WEBVTT - “I CAN’T STOP CHEATING”

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, man, that's your name going on.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, let's go. Let's go Papa John, because that's where

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<v Speaker 2>I'm at right now. Let's go, Papa John.

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<v Speaker 1>Papa John. What's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 2>H nothing much, man, I'm just at work right now,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, not getting any tips. I don't know what's

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<v Speaker 2>going on with people tonight. But yeah, man, So.

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<v Speaker 1>What'd you want to talk about today, Papa John?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I just want to talk about So. I have

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<v Speaker 2>a girlfriend of about four years now, and oh my fuck,

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<v Speaker 2>it's gonna sound so bad saying this, but I just

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<v Speaker 2>can't stop but.

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<v Speaker 3>Like cheating.

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<v Speaker 2>I can't stop cheating.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, it says here you said I can't stop

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<v Speaker 1>cheating on my girlfriend and I think it's my dad's

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<v Speaker 1>fault because he fucks hookers.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, that's what I mean. Listen to your a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of your podcasts. I like asked myself the same

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<v Speaker 2>questions you asked your listening, and I think I've blowed it,

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<v Speaker 2>blowed it down to that, I think.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So, but here's the thing. How can how can?

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you? Why do you say that you cheating

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<v Speaker 1>on your girlfriend is your dad's fault?

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<v Speaker 2>Hmmm? Well okay, So so my dad fucks hookers and

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<v Speaker 2>he's he's still with my mom. They're like together, right,

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<v Speaker 2>we all live together.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>And it's kind of weird. Me and him never really had.

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<v Speaker 4>A relationship, so I guess to relate with me, he

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<v Speaker 4>talked about having sex with with girls younger than him,

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<v Speaker 4>like my age, like as a former bond and but

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<v Speaker 4>I'm like bro like it with my mom.

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<v Speaker 5>Dude.

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<v Speaker 2>But anyway, Yeah, so I think he growing up. He

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<v Speaker 2>just always talked so much shit about being in a

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<v Speaker 2>relationship and like, I don't know, like having a a

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<v Speaker 2>female compent that can you have obligations towards you know

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<v Speaker 2>what I mean?

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you, Papa John? I am twenty, you're twenty,

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<v Speaker 1>You're twenty? Okay, Well, Papa John. Here's the thing. I've

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<v Speaker 1>been thinking about this a lot, because you know, I've

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<v Speaker 1>been thinking about my parents, and I've been thinking about,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, things in my life that I don't like

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<v Speaker 1>about myself and how or or or you know, like

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<v Speaker 1>why am I the way I am? And I look

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<v Speaker 1>at my parents and I think about their their lives

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<v Speaker 1>and their situations and and and it is it is informative, right,

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<v Speaker 1>and looking your parents is a good way to inform

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<v Speaker 1>you of how you guys be where you are. But

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<v Speaker 1>here's the kicker, and here's the thing, And it actually

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<v Speaker 1>can be helpful because, like, here's the thing. You saying,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm cheating on my girlfriend and it's my dad's fault.

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<v Speaker 1>Is this way of like alleviating responsibility for your actions

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<v Speaker 1>and putting it on your dad. Now here's the thing

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<v Speaker 1>and here's the thing. Though, here's the thing. It actually

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<v Speaker 1>is like helpful to use your parents and think about

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<v Speaker 1>your relationships with your parents, to think about your upbringing,

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<v Speaker 1>to understand why you are the way you are, and

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<v Speaker 1>go and go into your head and be like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>it's not my fault necessarily that my brain has been

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<v Speaker 1>programmed to be more inclined to act certain ways or

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<v Speaker 1>like do certain things, but it is your responsibility to

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<v Speaker 1>fix it. Do you know what I'm saying? So so

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<v Speaker 1>the way the fact that your brain, yeah, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, there's you know you might be you're it

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<v Speaker 1>sounds like you're a sex addict. I don't when I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not going to put that on you, but but uh

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<v Speaker 1>is that accurate?

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<v Speaker 2>I guess I like, A ah, yeah, I guess it yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>A so, so listen, listen, here's the thing. Your compulsions

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<v Speaker 1>and the ways that you view real relationships and whatnot,

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<v Speaker 1>they're totally yes, of course their informs is pretty significantly

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<v Speaker 1>by your parents, but that but it's still your responsibility

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<v Speaker 1>to you know, do your to to to handle it right,

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<v Speaker 1>to do well by your girlfriend by not cheating on her,

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<v Speaker 1>to just realize that you can't really be in a

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<v Speaker 1>healthy relationship with somebody until you focus on fixing these

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<v Speaker 1>things that are wrong with you. Okay, you can't, you can't,

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<v Speaker 1>so you can, so you can, you can, it's helpful.

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<v Speaker 1>So you can think about, oh, my dad with fuck

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<v Speaker 1>hookers and talk to me about about it and cheated

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<v Speaker 1>on my mom and that's set a really bad example

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<v Speaker 1>for me, and you can go okay, and you can

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<v Speaker 1>use that as part of why, as part of your

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<v Speaker 1>understanding and fixing the way that you are. But you

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<v Speaker 1>can't use it as an excuse. You can't use it

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<v Speaker 1>as a deflection. Like you know, at the end of

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<v Speaker 1>the day, like you know, uh, we we we we

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<v Speaker 1>live our lives. We have our things about ourselves that

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<v Speaker 1>we need to fix and deal with. And you do

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<v Speaker 1>the first step in doing it is is to take

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<v Speaker 1>a responsibility and go, yeah, I have like fucked up

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<v Speaker 1>sexual compulsions that I need to, uh you know, deal with,

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<v Speaker 1>and in the meantime, I don't want to. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>want to hurt this other person that I care about,

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm going to not be in a relationship with them.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not going to cause more pain because yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>guess that's what.

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<v Speaker 6>I guess.

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<v Speaker 2>That's what Like I really wanted to ask you, was

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<v Speaker 2>so she she's aware of like i'd say, probably like

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<v Speaker 2>six times, six different instances. So I guess my question is, like,

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<v Speaker 2>is this just too because I don't know, this is

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<v Speaker 2>gonna sound weird to people listening, but I think I

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<v Speaker 2>do love her like I do love her, I think

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<v Speaker 2>I do. Well, I do, I guess I do. But

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<v Speaker 2>so ideally, in like a perfect world, I would be

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<v Speaker 2>with her and not fuck prostitutes her girls like my dad,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. So so I guess my question is should

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<v Speaker 2>I is this just Should I just like just kind

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<v Speaker 2>of tell her about what I'm dealing with and just

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<v Speaker 2>end it because I feel like the fact that I

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<v Speaker 2>know she she knows about so much and she's still here.

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like it kind of you know, like I

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<v Speaker 2>I know, I'm a shitty person saying this, and I

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<v Speaker 2>talk to my friends about all the time. And actually

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<v Speaker 2>we're technically on like a break right now, like.

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<v Speaker 7>A week break or so, so and this I don't

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<v Speaker 7>I don't.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel bad saying this because I I I say

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<v Speaker 1>all the time, I don't like to tell people what

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<v Speaker 1>to do. And then you you could probably you could

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<v Speaker 1>probably find me saying that and then put a clip

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<v Speaker 1>compilation of a about uh uh a hundred times that

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<v Speaker 1>I've told people what to do. But but look, here's

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<v Speaker 1>my here's my opinion is your It sounds to me

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<v Speaker 1>from what you are telling me, that you are not ready,

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<v Speaker 1>you are not ready commit to somebody. And and if

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<v Speaker 1>you really do, truly, truly, if you really do love

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<v Speaker 1>this girl, then you don't want to hurt her and

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<v Speaker 1>you don't want to put her in a fucked up

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<v Speaker 1>you know, so you don't you don't want to put

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<v Speaker 1>her through emotional pain. And so I mean, take take

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<v Speaker 1>what that information I would. I'm not going to tell

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<v Speaker 1>you what to do, but I'm going to use those things.

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<v Speaker 1>I just I'm going to say that you should use

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<v Speaker 1>those things. That I just said to inform your decision.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I guess, I guess I know what I need

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<v Speaker 2>to do for a while.

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<v Speaker 7>I just yeah, yeah, because and this this girl, I mean,

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<v Speaker 7>she sounds sweet as hell, that she uh hasn't kicked

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<v Speaker 7>your fucking ass yet after after knowing about all this.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, no, it's definitely I mean, well, I mean it's

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<v Speaker 2>gone there, but you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, hold is.

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<v Speaker 2>She nineteen gonna turn twenty?

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<v Speaker 1>All right? Because yeah, I mean she doesn't deserve like

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<v Speaker 1>all this, all this bullshit, And like that's another that's

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<v Speaker 1>sort of another part. And I know it's hard, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's sort of another part of the taking responsibility thing

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<v Speaker 1>is to be like, I gotta fix, I gotta fix.

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta prioritize fixing what's fucked up about me, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>And and also you need to reframe it because to say,

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<v Speaker 1>to say it's your dad's fault is not is a

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<v Speaker 1>bad framing. You understand that, right, I do understand.

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<v Speaker 2>So should I try to like abstain then or abstain

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<v Speaker 2>from from sex?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, you're asking me, how do you're asking me how

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<v Speaker 1>to solve this issue?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 8>No, I'm asking you should I because should you should

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<v Speaker 8>should you stop cheating on your girlfriend?

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<v Speaker 6>Yes?

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<v Speaker 8>Yes, but after okay, so after that's dealt with and

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<v Speaker 8>uh with how I think most people would see fit?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, okay, what then after that?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>What then? What then? Uh? Well, if I were you,

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<v Speaker 1>I would go to therapy.

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<v Speaker 9>Mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 1>That's probably a good idea. Go see a real therapist

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<v Speaker 1>and you see you understand why you have Okay, so

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<v Speaker 1>that's the thing, right is you your dad was fucked up,

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<v Speaker 1>and you want to understand why you have these weird,

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<v Speaker 1>uh fucked up compulsions and bad views on sex relationships,

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<v Speaker 1>and then how you unlearned them. That's a good that's

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<v Speaker 1>a good question. I don't know. I bet a therapist

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<v Speaker 1>could help you do that better than I could, But

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<v Speaker 1>I will say I think that it's better. It's a

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<v Speaker 1>good idea for you to to uh not be in

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<v Speaker 1>a relationship until you figure these issues out.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I agree too, I agree.

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<v Speaker 1>Geck, Papa John, Well, I'm gonna let you go go

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<v Speaker 1>go get back to work.

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<v Speaker 2>Yep, yep, you know it's actually perfect timing. It's that

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<v Speaker 2>eleven minutes right now, so I think will be good.

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<v Speaker 1>Cool? Any what anything else do you want to you

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<v Speaker 1>wanna you sound like you have a band? You want

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<v Speaker 1>to plug? You want to plug a band.

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<v Speaker 2>Listen and listening to a lot of Title Fight recently.

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<v Speaker 1>So okay, I don't know what that is, so I'm

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<v Speaker 1>probably not going to check it out. But I'm glad

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<v Speaker 1>that you. I'm glad you got to oh plug. Thanks,

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<v Speaker 1>take care man, you too, love be good? Hi there?

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name? John Well? John Good? Good to hear

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<v Speaker 1>from you. What's up? How's life? How can I get

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<v Speaker 1>you to live?

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<v Speaker 5>So?

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<v Speaker 6>Pretty much? My life has been crazy for the past year.

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<v Speaker 6>Long story short. I paid my rent this month and

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<v Speaker 6>all my other bills are unpaid and I door dash now.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm a veteran. I was in the Army for three

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<v Speaker 6>years and yeah, and my car has major problems. My

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<v Speaker 6>tags expired since November, my car insurance not existent anymore,

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<v Speaker 6>and I have a broken engine mount for like three

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<v Speaker 6>months now. So I was like, I'm in a bad position.

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<v Speaker 6>I have a little two year old and stand for

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<v Speaker 6>that little man, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Mhm, Yeah, that sucks.

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<v Speaker 6>It does suck.

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<v Speaker 1>I sorry to hit you with Sorry to hit you

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<v Speaker 1>with the damn that sucks. No, I mean se it's

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<v Speaker 1>real well, well, okay, let me let me say this

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<v Speaker 1>to you at the very just at the beginning, just

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<v Speaker 1>so that I don't waste any of your time. Is

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<v Speaker 1>there a particular way that you would like me to

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<v Speaker 1>assist you, Like, is there anything? Is there a particular

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<v Speaker 1>aspect of anything that you want to talk through, or

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<v Speaker 1>that you want the perspective of of of of a

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<v Speaker 1>lizard who doesn't know you, or or anything like that,

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<v Speaker 1>like how can I best be of of gecko service

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<v Speaker 1>to you on this phone call?

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<v Speaker 6>Honestly, I just I really wanted to vent and I've

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<v Speaker 6>been watching you live stream for like a very long time,

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<v Speaker 6>and you're just positive and I appreciate you listening to me.

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<v Speaker 6>You know, I don't expect anything out of anybody. I

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<v Speaker 6>just honestly just wanted to get it out, okay, and

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<v Speaker 6>thank you?

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<v Speaker 1>What what what branch of the army or or I

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<v Speaker 1>guess is the army is a branch? Right?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah? I was a military police officer.

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<v Speaker 1>And did they do you get any money from that?

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<v Speaker 2>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>Do they give you money for being a veteran?

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<v Speaker 5>Uh?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, so I got out for with PTSD, so I

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<v Speaker 6>get fifteen hundred a month. But I that's not enough

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<v Speaker 6>to pay my whole rent. I was in Florida, so

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<v Speaker 6>it's expensive.

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<v Speaker 1>Before I was gonna say nice, before you said the

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<v Speaker 1>PTSD part.

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<v Speaker 6>Oh, I actually survived the school shooting in Yeah. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>crazy stuff. Man, she got real.

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<v Speaker 1>Was it one of the ones that was on the news.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, seventeen people February fourteenth, twenty eighteen.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, you were at Douglas. Oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>what were you? Were you and you were in high

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<v Speaker 1>school then?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 6>I was a senior.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my goodness. I thought the PTSD is the PTC

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<v Speaker 1>from that ors or from the army both.

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<v Speaker 6>I had PTSD from that first and I when I

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<v Speaker 6>was in service, from basic training all all the way

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<v Speaker 6>throughout every unit that I was in, I got harassed

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<v Speaker 6>by my upper class and like my sergeants, my NCOs

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<v Speaker 6>and like they were pretty much like we would be

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<v Speaker 6>at a shooting range practicing, right, that's what I had

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<v Speaker 6>to do for my MOS Military Police, and my sergeant

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<v Speaker 6>would be like, oh watch out for that private. He

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<v Speaker 6>looks like he's not going to aim at the target.

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<v Speaker 6>Like I was harassed throughout my time and service and

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<v Speaker 6>made my PTSD worse. I guess, but I'm doing.

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<v Speaker 1>Someone someone take this girl to Disney World.

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<v Speaker 6>Please, someone take me to Disney.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I'm sorry to hear all that. When did you

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<v Speaker 1>have your you get two years ago?

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<v Speaker 6>What happened?

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<v Speaker 1>You had your kid two years ago?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah? My son was born August sixth.

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<v Speaker 1>And is dad still around?

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<v Speaker 6>Uh No, he's not. He lives with his parents. And

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<v Speaker 6>when we separated, I was going through really like I

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<v Speaker 6>didn't know where I was going to live, and my

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<v Speaker 6>brother let me stay in his really expensive studio apartment

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<v Speaker 6>and then he ended up moving out and I took

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<v Speaker 6>over the lease. So it kind of worked out because

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<v Speaker 6>I didn't have to pay for class and security. But

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<v Speaker 6>like the monthly rent is super super high, but it

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<v Speaker 6>was my only option at the time. But we'll make

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<v Speaker 6>it it work, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So all right, So do you have are you looking

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<v Speaker 1>for a job or do you have a job or.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm looking for a job, but it's it's so hard,

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<v Speaker 6>Like I have a secret clearance, I have a clean

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<v Speaker 6>background check, I'm like a business woman social media marketing.

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<v Speaker 6>Like I'm in college for to get my bachelor's in

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<v Speaker 6>business administration. But it's so hard to get a job nowadays.

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<v Speaker 1>Man, So you're taking care of a kid, You're going

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<v Speaker 1>to school and you're trying to work.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, Anti my brothers and ficks my car.

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<v Speaker 1>It sure is it? Sure is well? I I well,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, honestly, the fact that you haven't thrown your

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<v Speaker 1>hands up in defeat. I commend you for sincerely.

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<v Speaker 6>The only reason I haven't done that is because I

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<v Speaker 6>have my little one. That's He's my reason the tough

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<v Speaker 6>and through the darkest times.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have family? Do you, like, do your family

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<v Speaker 1>in where you live in Florida?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, my mom and my brother A little extra twist

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<v Speaker 6>because why not. I was adopted from birth, so I've

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<v Speaker 6>never met my birth mom at birth day. And I

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<v Speaker 6>have twelve siblings, but I've never met Mmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you uh do you desire to meet any of them?

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<v Speaker 6>I mean I've talked to them, like you know, like

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<v Speaker 6>over the phone, on a messenger or whatever, but like

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<v Speaker 6>I just I don't have time. It's not like a

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<v Speaker 6>priority right now, but yeah, you know sometimes in the future.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, do you have friends? I guess I'm just

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<v Speaker 1>asking that. Do you do you have anybody in your

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<v Speaker 1>life who who uh you know you can get support from.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, I'm actually sitting next to one of my best friends.

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<v Speaker 6>I've I've known her for sixteen years?

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<v Speaker 1>Very nice? What's her deal?

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<v Speaker 6>Herdal?

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<v Speaker 9>Here you go, Hi, Lyle, I'm so excited.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh hey, what's all you sound? You know, you sound

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<v Speaker 1>like a cheerful person. I've You've literally spoke at a

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<v Speaker 1>single word and I'm already getting that vibe.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh.

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<v Speaker 9>Yes, I'm a pastry chef. My name is Vanessa.

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<v Speaker 1>You're a pastry chef named Vanessa. Yeah, imagine I'm imagining

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<v Speaker 1>strawberry shortcake on the other end of the phone.

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<v Speaker 6>Pretty much.

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<v Speaker 9>We've known each other for sixteen years and it's just

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<v Speaker 9>it's been a ride.

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<v Speaker 1>What's what's up with you?

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<v Speaker 7>Are you?

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<v Speaker 1>How's your life going?

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<v Speaker 9>It's going good. I work at a job that's been stable.

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<v Speaker 9>I'd like a hotel. It's like a resort. I make

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<v Speaker 9>croissants and bagels every day. I think I'm going to

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<v Speaker 9>become a bagel because I make way too many.

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<v Speaker 1>You're going to become a bagel?

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 9>My goal in life?

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<v Speaker 5>Your life continue?

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<v Speaker 9>Oh no, my goal in life is own an edible bakery.

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<v Speaker 1>Aren't all bakeries theoretically edible?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 9>But with more like with cannabis.

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<v Speaker 1>Medical hmm, can you get can you get our friend

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<v Speaker 1>Hear a job making the cakes? Yeah, let's do that.

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<v Speaker 1>Why don't you guys make cakes together? That could be

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<v Speaker 1>a cool.

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<v Speaker 9>Succom No, it would be we could be like two

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<v Speaker 9>broke girls, but instead do something.

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<v Speaker 1>How did you and Sky first meet?

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<v Speaker 9>Through elementary school?

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<v Speaker 6>We hated each other.

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<v Speaker 9>It was really funny, but then we ended up being

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<v Speaker 9>like we are, We're like sisters.

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<v Speaker 1>Now. What was it that made you guys realize that

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<v Speaker 1>you don't hate each other and you actually desire to

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<v Speaker 1>be best friends for life.

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<v Speaker 6>I think it was just it was.

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<v Speaker 9>There's just something about like her and me, like we

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<v Speaker 9>used to take on each other for like just dumb

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<v Speaker 9>little things, but then like one day we looked at

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<v Speaker 9>each other in the face, You're like, you're all right.

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<v Speaker 9>It was kind of funny. It was like a moment.

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<v Speaker 1>That's nice. Some of the best friendships begin that way

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<v Speaker 1>of of of you just feeling thinking the other person sucks,

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<v Speaker 1>or or like with guys like they'll they'll they'll beat

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<v Speaker 1>the ship out of each other first and then become

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<v Speaker 1>best friends.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah, that's pretty much.

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<v Speaker 6>That was That was it.

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<v Speaker 9>She would stick up for me in school and it's

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<v Speaker 9>really sweet.

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<v Speaker 1>That's nice. How what do you It sounds like she's

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<v Speaker 1>going through a lot right now and you're you're there

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<v Speaker 1>to help her.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah, it's been good. We've been door dashing. But I

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<v Speaker 9>like to look at like if the glass is like

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<v Speaker 9>half empty or half full, I'm just happy there's water

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<v Speaker 9>in a glass.

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<v Speaker 2>That's my perspective on life.

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<v Speaker 1>I like that. It's true, right, it's true. I'm happy

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<v Speaker 1>there's water in the glass. Anytime some fucking bullshit is

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<v Speaker 1>going on, I'll i'll uh, I'll go on YouTube and

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<v Speaker 1>I'll watch videos of people who have no legs and

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<v Speaker 1>I'll be like, yeah, I have legs. Legs are cool.

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<v Speaker 1>My water, My water is legs.

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<v Speaker 5>Mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 9>Uh, you got her?

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<v Speaker 1>Can I talk to cut to uh to Sky again?

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<v Speaker 6>Hello?

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<v Speaker 1>Hi Sky? Where are you guys right now? Are you

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<v Speaker 1>at your your the studio apartment?

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<v Speaker 9>Uh?

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<v Speaker 6>No, Actually we're parked outside of a Wendy's.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh well, that's nice. That's a great event. And is

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<v Speaker 1>there is there a kid there? Where's the kid?

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<v Speaker 6>Baby daddy has them tonight?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, so you maintain a a a a

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<v Speaker 1>relationship with the baby daddy, but not you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>guys aren't dating or friends.

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<v Speaker 6>No, but everything is good. It's very cordial, thankfully good. Good.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, because that can that can be a nightmare sometimes. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm glad you have your friends that you can go

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<v Speaker 1>to Wendy's with. I mean, that's all. That's all you.

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<v Speaker 1>That's one of the great pleasures of life. I liked

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<v Speaker 1>what she said. I don't care if the glass is

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<v Speaker 1>half full or half empty, as long as there's water

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<v Speaker 1>in it.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, there's water. There's water.

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<v Speaker 9>Good.

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<v Speaker 6>Thank you for hearing me out.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, of course, let me do this. I does the

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<v Speaker 1>chat have any questions any questions from the chat for

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<v Speaker 1>these two? Any questions from the chat to John and John.

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<v Speaker 1>One person wants to know if you guys are stoned.

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<v Speaker 9>No, I am what the cookie has been through?

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<v Speaker 2>If you've never been baked?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you getting any help? Someone wants to know, are

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<v Speaker 1>you getting any help from like a veteran organization or

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<v Speaker 1>anything like that.

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<v Speaker 6>No?

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<v Speaker 1>Is that a thing you can do?

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<v Speaker 6>So I've tried in the past, but it takes like

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<v Speaker 6>very very long and they just never got back to me.

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<v Speaker 6>So there's big Everyone thinks that there's so many resources

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<v Speaker 6>for veterans, and like when you go to like a supermarket.

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<v Speaker 6>It'll be like, oh yeah, don't eat your change, or

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<v Speaker 6>there are veterans. No, there's really not a lot for us.

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<v Speaker 6>But it's okay. We're doing amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>What are their favorite kind of bagels?

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<v Speaker 6>What's your favorite type of babel?

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<v Speaker 9>I love a poppy seed bagel, which sounds crazy, but

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<v Speaker 9>I like how like it's not overwhelmed with other flavors.

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<v Speaker 9>So I like to put like flavorful cream cheese on

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<v Speaker 9>my bagels, like strawberry.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, we'll take one more. Give us one more question, chat,

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<v Speaker 1>give us one more question. Uh, have you someone wants

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<v Speaker 1>to ask if you've thought about putting your baby in

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<v Speaker 1>a mind to make extra money.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh no, I don't.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't think so. I mean, I don't think that

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<v Speaker 6>would be a go to option. But do be noticed.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, you're a good mother, John. If any

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<v Speaker 1>if anything, I hope you go to bed tonight. That

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<v Speaker 1>because you didn't put your child in a mine.

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<v Speaker 6>Yep, no, we're not doing that.

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<v Speaker 1>If I had a child and somebody knocked on my

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<v Speaker 1>door and I was like, you could make a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of money by putting him to work in the mines,

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<v Speaker 1>he'd be he'd be in the minds, But thank you

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<v Speaker 1>so much. Is there anything else either of you want

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<v Speaker 1>to say to the people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 8>We love you?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh thanks guys, Stay safe, stayed liar. I'm gonna try.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna try you guys as well. Have a good

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<v Speaker 1>night you as well. You know what, maybe I'll go

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<v Speaker 1>into the mines. The minds don't sound that bad. The

0:24:38.800 --> 0:24:40.879
<v Speaker 1>minds don't sound that bad. I can handle the fucking

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<v Speaker 1>stupid minds. Hey, folks, this is Lyle. I am very

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<v Speaker 1>excited to announce that I am going back on tour

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<v Speaker 1>to talk to a gecko about whatever they want, just

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<v Speaker 1>mix in a few stories and presentations and little tidbits

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<v Speaker 1>from my own life. Tickets are available right now at

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<v Speaker 1>I do come to your city in the second half

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<v Speaker 1>of the year. This is my third tour so far,

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<v Speaker 1>and I think it's gonna be sick, so I hope

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<v Speaker 1>to see you there. Thanks, Hello, Hi.

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<v Speaker 2>There, Oh shitke I wasn't ready for this.

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<v Speaker 1>How you doing, man, I'm doing good man. How are you.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to give you a name, I'm going to

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<v Speaker 1>call you. I'm gonna call you Jonathan.

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<v Speaker 3>John, Jonathan sounds good.

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<v Speaker 1>John. All right, you texted me something. I thought it

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<v Speaker 1>was interesting. You said, my name is John, I'm twenty eight.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm from Puerto Rico. Is that true or is that

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<v Speaker 1>where you're calling from?

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<v Speaker 2>No, that is true. Yeah, I'm here, I'm born and

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<v Speaker 2>race here.

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<v Speaker 1>Very cool.

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<v Speaker 3>It might be one of the few.

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<v Speaker 2>You got it, but they're not a lot of us,

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<v Speaker 2>but you got a few.

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<v Speaker 1>It's okay, Okay, Hello, I'm about to sound extremely ignorant

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<v Speaker 1>right now. San Juan is in Puerto Rico.

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<v Speaker 5>Right, that is correct?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, okay, I got I got Puerto Rico and Costa

0:27:14.359 --> 0:27:18.359
<v Speaker 1>Rica because they're but they're they're both reeks. Yeah, so

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<v Speaker 1>I got them confused a lot. Uh. Yeah, I might.

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<v Speaker 1>I might go to San Juan. I might go to

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<v Speaker 1>San Juan. I have a little gap in my touring schedule.

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<v Speaker 1>I might go to San Juan.

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<v Speaker 2>Please do please come.

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<v Speaker 9>Show.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm in San Juan.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, cool. Maybe you can help me find

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<v Speaker 1>the best butter fingers in San Juan, Puerto Rico. You

0:27:42.320 --> 0:27:48.719
<v Speaker 1>said to me, I recently found out why I cry

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<v Speaker 1>every time I see a duck.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, I know it sounds insurd, but that is correct, Greg.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, may I start the story because went to Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>so I was in in one of the hotels were

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<v Speaker 3>having someone area and I was there and then they

0:28:10.800 --> 0:28:13.280
<v Speaker 3>have this pond with like the coy fish and like

0:28:13.440 --> 0:28:16.800
<v Speaker 3>ducklings and whatnot. And I started crying. And this had

0:28:16.880 --> 0:28:19.760
<v Speaker 3>happened from like the last fourteen years of my life,

0:28:20.160 --> 0:28:22.439
<v Speaker 3>but for me it was always like a happy like

0:28:22.480 --> 0:28:25.119
<v Speaker 3>happy years, like oh, there's some cute little ducklings and whatnot.

0:28:26.080 --> 0:28:30.800
<v Speaker 3>But my mom told me that. She was like, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>having you got over that?

0:28:33.080 --> 0:28:34.240
<v Speaker 2>And I was like, over what.

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<v Speaker 3>And she was the one that told me and recalled me,

0:28:37.160 --> 0:28:39.080
<v Speaker 3>and I was like, oh my god, you're kidding the mom.

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<v Speaker 3>That really happened, and it was true. Okay, let's go back.

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<v Speaker 3>When I was about four, my mom got us some

0:28:46.840 --> 0:28:51.720
<v Speaker 3>ducklings for Easter, and living here in Puerto Rico, especially

0:28:51.880 --> 0:28:54.160
<v Speaker 3>by that time, I lived like it was running in

0:28:54.160 --> 0:28:56.400
<v Speaker 3>the mountain area, so I didn't have like ponds or

0:28:56.400 --> 0:29:01.040
<v Speaker 3>anything like natural rivers. And with my little duckling, I

0:29:01.080 --> 0:29:05.400
<v Speaker 3>wanted him to swim. As the four year old, the

0:29:05.400 --> 0:29:12.080
<v Speaker 3>first place that I thought of was a toilet, and well.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, happened from here, you flushed the duck

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<v Speaker 1>down the toilet.

0:29:18.440 --> 0:29:20.880
<v Speaker 3>In my four year old mind, I didn't. I thought

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<v Speaker 3>only poop flushed down the toilet.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't.

0:29:23.760 --> 0:29:26.160
<v Speaker 3>I didn't think other from that, I didn't think that

0:29:26.280 --> 0:29:28.040
<v Speaker 3>anything else would right down.

0:29:28.680 --> 0:29:30.640
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you thought there was a scanner in there that

0:29:30.680 --> 0:29:32.520
<v Speaker 1>would reject anything that wasn't shad.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know, a mesh field or something. I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, man, I mean, I hope this. I hope it

0:29:41.160 --> 0:29:44.120
<v Speaker 1>doesn't make you feel any better, But I hope this

0:29:44.240 --> 0:29:46.960
<v Speaker 1>might not make you feel better. But that duck died

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<v Speaker 1>a just a horrible death. It died drowning, and.

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<v Speaker 3>I the thing is, I really hope it was quick.

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<v Speaker 2>But the saddest part of the story that my.

0:29:57.920 --> 0:30:02.200
<v Speaker 3>Mom's recalls, I spent like four days after that feeding

0:30:02.280 --> 0:30:05.840
<v Speaker 3>him bread through the toilet because I apparently thought he

0:30:05.960 --> 0:30:08.400
<v Speaker 3>was stuck down the pipe and still alive.

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<v Speaker 1>That's actually very sweet of you, I know, right.

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<v Speaker 2>About also cruel.

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<v Speaker 3>That's what I That's what I told the caller in

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<v Speaker 3>the text. I was like, it's really like a terrible story,

0:30:25.000 --> 0:30:27.000
<v Speaker 3>but the same way, it's like really funny, and as

0:30:27.080 --> 0:30:29.360
<v Speaker 3>you said, it has a little.

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<v Speaker 2>Droplets off wholesome inside of it.

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<v Speaker 10>Do you.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you think you can do to repent for this?

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>I thought about maybe getting a little dockling for myself,

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<v Speaker 3>of course, keeping it away from the toilet, but I

0:30:47.840 --> 0:30:51.640
<v Speaker 3>recently like thought about it, and here in Puerto Rico

0:30:51.720 --> 0:30:54.840
<v Speaker 3>you have, like it's really easy to get a little

0:30:54.880 --> 0:30:58.440
<v Speaker 3>dockling for yourself. So I was thinking about getting something

0:30:58.480 --> 0:31:01.640
<v Speaker 3>from the thing is, I have a husky and I

0:31:01.680 --> 0:31:03.400
<v Speaker 3>don't know how they're gonna get along.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, that would be horrible if you bought a

0:31:06.400 --> 0:31:08.120
<v Speaker 1>duck to make up for the one you killed and

0:31:08.120 --> 0:31:15.000
<v Speaker 1>then it just got killed again by your dog. Yeah,

0:31:15.040 --> 0:31:17.520
<v Speaker 1>it's gonna maybe they'll maybe they'll be friends. Like like

0:31:17.760 --> 0:31:22.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to what's the dog like? Woods Woodstock? Woodstock

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<v Speaker 1>is a Is he a duck? What the fuck is he?

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<v Speaker 1>He's a bird?

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<v Speaker 8>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>Is that like that? I think that it's a geese.

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<v Speaker 3>But like the one line, no that.

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<v Speaker 1>The wood snoopy and woodstock, the Charlie Brown guys.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh oh oh yeah, yeah, you mean like okay that

0:31:38.920 --> 0:31:41.400
<v Speaker 3>gut Yeah, sorry, I got a little confused because I

0:31:41.440 --> 0:31:44.840
<v Speaker 3>know there's a geese that's like trending on the web,

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<v Speaker 3>like online or something.

0:31:46.080 --> 0:31:48.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry, did you just say that like geese? I'm sorry,

0:31:48.160 --> 0:31:50.760
<v Speaker 1>do you say that geese are trending on the web.

0:31:52.200 --> 0:31:54.680
<v Speaker 3>I mean, not geese, just one geese that I've seen

0:31:54.800 --> 0:31:58.400
<v Speaker 3>like around the internet that he's like an indoor geese

0:31:58.880 --> 0:32:01.200
<v Speaker 3>and he lives like inside the house, and it's like

0:32:01.240 --> 0:32:04.080
<v Speaker 3>really friendly with like the cats that also lives in

0:32:04.160 --> 0:32:04.960
<v Speaker 3>that side the house.

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<v Speaker 1>Here's what you do. You get a duckling and you

0:32:08.280 --> 0:32:13.800
<v Speaker 1>raise it to be an internationally famous social media influencer,

0:32:14.520 --> 0:32:21.440
<v Speaker 1>brand deals from all kinds of duck apparel websites, and

0:32:21.480 --> 0:32:25.600
<v Speaker 1>you just give this duck the most rock star lifestyle

0:32:26.080 --> 0:32:28.840
<v Speaker 1>it could possibly dream of, and that will make up

0:32:28.920 --> 0:32:30.840
<v Speaker 1>for drowning the other one in diarrhea.

0:32:33.440 --> 0:32:36.360
<v Speaker 2>H I I'll think about it.

0:32:37.160 --> 0:32:40.440
<v Speaker 3>So Noise Tolate's involved with this new duckling.

0:32:41.280 --> 0:32:45.280
<v Speaker 1>There was a guy on TikTok who he had a

0:32:45.320 --> 0:32:49.800
<v Speaker 1>monkey that would like open presents and the monkey died.

0:32:51.520 --> 0:32:52.040
<v Speaker 1>It was sad.

0:32:52.160 --> 0:32:52.960
<v Speaker 2>That sounds horrible.

0:32:53.760 --> 0:32:54.760
<v Speaker 3>That sounds really horrible.

0:32:54.760 --> 0:32:56.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't know why I told that story. It didn't

0:32:56.400 --> 0:32:59.160
<v Speaker 1>really add to the conversation. But is there anything else

0:32:59.200 --> 0:33:00.840
<v Speaker 1>that you want to say to thank you for telling

0:33:00.880 --> 0:33:03.840
<v Speaker 1>this story. I I where should it's if I go

0:33:03.880 --> 0:33:07.320
<v Speaker 1>to San Juan and I want to interview people and

0:33:07.320 --> 0:33:09.760
<v Speaker 1>and and find out what's what the word is on

0:33:09.840 --> 0:33:14.440
<v Speaker 1>the street is in Puerto Rico. They speak Spanish there, right, Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Mostly Spanish, but we have like eighty percent of people

0:33:17.560 --> 0:33:18.040
<v Speaker 3>very lingual.

0:33:18.080 --> 0:33:24.880
<v Speaker 1>By now, I can speak a little the poco.

0:33:26.440 --> 0:33:29.600
<v Speaker 2>I see a little bit of here, A little bit

0:33:29.600 --> 0:33:29.760
<v Speaker 2>of that.

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<v Speaker 3>I got you. But like I told you, over here

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<v Speaker 3>now about eighty nine percent of ninety percent of people

0:33:36.880 --> 0:33:37.600
<v Speaker 3>ready by lingual.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, cool, I'll go down there. I want to

0:33:39.640 --> 0:33:40.400
<v Speaker 1>see what's going on.

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<v Speaker 3>Of course, John, I would recommend the old San Juan district,

0:33:44.520 --> 0:33:48.080
<v Speaker 3>a really close to yeah, really close to the airport

0:33:48.240 --> 0:33:50.640
<v Speaker 3>and a lot like super busy.

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<v Speaker 1>John, is there anything else you want to say to

0:33:53.080 --> 0:33:54.280
<v Speaker 1>the people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh well, I wasn't even I wasn't even thinking about

0:34:00.600 --> 0:34:02.920
<v Speaker 3>getting called tonight because it's my first time calling. But

0:34:03.680 --> 0:34:07.000
<v Speaker 3>uh well, anybody that's trying to call here to talk

0:34:07.040 --> 0:34:10.080
<v Speaker 3>to the GEK is not that hard. And I also

0:34:10.120 --> 0:34:12.120
<v Speaker 3>want to appreciate you GEK.

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<v Speaker 2>For anything that you do.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks man, thank you. I'm trying my best out here.

0:34:16.200 --> 0:34:19.319
<v Speaker 1>I'm no, I'm no duckling, but I'm geking as hard

0:34:19.320 --> 0:34:19.799
<v Speaker 1>as I can.

0:34:21.520 --> 0:34:24.200
<v Speaker 3>Of course, you would swim down up the stream of

0:34:24.239 --> 0:34:26.239
<v Speaker 3>the toilet if you were with duckling. I know you.

0:34:26.560 --> 0:34:30.160
<v Speaker 1>I drowned and pissed. Thanks for calling, John.

0:34:31.680 --> 0:34:35.399
<v Speaker 3>Of course, I'll be the first one at your show

0:34:35.440 --> 0:34:38.520
<v Speaker 3>if you come here to Puerto Rico, oh, at public questioning,

0:34:38.640 --> 0:34:39.239
<v Speaker 3>I'll be there.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, I'm gonna do it. I don't know

0:34:41.640 --> 0:34:43.040
<v Speaker 1>if I'll do a show, but I'll definitely come down

0:34:43.080 --> 0:34:44.480
<v Speaker 1>there to fuck around.

0:34:44.680 --> 0:34:45.879
<v Speaker 3>Please, I'll be honest.

0:34:45.880 --> 0:34:48.480
<v Speaker 1>It's awesome, beautiful, Take care man, you too.

0:34:48.960 --> 0:34:49.600
<v Speaker 2>Have a great night.

0:34:53.920 --> 0:34:55.040
<v Speaker 8>Hello.

0:34:56.600 --> 0:35:01.959
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, Hi, I'm gonna call myself.

0:35:01.719 --> 0:35:06.880
<v Speaker 1>Veronica, Veronica, Veronica, What is going on with you this evening?

0:35:06.880 --> 0:35:08.760
<v Speaker 1>How may how might I get you today?

0:35:11.160 --> 0:35:15.040
<v Speaker 6>Well, I've been seeing for a while on Instagram, so

0:35:15.160 --> 0:35:17.720
<v Speaker 6>I was like, I made a little bit of help

0:35:18.000 --> 0:35:23.919
<v Speaker 6>from somebody outside my circle with my current situation. I'm

0:35:23.960 --> 0:35:28.360
<v Speaker 6>thirty two and I'm married. I've been married for a

0:35:28.440 --> 0:35:33.440
<v Speaker 6>while now, we're going on ten years. I got married

0:35:33.560 --> 0:35:38.800
<v Speaker 6>relatively young, I would say, but I'm Latina, so usually

0:35:38.920 --> 0:35:44.400
<v Speaker 6>we kind of get married pretty young. And I was

0:35:44.440 --> 0:35:51.600
<v Speaker 6>like twenty six basically or less. I think basically it's

0:35:51.640 --> 0:35:56.520
<v Speaker 6>been almost two years that our relationship has basically changed

0:35:56.600 --> 0:36:02.680
<v Speaker 6>the dynamic. Like I met him being students, and we

0:36:02.760 --> 0:36:06.960
<v Speaker 6>met literally because we smoked weed when we had like

0:36:07.000 --> 0:36:12.319
<v Speaker 6>the same crew, and one night we basically drank too

0:36:12.400 --> 0:36:17.080
<v Speaker 6>much and from that night on we never slept apart.

0:36:18.280 --> 0:36:21.040
<v Speaker 6>So you know, it was fun. It was very fun.

0:36:21.120 --> 0:36:24.000
<v Speaker 6>But then when we moved back to my home country,

0:36:25.680 --> 0:36:30.439
<v Speaker 6>things has really changed, Like he became this I would say,

0:36:30.520 --> 0:36:35.960
<v Speaker 6>sexist type of guy, like controlling, boring. We used to

0:36:35.960 --> 0:36:39.160
<v Speaker 6>go on hikes and into the beach and now it's

0:36:39.200 --> 0:36:44.040
<v Speaker 6>like it's very boring. And I consider myself young, and

0:36:45.120 --> 0:36:48.120
<v Speaker 6>you know, I'm a doctor also, so I want to

0:36:48.200 --> 0:36:52.120
<v Speaker 6>enjoy as much as I can my life, right, So

0:36:53.360 --> 0:36:56.360
<v Speaker 6>a lot of things have been happening from this, respecting

0:36:56.440 --> 0:36:59.920
<v Speaker 6>my friends and my family, and I permitted it unconsciously.

0:37:00.880 --> 0:37:06.400
<v Speaker 6>I would call him manipulation. And on October he called

0:37:06.440 --> 0:37:11.000
<v Speaker 6>me unfaithful, like I was unfaithful that I was with

0:37:11.080 --> 0:37:13.960
<v Speaker 6>another man, and that that's not true. I've been I

0:37:14.000 --> 0:37:18.759
<v Speaker 6>mean back then it wasn't true, you know. So when

0:37:18.760 --> 0:37:21.760
<v Speaker 6>he called me that, I just decided to go ahead

0:37:21.800 --> 0:37:27.920
<v Speaker 6>and cheat on him, and I did, and I mean,

0:37:27.960 --> 0:37:31.520
<v Speaker 6>I don't feel the same way. Even prior to that event,

0:37:32.280 --> 0:37:34.719
<v Speaker 6>I haven't felt the same way sexually towards him. You know,

0:37:34.719 --> 0:37:36.520
<v Speaker 6>I don't want to be with a person, but I

0:37:36.560 --> 0:37:40.040
<v Speaker 6>don't feel attractive to anymore. And now that I've had

0:37:40.480 --> 0:37:45.640
<v Speaker 6>other experiences, it's like even harder decision if I should

0:37:45.840 --> 0:37:48.239
<v Speaker 6>divorce him or now. I mean, not only that he

0:37:48.320 --> 0:37:52.600
<v Speaker 6>accused me of being unfaithful, he literally denegrated me, like

0:37:53.280 --> 0:37:56.160
<v Speaker 6>he said that he doesn't like me. On more than

0:37:56.200 --> 0:38:00.839
<v Speaker 6>one occasion, he called me that I was the wife ever,

0:38:00.960 --> 0:38:06.279
<v Speaker 6>that I was a horrible person, and I even left

0:38:06.360 --> 0:38:10.759
<v Speaker 6>my own home, which is mine actually, and you know,

0:38:11.080 --> 0:38:14.279
<v Speaker 6>it just felt like I had to get away. And

0:38:14.960 --> 0:38:16.840
<v Speaker 6>it's been a little bit hard to decide if I

0:38:16.880 --> 0:38:18.839
<v Speaker 6>really want to get a divorce or out because it's

0:38:18.880 --> 0:38:23.160
<v Speaker 6>so much years with this person, and then there's this

0:38:23.280 --> 0:38:27.640
<v Speaker 6>other guy, this thing I a cheated with, which I

0:38:27.680 --> 0:38:30.239
<v Speaker 6>got lucky. I would say, I used bumble and I

0:38:30.320 --> 0:38:36.000
<v Speaker 6>met this person and we kind of clicked, you know,

0:38:36.360 --> 0:38:39.080
<v Speaker 6>and we didn't know anybody around each other, and he's

0:38:39.160 --> 0:38:45.279
<v Speaker 6>also in a relationships, so it starts like for me,

0:38:45.440 --> 0:38:48.160
<v Speaker 6>it's only sexual, but now I feel that this guy,

0:38:49.320 --> 0:38:52.279
<v Speaker 6>the side guy, is kind of getting a little bit

0:38:52.280 --> 0:38:56.719
<v Speaker 6>of feelings towards me. So I feel now I have

0:38:56.800 --> 0:38:58.560
<v Speaker 6>like a double trouble, Like I don't know if I

0:38:58.600 --> 0:39:04.440
<v Speaker 6>want to stay with my husband and like miss out

0:39:04.520 --> 0:39:07.600
<v Speaker 6>on life opportunities that I've been missing out for two

0:39:07.680 --> 0:39:11.600
<v Speaker 6>or three years, or just start meeting people, like I

0:39:11.600 --> 0:39:13.879
<v Speaker 6>don't know if this is just part of my friends.

0:39:13.920 --> 0:39:16.960
<v Speaker 6>I don't know if it's just because I'm I'm horny

0:39:17.080 --> 0:39:20.160
<v Speaker 6>right now, like I want to know other people, or

0:39:20.200 --> 0:39:22.680
<v Speaker 6>if it's generally that I'm not in love with my

0:39:22.760 --> 0:39:26.680
<v Speaker 6>husband anymore because he literally denegated me, Like, so.

0:39:26.760 --> 0:39:29.839
<v Speaker 1>I'm completely said you said two different things, and maybe

0:39:29.880 --> 0:39:33.640
<v Speaker 1>they're both true. But you said your husband is being manipulative,

0:39:33.640 --> 0:39:35.680
<v Speaker 1>but you were also saying that you were mainly upset

0:39:35.680 --> 0:39:38.279
<v Speaker 1>because he became boring. Was it just a combination of

0:39:38.280 --> 0:39:39.120
<v Speaker 1>those Yeah.

0:39:39.080 --> 0:39:46.120
<v Speaker 6>No, yeah, yes, a combination completely, completely, completely like he

0:39:46.120 --> 0:39:48.640
<v Speaker 6>he wasn't like this at all at all, you know,

0:39:48.680 --> 0:39:51.880
<v Speaker 6>I did. I would say grow up a little, but

0:39:52.000 --> 0:39:54.840
<v Speaker 6>you know I was. I'm always the type of girl

0:39:54.920 --> 0:39:57.640
<v Speaker 6>to have a lot of guy friends and and literally

0:39:57.680 --> 0:40:00.200
<v Speaker 6>be a guy like you know, I'm a game where

0:40:00.400 --> 0:40:05.279
<v Speaker 6>I am a nerd and whatnot. And you know when

0:40:05.520 --> 0:40:09.120
<v Speaker 6>once we moved to my hometown, I feel that, you know,

0:40:09.160 --> 0:40:11.200
<v Speaker 6>and again I am a doctor. So he caught. I

0:40:11.239 --> 0:40:15.000
<v Speaker 6>think he got like intundated with the whole situation. But

0:40:15.160 --> 0:40:19.839
<v Speaker 6>you know, that's not my problem. Like you know, at

0:40:19.840 --> 0:40:23.000
<v Speaker 6>the end of the day, I don't even like he

0:40:23.080 --> 0:40:25.560
<v Speaker 6>tried to even like buy me at a point, like

0:40:26.280 --> 0:40:29.359
<v Speaker 6>trying to spoil me, and that's not even it.

0:40:29.800 --> 0:40:37.600
<v Speaker 1>What's what's your name again, Veronica? Remember that? Well, Veronic?

0:40:37.600 --> 0:40:41.640
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to. It's very hard to answer these

0:40:41.680 --> 0:40:46.440
<v Speaker 1>without telling people what to do, but I'll try my best.

0:40:47.040 --> 0:40:52.000
<v Speaker 1>I mean, it sounds like you're unhappy with your husband's Yeah, yeah.

0:40:51.880 --> 0:40:54.719
<v Speaker 6>That's and I do love him, but I'm not in

0:40:54.760 --> 0:40:57.680
<v Speaker 6>love with him and I'm not and I feel and

0:40:58.520 --> 0:40:59.200
<v Speaker 6>it sounds.

0:40:59.000 --> 0:41:02.279
<v Speaker 1>Like he is, like and I he doesn't know that

0:41:02.320 --> 0:41:03.640
<v Speaker 1>you cheated on him with this guy.

0:41:04.960 --> 0:41:06.920
<v Speaker 6>I mean, he knows I did it once.

0:41:07.000 --> 0:41:10.000
<v Speaker 1>That's time more than one, So he knows you did

0:41:10.000 --> 0:41:11.239
<v Speaker 1>it once, but it's been more than.

0:41:11.120 --> 0:41:15.040
<v Speaker 6>Once because he because he chucked my phone like like

0:41:15.200 --> 0:41:15.840
<v Speaker 6>this is.

0:41:15.840 --> 0:41:22.759
<v Speaker 10>This is very long, you know, Veronica, Like I mean

0:41:22.800 --> 0:41:27.759
<v Speaker 10>this I mean I was always loyal, like Ronikay, you.

0:41:27.680 --> 0:41:29.839
<v Speaker 1>Don't, I don't. I don't even know. I don't even

0:41:29.880 --> 0:41:32.120
<v Speaker 1>know if you called in to hear my perspective, because

0:41:32.160 --> 0:41:34.120
<v Speaker 1>you ever, there's nothing I'm going to say to you

0:41:34.160 --> 0:41:34.759
<v Speaker 1>that you don't know.

0:41:40.120 --> 0:41:43.640
<v Speaker 6>That's the thing. I don't know. I do know when

0:41:43.640 --> 0:41:46.560
<v Speaker 6>I don't know. I do know when I don't know.

0:41:46.760 --> 0:41:50.799
<v Speaker 6>That's the thing, like like even the other day, but

0:41:51.440 --> 0:41:54.960
<v Speaker 6>you know he did. I forgave him on October partially,

0:41:55.080 --> 0:41:55.560
<v Speaker 6>not really.

0:41:56.600 --> 0:41:58.799
<v Speaker 1>And then let's let's let's let's slow down, slow down

0:41:58.840 --> 0:42:01.080
<v Speaker 1>for a second, because you can keep adding detail. You can,

0:42:01.160 --> 0:42:03.319
<v Speaker 1>you can keep adding detail after detail after detail, but

0:42:03.320 --> 0:42:09.360
<v Speaker 1>it's not going to actually really like so like, so

0:42:09.480 --> 0:42:13.560
<v Speaker 1>you've been with this guy for ten years, yeah, okay,

0:42:13.600 --> 0:42:15.440
<v Speaker 1>so since you were twenty two years old.

0:42:16.920 --> 0:42:23.160
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, he's a one, you're less than me. He's thirty one,

0:42:23.680 --> 0:42:25.840
<v Speaker 6>all right, So.

0:42:25.920 --> 0:42:30.319
<v Speaker 1>You've been in this relationship for you've you've been you

0:42:30.440 --> 0:42:37.960
<v Speaker 1>have really very no experience being single as an adult exactly, okay,

0:42:38.400 --> 0:42:41.880
<v Speaker 1>And you're unhappy with this this guy that you're currently

0:42:41.920 --> 0:42:45.000
<v Speaker 1>with so much so that you're cheating on him and

0:42:45.640 --> 0:42:49.480
<v Speaker 1>seeking our relationships with these other guys and you're like, oh,

0:42:49.600 --> 0:42:51.320
<v Speaker 1>is it because I'm horny or because it's going to connect?

0:42:51.320 --> 0:42:55.040
<v Speaker 1>And maybe it's a combination of all those things. And again,

0:42:55.239 --> 0:42:56.680
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to tell you what to do, because

0:42:56.719 --> 0:42:59.120
<v Speaker 1>you know you. I'm just on the phone with you here,

0:42:59.200 --> 0:43:01.840
<v Speaker 1>and this is a ten year relationship, and everything is uh,

0:43:02.000 --> 0:43:05.200
<v Speaker 1>you know, for as much as red, for as much

0:43:05.200 --> 0:43:07.640
<v Speaker 1>as Reddit and and the internet and whatever have their

0:43:07.760 --> 0:43:11.960
<v Speaker 1>their thoughts about things. You know, everyone feels differently about

0:43:12.000 --> 0:43:16.239
<v Speaker 1>their own individual situation. But but look, you know, I

0:43:16.280 --> 0:43:22.040
<v Speaker 1>don't think you need to hate yourself for having the

0:43:22.080 --> 0:43:25.960
<v Speaker 1>feelings of wanting to explore that which you have not explored.

0:43:26.600 --> 0:43:32.560
<v Speaker 1>But the way that you're doing it right now is

0:43:33.120 --> 0:43:37.480
<v Speaker 1>not going to be helpful to anyone, and including you,

0:43:37.480 --> 0:43:42.080
<v Speaker 1>you know, yeah, and you and you know that again,

0:43:42.120 --> 0:43:43.839
<v Speaker 1>I'm not telling you anything that you don't know.

0:43:46.080 --> 0:43:49.920
<v Speaker 6>It's just as tough to I'm scared of just like

0:43:50.239 --> 0:43:55.000
<v Speaker 6>leaving him and then like in a way being alone.

0:43:55.120 --> 0:44:01.480
<v Speaker 10>I don't know, I don't know, yeah, yeah, yeah.

0:44:02.239 --> 0:44:05.080
<v Speaker 6>And and and and I don't know. The streets are

0:44:05.120 --> 0:44:10.480
<v Speaker 6>not the best, neither you know, what's the best, like

0:44:10.640 --> 0:44:13.360
<v Speaker 6>what's available neither you know, I'm always going to be

0:44:13.360 --> 0:44:17.120
<v Speaker 6>in a hospital. I'm always occupied. I'm never home. You know,

0:44:17.160 --> 0:44:18.960
<v Speaker 6>I'm not. I'm not going to be.

0:44:19.200 --> 0:44:21.839
<v Speaker 1>Here's the thing, why, Here's what I don't understand. Why

0:44:21.960 --> 0:44:24.440
<v Speaker 1>is being with something? Why is being in a relationship

0:44:24.440 --> 0:44:27.359
<v Speaker 1>that you're unhappy with better than being alone?

0:44:28.760 --> 0:44:33.560
<v Speaker 6>I know, I know, I know, I'm so like, I'm

0:44:33.600 --> 0:44:36.480
<v Speaker 6>so scared of.

0:44:35.760 --> 0:44:38.800
<v Speaker 1>And also and also like for his like if you

0:44:38.880 --> 0:44:41.160
<v Speaker 1>really love this guy, like for his sake, I mean,

0:44:41.200 --> 0:44:44.040
<v Speaker 1>you're throwing this guy for a fucking I don't know

0:44:44.080 --> 0:44:45.799
<v Speaker 1>what his deal is and I don't know why he's

0:44:45.840 --> 0:44:48.080
<v Speaker 1>going crazy because I'm not talking to him right now,

0:44:48.120 --> 0:44:51.520
<v Speaker 1>and wise I wouldn't know. But you know, I mean

0:44:51.600 --> 0:44:53.560
<v Speaker 1>for you're throwing this guy for a loop too.

0:44:56.200 --> 0:45:00.880
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, yeah, I mean I I weren't honest. I We're

0:45:01.360 --> 0:45:05.160
<v Speaker 6>actually on like a break or like I asked for

0:45:05.200 --> 0:45:09.160
<v Speaker 6>a break. But you know, we're married, so I'm just

0:45:09.160 --> 0:45:12.960
<v Speaker 6>living my house kids. Oh no, thank god, No, I

0:45:13.000 --> 0:45:13.799
<v Speaker 6>can't right.

0:45:13.960 --> 0:45:14.000
<v Speaker 2>No.

0:45:15.880 --> 0:45:20.440
<v Speaker 6>We do have a dog though, but you know, and

0:45:20.600 --> 0:45:23.400
<v Speaker 6>literally the dog is almost the same age as our relationship.

0:45:23.600 --> 0:45:27.279
<v Speaker 6>He's nine years old, you know, So.

0:45:28.000 --> 0:45:31.000
<v Speaker 1>That would be funny that that actually is funny because

0:45:31.000 --> 0:45:32.880
<v Speaker 1>there's the idea of staying I've heard of I've heard

0:45:32.920 --> 0:45:35.320
<v Speaker 1>of people staying together for the kids, but never staying

0:45:35.360 --> 0:45:36.360
<v Speaker 1>together for the dog.

0:45:37.320 --> 0:45:40.600
<v Speaker 6>It is something that I did speak to him, you know,

0:45:40.600 --> 0:45:43.440
<v Speaker 6>because I did tell him that I wanted this break.

0:45:43.600 --> 0:45:45.960
<v Speaker 6>And I don't know how long it's going to be,

0:45:46.080 --> 0:45:48.839
<v Speaker 6>and I don't know if it's gonna like, I don't

0:45:48.840 --> 0:45:50.560
<v Speaker 6>know the end results. I don't know if I want

0:45:50.600 --> 0:45:55.440
<v Speaker 6>to leave him or if I am going to stay

0:45:55.480 --> 0:45:58.880
<v Speaker 6>with him. And I feel it's like you said, like

0:45:58.960 --> 0:46:04.080
<v Speaker 6>I feel unstaying with him because of the history and

0:46:04.160 --> 0:46:08.640
<v Speaker 6>not the present. It's just such a hard decision.

0:46:08.800 --> 0:46:13.359
<v Speaker 1>Like yeah, so so you you again, We're not like

0:46:13.520 --> 0:46:15.759
<v Speaker 1>this is This is not a decision that requires the

0:46:15.760 --> 0:46:18.960
<v Speaker 1>discovery of new information. This is a decision that requires

0:46:20.640 --> 0:46:24.800
<v Speaker 1>a little bit of faith, a little bit of courage.

0:46:26.160 --> 0:46:32.040
<v Speaker 5>You know, everybody, I'm not I'm not.

0:46:32.040 --> 0:46:34.320
<v Speaker 1>An expert in either of them.

0:46:34.680 --> 0:46:36.879
<v Speaker 6>No, of course, of course, no, no, no, no no.

0:46:36.920 --> 0:46:39.440
<v Speaker 6>But you know, I wanted to because you know, I

0:46:39.480 --> 0:46:41.960
<v Speaker 6>have a lot of people around me that know him,

0:46:42.000 --> 0:46:43.719
<v Speaker 6>and it's like, oh, you know, you should.

0:46:43.719 --> 0:46:47.480
<v Speaker 1>Tell me, tell me this what. Okay, you have clearly

0:46:47.600 --> 0:46:49.680
<v Speaker 1>talked about this with your friends and family who are

0:46:49.680 --> 0:46:51.640
<v Speaker 1>familiar with you and your relationship and what do they

0:46:51.680 --> 0:46:53.560
<v Speaker 1>have to say?

0:46:55.360 --> 0:46:58.640
<v Speaker 6>You know, I haven't told him completely what he did,

0:46:59.080 --> 0:47:02.080
<v Speaker 6>what he did to me, because it would just be

0:47:02.200 --> 0:47:07.759
<v Speaker 6>like leave him. They would definitely be like leave him.

0:47:07.800 --> 0:47:11.759
<v Speaker 6>It was basically besides, it was a manipulative behavior that

0:47:11.880 --> 0:47:14.360
<v Speaker 6>I don't understand how I didn't notice it. You know,

0:47:14.480 --> 0:47:17.320
<v Speaker 6>Like he would tie me. If I would be in

0:47:17.400 --> 0:47:20.160
<v Speaker 6>my dad's house, he would be like, how long are

0:47:20.120 --> 0:47:22.640
<v Speaker 6>you gonna stay there? And I'm like, I'm my dad's house.

0:47:22.760 --> 0:47:27.719
<v Speaker 6>I can stay as long as I want. Or you know,

0:47:27.800 --> 0:47:30.759
<v Speaker 6>he would be very jealous of my friends and and

0:47:30.840 --> 0:47:33.360
<v Speaker 6>told me that my best friend was controlling and that

0:47:33.520 --> 0:47:35.960
<v Speaker 6>my other best friend was a whore and then my

0:47:36.080 --> 0:47:38.799
<v Speaker 6>other good best like male best friend. He knew that

0:47:38.880 --> 0:47:41.279
<v Speaker 6>I was going to leave him for my best friend.

0:47:41.360 --> 0:47:44.040
<v Speaker 6>I'm like, you know, and I don't understand how I've

0:47:44.160 --> 0:47:47.160
<v Speaker 6>permitted all that. I don't know how.

0:47:48.960 --> 0:47:59.640
<v Speaker 5>He yeah, yeah, and there's even more.

0:48:00.440 --> 0:48:01.680
<v Speaker 6>I that's the worst part, Like.

0:48:04.200 --> 0:48:09.160
<v Speaker 1>You can, really you can, you can. I'm I'm this

0:48:09.200 --> 0:48:11.520
<v Speaker 1>stuff is so hard because I'm no expert on relationship,

0:48:11.680 --> 0:48:16.680
<v Speaker 1>navigating relationships and on navigating like but but but Veronica,

0:48:17.200 --> 0:48:20.520
<v Speaker 1>and and and I'm maybe being hypocritical saying this, but

0:48:20.600 --> 0:48:27.600
<v Speaker 1>like it's Vernica, it's like being it's so, life is

0:48:27.640 --> 0:48:30.600
<v Speaker 1>too short for you to be this fucking miserable. You

0:48:30.640 --> 0:48:32.879
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean? Life is, life is too short

0:48:32.920 --> 0:48:35.279
<v Speaker 1>for you to be this fucking miserable. And so you

0:48:35.320 --> 0:48:37.600
<v Speaker 1>can either sit on the fence and and just keep

0:48:37.600 --> 0:48:42.680
<v Speaker 1>being miserable, or like do what you gotta do to

0:48:41.880 --> 0:48:47.000
<v Speaker 1>to to progress your life forward and not be living

0:48:47.000 --> 0:48:50.839
<v Speaker 1>in constant anxiety and constant fear and constant guilt and

0:48:50.880 --> 0:48:54.040
<v Speaker 1>constant all this ship, you know, and and I don't know,

0:48:54.880 --> 0:48:56.480
<v Speaker 1>and I don't know what's going on with this guy,

0:48:56.520 --> 0:48:58.200
<v Speaker 1>and I don't know what his problems are. But that's

0:48:58.320 --> 0:48:59.920
<v Speaker 1>what this is where I'm on the phone with you

0:49:00.120 --> 0:49:05.759
<v Speaker 1>right now. So like just just I'm not gonna tell

0:49:05.760 --> 0:49:09.520
<v Speaker 1>you what decisions to make, but just like you you know,

0:49:10.360 --> 0:49:12.520
<v Speaker 1>you know, I don't I'm not gonna you know what's

0:49:12.560 --> 0:49:18.400
<v Speaker 1>going on with you right now. There's no further information

0:49:18.520 --> 0:49:23.239
<v Speaker 1>that you need right Like you're unhappy. What decisions in

0:49:23.320 --> 0:49:26.279
<v Speaker 1>your are gonna make you more happy? I think you

0:49:26.400 --> 0:49:28.760
<v Speaker 1>know the answer to those things. And all it takes

0:49:28.800 --> 0:49:35.440
<v Speaker 1>is you that have the courage to to act. Uh huh.

0:49:35.480 --> 0:49:38.240
<v Speaker 1>It's a good thing because you don't want to stay

0:49:38.280 --> 0:49:42.840
<v Speaker 1>trapped and unhappy forever. People do that, and they'd be cool.

0:49:42.640 --> 0:49:44.480
<v Speaker 6>If you and I don't want to do that.

0:49:44.520 --> 0:49:46.360
<v Speaker 1>So you don't want to do that for him to

0:49:46.520 --> 0:49:47.960
<v Speaker 1>and for him to because if you love if you

0:49:48.000 --> 0:49:49.719
<v Speaker 1>love this guy here, this is the other fucking thing

0:49:49.760 --> 0:49:53.000
<v Speaker 1>about relationships. If you love this guy, if you really do,

0:49:53.080 --> 0:49:56.680
<v Speaker 1>if you mean that, if you love this guy, you'll

0:49:56.680 --> 0:49:59.200
<v Speaker 1>make the decision that's best for his happiness too.

0:50:00.200 --> 0:50:04.120
<v Speaker 6>So and I think that I'm.

0:50:04.440 --> 0:50:06.600
<v Speaker 1>Will probably be the one that's best for years as well.

0:50:07.440 --> 0:50:08.920
<v Speaker 1>And I don't know what that decision is. I'm not

0:50:08.920 --> 0:50:10.439
<v Speaker 1>going to tell you what to do with your life,

0:50:10.440 --> 0:50:13.600
<v Speaker 1>but you know, just just think about all this ship

0:50:13.719 --> 0:50:18.440
<v Speaker 1>Veronica Okay has that is like, is any of this

0:50:18.560 --> 0:50:20.319
<v Speaker 1>helpful for you? Is any of this resonate with you?

0:50:20.360 --> 0:50:24.400
<v Speaker 6>And no, no, yes, no, he's definitely because it's crazy

0:50:24.440 --> 0:50:28.399
<v Speaker 6>because I do know what I want. But then when

0:50:28.400 --> 0:50:30.120
<v Speaker 6>I spoke to him, I was very sincere. When I

0:50:30.120 --> 0:50:33.640
<v Speaker 6>spoke to him, he did like he does trye like

0:50:33.680 --> 0:50:35.799
<v Speaker 6>I feel either him and every living in me again,

0:50:35.880 --> 0:50:38.759
<v Speaker 6>or he really wants me back or both and and

0:50:38.800 --> 0:50:41.279
<v Speaker 6>it's a little bit scary. It's very scary, like it

0:50:41.760 --> 0:50:45.359
<v Speaker 6>just it throws you off. I mean it throws me off,

0:50:45.480 --> 0:50:50.160
<v Speaker 6>like that's that's how. And it's sad because we were

0:50:50.280 --> 0:50:53.279
<v Speaker 6>we were a really beautiful couple, like we were we

0:50:53.280 --> 0:51:00.000
<v Speaker 6>were again. I was faithful for almost the whole time years, right,

0:51:00.880 --> 0:51:04.560
<v Speaker 6>you know I would, I wouldn't, Yeah, I would. I

0:51:04.600 --> 0:51:04.960
<v Speaker 6>don't know.

0:51:07.840 --> 0:51:09.239
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:51:09.239 --> 0:51:14.600
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go, Yeah, look for happiness.

0:51:15.800 --> 0:51:23.600
<v Speaker 6>We don't get married, Thank you by anything too.

0:51:24.840 --> 0:51:28.960
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I don't know how I think. I

0:51:28.960 --> 0:51:32.720
<v Speaker 1>don't know how life works. Never goes on the line

0:51:32.960 --> 0:51:34.799
<v Speaker 1>thinking your phone calls every night.

0:51:35.200 --> 0:51:39.320
<v Speaker 3>Everything goes to what his eye's teaching you aloud your life.

0:51:39.719 --> 0:51:42.680
<v Speaker 7>But he's not really an expert.