WEBVTT - "MY SOCIAL SKILLS ARE GONE"

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hey, who is this?

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<v Speaker 2>Hi? A'm Fox?

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<v Speaker 1>Your Fox?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, f o X Fox.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay is that really?

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<v Speaker 2>In? Is not? I don't really feel comfortable with you know,

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<v Speaker 2>maybe one hundred plus people hear my name.

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<v Speaker 1>It's okay, that's okay. Yeah, why did you pick a fox?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>It's been it's actually why. It's actually my h R

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<v Speaker 2>your name, my Steam account and for my microscount I got. Well,

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<v Speaker 2>I talk to you about virtually virtual reality VR.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>It says here that you feel like virtual reality has

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of control over your life. I think this

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<v Speaker 1>is interesting because soon enough, we are all going to

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<v Speaker 1>be living inside of the computer. So you're kind of

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<v Speaker 1>like a example of what all of our fates will

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<v Speaker 1>eventually be.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I kind of guess. So basically, I saw a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of your podcasts. You know, I love you, Lyle.

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<v Speaker 2>I love all your podcasts. That's amazing way you do.

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<v Speaker 2>There was this one podcast this guy was talking about

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<v Speaker 2>for reality and you're trying to hear to try it.

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<v Speaker 2>It is worth trying. I will say that VR is

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<v Speaker 2>a really open thing to have. It is now it's

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<v Speaker 2>pretty cheap nowadays. He used to be like two thousand

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<v Speaker 2>dollars and now it's down to like three hundred dollars.

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<v Speaker 1>Well so so so fox. So you said that VR

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<v Speaker 1>has a lot of control over your life. Is that

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<v Speaker 1>a has this manifested itself in any ways that are

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<v Speaker 1>I would like to hear about the ways in which

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<v Speaker 1>VR has been a positive thing for you and also

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<v Speaker 1>the ways in which it is it has been a

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<v Speaker 1>negative thing for you.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, let's start off with negative.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's start off with negative.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, mind you, I have a skin condition basically throughout

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<v Speaker 2>the exact name. But when I can't sweat, or when

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<v Speaker 2>I do sweat, a sweat can't really come from my body,

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<v Speaker 2>so it comes to side of like little pimple sum

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<v Speaker 2>ups and VR hands a big, big like sweat focus

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<v Speaker 2>almost because it's a heads on your head. You know.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like wearing a ski mask and like Florida you

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<v Speaker 2>know summers. It makes you sweat a lot. VR hands

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<v Speaker 2>also taken control of my wife, you know, at least

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<v Speaker 2>in my mental statement, because I used to be this

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<v Speaker 2>guy that would it's like, talk to anybody. I would

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<v Speaker 2>walk up to them and say, hey, how you doing.

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<v Speaker 2>I just ram strangers, you know. Now I'm really antisocial

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<v Speaker 2>because I don't know how it's just really active people interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>So you used to be better at going up to

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<v Speaker 1>people and starting conversations, and then VR kind of atrophied

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<v Speaker 1>that muscle.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's it's kind of like that because inside of

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<v Speaker 2>VR you can be whoever you want to be. You

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<v Speaker 2>can walk up to anybody, say anything that you want to.

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<v Speaker 2>It's online. But it just kind of in perspective of

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<v Speaker 2>me talking to people because I used to I still

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<v Speaker 2>am like a really friendly guy. It's just that now

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<v Speaker 2>I've become antisocial. I'm not wis sure how it really happens,

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<v Speaker 2>just that I don't like talking to people in the

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<v Speaker 2>real world.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me ask you this, how often are you out

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<v Speaker 1>in situations where you are talking to people in real

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<v Speaker 1>life and socializing.

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<v Speaker 2>Works that? That's pretty much it. I don't really talk

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<v Speaker 2>to anybody like my mom, my, stepdad, you know, my sister.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have Do you have a lot of friends

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<v Speaker 1>outside of VR in real life?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, not at all. I have no friends at all.

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<v Speaker 2>I be this guy that was really time to hear.

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<v Speaker 2>Everybody knew me. I was basically my friendliest guy. I

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<v Speaker 2>would give like kids some popsicles on a hot summer day,

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<v Speaker 2>and on the smiles, you know that kind of stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, that's very specific.

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<v Speaker 2>Now I have I have like no friends at all,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I can't listen off anybody. All my friends are

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<v Speaker 2>on line and it's a big.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay around when so you say, you're you're you're painting

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<v Speaker 1>this arc of yourself as formerly confident, formerly having a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of friends, and then VR kind of changed that

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<v Speaker 1>for you. Around how long ago did you start to

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<v Speaker 1>notice an atrophy in your social skills?

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<v Speaker 2>So I played VR back four years ago and around

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<v Speaker 2>not even six months into gamesight VR, I realized that

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<v Speaker 2>I was getting more antisocial. I went to talk to

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<v Speaker 2>me about you and to go outside that much, and

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<v Speaker 2>I thought that was okay, Like and like, imagine you

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<v Speaker 2>got like a new Xbox while playing more often? Right, sure,

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<v Speaker 2>but DR is just something different. You can interact with people.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just like just to go outside, you have to

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<v Speaker 2>do you do this?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So it's been so so so it's been about

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<v Speaker 1>three and a half years around there you are, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>Now does any part of you, uh does I mean

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<v Speaker 1>do you personally do you desire to be more social

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<v Speaker 1>to have more friends? Are you sitting there in and

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<v Speaker 1>wishing that you had those social skills that you felt

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<v Speaker 1>like you had a good hand along a few years ago,

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<v Speaker 1>or are you feeling rather comfortable where you're at right now.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a mix of a bulk. Actually, I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm really comfortable because like when I drink and stuff,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I get like either really aggravated, like really

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I'm just that kind of guy, or like

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<v Speaker 2>really calm. Usually I take an advantage of when I'm calm,

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<v Speaker 2>so when I'm being drunk and inside VR, it's a

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<v Speaker 2>virtual world, like nobody can harm me in an kind

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<v Speaker 2>of way. But I want to be more social in

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<v Speaker 2>the world too, because I know I'm gonna need some friends.

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<v Speaker 2>I wanna need child true like family. I know that

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<v Speaker 2>I need that, but I just I don't think I can.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, why don't you say, well, okay, why don't

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<v Speaker 1>you think you can?

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<v Speaker 2>It's just, you know, social anxiety. I guess I just

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<v Speaker 2>kind of feel like I don't right around people anymore.

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<v Speaker 2>But I stacked the exact same. I don't know if

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<v Speaker 2>VR has kind of controlled me in a way, but like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, just I've met so many friends on here,

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<v Speaker 2>and it's like why do I need real life friends

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<v Speaker 2>when I have already a whole entire group of almost

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<v Speaker 2>family around me inside online? You know?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean you bring up something interesting, right about Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>So you don't have a lot of friends in real life,

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<v Speaker 1>but you have all these internet friends, and even though

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<v Speaker 1>they are avatars, they are real human beings. You are

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<v Speaker 1>exchanging thoughts and ideas and spending quality time with representations

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<v Speaker 1>of real people. And it's an interesting thing because there

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<v Speaker 1>is legitimacy to that. Have you ever met anyone that

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<v Speaker 1>you've met in VR in real life?

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<v Speaker 2>I met my ex?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you met so you you had a relationship.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, I actually want to tell you about that too,

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<v Speaker 2>So VR you can meet anybody rather it be a girl,

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<v Speaker 2>a man, a lover.

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<v Speaker 1>A follower. What's the what's the most fucked up avatar

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<v Speaker 1>you've seen? By the way?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Okay? Is there certain words that are explicit to

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<v Speaker 2>the Twitch channel?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, don't say anything racist, but other than that,

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<v Speaker 1>go ahead and racist.

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<v Speaker 2>I just want to make sure that I can describe this,

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<v Speaker 2>So in VR chat you can make any anazar that

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<v Speaker 2>you like. So it's this, it's this naked man? Right? Sure,

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't have a good good, like a crotch or

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<v Speaker 2>anything like that. It's just like a naked avid artist

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<v Speaker 2>fully peach skin. But when you talk out of it,

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<v Speaker 2>it moves your skin and it makes flesh pop out.

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<v Speaker 1>What wait, so it makes like you can like make

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<v Speaker 1>your penis talk and ship.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, you can. Actually also when you when you talk,

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<v Speaker 2>skin stops out of your chest and moves around when

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<v Speaker 2>you talk, around your legs, around your thighs, around the world,

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<v Speaker 2>your body.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm starting to see why you don't leave the VR world.

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<v Speaker 2>It's interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So back to the relationship you met a girl

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<v Speaker 1>on VR.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh. Yeah, there's actually my burnst long term relationship clearer

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<v Speaker 2>or not. So I realized people would just take advantage

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<v Speaker 2>of me. H yah, yeah, you know, kind of true.

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<v Speaker 2>But we last a year, so really we wanted.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, in the course in the course of that year,

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<v Speaker 1>did you guys ever meet in real life?

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<v Speaker 2>Around eight months is when we started to you know,

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<v Speaker 2>trying me up. We had plans, and then another month

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<v Speaker 2>later we decided to do it. So we met up

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<v Speaker 2>inside of VR. I mean we met up in the

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<v Speaker 2>side of the real world and sounded like a double airport.

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<v Speaker 2>We got some pretzels from and Annie's and you just

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<v Speaker 2>kind of ended up for a while.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, where did you so? So did you guys? Did

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<v Speaker 1>you go to her, did she come to you? Or

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<v Speaker 1>did you meet somewhere in the middle? Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>We I came to her.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay. And how did that feel for you meeting somebody

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<v Speaker 1>in real life that you met in VR.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll be honest, I really did not feel that comfortable

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<v Speaker 2>of it. So, really, mind you have line personas. They

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<v Speaker 2>can act like a whole entire different person on the airnet,

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<v Speaker 2>a whole time person. They can make more cameras, make

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<v Speaker 2>more aggravated, to make a whole entire, big different difference

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<v Speaker 2>when you act online. It's like mongel for two lobbies almost,

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<v Speaker 2>you know. But it just felt weird because her actual

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<v Speaker 2>persona herself was very, very very different, interesting, She was

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<v Speaker 2>a lot more sense, she had to say, She flirted

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<v Speaker 2>a lot with other guys, and then that next month

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<v Speaker 2>I started to try to tell her that one break

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<v Speaker 2>off with her. But it's just online personas can be

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<v Speaker 2>really controversial, I think.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, hold on, so, so okay, stick stick with me

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<v Speaker 1>here for a second. Okay, give me what is the

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<v Speaker 1>difference that you observe between her online persona and how

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<v Speaker 1>she acted in real life towards you.

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<v Speaker 2>So online side y are, she'd be really kind, like

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<v Speaker 2>she would hang out with me almost every day. She'd

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<v Speaker 2>talk to me, she tell me how my day was, yeah, yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>Like she was very very kind, like almost like my

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<v Speaker 2>dream girlfriend almost, you know, and she hass all these

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<v Speaker 2>ways and I really liked it, you know, But in

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<v Speaker 2>real life she was a lot more sand here, a

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<v Speaker 2>lot more aggravated, i'd say, at times. And she'd never

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<v Speaker 2>ask anything if they was or any of this or

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<v Speaker 2>any of that. And she would constantly flirt with other

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<v Speaker 2>guys right from me, like strangers.

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<v Speaker 1>Almost Hmmm, interesting, do you I mean, it's it feels

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<v Speaker 1>a little pointless to speculate about this, but do you

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<v Speaker 1>have any theories as to why she she was acting

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<v Speaker 1>so differently than than she was normally.

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<v Speaker 2>I've only seen her like that once, you know, once,

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<v Speaker 2>mm hmm. She kinda was just like a lot more

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<v Speaker 2>fantsy towards like well of her other friends. I think

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<v Speaker 2>it's just how she acted around me.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you do you get a did you get a

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<v Speaker 1>sense from her when you when you met her, did

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<v Speaker 1>you get a sense from her that she also was

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit nervous to meet somebody in real life

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<v Speaker 1>and also kind of spent a lot of time in

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<v Speaker 1>VR and had sort of atrophy social skills.

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<v Speaker 2>She she told me before that she met a guy

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<v Speaker 2>in her life and basically smashed him like.

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<v Speaker 1>That said, okay, okay, okay, So Fox, so you had

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<v Speaker 1>this girl friend over VR. You did meet her in

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<v Speaker 1>real life, and then I guess, I I guess when

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<v Speaker 1>you met her in real life and the vibe was different,

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<v Speaker 1>that was kind of the beginning of the end for

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<v Speaker 1>that relationship.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. I mean when I met her and several life

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<v Speaker 2>I just lost a lot of feelings. Okay, just everything changed,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>So Now what about what about friends? What about friends?

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<v Speaker 2>Friends?

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<v Speaker 1>Have you met any friends? Have you met any friends

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<v Speaker 1>in real life from VR?

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<v Speaker 2>Any friends? Hey? Have you played D and D? And

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<v Speaker 2>just a question for those.

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<v Speaker 1>Post I haven't, but I know it is, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what it is?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, So me and my friends we've played D and

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<v Speaker 2>B a lot inside of like VR. There's this VR

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<v Speaker 2>world side VR chant It's called D and D Dungeons

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<v Speaker 2>and Dragons, and we play like this made up Rick

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<v Speaker 2>and Morty, D and D session, and we've been doing

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<v Speaker 2>it for about for like by four months now recently

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<v Speaker 2>actually not even I think three weeks ago, we did

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<v Speaker 2>a road trip all across the country. I had really

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<v Speaker 2>drive from Florida to Michigan to Alabama to I believe

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<v Speaker 2>not in New York. No, it was New York. So

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<v Speaker 2>we had this a little big idea that we go

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<v Speaker 2>to like random like little places like Washington State or

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<v Speaker 2>like see like New York buildings that we've never seen before,

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<v Speaker 2>like New York pizza fiverstun.

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<v Speaker 1>So you so you went on this road trip with

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<v Speaker 1>with all of you how many of how many of

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<v Speaker 1>you guys were there on this road trip?

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<v Speaker 2>Five?

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<v Speaker 1>Damn? So all all five of you guys went on

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<v Speaker 1>a big road trip across the country.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah it was. It was really nice.

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<v Speaker 1>You know that sounds fun, man, Yeah, it really, it

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<v Speaker 1>really was.

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<v Speaker 2>I gotta say, you know, get go. I gotta say,

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<v Speaker 2>if you ever get into VR, a good tip for

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<v Speaker 2>you is treat it like it's a console, like you

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<v Speaker 2>you're playing on your PC, like you're just trying to

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<v Speaker 2>play a game for once. Don't treat it as in

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<v Speaker 2>like a separate life. Because a lot of people when

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<v Speaker 2>the game slight VR. They think it's almost like a

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<v Speaker 2>second life for them, and it's kind of sad how

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<v Speaker 2>they feel like that. I once felt like VR one

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<v Speaker 2>it's a second life, but I just kind of came

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<v Speaker 2>over that a little factor.

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<v Speaker 1>Then, well, you know, you bring you know, this whole

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<v Speaker 1>call is is really bringing up an interesting thing. And

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<v Speaker 1>it's like this point of contention of you know, you're

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<v Speaker 1>you're telling me that you've been in VR for three

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<v Speaker 1>and a half years and that it's really like fucked

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<v Speaker 1>with yourself social skills, and you're telling me that you

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<v Speaker 1>can't name a single friend that you have outside of VR.

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<v Speaker 1>But yet you just told me about like a really cool,

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<v Speaker 1>real life life experience of you hanging out with five

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<v Speaker 1>real human beings traveling across the world. I mean, that's

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<v Speaker 1>a real legitimate social life experience that you had as

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<v Speaker 1>a result of being in this virtual world. And it's

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<v Speaker 1>a really interesting thing to think about, Like are virtual friends,

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<v Speaker 1>internet friends, you know, a legitimate healthy form of social

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<v Speaker 1>interaction And I don't, I don't know, because you're you're

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<v Speaker 1>bringing up all these different like sort of of of

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<v Speaker 1>pros and cons in either direction, and maybe there's some

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<v Speaker 1>kind of balance to be struck here, you know, like, like,

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<v Speaker 1>it's so great to me that you have these friends

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<v Speaker 1>that you can go out and do real life stuff with,

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<v Speaker 1>like this road trip. But at the same time you

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<v Speaker 1>should try to balance that out with with finding friends

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<v Speaker 1>in your immediate vicinity and making sure that when you

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<v Speaker 1>do go out into the world you're adequately prepared to

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<v Speaker 1>speak with other people.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know, there there is definitely a balance

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<v Speaker 2>to be made, you know. VR is just about like

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<v Speaker 2>one game too, like mind you I love military similar

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<v Speaker 2>Its like Milsen. It's a roleplay of Milton. It's like,

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<v Speaker 2>uh if people are really getting called onward. It's a

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<v Speaker 2>game that lets you experience almost like drill tactics. For example,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm an owner of a Milson serio.

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<v Speaker 1>Well well so, well so Fox. You know, I listened

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<v Speaker 1>the specific games and whatnot is is uh you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I'm talking, but there's just the broader thing

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<v Speaker 1>here of your internet friends versus your real life friends.

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<v Speaker 1>But so listen, I mean, before we get off here,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to I want to talk to you about

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<v Speaker 1>your own personal life and your kind of future with this.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me ask you something. Okay, you've had some great experiences,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. I mean, even if the girlfriend thing didn't

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<v Speaker 1>work out quite the way you wanted it to, it's

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<v Speaker 1>like it was a relationship. It was a thing that

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<v Speaker 1>happened to you in your life. You know, you went

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<v Speaker 1>on this road trip. You're having real human life experiences

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<v Speaker 1>in this interesting hybrid way with VR and real life,

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<v Speaker 1>and so moving forward for you, do you see yourself

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<v Speaker 1>being able to put down the headset and go and

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<v Speaker 1>really make a concentrated effort to make friends outside of VR.

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<v Speaker 2>I I'm not really sure. I wants almost all of

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<v Speaker 2>my terroistics that people love about him from in real life.

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<v Speaker 2>Like before I got into VR, VR itself online itself

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<v Speaker 2>changes here how I've acted recently and how I do

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<v Speaker 2>things and how I do this and now I do that,

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<v Speaker 2>it's all changed, So it might not I might not

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<v Speaker 2>be able to like I'm struck, You're rick?

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<v Speaker 1>Can I ask you this? Have you ever been to

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<v Speaker 1>real therapy to talk about this?

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<v Speaker 2>I have not, But I think that I really don't,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I think that I can easily pass through

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<v Speaker 2>through life and I'll eventually get over it. It's social anxiety,

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<v Speaker 2>I know it, So I will eventually get over.

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<v Speaker 1>It, you believe so, so looking forward, you're optimistic about

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<v Speaker 1>your ability to get over your social anxiety.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, yes, I am. I'm pretty sure that if I

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<v Speaker 2>I meet some more friends from online hopefully here soon,

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<v Speaker 2>and maybe we I just meet all my friends or

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<v Speaker 2>some of my friends in real life again, I think

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<v Speaker 2>that I could definitely get more used to talking to

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<v Speaker 2>people in real life. And I just moving on conviction, right,

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<v Speaker 2>I think so too.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that the more efforts you can make to

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<v Speaker 1>take these people that you've been meeting in VR and

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<v Speaker 1>and make plans to you know, go to them or

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<v Speaker 1>have them come to you and meet them in real

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<v Speaker 1>life and slowly through that kind of transition from your

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<v Speaker 1>virtual world into the real world is a good way

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<v Speaker 1>for you to get over that that anxiety. And I'm

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<v Speaker 1>stoked to hear that you're optimistic about that.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean, I have hope. You know. I love

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<v Speaker 2>my friends. I trem like family. I will do anything

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<v Speaker 2>to meet them, to talk to them of the life.

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<v Speaker 2>I want to see those things. I want to talk

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<v Speaker 2>to them. That's some Adazar, that's kind of like what

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<v Speaker 2>I want to do. I want to meet my friends

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<v Speaker 2>in the real world, all right, I'll let.

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<v Speaker 1>You go, man, I'll talk to you soon. Thank you

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<v Speaker 1>very much for calling, and genuinely very excited to hear

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<v Speaker 1>that you see an upward trajectory for yourself.

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<v Speaker 2>All Right, get go, all right, I love what you're doing. Man,

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<v Speaker 2>continue with Okay, I will be appreciated.

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<v Speaker 1>Take care by the all right, that was a really

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<v Speaker 1>really interesting modern call.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>I was just I went to twitch Con recently and

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<v Speaker 1>I met a lot of people there who were meeting

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<v Speaker 1>their internet friends in real life for the first time.

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<v Speaker 1>And I don't know, I don't have like opinions about this.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just kind of going through it. It's like there's

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<v Speaker 1>all this pushback of, oh, kids aren't socializing enough these

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<v Speaker 1>days because they're out in v or playing Call of

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<v Speaker 1>Duty or doing these things. And it's a legitimate question

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<v Speaker 1>as to whether or not, you know, it's a legitimate

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<v Speaker 1>question as to how much of those interactions are legitimate,

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<v Speaker 1>healthy human social interactions. And I don't know. And Fox

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<v Speaker 1>was an interesting case study of this because he is

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<v Speaker 1>he is meeting real people and having real interactions through VR,

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<v Speaker 1>and they are leading to human interactions that have nothing

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<v Speaker 1>to do with VR, like this road trip, like meeting

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<v Speaker 1>up with that girl and listen, would it be better

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<v Speaker 1>and cleaner perhaps if he were able to have nothing

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<v Speaker 1>to do with the internet, have nothing to do with VR,

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<v Speaker 1>and have a healthy social life. Maybe, But I mean

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<v Speaker 1>that's not where we're at, even societally, That's not where

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<v Speaker 1>we're at. I mean, this is just gonna keep being

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<v Speaker 1>a thing that people get more and more into. And Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it was just interesting to talk to Fox in that

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<v Speaker 1>first person perspective of how he's he's navigating that, and

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<v Speaker 1>like I said, I'm glad to hear that. It's it

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<v Speaker 1>seems as though he's trying to make more of an

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<v Speaker 1>effort to transition these online relationships into real life relationships

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<v Speaker 1>and that that maybe leads to him being a little

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<v Speaker 1>bit more confident in the future in uh going out

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<v Speaker 1>and forming these relationships in real life without VR. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>let's take another call.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, Lyle, how are we doing?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing good? Is this is this Scottie?

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<v Speaker 5>Is this Scotti?

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<v Speaker 1>What's going on?

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<v Speaker 2>Get go coffee for Halloween?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? How much was yours?

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<v Speaker 5>It was like seventy five I think plus shipping.

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<v Speaker 1>Offerously, she was expensive. Dude, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 5>What I know I was sitting in my car and

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<v Speaker 5>I think you actually got an answers. I walked in,

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<v Speaker 5>but I guess, do some single bathroom real quick.

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<v Speaker 1>So Scotty, what's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 5>So I called to talk about something that happened to me.

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<v Speaker 5>It was a few years ago. I'm twenty seven since

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<v Speaker 5>last week, and when I was twenty one, me and

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<v Speaker 5>my family went to the Bahamas and we all drank

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<v Speaker 5>a good bit. It's a big drinking family. And at

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<v Speaker 5>one point we're all on the beach and I met

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<v Speaker 5>this girl and we were hanging out mostly and the

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<v Speaker 5>family always going to dinner. So I was like, all right,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm gonna stay ears. I cool, like I don't care,

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<v Speaker 5>it's fine whatever. And uh so they all went to dinner.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, this girl ended up going the ocean and doing.

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<v Speaker 2>A girl folk do.

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<v Speaker 5>And later that night, after came back to gave me

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<v Speaker 5>went home, my uncle came up to me. He's like, hey,

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<v Speaker 5>your granddad might have been videoing you while you were

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<v Speaker 5>doing it. I don't know if he knows.

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<v Speaker 2>I noticed.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't anyone else might have noticed. I guess, like

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<v Speaker 5>you can see what's going on and not like the

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<v Speaker 5>graphic because they were pretty far away, Like, I don't

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<v Speaker 5>even know the restaurants.

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<v Speaker 2>That close to us on the beach. I want to done.

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<v Speaker 1>It down for a second. Here, your grandfather accidentally videoed

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<v Speaker 1>you having sex? Yes, were you?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know if he knows it or not.

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<v Speaker 1>Were How does that even happen? Logistically?

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<v Speaker 4>They were pretty far away, but he got really nice.

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<v Speaker 5>Camera, so you can really zoom in on those things.

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<v Speaker 5>I guess he's video in the family at dinner.

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<v Speaker 1>You were having on the beach.

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<v Speaker 4>It was in the water, it was.

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<v Speaker 5>So you can see the motions, but you can't see everything. Obviously.

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<v Speaker 1>Is it during the day?

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<v Speaker 5>Sun was going down, but it was a little live outside.

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<v Speaker 1>And we were just having sex with this girl in

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<v Speaker 1>the middle of the day. Apparently it wasn't empty. Apparently

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<v Speaker 1>your grandfather was there.

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<v Speaker 5>The restaurant has seen a lot further at the time.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, so there's a restaurant and then hold on, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>trying to get the bistics of this down. Okay, So

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<v Speaker 1>there's a restaurant overlooking the beach, and it overlooks the

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<v Speaker 1>part of the beach that you are in with this

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<v Speaker 1>girl in the water having sex, and your grandfather is

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<v Speaker 1>just video things going on in the restaurant, and then

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<v Speaker 1>you are somehow in the background of your grandfather's Now wait,

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<v Speaker 1>he zoomed, how do you Okay, how do you accidentally

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<v Speaker 1>zoom in on you having sex? How is that an accident?

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<v Speaker 4>He didn't know I was doing it.

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<v Speaker 5>He didn't know what was going on.

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<v Speaker 1>So he was just zooming in on the beach.

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<v Speaker 5>Me in the water with this girl. And does this makes.

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<v Speaker 2>Sense to you night lately?

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<v Speaker 1>See what does this make sense to you?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 5>Because I was there, it makes sense to me. I've

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<v Speaker 5>seen the video, Like just imagine that was at the

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<v Speaker 5>table and he's like, hey.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean this is the family vacation.

0:28:21.160 --> 0:28:22.600
<v Speaker 5>It's like Scott say, to hang out with this girl

0:28:22.640 --> 0:28:23.960
<v Speaker 5>and he zooms in and zooms out.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>So so basically what's happening is your grandfather was taking

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<v Speaker 1>some home videos and then you happened to be in

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<v Speaker 1>the background, unbeknownst to your grandfather, having sex in the water.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, but it must have been noticely enough for my

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<v Speaker 5>uncle to realize because I knew. But my uncle came

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<v Speaker 5>up to me and was like, hey, I hope you

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<v Speaker 5>know that, Like this is what happened, and he has it.

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<v Speaker 5>But the thing is is what I call it. It's

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<v Speaker 5>like I didn't really care at the time.

0:28:56.680 --> 0:28:58.280
<v Speaker 2>I thought it's a funny to where I told my friends.

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<v Speaker 5>But like the older I get, you know, the boy,

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<v Speaker 5>You're like, god, damn indeed.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't why if he knows?

0:29:06.360 --> 0:29:08.320
<v Speaker 1>Well, okay, why you say god damn it?

0:29:08.400 --> 0:29:08.560
<v Speaker 2>Dude?

0:29:08.600 --> 0:29:10.000
<v Speaker 1>You say that you didn't care at the time, but

0:29:10.040 --> 0:29:12.320
<v Speaker 1>as you get older, it's starting to weigh on you.

0:29:12.640 --> 0:29:15.000
<v Speaker 1>Why is it start older?

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<v Speaker 5>You just respect your grandparents more than what you get,

0:29:18.960 --> 0:29:21.720
<v Speaker 5>you know, and you don't love to see ship like that.

0:29:22.680 --> 0:29:26.120
<v Speaker 5>It was an awful decision for sure, but also didn't

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<v Speaker 5>know they were so close, and I was heavily appreciated.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So do you so your grandfather doesn't know that

0:29:32.360 --> 0:29:34.400
<v Speaker 1>he's in possession of a video of you having sex.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know. If he doesn't know, he could very

0:29:38.320 --> 0:29:40.360
<v Speaker 5>well know. And if he knows, my grandma knows. God,

0:29:40.440 --> 0:29:42.680
<v Speaker 5>that's even worth all to have.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you ever talked to him about it?

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<v Speaker 5>No, not a conversation immigrants that usually kind of have.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So is this a thing that weighs heavy on

0:29:54.040 --> 0:29:54.520
<v Speaker 1>your mind?

0:29:56.200 --> 0:29:56.400
<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I definitely, late in bed and I had thought

0:29:58.520 --> 0:29:59.440
<v Speaker 5>about this a long time.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, do you feel do you feel as though do

0:30:02.960 --> 0:30:07.280
<v Speaker 1>you feel as though addressing it and talking to your

0:30:07.280 --> 0:30:14.840
<v Speaker 1>grandfather would uh would get rid of that?

0:30:15.080 --> 0:30:15.440
<v Speaker 2>If he does?

0:30:17.200 --> 0:30:18.280
<v Speaker 5>What if he doesn't know though?

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<v Speaker 1>Well? Okay, the weighing heavy, let's let's get into this.

0:30:25.400 --> 0:30:27.360
<v Speaker 1>You say it weighs heavy on your mind?

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<v Speaker 2>Right?

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<v Speaker 1>Does it? Actually? Yes?

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<v Speaker 6>No?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, why does it? Why do you hate it?

0:30:36.120 --> 0:30:37.400
<v Speaker 1>Why is it way heavy on your mind?

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<v Speaker 5>It's just you know, you look back at stuff you

0:30:40.880 --> 0:30:43.880
<v Speaker 5>definitely should have done differently, and it's definitely probably top.

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<v Speaker 2>Three on my list right now.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Well, you know like they have.

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<v Speaker 5>I feel like I feel like they possibly have acted

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<v Speaker 5>differently towards me the beast couple of years ago.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh okay, you think they've seen it? Do you think

0:30:55.920 --> 0:30:58.000
<v Speaker 1>they've seen it? And you don't want to bring it

0:30:58.080 --> 0:31:00.200
<v Speaker 1>up to them because if they haven't seen it, you

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<v Speaker 1>bring it up, then.

0:31:04.520 --> 0:31:06.120
<v Speaker 5>They know if I are their poor decisions, So it

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<v Speaker 5>could be other things has kind of changed our relationship,

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<v Speaker 5>I guess some, but that's the one that's like, what.

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<v Speaker 1>The fuck, Scotty, you gotta eat this all right?

0:31:17.840 --> 0:31:19.520
<v Speaker 2>I'd eat it you just gotta eat it.

0:31:19.560 --> 0:31:22.320
<v Speaker 1>You just gotta like. Look, I don't know if you

0:31:22.400 --> 0:31:24.880
<v Speaker 1>I don't know whether or not you should go and

0:31:24.880 --> 0:31:27.960
<v Speaker 1>tell him, but don't, don't let What do you.

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<v Speaker 5>Think I should do?

0:31:29.520 --> 0:31:30.200
<v Speaker 1>I think you should do?

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<v Speaker 5>You think I should?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>I think you should?

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<v Speaker 2>Interesting?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh all right, well maybe I will.

0:31:43.760 --> 0:31:46.560
<v Speaker 1>Is that footage you We don't know how many generations

0:31:46.600 --> 0:31:48.760
<v Speaker 1>that footage is gonna be passed down through.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't even remember the footage at this point.

0:31:51.000 --> 0:31:52.560
<v Speaker 2>It's in like five years. I can't remember what it

0:31:52.560 --> 0:31:54.680
<v Speaker 2>looks like. I'm looked back at it. I'm like, I

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<v Speaker 2>wish I remember.

0:31:58.040 --> 0:32:02.600
<v Speaker 1>Years ago. Scotty has happened five years ago. You gotta

0:32:02.640 --> 0:32:04.480
<v Speaker 1>deal with you gotta deal with this, Scott. You gotta

0:32:04.520 --> 0:32:07.000
<v Speaker 1>eat this all right?

0:32:08.880 --> 0:32:09.160
<v Speaker 2>All right?

0:32:09.200 --> 0:32:09.800
<v Speaker 5>Well, thank you, Lou.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else? Who I say to the people

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<v Speaker 1>of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 2>Yea, all was on Friday night? Get wild for me,

0:32:19.760 --> 0:32:19.960
<v Speaker 2>have a.

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<v Speaker 1>Good night, Scotty man. Now I kind of want to

0:32:28.120 --> 0:32:31.360
<v Speaker 1>go in a family vacation with Scotty's family. It sounds

0:32:31.400 --> 0:32:36.120
<v Speaker 1>like it's fun. Hi, Hi, who is this?

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<v Speaker 3>I love?

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<v Speaker 2>So?

0:32:40.080 --> 0:32:40.600
<v Speaker 1>I love?

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<v Speaker 3>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh, what's going on with you today?

0:32:50.040 --> 0:32:54.880
<v Speaker 3>There's plenty, but I told the call screener, I, okay,

0:32:55.200 --> 0:32:58.400
<v Speaker 3>I have a weird name. I'm Eastern European and I

0:32:58.440 --> 0:33:04.640
<v Speaker 3>grew up for Eastern European. Right that being said, I

0:33:04.680 --> 0:33:06.760
<v Speaker 3>have a lot of friends who are the same way

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<v Speaker 3>as me, one being my best friend, who I've known

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<v Speaker 3>since I was two, and like within the last two years,

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<v Speaker 3>he's told me that he's in love with me and

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<v Speaker 3>that we're going to get married. But I strongly believe

0:33:21.240 --> 0:33:24.480
<v Speaker 3>he's gay, and I've heard stories, but he doesn't know

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<v Speaker 3>that I know any of that, and I'm wondering if

0:33:27.160 --> 0:33:30.040
<v Speaker 3>I should tell him.

0:33:30.160 --> 0:33:34.080
<v Speaker 1>Okay, so you have this childhood friend who claims they're

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<v Speaker 1>in love with you, but you believe they are gay.

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<v Speaker 3>Yep, And oh, okay. Me personally, when I I'm just

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<v Speaker 3>an anxious human being. When I hear people like come

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<v Speaker 3>up to me and tell me, hey, I heard this

0:33:48.520 --> 0:33:51.800
<v Speaker 3>about you, I get super embarrassed, even if it's not true,

0:33:52.200 --> 0:33:54.120
<v Speaker 3>and I feel like being gay, there's nothing to be

0:33:54.160 --> 0:33:57.280
<v Speaker 3>embarrassed about whatsoever. If he's gay, more power to him.

0:33:57.280 --> 0:34:00.400
<v Speaker 3>He should just tell me so I can be there welcome.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, okay, so hold on. So but before we get

0:34:04.360 --> 0:34:09.520
<v Speaker 1>into him, tell me about you. Do you have romantic

0:34:09.560 --> 0:34:12.520
<v Speaker 1>feelings for this guy? No.

0:34:12.800 --> 0:34:16.560
<v Speaker 3>I look at him and okay, he's like conventionally attractive.

0:34:16.760 --> 0:34:18.360
<v Speaker 3>I have a boyfriend and I got a boyfriend in

0:34:18.360 --> 0:34:21.280
<v Speaker 3>the last three years, and they don't get along. Because

0:34:21.880 --> 0:34:25.040
<v Speaker 3>I've told my boyfriend how he's told me he likes me. Obviously,

0:34:25.080 --> 0:34:29.359
<v Speaker 3>I have to tell my boyfriend that. Sure, But I

0:34:29.400 --> 0:34:31.439
<v Speaker 3>grew up with him, like, I love him so much

0:34:31.520 --> 0:34:34.880
<v Speaker 3>like a brother, and I don't with my friends, my friends.

0:34:35.040 --> 0:34:37.560
<v Speaker 3>He's tried to make me jealous by dating myself.

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<v Speaker 1>So hold on, you said Ila, You said yes, Isla.

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<v Speaker 1>So here's kind of like just off the bat is, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I think the reason I asked you is

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<v Speaker 1>if you like him back, because that's the only thing

0:34:50.440 --> 0:34:54.520
<v Speaker 1>that I think matters here. You know, you speculating about

0:34:54.560 --> 0:34:59.480
<v Speaker 1>your friend's sexuality. I think you're doing it from a

0:34:59.600 --> 0:35:03.680
<v Speaker 1>nice place. Well, hold on, give you the second. I

0:35:03.680 --> 0:35:07.400
<v Speaker 1>think it's okay, it's okay. I think you're doing it

0:35:07.440 --> 0:35:09.759
<v Speaker 1>from a nice place. I think you're coming at it

0:35:09.800 --> 0:35:12.560
<v Speaker 1>from like I want him to tell me so that

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<v Speaker 1>I can be there for him. And you know, I think,

0:35:16.400 --> 0:35:18.080
<v Speaker 1>like I said, you're doing it from a kind place.

0:35:18.440 --> 0:35:21.640
<v Speaker 1>But you have to understand, you know, whether whether or

0:35:21.640 --> 0:35:25.760
<v Speaker 1>not like this guy's sexuality in terms of the question

0:35:25.880 --> 0:35:28.759
<v Speaker 1>of him liking you is irrelevant. The only thing that's

0:35:28.760 --> 0:35:31.279
<v Speaker 1>relevant is whether or not you like him back, and

0:35:31.320 --> 0:35:33.960
<v Speaker 1>you don't. And so at this point with your friend,

0:35:35.320 --> 0:35:40.319
<v Speaker 1>whatever you have heard, whatever you are speculating, is irrelevant

0:35:40.360 --> 0:35:44.200
<v Speaker 1>because if your friend wants to come out to you

0:35:44.400 --> 0:35:47.719
<v Speaker 1>and come out to the way, he'll do it on

0:35:47.920 --> 0:35:51.160
<v Speaker 1>his own time, and you know, you can let him know.

0:35:51.960 --> 0:35:54.400
<v Speaker 1>You can let him you can, and you can let

0:35:54.480 --> 0:36:00.160
<v Speaker 1>him know however you want to, in whatever subtle way,

0:36:00.800 --> 0:36:03.719
<v Speaker 1>not necessarily saying hey, I heard this, and just say

0:36:03.760 --> 0:36:06.040
<v Speaker 1>you know, if this, then this, but just just let

0:36:06.160 --> 0:36:08.480
<v Speaker 1>him know that you were supportive friend. In general.

0:36:10.239 --> 0:36:14.000
<v Speaker 3>I try to bring it up and he like, but

0:36:14.120 --> 0:36:17.759
<v Speaker 3>I'm but I try to be extremely vague, so it's

0:36:17.800 --> 0:36:20.680
<v Speaker 3>like really bad the way that I'm like, I'm just

0:36:20.680 --> 0:36:23.200
<v Speaker 3>trying to get it out of him, and we're both

0:36:23.280 --> 0:36:25.640
<v Speaker 3>super accepting people. But I don't think he'll ever admit

0:36:25.719 --> 0:36:30.359
<v Speaker 3>it to like anyone, let alone himself. And that's love.

0:36:31.440 --> 0:36:33.719
<v Speaker 1>You don't you don't need to feel bad, you don't

0:36:33.760 --> 0:36:37.320
<v Speaker 1>need to keep speculating about his sexuality. You don't, I

0:36:37.520 --> 0:36:39.560
<v Speaker 1>don't even don't think about it, don't worry about it.

0:36:39.560 --> 0:36:43.960
<v Speaker 1>It's it's all you should be doing.

0:36:43.960 --> 0:36:45.600
<v Speaker 3>I don't have to worry about with myself and how

0:36:45.680 --> 0:36:46.160
<v Speaker 3>I feel.

0:36:46.239 --> 0:36:50.799
<v Speaker 1>And well there's that, but I listen, just just just

0:36:50.920 --> 0:36:53.200
<v Speaker 1>be a good friend to this person. Don't keep thinking

0:36:53.239 --> 0:36:56.239
<v Speaker 1>about their sexuality. Don't try to like get them to

0:36:56.280 --> 0:36:58.400
<v Speaker 1>admit anything to you. They'll they'll do it on their

0:36:58.440 --> 0:36:59.080
<v Speaker 1>own time.

0:36:59.480 --> 0:37:02.120
<v Speaker 3>But I kind of feel like I'm being a bad

0:37:02.160 --> 0:37:06.120
<v Speaker 3>friend to him because I'm keeping the secret from him. Like, hey,

0:37:06.200 --> 0:37:08.279
<v Speaker 3>people are saying that, Like we grew up in a

0:37:08.360 --> 0:37:11.440
<v Speaker 3>really small town and we still live here. Like if

0:37:11.480 --> 0:37:13.359
<v Speaker 3>you go to a bar, you're going to be at

0:37:13.400 --> 0:37:15.320
<v Speaker 3>the bar with every person you went to high school,

0:37:15.400 --> 0:37:19.080
<v Speaker 3>middle school with and their parents pretty much, right, And

0:37:19.360 --> 0:37:22.279
<v Speaker 3>all these people know this about him, and like they've

0:37:22.280 --> 0:37:24.680
<v Speaker 3>told me, and I feel like he's the only person

0:37:24.719 --> 0:37:26.839
<v Speaker 3>that doesn't know people are saying this about him.

0:37:28.000 --> 0:37:32.440
<v Speaker 1>Okay, so what I tell him you? Okay, so you're

0:37:32.480 --> 0:37:35.000
<v Speaker 1>trying to decide whether or not you should report the

0:37:35.120 --> 0:37:37.480
<v Speaker 1>rumors that other people yeah.

0:37:37.400 --> 0:37:40.200
<v Speaker 3>To him because I've been holding it in for like

0:37:40.280 --> 0:37:42.600
<v Speaker 3>almost two years now, Okay, can I tell you what

0:37:42.600 --> 0:37:47.600
<v Speaker 3>the rumor is. Sure, and there's a reason why I

0:37:47.600 --> 0:37:52.200
<v Speaker 3>think it's true. So he's like a gym guy, right,

0:37:52.320 --> 0:37:56.640
<v Speaker 3>he's a bodybuilder. He's like strong, and apparently he's been

0:37:56.640 --> 0:38:00.160
<v Speaker 3>hooking up with the bartender who's also like a dream

0:38:00.200 --> 0:38:04.200
<v Speaker 3>a dym rat from those two bars in my town,

0:38:04.440 --> 0:38:06.279
<v Speaker 3>from one of the local bars, he's been hooking up

0:38:06.320 --> 0:38:10.480
<v Speaker 3>with him. And Christmas Day, me and him, we went

0:38:10.520 --> 0:38:15.000
<v Speaker 3>to his family's like Christmas like breakfast, and then after

0:38:15.080 --> 0:38:17.319
<v Speaker 3>he was like, Hey, I'm gonna go get that can

0:38:17.320 --> 0:38:21.640
<v Speaker 3>I say weed of marijuana from his buddy? And it

0:38:21.760 --> 0:38:23.160
<v Speaker 3>was and he brought me with him, but it was

0:38:23.200 --> 0:38:25.520
<v Speaker 3>the most weird interaction and it was him in the

0:38:25.520 --> 0:38:28.040
<v Speaker 3>sky and he like gave him like freed and.

0:38:28.120 --> 0:38:34.600
<v Speaker 1>Like, okay, give me a second. I think we're getting.

0:38:36.520 --> 0:38:36.680
<v Speaker 2>No.

0:38:36.680 --> 0:38:39.560
<v Speaker 1>No, you're you're you're totally fine. I'm glad that we're

0:38:39.600 --> 0:38:42.279
<v Speaker 1>talking about this, but just give me a second here,

0:38:42.360 --> 0:38:44.800
<v Speaker 1>because I think you're talking about these You're I'm the

0:38:44.840 --> 0:38:46.480
<v Speaker 1>one who said sure, so I'll take the blame for

0:38:46.600 --> 0:38:48.360
<v Speaker 1>you explaining that, but I'm thinking about it.

0:38:48.760 --> 0:38:53.520
<v Speaker 3>I'm a talker, so it's unnervous and tell me to

0:38:53.520 --> 0:38:53.960
<v Speaker 3>shut up.

0:38:54.320 --> 0:38:57.600
<v Speaker 1>Okay, it's okay, Okay. So here's the thing. I think

0:38:58.200 --> 0:39:01.080
<v Speaker 1>that again. You know, you didn't know you're coming at

0:39:01.120 --> 0:39:04.680
<v Speaker 1>everything with good intentions. You know, you're like, should I

0:39:04.680 --> 0:39:10.640
<v Speaker 1>tell my friend because hold on, yes, okay, it's okay,

0:39:10.719 --> 0:39:14.040
<v Speaker 1>it's okay, okay, you're coming at everything with good intentions.

0:39:15.000 --> 0:39:17.560
<v Speaker 1>You know, you're like, Okay, people are talking shit about

0:39:17.600 --> 0:39:19.239
<v Speaker 1>my friend. It is my duty as a friend to

0:39:19.320 --> 0:39:23.319
<v Speaker 1>report when they're talking shit. And on that note, as

0:39:23.320 --> 0:39:26.600
<v Speaker 1>to whether or not it's your duty to report any

0:39:26.640 --> 0:39:29.360
<v Speaker 1>shit talk or rumors going on about your friend, I

0:39:29.600 --> 0:39:31.640
<v Speaker 1>don't know. I'm thinking about it. You're making me think

0:39:31.640 --> 0:39:33.520
<v Speaker 1>about it right now, because on one hand, I really

0:39:33.560 --> 0:39:36.640
<v Speaker 1>do believe that ignorance is bliss and your friend might

0:39:37.120 --> 0:39:41.720
<v Speaker 1>just be completely better off not even knowing or thinking

0:39:41.760 --> 0:39:47.359
<v Speaker 1>about these rumors, are knowing that they exist because what

0:39:47.400 --> 0:39:50.120
<v Speaker 1>other people are saying about this guy is irrelevant to

0:39:50.200 --> 0:39:52.640
<v Speaker 1>him and his experience of life. And then on the

0:39:52.640 --> 0:39:55.120
<v Speaker 1>other hand, it's like, Okay, maybe you feel like it's

0:39:55.120 --> 0:39:57.360
<v Speaker 1>your duty to report these things and not just be

0:39:58.000 --> 0:39:59.719
<v Speaker 1>ignorant about it. I don't know. I don't really have

0:39:59.760 --> 0:40:01.359
<v Speaker 1>any answer to that. I think it's an interesting thing

0:40:01.440 --> 0:40:06.600
<v Speaker 1>to kind of think about. But just listen. Whatever you

0:40:06.640 --> 0:40:15.000
<v Speaker 1>do isila. Don't try to milk this or like speculate

0:40:15.040 --> 0:40:17.520
<v Speaker 1>about your friend. Don't join into the rumors. Don't tell

0:40:17.520 --> 0:40:21.120
<v Speaker 1>anybody else the rumors. Just try to ignore.

0:40:20.800 --> 0:40:22.200
<v Speaker 3>Them anyone talk about him.

0:40:22.719 --> 0:40:25.319
<v Speaker 1>Be in your head thinking about always my friend hooking

0:40:25.400 --> 0:40:28.799
<v Speaker 1>up with this part. Just be a friend to this

0:40:29.000 --> 0:40:31.439
<v Speaker 1>guy and I And if I were you, I would

0:40:31.480 --> 0:40:34.759
<v Speaker 1>I think you should just stop speculating on his sexuality

0:40:34.800 --> 0:40:39.080
<v Speaker 1>and accept friend that he'll come out when he is

0:40:39.120 --> 0:40:41.399
<v Speaker 1>ready to do so, if he is ready to do so.

0:40:42.600 --> 0:40:45.399
<v Speaker 3>But the friend thing, I'm torn with the friend thing

0:40:45.719 --> 0:40:48.440
<v Speaker 3>as well because he says that he likes me and

0:40:48.480 --> 0:40:50.359
<v Speaker 3>he feels a certain way, but I feel like he's

0:40:50.440 --> 0:40:53.920
<v Speaker 3>kind of rude in the way that he goes about it.

0:40:54.000 --> 0:40:56.360
<v Speaker 3>Like I feel like if I don't like him and

0:40:56.400 --> 0:40:59.200
<v Speaker 3>I tell him I'm not interested, then he like doesn't

0:40:59.200 --> 0:41:02.360
<v Speaker 3>talk to me for how over long? So it's like,

0:41:02.400 --> 0:41:04.279
<v Speaker 3>am I really doing a favor for a friend by

0:41:04.320 --> 0:41:09.560
<v Speaker 3>not telling him, because like he was really my friend?

0:41:07.760 --> 0:41:11.080
<v Speaker 1>This is this you just you just brought up a

0:41:11.280 --> 0:41:13.359
<v Speaker 1>completely separate issue from anything that we've talked about.

0:41:13.600 --> 0:41:15.880
<v Speaker 3>I know, I know, I'm gonna say, I call you.

0:41:15.960 --> 0:41:18.560
<v Speaker 3>I call you every time you're on stream. I get

0:41:18.560 --> 0:41:22.120
<v Speaker 3>the notification. I call within like the first five minutes,

0:41:23.160 --> 0:41:25.160
<v Speaker 3>and I never thought i'd get this far.

0:41:25.640 --> 0:41:28.040
<v Speaker 1>No, it's it's okay, it's okay. Just listen to me

0:41:28.080 --> 0:41:29.600
<v Speaker 1>for a second. Okay, I'm gonna do. This is the

0:41:29.640 --> 0:41:33.000
<v Speaker 1>last thing I'm gonna say to you. You're coming You're

0:41:33.040 --> 0:41:36.799
<v Speaker 1>coming in here with like. Again. I think good intentions.

0:41:36.960 --> 0:41:39.480
<v Speaker 1>You want to be a good friend. That's where we're

0:41:39.520 --> 0:41:41.920
<v Speaker 1>operating from. I think it's a good place to operate from.

0:41:42.000 --> 0:41:44.960
<v Speaker 1>But you're you're coming in here with like. Oh, I

0:41:44.960 --> 0:41:47.440
<v Speaker 1>think there he might be this, and I think possibly this,

0:41:47.520 --> 0:41:49.840
<v Speaker 1>and maybe this and maybe this. If you what you

0:41:50.040 --> 0:41:52.919
<v Speaker 1>just told me about how you think he's being rude

0:41:52.960 --> 0:41:55.719
<v Speaker 1>about it, and you want to preserve the friendship, Okay,

0:41:56.360 --> 0:41:58.960
<v Speaker 1>tell that to him. Tell that to him. Okay, And

0:41:59.000 --> 0:42:01.080
<v Speaker 1>if he says to you and if and listen, if

0:42:01.080 --> 0:42:04.200
<v Speaker 1>he says to you, listen, I like you too much.

0:42:05.000 --> 0:42:07.680
<v Speaker 1>And because I like you, I can't just be friends

0:42:07.680 --> 0:42:09.040
<v Speaker 1>with you, and so I have to live with the

0:42:09.040 --> 0:42:11.520
<v Speaker 1>amount of contact I have with you. That's that's his

0:42:11.640 --> 0:42:15.719
<v Speaker 1>boundary and you should accept that too. Okay, So just.

0:42:17.719 --> 0:42:20.680
<v Speaker 3>Way of thinking, and I feel like he's a little toxic,

0:42:20.719 --> 0:42:22.960
<v Speaker 3>and I feel like it's the Eastern European in him.

0:42:23.280 --> 0:42:24.960
<v Speaker 3>But I feel like he wouldn't go that way, like

0:42:25.000 --> 0:42:25.759
<v Speaker 3>you wouldn't say that.

0:42:27.000 --> 0:42:29.839
<v Speaker 1>What do you think he would? Well? Okay, dude, well, dude, dude.

0:42:30.120 --> 0:42:31.960
<v Speaker 1>Let you don't know what he would say unless if

0:42:31.960 --> 0:42:35.000
<v Speaker 1>you fucking tell them. So sitting here wondering whether what

0:42:35.120 --> 0:42:36.760
<v Speaker 1>he would say is under.

0:42:36.920 --> 0:42:39.480
<v Speaker 3>The conversation with him all the time. And I've had

0:42:39.520 --> 0:42:41.160
<v Speaker 3>it with like my friends, all of our friends that

0:42:41.200 --> 0:42:44.680
<v Speaker 3>we grew up together, like we can, like our families

0:42:44.680 --> 0:42:47.560
<v Speaker 3>came to this country, like to America at the same time,

0:42:47.640 --> 0:42:49.400
<v Speaker 3>so we all grew up together and like kind of

0:42:49.920 --> 0:42:53.920
<v Speaker 3>similarly at home, Like I don't know, at school, I

0:42:53.960 --> 0:42:55.680
<v Speaker 3>always felt like you had one foot in one door

0:42:55.760 --> 0:42:56.439
<v Speaker 3>and then one out.

0:42:56.360 --> 0:43:00.279
<v Speaker 1>The other when you LISTENLA, is there anything else you

0:43:00.280 --> 0:43:01.920
<v Speaker 1>want to say to the people of the computer before

0:43:01.920 --> 0:43:02.080
<v Speaker 1>we go?

0:43:03.640 --> 0:43:04.680
<v Speaker 3>Can I say something to you?

0:43:05.480 --> 0:43:05.920
<v Speaker 1>What's up?

0:43:07.680 --> 0:43:10.440
<v Speaker 3>I've called before to tell you this, but I found

0:43:10.440 --> 0:43:14.080
<v Speaker 3>your podcast and I you have me thinking about like

0:43:14.600 --> 0:43:19.319
<v Speaker 3>life situations in such a healthy, like way. Good and

0:43:20.280 --> 0:43:23.279
<v Speaker 3>you literally seriously like the way that you like like

0:43:23.400 --> 0:43:25.640
<v Speaker 3>process things that people say to you, and like the

0:43:25.680 --> 0:43:27.600
<v Speaker 3>way you go about it is like so healthy and

0:43:27.680 --> 0:43:30.680
<v Speaker 3>so cool, and I really appreciate it. It has me thinking

0:43:30.680 --> 0:43:34.279
<v Speaker 3>about my life and like the way I respond to

0:43:34.360 --> 0:43:36.399
<v Speaker 3>things in such a better way.

0:43:36.920 --> 0:43:38.440
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to try to I'm going to try to

0:43:38.480 --> 0:43:41.960
<v Speaker 1>take my own Thank you. I appreciate that very much.

0:43:42.000 --> 0:43:44.040
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna try to start all over the place I thought.

0:43:44.120 --> 0:43:45.759
<v Speaker 1>No, it's okay, I don't worry. But like I said,

0:43:45.760 --> 0:43:47.960
<v Speaker 1>you're coming at it with good intentions, and I appreciate that.

0:43:48.080 --> 0:43:50.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to try to take my own advice and uh,

0:43:50.800 --> 0:43:53.480
<v Speaker 1>live live live better according to how I tell other

0:43:53.520 --> 0:43:55.960
<v Speaker 1>people to live in my personal life.

0:43:56.040 --> 0:43:58.839
<v Speaker 3>So yeah, I feel like it's so easy to like say,

0:43:58.960 --> 0:44:01.160
<v Speaker 3>like give people advice, but taking it at yourself it's

0:44:01.200 --> 0:44:04.680
<v Speaker 3>the hardest start. But yeah, you're amazing. I look at

0:44:04.680 --> 0:44:07.160
<v Speaker 3>things so much better now because of you, and I Yeah,

0:44:07.680 --> 0:44:09.320
<v Speaker 3>I really wish I got to see you in Boston,

0:44:09.400 --> 0:44:10.319
<v Speaker 3>but I.

0:44:15.719 --> 0:44:18.640
<v Speaker 1>Hope to see you next year in Boston, And good

0:44:18.680 --> 0:44:19.960
<v Speaker 1>luck with your friends, and I will talk to you.

0:44:20.400 --> 0:44:23.520
<v Speaker 3>It was so good talking to you. Finally, have a

0:44:23.680 --> 0:44:25.160
<v Speaker 3>rest of the day of your day.

0:44:25.719 --> 0:44:26.799
<v Speaker 4>Bye.

0:44:27.400 --> 0:44:30.080
<v Speaker 1>You know it's funny it's funny. It's funny, she said

0:44:30.080 --> 0:44:32.879
<v Speaker 1>all this stuff. And then I said, you know, I'm

0:44:32.880 --> 0:44:35.080
<v Speaker 1>trying to do it more in my personal life because

0:44:35.080 --> 0:44:41.359
<v Speaker 1>I think what I told her of Like, I mean

0:44:41.400 --> 0:44:45.080
<v Speaker 1>that interaction we had where I was like, I told her, Okay,

0:44:45.120 --> 0:44:47.440
<v Speaker 1>why don't you tell him this? And she said, but

0:44:47.480 --> 0:44:48.839
<v Speaker 1>if I tell him this, he's going to say this.

0:44:48.880 --> 0:44:50.120
<v Speaker 1>And then I said, well, you don't know what he's

0:44:50.120 --> 0:44:52.960
<v Speaker 1>going to say unless if you actually go and tell him.

0:44:53.160 --> 0:44:54.920
<v Speaker 1>That's something I think I should do more in my

0:44:54.960 --> 0:44:57.680
<v Speaker 1>personal life. You know, that was an easy thing for

0:44:57.719 --> 0:44:59.640
<v Speaker 1>me to tell someone because having tough conversation. It's so

0:44:59.719 --> 0:45:02.200
<v Speaker 1>easy to tell somebody to go run and have a

0:45:02.200 --> 0:45:05.160
<v Speaker 1>tough conversation. But I think it's harder, to harder to

0:45:05.200 --> 0:45:09.280
<v Speaker 1>actually do it. So I'll think about that. I'm always

0:45:09.280 --> 0:45:11.319
<v Speaker 1>try I'm trying to check myself more often. I'm like,

0:45:11.360 --> 0:45:14.440
<v Speaker 1>i'd go on a podcast and talk to other people

0:45:14.440 --> 0:45:19.360
<v Speaker 1>about their lives. I hope I practice things that I

0:45:19.440 --> 0:45:22.880
<v Speaker 1>tell others, or it could just be a giant gecko

0:45:22.960 --> 0:45:28.080
<v Speaker 1>hypocrite guy. Anyway, Thank you Isla for did I say

0:45:28.080 --> 0:45:31.279
<v Speaker 1>that right? Isla? Thank you for talking to a get

0:45:31.320 --> 0:45:35.360
<v Speaker 1>go on the phone. He'sla. Hello, Hello, what's new with you?

0:45:36.560 --> 0:45:39.400
<v Speaker 4>Nothing much? I saw you out in Denver on Wednesday.

0:45:39.800 --> 0:45:41.080
<v Speaker 2>Your live shows are super good.

0:45:41.719 --> 0:45:44.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh fuck yeah, no, thanks for coming to the Denver

0:45:44.360 --> 0:45:47.000
<v Speaker 1>show Man. That was That was fine. That was crazy.

0:45:47.040 --> 0:45:48.479
<v Speaker 1>I felt really good about that one.

0:45:49.880 --> 0:45:51.640
<v Speaker 4>No, yeah, yeah, yeah, it's such a fun show.

0:45:53.480 --> 0:45:56.799
<v Speaker 1>What's going on with you? My friend? What is it

0:45:56.840 --> 0:45:58.400
<v Speaker 1>that you called in to talk about?

0:46:00.080 --> 0:46:02.759
<v Speaker 4>I wanted to call you about something called monkey time.

0:46:02.800 --> 0:46:05.760
<v Speaker 4>It's been happening to me since middle school.

0:46:06.560 --> 0:46:09.640
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it says here. That says here you wanted to

0:46:09.680 --> 0:46:12.480
<v Speaker 1>talk about monkey time. And I saw that and I

0:46:12.520 --> 0:46:15.160
<v Speaker 1>was like, what the hell is that? And I figured

0:46:15.200 --> 0:46:17.799
<v Speaker 1>the only way to answer that question is to ask you.

0:46:19.880 --> 0:46:25.400
<v Speaker 4>So monkey Time has happened since middle school. So basically

0:46:25.480 --> 0:46:29.600
<v Speaker 4>what happens is I'd be hanging out with my friends,

0:46:29.600 --> 0:46:32.080
<v Speaker 4>like four guys, and at some point in the night

0:46:32.120 --> 0:46:35.200
<v Speaker 4>they'd see monkey time and they would pin me to

0:46:35.239 --> 0:46:37.920
<v Speaker 4>the ground and tickle me until I screamed like a monkey.

0:46:43.280 --> 0:46:47.200
<v Speaker 1>Okay, now when did this start happening?

0:46:48.719 --> 0:46:54.120
<v Speaker 4>So this started happening I would say sixth seventh grade.

0:46:57.160 --> 0:46:58.960
<v Speaker 1>And how long has it been going on for.

0:47:02.000 --> 0:47:07.080
<v Speaker 4>The last monkey time? Maybe a year ago? But I've

0:47:07.120 --> 0:47:10.960
<v Speaker 4>since moved from my hometown, so the monkey times aren't

0:47:11.040 --> 0:47:11.680
<v Speaker 4>as frequent.

0:47:13.160 --> 0:47:14.000
<v Speaker 1>And how old are you know?

0:47:15.440 --> 0:47:17.400
<v Speaker 4>I am twenty three?

0:47:17.560 --> 0:47:21.600
<v Speaker 1>Okay, so you were having monkey time from seventh grade

0:47:21.680 --> 0:47:23.360
<v Speaker 1>up until you were twenty two years old?

0:47:24.360 --> 0:47:24.680
<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

0:47:26.280 --> 0:47:30.120
<v Speaker 1>And is monkey time always directed towards you? Or is

0:47:30.160 --> 0:47:34.239
<v Speaker 1>there a rotating sort of victim of the monkey time?

0:47:35.680 --> 0:47:37.840
<v Speaker 4>That's the thing, Ryle, It has always just been me.

0:47:38.160 --> 0:47:40.560
<v Speaker 4>There is no other person that takes a monkey time.

0:47:41.640 --> 0:47:44.640
<v Speaker 1>Interesting. Why do you think your friends have designated you

0:47:44.680 --> 0:47:47.520
<v Speaker 1>as the consistent monkey time taker?

0:47:49.760 --> 0:47:49.960
<v Speaker 2>You know?

0:47:50.120 --> 0:47:54.239
<v Speaker 4>I think it's because I am extremely ticklish and I'm

0:47:54.239 --> 0:47:56.280
<v Speaker 4>not quite as strong as them, so I'm very easy

0:47:56.320 --> 0:47:58.200
<v Speaker 4>to overpower and tickle.

0:47:59.280 --> 0:48:04.120
<v Speaker 1>Okay. Uh, how do you feel about being the constant

0:48:04.120 --> 0:48:05.160
<v Speaker 1>subject of monkey time?

0:48:08.640 --> 0:48:09.239
<v Speaker 4>Powerless?

0:48:11.200 --> 0:48:17.280
<v Speaker 1>Interesting? Uh? Do you wish that your friends would stop

0:48:18.000 --> 0:48:19.239
<v Speaker 1>doing monkey time on you?

0:48:23.360 --> 0:48:23.840
<v Speaker 2>Sometimes?

0:48:23.840 --> 0:48:26.359
<v Speaker 4>I do, but it's kind of nice to know that

0:48:27.200 --> 0:48:30.520
<v Speaker 4>it's my thing. I'm special in my own way.

0:48:31.120 --> 0:48:35.000
<v Speaker 1>Interesting. So, so you feel does a small part of

0:48:35.040 --> 0:48:39.760
<v Speaker 1>you feel a sense of pride in being the constant

0:48:39.760 --> 0:48:40.879
<v Speaker 1>subject of the monkey time?

0:48:42.400 --> 0:48:46.680
<v Speaker 4>Yes? And uh, some of my friends are actually up

0:48:46.719 --> 0:48:50.440
<v Speaker 4>in town right now, and I'm worried it might happen.

0:48:50.680 --> 0:48:52.759
<v Speaker 4>They're downstairs, but if you want, you can talk to

0:48:52.800 --> 0:48:53.960
<v Speaker 4>one of them about monkey time?

0:48:55.920 --> 0:48:57.880
<v Speaker 1>Oh sure, yeah? Who can I talk to? Who invented

0:48:57.920 --> 0:49:00.680
<v Speaker 1>the monkey time? Can I can I talk to them?

0:49:00.800 --> 0:49:02.720
<v Speaker 4>I think the maker is in a different state.

0:49:03.719 --> 0:49:05.279
<v Speaker 1>But okay, sure, I'll talk to one of your friends.

0:49:05.320 --> 0:49:09.399
<v Speaker 4>I'll give you to a big instigator. Great, they're both

0:49:09.480 --> 0:49:15.040
<v Speaker 4>really scared to pick one of them. I'm putting Brock on.

0:49:15.680 --> 0:49:20.680
<v Speaker 2>Okay, I'm not doing well.

0:49:21.640 --> 0:49:22.719
<v Speaker 1>Hey, Brock, what's going on?

0:49:24.120 --> 0:49:25.319
<v Speaker 2>Nothing much? How's it going?

0:49:25.800 --> 0:49:32.319
<v Speaker 1>So, Brock? I heard about monkey Time? Oh yeah yeah,

0:49:32.320 --> 0:49:34.360
<v Speaker 1>Well in your words, how would you how would you

0:49:34.360 --> 0:49:35.200
<v Speaker 1>describe monkey time?

0:49:36.840 --> 0:49:40.279
<v Speaker 7>You know, it sort of just started as a friendly thing.

0:49:40.560 --> 0:49:44.080
<v Speaker 7>We Teith was really really good at me, Like when

0:49:44.080 --> 0:49:46.640
<v Speaker 7>we tiggled him, he sound exactly like a monkey. So

0:49:46.640 --> 0:49:48.279
<v Speaker 7>it started off as that and that'd be a joke.

0:49:48.360 --> 0:49:51.120
<v Speaker 7>We just like passed by him in the hallways, give

0:49:51.200 --> 0:49:53.840
<v Speaker 7>him little touch on the side, and he screamed like

0:49:53.840 --> 0:49:55.480
<v Speaker 7>a monkey, and we all thought it was hilarious.

0:49:56.560 --> 0:49:59.360
<v Speaker 1>So you say it started friendly, did it then become hostile?

0:50:01.000 --> 0:50:03.120
<v Speaker 2>No? No, he's always been friendly.

0:50:03.960 --> 0:50:08.319
<v Speaker 1>Okay, actually, kay, what's your friend's name again?

0:50:10.120 --> 0:50:10.440
<v Speaker 2>Keith?

0:50:11.560 --> 0:50:13.319
<v Speaker 1>Okay, can talk to Keith real quick.

0:50:14.560 --> 0:50:16.239
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, definitely. Let me pass the phone back.

0:50:19.160 --> 0:50:26.320
<v Speaker 1>Hey, Keith, can I hear this monkey noise? Oh?

0:50:26.400 --> 0:50:27.759
<v Speaker 4>I can try and recreate it?

0:50:28.280 --> 0:50:30.879
<v Speaker 1>Like, how would you feel about doing a monkey time

0:50:31.040 --> 0:50:31.600
<v Speaker 1>right now.

0:50:31.480 --> 0:50:32.919
<v Speaker 2>On the phone?

0:50:34.040 --> 0:50:37.319
<v Speaker 4>All right, I'll be consenting to it, so it'll be

0:50:37.320 --> 0:50:38.040
<v Speaker 4>better than usual.

0:50:38.680 --> 0:50:46.200
<v Speaker 1>Okay, good, all right, I'm gonna try and do this.

0:50:47.200 --> 0:50:49.040
<v Speaker 1>So so sorry, are you gonna get your friends?

0:50:50.719 --> 0:50:50.959
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:50:51.000 --> 0:50:52.880
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, he's right here. It's gonna happen.

0:50:53.360 --> 0:50:58.600
<v Speaker 2>All right, all right, you're good to go back.

0:50:58.680 --> 0:51:06.200
<v Speaker 4>I'm good, okay, Lyle. Yeah, I'm not sure if it's

0:51:06.239 --> 0:51:10.160
<v Speaker 4>a uh I think I'm too nervous to uh do

0:51:10.239 --> 0:51:11.360
<v Speaker 4>a natural monkey noise.

0:51:11.520 --> 0:51:12.640
<v Speaker 1>Okay, I mean you don't have to do it if

0:51:12.640 --> 0:51:13.160
<v Speaker 1>you don't want to.

0:51:14.640 --> 0:51:15.920
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I try it though.

0:51:16.560 --> 0:51:21.719
<v Speaker 1>Okay. So I mean you say you're nervous, do you

0:51:21.760 --> 0:51:22.879
<v Speaker 1>do you not like monkey time?

0:51:26.719 --> 0:51:29.799
<v Speaker 4>You know, for a long time I didn't like monkey time.

0:51:30.640 --> 0:51:33.640
<v Speaker 4>It did bother me for a while. But now I've

0:51:33.640 --> 0:51:39.120
<v Speaker 4>been I feel like I've gained power back by going

0:51:39.120 --> 0:51:41.480
<v Speaker 4>out of town. I've been working on myself, but then

0:51:41.680 --> 0:51:44.239
<v Speaker 4>going to the gym, and now I think if they

0:51:44.280 --> 0:51:46.600
<v Speaker 4>do try and monkey timey right now. I think I

0:51:46.640 --> 0:51:50.240
<v Speaker 4>can fight back. I think I'll be strong enough.

0:51:53.080 --> 0:51:55.880
<v Speaker 1>Mm. I like this arc that you've developed for yourself.

0:51:56.080 --> 0:52:00.360
<v Speaker 1>Were you once we're weak and now you are strongly

0:52:01.200 --> 0:52:04.200
<v Speaker 1>You're like a monkey they turned into a gorilla.

0:52:05.200 --> 0:52:08.920
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and my dream is to one day give monkey

0:52:08.920 --> 0:52:11.080
<v Speaker 4>time to one of them.

0:52:11.360 --> 0:52:15.480
<v Speaker 1>Ah. Do you feel as though committing monkey time upon

0:52:15.520 --> 0:52:18.520
<v Speaker 1>one of them would serve as a retribution for all

0:52:18.520 --> 0:52:22.000
<v Speaker 1>the monkey time that has been bestowed upon you?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah? Yeah, I think it would be a good I

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<v Speaker 4>know revenge isn't good, but I think it would be

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<v Speaker 4>a healthy thing for me and maybe them too.

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<v Speaker 1>Well. Listen, Keith, I hope that you eventually get whatever

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<v Speaker 1>it is you're looking for rut of this entire monkey

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<v Speaker 1>time debacle.

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<v Speaker 4>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 1>And before we do you have friends outside of these friends?

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<v Speaker 2>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay?

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<v Speaker 8>Good?

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<v Speaker 4>They when I bring a monkey time to them for

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<v Speaker 4>a while, they're a little disturbed about it.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>I think you have to be there, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know, I think that you uh, searching for

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<v Speaker 1>perspectives outside of your friend group on monkey time is

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<v Speaker 1>a good thing.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I agree with that.

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<v Speaker 2>Sayment.

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<v Speaker 1>I'll talk to you soon, Keith.

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<v Speaker 2>All right, Thanks Lyle.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, folks, it is Lyle. Lately, I've been ending my

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<v Speaker 1>Sunday podcasts with an excerpt from my street interview segments,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm excited for you guys to listen to this one.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a conversation I had on the campus of Harvard

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<v Speaker 1>University in Boston with a very smart student who is

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<v Speaker 1>navigating her way through life, through trying to be a

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<v Speaker 1>high achiever, through dealing with other people's expectations. And I

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<v Speaker 1>just really enjoyed having this talk on the campus of

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<v Speaker 1>Boston University. And I'm gonna Boston of Harvard University. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't even know where I am anymore. Okay, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna shut up. I hate ramboly intros. I would

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<v Speaker 1>rather you guys just listen to the conversation without me

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<v Speaker 1>having to explain anything. But I'm here to explain the

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<v Speaker 1>jarring contrast between the phone calls and hearing me out

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<v Speaker 1>in public talking to real people. So that is why

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<v Speaker 1>I am recording this. Okay, anyway, let's get into it.

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<v Speaker 1>What's up, man, what's your name? I'm Nya, nice to

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<v Speaker 1>meet you. I'm Lyle. I'm a Gecko guy.

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<v Speaker 8>How's it like? What's it like being a gecko.

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<v Speaker 1>It feels good. I like not being anything, if that

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<v Speaker 1>makes sense, Like you're nia, you're a person, you exist.

0:54:46.120 --> 0:54:49.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm perceiving you right now. Me I'm gonna theorial gecko.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. I don't. I'm not really here right now.

0:54:52.680 --> 0:54:55.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm here, I don't. Actually, that's a good point saying.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel as though you're here right now?

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<v Speaker 8>But I'm not sure if you're here.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you good at living at naya right?

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<v Speaker 8>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>Now? Are you good at living in the moments?

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<v Speaker 8>I think I'm here right now?

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<v Speaker 1>So yeah, okay, okay, let's be in the moment. Then

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<v Speaker 1>what do you What are you all about, Naya? What's

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<v Speaker 1>give us a baseline of your life, a baseline of

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<v Speaker 1>my life? Yeah, I'd love to hear.

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<v Speaker 2>Well.

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<v Speaker 6>I was born and raised in South Carolina, but my

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<v Speaker 6>family's Syrian. Okay, so, got a lot of cultures going on.

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<v Speaker 6>I really love the brain. So I'm studying neuroscience.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, that sounds that sounds difficult. There's even

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<v Speaker 1>an expression. It's not brain surgery.

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<v Speaker 8>Right, And I want to be a brain surgeon.

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<v Speaker 1>You want to be a brain I want to let

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<v Speaker 1>me ask you this because this one of the first

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<v Speaker 1>people that sat down told me that he was having

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<v Speaker 1>a really hard time because he's in a tough major

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<v Speaker 1>and he is, you know, very passionate about what he does.

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<v Speaker 1>But it feels like it doesn't have enough time to

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<v Speaker 1>go live life and do other things, and you're doing

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<v Speaker 1>one of the hardest things a person could attempt to do.

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<v Speaker 1>How do you carve time for other aspects of your life?

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<v Speaker 6>Well, seeing like I got three hours of sleep last night,

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<v Speaker 6>Oh my goodness, time gets.

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<v Speaker 8>Carved out there. But I don't know. I believe if

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<v Speaker 8>you say you're gonna do something, you.

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<v Speaker 1>Just do it.

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<v Speaker 8>We just do it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, do you do you do break easily?

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<v Speaker 8>No, I've been through I've been through some ship.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, okay. So you feel like in the past,

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<v Speaker 1>your your life has prepared you for this experience of

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<v Speaker 1>attempting to do something very challenging.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, Like, I've wanted to Harvard has been my dream

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<v Speaker 6>since I was four, really since forever, and I wanted

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<v Speaker 6>to do it. And now that I'm here, I owe

0:56:38.719 --> 0:56:41.359
<v Speaker 6>it to like everyone that helped me to get here,

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<v Speaker 6>to just keep doing what I was.

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<v Speaker 1>Who can tell me about the people that helped you

0:56:44.920 --> 0:56:45.319
<v Speaker 1>to be here?

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<v Speaker 6>My parents probably the best people I've ever met. Okay,

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<v Speaker 6>very tough, very tough, very Arab immigrant parents, very crazy. Uh,

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<v Speaker 6>my best friend Emily raf Bella, like, I have some

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<v Speaker 6>really great friends in my life.

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<v Speaker 1>So you're I want to talk about your parents. What

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<v Speaker 1>kinds of you said? They were very tough? What kinds

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<v Speaker 1>of like things did they instill upon you or things

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<v Speaker 1>growing up that you feel like shaped you into who

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<v Speaker 1>you are today.

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<v Speaker 6>So when I was in first grade, this one is

0:57:16.280 --> 0:57:19.200
<v Speaker 6>my favorite story because now we're at Harvard. When I

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<v Speaker 6>was in first grade, I brought home a spelling test

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<v Speaker 6>and I got a seventy. The words were stupid, right,

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<v Speaker 6>It's like, I don't know putting, Like it's first grade.

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<v Speaker 6>But I was like, you think Harvard takes kids who

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<v Speaker 6>got who get seas well? Harvard did, But like that's

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<v Speaker 6>kind of the thing, like there's a there was kind

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<v Speaker 6>of there was always pressure, yeah, but then after a while,

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<v Speaker 6>like you internalize like your own drive.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. Yeah, So they give you the pressure and then

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<v Speaker 1>it's kind of like you're on a bike and they're

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<v Speaker 1>pushing it with their pressure and then they let go

0:57:53.200 --> 0:57:55.680
<v Speaker 1>and then you have your own wheels of pressure that

0:57:55.720 --> 0:57:58.120
<v Speaker 1>are spinning and making it go forward and then like.

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<v Speaker 6>With a bike, you're gonna fall, Okay, you're gonna get

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<v Speaker 6>back up the end.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay.

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<v Speaker 6>It's like it sounds like so stupid, But I do

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<v Speaker 6>believe that if you like when you when you believe

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<v Speaker 6>you're gonna do something, you just do it.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting, have you experienced attempting to do things and failing

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<v Speaker 1>at them many times and misering getting here? And how

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<v Speaker 1>do you bounce back from those failures.

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<v Speaker 6>I like to think that I'm an optimist. I like

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<v Speaker 6>to think that I've romanticized life, because otherwise, like everything

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<v Speaker 6>is horrible. If it's not a learning experience, then you're

0:58:31.880 --> 0:58:32.800
<v Speaker 6>gonna think it's horrible.

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<v Speaker 1>Sure.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, So like in the past two years, I've gotten

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<v Speaker 6>rejected from a lot of things, and if I give

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<v Speaker 6>it time, in the next month, I actually get an

0:58:41.680 --> 0:58:43.800
<v Speaker 6>opportunity that was way better in the first place.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, wait, time everything works out. I fully believe it.

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<v Speaker 1>I agree with that. I feel that every time I

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<v Speaker 1>go and sit out here, like you know, sometimes nobody

0:58:53.400 --> 0:58:56.200
<v Speaker 1>wants to come talk. Sometimes we get an interview that

0:58:56.200 --> 0:58:58.840
<v Speaker 1>doesn't go well, but then you push past it. You

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<v Speaker 1>get to talk to some interesting people. I've been learning

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<v Speaker 1>that myself.

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<v Speaker 8>No, because I'm happy you're here right now, like wholeheartedly.

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<v Speaker 8>I liked.

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<v Speaker 6>I've been thinking to myself that if you do more bold,

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<v Speaker 6>random things, then you just become a bolder person.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the last bold random thing that you did?

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<v Speaker 6>It was our friend's birthday like two days maybe yesterday,

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<v Speaker 6>two days ago, and I thought it'd be funny to

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<v Speaker 6>stand on the table in Annenberg, our dining hall and

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<v Speaker 6>to get the cafeteria to sing Happy Birthday.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you successfully do it?

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<v Speaker 6>I have done it before, and I've done it when

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<v Speaker 6>it's not actually anyone's birthday.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, you seem like you're very good at putting

0:59:36.520 --> 0:59:37.280
<v Speaker 1>yourself out there.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm doing it because I'm not very good at it

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<v Speaker 6>in high school. Yes, I wasn't very good at it

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<v Speaker 6>at least, And now I'm doing it because why.

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<v Speaker 1>Not exposure therapy? Just like ye brute force, I'm gonna

0:59:48.480 --> 0:59:52.200
<v Speaker 1>get so I feel so uncomfortable with doing this thing

0:59:52.240 --> 0:59:54.480
<v Speaker 1>that I gotta do it to to learn.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, my Like, I started journaling and meditating, and like

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<v Speaker 6>the word I wrote down for this year at was unapologetic. Unapologetic,

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<v Speaker 6>So like everything is either you're being unapologetic or you're

1:00:07.920 --> 1:00:08.760
<v Speaker 6>gonna wonder what if?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have any what ifs that you've left on

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<v Speaker 1>the table.

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<v Speaker 6>No, but I read this quote that was like, the

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<v Speaker 6>only regrets you have in life is wishing you had

1:00:22.920 --> 1:00:27.560
<v Speaker 6>been more empathetic in a situation. Like, I don't regret anything,

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<v Speaker 6>because the point that I'm at now is amazing, like

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<v Speaker 6>tearing my I told my aco playing soccer, and I

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<v Speaker 6>always said like if only I hadn't done that, we

1:00:35.680 --> 1:00:39.040
<v Speaker 6>would have won state championships whatever. But then I created

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<v Speaker 6>my research project out of it, and I wrote about

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<v Speaker 6>that in my Harvard like application, and now I'm here.

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<v Speaker 1>Ah, you think that because that you know, it's it's

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<v Speaker 1>funny that when a thing like that happens, that's bad

1:00:51.360 --> 1:00:54.240
<v Speaker 1>and you couldn't even possibly think of a way that

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<v Speaker 1>it could turn into a good thing, and then it

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<v Speaker 1>turns into a good thing. Yeah, in a weird way.

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<v Speaker 6>It's like I still I literally still have right me pain,

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<v Speaker 6>so like I can't play soccer, but now I'm walking

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<v Speaker 6>onto the crew team hopefully.

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<v Speaker 1>So why brain surgery? Was it just kind of like

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<v Speaker 1>a Mount Everest? We did it because it was so

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<v Speaker 1>hard thing?

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<v Speaker 6>No, I definitely don't think I'm that type of person,

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<v Speaker 6>because like, I get very I think a lot, and

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<v Speaker 6>I overthink sometimes, and I'm usually the friend that like

1:01:26.800 --> 1:01:29.480
<v Speaker 6>feels events like deeper per se, like we just may

1:01:29.600 --> 1:01:33.680
<v Speaker 6>just feel them, you know, that like annoying person that

1:01:33.720 --> 1:01:36.440
<v Speaker 6>goes like, oh, I'm an EmPATH. I'm not that person,

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<v Speaker 6>but I do think about that. But no brain surgery,

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<v Speaker 6>because like I said, I've always thought just like very deeply,

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<v Speaker 6>and I like would have the same experience as someone

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<v Speaker 6>and I just experience it differently. And I started wondering why,

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<v Speaker 6>And then I came across like consciousness, like how do

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<v Speaker 6>I think about my own thinking and like my experience

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<v Speaker 6>right now, and like why am I thinking so differently?

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<v Speaker 6>And so with that comes neuroscience. And I've always known

1:02:05.480 --> 1:02:07.960
<v Speaker 6>I wanted to be some sort of doctor. I really

1:02:07.960 --> 1:02:11.320
<v Speaker 6>love medicine. So as I fell in love with neuroscience,

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<v Speaker 6>I just thought to myself, what is more vulnerable? Like

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<v Speaker 6>what is the biggest test of trust than to hold

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<v Speaker 6>someone's thinking in your own hands?

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<v Speaker 1>Wow? Interesting? Does learning about the brain and how it

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<v Speaker 1>works key you in a lot to your own methods

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<v Speaker 1>of thinking?

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<v Speaker 6>I think it's interesting because I found a lot of

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<v Speaker 6>like thinking about my own thinking through meditation and on

1:02:39.640 --> 1:02:44.160
<v Speaker 6>that path, Like, I don't think neuroscience is exactly it,

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<v Speaker 6>but it's more so just the observation of everything going on.

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<v Speaker 6>Like my favorite thing is that because I'm so talkative

1:02:51.760 --> 1:02:53.800
<v Speaker 6>and I do a lot of stuff, people never think

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<v Speaker 6>I'm actually observing what's going on. But I really like

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<v Speaker 6>observing my friends. My favorite thing to do is to

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<v Speaker 6>ask them if they have siblings, and no matter what

1:03:02.320 --> 1:03:07.200
<v Speaker 6>their answer is, just say, interesting, you have a younger brother,

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<v Speaker 6>I have an older sister.

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<v Speaker 8>Interesting, I see.

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<v Speaker 1>I say that. Do your friends ever like feel feel

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<v Speaker 1>too perceived around you because you're observing them so much?

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<v Speaker 6>I think yes, And like, because we're here now and

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<v Speaker 6>we're like meeting new people, sometimes people might not like

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<v Speaker 6>they think you know how some people do they just

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<v Speaker 6>want to have fun, and like, I think I'm a

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<v Speaker 6>fun person, but I'm a very like deep person as well.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't love the lighthearted fun like I need some

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<v Speaker 6>sort of I need more to it. Okay, So a

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<v Speaker 6>lot of my friends will like feel like they're being

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<v Speaker 6>perceived when they're being around me, And at first it's

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<v Speaker 6>a little vulnerable because I'm the person like I don't

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<v Speaker 6>text one words. I text paragraphs, So I think it's

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<v Speaker 6>fun because I'm perceiving them. And then when they're upset

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<v Speaker 6>and I like know the upset but they haven't like

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<v Speaker 6>clued us in, it's more fun for me because then

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<v Speaker 6>you can like help without saying why you're helping.

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<v Speaker 1>What does your idea of fun look like? If you're

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<v Speaker 1>not into kind of just you seem like everything you

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<v Speaker 1>do you want to get something out of it, not

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<v Speaker 1>just like kind of hang out and vibe. Is that accurate?

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<v Speaker 8>I guess?

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<v Speaker 6>I also think though that, like I actually have one

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<v Speaker 6>of my friends behind the camera right now. She's a

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<v Speaker 6>very fun person. She is the lighthearted, fun like giggly person.

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<v Speaker 6>So like here at Harvard, like I can do the

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<v Speaker 6>fun stuff, but I also really like going to coffee

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<v Speaker 6>shops and just like having a drink and talking.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you talk to strangers a lot around I'll.

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<v Speaker 8>Talk to strangers.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know if I have as much as possible,

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<v Speaker 6>but like most of my friends actually are like people

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<v Speaker 6>that I saw online on Instagram that are we're going

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<v Speaker 6>to Harvard and I just like I slid in the.

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<v Speaker 1>Ms splitting in their dms. Yeah, that's is that how

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<v Speaker 1>you met your friend behind the camera.

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<v Speaker 6>Actually I met her at so Visitas is like the

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<v Speaker 6>Harvard visit weekend, and we were at like a little

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<v Speaker 6>like mixer fundraiser or something was going on, super tight room,

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<v Speaker 6>and she came up to me and she started talking

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<v Speaker 6>to like the people that were around me, but not

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<v Speaker 6>to me.

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<v Speaker 8>And I was like, oh, purpose she was like this,

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<v Speaker 8>what is this?

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<v Speaker 6>So I could have been offended, but I kind of

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<v Speaker 6>thought it was funny. So afterward I just went up

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<v Speaker 6>to her and I was asked her for a snap.

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<v Speaker 6>I was like, hey, that was pretty funny, like whatever,

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<v Speaker 6>and now she's everywhere, so.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, I love I love that. That's like you you

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<v Speaker 1>changed your perception, you took control of it. You were like,

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<v Speaker 1>I am not going to be offended. I am going

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<v Speaker 1>to make this a productive thing. And then you reached

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<v Speaker 1>out and now you guys are friends, and that's a

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<v Speaker 1>really powerful thing to do. I feel like that's the

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<v Speaker 1>kind of stuff that happens when you do all this

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<v Speaker 1>stuff that you're talking about of being conscious of your

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<v Speaker 1>own thoughts and trying to be mindful.

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<v Speaker 8>I'm really trying.

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<v Speaker 6>I think I've had like a struggle with being unapologetic because, like,

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know, I'm a loud person. I'm a six

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<v Speaker 6>foot tall girl. Like I guess you can't tell because

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<v Speaker 6>I'm seated, but I don't know. I really like how

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<v Speaker 6>I've been handling myself since I've come here, and so

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<v Speaker 6>I'm proud of that.

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<v Speaker 1>That's awesome. It's also cool that you know these practices

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<v Speaker 1>are having like real life effects that are changing your

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<v Speaker 1>timeline positively, things like you meeting her and everything that

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<v Speaker 1>you've done to get here at Harvard. I want to

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<v Speaker 1>know what things in the future that you're uncomfortable with

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<v Speaker 1>are you trying to become more comfortable with because you

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<v Speaker 1>seem like you're always trying to improve upon things. Is

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<v Speaker 1>there anything that you're trying to improve upon your next

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<v Speaker 1>mountain that you're gonna climb at all?

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<v Speaker 6>Well, I was just talking with some one, how like

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<v Speaker 6>there is fifteen years between now and whenever I could

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<v Speaker 6>be an attending surgeon. Yeah, and within those fifteen years

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<v Speaker 6>anything could happen. I could injure one of my fingers,

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<v Speaker 6>I could anything could happen, Like I could not be

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<v Speaker 6>a surgeon, I could hate neuroscience. I could go into

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<v Speaker 6>consulting like a lot of the ECON kids here, I

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<v Speaker 6>probably won't.

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<v Speaker 1>I will.

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<v Speaker 6>I think I'll stay with neuroscience because, like I said,

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<v Speaker 6>if I believe something to do it, I'm uncomfortable with

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<v Speaker 6>the idea that I'm so driven. Am I gonna miss

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<v Speaker 6>out on something?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Sure, And I think just.

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<v Speaker 6>But being uncomfortable, I will. I will just wholeheartedly plug

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<v Speaker 6>my favorite like YouTube collective of all time, Yes Theory.

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<v Speaker 6>Their motto is seek discomfort. So when you ask me

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<v Speaker 6>if I'm uncomfortable, I'll be like, Okay, yeah I'm uncomfortable.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you think that you might miss?

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<v Speaker 8>I'm not sure.

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<v Speaker 6>I think being someone who's been so passionate and like

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<v Speaker 6>I'm from South Carolina, we don't know the same resources

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<v Speaker 6>that kids like up here or in California know about,

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<v Speaker 6>like getting to college, Like I had to apply for

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<v Speaker 6>every club of all time, try to be a leader

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<v Speaker 6>in all of them, like focus on my grades, and

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<v Speaker 6>I know, like I had a different high school experience

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<v Speaker 6>than a lot of my friends. So like I had

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<v Speaker 6>FOMO for a while long time, I was like, did

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<v Speaker 6>I miss something? But I'm I'm still happy I'm here.

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<v Speaker 6>But it's also just like it's uncomfortable knowing you didn't

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<v Speaker 6>experience things like other people might have.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I feel like and you were you were alluding

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<v Speaker 1>to this too, like you you had what you wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to do, and so you're doing it. And if you're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna do that, you know, you're all whatever you do.

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<v Speaker 1>If you if you were to indulge in the things

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<v Speaker 1>that you felt like you were missing, you'd be missing that.

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<v Speaker 1>There's always an opportunity cost of anything that you're doing.

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<v Speaker 1>And it's it's I myself struggle with, like, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>thinking about opportunity costs a lot. I think a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of people do. I think a lot of people I

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<v Speaker 1>have talked to today do. But that's all. It's just

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<v Speaker 1>it's just an acceptance of the fact that there's always

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be an opportunity cost. You're never gonna get to

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<v Speaker 1>do everything.

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<v Speaker 6>I just love that you said opportunity costs because my

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<v Speaker 6>friend behind the camera, she's always saying opportunity costs. Because

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<v Speaker 6>they're in X ten right now. That's actually the class.

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<v Speaker 6>And I just joined the crew team. This morning was

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<v Speaker 6>our first practice, six thirty am. I just found out

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<v Speaker 6>I got into the clubs I wanted like I'm I'm really,

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<v Speaker 6>I'm really like throwing the net wide.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, sure, and I know that.

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<v Speaker 6>Opportunity cost is gonna come into place soon. But at

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<v Speaker 6>the end of the day, like I think, things will

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<v Speaker 6>work out, and then once they work out, you're not

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<v Speaker 6>gonna wonder like what could have been, because you're gonna

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<v Speaker 6>be happy with where you are, I hope.

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<v Speaker 1>So what's your name again?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 1>I got it. I'm always forgetting people's names.

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<v Speaker 8>And you're not just Gecko. You have a name, Lyle Lyle.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, Lyle very nice to meet you. Is the anything

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<v Speaker 1>else you want to say to the people of the

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<v Speaker 1>computer before we go? I love y'all.

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<v Speaker 8>That's about it?

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<v Speaker 2>NA.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, oh man, that was interesting stuff. It's it's cool

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<v Speaker 1>to hear people who I've tacked down to talk to

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<v Speaker 1>you today all have like very you know, similar issues

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<v Speaker 1>with each other. Uh, because I feel like people a lot,

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<v Speaker 1>just with anyone having any issue tends to feel like

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<v Speaker 1>they could be like alone in it, you know, and

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<v Speaker 1>and having people come and talk about what's going on

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<v Speaker 1>with them and these struggles of opportunity costs or of

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<v Speaker 1>Oh I'm focusing on this so I have to neglect that.

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<v Speaker 1>How do I deal with that. It's it's a common

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<v Speaker 1>uh experience between people. I myself for a while, I

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<v Speaker 1>had had a period. I was overwhelmed by all of

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<v Speaker 1>the options that the earth has of what to do

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<v Speaker 1>with the time I have before in between birth and death.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm trying my best to not think about that

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<v Speaker 1>opportunity cost. And she was awesome. It was just great

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<v Speaker 1>talking to her about everything, and I wish her well

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<v Speaker 1>in her quest to being uncomfortable. Never Being goes on

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<v Speaker 1>the line taking your phone calls every night. Never Being

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<v Speaker 1>goes to what his d's teaching you to loud in

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<v Speaker 1>the meaning of your life. But he's not really an expert.