WEBVTT - Episode 98: Ft. Rico Love

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<v Speaker 1>What's up? Its lip service? Don't you heard me sing?

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<v Speaker 1>Somebody saw me? Sonny, I'm just happening stops and I'm G. G.

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<v Speaker 1>Maguire and we got Rica love here. We're just have

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<v Speaker 1>an interesting conversation. Right before we started, I was saying,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so glad I didn't grow up with social media

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<v Speaker 1>because I've probably had so many crazy pictures and I

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<v Speaker 1>probably would have said crazy stuff on twitch exactly. I

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<v Speaker 1>can't even imagine the nutship I would have been posting

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<v Speaker 1>when I was a teenager. Jesus, we had tougher skin

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<v Speaker 1>growing up too, Like we could deal with ridicule a

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<v Speaker 1>little better. But I don't know if we would have

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<v Speaker 1>been able to handle it if it was every second.

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<v Speaker 1>Imagine a kid in the ninth grade who gets talked

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<v Speaker 1>about the school and it's posted in hashtag every day

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<v Speaker 1>and you got to go to school tomorrow. As an adult,

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<v Speaker 1>as a successful adult, you can deal with people saying

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<v Speaker 1>you're ugly in your whack and this this is that

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<v Speaker 1>because you go home to a nice house, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>But as a kid, you like, what am I going

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<v Speaker 1>to do? Like they? And if you go viral, forget it?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh you've done man. Imagine all the girls giving head

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<v Speaker 1>in about to say vil. You know, we would have

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<v Speaker 1>been filming that ship except that child pornography. I'm just saying,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I always say that I feel like they

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<v Speaker 1>should teach courses now in school, make it like part

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<v Speaker 1>of the curriculum about social media and like how not

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<v Speaker 1>to use it and away campaigns, and they should in school,

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<v Speaker 1>like they should be part of like because we didn't

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<v Speaker 1>grow up with that, that's a whole different world. But

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<v Speaker 1>they should tell people like this is inappropriate. How did

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<v Speaker 1>this make you feel? Look at this story kind of

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<v Speaker 1>like a warning to people, like what you shouldn't be posting,

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<v Speaker 1>what you shouldn't be saying to return. You saw those

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<v Speaker 1>students from Harvard that they had like a Facebook chat

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<v Speaker 1>group and they were writing things in the chat group.

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<v Speaker 1>They had just got accepted, so they were going to

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<v Speaker 1>be like the class of UM and somebody reported them

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<v Speaker 1>that was in the group, like one of the students

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<v Speaker 1>that got in. It was like they're saying like racial things,

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<v Speaker 1>They're saying like Nancy things, and they resended their offer

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<v Speaker 1>letters and now they're not going to Harvard. When you see, now,

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<v Speaker 1>since we're talking about that, let's talk about Derrick Rose

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<v Speaker 1>for a second, now, Rico, I don't know if you've

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<v Speaker 1>seen this story, but apparently his girlfriend they pulled up

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<v Speaker 1>some of her old tweets, right, and she was saying

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<v Speaker 1>things like I hate bald headed little black girls. And

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<v Speaker 1>then she said, you can chase those little ugly black girls,

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<v Speaker 1>and Elena just gonna sit here in the spotlight without you.

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<v Speaker 1>And then she said, making over here, thinking of all

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<v Speaker 1>the things that make black girls mad, I'm dying all

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<v Speaker 1>the black bitches mad because his wife, Vanilla Taylor, and

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<v Speaker 1>I made a whole list of ship we don't like

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<v Speaker 1>in the number one thing was black people. L m

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<v Speaker 1>f A out. Hold on, this is the girlfriend white?

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<v Speaker 1>Now she is half white, but I don't know where

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<v Speaker 1>her other has because I get I get lost. Her

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<v Speaker 1>name is um Elna Anderson. And she actually deleted her

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<v Speaker 1>Twitter and went private and everything after these old tweets

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<v Speaker 1>resurfaced of what she was writing. Now, let's just say, um,

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<v Speaker 1>this is from two eleven. It doesn't even matter how

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<v Speaker 1>old it is years ago. How I mean, I guess

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<v Speaker 1>I would have to know, but it doesn't even matter, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't understand how can someone like get it together,

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<v Speaker 1>they'll fix their fingers to right. But surprised how many

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<v Speaker 1>people feel that and think that that's insane. You can

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<v Speaker 1>feel it and think it don't mean. What I'm saying

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<v Speaker 1>is it's like a reality to them, So it's comfortable

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<v Speaker 1>they have comfortable when I say how many? When you

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<v Speaker 1>know that many people feel that way, you don't feel

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<v Speaker 1>uncomfortable saying you know what I mean. It's just like

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<v Speaker 1>with the whole political thing. Now. Used to be certain

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<v Speaker 1>things off limits, Now that you feel like they're not,

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<v Speaker 1>you feel comfortable saying whatever you want to say if

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<v Speaker 1>you know that the masses agree with you. That's the

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<v Speaker 1>only thing that makes things politically correct and incorrect is

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<v Speaker 1>the fact that I fear that my feelings will be shunned.

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<v Speaker 1>But when I feel like my feelings are, people agree

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<v Speaker 1>with my feelings and I feel okay to say that.

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<v Speaker 1>And so many people say that they did a study

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<v Speaker 1>in the UK or did a question in the UK.

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<v Speaker 1>When you're going out around acting, ran them young males

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<v Speaker 1>in the UK like what type of girls they like?

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<v Speaker 1>And it was like red bone, light skinned, big titties,

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<v Speaker 1>no dockies, no no dog skins and no ship like that.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I just saw that on media take out.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like the only person in the whole world. Seriously,

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<v Speaker 1>what do you think now, Like, say that happened to you,

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<v Speaker 1>right you found out your girl had put put this

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<v Speaker 1>up you didn't know, and now it goes viral. Would

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<v Speaker 1>you feel like, man, I can't be with her anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a tough situation if you was already like be

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<v Speaker 1>from one and it's easy out with you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I know. But if you really love her, it's difficult

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<v Speaker 1>because you think about it, if somebody you really loved us,

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<v Speaker 1>some dumb ship back in the day, what are you

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<v Speaker 1>going to penalize them for that you love them? Right now?

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<v Speaker 1>So obviously when you break up and I'm like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you racist bitch, what do you feel the need to

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<v Speaker 1>address it? Absolutely? And I would feel the need to

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<v Speaker 1>her to address it together and we could be like, yo,

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<v Speaker 1>you listen, just so y'all know I wasn't cool with that,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I you know, I let her know that

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't. That's not something I agree with and that's

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<v Speaker 1>not something I find attractive at all. You know, I

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<v Speaker 1>had to make a decision, like, yo, am I still

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<v Speaker 1>gonna all the great things I love about her? Now

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<v Speaker 1>am I going to penalize her for my mistakes? Then

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta ask myself, what about everything I've said in

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<v Speaker 1>my life? What if she held me accountable for all

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<v Speaker 1>those things? And I've grown and matured as a person.

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<v Speaker 1>I think we do have that right to grow mature

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<v Speaker 1>as people, because I know some girls I grew up

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<v Speaker 1>with who used to say some really fucked up about

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<v Speaker 1>dawkskin people and dawskin girls now and I don't think

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<v Speaker 1>they feel that way now. But that was the thing

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<v Speaker 1>we changed. I think that was the normal. God, I've

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<v Speaker 1>never felt like that. I never felt like I've never

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<v Speaker 1>been I'm so glad you haven't. You know so a lot.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm dog skin, so I know I had used to

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<v Speaker 1>say that. People would be like, oh you just because

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<v Speaker 1>you like skin and stuff like that. Shut up me.

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<v Speaker 1>And we was just talking about this in the car.

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<v Speaker 1>I think the most beau beautiful people are like darker

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<v Speaker 1>like yeah. I think the we were just talking about

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<v Speaker 1>is the fact that it can come in all types

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<v Speaker 1>of different shades. And today, like I hate when people

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<v Speaker 1>say like, oh, that's not my type. I feel like,

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<v Speaker 1>what is the type? Like? Today you can see something

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful in something that you that you thought before was obscure.

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<v Speaker 1>So I think that to find beauty and things is

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<v Speaker 1>the gift of life, is not to be able to

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<v Speaker 1>limit yourself to this is what I like. So today

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<v Speaker 1>I think today I can say that this is the

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<v Speaker 1>most incredible moment I feel right now, right, and then

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<v Speaker 1>tomorrow I can say wow, today, this moment now is

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<v Speaker 1>trumps that one. So I can see something I think

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<v Speaker 1>it's so beautiful, and then I could say later, you

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<v Speaker 1>know what, I think that is the most beautiful thing

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<v Speaker 1>I've ever seen, and I have the right to change it.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think that's the gift of life, and the

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<v Speaker 1>gift of love is to be able to say I

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<v Speaker 1>have a limitless amount of you know, ability to like

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<v Speaker 1>and love different things. That's two, because I to hate beards,

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<v Speaker 1>and now I'm fine with it, but I hate I agree.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't be like I don't like face your hair.

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<v Speaker 1>I like it really clean cut guys. But now I'm like, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>a bear could be right right, I feel. And I

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<v Speaker 1>remember when guys would Dredd used to be really in

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<v Speaker 1>and used to be like, okay, y'all. When I was younger,

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<v Speaker 1>everybody wanted a boyfriend, the head dread, and then I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I don't know if I want a guy

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<v Speaker 1>who was here as longer than mine. And then now

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<v Speaker 1>everybody's baldet that all right, now we want to ask

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<v Speaker 1>you about this. So I don't think this is a

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<v Speaker 1>real story, but just and pertaining to you. They were

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<v Speaker 1>putting out the story about offset and saying to him

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<v Speaker 1>and Cardi b broke up because he tried to charge

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<v Speaker 1>her two for a verse. Now I don't think that's true.

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<v Speaker 1>But let's just say you're dating somebody, right and they're

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<v Speaker 1>a singer, do you charge them for a track? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>because they're not paying for this the company, and this

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<v Speaker 1>is business. But if she's not signed, um who's funding her?

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<v Speaker 1>If she's not funny, if nobody's funny and she ain't

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<v Speaker 1>got nobody paying for it, didn't, I won't charge her.

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<v Speaker 1>She has a label behind her. If she got a company,

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<v Speaker 1>then that's a budget and they're gonna get you gotta

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<v Speaker 1>understand about these companies they're gonna take. They're gonna say

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<v Speaker 1>that you're not recouped anyway. So let's get this money.

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<v Speaker 1>And if and if that's the case, if she, if

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<v Speaker 1>I funk with her, and it's a budget in place, Yo,

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<v Speaker 1>let's bust it down. They're gonna pay me sixty for

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<v Speaker 1>a record. I buy you some veryrings of watching something.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's do it. No. I I agree with what you're

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<v Speaker 1>saying if the label is paying for but if it's not,

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<v Speaker 1>like I think different. I did train this whole project, right.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't charge training nothing. That's my sister. I love her.

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<v Speaker 1>But what I did was I just said, my guys,

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<v Speaker 1>who did you know music and all that stuff, just

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<v Speaker 1>give them pay them. And she was like, that's love.

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<v Speaker 1>You're not gonna charge me your feet and she was

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<v Speaker 1>really preparing herself and like I was putting the money

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<v Speaker 1>to the side and like, no, no, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 1>it's love. I'm gonna do this for the love and

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<v Speaker 1>just makes you take care of my guys. So when

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<v Speaker 1>you my people and I know that you're not being

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<v Speaker 1>funded by somebody, like this is an independent girl who's

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<v Speaker 1>working her own set, and I'm gonna be I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>gonna charge her. That mean business. Why it's the back

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<v Speaker 1>I want some back in though I want some nice

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<v Speaker 1>What it means is that point I like to get.

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<v Speaker 1>I like to get my favorites in other ways and say,

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<v Speaker 1>all right, cool, I may need you for a look,

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<v Speaker 1>or for a film or for this, and I want

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<v Speaker 1>you to wave your feet the same way I wave mine.

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<v Speaker 1>Or I might need you for in the parents. Just

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<v Speaker 1>wave wave your feet the same way I wave mine.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me make my money, because imagine if I let's

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<v Speaker 1>say I do a host and I do a big

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<v Speaker 1>concert or something, and I say, what, this person is

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<v Speaker 1>worth this much, but I'm not gonna have to pay

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<v Speaker 1>them that, and I'm gonna get all the money from that,

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<v Speaker 1>then it's an even trade. Let's say I have a

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<v Speaker 1>music conference. Yeah, exactly, exactly. You know what I'm talking about,

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<v Speaker 1>what you do. But I always say put that out there.

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<v Speaker 1>I always say business is always one hand, while she

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<v Speaker 1>is the other, you know what. So definitely, Let's say

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<v Speaker 1>you're dating a guy, right and he's an artist, and

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<v Speaker 1>he's like, okay, I want you to be in my video.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you like word quest this or is it free?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm sucking them. No, it's free. That's my baby.

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<v Speaker 1>But if your budget and he's taking care of me,

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<v Speaker 1>if he's if he's if he's somebody i'm dating, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sure you're not good all the time. He wants to

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<v Speaker 1>do a video, it doesn't what I'm getting from exactly. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that's what Okay. So what if he's like, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm opening this club, I want you to come in

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<v Speaker 1>and book some people and do this is and that

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<v Speaker 1>you charge him. Oh, we'll see. In that case is

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<v Speaker 1>business and I'm gonna need my find But yeah, but

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<v Speaker 1>I think that this is how you play, even with

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<v Speaker 1>the visual. If he's not paying for the visual directly,

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<v Speaker 1>whoever is funding it, take that money and y'all split it.

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<v Speaker 1>If that's the case, don't ever think in this game

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<v Speaker 1>that this anything is not going to be or you

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<v Speaker 1>save this money on this and you're not going to

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<v Speaker 1>pay for they'll find a way to charge you for it.

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<v Speaker 1>That's how corrupt these companies are. They're gonna find a

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<v Speaker 1>way to say you spent this much on this. I

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<v Speaker 1>want you guys to understand about expense accounts and how

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<v Speaker 1>this thing works is everybody in the company has a

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<v Speaker 1>card and they go and they travel. If they're traveling

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<v Speaker 1>on your behalf, you don't have to be there, they'll

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<v Speaker 1>charge you back to your account. You're paying for it.

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<v Speaker 1>You won't know until you ordered the company and know

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<v Speaker 1>exactly where everything went. So so if they were to

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<v Speaker 1>say I had to go out here to take this

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<v Speaker 1>meeting with MTV about your video, and I had to

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<v Speaker 1>smoothe these people and take them to dinner, you'll see

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<v Speaker 1>if you ever were to order the company, if you

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<v Speaker 1>were to get that far in your career, you order

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<v Speaker 1>them to see hold on your charge me back for that.

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<v Speaker 1>So they're gonna find a way to charge you. So

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<v Speaker 1>I always tell people, if they're gonna pay, get your money. Bro.

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<v Speaker 1>If you're my man, are you're about to do and

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<v Speaker 1>you're doing a track for me, Bron, get your money.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't do nothing for free for me if you if

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<v Speaker 1>you can get a check, let's bust it down, if anything,

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<v Speaker 1>or take your money and then when you got yours,

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<v Speaker 1>I get my money and it's all love. But if

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<v Speaker 1>you're telling me, bro, I'm paying out of my pocket

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<v Speaker 1>and you my you know you're my girl, or you

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<v Speaker 1>my my brother, somebody I'm friends with, then you know, no,

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<v Speaker 1>I ain't gonna I'm make it easier on you. But

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<v Speaker 1>if it's their money, tax them. Everybody noticed TAXI I

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<v Speaker 1>agree with this. I agree with this because out of

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<v Speaker 1>pocket is a different thing, especially a company that's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>tell me that they spent it anyway. Although I will

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<v Speaker 1>say I do feel like like to pay people that

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<v Speaker 1>do stuff for me, even if we're friends, because I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like I'll pay somebody that I don't even know

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<v Speaker 1>for something that they do. Why would not I pay

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<v Speaker 1>my friend? But if you know your but if you

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<v Speaker 1>know somebody is building something and you can help them

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<v Speaker 1>by that's your that's your paying. Like, that's my way

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<v Speaker 1>of contributing. This to saying out lend myself for charity work.

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<v Speaker 1>People will say I won't give money to the charity,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'll come and lend my services for the for

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<v Speaker 1>the sake of the charity to help you. So if

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<v Speaker 1>you're building a company yourself, and i'm your friend and

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<v Speaker 1>i'm and I'm working with you, it's easy for me

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<v Speaker 1>to say, well, look, I'm not going to charge you

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<v Speaker 1>for that, and it's just my contribution to helping you

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<v Speaker 1>build your brands. So when your brand grows, you can

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<v Speaker 1>able to look back and say you're a part of

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<v Speaker 1>helping me because you could have charged me this. It's

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<v Speaker 1>almost like you gave me that money instead of you

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<v Speaker 1>know what I mean. I think that's I don't like

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<v Speaker 1>when people ask me for favors all the time just

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<v Speaker 1>because we're friends, and you know, when somebody's abusing it,

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<v Speaker 1>that's differ. Much like I have friends that would be like,

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<v Speaker 1>can you host this for me? Can you do this

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<v Speaker 1>to me? And I'm like, normally I get paid yeah

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<v Speaker 1>to do it, but I've donefity sweet person, and you god,

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<v Speaker 1>for a bit, someone asked me to show up host.

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<v Speaker 1>That's my job. I don't mean you can tell you

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<v Speaker 1>can tell with somebody's I'm the type of person I

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<v Speaker 1>like to do for you first. I want to do

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<v Speaker 1>for you first, and then I'll make it clear in

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<v Speaker 1>the beginning, like, um, you know ludicrous. I recently asked

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<v Speaker 1>he did so I did something for him and I

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<v Speaker 1>just said, this was like seven months ago. I say, y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>I got my music conference coming up. I need you there.

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<v Speaker 1>And he said, yes, I'm gonna do this for you

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<v Speaker 1>for this and when my music conference come, but I

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<v Speaker 1>needs you Dundell. We had a verbal agreement, and it's

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<v Speaker 1>always men. We moved forward. So I like to do

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<v Speaker 1>for somebody first. I'd rather I hate to be able

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<v Speaker 1>to ask to have to ask first. I'd rather do

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<v Speaker 1>something for them and then they reciprocated. Then let me

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<v Speaker 1>ask you this, how real is this whole fucking for

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<v Speaker 1>tracks thing that everybody always talks about, Like, have you

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<v Speaker 1>been approached a lot in your career, you know, obviously

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<v Speaker 1>being a big producer by women who are like, well,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, does that happen? Like, I don't think people

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<v Speaker 1>try me like that because they anybody who's ever been

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<v Speaker 1>around you know how serious I take music. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>play with it. And I feel like I'm too talented

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<v Speaker 1>of a person and I'm too I have too much

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<v Speaker 1>more to offer a person than to cheapen my brand

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<v Speaker 1>to fuck you for a record, Right, So when you

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<v Speaker 1>talk to me, I think you can feel that, and

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<v Speaker 1>also you can feel these slimy type of characters who

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<v Speaker 1>you can tell when they like even think about. But

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<v Speaker 1>sometimes in the studio people get a vibe too, like

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<v Speaker 1>when you're being creative with somebody, then you might feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm attracted to you while we're working on this. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we live in a real weird time, so I kind

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<v Speaker 1>of I'm very cautious around about who's around me anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm not usually around people who aren't really established

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<v Speaker 1>anyway or doing something for themselves, because it saves you

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of bullshit and a lot of trouble. So,

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<v Speaker 1>because nothing is worse than when somebody's really hungry tiger,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean, that's the worst yeah around,

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<v Speaker 1>you know you kind of like Harri Sulton used to say,

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<v Speaker 1>she's a hungry tiger. That's that's the worst tiger. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, now people also wrote in some questions and

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<v Speaker 1>we want to get to your advice, and then we're

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<v Speaker 1>going to give us to all right, my status fifteen

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<v Speaker 1>years old, and I've been hiding a secret from him

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm trying to figure out a way to tell

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<v Speaker 1>him the truth. The person that's on his birth certificate

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<v Speaker 1>is not his biological father. I just recently found out

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<v Speaker 1>my ex is actually his father. It was a simple mistake.

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<v Speaker 1>I was young, still in high school, and I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>know how to read the ultra sounds, and I had

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<v Speaker 1>hit my pregnancy for five months because I was ashamed.

0:15:29.720 --> 0:15:31.680
<v Speaker 1>I was scared. At that time. I didn't know the

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<v Speaker 1>guy that's on the birth certificate wasn't around anyway, so

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<v Speaker 1>it's not like you know him. And that's family. How

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<v Speaker 1>can I break the news to him without confusing him?

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<v Speaker 1>How did the fifteen years old? Ye? Fifteen nowadays is

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<v Speaker 1>what nineteen and the mind? So I think he's old

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<v Speaker 1>enough to have that the same way that you explained

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<v Speaker 1>that on the question. I think you could sit out

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<v Speaker 1>and explain because it doesn't sound bad. It doesn't sound

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<v Speaker 1>like mom's a whore. It just sounds like you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I think I think at fifteen he should have an

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<v Speaker 1>idea of the kind of society who lives in. And

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<v Speaker 1>that sounds pretty reasonable, like, yo, I made a mistake.

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<v Speaker 1>It was long ago, right, And she needs to know

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<v Speaker 1>the name a father anyway, you don't know the guy.

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<v Speaker 1>That'd be worse if you know. And she needs to

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<v Speaker 1>do it now. Waited too long. Just now he's like

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<v Speaker 1>another baby, so she's supposed to now, um, contact the

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<v Speaker 1>X and be like, by the way, this fifteen year

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<v Speaker 1>old is your son? Yes, I mean she needs to

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<v Speaker 1>tell her son. She needs to tell him soon, Like

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<v Speaker 1>fifteen years old is already old enough. He needs to

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<v Speaker 1>find out. She could have told him younger. She needs

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<v Speaker 1>to tell him now before he gets older, because when

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<v Speaker 1>you like turning an adult eighteen nineteen, it kind of

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<v Speaker 1>hits you hard, like, damn, I'm nineteen years old. You

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<v Speaker 1>waited nineteen years you know is long enough as soon

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<v Speaker 1>as possible. If your mom was a whole, would you

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<v Speaker 1>want her to tell you? But she wasn't all, that's

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<v Speaker 1>a question. I mean since she was said, it's not

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<v Speaker 1>like she was you you'll know anyway, you think, so, yeah, man,

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<v Speaker 1>especially if y'all if she grew up in the same

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<v Speaker 1>place that you're living in now. Because the O G

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<v Speaker 1>s will make a little comments everybody going, notice this

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<v Speaker 1>is a new generation. It ain't like back in the

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<v Speaker 1>day when your mother was a whole and everybody just

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<v Speaker 1>smiled at and wave. Somebody's gonna say something to yes,

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<v Speaker 1>for my uncle used the fucking mother, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean? Like like everybody said, you know like that ship.

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<v Speaker 1>After well, everybody's gonna start saying it to you can

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<v Speaker 1>be like, damn, this might be truest bitch. So as

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<v Speaker 1>a parent, do you get in front of it and

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<v Speaker 1>be like okay, so, like is that the thing you

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<v Speaker 1>get ahead of you just let it happen and don't

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<v Speaker 1>explain it. Yeah, I think you get ahead of that.

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<v Speaker 1>You talk about that. No, I think you have to

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<v Speaker 1>get ahead of it, like you. You have to prepare them,

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<v Speaker 1>prepare them for what's gonna happen and what they're gonna face.

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<v Speaker 1>That's why I don't want you dealing with these types

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<v Speaker 1>of right exactly, I was manipulated, and you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>can make something excuse if you want to say, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>that's the nation. When I was young and I was

0:18:02.520 --> 0:18:06.359
<v Speaker 1>taught the wrong way by fanatic, and now when I

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<v Speaker 1>got older and learned, like six months ago, he write

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<v Speaker 1>a song right now, don't don't. I feel like it's

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<v Speaker 1>best for I feel like it's best for your for

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<v Speaker 1>your kids to find out things from about you, from you,

0:18:21.560 --> 0:18:24.960
<v Speaker 1>and then it's so fund up that we gotta that

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<v Speaker 1>people even have to talk about that now. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean my mother. My mother was a young single mom,

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<v Speaker 1>like she was what she left my father. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>my mom was a young single mom. She used to

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<v Speaker 1>like the party I knew. I mean and my mom

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<v Speaker 1>have a close relationship. I'm not even gonn a lot.

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<v Speaker 1>My mama still got answering her pants, my mother. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>my lady. I'm like, listen, Grandma, you used to go

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<v Speaker 1>like a sweater. You want me to bout your rocket.

0:18:52.520 --> 0:18:54.840
<v Speaker 1>She's not with it. She's like, no, I want to

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<v Speaker 1>have a drink. I'm like, mama, Mama trying to drink

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<v Speaker 1>that that ass on outside. And I mean, my mom

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<v Speaker 1>still looks good like she you know, my mom is

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<v Speaker 1>still fired. She takes care of herself, you know, but

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<v Speaker 1>she still she still got answer her pants. It's just

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<v Speaker 1>the person she is said that sounds terrible, like gotta go,

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<v Speaker 1>you gotta go and no, and my mom, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't remember when I was a kid. My mom, um,

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<v Speaker 1>she she switched boyfriends a lot, you know, not a lot,

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<v Speaker 1>but enough, you know what I'm saying. My mom and

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<v Speaker 1>I used to bother me like I remember, I remember

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<v Speaker 1>when I was a kid. This is this is a

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<v Speaker 1>true story. I mean, God bless my mother was a

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<v Speaker 1>great mother. We were never we never were abused nothing.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't even know we were poor until I got older.

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<v Speaker 1>And how to offend for myself. Yeah, it's like I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't but you know, you know, like my mom, I

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<v Speaker 1>know shades and my mom, but I remember when I

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<v Speaker 1>was a kid. I was but she checked me and

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<v Speaker 1>this I never did this again. She had a new boyfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>I remember, he was Amnigan guy. Right, whatever. He was

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<v Speaker 1>real good to us. He was he was a new boyfriend, right.

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<v Speaker 1>So one night she um, she left me and my aunt.

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<v Speaker 1>She left me with my grandmother, and I could hear

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<v Speaker 1>her talking with my aunt about how she was going

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<v Speaker 1>to like hit skars with this guy, and they talking

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<v Speaker 1>in Spanish, but they think my Spanish isn't on point.

0:20:23.920 --> 0:20:26.480
<v Speaker 1>But I know what they're saying, you know, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just listening to them. So she leaves. I'm not even

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<v Speaker 1>gonna give the full details of this, but so she

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<v Speaker 1>leaves and whatever. She comes back next day, picks us up.

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<v Speaker 1>We I get in a car with her. It's just

0:20:36.240 --> 0:20:39.160
<v Speaker 1>me and her. My sister was with her father again

0:20:39.160 --> 0:20:40.800
<v Speaker 1>in the car with her, and I was like giving

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<v Speaker 1>her attitude because I was upset about it. So she's like,

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<v Speaker 1>what's your problem? You know, She's like, what's wrong with you?

0:20:47.359 --> 0:20:49.840
<v Speaker 1>And I'm like, you know, I just don't. I just

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<v Speaker 1>don't think that you should like be having sex to everybody,

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<v Speaker 1>you dating everybody. And I'm a little girl. I promised

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<v Speaker 1>you I'm like eight years old. I wasn't. I wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>all than not. And that's the girl. I was a

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<v Speaker 1>little girl. I'm staying in the car. I'm staying in

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<v Speaker 1>the front seat. I'm saying in the front seat with hind.

0:21:06.760 --> 0:21:10.439
<v Speaker 1>She was like, she was like, what pops popped me

0:21:10.560 --> 0:21:12.680
<v Speaker 1>right in my mouth. Like she was like, we'll talk

0:21:12.680 --> 0:21:16.720
<v Speaker 1>about this when we get home. And I was like, oh,

0:21:16.760 --> 0:21:19.520
<v Speaker 1>I started crying. But she gave me a whole fucking

0:21:19.560 --> 0:21:21.120
<v Speaker 1>when I got home, she gave me a whole sex

0:21:21.240 --> 0:21:24.119
<v Speaker 1>lecture because she didn't realize that I knew, you know,

0:21:24.160 --> 0:21:29.679
<v Speaker 1>what was going on. She popped me mouth, she popped

0:21:29.720 --> 0:21:32.640
<v Speaker 1>me thinking the whole way like damn, this ship is crazy,

0:21:32.720 --> 0:21:36.159
<v Speaker 1>Like you know, I think she kind of practiced and

0:21:36.680 --> 0:21:38.800
<v Speaker 1>and and then the ride she's like, you know what,

0:21:38.840 --> 0:21:40.919
<v Speaker 1>you're a little girl. You need some manya business, you

0:21:40.920 --> 0:21:42.679
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean. Like she she was telling me,

0:21:42.720 --> 0:21:45.359
<v Speaker 1>like like she was making me feel bad because I was,

0:21:45.640 --> 0:21:47.919
<v Speaker 1>you know, concerned about this. I was. I was upset,

0:21:48.200 --> 0:21:50.960
<v Speaker 1>but you know, it really wasn't none of my business. Also,

0:21:51.119 --> 0:21:53.159
<v Speaker 1>you don't learn it it's not your business until somebody

0:21:53.160 --> 0:21:55.520
<v Speaker 1>tells exactly that's what That's what I'm saying. I never

0:21:55.560 --> 0:21:58.600
<v Speaker 1>did that again. I never, I mean not until I

0:21:58.640 --> 0:22:01.239
<v Speaker 1>became an adult that I you know, talk about that

0:22:01.280 --> 0:22:03.200
<v Speaker 1>type of thing with my mom. You know, I never

0:22:03.240 --> 0:22:08.760
<v Speaker 1>played myself again ever. My relationship is funny because I've

0:22:08.760 --> 0:22:10.800
<v Speaker 1>never seen either one of my parents with anybody else,

0:22:11.720 --> 0:22:14.639
<v Speaker 1>like my whole entire life, and they're divorced but they

0:22:14.680 --> 0:22:17.320
<v Speaker 1>still live together. But I've never seen my mom with

0:22:17.320 --> 0:22:22.160
<v Speaker 1>another man. I've never seen my dad with another one. Yeah, yeah,

0:22:22.160 --> 0:22:29.320
<v Speaker 1>they still I ain't going lazy. They used Today's life

0:22:31.240 --> 0:22:33.800
<v Speaker 1>date the night, but they're just never home like you know,

0:22:33.880 --> 0:22:36.080
<v Speaker 1>and they don't. But I've never ever seen them with

0:22:36.119 --> 0:22:38.600
<v Speaker 1>anyone else. Like They've never said I'm dating somebody. I've

0:22:38.640 --> 0:22:42.040
<v Speaker 1>never seen them. You know. It is weird, so I

0:22:42.080 --> 0:22:43.840
<v Speaker 1>look at it. I guess maybe part of it because

0:22:43.840 --> 0:22:47.760
<v Speaker 1>even with my grandparents, like my grandparents were like my

0:22:47.920 --> 0:22:50.440
<v Speaker 1>on my dad's side married and tell my grandfather passed away,

0:22:50.520 --> 0:22:52.399
<v Speaker 1>my grandmother never seen him with anybody else. In my

0:22:52.480 --> 0:22:55.120
<v Speaker 1>mom's side, you know, my grandmother passed me on that side,

0:22:55.119 --> 0:22:57.720
<v Speaker 1>and then my grandfather remarried. But everybody in my family,

0:22:57.760 --> 0:23:02.040
<v Speaker 1>I've never seen people like do you know, I really

0:23:02.080 --> 0:23:06.360
<v Speaker 1>like straight, I like up around And I'm not even

0:23:06.359 --> 0:23:08.840
<v Speaker 1>saying that they were monogamous. I just never really seen

0:23:08.960 --> 0:23:11.000
<v Speaker 1>you never saw it until I went to go work

0:23:11.000 --> 0:23:17.960
<v Speaker 1>for wootang everything. Who's the lady in the back room

0:23:17.960 --> 0:23:23.919
<v Speaker 1>with the whole with the whole gang grandma. But you know,

0:23:24.000 --> 0:23:26.480
<v Speaker 1>those things probably do affect like you know, g you

0:23:26.520 --> 0:23:29.119
<v Speaker 1>have your daughter, and do you ever think about, like

0:23:29.359 --> 0:23:33.760
<v Speaker 1>how your life has affected how she's gonna look at relationships. Absolutely,

0:23:34.480 --> 0:23:38.320
<v Speaker 1>my ex relationship, it works her nerves. It worked her

0:23:38.359 --> 0:23:41.600
<v Speaker 1>nerves for very a very long time. Like I think

0:23:41.600 --> 0:23:44.600
<v Speaker 1>she's more happy than I'm single than I am. Really, Yes,

0:23:44.720 --> 0:23:47.280
<v Speaker 1>she hated us, No, that's what I'm saying. When I

0:23:47.359 --> 0:23:49.960
<v Speaker 1>was a teenam I know she really liked him a lot,

0:23:50.400 --> 0:23:52.560
<v Speaker 1>like him alive, but she hated the things that we

0:23:52.600 --> 0:23:54.960
<v Speaker 1>went through. And that's what I'm saying. I had like

0:23:55.000 --> 0:23:58.439
<v Speaker 1>a young mom like and and her daughter, you know

0:23:58.480 --> 0:24:02.199
<v Speaker 1>what I mean, Like her mother's relationships did like I

0:24:02.280 --> 0:24:04.679
<v Speaker 1>noticed them, you know what I mean? I noticed then,

0:24:04.720 --> 0:24:07.760
<v Speaker 1>and they affected they infect us. That's the only relationship

0:24:07.800 --> 0:24:09.919
<v Speaker 1>that I had that she really was like in tune

0:24:09.920 --> 0:24:13.880
<v Speaker 1>within a part of so I usually keep her out of,

0:24:14.440 --> 0:24:17.439
<v Speaker 1>you know, my person. It was so serious that she

0:24:17.520 --> 0:24:19.879
<v Speaker 1>had to be right, and she was so grown too

0:24:20.119 --> 0:24:23.520
<v Speaker 1>at that time. My mom was a square, Like my

0:24:23.600 --> 0:24:27.320
<v Speaker 1>mom was like a church lady. Two boyfriends the whole

0:24:27.400 --> 0:24:30.520
<v Speaker 1>time that I grew up, and one was named Alex

0:24:30.560 --> 0:24:32.800
<v Speaker 1>and one name is Mr Stanley, and I hated I

0:24:32.840 --> 0:24:36.159
<v Speaker 1>hated Mr Stanley. I just felt like he's just always

0:24:36.160 --> 0:24:38.919
<v Speaker 1>trying to talk to me, like and I broke up.

0:24:39.119 --> 0:24:40.760
<v Speaker 1>She broke up with both of them, and she sat

0:24:40.880 --> 0:24:43.520
<v Speaker 1>us down and told us, like, you know, Mr Stanley

0:24:43.640 --> 0:24:47.280
<v Speaker 1>was trying to have sex with me, and I don't

0:24:47.320 --> 0:24:49.600
<v Speaker 1>have sex until I'm married, and I want you all

0:24:49.640 --> 0:24:52.199
<v Speaker 1>to know that you shouldn't have you know. She probably

0:24:52.400 --> 0:24:53.840
<v Speaker 1>just went through it with him and just was fresh.

0:24:54.840 --> 0:24:58.240
<v Speaker 1>She was like, you think that I'm opposed to lay

0:24:58.280 --> 0:25:00.159
<v Speaker 1>down with him until he didn't give me that ring

0:25:00.240 --> 0:25:02.280
<v Speaker 1>and then he posted to think I'm so I was like,

0:25:02.359 --> 0:25:03.520
<v Speaker 1>you know what, I don't really want to hit this,

0:25:03.560 --> 0:25:06.760
<v Speaker 1>but I'm glad you need Mrs stan You didn't like

0:25:06.800 --> 0:25:08.560
<v Speaker 1>him with your cousin, Mrs Stanley, And the other guy

0:25:08.720 --> 0:25:12.800
<v Speaker 1>was Alex was cool. Alex was cool, but Mr Stanley

0:25:12.880 --> 0:25:14.560
<v Speaker 1>was just a greasy ass, you know what I mean,

0:25:14.600 --> 0:25:17.640
<v Speaker 1>Like just felt slimy. I felt like he was trying

0:25:17.640 --> 0:25:22.960
<v Speaker 1>to suck my mother mother mother. But you see, because

0:25:23.000 --> 0:25:25.800
<v Speaker 1>of because of um, you know, being like being like that,

0:25:25.960 --> 0:25:28.560
<v Speaker 1>never liking my mother's boyfriends, Like, no matter how great

0:25:28.600 --> 0:25:32.439
<v Speaker 1>they were, I never liked them. My son is going

0:25:32.480 --> 0:25:35.480
<v Speaker 1>to be eleven this month, and I've never brought one

0:25:35.520 --> 0:25:38.680
<v Speaker 1>man around my son. He knows his father Like, it's

0:25:39.240 --> 0:25:41.560
<v Speaker 1>just that, like I don't think it's cool to have

0:25:41.680 --> 0:25:45.359
<v Speaker 1>your kid around around people who are temple bary in

0:25:45.359 --> 0:25:49.160
<v Speaker 1>your life when when somebody when I get engaged, then

0:25:49.359 --> 0:25:52.240
<v Speaker 1>maybe I'll bring somebody. You have to because it's like,

0:25:52.440 --> 0:25:55.960
<v Speaker 1>is what I'm getting married? How? How is that? What

0:25:56.000 --> 0:26:00.000
<v Speaker 1>do you mean? Google? Look up your social media? My son? Um,

0:26:00.040 --> 0:26:08.080
<v Speaker 1>I've had the conversation with I don't know is that

0:26:08.520 --> 0:26:10.960
<v Speaker 1>I've had this converence. My son is UM, he's very

0:26:11.240 --> 0:26:14.360
<v Speaker 1>computer savvy. He's very He's on the internet. My son

0:26:14.480 --> 0:26:18.040
<v Speaker 1>is on the internet, so he's my son has been around,

0:26:18.119 --> 0:26:21.199
<v Speaker 1>you know, he's with me, so he sees what's going on.

0:26:21.320 --> 0:26:24.040
<v Speaker 1>He sees me on the cover of the magazine, you

0:26:24.080 --> 0:26:26.560
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean. So I've already explained this to him,

0:26:26.640 --> 0:26:29.600
<v Speaker 1>so it's not a surprise for him. He knows exactly

0:26:29.600 --> 0:26:32.480
<v Speaker 1>what I do. He knows that, Um, I was doing

0:26:32.480 --> 0:26:35.960
<v Speaker 1>a lot of internet ship, you know, and I've explained

0:26:35.960 --> 0:26:38.280
<v Speaker 1>it to him. He knows. Like my son follows me

0:26:38.560 --> 0:26:42.560
<v Speaker 1>on Instagram. Yeah, my son has an Instagram, you know,

0:26:43.160 --> 0:26:46.520
<v Speaker 1>so I and my son can read. You know, he's

0:26:46.600 --> 0:26:49.560
<v Speaker 1>he's elevin. He's a big he's a big boy. He's

0:26:49.560 --> 0:26:55.440
<v Speaker 1>a man. No, no, absolutely not no, no, no, no no,

0:26:55.760 --> 0:26:59.000
<v Speaker 1>and um, you know I it's just he understands, like

0:26:59.040 --> 0:27:01.119
<v Speaker 1>I already explained it to him. Like I said, you

0:27:01.160 --> 0:27:03.879
<v Speaker 1>have to prepare your children for what's outside. You know.

0:27:03.960 --> 0:27:06.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't want anybody to um to come at my

0:27:06.920 --> 0:27:09.840
<v Speaker 1>kid for something that I'm doing. That's why I've really

0:27:09.840 --> 0:27:12.320
<v Speaker 1>tried to smarten up and change a lot of the

0:27:12.359 --> 0:27:14.879
<v Speaker 1>things that I've done on the Internet. I've really tried.

0:27:15.160 --> 0:27:17.760
<v Speaker 1>I think I have. I think I have. You know,

0:27:18.200 --> 0:27:20.760
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm not drunk on the internet anymore. I'm not

0:27:20.800 --> 0:27:24.560
<v Speaker 1>smoking with me looking a little drunk. I was drunk

0:27:25.160 --> 0:27:32.240
<v Speaker 1>on the internet. I'm not drunk in the Internet. I

0:27:32.280 --> 0:27:39.840
<v Speaker 1>was drunk. But you know, my son, my son knows me.

0:27:39.960 --> 0:27:42.840
<v Speaker 1>He knows what's going on. You know, it's not nothing

0:27:42.960 --> 0:27:44.960
<v Speaker 1>is a surprise, you know what I mean. But yeah,

0:27:44.960 --> 0:27:47.399
<v Speaker 1>grown up, Like I don't think you know that you

0:27:47.400 --> 0:27:56.479
<v Speaker 1>should feel like I can't children exactly right, they don't know. Now,

0:27:56.520 --> 0:28:00.119
<v Speaker 1>let's get to that, right, and that's you have some know,

0:28:00.359 --> 0:28:04.119
<v Speaker 1>um with with with my relationship with my son. I

0:28:04.160 --> 0:28:06.480
<v Speaker 1>don't I don't post I don't, you know, I don't

0:28:06.480 --> 0:28:08.520
<v Speaker 1>post up my kids, you know, because I don't want

0:28:08.600 --> 0:28:10.880
<v Speaker 1>him to ever have to suffer for anything that I've

0:28:10.920 --> 0:28:13.320
<v Speaker 1>done on the internet. I don't think I've done anything

0:28:13.400 --> 0:28:18.480
<v Speaker 1>too crazy. But you're not an average looking mom. And

0:28:18.480 --> 0:28:20.320
<v Speaker 1>when you're not an average looking mom, you have to

0:28:20.320 --> 0:28:22.639
<v Speaker 1>realize that the rest of the moms don't like you know,

0:28:22.800 --> 0:28:24.800
<v Speaker 1>and please, I can't even go to my son's school.

0:28:24.800 --> 0:28:27.520
<v Speaker 1>I can't go to my son's school. I um, when

0:28:27.520 --> 0:28:29.119
<v Speaker 1>I do go, like I have to go into the

0:28:29.160 --> 0:28:32.040
<v Speaker 1>skies because everybody knows knows who I am. You know,

0:28:32.119 --> 0:28:34.080
<v Speaker 1>he's in the school in New York and the parents,

0:28:34.240 --> 0:28:37.520
<v Speaker 1>like you know, I can't even I go to his graduation.

0:28:37.640 --> 0:28:40.760
<v Speaker 1>I can participate and the you know, and the assemblies

0:28:40.840 --> 0:28:43.200
<v Speaker 1>you know when they do like musicals and the school.

0:28:43.240 --> 0:28:48.200
<v Speaker 1>I go to that stuff. But yeah, exactly, you know,

0:28:48.320 --> 0:28:50.840
<v Speaker 1>but like, um, the PTA meetings, like you know, when

0:28:50.840 --> 0:28:53.960
<v Speaker 1>they do the parent teacher thing, I go, like one

0:28:54.040 --> 0:28:56.800
<v Speaker 1>time in the school year because when I go is

0:28:56.880 --> 0:28:58.640
<v Speaker 1>I can't I take a picture. Can I take a

0:28:58.640 --> 0:29:02.880
<v Speaker 1>picture with your mom? What? Like I swear, I swear

0:29:02.880 --> 0:29:05.200
<v Speaker 1>it's um and I mean it's fine, it's cool, but

0:29:05.280 --> 0:29:07.680
<v Speaker 1>it's just I don't really want my son to um

0:29:08.160 --> 0:29:10.360
<v Speaker 1>to have to like I said, if it got for bid,

0:29:10.440 --> 0:29:13.080
<v Speaker 1>like you know, UM, I don't be having sex tapes

0:29:13.120 --> 0:29:16.760
<v Speaker 1>with random people, but got for the bed something came

0:29:16.760 --> 0:29:18.920
<v Speaker 1>off of my own phone, you know what I mean.

0:29:18.960 --> 0:29:21.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't want my son to have to. You know,

0:29:21.040 --> 0:29:22.680
<v Speaker 1>I don't want people to be like, oh, I saw

0:29:22.760 --> 0:29:25.160
<v Speaker 1>your mom. I saw your mom, like that's your mom,

0:29:25.440 --> 0:29:27.800
<v Speaker 1>So I don't you know. That's why I'm real private

0:29:27.840 --> 0:29:30.640
<v Speaker 1>about my son because even though I'm trying, you know,

0:29:30.720 --> 0:29:35.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm not I'm not posting up asked pictures and you know,

0:29:35.200 --> 0:29:37.800
<v Speaker 1>working around even though I never really was working around

0:29:37.840 --> 0:29:40.800
<v Speaker 1>without you know, I'm I'm not as um provocative. I

0:29:40.840 --> 0:29:43.120
<v Speaker 1>guess is I don't know. One time in the third

0:29:43.160 --> 0:29:48.800
<v Speaker 1>code on the stage, Yeah yeah no, I UM did

0:29:48.800 --> 0:29:51.440
<v Speaker 1>I know? That is me and Nya Dare Me and

0:29:51.600 --> 0:29:53.920
<v Speaker 1>Nya we had aum. That's why every I'm glad you

0:29:53.960 --> 0:29:56.040
<v Speaker 1>brought that up because everybody's like, oh, I know she

0:29:56.120 --> 0:30:00.400
<v Speaker 1>knows Rick ross because um, she was on stage with him.

0:30:00.440 --> 0:30:03.440
<v Speaker 1>But you know, I got you know, they called us Nina,

0:30:03.520 --> 0:30:06.200
<v Speaker 1>it was Nina was friends with him, and they called

0:30:06.280 --> 0:30:08.120
<v Speaker 1>us to do a job like that's not my friend

0:30:08.160 --> 0:30:16.080
<v Speaker 1>Rick Rosses, you know, right, you know, you know what

0:30:18.840 --> 0:30:23.920
<v Speaker 1>some of my favorite couple, Nina her boyfriend. But I

0:30:23.920 --> 0:30:26.960
<v Speaker 1>didn't even throw But but yeah, you know, like I'm

0:30:26.960 --> 0:30:29.200
<v Speaker 1>not doing all of that. I'm trying, you know, even

0:30:29.240 --> 0:30:31.920
<v Speaker 1>though it's still around, you know what I mean, And

0:30:32.040 --> 0:30:34.000
<v Speaker 1>God forbid, I don't even though I'm trying not to,

0:30:34.200 --> 0:30:37.000
<v Speaker 1>God forbid, you never know what could happen, you know.

0:30:37.040 --> 0:30:39.960
<v Speaker 1>So I don't ever want my son. I don't ever

0:30:40.040 --> 0:30:42.800
<v Speaker 1>want my son to have to suffer for the choices

0:30:42.880 --> 0:30:45.000
<v Speaker 1>that I made in my life. But you said you

0:30:45.040 --> 0:30:46.880
<v Speaker 1>had the mom thing too, What were you gonna say?

0:30:46.960 --> 0:30:48.680
<v Speaker 1>I mean, when my daughter was in high school, I

0:30:48.720 --> 0:30:51.239
<v Speaker 1>was the face of Magic City, So I'm sure there

0:30:51.280 --> 0:30:52.840
<v Speaker 1>was a little bit that came along with that. But

0:30:53.000 --> 0:30:55.800
<v Speaker 1>from my understanding of what she explained to me, like

0:30:56.000 --> 0:30:59.280
<v Speaker 1>people was like hype about it. They weren't like, yeah,

0:30:59.360 --> 0:31:01.480
<v Speaker 1>that's what that's what I go through now with my son,

0:31:01.520 --> 0:31:04.880
<v Speaker 1>And they were more like you know, you're excited. You know,

0:31:05.440 --> 0:31:07.720
<v Speaker 1>Atlanta is different too, though I wouldna say that, but

0:31:07.760 --> 0:31:13.880
<v Speaker 1>I was also in Atlanta. Differ it's like, yeah, let's

0:31:13.880 --> 0:31:17.560
<v Speaker 1>go have some wings real quick. Yeah that's what their

0:31:17.640 --> 0:31:19.480
<v Speaker 1>mothers look like that too, you know what I mean?

0:31:19.520 --> 0:31:21.959
<v Speaker 1>They like So when you got a young mom who

0:31:22.040 --> 0:31:24.640
<v Speaker 1>got a crazy body, that's not normal like to us

0:31:24.640 --> 0:31:26.760
<v Speaker 1>in our world and where we live and what we do.

0:31:26.920 --> 0:31:30.120
<v Speaker 1>It's definitely not normal school my son. But I will

0:31:30.200 --> 0:31:32.640
<v Speaker 1>say this the school my son goes, so he lives

0:31:32.640 --> 0:31:35.280
<v Speaker 1>in like a you know, a little posh little area

0:31:35.360 --> 0:31:38.920
<v Speaker 1>or whatever, and those little Spanish ladies got some you know,

0:31:39.200 --> 0:31:44.320
<v Speaker 1>it's like the fire. It's nothing but crazy and every

0:31:44.400 --> 0:31:46.040
<v Speaker 1>time you go to school. So I don't think it's

0:31:46.080 --> 0:31:49.720
<v Speaker 1>it's out of the norm, right I'm at So you know,

0:31:50.880 --> 0:31:53.760
<v Speaker 1>now let's talk about that though, because obviously your songs

0:31:53.840 --> 0:31:56.800
<v Speaker 1>and things that you talk about are personal to you

0:31:56.920 --> 0:31:59.600
<v Speaker 1>and things that are sexual. Do you feel like, hey,

0:31:59.680 --> 0:32:01.320
<v Speaker 1>do you let your kids listen to that music and

0:32:01.360 --> 0:32:04.040
<v Speaker 1>you feel like you have to explain like, well, yeah,

0:32:04.040 --> 0:32:07.400
<v Speaker 1>I only listen. My son knows, they don't know, but

0:32:07.440 --> 0:32:09.720
<v Speaker 1>I just he just likes that song. You know, a

0:32:09.760 --> 0:32:11.400
<v Speaker 1>lot of times we grew up listening to We're saying

0:32:11.400 --> 0:32:13.160
<v Speaker 1>the lyrics, but didn't really know what it was exactly.

0:32:13.200 --> 0:32:15.239
<v Speaker 1>He really don't know. And he just don't get past that.

0:32:15.320 --> 0:32:17.040
<v Speaker 1>And and that was, you know, when he was a

0:32:17.080 --> 0:32:20.280
<v Speaker 1>lot younger, and records I've done and written for other people.

0:32:20.520 --> 0:32:24.080
<v Speaker 1>I don't even think he realizes that. So, and I

0:32:24.080 --> 0:32:26.080
<v Speaker 1>don't talk about what I do to my son at

0:32:26.120 --> 0:32:28.880
<v Speaker 1>all anyway. I just just I'm just as dad. He

0:32:29.000 --> 0:32:32.120
<v Speaker 1>likes other people. He likes Ray Tremant, you know, so

0:32:32.200 --> 0:32:35.280
<v Speaker 1>he like he not even he like play Black Beetles.

0:32:35.360 --> 0:32:37.640
<v Speaker 1>This ship is what is this play back? You know?

0:32:38.360 --> 0:32:40.120
<v Speaker 1>And I listened to old school music in the car

0:32:40.160 --> 0:32:41.960
<v Speaker 1>with him. Anyway, I'm listening to the Beatles. I'm teaching

0:32:42.040 --> 0:32:44.480
<v Speaker 1>about Michael Jackson and ship like that. So really, his

0:32:44.480 --> 0:32:46.400
<v Speaker 1>his ear for music is a little different. He's not

0:32:46.440 --> 0:32:49.120
<v Speaker 1>as aware of things just you know, going on because

0:32:49.120 --> 0:32:52.920
<v Speaker 1>I kind of I don't mean, he's only seven. Let

0:32:52.960 --> 0:32:54.560
<v Speaker 1>him do his thing. But you know, these kids, now,

0:32:54.640 --> 0:32:56.840
<v Speaker 1>they right, they know a lot. No, I mean when

0:32:56.840 --> 0:33:00.600
<v Speaker 1>my son, my son is like I said, he's really computer. Yeah,

0:33:00.760 --> 0:33:09.160
<v Speaker 1>so he's been honest since likes to some pop song

0:33:09.400 --> 0:33:10.880
<v Speaker 1>and I called him he hurried to put it down.

0:33:10.920 --> 0:33:13.440
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, what's that opened it up? He's like, I

0:33:13.480 --> 0:33:17.400
<v Speaker 1>swear I didn't know that they would. I'm like, bro,

0:33:17.600 --> 0:33:24.800
<v Speaker 1>just I'm just I'm just happy. But maybe YouTube that

0:33:25.000 --> 0:33:28.080
<v Speaker 1>his kid's favorite. He was like, I was watching f

0:33:28.240 --> 0:33:30.040
<v Speaker 1>G TV and then when I clicked it, But I

0:33:30.040 --> 0:33:32.160
<v Speaker 1>was saying, his defense, they put all these things on

0:33:32.200 --> 0:33:34.880
<v Speaker 1>the side of the kids. Yeah, which is up because

0:33:35.520 --> 0:33:39.640
<v Speaker 1>they're eating children right, And I agree. What if you

0:33:39.720 --> 0:33:41.800
<v Speaker 1>catch him like looking at porn? Is is that when

0:33:41.840 --> 0:33:44.840
<v Speaker 1>it's time to have a conversation, Because I'm gonna I'm

0:33:44.840 --> 0:33:47.200
<v Speaker 1>gonna have the conversation with him, probably this summer already,

0:33:47.600 --> 0:33:50.520
<v Speaker 1>because I think kids are moving to growing too fast.

0:33:50.720 --> 0:33:53.360
<v Speaker 1>And what. He has a little friend who's like his

0:33:53.520 --> 0:33:56.360
<v Speaker 1>best friend. His name is Josiah, and I love Josiah.

0:33:56.880 --> 0:34:00.760
<v Speaker 1>Josiah is fast, like he knows everything. He was like, um,

0:34:01.080 --> 0:34:03.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, girls have vaginas. I overheard him in the

0:34:03.520 --> 0:34:06.800
<v Speaker 1>back seat and he doesn't know I'm listening. I had

0:34:06.800 --> 0:34:13.800
<v Speaker 1>to stop. I don't want to keep talking about vagina. Vagina, vagina.

0:34:14.000 --> 0:34:17.920
<v Speaker 1>Girls worlds have a vagina and we have a peewee

0:34:19.160 --> 0:34:21.239
<v Speaker 1>And I'm just like, come on, so I gotta get

0:34:21.320 --> 0:34:26.160
<v Speaker 1>ahead of desidhy. I don't want to do right. That's

0:34:26.200 --> 0:34:28.080
<v Speaker 1>how I feel with myself. So you got to show

0:34:28.160 --> 0:34:29.839
<v Speaker 1>him what's the right, and like it explain to him.

0:34:30.120 --> 0:34:32.160
<v Speaker 1>And I'm telling my mom gave me to talk young

0:34:32.719 --> 0:34:35.120
<v Speaker 1>and she gave me the talk. You have to pop you. Yeah,

0:34:35.239 --> 0:34:37.800
<v Speaker 1>and it's not again just just and I have to

0:34:37.840 --> 0:34:39.920
<v Speaker 1>say this because beside his parents are close to me,

0:34:40.360 --> 0:34:42.799
<v Speaker 1>is that he has older cousins who are around him.

0:34:43.280 --> 0:34:44.759
<v Speaker 1>I don't want you. I don't anybody think that his

0:34:44.880 --> 0:34:46.839
<v Speaker 1>parents are like letting him. But it's just that you've

0:34:46.840 --> 0:34:50.680
<v Speaker 1>got older, little little cousin. He has big brothers and

0:34:50.800 --> 0:34:53.960
<v Speaker 1>he's so much. He has like three girlfriends and all

0:34:54.000 --> 0:34:56.680
<v Speaker 1>of that. I'm like, all Jesus. They had the Internet too,

0:34:57.000 --> 0:34:59.440
<v Speaker 1>and that's so easy to find things. We didn't have

0:34:59.600 --> 0:35:02.680
<v Speaker 1>the inter right and the television shows. You have access

0:35:02.760 --> 0:35:06.280
<v Speaker 1>to Netflix everything, Like I don't know what people are watching,

0:35:06.400 --> 0:35:08.800
<v Speaker 1>kids are watching. They we didn't know anything about. Like

0:35:08.920 --> 0:35:11.360
<v Speaker 1>I remember this is crazy where I left. But I

0:35:11.440 --> 0:35:16.760
<v Speaker 1>remember the first time I Orgas was in um playing

0:35:16.800 --> 0:35:19.160
<v Speaker 1>Hide and Go Seek and this girl was just kissing

0:35:19.200 --> 0:35:20.719
<v Speaker 1>me and she was just grabbing me and kissing me

0:35:20.760 --> 0:35:23.280
<v Speaker 1>on my neck and I just went all over myself,

0:35:23.360 --> 0:35:27.239
<v Speaker 1>and I'm just like all I knew was that it

0:35:27.320 --> 0:35:29.200
<v Speaker 1>was a lot, and it was the best thing I've

0:35:29.239 --> 0:35:33.280
<v Speaker 1>ever felt in my whole life. And I really immediately

0:35:33.400 --> 0:35:35.360
<v Speaker 1>hated her fast, and then I liked her again, like

0:35:35.440 --> 0:35:37.680
<v Speaker 1>twenty minutes later. But I was just like, what the

0:35:37.760 --> 0:35:41.360
<v Speaker 1>fun is going on? So I was like twelve, so

0:35:41.440 --> 0:35:43.479
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know. I didn't know, you know, I wasn't

0:35:43.920 --> 0:35:46.120
<v Speaker 1>you know when we were growing up, masturbation and all

0:35:46.200 --> 0:35:49.280
<v Speaker 1>that kids wasn't like in It was like I forgot

0:35:49.400 --> 0:35:54.279
<v Speaker 1>herd like he be off. It was like now now

0:35:54.480 --> 0:35:56.640
<v Speaker 1>a lot of things, you know, eating pussy and all

0:35:56.640 --> 0:35:59.000
<v Speaker 1>that ship as we got young. Now, kids in high

0:35:59.000 --> 0:36:05.239
<v Speaker 1>school having threesomes like crazy. The girls, Yeah, they're talking

0:36:05.239 --> 0:36:07.919
<v Speaker 1>about giving their boyfriend the three for his birthday. Guys

0:36:07.960 --> 0:36:10.400
<v Speaker 1>in the ninth grade. So as when I was coming up,

0:36:10.480 --> 0:36:12.200
<v Speaker 1>we didn't have that. I think that's the that's the

0:36:12.719 --> 0:36:14.600
<v Speaker 1>part about the Internet that I think works, is that

0:36:14.760 --> 0:36:18.680
<v Speaker 1>you're not so clueless to realities of life. But I

0:36:18.719 --> 0:36:21.640
<v Speaker 1>didn't make you faster though, But I did think that

0:36:21.760 --> 0:36:27.080
<v Speaker 1>that night. I never know how to say this for Naive, Yeah,

0:36:27.320 --> 0:36:30.160
<v Speaker 1>Naiven see, I think that's what gave us our innocence,

0:36:30.200 --> 0:36:33.080
<v Speaker 1>and I'm purity that is lacking right now. So I

0:36:33.360 --> 0:36:35.320
<v Speaker 1>want to I don't want to discredit that, but I

0:36:35.440 --> 0:36:37.719
<v Speaker 1>just think that it's a it's a fine line, it's

0:36:37.719 --> 0:36:39.400
<v Speaker 1>a balance because I know what that felt like, and

0:36:39.440 --> 0:36:41.959
<v Speaker 1>I felt like I was walking around my neighborhood until

0:36:42.000 --> 0:36:46.120
<v Speaker 1>it dried for like twenty minutes, and you're nervous going

0:36:46.239 --> 0:36:52.080
<v Speaker 1>home feeling guilty. Like listen, when I was in remember

0:36:52.120 --> 0:36:53.960
<v Speaker 1>when I was in eighth grade, this girl that I

0:36:54.000 --> 0:36:55.600
<v Speaker 1>went to school and she had like a house party

0:36:55.840 --> 0:36:57.200
<v Speaker 1>and they would play this game like where you go

0:36:57.280 --> 0:37:00.520
<v Speaker 1>in the closet with somebody, but like, um, three minutes

0:37:00.600 --> 0:37:02.719
<v Speaker 1>or something like that, or yeah, I was like seven

0:37:02.800 --> 0:37:06.120
<v Speaker 1>minutes to happen. Having that's exactly what I had to

0:37:06.200 --> 0:37:08.439
<v Speaker 1>go in the closet with this guy, and I didn't

0:37:08.440 --> 0:37:09.840
<v Speaker 1>know what to do. I was in the closet, we

0:37:09.920 --> 0:37:11.560
<v Speaker 1>had the light on, we were just sitting there like me,

0:37:12.080 --> 0:37:14.120
<v Speaker 1>and then right before it was like almost time up.

0:37:14.120 --> 0:37:16.320
<v Speaker 1>They were like one minute left. Then he like kissed

0:37:16.320 --> 0:37:19.560
<v Speaker 1>me and hentted all over himself and I didn't do

0:37:20.840 --> 0:37:23.600
<v Speaker 1>that was seven minutes and so like so we walked

0:37:23.600 --> 0:37:29.480
<v Speaker 1>out there seconds and everybody sorry about apologize and they're like, oh,

0:37:29.600 --> 0:37:32.000
<v Speaker 1>she notudding on himself. And I didn't know what it was.

0:37:32.200 --> 0:37:34.040
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know anything in my jumm in eighth grade

0:37:34.080 --> 0:37:36.880
<v Speaker 1>and I still didn't know anything about like what that was.

0:37:37.400 --> 0:37:39.040
<v Speaker 1>And so I'm looking, like what happened. He's like now

0:37:39.200 --> 0:37:41.520
<v Speaker 1>saying some glue, and she was like, there's no glue

0:37:41.520 --> 0:37:43.640
<v Speaker 1>in my closet, and then everybody was looking in the

0:37:43.680 --> 0:37:47.440
<v Speaker 1>closet to see if there was glue. I had no idea,

0:37:47.640 --> 0:37:49.680
<v Speaker 1>like what happened. That's how I found out about it,

0:37:49.800 --> 0:37:55.600
<v Speaker 1>Like that was because of myself. Yeah, right now he's

0:37:55.600 --> 0:37:57.520
<v Speaker 1>sitting somewhere in a in a room listening to this ship.

0:37:57.640 --> 0:38:00.920
<v Speaker 1>Like people still make fun of about this because I

0:38:01.000 --> 0:38:04.040
<v Speaker 1>still know him to this day, Like everybody stills remember

0:38:04.040 --> 0:38:11.360
<v Speaker 1>when you went none in the closet like best and

0:38:11.440 --> 0:38:13.680
<v Speaker 1>I wondering if he knew what it was, but just

0:38:13.760 --> 0:38:15.400
<v Speaker 1>saying the first time you met it on yourself, you

0:38:15.520 --> 0:38:18.479
<v Speaker 1>with twelve you okay, So that was around that age,

0:38:18.560 --> 0:38:21.000
<v Speaker 1>like the twelve thirteen. I couldn't believe first of all,

0:38:21.040 --> 0:38:22.600
<v Speaker 1>when she was kissing on me, I'm just like, what

0:38:22.800 --> 0:38:25.200
<v Speaker 1>is she doing? Like like what is this? Why is

0:38:25.280 --> 0:38:29.279
<v Speaker 1>she doing this to me? Like how do we get

0:38:30.440 --> 0:38:32.239
<v Speaker 1>like how did we get here? Like you know, and

0:38:32.360 --> 0:38:34.200
<v Speaker 1>she was so young, and it's almost like you get

0:38:34.239 --> 0:38:37.800
<v Speaker 1>all these questions like who taught her? What is she? Like?

0:38:38.040 --> 0:38:40.399
<v Speaker 1>She really was? She really was good. Like the way

0:38:40.480 --> 0:38:41.960
<v Speaker 1>she was kissing on my neck, I was just like,

0:38:42.520 --> 0:38:44.320
<v Speaker 1>what is this girl doing? And then when I started

0:38:44.360 --> 0:38:46.440
<v Speaker 1>to feel it, I was just like, oh no, what

0:38:46.719 --> 0:38:50.000
<v Speaker 1>is this? This is the best thing I've ever felt ever?

0:38:50.160 --> 0:38:52.960
<v Speaker 1>And then immediately I hated her, like get away from

0:38:53.520 --> 0:38:55.680
<v Speaker 1>what did you do? Twenty minutes later, I'm looking for

0:38:55.760 --> 0:38:57.880
<v Speaker 1>what is this mission? Then after that, when is the

0:38:57.920 --> 0:39:01.319
<v Speaker 1>next time you like that happened? After that a lot

0:39:01.440 --> 0:39:06.640
<v Speaker 1>that she was the ship that summared to me. She's

0:39:06.640 --> 0:39:13.480
<v Speaker 1>got like nineteen babies now. She was morny. She was

0:39:13.560 --> 0:39:16.319
<v Speaker 1>real horny. I'm not surprised that she has nineteen babies now.

0:39:16.520 --> 0:39:21.640
<v Speaker 1>She was horny, like like like horny, bad story she

0:39:21.719 --> 0:39:23.920
<v Speaker 1>learned it. It could be like her cousins was Scott.

0:39:24.440 --> 0:39:26.000
<v Speaker 1>It's just so many things that you got to take

0:39:26.000 --> 0:39:28.680
<v Speaker 1>into consideration, like somebody did it to her, They shouldn't

0:39:28.680 --> 0:39:31.040
<v Speaker 1>have been exactly that. You never know you never know

0:39:31.120 --> 0:39:33.320
<v Speaker 1>how to was the first time he has sex. I

0:39:33.480 --> 0:39:35.040
<v Speaker 1>was late to have sex. I didn't have sex. Stuff

0:39:35.080 --> 0:39:38.560
<v Speaker 1>was seventeen. All of my friends were having sex, and um,

0:39:38.680 --> 0:39:40.320
<v Speaker 1>I was like, no, I'm gonna wait till I'm married

0:39:40.680 --> 0:39:44.800
<v Speaker 1>and then my friends that was sweet, Um, I think so.

0:39:45.080 --> 0:39:48.040
<v Speaker 1>But what happened was a friend of mine he bade

0:39:48.080 --> 0:39:49.719
<v Speaker 1>it me. He was like, yo, you get your dicks.

0:39:49.840 --> 0:39:51.719
<v Speaker 1>The girl be sucking your dick. Bro, you might as

0:39:51.760 --> 0:39:53.759
<v Speaker 1>well just suck because this is ridiculous. God sees you

0:39:53.760 --> 0:39:57.600
<v Speaker 1>getting your dicks, like you know what. I was like,

0:39:57.680 --> 0:40:01.560
<v Speaker 1>you know what, girl, But the girls thought I was

0:40:01.680 --> 0:40:04.520
<v Speaker 1>just like so cool, like he never did it, so

0:40:04.600 --> 0:40:06.520
<v Speaker 1>they would all come to the neighborhood and tried to

0:40:06.600 --> 0:40:09.000
<v Speaker 1>get me to do it. So all the guys were like, yo,

0:40:09.200 --> 0:40:12.239
<v Speaker 1>fuck her, what are you doing you sucking bush? Yeah?

0:40:13.360 --> 0:40:16.319
<v Speaker 1>So what I did was when I started having sex,

0:40:16.360 --> 0:40:19.000
<v Speaker 1>I just went back and sucked them all damn Like

0:40:19.520 --> 0:40:23.160
<v Speaker 1>I was just like I was like, I was like, oh, ship,

0:40:23.400 --> 0:40:25.200
<v Speaker 1>this is I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna go. You know,

0:40:25.360 --> 0:40:27.279
<v Speaker 1>did you know how to use condoms in everything? Oh? Yeah, yeah,

0:40:27.280 --> 0:40:30.640
<v Speaker 1>absolutely at seventeen, I guess you would not absolutely my friends.

0:40:30.800 --> 0:40:34.040
<v Speaker 1>My friends were thirteen and fourteen, and they were having

0:40:34.080 --> 0:40:37.719
<v Speaker 1>sex like a lot, like like literally like it was

0:40:37.840 --> 0:40:40.759
<v Speaker 1>trains being ran. It was the ridiculous types of sex

0:40:40.800 --> 0:40:44.880
<v Speaker 1>going on. And my man just no, seriously, it was

0:40:45.000 --> 0:40:47.640
<v Speaker 1>so much going on and my one of my best

0:40:47.680 --> 0:40:50.240
<v Speaker 1>friend's house that it was just like how is this happening?

0:40:50.320 --> 0:40:53.560
<v Speaker 1>Like how was this? How is this not being stopped?

0:40:53.640 --> 0:40:58.960
<v Speaker 1>Like these are kids where literally his mom would be there,

0:40:59.719 --> 0:41:01.320
<v Speaker 1>not not she wouldn't be there and know what's exactly

0:41:01.320 --> 0:41:03.120
<v Speaker 1>what's going on, But she was kind. He had one

0:41:03.120 --> 0:41:04.520
<v Speaker 1>of those houses where his mother would be in the

0:41:04.600 --> 0:41:06.239
<v Speaker 1>room and he would have a back door and go

0:41:06.400 --> 0:41:10.200
<v Speaker 1>to his room and anybody would come in there or

0:41:10.280 --> 0:41:11.920
<v Speaker 1>she was She was like one of those parents that

0:41:12.000 --> 0:41:14.440
<v Speaker 1>was like, y'all sucking all them dirty girls. You dick

0:41:14.520 --> 0:41:15.880
<v Speaker 1>is gonna fall off, and then she going the room

0:41:15.880 --> 0:41:18.080
<v Speaker 1>and slam the door. It wasn't like who's in my house?

0:41:18.160 --> 0:41:21.640
<v Speaker 1>And my house no, never would ever ever happen. Was

0:41:21.680 --> 0:41:25.239
<v Speaker 1>the first annual pussy. I was like, I see again,

0:41:25.320 --> 0:41:28.799
<v Speaker 1>remember we grew up in a different era. I was like, three,

0:41:28.960 --> 0:41:34.719
<v Speaker 1>good lord, yeah, Jesus, but you gotta understand we grew

0:41:34.840 --> 0:41:37.319
<v Speaker 1>up in a different era where a lot of guys

0:41:37.400 --> 0:41:39.200
<v Speaker 1>were doing it. You know, a lot of guys were

0:41:39.320 --> 0:41:41.279
<v Speaker 1>doing it but saying they weren't. And I was one

0:41:41.320 --> 0:41:43.920
<v Speaker 1>of those people who really wasn't doing it, you know

0:41:43.960 --> 0:41:46.040
<v Speaker 1>what I mean, Like you know how when guys I

0:41:46.160 --> 0:41:49.359
<v Speaker 1>was like, no, I don't do that and that's not cool.

0:41:49.440 --> 0:41:51.200
<v Speaker 1>But then I didn't realize everybody was doing it but

0:41:51.280 --> 0:41:57.200
<v Speaker 1>lying I was no. No. I think I think my

0:41:57.360 --> 0:42:01.719
<v Speaker 1>girl taught me how to do it. Really, just like yes,

0:42:02.480 --> 0:42:04.480
<v Speaker 1>since you got a head, that's crazy. I was. I

0:42:04.520 --> 0:42:06.200
<v Speaker 1>don't think I was good at all, soil she showed

0:42:06.239 --> 0:42:08.759
<v Speaker 1>me what were you doing wrong? I probably wasn't doing

0:42:08.760 --> 0:42:10.359
<v Speaker 1>it wrong, but it just wasn't good. And the way

0:42:10.360 --> 0:42:11.800
<v Speaker 1>you do any every way you do anything, why you

0:42:11.800 --> 0:42:14.719
<v Speaker 1>do everything? You want to be you want to be right,

0:42:15.040 --> 0:42:16.080
<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean. I don't want to be

0:42:16.280 --> 0:42:18.080
<v Speaker 1>I want to be the champion. Did you have to

0:42:18.160 --> 0:42:20.920
<v Speaker 1>tell you? Like, she just showed me exactly what they're doing.

0:42:22.600 --> 0:42:24.840
<v Speaker 1>You know, that's so good. You know when you marry

0:42:24.880 --> 0:42:27.600
<v Speaker 1>somebody that you told how to eat pussy like so

0:42:27.880 --> 0:42:31.680
<v Speaker 1>good because it's all right when you was all right

0:42:31.800 --> 0:42:34.239
<v Speaker 1>if this sucks two ways, if you teach a guy

0:42:34.280 --> 0:42:36.120
<v Speaker 1>how to eat pussy, and then you break up. You

0:42:36.200 --> 0:42:42.279
<v Speaker 1>know he's around eating everybody is pussy the right way exactly.

0:42:42.719 --> 0:42:46.960
<v Speaker 1>And then with honors or you meet a guy and

0:42:47.239 --> 0:42:50.520
<v Speaker 1>you you love him, no, and he just eats pussy

0:42:50.680 --> 0:42:53.520
<v Speaker 1>mad good, like he's just amazing. You know, he's eating

0:42:53.640 --> 0:42:58.239
<v Speaker 1>everybody's pussy because one girlfriend that told him how to

0:42:58.280 --> 0:43:01.160
<v Speaker 1>do it. Oh whatever I had, that's not true. You know,

0:43:01.280 --> 0:43:06.040
<v Speaker 1>think peoples, No, no one's a natural. Some people could

0:43:06.040 --> 0:43:09.680
<v Speaker 1>be naturals. I think I was a natural. I sucking

0:43:09.760 --> 0:43:12.440
<v Speaker 1>dick for sure. I don't think any whatever time me.

0:43:12.800 --> 0:43:14.759
<v Speaker 1>What if the guy said I was taught, but I

0:43:14.880 --> 0:43:17.479
<v Speaker 1>was at a very young I think I was nice.

0:43:17.600 --> 0:43:20.080
<v Speaker 1>Like the first time I was kind of the first

0:43:20.120 --> 0:43:22.040
<v Speaker 1>time I said to Dick, I did a terrible job.

0:43:22.320 --> 0:43:23.960
<v Speaker 1>I think I always was good at it. I think

0:43:24.040 --> 0:43:26.000
<v Speaker 1>the first on it for so long, I think the

0:43:26.080 --> 0:43:28.680
<v Speaker 1>first dick I suck was small, so it was like

0:43:29.320 --> 0:43:32.120
<v Speaker 1>so much easy. I was like little dick. Guys out

0:43:32.160 --> 0:43:34.719
<v Speaker 1>there got life so much easy. Little think little is

0:43:34.719 --> 0:43:42.120
<v Speaker 1>a very easy to sign. It's where you like day

0:43:42.239 --> 0:43:47.560
<v Speaker 1>is where you graduate. It's like, oh my god, you're

0:43:47.600 --> 0:43:50.520
<v Speaker 1>like a lot going sucking dick on this side, eat

0:43:50.640 --> 0:43:57.759
<v Speaker 1>chicken on this side, a little anything I can get,

0:43:57.800 --> 0:44:02.719
<v Speaker 1>a root canal, just stuck on the side of my back. No,

0:44:03.000 --> 0:44:05.160
<v Speaker 1>but a big dick. I have you fucked up? You

0:44:05.280 --> 0:44:07.759
<v Speaker 1>think you're nice little dick, and then you go home

0:44:07.800 --> 0:44:12.760
<v Speaker 1>and your throat sloy. You're crying like like why nothing,

0:44:12.840 --> 0:44:15.200
<v Speaker 1>like I have what do you call it? I can't

0:44:15.239 --> 0:44:18.680
<v Speaker 1>even that's the way you feel like your mouth stretched out,

0:44:18.760 --> 0:44:22.479
<v Speaker 1>like you gotta go get a lift, friller. You gotta

0:44:22.520 --> 0:44:24.239
<v Speaker 1>feel like your head is trash. If you suck it

0:44:24.320 --> 0:44:28.080
<v Speaker 1>that long to it, you know, you start this hurt. Nah. Yeah, yeah,

0:44:28.080 --> 0:44:30.640
<v Speaker 1>But sometimes don't guys try to like hold back because

0:44:30.680 --> 0:44:33.439
<v Speaker 1>they don't want to come. I feel like they didn't

0:44:33.440 --> 0:44:35.480
<v Speaker 1>come from him. I feel like every even the guy

0:44:35.520 --> 0:44:37.560
<v Speaker 1>who says he can't come from head, I feel like

0:44:37.680 --> 0:44:39.960
<v Speaker 1>every guy had the tick. You know what I mean?

0:44:40.000 --> 0:44:42.080
<v Speaker 1>You just gotta find out that one thing that's gonna

0:44:42.080 --> 0:44:45.360
<v Speaker 1>be that one thing he's singing that just so we

0:44:45.440 --> 0:44:49.000
<v Speaker 1>can see how crazy you and go to exactly exactly

0:44:49.080 --> 0:44:53.239
<v Speaker 1>he gonna comes from. Getting that dick suck. There's not

0:44:53.360 --> 0:44:56.120
<v Speaker 1>a guy out that ain't coming back from hold. I

0:44:56.239 --> 0:45:09.759
<v Speaker 1>think I'll make you best hold when a guy says that.

0:45:09.880 --> 0:45:11.480
<v Speaker 1>When a guy says, oh, I don't come from that,

0:45:11.600 --> 0:45:13.239
<v Speaker 1>it's the same thing like a girl saying like, I

0:45:13.320 --> 0:45:17.680
<v Speaker 1>don't you do this? You know, it's the same thing,

0:45:18.600 --> 0:45:22.000
<v Speaker 1>the same thing. That's that's what I don't usually do

0:45:22.120 --> 0:45:24.080
<v Speaker 1>this guy. I don't want you to think I'm a

0:45:24.120 --> 0:45:27.960
<v Speaker 1>whole and you're like I told you the whole one night, right, Like,

0:45:29.480 --> 0:45:31.840
<v Speaker 1>but can't you like kind of try to make it

0:45:32.000 --> 0:45:34.480
<v Speaker 1>last longer. If it's really good and you don't want

0:45:34.520 --> 0:45:36.799
<v Speaker 1>to come, you can stop and you know you can stop,

0:45:36.880 --> 0:45:39.440
<v Speaker 1>and yeah, you have to stop at him. I hate

0:45:39.480 --> 0:45:42.000
<v Speaker 1>when guys do that. Just come. I don't want to

0:45:42.000 --> 0:45:44.600
<v Speaker 1>do this, not me. I like for a guy to

0:45:44.680 --> 0:45:46.440
<v Speaker 1>hold it. I like to do it for a while.

0:45:46.960 --> 0:45:49.160
<v Speaker 1>I'll tell you when a guy comes like, oh I

0:45:49.160 --> 0:45:53.560
<v Speaker 1>could have went like another five minutes. I like it,

0:45:54.040 --> 0:45:56.680
<v Speaker 1>and then and then but jeezus, come on, you like

0:45:56.840 --> 0:46:00.719
<v Speaker 1>it too, don't lie. I do. But but if it's

0:46:00.760 --> 0:46:03.480
<v Speaker 1>too big, it's like, all right, this is too Oh

0:46:03.520 --> 0:46:07.520
<v Speaker 1>my god, I loved it's so good. Pull that dragon

0:46:07.560 --> 0:46:12.600
<v Speaker 1>out so I can feel it. Yeah, yeah, what what

0:46:12.760 --> 0:46:15.279
<v Speaker 1>about talking? Like just talking in bad make you want

0:46:15.320 --> 0:46:23.080
<v Speaker 1>to come faster? Yes? Shut up up like I'm not listening,

0:46:23.280 --> 0:46:25.279
<v Speaker 1>or don't turn around and make that face that like

0:46:25.600 --> 0:46:28.200
<v Speaker 1>why are you sucking me? Like it's a rap? You

0:46:28.320 --> 0:46:31.040
<v Speaker 1>just ruined it. It's over now, curtains. Do you ever

0:46:31.080 --> 0:46:33.120
<v Speaker 1>feel like sometimes have you ever said something during sex

0:46:33.160 --> 0:46:34.719
<v Speaker 1>and been like, what the fund did I just say?

0:46:35.840 --> 0:46:39.320
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I feel like I've done that drunk,

0:46:39.680 --> 0:46:41.960
<v Speaker 1>like you just don't know what's coming out of your mouth.

0:46:42.200 --> 0:46:44.400
<v Speaker 1>Say a few times and I really didn't mean it.

0:46:44.680 --> 0:46:46.880
<v Speaker 1>But I never say I love you. I don't mean it.

0:46:47.040 --> 0:46:49.680
<v Speaker 1>I didn't know I did. Definitely. That's a fucking song.

0:46:50.000 --> 0:46:55.000
<v Speaker 1>Goddamn it. I'm just thinking, I never said I love you. Yeah, no,

0:46:55.560 --> 0:46:58.279
<v Speaker 1>it's true. You never said I love you too. If

0:46:58.360 --> 0:47:00.920
<v Speaker 1>somebody said it to you, no, Usually when we get

0:47:00.960 --> 0:47:03.120
<v Speaker 1>to that point, I do love them, like I'm like, yeah,

0:47:05.280 --> 0:47:08.160
<v Speaker 1>look and no I've been with all right. Not too

0:47:08.239 --> 0:47:10.799
<v Speaker 1>long ago, I was working with somebody and they said

0:47:10.840 --> 0:47:12.920
<v Speaker 1>I love you to me. They were like they like

0:47:13.040 --> 0:47:15.000
<v Speaker 1>we were not like we were arguing. We were having

0:47:15.040 --> 0:47:18.279
<v Speaker 1>an argument and he was like, you know stuff, you know,

0:47:18.320 --> 0:47:20.360
<v Speaker 1>I'll only go through this with you because I love you.

0:47:21.239 --> 0:47:25.120
<v Speaker 1>This was like this was so I was like, uh,

0:47:25.920 --> 0:47:27.799
<v Speaker 1>I was like, you know, I got love for you too,

0:47:28.239 --> 0:47:35.839
<v Speaker 1>you know what I'm saying. Baby, Now, I told him

0:47:35.880 --> 0:47:38.240
<v Speaker 1>and he's like, he's like, He's like, and I understand

0:47:38.239 --> 0:47:40.719
<v Speaker 1>that what I'm saying, And you know, I just feel

0:47:40.800 --> 0:47:42.800
<v Speaker 1>like I wasn't gonna tell him that I was in

0:47:42.880 --> 0:47:44.279
<v Speaker 1>love with him, And that's exactly what I said. I

0:47:44.360 --> 0:47:45.080
<v Speaker 1>was like, what do you want me to do? You

0:47:45.120 --> 0:47:46.239
<v Speaker 1>want me to tell you that I'm in love with you?

0:47:46.360 --> 0:47:49.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm not. I'm not in love with you. And no,

0:47:49.239 --> 0:47:51.279
<v Speaker 1>but we weren't. We weren't even on that kind of five.

0:47:51.560 --> 0:47:54.880
<v Speaker 1>That wasn't even our five. We were normal like this

0:47:55.040 --> 0:47:57.720
<v Speaker 1>is at the time when I had two boyfriends. Remember everybody,

0:47:58.040 --> 0:48:00.200
<v Speaker 1>I had two boyfriends that was at that time time.

0:48:00.440 --> 0:48:05.200
<v Speaker 1>So obviously he was actually the second boyfriend. Yes, it

0:48:05.320 --> 0:48:07.520
<v Speaker 1>was the backup boyfriend. But you know, when either way

0:48:07.680 --> 0:48:11.120
<v Speaker 1>first or second, you're you're you're single, you're dating, and

0:48:11.239 --> 0:48:13.200
<v Speaker 1>you're you're doing your thing, you know what I mean.

0:48:13.840 --> 0:48:16.239
<v Speaker 1>So that's what I'm saying. We weren't on a vibe like.

0:48:16.320 --> 0:48:18.239
<v Speaker 1>It wasn't like I wasn't being honest with him. He

0:48:18.320 --> 0:48:20.799
<v Speaker 1>knew I was sleeping with somebody else from time to time.

0:48:20.880 --> 0:48:24.480
<v Speaker 1>You know what I mean, I think I love for them.

0:48:24.760 --> 0:48:27.120
<v Speaker 1>I didn't not the guy. Okay, ask you could you

0:48:27.200 --> 0:48:29.600
<v Speaker 1>be in love with both of them? Me in love? No,

0:48:29.800 --> 0:48:31.919
<v Speaker 1>I don't feel like I feel like being in love

0:48:32.200 --> 0:48:34.560
<v Speaker 1>like um, I feel like I'm a falling in love

0:48:34.640 --> 0:48:37.840
<v Speaker 1>as person. But I don't fall in love with everybody

0:48:37.960 --> 0:48:40.880
<v Speaker 1>like Gi. You you know, you know me well, like

0:48:41.000 --> 0:48:44.160
<v Speaker 1>me and Gig like she knows names, you know what

0:48:44.239 --> 0:48:47.560
<v Speaker 1>I mean, and you know like and you know I've

0:48:47.680 --> 0:48:50.239
<v Speaker 1>I've dated some amazing guys who have treated me well,

0:48:50.600 --> 0:48:52.360
<v Speaker 1>and I don't fall in love with them because I

0:48:52.400 --> 0:48:54.360
<v Speaker 1>don't feel like we're on that we don't have that

0:48:54.480 --> 0:48:57.040
<v Speaker 1>kind of spiritual connection, you know. To be in love

0:48:57.120 --> 0:48:59.440
<v Speaker 1>with somebody, it's a it's a strong feeling, you know.

0:48:59.560 --> 0:49:01.960
<v Speaker 1>It's a like I love my friends, and I love

0:49:02.280 --> 0:49:06.200
<v Speaker 1>my things, and I love my job, I love my hair,

0:49:06.800 --> 0:49:08.359
<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean. But to be in love

0:49:08.480 --> 0:49:11.719
<v Speaker 1>with somebody, that's that's like a different kind of thing,

0:49:12.040 --> 0:49:13.320
<v Speaker 1>you know. So I'm not going at of You have

0:49:13.400 --> 0:49:16.759
<v Speaker 1>a really unique theory about love. I think that we

0:49:16.800 --> 0:49:18.480
<v Speaker 1>can be wrong about everything in the world, but we

0:49:18.840 --> 0:49:21.239
<v Speaker 1>don't accept that we could be wrong about falling in love.

0:49:21.320 --> 0:49:23.239
<v Speaker 1>I do believe you only can be in love one time,

0:49:23.440 --> 0:49:25.320
<v Speaker 1>only once. And this is why I say this. I

0:49:25.440 --> 0:49:31.560
<v Speaker 1>think the definition of love, the definition of love is um,

0:49:32.120 --> 0:49:35.400
<v Speaker 1>unconditional and continuous. So to be in love with somebody

0:49:35.640 --> 0:49:37.279
<v Speaker 1>and say I'm not in love with him no more,

0:49:37.280 --> 0:49:41.279
<v Speaker 1>all you're doing is realizing that. Well, and that's another thing.

0:49:41.440 --> 0:49:42.840
<v Speaker 1>That's what I think, and and the reason why I

0:49:42.920 --> 0:49:45.239
<v Speaker 1>say that is this. We can be wrong about so

0:49:45.400 --> 0:49:48.560
<v Speaker 1>many things, and we we feel like that's not possible.

0:49:48.760 --> 0:49:51.080
<v Speaker 1>I was in love, No, you were infatuated with the

0:49:51.120 --> 0:49:53.680
<v Speaker 1>feeling that you had been with this person, but over

0:49:53.800 --> 0:49:56.000
<v Speaker 1>time that's feeling went away. And I think that it

0:49:56.040 --> 0:49:58.160
<v Speaker 1>don't matter if he was with him for twenty years.

0:49:58.640 --> 0:50:01.160
<v Speaker 1>You could be wrong like I was, or friends with

0:50:01.320 --> 0:50:03.480
<v Speaker 1>somebody who I thought was my best friend and then

0:50:03.960 --> 0:50:05.840
<v Speaker 1>he tried to steal from me and did so I

0:50:05.960 --> 0:50:08.120
<v Speaker 1>had to realize this person wasn't a friend to me,

0:50:08.239 --> 0:50:10.040
<v Speaker 1>he wasn't a real friend. So at the end of

0:50:10.040 --> 0:50:11.759
<v Speaker 1>the day, I can say I was wrong about what

0:50:11.840 --> 0:50:15.359
<v Speaker 1>I thought this person was. So why can't a significant other, Uh,

0:50:15.680 --> 0:50:17.960
<v Speaker 1>the person of the opposite sex who you love orho

0:50:17.960 --> 0:50:19.919
<v Speaker 1>you think you You can say I really love this person,

0:50:20.000 --> 0:50:24.000
<v Speaker 1>but I wasn't necessarily. I don't believe that if it's

0:50:24.080 --> 0:50:26.600
<v Speaker 1>really love, you can ever fall out. I just think

0:50:26.640 --> 0:50:28.600
<v Speaker 1>that you can say I love somebody and I love

0:50:28.719 --> 0:50:31.160
<v Speaker 1>them and I love being with them, because by nature,

0:50:31.480 --> 0:50:33.799
<v Speaker 1>I think we're meant to love everybody. I think that's

0:50:34.040 --> 0:50:36.360
<v Speaker 1>that's but to be in love with somebody, to have

0:50:36.520 --> 0:50:39.439
<v Speaker 1>that connection my personal belief. And I'm not gonna say

0:50:39.640 --> 0:50:41.800
<v Speaker 1>that if you believe otherwise, that you're wrong. I'm just

0:50:41.840 --> 0:50:45.320
<v Speaker 1>saying my belief is that if you're in love with somebody,

0:50:45.400 --> 0:50:47.920
<v Speaker 1>that's it. That's But if it's not, you don't realize

0:50:48.080 --> 0:50:49.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm out of love with them, You realize, you know

0:50:49.640 --> 0:50:52.239
<v Speaker 1>what it really wasn't what I know, I love them,

0:50:52.360 --> 0:50:54.839
<v Speaker 1>I was never in love with them like I thought,

0:50:55.000 --> 0:50:56.880
<v Speaker 1>because you know, do you think you could end up

0:50:57.000 --> 0:51:00.200
<v Speaker 1>like never falling in love with anybody. I don't believe

0:51:00.280 --> 0:51:03.279
<v Speaker 1>that that is possible. I think that, um No, I'm

0:51:03.280 --> 0:51:04.759
<v Speaker 1>not gonna say that's not possible, because I think so

0:51:04.840 --> 0:51:07.799
<v Speaker 1>many people live just earth and don't. Really I think

0:51:07.920 --> 0:51:10.560
<v Speaker 1>maybe you missed out on the person that you would

0:51:10.640 --> 0:51:13.360
<v Speaker 1>love with because the own whatever decisions or whatever they

0:51:13.400 --> 0:51:15.080
<v Speaker 1>could have been locked up or whatever. I don't know,

0:51:15.400 --> 0:51:17.799
<v Speaker 1>but it's just so many things that I feel like, Um,

0:51:17.960 --> 0:51:20.480
<v Speaker 1>you can love somebody, but love changes, you know what

0:51:20.560 --> 0:51:22.400
<v Speaker 1>I mean. I feel like you can love someone so

0:51:22.640 --> 0:51:26.440
<v Speaker 1>much I want done. You can love someone some away

0:51:27.200 --> 0:51:30.600
<v Speaker 1>because I I feel like, Um, I still love my songs. Father,

0:51:30.719 --> 0:51:32.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm not in love with exactly. So we were saying

0:51:33.000 --> 0:51:35.040
<v Speaker 1>the same thing, you know what I mean. I love him.

0:51:35.080 --> 0:51:37.080
<v Speaker 1>I love him for the rest of my life. He's

0:51:37.200 --> 0:51:39.680
<v Speaker 1>very important to me. I think very highly of him.

0:51:39.719 --> 0:51:41.960
<v Speaker 1>He's a wonderful man, you know what I mean. But

0:51:42.160 --> 0:51:44.680
<v Speaker 1>I don't see myself being in a relationship. What I'm

0:51:44.719 --> 0:51:46.400
<v Speaker 1>saying is the same thing you're saying. I love him

0:51:46.400 --> 0:51:50.080
<v Speaker 1>though by nature we obviously, I believe we were born

0:51:50.160 --> 0:51:53.759
<v Speaker 1>to love everybody, right, I feel like so much. So

0:51:53.880 --> 0:51:55.840
<v Speaker 1>you have to teach a kid to go with a stranger.

0:51:56.040 --> 0:51:58.799
<v Speaker 1>You have to teach him that because by nature we're

0:51:59.000 --> 0:52:01.840
<v Speaker 1>trusting and we're giving and loving. So you have to

0:52:03.120 --> 0:52:06.040
<v Speaker 1>exactly no, no, no, none, especially just when you're born.

0:52:06.120 --> 0:52:10.359
<v Speaker 1>You have to be taught bad good. It's natural. Don't

0:52:10.400 --> 0:52:13.800
<v Speaker 1>talk to somebody tells you this. If somebody does exactly,

0:52:14.040 --> 0:52:16.200
<v Speaker 1>and you're taught that, and you can see the lightbulb

0:52:16.239 --> 0:52:18.440
<v Speaker 1>go off when you're telling your kids, like, really, somebody

0:52:18.480 --> 0:52:20.080
<v Speaker 1>would try to put me in that car. But like

0:52:20.120 --> 0:52:21.480
<v Speaker 1>I remember telling my son and he was like, why

0:52:21.520 --> 0:52:22.919
<v Speaker 1>don't they do that? Don't they want to go to heaven?

0:52:28.000 --> 0:52:30.000
<v Speaker 1>You're not gonna You're not gonna get to heaven like that.

0:52:31.360 --> 0:52:33.080
<v Speaker 1>Trying to put kids in vans ain't gonna get you

0:52:33.080 --> 0:52:35.600
<v Speaker 1>to heaven. But in retrospect, for you, I always thought

0:52:35.640 --> 0:52:37.120
<v Speaker 1>you were in love. Do you look back and say

0:52:37.160 --> 0:52:43.719
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't in love now? I think we don't want

0:52:43.719 --> 0:52:45.040
<v Speaker 1>to admit it though. I think we don't want to

0:52:45.080 --> 0:52:46.319
<v Speaker 1>say that to this because we don't want to admit

0:52:46.400 --> 0:52:48.000
<v Speaker 1>that we wasted a lot of time. But it's not

0:52:48.160 --> 0:52:50.800
<v Speaker 1>wasted times. No, That's why I agree I said a

0:52:50.880 --> 0:52:52.800
<v Speaker 1>lot of times. In mind, we think I have to

0:52:52.880 --> 0:52:54.520
<v Speaker 1>say that it was love because I was in love

0:52:54.600 --> 0:52:57.000
<v Speaker 1>because I don't want to feel like I wasted my time.

0:52:57.040 --> 0:52:58.719
<v Speaker 1>But I think they are lessons and I think we

0:52:58.920 --> 0:53:00.600
<v Speaker 1>learned and how to how to do with people and

0:53:00.680 --> 0:53:03.480
<v Speaker 1>we see things. I always say this, and this is

0:53:03.560 --> 0:53:05.920
<v Speaker 1>something that um I point out to all of my friends.

0:53:06.320 --> 0:53:08.239
<v Speaker 1>Every time you with somebody and you break up with them,

0:53:08.239 --> 0:53:10.440
<v Speaker 1>I don't care if it's ten years, fifteen years. The

0:53:10.560 --> 0:53:12.640
<v Speaker 1>sign that you saw that you shouldn't have been with

0:53:12.680 --> 0:53:15.759
<v Speaker 1>them happened within the first month. I guarantee it. You

0:53:15.960 --> 0:53:18.759
<v Speaker 1>liked them enough to keep going and you ignored it.

0:53:19.040 --> 0:53:21.640
<v Speaker 1>But I guarantee you if you look back in retrospect

0:53:21.680 --> 0:53:24.799
<v Speaker 1>and say to yourself, I knew on week two when

0:53:24.840 --> 0:53:27.680
<v Speaker 1>that motherfucker did this ship that I shouldn't have fun

0:53:27.760 --> 0:53:29.440
<v Speaker 1>with him. Right, What do you think, Because I know

0:53:30.120 --> 0:53:32.480
<v Speaker 1>you had a long term relationship, they were definitely some

0:53:32.560 --> 0:53:35.840
<v Speaker 1>red flags. But you think looking back, you feel like

0:53:35.920 --> 0:53:38.359
<v Speaker 1>you were in love or you feel like I feel

0:53:38.400 --> 0:53:42.160
<v Speaker 1>like I wasn't in love. I don't feel like that's

0:53:42.200 --> 0:53:46.800
<v Speaker 1>my one love, and that's it. I understand the logic

0:53:47.280 --> 0:53:51.279
<v Speaker 1>of behind what you're saying. Um you know, I'm sitting

0:53:51.280 --> 0:53:53.760
<v Speaker 1>here thinking about it as you're saying that. Actually, however,

0:53:54.160 --> 0:53:57.400
<v Speaker 1>with that particular situation, UM, I do think I was

0:53:57.480 --> 0:54:00.560
<v Speaker 1>in love, like I was able to look past a

0:54:00.719 --> 0:54:02.400
<v Speaker 1>whole lot of things, and I feel like it was

0:54:02.520 --> 0:54:06.239
<v Speaker 1>I was blinded by love. Um Am, I still in love? No?

0:54:07.040 --> 0:54:09.239
<v Speaker 1>I love him, yes, of course, but I'm not in

0:54:09.600 --> 0:54:12.680
<v Speaker 1>That's what I'm saying. I really believe that you realize

0:54:12.719 --> 0:54:15.879
<v Speaker 1>that this isn't the person, and that you really wasn't

0:54:15.920 --> 0:54:18.279
<v Speaker 1>in love. You was you love spending time with them.

0:54:18.360 --> 0:54:20.160
<v Speaker 1>You love with whatever they had to offer, and I

0:54:20.160 --> 0:54:21.920
<v Speaker 1>don't mean financially or whatever. I mean whatever they had

0:54:21.960 --> 0:54:23.879
<v Speaker 1>to in your life give to you in your life,

0:54:23.920 --> 0:54:26.320
<v Speaker 1>and and you you were infatuated with that, so that

0:54:26.440 --> 0:54:30.279
<v Speaker 1>when that break happens, it hurts. But over time, you

0:54:30.360 --> 0:54:32.399
<v Speaker 1>could look at that same person be with somebody else

0:54:32.440 --> 0:54:34.120
<v Speaker 1>and it don't affect you the same way because it's like,

0:54:35.080 --> 0:54:37.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm not moving like that. That's not where I'm at,

0:54:37.360 --> 0:54:38.960
<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean. And when you get to

0:54:39.080 --> 0:54:41.839
<v Speaker 1>that point, it may be a situation where you get

0:54:41.880 --> 0:54:43.640
<v Speaker 1>back with them and you realize, no, I'm really in

0:54:43.680 --> 0:54:46.040
<v Speaker 1>love this person. Over in time showed me that I was.

0:54:46.400 --> 0:54:48.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm not trying to hear. I'm not here to tell

0:54:48.160 --> 0:54:50.320
<v Speaker 1>people that who they're not in love or not. I

0:54:50.440 --> 0:54:53.360
<v Speaker 1>just believe that it's one one time only only because

0:54:53.440 --> 0:54:57.520
<v Speaker 1>of my face. Honestly, you know, I listen to me,

0:54:58.200 --> 0:55:00.680
<v Speaker 1>or you think you know, and you said because of

0:55:00.760 --> 0:55:03.120
<v Speaker 1>your faith and the way, that's what I was just

0:55:03.239 --> 0:55:05.520
<v Speaker 1>thinking of. You took the word right out of my head.

0:55:05.840 --> 0:55:08.120
<v Speaker 1>I hope you're right because of my faith, because I

0:55:08.280 --> 0:55:12.920
<v Speaker 1>want to end up with that one person. I don't

0:55:12.960 --> 0:55:15.320
<v Speaker 1>want to turn this into like I really hope that

0:55:15.400 --> 0:55:18.160
<v Speaker 1>you're right. I definitely don't want to turn it into

0:55:18.160 --> 0:55:19.560
<v Speaker 1>a Bible city, but don't want you to. I want

0:55:19.560 --> 0:55:22.040
<v Speaker 1>you to understand everything on earth is just an example

0:55:22.080 --> 0:55:24.680
<v Speaker 1>of the relationship. We should have a God. Right now,

0:55:24.760 --> 0:55:26.880
<v Speaker 1>people want to call it the universe or whatever they

0:55:26.920 --> 0:55:28.239
<v Speaker 1>want to call it. But at the end of the day,

0:55:28.560 --> 0:55:31.560
<v Speaker 1>the relationship that you're the bond between a mother and

0:55:31.680 --> 0:55:34.880
<v Speaker 1>a and a daughter is a relationship that is supposed

0:55:34.920 --> 0:55:36.239
<v Speaker 1>to have a God. The father and the daughter, the

0:55:36.280 --> 0:55:38.520
<v Speaker 1>father and the son is just an example of how

0:55:38.680 --> 0:55:40.640
<v Speaker 1>much God loves us, and we should love him and

0:55:40.719 --> 0:55:44.920
<v Speaker 1>reverence him. So a marriage relationship is just that relationship.

0:55:45.360 --> 0:55:48.440
<v Speaker 1>God is a jealous God. Why do you think we're jealous?

0:55:49.000 --> 0:55:51.759
<v Speaker 1>It's everything is a mimic, it's a relationship. Is an

0:55:51.840 --> 0:55:55.040
<v Speaker 1>example of how we should feel about him, right, or

0:55:55.080 --> 0:55:56.600
<v Speaker 1>whatever you want to believe in, because I'm not trying

0:55:56.600 --> 0:55:59.680
<v Speaker 1>to force my beliefs on anybody. Whatever you believe is

0:55:59.719 --> 0:56:02.200
<v Speaker 1>that for exactly. So what I'm saying is when you

0:56:02.400 --> 0:56:04.440
<v Speaker 1>have that you, and when you believe that strongly in

0:56:04.520 --> 0:56:07.160
<v Speaker 1>your heart, then you it's impossible for me to believe

0:56:07.719 --> 0:56:11.440
<v Speaker 1>that me and my imperfection can't get it wrong and

0:56:11.600 --> 0:56:13.719
<v Speaker 1>assume that for this amount of time I was in

0:56:13.840 --> 0:56:16.360
<v Speaker 1>love with somebody and not grow and say to myself,

0:56:16.520 --> 0:56:19.040
<v Speaker 1>you know what, that wasn't necessarily a case. I wasn't

0:56:19.080 --> 0:56:20.880
<v Speaker 1>really in love with this person. We have to be

0:56:21.000 --> 0:56:23.759
<v Speaker 1>mature enough to accept that we don't know everything and

0:56:24.000 --> 0:56:26.120
<v Speaker 1>we made a mistake and was with somebody like it

0:56:26.400 --> 0:56:28.600
<v Speaker 1>hurts you to realize that I was with especially with women,

0:56:28.880 --> 0:56:32.480
<v Speaker 1>because with men. With men, we feel like a lot

0:56:32.520 --> 0:56:34.560
<v Speaker 1>of times women feel like, well he's a man. He

0:56:34.640 --> 0:56:37.480
<v Speaker 1>can be seven years old, get another girl, have a baby,

0:56:37.520 --> 0:56:39.120
<v Speaker 1>and everything is different. I have to start over and

0:56:39.160 --> 0:56:41.600
<v Speaker 1>it's more difficult fas and I respect that point of view.

0:56:41.719 --> 0:56:43.480
<v Speaker 1>So a lot of times you're angry with yourself and

0:56:43.520 --> 0:56:45.640
<v Speaker 1>you feel like I spent all this time with this nigga,

0:56:45.680 --> 0:56:48.600
<v Speaker 1>I'd better been in love. I can't be this fucking crazy.

0:56:48.680 --> 0:56:51.560
<v Speaker 1>But it's like, we are imperfect. Let me ask you this,

0:56:51.880 --> 0:56:54.160
<v Speaker 1>what if you're in love with somebody who's taken and

0:56:54.280 --> 0:56:55.839
<v Speaker 1>you feel like you're in love with somebody, but there

0:56:55.880 --> 0:56:58.880
<v Speaker 1>with some I believe that. Look, this is what I believe.

0:56:59.160 --> 0:57:00.600
<v Speaker 1>And I'm not trying to tell Aboudy to go for

0:57:00.719 --> 0:57:02.400
<v Speaker 1>and not that that's some advice ain't gonna give you,

0:57:03.880 --> 0:57:06.840
<v Speaker 1>but but this is what I'm saying. Just because somebody

0:57:07.000 --> 0:57:09.000
<v Speaker 1>is with somebody don't mean that that's not the person

0:57:09.080 --> 0:57:12.279
<v Speaker 1>for you. That don't necessarily mean that they're not for you.

0:57:12.480 --> 0:57:15.000
<v Speaker 1>It just means that right now they could be going

0:57:15.080 --> 0:57:17.280
<v Speaker 1>through their phase of not really knowing what they're doing

0:57:17.480 --> 0:57:19.600
<v Speaker 1>and being in the wrong situation. And I believe that

0:57:19.640 --> 0:57:21.480
<v Speaker 1>if you trust again, I don't want to turn the

0:57:21.520 --> 0:57:23.640
<v Speaker 1>Bible state, but if you trust God and say yourself,

0:57:24.040 --> 0:57:25.720
<v Speaker 1>I trust that whatever is supposed to happen for me,

0:57:25.760 --> 0:57:27.919
<v Speaker 1>He's gonna make available for me, then it will become

0:57:27.920 --> 0:57:30.040
<v Speaker 1>available for you. All right. Now, let's get to one

0:57:30.080 --> 0:57:32.320
<v Speaker 1>of these questions that somebody wrote in because that actually

0:57:33.000 --> 0:57:44.160
<v Speaker 1>from us. I was the other day I was. I

0:57:44.240 --> 0:57:45.880
<v Speaker 1>have been married for eight years. My husband and I

0:57:46.000 --> 0:57:48.040
<v Speaker 1>had our first child after two years of marriage. We

0:57:48.160 --> 0:57:50.000
<v Speaker 1>put our child first, which kind of put our marriage

0:57:50.040 --> 0:57:51.640
<v Speaker 1>on the back burner. In hindsight, that was not a

0:57:51.680 --> 0:57:54.560
<v Speaker 1>good idea. Everything he does irks me. It didn't become

0:57:54.640 --> 0:57:56.720
<v Speaker 1>this way overnight. It happened after he fell into a

0:57:56.800 --> 0:57:59.080
<v Speaker 1>depression a few years back. I did my best to

0:57:59.080 --> 0:58:01.600
<v Speaker 1>support him because I know what that feels like from experience.

0:58:01.880 --> 0:58:03.760
<v Speaker 1>He sat at home during this time, which was okay

0:58:03.760 --> 0:58:06.520
<v Speaker 1>at first, but ultimately letter our financial ruin. As it

0:58:06.640 --> 0:58:08.520
<v Speaker 1>was happening, I begged him to get a job, but

0:58:08.600 --> 0:58:10.640
<v Speaker 1>he went inside worked while he was at home with

0:58:10.680 --> 0:58:12.400
<v Speaker 1>our child. Though that wasn't where I wanted him to

0:58:12.440 --> 0:58:15.000
<v Speaker 1>be in my resentment group, and her question is I

0:58:15.120 --> 0:58:16.320
<v Speaker 1>just don't love him and I don't want to be

0:58:16.400 --> 0:58:17.880
<v Speaker 1>with him anymore. So I try to work this out

0:58:17.920 --> 0:58:21.320
<v Speaker 1>for the take of our marriage, going fast, Get going fast?

0:58:21.840 --> 0:58:24.480
<v Speaker 1>Why the kid is young enough to not be so attached,

0:58:24.800 --> 0:58:26.800
<v Speaker 1>and then you can get over it. Don't wait till

0:58:26.800 --> 0:58:29.000
<v Speaker 1>the kid is nineteen and starts hating himself and blaming

0:58:29.040 --> 0:58:32.120
<v Speaker 1>itself for you. You know what I mean going now?

0:58:32.320 --> 0:58:35.080
<v Speaker 1>And what I say is this, I can never depression

0:58:35.160 --> 0:58:37.920
<v Speaker 1>is serious, and we can't question depression. But what I

0:58:38.000 --> 0:58:40.760
<v Speaker 1>do know is that I'm a man who believes in

0:58:41.240 --> 0:58:43.760
<v Speaker 1>figure this shit out. Let's get the funk up and

0:58:43.840 --> 0:58:46.240
<v Speaker 1>let's figure this shot out. I've been dead, poor I

0:58:46.360 --> 0:58:49.080
<v Speaker 1>had nothing in my pocket and I've had millions, so

0:58:49.200 --> 0:58:51.360
<v Speaker 1>I know what it's like to be able to say, bro,

0:58:51.440 --> 0:58:53.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna figure this shot out and I'm gonna get

0:58:53.160 --> 0:58:55.720
<v Speaker 1>some mother fucking money for my family. And so some

0:58:55.760 --> 0:58:57.520
<v Speaker 1>people ain't built like that. And that's why I don't

0:58:57.560 --> 0:58:59.440
<v Speaker 1>believe she wants to be with him, because she not

0:58:59.520 --> 0:59:01.640
<v Speaker 1>attracted to that weak nigger ship. And I ain't mad

0:59:01.680 --> 0:59:03.480
<v Speaker 1>at her. She's supposed to because he's you know, and

0:59:03.800 --> 0:59:06.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to get all the way crazy. But

0:59:07.200 --> 0:59:09.680
<v Speaker 1>but at the end of the day, when you got children,

0:59:09.960 --> 0:59:11.800
<v Speaker 1>he is one thing to say, I'm by myself and

0:59:11.840 --> 0:59:14.120
<v Speaker 1>I gotta but when you when you have a child,

0:59:14.200 --> 0:59:16.560
<v Speaker 1>it's something that that's in you that has to I

0:59:16.680 --> 0:59:18.600
<v Speaker 1>told my son the other day. My son said, data,

0:59:18.640 --> 0:59:20.360
<v Speaker 1>can you lift this car up? I said, if it

0:59:20.440 --> 0:59:24.960
<v Speaker 1>fell on you, I could, because I'm gonna find something

0:59:25.080 --> 0:59:27.640
<v Speaker 1>in myself that's gonna be bigger than, greater than who

0:59:27.680 --> 0:59:30.880
<v Speaker 1>I name my daughter, Believe beyond, because when I look

0:59:30.920 --> 0:59:32.920
<v Speaker 1>at her, I gotta say to myself, I gotta believe

0:59:32.960 --> 0:59:36.000
<v Speaker 1>beyond every circumstance, every situation, everything I'm going through, and

0:59:36.080 --> 0:59:37.960
<v Speaker 1>know that I gotta provide for her and also out

0:59:38.080 --> 0:59:41.400
<v Speaker 1>to know that there's something greater for me beyond this situation,

0:59:42.080 --> 0:59:45.480
<v Speaker 1>beyond my last name. I gotta believe beyond whatever I

0:59:45.560 --> 0:59:47.960
<v Speaker 1>can even see. So if you can't find that it

0:59:48.080 --> 0:59:51.320
<v Speaker 1>muster that power up in yourself to provide for your family,

0:59:51.720 --> 0:59:53.240
<v Speaker 1>then you don't need to be with him. He needs

0:59:53.240 --> 0:59:54.960
<v Speaker 1>to figure out hisself. He needs to figure out who

0:59:55.000 --> 0:59:56.440
<v Speaker 1>he is and when he's doing. There's only so much

0:59:56.480 --> 0:59:57.960
<v Speaker 1>you can help him. You try for six years. But

0:59:58.040 --> 1:00:00.120
<v Speaker 1>depression is a real thing. There's a real thing. But

1:00:00.600 --> 1:00:03.480
<v Speaker 1>sometimes but you gotta live your life too. So until

1:00:03.520 --> 1:00:05.280
<v Speaker 1>they get over their depression, you gotta praveing them and

1:00:05.360 --> 1:00:08.080
<v Speaker 1>let them rock. But you can't be miserable your life

1:00:08.400 --> 1:00:11.000
<v Speaker 1>because another grown person is going through what they're going

1:00:11.000 --> 1:00:12.320
<v Speaker 1>through and not trying to say what they're going through

1:00:12.360 --> 1:00:15.880
<v Speaker 1>isn't real. But is it your obligation to not be happy? No,

1:00:16.080 --> 1:00:19.560
<v Speaker 1>it's not all right. Now, here's one last question you're

1:00:19.600 --> 1:00:22.600
<v Speaker 1>gonna I want to hear this your answer to this one. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I've been dating this girl for quite some time and

1:00:25.000 --> 1:00:26.920
<v Speaker 1>I'm in love with her. I want to be with her.

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<v Speaker 1>I can really see us in the future. The only

1:00:28.640 --> 1:00:31.520
<v Speaker 1>thing is she's in school about five hours away, and

1:00:31.560 --> 1:00:33.600
<v Speaker 1>you know how college schedules are set up. Well, when

1:00:33.640 --> 1:00:35.480
<v Speaker 1>she's the way, I tend to sleep around and it's

1:00:35.520 --> 1:00:37.440
<v Speaker 1>only because she's gone, and I really don't want this

1:00:37.520 --> 1:00:39.000
<v Speaker 1>to be what I but what can I do to

1:00:39.040 --> 1:00:41.200
<v Speaker 1>stop myself from this? Bro? You're gonna sleep around when

1:00:41.240 --> 1:00:45.360
<v Speaker 1>she comes around to just seeing you? Bro? Sorry, Yeah,

1:00:45.840 --> 1:00:49.920
<v Speaker 1>it's it's cute that you weren't mean this person that's

1:00:49.960 --> 1:00:54.080
<v Speaker 1>sleeping around, but you can't bus men. We we put

1:00:54.200 --> 1:00:56.000
<v Speaker 1>up so many excuses on why we do the funk

1:00:56.040 --> 1:00:58.000
<v Speaker 1>ship do we do? But at the end of the day, Bro,

1:00:58.160 --> 1:01:00.840
<v Speaker 1>you're saying, you, Bro, you got you gotta figure out

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<v Speaker 1>if when you're gonna get tired of you know, or

1:01:03.360 --> 1:01:05.320
<v Speaker 1>if you're ever going. It's just a difficult thing. It's

1:01:05.360 --> 1:01:06.920
<v Speaker 1>one of those things that I can't even I'm the

1:01:06.960 --> 1:01:08.760
<v Speaker 1>worst to give advice from that. But at the end

1:01:08.760 --> 1:01:11.440
<v Speaker 1>of the day, you know, just being a buck at

1:01:11.480 --> 1:01:14.360
<v Speaker 1>the end of the day, I don't think it's because

1:01:14.360 --> 1:01:16.000
<v Speaker 1>she five hours where she'll get there and you'll find

1:01:16.040 --> 1:01:19.480
<v Speaker 1>a way to suck somebody. What made you finally realize

1:01:19.520 --> 1:01:22.680
<v Speaker 1>that it was time to settle down? Um, far settling down.

1:01:22.760 --> 1:01:25.160
<v Speaker 1>I had already settled down, but I just think that

1:01:25.720 --> 1:01:28.160
<v Speaker 1>what made me resent. I'm gonna be honest with you,

1:01:28.280 --> 1:01:33.640
<v Speaker 1>social media and our lack of discretion, you know. I

1:01:33.760 --> 1:01:37.040
<v Speaker 1>think that's what turned me off from just fucking with bitches.

1:01:37.760 --> 1:01:39.440
<v Speaker 1>And I think that's not a fair reason. I'll be

1:01:39.480 --> 1:01:41.880
<v Speaker 1>honest with you. That's not a good reason because it

1:01:42.040 --> 1:01:45.480
<v Speaker 1>wasn't my respect for the sanctity of the relationship. It

1:01:45.640 --> 1:01:47.720
<v Speaker 1>was like these we just talked too much, and that's

1:01:47.760 --> 1:01:50.520
<v Speaker 1>what made me feel like, let me just stay at

1:01:50.560 --> 1:01:52.800
<v Speaker 1>home and let me just not if you ever noticed me?

1:01:52.880 --> 1:01:57.520
<v Speaker 1>And how just because I feel like whatever home? Because

1:01:57.520 --> 1:01:59.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to I don't want to be involved

1:01:59.040 --> 1:02:01.960
<v Speaker 1>in any ship. So what I think, what I think

1:02:02.080 --> 1:02:05.000
<v Speaker 1>happens is you start looking around and realizing, like I

1:02:05.080 --> 1:02:07.400
<v Speaker 1>started getting to like when I watch people post and

1:02:07.440 --> 1:02:09.960
<v Speaker 1>I watched the little pictures of the guys watch and

1:02:10.200 --> 1:02:13.040
<v Speaker 1>and and in the trip, and I'm like, Yo, you're

1:02:13.040 --> 1:02:15.360
<v Speaker 1>not showing his face for a reason. You stop showing

1:02:15.400 --> 1:02:18.840
<v Speaker 1>his fucking watch, bitch, you giving them away, Like, stop

1:02:19.000 --> 1:02:21.200
<v Speaker 1>doing that, Like why do we have to talk so much?

1:02:21.240 --> 1:02:23.200
<v Speaker 1>So it made me bring, are you gonnow that you're

1:02:23.240 --> 1:02:26.080
<v Speaker 1>in his car exactly, Like why the fund you posting

1:02:26.160 --> 1:02:28.880
<v Speaker 1>up in his car, you little bird exactly. So it's

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<v Speaker 1>like this whole real quick, Yeah, this whole, this whole

1:02:34.480 --> 1:02:38.120
<v Speaker 1>thing about showing everything and talking about everything and a

1:02:38.240 --> 1:02:40.720
<v Speaker 1>lack of discretion. It kind of bothers me. So it

1:02:40.840 --> 1:02:43.840
<v Speaker 1>kind of like it's like it's so annoying because and

1:02:43.960 --> 1:02:46.480
<v Speaker 1>isn't that a turn off for a guy? Girl does

1:02:46.800 --> 1:02:49.080
<v Speaker 1>that corny ship? And that's let me tell you. And

1:02:49.120 --> 1:02:51.000
<v Speaker 1>then I see Nick his wife from later, I'm like, yo,

1:02:51.120 --> 1:02:52.920
<v Speaker 1>you know this bach is just on ninety trips with

1:02:53.040 --> 1:02:58.520
<v Speaker 1>ninety different things and you disgusting. No, but my thing

1:02:58.680 --> 1:03:01.480
<v Speaker 1>is my thing is you know, like I've been out here,

1:03:01.640 --> 1:03:03.720
<v Speaker 1>like you know, I've been. I've been, and I've been

1:03:03.800 --> 1:03:06.720
<v Speaker 1>doing videos for the first video idea was like seven

1:03:06.800 --> 1:03:09.760
<v Speaker 1>years ago. Like it's pretty much seven years ago, right,

1:03:10.280 --> 1:03:12.000
<v Speaker 1>that's not too long, I don't but I think it's

1:03:12.160 --> 1:03:15.960
<v Speaker 1>longer than a lot of girls last. But it's it's

1:03:16.040 --> 1:03:19.320
<v Speaker 1>been a while, you know whatever. In seven years, there

1:03:19.360 --> 1:03:22.520
<v Speaker 1>hasn't really been no bullshit about me because I refused

1:03:22.880 --> 1:03:25.840
<v Speaker 1>to be famous or for some bird ship like that.

1:03:26.240 --> 1:03:28.200
<v Speaker 1>If it's gonna be my if it's gonna be birdship.

1:03:28.240 --> 1:03:30.480
<v Speaker 1>It's gonna be my bird ship. I'm not gonna bring

1:03:31.040 --> 1:03:33.720
<v Speaker 1>some guys, you know, bringing somebody I respect, because if

1:03:33.720 --> 1:03:36.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm working with you, I respect you. You know what

1:03:36.240 --> 1:03:38.800
<v Speaker 1>I mean, down because I want a little attention. But

1:03:41.520 --> 1:03:43.800
<v Speaker 1>even and it gets me so mad seeing God's funk

1:03:43.840 --> 1:03:46.240
<v Speaker 1>with these girls. It gets I'm not even alive. He's like,

1:03:46.920 --> 1:03:50.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm and you're doing the right thing, and you're doing

1:03:50.480 --> 1:03:53.040
<v Speaker 1>you know, you're on a good stretch of you know,

1:03:53.240 --> 1:03:56.080
<v Speaker 1>not being a whore. What happens is no, seriously, what

1:03:56.200 --> 1:04:00.200
<v Speaker 1>happens is the public eye is so dangerous because women

1:04:00.240 --> 1:04:04.600
<v Speaker 1>will taunt your girl and just say things that aren't

1:04:04.640 --> 1:04:07.280
<v Speaker 1>even you know. He's like, yo, you know he fun

1:04:07.400 --> 1:04:09.240
<v Speaker 1>with my friend, he'd be buying my friend or type

1:04:09.240 --> 1:04:11.439
<v Speaker 1>of ship. Who's your friend? And let's see the friend,

1:04:11.600 --> 1:04:13.600
<v Speaker 1>Like if this this, if it makes you this upset

1:04:13.680 --> 1:04:15.600
<v Speaker 1>and you want to make her this man, show me

1:04:15.680 --> 1:04:18.640
<v Speaker 1>to receive let's see the evidence, and then we gotta

1:04:18.840 --> 1:04:21.760
<v Speaker 1>It's like it causes problems in your space and your

1:04:21.880 --> 1:04:24.280
<v Speaker 1>energy is altered because of these fucking bitches who've got

1:04:24.360 --> 1:04:28.720
<v Speaker 1>nothing else to do. But then and then you gotta

1:04:28.720 --> 1:04:30.760
<v Speaker 1>look at yourself and say and be honest enough. One

1:04:30.800 --> 1:04:33.200
<v Speaker 1>thing about me is I'm very honest to a fault.

1:04:33.400 --> 1:04:36.520
<v Speaker 1>So what I say is if I gotta blame myself,

1:04:36.520 --> 1:04:38.040
<v Speaker 1>because it's like, bro, if you didn't do the fun

1:04:38.160 --> 1:04:42.120
<v Speaker 1>ship before you now you're in a situation where everything

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<v Speaker 1>you guilty. And I always tell people I'm going to

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<v Speaker 1>jail for every charge I did, But I'm not going

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<v Speaker 1>to jail for somebody else charge. I can't do it.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm not gonna sit here and play with you

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<v Speaker 1>about fight with you about some ship I didn't do

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<v Speaker 1>if I did it, Listen, it is what it is.

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<v Speaker 1>But at the end of the day, I'm not about

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<v Speaker 1>to be fighting and wrestling about some ship that has

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<v Speaker 1>nothing to do with me. And we got to learn

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<v Speaker 1>how to look past the jealousy and the hatred that right,

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<v Speaker 1>And like you said, when you're when you're dating on

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<v Speaker 1>certain types of people, certain a lot of people are

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<v Speaker 1>gonna come to you with stories once they find out,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's like, do you you want to listen to

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<v Speaker 1>them or you want to be happy? Like just I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like you should let your relationship flow and stead

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<v Speaker 1>like having a lot of outsider a lot of outside

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<v Speaker 1>static you're never gonna have happening. When Tony Breckon said

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<v Speaker 1>that ship, like if you ain't going leave, then shut

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<v Speaker 1>the funk up, you know what I mean? And I

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<v Speaker 1>think that's the error that we used to have because

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<v Speaker 1>my grandmother, like I think my grandfather had like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>two or three kids it and nobody really understood. I

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<v Speaker 1>remember acting like, hold on, man, how is uncle okay

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<v Speaker 1>with what's going because it was back then it was

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<v Speaker 1>like listen, that's my nigga, right funked up, But that's

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<v Speaker 1>my nigga, you know, And we're about to be out

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<v Speaker 1>here putting our business out here. But the best believe

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<v Speaker 1>we got in this back room, I told this nigga,

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<v Speaker 1>he ain't ship, you know what I mean. So I

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<v Speaker 1>just think that it should be a certain level of

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<v Speaker 1>exclusivity when it comes to relationships, and it's not that anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>What I believe from the jump was that to keep

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<v Speaker 1>it private. But then what happens is when you keep

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<v Speaker 1>your relationship private. Now you got her people telling her white,

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<v Speaker 1>and then when you told him, and then when you

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<v Speaker 1>tell them from it, when you tell him from the beginning,

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<v Speaker 1>like look, I just don't want to know none of

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<v Speaker 1>the issues that come along with it. Then you do

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<v Speaker 1>it and post it, and now all the issues that

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<v Speaker 1>are said was gonna happen happens, and now everybody looking

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<v Speaker 1>at like why he out here? Makes you look crazy?

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<v Speaker 1>Which no mighty knew who she was before you started

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<v Speaker 1>button in. So now it's just what can you do?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, it's out the way because you don't even

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<v Speaker 1>have to do no wrong. I'm telling you as it's

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<v Speaker 1>like real, you know, life experience. I'm not gonna lie.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like in order for a relationship to work,

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<v Speaker 1>it has to be private for a long time, until

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<v Speaker 1>you're very solid and secure, because if you put things

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<v Speaker 1>out there too early, people do not want to see

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<v Speaker 1>you happy. Some people do, but then other people would

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<v Speaker 1>be like, oh wow. He's what I've realized too is

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<v Speaker 1>people don't even know that Hayden right, Like I used

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<v Speaker 1>to think, like how you just this that evil? But

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<v Speaker 1>in their mind they're thinking they justified, like she need

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<v Speaker 1>to know, she need to know how to any ship? Why?

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<v Speaker 1>Why but a stranger? That's ridiculous. This was a very insightful. Actually,

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<v Speaker 1>we had a great time with you because I do

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<v Speaker 1>always like rica lest honesty and his theories on relationship.

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<v Speaker 1>So can we bring this to Miami for a special

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<v Speaker 1>lip service in Miami segment. I think that this would

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<v Speaker 1>be fun. Did the service and had a great time.

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<v Speaker 1>She was like, next time I do this, can we

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<v Speaker 1>cancel everything for the rest of the day. I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>want to leave. Yeah, let's let's do a special South

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<v Speaker 1>Beach one. I'm down, Let's do it. Let's do it

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<v Speaker 1>at this time. I'm gonna get the big big flies

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<v Speaker 1>penthouse at this time for us. Right, we're gonna film

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<v Speaker 1>and the camera crews for your guys. My guys is

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be ten cameras is gonna be looking like you

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<v Speaker 1>know what I mean that. We have to do it,

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<v Speaker 1>and I making house. Make this happen soon, you never

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<v Speaker 1>for television. Let's do it this summer. Yeah, maybe we

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<v Speaker 1>should do a special. Yeah, let's do it. And I

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<v Speaker 1>actually have some sit I see y'all doing this ship

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<v Speaker 1>with Draking somebody. I'm gonna have all replace. They're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be down and be texting and she's gonna be curving. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we just Sundy Beach. We're gonna do that. We're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>do three days of lip service, okay, and we're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>in Miami now that we're gonna do with you all

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<v Speaker 1>three Yeah, alright, cool, let's do it. We do a

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<v Speaker 1>specially in Miami version. Yes, this is all brought to

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<v Speaker 1>you by Rico Love. Yes, it was gonna be so

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<v Speaker 1>sexy and Flynn think and then maybe if you have

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<v Speaker 1>some new music that you would to perhaps some of

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<v Speaker 1>the episodes and we can do it like that some

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<v Speaker 1>parents and they could be on lip service and see,

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<v Speaker 1>I have a marketing mind. So by the way, I

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<v Speaker 1>just came up with ten ideas exactly, I love you

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<v Speaker 1>and no. But it was really refreshing having a guess

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<v Speaker 1>with so much faith. It's it's like, that's so good

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<v Speaker 1>for me. Right, guys, I'm already talking about God, even

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<v Speaker 1>though I know everybody thinks I'm evil and that I

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<v Speaker 1>want to say I want to say something, Oh please,

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<v Speaker 1>because I don't want you to. I don't want you

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<v Speaker 1>to ever say that even though you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>God is with us from jump. We're imperfect, were imperfect,

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<v Speaker 1>So it's no way that we could ever be in

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<v Speaker 1>His good graces if it was up to what we

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<v Speaker 1>did and how we thought and how we behaved ourselves.

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<v Speaker 1>So at the end of the day. That's why it's

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<v Speaker 1>important not to judge anybody, because the blessings I have

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<v Speaker 1>are not because the good I've done. That's why I

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<v Speaker 1>know that anything that ever happened bad to me wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>because the bad I've done. I've never was good enough

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<v Speaker 1>to earn his love for me, right, so how could

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<v Speaker 1>I have to be bad enough to lose it? You

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<v Speaker 1>get what I'm saying. So I want us to always

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<v Speaker 1>know and no matter what, stop judging people when they

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<v Speaker 1>say I'm praying on this what you just was doing this? Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>you're right, that was And guess what, God still love me?

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<v Speaker 1>Why are you worry? That's Remember, there's no even, there's

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<v Speaker 1>no even though it's no in spite of it's just

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<v Speaker 1>the fact that God loves me and that's it and

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<v Speaker 1>I love him and that's it and love ladies and gentlemen,

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<v Speaker 1>and uh, let's not let's make sure that we just

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<v Speaker 1>got a advason because you do have you know your

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<v Speaker 1>music that you do all the time, and it's UM

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<v Speaker 1>July July we Love Music conference. UM is gonna be

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<v Speaker 1>an Indianapolis, Indiana. Uh. The reason why I put in

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<v Speaker 1>the Midwest is because I feel like they don't have opportunity.

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<v Speaker 1>They don't have access to a lot of the information

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<v Speaker 1>and celebrity and advice that people have in other cities.

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<v Speaker 1>So I wanted to bring it closer to them and

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<v Speaker 1>give them my opportunity. I only charged one seventy five

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<v Speaker 1>for two day events. I did a hotel rate for

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<v Speaker 1>one thirty for a night with the J W. Murray.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to make it accessible with people, and I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted people to come. You should come, You guys should come.

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<v Speaker 1>Maybe we should do a special service at the conference.

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<v Speaker 1>So I think it's really cool to be able to

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<v Speaker 1>educate people on how to create an incredible record, how

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<v Speaker 1>to produce a great body of work. I got bet

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<v Speaker 1>Cox and um Danger producing the track live from scratch

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<v Speaker 1>in front of the entire UM convention. We got treated there.

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<v Speaker 1>We're gonna be talking about her project, how she was

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<v Speaker 1>able to maintain her career after all these years being

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<v Speaker 1>a woman. There's a lot of women who follow me

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<v Speaker 1>and I have a lot of female fans, and what

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<v Speaker 1>I taught them last year was proper studio etiquette. How

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<v Speaker 1>to know somebody mean business, how to know when somebody's

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<v Speaker 1>being a professional, when they're trying to fuck you. I

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<v Speaker 1>want to make sure I let all my guys know

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<v Speaker 1>who was at the conference. Listen, these are your sisters.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't want us to trying to match make here.

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<v Speaker 1>I want if you want to work with somebody, let's

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<v Speaker 1>be serious. I want to stress that I got Tammy

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<v Speaker 1>Rivera coming. We're gonna talk about her transition from reality

1:11:33.800 --> 1:11:37.559
<v Speaker 1>star to artists. I got um Ludicrous coming. He's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>speak about picking records and understand how to break down records.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing a lecture that breaks down Abbey Row, which

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<v Speaker 1>is one of my favorite Beatles albums, and understanding what

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<v Speaker 1>makes something great. My father is a chef, and when

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<v Speaker 1>he cooks, when he eats a meal, he's able to

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<v Speaker 1>dissect and say it's a regular, it's nutmegs, this, all

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<v Speaker 1>these things in the meal because he's he's perfected the

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<v Speaker 1>craft of understanding what makes a meal great. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to show people how to do that. Music listen to

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<v Speaker 1>it and not just listen to it and love it

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<v Speaker 1>your signing. Your job whenever you're around me is to

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<v Speaker 1>not just like something. It's to understand why you like

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<v Speaker 1>it and what makes it great, not so that you

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<v Speaker 1>can mimic it, but so that when you create something,

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<v Speaker 1>you know that feeling. So when I when I first

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<v Speaker 1>heard you Got It Bad a Boy Usher, I remember

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<v Speaker 1>how it felt and I felt that same way when

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<v Speaker 1>I wrote that Goes my Baby Pusha because I understood,

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<v Speaker 1>like this makes me feel this way. So when I

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<v Speaker 1>wrote it, that song identified with that feeling, so I

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<v Speaker 1>knew I had something special. I want to teach people

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<v Speaker 1>how to do that. And that's great because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>there's certain songs that you hear it, and when you

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<v Speaker 1>hear it, you get love songs. And I mean, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>there's fun pop songs that you dance to it that

1:12:38.040 --> 1:12:40.360
<v Speaker 1>anybody could that's a great song no matter who sings it.

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<v Speaker 1>But then there's songs that you hear and you have

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<v Speaker 1>like a real special guction. You get emotional. I remember

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<v Speaker 1>when that song when I'm going through this, Yeah, when

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<v Speaker 1>I first heard We Found Love by Rihanna, I stopped

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<v Speaker 1>my car. I'm not I'm not exaggerating, but it was

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<v Speaker 1>like it felt like a music video because it was raining,

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<v Speaker 1>and I stopped the car and I was just like,

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<v Speaker 1>what the fund did she just say when she said

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<v Speaker 1>we found of Love in a hopeless place? I was done,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was like, the way you describe your emotions.

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<v Speaker 1>To have that gift and have the ability to describe

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<v Speaker 1>how people are feeling, we cannot take that for granted.

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<v Speaker 1>We cannot. We cannot take it likely lightly. We have

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<v Speaker 1>to take it serious and we have to make sure

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<v Speaker 1>that it's our duty, is an obligation to be great

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<v Speaker 1>every time we do anything. And I want people to

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<v Speaker 1>know me for my greatness as opposed to you know

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<v Speaker 1>how much when people ask you about how much money

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<v Speaker 1>you make and all that, I think it's corny like,

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<v Speaker 1>because guess what, you don't matter if I got a billion,

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<v Speaker 1>if I got nothing. I have a gift. And that's

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<v Speaker 1>the thing that makes room for you. That's the thing

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<v Speaker 1>that puts you in the presence of kings and queens

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<v Speaker 1>and greatness is your gift and the ability that you

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<v Speaker 1>have that's intangible. If you focus on the intangibles. I

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<v Speaker 1>promise you everything in this world that you could physically

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<v Speaker 1>touch you can have if you perfect the intangibles. So

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<v Speaker 1>that's what the conference is about to come. You know, ge,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm always talking. I was just watching a movie about

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<v Speaker 1>waking up and super consciousness. This is good for my brain. Awakening. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>I need it. Thank you so much, because I was

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<v Speaker 1>really glad that you came. I was looking forward to

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<v Speaker 1>because i've been when I have you up here, and

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<v Speaker 1>I know we tried to make it happen a few times.

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<v Speaker 1>Scheduling Wise said I know you'll be back again, absolutely,

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<v Speaker 1>and we're doing in Miami and Miami down. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>we call up lip Service