WEBVTT - Episode 388: Play With It (Feat. Lola Brooke) 0:00:02.279 --> 0:00:04.480 What's up this lip service? I'm the Antela yee, I'm 0:00:04.519 --> 0:00:11.720 g McGuire, I'm I'm Jasmine brand I'm her feet not 0:00:11.800 --> 0:00:18.599 touching the grandma whatever. Alright, First of all, we found 0:00:18.600 --> 0:00:24.080 out today that you signed a deal. Okay, congratulations on that. 0:00:24.200 --> 0:00:27.000 Shairs to that. We have a bottle of domp for you. Yes, 0:00:27.080 --> 0:00:33.240 we get it. Okay, bottle. Maybe you want to pop 0:00:33.280 --> 0:00:35.360 it or you want to pop it. I feel like 0:00:35.640 --> 0:00:39.600 you want to pop your on bottle. All right, let's see. 0:00:39.720 --> 0:00:43.520 Have you popped a bottle before? Oh yeah, okay, pointed 0:00:43.520 --> 0:00:49.159 at Jasmine. Yeah, just be careful, all right, pointed that 0:00:49.200 --> 0:00:51.800 way or something to that guy in the maroon. The 0:00:51.840 --> 0:00:56.040 only part of I know, I was just looking at 0:00:56.120 --> 0:01:00.760 maybe let gig like Jasmine trust to be sitting right 0:01:00.760 --> 0:01:06.520 next door. But congratulations that we we just found it out. 0:01:06.560 --> 0:01:09.600 So um, while we popped this bottle, how are you feeling? 0:01:10.360 --> 0:01:15.120 I feel like I feel like that. Okay, that's how 0:01:15.160 --> 0:01:18.160 you feel. That's good luck. That's good luck. That's good luck. 0:01:19.160 --> 0:01:23.959 Would be a great Can we get some napkins? Okay? 0:01:24.720 --> 0:01:27.119 Hold up, we got some. We got some. There we go. 0:01:27.440 --> 0:01:30.160 So how are you feeling? I feel good? Um, I 0:01:30.160 --> 0:01:33.560 feel blood for the most part. Okay, I just know 0:01:33.720 --> 0:01:38.400 that from today on is still the days before work. 0:01:38.840 --> 0:01:41.480 I just gotta work. So what was that process like 0:01:41.600 --> 0:01:44.560 for you? Walk us through it, like just even figuring out, 0:01:44.560 --> 0:01:46.479 like where you wanted to sign, how many labels were 0:01:46.520 --> 0:01:50.440 coming at you led into that decision. It was a 0:01:50.560 --> 0:01:52.800 It was a couple of labels. I had a couple 0:01:52.840 --> 0:01:56.800 of meetings, but when I got to Aristo, it just 0:01:56.840 --> 0:01:59.280 felt like home. And the main thing that I could 0:01:59.280 --> 0:02:02.600 remember them saying to me was we love everything about you. 0:02:02.680 --> 0:02:05.080 Like they didn't want to change anything about me any time. 0:02:05.160 --> 0:02:06.680 Like if I stepped in the room, it would just 0:02:06.720 --> 0:02:08.919 be at least one thing about me that they'd be like, Oh, 0:02:09.000 --> 0:02:12.200 we have to juice this up. We'll fix it, or 0:02:12.320 --> 0:02:14.639 you know, I think you should be this way. They 0:02:14.720 --> 0:02:17.079 was like, no, girl, you already a star. We love 0:02:17.160 --> 0:02:19.320 everything about you. We just want to be here to help. 0:02:19.639 --> 0:02:21.120 What were some of the things that they were other 0:02:21.160 --> 0:02:24.880 labels was saying they need to fix or change or tweak. 0:02:25.280 --> 0:02:28.680 The main thing they say is I don't see it. 0:02:29.040 --> 0:02:34.720 Oh that's aggressive. Yeah, they'd be like, I don't see it. Um, Yeah, 0:02:34.760 --> 0:02:40.320 she's she's cool. Thank you I know. I don't like 0:02:40.360 --> 0:02:42.560 to say when you come in the room, like just 0:02:42.600 --> 0:02:45.240 like oh my gosh, okay, you're like, hey, what's up? 0:02:46.040 --> 0:02:51.560 She literally packed up. Yeah, but yeah, they would say 0:02:51.600 --> 0:02:54.280 that I'm too aggressive. But I'm from Brooklyn, so like 0:02:54.800 --> 0:02:57.120 even when she said Brooklyn, they get aggressive. And for Brooklyn, 0:02:57.760 --> 0:03:01.720 she said, very strong. But you know people from Brooklyn, 0:03:01.840 --> 0:03:04.920 like everywhere you go, somebody's from Brooklyn. When you go, 0:03:06.919 --> 0:03:09.680 we let you know, we let you know. And then 0:03:09.720 --> 0:03:11.359 it didn't even got to be a New York thing. No, 0:03:11.480 --> 0:03:16.000 I'm from Brooklyn. Period. Yeah, it's not. It's not the city, 0:03:16.000 --> 0:03:29.119 it's not, it's the borough Lyn congratulations, lady. We don't 0:03:29.160 --> 0:03:31.919 do dump for everybody. Know what I'm saying this that 0:03:32.160 --> 0:03:39.640 zone zone. Yes, so I know that before everybody else knows, 0:03:39.680 --> 0:03:41.480 you know what's going on, Like you knew you was 0:03:41.640 --> 0:03:43.160 how long did you know about this deal before the 0:03:43.200 --> 0:03:54.080 public knew? Mm hmmm, spit it out, Lola. I literally 0:03:54.480 --> 0:04:00.600 got the same pigtails. I mean, I knew it was 0:04:00.720 --> 0:04:03.240 it was coming up though, of course, like it's been 0:04:03.320 --> 0:04:05.880 some time. I've been working this working time, but I 0:04:05.960 --> 0:04:08.280 finally sat down and signed the papers with these pig 0:04:08.280 --> 0:04:16.720 tails ship's signing papers. Baby, yeah, um, just my team 0:04:16.760 --> 0:04:21.040 Team eight and Arista my Arista team. That's it. And 0:04:21.200 --> 0:04:23.800 me what about the guy that you'd be talking about 0:04:23.800 --> 0:04:30.360 in your tweets that ain't ship? What I said, let's 0:04:30.360 --> 0:04:36.440 go to the tweets. Yeah, because alright exhibit Yes, we 0:04:36.520 --> 0:04:46.840 got some tweets here. Alright at Little Brooks. Your man 0:04:46.880 --> 0:04:48.360 always want to show a lot of people that don't 0:04:48.360 --> 0:04:50.760 give a funk about him. Then you'll be looking like 0:04:50.800 --> 0:04:52.760 the problem for keeping it a buck. This ain't about 0:04:52.760 --> 0:04:55.440 me right now? Words from a manipulator. I'm two percent 0:04:55.880 --> 0:05:00.400 or whatever the funk that is? Oh man, everything I 0:05:00.600 --> 0:05:06.560 mean that ship look wherever he at, he ain't with me? 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:12.400 All right? Two At Lola brook I've got trust issues, 0:05:12.560 --> 0:05:17.599 real bad, real bad. I do I do, But I 0:05:17.640 --> 0:05:21.960 mean body, I ain't just talk about Okay, that's everything, right, yeah, 0:05:22.080 --> 0:05:28.520 everything about things? Yeah, I'm paranoid, Like why is that? 0:05:28.560 --> 0:05:34.200 What's happened to Lola? People would say they do something, 0:05:34.400 --> 0:05:41.240 don't do it, or people would just be manipulated and 0:05:41.400 --> 0:05:44.280 just lied to you for no reason. And I'm straightforward, 0:05:44.400 --> 0:05:46.760 see me, you could tell me anything, even if it's 0:05:46.800 --> 0:05:49.800 like real real bad, handle it. It is what it is. 0:05:50.040 --> 0:05:52.360 I'd rather you hurt my feelings at that very moment 0:05:52.360 --> 0:05:54.960 that my feelings get hurt afterwards, because then I'm gonna 0:05:54.960 --> 0:05:59.360 be thinking about that moment back to back flashbacks when 0:05:59.360 --> 0:06:00.719 you could have just told me I don't want to 0:06:00.720 --> 0:06:07.599 have flashbacks the other flashbacksbacks like is this in terms 0:06:07.640 --> 0:06:12.280 of a man or just in general, like friendships, um, 0:06:12.720 --> 0:06:16.520 family issues. Like you would think that family is there 0:06:16.760 --> 0:06:20.080 to protect you, but normally when they feel like you 0:06:20.200 --> 0:06:23.960 got to some certain success, they talk about you or 0:06:24.000 --> 0:06:26.640 this could be happening or she's doing this, and it's like, so, 0:06:26.640 --> 0:06:28.359 why you won't pick up your phone to call me 0:06:28.400 --> 0:06:30.839 and act if I was okay? Yeah. I feel like 0:06:31.360 --> 0:06:35.760 no matter what kind of relationship, whether it's lovers, family, friends, like, 0:06:35.839 --> 0:06:37.640 just tell me the truth, keeping the box so I 0:06:37.680 --> 0:06:40.160 can make my choice on how I want to react, Right, 0:06:40.440 --> 0:06:42.440 And that's it. That's a good point. It is only 0:06:42.480 --> 0:06:49.920 gonna get worse. It's about the value about to be termed. 0:06:51.200 --> 0:06:53.640 Is gonna be hiding. I feel like you owe them something. 0:06:54.200 --> 0:06:56.320 There's going to be people around for the wrong reasons. 0:06:56.360 --> 0:06:57.840 It's going to be people that you tell them yes 0:06:57.839 --> 0:07:00.040 a thousand times you tell them no ones all of 0:07:00.120 --> 0:07:03.120 sending you the worst person in the world. I already 0:07:03.120 --> 0:07:05.680 told him don't call my phone until I changed my 0:07:05.760 --> 0:07:13.000 mother address first. All right, So, like this is exciting 0:07:13.040 --> 0:07:14.800 to me because you're from Brooklyn. I'm from Brooklyn. So 0:07:14.880 --> 0:07:17.000 let's talk about where you grew up and everything, where 0:07:17.000 --> 0:07:18.960 you went to school. I want to know all these details. 0:07:19.240 --> 0:07:21.440 You want to how far how far back you want 0:07:21.440 --> 0:07:24.880 to from the beginning where you Okay, okay, so my 0:07:25.000 --> 0:07:28.200 sandboxes in Tomkins Park. Okay, that's right bout me. I 0:07:28.200 --> 0:07:33.680 live in Bestid. She knows, she knows a lot about Brooklyn. Yeah, 0:07:33.680 --> 0:07:36.720 so Tomkins Park, they used to have mad shows in 0:07:36.800 --> 0:07:38.920 there and everything. I went to the after school program 0:07:39.000 --> 0:07:42.160 in Tomkins Park as well. I went to elementary school 0:07:42.160 --> 0:07:45.800 to fifty six across the street from Mossy Pool. Um 0:07:46.160 --> 0:07:48.920 where you arts in school? Were you into the arts 0:07:48.920 --> 0:07:51.440 and stuff? Yeah for sure. Yeah. Where you're like at 0:07:51.480 --> 0:07:56.760 first in line when you had to line up, always first. 0:07:58.320 --> 0:08:00.880 So I was always first to that's because where you, 0:08:02.680 --> 0:08:04.920 I don't know, it's a short thing. Somebody was the 0:08:04.920 --> 0:08:07.280 same side. That's me. I would be like, hey, listen, 0:08:08.360 --> 0:08:13.600 I'm in front. That's like we don't play with front. 0:08:13.960 --> 0:08:16.480 I went to boy I graduated from Boys and Girls. Okay, 0:08:16.680 --> 0:08:24.280 that's a talented creative school. What come on now, I 0:08:24.760 --> 0:08:26.760 don't know. I heard. I heard that Boys and Girl. 0:08:26.760 --> 0:08:28.960 I heard it was a little rough back, really wrong. 0:08:29.760 --> 0:08:32.280 She tried to make it sound the world just like 0:08:33.440 --> 0:08:35.320 it was rough back in the day. And my mistaken. 0:08:35.440 --> 0:08:38.160 It's rough and there still my mom and I told 0:08:38.160 --> 0:08:43.400 me it was a girl. My mom even told me 0:08:43.440 --> 0:08:45.760 it was rough, like all generations say, it's roughly, my 0:08:45.800 --> 0:08:49.600 mama to Erasmus, So where is that? Okay? I don't 0:08:49.640 --> 0:08:52.960 know Flatbush that well, that school is huge too, okay, 0:08:52.960 --> 0:08:57.120 so go on. So okay, oh I want to um 0:08:57.240 --> 0:09:01.160 ms one thirteen. That's claims. Okay, that's you in high school. 0:09:01.520 --> 0:09:04.800 And yeah, I grew up around tomkas Park went. Did 0:09:04.840 --> 0:09:07.760 you and you always knew you wanted to be an artist? Yeah? 0:09:07.800 --> 0:09:10.640 I always knew I wanted to be an entertainer for sure, 0:09:11.160 --> 0:09:13.560 Like always, I just always felt that inside of me. 0:09:13.960 --> 0:09:15.640 When I went to school, I did step for like 0:09:16.559 --> 0:09:19.000 I just wanted to be on stage. I literally went 0:09:19.400 --> 0:09:22.880 to go do step and try to be a cheerleader 0:09:23.120 --> 0:09:26.280 just to be on stage for one time. I went 0:09:26.320 --> 0:09:28.440 on stage one time doing step and I was out 0:09:28.880 --> 0:09:31.840 Why I just wanted to be on stage at one time? 0:09:32.480 --> 0:09:34.000 How did you know you wanted to be a start 0:09:34.040 --> 0:09:35.720 when you were little? Did were you always trying to 0:09:35.760 --> 0:09:38.480 perform or get into How did you know this is 0:09:38.480 --> 0:09:40.760 always in you? When I was like seven eight years old, 0:09:40.800 --> 0:09:43.360 I used to always fantasize about me being on the 0:09:43.440 --> 0:09:46.720 lunch room tables, jumping at lunchroom table to lunch room table, 0:09:46.760 --> 0:09:52.479 and all the kids like cheering me on. Yeah, liked 0:09:52.800 --> 0:09:55.640 did you have a pole? Did you have another name 0:09:55.679 --> 0:10:00.440 before it's always been Lola Broke? Yeah? And then who 0:10:00.480 --> 0:10:02.760 did you grow up with in the house? Just me 0:10:02.800 --> 0:10:06.760 and my mom? Just to tell your only child, only child? Well, damn, 0:10:07.080 --> 0:10:12.440 only child, that's probably children a little crazy, only children 0:10:12.679 --> 0:10:15.760 a little crazy. But I'm but I'm my mother's only child. 0:10:15.800 --> 0:10:19.920 And maybe that's why I'm off and I'm a little off. Yeah, No, 0:10:20.120 --> 0:10:22.400 you're definitely off. I am. I'm definitely off. Yeah, so 0:10:22.440 --> 0:10:25.199 that may be okay, that explains her being creative and 0:10:25.800 --> 0:10:34.960 anybody had imaginary friends and ship. I thought that ship 0:10:35.120 --> 0:10:37.400 was real. I said, come on, you gotta see something. 0:10:38.120 --> 0:10:41.720 I ain't never see nothing. Though shap I did play 0:10:41.760 --> 0:10:44.199 with myself a lot and looking to mirror a lot, 0:10:44.240 --> 0:10:47.560 talk to myself a lot. The family dynamic outside of 0:10:47.600 --> 0:10:48.839 just you and your mom. Do you have a lot 0:10:48.840 --> 0:10:53.000 of cousins? Was there? Yeah? A lot of family members around. Yeah. 0:10:53.040 --> 0:10:55.360 Always like I would hate to go home. I will 0:10:55.480 --> 0:10:58.960 always want to go to grandma house because my cousins. 0:11:00.240 --> 0:11:03.000 I'm like, come on, even on Sundays, I'd be like, Grandpa, 0:11:03.120 --> 0:11:05.680 just take me to school tomorrow, Great Grandpa, stay tonight 0:11:06.200 --> 0:11:07.920 to stay to nine. I don't want to go home. 0:11:08.080 --> 0:11:13.280 And they used to hurt MoMA feeling a little baby. Yeah, 0:11:13.559 --> 0:11:17.239 Jasmine child, don't even really know her like that. Shut up. 0:11:18.960 --> 0:11:22.719 That's first of all, and just sold mean to me 0:11:22.760 --> 0:11:24.360 about being a mom. I'm a new mom and and 0:11:24.640 --> 0:11:28.040 has all the jazz and all the jokes. Yes, I've 0:11:28.040 --> 0:11:29.839 been telling her bring the baby with you because she 0:11:29.920 --> 0:11:33.880 lived in d C. How old is one? You can't 0:11:33.880 --> 0:11:40.920 be carrying Jasmine already? Shut up. She's such an asshole. Anyway, 0:11:41.880 --> 0:11:44.760 whatever I kids I'm gonna have, I was gonna bring them. 0:11:44.800 --> 0:11:48.120 You'll be thinking about that already. Please don't wait. I'm 0:11:48.120 --> 0:11:51.240 the only child, so it's like I'm on my own family. 0:11:51.320 --> 0:11:54.880 I feel like you think you want if I get 0:11:54.920 --> 0:11:58.480 beyond jay Z money, I'm going with a bank or 0:11:58.720 --> 0:12:01.320 get like six what kind of guy you like? Like, 0:12:01.320 --> 0:12:05.760 who do you envision as the father? Now? Who do 0:12:05.800 --> 0:12:14.840 you envision? She got somebody you definitely No, I really don't. 0:12:15.120 --> 0:12:18.160 You're gonna like Okay, So if you could like say, okay, 0:12:18.200 --> 0:12:20.920 the father is gonna be somebody like this, give us 0:12:20.920 --> 0:12:26.959 a comment like the fake stuff such and such build 0:12:26.960 --> 0:12:29.640 a man. They don't really have to be no fame involved, 0:12:30.240 --> 0:12:33.560 as long as the characteristic. Yeah, like, as long as 0:12:33.600 --> 0:12:36.079 he knows how to protect me, as long as he 0:12:36.160 --> 0:12:41.080 a provada, as long as he affectionate and a family man. 0:12:41.720 --> 0:12:46.880 I'm straight, he ain't pussy. I'm straight. No, I ain't 0:12:46.880 --> 0:12:49.480 gotta be from Brooklyn. Okay. At first I used to 0:12:49.520 --> 0:12:51.240 be like, he gotta be from New York? But nah, 0:12:51.679 --> 0:12:53.040 what's that? What do you think? It is the worst 0:12:53.040 --> 0:12:59.079 borough for guys? She's like, I don't want to put 0:12:59.120 --> 0:13:06.400 my fan base? Yeah, I know, good answer. Bronx the best, 0:13:06.640 --> 0:13:10.680 the worst, the worst, The Bronx, the Bronx, Yes, the 0:13:10.760 --> 0:13:15.320 Bronx the best boroughs for dating for in my opinions, 0:13:15.640 --> 0:13:19.160 my my opinion. I'm from New York, born and raised 0:13:19.160 --> 0:13:22.400 in New York. I was born in ma Sign nine 0:13:22.920 --> 0:13:26.760 fifth Avenue and ninety nine Street. And for me, the 0:13:26.800 --> 0:13:35.120 best guys are from Queens and like Brooklyn. You can 0:13:35.480 --> 0:13:38.560 you know what I mean, um Long Island because they 0:13:38.600 --> 0:13:41.640 always got a car because they look so far you 0:13:41.679 --> 0:13:48.200 know what. I'm man that doesn't have a car. Yeah, ok, yeah, 0:13:48.440 --> 0:13:53.560 but they people don't. Yes, I forgot where I am 0:13:53.679 --> 0:13:58.440 and then and then Manhattan, but like not up town Manhattan, 0:13:59.160 --> 0:14:03.920 the Harlem and down, Harleman down was down because I 0:14:03.960 --> 0:14:11.400 don't know it was from Yeah, I'm from Chelsea. Yeah, yeah, 0:14:11.440 --> 0:14:18.839 I'm from the che projects from yeah way brothers. The 0:14:19.280 --> 0:14:23.720 many people, so many famous people from Chelsea Projects. It's 0:14:23.760 --> 0:14:26.240 something you tweeted. You asked a question about where the 0:14:26.240 --> 0:14:29.760 best guys Where the best guys are from the South one, 0:14:29.840 --> 0:14:33.160 the South one. Have you dated a guy from the South, No, 0:14:33.840 --> 0:14:35.840 we should all date a guy from the South. No, 0:14:35.920 --> 0:14:38.200 but you really I'm dated guys from the South, and 0:14:38.240 --> 0:14:41.120 I have to say they have the best mannerisms. They 0:14:41.200 --> 0:14:44.800 treat women really well, even when they're ready to move on. 0:14:45.200 --> 0:14:51.480 They do it the right way. The pole, the Pole 0:14:51.800 --> 0:14:58.840 was correct. The East a second from Pelfia, born and raised. 0:14:58.920 --> 0:15:01.600 I lived here for a while. You think I currently 0:15:01.680 --> 0:15:05.400 live in Atlanta, And I will say that I like SOUTHERNIL. 0:15:05.560 --> 0:15:08.200 But I've been saying this, I have too many options. 0:15:08.200 --> 0:15:10.160 There's too many women down there. Because there's too many 0:15:10.240 --> 0:15:14.120 women women looking for a man in the South. When 0:15:14.320 --> 0:15:16.240 looking for a family man, we all look for the 0:15:16.280 --> 0:15:20.360 same thing. Girls. So but look how you're You're so young? 0:15:20.520 --> 0:15:23.440 How old are you? Jay said, I'm thirty two, but 0:15:23.600 --> 0:15:26.880 you're not your twenties. Yeah, I'm got a birthday coming 0:15:26.960 --> 0:15:35.240 up to February one, still ain't turning thirty thirty too? 0:15:35.760 --> 0:15:38.360 Because Tom to cut it out, she's looking for first 0:15:38.360 --> 0:15:40.160 of all, she's going to be working on her birthday. 0:15:40.400 --> 0:15:42.320 She's looking for an outfit to wear. Where did you 0:15:42.400 --> 0:15:47.480 hear all that already? Before? We'll be going a chat? 0:15:48.800 --> 0:15:52.720 Are you single? Yes? Like that? How long you've been? 0:15:53.040 --> 0:15:56.280 I'm excited about this single because this is a great 0:15:56.280 --> 0:16:07.160 time for um, like two years? Okay, damn, that's not year? Yeah, 0:16:07.480 --> 0:16:09.800 not too long, not too short. But when you're saying 0:16:09.840 --> 0:16:12.120 are you but you've been, you've still been dealing with 0:16:12.520 --> 0:16:18.520 you haven't experience you've been dating, dating, You've been you know, 0:16:19.160 --> 0:16:23.320 experience in life. Um, I'm celibate though for how long? 0:16:27.280 --> 0:16:30.360 A year and six months? She knows it down to 0:16:30.440 --> 0:16:41.040 the day. Something to keep in saying, what are you 0:16:41.120 --> 0:16:44.560 gonna end this? What keeps me saying? What inspired you 0:16:44.680 --> 0:16:46.400 to become celibate and what is it gonna take for 0:16:46.440 --> 0:16:51.160 you to stop being celibate? What inspired me was I 0:16:51.280 --> 0:16:54.520 was in a relationship for a little minute, and after 0:16:54.560 --> 0:16:58.120 a while, I was like, man, I could go without it. 0:16:58.200 --> 0:17:00.880 Like you know, when you clock out, you already clocked out. 0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:03.600 I went to the same thing, so I've been clocked out. 0:17:03.640 --> 0:17:06.720 So I'm saying I'm around this, well fucking I'm still like, 0:17:07.720 --> 0:17:10.440 keep it to myself. Oh I don't really need it, 0:17:10.640 --> 0:17:13.720 saying I'm just focus on There's nothing worse than being 0:17:13.720 --> 0:17:16.080 in a relationship and feeling like you lonelier than if 0:17:16.119 --> 0:17:19.480 you wasn't. Oh my god, for having a man and 0:17:19.800 --> 0:17:24.080 having to go masterbate you gotta lay next to somebody 0:17:24.160 --> 0:17:26.040 and be Like I went through all of this, I 0:17:26.200 --> 0:17:27.720 was at the point where I just felt like, why 0:17:27.760 --> 0:17:30.600 am I in a relationship? Like I'm not what I need. 0:17:31.119 --> 0:17:33.760 If I'm gonna do bad bad because somebody could be 0:17:33.880 --> 0:17:36.320 so happy just to say they're in a relationship, don't 0:17:36.359 --> 0:17:39.440 matter that it's sucked up. Don't know, I can't. I 0:17:39.520 --> 0:17:44.000 know he mad now though that no man now so 0:17:44.200 --> 0:17:45.520 has to each other to reach out to you. Did 0:17:45.560 --> 0:17:48.440 he say congratulations? See, yeah, of course. But see the 0:17:48.560 --> 0:17:52.480 thing is with him, the last one, he is, he cool, 0:17:52.600 --> 0:17:55.800 like we still we cool, Like it wasn't bad blood. 0:17:55.840 --> 0:17:57.480 I just had to let him know, like, look, listen, 0:17:57.520 --> 0:17:59.800 I gotta focus on my career. You focus on what 0:17:59.880 --> 0:18:04.160 you need to and that's it. If it come back, 0:18:04.240 --> 0:18:06.520 it comes back. But if it don't, just know I 0:18:06.600 --> 0:18:09.400 still gotta love you. And there's no bad blood. Did 0:18:09.440 --> 0:18:17.480 you buy over buying a gift like when you start 0:18:17.560 --> 0:18:22.840 making big checks? No, I ain't. I ain't no fun No, 0:18:23.040 --> 0:18:28.560 but say what I can't say. I still like make 0:18:28.600 --> 0:18:31.560 sure that they were straight, though, because like what that 0:18:31.680 --> 0:18:36.480 mean the person, the person I still like tapped in 0:18:36.640 --> 0:18:40.399 and made sure that my conscious could sleep at night 0:18:40.600 --> 0:18:44.359 because we don't have no bad blood. We didn't separate 0:18:46.920 --> 0:18:48.760 on a bad note. So it's like, yo, you're still 0:18:48.840 --> 0:18:50.000 my friend at the end of the day. He was 0:18:50.040 --> 0:18:51.800 my friend before he was my man. You wonna be 0:18:51.880 --> 0:18:56.400 my friend? Yeah? Did you try to get you back? 0:18:57.000 --> 0:19:00.200 Of course? Yeah? Man? What was the problems? Was it 0:19:00.280 --> 0:19:01.920 really just wanted to focus on your career or was 0:19:02.000 --> 0:19:05.560 he doing other things that I felt like I had 0:19:05.600 --> 0:19:08.760 to be the bigger person to understand, like we're both 0:19:08.840 --> 0:19:11.720 in the way of our growth. We're not growing together, 0:19:12.520 --> 0:19:14.040 Like we're both in a way of our growth. Like 0:19:14.119 --> 0:19:16.440 I gotta spread my wings. You gotta spread your wings. 0:19:16.920 --> 0:19:20.600 That's very much in love. And what was his response? 0:19:20.840 --> 0:19:22.880 It was in love? But at the end of the day, 0:19:23.560 --> 0:19:25.960 who are we're working for. I'm trying to have a family, 0:19:26.160 --> 0:19:28.119 Like what I'm gonna tell my kids? What was his 0:19:28.200 --> 0:19:30.440 response that he understand where he was coming from. Yeah, 0:19:30.760 --> 0:19:35.159 like a rebuttal or negative like he understood, but it 0:19:35.280 --> 0:19:38.480 still went over his head, like you know, he's still 0:19:38.600 --> 0:19:41.520 like double back, Like no, we could still we already 0:19:41.640 --> 0:19:46.000 tried that already when I have a quick question and 0:19:46.080 --> 0:19:49.800 then we could get right back to yours. So during 0:19:50.240 --> 0:19:55.480 when a person is celibate, right, is getting your pussy 0:19:55.640 --> 0:20:01.040 a breaking the celibacy? Is it? What do you think? Yeah? 0:20:01.040 --> 0:20:04.520 You you answer this, I think something my ship? So 0:20:05.359 --> 0:20:08.320 you got a dollar back on the date takes a few. 0:20:09.160 --> 0:20:11.760 We had this conversation yesterday when we were asking each 0:20:11.800 --> 0:20:14.960 other about the rules of celibacy and like what the 0:20:15.160 --> 0:20:18.240 terms are, because Angela was saying like something about a 0:20:18.280 --> 0:20:21.879 time frame, right, yeah, because people like having like a 0:20:21.920 --> 0:20:26.119 week and they'd be like, I'm but you got But 0:20:26.280 --> 0:20:28.879 you made the decision consciously, made the decision that you 0:20:29.000 --> 0:20:31.399 want to be celibate, and you started, so you're a 0:20:31.440 --> 0:20:34.040 weak into celibacy and celibacy you don't have a decision. 0:20:34.119 --> 0:20:37.760 It's not a decision that you made. So you're still 0:20:37.800 --> 0:20:41.760 going to masturbate. But oral is having sex. But but, but, 0:20:41.960 --> 0:20:46.280 but if it's not penetration, it's not the c you 0:20:46.640 --> 0:20:53.000 if you if you still masturbate, you catch your nuts. Okay, 0:20:53.119 --> 0:20:55.280 So if so, if you a man and your man 0:20:55.359 --> 0:21:01.960 eat another girl pussy, he not cheating. Cheating Like I 0:21:02.080 --> 0:21:09.280 take thirty days off, the creation is breaking the Yeah, 0:21:09.280 --> 0:21:12.320 that's breaking the seal. The same for me, I feel 0:21:12.359 --> 0:21:18.200 like if you haven't been, yeah, I feel like I chose. 0:21:18.320 --> 0:21:20.520 I don't like I made a choice in my life 0:21:20.600 --> 0:21:22.600 that I don't want to just give my body because 0:21:22.680 --> 0:21:25.720 I'm horny or you know, just give my body away 0:21:25.760 --> 0:21:28.760 because I'm having fun or I'm drunk or something like that. 0:21:29.680 --> 0:21:34.399 So I've decided to not have sex right now. Let 0:21:34.440 --> 0:21:37.240 me ask you what I'm getting my pussy eight? What 0:21:37.359 --> 0:21:43.760 about You know I'm not celibate? Yeah, I feel like 0:21:43.960 --> 0:21:48.400 I'm I decided I decided to be to stop giving 0:21:48.520 --> 0:21:51.360 because I didn't call it celibacy. I feel like I'm 0:21:51.480 --> 0:21:55.480 tired of men taken from me. You're tired of me? Yeah? 0:21:55.640 --> 0:21:57.920 I feel like. You know, the guys that I'm with, 0:21:58.480 --> 0:22:00.560 we have a great time, and I know that they 0:22:00.680 --> 0:22:05.960 care about me, and you know, um, even one is 0:22:06.359 --> 0:22:08.119 madly in love with me. You know, when it's not 0:22:08.160 --> 0:22:11.360 an official relationship or friends of benefits type of things, 0:22:12.240 --> 0:22:14.520 and when somebody's having sex with you and having sex 0:22:14.560 --> 0:22:17.400 with other what other people? I feel like it kind 0:22:17.440 --> 0:22:21.760 of messes with your your soul. You're having sex with 0:22:21.800 --> 0:22:24.040 other people too. Are just one person? No? Just me? 0:22:24.240 --> 0:22:26.879 You know I'm an idiot. I'll have sex with the 0:22:26.960 --> 0:22:30.800 same person and they'll treat me like I mean, they'll 0:22:30.840 --> 0:22:33.399 buy me nice things and take me on to nice places. 0:22:33.600 --> 0:22:37.000 But you know, there's other ways you can treat somebody bad. 0:22:38.160 --> 0:22:41.720 So you know, when I decided to to stop giving 0:22:41.760 --> 0:22:43.720 my body away when we wasn't when we were in 0:22:43.960 --> 0:22:55.040 l A. That was years you know, July, right before 0:22:55.160 --> 0:22:59.240 my mother passed. Yes, I decided that I don't want 0:22:59.240 --> 0:23:02.200 to give my body do your way for fun, you know, 0:23:02.640 --> 0:23:06.080 I want to feel the about six seven months. Yeah, 0:23:06.480 --> 0:23:11.320 but well but I ask my pussy every now, every 0:23:11.359 --> 0:23:19.480 every Tuesday and Wednesday Tuesday. And that's about having sex 0:23:19.600 --> 0:23:24.200 just so giving out no need to know? Just for fun? 0:23:24.280 --> 0:23:34.720 Are you fund is different? I said, just for fun? Okay, fun, 0:23:35.040 --> 0:23:38.000 but it can't just be for fun in the O 0:23:38.560 --> 0:23:41.480 somebody you really care about, that's your friend, you know 0:23:41.600 --> 0:23:44.040 what I'm saying. And you enjoy each other, so you 0:23:44.160 --> 0:23:50.000 might or yes, or your ex boyfriend or even somebody 0:23:50.040 --> 0:23:52.320 who you who you feel is your man. But he 0:23:53.480 --> 0:23:58.080 the people you know what I'm saying. He won't admit 0:23:58.160 --> 0:23:59.879 it to you, but he's doing it. And you know, 0:24:01.119 --> 0:24:10.080 have you ever cheated? No? What would so you have 0:24:10.240 --> 0:24:14.200 never cheated? Not dead, never cheated? I what would it 0:24:14.280 --> 0:24:17.040 take for you to end this celibacy um spell that 0:24:17.119 --> 0:24:24.840 you're on? Nick Nickel want it? But you didn't have 0:24:25.000 --> 0:24:30.040 some head. Now it wasn't it wasn't the Yeah, but 0:24:30.200 --> 0:24:34.359 he ain't he ain't on Shipka, he ain't he ain't 0:24:34.720 --> 0:24:39.560 he ain't make me fall in line? Ship, make you 0:24:39.720 --> 0:24:42.159 fall in line? Yes, gotta make me fool. That is 0:24:42.240 --> 0:24:44.399 too though. Some guys will let you walk all over them. 0:24:44.520 --> 0:24:47.000 They really will. We'll just let you do whatever you 0:24:47.160 --> 0:24:49.680 want to get. They will let you walk all over 0:24:49.800 --> 0:24:54.040 them in some high six inch platform. Christian Lubertin's select 0:24:54.760 --> 0:25:01.520 about some different over there to having somebody like what 0:25:01.920 --> 0:25:03.560 do you like for a guy to tell you like 0:25:03.640 --> 0:25:05.200 you like for a guy he gotta check you every 0:25:05.240 --> 0:25:07.879 now and then because you're gonna yeah, like ship with 0:25:08.119 --> 0:25:12.280 my phone out there. I feel the same way I 0:25:12.359 --> 0:25:14.200 want to man to to have me fall in line, 0:25:14.400 --> 0:25:17.720 like sit down, okay, like if it's an example, like 0:25:17.880 --> 0:25:21.000 when I'm wrong, let me know I'm wrong, you know, 0:25:21.600 --> 0:25:24.560 be affectionate, tell me that, tell me you love me. 0:25:24.640 --> 0:25:27.200 Tell me I did a good job. I'm outside, I'm 0:25:27.240 --> 0:25:30.359 worked it right now after this better throwing me a 0:25:30.720 --> 0:25:36.480 good job, good job at work. So I'm gonna have 0:25:36.840 --> 0:25:39.959 you know, like stuff like that. I got bad um 0:25:40.200 --> 0:25:42.720 you're bad ready for you, your milk bad ready for you? 0:25:42.880 --> 0:25:46.640 And yeah, like I want I want a romantic guy. 0:25:47.080 --> 0:25:50.639 What if you have more than him, what do you mean? Like? 0:25:50.720 --> 0:25:54.760 What if you just have more like financially success? Does 0:25:54.800 --> 0:25:56.600 that matter to you? No? Hell no, I don't mean 0:25:56.600 --> 0:26:00.080