1 00:00:02,880 --> 00:00:06,120 Speaker 1: Megan, I am so happy about this interview, especially since 2 00:00:06,160 --> 00:00:09,600 Speaker 1: you are our first reoccurring guest on the podcast. So 3 00:00:09,960 --> 00:00:13,440 Speaker 1: thank you so much for coming back. So things are 4 00:00:13,480 --> 00:00:16,120 Speaker 1: having me back. I'm so excited. So much has happened 5 00:00:16,120 --> 00:00:19,040 Speaker 1: since we last saw each other a pandemic, You had 6 00:00:19,079 --> 00:00:21,840 Speaker 1: a baby. I was in high school, now in college. 7 00:00:21,880 --> 00:00:25,239 Speaker 1: There's so much to catch up on. First of all, 8 00:00:25,320 --> 00:00:29,560 Speaker 1: how's being a mom. It's the greatest thing ever. Um. 9 00:00:30,280 --> 00:00:31,720 Speaker 1: I always wanted to be a mom, so I knew 10 00:00:31,720 --> 00:00:33,200 Speaker 1: would be good, but I didn't know beat this good. 11 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:35,680 Speaker 1: And he recently got glasses and he's just I didn't 12 00:00:35,680 --> 00:00:39,199 Speaker 1: think he could get cuter, and he's so cute it hurts, 13 00:00:39,400 --> 00:00:41,440 Speaker 1: and I just keep going, Oh, I want more, you know, 14 00:00:41,640 --> 00:00:45,880 Speaker 1: I want four babies. Four that's a very specific number. Yes, 15 00:00:46,120 --> 00:00:48,040 Speaker 1: it's a lot. We're like trying to name the rest 16 00:00:48,040 --> 00:00:50,680 Speaker 1: of them already, and everyone's like, are you gonna do 17 00:00:50,800 --> 00:00:52,479 Speaker 1: like our names? Are you going to change it up? 18 00:00:53,040 --> 00:00:54,480 Speaker 1: That's what I was like, We we have to figure 19 00:00:54,480 --> 00:00:56,200 Speaker 1: this out right now, because we either have to do 20 00:00:56,240 --> 00:00:59,080 Speaker 1: all ours or we have to go right. He's Lali's 21 00:00:59,200 --> 00:01:00,840 Speaker 1: you know, like they all of this sound the same 22 00:01:00,920 --> 00:01:03,320 Speaker 1: or something. Our biggest thing is we don't want to 23 00:01:03,440 --> 00:01:06,800 Speaker 1: name him after anybody or name our babies after anyone. 24 00:01:06,840 --> 00:01:09,320 Speaker 1: And we don't like if you know someone who's like 25 00:01:09,360 --> 00:01:13,680 Speaker 1: a bad person with that name name, it ruins a name. 26 00:01:14,040 --> 00:01:16,240 Speaker 1: So I'll be like, oh my god, what about this name? 27 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:18,520 Speaker 1: And Daryl's like I hate that guy. I'm like, okay, 28 00:01:18,680 --> 00:01:21,760 Speaker 1: you know, so we have to both not know anyone 29 00:01:21,800 --> 00:01:23,880 Speaker 1: in the world with that name. Do you go through 30 00:01:23,880 --> 00:01:27,319 Speaker 1: the baby books? Oh, I go through the websites that 31 00:01:27,360 --> 00:01:30,560 Speaker 1: are like unisex names, and like, I like names that 32 00:01:30,560 --> 00:01:32,280 Speaker 1: could be for a boy or a girl. That's my 33 00:01:32,319 --> 00:01:35,280 Speaker 1: favorite too, so I'm really narrowing it down, like Dylan 34 00:01:35,440 --> 00:01:38,440 Speaker 1: or Sean or Ryan Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. My 35 00:01:38,480 --> 00:01:41,240 Speaker 1: brother's name Ryan. So I'm like, I already lost that one. 36 00:01:41,400 --> 00:01:46,039 Speaker 1: That's an our name too. I know it's perfect rip. 37 00:01:46,600 --> 00:01:49,400 Speaker 1: I might deserve it for like a daughter, so cute, 38 00:01:50,200 --> 00:01:52,560 Speaker 1: for a daughter that couldn't be nuts for a redheaded 39 00:01:52,560 --> 00:01:55,520 Speaker 1: spy kid, that's it. Yeah, it would break your name 40 00:01:55,600 --> 00:01:58,440 Speaker 1: after rule, but because it's a girl, it doesn't count. Yeah, 41 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:00,360 Speaker 1: Like we knew, right, I wanted a girl name Riley, 42 00:02:00,560 --> 00:02:02,640 Speaker 1: but then and we knew the name, and then that 43 00:02:02,920 --> 00:02:04,080 Speaker 1: they were like at the boy, and I was like, 44 00:02:04,240 --> 00:02:06,480 Speaker 1: we're keeping the name. Was it a surprise? Did you 45 00:02:06,520 --> 00:02:09,280 Speaker 1: know the gender? They called me at ten weeks they 46 00:02:09,320 --> 00:02:12,000 Speaker 1: could do a blood test now sick. I was like, 47 00:02:12,040 --> 00:02:14,440 Speaker 1: I need to know now, and she was like, actually 48 00:02:14,480 --> 00:02:18,600 Speaker 1: it's a boy. And I was like, oh oh, I'd 49 00:02:18,600 --> 00:02:23,480 Speaker 1: be the exactly anticipation of not knowing for nine months. No, 50 00:02:23,639 --> 00:02:26,600 Speaker 1: I have no. I think people are crazy that they 51 00:02:26,639 --> 00:02:29,400 Speaker 1: can achieve that patience. My mom did that with both 52 00:02:29,400 --> 00:02:33,399 Speaker 1: of us, and I was like, how no, no, no, 53 00:02:33,400 --> 00:02:35,680 Speaker 1: no no. And then when people are like, you just 54 00:02:35,720 --> 00:02:37,240 Speaker 1: have to see the baby's face and then you'll know 55 00:02:37,320 --> 00:02:41,440 Speaker 1: the name. Wrong. Baby looks completely every week. That baby changes, 56 00:02:42,000 --> 00:02:43,880 Speaker 1: like you have a whole brand new baby every week. 57 00:02:44,120 --> 00:02:47,919 Speaker 1: Newborns looks so different than the baby. Oh yeah, especially 58 00:02:47,960 --> 00:02:50,080 Speaker 1: if you push it out there aliens for at least 59 00:02:50,080 --> 00:02:53,920 Speaker 1: a couple of weeks. Like ruly, yeah, really was having 60 00:02:53,919 --> 00:02:59,119 Speaker 1: a C section scary, terrifying. I've never had stitches. I've 61 00:02:59,160 --> 00:03:01,760 Speaker 1: never had You're right, dude. I was like, I've had 62 00:03:01,840 --> 00:03:04,320 Speaker 1: vocal surgery, but I was asleep this you have to 63 00:03:04,320 --> 00:03:07,160 Speaker 1: be awake, you have to be awake, and they come 64 00:03:07,160 --> 00:03:11,000 Speaker 1: out in seven minutes. But you hear everything, you smell everything. 65 00:03:11,880 --> 00:03:13,800 Speaker 1: You I was like, am I going to be moving? 66 00:03:13,840 --> 00:03:17,800 Speaker 1: They're like no, bit, I was on a rollercoaster. I 67 00:03:17,840 --> 00:03:21,640 Speaker 1: was like okay. And then he came out and he 68 00:03:21,680 --> 00:03:25,200 Speaker 1: wasn't breathing. I was like, where's that cry wasn't breathing. 69 00:03:25,240 --> 00:03:27,720 Speaker 1: They took him to the nikki and they're like, dad, 70 00:03:27,760 --> 00:03:29,400 Speaker 1: do you want to stay here with wife or do 71 00:03:29,440 --> 00:03:31,040 Speaker 1: you want to go to a baby? And I was 72 00:03:31,080 --> 00:03:33,920 Speaker 1: like you stay and the doctor was like you should 73 00:03:33,960 --> 00:03:37,360 Speaker 1: go with a baby, and I was like, you betrayed me. 74 00:03:37,480 --> 00:03:39,120 Speaker 1: And so he left and I was alone for forty 75 00:03:39,120 --> 00:03:41,960 Speaker 1: five minutes getting so back up and you didn't get 76 00:03:42,000 --> 00:03:45,240 Speaker 1: to meet him right now. I got to see him 77 00:03:45,280 --> 00:03:46,760 Speaker 1: for one second and they took him away and I 78 00:03:46,840 --> 00:03:49,440 Speaker 1: was like, wow, that didn't go. I was so drugged 79 00:03:49,480 --> 00:03:52,119 Speaker 1: up though that I was like, hey, he's fine. Were 80 00:03:52,240 --> 00:03:55,640 Speaker 1: the drugs so great? But yeah? Yeah, I mean I 81 00:03:55,680 --> 00:03:57,880 Speaker 1: was at ease. Like my mom was like crying on 82 00:03:57,880 --> 00:03:59,560 Speaker 1: the phone because she couldn't be with me because of COVID, 83 00:03:59,600 --> 00:04:01,480 Speaker 1: So she was are you okay? And I was like 84 00:04:02,000 --> 00:04:05,280 Speaker 1: he's good, Like I'm chilling, yeah, And then I talked 85 00:04:05,280 --> 00:04:07,480 Speaker 1: about it like weeks after with my therapist and she's like, 86 00:04:07,560 --> 00:04:10,200 Speaker 1: so you definitely have some PTSD, Like we have a 87 00:04:10,200 --> 00:04:11,840 Speaker 1: little trauma. We're gonna work on that. That was a 88 00:04:11,840 --> 00:04:17,760 Speaker 1: traumatic birth and I was like, oh for that to happen. Um, 89 00:04:17,880 --> 00:04:19,920 Speaker 1: he was planning for a c session because he was breached, 90 00:04:20,000 --> 00:04:22,080 Speaker 1: like he was not in any kind of position to 91 00:04:22,080 --> 00:04:24,720 Speaker 1: be pushed out and he flipped right at the end. 92 00:04:24,760 --> 00:04:28,400 Speaker 1: And I was like, did you know so? And I 93 00:04:28,440 --> 00:04:30,600 Speaker 1: was like watching every video on how to give birth. 94 00:04:30,640 --> 00:04:32,280 Speaker 1: I watched my aunt give birth twice. I was like, 95 00:04:32,320 --> 00:04:34,320 Speaker 1: I'm ready and then they're like C section. I was like, 96 00:04:34,720 --> 00:04:38,200 Speaker 1: I haven't seen these videos yet, like my research. Yeah, 97 00:04:38,240 --> 00:04:41,080 Speaker 1: I would get an epidural. I have nothing to please. 98 00:04:42,320 --> 00:04:44,320 Speaker 1: Uh no, you need it. I need it. I need 99 00:04:44,320 --> 00:04:47,599 Speaker 1: that epidural. My friend Hilary Duff has home births, which 100 00:04:47,640 --> 00:04:50,160 Speaker 1: you can't have any drugs for that. She's a hero. 101 00:04:51,200 --> 00:04:53,200 Speaker 1: I want to be. I want to be around doctors 102 00:04:53,279 --> 00:04:56,200 Speaker 1: just for like my anxiety. Me too. Write I was like, 103 00:04:56,200 --> 00:04:58,920 Speaker 1: I want to be tubed up. I want the oxygen clothes, 104 00:04:59,160 --> 00:05:02,080 Speaker 1: I want the nicky right everything just in case, because 105 00:05:02,080 --> 00:05:04,839 Speaker 1: I feel like the worst case scenarios. Oh yeah, I 106 00:05:04,920 --> 00:05:07,320 Speaker 1: go to death every time if I say good bye 107 00:05:07,320 --> 00:05:08,840 Speaker 1: to my it's a problem working on. When I say 108 00:05:08,880 --> 00:05:10,400 Speaker 1: good bye to anyone, I'm like, you'll probably get in 109 00:05:10,400 --> 00:05:11,960 Speaker 1: a car accident. I'll never see you. Get it. That's 110 00:05:11,960 --> 00:05:14,680 Speaker 1: how let's go by. It's a real thing I'm working on. 111 00:05:14,920 --> 00:05:17,240 Speaker 1: That is actually really funny you say that, because I 112 00:05:17,320 --> 00:05:20,559 Speaker 1: used to have horrific separation anxiety, and I would always 113 00:05:20,600 --> 00:05:23,160 Speaker 1: I couldn't do sleepovers, and I would always think if 114 00:05:23,160 --> 00:05:24,760 Speaker 1: I want to sleep over that I would either die 115 00:05:24,839 --> 00:05:30,320 Speaker 1: or my parents would die. Wow. Yeah, and therapy helped, 116 00:05:30,440 --> 00:05:36,600 Speaker 1: see and now I don't have those Wow, that's amazing. 117 00:05:37,320 --> 00:05:39,960 Speaker 1: We have a lot in common, Megan, we do. I 118 00:05:40,000 --> 00:05:45,000 Speaker 1: feel you girl, stay in that therapy. It's amazing. Really. 119 00:05:46,000 --> 00:05:48,760 Speaker 1: What's the hardest part about having a kid that no 120 00:05:48,839 --> 00:05:52,320 Speaker 1: one told you about? I guess I wasn't warned a 121 00:05:52,320 --> 00:05:55,279 Speaker 1: lot of like when they fall, like you have to 122 00:05:55,560 --> 00:05:58,359 Speaker 1: You're gonna just watch it happen, you know, and you 123 00:05:58,440 --> 00:06:01,000 Speaker 1: have to try to not go what baby, you know, 124 00:06:01,240 --> 00:06:04,080 Speaker 1: which I do, and Daryl's like, calm, come, you know, 125 00:06:04,240 --> 00:06:07,599 Speaker 1: they look how you react to Yeah, no one really 126 00:06:07,600 --> 00:06:10,320 Speaker 1: talks about, like, I don't know, when they fall it 127 00:06:10,440 --> 00:06:12,640 Speaker 1: hurts if they're in any pain, if he has a cold, 128 00:06:12,880 --> 00:06:15,000 Speaker 1: You're just like, oh my god, you're as happy as 129 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:17,240 Speaker 1: your least happy as kid, which is real. What has 130 00:06:17,279 --> 00:06:21,200 Speaker 1: been the most interesting part of seeing your son grow? 131 00:06:21,480 --> 00:06:23,960 Speaker 1: That is just like, oh my goodness, he's like a human. Aw. 132 00:06:24,839 --> 00:06:27,880 Speaker 1: I guess like the eyesight part, Like I didn't realize 133 00:06:27,880 --> 00:06:30,240 Speaker 1: too when they're infants there like they can only see 134 00:06:30,279 --> 00:06:33,599 Speaker 1: a certain distance, So that was bizarre, Like they're literally 135 00:06:33,680 --> 00:06:36,919 Speaker 1: learning how to see and breathe and eat and swallow. 136 00:06:37,360 --> 00:06:40,320 Speaker 1: Something that's so refreshing about Like what you post in 137 00:06:40,320 --> 00:06:43,600 Speaker 1: your content is just that it's honest and you're not 138 00:06:43,760 --> 00:06:46,839 Speaker 1: showing the easy parts, which I feel like is what 139 00:06:47,000 --> 00:06:49,479 Speaker 1: social media is off in a highlight reel. So what 140 00:06:49,600 --> 00:06:51,680 Speaker 1: made you want to get more into social media? Because 141 00:06:51,920 --> 00:06:56,360 Speaker 1: you're you have the podcast now pick talk with social 142 00:06:56,400 --> 00:06:59,760 Speaker 1: media expert. How what made you open up more and 143 00:06:59,760 --> 00:07:03,520 Speaker 1: not those platforms? Um? I mean, I think like the 144 00:07:03,560 --> 00:07:06,560 Speaker 1: pandemic showed me that we can work from home. And 145 00:07:06,600 --> 00:07:09,279 Speaker 1: I enjoy working from home because usually we're on the 146 00:07:09,360 --> 00:07:12,000 Speaker 1: road constantly, and now with a baby, I'm trying to 147 00:07:12,040 --> 00:07:14,160 Speaker 1: do more work from home so I could see him 148 00:07:14,160 --> 00:07:17,000 Speaker 1: and be with him. So I think a podcast with 149 00:07:17,040 --> 00:07:19,559 Speaker 1: my brother too. Was just like a fun extra way 150 00:07:19,640 --> 00:07:24,400 Speaker 1: to have therapy with him. And we've had many family breakthroughs. 151 00:07:24,680 --> 00:07:27,880 Speaker 1: So if you ever, like are struggling with a family member, 152 00:07:28,000 --> 00:07:30,480 Speaker 1: just start a podcast and you just talk for an 153 00:07:30,520 --> 00:07:33,520 Speaker 1: hour a day. It's great. What's the biggest thing? Being 154 00:07:33,560 --> 00:07:37,600 Speaker 1: on a podcast has taught you? Um that there's other 155 00:07:37,640 --> 00:07:40,480 Speaker 1: people out there that feel exactly how you feel. It's 156 00:07:40,600 --> 00:07:44,720 Speaker 1: very nice. It's very nice. And it's like watching Ryan 157 00:07:44,880 --> 00:07:48,080 Speaker 1: talk about his sobriety and how many people comment like, Yo, 158 00:07:48,120 --> 00:07:50,480 Speaker 1: I'm going through the same thing and you talking about 159 00:07:50,480 --> 00:07:53,240 Speaker 1: it really helps me. Like watching him see how his 160 00:07:53,320 --> 00:07:57,640 Speaker 1: words impact others out there is a beautiful thing and 161 00:07:57,680 --> 00:07:59,200 Speaker 1: it's like something and not a lot of people get 162 00:07:59,200 --> 00:08:01,960 Speaker 1: to experience. So that was the best part. And I'm 163 00:08:01,960 --> 00:08:04,120 Speaker 1: so beyond proud of him. I think he's the coolest. 164 00:08:04,160 --> 00:08:07,640 Speaker 1: He's like my favorite person ever. So watching him become 165 00:08:07,680 --> 00:08:10,680 Speaker 1: a better person because he's been working on it has 166 00:08:10,720 --> 00:08:13,800 Speaker 1: been the best part of our lives. How is the podcast? 167 00:08:13,800 --> 00:08:15,880 Speaker 1: Has it made you guys closer or has it brought 168 00:08:15,960 --> 00:08:18,080 Speaker 1: some tension? Because I know working with family can bring 169 00:08:18,200 --> 00:08:22,080 Speaker 1: some Oh, it's definitely made us closer. Well, I always 170 00:08:22,120 --> 00:08:24,680 Speaker 1: worked with my family, so we're not like that luckily 171 00:08:24,800 --> 00:08:27,560 Speaker 1: think thank god. Um, but he used to be my 172 00:08:27,600 --> 00:08:29,800 Speaker 1: camera guy forever and he never was like I want 173 00:08:29,800 --> 00:08:31,840 Speaker 1: to take pictures. I just like threw a camera in 174 00:08:31,880 --> 00:08:34,160 Speaker 1: his hands and he was like okay, and he was 175 00:08:34,160 --> 00:08:36,959 Speaker 1: like I'm not even looking, but sure. And I think 176 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:39,320 Speaker 1: over years of that, he wanted to quit and we 177 00:08:39,360 --> 00:08:41,559 Speaker 1: got into a big blow up. Um, and that was 178 00:08:41,600 --> 00:08:44,480 Speaker 1: like the last time we drank. So that was him 179 00:08:44,520 --> 00:08:46,080 Speaker 1: trying to say I want to quit, but not like 180 00:08:46,240 --> 00:08:47,719 Speaker 1: upset you. And I was like, I want you to 181 00:08:47,800 --> 00:08:51,480 Speaker 1: quit and not freak out. So it was, um, this 182 00:08:51,559 --> 00:08:54,040 Speaker 1: is a new lane where he's like working and he's 183 00:08:54,040 --> 00:08:57,360 Speaker 1: in front of the camera and he is really honest 184 00:08:57,440 --> 00:09:00,160 Speaker 1: with himself and it's helped him a lot. It's like 185 00:09:00,240 --> 00:09:02,840 Speaker 1: the best therapy. He just becomes such a nice person, 186 00:09:03,160 --> 00:09:05,960 Speaker 1: a nicer person because it was already great. I love that. 187 00:09:06,040 --> 00:09:08,840 Speaker 1: And I think there's something about the podcast format where 188 00:09:09,240 --> 00:09:12,120 Speaker 1: there's no like three minute videos where you have to 189 00:09:12,240 --> 00:09:14,400 Speaker 1: like get him points. You can just kind of show 190 00:09:14,440 --> 00:09:17,600 Speaker 1: your personality and for yourself. Oh yeah, I'm always like 191 00:09:17,679 --> 00:09:19,520 Speaker 1: you do want to plan something, It's like, nah, we'll 192 00:09:19,559 --> 00:09:22,760 Speaker 1: wing it. I'm like, okay, and we do just because, 193 00:09:22,800 --> 00:09:25,120 Speaker 1: like we're best friends, so we can just chat all 194 00:09:25,240 --> 00:09:28,120 Speaker 1: day long. Yeah. I love working on a podcast. I 195 00:09:28,160 --> 00:09:30,760 Speaker 1: love your podcast. You're amazing. Thank you so much. I 196 00:09:30,880 --> 00:09:33,480 Speaker 1: feel like you're just talking about how human you are. 197 00:09:33,760 --> 00:09:35,880 Speaker 1: We need more of that. Yeah, we're like working on it. 198 00:09:35,960 --> 00:09:38,120 Speaker 1: The concept is like we're just working on being better 199 00:09:38,320 --> 00:09:42,320 Speaker 1: humans in every category of our life. So we get really, 200 00:09:43,320 --> 00:09:46,360 Speaker 1: really open and really honest. And I like that. I 201 00:09:46,360 --> 00:09:49,280 Speaker 1: think it's harder to pretend to be somebody when you're 202 00:09:49,280 --> 00:09:53,600 Speaker 1: in this business. It's like it's exhausting. So being myself 203 00:09:53,640 --> 00:09:56,400 Speaker 1: people enjoy that, and that's wonderful because I don't have 204 00:09:56,440 --> 00:09:59,679 Speaker 1: to pretend to be anybody else. Do you think showing 205 00:09:59,720 --> 00:10:02,520 Speaker 1: more yourself on social media has allowed you to be 206 00:10:02,600 --> 00:10:05,160 Speaker 1: more open in your songwriting and your music or they 207 00:10:05,320 --> 00:10:10,320 Speaker 1: two separate things in your mind? Oh yeah for sure. Um, 208 00:10:10,440 --> 00:10:13,640 Speaker 1: especially like this album I'm might come out. I came 209 00:10:13,640 --> 00:10:16,720 Speaker 1: out with Bad for Me, which is like, um, a 210 00:10:16,800 --> 00:10:19,560 Speaker 1: slower song, but a real situation that I had with 211 00:10:19,679 --> 00:10:22,800 Speaker 1: my therapist with a family member and had to write 212 00:10:22,800 --> 00:10:26,160 Speaker 1: a letter and send it to him and and that 213 00:10:26,240 --> 00:10:28,840 Speaker 1: stuff is real and I wrote it the next day, 214 00:10:29,040 --> 00:10:31,679 Speaker 1: and a lot of people I've seen on TikTok relate 215 00:10:31,720 --> 00:10:33,640 Speaker 1: to that, and they they'll even say I needed this 216 00:10:34,080 --> 00:10:38,280 Speaker 1: like ten years ago, like this song is me right now, 217 00:10:38,400 --> 00:10:42,160 Speaker 1: and it's it's really cool to relate with other others 218 00:10:42,200 --> 00:10:44,480 Speaker 1: like that. And I've been writing a lot about being 219 00:10:44,480 --> 00:10:47,480 Speaker 1: a mom because I feel like moms aren't supposed to 220 00:10:47,600 --> 00:10:51,840 Speaker 1: complain or cry online, and you know, and it's like, well, 221 00:10:51,840 --> 00:10:54,040 Speaker 1: it's a lot of stuff is hard and scary. Like 222 00:10:54,080 --> 00:10:56,560 Speaker 1: we just found out he's not using his left eye 223 00:10:56,720 --> 00:11:00,520 Speaker 1: because it's like, yeah, because his eyesight is that bad 224 00:11:00,640 --> 00:11:03,360 Speaker 1: that he just wasn't using it. And when we discovered that, 225 00:11:03,440 --> 00:11:05,400 Speaker 1: Darryl and I were like heartbroken because we're like, we 226 00:11:05,480 --> 00:11:09,040 Speaker 1: had no idea this poor boy like couldn't see. So 227 00:11:09,440 --> 00:11:11,719 Speaker 1: there's a lot of crazy emotions that come of being 228 00:11:11,720 --> 00:11:14,120 Speaker 1: a parent, and I want to talk about it because 229 00:11:14,160 --> 00:11:15,640 Speaker 1: it helps a lot of people out there and it 230 00:11:15,679 --> 00:11:18,080 Speaker 1: makes me feel like I'm normal. I actually had a 231 00:11:18,080 --> 00:11:21,040 Speaker 1: similar experience when I was about four. My left I 232 00:11:21,200 --> 00:11:23,920 Speaker 1: used to cross and I couldn't. Yeah, I had to 233 00:11:24,000 --> 00:11:26,400 Speaker 1: use the eye patch and everything on my right eye 234 00:11:26,440 --> 00:11:29,439 Speaker 1: to make it stronger. I had my little red glasses 235 00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:32,320 Speaker 1: so I know the struggle. Yeah, there, and they find 236 00:11:32,320 --> 00:11:34,160 Speaker 1: it younger now, so they can find it at six 237 00:11:34,200 --> 00:11:36,800 Speaker 1: months old. So when he's a year and a half, 238 00:11:36,800 --> 00:11:40,079 Speaker 1: he's a baby and he has glasses, and they were like, well, 239 00:11:40,080 --> 00:11:41,960 Speaker 1: at least you caught it now, And I was like, what, 240 00:11:42,120 --> 00:11:44,480 Speaker 1: I feel like, he's so young. They're like, well, nowadays, 241 00:11:44,520 --> 00:11:46,360 Speaker 1: we can catch it earlier. But my brothers didn't get 242 00:11:46,400 --> 00:11:49,200 Speaker 1: glasses untill they were like four, so they lived their 243 00:11:49,240 --> 00:11:52,280 Speaker 1: life like walking into walls. That was me. I would 244 00:11:52,280 --> 00:11:54,360 Speaker 1: literally My brother used to make fun of me. I 245 00:11:54,400 --> 00:11:56,200 Speaker 1: would walk when we're in a hotel room and they 246 00:11:56,240 --> 00:11:59,000 Speaker 1: were clear doors, I couldn't tell that they were closed, 247 00:11:59,320 --> 00:12:01,800 Speaker 1: so I would just walk into the door because I 248 00:12:01,840 --> 00:12:05,320 Speaker 1: just could not have that depth perception. It's so heartbreaking, 249 00:12:06,800 --> 00:12:09,040 Speaker 1: and your parents, like they must have felt so bad. 250 00:12:09,400 --> 00:12:12,160 Speaker 1: We just felt so bad. My brother was cracking up. 251 00:12:12,280 --> 00:12:14,800 Speaker 1: He was cracking up, and I was just crying on 252 00:12:14,800 --> 00:12:17,400 Speaker 1: the floor. But that's what siblings are for, that's what 253 00:12:17,440 --> 00:12:20,960 Speaker 1: we're he for. Yeah, that's what they're here for. But 254 00:12:21,000 --> 00:12:23,720 Speaker 1: I feel like growing up can be really hard, and 255 00:12:23,760 --> 00:12:26,079 Speaker 1: I think it's really cool how you're documenting the struggles 256 00:12:26,320 --> 00:12:30,400 Speaker 1: of being a parent because again, it's just not happening much. Yeah, 257 00:12:30,400 --> 00:12:31,920 Speaker 1: I don't know if I'm even allow to talk about it, 258 00:12:31,960 --> 00:12:33,080 Speaker 1: but I want to do it for you because I 259 00:12:33,120 --> 00:12:36,040 Speaker 1: love you. I'm writing a book about pregnancy and like 260 00:12:36,080 --> 00:12:38,600 Speaker 1: how bizarre it is and like things no one told me, 261 00:12:38,760 --> 00:12:41,520 Speaker 1: you know, So what's the strangest see the open No 262 00:12:41,559 --> 00:12:43,560 Speaker 1: one told you about pregnancy because I'm very cure. Um, 263 00:12:44,200 --> 00:12:48,280 Speaker 1: I knew like you could have different skin like pimples 264 00:12:48,280 --> 00:12:52,439 Speaker 1: and stuff, but I straight up got um perioral dermatitis 265 00:12:52,679 --> 00:12:55,599 Speaker 1: where it's like dry rough patches kind of like rosatia. 266 00:12:56,040 --> 00:12:58,200 Speaker 1: And I just thought I kept like burning my skin 267 00:12:58,360 --> 00:13:01,040 Speaker 1: on products or like the cup brushes I were using 268 00:13:01,080 --> 00:13:03,520 Speaker 1: where I was allergic to, so I'd have these dry 269 00:13:03,559 --> 00:13:05,839 Speaker 1: patches and it was miserable and itchy, and I was 270 00:13:05,920 --> 00:13:08,559 Speaker 1: like what is this? And later I found out like, oh, 271 00:13:08,600 --> 00:13:10,560 Speaker 1: it can come with your hormone and balance, and I 272 00:13:10,600 --> 00:13:14,760 Speaker 1: was like, oh, so there's like there's really strange stuff 273 00:13:14,800 --> 00:13:17,080 Speaker 1: that I'm going to get into in the book. The 274 00:13:17,080 --> 00:13:22,360 Speaker 1: women's body is crazy. It's crazy. We're amazing. We're the greatest. 275 00:13:22,440 --> 00:13:26,920 Speaker 1: We're the greatest. I grew eyelids. Eyelids, did you know? 276 00:13:27,200 --> 00:13:29,520 Speaker 1: Fun fact? That always like blew my mind. You grow 277 00:13:29,559 --> 00:13:31,680 Speaker 1: the taste buds and the eyelashes and the third trimester, 278 00:13:32,320 --> 00:13:36,880 Speaker 1: whoa sick? Did you ever feel the pressure of bouncing 279 00:13:36,920 --> 00:13:39,280 Speaker 1: back after having a kid, because I feel like there's 280 00:13:39,320 --> 00:13:42,600 Speaker 1: this big pressure on like snapping back into your same body, 281 00:13:42,640 --> 00:13:45,400 Speaker 1: but no, like your body changes. I knew like I 282 00:13:45,440 --> 00:13:49,720 Speaker 1: had a goal of snapping back because I also was 283 00:13:49,800 --> 00:13:52,600 Speaker 1: my heaviest when I got pregnant. I was like in 284 00:13:52,800 --> 00:13:56,040 Speaker 1: COVID gained a fift you know, like I was up. 285 00:13:56,200 --> 00:13:58,480 Speaker 1: I was a hundred and eighty five pounds and that 286 00:13:58,960 --> 00:14:01,280 Speaker 1: was my heaviest, and and I got pregnant and I 287 00:14:01,320 --> 00:14:04,400 Speaker 1: went up to like to twenty and so when I 288 00:14:04,480 --> 00:14:06,920 Speaker 1: after I gave birth, he los like ten pounds because 289 00:14:06,920 --> 00:14:11,000 Speaker 1: that's the baby. But I got a dietitian after I 290 00:14:11,040 --> 00:14:12,920 Speaker 1: was trying to do it myself and I wasn't succeeding 291 00:14:12,960 --> 00:14:14,480 Speaker 1: because I didn't know how to work out right or 292 00:14:14,520 --> 00:14:17,360 Speaker 1: eat right, and I tried to count calories and it 293 00:14:17,400 --> 00:14:18,880 Speaker 1: was miserable, and I was like, I don't want to 294 00:14:18,880 --> 00:14:21,720 Speaker 1: hate this. So I got a dietitian and she taught 295 00:14:21,720 --> 00:14:24,120 Speaker 1: me like the beauty of healthy food and how few 296 00:14:24,200 --> 00:14:28,080 Speaker 1: does food is fuel. It's not just like yeah, it's 297 00:14:28,120 --> 00:14:30,160 Speaker 1: it could be a beautiful thing. She taught me how 298 00:14:30,560 --> 00:14:34,520 Speaker 1: like we're all burning fires, right, and if your fire 299 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:36,520 Speaker 1: goes out, like you don't eat for a long time, 300 00:14:36,760 --> 00:14:39,120 Speaker 1: you're gonna feel angry and miserable. And if you try 301 00:14:39,160 --> 00:14:41,400 Speaker 1: to throw a fat log on that fire, like eat 302 00:14:41,400 --> 00:14:44,160 Speaker 1: a fat, huge meal, it's not going to make the 303 00:14:44,160 --> 00:14:47,280 Speaker 1: fire go up. You're just gonna like give yourself a 304 00:14:47,280 --> 00:14:49,560 Speaker 1: tummy ache. So she taught me, like, you have to 305 00:14:49,560 --> 00:14:52,520 Speaker 1: eat snacks all day and you have to like always 306 00:14:52,520 --> 00:14:54,360 Speaker 1: eat when you're hungry. And I was like, wow, I 307 00:14:54,400 --> 00:14:57,280 Speaker 1: thought it was like starve, you know. So she taught me, 308 00:14:57,320 --> 00:15:00,640 Speaker 1: I love healthy food and I lost like sick steve pounds. 309 00:15:00,680 --> 00:15:03,960 Speaker 1: Now I'm like, I'm like one, wait, I weigh one 310 00:15:04,000 --> 00:15:07,200 Speaker 1: fifty seven now and when I was when I got 311 00:15:07,200 --> 00:15:10,120 Speaker 1: practice five. So I'm like the healthiest I've ever been. 312 00:15:10,560 --> 00:15:12,400 Speaker 1: As long as you feel good, that's what matters. And 313 00:15:12,560 --> 00:15:17,200 Speaker 1: something I never thought I would struggle with was food. Yeah, 314 00:15:17,320 --> 00:15:19,240 Speaker 1: I would go through those cycles. I think being on 315 00:15:19,280 --> 00:15:23,320 Speaker 1: social media really exacerbated it, where I was like, Okay, 316 00:15:23,360 --> 00:15:25,560 Speaker 1: I'm gonna work out, I'm gonna eat right, and then 317 00:15:25,560 --> 00:15:27,080 Speaker 1: it would get to the point where I also go 318 00:15:27,200 --> 00:15:30,520 Speaker 1: c D, which I think dieting for me not good, 319 00:15:31,040 --> 00:15:33,040 Speaker 1: and I would be like, oh my goodness, there are 320 00:15:33,040 --> 00:15:36,120 Speaker 1: too many calories and strawberry and right when that happened, 321 00:15:36,120 --> 00:15:40,120 Speaker 1: I was like, I think we have an issue. Yeah, 322 00:15:40,160 --> 00:15:43,360 Speaker 1: it's scary and it's it's it can really mess with 323 00:15:43,400 --> 00:15:45,560 Speaker 1: your mind. So my dietician taught me, She's like, we're 324 00:15:45,560 --> 00:15:47,320 Speaker 1: not going to weigh this week, it doesn't matter, Like 325 00:15:47,400 --> 00:15:49,160 Speaker 1: do you feel good? And I'd be like, yeah, I 326 00:15:49,200 --> 00:15:52,520 Speaker 1: feel great. Yeah, And that's how we do it. And 327 00:15:52,600 --> 00:15:56,400 Speaker 1: she's just so good. She also specializes with like teenagers 328 00:15:56,560 --> 00:15:59,200 Speaker 1: or anyone with a eating disorder. Um. But she told 329 00:15:59,240 --> 00:16:01,840 Speaker 1: me to that like a ten year old boy came 330 00:16:01,880 --> 00:16:07,000 Speaker 1: in with like anorexia, Like it's it's kind of spiking 331 00:16:07,080 --> 00:16:10,920 Speaker 1: again and I think it's social media and it's heartbreaking. 332 00:16:11,000 --> 00:16:14,120 Speaker 1: But she's like having her specialized in that too really 333 00:16:14,120 --> 00:16:17,120 Speaker 1: helps me out because she makes sure like are you happy, 334 00:16:17,200 --> 00:16:20,080 Speaker 1: are you talking to your therapists? Is everything okay? How 335 00:16:20,160 --> 00:16:22,880 Speaker 1: is your week been? So she changed my life. Her 336 00:16:22,920 --> 00:16:27,240 Speaker 1: name is Christie Christie. She changed my life forever and 337 00:16:27,360 --> 00:16:30,680 Speaker 1: changed my bad habits. I wasn't taking care of myself 338 00:16:30,680 --> 00:16:32,840 Speaker 1: and now I am that's so important and it's it's 339 00:16:32,880 --> 00:16:35,760 Speaker 1: really hard to get yourself to that point to fully 340 00:16:35,800 --> 00:16:38,320 Speaker 1: love yourself. And I feel like we're also on that journey. 341 00:16:38,640 --> 00:16:41,240 Speaker 1: What advice do you have for little tips and tricks 342 00:16:41,320 --> 00:16:45,320 Speaker 1: to get through the day to stay more positive and confident? Oh? Man, 343 00:16:45,480 --> 00:16:47,920 Speaker 1: I have I've heard so many things, but I mean 344 00:16:48,120 --> 00:16:50,800 Speaker 1: self talk, like being positive. I know it's hard, but 345 00:16:50,920 --> 00:16:53,760 Speaker 1: so hard. The more negative, the negative you are, like, 346 00:16:53,840 --> 00:16:56,880 Speaker 1: the more your brain heres that like fourteen thousand times 347 00:16:56,920 --> 00:17:00,000 Speaker 1: over and over again, so you're just bullying yourself. Um. 348 00:17:00,040 --> 00:17:02,960 Speaker 1: And my therapist had me look in the mirror for 349 00:17:03,000 --> 00:17:06,639 Speaker 1: five minutes a day naked and just look at myself, 350 00:17:06,680 --> 00:17:09,000 Speaker 1: and I was like, I hate this, Like it was 351 00:17:09,000 --> 00:17:11,640 Speaker 1: the hardest. Day one was the hardest thing ever. Day 352 00:17:11,680 --> 00:17:17,560 Speaker 1: three I was like, huh, yeah, you start, it starts 353 00:17:17,600 --> 00:17:20,880 Speaker 1: turning and you see the that it's working. So Um, 354 00:17:21,920 --> 00:17:24,600 Speaker 1: it's all starts with you working on yourself and it's 355 00:17:24,720 --> 00:17:26,480 Speaker 1: very hard to do, but it's a thing. I'm working 356 00:17:26,480 --> 00:17:29,080 Speaker 1: on it every day. That sounds like what I used 357 00:17:29,080 --> 00:17:32,760 Speaker 1: to do exposure therapy, where it's essentially just doing your 358 00:17:32,800 --> 00:17:36,000 Speaker 1: biggest fears and then just going straight into it. And 359 00:17:36,119 --> 00:17:40,200 Speaker 1: it's a fact Oprah Toppy that one. Yeah, whatever scares 360 00:17:40,240 --> 00:17:42,960 Speaker 1: you, you you should probably do it, like okay, And I 361 00:17:43,040 --> 00:17:45,320 Speaker 1: had to do a TV show right after I gave birth. 362 00:17:45,400 --> 00:17:49,480 Speaker 1: I had like, um three months off and which is 363 00:17:49,520 --> 00:17:51,399 Speaker 1: like the normal of what they have now because America 364 00:17:51,480 --> 00:17:53,800 Speaker 1: is crazy. But I was like, I'm gonna be on 365 00:17:53,880 --> 00:17:57,240 Speaker 1: television that like gains ten pounds no matter what. And 366 00:17:57,320 --> 00:17:59,400 Speaker 1: it was a food program, so I had to eat 367 00:17:59,400 --> 00:18:01,159 Speaker 1: food all day. Top set failed me style to check 368 00:18:01,200 --> 00:18:04,040 Speaker 1: it out, and I'm like, I was like pumping during 369 00:18:04,080 --> 00:18:06,399 Speaker 1: breaks and then I was like eating their food and 370 00:18:06,400 --> 00:18:08,800 Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I was really on a like 371 00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:11,280 Speaker 1: on on a program and I was really looking forward 372 00:18:11,280 --> 00:18:13,560 Speaker 1: to not doing this. But I'm the only woman in 373 00:18:13,640 --> 00:18:16,840 Speaker 1: history who's lost weight on that show. Because it's all 374 00:18:16,840 --> 00:18:19,199 Speaker 1: about moderation. That's what that show taught me, is like 375 00:18:19,200 --> 00:18:21,200 Speaker 1: I can eat whatever I want as long as it's whittle. 376 00:18:21,520 --> 00:18:26,400 Speaker 1: That's a fun fact. Fun fact. Yeah, everything moderation. Yeah. Well, 377 00:18:26,440 --> 00:18:28,840 Speaker 1: actually on set, it was like all women and they 378 00:18:28,840 --> 00:18:30,800 Speaker 1: were so they took care of me, and one was 379 00:18:30,840 --> 00:18:33,560 Speaker 1: pregnant like literally every day. I was like, oh girl, 380 00:18:33,680 --> 00:18:38,439 Speaker 1: you're a hero. Okay, let's take a quick break, but 381 00:18:38,440 --> 00:18:40,520 Speaker 1: when we come back, I'm going to talk about being 382 00:18:40,520 --> 00:18:43,199 Speaker 1: a woman in America these days, all the different thousands 383 00:18:43,200 --> 00:18:46,000 Speaker 1: of music you're bringing in your new album, how hard 384 00:18:46,040 --> 00:18:48,679 Speaker 1: but beneficial it is, cutting out toxic relationships out of 385 00:18:48,680 --> 00:18:51,120 Speaker 1: your life, and so much more. We'll be right fact 386 00:18:56,200 --> 00:18:59,920 Speaker 1: and we're back. It's really hard to be a woman nowadays, 387 00:19:00,720 --> 00:19:03,679 Speaker 1: especially in America, And I just want to thank you 388 00:19:03,760 --> 00:19:08,520 Speaker 1: also for posting and talking on social media about what's 389 00:19:08,560 --> 00:19:11,720 Speaker 1: happening with the Supreme Court and Ruby Wade, because it's 390 00:19:12,240 --> 00:19:14,160 Speaker 1: more people should talk about it, and it's a really 391 00:19:14,160 --> 00:19:16,639 Speaker 1: hard thing. So thank you for saying something. I know. 392 00:19:16,840 --> 00:19:20,160 Speaker 1: Thank you. Thank you for saying that I got a lot. 393 00:19:20,280 --> 00:19:22,119 Speaker 1: I don't get a lot of hate comments or I 394 00:19:22,119 --> 00:19:24,560 Speaker 1: don't look for them, but that one I got a 395 00:19:24,600 --> 00:19:29,080 Speaker 1: lot of nasty stuff. And it's not even like hate comments. 396 00:19:29,119 --> 00:19:31,080 Speaker 1: This this ship was evil. It was like, well, at 397 00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:32,919 Speaker 1: least you didn't abort your beautiful song. And I was like, 398 00:19:32,960 --> 00:19:35,960 Speaker 1: oh my goodness. So I turned off the comments and 399 00:19:36,080 --> 00:19:38,240 Speaker 1: life is much better. But at that day, I was 400 00:19:38,280 --> 00:19:40,520 Speaker 1: releasing my song that day, so I was like, oh, 401 00:19:40,600 --> 00:19:43,520 Speaker 1: this sucks, you know, And I wanted to make sure 402 00:19:43,520 --> 00:19:45,320 Speaker 1: I wasn't posting about me, and then I was like, 403 00:19:45,400 --> 00:19:49,400 Speaker 1: I really have to say something, and this is terrible, 404 00:19:49,680 --> 00:19:51,560 Speaker 1: and it's We're supposed to be land of the free 405 00:19:51,600 --> 00:19:53,720 Speaker 1: and it doesn't feel like it. It really doesn't. I 406 00:19:53,760 --> 00:19:56,480 Speaker 1: did a post it's scary to be a woman. But 407 00:19:56,720 --> 00:19:59,560 Speaker 1: hopefully by having these conversations and talking about it, we 408 00:19:59,640 --> 00:20:03,280 Speaker 1: can change the stigma that I don't know where it 409 00:20:03,359 --> 00:20:06,800 Speaker 1: came from. Yeah, it's like we're going backwards. I don't 410 00:20:06,840 --> 00:20:10,040 Speaker 1: get it. I'm in college right now, and I'm very 411 00:20:10,080 --> 00:20:14,200 Speaker 1: scared and just I'm an anxious person, but like adding 412 00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:17,480 Speaker 1: the social aspect and knowing that my rights aren't secured. 413 00:20:17,520 --> 00:20:21,600 Speaker 1: Its like in some places, like birth control is being 414 00:20:21,600 --> 00:20:25,000 Speaker 1: taken away, and it's like there's so many medical reasons 415 00:20:25,000 --> 00:20:27,800 Speaker 1: why we need all these things and they're not thinking 416 00:20:27,840 --> 00:20:31,040 Speaker 1: about that. It's very, very frustrating. And my friend and 417 00:20:31,080 --> 00:20:33,080 Speaker 1: I joke all the time, like should we go to Canada? 418 00:20:33,240 --> 00:20:36,080 Speaker 1: Like she would just late to go to Canada. Now 419 00:20:36,440 --> 00:20:39,639 Speaker 1: there's a dawn devout a house. Um yeah, but it's 420 00:20:39,680 --> 00:20:43,040 Speaker 1: scary and hopefully something good will happen because we're just 421 00:20:43,080 --> 00:20:46,040 Speaker 1: going the wrong way. Just to switch topics a little bit, 422 00:20:46,200 --> 00:20:48,680 Speaker 1: I have really noticed about your music and this next 423 00:20:48,680 --> 00:20:52,879 Speaker 1: album is you're changing up the style. You're just trying 424 00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:57,520 Speaker 1: out different styles, different dramas, and I love it, yes, ma'am. Yeah, 425 00:20:57,640 --> 00:21:00,879 Speaker 1: I was going really pop for a while there because 426 00:21:00,920 --> 00:21:04,000 Speaker 1: I love pop and I love this is still pop music. 427 00:21:04,000 --> 00:21:05,679 Speaker 1: But I did want to bring in my elements from 428 00:21:05,680 --> 00:21:08,200 Speaker 1: my first album. I keep telling people it's like title 429 00:21:08,240 --> 00:21:10,840 Speaker 1: two point oh um if title grew up, you know, 430 00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:14,159 Speaker 1: and it's so you'll hear like the duop vibes that 431 00:21:14,200 --> 00:21:17,840 Speaker 1: everyone loves. And I tried to go songwriting first, So 432 00:21:17,840 --> 00:21:21,080 Speaker 1: songs like Superwomen are very like people call my Dolly 433 00:21:21,119 --> 00:21:24,800 Speaker 1: parton song um, and that's I was really proud of 434 00:21:24,840 --> 00:21:27,520 Speaker 1: that because my whole life, like my favorite thing in 435 00:21:27,560 --> 00:21:30,840 Speaker 1: life is songwriting. So when I'm improving there, I'm like, oh, 436 00:21:30,880 --> 00:21:34,320 Speaker 1: I'm winning, you know, like I'm doing the best. Like yeah, 437 00:21:34,320 --> 00:21:37,399 Speaker 1: I like the practice finally made it through, you know. 438 00:21:37,680 --> 00:21:41,040 Speaker 1: And so these songs are very powerful and I think 439 00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:44,240 Speaker 1: my best songwriting yet. I know it too because I've 440 00:21:44,280 --> 00:21:47,240 Speaker 1: experienced life more and I think there there's that balance 441 00:21:47,280 --> 00:21:49,800 Speaker 1: where to write about life you have to experience it 442 00:21:49,880 --> 00:21:52,280 Speaker 1: and not just focus on writing. So what has that 443 00:21:52,320 --> 00:21:55,240 Speaker 1: process been to not focus on like if the song 444 00:21:55,320 --> 00:21:58,320 Speaker 1: is going to be vial, but focus on improving the 445 00:21:58,400 --> 00:22:01,640 Speaker 1: writing and becoming the best art is for yourself. Yeah, 446 00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:03,639 Speaker 1: I think the best part about writing a whole album 447 00:22:03,640 --> 00:22:06,760 Speaker 1: and a project is that you can You can't have 448 00:22:06,920 --> 00:22:09,720 Speaker 1: songs like what it's really because I have a platform. 449 00:22:09,760 --> 00:22:11,680 Speaker 1: It's like what do I want to say? And then 450 00:22:11,720 --> 00:22:13,280 Speaker 1: being a mom, I was like, well, I want to say, 451 00:22:13,320 --> 00:22:16,880 Speaker 1: like this is hard and like and everyone was interviewing 452 00:22:16,920 --> 00:22:18,400 Speaker 1: me at the time and they're like, you're still positive, 453 00:22:18,440 --> 00:22:20,760 Speaker 1: it's so happy and you're like, how do you do it? 454 00:22:20,760 --> 00:22:22,480 Speaker 1: You're so confident, And I was like, no, dude, I 455 00:22:22,600 --> 00:22:25,520 Speaker 1: write these songs because I'm just in my head, like 456 00:22:25,640 --> 00:22:29,399 Speaker 1: I see a therapist every week. I'm on antidepressants, Like 457 00:22:29,560 --> 00:22:33,520 Speaker 1: I'm I'm here and I'm working my booty on working 458 00:22:33,560 --> 00:22:36,320 Speaker 1: on it. I'm working on it, but you gotta work 459 00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:38,919 Speaker 1: on it. And that's My songs are my therapy. Like 460 00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:42,560 Speaker 1: my songs are me admitting like not everything is perfect 461 00:22:42,560 --> 00:22:45,480 Speaker 1: over here, you know, um, especially bad for me. I 462 00:22:45,520 --> 00:22:47,040 Speaker 1: didn't know that would be a single. I didn't know 463 00:22:47,040 --> 00:22:50,000 Speaker 1: that the first that's like a real personal thing that's 464 00:22:50,000 --> 00:22:52,480 Speaker 1: happening in my family that my family members are like, 465 00:22:52,560 --> 00:22:55,800 Speaker 1: that's going first. I'm like, it's like I was just 466 00:22:55,840 --> 00:22:58,400 Speaker 1: trying to work through something that her. I'm just trying 467 00:22:58,440 --> 00:23:03,239 Speaker 1: to cope over here, I'm just coping. So yeah, this 468 00:23:03,280 --> 00:23:06,000 Speaker 1: album had a lot of heart, and I think like 469 00:23:06,040 --> 00:23:08,040 Speaker 1: the last song on the album, called Final Breath is 470 00:23:08,640 --> 00:23:13,280 Speaker 1: literally um the movie The Notebook, because I tell Darryl, like, 471 00:23:13,320 --> 00:23:15,760 Speaker 1: that's how we're gonna die, like holding hands in bed Old. 472 00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:19,640 Speaker 1: That's so bittersweet and romantic at the same time. Yeah. Yeah, 473 00:23:19,760 --> 00:23:23,600 Speaker 1: So I have an impending doom fear of death. So 474 00:23:23,840 --> 00:23:28,119 Speaker 1: that's the album for sure. Oh yeah, yeah, I've always 475 00:23:28,119 --> 00:23:31,920 Speaker 1: been terrified. It's the unknown of it. It's the unknowing. 476 00:23:32,720 --> 00:23:35,360 Speaker 1: I'm going to like, I'm going to a haunted mansion 477 00:23:36,160 --> 00:23:38,199 Speaker 1: with the podcast at the end of this month to 478 00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:40,080 Speaker 1: hopefully see a ghost so that I know I could 479 00:23:40,119 --> 00:23:41,920 Speaker 1: stick around after I pass, you know what I mean, 480 00:23:42,480 --> 00:23:45,160 Speaker 1: And I want to know that I could still chill 481 00:23:45,200 --> 00:23:48,840 Speaker 1: with my kids. Do you believe in ghosts? I want 482 00:23:48,880 --> 00:23:50,840 Speaker 1: you so bad. I just haven't seen one, but I 483 00:23:50,880 --> 00:23:53,520 Speaker 1: love watching the videos online. I'm like, I might be real, 484 00:23:53,880 --> 00:23:57,359 Speaker 1: you know, I'm like skeptical, but I'm like, but like, 485 00:23:57,520 --> 00:24:00,240 Speaker 1: if it were real, that'd be pretty crazy. I'm like, 486 00:24:00,359 --> 00:24:02,960 Speaker 1: that's so wonderful to know that I get chilly here 487 00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:08,840 Speaker 1: and haunt everyone. Yeah, that's what I'm hoping for. Manifest, Manifest, Manifest, Manifest, Manifest, 488 00:24:08,920 --> 00:24:12,480 Speaker 1: Hunt Forever do you manifest? I guess so, but not 489 00:24:12,560 --> 00:24:16,199 Speaker 1: like intentionally, like wake up. Yeah. I'll say stuff like 490 00:24:17,119 --> 00:24:18,960 Speaker 1: we're gonna write a book one day, you know, and 491 00:24:18,960 --> 00:24:21,600 Speaker 1: then I'm doing it, or like we're gonna have four kids, 492 00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:24,800 Speaker 1: four kids for kids, you know that's gonna happen. I'm 493 00:24:24,800 --> 00:24:26,800 Speaker 1: always I want twins too, so I get a two 494 00:24:26,800 --> 00:24:29,400 Speaker 1: for one deal and I'm like, damn, we're gonna have twins. 495 00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:30,960 Speaker 1: And I already had a C section. So there's like 496 00:24:30,960 --> 00:24:33,439 Speaker 1: a target like my head. Just open it right back up. 497 00:24:33,720 --> 00:24:36,840 Speaker 1: We'll get him out safely, you know. So that's a dream. 498 00:24:37,240 --> 00:24:39,439 Speaker 1: Something that I really love about the song Bad for 499 00:24:39,480 --> 00:24:41,400 Speaker 1: Me is how honest it is. There are so few 500 00:24:41,400 --> 00:24:44,679 Speaker 1: songs that talk about the hard stuff, the hard stuff 501 00:24:44,680 --> 00:24:47,320 Speaker 1: and the toxicity that relationships can form. And just because 502 00:24:47,359 --> 00:24:50,040 Speaker 1: it was amazing at one point doesn't mean that it's 503 00:24:50,080 --> 00:24:52,720 Speaker 1: still meant to go on. Do you struggle with that? Also? 504 00:24:53,119 --> 00:24:56,480 Speaker 1: Cutting relationships if it gets a little toxic. Oh my god. Yeah, 505 00:24:56,600 --> 00:24:58,359 Speaker 1: I've got it from my mom. Wh just I feel 506 00:24:58,440 --> 00:25:00,520 Speaker 1: so bad. We were in therapy yesterday. I dragged my 507 00:25:00,560 --> 00:25:03,320 Speaker 1: mom to therapy and she was like, you guys, feel 508 00:25:03,359 --> 00:25:06,240 Speaker 1: like you're responsible for everyone's feelings huh. And I was 509 00:25:06,280 --> 00:25:11,280 Speaker 1: like yeah, ding ding ding, like I have to make 510 00:25:11,280 --> 00:25:14,760 Speaker 1: sure everyone's happy and like and my mom is the 511 00:25:14,800 --> 00:25:17,280 Speaker 1: same way, so I got it from her. Um, She's like, 512 00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:21,160 Speaker 1: you're not really responsible for everyone's happiness, right, Like it's 513 00:25:21,200 --> 00:25:23,840 Speaker 1: not up to you. And I was like, oh, so, 514 00:25:24,320 --> 00:25:27,680 Speaker 1: like yeah, this situation when you have a family member, 515 00:25:27,680 --> 00:25:30,520 Speaker 1: it's so hard because I've cut off friends and I've 516 00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:33,000 Speaker 1: seen the benefits and like seeing, oh my god, life 517 00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:37,600 Speaker 1: is so much easier, um and better and um I 518 00:25:37,600 --> 00:25:40,320 Speaker 1: think like Meryl Streep said something like that, like if 519 00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:42,920 Speaker 1: they're toxic, then they need to be out of your life. 520 00:25:42,920 --> 00:25:44,120 Speaker 1: And I was like, I'll do what every say Meryl 521 00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:47,959 Speaker 1: Streep and oprah, Um, there's just like soul suckers, you know. 522 00:25:48,520 --> 00:25:51,760 Speaker 1: But um, when it's family, it's harder, man, because they're 523 00:25:51,760 --> 00:25:55,199 Speaker 1: not chosen and they're they're like they're blood and you 524 00:25:55,240 --> 00:25:58,240 Speaker 1: have to see them every Christmas and and it's really 525 00:25:58,240 --> 00:26:01,720 Speaker 1: difficult to try to ask them like, Okay, this isn't 526 00:26:01,720 --> 00:26:04,879 Speaker 1: good for me. We need space or we need time, 527 00:26:05,600 --> 00:26:08,280 Speaker 1: especially when you write out a beautiful letter and get 528 00:26:08,280 --> 00:26:12,720 Speaker 1: no response. Like that really sucked, but it it told 529 00:26:12,760 --> 00:26:14,359 Speaker 1: me like what I'm doing is right, you know, like 530 00:26:14,400 --> 00:26:17,000 Speaker 1: when they show who they are, that's who they are, 531 00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:20,480 Speaker 1: believe them. I went through that and I wrote a 532 00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:22,240 Speaker 1: letter to a family member a few months ago, and 533 00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:24,840 Speaker 1: I never sent it. Really I did because I knew 534 00:26:25,040 --> 00:26:27,679 Speaker 1: there was going to be no response, So I just 535 00:26:27,720 --> 00:26:30,680 Speaker 1: wrote it and I got all the closure from that. 536 00:26:30,920 --> 00:26:33,480 Speaker 1: You know what I have? My team is so smart. 537 00:26:33,520 --> 00:26:36,760 Speaker 1: They did this honestly. Um they made a website for me, 538 00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:39,800 Speaker 1: a campaign for the song. My therapist told me to 539 00:26:39,920 --> 00:26:42,760 Speaker 1: dot co or you can literally go write an anonymous 540 00:26:42,840 --> 00:26:47,199 Speaker 1: letter and just like blasted out. That's amazing, so smart. 541 00:26:47,200 --> 00:26:52,720 Speaker 1: I was like, we have to take one more quick break, 542 00:26:52,720 --> 00:26:54,480 Speaker 1: but when we come back, I want to talk about 543 00:26:54,480 --> 00:26:58,280 Speaker 1: how therapist impacted your life, your marriage and going back 544 00:26:58,280 --> 00:27:07,040 Speaker 1: on tour. We'll be right back and we're back. How 545 00:27:07,040 --> 00:27:10,960 Speaker 1: long have you been in therapy? A couple of years now. 546 00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:13,400 Speaker 1: But I got a new therapist that like because that's 547 00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:15,080 Speaker 1: the thing. If you have one bad therapy session, you 548 00:27:15,160 --> 00:27:17,800 Speaker 1: just like I hate it. My family and my parents 549 00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:19,960 Speaker 1: are in that generation where they're like, I don't need therapy. 550 00:27:20,000 --> 00:27:22,680 Speaker 1: I'm not crazy. I'm like, you need so much therapy. 551 00:27:22,720 --> 00:27:26,640 Speaker 1: It's insane if you're saying that you need therapy. Yeah, exactly. 552 00:27:27,080 --> 00:27:29,800 Speaker 1: So I got this therapist though that specializes in like 553 00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:34,240 Speaker 1: moms who work and who are famous too, So I 554 00:27:34,280 --> 00:27:38,960 Speaker 1: got the Jackpod. Like yeah, she but other than that, 555 00:27:39,080 --> 00:27:42,000 Speaker 1: she's like she's such a genius. Everything she asked me 556 00:27:42,080 --> 00:27:45,400 Speaker 1: questions like nobody does that in therapy. She's like when 557 00:27:45,440 --> 00:27:47,879 Speaker 1: she asked me, like, wow, that's that's crazy. Are you 558 00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:50,800 Speaker 1: responsible for everyone's happiness and like their life and how 559 00:27:50,840 --> 00:27:56,159 Speaker 1: they turn out? Like it's like maybe, I'm like, but 560 00:27:56,280 --> 00:27:58,720 Speaker 1: I could be, but I don't know. Yeah, she's good. 561 00:27:59,119 --> 00:28:00,840 Speaker 1: I'm in a new thing is where I'm like, I'm 562 00:28:00,840 --> 00:28:04,760 Speaker 1: looking for a therapist. It's hard. It's like dating. It 563 00:28:04,840 --> 00:28:06,880 Speaker 1: is like dating, and that was I'm having no luck 564 00:28:06,880 --> 00:28:11,480 Speaker 1: in that area either because I have you will I promise. 565 00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:14,760 Speaker 1: I heard bumble is really good. I heard bumbles great. 566 00:28:14,920 --> 00:28:20,320 Speaker 1: I've tried core stories. Also, like there's still that the 567 00:28:20,640 --> 00:28:23,080 Speaker 1: if your friend knows someone that works that works for me. 568 00:28:23,520 --> 00:28:24,679 Speaker 1: I asked my friend. I was like, do you know 569 00:28:24,720 --> 00:28:26,720 Speaker 1: any guys who are like really nice? I just want 570 00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:28,919 Speaker 1: a nice guy. And then I met him. Was like, 571 00:28:28,920 --> 00:28:31,560 Speaker 1: we're getting married. I love that story. How long have 572 00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:34,720 Speaker 1: you been married for? Now? We've known each other now, 573 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:37,840 Speaker 1: we dated started six years ago. We had just had 574 00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:43,360 Speaker 1: our date anniversary July one, and um, we've been married 575 00:28:43,400 --> 00:28:46,520 Speaker 1: for three years now. How's how's the marriage life? Is 576 00:28:46,520 --> 00:28:49,000 Speaker 1: it different than you saw? No, it's like exactly what 577 00:28:49,040 --> 00:28:51,040 Speaker 1: I thought. It's amazing. But it's better than I thought 578 00:28:51,080 --> 00:28:53,040 Speaker 1: it would be. I thought I'd marry like some douche 579 00:28:53,080 --> 00:28:55,840 Speaker 1: and I'd have to train him. But he's such a 580 00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:58,040 Speaker 1: softy and he's so emotional and it's so good for 581 00:28:58,120 --> 00:29:02,360 Speaker 1: us because he like cares extra Like on Mother's Day, 582 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:03,880 Speaker 1: he wrote me a card and then he'll write a 583 00:29:03,920 --> 00:29:07,240 Speaker 1: card from Riley Like he's he's a softie. He's really 584 00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:10,240 Speaker 1: really cute, and he would write before had babies, he'd 585 00:29:10,280 --> 00:29:12,480 Speaker 1: write every card from my dogs. It's like I have 586 00:29:12,520 --> 00:29:14,120 Speaker 1: Mother's Day, mom, we love you, things to take care 587 00:29:14,160 --> 00:29:16,640 Speaker 1: of us. I was like, yeah, he's one of those 588 00:29:16,760 --> 00:29:18,760 Speaker 1: so like but now I feel like I have to 589 00:29:19,040 --> 00:29:21,760 Speaker 1: preach to the world, like don't settle. There's really good 590 00:29:21,800 --> 00:29:24,440 Speaker 1: men out there, you know. It's hard. I feel like 591 00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:28,320 Speaker 1: something that has blown my mind at college is that 592 00:29:28,480 --> 00:29:33,040 Speaker 1: people only, at least what I've experienced, ask for Snapchat. 593 00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:36,880 Speaker 1: Where did phone numbers go? That's so weird, And they 594 00:29:36,920 --> 00:29:41,360 Speaker 1: don't even everything is on snap text or Snapchat, and 595 00:29:41,520 --> 00:29:43,840 Speaker 1: no conversations are just photos. I'm like, I don't want 596 00:29:43,840 --> 00:29:47,080 Speaker 1: to see your face. I'm not even on stampchat again. 597 00:29:47,080 --> 00:29:49,440 Speaker 1: I gotta get back on there. I feel like social 598 00:29:49,440 --> 00:29:53,280 Speaker 1: media's ruined, ruined, ruined dating because my older brother, he's 599 00:29:53,280 --> 00:29:55,600 Speaker 1: like almost thirty, and he's with his friends and his 600 00:29:55,680 --> 00:29:57,440 Speaker 1: friends like, oh my god, that girl is so beautiful, 601 00:29:57,560 --> 00:29:59,800 Speaker 1: Like I would do anything to date her, and he's like, 602 00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:02,520 Speaker 1: gotta say hi, and he's like, what, I can't talk 603 00:30:02,600 --> 00:30:05,000 Speaker 1: to her in person. It's like, I'll just like find 604 00:30:05,000 --> 00:30:07,560 Speaker 1: her on Instagram. I was like, Ryan's like, oh, no, 605 00:30:09,120 --> 00:30:11,480 Speaker 1: go for in person over a d M always just 606 00:30:11,640 --> 00:30:14,040 Speaker 1: d m R. Yeah. That's one of the things about 607 00:30:14,080 --> 00:30:16,840 Speaker 1: social media where I find if I'm on it for 608 00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:19,240 Speaker 1: too long, I need to get off. Yeah, we take 609 00:30:19,280 --> 00:30:22,160 Speaker 1: breaks for sure. Something else that I want to talk 610 00:30:22,160 --> 00:30:24,120 Speaker 1: to you about is that I know you've written songs 611 00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:25,600 Speaker 1: for so many artists. We talked about this in the 612 00:30:25,680 --> 00:30:28,320 Speaker 1: last episode. I was very curious to know. Is the 613 00:30:28,360 --> 00:30:31,000 Speaker 1: songwriting process when you're writing for someone else, how does 614 00:30:31,000 --> 00:30:35,760 Speaker 1: it differ from when you're writing for yourself. It's always different. Um, 615 00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:39,040 Speaker 1: recently I've been writing for uh. I don't know if 616 00:30:39,040 --> 00:30:41,320 Speaker 1: I'm allowed to say this, screw it. I've been writing 617 00:30:41,320 --> 00:30:44,440 Speaker 1: for Judges Siwa and she's my friend, so it's different 618 00:30:44,480 --> 00:30:47,400 Speaker 1: that way where she's like like she comes over to 619 00:30:47,440 --> 00:30:49,240 Speaker 1: my house and we have a full session and she 620 00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:52,400 Speaker 1: gives me ideas and she writes with me. So like 621 00:30:52,480 --> 00:30:55,080 Speaker 1: in that world, I'm writing with the artists. But in 622 00:30:55,160 --> 00:30:58,640 Speaker 1: other worlds, I'll have songs that are just banked that 623 00:30:59,080 --> 00:31:01,640 Speaker 1: didn't really make sense with my album, and I have 624 00:31:01,680 --> 00:31:05,120 Speaker 1: a bunch of extra ones um and but some are 625 00:31:05,160 --> 00:31:07,600 Speaker 1: so special and they're like, oh God, that needs a home, 626 00:31:07,760 --> 00:31:10,440 Speaker 1: and we always say, like that needs a really good home, 627 00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:14,120 Speaker 1: so um, we'll pitch stuff like that. Or the producers 628 00:31:14,120 --> 00:31:16,920 Speaker 1: I've written with who have those songs that aren't out there, 629 00:31:16,920 --> 00:31:21,680 Speaker 1: like can we pitch them? So I have like I think, um, 630 00:31:21,720 --> 00:31:23,640 Speaker 1: a K pop girl I think is about to cut 631 00:31:23,640 --> 00:31:25,960 Speaker 1: one of my extra songs that I had. I'm like, yes, 632 00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:29,880 Speaker 1: more home for them to go to. Yeah, it's so random, 633 00:31:29,960 --> 00:31:32,440 Speaker 1: and it's my dreams to write for more artists. So 634 00:31:32,920 --> 00:31:36,360 Speaker 1: my team was like, this time around, let's let's write 635 00:31:36,360 --> 00:31:38,520 Speaker 1: for you and then let's get take more sessions and 636 00:31:38,640 --> 00:31:40,000 Speaker 1: just write for the artists. I was like, I would 637 00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:42,440 Speaker 1: love to who's your dream artist to write for? It 638 00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:44,680 Speaker 1: could be great for any artists right now, dead or alive. 639 00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:47,360 Speaker 1: Who would it be? Well? Nowadays, I just want to 640 00:31:47,360 --> 00:31:49,280 Speaker 1: write a song with Ed Shearon because I think it'd 641 00:31:49,280 --> 00:31:52,440 Speaker 1: be some medical and Britta mars Um. I would love 642 00:31:52,520 --> 00:31:55,320 Speaker 1: to write a pop banger for Dualipa. I feel like 643 00:31:55,360 --> 00:32:00,920 Speaker 1: they'd be easy and fun um and who else I love? 644 00:32:01,960 --> 00:32:05,360 Speaker 1: I love Tate the new artist. Am I saying that right? Yeah? 645 00:32:05,720 --> 00:32:09,040 Speaker 1: Tate McRae, Kate McGray, she was on the plodcast. She's 646 00:32:09,320 --> 00:32:12,560 Speaker 1: so cool. I want to write for her. She's so cool. 647 00:32:12,960 --> 00:32:15,040 Speaker 1: If anyone wants to sing my songs, that's a dream. 648 00:32:15,400 --> 00:32:19,360 Speaker 1: When you're writing for like your friends versus just having artists, 649 00:32:19,360 --> 00:32:22,680 Speaker 1: how does that process differ. I'll just try to write 650 00:32:22,720 --> 00:32:24,440 Speaker 1: like made the best song win I'll just try to 651 00:32:24,440 --> 00:32:28,240 Speaker 1: write a really good song and then then we'll be like, oh, 652 00:32:28,360 --> 00:32:30,800 Speaker 1: this sounds like her, you know how like dual lipos 653 00:32:30,800 --> 00:32:32,560 Speaker 1: in that disco pop world. If I wrote a disco 654 00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:34,600 Speaker 1: pop song like let's pitch out to do a you know, 655 00:32:36,240 --> 00:32:40,120 Speaker 1: I would die to write like a Caribbean song for Rihanna, 656 00:32:40,400 --> 00:32:44,640 Speaker 1: like a reggae song, And that's my real dreams. I 657 00:32:44,680 --> 00:32:48,880 Speaker 1: just want to hear her lullabies that I know. I'm 658 00:32:48,920 --> 00:32:50,720 Speaker 1: trying to do a lulla by album too, like a 659 00:32:50,800 --> 00:32:54,720 Speaker 1: kid's music, because I've seen there's like the market small, 660 00:32:54,880 --> 00:32:57,600 Speaker 1: you know, for these kids have the perfect voice for 661 00:32:57,720 --> 00:33:00,200 Speaker 1: it too, I know. And then I can make little 662 00:33:00,240 --> 00:33:02,960 Speaker 1: YouTube videos and be like, Hi, we're gonna sing this 663 00:33:03,040 --> 00:33:07,200 Speaker 1: song today. You can get like little calming bird animations 664 00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:11,160 Speaker 1: of just like I'd be like, that's mama, I think 665 00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:13,280 Speaker 1: this needs to happen, and you're right them. I haven't 666 00:33:13,440 --> 00:33:17,240 Speaker 1: heard of many like lullaby albums. Um, what's her name? 667 00:33:17,520 --> 00:33:19,160 Speaker 1: One girl did it and she did great, The girl 668 00:33:19,200 --> 00:33:24,000 Speaker 1: who Sings A a thousand years. I loved you for those. 669 00:33:25,640 --> 00:33:29,800 Speaker 1: Christina Perry. Christina Parry, she did an amazing kids lullabye 670 00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:32,600 Speaker 1: album that was really beautiful. So I gotta try to 671 00:33:32,640 --> 00:33:35,320 Speaker 1: talk back. No, I gotta try to listen to that 672 00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:37,960 Speaker 1: and take notes, because she nailed it with this entail 673 00:33:38,160 --> 00:33:41,200 Speaker 1: writing like children's songs are going off. I want to 674 00:33:41,240 --> 00:33:43,760 Speaker 1: see she did like great covers too, but I want 675 00:33:43,760 --> 00:33:48,320 Speaker 1: to do like originals, like I'm sick of um ashes 676 00:33:48,520 --> 00:33:52,200 Speaker 1: ashes we all fall down, so dark, all these things 677 00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:55,600 Speaker 1: are so dark. And the rockabye baby, like when the 678 00:33:55,680 --> 00:33:58,160 Speaker 1: tree has a crat old weld rock and the what 679 00:33:58,400 --> 00:34:01,320 Speaker 1: is the lyrics I've never heard when the bow bakes, 680 00:34:01,400 --> 00:34:05,840 Speaker 1: the cradle will fall and debil come baby quite Lyndall, Like, 681 00:34:05,920 --> 00:34:10,040 Speaker 1: what is scarier than that? Nothing? So I'm gonna rewrite them. 682 00:34:10,360 --> 00:34:12,719 Speaker 1: Why was that saying to us as a child that 683 00:34:12,760 --> 00:34:16,399 Speaker 1: we're going to It's terrific. There's a lot of really 684 00:34:16,440 --> 00:34:20,040 Speaker 1: scary ones, so I'm gonna try to rewrite those and 685 00:34:20,080 --> 00:34:22,400 Speaker 1: make them like pop. Would you ever write a musical? 686 00:34:23,120 --> 00:34:25,160 Speaker 1: I would love to, Yeah, my dream Dream Dream one 687 00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:27,200 Speaker 1: of my other bucket lists dreams besides writing, like all 688 00:34:27,200 --> 00:34:29,719 Speaker 1: the music to an animated film that I write is 689 00:34:30,320 --> 00:34:32,799 Speaker 1: not for then for it to go on Broadway, And 690 00:34:32,840 --> 00:34:34,640 Speaker 1: then I'm just like, wow, my songs are just playing 691 00:34:34,640 --> 00:34:36,799 Speaker 1: on Broadway, like, and I don't think I have the 692 00:34:37,440 --> 00:34:39,640 Speaker 1: strength to go do eight shows a night and starting 693 00:34:39,680 --> 00:34:41,799 Speaker 1: it myself. But I'd love to just be known as 694 00:34:41,840 --> 00:34:44,359 Speaker 1: like the songwriter, you know, kind of like a Sarah 695 00:34:44,400 --> 00:34:49,400 Speaker 1: Brella's waitress moment following I'm just right behind Sarah following 696 00:34:49,400 --> 00:34:53,360 Speaker 1: her would you ever read a children's book? Yes? After 697 00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:57,080 Speaker 1: my pregnancy book already got it. It's gonna have textures, dude, 698 00:34:57,160 --> 00:35:01,520 Speaker 1: I'm doing it all like you. The xtures. Yeah, that 699 00:35:01,640 --> 00:35:03,680 Speaker 1: those are the big hits that My kid only likes 700 00:35:03,680 --> 00:35:05,800 Speaker 1: those books and I don't know why because he can't 701 00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:09,920 Speaker 1: see poor kids, he felt. Now, does he have to 702 00:35:09,920 --> 00:35:12,640 Speaker 1: wear the eye patches? No, we skipped right over that, 703 00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:15,480 Speaker 1: I think because it's that bad um. And he just 704 00:35:15,560 --> 00:35:17,680 Speaker 1: wears his glasses and it took him like two days, 705 00:35:17,760 --> 00:35:20,080 Speaker 1: but now he wears them all the time if he 706 00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:22,839 Speaker 1: because he forgets they're on. They're so cute. To check 707 00:35:22,840 --> 00:35:24,600 Speaker 1: out my Instagram. I did a video of it. Oh 708 00:35:24,640 --> 00:35:29,239 Speaker 1: I saw. I very much saw heartbreaking with the red 709 00:35:29,320 --> 00:35:33,160 Speaker 1: hair and the blue glass. Oh yeah, oh yeah, they're 710 00:35:33,200 --> 00:35:35,200 Speaker 1: like turquoise see through. I was like, oh, this is 711 00:35:35,200 --> 00:35:39,240 Speaker 1: exactly what I wanted. Who picked out those glasses. Honestly, 712 00:35:39,239 --> 00:35:41,440 Speaker 1: they were the first ones we saw there and the 713 00:35:41,920 --> 00:35:44,920 Speaker 1: guy Michael his great. But I gotta go get like 714 00:35:44,960 --> 00:35:46,960 Speaker 1: eight more pair because we're gonna be on the cover 715 00:35:47,040 --> 00:35:48,920 Speaker 1: of magazine soon, so I need to get the anti 716 00:35:48,960 --> 00:35:51,520 Speaker 1: reflective ones. You know what I'm saying. Boys a star. 717 00:35:51,960 --> 00:35:54,359 Speaker 1: I used to have the transition glasses where they turned 718 00:35:54,400 --> 00:35:59,040 Speaker 1: into sunglasses when you go outside. See, that's sick. I 719 00:35:59,040 --> 00:36:01,480 Speaker 1: didn't know that was the thing. Goggles they're great. They 720 00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:03,640 Speaker 1: turn into sunglasses when you're outside, and they get dark 721 00:36:03,800 --> 00:36:05,920 Speaker 1: when you come back, and they get normal again. Tight tight, 722 00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,359 Speaker 1: tight tight. He's also like see through a pale. He's 723 00:36:08,440 --> 00:36:10,080 Speaker 1: so white, so when he goes in the sun, we're 724 00:36:10,080 --> 00:36:14,080 Speaker 1: like hat glasses cover. So I'm very curious. You have 725 00:36:14,160 --> 00:36:16,440 Speaker 1: the album coming out, you have the book. Are you 726 00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:19,280 Speaker 1: working on anything else for just for your creative self, 727 00:36:19,320 --> 00:36:22,000 Speaker 1: just to fill you. I eventually want a tour because 728 00:36:22,040 --> 00:36:24,000 Speaker 1: I haven't sang in front of a crowd and since 729 00:36:24,040 --> 00:36:27,640 Speaker 1: before COVID, so I would love to see everyone again. Um, 730 00:36:27,719 --> 00:36:29,360 Speaker 1: I'll have a baby this time, so it's going to 731 00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:32,520 Speaker 1: be a game changer. UM I do want to tour. 732 00:36:32,640 --> 00:36:35,759 Speaker 1: I think a will tour and then um, then I 733 00:36:35,880 --> 00:36:38,919 Speaker 1: want to get pregnant on tour the tour bus. Yes, 734 00:36:38,960 --> 00:36:42,560 Speaker 1: the tour bus. I will be pregnant, I hope. So yeah, 735 00:36:42,560 --> 00:36:44,560 Speaker 1: I'm gonna start trying like a day one of tour, 736 00:36:44,600 --> 00:36:46,400 Speaker 1: and we're like, we're gonna make a baby, you know. 737 00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:48,680 Speaker 1: So that's kind of great because he'd be like, you 738 00:36:48,719 --> 00:36:51,760 Speaker 1: were conceived in this city, period, and then we should 739 00:36:51,800 --> 00:36:54,520 Speaker 1: name them that city. Oh my god, I'm like Kim Kardassian. 740 00:36:55,000 --> 00:36:57,239 Speaker 1: Oh if you named him, Oh my god, if you 741 00:36:57,280 --> 00:37:03,280 Speaker 1: have your baby in Brooklyn, San Francisco, San Francisco, imagine 742 00:37:03,280 --> 00:37:08,719 Speaker 1: San Francisco. Thank you so much, Megan, this made my day. 743 00:37:08,719 --> 00:37:10,200 Speaker 1: I wish of you. I will literally do this whenever 744 00:37:10,239 --> 00:37:12,319 Speaker 1: you want. You just call me. Thank you so much. 745 00:37:12,360 --> 00:37:14,720 Speaker 1: All yeah, have me back anytime. I'm ready. Awesome