Speaker 1: Hey guys, it's Kaylie Shore and this is too much
Speaker 1: to say, but it's turn it out you, Okay. So,
Speaker 1: first of all, I want to announce that over the
Speaker 1: next month long period, we're going to change the format
Speaker 1: of the podcast a little bit. We're gonna be doing
Speaker 1: one mini Soda week, so it'll be shorter episodes, um,
Speaker 1: kind of just covering some some random topics. But basically,
Speaker 1: what I'm doing is taking a month long break from
Speaker 1: the podcast to work on some new episodes and get
Speaker 1: some special guests in and kind of dream up new
Speaker 1: ways to grow the podcast to the next level. So
Speaker 1: this is kind of like a mid series break, I guess, um,
Speaker 1: but I want to come back stronger than ever. And
Speaker 1: I've found myself not able to put as much effort
Speaker 1: into the podcast recently because I've just been like doing
Speaker 1: it every single week versus setting myself up for success
Speaker 1: by doing several of the time and uh, just being
Speaker 1: a little bit more prepared. And I'm so thankful to
Speaker 1: Bobby Bones and the Nationale Podcast Network and I Heart
Speaker 1: Radio for um, you know, having me have this podcast,
Speaker 1: and I just want to like show them how appreciative
Speaker 1: I am by working a little bit harder on it.
Speaker 1: So that's what the podcast will look like for the
Speaker 1: next month. So thank you guys for bearing with me
Speaker 1: during this transitional period. Moving to l A has been
Speaker 1: so so fun, but also you know, there's just so
Speaker 1: much to do, and I've been jumping right in. I
Speaker 1: have a show on Friday. I'm really excited about it. Um.
Speaker 1: But also on the personal side of things, I had
Speaker 1: a really crazy week. Um my mom was hospitalized and
Speaker 1: she's never been in the best health, but we've never
Speaker 1: had a scare like that. And basically, like she just
Speaker 1: started she was super loopy, like at work, like my
Speaker 1: mom doesn't drink at all, she has maybe a glass
Speaker 1: of wine with me a year. Um, and my aunt
Speaker 1: works with her and noticed that she was acting really
Speaker 1: weird and like I got the call and it sounded
Speaker 1: like she was having a stroke or something, but it
Speaker 1: ended up being Um, she's been pre diabetic for a while,
Speaker 1: but she went into uh keto acidosis, which is like
Speaker 1: when your blood sugar crazy spikes. So your blood sugar
Speaker 1: is supposed to be between one and one eighty and
Speaker 1: hers was seven hundreds. So if she hadn't come into
Speaker 1: work despite not feeling well, UM and feeling a little
Speaker 1: bit loopy. She probably wouldn't be with us, so she
Speaker 1: gets UM out of the hospital today. But it's been
Speaker 1: really scary. And then on top of that, yesterday UM,
Speaker 1: one of my friends, Nolan Neil, passed away and some
Speaker 1: of you may know him. He's an incredible musician. Incredible
Speaker 1: doesn't even begin to cover it. UM. And he was
Speaker 1: like the first person I ever met in Nashville. His
Speaker 1: son lives in UM around my hometown, and so I
Speaker 1: had a friend tell me that I had to meet him,
Speaker 1: and so my first trip to Nashville when I was seventeen,
Speaker 1: he let me come up during one of his rider's
Speaker 1: rounds and take a couple of his songs and play
Speaker 1: my own and they were not very good. My songs
Speaker 1: really sucked then. And he was just a really special person. UM.
Speaker 1: He struggled with addiction, and for those of you who
Speaker 1: have loved an addict, you know that it changes them
Speaker 1: and it changes their personality and they don't end up
Speaker 1: being the person you know and love when they're using.
Speaker 1: And UM, Nolan and I got into several fights over
Speaker 1: the course of our professional relationship and friendship, and in
Speaker 1: like it was very like brother sister type of fights.
Speaker 1: But you know, you, when you are close with an addict,
Speaker 1: you have to set boundaries with them, and that doesn't
Speaker 1: always feel great. I mean, I know this better than
Speaker 1: anybody with my sister, and yeah, so it's just been
Speaker 1: really hard. But I want to focus on the amazing
Speaker 1: things that he did in his life. Um, I don't
Speaker 1: think it's I prefer to instead of sitting around and
Speaker 1: talking about somebody died, I'd rather talk about how they lived.
Speaker 1: And so I just wanted to share with you guys
Speaker 1: a little bit about Nolan if you don't know him. Um,
Speaker 1: I think I've told people this so many times over
Speaker 1: the years, but I really do think he's one of
Speaker 1: the most talented people I've ever encountered in my life.
Speaker 1: He's so gifted and struggled so much with so many
Speaker 1: different things. His dad killed himself when he was growing
Speaker 1: up and that really affected him, and he's had so
Speaker 1: many chances at success, and his addiction has gotten in
Speaker 1: a way, and I just it was heartbreaking watching him
Speaker 1: and knowing that he could and should be a superstar
Speaker 1: and just kept struggling, and um, it's a really it's
Speaker 1: just a really sad feeling um to watch someone who
Speaker 1: has all the potential in the world and somehow not
Speaker 1: be able to beat their demons, and it just tells
Speaker 1: you how brutal addiction is. And even when you have
Speaker 1: so much to live for, the demons can win. Um
Speaker 1: So anyway, So here's a quick bio about him. This
Speaker 1: is on the Taylor Guitar's website because he had an
Speaker 1: endorsement deal with them. Um Bigger than Life, captivating energy,
Speaker 1: and boundless talent are just a few ways you'll hear
Speaker 1: people describe Nolan Neil, while many no Nolan is a
Speaker 1: contestant on the hit NBC series The Voice and America's
Speaker 1: Got Talent. The Nashville based artist is an accomplished singer, songwriter, musician,
Speaker 1: and producer who was literally born into music, the son
Speaker 1: of a professional drummer and a mother who made her
Speaker 1: living as a singer, Nolan's career started by playing the
Speaker 1: clubs in and around Nashville and as a street performer,
Speaker 1: playing for tips in his guitar case. After a producer
Speaker 1: heard him play, Nolan headed west to a record deal
Speaker 1: with Hollywood Records in two thousand. During the next few years,
Speaker 1: No One was touring and writing with the band's tonics
Speaker 1: Saliva and Shined Down, among others. In two thousand and six,
Speaker 1: he signed with Virgin Records and continued touring and writing.
Speaker 1: Nolan changed paths, joining Hinders, the multi platinum group's lead singer.
Speaker 1: After a stint with Hinder, Nolan decided to explore his
Speaker 1: music and passions as an independent artist, and we released
Speaker 1: his third independent project, Nashville l A and Fall. That's
Speaker 1: a little out of date, so there's some more to uh,
Speaker 1: what he was doing recently, but I just it's so sad, y'all.
Speaker 1: It's so freaking sad. And I want to leave you
Speaker 1: with some of his music to listen to. Um it's
Speaker 1: going to live on and UM. It's really the beautiful
Speaker 1: thing about music. And Nolan impacted so many people in
Speaker 1: his life, and he really did care so deeply about people,
Speaker 1: and it's just so hard to see that, like no
Speaker 1: matter how much someone can love someone's they can't love himselves. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's really hard on weeks like this when something happens,
Speaker 1: like when I do the podcast, because I just I'm
Speaker 1: not thinking about anything else. And my mom knew him too,
Speaker 1: so she was like, really sad, just crying in the hospital.
Speaker 1: It's just been a mess. But um, his performances on
Speaker 1: the Voice were amazing. He did he did this one. Uh,
Speaker 1: it's he did two auditions. One was heated Tiny Dancer
Speaker 1: by Elton John and when he did Drive by Incuba
Speaker 1: and they're both just amazing, but his rendition of Tiny
Speaker 1: Dancers beyond incredible. Um. Then he has a song that
Speaker 1: he did on America's Got Talents called Send Me a Butterfly,
Speaker 1: and I think he wrote it, like I mean, over
Speaker 1: ten years ago. But he wrote it about his dad
Speaker 1: and about losing somebody, and the lyrics are just so
Speaker 1: beautiful and it's um, really heartbreaking, but really fitting because
Speaker 1: it's UM. I think a lot of people will listen
Speaker 1: to this and think of Nolan now um in his
Speaker 1: own words. And I'm just gonna read you the lyrics
Speaker 1: to this. Um. Why do all the worst things happen
Speaker 1: to the best of us? And why does all the
Speaker 1: life God made just turn to us? Why the hell
Speaker 1: is there hell at all? And why would God let
Speaker 1: angels fall if they were created to fly? So if
Speaker 1: you're up there, could you ask him? Why send me
Speaker 1: a butterfly? And let it be the color of your eyes.
Speaker 1: Show me a falling Star. The second that I'm wondering
Speaker 1: where you are, let me here our favorite song the
Speaker 1: next time I turn the radio on. If you're up
Speaker 1: there on the other side, send me a butterfly. So
Speaker 1: tell me why I had to be your time to go.
Speaker 1: If you're in a better place, and I've just got
Speaker 1: to know, are there angels where you are? Because where
Speaker 1: I am feeling so dark, I've never seen a black
Speaker 1: or night. So if you're up there where it's always light,
Speaker 1: send me a butterfly. I'm so tired of losing people
Speaker 1: to addiction. I'm so tired of it, and I just
Speaker 1: don't feel so helpless because there's really not much you
Speaker 1: can do other than just love them and pray and
Speaker 1: just hope and stay positive. So your homework for this
Speaker 1: week is to go and less into sound of Nolan's music.
Speaker 1: One of my favorite songs of him of his ever
Speaker 1: is um love is Blind. It's such an incredible song.
Speaker 1: Um He released it last year, but I think he
Speaker 1: played it for me the first time in seventeen or something,
Speaker 1: and it's just an incredible song. So go listen and
Speaker 1: watch him of his live performances because really that was
Speaker 1: just where he really, really really shined. Um. I'm sorry
Speaker 1: for the depressing episode. I just can't think of anything else.
Speaker 1: So again, the next couple of weeks we're gonna be
Speaker 1: doing many episodes while I revamped the podcast. Thank you
Speaker 1: guys for being loyal listeners, and thank you for dealing
Speaker 1: with the past few months where the podcast has just
Speaker 1: been a little erratic. Um today being no exception. But
Speaker 1: I love you all, um, and I'm sending extra love
Speaker 1: to any of you who know this feeling and know
Speaker 1: what it's like to lose somebody pre addiction. I'm just
Speaker 1: sending you a really big hug. It doesn't get easier
Speaker 1: with time, um, but let's just remember how they lived
Speaker 1: in so that how they died. I'm Kaylie Shore and
Speaker 1: this is too much to say. Don't go asking questions.
Speaker 1: Soon I'll go to mus say now turn it out,
Speaker 1: you