WEBVTT - Andrew Luck and Dwight Gooden

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<v Speaker 1>I'm Alec Baldwin and you're listening to here's the thing,

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<v Speaker 1>Peyton Manny Love. Peyton's still a big fan of Peyton. Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>Steve McNair. My mom was very strict, you know, very

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<v Speaker 1>directly stuff when my dad kind of getting a pass

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<v Speaker 1>with a lot of things along as I was playing baseball.

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<v Speaker 1>A few of us can do what professional athletes do,

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<v Speaker 1>and even fewer athletes begin their pro careers with the

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<v Speaker 1>immediate success of my guests. Today, I'll talk with former

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<v Speaker 1>pitcher Dwight Gooden to hear about his historic rookie season

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<v Speaker 1>in and how his major league career was affected by

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<v Speaker 1>his struggles with drugs and alcohol. But first, Andrew Luck,

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<v Speaker 1>currently enjoying his second season in the National Football League.

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<v Speaker 1>We're the first pick in the two thousand and twelve

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<v Speaker 1>NFL drafts the Indianapolis could select Andrew Luck. Luck was

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<v Speaker 1>hired to replaced one of his heroes, Peyton Manning, as

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<v Speaker 1>quarterback of the Indianapolis Colts. Many doubted that the Stanford

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<v Speaker 1>graduate could live up to the enormous hype generated by

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<v Speaker 1>that first round pick, but Luck delivered, setting a new

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<v Speaker 1>NFL record for most passing yards by a rookie Andrew Luck,

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<v Speaker 1>a self described nerd, is nothing if not level headed

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<v Speaker 1>when he talks about navigating the transitions from high school

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<v Speaker 1>to college to pro football. They're definitely large differences along

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<v Speaker 1>the way. But but I also know a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>the challenges are the same. I think, fresh on my

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<v Speaker 1>mind still, you know, finishing a rookie year, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what what what what was similar about rookie year to

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<v Speaker 1>being a sophomore in high school and starting on varsity,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, wants to to being in college and started

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<v Speaker 1>as a sophomore as well. I think you know the

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<v Speaker 1>same things presents of how as a young kid. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>how is a fifteen year old kid do you play with?

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<v Speaker 1>Eighteen year old? How is it? How is the nineteen

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<v Speaker 1>year o kid do you play with? Is that what

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<v Speaker 1>you did? And? Yeah, how was it? It's weird? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>you want to remember what do you remember about high

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<v Speaker 1>school ball? So I just wanted to keep my mouth shut.

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<v Speaker 1>You in Houston, in Houston, which they do have like

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<v Speaker 1>a somewhat of a religious cult following, you know of

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<v Speaker 1>high school football entype, it truly is, and you know

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<v Speaker 1>it's sensationalized a bit with the movies, in the in

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<v Speaker 1>the books, but people get into I mean we had

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<v Speaker 1>we had fifteen thousand people watching games, you know, for

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<v Speaker 1>for for a bunch of high school kids. Yeah, but

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<v Speaker 1>but I do remember, you know, being a rookie, thinking

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<v Speaker 1>back to you know, being a sophomone, how how do

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<v Speaker 1>you how do you earn the respect to the guys

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<v Speaker 1>older than you? You know, how do you how do

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<v Speaker 1>you go in there? And so would you see that

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<v Speaker 1>each step of the way if he was proving yourself

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<v Speaker 1>to people who when you show up the vets are there,

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<v Speaker 1>or the guys who have a few more seasons under

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<v Speaker 1>their belt and you want to show them you belong there. No, absolutely,

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<v Speaker 1>I think describe it was like when you went from

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<v Speaker 1>Houston to Stanford the same thing, you know, one it's

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<v Speaker 1>it's it was. It was fun for me to be

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<v Speaker 1>out in California and you were a scholar. You did

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<v Speaker 1>very well in school. I did all right. I managed

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<v Speaker 1>to get by. I studied architecture, which was fun for

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<v Speaker 1>me and which I enjoyed, which I don't much better

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<v Speaker 1>I think on projects than writing papers, you know. So

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<v Speaker 1>so I'm glad I studied something I enjoyed. But do

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<v Speaker 1>you think that that kind of pursued academically, like something

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<v Speaker 1>that involves geometry and math and so forth, and measurements

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<v Speaker 1>help you as a quarterback. I don't know. People have

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<v Speaker 1>asked me to compare the to it. I you know,

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<v Speaker 1>it can't hurt, but you know, realistically, how much could

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<v Speaker 1>could solid a bath problem help a football game? It

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<v Speaker 1>might be just intrinsic. How you just see things. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>when that guy's going deep over the middle, maybe you

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<v Speaker 1>something this looks like the Louve to me. And then

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<v Speaker 1>when you went to Stanford, what was that like? You

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<v Speaker 1>showed up there? When you talk about that idea of

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<v Speaker 1>showing up and proving yourself, what was it like for you?

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<v Speaker 1>First year was great? Didn't play? Red shirt? And which

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<v Speaker 1>was which was? Which was difficult describe for people exactly

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<v Speaker 1>how red shirting works. So red shirting is a process work.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, you go to school and everybody has four

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<v Speaker 1>years of eligibility to play. Uh, but you can red

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<v Speaker 1>shirt a year. You still practice with the team, you

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<v Speaker 1>still do everything with the team. You're just not allowed

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<v Speaker 1>to play in a game. So it's theoretically you can

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<v Speaker 1>another year. Yeah, and then you go to school for

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<v Speaker 1>you know, being school for five years, so it gives

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<v Speaker 1>you a year too, and you red shooted your first year.

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<v Speaker 1>I recruited my first year. I wasn't ready to play

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<v Speaker 1>and I needed to get bigger, faster, stronger, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>physically wise and also mentally just catch up today. So

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<v Speaker 1>when you come to a school like that, when they

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<v Speaker 1>take you there and they and they recruited you, correct

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<v Speaker 1>and when they recruit you to come, they recruit you.

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<v Speaker 1>The red shirt thing was something they had in mind.

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<v Speaker 1>So at that level, at the Stanford level, they have

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<v Speaker 1>you come and they say we're gonna bring you here

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<v Speaker 1>and we're going to develop you for the first year. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and some guys in my class, we're we're

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<v Speaker 1>good enough to play, you know as freshman. But but

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<v Speaker 1>I know in my recruiting process that that was a

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<v Speaker 1>thought that came up. They want muscle up and get stronger,

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<v Speaker 1>and and and mentally too, I think mentally catch up

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<v Speaker 1>to the playbook. Having to learn that and it definitely

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<v Speaker 1>helped and I enjoyed it. And what was that experience

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<v Speaker 1>like because someone said that to me once, They said that,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, you go from high school and you're a

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<v Speaker 1>dominant player in high school. Then you go to college

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<v Speaker 1>and you're in a room full of high school dominant players.

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<v Speaker 1>It's humbling. I'll say that. You get knocked off your

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<v Speaker 1>high horse very very quickly. Everybody's in all so you

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<v Speaker 1>go from being in you know, the top dogs probably

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<v Speaker 1>starting on every you're the king. Yeah, everything you've ever

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<v Speaker 1>played in. The cheerleaders want a date you. You know, everybody.

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<v Speaker 1>You go to college and you're just you're carrying somebody

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<v Speaker 1>else is bad exactly. So you read shirt that year

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<v Speaker 1>and then you come back the second year and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>assuming you were stronger and you had development, and did

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<v Speaker 1>you and you felt better? You felt strong? No, I

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<v Speaker 1>think I put on like pounds, you know, and my

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<v Speaker 1>mind was working much quicker when you know, on the

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<v Speaker 1>football side of things, we're getting ready, getting ready. And

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<v Speaker 1>what happens in that second year coach hardball, who's who's

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<v Speaker 1>Who's coach game Jim, he gave me a shot. I

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<v Speaker 1>got got to play in all their games. I got

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<v Speaker 1>hurt the last game of the season. And did you

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<v Speaker 1>get smacked around a lot? I mean, you're playing football

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<v Speaker 1>at Stanford. What was that like for you? That that

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<v Speaker 1>threat every day and it's a pure adrenaline when you

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<v Speaker 1>say to yourself, I can't think about that. I can't

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<v Speaker 1>afford to think about that or every minute you're out there.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think these guys, man, they really if they

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<v Speaker 1>hit me, it's really gonna hurt. Like no, I think that.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't. You can't let yourself think about you have to.

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<v Speaker 1>I think as soon as you start getting skittish about

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<v Speaker 1>about being hit, then then your play is gonna plummet.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a little bit of pride involved in it too.

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<v Speaker 1>I think as a football player, at least at least

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<v Speaker 1>in my mind, I sort of enjoy getting hit every

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<v Speaker 1>now and then and being able to stand back up

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<v Speaker 1>and say, Okay, you hit me whatever. Man, you know

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<v Speaker 1>I'm getting back off, not downright. You didn't get me

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<v Speaker 1>down right, So so that I think, I think for

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of players there's a bit of that. What

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<v Speaker 1>did Hardball give you was a coach? What would you

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<v Speaker 1>say distinguished him as a coach? I think he builds

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<v Speaker 1>great relationships with players, everybody on the staff and he

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<v Speaker 1>and he's he's an unbelievable motivator. On game day, you

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<v Speaker 1>always felt like you know the guy was gonna you know,

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<v Speaker 1>run through hell and back with you if you had to,

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<v Speaker 1>you felt like you had your back, if you wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to be in a brawl in an alley you wanted,

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<v Speaker 1>you want to coach hardball with you? What's it like

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<v Speaker 1>when you leave SAIM because you you you red shirted

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<v Speaker 1>your first year and then played and you finished the standpord. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't leave three years. So I graduated. I had

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<v Speaker 1>one year of eligibility left, but and you didn't and

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<v Speaker 1>it was time to go. It was time to How

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<v Speaker 1>did you know it was time to go? Uh? You

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<v Speaker 1>know my degree? I got my degree, which really didn't

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<v Speaker 1>make any sense to stay. Yeah, it didn't. I had

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<v Speaker 1>I had enough fun. And then what happened? And then

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<v Speaker 1>tell me where you're sitting when when you find out

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<v Speaker 1>what's going on for you? NFL was how does that develop? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's a it's it's actually sort of long process.

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<v Speaker 1>And I was drafted before I graduated from school. So

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<v Speaker 1>you finish your college season. I took a we were

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<v Speaker 1>on the quarter system at Stanford, so I took the

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<v Speaker 1>winter quarter off to go train and prepare that they

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<v Speaker 1>have a combine uh where in Indianapolis, which you know

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<v Speaker 1>it was funny enough was where I ended up. The

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<v Speaker 1>combine is it a really interesting weird sort of dynamic

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<v Speaker 1>where they fly all these players and they have all

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<v Speaker 1>the coaches, they have all the team doctors and it's

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<v Speaker 1>three days and you're there pick and you can Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>this is before So this is a chance for all

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<v Speaker 1>the teams to meet the players that to see the

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<v Speaker 1>combines NFL one. It's not just Indie, it's it's his team,

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<v Speaker 1>it's it's league. It's all the teams flying in with

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<v Speaker 1>all their personnel. And I'll stay and then the players

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<v Speaker 1>sort of cycle through. It's were like cattle in a

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<v Speaker 1>meat market. Yeah. I remember, you know, walking up on

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<v Speaker 1>stage with nothing but my little skimp he's on and

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<v Speaker 1>they announced, you know, and Victoria's Secret runway Shop. You're

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<v Speaker 1>on a stage with strength coaches, head coaches and all

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<v Speaker 1>these coaches sitting and bleachers around you that that you

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<v Speaker 1>walk up in the middle and it's you know, Andrew

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<v Speaker 1>Luck Stanford University, you know, six four, two thirty five,

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<v Speaker 1>and guys are there with ads going I don't like

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<v Speaker 1>the ratio of USS to his rib cage. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>like that they don't let that rib ratio. God knows

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<v Speaker 1>what they're saying that God, and then you turn around,

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<v Speaker 1>you and you walk off. That's just one of the

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<v Speaker 1>you know guys where you're getting a hundred X rays

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<v Speaker 1>on every part of your body. They move your your

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<v Speaker 1>knee this way, but which which makes sense because there's

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<v Speaker 1>so much money invested if I teams and the money. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so so that was an interesting experience. Then you sort

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<v Speaker 1>of then to leave the comment. And I had I

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<v Speaker 1>had a fairly good sense that I would be drafted

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<v Speaker 1>number one by Indianapolis just from the signals I was

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<v Speaker 1>getting from the team and other things, and I it's

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<v Speaker 1>you know, how did you feel? I mean, you knew

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<v Speaker 1>it was gonna happen kind of would everybody let you

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<v Speaker 1>know that in advance? Everybody put the cats out of

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<v Speaker 1>the bag. But when it happens, at the moment it happened,

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<v Speaker 1>did you just feel great you would number one in

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<v Speaker 1>the draft that year? Man? Yeah, I felt on top

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<v Speaker 1>of the world. I'm not gonna lie now as soon

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<v Speaker 1>as you are you the draft is over. I would

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<v Speaker 1>assume there's a euphoria, but you snapped right out of

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<v Speaker 1>it because like it's down to business now. Yeah, there

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't you four? And then I wish it would would

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<v Speaker 1>have been down to business. I had to go back

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<v Speaker 1>to school and finish up. And you try sitting in

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<v Speaker 1>a lecture. You know, after you've been you've been drafted

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<v Speaker 1>by a team, you have a job, you know where

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<v Speaker 1>you're going. I honestly, I honestly don't feel sorry for you,

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<v Speaker 1>because I would. I can't think of anything I'd like

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<v Speaker 1>more than to go back to Stanford having been the

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<v Speaker 1>number one tracking. So you go back? How long you're

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<v Speaker 1>back there? Back for maybe a couple more months to

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<v Speaker 1>finish that last So now when do your report? Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>So we report late July? Was when training camp starts?

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<v Speaker 1>When you know the actual that's the formal training, formal training.

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<v Speaker 1>You show up for your first pro training cap. Now

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<v Speaker 1>you are in the center ring in a high school,

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<v Speaker 1>in college and named Big ten and it's professional football.

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<v Speaker 1>What's that like? I mean, does your ass tightened just

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit? These guys are huge, they are they

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<v Speaker 1>are the apex of physical freaks. You know, there are

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<v Speaker 1>some guys that that are three hundred pounds, that are

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<v Speaker 1>running faster than you know, running than your high school

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<v Speaker 1>running back, that are just that are just absolutely physical,

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<v Speaker 1>and you know, some of the guys you're walking along

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<v Speaker 1>a room, you're you're playing with thirty five year olds,

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<v Speaker 1>thirty six year old with with you know, with three

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<v Speaker 1>kids in it in the house, and you know, a

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<v Speaker 1>bunch of rookies are three years old that I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know right from left. So so it's it's it's a

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<v Speaker 1>different dynamic than college, where you're sort of, well, everybody's appear, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>with you with your your buddies, you're going back to

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<v Speaker 1>the dorm, you know, you're hanging out. And the NFL

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<v Speaker 1>it's different, which makes it fun when you win and

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<v Speaker 1>come together as a team, you know, because you really

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<v Speaker 1>do have so many different types of guys. And I

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<v Speaker 1>would imagine that your teammates. I mean, on one hand,

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<v Speaker 1>people in the pro like if you go to college,

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<v Speaker 1>it's assumed under ordinary circumstances, certainly things can change, but

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<v Speaker 1>under ordinary circumstances, you're going to be there for the

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<v Speaker 1>four years. This is your team, this is your this

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<v Speaker 1>is your family. But in the pros where people move on,

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<v Speaker 1>where the teams have only their loyalty to the players

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<v Speaker 1>only extends so far do you walk in there and

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<v Speaker 1>people feel you out and you earn your way into

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<v Speaker 1>that family or do they treat you like family and

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<v Speaker 1>everybody coheses right away. No, it doesn't happen overnight. It

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't happen in the first day. I will say that

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<v Speaker 1>people gotta get to know you. Yeah, you gotta get

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<v Speaker 1>you know, especially during training camp where you're gonna have

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<v Speaker 1>you know, a hundred guys that are in training camp

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<v Speaker 1>and then one day you wake up and look and

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<v Speaker 1>there's only fifty three guys left. You know, those cut

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<v Speaker 1>days are very sad days because you see buddies go,

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<v Speaker 1>You see guys, you feel relationships, you know, guys you

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<v Speaker 1>admired maybe yeah, absolutely, guys you looked up to, guys

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<v Speaker 1>that helped you out, you know when you first walked

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<v Speaker 1>in the door, and then they're gone and that fifty

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<v Speaker 1>three players, that's when everything starts to cohes. Yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>think I think that's when that's when you come together

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<v Speaker 1>a little more. But but still, you know, even guys

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<v Speaker 1>are traded in the middle of the season, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>guys are cut, Still guys are picked up. So it's

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<v Speaker 1>it is it's a lot different, you know, just to

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<v Speaker 1>what you said that than the the you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>know you're gonna be in college for four years. You

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<v Speaker 1>know who's in your class, you know who's you know,

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<v Speaker 1>you know the guys on the team. Familiarity, Yes, absolutely.

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<v Speaker 1>Now one thing I think about when I think about

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<v Speaker 1>the NFL is this idea of the biggest, strongest, fastest

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<v Speaker 1>men hitting each other in this very violent game. And

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<v Speaker 1>the rules have been changed in order to protect players.

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<v Speaker 1>The equipment has evolved. Obviously, there's a lot of discussion

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<v Speaker 1>about concussions and so forth, over a lot of brain

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<v Speaker 1>injury research and issues, and people donating the brains of

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<v Speaker 1>their deceased suicide victims, a little a lot of heavy

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<v Speaker 1>duty stuff. But I want to ask you when you

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<v Speaker 1>go out there. I mean, it's a competitive game and

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<v Speaker 1>people want to win. But at the same time, guys

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<v Speaker 1>don't necessarily want to hurt each other the way they

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<v Speaker 1>wouldn't want to get hurt either. Do you find it's

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<v Speaker 1>a weird balance of those two because football is as

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<v Speaker 1>violent now on one hand as it was before, but

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<v Speaker 1>because equipment changes and rule changes, it seemed more violent

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<v Speaker 1>back then. You know, I don't think guys are any

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<v Speaker 1>less aggressive when it when it comes to hitting. I no, No,

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<v Speaker 1>it doesn't. And I think, you know, maybe there's a

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<v Speaker 1>thought too that all these these equipment changes and and

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<v Speaker 1>and you feel safer in it, so so you feel

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<v Speaker 1>like you can hit harder. But there's also I think,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, guys are are being taught, especially at a

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<v Speaker 1>young age now too. You know how to tackle correctly,

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<v Speaker 1>how to how to and I think there is a

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<v Speaker 1>mutual respect between players where you know you're not going

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<v Speaker 1>to try and take out someone's achilles or a cl

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<v Speaker 1>You know, some guys maybe do you know, I don't.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. Some guys play very aggressive and things happen.

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<v Speaker 1>We understand, you know, we know what we sign up for.

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<v Speaker 1>I think when you when you play football, and I

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<v Speaker 1>like it and I love it. And as a quarterback,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I'm on the wrong side of the hit.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I don't ever get to dish it out

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<v Speaker 1>per se, But you know that's fine with me. Right.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's let's talk about quarterbacking. Yeah, let's talk about what

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<v Speaker 1>it's like to have that job where I played touch

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<v Speaker 1>football with my friends until I was forty years old.

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<v Speaker 1>We played every weekend during a season in the fall

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<v Speaker 1>in New York in Central Park. And then that game

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<v Speaker 1>moved to Los Angeles because almost all those guys I

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<v Speaker 1>played with were my UH colleagues and the entertainment business,

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<v Speaker 1>and of course, the difference between a sandlot game, the

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<v Speaker 1>difference between a flag game and a bunch of geezers

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<v Speaker 1>playing football. The difference between high school and college is

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<v Speaker 1>the speed and the velocity of the game. And you

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<v Speaker 1>drop back to pass, and on average, how much time

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<v Speaker 1>do you have to throw the ball? I think a

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<v Speaker 1>little between three and four seconds. You have that much

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<v Speaker 1>time if the play is going in the perfect world,

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<v Speaker 1>so you have three to four seconds to to read

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<v Speaker 1>the defense, to drop back and ascertain who you're going

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<v Speaker 1>to throw the ball to, who's open, who's more likely

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<v Speaker 1>going to be open, because sometimes you're throwing the ball

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<v Speaker 1>to someone anticipating they're gonna be open. Once the ball

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<v Speaker 1>gets there, you throw the ball to a spot very often,

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<v Speaker 1>unless it's a broken play and they come back to

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<v Speaker 1>it's a come back. And then someone's improvising. What percentage

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<v Speaker 1>of plays would you say, do you throw the ball

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<v Speaker 1>at a spot that's a preordained route, and how many

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<v Speaker 1>plays is it more improvised? What's the ratio? Well, every

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<v Speaker 1>place is called you know hopefully it's not to have

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<v Speaker 1>him for ries. You know you're gonna then you're up

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<v Speaker 1>against the pro defense. Yeah, it breaks down probably a

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<v Speaker 1>third of the time, a third of the time, half

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<v Speaker 1>of the time. Colts fans don't care about the ratio.

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<v Speaker 1>They just want Andrew Luck to bring a championship back

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<v Speaker 1>to Indianapolis, and he stands a good chance. People say

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<v Speaker 1>he bears a strong resemblance to Peyton Manning, the quarterback

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<v Speaker 1>for the Colts for fourteen seasons, and one of Andrew

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<v Speaker 1>Luck's own role models, big command and everything, never quit,

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<v Speaker 1>never quit, was like a general out there, three minutes left,

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<v Speaker 1>we're down by eighteen points, so much and he seemed

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<v Speaker 1>like he knew where everybody was going all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>There's no surprises for him. In a minute, Andrew Luck

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<v Speaker 1>talks about going to the Manning family training camp in

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<v Speaker 1>Louisiana when he was fourteen. I'm Alec Baldwin and here's

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<v Speaker 1>Andrew Luck grew up in a football family. His father

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<v Speaker 1>was an NFL quarterback for the Houston Oilers. But Luck

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<v Speaker 1>isn't always hold up in a screening room studying films

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<v Speaker 1>of his football heroes in action. At the end of

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<v Speaker 1>last season, he headed to the Sundance Film Festival. Growing up,

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<v Speaker 1>he lived in London and Frankfort, and he still travels

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<v Speaker 1>overseas any chance he gets. But Andrew Luck knew early

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<v Speaker 1>on that he wanted to play ball. He attended the

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<v Speaker 1>Manning Passing Academy in lou Louisiana, run by NFL quarterbacks

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<v Speaker 1>Peyton and Eli Manning and their father, Archie. So you

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<v Speaker 1>know that the Manning family obviously sort of the first

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<v Speaker 1>family of quarterbacks you know in the in this league.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. So I was in eighth grade in Houston,

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<v Speaker 1>and uh, I went to the camp as a as

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<v Speaker 1>a camper, and this was this was hell. It's in Louisiana.

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<v Speaker 1>It used to be Hammond. Louisiana is where I went

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<v Speaker 1>as a camper. And then you stayed, stayed in these dorms.

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<v Speaker 1>Looked like a Soviet era, like old Gray, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like like the summertime. It was so summer in Louisiana

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<v Speaker 1>and you're in ye cinder blocks of your character exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>But we had a blast, and I think I was

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<v Speaker 1>on cloud nine when Archie Manning came up and said,

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<v Speaker 1>how you Dylan Sign? I played with your dad. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm in heaven. Shoot me. Now I've lived. And then

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<v Speaker 1>then you go to you go to college whatever, and

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<v Speaker 1>then all these college quarterbacks to come down and be counselors,

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<v Speaker 1>and I think it's a great thing. It's like it's

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<v Speaker 1>a great way to meet, you know, thirty other quarterbacks

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<v Speaker 1>around around you know, the n C A A, and

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<v Speaker 1>then get to know them. So I went down to

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<v Speaker 1>the past my last two years of college and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I got to know the Manning family obviously a little

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<v Speaker 1>better through that and a bunch of bunch of quarterbacks

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<v Speaker 1>from front from college. When you want to work on

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<v Speaker 1>your passing skills, but I don't mean the timing and

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<v Speaker 1>reading offenses, the mechanics of you throw. What's your primary

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<v Speaker 1>set of exercises and work you Did you have a

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<v Speaker 1>coach when you got to the pros? Did they come

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<v Speaker 1>in as they often do and dissect your throwing motion

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<v Speaker 1>and get into the mechanics if you're throwing again? Not

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<v Speaker 1>not in the pros. Yeah, I think I think there's

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<v Speaker 1>a thought that if you've made it this far, don't

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<v Speaker 1>don't change your throw on motion. You've done millions, but

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<v Speaker 1>not like Tebow where they're coming to you. You're not Tebow.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'm saying people have the assumption then the pros

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<v Speaker 1>they want to strip you down and say, okay, let's

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<v Speaker 1>start all over again. But they didn't need to. They

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<v Speaker 1>didn't feel they needed to re teach you how to

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<v Speaker 1>throw the football now. Absolutely not, which I'm very full

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<v Speaker 1>four because I don't think I would have handled it

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<v Speaker 1>very well, And I think I think quarterbacks are are

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<v Speaker 1>very particular about their own motion and a little bit anal.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, stress is the way I throw, This is

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<v Speaker 1>the way Because what muscles do you think you had

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<v Speaker 1>to develop and if you wanted to improve when you

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<v Speaker 1>were younger, when you added pounds, when you wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>muscle up and strengthen. Not because I said that. Joe

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<v Speaker 1>Montana once what I was doing a film and Montana

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<v Speaker 1>came to visit the director on the set and I

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<v Speaker 1>had the quickest, most fleeting conversation. It wasn't very real.

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<v Speaker 1>I said to him, I go, what was your strength training?

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<v Speaker 1>He said, I avoided weights as much as possible. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't want to get muscled up. He said. I took

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<v Speaker 1>medical tubing like hose and I put a strap in

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<v Speaker 1>a doorway and I just did the throwing motion over

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<v Speaker 1>and over, you know, like a thousand times with this

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<v Speaker 1>tension thing, just to strengthen the rotation. What exercises do

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<v Speaker 1>you think it to strengthen your legs in your back

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<v Speaker 1>as much as your upper body. I think I think

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<v Speaker 1>your core and your asses can shoot a cannon out

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<v Speaker 1>of a canoe. There were so much powers generated it, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>And I think that's that's a lot of leg training.

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<v Speaker 1>A lot of leg training, a lot of training or

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<v Speaker 1>run training. I hate running, but yeah, you have to do.

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<v Speaker 1>But I think it's more weight and just rotation. It's

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<v Speaker 1>almost like golfers. You know, you're VeryE boxing and boxing

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<v Speaker 1>you're very one sided. It's almost like throwing a right cross,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, because you throw that punch, you're gonna punch

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<v Speaker 1>absolutely and and you become very one sided. You're always

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<v Speaker 1>torking in the same direction, so making sure your left

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<v Speaker 1>so making sure you're evening out, you know, your right

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<v Speaker 1>side of the body per se. But but I I

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<v Speaker 1>and that's something that I that I learned more you

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<v Speaker 1>know of in college and then the least you know

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<v Speaker 1>how important your lower body is to throwing. I would

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<v Speaker 1>play in sand a lot pickup games with my friends,

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<v Speaker 1>and of course when you play for fun with guys

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<v Speaker 1>when you're when I'm in my thirties and forties, just

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<v Speaker 1>for fun. Half the guys bring their own favorite ball

0:21:53.000 --> 0:21:55.720
<v Speaker 1>and the ball is deflated or inflated to the level

0:21:55.760 --> 0:21:59.040
<v Speaker 1>they prefer, the ball is scuffed to the level they prefer.

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<v Speaker 1>And when you pick up a ball in the NFL,

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<v Speaker 1>forget about weather conditions. Is the ball always a Crisp

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<v Speaker 1>Waxy brand new ball or do they allow you to

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<v Speaker 1>treat the ball the way you want to for your preference.

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<v Speaker 1>I hate the Crisp Waxy. I can't. I can't stand it.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a our. Our equipment managers for the Colts, Frog Tea,

0:22:16.960 --> 0:22:20.639
<v Speaker 1>and Danny, the three great guys that work with their quarterbacks,

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<v Speaker 1>they have it. They have a top secret protocol for

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<v Speaker 1>for for them to treat the ball. Treating the balls,

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<v Speaker 1>it's secret. They won't tell me. I don't think they

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<v Speaker 1>tell Peyton when he like, I know what it is

0:22:30.680 --> 0:22:33.119
<v Speaker 1>by the women to tell you they pee on it.

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<v Speaker 1>It's their own urine. They use their own urine to

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<v Speaker 1>strip the waxy film off. Who is the baseball player

0:22:39.160 --> 0:22:41.359
<v Speaker 1>that used to pee on his hands to avoid Callous's

0:22:41.960 --> 0:22:43.879
<v Speaker 1>There was a Cubs player like yeah, but I know

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<v Speaker 1>I've seen that they have a patented top secret like

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<v Speaker 1>the one of the Coca Cola, and then the football

0:22:48.119 --> 0:22:50.399
<v Speaker 1>is treated. But you do treat the ball, you do,

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<v Speaker 1>and you sat out of the box. It's not out

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<v Speaker 1>of the box. I've seen different stages of it, Like

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<v Speaker 1>I know, I know they put the balls in the

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<v Speaker 1>the sauna for like a couple of minutes that they're

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<v Speaker 1>allowing to do something about that allows them to treat

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<v Speaker 1>the ball. They did. Every team get to use their

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<v Speaker 1>own ball, Like when when you come out on offense,

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<v Speaker 1>we go get the box, we go open the crate

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<v Speaker 1>of your opponents balls. Everyone brings their own ball on

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<v Speaker 1>the field as long as it's the approved ball. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>and and for what I understand, it used to not

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<v Speaker 1>be that way. It used to be like there's a

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<v Speaker 1>certain you know, all the balls for Dame Day were

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<v Speaker 1>open an hour before and each team use the same ball.

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<v Speaker 1>But I think, uh, I think Peyton and and Tom

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<v Speaker 1>Brady sort of this was before my time. I was

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<v Speaker 1>let it, let a coalition against that and got it

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<v Speaker 1>change where teams can use you know, what about the

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<v Speaker 1>inflation level of the ball. Does the ball have to

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<v Speaker 1>be inflated to a certain pount. I think it does,

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<v Speaker 1>and referees check it and they mark the balls off

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<v Speaker 1>before the balls that we approved in one way, but

0:23:39.400 --> 0:23:41.960
<v Speaker 1>you're allowed to treat the exterior of the ball. That's amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>So when you're there and you're throwing the ball, is

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<v Speaker 1>it completely unconscious when you throw the ball and you

0:23:49.560 --> 0:23:52.520
<v Speaker 1>think you're ineffective. Do you sometimes say to yourself, even

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<v Speaker 1>at the pro level, that you've got to go back

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<v Speaker 1>to a basic You gotta remember you're bringing the ball

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<v Speaker 1>in behind your ear. What are you gonna do? What's

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<v Speaker 1>the firing sequence in your mind of throwing a pass?

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<v Speaker 1>I think you don't want to think about you know,

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<v Speaker 1>you don't, And that's what I shouldn't say. Ever, when

0:24:06.960 --> 0:24:08.879
<v Speaker 1>when you if you if you're going on a string

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<v Speaker 1>and balls are dying on you and you see why

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<v Speaker 1>what if you're having a shitty day and you're not

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<v Speaker 1>throwing the ball? But yeah, and I think that that's

0:24:14.720 --> 0:24:17.320
<v Speaker 1>when you when you when you maybe not during the day,

0:24:17.480 --> 0:24:19.520
<v Speaker 1>you have the refresh button, you look at the film

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<v Speaker 1>and you say, what am I doing different than than

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<v Speaker 1>than you see? Sometimes you did? Yeah, I think you

0:24:23.760 --> 0:24:25.600
<v Speaker 1>do differently. I think I look, you know, you're dropping

0:24:25.600 --> 0:24:28.440
<v Speaker 1>the ball too low. It's and it's elong dating your

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<v Speaker 1>whole wind up. You know, it's almost like a picture

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<v Speaker 1>now instead of a quarterback, you know, instead of throwing

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<v Speaker 1>a football. And that's what's causing you to be late

0:24:36.160 --> 0:24:38.359
<v Speaker 1>on all your routes. You know, makes you know so

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<v Speaker 1>so that that we can practice you're gonna work on

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<v Speaker 1>keeping that ball, you know, higher and and and maybe

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<v Speaker 1>shortening that that motion. Uh So I think it's you're

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<v Speaker 1>still tweak it every now and then if if it's

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<v Speaker 1>not working out, if you feel like, you know, it's

0:24:52.560 --> 0:24:56.560
<v Speaker 1>inhibiting you from being better. Um. For fans like myself,

0:24:56.600 --> 0:24:58.960
<v Speaker 1>when we watch you play pro football and you're doing

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<v Speaker 1>your job and you're just and that ball out there,

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<v Speaker 1>you're you're you're you're hitting that ball first downs, whatever,

0:25:04.359 --> 0:25:07.119
<v Speaker 1>and the other guy drops the ball. Did he come

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<v Speaker 1>back and apologize to you every now and then? Different

0:25:10.400 --> 0:25:14.399
<v Speaker 1>guys are different. Uh you know, I I probably apologize

0:25:14.400 --> 0:25:17.119
<v Speaker 1>too much for throwing interceptions to the guys on the

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<v Speaker 1>line because I know they get fed up when they're

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<v Speaker 1>blocking their butts off against some werewolf of a defensive

0:25:22.960 --> 0:25:25.000
<v Speaker 1>end and they're doing a great job. I know, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>their quarterback throws an interception, Good job, QB. But you know,

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<v Speaker 1>some guys apologize, some guys don't. It's just the nature

0:25:30.920 --> 0:25:33.359
<v Speaker 1>of the game that we're humans. You know, human errors occur.

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<v Speaker 1>Being only human did not get in the way of

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<v Speaker 1>Andrew lux record breaking first NFL season. My next guest

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<v Speaker 1>also had an extraordinary first season, twenty nine years ago.

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<v Speaker 1>Dwight Gooden is known to baseball fans as the once

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<v Speaker 1>brilliant nineteen year old pitching phenom from Tampa, Florida. He

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<v Speaker 1>had a blinding fastball and a notoriously deceptive curve ball.

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<v Speaker 1>Those two pitches earned him the Rookie of the Year

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<v Speaker 1>award in four In five, he won the Cy Young

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<v Speaker 1>as best pitcher in the National League. In eight six,

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<v Speaker 1>he led the Mets to one of their best seasons ever,

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<v Speaker 1>ending with the World Series championship. Gooden still had some

0:26:20.320 --> 0:26:25.480
<v Speaker 1>winning seasons after that, but nothing matched those first three years. Instead,

0:26:25.560 --> 0:26:28.800
<v Speaker 1>his public battles with alcohol and cocaine became the dominant

0:26:28.840 --> 0:26:32.359
<v Speaker 1>story of his career, leading sports historians to write about

0:26:32.359 --> 0:26:35.520
<v Speaker 1>what might have been rather than what was. At the

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<v Speaker 1>very least, Dwight Gooden's addiction ruined what should have been

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<v Speaker 1>the greatest day of his life, the eight six World

0:26:42.480 --> 0:26:45.680
<v Speaker 1>Series win. After the game was over, I'm celebrating the

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<v Speaker 1>clubhouse with my teammates. Then i going to bike in

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<v Speaker 1>a trainer's room. I called my dad. We talked about

0:26:50.560 --> 0:26:52.639
<v Speaker 1>the game, and he's happy and with celebrating. And then

0:26:52.640 --> 0:26:55.639
<v Speaker 1>a night call went right to my friend who know

0:26:55.840 --> 0:26:57.520
<v Speaker 1>the diller when my friend was the go to guy,

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<v Speaker 1>told him I was coming by the later and my

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<v Speaker 1>goal was to go by there, get some drugs, and

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<v Speaker 1>meet my teammates at local bar after that. But unfortunately,

0:27:05.160 --> 0:27:07.600
<v Speaker 1>you know what happened. Don't don't allow that, right, So

0:27:07.640 --> 0:27:10.600
<v Speaker 1>your friend, a friend that you knew, called the dealer

0:27:10.600 --> 0:27:11.919
<v Speaker 1>for you to tee up the ball for you to

0:27:11.960 --> 0:27:15.119
<v Speaker 1>go score. Well, what it was is, um, I wanted

0:27:15.480 --> 0:27:18.320
<v Speaker 1>a lot of stuff. I wanted to party and celebrate. Unfortunately,

0:27:18.320 --> 0:27:20.600
<v Speaker 1>go to the house and projects in Long Island with

0:27:20.680 --> 0:27:23.119
<v Speaker 1>the dealer, with the dealer, so I'm in there, what

0:27:23.160 --> 0:27:25.840
<v Speaker 1>about ten people I probably know too. That's a friend

0:27:25.840 --> 0:27:28.879
<v Speaker 1>from Tampa and the dealer. So We're sitting there partying

0:27:28.880 --> 0:27:31.199
<v Speaker 1>and having good time. And now I'm thinking I'll be

0:27:31.200 --> 0:27:32.720
<v Speaker 1>here for maybe an hour of them and cut out.

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<v Speaker 1>But once those rails hit the mirror, Yeah, once your started, Yeah,

0:27:37.640 --> 0:27:39.240
<v Speaker 1>that was always my track record, and I'm just gonna

0:27:39.240 --> 0:27:41.680
<v Speaker 1>do a little bit. Then three days later you're doing

0:27:41.680 --> 0:27:44.359
<v Speaker 1>the same thing. Dwight Gooden has been sober since two

0:27:44.440 --> 0:27:47.679
<v Speaker 1>thousand and eleven, when he went on celebrity rehab, and

0:27:47.720 --> 0:27:51.440
<v Speaker 1>earlier this year he published a deeply personal book entitled

0:27:51.560 --> 0:27:55.840
<v Speaker 1>doc a memoir, which chronicles everything from his complicated relationship

0:27:55.880 --> 0:27:58.679
<v Speaker 1>with his father to his success on the field, to

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<v Speaker 1>his drug abuse and the toll it took on him.

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<v Speaker 1>You come from an error when uh, drugs predominate as

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<v Speaker 1>much as alcohol or alcohol is one drug on a

0:28:10.160 --> 0:28:12.600
<v Speaker 1>menu of drugs, because alcohol certainly is a drug. As

0:28:12.640 --> 0:28:16.080
<v Speaker 1>you would you acknowledge that, yes, alcohol is definite drug.

0:28:16.160 --> 0:28:18.160
<v Speaker 1>And the error I was in what like you said

0:28:18.760 --> 0:28:21.480
<v Speaker 1>before me, was heavy drinking, you know in the seventies

0:28:21.480 --> 0:28:24.040
<v Speaker 1>what have you, and probably pot from right here my

0:28:24.200 --> 0:28:28.119
<v Speaker 1>errors basically, you know, cocaine and drinking. The alcohol is

0:28:28.160 --> 0:28:30.280
<v Speaker 1>available and every club house you go to, whether it's

0:28:30.280 --> 0:28:32.520
<v Speaker 1>on the road or at home, and even at home.

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<v Speaker 1>And when you say alcohol was available, what was the

0:28:34.720 --> 0:28:36.879
<v Speaker 1>kind of culture of that meaning when the game was

0:28:36.960 --> 0:28:41.520
<v Speaker 1>over all professional ball players and management and coaching kind

0:28:41.520 --> 0:28:43.520
<v Speaker 1>of acknowledged that when the game is over, we we

0:28:43.520 --> 0:28:45.320
<v Speaker 1>we gave it our best for Pro Bowl players and

0:28:45.320 --> 0:28:46.880
<v Speaker 1>we've earned a drink and everybody has a drink. So

0:28:46.880 --> 0:28:48.440
<v Speaker 1>they had a full bar there. Yeah, pretty much it

0:28:48.440 --> 0:28:50.360
<v Speaker 1>as normal like you go into the lounge where you

0:28:50.400 --> 0:28:52.000
<v Speaker 1>have the food, you have the water, and drinks, and

0:28:52.160 --> 0:28:54.120
<v Speaker 1>you got the beer and then the private stats and

0:28:54.120 --> 0:28:56.480
<v Speaker 1>the bike with the hard stuff, especially like at the

0:28:56.560 --> 0:28:58.200
<v Speaker 1>day game, was staying because you want to way to

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<v Speaker 1>put the traffic that down and we just sit around

0:29:00.320 --> 0:29:03.240
<v Speaker 1>talking baseball, talking about the games, and just drinking. You

0:29:03.320 --> 0:29:06.000
<v Speaker 1>started your professional career when you were how old my

0:29:06.080 --> 0:29:10.360
<v Speaker 1>professional drafted at seventeen, played a year in the half

0:29:10.360 --> 0:29:13.240
<v Speaker 1>in the monitors. It's amazing at nineteen. And what was

0:29:13.280 --> 0:29:16.240
<v Speaker 1>amazing was at the game. If we're on the road,

0:29:16.400 --> 0:29:18.000
<v Speaker 1>there was always one of the veteran players say, Doc,

0:29:18.040 --> 0:29:19.880
<v Speaker 1>you pitching tomorrow. If I said no, it's okay, you're

0:29:19.880 --> 0:29:21.800
<v Speaker 1>out with us. And I remembers one time I did

0:29:21.800 --> 0:29:25.520
<v Speaker 1>a commercial Pepsi commercial with Catfish Hunter and when Chicago

0:29:25.720 --> 0:29:27.680
<v Speaker 1>at the day game, we go to this bar and

0:29:27.720 --> 0:29:30.120
<v Speaker 1>the commercial comes on and the bartower look at commercially

0:29:30.160 --> 0:29:32.280
<v Speaker 1>looking at me looking at the commercial. I think it goes.

0:29:32.680 --> 0:29:33.960
<v Speaker 1>I don't think you don't have to be in here,

0:29:35.440 --> 0:29:38.040
<v Speaker 1>you know, so you could hang around here, but I

0:29:38.040 --> 0:29:40.160
<v Speaker 1>can't start any more. Ohol, what are the traps of famous?

0:29:40.200 --> 0:29:42.600
<v Speaker 1>Everybody knows who you are, and then they know who

0:29:42.600 --> 0:29:44.880
<v Speaker 1>you are in every level, But so how many games

0:29:44.920 --> 0:29:46.400
<v Speaker 1>did you pitch the first season when you win the

0:29:46.400 --> 0:29:48.600
<v Speaker 1>first season, I think I had about thirty two starts.

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<v Speaker 1>You had thirty two starts. Yes, so they were all

0:29:51.800 --> 0:29:54.080
<v Speaker 1>in on you. They wanted you. It was there, Yes, definitely,

0:29:54.120 --> 0:29:55.520
<v Speaker 1>you were. You were in the rotation. Yeah, I was

0:29:55.520 --> 0:29:58.240
<v Speaker 1>in the rotation. I got a seventeen wins, seventeen and nine,

0:29:58.360 --> 0:30:00.760
<v Speaker 1>made the All Star team my first year, led the

0:30:00.800 --> 0:30:03.760
<v Speaker 1>league in strikeouts, and it was amazing because, as you mentioned,

0:30:04.280 --> 0:30:06.080
<v Speaker 1>when when I first got there, it wasn't too much

0:30:06.080 --> 0:30:08.160
<v Speaker 1>of expectations. But after the All Star break, there was

0:30:08.200 --> 0:30:10.200
<v Speaker 1>a lot of expectations. It was more seats, I mean

0:30:10.200 --> 0:30:12.000
<v Speaker 1>more fans in the seats two days I would pitch.

0:30:12.160 --> 0:30:14.560
<v Speaker 1>It was more media. Did you feel How did you

0:30:14.600 --> 0:30:16.640
<v Speaker 1>feel at that time? I felt great, you know, because

0:30:16.680 --> 0:30:19.000
<v Speaker 1>I felt get you high. It did, and then when

0:30:19.040 --> 0:30:22.160
<v Speaker 1>you're off, you want to maintain that high. How do

0:30:22.240 --> 0:30:25.200
<v Speaker 1>you do that? Well? My first year, it was definitely

0:30:25.200 --> 0:30:27.400
<v Speaker 1>a drawing rush. Having all the fans they're teering for you,

0:30:27.440 --> 0:30:29.240
<v Speaker 1>and you're striking out that you're winning, and you're winning.

0:30:29.680 --> 0:30:31.360
<v Speaker 1>It was no better feeling than that pitch against a

0:30:31.360 --> 0:30:33.760
<v Speaker 1>lot of guys you analyzed just a year prior to that,

0:30:34.440 --> 0:30:36.880
<v Speaker 1>and then in the next year, I have an even

0:30:36.920 --> 0:30:39.760
<v Speaker 1>better year. I have a career year, and you know,

0:30:39.880 --> 0:30:41.440
<v Speaker 1>do you go out there, it's almost like, be did

0:30:41.440 --> 0:30:43.320
<v Speaker 1>you do differently? The second year, We're just more confident.

0:30:43.720 --> 0:30:46.360
<v Speaker 1>It was more confident reed, more like I had another

0:30:46.400 --> 0:30:49.240
<v Speaker 1>year experience on my belt. And Garrett Carter came over

0:30:49.280 --> 0:30:51.920
<v Speaker 1>that year. He was the all star catcher for me,

0:30:51.960 --> 0:30:54.120
<v Speaker 1>which is a big plus for me. What did Carter

0:30:54.280 --> 0:30:56.760
<v Speaker 1>bring for you as a catcher that helped you? I

0:30:56.800 --> 0:30:58.880
<v Speaker 1>think the way he communicated with me, he didn't want

0:30:58.880 --> 0:31:01.560
<v Speaker 1>to just win. He want to dominate and me even

0:31:01.560 --> 0:31:03.120
<v Speaker 1>though I wanted to dominate. But like say, if I

0:31:03.120 --> 0:31:06.120
<v Speaker 1>was winning a game to nothing and then or fifteen

0:31:06.120 --> 0:31:08.280
<v Speaker 1>nothing and I started just messing around with pitches, he

0:31:08.320 --> 0:31:09.640
<v Speaker 1>will come out there and get in my face that

0:31:09.840 --> 0:31:12.480
<v Speaker 1>you know I don't like. No, let's just stick these guys.

0:31:12.600 --> 0:31:15.120
<v Speaker 1>Think what you know, Let's totally dominate these guys. So

0:31:15.160 --> 0:31:18.920
<v Speaker 1>when you're facing a batter, have you pre assessed before

0:31:18.920 --> 0:31:21.080
<v Speaker 1>a game every single battery you're gonna face in that game?

0:31:21.160 --> 0:31:22.680
<v Speaker 1>You know what I used to do. Um, We'll have

0:31:22.720 --> 0:31:24.560
<v Speaker 1>the scouting reports saying it like the way to pace

0:31:24.640 --> 0:31:27.080
<v Speaker 1>certain guys, but they was I only had two pitches,

0:31:27.160 --> 0:31:29.200
<v Speaker 1>fastball and curbs. A lot of times they're like, this

0:31:29.200 --> 0:31:31.240
<v Speaker 1>guy is a great fastball hitter and came through the

0:31:31.240 --> 0:31:34.040
<v Speaker 1>guy curball for strikes, and I'm thinking, why shouldn't be pitching.

0:31:34.040 --> 0:31:36.440
<v Speaker 1>I'm done, you know, but basically always pitched to my

0:31:36.480 --> 0:31:38.960
<v Speaker 1>strength and make the hitter suggests. So if you have

0:31:40.120 --> 0:31:42.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm not a baseball player. I love going to the

0:31:42.120 --> 0:31:44.120
<v Speaker 1>to the ball game. I love watching a baseball game live.

0:31:44.160 --> 0:31:47.160
<v Speaker 1>It's a great treat. So you're standing there and you're

0:31:47.200 --> 0:31:48.920
<v Speaker 1>at the top of your game, and you look at

0:31:48.960 --> 0:31:51.040
<v Speaker 1>in your mind that imaginary strikes on the knees to

0:31:51.080 --> 0:31:54.040
<v Speaker 1>the shoulders. You've got the home plate there in those

0:31:54.080 --> 0:31:57.760
<v Speaker 1>four corners high and tight, high and outside, low and

0:31:57.800 --> 0:31:59.960
<v Speaker 1>tight low and outside. Could you basically throw the ball

0:32:00.040 --> 0:32:01.760
<v Speaker 1>the festival anywhere you want. You can make it go

0:32:01.840 --> 0:32:05.080
<v Speaker 1>where you wanted to go. Five without doubt. Five, it

0:32:05.120 --> 0:32:09.160
<v Speaker 1>was like from the first game to the last, your

0:32:09.200 --> 0:32:11.000
<v Speaker 1>spot I was just right there, and they have to

0:32:11.040 --> 0:32:14.959
<v Speaker 1>think about it. Everything just came and basically go right there.

0:32:14.960 --> 0:32:20.080
<v Speaker 1>I would saying I wasn't even where from to ninety

0:32:20.440 --> 0:32:23.360
<v Speaker 1>who's the fastest picture in baseball that you know right now,

0:32:23.440 --> 0:32:25.880
<v Speaker 1>who who was over the time was any time? Who's

0:32:25.920 --> 0:32:27.960
<v Speaker 1>been the fastest? I think Nolan Ryan. What do you

0:32:28.920 --> 0:32:31.680
<v Speaker 1>supposedly they say topped out of one on three. Now

0:32:31.720 --> 0:32:33.400
<v Speaker 1>you see these guys still on a hundred ninety nine.

0:32:33.400 --> 0:32:35.600
<v Speaker 1>But also you have to remember all the new stadium,

0:32:35.640 --> 0:32:37.360
<v Speaker 1>they got the radar guns, and there they turned out

0:32:37.920 --> 0:32:40.120
<v Speaker 1>like three or four miles hour faster. It just for

0:32:40.160 --> 0:32:43.720
<v Speaker 1>the fans, and unfortunately found out the hard way. I

0:32:43.760 --> 0:32:45.880
<v Speaker 1>went to Cleveland towards the end of my career. The

0:32:45.920 --> 0:32:48.880
<v Speaker 1>clock's got me at ninety seven. I'm thinking, wow, my fastballs,

0:32:49.120 --> 0:32:52.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm back. Unfortunately three Did I have a breakfast? Did

0:32:52.200 --> 0:32:55.040
<v Speaker 1>they write it down to fortune? Three innutes later? You

0:32:55.040 --> 0:32:57.080
<v Speaker 1>know I have given him seven runs, four home runs,

0:32:57.560 --> 0:32:59.800
<v Speaker 1>who knows how many hits? So now I get knocked

0:32:59.800 --> 0:33:01.800
<v Speaker 1>out of game. I going room with the guy that

0:33:01.880 --> 0:33:05.760
<v Speaker 1>keeps the video, and then I see like eight, seven,

0:33:06.080 --> 0:33:09.120
<v Speaker 1>eighty nine, and actually, what is the numbers here? Is

0:33:09.160 --> 0:33:11.160
<v Speaker 1>that's your philosophy? I say, out there, have me throwing

0:33:11.240 --> 0:33:13.120
<v Speaker 1>ninety seven? He said no, No No, I was turned up

0:33:13.160 --> 0:33:14.640
<v Speaker 1>for the fans. So I found out the heart weight.

0:33:15.240 --> 0:33:16.800
<v Speaker 1>A little bit of show business, Yeah, so now when

0:33:16.840 --> 0:33:20.400
<v Speaker 1>you see all of these guys throwing in the comedy,

0:33:20.600 --> 0:33:22.840
<v Speaker 1>that was the feeling. Give me an example of a

0:33:22.880 --> 0:33:25.320
<v Speaker 1>batter that always vexed you, that really just drove you crazy.

0:33:25.400 --> 0:33:27.480
<v Speaker 1>Chili David's hands down when he was with the SEC

0:33:27.640 --> 0:33:30.040
<v Speaker 1>Giant sells the mens. Yeah, it didn't matter if I

0:33:30.080 --> 0:33:31.440
<v Speaker 1>was on top of my game or not. He would

0:33:31.440 --> 0:33:34.000
<v Speaker 1>get hits off me. And what do you attribute that too?

0:33:34.280 --> 0:33:36.000
<v Speaker 1>I think it was the way you're both built. I

0:33:36.080 --> 0:33:38.040
<v Speaker 1>think he was built to hit your ball. Yeah, I

0:33:38.080 --> 0:33:40.640
<v Speaker 1>think the way he was he wasn't like um intimidated

0:33:40.640 --> 0:33:42.000
<v Speaker 1>by because a couple of times I threw in his

0:33:42.000 --> 0:33:44.120
<v Speaker 1>head to try to terminate him. It didn't matter. He

0:33:44.200 --> 0:33:45.960
<v Speaker 1>just was staying. If I didn't have my good stuff,

0:33:45.960 --> 0:33:47.600
<v Speaker 1>he was hitting home runs. If I had good stuff,

0:33:47.600 --> 0:33:49.520
<v Speaker 1>he was getting basis. So when you go high and type,

0:33:49.520 --> 0:33:51.400
<v Speaker 1>you do it to intimidate them. Most time, it's just

0:33:51.440 --> 0:33:53.360
<v Speaker 1>you're not doing brush them back right. You don't want

0:33:53.360 --> 0:33:54.920
<v Speaker 1>to hurt nobody or hit him in the head, but

0:33:54.960 --> 0:33:57.480
<v Speaker 1>just trying to think, to start thinking and keep them

0:33:57.480 --> 0:34:00.320
<v Speaker 1>for getting comfortable. But Chilian didn't phase him. And is

0:34:00.360 --> 0:34:03.240
<v Speaker 1>weird because some hitters, when you talk to him some pitches,

0:34:03.600 --> 0:34:05.120
<v Speaker 1>they just see the ball a lot better than other

0:34:05.120 --> 0:34:07.800
<v Speaker 1>pitches because it's like our number five starter, so he

0:34:07.840 --> 0:34:09.759
<v Speaker 1>couldn't get a hit off from him. But I'm like

0:34:09.800 --> 0:34:11.759
<v Speaker 1>the number one starter and he's just wearing me out.

0:34:12.000 --> 0:34:14.520
<v Speaker 1>How old are you now? Now I'm forty forty and

0:34:14.520 --> 0:34:18.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm fifty five, And now for you, I wonder have

0:34:18.520 --> 0:34:20.520
<v Speaker 1>you been able to kind of revisit because you talk

0:34:20.560 --> 0:34:24.840
<v Speaker 1>about your childhood and you talk about the contradiction, and

0:34:24.880 --> 0:34:27.040
<v Speaker 1>you don't necessarily use that word I was. I read

0:34:27.080 --> 0:34:29.600
<v Speaker 1>it very carefully when you talked about, you know, the

0:34:29.640 --> 0:34:33.200
<v Speaker 1>kind of craziness in your household. Your uncle shot your

0:34:33.239 --> 0:34:35.800
<v Speaker 1>aunt in front of you. Was my it was you.

0:34:35.880 --> 0:34:38.799
<v Speaker 1>It was your brother in law. You call him uncle W,

0:34:39.200 --> 0:34:41.360
<v Speaker 1>uncle GW. But he wasn't really your uncle. He was

0:34:41.360 --> 0:34:43.920
<v Speaker 1>your brother from your much older sister. So you were

0:34:43.960 --> 0:34:45.920
<v Speaker 1>six years old and your sister was twenty years old.

0:34:46.280 --> 0:34:48.160
<v Speaker 1>It was like a fourteen more difference, if I correct.

0:34:48.560 --> 0:34:51.040
<v Speaker 1>So you're you're in that scenario and this guy shoots

0:34:51.040 --> 0:34:53.840
<v Speaker 1>your sister in the head right in front of you.

0:34:53.840 --> 0:34:55.680
<v Speaker 1>You grabbed that baby and run into the bathroom, and

0:34:55.719 --> 0:34:59.200
<v Speaker 1>you lock yourself in the bathroom and I'm wondering. You

0:34:59.320 --> 0:35:03.040
<v Speaker 1>talk about how much your dad cared about you, and

0:35:03.080 --> 0:35:06.040
<v Speaker 1>how much your mom thought to hold onto your dad

0:35:06.760 --> 0:35:08.319
<v Speaker 1>and put up with a lot of ship from him,

0:35:08.680 --> 0:35:11.480
<v Speaker 1>and you watched all this, and you talk about the

0:35:11.560 --> 0:35:14.400
<v Speaker 1>love you God and the support you got. But it

0:35:14.440 --> 0:35:18.279
<v Speaker 1>sounds like your family like much of my family. There's

0:35:18.360 --> 0:35:20.439
<v Speaker 1>love and supporting a lot of good things, but there's

0:35:20.440 --> 0:35:23.120
<v Speaker 1>a lot of nuttiness going on as well. And did

0:35:23.160 --> 0:35:25.400
<v Speaker 1>you feel that that's what you needed to medicate yourself

0:35:25.400 --> 0:35:29.279
<v Speaker 1>against sex, drugs, alcohol, all these things? Can you put

0:35:29.320 --> 0:35:31.440
<v Speaker 1>your finger on why were you doing those things? Was

0:35:31.480 --> 0:35:34.040
<v Speaker 1>it just boredom? No? I think the situation of early

0:35:34.120 --> 0:35:36.080
<v Speaker 1>on him. In my career, it was boredom. Like when

0:35:36.120 --> 0:35:39.280
<v Speaker 1>I would come home. I will come home from playing

0:35:39.560 --> 0:35:42.040
<v Speaker 1>my season. Most of my friends were still in school

0:35:42.080 --> 0:35:44.879
<v Speaker 1>while I was working, so the boredom was there while

0:35:44.880 --> 0:35:46.799
<v Speaker 1>I just ride around, you know, drinking in a car,

0:35:47.040 --> 0:35:49.719
<v Speaker 1>trying to pick up women, the ones that wasn't working

0:35:49.760 --> 0:35:51.760
<v Speaker 1>in school, or just hang on the stress. Three corners

0:35:51.800 --> 0:35:53.239
<v Speaker 1>hanging out And you came down there with a pocket

0:35:53.280 --> 0:35:55.080
<v Speaker 1>full of money, right, so we'll hang out. Everything was

0:35:55.080 --> 0:36:00.239
<v Speaker 1>on dwight. Yes, everything, So then like after the seasons

0:36:00.480 --> 0:36:02.640
<v Speaker 1>I started doing drugs in New York. For the first time,

0:36:03.440 --> 0:36:05.480
<v Speaker 1>it was more of the proper pressure. It was more

0:36:06.120 --> 0:36:08.720
<v Speaker 1>of the media pressure and me putting pressure on myself.

0:36:09.120 --> 0:36:11.719
<v Speaker 1>For example, everything was compared to a D five. If

0:36:11.760 --> 0:36:14.440
<v Speaker 1>I won a game three nothing complete game, shout out.

0:36:14.520 --> 0:36:16.520
<v Speaker 1>But if I only had, you know, five strikeouts, the

0:36:16.520 --> 0:36:18.719
<v Speaker 1>first question would be happy you don't have five striks.

0:36:18.840 --> 0:36:21.359
<v Speaker 1>They're picking you apart. So that's when I started medicating myself.

0:36:21.440 --> 0:36:24.759
<v Speaker 1>Then it became pretty meditated, where every game I pitch,

0:36:24.960 --> 0:36:26.239
<v Speaker 1>I think game I was gonna get high. I was

0:36:26.239 --> 0:36:28.600
<v Speaker 1>needing gonna get high to celebrate the win. Alls dinna

0:36:28.600 --> 0:36:30.400
<v Speaker 1>get high because I didn't pitch that well, to forget

0:36:30.400 --> 0:36:32.680
<v Speaker 1>about the game, to put the loss behind you, right.

0:36:32.719 --> 0:36:34.839
<v Speaker 1>And then like as you mentioned earlier about me um

0:36:35.080 --> 0:36:37.840
<v Speaker 1>with my sister being shot. She got shot six times

0:36:37.880 --> 0:36:39.440
<v Speaker 1>and at one time she got shot in the head.

0:36:39.880 --> 0:36:41.480
<v Speaker 1>The but is still actually in their head, which you

0:36:41.480 --> 0:36:43.560
<v Speaker 1>have seizures from it. Like grabbed my nephew and went

0:36:43.600 --> 0:36:46.120
<v Speaker 1>in the bathroom and got into a pull current thing,

0:36:46.160 --> 0:36:48.560
<v Speaker 1>thinking he's gonna come in and get us neakes. The

0:36:48.600 --> 0:36:51.040
<v Speaker 1>thing that was weird. I didn't find out until basically

0:36:51.360 --> 0:36:54.759
<v Speaker 1>two thousand eleven. I was my last treatment. Every time

0:36:54.800 --> 0:36:56.920
<v Speaker 1>I would get high, I always go to the bathroom,

0:36:56.960 --> 0:36:59.040
<v Speaker 1>whether I was home by myself, whether it's a restaurant,

0:36:59.080 --> 0:37:01.560
<v Speaker 1>whether it's whatever. That's what I'm talking about, to baths,

0:37:01.600 --> 0:37:03.680
<v Speaker 1>ghosts and these echoes of what were up with. Definitely,

0:37:03.719 --> 0:37:05.120
<v Speaker 1>so I totally relate to that. And I was going

0:37:05.160 --> 0:37:06.640
<v Speaker 1>to bath and it was pointed to me that I

0:37:06.680 --> 0:37:08.960
<v Speaker 1>never realized that I put it together. You know, for me,

0:37:09.360 --> 0:37:12.680
<v Speaker 1>I remember when I started to work. Oddly, when I

0:37:12.719 --> 0:37:15.240
<v Speaker 1>was thinking about your life and your book. It's similar

0:37:15.239 --> 0:37:17.360
<v Speaker 1>because I did a daytime TV show, was soap opera

0:37:17.400 --> 0:37:18.640
<v Speaker 1>here in New York for a couple of years, and

0:37:18.680 --> 0:37:21.120
<v Speaker 1>I went to l A and you gelt called up

0:37:21.120 --> 0:37:23.920
<v Speaker 1>into the big leagues, so to speak, and then you

0:37:23.920 --> 0:37:26.319
<v Speaker 1>start to make big league money. I mean, you and

0:37:26.360 --> 0:37:28.359
<v Speaker 1>I have more in common than I thought, because as

0:37:28.400 --> 0:37:30.319
<v Speaker 1>I was reading the book, I realized that then I

0:37:30.320 --> 0:37:32.560
<v Speaker 1>got called up to do other things and I started

0:37:32.560 --> 0:37:34.960
<v Speaker 1>to make more money. And you know, when I was

0:37:35.040 --> 0:37:37.080
<v Speaker 1>focused on that work, I mean the high that I

0:37:37.239 --> 0:37:39.680
<v Speaker 1>I got high from the work, and when I would

0:37:39.719 --> 0:37:42.120
<v Speaker 1>go home, there was this lull, you know. I mean,

0:37:42.120 --> 0:37:45.120
<v Speaker 1>like my adrenaline. I was. I was. I was high

0:37:45.480 --> 0:37:49.080
<v Speaker 1>all day from the energy of being a young working actor.

0:37:49.120 --> 0:37:51.520
<v Speaker 1>I went from one studio to the next audition for

0:37:51.560 --> 0:37:55.520
<v Speaker 1>this movie. I get a part in three to five.

0:37:56.719 --> 0:38:00.480
<v Speaker 1>That period was my white hot period because I'm in

0:38:00.640 --> 0:38:03.640
<v Speaker 1>l A. My dad died. My dad died of cancer.

0:38:03.680 --> 0:38:06.920
<v Speaker 1>He was fifty five years old. April three, and I'm

0:38:06.960 --> 0:38:08.880
<v Speaker 1>out there and I'm booked. Man, I'm I signed deals.

0:38:08.920 --> 0:38:11.200
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I can't come back. I go to work,

0:38:11.280 --> 0:38:13.920
<v Speaker 1>and when I were left work, I felt this tremendous

0:38:14.000 --> 0:38:16.000
<v Speaker 1>kind of depression, like this kind of low, like I

0:38:16.040 --> 0:38:19.439
<v Speaker 1>had to go do something else to get high. Did

0:38:19.440 --> 0:38:21.319
<v Speaker 1>you feel that one? I had the same thing. My

0:38:21.360 --> 0:38:23.800
<v Speaker 1>problem is trying to feel that void like you're talking about.

0:38:24.239 --> 0:38:26.840
<v Speaker 1>A lot of times, the downtime of being bored is

0:38:26.840 --> 0:38:29.239
<v Speaker 1>a dangerous spot for me to be in because I've

0:38:29.239 --> 0:38:31.920
<v Speaker 1>never had a hobby. When baseball season be over, now

0:38:31.960 --> 0:38:34.399
<v Speaker 1>you come home to Tampa. You know, it's not like

0:38:34.480 --> 0:38:35.960
<v Speaker 1>in New York. You can go to concerts, you go

0:38:36.000 --> 0:38:38.040
<v Speaker 1>to plays, you can go to movies and stuff to

0:38:38.040 --> 0:38:40.560
<v Speaker 1>do with Tampa's total opously just come down and there's

0:38:40.640 --> 0:38:42.879
<v Speaker 1>nothing going on. So I totally relate what you said.

0:38:42.880 --> 0:38:45.120
<v Speaker 1>I would feel that time. We weren't taking photography classes

0:38:45.160 --> 0:38:49.120
<v Speaker 1>down to Tampa at the Tampa Institute of Photography. So

0:38:49.160 --> 0:38:50.680
<v Speaker 1>you come home, you got all this time. You got

0:38:50.760 --> 0:38:53.640
<v Speaker 1>six months of um all season. Four months before you

0:38:53.680 --> 0:38:57.080
<v Speaker 1>started training, I started hanging out at clubs, norm more drugs,

0:38:57.280 --> 0:38:59.480
<v Speaker 1>you know, just basically trying to fill that voard and

0:38:59.600 --> 0:39:03.600
<v Speaker 1>not No, are you thinking this is fun? Looking my dad,

0:39:03.640 --> 0:39:05.920
<v Speaker 1>it wasn't fun. It caused more trouble than anything. Did

0:39:05.960 --> 0:39:08.520
<v Speaker 1>Money caused your trouble to money calls me trouble too.

0:39:08.560 --> 0:39:10.319
<v Speaker 1>I was saying, how much money did you make your

0:39:10.320 --> 0:39:12.120
<v Speaker 1>first I mean, this is all public record. How much

0:39:12.160 --> 0:39:16.359
<v Speaker 1>money did you make your first season throwing in professional base?

0:39:16.400 --> 0:39:18.200
<v Speaker 1>But not not the Triple A, not not the farm

0:39:18.400 --> 0:39:22.320
<v Speaker 1>I first got drafted, when you first got driving the

0:39:22.360 --> 0:39:24.640
<v Speaker 1>first thing? For how long did that last? How many years?

0:39:24.719 --> 0:39:26.400
<v Speaker 1>For a year and a half, because then I was

0:39:26.400 --> 0:39:27.920
<v Speaker 1>in the major's right then he went to the majors.

0:39:27.920 --> 0:39:29.520
<v Speaker 1>How much did they pay my rookie year? I think

0:39:29.520 --> 0:39:31.480
<v Speaker 1>the minimum at that time was sixty thousand. But my

0:39:31.560 --> 0:39:33.640
<v Speaker 1>rookie year was out to also bring I mean, more

0:39:33.760 --> 0:39:35.920
<v Speaker 1>money off the field than I did my contry. How

0:39:36.000 --> 0:39:37.839
<v Speaker 1>much your money did you make off the field that year?

0:39:37.840 --> 0:39:40.240
<v Speaker 1>I probably made about one point five when they busted

0:39:40.760 --> 0:39:42.719
<v Speaker 1>the minimum that was in the sixty When did they

0:39:42.719 --> 0:39:44.799
<v Speaker 1>we negotiate your contract with the Mets. Well, I didn't

0:39:44.800 --> 0:39:47.520
<v Speaker 1>get a long term deal to at that point. I

0:39:47.520 --> 0:39:49.360
<v Speaker 1>got like I think it was five point five million

0:39:49.440 --> 0:39:51.200
<v Speaker 1>for three years, and at that point is the highest

0:39:51.200 --> 0:39:57.279
<v Speaker 1>paid player at that time. Dwight Gooden also earned a

0:39:57.320 --> 0:40:00.680
<v Speaker 1>one foot mural in Manhattan which depicts did the ace

0:40:01.080 --> 0:40:05.080
<v Speaker 1>mid pitch, arms outstretched just about to launch a fastball.

0:40:05.600 --> 0:40:08.960
<v Speaker 1>The giant image of Gooden looked down onto Times Square

0:40:09.280 --> 0:40:14.239
<v Speaker 1>for ten years. In a moment, Doc Gooden gets questionable

0:40:14.280 --> 0:40:17.920
<v Speaker 1>advice from a doctor and takes it. This is Alec Baldwin.

0:40:28.160 --> 0:40:30.919
<v Speaker 1>I'm Alec Baldwin, and you're listening to here's the thing.

0:40:31.600 --> 0:40:35.160
<v Speaker 1>Major League Baseball was hardly immune to the cultural excesses

0:40:35.200 --> 0:40:38.000
<v Speaker 1>of the nineteen eighties and the eighties. Six Mets were

0:40:38.040 --> 0:40:41.960
<v Speaker 1>known as a hard partying team. Even so, Dwight Gooden

0:40:42.080 --> 0:40:44.919
<v Speaker 1>was able to set limits in a sense, I went

0:40:44.960 --> 0:40:49.080
<v Speaker 1>from seven to ninety four. We're just drinking. How it

0:40:49.160 --> 0:40:51.560
<v Speaker 1>did that? I have no idea without using I think

0:40:51.640 --> 0:40:53.000
<v Speaker 1>part of me will help me do that because I

0:40:53.040 --> 0:40:55.279
<v Speaker 1>was being tested right, and so to talk about what

0:40:55.360 --> 0:40:57.040
<v Speaker 1>it was like back in the test policy, how did

0:40:57.040 --> 0:40:59.960
<v Speaker 1>that work? The test policy was once you test poli

0:41:00.120 --> 0:41:01.560
<v Speaker 1>something or if you're get in trouble some kind of

0:41:01.719 --> 0:41:03.719
<v Speaker 1>with alcohol or drugs, and you did, then you get

0:41:03.719 --> 0:41:05.719
<v Speaker 1>into the just testing programs. How do they know you

0:41:05.760 --> 0:41:07.480
<v Speaker 1>were in trouble with drugs and alcohol? Why I went

0:41:07.600 --> 0:41:11.000
<v Speaker 1>to rehab? And eighty seven describe that what happened obviously

0:41:11.000 --> 0:41:14.000
<v Speaker 1>in eight six missing the parade and I go to

0:41:14.000 --> 0:41:18.680
<v Speaker 1>spring train. I'm doing coke, you know, not obviously doing

0:41:18.680 --> 0:41:20.279
<v Speaker 1>the games, but I'm doing coke. Like I said, that

0:41:20.440 --> 0:41:22.240
<v Speaker 1>night in spring training, you have to be the ballpark

0:41:22.360 --> 0:41:24.399
<v Speaker 1>really early, so I did. I'm coming in there. I'm

0:41:24.400 --> 0:41:26.399
<v Speaker 1>sure it looked like I've been up, you know, all day,

0:41:26.520 --> 0:41:29.160
<v Speaker 1>all night. So then they called me in and say,

0:41:29.719 --> 0:41:31.719
<v Speaker 1>you know, well these rooms going, let's put the rooms risk.

0:41:31.800 --> 0:41:33.960
<v Speaker 1>Can we test you? So sure you can test me

0:41:33.960 --> 0:41:36.360
<v Speaker 1>because I know I hadn't did anything the night before,

0:41:36.800 --> 0:41:39.640
<v Speaker 1>so obviously the tests come like positive. So they get

0:41:39.680 --> 0:41:42.399
<v Speaker 1>my option. They say you go to rehab and we'll

0:41:42.400 --> 0:41:46.120
<v Speaker 1>continue paying your salary or because suspending without pay, so

0:41:46.160 --> 0:41:47.640
<v Speaker 1>I was easy. So I say, I'll go to rehab

0:41:47.640 --> 0:41:49.880
<v Speaker 1>so I can continue being paid, even though still at

0:41:49.880 --> 0:41:52.319
<v Speaker 1>that time I man treatment, but I'm still thinking I

0:41:52.320 --> 0:41:54.440
<v Speaker 1>don't have a problem, so I'll just marking days off

0:41:54.440 --> 0:41:57.000
<v Speaker 1>the calendar to the third days was up. Get out

0:41:57.000 --> 0:41:59.880
<v Speaker 1>of rehab. Now I'm bike working out with the money teams.

0:41:59.880 --> 0:42:03.200
<v Speaker 1>And then when get on the plane to join the team,

0:42:03.239 --> 0:42:06.480
<v Speaker 1>right back to drinking. So from ninety four I didn't

0:42:06.520 --> 0:42:08.840
<v Speaker 1>I didn't use the drugs, but I was still drinking.

0:42:09.239 --> 0:42:12.560
<v Speaker 1>So testing kind of scared you. Tests scared me, and

0:42:12.600 --> 0:42:15.560
<v Speaker 1>plus it helped me for a little bit of a a

0:42:15.600 --> 0:42:18.320
<v Speaker 1>period of time, but it's just amount of time I

0:42:18.360 --> 0:42:20.000
<v Speaker 1>was gonna go back because I was still drinking. And

0:42:20.040 --> 0:42:23.600
<v Speaker 1>so when so when testing helped to keep you in line,

0:42:24.400 --> 0:42:27.040
<v Speaker 1>and then after ninety four, didn't write where were you

0:42:27.120 --> 0:42:30.759
<v Speaker 1>that season? What happened was ninety four the situation where

0:42:30.960 --> 0:42:33.080
<v Speaker 1>like I said, it was already premeditated that I was

0:42:33.080 --> 0:42:37.239
<v Speaker 1>definitely used again given opportunity. So ninety four, the first

0:42:37.280 --> 0:42:39.160
<v Speaker 1>game of the season, I break my toe, so I

0:42:39.200 --> 0:42:42.320
<v Speaker 1>get put on the deal. So now I'm rehabing, getting

0:42:42.320 --> 0:42:43.880
<v Speaker 1>back in shape. And so when Do's given a clearance.

0:42:43.920 --> 0:42:45.879
<v Speaker 1>The sort of planning. I go down to the mono

0:42:45.920 --> 0:42:47.919
<v Speaker 1>leagues just to get some in and in and build

0:42:47.920 --> 0:42:50.560
<v Speaker 1>my own scrint up. And the right away the disease

0:42:50.600 --> 0:42:52.560
<v Speaker 1>tell me, hey, they're not testing you down here. I

0:42:52.560 --> 0:42:55.360
<v Speaker 1>can get high while I'm down here, I've relapsed. And

0:42:55.400 --> 0:42:58.440
<v Speaker 1>now when I joined the team in Cincinnati, there's a

0:42:58.480 --> 0:43:01.560
<v Speaker 1>guy from any Baseball waiting to test me. He tested me, obviously,

0:43:01.600 --> 0:43:05.839
<v Speaker 1>it's positive, gets suspended. Then I go to our Betty Ford.

0:43:06.840 --> 0:43:08.440
<v Speaker 1>I get out of there. So they wanted me to

0:43:08.600 --> 0:43:11.040
<v Speaker 1>come back to New York to the Major League Baseball doctors.

0:43:11.400 --> 0:43:13.880
<v Speaker 1>Before I went to Tampa. All I had to hear

0:43:13.960 --> 0:43:16.560
<v Speaker 1>was the one doctor says, why don't you just drink?

0:43:16.680 --> 0:43:19.600
<v Speaker 1>I don't do drugs. So as he said that, I'm thinking,

0:43:19.680 --> 0:43:21.560
<v Speaker 1>even though even though I know I shouldn't have been

0:43:21.680 --> 0:43:23.880
<v Speaker 1>two treatments at that time, and I know I can't drink.

0:43:24.360 --> 0:43:26.440
<v Speaker 1>So I said, wow, maybe I could do it different

0:43:26.440 --> 0:43:28.239
<v Speaker 1>this time. And now I'm gonna plane and fly home

0:43:28.280 --> 0:43:30.399
<v Speaker 1>to Tampa to see my family. I'm drinking the plane

0:43:30.400 --> 0:43:32.000
<v Speaker 1>I got to that plane, I don't see my family

0:43:32.040 --> 0:43:34.560
<v Speaker 1>for three days. You pick up right where you left off.

0:43:34.600 --> 0:43:37.200
<v Speaker 1>Definitely definitely pick up right. What is what they say

0:43:37.480 --> 0:43:40.920
<v Speaker 1>for me? I when I got sober, when I stopped

0:43:40.960 --> 0:43:42.960
<v Speaker 1>drinking and I stopped taking drugs, which was many years

0:43:43.000 --> 0:43:45.839
<v Speaker 1>ago when I was very young, it changed a lot

0:43:45.880 --> 0:43:47.799
<v Speaker 1>of things from me. I made. It really changed my

0:43:47.800 --> 0:43:50.239
<v Speaker 1>attitude work to what I do for a living. I

0:43:50.320 --> 0:43:52.560
<v Speaker 1>began to see the potential. And I don't want to

0:43:52.560 --> 0:43:56.200
<v Speaker 1>say that it made me overwhelmingly cynical. That may be

0:43:56.239 --> 0:44:00.840
<v Speaker 1>true or less, but it definitely made me more thoughtful,

0:44:01.480 --> 0:44:04.400
<v Speaker 1>and it made me more aware of where there was

0:44:04.440 --> 0:44:07.120
<v Speaker 1>the unhealthiness and a lot of things we do relationships

0:44:07.120 --> 0:44:09.400
<v Speaker 1>with people. You know what what was a healthy relationship?

0:44:09.560 --> 0:44:12.560
<v Speaker 1>What was a healthy relationship with my family? And what

0:44:12.640 --> 0:44:15.400
<v Speaker 1>was your relationship like with your parents? Uh, now that

0:44:15.480 --> 0:44:19.160
<v Speaker 1>you're rich and famous and honored and you have all

0:44:19.200 --> 0:44:22.520
<v Speaker 1>these awards and you're coming apart my mom she didn't

0:44:22.560 --> 0:44:25.479
<v Speaker 1>care about that fame. And still they see she can

0:44:25.680 --> 0:44:27.439
<v Speaker 1>come and see you. Did you spend time? She would

0:44:27.440 --> 0:44:29.040
<v Speaker 1>come up like during the season and see me. But

0:44:29.080 --> 0:44:31.520
<v Speaker 1>she whenn't. She maybe came to maybe two games. She

0:44:31.560 --> 0:44:34.200
<v Speaker 1>came to one in Houston, my very first start. She

0:44:34.239 --> 0:44:37.160
<v Speaker 1>came to also a game in and maybe two stories

0:44:37.200 --> 0:44:39.319
<v Speaker 1>in New York. My mom is a real Southern girl.

0:44:39.400 --> 0:44:41.799
<v Speaker 1>She's from Georgia where they grow their own vegetables and

0:44:41.840 --> 0:44:44.080
<v Speaker 1>fruit and you know, working the cotton field all that stuff.

0:44:44.120 --> 0:44:46.440
<v Speaker 1>So baseball she enjoyed it more when I was a

0:44:46.520 --> 0:44:50.200
<v Speaker 1>kid than professionally because she don't like all the commotions, right.

0:44:50.360 --> 0:44:54.080
<v Speaker 1>So for my dad, he kind of treat him in

0:44:54.120 --> 0:44:55.920
<v Speaker 1>the same but at the same time, I mean he

0:44:56.040 --> 0:44:58.239
<v Speaker 1>was enjoying all the stuff that was going on. I

0:44:58.239 --> 0:45:01.040
<v Speaker 1>mean he liked that because when I started playing baseball,

0:45:01.160 --> 0:45:03.760
<v Speaker 1>initially was his dream and then it became my dream.

0:45:04.320 --> 0:45:06.799
<v Speaker 1>And as I mentioned a book where a lot of

0:45:07.000 --> 0:45:09.399
<v Speaker 1>my parents like they had me at a later time

0:45:09.400 --> 0:45:11.319
<v Speaker 1>in the stage, like I have five siblars, three brothers,

0:45:11.880 --> 0:45:14.239
<v Speaker 1>and I'm the youngest by thirteen years, so I came

0:45:14.320 --> 0:45:17.400
<v Speaker 1>later on. So obviously I was a spot kid. My

0:45:17.480 --> 0:45:20.200
<v Speaker 1>mom was very strict, you know, very direct with stuff.

0:45:20.200 --> 0:45:21.800
<v Speaker 1>When my dad kind of gave me a pass with

0:45:21.800 --> 0:45:23.520
<v Speaker 1>a lot of things as long as I was playing baseball.

0:45:24.160 --> 0:45:29.000
<v Speaker 1>Without naming names, obviously, would you say that drug usage,

0:45:29.239 --> 0:45:32.399
<v Speaker 1>I mean alcohol, it's uh, that's always been the case

0:45:32.640 --> 0:45:35.520
<v Speaker 1>throughout history. But would you say the drug usage and

0:45:35.560 --> 0:45:39.120
<v Speaker 1>particularly cocaine usage. Well, what what was the cocaine and

0:45:39.200 --> 0:45:43.160
<v Speaker 1>drug usage like among professional athletes during the from when

0:45:43.160 --> 0:45:46.000
<v Speaker 1>you started to when you finally got sober in two thousand. Yeah,

0:45:46.040 --> 0:45:48.399
<v Speaker 1>I think that. Um. Obviously, in the eighties it was.

0:45:48.560 --> 0:45:50.759
<v Speaker 1>It was available pretty much any time you wanted it,

0:45:50.840 --> 0:45:52.120
<v Speaker 1>and a lot of people you knew were doing it.

0:45:52.120 --> 0:45:54.800
<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of people doing it, and unfortunately the

0:45:54.880 --> 0:45:58.040
<v Speaker 1>eight six Mass got labeled as a party team at

0:45:58.080 --> 0:46:00.839
<v Speaker 1>that time in early eighties old teams was a party

0:46:01.160 --> 0:46:03.799
<v Speaker 1>but because we're successful and within New York, we got

0:46:03.840 --> 0:46:06.640
<v Speaker 1>pointed out. Um, a lot of stuff they say was true.

0:46:06.920 --> 0:46:09.520
<v Speaker 1>But other teams and the police were doing the same thing.

0:46:09.719 --> 0:46:12.000
<v Speaker 1>I think, who was a person that didn't party, who

0:46:12.040 --> 0:46:14.000
<v Speaker 1>was kind of a straight arrow. Who is the boy

0:46:14.040 --> 0:46:15.440
<v Speaker 1>scout on the team, who would come up with you,

0:46:15.480 --> 0:46:17.839
<v Speaker 1>if any and wag their fingers in their face and say,

0:46:17.880 --> 0:46:20.200
<v Speaker 1>shame on you. Don't you do that with several guys

0:46:20.239 --> 0:46:22.920
<v Speaker 1>that didn't drink and didn't party, but they never like

0:46:22.960 --> 0:46:24.879
<v Speaker 1>pointing finger. I thought this better. So no one came

0:46:24.920 --> 0:46:27.080
<v Speaker 1>to you like a like a patriarchal figure and put

0:46:27.080 --> 0:46:29.120
<v Speaker 1>his hand in and said, hey man, you gotta slow down.

0:46:29.200 --> 0:46:33.480
<v Speaker 1>No prime example, Gary Carter. Great guy, I mean obviously

0:46:33.480 --> 0:46:35.040
<v Speaker 1>it was a great problem. Even a better person off

0:46:35.040 --> 0:46:37.360
<v Speaker 1>the field. He never drink, he never hung out with

0:46:37.440 --> 0:46:38.800
<v Speaker 1>is anything that like. He would go out to the

0:46:38.800 --> 0:46:40.400
<v Speaker 1>eat with us. But once we were saying we'll go

0:46:40.480 --> 0:46:41.920
<v Speaker 1>out on the strip and he's okay, if you guys

0:46:41.960 --> 0:46:44.319
<v Speaker 1>need me or whatever, I'm in my room. But they

0:46:44.360 --> 0:46:45.920
<v Speaker 1>say it would come in with the red eyes, you

0:46:45.920 --> 0:46:48.399
<v Speaker 1>know you hungover. He never judged you. He just said,

0:46:48.480 --> 0:46:51.399
<v Speaker 1>you know you're okay, everything's good, you had a good time. Good, okay,

0:46:51.480 --> 0:46:56.200
<v Speaker 1>let's get back to work. And that was it. Yeah, Um,

0:46:56.280 --> 0:46:57.799
<v Speaker 1>what do you say to your kids? Your kids are

0:46:57.840 --> 0:47:00.640
<v Speaker 1>high old. My kids are from three to twenty seven.

0:47:00.640 --> 0:47:02.560
<v Speaker 1>So you have kids that knew how your top three

0:47:02.600 --> 0:47:06.360
<v Speaker 1>oldest or how old seven one that I have an

0:47:06.360 --> 0:47:10.719
<v Speaker 1>eighteen and sixteen right, so from sixteen and above. Let's say, uh,

0:47:10.760 --> 0:47:12.600
<v Speaker 1>what do you say to them when they because they

0:47:12.640 --> 0:47:14.239
<v Speaker 1>know all about you what's in the book. They know

0:47:14.239 --> 0:47:16.040
<v Speaker 1>all about me with the book. And even before the

0:47:16.040 --> 0:47:18.120
<v Speaker 1>book came out, I would talk to my kids, um,

0:47:18.480 --> 0:47:21.000
<v Speaker 1>when you drink whatever I said, look, use me as

0:47:21.000 --> 0:47:23.640
<v Speaker 1>an example, Um, like older kids. When I got to

0:47:23.680 --> 0:47:25.359
<v Speaker 1>the point and felt comfortable. I had to talk with them,

0:47:25.360 --> 0:47:27.760
<v Speaker 1>and I said, basically to tell you how powerful drugs

0:47:27.800 --> 0:47:30.400
<v Speaker 1>are called it is, I basically divorced you, guys and

0:47:30.480 --> 0:47:33.880
<v Speaker 1>your mother for drugs. I said, So just picture that.

0:47:33.960 --> 0:47:36.040
<v Speaker 1>I said, you guys know how I felt when I

0:47:36.080 --> 0:47:38.359
<v Speaker 1>wasn't around insidious it is right. And when I wasn't

0:47:38.360 --> 0:47:40.360
<v Speaker 1>into school activities, when I wanted to game or if

0:47:40.360 --> 0:47:42.960
<v Speaker 1>I was there, I miss a lot of that. And

0:47:43.000 --> 0:47:44.880
<v Speaker 1>I say, you just think what that did to me.

0:47:44.960 --> 0:47:47.279
<v Speaker 1>I say, and you guys know my heart. You guys

0:47:47.280 --> 0:47:48.640
<v Speaker 1>know the type of person as I said, but once

0:47:48.680 --> 0:47:51.640
<v Speaker 1>you get involved with that, you're not the same. And

0:47:51.680 --> 0:47:53.600
<v Speaker 1>not only did you hurt yourself, but you hurt your

0:47:53.600 --> 0:47:55.640
<v Speaker 1>loved ones like they forgive you. Like you guys, Yes,

0:47:55.840 --> 0:47:57.279
<v Speaker 1>that was one of the things they forgave me. I

0:47:57.400 --> 0:47:59.560
<v Speaker 1>only wanted me to be as healthy and be accountable

0:47:59.600 --> 0:48:02.040
<v Speaker 1>to them. I don't make any promises to them, obviously,

0:48:02.280 --> 0:48:04.239
<v Speaker 1>but I'm always there. I talked to him daily. Now,

0:48:04.320 --> 0:48:06.520
<v Speaker 1>what are you doing with yourself now? I um. I

0:48:06.560 --> 0:48:08.480
<v Speaker 1>usually my eight year old son and he plays baseball

0:48:08.520 --> 0:48:12.040
<v Speaker 1>and football in Inglewood clips. He's here when I have

0:48:12.040 --> 0:48:13.880
<v Speaker 1>the opportunity to help to coach his team. I do

0:48:14.000 --> 0:48:16.120
<v Speaker 1>work with the mess sine Yankees. Um. I couldn't do

0:48:16.160 --> 0:48:18.440
<v Speaker 1>that when Mrs Simer was living. It was only Yankee

0:48:18.520 --> 0:48:21.200
<v Speaker 1>or nothing. So now unfortunately he's passed, I get to

0:48:21.200 --> 0:48:23.400
<v Speaker 1>work a little bit with both teams. Do that, do

0:48:23.400 --> 0:48:25.279
<v Speaker 1>a lot of stuff with the youth program and my

0:48:25.320 --> 0:48:30.000
<v Speaker 1>true passions anything with kids. Your dad died when he passed.

0:48:30.000 --> 0:48:34.399
<v Speaker 1>For where were you when your dad died? Icually? Um?

0:48:34.440 --> 0:48:36.919
<v Speaker 1>I was in Tampa when it happened. Um, I usually

0:48:36.960 --> 0:48:39.480
<v Speaker 1>the last game. My dad told me pitch wasn't no hitter,

0:48:39.600 --> 0:48:42.680
<v Speaker 1>and I talked about that in a book where he

0:48:42.719 --> 0:48:44.239
<v Speaker 1>had He had been struggling for a while with his

0:48:44.320 --> 0:48:47.200
<v Speaker 1>kidding failures on dallas Is for like fifteen years. His

0:48:47.280 --> 0:48:49.560
<v Speaker 1>health was deteriorating and they felt he had to have

0:48:49.600 --> 0:48:52.600
<v Speaker 1>emergency heart surgery. They felt if he didn't have the surgery,

0:48:52.600 --> 0:48:55.120
<v Speaker 1>he probably would last a month or two. And even

0:48:55.160 --> 0:48:57.879
<v Speaker 1>if he had the surgery, can guarantee he's gonna last

0:48:57.880 --> 0:48:59.800
<v Speaker 1>a month or two. But he definitely had a surgery.

0:49:00.480 --> 0:49:01.840
<v Speaker 1>The day that piched on hid, I was supposed to

0:49:01.840 --> 0:49:03.399
<v Speaker 1>fly home to build him that day because of having

0:49:03.400 --> 0:49:06.440
<v Speaker 1>a surgery. Next morning, I had my flight, reservation, everything.

0:49:06.680 --> 0:49:09.040
<v Speaker 1>But uh, when I woke up that morning, you know,

0:49:09.080 --> 0:49:10.920
<v Speaker 1>I remember taking a shower and brash my teeth, and

0:49:10.920 --> 0:49:12.959
<v Speaker 1>I just started reminiscent of all the days we spent

0:49:13.400 --> 0:49:16.359
<v Speaker 1>at the park. Him teaching me to drills, made him

0:49:16.360 --> 0:49:18.759
<v Speaker 1>going through the spring training games, made him watching games

0:49:18.760 --> 0:49:21.799
<v Speaker 1>on TV. From him. I learned from him, like how

0:49:21.800 --> 0:49:25.600
<v Speaker 1>to pitch, basically knew everything I learned about baseballs from him. Um,

0:49:25.640 --> 0:49:27.799
<v Speaker 1>And would you learn from him as a father? As

0:49:27.840 --> 0:49:31.279
<v Speaker 1>a father is putting family first? Understanding you believe he did, yes,

0:49:31.280 --> 0:49:33.920
<v Speaker 1>definitely understanding in his way. In his way, yeah, I

0:49:34.000 --> 0:49:35.520
<v Speaker 1>mean he might have it, didn't live it, but just

0:49:35.640 --> 0:49:38.320
<v Speaker 1>telling me, you know, family comes first, family values, setting

0:49:38.320 --> 0:49:41.160
<v Speaker 1>a good example for your kids as well. So that

0:49:41.239 --> 0:49:42.920
<v Speaker 1>day I felt he will. Probably in some ways he

0:49:42.920 --> 0:49:45.000
<v Speaker 1>didn't set a good example for you, well with the

0:49:45.000 --> 0:49:47.279
<v Speaker 1>woman I was in or whatever. But that's that's what

0:49:47.320 --> 0:49:50.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm saying. I wonder if sometimes that's part of what happened.

0:49:50.840 --> 0:49:53.440
<v Speaker 1>Was you trying to make peace with those two, because

0:49:53.480 --> 0:49:55.319
<v Speaker 1>that's where I came to in my life once I

0:49:55.360 --> 0:49:57.400
<v Speaker 1>got sober and I showed up to examine what was

0:49:57.480 --> 0:50:01.319
<v Speaker 1>bothering me. When I began to realize was I did

0:50:01.360 --> 0:50:05.239
<v Speaker 1>my parents were people? Yeah? Did you find that that

0:50:05.320 --> 0:50:07.960
<v Speaker 1>was a part of what aid at you? No, the

0:50:08.000 --> 0:50:10.879
<v Speaker 1>contradictions inside your dad with with him, No, I would

0:50:10.920 --> 0:50:12.600
<v Speaker 1>say not at all. Um, he was there like a

0:50:12.600 --> 0:50:14.640
<v Speaker 1>lot of things that he was doing. I thought you

0:50:14.719 --> 0:50:17.319
<v Speaker 1>became a womanizer. Yeah, I became a womanizer. And the

0:50:17.320 --> 0:50:19.000
<v Speaker 1>thing my dad's were doing with the drinking whatever, like

0:50:19.040 --> 0:50:21.360
<v Speaker 1>I never actually saw him with the one whatever, so

0:50:21.800 --> 0:50:24.040
<v Speaker 1>he kept it all the way from my parents never

0:50:24.080 --> 0:50:25.440
<v Speaker 1>are going to find me. So I just thought it

0:50:25.480 --> 0:50:27.759
<v Speaker 1>was you know, everything was great. So you're saying that song,

0:50:27.880 --> 0:50:32.239
<v Speaker 1>daddy's got a girlfriend. You out he would getting water

0:50:32.320 --> 0:50:36.640
<v Speaker 1>or something. You actually you accidentally threw him under the

0:50:36.840 --> 0:50:39.319
<v Speaker 1>that's a thing you described in the book. That's really

0:50:39.320 --> 0:50:41.960
<v Speaker 1>really cool. You you did the doctor Drew thing. What

0:50:42.120 --> 0:50:45.040
<v Speaker 1>year that was two thousand eleven. So you went back

0:50:45.640 --> 0:50:48.040
<v Speaker 1>because you went out again, Yes, and you went out

0:50:48.040 --> 0:50:50.319
<v Speaker 1>when you were sober from when to win from the

0:50:50.400 --> 0:50:52.839
<v Speaker 1>last time from two thousand and ten. I was very

0:50:52.880 --> 0:50:54.680
<v Speaker 1>acting my addiction what I was going through this, But

0:50:54.719 --> 0:50:59.160
<v Speaker 1>you were sober two thousand till when two thousand um

0:50:59.200 --> 0:51:01.800
<v Speaker 1>to two, and then I went back out there and

0:51:01.920 --> 0:51:04.840
<v Speaker 1>I was basically in and out of my addiction until

0:51:06.800 --> 0:51:09.040
<v Speaker 1>so you eat and out for eight more years and

0:51:09.080 --> 0:51:12.799
<v Speaker 1>you got busted. Uh two, yes, do something? You get

0:51:12.800 --> 0:51:16.040
<v Speaker 1>busted where what what happened was in Franklin Lakes in

0:51:16.080 --> 0:51:19.680
<v Speaker 1>New Jersey. I had got charged with child endangerment where

0:51:19.680 --> 0:51:21.960
<v Speaker 1>I took ambien the night before I woke up to

0:51:21.960 --> 0:51:25.799
<v Speaker 1>take my son to school. Obviously hit a car and

0:51:25.840 --> 0:51:28.160
<v Speaker 1>they wanted to get me out into the field, sobriety tests,

0:51:28.160 --> 0:51:32.080
<v Speaker 1>which as they're talking to him building off and Mr

0:51:32.120 --> 0:51:35.360
<v Speaker 1>taken a couple of ambien. Yes, it sounds like you

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<v Speaker 1>took well the one ambient. Right. So then you get

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<v Speaker 1>charged child endangerment because you were in a vehicle with

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<v Speaker 1>a child. Yes. How old was the child? My son

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<v Speaker 1>at that time that was two thousand ten, you know

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<v Speaker 1>he would have been five. You were married to your

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<v Speaker 1>wife then? Yes? Newly married almost? Yes? And what happened?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you go to prison? Did jail rather? No time?

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<v Speaker 1>No time? Got probation and I went That's when I

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<v Speaker 1>went to the dr. Juwe show what what what? What

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<v Speaker 1>did you think was unique about that? What helped you about? Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Going to the doctor's room. I can help you definitely

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<v Speaker 1>helped me. But I think the thing was I was

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<v Speaker 1>ready to get help the times before with the treatment.

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<v Speaker 1>I was just basically there during my time. As you know,

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<v Speaker 1>in treatment, what you put in is what you get out.

0:52:12.320 --> 0:52:13.520
<v Speaker 1>I was just ready. It was the time of my

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<v Speaker 1>life where I knew I had been a you know, rehabs.

0:52:16.520 --> 0:52:18.680
<v Speaker 1>I've been the institutions. I've been a jail. I've been

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<v Speaker 1>a prison. The only thing waiting with the cemetery. When

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<v Speaker 1>did you go to prison? I went The prison was

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<v Speaker 1>six four for technical volation for it was a relapse.

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<v Speaker 1>How long were you in there? Ten a half months?

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<v Speaker 1>What was that like? Horrible? I mean horrible in Gainesville, Florida.

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<v Speaker 1>That was horrible any time you get locked up across

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<v Speaker 1>the fader Well facility. You were in a state prison,

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<v Speaker 1>but going there at the age forty is horrible. State prison. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>you were in a state prison in Gainesville, Florida for

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<v Speaker 1>ten months, and they all knew who you were and

0:52:47.760 --> 0:52:49.319
<v Speaker 1>did all like the biggest time. I mean, I've been

0:52:49.400 --> 0:52:51.680
<v Speaker 1>been making a joke here, but like the biggest, toughest

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<v Speaker 1>guys in the prison who could probably beat the crap

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<v Speaker 1>and even come up and tell you that they would

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<v Speaker 1>protect you if you taught them the secret and how

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<v Speaker 1>to throw the fastball. I didn't get into that. Did

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<v Speaker 1>you take a ball, like show them how to things

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<v Speaker 1>going with the laces? They leave you alone? You look

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<v Speaker 1>at some guy, listen, ray, I'm gonna show this to

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<v Speaker 1>you one time and then that's it. I want you

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<v Speaker 1>to promise if you're gonna leave out and there you

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<v Speaker 1>found out the first thing you're there, You're just a number.

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<v Speaker 1>You're not even a name. It's horrible. Yes, who did

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<v Speaker 1>you become friends with it? Did you any what kind

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<v Speaker 1>of time? There's a couple of guys that I knew

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<v Speaker 1>from as kids that I haven't seen since childhood and

0:53:22.960 --> 0:53:24.359
<v Speaker 1>found him in are because they've been in and out

0:53:24.400 --> 0:53:27.359
<v Speaker 1>their whole life. So but that it helped the time

0:53:27.400 --> 0:53:29.279
<v Speaker 1>go by fast. It was just a horrible, horrible time

0:53:29.400 --> 0:53:31.359
<v Speaker 1>harbor experience. When you got out of there, how did

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<v Speaker 1>you feel it was different? And I totally agree, Um, guy,

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<v Speaker 1>I was telling me when guys getting cross ready and

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<v Speaker 1>you're there for basically ten months or longer, it takes

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<v Speaker 1>that same amount of time when you get out to

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<v Speaker 1>get back to your yourself. And I found that once

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<v Speaker 1>I got out, I was still living like I was

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<v Speaker 1>a prison. I wouldn't go anywhere. I was just stay

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<v Speaker 1>in the house. I was just basically doing time on

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<v Speaker 1>the streets. So it was a horrible harbor time too.

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<v Speaker 1>I can get comfortable. Who helped you? I had all

0:53:54.800 --> 0:53:57.480
<v Speaker 1>started going to the meetings after that. I got a sponsor,

0:53:57.600 --> 0:53:59.560
<v Speaker 1>this guy Ron Do Now when you first went to

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<v Speaker 1>meetings and to that, No, I went to meetings before,

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<v Speaker 1>but I just got totally go back into the program.

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<v Speaker 1>The program saved you. Yeah, they got me going and

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<v Speaker 1>got me, you know, feeling good about myself again. How

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<v Speaker 1>was your wife? Is she cool about it? No? Okay,

0:54:11.480 --> 0:54:15.239
<v Speaker 1>that was tough time. Yeah, that was tough. Yeah that's

0:54:15.239 --> 0:54:18.040
<v Speaker 1>a story for another day. But it was okay. It's

0:54:18.040 --> 0:54:19.839
<v Speaker 1>a tough thing though, you know, it's very tough. That's

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<v Speaker 1>that's the thing I'll tell my kids. It's tough not

0:54:21.719 --> 0:54:23.080
<v Speaker 1>only on you, but it's tough on you all your

0:54:23.120 --> 0:54:25.719
<v Speaker 1>loved ones. You've heard everybody else through it. Yes, you

0:54:25.840 --> 0:54:28.400
<v Speaker 1>definitely A lot of stuff is on their times. You

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<v Speaker 1>can't have them forgive you on your time because we're

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<v Speaker 1>doing like right now. So they have to work through

0:54:33.440 --> 0:54:36.520
<v Speaker 1>their things and get to a point where they accept

0:54:36.520 --> 0:54:39.360
<v Speaker 1>what happened. We can't force him. That's the thing that

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<v Speaker 1>I found out For all his years in baseball, Dwight

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<v Speaker 1>Gooden says he's more of a football fan, and during

0:54:49.600 --> 0:54:53.360
<v Speaker 1>football season, his Sundays are pretty routine. He goes to church,

0:54:53.480 --> 0:54:55.920
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0:54:56.040 --> 0:54:59.640
<v Speaker 1>night watching the game. Was your team Giants, big giant fans.

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