1 00:00:00,400 --> 00:00:02,720 Speaker 1: Hey guys, it's Kaylie Shore and this is too much 2 00:00:02,720 --> 00:00:19,360 Speaker 1: to say, but it's turn it out you, Okay. So, 3 00:00:19,440 --> 00:00:22,439 Speaker 1: first of all, I want to announce that over the 4 00:00:22,480 --> 00:00:25,160 Speaker 1: next month long period, we're going to change the format 5 00:00:25,239 --> 00:00:27,400 Speaker 1: of the podcast a little bit. We're gonna be doing 6 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:31,840 Speaker 1: one mini Soda week, so it'll be shorter episodes, um, 7 00:00:32,080 --> 00:00:35,800 Speaker 1: kind of just covering some some random topics. But basically, 8 00:00:35,880 --> 00:00:37,720 Speaker 1: what I'm doing is taking a month long break from 9 00:00:37,760 --> 00:00:41,920 Speaker 1: the podcast to work on some new episodes and get 10 00:00:41,960 --> 00:00:44,080 Speaker 1: some special guests in and kind of dream up new 11 00:00:44,080 --> 00:00:46,239 Speaker 1: ways to grow the podcast to the next level. So 12 00:00:46,280 --> 00:00:50,199 Speaker 1: this is kind of like a mid series break, I guess, um, 13 00:00:50,240 --> 00:00:52,080 Speaker 1: but I want to come back stronger than ever. And 14 00:00:52,520 --> 00:00:55,680 Speaker 1: I've found myself not able to put as much effort 15 00:00:55,720 --> 00:00:58,960 Speaker 1: into the podcast recently because I've just been like doing 16 00:00:59,000 --> 00:01:02,040 Speaker 1: it every single week versus setting myself up for success 17 00:01:02,040 --> 00:01:05,600 Speaker 1: by doing several of the time and uh, just being 18 00:01:05,600 --> 00:01:08,200 Speaker 1: a little bit more prepared. And I'm so thankful to 19 00:01:08,240 --> 00:01:12,280 Speaker 1: Bobby Bones and the Nationale Podcast Network and I Heart 20 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:16,280 Speaker 1: Radio for um, you know, having me have this podcast, 21 00:01:16,600 --> 00:01:19,000 Speaker 1: and I just want to like show them how appreciative 22 00:01:19,040 --> 00:01:21,280 Speaker 1: I am by working a little bit harder on it. 23 00:01:21,360 --> 00:01:24,480 Speaker 1: So that's what the podcast will look like for the 24 00:01:24,480 --> 00:01:26,920 Speaker 1: next month. So thank you guys for bearing with me 25 00:01:27,000 --> 00:01:29,280 Speaker 1: during this transitional period. Moving to l A has been 26 00:01:30,040 --> 00:01:33,200 Speaker 1: so so fun, but also you know, there's just so 27 00:01:33,280 --> 00:01:36,640 Speaker 1: much to do, and I've been jumping right in. I 28 00:01:36,720 --> 00:01:39,240 Speaker 1: have a show on Friday. I'm really excited about it. Um. 29 00:01:39,280 --> 00:01:41,600 Speaker 1: But also on the personal side of things, I had 30 00:01:41,600 --> 00:01:47,640 Speaker 1: a really crazy week. Um my mom was hospitalized and 31 00:01:48,320 --> 00:01:51,320 Speaker 1: she's never been in the best health, but we've never 32 00:01:51,360 --> 00:01:54,560 Speaker 1: had a scare like that. And basically, like she just 33 00:01:54,600 --> 00:01:58,880 Speaker 1: started she was super loopy, like at work, like my 34 00:01:58,880 --> 00:02:00,960 Speaker 1: mom doesn't drink at all, she has maybe a glass 35 00:02:00,960 --> 00:02:04,840 Speaker 1: of wine with me a year. Um, and my aunt 36 00:02:04,840 --> 00:02:06,840 Speaker 1: works with her and noticed that she was acting really 37 00:02:06,840 --> 00:02:09,040 Speaker 1: weird and like I got the call and it sounded 38 00:02:09,040 --> 00:02:11,360 Speaker 1: like she was having a stroke or something, but it 39 00:02:11,480 --> 00:02:14,400 Speaker 1: ended up being Um, she's been pre diabetic for a while, 40 00:02:14,520 --> 00:02:18,760 Speaker 1: but she went into uh keto acidosis, which is like 41 00:02:18,800 --> 00:02:22,000 Speaker 1: when your blood sugar crazy spikes. So your blood sugar 42 00:02:22,040 --> 00:02:24,200 Speaker 1: is supposed to be between one and one eighty and 43 00:02:24,240 --> 00:02:27,480 Speaker 1: hers was seven hundreds. So if she hadn't come into 44 00:02:27,480 --> 00:02:30,800 Speaker 1: work despite not feeling well, UM and feeling a little 45 00:02:30,800 --> 00:02:35,120 Speaker 1: bit loopy. She probably wouldn't be with us, so she 46 00:02:35,160 --> 00:02:39,160 Speaker 1: gets UM out of the hospital today. But it's been 47 00:02:39,240 --> 00:02:44,960 Speaker 1: really scary. And then on top of that, yesterday UM, 48 00:02:45,040 --> 00:02:48,960 Speaker 1: one of my friends, Nolan Neil, passed away and some 49 00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:52,480 Speaker 1: of you may know him. He's an incredible musician. Incredible 50 00:02:52,520 --> 00:02:54,800 Speaker 1: doesn't even begin to cover it. UM. And he was 51 00:02:54,840 --> 00:02:57,440 Speaker 1: like the first person I ever met in Nashville. His 52 00:02:57,600 --> 00:03:02,120 Speaker 1: son lives in UM around my hometown, and so I 53 00:03:02,160 --> 00:03:03,800 Speaker 1: had a friend tell me that I had to meet him, 54 00:03:03,800 --> 00:03:05,919 Speaker 1: and so my first trip to Nashville when I was seventeen, 55 00:03:06,360 --> 00:03:08,120 Speaker 1: he let me come up during one of his rider's 56 00:03:08,200 --> 00:03:10,760 Speaker 1: rounds and take a couple of his songs and play 57 00:03:11,600 --> 00:03:14,639 Speaker 1: my own and they were not very good. My songs 58 00:03:14,720 --> 00:03:21,480 Speaker 1: really sucked then. And he was just a really special person. UM. 59 00:03:21,520 --> 00:03:26,440 Speaker 1: He struggled with addiction, and for those of you who 60 00:03:26,560 --> 00:03:29,880 Speaker 1: have loved an addict, you know that it changes them 61 00:03:29,919 --> 00:03:35,240 Speaker 1: and it changes their personality and they don't end up 62 00:03:35,560 --> 00:03:37,920 Speaker 1: being the person you know and love when they're using. 63 00:03:38,080 --> 00:03:42,280 Speaker 1: And UM, Nolan and I got into several fights over 64 00:03:42,360 --> 00:03:46,960 Speaker 1: the course of our professional relationship and friendship, and in 65 00:03:47,120 --> 00:03:49,680 Speaker 1: like it was very like brother sister type of fights. 66 00:03:49,720 --> 00:03:53,400 Speaker 1: But you know, you, when you are close with an addict, 67 00:03:53,440 --> 00:03:55,520 Speaker 1: you have to set boundaries with them, and that doesn't 68 00:03:55,520 --> 00:03:58,400 Speaker 1: always feel great. I mean, I know this better than 69 00:03:58,440 --> 00:04:02,600 Speaker 1: anybody with my sister, and yeah, so it's just been 70 00:04:02,640 --> 00:04:06,480 Speaker 1: really hard. But I want to focus on the amazing 71 00:04:06,520 --> 00:04:10,839 Speaker 1: things that he did in his life. Um, I don't 72 00:04:10,880 --> 00:04:14,200 Speaker 1: think it's I prefer to instead of sitting around and 73 00:04:14,200 --> 00:04:16,559 Speaker 1: talking about somebody died, I'd rather talk about how they lived. 74 00:04:17,080 --> 00:04:19,320 Speaker 1: And so I just wanted to share with you guys 75 00:04:19,320 --> 00:04:24,719 Speaker 1: a little bit about Nolan if you don't know him. Um, 76 00:04:24,760 --> 00:04:27,600 Speaker 1: I think I've told people this so many times over 77 00:04:27,640 --> 00:04:29,279 Speaker 1: the years, but I really do think he's one of 78 00:04:29,279 --> 00:04:33,440 Speaker 1: the most talented people I've ever encountered in my life. 79 00:04:34,920 --> 00:04:38,800 Speaker 1: He's so gifted and struggled so much with so many 80 00:04:38,839 --> 00:04:42,640 Speaker 1: different things. His dad killed himself when he was growing 81 00:04:42,760 --> 00:04:47,240 Speaker 1: up and that really affected him, and he's had so 82 00:04:47,320 --> 00:04:51,800 Speaker 1: many chances at success, and his addiction has gotten in 83 00:04:51,800 --> 00:04:55,400 Speaker 1: a way, and I just it was heartbreaking watching him 84 00:04:55,440 --> 00:04:58,760 Speaker 1: and knowing that he could and should be a superstar 85 00:04:58,839 --> 00:05:03,480 Speaker 1: and just kept struggling, and um, it's a really it's 86 00:05:03,520 --> 00:05:07,400 Speaker 1: just a really sad feeling um to watch someone who 87 00:05:07,400 --> 00:05:09,680 Speaker 1: has all the potential in the world and somehow not 88 00:05:09,720 --> 00:05:13,279 Speaker 1: be able to beat their demons, and it just tells 89 00:05:13,320 --> 00:05:17,680 Speaker 1: you how brutal addiction is. And even when you have 90 00:05:17,720 --> 00:05:21,760 Speaker 1: so much to live for, the demons can win. Um 91 00:05:22,640 --> 00:05:27,240 Speaker 1: So anyway, So here's a quick bio about him. This 92 00:05:27,400 --> 00:05:29,279 Speaker 1: is on the Taylor Guitar's website because he had an 93 00:05:29,360 --> 00:05:34,200 Speaker 1: endorsement deal with them. Um Bigger than Life, captivating energy, 94 00:05:34,240 --> 00:05:36,280 Speaker 1: and boundless talent are just a few ways you'll hear 95 00:05:36,320 --> 00:05:39,120 Speaker 1: people describe Nolan Neil, while many no Nolan is a 96 00:05:39,120 --> 00:05:42,440 Speaker 1: contestant on the hit NBC series The Voice and America's 97 00:05:42,440 --> 00:05:45,960 Speaker 1: Got Talent. The Nashville based artist is an accomplished singer, songwriter, musician, 98 00:05:46,320 --> 00:05:49,560 Speaker 1: and producer who was literally born into music, the son 99 00:05:49,560 --> 00:05:51,440 Speaker 1: of a professional drummer and a mother who made her 100 00:05:51,480 --> 00:05:53,960 Speaker 1: living as a singer, Nolan's career started by playing the 101 00:05:54,000 --> 00:05:56,360 Speaker 1: clubs in and around Nashville and as a street performer, 102 00:05:56,400 --> 00:05:59,279 Speaker 1: playing for tips in his guitar case. After a producer 103 00:05:59,279 --> 00:06:01,520 Speaker 1: heard him play, Nolan headed west to a record deal 104 00:06:01,560 --> 00:06:04,600 Speaker 1: with Hollywood Records in two thousand. During the next few years, 105 00:06:04,600 --> 00:06:06,640 Speaker 1: No One was touring and writing with the band's tonics 106 00:06:06,640 --> 00:06:09,800 Speaker 1: Saliva and Shined Down, among others. In two thousand and six, 107 00:06:09,839 --> 00:06:12,280 Speaker 1: he signed with Virgin Records and continued touring and writing. 108 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:17,159 Speaker 1: Nolan changed paths, joining Hinders, the multi platinum group's lead singer. 109 00:06:17,520 --> 00:06:19,839 Speaker 1: After a stint with Hinder, Nolan decided to explore his 110 00:06:19,920 --> 00:06:22,480 Speaker 1: music and passions as an independent artist, and we released 111 00:06:22,480 --> 00:06:27,120 Speaker 1: his third independent project, Nashville l A and Fall. That's 112 00:06:27,160 --> 00:06:30,440 Speaker 1: a little out of date, so there's some more to uh, 113 00:06:30,480 --> 00:06:35,520 Speaker 1: what he was doing recently, but I just it's so sad, y'all. 114 00:06:35,600 --> 00:06:39,560 Speaker 1: It's so freaking sad. And I want to leave you 115 00:06:39,600 --> 00:06:44,200 Speaker 1: with some of his music to listen to. Um it's 116 00:06:44,200 --> 00:06:48,239 Speaker 1: going to live on and UM. It's really the beautiful 117 00:06:48,279 --> 00:06:53,120 Speaker 1: thing about music. And Nolan impacted so many people in 118 00:06:53,160 --> 00:06:58,640 Speaker 1: his life, and he really did care so deeply about people, 119 00:06:58,680 --> 00:07:02,840 Speaker 1: and it's just so hard to see that, like no 120 00:07:02,839 --> 00:07:30,440 Speaker 1: matter how much someone can love someone's they can't love himselves. Yeah, 121 00:07:33,120 --> 00:07:35,680 Speaker 1: it's really hard on weeks like this when something happens, 122 00:07:35,680 --> 00:07:38,160 Speaker 1: like when I do the podcast, because I just I'm 123 00:07:38,160 --> 00:07:41,400 Speaker 1: not thinking about anything else. And my mom knew him too, 124 00:07:41,400 --> 00:07:44,720 Speaker 1: so she was like, really sad, just crying in the hospital. 125 00:07:44,800 --> 00:07:48,920 Speaker 1: It's just been a mess. But um, his performances on 126 00:07:48,960 --> 00:07:53,960 Speaker 1: the Voice were amazing. He did he did this one. Uh, 127 00:07:54,640 --> 00:07:57,800 Speaker 1: it's he did two auditions. One was heated Tiny Dancer 128 00:07:57,880 --> 00:07:59,920 Speaker 1: by Elton John and when he did Drive by Incuba 129 00:08:00,240 --> 00:08:03,760 Speaker 1: and they're both just amazing, but his rendition of Tiny 130 00:08:03,800 --> 00:08:10,680 Speaker 1: Dancers beyond incredible. Um. Then he has a song that 131 00:08:10,760 --> 00:08:13,200 Speaker 1: he did on America's Got Talents called Send Me a Butterfly, 132 00:08:13,920 --> 00:08:16,480 Speaker 1: and I think he wrote it, like I mean, over 133 00:08:16,560 --> 00:08:18,800 Speaker 1: ten years ago. But he wrote it about his dad 134 00:08:18,840 --> 00:08:22,280 Speaker 1: and about losing somebody, and the lyrics are just so 135 00:08:22,360 --> 00:08:28,320 Speaker 1: beautiful and it's um, really heartbreaking, but really fitting because 136 00:08:28,720 --> 00:08:31,040 Speaker 1: it's UM. I think a lot of people will listen 137 00:08:31,040 --> 00:08:34,960 Speaker 1: to this and think of Nolan now um in his 138 00:08:35,040 --> 00:08:40,720 Speaker 1: own words. And I'm just gonna read you the lyrics 139 00:08:40,800 --> 00:08:47,160 Speaker 1: to this. Um. Why do all the worst things happen 140 00:08:47,200 --> 00:08:48,880 Speaker 1: to the best of us? And why does all the 141 00:08:48,920 --> 00:08:52,079 Speaker 1: life God made just turn to us? Why the hell 142 00:08:52,200 --> 00:08:54,200 Speaker 1: is there hell at all? And why would God let 143 00:08:54,240 --> 00:08:58,600 Speaker 1: angels fall if they were created to fly? So if 144 00:08:58,600 --> 00:09:03,120 Speaker 1: you're up there, could you ask him? Why send me 145 00:09:03,160 --> 00:09:05,880 Speaker 1: a butterfly? And let it be the color of your eyes. 146 00:09:06,360 --> 00:09:08,600 Speaker 1: Show me a falling Star. The second that I'm wondering 147 00:09:08,600 --> 00:09:11,720 Speaker 1: where you are, let me here our favorite song the 148 00:09:11,720 --> 00:09:14,240 Speaker 1: next time I turn the radio on. If you're up 149 00:09:14,280 --> 00:09:19,280 Speaker 1: there on the other side, send me a butterfly. So 150 00:09:19,360 --> 00:09:21,000 Speaker 1: tell me why I had to be your time to go. 151 00:09:21,760 --> 00:09:23,480 Speaker 1: If you're in a better place, and I've just got 152 00:09:23,520 --> 00:09:25,920 Speaker 1: to know, are there angels where you are? Because where 153 00:09:25,920 --> 00:09:28,480 Speaker 1: I am feeling so dark, I've never seen a black 154 00:09:28,600 --> 00:09:30,680 Speaker 1: or night. So if you're up there where it's always light, 155 00:09:31,520 --> 00:09:40,120 Speaker 1: send me a butterfly. I'm so tired of losing people 156 00:09:40,440 --> 00:09:45,080 Speaker 1: to addiction. I'm so tired of it, and I just 157 00:09:45,160 --> 00:09:49,160 Speaker 1: don't feel so helpless because there's really not much you 158 00:09:49,160 --> 00:09:52,520 Speaker 1: can do other than just love them and pray and 159 00:09:54,440 --> 00:09:59,040 Speaker 1: just hope and stay positive. So your homework for this 160 00:09:59,080 --> 00:10:01,839 Speaker 1: week is to go and less into sound of Nolan's music. 161 00:10:02,320 --> 00:10:04,720 Speaker 1: One of my favorite songs of him of his ever 162 00:10:04,920 --> 00:10:10,600 Speaker 1: is um love is Blind. It's such an incredible song. 163 00:10:10,920 --> 00:10:16,040 Speaker 1: Um He released it last year, but I think he 164 00:10:16,080 --> 00:10:19,440 Speaker 1: played it for me the first time in seventeen or something, 165 00:10:19,559 --> 00:10:23,000 Speaker 1: and it's just an incredible song. So go listen and 166 00:10:23,000 --> 00:10:25,880 Speaker 1: watch him of his live performances because really that was 167 00:10:25,960 --> 00:10:31,959 Speaker 1: just where he really, really really shined. Um. I'm sorry 168 00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:34,760 Speaker 1: for the depressing episode. I just can't think of anything else. 169 00:10:34,800 --> 00:10:37,920 Speaker 1: So again, the next couple of weeks we're gonna be 170 00:10:37,920 --> 00:10:40,680 Speaker 1: doing many episodes while I revamped the podcast. Thank you 171 00:10:40,720 --> 00:10:43,200 Speaker 1: guys for being loyal listeners, and thank you for dealing 172 00:10:43,200 --> 00:10:45,080 Speaker 1: with the past few months where the podcast has just 173 00:10:45,120 --> 00:10:48,280 Speaker 1: been a little erratic. Um today being no exception. But 174 00:10:48,920 --> 00:10:52,480 Speaker 1: I love you all, um, and I'm sending extra love 175 00:10:52,559 --> 00:10:55,560 Speaker 1: to any of you who know this feeling and know 176 00:10:55,600 --> 00:10:59,720 Speaker 1: what it's like to lose somebody pre addiction. I'm just 177 00:10:59,720 --> 00:11:02,959 Speaker 1: sending you a really big hug. It doesn't get easier 178 00:11:02,960 --> 00:11:07,320 Speaker 1: with time, um, but let's just remember how they lived 179 00:11:07,360 --> 00:11:09,839 Speaker 1: in so that how they died. I'm Kaylie Shore and 180 00:11:09,880 --> 00:11:15,520 Speaker 1: this is too much to say. Don't go asking questions. 181 00:11:17,280 --> 00:11:22,160 Speaker 1: Soon I'll go to mus say now turn it out, 182 00:11:22,480 --> 00:11:24,000 Speaker 1: you