WEBVTT - Kiana Ledé 0:00:01.960 --> 0:00:03.119 R and b's money. 0:00:03.200 --> 0:00:13.200 Honey, we are thanks take volatility. We are the authority 0:00:13.840 --> 0:00:18.720 on all things R and B ladies and gentlemen. My 0:00:18.800 --> 0:00:21.800 name is Tank. If this is the R and B 0:00:21.880 --> 0:00:23.760 Money Podcast, the authority. 0:00:23.400 --> 0:00:28.160 Yes, when all things are in south Side see what happens? 0:00:28.240 --> 0:00:31.400 Jay is because we've been doing this for so long 0:00:32.400 --> 0:00:36.559 to think that we aren't tapped in mm hmmmm with 0:00:36.680 --> 0:00:42.599 the new young hot Yeah, the new young sensations, the 0:00:42.640 --> 0:00:46.559 youth of R and by taking this motherfucker game. We 0:00:46.720 --> 0:00:51.360 know who you are south Side Phoenix. Yeah, we know 0:00:51.400 --> 0:00:55.400 who you are here. Yeah, we're gonna get into your ship. 0:00:55.520 --> 0:00:56.840 Yeah, we're gonna talk about your exes. 0:00:56.880 --> 0:01:03.280 We're gonna talk about your axes. Shy podcast. 0:01:06.480 --> 0:01:13.440 Yeah wait, I'm sorry. First first, Yes, you hit your 0:01:13.480 --> 0:01:14.319 nails manicured. 0:01:14.560 --> 0:01:17.679 Absolutely, they look great. Yeah, this is jail. 0:01:19.120 --> 0:01:21.080 Wait you get John your now. 0:01:21.080 --> 0:01:22.520 Yeah yeah this has to last. 0:01:22.360 --> 0:01:23.400 Yes, long lasting. 0:01:23.600 --> 0:01:25.800 Yeah, I'm not playing to you called me on the day. 0:01:25.800 --> 0:01:33.920 Werein't no color on it? Yeah? Yeah I do, I do? Black? 0:01:34.000 --> 0:01:34.759 Black is my color? 0:01:35.080 --> 0:01:37.080 Okay, good yeah black us. 0:01:37.319 --> 0:01:42.680 Yeah. You know I dig into my rock started. I 0:01:42.800 --> 0:01:43.680 go to a Liny crab. 0:01:43.760 --> 0:01:46.800 You want to know we love that do I want 0:01:46.840 --> 0:01:47.680 to know? 0:01:48.520 --> 0:01:50.320 Yeah, nba oh boy. 0:01:50.240 --> 0:01:53.720 Oh okay, I'm not going to call you that, you know, 0:01:53.840 --> 0:01:54.600 kind of dangerous. 0:01:54.920 --> 0:02:01.680 But he's a young woman. His nails. 0:02:01.680 --> 0:02:05.120 He was like, yeah, yeah, that's that's what. 0:02:05.160 --> 0:02:06.840 That's what. That's My kids. My kids was like. 0:02:06.880 --> 0:02:09.880 My daughter was like, what are you doing? 0:02:10.080 --> 0:02:12.960 Is everything okay? That's fine? 0:02:13.200 --> 0:02:14.080 What made you want to do? 0:02:14.120 --> 0:02:16.520 That? Just seemed like fun? 0:02:17.639 --> 0:02:18.200 And is it? 0:02:18.360 --> 0:02:18.560 Yeah? 0:02:19.320 --> 0:02:22.840 I'm like, I'm like, I'm impulsive, you know what I mean. 0:02:22.880 --> 0:02:25.440 I'm impulsive, whether it be me too, whether it be 0:02:25.480 --> 0:02:29.680 spending going somewhere, like, I'm impulsive. He's my voice of reason. 0:02:30.200 --> 0:02:32.200 I'm like, let's do it. He's like this, you better not. 0:02:34.000 --> 0:02:35.000 I'm surprised by that. 0:02:35.160 --> 0:02:37.519 Actually he's my voice of reason. Oh no, for sure, 0:02:37.560 --> 0:02:40.960 that's that's our balance, you know what I'm saying. But like, 0:02:41.000 --> 0:02:42.800 I think that just who cares. 0:02:43.040 --> 0:02:46.040 When he painted his nails, all the comments said, yay, 0:02:46.080 --> 0:02:46.799 you let him. 0:02:46.639 --> 0:02:53.200 Do this for me? 0:02:53.320 --> 0:02:56.960 For sure, I'll literally be doing I don't know, some 0:02:57.000 --> 0:02:59.359 type of function. And Christine's like, Kean, I'm like a 0:02:59.400 --> 0:03:04.560 bad little kid like I right now would be walking 0:03:04.600 --> 0:03:06.520 on the edge of this couch just because And Christy 0:03:06.639 --> 0:03:07.679 was like yeah. 0:03:08.280 --> 0:03:11.720 So, so he would call me at like at like 0:03:12.000 --> 0:03:16.760 six in the morning and he would say, Tank, you can't. 0:03:16.800 --> 0:03:22.720 You have to stop me. Stop in the comments. You 0:03:22.800 --> 0:03:26.519 have to stop because I would argue in the comments 0:03:26.919 --> 0:03:29.679 and I would I would let motherfuckers have it. And 0:03:29.760 --> 0:03:33.360 because I felt personally attacked, I didn't know that they 0:03:33.400 --> 0:03:36.120 weren't real people. I didn't. I didn't know that it 0:03:36.160 --> 0:03:37.920 didn't matter people. 0:03:39.000 --> 0:03:40.400 No, most of the people ain't real. 0:03:40.440 --> 0:03:41.440 Some are, yes. 0:03:41.880 --> 0:03:45.880 And when I say real in terms of ghost accounts, really. 0:03:45.720 --> 0:03:49.840 Real conversations, right, because people are hiding behind things, and 0:03:49.880 --> 0:03:52.320 a lot of times people just want to say something 0:03:52.800 --> 0:03:55.160 to They just want to have a conversation, get a 0:03:55.400 --> 0:03:59.360 rise something. It's not us sitting right here and you 0:03:59.520 --> 0:04:01.800 saying that same ship to me that you just type 0:04:01.800 --> 0:04:02.600 with your thumbs. 0:04:03.200 --> 0:04:05.680 It's not real. You're not gonna say that in my face. 0:04:06.480 --> 0:04:09.440 But since you, you know, since you're hidding, you feel 0:04:09.440 --> 0:04:11.840 like you can get that off. So I have I 0:04:11.880 --> 0:04:15.880 have to combat that. And then my elder will call 0:04:15.960 --> 0:04:20.279 me insane. Stop the funk ship as you just call it. 0:04:22.360 --> 0:04:23.440 As you so eloquently. 0:04:23.839 --> 0:04:26.000 Nigga ha a Twitter battle against a nigga with a 0:04:26.000 --> 0:04:26.840 picture of him. 0:04:27.160 --> 0:04:29.919 It's like, so I'm cussing myself out. 0:04:30.240 --> 0:04:31.960 Because yeah, because wouldn't do this. 0:04:33.000 --> 0:04:37.320 Like, so, do you look at the comments like all 0:04:37.320 --> 0:04:37.960 the comments? 0:04:38.200 --> 0:04:41.039 No, not really, And if I and I look at 0:04:41.120 --> 0:04:43.800 them from a different lens, now you know what I mean. 0:04:43.920 --> 0:04:46.680 So like now I'm just kind of like like the 0:04:46.800 --> 0:04:49.760 ridiculous stuff. That kind of makes me laugh because like 0:04:50.320 --> 0:04:53.680 the way I was able to process it was watching 0:04:53.720 --> 0:04:56.040 people say stuff about other people that I actually know 0:04:56.560 --> 0:04:58.479 that I know that that stuff is not true about 0:04:59.440 --> 0:05:02.040 I was like, that's not right, that's not how that happened. 0:05:02.080 --> 0:05:05.800 That's not like, uh got it. It doesn't matter in 0:05:05.839 --> 0:05:08.960 this place. Trying to figure out what the truth is 0:05:09.480 --> 0:05:13.080 will drive you fucking crazy in the social media world. 0:05:13.120 --> 0:05:16.000 That's not what that world is for. The truth is 0:05:16.040 --> 0:05:19.120 for you in your real life. Thrust in and understand 0:05:19.160 --> 0:05:21.640 the truth in your real life. As long as you 0:05:21.640 --> 0:05:23.599 can do that, be okay. 0:05:23.279 --> 0:05:27.240 And this ship mm hmm, that's nice, wise words. 0:05:26.880 --> 0:05:28.159 Giving you my old man. 0:05:28.640 --> 0:05:30.360 I got a feeling you'd be looking at the comments 0:05:30.440 --> 0:05:33.760 ready to go off. That's nice. 0:05:36.640 --> 0:05:37.000 South. 0:05:39.279 --> 0:05:40.120 I'm an angel. 0:05:40.560 --> 0:05:44.799 No, so I actually used to read all the comments 0:05:44.800 --> 0:05:48.080 of everything, but I feel like naturally, our minds stick 0:05:48.120 --> 0:05:49.800 to the negative things more. 0:05:50.120 --> 0:05:54.400 This mind does, yeah, exactly. And I used to read. 0:05:54.480 --> 0:05:55.320 I used to read all of them. 0:05:55.640 --> 0:05:58.240 The negative ones would stick out so hard, and then 0:05:59.040 --> 0:06:02.120 I would be responding like it would be bad. And 0:06:02.520 --> 0:06:05.679 after a while I just realized that was all blown 0:06:05.720 --> 0:06:08.000 back into my face, like pretty much every time. So 0:06:08.080 --> 0:06:10.240 I was like, what is the point because I'm trying 0:06:10.320 --> 0:06:14.480 to defend myself, but then I have to defend myself 0:06:14.480 --> 0:06:18.200 now against the defense already is underscrewed me. 0:06:18.400 --> 0:06:22.600 Yeah, where people don't realize, right, you never win that. 0:06:23.080 --> 0:06:27.640 It's an ongoing right, And so here's the part. Here's 0:06:27.640 --> 0:06:30.480 the part he said something that was a long time ago. 0:06:30.800 --> 0:06:36.080 He's like, you skip past all that love to respond 0:06:36.720 --> 0:06:42.000 to that one person. I skipped past a thousand you 0:06:42.160 --> 0:06:45.760 the man comments to get to you? 0:06:45.839 --> 0:06:54.120 Ain't the man comment? Why not? Nigga? Why the fuck not? Yea? 0:06:54.240 --> 0:06:55.240 Who do you think you are? 0:06:57.600 --> 0:07:04.040 Who is you? Better not say? You better not reminded. 0:07:03.640 --> 0:07:04.080 Me of that? 0:07:04.360 --> 0:07:06.320 Have you seen that video? 0:07:06.400 --> 0:07:07.680 This is new to me, by the way, because I 0:07:07.680 --> 0:07:09.840 don't really be on the internet now because I hate 0:07:09.840 --> 0:07:13.520 the internet. But someone showed me the I don't remember 0:07:13.560 --> 0:07:15.760 what his name is. But it's a bowling guy and 0:07:15.800 --> 0:07:18.040 he's like, who do you think you are? Oh? 0:07:18.240 --> 0:07:23.520 Yeah, have you seen that's his name? 0:07:23.520 --> 0:07:24.480 Doesn't feel something? 0:07:25.760 --> 0:07:28.600 Yes, yes, yes, I know exactly you talking about he'osuld 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:29.360 be doing the X ship. 0:07:34.120 --> 0:07:35.280 Who do you think you are? 0:07:35.640 --> 0:07:36.120 I am? 0:07:36.760 --> 0:07:38.240 After he gets to strike, it's so good. 0:07:38.480 --> 0:07:43.200 Well we are now at this point we're mature. 0:07:43.720 --> 0:07:45.360 Yeah, I'm twenty six. 0:07:46.240 --> 0:07:49.800 Okay to grow into this. 0:07:50.960 --> 0:07:54.120 What we like to do at the Army Money Podcast 0:07:54.160 --> 0:07:56.600 is we like to go to the origin. We like 0:07:56.640 --> 0:08:01.480 to go to the beginning, right of where somebody looked 0:08:01.520 --> 0:08:05.520 at you, saw you somewhere, heard you somewhere and said, 0:08:06.520 --> 0:08:11.120 ooh that is something, or you saw it for yourself. 0:08:11.200 --> 0:08:12.720 You looked in the mirror one day and was like, 0:08:12.880 --> 0:08:19.400 I'm nice with this. When was that moment? Probably young, 0:08:19.520 --> 0:08:22.480 Probably started really young. Going through my notes, I say 0:08:23.040 --> 0:08:25.480 it started really young for you. So let you tell 0:08:25.480 --> 0:08:25.760 it though. 0:08:28.240 --> 0:08:32.679 Yeah, so it starts when I was My mom says, 0:08:32.800 --> 0:08:34.200 exactly sixteen months old. 0:08:36.160 --> 0:08:36.680 She taught me. 0:08:36.760 --> 0:08:39.439 She was a teacher, so she taught me the ABC's early. 0:08:39.520 --> 0:08:41.960 She wanted me to get ahead of it, so show 0:08:42.000 --> 0:08:45.120 me ABC's and then I guess I was singing the 0:08:45.160 --> 0:08:47.680 song and like adding runs and shit, and I was 0:08:47.720 --> 0:08:50.439 just singing it different and people would always like stop 0:08:50.480 --> 0:08:52.520 at the mall and be like, is she singing the 0:08:52.520 --> 0:08:53.360 ABC's like that? 0:08:54.520 --> 0:08:56.320 And then my mom was like yeah. 0:08:56.400 --> 0:08:59.520 And then automatically she's just like she grew up in 0:08:59.520 --> 0:09:01.000 foster care, like she didn't gro up with a lot 0:09:01.040 --> 0:09:03.200 of shit. So she was just like she wanted me 0:09:03.360 --> 0:09:06.160 to have what I wanted to have, and whatever my 0:09:06.240 --> 0:09:08.080 natural talent was, she wanted me to do that. She 0:09:08.080 --> 0:09:09.800 didn't care what it was. But it's like one hundred 0:09:09.800 --> 0:09:13.680 and ten percent. So she's seen that and she was like, Okay, 0:09:13.720 --> 0:09:18.719 she's a star. And then put me yeah, literally as 0:09:18.760 --> 0:09:22.480 a baby, as a baby, and then when I was 0:09:22.480 --> 0:09:26.840 like three, she put me into singing, dance and acting, 0:09:27.000 --> 0:09:34.000 like classes like performing arts, extracurricular stuff, and I literally 0:09:34.120 --> 0:09:37.000 just from there was just working towards it my whole life. 0:09:37.040 --> 0:09:40.040 I was doing pageants. I was taking. 0:09:41.440 --> 0:09:41.920 Pageants. 0:09:42.080 --> 0:09:44.199 Yeah, that was like four years old. 0:09:44.240 --> 0:09:49.720 Crown those series, I have so many Crowns I have around, so. 0:09:49.720 --> 0:09:55.560 I those are those are different though for people who 0:09:55.559 --> 0:09:59.840 don't know that world, that's a different world. 0:10:00.200 --> 0:10:01.520 And I wasn't in None of them were like you 0:10:01.559 --> 0:10:02.920 spray tann the babies and that thing. 0:10:03.080 --> 0:10:04.719 It's like, yeah, it. 0:10:04.679 --> 0:10:07.560 Was like you know, like full makeup and full no. 0:10:07.559 --> 0:10:09.839 And the one that I did mostly my whole childhood. 0:10:10.200 --> 0:10:12.400 If you got caught with makeup on your face, if 0:10:12.400 --> 0:10:16.520 they could see it, you were automatically disqualified, which also 0:10:16.720 --> 0:10:19.200 was like kind of fucked up. Was even more fucked 0:10:19.280 --> 0:10:23.400 up because it's like, Okay, now, if you lose, you're 0:10:23.520 --> 0:10:27.800 not naturally beautiful and your personality sucks is basically what 0:10:27.840 --> 0:10:31.160 it was in your head if you lost, that's what, yes, 0:10:31.320 --> 0:10:33.840 Because no, like I'm undoing a lot of this shit 0:10:33.880 --> 0:10:37.400 in therapy, Like I'm trying because as much as it 0:10:37.480 --> 0:10:40.720 taught me how to be a great performer, how to 0:10:40.760 --> 0:10:45.360 do interviews, how to do public speaking, like everything like that, 0:10:45.480 --> 0:10:47.679 I really did learn a lot. I feel like I 0:10:47.720 --> 0:10:53.640 was trained in it. But if I didn't win, it 0:10:53.760 --> 0:10:55.679 was like, oh I didn't say this answer right enough. 0:10:55.760 --> 0:10:58.040 I have so much anxiety going on social media. Even 0:10:58.080 --> 0:11:01.280 this gives me anxiety, like because I feel like if 0:11:01.280 --> 0:11:04.280 I say like, or if I don't speak perfectly, if 0:11:04.280 --> 0:11:06.160 I don't get my point across in a specific amount 0:11:06.160 --> 0:11:09.080 of sentences, then I'm like gonna lose. 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:11.160 That's what's been built up in my head. 0:11:11.480 --> 0:11:13.120 But we bring winners on here. 0:11:14.960 --> 0:11:15.840 And we don't give a fuck. 0:11:16.040 --> 0:11:20.960 We don't give this is we're entertaining ourselves. 0:11:22.360 --> 0:11:24.319 This is a safe don't give a space. 0:11:26.160 --> 0:11:26.480 You got a. 0:11:26.480 --> 0:11:32.079 Crown, you know. Though, Like, even though there was all 0:11:32.080 --> 0:11:35.400 that pressure, I did. I'm not trying to I mean, 0:11:35.640 --> 0:11:37.080 I'll brag, but I. 0:11:37.000 --> 0:11:39.920 Did win Almost every year I competed because I was 0:11:40.040 --> 0:11:43.760 just myself, Like I would make funny ass faces on stage, 0:11:43.960 --> 0:11:45.240 like I would do a lot of the ship that 0:11:45.280 --> 0:11:48.680 the other girls were too scared to do, which rightfully so, 0:11:48.800 --> 0:11:51.240 because the whole thing is about being perfect. But I 0:11:51.840 --> 0:11:54.640 remember one time I went into an interview and I 0:11:54.640 --> 0:11:58.240 was probably like seven, and they have two minute rounds, 0:11:58.280 --> 0:11:59.800 so you literally go around you all two minutes with 0:11:59.800 --> 0:12:01.720 each judge and they ask you one or two questions 0:12:02.320 --> 0:12:04.080 and you have to basically give them like your entire 0:12:04.120 --> 0:12:05.720 personality within those two questions. 0:12:05.559 --> 0:12:06.640 But also be perfect. 0:12:06.920 --> 0:12:10.120 So while I'm talking to them, one of the judges 0:12:10.160 --> 0:12:12.160 asked me, what do you like to do for fun? 0:12:12.480 --> 0:12:16.360 And I said, I love to talk. Stay quiet for 0:12:16.360 --> 0:12:18.280 the rest of the two minutes, and the next judge 0:12:18.320 --> 0:12:20.440 was like, what are you doing your spare time? And 0:12:20.480 --> 0:12:25.120 I said, talk, just stop talking. I probably did that 0:12:25.120 --> 0:12:27.560 to every single judge and I still won that year. 0:12:28.160 --> 0:12:29.559 I think it's because I was just They found it 0:12:29.640 --> 0:12:31.880 charming that I just like said, I love to talk 0:12:31.920 --> 0:12:32.439 about it. 0:12:32.520 --> 0:12:38.480 Real because everybody has their their prop answers that were 0:12:38.480 --> 0:12:41.360 given to them by their mom to make sure you 0:12:41.400 --> 0:12:44.240 say this, and I do. And you were like, to 0:12:45.600 --> 0:12:50.960 my poor mom, I want to talk talk told Wels, Wow. 0:12:51.280 --> 0:12:54.559 I said, you give me a good topic early. 0:12:55.040 --> 0:12:57.240 Yeah, how many years were your passions? 0:12:58.080 --> 0:13:02.240 From four to like fifteen, four to fifteen? 0:13:02.840 --> 0:13:06.480 I'm sorry, what, Yeah, this is a real thing. She's 0:13:06.559 --> 0:13:09.200 really I had no idea. I thought just the little 0:13:09.240 --> 0:13:11.080 baby girls do it for a couple of years and 0:13:11.120 --> 0:13:12.120 then it's on something. 0:13:13.960 --> 0:13:15.080 It seemed like miss Universe. 0:13:15.280 --> 0:13:17.000 Yeah, because because I had an ex that was in 0:13:17.080 --> 0:13:19.600 a in a pageant and I helped her train for 0:13:19.640 --> 0:13:22.359 a pageant and then did music for the pageant. 0:13:22.600 --> 0:13:29.320 And there was a pageant. Yea, I didn't know. I 0:13:29.360 --> 0:13:35.480 didn't know. 0:13:35.640 --> 0:13:38.520 I didn't know that that was the thing. It was 0:13:38.559 --> 0:13:41.000 like a local pageant and I was like, what, so 0:13:41.040 --> 0:13:43.400 what am I singing for? And I did the music 0:13:43.480 --> 0:13:45.559 for the local pageant. It was like, and she didn't win, 0:13:45.800 --> 0:13:48.120 I was and you did the music? 0:13:48.559 --> 0:13:51.640 Did the music? Did you feel place that? 0:13:51.920 --> 0:13:54.200 Did you feel like that was a personal attack on you? 0:13:54.200 --> 0:13:54.960 No? I didn't. 0:13:55.000 --> 0:13:56.880 I felt like I felt like it was an attack 0:13:56.960 --> 0:13:59.559 on her all like the work she did, and she 0:13:59.760 --> 0:14:01.679 got skinny and lost her cheeks, and. 0:14:04.120 --> 0:14:04.960 So you're doing. 0:14:04.760 --> 0:14:07.920 Pageants and all of these things. Mom says you're a star. 0:14:08.120 --> 0:14:09.920 Eighteen months, you're already doing. 0:14:09.880 --> 0:14:12.080 Sixteen boy sixteen sixteen months? 0:14:12.480 --> 0:14:12.720 Early? 0:14:12.920 --> 0:14:13.480 What did I said? 0:14:13.480 --> 0:14:15.760 It was early eighteen eighteen. He just has bad man. 0:14:18.240 --> 0:14:19.040 Doing runs. 0:14:19.120 --> 0:14:23.240 ABC even made up a whole new ABC melody, but 0:14:23.400 --> 0:14:23.720 this do. 0:14:23.640 --> 0:14:27.920 You remember the melody? 0:14:29.240 --> 0:14:31.720 When is the singing recognized? 0:14:35.640 --> 0:14:41.080 I think actually my stardom was recognized first because everyone 0:14:41.120 --> 0:14:43.720 would always like to my mom, all my family, people 0:14:43.760 --> 0:14:45.520 that would just meet me, they would just be. 0:14:45.480 --> 0:14:48.040 Like, she's a star. Oh my god, your daughter's a star. 0:14:48.160 --> 0:14:51.240 Like it was always about like how hyper I was, 0:14:51.320 --> 0:14:54.920 and like how I guess how real I was, And 0:14:56.000 --> 0:14:59.320 so I think it started with that sort of effect. 0:14:59.400 --> 0:15:01.880 And then also, you know the sixty month old thing, 0:15:02.760 --> 0:15:06.280 and I honestly say, I don't think I really had 0:15:06.280 --> 0:15:10.120 a choice, Like I never really it was just always 0:15:10.160 --> 0:15:11.360 something that was a part of me. It was like 0:15:11.400 --> 0:15:16.000 speaking a second language, you know. So being in performing 0:15:16.080 --> 0:15:19.240 arts school. I went to performing arts school from second 0:15:19.520 --> 0:15:23.800 to fourth grade, and then fifth grade I was homeschooled, 0:15:23.840 --> 0:15:27.080 but then I was going to another performing art school 0:15:27.080 --> 0:15:29.680 like on the side for just the performing arts part, 0:15:30.400 --> 0:15:35.040 and then middle school went to another performing arts school, Sport. 0:15:35.320 --> 0:15:39.280 Yeah, it grew up a musical theater. Everything I've been. 0:15:39.320 --> 0:15:41.160 Doing this trained. 0:15:41.320 --> 0:15:45.320 Yeah, it's still learning so much every day. 0:15:45.880 --> 0:15:51.040 But that's the thing about music, theater, all these different things. 0:15:52.040 --> 0:15:57.760 You never stopped learning. It's always something new, it's always evolving. So, 0:15:58.320 --> 0:16:02.080 like you said, there's the early on stuff, but you 0:16:02.120 --> 0:16:04.120 continue to learn as you go along in this. 0:16:04.240 --> 0:16:05.320 Thing that we have. 0:16:05.480 --> 0:16:09.880 And then especially when you become a professional, because just 0:16:10.000 --> 0:16:13.120 doing it for the love and the purity of music 0:16:13.240 --> 0:16:15.920 or theater is one thing, but then doing it to 0:16:15.960 --> 0:16:18.000 pay your bills the whole. 0:16:19.840 --> 0:16:20.080 World. 0:16:20.720 --> 0:16:25.080 Yeah, learning that was something I really That's that was 0:16:25.120 --> 0:16:26.040 hard to learn. 0:16:26.640 --> 0:16:27.640 That's never easy. 0:16:28.280 --> 0:16:31.880 That's never easy because it's just it gets thrown at 0:16:31.920 --> 0:16:36.240 you because it goes from I'm just singing because I 0:16:36.240 --> 0:16:39.240 can sing, and then people enjoy my singing till somebody 0:16:39.320 --> 0:16:42.320 is like I can make some money with her or 0:16:42.360 --> 0:16:46.080 on her or off her, or however that goes. And 0:16:46.120 --> 0:16:48.360 then as the artist, you have to find it in 0:16:48.400 --> 0:16:50.760 yourself to say, hey, I need to learn this ship too. 0:16:52.320 --> 0:16:53.920 And that's when it gets tricky. 0:16:53.560 --> 0:16:56.000 In this business. It's tough because as artists, I think 0:16:56.000 --> 0:17:00.840 we all have bumped our heads in some some form 0:17:00.840 --> 0:17:04.639 of fashion. You know what I'm saying, finding that lesson 0:17:05.080 --> 0:17:06.360 or throughout that lesson. 0:17:06.840 --> 0:17:10.040 That's your friend, ain't your friend? That's your friend? 0:17:10.080 --> 0:17:13.640 As your friend that that that that next check may. 0:17:13.480 --> 0:17:14.720 Not come right? 0:17:15.280 --> 0:17:16.960 Did the friend and put their name on the on 0:17:17.040 --> 0:17:18.400 the song that they're right? 0:17:20.280 --> 0:17:21.960 It's so much to worry. 0:17:24.320 --> 0:17:30.680 If I could make my eye twitch, would twitch? 0:17:30.720 --> 0:17:32.120 I have you been through some time? 0:17:34.160 --> 0:17:34.919 This is what it is? 0:17:34.960 --> 0:17:36.120 Though? Is what it is? 0:17:36.359 --> 0:17:39.560 When is your When is your first moment of like, Okay, 0:17:40.160 --> 0:17:42.720 now I'm getting a real check for this, and now 0:17:42.760 --> 0:17:44.760 it's time to really like the rubber. 0:17:44.480 --> 0:17:45.440 Is starting to meet the road. 0:17:48.600 --> 0:17:56.359 I think everything that came with X doing something was 0:17:56.440 --> 0:18:00.359 when I really started to be like, oh okay, my 0:18:00.400 --> 0:18:04.479 rent doesn't seem so scary. Now that's cool. So X 0:18:04.640 --> 0:18:06.720 was X was doing things. 0:18:06.880 --> 0:18:10.200 Was it like you had other situations before that, like 0:18:10.359 --> 0:18:13.080 as in your come up teenage years, the whole thing and. 0:18:13.440 --> 0:18:14.240 Kids bop. 0:18:16.000 --> 0:18:18.399 But no checks at kids but not for me. 0:18:18.440 --> 0:18:20.080 The niggas ain't got no checks at kids. 0:18:20.080 --> 0:18:23.280 But sorry, jog on blast, Like this was a very 0:18:23.320 --> 0:18:25.840 different time now, But at. 0:18:25.640 --> 0:18:30.440 That time, yeah, I was not. Fuck I'm just gonna 0:18:30.440 --> 0:18:30.719 say it. 0:18:31.119 --> 0:18:33.920 I was not officially a kids Bop kid, even though 0:18:33.920 --> 0:18:37.520 I was traveling under for the live tours that we 0:18:37.520 --> 0:18:40.960 were doing. I was traveling, so I wasn't officially a 0:18:41.000 --> 0:18:42.840 kid's wop kid. And there was like some racist shit 0:18:42.920 --> 0:18:45.639 that was going on behind the scenes. So no, I 0:18:45.680 --> 0:18:48.359 did not get paid as much as the other kids. 0:18:48.880 --> 0:18:53.399 Remember the box, Yes, so the box this video channel 0:18:53.400 --> 0:18:55.720 where you could call an order of the order a video. 0:18:55.800 --> 0:18:57.920 You could pay like ten to fifteen cents to order 0:18:57.960 --> 0:19:00.560 a video that was more than that this morning twenty 0:19:00.560 --> 0:19:01.040 five cents. 0:19:01.200 --> 0:19:02.920 No, No, it was some dollars, like some dollars or 0:19:02.920 --> 0:19:04.000 something like to order video. 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:07.320 Okay, so you order video and all of the video, 0:19:07.840 --> 0:19:11.320 all of the songs are clean. So there was n 0:19:11.480 --> 0:19:13.960 w A on the box. And so when I would 0:19:13.960 --> 0:19:16.160 go to school, when I would go to school wrapping 0:19:16.320 --> 0:19:18.639 n w A. Everybody would laugh at me. 0:19:18.640 --> 0:19:21.480 Because because you have seen clean, I only knew the 0:19:21.480 --> 0:19:28.240 clean kids, so sad man. 0:19:28.359 --> 0:19:29.680 And sweet at the same. 0:19:33.359 --> 0:19:35.080 I come here and raps. 0:19:35.320 --> 0:19:50.080 I missed till the brother, you know, like get this, nigga. 0:19:50.440 --> 0:19:51.240 Can't hang with us. 0:19:54.280 --> 0:19:59.880 Damn about the anymore? 0:20:00.240 --> 0:20:01.119 Did you say Bible? 0:20:01.440 --> 0:20:06.400 So kids star They got labels and record deals, yeah, 0:20:07.040 --> 0:20:10.320 paying people, and they did not know what to do. 0:20:10.840 --> 0:20:13.600 No, I had no idea until they dropped me. 0:20:15.520 --> 0:20:17.120 When you were signs for for two years. 0:20:16.960 --> 0:20:22.399 Though, yeah, so in that time, I was just I was. 0:20:23.320 --> 0:20:25.199 I moved to LA with my eighteen year old best 0:20:25.200 --> 0:20:26.160 friend when I was sixteen. 0:20:26.960 --> 0:20:30.600 You came out to LA at sixteen by yourself, by yourself. 0:20:31.000 --> 0:20:32.440 Yeah, And I was going back and forth for a 0:20:32.560 --> 0:20:34.840 year already, pretty much like since I. 0:20:34.760 --> 0:20:36.760 Got the record. The label was in La. 0:20:38.240 --> 0:20:42.280 Yeah, No, well in New York most go to because 0:20:42.280 --> 0:20:44.320 it was closer because I'm from Arizona. So it was 0:20:44.320 --> 0:20:48.080 like my stepdad would come and drive me out. I 0:20:48.160 --> 0:20:50.320 finally like nobody told me like, oh you have to 0:20:50.320 --> 0:20:52.200 get a manager, Oh you have to do these things. 0:20:51.880 --> 0:20:57.760 And so I was in a session one day and 0:20:57.920 --> 0:21:00.600 the person was like, do you have management? And I 0:21:00.640 --> 0:21:04.680 was like no, and she was like, let me put 0:21:04.720 --> 0:21:07.840 you in contact with my managers because you need somebody 0:21:07.880 --> 0:21:09.920 to like talk to and to talk for you. 0:21:10.480 --> 0:21:11.680 And I was like okay. 0:21:11.800 --> 0:21:17.720 So I met with these managers super cool, and then 0:21:17.800 --> 0:21:22.159 they got me in touch with an agent, and I 0:21:22.320 --> 0:21:25.000 was just like so confused, Like there was so much 0:21:25.040 --> 0:21:27.880