Speaker 1: Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. You are tuned into
Speaker 1: the Vitamin D with Dawn Day podcast and I am
Speaker 1: your host, Dawn Day, here to get you excited about
Speaker 1: your life so that you can live life on purpose
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Speaker 1: tuning in and welcome Vitamin D. It's upon off my name.
Speaker 1: My name is Dawn, and you get Vitamin D from
Speaker 1: the sun. So I'm hear to your light into your life.
Speaker 1: And I do this with inspirational insights and conversations with
Speaker 1: celebrities and everyday people like you and me, because if
Speaker 1: you want to be better and you want to do better,
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Speaker 1: So join me on this journey of living our best
Speaker 1: lives and understanding and realizing how you are your greatest
Speaker 1: assad I want to encourage you to dream big like
Speaker 1: you got to dream big. I woke up one day,
Speaker 1: I hit my j and I was on a computer
Speaker 1: and I don't know if I ever told you, but
Speaker 1: angel numbers stand out to me. And I was paying
Speaker 1: off paying something on the credit card bill and the
Speaker 1: amount that I old was exactly too too too. Immediately
Speaker 1: I broke into tears, not because I was sad or anything,
Speaker 1: not because I'm looking at my account. It was more
Speaker 1: so because I know this God talking to me. I
Speaker 1: know that that's the universe, the realm, speaking to me.
Speaker 1: And then the thoughts of exceedingly and beyond, and I'm
Speaker 1: just looking around. I say, God, you wouldn't have given
Speaker 1: me this vision, this passion on my heart if that's
Speaker 1: not gonna come to pass. God doesn't tease to take away.
Speaker 1: God isn't slow to keep his promise. It's just that
Speaker 1: us as a people, we have to understand our patience
Speaker 1: and understand the importance of timing, but also understand the
Speaker 1: importance of dreaming big. Now, I'm not sure if you
Speaker 1: believe in God or whatever it is that you believe in,
Speaker 1: but as far as me believing in God, and God
Speaker 1: promised exceedingly and beyond. So if I'm dreaming big, give
Speaker 1: us something right that sounds insane, like like I tell everybody,
Speaker 1: I'm in the big an Oprah watch too many. It
Speaker 1: sounds insane, right, it sounds mind blowing, right if I
Speaker 1: can fathom, do we imagine that my God said exceedingly
Speaker 1: and beyond for more then what you could ever imagine,
Speaker 1: what are you dreaming for with your life? We don't
Speaker 1: have time to play small. We are all special offers
Speaker 1: here for a limited time. So if I can dream
Speaker 1: this big, right, and I think that it could be
Speaker 1: this amazing, God says exceedingly and beyond that, we're as uncomprehensible.
Speaker 1: It also reminded me at that time to say, let's
Speaker 1: not only get out the way, dawn. You know it's frustration.
Speaker 1: You know how we get irritated because we're like, oh,
Speaker 1: it's not happening now, when it's gonna happen, When is
Speaker 1: it my turn? What is it somebody gonna give me something? Well,
Speaker 1: you asked for a godly thing, right, you asked for
Speaker 1: exceedingly and beyond right, Who do you think that you
Speaker 1: are to figure out how God is going to fulfill
Speaker 1: the promise in your life? When the promise was just
Speaker 1: simply to dream big, The promise was simply to trust,
Speaker 1: The promise was simply to state peace. Be still, are
Speaker 1: you robbing yourself of your peace? Are you short changing
Speaker 1: yourself of your joy? I want you to dream big
Speaker 1: because God said at exceedingly and be on far more
Speaker 1: than what you could ever imagine it's yours for the asking.
Speaker 1: Catch it, get your right in, Mandy, right with me
Speaker 1: and get excited about Tell miss something good on, Tell
Speaker 1: me that you like it? Here? You take it all.
Speaker 1: It's just me and you and you take Huh? Are
Speaker 1: your life or something? We're live? You here on? You
Speaker 1: thought it was about to be just a girl. No,
Speaker 1: we're on. Do you see how much we've upgraded? Do
Speaker 1: you remember the first time you can take off the
Speaker 1: take off the full mask, put on the headphones. Put
Speaker 1: on the headphones so you can or are you what
Speaker 1: do you? Why are you whispering? You just talk about
Speaker 1: your t That's the way life is. You can't wait
Speaker 1: to show up for life. You just show up. Listen,
Speaker 1: do you remember the first studio we were come to?
Speaker 1: The microphones? You are testing it to my dreams? Do
Speaker 1: you understand that when I post this up and when
Speaker 1: I put the picture, people are gonna see me at
Speaker 1: accelerated radio plus seven plus years later. I don't even
Speaker 1: know how long? Mind you the same time that get this?
Speaker 1: So you remember how long that goal was? That Jeremiah,
Speaker 1: who's running the boarder, just let you upstairs. He was
Speaker 1: an intern there and working the board there and then
Speaker 1: fast forward we were online station and I'm sitting here
Speaker 1: with Premiere Networks under Art Media. What don't tell me
Speaker 1: it's not possible? Right? What you say, Monty, y'all? What
Speaker 1: can we not do? What can we not have? I mean,
Speaker 1: take you, for example, you came all the way from
Speaker 1: Slovenia and came to America. I'm just saying for somebody
Speaker 1: that doesn't know it's possible. Just if somebody said, I
Speaker 1: don't know how I'm going to get there? Do you
Speaker 1: understand that your story in itself, Like I talk all
Speaker 1: this smack, I shouldn't say smack. I'll tell somebody I'm
Speaker 1: from Detroit, I went to Howard, So I went to
Speaker 1: d C, lived in New York and then came to California.
Speaker 1: That's all in one continent, or is it not? Because
Speaker 1: North America is Mexico to okay, one country. You came
Speaker 1: from another continent. What Marion? Come on, can you help
Speaker 1: save somebody today? Can you sign up? But listen, do
Speaker 1: you understand just you searing your story, what that can
Speaker 1: do for somebody? Wait a minute, I don't know if
Speaker 1: you want to go mean like it unexpectedly happened that
Speaker 1: transition from Europe to hear Oh you don't done everything
Speaker 1: that well not really wait was kind of life? Wait,
Speaker 1: wait somewhere? How did you end up? You thought you
Speaker 1: wanted to come to the States. Uh, well, know that
Speaker 1: the opportunity presented to go, like to work for a
Speaker 1: year and travel. So I was like meant to be
Speaker 1: like that, but then I made you know, now fifteen
Speaker 1: years later, it's a whole different story. Did you know anybody?
Speaker 1: Different life? No, wait a minute. You came to the
Speaker 1: US not knowing anybody. Did you speak English? No, I
Speaker 1: knew the family. I'm going to go work for it
Speaker 1: to take care of their kids as an OL pair.
Speaker 1: Oh so you came to the States as an old pair.
Speaker 1: And if somebody doesn't know that that was here because
Speaker 1: at that time wasn't like computer. We saw we had
Speaker 1: like a little video chat recorded like but just once
Speaker 1: before I got here, you risked everything on a video chat.
Speaker 1: Well it was through agency and you know they were
Speaker 1: probably checked out and everything, you know what it was
Speaker 1: the process the last a couple of months. So I
Speaker 1: mean that's not just like that, but yeah, pretty much
Speaker 1: you want to a whole other country. And did you
Speaker 1: what did you learn English while you were out here
Speaker 1: basically here mostly I had like a little basic knowledge
Speaker 1: before from school and stuff. But it wasn't much were
Speaker 1: you scared, um No, like more that's scared. Just excited
Speaker 1: to see like something new, to to have a new experience.
Speaker 1: I was just going for experience. And I always felt like,
Speaker 1: if it's going to be bad, I can always pack
Speaker 1: my stuff and go back home and then you know,
Speaker 1: go back to the same what. I know, Hey, you know, oh,
Speaker 1: I felt it on that because that's why I'm like,
Speaker 1: you had to step into a new thing, and that's
Speaker 1: why you gotta take a chance, because you already knew
Speaker 1: what was back there. It was only to create something new.
Speaker 1: And you know now that I think that, just right
Speaker 1: now at this moment, I'm thinking, I think I wasn't,
Speaker 1: you know, because it wasn't planning, It wasn't like organized,
Speaker 1: and it just happened fast and spontaneously. I didn't have
Speaker 1: time to feel the fear, you know. Just now, I'm
Speaker 1: like thinking about that. I was just going for this
Speaker 1: new adventure, you know. And I think that's called a
Speaker 1: kind of how it works, because I when you planning
Speaker 1: things too much, like you know, like in some occasions,
Speaker 1: then you start like I personally, it happens like then
Speaker 1: you start like getting scared or you know, thinking, we're thinking,
Speaker 1: seeing like the hurdles you're gonna have to go through,
Speaker 1: and oh my gosh, you really want to do that.
Speaker 1: And so I think it's kind of good to just
Speaker 1: go head on and just go for it and let's
Speaker 1: just see what happens. Usually good stuff comes out of it,
Speaker 1: or at least some growth, if nothing else. To listen,
Speaker 1: growth and a new experience, and growth lets you know
Speaker 1: that you're alive. And when you say it experience, it
Speaker 1: reminds me of my former barber friend confidant, the homie
Speaker 1: Lewis t Power. He says, the journey is the experience,
Speaker 1: and the experience is the journey. And like you said,
Speaker 1: when we get down to the point where we're trying
Speaker 1: to plan something, we're trying to plan an in destination
Speaker 1: and when you think about life is the journey, that's
Speaker 1: the experience. Right. So you say, I don't even have
Speaker 1: to I don't to be scared. You just said I
Speaker 1: just did it. Do you regret it? No? Was it
Speaker 1: the best decision of your life? I'm pretty sure what
Speaker 1: do you mean by that like the wildest because I
Speaker 1: would never have opportunity to to have all these experiences
Speaker 1: that are an adventures and stuff that I've had, and
Speaker 1: all the things that I've learned and people that I've met.
Speaker 1: I would never have that chance staying there. And yeah,
Speaker 1: and I wouldn't you probably not have met you, but
Speaker 1: who knows. You know, work like kind of life is crazy.
Speaker 1: The world is like really small when they think about it,
Speaker 1: and especially someone like you, You've pretty much traveled the
Speaker 1: whole day on world. You know, you talked to me
Speaker 1: about it, but you have talked about recently how you
Speaker 1: put a video and you talked about in your home
Speaker 1: country about what happened to you, and you said so
Speaker 1: many people have reached out to you to say thank
Speaker 1: you for sharing your story. Can you tell me what happened?
Speaker 1: The thing was, I grew up in like a small
Speaker 1: conservative village, you know, very religious, um Catholics, now ma
Speaker 1: am you gonna be? So I grew up gay and
Speaker 1: then moved to America, and I was being pretty openly
Speaker 1: gay since like I'm twenty one. So I felt like
Speaker 1: just going back home and you know, revisiting my childhood
Speaker 1: and my my hometown and my country. I've noticed, you know,
Speaker 1: there's not much talk about it that things hasn't changed.
Speaker 1: People are still struggling, People are still hiding. Um, people
Speaker 1: are still putting in all LGBTQ community to shame. And
Speaker 1: you know, are people fair further lives? Well, there's like
Speaker 1: rises in suicide because people of the shame, and you know,
Speaker 1: people don't want to come out and they're scared what's
Speaker 1: gonna happen. They're gonna have no you know, family or
Speaker 1: friends to support them anymore. So it's I think it's
Speaker 1: pretty serious matter. What did your family and your friends
Speaker 1: support you? Um? Not? At first? My family didn't, My
Speaker 1: friends were I guess completely fens differ. What happened with
Speaker 1: your friend was a lot, but I I didn't. That's
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I know we talked about vulnerability, and
Speaker 1: I know your story was very impactful to you, and
Speaker 1: I didn't know whether or not because I would love
Speaker 1: you to share, but if you don't feel comfortable with sharing, no,
Speaker 1: Because I felt like, God, what's your father, what's your family?
Speaker 1: Which is whatever? I felt like I have some I
Speaker 1: can bring some knowledge to it, some experience and hopefully
Speaker 1: maybe somebody will find something for themselves to learn from it,
Speaker 1: or maybe free somebody of the notion that you know,
Speaker 1: you have to live for others and you have to
Speaker 1: please your family or others and hide yourself in your
Speaker 1: life and not be free and truly yourself for sake
Speaker 1: of you know, what may have, what may happen, um
Speaker 1: And I just seem like, you know, I mean meeting
Speaker 1: guys and girls in Slovenia, they were like a GBT
Speaker 1: and you know, they were struggling, and I felt like
Speaker 1: so sad for them. Oh and just seeing that, like
Speaker 1: how much they would like to be, you know, as
Speaker 1: free with themselves as I was. And I felt like
Speaker 1: it's important to talk about it, to bring that conversation
Speaker 1: to the table and say it like it is without shame,
Speaker 1: but also explaining the background of what happens when you
Speaker 1: free yourself and what comes out of it. And so
Speaker 1: before you were able to free yourself, what was it
Speaker 1: like growing up gay in Slovenia? It was tough. It
Speaker 1: was tough because I was, like I was, I had
Speaker 1: like a split personality basically, and you know, when you
Speaker 1: when you live with a split personality kind of think
Speaker 1: when you have like two different masks on one for
Speaker 1: the public and family and one you're hiding for yourself.
Speaker 1: It's a deep secret. Um. I think it creates you
Speaker 1: a little bit like almost like bipolar. Like you know,
Speaker 1: you live with stupid personalities on a daily basis day
Speaker 1: and they out after many years. It can live a
Speaker 1: mark on you. You know, it's stressful, it's hard, it's painful.
Speaker 1: And so for me, I think that mass pretending mass
Speaker 1: just got to have be like I couldn't fake it anymore.
Speaker 1: So what was it like growing up in your house?
Speaker 1: So growing up was like well, for the most of
Speaker 1: our nover the new secrets, but I grew up with
Speaker 1: the abusive that, Um, it was not easy. And then
Speaker 1: when that came into play, you know my gain, that's
Speaker 1: my my sexuality, that not my gayness, just my sexuality. Um,
Speaker 1: that became really light. Why did you why did you
Speaker 1: between gayness and sexuality? Because I don't think there's such
Speaker 1: things like gayness. You know, like you're gay, but it's
Speaker 1: like you're it's your it's sexuality. You're just attracted to
Speaker 1: the same sex or you know you love when your love.
Speaker 1: Uh So I don't even want to like label it anyway. Um.
Speaker 1: And the word game in British English actually means happy. UM.
Speaker 1: So it's just you know, with terms of your sexuality
Speaker 1: and because you were gay, you know what thought for
Speaker 1: thirty I had time thirty eight years too to try
Speaker 1: to figure out why my father was so abusive, why
Speaker 1: he was physically ABUSI if he was drunk. I realized,
Speaker 1: first of all, he was a hurt man. He didn't
Speaker 1: know different. And second I think he might have had
Speaker 1: wanted to beat out he thought it he'd be able
Speaker 1: to beat out the the excitement for life that I had,
Speaker 1: Like I was always I was always doing, doing my thing.
Speaker 1: I was always like what I want, I'm going to
Speaker 1: go and get it, but not by crossing others, like
Speaker 1: by being nice and everybody to under still, but just
Speaker 1: I really want this for myself, and I would go.
Speaker 1: And I think he he almost couldn't, like he couldn't
Speaker 1: see me like shine. And you know, I do feel
Speaker 1: that I think my shine was like maybe too much
Speaker 1: for him, or was like reminding him of some failures
Speaker 1: or some things that he did on have and I
Speaker 1: almost wanted. That's what I feel like, um, And for
Speaker 1: somebody that is hurt that's very like kind of typical.
Speaker 1: That's what hurt people do. They try to hurt other
Speaker 1: people to feel uh, you know, comfortable with them because
Speaker 1: there's now their level, their environment where they feel more comfortable.
Speaker 1: And but yeah, it was just so so when you
Speaker 1: say that. And and just because you told me that
Speaker 1: you put up this video and you shared your experience,
Speaker 1: you said it got so much that you couldn't even
Speaker 1: get on Facebook because all of the requests are going in.
Speaker 1: I want to know what did you say? Everybody is
Speaker 1: sitting here and saying what did you say? For his
Speaker 1: entire country to reach out to him on Facebook? You
Speaker 1: simply said, hey, I'm gay, my dad was abusive, and
Speaker 1: now I'm free. What did you say? I've well, what
Speaker 1: I basically told this kind of in a nutshell, what
Speaker 1: happened and what happened? What happened on like a last
Speaker 1: day when I was living, for example, my country, I
Speaker 1: was going to America and was partially because of my
Speaker 1: situation at home, my relationship with my dad. Just life
Speaker 1: just became kind of unbearable there and I didn't see
Speaker 1: myself doing things and experience things that I did that
Speaker 1: my heart desired. And I was like I just too
Speaker 1: calip of faith. And when I answered this advertisement for
Speaker 1: like going to America, so on a day that I went, Um,
Speaker 1: so when I came out, they'd kicked me out. You know,
Speaker 1: my father and I never like were able to a
Speaker 1: mend our like differences. So when I left my you know,
Speaker 1: I started the story, and I knew if I started
Speaker 1: story with this, it's gonna at least brings people, like
Speaker 1: bring people in and like bring some attention to the
Speaker 1: whole thing. Because what I was like one of kind
Speaker 1: of like the worst moments that transpired, but it was
Speaker 1: also another reflection of my relationship at that time with
Speaker 1: my family. So I'm saying goodbye to my family, and
Speaker 1: my mom was crying, you know, letting her son go,
Speaker 1: and uh, you know it was like worries south and
Speaker 1: hard for her for me to go to America, to
Speaker 1: something like strange country in the strange you know, in
Speaker 1: the far away land whatever. It was probably a huge
Speaker 1: and overwhelming for her. So my dad, my dad said
Speaker 1: he didn't want to hug me or anything. He just said, um,
Speaker 1: I hope you get aids or and die, or like
Speaker 1: somebody goes and shoot you in the head. Wait, what
Speaker 1: because you wanted to leave as a good like I
Speaker 1: was leaving. I was like on the way to the airport,
Speaker 1: and I wasn't kind of his last like last words
Speaker 1: to me at that time. Um, So that kind of
Speaker 1: broke my heart for a minute. And I was like, well,
Speaker 1: I'm not surprised. You know, You've been kind of like
Speaker 1: talking to me in this kind of tone all throughout
Speaker 1: my life, So I guess sadly I was used to it.
Speaker 1: Um it's not something you know, anybody should get used
Speaker 1: to it, but it just was the reality of my life.
Speaker 1: And then my brother was like equalist cold, and I
Speaker 1: was like, you know, we're happy that this faghetti is
Speaker 1: out of our house, and so it was. It was
Speaker 1: definitely like not the wormest goodbye, you know. And then
Speaker 1: you know, coming here living my life for fifteen years,
Speaker 1: having all the experience that I've had and coming to
Speaker 1: terms to love myself and accept myself, I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what guys like, if you do that, if
Speaker 1: you learn, if you if you find a way to
Speaker 1: break away from certain situations or patterns and you learn
Speaker 1: to build yourself up with your own you know, kind
Speaker 1: of values and morals and take something from your parents
Speaker 1: that they gave you because they weren't just bad. Nobody's
Speaker 1: just ever just bad. You know, my dad was so
Speaker 1: awesome and amazing man in so many ways. For the
Speaker 1: fact that he was, like he had so many shortcomings
Speaker 1: and so little opportunities given in his life at all.
Speaker 1: That's amazing that you can because what I'm trying to
Speaker 1: understand is that you know, like sometimes you can be
Speaker 1: dealing with somebody, but it's like for you to be
Speaker 1: at the young age and saying, when I say young age,
Speaker 1: I was fifteen years ago. Now for you to even
Speaker 1: have the grace to even understand, like, how do you
Speaker 1: even wrap your head around to say, I forgive my father? Now,
Speaker 1: I'm not sure you haven't shared exactly what your father
Speaker 1: has said otherwise than wishing you know, well, that's huge, absolutely,
Speaker 1: I don't know. Yeah, that is um, yeah, that is
Speaker 1: when you really think of the ground there's somebody like that,
Speaker 1: it's like, okay, it's like because that just leads the
Speaker 1: umbrella of what all could fall underneath when you get
Speaker 1: to that point and then you can say, hey, do
Speaker 1: you forgive your dad? I did? I did? I did?
Speaker 1: Even when I went back, I mean I went with therapy.
Speaker 1: I went through I meditated on it, that did yoga.
Speaker 1: I did things I found, um not opportunities. I found,
Speaker 1: you know, um outlets to release my pain to, you know,
Speaker 1: to to build my character strong. What was, you know,
Speaker 1: the reason I was even ready to put that video out.
Speaker 1: I found myself in a place where except myself, I
Speaker 1: love myself. I'm free to talk about it and not
Speaker 1: point fingers and not paint a picture of my dad
Speaker 1: is being that horrible batman. But just you know, it's
Speaker 1: the harshest and trick in trickasis of families are like
Speaker 1: so complicated, and the levels of traumas and pain and
Speaker 1: hurt generations from generations and you know, things that are
Speaker 1: embedded in our DNA is. It's so complicated and just
Speaker 1: to go and judge a person on its surface, like oh, yeah,
Speaker 1: you beat him up and you were drunkie. But but
Speaker 1: then you're like, but why he did that and what
Speaker 1: was his reasoning? And you know, and then later on
Speaker 1: I came back from stage maybe like seven eight years
Speaker 1: for the first time I saw my dad from a
Speaker 1: from a different perspective and from a different point of view,
Speaker 1: and I saw him very sad and hurt. And at
Speaker 1: that point we already lost my mom to cancer, and
Speaker 1: he was so lost and broken and sad, and I
Speaker 1: found compassion for him, and for the first time, probably
Speaker 1: I must have been around dirty and I said, you know,
Speaker 1: I love you. I wish you to have good rest
Speaker 1: of your life, Like you don't have to stress and
Speaker 1: worry about how I'm doing or how I'm feeling because
Speaker 1: I'm okay and I can I can take care of myself.
Speaker 1: And yeah, can I ask you a question I may
Speaker 1: be unnerving, Yeah, did you ever have thoughts of wanting
Speaker 1: to kill your father? Yeah, for most of my life,
Speaker 1: like for not to kill him, but to wish him that,
Speaker 1: to just wish him disappear, or like just not be
Speaker 1: because it was too hot, like it was too painful
Speaker 1: for a kid. I think, like, oh, I think it's
Speaker 1: a grown up, as you know, and maybe now it's
Speaker 1: a he'll grown up. It's like easier to kind of
Speaker 1: talk about these things. But remembering just as a kid,
Speaker 1: you don't have those tools, you don't have to knowledge,
Speaker 1: you don't have you don't know what to do, Like
Speaker 1: it's so painful with the person that it's closest to
Speaker 1: is hurting you and um, and you don't understand why
Speaker 1: and like and you think it's your fault and then
Speaker 1: you're called stupid on top of it, like all the
Speaker 1: time and wordless and it's just like it breaks your
Speaker 1: like spirit down a lot. So if you grew up
Speaker 1: in this household, and I'm sure because your mother and
Speaker 1: the culture as far as cultures, the buyer husband wanted
Speaker 1: to stand by you as your son, who had your back,
Speaker 1: how did you feel safe? How did you even escape?
Speaker 1: How did you find your joy? God? I would say,
Speaker 1: like God and those like my little spirits. I always
Speaker 1: believe in angels. I always believe in I believe that
Speaker 1: it was something bigger and something greater out there. I
Speaker 1: didn't know what, um, I just felt something else is
Speaker 1: out there that you know, it kind of looks over
Speaker 1: everything and all of us and everything is just part
Speaker 1: of this journey, something about that whole you know, and
Speaker 1: like you know, I was bullied and my mom was
Speaker 1: like shaus. My mom was like such a wise woman,
Speaker 1: you know, she was wasn't educated woman where she was
Speaker 1: like just wise for I don't know where that came from.
Speaker 1: It was just I guess her gift and she loved.
Speaker 1: She taught me that bullies and you know, haters and
Speaker 1: people that tried to hurt you in life or people
Speaker 1: that hurt themselves. So from very early on, even I
Speaker 1: was I was really bullied kid in my village as
Speaker 1: because my dad was like a really drunk and you know,
Speaker 1: I didn't come from a well off family, so you know,
Speaker 1: with kids and with teenagers, constant you know, bullying and
Speaker 1: how you dress and how you look and what family
Speaker 1: are from. And so I've learned really early to kind
Speaker 1: of protect, to protect my goodness, to be good to
Speaker 1: others despite everything that others do to you. And she
Speaker 1: was so adamant about it, like you have to be kind,
Speaker 1: you have to be nice, and you don't return bad
Speaker 1: for bad, you know. And and actually, you know, in
Speaker 1: growing up, when I was going through like you know,
Speaker 1: we always go through growth changes and we always try
Speaker 1: to im better ourselves and stuff, and I was like
Speaker 1: going through like situation of you know, my life was changing,
Speaker 1: things were unraveling, so you know, and I was like,
Speaker 1: I've realized I developed as that kid like robin Hood syndrome.
Speaker 1: What do you mean by that? Robin Hood syndrome is
Speaker 1: like you want to like constantly help others. Oh, can't
Speaker 1: I save everybody? Yeah, but oftentimes to your default, Like
Speaker 1: you're saving others to your detriment. Yeah, but they say,
Speaker 1: don't set yourself on fire trying to keep other people more. Yeah.
Speaker 1: And I realized, you know, always like priding myself and
Speaker 1: like you know, into goodness and being good person and
Speaker 1: you know, doing the right thing, that sometimes um trying
Speaker 1: to help others, and like, especially when you're not healed
Speaker 1: and wholesome person or you're not in the place to help.
Speaker 1: I realized I'm giving out unsolicited advice that is not
Speaker 1: the person probably might not be ready to receive, and
Speaker 1: that can hurt so much, and that can put a
Speaker 1: strain on a relationship. And I had to learn, how
Speaker 1: do you know, be that guy to you know, spreading
Speaker 1: advice and spreading like, you know, saying people what to
Speaker 1: do in certain situations if they didn't ask for it.
Speaker 1: And my mom would tell me, you know, don't help
Speaker 1: and give people advice if they don't ask me. You
Speaker 1: don't have to. She was like she knew, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm like a little dramatic and a little nosy and
Speaker 1: like a little gossip. It was like, don't mind other
Speaker 1: people's business unless they invite you to a There's still
Speaker 1: something I'm learning, you know, to this day, like, um,
Speaker 1: you know, still that village boy in me. You know,
Speaker 1: like the gossip was the only exciting thing that was
Speaker 1: happening on daily basis in that world that nothing ever
Speaker 1: changes it like decades, but her words stick with me
Speaker 1: or all and so yeah, just just you know, I'm
Speaker 1: the kind of guy I like, I tried to take
Speaker 1: the good from people that I've learned from situations, take
Speaker 1: it and really learn from it and things that are
Speaker 1: not working for me that and you know that the
Speaker 1: part is the tricky thing is and I think every
Speaker 1: human being, at least with some consciousness, we know what
Speaker 1: we're doing the good things or when we're doing the
Speaker 1: bad things. We feel it if your body tells you
Speaker 1: you're like you get nervous or stress out or like
Speaker 1: something when you feel it in a negative way. And
Speaker 1: I think we all have the the um, not only
Speaker 1: the power, but it's our job to try to think
Speaker 1: the you know, the good choices first in them for others.
Speaker 1: I love what you said because you said the importance
Speaker 1: of protecting your peace and realize I think we had
Speaker 1: a conversation about that about you know, how are we
Speaker 1: going to allow things to affect us? And you know,
Speaker 1: sometimes that's just not surrounding yourselves in certain situations around
Speaker 1: certain people, are perhaps even just removing yourself from that. Also,
Speaker 1: you have to be what you choose to receive. You
Speaker 1: can't seek love if you are not love. And it's
Speaker 1: interesting I think sometimes we try to put an output
Speaker 1: um expecting to receive something different, and we see it
Speaker 1: even in the food that we eat. You reap what
Speaker 1: you sow. You plant a apple seed, you will get
Speaker 1: an apple tree. I promise you it will not be
Speaker 1: a blueberry bush. And reference to that I saw. I
Speaker 1: saw the Yogi a video today actually I was talking
Speaker 1: about said about the apple tree and the apples. He said,
Speaker 1: when you take the seat, you you imagine what you're
Speaker 1: gonna do. You imagine you're gonna get apples. But the
Speaker 1: seed and the tree, and the dirt and the water
Speaker 1: and the sun and the work to go into it,
Speaker 1: it's nothing. But it's nothing like apples. Apples comes as
Speaker 1: a consequence to all of that you put in, he said.
Speaker 1: But you have a seat, and you know that seat
Speaker 1: bears apples, you gotta know and put in the work. Hey, hey,
Speaker 1: and you know I've never been one. I just I
Speaker 1: keep prefacing this because I want to make it clear
Speaker 1: when it's starting to reach me, and to reach me
Speaker 1: now when you talk about the word in the scripture
Speaker 1: and how it just affirms to a firm and I'm
Speaker 1: not crying because I'm sad. It's just overwhelmed me. And
Speaker 1: it's like, if we could just catch it, because all
Speaker 1: you have when you look at the apple seed and
Speaker 1: when you look at an apple tree, you can just
Speaker 1: see the difference of the size. And just like how
Speaker 1: you were saying you were that young village boy and
Speaker 1: you said you just held on too faith. You had
Speaker 1: a little law, and in the scripture is saying, hey,
Speaker 1: just half faith, the size of a mustard seed. Just
Speaker 1: a low law. But guess what, faith without works is dead.
Speaker 1: So why do we feel like it's going to be
Speaker 1: something different and then we get upset when it doesn't
Speaker 1: work out the way we imagined it. And it's right
Speaker 1: there and it says it you can have whatever you want,
Speaker 1: Ask and you shall receive, Seek and you shall find,
Speaker 1: Knock and the door will be open to you. So
Speaker 1: the question is what do you want? What is the
Speaker 1: seed that you're you're putting in? We hear about it
Speaker 1: in karma. What goes around comes around. We see it
Speaker 1: in fashion, but what out of style was back in style?
Speaker 1: We see it with life. Life begets life. Why don't
Speaker 1: you choose to seek it? Why don't you choose to
Speaker 1: speak it? Why don't you choose to believe it? Like
Speaker 1: you said, why don't you choose to feel it? And
Speaker 1: you know what, we know the truth by the way
Speaker 1: that it feels. So what do you mean? Hey, what's up?
Speaker 1: And be healthy day? Okay? You know I was probably
Speaker 1: I think I was disappointed at people for so long
Speaker 1: and for so many years, you know, with like starting
Speaker 1: at home and then some teachers weren't supportive and bullies
Speaker 1: around that I reached out to spiritual world because I
Speaker 1: felt no man, no woman can judge me or tell
Speaker 1: me who to be, what to do with my path,
Speaker 1: with my journey. Um, so that I rich elsewhere where
Speaker 1: it wasn't reachable, like you know when then nobody, none
Speaker 1: of the people could take it away from me. So
Speaker 1: I always like it felt like you know what, I
Speaker 1: have a secret. I like, I have a secret I
Speaker 1: have like a secret body, I have a secret protection.
Speaker 1: You know, I don't care, will be against me, stop
Speaker 1: playing with me, go ahead, because the worst thing I
Speaker 1: felt like the worst thing of all that can happen,
Speaker 1: I just you know, die and stop living and go
Speaker 1: to whatever next time, like the next level of conscious
Speaker 1: like you know, consciousness. That's so I never felt like
Speaker 1: of like I felt like I had this secret shelter,
Speaker 1: secret protection, you know. And it's it's that hope and
Speaker 1: that even if you can hold it and you're not
Speaker 1: you're not always sure it's there and you're not always
Speaker 1: believing it, you know, not every day was like, you know,
Speaker 1: like that. But just that alone, just that act alone,
Speaker 1: that act of hope and all you know that there's
Speaker 1: love outside of all of that. They will keep you
Speaker 1: safe on your journey. That alone was enough to propel
Speaker 1: your further. And look at you continue waking up every day,
Speaker 1: continue being soldier every day, continued soldiery on going through
Speaker 1: hurdles of life, and you know, just be open to
Speaker 1: whatever comes your way. Open vulnerability. It's amazing. It's just
Speaker 1: being open house. Just things flow that way, right, But
Speaker 1: everybody don't want to be open. Hey, even when you
Speaker 1: talk about some of the most vicious quote unquote wounds,
Speaker 1: you've got to be open to heal. But like you said,
Speaker 1: what that do process when that air hits is uncomfortable. Heck,
Speaker 1: it even starts the aartake because it starts to itch,
Speaker 1: because it's a process happening. The skin has grown way,
Speaker 1: and just like that, it is uncomfortable. Like you said,
Speaker 1: even with failure, when things to work out as we
Speaker 1: imagine them, too, there's still the growth and either you
Speaker 1: know in some way to do something or not to
Speaker 1: do something, but you don't get something. Yeah, And a
Speaker 1: lot of successful people would say, you know, all my
Speaker 1: failures were part of my growth. So and they didn't
Speaker 1: allow of failures to discourage them to continue doing what
Speaker 1: they're doing. And because only then you fail when you
Speaker 1: stop hey, and you will stop doing what you love
Speaker 1: when you stop living your best life. You know, um yeah,
Speaker 1: So what does that mean to live your best life?
Speaker 1: To live my best life? You know, it's to go
Speaker 1: to sleep at night and feel good about myself and
Speaker 1: about my humanity and about the fact that hopefully I
Speaker 1: didn't hurt anybody along the way on my day, hopefully
Speaker 1: that I did some good things for I don't know
Speaker 1: environment people, and that I wasn't an asshole, and that
Speaker 1: that little you know, goals and everything that is else
Speaker 1: that comes you know, you just built on top of that,
Speaker 1: but really trying to be a good person and face yourself.
Speaker 1: And then because I gotta face myself in the other way,
Speaker 1: I can fake a lie to you. I can fake
Speaker 1: a lie on my social media that I'm cuter than
Speaker 1: I really am in real life. Put a good filter,
Speaker 1: you know, like just all this bunch of things that
Speaker 1: are like just noise and you've got in quietness and
Speaker 1: in peace when with yourself, You've got to face that
Speaker 1: and I wanna I want to feel good about it
Speaker 1: and say, you know what you did good and I'm
Speaker 1: proud of you today. And today is another opportunity two.
Speaker 1: You know, do the same or even be better because
Speaker 1: the growth never stopped. You know, there's no limits to
Speaker 1: how good or how great you can be. No that means.
Speaker 1: And when you're saying that, I'm just seeing yourself. You
Speaker 1: know you've been saying with me a couple of days
Speaker 1: now as you're visiting from New York and I'm getting
Speaker 1: up and I'm meditating and I'm on my third eye
Speaker 1: chakra and a lot of that which just came to
Speaker 1: me today. Um. You know, I say that I invite
Speaker 1: sex sacred transformation and it's safe for me to see
Speaker 1: the truth. You know, I didn't know what I thought
Speaker 1: about the truth at first. I was thinking, like, the
Speaker 1: truth for me to see is like making sure that
Speaker 1: I'm aware of what God is trying to show me
Speaker 1: your you know, the energies of the universe. I didn't
Speaker 1: think it just didn't dawn on me that that meant
Speaker 1: to even see the truth in myself, to see who
Speaker 1: I am. And you and I had had a conversation,
Speaker 1: all good conversation. I'm just saying, hey, Dawn, sometimes you'd
Speaker 1: be like, no, Nick, picky, you're ridicule in the bin,
Speaker 1: and I'm just like whoa. And it was so uncomfortable
Speaker 1: for you to tell me that, because of course, I
Speaker 1: want to make sure that I'm inspiring and I'm motivating
Speaker 1: you to be all this that in a bag of chips.
Speaker 1: And then you don't feel attack like that, you don't
Speaker 1: feel like your characters being attack right. But here's the thing.
Speaker 1: But when we talk about growth, and if I say
Speaker 1: I gotta show up because I've asked God for exceedingly
Speaker 1: and abundantly, like I am showing up for everything that
Speaker 1: God promised me. And I have to make sure that
Speaker 1: I operate in my best self and a truthful self,
Speaker 1: A truthful self to me also says when I I
Speaker 1: said this before in a previous episode, I say, when
Speaker 1: it's sent from God is a confirmation. When it's not
Speaker 1: sent from God's frustration, hesitation, and confusion. And when you're
Speaker 1: not able to seek yourself, there's frustration, there's hesitation, there's confusion.
Speaker 1: So I need to see who I am because I
Speaker 1: need God to use me as an instrument to do
Speaker 1: what I need to do. Because if I know that
Speaker 1: what the aspirations that I have for my life or
Speaker 1: what I want to do, and God is like, yo,
Speaker 1: let me use you because whatever you got, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: put some dopness on that. So whatever you do want,
Speaker 1: you app here talking about your yards, your private chance
Speaker 1: to be on the covers of all these magazines, you know,
Speaker 1: the syndicated television show, radio show, digitalor whatever. And it's like, yo,
Speaker 1: let me show up what God is gonna do. And
Speaker 1: then the thing that's so just a tricky problem. Just
Speaker 1: had this on there, God, Jesus, the story yourself, gangster.
Speaker 1: I want to be clear, this is what I'm stepping into.
Speaker 1: Like for I needed to be a confirmation of people
Speaker 1: that are stepping into my life, circumstances that are presenting themselves.
Speaker 1: I need the communications to be clear. Whether you want
Speaker 1: to see my friend and we're gonna keep it passionic,
Speaker 1: whether we're gonna be intimate, whether we're gonna have a
Speaker 1: business relationship, You're going to have to be able to communicate.
Speaker 1: Could you imagine? And I'm just saying because I'm gonna
Speaker 1: promise in a prayer with what I'm doing with my
Speaker 1: dreams in my life and how I've taken chances. So
Speaker 1: this is my my staff that I lean on. And
Speaker 1: I'm just imagining. If my my communication had been disrupted,
Speaker 1: your communication had been disrupted about what you thought was possible,
Speaker 1: what you thought that this protection was over you, you
Speaker 1: wouldn't be right here? So why would I expect if
Speaker 1: I can see how the most important relationship has held
Speaker 1: me anchored, to my sanity, to my peace, to get
Speaker 1: up when I fell down, to turn a new page,
Speaker 1: to make a breakthrough, or to to to break over
Speaker 1: to get through is that it's clear. So why would
Speaker 1: I accept anything less, whether it be a friendship or
Speaker 1: anybody intimate. If you can't communicate with me, then what
Speaker 1: we don't have anything to talk about. And guess what
Speaker 1: you talked about this earlier today or was it yesterday
Speaker 1: and you were talking about it. It's not just about
Speaker 1: what you say, it's about your actions. And I can
Speaker 1: hear what you said without before you even open your mouth.
Speaker 1: And if it's not clear, if I can't catch it,
Speaker 1: then but I can't hold you. But what also, what
Speaker 1: I was saying is just talking about how you're able
Speaker 1: to hold on that grips of faith and and to
Speaker 1: know things. Is that when we talk about an awesome storyteller,
Speaker 1: Oh got it catching me baggas story teller, is that
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna say verbatim as far as biblically speaking
Speaker 1: the Bible, but it is one of the greatest stories
Speaker 1: ever told. We know the whole idea of telephone, how
Speaker 1: it changes over now we can get to the specifics
Speaker 1: about who said, well, who did what? But when you
Speaker 1: think about it, God Jesus, the energy is gangster. He
Speaker 1: told lads get up from the dead. He said, mo
Speaker 1: just split the red scene. He was like, David Buck,
Speaker 1: get Goliath. And it's like, how could you question anything
Speaker 1: else when it's history upon history, when it's affirmed after
Speaker 1: it's affirmed. And I think it's so important that you know,
Speaker 1: like how you said, just get something to hold onto,
Speaker 1: eat the meat, spit out the bones, stop getting caught
Speaker 1: up in the text, and understand the message. You know.
Speaker 1: I think even with myself, it's you know, it's interesting
Speaker 1: that we can sing songs in different languages and not
Speaker 1: know the words but still feeling for sure, sure because
Speaker 1: music gives out vibrations and we feel lost vibrations. And
Speaker 1: what's a vibration that's energy, right, yeah, exactly, And it's
Speaker 1: all energy, and you think about it just like like
Speaker 1: the ups and downs, and love is one of the
Speaker 1: most powerful energies. Love conquers all right, even people that
Speaker 1: want to fear. And it's a high vibrating, it's a
Speaker 1: high if there's a scale of energies of um vibrations
Speaker 1: that we assumans are radiating, right, so the skills grow
Speaker 1: everywhere from you know, zero too. I believe it's like
Speaker 1: a little over thousand of those millibars of the energy
Speaker 1: that we release when we speak or when we do
Speaker 1: something right. So anger and hate and stress and anxiety,
Speaker 1: it's all lower on the scales. It's a lower vibration.
Speaker 1: Love is the type of entire scale. So the more
Speaker 1: you know you're loving and you're accepting of love and
Speaker 1: you're giving a sharing and exchanging it, the more positive,
Speaker 1: like the higher robarations you're giving out and the high
Speaker 1: vibrations are kind of like universes bouncing back at you.
Speaker 1: And I think that's like important, just notion and guidance
Speaker 1: to heaving life. It's like love, be guide by love
Speaker 1: because everything, every decision and everything you're gonna make face
Speaker 1: from that. It's gonna it's going to be good. It's
Speaker 1: gonna be true. Yeah, it's going to be clear. It's
Speaker 1: going to be peaceful. Yeah, it's not gonna bind you.
Speaker 1: It's like a hole just not gonna stretch it out
Speaker 1: because it's free, it's open catch it. You gotta be
Speaker 1: love if you seek love, right, well, I appreciate you.
Speaker 1: IM prompt to sit down, so before we can understank you,
Speaker 1: I just gotta say I I don't know how much
Speaker 1: this you're gonna cut out and stuff you're gonna you're
Speaker 1: gonna probably edit stuff, I hope. So my entrance was
Speaker 1: like disastrous. I just excited, nervous, and we're Dawn Day podcast.
Speaker 1: We speak life. Now. Let me just say I was
Speaker 1: thrown in and they didn't know what's going on. Am
Speaker 1: I being recorded from cameras. There's cameras in my face,
Speaker 1: there's lighting my face, there's microphones here, there's everything you
Speaker 1: see like full on, beautiful, huge studios with everything you
Speaker 1: can imagine, all the electronics. So I was put on
Speaker 1: a chair like to say high and hang out. It's
Speaker 1: just started question. It's always like I was prosed. I
Speaker 1: just froze. I got so nervous, but you kind of
Speaker 1: win me in by just like ignoring the fact that
Speaker 1: I'm frozen. It was like you're gonna get it. You're
Speaker 1: gonna get it. I'm gonna ask you, you know, and
Speaker 1: you started interviewing me, and I kind of just opened
Speaker 1: up towards did you say yes. I'm like fully opened.
Speaker 1: You ain't saying now you say yes? And he was like,
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna do the thing on thing. You showed up.
Speaker 1: Imagine how many people can just show up just keeping
Speaker 1: thank you because you were here at the beginning, Marian,
Speaker 1: you when Vitamin D. Yeah, you were there. You were
Speaker 1: at the student when I came to California. One of
Speaker 1: the main things that what really got me to be like, oh,
Speaker 1: let's come out here. It's because accelerated Radio. It was
Speaker 1: the first online station that I saw the emulating an
Speaker 1: actual radio station. And living in New York, I was
Speaker 1: a small fish in an ocean. I didn't even a
Speaker 1: small fish in the pond. I was an ocean and
Speaker 1: I had to go with the opportunity was and that's
Speaker 1: when I had my online station. You came to visit,
Speaker 1: you showed up there and look at us now. And
Speaker 1: I'm not surprised because as your friend, I always believed
Speaker 1: in you. I always saw talent in you. I felt it,
Speaker 1: I see it, I experienced it. So it's like, if
Speaker 1: anybody's going to do something on radio or TV or
Speaker 1: in media, that's gonna be Dawn. At least it is
Speaker 1: my sphere of universe of all the people and you know,
Speaker 1: situations around me. I was like, Dawn is the one, uh,
Speaker 1: and I still do. I mean, you got a talent,
Speaker 1: and your talent is gonna take you as far as
Speaker 1: your allowing it to and I hope it goes far
Speaker 1: as far as you want to we go because we
Speaker 1: gotta be home yet Yep, we're gonna travel the world. Yo.
Speaker 1: Dreams don't work unless you do. You know. Actually, you
Speaker 1: know this morning I was in a bed and I
Speaker 1: got a lot was I was so emotional because I
Speaker 1: was thinking, I was excited about you coming. And just
Speaker 1: like how you were talking about the story of the Yogi,
Speaker 1: you know, the idea of the tree in this apple seat.
Speaker 1: In this process, it can drain you because it's like
Speaker 1: it's constantly keep going. You don't know if it's hitting.
Speaker 1: You're putting stuff out there. You're constantly putting yourself out
Speaker 1: there the people that you automatically think that you may
Speaker 1: get support from, and you're you're not or whatever that
Speaker 1: looks like. But like you said, that sun, that rain,
Speaker 1: everything's happened under the ground. And I guess I got
Speaker 1: overwhelmed with the emotions because I remember when you came
Speaker 1: to others, to you, I said, my god, I've been
Speaker 1: shuts right now. It actually motivated me to get up
Speaker 1: because I was like, I was not on the phone,
Speaker 1: but I was like, uh, I want to end up
Speaker 1: to meditate, and I was like, oh am, I gonna
Speaker 1: go go on my walk or whatever. But it was
Speaker 1: that moment to be like, doh, you're doing all rightists,
Speaker 1: And I think sometimes we gotta tell ourselves, like doing
Speaker 1: all races, you have to you have to encourage and
Speaker 1: pet yourself on the back and surround yourself with people
Speaker 1: that speak life like that is so important to me.
Speaker 1: I'm not relying on you, and I gotta just to
Speaker 1: make sure, just like the sun shine, that you're not
Speaker 1: not avoiding the shine on me. What do I mean
Speaker 1: by that? Just speaking whatever that light and that life
Speaker 1: is because I don't bounce it back, and if we
Speaker 1: get together, we're just gonna shine again, exactly. So I
Speaker 1: want to thank you. Thank you for your patience, thank
Speaker 1: you for your peace, thank you for speaking life for
Speaker 1: me with me, thank you for making we're doing it
Speaker 1: for each other. I feel like you know that I
Speaker 1: love you. I'm crazy. I'm crazy, yes, hal, but I
Speaker 1: love you and I love it too. Okay, so listen,
Speaker 1: what's you about to say? No? I forgot like it
Speaker 1: was like me, okay, so this is the vital chest,
Speaker 1: this is my little baby. I got some words and
Speaker 1: stuff in here. And you know, that's what I wanted
Speaker 1: to say. I think because you you've got over my overwhelmed,
Speaker 1: the emotional, overwhelmed, whatever, h and you know, life and surroundings,
Speaker 1: it's overwhelming, and it's okay to allow ourselves to feel
Speaker 1: to feel the hardship of it and feels hardship with
Speaker 1: like soldiering on, waking up, motivating yourself because everything that's
Speaker 1: going in the world is you know, subconsciously, it's affecting us.
Speaker 1: You know, things, we see, things, we read, things, we hear,
Speaker 1: things that are happening around that we see with our
Speaker 1: own eyes. And so it's okay to allow ourselves to
Speaker 1: have a bad day, to have a bad moment to
Speaker 1: you know, yeah, and just be with it and then
Speaker 1: but then find the courage and the strength to you know,
Speaker 1: to push through because you know, after the rain comes
Speaker 1: to sunshine and it's really what it is to the
Speaker 1: end of the day, it's just as simple, why complicated.
Speaker 1: You know, Um, I'm seeing my eyes are black and stuff.
Speaker 1: I'm listening you know, always as I always there's this
Speaker 1: quote I've been saying recently. I asked God to grow
Speaker 1: when it started raining, m just like you said he
Speaker 1: uses it all. I didn't say, oh, Jeremie to have
Speaker 1: it ready. But there's a quote with even a agor
Speaker 1: he's a recording artist. Jeremiah just said he got a
Speaker 1: ready to take a listen, phones, take a listen to
Speaker 1: what this brother said. You know, that's this quote. It says,
Speaker 1: I asked God to grow and it started raining because
Speaker 1: he uses it all. Nothing is wasted when we're dealing
Speaker 1: with destiny, when we're dealing with purpose, God divinely uses
Speaker 1: it all, the sunshine and the rain, the storm and
Speaker 1: the bliss, all of it. It's for our good and
Speaker 1: it always ends good. It always ends Hey, count it
Speaker 1: all joy? Hey? Catch it so true? For sure, we're growing.
Speaker 1: We're growing. We're growing. We don't have other choice but
Speaker 1: to go on and go up. Hey, you know you
Speaker 1: think about anything that grows from the ground. I don't
Speaker 1: think ever looks up, looks around and say, oh I
Speaker 1: don't know where to grow. It just goes up towards
Speaker 1: the light. Catch it? Hey, all right, so let's go back.
Speaker 1: So this is divided chest and divided chest. There are
Speaker 1: some words in here. I don't even It may reply
Speaker 1: to you, it may not, It can be like run. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and you you can say something like, you know, when
Speaker 1: I think of running, I think about how I gotta
Speaker 1: run after my dreams. Or I don't believe in running
Speaker 1: for a situation. I don't know, just something inspired, some
Speaker 1: association on that right, just to make somebody feel good.
Speaker 1: First thing to come the mouth. Yeah, okay, okay, okay,
Speaker 1: here we go, here we go, open up. I love
Speaker 1: that A little music songs in the back. Okay, got it?
Speaker 1: You got a word. Oh it's a good one. Dreams
Speaker 1: don't work unless you do mm hmm. And just looking
Speaker 1: at in my reflecting with my own life, it's true.
Speaker 1: You know, the dreams that I dream about and if
Speaker 1: I do work for them, they're just dreams, just stay
Speaker 1: there in the eater somewhere, still ready for grabs. But
Speaker 1: they're there until I'm ready to put in work and
Speaker 1: sacrifice and you know, whatever goes into it too, catch
Speaker 1: that dream. Um, And I think, yeah, working for your
Speaker 1: dream is should be your motivation every day and should
Speaker 1: be your reason to you know, wake up and be
Speaker 1: alive and you know, have that great human experience here.
Speaker 1: Yeah without working on you know, get it is that simple,
Speaker 1: No matter what you know, circumstances you're born, no matter
Speaker 1: what class you come from. You know, even people that
Speaker 1: haven't given all materialistically have to work for their dreams,
Speaker 1: their true dreams and the true purpose. It's not you know.
Speaker 1: Um often like real dreams and things that will make
Speaker 1: us happy and their extension of our humanity and who
Speaker 1: we are is the ones that we work for. And
Speaker 1: then we input our we put some of ourselves and
Speaker 1: our hearts and our you know, soul into it. Nothing
Speaker 1: just comes free and easy. M So you look around,
Speaker 1: it's your life and you say, well you can hustle
Speaker 1: my ass off, hustle my ass off. You look at
Speaker 1: your life and what do you say? That's what you
Speaker 1: want now? And I'm for that. I'm thankful for my
Speaker 1: parents to raise me as a hard working man. That
Speaker 1: not to be a shame of hard work, not to
Speaker 1: be ashamed of any work. If that propels you to
Speaker 1: where you want to go, where where you want to be,
Speaker 1: do it. And that brought I'm here because of that,
Speaker 1: because you know, coming to America alone with no money,
Speaker 1: like it was no joke. So I've been in situations
Speaker 1: you know, yeah you did. That's a whole another video. Um, Well,
Speaker 1: thank you for sharing. UM, thank you for your words
Speaker 1: of encouragement and inspiration. UM, thank you for sean what's
Speaker 1: possible from the adversities of your your childhood. Just saying
Speaker 1: I'm about to move to another country. Listen, I ain't
Speaker 1: say another state, I say another city, I ain't say
Speaker 1: another county, this weather moved from another country. Said I'm possible,
Speaker 1: And that's my story. And just remember we all have
Speaker 1: our story, right, we all have our hardships, we all
Speaker 1: have our pains, our obstacles, challenges that we go through life.
Speaker 1: So I don't you know, I'm very humbled by how
Speaker 1: you describe me and thank me, and I thank you
Speaker 1: for that. But I'm just heay, okay, I'm a regularly
Speaker 1: I'm having a human experience. So I'm a little better
Speaker 1: awad anybody to say this. And I'm not trying to
Speaker 1: be rude, but this is that Arian dawn coming out.
Speaker 1: I'm all about a component to speak in life, and
Speaker 1: I'm going to edify you and what I don't want
Speaker 1: you to do, and I don't like it's for me
Speaker 1: to shine light on you or rain down on you
Speaker 1: blessings and affirmation and you put up an umbrella So
Speaker 1: if right now I think you're the most amazing person
Speaker 1: is working, you allow me to say that because from
Speaker 1: my view and what I see, what I heard, and
Speaker 1: how you touched me and how you impacted me, you
Speaker 1: could be that for me. And for you to take
Speaker 1: that away from me, that's not fair because all I
Speaker 1: am is giving you because you also did that for me,
Speaker 1: and I thank you for that as well. And I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna take away for I'm gonna say, yeah, I'm dope.
Speaker 1: I'm dope like that. That's how yo, that's how my
Speaker 1: reflection of my friends be. Anybody to deal with me,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna have you thinking that you can do, be
Speaker 1: and achieve anything you want out of life. I'm just
Speaker 1: gonna humble, accepted and inside of me And I'm like, yes,
Speaker 1: she did that. Love it. But you know we don't
Speaker 1: even have to speak on listen. It's not about being arrogant.
Speaker 1: It's just about walking in your authority. Jesus guy, ain't
Speaker 1: even like, oh no, I'm not this. You think the
Speaker 1: kings and queens out there be like that. You think
Speaker 1: jay Z I talk, Oh, don't worry about me. I'm
Speaker 1: not jay Z. No. You put in that work. And
Speaker 1: it doesn't mean just a career aspect. I'm talking about
Speaker 1: what you invested spiritually, mentally and physically. You overcome some
Speaker 1: things that people couldn't even see out of you are
Speaker 1: what they say when even though I walk through the
Speaker 1: valley of the shadow of death? What what kind of shadow?
Speaker 1: What kind of darkness? Were you in? And you still
Speaker 1: were able to see the light? Stop playing with me.
Speaker 1: I don't care what it was. Your truth is your truth.
Speaker 1: And because it may seem not seeing the severity if
Speaker 1: somebody else doesn't make it less important, you know it. Amen,
Speaker 1: and I receive you. Thank you now. I'm sure somebody
Speaker 1: was like, y'all, who is this brother on Dawn Day's podcast?
Speaker 1: How do I follow him? Where is it? Where can
Speaker 1: we follow you on social media? Well? Right now, you
Speaker 1: can follow me on um Instagram as Marian Lower dash
Speaker 1: Punni m A r j N lower their underscore po
Speaker 1: n G A r T N I K. I devote
Speaker 1: most of my social media to my travels and my experiences.
Speaker 1: But if you take a closer look and if you
Speaker 1: really pay attention to it, uh, as far as it
Speaker 1: shows my life and my experiences, it actually talks about
Speaker 1: things that I learned along the way, people that I meet,
Speaker 1: foods that I eat, or places that I travel to.
Speaker 1: Kind Of I want to expose the world, to show
Speaker 1: the world and to to bring it closer, to bring
Speaker 1: it close, to bring it to homes of people that
Speaker 1: don't have that opportunity and that chance to go, and
Speaker 1: they can learn something like they can see people and
Speaker 1: humanity for what it is and how we're like all,
Speaker 1: no matter how we're different, how we're alike at the
Speaker 1: same time, how we're all sharing human experience and it's
Speaker 1: so beautiful and just inspired, like not lit. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'll try to be inspiring. I'm not intentionally doing things
Speaker 1: to inspire others that just try to be me and
Speaker 1: have you know, actions of a decent man, but too
Speaker 1: to inspire you to believe in yourself, to leave your
Speaker 1: dream to go and do things that make you happy.
Speaker 1: That might not be traveling or seeing, you know, learning
Speaker 1: about cultures and people, but it might be something else
Speaker 1: but the mess. You know, I leave a page usually
Speaker 1: with something meaningful or at least I try, and I
Speaker 1: hope that it is. You know, he did it and
Speaker 1: probably I can do it too, you know. That's how
Speaker 1: we got to be vulnerable and that's how we got
Speaker 1: to be able to share a story. And that's why
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Speaker 1: in the morning, you know, when the email like links
Speaker 1: and becomes a message and you're like, you're struggling, struggling
Speaker 1: with waking up and getting starting your day and you
Speaker 1: see the dundee message like hey, and so often do
Speaker 1: you know what it happens? You say, I replied to
Speaker 1: you all the time because it speaks to me in
Speaker 1: that moment and it's so important. It's such a gift,
Speaker 1: you know, to receive that. It's a reminder, it's a
Speaker 1: gently reminder to you know, set you up for to
Speaker 1: have a good day, you know, and to will be
Speaker 1: reminded of whatever you're talking about any given time. Thank you.
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Speaker 1: so you get invited me to UM. I appreciate that.
Speaker 1: It means the world to me, and I want to
Speaker 1: thank you for for being on this journey of my dreams.
Speaker 1: I plan to be here a long time. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: make history. I've been telling people and I know it
Speaker 1: sounds crazy, and that's what I know. And they say,
Speaker 1: you gotta be out of your mind for your dreams.
Speaker 1: Do you know why I sit here and I tell
Speaker 1: people I'm gonna be big in Oprah. I recently got
Speaker 1: my business to get established here because it was this
Speaker 1: registered in Michigan. I was like, okay, we need to
Speaker 1: do with California so I get this money this way.
Speaker 1: And he was like, you know, talking about the business,
Speaker 1: and I said, I said, yes, I have high expectations.
Speaker 1: I looked at him myself, I'm gonna be bigger than Opera.
Speaker 1: I met this gentleman. I was at the Brass Market,
Speaker 1: you know, you know, Shelley had left out of town
Speaker 1: and this girl was like, oh, my gosh, you like
Speaker 1: a celebrity and this other girls like, yeah, you're a celebrity.
Speaker 1: Where have you seen you? And I said, I'm on
Speaker 1: my way. I said I would be big in Oprah
Speaker 1: and I said, get there is you wanna tell them
Speaker 1: that you met me at the Brass Monkey. You gotta
Speaker 1: speak over your life. You gotta speak exceedingly in a
Speaker 1: bundanly things far more than what you can imagine about,
Speaker 1: because just like mar Yan said, it can be possible,
Speaker 1: you can attract. And if you don't believe me, just
Speaker 1: watch because I'm coming. And you know, like I sank,
Speaker 1: I'm in the business of making dreams come true and
Speaker 1: I damn sure ain't gonna forget about mine. So until
Speaker 1: next time, I want you to always remember that you
Speaker 1: like your greatest ass act, get your right and many
Speaker 1: right here with me, and get excited about your lives.