Speaker 1: What's up? Its lip service? Don't you heard me sing?
Speaker 1: Somebody saw me? Sonny, I'm just happening stops and I'm G. G.
Speaker 1: Maguire and we got Rica love here. We're just have
Speaker 1: an interesting conversation. Right before we started, I was saying,
Speaker 1: I'm so glad I didn't grow up with social media
Speaker 1: because I've probably had so many crazy pictures and I
Speaker 1: probably would have said crazy stuff on twitch exactly. I
Speaker 1: can't even imagine the nutship I would have been posting
Speaker 1: when I was a teenager. Jesus, we had tougher skin
Speaker 1: growing up too, Like we could deal with ridicule a
Speaker 1: little better. But I don't know if we would have
Speaker 1: been able to handle it if it was every second.
Speaker 1: Imagine a kid in the ninth grade who gets talked
Speaker 1: about the school and it's posted in hashtag every day
Speaker 1: and you got to go to school tomorrow. As an adult,
Speaker 1: as a successful adult, you can deal with people saying
Speaker 1: you're ugly in your whack and this this is that
Speaker 1: because you go home to a nice house, you know.
Speaker 1: But as a kid, you like, what am I going
Speaker 1: to do? Like they? And if you go viral, forget it?
Speaker 1: Oh you've done man. Imagine all the girls giving head
Speaker 1: in about to say vil. You know, we would have
Speaker 1: been filming that ship except that child pornography. I'm just saying,
Speaker 1: you know, I always say that I feel like they
Speaker 1: should teach courses now in school, make it like part
Speaker 1: of the curriculum about social media and like how not
Speaker 1: to use it and away campaigns, and they should in school,
Speaker 1: like they should be part of like because we didn't
Speaker 1: grow up with that, that's a whole different world. But
Speaker 1: they should tell people like this is inappropriate. How did
Speaker 1: this make you feel? Look at this story kind of
Speaker 1: like a warning to people, like what you shouldn't be posting,
Speaker 1: what you shouldn't be saying to return. You saw those
Speaker 1: students from Harvard that they had like a Facebook chat
Speaker 1: group and they were writing things in the chat group.
Speaker 1: They had just got accepted, so they were going to
Speaker 1: be like the class of UM and somebody reported them
Speaker 1: that was in the group, like one of the students
Speaker 1: that got in. It was like they're saying like racial things,
Speaker 1: They're saying like Nancy things, and they resended their offer
Speaker 1: letters and now they're not going to Harvard. When you see, now,
Speaker 1: since we're talking about that, let's talk about Derrick Rose
Speaker 1: for a second, now, Rico, I don't know if you've
Speaker 1: seen this story, but apparently his girlfriend they pulled up
Speaker 1: some of her old tweets, right, and she was saying
Speaker 1: things like I hate bald headed little black girls. And
Speaker 1: then she said, you can chase those little ugly black girls,
Speaker 1: and Elena just gonna sit here in the spotlight without you.
Speaker 1: And then she said, making over here, thinking of all
Speaker 1: the things that make black girls mad, I'm dying all
Speaker 1: the black bitches mad because his wife, Vanilla Taylor, and
Speaker 1: I made a whole list of ship we don't like
Speaker 1: in the number one thing was black people. L m
Speaker 1: f A out. Hold on, this is the girlfriend white?
Speaker 1: Now she is half white, but I don't know where
Speaker 1: her other has because I get I get lost. Her
Speaker 1: name is um Elna Anderson. And she actually deleted her
Speaker 1: Twitter and went private and everything after these old tweets
Speaker 1: resurfaced of what she was writing. Now, let's just say, um,
Speaker 1: this is from two eleven. It doesn't even matter how
Speaker 1: old it is years ago. How I mean, I guess
Speaker 1: I would have to know, but it doesn't even matter, Like,
Speaker 1: I don't understand how can someone like get it together,
Speaker 1: they'll fix their fingers to right. But surprised how many
Speaker 1: people feel that and think that that's insane. You can
Speaker 1: feel it and think it don't mean. What I'm saying
Speaker 1: is it's like a reality to them, So it's comfortable
Speaker 1: they have comfortable when I say how many? When you
Speaker 1: know that many people feel that way, you don't feel
Speaker 1: uncomfortable saying you know what I mean. It's just like
Speaker 1: with the whole political thing. Now. Used to be certain
Speaker 1: things off limits, Now that you feel like they're not,
Speaker 1: you feel comfortable saying whatever you want to say if
Speaker 1: you know that the masses agree with you. That's the
Speaker 1: only thing that makes things politically correct and incorrect is
Speaker 1: the fact that I fear that my feelings will be shunned.
Speaker 1: But when I feel like my feelings are, people agree
Speaker 1: with my feelings and I feel okay to say that.
Speaker 1: And so many people say that they did a study
Speaker 1: in the UK or did a question in the UK.
Speaker 1: When you're going out around acting, ran them young males
Speaker 1: in the UK like what type of girls they like?
Speaker 1: And it was like red bone, light skinned, big titties,
Speaker 1: no dockies, no no dog skins and no ship like that.
Speaker 1: You know, I just saw that on media take out.
Speaker 1: I'm like the only person in the whole world. Seriously,
Speaker 1: what do you think now, Like, say that happened to you,
Speaker 1: right you found out your girl had put put this
Speaker 1: up you didn't know, and now it goes viral. Would
Speaker 1: you feel like, man, I can't be with her anymore.
Speaker 1: It's a tough situation if you was already like be
Speaker 1: from one and it's easy out with you know what
Speaker 1: I know. But if you really love her, it's difficult
Speaker 1: because you think about it, if somebody you really loved us,
Speaker 1: some dumb ship back in the day, what are you
Speaker 1: going to penalize them for that you love them? Right now?
Speaker 1: So obviously when you break up and I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 1: you racist bitch, what do you feel the need to
Speaker 1: address it? Absolutely? And I would feel the need to
Speaker 1: her to address it together and we could be like, yo,
Speaker 1: you listen, just so y'all know I wasn't cool with that,
Speaker 1: you know, I you know, I let her know that
Speaker 1: I wasn't. That's not something I agree with and that's
Speaker 1: not something I find attractive at all. You know, I
Speaker 1: had to make a decision, like, yo, am I still
Speaker 1: gonna all the great things I love about her? Now
Speaker 1: am I going to penalize her for my mistakes? Then
Speaker 1: I gotta ask myself, what about everything I've said in
Speaker 1: my life? What if she held me accountable for all
Speaker 1: those things? And I've grown and matured as a person.
Speaker 1: I think we do have that right to grow mature
Speaker 1: as people, because I know some girls I grew up
Speaker 1: with who used to say some really fucked up about
Speaker 1: dawkskin people and dawskin girls now and I don't think
Speaker 1: they feel that way now. But that was the thing
Speaker 1: we changed. I think that was the normal. God, I've
Speaker 1: never felt like that. I never felt like I've never
Speaker 1: been I'm so glad you haven't. You know so a lot.
Speaker 1: I'm dog skin, so I know I had used to
Speaker 1: say that. People would be like, oh you just because
Speaker 1: you like skin and stuff like that. Shut up me.
Speaker 1: And we was just talking about this in the car.
Speaker 1: I think the most beau beautiful people are like darker
Speaker 1: like yeah. I think the we were just talking about
Speaker 1: is the fact that it can come in all types
Speaker 1: of different shades. And today, like I hate when people
Speaker 1: say like, oh, that's not my type. I feel like,
Speaker 1: what is the type? Like? Today you can see something
Speaker 1: beautiful in something that you that you thought before was obscure.
Speaker 1: So I think that to find beauty and things is
Speaker 1: the gift of life, is not to be able to
Speaker 1: limit yourself to this is what I like. So today
Speaker 1: I think today I can say that this is the
Speaker 1: most incredible moment I feel right now, right, and then
Speaker 1: tomorrow I can say wow, today, this moment now is
Speaker 1: trumps that one. So I can see something I think
Speaker 1: it's so beautiful, and then I could say later, you
Speaker 1: know what, I think that is the most beautiful thing
Speaker 1: I've ever seen, and I have the right to change it.
Speaker 1: And I think that's the gift of life, and the
Speaker 1: gift of love is to be able to say I
Speaker 1: have a limitless amount of you know, ability to like
Speaker 1: and love different things. That's two, because I to hate beards,
Speaker 1: and now I'm fine with it, but I hate I agree.
Speaker 1: I don't be like I don't like face your hair.
Speaker 1: I like it really clean cut guys. But now I'm like, okay,
Speaker 1: a bear could be right right, I feel. And I
Speaker 1: remember when guys would Dredd used to be really in
Speaker 1: and used to be like, okay, y'all. When I was younger,
Speaker 1: everybody wanted a boyfriend, the head dread, and then I
Speaker 1: was like, I don't know if I want a guy
Speaker 1: who was here as longer than mine. And then now
Speaker 1: everybody's baldet that all right, now we want to ask
Speaker 1: you about this. So I don't think this is a
Speaker 1: real story, but just and pertaining to you. They were
Speaker 1: putting out the story about offset and saying to him
Speaker 1: and Cardi b broke up because he tried to charge
Speaker 1: her two for a verse. Now I don't think that's true.
Speaker 1: But let's just say you're dating somebody, right and they're
Speaker 1: a singer, do you charge them for a track? Yeah,
Speaker 1: because they're not paying for this the company, and this
Speaker 1: is business. But if she's not signed, um who's funding her?
Speaker 1: If she's not funny, if nobody's funny and she ain't
Speaker 1: got nobody paying for it, didn't, I won't charge her.
Speaker 1: She has a label behind her. If she got a company,
Speaker 1: then that's a budget and they're gonna get you gotta
Speaker 1: understand about these companies they're gonna take. They're gonna say
Speaker 1: that you're not recouped anyway. So let's get this money.
Speaker 1: And if and if that's the case, if she, if
Speaker 1: I funk with her, and it's a budget in place, Yo,
Speaker 1: let's bust it down. They're gonna pay me sixty for
Speaker 1: a record. I buy you some veryrings of watching something.
Speaker 1: Let's do it. No. I I agree with what you're
Speaker 1: saying if the label is paying for but if it's not,
Speaker 1: like I think different. I did train this whole project, right.
Speaker 1: I didn't charge training nothing. That's my sister. I love her.
Speaker 1: But what I did was I just said, my guys,
Speaker 1: who did you know music and all that stuff, just
Speaker 1: give them pay them. And she was like, that's love.
Speaker 1: You're not gonna charge me your feet and she was
Speaker 1: really preparing herself and like I was putting the money
Speaker 1: to the side and like, no, no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: it's love. I'm gonna do this for the love and
Speaker 1: just makes you take care of my guys. So when
Speaker 1: you my people and I know that you're not being
Speaker 1: funded by somebody, like this is an independent girl who's
Speaker 1: working her own set, and I'm gonna be I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna charge her. That mean business. Why it's the back
Speaker 1: I want some back in though I want some nice
Speaker 1: What it means is that point I like to get.
Speaker 1: I like to get my favorites in other ways and say,
Speaker 1: all right, cool, I may need you for a look,
Speaker 1: or for a film or for this, and I want
Speaker 1: you to wave your feet the same way I wave mine.
Speaker 1: Or I might need you for in the parents. Just
Speaker 1: wave wave your feet the same way I wave mine.
Speaker 1: Let me make my money, because imagine if I let's
Speaker 1: say I do a host and I do a big
Speaker 1: concert or something, and I say, what, this person is
Speaker 1: worth this much, but I'm not gonna have to pay
Speaker 1: them that, and I'm gonna get all the money from that,
Speaker 1: then it's an even trade. Let's say I have a
Speaker 1: music conference. Yeah, exactly, exactly. You know what I'm talking about,
Speaker 1: what you do. But I always say put that out there.
Speaker 1: I always say business is always one hand, while she
Speaker 1: is the other, you know what. So definitely, Let's say
Speaker 1: you're dating a guy, right and he's an artist, and
Speaker 1: he's like, okay, I want you to be in my video.
Speaker 1: Are you like word quest this or is it free?
Speaker 1: I'm I'm sucking them. No, it's free. That's my baby.
Speaker 1: But if your budget and he's taking care of me,
Speaker 1: if he's if he's if he's somebody i'm dating, I'm
Speaker 1: sure you're not good all the time. He wants to
Speaker 1: do a video, it doesn't what I'm getting from exactly. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's what Okay. So what if he's like, you know what,
Speaker 1: I'm opening this club, I want you to come in
Speaker 1: and book some people and do this is and that
Speaker 1: you charge him. Oh, we'll see. In that case is
Speaker 1: business and I'm gonna need my find But yeah, but
Speaker 1: I think that this is how you play, even with
Speaker 1: the visual. If he's not paying for the visual directly,
Speaker 1: whoever is funding it, take that money and y'all split it.
Speaker 1: If that's the case, don't ever think in this game
Speaker 1: that this anything is not going to be or you
Speaker 1: save this money on this and you're not going to
Speaker 1: pay for they'll find a way to charge you for it.
Speaker 1: That's how corrupt these companies are. They're gonna find a
Speaker 1: way to say you spent this much on this. I
Speaker 1: want you guys to understand about expense accounts and how
Speaker 1: this thing works is everybody in the company has a
Speaker 1: card and they go and they travel. If they're traveling
Speaker 1: on your behalf, you don't have to be there, they'll
Speaker 1: charge you back to your account. You're paying for it.
Speaker 1: You won't know until you ordered the company and know
Speaker 1: exactly where everything went. So so if they were to
Speaker 1: say I had to go out here to take this
Speaker 1: meeting with MTV about your video, and I had to
Speaker 1: smoothe these people and take them to dinner, you'll see
Speaker 1: if you ever were to order the company, if you
Speaker 1: were to get that far in your career, you order
Speaker 1: them to see hold on your charge me back for that.
Speaker 1: So they're gonna find a way to charge you. So
Speaker 1: I always tell people, if they're gonna pay, get your money. Bro.
Speaker 1: If you're my man, are you're about to do and
Speaker 1: you're doing a track for me, Bron, get your money.
Speaker 1: Don't do nothing for free for me if you if
Speaker 1: you can get a check, let's bust it down, if anything,
Speaker 1: or take your money and then when you got yours,
Speaker 1: I get my money and it's all love. But if
Speaker 1: you're telling me, bro, I'm paying out of my pocket
Speaker 1: and you my you know you're my girl, or you
Speaker 1: my my brother, somebody I'm friends with, then you know, no,
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna I'm make it easier on you. But
Speaker 1: if it's their money, tax them. Everybody noticed TAXI I
Speaker 1: agree with this. I agree with this because out of
Speaker 1: pocket is a different thing, especially a company that's gonna
Speaker 1: tell me that they spent it anyway. Although I will
Speaker 1: say I do feel like like to pay people that
Speaker 1: do stuff for me, even if we're friends, because I
Speaker 1: feel like I'll pay somebody that I don't even know
Speaker 1: for something that they do. Why would not I pay
Speaker 1: my friend? But if you know your but if you
Speaker 1: know somebody is building something and you can help them
Speaker 1: by that's your that's your paying. Like, that's my way
Speaker 1: of contributing. This to saying out lend myself for charity work.
Speaker 1: People will say I won't give money to the charity,
Speaker 1: but I'll come and lend my services for the for
Speaker 1: the sake of the charity to help you. So if
Speaker 1: you're building a company yourself, and i'm your friend and
Speaker 1: i'm and I'm working with you, it's easy for me
Speaker 1: to say, well, look, I'm not going to charge you
Speaker 1: for that, and it's just my contribution to helping you
Speaker 1: build your brands. So when your brand grows, you can
Speaker 1: able to look back and say you're a part of
Speaker 1: helping me because you could have charged me this. It's
Speaker 1: almost like you gave me that money instead of you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. I think that's I don't like
Speaker 1: when people ask me for favors all the time just
Speaker 1: because we're friends, and you know, when somebody's abusing it,
Speaker 1: that's differ. Much like I have friends that would be like,
Speaker 1: can you host this for me? Can you do this
Speaker 1: to me? And I'm like, normally I get paid yeah
Speaker 1: to do it, but I've donefity sweet person, and you god,
Speaker 1: for a bit, someone asked me to show up host.
Speaker 1: That's my job. I don't mean you can tell you
Speaker 1: can tell with somebody's I'm the type of person I
Speaker 1: like to do for you first. I want to do
Speaker 1: for you first, and then I'll make it clear in
Speaker 1: the beginning, like, um, you know ludicrous. I recently asked
Speaker 1: he did so I did something for him and I
Speaker 1: just said, this was like seven months ago. I say, y'all,
Speaker 1: I got my music conference coming up. I need you there.
Speaker 1: And he said, yes, I'm gonna do this for you
Speaker 1: for this and when my music conference come, but I
Speaker 1: needs you Dundell. We had a verbal agreement, and it's
Speaker 1: always men. We moved forward. So I like to do
Speaker 1: for somebody first. I'd rather I hate to be able
Speaker 1: to ask to have to ask first. I'd rather do
Speaker 1: something for them and then they reciprocated. Then let me
Speaker 1: ask you this, how real is this whole fucking for
Speaker 1: tracks thing that everybody always talks about, Like, have you
Speaker 1: been approached a lot in your career, you know, obviously
Speaker 1: being a big producer by women who are like, well,
Speaker 1: you know, does that happen? Like, I don't think people
Speaker 1: try me like that because they anybody who's ever been
Speaker 1: around you know how serious I take music. I don't
Speaker 1: play with it. And I feel like I'm too talented
Speaker 1: of a person and I'm too I have too much
Speaker 1: more to offer a person than to cheapen my brand
Speaker 1: to fuck you for a record, Right, So when you
Speaker 1: talk to me, I think you can feel that, and
Speaker 1: also you can feel these slimy type of characters who
Speaker 1: you can tell when they like even think about. But
Speaker 1: sometimes in the studio people get a vibe too, like
Speaker 1: when you're being creative with somebody, then you might feel
Speaker 1: like I'm attracted to you while we're working on this. Yeah,
Speaker 1: we live in a real weird time, so I kind
Speaker 1: of I'm very cautious around about who's around me anyway,
Speaker 1: and I'm not usually around people who aren't really established
Speaker 1: anyway or doing something for themselves, because it saves you
Speaker 1: a lot of bullshit and a lot of trouble. So,
Speaker 1: because nothing is worse than when somebody's really hungry tiger,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, that's the worst yeah around,
Speaker 1: you know you kind of like Harri Sulton used to say,
Speaker 1: she's a hungry tiger. That's that's the worst tiger. Yeah.
Speaker 1: All right, now people also wrote in some questions and
Speaker 1: we want to get to your advice, and then we're
Speaker 1: going to give us to all right, my status fifteen
Speaker 1: years old, and I've been hiding a secret from him
Speaker 1: and I'm trying to figure out a way to tell
Speaker 1: him the truth. The person that's on his birth certificate
Speaker 1: is not his biological father. I just recently found out
Speaker 1: my ex is actually his father. It was a simple mistake.
Speaker 1: I was young, still in high school, and I didn't
Speaker 1: know how to read the ultra sounds, and I had
Speaker 1: hit my pregnancy for five months because I was ashamed.
Speaker 1: I was scared. At that time. I didn't know the
Speaker 1: guy that's on the birth certificate wasn't around anyway, so
Speaker 1: it's not like you know him. And that's family. How
Speaker 1: can I break the news to him without confusing him?
Speaker 1: How did the fifteen years old? Ye? Fifteen nowadays is
Speaker 1: what nineteen and the mind? So I think he's old
Speaker 1: enough to have that the same way that you explained
Speaker 1: that on the question. I think you could sit out
Speaker 1: and explain because it doesn't sound bad. It doesn't sound
Speaker 1: like mom's a whore. It just sounds like you know.
Speaker 1: I think I think at fifteen he should have an
Speaker 1: idea of the kind of society who lives in. And
Speaker 1: that sounds pretty reasonable, like, yo, I made a mistake.
Speaker 1: It was long ago, right, And she needs to know
Speaker 1: the name a father anyway, you don't know the guy.
Speaker 1: That'd be worse if you know. And she needs to
Speaker 1: do it now. Waited too long. Just now he's like
Speaker 1: another baby, so she's supposed to now, um, contact the
Speaker 1: X and be like, by the way, this fifteen year
Speaker 1: old is your son? Yes, I mean she needs to
Speaker 1: tell her son. She needs to tell him soon, Like
Speaker 1: fifteen years old is already old enough. He needs to
Speaker 1: find out. She could have told him younger. She needs
Speaker 1: to tell him now before he gets older, because when
Speaker 1: you like turning an adult eighteen nineteen, it kind of
Speaker 1: hits you hard, like, damn, I'm nineteen years old. You
Speaker 1: waited nineteen years you know is long enough as soon
Speaker 1: as possible. If your mom was a whole, would you
Speaker 1: want her to tell you? But she wasn't all, that's
Speaker 1: a question. I mean since she was said, it's not
Speaker 1: like she was you you'll know anyway, you think, so, yeah, man,
Speaker 1: especially if y'all if she grew up in the same
Speaker 1: place that you're living in now. Because the O G
Speaker 1: s will make a little comments everybody going, notice this
Speaker 1: is a new generation. It ain't like back in the
Speaker 1: day when your mother was a whole and everybody just
Speaker 1: smiled at and wave. Somebody's gonna say something to yes,
Speaker 1: for my uncle used the fucking mother, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean? Like like everybody said, you know like that ship.
Speaker 1: After well, everybody's gonna start saying it to you can
Speaker 1: be like, damn, this might be truest bitch. So as
Speaker 1: a parent, do you get in front of it and
Speaker 1: be like okay, so, like is that the thing you
Speaker 1: get ahead of you just let it happen and don't
Speaker 1: explain it. Yeah, I think you get ahead of that.
Speaker 1: You talk about that. No, I think you have to
Speaker 1: get ahead of it, like you. You have to prepare them,
Speaker 1: prepare them for what's gonna happen and what they're gonna face.
Speaker 1: That's why I don't want you dealing with these types
Speaker 1: of right exactly, I was manipulated, and you know, you
Speaker 1: can make something excuse if you want to say, yeah,
Speaker 1: that's the nation. When I was young and I was
Speaker 1: taught the wrong way by fanatic, and now when I
Speaker 1: got older and learned, like six months ago, he write
Speaker 1: a song right now, don't don't. I feel like it's
Speaker 1: best for I feel like it's best for your for
Speaker 1: your kids to find out things from about you, from you,
Speaker 1: and then it's so fund up that we gotta that
Speaker 1: people even have to talk about that now. I mean,
Speaker 1: I mean my mother. My mother was a young single mom,
Speaker 1: like she was what she left my father. You know,
Speaker 1: my mom was a young single mom. She used to
Speaker 1: like the party I knew. I mean and my mom
Speaker 1: have a close relationship. I'm not even gonn a lot.
Speaker 1: My mama still got answering her pants, my mother. I'm
Speaker 1: my lady. I'm like, listen, Grandma, you used to go
Speaker 1: like a sweater. You want me to bout your rocket.
Speaker 1: She's not with it. She's like, no, I want to
Speaker 1: have a drink. I'm like, mama, Mama trying to drink
Speaker 1: that that ass on outside. And I mean, my mom
Speaker 1: still looks good like she you know, my mom is
Speaker 1: still fired. She takes care of herself, you know, but
Speaker 1: she still she still got answer her pants. It's just
Speaker 1: the person she is said that sounds terrible, like gotta go,
Speaker 1: you gotta go and no, and my mom, you know,
Speaker 1: I don't remember when I was a kid. My mom, um,
Speaker 1: she she switched boyfriends a lot, you know, not a lot,
Speaker 1: but enough, you know what I'm saying. My mom and
Speaker 1: I used to bother me like I remember, I remember
Speaker 1: when I was a kid. This is this is a
Speaker 1: true story. I mean, God bless my mother was a
Speaker 1: great mother. We were never we never were abused nothing.
Speaker 1: I didn't even know we were poor until I got older.
Speaker 1: And how to offend for myself. Yeah, it's like I
Speaker 1: didn't but you know, you know, like my mom, I
Speaker 1: know shades and my mom, but I remember when I
Speaker 1: was a kid. I was but she checked me and
Speaker 1: this I never did this again. She had a new boyfriend.
Speaker 1: I remember, he was Amnigan guy. Right, whatever. He was
Speaker 1: real good to us. He was he was a new boyfriend, right.
Speaker 1: So one night she um, she left me and my aunt.
Speaker 1: She left me with my grandmother, and I could hear
Speaker 1: her talking with my aunt about how she was going
Speaker 1: to like hit skars with this guy, and they talking
Speaker 1: in Spanish, but they think my Spanish isn't on point.
Speaker 1: But I know what they're saying, you know, and I'm
Speaker 1: just listening to them. So she leaves. I'm not even
Speaker 1: gonna give the full details of this, but so she
Speaker 1: leaves and whatever. She comes back next day, picks us up.
Speaker 1: We I get in a car with her. It's just
Speaker 1: me and her. My sister was with her father again
Speaker 1: in the car with her, and I was like giving
Speaker 1: her attitude because I was upset about it. So she's like,
Speaker 1: what's your problem? You know, She's like, what's wrong with you?
Speaker 1: And I'm like, you know, I just don't. I just
Speaker 1: don't think that you should like be having sex to everybody,
Speaker 1: you dating everybody. And I'm a little girl. I promised
Speaker 1: you I'm like eight years old. I wasn't. I wasn't
Speaker 1: all than not. And that's the girl. I was a
Speaker 1: little girl. I'm staying in the car. I'm staying in
Speaker 1: the front seat. I'm saying in the front seat with hind.
Speaker 1: She was like, she was like, what pops popped me
Speaker 1: right in my mouth. Like she was like, we'll talk
Speaker 1: about this when we get home. And I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: I started crying. But she gave me a whole fucking
Speaker 1: when I got home, she gave me a whole sex
Speaker 1: lecture because she didn't realize that I knew, you know,
Speaker 1: what was going on. She popped me mouth, she popped
Speaker 1: me thinking the whole way like damn, this ship is crazy,
Speaker 1: Like you know, I think she kind of practiced and
Speaker 1: and and then the ride she's like, you know what,
Speaker 1: you're a little girl. You need some manya business, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. Like she she was telling me,
Speaker 1: like like she was making me feel bad because I was,
Speaker 1: you know, concerned about this. I was. I was upset,
Speaker 1: but you know, it really wasn't none of my business. Also,
Speaker 1: you don't learn it it's not your business until somebody
Speaker 1: tells exactly that's what That's what I'm saying. I never
Speaker 1: did that again. I never, I mean not until I
Speaker 1: became an adult that I you know, talk about that
Speaker 1: type of thing with my mom. You know, I never
Speaker 1: played myself again ever. My relationship is funny because I've
Speaker 1: never seen either one of my parents with anybody else,
Speaker 1: like my whole entire life, and they're divorced but they
Speaker 1: still live together. But I've never seen my mom with
Speaker 1: another man. I've never seen my dad with another one. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: they still I ain't going lazy. They used Today's life
Speaker 1: date the night, but they're just never home like you know,
Speaker 1: and they don't. But I've never ever seen them with
Speaker 1: anyone else. Like They've never said I'm dating somebody. I've
Speaker 1: never seen them. You know. It is weird, so I
Speaker 1: look at it. I guess maybe part of it because
Speaker 1: even with my grandparents, like my grandparents were like my
Speaker 1: on my dad's side married and tell my grandfather passed away,
Speaker 1: my grandmother never seen him with anybody else. In my
Speaker 1: mom's side, you know, my grandmother passed me on that side,
Speaker 1: and then my grandfather remarried. But everybody in my family,
Speaker 1: I've never seen people like do you know, I really
Speaker 1: like straight, I like up around And I'm not even
Speaker 1: saying that they were monogamous. I just never really seen
Speaker 1: you never saw it until I went to go work
Speaker 1: for wootang everything. Who's the lady in the back room
Speaker 1: with the whole with the whole gang grandma. But you know,
Speaker 1: those things probably do affect like you know, g you
Speaker 1: have your daughter, and do you ever think about, like
Speaker 1: how your life has affected how she's gonna look at relationships. Absolutely,
Speaker 1: my ex relationship, it works her nerves. It worked her
Speaker 1: nerves for very a very long time. Like I think
Speaker 1: she's more happy than I'm single than I am. Really, Yes,
Speaker 1: she hated us, No, that's what I'm saying. When I
Speaker 1: was a teenam I know she really liked him a lot,
Speaker 1: like him alive, but she hated the things that we
Speaker 1: went through. And that's what I'm saying. I had like
Speaker 1: a young mom like and and her daughter, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like her mother's relationships did like I
Speaker 1: noticed them, you know what I mean? I noticed then,
Speaker 1: and they affected they infect us. That's the only relationship
Speaker 1: that I had that she really was like in tune
Speaker 1: within a part of so I usually keep her out of,
Speaker 1: you know, my person. It was so serious that she
Speaker 1: had to be right, and she was so grown too
Speaker 1: at that time. My mom was a square, Like my
Speaker 1: mom was like a church lady. Two boyfriends the whole
Speaker 1: time that I grew up, and one was named Alex
Speaker 1: and one name is Mr Stanley, and I hated I
Speaker 1: hated Mr Stanley. I just felt like he's just always
Speaker 1: trying to talk to me, like and I broke up.
Speaker 1: She broke up with both of them, and she sat
Speaker 1: us down and told us, like, you know, Mr Stanley
Speaker 1: was trying to have sex with me, and I don't
Speaker 1: have sex until I'm married, and I want you all
Speaker 1: to know that you shouldn't have you know. She probably
Speaker 1: just went through it with him and just was fresh.
Speaker 1: She was like, you think that I'm opposed to lay
Speaker 1: down with him until he didn't give me that ring
Speaker 1: and then he posted to think I'm so I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, I don't really want to hit this,
Speaker 1: but I'm glad you need Mrs stan You didn't like
Speaker 1: him with your cousin, Mrs Stanley, And the other guy
Speaker 1: was Alex was cool. Alex was cool, but Mr Stanley
Speaker 1: was just a greasy ass, you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: Like just felt slimy. I felt like he was trying
Speaker 1: to suck my mother mother mother. But you see, because
Speaker 1: of because of um, you know, being like being like that,
Speaker 1: never liking my mother's boyfriends, Like, no matter how great
Speaker 1: they were, I never liked them. My son is going
Speaker 1: to be eleven this month, and I've never brought one
Speaker 1: man around my son. He knows his father Like, it's
Speaker 1: just that, like I don't think it's cool to have
Speaker 1: your kid around around people who are temple bary in
Speaker 1: your life when when somebody when I get engaged, then
Speaker 1: maybe I'll bring somebody. You have to because it's like,
Speaker 1: is what I'm getting married? How? How is that? What
Speaker 1: do you mean? Google? Look up your social media? My son? Um,
Speaker 1: I've had the conversation with I don't know is that
Speaker 1: I've had this converence. My son is UM, he's very
Speaker 1: computer savvy. He's very He's on the internet. My son
Speaker 1: is on the internet, so he's my son has been around,
Speaker 1: you know, he's with me, so he sees what's going on.
Speaker 1: He sees me on the cover of the magazine, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. So I've already explained this to him,
Speaker 1: so it's not a surprise for him. He knows exactly
Speaker 1: what I do. He knows that, Um, I was doing
Speaker 1: a lot of internet ship, you know, and I've explained
Speaker 1: it to him. He knows. Like my son follows me
Speaker 1: on Instagram. Yeah, my son has an Instagram, you know,
Speaker 1: so I and my son can read. You know, he's
Speaker 1: he's elevin. He's a big he's a big boy. He's
Speaker 1: a man. No, no, absolutely not no, no, no, no no,
Speaker 1: and um, you know I it's just he understands, like
Speaker 1: I already explained it to him. Like I said, you
Speaker 1: have to prepare your children for what's outside. You know.
Speaker 1: I don't want anybody to um to come at my
Speaker 1: kid for something that I'm doing. That's why I've really
Speaker 1: tried to smarten up and change a lot of the
Speaker 1: things that I've done on the Internet. I've really tried.
Speaker 1: I think I have. I think I have. You know,
Speaker 1: Like I'm not drunk on the internet anymore. I'm not
Speaker 1: smoking with me looking a little drunk. I was drunk
Speaker 1: on the internet. I'm not drunk in the Internet. I
Speaker 1: was drunk. But you know, my son, my son knows me.
Speaker 1: He knows what's going on. You know, it's not nothing
Speaker 1: is a surprise, you know what I mean. But yeah,
Speaker 1: grown up, Like I don't think you know that you
Speaker 1: should feel like I can't children exactly right, they don't know. Now,
Speaker 1: let's get to that, right, and that's you have some know,
Speaker 1: um with with with my relationship with my son. I
Speaker 1: don't I don't post I don't, you know, I don't
Speaker 1: post up my kids, you know, because I don't want
Speaker 1: him to ever have to suffer for anything that I've
Speaker 1: done on the internet. I don't think I've done anything
Speaker 1: too crazy. But you're not an average looking mom. And
Speaker 1: when you're not an average looking mom, you have to
Speaker 1: realize that the rest of the moms don't like you know,
Speaker 1: and please, I can't even go to my son's school.
Speaker 1: I can't go to my son's school. I um, when
Speaker 1: I do go, like I have to go into the
Speaker 1: skies because everybody knows knows who I am. You know,
Speaker 1: he's in the school in New York and the parents,
Speaker 1: like you know, I can't even I go to his graduation.
Speaker 1: I can participate and the you know, and the assemblies
Speaker 1: you know when they do like musicals and the school.
Speaker 1: I go to that stuff. But yeah, exactly, you know,
Speaker 1: but like, um, the PTA meetings, like you know, when
Speaker 1: they do the parent teacher thing, I go, like one
Speaker 1: time in the school year because when I go is
Speaker 1: I can't I take a picture. Can I take a
Speaker 1: picture with your mom? What? Like I swear, I swear
Speaker 1: it's um and I mean it's fine, it's cool, but
Speaker 1: it's just I don't really want my son to um
Speaker 1: to have to like I said, if it got for bid,
Speaker 1: like you know, UM, I don't be having sex tapes
Speaker 1: with random people, but got for the bed something came
Speaker 1: off of my own phone, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: I don't want my son to have to. You know,
Speaker 1: I don't want people to be like, oh, I saw
Speaker 1: your mom. I saw your mom, like that's your mom,
Speaker 1: So I don't you know. That's why I'm real private
Speaker 1: about my son because even though I'm trying, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not posting up asked pictures and you know,
Speaker 1: working around even though I never really was working around
Speaker 1: without you know, I'm I'm not as um provocative. I
Speaker 1: guess is I don't know. One time in the third
Speaker 1: code on the stage, Yeah yeah no, I UM did
Speaker 1: I know? That is me and Nya Dare Me and
Speaker 1: Nya we had aum. That's why every I'm glad you
Speaker 1: brought that up because everybody's like, oh, I know she
Speaker 1: knows Rick ross because um, she was on stage with him.
Speaker 1: But you know, I got you know, they called us Nina,
Speaker 1: it was Nina was friends with him, and they called
Speaker 1: us to do a job like that's not my friend
Speaker 1: Rick Rosses, you know, right, you know, you know what
Speaker 1: some of my favorite couple, Nina her boyfriend. But I
Speaker 1: didn't even throw But but yeah, you know, like I'm
Speaker 1: not doing all of that. I'm trying, you know, even
Speaker 1: though it's still around, you know what I mean, And
Speaker 1: God forbid, I don't even though I'm trying not to,
Speaker 1: God forbid, you never know what could happen, you know.
Speaker 1: So I don't ever want my son. I don't ever
Speaker 1: want my son to have to suffer for the choices
Speaker 1: that I made in my life. But you said you
Speaker 1: had the mom thing too, What were you gonna say?
Speaker 1: I mean, when my daughter was in high school, I
Speaker 1: was the face of Magic City, So I'm sure there
Speaker 1: was a little bit that came along with that. But
Speaker 1: from my understanding of what she explained to me, like
Speaker 1: people was like hype about it. They weren't like, yeah,
Speaker 1: that's what that's what I go through now with my son,
Speaker 1: And they were more like you know, you're excited. You know,
Speaker 1: Atlanta is different too, though I wouldna say that, but
Speaker 1: I was also in Atlanta. Differ it's like, yeah, let's
Speaker 1: go have some wings real quick. Yeah that's what their
Speaker 1: mothers look like that too, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: They like So when you got a young mom who
Speaker 1: got a crazy body, that's not normal like to us
Speaker 1: in our world and where we live and what we do.
Speaker 1: It's definitely not normal school my son. But I will
Speaker 1: say this the school my son goes, so he lives
Speaker 1: in like a you know, a little posh little area
Speaker 1: or whatever, and those little Spanish ladies got some you know,
Speaker 1: it's like the fire. It's nothing but crazy and every
Speaker 1: time you go to school. So I don't think it's
Speaker 1: it's out of the norm, right I'm at So you know,
Speaker 1: now let's talk about that though, because obviously your songs
Speaker 1: and things that you talk about are personal to you
Speaker 1: and things that are sexual. Do you feel like, hey,
Speaker 1: do you let your kids listen to that music and
Speaker 1: you feel like you have to explain like, well, yeah,
Speaker 1: I only listen. My son knows, they don't know, but
Speaker 1: I just he just likes that song. You know, a
Speaker 1: lot of times we grew up listening to We're saying
Speaker 1: the lyrics, but didn't really know what it was exactly.
Speaker 1: He really don't know. And he just don't get past that.
Speaker 1: And and that was, you know, when he was a
Speaker 1: lot younger, and records I've done and written for other people.
Speaker 1: I don't even think he realizes that. So, and I
Speaker 1: don't talk about what I do to my son at
Speaker 1: all anyway. I just just I'm just as dad. He
Speaker 1: likes other people. He likes Ray Tremant, you know, so
Speaker 1: he like he not even he like play Black Beetles.
Speaker 1: This ship is what is this play back? You know?
Speaker 1: And I listened to old school music in the car
Speaker 1: with him. Anyway, I'm listening to the Beatles. I'm teaching
Speaker 1: about Michael Jackson and ship like that. So really, his
Speaker 1: his ear for music is a little different. He's not
Speaker 1: as aware of things just you know, going on because
Speaker 1: I kind of I don't mean, he's only seven. Let
Speaker 1: him do his thing. But you know, these kids, now,
Speaker 1: they right, they know a lot. No, I mean when
Speaker 1: my son, my son is like I said, he's really computer. Yeah,
Speaker 1: so he's been honest since likes to some pop song
Speaker 1: and I called him he hurried to put it down.
Speaker 1: I'm like, what's that opened it up? He's like, I
Speaker 1: swear I didn't know that they would. I'm like, bro,
Speaker 1: just I'm just I'm just happy. But maybe YouTube that
Speaker 1: his kid's favorite. He was like, I was watching f
Speaker 1: G TV and then when I clicked it, But I
Speaker 1: was saying, his defense, they put all these things on
Speaker 1: the side of the kids. Yeah, which is up because
Speaker 1: they're eating children right, And I agree. What if you
Speaker 1: catch him like looking at porn? Is is that when
Speaker 1: it's time to have a conversation, Because I'm gonna I'm
Speaker 1: gonna have the conversation with him, probably this summer already,
Speaker 1: because I think kids are moving to growing too fast.
Speaker 1: And what. He has a little friend who's like his
Speaker 1: best friend. His name is Josiah, and I love Josiah.
Speaker 1: Josiah is fast, like he knows everything. He was like, um,
Speaker 1: you know, girls have vaginas. I overheard him in the
Speaker 1: back seat and he doesn't know I'm listening. I had
Speaker 1: to stop. I don't want to keep talking about vagina. Vagina, vagina.
Speaker 1: Girls worlds have a vagina and we have a peewee
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, come on, so I gotta get
Speaker 1: ahead of desidhy. I don't want to do right. That's
Speaker 1: how I feel with myself. So you got to show
Speaker 1: him what's the right, and like it explain to him.
Speaker 1: And I'm telling my mom gave me to talk young
Speaker 1: and she gave me the talk. You have to pop you. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and it's not again just just and I have to
Speaker 1: say this because beside his parents are close to me,
Speaker 1: is that he has older cousins who are around him.
Speaker 1: I don't want you. I don't anybody think that his
Speaker 1: parents are like letting him. But it's just that you've
Speaker 1: got older, little little cousin. He has big brothers and
Speaker 1: he's so much. He has like three girlfriends and all
Speaker 1: of that. I'm like, all Jesus. They had the Internet too,
Speaker 1: and that's so easy to find things. We didn't have
Speaker 1: the inter right and the television shows. You have access
Speaker 1: to Netflix everything, Like I don't know what people are watching,
Speaker 1: kids are watching. They we didn't know anything about. Like
Speaker 1: I remember this is crazy where I left. But I
Speaker 1: remember the first time I Orgas was in um playing
Speaker 1: Hide and Go Seek and this girl was just kissing
Speaker 1: me and she was just grabbing me and kissing me
Speaker 1: on my neck and I just went all over myself,
Speaker 1: and I'm just like all I knew was that it
Speaker 1: was a lot, and it was the best thing I've
Speaker 1: ever felt in my whole life. And I really immediately
Speaker 1: hated her fast, and then I liked her again, like
Speaker 1: twenty minutes later. But I was just like, what the
Speaker 1: fun is going on? So I was like twelve, so
Speaker 1: I didn't know. I didn't know, you know, I wasn't
Speaker 1: you know when we were growing up, masturbation and all
Speaker 1: that kids wasn't like in It was like I forgot
Speaker 1: herd like he be off. It was like now now
Speaker 1: a lot of things, you know, eating pussy and all
Speaker 1: that ship as we got young. Now, kids in high
Speaker 1: school having threesomes like crazy. The girls, Yeah, they're talking
Speaker 1: about giving their boyfriend the three for his birthday. Guys
Speaker 1: in the ninth grade. So as when I was coming up,
Speaker 1: we didn't have that. I think that's the that's the
Speaker 1: part about the Internet that I think works, is that
Speaker 1: you're not so clueless to realities of life. But I
Speaker 1: didn't make you faster though, But I did think that
Speaker 1: that night. I never know how to say this for Naive, Yeah,
Speaker 1: Naiven see, I think that's what gave us our innocence,
Speaker 1: and I'm purity that is lacking right now. So I
Speaker 1: want to I don't want to discredit that, but I
Speaker 1: just think that it's a it's a fine line, it's
Speaker 1: a balance because I know what that felt like, and
Speaker 1: I felt like I was walking around my neighborhood until
Speaker 1: it dried for like twenty minutes, and you're nervous going
Speaker 1: home feeling guilty. Like listen, when I was in remember
Speaker 1: when I was in eighth grade, this girl that I
Speaker 1: went to school and she had like a house party
Speaker 1: and they would play this game like where you go
Speaker 1: in the closet with somebody, but like, um, three minutes
Speaker 1: or something like that, or yeah, I was like seven
Speaker 1: minutes to happen. Having that's exactly what I had to
Speaker 1: go in the closet with this guy, and I didn't
Speaker 1: know what to do. I was in the closet, we
Speaker 1: had the light on, we were just sitting there like me,
Speaker 1: and then right before it was like almost time up.
Speaker 1: They were like one minute left. Then he like kissed
Speaker 1: me and hentted all over himself and I didn't do
Speaker 1: that was seven minutes and so like so we walked
Speaker 1: out there seconds and everybody sorry about apologize and they're like, oh,
Speaker 1: she notudding on himself. And I didn't know what it was.
Speaker 1: I didn't know anything in my jumm in eighth grade
Speaker 1: and I still didn't know anything about like what that was.
Speaker 1: And so I'm looking, like what happened. He's like now
Speaker 1: saying some glue, and she was like, there's no glue
Speaker 1: in my closet, and then everybody was looking in the
Speaker 1: closet to see if there was glue. I had no idea,
Speaker 1: like what happened. That's how I found out about it,
Speaker 1: Like that was because of myself. Yeah, right now he's
Speaker 1: sitting somewhere in a in a room listening to this ship.
Speaker 1: Like people still make fun of about this because I
Speaker 1: still know him to this day, Like everybody stills remember
Speaker 1: when you went none in the closet like best and
Speaker 1: I wondering if he knew what it was, but just
Speaker 1: saying the first time you met it on yourself, you
Speaker 1: with twelve you okay, So that was around that age,
Speaker 1: like the twelve thirteen. I couldn't believe first of all,
Speaker 1: when she was kissing on me, I'm just like, what
Speaker 1: is she doing? Like like what is this? Why is
Speaker 1: she doing this to me? Like how do we get
Speaker 1: like how did we get here? Like you know, and
Speaker 1: she was so young, and it's almost like you get
Speaker 1: all these questions like who taught her? What is she? Like?
Speaker 1: She really was? She really was good. Like the way
Speaker 1: she was kissing on my neck, I was just like,
Speaker 1: what is this girl doing? And then when I started
Speaker 1: to feel it, I was just like, oh no, what
Speaker 1: is this? This is the best thing I've ever felt ever?
Speaker 1: And then immediately I hated her, like get away from
Speaker 1: what did you do? Twenty minutes later, I'm looking for
Speaker 1: what is this mission? Then after that, when is the
Speaker 1: next time you like that happened? After that a lot
Speaker 1: that she was the ship that summared to me. She's
Speaker 1: got like nineteen babies now. She was morny. She was
Speaker 1: real horny. I'm not surprised that she has nineteen babies now.
Speaker 1: She was horny, like like like horny, bad story she
Speaker 1: learned it. It could be like her cousins was Scott.
Speaker 1: It's just so many things that you got to take
Speaker 1: into consideration, like somebody did it to her, They shouldn't
Speaker 1: have been exactly that. You never know you never know
Speaker 1: how to was the first time he has sex. I
Speaker 1: was late to have sex. I didn't have sex. Stuff
Speaker 1: was seventeen. All of my friends were having sex, and um,
Speaker 1: I was like, no, I'm gonna wait till I'm married
Speaker 1: and then my friends that was sweet, Um, I think so.
Speaker 1: But what happened was a friend of mine he bade
Speaker 1: it me. He was like, yo, you get your dicks.
Speaker 1: The girl be sucking your dick. Bro, you might as
Speaker 1: well just suck because this is ridiculous. God sees you
Speaker 1: getting your dicks, like you know what. I was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, girl, But the girls thought I was
Speaker 1: just like so cool, like he never did it, so
Speaker 1: they would all come to the neighborhood and tried to
Speaker 1: get me to do it. So all the guys were like, yo,
Speaker 1: fuck her, what are you doing you sucking bush? Yeah?
Speaker 1: So what I did was when I started having sex,
Speaker 1: I just went back and sucked them all damn Like
Speaker 1: I was just like I was like, I was like, oh, ship,
Speaker 1: this is I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna go. You know,
Speaker 1: did you know how to use condoms in everything? Oh? Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: absolutely at seventeen, I guess you would not absolutely my friends.
Speaker 1: My friends were thirteen and fourteen, and they were having
Speaker 1: sex like a lot, like like literally like it was
Speaker 1: trains being ran. It was the ridiculous types of sex
Speaker 1: going on. And my man just no, seriously, it was
Speaker 1: so much going on and my one of my best
Speaker 1: friend's house that it was just like how is this happening?
Speaker 1: Like how was this? How is this not being stopped?
Speaker 1: Like these are kids where literally his mom would be there,
Speaker 1: not not she wouldn't be there and know what's exactly
Speaker 1: what's going on, But she was kind. He had one
Speaker 1: of those houses where his mother would be in the
Speaker 1: room and he would have a back door and go
Speaker 1: to his room and anybody would come in there or
Speaker 1: she was She was like one of those parents that
Speaker 1: was like, y'all sucking all them dirty girls. You dick
Speaker 1: is gonna fall off, and then she going the room
Speaker 1: and slam the door. It wasn't like who's in my house?
Speaker 1: And my house no, never would ever ever happen. Was
Speaker 1: the first annual pussy. I was like, I see again,
Speaker 1: remember we grew up in a different era. I was like, three,
Speaker 1: good lord, yeah, Jesus, but you gotta understand we grew
Speaker 1: up in a different era where a lot of guys
Speaker 1: were doing it. You know, a lot of guys were
Speaker 1: doing it but saying they weren't. And I was one
Speaker 1: of those people who really wasn't doing it, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like you know how when guys I
Speaker 1: was like, no, I don't do that and that's not cool.
Speaker 1: But then I didn't realize everybody was doing it but
Speaker 1: lying I was no. No. I think I think my
Speaker 1: girl taught me how to do it. Really, just like yes,
Speaker 1: since you got a head, that's crazy. I was. I
Speaker 1: don't think I was good at all, soil she showed
Speaker 1: me what were you doing wrong? I probably wasn't doing
Speaker 1: it wrong, but it just wasn't good. And the way
Speaker 1: you do any every way you do anything, why you
Speaker 1: do everything? You want to be you want to be right,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I don't want to be
Speaker 1: I want to be the champion. Did you have to
Speaker 1: tell you? Like, she just showed me exactly what they're doing.
Speaker 1: You know, that's so good. You know when you marry
Speaker 1: somebody that you told how to eat pussy like so
Speaker 1: good because it's all right when you was all right
Speaker 1: if this sucks two ways, if you teach a guy
Speaker 1: how to eat pussy, and then you break up. You
Speaker 1: know he's around eating everybody is pussy the right way exactly.
Speaker 1: And then with honors or you meet a guy and
Speaker 1: you you love him, no, and he just eats pussy
Speaker 1: mad good, like he's just amazing. You know, he's eating
Speaker 1: everybody's pussy because one girlfriend that told him how to
Speaker 1: do it. Oh whatever I had, that's not true. You know,
Speaker 1: think peoples, No, no one's a natural. Some people could
Speaker 1: be naturals. I think I was a natural. I sucking
Speaker 1: dick for sure. I don't think any whatever time me.
Speaker 1: What if the guy said I was taught, but I
Speaker 1: was at a very young I think I was nice.
Speaker 1: Like the first time I was kind of the first
Speaker 1: time I said to Dick, I did a terrible job.
Speaker 1: I think I always was good at it. I think
Speaker 1: the first on it for so long, I think the
Speaker 1: first dick I suck was small, so it was like
Speaker 1: so much easy. I was like little dick. Guys out
Speaker 1: there got life so much easy. Little think little is
Speaker 1: a very easy to sign. It's where you like day
Speaker 1: is where you graduate. It's like, oh my god, you're
Speaker 1: like a lot going sucking dick on this side, eat
Speaker 1: chicken on this side, a little anything I can get,
Speaker 1: a root canal, just stuck on the side of my back. No,
Speaker 1: but a big dick. I have you fucked up? You
Speaker 1: think you're nice little dick, and then you go home
Speaker 1: and your throat sloy. You're crying like like why nothing,
Speaker 1: like I have what do you call it? I can't
Speaker 1: even that's the way you feel like your mouth stretched out,
Speaker 1: like you gotta go get a lift, friller. You gotta
Speaker 1: feel like your head is trash. If you suck it
Speaker 1: that long to it, you know, you start this hurt. Nah. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: But sometimes don't guys try to like hold back because
Speaker 1: they don't want to come. I feel like they didn't
Speaker 1: come from him. I feel like every even the guy
Speaker 1: who says he can't come from head, I feel like
Speaker 1: every guy had the tick. You know what I mean?
Speaker 1: You just gotta find out that one thing that's gonna
Speaker 1: be that one thing he's singing that just so we
Speaker 1: can see how crazy you and go to exactly exactly
Speaker 1: he gonna comes from. Getting that dick suck. There's not
Speaker 1: a guy out that ain't coming back from hold. I
Speaker 1: think I'll make you best hold when a guy says that.
Speaker 1: When a guy says, oh, I don't come from that,
Speaker 1: it's the same thing like a girl saying like, I
Speaker 1: don't you do this? You know, it's the same thing,
Speaker 1: the same thing. That's that's what I don't usually do
Speaker 1: this guy. I don't want you to think I'm a
Speaker 1: whole and you're like I told you the whole one night, right, Like,
Speaker 1: but can't you like kind of try to make it
Speaker 1: last longer. If it's really good and you don't want
Speaker 1: to come, you can stop and you know you can stop,
Speaker 1: and yeah, you have to stop at him. I hate
Speaker 1: when guys do that. Just come. I don't want to
Speaker 1: do this, not me. I like for a guy to
Speaker 1: hold it. I like to do it for a while.
Speaker 1: I'll tell you when a guy comes like, oh I
Speaker 1: could have went like another five minutes. I like it,
Speaker 1: and then and then but jeezus, come on, you like
Speaker 1: it too, don't lie. I do. But but if it's
Speaker 1: too big, it's like, all right, this is too Oh
Speaker 1: my god, I loved it's so good. Pull that dragon
Speaker 1: out so I can feel it. Yeah, yeah, what what
Speaker 1: about talking? Like just talking in bad make you want
Speaker 1: to come faster? Yes? Shut up up like I'm not listening,
Speaker 1: or don't turn around and make that face that like
Speaker 1: why are you sucking me? Like it's a rap? You
Speaker 1: just ruined it. It's over now, curtains. Do you ever
Speaker 1: feel like sometimes have you ever said something during sex
Speaker 1: and been like, what the fund did I just say?
Speaker 1: I feel like I feel like I've done that drunk,
Speaker 1: like you just don't know what's coming out of your mouth.
Speaker 1: Say a few times and I really didn't mean it.
Speaker 1: But I never say I love you. I don't mean it.
Speaker 1: I didn't know I did. Definitely. That's a fucking song.
Speaker 1: Goddamn it. I'm just thinking, I never said I love you. Yeah, no,
Speaker 1: it's true. You never said I love you too. If
Speaker 1: somebody said it to you, no, Usually when we get
Speaker 1: to that point, I do love them, like I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 1: look and no I've been with all right. Not too
Speaker 1: long ago, I was working with somebody and they said
Speaker 1: I love you to me. They were like they like
Speaker 1: we were not like we were arguing. We were having
Speaker 1: an argument and he was like, you know stuff, you know,
Speaker 1: I'll only go through this with you because I love you.
Speaker 1: This was like this was so I was like, uh,
Speaker 1: I was like, you know, I got love for you too,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Baby, Now, I told him
Speaker 1: and he's like, he's like, He's like, and I understand
Speaker 1: that what I'm saying, And you know, I just feel
Speaker 1: like I wasn't gonna tell him that I was in
Speaker 1: love with him, And that's exactly what I said. I
Speaker 1: was like, what do you want me to do? You
Speaker 1: want me to tell you that I'm in love with you?
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm not in love with you. And no,
Speaker 1: but we weren't. We weren't even on that kind of five.
Speaker 1: That wasn't even our five. We were normal like this
Speaker 1: is at the time when I had two boyfriends. Remember everybody,
Speaker 1: I had two boyfriends that was at that time time.
Speaker 1: So obviously he was actually the second boyfriend. Yes, it
Speaker 1: was the backup boyfriend. But you know, when either way
Speaker 1: first or second, you're you're you're single, you're dating, and
Speaker 1: you're you're doing your thing, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: So that's what I'm saying. We weren't on a vibe like.
Speaker 1: It wasn't like I wasn't being honest with him. He
Speaker 1: knew I was sleeping with somebody else from time to time.
Speaker 1: You know what I mean, I think I love for them.
Speaker 1: I didn't not the guy. Okay, ask you could you
Speaker 1: be in love with both of them? Me in love? No,
Speaker 1: I don't feel like I feel like being in love
Speaker 1: like um, I feel like I'm a falling in love
Speaker 1: as person. But I don't fall in love with everybody
Speaker 1: like Gi. You you know, you know me well, like
Speaker 1: me and Gig like she knows names, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean, and you know like and you know I've
Speaker 1: I've dated some amazing guys who have treated me well,
Speaker 1: and I don't fall in love with them because I
Speaker 1: don't feel like we're on that we don't have that
Speaker 1: kind of spiritual connection, you know. To be in love
Speaker 1: with somebody, it's a it's a strong feeling, you know.
Speaker 1: It's a like I love my friends, and I love
Speaker 1: my things, and I love my job, I love my hair,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. But to be in love
Speaker 1: with somebody, that's that's like a different kind of thing,
Speaker 1: you know. So I'm not going at of You have
Speaker 1: a really unique theory about love. I think that we
Speaker 1: can be wrong about everything in the world, but we
Speaker 1: don't accept that we could be wrong about falling in love.
Speaker 1: I do believe you only can be in love one time,
Speaker 1: only once. And this is why I say this. I
Speaker 1: think the definition of love, the definition of love is um,
Speaker 1: unconditional and continuous. So to be in love with somebody
Speaker 1: and say I'm not in love with him no more,
Speaker 1: all you're doing is realizing that. Well, and that's another thing.
Speaker 1: That's what I think, and and the reason why I
Speaker 1: say that is this. We can be wrong about so
Speaker 1: many things, and we we feel like that's not possible.
Speaker 1: I was in love, No, you were infatuated with the
Speaker 1: feeling that you had been with this person, but over
Speaker 1: time that's feeling went away. And I think that it
Speaker 1: don't matter if he was with him for twenty years.
Speaker 1: You could be wrong like I was, or friends with
Speaker 1: somebody who I thought was my best friend and then
Speaker 1: he tried to steal from me and did so I
Speaker 1: had to realize this person wasn't a friend to me,
Speaker 1: he wasn't a real friend. So at the end of
Speaker 1: the day, I can say I was wrong about what
Speaker 1: I thought this person was. So why can't a significant other, Uh,
Speaker 1: the person of the opposite sex who you love orho
Speaker 1: you think you You can say I really love this person,
Speaker 1: but I wasn't necessarily. I don't believe that if it's
Speaker 1: really love, you can ever fall out. I just think
Speaker 1: that you can say I love somebody and I love
Speaker 1: them and I love being with them, because by nature,
Speaker 1: I think we're meant to love everybody. I think that's
Speaker 1: that's but to be in love with somebody, to have
Speaker 1: that connection my personal belief. And I'm not gonna say
Speaker 1: that if you believe otherwise, that you're wrong. I'm just
Speaker 1: saying my belief is that if you're in love with somebody,
Speaker 1: that's it. That's But if it's not, you don't realize
Speaker 1: I'm out of love with them, You realize, you know
Speaker 1: what it really wasn't what I know, I love them,
Speaker 1: I was never in love with them like I thought,
Speaker 1: because you know, do you think you could end up
Speaker 1: like never falling in love with anybody. I don't believe
Speaker 1: that that is possible. I think that, um No, I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna say that's not possible, because I think so
Speaker 1: many people live just earth and don't. Really I think
Speaker 1: maybe you missed out on the person that you would
Speaker 1: love with because the own whatever decisions or whatever they
Speaker 1: could have been locked up or whatever. I don't know,
Speaker 1: but it's just so many things that I feel like, Um,
Speaker 1: you can love somebody, but love changes, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. I feel like you can love someone so
Speaker 1: much I want done. You can love someone some away
Speaker 1: because I I feel like, Um, I still love my songs. Father,
Speaker 1: I'm not in love with exactly. So we were saying
Speaker 1: the same thing, you know what I mean. I love him.
Speaker 1: I love him for the rest of my life. He's
Speaker 1: very important to me. I think very highly of him.
Speaker 1: He's a wonderful man, you know what I mean. But
Speaker 1: I don't see myself being in a relationship. What I'm
Speaker 1: saying is the same thing you're saying. I love him
Speaker 1: though by nature we obviously, I believe we were born
Speaker 1: to love everybody, right, I feel like so much. So
Speaker 1: you have to teach a kid to go with a stranger.
Speaker 1: You have to teach him that because by nature we're
Speaker 1: trusting and we're giving and loving. So you have to
Speaker 1: exactly no, no, no, none, especially just when you're born.
Speaker 1: You have to be taught bad good. It's natural. Don't
Speaker 1: talk to somebody tells you this. If somebody does exactly,
Speaker 1: and you're taught that, and you can see the lightbulb
Speaker 1: go off when you're telling your kids, like, really, somebody
Speaker 1: would try to put me in that car. But like
Speaker 1: I remember telling my son and he was like, why
Speaker 1: don't they do that? Don't they want to go to heaven?
Speaker 1: You're not gonna You're not gonna get to heaven like that.
Speaker 1: Trying to put kids in vans ain't gonna get you
Speaker 1: to heaven. But in retrospect, for you, I always thought
Speaker 1: you were in love. Do you look back and say
Speaker 1: I wasn't in love now? I think we don't want
Speaker 1: to admit it though. I think we don't want to
Speaker 1: say that to this because we don't want to admit
Speaker 1: that we wasted a lot of time. But it's not
Speaker 1: wasted times. No, That's why I agree I said a
Speaker 1: lot of times. In mind, we think I have to
Speaker 1: say that it was love because I was in love
Speaker 1: because I don't want to feel like I wasted my time.
Speaker 1: But I think they are lessons and I think we
Speaker 1: learned and how to how to do with people and
Speaker 1: we see things. I always say this, and this is
Speaker 1: something that um I point out to all of my friends.
Speaker 1: Every time you with somebody and you break up with them,
Speaker 1: I don't care if it's ten years, fifteen years. The
Speaker 1: sign that you saw that you shouldn't have been with
Speaker 1: them happened within the first month. I guarantee it. You
Speaker 1: liked them enough to keep going and you ignored it.
Speaker 1: But I guarantee you if you look back in retrospect
Speaker 1: and say to yourself, I knew on week two when
Speaker 1: that motherfucker did this ship that I shouldn't have fun
Speaker 1: with him. Right, What do you think, Because I know
Speaker 1: you had a long term relationship, they were definitely some
Speaker 1: red flags. But you think looking back, you feel like
Speaker 1: you were in love or you feel like I feel
Speaker 1: like I wasn't in love. I don't feel like that's
Speaker 1: my one love, and that's it. I understand the logic
Speaker 1: of behind what you're saying. Um you know, I'm sitting
Speaker 1: here thinking about it as you're saying that. Actually, however,
Speaker 1: with that particular situation, UM, I do think I was
Speaker 1: in love, like I was able to look past a
Speaker 1: whole lot of things, and I feel like it was
Speaker 1: I was blinded by love. Um Am, I still in love? No?
Speaker 1: I love him, yes, of course, but I'm not in
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. I really believe that you realize
Speaker 1: that this isn't the person, and that you really wasn't
Speaker 1: in love. You was you love spending time with them.
Speaker 1: You love with whatever they had to offer, and I
Speaker 1: don't mean financially or whatever. I mean whatever they had
Speaker 1: to in your life give to you in your life,
Speaker 1: and and you you were infatuated with that, so that
Speaker 1: when that break happens, it hurts. But over time, you
Speaker 1: could look at that same person be with somebody else
Speaker 1: and it don't affect you the same way because it's like,
Speaker 1: I'm not moving like that. That's not where I'm at,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And when you get to
Speaker 1: that point, it may be a situation where you get
Speaker 1: back with them and you realize, no, I'm really in
Speaker 1: love this person. Over in time showed me that I was.
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to hear. I'm not here to tell
Speaker 1: people that who they're not in love or not. I
Speaker 1: just believe that it's one one time only only because
Speaker 1: of my face. Honestly, you know, I listen to me,
Speaker 1: or you think you know, and you said because of
Speaker 1: your faith and the way, that's what I was just
Speaker 1: thinking of. You took the word right out of my head.
Speaker 1: I hope you're right because of my faith, because I
Speaker 1: want to end up with that one person. I don't
Speaker 1: want to turn this into like I really hope that
Speaker 1: you're right. I definitely don't want to turn it into
Speaker 1: a Bible city, but don't want you to. I want
Speaker 1: you to understand everything on earth is just an example
Speaker 1: of the relationship. We should have a God. Right now,
Speaker 1: people want to call it the universe or whatever they
Speaker 1: want to call it. But at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: the relationship that you're the bond between a mother and
Speaker 1: a and a daughter is a relationship that is supposed
Speaker 1: to have a God. The father and the daughter, the
Speaker 1: father and the son is just an example of how
Speaker 1: much God loves us, and we should love him and
Speaker 1: reverence him. So a marriage relationship is just that relationship.
Speaker 1: God is a jealous God. Why do you think we're jealous?
Speaker 1: It's everything is a mimic, it's a relationship. Is an
Speaker 1: example of how we should feel about him, right, or
Speaker 1: whatever you want to believe in, because I'm not trying
Speaker 1: to force my beliefs on anybody. Whatever you believe is
Speaker 1: that for exactly. So what I'm saying is when you
Speaker 1: have that you, and when you believe that strongly in
Speaker 1: your heart, then you it's impossible for me to believe
Speaker 1: that me and my imperfection can't get it wrong and
Speaker 1: assume that for this amount of time I was in
Speaker 1: love with somebody and not grow and say to myself,
Speaker 1: you know what, that wasn't necessarily a case. I wasn't
Speaker 1: really in love with this person. We have to be
Speaker 1: mature enough to accept that we don't know everything and
Speaker 1: we made a mistake and was with somebody like it
Speaker 1: hurts you to realize that I was with especially with women,
Speaker 1: because with men. With men, we feel like a lot
Speaker 1: of times women feel like, well he's a man. He
Speaker 1: can be seven years old, get another girl, have a baby,
Speaker 1: and everything is different. I have to start over and
Speaker 1: it's more difficult fas and I respect that point of view.
Speaker 1: So a lot of times you're angry with yourself and
Speaker 1: you feel like I spent all this time with this nigga,
Speaker 1: I'd better been in love. I can't be this fucking crazy.
Speaker 1: But it's like, we are imperfect. Let me ask you this,
Speaker 1: what if you're in love with somebody who's taken and
Speaker 1: you feel like you're in love with somebody, but there
Speaker 1: with some I believe that. Look, this is what I believe.
Speaker 1: And I'm not trying to tell Aboudy to go for
Speaker 1: and not that that's some advice ain't gonna give you,
Speaker 1: but but this is what I'm saying. Just because somebody
Speaker 1: is with somebody don't mean that that's not the person
Speaker 1: for you. That don't necessarily mean that they're not for you.
Speaker 1: It just means that right now they could be going
Speaker 1: through their phase of not really knowing what they're doing
Speaker 1: and being in the wrong situation. And I believe that
Speaker 1: if you trust again, I don't want to turn the
Speaker 1: Bible state, but if you trust God and say yourself,
Speaker 1: I trust that whatever is supposed to happen for me,
Speaker 1: He's gonna make available for me, then it will become
Speaker 1: available for you. All right. Now, let's get to one
Speaker 1: of these questions that somebody wrote in because that actually
Speaker 1: from us. I was the other day I was. I
Speaker 1: have been married for eight years. My husband and I
Speaker 1: had our first child after two years of marriage. We
Speaker 1: put our child first, which kind of put our marriage
Speaker 1: on the back burner. In hindsight, that was not a
Speaker 1: good idea. Everything he does irks me. It didn't become
Speaker 1: this way overnight. It happened after he fell into a
Speaker 1: depression a few years back. I did my best to
Speaker 1: support him because I know what that feels like from experience.
Speaker 1: He sat at home during this time, which was okay
Speaker 1: at first, but ultimately letter our financial ruin. As it
Speaker 1: was happening, I begged him to get a job, but
Speaker 1: he went inside worked while he was at home with
Speaker 1: our child. Though that wasn't where I wanted him to
Speaker 1: be in my resentment group, and her question is I
Speaker 1: just don't love him and I don't want to be
Speaker 1: with him anymore. So I try to work this out
Speaker 1: for the take of our marriage, going fast, Get going fast?
Speaker 1: Why the kid is young enough to not be so attached,
Speaker 1: and then you can get over it. Don't wait till
Speaker 1: the kid is nineteen and starts hating himself and blaming
Speaker 1: itself for you. You know what I mean going now?
Speaker 1: And what I say is this, I can never depression
Speaker 1: is serious, and we can't question depression. But what I
Speaker 1: do know is that I'm a man who believes in
Speaker 1: figure this shit out. Let's get the funk up and
Speaker 1: let's figure this shot out. I've been dead, poor I
Speaker 1: had nothing in my pocket and I've had millions, so
Speaker 1: I know what it's like to be able to say, bro,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna figure this shot out and I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: some mother fucking money for my family. And so some
Speaker 1: people ain't built like that. And that's why I don't
Speaker 1: believe she wants to be with him, because she not
Speaker 1: attracted to that weak nigger ship. And I ain't mad
Speaker 1: at her. She's supposed to because he's you know, and
Speaker 1: I don't want to get all the way crazy. But
Speaker 1: but at the end of the day, when you got children,
Speaker 1: he is one thing to say, I'm by myself and
Speaker 1: I gotta but when you when you have a child,
Speaker 1: it's something that that's in you that has to I
Speaker 1: told my son the other day. My son said, data,
Speaker 1: can you lift this car up? I said, if it
Speaker 1: fell on you, I could, because I'm gonna find something
Speaker 1: in myself that's gonna be bigger than, greater than who
Speaker 1: I name my daughter, Believe beyond, because when I look
Speaker 1: at her, I gotta say to myself, I gotta believe
Speaker 1: beyond every circumstance, every situation, everything I'm going through, and
Speaker 1: know that I gotta provide for her and also out
Speaker 1: to know that there's something greater for me beyond this situation,
Speaker 1: beyond my last name. I gotta believe beyond whatever I
Speaker 1: can even see. So if you can't find that it
Speaker 1: muster that power up in yourself to provide for your family,
Speaker 1: then you don't need to be with him. He needs
Speaker 1: to figure out hisself. He needs to figure out who
Speaker 1: he is and when he's doing. There's only so much
Speaker 1: you can help him. You try for six years. But
Speaker 1: depression is a real thing. There's a real thing. But
Speaker 1: sometimes but you gotta live your life too. So until
Speaker 1: they get over their depression, you gotta praveing them and
Speaker 1: let them rock. But you can't be miserable your life
Speaker 1: because another grown person is going through what they're going
Speaker 1: through and not trying to say what they're going through
Speaker 1: isn't real. But is it your obligation to not be happy? No,
Speaker 1: it's not all right. Now, here's one last question you're
Speaker 1: gonna I want to hear this your answer to this one. Okay,
Speaker 1: I've been dating this girl for quite some time and
Speaker 1: I'm in love with her. I want to be with her.
Speaker 1: I can really see us in the future. The only
Speaker 1: thing is she's in school about five hours away, and
Speaker 1: you know how college schedules are set up. Well, when
Speaker 1: she's the way, I tend to sleep around and it's
Speaker 1: only because she's gone, and I really don't want this
Speaker 1: to be what I but what can I do to
Speaker 1: stop myself from this? Bro? You're gonna sleep around when
Speaker 1: she comes around to just seeing you? Bro? Sorry, Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's it's cute that you weren't mean this person that's
Speaker 1: sleeping around, but you can't bus men. We we put
Speaker 1: up so many excuses on why we do the funk
Speaker 1: ship do we do? But at the end of the day, Bro,
Speaker 1: you're saying, you, Bro, you got you gotta figure out
Speaker 1: if when you're gonna get tired of you know, or
Speaker 1: if you're ever going. It's just a difficult thing. It's
Speaker 1: one of those things that I can't even I'm the
Speaker 1: worst to give advice from that. But at the end
Speaker 1: of the day, you know, just being a buck at
Speaker 1: the end of the day, I don't think it's because
Speaker 1: she five hours where she'll get there and you'll find
Speaker 1: a way to suck somebody. What made you finally realize
Speaker 1: that it was time to settle down? Um, far settling down.
Speaker 1: I had already settled down, but I just think that
Speaker 1: what made me resent. I'm gonna be honest with you,
Speaker 1: social media and our lack of discretion, you know. I
Speaker 1: think that's what turned me off from just fucking with bitches.
Speaker 1: And I think that's not a fair reason. I'll be
Speaker 1: honest with you. That's not a good reason because it
Speaker 1: wasn't my respect for the sanctity of the relationship. It
Speaker 1: was like these we just talked too much, and that's
Speaker 1: what made me feel like, let me just stay at
Speaker 1: home and let me just not if you ever noticed me?
Speaker 1: And how just because I feel like whatever home? Because
Speaker 1: I don't want to I don't want to be involved
Speaker 1: in any ship. So what I think, what I think
Speaker 1: happens is you start looking around and realizing, like I
Speaker 1: started getting to like when I watch people post and
Speaker 1: I watched the little pictures of the guys watch and
Speaker 1: and and in the trip, and I'm like, Yo, you're
Speaker 1: not showing his face for a reason. You stop showing
Speaker 1: his fucking watch, bitch, you giving them away, Like, stop
Speaker 1: doing that, Like why do we have to talk so much?
Speaker 1: So it made me bring, are you gonnow that you're
Speaker 1: in his car exactly, Like why the fund you posting
Speaker 1: up in his car, you little bird exactly. So it's
Speaker 1: like this whole real quick, Yeah, this whole, this whole
Speaker 1: thing about showing everything and talking about everything and a
Speaker 1: lack of discretion. It kind of bothers me. So it
Speaker 1: kind of like it's like it's so annoying because and
Speaker 1: isn't that a turn off for a guy? Girl does
Speaker 1: that corny ship? And that's let me tell you. And
Speaker 1: then I see Nick his wife from later, I'm like, yo,
Speaker 1: you know this bach is just on ninety trips with
Speaker 1: ninety different things and you disgusting. No, but my thing
Speaker 1: is my thing is you know, like I've been out here,
Speaker 1: like you know, I've been. I've been, and I've been
Speaker 1: doing videos for the first video idea was like seven
Speaker 1: years ago. Like it's pretty much seven years ago, right,
Speaker 1: that's not too long, I don't but I think it's
Speaker 1: longer than a lot of girls last. But it's it's
Speaker 1: been a while, you know whatever. In seven years, there
Speaker 1: hasn't really been no bullshit about me because I refused
Speaker 1: to be famous or for some bird ship like that.
Speaker 1: If it's gonna be my if it's gonna be birdship.
Speaker 1: It's gonna be my bird ship. I'm not gonna bring
Speaker 1: some guys, you know, bringing somebody I respect, because if
Speaker 1: I'm working with you, I respect you. You know what
Speaker 1: I mean, down because I want a little attention. But
Speaker 1: even and it gets me so mad seeing God's funk
Speaker 1: with these girls. It gets I'm not even alive. He's like,
Speaker 1: I'm and you're doing the right thing, and you're doing
Speaker 1: you know, you're on a good stretch of you know,
Speaker 1: not being a whore. What happens is no, seriously, what
Speaker 1: happens is the public eye is so dangerous because women
Speaker 1: will taunt your girl and just say things that aren't
Speaker 1: even you know. He's like, yo, you know he fun
Speaker 1: with my friend, he'd be buying my friend or type
Speaker 1: of ship. Who's your friend? And let's see the friend,
Speaker 1: Like if this this, if it makes you this upset
Speaker 1: and you want to make her this man, show me
Speaker 1: to receive let's see the evidence, and then we gotta
Speaker 1: It's like it causes problems in your space and your
Speaker 1: energy is altered because of these fucking bitches who've got
Speaker 1: nothing else to do. But then and then you gotta
Speaker 1: look at yourself and say and be honest enough. One
Speaker 1: thing about me is I'm very honest to a fault.
Speaker 1: So what I say is if I gotta blame myself,
Speaker 1: because it's like, bro, if you didn't do the fun
Speaker 1: ship before you now you're in a situation where everything
Speaker 1: you guilty. And I always tell people I'm going to
Speaker 1: jail for every charge I did, But I'm not going
Speaker 1: to jail for somebody else charge. I can't do it.
Speaker 1: So I'm not gonna sit here and play with you
Speaker 1: about fight with you about some ship I didn't do
Speaker 1: if I did it, Listen, it is what it is.
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, I'm not about
Speaker 1: to be fighting and wrestling about some ship that has
Speaker 1: nothing to do with me. And we got to learn
Speaker 1: how to look past the jealousy and the hatred that right,
Speaker 1: And like you said, when you're when you're dating on
Speaker 1: certain types of people, certain a lot of people are
Speaker 1: gonna come to you with stories once they find out,
Speaker 1: and it's like, do you you want to listen to
Speaker 1: them or you want to be happy? Like just I
Speaker 1: feel like you should let your relationship flow and stead
Speaker 1: like having a lot of outsider a lot of outside
Speaker 1: static you're never gonna have happening. When Tony Breckon said
Speaker 1: that ship, like if you ain't going leave, then shut
Speaker 1: the funk up, you know what I mean? And I
Speaker 1: think that's the error that we used to have because
Speaker 1: my grandmother, like I think my grandfather had like, you know,
Speaker 1: two or three kids it and nobody really understood. I
Speaker 1: remember acting like, hold on, man, how is uncle okay
Speaker 1: with what's going because it was back then it was
Speaker 1: like listen, that's my nigga, right funked up, But that's
Speaker 1: my nigga, you know, And we're about to be out
Speaker 1: here putting our business out here. But the best believe
Speaker 1: we got in this back room, I told this nigga,
Speaker 1: he ain't ship, you know what I mean. So I
Speaker 1: just think that it should be a certain level of
Speaker 1: exclusivity when it comes to relationships, and it's not that anymore.
Speaker 1: What I believe from the jump was that to keep
Speaker 1: it private. But then what happens is when you keep
Speaker 1: your relationship private. Now you got her people telling her white,
Speaker 1: and then when you told him, and then when you
Speaker 1: tell them from it, when you tell him from the beginning,
Speaker 1: like look, I just don't want to know none of
Speaker 1: the issues that come along with it. Then you do
Speaker 1: it and post it, and now all the issues that
Speaker 1: are said was gonna happen happens, and now everybody looking
Speaker 1: at like why he out here? Makes you look crazy?
Speaker 1: Which no mighty knew who she was before you started
Speaker 1: button in. So now it's just what can you do?
Speaker 1: You know, it's out the way because you don't even
Speaker 1: have to do no wrong. I'm telling you as it's
Speaker 1: like real, you know, life experience. I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 1: I feel like in order for a relationship to work,
Speaker 1: it has to be private for a long time, until
Speaker 1: you're very solid and secure, because if you put things
Speaker 1: out there too early, people do not want to see
Speaker 1: you happy. Some people do, but then other people would
Speaker 1: be like, oh wow. He's what I've realized too is
Speaker 1: people don't even know that Hayden right, Like I used
Speaker 1: to think, like how you just this that evil? But
Speaker 1: in their mind they're thinking they justified, like she need
Speaker 1: to know, she need to know how to any ship? Why?
Speaker 1: Why but a stranger? That's ridiculous. This was a very insightful. Actually,
Speaker 1: we had a great time with you because I do
Speaker 1: always like rica lest honesty and his theories on relationship.
Speaker 1: So can we bring this to Miami for a special
Speaker 1: lip service in Miami segment. I think that this would
Speaker 1: be fun. Did the service and had a great time.
Speaker 1: She was like, next time I do this, can we
Speaker 1: cancel everything for the rest of the day. I didn't
Speaker 1: want to leave. Yeah, let's let's do a special South
Speaker 1: Beach one. I'm down, Let's do it. Let's do it
Speaker 1: at this time. I'm gonna get the big big flies
Speaker 1: penthouse at this time for us. Right, we're gonna film
Speaker 1: and the camera crews for your guys. My guys is
Speaker 1: gonna be ten cameras is gonna be looking like you
Speaker 1: know what I mean that. We have to do it,
Speaker 1: and I making house. Make this happen soon, you never
Speaker 1: for television. Let's do it this summer. Yeah, maybe we
Speaker 1: should do a special. Yeah, let's do it. And I
Speaker 1: actually have some sit I see y'all doing this ship
Speaker 1: with Draking somebody. I'm gonna have all replace. They're gonna
Speaker 1: be down and be texting and she's gonna be curving. Yeah,
Speaker 1: we just Sundy Beach. We're gonna do that. We're gonna
Speaker 1: do three days of lip service, okay, and we're gonna
Speaker 1: in Miami now that we're gonna do with you all
Speaker 1: three Yeah, alright, cool, let's do it. We do a
Speaker 1: specially in Miami version. Yes, this is all brought to
Speaker 1: you by Rico Love. Yes, it was gonna be so
Speaker 1: sexy and Flynn think and then maybe if you have
Speaker 1: some new music that you would to perhaps some of
Speaker 1: the episodes and we can do it like that some
Speaker 1: parents and they could be on lip service and see,
Speaker 1: I have a marketing mind. So by the way, I
Speaker 1: just came up with ten ideas exactly, I love you
Speaker 1: and no. But it was really refreshing having a guess
Speaker 1: with so much faith. It's it's like, that's so good
Speaker 1: for me. Right, guys, I'm already talking about God, even
Speaker 1: though I know everybody thinks I'm evil and that I
Speaker 1: want to say I want to say something, Oh please,
Speaker 1: because I don't want you to. I don't want you
Speaker 1: to ever say that even though you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: God is with us from jump. We're imperfect, were imperfect,
Speaker 1: So it's no way that we could ever be in
Speaker 1: His good graces if it was up to what we
Speaker 1: did and how we thought and how we behaved ourselves.
Speaker 1: So at the end of the day. That's why it's
Speaker 1: important not to judge anybody, because the blessings I have
Speaker 1: are not because the good I've done. That's why I
Speaker 1: know that anything that ever happened bad to me wasn't
Speaker 1: because the bad I've done. I've never was good enough
Speaker 1: to earn his love for me, right, so how could
Speaker 1: I have to be bad enough to lose it? You
Speaker 1: get what I'm saying. So I want us to always
Speaker 1: know and no matter what, stop judging people when they
Speaker 1: say I'm praying on this what you just was doing this? Yes,
Speaker 1: you're right, that was And guess what, God still love me?
Speaker 1: Why are you worry? That's Remember, there's no even, there's
Speaker 1: no even though it's no in spite of it's just
Speaker 1: the fact that God loves me and that's it and
Speaker 1: I love him and that's it and love ladies and gentlemen,
Speaker 1: and uh, let's not let's make sure that we just
Speaker 1: got a advason because you do have you know your
Speaker 1: music that you do all the time, and it's UM
Speaker 1: July July we Love Music conference. UM is gonna be
Speaker 1: an Indianapolis, Indiana. Uh. The reason why I put in
Speaker 1: the Midwest is because I feel like they don't have opportunity.
Speaker 1: They don't have access to a lot of the information
Speaker 1: and celebrity and advice that people have in other cities.
Speaker 1: So I wanted to bring it closer to them and
Speaker 1: give them my opportunity. I only charged one seventy five
Speaker 1: for two day events. I did a hotel rate for
Speaker 1: one thirty for a night with the J W. Murray.
Speaker 1: I want to make it accessible with people, and I
Speaker 1: wanted people to come. You should come, You guys should come.
Speaker 1: Maybe we should do a special service at the conference.
Speaker 1: So I think it's really cool to be able to
Speaker 1: educate people on how to create an incredible record, how
Speaker 1: to produce a great body of work. I got bet
Speaker 1: Cox and um Danger producing the track live from scratch
Speaker 1: in front of the entire UM convention. We got treated there.
Speaker 1: We're gonna be talking about her project, how she was
Speaker 1: able to maintain her career after all these years being
Speaker 1: a woman. There's a lot of women who follow me
Speaker 1: and I have a lot of female fans, and what
Speaker 1: I taught them last year was proper studio etiquette. How
Speaker 1: to know somebody mean business, how to know when somebody's
Speaker 1: being a professional, when they're trying to fuck you. I
Speaker 1: want to make sure I let all my guys know
Speaker 1: who was at the conference. Listen, these are your sisters.
Speaker 1: I don't want us to trying to match make here.
Speaker 1: I want if you want to work with somebody, let's
Speaker 1: be serious. I want to stress that I got Tammy
Speaker 1: Rivera coming. We're gonna talk about her transition from reality
Speaker 1: star to artists. I got um Ludicrous coming. He's gonna
Speaker 1: speak about picking records and understand how to break down records.
Speaker 1: I'm doing a lecture that breaks down Abbey Row, which
Speaker 1: is one of my favorite Beatles albums, and understanding what
Speaker 1: makes something great. My father is a chef, and when
Speaker 1: he cooks, when he eats a meal, he's able to
Speaker 1: dissect and say it's a regular, it's nutmegs, this, all
Speaker 1: these things in the meal because he's he's perfected the
Speaker 1: craft of understanding what makes a meal great. I want
Speaker 1: to show people how to do that. Music listen to
Speaker 1: it and not just listen to it and love it
Speaker 1: your signing. Your job whenever you're around me is to
Speaker 1: not just like something. It's to understand why you like
Speaker 1: it and what makes it great, not so that you
Speaker 1: can mimic it, but so that when you create something,
Speaker 1: you know that feeling. So when I when I first
Speaker 1: heard you Got It Bad a Boy Usher, I remember
Speaker 1: how it felt and I felt that same way when
Speaker 1: I wrote that Goes my Baby Pusha because I understood,
Speaker 1: like this makes me feel this way. So when I
Speaker 1: wrote it, that song identified with that feeling, so I
Speaker 1: knew I had something special. I want to teach people
Speaker 1: how to do that. And that's great because you know,
Speaker 1: there's certain songs that you hear it, and when you
Speaker 1: hear it, you get love songs. And I mean, you know,
Speaker 1: there's fun pop songs that you dance to it that
Speaker 1: anybody could that's a great song no matter who sings it.
Speaker 1: But then there's songs that you hear and you have
Speaker 1: like a real special guction. You get emotional. I remember
Speaker 1: when that song when I'm going through this, Yeah, when
Speaker 1: I first heard We Found Love by Rihanna, I stopped
Speaker 1: my car. I'm not I'm not exaggerating, but it was
Speaker 1: like it felt like a music video because it was raining,
Speaker 1: and I stopped the car and I was just like,
Speaker 1: what the fund did she just say when she said
Speaker 1: we found of Love in a hopeless place? I was done,
Speaker 1: and I was like, the way you describe your emotions.
Speaker 1: To have that gift and have the ability to describe
Speaker 1: how people are feeling, we cannot take that for granted.
Speaker 1: We cannot. We cannot take it likely lightly. We have
Speaker 1: to take it serious and we have to make sure
Speaker 1: that it's our duty, is an obligation to be great
Speaker 1: every time we do anything. And I want people to
Speaker 1: know me for my greatness as opposed to you know
Speaker 1: how much when people ask you about how much money
Speaker 1: you make and all that, I think it's corny like,
Speaker 1: because guess what, you don't matter if I got a billion,
Speaker 1: if I got nothing. I have a gift. And that's
Speaker 1: the thing that makes room for you. That's the thing
Speaker 1: that puts you in the presence of kings and queens
Speaker 1: and greatness is your gift and the ability that you
Speaker 1: have that's intangible. If you focus on the intangibles. I
Speaker 1: promise you everything in this world that you could physically
Speaker 1: touch you can have if you perfect the intangibles. So
Speaker 1: that's what the conference is about to come. You know, ge,
Speaker 1: I'm always talking. I was just watching a movie about
Speaker 1: waking up and super consciousness. This is good for my brain. Awakening. Yes,
Speaker 1: I need it. Thank you so much, because I was
Speaker 1: really glad that you came. I was looking forward to
Speaker 1: because i've been when I have you up here, and
Speaker 1: I know we tried to make it happen a few times.
Speaker 1: Scheduling Wise said I know you'll be back again, absolutely,
Speaker 1: and we're doing in Miami and Miami down. All right,
Speaker 1: we call up lip Service