WEBVTT - I Really Thought I Had Healed From This w/ Johnny Sibilly 0:00:00.040 --> 0:00:02.280 Where sometimes I think we're in a space where we're 0:00:02.320 --> 0:00:06.000 chasing the relationship to fill our cut. 0:00:06.040 --> 0:00:09.760 People can feel when you are putting on them this 0:00:09.920 --> 0:00:14.280 sort of expectation or this yearning, this wanting for something 0:00:14.920 --> 0:00:18.400 rather than you know, two people just being around each 0:00:18.400 --> 0:00:20.280 other and be like you know I was, I told 0:00:20.320 --> 0:00:21.960 my therapist, I was like, I don't know that I'll 0:00:21.960 --> 0:00:23.759 ever have someone here that I don't want to leave, 0:00:23.920 --> 0:00:26.400 like my house, Like I want people to leave my house. 0:00:26.880 --> 0:00:35.640 You know. You know what we do here destroy shame 0:00:35.720 --> 0:00:37.839 around sex by talking about sex. 0:00:38.040 --> 0:00:39.920 Now let me tell you something messy. 0:00:40.640 --> 0:00:43.840 Hello, wait, okay, before we really get into the show show, 0:00:44.560 --> 0:00:47.120 I wanted to say one, I'm just so grateful that 0:00:47.159 --> 0:00:51.000 you're here and every week new people show up and 0:00:51.040 --> 0:00:52.919 it just means the world to me that you are 0:00:53.479 --> 0:00:55.760 vibing what we're doing here. And so I just need 0:00:55.800 --> 0:01:00.000 your help because we want to continue to grow our community. 0:01:00.320 --> 0:01:02.040 So if you can do me a favorite and rate 0:01:02.120 --> 0:01:06.039 review and subscribe to the podcast, it really helps us 0:01:06.480 --> 0:01:10.160 beat the motherfucking algorithm ogay and get the show to 0:01:10.400 --> 0:01:11.120 more people. 0:01:11.800 --> 0:01:13.560 Get into their ears and your reviews. 0:01:13.560 --> 0:01:14.960 They don't have to be like a long essay you 0:01:15.000 --> 0:01:17.520 could just write like, oh, I love the show, Brandon 0:01:17.720 --> 0:01:22.119 is the best sexist fun whatever it is. 0:01:22.680 --> 0:01:23.840 But it really really does help. 0:01:23.880 --> 0:01:26.000 And I also, you know, y'all, y'all have been sending 0:01:26.000 --> 0:01:28.880 me messages telling me that you've been sharing the pod 0:01:28.920 --> 0:01:32.160 with your friends. Somebody said they shared the Caramo episode 0:01:32.200 --> 0:01:33.600 one of their straight guy friends. 0:01:33.720 --> 0:01:37.000 And that's motherfucking right period. 0:01:37.080 --> 0:01:38.760 Okay, because they will try and make you think this 0:01:38.800 --> 0:01:40.639 show is just for the queers and the ladies, but honey, 0:01:40.640 --> 0:01:44.399 it's for everybody. And we know, we know some of 0:01:44.440 --> 0:01:47.920 these straight men can use these conversations. Okay, then they 0:01:47.920 --> 0:01:50.240 can stand to learn a little bit about the mess. 0:01:50.240 --> 0:01:53.440 All right, so that really helps rate, review, subscribe, and 0:01:53.520 --> 0:01:57.600 share this podcast with anyone you think good vibe. All right, 0:01:57.920 --> 0:01:59.640 thank you so much for being here. All right, now, 0:01:59.720 --> 0:02:00.880 let's really get into the show. 0:02:00.880 --> 0:02:01.120 Show. 0:02:01.560 --> 0:02:03.480 I have a gym crush, well, I have a new 0:02:03.520 --> 0:02:05.200 gym crush. I mean I always have a Jim crush. 0:02:05.280 --> 0:02:07.840 My roster y I have. I have a roster of 0:02:07.920 --> 0:02:08.600 Jim crushes. 0:02:08.639 --> 0:02:10.359 It is ninety five. 0:02:10.400 --> 0:02:11.560 For some of the reason I go to the gym 0:02:11.639 --> 0:02:13.200 is to see my crushes, to check up on them, 0:02:13.240 --> 0:02:13.840 make sure they do it. 0:02:13.880 --> 0:02:15.799 Okay, make sure that our relationship is intact. You know 0:02:15.880 --> 0:02:17.480 what I'm saying. But the last time I talked to 0:02:17.520 --> 0:02:19.280 you all about a Jim crush was a while. I 0:02:19.320 --> 0:02:20.040 don't know if I talked. 0:02:19.880 --> 0:02:22.240 About it on here, but definitely on Instagram, because it 0:02:22.280 --> 0:02:25.240 was like this past summer where my Jim crush, who 0:02:25.240 --> 0:02:27.200 we had been you know, together for a. 0:02:27.280 --> 0:02:31.520 Year, in my in my head, we've been together for 0:02:31.560 --> 0:02:31.960 a year. 0:02:32.200 --> 0:02:35.800 And finally, because I famously don't talk to my Jim crushes, 0:02:35.919 --> 0:02:36.520 I'm a punk guy. 0:02:36.639 --> 0:02:38.680 I'm I don't. I don't talk to them at all. Okay, 0:02:38.680 --> 0:02:40.400 I just I just be. I just be creeping. 0:02:40.440 --> 0:02:42.640 I just be looking and seeing them, spotting them or 0:02:42.680 --> 0:02:46.799 watching them. So he asked me to spot him in 0:02:46.840 --> 0:02:49.520 and a bench press, and then afterwards he confidently said 0:02:49.800 --> 0:02:53.840 thanks TJ. And I said, oh, my name is Brandon. 0:02:54.240 --> 0:02:56.080 He was like brand He started to short circuit, his 0:02:56.240 --> 0:03:01.120 face started to like like spiral, and he was just 0:03:02.160 --> 0:03:03.040 He's like, yeah. 0:03:02.919 --> 0:03:03.760 No, my name is Brandy. 0:03:03.800 --> 0:03:05.400 He had swore that we met and that my name 0:03:05.840 --> 0:03:08.800 was TJ. And so really ruined the fantasy. 0:03:08.960 --> 0:03:10.079 You know, up up to that. 0:03:10.080 --> 0:03:13.920 Point, we were madly in love, you know, our families 0:03:14.000 --> 0:03:16.519 loved each other, our friends got along. We were planning 0:03:16.560 --> 0:03:19.200 a trip to Paris to bench breast under the Eiffel Tower. 0:03:19.440 --> 0:03:21.600 But when you call me another man's name, that is 0:03:21.720 --> 0:03:24.160 just the fantasy was over. So I was in need 0:03:24.200 --> 0:03:27.040 of some new gym crushes. But that's that's that's you know, 0:03:27.240 --> 0:03:29.800 life hack. You always have a roster of drim crushes, 0:03:29.960 --> 0:03:33.000 so when one of them disappoints you, you have a 0:03:33.040 --> 0:03:34.760 whole other list to go back to. You know what 0:03:34.800 --> 0:03:36.720 I'm saying, Because men will disappoint you. 0:03:36.640 --> 0:03:44.960 Honey, that's tea. Sorry. 0:03:45.320 --> 0:03:49.760 Anyways, So I have a new gym crush, and I'm 0:03:49.920 --> 0:03:54.080 We've been together for maybe six or seven months now. 0:03:54.120 --> 0:03:55.560 I saw him when he was taking a tour of 0:03:55.640 --> 0:03:59.000 the gym, and he caught my eye because well, yes, 0:03:59.760 --> 0:04:02.040 he's six shut up, shut up, shut up. 0:04:02.080 --> 0:04:04.640 You know how I feel. Listen, it's my toxic trade. 0:04:04.720 --> 0:04:06.840 And as I always say, when they're that tall, I 0:04:06.880 --> 0:04:08.560 look up the blood rushes to my head and not 0:04:08.600 --> 0:04:10.360 at goofy And this is no exception. 0:04:10.480 --> 0:04:11.160 He's six four. 0:04:11.800 --> 0:04:14.560 He gives very like East Village vibe, which is also 0:04:14.560 --> 0:04:15.920 what I like because you know, I'm from New York. 0:04:15.960 --> 0:04:18.919 But I live in Los Angeles, and Los Angeles has. 0:04:18.640 --> 0:04:23.680 A particular breed of man here and it's fine. But 0:04:23.760 --> 0:04:25.760 like I love a New Yorker because a New Yorker 0:04:25.800 --> 0:04:28.680 really comes with the style, with the swag, especially if 0:04:28.680 --> 0:04:30.719 they're in the village. So he has like an East 0:04:30.800 --> 0:04:35.640 village alphabet city vibe, a dance survibe, but like modern dance. 0:04:35.680 --> 0:04:37.000 And you know what I mean, but that right, like 0:04:37.200 --> 0:04:37.480 you know. 0:04:37.440 --> 0:04:41.560 The ballerinas of them all, they're a little more conservative, respectfully, 0:04:41.560 --> 0:04:43.960 but y'all are whereas the modern dancers, you know, the 0:04:44.040 --> 0:04:49.480 experimental downtown dance. You know what, like a vegan he 0:04:49.520 --> 0:04:53.000 gets very vegan. And I also mean that fabulously respectfully. Right, 0:04:53.040 --> 0:04:55.200 Like it's like he hit the funky pants and he 0:04:55.279 --> 0:04:58.359 wears the beads around the wrists and you know, it 0:04:58.440 --> 0:04:59.760 seems like he wears. 0:04:59.720 --> 0:05:00.919 Like natural deodorant. 0:05:01.240 --> 0:05:04.520 You know what I'm saying, you know, but you know 0:05:04.600 --> 0:05:06.280 what I said it, and you know what I mean 0:05:06.320 --> 0:05:07.800 when I say it, Okay, and you know I say 0:05:07.839 --> 0:05:09.320 it with all the love in the world. 0:05:09.720 --> 0:05:10.560 He's fine as fuck. 0:05:11.160 --> 0:05:13.279 So we've been together for like I said, like seven 0:05:13.320 --> 0:05:16.760 months or so, and I've never talked to him. Uh, 0:05:17.040 --> 0:05:19.040 you know, I'll be on the squat machine, he'll be 0:05:19.040 --> 0:05:21.800 bench pressing. I'll be on the treadmills, He'll be doing abs. 0:05:22.000 --> 0:05:23.839 And you know what I will say about him, Well, 0:05:23.880 --> 0:05:25.960 let's call him. What should you call him? We'll call 0:05:26.040 --> 0:05:29.880 him mister Vegan. We're doing mister Vegan. He never looks 0:05:29.880 --> 0:05:33.360 at me, to the point where I was like, are 0:05:33.400 --> 0:05:37.000 you gay? But he's he's gay, but he never looks 0:05:37.000 --> 0:05:38.360 at me, and it's part of the appeal. 0:05:38.440 --> 0:05:39.440 He don't pay me no mind. 0:05:39.480 --> 0:05:41.719 He treats me terribly, and I kind that's kind of 0:05:41.720 --> 0:05:44.520 my kink because in my real life, you listen, in 0:05:44.560 --> 0:05:48.200 my real life, I don't play that shit. Okay, you 0:05:48.960 --> 0:05:51.640 gonna have to acknowledge all this good good or you're 0:05:51.640 --> 0:05:54.440 not in my life. But in my fantasy, if you 0:05:54.520 --> 0:05:57.320 ignore me, that's kind of hot. It's a little subdom situation, 0:05:57.440 --> 0:05:58.640 a little disrespectful. 0:05:58.680 --> 0:06:00.680 I got to earn you. You know what I'm saying. 0:06:00.120 --> 0:06:01.360 There's it's sick. 0:06:01.480 --> 0:06:04.120 It's sick, but that's why it's a fantasy, so it's safe. 0:06:05.000 --> 0:06:06.680 So yeah, he never pays attention to me, never looks 0:06:06.680 --> 0:06:08.440 at me. You know, you know, I'll look over because 0:06:08.440 --> 0:06:09.720 that's what you do with your Jim crush. When you 0:06:09.720 --> 0:06:11.440 see a Jim crush, you look at them, You're trying 0:06:11.440 --> 0:06:13.680 to catch their eyes, and a lot of times you might. 0:06:13.760 --> 0:06:16.920 But this particular gym crush, mister Vegan, he really play 0:06:16.920 --> 0:06:17.599 a hard get. 0:06:20.680 --> 0:06:21.360 Mister Vegan. 0:06:21.880 --> 0:06:24.800 He ain't paying me no mine anyways. The other day, 0:06:24.920 --> 0:06:27.119 was it yesterday or no? It was last week. Last 0:06:27.160 --> 0:06:29.920 week we were in the locker room together. So I'm 0:06:29.960 --> 0:06:32.800 in the as as you may or may not know, famously, 0:06:32.960 --> 0:06:35.960 I have a whole skincare routine. And the people that 0:06:36.040 --> 0:06:38.840 go in my locker room, the man you know, are 0:06:38.880 --> 0:06:40.680 you lucky if they wash their ass? You know what 0:06:40.680 --> 0:06:43.640 I'm saying. So I'm in the mirror doing my skincare 0:06:43.640 --> 0:06:45.160 of chine. And the funny thing is like when I'm 0:06:45.960 --> 0:06:49.200 I'm doing my like whole thing, I just see just 0:06:49.240 --> 0:06:51.520 the droves of men who have taken a shower and 0:06:51.520 --> 0:06:54.800 they've left, to have come in, who've worked out shower 0:06:54.920 --> 0:06:58.200 and left, and I am still applying I cream. So 0:06:58.600 --> 0:07:02.960 mister Vegan comes out of the comes back from the shower, uh, 0:07:02.960 --> 0:07:07.279 and he's in his towel uh. And he walks by me. 0:07:07.960 --> 0:07:12.760 And how do I say this? Mister Vegan smelled like 0:07:12.760 --> 0:07:15.840 like which was like b oh like he like it 0:07:15.880 --> 0:07:18.360 was it was be o the house down in a 0:07:18.400 --> 0:07:21.720 way that was frightening because he wasn't even that close 0:07:21.760 --> 0:07:25.400 to me, like there was like there was a couple 0:07:25.440 --> 0:07:27.600 of feet between us when he walked by, but it 0:07:27.640 --> 0:07:30.600 was just it was literally just me and him, and 0:07:30.680 --> 0:07:34.000 so it was a me girl like, Listen, I smell 0:07:34.120 --> 0:07:38.040 like amber and lavender, so and coconut oil and shade butter. 0:07:38.360 --> 0:07:40.920 I listen, I know how I smell. 0:07:41.760 --> 0:07:45.480 And he walked by me, which was introducing a new smell, okay, 0:07:45.880 --> 0:07:48.320 and I caught it. I caught it, and my face 0:07:48.840 --> 0:07:52.040 twitched up in a way I said, oh, Lord and mercy, 0:07:52.240 --> 0:07:58.240 not not my man, not my man. And it was 0:07:58.240 --> 0:08:00.800 strange to me because he also had just come back 0:08:01.120 --> 0:08:04.280 from the shower. Now listen, there are you know, you 0:08:04.360 --> 0:08:07.000 might have like medical conditions or things where it might 0:08:07.040 --> 0:08:10.680 affect your boh. But the reason I know that that's 0:08:10.720 --> 0:08:13.760 not the case for mister Vegan is because you know, 0:08:14.360 --> 0:08:17.280 after he dropped his towel and proceeded to put on 0:08:17.640 --> 0:08:19.960 his clothes, he put back on the clothes he had 0:08:20.000 --> 0:08:24.720 worked out in. Yeah, yeah, I'm confused too. I don't 0:08:24.720 --> 0:08:27.560 know you confused, So I'm confused too. There are some 0:08:27.600 --> 0:08:31.280 of y'all who will work out and get sweaty. You'll 0:08:31.280 --> 0:08:33.920 do your squats, you'll do your lifts, you'll do your pilates, 0:08:33.960 --> 0:08:37.840 your yoga, You'll get sweaty and your cardio in them clothes, 0:08:37.920 --> 0:08:41.280 and then you'll shower and then you'll put the same 0:08:41.360 --> 0:08:45.040 sweaty ass clothes back on, which tells me that this 0:08:45.160 --> 0:08:49.560 is a choice that mister Vegan. Mister Vegan, the bo 0:08:49.800 --> 0:08:52.479 is is some kind of rebellion. 0:08:52.679 --> 0:08:53.400 I don't know. 0:08:53.800 --> 0:08:59.360 It's some kind of statement of resistance, resistance, resisting aluminum. 0:08:59.400 --> 0:09:02.600 I don't know, girl. I was hoping for at least 0:09:02.640 --> 0:09:05.000 even like a natural deodoran. But my man didn't even 0:09:05.000 --> 0:09:10.120 put on My man didn't even put nothing on. Like 0:09:10.120 --> 0:09:12.240 like I said, I'm in the I'm in the mirror 0:09:12.320 --> 0:09:14.320 doing my skincare so I could see what other people 0:09:14.400 --> 0:09:17.400 are or not. And he literally took that towel off. 0:09:17.440 --> 0:09:19.880 I think he went to the lotion pump that they provide, 0:09:20.280 --> 0:09:21.520 and they provide the worst lotion. 0:09:21.640 --> 0:09:22.720 Can I have a sidebar here? 0:09:23.080 --> 0:09:26.680 You know, a gym don't have no black people working 0:09:26.760 --> 0:09:29.440 on their beauty team if they provide lotion, like whether 0:09:29.480 --> 0:09:31.840 it's you know, the big gyms or your little class gyms, 0:09:32.040 --> 0:09:35.400 when they provide lotion and the lotion is trash, when 0:09:35.440 --> 0:09:37.280 the lotion don't be rubbing in. Do you know what 0:09:37.320 --> 0:09:39.080 I'm talking about? There are a couple of brands. I 0:09:39.080 --> 0:09:41.920 won't name them, but they're the lotion is. It's just 0:09:42.040 --> 0:09:46.280 wet it don't do nothing, and nobody says nothing. But 0:09:46.320 --> 0:09:48.280 the black folk are like, what the fuck is this? 0:09:48.360 --> 0:09:50.040 But the white folk are like, yeah, I don't know, 0:09:50.160 --> 0:09:52.360 it's great. That's how you know they don't give a 0:09:52.760 --> 0:09:55.280 about us. Anyways, they put he put on that wet, 0:09:55.600 --> 0:09:56.560 slippery ass lotion. 0:09:56.640 --> 0:09:57.480 I bring my own lotion. 0:09:57.559 --> 0:09:59.680 I bring my veno, I bring my shade butter, I 0:09:59.679 --> 0:10:02.240 bring my almond oil because I cannot play games when 0:10:02.280 --> 0:10:04.280 it comes to the moisturizer. So he puts on the 0:10:04.280 --> 0:10:07.080 wet lotion that they provide, and then he puts on 0:10:07.120 --> 0:10:09.480 his sweaty clothes and then he walks by me again. 0:10:09.600 --> 0:10:10.280 My face. 0:10:11.520 --> 0:10:14.920 Literally the nosehairs, which I don't really have because I 0:10:15.760 --> 0:10:17.280 shaved them periodically, but if. 0:10:17.200 --> 0:10:19.360 I did, they would have fallen out. They would have 0:10:19.400 --> 0:10:23.000 fallen out. And he left, and it really won. 0:10:23.280 --> 0:10:27.800 We've broken up, we're no longer we're no longer together. 0:10:27.880 --> 0:10:30.240 But it just made me feel like I need to 0:10:30.320 --> 0:10:35.000 say to y'all, please walk please one please, How do 0:10:35.080 --> 0:10:38.920 I want to say this? Please use soap when you wash. Okay, 0:10:39.000 --> 0:10:43.000 let's say this. Please use soap and warm water when 0:10:43.000 --> 0:10:48.760 you wash. Please wash under your armpits, wash in your 0:10:48.880 --> 0:10:51.400 crotch area, wash between. 0:10:51.000 --> 0:10:52.960 Your toes, and wash your ass. 0:10:53.000 --> 0:10:54.960 I don't And also, like, because we talked about straight 0:10:54.960 --> 0:10:58.400 man earlier, straight man, you have to wash your ass. 0:10:58.559 --> 0:11:01.680 Straight ladies, please not eat no straight man's ass who 0:11:01.720 --> 0:11:03.240 has not washed the ass. 0:11:03.480 --> 0:11:05.120 You have to watch them wash they ass. You know 0:11:05.160 --> 0:11:06.720 what I'm saying. I had a straight girlfriend. 0:11:06.720 --> 0:11:08.360 It was like, my man wants me to eat his ass, 0:11:08.400 --> 0:11:11.000 but it smells. Girl, You got to tell him to 0:11:11.280 --> 0:11:14.360 wash his ass. I don't understand why he's asking you 0:11:14.400 --> 0:11:16.640 to eat that ass if he's not washing it, But anyways, 0:11:16.640 --> 0:11:17.640 you gotta tell him to wash it. 0:11:18.080 --> 0:11:19.520 You're soap and water. 0:11:19.640 --> 0:11:22.319 And then please don't be afraid of a little deodorant 0:11:22.760 --> 0:11:25.040 and you could use that. There are good natural deodorants 0:11:25.040 --> 0:11:26.960 out there if that's your vibe. If you but also 0:11:27.480 --> 0:11:31.199 if you know that that don't work for you, then 0:11:31.280 --> 0:11:33.520 you might have to bite the bullet and get a 0:11:33.520 --> 0:11:37.520 little old spice. Okay, once a day in the morning, 0:11:37.559 --> 0:11:42.520 real fast. Just hit it, just hit it. But I I, 0:11:42.600 --> 0:11:46.559 you are ruining our relationships. 0:11:47.640 --> 0:11:49.960 You are ruining our relationships. 0:11:50.280 --> 0:11:52.320 We we could, we could, we could be married in 0:11:52.360 --> 0:11:55.280 our fantasy right now. But but you fucking playing in 0:11:55.320 --> 0:11:58.079 my face with these smells. 0:11:57.880 --> 0:11:59.280 That's fucking up the fantasy. 0:11:59.360 --> 0:12:02.240 And so all this to say, because this really is 0:12:02.240 --> 0:12:05.199 about me, I feel like he owes me an apology 0:12:05.559 --> 0:12:08.120 for smell us so bad. Okay, this is it, by 0:12:08.160 --> 0:12:09.520 the way, welcome to the show. This is telling me 0:12:09.520 --> 0:12:12.720 something messy. My name is Brandon cok goodness. Some people 0:12:12.760 --> 0:12:16.040 call me messy mom, but you can call me a 0:12:16.080 --> 0:12:17.200 scratch and sniff. 0:12:17.480 --> 0:12:21.320 Okay, okay, because I scratch that itch. 0:12:21.720 --> 0:12:25.800 No no, no, no, no, make that doorbell. 0:12:25.840 --> 0:12:27.200 Haven't made that doorbell? Heaven? 0:12:27.320 --> 0:12:30.679 Now, baby, you know what that means. It is time 0:12:30.720 --> 0:12:34.160 for a guess. And while they get situated, I have 0:12:34.240 --> 0:12:37.440 some fabulous news to tell you. Our podcast told me 0:12:37.480 --> 0:12:41.040 something MESSI has been nominated for a Queerity Award. 0:12:41.400 --> 0:12:43.240 If you don't know what that is, it is exactly 0:12:43.280 --> 0:12:43.960 what you think it is. 0:12:44.160 --> 0:12:47.680 It is an award that celebrates all things queer, and 0:12:47.720 --> 0:12:51.960 we are alongside some incredible and incredible, incredible queer podcasts. 0:12:52.160 --> 0:12:55.120 So you can vote every day from now until February 0:12:55.200 --> 0:12:56.559 twenty fifth, and I hope you. 0:12:56.480 --> 0:12:59.680 Do so that we can win our little award period. 0:13:00.040 --> 0:13:02.360 We'll put the link in the show notes. 0:13:02.400 --> 0:13:04.400 Okay, so again, you can go every day from now 0:13:04.480 --> 0:13:07.800 until February twenty fifth to help tell me something messy 0:13:07.880 --> 0:13:09.280 when its first award. 0:13:09.320 --> 0:13:10.439 Oh my god, I'm so excited. 0:13:10.520 --> 0:13:15.440 Okay, now let us do our hoe manifest stow repeat 0:13:15.440 --> 0:13:17.640 after me aloud or in your head. Grant me the 0:13:17.679 --> 0:13:21.320 serenity to unpack my shame, the courage to heal, the 0:13:21.360 --> 0:13:24.520 wisdom to that sex is not just about penetration, The 0:13:24.600 --> 0:13:27.839 audacity to advocate for my pleasure and boundaries. 0:13:28.080 --> 0:13:29.600 The strength to not call my. 0:13:29.679 --> 0:13:32.680 Ex that fuck boy, fuck girl, or fuck bay, for 0:13:32.800 --> 0:13:35.800 it is better to masturbate by myself in peace than 0:13:35.840 --> 0:13:39.000 to let someone play in my motherfucking face. Let the 0:13:39.040 --> 0:13:46.760 community say, oh helujah, Ugh, I'm very excited. Johnny simply 0:13:46.960 --> 0:13:50.719 is here. Actor and producer Johnny Sibley is known for 0:13:51.000 --> 0:13:56.040 his charisma, versatility, and championing of the LGBTQ plus community 0:13:56.200 --> 0:13:59.280 both on and off the screen. He was most recently 0:13:59.320 --> 0:14:02.480 seen as series regular on Peacock's Queer as Folk and 0:14:02.520 --> 0:14:05.680 as Wilson the water Cup in the Emmy Award winning 0:14:05.760 --> 0:14:10.040 comedy series Hacks on HBO Max. Johnny has also graced 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:13.760 the small screen as costas Perez in the groundbreaking drama Pose, 0:14:14.160 --> 0:14:17.360 as well as an appearance in season two of Eliza 0:14:17.520 --> 0:14:21.040 on Demand. In addition to his work in television, Johnny 0:14:21.160 --> 0:14:24.840 is a fervent advocate for LGBTQ plus and LATINX rites, 0:14:25.040 --> 0:14:28.480 growing a considerable social following as a result of his 0:14:28.600 --> 0:14:34.640 progressive and comedic voice that includes his popular online character Julisa. Y'all, 0:14:34.640 --> 0:14:45.440 please make some noise for Johnny Sibley, hibb, you look stunting. 0:14:45.600 --> 0:14:46.960 What's the skincare retine? 0:14:47.040 --> 0:14:50.640 Oh god, uh stress, no ime kidding. Actually, I've been 0:14:50.680 --> 0:14:53.120 taking these Ashwaganda gummies that I heard are really good. 0:14:53.320 --> 0:14:59.480 Stressanda's teacher. I couldn't. Honestly, I think it's did you. 0:14:59.440 --> 0:15:02.840 Say, I don't know? We're starting great love it? 0:15:02.840 --> 0:15:04.840 That is so that's so la for somebody like you 0:15:04.880 --> 0:15:07.640 should be taking oshragonda gum. He's no questions asked, just like, 0:15:07.720 --> 0:15:09.480 all right, I got it, I got it. 0:15:09.880 --> 0:15:11.680 You know. Somebody was like, you need some sea moths 0:15:11.720 --> 0:15:14.440 and I was like, bet Amazon, I don't know where 0:15:14.480 --> 0:15:15.000 y'all get that. 0:15:15.000 --> 0:15:16.440 Moss from, but I will take it. 0:15:18.480 --> 0:15:20.520 But that modo baby. 0:15:21.120 --> 0:15:22.640 All right, So let me give you before we get 0:15:22.640 --> 0:15:24.440 into our messy key key, let me give you our 0:15:24.640 --> 0:15:29.040 messy mandates, which is, things get to be unprocessed. Any 0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:31.920 thoughts or opinions shared have the right to evolve, shift, 0:15:32.000 --> 0:15:34.600 or change today, tomorrow or ten years from now. And 0:15:35.080 --> 0:15:38.479 if during the kiki something feels too personal or unintentionally offends, 0:15:38.600 --> 0:15:41.560 we use to say word foosball, which gives us a 0:15:41.640 --> 0:15:43.480 chance to. 0:15:43.680 --> 0:15:47.400 Pivot and address or accordingly. Does that make that fun? 0:15:47.440 --> 0:15:47.720 You got? 0:15:47.800 --> 0:15:48.520 Yeah, that's fun. 0:15:48.680 --> 0:15:51.040 Have you played football foosball? 0:15:51.800 --> 0:15:53.400 Yes? Oh my god? Are you kidding? I grew up 0:15:53.400 --> 0:15:55.000 going to the Boys and Girls Club. That is where 0:15:55.040 --> 0:15:57.400 we stayed, That's where the foozall was at. Oh yeah, 0:15:57.520 --> 0:16:00.840 I learned what was on this show. Yeah, I made 0:16:00.840 --> 0:16:02.560 the safe word. And then somebody was like, do you 0:16:02.600 --> 0:16:03.000 know what it is? 0:16:03.040 --> 0:16:09.200 I said, I do not. Just like that. We don't 0:16:09.200 --> 0:16:11.880 know everything but we like the words. We like the words. 0:16:12.200 --> 0:16:15.200 Okay, let's start with the lube breaker, which is, you know, 0:16:15.240 --> 0:16:15.960 like an icebreaker. 0:16:15.960 --> 0:16:22.400 But are you down for a fun round of fuck 0:16:22.520 --> 0:16:25.680 Mary Block. Oh yeah, yeah, we don't kill people here. 0:16:25.720 --> 0:16:27.760 We just block them. We just we just a block. 0:16:27.840 --> 0:16:28.440 We don't follow. 0:16:28.760 --> 0:16:33.080 Okay, so fuck Mary Block. Ass eating So sitting on 0:16:33.600 --> 0:16:37.440 your face all fours or on their back, and this 0:16:37.480 --> 0:16:39.280 could be you eating them or them eating you, but 0:16:39.440 --> 0:16:42.920 sitting on your somebody sitting on your face all fours. 0:16:43.480 --> 0:16:46.440 That can be a whole different uh, you know, lineup, 0:16:46.560 --> 0:16:50.200 because I'll just go with if I'm the the one 0:16:50.280 --> 0:16:56.520 sitting for dinner, I would say I would fuck the 0:16:57.040 --> 0:17:01.880 face ride. Yes, I would marry the all fours and 0:17:02.000 --> 0:17:06.199 I lock the on your back legs up. Oh but 0:17:06.240 --> 0:17:09.520 that's so oh gosh. They're also wonderful. But I just 0:17:09.560 --> 0:17:11.919 think if I had to get rid of one, because 0:17:11.920 --> 0:17:16.280 there's just nothing like that little arch back with those two. 0:17:16.560 --> 0:17:20.439 You can see it, like you know what I'm saying, 0:17:20.880 --> 0:17:23.639 Yes I do, I do. Yeah, and the and the 0:17:23.680 --> 0:17:26.439 and the and the ride is is really very it 0:17:26.480 --> 0:17:30.040 gives very much coming attractions, Like I don't know, it's 0:17:30.240 --> 0:17:32.280 just yeah, it's like, are you gonna kill me? You 0:17:32.320 --> 0:17:32.919 could kill me? 0:17:33.480 --> 0:17:34.640 You could right now. 0:17:34.960 --> 0:17:35.840 You can kill me right now. 0:17:35.880 --> 0:17:37.240 That's kind of hot, that's crazy. 0:17:37.280 --> 0:17:40.000 But I'm with you, you know, or like, yeah, your 0:17:40.040 --> 0:17:41.600 life is in my hands right now, like your life 0:17:41.640 --> 0:17:42.480 is in my hole right now. 0:17:43.320 --> 0:17:51.640 Yes, I definitely on all fours. 0:17:51.760 --> 0:17:54.840 There's not like it's assume the position like that to me, 0:17:54.920 --> 0:17:57.080 I have to marry that because that because like you said, 0:17:57.080 --> 0:17:59.200 like I get like it's such a perfect the arch. 0:17:59.520 --> 0:18:02.560 That she Depending on what the lighting is, it could be 0:18:02.680 --> 0:18:03.960 really just like you're. 0:18:05.520 --> 0:18:08.280 Yeah, and and the mirrors. Besides, both of us can 0:18:08.400 --> 0:18:14.720 look in the mirror and see delicious. Absolutely, I'm going 0:18:14.800 --> 0:18:18.720 to say I will fuck the face ride because I 0:18:18.800 --> 0:18:18.960 like it. 0:18:19.320 --> 0:18:22.320 I like a good coming attraction. I like roller, you know. 0:18:23.080 --> 0:18:24.119 And then I'll block. 0:18:23.920 --> 0:18:25.880 The The only reason I'll block the on the back 0:18:26.000 --> 0:18:27.720 is because I feel like you need to add like 0:18:27.760 --> 0:18:28.280 a pillow to. 0:18:28.359 --> 0:18:30.040 It, you know what I'm saying, so like we can you. 0:18:30.000 --> 0:18:32.600 Know, sometimes I got to hold the langes back if 0:18:32.600 --> 0:18:35.440 they're not you know, helpful in the situation. 0:18:35.600 --> 0:18:37.600 Yeah, if they're not as FLEXI too, it's just like 0:18:37.640 --> 0:18:42.439 it requires did you stretch before? So blocked that this 0:18:42.480 --> 0:18:46.600 is the last what you saying? Baby, let me tell 0:18:46.640 --> 0:18:48.800 you this right now. He needs to hear this stretch 0:18:49.200 --> 0:18:51.000 the way my hips and knees used to crack. 0:18:51.640 --> 0:18:53.280 And I said, no, this is unacceptable. 0:18:55.280 --> 0:18:57.320 Somebody like blow your back out and then you hear 0:18:57.400 --> 0:19:01.760 popular It's fine, that's just my undergrad. 0:19:01.440 --> 0:19:03.480 I'm just I'm just dandy. 0:19:05.160 --> 0:19:11.200 Okay, last one, fu Mary block kinks, blindfold, hand restraints, 0:19:11.680 --> 0:19:13.440