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Speaker 1: Guess what decision We're about to make a horrible decisions.

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Speaker 1: What's up? What's up? Welcome to another episode of Hory Blade.

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Speaker 1: This is Hewns. I don't know why I'd be doing that,

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Speaker 1: but it's horrible decisions because I'll be trying to do

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Speaker 1: the looe. I don't know what accident is, but whatever. Uh,

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Speaker 1: this is your girl, Mandy V A k A. Debt bitch,

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Speaker 1: A k A. You know that's it. That's it. I'm

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Speaker 1: dropping Pitt the Stallion bitch. And I told you before

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Speaker 1: I'm dropping it again. So I'm just debt bitch. What's up?

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Speaker 1: You're dropping your strap? Where is it? It's in the closet.

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Speaker 1: It's in the closet. I am retiring the strap. I'm

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Speaker 1: not b ship what it is. I'm tiring it. Which

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Speaker 1: athlete came back to play a sport that was gone?

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Speaker 1: This is what we're gonna do. I don't know that man.

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Speaker 1: Michael Jordan's okay, well maybe you ain't know, Michael Jordan.

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Speaker 1: I didn't know if he went. You know too, he left,

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Speaker 1: took a break, went and play baseball, then came back

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Speaker 1: to basketball. So right now I'm playing baseball, bitch. Okay,

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Speaker 1: a bitch is playing baseball, but I may not return

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Speaker 1: to basketball, you know what I mean. I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I don't know. Man is old enough to wear like

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Speaker 1: right when he hits fifty, he'd be like you, you know, saying, Okay,

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Speaker 1: I only got three more years. So see you know,

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Speaker 1: I'll be playing baseball for three years then kind of

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Speaker 1: the rise. I'm wheezy. If you've never heard this show,

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Speaker 1: Peg is here, She's still here. It's it's it's she's

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Speaker 1: wearing a mask. Um, but we have somebody with us

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Speaker 1: from a very special podcast called Inner ho Uprising. I

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Speaker 1: remember when we first started our show. Um, we had

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Speaker 1: heard about it because there wasn't really another black sex

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Speaker 1: pod in New York right now, not at that time. No,

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Speaker 1: So definitely are O g s. I love in her

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Speaker 1: ho Uprising because I really feel like it's a tightened

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Speaker 1: up horrible decisions. What are the tightened up horrible decisions?

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Speaker 1: Even the way that they started, they put what we'll

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Speaker 1: be talking about. I didn't say all that because I mean,

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Speaker 1: but what I will say, can you what is the

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Speaker 1: tighter now? When you listen to next week? Okay, Well,

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Speaker 1: Rob doesn't do it like Sammy like looking at in

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Speaker 1: her Ho Uprising, where we are telling you about my pronouncer,

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Speaker 1: she Her, and we are back for It's like a

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Speaker 1: good newscasterree hole. You know what I'm saying a newscaster.

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Speaker 1: We'll be starting the show dumb, but I like, speak

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Speaker 1: for yourself. You'll be startling, start dumb. We ain't dumb, bitch,

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Speaker 1: This is an education. I didn't say weird dumb? Are

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Speaker 1: you saying we'll show be done? It ain't dune. Welcome

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Speaker 1: to horrible you know what I mean? We say horrible

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Speaker 1: decisions that introduce our sales in that see, let me

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Speaker 1: try to do it. You and she Her, I'm a

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Speaker 1: she her, Yeah, that's it? What what what we gotta say?

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Speaker 1: You know what? She eat coachy? Sometimes I do. We

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Speaker 1: both suck dick? Is that how we need to introduce? Hey, guys,

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Speaker 1: we suck dick in like pussy. What's up? I kind

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Speaker 1: of like that. That's pretty fun. Okay, So let's introduce

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Speaker 1: Rob So. Rob is one of the hosts on Inner

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Speaker 1: Ho Uprising. Rob, I haven't met you before, and I

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Speaker 1: didn't I know? Sam like kind of rotates co host.

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Speaker 1: Can you tell us about Inner Ho Uprising? How you

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Speaker 1: got your started on their So in Uprising, it's a

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Speaker 1: podcast about sex leven dating from the perspective of four

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Speaker 1: black queer feminists. Um, we are, yes, we're all very gay.

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Speaker 1: We're all very open, like, uh, A couple of them

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Speaker 1: are non monogamous. I am monogamous. Um that doesn't sound

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Speaker 1: Um capacity. Yeah, you know, my brain is a little smooth,

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Speaker 1: it's tired, so I don't want to get too crazy.

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Speaker 1: But yeah, we're more we're educational, but we're fun. And

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Speaker 1: choosing me, Rebecca and Akua so we could all be

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Speaker 1: we're all we're all doing it at different You could

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Speaker 1: just be the put your input in when needed. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: saying DEMI paint so first with the say them. That's

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Speaker 1: my gender identity, right, So I'm a non bindary person

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Speaker 1: I finished not conforming a big word because I mean,

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Speaker 1: I just do still want to make it very clear

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Speaker 1: So I thought we could walk through this because when

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Speaker 1: up because I've been saying pant okay, So hetero people

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Speaker 1: Bisexual people that are romantically and physically attracted to members

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Speaker 1: have already heard. It is called Black Sexcellence. And during

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Speaker 1: this segment, which is new and we are going to

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Speaker 1: add to every show, we're gonna give you guys some

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Speaker 1: informational educational background on an either activists or just member

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Speaker 1: of the community who has made strides in the sex

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Speaker 1: revel Lucian or the LGI And Mandy was like, no, bit,

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Speaker 1: we are not doing Lori Harvey. No. She was like,

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Speaker 1: but it was her birthday, No, bro, Like, I mean

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Speaker 1: to me that she's beautiful of course she's being talked about,

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Speaker 1: but to me, nothing she's doing is excellence and she

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Speaker 1: don't talk. I mean, I think it's all like chalked

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Speaker 1: up to how you mix a match up, right, like

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Speaker 1: we I think Black China is someone that definitely along

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Speaker 1: the line we should talk about her strides, right Like,

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Speaker 1: for one, we haven't seen like a stripper or someone

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Speaker 1: ne No, I don't think she's doing ship that Black

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Speaker 1: China is doing, do you I do? I mean whatever,

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Speaker 1: we can go through their accolades, but I mean just

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Speaker 1: saying like, I don't think we've seen somebody and Black

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Speaker 1: China like Amber Roses mixed. She's light skin like Black

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Speaker 1: China and came to funk up. I don't like that either,

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Speaker 1: because we sit here on identify as black woman. So

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Speaker 1: that just there's a lot of way because she's light skin.

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Speaker 1: I don't know you could black China's recent picture. We

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Speaker 1: know from China light skins too. You've seen in recent pictures.

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Speaker 1: Shout out to a guy like talking about Rebel, who

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Speaker 1: is one of our patrons who came up with this name,

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Speaker 1: such a fire name for a segment. Yeah, so black

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Speaker 1: Excellence for this week, we want to pay homage to

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Speaker 1: A Bayard Rustin. He was born in nineteen twelve died

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Speaker 1: in nineteen eighties seven. Rustin was an LGBTQ and civil

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Speaker 1: rights activists, best known for being a key advisor to

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Speaker 1: Reverend Martin Luther King, Jr. And y'all know, shout out

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Speaker 1: we in January baby, that's who birthday eight is this

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Speaker 1: weekend anyway. He organized the nineteen sixty three March on

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Speaker 1: Washington and was awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom, the

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Speaker 1: nation's highest civilian honor, in two thousand thirteen, for his

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Speaker 1: activism in Governor Gavin Newsome pardon rust Rustin for his

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Speaker 1: arrest in nineteen fifty three, when he was found having

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Speaker 1: sex with two men in a parked car in Pasadena.

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Speaker 1: Rustin served fifty days in l A County jail and

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Speaker 1: had to register the sex offender. Jesus right for just

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Speaker 1: having sex with two people. Ship we all do that,

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Speaker 1: don't we? Which I'm offensive, you know what I mean?

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Speaker 1: And pardoning Rustin, Newsome noted how LGBTQ people were unjustly

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Speaker 1: punished for their sexuality by US law enforcement at the

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Speaker 1: time of Rustin's arrest. Imagine some time you put a

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Speaker 1: pussy in your mouth. You knew you were breaking off insane.

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Speaker 1: That's insane. You would have had life senses of jail.

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Speaker 1: It's like cheating. You know how people like cheating for

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Speaker 1: like getting caught. It's there. Wait, they don't know, but no,

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Speaker 1: they don't want to get caught. They just know as

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Speaker 1: a possibility. Niggas who cheat don't want to get caught.

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Speaker 1: To be honest with you, I think there is something

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Speaker 1: hot about knowing you can get caught, because knowing that

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Speaker 1: you can get caught, but they don't want to get

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Speaker 1: But cheating sex can be hotter, like when you're singleing

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Speaker 1: you're fucking around. I'm sorry, I just really believe that,

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Speaker 1: feeling like you gotta get caught. I think nigga's like

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Speaker 1: this ship. I really do, because I just don't see

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Speaker 1: why you do it. Like I was talking to a

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Speaker 1: homegirl of mine who might be one of the most

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Speaker 1: beautiful people. I don't know. I don't know her that well.

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Speaker 1: I just know her from like on some Miami ship.

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Speaker 1: She's bad as ship, and she just found out her

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Speaker 1: man with cheating on her. And I'm not saying that women,

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Speaker 1: Yes I am, they weren't as hot as her, and

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Speaker 1: I was like, damn dog, just like random ship. He

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Speaker 1: just be fucking bitches. He met at the store like

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Speaker 1: she found all the ships in the computer, not even

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Speaker 1: like some you know. I was out, I met someone,

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Speaker 1: we had a connection. He just has the fuck and

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Speaker 1: I was like this nigga must really want to get caught.

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Speaker 1: I can't see like he must want you to catch them, bitch.

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Speaker 1: I'm really also thinking about if it matters at all

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Speaker 1: if I think the person looks better or not better

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Speaker 1: than me. Not a bitch, you're telling me if you're

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Speaker 1: a man cheating on you would ugly, bitch, Mandy, you

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Speaker 1: wouldn't be bad because I'd be mad and be like

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Speaker 1: you did me like that. Well, we all know that

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Speaker 1: everyone has different views of beauty. Okay, Well I'm saying

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Speaker 1: if you and me, you better know this is my standard. Naked,

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Speaker 1: don't be as trash you're you're how you look at

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Speaker 1: this thing, ander the beauty like people, I'm allowed to

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Speaker 1: judge my own person stand beauty and everyone like, just

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Speaker 1: like you're allowed to judge your man when he do

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Speaker 1: dumb ship. I'm allowed my man don't do nothing though, Okay,

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Speaker 1: well perfect, sorry man, he got the perfect You can't

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Speaker 1: relate rob you ever dated beauty like he's not doing.

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Speaker 1: I think this also has to do with ship like, um,

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Speaker 1: you know when people say like you dated down after somebody, right,

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Speaker 1: Like it could either attribute a job or monetary like

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Speaker 1: like look how people treated We just talked about Amber

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Speaker 1: when she dated with Cleveland. They were like, well, he

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Speaker 1: ain't this or he ain't that, Like he is everything

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Speaker 1: to me, honey. So I don't know who was saying

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Speaker 1: he's a popping like rapper, he's attractive, Like how did

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Speaker 1: she like date? Like what are you wanting to about? Drink?

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Speaker 1: I'm just saying, like, I don't know, but see into me.

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Speaker 1: I would like a whiz over a jury and I

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Speaker 1: heard that he got a third live bit. I would

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Speaker 1: like a wizard Drake. But that's what I'm saying. So

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Speaker 1: I don't know. So I mean as far as level

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Speaker 1: of Kanye, you got Drake, jay Z, Kanye Kanye cute

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Speaker 1: to me, not cute. I'm just talking about status, right, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: would you agree with that? Who's up there with Like, wait,

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Speaker 1: is that the order Drake? It's just just like the group,

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Speaker 1: but they all copion. I think it's jay Z then Kanye,

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Speaker 1: then Drake Okay, okay, Kanye. I was very concerned about

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Speaker 1: the order before whatever we're supposed to do you want

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Speaker 1: me to like get as good as I had, Like, wiz,

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Speaker 1: ain't it? Like? Who can I after Kanye ship? Maybe

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Speaker 1: nas I ain't gonna here when I heard about that one,

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Speaker 1: but let's go. Yeah yeah, keep going. So we wanted

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Speaker 1: to get into ship awkward all right, Today's horrible just

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Speaker 1: vision for this week is love a A Love addicts Anonymous.

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Speaker 1: I don't know if we've ever discussed this, but it

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Speaker 1: was interesting to me when I was talking to in

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Speaker 1: the Uprising on their Instagram about like what to talk

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Speaker 1: to Rob about today, because I had actually looked into

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Speaker 1: this before when I broke up with lover Boy, which

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Speaker 1: was what two years ago on this podcast, I was like, dude,

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Speaker 1: I gotta meet somebody else. I gotta meet somebody else.

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Speaker 1: I was like swiping like crazy, like I was getting

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Speaker 1: carpetson from swiping boat, and I really felt like I

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Speaker 1: couldn't just fuck because it wouldn't make me feel good enough,

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Speaker 1: Like I have to feel like someone likes me. I

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Speaker 1: need to feel loved, Like why do I want that feeling? Again.

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Speaker 1: I kept chasing that feeling and started looking into a

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Speaker 1: love addict, like meeting and Ship in New York. They

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Speaker 1: were I honestly, I knew I went too far. I

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Speaker 1: was like, let me just go to a A and

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Speaker 1: like just blending, huh, this is a this is in

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Speaker 1: New York, this is lover's addict, love addic what what?

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Speaker 1: What do you? What's the acrono? Love addicts anonymous and

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Speaker 1: I l A. Yeah, you can look up. You could

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Speaker 1: look up love addiction, my bad love addiction. It's not anonymous.

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Speaker 1: I haven't you have to take because some of these

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Speaker 1: questions to me are so regular. For example, some of

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Speaker 1: the questions were, was there ever a point that you

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Speaker 1: wish you could stop or control your sexual or romantic

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Speaker 1: activities for a given period of time? Who the fund

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Speaker 1: hasn't felt like that, Like, you know, you gotta stop

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Speaker 1: being a whole at some point. Everybody think about that.

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Speaker 1: By the way, real quick, y'all. If you're interested in

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Speaker 1: looking up it's s l A A sex and love

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Speaker 1: addicts anonymous. Want to be grouped in with them? Niggat,

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, I have feeling in my exactly that's

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Speaker 1: why you're you're grouped in with the sex um. Do

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Speaker 1: you feel desperate about your need for sexual attraction or

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Speaker 1: future mate? Do you believe that someone can fix you?

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Speaker 1: Have you ever felt that you were obligated or needed

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Speaker 1: to have sex to feel better? Do you get high

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Speaker 1: from sex? And do you crash? That actually is a

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Speaker 1: really good one, I thought, because I've met someone who

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Speaker 1: was like that, where she told me like, immediately after

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Speaker 1: sex she felt bad about herself, but she needed to

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Speaker 1: get there to feel good. It sounds like drugs. Um,

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Speaker 1: let me see this one. Have you it's not funny.

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Speaker 1: Have you had or do you have sex with someone

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Speaker 1: who you don't know? Yes? Okay, but what is knowing someone?

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Speaker 1: That's what I was thinking. What is knowing? Because if

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Speaker 1: we say hi, I'll be like Rob cool one of

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Speaker 1: five glancing. No. Seriously, Like, what what does it mean

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Speaker 1: to know someone? I guess what it means to not know?

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Speaker 1: Could be I met you at the club and I'm

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Speaker 1: having sex with you at the club. Just you just

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Speaker 1: need to leave. That happened, I mean not to me,

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Speaker 1: but it happened not even at the sex club. The

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Speaker 1: club you like. It's It's quite possible to meet somebody

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Speaker 1: having attraction. I'm gonna have sex with you right there, right,

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Speaker 1: that's some makes you don't know. You gotta talk to

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Speaker 1: where a New York Hub party. I mean, I said,

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Speaker 1: I don't choose that, but it is done. It's done.

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Speaker 1: It is. I did eat some pussy after dream in

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Speaker 1: Miami one time, but it was at the dinner. We

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Speaker 1: left the clube, We went to the dinner and I

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Speaker 1: ate a pussy at the dinner where in Miami where

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Speaker 1: he and the bathroom? You know her we met. We

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Speaker 1: was at the same table to night. That's not knowing

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Speaker 1: somebody you were wondering. That's how you don't know her.

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Speaker 1: Let's go back, ques, I said, they take it way

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Speaker 1: too long in these corny pass Let me go eat

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Speaker 1: some pussy when she was killing? What marked this ship

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Speaker 1: for the clip? Monigger? No? No, what is the problems?

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Speaker 1: You can put it in there? Okay? Does this sexual

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Speaker 1: and romantic behavior affect your reputation? Well, hello, welcome to

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Speaker 1: the YouTube and the audio. Yes it does. Now we're

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Speaker 1: making money on the ship. I mean, isn't really that bad,

609
00:33:16,680 --> 00:33:19,880
Speaker 1: not really alive unless you're in a romantic relationship. This

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Speaker 1: one I thought was really good and when it got

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Speaker 1: to the juice because a lot of us don't feel

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Speaker 1: good unless we're with someone. It took me a long

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Speaker 1: time to be good alone. You know, I didn't really

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Speaker 1: understand how to feel like. I don't want to use

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Speaker 1: the word worthy, because I've always felt good about myself,

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Speaker 1: but something always felt like it was missing if I

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Speaker 1: was alone. And to get to that point where you

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Speaker 1: can be alone, like it takes a lot of fucking

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Speaker 1: self searching, I think, like discovery, just like being able

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Speaker 1: to take feedback and like criticisms and be like okay, no,

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Speaker 1: like I see what's wrong. Like it took it took

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Speaker 1: me a while, I'd say years to get to that point.

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Speaker 1: And when I moved to New York, it started to

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Speaker 1: happen after that breakup and I was like, Okay, fun

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Speaker 1: makes getting money, I actually feel this way. And that

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Speaker 1: was you know, for the last decade. But I would

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Speaker 1: say it, but I didn't necessarily know if I get

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Speaker 1: money from them, that's a mood you you feel in

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Speaker 1: that order that then I get the money. What is

630
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Speaker 1: what you discussed on Inner Uprising about what, like you know,

631
00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:24,640
Speaker 1: knowing biology and something to do getting into science. I'm

632
00:34:24,680 --> 00:34:30,120
Speaker 1: gonna check out here, it's not that big. So um,

633
00:34:30,160 --> 00:34:34,520
Speaker 1: so we we did a whole episode called love Addiction.

634
00:34:34,560 --> 00:34:36,359
Speaker 1: I don't know the whole episode name, but I'll give

635
00:34:36,360 --> 00:34:37,480
Speaker 1: it to you so you put in the show notes.

636
00:34:37,760 --> 00:34:41,600
Speaker 1: But it was basically about love addiction, the parallels between

637
00:34:41,640 --> 00:34:46,359
Speaker 1: love addiction, sex addiction, and drug addiction, substance abuse, and

638
00:34:46,600 --> 00:34:49,399
Speaker 1: how does that like, what does it look like? Right? Um?

639
00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:54,600
Speaker 1: The most important factor in addiction is to know that

640
00:34:54,640 --> 00:34:58,120
Speaker 1: it's something that affects your life, like, truly affects your life,

641
00:34:58,120 --> 00:35:00,320
Speaker 1: not like just something that kind of you carry around

642
00:35:00,320 --> 00:35:02,880
Speaker 1: like a burden, but something that affects your ability to

643
00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:05,799
Speaker 1: like really function at the highest potential that you were

644
00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:09,160
Speaker 1: functioning prior that you can possibly function like. It takes

645
00:35:09,160 --> 00:35:11,759
Speaker 1: a toll on your social aspects, your physical aspects, your

646
00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:15,680
Speaker 1: mental aspects, spiritual aspects. Like it's if to say that,

647
00:35:16,040 --> 00:35:19,120
Speaker 1: let's say addiction, even if it's not a substance addiction,

648
00:35:19,120 --> 00:35:23,040
Speaker 1: addiction is addiction, right, So if you're addicted to cocaine

649
00:35:23,400 --> 00:35:25,920
Speaker 1: and you're addicted to sex, they don't. It's not like

650
00:35:25,960 --> 00:35:28,680
Speaker 1: one addictions like bigger than the other. One is smaller

651
00:35:28,680 --> 00:35:32,080
Speaker 1: than the other. Like addiction addiction, anything that really hinders

652
00:35:32,120 --> 00:35:34,800
Speaker 1: you and holds you back in that way. But with addiction,

653
00:35:34,880 --> 00:35:37,680
Speaker 1: you know, it's a reward system. You have that reinforcement.

654
00:35:37,920 --> 00:35:40,400
Speaker 1: So if I do this thing and I feel good,

655
00:35:40,920 --> 00:35:43,719
Speaker 1: If I do this thing again, I'll feel good. And

656
00:35:43,800 --> 00:35:46,480
Speaker 1: you keep doing that until you kind of build those

657
00:35:46,520 --> 00:35:48,680
Speaker 1: connections in your brain, because you know your brain is

658
00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:52,160
Speaker 1: always forming connections, right, and you build those connections that

659
00:35:52,280 --> 00:35:54,520
Speaker 1: become kind of like permanent. So the only way you

660
00:35:54,560 --> 00:35:57,040
Speaker 1: can feel that feelings if you do that thing. So

661
00:35:57,080 --> 00:35:59,200
Speaker 1: the only way I can feel good about myself if

662
00:35:59,200 --> 00:36:01,360
Speaker 1: I if I do that thing, which is have sex

663
00:36:01,640 --> 00:36:04,160
Speaker 1: or start a relationship or just start entertaining some fucking

664
00:36:04,160 --> 00:36:08,320
Speaker 1: piece of ship, like you know, something that involves another person.

665
00:36:08,480 --> 00:36:10,719
Speaker 1: It doesn't necessarily just involve you. I'm gonna be real.

666
00:36:10,760 --> 00:36:12,280
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to be funny. I might be addicted

667
00:36:12,320 --> 00:36:20,919
Speaker 1: to the club dog. And that's why you went Willie's. Dude.

668
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:22,840
Speaker 1: I moved to him when it was still like it

669
00:36:22,880 --> 00:36:25,359
Speaker 1: was just beach and chilling, like remember she wasn't open

670
00:36:25,480 --> 00:36:28,279
Speaker 1: till the summer when I left. But like, no, when

671
00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:30,319
Speaker 1: I am at my lowest lows, like and I'm just

672
00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:32,000
Speaker 1: thinking of like when the world was open, I'm like,

673
00:36:32,080 --> 00:36:33,440
Speaker 1: I gotta go have a drink. I gotta And it

674
00:36:33,440 --> 00:36:35,800
Speaker 1: wouldn't always be like getting wasted. I just needed to

675
00:36:35,840 --> 00:36:38,239
Speaker 1: be around people like I needed to be around people.

676
00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:40,040
Speaker 1: I needed to have that vibe and not the club

677
00:36:40,080 --> 00:36:42,279
Speaker 1: per se. When I say club, I'm actually far as

678
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:44,160
Speaker 1: far as and ship I had to do that, I'd

679
00:36:44,200 --> 00:36:46,520
Speaker 1: be like, I'll be all right. And I remember thinking

680
00:36:46,560 --> 00:36:49,520
Speaker 1: like I had a really bad argument and I was like,

681
00:36:49,520 --> 00:36:51,359
Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm gonna be single after to the bar,

682
00:36:51,600 --> 00:36:53,719
Speaker 1: Like what am I gonna do without the bar? Like

683
00:36:53,840 --> 00:36:56,080
Speaker 1: I was really bugging the funk out, dude, And I

684
00:36:56,120 --> 00:36:58,000
Speaker 1: was like, why are you like living in the middle

685
00:36:58,040 --> 00:37:01,280
Speaker 1: of all the bars? Like the part I love being

686
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:05,480
Speaker 1: around people, like I love seeing people. That's why I

687
00:37:05,520 --> 00:37:08,359
Speaker 1: love New York so much. I love getting energy from people,

688
00:37:08,400 --> 00:37:11,040
Speaker 1: getting inspired by people like That's why I love podcasting,

689
00:37:11,120 --> 00:37:12,920
Speaker 1: you know, like, no matter who would be with you,

690
00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:14,640
Speaker 1: and if it's a guest, like I love sucking that

691
00:37:14,719 --> 00:37:17,760
Speaker 1: up because it's exciting for me, like the social interactions

692
00:37:17,760 --> 00:37:20,480
Speaker 1: and I think it's that only child shit help me

693
00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:24,839
Speaker 1: look at my brain. I mean, I need my alone time.

694
00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:28,359
Speaker 1: That's why even with my nigga now like moving in

695
00:37:28,400 --> 00:37:31,719
Speaker 1: will never be a conversation. I am so content with

696
00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:36,000
Speaker 1: having like my space now, like my own space. No roommate, no,

697
00:37:36,000 --> 00:37:39,919
Speaker 1: none of that, like never ever, ever, ever, ever ever ever. Um,

698
00:37:39,960 --> 00:37:44,520
Speaker 1: it's crazy because I'm hearing like how you're defining addiction,

699
00:37:45,120 --> 00:37:48,440
Speaker 1: and I mean, I will say I feel like maybe

700
00:37:48,640 --> 00:37:51,600
Speaker 1: at some point sex was an addiction, because I think

701
00:37:51,600 --> 00:37:54,320
Speaker 1: that that's when sometimes I'll be like I'm miserable or

702
00:37:54,360 --> 00:37:56,399
Speaker 1: I'm cranky, and even my mama was like, you need

703
00:37:56,400 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 1: some dick, like it gets to that. But but rob,

704
00:37:59,560 --> 00:38:01,600
Speaker 1: I feel like we all know we need to get fucked.

705
00:38:01,600 --> 00:38:05,400
Speaker 1: But that's not addiction affect your mood. I mean, then

706
00:38:07,080 --> 00:38:10,800
Speaker 1: you would have to look further into it, right, because

707
00:38:10,880 --> 00:38:13,880
Speaker 1: it might not necessarily just be like the sex, Like

708
00:38:13,920 --> 00:38:16,040
Speaker 1: you might just really have wanted to be like with

709
00:38:16,120 --> 00:38:18,520
Speaker 1: the person, right, But one way to be with the person,

710
00:38:18,960 --> 00:38:21,799
Speaker 1: especially somebody who it's like I don't really have any

711
00:38:21,800 --> 00:38:23,080
Speaker 1: other way to pull them into my house, but to

712
00:38:23,120 --> 00:38:25,960
Speaker 1: say you want to fuck, right, I can't just be like, hey,

713
00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:27,160
Speaker 1: you want to come up and talk they're and be

714
00:38:27,160 --> 00:38:29,000
Speaker 1: like no, not really okay, but you want to have sense?

715
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:33,680
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, this masturbation too, right. I believe it is because,

716
00:38:33,680 --> 00:38:35,919
Speaker 1: like when I was watching a True Life on MTV,

717
00:38:36,000 --> 00:38:37,560
Speaker 1: which by the way, I think that's hands down on

718
00:38:37,719 --> 00:38:40,279
Speaker 1: MTV's best shows they've ever done, and I'm like, don't

719
00:38:40,280 --> 00:38:42,320
Speaker 1: want people shooting up. I was like, just a fucking

720
00:38:42,320 --> 00:38:45,799
Speaker 1: America that she was so good. Anyway, they had a

721
00:38:45,840 --> 00:38:48,680
Speaker 1: man who was like, I had to change my password

722
00:38:48,680 --> 00:38:51,319
Speaker 1: to my computer to my son's name, so or something

723
00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:53,719
Speaker 1: like that. He said, so I wouldn't look at porn.

724
00:38:53,800 --> 00:38:55,640
Speaker 1: He was like, I don't even know his name. I

725
00:38:55,680 --> 00:38:57,360
Speaker 1: don't even think about it anymore. It's like my fingers

726
00:38:57,360 --> 00:38:59,839
Speaker 1: just go. Like he tried everything to stop himself from

727
00:38:59,840 --> 00:39:02,560
Speaker 1: going porn sites because of its sex addiction. So I

728
00:39:02,600 --> 00:39:05,920
Speaker 1: think maybe sex edition is like, yeah, maybe it may

729
00:39:05,960 --> 00:39:09,040
Speaker 1: be all encompassed porn. I mean it's it's sex. Masturbation

730
00:39:09,040 --> 00:39:12,000
Speaker 1: is still sex and pornography. I mean that's more of

731
00:39:12,040 --> 00:39:14,640
Speaker 1: black a material kind of thing. But if you're doing

732
00:39:14,640 --> 00:39:17,480
Speaker 1: it in they masturbating like you dick, this mashmating and porn.

733
00:39:17,640 --> 00:39:22,240
Speaker 1: I don't know. Expert episode about love, but what about that?

734
00:39:23,080 --> 00:39:25,080
Speaker 1: You know? But it's but as far as love goes,

735
00:39:25,200 --> 00:39:28,200
Speaker 1: when dating with a love addiction, do you think that

736
00:39:28,280 --> 00:39:30,440
Speaker 1: you should tell somebody kind of like if I was

737
00:39:30,480 --> 00:39:32,439
Speaker 1: addicted to alcohol or drugs, I think that it would

738
00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:34,720
Speaker 1: be important to let my partner know. Would you suggest

739
00:39:34,719 --> 00:39:36,920
Speaker 1: that people should tell their partners they have a love addiction.

740
00:39:37,239 --> 00:39:39,600
Speaker 1: I would suggest that you go to a therapist first,

741
00:39:39,680 --> 00:39:43,680
Speaker 1: say that, because I wouldn't. I wouldn't say I wouldn't

742
00:39:43,960 --> 00:39:47,720
Speaker 1: self diagnosed myself right with something like that, because it's

743
00:39:48,640 --> 00:39:52,359
Speaker 1: it's very heavy and it deserves actual treatment. So just

744
00:39:52,400 --> 00:39:54,280
Speaker 1: to simply say, I think I have a love addiction

745
00:39:54,360 --> 00:39:57,040
Speaker 1: and I'm just going to sit in this and it

746
00:39:57,200 --> 00:39:59,319
Speaker 1: didn't let all of my partners know that I just

747
00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:01,120
Speaker 1: had to love. But this is just this is just

748
00:40:01,160 --> 00:40:03,680
Speaker 1: the thing that I am. And then that's said. You know,

749
00:40:03,760 --> 00:40:07,799
Speaker 1: that's that's a lot right good explanation. It's very like,

750
00:40:07,840 --> 00:40:09,439
Speaker 1: take me as I am. But that's some rude ship

751
00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:12,320
Speaker 1: because that's that's because you know, it's not like you

752
00:40:12,360 --> 00:40:14,680
Speaker 1: shouldn't treat it like it's not something to be treated. No,

753
00:40:14,760 --> 00:40:19,120
Speaker 1: it's because it's cracking coking. And if it's it's cracking coking,

754
00:40:19,200 --> 00:40:21,360
Speaker 1: might want to you know, don't care of that because

755
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:23,919
Speaker 1: it's not like it's something that you're not aware of

756
00:40:24,400 --> 00:40:26,840
Speaker 1: because even if you're not aware of it, somebody A

757
00:40:26,880 --> 00:40:28,560
Speaker 1: lot of times, if you have people in your life.

758
00:40:28,680 --> 00:40:30,480
Speaker 1: Not everybody does, but if you have people in your life,

759
00:40:30,520 --> 00:40:32,839
Speaker 1: somebody's gonna make you away of that ship. Like if

760
00:40:32,880 --> 00:40:35,000
Speaker 1: you have a drinking problem, if you have people that

761
00:40:35,040 --> 00:40:37,560
Speaker 1: care about you, somebody's gonna say, hey, motherfucker, you are

762
00:40:37,560 --> 00:40:39,320
Speaker 1: a while for respect right now you might want to

763
00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:41,480
Speaker 1: calm that ship down. Somebody's gonna make you aware. Then

764
00:40:41,520 --> 00:40:43,600
Speaker 1: you do what you want to do with that information,

765
00:40:43,840 --> 00:40:46,880
Speaker 1: whether it's ignore it, whether it's actually give it attention

766
00:40:46,960 --> 00:40:49,440
Speaker 1: and try to do something about it. But to like

767
00:40:49,960 --> 00:40:52,240
Speaker 1: go into relationship and say, hey, I have a love addiction,

768
00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:55,799
Speaker 1: but I want to love you. I'm out. I want

769
00:40:55,840 --> 00:40:58,680
Speaker 1: to know because now that's on me. You're putting that

770
00:40:58,680 --> 00:41:02,880
Speaker 1: burden on me to try to maneuver around it. And

771
00:41:02,880 --> 00:41:04,759
Speaker 1: it's like, is it is it your addiction to just

772
00:41:04,800 --> 00:41:06,600
Speaker 1: wanting to be loved or you actually want to be

773
00:41:06,880 --> 00:41:09,239
Speaker 1: giving me PTSD from niggas that let me know they

774
00:41:09,239 --> 00:41:11,520
Speaker 1: were holes. You know what I'm saying when they'd be like, yo,

775
00:41:11,680 --> 00:41:13,799
Speaker 1: I just got this problem. I just you know, I mean,

776
00:41:13,840 --> 00:41:15,480
Speaker 1: I love you, but I'll be working other business, you'd

777
00:41:15,520 --> 00:41:17,560
Speaker 1: be like, so I do have to put off for that.

778
00:41:18,800 --> 00:41:21,640
Speaker 1: But you know that's I really like what you said,

779
00:41:21,719 --> 00:41:26,680
Speaker 1: because we have there's a fine line between being proud

780
00:41:26,680 --> 00:41:27,920
Speaker 1: of who you are and being like, this is who

781
00:41:27,920 --> 00:41:30,000
Speaker 1: I am taking or leave it, but also needing to

782
00:41:30,080 --> 00:41:32,080
Speaker 1: understand that some of the things that you have that

783
00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:35,680
Speaker 1: encompass your who you are are little, especially when they

784
00:41:35,680 --> 00:41:39,040
Speaker 1: could be a burden on somebody else. Yeah. I like that,

785
00:41:39,360 --> 00:41:43,080
Speaker 1: I mean, especially considering that I definitely think I went

786
00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:45,359
Speaker 1: through love addiction phase. Do you think or anyone think

787
00:41:45,360 --> 00:41:47,239
Speaker 1: they've ever been through a like I know you said,

788
00:41:47,280 --> 00:41:50,240
Speaker 1: even through a sex addiction phase maybe yeah, where I thought, yeah,

789
00:41:50,360 --> 00:41:52,640
Speaker 1: like I mean, but again it just affected my mood,

790
00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:54,640
Speaker 1: like if I want to dick, but I was still

791
00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:57,520
Speaker 1: very picky on who I was getting dick from. So

792
00:41:57,640 --> 00:41:59,640
Speaker 1: it's it was not don't like a crackheads picky about

793
00:41:59,640 --> 00:42:01,319
Speaker 1: who they and see that's what I'm saying. We had

794
00:42:01,360 --> 00:42:03,400
Speaker 1: a sex at it came h He did come on

795
00:42:03,440 --> 00:42:05,919
Speaker 1: the show and he shared how he just needed sex

796
00:42:05,960 --> 00:42:07,640
Speaker 1: from and he didn't care who he got sex from.

797
00:42:08,719 --> 00:42:12,440
Speaker 1: This so like, I don't like and hearing her explain,

798
00:42:12,680 --> 00:42:18,000
Speaker 1: hearing they explain it. I don't believe that I had

799
00:42:18,000 --> 00:42:20,640
Speaker 1: the addiction. It did just affect like my mood, and

800
00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:23,919
Speaker 1: I guess I was still able to like go about

801
00:42:23,960 --> 00:42:25,799
Speaker 1: my day as normal. I would just be in a

802
00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:29,759
Speaker 1: funk if I felt like I needed to release and masturbation.

803
00:42:30,120 --> 00:42:33,080
Speaker 1: Masturbating never did it. So even when you mentioned, um,

804
00:42:33,360 --> 00:42:36,160
Speaker 1: just maybe having a person to lay with, to cuddle with,

805
00:42:36,320 --> 00:42:39,359
Speaker 1: just to be in the company of another person in

806
00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:42,480
Speaker 1: that kind of close like space. Yeah, because even my

807
00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:44,440
Speaker 1: friends hated, Like I'd be trying to cuddle with all

808
00:42:44,440 --> 00:42:46,480
Speaker 1: my friends. They'd be like, bitch, give me my space,

809
00:42:46,800 --> 00:42:48,560
Speaker 1: like the ones I don't fuck. They'd be like, I

810
00:42:48,560 --> 00:42:51,759
Speaker 1: don't want to cuddle with you. I love cuddling. I'd

811
00:42:51,800 --> 00:42:55,040
Speaker 1: be like, come here and we'll be laid up like

812
00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:57,719
Speaker 1: time for Netflix and little with my friends kind of

813
00:42:57,760 --> 00:43:01,319
Speaker 1: associate that closeness with I lay on Vinnie, but like

814
00:43:01,360 --> 00:43:03,560
Speaker 1: it's a very minimal like maybe a leg, Oh no,

815
00:43:03,719 --> 00:43:07,160
Speaker 1: my leg is over my friends, Like I love cuddling

816
00:43:07,160 --> 00:43:08,960
Speaker 1: with my friends. When you were talking about spooning with

817
00:43:09,040 --> 00:43:11,359
Speaker 1: friends that you don't fu, Yeah, that I don't fun.

818
00:43:11,600 --> 00:43:15,279
Speaker 1: That's so crazy to me. Yeah, if I that is,

819
00:43:15,560 --> 00:43:18,760
Speaker 1: I mean I've done that, but you did you feel

820
00:43:18,800 --> 00:43:21,839
Speaker 1: something though I feel I feel I felt. I just

821
00:43:22,040 --> 00:43:24,720
Speaker 1: I didn't like it. I was like, you're thinking about

822
00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:27,719
Speaker 1: I don't want you to they know if I want

823
00:43:27,719 --> 00:43:30,880
Speaker 1: to suck. But I think it also comes from and

824
00:43:30,920 --> 00:43:33,480
Speaker 1: I shared on this show. For many years, I was

825
00:43:33,560 --> 00:43:37,359
Speaker 1: having sex without the intimacy. So for many years I

826
00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:40,239
Speaker 1: just didn't get I wasn't kissing niggas, I wasn't really

827
00:43:40,280 --> 00:43:43,640
Speaker 1: cuddling after. I was leaving after or they were leaving after.

828
00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:46,839
Speaker 1: So I think it just became you know that I

829
00:43:46,880 --> 00:43:48,960
Speaker 1: really love my friends, and I put my friends in

830
00:43:49,040 --> 00:43:52,960
Speaker 1: the highest seem almost about family, and so yeah, in

831
00:43:53,080 --> 00:43:55,919
Speaker 1: terms of love, like I love them, so you're gonna

832
00:43:55,960 --> 00:43:58,000
Speaker 1: give me these cuddles, bit you're gonna give me these

833
00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:02,279
Speaker 1: I had this. I found this cool article. It was

834
00:44:02,320 --> 00:44:04,279
Speaker 1: for Vanilla Ship, but I wanted to put it in here.

835
00:44:04,880 --> 00:44:08,680
Speaker 1: Sexual and emotional anorexia, y'all ever heard this? No? You

836
00:44:08,719 --> 00:44:13,960
Speaker 1: know what, if we're to compare it to attachment theory,

837
00:44:14,040 --> 00:44:16,960
Speaker 1: it's the avoidance style rather than the anxious one. It's

838
00:44:16,960 --> 00:44:20,280
Speaker 1: a type of disorder that people have running from sex

839
00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:24,719
Speaker 1: and or relationships rather than run towards them. Um So,

840
00:44:24,800 --> 00:44:28,560
Speaker 1: sexual and emotional intorexia can manifest as the usage of

841
00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:32,680
Speaker 1: porn instead of real partners, the fear and avoidance of sex,

842
00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:36,200
Speaker 1: the fear of intimacy, vulnerability, shame around your own sexual

843
00:44:36,280 --> 00:44:40,000
Speaker 1: drive and preferences, the harsh judgment of other people's sex drive,

844
00:44:40,400 --> 00:44:44,040
Speaker 1: always waiting for quote unquote the one the perfect person,

845
00:44:44,440 --> 00:44:48,840
Speaker 1: and compartmentalizing people into sex or relationship categories. And I

846
00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:50,759
Speaker 1: thought this was interesting because they say the root a

847
00:44:50,760 --> 00:44:54,800
Speaker 1: lot of this ship is from love of addiction sounds

848
00:44:54,840 --> 00:45:00,440
Speaker 1: more like self sabotage. I mean for sure, it's like

849
00:45:00,480 --> 00:45:04,000
Speaker 1: the world is so wild, and how we find words

850
00:45:04,400 --> 00:45:08,440
Speaker 1: for everything, everything, and then we find multiple words. It

851
00:45:08,640 --> 00:45:11,480
Speaker 1: was the Netflix show where curse words came from. That

852
00:45:11,600 --> 00:45:14,719
Speaker 1: was it was funny. It was funny, but yeah, like

853
00:45:15,160 --> 00:45:18,440
Speaker 1: literally because to me, this doesn't I think the antorexia

854
00:45:18,480 --> 00:45:20,680
Speaker 1: threw me off if sucking threw me off too. But

855
00:45:20,800 --> 00:45:25,120
Speaker 1: this is from sex love addicts anonymous. So they basically

856
00:45:25,160 --> 00:45:28,600
Speaker 1: say this is a characteristic of sexual and emotional antorexia

857
00:45:28,680 --> 00:45:31,799
Speaker 1: as outlined by them, this is where it comes from.

858
00:45:31,840 --> 00:45:35,920
Speaker 1: Having few healthy boundaries. We become sexually repulsed and or

859
00:45:35,960 --> 00:45:40,160
Speaker 1: emotionally threatened by people without even knowing them fearing emotional

860
00:45:40,200 --> 00:45:44,200
Speaker 1: and sexual nurturing. Um, we over idealize love and sex

861
00:45:44,280 --> 00:45:48,920
Speaker 1: so conversely that we confuse love and sex with physical

862
00:45:49,600 --> 00:45:53,120
Speaker 1: and sexual shame, like we're confused about what it means

863
00:45:53,200 --> 00:45:55,359
Speaker 1: or the need to be rescued things like that, and

864
00:45:55,400 --> 00:45:58,600
Speaker 1: we are deeply anxious and insecure, but may cover those

865
00:45:58,600 --> 00:46:01,600
Speaker 1: feelings of stress and guilt and envy with the persona

866
00:46:01,640 --> 00:46:05,640
Speaker 1: of independence and self sufficiency, which is the funk niggas

867
00:46:05,640 --> 00:46:09,160
Speaker 1: get money ship. We can be feeling like, okay, you

868
00:46:09,160 --> 00:46:11,600
Speaker 1: know what, like maybe I haven't found someone, isn't me whatever,

869
00:46:11,719 --> 00:46:14,200
Speaker 1: you know what, funk niggas like I'm doing this, Like

870
00:46:14,320 --> 00:46:17,359
Speaker 1: I think that is a great one because under all

871
00:46:17,400 --> 00:46:19,560
Speaker 1: of that, it may not be Like I don't think

872
00:46:19,560 --> 00:46:21,120
Speaker 1: I'm at that place now. I think you are in

873
00:46:21,120 --> 00:46:23,319
Speaker 1: the place now right like when you're starting to grow

874
00:46:23,320 --> 00:46:25,040
Speaker 1: and getting to know yourself. But at one point in

875
00:46:25,040 --> 00:46:29,520
Speaker 1: my life absolutely I was like overly independent because it

876
00:46:29,560 --> 00:46:33,000
Speaker 1: made me feel better. Like saying that, well, not only that,

877
00:46:33,080 --> 00:46:36,520
Speaker 1: I think I've said it too. Um, the funk niggas

878
00:46:36,520 --> 00:46:38,759
Speaker 1: get money, not not foot niggas and make them give

879
00:46:38,760 --> 00:46:41,080
Speaker 1: you money. But the funk niggas get money. Mantra to me,

880
00:46:41,200 --> 00:46:45,120
Speaker 1: comes from when you don't feel like you're in a

881
00:46:45,160 --> 00:46:47,239
Speaker 1: place where you're happy. So to me, that's where I

882
00:46:47,280 --> 00:46:51,600
Speaker 1: feel like for the past decade, um, I was focusing

883
00:46:51,760 --> 00:46:56,080
Speaker 1: on my financial state, getting an education, and being happy

884
00:46:56,120 --> 00:46:58,400
Speaker 1: with who I was as a person, and so a

885
00:46:58,400 --> 00:47:00,279
Speaker 1: part of it was, yeah, I'm still gonna get this nut,

886
00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:02,680
Speaker 1: but I'm not at a place where I really want

887
00:47:02,719 --> 00:47:05,040
Speaker 1: to be a partner to somebody or I want to

888
00:47:05,040 --> 00:47:07,239
Speaker 1: be in a relationship, but I still need a nut

889
00:47:07,280 --> 00:47:10,359
Speaker 1: because which I like sex and that you know, I'll

890
00:47:10,360 --> 00:47:13,200
Speaker 1: be cranky if I don't have it. So I think

891
00:47:13,280 --> 00:47:16,840
Speaker 1: that comes from, you know, get your ship, but also

892
00:47:17,000 --> 00:47:19,440
Speaker 1: really get your ship and get your ship together. More

893
00:47:19,480 --> 00:47:25,279
Speaker 1: than anything. I don't know that the podcast it we're

894
00:47:25,320 --> 00:47:28,120
Speaker 1: just trying to sound smart because apparently we sound dumb.

895
00:47:28,680 --> 00:47:32,440
Speaker 1: So the beginning, I say dumb with love Bro, I

896
00:47:32,480 --> 00:47:38,880
Speaker 1: mean like we'll be doing dumb sh it's silly words,

897
00:47:38,920 --> 00:47:47,040
Speaker 1: mean things, wheezy, okay, such am all right. I picked

898
00:47:47,040 --> 00:47:49,440
Speaker 1: this whole mail for a future episode where we have

899
00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:51,440
Speaker 1: to do this because it really made me think of

900
00:47:51,520 --> 00:47:54,880
Speaker 1: a rob story. Here we oh ship, So send your

901
00:47:54,880 --> 00:48:00,279
Speaker 1: whole mail to horrible desistence now rit now was me

902
00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:06,680
Speaker 1: just kidding because keeping anonymous? They said him Mandy and wheezy.

903
00:48:06,760 --> 00:48:08,839
Speaker 1: I love y'all. I've been listening for almost three years,

904
00:48:08,840 --> 00:48:10,799
Speaker 1: so when I recently started having the best sex of

905
00:48:10,840 --> 00:48:15,680
Speaker 1: my life, this story I naturally thought of before. Sorry.

906
00:48:15,719 --> 00:48:18,600
Speaker 1: The man's dick is perfect all caps. We've been dating

907
00:48:18,600 --> 00:48:21,279
Speaker 1: for three months months, he brings out aside of me

908
00:48:21,320 --> 00:48:23,440
Speaker 1: that sexually I didn't know I had. Yes, I actually

909
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:25,560
Speaker 1: had a seizure on the dick. We were fucking in

910
00:48:25,600 --> 00:48:29,360
Speaker 1: the mirror high off mushroom chocolates when I collapse and convulsed.

911
00:48:29,640 --> 00:48:32,920
Speaker 1: When I came, it felt so euphoric, but he was scared.

912
00:48:33,280 --> 00:48:35,280
Speaker 1: Another time that stands out was when I was writing

913
00:48:35,280 --> 00:48:37,680
Speaker 1: and he was using my vibrator on my clip asked

914
00:48:37,719 --> 00:48:40,160
Speaker 1: if he could fit it inside of my pussy with

915
00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:41,960
Speaker 1: his dick. It was a small bullet, so we tried it.

916
00:48:41,960 --> 00:48:43,640
Speaker 1: It was amazing, but it got stuck. I had to

917
00:48:43,680 --> 00:48:45,480
Speaker 1: lay on my back dude keegels until it finally came

918
00:48:45,520 --> 00:48:49,279
Speaker 1: out right. I don't know where this is going. I

919
00:48:49,320 --> 00:48:51,080
Speaker 1: could go on about our sex, but I'm writing to

920
00:48:51,120 --> 00:48:52,960
Speaker 1: you because I don't know what to do about his

921
00:48:53,040 --> 00:48:55,840
Speaker 1: best friend, his best friend is also his roommate, and

922
00:48:56,000 --> 00:48:59,160
Speaker 1: if they haven't fucked already, I know that if they

923
00:48:59,200 --> 00:49:01,880
Speaker 1: did they would be with love it. They both identify

924
00:49:01,920 --> 00:49:05,640
Speaker 1: a straight, but the energy is just there. His friend

925
00:49:05,719 --> 00:49:08,399
Speaker 1: is really hot too, and I've been happily fantasizing about

926
00:49:08,400 --> 00:49:10,120
Speaker 1: an m m F three, So with them, how would

927
00:49:10,120 --> 00:49:11,799
Speaker 1: I go about initiating this. I don't know if I

928
00:49:11,840 --> 00:49:13,560
Speaker 1: should or if I should just leave it in my

929
00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:16,479
Speaker 1: mind as a daydream dream because plot twist, his best

930
00:49:16,520 --> 00:49:20,000
Speaker 1: friend is dating my little sister and she could absolutely

931
00:49:20,120 --> 00:49:22,759
Speaker 1: never find out. Do I leave it alone? Do I

932
00:49:22,800 --> 00:49:25,279
Speaker 1: wait until maybe his friend and my sister break up.

933
00:49:25,840 --> 00:49:28,080
Speaker 1: Do I bring it up to my man. I feel

934
00:49:28,080 --> 00:49:29,799
Speaker 1: like it would be so chaotic, But I also think

935
00:49:29,800 --> 00:49:32,040
Speaker 1: would be so hot to watch my man's best friend

936
00:49:32,080 --> 00:49:34,600
Speaker 1: give him head. Please help me start through this toxic

937
00:49:34,840 --> 00:49:37,520
Speaker 1: the one who dates my sister. That's where that's where

938
00:49:37,520 --> 00:49:40,759
Speaker 1: I lost. It was all good until that ship. And

939
00:49:40,800 --> 00:49:43,160
Speaker 1: I want to tell you something, which one I don't know.

940
00:49:44,040 --> 00:49:48,799
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for your fucking goddamn service to

941
00:49:48,840 --> 00:49:52,920
Speaker 1: this show. This is what I'm talking about, This is

942
00:49:53,000 --> 00:49:54,560
Speaker 1: what you're talking about. This is how we got on

943
00:49:54,600 --> 00:49:57,160
Speaker 1: the Black Effect Network, right, here, you and your man

944
00:49:57,239 --> 00:49:59,080
Speaker 1: and his best friend and suck your sister. This is

945
00:49:59,120 --> 00:50:04,919
Speaker 1: what I'm to Mandy Weezy Springers, thank you anyway, this

946
00:50:04,960 --> 00:50:08,520
Speaker 1: is this is not it Mega, I don't know, maga

947
00:50:08,719 --> 00:50:12,640
Speaker 1: fuck this is her sister's boyfriend who she said, both

948
00:50:12,640 --> 00:50:15,280
Speaker 1: of them identifying straight. So you just think it's okay.

949
00:50:15,360 --> 00:50:18,399
Speaker 1: She was like, energy is there? Let me tell you something.

950
00:50:18,480 --> 00:50:20,920
Speaker 1: Bit the way that man investing you're doing, this is

951
00:50:20,920 --> 00:50:23,000
Speaker 1: what you gotta do. This is how I started getting

952
00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:26,839
Speaker 1: money in the show. She all getting oh god, so much.

953
00:50:26,880 --> 00:50:29,839
Speaker 1: It's so fucked up. But like what does she got

954
00:50:29,880 --> 00:50:37,040
Speaker 1: to lose? What she has, her sisters, what her man

955
00:50:37,080 --> 00:50:40,680
Speaker 1: to lose? All right, let me go from there's there's

956
00:50:40,719 --> 00:50:43,160
Speaker 1: a lot of that's a lot of factors, you know.

957
00:50:43,160 --> 00:50:45,120
Speaker 1: Shout out to you for admitting that ship was toxic,

958
00:50:45,560 --> 00:50:49,360
Speaker 1: was well toxic, saying what it needs to say in

959
00:50:49,400 --> 00:50:52,080
Speaker 1: your head and in our email inbox, and know where

960
00:50:52,120 --> 00:50:57,359
Speaker 1: the fun of that ship. That is good material. And

961
00:50:57,400 --> 00:50:59,359
Speaker 1: that's all I'm asking. A matter of fact, if you've

962
00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:03,360
Speaker 1: got a family, phollow everybody in it, that's that's disgusted.

963
00:51:05,040 --> 00:51:09,799
Speaker 1: You want to know. My email is the Wheezy WC

964
00:51:09,880 --> 00:51:16,279
Speaker 1: aftert gmail dot com. You're not. You should have so

965
00:51:16,480 --> 00:51:19,920
Speaker 1: fun lest somebody explicitly begins to give you some kind

966
00:51:19,920 --> 00:51:23,000
Speaker 1: of consent to do these things. And even then, like,

967
00:51:23,600 --> 00:51:26,720
Speaker 1: I don't know if that's a talk that you, oddly

968
00:51:26,840 --> 00:51:29,120
Speaker 1: enough might have to have with your fucking sister. I

969
00:51:29,120 --> 00:51:33,680
Speaker 1: mean I would never ding. Okay, wait a second, because

970
00:51:33,719 --> 00:51:36,040
Speaker 1: maybe her and her sister are like the Claremont twins,

971
00:51:36,160 --> 00:51:39,200
Speaker 1: So let's talk. So let's figure this out. I think

972
00:51:39,239 --> 00:51:41,880
Speaker 1: the first thing you should do is talk to your sister.

973
00:51:42,040 --> 00:51:44,640
Speaker 1: Ye see if you know, she might be like you,

974
00:51:45,200 --> 00:51:47,680
Speaker 1: I don't give a phone. You know, maybe we don't know.

975
00:51:47,760 --> 00:51:50,920
Speaker 1: So let's if we're, you know, paying homage to the holes.

976
00:51:50,960 --> 00:51:53,080
Speaker 1: They're right into the show. We don't know what type

977
00:51:53,120 --> 00:51:55,040
Speaker 1: of upbringing the gut they might be like the Claremont

978
00:51:55,120 --> 00:51:58,920
Speaker 1: She's like sexcellence right now. So that's an imagination. Jesus Christ.

979
00:51:59,280 --> 00:52:02,640
Speaker 1: So uh, I would say, the first person you need

980
00:52:02,719 --> 00:52:05,120
Speaker 1: to ask is not your boyfriend, is not his best friend,

981
00:52:05,320 --> 00:52:07,360
Speaker 1: But you need to talk about this with your sisters.

982
00:52:08,320 --> 00:52:12,160
Speaker 1: Right then, if the sister be like, actually, yeah, I'll

983
00:52:12,160 --> 00:52:13,919
Speaker 1: give you to go for that because you're my sister

984
00:52:13,960 --> 00:52:15,560
Speaker 1: and I love you. And if this is what's gonna

985
00:52:15,600 --> 00:52:17,759
Speaker 1: make you happy. I want my sister to be happy.

986
00:52:17,880 --> 00:52:22,480
Speaker 1: If you'll get the blessings from your sister, then I

987
00:52:25,080 --> 00:52:30,440
Speaker 1: don't advice obviously, bitch, don't do it but the first

988
00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:34,120
Speaker 1: So if you get the blessing from your sister, then

989
00:52:34,239 --> 00:52:37,000
Speaker 1: I think maybe you need to go ahead. And then

990
00:52:37,920 --> 00:52:39,760
Speaker 1: I'm trying to think it should be the sister's boyfriend.

991
00:52:40,840 --> 00:52:44,040
Speaker 1: You gotta talk to your man and then be like, yo,

992
00:52:44,160 --> 00:52:47,680
Speaker 1: how close are you and Novadius? You know what I mean? Um,

993
00:52:47,719 --> 00:52:50,160
Speaker 1: and just find out if they is close to what

994
00:52:50,520 --> 00:52:53,919
Speaker 1: it might be like Okay, cool, Like I don't want

995
00:52:53,920 --> 00:52:56,520
Speaker 1: to have sex with my roommate, but I don't mind

996
00:52:56,480 --> 00:52:58,640
Speaker 1: that supposed to having sex with you because that doesn't

997
00:52:58,680 --> 00:53:02,400
Speaker 1: make me quick, doesn't There's nothing rob This email was

998
00:53:02,520 --> 00:53:05,239
Speaker 1: dick so good. I had a seizure. Bitch, you need

999
00:53:05,239 --> 00:53:07,479
Speaker 1: to do right. You need to write something. She gave

1000
00:53:07,560 --> 00:53:09,560
Speaker 1: us that ship anyway came out of nowhere. This is

1001
00:53:09,600 --> 00:53:13,040
Speaker 1: just so fabulous, Like I can't believe how I think

1002
00:53:13,160 --> 00:53:15,719
Speaker 1: actually needs to work on her journalist skills because she

1003
00:53:15,760 --> 00:53:19,560
Speaker 1: could have had a way better hot topic headline than

1004
00:53:19,880 --> 00:53:23,239
Speaker 1: because but either she should have just said I want

1005
00:53:23,239 --> 00:53:27,680
Speaker 1: to fuck headline. I want to fuck my boyfriend's roommates,

1006
00:53:27,680 --> 00:53:33,120
Speaker 1: sister boyfriend. No, my sister, my sister's boyfriend, boyfriend. It's

1007
00:53:33,160 --> 00:53:36,760
Speaker 1: too much, too many characters. They're gonna work out. So really,

1008
00:53:36,800 --> 00:53:39,040
Speaker 1: what you did, I'm telling you she won. But see

1009
00:53:39,080 --> 00:53:41,359
Speaker 1: where you're going with this, But talking to the sister, No,

1010
00:53:41,560 --> 00:53:45,120
Speaker 1: that's sick. You can't do this. But we're out here

1011
00:53:45,200 --> 00:53:49,160
Speaker 1: trying to promote healthy communication and the same we don't.

1012
00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:52,600
Speaker 1: We don't know their relationships, thank you right, they might

1013
00:53:52,640 --> 00:53:59,200
Speaker 1: even be judging right now. They might be best it

1014
00:54:00,160 --> 00:54:02,000
Speaker 1: look we all know. We don't count them the ship.

1015
00:54:02,239 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 1: They're like, they're like friends, they're like just because their

1016
00:54:05,160 --> 00:54:09,600
Speaker 1: parents wanted to fund. I think you just want to

1017
00:54:09,719 --> 00:54:11,920
Speaker 1: MMF threesome. I think you want to watch your man

1018
00:54:11,960 --> 00:54:13,719
Speaker 1: get his dick sucks sucked dick, And I think that,

1019
00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:15,359
Speaker 1: And I think the roommate just happened to be fine

1020
00:54:15,560 --> 00:54:18,040
Speaker 1: and they're around each other, so you're seeing it happen.

1021
00:54:18,200 --> 00:54:20,719
Speaker 1: But like, no, you're a chipping you're fucking insane. But like,

1022
00:54:20,880 --> 00:54:25,560
Speaker 1: I really like this um her name, I'm weak. I

1023
00:54:25,560 --> 00:54:27,560
Speaker 1: feel like it's that anonymous that what I'm saying, I'm

1024
00:54:27,560 --> 00:54:29,359
Speaker 1: showing you guys, I think this is a black name

1025
00:54:29,680 --> 00:54:31,440
Speaker 1: the last name. Can you not do that? Not a

1026
00:54:31,480 --> 00:54:33,640
Speaker 1: black name? Bro? No, I'm trying to figure out because

1027
00:54:33,640 --> 00:54:35,080
Speaker 1: if this is white people ship, I want her to

1028
00:54:35,080 --> 00:54:38,160
Speaker 1: come on the show. Why because I don't want to

1029
00:54:38,160 --> 00:54:41,320
Speaker 1: make us like this nuts. You look nuts with everything

1030
00:54:41,360 --> 00:54:43,560
Speaker 1: you just said over the last ten minute. You you

1031
00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:46,160
Speaker 1: like Renig, but it was after you went like after

1032
00:54:46,200 --> 00:54:49,239
Speaker 1: she went love this because like I have this thing

1033
00:54:49,280 --> 00:54:51,360
Speaker 1: that goes on in my head, like there's this comedy

1034
00:54:51,560 --> 00:54:53,319
Speaker 1: ship and in prom school that you have a straight

1035
00:54:53,400 --> 00:54:55,759
Speaker 1: man and crazy man like that you can play like

1036
00:54:55,880 --> 00:54:57,640
Speaker 1: right when you're watching someone who's how do you go

1037
00:54:57,719 --> 00:55:02,800
Speaker 1: from straight and crazy? Biden? They used the word straight

1038
00:55:02,840 --> 00:55:06,279
Speaker 1: as like um on the straight and narrow, like at

1039
00:55:06,320 --> 00:55:09,680
Speaker 1: the term right, like like someone's not tripping. We played

1040
00:55:09,680 --> 00:55:11,440
Speaker 1: that skin in our short film right. I was like,

1041
00:55:11,480 --> 00:55:13,600
Speaker 1: let's have dicks on stage. You're like, no, let's be educational.

1042
00:55:13,640 --> 00:55:16,000
Speaker 1: That's a straight man crazy man skin. So you're crazy

1043
00:55:16,040 --> 00:55:18,360
Speaker 1: and I'm the clear head. No, I think I do both.

1044
00:55:18,760 --> 00:55:21,799
Speaker 1: I just did bo. You don't think so, No, you're

1045
00:55:21,840 --> 00:55:23,680
Speaker 1: just crazy? All right? Well fuck your sister's boyfriend that

1046
00:55:23,680 --> 00:55:26,160
Speaker 1: lives next day to me I don't know. I think

1047
00:55:26,160 --> 00:55:28,799
Speaker 1: that you just need to get M M F threesome going.

1048
00:55:28,920 --> 00:55:33,440
Speaker 1: I think that that's the main uh fantasy that she has.

1049
00:55:33,560 --> 00:55:36,799
Speaker 1: And so if that is the main fantasy. Again, just

1050
00:55:36,840 --> 00:55:39,200
Speaker 1: to wrap this up, I think that you should for

1051
00:55:39,280 --> 00:55:42,120
Speaker 1: sure have that conversation with your man to see if

1052
00:55:42,120 --> 00:55:44,640
Speaker 1: it is even an option to have with your man,

1053
00:55:44,920 --> 00:55:46,759
Speaker 1: because y'all can always find a thing going to join in,

1054
00:55:47,640 --> 00:55:49,120
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, definitely, but he might not

1055
00:55:49,160 --> 00:55:51,080
Speaker 1: be he might not be comfortable, or he might be comfortable.

1056
00:55:51,120 --> 00:55:52,400
Speaker 1: Say I don't want to suth no, dick, and I

1057
00:55:52,440 --> 00:55:57,279
Speaker 1: don't want to go different different, And that's going to

1058
00:55:57,360 --> 00:56:00,160
Speaker 1: make sure. That's just like do not like for we're

1059
00:56:00,160 --> 00:56:02,080
Speaker 1: saying bye m M F threesome. And I feel the

1060
00:56:02,120 --> 00:56:04,160
Speaker 1: same way with men, by the way, like forcing the

1061
00:56:04,200 --> 00:56:07,840
Speaker 1: women there with it's not funny, pussy like, no, don't

1062
00:56:07,840 --> 00:56:11,560
Speaker 1: do that if he's on intimate it's is always key,

1063
00:56:11,680 --> 00:56:16,120
Speaker 1: especially in something Look how wrapped up. Oh yeah, I'm

1064
00:56:16,160 --> 00:56:18,200
Speaker 1: glad we warned up because I know how I was

1065
00:56:18,239 --> 00:56:20,560
Speaker 1: talking to the beginning. I was like, oh, they hate me.

1066
00:56:20,760 --> 00:56:24,200
Speaker 1: I was like, look, fuck, don't do that, don't do that.

1067
00:56:24,200 --> 00:56:28,640
Speaker 1: Don't But again, the same way Like if somebody came

1068
00:56:28,680 --> 00:56:31,520
Speaker 1: in and was calling her Wezzy the whole time, I

1069
00:56:31,560 --> 00:56:33,640
Speaker 1: would be like, bro, it ain't Wezzy, it's wheezy. You

1070
00:56:33,640 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 1: know what we people smell your name, pronoun what you

1071
00:56:38,800 --> 00:56:40,960
Speaker 1: kept saying the entire You just have to say you

1072
00:56:41,120 --> 00:56:43,880
Speaker 1: if you're getting lost and him, yeah, I don't know,

1073
00:56:44,000 --> 00:56:47,000
Speaker 1: I say you. Yeah. But but even them, but you

1074
00:56:47,160 --> 00:56:50,680
Speaker 1: is when you're directly speaking to them. If I'm speaking

1075
00:56:50,719 --> 00:56:54,760
Speaker 1: to you about them, it's different. I'm just like Robin

1076
00:56:54,960 --> 00:56:57,160
Speaker 1: right here, but I know, but but I'm I'm I'm

1077
00:56:57,160 --> 00:56:59,759
Speaker 1: speaking to the both of you, and so if I'm

1078
00:56:59,800 --> 00:57:03,120
Speaker 1: not directing to just them, then it's just like I

1079
00:57:03,160 --> 00:57:05,480
Speaker 1: can't just say you when I'm talking to you, brot

1080
00:57:05,600 --> 00:57:08,080
Speaker 1: when I'm speaking like I had a colleague of mine

1081
00:57:08,080 --> 00:57:10,360
Speaker 1: at my last job that only wanted to be referred

1082
00:57:10,360 --> 00:57:11,799
Speaker 1: to as day them, so I got a little bit

1083
00:57:11,840 --> 00:57:13,640
Speaker 1: better at it, but I was sucking up. Oh, I

1084
00:57:13,719 --> 00:57:15,680
Speaker 1: sucked up this whole show, and they're gonna read me like, yeah,

1085
00:57:15,680 --> 00:57:18,440
Speaker 1: it's supposed to be professional. Y're supposed we experst in

1086
00:57:18,480 --> 00:57:21,200
Speaker 1: this hash. She's sucking up really bad. But it's because

1087
00:57:21,240 --> 00:57:24,440
Speaker 1: the transition happened while I was working with them. Oh,

1088
00:57:24,800 --> 00:57:26,760
Speaker 1: I remember sharing that story. But I do want to

1089
00:57:26,760 --> 00:57:29,280
Speaker 1: say to that is why like and we have we've

1090
00:57:29,320 --> 00:57:31,960
Speaker 1: done our best with just educating ourselves, but you are

1091
00:57:32,040 --> 00:57:36,080
Speaker 1: our first guests that strictly identifies as them they, And

1092
00:57:36,160 --> 00:57:38,240
Speaker 1: so I do apologize if I offended you at any

1093
00:57:38,240 --> 00:57:42,200
Speaker 1: point if anyone's listening, Uh, definitely, Maybe I just need

1094
00:57:42,200 --> 00:57:43,960
Speaker 1: to think before I talk a little bit more and

1095
00:57:44,040 --> 00:57:46,120
Speaker 1: slow down, because then I mean, you would have you know,

1096
00:57:46,200 --> 00:57:49,640
Speaker 1: it's okay to mess up, like we're human. Um, you

1097
00:57:49,640 --> 00:57:52,080
Speaker 1: you you probably mess up more than you even realize.

1098
00:57:52,120 --> 00:57:54,000
Speaker 1: Just talking to like people who are says like you

1099
00:57:54,080 --> 00:57:56,320
Speaker 1: might say, she might say he were talking about somebody else,

1100
00:57:56,320 --> 00:57:58,400
Speaker 1: because you're just you're human. Your brain moves faster than

1101
00:57:58,400 --> 00:58:01,040
Speaker 1: your lips through sometimes. But it's a matter of when

1102
00:58:01,040 --> 00:58:03,280
Speaker 1: you mess up, when you realize you're just correct and

1103
00:58:03,320 --> 00:58:06,440
Speaker 1: just keep going like to make the spectacle of it,

1104
00:58:06,560 --> 00:58:09,120
Speaker 1: or I'm so sorry that it's like now you put

1105
00:58:09,120 --> 00:58:12,280
Speaker 1: the burden on me to have to comfort you, like no, no, no,

1106
00:58:12,320 --> 00:58:15,560
Speaker 1: it's okay. I don't want to because like it's not okay,

1107
00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:18,480
Speaker 1: And I also don't want to. I don't want any

1108
00:58:18,520 --> 00:58:21,680
Speaker 1: of your burden, Like just like you know, any other

1109
00:58:21,720 --> 00:58:25,200
Speaker 1: correction like just they interesting, just keep you never thought

1110
00:58:25,200 --> 00:58:29,600
Speaker 1: of that, Like we overapologize to have someone understand how

1111
00:58:29,640 --> 00:58:31,560
Speaker 1: sorry we are. But it's like god damn, not even

1112
00:58:31,560 --> 00:58:33,360
Speaker 1: making me feel like I don't I don't want that,

1113
00:58:33,640 --> 00:58:36,680
Speaker 1: but to me, it is all. It is almost like

1114
00:58:36,720 --> 00:58:39,320
Speaker 1: the overapology, and I want you to understand as well,

1115
00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:41,560
Speaker 1: coming from someone who doesn't want to offend you or

1116
00:58:41,560 --> 00:58:45,560
Speaker 1: feel like we're disrespecting you. Also to maybe not apologize.

1117
00:58:46,040 --> 00:58:47,680
Speaker 1: I also don't want to come across like well, I

1118
00:58:47,680 --> 00:58:49,840
Speaker 1: don't care how you want to be addressed the same

1119
00:58:49,840 --> 00:58:52,600
Speaker 1: way like if someone keeps correcting me on their name. Yeah,

1120
00:58:52,640 --> 00:58:55,320
Speaker 1: I don't want to also make you feel like I'm

1121
00:58:55,320 --> 00:58:58,400
Speaker 1: dismissive of of you, you know, just the my bad

1122
00:58:58,680 --> 00:59:05,080
Speaker 1: they proceeding well, I'm also it's just it can be.

1123
00:59:05,160 --> 00:59:06,520
Speaker 1: It can be a lot, because you know how you

1124
00:59:06,560 --> 00:59:08,440
Speaker 1: were saying, like oh, you know, it's frustrating because you

1125
00:59:08,440 --> 00:59:12,600
Speaker 1: get confirmed. But it's frustrating for me because I have

1126
00:59:12,760 --> 00:59:16,120
Speaker 1: to hear a seven even if it's not for you,

1127
00:59:16,200 --> 00:59:19,320
Speaker 1: like okay, cool, you guys, you're not my employees, Like

1128
00:59:19,880 --> 00:59:22,120
Speaker 1: I don't I can say anything obviously, I'm telling my

1129
00:59:22,120 --> 00:59:25,360
Speaker 1: fucking business. But I work with white men almost exclusively,

1130
00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:27,040
Speaker 1: and both of my careers I work with white men.

1131
00:59:27,640 --> 00:59:29,120
Speaker 1: I'm not coming out to them because suck them. I

1132
00:59:29,120 --> 00:59:31,720
Speaker 1: don't feel like it. So I'm she, I'm her, I'm

1133
00:59:31,760 --> 00:59:33,560
Speaker 1: a woman, and that's just it is what it is,

1134
00:59:33,600 --> 00:59:35,160
Speaker 1: and it's something that I just have to go through

1135
00:59:35,320 --> 00:59:36,840
Speaker 1: the rest of my life, the rest of my career,

1136
00:59:36,960 --> 00:59:42,000
Speaker 1: just kind of accepting that. So that is I'm not

1137
00:59:42,200 --> 00:59:44,760
Speaker 1: open and I'm not free in my workplace where I

1138
00:59:44,800 --> 00:59:47,360
Speaker 1: spent fucking I spent twenty four hours at work. I

1139
00:59:47,440 --> 00:59:50,360
Speaker 1: just got off last night. I'm tired of ship and

1140
00:59:50,400 --> 00:59:52,919
Speaker 1: that's just my reality. So when I come and I'm

1141
00:59:53,000 --> 00:59:56,280
Speaker 1: experiencing the world with queer people, with black people, with

1142
00:59:56,320 --> 00:59:59,200
Speaker 1: black women, like this is my safe space? Do you

1143
01:00:00,000 --> 01:00:01,840
Speaker 1: I know we're about to rap, but I really I'm

1144
01:00:01,880 --> 01:00:03,600
Speaker 1: curious if you could share a story with us where

1145
01:00:03,640 --> 01:00:07,160
Speaker 1: someone told you they wouldn't so maybe even closely, maybe

1146
01:00:07,160 --> 01:00:09,720
Speaker 1: family member. Has anyone been so reluctant to it that

1147
01:00:09,800 --> 01:00:12,840
Speaker 1: you were like what the fuck? Um? So real fast

1148
01:00:12,840 --> 01:00:16,040
Speaker 1: and I have two stories. Um. First story was my ex.

1149
01:00:16,800 --> 01:00:20,520
Speaker 1: I've known him for now, um almost fifteen years. We

1150
01:00:20,600 --> 01:00:23,000
Speaker 1: dated a few years ago for like a year, and

1151
01:00:23,040 --> 01:00:24,959
Speaker 1: so he's known me like he was like my first kiss.

1152
01:00:24,960 --> 01:00:26,760
Speaker 1: It was like one of my best friends. So when

1153
01:00:26,760 --> 01:00:28,760
Speaker 1: I finally like, hey, this is who I am. I'm

1154
01:00:28,760 --> 01:00:31,960
Speaker 1: non binary, that is are my pronouns and he said, so,

1155
01:00:32,040 --> 01:00:34,320
Speaker 1: what the funk I'm dating What the funk? I'm sucking

1156
01:00:34,320 --> 01:00:37,000
Speaker 1: a tranny. And I was like, okay, there's like many

1157
01:00:37,080 --> 01:00:39,200
Speaker 1: levels of this right because now we're just sucking and

1158
01:00:39,240 --> 01:00:41,520
Speaker 1: now I'm a tranny. So it was like a lot

1159
01:00:41,560 --> 01:00:45,560
Speaker 1: of unpacking there. And I still dated him because I'm

1160
01:00:45,600 --> 01:00:48,120
Speaker 1: a dumb ass bitch and whatever it is, what it is,

1161
01:00:48,440 --> 01:00:51,440
Speaker 1: but you know that was super fucked up. Um you know,

1162
01:00:52,400 --> 01:00:56,600
Speaker 1: now several years later he's trying to be respective of

1163
01:00:56,640 --> 01:01:00,200
Speaker 1: my pronouns, um and be respective of my chosen name.

1164
01:01:00,280 --> 01:01:04,440
Speaker 1: But you know that was not fun. And then, um dam,

1165
01:01:04,680 --> 01:01:06,760
Speaker 1: I had a friend. I mean, we're still friends and

1166
01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:09,280
Speaker 1: he's a lot better now. But when I first says, hey,

1167
01:01:09,280 --> 01:01:12,919
Speaker 1: my name is Rob, he said, no, that's not your name.

1168
01:01:13,640 --> 01:01:15,400
Speaker 1: I'm gonna call you what i've been calling you because

1169
01:01:15,400 --> 01:01:18,360
Speaker 1: it's what i've been calling you. And I'm like, that's

1170
01:01:18,360 --> 01:01:20,920
Speaker 1: not how this works, because hey, he never called me

1171
01:01:20,960 --> 01:01:23,280
Speaker 1: by my first name. Anyway, he always called me by

1172
01:01:23,280 --> 01:01:25,320
Speaker 1: the name that I fucking gave him, So I'm like,

1173
01:01:25,320 --> 01:01:27,160
Speaker 1: why can't you call me by this name? What is

1174
01:01:27,200 --> 01:01:31,040
Speaker 1: the issue? But it's like some people feel um personal,

1175
01:01:31,480 --> 01:01:33,280
Speaker 1: like no, I've known you this way this whole time,

1176
01:01:33,320 --> 01:01:35,440
Speaker 1: Like I'm special. I've known you said you came out

1177
01:01:35,480 --> 01:01:37,640
Speaker 1: the womb, So why do I have to change? I

1178
01:01:37,720 --> 01:01:39,680
Speaker 1: understand all of them having to change, But why then

1179
01:01:39,760 --> 01:01:41,680
Speaker 1: do I gotta call you something? But it's like, that's

1180
01:01:41,680 --> 01:01:43,960
Speaker 1: my name. So when people ask me, oh, what's Rob

1181
01:01:44,040 --> 01:01:46,960
Speaker 1: short for short for Rob, why Robbed? I don't know.

1182
01:01:47,000 --> 01:01:48,760
Speaker 1: It's just my name. You can see my name on

1183
01:01:48,800 --> 01:01:50,280
Speaker 1: the paper. I don't go fun. My name is Rob,

1184
01:01:50,600 --> 01:01:52,600
Speaker 1: and that's what you're gonna call me. That's what they

1185
01:01:52,640 --> 01:01:54,360
Speaker 1: call me at work. Even though they don't know him Trance,

1186
01:01:54,520 --> 01:01:56,720
Speaker 1: they still call me Rob. They have no problems, no questions,

1187
01:01:56,720 --> 01:01:59,080
Speaker 1: they don't care. And that's why I expect from everybody

1188
01:01:59,080 --> 01:02:01,800
Speaker 1: else in the world. Even on my birthday and my

1189
01:02:01,880 --> 01:02:04,400
Speaker 1: cake said happy birthday, Robbed the God. My parents were there,

1190
01:02:04,440 --> 01:02:06,160
Speaker 1: We blew out the cans and everything. They took. Pictures

1191
01:02:06,160 --> 01:02:09,120
Speaker 1: of the cake were posted. They didn't give a fuck.

1192
01:02:09,240 --> 01:02:11,080
Speaker 1: I mean it's don't care because it's just it's a name.

1193
01:02:11,160 --> 01:02:12,919
Speaker 1: It's a name, it's an identities. These things I don't

1194
01:02:12,920 --> 01:02:15,240
Speaker 1: mean anything to you, know what, Rob, you just taught me.

1195
01:02:15,440 --> 01:02:17,440
Speaker 1: I met someone named Alex. I wish I could take

1196
01:02:17,440 --> 01:02:20,200
Speaker 1: it back now, but I was writing their name down.

1197
01:02:20,200 --> 01:02:23,800
Speaker 1: I was like, um, is it Alexandria? And I'm like

1198
01:02:25,400 --> 01:02:28,120
Speaker 1: I remember her looking at me like it's Alan And

1199
01:02:28,120 --> 01:02:31,040
Speaker 1: I was like okay. And I didn't even think in

1200
01:02:31,080 --> 01:02:33,200
Speaker 1: that moment, like oh my god, I'm such a fing

1201
01:02:33,480 --> 01:02:35,440
Speaker 1: I just had to make it like you had to

1202
01:02:35,440 --> 01:02:39,200
Speaker 1: make a whole name. I'm robbing. People call me Rob,

1203
01:02:39,240 --> 01:02:43,040
Speaker 1: and I'm like, where'd you get that from? If it's robbed,

1204
01:02:43,040 --> 01:02:45,000
Speaker 1: it must be short for something like no, it's not shure,

1205
01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:47,400
Speaker 1: if anything, because people might be feening too, Like I

1206
01:02:47,480 --> 01:02:51,120
Speaker 1: need to finish the story. This is a mystery. What

1207
01:02:51,200 --> 01:02:53,880
Speaker 1: did my name got to do with you? Maybe it's

1208
01:02:53,920 --> 01:02:56,400
Speaker 1: our brain, I mean, but don't don't get it twisted.

1209
01:02:56,480 --> 01:03:07,200
Speaker 1: Society over. I guess so good? Damn Yeah, yeah, all right,

1210
01:03:07,280 --> 01:03:12,240
Speaker 1: my guys, the society has Society has trained you to

1211
01:03:12,240 --> 01:03:15,440
Speaker 1: be this way. Society has given you these bioneers. It

1212
01:03:15,520 --> 01:03:18,040
Speaker 1: gave you these fucking colors, like society has taught you

1213
01:03:18,080 --> 01:03:19,920
Speaker 1: all these things. It taught you able ism and totally

1214
01:03:19,920 --> 01:03:23,400
Speaker 1: transfall fact fault be homophobi, racism, colorism, toucht theism like

1215
01:03:23,560 --> 01:03:26,400
Speaker 1: this is society's doing. It's just up to you to

1216
01:03:26,680 --> 01:03:29,360
Speaker 1: undo it. And it takes time, Like you can't unlearn everything,

1217
01:03:30,160 --> 01:03:32,440
Speaker 1: like at once you're gonna be un learned without your

1218
01:03:32,440 --> 01:03:35,800
Speaker 1: whole life. It's like, don't be too hard on yourself

1219
01:03:35,840 --> 01:03:38,360
Speaker 1: for not being perfect, because that's as the world wakes up.

1220
01:03:38,400 --> 01:03:41,919
Speaker 1: We are too every day. So I appreciate you saying

1221
01:03:42,120 --> 01:03:44,440
Speaker 1: and I'm glad we got school today. I learned a

1222
01:03:44,520 --> 01:03:48,400
Speaker 1: lot about I mean, especially this last part. I agree.

1223
01:03:48,440 --> 01:03:51,120
Speaker 1: I agree. Can you, um, as we wrap up, can

1224
01:03:51,160 --> 01:03:53,840
Speaker 1: you let our listeners know where they can find you

1225
01:03:54,200 --> 01:03:56,640
Speaker 1: social media and where they can listen to you? So

1226
01:03:56,920 --> 01:04:03,080
Speaker 1: um Instagram smoking Peep, I'll get that out, like you know,

1227
01:04:03,240 --> 01:04:09,160
Speaker 1: smoking Dick, smoking peep smoking like penis no, no you

1228
01:04:11,680 --> 01:04:13,360
Speaker 1: be out here spoken Dick. They'd be working while with

1229
01:04:13,640 --> 01:04:17,439
Speaker 1: the smoking peep Dick. But if you're interested in smoking Dick,

1230
01:04:17,520 --> 01:04:19,720
Speaker 1: let me know. I want to figure out. I like

1231
01:04:19,800 --> 01:04:26,320
Speaker 1: to do anything new on Twitter. I'm the underscore body.

1232
01:04:26,520 --> 01:04:29,240
Speaker 1: And if you want to listen to me in a

1233
01:04:29,240 --> 01:04:33,160
Speaker 1: whole uprising Instagram and in a whole uprising Apple, Google,

1234
01:04:33,200 --> 01:04:36,120
Speaker 1: wherever you listen to podcasts were out here getting and

1235
01:04:36,200 --> 01:04:38,320
Speaker 1: you guys can check all of that in the description

1236
01:04:38,480 --> 01:04:40,960
Speaker 1: of this week's episode. Before we get out of here,

1237
01:04:41,000 --> 01:04:43,320
Speaker 1: I also want to shout out before I give a

1238
01:04:43,320 --> 01:04:45,360
Speaker 1: shout out to our wore Hive members on our Patreon,

1239
01:04:45,440 --> 01:04:48,919
Speaker 1: I want to shout out to all of the box owners. Uh,

1240
01:04:49,040 --> 01:04:52,880
Speaker 1: you guys know official box owner. My subscription boxes sold

1241
01:04:52,880 --> 01:04:55,200
Speaker 1: out in just twelve hours, So shout out to all

1242
01:04:55,240 --> 01:04:57,800
Speaker 1: of you guys we didn't know. Yeah, it's sold out

1243
01:04:57,840 --> 01:04:59,560
Speaker 1: in twelve hours and a lot of you guys are

1244
01:04:59,560 --> 01:05:02,840
Speaker 1: already collecting or getting your boxes in the mail. I

1245
01:05:02,880 --> 01:05:05,600
Speaker 1: will just give a shout out to USPS because two

1246
01:05:05,640 --> 01:05:09,080
Speaker 1: of you who are listeners of the show wrote me

1247
01:05:09,120 --> 01:05:10,960
Speaker 1: and tried to Well, if you have any issues, you

1248
01:05:10,960 --> 01:05:14,919
Speaker 1: can hit me up. Shout out to those workers at USPS. Well,

1249
01:05:15,600 --> 01:05:21,240
Speaker 1: what's bo bitches at your old house? Probably? Yeah. Uh,

1250
01:05:21,600 --> 01:05:22,960
Speaker 1: I just wanted to give a shout out to y'all.

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01:05:23,000 --> 01:05:24,880
Speaker 1: Do you have anything before we get out of here?

1252
01:05:25,200 --> 01:05:27,480
Speaker 1: No check out for fact sake, on Tuesday's what I

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Speaker 1: mean Eddie gonna do. I think Eddie and I are

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Speaker 1: doing billionaires this week, and I was like, let's talk

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Speaker 1: about people. Get I'll let you do that. Give me

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Speaker 1: a billionaire this. We just did chicken last week, and

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Speaker 1: you know, he looks so nervous because I was like,

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Speaker 1: we're gonna talk about why black people love chicken. He

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Speaker 1: was like, you know he was going to the screen.

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Speaker 1: I'm sure because he ain't black. Well, I wanted to

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Speaker 1: dig into that ship. Did you know that? That's one.

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Speaker 1: It's because there was a lot of chickens in the field.

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Speaker 1: It was the easiest thing to give. But one of

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Speaker 1: the reasons that like slave owners wanted to push that

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01:05:59,160 --> 01:06:01,800
Speaker 1: ship is bec as they find eating with hands barbaric,

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Speaker 1: they want to watch that because, yeah, do you know

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Speaker 1: how sick people are? So crazy? Sorry white people? All

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Speaker 1: twenty seven of y'all listening, Uh, you know, we only

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Speaker 1: got about seven actually twenty nine since we were commenting likelines. Anyways,

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Speaker 1: I do want to give a shout out to our

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Speaker 1: hore Hive members. If you haven't yet subscribed to our Patreon,

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Speaker 1: you get three bonus episodes every month. There's over ninety

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Speaker 1: five episodes over on Patreon. You know what I mean.

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Speaker 1: We almost got a hunted over at s wo um.

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Speaker 1: And so for those of y'all who thought we wasn't

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Speaker 1: gonna get past the hunting episodes of sex Bitch, we

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Speaker 1: got almost three hunted now. Alright, So y'all, all right,

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Speaker 1: someone in the YouTube said that you and I are

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Speaker 1: not gonna make it until May, so we're gonna push through. Anyways.

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Speaker 1: We're gonna leave you guys with a five minute bonus

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01:06:49,040 --> 01:06:52,200
Speaker 1: clip of our patreon again, go on over to patreon

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Speaker 1: dot com back slash Horrible Decisions to become a patron.

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Speaker 1: And this has been yet another episode of horrible decisions

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Speaker 1: to get into our Vanellusha. Because the crazy part about

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Speaker 1: this is everyone assumes it to be a woman. So

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Speaker 1: when you hear this, of course you're gonna think it's

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Speaker 1: a woman. So this comes from the New York Post.

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01:07:13,320 --> 01:07:18,360
Speaker 1: A nurse was suspended after stripping off ppe to have

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Speaker 1: sex with a COVID nineteen patience. Oh my god, I

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Speaker 1: remember this. It was a gay dude, right, it was

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Speaker 1: a dude, bro nurse. I'm just saying there, that's what

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Speaker 1: we're doing. That's what we're doing. Maybe that is what

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Speaker 1: he said beach and and honestly, to be fair, I

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Speaker 1: told y'all my nigga fucked me in every hope possible

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Speaker 1: while I had COVID and he maintained negative status. So

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Speaker 1: I don't know how this works. Maybe you can't get

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Speaker 1: it through sex. I don't know. A male nurse in

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Speaker 1: Indonesia has been suspended after admitting that he stripped off

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Speaker 1: his perse snow protective equipment to have sex in a

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Speaker 1: toilet with a man infected with COVID nineteen. It is

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Speaker 1: true that there has been a suspected incident of a

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Speaker 1: same sex relationship between a health worker and a COVID

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Speaker 1: nineteen patient at the Wisma Outlet Emergency Hospital. He said

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Speaker 1: the nurse must follow legal processing the Indonesia. The Indonesia

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Speaker 1: expat reported the incident in Jakarta came to light when

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Speaker 1: the patient boasted about the romp on his Twitter account.

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Speaker 1: All right now, so the motherfucking COVID patient decided to brag.

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Speaker 1: This is that capital building ship. You could have just

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Speaker 1: shut the up, could have just shut up, but it

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Speaker 1: could have just not said nothing. But I ain't gonna

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Speaker 1: hold you if you got COVID? Do you in a

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Speaker 1: hospital I mean, to be fair, we talk about our

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Speaker 1: sexual sescapades quite a bit. Would you mention that you've

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Speaker 1: begged a fine as nurse or doctor and then he

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Speaker 1: came at h a pussy while you had COVID? I

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Speaker 1: think you and I would maybe brad about I would.

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Speaker 1: I would, I would say that, but just maybe I

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Speaker 1: wouldn't say um, oh damn. I guess I would say no.

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Speaker 1: Let me say I probably wouldn't bring up the COVID

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Speaker 1: part because then it's like, you look, no, but say

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Speaker 1: you announced COVID and then you talk about when you

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Speaker 1: got tested, how you have to maybe stay in the

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Speaker 1: hospital and you had sex in the hospital. It's it's

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Speaker 1: literally just oh, clearly you had sex in the hospital.

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Speaker 1: Twitter like, can we interview them because they're fun well,

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Speaker 1: I mean, I don't know. Do they speak well, yeah,

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Speaker 1: Jacarta in Indonesia they pretty they do speak English. Oh

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Speaker 1: if you watch De Fiancee Um, there's an Indonesian girl

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Speaker 1: that comes and she moves to Wisconsin and she was like,

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Speaker 1: this is very poor, Like I grew up very rich,

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Speaker 1: and you know, they like have a really weird English

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Speaker 1: because it's all the accents all come from who you

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Speaker 1: learn English from like some people come down like you're like,

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Speaker 1: what the funk? It's all how you learn English? Oh? Yes,

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Speaker 1: this was like this it poor as fun, like they

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Speaker 1: got bread in Jakarta. Oh yeah, no they do. It's

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Speaker 1: crazy because when I was living in Singapore, all of

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Speaker 1: the scammer Africans live in Jakarta. So like this, it's

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Speaker 1: also mad Nigerians and Jakarta with maccarter, I'm Jakarta. But

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Speaker 1: um we found that out because we met the niggas

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Speaker 1: when we was in Bali and a bitch when I

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Speaker 1: was in when I was in fucking Singapore, we we

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Speaker 1: flew to Bali for seventy five dollars in my nigga,

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01:10:30,400 --> 01:10:32,760
Speaker 1: like when you get over there, telling cheap to fly.

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01:10:33,120 --> 01:10:35,599
Speaker 1: So we went to Bally for Christmas and that's where

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Speaker 1: we met these Nigerians and they weren't able to come

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Speaker 1: into Singapore because Singapore is very strict when it comes

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Speaker 1: to Nigerian passport holders. And they was like, yo, Singapore

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Speaker 1: don't let us in because they require like bank statements

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Speaker 1: and ship and clearly they funds ain't legit my nigga.

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Speaker 1: So these I'm not gonna say all Nigerian Nigerians, but Singapore.

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Speaker 1: I'm just saying I want to clear that up because

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Speaker 1: it's not all Nigerians with the scammers. Is the one

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Speaker 1: that got a problem. I just wanted to tell you

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Speaker 1: guys really quick. I just had a text come through

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Speaker 1: it would love to read. Hi, Gela, I'm writing you

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Speaker 1: on behalf of your conversation this morning with I won't

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Speaker 1: say his name. I just wanted to apologize on the

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Speaker 1: behalf of our company. Our production company has never faced

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Speaker 1: something like this. We stand by our biopic, but by

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Speaker 1: pH is in round and I would love to have

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Speaker 1: a discussion regarding how our company would move forward. Please

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Speaker 1: let me know when you're free today for a call again.

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Speaker 1: Sincerest apologies, But I see I ain't even gonna hold

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Speaker 1: you that email right there. Bothers me too, because that

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Speaker 1: now they're making it seem like, oh, we want to

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Speaker 1: make sure she doesn't claim that we're racist over here.

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Speaker 1: Pretty good on Patre, I don't, yeah, but I don't

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Speaker 1: understand like your need to point out the BIPOC part,

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Speaker 1: like what is the BIPOC code? You know? And I

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Speaker 1: probably because in my email I said something about it.

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Speaker 1: I said, did the nobody else was black on the call, see,

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Speaker 1: and That's what I'm talking about. Like so I just

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Speaker 1: I just uh hie good sign. Let me tell you

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Speaker 1: something that is really bringing up dude, Like I hate

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Speaker 1: that ship.