 5: talk her and understand everything. But it didn't work out.

519
00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:06,879
Speaker 5: So I just let her go. Months go by, she

520
00:28:06,920 --> 00:28:10,520
Speaker 5: starts to go down to downhill, drinking, doing all kinds

521
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:16,280
Speaker 5: of like, uh, she got anxious a lot and just

522
00:28:16,280 --> 00:28:18,399
Speaker 5: started getting her head about things and she just acted

523
00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:21,919
Speaker 5: like a completely different person. Well, as the months went on,

524
00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:26,600
Speaker 5: I realized that she had cheated on me, so she

525
00:28:26,640 --> 00:28:30,240
Speaker 5: had lost her virginity against me while we were dating.

526
00:28:30,680 --> 00:28:34,440
Speaker 5: And I'm just like, that's the most insane thing anyone's

527
00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:36,600
Speaker 5: ever done to me, and one of the most insane

528
00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:38,120
Speaker 5: things that I think you could do to someone.

529
00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:42,760
Speaker 2: Now.

530
00:28:44,480 --> 00:28:47,800
Speaker 3: You said something and I don't know how much you

531
00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:50,320
Speaker 3: were paying attention to the actual words that you were

532
00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:52,960
Speaker 3: using when you said it, or how much you really

533
00:28:53,040 --> 00:28:55,600
Speaker 3: mean it, but you were like, how could I be

534
00:28:55,920 --> 00:28:59,680
Speaker 3: so bad that someone could do this to me? Is

535
00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:02,080
Speaker 3: that how you feel about this?

536
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:10,720
Speaker 5: H Yeah, to be honest, I really at that point. Yeah,

537
00:29:11,160 --> 00:29:14,719
Speaker 5: at that point, I didn't really have a job. I

538
00:29:14,760 --> 00:29:18,880
Speaker 5: was trying to get into a career and it wasn't

539
00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:22,800
Speaker 5: working out, and I just felt like, looking back on it,

540
00:29:22,840 --> 00:29:24,840
Speaker 5: I might have looked like a bomb. But at the

541
00:29:24,880 --> 00:29:27,480
Speaker 5: same time, I did nothing but love her. I did

542
00:29:27,520 --> 00:29:30,440
Speaker 5: nothing but chairish her, And like I said, we were

543
00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:35,239
Speaker 5: both very religious and very in our ways. So I'm

544
00:29:35,320 --> 00:29:37,480
Speaker 5: kind of torn, and that's why I wanted to talk

545
00:29:37,480 --> 00:29:40,960
Speaker 5: to you, because I'm just like, I mean, I blame her,

546
00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:45,320
Speaker 5: and I I don't want her back or anything like that.

547
00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:48,160
Speaker 5: I'm done with her, but I'm just like, I don't

548
00:29:48,240 --> 00:29:50,280
Speaker 5: just see how someone could do that. I can't see

549
00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:52,560
Speaker 5: if it's me or if it's her, Like, I can't

550
00:29:52,600 --> 00:29:55,240
Speaker 5: believe someone be so fucked up. She's my language that

551
00:29:55,320 --> 00:30:01,160
Speaker 5: they would do that unless I was a problem.

552
00:30:02,160 --> 00:30:02,520
Speaker 4: Mmmm.

553
00:30:07,080 --> 00:30:15,400
Speaker 3: No, No, you're not so horrible that, uh you're it's

554
00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:17,840
Speaker 3: okay for uh, you know, for you to be cheated

555
00:30:17,880 --> 00:30:23,280
Speaker 3: on that. You know that All being said is like, listen, man, you're.

556
00:30:23,240 --> 00:30:23,840
Speaker 2: How old are you?

557
00:30:25,880 --> 00:30:28,400
Speaker 5: Two? I was twenty at the time.

558
00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:30,840
Speaker 2: Okay, do you still think about this girl?

559
00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:36,680
Speaker 5: No? Not, not all the time, only think about her

560
00:30:36,760 --> 00:30:38,880
Speaker 5: when I have conversations like this.

561
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:46,240
Speaker 3: Do you still feel like this is kind of lower

562
00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:50,960
Speaker 3: to your overall self esteem in a lasting way?

563
00:30:51,920 --> 00:30:55,960
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think it'll always be with me. Uh why

564
00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:56,400
Speaker 5: do you think?

565
00:30:56,840 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 2: Why do you think it'll always be with you?

566
00:30:58,280 --> 00:30:58,480
Speaker 3: Yeah?

567
00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:03,480
Speaker 5: Well, before I met her, I was at a point.

568
00:31:03,600 --> 00:31:05,760
Speaker 5: I was at a low point, and I was praying

569
00:31:05,800 --> 00:31:09,960
Speaker 5: and I was wanting a girl exactly like her, I

570
00:31:09,960 --> 00:31:13,840
Speaker 5: mean exactly like. We even had the same political reviews,

571
00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:17,160
Speaker 5: we have the same humor. And then it just came

572
00:31:17,240 --> 00:31:22,720
Speaker 5: crashing down in the worst possible way. And since I've

573
00:31:22,760 --> 00:31:25,239
Speaker 5: moved on, I have a girlfriend now, I've been for

574
00:31:25,240 --> 00:31:27,640
Speaker 5: a year. It's it's pretty pretty good.

575
00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:29,400
Speaker 2: Okay, great man, damn.

576
00:31:32,360 --> 00:31:34,520
Speaker 5: But you know, it's just one of those things where

577
00:31:34,560 --> 00:31:38,000
Speaker 5: I'm like, if that was the most perfect person for

578
00:31:38,120 --> 00:31:39,520
Speaker 5: me at the time.

579
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:43,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, but that's not what do you but that's not real.

580
00:31:44,240 --> 00:31:46,240
Speaker 2: There's no there's.

581
00:31:45,960 --> 00:31:49,000
Speaker 5: No perfect person.

582
00:31:49,280 --> 00:31:52,280
Speaker 3: There's no Yeah, there's no perfect person. There's like you

583
00:31:52,520 --> 00:31:55,720
Speaker 3: like someone. I mean what you did was how you

584
00:31:55,760 --> 00:31:56,160
Speaker 3: do it.

585
00:31:56,240 --> 00:31:57,040
Speaker 2: I mean, you.

586
00:31:58,480 --> 00:32:01,360
Speaker 3: Had someone that you liked, and you put effort into

587
00:32:01,360 --> 00:32:06,640
Speaker 3: your relationship with them. And I think when you do that,

588
00:32:07,400 --> 00:32:11,240
Speaker 3: you kind of you I mean, you know, god damn.

589
00:32:12,040 --> 00:32:17,200
Speaker 3: Ideally hopefully that comes back in the other direction, but

590
00:32:17,240 --> 00:32:22,240
Speaker 3: you kind of do it a little unconditionally, right, Yeah.

591
00:32:22,280 --> 00:32:27,200
Speaker 3: And I think there's something to be said about accepting

592
00:32:27,240 --> 00:32:32,960
Speaker 3: the fact that you loved and cherished this person unconditionally

593
00:32:33,560 --> 00:32:36,800
Speaker 3: and you did it because you just it was.

594
00:32:36,760 --> 00:32:37,920
Speaker 2: Just within you to do it.

595
00:32:38,800 --> 00:32:41,880
Speaker 3: And the fact that they betrayed your trust like that

596
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:46,840
Speaker 3: fucking sucks. But that's it's not reflective of you at all.

597
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:50,320
Speaker 3: The fact that you, you know, love the person and

598
00:32:50,360 --> 00:32:53,280
Speaker 3: you put effort into a person, and you put effort

599
00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:57,080
Speaker 3: into yourself. I mean, those are all things that are

600
00:32:57,120 --> 00:33:02,280
Speaker 3: reflective of you, and how she acts after that fact

601
00:33:02,400 --> 00:33:05,400
Speaker 3: is not reflective of you at all. So I would

602
00:33:05,480 --> 00:33:08,280
Speaker 3: just I mean, you sound like you're doing pretty happy

603
00:33:08,320 --> 00:33:11,160
Speaker 3: and good, but I would just kind of not.

604
00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:15,240
Speaker 2: I don't like, Oh, how can ivy so bad that

605
00:33:15,320 --> 00:33:16,480
Speaker 2: she would do that to me?

606
00:33:17,360 --> 00:33:22,600
Speaker 5: You know, I understand, but I don't know. That's just

607
00:33:24,680 --> 00:33:27,160
Speaker 5: I don't know, you know, it's like cheating on is

608
00:33:27,200 --> 00:33:30,640
Speaker 5: one thing, but cheating on like that with someone you're like,

609
00:33:31,320 --> 00:33:35,320
Speaker 5: you know, promise too. If that makes sense. I just

610
00:33:36,160 --> 00:33:37,480
Speaker 5: I can't wrap my head around it.

611
00:33:38,040 --> 00:33:38,440
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

612
00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:46,080
Speaker 5: I'll mostly go ahead, all right, I said. Mostly the

613
00:33:46,400 --> 00:33:50,120
Speaker 5: way I figured out that she did this was she

614
00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:53,120
Speaker 5: kept she said she mentioned at one point serious start

615
00:33:53,200 --> 00:33:57,120
Speaker 5: talking at the time, not intimately, just like hey, how

616
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 5: you how you doing and everything. So I still cared

617
00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:03,200
Speaker 5: about her, and you know, like I said, she's going

618
00:34:03,240 --> 00:34:05,240
Speaker 5: down to bad path. And she told me while she

619
00:34:05,280 --> 00:34:07,120
Speaker 5: was drunk one time she missed me and I was like,

620
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,880
Speaker 5: why don't you come back? And she said she couldn't.

621
00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:12,399
Speaker 5: And at the time, I was like, what'd you do?

622
00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:15,080
Speaker 5: And she told me she didn't do anything, and I'm like, no,

623
00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:16,719
Speaker 5: be honest, would you do? And she told me she'd

624
00:34:16,760 --> 00:34:20,960
Speaker 5: sucked with someone and at that point I had just

625
00:34:21,480 --> 00:34:24,360
Speaker 5: given up. And then, you know, I took a screenshot

626
00:34:24,360 --> 00:34:28,360
Speaker 5: of the chat and she was like, who are you

627
00:34:28,360 --> 00:34:29,520
Speaker 5: going to show it to? And I'm like, I'm not

628
00:34:29,560 --> 00:34:31,799
Speaker 5: going to show it to anyone. I just want to

629
00:34:31,840 --> 00:34:34,120
Speaker 5: think about this for a while. And then she said

630
00:34:34,120 --> 00:34:38,040
Speaker 5: fuck you and basically just flipped it on me. And

631
00:34:38,200 --> 00:34:42,879
Speaker 5: I was like, dang, So I just I don't know.

632
00:34:42,880 --> 00:34:49,560
Speaker 3: Man, Well, how are things within your new girl? I mean, dude,

633
00:34:50,239 --> 00:34:55,760
Speaker 3: I mean, look, you have a new girlfriend, right, yeah, okay,

634
00:34:55,880 --> 00:34:57,600
Speaker 3: So I let this be in the I mean, I

635
00:34:57,920 --> 00:34:59,880
Speaker 3: know you called in to talk about it because it's like,

636
00:35:00,440 --> 00:35:02,040
Speaker 3: you know, a thing to talk about for the show

637
00:35:02,120 --> 00:35:02,520
Speaker 3: or whatever.

638
00:35:02,560 --> 00:35:04,680
Speaker 2: But let this be in the past, all right.

639
00:35:07,000 --> 00:35:12,839
Speaker 5: Yeah. I mean it's hard. It's hard just because.

640
00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:16,960
Speaker 3: Because you don't want this to like it, because because listen, man,

641
00:35:17,120 --> 00:35:18,319
Speaker 3: I just let me say this.

642
00:35:18,480 --> 00:35:20,360
Speaker 2: You have a new relationship with a new girl.

643
00:35:20,840 --> 00:35:23,040
Speaker 3: Okay, And the worst thing that you I think you

644
00:35:23,040 --> 00:35:26,000
Speaker 3: could do is to just like hold on to this

645
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:30,040
Speaker 3: thing and you know, you're like wearing it like glasses,

646
00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:33,400
Speaker 3: you know what I mean, Like everything you do and

647
00:35:33,480 --> 00:35:37,480
Speaker 3: see and everything everything is through the lens of this

648
00:35:38,719 --> 00:35:42,040
Speaker 3: fucked up thing. And that's the worst thing you could do.

649
00:35:42,120 --> 00:35:45,239
Speaker 3: So to take off the glasses and and throw them

650
00:35:45,280 --> 00:35:48,520
Speaker 3: away and just be in the present with your your

651
00:35:48,560 --> 00:35:53,279
Speaker 3: new girlfriends and you know, like like you did with

652
00:35:53,320 --> 00:35:55,960
Speaker 3: your other girlfriend, be like, oh I like this person,

653
00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:58,520
Speaker 3: and yes, yeah I love them, cherish him, do whatever

654
00:35:58,560 --> 00:36:01,239
Speaker 3: you want to do, but just don't don't let this

655
00:36:01,400 --> 00:36:04,680
Speaker 3: past experience. Don't just don't wear it like fucking glasses,

656
00:36:05,480 --> 00:36:08,200
Speaker 3: you know, and don't and don't don't wear it like

657
00:36:08,239 --> 00:36:11,719
Speaker 3: glasses when you when you look at yourself. Just just

658
00:36:11,800 --> 00:36:14,720
Speaker 3: let just let it be in the past. It's okay,

659
00:36:15,480 --> 00:36:17,879
Speaker 3: you know, Just just dive into the fucking what you're

660
00:36:17,920 --> 00:36:20,799
Speaker 3: doing right now. God damn it.

661
00:36:20,760 --> 00:36:23,160
Speaker 2: I don't know. I really I really never set out

662
00:36:23,200 --> 00:36:24,440
Speaker 2: to be a I fuck it.

663
00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:27,879
Speaker 3: I hate it. I hate being motivational. I hate it.

664
00:36:28,040 --> 00:36:31,480
Speaker 3: I just hated so much. But I just in my head,

665
00:36:31,719 --> 00:36:36,600
Speaker 3: I hate going on motivational rants, but I also really

666
00:36:36,680 --> 00:36:40,880
Speaker 3: want you to understand to let just just let this

667
00:36:41,000 --> 00:36:43,360
Speaker 3: be in the past.

668
00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:46,200
Speaker 5: I mean, I agree with you, it's just a scar

669
00:36:46,320 --> 00:36:47,279
Speaker 5: I'm always gonna hold.

670
00:36:47,840 --> 00:36:51,839
Speaker 2: Why don't why? Why why do you say? How will how?

671
00:36:51,880 --> 00:36:52,000
Speaker 4: Well?

672
00:36:52,040 --> 00:36:57,480
Speaker 2: You're twenty two? Stop saying, don't stop saying stupid bullshit

673
00:36:57,680 --> 00:37:01,840
Speaker 2: like that? Just stop? Just stop? Why? Why is it

674
00:37:01,880 --> 00:37:02,520
Speaker 2: a why?

675
00:37:02,880 --> 00:37:03,040
Speaker 1: Wall?

676
00:37:03,160 --> 00:37:05,080
Speaker 2: Really? Let me? Can I ask you? What can I

677
00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:07,160
Speaker 2: It's a scar You're always gonna hold why.

678
00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:12,880
Speaker 5: I just tend to think like that.

679
00:37:13,840 --> 00:37:15,279
Speaker 2: Oh well, what if you didn't it?

680
00:37:15,880 --> 00:37:17,960
Speaker 3: What if you didn't think like that and you went,

681
00:37:18,080 --> 00:37:19,520
Speaker 3: you know what? That was fucked up?

682
00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:22,359
Speaker 2: And I they that made me feel bad.

683
00:37:22,840 --> 00:37:26,319
Speaker 3: But I really like Tiffany, whatever her fucking name is

684
00:37:26,320 --> 00:37:29,359
Speaker 3: that you're with right now. I really like Tiffany, And

685
00:37:29,920 --> 00:37:32,000
Speaker 3: I really I'm feeling good about myself lately.

686
00:37:32,040 --> 00:37:33,920
Speaker 2: And it's a nice stay outside.

687
00:37:33,920 --> 00:37:36,400
Speaker 3: And I'm gonna go I'm gonna go to school for

688
00:37:37,280 --> 00:37:39,839
Speaker 3: accounting and become a CPA and I'm gonna get really

689
00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:42,400
Speaker 3: good at math. And people around the office when they

690
00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:44,520
Speaker 3: have a math problem, they're gonna ask me about it.

691
00:37:44,800 --> 00:37:46,960
Speaker 3: And it's making to make me feel good and.

692
00:37:46,920 --> 00:37:47,200
Speaker 2: All of it.

693
00:37:47,239 --> 00:37:49,120
Speaker 3: And then I'm gonna be thirty two and I'm gonna

694
00:37:49,120 --> 00:37:52,440
Speaker 3: be married and I'm gonna have you know, really, I'm

695
00:37:52,440 --> 00:37:55,560
Speaker 3: gonna be head of the accounting firm and I'm and no,

696
00:37:55,640 --> 00:37:58,440
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna have this scar for me with me

697
00:37:58,480 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 3: for the rest of my life.

698
00:37:59,560 --> 00:38:00,000
Speaker 2: What do you say?

699
00:38:00,040 --> 00:38:04,120
Speaker 3: Stop saying things like that, dude, You know, like that's

700
00:38:04,200 --> 00:38:04,799
Speaker 3: it's up to you.

701
00:38:04,960 --> 00:38:07,040
Speaker 2: It's up to you. It's up to you. What do

702
00:38:07,120 --> 00:38:11,920
Speaker 2: you think is gonna be with you forever? This is

703
00:38:11,960 --> 00:38:12,520
Speaker 2: no rules.

704
00:38:12,560 --> 00:38:15,640
Speaker 3: You don't have to hold on to fucking anything, Okay,

705
00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:20,160
Speaker 3: So stop saying that this is going to be if

706
00:38:20,200 --> 00:38:22,560
Speaker 3: you yeah, sure, if you hold it, sure, if you

707
00:38:22,760 --> 00:38:26,680
Speaker 3: if you want to go, you know, tumblerr about it,

708
00:38:26,760 --> 00:38:28,200
Speaker 3: and you want to be like, this is a scar

709
00:38:28,239 --> 00:38:29,520
Speaker 3: I'm gonna hold on to forever.

710
00:38:29,800 --> 00:38:32,560
Speaker 2: Then yeah, maybe it'll maybe it will be, but it's

711
00:38:32,600 --> 00:38:33,600
Speaker 2: in choice. Okay.

712
00:38:33,680 --> 00:38:37,000
Speaker 3: You're looking at it like it's this thing imposed upon

713
00:38:37,080 --> 00:38:43,200
Speaker 3: you over which you have no fucking agency, And just

714
00:38:43,239 --> 00:38:45,600
Speaker 3: stop doing that. Just if you want, if this was

715
00:38:45,640 --> 00:38:49,480
Speaker 3: a shitty thing and you want to let it go

716
00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:51,719
Speaker 3: so you can be happy with your new life and

717
00:38:51,760 --> 00:38:52,520
Speaker 3: you're in a relationship.

718
00:38:52,719 --> 00:38:53,480
Speaker 2: Just let it go.

719
00:38:53,680 --> 00:38:58,040
Speaker 3: Why are you writing a melancholy why you're being why?

720
00:38:58,040 --> 00:38:59,120
Speaker 2: Why be emo.

721
00:38:58,960 --> 00:39:01,719
Speaker 3: About it and say it's a scar you're gonna hold

722
00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:02,120
Speaker 3: for it.

723
00:39:02,160 --> 00:39:02,879
Speaker 2: Just let it go.

724
00:39:03,400 --> 00:39:06,279
Speaker 3: Why? Just next time you say to yourself, next time

725
00:39:06,280 --> 00:39:08,480
Speaker 3: you're looking in the mirror and you're saying to yourself,

726
00:39:08,560 --> 00:39:11,600
Speaker 3: I'm gonna be sad forever and I'm gonna always look

727
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:15,080
Speaker 3: at myself like I suck and I'm gonna always just why.

728
00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:17,960
Speaker 3: Just really keep asking yourself why until you come up

729
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:21,799
Speaker 3: with a good reason, and you fucking won't. So just

730
00:39:21,880 --> 00:39:27,800
Speaker 3: let it go. You don't have to respond that. You

731
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:29,760
Speaker 3: don't have to respond to everything I just said to you.

732
00:39:29,840 --> 00:39:32,480
Speaker 3: Just now, but just think about it. Okay, I'm gonna

733
00:39:32,480 --> 00:39:34,360
Speaker 3: put this in the podcast. Just think about it.

734
00:39:34,400 --> 00:39:42,640
Speaker 5: Okay, you're just making me realize how cringing I'm being good?

735
00:39:43,239 --> 00:39:46,040
Speaker 3: Good, It's okay to be cringey. We've all that's good.

736
00:39:46,560 --> 00:39:50,440
Speaker 3: Being cringey is a part of evolving as a human being.

737
00:40:01,680 --> 00:40:07,839
Speaker 2: Who's this new girlfriend? Okay, who's this new girlfriend? Her

738
00:40:07,920 --> 00:40:14,040
Speaker 2: name is Marissa, Marissa, Melissa, Marissa, Maria.

739
00:40:14,280 --> 00:40:15,160
Speaker 5: She'll probably hear this.

740
00:40:17,000 --> 00:40:19,720
Speaker 3: I'm sure, Maria. Look, I'm sure Marissa is a nice girl,

741
00:40:20,400 --> 00:40:24,040
Speaker 3: and I'm sure Marissa. I'm sure Marissa is a nice girl.

742
00:40:24,040 --> 00:40:26,560
Speaker 3: I'm sure Marissa really likes you. And I'm sure Marissa

743
00:40:26,880 --> 00:40:28,440
Speaker 3: would love if.

744
00:40:28,280 --> 00:40:28,760
Speaker 2: You took.

745
00:40:30,200 --> 00:40:34,719
Speaker 3: You know, if you had more brain power available to

746
00:40:34,719 --> 00:40:37,240
Speaker 3: put into the relationship you have with her, and also

747
00:40:37,680 --> 00:40:42,600
Speaker 3: most important, most importantly, put into you and your own

748
00:40:42,640 --> 00:40:45,000
Speaker 3: life and how you view yourself and how you feel

749
00:40:45,520 --> 00:40:49,399
Speaker 3: than in whatever. You know, God bless whoever this girl

750
00:40:49,520 --> 00:40:56,880
Speaker 3: is that cheated on you. I hope she finds Jesus

751
00:40:57,000 --> 00:40:59,520
Speaker 3: or whatever the fuck and lives a good life, you know,

752
00:40:59,560 --> 00:41:04,160
Speaker 3: a good good God bless her. Okay, So just that's

753
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:06,480
Speaker 3: how I think you should feel about her, and then

754
00:41:06,600 --> 00:41:09,960
Speaker 3: just move on with your life and and you know,

755
00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:13,440
Speaker 3: try to continue to you seem like a guy, you

756
00:41:13,480 --> 00:41:16,880
Speaker 3: seem like a virtuous guy. It's hard to do. Just

757
00:41:16,960 --> 00:41:20,920
Speaker 3: keep doing that, and yeah, just just fucking let it go. Man, goddamn.

758
00:41:21,000 --> 00:41:24,120
Speaker 2: Sorry, I don't have any more motivational things to yell

759
00:41:24,160 --> 00:41:24,400
Speaker 2: at you.

760
00:41:26,200 --> 00:41:27,400
Speaker 5: I'm bad for draining you.

761
00:41:28,200 --> 00:41:32,759
Speaker 3: It's okay, Well, all right, man, is there anything else

762
00:41:32,800 --> 00:41:35,640
Speaker 3: you wanna you wanna say about anything before we go?

763
00:41:38,239 --> 00:41:40,799
Speaker 5: Uh? How are you bad? You are right?

764
00:41:41,360 --> 00:41:48,600
Speaker 3: I'm Okay, I'm doing Okay, I'm doing okay, I'm uh,

765
00:41:50,080 --> 00:41:50,959
Speaker 3: you know, I'm not dead.

766
00:41:51,160 --> 00:41:52,279
Speaker 2: It's pretty good.

767
00:41:52,960 --> 00:41:56,319
Speaker 5: Yeah. Can you look at the chat?

768
00:41:56,480 --> 00:41:59,400
Speaker 3: Have I don't I don't care about the chat. I

769
00:41:59,480 --> 00:42:01,160
Speaker 3: care about talk. I don't care about the chat. I

770
00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:04,359
Speaker 3: care about talking to you my friends.

771
00:42:07,120 --> 00:42:07,160
Speaker 4: Know?

772
00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:09,160
Speaker 2: What's your what's your name again? Sorry?

773
00:42:09,760 --> 00:42:13,160
Speaker 3: Owen, have a good rest of your life. Oh and

774
00:42:13,239 --> 00:42:16,239
Speaker 3: I hope any of this ship that I farted out

775
00:42:16,239 --> 00:42:19,680
Speaker 3: of my mouth made any sense to you.

776
00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:21,520
Speaker 5: No, I know what I can do to fix it,

777
00:42:21,719 --> 00:42:22,640
Speaker 5: So all.

778
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:30,960
Speaker 2: Right, take care of I see man, Owen.

779
00:42:31,160 --> 00:42:31,520
Speaker 3: Owen?

780
00:42:32,160 --> 00:42:37,239
Speaker 2: Oh and oh and Owen. Yeah, I don't know. I

781
00:42:37,280 --> 00:42:38,920
Speaker 2: don't know. I don't know why I got fired up.

782
00:42:39,680 --> 00:42:44,759
Speaker 3: But there's just this is no rules, this is I think, well,

783
00:42:44,760 --> 00:42:49,400
Speaker 3: there's some rules, there's some rules, but I just, uh,

784
00:42:49,480 --> 00:42:51,120
Speaker 3: I don't I don't want to be a I don't

785
00:42:51,120 --> 00:42:53,120
Speaker 3: want to be all woo woo, But.

786
00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:55,440
Speaker 1: I don't know.

787
00:42:55,480 --> 00:42:59,239
Speaker 3: A lot of life is just like your ego has

788
00:42:59,320 --> 00:43:02,319
Speaker 3: fucking story worries. It tells you about the world and

789
00:43:02,360 --> 00:43:06,200
Speaker 3: about yourself and about other people, and it's a it's

790
00:43:06,320 --> 00:43:12,440
Speaker 3: fake and you know, there's lights and colors and decisions

791
00:43:13,000 --> 00:43:13,440
Speaker 3: and then.

792
00:43:13,320 --> 00:43:15,080
Speaker 2: You die, but there's no you can do.

793
00:43:15,800 --> 00:43:19,520
Speaker 3: I I really do believe in like like self limiting

794
00:43:20,719 --> 00:43:26,960
Speaker 3: beliefs in the head, because I have many of them personally.

795
00:43:28,960 --> 00:43:31,520
Speaker 2: That I you.

796
00:43:31,480 --> 00:43:34,160
Speaker 3: Kind of you you ask I ask myself. I'm like,

797
00:43:34,200 --> 00:43:36,359
Speaker 3: does this belief limit me in some way?

798
00:43:36,400 --> 00:43:37,319
Speaker 2: Ship? Does it help me?

799
00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:40,440
Speaker 3: Does it help me to go? I'm gonna carry around

800
00:43:40,480 --> 00:43:46,040
Speaker 3: this scar forever? Why it's up to you, man, Sometimes

801
00:43:46,040 --> 00:43:50,280
Speaker 3: it's up to you. Sometimes sometimes you just feel Sometimes

802
00:43:50,280 --> 00:43:53,799
Speaker 3: you feel really shitty and depressed and awful, and you

803
00:43:53,840 --> 00:43:56,480
Speaker 3: try to it's it's kind of like a form of copium.

804
00:43:56,960 --> 00:43:58,640
Speaker 2: You can you try to convince.

805
00:43:58,280 --> 00:44:01,680
Speaker 3: Yourself that it's just in your head, and you can

806
00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:03,280
Speaker 3: you don't have to be depressed.

807
00:44:03,360 --> 00:44:03,960
Speaker 2: But I don't.

808
00:44:04,480 --> 00:44:07,359
Speaker 3: I don't believe in that. I think sometimes you just

809
00:44:07,680 --> 00:44:10,600
Speaker 3: feel fun. I think sometimes you're just miserable against your will.

810
00:44:11,480 --> 00:44:14,200
Speaker 3: But this guy, in particular, if he's in a new

811
00:44:14,400 --> 00:44:22,239
Speaker 3: relationship and he's in a new whatever, and there's been

812
00:44:22,239 --> 00:44:25,000
Speaker 3: some time, use a little bit more leeway to just

813
00:44:25,080 --> 00:44:32,560
Speaker 3: let it go, like I I think I have. Okay,

814
00:44:32,600 --> 00:44:36,680
Speaker 3: I'm not, I'm I'm no more personal information about myself, Okay,

815
00:44:36,800 --> 00:44:37,160
Speaker 3: all right?

816
00:44:37,440 --> 00:44:44,000
Speaker 2: End of call. Hello, Hello, Hi, Hi, Yes, I can

817
00:44:44,160 --> 00:44:45,040
Speaker 2: hear you. What's your name?

818
00:44:46,560 --> 00:44:48,600
Speaker 4: My name's Izzy, Izzy.

819
00:44:48,640 --> 00:44:49,840
Speaker 2: What's up, busy? How's life?

820
00:44:51,480 --> 00:44:58,719
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, it's complicated. I will yeah, I will

821
00:44:58,760 --> 00:45:03,360
Speaker 4: start off facing. I've had a couple I've had a

822
00:45:03,360 --> 00:45:05,360
Speaker 4: couple of bulls this evening.

823
00:45:06,760 --> 00:45:10,160
Speaker 2: Maybe you've had a couple of you have you had

824
00:45:10,160 --> 00:45:12,960
Speaker 2: a couple of goals? You said goals or bulls?

825
00:45:14,640 --> 00:45:19,360
Speaker 3: Bowls? Like like, oh, you smoked you smoked weed?

826
00:45:20,760 --> 00:45:22,080
Speaker 4: Maybe a little married Jane.

827
00:45:22,280 --> 00:45:25,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's pretty that's it's that's pretty crazy.

828
00:45:25,719 --> 00:45:28,400
Speaker 2: That's pretty crazy. That's pretty crazy.

829
00:45:28,000 --> 00:45:36,000
Speaker 4: Anyway, Currently in my life, I'm trying to figure out

830
00:45:36,960 --> 00:45:38,879
Speaker 4: what what the fuck I want to do with it?

831
00:45:39,040 --> 00:45:41,080
Speaker 2: You know, any ideas and.

832
00:45:43,560 --> 00:45:51,200
Speaker 4: Well I have I've been dancing, uh for like nine

833
00:45:51,320 --> 00:45:56,480
Speaker 4: years now, and I've had people tell me like I

834
00:45:56,520 --> 00:46:01,040
Speaker 4: should try and get into the industry, dreams stuff. But

835
00:46:01,960 --> 00:46:06,600
Speaker 4: LA is kind of on fire right now. Shout out

836
00:46:06,640 --> 00:46:15,239
Speaker 4: to them. It's devastating. But I'm okay, I know, I know,

837
00:46:15,320 --> 00:46:20,240
Speaker 4: I know. Anyway, I also just like I was thinking

838
00:46:20,239 --> 00:46:23,200
Speaker 4: of moving to Philly. Do you think Philly is a

839
00:46:23,239 --> 00:46:23,800
Speaker 4: good place?

840
00:46:24,040 --> 00:46:31,280
Speaker 2: Philadelphia is potentially my favorite city in America? Yeah? Really absolutely,

841
00:46:32,480 --> 00:46:34,480
Speaker 2: I'm not walking with you. Phillies. Phillies a real hitting gym.

842
00:46:34,480 --> 00:46:38,960
Speaker 3: Philly is great because it's it's definitely walkable, Like you

843
00:46:38,960 --> 00:46:42,279
Speaker 3: don't need a car if you don't uh uh want one?

844
00:46:42,840 --> 00:46:49,080
Speaker 3: Uh super affordable, great culture. Yeah, Phi Philly rocks.

845
00:46:49,120 --> 00:46:49,319
Speaker 1: Yeah.

846
00:46:49,360 --> 00:46:51,120
Speaker 3: If you think about moving to Philly, I I highly

847
00:46:51,120 --> 00:46:54,000
Speaker 3: recommend it. It's a great city. I went to a

848
00:46:54,120 --> 00:46:56,480
Speaker 3: college there for like four years.

849
00:46:56,520 --> 00:47:01,399
Speaker 2: It was awesome. Yeah, what do you think of moving

850
00:47:01,440 --> 00:47:01,759
Speaker 2: to Philly?

851
00:47:05,239 --> 00:47:09,440
Speaker 4: I know, Philly is like it seems it seems like

852
00:47:09,480 --> 00:47:14,120
Speaker 4: a pretty creative city, you know, definitely, And I'm a

853
00:47:14,160 --> 00:47:19,080
Speaker 4: creative person. I like, I really want a job where

854
00:47:19,080 --> 00:47:23,160
Speaker 4: I can make things with my hands, you know what

855
00:47:23,239 --> 00:47:26,040
Speaker 4: I mean, doing something creative.

856
00:47:26,719 --> 00:47:29,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, but what are do you do? You have a

857
00:47:30,000 --> 00:47:30,480
Speaker 2: job now?

858
00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:37,799
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm just I'm just a delivery driver for Dominoes.

859
00:47:38,480 --> 00:47:40,800
Speaker 4: And I also teach dance classes.

860
00:47:41,320 --> 00:47:42,640
Speaker 2: Oh you teach dance classes?

861
00:47:43,760 --> 00:47:44,120
Speaker 5: I do?

862
00:47:44,239 --> 00:47:44,520
Speaker 4: I do?

863
00:47:44,680 --> 00:47:44,880
Speaker 1: Just that?

864
00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:45,680
Speaker 2: My really cool?

865
00:47:47,239 --> 00:47:50,480
Speaker 3: That's really cool. That's really cool. You could probably well,

866
00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:51,960
Speaker 3: can I ask what city you live in now?

867
00:47:53,800 --> 00:47:56,400
Speaker 4: I live in North Platte, Nebraska.

868
00:47:57,000 --> 00:47:59,960
Speaker 2: Oh wow, Plant Nebraska.

869
00:48:00,040 --> 00:48:07,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, okay, yeah, give I mean what yeah, go ahead,

870
00:48:07,600 --> 00:48:08,359
Speaker 3: give Philly a shot?

871
00:48:08,400 --> 00:48:10,280
Speaker 2: Why not. Why not? How old are you?

872
00:48:10,360 --> 00:48:10,600
Speaker 5: Yeah?

873
00:48:11,600 --> 00:48:13,680
Speaker 4: I'm twenty. I'm gonna be twenty one in month.

874
00:48:13,680 --> 00:48:16,600
Speaker 2: Oh I go, yeah, go go to Philly? What I

875
00:48:16,800 --> 00:48:21,239
Speaker 2: I yeah? Why not? Why not? Why not? Yeah? Go

876
00:48:21,320 --> 00:48:23,200
Speaker 2: to Philly, Go to Philly.

877
00:48:23,400 --> 00:48:27,000
Speaker 3: Teach dance class, living a liv in a live in

878
00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:31,279
Speaker 3: a North Philadelphia row home with seven other people, and

879
00:48:31,320 --> 00:48:35,799
Speaker 3: pay fifty dollars a month in rent and uh, chase

880
00:48:35,840 --> 00:48:36,879
Speaker 3: your dreams home girl?

881
00:48:38,960 --> 00:48:42,560
Speaker 4: Thank you? Yeah, I hope, I hope.

882
00:48:42,680 --> 00:48:43,279
Speaker 3: Uh.

883
00:48:43,640 --> 00:48:46,839
Speaker 4: Maybe someday I'll make it. Do something that I love

884
00:48:46,880 --> 00:48:47,680
Speaker 4: and enjoy.

885
00:48:48,200 --> 00:48:49,759
Speaker 2: You can do? Yeah, I mean what do you love?

886
00:48:50,000 --> 00:48:52,279
Speaker 2: You can you can do? I have, I have? You

887
00:48:52,320 --> 00:48:55,600
Speaker 2: can do whatever you love and enjoy today. You can

888
00:48:55,640 --> 00:48:56,600
Speaker 2: make it right now.

889
00:48:58,120 --> 00:49:05,760
Speaker 4: It's true. I've been struggling, like uh with mental health,

890
00:49:05,920 --> 00:49:09,360
Speaker 4: especially these last couple of years, which has been holding

891
00:49:09,400 --> 00:49:13,920
Speaker 4: me back, I think, from letting myself explore life and

892
00:49:14,080 --> 00:49:17,680
Speaker 4: find new fun things. And I hate that. But also

893
00:49:17,719 --> 00:49:19,080
Speaker 4: I feel stuck sometimes.

894
00:49:19,120 --> 00:49:24,560
Speaker 2: You know, what's your name? What's what's your name again?

895
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:28,480
Speaker 4: E Isy isy Isy?

896
00:49:28,600 --> 00:49:31,080
Speaker 3: I I have no advice for you. I would just

897
00:49:31,120 --> 00:49:34,720
Speaker 3: say just just I I just go do.

898
00:49:34,320 --> 00:49:36,360
Speaker 2: Go do stuff. If you think about doing something, just

899
00:49:36,360 --> 00:49:38,480
Speaker 2: just just do it. I don't. I don't.

900
00:49:38,520 --> 00:49:40,440
Speaker 3: There's no there's nothing I can say to you that

901
00:49:40,719 --> 00:49:46,680
Speaker 3: is gonna do anything for you. You know what I mean?

902
00:49:48,239 --> 00:49:48,880
Speaker 4: This is true?

903
00:49:49,560 --> 00:49:52,640
Speaker 1: This is true.

904
00:49:53,239 --> 00:49:54,879
Speaker 3: Is there anything else you you want to you want

905
00:49:54,880 --> 00:49:56,640
Speaker 3: to say to the people of the computer before we go,

906
00:49:56,760 --> 00:49:58,080
Speaker 3: or or anything else that you want.

907
00:49:57,960 --> 00:49:58,480
Speaker 2: To talk about.

908
00:50:00,600 --> 00:50:06,160
Speaker 4: Well, I'm also okay, we don't have to make this

909
00:50:06,200 --> 00:50:08,120
Speaker 4: too long. Of course there's other people.

910
00:50:07,880 --> 00:50:09,960
Speaker 2: Waiting, but sure, I'm.

911
00:50:11,680 --> 00:50:16,359
Speaker 4: I have this major, major crush on a girl, and

912
00:50:16,400 --> 00:50:17,799
Speaker 4: I don't know what to do about it.

913
00:50:17,880 --> 00:50:19,600
Speaker 2: What do you mean you don't know what to do

914
00:50:19,680 --> 00:50:25,080
Speaker 2: about it? What do you mean you're listen? Listen.

915
00:50:25,520 --> 00:50:28,160
Speaker 3: It's the same piece of either what do you mean

916
00:50:28,200 --> 00:50:29,839
Speaker 3: you don't know what to do about it?

917
00:50:30,200 --> 00:50:31,520
Speaker 2: What do you mean you don't know what to do?

918
00:50:31,800 --> 00:50:35,840
Speaker 4: Very Christian family, and so a lot of my family

919
00:50:35,880 --> 00:50:39,480
Speaker 4: would disown me, you know what I mean?

920
00:50:41,840 --> 00:50:45,160
Speaker 3: Well, you know what, that fucking sucks for them, because

921
00:50:45,160 --> 00:50:46,359
Speaker 3: that fucking sucks.

922
00:50:46,040 --> 00:50:49,160
Speaker 2: For them because they had a fucking daughter. And and

923
00:50:49,320 --> 00:50:52,680
Speaker 2: part of having a daughter is you fucking love your

924
00:50:52,760 --> 00:50:53,720
Speaker 2: daughter and you don't get.

925
00:50:53,600 --> 00:50:55,720
Speaker 3: Hung up on stupid bullshit. And so that's a problem

926
00:50:55,760 --> 00:50:58,040
Speaker 3: for them, and not a problem for you. So go

927
00:50:58,120 --> 00:51:01,279
Speaker 3: move to Philadelphia, go dance, go tell this girl you

928
00:51:01,440 --> 00:51:03,879
Speaker 3: like her, and fucking Goali, live your life.

929
00:51:03,920 --> 00:51:09,480
Speaker 4: Okay, thank you, gekkay, very nice.

930
00:51:11,440 --> 00:51:13,000
Speaker 2: Where's your name? What's your name again?

931
00:51:14,880 --> 00:51:15,240
Speaker 4: Easy?

932
00:51:15,760 --> 00:51:18,440
Speaker 2: Easy? Good luck is you have a have a good

933
00:51:18,480 --> 00:51:19,560
Speaker 2: rest of your entire life.

934
00:51:21,320 --> 00:51:24,200
Speaker 4: Thank you. I appreciate it. And thank you for people,

935
00:51:24,680 --> 00:51:27,400
Speaker 4: people of the computer. Thanks for listening to me. Have

936
00:51:27,440 --> 00:51:33,040
Speaker 4: a good night, easy, you too, goes on.

937
00:51:33,080 --> 00:51:35,719
Speaker 3: The line thanking your phone calls every night.

938
00:51:36,120 --> 00:51:39,600
Speaker 2: Everything goes. Si'm just teaching you aloud in the mead

939
00:51:39,640 --> 00:51:42,719
Speaker 2: of your life. He's not really an expert.