Speaker 1: R and b's money.
Speaker 2: Honey, we are thanks take volatility. We are the authority
Speaker 2: on all things R and B ladies and gentlemen. My
Speaker 2: name is Tank. If this is the R and B
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Speaker 1: Yes, when all things are in south Side see what happens?
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Speaker 2: know who you are south Side Phoenix. Yeah, we know
Speaker 2: who you are here. Yeah, we're gonna get into your ship.
Speaker 3: Yeah, we're gonna talk about your exes.
Speaker 1: We're gonna talk about your axes. Shy podcast.
Speaker 4: Yeah wait, I'm sorry. First first, Yes, you hit your
Speaker 4: nails manicured.
Speaker 1: Absolutely, they look great. Yeah, this is jail.
Speaker 4: Wait you get John your now.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah this has to last.
Speaker 5: Yes, long lasting.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm not playing to you called me on the day.
Speaker 1: Werein't no color on it? Yeah? Yeah I do, I do? Black?
Speaker 1: Black is my color?
Speaker 4: Okay, good yeah black us.
Speaker 1: Yeah. You know I dig into my rock started. I
Speaker 1: go to a Liny crab.
Speaker 5: You want to know we love that do I want
Speaker 5: to know?
Speaker 3: Yeah, nba oh boy.
Speaker 4: Oh okay, I'm not going to call you that, you know,
Speaker 4: kind of dangerous.
Speaker 1: But he's a young woman. His nails.
Speaker 3: He was like, yeah, yeah, that's that's what.
Speaker 1: That's what. That's My kids. My kids was like.
Speaker 2: My daughter was like, what are you doing?
Speaker 1: Is everything okay? That's fine?
Speaker 5: What made you want to do?
Speaker 1: That? Just seemed like fun?
Speaker 5: And is it?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm like, I'm impulsive, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: I'm impulsive, whether it be me too, whether it be
Speaker 2: spending going somewhere, like, I'm impulsive. He's my voice of reason.
Speaker 2: I'm like, let's do it. He's like this, you better not.
Speaker 5: I'm surprised by that.
Speaker 2: Actually he's my voice of reason. Oh no, for sure,
Speaker 2: that's that's our balance, you know what I'm saying. But like,
Speaker 2: I think that just who cares.
Speaker 3: When he painted his nails, all the comments said, yay,
Speaker 3: you let him.
Speaker 2: Do this for me?
Speaker 4: For sure, I'll literally be doing I don't know, some
Speaker 4: type of function. And Christine's like, Kean, I'm like a
Speaker 4: bad little kid like I right now would be walking
Speaker 4: on the edge of this couch just because And Christy
Speaker 4: was like yeah.
Speaker 2: So, so he would call me at like at like
Speaker 2: six in the morning and he would say, Tank, you can't.
Speaker 2: You have to stop me. Stop in the comments. You
Speaker 2: have to stop because I would argue in the comments
Speaker 2: and I would I would let motherfuckers have it. And
Speaker 2: because I felt personally attacked, I didn't know that they
Speaker 2: weren't real people. I didn't. I didn't know that it
Speaker 2: didn't matter people.
Speaker 3: No, most of the people ain't real.
Speaker 1: Some are, yes.
Speaker 6: And when I say real in terms of ghost accounts, really.
Speaker 2: Real conversations, right, because people are hiding behind things, and
Speaker 2: a lot of times people just want to say something
Speaker 2: to They just want to have a conversation, get a
Speaker 2: rise something. It's not us sitting right here and you
Speaker 2: saying that same ship to me that you just type
Speaker 2: with your thumbs.
Speaker 1: It's not real. You're not gonna say that in my face.
Speaker 2: But since you, you know, since you're hidding, you feel
Speaker 2: like you can get that off. So I have I
Speaker 2: have to combat that. And then my elder will call
Speaker 2: me insane. Stop the funk ship as you just call it.
Speaker 1: As you so eloquently.
Speaker 6: Nigga ha a Twitter battle against a nigga with a
Speaker 6: picture of him.
Speaker 3: It's like, so I'm cussing myself out.
Speaker 1: Because yeah, because wouldn't do this.
Speaker 4: Like, so, do you look at the comments like all
Speaker 4: the comments?
Speaker 2: No, not really, And if I and I look at
Speaker 2: them from a different lens, now you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: So like now I'm just kind of like like the
Speaker 2: ridiculous stuff. That kind of makes me laugh because like
Speaker 2: the way I was able to process it was watching
Speaker 2: people say stuff about other people that I actually know
Speaker 2: that I know that that stuff is not true about
Speaker 2: I was like, that's not right, that's not how that happened.
Speaker 2: That's not like, uh got it. It doesn't matter in
Speaker 2: this place. Trying to figure out what the truth is
Speaker 2: will drive you fucking crazy in the social media world.
Speaker 2: That's not what that world is for. The truth is
Speaker 2: for you in your real life. Thrust in and understand
Speaker 2: the truth in your real life. As long as you
Speaker 2: can do that, be okay.
Speaker 4: And this ship mm hmm, that's nice, wise words.
Speaker 1: Giving you my old man.
Speaker 3: I got a feeling you'd be looking at the comments
Speaker 3: ready to go off. That's nice.
Speaker 1: South.
Speaker 5: I'm an angel.
Speaker 4: No, so I actually used to read all the comments
Speaker 4: of everything, but I feel like naturally, our minds stick
Speaker 4: to the negative things more.
Speaker 5: This mind does, yeah, exactly. And I used to read.
Speaker 5: I used to read all of them.
Speaker 4: The negative ones would stick out so hard, and then
Speaker 4: I would be responding like it would be bad. And
Speaker 4: after a while I just realized that was all blown
Speaker 4: back into my face, like pretty much every time. So
Speaker 4: I was like, what is the point because I'm trying
Speaker 4: to defend myself, but then I have to defend myself
Speaker 4: now against the defense already is underscrewed me.
Speaker 2: Yeah, where people don't realize, right, you never win that.
Speaker 2: It's an ongoing right, And so here's the part. Here's
Speaker 2: the part he said something that was a long time ago.
Speaker 2: He's like, you skip past all that love to respond
Speaker 2: to that one person. I skipped past a thousand you
Speaker 2: the man comments to get to you?
Speaker 1: Ain't the man comment? Why not? Nigga? Why the fuck not? Yea?
Speaker 2: Who do you think you are?
Speaker 1: Who is you? Better not say? You better not reminded.
Speaker 3: Me of that?
Speaker 5: Have you seen that video?
Speaker 4: This is new to me, by the way, because I
Speaker 4: don't really be on the internet now because I hate
Speaker 4: the internet. But someone showed me the I don't remember
Speaker 4: what his name is. But it's a bowling guy and
Speaker 4: he's like, who do you think you are? Oh?
Speaker 6: Yeah, have you seen that's his name?
Speaker 3: Doesn't feel something?
Speaker 6: Yes, yes, yes, I know exactly you talking about he'osuld
Speaker 6: be doing the X ship.
Speaker 1: Who do you think you are?
Speaker 2: I am?
Speaker 4: After he gets to strike, it's so good.
Speaker 1: Well we are now at this point we're mature.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm twenty six.
Speaker 1: Okay to grow into this.
Speaker 2: What we like to do at the Army Money Podcast
Speaker 2: is we like to go to the origin. We like
Speaker 2: to go to the beginning, right of where somebody looked
Speaker 2: at you, saw you somewhere, heard you somewhere and said,
Speaker 2: ooh that is something, or you saw it for yourself.
Speaker 2: You looked in the mirror one day and was like,
Speaker 2: I'm nice with this. When was that moment? Probably young,
Speaker 2: Probably started really young. Going through my notes, I say
Speaker 2: it started really young for you. So let you tell
Speaker 2: it though.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so it starts when I was My mom says,
Speaker 4: exactly sixteen months old.
Speaker 5: She taught me.
Speaker 4: She was a teacher, so she taught me the ABC's early.
Speaker 4: She wanted me to get ahead of it, so show
Speaker 4: me ABC's and then I guess I was singing the
Speaker 4: song and like adding runs and shit, and I was
Speaker 4: just singing it different and people would always like stop
Speaker 4: at the mall and be like, is she singing the
Speaker 4: ABC's like that?
Speaker 5: And then my mom was like yeah.
Speaker 4: And then automatically she's just like she grew up in
Speaker 4: foster care, like she didn't gro up with a lot
Speaker 4: of shit. So she was just like she wanted me
Speaker 4: to have what I wanted to have, and whatever my
Speaker 4: natural talent was, she wanted me to do that. She
Speaker 4: didn't care what it was. But it's like one hundred
Speaker 4: and ten percent. So she's seen that and she was like, Okay,
Speaker 4: she's a star. And then put me yeah, literally as
Speaker 4: a baby, as a baby, and then when I was
Speaker 4: like three, she put me into singing, dance and acting,
Speaker 4: like classes like performing arts, extracurricular stuff, and I literally
Speaker 4: just from there was just working towards it my whole life.
Speaker 5: I was doing pageants. I was taking.
Speaker 4: Pageants.
Speaker 5: Yeah, that was like four years old.
Speaker 4: Crown those series, I have so many Crowns I have around, so.
Speaker 2: I those are those are different though for people who
Speaker 2: don't know that world, that's a different world.
Speaker 4: And I wasn't in None of them were like you
Speaker 4: spray tann the babies and that thing.
Speaker 5: It's like, yeah, it.
Speaker 1: Was like you know, like full makeup and full no.
Speaker 4: And the one that I did mostly my whole childhood.
Speaker 4: If you got caught with makeup on your face, if
Speaker 4: they could see it, you were automatically disqualified, which also
Speaker 4: was like kind of fucked up. Was even more fucked
Speaker 4: up because it's like, Okay, now, if you lose, you're
Speaker 4: not naturally beautiful and your personality sucks is basically what
Speaker 4: it was in your head if you lost, that's what, yes,
Speaker 4: Because no, like I'm undoing a lot of this shit
Speaker 4: in therapy, Like I'm trying because as much as it
Speaker 4: taught me how to be a great performer, how to
Speaker 4: do interviews, how to do public speaking, like everything like that,
Speaker 4: I really did learn a lot. I feel like I
Speaker 4: was trained in it. But if I didn't win, it
Speaker 4: was like, oh I didn't say this answer right enough.
Speaker 4: I have so much anxiety going on social media. Even
Speaker 4: this gives me anxiety, like because I feel like if
Speaker 4: I say like, or if I don't speak perfectly, if
Speaker 4: I don't get my point across in a specific amount
Speaker 4: of sentences, then I'm like gonna lose.
Speaker 5: That's what's been built up in my head.
Speaker 3: But we bring winners on here.
Speaker 1: And we don't give a fuck.
Speaker 6: We don't give this is we're entertaining ourselves.
Speaker 1: This is a safe don't give a space.
Speaker 2: You got a.
Speaker 5: Crown, you know. Though, Like, even though there was all
Speaker 5: that pressure, I did. I'm not trying to I mean,
Speaker 5: I'll brag, but I.
Speaker 4: Did win Almost every year I competed because I was
Speaker 4: just myself, Like I would make funny ass faces on stage,
Speaker 4: like I would do a lot of the ship that
Speaker 4: the other girls were too scared to do, which rightfully so,
Speaker 4: because the whole thing is about being perfect. But I
Speaker 4: remember one time I went into an interview and I
Speaker 4: was probably like seven, and they have two minute rounds,
Speaker 4: so you literally go around you all two minutes with
Speaker 4: each judge and they ask you one or two questions
Speaker 4: and you have to basically give them like your entire
Speaker 4: personality within those two questions.
Speaker 5: But also be perfect.
Speaker 4: So while I'm talking to them, one of the judges
Speaker 4: asked me, what do you like to do for fun?
Speaker 4: And I said, I love to talk. Stay quiet for
Speaker 4: the rest of the two minutes, and the next judge
Speaker 4: was like, what are you doing your spare time? And
Speaker 4: I said, talk, just stop talking. I probably did that
Speaker 4: to every single judge and I still won that year.
Speaker 4: I think it's because I was just They found it
Speaker 4: charming that I just like said, I love to talk
Speaker 4: about it.
Speaker 2: Real because everybody has their their prop answers that were
Speaker 2: given to them by their mom to make sure you
Speaker 2: say this, and I do. And you were like, to
Speaker 2: my poor mom, I want to talk talk told Wels, Wow.
Speaker 5: I said, you give me a good topic early.
Speaker 3: Yeah, how many years were your passions?
Speaker 5: From four to like fifteen, four to fifteen?
Speaker 6: I'm sorry, what, Yeah, this is a real thing. She's
Speaker 6: really I had no idea. I thought just the little
Speaker 6: baby girls do it for a couple of years and
Speaker 6: then it's on something.
Speaker 5: It seemed like miss Universe.
Speaker 2: Yeah, because because I had an ex that was in
Speaker 2: a in a pageant and I helped her train for
Speaker 2: a pageant and then did music for the pageant.
Speaker 1: And there was a pageant. Yea, I didn't know. I
Speaker 1: didn't know.
Speaker 2: I didn't know that that was the thing. It was
Speaker 2: like a local pageant and I was like, what, so
Speaker 2: what am I singing for? And I did the music
Speaker 2: for the local pageant. It was like, and she didn't win,
Speaker 2: I was and you did the music?
Speaker 1: Did the music? Did you feel place that?
Speaker 5: Did you feel like that was a personal attack on you?
Speaker 1: No? I didn't.
Speaker 2: I felt like I felt like it was an attack
Speaker 2: on her all like the work she did, and she
Speaker 2: got skinny and lost her cheeks, and.
Speaker 1: So you're doing.
Speaker 2: Pageants and all of these things. Mom says you're a star.
Speaker 2: Eighteen months, you're already doing.
Speaker 3: Sixteen boy sixteen sixteen months?
Speaker 2: Early?
Speaker 1: What did I said?
Speaker 3: It was early eighteen eighteen. He just has bad man.
Speaker 1: Doing runs.
Speaker 2: ABC even made up a whole new ABC melody, but
Speaker 2: this do.
Speaker 3: You remember the melody?
Speaker 1: When is the singing recognized?
Speaker 4: I think actually my stardom was recognized first because everyone
Speaker 4: would always like to my mom, all my family, people
Speaker 4: that would just meet me, they would just be.
Speaker 5: Like, she's a star. Oh my god, your daughter's a star.
Speaker 4: Like it was always about like how hyper I was,
Speaker 4: and like how I guess how real I was, And
Speaker 4: so I think it started with that sort of effect.
Speaker 4: And then also, you know the sixty month old thing,
Speaker 4: and I honestly say, I don't think I really had
Speaker 4: a choice, Like I never really it was just always
Speaker 4: something that was a part of me. It was like
Speaker 4: speaking a second language, you know. So being in performing
Speaker 4: arts school. I went to performing arts school from second
Speaker 4: to fourth grade, and then fifth grade I was homeschooled,
Speaker 4: but then I was going to another performing art school
Speaker 4: like on the side for just the performing arts part,
Speaker 4: and then middle school went to another performing arts school, Sport.
Speaker 5: Yeah, it grew up a musical theater. Everything I've been.
Speaker 3: Doing this trained.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's still learning so much every day.
Speaker 6: But that's the thing about music, theater, all these different things.
Speaker 6: You never stopped learning. It's always something new, it's always evolving. So,
Speaker 6: like you said, there's the early on stuff, but you
Speaker 6: continue to learn as you go along in this.
Speaker 3: Thing that we have.
Speaker 6: And then especially when you become a professional, because just
Speaker 6: doing it for the love and the purity of music
Speaker 6: or theater is one thing, but then doing it to
Speaker 6: pay your bills the whole.
Speaker 3: World.
Speaker 4: Yeah, learning that was something I really That's that was
Speaker 4: hard to learn.
Speaker 3: That's never easy.
Speaker 6: That's never easy because it's just it gets thrown at
Speaker 6: you because it goes from I'm just singing because I
Speaker 6: can sing, and then people enjoy my singing till somebody
Speaker 6: is like I can make some money with her or
Speaker 6: on her or off her, or however that goes. And
Speaker 6: then as the artist, you have to find it in
Speaker 6: yourself to say, hey, I need to learn this ship too.
Speaker 3: And that's when it gets tricky.
Speaker 2: In this business. It's tough because as artists, I think
Speaker 2: we all have bumped our heads in some some form
Speaker 2: of fashion. You know what I'm saying, finding that lesson
Speaker 2: or throughout that lesson.
Speaker 3: That's your friend, ain't your friend? That's your friend?
Speaker 2: As your friend that that that that next check may.
Speaker 1: Not come right?
Speaker 3: Did the friend and put their name on the on
Speaker 3: the song that they're right?
Speaker 1: It's so much to worry.
Speaker 4: If I could make my eye twitch, would twitch?
Speaker 1: I have you been through some time?
Speaker 3: This is what it is?
Speaker 1: Though? Is what it is?
Speaker 2: When is your When is your first moment of like, Okay,
Speaker 2: now I'm getting a real check for this, and now
Speaker 2: it's time to really like the rubber.
Speaker 1: Is starting to meet the road.
Speaker 4: I think everything that came with X doing something was
Speaker 4: when I really started to be like, oh okay, my
Speaker 4: rent doesn't seem so scary. Now that's cool. So X
Speaker 4: was X was doing things.
Speaker 6: Was it like you had other situations before that, like
Speaker 6: as in your come up teenage years, the whole thing and.
Speaker 5: Kids bop.
Speaker 1: But no checks at kids but not for me.
Speaker 3: The niggas ain't got no checks at kids.
Speaker 4: But sorry, jog on blast, Like this was a very
Speaker 4: different time now, But at.
Speaker 5: That time, yeah, I was not. Fuck I'm just gonna
Speaker 5: say it.
Speaker 4: I was not officially a kids Bop kid, even though
Speaker 4: I was traveling under for the live tours that we
Speaker 4: were doing. I was traveling, so I wasn't officially a
Speaker 4: kid's wop kid. And there was like some racist shit
Speaker 4: that was going on behind the scenes. So no, I
Speaker 4: did not get paid as much as the other kids.
Speaker 2: Remember the box, Yes, so the box this video channel
Speaker 2: where you could call an order of the order a video.
Speaker 2: You could pay like ten to fifteen cents to order
Speaker 2: a video that was more than that this morning twenty
Speaker 2: five cents.
Speaker 3: No, No, it was some dollars, like some dollars or
Speaker 3: something like to order video.
Speaker 2: Okay, so you order video and all of the video,
Speaker 2: all of the songs are clean. So there was n
Speaker 2: w A on the box. And so when I would
Speaker 2: go to school, when I would go to school wrapping
Speaker 2: n w A. Everybody would laugh at me.
Speaker 4: Because because you have seen clean, I only knew the
Speaker 4: clean kids, so sad man.
Speaker 7: And sweet at the same.
Speaker 1: I come here and raps.
Speaker 7: I missed till the brother, you know, like get this, nigga.
Speaker 1: Can't hang with us.
Speaker 5: Damn about the anymore?
Speaker 1: Did you say Bible?
Speaker 6: So kids star They got labels and record deals, yeah,
Speaker 6: paying people, and they did not know what to do.
Speaker 4: No, I had no idea until they dropped me.
Speaker 3: When you were signs for for two years.
Speaker 4: Though, yeah, so in that time, I was just I was.
Speaker 4: I moved to LA with my eighteen year old best
Speaker 4: friend when I was sixteen.
Speaker 1: You came out to LA at sixteen by yourself, by yourself.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And I was going back and forth for a
Speaker 4: year already, pretty much like since I.
Speaker 3: Got the record. The label was in La.
Speaker 4: Yeah, No, well in New York most go to because
Speaker 4: it was closer because I'm from Arizona. So it was
Speaker 4: like my stepdad would come and drive me out. I
Speaker 4: finally like nobody told me like, oh you have to
Speaker 4: get a manager, Oh you have to do these things.
Speaker 4: And so I was in a session one day and
Speaker 4: the person was like, do you have management? And I
Speaker 4: was like no, and she was like, let me put
Speaker 4: you in contact with my managers because you need somebody
Speaker 4: to like talk to and to talk for you.
Speaker 5: And I was like okay.
Speaker 4: So I met with these managers super cool, and then
Speaker 4: they got me in touch with an agent, and I
Speaker 4: was just like so confused, Like there was so much
Speaker 4: going on, but all I knew was like my mom
Speaker 4: and my stepdad were driving me back and forth from
Speaker 4: Arizona to LA pretty much every weekend for auditions and
Speaker 4: sessions and whatever, and then would fly me out and
Speaker 4: I would be in LA for like a month and
Speaker 4: then go back home, go back to school, like I
Speaker 4: had such great teachers and like great principle and stuff
Speaker 4: at that point, Yeah for sure. So yeah, I was
Speaker 4: doing that for a while and then my mom was
Speaker 4: basically at some point was just like listen, this shit's
Speaker 4: got expensive. Also like we don't have the time, and
Speaker 4: I think you're ready, because, like.
Speaker 5: I said, I was a really good kid.
Speaker 4: My mum always told me like, as long as you
Speaker 4: build up this trust in your childhood, will be able
Speaker 4: to trust you more with certain things. And my parents
Speaker 4: were also pretty strict and then they're like, go to
Speaker 4: l A.
Speaker 5: Keep by you.
Speaker 3: They went from restricted, go fly, go for real for real.
Speaker 4: So then, yeah, I came out to l A and
Speaker 4: I was working at a gymnastics center and going sessions
Speaker 4: at the same time.
Speaker 5: Fuck no, but I was teaching it.
Speaker 4: Oh okay, I know.
Speaker 6: Confused me too because I'm about to go into my
Speaker 6: daughter's class the next time.
Speaker 3: Like, so can you exactly.
Speaker 5: To them to do it for real?
Speaker 2: For real?
Speaker 4: For real? I did have such a supportive mom and
Speaker 4: a supportive family. You know, other people they're working to
Speaker 4: try to prove their families wrong, and I didn't have
Speaker 4: that problem. My mom was really really supportive and was
Speaker 4: like pretty much my Like, I guess I thought time
Speaker 4: the reason I did it, you know.
Speaker 5: So I'm really lucky.
Speaker 3: That I shut up.
Speaker 1: Because it's like my mom.
Speaker 2: My mom was as My mom and dad were as
Speaker 2: supportive as they could be because they didn't know what
Speaker 2: this was. It was like I'm going to LA and
Speaker 2: I'm gonna be somebody. It was like, well, I mean,
Speaker 2: you only have one thousand dollars in the car you're
Speaker 2: gonna get but good luck that you know what I'm saying,
Speaker 2: and you know, but like you said, to have that
Speaker 2: in your corner because sometimes, yeah, sometimes it's gotta be
Speaker 2: bigger than you. Sometimes it's like, Okay, I hear you.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna fight for that, for the for those words alone,
Speaker 2: because you believe in me. I'm gonna put in this
Speaker 2: extra mile, you know what I mean, whatever fuel that is,
Speaker 2: whatever fuel you need to get you to the next breakthrough.
Speaker 2: Like like, listen, I've been the star I've been. I've
Speaker 2: needed security and then those same security guards wouldn't let
Speaker 2: me in the club I've been. I get it, and
Speaker 2: you just have to keep pounding until.
Speaker 1: That next breakthrough. When is that next breakthrough? When does
Speaker 1: that happen?
Speaker 4: One? Yeah, like in my life now or about I'm like,
Speaker 4: I don't know what tonight.
Speaker 1: Both you get dropped out.
Speaker 5: I cried about that part.
Speaker 2: I love that you get dropped in seventeen you cried
Speaker 2: the mom's I'm just gonna keep working. That work at
Speaker 2: some point pays off. When is that?
Speaker 5: So? I actually the acting stuff paid off.
Speaker 1: First.
Speaker 5: I got a.
Speaker 4: Role in Screamed TV series on MTV, which is great
Speaker 4: because horror is my favorite genre.
Speaker 5: So I was like, oh my god, I get to
Speaker 5: die on a show.
Speaker 4: I get that guy, and that's a whole other story
Speaker 4: that will say for another time.
Speaker 5: I had the best time dying.
Speaker 1: So I were you on it for a minute though,
Speaker 1: before you.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I was ten episodes.
Speaker 3: Yeah, ten, Yeah, that's called reoccurring. Yeah, recurrent.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know you've been around me kind of. It
Speaker 1: was good.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 5: So I got the role.
Speaker 4: On Scream and that was, like, I mean, after so
Speaker 4: many years of nos, I was like, oh shit, I
Speaker 4: got a yes when I got the part, and then
Speaker 4: I was like, oh.
Speaker 5: Should I still have to work? Like the yes is interesting. Yes,
Speaker 5: It's like yes, and good job, Let's get to work.
Speaker 4: So then moved to New Orleans for a little bit
Speaker 4: to shoot the show, which also is my favorite place
Speaker 4: in the entire world.
Speaker 3: This is great, that's so beautiful.
Speaker 4: It is so beautiful. So while I'm shooting that show
Speaker 4: for those two years from when I'm fifteen to or no,
Speaker 4: I got dropped to seventeen. So from seventeen to like nineteen,
Speaker 4: for those two years, I was doing covers and releasing
Speaker 4: covers every week, sometimes twice a week with one of
Speaker 4: the producers and this producer duo that stuck with me
Speaker 4: after I got dropped that had just started working, so
Speaker 4: before they dropped me.
Speaker 3: Yes, yeah, So how long are you doing the covers?
Speaker 4: The covers, so I've been doing them now, probably for
Speaker 4: like two years. And we did Hotline Bling and then
Speaker 4: that one went ultra viral. And this was like at
Speaker 4: the point where I was still pretty rare to get
Speaker 4: a million views. And when I got my first million views,
Speaker 4: I was like, like I couldn't believe it. I felt
Speaker 4: like I was on top of the world. I was like,
Speaker 4: what is going on? And so that happened while I
Speaker 4: was shooting the show, so it was actually like a
Speaker 4: perfect combination of everything happening at one time, and it
Speaker 4: was just like, oh my god, Like my moment is
Speaker 4: like starting up again, you know.
Speaker 5: It felt amazing.
Speaker 4: And after that, we just kept releasing covers and they
Speaker 4: kept doing really well.
Speaker 5: And then I got a.
Speaker 4: Call from my manager at the time and he was like,
Speaker 4: all these regulators are caring me, like I think we
Speaker 4: should start talking, and I was like, oh my god.
Speaker 4: And then I met with a few and then I
Speaker 4: met with Republican. Republican I'm on now, they uh loved me.
Speaker 4: We talked and I just felt like the right place
Speaker 4: to be.
Speaker 1: And then you got an advance.
Speaker 5: Then I finally.
Speaker 3: You know, you know my next question.
Speaker 5: Yeah, Ace, Oh you know what.
Speaker 4: Actually I think I put it into Yes, I did.
Speaker 4: I put it into getting another car because I always
Speaker 4: wrecked my cars back then, way better.
Speaker 5: I probably could listen.
Speaker 4: I was sixteen, had my license for two weeks when
Speaker 4: I had moved to LA. In the car, I was
Speaker 4: like six, So I learned how to drive in LA.
Speaker 5: That's hard, you.
Speaker 4: Guys, Okay, right if you say so, yeah, what it
Speaker 4: was hard for me?
Speaker 5: Total?
Speaker 4: I think, yeah, without it being my fault.
Speaker 1: Okay, seems like you have a gift.
Speaker 4: With it being my fault or shared faults.
Speaker 5: I know it is with insurance.
Speaker 1: Split this down in the middle.
Speaker 4: Let me think one, two, probably four or five. Oh
Speaker 4: so okay, let me rewind really quick. So I had
Speaker 4: actually learned a lot about songwriting when I first came here, too,
Speaker 4: because when I wasn't in gymnastics teaching gymnastics that didn't
Speaker 4: know how to do, I was in sessions, and my
Speaker 4: from some of my sessions, it got around that I
Speaker 4: was the one singing the demos.
Speaker 5: So then some of.
Speaker 4: Like the biggest pop people, we're hearing my demos and
Speaker 4: would want me to come in demo thing.
Speaker 5: So that's how I made some money.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, you know what.
Speaker 6: No, No, before we go any further, No, because we
Speaker 6: like to. We like to we like to highlight like
Speaker 6: things that you can do while you're trying to survive
Speaker 6: this thing like outside listen, And I want to say
Speaker 6: I commend you for having a job, because a lot
Speaker 6: of people feel like when they get in this thing,
Speaker 6: I don't have to have a job. No more are
Speaker 6: there above a job. No, you have to take care
Speaker 6: of yourself. So if you got to go teach wherever,
Speaker 6: if you got to lie and tell people you know
Speaker 6: how to flip and you don't know how to flip,
Speaker 6: and you get a job teaching flips, give one.
Speaker 4: I mean, I worked at CBS when I had my
Speaker 4: record deal, So.
Speaker 1: I have to have a job.
Speaker 6: Take care of yourself, Like, this is not something that
Speaker 6: we get in that people just think that you just.
Speaker 1: Hit the lottery.
Speaker 6: No, this is not how it works. This is the
Speaker 6: real journey. Your journey is a very real journey. And
Speaker 6: like I said, I commend you for this journey because
Speaker 6: that is something special that you were even of the
Speaker 6: mind and didn't get I'm only sixteen, I don't have
Speaker 6: to get no job, or just.
Speaker 2: Didn't stand on ceremony like I got a record deal.
Speaker 2: What I look like with a job. And when you have.
Speaker 6: This record deal, this said record deal, if they were
Speaker 6: giving you money, you're incurring debt, which artists never realize
Speaker 6: and pay attention to. It's like I'm living here, No
Speaker 6: records are happening, nothing is going on. Yet, these sessions
Speaker 6: are adding up, This rent money is adding up. All
Speaker 6: these things are going against my account, taking away and
Speaker 6: taking away because at some point, labels also look at
Speaker 6: getting a little upside down, a little too much in
Speaker 6: the red.
Speaker 2: We in the red on your rent, on your soul.
Speaker 2: So wen, it's gonna make us put less into.
Speaker 3: The artists, artists, so go get your job.
Speaker 4: Job. And also like, even if you do feel above it,
Speaker 4: there's so much ship in the industry. You could be doing,
Speaker 4: like literally from square one ship you could be doing.
Speaker 4: You could be getting voice lessons or guitar lessons or whatever.
Speaker 4: Set a TV exactly and get more experience while you're
Speaker 4: doing it.
Speaker 6: The fact that you were also demo singing for people
Speaker 6: as a sign artists, that does not happen. I've watched
Speaker 6: so many artists struggle financially because they won't go do something.
Speaker 1: It's like, wait, why it's music. Yeah, I'll do anything, surviving.
Speaker 2: This ship, keyboard player, you need, you need some backgrounds.
Speaker 5: I'm the same way.
Speaker 4: But I feel like people people come to La or
Speaker 4: go to New York or whatever for fame, and that's
Speaker 4: just so it's such a it's so unattainable. It's like
Speaker 4: such a horrible thing to have as your goal. Like,
Speaker 4: if that's what you're looking for, we all know it
Speaker 4: goes like this. Like so for that to be the
Speaker 4: thing that's like holding you down and like keeping you
Speaker 4: in a city and keeping you in industry, that's going
Speaker 4: to be a very empty, empty dream in a very
Speaker 4: unfulfilling life in my eyes, because you're literally always trying
Speaker 4: to chase a feeling rather than chasing the feeling that
Speaker 4: music gives you. Like I was always taught that music
Speaker 4: was like was therapy. It was something that was really
Speaker 4: genuine and authentic, and so it was never about fame
Speaker 4: for me, no matter how many times people were like,
Speaker 4: she's a star, she's a star, she's a star. And
Speaker 4: my childhood it was never about that. For me. It
Speaker 4: was about music and how it made people feel. I
Speaker 4: do this not to make things about me, but to
Speaker 4: make it about how we connect as people, and how
Speaker 4: I connected my fans. I always say, like when people
Speaker 4: come up to me, First of all, I still don't
Speaker 4: believe it.
Speaker 5: It's still crazy to me when people.
Speaker 4: Come up to me. It's not that they're coming up
Speaker 4: to me because I'm so important. It's I've had a
Speaker 4: certain effect the music had said, has had some sort
Speaker 4: of effect on them so deeply, that connection that it
Speaker 4: reminds them and they look at me and they're like,
Speaker 4: oh shit, Like this is the person that's saying that
Speaker 4: one song that made me feel like this, Like I
Speaker 4: remember I was the ex girl for so long. I
Speaker 4: was the hotline blin girl for so long, and I
Speaker 4: was okay with that. I didn't care if you knew
Speaker 4: I was Keana. Like if I'm the hotline blin girl
Speaker 4: and hotline bling made you feel good, I'm the fucking
Speaker 4: hotline blinking So then so.
Speaker 3: You're doing your own republic get the deal?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 3: How long is it until you get your hair record?
Speaker 1: Though? How long? Like?
Speaker 3: What's what's that end? Did you quit? Your job you
Speaker 3: got when you got this deal? Did you quit your job?
Speaker 4: Yeah?
Speaker 5: I did. I think X was out.
Speaker 4: I don't even remember how old I was. I'm not
Speaker 4: I need to check the facts on that one, because
Speaker 4: it all feels like one year up until this point.
Speaker 4: But it was out for I think a year before.
Speaker 4: It was like doing something on the radio.
Speaker 3: Did you put it out? Like, did you leak it
Speaker 3: or did the label? It was it like an official release?
Speaker 6: It was?
Speaker 3: It just wasn't catching at first.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it was an official release, but it wasn't catching
Speaker 4: at first.
Speaker 5: But I feel like that's also like.
Speaker 4: R and B music, it takes a little bit of.
Speaker 3: Time too, you know, it's a slow burn with R
Speaker 3: and B.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so it wasn't. It wasn't a surprised me. It
Speaker 4: was a surprise. I didn't really know what to expect.
Speaker 3: It was when it did.
Speaker 6: Was there something that that clicked or like, was it
Speaker 6: a it popped on something or just over time people
Speaker 6: just start taking to it, just overtime. So it wasn't
Speaker 6: like a TikTok challenge that no kicked it off or
Speaker 6: nothing like that.
Speaker 4: No, when you guys find a TikTok song that I like,
Speaker 4: that I can sing and everybody dances to it.
Speaker 3: Let me know you like TikTok.
Speaker 4: Isn't that I don't like the TikTok song. It's I
Speaker 4: can't find I can't Okay.
Speaker 1: You feel like was that shape?
Speaker 2: It was not?
Speaker 5: Shade was not shade?
Speaker 3: Don't make TikTok song?
Speaker 1: No.
Speaker 4: I actually did. Used to joke about that though. When
Speaker 4: TikTok first came out during COVID, I used to call
Speaker 4: it flip flaps and nick knocks and call it all
Speaker 4: types of crazy shit. But that's because I'm like, oh,
Speaker 4: I'm against social media in general.
Speaker 5: I just hate social media.
Speaker 4: But I understand that we have to do it for work,
Speaker 4: so it literally feels like work to me. But I
Speaker 4: just like hate. Even when I was in high school,
Speaker 4: middle school, all the ship, I stayed off of it,
Speaker 4: like I did not like it. So I just don't
Speaker 4: like social media in general. So when it first came out,
Speaker 4: I was very resistant and we're like, yes, very anti okay.
Speaker 2: So first of all, x Ex's Fire, thank you, super
Speaker 2: super Fire and Platinum tough to do.
Speaker 3: Where did you put your plaquet?
Speaker 4: I actually don't have one yet.
Speaker 1: I respect it.
Speaker 6: I didn't have like listen, I purposely didn't for my
Speaker 6: like the songwriter, I just wouldn't.
Speaker 1: I didn't you don't want to play it, or you
Speaker 1: just don't have I didn't want them for.
Speaker 3: A long time.
Speaker 4: It's not that I don't want it, it's that COVID happened,
Speaker 4: so it stopped. Usually, like when I would get my plaques,
Speaker 4: I would go to the label and it would be
Speaker 4: like a whole presentation thing, and it was like it
Speaker 4: was like.
Speaker 1: More, well, I'll talk about it.
Speaker 2: I don't blacks come in for you.
Speaker 1: We go to sky club and you know that's normally
Speaker 1: what happens. You feel me.
Speaker 4: No, Like when I got like my YouTube like a
Speaker 4: million subscribers thing and some stuff.
Speaker 6: Like call that talk that cool about your accomplishments, like
Speaker 6: you earn ship.
Speaker 2: Yeah, they need to know. Motherfucker's gotta know subscribers, subscribers.
Speaker 2: They gotta know what subscribers is. People that's tuning in
Speaker 2: on the motherfucking regular.
Speaker 6: They got notifications, notifications they get they get a notifiation
Speaker 6: when you're doing.
Speaker 1: And they tune in you a million million up, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean?
Speaker 2: People trying to get a hundred people to show up
Speaker 2: you got a million that talk your plaques?
Speaker 3: She had a mean that means she got more, now
Speaker 3: got more?
Speaker 1: Now they talk? How ma you saying.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I like it getting on everybody, guys.
Speaker 4: I'm here, I'm gonna remind myself.
Speaker 5: Uh yeah, I know, I know.
Speaker 4: I don't know why it's so hard for me to
Speaker 4: like acknowledge my accomplishments and also like take credit for
Speaker 4: shit like I am a million percent always like giving
Speaker 4: flowers to my entire team, Like I know how much
Speaker 4: it takes to do something. I couldn't fucking do this
Speaker 4: shit about myself. Christine basicallyund my whole life, like she
Speaker 4: is that bitch that's my manager. If you guys didn't
Speaker 4: know what I was talking about, my daughter, you really did.
Speaker 4: I like to use that with my stepdad as I
Speaker 4: knew my mom before you did you.
Speaker 5: Yeah?
Speaker 4: But yeah, So, like I mean, Christine, I feel like
Speaker 4: everybody else, I'm just the face of what the entire
Speaker 4: team is working on. So that's also probably why it's
Speaker 4: hard for me to like accept it, because I want
Speaker 4: to give credit to everybody, and so it feels like
Speaker 4: it almost feel like selfish when I'm accepting these Well.
Speaker 6: Let's Shout out the team right now, because it ain't
Speaker 6: no ain't no clock on this right now.
Speaker 3: Shout out the team, come on, come on.
Speaker 4: Shout out to Christine first of all, okay, all the time.
Speaker 4: Shout out to ten Summers, come on, come on, come on.
Speaker 4: Shout out to l M A and Jesse J depending
Speaker 4: on their tours. Also for being women and still doing
Speaker 4: that talk.
Speaker 1: No jealousy, no hate, no.
Speaker 5: Jealousy, no hate.
Speaker 4: No matter how much the industry wants to pin us together,
Speaker 4: they said no, no.
Speaker 5: Shout out to you guys for having me here. Shout
Speaker 5: out to you guys.
Speaker 3: Over there the shout outs.
Speaker 4: It's just it's a good shout out to Republic.
Speaker 1: Shout out Republic.
Speaker 4: Shout out to my first label for let me go.
Speaker 4: I could be somewhere else.
Speaker 6: That's very important, very important, because they could have held
Speaker 6: on to you. They could shout out to them, held
Speaker 6: held you up.
Speaker 3: Okay.
Speaker 2: I also just want to say, I just want to
Speaker 2: throw my two cents out there. Don't be afraid to
Speaker 2: own it. You are who and what you are, and
Speaker 2: it is okay to say I am her, I'm her.
Speaker 2: Thank you to my team and everyone that helped make
Speaker 2: this happen.
Speaker 1: Thank you.
Speaker 5: Yeah, and me, I.
Speaker 2: Like that because you know it's it's okay to to
Speaker 2: appreciate yourself. It's okay to say, you know what, I
Speaker 2: dug deep and we thought for that mm hmm. And
Speaker 2: the recognize that in you, and that helps you identify
Speaker 2: exactly what you're capable of, how much more you have
Speaker 2: to do, how much more you can do, Like, all
Speaker 2: of those things are important. Look at yourself and the man,
Speaker 2: I'm a bad motherfucker. You better notice sometimes sometimes a
Speaker 2: motherfucker too would need to hear that from you. M
Speaker 2: h what you're talking to I'm a bad motherfucker.
Speaker 4: That to myself in the mirror.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've been on tour. No pay god deals, no advances.
Speaker 1: You see what I'm saying. They're not gonna do that again.
Speaker 3: You paid your dues. You paid your dues for sure.
Speaker 1: Okay. Now, what's what's next? What's going on? Talking to.
Speaker 5: In the story? Are we now present day?
Speaker 1: Right now? You are here? You just what did we
Speaker 1: tell you earlier? Yeah, it's your world. We don't give up.
Speaker 4: I forgot I am her, you are, I feel nicole,
Speaker 4: all of us. So you're seeing those previous in the movies.
Speaker 4: Nicole was just like, we need the.
Speaker 5: All of us.
Speaker 4: Heartbreak feels good in a place like this sometimes I
Speaker 4: want to like fall asleep to that.
Speaker 2: No, I just want to understand. There's so many kids
Speaker 2: here to see Spider Man, Like, what is she doing?
Speaker 1: Sultry?
Speaker 2: And if you're in this theater, you.
Speaker 1: Yeah what I make?
Speaker 5: Oh my god, that is good.
Speaker 4: That's really what it feels like. That royalty is greeting
Speaker 4: us and yeah, theater.
Speaker 1: I'll take it. Okay. So now right now today, what
Speaker 1: is happening.
Speaker 4: To day? Well, I'm here with you guys, getting ready
Speaker 4: to release the album.
Speaker 1: M what's the name of the album?
Speaker 5: Grudges?
Speaker 2: Oh?
Speaker 3: I know?
Speaker 4: Did that dig deep already?
Speaker 1: That's exciting, like grudges. I like that. I love grudges.
Speaker 4: Thanks?
Speaker 3: Do you hold grudges? Boy?
Speaker 1: Y'all?
Speaker 6: Boy, listen, If you promised me something when I was five,
Speaker 6: it still owe me.
Speaker 4: Yes.
Speaker 6: I ain't gonna say your name, but you're one of
Speaker 6: my father's friends. You promised me a bike when I
Speaker 6: was five.
Speaker 1: Man, you did this again. It's you.
Speaker 6: You can start and cannot ride with me in any
Speaker 6: of my cars now, yeah, really car outside you can't
Speaker 6: ride with us. She would have bought me that guy
Speaker 6: and vick you and stopped trying to flost me because you.
Speaker 1: Know what I mean.
Speaker 3: He was around my daddy like you get the little
Speaker 3: nigga bike man. You know what I mean?
Speaker 1: You want we want to have You wanna bex.
Speaker 3: Grudges? I'm holding mine.
Speaker 1: It's cool.
Speaker 4: I love grudges. I'm working on it though, I'm working
Speaker 4: on being I'm trying. Okay, let me let me let
Speaker 4: me rephrase that I'm trying to work on it. I
Speaker 4: am journaling.
Speaker 5: That's uh No. I think what I'm really doing now
Speaker 5: is learning.
Speaker 4: To forgive people that already hurts when I say it loud.
Speaker 4: It's like I'm learning to forgive people because I have
Speaker 4: no other choice for myself and like to not ever.
Speaker 4: I just really try to be authentic and genuine and
Speaker 4: loving to people. So I always ask my question. We
Speaker 4: always do, like why would this person do this? Why
Speaker 4: would they do this? And my best friend he just
Speaker 4: passed away in August, and he that's okay, thank you,
Speaker 4: And he would say to me, stop asking yourself that question,
Speaker 4: because you'll never understand because you're not them. Everybody's different
Speaker 4: and everyone lives by their own set of rules, and
Speaker 4: that's fine. I just have to know what I put
Speaker 4: up with. And once I decided like, hey, those morals
Speaker 4: and rules just don't match up with mine, and that's okay.
Speaker 4: So I don't have to now ask why would that
Speaker 4: person do that? I just need to forgive them for
Speaker 4: having their own shit and decide it's not for me.
Speaker 2: I know you're young. You are m hm singer Yeah,
Speaker 2: an R and B singer.
Speaker 6: Yeah, well trained, well trained since the Agent tree.
Speaker 2: Just the age of Tree harmonies, since the tender age
Speaker 2: of sixteen months. Yeah. So I know you have some
Speaker 2: some favorites that you've been listening to all these years,
Speaker 2: and we want you to put them into a top five,
Speaker 2: your top five. Mm hmm, top five, your.
Speaker 1: Top five only besing on that, bess ah, Well, you
Speaker 1: want to know.
Speaker 4: I want, I want to know. I want, I want
Speaker 4: to know.
Speaker 3: Yo fu.
Speaker 6: Woo.
Speaker 1: Some people feel me. I felt that some people feel me.
Speaker 5: I thought you were going to do a couple more
Speaker 5: of that high note at.
Speaker 1: The end, though I was feeling it.
Speaker 2: I was just, you know, I wanted to get to
Speaker 2: your to the moment where you speak and talk.
Speaker 4: I love that.
Speaker 2: Kana mm hmmm. Your top five R and B singers,
Speaker 2: no particular order, no particular GENDERO, yes.
Speaker 5: Yes, okay, it's kind of hard.
Speaker 4: Number one Jenne.
Speaker 5: I just love her. She is always top of my list.
Speaker 2: We love love. She's a vibe, but she's also very
Speaker 2: technically sound. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: She's just not singing to be singing like it's it's effortless.
Speaker 2: There's a vibe there, but there is skill level.
Speaker 6: Yeah, shut up, they got they got their whole thing
Speaker 6: over there.
Speaker 5: No, please give her usher mm hm million. I mean
Speaker 5: I learned half of the runs I do from from Russia, Rihanna.
Speaker 4: I have Rianna and Beyonce, which I think they both
Speaker 4: kind of sit in the R and B for sure,
Speaker 4: but also pop category because pop is popular.
Speaker 1: Artist.
Speaker 4: Yeah, if not the most one of the most incredible
Speaker 4: performers we have ever period period period. And yeah, are
Speaker 4: you It was so like gentle I said, I'm in
Speaker 4: the behalf.
Speaker 1: That was good.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean she's been she's been her absolutely, she'd
Speaker 4: be fucking doing her ship. So Beyonce shout out to
Speaker 4: Beyonce and then Frank Frank Ocean R.
Speaker 2: And B songs. Yeah, you smiling like you got it together.
Speaker 4: I was just watching the video. I realized I had
Speaker 4: never watched it. But Pretty One's by Maxwell like one
Speaker 4: of my favorite songs ever, and I've loved it since
Speaker 4: I was younger. Lesson learned Alicia that song. I was
Speaker 4: singing that song when I was in like third grade,
Speaker 4: like walking around the park singing it, crying like I
Speaker 4: knew about heartbreak, which I did, I didn't know about
Speaker 4: the type of heartbreak you get.
Speaker 1: I feel.
Speaker 4: I'm sorry I had to look for my next one.
Speaker 5: Oh Gibbers by Ryan.
Speaker 3: Leslie, Ryan less Monster, give it up for.
Speaker 4: So Good.
Speaker 5: Eternal Sunshine by Janet.
Speaker 4: I love that song because in the video too, you
Speaker 4: can see she's like laying on a street and there's
Speaker 4: a car accident in the back. And she had written it.
Speaker 4: From my understanding, she had written it about how her
Speaker 4: brother watches over her family. When her and her daughter
Speaker 4: and her daughter's father were in the car, they had
Speaker 4: an accident that they were supposed to like really not
Speaker 4: be okay from, and they made it out. And that
Speaker 4: song always spoke to me. But I was freaking out
Speaker 4: about death for like a year and some change, and
Speaker 4: just about how we have no control over it. I
Speaker 4: never want to die scared of death, scared of anyone else.
Speaker 4: Like my thing about death is like not only like
Speaker 4: losing someone that's passed, but losing everyone when I pass,
Speaker 4: Like I'm scared to miss everybody that I met in
Speaker 4: this lifetime, you know. And so that's been something that
Speaker 4: I was constantly thinking about. And then I lost my
Speaker 4: best friend and it was real to me, like that
Speaker 4: fear was validated, and I did feel this sense of
Speaker 4: like we really don't have control, so we really have
Speaker 4: to take every moment and live it fully. Before my
Speaker 4: best friend passed away, I performed at Soul Bloom and
Speaker 4: Janet was the headliner and.
Speaker 5: I was.
Speaker 4: Listening to her, and then her very last song she
Speaker 4: did was Eternal Sunshine and there was like bubbles. I
Speaker 4: was high as fuck on mushrooms too, so it was
Speaker 4: like whoa. But because I was freaking out about death
Speaker 4: for so long, I was crying so hard. And then
Speaker 4: that was a moment for me because Jane knew she
Speaker 4: asked me for a picture, so I was freaking out.
Speaker 5: I didn't know what to do with myself.
Speaker 4: And then after my best friend had passed away three
Speaker 4: days later, I was in Atlanta because I had to
Speaker 4: go perform somewhere, and I was just like so sad
Speaker 4: because we needed to move the IDAs out of his
Speaker 4: apartment and there was a lot of shit we had
Speaker 4: to do and I couldn't be there for that, and
Speaker 4: so it like broke my heart. And I was going
Speaker 4: through all this like shock and grief and shit, and
Speaker 4: it was just Christina and I and Atlanta, and we
Speaker 4: were at this restaurant and I just really started thinking
Speaker 4: about how uh he was murdered, and I started thinking
Speaker 4: about how everything happened, because it's like that was like
Speaker 4: really a really traumatic thing and sudden. And so as
Speaker 4: I'm like about to cry in this brunch spot, I
Speaker 4: think I was crying, and then I went to the
Speaker 4: bathroom and I was like, I go to the bathroom.
Speaker 4: I don't want to like cry in front of these people.
Speaker 4: That song in this brunch spot starts playing and he
Speaker 4: knows like how much I loved Janey and what like
Speaker 4: that song means to me, And it just really came
Speaker 4: full circle.
Speaker 5: And she says, well, I've.
Speaker 4: Seen the more that I know I don't know anything
Speaker 4: at all, the more that I breathed and start to
Speaker 4: go slow, Oh, all the many things, I can only
Speaker 4: recall only the good things, good things, only the good things.
Speaker 4: And it was like he's telling me that he's okay.
Speaker 5: Yeah, you know, he's telling me that.
Speaker 4: Whatever things he experienced in his life, the good things
Speaker 4: are what he's taking with him in whatever energy he's
Speaker 4: leaving with you know. And I felt, really I'm like
Speaker 4: crying and like singing the song and like talking to
Speaker 4: him in the bathroom, Like whoever would have been in
Speaker 4: that bathroom would have been like what the fuck is
Speaker 4: going on? But like I'm talking to him out loud
Speaker 4: in the bathroom and I'm just like, okay, I get it,
Speaker 4: Like you're.
Speaker 5: Okay, I'm gonna be fine.
Speaker 4: Because he was also that person like I would cry
Speaker 4: to him a lot, and like every time I would
Speaker 4: cry to him, he'd be like it's gonna be okay.
Speaker 4: Like he would like pinch me or some shit and
Speaker 4: like joke with me. But then he would just like
Speaker 4: put his hands on my shoulders and smile and be
Speaker 4: like it's okay, Like You're gonna be okay. And so
Speaker 4: that song felt really like perfect and comforting, and I
Speaker 4: really do think he put that energy into the world
Speaker 4: for that song. To come to me and play for me.
Speaker 4: So it has a really special place in my heart
Speaker 4: with that. I mean, obviously it's an incredible song, but
Speaker 4: that song just has even more meaning to me now
Speaker 4: to music, do to do, Yeah, for real, for real.
Speaker 4: And then my last one is lost Onelivan.
Speaker 5: That song she's just singing on.
Speaker 4: A whole other level and is different, different.
Speaker 3: Different, different. It's some people that I hear singing.
Speaker 4: I'm like, how right, how how.
Speaker 3: Do you sing this way?
Speaker 1: Let's get to your volt trump. Oh yeah, we're gonna
Speaker 1: create your.
Speaker 2: Your R and B artists. You're making the greatest R
Speaker 2: and B artists of all time, and you're gonna take
Speaker 2: You're gonna grab the vocal from somebody. You're gonna you're
Speaker 2: gonna grab the styling from somebody, the performance style from somebody,
Speaker 2: and the passion of the artist, the heart of the artist.
Speaker 2: If you're making your perfect R and B artists, who
Speaker 2: are you getting the vocal from?
Speaker 4: I think I'm getting the vocal from Brandy.
Speaker 1: That's where you're gonna go.
Speaker 3: Ye, very vocal.
Speaker 5: Yeah, her tone is just like.
Speaker 3: Out there.
Speaker 2: Yeah, oh you wow, Okay, who are you getting the
Speaker 2: styling from?
Speaker 1: What they're putting on. Who got that drip that you like?
Speaker 1: That appeals?
Speaker 6: I think Mariah hm hmm Mariah big gowns the versatility.
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, she does it all high to the grocery store.
Speaker 1: She can go from the gown to the Daisy Dukes.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Mariah, Okay, yeah.
Speaker 5: Out.
Speaker 4: Dinosaur outside.
Speaker 1: What was that? It's fine?
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's good.
Speaker 1: Okay, we got to keep that too. Who are you
Speaker 1: getting the performance style.
Speaker 2: From on stage?
Speaker 1: Going crazy?
Speaker 4: Beyonce?
Speaker 2: Why not?
Speaker 1: Why not go for it? I like where you're going
Speaker 1: with this, even all females is getting.
Speaker 4: Fuck you.
Speaker 1: Like it? Okay, all right, all right, we got one
Speaker 1: more thing. Who are you getting the passion from the
Speaker 1: heart of the at the heart.
Speaker 5: Rihanna m m yeah. I want that attitude.
Speaker 4: Like she is for her ship, but she also has
Speaker 4: that like kindness in her heart and she's able to
Speaker 4: fucking go off, but also like.
Speaker 5: Get down with that.
Speaker 4: What's that six songs she got up all the brain
Speaker 4: that one.
Speaker 5: Just get you? Yeah, yeah, she goes off.
Speaker 1: I like, I like, I like what you did.
Speaker 4: There, thank you.
Speaker 5: I feel good about that.
Speaker 1: No, no, no, ship.
Speaker 4: I'm really indecisive. So that was I'm proud of myself.
Speaker 6: I said, cold vote Trump, cold vote Trump, Oh, female vote,
Speaker 6: that's the best of the best. I like you say,
Speaker 6: I'm rolling. I'm rolling, but we got some way. He's
Speaker 6: back on this piano.
Speaker 4: I love it.
Speaker 2: Know what's coming.
Speaker 1: I ain't saying no names. I ain't saying no names.
Speaker 1: I ain't saying no names.
Speaker 2: Ain't saying no names. Were was weird.
Speaker 1: What you did? Don't say she I ain't saying no name.
Speaker 6: Yeah, very very very important segment, very important part of
Speaker 6: the show. It's called I ain't saying no that. We
Speaker 6: tell us a story funny or fucked up? Are funny
Speaker 6: and fucked up about your travels, your journey and.
Speaker 3: This ship the only thing, And you tell us this story.
Speaker 3: You can't say no names names.
Speaker 6: You know, we talk about one of the grudges if
Speaker 6: you want to you know what I mean. I know,
Speaker 6: I know you probably got a studio grudge or something something.
Speaker 6: You got some grudges, somebody, somebody didn't pay you for
Speaker 6: one demo.
Speaker 1: You got some ship.
Speaker 4: There's so many things I want to say, but I
Speaker 4: got an nda.
Speaker 1: You guys, oh ship, actually ship. I love that. I
Speaker 1: love that.
Speaker 5: I'm sure you do.
Speaker 3: We're not gonna get you soup mid Well neal today.
Speaker 4: Maybe they won't remember this one.
Speaker 5: They Yeah, they probably won't remember.
Speaker 4: This is fucked up, stuck good, and this is something
Speaker 4: that women have to deal with in the industry, you know,
Speaker 4: mostly women. I was talking to some people that I
Speaker 4: was working with and it was around my birthday and
Speaker 4: I was turning twenty one, and these people were like,
Speaker 4: I think you should lie about your age. I said,
Speaker 4: I'm twenty one, and they were like, but I think,
Speaker 4: like it's a good idea for you to say you're twenty.
Speaker 4: I was like, what is one year going to do?
Speaker 4: And they were like, people lie about their age all
Speaker 4: the time. This person thirty this versus twenty seven this person.
Speaker 4: And I was like, but I'm twenty one, like twenty one.
Speaker 4: I really don't think it's a big deal.
Speaker 5: One year.
Speaker 4: I think I'm good and I think like they probably
Speaker 4: thought I could go under the radar and say I
Speaker 4: was twenty for another like three years you thought I
Speaker 4: was twenty three, right, Yeah, maybe i'm twenty three today,
Speaker 4: I'm twenty three. People didn't about money, were they there
Speaker 4: when I was born?
Speaker 1: And they just wanted you to lie about your age.
Speaker 5: Yeah, for one year.
Speaker 4: Yep.
Speaker 3: All the time, they thought that was going to get
Speaker 3: you more cracking.
Speaker 4: Yeah, they thought it was it was gonna give me
Speaker 4: one more year to have a chance to be successful.
Speaker 2: What yeah, yeah, twenty to twenty one. H see, because
Speaker 2: if you aren't legal, legal, illegal drinker yet, then this
Speaker 2: is a certain innocence that remains.
Speaker 5: Exactly.
Speaker 4: It's based off of this like wanting to keep women
Speaker 4: into this like weird, young innocent, naive. I always call it,
Speaker 4: like like people want well also it's this mentality of
Speaker 4: like you market.
Speaker 5: For men, like you want to be hot, right.
Speaker 4: And I always say, like a lot of men want
Speaker 4: a porn star virgin, like they want that sexiness.
Speaker 2: But also not at all.
Speaker 4: The man that I was around at that time. Okay,
Speaker 4: almost every single one of them wanted a virgin.
Speaker 1: What demographic.
Speaker 5: That's yeah.
Speaker 4: I mean it's like this thing that we battle to
Speaker 4: fucking not seem too mature, not seem too smart. Like
Speaker 4: it's just gross.
Speaker 1: I don't like it.
Speaker 4: I know. Yeah, you guys have daughters, yes obviously, so
Speaker 4: you get it, like you get.
Speaker 2: But I think even from a taste standpoint, like I
Speaker 2: a woman, Yeah, even if it's a young woman woman, Yeah,
Speaker 2: with something to talk about.
Speaker 4: But you know, I think these people were pretty successful
Speaker 4: in like the nineties early two thousands when it's like
Speaker 4: Britney and like even Alicia.
Speaker 5: You know, everyone was.
Speaker 4: Like seventeen when they were coming out. So it gave
Speaker 4: you a couple more years. It would give me a
Speaker 4: couple more years. If I was twenty, it would give
Speaker 4: me at least one more year, because God forbid, I
Speaker 4: have my moment at twenty eight.
Speaker 1: God forbid, God forbid.
Speaker 2: But if you're twenty seven, do.
Speaker 4: You have an extra year?
Speaker 2: Sometimes?
Speaker 4: Crazy, that's fucked up.
Speaker 1: Whatever this is gonna.
Speaker 2: Look like she's talking about some ship on this album,
Speaker 2: getting off her chest.
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, telling you what it is you're doing wrong.
Speaker 1: You're doing wrong, you did it wrong?
Speaker 5: You want to song?
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