1 00:00:00,360 --> 00:00:02,360 Speaker 1: Do you think we're just so tired because it's like 2 00:00:02,720 --> 00:00:05,560 Speaker 1: four thirty and it's black outside. I mean, I think 3 00:00:05,640 --> 00:00:09,360 Speaker 1: that has something to do with it about the time 4 00:00:09,400 --> 00:00:12,720 Speaker 1: of day that it is. Aren't we stopping this stuff? 5 00:00:15,160 --> 00:00:18,599 Speaker 1: This daylight savings jazz? I don't really know the updates 6 00:00:18,600 --> 00:00:20,160 Speaker 1: on that. I feel like you're the one who tries 7 00:00:20,200 --> 00:00:23,919 Speaker 1: to inform me sometimes, But well, I wonder if when 8 00:00:23,960 --> 00:00:27,240 Speaker 1: we do it, if it will be like this or 9 00:00:27,240 --> 00:00:31,160 Speaker 1: if it will be like when it gets dark later. 10 00:00:31,480 --> 00:00:34,199 Speaker 1: I would assume the point being that it stays more 11 00:00:34,240 --> 00:00:37,600 Speaker 1: consistent day. No, that's what it's supposed to do. Now, 12 00:00:37,720 --> 00:00:39,120 Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't get it. I don't know. 13 00:00:39,200 --> 00:00:42,000 Speaker 1: I hope it's not like this because I will just 14 00:00:42,040 --> 00:00:46,000 Speaker 1: want to hibernate. That is what I want to do. Anyway. 15 00:00:46,120 --> 00:00:49,479 Speaker 1: If people are listening, Hello people, how are you? It 16 00:00:49,600 --> 00:00:54,720 Speaker 1: is the morning? Probably it's Friday morning. Um. We have 17 00:00:54,840 --> 00:00:56,880 Speaker 1: been getting or I've been getting a lot of emails. 18 00:00:56,880 --> 00:01:00,440 Speaker 1: People still ask like do you dre inc Are you 19 00:01:00,480 --> 00:01:05,600 Speaker 1: still like on your sober journey? And I had mentioned 20 00:01:05,640 --> 00:01:08,840 Speaker 1: I guess this was over a year ago now, Um, 21 00:01:08,880 --> 00:01:12,600 Speaker 1: that I was like evaluating my relationship to alcohol and 22 00:01:12,640 --> 00:01:14,640 Speaker 1: I think people like don't really know how to take that, 23 00:01:14,720 --> 00:01:16,600 Speaker 1: so they're like, what does she have a problem? I never, 24 00:01:16,680 --> 00:01:19,160 Speaker 1: I don't. I don't identify as an alcoholic at all. 25 00:01:19,720 --> 00:01:23,040 Speaker 1: But I was just realizing, like I was mindlessly drinking. 26 00:01:23,080 --> 00:01:24,640 Speaker 1: And then there were some things that I was going 27 00:01:24,640 --> 00:01:26,400 Speaker 1: through my personal life that I just felt like I 28 00:01:26,440 --> 00:01:29,400 Speaker 1: really needed to be present for and have a clear head. 29 00:01:30,240 --> 00:01:33,280 Speaker 1: And so I felt like because I was kind of 30 00:01:33,280 --> 00:01:37,360 Speaker 1: doing a deep dive into um, some spiritual stuff, but 31 00:01:37,400 --> 00:01:41,360 Speaker 1: then also like some therapy stuff and just going through 32 00:01:41,360 --> 00:01:44,000 Speaker 1: a breakup and processing that and all of those things 33 00:01:44,319 --> 00:01:46,320 Speaker 1: kind of just like getting my life back on track 34 00:01:46,400 --> 00:01:50,640 Speaker 1: and processing what the funk happened the last three years. 35 00:01:51,400 --> 00:01:53,400 Speaker 1: I just wanted to have a clear head. So I 36 00:01:53,480 --> 00:01:56,400 Speaker 1: decided to remove alcohol. I think a lot of times 37 00:01:56,440 --> 00:02:00,320 Speaker 1: it's really easy to slip into like medicating without hall 38 00:02:00,480 --> 00:02:03,240 Speaker 1: or not dealing with feelings and using alcohol to kind 39 00:02:03,280 --> 00:02:05,160 Speaker 1: of like do that, and I had found myself I 40 00:02:05,240 --> 00:02:06,960 Speaker 1: felt sort of doing that, and so I just wanted 41 00:02:07,000 --> 00:02:08,880 Speaker 1: to pause and like take it out of the equation. 42 00:02:09,639 --> 00:02:11,560 Speaker 1: I literally probably thought I would do it for like 43 00:02:11,600 --> 00:02:13,680 Speaker 1: a month, and then I ended up doing it for 44 00:02:13,720 --> 00:02:17,519 Speaker 1: ten months because I liked it so much. Um. Then 45 00:02:17,560 --> 00:02:20,800 Speaker 1: I went to Bali and it was my fortieth birthday 46 00:02:20,840 --> 00:02:22,280 Speaker 1: and I was like, you know what, I had done 47 00:02:22,360 --> 00:02:24,720 Speaker 1: so much healing work, and I really felt like I 48 00:02:24,760 --> 00:02:27,560 Speaker 1: had kind of you know, I don't know if you 49 00:02:27,560 --> 00:02:29,680 Speaker 1: want to what do you crossed the threshold? Is that 50 00:02:29,720 --> 00:02:34,480 Speaker 1: how you say that crossed? That is that I don't know, 51 00:02:34,800 --> 00:02:36,839 Speaker 1: another point that you're going to try and make well 52 00:02:36,880 --> 00:02:39,040 Speaker 1: Like I had stepped. I just felt like I had 53 00:02:39,080 --> 00:02:42,440 Speaker 1: released a lot of like negative energy. I had gotten 54 00:02:42,480 --> 00:02:46,800 Speaker 1: myself back. Um, I had developed a new relationship with myself. 55 00:02:46,840 --> 00:02:50,160 Speaker 1: I'm still I mean, those are all like continuing processes obviously, 56 00:02:50,160 --> 00:02:53,400 Speaker 1: but I had just gotten to a much clearer headspace. 57 00:02:53,520 --> 00:02:54,840 Speaker 1: And I was like, you know what, I'm gonna have 58 00:02:54,919 --> 00:02:57,400 Speaker 1: a drink on my birthday. And I did. I had 59 00:02:57,400 --> 00:03:02,200 Speaker 1: one drink, big party. Yeah. It's so there's so many 60 00:03:02,200 --> 00:03:04,720 Speaker 1: things with that too, because it was like so interesting 61 00:03:05,160 --> 00:03:08,640 Speaker 1: because I had so much anticipation, obviously, and I had 62 00:03:08,680 --> 00:03:11,080 Speaker 1: attached all of these things that I thought that I 63 00:03:11,080 --> 00:03:15,240 Speaker 1: would feel like so excited or that it would just 64 00:03:15,280 --> 00:03:17,640 Speaker 1: be like the best drink and I was just gonna 65 00:03:17,760 --> 00:03:20,320 Speaker 1: dance the night away or something, and I actually did 66 00:03:20,360 --> 00:03:23,880 Speaker 1: not like the feeling of being tipsy that day. It 67 00:03:23,960 --> 00:03:27,040 Speaker 1: was weird, yeah, because I was so not used to 68 00:03:27,080 --> 00:03:29,440 Speaker 1: it anymore, and I don't know, I just felt really 69 00:03:29,520 --> 00:03:33,920 Speaker 1: loopy and kind of like disconnected for myself, and I 70 00:03:33,919 --> 00:03:36,720 Speaker 1: had been so connected that I think I noticed it, 71 00:03:37,320 --> 00:03:39,280 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Was there also a sense 72 00:03:39,320 --> 00:03:42,520 Speaker 1: of like, um, you were aware that you might be 73 00:03:42,560 --> 00:03:46,520 Speaker 1: embarrassing yourself. Oh, I still feel like that when I 74 00:03:46,600 --> 00:03:50,200 Speaker 1: drink alcohol now, Like that was in July, and so 75 00:03:50,320 --> 00:03:52,480 Speaker 1: anytime I have a drink now, it sucks in some 76 00:03:52,600 --> 00:03:56,160 Speaker 1: place because I'm like super aware of like this ship 77 00:03:56,280 --> 00:03:59,120 Speaker 1: that I say, or like when you drink sometimes it's 78 00:03:59,160 --> 00:04:00,800 Speaker 1: like you you say something and you're like why did 79 00:04:00,800 --> 00:04:02,320 Speaker 1: I say that? I don't even mean that, or like 80 00:04:02,320 --> 00:04:04,640 Speaker 1: because you're trying to be funny or whatever it is, 81 00:04:04,840 --> 00:04:08,200 Speaker 1: you know. Um, So yeah, it's like a totally new 82 00:04:09,520 --> 00:04:11,960 Speaker 1: kind of awareness, and I think that that's a really 83 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:15,560 Speaker 1: good thing actually, but it's just interesting and it's different. 84 00:04:15,760 --> 00:04:18,520 Speaker 1: Anyway we decided. I've been getting all these emails You've 85 00:04:18,600 --> 00:04:20,360 Speaker 1: kind of been like, hey, I sort of feel like 86 00:04:20,400 --> 00:04:22,240 Speaker 1: I want to take a break from alcohol for a 87 00:04:22,279 --> 00:04:25,320 Speaker 1: month and like reset or anything like that. A lot 88 00:04:25,440 --> 00:04:27,760 Speaker 1: hard it's a lot easier said than done. I'll tell 89 00:04:27,760 --> 00:04:34,520 Speaker 1: you that. I mean, I know, um yeah, but I 90 00:04:34,520 --> 00:04:36,839 Speaker 1: think you also chose a really hard month. Like to me, 91 00:04:36,920 --> 00:04:39,360 Speaker 1: November is like, no chance, don't try to It's also 92 00:04:39,440 --> 00:04:42,680 Speaker 1: your birthday. There's like all these reasons that November is 93 00:04:42,720 --> 00:04:44,880 Speaker 1: really hard. Holidays in general, I just think are really 94 00:04:44,920 --> 00:04:47,120 Speaker 1: hard to do that around. If you're going to try 95 00:04:47,160 --> 00:04:49,640 Speaker 1: to just do one month, Like if you're committing to 96 00:04:49,720 --> 00:04:55,400 Speaker 1: a journey, it seems like, okay, we'll just start anytime, yeah, 97 00:04:55,480 --> 00:04:57,720 Speaker 1: because there's never going to be the exact right time. 98 00:04:57,720 --> 00:04:58,919 Speaker 1: But if you're like I just want to take a 99 00:04:58,960 --> 00:05:01,760 Speaker 1: month off, do anwhere do February? Do something where it's 100 00:05:01,800 --> 00:05:04,960 Speaker 1: like everyone's kind of resetting, you know. Yeah, I feel 101 00:05:04,960 --> 00:05:09,719 Speaker 1: like January might be the one time that it feels simpler, 102 00:05:09,839 --> 00:05:13,000 Speaker 1: especially in what we do, because there's always a festival, 103 00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:15,520 Speaker 1: a tour, some of the show or something where it's 104 00:05:15,560 --> 00:05:18,640 Speaker 1: exactly drinking is just part of the culture, um, so 105 00:05:18,680 --> 00:05:20,760 Speaker 1: that it never really feels like it's a there's a 106 00:05:20,760 --> 00:05:23,599 Speaker 1: perfect time. And you know, when I was a little younger, 107 00:05:23,640 --> 00:05:26,440 Speaker 1: back in my New York days, like I would occasionally 108 00:05:26,520 --> 00:05:31,160 Speaker 1: I would choose like on purpose one of the hardest times. 109 00:05:31,520 --> 00:05:36,200 Speaker 1: Like I would straddle like half of um, half of 110 00:05:36,440 --> 00:05:39,720 Speaker 1: October into half of November, so it would get my 111 00:05:40,360 --> 00:05:44,080 Speaker 1: birthday and Halloween, which I love. And you know, it 112 00:05:44,160 --> 00:05:47,440 Speaker 1: was always hard, but I loved it um because it 113 00:05:47,480 --> 00:05:50,640 Speaker 1: was it would just bring me so much clarity. Um. 114 00:05:50,760 --> 00:05:53,640 Speaker 1: This this time, it was just kind of like we 115 00:05:53,680 --> 00:05:55,320 Speaker 1: had gone on what we had gone on our trip 116 00:05:55,360 --> 00:05:57,760 Speaker 1: to Boston. I just felt like all we did was 117 00:05:57,880 --> 00:06:02,480 Speaker 1: drink um, and which is I'm not embarrassed by it. 118 00:06:02,520 --> 00:06:04,520 Speaker 1: I was just like, oh, I just need to save 119 00:06:04,640 --> 00:06:09,000 Speaker 1: some money and like chill out for a minute. Sez 120 00:06:09,080 --> 00:06:15,600 Speaker 1: attacking ahol allergic to alcohol. Yeah yeah, yeah. Um. That 121 00:06:15,720 --> 00:06:18,400 Speaker 1: was funny though, because like I didn't feel like that 122 00:06:18,480 --> 00:06:21,560 Speaker 1: after Boston, but I didn't do I like didn't come 123 00:06:21,600 --> 00:06:24,040 Speaker 1: to a lot of stuff y'all did, and like or 124 00:06:24,080 --> 00:06:27,320 Speaker 1: I wouldn't drink in the day. Like That's the kind 125 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:29,600 Speaker 1: of difference I think I've noticed in my life now, 126 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:32,320 Speaker 1: is that because I've taken so much time off, I 127 00:06:32,360 --> 00:06:34,920 Speaker 1: can't do stuff like that anymore. Like I don't want to. 128 00:06:34,960 --> 00:06:40,640 Speaker 1: I feel terrible. Um, I'm about to sneeze again. I'm 129 00:06:40,760 --> 00:06:43,640 Speaker 1: literally having a sneezing attack right now. Yeah, this is real, 130 00:06:43,800 --> 00:06:48,799 Speaker 1: you guys know, Um, but I'd get what you're saying. 131 00:06:48,839 --> 00:06:51,200 Speaker 1: And I think that was sort of what sparked mine too, 132 00:06:51,360 --> 00:06:55,320 Speaker 1: was just this like it becoming so habitual that it 133 00:06:55,400 --> 00:06:59,760 Speaker 1: was mindless, like and it was just part of hanging 134 00:06:59,760 --> 00:07:02,200 Speaker 1: out with my friends, not hanging out with friends. It 135 00:07:02,279 --> 00:07:04,560 Speaker 1: was just like, oh my god, I have to see 136 00:07:04,560 --> 00:07:06,560 Speaker 1: so bad you know what it's like tickling in your 137 00:07:06,600 --> 00:07:11,360 Speaker 1: nose at at you. Um. Anyway, and yeah, so what 138 00:07:11,520 --> 00:07:14,400 Speaker 1: happened when you got back? Did you stop? Um? Yeah, 139 00:07:14,440 --> 00:07:17,880 Speaker 1: I was pretty good about it. Um, I've had there's 140 00:07:17,920 --> 00:07:22,720 Speaker 1: been a few nights that I've had well, my birthday passed, 141 00:07:22,960 --> 00:07:25,520 Speaker 1: um this past weekend, and I was really good on 142 00:07:25,720 --> 00:07:28,160 Speaker 1: my actual birthday. And then we did a brunch on 143 00:07:28,240 --> 00:07:32,640 Speaker 1: Sunday and it just kind of a Sunday Funday, and 144 00:07:32,760 --> 00:07:36,960 Speaker 1: you know it was so fun and unexpected. Um, and 145 00:07:36,960 --> 00:07:41,520 Speaker 1: then I woke up with the Monday scares. But um, yeah, 146 00:07:41,520 --> 00:07:43,320 Speaker 1: I mean for the most part, I've been really good 147 00:07:43,360 --> 00:07:45,640 Speaker 1: about it. Like, I've had a couple of dinners and 148 00:07:45,680 --> 00:07:49,040 Speaker 1: I've hung out with you guys, and um, where you 149 00:07:49,120 --> 00:07:51,920 Speaker 1: haven't drink where I haven't drank yet, right and it 150 00:07:52,040 --> 00:07:54,240 Speaker 1: was like, honestly, it's like I could give two ships 151 00:07:54,240 --> 00:07:57,000 Speaker 1: what like about feeling weird or whatever. You know, I've 152 00:07:57,360 --> 00:08:01,960 Speaker 1: felt pressured to drink. You know, pressure simply comes not 153 00:08:02,080 --> 00:08:04,640 Speaker 1: from my friends, from it just being there. You know. 154 00:08:04,760 --> 00:08:07,760 Speaker 1: It's like, you know, I mean, I certainly don't think 155 00:08:07,800 --> 00:08:09,560 Speaker 1: I have a problem with drinking. I can turn it 156 00:08:09,600 --> 00:08:13,880 Speaker 1: on and off as however I want. Um. And for me, 157 00:08:13,920 --> 00:08:16,360 Speaker 1: it was just more of like I was coming to 158 00:08:16,440 --> 00:08:18,160 Speaker 1: the end of the year. I've you know, I've been 159 00:08:18,200 --> 00:08:20,520 Speaker 1: trying to lose weight. I wanted to save some money 160 00:08:20,520 --> 00:08:22,400 Speaker 1: after spending too much money on a trip, and it 161 00:08:22,520 --> 00:08:25,880 Speaker 1: was like, why not just have a clearer mind and 162 00:08:26,880 --> 00:08:29,360 Speaker 1: if it, um, if it were to stretch out to 163 00:08:29,440 --> 00:08:33,080 Speaker 1: be longer than a month, and cool, if not, whatever, 164 00:08:33,080 --> 00:08:35,720 Speaker 1: I'm not going to beat myself up over it. Um. 165 00:08:35,800 --> 00:08:39,240 Speaker 1: It's funny because we um. Ryan and Paige, who or 166 00:08:39,280 --> 00:08:42,080 Speaker 1: two of our friends were at the brunch and they 167 00:08:42,120 --> 00:08:45,080 Speaker 1: haven't been drinking either. In texted me before and I 168 00:08:45,120 --> 00:08:49,000 Speaker 1: was like, did I start a trend? Yeah, she's a 169 00:08:49,040 --> 00:08:53,440 Speaker 1: personal trainer, right, she does that? Like, yeah, she's another 170 00:08:53,520 --> 00:08:56,560 Speaker 1: job too, but um so, but you know, she's incredibly 171 00:08:56,559 --> 00:08:59,480 Speaker 1: fit and he's very fit too. But like because of 172 00:08:59,520 --> 00:09:01,520 Speaker 1: their relations and ship, I think he's gotten even more 173 00:09:01,559 --> 00:09:05,520 Speaker 1: into working out because it's something they do together. And um, 174 00:09:05,600 --> 00:09:07,360 Speaker 1: he said that they just did it for a month. 175 00:09:07,400 --> 00:09:09,080 Speaker 1: They planned to do it for a month, and he 176 00:09:09,160 --> 00:09:11,959 Speaker 1: just noticed that that offits. He's one of those people 177 00:09:11,960 --> 00:09:13,960 Speaker 1: that has one of those watches that tracks everything and 178 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:17,240 Speaker 1: he's really analytical about it. And he noticed, you know, 179 00:09:18,120 --> 00:09:21,680 Speaker 1: that his sleep was deeper and all of the things. Um, 180 00:09:21,720 --> 00:09:24,559 Speaker 1: And it's just because of because he's been feeling so good. 181 00:09:25,679 --> 00:09:27,960 Speaker 1: They just haven't gone back to drinking. And they had 182 00:09:27,960 --> 00:09:30,360 Speaker 1: a wedding last weekend and they thought that they would drink, 183 00:09:30,400 --> 00:09:34,040 Speaker 1: but they just didn't. Um that it starts to happen. 184 00:09:34,160 --> 00:09:36,400 Speaker 1: That's what happened to me too. It's like because I 185 00:09:36,400 --> 00:09:40,199 Speaker 1: would find myself feeling so much better or like I said, 186 00:09:40,240 --> 00:09:43,560 Speaker 1: having so much more clarity. The sleep piece is huge, 187 00:09:43,720 --> 00:09:46,560 Speaker 1: Like that's the thing now that keeps me from drinking. 188 00:09:47,600 --> 00:09:49,880 Speaker 1: It's like if I have a worked it the next day, 189 00:09:49,920 --> 00:09:51,680 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, I have to work tomorrow, and everyone's like, 190 00:09:51,720 --> 00:09:53,200 Speaker 1: so what so do I And I'm like yeah, but 191 00:09:53,240 --> 00:09:56,040 Speaker 1: like I like I literally can't do it anymore because 192 00:09:56,080 --> 00:09:58,040 Speaker 1: I know what it feels like to feel good, and 193 00:09:58,080 --> 00:10:01,440 Speaker 1: I know how I operate when I'm clear minded and 194 00:10:01,480 --> 00:10:03,960 Speaker 1: when I sleep well and all of those things, and 195 00:10:04,000 --> 00:10:06,720 Speaker 1: it's like I can't go back. It's like I literally 196 00:10:06,920 --> 00:10:10,600 Speaker 1: it's once you know, you can't know. Um. But yeah, 197 00:10:10,720 --> 00:10:12,800 Speaker 1: he and I were talking about that, and just like 198 00:10:13,080 --> 00:10:15,400 Speaker 1: then once you get over the hurdle of like the 199 00:10:15,480 --> 00:10:18,440 Speaker 1: first few events that you think would be so hard 200 00:10:18,480 --> 00:10:20,480 Speaker 1: to get through without alcohol, and you're like, oh my god, 201 00:10:20,480 --> 00:10:22,560 Speaker 1: I'm gonna feel so isolated, and then you realize like 202 00:10:22,920 --> 00:10:26,559 Speaker 1: it doesn't matter. You can still have fun and um, 203 00:10:26,600 --> 00:10:29,640 Speaker 1: and it's still like half the time most people don't 204 00:10:29,679 --> 00:10:32,000 Speaker 1: even notice, especially if you drink like a soda, water 205 00:10:32,080 --> 00:10:34,040 Speaker 1: or whatever. That's like the big piece. I think it's 206 00:10:34,080 --> 00:10:38,480 Speaker 1: like getting over other people's expectations of us. Most people 207 00:10:38,480 --> 00:10:41,560 Speaker 1: are paying attention. Everyone's only thinking about themselves. You know. 208 00:10:41,640 --> 00:10:43,840 Speaker 1: It's so funny. I think about, like I'll put on 209 00:10:43,880 --> 00:10:46,040 Speaker 1: the same para jeans twice, you know, two days in 210 00:10:46,040 --> 00:10:48,360 Speaker 1: a row, but somebody's gonna notice, and then I'll think, like, 211 00:10:48,800 --> 00:10:50,840 Speaker 1: I don't remember what anybody else is sucking to wear 212 00:10:50,880 --> 00:10:55,120 Speaker 1: any yesterday. Also, it's like if someone notices that's really 213 00:10:55,120 --> 00:10:58,840 Speaker 1: more about them than you, Like that's myself, is like, 214 00:10:59,400 --> 00:11:01,480 Speaker 1: first of all, all, no one's thinking about me the 215 00:11:01,520 --> 00:11:04,240 Speaker 1: way I'm thinking about me. And then second of all, 216 00:11:04,280 --> 00:11:08,040 Speaker 1: if they are, then like what does that say about them? Right? 217 00:11:08,400 --> 00:11:11,080 Speaker 1: I don't know. So anyway, once you get over those hurdles, though, 218 00:11:11,120 --> 00:11:13,160 Speaker 1: and you make it through a couple events, you're like, 219 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:15,800 Speaker 1: that was easy. I went home, I got a good 220 00:11:15,880 --> 00:11:18,520 Speaker 1: night's sleep, I woke up and was super productive the 221 00:11:18,559 --> 00:11:22,319 Speaker 1: next day. And it's you just realize how much time 222 00:11:22,400 --> 00:11:28,040 Speaker 1: we spend drinking or being hungover, being lacklusser because of 223 00:11:28,080 --> 00:11:32,480 Speaker 1: alcohol and um and how dumb you feel literally like 224 00:11:32,559 --> 00:11:34,760 Speaker 1: that is that was my like big takeaway was, oh 225 00:11:34,760 --> 00:11:38,320 Speaker 1: my god, my brain function is so much higher, My 226 00:11:38,400 --> 00:11:41,360 Speaker 1: skin looks better, all of the things. I make better 227 00:11:41,440 --> 00:11:45,200 Speaker 1: choices with food, Like you're just healthier all around. And 228 00:11:45,240 --> 00:11:47,520 Speaker 1: I think that what they're experiencing, they thought they would 229 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:48,920 Speaker 1: just take a couple of weeks off and now they're like, 230 00:11:48,960 --> 00:11:54,240 Speaker 1: this is kind of a great life period. Yeah. I mean, 231 00:11:54,320 --> 00:11:56,000 Speaker 1: I I don't know that I'll ever get to the 232 00:11:56,000 --> 00:11:58,200 Speaker 1: point of not wanting to drink, because there is like 233 00:11:58,240 --> 00:12:02,600 Speaker 1: an association, um, and I don't I don't know if 234 00:12:02,600 --> 00:12:04,960 Speaker 1: this is like the most unhealthy thing to ever say, 235 00:12:05,000 --> 00:12:08,520 Speaker 1: Like I do associate it with certain things like being 236 00:12:08,559 --> 00:12:10,839 Speaker 1: at the beach and just drinking a ton of being 237 00:12:12,000 --> 00:12:15,760 Speaker 1: where the hardest for me when I was here. Yeah, Um, 238 00:12:17,800 --> 00:12:20,880 Speaker 1: but you know it's like I could, I could take 239 00:12:20,880 --> 00:12:23,199 Speaker 1: it or leave it. I mean my parents. I grew 240 00:12:23,280 --> 00:12:26,559 Speaker 1: up in a household where my parents drank every day. Um, 241 00:12:26,679 --> 00:12:30,640 Speaker 1: and you know, to me, it's like I never thought, 242 00:12:30,840 --> 00:12:35,200 Speaker 1: like my my parents have a drinking problem. Um, I 243 00:12:35,200 --> 00:12:37,920 Speaker 1: think a little differently about that now, like now that 244 00:12:37,960 --> 00:12:40,839 Speaker 1: I'm older and I have context, so like what it's 245 00:12:40,880 --> 00:12:42,600 Speaker 1: like to have four or five drinks at night. And 246 00:12:43,080 --> 00:12:46,560 Speaker 1: but it's more my dad is a much heavier drinker 247 00:12:46,600 --> 00:12:49,920 Speaker 1: than my mom is. But that said, like, you know, 248 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:51,760 Speaker 1: he got up every day, he went to work, he 249 00:12:51,800 --> 00:12:54,800 Speaker 1: did his thing. There was never a problem. And now 250 00:12:54,840 --> 00:12:58,000 Speaker 1: that he's now that he's like retired and at home, like, 251 00:12:58,320 --> 00:13:00,640 Speaker 1: I don't care, it's starting the more in drink, drink 252 00:13:00,679 --> 00:13:03,600 Speaker 1: all you like you've earned that is sort of you 253 00:13:03,640 --> 00:13:06,080 Speaker 1: know my take on it. And um, you know he's 254 00:13:06,120 --> 00:13:08,560 Speaker 1: never had a d u I or also an accident 255 00:13:08,640 --> 00:13:10,880 Speaker 1: or done any of the things that are generally associated 256 00:13:10,920 --> 00:13:13,760 Speaker 1: with alcoholism. That doesn't mean that there might not be 257 00:13:13,840 --> 00:13:17,199 Speaker 1: some tinges of it in his life. But um, who 258 00:13:17,200 --> 00:13:19,880 Speaker 1: am I to judge? You know? But I did. I 259 00:13:19,960 --> 00:13:22,800 Speaker 1: like I grew up in a household like where that's 260 00:13:22,840 --> 00:13:28,040 Speaker 1: what I saw and you know, like my parents drinking 261 00:13:28,040 --> 00:13:31,320 Speaker 1: on the beach. Like so when I do that, like 262 00:13:31,440 --> 00:13:34,760 Speaker 1: there is a bit of like it reminds me of home, 263 00:13:35,040 --> 00:13:37,480 Speaker 1: you know. And I think it's really hard to disconnect 264 00:13:37,520 --> 00:13:41,160 Speaker 1: with because it connects you to your family, It connects 265 00:13:41,160 --> 00:13:43,160 Speaker 1: you to your memories and your past and all that ship. 266 00:13:43,280 --> 00:13:45,560 Speaker 1: So especially when it's good memories. I mean, that's what 267 00:13:45,559 --> 00:13:47,240 Speaker 1: I would always say to you guys. I remember when 268 00:13:47,280 --> 00:13:50,120 Speaker 1: I would drink like fake wine sometimes at certain things 269 00:13:50,120 --> 00:13:53,119 Speaker 1: that we would do, or a fake tequila drink, because 270 00:13:53,240 --> 00:13:56,440 Speaker 1: so much of it was the association of drinking something 271 00:13:56,600 --> 00:13:59,760 Speaker 1: like I realized it wasn't necessarily about the alcohol piece. 272 00:13:59,800 --> 00:14:02,920 Speaker 1: It is like literally moving a drink from my hand 273 00:14:02,960 --> 00:14:05,320 Speaker 1: to my mouth like that that up and down motion. 274 00:14:06,040 --> 00:14:10,720 Speaker 1: And um, and there's something about like the camaraderie piece, 275 00:14:10,760 --> 00:14:14,000 Speaker 1: which I will say that was That's a big conversation 276 00:14:14,000 --> 00:14:16,720 Speaker 1: I have with people now about like it stinks a 277 00:14:16,760 --> 00:14:20,000 Speaker 1: little bit because there's almost like this grieving process when 278 00:14:20,000 --> 00:14:22,320 Speaker 1: you take drinking out of the equation for anybody, Like 279 00:14:22,360 --> 00:14:25,080 Speaker 1: I think my friends felt it too, because there's this 280 00:14:25,240 --> 00:14:28,200 Speaker 1: mentality of like we're all in this together kind of 281 00:14:28,240 --> 00:14:30,920 Speaker 1: thing and like you're just on the same level and 282 00:14:30,960 --> 00:14:35,240 Speaker 1: it's like in some ways this like bonding experience, you know, 283 00:14:35,400 --> 00:14:38,800 Speaker 1: and at that I missed, I will that's I'm honest 284 00:14:38,840 --> 00:14:41,680 Speaker 1: about that. And I felt a little bit apart from 285 00:14:41,760 --> 00:14:46,360 Speaker 1: during that time, and there's parts of that that I'm like, oh, yeah, 286 00:14:46,400 --> 00:14:48,920 Speaker 1: that's so. Maybe that's why I brought some of it back. 287 00:14:49,880 --> 00:14:52,120 Speaker 1: And that makes me a little sad if I'm being honest, 288 00:14:52,160 --> 00:14:54,880 Speaker 1: because I'm like, I don't want that to be the 289 00:14:54,920 --> 00:14:58,040 Speaker 1: connecting piece between me and any of my relationships, Like 290 00:14:58,200 --> 00:15:00,680 Speaker 1: I want to connect on a you know, different level 291 00:15:00,960 --> 00:15:05,320 Speaker 1: or have fun without it, and I know that that 292 00:15:05,480 --> 00:15:08,240 Speaker 1: is the case with all my relationships currently in my life. 293 00:15:08,400 --> 00:15:10,760 Speaker 1: If that was one of the things that I noticed though, 294 00:15:10,840 --> 00:15:13,000 Speaker 1: was like if there was someone that I was dreading 295 00:15:13,000 --> 00:15:15,720 Speaker 1: hanging out with without alcohol, that made me kind of 296 00:15:15,720 --> 00:15:19,320 Speaker 1: re evaluate that situation or that relationship or whatever, because 297 00:15:19,360 --> 00:15:21,600 Speaker 1: if I don't want to do it sober, like why 298 00:15:21,640 --> 00:15:24,520 Speaker 1: am I fucking doing it right. Yeah, And I think 299 00:15:24,560 --> 00:15:28,200 Speaker 1: as long as it's not always that with your particularly 300 00:15:28,240 --> 00:15:29,840 Speaker 1: even people that you love and you want to be 301 00:15:29,880 --> 00:15:32,840 Speaker 1: around and be as long because it's not always that, 302 00:15:32,960 --> 00:15:35,280 Speaker 1: then I don't think that I think you can look 303 00:15:35,280 --> 00:15:37,160 Speaker 1: at it and be like, yeah, so what if I 304 00:15:37,240 --> 00:15:39,320 Speaker 1: choose to like have a fun night out with friends? 305 00:15:39,400 --> 00:15:44,320 Speaker 1: You know, you know, I don't know if you noticed this, 306 00:15:44,360 --> 00:15:46,120 Speaker 1: but when when I was in New York and did 307 00:15:46,160 --> 00:15:52,000 Speaker 1: my sober months occasionally, I I noticed one was something 308 00:15:52,000 --> 00:15:53,560 Speaker 1: that I really loved when I would go out with 309 00:15:53,640 --> 00:15:55,880 Speaker 1: friends that were getting ship faced and I was we 310 00:15:55,880 --> 00:15:58,360 Speaker 1: were younger, so it's like we were getting wasted, you know, 311 00:15:58,360 --> 00:16:02,480 Speaker 1: it was like those years. Um. One, it was really 312 00:16:02,560 --> 00:16:04,960 Speaker 1: nice to sort of remember the night. I remembered everything 313 00:16:04,960 --> 00:16:09,920 Speaker 1: that happened. M My friends hated that about and but 314 00:16:10,160 --> 00:16:13,400 Speaker 1: two I also remembered like thinking, god, some people were 315 00:16:13,480 --> 00:16:18,040 Speaker 1: so fucking annoying. Oh my god. And next level, he 316 00:16:18,440 --> 00:16:20,880 Speaker 1: trapped in the corner talking to someone who's super drunk 317 00:16:21,040 --> 00:16:23,600 Speaker 1: and like it's like hard to get out of the conversations. 318 00:16:23,800 --> 00:16:26,080 Speaker 1: But then I would remind myself, I'd be like, they're 319 00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:29,480 Speaker 1: not gonna remember me, just like away you know, you 320 00:16:29,480 --> 00:16:32,120 Speaker 1: could literally just walk away and they'd be like, I'm 321 00:16:32,160 --> 00:16:34,880 Speaker 1: done talking to and just walk away. There's definitely like 322 00:16:35,200 --> 00:16:37,360 Speaker 1: different things I would do, Like there would be certain 323 00:16:37,360 --> 00:16:40,000 Speaker 1: times of the night where I knew, Okay, they're not 324 00:16:40,040 --> 00:16:41,800 Speaker 1: going to remember if I'm here or not, and I'm 325 00:16:41,840 --> 00:16:44,360 Speaker 1: getting miserable because everyone's so annoying right now. So I'm 326 00:16:44,360 --> 00:16:48,440 Speaker 1: gonna go before it becomes like volatile either way. You know. 327 00:16:49,040 --> 00:16:52,239 Speaker 1: I wanted to read this though, because I think, like, um, 328 00:16:52,240 --> 00:16:54,480 Speaker 1: it's the piece about the sober curious thing is a 329 00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:57,400 Speaker 1: lot of people thought when I first did it, like 330 00:16:57,400 --> 00:17:00,040 Speaker 1: like I said, like, oh there was a problem, and 331 00:17:00,040 --> 00:17:03,160 Speaker 1: and um that you know, like I was never going 332 00:17:03,240 --> 00:17:05,320 Speaker 1: to drink again, and I didn't really have the answer 333 00:17:05,480 --> 00:17:07,320 Speaker 1: to like will I bring it back or will I not? 334 00:17:07,400 --> 00:17:09,280 Speaker 1: And so I think that left people like even more 335 00:17:09,359 --> 00:17:12,080 Speaker 1: curious about it. But for me, it was really just 336 00:17:12,160 --> 00:17:16,200 Speaker 1: like evaluating my relationship. And I think that was one 337 00:17:16,240 --> 00:17:18,280 Speaker 1: of the things I've really spent a lot of times 338 00:17:18,720 --> 00:17:22,840 Speaker 1: time thinking about when I wasn't drinking, because it kind 339 00:17:22,840 --> 00:17:24,919 Speaker 1: of can go with any like a lot of different 340 00:17:24,960 --> 00:17:27,280 Speaker 1: things in our life. And I realized how many like 341 00:17:27,400 --> 00:17:30,639 Speaker 1: little mindless things this is like maybe even over the 342 00:17:30,720 --> 00:17:32,520 Speaker 1: last couple of years, a little mindless things that I 343 00:17:32,560 --> 00:17:36,160 Speaker 1: would do not being aware of, like one, what I'm 344 00:17:36,160 --> 00:17:38,800 Speaker 1: putting in my body to how I'm feeling, or like 345 00:17:39,080 --> 00:17:42,960 Speaker 1: just feeling completely disconnected from self. And so for me, 346 00:17:43,200 --> 00:17:45,640 Speaker 1: this journey is about that. And like I could see 347 00:17:45,680 --> 00:17:48,520 Speaker 1: myself doing big breaks again. Like I told you the 348 00:17:48,560 --> 00:17:50,200 Speaker 1: other day, I'm like, I'm already craving a big break 349 00:17:50,280 --> 00:17:54,280 Speaker 1: because I feel so good. I feel so different. Um. 350 00:17:54,280 --> 00:17:56,840 Speaker 1: But the definition, like I looked up earlier, this is 351 00:17:56,880 --> 00:17:59,879 Speaker 1: from very well mind dot com. But Ruby Warrington's she 352 00:18:00,000 --> 00:18:02,760 Speaker 1: you wrote this book called sober Curious, and this is 353 00:18:02,840 --> 00:18:05,399 Speaker 1: she kind of started that movement, and this this um 354 00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:11,360 Speaker 1: definition of that. But it says, according to Ruby Warrington, 355 00:18:11,480 --> 00:18:14,520 Speaker 1: the author of Sober Curious, the blissful sleep, greater focus, 356 00:18:14,680 --> 00:18:18,359 Speaker 1: limitless presence and deep connection awaiting us all on the 357 00:18:18,359 --> 00:18:22,800 Speaker 1: other side of alcohol um means literally two or being 358 00:18:22,840 --> 00:18:26,480 Speaker 1: sober curious means literally to choose to question or get 359 00:18:26,520 --> 00:18:31,399 Speaker 1: curious about every impulse in invitation and expectation to drink, 360 00:18:31,880 --> 00:18:36,000 Speaker 1: versus mindlessly going along with the dormant, I'm sorry, dominant 361 00:18:36,119 --> 00:18:40,320 Speaker 1: drinking culture. And that was what I realized like during 362 00:18:40,720 --> 00:18:43,960 Speaker 1: that time too, you don't really realize how much. I mean, 363 00:18:44,000 --> 00:18:47,679 Speaker 1: I don't know how other cities are, but Nashville specifically, 364 00:18:47,960 --> 00:18:51,280 Speaker 1: people drink a lot. Like it is like it just 365 00:18:51,320 --> 00:18:56,120 Speaker 1: surrounds every event. People like really do drink just a lot. 366 00:18:56,200 --> 00:18:58,960 Speaker 1: It's just part of the culture and not even just 367 00:18:59,040 --> 00:19:01,480 Speaker 1: our business. I think it's like just a thing here. 368 00:19:02,160 --> 00:19:06,359 Speaker 1: And what I like noticed a lot was like what 369 00:19:06,400 --> 00:19:09,560 Speaker 1: else are we doing? Like are we doing any activities 370 00:19:09,560 --> 00:19:15,399 Speaker 1: that don't just revolve us sitting around? I mean like 371 00:19:15,560 --> 00:19:17,639 Speaker 1: literally it was just sort of like like what about 372 00:19:17,640 --> 00:19:20,040 Speaker 1: going on hikes? And like it made me start having 373 00:19:20,040 --> 00:19:22,120 Speaker 1: to think outside of the box of things I wanted 374 00:19:22,160 --> 00:19:24,679 Speaker 1: to do with my friends because I wasn't drinking, and 375 00:19:24,720 --> 00:19:27,440 Speaker 1: so it was like you start looking at other activities 376 00:19:27,520 --> 00:19:29,200 Speaker 1: and then I'm like, why don't we do this all 377 00:19:29,240 --> 00:19:31,960 Speaker 1: the time. It's like we almost get like really not 378 00:19:32,080 --> 00:19:35,920 Speaker 1: creative with what to do in bonding experiences and fun 379 00:19:36,000 --> 00:19:38,240 Speaker 1: things to go do because all we think about is 380 00:19:38,240 --> 00:19:39,840 Speaker 1: like that's the only option because we don't want to 381 00:19:39,840 --> 00:19:42,600 Speaker 1: like sit and think about it, you know. Um. And 382 00:19:42,680 --> 00:19:45,960 Speaker 1: another thing I realized recently, like after the c M 383 00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:49,440 Speaker 1: as I was being so pressured to go out after 384 00:19:49,480 --> 00:19:52,040 Speaker 1: the show. That's like a super long day for my 385 00:19:52,119 --> 00:19:55,600 Speaker 1: position because like that we're actually like a lot of 386 00:19:55,600 --> 00:19:57,719 Speaker 1: people work up until the show and then they're like 387 00:19:57,720 --> 00:20:00,119 Speaker 1: watching the show and I'm like busting my ask r 388 00:20:00,119 --> 00:20:03,200 Speaker 1: in the show, like it's it's just how it works. 389 00:20:03,480 --> 00:20:06,520 Speaker 1: And I was tired, and I had to be up 390 00:20:06,520 --> 00:20:09,199 Speaker 1: at six am to do a fitting the next day, like, 391 00:20:09,280 --> 00:20:11,960 Speaker 1: and I hadn't fully prepped. I wasn't feeling good. I'll 392 00:20:12,000 --> 00:20:14,080 Speaker 1: tell you. In the past, I still would have gone 393 00:20:14,119 --> 00:20:17,720 Speaker 1: to the after parties. I would have gotten up, I 394 00:20:17,800 --> 00:20:20,640 Speaker 1: felt like ship, but I would have like grinded through 395 00:20:20,640 --> 00:20:25,280 Speaker 1: my day. Um, and I don't know. I would have 396 00:20:25,320 --> 00:20:28,160 Speaker 1: still done the job. But like I think I probably 397 00:20:28,200 --> 00:20:31,320 Speaker 1: did a better job because I didn't go out. But 398 00:20:31,400 --> 00:20:34,320 Speaker 1: I realized, like if I'm being pressured to go out 399 00:20:34,359 --> 00:20:36,760 Speaker 1: and to drink into party because everyone else is doing it, 400 00:20:37,000 --> 00:20:39,479 Speaker 1: I'm probably not gonna do it anymore. Like that doesn't 401 00:20:39,800 --> 00:20:42,000 Speaker 1: it doesn't feel good to me. I was getting like 402 00:20:42,040 --> 00:20:45,080 Speaker 1: I found myself like getting this like internal anger, and 403 00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:46,800 Speaker 1: I was like, what am I feeling? Why am I 404 00:20:46,840 --> 00:20:49,880 Speaker 1: feeling this way? Like, oh, because I'm forty years old 405 00:20:49,880 --> 00:20:53,280 Speaker 1: and I'm being peer pressured, right, yeah, because I don't 406 00:20:53,280 --> 00:20:55,440 Speaker 1: want to do it. I don't want to do it, 407 00:20:55,520 --> 00:20:56,879 Speaker 1: and I said I don't want to do it, and 408 00:20:56,960 --> 00:21:01,399 Speaker 1: y'all are not listening. For the record, you weren't. The 409 00:21:01,440 --> 00:21:03,760 Speaker 1: people who were though. It was like I said no 410 00:21:04,640 --> 00:21:06,919 Speaker 1: and my no wasn't good enough, and I was like, Wow, 411 00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:14,080 Speaker 1: this really shows me how bad I am at boundaries. Nobody. Well, 412 00:21:14,160 --> 00:21:16,879 Speaker 1: you know, back to the your your previous point about 413 00:21:16,920 --> 00:21:20,560 Speaker 1: like activities with friends. Do you think some of that 414 00:21:20,640 --> 00:21:25,919 Speaker 1: comes from, um, you know, a just being so busy 415 00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:28,080 Speaker 1: that it's really hard to devote a lot of time 416 00:21:28,119 --> 00:21:31,480 Speaker 1: to one on one sort of small like one to 417 00:21:31,600 --> 00:21:34,240 Speaker 1: one are really small group activities when it's a lot 418 00:21:34,280 --> 00:21:36,560 Speaker 1: easier to be like, hey, everybody, come over on Saturday. 419 00:21:36,560 --> 00:21:39,239 Speaker 1: We're gonna watch football and drink beer anyway, you know, 420 00:21:39,359 --> 00:21:41,919 Speaker 1: like come over and watch football, just don't drink. Like 421 00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:45,119 Speaker 1: it's like an easy like we don't. And the thing is, 422 00:21:45,240 --> 00:21:47,440 Speaker 1: I'm not saying people need to stop drinking. Everyone needs 423 00:21:47,480 --> 00:21:49,800 Speaker 1: to stop drinking. Nobody should drink. I don't know you do. 424 00:21:49,960 --> 00:21:52,520 Speaker 1: Like your relationship with alcohol, like I said the last time, 425 00:21:52,680 --> 00:21:56,400 Speaker 1: is completely up to you. The other thing that happens. 426 00:21:56,480 --> 00:21:58,560 Speaker 1: Is like when you start realizing how good you feel, 427 00:21:58,600 --> 00:22:01,000 Speaker 1: you research like what alcoho hal is doing to your body, 428 00:22:01,040 --> 00:22:04,240 Speaker 1: and it's like kind of takes the like it takes 429 00:22:04,280 --> 00:22:07,600 Speaker 1: the like um excitement around it away because you're literally 430 00:22:07,600 --> 00:22:09,879 Speaker 1: like drinking a glass of poison. So like when we 431 00:22:09,960 --> 00:22:12,560 Speaker 1: do that, we just have to know. It's like awareness 432 00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:15,520 Speaker 1: to me is everything, Like the knowledge of, yeah, this 433 00:22:15,600 --> 00:22:20,840 Speaker 1: is why you're hungover because it's literally poisoning your body. Um, 434 00:22:21,000 --> 00:22:24,200 Speaker 1: but I just think it's like I think that's fine. 435 00:22:24,440 --> 00:22:26,760 Speaker 1: It's like it's all of that is good. It's just 436 00:22:26,840 --> 00:22:29,200 Speaker 1: to ask yourself the question, like if I go sit 437 00:22:29,240 --> 00:22:31,119 Speaker 1: and watch for football with my friends all day, do 438 00:22:31,280 --> 00:22:34,399 Speaker 1: I have to drink to enjoy it? And do I 439 00:22:34,600 --> 00:22:36,920 Speaker 1: want to? Because I think like that was my thing 440 00:22:37,000 --> 00:22:40,080 Speaker 1: is I wasn't even I didn't even want to Half 441 00:22:40,080 --> 00:22:42,320 Speaker 1: of the time that I was. I just was because 442 00:22:42,320 --> 00:22:46,200 Speaker 1: it was or everyone else was, or I didn't want 443 00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:49,159 Speaker 1: to deal with what I was dealing with right in 444 00:22:49,160 --> 00:22:52,119 Speaker 1: front of me in my life. You saw I was 445 00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:57,160 Speaker 1: gonna Yeah, I know, I know you did, But did 446 00:22:57,160 --> 00:22:58,720 Speaker 1: you see you see that's for straining. It's because I 447 00:22:58,760 --> 00:23:04,080 Speaker 1: stopped drinking for a little bit time. Anyway, I'm sure 448 00:23:04,080 --> 00:23:09,280 Speaker 1: all the listeners know too, but but it just helps 449 00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:12,919 Speaker 1: to like ask yourself the questions, and it's deep in 450 00:23:13,040 --> 00:23:17,720 Speaker 1: my my relationship with myself. I don't know, there's nothing 451 00:23:17,880 --> 00:23:21,000 Speaker 1: bad that has come for me stopping drinking for a minute, 452 00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:24,200 Speaker 1: Like literally, I can't think. I can't name one bad thing. Well, 453 00:23:24,240 --> 00:23:26,199 Speaker 1: it's funny that you say that, because I you know, 454 00:23:26,240 --> 00:23:29,800 Speaker 1: I was like reading around today on just trying to 455 00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:32,480 Speaker 1: find some things to like, some points to talk about, 456 00:23:32,560 --> 00:23:34,239 Speaker 1: and a lot of what I was finding were like 457 00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:40,000 Speaker 1: from like sober houses. Yeah, because it scares people because 458 00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:42,240 Speaker 1: it's ship. Well if I'm thinking about that, does that 459 00:23:42,240 --> 00:23:45,919 Speaker 1: mean I'm an alcoholic or a problem? Right? But there 460 00:23:45,960 --> 00:23:52,280 Speaker 1: there was one that said, um uh basically ship, where 461 00:23:52,359 --> 00:23:55,840 Speaker 1: was it? Sorry? It was like alcohol doesn't solve any problems. 462 00:23:55,840 --> 00:23:59,879 Speaker 1: It causes them exactly. You know, it doesn't like no, 463 00:24:02,119 --> 00:24:04,560 Speaker 1: nothing would be bad from not drinking it. You know, 464 00:24:04,800 --> 00:24:09,280 Speaker 1: there's that, and I think it's like it's kind of funny, 465 00:24:09,359 --> 00:24:12,200 Speaker 1: like I'm so, I'm actually really happy that these kind 466 00:24:12,200 --> 00:24:16,320 Speaker 1: of movements and like conversations are happening. Oh my god, 467 00:24:16,359 --> 00:24:21,280 Speaker 1: what is wrong with me today? Alcohol is trying it's alcohol. 468 00:24:21,440 --> 00:24:24,119 Speaker 1: It's just even talking about it, my body is rejecting it. 469 00:24:25,080 --> 00:24:30,360 Speaker 1: Oh sorry, y'all, let me drink some water really fast. Um. 470 00:24:30,480 --> 00:24:34,040 Speaker 1: So I had a really good point to of course. 471 00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:38,320 Speaker 1: Oh it's like if we no where did it go? 472 00:24:40,720 --> 00:24:42,840 Speaker 1: We were talking about Like, You're really glad these conversations 473 00:24:42,840 --> 00:24:47,680 Speaker 1: are happening, Yeah, because like even saying stuff like do 474 00:24:47,720 --> 00:24:53,040 Speaker 1: I have a problem, well, like I think like alcoholism. 475 00:24:53,080 --> 00:24:54,800 Speaker 1: I've had a couple of people on here they're saying 476 00:24:54,840 --> 00:24:57,400 Speaker 1: like those words are even outdated now, and I can 477 00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:00,400 Speaker 1: get on board with that because it's like, the more 478 00:25:00,440 --> 00:25:03,320 Speaker 1: I've learned about alcoholism, I grew up in an alcoholic household. 479 00:25:03,520 --> 00:25:06,040 Speaker 1: My dad came on the podcast and talked about that too, 480 00:25:06,119 --> 00:25:08,480 Speaker 1: and UM talked about what that looked like. And I 481 00:25:08,520 --> 00:25:10,560 Speaker 1: think it was shocking to a lot of people because 482 00:25:10,640 --> 00:25:12,879 Speaker 1: just like you said, Chip, like my dad got up 483 00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:16,200 Speaker 1: and worked every day. He was like highly successful during 484 00:25:16,240 --> 00:25:20,520 Speaker 1: that time too, and um, it didn't look like this 485 00:25:20,760 --> 00:25:23,720 Speaker 1: ugly picture that I think is painted on television of 486 00:25:23,760 --> 00:25:26,560 Speaker 1: what alcoholism looks like. It can look like that. You 487 00:25:26,600 --> 00:25:29,600 Speaker 1: can also look like a super high functioning adult who 488 00:25:29,640 --> 00:25:32,879 Speaker 1: shows up every day. But it's completely emotionally unavailable, you know, like, 489 00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:35,040 Speaker 1: and those are the subtle things that you wouldn't know 490 00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:38,160 Speaker 1: unless you live in the same house as someone. All 491 00:25:38,200 --> 00:25:40,240 Speaker 1: of that is to say, I think it's outdated to 492 00:25:40,240 --> 00:25:42,280 Speaker 1: be like, do I have a problem? Well, first of all, 493 00:25:42,320 --> 00:25:44,800 Speaker 1: only you know that, but like, what are you using 494 00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:47,640 Speaker 1: alcohol for? That was the stuff I was asking myself, 495 00:25:47,720 --> 00:25:50,960 Speaker 1: like am I using it? Like? And it says in 496 00:25:50,960 --> 00:25:54,080 Speaker 1: this definition about every impulse like if I don't want 497 00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:56,200 Speaker 1: to feel a bad feeling and so I have a drink, 498 00:25:56,640 --> 00:25:59,600 Speaker 1: that's probably a little bit problematic drinking wise, you know. 499 00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:02,840 Speaker 1: So I don't want to be like my solution too 500 00:26:02,960 --> 00:26:05,359 Speaker 1: I had a bad day to be like, damn, I 501 00:26:05,400 --> 00:26:08,399 Speaker 1: need a drink. But that's what our culture teaches. And 502 00:26:08,480 --> 00:26:11,600 Speaker 1: so in a magazine or in a show, you see 503 00:26:11,920 --> 00:26:15,680 Speaker 1: people celebrating with alcohol, you see people nursing bad days 504 00:26:15,720 --> 00:26:18,720 Speaker 1: with alcohol. You see people's solution to a hangover, to 505 00:26:18,760 --> 00:26:20,960 Speaker 1: get back on the you know, drink another drink, and 506 00:26:21,000 --> 00:26:27,159 Speaker 1: it's like, yeah, alcohol is typically probably not the solution 507 00:26:28,160 --> 00:26:31,840 Speaker 1: to like to hard things in your life. But unfortunately 508 00:26:32,480 --> 00:26:36,040 Speaker 1: that's sort of what our society has taught us. And 509 00:26:36,080 --> 00:26:39,280 Speaker 1: I think the younger generations are coming in and they're like, hey, 510 00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:42,600 Speaker 1: and maybe there needs to be like like we don't 511 00:26:42,600 --> 00:26:45,560 Speaker 1: have to fully remove alcohol from the equation, but like 512 00:26:45,760 --> 00:26:49,800 Speaker 1: you do realize you're just poisoning yourself as the solution 513 00:26:49,920 --> 00:26:52,480 Speaker 1: for every problem that you have in your life or 514 00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:55,040 Speaker 1: every victory that you have in your life. And maybe 515 00:26:55,040 --> 00:26:57,440 Speaker 1: there's like other ways to do this, And so they're 516 00:26:57,480 --> 00:27:00,119 Speaker 1: like asking those questions and I think it's really it. 517 00:27:00,160 --> 00:27:07,280 Speaker 1: I love it. Yeah, I agree, yeah, I Um. I 518 00:27:07,320 --> 00:27:09,320 Speaker 1: don't know sort of what the future holds for me. 519 00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:13,080 Speaker 1: I mean it's I think I'll probably you know, just 520 00:27:13,200 --> 00:27:17,720 Speaker 1: continue to continue drinking, but like try to take a 521 00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:20,080 Speaker 1: month or two off every year just to sort of 522 00:27:20,119 --> 00:27:25,080 Speaker 1: like give the pipes, you know, some reprieve because I 523 00:27:25,119 --> 00:27:28,560 Speaker 1: don't think I have that like that kind of relationship 524 00:27:28,640 --> 00:27:31,439 Speaker 1: with alcohol, Like it is something that I only do 525 00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:33,359 Speaker 1: when I want to just go have some fun. Like 526 00:27:33,440 --> 00:27:36,520 Speaker 1: I don't drink at home. I never come home and 527 00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:39,159 Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, I need a cocktail, Like I just 528 00:27:39,200 --> 00:27:42,560 Speaker 1: don't do it. Like, um, the only time I'm like 529 00:27:42,680 --> 00:27:44,720 Speaker 1: I need a beer or something is like after a 530 00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:46,600 Speaker 1: really hot day, if I like mow the lawn or 531 00:27:46,640 --> 00:27:49,680 Speaker 1: something like, and it doesn't feel like it's like congrat 532 00:27:49,800 --> 00:27:53,680 Speaker 1: it's literally out of thirst almost and it's it's something 533 00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:57,040 Speaker 1: that's a little more substantive than water. But yeah, I've 534 00:27:57,080 --> 00:27:59,680 Speaker 1: never really felt like I've had a bad relationship with it. 535 00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:02,320 Speaker 1: I feel like I'm lucky because I've done plenty of 536 00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:06,400 Speaker 1: drinking at my time. Yeah, I think it's often just 537 00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:09,640 Speaker 1: because it's there. So I want to be more mindful 538 00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:12,760 Speaker 1: about how many drinks I'm putting into my body, honestly, 539 00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:16,800 Speaker 1: more for the caloric content and how much it costs 540 00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:19,080 Speaker 1: to drink, Like I know, oh my god, the money 541 00:28:19,160 --> 00:28:22,320 Speaker 1: I have saved. It's crazy, Like even thinking about when 542 00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:25,880 Speaker 1: you go to dinners and stuff, like y'all's bills would 543 00:28:25,920 --> 00:28:29,560 Speaker 1: be so much more expensive than mine without alcohol. It 544 00:28:29,600 --> 00:28:32,960 Speaker 1: was crazy. Yes, you start, you don't start, you don't 545 00:28:33,000 --> 00:28:36,159 Speaker 1: realize it. And just even like bringing a bottle of 546 00:28:36,160 --> 00:28:37,760 Speaker 1: wine over to a friend's house, it's like it just 547 00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:41,320 Speaker 1: starts to add up over time. Yeah, I don't know. 548 00:28:41,480 --> 00:28:44,400 Speaker 1: I mean, I'm like waiting for the day like you know, 549 00:28:44,440 --> 00:28:46,160 Speaker 1: I don't know what the day was back in the 550 00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:49,320 Speaker 1: day when they decided cigarettes are finally bad like or 551 00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:52,280 Speaker 1: like just like not good for you. But I sort 552 00:28:52,280 --> 00:28:55,400 Speaker 1: of have this intuition that at some point that's going 553 00:28:55,440 --> 00:28:57,880 Speaker 1: to be the conversation around alcohol. It just hasn't gotten 554 00:28:57,880 --> 00:29:01,640 Speaker 1: into that yet. But yeah, I just think it's like 555 00:29:01,720 --> 00:29:04,320 Speaker 1: it's like an interesting thing. And I mean, obviously you 556 00:29:04,360 --> 00:29:06,720 Speaker 1: could go back to the thing of like everything in 557 00:29:06,800 --> 00:29:10,600 Speaker 1: moderation or whatever. But for me, it's like, fine, give 558 00:29:10,640 --> 00:29:14,320 Speaker 1: me those saying sure that's true, and like, am I 559 00:29:14,400 --> 00:29:17,240 Speaker 1: in touch with myself? What is my relationship with myself? 560 00:29:17,280 --> 00:29:20,560 Speaker 1: Am I connected? Do I want to do this? Like? 561 00:29:20,720 --> 00:29:23,560 Speaker 1: And why am I all of a sudden, Like the 562 00:29:23,680 --> 00:29:26,520 Speaker 1: night after the c m as definitely when I said 563 00:29:26,560 --> 00:29:30,800 Speaker 1: no and it wasn't being taken, I definitely like second 564 00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:32,520 Speaker 1: guest myself for a second and I was like I 565 00:29:32,520 --> 00:29:34,920 Speaker 1: could go have a drink. Like I quickly did start 566 00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:37,920 Speaker 1: to do the thing because you're like, I don't know 567 00:29:37,960 --> 00:29:39,640 Speaker 1: it just and then I like had to sit with 568 00:29:39,680 --> 00:29:41,720 Speaker 1: myself and I'm like, why am I feeling this way? 569 00:29:41,840 --> 00:29:43,520 Speaker 1: And for me, a lot of it is like this 570 00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:46,600 Speaker 1: fear kicks in, like the fear of losing a friendship 571 00:29:46,680 --> 00:29:50,600 Speaker 1: or a relationship of any con work, you know, whatever 572 00:29:50,640 --> 00:29:53,520 Speaker 1: it is if I miss out on something like if 573 00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:56,440 Speaker 1: I'm not there, if I don't show up, Um, but 574 00:29:56,520 --> 00:29:59,400 Speaker 1: I don't. I don't want that to be alcohol related 575 00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:04,000 Speaker 1: for me, and so I can't abandon myself to try 576 00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:05,880 Speaker 1: to keep things without you know, like that just goes 577 00:30:05,920 --> 00:30:08,400 Speaker 1: back to these bigger picture things and that's like a 578 00:30:08,440 --> 00:30:11,120 Speaker 1: pattern for me in my life, and alcohol was just 579 00:30:11,160 --> 00:30:13,960 Speaker 1: like a factor that made that more difficult for me 580 00:30:14,760 --> 00:30:17,720 Speaker 1: to stay in touch with. So yeah, and I think 581 00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:20,760 Speaker 1: it's different for everyone. I think everyone's relationship is super different. 582 00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:23,800 Speaker 1: So whatever it is, I just don't think it hurts 583 00:30:23,800 --> 00:30:27,880 Speaker 1: to ask the questions like the wise, is this an impulse? 584 00:30:27,960 --> 00:30:31,240 Speaker 1: Do I really want this? And I just like doing 585 00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:34,080 Speaker 1: it because it's there? Is it a motion like could 586 00:30:34,080 --> 00:30:37,640 Speaker 1: I drink a Lacroix instead? You'd be surprised try it. 587 00:30:37,960 --> 00:30:41,240 Speaker 1: I mean honestly, it's the same thing applies to food shopping. 588 00:30:41,680 --> 00:30:47,360 Speaker 1: It Yeah, anything that feels impulsive, Um, you know you 589 00:30:47,360 --> 00:30:50,640 Speaker 1: could probably benefit from asking those same questions. Well, I 590 00:30:50,680 --> 00:30:53,080 Speaker 1: think that that's what makes me sad, Like that's literally 591 00:30:53,240 --> 00:30:55,200 Speaker 1: why I want to do this podcast and the way 592 00:30:55,200 --> 00:30:58,400 Speaker 1: that I do it, specifically having all these facilitators on 593 00:30:58,520 --> 00:31:02,160 Speaker 1: that that, Okay, help us with our relationships with ourselves 594 00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:03,920 Speaker 1: or help us in healing and help us in all 595 00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:06,600 Speaker 1: these things. Like I think it's so important that we 596 00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:11,600 Speaker 1: have those conversations and like give ourselves other tools, like 597 00:31:11,880 --> 00:31:15,440 Speaker 1: are you anxious? Alcohol is not going to fucking help that. Actually, 598 00:31:15,840 --> 00:31:17,840 Speaker 1: that is the main thing that I noticed was my 599 00:31:17,920 --> 00:31:21,480 Speaker 1: anxiety levels were so much lower. And then now the 600 00:31:21,560 --> 00:31:23,920 Speaker 1: days that I drink, I know in my body, like 601 00:31:24,560 --> 00:31:27,120 Speaker 1: the narratives in my head and myself talk becomes so 602 00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:31,480 Speaker 1: much more negative. My anxiety is so high. And luckily 603 00:31:31,520 --> 00:31:34,120 Speaker 1: now because I don't do it very often, it's like 604 00:31:34,160 --> 00:31:36,800 Speaker 1: I can go, oh my god, this is alcohol. Like 605 00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:39,680 Speaker 1: when you're doing it so frequently, that just becomes the 606 00:31:39,720 --> 00:31:42,760 Speaker 1: norm of how you think about yourself or anything like that, 607 00:31:42,880 --> 00:31:46,320 Speaker 1: and it's like, I don't know, I just think it's 608 00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:49,440 Speaker 1: it's really important to, you know, stay in touch with 609 00:31:49,440 --> 00:31:52,840 Speaker 1: ourselves and have these different tools to help us navigate 610 00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:55,640 Speaker 1: life because adulting is fucking hard and none of us 611 00:31:55,680 --> 00:31:58,840 Speaker 1: are really good at it, but we can get better. 612 00:31:59,360 --> 00:32:02,280 Speaker 1: That was the other thing. The emotional It's like it's 613 00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:05,600 Speaker 1: like emotionally stunting alcoholic. Think about when we were out 614 00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:08,560 Speaker 1: the other day for your birthday. It was so much 615 00:32:08,600 --> 00:32:11,440 Speaker 1: fun and like probably part of the reason you had 616 00:32:11,480 --> 00:32:13,200 Speaker 1: anxiety the next day, though, it is because like we 617 00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:16,719 Speaker 1: were ridiculous, Like if anyone had seen you and I 618 00:32:16,880 --> 00:32:20,520 Speaker 1: belting out Paula Abduel in that bar. I mean we 619 00:32:20,520 --> 00:32:23,479 Speaker 1: were feeling it. Oh my god. We were listening to 620 00:32:24,000 --> 00:32:32,200 Speaker 1: some eighties Shipsie Gibson and Debbie. You're feeling But it 621 00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:34,240 Speaker 1: was so fun. Like I don't take that day back 622 00:32:34,280 --> 00:32:37,520 Speaker 1: for anything, not at all. But it was a conscious decision. 623 00:32:37,800 --> 00:32:40,160 Speaker 1: We were all in it, like we had so much fun. 624 00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:43,400 Speaker 1: We didn't have responsibilities that day. There wasn't things we 625 00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:47,400 Speaker 1: were neglecting, you know. Um, But our end, it's like 626 00:32:47,440 --> 00:32:49,800 Speaker 1: you start to be like, oh my god, we're acting 627 00:32:49,880 --> 00:32:53,320 Speaker 1: like teenagers every now and again. It's probably fine, but 628 00:32:53,360 --> 00:32:55,000 Speaker 1: as a forty year old, like I probably need to 629 00:32:55,040 --> 00:32:57,000 Speaker 1: be in a forty year old body and act that way. 630 00:32:57,080 --> 00:33:02,600 Speaker 1: And I was acting like I was acting like a 631 00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:07,520 Speaker 1: forty year old. I left that space open for you 632 00:33:07,560 --> 00:33:12,400 Speaker 1: because I dropped down. Um anyway, I don't know, I 633 00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,400 Speaker 1: just feel like I'm lecturing. I just get excited about 634 00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:17,720 Speaker 1: stuff like this, Like I'm got excited about what I 635 00:33:17,840 --> 00:33:21,040 Speaker 1: learned during that time and about kind of developing in 636 00:33:21,040 --> 00:33:23,160 Speaker 1: a relationship and I still don't have the answer of 637 00:33:23,240 --> 00:33:27,320 Speaker 1: like what my relationship is now. It's like still I'm 638 00:33:27,360 --> 00:33:30,600 Speaker 1: figuring it out, you know. Like I sort of was 639 00:33:30,640 --> 00:33:32,680 Speaker 1: like stumbling through my week because there was a lot 640 00:33:32,680 --> 00:33:35,240 Speaker 1: of alcohol involved in Nashville this week and I didn't drink. 641 00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:37,960 Speaker 1: I just didn't feel like it. And then I was like, Okay, 642 00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:39,880 Speaker 1: well I wanted to drink on Sunday, so I did. 643 00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:42,720 Speaker 1: But it's just like I think I start to tie 644 00:33:42,840 --> 00:33:45,960 Speaker 1: so much of like does this mean I don't know 645 00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:47,960 Speaker 1: who I am? You know? And it doesn't have to 646 00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:51,200 Speaker 1: be that deep. It's like I'm just navigating the pendulum 647 00:33:51,200 --> 00:33:53,600 Speaker 1: swung to one side and instead of trying to go 648 00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:55,240 Speaker 1: all the way back to the other and like being 649 00:33:55,280 --> 00:33:57,600 Speaker 1: all in, I'm just trying to like find the middle ground, 650 00:33:57,600 --> 00:34:01,520 Speaker 1: like what's healthy for me. So that's the answer to 651 00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:03,440 Speaker 1: that question for you guys. If you have more questions, 652 00:34:03,440 --> 00:34:05,880 Speaker 1: you can always hit me up. Um I am at 653 00:34:05,960 --> 00:34:11,040 Speaker 1: velvets Edge on Instagram, chip I'm at Chip doors d 654 00:34:11,120 --> 00:34:15,719 Speaker 1: O R s H. You can also email us at 655 00:34:15,760 --> 00:34:18,879 Speaker 1: the Edge at velvets edge dot com. I love hearing 656 00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:21,520 Speaker 1: about anyone else on their souber curious journey to and 657 00:34:21,560 --> 00:34:26,239 Speaker 1: like what's working for you, what you've discovered. Um, even 658 00:34:26,320 --> 00:34:29,320 Speaker 1: if you think I'm a total hypocrite, and I guess 659 00:34:29,360 --> 00:34:36,080 Speaker 1: tell me, yeah, I mean why why me and not you? Though? Well, 660 00:34:36,120 --> 00:34:38,839 Speaker 1: I mean all of us, you know, if you think 661 00:34:38,840 --> 00:34:41,280 Speaker 1: we're fools, I don't know. I think we all are. 662 00:34:41,640 --> 00:34:43,560 Speaker 1: I mean there's a little bit of like you only 663 00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:46,160 Speaker 1: live once too, you know, like I understand that side 664 00:34:46,160 --> 00:34:49,640 Speaker 1: of it too. Yeah, but I do. I think like 665 00:34:49,760 --> 00:34:52,359 Speaker 1: I don't think extremes on either level or the right 666 00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:56,359 Speaker 1: answer for me. So it's like finding that middle ground 667 00:34:56,400 --> 00:34:58,560 Speaker 1: because I need to enjoy life and play and have 668 00:34:58,719 --> 00:35:01,600 Speaker 1: fun too and not be so serious all the time. 669 00:35:01,719 --> 00:35:05,160 Speaker 1: And I don't know is alcohol in that equation. Some 670 00:35:05,280 --> 00:35:09,480 Speaker 1: days it is, Sundays it isn't anyway, all right, Well 671 00:35:09,480 --> 00:35:14,880 Speaker 1: I'll get off. Yeah, cheers this kidding. I've got my 672 00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:20,160 Speaker 1: water right here. That'll hydration more than a beer. Yeah. 673 00:35:20,560 --> 00:35:24,080 Speaker 1: Time I was at a shoot almost drank a white 674 00:35:24,080 --> 00:35:26,000 Speaker 1: cloth because it was there, and I was like, what, No, 675 00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:32,359 Speaker 1: I don't even like white claws, right, sorry white claw? Um. Well, 676 00:35:32,360 --> 00:35:34,200 Speaker 1: I think it's just a good time right now to 677 00:35:34,360 --> 00:35:38,000 Speaker 1: going into holiday season to be like, all right, do 678 00:35:38,080 --> 00:35:39,719 Speaker 1: I have to have tin drinks or is too going 679 00:35:39,760 --> 00:35:42,839 Speaker 1: to do the trick like I don't know, just all 680 00:35:42,840 --> 00:35:45,040 Speaker 1: these holiday parties, you start to feel like ship after 681 00:35:45,080 --> 00:35:48,040 Speaker 1: a while. Yeah, So I will say, one trick I've 682 00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:50,920 Speaker 1: learned is I do one drink a lot of times, 683 00:35:50,920 --> 00:35:52,759 Speaker 1: and then I'll do like a soda water and a 684 00:35:52,840 --> 00:35:56,640 Speaker 1: lime in between, like before I have another drink. And 685 00:35:56,880 --> 00:35:59,640 Speaker 1: it helps because it's like I don't know, it's just 686 00:35:59,680 --> 00:36:03,280 Speaker 1: a good balance for me. So mixing viitration it slows 687 00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:06,879 Speaker 1: you down. It just slows you down, and it doesn't Yeah, 688 00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:11,000 Speaker 1: you're just it's not mindless anymore. So there. Yeah, all right, 689 00:36:11,040 --> 00:36:13,960 Speaker 1: that's all we got for you guys today. Um, as 690 00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:16,360 Speaker 1: you go into your weekend and you're living on the 691 00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:20,239 Speaker 1: edge and this is dark night, we're experiencing a four. 692 00:36:22,480 --> 00:36:27,239 Speaker 1: I hope you always remembered too casual. Did I miss 693 00:36:27,239 --> 00:36:31,200 Speaker 1: out on living on the edge? Did I say that? God? 694 00:36:31,320 --> 00:36:35,000 Speaker 1: Every time I try to get tricky and and you know, good, Hope. 695 00:36:35,040 --> 00:36:36,480 Speaker 1: I gotta go, Okay, I gotta go.