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Speaker 1: Somebody saw me? Sonny, I'm just happening stops and I'm G. G.

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Speaker 1: Maguire and we got Rica love here. We're just have

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Speaker 1: an interesting conversation. Right before we started, I was saying,

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Speaker 1: when I was a teenager. Jesus, we had tougher skin

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Speaker 1: Imagine a kid in the ninth grade who gets talked

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Speaker 1: about the school and it's posted in hashtag every day

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Speaker 1: and you got to go to school tomorrow. As an adult,

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Speaker 1: as a successful adult, you can deal with people saying

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Speaker 1: you're ugly in your whack and this this is that

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Speaker 1: because you go home to a nice house, you know.

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Speaker 1: But as a kid, you like, what am I going

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Speaker 1: to do? Like they? And if you go viral, forget it?

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Speaker 1: Oh you've done man. Imagine all the girls giving head

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Speaker 1: in about to say vil. You know, we would have

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Speaker 1: been filming that ship except that child pornography. I'm just saying,

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Speaker 1: you know, I always say that I feel like they

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Speaker 1: to use it and away campaigns, and they should in school,

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Speaker 1: like they should be part of like because we didn't

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Speaker 1: grow up with that, that's a whole different world. But

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Speaker 1: they should tell people like this is inappropriate. How did

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Speaker 1: this make you feel? Look at this story kind of

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Speaker 1: like a warning to people, like what you shouldn't be posting,

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Speaker 1: what you shouldn't be saying to return. You saw those

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Speaker 1: since we're talking about that, let's talk about Derrick Rose

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Speaker 1: for a second, now, Rico, I don't know if you've

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Speaker 1: seen this story, but apparently his girlfriend they pulled up

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Speaker 1: some of her old tweets, right, and she was saying

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Speaker 1: things like I hate bald headed little black girls. And

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Speaker 1: then she said, you can chase those little ugly black girls,

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Speaker 1: And then she said, making over here, thinking of all

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Speaker 1: the things that make black girls mad, I'm dying all

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Speaker 1: the black bitches mad because his wife, Vanilla Taylor, and

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Speaker 1: I made a whole list of ship we don't like

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Speaker 1: Now she is half white, but I don't know where

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Speaker 1: her other has because I get I get lost. Her

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Speaker 1: name is um Elna Anderson. And she actually deleted her

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Speaker 1: real story, but just and pertaining to you. They were

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Speaker 1: But let's just say you're dating somebody, right and they're

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Speaker 1: because they're not paying for this the company, and this

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Speaker 1: I want some back in though I want some nice

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Speaker 1: What it means is that point I like to get.

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Speaker 1: I like to get my favorites in other ways and say,

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Speaker 1: all right, cool, I may need you for a look,

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Speaker 1: or for a film or for this, and I want

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Speaker 1: you to wave your feet the same way I wave mine.

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Speaker 1: Or I might need you for in the parents. Just

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Speaker 1: wave wave your feet the same way I wave mine.

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Speaker 1: Let me make my money, because imagine if I let's

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Speaker 1: then it's an even trade. Let's say I have a

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Speaker 1: music conference. Yeah, exactly, exactly. You know what I'm talking about,

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Speaker 1: what you do. But I always say put that out there.

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Speaker 1: I always say business is always one hand, while she

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Speaker 1: is the other, you know what. So definitely, Let's say

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Speaker 1: I'm I'm sucking them. No, it's free. That's my baby.

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Speaker 1: But if your budget and he's taking care of me,

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Speaker 1: I remember, he was Amnigan guy. Right, whatever. He was

426
00:20:05,320 --> 00:20:08,400
Speaker 1: real good to us. He was he was a new boyfriend, right.

427
00:20:08,840 --> 00:20:12,720
Speaker 1: So one night she um, she left me and my aunt.

428
00:20:13,000 --> 00:20:15,439
Speaker 1: She left me with my grandmother, and I could hear

429
00:20:15,480 --> 00:20:17,639
Speaker 1: her talking with my aunt about how she was going

430
00:20:18,000 --> 00:20:21,080
Speaker 1: to like hit skars with this guy, and they talking

431
00:20:21,119 --> 00:20:23,920
Speaker 1: in Spanish, but they think my Spanish isn't on point.

432
00:20:23,920 --> 00:20:26,480
Speaker 1: But I know what they're saying, you know, and I'm

433
00:20:26,520 --> 00:20:28,920
Speaker 1: just listening to them. So she leaves. I'm not even

434
00:20:28,920 --> 00:20:31,960
Speaker 1: gonna give the full details of this, but so she

435
00:20:32,080 --> 00:20:34,679
Speaker 1: leaves and whatever. She comes back next day, picks us up.

436
00:20:34,800 --> 00:20:36,159
Speaker 1: We I get in a car with her. It's just

437
00:20:36,240 --> 00:20:39,160
Speaker 1: me and her. My sister was with her father again

438
00:20:39,160 --> 00:20:40,800
Speaker 1: in the car with her, and I was like giving

439
00:20:40,840 --> 00:20:45,080
Speaker 1: her attitude because I was upset about it. So she's like,

440
00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:47,240
Speaker 1: what's your problem? You know, She's like, what's wrong with you?

441
00:20:47,359 --> 00:20:49,840
Speaker 1: And I'm like, you know, I just don't. I just

442
00:20:49,880 --> 00:20:52,840
Speaker 1: don't think that you should like be having sex to everybody,

443
00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:56,920
Speaker 1: you dating everybody. And I'm a little girl. I promised

444
00:20:56,960 --> 00:20:59,800
Speaker 1: you I'm like eight years old. I wasn't. I wasn't

445
00:20:59,800 --> 00:21:02,920
Speaker 1: all than not. And that's the girl. I was a

446
00:21:02,920 --> 00:21:04,480
Speaker 1: little girl. I'm staying in the car. I'm staying in

447
00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:06,600
Speaker 1: the front seat. I'm saying in the front seat with hind.

448
00:21:06,760 --> 00:21:10,439
Speaker 1: She was like, she was like, what pops popped me

449
00:21:10,560 --> 00:21:12,680
Speaker 1: right in my mouth. Like she was like, we'll talk

450
00:21:12,680 --> 00:21:16,720
Speaker 1: about this when we get home. And I was like, oh,

451
00:21:16,760 --> 00:21:19,520
Speaker 1: I started crying. But she gave me a whole fucking

452
00:21:19,560 --> 00:21:21,120
Speaker 1: when I got home, she gave me a whole sex

453
00:21:21,240 --> 00:21:24,119
Speaker 1: lecture because she didn't realize that I knew, you know,

454
00:21:24,160 --> 00:21:29,679
Speaker 1: what was going on. She popped me mouth, she popped

455
00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:32,640
Speaker 1: me thinking the whole way like damn, this ship is crazy,

456
00:21:32,720 --> 00:21:36,159
Speaker 1: Like you know, I think she kind of practiced and

457
00:21:36,680 --> 00:21:38,800
Speaker 1: and and then the ride she's like, you know what,

458
00:21:38,840 --> 00:21:40,919
Speaker 1: you're a little girl. You need some manya business, you

459
00:21:40,920 --> 00:21:42,679
Speaker 1: know what I mean. Like she she was telling me,

460
00:21:42,720 --> 00:21:45,359
Speaker 1: like like she was making me feel bad because I was,

461
00:21:45,640 --> 00:21:47,919
Speaker 1: you know, concerned about this. I was. I was upset,

462
00:21:48,200 --> 00:21:50,960
Speaker 1: but you know, it really wasn't none of my business. Also,

463
00:21:51,119 --> 00:21:53,159
Speaker 1: you don't learn it it's not your business until somebody

464
00:21:53,160 --> 00:21:55,520
Speaker 1: tells exactly that's what That's what I'm saying. I never

465
00:21:55,560 --> 00:21:58,600
Speaker 1: did that again. I never, I mean not until I

466
00:21:58,640 --> 00:22:01,239
Speaker 1: became an adult that I you know, talk about that

467
00:22:01,280 --> 00:22:03,200
Speaker 1: type of thing with my mom. You know, I never

468
00:22:03,240 --> 00:22:08,760
Speaker 1: played myself again ever. My relationship is funny because I've

469
00:22:08,760 --> 00:22:10,800
Speaker 1: never seen either one of my parents with anybody else,

470
00:22:11,720 --> 00:22:14,639
Speaker 1: like my whole entire life, and they're divorced but they

471
00:22:14,680 --> 00:22:17,320
Speaker 1: still live together. But I've never seen my mom with

472
00:22:17,320 --> 00:22:22,160
Speaker 1: another man. I've never seen my dad with another one. Yeah, yeah,

473
00:22:22,160 --> 00:22:29,320
Speaker 1: they still I ain't going lazy. They used Today's life

474
00:22:31,240 --> 00:22:33,800
Speaker 1: date the night, but they're just never home like you know,

475
00:22:33,880 --> 00:22:36,080
Speaker 1: and they don't. But I've never ever seen them with

476
00:22:36,119 --> 00:22:38,600
Speaker 1: anyone else. Like They've never said I'm dating somebody. I've

477
00:22:38,640 --> 00:22:42,040
Speaker 1: never seen them. You know. It is weird, so I

478
00:22:42,080 --> 00:22:43,840
Speaker 1: look at it. I guess maybe part of it because

479
00:22:43,840 --> 00:22:47,760
Speaker 1: even with my grandparents, like my grandparents were like my

480
00:22:47,920 --> 00:22:50,440
Speaker 1: on my dad's side married and tell my grandfather passed away,

481
00:22:50,520 --> 00:22:52,399
Speaker 1: my grandmother never seen him with anybody else. In my

482
00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:55,120
Speaker 1: mom's side, you know, my grandmother passed me on that side,

483
00:22:55,119 --> 00:22:57,720
Speaker 1: and then my grandfather remarried. But everybody in my family,

484
00:22:57,760 --> 00:23:02,040
Speaker 1: I've never seen people like do you know, I really

485
00:23:02,080 --> 00:23:06,360
Speaker 1: like straight, I like up around And I'm not even

486
00:23:06,359 --> 00:23:08,840
Speaker 1: saying that they were monogamous. I just never really seen

487
00:23:08,960 --> 00:23:11,000
Speaker 1: you never saw it until I went to go work

488
00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:17,960
Speaker 1: for wootang everything. Who's the lady in the back room

489
00:23:17,960 --> 00:23:23,919
Speaker 1: with the whole with the whole gang grandma. But you know,

490
00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:26,480
Speaker 1: those things probably do affect like you know, g you

491
00:23:26,520 --> 00:23:29,119
Speaker 1: have your daughter, and do you ever think about, like

492
00:23:29,359 --> 00:23:33,760
Speaker 1: how your life has affected how she's gonna look at relationships. Absolutely,

493
00:23:34,480 --> 00:23:38,320
Speaker 1: my ex relationship, it works her nerves. It worked her

494
00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:41,600
Speaker 1: nerves for very a very long time. Like I think

495
00:23:41,600 --> 00:23:44,600
Speaker 1: she's more happy than I'm single than I am. Really, Yes,

496
00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:47,280
Speaker 1: she hated us, No, that's what I'm saying. When I

497
00:23:47,359 --> 00:23:49,960
Speaker 1: was a teenam I know she really liked him a lot,

498
00:23:50,400 --> 00:23:52,560
Speaker 1: like him alive, but she hated the things that we

499
00:23:52,600 --> 00:23:54,960
Speaker 1: went through. And that's what I'm saying. I had like

500
00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:58,439
Speaker 1: a young mom like and and her daughter, you know

501
00:23:58,480 --> 00:24:02,199
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like her mother's relationships did like I

502
00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:04,679
Speaker 1: noticed them, you know what I mean? I noticed then,

503
00:24:04,720 --> 00:24:07,760
Speaker 1: and they affected they infect us. That's the only relationship

504
00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:09,919
Speaker 1: that I had that she really was like in tune

505
00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:13,880
Speaker 1: within a part of so I usually keep her out of,

506
00:24:14,440 --> 00:24:17,439
Speaker 1: you know, my person. It was so serious that she

507
00:24:17,520 --> 00:24:19,879
Speaker 1: had to be right, and she was so grown too

508
00:24:20,119 --> 00:24:23,520
Speaker 1: at that time. My mom was a square, Like my

509
00:24:23,600 --> 00:24:27,320
Speaker 1: mom was like a church lady. Two boyfriends the whole

510
00:24:27,400 --> 00:24:30,520
Speaker 1: time that I grew up, and one was named Alex

511
00:24:30,560 --> 00:24:32,800
Speaker 1: and one name is Mr Stanley, and I hated I

512
00:24:32,840 --> 00:24:36,159
Speaker 1: hated Mr Stanley. I just felt like he's just always

513
00:24:36,160 --> 00:24:38,919
Speaker 1: trying to talk to me, like and I broke up.

514
00:24:39,119 --> 00:24:40,760
Speaker 1: She broke up with both of them, and she sat

515
00:24:40,880 --> 00:24:43,520
Speaker 1: us down and told us, like, you know, Mr Stanley

516
00:24:43,640 --> 00:24:47,280
Speaker 1: was trying to have sex with me, and I don't

517
00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:49,600
Speaker 1: have sex until I'm married, and I want you all

518
00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:52,199
Speaker 1: to know that you shouldn't have you know. She probably

519
00:24:52,400 --> 00:24:53,840
Speaker 1: just went through it with him and just was fresh.

520
00:24:54,840 --> 00:24:58,240
Speaker 1: She was like, you think that I'm opposed to lay

521
00:24:58,280 --> 00:25:00,159
Speaker 1: down with him until he didn't give me that ring

522
00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:02,280
Speaker 1: and then he posted to think I'm so I was like,

523
00:25:02,359 --> 00:25:03,520
Speaker 1: you know what, I don't really want to hit this,

524
00:25:03,560 --> 00:25:06,760
Speaker 1: but I'm glad you need Mrs stan You didn't like

525
00:25:06,800 --> 00:25:08,560
Speaker 1: him with your cousin, Mrs Stanley, And the other guy

526
00:25:08,720 --> 00:25:12,800
Speaker 1: was Alex was cool. Alex was cool, but Mr Stanley

527
00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:14,560
Speaker 1: was just a greasy ass, you know what I mean,

528
00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:17,640
Speaker 1: Like just felt slimy. I felt like he was trying

529
00:25:17,640 --> 00:25:22,960
Speaker 1: to suck my mother mother mother. But you see, because

530
00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:25,800
Speaker 1: of because of um, you know, being like being like that,

531
00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:28,560
Speaker 1: never liking my mother's boyfriends, Like, no matter how great

532
00:25:28,600 --> 00:25:32,439
Speaker 1: they were, I never liked them. My son is going

533
00:25:32,480 --> 00:25:35,480
Speaker 1: to be eleven this month, and I've never brought one

534
00:25:35,520 --> 00:25:38,680
Speaker 1: man around my son. He knows his father Like, it's

535
00:25:39,240 --> 00:25:41,560
Speaker 1: just that, like I don't think it's cool to have

536
00:25:41,680 --> 00:25:45,359
Speaker 1: your kid around around people who are temple bary in

537
00:25:45,359 --> 00:25:49,160
Speaker 1: your life when when somebody when I get engaged, then

538
00:25:49,359 --> 00:25:52,240
Speaker 1: maybe I'll bring somebody. You have to because it's like,

539
00:25:52,440 --> 00:25:55,960
Speaker 1: is what I'm getting married? How? How is that? What

540
00:25:56,000 --> 00:26:00,000
Speaker 1: do you mean? Google? Look up your social media? My son? Um,

541
00:26:00,040 --> 00:26:08,080
Speaker 1: I've had the conversation with I don't know is that

542
00:26:08,520 --> 00:26:10,960
Speaker 1: I've had this converence. My son is UM, he's very

543
00:26:11,240 --> 00:26:14,360
Speaker 1: computer savvy. He's very He's on the internet. My son

544
00:26:14,480 --> 00:26:18,040
Speaker 1: is on the internet, so he's my son has been around,

545
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:21,199
Speaker 1: you know, he's with me, so he sees what's going on.

546
00:26:21,320 --> 00:26:24,040
Speaker 1: He sees me on the cover of the magazine, you

547
00:26:24,080 --> 00:26:26,560
Speaker 1: know what I mean. So I've already explained this to him,

548
00:26:26,640 --> 00:26:29,600
Speaker 1: so it's not a surprise for him. He knows exactly

549
00:26:29,600 --> 00:26:32,480
Speaker 1: what I do. He knows that, Um, I was doing

550
00:26:32,480 --> 00:26:35,960
Speaker 1: a lot of internet ship, you know, and I've explained

551
00:26:35,960 --> 00:26:38,280
Speaker 1: it to him. He knows. Like my son follows me

552
00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:42,560
Speaker 1: on Instagram. Yeah, my son has an Instagram, you know,

553
00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:46,520
Speaker 1: so I and my son can read. You know, he's

554
00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:49,560
Speaker 1: he's elevin. He's a big he's a big boy. He's

555
00:26:49,560 --> 00:26:55,440
Speaker 1: a man. No, no, absolutely not no, no, no, no no,

556
00:26:55,760 --> 00:26:59,000
Speaker 1: and um, you know I it's just he understands, like

557
00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:01,119
Speaker 1: I already explained it to him. Like I said, you

558
00:27:01,160 --> 00:27:03,879
Speaker 1: have to prepare your children for what's outside. You know.

559
00:27:03,960 --> 00:27:06,800
Speaker 1: I don't want anybody to um to come at my

560
00:27:06,920 --> 00:27:09,840
Speaker 1: kid for something that I'm doing. That's why I've really

561
00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:12,320
Speaker 1: tried to smarten up and change a lot of the

562
00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:14,879
Speaker 1: things that I've done on the Internet. I've really tried.

563
00:27:15,160 --> 00:27:17,760
Speaker 1: I think I have. I think I have. You know,

564
00:27:18,200 --> 00:27:20,760
Speaker 1: Like I'm not drunk on the internet anymore. I'm not

565
00:27:20,800 --> 00:27:24,560
Speaker 1: smoking with me looking a little drunk. I was drunk

566
00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:32,240
Speaker 1: on the internet. I'm not drunk in the Internet. I

567
00:27:32,280 --> 00:27:39,840
Speaker 1: was drunk. But you know, my son, my son knows me.

568
00:27:39,960 --> 00:27:42,840
Speaker 1: He knows what's going on. You know, it's not nothing

569
00:27:42,960 --> 00:27:44,960
Speaker 1: is a surprise, you know what I mean. But yeah,

570
00:27:44,960 --> 00:27:47,399
Speaker 1: grown up, Like I don't think you know that you

571
00:27:47,400 --> 00:27:56,479
Speaker 1: should feel like I can't children exactly right, they don't know. Now,

572
00:27:56,520 --> 00:28:00,119
Speaker 1: let's get to that, right, and that's you have some know,

573
00:28:00,359 --> 00:28:04,119
Speaker 1: um with with with my relationship with my son. I

574
00:28:04,160 --> 00:28:06,480
Speaker 1: don't I don't post I don't, you know, I don't

575
00:28:06,480 --> 00:28:08,520
Speaker 1: post up my kids, you know, because I don't want

576
00:28:08,600 --> 00:28:10,880
Speaker 1: him to ever have to suffer for anything that I've

577
00:28:10,920 --> 00:28:13,320
Speaker 1: done on the internet. I don't think I've done anything

578
00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:18,480
Speaker 1: too crazy. But you're not an average looking mom. And

579
00:28:18,480 --> 00:28:20,320
Speaker 1: when you're not an average looking mom, you have to

580
00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:22,639
Speaker 1: realize that the rest of the moms don't like you know,

581
00:28:22,800 --> 00:28:24,800
Speaker 1: and please, I can't even go to my son's school.

582
00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:27,520
Speaker 1: I can't go to my son's school. I um, when

583
00:28:27,520 --> 00:28:29,119
Speaker 1: I do go, like I have to go into the

584
00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:32,040
Speaker 1: skies because everybody knows knows who I am. You know,

585
00:28:32,119 --> 00:28:34,080
Speaker 1: he's in the school in New York and the parents,

586
00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:37,520
Speaker 1: like you know, I can't even I go to his graduation.

587
00:28:37,640 --> 00:28:40,760
Speaker 1: I can participate and the you know, and the assemblies

588
00:28:40,840 --> 00:28:43,200
Speaker 1: you know when they do like musicals and the school.

589
00:28:43,240 --> 00:28:48,200
Speaker 1: I go to that stuff. But yeah, exactly, you know,

590
00:28:48,320 --> 00:28:50,840
Speaker 1: but like, um, the PTA meetings, like you know, when

591
00:28:50,840 --> 00:28:53,960
Speaker 1: they do the parent teacher thing, I go, like one

592
00:28:54,040 --> 00:28:56,800
Speaker 1: time in the school year because when I go is

593
00:28:56,880 --> 00:28:58,640
Speaker 1: I can't I take a picture. Can I take a

594
00:28:58,640 --> 00:29:02,880
Speaker 1: picture with your mom? What? Like I swear, I swear

595
00:29:02,880 --> 00:29:05,200
Speaker 1: it's um and I mean it's fine, it's cool, but

596
00:29:05,280 --> 00:29:07,680
Speaker 1: it's just I don't really want my son to um

597
00:29:08,160 --> 00:29:10,360
Speaker 1: to have to like I said, if it got for bid,

598
00:29:10,440 --> 00:29:13,080
Speaker 1: like you know, UM, I don't be having sex tapes

599
00:29:13,120 --> 00:29:16,760
Speaker 1: with random people, but got for the bed something came

600
00:29:16,760 --> 00:29:18,920
Speaker 1: off of my own phone, you know what I mean.

601
00:29:18,960 --> 00:29:21,040
Speaker 1: I don't want my son to have to. You know,

602
00:29:21,040 --> 00:29:22,680
Speaker 1: I don't want people to be like, oh, I saw

603
00:29:22,760 --> 00:29:25,160
Speaker 1: your mom. I saw your mom, like that's your mom,

604
00:29:25,440 --> 00:29:27,800
Speaker 1: So I don't you know. That's why I'm real private

605
00:29:27,840 --> 00:29:30,640
Speaker 1: about my son because even though I'm trying, you know,

606
00:29:30,720 --> 00:29:35,040
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not posting up asked pictures and you know,

607
00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:37,800
Speaker 1: working around even though I never really was working around

608
00:29:37,840 --> 00:29:40,800
Speaker 1: without you know, I'm I'm not as um provocative. I

609
00:29:40,840 --> 00:29:43,120
Speaker 1: guess is I don't know. One time in the third

610
00:29:43,160 --> 00:29:48,800
Speaker 1: code on the stage, Yeah yeah no, I UM did

611
00:29:48,800 --> 00:29:51,440
Speaker 1: I know? That is me and Nya Dare Me and

612
00:29:51,600 --> 00:29:53,920
Speaker 1: Nya we had aum. That's why every I'm glad you

613
00:29:53,960 --> 00:29:56,040
Speaker 1: brought that up because everybody's like, oh, I know she

614
00:29:56,120 --> 00:30:00,400
Speaker 1: knows Rick ross because um, she was on stage with him.

615
00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:03,440
Speaker 1: But you know, I got you know, they called us Nina,

616
00:30:03,520 --> 00:30:06,200
Speaker 1: it was Nina was friends with him, and they called

617
00:30:06,280 --> 00:30:08,120
Speaker 1: us to do a job like that's not my friend

618
00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:16,080
Speaker 1: Rick Rosses, you know, right, you know, you know what

619
00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:23,920
Speaker 1: some of my favorite couple, Nina her boyfriend. But I

620
00:30:23,920 --> 00:30:26,960
Speaker 1: didn't even throw But but yeah, you know, like I'm

621
00:30:26,960 --> 00:30:29,200
Speaker 1: not doing all of that. I'm trying, you know, even

622
00:30:29,240 --> 00:30:31,920
Speaker 1: though it's still around, you know what I mean, And

623
00:30:32,040 --> 00:30:34,000
Speaker 1: God forbid, I don't even though I'm trying not to,

624
00:30:34,200 --> 00:30:37,000
Speaker 1: God forbid, you never know what could happen, you know.

625
00:30:37,040 --> 00:30:39,960
Speaker 1: So I don't ever want my son. I don't ever

626
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:42,800
Speaker 1: want my son to have to suffer for the choices

627
00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:45,000
Speaker 1: that I made in my life. But you said you

628
00:30:45,040 --> 00:30:46,880
Speaker 1: had the mom thing too, What were you gonna say?

629
00:30:46,960 --> 00:30:48,680
Speaker 1: I mean, when my daughter was in high school, I

630
00:30:48,720 --> 00:30:51,239
Speaker 1: was the face of Magic City, So I'm sure there

631
00:30:51,280 --> 00:30:52,840
Speaker 1: was a little bit that came along with that. But

632
00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:55,800
Speaker 1: from my understanding of what she explained to me, like

633
00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:59,280
Speaker 1: people was like hype about it. They weren't like, yeah,

634
00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:01,480
Speaker 1: that's what that's what I go through now with my son,

635
00:31:01,520 --> 00:31:04,880
Speaker 1: And they were more like you know, you're excited. You know,

636
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:07,720
Speaker 1: Atlanta is different too, though I wouldna say that, but

637
00:31:07,760 --> 00:31:13,880
Speaker 1: I was also in Atlanta. Differ it's like, yeah, let's

638
00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:17,560
Speaker 1: go have some wings real quick. Yeah that's what their

639
00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:19,480
Speaker 1: mothers look like that too, you know what I mean?

640
00:31:19,520 --> 00:31:21,959
Speaker 1: They like So when you got a young mom who

641
00:31:22,040 --> 00:31:24,640
Speaker 1: got a crazy body, that's not normal like to us

642
00:31:24,640 --> 00:31:26,760
Speaker 1: in our world and where we live and what we do.

643
00:31:26,920 --> 00:31:30,120
Speaker 1: It's definitely not normal school my son. But I will

644
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:32,640
Speaker 1: say this the school my son goes, so he lives

645
00:31:32,640 --> 00:31:35,280
Speaker 1: in like a you know, a little posh little area

646
00:31:35,360 --> 00:31:38,920
Speaker 1: or whatever, and those little Spanish ladies got some you know,

647
00:31:39,200 --> 00:31:44,320
Speaker 1: it's like the fire. It's nothing but crazy and every

648
00:31:44,400 --> 00:31:46,040
Speaker 1: time you go to school. So I don't think it's

649
00:31:46,080 --> 00:31:49,720
Speaker 1: it's out of the norm, right I'm at So you know,

650
00:31:50,880 --> 00:31:53,760
Speaker 1: now let's talk about that though, because obviously your songs

651
00:31:53,840 --> 00:31:56,800
Speaker 1: and things that you talk about are personal to you

652
00:31:56,920 --> 00:31:59,600
Speaker 1: and things that are sexual. Do you feel like, hey,

653
00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:01,320
Speaker 1: do you let your kids listen to that music and

654
00:32:01,360 --> 00:32:04,040
Speaker 1: you feel like you have to explain like, well, yeah,

655
00:32:04,040 --> 00:32:07,400
Speaker 1: I only listen. My son knows, they don't know, but

656
00:32:07,440 --> 00:32:09,720
Speaker 1: I just he just likes that song. You know, a

657
00:32:09,760 --> 00:32:11,400
Speaker 1: lot of times we grew up listening to We're saying

658
00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:13,160
Speaker 1: the lyrics, but didn't really know what it was exactly.

659
00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:15,239
Speaker 1: He really don't know. And he just don't get past that.

660
00:32:15,320 --> 00:32:17,040
Speaker 1: And and that was, you know, when he was a

661
00:32:17,080 --> 00:32:20,280
Speaker 1: lot younger, and records I've done and written for other people.

662
00:32:20,520 --> 00:32:24,080
Speaker 1: I don't even think he realizes that. So, and I

663
00:32:24,080 --> 00:32:26,080
Speaker 1: don't talk about what I do to my son at

664
00:32:26,120 --> 00:32:28,880
Speaker 1: all anyway. I just just I'm just as dad. He

665
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:32,120
Speaker 1: likes other people. He likes Ray Tremant, you know, so

666
00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:35,280
Speaker 1: he like he not even he like play Black Beetles.

667
00:32:35,360 --> 00:32:37,640
Speaker 1: This ship is what is this play back? You know?

668
00:32:38,360 --> 00:32:40,120
Speaker 1: And I listened to old school music in the car

669
00:32:40,160 --> 00:32:41,960
Speaker 1: with him. Anyway, I'm listening to the Beatles. I'm teaching

670
00:32:42,040 --> 00:32:44,480
Speaker 1: about Michael Jackson and ship like that. So really, his

671
00:32:44,480 --> 00:32:46,400
Speaker 1: his ear for music is a little different. He's not

672
00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:49,120
Speaker 1: as aware of things just you know, going on because

673
00:32:49,120 --> 00:32:52,920
Speaker 1: I kind of I don't mean, he's only seven. Let

674
00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:54,560
Speaker 1: him do his thing. But you know, these kids, now,

675
00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:56,840
Speaker 1: they right, they know a lot. No, I mean when

676
00:32:56,840 --> 00:33:00,600
Speaker 1: my son, my son is like I said, he's really computer. Yeah,

677
00:33:00,760 --> 00:33:09,160
Speaker 1: so he's been honest since likes to some pop song

678
00:33:09,400 --> 00:33:10,880
Speaker 1: and I called him he hurried to put it down.

679
00:33:10,920 --> 00:33:13,440
Speaker 1: I'm like, what's that opened it up? He's like, I

680
00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:17,400
Speaker 1: swear I didn't know that they would. I'm like, bro,

681
00:33:17,600 --> 00:33:24,800
Speaker 1: just I'm just I'm just happy. But maybe YouTube that

682
00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:28,080
Speaker 1: his kid's favorite. He was like, I was watching f

683
00:33:28,240 --> 00:33:30,040
Speaker 1: G TV and then when I clicked it, But I

684
00:33:30,040 --> 00:33:32,160
Speaker 1: was saying, his defense, they put all these things on

685
00:33:32,200 --> 00:33:34,880
Speaker 1: the side of the kids. Yeah, which is up because

686
00:33:35,520 --> 00:33:39,640
Speaker 1: they're eating children right, And I agree. What if you

687
00:33:39,720 --> 00:33:41,800
Speaker 1: catch him like looking at porn? Is is that when

688
00:33:41,840 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 1: it's time to have a conversation, Because I'm gonna I'm

689
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:47,200
Speaker 1: gonna have the conversation with him, probably this summer already,

690
00:33:47,600 --> 00:33:50,520
Speaker 1: because I think kids are moving to growing too fast.

691
00:33:50,720 --> 00:33:53,360
Speaker 1: And what. He has a little friend who's like his

692
00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:56,360
Speaker 1: best friend. His name is Josiah, and I love Josiah.

693
00:33:56,880 --> 00:34:00,760
Speaker 1: Josiah is fast, like he knows everything. He was like, um,

694
00:34:01,080 --> 00:34:03,480
Speaker 1: you know, girls have vaginas. I overheard him in the

695
00:34:03,520 --> 00:34:06,800
Speaker 1: back seat and he doesn't know I'm listening. I had

696
00:34:06,800 --> 00:34:13,800
Speaker 1: to stop. I don't want to keep talking about vagina. Vagina, vagina.

697
00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:17,920
Speaker 1: Girls worlds have a vagina and we have a peewee

698
00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:21,239
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, come on, so I gotta get

699
00:34:21,320 --> 00:34:26,160
Speaker 1: ahead of desidhy. I don't want to do right. That's

700
00:34:26,200 --> 00:34:28,080
Speaker 1: how I feel with myself. So you got to show

701
00:34:28,160 --> 00:34:29,839
Speaker 1: him what's the right, and like it explain to him.

702
00:34:30,120 --> 00:34:32,160
Speaker 1: And I'm telling my mom gave me to talk young

703
00:34:32,719 --> 00:34:35,120
Speaker 1: and she gave me the talk. You have to pop you. Yeah,

704
00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:37,800
Speaker 1: and it's not again just just and I have to

705
00:34:37,840 --> 00:34:39,920
Speaker 1: say this because beside his parents are close to me,

706
00:34:40,360 --> 00:34:42,799
Speaker 1: is that he has older cousins who are around him.

707
00:34:43,280 --> 00:34:44,759
Speaker 1: I don't want you. I don't anybody think that his

708
00:34:44,880 --> 00:34:46,839
Speaker 1: parents are like letting him. But it's just that you've

709
00:34:46,840 --> 00:34:50,680
Speaker 1: got older, little little cousin. He has big brothers and

710
00:34:50,800 --> 00:34:53,960
Speaker 1: he's so much. He has like three girlfriends and all

711
00:34:54,000 --> 00:34:56,680
Speaker 1: of that. I'm like, all Jesus. They had the Internet too,

712
00:34:57,000 --> 00:34:59,440
Speaker 1: and that's so easy to find things. We didn't have

713
00:34:59,600 --> 00:35:02,680
Speaker 1: the inter right and the television shows. You have access

714
00:35:02,760 --> 00:35:06,280
Speaker 1: to Netflix everything, Like I don't know what people are watching,

715
00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:08,800
Speaker 1: kids are watching. They we didn't know anything about. Like

716
00:35:08,920 --> 00:35:11,360
Speaker 1: I remember this is crazy where I left. But I

717
00:35:11,440 --> 00:35:16,760
Speaker 1: remember the first time I Orgas was in um playing

718
00:35:16,800 --> 00:35:19,160
Speaker 1: Hide and Go Seek and this girl was just kissing

719
00:35:19,200 --> 00:35:20,719
Speaker 1: me and she was just grabbing me and kissing me

720
00:35:20,760 --> 00:35:23,280
Speaker 1: on my neck and I just went all over myself,

721
00:35:23,360 --> 00:35:27,239
Speaker 1: and I'm just like all I knew was that it

722
00:35:27,320 --> 00:35:29,200
Speaker 1: was a lot, and it was the best thing I've

723
00:35:29,239 --> 00:35:33,280
Speaker 1: ever felt in my whole life. And I really immediately

724
00:35:33,400 --> 00:35:35,360
Speaker 1: hated her fast, and then I liked her again, like

725
00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:37,680
Speaker 1: twenty minutes later. But I was just like, what the

726
00:35:37,760 --> 00:35:41,360
Speaker 1: fun is going on? So I was like twelve, so

727
00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:43,479
Speaker 1: I didn't know. I didn't know, you know, I wasn't

728
00:35:43,920 --> 00:35:46,120
Speaker 1: you know when we were growing up, masturbation and all

729
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:49,280
Speaker 1: that kids wasn't like in It was like I forgot

730
00:35:49,400 --> 00:35:54,279
Speaker 1: herd like he be off. It was like now now

731
00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:56,640
Speaker 1: a lot of things, you know, eating pussy and all

732
00:35:56,640 --> 00:35:59,000
Speaker 1: that ship as we got young. Now, kids in high

733
00:35:59,000 --> 00:36:05,239
Speaker 1: school having threesomes like crazy. The girls, Yeah, they're talking

734
00:36:05,239 --> 00:36:07,919
Speaker 1: about giving their boyfriend the three for his birthday. Guys

735
00:36:07,960 --> 00:36:10,400
Speaker 1: in the ninth grade. So as when I was coming up,

736
00:36:10,480 --> 00:36:12,200
Speaker 1: we didn't have that. I think that's the that's the

737
00:36:12,719 --> 00:36:14,600
Speaker 1: part about the Internet that I think works, is that

738
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:18,680
Speaker 1: you're not so clueless to realities of life. But I

739
00:36:18,719 --> 00:36:21,640
Speaker 1: didn't make you faster though, But I did think that

740
00:36:21,760 --> 00:36:27,080
Speaker 1: that night. I never know how to say this for Naive, Yeah,

741
00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:30,160
Speaker 1: Naiven see, I think that's what gave us our innocence,

742
00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:33,080
Speaker 1: and I'm purity that is lacking right now. So I

743
00:36:33,360 --> 00:36:35,320
Speaker 1: want to I don't want to discredit that, but I

744
00:36:35,440 --> 00:36:37,719
Speaker 1: just think that it's a it's a fine line, it's

745
00:36:37,719 --> 00:36:39,400
Speaker 1: a balance because I know what that felt like, and

746
00:36:39,440 --> 00:36:41,959
Speaker 1: I felt like I was walking around my neighborhood until

747
00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:46,120
Speaker 1: it dried for like twenty minutes, and you're nervous going

748
00:36:46,239 --> 00:36:52,080
Speaker 1: home feeling guilty. Like listen, when I was in remember

749
00:36:52,120 --> 00:36:53,960
Speaker 1: when I was in eighth grade, this girl that I

750
00:36:54,000 --> 00:36:55,600
Speaker 1: went to school and she had like a house party

751
00:36:55,840 --> 00:36:57,200
Speaker 1: and they would play this game like where you go

752
00:36:57,280 --> 00:37:00,520
Speaker 1: in the closet with somebody, but like, um, three minutes

753
00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:02,719
Speaker 1: or something like that, or yeah, I was like seven

754
00:37:02,800 --> 00:37:06,120
Speaker 1: minutes to happen. Having that's exactly what I had to

755
00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:08,439
Speaker 1: go in the closet with this guy, and I didn't

756
00:37:08,440 --> 00:37:09,840
Speaker 1: know what to do. I was in the closet, we

757
00:37:09,920 --> 00:37:11,560
Speaker 1: had the light on, we were just sitting there like me,

758
00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:14,120
Speaker 1: and then right before it was like almost time up.

759
00:37:14,120 --> 00:37:16,320
Speaker 1: They were like one minute left. Then he like kissed

760
00:37:16,320 --> 00:37:19,560
Speaker 1: me and hentted all over himself and I didn't do

761
00:37:20,840 --> 00:37:23,600
Speaker 1: that was seven minutes and so like so we walked

762
00:37:23,600 --> 00:37:29,480
Speaker 1: out there seconds and everybody sorry about apologize and they're like, oh,

763
00:37:29,600 --> 00:37:32,000
Speaker 1: she notudding on himself. And I didn't know what it was.

764
00:37:32,200 --> 00:37:34,040
Speaker 1: I didn't know anything in my jumm in eighth grade

765
00:37:34,080 --> 00:37:36,880
Speaker 1: and I still didn't know anything about like what that was.

766
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:39,040
Speaker 1: And so I'm looking, like what happened. He's like now

767
00:37:39,200 --> 00:37:41,520
Speaker 1: saying some glue, and she was like, there's no glue

768
00:37:41,520 --> 00:37:43,640
Speaker 1: in my closet, and then everybody was looking in the

769
00:37:43,680 --> 00:37:47,440
Speaker 1: closet to see if there was glue. I had no idea,

770
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:49,680
Speaker 1: like what happened. That's how I found out about it,

771
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:55,600
Speaker 1: Like that was because of myself. Yeah, right now he's

772
00:37:55,600 --> 00:37:57,520
Speaker 1: sitting somewhere in a in a room listening to this ship.

773
00:37:57,640 --> 00:38:00,920
Speaker 1: Like people still make fun of about this because I

774
00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:04,040
Speaker 1: still know him to this day, Like everybody stills remember

775
00:38:04,040 --> 00:38:11,360
Speaker 1: when you went none in the closet like best and

776
00:38:11,440 --> 00:38:13,680
Speaker 1: I wondering if he knew what it was, but just

777
00:38:13,760 --> 00:38:15,400
Speaker 1: saying the first time you met it on yourself, you

778
00:38:15,520 --> 00:38:18,479
Speaker 1: with twelve you okay, So that was around that age,

779
00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:21,000
Speaker 1: like the twelve thirteen. I couldn't believe first of all,

780
00:38:21,040 --> 00:38:22,600
Speaker 1: when she was kissing on me, I'm just like, what

781
00:38:22,800 --> 00:38:25,200
Speaker 1: is she doing? Like like what is this? Why is

782
00:38:25,280 --> 00:38:29,279
Speaker 1: she doing this to me? Like how do we get

783
00:38:30,440 --> 00:38:32,239
Speaker 1: like how did we get here? Like you know, and

784
00:38:32,360 --> 00:38:34,200
Speaker 1: she was so young, and it's almost like you get

785
00:38:34,239 --> 00:38:37,800
Speaker 1: all these questions like who taught her? What is she? Like?

786
00:38:38,040 --> 00:38:40,399
Speaker 1: She really was? She really was good. Like the way

787
00:38:40,480 --> 00:38:41,960
Speaker 1: she was kissing on my neck, I was just like,

788
00:38:42,520 --> 00:38:44,320
Speaker 1: what is this girl doing? And then when I started

789
00:38:44,360 --> 00:38:46,440
Speaker 1: to feel it, I was just like, oh no, what

790
00:38:46,719 --> 00:38:50,000
Speaker 1: is this? This is the best thing I've ever felt ever?

791
00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:52,960
Speaker 1: And then immediately I hated her, like get away from

792
00:38:53,520 --> 00:38:55,680
Speaker 1: what did you do? Twenty minutes later, I'm looking for

793
00:38:55,760 --> 00:38:57,880
Speaker 1: what is this mission? Then after that, when is the

794
00:38:57,920 --> 00:39:01,319
Speaker 1: next time you like that happened? After that a lot

795
00:39:01,440 --> 00:39:06,640
Speaker 1: that she was the ship that summared to me. She's

796
00:39:06,640 --> 00:39:13,480
Speaker 1: got like nineteen babies now. She was morny. She was

797
00:39:13,560 --> 00:39:16,319
Speaker 1: real horny. I'm not surprised that she has nineteen babies now.

798
00:39:16,520 --> 00:39:21,640
Speaker 1: She was horny, like like like horny, bad story she

799
00:39:21,719 --> 00:39:23,920
Speaker 1: learned it. It could be like her cousins was Scott.

800
00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:26,000
Speaker 1: It's just so many things that you got to take

801
00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:28,680
Speaker 1: into consideration, like somebody did it to her, They shouldn't

802
00:39:28,680 --> 00:39:31,040
Speaker 1: have been exactly that. You never know you never know

803
00:39:31,120 --> 00:39:33,320
Speaker 1: how to was the first time he has sex. I

804
00:39:33,480 --> 00:39:35,040
Speaker 1: was late to have sex. I didn't have sex. Stuff

805
00:39:35,080 --> 00:39:38,560
Speaker 1: was seventeen. All of my friends were having sex, and um,

806
00:39:38,680 --> 00:39:40,320
Speaker 1: I was like, no, I'm gonna wait till I'm married

807
00:39:40,680 --> 00:39:44,800
Speaker 1: and then my friends that was sweet, Um, I think so.

808
00:39:45,080 --> 00:39:48,040
Speaker 1: But what happened was a friend of mine he bade

809
00:39:48,080 --> 00:39:49,719
Speaker 1: it me. He was like, yo, you get your dicks.

810
00:39:49,840 --> 00:39:51,719
Speaker 1: The girl be sucking your dick. Bro, you might as

811
00:39:51,760 --> 00:39:53,759
Speaker 1: well just suck because this is ridiculous. God sees you

812
00:39:53,760 --> 00:39:57,600
Speaker 1: getting your dicks, like you know what. I was like,

813
00:39:57,680 --> 00:40:01,560
Speaker 1: you know what, girl, But the girls thought I was

814
00:40:01,680 --> 00:40:04,520
Speaker 1: just like so cool, like he never did it, so

815
00:40:04,600 --> 00:40:06,520
Speaker 1: they would all come to the neighborhood and tried to

816
00:40:06,600 --> 00:40:09,000
Speaker 1: get me to do it. So all the guys were like, yo,

817
00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:12,239
Speaker 1: fuck her, what are you doing you sucking bush? Yeah?

818
00:40:13,360 --> 00:40:16,319
Speaker 1: So what I did was when I started having sex,

819
00:40:16,360 --> 00:40:19,000
Speaker 1: I just went back and sucked them all damn Like

820
00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:23,160
Speaker 1: I was just like I was like, I was like, oh, ship,

821
00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:25,200
Speaker 1: this is I'm gonna do that. I'm gonna go. You know,

822
00:40:25,360 --> 00:40:27,279
Speaker 1: did you know how to use condoms in everything? Oh? Yeah, yeah,

823
00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:30,640
Speaker 1: absolutely at seventeen, I guess you would not absolutely my friends.

824
00:40:30,800 --> 00:40:34,040
Speaker 1: My friends were thirteen and fourteen, and they were having

825
00:40:34,080 --> 00:40:37,719
Speaker 1: sex like a lot, like like literally like it was

826
00:40:37,840 --> 00:40:40,759
Speaker 1: trains being ran. It was the ridiculous types of sex

827
00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:44,880
Speaker 1: going on. And my man just no, seriously, it was

828
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:47,640
Speaker 1: so much going on and my one of my best

829
00:40:47,680 --> 00:40:50,240
Speaker 1: friend's house that it was just like how is this happening?

830
00:40:50,320 --> 00:40:53,560
Speaker 1: Like how was this? How is this not being stopped?

831
00:40:53,640 --> 00:40:58,960
Speaker 1: Like these are kids where literally his mom would be there,

832
00:40:59,719 --> 00:41:01,320
Speaker 1: not not she wouldn't be there and know what's exactly

833
00:41:01,320 --> 00:41:03,120
Speaker 1: what's going on, But she was kind. He had one

834
00:41:03,120 --> 00:41:04,520
Speaker 1: of those houses where his mother would be in the

835
00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:06,239
Speaker 1: room and he would have a back door and go

836
00:41:06,400 --> 00:41:10,200
Speaker 1: to his room and anybody would come in there or

837
00:41:10,280 --> 00:41:11,920
Speaker 1: she was She was like one of those parents that

838
00:41:12,000 --> 00:41:14,440
Speaker 1: was like, y'all sucking all them dirty girls. You dick

839
00:41:14,520 --> 00:41:15,880
Speaker 1: is gonna fall off, and then she going the room

840
00:41:15,880 --> 00:41:18,080
Speaker 1: and slam the door. It wasn't like who's in my house?

841
00:41:18,160 --> 00:41:21,640
Speaker 1: And my house no, never would ever ever happen. Was

842
00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:25,239
Speaker 1: the first annual pussy. I was like, I see again,

843
00:41:25,320 --> 00:41:28,799
Speaker 1: remember we grew up in a different era. I was like, three,

844
00:41:28,960 --> 00:41:34,719
Speaker 1: good lord, yeah, Jesus, but you gotta understand we grew

845
00:41:34,840 --> 00:41:37,319
Speaker 1: up in a different era where a lot of guys

846
00:41:37,400 --> 00:41:39,200
Speaker 1: were doing it. You know, a lot of guys were

847
00:41:39,320 --> 00:41:41,279
Speaker 1: doing it but saying they weren't. And I was one

848
00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:43,920
Speaker 1: of those people who really wasn't doing it, you know

849
00:41:43,960 --> 00:41:46,040
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like you know how when guys I

850
00:41:46,160 --> 00:41:49,359
Speaker 1: was like, no, I don't do that and that's not cool.

851
00:41:49,440 --> 00:41:51,200
Speaker 1: But then I didn't realize everybody was doing it but

852
00:41:51,280 --> 00:41:57,200
Speaker 1: lying I was no. No. I think I think my

853
00:41:57,360 --> 00:42:01,719
Speaker 1: girl taught me how to do it. Really, just like yes,

854
00:42:02,480 --> 00:42:04,480
Speaker 1: since you got a head, that's crazy. I was. I

855
00:42:04,520 --> 00:42:06,200
Speaker 1: don't think I was good at all, soil she showed

856
00:42:06,239 --> 00:42:08,759
Speaker 1: me what were you doing wrong? I probably wasn't doing

857
00:42:08,760 --> 00:42:10,359
Speaker 1: it wrong, but it just wasn't good. And the way

858
00:42:10,360 --> 00:42:11,800
Speaker 1: you do any every way you do anything, why you

859
00:42:11,800 --> 00:42:14,719
Speaker 1: do everything? You want to be you want to be right,

860
00:42:15,040 --> 00:42:16,080
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I don't want to be

861
00:42:16,280 --> 00:42:18,080
Speaker 1: I want to be the champion. Did you have to

862
00:42:18,160 --> 00:42:20,920
Speaker 1: tell you? Like, she just showed me exactly what they're doing.

863
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:24,840
Speaker 1: You know, that's so good. You know when you marry

864
00:42:24,880 --> 00:42:27,600
Speaker 1: somebody that you told how to eat pussy like so

865
00:42:27,880 --> 00:42:31,680
Speaker 1: good because it's all right when you was all right

866
00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:34,239
Speaker 1: if this sucks two ways, if you teach a guy

867
00:42:34,280 --> 00:42:36,120
Speaker 1: how to eat pussy, and then you break up. You

868
00:42:36,200 --> 00:42:42,279
Speaker 1: know he's around eating everybody is pussy the right way exactly.

869
00:42:42,719 --> 00:42:46,960
Speaker 1: And then with honors or you meet a guy and

870
00:42:47,239 --> 00:42:50,520
Speaker 1: you you love him, no, and he just eats pussy

871
00:42:50,680 --> 00:42:53,520
Speaker 1: mad good, like he's just amazing. You know, he's eating

872
00:42:53,640 --> 00:42:58,239
Speaker 1: everybody's pussy because one girlfriend that told him how to

873
00:42:58,280 --> 00:43:01,160
Speaker 1: do it. Oh whatever I had, that's not true. You know,

874
00:43:01,280 --> 00:43:06,040
Speaker 1: think peoples, No, no one's a natural. Some people could

875
00:43:06,040 --> 00:43:09,680
Speaker 1: be naturals. I think I was a natural. I sucking

876
00:43:09,760 --> 00:43:12,440
Speaker 1: dick for sure. I don't think any whatever time me.

877
00:43:12,800 --> 00:43:14,759
Speaker 1: What if the guy said I was taught, but I

878
00:43:14,880 --> 00:43:17,479
Speaker 1: was at a very young I think I was nice.

879
00:43:17,600 --> 00:43:20,080
Speaker 1: Like the first time I was kind of the first

880
00:43:20,120 --> 00:43:22,040
Speaker 1: time I said to Dick, I did a terrible job.

881
00:43:22,320 --> 00:43:23,960
Speaker 1: I think I always was good at it. I think

882
00:43:24,040 --> 00:43:26,000
Speaker 1: the first on it for so long, I think the

883
00:43:26,080 --> 00:43:28,680
Speaker 1: first dick I suck was small, so it was like

884
00:43:29,320 --> 00:43:32,120
Speaker 1: so much easy. I was like little dick. Guys out

885
00:43:32,160 --> 00:43:34,719
Speaker 1: there got life so much easy. Little think little is

886
00:43:34,719 --> 00:43:42,120
Speaker 1: a very easy to sign. It's where you like day

887
00:43:42,239 --> 00:43:47,560
Speaker 1: is where you graduate. It's like, oh my god, you're

888
00:43:47,600 --> 00:43:50,520
Speaker 1: like a lot going sucking dick on this side, eat

889
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:57,759
Speaker 1: chicken on this side, a little anything I can get,

890
00:43:57,800 --> 00:44:02,719
Speaker 1: a root canal, just stuck on the side of my back. No,

891
00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:05,160
Speaker 1: but a big dick. I have you fucked up? You

892
00:44:05,280 --> 00:44:07,759
Speaker 1: think you're nice little dick, and then you go home

893
00:44:07,800 --> 00:44:12,760
Speaker 1: and your throat sloy. You're crying like like why nothing,

894
00:44:12,840 --> 00:44:15,200
Speaker 1: like I have what do you call it? I can't

895
00:44:15,239 --> 00:44:18,680
Speaker 1: even that's the way you feel like your mouth stretched out,

896
00:44:18,760 --> 00:44:22,479
Speaker 1: like you gotta go get a lift, friller. You gotta

897
00:44:22,520 --> 00:44:24,239
Speaker 1: feel like your head is trash. If you suck it

898
00:44:24,320 --> 00:44:28,080
Speaker 1: that long to it, you know, you start this hurt. Nah. Yeah, yeah,

899
00:44:28,080 --> 00:44:30,640
Speaker 1: But sometimes don't guys try to like hold back because

900
00:44:30,680 --> 00:44:33,439
Speaker 1: they don't want to come. I feel like they didn't

901
00:44:33,440 --> 00:44:35,480
Speaker 1: come from him. I feel like every even the guy

902
00:44:35,520 --> 00:44:37,560
Speaker 1: who says he can't come from head, I feel like

903
00:44:37,680 --> 00:44:39,960
Speaker 1: every guy had the tick. You know what I mean?

904
00:44:40,000 --> 00:44:42,080
Speaker 1: You just gotta find out that one thing that's gonna

905
00:44:42,080 --> 00:44:45,360
Speaker 1: be that one thing he's singing that just so we

906
00:44:45,440 --> 00:44:49,000
Speaker 1: can see how crazy you and go to exactly exactly

907
00:44:49,080 --> 00:44:53,239
Speaker 1: he gonna comes from. Getting that dick suck. There's not

908
00:44:53,360 --> 00:44:56,120
Speaker 1: a guy out that ain't coming back from hold. I

909
00:44:56,239 --> 00:45:09,759
Speaker 1: think I'll make you best hold when a guy says that.

910
00:45:09,880 --> 00:45:11,480
Speaker 1: When a guy says, oh, I don't come from that,

911
00:45:11,600 --> 00:45:13,239
Speaker 1: it's the same thing like a girl saying like, I

912
00:45:13,320 --> 00:45:17,680
Speaker 1: don't you do this? You know, it's the same thing,

913
00:45:18,600 --> 00:45:22,000
Speaker 1: the same thing. That's that's what I don't usually do

914
00:45:22,120 --> 00:45:24,080
Speaker 1: this guy. I don't want you to think I'm a

915
00:45:24,120 --> 00:45:27,960
Speaker 1: whole and you're like I told you the whole one night, right, Like,

916
00:45:29,480 --> 00:45:31,840
Speaker 1: but can't you like kind of try to make it

917
00:45:32,000 --> 00:45:34,480
Speaker 1: last longer. If it's really good and you don't want

918
00:45:34,520 --> 00:45:36,799
Speaker 1: to come, you can stop and you know you can stop,

919
00:45:36,880 --> 00:45:39,440
Speaker 1: and yeah, you have to stop at him. I hate

920
00:45:39,480 --> 00:45:42,000
Speaker 1: when guys do that. Just come. I don't want to

921
00:45:42,000 --> 00:45:44,600
Speaker 1: do this, not me. I like for a guy to

922
00:45:44,680 --> 00:45:46,440
Speaker 1: hold it. I like to do it for a while.

923
00:45:46,960 --> 00:45:49,160
Speaker 1: I'll tell you when a guy comes like, oh I

924
00:45:49,160 --> 00:45:53,560
Speaker 1: could have went like another five minutes. I like it,

925
00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:56,680
Speaker 1: and then and then but jeezus, come on, you like

926
00:45:56,840 --> 00:46:00,719
Speaker 1: it too, don't lie. I do. But but if it's

927
00:46:00,760 --> 00:46:03,480
Speaker 1: too big, it's like, all right, this is too Oh

928
00:46:03,520 --> 00:46:07,520
Speaker 1: my god, I loved it's so good. Pull that dragon

929
00:46:07,560 --> 00:46:12,600
Speaker 1: out so I can feel it. Yeah, yeah, what what

930
00:46:12,760 --> 00:46:15,279
Speaker 1: about talking? Like just talking in bad make you want

931
00:46:15,320 --> 00:46:23,080
Speaker 1: to come faster? Yes? Shut up up like I'm not listening,

932
00:46:23,280 --> 00:46:25,279
Speaker 1: or don't turn around and make that face that like

933
00:46:25,600 --> 00:46:28,200
Speaker 1: why are you sucking me? Like it's a rap? You

934
00:46:28,320 --> 00:46:31,040
Speaker 1: just ruined it. It's over now, curtains. Do you ever

935
00:46:31,080 --> 00:46:33,120
Speaker 1: feel like sometimes have you ever said something during sex

936
00:46:33,160 --> 00:46:34,719
Speaker 1: and been like, what the fund did I just say?

937
00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:39,320
Speaker 1: I feel like I feel like I've done that drunk,

938
00:46:39,680 --> 00:46:41,960
Speaker 1: like you just don't know what's coming out of your mouth.

939
00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:44,400
Speaker 1: Say a few times and I really didn't mean it.

940
00:46:44,680 --> 00:46:46,880
Speaker 1: But I never say I love you. I don't mean it.

941
00:46:47,040 --> 00:46:49,680
Speaker 1: I didn't know I did. Definitely. That's a fucking song.

942
00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:55,000
Speaker 1: Goddamn it. I'm just thinking, I never said I love you. Yeah, no,

943
00:46:55,560 --> 00:46:58,279
Speaker 1: it's true. You never said I love you too. If

944
00:46:58,360 --> 00:47:00,920
Speaker 1: somebody said it to you, no, Usually when we get

945
00:47:00,960 --> 00:47:03,120
Speaker 1: to that point, I do love them, like I'm like, yeah,

946
00:47:05,280 --> 00:47:08,160
Speaker 1: look and no I've been with all right. Not too

947
00:47:08,239 --> 00:47:10,799
Speaker 1: long ago, I was working with somebody and they said

948
00:47:10,840 --> 00:47:12,920
Speaker 1: I love you to me. They were like they like

949
00:47:13,040 --> 00:47:15,000
Speaker 1: we were not like we were arguing. We were having

950
00:47:15,040 --> 00:47:18,279
Speaker 1: an argument and he was like, you know stuff, you know,

951
00:47:18,320 --> 00:47:20,360
Speaker 1: I'll only go through this with you because I love you.

952
00:47:21,239 --> 00:47:25,120
Speaker 1: This was like this was so I was like, uh,

953
00:47:25,920 --> 00:47:27,799
Speaker 1: I was like, you know, I got love for you too,

954
00:47:28,239 --> 00:47:35,839
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Baby, Now, I told him

955
00:47:35,880 --> 00:47:38,240
Speaker 1: and he's like, he's like, He's like, and I understand

956
00:47:38,239 --> 00:47:40,719
Speaker 1: that what I'm saying, And you know, I just feel

957
00:47:40,800 --> 00:47:42,800
Speaker 1: like I wasn't gonna tell him that I was in

958
00:47:42,880 --> 00:47:44,279
Speaker 1: love with him, And that's exactly what I said. I

959
00:47:44,360 --> 00:47:45,080
Speaker 1: was like, what do you want me to do? You

960
00:47:45,120 --> 00:47:46,239
Speaker 1: want me to tell you that I'm in love with you?

961
00:47:46,360 --> 00:47:49,080
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm not in love with you. And no,

962
00:47:49,239 --> 00:47:51,279
Speaker 1: but we weren't. We weren't even on that kind of five.

963
00:47:51,560 --> 00:47:54,880
Speaker 1: That wasn't even our five. We were normal like this

964
00:47:55,040 --> 00:47:57,720
Speaker 1: is at the time when I had two boyfriends. Remember everybody,

965
00:47:58,040 --> 00:48:00,200
Speaker 1: I had two boyfriends that was at that time time.

966
00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:05,200
Speaker 1: So obviously he was actually the second boyfriend. Yes, it

967
00:48:05,320 --> 00:48:07,520
Speaker 1: was the backup boyfriend. But you know, when either way

968
00:48:07,680 --> 00:48:11,120
Speaker 1: first or second, you're you're you're single, you're dating, and

969
00:48:11,239 --> 00:48:13,200
Speaker 1: you're you're doing your thing, you know what I mean.

970
00:48:13,840 --> 00:48:16,239
Speaker 1: So that's what I'm saying. We weren't on a vibe like.

971
00:48:16,320 --> 00:48:18,239
Speaker 1: It wasn't like I wasn't being honest with him. He

972
00:48:18,320 --> 00:48:20,799
Speaker 1: knew I was sleeping with somebody else from time to time.

973
00:48:20,880 --> 00:48:24,480
Speaker 1: You know what I mean, I think I love for them.

974
00:48:24,760 --> 00:48:27,120
Speaker 1: I didn't not the guy. Okay, ask you could you

975
00:48:27,200 --> 00:48:29,600
Speaker 1: be in love with both of them? Me in love? No,

976
00:48:29,800 --> 00:48:31,919
Speaker 1: I don't feel like I feel like being in love

977
00:48:32,200 --> 00:48:34,560
Speaker 1: like um, I feel like I'm a falling in love

978
00:48:34,640 --> 00:48:37,840
Speaker 1: as person. But I don't fall in love with everybody

979
00:48:37,960 --> 00:48:40,880
Speaker 1: like Gi. You you know, you know me well, like

980
00:48:41,000 --> 00:48:44,160
Speaker 1: me and Gig like she knows names, you know what

981
00:48:44,239 --> 00:48:47,560
Speaker 1: I mean, and you know like and you know I've

982
00:48:47,680 --> 00:48:50,239
Speaker 1: I've dated some amazing guys who have treated me well,

983
00:48:50,600 --> 00:48:52,360
Speaker 1: and I don't fall in love with them because I

984
00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:54,360
Speaker 1: don't feel like we're on that we don't have that

985
00:48:54,480 --> 00:48:57,040
Speaker 1: kind of spiritual connection, you know. To be in love

986
00:48:57,120 --> 00:48:59,440
Speaker 1: with somebody, it's a it's a strong feeling, you know.

987
00:48:59,560 --> 00:49:01,960
Speaker 1: It's a like I love my friends, and I love

988
00:49:02,280 --> 00:49:06,200
Speaker 1: my things, and I love my job, I love my hair,

989
00:49:06,800 --> 00:49:08,359
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. But to be in love

990
00:49:08,480 --> 00:49:11,719
Speaker 1: with somebody, that's that's like a different kind of thing,

991
00:49:12,040 --> 00:49:13,320
Speaker 1: you know. So I'm not going at of You have

992
00:49:13,400 --> 00:49:16,759
Speaker 1: a really unique theory about love. I think that we

993
00:49:16,800 --> 00:49:18,480
Speaker 1: can be wrong about everything in the world, but we

994
00:49:18,840 --> 00:49:21,239
Speaker 1: don't accept that we could be wrong about falling in love.

995
00:49:21,320 --> 00:49:23,239
Speaker 1: I do believe you only can be in love one time,

996
00:49:23,440 --> 00:49:25,320
Speaker 1: only once. And this is why I say this. I

997
00:49:25,440 --> 00:49:31,560
Speaker 1: think the definition of love, the definition of love is um,

998
00:49:32,120 --> 00:49:35,400
Speaker 1: unconditional and continuous. So to be in love with somebody

999
00:49:35,640 --> 00:49:37,279
Speaker 1: and say I'm not in love with him no more,

1000
00:49:37,280 --> 00:49:41,279
Speaker 1: all you're doing is realizing that. Well, and that's another thing.

1001
00:49:41,440 --> 00:49:42,840
Speaker 1: That's what I think, and and the reason why I

1002
00:49:42,920 --> 00:49:45,239
Speaker 1: say that is this. We can be wrong about so

1003
00:49:45,400 --> 00:49:48,560
Speaker 1: many things, and we we feel like that's not possible.

1004
00:49:48,760 --> 00:49:51,080
Speaker 1: I was in love, No, you were infatuated with the

1005
00:49:51,120 --> 00:49:53,680
Speaker 1: feeling that you had been with this person, but over

1006
00:49:53,800 --> 00:49:56,000
Speaker 1: time that's feeling went away. And I think that it

1007
00:49:56,040 --> 00:49:58,160
Speaker 1: don't matter if he was with him for twenty years.

1008
00:49:58,640 --> 00:50:01,160
Speaker 1: You could be wrong like I was, or friends with

1009
00:50:01,320 --> 00:50:03,480
Speaker 1: somebody who I thought was my best friend and then

1010
00:50:03,960 --> 00:50:05,840
Speaker 1: he tried to steal from me and did so I

1011
00:50:05,960 --> 00:50:08,120
Speaker 1: had to realize this person wasn't a friend to me,

1012
00:50:08,239 --> 00:50:10,040
Speaker 1: he wasn't a real friend. So at the end of

1013
00:50:10,040 --> 00:50:11,759
Speaker 1: the day, I can say I was wrong about what

1014
00:50:11,840 --> 00:50:15,359
Speaker 1: I thought this person was. So why can't a significant other, Uh,

1015
00:50:15,680 --> 00:50:17,960
Speaker 1: the person of the opposite sex who you love orho

1016
00:50:17,960 --> 00:50:19,919
Speaker 1: you think you You can say I really love this person,

1017
00:50:20,000 --> 00:50:24,000
Speaker 1: but I wasn't necessarily. I don't believe that if it's

1018
00:50:24,080 --> 00:50:26,600
Speaker 1: really love, you can ever fall out. I just think

1019
00:50:26,640 --> 00:50:28,600
Speaker 1: that you can say I love somebody and I love

1020
00:50:28,719 --> 00:50:31,160
Speaker 1: them and I love being with them, because by nature,

1021
00:50:31,480 --> 00:50:33,799
Speaker 1: I think we're meant to love everybody. I think that's

1022
00:50:34,040 --> 00:50:36,360
Speaker 1: that's but to be in love with somebody, to have

1023
00:50:36,520 --> 00:50:39,439
Speaker 1: that connection my personal belief. And I'm not gonna say

1024
00:50:39,640 --> 00:50:41,800
Speaker 1: that if you believe otherwise, that you're wrong. I'm just

1025
00:50:41,840 --> 00:50:45,320
Speaker 1: saying my belief is that if you're in love with somebody,

1026
00:50:45,400 --> 00:50:47,920
Speaker 1: that's it. That's But if it's not, you don't realize

1027
00:50:48,080 --> 00:50:49,560
Speaker 1: I'm out of love with them, You realize, you know

1028
00:50:49,640 --> 00:50:52,239
Speaker 1: what it really wasn't what I know, I love them,

1029
00:50:52,360 --> 00:50:54,839
Speaker 1: I was never in love with them like I thought,

1030
00:50:55,000 --> 00:50:56,880
Speaker 1: because you know, do you think you could end up

1031
00:50:57,000 --> 00:51:00,200
Speaker 1: like never falling in love with anybody. I don't believe

1032
00:51:00,280 --> 00:51:03,279
Speaker 1: that that is possible. I think that, um No, I'm

1033
00:51:03,280 --> 00:51:04,759
Speaker 1: not gonna say that's not possible, because I think so

1034
00:51:04,840 --> 00:51:07,799
Speaker 1: many people live just earth and don't. Really I think

1035
00:51:07,920 --> 00:51:10,560
Speaker 1: maybe you missed out on the person that you would

1036
00:51:10,640 --> 00:51:13,360
Speaker 1: love with because the own whatever decisions or whatever they

1037
00:51:13,400 --> 00:51:15,080
Speaker 1: could have been locked up or whatever. I don't know,

1038
00:51:15,400 --> 00:51:17,799
Speaker 1: but it's just so many things that I feel like, Um,

1039
00:51:17,960 --> 00:51:20,480
Speaker 1: you can love somebody, but love changes, you know what

1040
00:51:20,560 --> 00:51:22,400
Speaker 1: I mean. I feel like you can love someone so

1041
00:51:22,640 --> 00:51:26,440
Speaker 1: much I want done. You can love someone some away

1042
00:51:27,200 --> 00:51:30,600
Speaker 1: because I I feel like, Um, I still love my songs. Father,

1043
00:51:30,719 --> 00:51:32,960
Speaker 1: I'm not in love with exactly. So we were saying

1044
00:51:33,000 --> 00:51:35,040
Speaker 1: the same thing, you know what I mean. I love him.

1045
00:51:35,080 --> 00:51:37,080
Speaker 1: I love him for the rest of my life. He's

1046
00:51:37,200 --> 00:51:39,680
Speaker 1: very important to me. I think very highly of him.

1047
00:51:39,719 --> 00:51:41,960
Speaker 1: He's a wonderful man, you know what I mean. But

1048
00:51:42,160 --> 00:51:44,680
Speaker 1: I don't see myself being in a relationship. What I'm

1049
00:51:44,719 --> 00:51:46,400
Speaker 1: saying is the same thing you're saying. I love him

1050
00:51:46,400 --> 00:51:50,080
Speaker 1: though by nature we obviously, I believe we were born

1051
00:51:50,160 --> 00:51:53,759
Speaker 1: to love everybody, right, I feel like so much. So

1052
00:51:53,880 --> 00:51:55,840
Speaker 1: you have to teach a kid to go with a stranger.

1053
00:51:56,040 --> 00:51:58,799
Speaker 1: You have to teach him that because by nature we're

1054
00:51:59,000 --> 00:52:01,840
Speaker 1: trusting and we're giving and loving. So you have to

1055
00:52:03,120 --> 00:52:06,040
Speaker 1: exactly no, no, no, none, especially just when you're born.

1056
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:10,359
Speaker 1: You have to be taught bad good. It's natural. Don't

1057
00:52:10,400 --> 00:52:13,800
Speaker 1: talk to somebody tells you this. If somebody does exactly,

1058
00:52:14,040 --> 00:52:16,200
Speaker 1: and you're taught that, and you can see the lightbulb

1059
00:52:16,239 --> 00:52:18,440
Speaker 1: go off when you're telling your kids, like, really, somebody

1060
00:52:18,480 --> 00:52:20,080
Speaker 1: would try to put me in that car. But like

1061
00:52:20,120 --> 00:52:21,480
Speaker 1: I remember telling my son and he was like, why

1062
00:52:21,520 --> 00:52:22,919
Speaker 1: don't they do that? Don't they want to go to heaven?

1063
00:52:28,000 --> 00:52:30,000
Speaker 1: You're not gonna You're not gonna get to heaven like that.

1064
00:52:31,360 --> 00:52:33,080
Speaker 1: Trying to put kids in vans ain't gonna get you

1065
00:52:33,080 --> 00:52:35,600
Speaker 1: to heaven. But in retrospect, for you, I always thought

1066
00:52:35,640 --> 00:52:37,120
Speaker 1: you were in love. Do you look back and say

1067
00:52:37,160 --> 00:52:43,719
Speaker 1: I wasn't in love now? I think we don't want

1068
00:52:43,719 --> 00:52:45,040
Speaker 1: to admit it though. I think we don't want to

1069
00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:46,319
Speaker 1: say that to this because we don't want to admit

1070
00:52:46,400 --> 00:52:48,000
Speaker 1: that we wasted a lot of time. But it's not

1071
00:52:48,160 --> 00:52:50,800
Speaker 1: wasted times. No, That's why I agree I said a

1072
00:52:50,880 --> 00:52:52,800
Speaker 1: lot of times. In mind, we think I have to

1073
00:52:52,880 --> 00:52:54,520
Speaker 1: say that it was love because I was in love

1074
00:52:54,600 --> 00:52:57,000
Speaker 1: because I don't want to feel like I wasted my time.

1075
00:52:57,040 --> 00:52:58,719
Speaker 1: But I think they are lessons and I think we

1076
00:52:58,920 --> 00:53:00,600
Speaker 1: learned and how to how to do with people and

1077
00:53:00,680 --> 00:53:03,480
Speaker 1: we see things. I always say this, and this is

1078
00:53:03,560 --> 00:53:05,920
Speaker 1: something that um I point out to all of my friends.

1079
00:53:06,320 --> 00:53:08,239
Speaker 1: Every time you with somebody and you break up with them,

1080
00:53:08,239 --> 00:53:10,440
Speaker 1: I don't care if it's ten years, fifteen years. The

1081
00:53:10,560 --> 00:53:12,640
Speaker 1: sign that you saw that you shouldn't have been with

1082
00:53:12,680 --> 00:53:15,759
Speaker 1: them happened within the first month. I guarantee it. You

1083
00:53:15,960 --> 00:53:18,759
Speaker 1: liked them enough to keep going and you ignored it.

1084
00:53:19,040 --> 00:53:21,640
Speaker 1: But I guarantee you if you look back in retrospect

1085
00:53:21,680 --> 00:53:24,799
Speaker 1: and say to yourself, I knew on week two when

1086
00:53:24,840 --> 00:53:27,680
Speaker 1: that motherfucker did this ship that I shouldn't have fun

1087
00:53:27,760 --> 00:53:29,440
Speaker 1: with him. Right, What do you think, Because I know

1088
00:53:30,120 --> 00:53:32,480
Speaker 1: you had a long term relationship, they were definitely some

1089
00:53:32,560 --> 00:53:35,840
Speaker 1: red flags. But you think looking back, you feel like

1090
00:53:35,920 --> 00:53:38,359
Speaker 1: you were in love or you feel like I feel

1091
00:53:38,400 --> 00:53:42,160
Speaker 1: like I wasn't in love. I don't feel like that's

1092
00:53:42,200 --> 00:53:46,800
Speaker 1: my one love, and that's it. I understand the logic

1093
00:53:47,280 --> 00:53:51,279
Speaker 1: of behind what you're saying. Um you know, I'm sitting

1094
00:53:51,280 --> 00:53:53,760
Speaker 1: here thinking about it as you're saying that. Actually, however,

1095
00:53:54,160 --> 00:53:57,400
Speaker 1: with that particular situation, UM, I do think I was

1096
00:53:57,480 --> 00:54:00,560
Speaker 1: in love, like I was able to look past a

1097
00:54:00,719 --> 00:54:02,400
Speaker 1: whole lot of things, and I feel like it was

1098
00:54:02,520 --> 00:54:06,239
Speaker 1: I was blinded by love. Um Am, I still in love? No?

1099
00:54:07,040 --> 00:54:09,239
Speaker 1: I love him, yes, of course, but I'm not in

1100
00:54:09,600 --> 00:54:12,680
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. I really believe that you realize

1101
00:54:12,719 --> 00:54:15,879
Speaker 1: that this isn't the person, and that you really wasn't

1102
00:54:15,920 --> 00:54:18,279
Speaker 1: in love. You was you love spending time with them.

1103
00:54:18,360 --> 00:54:20,160
Speaker 1: You love with whatever they had to offer, and I

1104
00:54:20,160 --> 00:54:21,920
Speaker 1: don't mean financially or whatever. I mean whatever they had

1105
00:54:21,960 --> 00:54:23,879
Speaker 1: to in your life give to you in your life,

1106
00:54:23,920 --> 00:54:26,320
Speaker 1: and and you you were infatuated with that, so that

1107
00:54:26,440 --> 00:54:30,279
Speaker 1: when that break happens, it hurts. But over time, you

1108
00:54:30,360 --> 00:54:32,399
Speaker 1: could look at that same person be with somebody else

1109
00:54:32,440 --> 00:54:34,120
Speaker 1: and it don't affect you the same way because it's like,

1110
00:54:35,080 --> 00:54:37,000
Speaker 1: I'm not moving like that. That's not where I'm at,

1111
00:54:37,360 --> 00:54:38,960
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And when you get to

1112
00:54:39,080 --> 00:54:41,839
Speaker 1: that point, it may be a situation where you get

1113
00:54:41,880 --> 00:54:43,640
Speaker 1: back with them and you realize, no, I'm really in

1114
00:54:43,680 --> 00:54:46,040
Speaker 1: love this person. Over in time showed me that I was.

1115
00:54:46,400 --> 00:54:48,080
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to hear. I'm not here to tell

1116
00:54:48,160 --> 00:54:50,320
Speaker 1: people that who they're not in love or not. I

1117
00:54:50,440 --> 00:54:53,360
Speaker 1: just believe that it's one one time only only because

1118
00:54:53,440 --> 00:54:57,520
Speaker 1: of my face. Honestly, you know, I listen to me,

1119
00:54:58,200 --> 00:55:00,680
Speaker 1: or you think you know, and you said because of

1120
00:55:00,760 --> 00:55:03,120
Speaker 1: your faith and the way, that's what I was just

1121
00:55:03,239 --> 00:55:05,520
Speaker 1: thinking of. You took the word right out of my head.

1122
00:55:05,840 --> 00:55:08,120
Speaker 1: I hope you're right because of my faith, because I

1123
00:55:08,280 --> 00:55:12,920
Speaker 1: want to end up with that one person. I don't

1124
00:55:12,960 --> 00:55:15,320
Speaker 1: want to turn this into like I really hope that

1125
00:55:15,400 --> 00:55:18,160
Speaker 1: you're right. I definitely don't want to turn it into

1126
00:55:18,160 --> 00:55:19,560
Speaker 1: a Bible city, but don't want you to. I want

1127
00:55:19,560 --> 00:55:22,040
Speaker 1: you to understand everything on earth is just an example

1128
00:55:22,080 --> 00:55:24,680
Speaker 1: of the relationship. We should have a God. Right now,

1129
00:55:24,760 --> 00:55:26,880
Speaker 1: people want to call it the universe or whatever they

1130
00:55:26,920 --> 00:55:28,239
Speaker 1: want to call it. But at the end of the day,

1131
00:55:28,560 --> 00:55:31,560
Speaker 1: the relationship that you're the bond between a mother and

1132
00:55:31,680 --> 00:55:34,880
Speaker 1: a and a daughter is a relationship that is supposed

1133
00:55:34,920 --> 00:55:36,239
Speaker 1: to have a God. The father and the daughter, the

1134
00:55:36,280 --> 00:55:38,520
Speaker 1: father and the son is just an example of how

1135
00:55:38,680 --> 00:55:40,640
Speaker 1: much God loves us, and we should love him and

1136
00:55:40,719 --> 00:55:44,920
Speaker 1: reverence him. So a marriage relationship is just that relationship.

1137
00:55:45,360 --> 00:55:48,440
Speaker 1: God is a jealous God. Why do you think we're jealous?

1138
00:55:49,000 --> 00:55:51,759
Speaker 1: It's everything is a mimic, it's a relationship. Is an

1139
00:55:51,840 --> 00:55:55,040
Speaker 1: example of how we should feel about him, right, or

1140
00:55:55,080 --> 00:55:56,600
Speaker 1: whatever you want to believe in, because I'm not trying

1141
00:55:56,600 --> 00:55:59,680
Speaker 1: to force my beliefs on anybody. Whatever you believe is

1142
00:55:59,719 --> 00:56:02,200
Speaker 1: that for exactly. So what I'm saying is when you

1143
00:56:02,400 --> 00:56:04,440
Speaker 1: have that you, and when you believe that strongly in

1144
00:56:04,520 --> 00:56:07,160
Speaker 1: your heart, then you it's impossible for me to believe

1145
00:56:07,719 --> 00:56:11,440
Speaker 1: that me and my imperfection can't get it wrong and

1146
00:56:11,600 --> 00:56:13,719
Speaker 1: assume that for this amount of time I was in

1147
00:56:13,840 --> 00:56:16,360
Speaker 1: love with somebody and not grow and say to myself,

1148
00:56:16,520 --> 00:56:19,040
Speaker 1: you know what, that wasn't necessarily a case. I wasn't

1149
00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:20,880
Speaker 1: really in love with this person. We have to be

1150
00:56:21,000 --> 00:56:23,759
Speaker 1: mature enough to accept that we don't know everything and

1151
00:56:24,000 --> 00:56:26,120
Speaker 1: we made a mistake and was with somebody like it

1152
00:56:26,400 --> 00:56:28,600
Speaker 1: hurts you to realize that I was with especially with women,

1153
00:56:28,880 --> 00:56:32,480
Speaker 1: because with men. With men, we feel like a lot

1154
00:56:32,520 --> 00:56:34,560
Speaker 1: of times women feel like, well he's a man. He

1155
00:56:34,640 --> 00:56:37,480
Speaker 1: can be seven years old, get another girl, have a baby,

1156
00:56:37,520 --> 00:56:39,120
Speaker 1: and everything is different. I have to start over and

1157
00:56:39,160 --> 00:56:41,600
Speaker 1: it's more difficult fas and I respect that point of view.

1158
00:56:41,719 --> 00:56:43,480
Speaker 1: So a lot of times you're angry with yourself and

1159
00:56:43,520 --> 00:56:45,640
Speaker 1: you feel like I spent all this time with this nigga,

1160
00:56:45,680 --> 00:56:48,600
Speaker 1: I'd better been in love. I can't be this fucking crazy.

1161
00:56:48,680 --> 00:56:51,560
Speaker 1: But it's like, we are imperfect. Let me ask you this,

1162
00:56:51,880 --> 00:56:54,160
Speaker 1: what if you're in love with somebody who's taken and

1163
00:56:54,280 --> 00:56:55,839
Speaker 1: you feel like you're in love with somebody, but there

1164
00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:58,880
Speaker 1: with some I believe that. Look, this is what I believe.

1165
00:56:59,160 --> 00:57:00,600
Speaker 1: And I'm not trying to tell Aboudy to go for

1166
00:57:00,719 --> 00:57:02,400
Speaker 1: and not that that's some advice ain't gonna give you,

1167
00:57:03,880 --> 00:57:06,840
Speaker 1: but but this is what I'm saying. Just because somebody

1168
00:57:07,000 --> 00:57:09,000
Speaker 1: is with somebody don't mean that that's not the person

1169
00:57:09,080 --> 00:57:12,279
Speaker 1: for you. That don't necessarily mean that they're not for you.

1170
00:57:12,480 --> 00:57:15,000
Speaker 1: It just means that right now they could be going

1171
00:57:15,080 --> 00:57:17,280
Speaker 1: through their phase of not really knowing what they're doing

1172
00:57:17,480 --> 00:57:19,600
Speaker 1: and being in the wrong situation. And I believe that

1173
00:57:19,640 --> 00:57:21,480
Speaker 1: if you trust again, I don't want to turn the

1174
00:57:21,520 --> 00:57:23,640
Speaker 1: Bible state, but if you trust God and say yourself,

1175
00:57:24,040 --> 00:57:25,720
Speaker 1: I trust that whatever is supposed to happen for me,

1176
00:57:25,760 --> 00:57:27,919
Speaker 1: He's gonna make available for me, then it will become

1177
00:57:27,920 --> 00:57:30,040
Speaker 1: available for you. All right. Now, let's get to one

1178
00:57:30,080 --> 00:57:32,320
Speaker 1: of these questions that somebody wrote in because that actually

1179
00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:44,160
Speaker 1: from us. I was the other day I was. I

1180
00:57:44,240 --> 00:57:45,880
Speaker 1: have been married for eight years. My husband and I

1181
00:57:46,000 --> 00:57:48,040
Speaker 1: had our first child after two years of marriage. We

1182
00:57:48,160 --> 00:57:50,000
Speaker 1: put our child first, which kind of put our marriage

1183
00:57:50,040 --> 00:57:51,640
Speaker 1: on the back burner. In hindsight, that was not a

1184
00:57:51,680 --> 00:57:54,560
Speaker 1: good idea. Everything he does irks me. It didn't become

1185
00:57:54,640 --> 00:57:56,720
Speaker 1: this way overnight. It happened after he fell into a

1186
00:57:56,800 --> 00:57:59,080
Speaker 1: depression a few years back. I did my best to

1187
00:57:59,080 --> 00:58:01,600
Speaker 1: support him because I know what that feels like from experience.

1188
00:58:01,880 --> 00:58:03,760
Speaker 1: He sat at home during this time, which was okay

1189
00:58:03,760 --> 00:58:06,520
Speaker 1: at first, but ultimately letter our financial ruin. As it

1190
00:58:06,640 --> 00:58:08,520
Speaker 1: was happening, I begged him to get a job, but

1191
00:58:08,600 --> 00:58:10,640
Speaker 1: he went inside worked while he was at home with

1192
00:58:10,680 --> 00:58:12,400
Speaker 1: our child. Though that wasn't where I wanted him to

1193
00:58:12,440 --> 00:58:15,000
Speaker 1: be in my resentment group, and her question is I

1194
00:58:15,120 --> 00:58:16,320
Speaker 1: just don't love him and I don't want to be

1195
00:58:16,400 --> 00:58:17,880
Speaker 1: with him anymore. So I try to work this out

1196
00:58:17,920 --> 00:58:21,320
Speaker 1: for the take of our marriage, going fast, Get going fast?

1197
00:58:21,840 --> 00:58:24,480
Speaker 1: Why the kid is young enough to not be so attached,

1198
00:58:24,800 --> 00:58:26,800
Speaker 1: and then you can get over it. Don't wait till

1199
00:58:26,800 --> 00:58:29,000
Speaker 1: the kid is nineteen and starts hating himself and blaming

1200
00:58:29,040 --> 00:58:32,120
Speaker 1: itself for you. You know what I mean going now?

1201
00:58:32,320 --> 00:58:35,080
Speaker 1: And what I say is this, I can never depression

1202
00:58:35,160 --> 00:58:37,920
Speaker 1: is serious, and we can't question depression. But what I

1203
00:58:38,000 --> 00:58:40,760
Speaker 1: do know is that I'm a man who believes in

1204
00:58:41,240 --> 00:58:43,760
Speaker 1: figure this shit out. Let's get the funk up and

1205
00:58:43,840 --> 00:58:46,240
Speaker 1: let's figure this shot out. I've been dead, poor I

1206
00:58:46,360 --> 00:58:49,080
Speaker 1: had nothing in my pocket and I've had millions, so

1207
00:58:49,200 --> 00:58:51,360
Speaker 1: I know what it's like to be able to say, bro,

1208
00:58:51,440 --> 00:58:53,120
Speaker 1: I'm gonna figure this shot out and I'm gonna get

1209
00:58:53,160 --> 00:58:55,720
Speaker 1: some mother fucking money for my family. And so some

1210
00:58:55,760 --> 00:58:57,520
Speaker 1: people ain't built like that. And that's why I don't

1211
00:58:57,560 --> 00:58:59,440
Speaker 1: believe she wants to be with him, because she not

1212
00:58:59,520 --> 00:59:01,640
Speaker 1: attracted to that weak nigger ship. And I ain't mad

1213
00:59:01,680 --> 00:59:03,480
Speaker 1: at her. She's supposed to because he's you know, and

1214
00:59:03,800 --> 00:59:06,120
Speaker 1: I don't want to get all the way crazy. But

1215
00:59:07,200 --> 00:59:09,680
Speaker 1: but at the end of the day, when you got children,

1216
00:59:09,960 --> 00:59:11,800
Speaker 1: he is one thing to say, I'm by myself and

1217
00:59:11,840 --> 00:59:14,120
Speaker 1: I gotta but when you when you have a child,

1218
00:59:14,200 --> 00:59:16,560
Speaker 1: it's something that that's in you that has to I

1219
00:59:16,680 --> 00:59:18,600
Speaker 1: told my son the other day. My son said, data,

1220
00:59:18,640 --> 00:59:20,360
Speaker 1: can you lift this car up? I said, if it

1221
00:59:20,440 --> 00:59:24,960
Speaker 1: fell on you, I could, because I'm gonna find something

1222
00:59:25,080 --> 00:59:27,640
Speaker 1: in myself that's gonna be bigger than, greater than who

1223
00:59:27,680 --> 00:59:30,880
Speaker 1: I name my daughter, Believe beyond, because when I look

1224
00:59:30,920 --> 00:59:32,920
Speaker 1: at her, I gotta say to myself, I gotta believe

1225
00:59:32,960 --> 00:59:36,000
Speaker 1: beyond every circumstance, every situation, everything I'm going through, and

1226
00:59:36,080 --> 00:59:37,960
Speaker 1: know that I gotta provide for her and also out

1227
00:59:38,080 --> 00:59:41,400
Speaker 1: to know that there's something greater for me beyond this situation,

1228
00:59:42,080 --> 00:59:45,480
Speaker 1: beyond my last name. I gotta believe beyond whatever I

1229
00:59:45,560 --> 00:59:47,960
Speaker 1: can even see. So if you can't find that it

1230
00:59:48,080 --> 00:59:51,320
Speaker 1: muster that power up in yourself to provide for your family,

1231
00:59:51,720 --> 00:59:53,240
Speaker 1: then you don't need to be with him. He needs

1232
00:59:53,240 --> 00:59:54,960
Speaker 1: to figure out hisself. He needs to figure out who

1233
00:59:55,000 --> 00:59:56,440
Speaker 1: he is and when he's doing. There's only so much

1234
00:59:56,480 --> 00:59:57,960
Speaker 1: you can help him. You try for six years. But

1235
00:59:58,040 --> 01:00:00,120
Speaker 1: depression is a real thing. There's a real thing. But

1236
01:00:00,600 --> 01:00:03,480
Speaker 1: sometimes but you gotta live your life too. So until

1237
01:00:03,520 --> 01:00:05,280
Speaker 1: they get over their depression, you gotta praveing them and

1238
01:00:05,360 --> 01:00:08,080
Speaker 1: let them rock. But you can't be miserable your life

1239
01:00:08,400 --> 01:00:11,000
Speaker 1: because another grown person is going through what they're going

1240
01:00:11,000 --> 01:00:12,320
Speaker 1: through and not trying to say what they're going through

1241
01:00:12,360 --> 01:00:15,880
Speaker 1: isn't real. But is it your obligation to not be happy? No,

1242
01:00:16,080 --> 01:00:19,560
Speaker 1: it's not all right. Now, here's one last question you're

1243
01:00:19,600 --> 01:00:22,600
Speaker 1: gonna I want to hear this your answer to this one. Okay,

1244
01:00:23,040 --> 01:00:24,920
Speaker 1: I've been dating this girl for quite some time and

1245
01:00:25,000 --> 01:00:26,920
Speaker 1: I'm in love with her. I want to be with her.

1246
01:00:27,000 --> 01:00:28,560
Speaker 1: I can really see us in the future. The only

1247
01:00:28,640 --> 01:00:31,520
Speaker 1: thing is she's in school about five hours away, and

1248
01:00:31,560 --> 01:00:33,600
Speaker 1: you know how college schedules are set up. Well, when

1249
01:00:33,640 --> 01:00:35,480
Speaker 1: she's the way, I tend to sleep around and it's

1250
01:00:35,520 --> 01:00:37,440
Speaker 1: only because she's gone, and I really don't want this

1251
01:00:37,520 --> 01:00:39,000
Speaker 1: to be what I but what can I do to

1252
01:00:39,040 --> 01:00:41,200
Speaker 1: stop myself from this? Bro? You're gonna sleep around when

1253
01:00:41,240 --> 01:00:45,360
Speaker 1: she comes around to just seeing you? Bro? Sorry, Yeah,

1254
01:00:45,840 --> 01:00:49,920
Speaker 1: it's it's cute that you weren't mean this person that's

1255
01:00:49,960 --> 01:00:54,080
Speaker 1: sleeping around, but you can't bus men. We we put

1256
01:00:54,200 --> 01:00:56,000
Speaker 1: up so many excuses on why we do the funk

1257
01:00:56,040 --> 01:00:58,000
Speaker 1: ship do we do? But at the end of the day, Bro,

1258
01:00:58,160 --> 01:01:00,840
Speaker 1: you're saying, you, Bro, you got you gotta figure out

1259
01:01:00,840 --> 01:01:03,280
Speaker 1: if when you're gonna get tired of you know, or

1260
01:01:03,360 --> 01:01:05,320
Speaker 1: if you're ever going. It's just a difficult thing. It's

1261
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Speaker 1: one of those things that I can't even I'm the

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01:01:06,960 --> 01:01:08,760
Speaker 1: worst to give advice from that. But at the end

1263
01:01:08,760 --> 01:01:11,440
Speaker 1: of the day, you know, just being a buck at

1264
01:01:11,480 --> 01:01:14,360
Speaker 1: the end of the day, I don't think it's because

1265
01:01:14,360 --> 01:01:16,000
Speaker 1: she five hours where she'll get there and you'll find

1266
01:01:16,040 --> 01:01:19,480
Speaker 1: a way to suck somebody. What made you finally realize

1267
01:01:19,520 --> 01:01:22,680
Speaker 1: that it was time to settle down? Um, far settling down.

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01:01:22,760 --> 01:01:25,160
Speaker 1: I had already settled down, but I just think that

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01:01:25,720 --> 01:01:28,160
Speaker 1: what made me resent. I'm gonna be honest with you,

1270
01:01:28,280 --> 01:01:33,640
Speaker 1: social media and our lack of discretion, you know. I

1271
01:01:33,760 --> 01:01:37,040
Speaker 1: think that's what turned me off from just fucking with bitches.

1272
01:01:37,760 --> 01:01:39,440
Speaker 1: And I think that's not a fair reason. I'll be

1273
01:01:39,480 --> 01:01:41,880
Speaker 1: honest with you. That's not a good reason because it

1274
01:01:42,040 --> 01:01:45,480
Speaker 1: wasn't my respect for the sanctity of the relationship. It

1275
01:01:45,640 --> 01:01:47,720
Speaker 1: was like these we just talked too much, and that's

1276
01:01:47,760 --> 01:01:50,520
Speaker 1: what made me feel like, let me just stay at

1277
01:01:50,560 --> 01:01:52,800
Speaker 1: home and let me just not if you ever noticed me?

1278
01:01:52,880 --> 01:01:57,520
Speaker 1: And how just because I feel like whatever home? Because

1279
01:01:57,520 --> 01:01:59,040
Speaker 1: I don't want to I don't want to be involved

1280
01:01:59,040 --> 01:02:01,960
Speaker 1: in any ship. So what I think, what I think

1281
01:02:02,080 --> 01:02:05,000
Speaker 1: happens is you start looking around and realizing, like I

1282
01:02:05,080 --> 01:02:07,400
Speaker 1: started getting to like when I watch people post and

1283
01:02:07,440 --> 01:02:09,960
Speaker 1: I watched the little pictures of the guys watch and

1284
01:02:10,200 --> 01:02:13,040
Speaker 1: and and in the trip, and I'm like, Yo, you're

1285
01:02:13,040 --> 01:02:15,360
Speaker 1: not showing his face for a reason. You stop showing

1286
01:02:15,400 --> 01:02:18,840
Speaker 1: his fucking watch, bitch, you giving them away, Like, stop

1287
01:02:19,000 --> 01:02:21,200
Speaker 1: doing that, Like why do we have to talk so much?

1288
01:02:21,240 --> 01:02:23,200
Speaker 1: So it made me bring, are you gonnow that you're

1289
01:02:23,240 --> 01:02:26,080
Speaker 1: in his car exactly, Like why the fund you posting

1290
01:02:26,160 --> 01:02:28,880
Speaker 1: up in his car, you little bird exactly. So it's

1291
01:02:28,920 --> 01:02:34,400
Speaker 1: like this whole real quick, Yeah, this whole, this whole

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01:02:34,480 --> 01:02:38,120
Speaker 1: thing about showing everything and talking about everything and a

1293
01:02:38,240 --> 01:02:40,720
Speaker 1: lack of discretion. It kind of bothers me. So it

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01:02:40,840 --> 01:02:43,840
Speaker 1: kind of like it's like it's so annoying because and

1295
01:02:43,960 --> 01:02:46,480
Speaker 1: isn't that a turn off for a guy? Girl does

1296
01:02:46,800 --> 01:02:49,080
Speaker 1: that corny ship? And that's let me tell you. And

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01:02:49,120 --> 01:02:51,000
Speaker 1: then I see Nick his wife from later, I'm like, yo,

1298
01:02:51,120 --> 01:02:52,920
Speaker 1: you know this bach is just on ninety trips with

1299
01:02:53,040 --> 01:02:58,520
Speaker 1: ninety different things and you disgusting. No, but my thing

1300
01:02:58,680 --> 01:03:01,480
Speaker 1: is my thing is you know, like I've been out here,

1301
01:03:01,640 --> 01:03:03,720
Speaker 1: like you know, I've been. I've been, and I've been

1302
01:03:03,800 --> 01:03:06,720
Speaker 1: doing videos for the first video idea was like seven

1303
01:03:06,800 --> 01:03:09,760
Speaker 1: years ago. Like it's pretty much seven years ago, right,

1304
01:03:10,280 --> 01:03:12,000
Speaker 1: that's not too long, I don't but I think it's

1305
01:03:12,160 --> 01:03:15,960
Speaker 1: longer than a lot of girls last. But it's it's

1306
01:03:16,040 --> 01:03:19,320
Speaker 1: been a while, you know whatever. In seven years, there

1307
01:03:19,360 --> 01:03:22,520
Speaker 1: hasn't really been no bullshit about me because I refused

1308
01:03:22,880 --> 01:03:25,840
Speaker 1: to be famous or for some bird ship like that.

1309
01:03:26,240 --> 01:03:28,200
Speaker 1: If it's gonna be my if it's gonna be birdship.

1310
01:03:28,240 --> 01:03:30,480
Speaker 1: It's gonna be my bird ship. I'm not gonna bring

1311
01:03:31,040 --> 01:03:33,720
Speaker 1: some guys, you know, bringing somebody I respect, because if

1312
01:03:33,720 --> 01:03:36,120
Speaker 1: I'm working with you, I respect you. You know what

1313
01:03:36,240 --> 01:03:38,800
Speaker 1: I mean, down because I want a little attention. But

1314
01:03:41,520 --> 01:03:43,800
Speaker 1: even and it gets me so mad seeing God's funk

1315
01:03:43,840 --> 01:03:46,240
Speaker 1: with these girls. It gets I'm not even alive. He's like,

1316
01:03:46,920 --> 01:03:50,280
Speaker 1: I'm and you're doing the right thing, and you're doing

1317
01:03:50,480 --> 01:03:53,040
Speaker 1: you know, you're on a good stretch of you know,

1318
01:03:53,240 --> 01:03:56,080
Speaker 1: not being a whore. What happens is no, seriously, what

1319
01:03:56,200 --> 01:04:00,200
Speaker 1: happens is the public eye is so dangerous because women

1320
01:04:00,240 --> 01:04:04,600
Speaker 1: will taunt your girl and just say things that aren't

1321
01:04:04,640 --> 01:04:07,280
Speaker 1: even you know. He's like, yo, you know he fun

1322
01:04:07,400 --> 01:04:09,240
Speaker 1: with my friend, he'd be buying my friend or type

1323
01:04:09,240 --> 01:04:11,439
Speaker 1: of ship. Who's your friend? And let's see the friend,

1324
01:04:11,600 --> 01:04:13,600
Speaker 1: Like if this this, if it makes you this upset

1325
01:04:13,680 --> 01:04:15,600
Speaker 1: and you want to make her this man, show me

1326
01:04:15,680 --> 01:04:18,640
Speaker 1: to receive let's see the evidence, and then we gotta

1327
01:04:18,840 --> 01:04:21,760
Speaker 1: It's like it causes problems in your space and your

1328
01:04:21,880 --> 01:04:24,280
Speaker 1: energy is altered because of these fucking bitches who've got

1329
01:04:24,360 --> 01:04:28,720
Speaker 1: nothing else to do. But then and then you gotta

1330
01:04:28,720 --> 01:04:30,760
Speaker 1: look at yourself and say and be honest enough. One

1331
01:04:30,800 --> 01:04:33,200
Speaker 1: thing about me is I'm very honest to a fault.

1332
01:04:33,400 --> 01:04:36,520
Speaker 1: So what I say is if I gotta blame myself,

1333
01:04:36,520 --> 01:04:38,040
Speaker 1: because it's like, bro, if you didn't do the fun

1334
01:04:38,160 --> 01:04:42,120
Speaker 1: ship before you now you're in a situation where everything

1335
01:04:42,160 --> 01:04:45,240
Speaker 1: you guilty. And I always tell people I'm going to

1336
01:04:45,360 --> 01:04:47,080
Speaker 1: jail for every charge I did, But I'm not going

1337
01:04:47,160 --> 01:04:48,920
Speaker 1: to jail for somebody else charge. I can't do it.

1338
01:04:49,240 --> 01:04:50,920
Speaker 1: So I'm not gonna sit here and play with you

1339
01:04:51,000 --> 01:04:52,960
Speaker 1: about fight with you about some ship I didn't do

1340
01:04:53,280 --> 01:04:55,760
Speaker 1: if I did it, Listen, it is what it is.

1341
01:04:55,960 --> 01:04:57,160
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, I'm not about

1342
01:04:57,160 --> 01:04:59,400
Speaker 1: to be fighting and wrestling about some ship that has

1343
01:04:59,480 --> 01:05:01,040
Speaker 1: nothing to do with me. And we got to learn

1344
01:05:01,120 --> 01:05:05,440
Speaker 1: how to look past the jealousy and the hatred that right,

1345
01:05:05,520 --> 01:05:07,520
Speaker 1: And like you said, when you're when you're dating on

1346
01:05:07,680 --> 01:05:10,640
Speaker 1: certain types of people, certain a lot of people are

1347
01:05:10,640 --> 01:05:12,720
Speaker 1: gonna come to you with stories once they find out,

1348
01:05:13,200 --> 01:05:15,400
Speaker 1: and it's like, do you you want to listen to

1349
01:05:15,480 --> 01:05:17,800
Speaker 1: them or you want to be happy? Like just I

1350
01:05:17,880 --> 01:05:21,000
Speaker 1: feel like you should let your relationship flow and stead

1351
01:05:21,200 --> 01:05:24,280
Speaker 1: like having a lot of outsider a lot of outside

1352
01:05:24,320 --> 01:05:27,640
Speaker 1: static you're never gonna have happening. When Tony Breckon said

1353
01:05:27,640 --> 01:05:30,360
Speaker 1: that ship, like if you ain't going leave, then shut

1354
01:05:30,400 --> 01:05:31,840
Speaker 1: the funk up, you know what I mean? And I

1355
01:05:31,920 --> 01:05:35,000
Speaker 1: think that's the error that we used to have because

1356
01:05:35,320 --> 01:05:38,240
Speaker 1: my grandmother, like I think my grandfather had like, you know,

1357
01:05:38,440 --> 01:05:41,280
Speaker 1: two or three kids it and nobody really understood. I

1358
01:05:41,320 --> 01:05:44,439
Speaker 1: remember acting like, hold on, man, how is uncle okay

1359
01:05:44,480 --> 01:05:46,480
Speaker 1: with what's going because it was back then it was

1360
01:05:46,560 --> 01:05:50,400
Speaker 1: like listen, that's my nigga, right funked up, But that's

1361
01:05:50,440 --> 01:05:52,760
Speaker 1: my nigga, you know, And we're about to be out

1362
01:05:52,800 --> 01:05:54,880
Speaker 1: here putting our business out here. But the best believe

1363
01:05:55,000 --> 01:05:57,320
Speaker 1: we got in this back room, I told this nigga,

1364
01:05:57,320 --> 01:05:59,360
Speaker 1: he ain't ship, you know what I mean. So I

1365
01:05:59,480 --> 01:06:01,880
Speaker 1: just think that it should be a certain level of

1366
01:06:02,000 --> 01:06:04,960
Speaker 1: exclusivity when it comes to relationships, and it's not that anymore.

1367
01:06:05,120 --> 01:06:06,880
Speaker 1: What I believe from the jump was that to keep

1368
01:06:06,920 --> 01:06:09,400
Speaker 1: it private. But then what happens is when you keep

1369
01:06:09,440 --> 01:06:13,200
Speaker 1: your relationship private. Now you got her people telling her white,

1370
01:06:14,840 --> 01:06:16,520
Speaker 1: and then when you told him, and then when you

1371
01:06:16,600 --> 01:06:18,160
Speaker 1: tell them from it, when you tell him from the beginning,

1372
01:06:18,200 --> 01:06:19,600
Speaker 1: like look, I just don't want to know none of

1373
01:06:19,640 --> 01:06:21,400
Speaker 1: the issues that come along with it. Then you do

1374
01:06:21,520 --> 01:06:24,360
Speaker 1: it and post it, and now all the issues that

1375
01:06:24,440 --> 01:06:27,560
Speaker 1: are said was gonna happen happens, and now everybody looking

1376
01:06:27,600 --> 01:06:29,320
Speaker 1: at like why he out here? Makes you look crazy?

1377
01:06:29,560 --> 01:06:31,760
Speaker 1: Which no mighty knew who she was before you started

1378
01:06:31,880 --> 01:06:35,880
Speaker 1: button in. So now it's just what can you do?

1379
01:06:36,760 --> 01:06:38,800
Speaker 1: You know, it's out the way because you don't even

1380
01:06:38,800 --> 01:06:40,960
Speaker 1: have to do no wrong. I'm telling you as it's

1381
01:06:41,040 --> 01:06:44,720
Speaker 1: like real, you know, life experience. I'm not gonna lie.

1382
01:06:44,800 --> 01:06:46,760
Speaker 1: I feel like in order for a relationship to work,

1383
01:06:46,840 --> 01:06:48,720
Speaker 1: it has to be private for a long time, until

1384
01:06:48,720 --> 01:06:51,480
Speaker 1: you're very solid and secure, because if you put things

1385
01:06:51,520 --> 01:06:54,040
Speaker 1: out there too early, people do not want to see

1386
01:06:54,080 --> 01:06:56,560
Speaker 1: you happy. Some people do, but then other people would

1387
01:06:56,560 --> 01:06:59,080
Speaker 1: be like, oh wow. He's what I've realized too is

1388
01:06:59,120 --> 01:07:01,760
Speaker 1: people don't even know that Hayden right, Like I used

1389
01:07:01,800 --> 01:07:04,480
Speaker 1: to think, like how you just this that evil? But

1390
01:07:04,560 --> 01:07:07,600
Speaker 1: in their mind they're thinking they justified, like she need

1391
01:07:07,680 --> 01:07:09,640
Speaker 1: to know, she need to know how to any ship? Why?

1392
01:07:10,960 --> 01:07:20,440
Speaker 1: Why but a stranger? That's ridiculous. This was a very insightful. Actually,

1393
01:07:20,440 --> 01:07:21,920
Speaker 1: we had a great time with you because I do

1394
01:07:22,120 --> 01:07:25,640
Speaker 1: always like rica lest honesty and his theories on relationship.

1395
01:07:25,640 --> 01:07:28,240
Speaker 1: So can we bring this to Miami for a special

1396
01:07:28,360 --> 01:07:31,439
Speaker 1: lip service in Miami segment. I think that this would

1397
01:07:31,480 --> 01:07:33,760
Speaker 1: be fun. Did the service and had a great time.

1398
01:07:33,840 --> 01:07:35,320
Speaker 1: She was like, next time I do this, can we

1399
01:07:35,400 --> 01:07:37,320
Speaker 1: cancel everything for the rest of the day. I didn't

1400
01:07:37,320 --> 01:07:40,280
Speaker 1: want to leave. Yeah, let's let's do a special South

1401
01:07:40,360 --> 01:07:42,880
Speaker 1: Beach one. I'm down, Let's do it. Let's do it

1402
01:07:42,960 --> 01:07:47,800
Speaker 1: at this time. I'm gonna get the big big flies

1403
01:07:48,160 --> 01:07:50,840
Speaker 1: penthouse at this time for us. Right, we're gonna film

1404
01:07:50,880 --> 01:07:53,680
Speaker 1: and the camera crews for your guys. My guys is

1405
01:07:53,680 --> 01:07:55,920
Speaker 1: gonna be ten cameras is gonna be looking like you

1406
01:07:56,000 --> 01:07:59,320
Speaker 1: know what I mean that. We have to do it,

1407
01:07:59,640 --> 01:08:02,040
Speaker 1: and I making house. Make this happen soon, you never

1408
01:08:03,440 --> 01:08:05,240
Speaker 1: for television. Let's do it this summer. Yeah, maybe we

1409
01:08:05,240 --> 01:08:07,640
Speaker 1: should do a special. Yeah, let's do it. And I

1410
01:08:07,720 --> 01:08:10,080
Speaker 1: actually have some sit I see y'all doing this ship

1411
01:08:10,200 --> 01:08:14,439
Speaker 1: with Draking somebody. I'm gonna have all replace. They're gonna

1412
01:08:14,480 --> 01:08:17,800
Speaker 1: be down and be texting and she's gonna be curving. Yeah,

1413
01:08:17,880 --> 01:08:20,920
Speaker 1: we just Sundy Beach. We're gonna do that. We're gonna

1414
01:08:20,960 --> 01:08:24,200
Speaker 1: do three days of lip service, okay, and we're gonna

1415
01:08:25,240 --> 01:08:27,400
Speaker 1: in Miami now that we're gonna do with you all

1416
01:08:27,560 --> 01:08:29,560
Speaker 1: three Yeah, alright, cool, let's do it. We do a

1417
01:08:29,560 --> 01:08:33,320
Speaker 1: specially in Miami version. Yes, this is all brought to

1418
01:08:33,320 --> 01:08:35,600
Speaker 1: you by Rico Love. Yes, it was gonna be so

1419
01:08:35,840 --> 01:08:40,080
Speaker 1: sexy and Flynn think and then maybe if you have

1420
01:08:40,280 --> 01:08:44,320
Speaker 1: some new music that you would to perhaps some of

1421
01:08:44,479 --> 01:08:48,240
Speaker 1: the episodes and we can do it like that some

1422
01:08:49,120 --> 01:08:53,040
Speaker 1: parents and they could be on lip service and see,

1423
01:08:53,080 --> 01:08:54,800
Speaker 1: I have a marketing mind. So by the way, I

1424
01:08:54,920 --> 01:08:57,560
Speaker 1: just came up with ten ideas exactly, I love you

1425
01:08:57,640 --> 01:09:00,479
Speaker 1: and no. But it was really refreshing having a guess

1426
01:09:00,600 --> 01:09:03,760
Speaker 1: with so much faith. It's it's like, that's so good

1427
01:09:03,800 --> 01:09:06,400
Speaker 1: for me. Right, guys, I'm already talking about God, even

1428
01:09:06,439 --> 01:09:12,600
Speaker 1: though I know everybody thinks I'm evil and that I

1429
01:09:12,680 --> 01:09:14,639
Speaker 1: want to say I want to say something, Oh please,

1430
01:09:14,640 --> 01:09:16,040
Speaker 1: because I don't want you to. I don't want you

1431
01:09:16,120 --> 01:09:18,640
Speaker 1: to ever say that even though you know what I mean.

1432
01:09:19,200 --> 01:09:22,680
Speaker 1: God is with us from jump. We're imperfect, were imperfect,

1433
01:09:22,760 --> 01:09:25,479
Speaker 1: So it's no way that we could ever be in

1434
01:09:25,680 --> 01:09:27,920
Speaker 1: His good graces if it was up to what we

1435
01:09:28,040 --> 01:09:30,519
Speaker 1: did and how we thought and how we behaved ourselves.

1436
01:09:30,720 --> 01:09:32,240
Speaker 1: So at the end of the day. That's why it's

1437
01:09:32,240 --> 01:09:35,840
Speaker 1: important not to judge anybody, because the blessings I have

1438
01:09:35,960 --> 01:09:38,200
Speaker 1: are not because the good I've done. That's why I

1439
01:09:38,320 --> 01:09:40,160
Speaker 1: know that anything that ever happened bad to me wasn't

1440
01:09:40,160 --> 01:09:41,920
Speaker 1: because the bad I've done. I've never was good enough

1441
01:09:42,000 --> 01:09:44,559
Speaker 1: to earn his love for me, right, so how could

1442
01:09:44,560 --> 01:09:46,439
Speaker 1: I have to be bad enough to lose it? You

1443
01:09:46,479 --> 01:09:48,360
Speaker 1: get what I'm saying. So I want us to always

1444
01:09:48,479 --> 01:09:51,160
Speaker 1: know and no matter what, stop judging people when they

1445
01:09:51,240 --> 01:09:53,920
Speaker 1: say I'm praying on this what you just was doing this? Yes,

1446
01:09:54,000 --> 01:09:57,000
Speaker 1: you're right, that was And guess what, God still love me?

1447
01:09:57,040 --> 01:10:01,080
Speaker 1: Why are you worry? That's Remember, there's no even, there's

1448
01:10:01,120 --> 01:10:03,080
Speaker 1: no even though it's no in spite of it's just

1449
01:10:03,360 --> 01:10:05,400
Speaker 1: the fact that God loves me and that's it and

1450
01:10:05,479 --> 01:10:09,599
Speaker 1: I love him and that's it and love ladies and gentlemen,

1451
01:10:09,880 --> 01:10:12,439
Speaker 1: and uh, let's not let's make sure that we just

1452
01:10:12,479 --> 01:10:14,960
Speaker 1: got a advason because you do have you know your

1453
01:10:15,400 --> 01:10:17,760
Speaker 1: music that you do all the time, and it's UM

1454
01:10:17,920 --> 01:10:22,040
Speaker 1: July July we Love Music conference. UM is gonna be

1455
01:10:22,080 --> 01:10:25,000
Speaker 1: an Indianapolis, Indiana. Uh. The reason why I put in

1456
01:10:25,040 --> 01:10:27,560
Speaker 1: the Midwest is because I feel like they don't have opportunity.

1457
01:10:27,840 --> 01:10:29,880
Speaker 1: They don't have access to a lot of the information

1458
01:10:29,960 --> 01:10:33,799
Speaker 1: and celebrity and advice that people have in other cities.

1459
01:10:34,080 --> 01:10:35,720
Speaker 1: So I wanted to bring it closer to them and

1460
01:10:35,760 --> 01:10:38,000
Speaker 1: give them my opportunity. I only charged one seventy five

1461
01:10:38,080 --> 01:10:41,200
Speaker 1: for two day events. I did a hotel rate for

1462
01:10:41,280 --> 01:10:43,160
Speaker 1: one thirty for a night with the J W. Murray.

1463
01:10:43,240 --> 01:10:45,519
Speaker 1: I want to make it accessible with people, and I

1464
01:10:45,600 --> 01:10:47,840
Speaker 1: wanted people to come. You should come, You guys should come.

1465
01:10:48,040 --> 01:10:51,160
Speaker 1: Maybe we should do a special service at the conference.

1466
01:10:51,200 --> 01:10:52,680
Speaker 1: So I think it's really cool to be able to

1467
01:10:52,840 --> 01:10:56,439
Speaker 1: educate people on how to create an incredible record, how

1468
01:10:56,520 --> 01:10:58,400
Speaker 1: to produce a great body of work. I got bet

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Speaker 1: Cox and um Danger producing the track live from scratch

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Speaker 1: in front of the entire UM convention. We got treated there.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna be talking about her project, how she was

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Speaker 1: able to maintain her career after all these years being

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Speaker 1: a woman. There's a lot of women who follow me

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Speaker 1: and I have a lot of female fans, and what

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Speaker 1: I taught them last year was proper studio etiquette. How

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01:11:16,760 --> 01:11:19,320
Speaker 1: to know somebody mean business, how to know when somebody's

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01:11:19,360 --> 01:11:21,080
Speaker 1: being a professional, when they're trying to fuck you. I

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Speaker 1: want to make sure I let all my guys know

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Speaker 1: who was at the conference. Listen, these are your sisters.

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Speaker 1: I don't want us to trying to match make here.

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Speaker 1: I want if you want to work with somebody, let's

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01:11:28,920 --> 01:11:31,040
Speaker 1: be serious. I want to stress that I got Tammy

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Speaker 1: Rivera coming. We're gonna talk about her transition from reality

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01:11:33,800 --> 01:11:37,559
Speaker 1: star to artists. I got um Ludicrous coming. He's gonna

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01:11:37,560 --> 01:11:40,280
Speaker 1: speak about picking records and understand how to break down records.

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Speaker 1: I'm doing a lecture that breaks down Abbey Row, which

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Speaker 1: is one of my favorite Beatles albums, and understanding what

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01:11:45,520 --> 01:11:47,920
Speaker 1: makes something great. My father is a chef, and when

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Speaker 1: he cooks, when he eats a meal, he's able to

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Speaker 1: dissect and say it's a regular, it's nutmegs, this, all

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01:11:52,920 --> 01:11:56,080
Speaker 1: these things in the meal because he's he's perfected the

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Speaker 1: craft of understanding what makes a meal great. I want

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01:11:58,720 --> 01:12:01,080
Speaker 1: to show people how to do that. Music listen to

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01:12:01,160 --> 01:12:02,800
Speaker 1: it and not just listen to it and love it

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01:12:03,280 --> 01:12:05,920
Speaker 1: your signing. Your job whenever you're around me is to

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01:12:06,040 --> 01:12:08,920
Speaker 1: not just like something. It's to understand why you like

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01:12:09,040 --> 01:12:10,519
Speaker 1: it and what makes it great, not so that you

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01:12:10,600 --> 01:12:12,880
Speaker 1: can mimic it, but so that when you create something,

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Speaker 1: you know that feeling. So when I when I first

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Speaker 1: heard you Got It Bad a Boy Usher, I remember

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01:12:17,439 --> 01:12:19,599
Speaker 1: how it felt and I felt that same way when

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01:12:19,600 --> 01:12:22,360
Speaker 1: I wrote that Goes my Baby Pusha because I understood,

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01:12:22,439 --> 01:12:25,000
Speaker 1: like this makes me feel this way. So when I

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01:12:25,040 --> 01:12:27,840
Speaker 1: wrote it, that song identified with that feeling, so I

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01:12:27,920 --> 01:12:29,960
Speaker 1: knew I had something special. I want to teach people

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Speaker 1: how to do that. And that's great because you know,

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Speaker 1: there's certain songs that you hear it, and when you

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01:12:33,400 --> 01:12:36,160
Speaker 1: hear it, you get love songs. And I mean, you know,

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01:12:36,240 --> 01:12:38,000
Speaker 1: there's fun pop songs that you dance to it that

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01:12:38,040 --> 01:12:40,360
Speaker 1: anybody could that's a great song no matter who sings it.

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01:12:40,600 --> 01:12:42,320
Speaker 1: But then there's songs that you hear and you have

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01:12:42,479 --> 01:12:45,519
Speaker 1: like a real special guction. You get emotional. I remember

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01:12:45,600 --> 01:12:47,599
Speaker 1: when that song when I'm going through this, Yeah, when

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Speaker 1: I first heard We Found Love by Rihanna, I stopped

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Speaker 1: my car. I'm not I'm not exaggerating, but it was

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Speaker 1: like it felt like a music video because it was raining,

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01:12:56,280 --> 01:12:57,640
Speaker 1: and I stopped the car and I was just like,

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Speaker 1: what the fund did she just say when she said

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01:12:59,640 --> 01:13:02,400
Speaker 1: we found of Love in a hopeless place? I was done,

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01:13:02,880 --> 01:13:06,519
Speaker 1: and I was like, the way you describe your emotions.

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Speaker 1: To have that gift and have the ability to describe

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Speaker 1: how people are feeling, we cannot take that for granted.

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Speaker 1: We cannot. We cannot take it likely lightly. We have

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01:13:14,560 --> 01:13:16,200
Speaker 1: to take it serious and we have to make sure

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Speaker 1: that it's our duty, is an obligation to be great

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Speaker 1: every time we do anything. And I want people to

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Speaker 1: know me for my greatness as opposed to you know

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01:13:23,120 --> 01:13:24,840
Speaker 1: how much when people ask you about how much money

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Speaker 1: you make and all that, I think it's corny like,

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01:13:26,240 --> 01:13:28,439
Speaker 1: because guess what, you don't matter if I got a billion,

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Speaker 1: if I got nothing. I have a gift. And that's

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Speaker 1: the thing that makes room for you. That's the thing

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Speaker 1: that puts you in the presence of kings and queens

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Speaker 1: and greatness is your gift and the ability that you

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Speaker 1: have that's intangible. If you focus on the intangibles. I

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Speaker 1: promise you everything in this world that you could physically

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Speaker 1: touch you can have if you perfect the intangibles. So

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Speaker 1: that's what the conference is about to come. You know, ge,

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Speaker 1: I'm always talking. I was just watching a movie about

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01:13:53,120 --> 01:13:58,280
Speaker 1: waking up and super consciousness. This is good for my brain. Awakening. Yes,

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Speaker 1: I need it. Thank you so much, because I was

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Speaker 1: really glad that you came. I was looking forward to

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01:14:03,360 --> 01:14:05,479
Speaker 1: because i've been when I have you up here, and

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01:14:05,520 --> 01:14:07,360
Speaker 1: I know we tried to make it happen a few times.

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Speaker 1: Scheduling Wise said I know you'll be back again, absolutely,

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Speaker 1: and we're doing in Miami and Miami down. All right,

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Speaker 1: we call up lip Service