Speaker 1: Guess what decision We're about to make a horrible decisions.
Speaker 1: What's up? What's up? Welcome to another episode of Hory Blade.
Speaker 1: This is Hewns. I don't know why I'd be doing that,
Speaker 1: but it's horrible decisions because I'll be trying to do
Speaker 1: the looe. I don't know what accident is, but whatever. Uh,
Speaker 1: this is your girl, Mandy V A k A. Debt bitch,
Speaker 1: A k A. You know that's it. That's it. I'm
Speaker 1: dropping Pitt the Stallion bitch. And I told you before
Speaker 1: I'm dropping it again. So I'm just debt bitch. What's up?
Speaker 1: You're dropping your strap? Where is it? It's in the closet.
Speaker 1: It's in the closet. I am retiring the strap. I'm
Speaker 1: not b ship what it is. I'm tiring it. Which
Speaker 1: athlete came back to play a sport that was gone?
Speaker 1: This is what we're gonna do. I don't know that man.
Speaker 1: Michael Jordan's okay, well maybe you ain't know, Michael Jordan.
Speaker 1: I didn't know if he went. You know too, he left,
Speaker 1: took a break, went and play baseball, then came back
Speaker 1: to basketball. So right now I'm playing baseball, bitch. Okay,
Speaker 1: a bitch is playing baseball, but I may not return
Speaker 1: to basketball, you know what I mean. I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't know. Man is old enough to wear like
Speaker 1: right when he hits fifty, he'd be like you, you know, saying, Okay,
Speaker 1: I only got three more years. So see you know,
Speaker 1: I'll be playing baseball for three years then kind of
Speaker 1: the rise. I'm wheezy. If you've never heard this show,
Speaker 1: Peg is here, She's still here. It's it's it's she's
Speaker 1: wearing a mask. Um, but we have somebody with us
Speaker 1: from a very special podcast called Inner ho Uprising. I
Speaker 1: remember when we first started our show. Um, we had
Speaker 1: heard about it because there wasn't really another black sex
Speaker 1: pod in New York right now, not at that time. No,
Speaker 1: So definitely are O g s. I love in her
Speaker 1: ho Uprising because I really feel like it's a tightened
Speaker 1: up horrible decisions. What are the tightened up horrible decisions?
Speaker 1: Even the way that they started, they put what we'll
Speaker 1: be talking about. I didn't say all that because I mean,
Speaker 1: but what I will say, can you what is the
Speaker 1: tighter now? When you listen to next week? Okay, Well,
Speaker 1: Rob doesn't do it like Sammy like looking at in
Speaker 1: her Ho Uprising, where we are telling you about my pronouncer,
Speaker 1: she Her, and we are back for It's like a
Speaker 1: good newscasterree hole. You know what I'm saying a newscaster.
Speaker 1: We'll be starting the show dumb, but I like, speak
Speaker 1: for yourself. You'll be startling, start dumb. We ain't dumb, bitch,
Speaker 1: This is an education. I didn't say weird dumb? Are
Speaker 1: you saying we'll show be done? It ain't dune. Welcome
Speaker 1: to horrible you know what I mean? We say horrible
Speaker 1: decisions that introduce our sales in that see, let me
Speaker 1: try to do it. You and she Her, I'm a
Speaker 1: she her, Yeah, that's it? What what what we gotta say?
Speaker 1: You know what? She eat coachy? Sometimes I do. We
Speaker 1: both suck dick? Is that how we need to introduce? Hey, guys,
Speaker 1: we suck dick in like pussy. What's up? I kind
Speaker 1: of like that. That's pretty fun. Okay, So let's introduce
Speaker 1: Rob So. Rob is one of the hosts on Inner
Speaker 1: Ho Uprising. Rob, I haven't met you before, and I
Speaker 1: didn't I know? Sam like kind of rotates co host.
Speaker 1: Can you tell us about Inner Ho Uprising? How you
Speaker 1: got your started on their So in Uprising, it's a
Speaker 1: podcast about sex leven dating from the perspective of four
Speaker 1: black queer feminists. Um, we are, yes, we're all very gay.
Speaker 1: We're all very open, like, uh, A couple of them
Speaker 1: are non monogamous. I am monogamous. Um that doesn't sound
Speaker 1: like fun. I mean I'm I mean I'm single, So
Speaker 1: I just the choosing date one person at a time.
Speaker 1: Um capacity. Yeah, you know, my brain is a little smooth,
Speaker 1: it's tired, so I don't want to get too crazy.
Speaker 1: But yeah, we're more we're educational, but we're fun. And
Speaker 1: the way we got started. Sam had the podcast initially
Speaker 1: with another host, and when that host left, she kind
Speaker 1: of did um like a kind of like competition between
Speaker 1: from people who wanted the spot, and she ended up
Speaker 1: choosing me, Rebecca and Akua so we could all be
Speaker 1: host and it works out better so we can all
Speaker 1: be Yeah, I mean we're out here. We're all like
Speaker 1: pretty big. It's like Hunger Games. Though people did y'all
Speaker 1: beat up? I have no idea. I was just one
Speaker 1: of many niggas, but I was the one of the
Speaker 1: niggas made it, you know, like on top and we're
Speaker 1: all like super busy. So like Sam, her life is podcasting,
Speaker 1: My life is like a billion different things. So it
Speaker 1: works out that I'm not like glue to podcasting because
Speaker 1: we're all we're all doing it at different You could
Speaker 1: just be the put your input in when needed. I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm like a hole once a week. Damn I got
Speaker 1: a lot at all. I meant it's like h O
Speaker 1: E s T though like a host. I'm but I'm
Speaker 1: just a hole. Let me say my co ho you
Speaker 1: feel me? So Rob tell us, I want to know
Speaker 1: um whoever wrote me from? In her if I think
Speaker 1: it may have been Sam, she was like Rob's day
Speaker 1: them and I wanted to know your sexual orientation and
Speaker 1: how Yeah, well what is it? Okay, so I'll be
Speaker 1: saying DEMI paint so first with the say them. That's
Speaker 1: my gender identity, right, So I'm a non bindary person
Speaker 1: a gender. I don't identify as a woman as a
Speaker 1: man um, but that's separate, of course, with my sexual orientation.
Speaker 1: I call that gender fluid. I mean, of course, with anything,
Speaker 1: the language is kind of what you make it. Like,
Speaker 1: gender in general is a binary spectrum usually, so you're
Speaker 1: gender nonconforming yes, which which means you don't conform. You know,
Speaker 1: I finished not conforming a big word because I mean,
Speaker 1: if you, I mean, there's nothing wrong with it, right,
Speaker 1: Like I'm not smash the anything kind of person because
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, if you if that's who
Speaker 1: you are, but who you are, be happy than you are.
Speaker 1: I just wasn't like that was not a gender. What's
Speaker 1: a gender? Mis means no gender like a sexual anything
Speaker 1: that prefixes like no, non, So I just don't prescribe
Speaker 1: to any specific gender. Okay, I'm confused this book over here.
Speaker 1: I ain't even gonna hold you because a sexual I
Speaker 1: getting you choose not to have sex, but a gender
Speaker 1: I mean, but it's not necessarily a choice. If you're
Speaker 1: a sexual, like that's who you are, right, like how
Speaker 1: you are bisexual pantsex people, It's like, is a choice? Yeah,
Speaker 1: like a sexual is like, actually, you know what we're
Speaker 1: gonna I think this would be cool to skip into
Speaker 1: the whole facts. I brought a glossary up, and I
Speaker 1: think it'd be good if we break it down together
Speaker 1: with with the help of Rob because I I don't
Speaker 1: say choice because to me it I agree, it's not
Speaker 1: I don't think you necessarily like if you're a sexual,
Speaker 1: you don't feel it to up you know what I'm say, right,
Speaker 1: you don't write but a gender. I didn't. I never
Speaker 1: chose not to be a woman or a man. I
Speaker 1: have a pussy, but a pussy is not what makes
Speaker 1: you a woman. So I never like it wasn't like
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, cool, you know I don't want
Speaker 1: to be a man. I don't want to be a woman.
Speaker 1: I don't want to prescribe to these roles. I just
Speaker 1: never did see. And to me, when I when I
Speaker 1: think of all of this, I break it down to uh,
Speaker 1: male and female, but man and woman. To me, yes,
Speaker 1: a pussy does mean woman because when we have the
Speaker 1: conversation man, no, no, no, no, I'm saying female and
Speaker 1: male is yes to me, those are genders that you
Speaker 1: don't have to identify with or that you do because
Speaker 1: of your your organs. But one moment, I'm talking about
Speaker 1: what she said, I don't identify like, having a pussy
Speaker 1: doesn't make you a woman. Right. But even when oh day, sorry,
Speaker 1: even when we speak to uh trans women that the
Speaker 1: argument is that they identify as women despite you know
Speaker 1: you said the office to what you met and male,
Speaker 1: right right, sexual like that's described by your sexual organs
Speaker 1: or genital When you said a woman you feel like
Speaker 1: a woman, you don't like saying that you need to
Speaker 1: have a pussy to be a woman. No, okay, that
Speaker 1: would be saying that the women we've interviewed Jamie Parris
Speaker 1: hope disguise on women, which isn't true. Okay, right right,
Speaker 1: it makes sense. I'm gonna listen. I don't know. I
Speaker 1: guess this this conversation, and I know that we've been
Speaker 1: having this conversation um for now four years. I just
Speaker 1: I just do still want to make it very clear
Speaker 1: that we're both not experts. But I'm still trying to
Speaker 1: understand and learn my way around the words and identification
Speaker 1: and what we can say we are in regards to nonscience.
Speaker 1: I don't know. Go ahead, read what you have on
Speaker 1: your list. I'm trying to figure it out, and again
Speaker 1: without being disrespectful either, but I I too still don't understand,
Speaker 1: So explain it to me more. I think you can't
Speaker 1: described initially, Rob when you said you didn't prescribe to
Speaker 1: any gender when I was younger, I'd call that androgyny
Speaker 1: when I felt like I couldn't understand like people I
Speaker 1: was meeting, like I ain't giving me a girl, I
Speaker 1: ain't give me dude, Like what is this? What on this? Like?
Speaker 1: You know what I mean anymore? Because now you have
Speaker 1: gender nonconforming so people can understand, And I think, What's
Speaker 1: it's funny because it's made it more difficult for i'd say, everyone, right,
Speaker 1: including you, making sure that we're being respectful of people's pronouns,
Speaker 1: who they are, what gender they'd like to be referred
Speaker 1: to as, etcetera, if any And for these people that
Speaker 1: fall into this box, it's a lot more comfortable, right
Speaker 1: because Androgynis may not be how you felt you were,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, like, and so now it's
Speaker 1: like they're more comfortable, they're happy because they're finding their place,
Speaker 1: there's different terms, whatever. But for the rest of everyone
Speaker 1: else is like, well, I don't get it, And I
Speaker 1: think that's what makes it so frustrating. It's super frustrating
Speaker 1: because yeah, I think a lot of people, even when
Speaker 1: I was just corrected, please correct me every time I
Speaker 1: do something wrong, because the same way if someone sucks
Speaker 1: up your name, you want them to know your name
Speaker 1: the right way. Don't just name me whatever you want
Speaker 1: me to, whatever you want to name me. But again, yes,
Speaker 1: it is frustrating for those of us that do want
Speaker 1: to be respectful but still don't have quite the understanding
Speaker 1: of of what it means. Essentially, So you do have
Speaker 1: a list. This is our This is actually just sexual orientation.
Speaker 1: So I thought we could walk through this because when
Speaker 1: I was listening to Inner Uprising, someone on your show
Speaker 1: is demisexual, and I was like, let me look this
Speaker 1: up because I've been saying pant okay, So hetero people
Speaker 1: that are romantically and physically attracted to members of the
Speaker 1: opposite sex, homosexual, which, females that attracted to other females, lesbian,
Speaker 1: and they're talking to the men, gay, bisexual, which don't
Speaker 1: just go over because there's people that may just be
Speaker 1: listening to us for the first time. Make sure you
Speaker 1: read those two. I feel like we all really know
Speaker 1: the rest. I want to dig into a little more.
Speaker 1: Bisexual people that are romantically and physically attracted to members
Speaker 1: of both sexes, which is why pay and sexual is interesting.
Speaker 1: So pan sexual is attracted to people regardless of gender, right,
Speaker 1: So bisexual is strictly male female, when you're putting that
Speaker 1: blanket term over it. A sexual are people who may
Speaker 1: not be interested in sex, but they feel emotionally close
Speaker 1: to other people, i e. Being able to have relationships
Speaker 1: with others. I've mentioned a few friends I've had that
Speaker 1: haven't had sex with partners, but they're like living together. Um,
Speaker 1: now this one I thought was cool. I don't know
Speaker 1: if you've heard of a rob gray a sexuality. If
Speaker 1: you heard of that, not really, So this is the
Speaker 1: spectrum between a sexuality and sexuality individuals who identify with
Speaker 1: gray A sexuality A gray A basically referred to as
Speaker 1: the umbrella of everything else, which is then pan sexuality
Speaker 1: and demosexuality and panoramic demosexuality. Nigga, I know this is
Speaker 1: why it's lgbt Q I A plus. Pan sexuality is
Speaker 1: the sexual attraction regardless of gender, while being uh pano
Speaker 1: romantic is having the ability to feel romantic attraction regardless
Speaker 1: of gender. So pan sexuality I thought was interesting because
Speaker 1: I think that's kind of when people will meet maybe
Speaker 1: actually for men. I've met men that will have sex
Speaker 1: with trans women, but they'll just be like, I'm not
Speaker 1: ready for a relationship with them. So apparently that could
Speaker 1: be a PAN because you're sexually attracted to whoever, but
Speaker 1: romantic I wouldn't use that example though. I know straight
Speaker 1: people who identify as being straight sexually that still have
Speaker 1: sex with trans sexual trans women that they identify a straight,
Speaker 1: and they still identify a straight, So I wouldn't identify
Speaker 1: them as PAN just because they have sex with trans
Speaker 1: women and women fair. I think it's however someone chooses
Speaker 1: to label themselves, but I mean for that. When I
Speaker 1: read pan romantic, I was like, oh, ship, so if
Speaker 1: you like basically, I mean that's like me with with women.
Speaker 1: I will have sex with women, but I wouldn't be
Speaker 1: with one that would be more like bisexual because sexual
Speaker 1: and you have also bi romantic people who can be
Speaker 1: emotionally attracted to the same sex. Right, because I'm by like,
Speaker 1: I pay romantic whatever. Look, I date people, and I
Speaker 1: love people and have sex with people, and I don't
Speaker 1: I don't have any qualms with anybody any gender. I
Speaker 1: fall in love with anybody who I feel like I
Speaker 1: fall in love with. But if you have some you
Speaker 1: have people who date people of the same sex who
Speaker 1: they can have sex with them and have a sexual
Speaker 1: relationship with them. But they don't necessarily feel emotionally connected
Speaker 1: in a romantic way, like they wouldn't date them. They
Speaker 1: don't see a fusion with them. And I guess that's
Speaker 1: why it's like this pan sexuality bisexuality, and then you
Speaker 1: have the viroman Oh so I guess, yeah, that makes sense.
Speaker 1: That's how I would explain it, especially for like, like
Speaker 1: I said, I know men who identify a strait of
Speaker 1: course in the open, but yeah, have experimented or done things.
Speaker 1: And I think even the experimentation, we immediately want to
Speaker 1: put a label onto someone is bisexual or get even
Speaker 1: if they and experimented. So I like this idea that
Speaker 1: people all the girls, if you have sex with a
Speaker 1: bit one time, they're like, now you straight once. For men,
Speaker 1: they'd be like, you know, like I said, I wanted
Speaker 1: to look up because the inner uprising the sexual attraction
Speaker 1: to only people whom with the demisexual person has strong
Speaker 1: emotional tizes. So bitch, I think I'm a Demi Moore
Speaker 1: pain romantic bitch because you know my emo hoo, okay, demisexual.
Speaker 1: I felt like that was like you be crying over niggas,
Speaker 1: and I was like, yeah, it's like you basically like
Speaker 1: the people that you sleep with, Like, but you're not
Speaker 1: that a way because we would just talk about this
Speaker 1: on the patrion, you'll be sucking in bitches the only
Speaker 1: light those are like, they don't count because it's like
Speaker 1: a one night standing. I hate when people be saying, oh,
Speaker 1: I thought that person, but it don't count, like you
Speaker 1: hate do that? Hate me bitch, because I like to miscount.
Speaker 1: A lot of people are one. We all starting over,
Speaker 1: So let's break do some icebreggers or rob because I'm
Speaker 1: curious how much of a whole are you? Have you
Speaker 1: ever smashed homies, group of friends, people that you may
Speaker 1: need to avoid. If you entered the party and they
Speaker 1: were all together, yes, really were you proud about it?
Speaker 1: Or were you like, shut the funk up, don't tell anybody. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean I don't care it happened. I mean I'm
Speaker 1: not like, look, I fucked this this check and then
Speaker 1: I sucked her brother, but I didn't know they were related.
Speaker 1: Wait wait, maybe did you go right into us So
Speaker 1: I'm just like, but wait, when did you find out
Speaker 1: they were siblings after I sucked the guy, same mama,
Speaker 1: same daddy. I think one of the parents were the
Speaker 1: same parents, and then I had to choose, and then
Speaker 1: I never chose, and wait, so they were still wanting
Speaker 1: to funk you again even though then we were like romantically,
Speaker 1: I was romantically involved with both of them. You know
Speaker 1: what's cool with robs? Like you're telling me that, Like
Speaker 1: they were like pick one because we're not about to
Speaker 1: both be at the sucking family dinner, like there were
Speaker 1: no family Dinner's ever going to be involved in any
Speaker 1: of those situations. Say that what energy that is? That's
Speaker 1: heavy bisexual energy. Right, wasn't that about to get there? Okay,
Speaker 1: imagine them like actually having family issues Like later, Doneline,
Speaker 1: we're gonna bring it up. You know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: Like you sup when you first, I'm sure that's happened.
Speaker 1: But oh my goodness, what I fucked brother too, So
Speaker 1: I mean I'm just saying, wait, you never sucked siblings before?
Speaker 1: I mean mine was stepbrothers through marriage. No judgment that
Speaker 1: it doesn't count, thank you. That's what I said. That's
Speaker 1: why you asked, Wait, have I ever I did want
Speaker 1: to twins one time because they both was fine, but no,
Speaker 1: it's only interested they suck each other. Right, Yeah, I
Speaker 1: think if you're looking the same room and then it's
Speaker 1: like sexual energy. Like being now because when I when
Speaker 1: I Claremont twins, they'd probably be each other. What maybe
Speaker 1: they eat each other puss. We got mad about the
Speaker 1: Claremont twins. You can't suck me to twin brothers. Well,
Speaker 1: I can't because I got a boyfriend. Okay, favorite type
Speaker 1: of porn Hotly, I do not watch porno. Isn't it liberating?
Speaker 1: But I'm watching my own ship now, thoughts, that's like
Speaker 1: auto porn. You see you see how she just did
Speaker 1: like this, But that's how long her videos are. They're
Speaker 1: like jifs. I don't know how should even make them.
Speaker 1: What you mean? Yeah, I got long one. Yeah, but
Speaker 1: when you showed the one the last time, I was like,
Speaker 1: this was a GIF. It was like I showed you
Speaker 1: a clip. Dude, want the whole? I don't. I do not,
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying I said it ap I get
Speaker 1: the lighting right, and I'm like and I always make
Speaker 1: sure like right when I like do my video, I
Speaker 1: give a little both. You know this is directed and
Speaker 1: edited by yours truly, and let's start eating busy now.
Speaker 1: You said not watching porn is liberating. What about it
Speaker 1: is liberating to it, like I'm using the space of
Speaker 1: not watching porn to be more in touch with myself sux,
Speaker 1: because I feel like me concentrating on something else a
Speaker 1: I have to substitute watching somebody else for like my
Speaker 1: own feeling. So I'm that chicken fun I'm that dude
Speaker 1: doing the fucking right like you because you want to
Speaker 1: get into it. I put myself as the director. So
Speaker 1: I watched gay porn. So but I've been watching a
Speaker 1: lot of trans faring lately. I don't know, they're just beautiful.
Speaker 1: I don't know. I've been watching a lot. I think
Speaker 1: I just really like dicks, so I do. I just
Speaker 1: really like fucking dicks, like even trans women. Like when
Speaker 1: I look up t S. I put big dick because
Speaker 1: maybe has some big old dicks. I just like dicks.
Speaker 1: Don't just saying some do something don't because of the hormones.
Speaker 1: I don't know what the hormone in. But oh my god,
Speaker 1: t s Paris, I love you. Rickaya too pretty on Instagram.
Speaker 1: That's her. She lived in Vegas. Fawn might even subscribe
Speaker 1: to her only fans, but her did go down to
Speaker 1: like her knee bro and she a burst Anyways, when
Speaker 1: I watched, because there's two dicks, I just imagine that
Speaker 1: I'm directing. So I don't imagine that i'm either one
Speaker 1: of the people, but I imagine that I'm telling them
Speaker 1: what to do. That's how I watched. Anybody doesn't know,
Speaker 1: I think I know. So I like to watch, like
Speaker 1: we all know, when I watch cocky cocky, and I
Speaker 1: always think about getting come on, oh you so you
Speaker 1: imagine yourself being the girl, and the second I'm done,
Speaker 1: I'll be like, so disrespectful. It's the so I like
Speaker 1: what she said, so I like how you're taking the liberation.
Speaker 1: Oh sorry, it's they they I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Okay, okay, alright,
Speaker 1: um it's the Pink Watch and the pink bands. I'm like,
Speaker 1: you know, they they're gonna stop doing that ship with babies.
Speaker 1: That's why they don't even do the pink and blue. Bro.
Speaker 1: I'n be honest with you. I do think babies have
Speaker 1: like baby parties, and babies should have made me do
Speaker 1: that with pink and blue. Yeah. Absolutely. When I go
Speaker 1: shopping and someone will show me something pink, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I don't want to you you say it all the time,
Speaker 1: I think it's the girly color blue is more. Yeah,
Speaker 1: um that some baby shit. We're fucked up, dude, I know.
Speaker 1: I mean society made us a swell okay, all right,
Speaker 1: So it makes you more liberated because now you don't
Speaker 1: have to imagine yourself in any scenario, in any part
Speaker 1: of So what do you think about when you're feeling
Speaker 1: about Sometimes I think about No, I stopped thinking about
Speaker 1: that too because I fucking hate most of the people
Speaker 1: that I've slept with it now, So I don't really
Speaker 1: want to think about giving my energy and ship, especially
Speaker 1: because my brain will like go to the parts of
Speaker 1: the relationship that like our arguments and ship like that
Speaker 1: motherfucker's So I'll think about like a fantasy. And my
Speaker 1: fantasy is I come home for a long day at work.
Speaker 1: Could my job be stuck in sometimes? Right? And I stink?
Speaker 1: I always think when I come up from work. So
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm so tired, I go to the house firefighter.
Speaker 1: Let's just add yeah, not that just be stinking and ship.
Speaker 1: I just be like in sewers and ship. Now, I
Speaker 1: just think because I work, and um, so you know,
Speaker 1: my partner opens up the door, right, and they're like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, you're home. You know what, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: run the shower for you. So they run the shower
Speaker 1: for me, right, And I'm so fucking tired sometimes I
Speaker 1: am this tired where I just I just stare at
Speaker 1: the shower and I'm like, funk, I gotta get in
Speaker 1: this ship. So they like get me in the shot
Speaker 1: and they wash me right, and I'm like, wow, I
Speaker 1: don't gotta do anything. Right. They washed me, they drive
Speaker 1: me off, and then they fucking lotioned me because you know,
Speaker 1: I'm black. I'm not trying to be ashy in this bit.
Speaker 1: You know, they lotioned the hole but even get between
Speaker 1: the toes, mad love, right, And then they dragged me
Speaker 1: to the bed. When I dragged me and up, but
Speaker 1: they walked me to the bed. And then they just start,
Speaker 1: you know, just taking care of me, you know, kissing
Speaker 1: me and you know, get eating the coochie and just
Speaker 1: taking care of me. Before I even get to penetration,
Speaker 1: I'm already done because it's just that nice to just like, oh,
Speaker 1: I can imagine these these wonderful you're a little Damni
Speaker 1: Moore and YouTube Oh absolutely, like I mean, I mean,
Speaker 1: people I don't like because I also like to like
Speaker 1: the people someone else my show that way, Like I
Speaker 1: used to not like the niggas. I was poking like
Speaker 1: it's not but they dick was good. Like it was
Speaker 1: just like but it was people that literally we had
Speaker 1: And that's the thing. Sexual chemistry is something that to
Speaker 1: me is hard to come by. So there would be
Speaker 1: people that we would eat each other up and have
Speaker 1: such good chemistry in the bedroom. And as soon as
Speaker 1: we were done what I don't want to hear you
Speaker 1: talk like we just alright, alright, guys, So I am
Speaker 1: going to announce one of our very new segments. Um,
Speaker 1: if you are a part of our Patreon community, you
Speaker 1: have already heard. It is called Black Sexcellence. And during
Speaker 1: this segment, which is new and we are going to
Speaker 1: add to every show, we're gonna give you guys some
Speaker 1: informational educational background on an either activists or just member
Speaker 1: of the community who has made strides in the sex
Speaker 1: revel Lucian or the LGI And Mandy was like, no, bit,
Speaker 1: we are not doing Lori Harvey. No. She was like,
Speaker 1: but it was her birthday, No, bro, Like, I mean
Speaker 1: to me that she's beautiful of course she's being talked about,
Speaker 1: but to me, nothing she's doing is excellence and she
Speaker 1: don't talk. I mean, I think it's all like chalked
Speaker 1: up to how you mix a match up, right, like
Speaker 1: we I think Black China is someone that definitely along
Speaker 1: the line we should talk about her strides, right Like,
Speaker 1: for one, we haven't seen like a stripper or someone
Speaker 1: ne No, I don't think she's doing ship that Black
Speaker 1: China is doing, do you I do? I mean whatever,
Speaker 1: we can go through their accolades, but I mean just
Speaker 1: saying like, I don't think we've seen somebody and Black
Speaker 1: China like Amber Roses mixed. She's light skin like Black
Speaker 1: China and came to funk up. I don't like that either,
Speaker 1: because we sit here on identify as black woman. So
Speaker 1: that just there's a lot of way because she's light skin.
Speaker 1: I don't know you could black China's recent picture. We
Speaker 1: know from China light skins too. You've seen in recent pictures.
Speaker 1: Shout out to a guy like talking about Rebel, who
Speaker 1: is one of our patrons who came up with this name,
Speaker 1: such a fire name for a segment. Yeah, so black
Speaker 1: Excellence for this week, we want to pay homage to
Speaker 1: A Bayard Rustin. He was born in nineteen twelve died
Speaker 1: in nineteen eighties seven. Rustin was an LGBTQ and civil
Speaker 1: rights activists, best known for being a key advisor to
Speaker 1: Reverend Martin Luther King, Jr. And y'all know, shout out
Speaker 1: we in January baby, that's who birthday eight is this
Speaker 1: weekend anyway. He organized the nineteen sixty three March on
Speaker 1: Washington and was awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom, the
Speaker 1: nation's highest civilian honor, in two thousand thirteen, for his
Speaker 1: activism in Governor Gavin Newsome pardon rust Rustin for his
Speaker 1: arrest in nineteen fifty three, when he was found having
Speaker 1: sex with two men in a parked car in Pasadena.
Speaker 1: Rustin served fifty days in l A County jail and
Speaker 1: had to register the sex offender. Jesus right for just
Speaker 1: having sex with two people. Ship we all do that,
Speaker 1: don't we? Which I'm offensive, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: And pardoning Rustin, Newsome noted how LGBTQ people were unjustly
Speaker 1: punished for their sexuality by US law enforcement at the
Speaker 1: time of Rustin's arrest. Imagine some time you put a
Speaker 1: pussy in your mouth. You knew you were breaking off insane.
Speaker 1: That's insane. You would have had life senses of jail.
Speaker 1: It's like cheating. You know how people like cheating for
Speaker 1: like getting caught. It's there. Wait, they don't know, but no,
Speaker 1: they don't want to get caught. They just know as
Speaker 1: a possibility. Niggas who cheat don't want to get caught.
Speaker 1: To be honest with you, I think there is something
Speaker 1: hot about knowing you can get caught, because knowing that
Speaker 1: you can get caught, but they don't want to get
Speaker 1: But cheating sex can be hotter, like when you're singleing
Speaker 1: you're fucking around. I'm sorry, I just really believe that,
Speaker 1: feeling like you gotta get caught. I think nigga's like
Speaker 1: this ship. I really do, because I just don't see
Speaker 1: why you do it. Like I was talking to a
Speaker 1: homegirl of mine who might be one of the most
Speaker 1: beautiful people. I don't know. I don't know her that well.
Speaker 1: I just know her from like on some Miami ship.
Speaker 1: She's bad as ship, and she just found out her
Speaker 1: man with cheating on her. And I'm not saying that women,
Speaker 1: Yes I am, they weren't as hot as her, and
Speaker 1: I was like, damn dog, just like random ship. He
Speaker 1: just be fucking bitches. He met at the store like
Speaker 1: she found all the ships in the computer, not even
Speaker 1: like some you know. I was out, I met someone,
Speaker 1: we had a connection. He just has the fuck and
Speaker 1: I was like this nigga must really want to get caught.
Speaker 1: I can't see like he must want you to catch them, bitch.
Speaker 1: I'm really also thinking about if it matters at all
Speaker 1: if I think the person looks better or not better
Speaker 1: than me. Not a bitch, you're telling me if you're
Speaker 1: a man cheating on you would ugly, bitch, Mandy, you
Speaker 1: wouldn't be bad because I'd be mad and be like
Speaker 1: you did me like that. Well, we all know that
Speaker 1: everyone has different views of beauty. Okay, Well I'm saying
Speaker 1: if you and me, you better know this is my standard. Naked,
Speaker 1: don't be as trash you're you're how you look at
Speaker 1: this thing, ander the beauty like people, I'm allowed to
Speaker 1: judge my own person stand beauty and everyone like, just
Speaker 1: like you're allowed to judge your man when he do
Speaker 1: dumb ship. I'm allowed my man don't do nothing though, Okay,
Speaker 1: well perfect, sorry man, he got the perfect You can't
Speaker 1: relate rob you ever dated beauty like he's not doing.
Speaker 1: I think this also has to do with ship like, um,
Speaker 1: you know when people say like you dated down after somebody, right,
Speaker 1: Like it could either attribute a job or monetary like
Speaker 1: like look how people treated We just talked about Amber
Speaker 1: when she dated with Cleveland. They were like, well, he
Speaker 1: ain't this or he ain't that, Like he is everything
Speaker 1: to me, honey. So I don't know who was saying
Speaker 1: he's a popping like rapper, he's attractive, Like how did
Speaker 1: she like date? Like what are you wanting to about? Drink?
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, like, I don't know, but see into me.
Speaker 1: I would like a whiz over a jury and I
Speaker 1: heard that he got a third live bit. I would
Speaker 1: like a wizard Drake. But that's what I'm saying. So
Speaker 1: I don't know. So I mean as far as level
Speaker 1: of Kanye, you got Drake, jay Z, Kanye Kanye cute
Speaker 1: to me, not cute. I'm just talking about status, right, Yeah,
Speaker 1: would you agree with that? Who's up there with Like, wait,
Speaker 1: is that the order Drake? It's just just like the group,
Speaker 1: but they all copion. I think it's jay Z then Kanye,
Speaker 1: then Drake Okay, okay, Kanye. I was very concerned about
Speaker 1: the order before whatever we're supposed to do you want
Speaker 1: me to like get as good as I had, Like, wiz,
Speaker 1: ain't it? Like? Who can I after Kanye ship? Maybe
Speaker 1: nas I ain't gonna here when I heard about that one,
Speaker 1: but let's go. Yeah yeah, keep going. So we wanted
Speaker 1: to get into ship awkward all right, Today's horrible just
Speaker 1: vision for this week is love a A Love addicts Anonymous.
Speaker 1: I don't know if we've ever discussed this, but it
Speaker 1: was interesting to me when I was talking to in
Speaker 1: the Uprising on their Instagram about like what to talk
Speaker 1: to Rob about today, because I had actually looked into
Speaker 1: this before when I broke up with lover Boy, which
Speaker 1: was what two years ago on this podcast, I was like, dude,
Speaker 1: I gotta meet somebody else. I gotta meet somebody else.
Speaker 1: I was like swiping like crazy, like I was getting
Speaker 1: carpetson from swiping boat, and I really felt like I
Speaker 1: couldn't just fuck because it wouldn't make me feel good enough,
Speaker 1: Like I have to feel like someone likes me. I
Speaker 1: need to feel loved, Like why do I want that feeling? Again.
Speaker 1: I kept chasing that feeling and started looking into a
Speaker 1: love addict, like meeting and Ship in New York. They
Speaker 1: were I honestly, I knew I went too far. I
Speaker 1: was like, let me just go to a A and
Speaker 1: like just blending, huh, this is a this is in
Speaker 1: New York, this is lover's addict, love addic what what?
Speaker 1: What do you? What's the acrono? Love addicts anonymous and
Speaker 1: I l A. Yeah, you can look up. You could
Speaker 1: look up love addiction, my bad love addiction. It's not anonymous.
Speaker 1: I haven't you have to take because some of these
Speaker 1: questions to me are so regular. For example, some of
Speaker 1: the questions were, was there ever a point that you
Speaker 1: wish you could stop or control your sexual or romantic
Speaker 1: activities for a given period of time? Who the fund
Speaker 1: hasn't felt like that, Like, you know, you gotta stop
Speaker 1: being a whole at some point. Everybody think about that.
Speaker 1: By the way, real quick, y'all. If you're interested in
Speaker 1: looking up it's s l A A sex and love
Speaker 1: addicts anonymous. Want to be grouped in with them? Niggat,
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I have feeling in my exactly that's
Speaker 1: why you're you're grouped in with the sex um. Do
Speaker 1: you feel desperate about your need for sexual attraction or
Speaker 1: future mate? Do you believe that someone can fix you?
Speaker 1: Have you ever felt that you were obligated or needed
Speaker 1: to have sex to feel better? Do you get high
Speaker 1: from sex? And do you crash? That actually is a
Speaker 1: really good one, I thought, because I've met someone who
Speaker 1: was like that, where she told me like, immediately after
Speaker 1: sex she felt bad about herself, but she needed to
Speaker 1: get there to feel good. It sounds like drugs. Um,
Speaker 1: let me see this one. Have you it's not funny.
Speaker 1: Have you had or do you have sex with someone
Speaker 1: who you don't know? Yes? Okay, but what is knowing someone?
Speaker 1: That's what I was thinking. What is knowing? Because if
Speaker 1: we say hi, I'll be like Rob cool one of
Speaker 1: five glancing. No. Seriously, Like, what what does it mean
Speaker 1: to know someone? I guess what it means to not know?
Speaker 1: Could be I met you at the club and I'm
Speaker 1: having sex with you at the club. Just you just
Speaker 1: need to leave. That happened, I mean not to me,
Speaker 1: but it happened not even at the sex club. The
Speaker 1: club you like. It's It's quite possible to meet somebody
Speaker 1: having attraction. I'm gonna have sex with you right there, right,
Speaker 1: that's some makes you don't know. You gotta talk to
Speaker 1: where a New York Hub party. I mean, I said,
Speaker 1: I don't choose that, but it is done. It's done.
Speaker 1: It is. I did eat some pussy after dream in
Speaker 1: Miami one time, but it was at the dinner. We
Speaker 1: left the clube, We went to the dinner and I
Speaker 1: ate a pussy at the dinner where in Miami where
Speaker 1: he and the bathroom? You know her we met. We
Speaker 1: was at the same table to night. That's not knowing
Speaker 1: somebody you were wondering. That's how you don't know her.
Speaker 1: Let's go back, ques, I said, they take it way
Speaker 1: too long in these corny pass Let me go eat
Speaker 1: some pussy when she was killing? What marked this ship
Speaker 1: for the clip? Monigger? No? No, what is the problems?
Speaker 1: You can put it in there? Okay? Does this sexual
Speaker 1: and romantic behavior affect your reputation? Well, hello, welcome to
Speaker 1: the YouTube and the audio. Yes it does. Now we're
Speaker 1: making money on the ship. I mean, isn't really that bad,
Speaker 1: not really alive unless you're in a romantic relationship. This
Speaker 1: one I thought was really good and when it got
Speaker 1: to the juice because a lot of us don't feel
Speaker 1: good unless we're with someone. It took me a long
Speaker 1: time to be good alone. You know, I didn't really
Speaker 1: understand how to feel like. I don't want to use
Speaker 1: the word worthy, because I've always felt good about myself,
Speaker 1: but something always felt like it was missing if I
Speaker 1: was alone. And to get to that point where you
Speaker 1: can be alone, like it takes a lot of fucking
Speaker 1: self searching, I think, like discovery, just like being able
Speaker 1: to take feedback and like criticisms and be like okay, no,
Speaker 1: like I see what's wrong. Like it took it took
Speaker 1: me a while, I'd say years to get to that point.
Speaker 1: And when I moved to New York, it started to
Speaker 1: happen after that breakup and I was like, Okay, fun
Speaker 1: makes getting money, I actually feel this way. And that
Speaker 1: was you know, for the last decade. But I would
Speaker 1: say it, but I didn't necessarily know if I get
Speaker 1: money from them, that's a mood you you feel in
Speaker 1: that order that then I get the money. What is
Speaker 1: what you discussed on Inner Uprising about what, like you know,
Speaker 1: knowing biology and something to do getting into science. I'm
Speaker 1: gonna check out here, it's not that big. So um,
Speaker 1: so we we did a whole episode called love Addiction.
Speaker 1: I don't know the whole episode name, but I'll give
Speaker 1: it to you so you put in the show notes.
Speaker 1: But it was basically about love addiction, the parallels between
Speaker 1: love addiction, sex addiction, and drug addiction, substance abuse, and
Speaker 1: how does that like, what does it look like? Right? Um?
Speaker 1: The most important factor in addiction is to know that
Speaker 1: it's something that affects your life, like, truly affects your life,
Speaker 1: not like just something that kind of you carry around
Speaker 1: like a burden, but something that affects your ability to
Speaker 1: like really function at the highest potential that you were
Speaker 1: functioning prior that you can possibly function like. It takes
Speaker 1: a toll on your social aspects, your physical aspects, your
Speaker 1: mental aspects, spiritual aspects. Like it's if to say that,
Speaker 1: let's say addiction, even if it's not a substance addiction,
Speaker 1: addiction is addiction, right, So if you're addicted to cocaine
Speaker 1: and you're addicted to sex, they don't. It's not like
Speaker 1: one addictions like bigger than the other. One is smaller
Speaker 1: than the other. Like addiction addiction, anything that really hinders
Speaker 1: you and holds you back in that way. But with addiction,
Speaker 1: you know, it's a reward system. You have that reinforcement.
Speaker 1: So if I do this thing and I feel good,
Speaker 1: If I do this thing again, I'll feel good. And
Speaker 1: you keep doing that until you kind of build those
Speaker 1: connections in your brain, because you know your brain is
Speaker 1: always forming connections, right, and you build those connections that
Speaker 1: become kind of like permanent. So the only way you
Speaker 1: can feel that feelings if you do that thing. So
Speaker 1: the only way I can feel good about myself if
Speaker 1: I if I do that thing, which is have sex
Speaker 1: or start a relationship or just start entertaining some fucking
Speaker 1: piece of ship, like you know, something that involves another person.
Speaker 1: It doesn't necessarily just involve you. I'm gonna be real.
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to be funny. I might be addicted
Speaker 1: to the club dog. And that's why you went Willie's. Dude.
Speaker 1: I moved to him when it was still like it
Speaker 1: was just beach and chilling, like remember she wasn't open
Speaker 1: till the summer when I left. But like, no, when
Speaker 1: I am at my lowest lows, like and I'm just
Speaker 1: thinking of like when the world was open, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I gotta go have a drink. I gotta And it
Speaker 1: wouldn't always be like getting wasted. I just needed to
Speaker 1: be around people like I needed to be around people.
Speaker 1: I needed to have that vibe and not the club
Speaker 1: per se. When I say club, I'm actually far as
Speaker 1: far as and ship I had to do that, I'd
Speaker 1: be like, I'll be all right. And I remember thinking
Speaker 1: like I had a really bad argument and I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm gonna be single after to the bar,
Speaker 1: Like what am I gonna do without the bar? Like
Speaker 1: I was really bugging the funk out, dude, And I
Speaker 1: was like, why are you like living in the middle
Speaker 1: of all the bars? Like the part I love being
Speaker 1: around people, like I love seeing people. That's why I
Speaker 1: love New York so much. I love getting energy from people,
Speaker 1: getting inspired by people like That's why I love podcasting,
Speaker 1: you know, like, no matter who would be with you,
Speaker 1: and if it's a guest, like I love sucking that
Speaker 1: up because it's exciting for me, like the social interactions
Speaker 1: and I think it's that only child shit help me
Speaker 1: look at my brain. I mean, I need my alone time.
Speaker 1: That's why even with my nigga now like moving in
Speaker 1: will never be a conversation. I am so content with
Speaker 1: having like my space now, like my own space. No roommate, no,
Speaker 1: none of that, like never ever, ever, ever, ever ever ever. Um,
Speaker 1: it's crazy because I'm hearing like how you're defining addiction,
Speaker 1: and I mean, I will say I feel like maybe
Speaker 1: at some point sex was an addiction, because I think
Speaker 1: that that's when sometimes I'll be like I'm miserable or
Speaker 1: I'm cranky, and even my mama was like, you need
Speaker 1: some dick, like it gets to that. But but rob,
Speaker 1: I feel like we all know we need to get fucked.
Speaker 1: But that's not addiction affect your mood. I mean, then
Speaker 1: you would have to look further into it, right, because
Speaker 1: it might not necessarily just be like the sex, Like
Speaker 1: you might just really have wanted to be like with
Speaker 1: the person, right, But one way to be with the person,
Speaker 1: especially somebody who it's like I don't really have any
Speaker 1: other way to pull them into my house, but to
Speaker 1: say you want to fuck, right, I can't just be like, hey,
Speaker 1: you want to come up and talk they're and be
Speaker 1: like no, not really okay, but you want to have sense?
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, this masturbation too, right. I believe it is because,
Speaker 1: like when I was watching a True Life on MTV,
Speaker 1: which by the way, I think that's hands down on
Speaker 1: MTV's best shows they've ever done, and I'm like, don't
Speaker 1: want people shooting up. I was like, just a fucking
Speaker 1: America that she was so good. Anyway, they had a
Speaker 1: man who was like, I had to change my password
Speaker 1: to my computer to my son's name, so or something
Speaker 1: like that. He said, so I wouldn't look at porn.
Speaker 1: He was like, I don't even know his name. I
Speaker 1: don't even think about it anymore. It's like my fingers
Speaker 1: just go. Like he tried everything to stop himself from
Speaker 1: going porn sites because of its sex addiction. So I
Speaker 1: think maybe sex edition is like, yeah, maybe it may
Speaker 1: be all encompassed porn. I mean it's it's sex. Masturbation
Speaker 1: is still sex and pornography. I mean that's more of
Speaker 1: black a material kind of thing. But if you're doing
Speaker 1: it in they masturbating like you dick, this mashmating and porn.
Speaker 1: I don't know. Expert episode about love, but what about that?
Speaker 1: You know? But it's but as far as love goes,
Speaker 1: when dating with a love addiction, do you think that
Speaker 1: you should tell somebody kind of like if I was
Speaker 1: addicted to alcohol or drugs, I think that it would
Speaker 1: be important to let my partner know. Would you suggest
Speaker 1: that people should tell their partners they have a love addiction.
Speaker 1: I would suggest that you go to a therapist first,
Speaker 1: say that, because I wouldn't. I wouldn't say I wouldn't
Speaker 1: self diagnosed myself right with something like that, because it's
Speaker 1: it's very heavy and it deserves actual treatment. So just
Speaker 1: to simply say, I think I have a love addiction
Speaker 1: and I'm just going to sit in this and it
Speaker 1: didn't let all of my partners know that I just
Speaker 1: had to love. But this is just this is just
Speaker 1: the thing that I am. And then that's said. You know,
Speaker 1: that's that's a lot right good explanation. It's very like,
Speaker 1: take me as I am. But that's some rude ship
Speaker 1: because that's that's because you know, it's not like you
Speaker 1: shouldn't treat it like it's not something to be treated. No,
Speaker 1: it's because it's cracking coking. And if it's it's cracking coking,
Speaker 1: might want to you know, don't care of that because
Speaker 1: it's not like it's something that you're not aware of
Speaker 1: because even if you're not aware of it, somebody A
Speaker 1: lot of times, if you have people in your life.
Speaker 1: Not everybody does, but if you have people in your life,
Speaker 1: somebody's gonna make you away of that ship. Like if
Speaker 1: you have a drinking problem, if you have people that
Speaker 1: care about you, somebody's gonna say, hey, motherfucker, you are
Speaker 1: a while for respect right now you might want to
Speaker 1: calm that ship down. Somebody's gonna make you aware. Then
Speaker 1: you do what you want to do with that information,
Speaker 1: whether it's ignore it, whether it's actually give it attention
Speaker 1: and try to do something about it. But to like
Speaker 1: go into relationship and say, hey, I have a love addiction,
Speaker 1: but I want to love you. I'm out. I want
Speaker 1: to know because now that's on me. You're putting that
Speaker 1: burden on me to try to maneuver around it. And
Speaker 1: it's like, is it is it your addiction to just
Speaker 1: wanting to be loved or you actually want to be
Speaker 1: giving me PTSD from niggas that let me know they
Speaker 1: were holes. You know what I'm saying when they'd be like, yo,
Speaker 1: I just got this problem. I just you know, I mean,
Speaker 1: I love you, but I'll be working other business, you'd
Speaker 1: be like, so I do have to put off for that.
Speaker 1: But you know that's I really like what you said,
Speaker 1: because we have there's a fine line between being proud
Speaker 1: of who you are and being like, this is who
Speaker 1: I am taking or leave it, but also needing to
Speaker 1: understand that some of the things that you have that
Speaker 1: encompass your who you are are little, especially when they
Speaker 1: could be a burden on somebody else. Yeah. I like that,
Speaker 1: I mean, especially considering that I definitely think I went
Speaker 1: through love addiction phase. Do you think or anyone think
Speaker 1: they've ever been through a like I know you said,
Speaker 1: even through a sex addiction phase maybe yeah, where I thought, yeah,
Speaker 1: like I mean, but again it just affected my mood,
Speaker 1: like if I want to dick, but I was still
Speaker 1: very picky on who I was getting dick from. So
Speaker 1: it's it was not don't like a crackheads picky about
Speaker 1: who they and see that's what I'm saying. We had
Speaker 1: a sex at it came h He did come on
Speaker 1: the show and he shared how he just needed sex
Speaker 1: from and he didn't care who he got sex from.
Speaker 1: This so like, I don't like and hearing her explain,
Speaker 1: hearing they explain it. I don't believe that I had
Speaker 1: the addiction. It did just affect like my mood, and
Speaker 1: I guess I was still able to like go about
Speaker 1: my day as normal. I would just be in a
Speaker 1: funk if I felt like I needed to release and masturbation.
Speaker 1: Masturbating never did it. So even when you mentioned, um,
Speaker 1: just maybe having a person to lay with, to cuddle with,
Speaker 1: just to be in the company of another person in
Speaker 1: that kind of close like space. Yeah, because even my
Speaker 1: friends hated, Like I'd be trying to cuddle with all
Speaker 1: my friends. They'd be like, bitch, give me my space,
Speaker 1: like the ones I don't fuck. They'd be like, I
Speaker 1: don't want to cuddle with you. I love cuddling. I'd
Speaker 1: be like, come here and we'll be laid up like
Speaker 1: time for Netflix and little with my friends kind of
Speaker 1: associate that closeness with I lay on Vinnie, but like
Speaker 1: it's a very minimal like maybe a leg, Oh no,
Speaker 1: my leg is over my friends, Like I love cuddling
Speaker 1: with my friends. When you were talking about spooning with
Speaker 1: friends that you don't fu, Yeah, that I don't fun.
Speaker 1: That's so crazy to me. Yeah, if I that is,
Speaker 1: I mean I've done that, but you did you feel
Speaker 1: something though I feel I feel I felt. I just
Speaker 1: I didn't like it. I was like, you're thinking about
Speaker 1: I don't want you to they know if I want
Speaker 1: to suck. But I think it also comes from and
Speaker 1: I shared on this show. For many years, I was
Speaker 1: having sex without the intimacy. So for many years I
Speaker 1: just didn't get I wasn't kissing niggas, I wasn't really
Speaker 1: cuddling after. I was leaving after or they were leaving after.
Speaker 1: So I think it just became you know that I
Speaker 1: really love my friends, and I put my friends in
Speaker 1: the highest seem almost about family, and so yeah, in
Speaker 1: terms of love, like I love them, so you're gonna
Speaker 1: give me these cuddles, bit you're gonna give me these
Speaker 1: I had this. I found this cool article. It was
Speaker 1: for Vanilla Ship, but I wanted to put it in here.
Speaker 1: Sexual and emotional anorexia, y'all ever heard this? No? You
Speaker 1: know what, if we're to compare it to attachment theory,
Speaker 1: it's the avoidance style rather than the anxious one. It's
Speaker 1: a type of disorder that people have running from sex
Speaker 1: and or relationships rather than run towards them. Um So,
Speaker 1: sexual and emotional intorexia can manifest as the usage of
Speaker 1: porn instead of real partners, the fear and avoidance of sex,
Speaker 1: the fear of intimacy, vulnerability, shame around your own sexual
Speaker 1: drive and preferences, the harsh judgment of other people's sex drive,
Speaker 1: always waiting for quote unquote the one the perfect person,
Speaker 1: and compartmentalizing people into sex or relationship categories. And I
Speaker 1: thought this was interesting because they say the root a
Speaker 1: lot of this ship is from love of addiction sounds
Speaker 1: more like self sabotage. I mean for sure, it's like
Speaker 1: the world is so wild, and how we find words
Speaker 1: for everything, everything, and then we find multiple words. It
Speaker 1: was the Netflix show where curse words came from. That
Speaker 1: was it was funny. It was funny, but yeah, like
Speaker 1: literally because to me, this doesn't I think the antorexia
Speaker 1: threw me off if sucking threw me off too. But
Speaker 1: this is from sex love addicts anonymous. So they basically
Speaker 1: say this is a characteristic of sexual and emotional antorexia
Speaker 1: as outlined by them, this is where it comes from.
Speaker 1: Having few healthy boundaries. We become sexually repulsed and or
Speaker 1: emotionally threatened by people without even knowing them fearing emotional
Speaker 1: and sexual nurturing. Um, we over idealize love and sex
Speaker 1: so conversely that we confuse love and sex with physical
Speaker 1: and sexual shame, like we're confused about what it means
Speaker 1: or the need to be rescued things like that, and
Speaker 1: we are deeply anxious and insecure, but may cover those
Speaker 1: feelings of stress and guilt and envy with the persona
Speaker 1: of independence and self sufficiency, which is the funk niggas
Speaker 1: get money ship. We can be feeling like, okay, you
Speaker 1: know what, like maybe I haven't found someone, isn't me whatever,
Speaker 1: you know what, funk niggas like I'm doing this, Like
Speaker 1: I think that is a great one because under all
Speaker 1: of that, it may not be Like I don't think
Speaker 1: I'm at that place now. I think you are in
Speaker 1: the place now right like when you're starting to grow
Speaker 1: and getting to know yourself. But at one point in
Speaker 1: my life absolutely I was like overly independent because it
Speaker 1: made me feel better. Like saying that, well, not only that,
Speaker 1: I think I've said it too. Um, the funk niggas
Speaker 1: get money, not not foot niggas and make them give
Speaker 1: you money. But the funk niggas get money. Mantra to me,
Speaker 1: comes from when you don't feel like you're in a
Speaker 1: place where you're happy. So to me, that's where I
Speaker 1: feel like for the past decade, um, I was focusing
Speaker 1: on my financial state, getting an education, and being happy
Speaker 1: with who I was as a person, and so a
Speaker 1: part of it was, yeah, I'm still gonna get this nut,
Speaker 1: but I'm not at a place where I really want
Speaker 1: to be a partner to somebody or I want to
Speaker 1: be in a relationship, but I still need a nut
Speaker 1: because which I like sex and that you know, I'll
Speaker 1: be cranky if I don't have it. So I think
Speaker 1: that comes from, you know, get your ship, but also
Speaker 1: really get your ship and get your ship together. More
Speaker 1: than anything. I don't know that the podcast it we're
Speaker 1: just trying to sound smart because apparently we sound dumb.
Speaker 1: So the beginning, I say dumb with love Bro, I
Speaker 1: mean like we'll be doing dumb sh it's silly words,
Speaker 1: mean things, wheezy, okay, such am all right. I picked
Speaker 1: this whole mail for a future episode where we have
Speaker 1: to do this because it really made me think of
Speaker 1: a rob story. Here we oh ship, So send your
Speaker 1: whole mail to horrible desistence now rit now was me
Speaker 1: just kidding because keeping anonymous? They said him Mandy and wheezy.
Speaker 1: I love y'all. I've been listening for almost three years,
Speaker 1: so when I recently started having the best sex of
Speaker 1: my life, this story I naturally thought of before. Sorry.
Speaker 1: The man's dick is perfect all caps. We've been dating
Speaker 1: for three months months, he brings out aside of me
Speaker 1: that sexually I didn't know I had. Yes, I actually
Speaker 1: had a seizure on the dick. We were fucking in
Speaker 1: the mirror high off mushroom chocolates when I collapse and convulsed.
Speaker 1: When I came, it felt so euphoric, but he was scared.
Speaker 1: Another time that stands out was when I was writing
Speaker 1: and he was using my vibrator on my clip asked
Speaker 1: if he could fit it inside of my pussy with
Speaker 1: his dick. It was a small bullet, so we tried it.
Speaker 1: It was amazing, but it got stuck. I had to
Speaker 1: lay on my back dude keegels until it finally came
Speaker 1: out right. I don't know where this is going. I
Speaker 1: could go on about our sex, but I'm writing to
Speaker 1: you because I don't know what to do about his
Speaker 1: best friend, his best friend is also his roommate, and
Speaker 1: if they haven't fucked already, I know that if they
Speaker 1: did they would be with love it. They both identify
Speaker 1: a straight, but the energy is just there. His friend
Speaker 1: is really hot too, and I've been happily fantasizing about
Speaker 1: an m m F three, So with them, how would
Speaker 1: I go about initiating this. I don't know if I
Speaker 1: should or if I should just leave it in my
Speaker 1: mind as a daydream dream because plot twist, his best
Speaker 1: friend is dating my little sister and she could absolutely
Speaker 1: never find out. Do I leave it alone? Do I
Speaker 1: wait until maybe his friend and my sister break up.
Speaker 1: Do I bring it up to my man. I feel
Speaker 1: like it would be so chaotic, But I also think
Speaker 1: would be so hot to watch my man's best friend
Speaker 1: give him head. Please help me start through this toxic
Speaker 1: the one who dates my sister. That's where that's where
Speaker 1: I lost. It was all good until that ship. And
Speaker 1: I want to tell you something, which one I don't know.
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for your fucking goddamn service to
Speaker 1: this show. This is what I'm talking about, This is
Speaker 1: what you're talking about. This is how we got on
Speaker 1: the Black Effect Network, right, here, you and your man
Speaker 1: and his best friend and suck your sister. This is
Speaker 1: what I'm to Mandy Weezy Springers, thank you anyway, this
Speaker 1: is this is not it Mega, I don't know, maga
Speaker 1: fuck this is her sister's boyfriend who she said, both
Speaker 1: of them identifying straight. So you just think it's okay.
Speaker 1: She was like, energy is there? Let me tell you something.
Speaker 1: Bit the way that man investing you're doing, this is
Speaker 1: what you gotta do. This is how I started getting
Speaker 1: money in the show. She all getting oh god, so much.
Speaker 1: It's so fucked up. But like what does she got
Speaker 1: to lose? What she has, her sisters, what her man
Speaker 1: to lose? All right, let me go from there's there's
Speaker 1: a lot of that's a lot of factors, you know.
Speaker 1: Shout out to you for admitting that ship was toxic,
Speaker 1: was well toxic, saying what it needs to say in
Speaker 1: your head and in our email inbox, and know where
Speaker 1: the fun of that ship. That is good material. And
Speaker 1: that's all I'm asking. A matter of fact, if you've
Speaker 1: got a family, phollow everybody in it, that's that's disgusted.
Speaker 1: You want to know. My email is the Wheezy WC
Speaker 1: aftert gmail dot com. You're not. You should have so
Speaker 1: fun lest somebody explicitly begins to give you some kind
Speaker 1: of consent to do these things. And even then, like,
Speaker 1: I don't know if that's a talk that you, oddly
Speaker 1: enough might have to have with your fucking sister. I
Speaker 1: mean I would never ding. Okay, wait a second, because
Speaker 1: maybe her and her sister are like the Claremont twins,
Speaker 1: So let's talk. So let's figure this out. I think
Speaker 1: the first thing you should do is talk to your sister.
Speaker 1: Ye see if you know, she might be like you,
Speaker 1: I don't give a phone. You know, maybe we don't know.
Speaker 1: So let's if we're, you know, paying homage to the holes.
Speaker 1: They're right into the show. We don't know what type
Speaker 1: of upbringing the gut they might be like the Claremont
Speaker 1: She's like sexcellence right now. So that's an imagination. Jesus Christ.
Speaker 1: So uh, I would say, the first person you need
Speaker 1: to ask is not your boyfriend, is not his best friend,
Speaker 1: But you need to talk about this with your sisters.
Speaker 1: Right then, if the sister be like, actually, yeah, I'll
Speaker 1: give you to go for that because you're my sister
Speaker 1: and I love you. And if this is what's gonna
Speaker 1: make you happy. I want my sister to be happy.
Speaker 1: If you'll get the blessings from your sister, then I
Speaker 1: don't advice obviously, bitch, don't do it but the first
Speaker 1: So if you get the blessing from your sister, then
Speaker 1: I think maybe you need to go ahead. And then
Speaker 1: I'm trying to think it should be the sister's boyfriend.
Speaker 1: You gotta talk to your man and then be like, yo,
Speaker 1: how close are you and Novadius? You know what I mean? Um,
Speaker 1: and just find out if they is close to what
Speaker 1: it might be like Okay, cool, Like I don't want
Speaker 1: to have sex with my roommate, but I don't mind
Speaker 1: that supposed to having sex with you because that doesn't
Speaker 1: make me quick, doesn't There's nothing rob This email was
Speaker 1: dick so good. I had a seizure. Bitch, you need
Speaker 1: to do right. You need to write something. She gave
Speaker 1: us that ship anyway came out of nowhere. This is
Speaker 1: just so fabulous, Like I can't believe how I think
Speaker 1: actually needs to work on her journalist skills because she
Speaker 1: could have had a way better hot topic headline than
Speaker 1: because but either she should have just said I want
Speaker 1: to fuck headline. I want to fuck my boyfriend's roommates,
Speaker 1: sister boyfriend. No, my sister, my sister's boyfriend, boyfriend. It's
Speaker 1: too much, too many characters. They're gonna work out. So really,
Speaker 1: what you did, I'm telling you she won. But see
Speaker 1: where you're going with this, But talking to the sister, No,
Speaker 1: that's sick. You can't do this. But we're out here
Speaker 1: trying to promote healthy communication and the same we don't.
Speaker 1: We don't know their relationships, thank you right, they might
Speaker 1: even be judging right now. They might be best it
Speaker 1: look we all know. We don't count them the ship.
Speaker 1: They're like, they're like friends, they're like just because their
Speaker 1: parents wanted to fund. I think you just want to
Speaker 1: MMF threesome. I think you want to watch your man
Speaker 1: get his dick sucks sucked dick, And I think that,
Speaker 1: And I think the roommate just happened to be fine
Speaker 1: and they're around each other, so you're seeing it happen.
Speaker 1: But like, no, you're a chipping you're fucking insane. But like,
Speaker 1: I really like this um her name, I'm weak. I
Speaker 1: feel like it's that anonymous that what I'm saying, I'm
Speaker 1: showing you guys, I think this is a black name
Speaker 1: the last name. Can you not do that? Not a
Speaker 1: black name? Bro? No, I'm trying to figure out because
Speaker 1: if this is white people ship, I want her to
Speaker 1: come on the show. Why because I don't want to
Speaker 1: make us like this nuts. You look nuts with everything
Speaker 1: you just said over the last ten minute. You you
Speaker 1: like Renig, but it was after you went like after
Speaker 1: she went love this because like I have this thing
Speaker 1: that goes on in my head, like there's this comedy
Speaker 1: ship and in prom school that you have a straight
Speaker 1: man and crazy man like that you can play like
Speaker 1: right when you're watching someone who's how do you go
Speaker 1: from straight and crazy? Biden? They used the word straight
Speaker 1: as like um on the straight and narrow, like at
Speaker 1: the term right, like like someone's not tripping. We played
Speaker 1: that skin in our short film right. I was like,
Speaker 1: let's have dicks on stage. You're like, no, let's be educational.
Speaker 1: That's a straight man crazy man skin. So you're crazy
Speaker 1: and I'm the clear head. No, I think I do both.
Speaker 1: I just did bo. You don't think so, No, you're
Speaker 1: just crazy? All right? Well fuck your sister's boyfriend that
Speaker 1: lives next day to me I don't know. I think
Speaker 1: that you just need to get M M F threesome going.
Speaker 1: I think that that's the main uh fantasy that she has.
Speaker 1: And so if that is the main fantasy. Again, just
Speaker 1: to wrap this up, I think that you should for
Speaker 1: sure have that conversation with your man to see if
Speaker 1: it is even an option to have with your man,
Speaker 1: because y'all can always find a thing going to join in,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, definitely, but he might not
Speaker 1: be he might not be comfortable, or he might be comfortable.
Speaker 1: Say I don't want to suth no, dick, and I
Speaker 1: don't want to go different different, And that's going to
Speaker 1: make sure. That's just like do not like for we're
Speaker 1: saying bye m M F threesome. And I feel the
Speaker 1: same way with men, by the way, like forcing the
Speaker 1: women there with it's not funny, pussy like, no, don't
Speaker 1: do that if he's on intimate it's is always key,
Speaker 1: especially in something Look how wrapped up. Oh yeah, I'm
Speaker 1: glad we warned up because I know how I was
Speaker 1: talking to the beginning. I was like, oh, they hate me.
Speaker 1: I was like, look, fuck, don't do that, don't do that.
Speaker 1: Don't But again, the same way Like if somebody came
Speaker 1: in and was calling her Wezzy the whole time, I
Speaker 1: would be like, bro, it ain't Wezzy, it's wheezy. You
Speaker 1: know what we people smell your name, pronoun what you
Speaker 1: kept saying the entire You just have to say you
Speaker 1: if you're getting lost and him, yeah, I don't know,
Speaker 1: I say you. Yeah. But but even them, but you
Speaker 1: is when you're directly speaking to them. If I'm speaking
Speaker 1: to you about them, it's different. I'm just like Robin
Speaker 1: right here, but I know, but but I'm I'm I'm
Speaker 1: speaking to the both of you, and so if I'm
Speaker 1: not directing to just them, then it's just like I
Speaker 1: can't just say you when I'm talking to you, brot
Speaker 1: when I'm speaking like I had a colleague of mine
Speaker 1: at my last job that only wanted to be referred
Speaker 1: to as day them, so I got a little bit
Speaker 1: better at it, but I was sucking up. Oh, I
Speaker 1: sucked up this whole show, and they're gonna read me like, yeah,
Speaker 1: it's supposed to be professional. Y're supposed we experst in
Speaker 1: this hash. She's sucking up really bad. But it's because
Speaker 1: the transition happened while I was working with them. Oh,
Speaker 1: I remember sharing that story. But I do want to
Speaker 1: say to that is why like and we have we've
Speaker 1: done our best with just educating ourselves, but you are
Speaker 1: our first guests that strictly identifies as them they, And
Speaker 1: so I do apologize if I offended you at any
Speaker 1: point if anyone's listening, Uh, definitely, Maybe I just need
Speaker 1: to think before I talk a little bit more and
Speaker 1: slow down, because then I mean, you would have you know,
Speaker 1: it's okay to mess up, like we're human. Um, you
Speaker 1: you you probably mess up more than you even realize.
Speaker 1: Just talking to like people who are says like you
Speaker 1: might say, she might say he were talking about somebody else,
Speaker 1: because you're just you're human. Your brain moves faster than
Speaker 1: your lips through sometimes. But it's a matter of when
Speaker 1: you mess up, when you realize you're just correct and
Speaker 1: just keep going like to make the spectacle of it,
Speaker 1: or I'm so sorry that it's like now you put
Speaker 1: the burden on me to have to comfort you, like no, no, no,
Speaker 1: it's okay. I don't want to because like it's not okay,
Speaker 1: And I also don't want to. I don't want any
Speaker 1: of your burden, Like just like you know, any other
Speaker 1: correction like just they interesting, just keep you never thought
Speaker 1: of that, Like we overapologize to have someone understand how
Speaker 1: sorry we are. But it's like god damn, not even
Speaker 1: making me feel like I don't I don't want that,
Speaker 1: but to me, it is all. It is almost like
Speaker 1: the overapology, and I want you to understand as well,
Speaker 1: coming from someone who doesn't want to offend you or
Speaker 1: feel like we're disrespecting you. Also to maybe not apologize.
Speaker 1: I also don't want to come across like well, I
Speaker 1: don't care how you want to be addressed the same
Speaker 1: way like if someone keeps correcting me on their name. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't want to also make you feel like I'm
Speaker 1: dismissive of of you, you know, just the my bad
Speaker 1: they proceeding well, I'm also it's just it can be.
Speaker 1: It can be a lot, because you know how you
Speaker 1: were saying, like oh, you know, it's frustrating because you
Speaker 1: get confirmed. But it's frustrating for me because I have
Speaker 1: to hear a seven even if it's not for you,
Speaker 1: like okay, cool, you guys, you're not my employees, Like
Speaker 1: I don't I can say anything obviously, I'm telling my
Speaker 1: fucking business. But I work with white men almost exclusively,
Speaker 1: and both of my careers I work with white men.
Speaker 1: I'm not coming out to them because suck them. I
Speaker 1: don't feel like it. So I'm she, I'm her, I'm
Speaker 1: a woman, and that's just it is what it is,
Speaker 1: and it's something that I just have to go through
Speaker 1: the rest of my life, the rest of my career,
Speaker 1: just kind of accepting that. So that is I'm not
Speaker 1: open and I'm not free in my workplace where I
Speaker 1: spent fucking I spent twenty four hours at work. I
Speaker 1: just got off last night. I'm tired of ship and
Speaker 1: that's just my reality. So when I come and I'm
Speaker 1: experiencing the world with queer people, with black people, with
Speaker 1: black women, like this is my safe space? Do you
Speaker 1: I know we're about to rap, but I really I'm
Speaker 1: curious if you could share a story with us where
Speaker 1: someone told you they wouldn't so maybe even closely, maybe
Speaker 1: family member. Has anyone been so reluctant to it that
Speaker 1: you were like what the fuck? Um? So real fast
Speaker 1: and I have two stories. Um. First story was my ex.
Speaker 1: I've known him for now, um almost fifteen years. We
Speaker 1: dated a few years ago for like a year, and
Speaker 1: so he's known me like he was like my first kiss.
Speaker 1: It was like one of my best friends. So when
Speaker 1: I finally like, hey, this is who I am. I'm
Speaker 1: non binary, that is are my pronouns and he said, so,
Speaker 1: what the funk I'm dating What the funk? I'm sucking
Speaker 1: a tranny. And I was like, okay, there's like many
Speaker 1: levels of this right because now we're just sucking and
Speaker 1: now I'm a tranny. So it was like a lot
Speaker 1: of unpacking there. And I still dated him because I'm
Speaker 1: a dumb ass bitch and whatever it is, what it is,
Speaker 1: but you know that was super fucked up. Um you know,
Speaker 1: now several years later he's trying to be respective of
Speaker 1: my pronouns, um and be respective of my chosen name.
Speaker 1: But you know that was not fun. And then, um dam,
Speaker 1: I had a friend. I mean, we're still friends and
Speaker 1: he's a lot better now. But when I first says, hey,
Speaker 1: my name is Rob, he said, no, that's not your name.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna call you what i've been calling you because
Speaker 1: it's what i've been calling you. And I'm like, that's
Speaker 1: not how this works, because hey, he never called me
Speaker 1: by my first name. Anyway, he always called me by
Speaker 1: the name that I fucking gave him, So I'm like,
Speaker 1: why can't you call me by this name? What is
Speaker 1: the issue? But it's like some people feel um personal,
Speaker 1: like no, I've known you this way this whole time,
Speaker 1: Like I'm special. I've known you said you came out
Speaker 1: the womb, So why do I have to change? I
Speaker 1: understand all of them having to change, But why then
Speaker 1: do I gotta call you something? But it's like, that's
Speaker 1: my name. So when people ask me, oh, what's Rob
Speaker 1: short for short for Rob, why Robbed? I don't know.
Speaker 1: It's just my name. You can see my name on
Speaker 1: the paper. I don't go fun. My name is Rob,
Speaker 1: and that's what you're gonna call me. That's what they
Speaker 1: call me at work. Even though they don't know him Trance,
Speaker 1: they still call me Rob. They have no problems, no questions,
Speaker 1: they don't care. And that's why I expect from everybody
Speaker 1: else in the world. Even on my birthday and my
Speaker 1: cake said happy birthday, Robbed the God. My parents were there,
Speaker 1: We blew out the cans and everything. They took. Pictures
Speaker 1: of the cake were posted. They didn't give a fuck.
Speaker 1: I mean it's don't care because it's just it's a name.
Speaker 1: It's a name, it's an identities. These things I don't
Speaker 1: mean anything to you, know what, Rob, you just taught me.
Speaker 1: I met someone named Alex. I wish I could take
Speaker 1: it back now, but I was writing their name down.
Speaker 1: I was like, um, is it Alexandria? And I'm like
Speaker 1: I remember her looking at me like it's Alan And
Speaker 1: I was like okay. And I didn't even think in
Speaker 1: that moment, like oh my god, I'm such a fing
Speaker 1: I just had to make it like you had to
Speaker 1: make a whole name. I'm robbing. People call me Rob,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, where'd you get that from? If it's robbed,
Speaker 1: it must be short for something like no, it's not shure,
Speaker 1: if anything, because people might be feening too, Like I
Speaker 1: need to finish the story. This is a mystery. What
Speaker 1: did my name got to do with you? Maybe it's
Speaker 1: our brain, I mean, but don't don't get it twisted.
Speaker 1: Society over. I guess so good? Damn Yeah, yeah, all right,
Speaker 1: my guys, the society has Society has trained you to
Speaker 1: be this way. Society has given you these bioneers. It
Speaker 1: gave you these fucking colors, like society has taught you
Speaker 1: all these things. It taught you able ism and totally
Speaker 1: transfall fact fault be homophobi, racism, colorism, toucht theism like
Speaker 1: this is society's doing. It's just up to you to
Speaker 1: undo it. And it takes time, Like you can't unlearn everything,
Speaker 1: like at once you're gonna be un learned without your
Speaker 1: whole life. It's like, don't be too hard on yourself
Speaker 1: for not being perfect, because that's as the world wakes up.
Speaker 1: We are too every day. So I appreciate you saying
Speaker 1: and I'm glad we got school today. I learned a
Speaker 1: lot about I mean, especially this last part. I agree.
Speaker 1: I agree. Can you, um, as we wrap up, can
Speaker 1: you let our listeners know where they can find you
Speaker 1: social media and where they can listen to you? So
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Speaker 1: I also want to shout out before I give a
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Speaker 1: Do you have anything before we get out of here?
Speaker 1: No check out for fact sake, on Tuesday's what I
Speaker 1: mean Eddie gonna do. I think Eddie and I are
Speaker 1: doing billionaires this week, and I was like, let's talk
Speaker 1: about people. Get I'll let you do that. Give me
Speaker 1: a billionaire this. We just did chicken last week, and
Speaker 1: you know, he looks so nervous because I was like,
Speaker 1: we're gonna talk about why black people love chicken. He
Speaker 1: was like, you know he was going to the screen.
Speaker 1: I'm sure because he ain't black. Well, I wanted to
Speaker 1: dig into that ship. Did you know that? That's one.
Speaker 1: It's because there was a lot of chickens in the field.
Speaker 1: It was the easiest thing to give. But one of
Speaker 1: the reasons that like slave owners wanted to push that
Speaker 1: ship is bec as they find eating with hands barbaric,
Speaker 1: they want to watch that because, yeah, do you know
Speaker 1: how sick people are? So crazy? Sorry white people? All
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Speaker 1: And this has been yet another episode of horrible decisions
Speaker 1: to get into our Vanellusha. Because the crazy part about
Speaker 1: this is everyone assumes it to be a woman. So
Speaker 1: when you hear this, of course you're gonna think it's
Speaker 1: a woman. So this comes from the New York Post.
Speaker 1: A nurse was suspended after stripping off ppe to have
Speaker 1: sex with a COVID nineteen patience. Oh my god, I
Speaker 1: remember this. It was a gay dude, right, it was
Speaker 1: a dude, bro nurse. I'm just saying there, that's what
Speaker 1: we're doing. That's what we're doing. Maybe that is what
Speaker 1: he said beach and and honestly, to be fair, I
Speaker 1: told y'all my nigga fucked me in every hope possible
Speaker 1: while I had COVID and he maintained negative status. So
Speaker 1: I don't know how this works. Maybe you can't get
Speaker 1: it through sex. I don't know. A male nurse in
Speaker 1: Indonesia has been suspended after admitting that he stripped off
Speaker 1: his perse snow protective equipment to have sex in a
Speaker 1: toilet with a man infected with COVID nineteen. It is
Speaker 1: true that there has been a suspected incident of a
Speaker 1: same sex relationship between a health worker and a COVID
Speaker 1: nineteen patient at the Wisma Outlet Emergency Hospital. He said
Speaker 1: the nurse must follow legal processing the Indonesia. The Indonesia
Speaker 1: expat reported the incident in Jakarta came to light when
Speaker 1: the patient boasted about the romp on his Twitter account.
Speaker 1: All right now, so the motherfucking COVID patient decided to brag.
Speaker 1: This is that capital building ship. You could have just
Speaker 1: shut the up, could have just shut up, but it
Speaker 1: could have just not said nothing. But I ain't gonna
Speaker 1: hold you if you got COVID? Do you in a
Speaker 1: hospital I mean, to be fair, we talk about our
Speaker 1: sexual sescapades quite a bit. Would you mention that you've
Speaker 1: begged a fine as nurse or doctor and then he
Speaker 1: came at h a pussy while you had COVID? I
Speaker 1: think you and I would maybe brad about I would.
Speaker 1: I would, I would say that, but just maybe I
Speaker 1: wouldn't say um, oh damn. I guess I would say no.
Speaker 1: Let me say I probably wouldn't bring up the COVID
Speaker 1: part because then it's like, you look, no, but say
Speaker 1: you announced COVID and then you talk about when you
Speaker 1: got tested, how you have to maybe stay in the
Speaker 1: hospital and you had sex in the hospital. It's it's
Speaker 1: literally just oh, clearly you had sex in the hospital.
Speaker 1: Twitter like, can we interview them because they're fun well,
Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know. Do they speak well, yeah,
Speaker 1: Jacarta in Indonesia they pretty they do speak English. Oh
Speaker 1: if you watch De Fiancee Um, there's an Indonesian girl
Speaker 1: that comes and she moves to Wisconsin and she was like,
Speaker 1: this is very poor, Like I grew up very rich,
Speaker 1: and you know, they like have a really weird English
Speaker 1: because it's all the accents all come from who you
Speaker 1: learn English from like some people come down like you're like,
Speaker 1: what the funk? It's all how you learn English? Oh? Yes,
Speaker 1: this was like this it poor as fun, like they
Speaker 1: got bread in Jakarta. Oh yeah, no they do. It's
Speaker 1: crazy because when I was living in Singapore, all of
Speaker 1: the scammer Africans live in Jakarta. So like this, it's
Speaker 1: also mad Nigerians and Jakarta with maccarter, I'm Jakarta. But
Speaker 1: um we found that out because we met the niggas
Speaker 1: when we was in Bali and a bitch when I
Speaker 1: was in when I was in fucking Singapore, we we
Speaker 1: flew to Bali for seventy five dollars in my nigga,
Speaker 1: like when you get over there, telling cheap to fly.
Speaker 1: So we went to Bally for Christmas and that's where
Speaker 1: we met these Nigerians and they weren't able to come
Speaker 1: into Singapore because Singapore is very strict when it comes
Speaker 1: to Nigerian passport holders. And they was like, yo, Singapore
Speaker 1: don't let us in because they require like bank statements
Speaker 1: and ship and clearly they funds ain't legit my nigga.
Speaker 1: So these I'm not gonna say all Nigerian Nigerians, but Singapore.
Speaker 1: I'm just saying I want to clear that up because
Speaker 1: it's not all Nigerians with the scammers. Is the one
Speaker 1: that got a problem. I just wanted to tell you
Speaker 1: guys really quick. I just had a text come through
Speaker 1: it would love to read. Hi, Gela, I'm writing you
Speaker 1: on behalf of your conversation this morning with I won't
Speaker 1: say his name. I just wanted to apologize on the
Speaker 1: behalf of our company. Our production company has never faced
Speaker 1: something like this. We stand by our biopic, but by
Speaker 1: pH is in round and I would love to have
Speaker 1: a discussion regarding how our company would move forward. Please
Speaker 1: let me know when you're free today for a call again.
Speaker 1: Sincerest apologies, But I see I ain't even gonna hold
Speaker 1: you that email right there. Bothers me too, because that
Speaker 1: now they're making it seem like, oh, we want to
Speaker 1: make sure she doesn't claim that we're racist over here.
Speaker 1: Pretty good on Patre, I don't, yeah, but I don't
Speaker 1: understand like your need to point out the BIPOC part,
Speaker 1: like what is the BIPOC code? You know? And I
Speaker 1: probably because in my email I said something about it.
Speaker 1: I said, did the nobody else was black on the call, see,
Speaker 1: and That's what I'm talking about. Like so I just
Speaker 1: I just uh hie good sign. Let me tell you
Speaker 1: something that is really bringing up dude, Like I hate
Speaker 1: that ship.